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Sometimes I wish I had cancer I know it sounds fucked up but hear me out.
My life pretty much sucks right now. Going through a divorce (it wasn't ugly, thankfully), but the depression that came from it has been lingering for a while and it started affecting my work performance. My team has noticed the drop in performa... | self.depression |
are SSRIs on long term really effective they seem to do almost nothing about my anxiety. just making me emotionally detached. is this how it's supposed to work? | self.Anxiety |
Today might be the big day Girlfriend left me, no friends, I hate myself and everyone else. This wolrd doesnt need me anymore. I know the spot and I know the way | self.SuicideWatch |
Is anyone else embarrassed by their actions during mania? I wish I interacted with no one during my mania. All of my friends have dirt on me now, I feel. | self.bipolar |
I'm worried that I'm about to lose my relationship. [deleted] | self.offmychest |
(New User Urgent Advice) I Have No Say So With My Body I am genuinely unsure about how to explain what I need to in this post without making it terribly long, but I will try my best. Let me start with the basis of this text post and what I am exactly realizing and feeling as of now, which is; I feel like I have no say ... | self.depression |
I told myself that if just one person remembered my birthday today then maybe I'd try to live another year. Nobody did. Firstly, I want to say that this isn't a post about me wanting a bunch of people to wish me a happy birthday online. In fact, I don't want anyone to so please don't. There isn't anything happy about i... | self.offmychest |
I am a 23 year old guy. I have had sex with probably between 600 and 800 women. I have had sex with 5 ex girlfriends.
I've also had sex with 6 girls that were on/off fwb type of thing.
And one girl I met at a bar that was a one night standard.
And I also estimate between 600 and 800 prostitutes.
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I'm a US cit... | self.offmychest |
Just need to vent Hey. I've been a long time reader here, thought I'd try posting. My depression has been really bad the last couple months. I've been doing everything I can think of to break out of it. Most of the time my depression just hits with no reason or warning but this time it was different. I knew for days wh... | self.depression |
Update: Lamictal in the AM I posted a few days ago that I’d missed my nighttime lamictal dose, and took it in the morning. For a few days, I’ve continued to do so.
And I am now back to PM. I haven’t slept more than 3 hours since I switched it and it’s either hypo setting in or a result of switching the time.
I have ... | self.bipolar |
I don't know anymore. More than ever, my motivation is just gone. I've been 'unhappy' for roughly 3 years (I've refrained from calling myself depressed since I haven't actually been professionally diagnosed with anything since I'm too afraid to get help). I don't feel like waking up anymore. I wake up briefly, then sle... | self.depression |
Very hopeless right now I just need to write this somewhere because I don't really have anybody I can talk to. This week has been one of my worst weeks in a very long time. I've been sick since Monday, my headlight went out, got into a fight with my best friend over the dumbest reason and we are no longer talking or fr... | self.offmychest |
Finals are over and I still feel awful Right before the semester began, I got broken up with by one of my best friends. I started to spiral back into an anxious-depressive state and tried to do as much as I could to bring myself out of it while still keeping up with work and classes. I started to eat more regularly (be... | self.offmychest |
I'm a 14 year old girl and I am constantly thinking about the most horrible things and i'm afraid I might act on them. Please help me. [deleted] | self.depression |
Journaling Advice I've been journaling as a routine for a while now and I feel I need a little more structure. My typical entry is food, caffeine, nicotine, water, exercise, sleep, and how I feel.
The static items regarding diet are fine, I don't want to get granular there, but for tracking the emotions I feel I need... | self.bipolar |
What’s your biggest regret and why? Mine:
- Not spending longer in NYC last time I was there.
- Marriage breakdown and everything surrounding it... trust me - a full on bipolar tragedy and then some. It’s is as if I had been setting myself up for suicide when I came down...which I did attempt.
Go me! /s
Edit: Capi... | self.bipolar |
Help me come up with a system to ease me into being more productive at work. I need help. I do not want to be fired from yet another job because I just instantaneously lose my motivation and will to try.
