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suicidewatch | fluffibunnie | 2019/10/31 | just too nervous to exist i think about killing myself every single day im awake but im not even sure that its because i want to die anymore. i think it's because im just too scared to live. anxiety is what tethers me to my bed and depression is what keeps me there. i beg for my friends to go away and for people to sto... | -0.311154 | 1.676574 | 2.240943 | 94.8989 | 87.24 | 4.851429 | 21.728571 | 6.182691 | 0.228897 | 442 | 16 | 102 | 4 | 14 | 152 | 73 | 125 | 0.256 | 0.667 | 0.077 | -0.9789 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 9 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 19 | 16 | 7 | 3 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 6 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 15 | 3 | 18 | 11 | 2 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 66 | 21 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097233 | 0 | 0.126051 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119417 | 0 | 0 | 0.154961 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112412 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163941 | 0 | 0.109473 | 0 | 0.263825 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08395 | 0 | 0.107089 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098199 | 0 | 0.066406 | 0 | 0.072235 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.686462 | 0 | 0 | 0.112974 | 0.14062 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.224468 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119277 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086128 | 0.193334 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13764 | 0 | 0.088117 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081425 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127252 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107693 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135474 | 0 | 0.106263 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119793 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162884 | 0 | 0.100905 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149937 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | iwishididntthink | 2019/10/31 | Planning My Suicide - Diary Entry One, 31/10/2019 (LOTS OF TEXT) Sorry if this isn't the right place to post. In an attempt to feel relieved of them, I started to write my negative thoughts into a diary. Yet no matter how many blank pages I filled with words, I felt just as empty as before. In a desperate attempt to un... | 4.421977 | 6.498215 | 5.058686 | 80.24452 | 71.807646 | 8.47318 | 29.486415 | 9.122638 | 2.643802 | 7,048 | 292 | 1,293 | 153 | 139 | 2,263 | 576 | 1,674 | 0.136 | 0.74 | 0.125 | -0.9113 | 10 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 230 | 16 | 5 | 11 | 23 | 67 | 90 | 8 | 6 | 80 | 2 | 152 | 34 | 7 | 20 | 14 | 268 | 286 | 105 | 2 | 36 | 48 | 6 | 14 | 6 | 2 | 23 | 15 | 8 | 1 | 4 | 77 | 69 | 4 | 9 | 56 | 9 | 11 | 22 | 37 | 35 | 2 | 13 | 111 | 29 | 217 | 54 | 226 | 134 | 32 | 202 | 0 | 18 | 5 | 10 | 164 | 85 | 1 | 47 | 90 | 941 | 294 | 14 | 0.031333 | 0 | 0.091729 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.027775 | 0 | 0 | 0.032452 | 0.069154 | 0 | 0.182501 | 0 | 0 | 0.08523 | 0.032855 | 0.047939 | 0.035397 | 0.031074 | 0.043818 | 0 | 0.103138 | 0 | 0.029292 | 0 | 0.058877 | 0.120466 | 0 | 0.038201 | 0 | 0.106648 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.034804 | 0.039463 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127784 | 0 | 0.033146 | 0.026991 | 0.065704 | 0.06772 | 0 | 0.075051 | 0 | 0 | 0.040414 | 0.032303 | 0.080961 | 0.031802 | 0 | 0.032736 | 0.143641 | 0.096212 | 0 | 0.096194 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096184 | 0.078524 | 0.140982 | 0.027752 | 0 | 0 | 0.04139 | 0.056685 | 0 | 0 | 0.02816 | 0.091949 | 0 | 0 | 0.126743 | 0.022384 | 0.120338 | 0.068648 | 0.085913 | 0.106607 | 0 | 0 | 0.048416 | 0 | 0.081851 | 0.030057 | 0.071229 | 0 | 0.02506 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.033355 | 0.056136 | 0.030935 | 0.032157 | 0.166528 | 0 | 0 | 0.126011 | 0 | 0 | 0.093362 | 0 | 0.072308 | 0.067085 | 0.070742 | 0 | 0 | 0.031093 | 0.02785 | 0 | 0.032629 | 0.051659 | 0 | 0 | 0.033177 | 0.034043 | 0.03204 | 0.066394 | 0.091846 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.026312 | 0 | 0.068407 | 0.079915 | 0.141396 | 0.059296 | 0.12549 | 0.031767 | 0.031478 | 0.068262 | 0 | 0.031565 | 0.063153 | 0.066479 | 0.031637 | 0 | 0.100039 | 0 | 0.046067 | 0.092932 | 0.144996 | 0 | 0.033323 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066737 | 0.10616 | 0.07149 | 0 | 0 | 0.034792 | 0.067861 | 0 | 0.021722 | 0.082076 | 0.065473 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150042 | 0 | 0.067565 | 0.029981 | 0.036627 | 0.062997 | 0.0351 | 0 | 0.062683 | 0 | 0.060218 | 0.032216 | 0 | 0.10092 | 0 | 0.026758 | 0.05961 | 0.099669 | 0 | 0 | 0.049937 | 0.142622 | 0.098061 | 0 | 0 | 0.051838 | 0.03522 | 0 | 0 | 0.106193 | 0.048243 | 0.030989 | 0.105224 | 0.044355 | 0.033397 | 0.175158 | 0 | 0 | 0.065512 | 0 | 0.068546 | 0.142225 | 0.029531 | 0 | 0.023559 | 0.100737 | 0 | 0.028847 | 0 | 0 | 0.16653 | 0.060231 | 0.030785 | 0.124375 | 0.127894 | 0 | 0 | 0.11976 | 0.034812 | 0.042546 | 0.102244 | 0.122431 | 0.130475 | 0.075379 | 0.054123 | 0 | 0.051706 | 0.055443 | 0.049741 | 0.125667 | 0 | 0.056344 | 0.029046 | 0.028273 | 0.104947 | 0 | 0.120816 | 0 | 0.068432 | 0 | 0 | 0.200323 | 0 | 0 | 0.08071 |
suicidewatch | MentallyIllMess2003 | 2019/10/31 | If I died it would be easier on everyone I'm a huge mess in general. I hate myself so much. I can't even control myself. My anger has gotten so bad that I scream at my parents for even talking to me. They get mad at me for it (understandably), but it's like I'm not even in control of myself at that point. I have no mot... | 4.660865 | 5.000409 | 5.632007 | 82.949309 | 69.356164 | 8.320429 | 29.02025 | 8.182891 | 1.858117 | 1,407 | 48 | 288 | 18 | 23 | 465 | 186 | 365 | 0.177 | 0.714 | 0.109 | -0.9752 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 43 | 3 | 0 | 9 | 8 | 20 | 24 | 8 | 4 | 14 | 0 | 33 | 5 | 1 | 9 | 6 | 63 | 51 | 22 | 4 | 14 | 14 | 8 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 9 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 13 | 16 | 1 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 14 | 16 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 48 | 8 | 44 | 33 | 15 | 42 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 29 | 22 | 2 | 7 | 19 | 203 | 61 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067383 | 0 | 0.076118 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103385 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150773 | 0 | 0 | 0.062554 | 0.135339 | 0 | 0.086478 | 0.071418 | 0 | 0.063469 | 0.139014 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067229 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078088 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170514 | 0.060692 | 0.084109 | 0 | 0.14707 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.236674 | 0.238258 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.301242 | 0 | 0.064046 | 0.072635 | 0 | 0 | 0.07166 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064658 | 0 | 0 | 0.117458 | 0.070274 | 0.039715 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075049 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076249 | 0 | 0.074859 | 0.087711 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107383 | 0.074274 | 0 | 0.26849 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101481 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089028 | 0.121349 | 0 | 0.167639 | 0.056364 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148957 | 0.072938 | 0 | 0 | 0.080953 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089187 | 0.337622 | 0 | 0 | 0.105398 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071859 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.048697 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121148 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078028 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127104 | 0.174149 | 0 | 0.087019 | 0 | 0.086261 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122196 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.050501 | 0 | 0.074684 | 0 | 0.044325 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079134 | 0 | 0.131305 | 0 | 0.06272 | 0.044836 | 0.060337 | 0.060975 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073276 | 0 | 0 | 0.077197 | 0 | 0.269994 | 0 | 0 | 0.048951 |
suicidewatch | ahumanpersonbeing | 2019/10/31 | is it justified when you know there's no way you can fix it ? i know this sounds cryptic but just stick with me, i'm hopeless. there's no way i can do what i so desperately dream of all the time. it's not about money, it's not about family. it's way above that, i want to start over somewhere else where i don't have fam... | 3.434349 | 4.359369 | 4.457795 | 88.1427 | 72.472803 | 8.13399 | 26.192715 | 8.495291 | 1.513752 | 905 | 29 | 201 | 15 | 17 | 295 | 122 | 239 | 0.199 | 0.643 | 0.158 | -0.9431 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 29 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 16 | 11 | 3 | 0 | 11 | 0 | 15 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 28 | 32 | 7 | 0 | 4 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 24 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 10 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 22 | 5 | 27 | 30 | 7 | 24 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 10 | 1 | 1 | 11 | 132 | 46 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107301 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130581 | 0.172893 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128194 | 0 | 0.135917 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146635 | 0 | 0 | 0.289331 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.240525 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151507 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152417 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1364 | 0 | 0 | 0.253008 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108391 | 0.074971 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16033 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156121 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131051 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118139 | 0 | 0 | 0.108618 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144631 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.357928 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104187 | 0 | 0 | 0.159754 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181026 | 0.487228 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111718 | 0 | 0.156386 | 0.109011 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | hhj29 | 2019/10/31 | On edge Sorry guys this is a really whiny post ://
I think this is the closest I’ve been to just doing it. I’m on my first year of college and I’m struggling so much. I’m incredibly behind in all of my classes and the exams are coming up soon. My Mom and my Uncle also passed away a couple of weeks after I moved for co... | 2.514378 | 3.804441 | 3.715371 | 91.16404 | 75.214099 | 6.255492 | 23.471628 | 6.58834 | 0.488725 | 1,428 | 41 | 318 | 11 | 30 | 465 | 188 | 383 | 0.11 | 0.738 | 0.152 | 0.9726 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 29 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 30 | 18 | 0 | 1 | 23 | 0 | 27 | 3 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 53 | 55 | 23 | 0 | 4 | 15 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 3 | 17 | 16 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 1 | 0 | 13 | 8 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 4 | 33 | 12 | 54 | 41 | 8 | 55 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 19 | 25 | 0 | 5 | 18 | 206 | 50 | 13 | 0.099834 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079837 | 0.08307 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093798 | 0 | 0 | 0.121716 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.217986 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085998 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07971 | 0.110465 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171974 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083399 | 0 | 0.176847 | 0 | 0 | 0.131879 | 0 | 0 | 0.095396 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.050479 | 0.071322 | 0.095857 | 0 | 0 | 0.084919 | 0 | 0 | 0.231395 | 0 | 0.052159 | 0 | 0.170214 | 0 | 0.159693 | 0.110068 | 0 | 0.197703 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.204917 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133834 | 0.10548 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054866 | 0 | 0 | 0.10571 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.195096 | 0 | 0.176311 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13328 | 0.101216 | 0.200594 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116925 | 0 | 0.318324 | 0.07339 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075928 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069212 | 0 | 0.104306 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095614 | 0.101567 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063956 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094965 | 0 | 0 | 0.101038 | 0 | 0.272656 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082584 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111756 | 0 | 0 | 0.079728 | 0.083466 | 0 | 0.104368 | 0 | 0 | 0.113291 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066325 | 0.127939 | 0 | 0 | 0.116428 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067781 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058885 | 0 | 0.080081 | 0 | 0 | 0.092547 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06429 |
suicidewatch | thelatoum | 2019/10/31 | Do other people understand this or feel like this? It’s so morbid but something I’ve always done, if I’m ever in a new setting eg. New workplace, a hospital, a friends house, an event etc I’ll always assess and look around and find what I could end my life with in each setting. When I heard about suicide as a child I n... | 4.960093 | 5.404356 | 5.894389 | 80.961225 | 68.728916 | 8.25152 | 29.062536 | 8.115594 | 1.927901 | 1,303 | 44 | 253 | 16 | 21 | 431 | 175 | 332 | 0.15 | 0.649 | 0.201 | 0.9646 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 26 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 2 | 25 | 25 | 6 | 2 | 18 | 0 | 23 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 66 | 60 | 33 | 1 | 11 | 23 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 2 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 19 | 16 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 13 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 6 | 22 | 11 | 32 | 46 | 8 | 34 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 4 | 20 | 13 | 1 | 11 | 19 | 175 | 41 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078305 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097482 | 0 | 0.147006 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123534 | 0 | 0 | 0.078638 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073757 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078127 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090202 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141059 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180798 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07824 | 0 | 0.098519 | 0.116691 | 0.079906 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166552 | 0 | 0.044666 | 0.063108 | 0 | 0 | 0.080738 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068249 | 0.081666 | 0.046152 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.436071 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05921 | 0.093333 | 0 | 0.087738 | 0 | 0.101929 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097095 | 0 | 0 | 0.187072 | 0 | 0 | 0.187185 | 0.086314 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148361 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.239182 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096225 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131001 | 0.204392 | 0.170632 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084761 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093996 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.306208 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083507 | 0 | 0.084602 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070393 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090048 | 0.074847 | 0.204018 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096626 | 0 | 0 | 0.091816 | 0.066418 | 0.071002 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056603 | 0 | 0.070129 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096085 | 0 | 0.183923 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072887 | 0.104207 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07971 | 0 | 0 | 0.085153 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056886 |
suicidewatch | LowGPAdeath | 2019/10/31 | Give me a reason not to kill myself \-Low GPA (2.2)
\-Ugly
\-Short
\-Mentally unstable
I should die before I drain more resources from society and from this planet... | 3.796034 | 7.084405 | 4.327155 | 76.952112 | 84.517241 | 7.037931 | 24.491379 | 8.076483 | 2.319959 | 133 | 5 | 20 | 3 | 4 | 42 | 27 | 29 | 0.193 | 0.694 | 0.113 | -0.3944 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.346865 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.423057 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.391038 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.450984 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.410797 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.419113 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | idiotcore | 2019/10/31 | i dont deserve to feel this way i have a somewhat good family. other than my abuser but hes moving out of the house next year anyway. i have 2 great dogs. i have a really good best friend and a couple of close ones. i go to a therapist bi-monthly. i have healthy hobbies aside from my less healthy ones.
