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Do you remember a point you wanted to make with your pdoc as soon as you leave their Office? I always try and remember everything that I wanted to talk to them about, but I almost always forget something. Then they wonder why I didn't tell them before. I feel quite air-headed because I never remember to cover EVERYTHIN... | self.bipolar |
(22M) I'm so close to jumping Warning: Contains explicit personal information
As a child, I fantasized about committing suicide. I was the lonely, awkward kid on the playground with no real friends, but I don't think that was the main reason for it. I have borderline Asperger's, so I always felt odd, and like I couldn... | self.SuicideWatch |
I like to hangout with an older than me. Feels different, feels calm, no bullshit crap, meaningful conversation. Not all of them, but mostly. | self.depression |
Made it though. Today being in retail is one of the busiest days of the year. After being up since 8 a.m. yesterday cooking Thanksgiving dinner for my family, going into work at 5 p.m. and being at work until now 1 p.m. CST I made it through today. Without any breakdowns any moments where I felt overwhelmed and even de... | self.depression |
Do you ever start explaining your worries a friend/SO... But sometimes it’s over things that are trivial and not that big of a deal, and then they reassure you by saying “you’re just overthinking it.” And for a second you’re relieved that they understand that overthinking is just something you do sometimes. But then yo... | self.Anxiety |
How do I find support groups (paid or free)? See my dilemma I want to join DBSA meetings in my area, but this girl who went to my high school goes to them. I don't like this girl because she always seems to have threatened people from a young age. I don't understand her and I don't care to understand her because there ... | self.bipolar |
Hi I'm back on r/depression and maybe need some help. Support not advice. I'm very unhealthy-morbid obesity would be an understatement even though I throw up a lot from over eating I STILL gain. Insomnia-woke up so many times in the night. feel anxiety about taking night meds so i push it off. My SO's mad I don't do an... | self.depression |
Big ol' post of how I'm feeling. Would love for some conversation. [deleted] | self.depression |
Isolation Does anyone else isolate themselves from the people that are close to them when your minds a mess and you just want to be better ...
It's so hard because some of my friends don't get it and think I'm being selfish
Idk just wanted some opinions on what people think about this | self.depression |
Can't Hold a Job Longer Than 6 Months I'll make this brief as possible but, I've had a lot on my mind lately. I'm a basket case.
I’m currently 22 years old and I’ve held over 28 jobs just in San Antonio, Texas alone. I’ve worked at Wal-Mart, Southwest Airlines, and various warehouses across the city. I can’t seem to k... | self.depression |
Inklings of depression I’ve recently come to notice that I’ve lost a lot of interest in the things hat I used to love, I no longer partake in my studies, I barely practice my instrument, I never exercise, and most of the time I’m in a sad or bored mood. Like I said, recently I’ve come to notice this, but the last year ... | self.depression |
What do you do when you feel left out by everyone except a few people? Lately I feel like everyone has been ignoring me except for like 4 people. I want to talk to them but I just cant help but think why others wont want to talk to me. I used to talk this group a lot but now it feels like they just exclude me from ever... | self.depression |
Just diagnosed bi polar w/ ptsd.. feel like I'm drowning (story + need help) So last week I finally got myself evaluated, and not only do I have bi polar but I also have PTSD.
I have been struggling for a long time with family issues (abusive narcissist parents), money issues, changing jobs frequently (I am at #6 of t... | self.bipolar |
Wooh my pain is so immense i can tastee it!!!!!! [deleted] | self.depression |
Loneliness and anxiety? hello. so, i've been feeling super lonely lately and i know its a byproduct of my anxiety. i tend to think that i'm worthless and unloveable, and when i catch myself, i try to retrain my thought process. it's working but it doesn't mean i feel less sad, ya know?
like, not that a romantic relat... | self.Anxiety |
Bad intrusive thoughts at work I'm at work and the intrusive thoughts are so bad I can barely think of anything else. There is no one to cover my shift so I can go home so I'm stuck here miserable. Guess I just need to vent. I want to cry the words ringing in my ears are just so terrible and scary. I hate my life some... | self.bipolar |
I can’t keep a job because of anxiety So I’m 20 years old and I can not keep a job because of anxiety. When I get a job I get excited and I think about how I can get my life together but after about a week or two I literally have so much anxiety that I just cry and don’t go to work or cry in the parking lot and sit thi... | self.Anxiety |
Do you still remember your first (hypo)manic episode? And what might have triggered it? Or did it happen seemingly randomly?
