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Having suicidal thoughts. Help me :( I failed at pretty much everything, I always avoided challenges and run away from responsibilities, I'm not good enough. I'm not gonna commit suicide but now I think of more often, my brain hurts now.
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Probably failed final exam and maybe course because of anxiety flare-up [deleted]
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I’m a 21yo south asian guy, and I hate myself. I came to the US in early January this year from a country in South Asia(not India or Pakistan). I came with a lot of hopes and wishes, but I gradually started hating myself and having self-confidence issues. I’ve been in three unsuccessful relationships my entire life, a...
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I confessed my feelings to my best friend and she rejected me. She said she didn’t love me like that. I knew she was going to say no, and I didn’t feel anything until after we were done talking. She was dating someone else, but the feeling had put a mental roadblock for me. It felt so good to get it out, and I’m ready ...
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A hopeless situation I'm fat, ugly, socially withdrawn and I'm doing a degree which I have absolutely no interest in. When I was thinner, things weren't too much different because ultimately I'm ugly... I believe there is no way out except plastic surgery which I won't be able to afford till 4 years later when I get a ...
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Rude or inconsiderate people really stress me out - and I become fixated on them. I’m talking specifically here about strangers. For example, I’m at a beautiful hotel right now in a fantastic holiday spot, but there’s a group of young guys who hang out by the pool, play loud music and basically disrupt the peace. That...
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Lexapro tapering About a month ago, I began tapering off of Lexapro. My daily dose was 15mg and I dropped down to 10mg. For a week the withdrawal was pretty bad as you can imagine, but now I've dropped down to 5mg and I'd say it's a lot worse then dropping from 15 to 10mg. Anyone else experience stomach pain and disc...
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Just got stood up on a first date. Sitting here in the restaurant, alone in a booth, so can't really chitchat with anyone. Dude completely ghosted me minutes before the date. Rude. Edit: Definitely ordered a drink and AMAZING chicken wings. So not a total loss. ;)
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Not willing to work hard Fuck everything. Life is all about work work work. Fuck the gym, fuck the school, fuck the job. I just want to lay in bed all day, watch stupid movies and play video games. I hate that it's supposed to be this way and you're meant to be productive. Why should I live if I dont want to cotribute...
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Hello! If you need someone to talk to I’m here! :) Hi! If anyone is looking for someone to talk to or message please feel free to send me a message with what’s wrong or just vent. I’ll be sure to get back to you and to talk things out if you’d like. Thank you!
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What happened with my friends? Were we really friends? I had this group of friends from highschool, plus a friend of mine I was raised with. We started hanging out in many, and then some of us started hanging out from this group. I dunno what happened, and when it happened, but this group started to be obsessed by be...
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debt deb debt debt lost my job last year, then 3 weeks later lost my second job.. pretty much gave up for the rest of the year.. i've always been so bad with money, and its just gotten worse and worse over the years, and now all my stupid decisions are catching up with me, and I have abolutely no money, income, or an...
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Past year has been a bitch, (lightly) hopeful next year won't be. 2017 was fuckery, I found new lows, lost my job, friends, and have generally just fucked it up, gonna leave it all behind and move to Denver, 'cause it beats leaving it all behind for good (hopefully). Wish me luck, or not because it has helped yet! :)
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Am I going crazy? I'd really appreciate your opinion. (Bereavement Family dynamic) [deleted]
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Super rapid cycling I'm changing like every day. Could be the addition of Prozac. The last at least 4 days have been distinctly different. Do I need inpatient? Edit: I called the psych hospital and they told me I would be outpatient since I'm not an immediate danger to myself or actively manic. So I have to wait almos...
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I convinced my friend to not go to a football game but I still went. Am I wrong? So I haven't seen my friend in over 7 years since graduating college. I live in the bay area (Oakland) and he was staying nearby in Santa Cruz at a yoga retreat visiting from Maryland. He wanted to go to a 49ers game this last week but for...
