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I [30F] don't want to go to my sister's [29F] wedding in two days Some backstory:
* We grew up with and abusive narcissistic mother, who chose to me as her target.
* My sister took the side of our mother on most occasions, including times when child protective services were involved.
* As my depression set in during... | self.offmychest |
Would you talk to me? I need help right now.... [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
My girlfriend left me earlier this month. This is going to be a long post. We lasted a little over a year. The TLDR wont do it justice.. there are a lot of details I want to hit on. But I'll leave one here anyways.
I used to experience depression on a daily basis. Was finally seeking help and was on medication through... | self.depression |
I've been afraid to help myself for too long, not going to be afraid anymore! I've been working hard. Trying to improve myself as much as I can. I've gotten over some pretty big hurdles lately. I started seeing a therapist a little over a month ago and have an appointment next Tuesday to see a doc so we can look at med... | self.Anxiety |
Exquisitely Doomed When I’m self-indulgently manic it’s like I’m plummeting down a well with glittery broken wings, falling faster and faster.
As I dive my heartbeat pulses with exhilaration, my sparkling thoughts are hypnotically destructive, and as I bang my head on each rock jutting out from every which way, as I si... | self.bipolar |
Every work day is a new day for my anxiety attacks [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
I'm okay for periods of time, then it all comes back. It's so hard to feel happy and mildly okay for a little. I can go for about a week, maybe more, of life seeming worth it. It makes me question why I ever think about suicide. But then I'll realize that's not accurate. I'll see that everyone around me hates me, I'm h... | self.SuicideWatch |
What are your coping methods? Ran out of anxiety meds and I can't handle how I feel right now. Can you share some of your coping methods so I can calm down a bit?
Thank you!! | self.Anxiety |
Is masturbation related to depression? I'm feeling a little bit depressed lately (a few months), mostly when I'm at home, and I'm masturbating a lot more since I'm feeling this way, which led me to this question. | self.depression |
I just got engaged but I can't let anyone know My boyfriend (fiancee?!) and I have known each other for 7 years but have only been dating for ten months. However the last nine months were spent homeless, traveling across the country in my tiny Subaru with each of our dogs, spending 24/7 together. We have already been t... | self.offmychest |
Possibly on the verge or already failed a mEDICAL School class. . | self.Anxiety |
I'm depressed So 3 days before Christmas I found out that I was a mistake. My mother was on birth control and obviously it didn't work because I'm here. I ask myself, "Why is my mom such a bitch to me?", I know why now. | self.depression |
My mother asked me if ill still be friends with this girl 5 years from now... I wanted to tell her: No mother because 5 years from now she will have a life and a family of her own. I wont be needed. Ill still be the loser I am today for that is all that a person with my history and disability can be.
If i am lucky I w... | self.depression |
Support from others Hello, my name is Kris. I'm at age where many teens may have depression. Many things I experienced in my life, made me who I am today. Those being, my mom died when I was really young while she was pregnant. My cousin being murdered when he was 17. My older brother tried killing me too. And terribl... | self.depression |
Just wrote down the start and end date of this. I know the day is started. It was a black to white/white to black shift. My birthday in 2014. Turned 21. It's been over 3 years. 3 years of constant agony. No human being should have to go through this. I gave myself until 2023. It feels good to know there will even... | self.depression |
I wish something would kill me so people wouldn't have to remember me as the one who killed themselves Don't worry, I won't actually kill myself apparently or I'd have done it already. I just want to share this ridiculous frustration with how I WOULD be perceived after death, isn't that silly? If I'm dead why would it ... | self.SuicideWatch |
PSA: If you are are college student and you are officially diagnosed with bipolar, you qualify for disability I'm not sure why this isn't something more people are aware of, disability doesn't mean you have to have an amputated limb or ADHD.
