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It hit the fan and I started meds today. Have been battling for years. Recent events have pushed me to my brink and something happened this morning at 3am that pushed it over the edge. Tried to go into work and had a panic attack and had to leave. Went to an urgent care to get me on something ASAP and here I am. I’m se... | self.depression |
I haven't felt suicidal in years, and now it's back. I don't know what happened. Last friday, I went to get drinks with some friends, and I told them "I'm better because I don't see suicide as an option anymore, I want to live". And last night everything went to shit.
I don't see any other possible solution that isn'... | self.SuicideWatch |
I’m proud of myself ! I am majoring in early childhood education and today was my first day of student teaching. I have been overwhelmed with anxiety the last two weeks , scared I was going to freeze up or not be able to talk or converse with the kids because of my anxiety . Did some breathing exercises this morning an... | self.Anxiety |
I dont want to be alive anymore. I dont want to kill myself but I dont really want to live anymore. I have no friends, I am in a loveless marriage, my family has fallen apart. I dont know. Ive thought about dying multiple times daily for years now. I dont know what to do. I feel so numb now. I grew up in a single mothe... | self.SuicideWatch |
Nothing gives me any joy anymore Not even the most simple of pleasures makes me happy or even mildly entertained anymore, none of my hobbies or even anything as simple as mindlessly watching Netflix or YouTube videos. Talking to people makes me feel sad because it feels like nobody I know is like this, and as a result ... | self.depression |
Who else gets obsessive thoughts when they start to go hypo/manic? I'm starting to get obsessive thoughts. I have this recurring feeling that I have these holes in my skin/head, and I have to scratch my skin off. This happened last time I was hypomanic from taking an SSRI.
Just wanted to see if anyone else got this wa... | self.bipolar |
A problem with the "Respect your elders" ideology. Having been a child who was raised from birth to now within a society and culture that praises the "Respect your elders" ideology, it is usual to hear people tell me to do such a thing, especially from my /(great\*)(grand\*)parent(s?)/regex and relatives. I can tell y... | self.offmychest |
I felt like sharing my realization. I just realized that I haven't had water or food for more than 36 hours and I don't feel a bit hungry or thirsty. It seems I'm gone further that I thought.... 4 years and counting. | self.depression |
Finally realized how unappreciated I am, and it’s got me depressed... This turned into a vent. I apologize in advance for the long post.
I went to a party recently. A holiday party, with a bunch of friends as well as others I was meeting that night. We all had a great time. We laughed, we had great conversations, we p... | self.offmychest |
I think this might be it I've been suicidal off and on for years now, but I've never gotten to this point before. What's happened to me now makes me feel like all of the other problems I've had in life were a joke, and I should have been grateful to have them and not anything worse. I feel like I've finally hit upon ... | self.SuicideWatch |
Sertraline (Zoloft) questions, super grateful if anyone could help me out So I’ve been on sertraline (AKA Zoloft) for about 5 years now, honestly really helped me out, give it a solid 8.5 outta 10.
Problem being, I’m now engaged and have 0 sex drive. It’s putting a strain on my relationship. I have a doctor appointment... | self.depression |
Seeing my uncle and his family tomorrow for the first time in over two years. I’m really nervous about it. The thing is, I love him to death. He’s the only uncle on my dads side who I have an awesome relationship with. Not to mention my cousins and aunt love me too. The only thing I can think of that’s making me feel t... | self.Anxiety |
Anyone else go to the bathroom just to be alone and get away from everything? | self.depression |
I want to leave but I feel as if this might be the best it gets Truthfully, my past relationships have been worse than her, some even far worse than I'd like to think about.
I'm getting older too, I want to have a family someday and I don't want to be alone, even during the times when I want to run from her, I don't w... | self.offmychest |
I hope this gets to someone, cause it got to myself, I wrote it myself just now. I'm deep n depressed as fuck what does this make me another list on the fucking wall? Wall of what? Wall of shame? But it ain't the same because I'm going through this whether you like it or not, I'm not just trying to test myself or test ... | self.SuicideWatch |
I dont know anymore This is a throwaway account.