I have zero energy, and my heart isn't in what I do. I can't quit or afford to be fired from yet another job.
I... | self.depression |
Feeling super worthless [RANT] So result season is here.(University students here)
All my friends think I'm the smartest out of them and I hate that.
I'm in second year and one of my friends also in second year, is taking a first-year course with lots of first years. My friend asked a first year what grades he had an... | self.depression |
IDK What to do Im 14 4.75 gpa....... alot of kids would kill for that but i cry myself to sleep i always here voices in my head deciding tonight is the night im gonna finally kms or not. I cant eat sometimes and i keep punching holes in my wall i like this girl who ik will never like me, i live in a broken home where ... | self.depression |
Does anyone else also feels unlovable? I am a teenager, 17 and nearly everyone around me have had their first kiss or at least a meaningful relationship. I am told a lot that I di nit deserve the girl I like because I look hideously ugly . I dont know but sometimes when I look in the mirror., I feel I look okay or goo... | self.depression |
I've tried multiple times but I can't seem to do it | self.SuicideWatch |
Why do I even try, life is absurd It's like you are trying your hardest to hammer a nail. It doesn't matter how hard you try, sometimes you will miss, and hit your thumb or bent the nail.
Today I tried opening up to my friend about my existential crisis and how it is making me very depressed. It is very hard for me to... | self.offmychest |
Does anyone else ever feel like they are going to faint? [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
Just Diagnosed/Abilify Hey people,
As the title says I was diagnosed about three weeks ago, but could not post until now post because my account is new.
Anyway,
I am on Abilify atm, I went pretty hardcore manic and it eventuated in full psychosis... sold all my stuff and moved to LA to be a standup comic despite ... | self.bipolar |
Manic Romance I'm fairly certain I'm in the middle of a manic episode, and for some reason, I've recently become obsessed with my male friend. I'm not attracted to guys in the slightest, but I can't stop thinking about him. He's like my brother, and it's really messing me up emotionally. This has happened before in man... | self.bipolar |
I dont want to do this anymore any of it. I want to just live my bipolar life and suffer the consequences. We come into this world screaming and (thankfully? ha!) for us theres an entire field of medicine dedicated to making sure we adapt. I'm not adaptable. I will always be like this. There is no cure.
This sounds ... | self.bipolar |
Trying to explain a depressive episode to my long-time boyfriend. I've been dealing with a depressive episode (biopolar) for a while. It's gotten to the point that I'm having trouble doing basic things for work and life (checking papers, planning lessons, cleaning my apt, eating, etc.). I'm trying to figure out how ... | self.depression |
Whatever I love, it never loves me back Whether it's a hobby, something I want to study, friends, animals I care for, a man whom I deeply love - nothing and no one ever seems to want to love me back.
It really feels like being an abandoned dog. No, not an *abandoned* one. That implies being loved at one point. A dog w... | self.depression |
My life is a black-comedy sequal. My anxiety is literally unbarable. Tremors/twitching, unstable voice, blank mind..blasé blasé
There is absolutely nothing to be done anymore. I had to drop out of school, girls are out the picture it's not even possible hahah, friends too, I can't go to the gym... All because I'm a ne... | self.depression |
Gonna I'm gonna remove the organ donor status from my id/dl. Older generation is corrupt and malicious anyways and will hurt whoever they can. | self.depression |
Killing myself tonight Its 2 pm...
At 10pm ill get drunk and go to the traintracks...
I have a timeframe of 20min until the next train comes...
Ill take my sleeping meds, drink some more and just lie down...
Goodbye everyone
Ive been fighting this stupid fight for far too long
Edit: im ok, im in the hospital n... | self.SuicideWatch |
Suicide hotline chat keeps kicking me out. I think I'm meant to do this The last couple of months I've been felling almost a patriotic-like sense of duty about killing myself. I'm deteriorating really quickly. I'm not making enough money to sustain myself anymore and I'm not bringing meaning or joy to anyone's life. I... | self.SuicideWatch |
Pat, if you see this - I am sorry I called my bank's customer service today and I was furious because I used my points to redeem a $100 gift card and when I went to use it today, it had $0...
