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suicidewatch | spacedoutdad | 2019/05/12 | idk if this is the right place but im tired of living, im not even depressed just tired of all of lifes bullshit 19m i work and go to college , and honestly everything feels like a chore i dont get joy from anything, i feel like my life is going nowhere and i dont have anything keeping me here. the thought of having to... | -0.4853 | 1.704244 | 1.506602 | 97.873762 | 91.897196 | 3.804806 | 18.85781 | 5.288315 | -0.470198 | 389 | 12 | 88 | 2 | 14 | 128 | 74 | 107 | 0.241 | 0.619 | 0.139 | -0.9288 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 8 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 9 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 15 | 20 | 7 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 11 | 5 | 11 | 19 | 1 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 3 | 8 | 49 | 13 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145886 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091004 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.220249 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147796 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115261 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.470516 | 0 | 0.155191 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118527 | 0 | 0 | 0.088388 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120271 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202994 | 0.286808 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123716 | 0.069917 | 0 | 0.152108 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.289102 | 0 | 0 | 0.118947 | 0.148054 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189045 | 0.196136 | 0 | 0.118167 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142321 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139816 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114283 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106639 | 0.121827 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10624 | 0 | 0.307618 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194848 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086177 |
suicidewatch | _Amarantos | 2019/05/12 | When is checkout time? Tomorrow is my last day of my nursing program and I still feel like garbage. Everyone seems to be getting jobs and I only have one interview lined up- which 11 other of my classmates have interviewed for and not gotten it. Why the hell would I get it? Went on a date with someone Sunday, they seem... | 3.15381 | 4.573119 | 4.433182 | 86.136439 | 73.805195 | 7.384416 | 25.387446 | 7.984001 | 1.411599 | 891 | 29 | 182 | 13 | 18 | 294 | 136 | 231 | 0.108 | 0.778 | 0.114 | 0.5053 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 25 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 9 | 9 | 2 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 21 | 4 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 35 | 38 | 12 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 16 | 14 | 0 | 3 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 5 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 4 | 22 | 4 | 36 | 29 | 6 | 44 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 17 | 2 | 4 | 23 | 127 | 38 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12911 | 0 | 0 | 0.122109 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108896 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133057 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135249 | 0.079407 | 0 | 0.106049 | 0.124971 | 0 | 0 | 0.282229 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.254447 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117653 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124514 | 0.087962 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104732 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192987 | 0 | 0.069976 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126364 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123507 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122185 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067667 | 0.20073 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086968 | 0.060154 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103396 | 0 | 0 | 0.104678 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098279 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115547 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083434 | 0.187288 | 0 | 0.144463 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085361 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.349185 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097916 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.224181 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1384 | 0 | 0 | 0.104325 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09833 | 0.308819 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071796 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.250786 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11414 | 0.111103 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133526 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087466 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | maatu666 | 2019/05/12 | I am done I have had many early childhood traumas and My brother has been beating me all my life i just want The fucking pain to stop i have tried to tell my parents about my brother but they think that i started it.
I have tried therapy and other things but nothing is Helping.
The only time i dont feel like killing m... | 1.469752 | 3.230876 | 2.547934 | 96.387355 | 79.330579 | 4.730579 | 25.876033 | 4.851558 | 0.324035 | 447 | 18 | 101 | 1 | 11 | 142 | 69 | 121 | 0.286 | 0.605 | 0.11 | -0.9782 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 13 | 5 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 18 | 7 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 22 | 29 | 11 | 3 | 4 | 7 | 4 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 7 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 23 | 3 | 6 | 24 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 11 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 10 | 72 | 30 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140585 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131864 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130022 | 0.148908 | 0 | 0.147344 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128486 | 0.181537 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098163 | 0.352383 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085163 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136016 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.281137 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089743 | 0.124146 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084811 | 0.128815 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121913 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096632 | 0.270393 | 0 | 0.282161 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.397641 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089931 | 0 | 0 | 0.212449 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111052 | 0 | 0.145299 | 0 | 0.08441 | 0.162824 | 0 | 0 | 0.148175 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.258788 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149882 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | TheCerealFiend | 2019/05/12 | Constantly not caring about my heart conditions Let me start off with I'm only 25 and I'm dealing with an aortic aneurysm and a ton of irregular heart beats everyday. I did way too much cocaine in my teens/early twenties. Lately I think I've been taking unnecessary risks that could potentially pop my aneurysm. I am a f... | 3.36255 | 5.829577 | 4.605602 | 80.482447 | 76.329545 | 6.868449 | 26.830214 | 7.928767 | 1.915671 | 733 | 29 | 129 | 12 | 17 | 241 | 110 | 176 | 0.087 | 0.679 | 0.234 | 0.987 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 14 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 1 | 12 | 4 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 33 | 33 | 11 | 1 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 16 | 11 | 21 | 25 | 4 | 14 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 9 | 5 | 0 | 3 | 7 | 80 | 22 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12224 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.312263 | 0 | 0 | 0.085068 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127541 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135181 | 0 | 0.199754 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.257931 | 0.107743 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117927 | 0 | 0.063251 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114333 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096647 | 0 | 0 | 0.120001 | 0 | 0.104922 | 0 | 0.137916 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.266328 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.444708 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068748 | 0 | 0.141111 | 0 | 0 | 0.127916 | 0 | 0.061114 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105047 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112902 | 0 | 0.083501 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091958 | 0 | 0.09648 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095139 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173448 | 0.109227 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11388 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096303 | 0 | 0 | 0.177083 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130775 | 0 | 0.136832 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188109 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.240464 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198586 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088863 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Account4PersonalShit | 2019/05/12 | It's starting to happen again... I'm starting to lose motivation in everything, I just don't feel like I have the energy or motivation to do anything and nothing seems to be going right. I really don't want to be back in a shitty place again, I just can't seem to take my mind off all the stuff killing me and idk what t... | 4.825563 | 4.229785 | 6.290246 | 81.579313 | 69 | 9.916901 | 29.017606 | 9.516145 | 2.199561 | 262 | 8 | 59 | 5 | 4 | 90 | 47 | 71 | 0.211 | 0.697 | 0.092 | -0.8321 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 13 | 18 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 1 | 11 | 16 | 1 | 11 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 41 | 10 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19197 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179378 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.209658 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117954 | 0.166656 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132579 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206289 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.25809 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113969 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.260981 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.235547 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.223839 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.243729 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149446 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19922 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.42474 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.330234 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.26705 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175398 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137595 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | I_KISSED_A_ROCK | 2019/05/12 | Looking for help Vet here don’t know where fo | 0.997 | 2.995917 | 1.29 | 103.625 | 82 | 4 | 20 | 3.1291 | -0.849 | 37 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 10 | 10 | 0 | 0.748 | 0.252 | 0.4019 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.555396 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.455379 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.695819 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | BamboozledBone | 2019/05/12 | What are some common pills you can peacefully overdose on? I don't know wether this question is allowed or not but i was wondering if their are common pills like painkillers that you can use to peacefully overdose on? | 6.078417 | 7.998491 | 4.95 | 83.321667 | 67.25 | 8.333333 | 33.333333 | 8.841846 | 2.865333 | 177 | 8 | 31 | 3 | 3 | 52 | 31 | 40 | 0 | 0.766 | 0.234 | 0.8862 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 10 | 10 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 3 | 9 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 23 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.285032 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.253382 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.580998 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.44794 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.562445 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | AJR99_exe | 2019/05/12 | Ending my life at 20 years old, UK male. I hate myself, infact, I detest myself. I'm ugly, poor and stupid man.
The one thing that has tipped me over the edge is the fact I'm not talented. I see other 20 year olds, that are models, successful athletes, footballers, musicians/singers, programmers, sport stars, famous, ... | 3.41 | 5.252993 | 4.167778 | 86.555 | 74 | 6.744444 | 24.5 | 7.492282 | 1.17265 | 576 | 18 | 111 | 7 | 12 | 184 | 97 | 144 | 0.214 | 0.67 | 0.116 | -0.9378 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 29 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 12 | 2 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 13 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 11 | 25 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 16 | 7 | 7 | 20 | 2 | 13 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 62 | 23 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102997 | 0 | 0.143773 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187678 | 0 | 0 | 0.172528 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165518 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149649 | 0.174582 | 0 | 0.111597 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.308855 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.261078 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166814 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167816 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092857 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119342 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130313 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165546 | 0.162123 | 0 | 0.531889 | 0 | 0.114492 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187611 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13464 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11225 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171588 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.326416 |
suicidewatch | PanzerMadchen | 2019/05/12 | Fear of Death but Desire to Die Suicidal ideation has persisted in me for years now that I have lost count, a day doesn't go by where I don't idealise the idea of taking my own life. To the point where I will imagine the most explicit ways I could end it all, and the idea is VERY satisfying.
While I am not actively su... | 5.665125 | 6.187887 | 6.481667 | 77.09 | 67.208333 | 9.9 | 31.833333 | 9.888513 | 3.012658 | 973 | 38 | 186 | 21 | 15 | 322 | 135 | 240 | 0.226 | 0.63 | 0.144 | -0.9794 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 18 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 14 | 8 | 2 | 2 | 12 | 0 | 25 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 39 | 43 | 14 | 8 | 6 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 8 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 7 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 23 | 3 | 30 | 36 | 8 | 32 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 12 | 0 | 7 | 12 | 134 | 33 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074715 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180827 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194342 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094643 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175444 | 0 | 0 | 0.212571 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.228055 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096148 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194624 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098744 | 0 | 0 | 0.247269 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114805 | 0 | 0.124883 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121034 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147287 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.24806 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121555 | 0 | 0.120763 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.232813 | 0 | 0 | 0.097017 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119936 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105423 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074451 | 0.167122 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118978 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103863 | 0 | 0.105225 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108483 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087373 | 0 | 0 | 0.087552 | 0.100022 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.36054 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.247826 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072993 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114379 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090654 | 0 | 0.174419 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.25269 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070753 |
suicidewatch | coffecup456 | 2019/05/12 | Feeling depressed even when i am happy, suicide never leaves me I'm 23 years old, finishing uni in one month, my mental health is at its worst and its not because of uni, most of my depression comes from the fact that i suck at everything in life. I have friends but i'm incredibly lonelly, i never had girlfriend and st... | 5.02287 | 5.602725 | 5.747077 | 81.593303 | 68.633028 | 8.063434 | 31.167759 | 7.957252 | 2.149002 | 432 | 17 | 83 | 5 | 7 | 141 | 77 | 109 | 0.234 | 0.691 | 0.076 | -0.9597 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 9 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 10 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 17 | 18 | 6 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 6 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 12 | 3 | 12 | 14 | 3 | 18 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 7 | 1 | 1 | 10 | 59 | 20 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1097 | 0 | 0 | 0.20275 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155017 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143681 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.309994 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.210909 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11886 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161734 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090992 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139035 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191568 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191286 | 0 | 0 | 0.120622 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190549 | 0 | 0 | 0.254219 | 0.087918 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120123 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181355 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14364 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.416383 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172674 | 0 | 0.188835 | 0 | 0.243888 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.204831 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143403 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127375 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.196844 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115887 |
suicidewatch | Dejoowie | 2019/05/12 | I'm all but ready to end it. My bank account is deep in the red, I am failing all my classes and need to pay back my loans with money I won't have because I won't have a degree. The girl I fell in love with cheated on me, because of that I'm losing my friends and the past two weeks I haven't been sober one single night... | 4.63942 | 3.711856 | 5.738304 | 86.490625 | 69.46875 | 7.939286 | 30.004464 | 6.182691 | 1.322215 | 460 | 15 | 105 | 2 | 7 | 154 | 76 | 128 | 0.144 | 0.755 | 0.101 | -0.6956 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 18 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 16 | 26 | 7 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 6 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 16 | 2 | 15 | 21 | 3 | 16 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 72 | 20 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.218065 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179206 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167451 | 0 | 0.398251 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173871 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.385758 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168248 | 0 | 0.113776 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11968 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192294 | 0 | 0 | 0.243628 | 0 | 0 | 0.196545 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161473 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.204362 | 0 | 0 | 0.247932 | 0 | 0 | 0.147566 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.207886 | 0.150974 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.217927 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154138 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.212729 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174682 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | xK4LinEZ | 2019/05/12 | My life is a mess Hello, sorry if this isn't the right community to ask but I think it is.
So I am male 16 years old and my life is just a mess. I don't wanna be like "I'm depressed I need attention" I just want to read some meaningful opinions on how to live properly. I don't read books, I don't watch TV, I don't rea... | -0.233975 | 1.597664 | 2.357647 | 95.18683 | 85.527197 | 5.49764 | 18.765021 | 6.742158 | -0.023137 | 833 | 22 | 201 | 10 | 25 | 288 | 115 | 239 | 0.11 | 0.741 | 0.149 | 0.8798 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 24 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 11 | 1 | 0 | 13 | 0 | 27 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 38 | 42 | 14 | 0 | 8 | 11 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 10 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 10 | 0 | 4 | 11 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 32 | 6 | 23 | 38 | 11 | 17 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 8 | 4 | 0 | 13 | 9 | 137 | 42 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115851 | 0.105093 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080622 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110834 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098989 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104853 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102112 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099038 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100844 | 0 | 0 | 0.091596 | 0 | 0.061941 | 0 | 0.134756 | 0.099439 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126205 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128061 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.251218 | 0.05792 | 0 | 0.209374 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.201584 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129142 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138851 | 0.09463 | 0 | 0.087152 | 0.175815 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124404 | 0 | 0.080336 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.355764 | 0 | 0.455699 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101246 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098071 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09127 | 0 | 0.265427 | 0.167829 | 0.126365 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135718 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075966 | 0 | 0 | 0.069131 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.209782 | 0 | 0 | 0.144369 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076346 |
suicidewatch | Swovine | 2019/05/12 | I'm checking out I don't think any of what I used is lethal but I took about 300 mg of fluoxetine and 30 units of quick acting insulin (I'm a diabetic) just now and seeing where it takes me. I truly hope you all find peace and happiness in your life. | 1.065556 | 2.801314 | 3.262741 | 90.906333 | 80.481481 | 6.542222 | 20.059259 | 7.554174 | 0.42113 | 196 | 5 | 46 | 3 | 5 | 67 | 44 | 54 | 0 | 0.708 | 0.292 | 0.9604 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 11 | 10 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 7 | 2 | 6 | 9 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 27 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.248187 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.333569 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.388509 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.36249 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.257784 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.290828 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.274406 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.233853 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.405487 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.31521 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Three-Strikes | 2019/05/12 | How can I ensure the safety of others who find me via Carbon Monoxide? Dear Reddit
I am going to settle with using my Mazda 3 2007 for my suicide. My friend has agreed to let me watch her dog, while she is gone for a week. Meaning I have access to her garage for me to carry this out. I plan to leave her dog at a pe... | 4.616845 | 6.043815 | 5.92 | 76.869622 | 70.186441 | 8.609996 | 28.30465 | 9.057497 | 2.490927 | 723 | 26 | 127 | 14 | 13 | 243 | 113 | 177 | 0.076 | 0.751 | 0.172 | 0.9317 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 17 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 1 | 17 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 18 | 28 | 9 | 3 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 30 | 4 | 24 | 24 | 3 | 18 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 15 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 99 | 36 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177525 | 0.128648 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1237 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136889 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164018 | 0 | 0 | 0.138576 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178 | 0 | 0.103748 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166958 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.28916 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081341 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.294066 | 0.136836 | 0 | 0 | 0.124288 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091426 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170339 | 0 | 0.164501 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175235 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.354775 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163663 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160914 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180081 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.351933 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148108 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093805 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.277881 | 0 | 0 | 0.189771 | 0 | 0.129041 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | lampardo96 | 2019/05/12 | I never thought I'll do it but I can't take it anymore I have been struggling for a long time. No one around me knows a thing. I am tired of being happy and cheerful in front of everyone.
