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More than a decade later, I still hate my mother for what she did to me as a child [deleted] | self.offmychest |
I feel like jumping out the window. Bipolar 1 with psychosis [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
I dont feel happy with my life. I can make it better, but i dont want to tell anyone how i feel. [deleted] | self.depression |
Fucked up and put myself in position mentally that I had worked so hard to get out of. I don't know why I do this to myself. | self.depression |
Anyone success with Lexapro? I recently had to go on meds due to my anxiety getting worse. Before I dealt pretty well with lots of workouts but right now I just need the extra help.
My doc prescribed Lexapro and I was wondering if anyone had success with it. I know it takes about 4 weeks to see if it works or not, am ... | self.Anxiety |
My Boyfriend Talks Daily About Suicide -- Won't Go To Hospital [deleted] | self.depression |
Thinking about ending it soon I suffer from moderate depression, social anxiety, generalized anxiety and PTSD. I attended a residential treatment center after years of isolation. I finally felt connected to people. I finally felt seen. But of course that time came to an end. The people who had become so important to me... | self.SuicideWatch |
I know that, one day everyone that I love and care about is going to die and it terrifies me. [deleted] | self.offmychest |
Buspar and (hypo)mania? My pdoc had me try buspar for anxiety last week. Within 2 days of starting it, at a low dose(5mg 3x a day), I was the most euphoric I've ever been. I was skipping instead of walking, I couldn't stay on topic at all(my friend described me as being "squirrely," I threw stuff at another friend for ... | self.bipolar |
I feel so alone. All I want to do is disappear. Whenever I think about going on I can’t. | self.SuicideWatch |
Kinda having a mental breakdown The new year is already stressing me out. Last night was alright, and I was trying my best to stay positive. I woke up this morning feeling really good and motivated. But after yet another lonely, boring day I realized that I'm reaching too high because nothing's gonna change. I spent th... | self.depression |
Someone at work has been posting on Facebook a lot that she's dealing with depression I don't talk to her much
I don't talk to anyone tbh
But the fact Im going through it all I kinda want to message her and just say I actually understand but then I think I'm being annoying
What do you think I should do | self.depression |
TMS, successful or unsuccessful? How long did it take to notice the effects? I'm on my 11th TMS treatment of 30 for my depression and wondering how long it takes to notice it being successful or not? Was it worth it? | self.depression |
Gaba/Neurontin with Seroquel So I was on Lamictal and Seroquel (Seroquel mostly to help me sleep.) We figured out that I have crazy anxiety so right now I'm tapering off Lamictal and going up to 200mg gabapeptin (100mg twice a day.)
And right now while I feel nice and relaxed I'm also a little dopey. Like best way ... | self.bipolar |
No one wants to hang with me I have friends but do I really ? I’m never called up to hang out with and I never really get the pretty girls except once that was fun fooling around lol. But all the rest true. I always screw up when I have something good. | self.depression |
I had to fill out one of those depression tests today... And I scored in the 'severe' range. This lead to the following exchange between my Doctors and I.
Doctor: This is a really high score.
Me: Thank you.
Thankfully, I saw the funny side it in it's awkwardness...and I hope you guys do too! Sometimes, the only way ... | self.depression |
I Tracked The amount of time I spent in an anxious state During one week I thought I had had a productive week. I had lapses where anxiety paralyzed me. During these episodes, I can't work, relax or connect with other.