I was so mad, I called up customer service and yelled at the poor rep. He was trying so hard to help me but I was so blindside... | self.offmychest |
who I thought was the love of my life ruined me known her since high school and finally we decided to date, moved in together and had everything together and couldnt have been more perfect. Found out she was a major coke user and other drugs and even was having sex with men for money. After trying to help her she cance... | self.depression |
Is anyone else going insane from keeping your friends from titling one another? I swear to fucking God I want to strangle them half the time. Seriously I don't know how else to phrase this but I feel that I'm constantly having to stop my friends from making a dig too far, or blaming someone a little too much, before we... | self.offmychest |
Something going on with me and my teacher Hi, this will be a short post, let me start by saying im 16, female, residing in my native country, and i had a foreign highschool teacher in 9/10th grade who is in his late thirties, male.
We became really close (i guess) after i left my previous school where he taught at (i... | self.offmychest |
my friend told me they have decided to kill themselves uh, so... i'm sorry if this sounds incoherent. struggling with making sense.
i haven't been friends with this person for that long. in fact, we have met not that long ago, but connected really well, very fast, as we share many interests and both struggle with our ... | self.depression |
I miss reading -- can anyone relate? I can't read books. I love reading them, but I can't do it anymore anymore, not even with Ritalin.
I'm finally on a cocktail that works, but it seems that it's nearly killed my ability to read. I blame my Lamictal the most, as it makes me feel very foggy, and I believe that is why ... | self.bipolar |
i dont feel good i dont know what im doing. im so tired | self.SuicideWatch |
I feel like I have no future, and it's partially my fault [deleted] | self.offmychest |
I feel like I'm being robbed of my teen years I've started taking medicine for my depression and It helps but it doesn't change the fact that I have no friends where I live. My friends live 1300 miles away from me and I get to hear about their great parties and all of the cool stuff they get to do while I'm inside all ... | self.depression |
Just got told by a manager that I'm not well liked, because I don't say "hi" to people. People are fucking weird, man. I have never been the type of person to say "hi" to anyone. I really suck at small talk. What this says to me is that the people I work with are not smart enough to gauge a person's demeanor, whether t... | self.Anxiety |
Unusually confident, sociable, and productive. I've written here before, and I had never had a "good" experience with mania/hypomania. It always involves paranoia, unwarranted anger and irritability. Not to mention the times I become fully psychotic and start seeing things.
However, the past few days I've been spendin... | self.bipolar |
Neighbor dog barking causing my anxiety, any help? It doesn't bark *that* often, maybe 20 seconds per hour but my neighbors backyard is only 3 meters from my room so it's very loud when the dog barks.
It's worst at night when it's dead silent at 9pm and suddenly BARK BARK BARK very loudly which gives me a sudden j... | self.Anxiety |
Coworker leaving her job So my coworker is leaving her job for a new job and when she leaves I don't have a reason to live since she is my only pick me up during the days. I'm planning on writing a suicide note for her but am worried it would sound like I'm blaming her even though it would be more about how she kept al... | self.SuicideWatch |
No friends, feel as though I've wasted my teenage years, want to kill my self. [deleted] | self.depression |
The biggest frustration... ...is reading random people online say they care. Be real, you don't. So why do you say it? It's almost as bad as the suicide hotlines, even as bad as the textbook psychologists and psychiatrists.
Just be straight up. | self.SuicideWatch |
I'm 14, pregnant, and afraid Using a throwaway because people I know irl know my real account. So yeah, you read the title. I found out 3 nights ago. I took 6 tests and they were all positive.