To me it felt as if some kind of fog cleared away from my mind all of sudden, I became hypersocial, super easily excited, everything seemed 10 times more interesting and funny, I would get obses... | self.bipolar |
Stay at my job, or leave? I work as a detailer at a bodyshop which I applied to be a painters helper to see if painting was something I want to do. They needed a detailer instead, so to get my foot in the door I accepted. 3 months in and detailing is kicking my ass and to top it off, for me to get to painters helper I ... | self.Anxiety |
My abusive ex boyfriend just got married, and I'm really worried for his new wife. So yesterday I checked the notifications on my phone and saw that my ex-boyfriends brother had requested to follow me on instagram. I went to go look at his profile and saw that the last post were of he and my ex and the caption was cong... | self.offmychest |
My hearing keeps deteriorating, and it is destroying my self-confidence. [deleted] | self.depression |
Anyone else hate going to the dentist. (Trigger warning) I have a dentist appointment scheduled in a couple of weeks with a new dentist. And every time I go to the dentist I feel like absolute shit afterwards.
I had braces from ages 12-17. Which was a giant waste of time and money because I never finished my treatment ... | self.depression |
A poem about where I haven't gone, and what I haven't been and what I am not. A purgatory, of sorts.
Washed in a cleansing anhedonia.
When civil never good.
This is were the not-quite-wicked go.
Is it a sin?
To be careless and unfeeling?
Where do the not-quite-wicked go?
To a land that is pale gray and unremarka... | self.bipolar |
I just want to commit suicide bc of anhedonia Fuck the PT-141 melanocortin. Ive had this only for 1 month and was normal before but I already just want to commit suicide or wish I was dead in a tragedy since thats essentially what happened to me. A tragedy with a peptide gave me anhedonia.
Now I do not want to live. ... | self.SuicideWatch |
[tw self harm] my sister slit her wrists and i'm not looking for pity but it's my fault and don't try to tell me it's not because she told me it is and even before she said it i already knew it
i tried to run away from home and she thought it was because of her so she cut herself with a rusty box cutter and she said i... | self.offmychest |
Hypomania crashed my depressive party and its getting weird Sometimes I just have to vent out, so if you are reading this, thanks.
Been moderately depressive for the last year. Been through a few versions, horrible feelings, no feelings, zombie, suicidal etc. I've been on the floor so I have idea what moderate even me... | self.bipolar |
Wanna delete social media, should I? I feel like I waste way too much time on Facebook, Instagram, and Snapchat and it depresses me. Also I hate seeing snap stories of my friends hanging out and they didn't invite me, or I constantly try to talk to people over snap but all I get is a pic of their shows or some shit. I'... | self.depression |
Generic Lexapro Anyone experience creeping,tingling heat sensations in your skin while taking this? I mainly feel it in my cheeks..
Ive been reading that most side effects subside after a couple weeks. Im hoping this does too? | self.Anxiety |
i wish people actually wanted to be my friend [deleted] | self.offmychest |
Mood stabilizer for BPD and Cyclothymia Hello, my girlfriend has BPD and Cyclothymia and she's worried her psychiatrist isn't very helpful. She started taking oxcarbazepine instead of lamictal and she wants some answers to understand what is best for her.
She has a few questions about oxcarbazepine:
1) Many people su... | self.bipolar |
I losted almost 40 pounds, I was getting at my goal weight and now I feel im not handsome anymore.. Ok so here goes nothing... Im 24[m]
I weighted in may 218 pounds, I started a loosing weight journey that drove me to 188 pounds in august.