i shouldn’t co... | 1.504231 | 3.629131 | 2.833077 | 92.561923 | 80.923077 | 5.538462 | 23.076923 | 6.671995 | 0.596154 | 495 | 17 | 105 | 5 | 13 | 160 | 82 | 130 | 0.224 | 0.533 | 0.243 | 0.4604 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 20 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 10 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 20 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 20 | 24 | 11 | 1 | 6 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 16 | 7 | 16 | 14 | 3 | 13 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 79 | 20 | 0 | 0 | 0.209439 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183076 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.199695 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157359 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185505 | 0.156335 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191021 | 0 | 0.141133 | 0.195588 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152248 | 0 | 0.183455 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.207168 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116752 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166639 | 0 | 0.089378 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136569 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10046 | 0.296526 | 0 | 0.194885 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.18817 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.203964 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097146 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141093 | 0.187874 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187992 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.239562 | 0 | 0.188091 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113241 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.205239 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104261 | 0.140308 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180139 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113831 |
suicidewatch | please-kill_me | 2019/10/31 | I can't take it anymore. I need help. I don't think my life will ever get better. Everything is falling apart. | -0.943696 | 1.039112 | 1.530761 | 94.329185 | 103.782609 | 4.03913 | 18.793478 | 5.985473 | 0.060313 | 86 | 3 | 18 | 1 | 4 | 29 | 20 | 23 | 0.072 | 0.676 | 0.252 | 0.6124 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.400279 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.356966 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.365094 | 0 | 0 | 0.362744 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.210873 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.270535 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.285086 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.299276 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.303469 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.258621 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | eclipsejuice64 | 2019/10/31 | Is College Worthy of a Person to Commit Suicide for? I am not happy in the major that I signed up for in college. Matter of fact, I chose that major on an impulse for the sake of earning myself an easy college degree, even if I don’t like the degree I am pursuing. I figured if I at least earn myself a college degree, I... | 6.705058 | 5.730804 | 7.344248 | 76.821532 | 65.303142 | 9.946686 | 35.033074 | 9.042354 | 2.957946 | 2,122 | 85 | 415 | 30 | 28 | 706 | 216 | 541 | 0.133 | 0.779 | 0.088 | -0.9871 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 45 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 11 | 20 | 17 | 0 | 1 | 31 | 0 | 36 | 13 | 1 | 7 | 9 | 86 | 62 | 35 | 7 | 11 | 20 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 27 | 27 | 1 | 1 | 11 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 10 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 1 | 72 | 9 | 93 | 48 | 14 | 58 | 1 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 16 | 31 | 0 | 8 | 20 | 319 | 99 | 33 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065098 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.045302 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066067 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059304 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.051225 | 0 | 0.162438 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068024 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070473 | 0 | 0 | 0.07199 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.042963 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069139 | 0 | 0 | 0.068186 | 0.174893 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17701 | 0.068834 | 0 | 0.088001 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065165 | 0.251205 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072976 | 0.060887 | 0 | 0.080554 | 0.073043 | 0.051469 | 0 | 0 | 0.063906 | 0.075721 | 0 | 0.05328 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070916 | 0 | 0 | 0.068369 | 0.070811 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198323 | 0.059213 | 0 | 0 | 0.036611 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.376432 | 0.065092 | 0 | 0.176474 | 0 | 0.055942 | 0 | 0.145442 | 0 | 0 | 0.063035 | 0.088936 | 0.06754 | 0 | 0.072566 | 0 | 0 | 0.13427 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097943 | 0.049396 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070946 | 0 | 0 | 0.070886 | 0 | 0.147942 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058168 | 0 | 0 | 0.12595 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063744 | 0 | 0.066969 | 0 | 0.070856 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113782 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134841 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.275534 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053201 | 0 | 0 | 0.069643 | 0 | 0.437213 | 0 | 0.062786 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061333 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105774 | 0.077691 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069351 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.196464 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0429 |
suicidewatch | oolo2332 | 2019/10/31 | I’m tired of fighting with the suicidal thoughts I thought I overcome the depression but now I saw them coming again,I just can’t be a normal person right? I hate to see the people I love from supporting me to realized I’m not gonna to recovery overnight,I’m problematic.
Of course they don’t deserve it but when they wa... | 3.310787 | 4.77834 | 4.545412 | 85.294703 | 73.487805 | 8.051829 | 27.446646 | 8.660443 | 1.949201 | 798 | 30 | 165 | 15 | 16 | 263 | 107 | 205 | 0.143 | 0.603 | 0.254 | 0.9878 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 19 | 1 | 4 | 8 | 0 | 11 | 14 | 2 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 16 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 37 | 42 | 14 | 1 | 7 | 16 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 13 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 7 | 35 | 9 | 15 | 25 | 3 | 14 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 6 | 24 | 3 | 0 | 5 | 9 | 112 | 40 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096815 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110535 | 0 | 0.098232 | 0.143435 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128442 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101344 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10133 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118973 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125239 | 0 | 0.116154 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057477 | 0.117915 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.637094 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181476 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.230541 | 0 | 0.267887 | 0 | 0.125292 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081563 | 0.102726 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126845 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100471 | 0.223821 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187501 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083272 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128688 | 0.133506 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10283 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1868 | 0 | 0.13522 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079876 | 0 | 0 | 0.122476 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069392 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106159 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | konjiar41613 | 2019/10/31 | I can not sleep anymore
At least sleep was good, for me. But now,whenever I fell sleep, I will have nightmares and wake up.
I'm not going to sleep anymore | 0.2325 | 2.550227 | 1.5425 | 98.2525 | 89 | 4.45 | 20.5 | 5.985473 | -0.070525 | 120 | 4 | 27 | 1 | 4 | 38 | 24 | 32 | 0 | 0.9 | 0.1 | 0.4404 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 4 | 4 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 17 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.432995 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124066 | 0.183102 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.87384 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | ThatOneUser1987 | 2019/10/31 | Need someone to talk to Can someone please just PM me before I go insane. I'm probably going to do it finally tonight. I just need someone who can pretend to care about me and my issues. | 1.540263 | 3.830485 | 3.641316 | 85.876711 | 81.894737 | 5.905263 | 27.921053 | 7.168622 | 1.711558 | 147 | 7 | 28 | 2 | 4 | 50 | 27 | 38 | 0.101 | 0.764 | 0.135 | 0.34 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 9 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 5 | 9 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 18 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206266 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.247145 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.265539 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.275525 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.253004 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.359475 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.266084 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.26135 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.616158 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194833 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | nerf__or__nothing | 2019/10/31 | I'm just done I'm done existing, chasing after happiness that I know will never come. My entire life I've been a sad, pathetic loser. No friends. No sports I'm good at. My parents were there but always just there. They were always high on something or drunk. I have no idea how to act around other people, how to speak, ... | 1.827053 | 3.890406 | 3.3877 | 89.327683 | 79.48 | 5.766667 | 20.816667 | 6.816662 | 0.425867 | 479 | 13 | 98 | 5 | 12 | 158 | 82 | 125 | 0.314 | 0.641 | 0.044 | -0.9893 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 18 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 12 | 9 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 12 | 3 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 24 | 22 | 9 | 1 | 4 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 9 | 3 | 15 | 11 | 0 | 16 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 6 | 1 | 2 | 5 | 64 | 13 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.454111 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180414 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161946 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156706 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156686 | 0 | 0.188802 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.372331 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140549 | 0.16818 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152584 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193655 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192206 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.205363 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099977 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128494 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160992 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140306 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.201998 | 0 | 0 | 0.126119 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174227 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140049 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152092 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106078 | 0 | 0 | 0.17383 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.2146 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132438 | 0 | 0 | 0.129229 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Rubdown007 | 2019/10/31 | Maybe, just fucking maybe I've been through one of the roughest few weeks in my life. Almost divorced, almost quit my job and alienated those that care for me the most, felt completely worthless and ever broken...
Then something happened; I've found a truth. It's not the answer to all of my problems, but it gives me pe... | 6.067644 | 8.158082 | 6.283198 | 73.082733 | 67.531073 | 10.378228 | 32.913555 | 10.540113 | 3.992271 | 2,370 | 106 | 390 | 69 | 41 | 757 | 227 | 531 | 0.172 | 0.627 | 0.201 | 0.9594 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 90 | 30 | 13 | 4 | 13 | 15 | 49 | 12 | 2 | 29 | 0 | 45 | 12 | 0 | 5 | 16 | 125 | 82 | 28 | 0 | 15 | 21 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 27 | 49 | 0 | 1 | 15 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 13 | 28 | 0 | 3 | 7 | 5 | 58 | 21 | 58 | 70 | 24 | 53 | 1 | 6 | 1 | 6 | 65 | 32 | 2 | 9 | 16 | 288 | 85 | 8 | 0.059708 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119579 | 0.12368 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062609 | 0.13703 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.212613 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109193 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.250641 | 0.052807 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060877 | 0 | 0 | 0.051433 | 0.125206 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062383 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.049879 | 0 | 0 | 0.061695 | 0 | 0 | 0.05401 | 0.100614 | 0.228216 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134377 | 0.060381 | 0 | 0.057329 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065467 | 0 | 0.110399 | 0.093586 | 0.229111 | 0.033934 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1584 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059304 | 0 | 0 | 0.127838 | 0 | 0.128991 | 0 | 0.059251 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065628 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084348 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05284 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.215557 | 0 | 0.119567 | 0 | 0.299926 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.044273 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175505 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12138 | 0 | 0.127068 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.041394 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056444 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.228531 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063507 | 0.059725 | 0 | 0.191254 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.050991 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151772 | 0.045966 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.047683 | 0.049919 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056274 | 0 | 0.044893 | 0.095983 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.038259 | 0 | 0 | 0.069633 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162152 | 0 | 0 | 0.124317 | 0.287287 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094787 | 0.047894 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053878 | 0 | 0 | 0.057557 | 0 | 0.173874 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Trunyan17 | 2019/10/31 | I know I need help but I don't want it When I look in the mirror, I see nothing worth saving. I see someone who's not good at/for anything. I see someone who has the personality of a rock. I see someone who serves no purpose in this world. God I wish I could end it. But I don't. I want life to mean something. I want to... | -1.741032 | 0.148699 | 1.027646 | 101.11256 | 95.017699 | 3.721298 | 18.152802 | 5.2151 | -0.760471 | 382 | 12 | 99 | 2 | 15 | 131 | 64 | 113 | 0.133 | 0.786 | 0.081 | -0.2937 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 20 | 24 | 7 | 0 | 7 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 9 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 15 | 2 | 11 | 22 | 1 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 8 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 58 | 24 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123904 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15928 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120216 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133358 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143873 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078665 | 0.288875 | 0 | 0.126289 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100922 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082748 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10635 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126438 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164012 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111644 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.288946 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131469 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154808 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119737 | 0 | 0 | 0.47993 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.382725 | 0.115914 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120243 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087797 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.355234 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173145 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09696 |
suicidewatch | BPDian | 2019/10/31 | Vsed Is vsed really painless??
Help me out guys | 0.183333 | 1.796966 | 1.898333 | 89.4675 | 114.555556 | 6.244444 | 15.611111 | 7.168622 | 0.925178 | 37 | 1 | 7 | 1 | 2 | 12 | 8 | 9 | 0 | 0.546 | 0.454 | 0.7033 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.729936 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.494125 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.472264 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | silenttheorie | 2019/10/31 | Life sucks Two nights ago I took an od and went to sleep and woke up and began again today but my friend came over. I feel so over it. | -1.509 | 0.441714 | -0.078333 | 108.9825 | 94.666667 | 3 | 7.5 | 3.1291 | -2.673 | 103 | 0 | 28 | 0 | 4 | 32 | 26 | 30 | 0.055 | 0.811 | 0.134 | 0.5499 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 7 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 16 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.291083 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.375571 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166035 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.2537 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.23194 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.308156 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.32861 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.311259 | 0 | 0.364835 | 0 | 0 | 0.320773 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.304405 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | cululabix | 2019/10/31 | I’m on my last final long walk Today started off so good. I woke up with 8 hours of sleep went to work, came home and secured a new apartment in the middle of a housing crisis.
But two of my roommates immediately dropped out as soon as I secured it. I can’t afford it alone. I berated them and now I’ve been kicked ou... | 0.914502 | 2.401033 | 2.838683 | 94.931454 | 80.036269 | 5.370192 | 21.715635 | 5.900189 | 0.00658 | 683 | 20 | 163 | 4 | 17 | 229 | 115 | 193 | 0.086 | 0.746 | 0.167 | 0.9399 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 23 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 11 | 12 | 1 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 10 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 19 | 24 | 12 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 10 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 8 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 1 | 23 | 9 | 25 | 17 | 2 | 39 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 7 | 14 | 0 | 2 | 17 | 96 | 29 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.299893 | 0 | 0 | 0.120467 | 0 | 0 | 0.098454 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11914 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165588 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124714 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09337 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191249 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158597 | 0.264649 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.335566 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082281 | 0.121433 | 0 | 0.159618 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142939 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145224 | 0 | 0.142577 | 0.167055 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14367 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118014 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102261 | 0.070731 | 0 | 0 | 0.128124 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.279655 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098105 | 0.220221 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151262 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12364 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131801 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144883 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102475 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092768 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.274466 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141427 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085394 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134211 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1054 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093232 |
suicidewatch | nothing_left_ | 2019/10/31 | if anyone reads this thank you I can't take It anymore. It's all so overwhelming & no one is listening. I've been practically alone my entire life, I dropped out of school In 8th grade because my anxiety was so severe I just couldn't couldn't go & no one cared enough to make me go. Which means i'm an actual idi... | 2.579788 | 3.668946 | 4.35533 | 87.436722 | 74.731132 | 7.84717 | 23.863208 | 8.376593 | 1.234409 | 1,565 | 45 | 352 | 27 | 32 | 531 | 200 | 424 | 0.135 | 0.833 | 0.032 | -0.987 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 59 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 17 | 18 | 3 | 2 | 12 | 0 | 33 | 4 | 0 | 4 | 6 | 48 | 70 | 14 | 1 | 5 | 11 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 23 | 9 | 1 | 4 | 8 | 2 | 3 | 7 | 17 | 9 | 0 | 2 | 12 | 2 | 55 | 9 | 47 | 53 | 9 | 54 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 23 | 24 | 1 | 5 | 23 | 207 | 78 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0.049955 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106036 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.831973 | 0 | 0.139245 | 0 | 0.039161 | 0 | 0.050767 | 0.035794 | 0 | 0.042125 | 0.04557 | 0.047856 | 0 | 0.09619 | 0.039362 | 0 | 0.093616 | 0.056536 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052271 | 0.058548 | 0.052192 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05623 | 0.033014 | 0 | 0.04409 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.042763 | 0 | 0 | 0.052893 | 0 | 0.067622 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096516 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079099 | 0.047325 | 0.026745 | 0 | 0.116371 | 0.042936 | 0.040942 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.034312 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.050412 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152396 | 0.091001 | 0 | 0 | 0.056266 | 0.041727 | 0.057745 | 0.054203 | 0 | 0.052346 | 0.072315 | 0.050018 | 0 | 0.135606 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06834 | 0 | 0.051428 | 0.111523 | 0 | 0 | 0.051588 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.04086 | 0 | 0.037631 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069376 | 0.077865 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.048392 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.048982 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.051204 | 0.058266 | 0.032794 | 0 | 0.050544 | 0 | 0.057989 | 0.043716 | 0 | 0 | 0.051251 | 0.051808 | 0.040792 | 0 | 0 | 0.057831 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054562 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055994 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076978 | 0 | 0 | 0.047129 | 0 | 0 | 0.068017 | 0.032801 | 0 | 0 | 0.089549 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056875 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.030193 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.049346 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06593 |
suicidewatch | panda19691 | 2019/10/31 | Is it a stupid question? I think being asked “do you want you hurt yourself” is a stupid question like no I want the pain to stop .... that’s the point | -1.526022 | 0.095304 | -0.252419 | 106.074704 | 110.290323 | 2.066667 | 14.844086 | 3.1291 | -1.604037 | 114 | 3 | 27 | 0 | 6 | 35 | 23 | 31 | 0.437 | 0.439 | 0.124 | -0.93 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 16 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.272088 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.31157 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14219 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.309693 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.275132 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.652075 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.243327 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.18649 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.343332 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | KodaLG | 2019/10/31 | Do you feel that way about this sub too? I have to be very careful with what I say here. No offense to anybody, but do you feel like some of the posts on here are just edgy teenagers who are sad? Like, you read some of the titles and read the description and it’s like “No fucking way you’re gonna kill yourself. You’re ... | 0.984031 | 3.095054 | 1.526672 | 101.280506 | 82.773585 | 4.231904 | 19.070326 | 4.851558 | -0.72663 | 396 | 10 | 93 | 1 | 11 | 120 | 64 | 106 | 0.173 | 0.683 | 0.144 | -0.6812 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 10 | 3 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 17 | 14 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 7 | 6 | 11 | 12 | 3 | 11 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 4 | 1 | 3 | 8 | 61 | 16 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184899 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.275089 | 0.259114 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167656 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.200637 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.442993 | 0.181761 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182191 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.245776 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.347367 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.362799 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144217 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116202 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.199732 | 0.149633 | 0 | 0.287895 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | stressedandbored | 2019/10/31 | Not Allowed to Enjoy Anything I have no sex drive. I can't get wet. Can't get turned on even by things I used to like such as masturbation and porn. My ex boyfriend tries to pleasure me and nothing happens. I dumped my boyfriend because he deserves someone better than me after five years of struggling with a dead bedro... | 2.2122 | 4.226013 | 3.767466 | 87.320092 | 78.019608 | 6.007945 | 26.784568 | 6.980633 | 1.298758 | 1,382 | 57 | 275 | 15 | 33 | 458 | 194 | 357 | 0.176 | 0.746 | 0.078 | -0.9885 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 44 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 20 | 24 | 3 | 1 | 11 | 0 | 34 | 9 | 3 | 4 | 5 | 49 | 59 | 23 | 1 | 4 | 10 | 2 | 7 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 12 | 12 | 1 | 3 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 15 | 11 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 8 | 50 | 13 | 38 | 44 | 6 | 32 | 2 | 5 | 1 | 4 | 15 | 12 | 2 | 7 | 17 | 192 | 62 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098063 | 0 | 0 | 0.078315 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066596 | 0.102688 | 0.074916 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161176 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092009 | 0 | 0 | 0.119395 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086611 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078189 | 0 | 0 | 0.063157 | 0 | 0.084347 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100207 | 0.081808 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194046 | 0 | 0.08251 | 0.187153 | 0.088013 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198066 | 0.069961 | 0 | 0 | 0.089506 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090535 | 0.153493 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.234971 | 0 | 0 | 0.096966 | 0.173199 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097181 | 0.17409 | 0 | 0 | 0.10764 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143531 | 0 | 0.086474 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083257 | 0 | 0 | 0.130738 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07199 | 0 | 0.07553 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.2819 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14896 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093706 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09911 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098001 | 0 | 0.082976 | 0.075391 | 0.193711 | 0 | 0.069315 | 0.10438 | 0.234621 | 0 | 0 | 0.102378 | 0.112107 | 0 | 0 | 0.276894 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06506 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093576 | 0 | 0.265952 | 0.10652 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08458 | 0 | 0.080803 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142589 | 0 | 0.099799 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063064 |
suicidewatch | theGreatestFucktard | 2019/10/31 | My mom just yelled at me after having one shit ass day at work. I don’t mean to ramble here, but I recently pissed my mom off and she yelled at me. Very angrily.
