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psychiatrist had new disorder for me so i went to see a psychiatrist. haven't been for a very long time. i was feeling good about going. i arrive more than 45 minutes early. this may have been a mistake. i was trying to give myself room to not rush. but of course since i gave myself so much time i didn't get lost, foun... | self.bipolar |
Failures I’m a failure. I hate that I’m not as successful as I could have been. I was always supposed to be the smartest one, the successful one, the one my family could be proud of. Then I became a giant fuck-up and took seven years to graduate college, and it turns out the degree I got doesn’t count for shit anywa... | self.depression |
Fuck New Years. Actually, fuck the holidays in general. Every time I type something up here I think of all the times I've been psychologically tortured by "friends" and just people online to the point of it being more harmful than my own mental illnesses that I get scared.
Tonight I'm not scared.
It's been tough sinc... | self.depression |
Bad anxiety/paranoia spinning out of control I'm having major anxiety today. I haven't been sleeping well and I've been extremely irritable, and something my SO said earlier made me spin into thoughts of paranoia, which I can't seem to get rid of once they start.
I know it has to do with my sleep and missing medicati... | self.bipolar |
I'm done being angry, all I want to do is go home and crawl into bed with you That's it. | self.offmychest |
I cried when I realized there are things about living that I like I have some things that I really do genuinely enjoy I've found, and that's making me feel all the worse about this inevitability of me ending my life, there's really no stopping it now. All I can do now is sit around and feel terrible thinking about what... | self.SuicideWatch |
Suicide seems the perfect ending but I love my parents too much [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
I love you reddit. You are the best. You kept me clean even when I’m in horrible hell hole of a shitty place. Thank you Reddit. [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
Fuck it all Just had my mum (who has also had depression before) say to me “it is normal to feel like this”
No fuck it isn’t. Is it normal to feel like you’ve got no purpose? If it is, what’s the fucking point.
Seriously, this world is crap. I just wish someone would actually understand me.
Wish I could either get b... | self.depression |
This is it. There's only one way out of this now. I have to end it before things get out of hand. I need to make people hate me first. I need there to be no one that will care when it happens. If they hate me, they won't miss me. It's starting with my girlfriend. I haven't felt the same about her for about two weeks an... | self.depression |
I've tried everything and nothing works. The only option left is death. | self.SuicideWatch |
I feel like I am pushing people away... I have GAD and OCD, with depression. I am trying to manage it with meds, therapy, and other things.
My friends, co-workers and family have been incredibly supportive, particularly over the last 6 months as things have spiralled out pretty badly.
The problem is that part of the... | self.Anxiety |
Bipolar and Dating... Need Advice Good morning to anyone reading...
TL;DR: I've recently come out a full swing of 4 months of hypomania or mania and 4-5 months of depression. Broke my life, now getting back on my feet, and a gal became interested and I'm interested back. I have no idea how to tell her I can get unstab... | self.bipolar |
Shut down today I had a high anxiety week...well past couple weeks more so this week and I haven't been sleeping well. I just feel like I cant even function today. People are asking me whats wrong which is bad, i usually hide it better but today i just cant... | self.Anxiety |
Just wanted to share my story with you guys [deleted] | self.depression |
No one tells you No one tells you how hard this really is. To not be able to trust your own mind. To be in a constant state of anxiety and self doubt. To question everything anyone says to you and over think everything.
It's teadeous and tiring and exhausting and I wish it would just stop.
Just for a moment I wish I... | self.depression |
Growing up just doesn't feel right... I'm so close to graduation. This year has flown by so damn fast that thinking about it is making my head spin. All the things I've done in the past that I'll have to give up and the feeling of never going back to a school again just feels all so weird. It's driving me down, seeing ... | self.depression |
How to stop anxiety and make myself feel normal again? Ive been having anxiety for 3 days straight non stop panic attacks everyday i wake up feeling like im out of it, exhausted, i feel unreal, detatched, lost. And its making my anxiety worse. I dont know what to do, someone please tell me what i can do to help myself.... | self.Anxiety |
It's so hard Anxiety is very very difficult to deal with. Why do I have an excessive amount of it? Why do I perceive I experience everything in life as a high stakes situation? Why does my body feel like I am preparing for war when I just have to do my math homework?
