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Can you be suicidal without having depression? I’m not diagnosed with depression and here I am knowing I will have killed myself by 5 years from now. I know I have people who care about me and all but for some reason I just push them all away. Im bored with life and I want to know what happens next. Curiosity killed th... | self.depression |
Just wanted to give you all a shout out for being yourselves and being here I don't use reddit thaaaat often, but when I do, I'm probably on this subreddit. I just wanted to say its nice to have this to come to when I'm feeling insecure or when I get way too deep into researching bipolar. You guys make me realize my te... | self.bipolar |
It's equal parts terrifying and exhilarating to finally understand that nobody really cares I used to try to talk to people about my depression, and tell them how I felt. In the end it only pushed people alway. No one wants to hear about your depression and the things you go through that suck. All they want to hear abo... | self.depression |
Just screwed my chances at possibly getting a job.... I was sitting in the group meeting when they said that my application wasn't received, and all I had to do was send it via phone right there. This made me a tad nervous, but it wasn't really a big deal.
It all fell apart when I couldn't even log in to send the app... | self.Anxiety |
My degeneracy has reached over 9000, a confession of my sins. I am such a waste of life, I have consistently failed to live like normal human. For 15 years my life has been getting worse and 2017 was by far the worst year of my life. I just want to go over how much of a degenerate I am because I have nothing left to do... | self.depression |
I made everything harder than it had to be [deleted] | self.offmychest |
I found the root of all my problems, the thing they all have in common! [deleted] | self.depression |
I am desperate, I need someone to talk to. Hey whoever is reading this, I need some help and I don’t know who to turn to. So a few years back I started experiencing issues socializing with people. It has gotten to the point where I have no friends left and can’t start conversations with coworkers or even my bf’s friend... | self.Anxiety |
lowering expectations in life to a cube you exist in the world is grim, cruel, depressing.
going to just look for peace and quiet.
something small. stop trying to win, and maybe just sustain?
peace to tend to, history to enjoy
fight to be the best in the cube
soft breeze and gentle sky
lo-fi, a lo-fi life
be pre... | self.depression |
Hey, for those who are or have been on metformin, what's it like and what does it do for you? Briefly discussed with pdoc because I have previous serious binge eating problems and now I am more so struggling with recurrent overeating and unable to lose weight easily. I can maybe go a few weeks with losing weight before... | self.bipolar |
I'm afraid to get a real job because I sleep for 13 hours a day I work at a gas station right now, and it's alright. But I want to go to college one day and get a real job, or even get a 'real' job somewhere else beforehand working at a plant nearby (there's this sand delivery place that's supposed to be really good) b... | self.depression |
Feeling Lost and Lonely (just a rant) I don't really know. I can't sleep at night anymore, and am incredibly unproductive. I don't eat much even though I know I should, but I'm not that hungry. I feel really alone. I don't know how people meet other who like them and want to be with them. I try not to show how sad I am... | self.depression |
I really want to fucking escape (bullying and shit.) [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
There's no salvation from this Nothing I do matters and if I try to get better or just feel better, I fuck it up in some. I fuck it up in any way possible. No wonder I cant keep friends, no wonder I don't have a SO, no wonder I'm not going anywhere in life. And even if I had all those things, I'd strike myself down at... | self.depression |
I don't matter, never have and never will. Absolutely nothing would change if I killed myself. I still consider suicide every day. The lost of my grandfather and being let go from my job less than a week later (no bad blood, it had to do with work and college schedules, but still) and 2 failed exams (once again, colleg... | self.SuicideWatch |
I (27/F) have been off my anxiety meds for about a week and i'm wondering if i should start them again Hello! I've got generalized anxiety disorder, work about 30 hours a week and go to school full time. I also struggle with some PTSD and depression. A couple years ago, I started on Citalopram with the help of my PCP;... | self.Anxiety |
My cat died and it upsets me more than i expected I know losing a pet is not the biggest deal in the world but I'm crying a little on the train home after just hearing my mother reversed the car over the cat.