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Am diagnosed with Bipolar II. But wondering if there’s common misdiagnosis between Bipolar Disorder and Borderline Personality Disorder. Forgive me if my nomenclature is incorrect, but my fear is that I or some others have been misdiagnosed with bipolar disorder rather than BPD. I am taking 300mg of lamotrigine which d...
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I have severe ADHD, and I like a Girl who has anxiety. Hello, /r/anxiety! I'm sorry to say that I do not have anxiety myself, as far as I can tell, most of the time. But I do have ADHD and have grown very close to a person who does have anxiety and I'm trying to find some guidance with what is a very neurologically uni...
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Struggling Really, really struggling tonight. If anyone is available to talk I would appreciate it a lot.
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I just realised you're a fuckboy And we've not even met yet. Not sure we will now after clearly getting my name and tastes wrong
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WHEW For the few friends that I do have, I don't have any classes with them, so I never really talk at school. I don't think many of you are alone, but it sucks. Also, I'm not sure any of this is real. I can't even verify anything you tell me, because if it is true that this isn't real, then everything you tell me cou...
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I Don't Want to Do Diabetes Anymore- And I Don't Even Have It My daughter has type 1 diabetes. She's 11. She was diagnosed at age 6 after I kept pushing and pushing and yelling and screaming that something was terribly wrong. I love her so much. Having diabetes is 1000x harder on her than it is on me that she has it. ...
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i want to take pills with alcohol not to die, just want to not be awake anymore. It's all so confusing and numb and strange to me that i want to take 1mg of clonazepam and alcohol to make me sleep. Bad thing is, my family's hiding my pills from me in fear of me taking them all and killing myself or something (which is ...
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The problem with feminism, alt right and alt left , black lives matter and all other groups People are generally very closed minded and ignorant . I notice this all the time and if you think about this you will understand what I mean . I am talking about . When people form groups and start labeling people and group...
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Almost 2 months post-divorce. I still cry over her...despite her repeated abuse and neglect. Married for 15 years to her. We have 4 children, 3 living, pets, a home. After multiple years of abuse and neglect from her, I filed for divorce because I simply couldn't take it any longer. I see pictures of her, thanks to st...
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Looking to connect. Something deeper than social media standards of the present [deleted]
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I saw my old bully for the first time in years. He came into my workplace to order food. When I was in school, he tried to fight me all the time. He'd throw ice balls at me in the winter, he'd push me into lockers, he'd sometimes shove me to the ground and try to kick me. I started skipping school because I was scare...
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New Meds!!! I’m so excited. My med that’s going to replace Seriquil has come in! It took months but it finally got approved. Ahhh!!! I’m ready to get off Seriquil.
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How would i go about telling someone i think im becoming suicidal [deleted]
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I'm so sad this is my life I don't get it, I could never imagine this would be me. I am lacking in so many areas in my life and am scared what will happen with my life after college. The days blur together, I'm wasting what should be the best time of my life. ADD makes it even harder to live life. I wish I wasn't like ...
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Is it worth it? I really can't seem to find a point any more. A lot of my friends are either cut off from me, or simply don't respond any more. Why? Why does everyone just...leave? I've been fighting and fighting to stay alive this year but I'm sick of it. Nobody knows me and nobody ever will. There's literally no on...
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I have no idea what I'm doing. It strikes me whenever I try to do those big things that affect my future. I've been trying to figure out if I need to file my taxes and through the hour and a half I've been looking I just keep realizing I have no idea. I don't know what's the best thing to do, I don't know what I'm supp...
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I can't do this anymore Why am I here. I don't wnat to be here. everyday that passes I can't take anymore. And if I take my life who would notice? I don't want to be alive anymore. I can't. I can't. I can't. I can't. I can't.
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Ever get sick of anxiety for the day and it kinda goes away? Like, you’ve spent so much energy worrying and contemplating that you just naturally focus on other things and your anxiety goes away? At least temporarily.