College disability offices consider Depression and Bipolar Disorder to be leg... | self.bipolar |
intrusive thoughts Hey all! This is pretty much my first post and i need help with something i've been struggling with for quite a while.I've been having some scary thoughts and i keep convincing myself that im only doing activities i like doing to distract myself from the thoughts and it's really dragging my mood dow... | self.Anxiety |
I WANT TO HAVE SOMEONE NEAR ME, I AM SO LONELY. LIFE DOESN'T MAKE ANY SENSE. I JUST WANT TO DIEEEEE. [deleted] | self.depression |
Making therapy more meaningful? How can I open myself up more and not have therapy as this sort of gossip session? I want to say that I’m *feeling* suicidal again, but I just feel odd doing it. How can I make therapy worth more to my brain I suppose? What are good questions or things to say to really lead into that bec... | self.depression |
Been spending too much time on the computer and today I kind of... cracked [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
responsibility i can't tell if i'm being a dick who can't see other perspectives or not, so you tell me... (tl;dr at bottom)
i think there is a significant proportion of mental illness that can be managed by lifestyle changes. not that it can usually be managed by it ALONE, but that in order to "recover," you need to... | self.bipolar |
How is everyone okay with the idea of life? [deleted] | self.depression |
I think my healthy weight loss might be starting to morph into an eating disorder This is the first time I’ve acknowledged that this might actually be developing into a problem outside of my own head. I just really needed to get it out, to make it solid so I can try to fix it I guess, and I can’t bring myself to tell a... | self.offmychest |
I stop working when I feel love Hi there.
Short introduction: 28 yo, male, PhD student and very regular gym goer (keeps me very calm and collected, it's great to get some steam off).
So my problem here is that I completely go nuts when I feel something like love and get severly depressed. Last Saturday I've had a dat... | self.depression |
Eating me alive Anxiety. It's this hollow feeling of emptiness at the center of my chest just yearning to be complete. It's like my sanity has escaped me.
It's hard to think and sometimes difficult to breathe. My body feels drained and I find myself holding my head in my hands from time to time. Its starting to effect... | self.Anxiety |
My sister found my Reddit account and I am freaking the heck out [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
What am I missing here? I’ve got a co-worker who says he calls himself a photographer now. Last year he started doing “photoshoots” and basically he would message (or get contacted by) people on Instagram to take pictures with. It’s all free and no fees are involved.
Well, I never bothered asking for his Instagram ac... | self.offmychest |
Writing used to help I have a journal that I write in all the time. I also submitted things here before and it really used to help. Reading posts on here helped too. Now it just doesn’t. It’s all the same and I’m not saying this in a bad way towards the posts.
You ever feel so shitty that you’re bored of feeling so s... | self.depression |
Just everything I've been keeping a journal of sorts on my phone notes. Every time I feel sad I add to it and write why. It's not very long because most times I simply just cry and rock back and forth while sobbing because I'm so sad. But there are times when that's not possible so I write. It doesn't help. It's more l... | self.SuicideWatch |
tomorrow is my birthday, i don't want it. Tomorrow I turn 29, and have nothing to show for it. Not in the material sense. Not in the cosmic sense. In no sense at all. I was was watching this television show and a scene hit me hard. The two characters were talking about existence and one says (I'm paraphrasing) "if the ... | self.SuicideWatch |
It’s SO EASY to be politically correct, why do you care so much? Look, we’re both white dudes. There is no equivalent to the n word for us, or for any other racial slur. Cracker? Not even close, there was no period of oppression that that word calls back to. Not everything has to have a parallel to your own experience,... | self.offmychest |
Today has been a bad day, I am so dead tired all the time. It's 7 PM and I'm already fighting to keep my eyes open. I am all out of steam and energy. Right now I barely even have room for shitty thoughts in my mind. I am so fatigued, all of my mental and physical strength is just gone. I want to sleep and never, ever w... | self.depression |
I feel like I’m going to be miserable for my whole life
I don’t know what’s wrong with me that I can’t connect with anyone. It’s always been this way. My parents hated me when I was a kid. My father nitpicked everything about me from my table manners to the way I walked, and when I wasn’t up to his standards he scream... | self.offmychest |
i started taking 10 mg of escitalopram and my social anxiety vanished | self.Anxiety |
Thought I was done with meds! Nope! Or maybe? Let's find out.
So I've been clean for a year but Jesus does life like to pile on. Began 2017 at a lower paying job, like, significantly lower paying job. It's been 6 years since I've been in a retail minimum wage situation and the adjustment has been rough. I then found m... | self.Anxiety |
Anyone have advice on working through irritability? I get so caught up in racing/negative thoughts that I close up on people - especially family - and become snappy. It’s nothing against them and I don’t know how to explain that sometimes my world just feels very off kilter and out of my own control | self.Anxiety |
Flu Season...ugh My wife died of the flu (septic shock from bacterial pneumonia) in 2008, so every time this year, I get a little nervous. I know my wife's experience was very rare for someone her age (44). That said, I just need to publish this anxiety and get it out of my head. | self.Anxiety |
Dammit I want a dog Can't afford one right now | self.bipolar |
I️ feel like I’m a burden. I don’t understand why my family and friends love me. I’m not really deserving or worth all of it. Most days I just want to lay in bed and not talk to anyone. Obviously I’m required to get up and go to class and live like any other person, but it’s been getting harder and harder to force myse... | self.depression |
I'm scared no one will ever love me Someone who makes me feel mushy inside. Someone I don't have to hide parts of myself from. | self.depression |
I feel like im drowning. I'm an army veteran who has been told I have ptsd, depression and anxiety. I have recently separated from a woman I love and have loved for 6 years. We still live together which makes everything much harder to adjust to. I've delt with suicidal thoughts for years. A few attempts in the past. Fo... | self.SuicideWatch |
Self harm So Tl:dr: used to cut, 2 years later, need to cut more than ever and can’t really properly focus on normal things.