It's just me and mam in the house and I'm not home a lot, the cat was like a baby to her. she never went far f... | self.offmychest |
I’m afraid to go to work because it causes me to have anxiety attacks [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
Over Thinking- The life and Times of me So, I️ know I️ over think. It’s no mystery. I️ have always had a problem with it, from the time I️ 8, I️ remember not being able to solve riddles because I️ could not stop going over every detail trying to figure out how all the things added up. Oh well, I️ live with i️t. The one... | self.offmychest |
I think I have bad anger issues, but I don't know how to tell my parents My dad can be an angry person. When he gets upset, there's no doubt in anyone's mind that he's feeling that way. He yells and he swears, you know the usual. I love him, but in those moments of anger, all I can think is; don't you realize how stupi... | self.offmychest |
I'm useless and it's showing I'm not a healthy person and I guess it's showing . My blood sugar has been out of range. I'm a nursing student who does a lot of physical activity and I need to try to change. In class yesterday I had cpr class and had to try to give cpr to the mannequin. My blood sugar went out of whack ,... | self.depression |
Don't know if this is against the rules so sorry if it is but yano I don't want to seem like a self diagnoser or an attention seeker but a friend who has been diagnosed as bipolar has advised me to come here and do some research and try gain some insight as to what my situation might be. For the last 3 years on and off... | self.bipolar |
Wishing for the void Long story shot, job hunting has triggered me into an existential crisis of sorts and has got me thinking about how id rather have just not done the whole life thing in the first place.
It feels like someone took me out to a restaurant when i wasn't hungry to start. Maybe my food isn't bad, maybe ... | self.depression |
I can't do it but I wish I could. [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
Feeling horrible over something sexual I did when I was younger, what was done to me and the abuse I endured as a kid. MeToo got me thinking about my past, what was done to me and what I did to someone else.
I faced a lot of abuse as a kid, my mom wasn't there, my dad took his anger out on me verbally and at times ph... | self.offmychest |
Therapy is too expensive and I'm suicidal i've been getting mentally worse for the last couple of years, two weeks ago i had the urge to throw myself in front of a train, it was scary and also so attractive as an idea. i didn't do anything and the thought went away.
these last couple of days I've been feeling very bad,... | self.SuicideWatch |
Screw off anxiety I stayed home from work today because I was struggling with my anxiety all morning. I feel like a wimp for calling in sick and it’s just making it worse. I don’t even have anything unusual or new to be worried about today, something just hit me and I can’t get it to go away. Thursdays are one of my fa... | self.offmychest |
I hate myself so much right now I hate that I'm this way. I hate that my mind does this! I hate what I just did, it was a huge breach of trust between me and my family. I don't expect my husband to understand if he finds out, it's totally understandable that he should want to leave me. I'm a terrible person, I can't bl... | self.bipolar |
I really need help for my sister, don't know what to do. throwaway for obvious reasons.
My sister is 29 years old, and has never been happy for as long as I can remember. I desperately need assistance in figuring out how to help her. I love her very much, but I feel like I don't know what to do to help.
She lives at ... | self.depression |
To Stressed to write or study I feel completely hopeless right now, like truly and completely hopeless. I know it’s near the end of the semester but I do not feel any sort of sense of accomplishment or happiness, not even relief. I feel nothing except stress and anxiety. I find history and museum studies to be the most... | self.Anxiety |
Out of options and out of time The main reason I am posting this is because I really feel this is my last chance to say something. I am planning on ending this in the spring, as this is when I will be losing everything. I have been planning this for a while, and it honestly sounds better as time moves forward. I have a... | self.depression |
Anyone else like to get hammered by themselves It's a shitty way to cope with things but it takes the pain away for a little bit. Anyone else? I know when I do it I end up bawling my eyes out at some point | self.depression |
I'm at the point where I've kinda given up and accepted that my mental state is just totally /fucked/ but somehow find no comfort in acceptance and only more anxiety. [deleted] | self.depression |
Why I can't tell anyone about my suicidal thoughts [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
please share with me what you do to feel less depressed hello, i wanted to talk to somebody else that the people i know in real life, i have really good friends, and most of my family supports me but i dont have the courage to talk to them about how i feel, i know they have their own problems they have to deal with and... | self.depression |
my last sleep paralysis experience *disclaimer - I'm not really good at telling a story but i felt like i need/want to share this experience*
So I have always been experiencing sleep paralysis and it doesn't bother me since it always happens and I kind of got used to it. I mastered how to snap out of it.