This is so awful. I'm not going to do well in math ... | self.Anxiety |
its christmas and my father is dying my dad has a braintumor and he is getting closer to death by the day. we as a family never really talk about stuff, the only time i felt better was after talking to my psychologist, which i had to leave because i am so called therapy-resistant. i have been depressed for 9 years now ... | self.depression |
Any advice on dealing with on going stress/Trauma? I'm currently dealing with something big that I can't talk about however it's effecting me quite a lot mentally. Has anyone got any techniques or tips on trying to de-stress while going through something that will set off my anxiety for potentially a few weeks? | self.Anxiety |
the holidays just make everything worse the holidays make me hopelessly depressed and on top of this, i’m in my senior year of high school and it fucking sucks. everybody is leaving me. i lost my boyfriend and best friend and i’m so lonely. i can’t sleep because i’m so fucking depressed. i want to od and end it all, th... | self.depression |
I've had a hard day. --Posting on my alt--
I had a hard day today, got messed with by my bullies. I went home to play online Chess, only to lose two games in a row (and lose 200RP). Compiled with my bad day, I almost feel like cutting. Please give me a reason not to. | self.SuicideWatch |
Why go on if everything is dark. I might have some speckle of hope to fix a singular problem of my ocean of problems and I just feel like I'm rowing a boat with a hole on the ceiling during a storm at night… nothing I do can actually save me, I'm just lost and scared. Even if I fix that one major problem, I think I'm t... | self.SuicideWatch |
Anxious about stupid things regarding my relationship. Need comfort and advice. [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
Best depression excuses? When someone asks why you seem so sad or depressed or generally seem to be catching on what’s the best excuse? | self.depression |
Didn't know you can be aware of self sabotage. [deleted] | self.offmychest |
Going to sleep as soon as I take care of things [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
Does anyone else have trouble being themselves with their therapist? [deleted] | self.depression |
My life is falling apart and I'm losing the will to pick up the pieces. [deleted] | self.depression |
I just took a shower for the first time in 2 weeks, and I just washed my hair for the first time in months. [deleted] | self.depression |
I actually feel happy. Originally posted in r/casualconversation and was told you guys might like this. Edited a bit to fit this sub more.
After years of battling depression, suicide, and hard times in general, I took a look in the mirror and realized I'm actually happy. I feel good about myself and who I am, I have ... | self.depression |
Dating while dealing with mental illness. [RANT] I love my boyfriend and friends and family with all my heart, I do. But goddamn it if it isn't annoying how I can fully disclose that I have severe depression and anxiety with OCD-like tendencies. I can go in depth about how I'm a handful with extremely low self worth an... | self.depression |
Can anybody give me some advice on applying for Disability? I had an wpisode and quit my job. Everything is a mess right now and I feel depressed and helpless. I already called my psychiatrist and legal aid. What can I expect in this process? Any advice on other steps to take? | self.bipolar |
If you take a mood stabilizer, but it doesn't make you feel any better, does it mean you're not Bipolar? Edit: thanks you guys, you're amazing people. Sorry if I don't add more details, I lack the energy (also, English is not my first language and I'm lazy). I got two different diagnoses, but truth is, I don't want eit... | self.bipolar |
yesterday is not today I was never into to Lil Peep's music before he died. I did not ever consider it to be something I would be remotely interested in. Yet here I am, deeply affected by the death of someone I do not know because of the way he died. I am prescribed Xanax but I have always felt it is an addiction. I ca... | self.Anxiety |
Having a panic attack because my dad is yelling [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
''You'll do it and you'll do it with a smile on your face'' is what one of my co-workers said to me today, in front of our boss, because I had a problem with potentially working opening (5am-1:30pm) and closing (12:30pm-9pm) shifts on a regular basis. And granted I didn't have the best reaction to the news (because I'm... | self.offmychest |
I don't see any point in going on anymore I'm 20
I have no friends and haven't had any for 2 or 3 years, I never get invited to any social event, all the girls I attempted to ask out as a teen always always rejected me, 15+ attempts
Dating sites and interpals yield 0 results I don't even get profile views let alone me... | self.depression |
Im making plans to kill myself very soon. Im failing most of my classes, my depression has gotten much worse, everyone hates me, and I cant do anything about it. I tried to tell my friends, but they took it as a joke. My life is pretty much falling apart, so im gonna end it. | self.offmychest |
Pretty cliche situation but it happens I chased a girl for 6 months. We were together for a few weeks, and she broke it off because she was afraid of commitment. That was fine to me. Be that the reason, or something else, I tried my best and it failed. So be it. Drank it away, graduated college, moved a bit out of... | self.offmychest |
Just a quick question... I started this semester strong even despite being an hour and a half away from campus. The drive sucked but it honestly didn't used to bother me. Now that my depression is in full swing again, I'm finding it almost impossible to make that drive. I have zero motivation or energy and even *thinki... | self.depression |
Being open ans vulnerable is so hard There isn't even a reason for why I feel this way. I just want to be able to care about something or someone and not have it feel really uncomfortable. I've been trying to self improve lately but it seems like everything I do gets lost in the recesses of my mind. Maybe I fucked myse... | self.depression |
Lamictal Hey guys,
I explained some of my symptoms to my doctor and he decided to put me on lamictal. I may have extended the believability of my symptoms a small bit, I do have severe mood swings from highs to very very very lows, not highs as much.
