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No hope for change, thinking about giving up. My depression around the holidays usually sky rockets, i know I'm not the only one. It also doesn't help that my birthday is tomorrow, i turn 23. I have nothing to show for it, I'm at the same position i was last year, Same job, no SO, and still depressed. I have a carer i ... | self.depression |
Is depression addictive? I ask because it feels like I don't want to leave this misery. Like it's my "home base" of feelings, my normal. I quit the most successful job I had 2 years ago, and quit the last job I had 3 months ago. I don't want to do anything, not even get out of bed. Everyone asks me how the job hunt... | self.depression |
When I wake it starts like a candle flame .in a while there anxiety is going to become like a wildfire consuming my very being | self.Anxiety |
You don't hear about the ugly side of surviving a suicide attempt When you hear about someone surviving an attempt, it's a powerful story about recovery. About how they came to realize that they still have the desire to live, or that they found desire to find something to live for. Even if it wasn't immediate, they eve... | self.offmychest |
I'm autistic it doesn't mean I'm stupid So I'm 21. The ripe age of where every normal person is hooking up, getting drunk and what not. But everyone I ever speak to automatically treats me like I'm a child.
I'm not stupid. I got a degree by 20 and then went into working. But still every damn shit on the face of the e... | self.offmychest |
Expectations physically killing me. So I'm a first year ESL teacher about 5 months off the (proverbial) boat. I've been actually teaching in class for about 4 months or so. The hard part is as an ESL ALT (Assistant Language Teacher), I'm taking on a multitude of schools (7 to be exact) from leaving predecessors. Issue ... | self.offmychest |
I'm not depressed, but i want to die? can anyone relate? | self.SuicideWatch |
I just want to isolate myself for a while. Everyday I think of how nice it would be to escape for a year or two. I honestly don’t want to die; I just want a break. My anxiety, panic attacks, and depression are just too much for me at the moment. I’m always worrying about what people think of me, and I’m always afraid p... | self.Anxiety |
Saturday night with a bottle of wine alone. Very lonely. Drop a comment and let’s talk. No topic is off limits [deleted] | self.depression |
Is getting married or even being in a relationship truly worth the stress? Idk maybe it’s because I have had only bad experiences....but still I know a lot of married couples/people relationships and I can honestly say I never get jealous at all. Don’t get me wrong I definitely have never had issues with being faithful... | self.offmychest |
My heart physically hurts I can’t breathe, I’m too sad and the worst thing is that I don’t have any specific reason to feel this way, not at the moment at least. | self.depression |
Does anyone feel like sleep resets all of the mental talking you do to yourself to fight your anxiety every day? I usually wake up with anxiety, and immediately go into self talking and by the end of the day I’m able to call out the irrational thoughts and work things out, but then I go to sleep and it resets and I for... | self.Anxiety |
Coming down form r/SuicideWatch back to depression after a bad week. The past week has been rough, To the point where i was ready to give it up. Today i have decided with in the next few weeks i would give myself a routine to do even if it is a small one it is to get myself out of this rut and cycle of feeling low all ... | self.depression |
Thought I would be much better this far along...[LONG] Nope, haven’t been around for a while. Got to a good point in life, even though I lost my dear aunt in the summer of 2015. Went back to work that fall, completed an advanced education degree this summer, got inducted into an honor society for teachers...everything ... | self.Anxiety |
I am tormented by the thought that I might be a sexual predator I am really sorry for the long story, but this has been bothering me like hell. I am a 24 year old man. When I was 16 I was crushing on a girl, who we will call Sarah, who was also a friend. We made out on two occasions, but she said she didn't want to be ... | self.offmychest |
Accepting Change I've struggled with depression and anxiety since I was in my teens and now it feels worse than usual. I've realized that my grandparents will never be young again and things can't go back to the way they were.