One night, I... | self.depression |
life is moving too fast and too slow i’ve lived with my parents while i went to community college after graduating hs. i didn’t get amazing grades but i’ve gotten one acceptance letter out of the three colleges i applied to transfer to. that’s the good news, and it’s why i feel my life is moving too fast. i feel so you... | self.depression |
My mom told me she doesnt care about me (long) I've never gone to anyone for help or advice in my life because I've never felt like I had someone to go to so this is awkward for me and I want to keep it short, so this isn't going to be some long story just some sentences that do something I guess. (this part is a lie, ... | self.depression |
I hate taking medications for my mental disorder Early last year I was diagnosed with pretty severe OCD with comorbidities of generalized anxiety and depression. Since then I’ve been prescribed Zoloft, Wellbutrin, Prozac—none of them have worked so far, even up to 200mg and taking all of them for several months each. M... | self.offmychest |
I want to kill myself right now I'm 23 years old, suffered from depression about 10 years now.
I've had severe anxiety about everything and everyone for about 5 years now. I can't even go in my own backyard without fear of someone seeing me. I can't hold down a job, I focus too much on my mistakes and I can't see way... | self.SuicideWatch |
Tired of feeling sick I just need to rant about this for a while, I’m getting sick of it. I’ve been feeling sick for about a month now, I’ve had tension headaches, a persistent cough for 2 weeks, diarrhea, loss of appetite, now chest pain and tiredness as well. I’ve been to more doctors in the past two weeks than I usu... | self.offmychest |
These annoying kids in the movie!!! Tonight, my cousins, my dad, and I decided to see the new Star Wars movie. The theatre was packed because it’s the day after Christmas and everyone just wants to get out of the house.
We sit down and this family behind us has these two kids with them, and they will not shut the hell... | self.offmychest |
Anyone else have a parent with strong tooth enamel and bipolar ... and had the same symptoms in themselves. | self.bipolar |
chest pain...even when not feeling anxious Starting about a month ago, I started experiencing some chest pain fairly regularly, mostly on the left side of my sternum. A few weeks ago, after having a panic attack from worrying about the chest pain, I went to an urgent care clinic where they took and EKG and a chest x-ra... | self.Anxiety |
Alcohol cures my anxiety temporarily I have to admit that I'm drunk out of my mind while I'm writing this. But I haven't felt more calm and stable in a long time. I'm not doubting myself. I see things clearly. I feel like I can actually be productive. My brain isn't racing to the next negative thing. Maybe alcohol is ... | self.Anxiety |
It’s almost over I’m sitting here across from a loaded gun ready to take my own life tonight. I don’t know how it came to this, I don’t know the way forward, doesn’t seem like there is one. I’m so conflicted, nothing id going how I want, I can’t handle my emotions at this point...I’m completely losing control of myself... | self.SuicideWatch |
Is this Anxiety? Or an urge to do well? Thought I would post this in here. Really curious. Recently (I'm 18 btw) I have noticed a funny feeling in my gut almost 24/7. I feel like I'm procrastinating for something, but I don't know what. I feel bad if I sit at home after college and don't do anything productive. I feel ... | self.Anxiety |
Did anyone else not struggle with meds? So I'm feeling a wee bit paranoid
I'm doing a lot better now, I'm taking lithium and latuda and I've reached a certain dose that seems to be working well for me
But now I'm wondering... is it the meds or me? Don't most people struggle with finding the right cocktail?