I also tend to space out and it's like there's a lot of electricit... | self.bipolar |
I took a walk semi-throwaway account, just wanted to share this experience. Tonight I got drunk, snuck out of the house and walked a couple of blocks around town. It was very peaceful. Complete darkness, not a single sound except for a couple of cars driving by. It felt great being completely and utterly detached from ... | self.depression |
Completely lost my temper today did not show it made it through A terrible day is ending good. Last night I was stood up for a date, that started the downward spiral. I was very upset about so that I gambled and won $300 then lost it making me even more upset.
I find out today that a coworker I've worked with the past... | self.bipolar |
Nervous about going to the club with my boyfriend I'm a guy who is in a relationship with a guy (we are both around 20) and we are going to a gay club with a big group of friends. He's been to the club alone and we've gone together once before, but everytime I get really anxious about going because I imagine some reall... | self.Anxiety |
Currently awaiting evaluation and possible diagnosis, showed this song to my mother to explain emotions https://youtu.be/zkXC5BF-nGo | self.bipolar |
Hello there I erased my last four posts I was gonna make, I just don't feel valid enough to say that I really want to die, but I'm too scared to kill myself. I've thought about it for years, I cut myself sometimes, and I've come really close before, but I always stop myself. I want to die so badly and I don't want to t... | self.SuicideWatch |
I spent the last 30mins trying to write something. [deleted] | self.depression |
Does anyone even care? I don’t know how it ever got to this point but I’m about to end my life and no one that I know seems to even bat an eye. I’ve been alone my entire life and now I’ll die alone just like I always knew I would. | self.SuicideWatch |
Why don’t I feel super happy? Related to my last post about being super stressed and anxious about my new job. Well My first shift was today, and I made it through with no panic or anxiety - but now I don’t know why I’m not happy about it? I enjoyed it and think I did well but it’s bothering me that I don’t feel a huge... | self.Anxiety |
I [28 M] broke up with my [27 F] girlfriend of 6 months two days ago, and she attempted to take her own life. I feel sick. I led her on for a while, I agreed to be her boyfriend a few weeks ago because I couldn't say no. I can never say no. I liked her, but I never loved her the way she loved me. I kept changing my min... | self.offmychest |
Do you ever shut down? Basically all emotions fail to perform and the world loses its shine.
You guys ever feel that way?
Any clue why it happens?
It makes me wonder why I bother with human relationships | self.bipolar |
I got scared more than I’ve been scared in a long ass time. [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
I have never felt so apathetic in my life. I was told as a kid it would get better, as a teenager that it would get better, and here I am inching closer and closer to 30 and it's still not better. I'm a college drop out in an incredible amount of debt. I am completely ready to die but far too terrified to kill myself. ... | self.SuicideWatch |
suicide basically is the only way to go for me my family is bullying me all day long , i am a failure at school , im sick too often for a job , for me its either suicide or someday living below a bridge , i just need to think of a way to do it where i dont damage other things, i just want to destroy the worthless thing... | self.SuicideWatch |
I am just some object. Sex is everything to everyone around me. I cannot escape the pain it has caused and still causes me.
I was sexually abused as a little girl. I remember when I was 3 yo and masturbating. I found out as an adult, that years later after the abuse the guy who did it shot himself at highway rest stop... | self.SuicideWatch |
Anyone else feel like their thinking patterns are very “black and white”? Meaning, an idea is either completely genius, or absolutely batshit crazy? Sometimes I will have people tell me that something I said was very insightful and that it moved them in a certain (positive) way, and other times I will say something and... | self.bipolar |
Your abuse was not because we “weren’t a perfect match.” I spent two years of my life reconciling the things you did and said to me as "drunk mistakes" or a result of something I had done. But now, a year out of the relationship and with the person I will likely marry, I have the strength to say that I didn't deserve o... | self.offmychest |
What causes bipolar? Hey guys I've been doing a lot of thinking wondering why I am the way I am and I realized I don't actually know much about what can cause bipolar disorder. Is it bad genetics? Chemical imbalance? Childhood environment? | self.bipolar |
I want to die I feel like I have everything I should want. Good body, good grades and a good social life. But I feel so fucking empty. None of the above means shit to me. I am so stressed about the future that I can barely breathe. I have no friends. Well I go to parties and pretend but I feel so fucking lonely. Nobody... | self.depression |
Rocket League helped me with My Social Anxiety During Thanksgiving. Hi everyone, I'm 27 YOA with medically diagnosed Social Anxiety.
