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scared about eating Why do I do this to myself? If I have a question about something why do I just throw it out? I went to get a bagel today and while mine was toasting the person after me ordered eggs on theirs and the guy prepped it and then went back to working on mine. i'm worried he contaminated it with raw eggs. ... | self.Anxiety |
What books/movies/albums helped you? I recently found out that someone that I don't know well (like at all) is suicidal. Being someone who has battled with depression for 15+ years, and survived a suicide attempt 12 years ago, I don't want to ignore this information, but I want some sort of book, or movie, or album tha... | self.SuicideWatch |
Questions about Antidepressants and telling family I've been struggling with symptoms of depression for practically all my life. I've been dealing with it on my own for as long as I can remember. I know all the lifestyle changes that will "make it better" but my biggest problem is I can never implement anything in my l... | self.depression |
Are these dreams perpetrated by my own Anxiety? The dreams I had for the past 3 days are super negative, waking up with tears in my eyes. I can’t remember the dream from 3 days ago but it was negative. All I could member from the first dream was North Korea. The second dream deals with blame and guilt. It was like thos... | self.Anxiety |
I somehow did it... I Am officially Graduating University. I survived the past 5 years and I'm graduating. I really hope this doesn't bug other people or sound braggy because I know and understand many people with bipolar tend to drop out or don't try post-secondary but I really wanted to celebrate with people who'd un... | self.bipolar |
I just want to quit everything. I like to think of dropping out of college and not going back, then I wouldn't have to deal with all of the assignments I've fallen behind on. Then I'll quit my job and live with my parents. I'll quit going outside and I'll quit trying to meet new people and make new friends. The stress ... | self.depression |
sometimes i take the form of a demon sometimes when i listen to eminem a demon posesses me,until i gain his charisma then by mere touch i will women to lust after me | self.bipolar |
I am so tired of not being able to sleep Seriously. It's been a month now and I sleep anywhere from 45 minutes - 4 hours a night. Throughout the day, I'm in a hazey state of mind. In the evenings, everything is hilarious and I am manic.
I need some rest. I'm so tired of not being able to be tired and get some rest. | self.bipolar |
Realized most of it came from all the drinking alone So i poured out my booze and bought a gym membership... seems to be doing the trick. atleast im getting out of my house lol | self.depression |
Scared to get excited for big events in my future. Hello all.
First time writing here. I thought I'd reach out and see if anyone has ever experienced these same things.
So I am getting married in December to my fiance of 5 years. I love him so much, he is my entire world. We have been long distance for the entirety o... | self.Anxiety |
Keep having disturbing dreams. Really fucked up things that I can't get out of my mind. Even during my waking hours I keep visualizing them and it makes me feel sick
I've been stressed and anxious. The days are getting shorter and things are getting harder every passing day. I'm going to be moving away from my suppor... | self.bipolar |
Can anyone else just not drink alcohol at all? Every time I drink I wake up horrifically depressed and the anxiety lasts for days. I have gone into psychosis while drunk. This has only started happening since I went on Latuda; before, I could drink and only deal with a mild depression the next day. Is this just somethi... | self.bipolar |
Living with being a douchebag towards others while going through hardships in your life I've definitely acted like an asshole when I've had hardships in life and thought about how if my life were to have gone perfectly, and in certain ways, I would be better off. And so I've acted like an elitist in ways I'm too embarr... | self.Anxiety |
I got close to a cat who I know I will have to abandon, and that kills me I'm traveling internationally and I've been living in my apartment for about 2.5 months. I'm moving in about 3 days.
When I first moved in, there was a cat, who I assumed was the neighbor's, who would walk onto my balcony from their balcony. At ... | self.depression |
Can’t tell if I’m manic or just happy, but I’m okay with it. Past few days I’ve been very organized and on top of things, and really pleased with it. I go to bed before midnight and wake up on time to drink tea and get things done before class. I practice guitar for my band every day, get my studying done, complete hou... | self.bipolar |
I wish I could do more (long, I'm sorry) This may end up being a stream of consciousness so if that is the case, please forgive me.