I'm sorry I've gotten to this point i need help. My life is in total shambles.
I was born without a dad. He went to jail when i was born, never grew up with one. My mom had me at a young age, so she was kicked out of the house and i grew up poor and bullied. Im a real... | self.SuicideWatch |
My sister is engaged to a dickhead. After many months of struggling to swallow my pride and accept that who my sister loves is not up to me, I gave her fiance the benefit of the doubt and a clean slate. Spent the weekend with them and over the course of 8 hours, he managed to:
-say that everyone from my city is a piec... | self.offmychest |
I finally figured out the difference between you and I I never did anything to hurt you. | self.offmychest |
Bipolars, what are your manic beliefs? Bipolars, what are your manic beliefs?
I’ve always been absolutely fascinated with the psychology of bipolar disorder. I am making a post about for the simple fact that I have not been able to find much information about it. Whilst medical science concludes that delusions are sim... | self.bipolar |
How were you diagnosed? Just curious what circumstances drove you to seek a diagnoses? Have a friend who is exhibiting bp behaviors, but unsure of how to discuss it with him, he is on a massive upswing right now, and people around him are starting to notice his behavior. He expresses deep distrust in psychologists and ... | self.bipolar |
I plan on killing myself after graduation in May Im just tired of this crippling disease i have.
It eats me up day to day. Taunts me. I cant even look at myself half the time.
Ive always had major issues with self hate and wanting to 'fit in' and i only made matters worse for myself giving into these fantasized tho... | self.SuicideWatch |
That moment when you think love is a thing Within a few weeks
"Hey fuck you I don't your ass anymore"
I'm bottling it up until I have heartbreak
I need to cry. | self.SuicideWatch |
To be honest...... I’m just surprised to see how many people feel the same way I do sometimes. | self.SuicideWatch |
I am so very tired.... I have nightmares. Every night. I don't know how related this is to my bipolar or my medicine (buproprion, lexapro, latuda, lamictal, lithium, and gabapentin). I grew up with nightmares and night terrors and I slept walked/spoke, plus had insomnia, all from around the age of 7. As for right now, ... | self.bipolar |
I'm 22 and recently lost everything that gave me a purpose in life [deleted] | self.offmychest |
Just waiting for that date Waiting, just over a month, until i can allow myself to do this. I feel the need, the compulsion to end it all. Every second of every day, i get maybe a hour a day of my old depression, the bareable sort. I dont know how people who are suicidal are able to do anything. I get frustrated when i... | self.SuicideWatch |
Feeling like I’m back to where I started. I’ve been feeling a lot better even since beginning 50mg sertraline in early November. My social anxiety has been almost non-existent, lessened general anxiety, and rarely a depressed mood.
I was triggered recently by someone who popped back into my life. Today I experienced p... | self.Anxiety |
What happens to the people who can't afford "Internet Packages" since Net Neutrality is repealed? Or is everyone overreacting? If everyone's not overreacting to the possibilities here, what about the insomniac college student up at 2 AM who needs to watch their favourite webshow to fall asleep, but can't afford a $10 Y... | self.offmychest |
Health anxiety My body gets "weird" sometimes and I'm sure it's just normal things that I'm hyper aware of, but I can't help but think that it's all early symptoms of some sort of illness or disease. I've always been healthy, but I've always kind of thought I have some disease, though it's highly unlikely I dont. Like ... | self.Anxiety |
Plane crash anxiety? I have to go on a flight in a few hours, and I'm worried how that the plane I'm boarding will be the plane that will crash and cause 9/11 2.0. I've been on planes before many times, and I've always had this fear yet nothing happens. I see shady-looking people sitting near me and I instantly think "... | self.Anxiety |
Tips and tricks to deal with your anxiety? I want to bring in the new year with a new attitude when facing my severe anxiety. My anxiety has controlled me long enough. I’m 23, jobless, and driver license-less (lol I always feel like I’m gonna kill a small family while behind the wheel. I hate this!) due to my severe an... | self.Anxiety |
New Year's Resolution: Get myself to a fucking shrink. [deleted] | self.depression |
This world has some seriously fucked up priorities I was browsing Reddit and saw someone posted [this image]( https://imgur.com/a/lGh2E) and it stirred up a mix of emotions including anger and deep sadness for a few different reasons.
