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Am I depressed? So I've been feeling sad on and off for a while now, and I can be happy, but anytime I see a few specific people or think deeply, I become sad for a while. I always think I'm worthless and my friends don't enjoy my company. I always feel as if everything I do is useless or stupid, and I think people see... | self.depression |
Going to bad neighborhood and asking if somebody there can kill me I've climbed 100 feet up a cell phone tower, but was too much of a pussy to jump.
I've held a knife to my eye, but my damn survival instinct won't let me just get it over with.
I don't have access to a gun myself, but thankfully, I live in one of th... | self.SuicideWatch |
Half of what I do is desire for things I'll never be able to buy and the other half is trying to convince myself that life is more than getting the things you always wanted, even tho everyone else got them but you. 12% of Rio de Janeiro is unemployed and I keep failing job interviews when I have very little to eat. Yet... | self.depression |
I am unlovable. I feel like I will never find love or intimacy with anyone. All of my friends have experience or are in a relationship, and I have always been left out. The only thing that could maybe count as a relationship was when I “dated” a boy in middle school, but I don’t think he really liked me, and we were ju... | self.offmychest |
Exhausted Chronically ill, fiancé lost job, soon-to-be MIL moved in with us because she's homeless (she's actually very lovely).
My health is terrible. I am a student at an Ivy League but I am too sick to be at school with my disability so I had to take a leave. My parents died, my nuclear family died shortly therea... | self.SuicideWatch |
I don't know what's happening in my head and I don't know what to do about it. [deleted] | self.depression |
Many Worthless Things I went to college straight out of high school, and I got thrown out on academic expulsion. I never went to class, I smoked and drank too much, I screwed around with whoever would let me screw around, and after two semesters of having fun the school gave me the boot.
I'm now 31 years old, and tryi... | self.depression |
I find comfort in sadness... It's like a warm blanket.
Happiness and anger just make me anxious. When I'm sad, I feel calm. Sadness feels real and everything else feels fake. | self.depression |
My friends dont care about me Sorry for posting this but I need to let out my feelings so I guess here is where I'm doing it.
Also the first 4 paragraphs don't matter too much so just skip them. They're backstory.
TLDR; Friend said a couple other friends and I were gonna room together. Makes another room with out t... | self.depression |
I think my uncle and aunt think I am a bad influence on my cousins. Cuz I am suicidal. shhh. hahaha | self.SuicideWatch |
How to deal with family members thinking you're selfish [deleted] | self.depression |
Bedtime Routine Tips? My anxiety has been getting progressively worse the past few weeks and it's preventing me from falling asleep at night as millions of thoughts flood my mind about everything from work to finances to health to that one thing I said 5 years ago that I regret. Anyone have any bedtime routine tips th... | self.Anxiety |
It would be so much easier to kill myself than fix the issues I have | self.depression |
Coming to terms with childhood sexual abuse So, just a background, I'm a 23 year old male and the incident that happened to me occurred when I was 7ish. Basically, I was at a local swimming pool and was in the men's room and am older guy was near me. I didn't know how to tie my bathing suit so I asked him to help me. A... | self.depression |
I still can't say the word Last Monday I became another statistic, adding another notch.
Last Monday I trusted a guy, I thought I would be safe. I was told nonstop about how good of a guy he was. He wasn't a good guy.
It's my fault right? I entered his apartment, I was told "what else did you expect?". Well for sta... | self.depression |
How do you find/vet a new psychiatrist? I just moved to a new city, and am kind of at a low point mental health-wise. I established with a PCP whom I really like. I got a referral to a psychiatrist through the same medical system (major university teaching hospital medical system in a big city), so I assumed the psych... | self.Anxiety |
I feel like crying and idk why In history rn, my teacher got me an assignment and I almost break down... just thinking about how much work it would be, and how little energy I have left everyday... God I'm so weak... | self.depression |
Three Months Later A girl I loved moved to Europe for a few months of work and we were supposed to try and do long distance just as we had done a year before. But after a few weeks of ignored messages, mysterious nights out, and cook cutter responses she told me she didn't love me anymore.
This was unexpected, people ... | self.offmychest |
Should I end it all 27 year old. No degree, job, friends or money. My clothes are old. And torn medications aren’t seeming to help I can’t always afford meds or therapy. Socially awkward and anxious. To afraid to live to afraid to die. People my age lived there college life, got good jobs made friends and settled down.... | self.depression |
Opinions needed desperately! I have been hypomanic and all over the place since Sunday. I know I have to ride this out and I will eventually get stable. I need to sleep so I’m trying desperately. I’m taking my meds, doing everything I should be doing.