I roughly tracked my time spent in an anxious state; this accumulated to 19 hours for a week. I was... | self.Anxiety |
Accurately tracking in daylio during manic/hypomanic episodes? **TL;DR: Basically wanting feedback on how I currently track in daylio. How do you all accurately track during your manic/hypomanic episodes when you're in them but can't tell until you're no longer manic/hypomanic? Wanting tips and advice so I can have acc... | self.bipolar |
Fuck bad drivers Fuck all of them. If there's one thing that I dislike about big cities is bad, dangerous drivers. Yesterday I was on the highway with my bf (he was driving, I don't have a licence) and this idiot decided to brake. I have no idea why, he just decided to stop his car on the highway. Good thing that my bf... | self.offmychest |
i am so tired of being poor and sick aka why am I writing this [deleted] | self.depression |
Unsure if I'm bipolar/borderline/neither... I know no one can make a diagnosis except a doctor, but I was just wondering what others experiences are I have been on mood stabilizers for about 2 months now. They have really seemed to help me, and I have been practicing meditation/DBT/mindfulness(which goes along with the... | self.bipolar |
Is there actually a reason to live? So yeah, I just had a breakdown and im thinking to myself why won't i just commit suicide? Like i won't have to deal with my friends that talk shit about me and they dont care about me, and if you're gonna say that "Yes, people do care about me" Then my answer is No. The only person ... | self.depression |
Does anyone feel like life is full of mistakes on repeat? The same foolish mistakes again and again, and each time it's less redeemable and less recoverable. | self.depression |
Ended up missing work yesterday because of my depression/anxiety now I feel bad I called in sick yesterday to work and now I feel bad for doing it. I felt so depressed and my anxiety kept me up. I felt anxious and not real. I hate when my anxiety takes over and it keeps me from living. And in my case just simply going... | self.depression |
I feel so lonely I'm 16 years old
Too young to die and all that shit I know
Every problem in my life either stems from or is worsened by, loneliness
A while ago, I bought a rope, tied a noose and hid it away
I've come close so many times to trying to hang myself
The only thing that has stopped me is the fact that I do... | self.SuicideWatch |
Mild social anxiety getting in the way of work So I need to earn some extra cash. Well not need, but want. It will help. My university campus is involved in JoyRun, a service in which volunteers make trips to fast food places for students and deliver. I have delivered a little bit before and done just fine. But I've be... | self.Anxiety |
Once I'm off to college, I'll kill myself. And that's even if I make it that far. I already am on the verge anyways, I'll genuinely be surprised if I make it that far. But if I do, I'll definitely kill myself then. Living on my own with someone I don't know will be the end of me. And even if THAT doesn't make me kill m... | self.SuicideWatch |
I need to know what is wrong with me [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
I had to make this post. It's 12:10 AM and I have to get up in about 6 hours.
I'm feeling really low and hurting right now, as loneliness is always so much worse in the evenings when im by myself.
Scrolling through my twitter, I refuse to make any sad posts on there or other social media like i did when i was in high ... | self.depression |
Are some of these Un-normal reactions to Bupropion SR? Generic Wellbutrin SR [deleted] | self.bipolar |
My mother called me heartless when I didn't cry [deleted] | self.depression |
I'm trying but I'm lost Sorry, I don't know how long this will be :P. I'm anxious to post this as well, sigh. I'm going to mention I'm in my last year of high school so I'm trying to focus on revising and work too.
I have depression and anxiety and a couple months ago I was ready to commit suicide. I no longer self ha... | self.SuicideWatch |
I don’t know if i’m still depressed. I don’t feel numb or sad, but i feel unmotivated, unfulfilled, blank and flat. I don’t want to end it all, but i don’t care if i live or die. I can almost feel pain and numbness creeping into me sometimes, but it just goes away as soon as it came. I honestly don’t even know what i ... | self.depression |
I am sick of being sick, is it sickness or is it just me? [deleted] | self.bipolar |
30 days on, no change. I posted here a little over a month ago, asking how I could go on. Somehow 30 days has passed and I feel just the same, perhaps even a bit worse.
I am living in a now freezing and illegal van. I lost my job due to my depression and anxiety and have little to no income for the essentials. Togeth... | self.SuicideWatch |
Does anyone else get told that "you've made so much progress" yet that's clearly untrue? I saw a doctor I hadn't seen for two years recently and she told me I had made so much progress... in the two years since I saw her I have lost my job, my friends, my plans, my body is covered in horrendous self harm scars, I live ... | self.depression |
Tired of life at 17 I have the urge to kill myself. I don’t think i actually want to do it. I spend all my nights trying to distract myself from cutting and thinking about suicide. I’m tired of not being happy and fighting this urge like i don’t see any benefits i guess?? ill be dead so the aftermath doesn’t matter to ... | self.SuicideWatch |
I got my IQ tested and I feel bad about myself I took the wechsler IQ test my mom even paid 300 dollars nearly and now I found out my IQ is 99
psychiatrist said 100 is the top 50percent and i'm not even average i'm below average
I cried after I went home after finding out
do I even have a chance at life with thi... | self.depression |
The depression ‘chain of events’. Onset of anxiety> “something’s wrong with me”> onset of depression> “shit this isn’t good, what’s happening?”> smoke weed> grades slip> family notices> talk therapy> psychiatrist> weak meds> friends notice> alcohol abuse> grades get worse> family... | self.depression |
I feel like i dont matter. I just dont have a purpose, we recently moved from my old country to a new one and i just dont have a reason to continue. I have no hobbies, motivation, a girlfriend, all i fo everyday is sit at school and take my language lessons who would care if i gave up. | self.depression |
I think, it's over for me. The only thing that had been keeping from doing it was the prospect of hurting my parents.
I think I have crossed that barrier now.
I'm fed up of my failures, and of my loneliness.
I wish I had one friend I could call at this hour and talk about this.