My grandma has Alzheimer's and she used to cook regularly and her food was amazing. She bro... | self.depression |
Great For Weeks Then It Hits &Takes Days To Come Down Wondering if anyone has problems where your anxiety is under control for a few weeks and then anxiety hits but stays with you for almost a week. I seem to have an anxiety attack, then slowly recover over the course of like 4-5 days. In those days I’m not havin... | self.Anxiety |
i dont know maybe im just not treating my depression correctly. or im underestimating it? | self.depression |
How does it feel to not have anxiety? I've had anxiety and OCD since I was 3 years old. My husband doesn't have anxiety and says he rarely feels anxious or anxiety. He did have a mental breakdown a few years ago and had a couple of panic attacks, but with therapy and meditation He quickly recovered. He says stressf... | self.Anxiety |
Mood stabilizers make it hard to carry conversations Before I was on Lamictal I used to have easy conversations with people. My anxiety often made me self-crirical I would say, but I would always warm up and be able to have a great conversation.
On this new mood stabilizer I'm finding that difficult. My emotions are w... | self.bipolar |
Is it still depression if it isn’t constant, more like cyclical? I honestly go through a cycle where I start off very depressed. Every month, for almost a week, I have anxiety attacks, or I’ll start sobbing out of no where. When my friends ask why I’m so quiet or distant, I tell them that I have a lot going on but it’s... | self.depression |
Some jerk stole my drink
At the mall in the food court I ordered one pepsi from a vending machine but three pepsis were dispensed( apparentlymachine was broken)and before I knew it someone snuck up behind me and started grabbing two of the pepsis. When I turned around I found out it was some fucking asian b!tch ... | self.offmychest |
My marriage is over, no matter how hard I try to fix it. [deleted] | self.offmychest |
Anyone else... awake and anxious? Fell asleep for a few hours, but now awake and upset. Just feel like I need someone to talk to. | self.Anxiety |
People don't care about you, and it sucks TLDR: In our society, adults don't matter and no one has sympathy for us, although we have feelings, fears, and we contribute to the machine society runs on.
It seems like the older we get, the less people care. People only care about kids, teens, the elderly, and even animals... | self.depression |
Don't see the point in living I don't even know what to put here. I screwed up again. Like usual. I think I'm just really good at that. Right now I want to die more than anything. I'm thinking about taking an overdose and just ending it all. That sounds amazing. I'm so depressed and keep cutting myself. It's all pointl... | self.SuicideWatch |
Feeling like everyone would be much happier without me. [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
Poem on how I feel Just need to get it off my chest.
*You're So Happy*
"You're so happy!"
"You're so carefree!"
"Its fun around you!"
I smile, "Good
I'm no nuisance,
I'm no bother"
I want to be happy
Only way to fight
The war against it
But there is no winning
I'm only defending
I am o... | self.depression |
I want to buy a gun to kill myself, but I'm afraid of wasting the money if I fail If I fail/get caught by my boyfriend, is there a way to return the gun and get my money back? | self.depression |
People staring at me makes me furious Does anyone else hate it when other people stare? In my case, it usually happens when I'm in a mixed episode and I start getting paranoid at people in the street. Today I was having a "normal" day, but I've been feeling a bit on edge lately. I've had a few mild visual hallucination... | self.bipolar |
I am so FUCKING scared I want to cry I live in a box truck. I was in the middle of making it a home when I got the call. I took off immediately. I didn't think it through. Now I'm in the middle of Texas with a cardboard sign trying to make enough gas money to see my grandma one last time.
I'm scared I won't get there ... | self.offmychest |
Kill my self I want to die tonight I'm tired of living and always hiding my self behind a mask | self.SuicideWatch |
im really scared of my future im honestly terrified of the thought of turning 30 years old. ill be 25 really soon. im tired, emotionally. i feel 60. im still in the same place as i was when i was 12, mentally and physically. im still dealing with the same unsolved disorders with no real solution in sight, i still live ... | self.depression |
Holy shit... The truth about my life difficulties has just been revealed to me. All the pieces of the puzzle fell into place. Jesus. How do I even start. All of this is so obvious and yet for years I haven't been able to grasp what's been happening with me in the past 12 years (I'm now 22).