I have had such a shitty day at work and a shitty past few weeks, but it’s not like that matters to her.
If I didn’t have to deal with bullshit work all go... | 0.893156 | 2.46861 | 2.195333 | 99.113222 | 80.4 | 5.244444 | 19.611111 | 5.822114 | -0.405372 | 712 | 17 | 176 | 4 | 18 | 228 | 106 | 200 | 0.338 | 0.574 | 0.088 | -0.9972 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 22 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 9 | 17 | 9 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 18 | 8 | 4 | 3 | 1 | 34 | 38 | 13 | 3 | 6 | 8 | 3 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 11 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 5 | 30 | 7 | 26 | 29 | 4 | 26 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 14 | 12 | 7 | 2 | 15 | 115 | 41 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105731 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118423 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.217398 | 0 | 0 | 0.091837 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117109 | 0.275026 | 0.219826 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093298 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094427 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107813 | 0.076164 | 0 | 0.116789 | 0.097442 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.394247 | 0.055701 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106941 | 0.105891 | 0 | 0.123017 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.235902 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156257 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14233 | 0 | 0 | 0.348398 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.374591 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072244 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101774 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105267 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109436 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068313 | 0 | 0 | 0.062167 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110988 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087967 | 0.062883 | 0 | 0.085518 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096201 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.232846 | 0 | 0 | 0.151469 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | neednewdepressionact | 2019/10/31 | oh boy I am making another worthless post on this subreddit here we go I am going to rant about my despair and emotional pain to a bunch of strangers yet again. I don't mean to brag but i am something of a regular here. I never stay on one account for very long so that is why i seem new. i also delete all my posts very... | -0.168444 | 1.930717 | 2.15672 | 94.937303 | 87.83871 | 5.767025 | 19.578853 | 7.168622 | 0.347165 | 558 | 17 | 131 | 9 | 18 | 189 | 98 | 155 | 0.264 | 0.675 | 0.062 | -0.9906 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 11 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 10 | 5 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 16 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 19 | 27 | 9 | 3 | 3 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 6 | 9 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 23 | 1 | 14 | 20 | 3 | 13 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 2 | 2 | 5 | 6 | 90 | 29 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115024 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097812 | 0.150823 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149277 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147192 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161794 | 0 | 0.148619 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129269 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.265945 | 0 | 0 | 0.163489 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142006 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096409 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155366 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.318262 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.203189 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127289 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09601 | 0 | 0 | 0.156678 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145232 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110934 | 0.138916 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194932 | 0 | 0.15305 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157887 | 0 | 0 | 0.275507 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092144 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130941 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110731 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153308 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.237357 | 0.084837 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.389364 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102176 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Loose_Arrow | 2019/10/31 | Next time I write a note will be it I've written a few. Given myself years to get over shit. I'm tired. | -2.92625 | -1.377508 | 0.025 | 105.57 | 106.083333 | 2.4 | 10.166667 | 3.1291 | -2.192633 | 79 | 1 | 21 | 0 | 4 | 27 | 21 | 24 | 0.277 | 0.723 | 0 | -0.7579 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 10 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.24538 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.499493 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.482103 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.273865 | 0.53981 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.302448 |
suicidewatch | ChelseaZuger | 2019/10/31 | There's no other solution than suicide I've been on and off depressed for a long while but it's gotten to the point where existing is simply too much of a painful inconvenience that I don't want to live anymore. I don't want to think another thought ever again. | 6.243333 | 6.043848 | 6.662264 | 78.763711 | 65.981132 | 10.085535 | 34.647799 | 9.725611 | 3.150376 | 212 | 9 | 42 | 4 | 3 | 69 | 44 | 53 | 0.302 | 0.668 | 0.031 | -0.9121 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 9 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 8 | 6 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 30 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.310549 | 0 | 0 | 0.29371 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.255081 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.267893 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.261514 | 0.262091 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.217711 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.315134 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.279966 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.32395 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189767 | 0 | 0.235117 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.349365 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | CcProfileCc | 2019/10/31 | I don't want to hurt my mom ......not again. I don't know how much longer I can fight it though, I'm so tired. | -0.618846 | -0.211047 | 1.28 | 109.04 | 81.692308 | 5.2 | 13 | 3.1291 | -1.9714 | 79 | 0 | 26 | 0 | 2 | 26 | 21 | 26 | 0.287 | 0.607 | 0.105 | -0.5841 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 15 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.437245 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.224469 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.478362 | 0 | 0 | 0.300252 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.401292 | 0 | 0 | 0.469443 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.240909 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | wisteriiaa | 2019/10/31 | "attempting" suicide is the only way to get them to understand and help me. I'll start out by saying that i am severely depressed, and in extreme suffering everyday, I am suicidal but I can't actually bring myself to do anything, I just want help but my family refuses to believe that I'm bad, they stick me in useless ... | 4.006896 | 4.846652 | 5.937633 | 78.378162 | 71.06422 | 9.666544 | 31.50581 | 9.888513 | 3.100294 | 841 | 37 | 168 | 21 | 15 | 293 | 114 | 218 | 0.197 | 0.694 | 0.109 | -0.9804 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 18 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 11 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 14 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 36 | 37 | 12 | 4 | 8 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 8 | 1 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 27 | 1 | 35 | 36 | 0 | 23 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 17 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 112 | 36 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.205925 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11432 | 0.128206 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086826 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176193 | 0.128636 | 0 | 0.089781 | 0.237747 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107737 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090876 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123657 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09345 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099465 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115581 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165374 | 0 | 0.059964 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116231 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.353605 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057985 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114637 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105749 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10697 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078234 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202479 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16049 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073147 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135185 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167811 | 0 | 0 | 0.084078 | 0 | 0 | 0.119196 | 0 | 0 | 0.118598 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07468 | 0 | 0.08426 | 0.088211 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.346232 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12066 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061524 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143269 | 0 | 0 | 0.10984 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.373395 | 0.083749 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128206 | 0.13589 |
suicidewatch | imweirdasfbro | 2019/10/31 | Not existing is the answer. Suicide is a way to not exist.
Living and existing is suffering
But if your dead, your not suffering.
Hence, being non-existant is the answer.
No pain, no joy, no heart breaks, no torture...
Just nothing | 2.031429 | 4.89181 | 3.997143 | 78.872857 | 89.47619 | 7.561905 | 26.047619 | 8.3441 | 2.81159 | 178 | 8 | 29 | 5 | 6 | 60 | 29 | 42 | 0.445 | 0.493 | 0.062 | -0.9694 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 13 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 5 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 22 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.481239 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.3586 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.389671 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.432127 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.444216 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.322349 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | rather-beasquid | 2019/10/31 | I’m alone, i feel alone. Idk what the point is anymore. Waiting for the right moment to just do it. telling myself that it’s going to be ok. I feel alone and confused. There’s nothing stopping me, but me. God i feel so alone. | -0.736049 | 1.435436 | 0.837082 | 101.02 | 96.87234 | 2.685714 | 19.480243 | 3.1291 | -0.810031 | 173 | 6 | 39 | 0 | 7 | 55 | 34 | 47 | 0.208 | 0.676 | 0.116 | -0.3352 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 9 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 1 | 3 | 8 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 23 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.832283 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.199238 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.304742 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114175 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192768 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189914 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171567 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16796 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175595 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | emovibes | 2019/10/31 | i want to go away i want to go away. i want to die but i know i wont do it, i dont to make my mom sad or disappoint her even more. i do that all the time i have no future i dont know what im doing and i dont know what i can do to fix it i just want to leave and stop thinking | -4.147732 | -2.936641 | 0.181553 | 108.207702 | 97.90411 | 3.79239 | 10.850837 | 5.033349 | -1.989233 | 205 | 2 | 69 | 1 | 9 | 78 | 38 | 73 | 0.251 | 0.677 | 0.072 | -0.9343 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 16 | 21 | 4 | 1 | 4 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 14 | 0 | 8 | 20 | 2 | 7 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 47 | 19 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.329419 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181944 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.616386 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115791 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.199265 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189365 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.289037 | 0 | 0 | 0.185628 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117021 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.205321 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146567 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112332 | 0 | 0 | 0.102225 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.41361 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | rasalghul212 | 2019/10/31 | I don’t know what to do anymore to feel better empty,confused,depressed and numb...[M/17]
i literally don’t know if anyone would care if i jumped under a train right now..
Im at a weird time of my life and i have no idea to relate to anyone or to anything and i feel like a true anomaly that fucks everything up.
I lit... | 2.433251 | 3.851155 | 4.176683 | 87.254483 | 75.666667 | 6.350739 | 23.922824 | 6.86897 | 0.767655 | 326 | 10 | 69 | 3 | 7 | 110 | 61 | 87 | 0.085 | 0.79 | 0.125 | 0.4678 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 18 | 16 | 7 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 8 | 5 | 11 | 14 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 4 | 5 | 42 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.210586 | 0.296948 | 0 | 0.174739 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187799 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.216496 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.18289 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188072 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190839 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.214733 | 0.151697 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.196306 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.210903 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.239708 | 0.229365 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.233395 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.299966 | 0.103739 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178314 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.213326 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163771 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181339 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169209 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168576 | 0.123818 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150841 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | chaotic-yet-chill | 2019/10/31 | I feel like I'm losing my mind "I decided to reach out to my PCP and try to bring up that I want to see a psychiatrist. I keep having periods where I want to go away. But also where I dont feel like anything? It's kind of whatever. I grew up being mentally and physically abused by my grandma, but she moved away a long ... | 1.615407 | 3.9086 | 3.316243 | 88.301062 | 81.61708 | 6.024909 | 24.428665 | 7.273562 | 1.168398 | 1,408 | 54 | 283 | 20 | 38 | 467 | 178 | 363 | 0.163 | 0.703 | 0.134 | -0.9634 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 42 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 15 | 19 | 2 | 3 | 8 | 1 | 21 | 7 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 57 | 64 | 24 | 0 | 15 | 11 | 8 | 9 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 16 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 12 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 13 | 57 | 7 | 32 | 48 | 1 | 53 | 1 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 25 | 21 | 1 | 4 | 22 | 165 | 69 | 3 | 0 | 0.169297 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12666 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057133 | 0.059446 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074914 | 0 | 0 | 0.141705 | 0.049955 | 0 | 0.176375 | 0.0636 | 0 | 0 | 0.20137 | 0 | 0 | 0.130653 | 0 | 0 | 0.080492 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072841 | 0.146784 | 0.075577 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156954 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14625 | 0 | 0 | 0.418654 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.047188 | 0 | 0 | 0.136534 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.288991 | 0.153117 | 0.068597 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055197 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.203014 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075941 | 0 | 0 | 0.095774 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063502 | 0 | 0.074397 | 0.039263 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077623 | 0 | 0 | 0.139614 | 0 | 0.126171 | 0.063225 | 0 | 0.079927 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067601 | 0 | 0 | 0.071774 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143996 | 0 | 0.072137 | 0.083673 | 0.057025 | 0.151866 | 0 | 0.052974 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067045 | 0 | 0.068552 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054336 | 0 | 0 | 0.079329 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062381 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068423 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183036 | 0.135918 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056931 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059099 | 0 | 0.071495 | 0 | 0 | 0.110001 | 0.070659 | 0 | 0.050568 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107433 | 0.057423 | 0.062444 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056718 | 0.083318 | 0.082113 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.048505 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.294973 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072554 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | SinisterDuuude | 2019/10/31 | Color black So many wrong decision in my life taken and I'm still very young, whenever I close my eyes and think about what I think my future will be or what I would like it to be, all I see is black. I don't see my self getting a degree on whatever I'm supposed to be studying, neither getting a job in something I love... | 7.535031 | 4.715718 | 8.184969 | 77.345901 | 64.962733 | 10.93913 | 32.937888 | 8.841846 | 2.521407 | 597 | 16 | 127 | 7 | 7 | 202 | 103 | 161 | 0.062 | 0.854 | 0.084 | 0.0508 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 16 | 6 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 22 | 31 | 11 | 1 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 19 | 5 | 15 | 21 | 8 | 21 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 2 | 9 | 0 | 3 | 12 | 84 | 28 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133076 | 0 | 0 | 0.155483 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091514 | 0.1658 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163896 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158811 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166109 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155805 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134922 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156867 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132754 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159575 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148975 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153512 | 0.106037 | 0.146686 | 0 | 0.132562 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135493 | 0 | 0 | 0.152202 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151582 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110358 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15753 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141916 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150916 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192346 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.239259 | 0 | 0.156612 | 0 | 0 | 0.124184 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.231146 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160012 | 0.119889 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.28858 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123868 | 0.088547 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134979 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172635 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.213287 | 0.164137 | 0 | 0.19335 |
suicidewatch | Nohopeforfuture17 | 2019/10/31 | Inching closer to ending it every day I am a 17 year old male, 5 foot 9 inches, with thinning hair and am almost fat enough to be considered obese. I was always the wierd kid because I thought that since they weren't interested in who I was I might as well be the kid who will say out of the box stuff or do anything str... | 8.383405 | 5.680032 | 8.513345 | 75.288459 | 63.244604 | 11.71271 | 35.756595 | 9.928628 | 3.156308 | 1,076 | 35 | 226 | 17 | 12 | 355 | 153 | 278 | 0.109 | 0.766 | 0.126 | 0.8375 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 7 | 13 | 2 | 0 | 16 | 0 | 35 | 4 | 3 | 3 | 2 | 42 | 45 | 19 | 0 | 4 | 7 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 6 | 10 | 18 | 2 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 11 | 8 | 27 | 11 | 37 | 22 | 3 | 39 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 20 | 22 | 0 | 10 | 14 | 158 | 37 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110141 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091522 | 0 | 0 | 0.074798 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181028 | 0.097916 | 0 | 0 | 0.103341 | 0 | 0 | 0.06705 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.283743 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09742 | 0.227302 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092673 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103691 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169959 | 0 | 0.114933 | 0 | 0 | 0.276768 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124168 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073421 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.233368 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116904 | 0 | 0 | 0.169665 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125227 | 0.115418 | 0 | 0.074533 | 0.083654 | 0 | 0 | 0.122133 | 0 | 0 | 0.152509 | 0.288122 | 0 | 0 | 0.103978 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125195 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11809 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.26241 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090987 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084677 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117237 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125915 | 0 | 0.124818 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146148 | 0.070478 | 0 | 0.174643 | 0.064137 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074677 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.272265 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098896 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080076 | 0 | 0 | 0.15627 | 0 | 0 | 0.070831 |
suicidewatch | nokidot422 | 2019/10/31 | A witty, exciting and eye-catching title I don't know if this is a good place to vent. I'm scared.