I've penned the letter.
Why am I post... | self.SuicideWatch |
Set a Wedding Date, a moment of happiness Took this next step that I thought I'd never see. Who knows how it will turn out, but it was a moment of happiness between us. Even though I battle the symptoms of Bipolar Disorder everyday, I realize my life is better now than it used to be. Mood swings, bad depression, low... | self.bipolar |
Hugs I can't remember the last time I hugged someone. | self.depression |
somebody please save me from this hell that i cannot escape 😭 | self.depression |
Rejected for job Preface: I was diagnosed with anxiety, depression, and OCD at age 11. I've been really struggling as of late due to family and financial issues.
So, the rejection. The small organization I had my first job at was hiring again. I interviewed and spoke with my old boss. Today I found out I was rejected... | self.depression |
I cannot wait for death's sweet embrace My anxiety and depression have all but killed me
I'm 31, have never had a friend or girlfriend, live in my parent's basement playing PS4 all day, see a therapist, haven't worked in three years, and dtopped out of university 11 years ago with no want to go back
I've accepted tha... | self.depression |
It’s actually pathetic how half of my mental health is tied to his attractive I look to the opposite sex and dating (x-posted) And I don’t even find most men attractive. As in most men don’t catch my interest at all
I don’t know if this is the right place for it, but it’s hitting me that half the reason I’m deeply unh... | self.depression |
Opening up to friends I want to talk to someone about the fact that I've been struggling lately, but I'm ashamed to admit how I feel. Then I think about how incredibly selfish it would be to burden someone with my feelings, and why would I even consider taking up someone's time like that, and I feel even more ashamed. ... | self.depression |
Would mean a lot if atleast one person would read this (I know this is really long but it would mean a lot if you could read the whole thing and give some feedback)Im a 17 year old male. Im not sure how i should feel anymore, some days I’m happy and enjoy simple things, other days i feel so worthless and depressed i do... | self.depression |
Gf having a breakdown please help My girlfriend is having a really hard time right now, but I don't know what to do.
She's really stressed under a huge workload, and her parents don't give her an easy time about it. She just had a small breakdown, ranting at me over text. This has been building for a while despite my... | self.Anxiety |
This might sound stupid... but often I tell myself: "The best you can do for yourself right now is go to sleep". And it actually helps. You have all these worries and they keep you awake and all that stupid shit. So often I say: "the best you can do is sleeping right now" (because sleeping routine is the basis of a com... | self.Anxiety |
Why am I such a sad person? Like people tell me that I'm pretty and cute but I just can't see it. Like I look in the mirror and I just get depressed and start crying. Like seriously I question every moment of the day if I will ever find someone. Years ago I posted a pic of myself on yahoo answers and everyone had to te... | self.depression |
I have a great idea for a book, catchy music ideas, but all I feel like doing is sleeping and watching Netflix and wanting to let everything be over [deleted] | self.depression |
People I know are already making plans for New Years Eve and I'm just here knowing I will be alone I already know I will be alone because nobody will invite me to go anywhere and even if they do I would have to say no because I'm too anxious. It's really frustating because I'd love to be a normal boy who gets drunk and... | self.depression |
Lapse or hallucination? Something weird happened to me today. I was in the kitchen with my mom and she asked me to bring the salt to the table. I was in front of two plates: mine and my grandma's. I supposed my mom had taken hers and my dad's already. So I was there in the kitchen looking for the salt when I heard my g... | self.bipolar |
I'm trying to do it right now why is it so hard It's scary and fucking hard but I'm ready I'm trying to do it | self.SuicideWatch |
I wish I was back at the mental hospital Just so that I don't have to deal with the bullshit of life....
I swear everyday I get closer and closer to kms.... | self.depression |
Do your panic attacks get stronger, when you have them less often? [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
I promised I wouldn't First off, don't you dare tell my how I need help, or how bad I am. I already know.
I promised I wouldn't.
And I had to fuck up band practice of all things. And hurt one of the people I love most. And I want to apologize. I can't. I also want to go back and shoot. "Is it your anxiety?" You kne... | self.offmychest |
My life could have been so much better But since I'm a piece of shit, I've lost so many opportunities because of lack of information, or because of fear, mostly fear, or simply because I wasn't interested at the time. One example is this girl at high school, she was obviously into me and i did absolutely NOTHING about ... | self.offmychest |
everything that happens is just another reminder that i was raped and that my mother doesn't even care about it [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
22 year old and I still can't stand up to my controlling dad A point in my childhood, my dad was the hyper-controlling parent. Not that there is anything wrong with regulating your kids, but not to that level where you need to manage even every petty little detail. I never really talked back to him because I know that ... | self.offmychest |
Lowering the bar It's consolation that there are still women willing to let me fuck them for money. | self.offmychest |
i know what i have to do and do it i feel like a stick of butter is resting in my lungs.
all this time you've been better, i think, but i still can't get close again. as stupid as it sounds, it really is like a magnet pushing us apart now, where it used to be pulling us towards each other. i'm sorry, i guess, that i'... | self.offmychest |
COFFEEEEEEEEEEE Drinking coffeeeeeeeeeee, my thoughts are starting to raaaaaaace, I'm feeling fucking greeeeeeeeat, I'M SO FUCKING PRODUCTIVE!