I'll start with the context... | self.depression |
Dog owners having guests over at Christmas, remember your guests don’t have to conform to your dogs. I used to own a dog years ago, dogs are great, I love dogs. But not everyone loves dogs. I am so sick of dog owners with the view of “I love my dog, he is the friendliest dog, and a part of our family, therefore, everyo... | self.offmychest |
people trying to give you advice when they don’t know anything about your life i’m 22, i live with my parents. i have a part time job but other than that i really just play video games and spend time with my boyfriend.
i woke up this morning and went downstairs and my mom decided to have this big talk with me about h... | self.depression |
Losing faith People around me has started losing faith in me. I want to keep on living, but i can't live and socialize with other people. People who used to be nice to me slowing distancing themselves from me. I loved myself and i believe that better days will come, but i keep crying myself everyday, even in a public. ... | self.SuicideWatch |
I am called for jury duty this Wednesday. I’ve never done it before and am scared/anxious For those who have done jury duty, how scary/hard was it?
This Wednesday I’ve been called to go for jury duty in the (large) city I live in. I’ve never had to go before and have been dreading it since I got the notice..
I have to... | self.Anxiety |
Goal Setting Sunday 2.18.18 I feel like weekly was too often for this kind of thread, but maybe every other week might be good. Anyway I find it helps to set some clear goals for the future to work towards and some users have told me this thread helps them too, so let's share. What do you want to work toward in the nex... | self.bipolar |
I'm destined for hell, I just know it. Might as well get it over with (and why I'm an evil animal) Huge argument today with my brother (background is we were both abused as children, fyi). We have these every so often. He says horrible things to me, but I'm always the one to instigate it due to our messed up childhood.... | self.SuicideWatch |
Had the funnest laughs in the IRC bipolar char today Lots of gratitude for that chat link. I love you guys. So fun to hang out with ya’ll!
*chat, sorry | self.bipolar |
A dark place I remember when I was in 4th/5th grade I used to dream about a special dark place. I'd imagine disappearing into a portal into a world of darkness. Only a world with me and darkness nothing else. I felt happy whenever I thought of that place. To be honest I still wish that I could be in that dark place. I ... | self.depression |
Could I receive government assistance if I shot myself and as a result was crippled? [deleted] | self.depression |
I Can't Shut Up and so I Have No Friends I've been in a mixed episode for a few months and I'm doing everything I should be and trying my best, but I think I'm annoying to all of my coworkers (they are also the only people I see). I thought some were my friends, but it turns out I was mistaken. I also literally have ... | self.bipolar |
Whats wrong with me? I'm 20 years old and never been in a relationship [deleted] | self.offmychest |
Examples/explanation of mixed episodes Honestly I'm not sure what a mixed episode means...i get that you aren't always depressed or manic/hypomanic....but the idea of it still being an "episode" always seemed odd to me.
Today was kind of weird for me because I was mildly depressed and pretty anxious, but then later I... | self.bipolar |
Here’s a quick goal for the day! Eat three meals, drink lots of fluids, wash off, brush your teeth, brush your hair, and tell someone you love them! You’d be surprised how much these things can make a bad day good! ❤️❤️❤️ | self.Anxiety |
What are intensive outpatient programs like? If anyone has ever been to one and could shed some light on it for me that'd be great. Thank you. | self.depression |
My girlfriend broke up with me today, but that’s not true worst part. I feel like I’m not good enough. I want to die. [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
Flying Advice Xanax I went to my doctor and explained that I have an extreme feat of flying for which he prescribed 3 tables of 250 micrograms of Xanax. One for the outgoing, one for the return flight and a spare case I lose 1. I'm thinking that 250 mg is a low dosage for a bad fear of flying. Can anyone offer advice a... | self.Anxiety |
Is it anyhow possible to get rid of bipolar disorder? [deleted] | self.bipolar |
Depression and inhibition: I though this might be an interesting read I found in /r/science Article below:
http://www.psypost.org/2017/10/study-depressed-people-notice-need-inhibit-behavior-trouble-braking-50049
The idea of the article is that people with severe depression can be entirely cognisant of the negative con... | self.depression |
I've been called in by HR for the 3rd time this month for allegedly sleeping at my desk. [deleted] | self.depression |
Can’t deal with the possible loss of a parent [deleted] | self.offmychest |
Started working as a paramedic and all a sudden im no stoner, suicidal person. I feel like a goal change so much in a person. (I'm sorry I'm just rambling my thoughts here) I kinda always had the need to smoke weed when I became anxious and after being in such a harsh enviornment and exposed to it almost every day. (Ca... | self.depression |
I don't know what to think or how to fix any of my problems I don't know how to write this post, so I'm just going to share how I feel.