My best friend has been in my life for 23 years (almost exactly, we met in the second half of November and were best friends from that first moment). She is incredible. She is that type o... | self.offmychest |
Debating whether I should take anti-psychotics? I've had issues with mild psychotic symptoms in the past, but recently I've found myself struggling with them more and more. It's become a daily thing now of seeing people or animals out of the corner of my eye. When I'm closing, alone, at 4am it can be a bit frightening... | self.bipolar |
My bf and I are currently hosting a party. We have been playing drinking games. Recently they started playing a game of "Drinking Russian Roulette" and I'm triggered. Everyone is having so much fun. They're playing Russian Roulette with our fun little Nerf guns.
I went and hid in the bedroom. I can hear them playing ... | self.depression |
I want the numbness back. TL;DR: Been really numbed out lately until today. I hurt the friend I'm dating. He in turn yelled and berated me. Which I might have deserved. Now I can't shake it. It's pushing me over the edge. I want to SH or worse. Instead I'm going to buy beer to get to tomorrow and hope the absence of fe... | self.bipolar |
In class, we talked about a book that had a theme of depression...I almost walked out. People were talking about how absolutely miserable the characters were, how their loneliness was a choice, how there was no way they were *insert age* because they look 10 years older...
It all felt so...personal. I was shaking the ... | self.depression |
I feel like I don't have a personality I feel like everything I do it's to like other people, I don't know what I like doing anymore, if someone tells me that they like a TV show or a video game I would think about watching/playing it so that person would like me better. I don't do the things I use to enjoy like readin... | self.Anxiety |
im contradicted i want someone to talk to, no, i NEED someone to talk to.
i already know im spiraling down deeper and deeper into depression, and lately I’ve been hella suicidal. it’s like a thought that just lingers in the back of my mind and never goes away. some days i briefly think about how it’s always and optio... | self.SuicideWatch |
I just cried for the first time in months [deleted] | self.offmychest |
I’ve been sitting here for the longest time trying to figure out why I shouldn’t kill myself. I don’t even know what to write like I never open up about anything. I hate to say this is cringey to me, but it just is. It’s gotten so bad though I’m probably just writing to myself.
I have no talent, no friends no happines... | self.depression |
Lost I WISH I had the courage to write here as some of you do. You're all strong. | self.offmychest |
Why do we not talk about Types of Bipolar? When People find out I am bipolar, I get disbelieving sneers or eye rolls... I understand it since my mood swings are managed but what they don't see is the struggle and strain that comes with years of self teaching and maturing. It isn't perfect in the slighest...
When I ex... | self.bipolar |
Hi What is a painless and quick death? Just want it to be quick and painless. | self.SuicideWatch |
I'm ordering rope on Amazon, and I have a spot in the forest picked out I got fired from my job, my girlfriend doesn't love me, I have no friends, I'm grossly overweight, I'm not good at anything, I'm failing out of college, and I'm tens of thousands of dollars in debt. It's over. I don't know when I'm doing it, but so... | self.SuicideWatch |
Extremely lonely and single my whole life. Ladies, I’m really looking for help and advice, please [deleted] | self.depression |
Rest in peace Ed. Since it's in the headlines of the biggest news-website in this country I don't find it appropriate to talk about his loss on social media so here I am.
You will be missed. All the musicians, technicians and visitors of the venue will remind you for your great cooking skills and the harsh, but funny ... | self.offmychest |
World ending not a bad thing... I wouldn't say I'm particularly depressed at rhe moment, just the usual stresses of Christmas and being an adult-child. But I really do think that if the world were to end by meteor-shower or whatever else, that it wouldn't be such a bad thing.
