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Goodbye Today you left me. Today you left and took all the happiness with you. Today you took the joy of life away.
From now on, my heart will bleed every day. My eyes will cry everyday. And my soul will search for you - every day.
I will never love someone else. I am yours, just yours, and always will be yours. And s... | self.offmychest |
Depressed: School is the only place I feel good. [deleted] | self.depression |
Growing up Mormon with undiagnosed bipolar (TW: Psychosis, religion) TW: Frank discussion of childhood psychotic break. Religion. Satan.
Originally posted this on /r/exmormon, but felt it belongs here as well.
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I was recently diagnosed with bipolar type 2. It really shouldn't be that much of a ... | self.bipolar |
Not sure what to think. So my parents have decided to take "custody" of my cousin (dads brother). Some back story is needed. My cousin who is 17 did "something" to his sister I don't know exactly what and also I don't want to know (past experience) but I have a general idea. Anyway he has been in jail for a few months ... | self.offmychest |
Fiancée and i just split. First christmas without her. have done nothing but sleep in my old bedroom at my parents. I used to love christmas and now the thought of it makes me upset. I flew into my hometown to see my family for the holiday thinking it would be nice to see everyone after my fiancée and i broke up (mostl... | self.depression |
Religious Bipolar Poem I wrote a poem and thought it might be okay to post here. I am Christian and it reflects in my poem. Hope y’all are doing well. I just wanted to share my praise report/poem. 🙂❤️🌸💪🏻
I’ve beaten you, bipolar.
Really I have!
You no longer have a hold on me.
My mania’s managed,
And hyp... | self.bipolar |
I really don't understand why we're supposed to go to Mars. There are usually three main arguments for going to Mars:
1. The scientific value.
2. Humanity might destroy the planet.
3. "It's in our DNA to explore."
And so to start with no. 1, **what** (with the exception of answering the question whether there's ... | self.offmychest |
Reddit I don't know what to do with my friend who has depression can you give me any tips? She has literally bought poison to kill herself and she sometimes plan on using it and as a worried friend I'm frustrated with myself because I don't know what to do help. | self.SuicideWatch |
How do you handle haircuts? I struggle with haircuts. The tight paper band around my neck, another curtain tied around my neck. A guy I just met trying to make small talk.
I finally got comfy with my old barber shop before I moved. Right when I felt I could handle the situation, the new atmosphere kinda fucked me up.... | self.Anxiety |
Hormone issues causing breasts I am 31 and about 3 years ago I noticed I had low t symptoms. Low libido, dysfunction, skin softening etc. At first I figured just exhausted, at 5 hours of sleep a night and laborious job figured it just caught up to me. Then my chest got real itchy and sore and noticed lumps. I went to t... | self.offmychest |
I was wrong My title says it all.
I have apologized to so many people so many times that I feel like it must not mean much to them anymore.
I was wrong to run from home because of fear. I was wrong when I ran into your arms. There are lots of reasons and no excuses. I had been so completely depressed for so many ye... | self.offmychest |
Panic attacks are becoming uncontrollable. What can I do? I have no insurance and started a new job about a month ago. My panic attacks are getting worse I can't drive for more than a few mi before I get shaky, my heart pounds, and my face gets numb. Last night at work I had these symptoms and my bp got up to 156/111 p... | self.Anxiety |
I don't remember how it felt before... I began struggling from depression at the age of 13 and went to therapy due to it, but due to a lack of money my parents pulled me from the sessions. after that my mental heath dropped at a steady pace. as a kid i would just dream of it ending, never waking up or getting struck by... | self.depression |
I just really cant live anymore I'm a really shitty person and I don't mean like I'm bad or mean but I probably am that too. I'm not good at anything, I don't like people, I don't like anything.