So am I r... | self.bipolar |
Ending it Tonight Hey everyone,
I have 0 friends, a family that barely likes me, and my girlfriend has just passed before the holidays. I feel alone, I'm ready to go. Theres no one for me to write a note for really. So I'm just leaving this here. If I can give any final advice to anyone before I go: things don't get be... | self.SuicideWatch |
I'm way too scared I don't want to live anymore, everyone on this earth just hurts me and I shouldn't stay here any longer. I'm way too scared to take action and liberate myself from this painful horrible world. I don't want to see any therapists because they are also monsters and don't deserve my money. I don't deserv... | self.SuicideWatch |
In need of a depression buddy. F23 Anyone want to be depression buddies? Preferably female | self.depression |
I just got brought to my campus security office out of the blue. Sitting in the library. Working on assignments as usual. And a campus peace office approaches me and wants to talk about some of the concerning things I've been saying.
It all is happening so fast. I'm just in a room talking to some mental health police ... | self.depression |
stuck in a meaningless life I am a 34 male, been in serious depression on and off for quite a while because mostly of my way of thinking doesn't really work with this society...
Its been at least 3 years now that I literally stuck and just don't know what to do with myself, I can't stand barely any kind of job more th... | self.depression |
Being in Public Actually Helps my Anxiety I know for most people being out in public only worsens anxiety. however It's helped me stay calm during attacks and keep grounded. I also get anxious by myself so that could be a factor. I think the best thing is it forces me to not freak out and hyperventilate because I alway... | self.Anxiety |
My health is killing me I’ve been chronically ill for months. It’s taken a serious mental toll on me. Waiting for insurance in January to get better but it’s been so damn long. Have several symptoms of having a heart attack soon, but would rather die than deal with bankruptcy. Was considering taking my life tonight (ha... | self.SuicideWatch |
Fast forward time. Depressingly, for years, I've just wanted to be able to fast forward time. When I was a kid first watching Star Trek, I got this impression that the future just was a better place. That no matter what happened, the future would be more progressive and have better technology and people would be better... | self.Anxiety |
Suicide Maybe (NSFW) I'm writing this down simply because I want to more clearly view my thoughts. Even though if someone found out what I was writing it wouldn't matter that much, it's not like they know me in real life.
So, I've been thinking. Is there an easy way to kill yourself? I know that there are multiple ways... | self.SuicideWatch |
Extreme Fear of driving - need to find ways to cope Hey guys,
So I'm not sure how common the problem is but I have an extreme anxiety of driving. I'm 23, I don't hold a drivers license yet but it would be useful to get one just for convenience.
I'm a fully qualified pilot however and flying recreationally is somethi... | self.Anxiety |
i'm 14 and i just tried to kill myself 2 hours ago I don't know how to start this. But here it goes I guess. (just to catch you all up: i was diagnosed with major depressive disorder, anxiety, etc. etc. I have an abusive, pot smoking mom with BPD and a disabled 4 yrd old sister. Dad's not here, never has been.)