Call me out if it's too dark of a thought... | self.depression |
School is making me depressed / stressed ? ok so im 15 and im a sophomore in high school but i have some freshman classes and i need to pass all ofmy classes or else ill be a failure and everything is piling up on me too quick and idk what to do. i feel like quitting.... | self.SuicideWatch |
I can’t bring myself to pull the trigger but I want to kill myself [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
I'm on a waiting list to get therapy for my anxiety. Are there any tips to stay motivated on recovery during that time? I am having panic attacks and dealing with anxiety for about 6 months now. First I could handle them and worked my way through it. But since I got let go of my job and am not stable enough (for now) t... | self.Anxiety |
don’t know what to title i don’t know why im writing this i just haven’t felt like myself in months.
it’s pretty much been getting progressively worse since my girlfriend of three years told me that she just doesn’t love me or feel anything for me at all and completely cut me out of her life.
people tell me that ev... | self.SuicideWatch |
Does anyone else ever feel a sense of failure or defeat after experiencing panic/a panic attack? How do you deal/cope? For anyone living with panic, do you ever get this sense of failure after you experience even the slightest bit of panic?
Like, you go through many (or even most days) doing okay and fine, thinking yo... | self.Anxiety |
Sorry, just needed to vent... I feel so sad. I’m tired of everything. I feel worthless. I think my family hates me. They should hate me. I don’t want to die but it’s the only thing that would make people happy. Too bad I’m too pussy to do it. Instead I’ll just cry all night and put really awful thoughts into my head. I... | self.depression |
anxiety symptoms even though i don’t feel anxious i started my first full time job this week. i’m 25 on sunday. i’ve spent 5 years working a very part time job but over the last few weeks i went through the interview process and was offered a new job. it’s been terrifying but it’s exactly what i wanted. i feel like thi... | self.Anxiety |
Feel lonely and need to talk to people, but I also don't want to bother them. I'm not sure if this is the right place to post, but I hope it's alright. Sometimes I get really lonely and just need some kind of human contact that isn't my family. I enjoy my alone time greatly, but sometimes it becomes too much. This does... | self.depression |
This is the first time I've had a panic attack completely devoid of anything to hyper focus on I don't know what to do. I'm crying but I don't even have a stuffy nose. I always have a stuffy nose.
I'm shaking like a leaf. My heart is racing. I can't even pretend it's a food allergy because it started before lunch. I ... | self.Anxiety |
What to do I was snooping in my brothers room which I know I wasn’t supposed to be doing. Then I came across multiple pages of how he doesn’t want to deal with life anymore and how no one likes him or how popular people get praised for doing dumbass shit. There is 2 pages of this stuff and he wrote it this morning wi... | self.SuicideWatch |
I can't date Tried dating again. Got my hopes up. Got manic. Made a stupid mistake. Killed budding relationship and now I'm back in a depressive episode.
This happens every time. I think I'm just doomed to be alone. | self.bipolar |
I think someone on Whisper near me is suicidal I think someone on Whisper near me is suicidal. He posted something about guilt over his friend in the Army dying. I said he can talk to me. What else should I do? If you can relate to him sending a message might help. I don't even know what to say. https://whisper.sh/dl/9... | self.SuicideWatch |
Cat is missing, mania may be making me hate my husband because of it Hey all, I've always been prone to hypomania over depression and over the last few years with therapy I've been learning how to notice when I'm manic so my husband and I can work to keep things more in control, since I used to never notice til the epi... | self.bipolar |
Therapy Animal Hey everyone,
I am about to start a job that involves lots of travel (airplane) and work in an enviornment that might be unsafe for dogs. Is there a way I can get a therapy animal and have them with me at work?
I do not want to talk to my future boss since anxiety is so stigmatized unless I am ready to... | self.Anxiety |
I'm going to do it. I think I'm just going to fucking do it already. I thought maybe there might be something worth sticking around for. But I'm just a burden on everybody in my life, I fucking know I am. Nobody just has it in them to tell me to my face.