I'm honestly very, very scared. I'm extremely nervous about how my parents will react. They are Christian and tend to be viole... | self.offmychest |
What do you do, when it becomes clear your "friends" don't care? My depression got to a point where I needed to do something, so finally started getting some help. Saw a counselor, doctor, got on some meds. Then, when I mentioned I couldn't honor some plans with basically the only two people I talk to, who could be cal... | self.depression |
Experiences with citalopram? Hey, long time no see!
So I'm on the waiting list for evaluation, having made a [post](http://www.reddit.com/r/bipolar/comments/6r6fq1/is_bipolar_worth_investigating/) here a few months ago.
Because my diagnosis is still officially depression and not bipolar, which I still suspect, my tre... | self.bipolar |
I realize that I need help, but am too stuck in my depression to do anything about it I’ve been depressed since I was, about, 11 years old (20 now), and every time I feel inspired to contact someone for professional help, I can’t. I’ve tried talking to school counselors who’ve suggested contacting a psychologist, which... | self.depression |
I need help. Can anyone recommend any good CBT books? I’m at rock bottom. This isn’t life. This constant worry is exhausting. My anxiety ruins any happiness I could have. Ive seen a few people mention CBT and I want to look into it further. I can’t afford ‘real’ therapy unfortunately and have always found I’m too much ... | self.Anxiety |
Dark (1) I'm here to share my feelings. What does it mean when you get a sudden pang of sadness that refuses to leave n leaves you wanting to cry for now reason? I've googled it and it's given me three reasons
1. Hormonal imbalance.
2. Anemia.
3. Depression.
Let me tell you a bit about myself.
I'm Li, female, 20 ... | self.depression |
If I threatened suicide at an interview, would finally get me a job? The normal way isn't working [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
When you don't know whether you're actually depressed or just being an over-sensitive bitch [deleted] | self.depression |
It feels more like a gloomy story with multiple endings, but... No matter what plots I choose in throughout the story, it always lead to bad ending... | self.depression |
my swan song (yes, i am melodramatic) hey world. My name is Ophélie and I am a nobody in my twenties. I have never had friends, unfortunately, but did not feel right preparing to leave this world without writing a little something. Life for me has been unbearable (I think I may have Bipolar Disorder but cannot afford a... | self.SuicideWatch |
I know I need help. But it's hard to care about that right now. Today may be my last on earth. I just created an account here because... it was the only place i could think of that i might actually find people who care. Open it up to the world, you know?
My life is hell. I'm trans, MtF. If anyone in my family new that... | self.SuicideWatch |
mario oddysey convinced me not to kill myself i can die in peace after i get all the moons
| self.SuicideWatch |
Changing to Lamictal from Quetiapine (seroquel) Hi guys! I’m starting Lamictal today and I am nervous! I have been on 200mg of quetiapine for 2 years but I’ve become quite anxious and depressed. I had an appointment with a new psych today and he had said he wants to take me from 25mg-200mg over 8 weeks and then reduce ... | self.bipolar |
Am I wrong for never wanting to speak to my family again? [deleted] | self.depression |
I am going to a concert tomorrow I was hoping someone on this sub would give me a break down on what a concert is like and proper concert etiquette if they have ever been or some form of mental coping mechanisms they may have handy. To be honest i think i am way over my head on this. I have never been to a concert befo... | self.Anxiety |
Dear heart You've done enough
Just let go
I'm tired of waking up | self.SuicideWatch |
My mind has Mostly recovered but getting rid of that last bit of anxiety is just ugh. | self.Anxiety |
Does anyone else wake up in the middle of the night thinking they’re at work? [deleted] | self.Anxiety |
Reposting this cause I’m bored and desperate. Entertain me before I kill mysel. Wallowing in my own self hatred had gotten boring this past week and I’d like anyone to talk to before I killmyself on sunday. I don’t expect you to solve my problems, I don’t expect you to even make them better. But that doesn’t mean you c... | self.SuicideWatch |
I fucking hate being in this bottomless pit. Everything gets worse. No matter how hard I try to climb out, I will get reeled back into that hole. I fucking hate it. | self.depression |
Does anyone else catch their hands shaking in stressful situations? Title explains it all | self.Anxiety |
Frustration when medication side effects are treated like you have a cold or something I hate it when you say you are having medication side effects (like right now I am dizzy and groggy and nauseated) and you get 'well maybe you should stay home' or things like that.