Drinking coffeeeeeeeeeeee like a shot feels amaaaaaaaazing. I might just be a bit worked up at the moment. LOL God! Why did I cut down on my caffeine consumption, again? This f... | self.bipolar |
Life is just a whore. I fucking hate you dumb whore, I fucking do good for nothing piece of shit, fuck offff.
You teach people to be nice, and then fuck them up. FUCKKKK YOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU double sided bitch.
If I ever find you I'm going to kill you without any doubt. | self.depression |
I always feel alone, If someone would kill me, that’d be greatttt [deleted] | self.depression |
I want to be happy, but I just can't [deleted] | self.depression |
i need a friend. i feel like im drowning and trying to bail myself out with a straw. I don't know who else to talk to and I'm not even sure what to say. I just today decided to type depression into the search bar and found you all.
I'm supposed to raise my two children, but I don't want to get out of bed. My husband ... | self.depression |
Addictive to depression? I don't know how to explain this but feeling depressed gives me hope and at the same time it feels good, i feel unique, it makes me feel special in some twisted way, its like it gives my life a purpouse, i kinda like to feel sad and listen to music at 4am thinking about how shitty life is, abou... | self.depression |
How do you open up to the ones you love [deleted] | self.depression |
30 years after Prozac arrived, we still buy the lie that chemical imbalances cause depression https://qz.com/1162154/30-years-after-prozac-arrived-we-still-buy-the-lie-that-chemical-imbalances-cause-depression/
Interesting read, curious what everyone's thoughts are on the article. Recently diagnosed with Dysthymia w/ ... | self.depression |
My anxiety/ocd has been really awful recently Ive been doing lots of rituals and compulsions since my obsessive thoughts are outta control. What would u do? I have this thing where I hate saving texts if something upsets me that day. I feel like I have to delete them since keeping them somehow "preserves" the negativit... | self.Anxiety |
Delusions and confirmation and weirdness there's been a recent joke rising online about 'the fbi agent monitoring me on my laptop/phone' and i've never laughed at them, even smiled. i realised today that it's because that's been one of my multiple paranoid delusions my whole adult life, probably even younger thanks to ... | self.bipolar |
I (22m) just quit the best payimg Job I've ever had. [deleted] | self.offmychest |
Why does it still feel this way after more than 2 years and can't seem to forget you. We started in chemistry class in high school and graduated as friends. Two years later I somehow just messaged you on facebook and it turned into a music discussion. We shared our music and ended it with us going out. I tried to kiss ... | self.offmychest |
Exercise Routine Help? (I'm having a very bad day, so I apologize for the petty rant you're about to read)
Like a lot of people here, I feel very stuck. Stuck in a loop of unemployment, which means that I don't have any money to move out of my parents house, or for decent food or a gym membership. Because I find it ea... | self.depression |
I miss her I had a very special friend that I made in High school, time went by and I developed a strong crush on her but i know she doesn't feel the same for me and we stopped talking all of a sudden. Point is that I miss her, and I know it's not a good idea to try to talk with her because she doesn't feel the same wa... | self.offmychest |
Does anyone else have a love-hate relationship with social media because of your depression? [deleted] | self.depression |
Anyone else experience leg/foot tremors? I often feel tremors in my legs/feet that make it feel like the ground beneath me is moving either up or down.
I often get them in situations that aren’t making me anxious at all, but then I’ll get a tremor and that’s what will make me get anxious.
Anyone else experience simi... | self.Anxiety |
Headaches After Going Out Hi!
