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Why shouldn't I? Honest question. It's not even that I'm sad or hurt. It's just gotten to the point where I don't even remember what it's like to be happy. Or to be anything. Everyone dies eventually. There's no point to life, as it culminates in the same end for everyone, no matter what. I could see wanting to live if... | self.SuicideWatch |
I'm worried and don't know what to do I'm really worried that soon I'm just going to hit my breaking point. I'm just really scared. Whenever I talk to people about it everything is fine enough and then a few hours pass and i feel the exact same and nothing has changed for years. I dont want to die I just want to reset ... | self.SuicideWatch |
Hurt I hurt myself today
To see if I still feel
I focus on the pain
The only thing that's real
The needle tears a hole
The old familiar sting
Try to kill it all away
But I remember everything
What have I become
My sweetest friend
Everyone I know goes away
In the end
And you could have it all
My empire of d... | self.depression |
Got my first batch of antidepressants today. First major step towards self betterment. I know antidepressants aren't the magical cure all for depression but im genuinely feeling hopeful for the first time in awhile. It feels nice having some hope ya know. | self.depression |
My life Part 3. Long read. Trigger warnings in thread. I need help... Part 1: https://www.reddit.com/r/depression/comments/7bnyih/my_life_part_1_long_read_trigger_warnings_in/
Part 2: https://www.reddit.com/r/depression/comments/7bwjaf/my_life_part_2_long_read_trigger_warnings_in/
**WARNING**: The stories of my life ... | self.depression |
I've recently accepted that I may have bipolar I'm showing pretty much all the symptoms, my mother has it, and my doctor has referred me to a mental health centre after meeting with him and talking about myself. I feel like it'll be a great relief to finally know what is "off" with me, but it's daunting to think about.... | self.bipolar |
Are you obsessed by suicide ? I think about it all day long, it's very very hard to think about something else. Sometimes when I watch a movie, I have different thoughts for 10 minutes, then I go back to suicide ... But the strange part is that it is relaxing for me to think about it, I'm less anxious, pressure is goin... | self.SuicideWatch |
How do you cope when you're conflicted about going away for a few days and staying home? So I've suffered from anxiety for about 10 years now and it feels like it gets worst lately, more so with stress.
I go to a social gaming event (We call them LAN events) that I go to every year since 2011 for Christmas for a few ... | self.Anxiety |
Is there a point in continuing your suffering when it has gone on for many years? If you've tried far to many pills, therapy, etc. and yet you still hate living...does it make sense to continue?
What is even more baffling to me is that despite how much I hate being alive every single day, working up the urge to actual... | self.depression |
My brother said to never give up on a person with depression, but I’m not sure what to do. [deleted] | self.depression |
Is a therapist even worth going to??? I really need help with my life, like I had a bad father in my childhood and I spent most of my teen years just trying to get away from the emotional abuse. Now im an 18 year old guy relying on using substances to make me happy, no gf and only 2 friends. Man my life is messed up, l... | self.depression |
I'm not sure what I'm supposed to do For the past year, I have been feeling extremely anxious. Most of the time, I don't know what I'm nervous about; I just have an intense sinking feeling in my chest and it causes me to think bad thoughts, which makes it worse and creates a cycle.
This usually happens at night and w... | self.Anxiety |
Actually.. I'm not happy, I'm so sad I want to cry like a child but I can't! I see people post about their issues on a daily basis, every minute a new post and we just don't know what kind of advice to give so we just leave their post untouched. Sometimes a reply is better than an advice. I'm drunk and when I'm drunk I... | self.depression |
How to transition back into real life after a psych stay Title pretty much sums it up. I stayed in the hospital for SI and i just got out. Still feeling depressed but somewhat motivated to transition smoothly into real life. I'm finishing up this semester at uni hopefully. And seeing if my job will let me back. So how ... | self.bipolar |
conflating bpd with bipolar (potential trigger) hi folks,
first of all i wanted to start with a content warning: i'm making assumptions about bpd that might come across as mean and dismissive. however, i know i might be wrong. **if you have bpd i would love your input, especially since you likely have both bipolar and... | self.bipolar |
Your cross to bare You cheated and lied and pushed away people that actual carried about you unconditionally. It sucks for you that your friends see it now but you never will until it's too late. You think these friends of yours that you make now care about you? No they won't when things go South people will show their... | self.offmychest |
Please, Please, Please teach your kids about privacy! I work in a middle school where these kids were born after the year 2000. These kids have trouble understanding what privacy/appropriateness is and a big part of it is due to growing up in the age of the internet. And honestly adults have this problem too as we ofte... | self.offmychest |
Being around people over Christmas/New Year just makes me worse [deleted] | self.depression |
I destroyed her heart I feel like trash, all i can do is cry, or when i drink enough im numb. It wasnt working out but i still feel distugisting. Pills dont work and the alcohol only last for so long. | self.SuicideWatch |
Your biggest fear When u felt depressed ,what was your biggest fear?