I can be groggy at home or groggy with friends, it... | self.bipolar |
Having mild bipolar Today I saw my LCSW and when I was talking to him about the bipolar stuff, he said he’s not so sure anymore if I am bipolar as I’m very stable and high-functioning. However he did acknowledge its different for everyone and I went over my hypomania symptoms again with him and he seemed to go back to ... | self.bipolar |
Unwanted Thoughts - Will They stop? I have been dealing with unwanted thoughts for a little while. Generally to do with disgust - if I'm disgusted by something e.g. some unpleasant food, I'll have unwanted thought about eating the food which obviously is unpleasant. Similarly, I have unwanted thoughts about getting hur... | self.Anxiety |
Woke up and didn’t recognize myself i was diagnosed a few months ago as BP II with OCD and unspecified anxiety disorder. it took me a long time to seek help even though i’ve been dealing with these things for a very long time. looking back, most of my life seems so foggy because of the constant up and down, racing thou... | self.bipolar |
I'm lost and alone This weekend I was in a cottage with a bunch of friends from school, I have been feeling horrible for a few months now and didn't know what to do
When I was a kid I was bullied and betrayed by my friends, it has made it difficult for me to trust others, and hard to believe people want me around, I a... | self.SuicideWatch |
I [20/F] need advice to help my boyfriend [21/M] with his depression [deleted] | self.depression |
Suicide I feel so overwhelmed and my anxiety is screaming. The depression has left me bed ridden and I want to end my life. Everyday is the biggest chore, I can't seem to find happiness anymore. My boyfriend is my only source of any type of happiness, but who knows how long he'll be here.. The anxiety is driving me i... | self.depression |
Hate being alone yet hate being with people? Why in the fuck is my brain so fucked & indecisive. When I'm by myself I want to be with someone to get my mind off of things, then, when I'm with others I just want to be alone. I can't win. | self.depression |
Phobia of deteriorating vision crushing my dreams and goals. Can anyone reassure me and help? Ever since third grade I have worn glasses, although much time before then I noticed my vision wasn’t well. My vision isn’t necessarily severe but it isn’t good.
My prescription is -3.5 or around there on both eyes so I am n... | self.Anxiety |
Don’t fucking eat Yeah I think I’m gonna restrict again. If you have any tips Thad be great. | self.depression |
Sometimes I think I have a lot more respect for people who actually go through with killing themselves than I do for myself. [deleted] | self.SuicideWatch |
Depressed because no gf Why even live? I have social anxiety. Girls HATE shy guys. Listen to any girl and they will tell tou the number one thing they look for is CONFIDENCE. It’s not fair. I will never get a gf because im high inhibition and awkward. Even ugly girls reject me. | self.depression |
I messed up and I'm a total disappointment. I'm a major in Psychology. I study this because I want to be able to help others one day because this feeling of depression is the absolute worst.
I took a year off of school in order to handle my family situations, and recently some more has happened with my parents gettin... | self.depression |
I work hard at a job I dread in order to prolong a life I don't want. [deleted] | self.depression |
Nobody cares People are just curious to know your problems.When you are sad they ask what's wrong? But when you tell them the reason they just disappear.If humans really care there would not be so many suicides. | self.depression |
I can't drive and live in area with minimal public transit. I use cannabis which disqualifies me from a lot of jobs, and my anxiety and BPD make it hard to find something I can handle. I've been unemployed for three years and it's really starting to get me. | self.depression |
Yes, finally. I'm in a car, on the bridge. Outside is dark and cold, slowly raining. Distance isn't very big, but there is water. I can't swim and i'm scared of it. I need to scream and cry, but there is no point. There is just me. I'm scared and alone, like always. I will rewatch 3 episodes of Naruto, then I'll jump. | self.SuicideWatch |
Postpartum anxiety New to this sub. Have had issues with anxietyfor yeas however now suffering from terrible postpartum anxiety which prompted me to finally go on meds. Started on celexa with Ativan to tide me over until it starts working. Am aware that I will most likely have to wean and withdraw from the Ativan event... | self.Anxiety |
Does anyone else’s anxiety flair up acter eating? (Whether it’s just a bit or a lot) This hasn’t happened to me in a while, I’m talking years ago, but recently it seems like I have either a mini or a relatively normal strength anxiety attack after almost every meal, sometimes larger snacks.
