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I’m lazy, fat, stupid, and probably a bad person, just like my dad [deleted] | self.depression |
February I don't know why I thought the way I just did.
Why couldn't I just be treated fair.
I still cry over the reasons why anyone could treat me the way I was treated by him.
He's not even sorry.
He will never be sorry.
Because he's not the same person I used to call my friend.
This hurts more than anything in... | self.offmychest |
I desperately need to vent. This post probably isn’t worth reading, so you don’t need to waste your time. I’ve had depression, anxiety, and suicidal thoughts for 8 years straight now, in varying degrees of intensity. If you’re in this subreddit, chances are you can relate, and those things alone probably don’t warrant ... | self.depression |
I was watching Harry Potter recently, and any scene with a dementor is exactly how anxiety feels for me. The looming doom, the feeling trapped, life being sucked out of you, struggling to breathe and just generally feel scared and trapped. It's also never knowing when it will strike and how quickly your world can go da... | self.Anxiety |
they don't want you to be the real you Rant So my husband and i have finally got back on track only for my in-laws to move in for not the month i was expecting but three. They brought along there 9 year old daughter and without asking my FiL invited his 18 year old to come spend several weeks with us as well. I rapid c... | self.bipolar |
Has anybody actually really recovered? I’ve been suffering through a severe depressive episode for about a year and a half. It was triggered by life circumstances that aren’t going to change. My cognitive faculties are noticeably hindered, which is a huge issue for work and building my career.
Has anybody fully recove... | self.depression |
Lexapro Side Effects My doctor started me on Lexapro (Escitalopram) last week for GAD, SA and MDD. Last year I took Prozac for about a month but it made me physically ill (nauseous, dizzy, foggy)and unable to get out of bed so I stopped. With Lexapro I haven't been feeling sick at all, but my appetite has decreased a l... | self.Anxiety |
Never thought I'd do this Well here I am. Not sure what to say but I guess this is where i can vent. Tired of losing people, never being good enough or interesting enough..We've known each other for 1 year and all it took was one day to change everything, to be replaced and then argue about it. She made me feel special... | self.SuicideWatch |
Havent hung out with friends from high school since graduation, and missed 3 days of work due to sleeping in late, but was too anxious to call in after the fact If my shift is at 6 am, how am i supposed to call in a few hours ahead when i was asleep? Also when i have to stay home from work due to the flu/cold, should i... | self.Anxiety |
Does therapy work for You? I am starting therapy again and can't help but feel like it's all so useless. | self.bipolar |
I stopped hanging out with all my friends because I don't want to see my ex Near the end of the relationship he started hanging around my close friends (which then became our common friends after the breakup). I know it's completely stupid and childish to act that way but I felt like I had to cut them out of my life.
... | self.offmychest |
eventually i'm gonna run out of money eventually i'm gonna run out of money and there's nothing i can do about it. my parents don't support and won't me, financially or otherwise, and i'm disabled to the point where i can't work. i've been refused disability, i need blood work and etc done due to a medical need, and i ... | self.SuicideWatch |
Why does everyone always say that if you’re feeling depressed/suicidal, that you should tell someone but when you do, people say “you’re just looking for attention”? [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
Hey first post I have a decent background, no abuse or anything, not diagnosed w depression or any of that. But I just have 0 will to live and lots of existential crisis. I mean I’m just so bored with this life, I’d rather just kill myself and see what’s next. I can’t do that though bc I have people who care about me ... | self.SuicideWatch |
Anybody want to die but want it to be from “natural causes”? [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
Appearing ok to other people is eating me alive [deleted] | self.depression |
i’m so depressed that i can’t even sleep if anybody can give some tips hit me up i’m so fucking tired | self.depression |
I hate being a girl: Part I
*Exerpt from chat log with friends replies removed because it was the best synopsis of whats going on I could tell*
...You seem to view me as this succubus, an evil siren singing men to shipwreck. Do I manipulate men by mindfucking them? No. Oh. You mean dazzle them with the things I know... | self.offmychest |
There is one place I want to visit before I kill myself. [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
It always, always comes back. I was horribly suicidal two years ago, but I guess I had my reasons; was laid off from my job, got into a massive fight with my mom (over her lack of support while I 'dealt' with depression), moved to a new country to start fresh (which was isolating and terrifying and didn't work out in t... | self.depression |
Everything I do is wrong Every time I try to do something nice/the right thing, I end up doing SOMETHING wrong, accidentally breaking something or just saying the wrong thing or even just helping the wrong people. It’s been pretty bad an constant lately and I’m losing hope. Why do I keep trying to do good things if the... | self.Anxiety |
I deleted Facebook and uninstalled messenger A while ago some of the people that I thought were good friends really hurt my feelings. I stopped going on Facebook for a week or two.