I tried to remember when I was last time genuinely happy. I did, but found out that I don't feel anything. I *know* it was a fond and warm memory, but it's not anymore.
I feel like I'm losing something. Time flies by ve... | 1.149599 | 3.15722 | 2.896598 | 92.263663 | 81.507289 | 6.251038 | 21.166952 | 7.399635 | 0.613007 | 1,277 | 38 | 284 | 19 | 34 | 423 | 163 | 343 | 0.113 | 0.757 | 0.131 | 0.8764 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 53 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 14 | 19 | 0 | 1 | 13 | 0 | 30 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 5 | 88 | 68 | 24 | 0 | 9 | 22 | 0 | 10 | 5 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 23 | 17 | 0 | 1 | 24 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 18 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 16 | 13 | 39 | 17 | 31 | 46 | 5 | 37 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 7 | 14 | 0 | 9 | 22 | 188 | 62 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07861 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065321 | 0 | 0 | 0.053385 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155709 | 0.109783 | 0 | 0.129204 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066801 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160079 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.050628 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08202 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155553 | 0 | 0.066143 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074006 | 0 | 0.277856 | 0.224332 | 0.150751 | 0 | 0 | 0.066775 | 0 | 0.17215 | 0.060652 | 0 | 0.041015 | 0 | 0.089231 | 0.13169 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083569 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.258861 | 0.063991 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191764 | 0.078681 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087825 | 0 | 0.066741 | 0 | 0 | 0.052402 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158532 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058209 | 0.060547 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076917 | 0 | 0.268131 | 0 | 0 | 0.159588 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068546 | 0.08202 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075185 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083498 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177858 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078596 | 0 | 0.125114 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064939 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060436 | 0.155284 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062693 | 0.065633 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073989 | 0 | 0 | 0.063098 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.208617 | 0.050302 | 0 | 0.062323 | 0.183104 | 0 | 0.074412 | 0 | 0 | 0.106598 | 0.085389 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.271208 | 0 | 0.194321 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070837 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111533 | 0 | 0 | 0.101107 |
suicidewatch | BeeeMOe | 2019/10/31 | I called 911 on my girlfriend. I don't know what's happening She lives on the other side of town and I don't have a car. She tried to slit her wrists but the knives were too dull, thank fuck. I called 911 and they said they were going to see if she was okay.
She suddenly went offline, so I think they're taking her to ... | 1.725476 | 3.734127 | 3.020873 | 92.106071 | 79.555556 | 6.104762 | 23.198413 | 7.168622 | 0.724013 | 479 | 16 | 105 | 6 | 12 | 155 | 80 | 126 | 0.131 | 0.79 | 0.079 | -0.7444 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 14 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 29 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 22 | 3 | 8 | 20 | 1 | 13 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 19 | 5 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 64 | 27 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132026 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.442307 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16733 | 0.200226 | 0.113155 | 0 | 0.246176 | 0 | 0.17322 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191522 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.244494 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.238054 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191245 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16472 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.253172 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206018 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172587 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.216737 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162842 | 0 | 0 | 0.199399 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138776 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147044 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.200773 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.219948 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139471 |
suicidewatch | PunkRockFan1313 | 2019/10/31 | I want to die I dont understand why I want to die, I just feel so tired and useless all the time. I'm happily married and I'm away from the abuse I used to face every day, but im still so sad and my husband doesnt understand his advice is "let go" or "get over it". I feel like I ruin his life because I'm always so sad.... | -0.543854 | 0.841146 | 2.705417 | 94.664583 | 84.104167 | 5.933333 | 20.041667 | 6.937598 | 0.171592 | 317 | 9 | 81 | 4 | 9 | 115 | 61 | 96 | 0.254 | 0.596 | 0.151 | -0.9247 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 6 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 17 | 20 | 9 | 2 | 2 | 5 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 12 | 2 | 10 | 17 | 2 | 10 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 47 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 0.215891 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178055 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151615 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171194 | 0 | 0 | 0.111074 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117511 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.378214 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.213551 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164821 | 0.153521 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184263 | 0.130172 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095198 | 0 | 0.103555 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193968 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19682 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186324 | 0.257403 | 0.089019 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172249 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145514 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106249 | 0.209425 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.379377 | 0 | 0.157372 | 0 | 0 | 0.214946 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164418 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | throwaway_agg | 2019/10/31 | I don’t know if I want to die I guess what I’m trying to say is that I don’t know if I should kill myself or not. If I had the choice I’d rather just get away from everything for a month or so and just be alone with myself and no one else. That way I won’t disappoint anyone anymore and I can finally get some peace in m... | 3.638118 | 3.142008 | 4.644706 | 92.041176 | 71.470588 | 8.211765 | 22.882353 | 7.554174 | 0.527988 | 299 | 5 | 75 | 3 | 5 | 98 | 61 | 85 | 0.184 | 0.759 | 0.057 | -0.8934 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 9 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 20 | 17 | 9 | 2 | 6 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 11 | 0 | 8 | 12 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 7 | 3 | 51 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.232803 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.22292 | 0.157171 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.211187 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144964 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.233285 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187774 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202017 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.246234 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.234875 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.247619 | 0 | 0.198771 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.248685 | 0 | 0.247065 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158768 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.225821 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179416 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.304632 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178753 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173046 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15261 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13258 | 0.178419 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | krobeetrumeed | 2019/10/31 | I literally just want physical contact with another human. Please ffs, I would take handholding. A hug. Literally anything at this point. I'm so depraved I just want someone to love me and hold me. I just want it to end. No one close to me can understand the pain of never having been touched by another human being... | 2.591818 | 4.863687 | 4.495678 | 81.289593 | 77.947368 | 7.654226 | 29.661882 | 8.57599 | 2.562625 | 456 | 22 | 87 | 10 | 11 | 155 | 71 | 114 | 0.077 | 0.709 | 0.214 | 0.9136 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 13 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 24 | 25 | 7 | 0 | 8 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 14 | 3 | 15 | 18 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 11 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 61 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.334594 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111558 | 0 | 0.131292 | 0 | 0.298306 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097257 | 0 | 0 | 0.179753 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14131 | 0 | 0 | 0.105378 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156066 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123264 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.320819 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087682 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140881 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143996 | 0 | 0.106498 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123051 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153088 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108112 | 0 | 0.169767 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110609 | 0 | 0 | 0.175133 | 0.150822 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179335 | 0 | 0 | 0.135182 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119958 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166092 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.376416 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.340009 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | dddd222222 | 2019/10/31 | I’ve been decideding for months since I have too much anxiety to get through a day, my thought when I wake up is a panic attack about how much time I have to get through. I’m a true candidate for suicide and I’m gonna make it happen I have immediately family that would care which stops me, but me and a girlfriend of ye... | 6.28063 | 6.764546 | 6.649685 | 76.553306 | 65.870229 | 9.908779 | 32.405534 | 9.827889 | 3.045724 | 543 | 21 | 101 | 11 | 8 | 176 | 83 | 131 | 0.208 | 0.662 | 0.129 | -0.8735 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 11 | 2 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 13 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 5 | 20 | 30 | 10 | 3 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 9 | 7 | 17 | 23 | 4 | 16 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 68 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153854 | 0.224489 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166921 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089442 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.259534 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149596 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153839 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189252 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123623 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13832 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11336 | 0 | 0.38329 | 0 | 0.083387 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129749 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16233 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143365 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09794 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117115 | 0 | 0.21572 | 0 | 0.339491 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140787 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111591 | 0 | 0.172151 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133573 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121373 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122669 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.320988 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110319 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116484 | 0.085557 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159595 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10423 | 0 | 0 | 0.094486 |
suicidewatch | shenfkdkfdnsnf | 2019/10/31 | plastic bag can i kill myself by just tying a plastic bag over my head and leaving it there? i have no sleeping pills or anything. three hours until someone comes home. i’m just scared of failing and ending up with brain damage or some shit. i’m positive i don’t want to live anymore, i just want a quick way to end it | 1.982273 | 3.870695 | 3.181818 | 91.842727 | 78.242424 | 5.006061 | 24.636364 | 5.461319 | 0.449655 | 251 | 9 | 52 | 1 | 6 | 81 | 50 | 66 | 0.269 | 0.648 | 0.084 | -0.9403 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 5 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 8 | 5 | 1 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 8 | 8 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 5 | 33 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.229104 | 0 | 0 | 0.190105 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.257888 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198998 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.40922 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.237087 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.231726 | 0 | 0.227502 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.255583 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.24461 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.20399 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.231285 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.237133 | 0 | 0 | 0.231181 | 0 | 0.195737 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.272516 | 0.183368 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | dinoboy1904 | 2019/10/31 | How should I deal with my depression and suicidal thoughts... ...Sometimes hearing others stories and talking about stuff makes me feel better. I don't necessarily want to die, I am just sick of the way the world is and my place in it...Feel free to ask questions... | 4.496224 | 6.503281 | 4.599745 | 83.903291 | 71.44898 | 7.34898 | 30.617347 | 8.076483 | 2.137486 | 206 | 9 | 39 | 3 | 4 | 64 | 41 | 49 | 0.278 | 0.619 | 0.104 | -0.8866 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 12 | 10 | 4 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 6 | 3 | 6 | 8 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 25 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.238517 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.225647 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.263034 | 0.219748 | 0 | 0.264791 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.258009 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.287556 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170305 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.266562 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.28581 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.252336 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.292069 | 0.279077 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.205068 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202549 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150486 | 0.202515 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | sleep_dirt_ | 2019/10/31 | I Tried Writing a Poem An empty word
A regret
Like no other
Can't forget
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Find one more day
Just one last time
To fall away... and burn
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We'll let things go
You'll never know
The shame shining through
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suicidewatch | Lost_Throwaway_12 | 2019/10/31 | Imagining death It brings me a special comfort beyond words. Imagining how I may fall to my death or wreck my car unexpectedly or die in some unforeseen way....I just want to be done. I'm so tired. I'm more tired of pretending to be okay. I just want it all to end. To have never existed. | 0.059703 | 2.411205 | 2.68625 | 88.939206 | 91.881356 | 7.017797 | 20.934322 | 8.076483 | 1.368778 | 223 | 8 | 49 | 6 | 8 | 77 | 41 | 59 | 0.297 | 0.551 | 0.153 | -0.9405 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 14 | 10 | 4 | 3 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 8 | 6 | 3 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 31 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.315669 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.31126 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.269394 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.234586 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.699172 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.358801 | 0.241427 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Lizardspaghetti | 2019/10/31 | Today was shit The teacher I’ve been taking an after school class with that I thought was cool really wasn’t. I just started his class this week and I got one late due to me falling asleep. I told him about my sleep schedule and how I’m working on it. He then tells me I’m in trouble and how my parents will hear everyth... | 4.0605 | 4.977945 | 4.448222 | 88.819 | 71 | 6.871111 | 25.511111 | 6.742158 | 0.877124 | 1,398 | 40 | 290 | 10 | 25 | 440 | 187 | 360 | 0.114 | 0.781 | 0.105 | -0.4148 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 43 | 0 | 13 | 3 | 2 | 26 | 17 | 4 | 2 | 14 | 2 | 28 | 10 | 7 | 2 | 3 | 57 | 66 | 23 | 1 | 6 | 14 | 3 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 21 | 14 | 0 | 5 | 13 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 6 | 9 | 1 | 2 | 11 | 9 | 48 | 9 | 46 | 48 | 8 | 48 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 34 | 14 | 2 | 8 | 28 | 205 | 69 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078129 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089201 | 0.146008 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080788 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096946 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075803 | 0 | 0 | 0.122459 | 0 | 0.081773 | 0 | 0.098534 | 0.099194 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111271 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079311 | 0 | 0.08409 | 0 | 0 | 0.062708 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085327 | 0 | 0.089502 | 0 | 0.09601 | 0.067826 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087772 | 0.099206 | 0 | 0.161872 | 0 | 0.075933 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097437 | 0 | 0.107006 | 0 | 0.063637 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.253165 | 0 | 0 | 0.260887 | 0 | 0.214196 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.046384 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079727 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096256 | 0.286144 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091099 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12867 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.210842 | 0 | 0 | 0.131641 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106356 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121644 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192172 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097456 | 0 | 0 | 0.19002 | 0 | 0.080444 | 0.073091 | 0 | 0 | 0.2016 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.21751 | 0 | 0.21737 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071384 | 0 | 0.082983 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063075 | 0.121669 | 0 | 0.150746 | 0 | 0 | 0.089993 | 0.181441 | 0 | 0.064459 | 0.103269 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076156 | 0 | 0.085364 | 0 | 0.08567 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069118 | 0 | 0.096753 | 0.067444 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | sugarsub10 | 2019/10/31 | How many tike will I post here Til I've done it. My old problem and current problems are not my boyfriends to handle he has made that clear. I just can't stand everyone around me ridiculing me and making fun of something I had no control over. And my boyfriend has shown me exactly why I didn't want to tell him. It's no... | 1.125 | 3.451149 | 2.014444 | 96.65 | 84 | 5.266667 | 24.277778 | 6.627428 | 0.647161 | 276 | 11 | 61 | 3 | 8 | 86 | 54 | 72 | 0.188 | 0.735 | 0.077 | -0.7523 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 18 | 12 | 5 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 12 | 1 | 6 | 6 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 40 | 16 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191545 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.241329 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.220191 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.205602 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.203597 | 0.143626 | 0.218146 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.225782 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206071 | 0 | 0 | 0.61766 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165647 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188066 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126912 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.388311 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | grapesIut | 2019/10/31 | Im just too lazy Im just too lazy to live anymore. Everything just takes too much work and everyone is just going to die anyway. it wont make any difference. Im tired of working on my mental health. im tired of trying to lose weight. im tired of doing school work. Im tired of working and getting nowhere. Im tired of my... | -0.466088 | 1.691212 | 2.030132 | 94.608004 | 90.789474 | 4.850877 | 17.390351 | 6.427356 | -0.158281 | 343 | 9 | 77 | 4 | 12 | 117 | 51 | 95 | 0.324 | 0.636 | 0.04 | -0.9844 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 11 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 14 | 10 | 5 | 2 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 12 | 9 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 38 | 5 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054644 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079691 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166792 | 0.083954 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076783 | 0.072218 | 0 | 0.075752 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.041982 | 0 | 0.091336 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079334 | 0 | 0.085414 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.69438 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14191 | 0.071112 | 0 | 0.089897 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053638 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080979 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05907 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081324 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060417 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.55414 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054556 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.047396 | 0 | 0 | 0.097851 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.233998 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Dontfeelanything7788 | 2019/10/31 | I supposedly have it all, but I feel nothing but dark thoughts of dying From the outside looking in people think I have it all. Job, house, 2 kids, marriage, 3 cars, getting a masters degree.
