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suicidewatch | saiyagirl980 | 2019/05/12 | Im just ready for my next life Just last night i realized all the mistakes i made while younger has led me to the exact opposite of what i wanted my life to be.
I took for granted the love of my life and the only person i really truly care about.
I never graduated high school and have zero motivation to complete my... | 2.763057 | 3.413147 | 4.849429 | 85.739 | 73.8 | 7.714286 | 22.285714 | 7.957252 | 0.869971 | 362 | 8 | 81 | 5 | 7 | 126 | 63 | 100 | 0.053 | 0.714 | 0.234 | 0.9539 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 7 | 4 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 16 | 13 | 4 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 15 | 3 | 11 | 9 | 2 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 55 | 19 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.37335 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191969 | 0 | 0 | 0.146185 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193447 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.395543 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149245 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.387971 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165248 | 0.173247 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141212 | 0 | 0.194721 | 0.17182 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.2785 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159869 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117294 | 0.18825 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145603 | 0 | 0.185299 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17355 | 0 | 0.203423 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107993 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | TheChokeMaster | 2019/05/12 | I don't know what love is Writing this down 8 out of 10 drunk i might be incoherent af.
What does it take to feel love or to be loved.. I dont know and the way its going I never will. Whats the point in living for myself and myself only | -1.055556 | 0.728996 | 1.905185 | 97.433333 | 88.62963 | 4.340741 | 12.703704 | 5.461319 | -1.317052 | 182 | 2 | 46 | 1 | 6 | 64 | 41 | 54 | 0.175 | 0.825 | 0 | -0.8456 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 7 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 15 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 3 | 7 | 11 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 32 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.215929 | 0 | 0.289185 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124762 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140232 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.271211 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.217882 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.668095 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.261759 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190306 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187662 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.233255 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185523 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.195856 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | WhatAFineWasteOfTime | 2019/05/12 | Anyone available to talk? My heart is just so defeated with life. | 1.98 | 4.747337 | 2.483333 | 87.945 | 95.666667 | 5.733333 | 22.666667 | 7.168622 | 1.449867 | 52 | 2 | 9 | 1 | 2 | 16 | 12 | 12 | 0.266 | 0.734 | 0 | -0.6113 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.401158 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.679861 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.405235 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.461134 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | jordan889 | 2019/05/12 | DAE have suicidal thoughts even when not feeling depressed? So I'm not sure if this is involved with the impulse control aspect of my mental illness(es), but sometimes the urges to cause my own death are so strong... even when I'm not feeling depressed.
Just 2 days ago, I was at work and forgot I drank about 3x mor... | 5.11636 | 5.960821 | 5.392472 | 83.272748 | 68.538905 | 8.224984 | 30.937101 | 8.321377 | 2.199585 | 1,400 | 55 | 272 | 19 | 23 | 444 | 187 | 347 | 0.191 | 0.686 | 0.124 | -0.9812 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 63 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 27 | 18 | 0 | 3 | 19 | 1 | 25 | 10 | 6 | 7 | 5 | 65 | 58 | 29 | 6 | 7 | 12 | 0 | 8 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 21 | 9 | 2 | 3 | 19 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 8 | 8 | 0 | 2 | 17 | 9 | 29 | 10 | 47 | 36 | 7 | 42 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 17 | 0 | 10 | 21 | 188 | 50 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0.084836 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077062 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139043 | 0 | 0.094194 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.245034 | 0 | 0 | 0.052995 | 0 | 0.073975 | 0 | 0 | 0.076887 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089306 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097505 | 0.13882 | 0 | 0 | 0.056066 | 0.089626 | 0.149753 | 0 | 0 | 0.090828 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085163 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.287097 | 0.078637 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081954 | 0 | 0.219784 | 0 | 0.250413 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.04542 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139059 | 0 | 0.095768 | 0 | 0.153752 | 0.092544 | 0 | 0 | 0.17844 | 0 | 0 | 0.103018 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093065 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070863 | 0 | 0 | 0.094455 | 0 | 0.061404 | 0.084944 | 0 | 0 | 0.076934 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088138 | 0.262013 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08761 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063907 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098976 | 0 | 0.092583 | 0.058909 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082181 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055693 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074242 | 0 | 0.069134 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079142 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143826 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085981 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072681 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.285277 | 0 | 0.16387 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.222817 | 0 | 0.207049 | 0.152077 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059023 | 0 | 0.084922 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095746 | 0 | 0.051276 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080589 | 0 | 0 | 0.099971 | 0.083802 | 0 | 0.063289 | 0 | 0 | 0.061756 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | slyskeleton | 2019/05/12 | I really don't see the point in living I have been suicidal for the majority of my life. I go through times where I don't think about it as much, but this is not one of those times.