The last time I was in a psychiatric ward I was 16 and it was at the beginning of 11th grade. I've had depression since I was... | self.SuicideWatch |
Really worried about being alone. Hello all. I’m a college freshman home for winter break. I’m feeling really alone. My old friend group from high school kinda grew away from me as I went to a different high school, so I’ve been seeing plenty of snaps and Facebook posts about them hanging out together and being really ... | self.Anxiety |
Conquered an anxiety fear this weekend First, I wanted to post this here because this might seem like a small win that's hardly notable to most people, but felt like a major victory to myself. I want to let you all know, that what I suffer from is generally fear of other peoples reactions, thoughts, etc. I'm a very out... | self.Anxiety |
The ranked season just ended in league and now I have no reason to wake up [deleted] | self.depression |
I don’t know what i did but I’m sorry (part 2) I made a cake for your birthday because that’s what I️ do and I️ took it to work but you didn’t even appreciate it. You didn’t even take it home when you left... That was a huge blow to me. I️ don’t know why I’m continuing to try and get y’all back, i guess it’s obvious th... | self.offmychest |
Intense CPTSD Flashbacks I can’t move. This happens every day, I have flashbacks so intense that I can’t move or think or even acknowledge that I’m a person. It’s excruciating and even though I have a good therapist and have been seeing some progress, I feel like it’s never going to end. And my brain gets so frozen I c... | self.SuicideWatch |
i think i'm cursed I feel like I'm cursed to see through people.
While there are these little rare pockets of beauty, almost all of the time, probably 99.9% of my life, I feel like I'm wading through this dense, disappointing, awful, blindingly dull swamp. For those rare wonderful people I know, I just want to tell th... | self.offmychest |
What do you guys do during long depressions (1+ month)? I'm so used to self-medicating, but trying to stop In hypomania, the last thing I need is drugs. But during depressions, when life and time becomes so slow and miserable, I've been prone to use stimulants/amphetamines to self-medicate my symptoms. I've been doing ... | self.bipolar |
girlfriend's parent ruining the relationship I love my girlfriend alot and i know she does love me too. however it seems like her love for parents is even greater then ours as she is considering to leave me just cause her parents dont like interracial relationships. we both are asian but different kinds. im just crush... | self.offmychest |
I had to say what I refused to believe that was true I finally told you how rude and inconsiderate you are. I told you while I agree with you that I am broken and cannot be fixed that I don't need to be fixed. I told you I am a good person and that should be acknowledged. I stood up for myself. I let you walk all over ... | self.offmychest |
Frontier airlines is the worst flight company I have ever dealt with Do they only have 2 planes? Tickets do not list dates, changing flights online is a nightmare. All the flight numbers and plane numbers are the same...so I'm wondering do they actually only have 2 planes? | self.offmychest |
Anxiety causing nausea, lack of appetite, and panic attacks. [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
Is it normal for anxiety to go down when you're overly tired? [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
a podcast that helps me feel a little better I listen to podcasts heavily. I need them to get through my work days and my commute because I need to be distracted all the time lest my anxiety get the best of my and I'm sent into a thought spiral or a panic attack. They're also great for sleeping when you need to plug in... | self.Anxiety |
How do i stop feeling depressed? I know you cant just stop it but over the course of 2 and a half months ive developing it i am overvaluing the life of a 10 year old girl i dont know on the internet and devaluing my life. That means i think someones life on the YouTube comment section is better than mine and this makes... | self.depression |
Need to get it out My girlfriend of 14years and I are breaking up.
We have two kids (7 and 3).
I'm a silent type of guy, and never really expressed my feelings in general. Always processed my own emotions in my head or waited for issues to fade away...
I'm not an outgoing guy, don't really like doing things, or trav... | self.depression |
I need to protect my brother, and my family. I need courage. Tomorrow I am at college. I will sit half of my Geography mock exam, then will leave early to be taken to a Child Protection meeting, then return and do the rest.
I was the one who got the meeting. Me, my mum, brother and sister and my family dog ran away to... | self.offmychest |
You tried to destroy me and almost succeeded After hauling around a random shoebox filled with costume jewelry from the early 2000s when I was a teen I finally sorted through it giving pieces I no longer wanted to wear to my daughter. I also found a nondescript fast food receipt for October 2005, the month before my in... | self.offmychest |
Why won't people just leave you alone and back off Do you ever feel like people just use you because they can see all of your past successes shine through your face and are jealous that they haven't had the drive to make things happen for themselves? Yeah. It's difficult to understand why others are always trying to fi... | self.offmychest |
Kind of a weird question My mom is bringing me something home from Arizona. I have two clues as to what it could be, and i will be getting one more every day. I have been pretty depressed lately and need something to take my mind off things. Hopefully you guys will help me figure this out. So here go the clues.