But none of it matters.
My spouse doesn’t care about me anymore and I feel nothing for him.
I think about dying every single ... | 0.751623 | 3.096019 | 2.846878 | 89.854932 | 86.112971 | 5.590018 | 22.761656 | 7.02168 | 0.836523 | 909 | 34 | 191 | 13 | 28 | 306 | 129 | 239 | 0.176 | 0.705 | 0.119 | -0.941 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 29 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 10 | 9 | 2 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 15 | 9 | 4 | 5 | 3 | 44 | 42 | 18 | 3 | 2 | 6 | 1 | 11 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 14 | 2 | 1 | 14 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 16 | 35 | 3 | 28 | 36 | 5 | 26 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 7 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 121 | 40 | 1 | 0 | 0.111773 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.280668 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083979 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.209572 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096182 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060839 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.293717 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.21223 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124616 | 0 | 0.079482 | 0 | 0.169566 | 0 | 0.088932 | 0 | 0.333894 | 0.134787 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.049287 | 0 | 0.053613 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084506 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108851 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093614 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092176 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.237655 | 0.105538 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06297 | 0 | 0 | 0.102759 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.362071 | 0 | 0.197979 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065401 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095974 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094834 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193986 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075174 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072624 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10055 | 0 | 0.078869 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.18134 | 0 | 0.074892 | 0.110016 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081476 | 0 | 0 | 0.111284 | 0 | 0 | 0.229751 | 0 | 0 | 0.085123 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103142 | 0 | 0.060749 |
suicidewatch | MoverAwayer | 2019/10/31 | Can someone just tell me about their experiences with hotlines? Is it a legit person that doesn't sound too trained and actually cares? Or does everything sound rehearsed? Will they call the police if you're doing too badly? Can you trust them? Will they try to call back if you just hang up? | 3.192242 | 5.987586 | 3.217727 | 88.319924 | 79.181818 | 5.848485 | 21.893939 | 7.168622 | 0.747848 | 234 | 7 | 44 | 3 | 6 | 71 | 44 | 55 | 0.052 | 0.825 | 0.122 | 0.6322 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 8 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 2 | 4 | 6 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 31 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.273977 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.215884 | 0.234419 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.573366 | 0 | 0.286249 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.245691 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.252325 | 0.274633 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.245145 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.237883 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.245393 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190615 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Schweppesismyfriend | 2019/10/31 | I've given up If I don't get any matches on these stupid dating apps, I'm just gonna kill myself. | 0.088261 | 1.311108 | 2.747174 | 95.849457 | 81.608696 | 4.6 | 15.847826 | 3.1291 | -1.089591 | 77 | 1 | 19 | 0 | 2 | 27 | 21 | 23 | 0.336 | 0.664 | 0 | -0.8442 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 8 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.48581 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.37324 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.790367 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | withitforit | 2019/10/31 | It should be my choice to leave when I want. I'm tired of the life I live. Its heartbreaking knowing that ppl are going to hurt but I won't anymore. My soul will be free of all the pain it has endured In this vessel. It is selfish but no one knows what goes through my head. I'm mentally broken to the point that i feel... | 0.156505 | 2.195173 | 1.906772 | 97.736267 | 85.602564 | 5.46546 | 19.432881 | 6.794906 | 0.007062 | 563 | 16 | 136 | 7 | 17 | 184 | 95 | 156 | 0.27 | 0.607 | 0.123 | -0.9818 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 8 | 13 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 19 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 19 | 34 | 11 | 1 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 14 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 6 | 10 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 3 | 17 | 5 | 17 | 21 | 1 | 16 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 91 | 31 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160206 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12559 | 0 | 0.162812 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137075 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141399 | 0 | 0 | 0.171523 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147545 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083009 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139643 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085772 | 0 | 0.186603 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168486 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175747 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.27067 | 0 | 0 | 0.173832 | 0 | 0 | 0.115958 | 0 | 0 | 0.144965 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179211 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165445 | 0 | 0.165765 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126618 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111246 | 0 | 0.349377 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155194 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.328725 | 0 | 0.130822 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131106 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179575 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105193 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188689 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096832 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147608 | 0.152187 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167303 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10572 |
suicidewatch | Pleberson | 2019/10/31 | I am 29 and I have avoidance personality disorder. I have made zero impact on anyone's life and I am an isolated useless mess. I started noticing social anxiety when I left school to go to college. I used to wander around my busy campus like a lost soul wondering how everyone seemed so confident and outgoing. I didn't ... | 4.589268 | 5.418517 | 5.739379 | 80.366854 | 69.723192 | 8.434506 | 27.071303 | 8.626193 | 1.887831 | 1,583 | 49 | 308 | 25 | 27 | 528 | 215 | 401 | 0.161 | 0.718 | 0.121 | -0.6639 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 37 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 16 | 20 | 1 | 3 | 20 | 0 | 32 | 15 | 2 | 6 | 2 | 50 | 56 | 30 | 1 | 3 | 7 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 14 | 27 | 7 | 2 | 3 | 9 | 2 | 4 | 7 | 8 | 0 | 5 | 10 | 3 | 45 | 12 | 49 | 42 | 7 | 57 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 2 | 25 | 30 | 1 | 8 | 24 | 210 | 59 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0.080255 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082352 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125828 | 0 | 0 | 0.115009 | 0 | 0 | 0.146423 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063238 | 0 | 0.050133 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083977 | 0 | 0.251549 | 0 | 0 | 0.070843 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065662 | 0 | 0 | 0.106077 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085353 | 0 | 0.18851 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080565 | 0 | 0.084153 | 0.068702 | 0 | 0 | 0.169953 | 0 | 0.054319 | 0 | 0.069291 | 0.157169 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090091 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127078 | 0 | 0.042967 | 0 | 0.140218 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087547 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.045197 | 0.067037 | 0 | 0.087081 | 0.178709 | 0 | 0.232356 | 0.080357 | 0 | 0.07262 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179551 | 0 | 0.148451 | 0.155636 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131287 | 0 | 0.060456 | 0 | 0.063429 | 0 | 0 | 0.077177 | 0 | 0.078912 | 0.093632 | 0.086298 | 0.087584 | 0.111457 | 0.187643 | 0 | 0 | 0.091319 | 0 | 0 | 0.285077 | 0.143619 | 0 | 0 | 0.077744 | 0 | 0 | 0.083668 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052685 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070233 | 0 | 0.065401 | 0 | 0.083232 | 0.065535 | 0.074869 | 0 | 0 | 0.084419 | 0.06803 | 0 | 0 | 0.335336 | 0.069682 | 0 | 0.081338 | 0 | 0.05821 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.047955 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178908 | 0.080337 | 0 | 0 | 0.07103 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065968 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089186 | 0.059872 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105921 |
suicidewatch | silentgreen86 | 2019/10/31 | It isn't worth it anymore. If having to fight like this every day is what living is, I'm over it. I'm tired of therapy that fizzles after almost 20 therapists. I'm tired of living a life that I fucked up permanently as a teenager. I'm tired of being broke all the time because I miss work due to paranoia that so far no ... | 3.972988 | 3.870891 | 5.843805 | 82.375585 | 70.768293 | 8.267317 | 24.326829 | 7.908726 | 1.129031 | 599 | 13 | 130 | 7 | 10 | 209 | 96 | 164 | 0.214 | 0.749 | 0.037 | -0.98 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 7 | 3 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 18 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 13 | 27 | 8 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 4 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 1 | 28 | 22 | 5 | 27 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 12 | 2 | 4 | 11 | 90 | 20 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128605 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.254738 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114331 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07829 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082827 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084827 | 0 | 0.108209 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155299 | 0 | 0 | 0.237465 | 0 | 0 | 0.07299 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.382344 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090715 | 0.062745 | 0 | 0.34022 | 0 | 0 | 0.143681 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129381 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094411 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089038 | 0 | 0.134183 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.275773 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.293744 | 0.149118 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074889 | 0.442837 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087196 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075752 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186998 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082705 |
suicidewatch | DagothUrWasRight | 2019/10/31 | I‘m attempting suicide I’m in the middle of a suicide attempt. I don’t understand much about mental health or about liver failure, but I’ve just swallowed about three handfulls of tylenol with many drinks worth of booze to distract my liver. I don’t know enough to know whether this will actually work, I’m planning on h... | 3.951234 | 5.03251 | 4.811558 | 85.501623 | 71.402597 | 6.898701 | 28.935065 | 6.980633 | 1.504306 | 601 | 23 | 119 | 5 | 11 | 195 | 93 | 154 | 0.166 | 0.698 | 0.136 | -0.4556 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 10 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 11 | 7 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 24 | 27 | 8 | 2 | 5 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 3 | 3 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 11 | 4 | 21 | 21 | 4 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 74 | 19 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0.146219 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165349 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148598 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091339 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146783 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.309644 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141253 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115764 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15927 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.297644 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164693 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073203 | 0 | 0 | 0.132601 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151911 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151001 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110148 | 0.111102 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.287005 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095989 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119156 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15274 | 0.126956 | 0.230704 | 0 | 0.335461 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125271 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.327795 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112659 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10173 | 0 | 0 | 0.155986 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088378 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109083 | 0.152167 | 0 | 0.10644 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | SirJello34 | 2019/10/31 | I feel like I'm a massive fucking nuisance to everyone I'm posting this on multiple subreddits to get the most fucking feedback.
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I don't wanna tell my whole fuckin life story on here, but since like 2015 I've been a huge fan of this little indie game series I'm not gonna name cuz a lot peo... | 5.783394 | 5.744369 | 6.00861 | 82.520811 | 66.920541 | 8.650025 | 30.416272 | 8.135878 | 1.989814 | 4,682 | 157 | 937 | 53 | 69 | 1,495 | 383 | 1,183 | 0.158 | 0.657 | 0.184 | 0.9817 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 113 | 1 | 2 | 7 | 11 | 65 | 95 | 45 | 4 | 46 | 2 | 71 | 39 | 8 | 23 | 11 | 216 | 186 | 85 | 3 | 17 | 29 | 1 | 14 | 18 | 3 | 13 | 3 | 3 | 1 | 10 | 59 | 83 | 0 | 8 | 35 | 25 | 0 | 19 | 14 | 52 | 1 | 7 | 81 | 18 | 128 | 43 | 148 | 86 | 32 | 164 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 29 | 76 | 63 | 36 | 16 | 98 | 613 | 187 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 0.05308 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.02263 | 0.058935 | 0.066093 | 0 | 0.028518 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145264 | 0 | 0 | 0.025552 | 0.104562 | 0 | 0 | 0.060073 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.029692 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138853 | 0.124422 | 0.027729 | 0 | 0.02877 | 0.046855 | 0 | 0.117559 | 0 | 0.021714 | 0 | 0 | 0.01754 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.027831 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.022719 | 0.030592 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.035926 | 0.024601 | 0.022914 | 0.10395 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082508 | 0.058288 | 0.208903 | 0 | 0 | 0.023133 | 0 | 0.02982 | 0.063036 | 0.578283 | 0.056836 | 0 | 0.030913 | 0.045622 | 0.130509 | 0 | 0 | 0.080786 | 0 | 0.057902 | 0 | 0.080553 | 0 | 0 | 0.030652 | 0.032228 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.026783 | 0 | 0 | 0.245612 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.030089 | 0 | 0.044839 | 0.022169 | 0 | 0 | 0.029549 | 0 | 0.057629 | 0.239163 | 0.054516 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.029688 | 0.092486 | 0.024546 | 0.12867 | 0.163385 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.031852 | 0 | 0.028906 | 0.019993 | 0 | 0.041951 | 0 | 0.057848 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.030963 | 0 | 0 | 0.055287 | 0.020684 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131982 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052093 | 0.110675 | 0.029322 | 0 | 0 | 0.02734 | 0 | 0.086781 | 0.027204 | 0 | 0.017423 | 0 | 0.053707 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05174 | 0 | 0.027228 | 0.082573 | 0 | 0 | 0.028372 | 0 | 0.167501 | 0.044994 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.020937 | 0 | 0 | 0.153999 | 0.028988 | 0.065158 | 0.1819 | 0.062307 | 0 | 0 | 0.029749 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.043719 | 0.023771 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.034853 | 0 | 0.021591 | 0.126868 | 0 | 0 | 0.051975 | 0 | 0.073859 | 0 | 0.026567 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.02244 | 0.032082 | 0 | 0.021815 | 0 | 0.024453 | 0 | 0 | 0.060728 | 0.031275 | 0 | 0 | 0.059398 | 0 | 0 | 0.173877 | 0 | 0.066093 | 0.157623 |
suicidewatch | The_Under_Racer | 2019/10/31 | if any one is out there on Reddit this late at night please help me . I want the pain to stop I don’t care who just somebody stop me from killing myself . The pain hurts | 1.709167 | 3.129714 | 1.873333 | 103.005 | 77.611111 | 4.8 | 17.555556 | 3.1291 | -1.145544 | 131 | 2 | 33 | 0 | 3 | 39 | 31 | 36 | 0.363 | 0.451 | 0.186 | -0.875 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 20 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17102 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.256408 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168567 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.269223 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.278234 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.283689 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.236004 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170414 | 0 | 0.535201 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.276058 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.42051 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148334 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Wozenfield | 2019/10/31 | ran out of medication lost parents insurance
started rationing
moved to Michigan and applied for Medicaid
local hospital won't accept it
the doctor that the state insurance found for me apparently isn't taking new patients
old doc won't renew prescription since I'm out of state
convenient care won't help me
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suicidewatch | SuicidalAlmanac | 2019/10/31 | Every day is just so much pain I can't go anywhere quiet without constant pain in my left ear from it ringing. It hurts so much when people yell or loud alarms or music plays. I literally can't concentrate. I just can't stand going through every day. All people do now is fight and I'm caught in the middle. Everyone a... | 0.738088 | 3.11097 | 2.61945 | 91.216359 | 86.614679 | 5.922653 | 19.39379 | 7.32111 | 0.557458 | 416 | 12 | 88 | 7 | 13 | 138 | 71 | 109 | 0.177 | 0.779 | 0.045 | -0.9243 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 8 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 13 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 14 | 21 | 9 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 6 | 10 | 2 | 9 | 16 | 4 | 16 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 3 | 8 | 55 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141017 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144211 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183143 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.218596 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173433 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.285581 | 0.323883 | 0.304628 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192634 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168328 | 0 | 0 | 0.181427 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093139 | 0.138145 | 0 | 0 | 0.184136 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.249168 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180239 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114841 | 0 | 0.360669 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.234986 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127425 | 0.136218 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098823 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099961 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163369 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185295 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | throwawayhelp0731 | 2019/10/31 | Tired I'm so tired. I just want to die. I know things will get better but doubt seeps into my head like a poison. Just telling me to do it. I'm so fucking tired of life I just want it back how it was. I just want the pain to stop. | -2.181267 | -0.404896 | 0.053423 | 108.165094 | 95.792453 | 3.028571 | 11.345013 | 3.1291 | -2.142831 | 174 | 2 | 49 | 0 | 7 | 57 | 35 | 53 | 0.376 | 0.477 | 0.147 | -0.9575 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 6 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 8 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 13 | 11 | 4 | 1 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 5 | 9 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 29 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157857 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181564 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.21306 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189789 | 0.107256 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.210688 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112823 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145004 | 0.100295 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.218445 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171633 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179434 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136387 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.707858 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.363259 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | throwawayyay-- | 2019/10/31 | I never do good enough Never can do enough.. I always fail. I try so hard but every time it never works. It’s never enough | -1.801538 | -0.232743 | 0.961077 | 97.433923 | 110.538462 | 2.08 | 5.2 | 3.1291 | -2.520945 | 94 | 0 | 20 | 0 | 5 | 32 | 17 | 26 | 0.218 | 0.782 | 0 | -0.5105 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 17 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172138 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.641279 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174303 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173519 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185321 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.638226 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120632 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140456 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150609 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Deemedici | 2019/10/31 | I just want to follow his lead 4 days ago my friend hung himself. I was the last person to see him and the one that found and cut him down. We didn't know each for very long but we had gotten so close. He was the only friend I've had in years. Before meeting him I didn't want to be here I was ready to give up. Meeting ... | 1.158018 | 2.300248 | 2.614595 | 98.284234 | 78.459459 | 4.933333 | 18.63964 | 3.1291 | -0.823047 | 387 | 7 | 96 | 0 | 9 | 126 | 68 | 111 | 0.014 | 0.859 | 0.127 | 0.8793 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 26 | 26 | 7 | 0 | 5 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 1 | 19 | 2 | 13 | 14 | 1 | 21 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 17 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 62 | 23 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172508 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149641 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165597 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125506 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172364 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177868 | 0 | 0 | 0.213377 | 0.300707 | 0 | 0.101674 | 0.186685 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.213902 | 0.158631 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172222 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129902 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.196498 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131871 | 0.148008 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169924 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155077 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.207426 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160572 | 0.573923 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125321 |
suicidewatch | SadMan318 | 2019/10/31 | Please help Everything has been telling me tonight to kill myself.