I think about ending it nearly every day. I tried to cut myself last week but I'm such a screw up that I couldn't even do that right. I b... | 2.70232 | 3.805622 | 4.098239 | 89.343548 | 74.448029 | 7.894931 | 23.67998 | 8.418075 | 1.176873 | 1,036 | 29 | 236 | 18 | 21 | 343 | 136 | 279 | 0.237 | 0.647 | 0.116 | -0.9931 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 23 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 13 | 18 | 6 | 0 | 13 | 0 | 31 | 9 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 35 | 48 | 17 | 5 | 6 | 14 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 20 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 11 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 34 | 8 | 37 | 39 | 7 | 30 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 3 | 8 | 15 | 1 | 2 | 13 | 170 | 54 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066225 | 0.102116 | 0 | 0 | 0.096579 | 0 | 0 | 0.080139 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086128 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062805 | 0.100399 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086254 | 0 | 0 | 0.128643 | 0 | 0.08205 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091805 | 0 | 0.04924 | 0.069571 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075239 | 0 | 0.050879 | 0 | 0.110691 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101644 | 0 | 0 | 0.107741 | 0 | 0.10704 | 0.079381 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206356 | 0.095154 | 0 | 0.515952 | 0.172364 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175786 | 0 | 0.065005 | 0.098732 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09814 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071589 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06599 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135028 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09206 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104997 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062387 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166331 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077603 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077771 | 0.081418 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.42609 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129395 | 0.1248 | 0 | 0 | 0.113571 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198352 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.229759 | 0 | 0.078116 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108726 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070897 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | cugo777 | 2019/05/12 | I'm giving myself just a few months to live I'm a 20 year old rising junior at a big state college, not that that holds much significance, just providing some self-description. Basically, I've gone through a long bout of severe depression and have had a hard look at my life and realized how fucked up it's been and how ... | 4.903696 | 5.271212 | 5.830695 | 81.638399 | 68.832636 | 9.218522 | 28.904045 | 9.210783 | 2.248133 | 932 | 31 | 190 | 17 | 15 | 308 | 135 | 239 | 0.122 | 0.779 | 0.099 | -0.5319 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 18 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 13 | 0 | 15 | 4 | 0 | 9 | 2 | 46 | 35 | 16 | 1 | 4 | 16 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 17 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 9 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 2 | 13 | 5 | 24 | 24 | 6 | 29 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 12 | 1 | 6 | 14 | 112 | 30 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.239306 | 0.123 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08202 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110208 | 0 | 0 | 0.143011 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.259583 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101031 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103894 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105423 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.271879 | 0.108443 | 0.12257 | 0.112526 | 0 | 0.098387 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105079 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123935 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191232 | 0.132321 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.24856 | 0.057307 | 0 | 0.103579 | 0.103808 | 0.098503 | 0 | 0 | 0.19945 | 0 | 0.332979 | 0.156599 | 0 | 0.235689 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093629 | 0 | 0.172459 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124751 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123088 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112342 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133514 | 0.075146 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118715 | 0 | 0 | 0.122371 | 0.132517 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128308 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155859 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068399 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07964 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10131 | 0 | 0.096786 | 0.069187 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085397 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151076 |