I tri... | self.SuicideWatch |
I've already given up. I think I've come to this realization that I've honestly already given up. I'm just floating through life waiting to either die or for me to do something exceptionally stupid again that makes me kill myself, and I don't want to do anything even remotely uncomfortable or difficult in the mean time... | self.SuicideWatch |
So far gone I don't know what to do. I have become a complete waste of who I once was. I am siting here writing to internet strangers my reason for being so depressed I screamed today until I became too hoarse to talk. I just had yet another in a long line lately of breakdowns. Each one makes me feel less and less wher... | self.depression |
I'm a straight male who is into a lesbian. All throughout high school and middle school I had crippling social anxiety to the point where I never really talked to anyone for more than 5 minutes and didn't have any friends except for one best friend. I'm in college now, second year, and somehow I was lucky enough when I... | self.offmychest |
Worried about my best friend My friend has been going through a lot lately. She broke up with her boyfriend, that same boyfriend has been sucking all the hope and positivity away from her, not to mention most of her friends as well. She's fallen into a depression, it seems. Yesterday she sent me a text that said: "I ca... | self.SuicideWatch |
Suicidal thoughts are back and I think I'm gonna do it soon Help | self.depression |
Constantly counting down the time until I leave for work. So for example : Yesterday I worked at 1pm. From the moment I wake up I am thinking 'OK I have two hours until I need to leave. Ok 45 minutes' and the closer it gets - the more anxious I become. I have no issue being at work. It is the idea of leaving and gettin... | self.Anxiety |
Anyone else's depression get worse around the holidays? With the holiday season in full swing I am finding it harder every day to keep going. This has been getting progressively worse for me every year here recently. Thanksgiving and Christmas just remind me I am 34 and single. Visiting with the family becomes su... | self.depression |
I don't even know what to think anymore. I don't know if this belongs in suicide watch. I don't want to commit suicide, but I think my friend might have just done so. I guess I'll know for sure in a few days, when he doesn't contact me. He was or is severely depressed. I'm not going to talk about all of his issues here... | self.SuicideWatch |
Anyone still depressed no matter what they do? I go out five or six nights a week, work full time, have sex yet I still feel hollow. Thought I just needed a few things but I’m depressed no matter what. | self.depression |
I fucking hate that I hate everything. I hate how we are guided by emotions, not logic. That I see the evil in everyone when I'm depressed even though they are good people. How I expect people to love me for who I am even though I'm an antisocial piece of shit who looks like he wants to murder everyone. I hate that I t... | self.depression |
i have no real future because of social services (they were also sued) idk if this belongs here... [deleted] | self.depression |
Over Christmas I called and e-mailed Samaritans Hello,
I’ve been dealing with depression and other stuff for a while now. Like many, it’s hard to talk about.
I’ve had CBT and SRT but neither has been great. Not to say it doesn’t work, it might for you.
Anyway. Last year was my third Christmas alone and it usually do... | self.depression |
Freaking out over possible overdose In a fit of anger I sliced up my wrists and took 7 tylneol, and I took 2 last night. They were extra strength and I took probably 4500 mg. I regret it but I don't want to go to the hospital for nothing. I'm just trying to calm down but I'm freaking out it's been a hour and I feel ver... | self.SuicideWatch |
I am a worthless piece of shit and i will never be loved or needed by anyone I dont even know why am I writing this. It just feels good to share my thoughts and this Is the only place where i can | self.depression |
I don’t want to get things worse I feel like I’m drowning in the pitch. I have the lump in my throat for most of the time. I don’t want to stop resisting suicidal thoughs but it’s getting worse.
I don’t want to strain with this my friends and family. It feels like they could fall apart like me.
I’m a teenager, text m... | self.SuicideWatch |
Idk how long I can keep this up. I'm working, but I donno how much longer I will be able to. I have zero consistency at the moment--good day or bad day depends, and could happen at any point. I've been showing up late, leaving early. Feeling incredibly ill while I'm there, this dense heavy feeling in the chest. I want ... | self.bipolar |
Hear me out. If your none black, your depression is kind of a knockoff. Honestly, I just got accidentally sucked into that negative side that taunts the flaws of my race and had to pull my self away from it. The reminder is brutal and will never change. With the constant news, I believe we're the joke of the earth now,... | self.depression |
Has Anyone Else ODed on Lithium? Was there lasting damage? I don’t know, have just not felt well since. Like I messed up my kidneys.
Symptoms (In order of appearance)
*severe fatigue
* high blood pressure (had always been around 110/60, now 130/80)
*flushing
*urinary retention
*diarrhea
I’ve talked to both my pdoc... | self.bipolar |
How could I deal with breathing anxiety? I constantly worry about breathing wrong and feeling different body sensations when I breath in. I feel like i have to tale cobtrol because my mind forgot how to breath properly which is stupid. I started to just let it go and whatever I feel like I try to accept it assuming wha... | self.Anxiety |
Rant on my life.. I don't know where to start. I feel like the sanest and craziest person at the same time. Any negative experiences I've had I somewhat make light of. People have had far worse troubles so who am I to complain? I know what it's like to have mental illness from family members as well as personal experi... | self.Anxiety |
christian with depression First of all to the admins: I read no religious as help solutions are allowed here, im not trying to post a cure here just trying to get some thoughts of other people. Feel free to take this down I oversteped the bounderys.