Mine was dying without leaving any impact, without making a single meaningful connection with anyone. | self.depression |
Life just keeps beating me down no matter how hard I try to get back up I'm 20, and I've been living with my mom doing absolutely nothing with no job for 2 years because my depression forced me out of University. Over the past year I feel like I've been making some progress finally, like being able to cook some food fo... | self.depression |
Prozac-takers: how long til it started working for you personally? I just started Prozac on Monday. I also just got off Effexor as of last Friday, which was a Devil drug to me—horrible, evil, abominable medication. Did I mention it didn’t work well for me?
I feel better already. I am just curious to see how long it to... | self.bipolar |
Took an emergency bath to stop myself from fast escalating suicidal thoughts. [deleted] | self.depression |
Nobody Cares. Killing myself tonight. No reason to continue, nobody likes me or will miss me. Got the knife ready, just need to get drunk first so I don't chicken out.
Edit: Decided not to, for now anyway. Thank you to most of the commenters and those that sent me a pm, you are good people. | self.SuicideWatch |
I’m thinking about you. Thank you so much for driving me to the airport. It’s a 4 hour drive. And you still need to drive all the way back home, alone. For helping me take in my luggage. For walking me as close to my gate as you could.
I’m sitting here now, waiting for my flight, and I’m thinking about you. I wanted ... | self.offmychest |
Have you ever gone to one of your appointments drunk and/or high? That used to be one of my "rules" of things not to do, but rules are meant to be broken. There was a point where I wouldn't go unless I was high. This backfired on me last week when I saw my psychiatrist heavily influenced by a research benzo and had an ... | self.bipolar |
My battle with depression and today I have been dealing with things like depression, anxiety, bi polar disorder and other things all my life but the past four years have been rough I was dead in a car accident for ten minuets and my left arm was shattered both my ulna and radius were sticking out of my arm and this hap... | self.depression |
Im far too obsessed with seeing the other side to everything. Every story, every perspective, every feeling, every situation, every interaction, etc. I constantly force myself to look at *everything* in another way(s). [deleted] | self.offmychest |
I just moved into this house with my boyfriend and him and his brothers and friend are over fixing it up. I don’t know if I’m supposed to be in charge of food or some shit. [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
Rant about anxiety meds - I've been self medicating with Benzodiazepines (Valium) First it started with cannabis, a very no nonsense substance at face value but ultimately terrible as an anxiety medication (currently). You simply can't dose this stuff appropriately, too much causes the exact symptoms your trying to tre... | self.Anxiety |
Someone help me sort my thoughts out I apologize in advance if this is incoherent or ridiculous. It's 6 am and I've been internally falling apart for the better part of the night.
I've never been exactly "in" with the crowd. Whoever that is. It's almost like I never existed and to those whom I did I was a negative s... | self.depression |
Is there still hope? I have been a steady emotional decline ever since what feels like my friends drifting away, today it's hitting me hard. I have been friends with these people for 7 years, and now I am in so much pain, I see so much gray and no light at the end of this tunnel. I have thought of suicide, but don't ac... | self.depression |
I can't live like this anymore Okay, premise. 18, gay, autistic, Pagan. I had an abusive father for the first 9 years of my life until he tried to kill my mother and the rest of us. Since then, I don't think I've ever been truly happy. There's always been something to worry about. My mother never made more than $15,000... | self.SuicideWatch |
Mental illnesses are a fucking handicap when looking for a job. So much for equal opportunities. Unemployed for 1y+ now. Can't get into my dream career without being stigmatised for mental illness. Just because I place pressure on myself doesn't mean I cannot produce results in work.
Then when you look at disability b... | self.depression |
Should i kill myself? I believe i will end up homeless in the worst case in the future, on welfare, or shitty jobs that pay low. Why? I'm autistic, i dropped out of school in my live several times. And without education its basically impossible to get a decent paying stable job. So will always be dependent on welfare. ... | self.SuicideWatch |
does this sound like bipolar disorder? Never been a fan of self diagnosis, I've always rolled my eyes over people saying they are bipolar when they were clearly not even close. But I've been thinking these days , why are my mood swings like that and why can't I control them?