suicidewatch | screwseven | 2019/05/12 | Adam Sandler's Chris Farley tribute actually kind of made me want to live a little, that hasn't happened in a long time. Adam Sandler's song reminded me what it's like to feel those loving emotions. Maybe the song doesn't mean anything to you, I wish it did for everyone but not everything applies to everyone (everyone ... | 5.631847 | 7.209117 | 5.585723 | 79.654408 | 67.915663 | 8.906827 | 33.110442 | 9.299571 | 3.088054 | 355 | 16 | 63 | 7 | 6 | 111 | 57 | 83 | 0.046 | 0.822 | 0.132 | 0.6369 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 12 | 16 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 7 | 4 | 9 | 13 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 36 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174477 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147132 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158128 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.201119 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.512534 | 0.160688 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.27121 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158106 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186186 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126287 | 0.087349 | 0.179198 | 0.157878 | 0.158227 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161368 | 0.169179 | 0.119346 | 0 | 0.359244 | 0.194758 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189672 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137644 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104256 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105457 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.205604 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | bloodythrowaway2489 | 2019/05/12 | Hi all, I'm a 15 year old girl who is absolutely exhausted of living and I dread every minute of it I'm just really really tired. Every single day I wish I were dead. And when I think its getting better something shitty happens and I'm back to square 1. I'm so so sad. And most of the times it is my fault. I've made so ... | 1.042435 | 3.194104 | 2.920538 | 91.133373 | 82.839442 | 6.333089 | 21.242845 | 7.554174 | 0.743296 | 2,153 | 67 | 475 | 36 | 60 | 718 | 243 | 573 | 0.27 | 0.61 | 0.12 | -0.9989 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 74 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 9 | 34 | 43 | 13 | 3 | 17 | 1 | 54 | 9 | 2 | 2 | 9 | 72 | 91 | 48 | 7 | 9 | 11 | 6 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 7 | 6 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 23 | 30 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 1 | 1 | 10 | 13 | 30 | 2 | 3 | 7 | 4 | 85 | 13 | 53 | 69 | 13 | 48 | 1 | 9 | 1 | 1 | 38 | 17 | 2 | 3 | 21 | 316 | 108 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110079 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.046251 | 0 | 0.054433 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.050863 | 0.165689 | 0.040322 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069417 | 0.234005 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069354 | 0 | 0 | 0.105625 | 0 | 0 | 0.170636 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057885 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175759 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111463 | 0 | 0.059448 | 0 | 0.124714 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102209 | 0.061152 | 0.034559 | 0.190362 | 0.225556 | 0.055481 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130991 | 0.058493 | 0 | 0.118509 | 0.130612 | 0.067886 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088673 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074672 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.292726 | 0.068882 | 0.218115 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135279 | 0.233607 | 0.032316 | 0 | 0.116817 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06259 | 0 | 0.067062 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15494 | 0 | 0 | 0.097251 | 0 | 0.102033 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06941 | 0 | 0.134468 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063144 | 0.045858 | 0.057757 | 0.069109 | 0.290437 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08475 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056489 | 0.062921 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074727 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168138 | 0.050923 | 0.065421 | 0 | 0.046819 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.043945 | 0.042384 | 0.064989 | 0 | 0.077141 | 0.076026 | 0.062699 | 0.063206 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07803 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118948 | 0 | 0.119374 | 0 | 0.228196 | 0.063763 | 0 | 0.096311 | 0 | 0 | 0.093977 | 0.072321 | 0 | 0.085193 |
suicidewatch | dazzasmith5136 | 2019/05/12 | Human meat This isn’t the full extent of my feeling but part of the reason I want to off myself is because I want to taste human meat but I don’t want to have to burst someone to do so, yet I know it’s the only way I will unless I reveal the fact I want to taste it, this isn’t the only reason but I feel you guys will k... | 1.319076 | 1.825157 | 3.595361 | 93.924287 | 77.072289 | 5.533333 | 18.65261 | 3.1291 | -0.65544 | 279 | 4 | 69 | 0 | 6 | 97 | 44 | 83 | 0 | 0.903 | 0.097 | 0.4678 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 8 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 18 | 17 | 6 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 13 | 0 | 13 | 15 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 51 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135847 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.338037 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.220655 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.244944 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.338973 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.241323 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.458251 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188819 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179117 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.525768 | 0.176887 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | timid_ | 2019/05/12 | I let myself down again. Again, an event I'd been planning to attend for weeks and weeks, I'm bailing out on because I am afraid to show my face. This serves as evidence that I continue to punish myself over and over even when everything else seems to go in my favor. I'm so tired of this. I want to break free but I can... | 3.956369 | 5.095552 | 4.75173 | 85.716829 | 71.449568 | 7.626928 | 26.271931 | 7.976526 | 1.44637 | 1,359 | 43 | 277 | 18 | 25 | 439 | 177 | 347 | 0.113 | 0.776 | 0.111 | -0.6028 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 41 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 20 | 18 | 3 | 2 | 9 | 0 | 37 | 6 | 1 | 8 | 2 | 54 | 66 | 20 | 0 | 14 | 9 