1. It ... | self.depression |
Completely self destructive anxiety causing me to not work or do anything Got offered a job and thought the girl training us was horrible, she made me feel inferior and anxious! So I didn’t show up the second day. I feel like I’m too anxious to work rn and my mental health is not in a good place for me to be in a work ... | self.Anxiety |
How do I help a friend who relies their life on their girlfriend? So I'm in school, and I have this friend who literally told me they'd kill themselves if their girlfriend dumped them.
Now, it's not like they have a shitty relationship or anything, it's just I know how unstable it can be to rely on only one person for ... | self.SuicideWatch |
Today was the worst day I've felt in 5 months. Saying that just made me realize I've been dealing with this shit for 5 whole months. I hope it doesn't happen again tomorrow. I hope it goes away in March like it has 3 years in a row. | self.depression |
That moment when you realize that you hurt others too [deleted] | self.depression |
Anyone else to anxious to go out for Halloween? [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
Does anybody else constantly feel like they're dying? I'm a 23 year old guy in Ireland who has been riddled with anxiety for five years. I'm pretty scared all the time despite extensive medical examinations never showing anything negative.
Does anybody else feel this way? Physical symptoms all the time that are psych... | self.Anxiety |
I’ve reached the point in my life where I really need to pick a college, and it’s so scary and stressful to me. The three of my friends that are going to college are all going to separate ones, wanting to room with me. My girlfriend is going to another college, and I know she would like us going to the same school. The... | self.offmychest |
i need some comforting I feel like death. the guy i've been dating just hurt me really bad. we were n bed when he tried to blame me on why we are not moving forward, by saying things like "i dont know if your family and friends will accept me" and all that. and i started crying. i had suspected that he had another gir... | self.depression |
I’m bored of everything I don’t feel motivated to do a lot of things recently. The things I am usually interested in are now boring and I don’t see the point in doing them. Also i don’t really have a particular hobby. My boyfriends hobby is playing his computer games, he never gets bored and can do it all day. When he... | self.depression |
Mostly school specific Anxiety Most likely resulting from Childhood Bullying at a Boarding School I (28 M) am currently in an academically rigorous graduate program. I go to a very small commuter school in a small town. I moved here to go to school and as a result do not know anyone in the area. I have a hard time maki... | self.Anxiety |
Irma So storms are a trigger for me and to be honest a hurricane is pretty much worse case scenario. Does anyone have tips on how to stay sane during this? I've already had to take a xanax just because the thought of it. | self.bipolar |
How Do i Get family/friends to believe in me again? Hey everyone, I was diagnosed BP1 just about a year and a half ago. The first year was very difficult for me, as I struggled with accepting what I was going through and getting on a regiment of medication and therapy. I inevitably had to move back home after a period ... | self.bipolar |
There's no other option Warning: very long unorganized rant
You know that ugly loner at school who no one likes? The one who everyone knows will end up as a loser leeching off of her parents, living in their basement doing nothing but playing video games? That's me. I legitimately have no redeeming qualities. I'm lazy... | self.SuicideWatch |
What pushed you to pursue medical attention? I'm too scared to go to a doctor or anything and i want to know how you got the courage to seek help. | self.depression |
Fuck man. Ugh not exactly suicidal at the moment, more like passively, wouldn't give a shit if a car hit me etc. etc. Iv'e been trying to get out more and work harder but i still don't fucking see the point you know, like we're all gonna die blah blah blah all that shite. I'm just tired of this internal battle in my he... | self.depression |
Today I cleaned up and went out for the first time in a while... I really wish our appearance changed depending on how good and loving we are as humans instead of being determined by genetic lottery. These days if I even have the strength to get out of bed, when I leave the house I'm unshowered, unshaved, and I wear sw... | self.depression |
I might just end it I don't know why I feel the way I do.I have now been on meds for a month and they helped at first, but am now right where I started. I'm contemplating just downing every pill that i have in my possession, go to sleep, then hope I don't wake up. | self.SuicideWatch |
Panic attack I used to get daily panic attacks, lasting for about an hour or less, but recently after a couple of years of medication, therapy, and meditation, I typically only get one per week. But tonight I just experienced a nearly 3 hour long episode, I've tried everything to help me get through them, regular breat... | self.depression |
I just wait for people to leave now. I graduated highschool last year. Everyone left for college did their own thing. I only talk to maybe one person out of everyone I was friends with. During most of my life in highschool I was in a relationship. I didn't realize how much this would bite me in the ass later. I never r... | self.depression |
Struggling after the holidays I'm always depressed but the holidays have made it really worse... I'm a 34 year old fat nerd virgin who has never had a gf or even kissed a girl... I look back at last year and think that despite really trying I did not accomplish anything... I look at this year and I don't see any chance... | self.depression |
Does anyone else freak out about potentially harmful chemicals? Does anyone else freak out about potentially harmful chemicals?