I feel closed off from other people - like there is a barrier. I feel bitter, almost cynical. I feel like I debate with myself about saying something until I say nothing. I'm extreme... | self.depression |
I'm really worried I'm not making friends as well as others in college [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
Residential Program for Severe Anxiety? I've hit an extreme level with my anxiety. It's so bad that my heart is beating out of my chest and my mind is racing all day and night. I sleep in 15 to 20 minute spurts and wake up with my body shaking.
My therapist and psychiatrist both say that I need to go to residential p... | self.Anxiety |
I am not going to make it past the age of 25 I don't see myself living past 25 I am 17 or 18 rn and I fucked up in highschool and am barely going to graduate on time. I want to kill myself but still have things I need to do. I will die around 25. | self.depression |
I feel like a lot of what society cares about is just bullshit Seriously life is too damn short. All I want is a safe/warm dwelling, protective clothes, food, and water to survive. Read, write, paint, and run. Maybe bonfires with friends sometimes with guitars and dancing freely. Agape love not even romantic is needed.... | self.offmychest |
Irrationally afraid of food poisoning, how to break the cycle, or distract myself. Hi, I was hoping I could explain how I'm feeling here to anyone who would be willing to listen. My home nation is the US and I'm currently in New Zealand, so I am by myself and I don't really have much of an option to stress vent at home... | self.Anxiety |
Killing yourself to avoid causing someone pain I know suicide isn't the only or even the best option. I've come to this point again and again but I always get out of it. I'm in my late 20s and I have a fantastic life. I have suffered from depression since I was about 9. My life has always been good though. I was a want... | self.SuicideWatch |
I have to tell my parents I’m wasting another semester at college. [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
I don't know who to talk to and I'm freaking out. So I recently started the process of becoming a life insurance agent which will be very lucrative in the long run, but the problem is you have to study and pay for the liscense and the test to take to be liscense certified. I have failed the test twice now and am suppos... | self.Anxiety |
Anyone else depressed because of family abuse? It's really, really fantastic being 14 and super depressed /sssssss. But seriously, knowing that there's years until I can leave has made me incredibly depressed.
I have intrusive thoughts about suicide. Existential crises nearly daily. I'm terrified of death and it prev... | self.depression |
Not feeling right even when it lifts up a bit. I find it really strange how when I come out of an episode, I realize how much I got used to how shit I normally feel.
Most of the music I listen to stops connecting to me, lose some of my creativity, my philosophy of life and fuck knows what else.
And in the most twist... | self.depression |
Everyday is a nonstop effort to feel good enough to do something, but I never quite get there. I feel like I need to charge up by sleeping, internet, drugs, or alcohol for hours in order to not feel so empty and in pain before I can do things. But I never quite get there. It always seems like feeling content enough to ... | self.depression |
I honestly might kill myself tonight. (Long repetitive rant I apologise..) I'm young and I have a lot of potential, but I just can't do it. I acknowledge how "great" I could be in the future, but it seems the longer I go on, the worse I get and I won't get better. Nothing will, this planet and the people on it are all... | self.SuicideWatch |
Help! Hey guys I could really use your help.