I go through episodes of happiness and peace... | self.bipolar |
4 days before Xmas I wanna be clear that I don't have now suicidal thoughts but I was thinking how serious it is.
I have depression since I was 18 and now I am 33. I am trapped in a life that won't change probably for the next 7 years. I am single, I can't even date someone and I suffer emotional abuse from my family... | self.SuicideWatch |
I finally thought that I was passed my suicidal thoughts, but I seriously considered killing myself today. I don’t think I can handle going downhill again. I’m sorry [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
Is it normal to have panic attacks in your sleep? | self.Anxiety |
Cancer? Found a lump. Cant relax nothing will work. PLEASE somebody reply... [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
Reality compared to dreams? Does anyone else here have really vivid dreams that make you really happy and you feel that you've beat depression. Then you wake up, realize you just conjured up the whole thing and imagined it in your head, and you have not overcome depression at all. Only stewed the whole thing.
Just ha... | self.depression |
I just dont know what to do... Hi, I'm 21 and I browse this subreddit for about a month. After some time I finally decided to post
I dont know if I'm depressed but I feel like I am. I always had troubles with trying to be social or prefered to stay at home instead going somewhere with friends. Always felt down but I s... | self.depression |
New Favorite Coping Skill I'm in the first few weeks of a break up and I've been doing pretty well but last night I got really overwhelmed by emotion out of nowhere and started sobbing. All I wanted to do was call him, but instead I texted a friend and told her to send me pictures of her one month old daughter. The s... | self.bipolar |
Something insightful and positive I am an undergrad in my second year in college, a place designed to let you explore who you are what type of person you want to be. It's honestly terrifying the amount of autonomy students like myself have. But it's for good reason: everyone reminisces over its powerful ability for sel... | self.offmychest |
Am i empty inside? I can't explain my mind, I never can and doubt I will, I feel empty. I should not but I do, I have a loving family and live with a amazing woman that loves me (not that I understand why) but I feel empty... Hollow all the time... Nothing fills the void.... I feel I cant tell any one I love that despi... | self.depression |
I'm failing Everything is a blur and my teachers are saying I should be dropping a subject but then I can't get into university and I'm just so stressed and so sad and I can't even get out of bed in the morning because I just can't face it. | self.depression |
My meds make me drowsy, what time should i take them to fit my new schedule? I’m sorry this is kind of long, I don’t know how to explain this well, but appreciate any help.
The thing with my meds is that they make me very drowsy/sedated during a certain time-frame. my psychiatrists lets me periodically choose what tim... | self.bipolar |
How to stop constant sweaty hands i get this issue often, i just have to think about something and i will start sweating on my hands, its embarrassing if i have to shake hands at an interview or something
it can even happen for something as small as reading a email that is important. any advice on how to stop? | self.Anxiety |
I'm on the edge I'm so afraid. I can't stop the thoughts. I could do it. I could hang myself right here in my room | self.SuicideWatch |
Is this possible? Is it possible to cycle between manic and hyoomanic repeatedly without any break between? For the past month or more I've felt like I've been various levels of manic or hypomanic. Everywhere from feeling super productive and getting stuff done, to being way overwhelmed, bordering psychosis, I apparent... | self.bipolar |
Best books for Anxiety? I'm going to have to stop going to therapy soon for financial reasons. Reading self-help books always helps me. Any recommendations on good self help books that help you overcome anxiety? | self.Anxiety |
Sorry for this rant *I apologise for my poor grammar*
Whenever I talk to my friends or anybody, they always give off a vibe of "will you just shut the fuck up already." I always struggle to keep conversations going and I always seem to stutter and have HORRIBLE voice breaks all the time.
Whenever I make a small mist... | self.offmychest |
Feeling anxious, went 2 time to the psychiatrist, suggested medication, anxious about the side effects. Advice needed. I'm new to this subreddit, and I assume there are gazillion of posts like these. I feel anxious and get regular panic attacks, and get frustrated easily, have problem with alcohol, and regularly seeing... | self.Anxiety |
Talking to a girl with Bipolar disorder, suddenly became cold/uninterested? Hello,
Not sure if this is right place to post this but I'm(23m) looking for some advice with a new girl(22f) I'm talking to. I met this girl and we hit things off pretty well, had deep meaningful conversations, went on a few dates all went we... | self.bipolar |
I don't think there is any point in living anymore. My life is so fucked because of depression, that i don't think i will have better life in future. | self.depression |
I'm think my little brother is turning into an incel and don't know what to do [deleted] | self.offmychest |
Wow saved my life today if i had not deiced to play world of Warcraft this morning, this post would not have been made. I'm so glad that i got on today. i found out that this game is my light in the vast dark world. all the great friends i have meant on this game i can not thank enough. they have given me the reason to... | self.depression |
"Life is a struggle" You have to be powerful to have less of a struggle | self.depression |
Had my first visit with my new doctor... I like her. She listened to me, she was able to look up my previous medications which is something my last doctor never did. Apparently between 2010 and 2013 my psychiatrist at the time had me on virtually all the Bipolar medications but not long enough to know if they worked. I... | self.bipolar |
How to combate Latuda drowsiness? I took Latuda 1 year ago and I was at 40mg, but it made me very, very drowsy. Lowering the dose wasn't an option for me since 20mg wasn't helping with depression. I really needed the 40 -- and it helped A LOT -- but the drowsiness was why I discontinued it.