People can stop pretending like they care and sure as hell don'... | self.SuicideWatch |
who else is going to be working On black Friday [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
Struggling Been struggling with depression for 3 years while hiding it from my friends and family. I think today is the day I end my life. | self.SuicideWatch |
Concerned about having a psychotic break. Just need to get this off of my chest and possibly get some reassurance. Of course, I know you guys aren't medical professionals so might not even be able to comment on this, but here goes anyway.
I recently moved across the country (from the Midwest to the sunny West Coas... | self.Anxiety |
After 7 years of wanting to die, Im finally ready to [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
Don't you ever speak yo me like that again [deleted] | self.offmychest |
hi! so.... about that fluoxetine stuff i just took 220mg or so... i’m pretty sure. my dosage is only 20mg a day, but i haven’t taken it for... a long time
just wondering what will happen to me. i don’t know why i did it? i just... it was there! so, i decided to take it.
maybe i’m just tired and had a long day? i’m not... | self.depression |
Anxiety wakes me up at night Often times when im falling asleep at night and Im not quite into a deep sleep, I am woken up by a fast heart beat and feeling like a cant breathe well. Is there any way to stop this from happening? I hate waking up all the time just to have a panic attack. I just want to sleep | self.Anxiety |
Weight loss. For the past, I'd say seven weeks I've been busting my ass to lose weight with only one or two days of break in between the weeks. I eat really well if I do eat, small portions, I don't eat meat or a lot of dairy.
I worked out for my body type, I've been doing dancer stretches and work outs and I at least... | self.depression |
I don’t deserve my (only two) friends. They’re such good people. But, it kills me inside every time I’m with them. I’m not a good friend to them. I’m not bad, just... I’m just there, being boring. I wish I was funnier, more engaging, or at least had the guts to tell them that I’m sorry.
I’m sorry for not saying someth... | self.SuicideWatch |
Help! I become paralysed at the most menial tasks, suffer from anxiety afterwards for not doing them Throwaway account. I'm stuck in a vicious cycle where, for no apparent reason, I become paralysed when I have to carry out certain tasks which are in no way difficult to do, and because of this inability to do them, I b... | self.Anxiety |
Oh well My boyfriend disappeared on me yesterday. I couldn't blame him, we tried so hard for ten months to make it work, but I've lied and cheated. I love him. He was supposed to come mid Jan, stay for a few months, that isn't going to happen.
I love him.
It's a shame I guess, I recently got my work accepted into and... | self.SuicideWatch |
I don't want to call the suicide hotline again [deleted] | self.depression |
My uncle died Sunday afternoon and it makes me want to kill myself even more. [deleted] | self.depression |
My father can't pay for university and I don't qualify for financial aid. If I can't pay for college, then I have to go live with my father again... I would rather die. Title says everything pretty much. My father said he'd pay for my schooling and he isn't following up on it. He paid a couple thousand dollars of my tu... | self.SuicideWatch |
Fuck I never ask my best friend to hang out bc I’m super introverted and I never think to do so, and know she’s taking it personally. I say that I’ll be better but they know that it’ll never happen. I feel like an awful person, I feel messed up. I just want to run away and never come back. I don’t want to die I just wa... | self.depression |
Moving out need to confront my conservative parents?! So I've (23) lived my whole life with my parents, and decided that I finally wanted to move out because I think Im ready to become more responsible, and just have more space and be able to decide things on my own. The thing is that my parents are extreme conservativ... | self.offmychest |
DAE Take Meds that make you seem/act happy on the outside to others. But your still dead on the inside? [deleted] | self.depression |
What music helps you relax when you're feeling anxious? For me, I love classical music. My favorite song right now is [Spiegel im Spiegel by Arvo Part](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FZe3mXlnfNc)
I also find that the newest album by Slowdive really helps me feel calm. Here is the song [Sugar for the Pill](https:/... | self.Anxiety |
Is it fucked up that I miss feeling sad? [deleted] | self.depression |
I just want to quit this job, I can’t pretend to function normally here. So I’ve been working at this small cgi studio for the past 8 months; we are like 5 people in total (including my boss). I’ve gotten to a point where I just can’t work here; the people, the clients, my boss, I can’t handle it anymore. The people ar... | self.offmychest |
Mental Gold: Redditors Thriving with Mental Illness Hey guys, I have created a sub focusing on the wins in our difficult lives. I have been promoting this on some other mental illness subs with a bit of a negative reaction. BipolarReddit is very important to me so I wanted to preface this with the assurance that I don'... | self.bipolar |
Bi-polar Rage and Irritability Agitation (verbal) How do you guys keep your moods away from what comes out of your mouth? How do you guys get away from being eager, and angry, yelling and being mean? | self.bipolar |
Convinced my eating disorder is going to kill me [deleted] | self.offmychest |
Hearing things Ever since I was a freshman in highschool, which is as far back as I can remember having prominent memories of hearing things nobody else could hear, like occasional tinitis, faint voices(whispering), my name being called when nobody called my name, odd sounds, etc etc.