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Credible online resources for researching medications Hello all. Long time reddit user though I just created this account specifically to learn, share, and discuss my bipolar diagnosis. Going in to the new year, I want to try and tackle my treatment starting with understanding more about medications as I consult with m...
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I wouldn't mind being a candle Yesterday was transgender day of remembrance. There were so many wonderful posts about people who had overcome their inner demons, who didn't want to add to the list of trans people who killed themselves. Everyone was up in arms saying "I would rather raise the flag in pride than have a c...
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Mental Blocks and Anxiety So I am an all star cheerleader and I know I can do my roundoff back handspring. But lately (past two weeks) whenever I think about doing it or try and do it, my body tenses up and I just can’t do it. I don’t know if this is the right place to post this, but I just needed to get it off my ches...
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Anxiety related sleeping issues. So I'm writing this on yet another sleepless night. So lately I've had problems sleeping. What basically happens is that my heartrate goes up when trying to sleep. I often check my heartrate before sleeping and when I'm not feeling anxious it's usually somewhere in between 50 to 60 bpm ...
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Nobody cares I fucking hate this stupid world. Nobody cares about me, I have no friends and I'm a disappointment to everyone I've ever met. It feels like every day the air is sucking the life out of me. I've accomplished nothing and that will never change because I'm a pathetic lazy, selfish and annoying person. I just...
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Does this sound like starting a mania episode to you? (After starting Prozac) Hey everyone. So after an excruciating break up two years ago, I was completely fucked. But I waited for the sadness to go away so I could move on...and waited...and waited. After 6 months of only getting worse I decided to seek help. My doct...
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Does this seem like Anxiety to you? So I have been a bunch of strange symptoms over the last 3 weeks which have caused me to freak out thinking that I have MS. The symptoms are 1. A sense of something crawling over my skin. This is very random and never never localized and jumps from one leg to another and to my arms ...
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I want magic to be real. I love magic. My favorite genre of books, video games, and films is fantasy, especially when there is some magical aspect to it. Whether it's similar to Harry Potter, Lord of the Rings, the Force, Elder Scrolls, Pirates of the Carribean, Mistborn, A Song of Ice and Fire...whatever, I just wan...
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Does anyone know if caffeine heightens, or lessens, anxiety? Im currently out of Prozac (hurray) and have been for the past couple of days. I know that, for me, caffeine works as a quick and dirty fix for ADD. I’m just curious about what effect it will have on my anxiety.
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What's the point? I'm so scared all the fucking time. Life is mostly negative emotions for me why shouldn't I just call it quits? I hate everything about myself. I'm a worthless selfish asshole just like my father. I can see it in the way I act around others. My heart is full of anger and hate, I'm an example of everyt...
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I'm going to die without being love because of the way I am now. I only like this girl and in my twenty years of living on this forsaken planet, I've only ever liked one girl romantically and only that girl. Well, here we go. My story. Me and this girl have been friends for four years and she's actually approached m...
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I feel like I'm losing I feel like I'm losing the war inside my head with all this anxiety, overthinking and all these thoughts and I don't know what to do. I hate sharing what I'm going through with people because I don't want them to worry.
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Completely out of motivation I’ve always struggled with getting myself motivated to do my schoolwork. Usually I can force myself to do it most of the time, but recently my motivation and drive to do my work has been so low that it’s hurting my grades. Any advice on how to fix this?
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I’m having extreme difficulty getting out of my head. [deleted]
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Very anxious about going back to work tomorrow Starting a 3-week contract tomorrow to finish up a project I was working on before the holidays. I know it’s not that long but my anxiety made it very difficult for me to work before the holidays. I’m worried it won’t go any better this time around. I find myself being anx...
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I just want to feel okay with wanting to commit suicide I don't want to have that nagging voice that says "don't do it". It's always wrong. I genuinely feel like I would be happier dying and not having to deal with the bullshit of the world, but I can't just 'try' to commit suicide. I either need to be successful or no...