I want to start a career in mental health (already got my bachelors, time for masters or med school) after being affected by it and seeing it in most of my family. So right now I'm on a mission to gain a better understanding of mental illness because one thing I'v learned i... | self.depression |
I think about it everyday I think about killing myself everyday to the point i'm so tempted to do it. Why? because i dont see a happy future for myself. Idk if i will but everyday, the temptation to do it just gets more and more intense | self.SuicideWatch |
Killing Myself over Parent's Finances I overheard my parents fighting today and heard that it is incredibly hard to support both my younger sister and me to go to university. I am currently thinking about killing myself and lying about my death in order to keep my parents from doing anything like giving me a funeral an... | self.SuicideWatch |
Fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck I don't fucking know. All my friends are fucking busy or in another state or ignoring me holy shit I just need to release some fucking energy I don't know who to talk to. | self.offmychest |
When to tell someone you are bipolar For instance, lets say you are in a relationship. Do you casually bring it up when talking about sensitive subjects with one another or do you wait until something goes wrong because of the bipolar?
Sometimes I think it's best not to mention something like this until it is necessar... | self.bipolar |
Im just a freak No one understands me. I dont even know what to do anymore. Id just be better off dead at this point. Fuck being trans | self.SuicideWatch |
Learning today that in a marriage my feelings don't matter. We have been through this really shitty roller-coaster of my wife being laid-off from a high profile job a week before xmas. I have been there every step of the way. We had started to plan for our sons visit (he is in college ) over a month ago. She bought the... | self.offmychest |
Is this a panic attack or just anxiety? I have this happening to me and I just want to know if it is common/if it happens to other people too. Is this a panick attack or anxiety?
So sometimes (like last night) I lay on my bed, its completely dark and i lay on my back. I all of a sudden start thinking that one day i w... | self.Anxiety |
Fml My life is shit and it’s only getting shitier from my lack of caring about anything anymore. I don’t want help from others but at the same time I need the help of others. I want to run away and end it but I look for small things to keep me from doin it month to month. I fucked my school career and don’t know where... | self.depression |
Looking for advice. Hello everyone.
Just recently I've noticed I've been getting panic attacks. It happens mostly when I'm in class. my heart will start to race, my hands get really shaky, I start to feel dizzy and all I can hear is a high pitched noise. I'm going to the doctors to figure out what the problem is. I'm ... | self.Anxiety |
Possible repression of abuse? TW Hi guys. I'm 21 year old female and live a relatively normal life. I have some bad mental health and I have good days and bad days but I'm making through it in healthy ways. I've been talking to my best friend about recently about how I don't remember most of my childhood and the memori... | self.depression |
I'm scared to death I'm scared to death of getting stuck in a job I don't like or tolerate for the rest of my life. I don't want the "go to college, get a job, pay bills, get married, have kids, die" lifestyle. | self.depression |
29/11/2017 I don't know if I should try anymore. I feel like I have no control over my life. the only things keeping me alive right now are music and remorse. All of my close friends are in stable relationships and I know I don't stand a chance with the only girl I'm interested in, and it just pisses me off. I hate it.... | self.offmychest |
I got spoiled about a game and now I can't stop crying I haven’t been feeling well lately so I decided to treat myself for Christmas and buy a game (which I won’t name so as not to spoil anyone) I wanted to play, which is rare since I haven’t been motivated to do anything I used to enjoy for a long time.
I have probl... | self.depression |
How to convince my friend to not kill himself??! My friend has made up his mind on killing himself despite the past two months of conversation we have had.He was showing some progress and was willing to meet/listen/get help but now is convinced that he wants to kill himself. No one else knows about this because he has ... | self.SuicideWatch |
Crushed my self esteem Lol just found out that 3 girls that i tried and failed to get close with, now with another man.
im just kinda shocked, im just gonna evaluate myself and ill come back better next time, lol felt like my leg is floating
i thought i was good enough, i thought wrong.
this is like slap in the fac... | self.offmychest |
Why do I even have a phone? No one calls or texts me. It feels like I don't even exist. FML | self.depression |
Need URGENT help I’ve posted on here before, but i’m going to recap my situation.