I used to cut pretty much every night but I managed to wean myself off of it, but all of a sudden I’m experiencing the worst need to cut I’ve ever had, I don’t have anything to do it with and I’... | self.depression |
Gliding through life Right now I'm in bed and should be sleeping by now. It's 3am here and my alarm is set to 5:30. But I just can't shake the feeling that it won't even matter if I get out tomorrow. Who even cares if I do. I'm not even tired, at least I don't think I am. I don't feel anything, just emptiness. I feel l... | self.depression |
Aren't teenage years supposed to be fun? Ok, so I'm about to explode, so I'm hoping that by telling someone I can get some of my frustration and stress out.
So a bit of background... I'm in my late teens, I'm home-schooled (pretty much no-schooled) and me and two of my brothers are doing 90% of the work to support our... | self.offmychest |
I haven't showered or brushed my teeth in a week. [deleted] | self.depression |
We have a restaurant and for the next two days i'm alone serving, charging and dealing with customers. Hi, created this account as I don't feel confortable posting on my own. We have a restaurant in brazil (I'm the guy who grills meat on 'parrilla' don't know how you guys call it) and my wife deals with charging and at... | self.Anxiety |
Girlfriend left me last night over text Was with some friends, feeling really really depressed as usual at this point, and I left as soon as the ball drops. Get home and tell her im scared of another year with depression. She told me that I put too much pressure on her. She then says she doesn't want to be in a relatio... | self.depression |
How to clean a post-depression room fast? There's just so much stuff everywhere and I don't want to just throw all of it out, because I have clothes and other things mixed in that cost money. 80% of it on the other hand is just piles of paper, soda containers, random shit and plastic bags. About a foot of it. Don't eve... | self.bipolar |
I want to stand on the edge of a building and have someone talk me away from the edge. How stupid does that sound? That thought has been circling around in my head for so long. I feel like literally nobody cares and I just want some random stranger to give me a huge hug and help me. That sounds so freaking stupid | self.depression |
Need some advice Should I try to fit in by pretending to be cheerful all the time or should I show how I feel?
The thing is the people that I am around are understanding and they haven't made fun of me ( till now) but I haven't become one of them because of this so should I pretend to be cheerful or continue to show h... | self.depression |
Bad texter - red flag? I met a woman recently and I've become pretty excited about the prospect of us as a couple. I think we mesh pretty well in terms of interests and personality type. But she is a horrible texter! She never initiates; her texts are short and direct - they make it hard to have a conversation; and she... | self.offmychest |
Does anyone else always go through weed really fast? I smoked an 8th since last Sunday...It was supposed to last me all month. Now I will be without for a while. :( | self.bipolar |
I wish I was brave enough to do it already [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
feeling fake again why does this feeling of faking my depression always come back? it's like i feel like i'm actually happy and i can just snap out of it, but I can't???
why???? i self harmed today and attempted suicide the other day and i still feel fake??? | self.depression |
Why is life such a bitch. Why does it want to be a bitch, why man.
What the fuck have I done to deserve such a motherfucking bad life.
Why man. Why the fuck would she do that | self.depression |
X Post - Breakup, Anti Depressants, & the worst 3 months of my life. I’m writing this is an absolute last resort. I never thought I would be spilling my soul to internet strangers but I’m at the point where I’ve exhausted all of my options except the permanent one.
Over the Spring/Summer of 2017, I met a girl who ... | self.SuicideWatch |
I am lonely. I am thinking of what activities I can do to meet people. Its overwhelming because I don't know what to do. At least I have my books. I have been on meetup.com. Most of the stuff there is not my thing. I found a social anxiety group. I went a few times and I reached out to someone there abd he may become a... | self.offmychest |
I feel like I've ruined everything that was good, and don't want to continue [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
Anybody else get sad when looking at old shit? [deleted] | self.depression |
Klonopin for social anxiety on an as need basis. Your experiences? [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
Just venting: I can't do this much longer. The funny thing is...I am a psychiatric nurse. A cowardly, hypocritical psychiatric nurse.