The question: I just started at a new job on 11/1. There is the Ch... | self.bipolar |
Hes gross. I am an introverted person, I dont like having my personal space invaded without permission and Im not very physically affectionate not even with friends or family. He is horribly touchy, talks to me at the worst times, makes me uncomfortable as hell, stares at me, insulted me on my appearance and just gener... | self.offmychest |
I wish I had a way to end it now But i guess thats my rational side looking out for me. I have knives but no guns or pills, nowhere high enough to jump from. Maybe that needs to change, though. Im an idiot, but surely I can find something to take this pain away
But first, I need more alcohol
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Does it ever freak you out to realize you’re on antidepressants? [deleted] | self.depression |
I push everyone away, yet I feel lonely. I pushed my ex away recently after 2 years. At the start we were the strongest couple, things were well. But about a year ago I started getting worried, thinking I wasn't good enough, or that she was going to leave me. So I broke up with her, we kept getting back and breaking up... | self.depression |
"It's your choice to..." No, idiot, it fucking isn't my choice. I'm in school right now, arguing with my mother who clearly doesn't understand depression. I get severe depressive episodes that strike without warning, and it often happens during school. I often beg her not to make me go, but she forces me to anyways. I'... | self.depression |
No idea where my life is headed I'm 17, and my father keeps asking me what I want to do once I get done my grade 12 year. And I have absolutely no idea. If he would've asked me a year ago I would've told him "I want to go do digital media in the province adjacent to me for my future game dev career with my friends." Si... | self.offmychest |
Small accomplishments So I’ve been lurking on here for about a month now and you all seem really nice so I decided I try and post something. Posting this in itself is a big accomplishment or me, but I’ve been finding the motivation to do my homework so much lately and it’s just nice to actually feel motivated and do so... | self.depression |
27-year-old man who has failed at life, still living at home, and no social life. Close to ending it all. Hi Reddit,
I never thought my life would reach this stage, but it has. I've always suffered from a kind of low-level discontent, influenced by social anxiety, which seems to be getting worse over the years.
The ... | self.SuicideWatch |
I can't handle my thoughts and i don't know if i can last like this If had depression since 4th grade. I've been bullied and unwanted my entire life. I remember moments when my brother wished I was dead and that I was never born. I recall moments when my parents blamed me as a child for why there marriage was horrible.... | self.SuicideWatch |
Gamers that have depression, how have you dealt with it affecting something that you loved doing? [deleted] | self.depression |
My life is literally perfect but I still cut and don't know why God, that title sounds really depressing. I don't like seeing it typed out like that.
I am a female in my early-to-mid twenties. I've been living with my incredible boyfriend for over a year. I love my job, my relationship, our pet, and my circle of clos... | self.offmychest |
Conditioned to be unhappy Its a strange situation. Like an abusive relationship, i just cant leave, its like im conditioned to be unhappy
Im 25, i have $50,000 saved up, and i only need a few hundred dollars to survive.
Im absolutely in a toxic situation. My job is a stress machine, and im very alone. Depression an... | self.depression |
Do you still get depressed even when stabilised? As bipolar is a degenerative disorder as much as I hate to believe it, do you still get depression, is your memory, cognition getting worse even when you're stabilised.
I can't even think for crap. Meds have made me crap. | self.bipolar |
Is there a way to get walk-through explanations of how to do basic life things like taking the bus? I'm trying to move out of my parents' house to a new city alone in the next few weeks, and I find its like really basic things that are stressing me out more than anything else. Number one is transportation. I don't driv... | self.Anxiety |
Tonight’s the night I put myself back out there after you dropped me like a hot sack of shit after three and a half years of unconditional love, support, and sacrifice. [deleted] | self.offmychest |
Probation. Felonies. Family Deaths. Mental Illness. what's next? How do I a life that seems to be going no where and seems like it won't go anywhere? I can't go into all the details. But put it this way, I've recently gotten into trouble. Trouble which affects me in many a ways. I'm only 22...I got in trouble when I wa... | self.SuicideWatch |
My anxiety Whenever I HAVE to talk to someone or ask for help my anxiety kicks in and trys to stop me from asking for help | self.Anxiety |
Nothing ever works. Today, I got picked up from an inpatient facility where I spent a week because I overdosed on Lithium. I thought I had taken enough to end everything. My family had been on my ass all day about everything. I overslept for work, and they got mad.. like mad. I never oversleep for work, I haven't done ... | self.offmychest |
Having problems finding genuine authentic friends. Having problems finding genuine, authentic friends. Thought there might be someone on this subreddit that feel the same and wants someone to talk to, be real with, and eventually develop enough trust to talk about their "stuff" and be real. Someone I could talk to re... | self.bipolar |
Why cant i just say what i want to say? Every fucking time i have to tell someone no i just get really awkward and can never actually say what i want to. I hate that im lile this, everyone lrobably thibks im a piece of shit. I literally ignored one of my best friends all day today just because i didnt want to say no. W... | self.depression |
Third times a charm I'm ready to die, like, forreal. I can't cope with my psychosis anymore. I am ready to die. I've held a gun in my throat once, overdosed on pills another, this time I'm inhaling carbon monoxide till I sleep, then die. I can't bear it anymore. Life is not for everyone, and I'm part of that everyone. ... | self.SuicideWatch |
Manic at the same time, every year Does anyone else get manic at the same time every year? I think my episodes are triggered by my birthday approaching. I feel like I should know better by now, but I thought this year would be different.