I live with someone who uses bleach a lot and I pretty much freak out whenever he does (I have OCD and GAD), especially when the smell is extremely strong and I begin coughing, I usually have... | self.Anxiety |
I am afraid to take part in social media I have very little social media presence which I think stems from a fear of rejection. I have a facebook account which I don't use and I've been lurking reddit for years. I'm not looking for anything in particular from /r/anxiety. I just wanted to post something to see how it ma... | self.Anxiety |
Drinking and smoking alone, again. Like everyday. My routine is the same. Wake up just to try to at least be numb again. There's nothing more. | self.depression |
How do I gain the mental fortitude to do things anymore? I woke up early this morning in order to do research and perform a workout but ended up breaking down and crying instead. I feel like I’m slowly losing the mental fortitude to do most tasks that would supposedly “improve” my wellbeing. Does anyone know how I’m su... | self.depression |
Does anyone else daydream about a shooter killing them at work? Work is so dull. My mind wanders off and I think about how nice it would be if a robber or maniac walked in and shot me in the head. I once had a coworker ask me why I was smiling when I was having one of these daydreams. Maybe my boyfriend and parents wou... | self.depression |
I can't take it. I'm going to be a baby. I'm going to be childish and ignore my feelings of self doubt and fear..right now it seriously doesn't matter to me... I've been depressed since third grade and I've always had trouble with letters. Numbers. Sexuallity. I still struggle with all of them. My life is going no wher... | self.depression |
I'm so lonely I could die If you were to look at me or talk to me for a little bit you'd probably think I'm pretty normal. I have good friends, good grades, a nice family, and a pretty nice personality. But no. That's not me. 24/7 my head is filled with anxious, stressful possible situations that could happen to me. I ... | self.depression |
Where are all the environmentalists? I work in the environmental sector and I'm losing my mind. I've been in the field for 10 years across 2 companies and have yet to meet someone else who gives a damn. More specifically air quality for gas/oil/chem plants. My job is to ensure that sites meet environmental compliance. ... | self.offmychest |
Tears burning my face My tears are burning really badly on my skin because of the medics for my horrible acne that is slightly less horrible if I drink a ton of water diet work out and wash my face 2-3 times a day and use prescription face wash | self.depression |
whats the most painless way to die other than a gun? [deleted] | self.depression |
Sick of begging my mom for money for the house Ok, so I live in a very expensive area of the USA, possibly THE most expensive part of the USA. Ok, it's Silicon Valley. Maybe NYC is more expensive though. Anyways, I used to live in a beach town and I wasn't working but then I met my boyfriend and I moved here to be w... | self.bipolar |
It doesn't seem like it will ever get better I hate myself.
I have severe social anxiety. I've had it my entire life, and it feels like it's held me back from everything productive I've ever wanted to do and it's caused me to feel like I'm a burden on everyone in my life. The only time I feel even remotely good about ... | self.depression |
Is this a weird way of getting a number?? Last week I did a group surf lesson and started talking to this chick. After the lesson was finished we were walking to the cars and she's asked for my number and happily gave it too her. Stupid me being clueless and flowy, I didn't ask for her number. She said she would text m... | self.offmychest |
I need some knowledge dropped upon me, if you please. Hi folks! I'm a lurker around here but I really respect this community and I was hoping I could get some information.