Tomorrow, I will discourage people from killing themselves, and spoon feed them the classics: "suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem", "you matter"...
In my own mind... | self.SuicideWatch |
Was worried about violating you and now I feel violated! I love affection. I love holding hands, and kissing.
So last night, I'm with my friend and her two roommates. I don't really know her roommates that well. We are all drinking and eating and it's so fun. One of the roommates has been giving me subtle signals all ... | self.offmychest |
Too tired to commit suicide. If someone brought the bridge to me I could probably manage to drag myself over the edge, but driving out there and walking to the midpoint is beyond me. It's sort of funny in a surreal, Kafkaesque kind of way. Just wondering if anyone else feels like this or if I'm just the butt of some co... | self.SuicideWatch |
Got out of bed and did stuff today. One point for me. I was stoned and depressed that I was wasting another Sunday, and I knew that I'd be even more depressed tomorrow at work because I wasted my weekend.
I suddenly thought about this new Pho place that opened up a block away and I decided to get the fuck up and go ge... | self.depression |
I didn't love my gf anymore and I left her. I had to. I didn't love her anymore, but I was so attached to her that now I feel like shit. Literally. She is in class with me too, so I will have to see her everyday from now to July. She was in symbiosis with me, we have been together two years. She kept taking to me about... | self.depression |
My friend needs help They have decided that they will die by their own doing, they don't know when however. I just need any advice at all. She has issues with a sibling, major self esteem issues. Younger than 18 | self.SuicideWatch |
18: severely depressed and watch TV all day. Ruined my life in 8 months. Please help. Should I check myself into rehab? Hi Reddit, I'm 18 and a half and I'm at a loss...in February I went through a hard patch with my parents and ran away from home (a semester before graduating high school) due to some really poor choic... | self.depression |
Intrusive thoughts causing physical and verbal reactions? I'm hoping I can possibly get some advice on things I can do to stop this ongoing issue I have. I was diagnosed with Avoidant Personality Disorder in early elementary, and a symptom of this is the intense fear of embarrassment and rejection. Over the past 2 year... | self.Anxiety |
How do you cope without physical contact? I feel when in a great stress situation I need someone to just hold me. A short hug seems not enough. When I have someone who holds me and let me cry it out I feel relieved. I feel loved in a way just because of bodily comfort.
When I have no one to do this, I know that I tend... | self.Anxiety |
I wish suicide was just as easy as pressing a button. If I was given the option to press a button that would end my life then I'd press it without hesitation. Suicide involves too much planning, pain, and nausea. I just want to die quietly and quickly. I don't want to be alive anymore. Life doesn't get better for all o... | self.offmychest |
I Walked in on a Shotgun Suicide in The 8th Grade (First Time Sharing This Online)- This Is Why I Can't Forgive Logan Paul
I'll share a story with you all. I had walked in on a shotgun suicide when I was starting the 8th grade (2007). There was a terrible smell coming from one of my neighbors apartments and me and my... | self.offmychest |
Is this it? It feels like this year has been the worst. Lost the best person I've ever had in my life (due to my stupid mistakes) lost friends, lost my control of anorexia which was a comfort and along with still undiagnosed seizures my memory is awful. I've recently had an awful experience with a cab driver, I'm skint... | self.depression |
Battered Mind How do you clear up a mind? Thoughts just flow and flow, they never stop. You're not good enough. You deserve and need to be alone. You're worthless. I know it's not true. But my heart and mind won't let me feel that. Only pain is allowed. Sorry about the username it's a weird choice. | self.SuicideWatch |
Nobody takes me seriously. Video games always made me mad before, but they were the only hobby I ever had, and nobody took my anger seriously because it was over video games.
I just got permanently banned from my favorite game, and it was the only thing keeping me here. Nobody will take my issues seriously because of ... | self.depression |
Are suicide helplines actually helpful? Like I've been thinking about calling one for a while, as I won't tell anyone else. But what actually happens and is it worth it? | self.depression |
Has vistaril stopped being as effective for anyone else? I just noticed it's not as helpful at calming me down as it used to be. | self.Anxiety |
Feelin' Down Not sure if it's because I'm home or because I'm not busy, but I feel like some stuff from the past several months is starting to catch up to me.