On the plus side of things, despite spending thousands of dollars of dollars in ... | self.bipolar |
I quit. I'm a bipolar (diagnosed, type 1) borderline (diagnosed) drug addict alcoholic. I have been sober for about 6 months ago. Life got worse, but now I can't just get fucked up and black out. I'm tired of working a shit job to not make enough money. I have no friends and no family. I'm in a long distance relationsh... | self.SuicideWatch |
The airplane ride Well first time really posting about my bipolar mind. But figured I’d mention it to see what others say. I don’t mind the manic phases, it ‘s the ultimate drug, but leaves my life a destroyed mess when I leave it behind. The depression isn’t bad, it gives me the time to catch up on all my favorite sho... | self.bipolar |
Just sad having a bad day I am 21 and pretty awkward but i can usually navigate social situation with ease, but I get these thoughts that just scream I am a loser. Ont op of that I can't drive cuz I suck and am trying to get my license just going slow. Car barely works, and I feel like a constant disappointment to my f... | self.depression |
Everyone else is out there living and i have nothing. im so close to being done. [deleted] | self.depression |
Does anybody ever have a really hard time saying no to people? How does one learn to say no? I must know. | self.Anxiety |
I wish I could adopt you.. For most of my life, I have wanted to be a foster parent. I have a degree in early childhood development, and I was a preschool teacher for five years -I was the best with the "difficult" kids.
I no longer work in that field but I volunteer as a CASA, working with foster children. my boyfri... | self.offmychest |
You know your life is boring when you think watching Netflix is a hobby. i am so boring it's unreal. I don't wanna do anything other than play games and watch Netflix. Why am I sooo boring.
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I help others who are depressed, when I get depressed I feel bad for asking. Been a tough few months. I need some support. I can feel like giving up quite frequently but I wouldn't no matter how strongly I want to. Helping others helps a lot. It also helps to know I'm not alone. I find that eventually I am reminded abo... | self.depression |
How to stop Nervous shaky feeling pre-anxiety attack I sometimes (not very often, thankfully.) Get a nervous shaky feeling. I know I have a panic attack coming on.
It typically happens while at work at a daycare. Anyone have suggestions how I can stop it before it comes on full force. I can't leave my kids. | self.Anxiety |
Why do I suck at suicide too you'd think after all the things i do wrong, this would be the one thing i do right, but no
ive never had a successful attempt
i always half ass it, or call an ambulance myself when it gets real
i have this stupid will to live and people always try and use that against me and say 'well cl... | self.SuicideWatch |
Partner's adult son verbally abusive So my partner "A" and I have quite an age difference between us. While that age difference isn't an issue, it does mean that he has an adult son. His son "L" has a host of mental health issues for which he refuses to seek treatment. I wouldn't wish the neurological cocktail this ... | self.offmychest |
My psychiatrist gave me pills, then quit After being in therapy for a year, I finally decided to see a psychiatrist for my anxiety and depression and possible bipolar issues. I waited 4 months for the appt. I saw her for the first time two weeks ago and she prescribed me Abilify and Lexapro.
I was supposed to follow u... | self.depression |
Nobody is ever excited to see me and it's really wearing on me [deleted] | self.bipolar |
Happy one year, everyone It's been one year since I've been hospitalized. Feels good. | self.bipolar |
Here's to every one night stand I've ever had
And to every single tinder girl
I was willing to believe in
the long seconds on mornings
Of every long walk home,
Covering myself with only a hangover.
Suture me back together then die with me
Turn your corner and into this life
it was everything I had searched for
Afte... | self.offmychest |
Everyone I loved is gone, I can't do this anymore | self.SuicideWatch |
Will I ever be with somebody? I'm so lonely. I'm 19 and I don't have a clue what a relationship feels like. All my friends are talking about marriage and I've never even had a real kiss I cared about. I didn't think I was that bad, I guess I was wrong.