I started to talk to this girl who's attracted to me and Im with her. We have ... | self.offmychest |
I want to end it but I don't want to go alone. [removed] | self.SuicideWatch |
Self worth and skin Honestly just to be heard is a blessing in itself because I hate the internet but I am going insane because people look at me and think I am this beautiful shy creature but in reality that bambi stare is one of complete and utter anguish and fear because it is 100% likely in some part of my brain I ... | self.depression |
Do you feel like your family make your depression worse by trying to guilt trip you? I feel worse whenever my family wishes I was normal and how I'm wasting my life. [deleted] | self.depression |
When do you realize? I feel like I may have been in a depressive episode the past few weeks. I'm not sure. Maybe hypomanic. Either or, I feel like I might be going back into mania due to stress and possibly loosing a roof over my head. Thinking straight isn't adding up and im getting weird urges again.
How do I comba... | self.bipolar |
Bored with recovery I realized I hit stability and it's not interesting. I only made it so far into my DBT book. I will pick that back up.
No racing thoughts. No wild projects. Socializing too much but that my self sabotage procrastination tactic.
Who knew being normal could be so... Boring lol
Grateful as all hel... | self.bipolar |
Really tired of feeling like a black sheep. In society, In friendship, In the workplace, and in love.
I lived the majority of my childhood with 5 other kids in a trailer, until I was 14. The situation was complicated...kind of a hers, mine, and ours sort of deal. My mom had re-married, and I was the only child from he... | self.offmychest |
Things were (are?) getting better, now I'm not sure what to do next. What comes after the worst/thick of it? I have been in therapy for about 2 years. I have had an increasingly good relationship with my then therapist, which is rare for me because I have a great deal of trouble opening up in therapy. One of the good t... | self.depression |
Reaching Out Hey all, I’m new to this thread. Here’s my history with depression and what I’m going through right now. I was first diagnosed with depression at the age of seven. My doctor believed the root cause of this was a combination of being bullied in school constantly, and growing up in a household where I witnes... | self.depression |
How to break up with my roommate of 2.5 years in favor of moving in with my boyfriend? Hey everyone. Long time lurker, yadda, yadda.
I’ve been in an apartment with my roommate and long time friend for about 2.5 years. Our lease ran out after 18 months and since then we’ve been doing month-to-month.
We both have boyfr... | self.Anxiety |
I'm finally starting to be sick of my situation After years and years of status quo stagnation, I'm now beginning to get annoyed by not doing anything. I started taking meds almost a month ago and that walk to the doctor was already hard as hell for me (let alone the call to get the appointment). However, having accomp... | self.depression |
I have a law school final tomorrow that I'm going to fail. Like I literally don't know anything for this class. Not exaggerating. And I'm sitting here with an outline someone gave me and I just can't even force myself to read through it. I fucking hate life. I really just want to die. I just don't even give a shit abou... | self.SuicideWatch |
Under stress of finding a job, away from family. Single and lonely. Feeling depressed need someone to speak to. I live away from my family, single and lonely. I am an introvert so I find it hard to speak about myself. I find myself lonely and I don’t have anyone to speak to. Not able to concentrate on my current tempor... | self.depression |
I don't know where else to go. Lack the motivation to do much of anything. [deleted] | self.depression |
Living with GAD in the workplace / public speaking One of my worst nightmares just came to fruition. I work in a corporate environment and had one of my first large presentations today and froze up completely with 65 people on the phone and another 20 in the room. Heart racing, sweating profusely, etc. Are there others... | self.Anxiety |
Support Need support about my anxiety :( I feel very dizzy like to the point where I think I might pass out I've been to the hospital about my heart going to fast and every time it's anxiety do you think the anxiety is causing my headaches and dizziness ? | self.Anxiety |
Day After Drinking - Weak Depression I’m writing because of the experience I’m having right now:
I had way too much to drink last night, an old habit that I have recently done a great job to change (this was with an old friend, my relationship with whom I need the courage to change - I think I have it now), and I am ... | self.depression |
My 20th birthday Today (November 10th) is my 20th birthday. Don’t have very many people to celebrate with but grateful that I even made it this far! I remember during my childhood thinking I’d never even make it to my teen years but here I am! Reaching my “2 decades” milestone! :D | self.offmychest |
I hate being gay. I don't know why I am writing this, but I thought about trying this for a long time.