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Made the mistake of thinking about a tramautic event to answer an Ask reddit thread. Shaking again. Fuck, I thought it goes away. I would have been fine last month.
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People don't understand In the eyes of the people around me I'm just a stupid teen. But in reality I'm a deeply depressed with no way out. I've tryed to kill myself 3 times and thought about it since I was 13 I'm 16 now. People say life gets better but since I was 13 it hasn't it just get worse. Nothing works no one ca...
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Can someone be nice for a second? Single middle aged guy just trying to survive. Mostly fine, occasionally lonely. I have no support system. No family or friends. I'm not even asking for a hug, just maybe a few nice words? Perhaps a conversation?
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The only reason I don't kill myself is that I don't want my family to be embarrassed [deleted]
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It's cold out there -- I lost a lot of weight over the past couple of years. I cleaned out my coat closet and took 6 winter coats that didn't fit to my local homeless shelter, along with some sweaters, warm scarves and layering type t-shirts. The guy who took my donation told me that they can't keep enough coats on ha...
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Woop Woop I don't sleep anymore and I barely eat. My parents noticed and are now kind of worried. Mostly mad though. That's a change. I had a slight burst of energy. I think it's my body's last "hurrah" before I fall into the sweet release of death. That was a joke, I'm not dying at least not on the outside. (woah supe...
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She is God's apology She knows me. She has seen me higher than the tweekers strutting down The Drag, spitting my words out with vigor, swaggering like I own the world. Confidence bordering on grandiosity, young and hungry, ready to make a name for myself. Dreams of a life like Jordan Belfort, my eyes shine with lust. S...
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hey, I'm back another throwaway account I'm back to my suicidal tendencies and hatred of life. Fueled jealousy of others, my inadequacy life, my shame of being the person I am, and just general problems with society has caused me to be this way. I procrastinate constantly, I rarely go outside, I can't stand people a...
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I feel lonely no matter what. How do I form meaningful connections? I’m not a socialite or anything, but I have a few close friends who I care about a lot. My family isn’t awful right now, and I’m super close with my twin brother. It just seems like no matter how many times I communicate with other humans, I always fee...
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Autopilot Whilst I do have ADHD and autism, I noticed today that I was in ‘autopilot’ mode during most of my first day at work. Is this a common manifestation of anxiety? I do take Citalopram and Concerta for anxiety, depression and focus but I haven’t been particularly forlorn for over three months now. But the Con...
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The way I feel today As if an enormous hand has me caught by the chest. As if I´m dragging an anvil tied to my ankle. As if I am submerged undera layer of ice, thicker enough so that I can see the surface, but not emerge. I know there is a simpler reality out there, a clarity that I can almost touch but it somehow esca...
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Is anybody out there? If find it kinda of funny that my last words are gonna be a posted by me in a web page, which is visited yi thousands of people daily, and even though it's probably that nobody reads it. But bah I just hope to those who took 5 minutes of their precious life to read about my average-no so especial ...
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"Group" projects are the worst WHY IS IT THAT EVERY TIME A GROUP ASSIGNMENT HAPPENS THAT MY GROUP IS THE DUMBEST. I'm working on group projects right now and I guess my partner just can't tell the difference between their and there and that's the least of the problems. So wish me luck in pulling a few all-nighters to f...
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How do I get over thinking I’m in a constant threat of dying? It’s always really funny to me when songs talk about living like your dying. They really mean cherish life and live life to the fullest. For me living like I’m dying is a horrible daily worry and is changing me for the worse. Multiple times a day I have some...
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Does anybody else imaging living a better life? I will just sit in my bed dreaming about having a better life. Not feel ashamed to speak about my feelings to someone, not being isolated, having friends, stop being laughed at. Just live a normal life for once. I can only dream right
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I have difficulty to focus. Are drugs prescribed to people with ADHD (adderall and ritalin) a bad choice if I have anxiety disorder? (Small doses of caffeine seem to have positive effect on my anxiety level.)
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At this rate, depression is going to be a default sub Just keeping watching the subs climb higher, week by week...