Usually I can keep a strong head together.
But tonight it’s just terrible, I’m literally lightheaded from all the thoughts on why I should do it and actually doing it.
I’m not good at anything, I’ve hurt people emotionally, I make people laugh but de... | 2.43788 | 5.220607 | 4.161228 | 80.269152 | 82.815789 | 8.640936 | 28.181287 | 9.150863 | 3.10428 | 317 | 15 | 59 | 10 | 9 | 106 | 58 | 76 | 0.262 | 0.618 | 0.119 | -0.9153 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 7 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 11 | 14 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 6 | 3 | 6 | 11 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 32 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.209506 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176671 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.482994 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192949 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180071 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.220333 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143902 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.22983 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190826 | 0.237522 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189575 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143307 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.297677 | 0 | 0 | 0.235665 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.220737 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187648 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17044 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.23645 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193724 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | JealousPickle | 2019/10/31 | Been depressed since I was young. My mom had a bad stroke last month. Lately been having a bit of ideation and it scares me. Ever since I was a youngin I'm 25 reference I've been very depressed. This past month my mom had a stroke pretty bad one. Most of her left side is pretty weak to useless right now. However her mi... | 2.478447 | 4.14749 | 4.026323 | 87.323488 | 76.122093 | 7.535525 | 24.652767 | 8.326086 | 1.436652 | 1,313 | 44 | 282 | 24 | 29 | 437 | 172 | 344 | 0.16 | 0.707 | 0.133 | -0.9401 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 22 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 13 | 25 | 1 | 1 | 18 | 1 | 32 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 48 | 59 | 15 | 3 | 9 | 9 | 4 | 5 | 3 | 1 | 4 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 20 | 16 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 13 | 0 | 1 | 14 | 6 | 33 | 12 | 36 | 35 | 12 | 33 | 0 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 14 | 17 | 0 | 7 | 17 | 180 | 53 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068205 | 0 | 0.088419 | 0 | 0 | 0.073368 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148884 | 0.108698 | 0 | 0.075866 | 0 | 0 | 0.078852 | 0.097336 | 0 | 0 | 0.099528 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094316 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057499 | 0 | 0.307162 | 0 | 0 | 0.09315 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176661 | 0.080647 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087212 | 0.084049 | 0 | 0.09016 | 0.063693 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068882 | 0 | 0.139742 | 0.085527 | 0.101339 | 0.149561 | 0.071307 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05976 | 0 | 0 | 0.088553 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088474 | 0 | 0.098639 | 0.092843 | 0.097996 | 0.072674 | 0.100572 | 0 | 0.096869 | 0 | 0 | 0.130672 | 0 | 0 | 0.078901 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075798 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.269448 | 0 | 0 | 0.180045 | 0.313257 | 0.142328 | 0 | 0.131081 | 0.066108 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087355 | 0.085548 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060415 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08511 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084282 | 0 | 0 | 0.181409 | 0 | 0.085311 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094829 | 0 | 0 | 0.171348 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076139 | 0 | 0 | 0.089261 | 0 | 0.071046 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147502 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097523 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101958 | 0.103518 | 0.118463 | 0.057128 | 0.175192 | 0 | 0.051988 | 0 | 0 | 0.085193 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.220691 | 0.157761 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064907 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057414 |
suicidewatch | cheesycoconut | 2019/10/31 | F*ck my life so, life's been rough, finally told my psychiatrist about how bad things have gotten, about cutting myself, and about how I was planning to kill myself. and this was two weeks ago, that i totally opened up. I promised her I wouldn't kill myself because I always wanted it to be an "accident" so I didn't put... | 3.704842 | 4.498418 | 4.5151 | 88.470756 | 71.727273 | 7.825837 | 26.110048 | 8.032893 | 1.304418 | 1,045 | 32 | 230 | 14 | 19 | 337 | 137 | 275 | 0.081 | 0.77 | 0.149 | 0.9736 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 34 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 20 | 14 | 4 | 0 | 15 | 0 | 20 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 37 | 38 | 27 | 3 | 4 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 18 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 2 | 10 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 5 | 17 | 3 | 27 | 9 | 31 | 14 | 9 | 48 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 12 | 15 | 0 | 1 | 24 | 155 | 40 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109316 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102613 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102968 | 0.075175 | 0 | 0.104937 | 0 | 0.258835 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098462 | 0 | 0 | 0.079532 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1262 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116256 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135092 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.285832 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.210258 | 0 | 0.098631 | 0.135961 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121446 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.409308 | 0 | 0 | 0.100523 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17421 | 0 | 0 | 0.108894 | 0.109135 | 0.103558 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.347184 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116578 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123971 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079002 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098271 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104489 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131443 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092722 | 0.09912 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081929 | 0.158038 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141739 | 0 | 0.117838 | 0 | 0.167453 | 0 | 0.240933 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072738 | 0 | 0.197841 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | foopadapoopa | 2019/10/31 | I don’t want to die. Can someone help me? I don’t want depression to win. I want to live. I want to do things. But.. I don’t even remember what I like to do? I don’t know what regular people do with their time. I don’t know how to get out of bed unless it’s for work. I work night shifts & do security. I’m alone 99%... | -0.233993 | 2.052842 | 2.894172 | 87.242362 | 93.030612 | 6.577173 | 19.504157 | 7.793538 | 1.134667 | 731 | 24 | 154 | 18 | 27 | 260 | 110 | 196 | 0.11 | 0.733 | 0.156 | 0.6506 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 40 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 4 | 12 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 17 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 25 | 35 | 7 | 1 | 5 | 8 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 8 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 12 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 23 | 9 | 21 | 34 | 3 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 90 | 31 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0.110012 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116758 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.610735 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185541 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097097 | 0 | 0.117 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116484 | 0 | 0.07446 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.212551 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087098 | 0 | 0.058899 | 0 | 0.064069 | 0.094556 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100987 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.226689 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185867 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079627 | 0.110152 | 0.112989 | 0.099546 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075251 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113609 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083591 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105793 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076391 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078155 | 0.19687 | 0 | 0.123748 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14444 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127705 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112866 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095519 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149791 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131472 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.265973 | 0 | 0 | 0.137279 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164143 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | idwnlvanym_1013 | 2019/10/31 | Can’t really find a painless way to die I can’t feel time now, all I have is today, this moment, no future, no past, and it feels so empty...
I thing I’m totally a waste to me and my family, and I can’t find a reason to live anymore. I know if I die, some people around me would probably go crazy, but I just can’t take ... | -0.855 | 0.764107 | 2.584295 | 93.900288 | 86.435897 | 5.951282 | 16.160256 | 7.168622 | -0.146082 | 260 | 5 | 65 | 4 | 8 | 95 | 50 | 78 | 0.236 | 0.74 | 0.024 | -0.9254 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 18 | 14 | 6 | 3 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 11 | 0 | 5 | 13 | 3 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 43 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.368131 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165224 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.577871 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174967 | 0 | 0.18769 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.33927 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105481 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102001 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163888 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13762 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177176 | 0.128672 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.200108 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1189 | 0.190828 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139548 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123305 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108225 | 0 | 0.175927 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147321 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131845 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | lagboi421 | 2019/10/31 | Title I just want to die. I want to be free of this pain, and I want to free others of the burden called me. I want to die and I try, and try, and try, but I can never bring myself too. I’ll have the noose around me, but as I’m about to kick the stool, I stop. It’s so frustrating! I really REALLY want to follow through... | -0.968333 | 0.837882 | 1.948889 | 97.12 | 88.444444 | 5.822222 | 13.444444 | 7.168622 | -0.552756 | 305 | 4 | 78 | 5 | 10 | 107 | 50 | 90 | 0.168 | 0.646 | 0.186 | -0.4179 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 20 | 12 | 9 | 2 | 6 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 14 | 5 | 14 | 11 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 52 | 18 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165598 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.195218 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189949 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.386122 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177751 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143471 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19794 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.23834 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155522 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.378889 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.658321 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | rhododendron-babe | 2019/10/31 | Can someone please wake me up from this fucking nightmare before I do it ? Nothing feels real. I’ve lost everything this year. Three jobs, my partner is now dating the more realized version of me, my friends keep blowing away as fast as they come, and even when they are here it’s like they don’t really hear me. All cre... | 3.215844 | 5.410656 | 3.564935 | 89.095974 | 75.623377 | 6.477922 | 26.584416 | 7.44753 | 1.357706 | 313 | 12 | 62 | 4 | 7 | 97 | 61 | 77 | 0.029 | 0.84 | 0.132 | 0.802 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 6 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 16 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 11 | 2 | 8 | 14 | 3 | 11 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 6 | 43 | 16 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.224101 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202967 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.205468 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157543 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.21437 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120605 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184283 | 0.441024 | 0.124619 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.268834 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.236699 | 0.212011 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116531 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.260377 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.22887 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.261828 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.271493 | 0.152805 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202101 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153602 |
suicidewatch | JohnJohnson3698 | 2019/10/31 | Feels like nobody care unless you have a story to tell I don't have a story filled with lots of details, twists and turns. All I have is a pathetic sob story plagued with self hatred, constant headaches, failed relationships, and enough pain for me to turn this subreddit. It feels like the only way to get people to lis... | 6.045035 | 6.382654 | 6.163826 | 80.340265 | 66.362637 | 8.815984 | 29.732268 | 8.57599 | 2.167499 | 742 | 24 | 139 | 10 | 11 | 236 | 110 | 182 | 0.237 | 0.699 | 0.064 | -0.987 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 26 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 12 | 3 | 0 | 11 | 0 | 15 | 7 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 30 | 34 | 6 | 0 | 5 | 8 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 10 | 9 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 11 | 5 | 25 | 29 | 6 | 15 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 3 | 3 | 1 | 9 | 92 | 21 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099042 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132001 | 0 | 0 | 0.111525 | 0 | 0.139908 | 0 | 0.103369 | 0.143253 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11151 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148381 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132478 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.267549 | 0 | 0 | 0.117111 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130925 | 0.184983 | 0 | 0 | 0.118331 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100026 | 0.119691 | 0.202924 | 0 | 0.073579 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115977 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129866 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13482 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091447 | 0.126503 | 0 | 0.114322 | 0.114575 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110069 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124228 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098466 | 0.137763 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089756 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16588 | 0 | 0 | 0.139 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131028 | 0 | 0 | 0.135063 | 0 | 0.132896 | 0 | 0 | 0.129561 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128047 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11316 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082958 | 0 | 0 | 0.075494 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.281647 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152727 | 0.102765 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116824 | 0 | 0.148881 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.395815 | 0.09197 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Kevinwtfareudoing | 2019/10/31 | Can’t live nor die I’m so sick of everything, specially me, I’ve tried everything, and I mean everything, the stuff that they recommend you to do and even what not to, noting helps really, I’ve been in hospitals, and It’s been years since I’ve been in treatment, taking meds, talking to my therapist, trying to talk to p... | 5.446293 | 4.960463 | 6.06905 | 83.313606 | 67.691589 | 9.376324 | 29.359813 | 8.841846 | 2.017793 | 1,224 | 37 | 262 | 18 | 18 | 400 | 157 | 321 | 0.199 | 0.629 | 0.172 | -0.9449 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 40 | 0 | 5 | 4 | 1 | 11 | 18 | 8 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 24 | 10 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 43 | 49 | 29 | 4 | 6 | 12 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 16 | 10 | 2 | 0 | 7 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 14 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 6 | 37 | 3 | 24 | 41 | 6 | 22 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 20 | 7 | 1 | 5 | 11 | 152 | 53 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0.079475 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084349 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110766 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067019 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.049646 | 0 | 0.0693 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086154 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052523 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169046 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083343 | 0 | 0.079781 | 0.094446 | 0.083335 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107582 | 0 | 0.068618 | 0 | 0.219582 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123537 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074436 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062921 | 0.075291 | 0.085099 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072955 | 0.160813 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.218353 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087184 | 0.091937 | 0 | 0 | 0.080818 | 0 | 0.180205 | 0 | 0.044758 | 0 | 0 | 0.086234 | 0.088486 | 0 | 0.057524 | 0.039788 | 0.081625 | 0.215742 | 0 | 0.06839 | 0 | 0 | 0.069238 | 0 | 0 | 0.163088 | 0.082569 | 0 | 0.088713 | 0.090463 | 0.082043 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059869 | 0.060388 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173318 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169383 | 0 | 0 | 0.268194 | 0 | 0.091813 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104347 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064765 | 0.081537 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067369 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188092 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065039 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093231 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061234 | 0.196378 | 0.142366 | 0 | 0 | 0.189119 | 0.054106 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142467 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.387053 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096072 | 0.064644 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075497 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057853 | 0 | 0 | 0.052445 |