Well, I'm thinking about go... | self.bipolar |
Today was hard. But i decided to share. Give it a read, tell me what you think. [deleted] | self.depression |
You ever realise people say they are there for you but [deleted] | self.depression |
Ending 2017 alone, which is how I’ve felt all year long Just the thought of 2018 fills me with dread. | self.depression |
Permanent Solution The next sorry excuse for a piece of shit that says that suicide is a "permanent solution to a temporary problem" might just get taken along with me. It's not one problem, or two problems, or three problems I'm dealing with: I am besieged by problems. Every fucking where I look I'm inundated with the... | self.depression |
I keep telling myself it will get better but I am afraid it may not. Help. In advance, sorry for the vent, I just needed to get this out somewhere, and you guys are like family to me.
I have been having a lot of issues with emotions in the past 2 months or so, and they are rooted in my social anxiety. I can't talk to... | self.Anxiety |
Why cant I just fuck off and die? IVE HAD ENOUGH.
I cant take any more physical pain. Death seems Utopian. | self.offmychest |
My own happiness just makes me want to die [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
Having trouble sleeping/anxiety upon awakening For the past two days, I haven’t been able to sleep well. I can’t fall asleep, can’t stay asleep, and when I do finally sleep, I wake up flustered and sweaty. (Eww.) I usually get up at 4:30, go to the gym, get ready and go to work, but the past two days I just...can’t. Wh... | self.depression |
23(M) going through family divorce and I relapsed I’ve dealt with depression and attempted suicide a few times in the past. I have stopped after thinking about my family, and it helped me through it for awhile, until my family started fighting again. Throughout the years I’ve had been patching things up around and it h... | self.SuicideWatch |
update I am sorry for not posting in awhile, I have been recovering in hospital from an attempt to end everything. Why is this so complicated for me? I have decided to just go out with a bang this time. I know this will work. I cant live with this severe depression, bipolarism, debilitating panic and anxiety attacks. I... | self.SuicideWatch |
I'm just SOOO over it Tired of hitting up the only people I know for the slightest things like eating, a favor, or something random/funny, a question and getting a negative or no response. I'm fuckin sick of it! Fuck phones! 9/10 times, not even kidding, the answer is a i'm busy or something negative. It's sooo tiring ... | self.depression |
First anxiety attack of the year. I made it until early afternoon until I had a severe panic attack, this year is already horrible for me. I hope you all have a better one than I am. | self.Anxiety |
for real, can i just talk to someone? please [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
I used to have someone I used to have someone to hold me
To keep me safe and just care about every minuscule thought or joke that I felt
She was the only person I could be vibrant around , I would reek of smiles and affection with her
And as my best friend left me I realized that nobody makes me happy how she does
Le... | self.depression |
Anyone feel like they just weren't meant to exist? [deleted] | self.depression |
My family is broken In new year´s eve my family comes to my granfother´s house to have dinner, but that´s not good or fun, that´s sad and terrible. My uncle hates my family, becouse my aunt controles my uncle. My two cousins don´t know nothing about that, one of they have one year ago and the other have five years ago.... | self.depression |
TIL I just fucking hate chores I'm not talking about lack of motivation to do chores. I've got that problem too, and I know it's very common with depression. Just having chores ruins my mood beyond all reason, and it doesn't even get better when I do them.
Very recently, visiting a new city, I caught myself just walki... | self.depression |
Just have to get something off my chest. I'm very depressed, spent 2 weeks at a psychiatric hospital before the holidays, tried multiple medications and therapy, feels like nothing is working. I feel so hopeless.