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Don’t even have the energy to write in this Look through my post and comment history all you’d like, the gist is that I hate life and that nothing I do could possibly improve me.
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Depressed but Depressed even further after reading r/sex and r/relationships. Depressed and Lonely (Don't have anyone), 0 experience, no relationships ever, abusive relationship with parents, trauma, treated like shit/doormat. My siblings think i'm a loser. Never been hugged or loved. :( When I'm out I don't feel lik...
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I hate myself I hate myself, but I don't completely want to. I wrote down a list of reasons/opinions I have about myself: -unable to fulfill any shred of human decency -unable to remember things -waaay too able to remember other things -can't control myself, my emotions, or especially my discipline. -I can't do ho...
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Regarding Zoloft Hey all, I was just wondering what your experiences were like with zoloft. I was prescribed zoloft for anxiety and panic disorder but I haven't began taking it yet. Have any of you had any bad side effects upon beginning to take it? I'm nervous that it will have adverse effects or something. Has it hel...
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iTherapy.com AMA on January 11 with Licensed Professionals Hello everyone! On Thursday, January 11, we will be hosting an Ask Me Anything thread with a team from iTherapy.com, an online counseling service that assists practices in managing their offices. The AMA will cover a wide range of mental health topics with a f...
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1 year later: still thinking of suicide, still a pedophile This is kind of a status report. I joined a year ago, posted this: https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/59mji5/i_hate_myself_because_im_a_pedophile/ Almost exactly a year ago, but the timing is not intended. I stopped taking the chemical castration...
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And to add to my anxiety I already posted about how my anxiety has been peaking lately, and how I rarely sleep, and that my stress has been growing more and more. Well, to add to the long list of things I was already stressed about, I have an emergency appointment early tomorrow morning to see my surgeon. It seems th...
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Heart palpitations and 2 seconds of terror? I have panic disorder. Lately, I've been experiencing a lot of heart palpitations which prelude a panic attack. I went to the ER to get it checked out, and even had a palpitation and panic attack as I was hooked to the machine and they said it was totally normal and just anxi...
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Does anyone get arm numbness with their anxiety? I’m some what of a hypochondriac but one thing for certain is my left arm being numb or hurting nearly 24/7 (because I’m anxious 24/7) of course it makes me worry that I’m having a heart attack, although I’m 22 and seemingly healthy. Does anyone else have this? Is there...
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Any calming game reccomendations? Hi everyone, I was just wondering if anyone has some game reccomendations, either pc, 3ds or phone apps. I find that games distract me a lot and help to calm my anxiety. I usually turn to games like animal crossing and stardew valley but if anyone else has different reccomendations I'...
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Fucking HELP Today's been a perfect storm of awful. I didn't sleep well. Every little thing was annoying and stupider than it should be. Then I called my pharmacy to check if my refill of Wellbutrin (prescribed in November for particularly bad seasonal depression due to holidays and anniversary of mother's death) was r...
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Ever think about telling somebody you know about your anxiety? I have told a few close friends about my crying at night/ stress fits when there's nothing in particular to stress about. I just sometimes want to tell the assholes/ bossy friends in my circles about it so they'd understand why k couldn't stay at parties lo...
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How has Depression impacted your Thanksgiving so far? I imagine many people's Thanksgiving holidays are spent with a whole slew of family members or friends, cooking up a big turkey and the fixings, socializing, celebrating in front of a fireplace. Me: will be eating cold cuts with canned yams, cranberry sauce and ca...
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If one person reads what I have to share, then I'm satisfied. Hi friends. It's just slow at work and I wanted to share how I've felt the past year. I've never posted here before, but I've never felt so depressed before, so here goes. I'm currently 20 and I've never felt so selfish, pessimistic, narcissistic, and lazy...
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Shared my pre-cancer all clear with my future MIL and she got nasty I had a pre-cancer scare earlier this year (CIN 3 pre-cancer on my cervix). This week I got the all clear. I shared this news with family and friends and with my future-MIL. I expected congratulations and that we could celebrate together at a Christmas...