The person who mattered the most in my life and the one I cared for the most told me that she doesn't care about me. She threw me o... | 1.085389 | 2.640802 | 2.553201 | 96.858481 | 79.759494 | 5.526944 | 20.146474 | 6.182691 | -0.163598 | 283 | 7 | 68 | 2 | 7 | 92 | 54 | 79 | 0.156 | 0.691 | 0.153 | 0.1798 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 9 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 16 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 14 | 4 | 11 | 10 | 2 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 54 | 19 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.214311 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192373 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.440653 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.221143 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206491 | 0.194215 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.230041 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118762 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.305273 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19124 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166668 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.292867 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188689 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.225913 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162479 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143566 | 0 | 0 | 0.171558 | 0.126009 | 0.248373 | 0 | 0.206491 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | FellOffMyLapras | 2019/05/12 | Suicide because of the “adultery” subreddit It’s mother’s day. I know this is the last thing I should be thinking about because I know how much it would kill my mother if I did anything to myself. Anyways, I came across the adultery section here and it blew my mind knowing how many people are having affairs or are PLAN... | 4.305768 | 5.976245 | 4.981807 | 82.342771 | 71.300683 | 7.624843 | 29.084885 | 8.219916 | 2.08371 | 1,797 | 71 | 334 | 27 | 34 | 578 | 231 | 439 | 0.202 | 0.644 | 0.154 | -0.9804 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 37 | 1 | 6 | 8 | 6 | 22 | 39 | 9 | 1 | 17 | 0 | 43 | 2 | 1 | 9 | 5 | 83 | 72 | 35 | 3 | 19 | 17 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 22 | 17 | 0 | 2 | 19 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 10 | 18 | 1 | 2 | 15 | 5 | 59 | 21 | 44 | 47 | 10 | 39 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 32 | 21 | 0 | 12 | 14 | 242 | 81 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072219 | 0 | 0.081581 | 0 | 0.089905 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080797 | 0.056966 | 0 | 0.067044 | 0 | 0 | 0.092685 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.24832 | 0 | 0 | 0.09179 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093181 | 0.083065 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091377 | 0.065048 | 0 | 0 | 0.052542 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107622 | 0 | 0.137286 | 0 | 0.146442 | 0 | 0.153607 | 0 | 0.041194 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.223389 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062944 | 0 | 0.127696 | 0 | 0 | 0.068334 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086727 | 0 | 0.080436 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096544 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080919 | 0 | 0 | 0.087216 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080847 | 0 | 0.180271 | 0 | 0.134323 | 0.06641 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079605 | 0 | 0.143881 | 0.072099 | 0.068415 | 0 | 0.088935 | 0 | 0 | 0.07709 | 0.108765 | 0.247797 | 0.163697 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082263 | 0 | 0.130059 | 0 | 0.119781 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076455 | 0.239473 | 0.078174 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110414 | 0 | 0.086691 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112964 | 0.071137 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08784 | 0 | 0 | 0.081901 | 0 | 0.086654 | 0 | 0 | 0.104385 | 0 | 0 | 0.174939 | 0 | 0.069576 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064922 | 0 | 0.084992 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089116 | 0.092452 | 0.076785 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162377 | 0.104407 | 0 | 0.323395 | 0 | 0 | 0.077225 | 0 | 0 | 0.055313 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.048054 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073252 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166052 | 0.115749 | 0.089076 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | caitlin_28xo | 2019/05/12 | I’m gunna kill myself I don’t care anymore. I can’t deal with this loneliness. Can’t deal with this pain. I just want it to go away. | -1.509 | 0.441714 | 1.101667 | 100.5225 | 94.666667 | 4.333333 | 14.166667 | 5.985473 | -0.945333 | 103 | 2 | 26 | 1 | 4 | 35 | 21 | 30 | 0.345 | 0.524 | 0.131 | -0.8528 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 4 | 7 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 15 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.310761 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.294404 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.319483 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.646104 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178085 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.346677 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.333429 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184823 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | thatmovieguy123 | 2019/05/12 | I don’t know what to do I had a real good week. Hit a real low point on Tuesday last week, but I woke up on Wednesday feeling genuinely refreshed and even a little happy. Done everything in my power to keep it that way. I’ve kept myself busy, been exercising, being productive, getting work done, etc. I’ve even been cle... | 2.26584 | 3.611182 | 3.5866 | 91.6123 | 75.96 | 6.6 | 22.9 | 7.168622 | 0.60416 | 926 | 26 | 209 | 10 | 20 | 303 | 130 | 250 | 0.075 | 0.84 | 0.086 | -0.0794 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 23 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 13 | 6 | 1 | 2 | 12 | 0 | 20 | 6 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 40 | 49 | 15 | 1 | 3 | 9 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 14 | 12 | 0 | 3 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 17 | 4 | 23 | 2 | 33 | 29 | 5 | 46 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 19 | 0 | 0 | 21 | 134 | 37 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123451 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118745 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079182 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174153 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115633 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097548 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.231773 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127383 | 0.100299 | 0 | 0.126295 | 0.299182 | 0 | 0.190823 | 0 | 0.101775 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114518 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177494 | 0 | 0.064358 | 0.094982 | 0.09057 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10014 | 0.120549 | 0 | 0 | 0.116219 | 0 | 0.127632 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100655 | 0.125286 | 0 | 0.186705 | 0.092308 | 0 | 0 | 0.123038 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113499 | 0 | 0.200432 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07559 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.212541 | 0.110954 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108103 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107051 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.257789 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093675 | 0 | 0.113324 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085144 | 0.09102 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.2257 | 0.072561 | 0 | 0.089902 | 0.132065 | 0.260311 | 0 | 0.108208 | 0 | 0.076884 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066793 | 0.089887 | 0.181673 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082442 | 0 | 0 | 0.080444 | 0 | 0 | 0.072924 |
suicidewatch | PastelSprite | 2019/05/12 | I just don't even get the point anymore I keep repeating negative cycles in my life, I keep trusting everyone I shouldn't trust, I'm too old for anyone to give a F about me, I lost all my friends years ago, I developed a crippling psychological condition that's incompatible with daily life, I have no love and support i... | 2.72807 | 4.212329 | 4.698155 | 83.544067 | 75.026786 | 8.192063 | 25.390873 | 8.841846 | 1.812095 | 853 | 29 | 180 | 18 | 18 | 293 | 134 | 224 | 0.201 | 0.705 | 0.094 | -0.9774 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 32 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 15 | 14 | 1 | 1 | 12 | 0 | 24 | 11 | 4 | 3 | 4 | 28 | 40 | 9 | 1 | 6 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 6 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 3 | 25 | 8 | 21 | 27 | 2 | 23 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 7 | 8 | 1 | 3 | 14 | 116 | 35 | 0 | 0 | 0.123788 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092613 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.2608 | 0.113201 | 0 | 0.142096 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103613 | 0.073053 | 0 | 0.085976 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088902 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083416 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109156 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106916 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069006 | 0.189011 | 0.088026 | 0.299497 | 0.093897 | 0 | 0 | 0.117566 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080719 | 0 | 0.054585 | 0.100224 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185728 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.221385 | 0.102084 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114049 | 0 | 0.094295 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110834 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.232405 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109631 | 0 | 0.070796 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144862 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197529 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10742 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089223 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083255 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111359 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118559 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06941 | 0.066945 | 0 | 0 | 0.060921 | 0.240162 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090235 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082929 | 0 | 0 | 0.093937 | 0 | 0.471371 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06728 |
suicidewatch | mario3058 | 2019/05/12 | Bye I’ve realized the only way to win is to not play. Goodbye.” | -1.781429 | 0.131931 | 2.311429 | 90.958571 | 97.571429 | 5.657143 | 21.285714 | 7.168622 | 0.961114 | 48 | 2 | 11 | 1 | 2 | 18 | 13 | 14 | 0.121 | 0.653 | 0.226 | 0.4145 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.691841 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.72205 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | -Winston-Smith- | 2019/05/12 | My final poem I can't take it.
my heart is always hurting.
my love for you is always showing.
Are there females with big hearts?
Are hearts like mine unbelievable?
My love for you is showing
My heart's juice is flowing
Why does love hurt
Why my eyes blur
Can I just be me
Can't my heart let me be free
My heart isn't b... | -0.340281 | 1.758193 | 1.59547 | 98.614856 | 88.80198 | 4.158746 | 17.327558 | 5.461319 | -0.745555 | 362 | 9 | 87 | 2 | 12 | 119 | 54 | 101 | 0.092 | 0.667 | 0.241 | 0.9426 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 9 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 17 | 16 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 25 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 21 | 7 | 4 | 22 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 4 | 6 | 4 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 49 | 22 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138449 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072804 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091136 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076912 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183297 | 0.082376 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.887275 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178123 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085072 | 0 | 0.081289 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.225259 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056375 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057677 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066295 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062552 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150141 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Ch3micalimbalanc3 | 2019/05/12 | I fucked up... Attempted to hang myself again on Friday... I would have been successful, but my ex came home and found me. I thought she would be gone for the entire weekend. I created a delayed post on fb so that someone would call the authorities to find me.
I never wanted her to find me like that. I feel like an ab... | 2.144302 | 3.859577 | 3.314302 | 91.864395 | 77.188976 | 6.822906 | 22.569077 | 7.686295 | 0.79666 | 480 | 14 | 107 | 7 | 11 | 155 | 81 | 127 | 0.229 | 0.667 | 0.104 | -0.9601 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 19 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 10 | 5 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 12 | 4 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 26 | 25 | 7 | 0 | 6 | 4 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 2 | 22 | 3 | 17 | 12 | 3 | 14 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 4 | 3 | 1 | 8 | 78 | 27 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184619 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11698 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170832 | 0.191346 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.221 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169183 | 0.119519 | 0 | 0 | 0.305818 | 0 | 0 | 0.183435 | 0 | 0.154666 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167815 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163468 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158303 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129032 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178019 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188605 | 0.160227 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.343461 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141752 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13987 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134469 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.214398 | 0 | 0.132817 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.296033 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.356534 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | fuckingnloe | 2019/05/12 | I wish I had friends. I have almost no friends. I am a 23 year old college student and I feel like I am so alone. I see all these acquaintances going out with large groups of people, doing fun things for their birthdays, being loved by so many people. I want that. I want to feel closeness to people. I want people to tr... | 1.324259 | 3.616519 | 2.960661 | 90.414139 | 82.801653 | 5.375969 | 20.87794 | 6.671995 | 0.333064 | 465 | 14 | 98 | 5 | 13 | 153 | 75 | 121 | 0.106 | 0.62 | 0.274 | 0.9575 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 10 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 25 | 25 | 9 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 9 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 17 | 9 | 14 | 22 | 2 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 8 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 65 | 23 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0.143715 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147471 | 0.305057 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154552 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.223394 | 0.210421 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.455126 | 0 | 0.076943 | 0 | 0.167395 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104022 | 0.143899 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132918 | 0 | 0.098305 | 0.14931 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154536 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.408397 | 0.128592 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149828 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117356 | 0.13407 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09784 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143863 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.260593 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169355 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189676 |
suicidewatch | Musti3 | 2019/05/12 | I took some pills, and I’m gonna just sleep and see what happens I took like 600mg of sertraline and desvenlafaxine, and like 25 mg of melatonin. Anyone know what I should expect? Oh also I took some lyrica like 500mg.
I’m not worried at all about what’s gonna happen I’m calm right now and at peace. | 1.232513 | 2.997363 | 2.613462 | 95.620705 | 80.076923 | 5.564103 | 18.525641 | 6.427356 | -0.237513 | 238 | 5 | 55 | 2 | 6 | 77 | 40 | 65 | 0 | 0.756 | 0.244 | 0.9215 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 13 | 13 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 4 | 4 | 5 | 7 | 3 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 25 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173629 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151814 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.383994 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119323 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.318219 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185418 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173015 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.217275 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.72368 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.220494 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | destroyood_ | 2019/05/12 | Every time I talk to people, I long more for my suicide Is that normal? Are you feeling the same? | 1.2325 | 3.289909 | 3.06 | 90.935 | 81.5 | 4 | 20 | 3.1291 | -0.3585 | 75 | 2 | 15 | 0 | 2 | 25 | 19 | 20 | 0.226 | 0.707 | 0.066 | -0.6832 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 12 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.363522 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.218158 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.381826 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.422737 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.299118 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.471944 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.346789 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.251586 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | potheidon | 2019/05/12 | i dont deserve to be alive i’m 18, i quit my job, about to graduate high school, and haven’t moved out. im trying to be an artist but im unremarkable in every way and won’t make it out there. i can’t do anything right.
because im transgender, i took away my mom’s dream of having a daughter by insisting on being her so... | 2.303333 | 3.921455 | 4.101112 | 86.819224 | 76.474747 | 7.176242 | 27.031515 | 7.976526 | 1.639821 | 1,122 | 45 | 237 | 18 | 25 | 379 | 156 | 297 | 0.208 | 0.665 | 0.128 | -0.9894 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 26 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 16 | 13 | 2 | 0 | 11 | 0 | 21 | 5 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 49 | 37 | 24 | 3 | 6 | 13 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 18 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 7 | 7 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 1 | 33 | 6 | 43 | 24 | 9 | 29 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 18 | 18 | 0 | 8 | 7 | 162 | 41 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074499 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085056 | 0 | 0 | 0.165559 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080067 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202124 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077984 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093333 | 0 | 0 | 0.093956 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106101 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080183 | 0.093542 | 0 | 0.179383 | 0 | 0.076276 | 0.086506 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.045775 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077005 | 0 | 0 | 0.139887 | 0 | 0.047298 | 0.086845 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121361 | 0.09565 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.58673 | 0 | 0.089837 | 0 | 0.100158 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127889 | 0 | 0 | 0.07994 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153931 | 0 | 0.085662 | 0.181289 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106028 | 0 | 0.096219 | 0 | 0.067127 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061346 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.294107 | 0.086422 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09629 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097196 | 0 | 0.154625 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091622 | 0 | 0.082415 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076706 | 0 | 0.089537 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099026 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068068 | 0.072765 | 0.079128 | 0 | 0 | 0.105113 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104051 | 0 | 0 | 0.100583 | 0.184393 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071859 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087268 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06431 | 0 | 0 | 0.058299 |
suicidewatch | xayawarriorprincess | 2019/05/12 | I add nothing to this world Ever since I was a little girl I've been starved for attention. Would lie about getting praised in school to get attention from my mom, would make scenes just to be seen, etc, etc.