I broke up with my boyfriend a while ago, and fell into a pit of depression. i began drinking, smoking, and i hooked up with this guy. I didn’t tell my mom any of this obviously, because she would do anything to stop me from addiction a... | self.SuicideWatch |
psychotic probably schizo Anxiety need advice? i have OCD and am a victim to a huge RELAPSE last night specifically a long 7 hour ruminative dissociative episode that had no signs of mental freedom approaching! i was free for 1 month thanks to meds and last night it was triggered by complacency! this all goes back to n... | self.Anxiety |
Failure coping mechanisms are making me too happy with failure [deleted] | self.offmychest |
Medicine Talk Yo!!! Okay, so, basically, I want to know which medicines work for you guys and/or gals. I've used Zoloft before, and, while the first two weeks or so was horrible, it worked. However, I stopped taking it after my anxiety and depression went away, and now I'm back dealing with it again, and I really don't... | self.Anxiety |
Missing/ failing class because of depression I am supposed to be graduating college at the end of this semester (so next month). However, this semester I have become just overcome with anxiety and depression about myself: self-loathing, insecurity, general sadness.
I’ve missed many of my classes because I just cannot ... | self.depression |
[vent] This world was never made for me In order for our fucked up society to function, we want people who are confident, who can work under stress and pressure and work against the clock. But what if you don't have any of those things? What are supposed to do if you don't have any confidence, who can't handle any kind... | self.Anxiety |
Is it normal to feel suicidal after a breakup? I was hoping someone could offer advice or encouragement. I don’t have anyone to talk to about this sort of thing.
She sent her final goodbye today.
“I love someone else”
It’s burned into my head. I never thought I’d say this but I can’t live without her. I went to CVS,... | self.SuicideWatch |
[M20] Quit oxycotin opiate, lost my best friend / crush, and all of my close friends are traveling, the person I'm dating is sick and I don't even know how I feel about her. It's been a rough week [deleted] | self.offmychest |
I can't go on anymore I just can no longer justify my existence. I went to an interview today for a job and did a test to assess my ability to do this job. The guy interviewing me said that out of all the people that he has assessed i was the "only one to fail without getting a single answer right" while laughing. I'm ... | self.SuicideWatch |
It's been almost two weeks Since I lost the father of my child to an overdose. Tomorrow we will begin the Christmas Eve rituals that my husband and I set into motion for her when she was born a little over 12 years ago. Only this time he won't be here to help us decorate cookies or build an igloo with her. He won't be ... | self.offmychest |
Why am I so two-faced/bipolar with my feelings toward my girlfriend? Apologies for that terrible title, I couldn't think of a better word.
I've been going out with this girl for nearly 6 months now. It's been pretty good so far, we've had very few fights. But something always happens and I want to try fix it now.
A... | self.offmychest |
Does the past haunt you? Does it seem out of proportion compared to how nojn bipolar people would feel? Yesterday was my parents' wedding anniversary. They had a messy divorce when I was 16. That was 30 years ago. I cried my way through the day. My Dad doesn't even remember what the day means. He's been married to my s... | self.bipolar |
I feel mentally tired before I even try to do anything [deleted] | self.depression |
I've given up I don't really know how to start saying this, because I've never posted anything like this before. I guess I'm planning to kill myself in maybe a few hours, and I want to see if any person can try to argue with my point of view on the world.
I believe that everything is irrelevant and nothing really mat... | self.SuicideWatch |
People Someone invited me to do something but now I desperately do not want to go even though I said I was free. I dont want to make up some lame excuse because then I would be guilty. But the last fucking thing I want to do with my life is leave my house tomorrow.
Edit: Im also supposed to be up at like 10 and I know... | self.depression |
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