I hate being gay, I hate feeling excluded out of the guys.
The stigmas that come with it are annoying, and what is even more annoying is that I fit some of them! Even though I am stronger than most guys and I'm not wh... | self.offmychest |
My cheating ex is my only will to live [deleted] | self.depression |
A Letter To Depression.. Hi, i guess at first i didn't know what you were and you pass over a couple of weeks. Its been 3 years now. Its hard to describe the feeling of depression to someone, the only thing i can liken it to is drowning in a dark sea alone and just when the horrors of drowning are over and you realise ... | self.depression |
A little over a week ago I wanted to kill myself. Today I still want to kill myself but not as much. I was debilitated to the point of not showering and not able to leave the house. I was praying to die. Now I take showers, wake up at the same time, eat healthy meals, but still low key want to die. Like if I went to sl... | self.SuicideWatch |
No sleep for the worried I've been up since 2. We get the results of my son's neuropsychological testing this afternoon. He has already demonstrated problems with his memory only 2 weeks into school. I would be surprised if she didn't find something about that. My husband thinks it is all phooey but I am legit worried.... | self.bipolar |
The voices in my gf's head won't go away [deleted] | self.depression |
New meds day Here we go again. Adding 20mg of Latuda to 400mg of lamictal and 300mg of Gabapentin. No one can tell me it's going to work or make things worse or do nothing.
Also maybe I'm having seizures (one doctors office told me both that I am and that I'm not) and Latuda can make worse. Which is fantastic.
I ha... | self.bipolar |
Redoing room! So here is my situation. I am in a living environment right now that I absolutely cannot stand. I suffer from adjustment disorder, anxiety, and depression. I am in therapy and on medication just for background before people start suggesting those things. I have been trying to move but my budget is tight a... | self.Anxiety |
I’m in so much pain I live my life day to day inside of my head, my body goes through the motions for me. I feel like I’m brain dead. I’m pretty much failing out of high school, I’m in my senior year. I don’t even care if I do. I don’t have any goals after high school, I don’t have any motivation. I’m just living with ... | self.SuicideWatch |
I need a goal, I need a purpose. I don't know what to do with my life. I am seeing no options. Since starting my new job I have felt suicidal. I have wanted to get into a particular line of work. That was the plan. I'm doing school slowly, part time, while I work full time, and volunteer on the side to spruce up my res... | self.SuicideWatch |
What's wrong with me? I've lived such a good life. My parents raised me right, never had to worry about money or food, had many friends over my life that care for me. Then I met someone who loved me more than anyone in this world. A person so broken throughout her whole life. She changed my life and brought meaning to ... | self.SuicideWatch |
Is it possible to be depressed for so long that depression is now a comfortable feeling? It's hard for me to feel emotions at all, so when i become extremely depressed/suicidal I finally feel emotion and it's comforting in a weird, depressing, way. | self.depression |
I miss you. Please come back. I’m nothing without you. You were the only person that ever got me. You were the only person who made me happy. You were the only person I never tired of seeing. And you won’t even talk to me. I’m cursed to a life of loneliness without you. Even though it’s been five months and I’ve gone o... | self.offmychest |
I don't know what to do I'm on Lamictal (200mg), Lexapro (5mg) and was on Seroquel 50mg which I quit a week ago because I slept too much and needed to get things done.