That has followed me into adulthood. I constantly need validation that I'm attractive and I honestly genuinely... | 3.683308 | 5.084437 | 4.959684 | 82.95539 | 72.443038 | 8.10211 | 26.837553 | 8.648137 | 1.913176 | 1,554 | 54 | 309 | 28 | 30 | 516 | 186 | 395 | 0.134 | 0.757 | 0.108 | -0.8056 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 36 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 20 | 22 | 1 | 2 | 11 | 0 | 41 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 6 | 65 | 80 | 20 | 1 | 13 | 11 | 2 | 4 | 6 | 1 | 8 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 4 | 24 | 16 | 0 | 1 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 16 | 6 | 0 | 3 | 10 | 14 | 50 | 16 | 36 | 55 | 9 | 36 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 30 | 21 | 0 | 7 | 15 | 207 | 74 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053886 | 0.083091 | 0 | 0 | 0.15717 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.211622 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193217 | 0.087515 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080791 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085631 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082239 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069344 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066195 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176748 | 0.052338 | 0.143355 | 0.066763 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074701 | 0 | 0.160265 | 0.169828 | 0 | 0 | 0.072424 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061221 | 0 | 0.0828 | 0 | 0.045034 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08931 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089453 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174194 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05597 | 0.232277 | 0.158839 | 0 | 0 | 0.066542 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158681 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092805 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058756 | 0.061115 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076033 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107391 | 0.060266 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08581 | 0 | 0.329612 | 0.207569 | 0 | 0 | 0.149816 | 0.178663 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085075 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.252061 | 0 | 0.080196 | 0.063144 | 0 | 0.082665 | 0 | 0 | 0.065549 | 0.08907 | 0 | 0.080776 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063282 | 0.066249 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127381 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.210575 | 0.101548 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075718 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077406 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065382 | 0.093476 | 0.062897 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080753 | 0.281451 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | 40841754_-73433263 | 2019/05/12 | Hello I'm looking for advice I took this to the guns community but they werent much help. Could an air rifle kill you? | 0.446267 | 2.756962 | 2.764 | 90.088667 | 87.4 | 4.933333 | 16.333333 | 6.427356 | -0.286067 | 94 | 2 | 20 | 1 | 3 | 32 | 24 | 25 | 0.321 | 0.679 | 0 | -0.8869 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.407671 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.33309 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.279632 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.461556 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.350332 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.306681 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.46351 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | tijohsvicto | 2019/05/12 | I love my mom and I'm ashamed of myself It's painful to be alive today. I hate myself, I hate the son that I am. I'm 29, I have a lifetime job, good salary and everything that I want. The only thing that's missing these past couple weeks is happiness. I'm struggling with suicidal thoughts for the first time in my life.... | -0.208456 | 1.893134 | 1.845368 | 97.070592 | 88.090909 | 5.500144 | 19.594517 | 6.937598 | 0.18958 | 554 | 17 | 132 | 8 | 18 | 184 | 81 | 154 | 0.173 | 0.667 | 0.161 | -0.2023 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 32 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 11 | 2 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 10 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 15 | 27 | 7 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 26 | 5 | 16 | 22 | 0 | 18 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 77 | 34 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140842 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109201 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162428 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157138 | 0.311995 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145359 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.255269 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120799 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080711 | 0.119116 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.302357 | 0 | 0.280422 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140929 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10031 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.25635 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.332654 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108009 | 0.151115 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13557 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113414 | 0 | 0 | 0.148466 | 0 | 0.155342 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094349 | 0 | 0 | 0.112745 | 0.082811 | 0 | 0.134614 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.335058 | 0 | 0.113917 | 0 | 0 | 0.13165 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144224 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Tswift666 | 2019/05/12 | I’m doing it tonight I’m tired of living with angry people and trying to deal with trauma at the same time. There’s no way out of this and I’m never getting better so I’m done. | -0.945 | 1.080265 | 1.985 | 95.08 | 91.5 | 3.2 | 13 | 3.1291 | -1.42315 | 140 | 2 | 31 | 0 | 5 | 49 | 31 | 40 | 0.312 | 0.688 | 0 | -0.9119 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 7 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 6 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 19 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.317233 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.369794 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.367065 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187401 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.31673 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.276644 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.248671 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.209155 | 0.412262 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.243527 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.284712 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | pennmallow | 2019/05/12 | An end to this painful day and existence So I've been suicidal for a long time and I'm at the end of my rope. A little backstory, I have a 17 year old daughter that hasn't talked to me for about a month. I don't know why because she lives with her dad and I'm in another state living with a friend because I was homeless... | 1.064604 | 3.007108 | 3.154334 | 90.64829 | 81.446483 | 6.533983 | 22.145356 | 7.645422 | 0.863942 | 1,207 | 39 | 270 | 20 | 32 | 409 | 177 | 327 | 0.18 | 0.733 | 0.087 | -0.9861 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 25 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 17 | 14 | 3 | 0 | 14 | 0 | 27 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 35 | 52 | 30 | 1 | 0 | 9 | 7 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 12 | 16 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 11 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 4 | 37 | 7 | 34 | 38 | 2 | 42 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 22 | 16 | 1 | 1 | 20 | 163 | 49 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092842 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109825 | 0.080123 | 0 | 0.10387 | 0 | 0 | 0.086189 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08745 | 0.127692 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09263 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106947 | 0 | 0.106785 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067546 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120036 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087493 | 0 | 0.18553 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098736 | 0 | 0.052958 | 0.074823 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080919 | 0 | 0.10944 | 0 | 0.119048 | 0 | 0.083767 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111493 | 0.093823 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103934 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05756 | 0 | 0 | 0.1109 | 0 | 0 | 0.147956 | 0.051169 | 0.104973 | 0.277451 | 0.370752 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069912 | 0 | 0 | 0.114088 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083599 | 0 | 0.076993 | 0 | 0.080779 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100497 | 0 | 0.109903 | 0 | 0.070972 | 0.079656 | 0.111446 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072611 | 0.182903 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104764 | 0 | 0.067096 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089444 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083461 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086639 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117243 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114564 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.252548 | 0 | 0.096427 | 0 | 0 | 0.069582 | 0.134221 | 0 | 0 | 0.122145 | 0.120378 | 0 | 0 | 0.116365 | 0.142218 | 0 | 0 | 0.109034 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086418 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189016 | 0 | 0 | 0.201923 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202339 |
suicidewatch | DeepOctxber | 2019/05/12 | Wish I was brave enough I just wish I had people who truly understood, nobody in my life truly understands me because I've never opened up to them, and I don't want too, and I probably never will, I don't want people to see me how I truly am but that's no way to live, I've never had a girlfriend, I don't know how it fe... | 3.486594 | 2.822027 | 5.160688 | 88.78712 | 71.801932 | 8.252657 | 24.496377 | 7.492282 | 0.83891 | 716 | 15 | 175 | 7 | 12 | 246 | 103 | 207 | 0.069 | 0.638 | 0.293 | 0.9947 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 16 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 13 | 11 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 21 | 4 | 1 | 4 | 5 | 40 | 42 | 16 | 0 | 8 | 6 | 3 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 14 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 14 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 5 | 31 | 9 | 17 | 32 | 2 | 18 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 12 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 10 | 117 | 45 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124631 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068847 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.345447 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090173 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116435 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100031 | 0.233393 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101503 | 0 | 0.106469 | 0 | 0.171316 | 0.080684 | 0 | 0.123719 | 0.103224 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120226 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186205 | 0 | 0 | 0.119586 | 0 | 0 | 0.159545 | 0.110353 | 0 | 0.099727 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132273 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.348423 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125406 | 0 | 0 | 0.156596 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121768 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179996 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106444 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117574 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.199844 | 0.089646 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10191 | 0 | 0.519498 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | This_little_boy_alex | 2019/05/12 | It's a little to mich right now. So, I have no idea if this is the right subreddit, bit I hope so.
A lot happened lately, I mean in the past three years. But, even before it got as bad as it is now, my life was a wrecking ball. Or, better, everything else was one and had fun smashing into my life.
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suicidewatch | lonelybleeder | 2019/05/12 | My teeth have led me to madness. I really can't take it anymore, they hurt so bad. Even worse than the throbbing or stinging though is honestly the cosmetic side. I just want a pretty smile, big and healthy teeth that haven't been ground down and turned yellow. It's a constant pain that just won't leave me alone, and o... | 4.23575 | 4.846313 | 5.136233 | 85.164518 | 70.400778 | 8.226047 | 27.958114 | 8.313333 | 1.725628 | 988 | 33 | 208 | 14 | 17 | 323 | 145 | 257 | 0.16 | 0.747 | 0.093 | -0.9735 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 33 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 7 | 11 | 13 | 2 | 0 | 20 | 0 | 21 | 10 | 4 | 3 | 2 | 36 | 40 | 21 | 1 | 5 | 10 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 15 | 14 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 8 | 9 | 9 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 4 | 24 | 4 | 19 | 35 | 2 | 32 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 10 | 14 | 1 | 4 | 9 | 132 | 39 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124425 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091904 | 0 | 0.238285 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.225744 | 0 | 0.100309 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106251 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129824 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077478 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124682 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079349 | 0 | 0 | 0.114795 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102188 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111064 | 0.125532 | 0 | 0.136552 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128608 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127207 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160384 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140702 | 0.095891 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115274 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081407 | 0.182738 | 0.255667 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122222 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.273482 | 0.076962 | 0 | 0.11862 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095537 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125328 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092487 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.36131 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079813 | 0 | 0.236066 | 0 | 0.070052 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081565 | 0.261347 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.212578 | 0.095358 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111367 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087461 | 0.122004 | 0.122429 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077364 |
suicidewatch | Dankaroor | 2019/05/12 | Fuck me My family and my Life just in general is going through a fucked up period now, my sister is having problems with her pregnancy and his boyfriend is turning into a dick, im having health, mental health and school problems a shit ton, my brother tried to commit suicide, my sister and brother (not the suicide one)... | 6.634328 | 6.395868 | 6.998283 | 76.811317 | 65.180258 | 9.572664 | 32.515352 | 9.057497 | 2.721009 | 945 | 34 | 175 | 14 | 13 | 308 | 132 | 233 | 0.269 | 0.632 | 0.099 | -0.9945 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 14 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 13 | 24 | 11 | 1 | 13 | 0 | 17 | 25 | 3 | 0 | 4 | 45 | 38 | 21 | 5 | 9 | 9 | 4 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 15 | 4 | 1 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 17 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 21 | 7 | 20 | 34 | 5 | 19 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 11 | 6 | 9 | 4 | 16 | 121 | 29 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09144 | 0.132529 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063389 | 0 | 0 | 0.057939 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094267 | 0 | 0 | 0.138372 | 0.050512 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071369 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081173 | 0.096094 | 0.169577 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05473 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074471 | 0 | 0.15623 | 0 | 0.041897 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.536232 | 0 | 0 | 0.047092 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088208 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176157 | 0 | 0.098192 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17901 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091674 | 0 | 0.182155 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.292639 | 0.161929 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184082 | 0 | 0.083505 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191725 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056149 | 0.06302 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078331 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089339 | 0.158575 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088963 | 0 | 0.070764 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083861 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085057 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063791 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086625 | 0 | 0.271912 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124604 | 0 | 0.072425 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05505 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056258 | 0.09013 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.195496 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120649 | 0 | 0 | 0.058863 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | taka-nashi | 2019/05/12 | I want to go back to the mental hospital I felt safe there. I can't check myself in, I'm only a minor. I did however hate it so much. They treated us like we were nothing, but it was an escape. The hospital was 3 hours away from home. No distractions. I'm in highschool but everything right now is really shitty. I just ... | 1.059583 | 3.369485 | 3.489444 | 86.075 | 84.138889 | 7.488889 | 21.5 | 8.472885 | 1.588967 | 275 | 9 | 56 | 7 | 8 | 95 | 54 | 72 | 0.203 | 0.687 | 0.11 | -0.8747 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 13 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 9 | 3 | 8 | 8 | 1 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 39 | 11 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.253379 | 0.207372 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.242377 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.258941 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153269 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.26626 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.270517 | 0 | 0.265587 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131755 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.27178 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198251 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.258771 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.205109 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172768 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.230311 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.3244 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.318136 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | paulmaybe | 2019/05/12 | Nothing gets better. I know I want to die. Just not sure how I’m gonna do it yet. Most likely hanging or overdose. Tonight or tomorrow. Not sure yet. | -1.374086 | 0.284976 | 0.889516 | 97.887608 | 109.967742 | 3.356989 | 21.295699 | 5.461319 | 0.067899 | 115 | 5 | 25 | 1 | 6 | 38 | 25 | 31 | 0.305 | 0.656 | 0.039 | -0.8372 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 11 | 6 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 1 | 5 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 14 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.323058 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.3791 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190842 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.200747 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178456 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.350493 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.688539 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.21545 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | throwaway407throw | 2019/05/12 | It gets harder before it gets easier. I keep replaying the the grief and pain my loved ones will experience and it keeps me from doing anything. But the longer I go through this cycle, the easier it seems to be getting to let go. | 3.139667 | 5.219283 | 4.530833 | 82.61625 | 75.444444 | 8.055556 | 22.361111 | 8.841846 | 1.623778 | 181 | 5 | 35 | 4 | 4 | 60 | 33 | 45 | 0.12 | 0.704 | 0.176 | 0.4588 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 13 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 4 | 10 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 25 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.223577 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.231188 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.265764 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.42584 | 0 | 0.308815 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.48298 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.277821 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.24521 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184104 | 0 | 0.289097 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.247336 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | fiamettarose | 2019/05/12 | Scared I really want to kill myself. I read on here that ‘people love you’re very. But no. They don’t. Since I lost my mum, no one has really loved me. I had a partner, but he just said it wasn’t working and deserted me. Like all the others, including friends. I’ve told people I want to die, but no one takes it serious... | -0.549783 | 1.30702 | 2.234957 | 95.425261 | 87.043478 | 6.288696 | 16.808696 | 7.554174 | 0.068566 | 318 | 7 | 80 | 6 | 10 | 111 | 62 | 92 | 0.242 | 0.534 | 0.224 | -0.0117 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 5 | 9 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 14 | 17 | 5 | 2 | 4 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 1 | 13 | 5 | 6 | 10 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 50 | 19 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206825 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.204539 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152265 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.218041 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096284 | 0 | 0 | 0.174411 | 0 | 0 | 0.215138 | 0 | 0.355747 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146133 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.267095 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.273263 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197135 | 0 | 0.252511 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.18747 | 0 | 0.197313 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163028 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164769 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148181 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.18832 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162613 | 0.232487 | 0.156434 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.226634 | 0 | 0 | 0.143478 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | TheyCallMeSadMan | 2019/05/12 | Hopeless and afraid (25M) They say its a pussy way to go.. but you know what? That feeling inside your chest causes so much pain that sometimes you just cant go on. I CANT go on like this. Last week I was left alone by someone I was dating and I didnt thought much of it at first, but now it got me sooo much and its at ... | 0.020172 | 1.716603 | 2.11199 | 98.051435 | 83.735516 | 4.676329 | 17.988051 | 5.369823 | -0.660043 | 1,379 | 31 | 339 | 6 | 39 | 462 | 181 | 397 | 0.226 | 0.681 | 0.093 | -0.9958 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 58 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 4 | 24 | 25 | 1 | 2 | 16 | 2 | 32 | 8 | 3 | 3 | 3 | 50 | 63 | 29 | 2 | 5 | 20 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 39 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 21 | 10 | 2 | 4 | 8 | 6 | 40 | 14 | 33 | 48 | 13 | 43 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 3 | 20 | 17 | 1 | 6 | 22 | 225 | 79 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063873 | 0 | 0.098637 | 0 | 0.066821 | 0.074937 | 0.041939 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183484 | 0 | 0 | 0.1015 | 0 | 0.057654 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112783 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062878 | 0.063353 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135486 | 0.039773 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072278 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055785 | 0 | 0 | 0.055426 | 0 | 0.058138 | 0 | 0.093549 | 0.044058 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104915 | 0 | 0.067619 | 0 | 0.057014 | 0.064441 | 0 | 0.175246 | 0.051727 | 0.049324 | 0 | 0.067938 | 0 | 0.109071 | 0.06565 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073081 | 0.041337 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.666155 | 0 | 0 | 0.054816 | 0 | 0 | 0.067786 | 0.100541 | 0 | 0 | 0.134012 | 0 | 0 | 0.150647 | 0 | 0.054457 | 0 | 0 | 0.068994 | 0 | 0 | 0.111321 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067178 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065423 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181342 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059175 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08358 | 0.046904 | 0.131245 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08551 | 0.053849 | 0.064433 | 0 | 0.058299 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063408 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105334 | 0 | 0.098087 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104508 | 0 | 0.121989 | 0 | 0 | 0.065733 | 0.049251 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070599 | 0.134917 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053903 | 0.056779 | 0 | 0 | 0.122915 | 0.039516 | 0.060592 | 0.09792 | 0.071922 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083741 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053264 | 0 | 0 | 0.072751 | 0.097904 | 0.049469 | 0 | 0.05545 | 0 | 0.055649 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.044897 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074937 | 0 |
suicidewatch | GoneAnon_xx | 2019/05/12 | Brother beat me to it My brother took his life not long ago and all I can think is that he beat me to it. I have to stay now and lately that has been a tough fight. I’m 31 w a career that’s full of sick/death. I can’t tell anyone close to me that I’m struggling because they’re still hurting from the passing of my broth... | 0.292975 | 2.058186 | 2.429691 | 95.76831 | 83.16185 | 5.226658 | 20.581095 | 6.227272 | -0.005517 | 611 | 18 | 145 | 5 | 17 | 206 | 95 | 173 | 0.075 | 0.832 | 0.093 | 0.4323 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 8 | 1 | 1 | 7 | 1 | 16 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 23 | 29 | 10 | 0 | 4 | 7 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 19 | 4 | 20 | 22 | 3 | 23 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 90 | 27 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117794 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092916 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16201 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117696 | 0 | 0 | 0.087769 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125272 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121454 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142256 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.299799 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09386 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.235197 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.303194 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126853 | 0 | 0 | 0.138836 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127267 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170259 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102301 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.566549 | 0.106122 | 0 | 0 | 0.13892 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125242 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116147 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085147 | 0 | 0.210991 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14764 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.235136 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119479 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134951 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Tarzonezzo | 2019/05/12 | I want to die peacefully and make it look like an accident That’s it. My life is a failure, my parents think that I’m doing great in college while I’ve not been taking exams for a whole year and my best friend, the girl who I love the most, rejected me. I keep telling lies to myself and the people who love me in order ... | 8.868496 | 4.307407 | 9.068211 | 77.425474 | 64.18797 | 12.444511 | 37.878195 | 9.3871 | 3.179137 | 480 | 15 | 111 | 6 | 5 | 161 | 79 | 133 | 0.221 | 0.611 | 0.168 | -0.9099 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 11 | 1 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 8 | 3 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 22 | 23 | 12 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 10 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 20 | 8 | 11 | 19 | 5 | 12 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 2 | 13 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 78 | 30 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184313 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182277 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155556 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.271383 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193633 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156108 | 0.194309 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124053 | 0.171608 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.294971 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.317027 | 0 | 0.351704 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135457 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.390034 | 0 | 0 | 0.12176 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.27991 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132052 | 0 | 0.153509 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112537 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103591 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.196085 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1131 |
suicidewatch | Troutbumwombat | 2019/05/12 | Catalytic converter Sat in my old car in the garage for three hours. Nothing. Ran the old ass snow blower at the same time. Nothing. Need a better way. | 0.634828 | 3.022852 | 1.727172 | 93.010069 | 100.034483 | 5.078621 | 19.593103 | 6.742158 | 0.62476 | 118 | 4 | 23 | 2 | 5 | 37 | 24 | 29 | 0.185 | 0.815 | 0 | -0.7101 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 11 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.262414 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.292198 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.220005 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.569398 | 0 | 0.62269 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173013 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.235513 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | mrs_assclown_phd | 2019/05/12 | I was doing really well I’m 20.