Normally:
* The days before thanksgiving I have a tendency to overthink every little aspect of encountering my family.
* The hours before my family arrive, I get tight in the chest an... | self.Anxiety |
I feel like I'm waiting for the perfect person I don't really like any of my friends that I have right now. Sure, some are really nice, but no one I wanna hang around. I wonder if there is someone out there who will fit me like a puzzle piece. My expectations are unrealistic though. I'll probably just die alone, unsati... | self.depression |
I sometimes think life is a joke. I try to be positive I really do, but when life keeps knocking you over and over again it's impossible. I sometimes think life just likes to hurt us. Nothing's meant forever, and people lie and never stay. | self.depression |
I wish society didn't force depressed people to hide how they feel. [deleted] | self.offmychest |
Levothyroxine So I took a about 15-20 levothyroxine about an hour and a half ago. I only have a little headache. Am I probably going to be good. Does anyone know anything about levothyroxine | self.SuicideWatch |
Going to a party on my own! I'm going to a party for the first time tonight by myself! I've had a rough semester involving a breakup and a loss of friends, but a distant friend from freshman year invited me to a party at her place. Its within walking distance, so I was like "whats the worst that could happen? It might ... | self.offmychest |
25 m. Very dark times, need to vent. I'm so fucking sad. 25 years old, overweight (not obese, but enough extra fat to make life a bit harder) addicted to weed and pain pills and anything that makes me feel okay for a moment. Used to be extremely creative and musically and artistically talented and productive now I can ... | self.depression |
all of my friends from a group turned their backs on me. I did something really bad, i turned what could of been a possible friendship in to a toxic relationship after meeting someone online, we hit it off and things escalated quickly, when it ended i fell hard, i felt used and mistreated and lashed out.
I was hungry ... | self.offmychest |
Alone on Christmas even surrounded by loved ones. I sit in the shower sometimes counting the things I have to be thankful for. Telling myself it's suppose to help. I have all these tools to get through the worst moments in my life and I'm starting to feel like it's just not enough. So I'm adding, "post to reddit about ... | self.SuicideWatch |
What kind of jobs can socially anxious people have while still be comfortable and content? I kind of worded that question lamely... But yeah, where are you anxious people employed at? Do you work around lots of people? Does it drive you bonkers? Are you happy at your job? What jobs should anxious (especially socially a... | self.Anxiety |
People who have gotten bipolar tattoos, what did you get and how did you come up with the design? I've been wanting to get a tattoo for my 26th birthday that represents the things I've gone through and come out the other side okay but I can't come up with a design that I like. | self.bipolar |
I hope he breaks your heart just like you broke mine [deleted] | self.offmychest |
I just realized how much of a fucking loser I am. [deleted] | self.depression |
Jealous how easy it is for others to find the love of their life, whereas no girl ever considers me [deleted] | self.depression |
I spent my last 20$ on a way to kill myself. Everything I see is pointing me to do it. I just don't know what I'm supposed to do.
I can't find or keep a job. Rent is is due and I have 2 dollars in my bank account. 85,000 in debt and I'm working a part time seasonal job.
No social connections because whatever the re... | self.SuicideWatch |
friends like me... Do you ever feel like you can understand everyone else, but no one ever understands you? My feelings are always on blast and no matter how much I try no one quite understands the depth of my emotions. I was diagnosed when I was 20...that was seven years ago. Bipolar has taught me some very painful le... | self.bipolar |
My best friend is currently being sent to a mental hospital because of suicidal reasons. She was close to taking her life yesterday and could use some positive words. I will send this thread to her later.
She has been depressed since just before her teenage years. She is currently 20 years old. Her depression started ... | self.depression |
I have a midterm tomorrow and I can't muster the energy to study for it. I'd rather kill myself than take the midterm. [deleted] | self.depression |
My gf dumped me yesterday and I just saw her unexpectedly [deleted] | self.depression |
incredibly frustrated, need advice Hi
I'm going to try to be as brief as I possibly can
I live somewhere in New Jersey. I dunno if it's alright to say that, but it's part of the story.