suicidewatch | galaxyshun | 2019/10/31 | Chronic daily suicidal thoughts I wish that I could talk to someone about this without getting hospitalized. I’m not in any danger, have had zero attempts, and do not self harm. However, I think about suicide multiple times a day and wish that I was dead everyday. It sucks that you have to tread so lightly with this to... | 5.548542 | 7.337007 | 5.835 | 76.976667 | 68.375 | 9.333333 | 33.333333 | 9.725611 | 3.389958 | 345 | 16 | 61 | 8 | 6 | 110 | 62 | 80 | 0.195 | 0.64 | 0.165 | -0.7162 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 14 | 17 | 3 | 3 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 6 | 1 | 13 | 11 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 43 | 13 | 1 | 0.213712 | 0 | 0.208552 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145332 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170632 | 0 | 0 | 0.137827 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111656 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143247 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.226715 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202027 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.222948 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181078 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.467533 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171774 | 0 | 0.196758 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136938 | 0 | 0.169664 | 0.124617 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.491517 | 0.206011 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | runawaybones | 2019/10/31 | Boo I've been alone for two days and now I just want to blow my fucking brains out. I'm 31 and I dont know how to make friends and life is fucking stupid when you just live it alone in a room. | -0.209667 | 1.038056 | 1.121944 | 107.05625 | 82.555556 | 4.5 | 17.916667 | 3.1291 | -1.254 | 149 | 3 | 43 | 0 | 4 | 47 | 36 | 45 | 0.167 | 0.738 | 0.095 | -0.5095 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 10 | 9 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 5 | 8 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 23 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.540809 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.291456 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168378 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.305989 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.201713 | 0.482736 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143485 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184411 | 0 | 0 | 0.230542 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174276 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.255041 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153994 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Georgiamorry | 2019/10/31 | This feeling I’ve never had this feeling before. I’ve been depressed, suicidal, angry, annoyed, heartless but this is something new. I wake up and im emotionless, I work 12 hour shifts with a half an hour break and my feet hurt. I’m sore. Uni is going well but I mean, will I actually do well? I’ve fallen out of love wi... | -0.138057 | 1.968652 | 2.385108 | 93.299884 | 87.774194 | 4.734767 | 18.933692 | 6.139982 | -0.08819 | 559 | 16 | 124 | 5 | 18 | 192 | 90 | 155 | 0.154 | 0.555 | 0.291 | 0.9752 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 19 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 13 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 12 | 4 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 28 | 33 | 11 | 1 | 4 | 6 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 4 | 2 | 3 | 3 | 5 | 13 | 9 | 12 | 29 | 1 | 13 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 70 | 19 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0.150605 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104951 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107912 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.26265 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157351 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132926 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.234104 | 0 | 0.148183 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08771 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136475 | 0.164289 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103445 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.303971 | 0 | 0.165215 | 0 | 0.166705 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131207 | 0.13929 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168112 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.23806 | 0.149054 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.209158 | 0.117376 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106994 | 0 | 0 | 0.16941 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122982 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118812 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168814 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124046 | 0.134893 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.364115 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.277525 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112355 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | PapaBred | 2019/10/31 | I honestly just want to die. Nobody gives 2 shits about me. I'm 17 junior in high school. I'm lonely, socially anxious, and depressed. I've felt this way for a little while now. I'm about fucking done with it. I'm already planning on killing myself somewhere between December and March. I'm so fucking done. I wish I cou... | 1.340739 | 4.01784 | 2.881364 | 87.358182 | 89.625 | 4.909091 | 26.022727 | 6.574016 | 1.32875 | 325 | 15 | 59 | 4 | 11 | 106 | 57 | 80 | 0.3 | 0.59 | 0.11 | -0.9546 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 10 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 18 | 5 | 2 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 5 | 2 | 9 | 13 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 4 | 30 | 8 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183735 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188095 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132935 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143405 | 0 | 0.172799 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.340771 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162867 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159864 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.615699 | 0 | 0.15972 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175914 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184205 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117603 | 0.081343 | 0.166875 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163133 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168505 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170908 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169724 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098205 | 0.132158 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191465 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | hxbxgsjsvydbgs | 2019/10/31 | I feel like my life has gone to hell I don’t know what to do So I’m in grade 10 I’m in a wheelchair I have a nicotine addiction have a cousin who’s coming to my school next year I feel like I’m failing because all my classes have gone to hell I have till Christmas it’s just so much that a 14 almost 15 year old teenager... | -1.220763 | 0.774473 | 1.153899 | 100.56986 | 93.081633 | 3.638955 | 18.621196 | 4.98256 | -0.687046 | 510 | 16 | 125 | 2 | 19 | 171 | 80 | 147 | 0.057 | 0.798 | 0.145 | 0.9011 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 8 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 14 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 20 | 30 | 7 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 14 | 5 | 17 | 26 | 5 | 16 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 2 | 3 | 10 | 75 | 24 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190093 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17461 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.345863 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106296 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150207 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154443 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176337 | 0.249145 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0991 | 0.146256 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191662 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.24633 | 0.17038 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.256369 | 0.129296 | 0 | 0 | 0.185448 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.365951 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167001 | 0.1774 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176475 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144243 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131107 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111731 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.336872 |
suicidewatch | JunioAoi | 2019/10/31 | Primeira Intenção! Yeeeaa! Super empolgado! 🙄👨🔪👻 Não sei como funciona essa porra! | 0.858 | -1.372382 | 4.265 | 68.9375 | 164.333333 | 3.666667 | 29.166667 | 5.461319 | 2.547667 | 67 | 4 | 8 | 1 | 6 | 24 | 15 | 15 | 0 | 0.685 | 0.315 | 0.7243 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Explosion4284 | 2019/10/31 | Don't say I'm not trying hard enough If anyone says that to me I get really angry and then I think about shooting myself right through the head. Don't ever say that I'm not doing good enough. Ever. | 0.376429 | 2.656344 | 2.295524 | 93.566143 | 87.333333 | 4.312381 | 13.161905 | 5.683918 | -0.961472 | 157 | 2 | 33 | 1 | 5 | 52 | 31 | 42 | 0.149 | 0.819 | 0.032 | -0.6911 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 7 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 1 | 3 | 7 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 22 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16227 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.479586 | 0 | 0 | 0.419846 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121248 | 0 | 0 | 0.194651 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.207891 | 0 | 0.238173 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148672 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198189 | 0 | 0.55366 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148703 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157562 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | sadasfuckthrowawayy | 2019/10/31 | I can’t stop wishing I was someone else or that I’d have a different life I hate myself and I hate the life I’ve been given. | -0.680115 | 1.008284 | 2.421379 | 94.919885 | 86.241379 | 5.245977 | 20.011494 | 6.427356 | 0.044025 | 98 | 3 | 24 | 1 | 3 | 35 | 22 | 29 | 0.337 | 0.596 | 0.067 | -0.8271 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 8 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 14 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.323613 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.258748 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.611609 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.437557 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.262442 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.258957 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.356186 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Infinite_Use89 | 2019/10/31 | Too long i've lived in my hell, would like info hi just looking for real info too my suicide and how to do it, that will 100% work and not leave a mess ha
also with links if poss and not what is not info base in you're head | 7.204706 | 2.868996 | 7.774608 | 84.740735 | 67.039216 | 10.2 | 29.421569 | 3.1291 | 1.076051 | 172 | 2 | 44 | 0 | 2 | 58 | 42 | 51 | 0.189 | 0.713 | 0.098 | -0.8115 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 16 | 5 | 6 | 1 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 27 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.268856 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.345035 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.355983 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164249 | 0 | 0.296868 | 0.297523 | 0.28232 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.382665 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.367744 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.244755 | 0 | 0 | 0.238824 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | MalcolmTheSmartBoi | 2019/10/31 | Thought about jumping off a bridge yesterday but I didn't Was considering going to a bridge over a highway near my school yesterday while telling my parents that I was gonna be at a club. Realized last minute that the method probably wouldn't work and so I went home on the bus. Guess I'm safe till I figure something el... | 3.116513 | 5.349303 | 3.521154 | 89.113013 | 76.076923 | 7.410256 | 27.75641 | 8.3441 | 1.903103 | 264 | 11 | 54 | 5 | 6 | 82 | 51 | 65 | 0 | 0.931 | 0.069 | 0.5927 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 11 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 9 | 3 | 0 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 32 | 8 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.25537 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173734 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.336759 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.306638 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.249183 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.33944 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.329592 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.309381 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.23534 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.267192 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.242689 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.283384 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.222551 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | scaredofflowers | 2019/10/31 | I don’t enjoy anything in life anymore not even my hobbies, and I want that happiness back. I have no desire to do anything anymore. I don’t like to paint, I don’t like to swim like I used to, I don’t enjoy work, hell I don’t even like to do shit like play video games anymore the only thing I look forward to is going t... | 2.49406 | 3.389313 | 4.013658 | 90.554249 | 74.688073 | 6.183945 | 26.469037 | 5.985473 | 0.784017 | 396 | 14 | 88 | 2 | 8 | 132 | 60 | 109 | 0.143 | 0.585 | 0.272 | 0.8757 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 14 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 10 | 8 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 10 | 17 | 3 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 4 | 7 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 14 | 10 | 15 | 16 | 0 | 10 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 10 | 56 | 18 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.433532 | 0 | 0 | 0.239823 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136905 | 0.224093 | 0 | 0.088827 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15123 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192488 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082814 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155117 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.205847 | 0.355947 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.244729 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.221647 | 0.155052 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.29915 | 0 | 0 | 0.291642 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096807 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084968 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125852 | 0 | 0 | 0.257841 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106083 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | liinkmatii | 2019/10/31 | CO Carbon Monoxide that’s my way out difficult to notice but very much deadly, one day I’ll buy a canister of those, open the valve and lock myself in the room and continue business as usual doing nothing in my room the only difference being dead in a few hours | 10.591154 | 6.806776 | 10.661538 | 64.933462 | 60.153846 | 13.476923 | 39.461538 | 11.208143 | 4.379892 | 210 | 7 | 37 | 4 | 2 | 71 | 44 | 52 | 0.143 | 0.857 | 0 | -0.8271 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 7 | 1 | 2 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 25 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.21745 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.352277 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.33205 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.247863 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.323529 | 0.383877 | 0 | 0 | 0.228479 | 0.256437 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.371351 | 0.278205 | 0 | 0.267634 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | buttchinbou | 2019/10/31 | Turning the corner Cried for 40 minutes this morning. Which is a good sign. I thought about what an attempt would look like. Working at the hospital it wouldn't be very private. I'm friends with paramedics. I'm friends with doctors and nurses in the ER. These people see terrible things every day, but it would have to b... | 4.351854 | 5.964254 | 4.015184 | 89.548864 | 71.091837 | 6.85932 | 29.393197 | 7.3011 | 1.56439 | 801 | 32 | 159 | 8 | 15 | 241 | 120 | 196 | 0.163 | 0.73 | 0.107 | -0.9279 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 16 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 9 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 18 | 4 | 1 | 6 | 1 | 42 | 38 | 19 | 0 | 11 | 7 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 8 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 12 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 7 | 1 | 2 | 8 | 4 | 22 | 7 | 21 | 19 | 4 | 15 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 1 | 27 | 7 | 1 | 6 | 7 | 108 | 34 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09081 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062184 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107053 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.312489 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.336158 | 0.065788 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106578 | 0 | 0.104411 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085947 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.051579 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086769 | 0 | 0 | 0.236437 | 0 | 0.053296 | 0 | 0 | 0.085561 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090207 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.218406 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.049837 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085662 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092067 | 0.096524 | 0.204276 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074989 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077583 | 0.108545 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141441 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162577 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172864 | 0.078532 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135541 | 0 | 0 | 0.323936 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110957 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084168 | 0 | 0 | 0.081826 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110625 | 0.074264 | 0 | 0 | 0.507252 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | nvillanova | 2019/10/31 | My dad wouldn’t be supporting my recovery if he knew I was a lesbian. I’m so anxious and feeling so hopeless.
I was discharged from the hospital after a 72 involuntary hold about a week ago. My dad and I have never been close but he came from his home country to see me and is staying until I finish my outpatient progr... | 2.249249 | 3.570674 | 4.180988 | 87.431798 | 75.956522 | 7.047167 | 26.31357 | 7.686295 | 1.359629 | 510 | 19 | 111 | 7 | 11 | 174 | 81 | 138 | 0.135 | 0.745 | 0.12 | -0.6363 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 14 | 4 | 3 | 1 | 3 | 27 | 30 | 15 | 0 | 5 | 4 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 3 | 20 | 3 | 12 | 17 | 1 | 15 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 15 | 4 | 0 | 3 | 10 | 71 | 23 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159499 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.406545 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.205795 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116042 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151601 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181959 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.355292 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.24121 | 0 | 0.180487 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197772 | 0 | 0 | 0.190522 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087906 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120106 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.27755 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143383 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180062 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191784 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.40837 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106129 | 0 | 0.144331 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130993 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | MaterialSea | 2019/10/31 | I feel bad about feeling bad because as someone who has been given opportunities I’m not allowed to be feel bad. Maybe I should just leave then since I’m such a fuck up. Wondering if anyone can relate to feeling that way because it’s how I feel now. At my lowest low ever. | 3.737143 | 4.765244 | 5.252143 | 82.342857 | 71.857143 | 7.028571 | 28.285714 | 7.168622 | 1.498836 | 216 | 8 | 43 | 2 | 4 | 73 | 44 | 56 | 0.309 | 0.605 | 0.087 | -0.936 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 13 | 15 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 4 | 1 | 6 | 11 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 27 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150265 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.538304 | 0.262005 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194392 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.543306 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198674 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.227551 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.215899 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17777 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182086 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17058 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.233053 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | yapaccount | 2019/10/31 | Got a revolver and 1 bullet I keep it for self protection. But i don't need it anymore. Does anyone want a gun? | -1.5525 | 0.337449 | 1.5 | 94.995 | 103.166667 | 4.066667 | 18.5 | 5.985473 | -0.03305 | 86 | 3 | 19 | 1 | 4 | 30 | 21 | 24 | 0.122 | 0.812 | 0.066 | -0.2732 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.417078 | 0.294062 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.368031 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.336357 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.373809 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.311836 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.438731 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.248054 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | SoaringOranges | 2019/10/31 | I’ll be here I’ll always be here. I’ve tried to kill myself three god damn times in the past few days. And yet I always stop. Before it’s too late. Before I’m really gone. But why? Why would I ever do that? I don’t want to live. So why do I always back out? There’s a little bit of hope. Wanna know my fucking savior? My... | -0.359432 | 1.90347 | 1.791559 | 94.076446 | 96.391304 | 4.718494 | 18.515602 | 6.470472 | 0.146658 | 953 | 30 | 203 | 13 | 38 | 317 | 135 | 253 | 0.222 | 0.648 | 0.13 | -0.9842 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 35 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 17 | 22 | 10 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 12 | 7 | 2 | 3 | 3 | 41 | 43 | 17 | 3 | 7 | 5 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 14 | 12 | 1 | 3 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 14 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 4 | 22 | 8 | 18 | 35 | 5 | 29 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 11 | 5 | 6 | 15 | 112 | 36 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.328843 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075972 | 0 | 0.060228 | 0 | 0.168145 | 0 | 0 | 0.087382 | 0.107866 | 0.109746 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104519 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110814 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063719 | 0 | 0.085098 | 0 | 0.10254 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096788 | 0 | 0 | 0.082536 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130515 | 0.089372 | 0 | 0 | 0.088796 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149871 | 0.070584 | 0 | 0.108232 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.274021 | 0.05162 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.210352 | 0 | 0.097546 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098132 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109309 | 0 | 0.108597 | 0 | 0.111452 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096539 | 0.19805 | 0.174487 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065951 | 0.100169 | 0.198519 | 0 | 0.109746 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076202 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06695 | 0.075143 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094317 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106525 | 0 | 0 | 0.099323 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063295 | 0.101584 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101418 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078903 | 0.165205 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074286 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.196918 | 0.063308 | 0.097072 | 0 | 0.057612 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06708 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.233103 | 0.078424 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.356612 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071929 | 0 | 0 | 0.070186 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | GiropponCitizen | 2019/10/31 | Most Effective/Painless method ? Time has come for me to end my life, solid 24 years, some regrets i guess.