Anyone else deal with this?... | self.Anxiety |
What Makes People Care? I'm 20 yo male. Life consists of eating, sleeping, and working. May go back to school next semester..application deadline is coming up. Have had only 2 close friends in my life..those being in highschool and I no longer have an interest in starting them back up. I'd like some new friends but mor... | self.depression |
Overwhelmed with life, not getting anything done. Hi guys,
I’ve been incredibly busy lately, and it’s really getting to me. I work 20 hours a week and am going to school full time. Last term wasn’t so bad for me, since I was taking some pretty easy classes, but this term I had to take some stuff I can’t just bust out.... | self.Anxiety |
I have it planned out Been suicidal since i was around 13. Finally around January i became happy after nearly a decade of struggling but all good things come to an end and im now deeper into this hole. I always said i would never do this. I have so many people that love and care for me. I hate that im going to do this ... | self.SuicideWatch |
How do you stop feeling so worthless? I don't know what to do anymore. I'm just so tired of being a burden to the people I care about. I don't know why, but I did so bad in high school. My parents work almost 10 hours every day just so I can live a good life and go to a good college. I had a 3.8 freshman year of high s... | self.SuicideWatch |
There's literally no reason to stay alive it's like, the same things happen again and again.
Every day, every night is the same.
Lonely sitting home, listening to music, surfing through the internet, crying in the night.
Like, why am I even doing this to myself? | self.depression |
Undiagnosed Not too long ago I realized that I have a bipolar disorder almost for 5 years now. And it solved all of my problems: now I know what’s exactly wrong with me.
I feel like getting away with murder, because no one knows about it. I don’t want to disappoint everyone so I keep putting off the visit to doctor to... | self.bipolar |
Does anyone else get depressed after a night of drinking? Usually on the weekends I’ll spend with my boyfriend and we just smoke weed and then I get back to campus and hang with my friends. We either get cross faded or just drunk and over the weekend with my bf and friends I don’t feel depressed I feel like a fairly no... | self.bipolar |
Are we bring this to ourselves or is it unpreventable to people like us? I've exhausted all my options, lashing out at my parents, making enemies with everybody, no job, no girlfriend, no friends other than few smoking buddies but I have nothing, and can't start rebuilding without help.
I'm on vyvanse 70mg for my ADD ... | self.depression |
Has anyone tried intermittent fasting for anxiety? I'm on day 5 of IF and have noticed my anxiety has gone down a lot. Didn't know if I was imagining it. | self.Anxiety |
I have a strong desire for a bisexual experience and no one knows about it [deleted] | self.offmychest |
I realized i didnt have work today So your telling me I took a shower for nothing? | self.depression |
I fucked up for the last time I had a great thing. I ruined it. Its irreversable. No matter how hard I beg, I cannot get it back. I let my pride, I let my anger get in the way of the best thing to ever come into my life. I am a rash and impulsive person. I have always been that. I always will be that. Ive been a notori... | self.SuicideWatch |
The home stretch I will be leaving in January... I've given up, and will be more or less just coasting through the holiday season.
My parents think I'm going to be going back to school for accounting for the spring semester... I'll sign up for everything, as if I'm starting over... I might even get a shitty job if the... | self.SuicideWatch |
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