Then one of my work friends had a baby and I asked for pictures and he asked if I had Facebook. I didn’t want to not friend him but I neve... | self.bipolar |
Distorted thought patterns - anyone ever get these or something like them? As I attempted to sleep (it is now 10:14PM) I experienced distorted and broken thoughts. It got so bad I wanted someone to stick an Xacto knife inside my brain (like a lobotomy). At one point I experienced depersonalization (it felt like I was d... | self.bipolar |
Why should I live What's the point. I can't find one legitimate reason to live. | self.SuicideWatch |
I just want to end it all I'm 17 and I'm so depressed right now I don't think I can take it. I just lost two really good friends, (one I had known since I was 5). I've been by myself in my room for two days, and since I'm depressed none of my friends want to hang out with me. I'm seriously contemplating suicide right n... | self.SuicideWatch |
Plz help me Im depressed and idk what to do. Is a therapist even worth it? | self.depression |
One of the reasons I'm so depressed is because I feel like I have no close friends, how the hell do I make better friends with people? I go to a very small school so there aren't a ton of options and I pretty much already know everybody my age I have some people I occasionally talk to or who invite me to party's but ri... | self.depression |
i'm 22 tomorrow and i'm struggling This will probably be quite a long post but I want to vent my feelings.
Tomorrow is my 22nd birthday. 2017 was a really rough year for me; I graduated and moved back to my parents in a town with nobody else in it, I lost a lot of friends, I broke up with my girlfriend of two years, ... | self.Anxiety |
What do I do? I just found out my Mother was incarcerated for Reckless Homicide.. I'll just say it was drug related. My world was falling apart enough already and this just caused everything around me to completely shatter. I have never felt lower. I could really use some support. | self.depression |
Self-sabotaging due to insecurity? I've always been someone who has a small circle of very close friends and not much else and I'm fortunate that my current friends are wonderful people and very supportive of me, but I still feel very insecure in my relationships with them. Leaving high school has been very good for me... | self.depression |
Dating anxiety I don't know why I'm posting. I just feel as if my anxiety is at a constant high and I don't know why. Lately I can't seem to tell the difference between my actual feelings or my anxiety. Anyway, I am starting to date and it has been difficult. If I'm not obsessing over whether a guy likes me or not, I'm... | self.Anxiety |
Beauty and nice things make me sad This is something pretty weird that I've noticed recently but was feeling for a long time now.
When I hear a really beautiful song or watch a good movie, when I am at an awesome party or get complimented by someone, when the treeline next to my house looks more amazing than usual, I ... | self.depression |
Has anyone ever tried magic mushrooms? Apparently they "reset" a depressed brain by activating certain areas that increase feelings of wellbeing for months. Has anyone ever tried it? | self.depression |
Just stopping by. Just to let you know, I am a nineteen year old male and I don't believe I am a suicide risk.
I have had anxiety issues for a long time, and developed depression a few years ago. My therapist recommended looking into getting medicated for it, but I put it off due to lack of motivation. Stuff happene... | self.depression |
I want to write the note this time I attempted when I was in elementary school due to bullying and being singled out... it seemed pretty logical for me and I could go to heaven no matter what everyone else said.
A few years ago I was in a bad place, not suicidal, just depressed.
Now I am 17 and it seems logical for... | self.SuicideWatch |
I am so tired all of the time. Should I see a doctor? [deleted] | self.depression |
Prayers, again. Please, God. Please.
My girlfriend and I are going through a rough patch. We both want the relationship to work, and we want to be together. Please God, please. Please help us to stay together. I can't stand the thought of losing another relationship. I don't want to go down the dark hole of depression... | self.depression |
Social anxiety and blushing - my experience Hey Reddit
I'm sure that this topic has come up before here, but wanted somewhere to share this - so here goes.
I have suffered from social anxiety since being a teenager (I am in my mid-20s now) and was always quick to go red in embarrassing situations, but this has gone ... | self.Anxiety |
Boarding a plane in 6 hours and I’m absolutely terrified! [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
I can't stop worrying about my dad and his problems long enough to focus on my own So a little backstory: my dad worked for the government, and his boss always harassed him hardcore. My dad would talk to hr and they never helped him, leading to him developing chronic anxiety. It eventually led him to almost commit suic... | self.Anxiety |
Eclipse I think we're too isolated from nature. We eat food that's not in season, we live in climate controlled housing, we stay up late and we wake up with alarms. The eclipse was magnificent and to me it speaks to the importance of observing natural cycles and their effects on our lives. I'm not saying I'll go to be... | self.bipolar |
why cant i stop remembering this every single day. why did i had to be fucked up. why wont it go away i feel like my life is over. i feel like my life has been over for years now.
my parents were very negligent when i was a kid. we were poor and they didnt have a lot of time to watch over me because they were always w... | self.SuicideWatch |
Just read, won't take long People often assume that they're more intelligent because they're capable of being the dominant person/alpha in social interactions and dialogues .. This goes deep and can be perceived and validated through everyone's personal experiences I'm sure.