Since then, I've experienced extreme sleeping pattern swings, from usually no more than 3 hours (only third day I was really high and managed to sleep ... | self.bipolar |
Leaving my university was the worst decision of my life, and now I'm hopelessly depressed. I left my university that I loved 7 hours from home because I didn't really have any friends. My two old friends from freshman year sorta drifted off a little bit, and I was living alone. Long story short, I had a panic attack be... | self.depression |
I have lost all of my hope I have a methylphenidate addiction starting, my grades are worse than I have ever gotten, family chooses my cousin over me because she has good grades. If can find a rope I will end my pain. | self.SuicideWatch |
struggling to brush teeth everyday (and shower) concerned my roots are exposed because of my teethaches and sensitivity to cold things. its so easy to procrastinate and not care and not think about the ramifications of not brushing them, and when i do brush them im always too tense and brush too hard (i think the tens... | self.depression |
I used to get panic attacks looking at this sub... I'm three months and some change into taking an SSRI, and even though I still have moments I need a bit of extra help, I can read this sub without panicking, and I'm currently stressed about going to work tomorrow after calling out today, but I know I can do it. I can ... | self.Anxiety |
I Need a Pity Fuck in the Worst Way [deleted] | self.depression |
To Rebuild or slip into nothing Recently burned my life to the ground. I don’t know who I am or what I would even want to be anymore. I am terriblely depressed. I don’t see a point in continuing this, whatever the fuck this is. I could build up some new fantasy to live out. Pretend to be a family man or a whore or a mo... | self.SuicideWatch |
Fuck My Life I Am Done No words to express. I'm fucking 40. Spent 4 years in prison for a non accident DUI. Not saying I was innocent but fuck child molesters had lighter sentances. Crushed 5 back bones about a decade ago and dealing with horrible pain. I have fractures and without insurance no one will do shit. I w... | self.SuicideWatch |
No Plan but lots of SH/suicidal ideas Created a reddit account for the first time ever today because I need to a place to just air this shit out:
I find myself frequently having thoughts of different ways I could commit suicide and how easy it would be to do it. At the same time I recognize how selfish suicide is and ... | self.depression |
"Getting help" hasn't done me any good. Don't know what to do anymore. [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
Zonegran (zonisamide)? Has anyone else been put on this? What was your experience like?
I was put on it instead of Topamax because my pdoc believes it causes less cognitive side effects. It has helped me lose some AP-induced weight gain before. I am back on it because it seems to help slow my cycling and help with th... | self.bipolar |
What is the meaning of life? I (25m) have asked this question many times over in one form or another since I was a child. If I think hard enough I can remember moments in my life where the question slowly changed from that of a curious and open minded point of view to that of a disillusioned optimist.
As I sit here t... | self.depression |
I believe I’ve finally made the decision to go. [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
Thought of getting a job makes me want to kms. [deleted] | self.depression |
Should I start online schooling? (as a junior in high school) [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
Forgot my headphones today I forgot how bad my social anxiety can get when I don’t have music to drown out my surroundings. Hearing everyone’s conversations as I walk by, and trying to find one thing to focus on, it’s fucking terrible. | self.Anxiety |
I need to cry but can't Instead I'm going to sleep in the fetal position. | self.SuicideWatch |
At a weird place in my life... What is happening? (long rant) [deleted] | self.depression |
Loving someone that doesn’t love you back is the worst thing I’ve ever felt. [deleted] | self.offmychest |
Living across the world as my entire life is crumbling [deleted] | self.offmychest |
What exactly is anxiety? I personally have zero problems with anxiety, I am just an extremely relaxed and easygoing person. However, I very frequently meet people who describe themselves as having some type of anxiety issue. This seems very general to me, what exactly does it mean? How does it typically affect the dail... | self.Anxiety |
What does it feel like to dissociate? Did it happen to me? Last night I came home and was trying to relax when I started feeling high. I didn't use anything to get high. I just felt exactly like I was high. And then I started to feel like I was somewhat outside of my body. Like I could see myself from outside of it...k... | self.bipolar |
Memo from a high school student I hate some guys will every fiber of my being
The guys that are complete jerks to everyone and get to bang the hot girls while they're all over him for being an asshole
The guy that has the rich parents, good looks, and complete asshole demeanor
Guys like that make me feel like insec... | self.offmychest |
I miss you Dear NM,
I miss you. I'll never tell you that and I think if you're being really honest with yourself you'll understand why. But, I'll always miss you. I'm in a happier healthy relationship now. I have been for years. I know you know that, too. But, don't think I don't mourn for you. Don't think I didn't ev... | self.offmychest |
Distance is a true hell for me I'm 20, and depressed since 4 years. I was in a better shape this summer, and fell inlove with a girl. We're together since 4 months, and are deeply inlove. It's helping me so much with my depression to be loved. And she is supportive, since she had a depression too.