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Any suggestions ? Thinking about doing on my Bday on December 2nd! | 3.259375 | 6.403004 | 3.131 | 84.014 | 90.25 | 6.31 | 28.275 | 7.554174 | 2.496018 | 146 | 7 | 23 | 3 | 5 | 44 | 30 | 32 | 0.096 | 0.855 | 0.049 | -0.372 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 5 | 5 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 13 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.361294 | 0.40518 | 0.226758 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.287239 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.295339 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.367334 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.235527 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.213662 | 0 | 0 | 0.194438 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.40518 | 0.214732 |
suicidewatch | HIVridden | 2019/10/31 | Idk I just don’t see the point I’ve gone to counselling it’s never helped Ik it sounds stupid but I don’t think anyone understands me because I don’t even understand myself so how can someone who’s not in my mind know what’s going on. I’ve got anxiety and depression but my paranoia can become so fuvking extreme it sing... | 2.339091 | 4.316138 | 3.6671 | 88.363506 | 77.484848 | 6.651082 | 23.987013 | 7.623865 | 1.132901 | 896 | 30 | 184 | 13 | 21 | 293 | 126 | 231 | 0.292 | 0.617 | 0.09 | -0.9958 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 23 | 16 | 8 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 17 | 7 | 2 | 2 | 5 | 47 | 45 | 24 | 2 | 3 | 13 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 13 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 9 | 13 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 3 | 27 | 3 | 16 | 33 | 3 | 28 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 4 | 13 | 10 | 4 | 1 | 12 | 122 | 38 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098716 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094433 | 0 | 0 | 0.086313 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094919 | 0 | 0.150498 | 0.136332 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109174 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.212641 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109333 | 0 | 0 | 0.081532 | 0.11166 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095371 | 0.34236 | 0.19348 | 0 | 0.070155 | 0 | 0.098728 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11058 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.248221 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.219442 | 0.13657 | 0 | 0.06784 | 0.100622 | 0 | 0 | 0.13412 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111411 | 0.116804 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1244 | 0 | 0.124641 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190412 | 0.119221 | 0 | 0.231684 | 0 | 0.236892 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083647 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085579 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116692 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118117 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13253 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098367 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104592 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079097 | 0 | 0.195998 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117954 | 0 | 0.167618 | 0 | 0 | 0.257015 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072809 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141952 | 0 | 0 | 0.089867 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | throwawayydying | 2019/10/31 | Lying to get out I have a plan to kill myself at the weekend. However I'm stuck in a psychiatric hospital at the moment and I'm afraid they won't let me out. Things have been bad lately but a few weeks ago my best friend killed herself and I'm struggling to cope with that. Being in this hospital there are memories of h... | 0.856147 | 2.772582 | 2.991066 | 91.683662 | 82.028169 | 6.874044 | 22.114688 | 7.957252 | 1.018984 | 519 | 17 | 118 | 10 | 14 | 176 | 80 | 142 | 0.23 | 0.637 | 0.133 | -0.9524 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 9 | 3 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 18 | 30 | 7 | 5 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 11 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 16 | 3 | 23 | 23 | 2 | 21 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 81 | 27 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139889 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131764 | 0.192398 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165611 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125998 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.327563 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079793 | 0.112739 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121923 | 0 | 0.164898 | 0 | 0.089687 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13955 | 0 | 0.141366 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158296 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.523778 | 0 | 0.086728 | 0 | 0.178016 | 0 | 0 | 0.161371 | 0 | 0.077098 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.351041 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168204 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164977 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126841 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.209683 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09202 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126585 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181473 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | _Ross__ | 2019/05/12 | nothing honestly im so tired of doing nothing every day
i go to a school that i fucking hate and come home, and then i sit in my room and either sleep all day or just sit there and cry
its getting really fucking shitty at this point and i feel like id be happier if i were dead
i dont believe in any specific god, and... | 3.434891 | 4.528898 | 4.998255 | 83.62877 | 72.649635 | 8.399708 | 28.29854 | 8.841846 | 2.119801 | 524 | 20 | 109 | 10 | 10 | 177 | 85 | 137 | 0.238 | 0.6 | 0.162 | -0.9481 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 10 | 3 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 9 | 8 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 20 | 22 | 13 | 4 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 7 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 12 | 4 | 15 | 16 | 4 | 18 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 8 | 2 | 2 | 5 | 69 | 19 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09435 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097012 | 0.142159 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106685 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156316 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158685 | 0.282916 | 0 | 0 | 0.119515 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152403 | 0.178956 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143993 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.325212 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115902 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116897 | 0 | 0.124693 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070153 | 0.099118 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.256532 | 0.072488 | 0 | 0.078851 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13698 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139171 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148527 | 0 | 0.149866 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.195997 | 0.067783 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092612 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147462 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.266255 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147632 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192374 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.262314 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177765 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140415 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138843 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111516 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159465 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163669 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | VVayaga | 2019/05/12 | See ya Hey guys, I’m new here but I feel like I should say goodbye to someone? There’s nobody else I can say goodbye to so I’m just coming here. I’m killing myself today because I’m sick and tired of letting everyone and myself down. Everything fun in the past is boring now, my friends all left and my girlfriends about... | 0.797917 | 3.042826 | 2.342222 | 94.3 | 84.694444 | 4.711111 | 22.888889 | 5.985473 | 0.334522 | 271 | 10 | 58 | 2 | 8 | 88 | 52 | 72 | 0.218 | 0.643 | 0.139 | -0.7783 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 13 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 9 | 3 | 7 | 10 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 33 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137416 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194182 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.230686 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188312 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.215402 | 0.202596 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113981 | 0.161043 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174162 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.223205 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.249398 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.238691 | 0.244923 | 0.230511 | 0 | 0.11013 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.217715 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.215192 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.358531 | 0 | 0 | 0.179633 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.259091 | 0.213675 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | fuckenidiot111 | 2019/05/12 | procrastinating so hard that i think i want to die everytime i've got work to do for school (am 15) i want to die just because i dont see it being worth it.
why the fuck would i work my ass off all life if i don't even fuckin enjoy it?
after it all i even feel like a fucking guilty idiot because i haven't got severe de... | -0.355661 | 1.854445 | 1.715804 | 96.541289 | 91.244898 | 4.999499 | 18.621196 | 6.596605 | -0.028883 | 537 | 16 | 125 | 7 | 19 | 178 | 81 | 147 | 0.311 | 0.573 | 0.116 | -0.9902 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 13 | 12 | 7 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 15 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 22 | 34 | 8 | 4 | 7 | 6 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 18 | 3 | 13 | 27 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 6 | 1 | 2 | 6 | 3 | 4 | 78 | 26 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075821 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.271866 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096031 | 0 | 0.347144 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.392016 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.294567 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169126 | 0.159305 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.412303 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178346 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099878 | 0.110079 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074733 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061275 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078753 | 0.108942 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112361 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095217 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112839 | 0.088847 | 0 | 0 | 0.125958 | 0 | 0.09223 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121958 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074073 | 0.071442 | 0 | 0.088515 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.263052 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100607 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.24351 | 0 | 0 | 0.079203 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Ipleadtogo | 2019/05/12 | I can't. Just can't! There is no one for me. I literally have no family or friends. My children who I raised very well and sacrificed everything for hate me. I haven't spoken to one in over two years. I have no clue why he is doing this. The other has been off/on. It will never be on again. I havent heard from h... | 0.585823 | 3.02584 | 2.277627 | 92.566426 | 89.128755 | 5.5101 | 19.783834 | 7.031649 | 0.492385 | 897 | 28 | 189 | 14 | 30 | 293 | 138 | 233 | 0.116 | 0.779 | 0.105 | -0.8631 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 48 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 12 | 10 | 3 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 25 | 4 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 23 | 39 | 10 | 2 | 5 | 8 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 8 | 4 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 14 | 4 | 1 | 4 | 10 | 3 | 35 | 6 | 23 | 25 | 2 | 26 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 33 | 7 | 1 | 3 | 17 | 130 | 43 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095208 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106969 | 0 | 0 | 0.087983 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116837 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091356 | 0 | 0 | 0.221377 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.237503 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12761 | 0.151149 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.205669 | 0 | 0.107866 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125343 | 0 | 0 | 0.276718 | 0 | 0.088402 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112968 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076694 | 0 | 0.114774 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101703 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124319 | 0 | 0.080819 | 0.055901 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076377 | 0.116005 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09133 | 0 | 0 | 0.084842 | 0.264747 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.439162 | 0 | 0.120066 | 0 | 0.232605 | 0.087023 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073301 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108841 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091179 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117452 | 0.094651 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088087 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121958 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076017 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.216916 | 0.109335 | 0 | 0.077685 | 0 | 0.111773 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09441 | 0.067489 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102879 | 0 | 0.103248 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125102 | 0 | 0.073684 |
suicidewatch | ilovemycat2000 | 2019/05/12 | suicide is inevitable i turn 19 a week from today, and will also be dying. i don't know what to do anymore. i have had anorexia since the age of 13 and just want out of this living hell. countless hours spent starving, running, passing out, puking, crying, etc. multiple relationships. yet i still feel fat. i still hate... | 2.131849 | 4.474077 | 3.701734 | 85.994838 | 79.970874 | 6.253907 | 23.401757 | 7.44753 | 1.194813 | 816 | 28 | 155 | 12 | 21 | 270 | 122 | 206 | 0.234 | 0.733 | 0.033 | -0.9925 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 29 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 13 | 11 | 5 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 18 | 5 | 2 | 1 | 5 | 33 | 42 | 15 | 3 | 3 | 6 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 12 | 2 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 2 | 8 | 10 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 1 | 21 | 4 | 28 | 31 | 2 | 35 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 11 | 1 | 0 | 17 | 111 | 27 | 3 | 0 | 0.115565 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155999 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19346 | 0.0682 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.458193 | 0.074999 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082996 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108341 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107139 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101227 | 0 | 0.111785 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099804 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100781 | 0.108779 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087659 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.049317 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.050959 | 0 | 0.277161 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.288891 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096054 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053603 | 0.079505 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.047651 | 0 | 0.086126 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08803 | 0 | 0.065106 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.37613 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066093 | 0 | 0.103785 | 0 | 0.108302 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092203 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098051 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104717 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098712 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080683 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155785 | 0.081545 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.213378 | 0.110683 | 0 | 0 | 0.073335 | 0.078396 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064799 | 0 | 0 | 0.154866 | 0 | 0 | 0.092453 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106091 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172588 | 0 | 0.078238 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071008 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06281 |
suicidewatch | Scarlett101s | 2019/05/12 | The ups and downs are driving me insane I just go one minute laughing with my boyfriend to just trying to not scream “No no no no no!” because he said something that made me feel terrible.
I just want those voices to go away.
I just wanna be okay. | 0.823067 | 3.22735 | 1.82 | 96.856667 | 86.6 | 4.133333 | 20.333333 | 5.461319 | -0.219667 | 192 | 6 | 41 | 1 | 6 | 60 | 37 | 50 | 0.096 | 0.598 | 0.306 | 0.822 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 11 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 6 | 2 | 8 | 5 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 31 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.369574 | 0 | 0 | 0.239788 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198894 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.44711 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.372206 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.26655 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.374174 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.302827 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.267065 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.232013 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | siN-Leader | 2019/05/12 | I’m doing it I don’t care anymore, all my family tells me to just kill myself. So I’m going to, and I’m contemplating taking them with me, ever since I was seven I’ve been having suicidal thoughts and I’ve tried many many MANY times to kill myself. And for some reason, I just won’t die. Whenever I was little and had an... | 1.303475 | 2.818606 | 3.142302 | 93.058994 | 79 | 5.931838 | 19.788272 | 6.655084 | 0.020335 | 872 | 20 | 203 | 8 | 21 | 292 | 113 | 242 | 0.15 | 0.729 | 0.121 | -0.8109 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 24 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 12 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 29 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 47 | 50 | 22 | 8 | 11 | 9 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 14 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 0 | 47 | 6 | 23 | 27 | 3 | 16 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 27 | 4 | 0 | 6 | 7 | 139 | 50 | 1 | 0.085202 | 0.201901 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085318 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05794 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084498 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079653 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095994 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086869 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088426 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056275 | 0.07707 | 0.071787 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080321 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197481 | 0 | 0 | 0.081734 | 0.096845 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057109 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.471318 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085395 | 0.225705 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153797 | 0 | 0 | 0.259145 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090386 | 0 | 0.199576 | 0 | 0.090556 | 0 | 0 | 0.065713 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057735 | 0.0648 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059068 | 0 | 0 | 0.093526 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109165 | 0.087602 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086229 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07048 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072192 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186395 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192184 | 0 | 0.148941 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067641 | 0.049682 | 0 | 0 | 0.162829 | 0 | 0.231387 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150763 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.363151 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | FilthyGrunger | 2019/05/12 | I'm being sued and I'm killing myself tonight. I don't want to get specific but I'm being sued by an "800 pound gorilla in the legal world". Fuck me this is bad.
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I've had a few attempts but they were half assed cries for help when I was young. At this point I'm living with my parents and I have no job, n... | 0.425071 | 2.281935 | 2.132857 | 97.582143 | 83.214286 | 4.571429 | 19.285714 | 5.288315 | -0.478357 | 501 | 13 | 118 | 2 | 14 | 164 | 89 | 140 | 0.172 | 0.692 | 0.136 | -0.6609 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 19 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 8 | 3 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 16 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 14 | 28 | 11 | 1 | 2 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 2 | 15 | 4 | 14 | 16 | 2 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 6 | 5 | 3 | 1 | 10 | 78 | 21 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.341639 | 0.383137 | 0.107211 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121227 | 0.131636 | 0 | 0.174118 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173177 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121804 | 0.14575 | 0.082368 | 0 | 0 | 0.132234 | 0.126091 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105673 | 0 | 0 | 0.156587 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156449 | 0 | 0.174422 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077022 | 0 | 0.278425 | 0 | 0.132391 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125839 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151275 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175058 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137659 | 0 | 0 | 0.149035 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134637 | 0 | 0.125374 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161831 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121371 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125161 | 0.09193 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092989 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.383137 | 0 |
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