The first was about my grandpa. I live with him and he is a Vietnam veteran. A perso... | self.depression |
I'm tired of being suicidal I've been depressed since I was probably around 13, that's when my life started on a steady decline over the next six years that lead me to where I am now. It started off tame at first, it was just more of a mild sadness but as time went on and I started becoming an adult, that sadness did t... | self.offmychest |
life I want to kill myself because. breke up with my gf I really miss her a lot and think about her. after breaking up with her I drink a lot and do hard drug and I don't have any friend at all and I hate my disability big time. no one knows me who I am and feeling so depressed and sad | self.depression |
I can’t move. 23F. I come home and plop on the couch/bed for hours. I should be studying, but I’m running through a million thoughts, worries, stresses, anxieties and paranoias in my head. Scrolling through news feeds over and over and over. There are 2 baskets of clean laundry in my closet that’ve been sitting untouch... | self.depression |
2018 Resolution : get more consistent about praising myself for skillful choices I want to tell someone, "HEY LOOK WHAT I'M DOING!" but I don't have anyone here, so I'd like to tell y'all ♡
It's a sunny day, but cold. I'm going to go for a walk and look for some geocaches. It was hard to figure out what to do today, b... | self.depression |
LDR Military boyfriend (24) of 4 years coming home and I (22) feel uneasy about it. [deleted] | self.offmychest |
Lithium Question - missing a day Hello,
So I have a quick question. Due to an error on my part, I put in my prescription request two days late, yesterday instead of Wednesday. The notice on the desk said that a prescription put in on Friday will be ready on Tuesday. I went home and found out that I only have enough Li... | self.bipolar |
Sitting In The Holding Room At Psychiatric Hospital Almost 4 yrs into treatment resistant bipolar depression, I'm in my second psych hospitalization in less than a month. It is costing a shit ton of money that we can't afford.
I totally suck as a contributing member of society—much less as a wife, grandmother, mother, ... | self.SuicideWatch |
I think i just had my first attack Last night I had a dream that I was working on an essay. While working on it I realized it was not a 2 page essay but 8, and all my effort was wasted on two pages. I woke up, not only fucking out of my mind about the page count, but also still thinking I had the essay to do by tomorro... | self.Anxiety |
Having a few people to have a meaningful conversation with means i get to save more battery life [deleted] | self.depression |
Quote on depression from a book I’m reading I just read this in “The Emperor of Ocean Park” by Stephen L. Carter and found it to be fitting in some respects. Thought others might also:
“Depression is seductive: it offends and teases, frightens you and draws you in, tempting you with its promise of sweet oblivion, then... | self.bipolar |
Agoraphobic and Sleeping Over at Niece's House. Terrified but also Excited for the trip! Long story short: housebound for 2 years, in recovery mode now. My niece who is 11 has been begging me for months to do this. I'm scared, anxious, nauseous and worried about what's going to happen (probably nothing but that's how t... | self.Anxiety |
Thinking about asking my psychiatrist about changing my prescription and I have a few questions [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
Does anyone else find that positive affirmations make them feel worse? I've been through a couple of different self help books and cbt sessions and positive affirmations always seem like such a huge part of their advice on overcoming anxiety.
But I feel like I have such an adverse reaction to them, trying to make mys... | self.Anxiety |
I always feel sick and anxious after posting on here. I always feel nauseous and anxious any time I comment of post, even on this subreddit. I just feel like everything I say is dumb and that people are judging me. It's so hard because I really want to reach out and connect with those similar to me. I hate to think of ... | self.Anxiety |
Am I having a relapse/ I hate being bipolar and need to rant. [deleted] | self.bipolar |
I feel like Zoloft (sertraline) is turning me into a psychopath 19 year old here, 1st year student in college studying theoretical economics and philosophy.