I’ve had PTSD for 8 years. Almost my whole life my symptoms have been bad, and have effected my social life, school, work, you name it.
I can’t cope with bad circumstances.
But I was doing really well.
I just came off my Zoloft after having been on it for 7 years. It’s been about 4 ... | 1.587768 | 3.430501 | 3.192125 | 91.521458 | 79.28133 | 6.492782 | 22.625817 | 7.492282 | 0.813177 | 1,460 | 46 | 322 | 21 | 36 | 482 | 185 | 391 | 0.176 | 0.69 | 0.133 | -0.9737 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 44 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 21 | 25 | 2 | 0 | 13 | 1 | 34 | 9 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 55 | 62 | 32 | 2 | 5 | 11 | 2 | 3 | 5 | 1 | 2 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 15 | 22 | 1 | 2 | 7 | 0 | 6 | 9 | 13 | 9 | 2 | 0 | 13 | 7 | 39 | 16 | 43 | 43 | 6 | 47 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 11 | 11 | 2 | 2 | 31 | 196 | 54 | 9 | 0.086403 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173041 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.195222 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144286 | 0.052671 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090675 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197645 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090592 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055723 | 0 | 0.074419 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088421 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076528 | 0.089278 | 0 | 0 | 0.078157 | 0.218395 | 0.082562 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087376 | 0.061727 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066755 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09821 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091978 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097539 | 0 | 0.090183 | 0.085742 | 0.076799 | 0 | 0 | 0.047485 | 0.07043 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.244117 | 0.211061 | 0 | 0.076296 | 0.076464 | 0 | 0.193326 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057675 | 0.175199 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087243 | 0.202389 | 0.137933 | 0 | 0.063516 | 0.064067 | 0 | 0.083449 | 0 | 0.081084 | 0.084657 | 0 | 0 | 0.090666 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087903 | 0 | 0 | 0.101001 | 0 | 0 | 0.091901 | 0 | 0 | 0.110704 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174889 | 0.068852 | 0 | 0.090137 | 0 | 0.177383 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088077 | 0 | 0.066517 | 0 | 0 | 0.18347 | 0 | 0 | 0.072237 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189022 | 0 | 0 | 0.089806 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100321 | 0.057402 | 0.055364 | 0 | 0.068595 | 0.100765 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117324 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101926 | 0 | 0 | 0.105216 | 0.155374 | 0 | 0.077966 | 0.096466 | 0 | 0.08329 | 0 | 0.125805 | 0 | 0 | 0.061378 | 0 | 0 | 0.222564 |
suicidewatch | Biggdogg1964 | 2019/05/12 | Tired of expecting love This may be the last thing i will ever text. My wife dosent appreciate the things im doing for her on mothers day. I'm tired of lovless marriage. No one cares . fuck it | 0.056154 | 2.412884 | 1.770641 | 93.945192 | 96.435897 | 4.651282 | 19.320513 | 6.427356 | 0.183851 | 151 | 5 | 32 | 2 | 6 | 49 | 34 | 39 | 0.228 | 0.575 | 0.196 | -0.1531 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 20 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.27975 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176953 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.248194 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.253661 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.296379 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.223658 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.24764 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185928 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.364574 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.630722 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | BeginningNorth | 2019/05/12 | Ever feel so tired of living you want somebody else to do it for you? I just feel no desire, no hope, no fear, nothing. Just this constant feeling that somebody else could play out my role a lot better than me. A desire to just swap lives and return to wherever people go after death. | 2.841786 | 4.866884 | 3.738714 | 88.206286 | 76.142857 | 5.194286 | 21.914286 | 5.683918 | 0.280319 | 222 | 6 | 42 | 1 | 5 | 71 | 44 | 56 | 0.236 | 0.542 | 0.222 | -0.4663 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 15 | 8 | 2 | 1 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 3 | 8 | 7 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 30 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.208543 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.254812 | 0 | 0.188264 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.393955 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.213291 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.265336 | 0.357677 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134008 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.234199 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.416425 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.200466 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.226253 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163471 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.271013 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139079 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | about20min | 2019/05/12 | All I need to do is wait and I'm impatient I'm waiting for my spouse to pass. Some days it seems like only months away and other times I'll just wait another 5-10 years. I'd say I'm 75% complete with the puzzle, just a few important pieces left.
Once my spouse is gone and the grieving subsides with family. I disconnec... | 2.272442 | 4.730977 | 2.742251 | 92.403506 | 80.238095 | 6.484848 | 24.78355 | 7.686295 | 1.277952 | 422 | 16 | 87 | 7 | 11 | 130 | 77 | 105 | 0.078 | 0.879 | 0.042 | -0.5574 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 39 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 22 | 16 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 8 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 7 | 1 | 16 | 13 | 6 | 17 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 7 | 0 | 4 | 8 | 51 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.269996 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.241916 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.269969 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166057 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.242734 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.282063 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146335 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.279759 | 0 | 0.18187 | 0.125794 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.205522 | 0 | 0 | 0.190922 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.274214 | 0 | 0.195829 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.277613 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.204763 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.234405 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.204415 | 0.150142 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151872 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165812 |
suicidewatch | eyrbjadhjucfsvxzp | 2019/05/12 | It's sunny and nice outside but I just want to die I've been too much for people who used to offer help. I was too anxious, depressed and hopeless, scared of losing those people all the time and became even more desperate and suicidal.
So here I am, alone again, not wanting to go out because it reminds me of every goo... | 2.919213 | 5.42064 | 4.379225 | 81.339821 | 78.069767 | 6.139773 | 26.202147 | 7.32111 | 1.664138 | 531 | 21 | 90 | 7 | 13 | 176 | 83 | 129 | 0.228 | 0.487 | 0.285 | 0.8325 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 16 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 23 | 19 | 9 | 2 | 9 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 7 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 14 | 9 | 13 | 13 | 3 | 7 | 1 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 70 | 23 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149339 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162896 | 0 | 0.100822 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087898 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115125 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124192 | 0 | 0.149648 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095237 | 0 | 0.121488 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081948 | 0.120941 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096649 | 0 | 0 | 0.143215 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161314 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105998 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.282555 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.399858 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144361 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146985 | 0.122173 | 0 | 0 | 0.161411 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157722 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095795 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084079 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.249071 | 0 | 0 | 0.170096 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.259292 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.49744 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Jaan_Boy | 2019/05/12 | My best friend just commited suicide My best friend comitted suicide last night.. Honestly its my fault too.. I was being negative and suicidal.. He just couldnt handle it anymore.. Why the hell should i stay when everything is just taken away from me.. | 3.253333 | 6.386896 | 3.592778 | 82.6625 | 84.555556 | 7.444444 | 27.5 | 8.3441 | 2.725 | 200 | 9 | 33 | 5 | 6 | 62 | 37 | 45 | 0.287 | 0.458 | 0.255 | -0.4939 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 6 | 2 | 3 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 6 | 5 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 25 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.203582 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192867 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.430856 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184492 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.317197 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16733 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192641 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.218801 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.673627 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185233 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | throwawaycanttry | 2019/05/12 | Like anyone can help my brain. Look for an interesting read I guess I’m not gonna pretend I know shit about anything or how to be ok anymore Dissociating, car crash recently guy said repair be 150, really 1000, job going in trash, scared but also don’t care kinda plan to die
28 years of life nothing good or worth it ju... | 3.411609 | 4.986944 | 4.327149 | 86.525575 | 73.422442 | 6.898185 | 22.52599 | 7.492282 | 0.802435 | 1,192 | 30 | 242 | 14 | 24 | 385 | 179 | 303 | 0.275 | 0.556 | 0.169 | -0.9938 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 10 | 30 | 10 | 1 | 12 | 2 | 24 | 15 | 6 | 4 | 3 | 38 | 51 | 19 | 3 | 4 | 12 | 4 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 3 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 12 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 4 | 2 | 6 | 12 | 14 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 20 | 16 | 31 | 41 | 5 | 30 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 3 | 20 | 10 | 7 | 8 | 16 | 137 | 32 | 7 | 0 | 0.100951 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094023 | 0.068137 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084498 | 0.059576 | 0 | 0.070115 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15071 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.285343 | 0.087002 | 0 | 0.26061 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068027 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088427 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077071 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.043081 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131655 | 0.236306 | 0 | 0.163468 | 0.145268 | 0.071464 | 0 | 0 | 0.09386 | 0.168728 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08412 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171329 | 0.090021 | 0 | 0.084626 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084551 | 0 | 0.094264 | 0.088726 | 0.046825 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.300906 | 0.083251 | 0 | 0.075236 | 0 | 0.071549 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056873 | 0.086382 | 0.085598 | 0.092811 | 0 | 0 | 0.085864 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.327017 | 0 | 0.089406 | 0 | 0.057736 | 0.064801 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085226 | 0 | 0.054583 | 0.087603 | 0.084127 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081047 | 0 | 0.085303 | 0.08623 | 0.067896 | 0 | 0.088885 | 0 | 0.262378 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071233 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054594 | 0 | 0 | 0.049682 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070301 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153764 | 0.190252 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062029 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.219471 |
suicidewatch | drowning_hamster | 2019/05/12 | Gonna hang later after my family all go to bed. Me a 26m loser who still lives with his parents.
The dad, who has been an alcoholic since I can remember and been jobless since I was a teenager, everyday after getting drunk, scolds me for being a useless pile of crap making no money for him.