So as a chirstian with depression i feel like i have often to cope wi... | self.depression |
I don’t like doing stuff All I want to do is curl up in my bed and sleep | self.depression |
I don't have the motivation to wash my hair It's matted in the back and every time I feel like getting up, I just get food. And it's been getting worse | self.depression |
I think I realized why I feel so alone and uninspired [deleted] | self.offmychest |
I need help. I'm 17. I've been clinically depressed for 8 years now. I want to kill myself but I cant stand to think of the very few people that care about me. I don't know what to do anymore. After being on three different medications and to a countless amount of therapists, I've given up. Help. | self.SuicideWatch |
Hiding. I’m hiding in my bathroom. I’m sitting on the floor just staring at the cuts I just put on my arm. The pills I took are starting to kick in. I found a pack of sleeping pills so I took them. I don’t think they will kill me but I wish they would. I guess it will still feel nice to not be alert.
My fiancé doesn’... | self.SuicideWatch |
The internet hate machine makes little sense to an introvert [deleted] | self.depression |
i have lost many online friends this month i pushed ppl away and they deleted the app and left. i dont know what is wrong with me, i feel im not good at making friends or try connect with anyone. now i ended up alone... | self.offmychest |
Life isn't worth living even a second more.... Hello CMV community. I have a view i'm trying to desperately change. Recently, I stumbled through negative utilitarianism (the Scopenhauer type), and have a deep sense that life isn't worth continuing. My argument is that every day we live, we will feel suffering, and even... | self.SuicideWatch |
Rant from a wife - we should of never gotten married [removed] | self.offmychest |
The dark part about not being depressed I'm not currently depressed (thank God and congrats to me) but not too long ago I was really depressed, like realllllly depressed, suicidal and all. Does anyone else have moments when they're not depressed when they realize that in all likelihood there is literally nothing that t... | self.bipolar |
The worst part about fixing depression is figuring out where to start. [deleted] | self.depression |
Well, this is probably it. Tonight I will try to kill myself. I'll tie a belt to my wall and around my neck and fall asleep. If it doesn't work for whatever reason, then I don't know. I'm in a very dark place right now and I don't want to be alive anymore. | self.SuicideWatch |
"electric shock"-like feeling, pain in chest when having suicidal thoughts in bed | self.depression |
4 months off meds and I don’t even know how I feel (rant) [deleted] | self.bipolar |
Doing a happy dance today! It's my 35th birthday and it's the first one since I was a pre-teen where I can honestly say I am happy and stable! No one is celebrating with me - my husband sleeps during the day so he won't be around until it's time to cook my steak this evening, I quit Facebook recently so no one I know a... | self.bipolar |
Car issues I can’t afford right now So I recently bought an 04 eclipse off of craigslist and while buying it me, being young and stupid I bought it knowing it needed body work because the previous owner told me he hit a deer and I was thinking I could just get it fixed another time but the main reason of buying it was ... | self.offmychest |
Cancelled all plans for tomorrow because depression got the best of me. I just feel really terrible mentally and physically. | self.depression |
Anyone here diagnosed with Atypical Depression? Just wanted to connect and share and try to better understand the Atypical type. Please write in. It would mean a lot. | self.depression |
First manic episode in years. How do I️ cope? [deleted] | self.bipolar |
I Went to a job interview today! For the first time in 3 years, I wrote out a resume, kept in contact with the employers the whole way through! It was a job for giving guitar lessons, i was super nervous and my anxiety almost got the best of me. I ALMOST stayed home.
But for someone who is scared of any aspect of resp... | self.Anxiety |
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