School had me so busy that I let an important friendship fall to the wayside without much effort in maintaining it. I feel bad. I know I should talk to her, bu... | self.offmychest |
I just wanted to thank you guys for all the support over the years Seriously, you guys are the best. whenever I've been in a rough spot or had a question, there were always several people to come by and help. I really appreciate that about this community. the mods are great and helpful too!
I've been a subscriber sinc... | self.bipolar |
All the recent mass shootings and terror attacks have given me anxiety For the last few months, I’ve grown increasingly more anxious about going out to places due to all the mass shootings and terror attacks that have happened over the past year or so. It’s getting to the point where it seems to be interfering with my ... | self.offmychest |
Getting worse and worse I've been battling depression for quite a while now, but the past couple months it's been at a peak.
Today I went to the hospital because I had a panic attack so bad and decided that I was better off gone. Since I knew what I was feeling I went to the ER and hoped to get evaluated because I fee... | self.SuicideWatch |
Do you ever just stop feeling everything all of a sudden? [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
Painting First time in ages I got my watercolors it was a good distraction for a while.
https://imgur.com/a/CHyOw
| self.bipolar |
"But you're smart, how can you be depressed?" Well first off, I'm not smart I don't deserve such compliments.
Second off, why do so many people to be me when all I want is to be one of them for once? | self.depression |
I don't know what's wrong with me anymore I've been suicidal for about 10 years now and for a long time I just thought I was severly depressed and tried multiple antidepressants and none of them worked. My dad has bipolar and my grandmother was schizophrenic with voices in her head and hallucinations.
Recently I came... | self.bipolar |
Could I possibly have bipolar? It’s crazy. One minute I can be extremely self conscious and have 0 confidence, and then suddenly less than 5 minutes later I can be the most confident person in the world and talk to everyone. Does this sound like bipolar? If I could stay as that confident person that I know is in me my ... | self.bipolar |
Battling my anxiety to speak in front of others as I enter a career where I will need to frequently present to groups. [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
Does anyone else get excited like it's Christmas when you get to start a new medicine? | self.bipolar |
Adult attachment disorder I think I might have some kind of attachment disorder. I can't seem to form any strong attachments. I don't trust anyone at all even family members and parents. I am 29 never dated and really want a relationship with a good woman but I can't let anyone in. I probably had a few chances in ... | self.depression |
I can't remember how to do basic tasks, tips? [deleted] | self.depression |
I think I've had enough.. I feel like I'm at my breaking point. Nothing seems to be working out. It's been like that for the past 3 months. I'm 21, just finished my graduate training and I can't find a job. I feel horrible for having my parents pay my rent bill (even if it's not much) and at some point I'll have to ret... | self.Anxiety |
severe anxiety, inability to make sufficient eye contact... :( please help Hi! So I'm at a university and I have to give my card to somebody at the cafeteria in order to eat. This time I wanted a box to put stuff in, but it turns out you have to check out boxes, and I already had, so I was limited to that one.
The guy ... | self.Anxiety |
TIFU by almost burning the bridge with one of the best people to come into my life [deleted] | self.bipolar |
Prednisone Has anyone had a Prednisone shot while in a depression? I had one today due to an allergic reaction and damn it made me feel better. | self.bipolar |
What is the actual truth behind psych wards? [BACKGROUND]: Well, I made a stupid mistake. I discussed with my parents how I hate living. They agreed to take me to the psychiatrist tomorrow. Now I have no idea what to say. One wrong phrase, and I get locked away. After a while, I think that being sent away might not be ... | self.depression |
How do you get yourself up in the morning? [deleted] | self.depression |
I wish nobody loved me so I could kill myself [deleted] | self.depression |
I'm so tired of this I'm so tired of this mess. There's just too much. There's so much.
I keep having flashbacks. I'm alone. I'm having trouble helping myself. This is an environment where manipulation and deceit is rampant. I'm still living with the people who have hurt me. It's not easy to escape. I can still hear a... | self.SuicideWatch |
I can't stand my filthy friend and how they parent their kid. She's this beautiful, 20-something bombshell that has no problem attracting men, but she is quickly becoming one of the worst people I know.
She has a 3 year old that is still in diapers and only uses bottles, she leaves the soiled diapers on the ground o... | self.offmychest |
How to stop someone from killing themselves My boyfriend has been set on killing himself for the past few days. He's in so much pain and he won't let me tell anyone about it to keep an eye on him or anything like that. He freaks out whenever I suggest any forms of help. He keeps saying that he can't live like this any ... | self.depression |
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