The mom literally never care... | 5.388701 | 6.82701 | 5.884286 | 77.810714 | 68.350649 | 8.457143 | 33.480519 | 8.841846 | 3.017618 | 648 | 30 | 111 | 11 | 11 | 209 | 116 | 154 | 0.247 | 0.709 | 0.044 | -0.9859 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 16 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 12 | 3 | 1 | 10 | 0 | 12 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 19 | 25 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 2 | 4 | 3 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 12 | 4 | 16 | 17 | 5 | 18 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 13 | 3 | 2 | 3 | 11 | 69 | 16 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161453 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102736 | 0.158415 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092094 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164935 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.462093 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097431 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154632 | 0.132207 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099784 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135776 | 0 | 0.14242 | 0 | 0.076388 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07893 | 0 | 0.257578 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154484 | 0 | 0 | 0.151417 | 0.133402 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100844 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152248 | 0 | 0 | 0.176937 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116518 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167751 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169238 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171138 | 0 | 0.143707 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.249941 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116305 | 0.298834 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120649 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17541 | 0 | 0.096803 | 0 | 0 | 0.176186 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10257 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | no_username2 | 2019/05/12 | No matter how happy I am, I always feel suicidal deep inside. It seems like nothing can ever convince me that life is worth living. I feel like even if I had everything I've ever wanted and experienced the most immense happiness a human can ever experience, I would still choose death over life, because the pain always ... | 6.506496 | 6.817497 | 7.042604 | 74.525627 | 65.378378 | 9.105651 | 32.493857 | 8.841846 | 2.716784 | 767 | 29 | 136 | 11 | 11 | 252 | 115 | 185 | 0.239 | 0.606 | 0.155 | -0.9754 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 19 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 13 | 17 | 1 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 19 | 5 | 2 | 2 | 4 | 41 | 34 | 12 | 5 | 6 | 9 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 13 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 6 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 19 | 12 | 13 | 25 | 3 | 17 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 0 | 6 | 9 | 97 | 28 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.231148 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130694 | 0 | 0.197092 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117454 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111272 | 0 | 0 | 0.144392 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.264422 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09456 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156448 | 0.32139 | 0 | 0 | 0.10644 | 0.115851 | 0 | 0 | 0.299418 | 0.169218 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099336 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.252149 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125132 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126786 | 0.133697 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.210538 | 0.131029 | 0 | 0.065088 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167306 | 0.173582 | 0 | 0.209158 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11364 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126022 | 0 | 0 | 0.128252 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107817 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094581 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.259094 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151775 | 0 | 0.188046 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069855 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084132 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | jaecmk | 2019/05/12 | I don’t know what to do.. Hi, maybe you can help me... Im feeling like a liability for my family... I’m need their money for my living (I’m studying right know and they pay my rent). But I need more time... I’m rushed through my lectures and passed everyone with best marks... but I need more time for my bachelors degre... | 1.606474 | 3.275884 | 3.648384 | 89.076549 | 78.602649 | 6.914106 | 23.024779 | 7.8226 | 1.032889 | 1,671 | 53 | 368 | 27 | 40 | 569 | 177 | 453 | 0.108 | 0.778 | 0.114 | -0.3116 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 103 | 3 | 1 | 7 | 14 | 10 | 16 | 1 | 3 | 23 | 0 | 34 | 4 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 66 | 73 | 26 | 1 | 15 | 12 | 1 | 5 | 4 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 24 | 19 | 0 | 0 | 15 | 2 | 7 | 3 | 17 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 72 | 9 | 53 | 66 | 12 | 39 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 32 | 23 | 0 | 3 | 16 | 248 | 96 | 23 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077009 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14748 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135978 | 0 | 0.06327 | 0 | 0.078031 | 0 | 0.162352 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059366 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062647 | 0.071049 | 0.133651 | 0 | 0.14019 | 0 | 0.18798 | 0.106238 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057446 | 0 | 0.038847 | 0 | 0.042258 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.199354 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080316 | 0 | 0.073786 | 0 | 0.082263 | 0 | 0.326908 | 0.121218 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076033 | 0.105038 | 0.145304 | 0.149046 | 0.131313 | 0.065802 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075384 | 0.074699 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075077 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163978 | 0.330799 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077685 | 0 | 0 | 0.167648 | 0.071211 | 0 | 0 | 0.071148 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158171 | 0.074375 | 0.084632 | 0.190534 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063499 | 0 | 0.05913 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061507 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083234 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167717 | 0.059764 | 0.129979 | 0.068456 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059029 | 0.130071 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061351 | 0.131569 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.324787 | 0.226533 | 0 | 0.105639 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | M1nit | 2019/05/12 | Fml. [Rant/vent]
My mom just told me that I will have to water the new AND old strawberry plants. That's around 750 meters in strawberry plants needed to be watered... every. fucking. day. To make it better I also have to spend another 2 hours watering other shit in the greenhouse. Call me a pussy but it's just too mu... | 1.04849 | 3.518468 | 2.107686 | 90.143449 | 99.776699 | 5.007335 | 18.343581 | 6.691623 | 0.557484 | 429 | 13 | 78 | 7 | 18 | 135 | 74 | 103 | 0.22 | 0.623 | 0.157 | -0.8438 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 27 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 11 | 4 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 4 | 11 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 10 | 12 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 7 | 5 | 11 | 9 | 3 | 12 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 6 | 4 | 0 | 7 | 44 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126283 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165586 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140576 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139662 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161247 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101841 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131916 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133049 | 0 | 0.141922 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079846 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.437965 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.3482 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.335709 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.311026 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077149 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105408 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15914 | 0 | 0 | 0.184946 | 0 | 0 | 0.116085 | 0.117091 | 0 | 0.152514 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165704 | 0 | 0 | 0.1201 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162096 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104911 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150893 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.26059 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | nickone1 | 2019/05/12 | is it possible to messed up a life? i'm blaming myself for my entire life. my parents divorce because of me, my dad stop working for navy because of me. i just broke up, because i cant give a commitment in my relationship. i dont see any bright future near me. i hope my mom abort me before i was born, i cant live this ... | 1.601878 | 3.065082 | 3.982746 | 87.58473 | 78.014085 | 6.423474 | 27.326291 | 7.168622 | 1.351421 | 258 | 11 | 56 | 3 | 6 | 90 | 47 | 71 | 0.217 | 0.742 | 0.041 | -0.8831 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 16 | 2 | 9 | 8 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 6 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 35 | 18 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148549 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.216636 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.399482 | 0 | 0.185879 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.256013 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.20955 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.216963 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.462878 | 0 | 0 | 0.192889 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.255837 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.242555 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.246261 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.234526 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174071 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182628 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159029 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Twigganape | 2019/05/12 | im pushing away all my friends i want to kill myself without any regret or being held back, i want the least amount of people possible to care if i die | 4.2325 | 4.399432 | 5.4 | 84.845 | 70.25 | 7.65 | 28.5 | 7.168622 | 1.47145 | 120 | 4 | 25 | 1 | 2 | 40 | 27 | 32 | 0.211 | 0.514 | 0.275 | -0.0946 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 5 | 2 | 2 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 5 | 3 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 17 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.203992 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.281835 | 0.230661 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.305842 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.311325 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.231758 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.324022 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.331876 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.207964 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.338174 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.353864 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.289163 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Throwaway27584 | 2019/05/12 | Tired Anyone else just feel extremely tired all the time? Like not wanting to do anything but stay in bed or waste time doing something meaningless? | 6.989615 | 9.287173 | 5.364615 | 79.755385 | 65.538462 | 8.276923 | 32.230769 | 8.841846 | 2.891677 | 121 | 5 | 19 | 2 | 2 | 35 | 24 | 26 | 0.345 | 0.605 | 0.05 | -0.8809 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.200773 | 0.294206 | 0.23629 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.239866 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145185 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140281 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.221052 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.30605 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.334864 | 0.660044 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169361 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | CarriFisher | 2019/05/12 | Is writing a suicide note part of your planning? How many of you feel you have to do this? I'm not sure about it - I have no desire to communicate anything but seems like most people want to ensure someone understands after they're gone? | 5.588623 | 6.428109 | 5.781304 | 80.923841 | 67.478261 | 7.872464 | 30.550725 | 7.793538 | 2.01569 | 189 | 7 | 35 | 2 | 3 | 60 | 40 | 46 | 0.113 | 0.676 | 0.211 | 0.725 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 11 | 10 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 7 | 9 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 24 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.275597 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169337 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163617 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.33954 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.362668 | 0 | 0.23218 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.304884 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.283763 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.36633 | 0 | 0.315643 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.348646 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197535 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | juliaaschucht | 2019/05/12 | What would happen if I took ~350mg of Prozac (fluoxetine)? Would it be enough to kill me? Would it just make me really sick? Would it do nothing at all? | 0.221452 | 2.573178 | 1.897016 | 95.265524 | 89.967742 | 5.680645 | 14.201613 | 7.168622 | -0.342103 | 117 | 2 | 27 | 2 | 4 | 38 | 25 | 31 | 0.255 | 0.745 | 0 | -0.8821 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 8 | 9 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 20 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.2746 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.23501 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.294023 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177396 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.255003 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170252 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.295268 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.75515 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | broken_nightlight | 2019/05/12 | I’m not really a life worth living. Everyone I see around me-my peers, are getting jobs. Cashier, waitress/waiter, small part time jobs for a quick buck. Listening to them talk about it makes me even more depressed than I already am. I’m physically disabled, and I get burnt out just from attending classes. How am i sup... | 2.231917 | 3.196612 | 3.77 | 91.781667 | 75.416667 | 7 | 23.333333 | 7.38713 | 0.678083 | 433 | 12 | 102 | 5 | 9 | 144 | 76 | 120 | 0.118 | 0.843 | 0.039 | -0.8205 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 7 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 8 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 13 | 21 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 13 | 1 | 16 | 21 | 6 | 17 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 60 | 14 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171058 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137992 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162674 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.199938 | 0 | 0.13351 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102383 | 0 | 0 | 0.148119 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141677 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.24296 | 0 | 0.088096 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152654 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.615296 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109488 | 0 | 0 | 0.273754 | 0.137179 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103471 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167861 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099304 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.247047 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124592 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099324 | 0 | 0 | 0.090388 | 0.178162 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.2558 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | SharkInHumanSkin | 2019/05/12 | I think I'm pretty well done I said my goodbyes this morning. It's just a matter of going now. And my phone went off just now as I was getting my shoes on to go. "Love you." Somewhere between the title and the paragraph. | -0.190145 | 2.06987 | 1.765217 | 96.062029 | 91.173913 | 3.066667 | 20.710145 | 3.1291 | -0.460525 | 170 | 6 | 36 | 0 | 6 | 56 | 37 | 46 | 0 | 0.773 | 0.227 | 0.8625 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 10 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 7 | 2 | 6 | 6 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 27 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.375053 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191479 | 0 | 0.416576 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.330777 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.372858 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.348622 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.234836 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.329524 | 0.339746 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | serg733 | 2019/05/12 | What is the real meaning of life... When you’re born you come into this earth alone... when you’re go you go alone also.. | -1.7856 | -0.315602 | 0.048 | 103.624 | 112.6 | 2 | 9 | 3.1291 | -2.267 | 91 | 1 | 21 | 0 | 5 | 29 | 18 | 25 | 0.083 | 0.917 | 0 | -0.25 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 11 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.656835 | 0 | 0.253583 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.273152 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.360428 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.223976 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.345412 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.360927 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | OtherwisePromotion4 | 2019/05/12 | I wish I had the courage to end it. I’m most likely going to kill myself because of my height and my appearance and because nobody takes this seriously I‘m 5‘6 in a country where the average man is above 6ft. I am towered over by 80% of women and I have struggled with it for most of my life. But not any longer. My life... | 3.110859 | 4.534303 | 4.797313 | 83.466438 | 73.921875 | 8.5575 | 29.20625 | 9.120679 | 2.424613 | 493 | 21 | 103 | 11 | 10 | 167 | 83 | 128 | 0.12 | 0.823 | 0.057 | -0.7061 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 8 | 2 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 10 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 23 | 21 | 12 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 15 | 3 | 16 | 17 | 2 | 12 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 1 | 5 | 6 | 70 | 23 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145821 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.261432 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.18469 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.219438 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189923 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.195987 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.243733 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189622 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.237237 | 0 | 0.117846 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.302919 | 0.104761 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.227478 | 0 | 0 | 0.171158 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.231194 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.220111 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.224171 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161226 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.245222 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170235 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.246586 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.276174 |
suicidewatch | Jenndl93 | 2019/05/12 | What's the point? I ask myself this every day...what's the point? I'm working my butt off every day on rotating 1st and 3rd shifts, losing mass amounts of sleep, all to support a gf that has zero appreciation for me. I am female and live with and am currently in a relationship with my best friend of 10+ years but thing... | 4.419705 | 5.589464 | 5.149008 | 83.187051 | 70.380753 | 7.799262 | 26.611125 | 8.124752 | 1.611326 | 955 | 30 | 186 | 13 | 17 | 309 | 140 | 239 | 0.223 | 0.704 | 0.074 | -0.9929 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 20 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 9 | 14 | 3 | 0 | 15 | 1 | 15 | 5 | 3 | 3 | 4 | 40 | 28 | 19 | 2 | 2 | 6 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 21 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 3 | 20 | 6 | 35 | 15 | 7 | 35 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 19 | 2 | 1 | 16 | 132 | 33 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094332 | 0.098151 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110276 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071907 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123791 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132301 | 0.094181 | 0 | 0 | 0.152148 | 0 | 0.203196 | 0 | 0.122423 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106701 | 0.198771 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059644 | 0.08427 | 0.113259 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091135 | 0 | 0 | 0.113157 | 0.067039 | 0.098938 | 0.188685 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116166 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130504 | 0.122836 | 0 | 0.096152 | 0.133063 | 0 | 0.128163 | 0 | 0 | 0.057629 | 0.118226 | 0.20832 | 0 | 0 | 0.263932 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111616 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090977 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.22637 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.334528 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121282 | 0.232941 | 0.126644 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097577 | 0 | 0.236089 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133859 | 0 | 0.122605 | 0.088691 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156734 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112715 | 0 | 0.080086 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131697 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171751 | 0 | 0 | 0.083795 | 0 | 0 | 0.075962 |
suicidewatch | lysecro | 2019/05/12 | I decided to actively start the planning There are just too many problems in my life. I am broken.
I am currently saving up some money to buy the drugs I need to be 100% sure I will die.
In about a month, I'll take that drug cocktail with a smile on my face. | 1.111636 | 2.783813 | 3.074545 | 92.611818 | 80.090909 | 6.581818 | 21.909091 | 7.554174 | 0.699655 | 199 | 6 | 46 | 3 | 5 | 67 | 43 | 55 | 0.168 | 0.709 | 0.123 | -0.5574 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 5 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 2 | 9 | 6 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 30 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.299096 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.668418 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.203557 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.292179 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.23003 | 0 | 0 | 0.213689 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.275759 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.203982 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.271616 | 0 | 0.216683 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | pressurisedkid | 2019/05/12 | life is so lonely The person I am to others really isn’t the person I am when Im alone. Expressing this has become so hard, so I keep on hiding it. But i’m really so lonely | -0.371923 | 1.367168 | 3.945833 | 84.13875 | 85.410256 | 6.976923 | 12.314103 | 8.076483 | 0.144687 | 134 | 1 | 29 | 3 | 4 | 52 | 26 | 39 | 0.314 | 0.686 | 0 | -0.8959 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 21 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.323627 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.345101 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.279913 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.337523 | 0 | 0 | 0.277739 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.220708 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.545677 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.400355 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | shayasha | 2019/05/12 | It still torments, I want to end it here .... This all started 2 years back , when my 4 years boyfriend broke up with me on my birthday over some stupid reasons.To me he was everything that year we were going to meet after our finals. That day was actually the worst day , i lost my best friend , my other half just bec... | 3.156123 | 4.525134 | 3.753783 | 91.210494 | 73.715447 | 7.130167 | 23.10997 | 7.66913 | 0.747036 | 946 | 25 | 211 | 12 | 19 | 298 | 136 | 246 | 0.11 | 0.795 | 0.095 | -0.6713 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 46 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 13 | 18 | 3 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 16 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 31 | 34 | 12 | 1 | 6 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 18 | 11 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 13 | 3 | 38 | 8 | 37 | 19 | 8 | 46 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 17 | 14 | 0 | 1 | 29 | 144 | 56 | 0 | 0.111287 | 0 | 0.1086 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.220733 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198138 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171145 | 0 | 0.067839 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.233577 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127283 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116682 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143542 | 0 | 0.095851 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098567 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100017 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11254 | 0 | 0 | 0.121909 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.25794 | 0 | 0.058143 | 0 | 0.063247 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110192 | 0.098411 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118293 | 0 | 0 | 0.074593 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06116 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15721 | 0 | 0.111539 | 0.098268 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121483 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14857 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112151 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177656 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106236 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184115 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094293 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157539 | 0 | 0.355495 | 0.093041 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12173 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167348 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147868 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075556 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19692 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124248 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15811 | 0 | 0 | 0.28666 |
suicidewatch | peony27 | 2019/05/12 | I can’t do this anymore I can’t do this anymore. Every time I try and get my life together and get to a better place there is always something that happens.