I know there are people who go much longer without finding anyone ... | self.depression |
Seriously. Seriously dude. how the hell do i cope? [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
I lived through a horrific war in my youth and never told anybody about it. I don't know how much longer I can continue living a lie. Sorry for terrible english
Hello, I currently live in Germany, I have a girlfriend, a good job, a house. In general I have a normal life. But I have always kept a secret from everyone ... | self.offmychest |
I think my son's wii got stolen Edit: my mailman brought it at 8am this morning!! He said he wasn't comfortable leaving it outside yesterday so he took it back to the office. Bless him.
Also, maybe I shouldn't panic so immediately? Life skill to work on.......
I plan ahead for Christmas. I'm a single parent of 3, mone... | self.offmychest |
I was forced to go to the school guidance today. [deleted] | self.depression |
no one actually cares my best friend said he’s only friend with me so i dont kill myself. he said our friendship feels forced. he says im too negative for him to he around. i feel like im being punished for having depression. no one can handle me or even wants to deal with me. why am i even here. | self.SuicideWatch |
How do I get courage to commit suicide? I'm 21 years and old and I have never enjoyed life since I was born. I'm going to commit suicide anyways even if it's later but I need to know how peo people build up the courage to do so to begin with.
I have nothing to look forward to in my life and currently only life because... | self.SuicideWatch |
I never believed this would happen to me I got engaged! I never thought I'd ever experience this wonderful, loved feeling. I never thought I'd find someone who didn't see me as a mental illness, and when I was manic wouldn't blame my mental illness for my actions. He treats me right, and treats me like a person. Even w... | self.bipolar |
Severe Anxiety Doesnt let me sleep Im literally crying over not getting sleep 😂
Like its bad already during the day
But at nights its unbearable, Super fast heartrate and its pounding for no reason
Wtf do I do ? Im losing the will to fight this disorder I rlly cant take it anymore
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How do you cope with the boringness of life? [deleted] | self.depression |
I'm about to ask out a really good friend of mine Well, my first post here and I just thought typing this down will make me a bit more calculative and calm. Long story short, I'm 20 and I'm from Israel. In Israel you get recruited when you're around 18 till you're about 21. The army is a place where lots of different c... | self.offmychest |
I don't what I expected I was crying myself to sleep again last night and I looked over to the opposite side of my bed. I don't know why I did that, maybe I was looking for someone to comfort me for everything that's my fault. They don't exist and will never exist.
I don't know what I expected. | self.depression |
Im done....i just dont belong here anymore I want to die. For 45 years Ive been a scapegoat for my narcissistic mother. Since I was little she's called me names, manipulated me and anyone I go to for help, she belittles me, uses passive aggressive ways to torture me and physically abuses/neglects me as punishment for ... | self.SuicideWatch |
Well, BuSpar amounted to nothing much other than giving me a headache and feeling Nauseated. Discontinued usage, not a fan of it at all.
Any other non-SSRIs for anxiety that work? | self.Anxiety |
Hospital time? When are you supposed to go to the hospital for suicidal thoughts? They've been getting worse. I don't want to die, I just don't want to live anymore. I have nobody that could help me feel better. I just want to take a bottle of pills and go to sleep. | self.SuicideWatch |
I want to turn my life around but I don’t know where to start [deleted] | self.offmychest |
Friends? I've shared my problems with my close friends of course they were sympathetic about it but they never asked me again if i'm okay so i thought that they didn't care at all. Afterall opening up is pretty difficult so i choose to hide it. Who am i anyway i'm just a person that's depressed and suicidal my problems... | self.depression |
I've just been diagnosed with depression Disappointed, but not surprised. I'm not surprised because I've been struggling for years, not knowing where my place is in the world. Disappointed, because I will be graduated from college in four months and I thought I could just make it until I pass that.
It's hard because m... | self.depression |
Panic just started up again... Now it's almost as bad as ever. Can't sleep, eat, or concentrate. I have had 25 attacks in the last 24 hours. Breaking Down. Things are continuing to get a bit crazier for me after quitting my job. I think this increase in anxiety has come from knowing that I've got the whole job situati... | self.Anxiety |
Involuntarily suicidal Hi, I dont really know where to put this post, but I feel like it is somewhat DP/anxiety/ocd/depression related.
So it seems like either I push through or believe my mind which flipped over 4 months ago. I seriously feel like since this has started that Ive been destined to suicide.