I've been taking 100mgs of Zoloft for the past 3ish years and I've recently noticed (mainly because being alone on valentines day in college) that I just don't ha... | self.Anxiety |
Winter break is going to fucking suck Everyone I know can’t wait for winter break. I guess I understand why, you don’t have to worry about school for 2 weeks. But I’m dreading it. If I had school instead, at least I could distract myself with schoolwork and talk with my only 2 friends. Break is gonna suck because I’ll ... | self.depression |
Felt Fine for a while... Anyone else ever have a period of feeling OK, being able to handle and process emotions effectively (mostly) and overall enjoying life, and then suddenly wake up and feel "off" and like everything in the world is just pure crap?
That happened to me today. Then my vacation two weeks from now w... | self.bipolar |
Just checking in Hey all,
Just checking in here. They changed up my meds after the most recent trip to the hospital in April. Latuda 60 and Lithium 600 now.
I was almost stupid enough to think that I was finally done with this, that I was finally stable, but had another episode late in October. If there's one immutab... | self.bipolar |
Depersonalization I have been diagnosed with generalized anxiety disorder, borderline personality disorder, and major depressive order. However I don't necessarily like having my symptoms defined by a diagnosis. Just giving them as some background for me. Does anyone else suffer from what I can best describe it as depe... | self.Anxiety |
I'm supposed to be starting Lithium today, what should I expect? [deleted] | self.bipolar |
I want someone to talk to, who has been here before. After a failed relationship a year ago I'm still having suicidal thoughts. I'm really low at the moment, I just need someone who understands. | self.SuicideWatch |
Feeling like you're being chased constantly Hey y'all, I've been experiencing some paranoia weirdness and I was hoping for some advice or insight. My problem (besides being bipolar in general), is that since I have gotten on Lithium, which has done wonders for me mood-wise, I feel like there is something behind me, cha... | self.bipolar |
I feel like I’m incapable of love and going out of my comfort zone and attempting to make new friends [deleted] | self.depression |
31.12 is the date If nothing changes till then and I have to be alone on that night I cant help it but end it. Every single second of my life is agony. | self.SuicideWatch |
Confused about my diagnosis So I was diagnosed with mixed bipolar 6 months ago. Last month my depression got a little worse and I went to see a new doctor and he told me not to over think about my diagnosis and he said I shouldn't trust or rely on my diagnosis and highly doubt if I actually had bipolar because my manic... | self.bipolar |
I am just so ridiculously happy right now but I have no one to tell So there.
I told *you*!
And you gave enough of a shit to click to read more, so thanks for that. | self.offmychest |
Freshman in College + Depression = Pure Shit I don't know where to start or where to end. My life is fucking over and it's all my fault. I suffer from depression (no shit) and I haven't been attending class for months as it is physically impossible for me to do so. Some days I can't even eat. I don't know what to do.
... | self.depression |
tough night So I just realized I have something of which i have about an LD50 of, and it made me freeze up for a few minutes. And it's been a long time since I didn't feel safe with myself, though I don't think I feel all that safe right now. I've struggled with suicidal thoughts since I was about 13, I'm 25 now.
I r... | self.SuicideWatch |
I don't want to be lonely, but at the same time I do. [deleted] | self.depression |
Guys there’s anyone here who also has sleep paralysis in a daily basis caused by bipolar? So I always had episodes of sleep paralysis, since I was a kid but there were not so regularly. Since I was diagnosed with bipolar, that was when I had 14 years old I’m now 21 but back then I didn’t know that what I was having was... | self.bipolar |
Starve myself to death. I'm very sorry if my post is a ramble, or else too short. My thought process is too scrambled at the moment to focus on anything. But even if nobody responds, I feel I may as well get this out. I hate myself. Other people hate me, and I may as well rid them of my burden. But I tried hanging, and... | self.SuicideWatch |
How do I choose what to study after high school when every possible decision is clouded by anxiety? [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
I feel forever alone I feel so forever alone (I know I am only 22) and I receive practically no attention from men (not even really from unattractive old men either) which lowers my self confidence. I am told I have a babyface/look young. I work on my appearance and I am 5'4 and weigh 120 lbs but even being thin doesn'... | self.depression |
I've been called an unsuccessful person. I've been in depression for years and I've never opened up to anyone about it.