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Tips and advice for motivating yourself while struggling with depression? I get it. This is like asking for advice on how to grasp clouds with your bare hands. Still, I've searched and skimmed but haven't really found anything, so I'm asking all the same. For more details, I'm an aspiring writer. It's all I want to do...
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Im just feeling horrible right now... Im not even 18 yet and im just feeling like i wont ever be happy again...i cant even really remember what it feels like to be happy, to laugh, i dont know what it feels like to be desired or to be asked for, and thats so fucking depressing, especially when i see people who are desi...
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Do I have a higher IQ now that my depression has lifted? I fell into depression when I was 10-13 and then it kinda went on until recently when I became 21, so I was depressed throughout the most formative years of one's life and when I was still growing to the full potential of my intellectual capabilities. I did relat...
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Why is everything in my life seemingly so bad? [deleted]
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Working is very hard for me. What are my options? In my most recent depression cycle I have come to the conclusion with my therapist that holding an everyday normal 9-5 or even a consistent job of any sort is not possible for me. It’s been a few years of coming to this conclusion but I think if i change my thoughts to ...
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Concussion, migraines, suicidal, this sucks Got a concussion a week ago. An awful ER visit, urgent care visit, and still no good treatment. My migraines are constant now and drugs aren't helping. Started getting suicidal thoughts. I'm trying to get help but I don't know where to go or what to try. Since the migraines ...
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Anybody else get sad at night? I don't know why but I can keep all my obsessions and thoughts in check in the morning. It's almost like I can forget all my problems - Yet once it gets dark out it all surfaces and I can't help myself. My HOCD flairs up and I can't help being sad. It's hard to get my mind off of it and ...
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Where is the time portal? Sometimes I wish I could undo my mistakes, but people don’t forget [deleted]
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feeling disconnected I moved to a new city a few months ago for a PhD, and I'm feeling my mental illness - which was under control - rear its ugly head again. My project is way behind because I've found it so hard to focus with such an increase in anxiety. My deadline is in just over a week, and I should have done more...
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After looking at a few videos of myself, I now realize how ugly I am. I can't believe it. I thought it wasn't true though I've been very insecure about my looks since I was young. I'm a 25 year old woman and never had a boyfriend. My forehead looked really strong. My nose looked really plumped and wide. And I notice ho...
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Wednesday, early afternoon... Deliberately sitting in the kitchen to get the benefit of some sunshine...spent the morning reading part of a book (Joyce Myers’ Overload)...napping and praying/meditating...checking out r/StarWars now that I finally got to see TLJ yesterday (a good day) Just half an hour ago I made mysel...
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I'm not sure if i can explain how I think and feel, I would just want someone to sit beside me.
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I guess it's hospital time... Do you guys ever feel weird packing before going? I feel like it makes me a lier.. like if I was really in crisis I wouldn't have time to pack. I worry the staff judges me on it.. random thoughts as I panic at the thought of hospital. My Mom is pretty set on me going and my pdocs assistant...
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I really want to kill myself. It seems like such a good option. I could just pass away in peace. my older brother just turned 7. I know my parents love him more than me. Im being bullied in school. My dad keeps a gun on his nightstand and it would be so easy to just pull the trigger. I can't think of any reason to live...
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I'm lonely but incapable of making real connections with people [deleted]
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Last few years I had no motivation in gaming, can u guys help me get it back? What are a positive thing with gaming? I played World of Warcraft / League of Legends (online games) for 10+ years and since I quit school (6 months ago). I just been siting home every day alone, and worst part is I got no online friends an...
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This isn't working. How the hell am I supposed to get better. Here's how getting help always goes, 4 times now probably. I feel worthless, I'm doing nothing, I feel super depressed. So I eventually work up the courage and energy to go to the doctors and get some help. They barely care, give me a script of something tha...
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Feels like I've been born in the wrong age. [deleted]
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