I had plans to end it all yesterday. I made all the preparations to make it easier for my family. Made sur... | self.SuicideWatch |
I'm tired of fighting everyday, hoping I'll be OK. I don't know how much longer I can keep fighting. Everyday I wake up and have no idea if I'll be OK. If that day will be the day I can't take it anymore. Another day of not being enough, putting my all into things that may never be. I know people care but no one can... | self.depression |
almost got close to killing myself tonight? i guess i'd say i've been depressed for a while now (thanks to my shitty life) and even though the thought of suicide/not wanting to exist crosses my mind sometimes i've never really acted out on those thoughts because...? well i guess because it's never gotten to that point ... | self.depression |
Forgot to take Zoloft I'm currently on 50mg of Zoloft and have forgotten to take it for 3 days. I'm feeling slighlty dizzy. I just took my dose of 50mg now that I remembered (This would be day 4). How long until the dizziness goes away now that im back on it? | self.depression |
Anyone here with Anxiety AND ADHD? Which medication have you tried, that has given you the least amount of anxiety. I have been on Adderall in the past, and now am on Vyvanse. I started having very severe panic attacks recently and want to switch over to something else. Does anyone have a med that has caused them littl... | self.Anxiety |
Is it weird that I keep wanting to die, while living everyday, just too afraid to do it? [deleted] | self.depression |
Anyone else hate when a doctor talks to you like you're dumb? [deleted] | self.bipolar |
I lost my virginity at the age of 16 to a 14 year old. [deleted] | self.offmychest |
Goal setting Sunday 8.6.17 I didn't see the Sunday thread so I'm taking initiative. Hope that's OK and I didn't miss something. So what's your goals this week? | self.bipolar |
My family keeps forgetting me When I was 8, my dad chose a new girlfriend over us.
When I was 13, my mom chose alcohol over us.
When I was 14, my dad was forced to step in and take over.
When I was 15, I watched my dad and new step mom choose alcohol again and again.
Their attention never focused on their children.... | self.offmychest |
This is too much. No more ranting or tearing myself to bits, just need to will myself into doing it. I just hate taking up others' time with my petty problems. I've failed at everything in life, and i hope i manage to succeed in this. I can do it. No other goal remains. Goodbye all, and thanks for everything. | self.SuicideWatch |
I’m always quiet and it makes me feel paralyzed. [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
I miss America... :'( this doesn't feel like my country anymore and it honestly kills me inside. I know, we hear it a billion times, the disgruntled American that wants to go to Canada or another country because of the current administration. But this is rediculous. People aren't born to live in misery, debt, and fear ... | self.offmychest |
About to attempt suicide by jumping down the stairs. [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
This chick This girl frustrates me so much, and I'm just so confused. I saw you for the first time about 2 months ago, we had a blast, when I left, we barely chatted at all, and onoly starting to talk less and less, then out of nowhere, you ask if I want to see you again. Obviously I would, I told you which days would ... | self.offmychest |
I finally have the courage I finally got the balls to do something. I’m standing by an overpass now and I’m about to jump. Thank you guys for all your love and support. I’ll miss you. I just want this pain to go away. I’m sorry. | self.SuicideWatch |
I hate myself and whoever I was from when I was 5 15 years I have been an overly quiet person, it damaged me, and it shows.
I lie if it means I won't be visibly selfish, I lost many opportunities to thrive, wasn't able to make a friend in 5 years (I might've made one, but I'm not even sure if that person thinks the sa... | self.offmychest |
How do I politely tell my doctor, psychiatrist, and any other health care professional that they have done more damage than good for me and I want to stop using their services. I feel lied to by my health care providers that the services they offer are benefiting me. How can I politely tell these people that they have ... | self.depression |
It’s different this time I️ think I’m falling in love but I’ve never been in love before so I️ don’t think I’d know what love is even if that’s what this is. It’s never been like this before. It’s not like the others with the butterflies and the extreme physical attraction. It’s different in the way that I️ crave his p... | self.offmychest |
College Admissions is depressing me Hello, I am a high school student currently homeschooling due to homophobia bullying at my former school. I am currently enrolled in a community college online where I'm going to be completing my Associate's degree in International Relations. I want to study in California, but my Ass... | self.depression |
Can't get over feeling like my life has been wasted [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
Anyone else? Anyone else get easily overwhelmed by your day or cry from being tried like a toddler? I feel stupid for it, but I’m a crier. | self.bipolar |
Hurt myself on Christmas. Feels like my family's hatred for my animals extends time by association. And it's just too much. And I couldn't keep my bird quiet bc all be wanted was robe it by no one wanted him to come out. And at least now I can *see* how I'm feeling. I really shouldn't do this. I know. But I do. And hop... | self.depression |
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