It's very serious and I have my reasons.
My family is very unstable financially.
Ultimately it led to me isolating myself from every single person and activity in my life.
I became a nobody and aft... | self.depression |
Suicide/depression/anxiety help, new to this first time. Hi everyone, im new to reddit and wouldnt mind some peoples opinions. Ive never done this before so dont know how it will come out or how it will come across but its something i feel i need to do.
Ive suffered with social anxiety all my life, ive always just th... | self.SuicideWatch |
Anxiety meds So I’ve been treating my anxiety with pot. I need to be clean for a month for a drug test, so I can do psychiatric diagnostic testing.
That being said I’m finding I’m having a lot of anxiety/stress at work.
I’ve been on Buspar and Clonidine and they didn’t help really.
I’m trying to avoid benzodiazep... | self.Anxiety |
Trying to make a move this weekend I'm trying to ask a girl I know if she wants to hang out.
I don't know. Probably sounds like nothing but for someone who struggles with not only depression but social anxiety it's pretty hard.
Hope I'm going to do it. Might be a step in the right direction I guess... maybe she even... | self.depression |
I don't even try anymore I've stopped trying to get close to anybody around me because I don't know how to explain why I have literally nobody in my life without coming across as a depressing lonely fuck so I just accept my solitude and embrace it now. | self.depression |
Topamax and Palinopsia? This morning I woke up and was experiencing illusory palinopsia. I've never had it before. It may not be due to the topamax, but I've only been on it for a few weeks and I know topamax can cause some visual problems. Anyone else had this? | self.bipolar |
Gonna do it after my holiday in June I'll be going to Austria for my first f1 race with the girl I love but she told me she just wants to be friends with me I can't do just friends but don't wanna not go so I'll do it and after the holiday I've decided to jump my local bridge | self.SuicideWatch |
Depression and overly eatting food. I realised when stable or hypo food + will power are there. When I am stressed,burnt out & depressed I just want to eat and eat like no off button. I feel so guilty when this happens not sure if this is common with bipolar this year been a learning curve. I am also trying tone do... | self.bipolar |
Quetiapine issues Hi all I am Bipolar 1 due to psychotic thoughts or as my psychiatrist calls them soft psychotic. Anyway I have been working on getting used to Serequel or Quetiapine over the last 6 months. I am up to 200mg at night with top ups for anxiety in the day. The issue I am having is pain in my stomach area.... | self.bipolar |
I have an appointment to finally address my anxiety tomorrow. I'm nervous, it's hard to express everything you been feeling in a doctors office setting when you been feeling it for so many years. I just want relief. Any advice? | self.Anxiety |
He needs to get better, even at the cost of our relationship And it's so stupid that we can't do both. I've pushed away the one good thing in my life, the thing that made every day almost worth it.
I tried talking to him yesterday and I wanted to tackle the lack of affection between us, but that should have been a si... | self.SuicideWatch |
Just had yet another panic, this time at the dentist. I'm done. I cannot take it anymore. Im 24, Male, suffering from panic disorder. I have gotten so much better with my panic attacks but then one thing will set me off.
I just got a cleaning at the dentist today and was shaking and nauseous and panicking from the sec... | self.SuicideWatch |
I am done... I met the love of my life here... In this subreddit... I was so happy... Until my family ruined our relationship...