Do you ever speak to people who are so ... | self.offmychest |
I promised i'd give help one more try Earlier today i stood with a rope in my hands intending to end it. When i was about to tie the knot a huge amount of guilt hit me, so i decided i'd give help one more try. I put the rope away and went to the ER to get myself put in hospital and they just told me off and Said "go se... | self.SuicideWatch |
I just don't know.. I am living a good life. Somehow I haven't been happy for 2 months now. Each day it's getting worse. Today I couldn't even get out of bed. Some people called me, but I don't feel like answering. All I wanna do is nothing, and I dont want to do even that. I just feel empty. What's the point of all th... | self.depression |
I miss someone very much, but can’t talk to them because honestly they’re better off without me and probably don’t wanna talk to me anyway [deleted] | self.depression |
Does drug/alcohol-induced bipolar count as real bipolar disorder? Or is it something else? | self.bipolar |
Being productive but still feel like shit. I cleaned my room for the first time in months. Like moldy coffee, dried up syrup and pasta sauce, old takeout containers covered in flies, it was bad. Gathered up all my laundry, vacuumed, even cleaned out my closet and organized my bookshelf. Dusted a little, got rid of a lo... | self.bipolar |
My life is taking a turn for the worst I feel. [deleted] | self.depression |
I feel stupid for thinking that going into treatment was going to even work. [Rant] [deleted] | self.bipolar |
I am slipping back into depression I have always been depressed, but I haven't been THIS low in a long time. When I was a teenager, I used to cut myself to cope with the pain and I want to do it again, but I am trying my best to not go down that route. I feel completely lost in life. I have no degree or work history du... | self.offmychest |
Got into grad school, but my anxiety is ruining it all... I got into my dream clinical psychology program this past September. A lot of people around me doubted I could make it into the program, but I did.
Somehow, I feel like I cheated my way into the school. I had a close relationship with my research referees and... | self.Anxiety |
I miss being single The thought of being with my boyfriend forever is terrifying. Idk why.
I don’t want to see other people or anything. I just want to be alone.
He hasn’t done anything wrong. I just want to be alone. I think about the future, marriage, I think about a couple years from now and I get anxious.
I t... | self.offmychest |
Mental check Check check. My hair slicked back- hot pink running shorts- knee brace- ankle brace- sports bra- camp shirt- headphones in- cellphone in hand- gum in pocket, gum in mouth
Mental check. check. check
I have everything I need for my run
It's late out. 11:00 PM
Why am I still sitting on the bathroom floor a... | self.Anxiety |
Im an embarrassment Saturday I had a really good day with my boyfriends family while he slept. I ruined it all after he left at midnight to go to work. I was drunk, I self harmed, and called 911 on myself.
He runs volunteer fire and rescue in the city we live in. People he knows showed up to take me to the hospital. ... | self.bipolar |
I've collected a habit of, 'cursing' people. It developed in middle school, where I was bullied for having short hair and being ugly, and generally not appealing to the boys in the school. I have been called ugly and dyke more times than I wanted to count. People would give me glares and act like I was the secondary ... | self.depression |
can't see too much tears hi sorry.. in new..
All I feel is painful sadness, i can't stop crying. I always want to cry and I cry and continue while I feel pain inside my heart, wishing it would kill me. I am so helpless, so pitiful and worthless. | self.depression |
My mother is a hypocritical liar I am furious. My mother wants to be more independent which is fine. Good. So She wanted me to walk to Target where Im planning to get my siblings christmas gifts. Problem: for whatever reason I am rather uncomfortable with walking by myself. She offered to drive me there and pick me up ... | self.offmychest |
When will it end? I've been home from college for half a month now and I thought my depression would be better because I'm away from my terrible college but ever since the New Year I've just felt so numb and sad inside. I can't even think of preparing for all the things I have to (I'm going abroad next semester and hav... | self.depression |
Here's to you The movement of her voice was the electric shock I needed. Five minutes of conversation with her sparked more excitement than Stonehenge and all of its ancient mystery could. Between the half hearted conversation about the jewelry I was only half interested in purchasing, I asked longing, probing question... | self.offmychest |
Christmas backsliding into misery Tried to off myself ten months ago over gay unrequited love with my bestfriend, who had cut me out his life a year or so before. Felt like absolute shit but I climbed out of it; stopped drinking, lost 50 pounds, got my dream job working in Parliament (UK). But my issues with this guy h... | self.SuicideWatch |
Possible misdiagnosis For the last 6-7 years I've had a diagnosis of severe Clinical Depression and Anxiety disorder. I was on Citalopram, but last year they switched me to Venlafaxine because the Citalopram was no longer working.