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 21 | 9 | 0 | 3 | 8 | 4 | 4 | 3 | 9 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 3 | 52 | 11 | 54 | 43 | 3 | 46 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 9 | 21 | 0 | 5 | 18 | 208 | 73 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097898 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081349 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096957 | 0.06836 | 0.100173 | 0 | 0.087032 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119194 | 0.107975 | 0 | 0.110149 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099679 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156116 | 0 | 0 | 0.063051 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163342 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129147 | 0 | 0.082372 | 0 | 0.175731 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.049433 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102157 | 0 | 0.055563 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06553 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173798 | 0 | 0 | 0.161189 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.399889 | 0.27622 | 0 | 0 | 0.086329 | 0 | 0.082099 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130519 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098716 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071869 | 0.072492 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102589 | 0 | 0.066249 | 0.148711 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093633 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062631 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083491 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098944 | 0.077907 | 0.178005 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069199 | 0 | 0.078076 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129903 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057008 | 0.112367 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066377 | 0.106341 | 0 | 0.101778 | 0 | 0.084438 | 0 | 0 | 0.230659 | 0.155204 | 0.156844 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176437 | 0 | 0 | 0.188486 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.2778 | 0 | 0 | 0.062958 |
suicidewatch | sasukeuchiha21 | 2019/05/12 | Just graduated today Hi everyone, I just graduated today in Chemical Engineering. It was hard work but a lot of stress and suffering that has had an effect on me. I'm not really that proud of myself and I felt like I did what was required of me rather than accomplish anything. Hence, I skipped my graduation because I d... | 5.568158 | 7.798596 | 6.807067 | 68.256025 | 69.080972 | 10.446073 | 32.592915 | 10.57761 | 4.201904 | 1,092 | 50 | 172 | 34 | 20 | 368 | 136 | 247 | 0.208 | 0.694 | 0.098 | -0.9846 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 22 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 11 | 19 | 1 | 2 | 12 | 0 | 17 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 44 | 37 | 17 | 0 | 8 | 9 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 12 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 8 | 10 | 2 | 1 | 15 | 5 | 32 | 9 | 25 | 20 | 3 | 23 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 11 | 0 | 4 | 10 | 124 | 39 | 16 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104798 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178233 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183263 | 0 | 0.107841 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.319541 | 0 | 0.111512 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145001 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125221 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132523 | 0.09362 | 0.125826 | 0 | 0 | 0.111469 | 0 | 0 | 0.101247 | 0 | 0.068467 | 0.125712 | 0.148954 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117393 | 0.129382 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130044 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07202 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092563 | 0.192069 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111412 | 0 | 0 | 0.17495 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136916 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141291 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167904 | 0.134738 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.265254 | 0 | 0.119301 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150114 | 0.136999 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105331 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152156 | 0 | 0.08397 | 0 | 0.104037 | 0.076415 | 0 | 0.248435 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077295 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.235654 | 0.242964 | 0 | 0 | 0.150698 | 0 | 0 | 0.095404 | 0 | 0 | 0.093092 | 0.14328 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | EmotionalAbuseVictim | 2019/05/12 | I have no time for therapy I am a male victim of emotional abuse from a former girl i was briefly dating. This woman ruined me. I have no more self-worth and just want to end it all constantly. I am away from my support system because I recently moved and all I do is work. I know this is a problem and I need to go to t... | 2.239742 | 3.218111 | 4.196532 | 88.677981 | 75.416185 | 7.404002 | 23.712317 | 7.882392 | 1.041029 | 625 | 18 | 141 | 9 | 13 | 214 | 93 | 173 | 0.176 | 0.712 | 0.113 | -0.9107 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 9 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 17 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 29 | 33 | 11 | 1 | 4 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 11 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 7 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 26 | 5 | 17 | 29 | 4 | 22 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 102 | 37 | 3 | 0 | 0.167201 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146155 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132585 | 0 | 0 | 0.086024 | 0.155853 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152498 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146458 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158738 | 0.249977 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133033 | 0 | 0.142707 | 0.100814 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109027 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.401002 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150222 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094588 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162831 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140037 | 0.125432 | 0 | 0 | 0.077555 | 0 | 0 | 0.149423 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068943 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133529 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149986 | 0.103738 | 0.104637 | 0.108839 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107326 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123218 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13503 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139337 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147216 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160139 | 0 | 0 | 0.106103 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.32276 | 0 | 0.093752 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164574 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12188 | 0 | 0 | 0.16647 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.205471 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | bush_baby420 | 2019/05/12 | I Don't Know Why I'm suicidal. I have been for years, but it's really hitting hard lately. I just want to die, stop existing, escape, anything.
I know I made a post two weeks ago just like this, and I feel like a stupid attention whore for posting again. But I have no idea where to go from here. I'm lost once again.... | 0.399911 | 2.275603 | 2.275349 | 96.423542 | 83.418605 | 5.519618 | 19.225403 | 6.671995 | -0.073071 | 462 | 12 | 111 | 5 | 13 | 153 | 77 | 129 | 0.305 | 0.594 | 0.101 | -0.9867 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 18 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 13 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 28 | 26 | 7 | 2 | 3 | 8 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 5 | 12 | 2 | 15 | 20 | 2 | 19 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 68 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139512 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129514 | 0.140105 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133923 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16334 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139396 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.238735 | 0.112435 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089445 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.281971 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.355336 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172989 | 0 | 0.177536 | 0 | 0 | 0.160936 | 0 | 0.15378 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171804 | 0 | 0 | 0.148921 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167609 | 0.106648 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164433 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.301462 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100824 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13158 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172153 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106854 | 0 | 0.153742 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.278488 | 0 | 0.126244 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.28403 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10135 |
suicidewatch | VertEzx | 2019/05/12 | What’s next? My girlfriend broke up with me for the second time last month, I don’t think I’ll ever be good enough.
I failed so many exams, I’m trying so hard but none of it’s working.
My counselor was making good strides with me but she thinks I don’t want to keep coming back. I wish I could be there longer, there’... | -1.22019 | 0.400759 | 1.003922 | 104.686536 | 87.882353 | 4.248366 | 13.562092 | 5.033349 | -1.534889 | 559 | 7 | 156 | 2 | 18 | 186 | 98 | 170 | 0.144 | 0.689 | 0.168 | 0.5117 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 20 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 12 | 10 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 30 | 34 | 9 | 1 | 8 | 7 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 7 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 4 | 31 | 5 | 18 | 22 | 6 | 21 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 11 | 6 | 0 | 3 | 11 | 97 | 36 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124079 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115187 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.215263 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146894 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120576 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111758 | 0.154879 | 0.153755 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145271 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144631 | 0 | 0 | 0.126615 | 0 | 0.133752 | 0 | 0 | 0.131955 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.216288 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159101 | 0.234808 | 0.11195 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12539 | 0.138196 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124416 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114098 | 0 | 0 | 0.152083 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093434 | 0.141912 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148491 | 0 | 0.163936 | 0.223452 | 0 | 0.102897 | 0.103789 | 0 | 0 | 0.297729 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119537 | 0.133148 | 0.111313 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127427 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17938 | 0 | 0 | 0.08162 | 0 | 0.132679 | 0 | 0 | 0.095033 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.330242 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160964 | 0 | 0 | 0.101903 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | onionsquidburger | 2019/05/12 | It's okay to have these thoughts Listen.