It’s one horrendous thing after another. I don’t have it in me to keep getting back up. I’m tired of fighting just to have a shit life. I’m sick of being told t... | 0.702308 | 2.92347 | 2.745641 | 91.407692 | 84.897436 | 5.309402 | 20.538462 | 6.671995 | 0.354031 | 876 | 27 | 186 | 10 | 26 | 294 | 115 | 234 | 0.163 | 0.739 | 0.098 | -0.9372 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 24 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 9 | 15 | 4 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 27 | 13 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 18 | 50 | 10 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 10 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 12 | 7 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 7 | 8 | 1 | 2 | 10 | 4 | 24 | 7 | 28 | 33 | 2 | 16 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 16 | 7 | 3 | 0 | 7 | 118 | 36 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080555 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101515 | 0 | 0 | 0.288034 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074442 | 0 | 0.118031 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171244 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062436 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163136 | 0 | 0.174016 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179002 | 0.20232 | 0 | 0.05502 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08561 | 0.103058 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.205813 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09711 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101046 | 0.096071 | 0.172101 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.273524 | 0 | 0.194061 | 0.170973 | 0 | 0 | 0.108308 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097563 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185787 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131204 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084532 | 0.101148 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104379 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.27627 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099376 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07453 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084618 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.25727 | 0 | 0.095117 | 0 | 0.056452 | 0.222542 | 0 | 0.185015 | 0 | 0.131458 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114204 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087045 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137544 | 0 | 0 | 0.187031 |
suicidewatch | Waggish_Waffle | 2019/05/12 | I’m done Last couple of nights I’ve been sitting next to the tracks, waiting for the moment that I’m done. My girl left me for somebody better, older, more mature, she cheated on me and then turned lying to me and humiliating me into a sport. I’ve been having nightmares about killing myself and then dreams of killing m... | 5.029193 | 5.478571 | 5.117632 | 86.572588 | 68.578947 | 6.754386 | 25.307018 | 5.461319 | 0.588754 | 374 | 9 | 76 | 1 | 6 | 117 | 63 | 95 | 0.114 | 0.777 | 0.109 | -0.1369 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 13 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 12 | 2 | 16 | 8 | 2 | 20 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 54 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193371 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.241924 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.447494 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193652 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110552 | 0.156198 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.483791 | 0 | 0 | 0.178223 | 0 | 0 | 0.237556 | 0 | 0 | 0.106818 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.232529 | 0.205181 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151579 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206688 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174608 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175736 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127492 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.23782 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | EktoGamat | 2019/05/12 | Nobody cares...I'm done It has been a long time coming. Tried to get some support here but nobody cares. Swallowed every pill I can find and am in the closet with a rope around my neck. Always have a backup plan. Goodbye cruel world. This is what everybody really wants anyway. | 1.204658 | 3.728465 | 2.094103 | 90.339786 | 99 | 3.849573 | 13.470085 | 5.822114 | -0.556648 | 218 | 4 | 38 | 2 | 9 | 68 | 48 | 52 | 0.094 | 0.799 | 0.106 | -0.09 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 7 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 12 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 4 | 10 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 25 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.266315 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.284921 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.326322 | 0 | 0 | 0.275703 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.327532 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.269664 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.292528 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167218 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.283242 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.205038 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.3632 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186629 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.217299 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188779 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Dmforman87 | 2019/05/12 | So yea, been thinking about attempting again I screwed up the best part of my years pretty bad... I had a lot going for me but somewhat along the way I just stopped caring. I drove my life deeper & deeper into the ground. I have since, in the past couple years, started picking what little pieces I could back up &am... | 1.663345 | 3.52148 | 3.113867 | 92.098592 | 79.107527 | 6.307431 | 22.100715 | 7.297712 | 0.623896 | 3,138 | 94 | 697 | 41 | 77 | 1,026 | 329 | 837 | 0.211 | 0.697 | 0.092 | -0.999 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 158 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 9 | 50 | 52 | 15 | 4 | 45 | 3 | 69 | 18 | 5 | 7 | 4 | 115 | 131 | 33 | 2 | 19 | 33 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 2 | 7 | 9 | 3 | 2 | 4 | 47 | 20 | 2 | 1 | 24 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 21 | 30 | 2 | 2 | 32 | 11 | 123 | 21 | 96 | 85 | 23 | 90 | 1 | 4 | 6 | 3 | 56 | 36 | 3 | 18 | 45 | 472 | 170 | 7 | 0 | 0.044265 | 0.036457 | 0 | 0 | 0.036507 | 0.066234 | 0 | 0.03741 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.031086 | 0.728622 | 0 | 0.050811 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10449 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104778 | 0 | 0 | 0.057454 | 0.062387 | 0.159418 | 0 | 0.06358 | 0 | 0.039206 | 0.066083 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076181 | 0 | 0 | 0.032182 | 0.039171 | 0 | 0 | 0.059657 | 0.082675 | 0 | 0.024094 | 0 | 0.032178 | 0 | 0 | 0.039033 | 0 | 0 | 0.032694 | 0.038232 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.033089 | 0.038602 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071397 | 0.033576 | 0 | 0.035219 | 0 | 0.03778 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068292 | 0 | 0 | 0.081925 | 0.028864 | 0.034538 | 0.058556 | 0 | 0.042464 | 0.062671 | 0 | 0.041189 | 0.164623 | 0.073984 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184424 | 0.038342 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.025041 | 0 | 0 | 0.037106 | 0.036792 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074147 | 0 | 0.041333 | 0 | 0.102659 | 0.060906 | 0 | 0.079117 | 0.040591 | 0 | 0.184717 | 0.054756 | 0.037444 | 0 | 0 | 0.062745 | 0 | 0.040782 | 0.031762 | 0.033718 | 0 | 0 | 0.037877 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.037722 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.027464 | 0.027702 | 0.028814 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.036604 | 0.035847 | 0 | 0.039202 | 0 | 0.050631 | 0 | 0.039753 | 0 | 0 | 0.040457 | 0.035664 | 0.077701 | 0.032621 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.038008 | 0.04028 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.047867 | 0.038412 | 0.036888 | 0 | 0.042321 | 0.095714 | 0 | 0.02971 | 0.149613 | 0 | 0.119083 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061808 | 0 | 0 | 0.038083 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.026443 | 0.03982 | 0 | 0.031234 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.040865 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.02809 | 0.030028 | 0.032654 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.02482 | 0.095754 | 0.073411 | 0.118637 | 0.065354 | 0 | 0 | 0.035699 | 0 | 0.076094 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.044939 | 0.032267 | 0 | 0.030825 | 0.044071 | 0.148271 | 0.029968 | 0 | 0.033591 | 0 | 0.033711 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.03794 | 0 | 0.053078 | 0 | 0 | 0.120291 |
suicidewatch | ThisWatercress | 2019/05/12 | Suicide by mixing cleaning products? Does anyone know about actually deadly effects of mixing cleaning products like bleach, or is it all just urban legend? It seems that bleach and ammonia isn’t an actually deadly mix, just an extremely unpleasant one | 8.895714 | 11.205081 | 8.69381 | 57.667857 | 60.904762 | 10.361905 | 40.190476 | 10.504224 | 5.297705 | 208 | 11 | 24 | 5 | 3 | 67 | 32 | 42 | 0.169 | 0.779 | 0.051 | -0.7752 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 8 | 4 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 16 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.686226 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.245849 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.30769 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193231 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171775 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.238255 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.320086 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.384596 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | RevolutionaryMuffn15 | 2019/05/12 | Words of encouragement For all you lonely, desperate souls (myself included),
It takes tremendous strength to be you,
To know what you have been through,
To attempt to rationalize and prove self worth to yourself and others,
Just know that you are not alone,
That I am here with you,
That I know you are worthy,
That I a... | 3.906925 | 6.473516 | 3.468142 | 88.818419 | 75 | 5.920949 | 26.106719 | 6.980633 | 1.156826 | 491 | 18 | 91 | 5 | 11 | 146 | 63 | 115 | 0.035 | 0.66 | 0.306 | 0.9876 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 24 | 0 | 12 | 0 | 3 | 7 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 17 | 21 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 20 | 8 | 17 | 18 | 2 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 16 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 70 | 31 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.199453 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.58904 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176013 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.423345 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.34762 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.422787 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.200902 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.205263 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144795 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | MrWhatIf | 2019/05/12 | Is it unhelpful to tell someone suicidal I’m a bit sad? (not in a guilt-inducing kind of way, of course) I don’t wanna go into details just yet. A friend of mine overdosed on some pills and is now doing better. They live very far away. I want to help them but I honestly don’t know how. I’m doing my best, and just openl... | -0.247422 | 1.838941 | 2.173745 | 94.760984 | 88.097744 | 5.236769 | 17.979141 | 6.683405 | -0.065203 | 954 | 25 | 221 | 12 | 31 | 325 | 130 | 266 | 0.076 | 0.671 | 0.253 | 0.9951 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 27 | 0 | 4 | 8 | 5 | 15 | 23 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 0 | 22 | 2 | 0 | 7 | 3 | 58 | 56 | 20 | 1 | 13 | 14 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 15 | 11 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 9 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 6 | 36 | 17 | 30 | 46 | 8 | 23 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 24 | 13 | 0 | 7 | 5 | 145 | 51 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094112 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08003 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110569 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.247006 | 0.208165 | 0.128481 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1346 | 0.119987 | 0 | 0 | 0.101375 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122956 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07773 | 0 | 0.099154 | 0 | 0 | 0.115118 | 0 | 0 | 0.178515 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181846 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066883 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.236645 | 0 | 0 | 0.233775 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122551 | 0.258706 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11499 | 0.117951 | 0.103918 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106215 | 0.111356 | 0.157111 | 0 | 0.11823 | 0.128193 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086512 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127441 | 0 | 0 | 0.102758 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112709 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.226176 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132283 | 0 | 0 | 0.099714 | 0 | 0 | 0.131738 | 0.083298 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128728 | 0.133547 | 0.110917 | 0 | 0 | 0.094591 | 0.205723 | 0.108348 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150815 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112453 | 0 | 0.1598 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097102 | 0.138827 | 0.093413 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1672 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | psmaster0904 | 2019/05/12 | My only hope, my website, is now gone. The server of my website has been screwed up for unknown reason. It's not even allowing SSH connection, so there's nothing I can do for recovery. Everything is gone. Everything.
My website was the only factor that gave me satisfaction. It was the one of a few only websites that ... | 0.914659 | 3.469887 | 3.113469 | 86.052027 | 89.633803 | 6.933136 | 25.783543 | 8.032893 | 2.147065 | 561 | 26 | 109 | 14 | 19 | 190 | 79 | 142 | 0.171 | 0.708 | 0.121 | -0.7727 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 28 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 11 | 4 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 19 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 13 | 34 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 6 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 1 | 18 | 5 | 9 | 23 | 3 | 13 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 4 | 2 | 2 | 4 | 78 | 28 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12624 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100207 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.409059 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076712 | 0.108386 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117216 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.32301 | 0 | 0.299577 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150689 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134853 | 0 | 0 | 0.083379 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107162 | 0.074121 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128984 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146529 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.436728 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102807 | 0.346162 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.290605 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194387 | 0.15599 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103006 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | DepressionIsAHoe | 2019/05/12 | 3 days without sleep, nowhere else to turn. (Wallll of rambling) I'm not sure where this likely incoherent wall of text is going to go. I'm going on day 3 with no sleep. Anyways...
28M, been dealing with pretty severe depression on and off since I was 12. Throughout most of my life, I wasn't close to my family. Never ... | 4.608323 | 5.613585 | 5.305125 | 82.85355 | 69.799373 | 8.495925 | 27.195925 | 8.776556 | 1.917018 | 2,545 | 81 | 504 | 43 | 44 | 824 | 309 | 638 | 0.144 | 0.775 | 0.08 | -0.9842 | 6 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 105 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 22 | 33 | 3 | 3 | 20 | 0 | 37 | 16 | 9 | 5 | 5 | 89 | 98 | 32 | 3 | 6 | 13 | 2 | 5 | 4 | 3 | 3 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 25 | 36 | 0 | 3 | 11 | 1 | 1 | 16 | 19 | 17 | 2 | 7 | 45 | 8 | 58 | 16 | 108 | 45 | 16 | 122 | 0 | 8 | 2 | 2 | 30 | 54 | 2 | 10 | 51 | 326 | 83 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055179 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057726 | 0.064738 | 0 | 0.055866 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.047428 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163868 | 0.044484 | 0.097432 | 0 | 0.045335 | 0 | 0 | 0.04712 | 0 | 0.059179 | 0 | 0.118951 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137681 | 0 | 0.057574 | 0 | 0.042538 | 0.05895 | 0 | 0.103079 | 0.109853 | 0.183551 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.044506 | 0 | 0 | 0.05505 | 0 | 0.070379 | 0 | 0.044889 | 0 | 0.095765 | 0 | 0.251126 | 0 | 0.080816 | 0.076123 | 0.102309 | 0.116726 | 0.097389 | 0.135953 | 0 | 0.058416 | 0.082324 | 0 | 0.167012 | 0 | 0.181673 | 0 | 0.170443 | 0.058739 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056715 | 0 | 0.0526 | 0.054678 | 0.056631 | 0 | 0 | 0.035711 | 0 | 0.053442 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060144 | 0 | 0.055608 | 0.211479 | 0.047355 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086856 | 0.060099 | 0.112826 | 0 | 0.05448 | 0.075263 | 0.104115 | 0.053398 | 0.09409 | 0.047149 | 0 | 0 | 0.116317 | 0 | 0.09617 | 0.151237 | 0.071126 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053795 | 0.062398 | 0 | 0.113251 | 0.07833 | 0 | 0.041091 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052201 | 0.051121 | 0.060657 | 0 | 0 | 0.072204 | 0.04052 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.036936 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151093 | 0.060062 | 0 | 0.054202 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.034131 | 0 | 0 | 0.1144 | 0 | 0 | 0.050679 | 0 | 0 | 0.05392 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120377 | 0.054689 | 0.176287 | 0 | 0.106632 | 0 | 0 | 0.041016 | 0 | 0 | 0.18855 | 0.056787 | 0.127642 | 0 | 0 | 0.055697 | 0 | 0.116554 | 0.060459 | 0.050213 | 0.055376 | 0 | 0.042822 | 0 | 0 | 0.060927 | 0 | 0.176976 | 0.034138 | 0.052345 | 0 | 0.124266 | 0 | 0.050501 | 0.050909 | 0.059193 | 0.072344 | 0.173852 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.031424 | 0.126867 | 0.085472 | 0 | 0.047903 | 0.049389 | 0.096149 | 0 | 0 | 0.051358 | 0 | 0.077573 | 0 | 0.054294 | 0 | 0 | 0.064738 | 0.137236 |
suicidewatch | sellardoore | 2019/05/12 | No one wants to hear us complain but no one wants us to go through with it. Abuse, mental illness, addiction. People don’t like complainers. And we all have real things to complain about. All humans struggle. All pain is valid. So why do I feel so ignored? Why do I feel like no one is trying to help me? Why do I feel l... | 0.272021 | 2.366156 | 1.85 | 97.965991 | 85.610169 | 4.308735 | 16.704042 | 5.369823 | -0.78361 | 430 | 9 | 99 | 2 | 13 | 139 | 72 | 118 | 0.312 | 0.554 | 0.134 | -0.9801 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 16 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 12 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 11 | 5 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 23 | 24 | 6 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 7 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 5 | 14 | 5 | 13 | 20 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 65 | 19 | 0 | 0 | 0.162041 | 0 | 0.149091 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.255709 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114247 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.207453 | 0.195406 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071453 | 0 | 0.077725 | 0.11471 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154141 | 0 | 0.091669 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075161 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096599 | 0.200445 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09129 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137824 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133998 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.370695 | 0 | 0.145525 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189627 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155665 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116794 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.285947 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090859 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092853 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.329016 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.241998 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.37022 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | LeGoatBronzo | 2019/05/12 | Suicidal but not depressed I just wanted to know if it's normal to have suicidal thoughts without depression. I had a lot of them lately and i don't think i'm depressed. It's just that killing my self seems to be the most rational decision. | 3.60625 | 5.497987 | 4.823333 | 81.855 | 73.583333 | 8.966667 | 32.833333 | 9.516145 | 3.328483 | 194 | 10 | 37 | 5 | 4 | 64 | 38 | 48 | 0.251 | 0.565 | 0.184 | -0.7182 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 16 | 10 | 3 | 3 | 3 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 5 | 7 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 27 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.575212 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.24629 | 0 | 0.122343 | 0 | 0.251119 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189259 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.218115 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.20266 | 0.232235 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.487008 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142642 | 0 | 0.176731 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131304 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.214592 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | TehDMV | 2019/05/12 | I'm in florida being gangstalked by people telling me to kill myself because of things I have witnessed ... | 9.388947 | 9.256033 | 7.967368 | 71.781579 | 59.526316 | 9.705263 | 45.315789 | 8.841846 | 4.496011 | 86 | 5 | 13 | 1 | 1 | 26 | 18 | 19 | 0.217 | 0.783 | 0 | -0.6908 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.33651 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.610735 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.382705 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.482495 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.366741 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | BishalSocialMedia | 2019/05/12 | SUICIDE - THERE'S A LIFE AND THERE IS HOPE. It's okay to want to die. It's okay to have suicudal thoughts and that doesn't make you a bad person. When I'm in a dark place, all I want from people is just to listen me without being judgemental.