I want to choose a reliable and painless method. I think I'll get a rope and some sleeping pills. What do you guys think I should do? | self.SuicideWatch |
Bupropion 150 mg I'm going to be starting bupropion xl 150mg, I'm so scared, I had a bad reaction to Zoloft so I'm really scared, Zoloft made me have racing thoughts | self.Anxiety |
Feeling kind of lost, don't even know if I'm depressed I have been feeling down for the past few months, nothing specific has triggered it or anything, it just kind of happened. I don't even really know how I feel. Sometimes I am just a normal person living their life, but then this feeling of indifference hits and I d... | self.depression |
Struggling I’m really struggling right now and could you some kindness
Please help? | self.depression |
Can't get out of seasonal depression Mostly around winter and fall I (fall) into a clinically diagnosed seasonal depression. I am 15 years old and turning 16 years old soon and I can't stop being nostalgic about my childhood up until this point. I'm always listening to old sad nostalgic music that fuels my sadness an... | self.depression |
I Need Some Help Winter is hard. Really, November and December are hard for me. I have the worst flashbacks and the most drinks. I have been clinically diagnosed with PTSD from childhood trauma. Those of you who have it should know there are usually several acronyms following that diagnosis.
I drank a lot after Chris... | self.depression |
I want to live a healthy life When I was first diagnosed, I'd often think, "Because I'm bipolar, I have to do X."
Because I'm bipolar, I have to eat healthy.
Because I'm bipolar, I have to cut back on my favorite foods and drinks (coffee/tea).
Because I'm bipolar, I have to stop drinking.
Because I'm bipolar, ... | self.bipolar |
I'm being selfish soon. Goodbye. I really dont know what I'm doing anymore. I haven't cared for my health, or my happiness or anything else in a long while. I really don't know how I'm still here. I have no motivation to do anything anymore. The daily stress is killing me on the inside, and all of the questions, all of... | self.SuicideWatch |
I'm trying really hard not to kill myself today, but I just don't see the point anymore. [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
Feeling lonely but am I? I’m 24 years old. And I’ve never had a romantic relationship. Not because I’m ugly or anything. It’s just never happened. And I feel so alone. I feel lonely but then I ask myself why because I have a group of friends whom I hang out with relatively often. Probably 2-3 a week. So how can I feel ... | self.SuicideWatch |
Received a message to a personal ad from someone who is trans. I politely told them I wasn't interested. Now they just confessed they're suicidal. What to do? I'm shocked and scared for them. I was very nice in my objection of trans, and even offered to help them answer questions about their feelings. They then said th... | self.SuicideWatch |
Why do parents care more about school work than your mental state? I’ve been having the worst time of my life these past months and in return, I’ve been late on assignments. My parents know that I’ve been dealing with really bad depression and anxiety lately and I’ve told them the reason why my assignments are overdue.... | self.depression |
Blue Christmas Hi everyone. I'm not sure how to start this out so I'll just get straight to the point. I am going to kill myself. I've struggled with depression and anxiety for so long and now I've finally been pushed to the edge. Today is the day i finally realized the only way to stop all this pain is to just kill my... | self.SuicideWatch |
Working so hard on something just to fail the moment it matters most [deleted] | self.depression |
Why do I feel like I'm not entitled to be depressed? [deleted] | self.depression |
My mom goes out of her way to avoid anything remotely Middle Eastern, and it pisses me off [deleted] | self.offmychest |
maybe if I'm drunk enough it'll look like an accident | self.SuicideWatch |
Can’t sleep I’m tired, but my head is too loud. I can’t rest with my inner demons tormenting me like this. I close my eyes and all I think about are my failures and mistakes. | self.Anxiety |
Feeling insecure about sex life/ dating I'm 23 never had sex or been in a relationship, and i never felt insecure about it before as I was focused on my mental health. Now there's this guy I'm interested in and after talking for a while he reveals to me that he's been in two relationships before and he's had sex many t... | self.offmychest |
Burning and watery eyes when anxious? I've had burning, watery eyes daily (like 3-4x) for YEARS. I've talked to several doctors about it and it was always brushed off and they said I might have dry eyes. I've recently noticed that my eyes frequently water when I'm anxious or when I'm around someone who I'm not close wi... | self.Anxiety |
[URGENT] My SO just sent me pictures of her self harming and keeps pushing me away After a discord call, my SO went silent on me for about half an hour through text on snapchat. She then followed up after that 30 minutes with a picture of her self harming with the caption "I deserve this." I keep calling and texting he... | self.SuicideWatch |
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