I've spent the last 2 years in privately funded therapy and I've been practicing CBT.
P... | self.bipolar |
Does anyone feel bad when people are going through a lot and get depressed when I have a normal life and I still am depressed Does anybody look at posts from depressed people saying things like "I was raped as a kid and I can't stand my parents being murders and taking everything I own for drugs" then there's me with a... | self.depression |
I even failed at killing myself lol I tried to overdose on miscellaneous meds and drown myself but failed and recently got into self harm. I'm a failure and I wish I would just due already. My girlfriend broke up with me because my depression was to hard to handle. Im sick of hurting myself just to please others. Ive g... | self.SuicideWatch |
Went to get my initial lithium blood work and ECG done And the nurse started asking questions about why I’m getting so many tests done. I told her that I have bipolar disorder and that I’m starting a new medication that requires all the tests. Her response made me cringe. She said: ‘but you look normal. You’re too pret... | self.bipolar |
Cat purring I found an app that allows you to listen to cats purring for free and for as long as you want. Great for people who can't actually have a cat but still want the comfort of cat purring! Just look up cat purring in the app store. Thought it was neat and needed to share that this was a thing. | self.Anxiety |
I wouldn’t be ill if I was in a different place. I honestly think that my illness is situational and if I didn’t live where I do and with the people I do like my family and my boyfriend I wouldn’t be ill. I really know I need to get away and then I’ll be better. Does anybody have any suggestions on starting fresh? Wher... | self.bipolar |
I can't find a place for myself Hey /r/suicidewatch,
I've been a reader for a while now, but never thought that I'll be the OP one day. I haven't done anything to myself yet, but I am walking on mighty thin ice. I made this throwaway some friends that monitor my original Reddit account could not trace it back to me. I... | self.SuicideWatch |
How do I release anger in a healthy way? [removed] | self.depression |
Anyone wanna die but don’t wanna be the ones to kill themselves? I feel I deserve a harsher punishment. I don’t want to be here anymore but I also feel I’m taking the easy way out if I do it myself. | self.depression |
Just done with it. I have zero reason to continue living. There is NOTHING anyone can say to convince me otherwise.
I made a pros and cons list of committing suicide and it was 22 pros to 3 cons.
The one girl i loved more than anything committed suicide earlier this year.
The girl I have/had now doesn’t want to talk... | self.SuicideWatch |
Going to the doctor tomorrow, don't know what to say [deleted] | self.depression |
wish i could, but i don't know how and i'm too scared i've been depressed since year 5, and after I found out how much my parents could give less of a fuck about my mental well-being.
i don't feel like moving and everything seems pointless
i was so close to doing it today, even though i didn't get anything that could k... | self.SuicideWatch |
Two steps forward, one step back I haven't posted here before, but I need to vent. I've struggled with depression my whole life (M23), and I've been making a lot of progress the last year, partly because of a strong wish and increasing will to change my behaviour, including a couple of psychedelic experiences. Now, I c... | self.depression |
First time seeking therapy: psychologist or psychiatrist? This is my first time finally seeking to speak with a therapist after living with depression for over a decade. When I booked my appointment over the phone for a psychologist, I didn’t realize until looking at my upcoming appointments that I was booked to see a ... | self.depression |
Just want to say goodbye if you're here to talk me out of this, get the fuck out. I don't want any "oh don't do it people care about you" bullshit or anything like that. in just saying goodbye, hopefully I will get a friendly goodbye in return. I don't want to hear anything else. | self.SuicideWatch |
Maybe we need to learn how to coexist with depression instead of trying to get rid of it. [deleted] | self.depression |
Does anyone else like gloomy weather? I'm outside right now and I absolutely like when the sky is covered by rain clouds and it's not raining. This is the ideal weather for me, it's chilly out and it's really relaxing. I like rain but not as much when I'm actually outside.