I sometimes often felt like I couldn't be myself around people. Something th... | 6.478332 | 6.068143 | 6.476748 | 80.994554 | 65.54649 | 9.2424 | 29.36786 | 8.538295 | 1.982669 | 2,106 | 59 | 417 | 26 | 29 | 669 | 206 | 527 | 0.049 | 0.798 | 0.153 | 0.9923 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 51 | 18 | 13 | 8 | 2 | 25 | 28 | 1 | 2 | 27 | 3 | 55 | 13 | 0 | 8 | 5 | 114 | 107 | 49 | 2 | 23 | 16 | 0 | 5 | 4 | 2 | 10 | 12 | 2 | 3 | 3 | 25 | 48 | 0 | 1 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 13 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 9 | 8 | 50 | 21 | 67 | 69 | 16 | 48 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 58 | 20 | 0 | 13 | 24 | 300 | 75 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.050921 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.041672 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.035437 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.036437 | 0 | 0 | 0.046389 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.040069 | 0.04351 | 0.031766 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.046087 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053531 | 0.055126 | 0.044888 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.041606 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054082 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.046154 | 0.053844 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098249 | 0.058638 | 0.105394 | 0.111682 | 0.050034 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08052 | 0 | 0.027225 | 0.049989 | 0.177692 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055472 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110781 | 0 | 0 | 0.069857 | 0 | 0 | 0.103514 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054389 | 0 | 0.046318 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159858 | 0.257648 | 0.101833 | 0 | 0.322099 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.044302 | 0.047031 | 0 | 0.034784 | 0.105663 | 0 | 0.056763 | 0 | 0 | 0.105029 | 0.055281 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077278 | 0.080381 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.051057 | 0.100002 | 0 | 0.054681 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110898 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.469645 | 0.136502 | 0.054444 | 0 | 0.098522 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059313 | 0.066766 | 0.107156 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.04144 | 0 | 0 | 0.041525 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.040117 | 0.103076 | 0 | 0.258186 | 0.055542 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059654 | 0.057 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078361 | 0.041884 | 0.045547 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13356 | 0 | 0.165478 | 0.060772 | 0 | 0 | 0.049793 | 0 | 0.070759 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188046 | 0.045006 | 0 | 0 | 0.215151 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.046853 | 0 | 0.141064 | 0 | 0 | 0.150697 | 0 | 0 | 0.05292 | 0 | 0.074035 | 0.056974 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | bitch_boys | 2019/05/12 | i love wednesdays actually
ive been thinking alot
that ive been purposely showing signs
and ive been asking myself
"is this reaching out for help? do i want help?"
and honestly
ive come to the conclusion that i dont
im writing this shitass long thing for my friends
im planning this day in order
and i have my backup pla... | 0.850559 | 3.007862 | 2.979415 | 90.38785 | 83.662921 | 5.545121 | 23.413365 | 6.836019 | 0.77404 | 665 | 25 | 142 | 8 | 19 | 225 | 95 | 178 | 0.09 | 0.739 | 0.171 | 0.8897 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 9 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 21 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 37 | 34 | 13 | 0 | 4 | 10 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 2 | 24 | 6 | 14 | 29 | 1 | 16 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 7 | 1 | 5 | 8 | 92 | 37 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121112 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.273914 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.232049 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075655 | 0 | 0.105607 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106908 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08004 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145454 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125506 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113433 | 0.105567 | 0 | 0 | 0.191772 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.332749 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.536234 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068207 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087662 | 0.060633 | 0 | 0 | 0.109832 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112013 | 0 | 0 | 0.125827 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127604 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124254 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127396 | 0 | 0.139503 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095545 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099113 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099754 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164904 | 0.238571 | 0 | 0 | 0.144737 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168523 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146405 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13459 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | throwaway2019366 | 2019/05/12 | Warning ! Found a painless way to die Warning by no means I promote suicide to anyone. This is from my own personal experience. Excuss my bad grammer or poor choice of word. Not a English writer by any means.
I been wanting to post this but was afraid it gave the wrong idea. This happen 2 years ago. But here it is. ... | 2.331601 | 4.214416 | 3.589092 | 89.350243 | 77.173191 | 6.061836 | 22.865148 | 6.918507 | 0.659014 | 3,247 | 98 | 673 | 33 | 75 | 1,057 | 318 | 843 | 0.185 | 0.741 | 0.074 | -0.9987 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 71 | 0 | 17 | 1 | 11 | 36 | 39 | 8 | 2 | 66 | 0 | 66 | 22 | 10 | 9 | 5 | 131 | 110 | 52 | 9 | 14 | 31 | 1 | 7 | 2 | 1 | 7 | 10 | 1 | 3 | 5 | 37 | 47 | 0 | 5 | 14 | 1 | 1 | 19 | 20 | 30 | 0 | 11 | 48 | 10 | 77 | 9 | 121 | 48 | 20 | 132 | 1 | 5 | 2 | 2 | 37 | 70 | 2 | 25 | 43 | 478 | 114 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.04769 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05937 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182929 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.037618 | 0 | 0 | 0.191573 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082738 | 0.044921 | 0.032796 | 0 | 0.091559 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120117 | 0 | 0.123065 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120682 | 0 | 0.119057 | 0.059097 | 0.069393 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.223343 | 0.112419 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055056 | 0.063053 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.048665 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105253 | 0.050718 | 0 | 0.108811 | 0.038435 | 0 | 0.058935 | 0 | 0.091524 | 0 | 0.058989 | 0.041566 | 0.099474 | 0.028108 | 0 | 0.122303 | 0.045125 | 0.172115 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.047575 | 0 | 0.048194 | 0 | 0 | 0.057187 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113685 | 0.053966 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060734 | 0 | 0.056153 | 0 | 0 | 0.059522 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058454 | 0 | 0.038 | 0.052568 | 0 | 0.047506 | 0.095222 | 0 | 0.060188 | 0.058729 | 0.091477 | 0 | 0.050907 | 0.071824 | 0.054545 | 0 | 0.117208 | 0 | 0 | 0.054218 | 0 | 0.054323 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.039892 | 0 | 0 | 0.057217 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057295 | 0.072912 | 0 | 0.457975 | 0 | 0 | 0.05826 | 0.154074 | 0.037298 | 0.187904 | 0.168628 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.051525 | 0 | 0 | 0.051479 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053814 | 0.061236 | 0 | 0.11063 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09189 | 0 | 0.042784 | 0 | 0 | 0.042872 | 0 | 0.11225 | 0 | 0 | 0.044504 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.03808 | 0 | 0.085929 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061588 | 0.176545 | 0.061051 | 0.050706 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094047 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156856 | 0 | 0.050996 | 0.102816 | 0.059774 | 0.146106 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063465 | 0.170815 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097092 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058344 | 0.117501 | 0 | 0 | 0.114654 | 0.058822 | 0 | 0.034645 |
suicidewatch | arsenicrabbit | 2019/05/12 | Nothing too live for My life just seems meaningless. I wake up, play video games, go to work, come home, play more video games then sleep, and repeat.
I have no girlfriend, no career aspirations, and honestly I don't think my death would have any lasting impact on anyone.
I don't necessarily want to die, but my life... | 4.996923 | 6.799544 | 4.910769 | 83.009231 | 69.769231 | 7.661538 | 25.307692 | 8.238736 | 1.469677 | 275 | 8 | 52 | 4 | 5 | 85 | 48 | 65 | 0.21 | 0.683 | 0.106 | -0.7421 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 11 | 5 | 2 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 3 | 5 | 10 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 28 | 7 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193593 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.199056 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.245227 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.295454 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143943 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161791 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.285558 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.232053 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.402157 | 0 | 0 | 0.251378 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.273159 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.259163 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.284887 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182412 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167912 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.207251 | 0 | 0 | 0.202229 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | shenanigans____ | 2019/05/12 | You have no guarantees that Suicide will be the total end of your existence I've attempted it, gotten better, gotten much worse, often wished I would've done it perfectly the first time, and indeed if there was an easy and guaranteed off switch I probably would've used it already. Got some bad cards dealt. Got some goo... | 9.890332 | 11.009652 | 8.245807 | 66.009383 | 58.194313 | 10.448682 | 35.837346 | 10.264318 | 3.823236 | 2,050 | 80 | 306 | 39 | 25 | 617 | 227 | 422 | 0.142 | 0.715 | 0.143 | -0.4766 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 98 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 5 | 15 | 12 | 0 | 1 | 37 | 0 | 29 | 7 | 3 | 5 | 7 | 65 | 52 | 17 | 13 | 6 | 15 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 29 | 13 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 9 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 10 | 8 | 21 | 9 | 54 | 32 | 17 | 33 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 20 | 18 | 0 | 17 | 12 | 222 | 50 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132336 | 0 | 0.072919 | 0.052843 | 0 | 0.286384 | 0.32117 | 0.044936 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.046204 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055173 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148896 | 0 | 0.058441 | 0.072141 | 0.146797 | 0 | 0.073765 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137158 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067621 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.29263 | 0 | 0 | 0.043644 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059387 | 0.129275 | 0 | 0 | 0.033411 | 0.047206 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056206 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.034523 | 0 | 0.037554 | 0.110847 | 0.105698 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117467 | 0 | 0 | 0.07263 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093346 | 0.032283 | 0.066228 | 0 | 0 | 0.110979 | 0 | 0 | 0.112355 | 0 | 0 | 0.088216 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070099 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.048575 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064743 | 0.126808 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089553 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091621 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062466 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071244 | 0.063228 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.042332 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105097 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060155 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.505954 | 0 | 0.062278 | 0 | 0.049683 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.04234 | 0 | 0 | 0.038531 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.044863 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057071 | 0 | 0.054522 | 0.038975 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059626 | 0 | 0.075987 | 0.063697 | 0 | 0.048106 | 0 | 0.134679 | 0.093881 | 0 | 0.32117 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Julius5000 | 2019/05/12 | Job Search Suicide I can’t find a job. I’m stuck at a job I hate. Everyone is friends with the boss, but me. I can’t get any decent kind of hours or money. I have to work 3rd shift. I’m bipolar and can’t even begin to manage my meds.
I live in Gso, NC. I have no family, I can’t afford to move. I have no car. I have no... | -0.19903 | 2.016368 | 2.728068 | 89.698609 | 90.026616 | 5.77343 | 21.65791 | 7.22937 | 0.885062 | 963 | 36 | 209 | 17 | 33 | 339 | 142 | 263 | 0.248 | 0.664 | 0.089 | -0.9942 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 33 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 6 | 8 | 2 | 0 | 13 | 0 | 28 | 4 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 26 | 48 | 11 | 5 | 4 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 13 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 4 | 35 | 4 | 22 | 35 | 4 | 23 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 12 | 0 | 3 | 9 | 124 | 39 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090319 | 0.081932 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076907 | 0 | 0 | 0.125708 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064628 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071071 | 0 | 0.056343 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081745 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097776 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.324973 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061048 | 0 | 0 | 0.088319 | 0.083068 | 0 | 0.087133 | 0 | 0.046734 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168954 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071409 | 0 | 0.193158 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091518 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091253 | 0 | 0 | 0.104173 | 0 | 0.061952 | 0 | 0 | 0.091801 | 0.091023 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.642041 | 0 | 0.102257 | 0.096249 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100423 | 0 | 0.130569 | 0 | 0.092637 | 0.081615 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087457 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102666 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098236 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070295 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096567 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059211 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073502 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096422 | 0.104417 | 0 | 0.076457 | 0 | 0 | 0.094218 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.303302 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073377 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109032 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067288 | 0 | 0 | 0.065658 | 0 | 0 | 0.05952 |
suicidewatch | blueeyedangel666 | 2019/05/12 | Tooth pain I know this might sound ridiculous but I am literally in so much pain from my teeth but I am considering committing suicide. I have 52 cavities, an extra tooth trying to grow in and my wisdom teeth growing in sideways I am in such horrible pain that I'm on the max dose of Advil and Tylenol at the same time a... | 4.017357 | 5.52033 | 4.81256 | 83.935982 | 71.761905 | 7.916667 | 30.267857 | 8.472885 | 2.248071 | 421 | 18 | 83 | 7 | 8 | 136 | 68 | 105 | 0.301 | 0.612 | 0.087 | -0.9848 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 10 | 13 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 15 | 15 | 9 | 2 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 10 | 2 | 14 | 12 | 3 | 16 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 60 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139638 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188695 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181221 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157948 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167656 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099237 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11704 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095963 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085307 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185237 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128361 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.335093 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.743205 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165066 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190999 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101819 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118551 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124041 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Ghennon | 2019/05/12 | My psychiatrist prescribes me crazy amounts of ambien I had severe insomnia my entire life and ambien was a game changer to my sleep habits, but I also have depression and last year I tried to overdose on ambien but it was about 50mg, not nearly enough to actually kill me, I googled the lethal dose and thought "well, f... | 6.579723 | 6.335141 | 6.96815 | 77.00245 | 65.294416 | 10.412367 | 33.645132 | 10.018931 | 3.142496 | 797 | 31 | 156 | 16 | 11 | 260 | 108 | 197 | 0.253 | 0.747 | 0 | -0.9955 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 21 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 13 | 11 | 6 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 15 | 8 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 32 | 30 | 17 | 4 | 3 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 11 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 9 | 1 | 0 | 13 | 1 | 21 | 2 | 15 | 15 | 6 | 14 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 9 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 11 | 105 | 34 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0.147393 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120787 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149791 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126112 | 0.184145 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158363 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097408 | 0 | 0.130091 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.312129 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.418902 | 0 | 0.144891 | 0 | 0.126685 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.334207 | 0 | 0 | 0.123118 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154449 | 0.106684 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10082 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120559 | 0 | 0.111032 | 0.223988 | 0.116491 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143674 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170632 | 0.15504 | 0 | 0 | 0.151149 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126276 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113563 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09678 | 0 | 0.239818 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144325 | 0 | 0.102546 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124624 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135803 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097265 |
suicidewatch | Creamed-Corns | 2019/05/12 | I think I'm having a crisis I'm really fucking scared and I have absolutely no idea who to reach out to other than people who I know will call the police or something, so here I am. I'm not going to do it today I don't think, I'm just worried I'm going to do it soon. I don't even know why, and I think that's the most f... | 1.102121 | 2.771935 | 4.075758 | 85.433636 | 80.111111 | 6.824242 | 20.090909 | 7.793538 | 0.805715 | 358 | 9 | 76 | 6 | 9 | 129 | 58 | 99 | 0.247 | 0.741 | 0.012 | -0.9649 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 9 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 18 | 25 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 8 | 24 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 50 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133327 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194705 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125942 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17628 | 0.099622 | 0 | 0.216735 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.215254 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.209585 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168373 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206487 | 0 | 0.132193 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.366462 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190903 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.293589 | 0 | 0.21345 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.366539 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180742 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112468 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172058 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.387288 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | msjmackenzie | 2019/05/12 | I just want to know the easiest way to do it. I’m fucking done. I don’t want to hear anything other than how I can do it that isn’t going to hurt badly, backfire, or cost money that I don’t have. | -0.105 | 1.168719 | 2.9575 | 93.89625 | 82.333333 | 5.388889 | 20.138889 | 5.985473 | -0.099778 | 150 | 4 | 37 | 1 | 4 | 54 | 30 | 45 | 0.148 | 0.729 | 0.123 | -0.4767 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 15 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 5 | 14 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 26 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.284966 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.289136 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.354373 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.320138 | 0 | 0 | 0.196804 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.390292 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.370709 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190311 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.408499 | 0.274867 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Bewpadewp | 2019/05/12 | I'm trying to make a suicide note Among thousands of other things, I'm really awful at writing. I want to leave something that truly explains to my family and friends why I've decided to kill myself.