I've been on lithium and cymbalta for about four months now (I was previously on prozac but that just wasn't hitting the spot).
Well, that wasn't ... | self.bipolar |
Whenever things get worse, it reflects on my room? I'm currently a first year biology student in college and my grades aren't looking so hot right now. It looks like I'll be ending this quarter with a really low GPA unfortunately. Anyway, when more stress gets added on to my plate, I find that it reflects upo... | self.depression |
Has clonazepam helped you or given you negative side effects? I have just started two medications I was first given Zoloft for the anxiety and prescribed clonazepam for a month to balance out the Zoloft side effects. I have noticed the clonazepam makes everything worse. I turn into a high lead lump and feel suicidal. I... | self.Anxiety |
Afraid we are going to break up :(( My bf was sexually assaulted by a photographer that was friends with my family. When we found out, we completely supported my bf and immediately cut ties with the assaulter. We encouraged him to report him to the police and he did. It’s been about a month and he seemed to be dealing ... | self.offmychest |
Anyone else have crippling anxiety when it comes to dating, that you avoid it altogether? 25/F here. Recently started talking to a mutual friend and he asked me out. It’s like the moment he asked me out, all my physical anxiety symptoms came. I get so sick to my stomach, my heart palpitates, I just want to back out of ... | self.Anxiety |
Suicide is creeping Eternal nothingness does not sound bad at all. I know something is wrong with my brain and I'm not convinced my life will be anything more than a sad lonesome struggle. I can see many things that may have caused me to get to this point. There is a lot of anger in me towards people who don't deal wit... | self.depression |
Helping my wife Hey guys, I need some help. Let me start by saying I absolutely adore my wife. She means everything to me. She can make me feel indestructible, and makes me a better man. She is beautiful, smart, and so much more than I deserve. I could not live without her. She is bipolar and we have our ups and down... | self.bipolar |
Massive Anxiety/Panic Attacks Hi, I am having a massive anxiety attack right now. I can barely move.
I recently opened up to a friend, which whom I continued talking to on a weekly basis. I was able to take down the protective wall I've built around myself and now I feel exposed to every fear I have. I don't know how ... | self.Anxiety |
Is extreme apathy and feeling like I have insane amounts of energy a sign that I might be bipolar? It usually lasts for less than 8 hours at a time | self.bipolar |
Feeling suicidal again after 7 years I’ve been thinking of suicide a lot lately. I had attempted a very pathetic attempt at killing myself when I was 18. Since then, I have graduated, moved out of my hometown and now even my country. I think I have again reached that low point in my life when suicide seems the only esc... | self.SuicideWatch |
16 is a sad age to be doing this shit so late [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
THE ONLY THING THAT KEEPS ME HERE IS THE PAIN OF OTHER Please help me though the night before I hurt the ones I’m close enough to care about | self.SuicideWatch |
So I was just Diagnosed. Hi all, thanks for reading. I'm a 27yo woman, and all of my life I've been diagnosed as having Major Depressive Disorder and severe Generalized Anxiety disorder. After 15 years of the meds game, counseling, diet and lifestyle changes, it still wasn't getting better. I moved to a new city rec... | self.bipolar |
Work Accommodation? X-post from r/bipolar
I'm BP2 and my normal state of mood is pretty depressed. About a year ago (before my BP diagnosis) I told my manager I was having a hard time ansb asked my manager to not schedule all my shifts in a row, if possible not more than 2 days though I eventually said I'd be okay wit... | self.bipolar |
To all the people I've ever loved.... Thank you. [removed] | self.depression |
Ideas for coping with irrational/Paranoid Thoughts Hey, everyone! I made a similar post yesterday, but included some super long stories that probably made my post difficult to read. I was wondering if anyone else had a problem with not being able to shake paranoid and irrational thoughts. For example, I'll submit an as... | self.Anxiety |
Birthdays are the hardest time for me Every year relatives call me and every year same old convo. Anyone special in your life? Any closer to getting married. And I know it stupid but it kills me every time. Because I'm not and every year I reflect on spending another year of existence alone and only have another year o... | self.depression |
Why I will kill myself eventually This is half of a cry for help and half of just a vent of why I will probably kill myself.