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I live a pretty reasonably happy life, by most definitions.
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But I feel like I should just end this, because I can clearly see there is no proper meaning to things.
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But there are still a few things that stop me from doing so.
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suicidewatch | NAAnymore | 2019/05/12 | Tried to kill myself, again This time I just threw myself some alcohol and almost turned on the lighter. Then I remembered that my roommate was sleeping inside and he would have extinguished the fire, somehow.
Please just make it stop. | 7.230163 | 9.282363 | 5.281463 | 81.538943 | 64.609756 | 8.393496 | 30.739837 | 8.841846 | 2.567872 | 190 | 7 | 31 | 3 | 3 | 54 | 36 | 41 | 0.2 | 0.751 | 0.049 | -0.7906 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 11 | 6 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 23 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.329937 | 0.309147 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.341562 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206079 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.338891 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.349729 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.308951 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.258111 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180022 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.209606 | 0.335808 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.219312 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | ThrowAwayvvvvvsrygjy | 2019/05/12 | I plan on killing myself on my paid time off I just wanted somebody to know that I am killing myself at the end of the week because I have no friends to talk to. I’m a bad person. | 1.603917 | 2.412632 | 3.18 | 96.011667 | 76.75 | 5.333333 | 25.833333 | 3.1291 | 0.196083 | 139 | 5 | 34 | 0 | 3 | 46 | 30 | 40 | 0.311 | 0.622 | 0.067 | -0.9081 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 1 | 8 | 5 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 23 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.259059 | 0.189135 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.274803 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.239711 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.686526 | 0 | 0.170514 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.270912 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.24938 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180918 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183003 | 0 | 0.248877 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | dullmemes | 2019/05/12 | there's no hope for me there's no resources to get me out of here. there's no job willing to take me in. if i stay in this house for one more day, im going to go insane.
i want to get out of here and die in the streets. i want to ddie and i have no other way to do it. | -1.585909 | -0.583738 | 1.393939 | 104.660909 | 85.818182 | 4.4 | 15.545455 | 3.1291 | -1.468527 | 201 | 3 | 61 | 0 | 6 | 71 | 39 | 66 | 0.22 | 0.701 | 0.079 | -0.872 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 11 | 3 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 1 | 15 | 10 | 1 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 43 | 10 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182203 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.293212 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.295211 | 0 | 0.321127 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.280607 | 0 | 0.325992 | 0 | 0 | 0.305171 | 0 | 0.280359 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191444 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.30113 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.212421 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.333277 | 0.224252 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | I_Want_To_Die_Alt | 2019/05/12 | How can I lessen the impact of suicide on others? Several of my friends have told me if I kill myself, they'll kill themselves. I didn't want to start a suicide pact. I don't want to hurt anybody. I just want to fucking leave everything behind and that be that.