I want to record myself because that would be the easiest for me, but I cant find a voice memo app on my Galaxy S8 and i... | 5.888901 | 5.31756 | 6.549758 | 80.520242 | 66.802198 | 9.477802 | 30.287912 | 8.841846 | 2.24771 | 352 | 11 | 71 | 5 | 5 | 116 | 64 | 91 | 0.172 | 0.74 | 0.088 | -0.8713 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 12 | 12 | 3 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 3 | 13 | 10 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 43 | 14 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164977 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143829 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206476 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.222427 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.215648 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.18229 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.395797 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.261037 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.24983 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157494 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159882 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151152 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.214794 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181641 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.258084 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156751 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16019 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194678 | 0.278332 | 0.187281 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.212903 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167608 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | BadSituation-Help | 2019/05/12 | Help I don't know what to do Throwaway for obvious reasons and for context I'm a British teen.
I'm in a really shitty scenario right now partially because I've been a bit of a shitty person to my friend. I don't know what to do because she almost committed suicide and doesn't know that I know. She has been self harmin... | 5.8686 | 5.360903 | 6.242837 | 82.491709 | 66.826087 | 9.283907 | 31.114907 | 8.63404 | 2.170021 | 981 | 33 | 206 | 13 | 14 | 317 | 132 | 253 | 0.237 | 0.667 | 0.096 | -0.9924 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 14 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 15 | 5 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 21 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 44 | 43 | 19 | 4 | 7 | 7 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 12 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 4 | 39 | 5 | 27 | 29 | 5 | 24 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 37 | 8 | 0 | 8 | 14 | 131 | 51 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187652 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15593 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083412 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078235 | 0.28559 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102295 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095532 | 0 | 0.099121 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060428 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078946 | 0 | 0.084211 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.047377 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144783 | 0 | 0.048954 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07494 | 0 | 0 | 0.092777 | 0 | 0 | 0.083936 | 0.092508 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.251218 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.207328 | 0 | 0.308967 | 0.076377 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.045777 | 0 | 0 | 0.082921 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.265981 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07479 | 0 | 0 | 0.138953 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08793 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071262 | 0 | 0 | 0.104042 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081814 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179476 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120052 | 0.096338 | 0.185033 | 0.100598 | 0 | 0.080018 | 0.089129 | 0.074513 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.293246 | 0 | 0 | 0.077509 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158782 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.204983 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075312 | 0.163794 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06225 | 0.180116 | 0 | 0 | 0.054637 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063616 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074374 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190975 | 0.066561 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | rmovny_schnr98 | 2019/05/12 | Getting red flags from a friend I don't know if this fits in this sub, but I need help.
About 6 months ago, a good friend of mine committed suicide. It came out of nowhere even for his closest friends and family. About a month earlier, he had told everyone that he was about to go on a bicycle trip around the world and... | 5.344408 | 5.324221 | 5.454254 | 86.059015 | 67.846154 | 8.535148 | 30.213609 | 8.076483 | 1.836982 | 1,315 | 45 | 279 | 15 | 20 | 414 | 187 | 338 | 0.059 | 0.783 | 0.158 | 0.988 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 44 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 20 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 20 | 0 | 23 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 45 | 50 | 18 | 1 | 8 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 7 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 16 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 3 | 2 | 11 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 17 | 5 | 29 | 11 | 46 | 23 | 6 | 64 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 51 | 22 | 0 | 5 | 31 | 164 | 40 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154892 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096412 | 0 | 0.072697 | 0 | 0 | 0.059413 | 0.091612 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077776 | 0.081677 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145896 | 0.106517 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099925 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11269 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077382 | 0 | 0.097438 | 0.115411 | 0 | 0.073611 | 0.083483 | 0 | 0 | 0.082362 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095707 | 0.079852 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.472499 | 0 | 0.091292 | 0 | 0.198612 | 0.07328 | 0.069876 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077259 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117121 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086039 | 0.10081 | 0 | 0.098627 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09603 | 0.142432 | 0 | 0.09251 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087565 | 0.308588 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074277 | 0 | 0 | 0.058318 | 0 | 0.087772 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092683 | 0 | 0 | 0.278944 | 0 | 0 | 0.064782 | 0.067383 | 0 | 0.092916 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059202 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097011 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09128 | 0.095903 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05597 | 0 | 0 | 0.0938 | 0 | 0 | 0.083106 | 0.069478 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074026 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093122 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095566 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070223 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.050945 | 0 | 0.082814 | 0.166967 | 0 | 0 | 0.095031 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075457 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069348 | 0.140162 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088726 | 0 | 0.248253 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | blogasdraugas | 2019/05/12 | just wanna fade away i don’t make enough to live independently or own a car. i don’t know if i could manage a second job. i like the people at my first job but they’re not going give me the hours i need. probably won’t ever get married and kids
us politics is completely fucked (i’m a lefty) and the economy isn’t going... | 3.592981 | 5.046896 | 5.137692 | 81.382308 | 72.75 | 8.276923 | 26.461538 | 8.841846 | 1.954754 | 409 | 14 | 82 | 8 | 8 | 138 | 72 | 104 | 0.123 | 0.788 | 0.089 | -0.7572 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 9 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 19 | 21 | 8 | 1 | 6 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 7 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 2 | 9 | 18 | 2 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 4 | 1 | 3 | 5 | 53 | 12 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188003 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176974 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.209803 | 0 | 0 | 0.159765 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206759 | 0 | 0 | 0.181004 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170207 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184991 | 0.20909 | 0.191956 | 0.227445 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134124 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19706 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.397141 | 0 | 0.221383 | 0 | 0.109971 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141338 | 0.09776 | 0 | 0.176694 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13357 | 0 | 0 | 0.21797 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148373 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138726 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.215744 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.212833 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.240698 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | mmm1219 | 2019/05/12 | I’ve never wanted to die more than I have now this isn’t a cry for help. i just need to vent. i have no one to talk to about this. i have no friends. i lost them all through time. yes people talk to me, but it’s only when they want something or when i text them first. i have plans with them and they’ll ditch me. i have... | 0.003061 | 1.819563 | 1.627408 | 100.849735 | 84.510204 | 4.226122 | 17.197959 | 4.6936 | -0.990088 | 1,376 | 29 | 343 | 3 | 40 | 445 | 162 | 392 | 0.172 | 0.67 | 0.158 | -0.8345 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 26 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 7 | 39 | 22 | 1 | 3 | 10 | 2 | 35 | 5 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 68 | 79 | 25 | 1 | 12 | 21 | 3 | 8 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 19 | 19 | 1 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 14 | 9 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 8 | 57 | 13 | 46 | 70 | 9 | 35 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 24 | 17 | 0 | 2 | 17 | 230 | 76 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154439 | 0.082277 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132745 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136349 | 0.082343 | 0.063443 | 0.084001 | 0.078244 | 0.131881 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.22805 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163797 | 0 | 0 | 0.064217 | 0 | 0.077379 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076299 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076291 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147734 | 0 | 0.062818 | 0 | 0.067008 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188494 | 0.053264 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063419 | 0 | 0 | 0.057603 | 0 | 0.233721 | 0 | 0.042373 | 0 | 0.059631 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079368 | 0.200368 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099949 | 0.078775 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079816 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066271 | 0 | 0 | 0.040975 | 0.060775 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052662 | 0.109276 | 0.074727 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081389 | 0 | 0.067291 | 0 | 0.049768 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087321 | 0 | 0.079243 | 0 | 0.055284 | 0.057504 | 0.072009 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143081 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.050522 | 0.056705 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.051689 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070481 | 0 | 0 | 0.075852 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075457 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149224 | 0 | 0 | 0.057398 | 0.294959 | 0 | 0.105545 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.256218 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056058 | 0.119854 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099066 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173901 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081098 | 0 | 0.077617 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.439762 | 0.059181 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054279 | 0 | 0.075981 | 0 | 0.081517 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | kingcobra2345 | 2019/05/12 | Idk what to do Went to inpatient therapy for two weeks and then outpatient therapy for two weeks for a suicide attempt. Now I’m discharged and still want to kill myself. I want it to end. I’m tired of the bullshit. Of women playing with my mind. Even thinking someone liked me, then to figure out it was just another gam... | 1.392273 | 3.954086 | 3.003258 | 88.224886 | 85.666667 | 6.330303 | 26.431818 | 7.645422 | 1.801673 | 262 | 12 | 51 | 5 | 8 | 86 | 48 | 66 | 0.226 | 0.68 | 0.094 | -0.9201 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 9 | 4 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 13 | 7 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 35 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.214583 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.18125 | 0 | 0 | 0.135163 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.196309 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.226403 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099977 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206628 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173391 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163425 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.223843 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.468047 | 0 | 0 | 0.131125 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.235203 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.399806 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.241404 | 0 | 0.328299 | 0 | 0 | 0.189703 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | throwaway12376578903 | 2019/05/12 | Just tired of life I just graduated college and I’ve not found a job, and I’m currently living at home while working at my dad’s deli. The pay’s shit and I want to move out, but I’ve been spending money on weed and porn to numb myself because my whole life I’ve been lonely and always felt like I’ve never belonged anywh... | 2.841975 | 3.881559 | 4.4857 | 86.947315 | 74.020576 | 7.2107 | 25.022634 | 7.594959 | 1.128537 | 904 | 28 | 195 | 11 | 18 | 305 | 135 | 243 | 0.209 | 0.692 | 0.099 | -0.986 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 20 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 11 | 15 | 4 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 15 | 11 | 4 | 3 | 4 | 44 | 36 | 17 | 0 | 3 | 10 | 1 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 12 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 3 | 7 | 6 | 9 | 1 | 0 | 12 | 6 | 25 | 6 | 25 | 23 | 5 | 31 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 6 | 8 | 14 | 6 | 1 | 12 | 120 | 37 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102658 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101527 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.300833 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.269387 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12674 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.2232 | 0 | 0.11789 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.249529 | 0.176278 | 0.118459 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135274 | 0 | 0.114058 | 0.064458 | 0 | 0.210351 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1091 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082696 | 0 | 0.247511 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132076 | 0 | 0 | 0.128772 | 0.122431 | 0 | 0 | 0.128476 | 0.067804 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174287 | 0.180825 | 0.123654 | 0.108942 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104889 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131128 | 0 | 0 | 0.095154 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131225 | 0 | 0 | 0.079037 | 0 | 0.121818 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124862 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126643 | 0.204114 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174651 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11628 | 0 | 0 | 0.099164 | 0.107835 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141802 | 0 | 0.11789 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14554 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110929 | 0 | 0 | 0.137744 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089819 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | zephyo | 2019/05/12 | Living is anticipating the day I kill myself Every day I look forward to the day I finally rest | 2.407895 | 4.913615 | 6.125526 | 68.066184 | 80.052632 | 8.010526 | 25.289474 | 8.841846 | 2.560768 | 77 | 3 | 13 | 2 | 2 | 29 | 14 | 19 | 0.239 | 0.761 | 0 | -0.6908 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 9 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.669065 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.291364 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.378823 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.382592 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.30536 | 0 | 0.290397 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | yesthisisme99 | 2019/05/12 | I don’t think life Is worth living with a micropenis Im 18. Im a virgin. I don’t think I’ll ever find someone who loves me. There seems to be no point to life when I will never share my heart with someone, or really amount to anything. I will be alone my entire life until death. This is because of the flesh between wit... | 2.212185 | 3.799369 | 3.627471 | 90.250618 | 76.647059 | 6.440672 | 22.404202 | 7.168622 | 0.624638 | 894 | 25 | 194 | 10 | 20 | 294 | 134 | 238 | 0.15 | 0.757 | 0.092 | -0.9027 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 27 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 22 | 10 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 35 | 36 | 15 | 1 | 4 | 7 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 14 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 12 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 5 | 27 | 5 | 36 | 26 | 2 | 24 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 8 | 10 | 0 | 6 | 13 | 129 | 36 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12703 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083407 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100932 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149535 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097927 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108633 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110946 | 0 | 0 | 0.110232 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134359 | 0.224203 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09476 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130565 | 0.109872 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145343 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.26497 | 0 | 0.121713 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067406 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.34653 | 0 | 0 | 0.433215 | 0 | 0.102997 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110698 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143648 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189193 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083112 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128145 | 0 | 0.231891 | 0 | 0.117467 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078574 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12413 | 0.097738 | 0.111658 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.207845 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157181 | 0 | 0 | 0.071519 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083273 | 0.13341 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101201 | 0.072343 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136936 | 0.141044 | 0 | 0 | 0.089292 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | dogangels | 2019/05/12 | why do people say it gets better when it doesn’t i realized recently i’ve spent about a third of my life feeling empty and shitty and unloved, and honestly more than that if you consider the fact i was a child for like over half of my life so far. i’m so weak i’m not even 18 and life hasn’t thrown the “real problems” l... | 1.685565 | 3.305144 | 3.260217 | 92.171196 | 78.217391 | 6.686957 | 23.673913 | 7.554174 | 0.906583 | 424 | 14 | 96 | 6 | 10 | 140 | 84 | 115 | 0.152 | 0.734 | 0.114 | -0.6754 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 6 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 18 | 14 | 12 | 2 | 4 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 6 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 10 | 4 | 12 | 12 | 1 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 0 | 3 | 7 | 59 | 16 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.212201 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178978 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.210026 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.267325 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102323 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.211458 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.213813 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.22389 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.428816 | 0.197734 | 0 | 0 | 0.179089 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135082 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140297 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191303 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193639 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.230339 | 0 | 0 | 0.199814 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160931 | 0 | 0.204807 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119362 | 0.16063 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182606 | 0 | 0 | 0.195076 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130318 |
suicidewatch | xxxsniperclanxxx | 2019/05/12 | The only reason I’m not fucking ending it My fucking cats. I can’t leave my cats. No one in my family takes care of them and if I died no one would do it and they would probably die. I can’t have the only things I love die on me so I guess that means I can’t die. I just wanna die but I can’t leave my cats. | -1.705171 | -0.114958 | 1.546832 | 100.22518 | 89.684932 | 4.74589 | 13.234589 | 5.985473 | -1.152999 | 235 | 3 | 64 | 2 | 8 | 84 | 42 | 73 | 0.253 | 0.681 | 0.065 | -0.86 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 8 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 12 | 16 | 5 | 5 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 15 | 2 | 4 | 14 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 44 | 19 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143967 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.732739 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125065 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133115 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.261082 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155552 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.29903 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127442 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153813 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191367 | 0.214784 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152242 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145182 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106168 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09381 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.200615 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
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