I was diagnosed in 2005 with Anxiety+Depression+GAD. I started with a psychiatrist I will refer to as Dr H. Dr H, if I remember corr... | self.Anxiety |
No motivation I’ve gave up on everything, the two things that makes me feel a lil happy is hanging out with my crush and dancing, and i just don’t wanna be depressed but i can’t evade it, I have been dancing since last weekend just to be a bit happier. I’m lost | self.depression |
My brother sent me an email with concerns about my depression. I wrote this back decribing the last 12 years of my life Depression has always been hard for me to accept let alone talk about. I like to think I first encountered depression when I was a senior in high school. Honestly, I don’t think I knew that I was firs... | self.depression |
Tired and bored of life period Hi,
I'm doing alright in college so far. Last semester I tried hanging myself but was unable to do it right. The only reason I keep going to college cause of grades / it is free because of a pell grant. Even if I graduate college. I'm probably going to get regular grades / having to end u... | self.SuicideWatch |
Always feel like I would rather be dead but not willing to go through with it. | self.SuicideWatch |
Somebody else got butterflies in their stomach all the time? [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
Is this anxiety i'm experiencing? Yesterday I was talking with a friend and drinking wine, and suddenly I felt high. Like baked, but when it's not fun. It lasted for the whole night, and I still feel weird this morning. My face would sometimes go numb and tingle, colors where overwhelmingly bright, my mouth was super d... | self.Anxiety |
When I cross the street now, I don't even look. [deleted] | self.depression |
A depression theory Another commenter inspired me to share my theories on some common sources of depression. I believe it is human nature to always want more. Take smartphones for instance. Generations of ppl lived without the technology we have today but now we are accustomed to it. Once you have a car, a smartphone, ... | self.depression |
God, why I do even bother checking? Day in and day out, I'm doing the same things online. I'm zipping through sites and all of my messaging programs like Discord, Telegram .etc for anyone to be saying anything to me. Only to be disappointed that they haven't said a single word to me at all. I'm checking Facebook, I see... | self.depression |
NYE is here... We are hosting the party. I just want to hide and cry. Ugh. I so don’t have the energy for this, but 15 people (family and really REALLY close friends of mine- my support network) are coming.
Doesn’t help that I am in the postdrome of a migraine.
I just want to hide and cry in my room.
T-1hr. 7pm. ... | self.depression |
Don't know what to do in my relationships I'm having a particularly bad mental health "flare up" right now. Add PMS to that and it's a bit of a minefield.
**Background:**
I'm a solo poly person who lives alone and is usually pretty independent. I have a couple of great relationships, and one in particular that I hav... | self.Anxiety |
I will be dead in a couple of hours [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
What's even the point? What's the point of living anyway? I already know how rotten the world is... people just exist to make other suffer.... how pointless everything is...
If I wasn't such a weak person I would be dead by now...
I am so tired that I don't even sh anymore... I just don't see the point anyway..... | self.depression |
I am tired I have fought very hard for years. But it's so tiring now. Trying to move and speak to people. I've done so much to make it better, but my medication doesn't work anymore. I can't get back into therapy for several months. I'm so tired. I've heard that it gets better so many times that it just feels like an e... | self.SuicideWatch |
I think I'm done guys. I don't think I'm going to make it within a year. This is getting bad. I have no motivation, my brain is rotting, I can't ever think or articulate my thoughts. I'm doing terrible in school. Anytime I try and ask for help from various subreddits I get downvotes. Nothing helps anymore. Literally no... | self.depression |
Can you get extended sick time for Bipolar? I know that it is possible to get disability if you are unable to work due to your Bipolar. I'm certainly able to work with my Bipolar, but I end up using significantly more sick time than my peers when I cycle. Is it possible to accrue sick time faster due to a disability?
... | self.bipolar |
I want to go back to being happy I keep seeing so many people who are blissfully happy. All these people announcing Christmas eve engagements and new pregnancies... I just feel sad and alone.
I lost the love of my life a week and a half ago and I don't know how to be ok without him. He's with his family and I'm with ... | self.offmychest |
I made plans. I wrote her a note. I nearly went through with it. I can't cope without my daughter. I am a broken man. My abusive partner left me in September. Took our daughter 2 hours away. Has denied me access on several occasions. Have only had a couple weekends with her. I'm not likely to see my daughter again unti... | self.SuicideWatch |
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