First, I don't really have a lot to live for. I know that people could come up with amazing reasons as to why to continue living like "tommorow is another adventure" or that "it gets better". W... | self.SuicideWatch |
I'm sick of my future FIL thinking it's fine to treat people like crap and then forget about it [deleted] | self.offmychest |
Thought I'd be a good first step to open up to my mother I am an 18 year-old student from Germany and I have been suffering from depression since I can remember existing so I
can't really tell what's the reason for my suffering.
Today I have opened up to my mother (and consequently not gone to school). It took me ab... | self.depression |
Is it normal that I don’t get out of bed on days I don’t have to? [deleted] | self.depression |
What to distract myself with. Nothing seems like enough to distract me rn.
I think I'm gonna make a blanket fort with things in it to help me stay distracted. Make it a safe space. Any ideas of what I should take with me to my fort? | self.SuicideWatch |
The crushing feeling of loneliness. I guess I’m not alone, you guys are all here. I don’t really know where else to turn while I️ am waiting for my plane to fly out to Cali for my Grandpa’s sudden death. It’s not necessarily his death that made me feel like all this hard work of trying to be sane was for nothing. I jus... | self.depression |
suicidal i cried today in therapy because I was thinking that the only thing that's keeping me alive is my dog, close family members and my boyfriend. I don't want to make them suffer, ever. All I want to do is overdose and drink a shit ton of alcohol and just die already, I see no future for myself and life will never... | self.depression |
I want someone to give me the strength to die. She has a son that has done much better. Went to college at the right age. Graduated at the right age. Got the traditional college experience. I flunked kindergarten. Graduated high school at 19. Will graduate college at 25 and still live with my parents. I transferred to ... | self.depression |
I finally beat my depression I took that motherf*cker and kicked its butt, now I'm happy again. Just wanted someone to tell it to... | self.offmychest |
morning anxiety Hi all, I suffer from mild to medium GAD. I generally find it is worst in the morning, and as the day goes on, it gradually slips away. Any tips on how to get it start going away faster? Usually by mid afternoon it has decreased substantially, but I'd really like to start enjoying my mornings some more... | self.Anxiety |
Never been truly happy. I dont think i have ever been truly happy about something, sure i might have have a few laughs here and there or some surge of pride after completing something but i have never actually felt like i was the happiest guy on earth, every feeling of self-worth and happiness has been there for maybe ... | self.depression |
I don't even know if this belongs here, but here goes [deleted] | self.depression |
Not sure if I should be hospitalized I've been going through some issues with an ex this week that led me getting hurt a lot. There aren't many other times where I recall being in so much distress and where life seemed so unbearable. I've tried to kill myself multiple times over the last couple days as well as this mor... | self.SuicideWatch |
Wake up. Some days this empty blackness hangs over me; it’s near-impossible to quantify the abyss perpetually suspended above me, like my own little rain-cloud for the sad parade of life which I lay before you (over-used cliche and all).
I guess it’s probably just youthful, ‘rich-boy blues’ that I, like so many of ou... | self.offmychest |
Just want to die I don't want to be here anymore. I keep disappointing loved ones. Everyone is mad at me. My friends don't care anymore and I fucked up my life. I just want all this to end. Since the universe isn't gonna kill me anytime soon, it seems like I'll just have to do it myself. I can't do it anymore, it's my ... | self.SuicideWatch |
I’m done with this. All of this. It’s all my fault for choosing not to change the way I am. But, it’s hard to find the motivation to do something about it when you’re all alone.
| self.SuicideWatch |
Avoidance issues I have had anxiety for a while now and the worst part is that it often leads to me bunking school/college. It's been there for a long time but I feel like people around me are noticing it more and are getting weirded out by it.
I can't really tell anyone about this as I am studying in a medicine-rela... | self.Anxiety |
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