A few instances recently were a ... | self.bipolar |
waking up screaming and crying, with no memory of it I've been diagnosed with BP 2 for about 5 years now and am currently going through a severe depression, psychosis on and off.
Just 3 weeks ago I went to the hospital because I realized it was getting to this level. So I'm taking lamictal and having super terrifyingl... | self.bipolar |
I am too much of a coward to even kill myself [deleted] | self.depression |
Things just get worse I feel like vomiting all the time, i can barely eat, i quited all the things that i loved, i don't want to sleep, i don't want to do nothing i just feel trapped in my body, i thought about suicide since i was 11, but i keeped going because i belives that things will get better, i'm almost 17 now a... | self.SuicideWatch |
why & how did i even end up like this [deleted] | self.depression |
My boyfriend is having mild hallucinations after starting Lamotrigine. So he was diagnosed with Bipolar 1 a few months ago. His therapist took him off his regular anxiety medication (Paxil) after the diagnosis and prescribed him Lexapro and Abilify. This made him very irritable and mean, so they told him to stop taking... | self.bipolar |
I don't want to live but I don't want to die either I really, really, really don't want to live. Life is awful. It really is. I don't want to do all the things necessary to make everyone around me happy and okay with me and accepting of me - work 40 hours a week, be financially independent, eat healthy and exercise, an... | self.SuicideWatch |
Nothing is wrong in my life, so why do I feel so crappy all the time? [deleted] | self.depression |
Im so confused with life. This is another one of those stories about how I fell in love with my best friend. It's always a hard place to be in. So we met at work and she came up and introduced herself to me. She met my brother through a mutual friend and said I looked just like him. Im a shy kid so I would have never t... | self.offmychest |
Depression came back - I will fight; Either I win or I die 17 years old here.
Tl;dr: Have been "clean" of depression for about a year, depression came back, I write a list of things i want to achieve within the next 6 months, if I fail achieving all of the things I will commit suicide and give up forever.
Having had de... | self.depression |
New sleep/binge eating on Seroquel Hi guys. I’m BP1 and currently hypomanic.
So my Seroquel was increased two days ago from 50mg XL to 150mg XL in the evening.
I also take 50mg IR right before bedtime.
So apart from the sedation this morning I woke up to find I had eaten nearly an entire selection box (UK Christmas... | self.bipolar |
The only reason I haven't left you is because I'm afraid of your reaction. [deleted] | self.offmychest |
Do you ever wish you had a clone of you running around pretending to be you so you don’t have to leave your bed? [removed] | self.depression |
Froze in session 1 of therapy what should I do for session 2? Backstory: I have been dealing with depression for 3 years with prior episodes that have occurred throughout my life but this is the deepest and longest lasting it has been. In addition to the depression I have been dealing with anxiety.