| self.depression |
Sometimes i have strange thoughts, they're like what schizophreniac world think. What are they caused by? Are they intrusive? [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
Does anyone feel like crying helps them. I love crying just letting it out of my system so I can feel numb and finally get something done. | self.depression |
Does anyone experience bipolar and BPD? How do you differentiate symptoms? | self.bipolar |
I understand that the hallucinations I experience aren't real, but they still look real and sound and feel so real. | self.SuicideWatch |
My life is is a disaster. Hostile family life, about to drop out of college, nothing is going for me. I can’t even get out of bed anymore to go to work let alone school. My parents constantly fighting with my younger brother who I have to worry about at all times cause he’s heading down a worse path. I want to help him... | self.depression |
Don’t know which is worse- crying after you masterbate or being proud that you didn’t cry after you masterbated. Have done both in the last two days. Maybe it’s a good sign that I feel alive enough to even want to bother. How’s that for optimism? | self.depression |
Life just doesn’t seem worth it anymore. I’m so tired of everything.
Every few days I have a terrible breakdown that leaves me wanting to kill myself. I spend the next few days slowly but surely reassuring myself. Then there’s only one good day and it happens again. And again. And again.
School is physically and ment... | self.SuicideWatch |
Finally got back at my boyfriend for that horrible thing he did to me [deleted] | self.offmychest |
I've fucked things up too much I ruined my best friend's life. She's now stuck living her worst nightmare, forced to give up her dream and instead watch her mind and body fall apart, all the whole stuck with the one who put her there. She hates me, wants nothing to do with me or our son, who i can't take care of on my ... | self.SuicideWatch |
Overdosed on NyQuil? Please respond I bought a 8 oz bottle of NyQuil and drunk maybe 1/4 of the bottle(down to the top off the rapper) 7 hours ago. I was drowsy for a bit and now it's just minor head pain(nothing major or severe) and I can't sleep at all. I looked it up and people are saying they've drunken far more fr... | self.depression |
Give me one good reason I should keep trying? Every time I make a stride against my anxiety, I take two back because something happens in my life. First my uncle dies, then I'm becoming more confrontational with my SO who I love to pieces and now my dog has a slipped disc in her spine. It's almost like everyone I hold ... | self.SuicideWatch |
Panic attacks have been on and off and I only beat half of them lately Hey everyone, I’d love to describe my situation as of late, and gain some insight from you folks. Be it, techniques, advice, stories, anything really. Reddit helps ground me sometimes.
I’ve had general anxiety for a long time now, or at least been ... | self.Anxiety |
We're all Depressed on some level What's different is how we coup with the depressing thing we call life.
Some choose drugs, some sugary foods, others live on edge with risky activities, many choose copious amounts of coffee and cigarettes. Most turn to religion - the belief that there's a higher power; the idea that ... | self.depression |
You should be thankful that you can support yourself Just a message to all you who have jobs that net you enough earnings to live on your own. I don't give a flying fuck how unfulfilling you find your job or your daily 9-5 fucking grind. At least you have that fucking job. I don't give a fuck if it's a high stress job ... | self.depression |
What is the appeal in going further? I am an 18 y/o m living in germany and I am depressed since 2013, suicidal since 2015, on psychiotic treatment since 2016 and on meds since 4 months. Don't see the appeal in living, when I was a kid I did not think about anything regarding life, all I was doing was go to school and ... | self.SuicideWatch |
I feel like I’m just floating through life inside a bubble that’s just waiting to be popped [deleted] | self.depression |
It's the loneliness.. I can't I can't take it anymore. Sometimes going days without speaking. Not having anyone to talk to. I miss smiling and laughing. I don't even want to get out of bed anymore because I'm so depressed. I just recently lost my job too and if just adds on to the stress. I'm so fucking sad that I just... | self.SuicideWatch |
Mania and Cats So, today I got asked about how I know when I'm hypomanic and I half jokingly said "I adopt cats." Except it's pretty true, I know have 3 cats adopted over my last 2 hypo episodes, and while I'm able to care for and feed them I'm so terrified that I won't always be able to. I have to move and I'm going b... | self.bipolar |
I want to die I want to die so bad, everything hurts. I can't trust my feelings with anyone except strangers on the internet, because when I tell people that i feel bad, they go away. My ex was really sad and she had to leave me because I would make her even more sad, my friend left me too. I had a great christmas but ... | self.SuicideWatch |
When I look in the mirror.. I ask the person I see, "who are you?" I follow up with a "fuck you." | self.depression |
I’m getting kicked out and it’s making me depressed. [deleted] | self.depression |
Hi I’m really sad and I feel like I’m going to try and kill myself tonight all I have in life is my dog and I just want to talk to someone before I kill myself or try at least I don’t want to be in pain anymore | self.SuicideWatch |
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