So I have a type of OCD anxiety which occurs in social situations or just about in any situation in which I am in the same space as other people including public transport, classrooms, cafes, etc. So I'm currently focusing a lot on overcoming my huge avoidance issues I had since 2015 and ... | self.Anxiety |
I honestly wish that, one of these days when I wake up, that I end up at some point in the past when I was happy. I know it's never going to happen, but I'm so tired of dealing with this mental torture day after day. | self.depression |
I’m done letting myself be disappointed by women I like. [deleted] | self.offmychest |
The Misunderstood Millennial It's as if, in our western culture, living to be "perfect" has become the norm. Where you want to take time to improve yourself, but have trailing thoughts of "falling behind" and the feeling of regret floods your system; the rest of your day is filled with anxious thoughts or the anticipat... | self.SuicideWatch |
i feel weird about what my doctor did to me when i was a little kid, my gp at the time (who was a male) used to peek under my underwear when i went to see him and looking back on it, it makes me very uncomfortable to think about.
ive heard it's a normal thing for some doctors to do, but i still feel weird about it and... | self.offmychest |
How to deal with work anxiety? Lately i feel like i have been thrust into situations that i am absolutely not ready for.
i keep getting put in sitations that i have no training yet i am expected to manage things on a way higher level then i am. its frustrating because i feel increasingly isolated at work while expect... | self.Anxiety |
Uh huh, yeah. Sup?
So, I WAS coming here to offload a bunch of stuff in regards to my growing bad circumstances, but after drifting on the forums for a good six or some some-odd minutes, I've come to agree with what I see. I have no money, I've been looking for a job to no avail, talking to a recruiter to join back up... | self.offmychest |
I’ve been lonely for so long to the point where I actually like it. This sounds stupid, but do any of you guys feel the same way? | self.depression |
I’m not the daughter my parents deserve. To put things into perspective I’m 32 and my parents are in their mid 50s.
I feel so worthless that I can’t hack life being an adult. I should be living by my self and have a boyfriend or husband by now. I know my mom wants grand children but I don’t have anything like that in... | self.depression |
I Constantly Think About When I Was a Child Sorry if this post is unstructured but I just feel like rambling. Every single day I think back to how happy I was as a child. I loved life. I had a 100 in every subject in school, I played sports, I had a ton of friends, and life was just good. What's even sadder is that I'm... | self.depression |
S.O. has projected anger at me I realize this is a normal event for most people, but given our relationship, this is not a normal event. She's been very understanding and patient with me, but yesterday she exploded at me for no reason. We're currently going through runs of communication, but her explanation was "it was... | self.Anxiety |
I'm a mess of job-related anxieties Hi everyone -- longtime lurker, first time poster. Could use some help here.
I've suffered from varying degrees of general anxiety related to my job for the past three years. I'm a lawyer and I've been at the same firm for about seven years. At first it was great, and in many ways ... | self.Anxiety |
I'm popular online, but anonymously Ok, I'll be a fucking loser saying this but I own meme pages, one with 50k likes. I stay at home mostly and hardly go out. I just post and watch the likes roll in, it fuels my dopamine, the same effect of smoking, I dont smoke tho. But really, I think that social media and making peo... | self.depression |
I feel like I'm not respected. Or needed. People seem to think they can push me around and take advantage of me with no consequences. Largely because they can. I'm ignored and pushed out of people's lives without as much as a word to why. People close to me don't keep their word, respect my opinions on anything, or tru... | self.depression |
I think my life has gone on long enough I think it started ever since I could think ahead. I've lived the majority of my life thinking to myself that life is pointless and if I had a choice to be born I would have said no. People are always telling me that I should live because eventually something will come that makes... | self.SuicideWatch |
I want to kill myself... I can't handle anxiety I wasn't sure where to post but does it matter... Lately, I've been depressed af because my anxiety is getting worse, what is the point of living if I can't leave my house and do stuff. I am 19 and I want to do so many stuff, but it seems that I can't. I am thinking of ta... | self.depression |
Taking hydroxyzine and buspirone I've had anxiety since I was a teen. Been through many deaths in family and 10yrs of a physical and mentally abusive relationship. Just got put on these two meds but don't understand why I'm on something that is basically benadryl when I'm having panic attacks. It just makes me dizzy. I... | self.Anxiety |
I think I'm depressed because I don't have a girlfriend. Every year around September (my birth month) my depression comes around. It normally lasts until March, and then I feel great.
I think it comes from me not having a girlfriend. My closest friends around me all have their partners...2 are recently married and t... | self.depression |
I told a friend I was feeling really anxious and she sent me something. I texted a friend that I was feeling anxious. I said “[My anxiety] is a combination of feeling stupid, egotistical, and general rudeness. I have no idea what I'm doing in chemistry class. I feel like all of my class are falling to the wayside. I fe... | self.Anxiety |
I give up. I don't know what to do anymore. Everything i have spent my time building up is crumbling. All the friends i have made are leaving because of my depression and alcohol problem. I am failing college because i am nowhere near skilled enough to be there. Physically i have been much worse recently and i constant... | self.depression |
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