I went to my first ... | self.depression |
Can't sleep and pissed Suicide is the easy way out my ass. Been trying to get access to painless and quick methods. Can't go and traumatise some train or truck driver, would make suicide look even more selfish. My only option is a knife, I know I need to cut the jugular or carotid artery. No idea how to locate them, I ... | self.SuicideWatch |
Welp (22/m) Have no passion for *anything*. Working graveyard shift at an entry level dead end job even though I have an engineering degree (I never had interest in engineering so that's that). Basically, the only reason I have not killed myself yet is because I don't want to hurt my parents. | self.SuicideWatch |
Soon to be divorced in my last year of law school [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
I'm getting scared. Reaching that breaking point. No matter how hard I try, I can't fix my life. I don't want to kill myself but at this point it feels like I'm on a slow, steady march off the cliff. No matter how hard I try I can't get myself out of this horrible spot the universe put me in. My life has been on hold f... | self.SuicideWatch |
A poem describing disappointment from those who want to raise your expectations the most Each situation starts differently ends the same
Each results in a broken heart from a careless brain
If you can enter love that fast why don't you slow your pace
Take a walk beside me before finding another chase
I may be just a ... | self.depression |
I can’t stop thinking about death. Hi, I’m Kat, 16, and in 10th grade.
I’m honestly trying to get better, but I keep getting suicidal thoughts from even the tiniest problems. I want to die so fucking bad and I don’t know how much longer I can take this. I feel so pathetic since nobody takes what I have to say serious... | self.SuicideWatch |
After a down day today, I'm going to try and have an awesome and healthy day tomorrow and enjoy life. What should I get up to? [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
Hope Something so pretty when you have so much of it. I just wanted to share that i think lost hope cannot be explained with words and i hope im not alone. Do you guys ever wonder if life is real? :L | self.depression |
I'm disappointed by the lack of Christmas disaster stories It's only 10.20am, here, but in past years I've already read of fist fights between family members, or older relatives ruining the day with inappropriate comments etc | self.offmychest |
A sad group of friends In my class, I sit beside three people. One has anxiety, one has traumatic childhood experiences, and the last one doesn't open up but I know he's sad. I don't know what to do anymore. I want to help but all I can do is listen and feel bad about myself. | self.depression |
The worst motorbike accident. I've had a motorbike accident, it happened just about 4 metter from my house. He's about 20 yearsold i think. After i was hitted by his motorbike, i recieve a insensitivity look. He didn't say sorry, instead said "Im just busy", I clam. Then i tried to fixed myself and got all the way home... | self.offmychest |
things i can't say I haven't been touched in so long. I haven't been given oral since once last year. I desperately validate the sex we do have because it's better than the endless torture of no sex. I have so much passion but receive almost none. We have the same fight over and over again and nothing changes. I don't ... | self.offmychest |
I just want to feel like im worth something for once in my life Why is it so damn hard to find any sense of purpose? I wake up every morning feeling like a disappointing peace of garbage who can't accomplish anything and it's eating away at me.
I suck at everything I try to do and I feel like I'm just a disappointment... | self.depression |
I'm just so tired. I really don't know what to do anymore. This emptiness. This loneliness. These intrusive thoughts. This heartache. The anxiety. The breakdowns. Its just too much.
I've been bad before- I've lived 19 years with depression, anxiety, developing bpd, and other disorders. But I don't know if I've ever b... | self.SuicideWatch |
Looking for advice on helping my partner through panic attacks Sorry if this isn't allowed! First time visiting this sub. My partner (29M) was diagnosed with anxiety back in November following a series of ER visits (a total of 5-6 in a little over 2 weeks) and I want to get a better understanding of how to help him. Du... | self.Anxiety |
I'm terrified of failing this exam I have tomorrow. I know everything, but I'm scared and absolutely convinced I won't make it. What can I do to calm down, stop crying every five minutes and just focus? [deleted] | self.bipolar |
Been struggling a lot recently, loneliness A few days ago I spent, like usual, my afternoon and night alone in my apartment. I saw an advertisement on reddit and somehow ended up binging for 7 hours straight a soap-opera manga. I wasn't able to finish the manga due to what I see to be an excessive paywall and it left a... | self.depression |
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