But we see eachother ... | self.depression |
anxiety is taking over my life. lately since the new year started, i haven't been able to sleep very well. i keep overthinking, and i scare myself sometimes into thinking i might have a stroke or even a heart attack. lately ive noticed my anxiety is triggered by memories. and it sucks because there are days where i fee... | self.Anxiety |
drained of everything I have nothing left.
I got tired of telling anyone I'm depressed and suicidal. Everyone seems to think I'm fine.
I just started to pretend again.
I have no reason to believe I can change, because I have no reason to believe that life will change.
I am trying to be careful about what I say,... | self.SuicideWatch |
Can I still be hypomanic and suicidal? I recently just discovered I'm having a manic episode, and I'm extremely suicidal currently, but not in a depressed way.
I had a small fight with my boyfriend, and I was being selfish and impulsive (like I do with mania), and my boyfriend was being insensitive and saying things ... | self.bipolar |
My relationship is falling apart, and it's my fault. [deleted] | self.offmychest |
Overwhelmed. Helplines don’t help much, just want to read what people did today, boring/ casual as it may be [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
Nobody knows At the end of the day nobody really cares, even if they know your going through pain. They only care when youve killed yourself because then they wonder what they could have done to help. Being alive and in pain doesnt inconvence them because its a pain that they dont feel but once you killed yourself they... | self.SuicideWatch |
I am scared and need help. Feeling completely hopeless. I just want to end it all because I don't think there is any way out of this pain. I know I need help... | self.SuicideWatch |
To whomever is messing with my car This past week someone has been messing with my car. I'm sick of going out to my car and seeing my trunk slightly open or my hood not being shut. I hate you! You haven't stolen anything from my car but I am thinking about calling the non emergency number for the cops so they can watch... | self.offmychest |
Christmas used to be my favorite holiday Now it just makes me feel more alone than ever. I am a college student who comes home for the holidays and also an only child. My friends are all either mostly busy (I've only seen them once), or gone, or I'm just too terrified to try and hang out with them because I always feel... | self.depression |
Pregnant and Depressed First time posting here so excuse me if this is more a vent than anything. Im not sure i want anything at all from posting, but here it goes. Ive struggled with depression since about 15 on, worst of it being a tie between when i was 22 and also my experiences last year (I'm 25 now). I was doing ... | self.depression |
I think I'm going to kill myself when I get home. I'm crying in the bathroom stall at my job and I can't fucking do this anymore. EDIT: I've calmed down a bit, so I'm probably not going to do anything to myself tonight. But I still don't know how much longer I can hold on. | self.SuicideWatch |
20 years of depression. I've had a sad life. I'll give a synopsis of why I'm depressed and sometimes suicidal and see if people think I should be feeling this way.
I have autism, and was bullied relentlessly all through school up to high school. I got beat up many times. And worse. My family has betrayed me. A lot of ... | self.depression |
Medicaid Issues Might not have meds the first of the month.
Trying not to panic.
Gotta go in next Wednesday because the website is absolutely useless.
Aaaahhh lol anyway. Any personal horror stories of lapses in medications??? | self.bipolar |
Karaoke is perfect for too much energy It’s perfect, I can sing myself to death till seroquel kicks in | self.bipolar |
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