So my mind ... | self.SuicideWatch |
I dont want to feel happy?... I dont know if i actually have depression. I always kind of thought i had it and my physciatrist would drop hints but wouldnt confirm it. And as i said i have weight loss problems and my GP said i could have IBS and i have issues wigh constipation.The past few weeks ive been veryyy moody n... | self.depression |
When does it get better? I thought once I started moving forward in life again, everything would be better again. Everything that should and used to make me happy is meaningless to me. I hate myself. I can only criticize what should I should consider accomplishments. I'm moving forward again, but my mind is stuck in th... | self.depression |
I'm withdrawing and I am getting worse... I feel like I have no one to talk to. Within my family only very few people know. Everyone who know either doesn't care or can't/doesn't want to be helpful. I only have 2 friends left if you can call them that. Neither of which I can talk to. One suffers from depression too but... | self.depression |
Woke up exactly when I was supposed to Hello, I wanted to share something seemingly small that, for me, is really big with you guys. Today I got up when my alarm went off and started my day. I never do this! I either snooze till the last minute and eat coffee for breakfast or, when manic or very upset, I was never asle... | self.bipolar |
Know something is wrong but don't know what to do? I kind of don't really know where I'm going with this, but I'm going to try anyway.
I have never been diagnosed with any disorders or illnesses but I am going to be talking to my school's counseling center this week to see about getting some help.
I've written and de... | self.depression |
Take these meds and you'll feel better... oh but there's a catch. [deleted] | self.bipolar |
How do you tell the difference between your episodes and your "regular" state? I don't know if I've been in a mixed state for so long, if I'm rapid-cycling, or what, but I can't remember feeling "normal" for more than a couple days here and there in the past year. | self.bipolar |
Job I’m unemployed and don’t know what to work in.
What do you guys do? | self.bipolar |
[TW: self harm] Should I send this to my ex? So I dated this person for about a year and they told me/I had found out that they self harmed sometimes when things got really rough.
We’re not together anymore for unrelated reasons. In theory, we ended things amicably but we haven’t spoken in a couple of months, even th... | self.depression |
Does she like me or is she just being nice? [deleted] | self.depression |
Just want to jump out of my balcony... Sorry for this post, but I feel sweet the idea of jumping out of that balcony. Fifth floor, if I touch the ground with my head I should die suddenly, isn't it? In that case, no more feelings, no more pain, no more confusion, no more problems, no more battles for arriving to a poin... | self.SuicideWatch |
Going through eval, freaking out So I'm going through an eval for BP and I am really struggling with the idea that this diagnosis would change my life, everyone would view me differently and that I will view myself as a sick person. Even though I struggle with keeping jobs, friends, staying in one country and am depres... | self.bipolar |
Is there anything I can take to make me feel relaxed (long term) ? [deleted] | self.bipolar |
RESEARCH - /r/depression/ Questionnaire - RESEARCH Hello,
my name is Eddy, I am a 27 years old 6th year medical student who is writing his M.D. Thesis on the topic of depression. With your help, I will try and answer the question of whether one should advise a fellow person who struggles with depression to visit inter... | self.depression |
God I feel so much despair right now. I just need to write this out because I’m feeling terrible and just need a forum to talk to. I trust you guys a lot and you all have made me smile on here. My job is ruining my mental health at the moment. I feel like my coworkers are getting sick of my scatter brained shit. I work... | self.bipolar |
I wanna kill myself Idk why am I posting this I'm just alone tbh
A lot of shit is going on ,I've just reached a dead end
It's just getting worse | self.depression |
The world is sending me a crystal clear message that I shouldn't be here It feels like everytime I'm trying to help myself, something happens that either scares me out of doing it or just acts as another barrier. But at the same time, this is all my fault for not trying harder and letting myself get to this point, and ... | self.SuicideWatch |
Old Problems, New Beginnings So I don't post here all that often, but lately I haven't been seeing a doctor besides my GP for prescriptions so I have little opportunity to just let out what's going on with my life.
I recently moved cities to move back in with my parents as I struggled to keep myself financially stable... | self.bipolar |
Using your brain and anxiety? Any time I have to think about anything that involves deep thinking (math, science problems, etc.) I freeze up because I don't want to confront what's going on in my brain. I've found being "numb" is a great coping mechanism with anxiety, but ultimately fails when I have to interact in the... | self.Anxiety |
Hello everyone. I can’t turn off the dark self-depreciating thoughts... could use some internet hugs from strangers. [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
Today I needed to cry But I was in a public place and I did not. I did not know the reason why I wanted to, nor do I know now. It is already too late and I am no longer able to. I think I have buried the guy who wanted to get out. Poor bastard. | self.depression |
Can a good sucide note make my family accept my decision? [deleted] | self.depression |
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