Maybe I'm a sociopath that doesn't care about other peop... | 1.553726 | 3.956247 | 2.871781 | 90.706884 | 82.793103 | 5.651984 | 23.534348 | 6.991621 | 0.886025 | 1,248 | 46 | 254 | 16 | 35 | 403 | 167 | 319 | 0.224 | 0.652 | 0.125 | -0.9846 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 47 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 22 | 22 | 9 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 31 | 9 | 3 | 6 | 0 | 57 | 64 | 28 | 11 | 16 | 10 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 16 | 13 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 9 | 13 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 3 | 36 | 9 | 36 | 52 | 4 | 26 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 11 | 10 | 4 | 10 | 11 | 169 | 52 | 1 | 0.076453 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06114 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.051991 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07183 | 0 | 0 | 0.046605 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077949 | 0 | 0 | 0.065858 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147918 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078238 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063867 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.050497 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206134 | 0 | 0.072073 | 0 | 0.038657 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118135 | 0.212039 | 0.079887 | 0 | 0.04345 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.051245 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.245534 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067955 | 0.422921 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080953 | 0 | 0 | 0.054001 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076807 | 0.08328 | 0 | 0.077019 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056202 | 0.056689 | 0 | 0.073839 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073359 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.051807 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.265015 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073221 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076857 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0696 | 0 | 0.08637 | 0.078478 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054114 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.334509 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057483 | 0 | 0.066823 | 0 | 0.087431 | 0.088768 | 0 | 0.097976 | 0 | 0 | 0.04458 | 0 | 0 | 0.073054 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066031 | 0 | 0 | 0.496035 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137974 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | imliteraltrashh | 2019/05/12 | I don’t know what to do I don’t know what to do anymore, it hurts everything hurts. My happiness is an illusion and I don’t know if there’s any other way out | -2.206667 | -0.479197 | 1.172222 | 97.345 | 104.555556 | 5.733333 | 17.111111 | 7.168622 | 0.365978 | 124 | 4 | 31 | 3 | 6 | 44 | 23 | 36 | 0.173 | 0.726 | 0.101 | -0.3818 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 9 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 3 | 9 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 21 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202126 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.294771 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.26713 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.316405 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.636378 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.490047 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.235926 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | dizzybyturnover | 2019/05/12 | I'm scared an ex friend will take his life I made a post on r/Advice about this but I'm really scared that something will happen. To quickly summarize it, me and my friends kicked a guy (J) out of our group because we lost trust in him and he was becoming very toxic. J has a history of suicide attempts and I'm scared h... | 13.127334 | 16.555116 | 7.57511 | 65.433918 | 51.989691 | 8.017084 | 29.32106 | 8.418075 | 2.015007 | 569 | 15 | 78 | 6 | 7 | 146 | 71 | 97 | 0.167 | 0.655 | 0.178 | 0.0772 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 47 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 7 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 8 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 11 | 18 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 9 | 3 | 9 | 12 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 14 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 42 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.297298 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164821 | 0.184841 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09273 | 0.168003 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127076 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.235053 | 0 | 0 | 0.145926 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150622 | 0.134518 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101962 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164314 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083601 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.214892 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166056 | 0 | 0 | 0.143939 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166981 | 0 | 0 | 0.291376 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097451 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.456893 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.25778 | 0.117109 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166393 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.228749 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125514 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184841 | 0 |
suicidewatch | nottoberevealed1 | 2019/05/12 | I wish life was an ‘opt-out at anytime’ type of deal I feel so suicidal today. Like the more I think about life the more I panic the more I think I need to find a way to die. I hate the little optimism in my sub conscious that is scared of doing it just in case it gets better because right now I’m in so much emotional ... | 2.559643 | 3.295281 | 4.339048 | 88.889286 | 74.357143 | 7.504762 | 23.52381 | 7.793538 | 0.897467 | 303 | 8 | 70 | 4 | 6 | 103 | 59 | 84 | 0.236 | 0.603 | 0.16 | -0.8897 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 7 | 1 | 3 | 6 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 10 | 14 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 11 | 3 | 10 | 13 | 4 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 43 | 15 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0.201664 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125974 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182768 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.213051 | 0 | 0 | 0.214474 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.232458 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.208981 | 0.147633 | 0 | 0 | 0.188878 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107968 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.204028 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.291931 | 0.201921 | 0.207121 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137943 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151914 | 0.153231 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.242464 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176481 | 0 | 0 | 0.206896 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.226046 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.264831 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.195884 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164032 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.237642 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | ireallydontwantlife | 2019/05/12 | I’m such a garbage human being I’m such a waste of existence oh my fucking god I don’t want to hurt any one anymore I’m so worthless and I don’t want to exist I fucking hate being alive and I don’t want anyone else to get hurt by me I love them too much I hate myself | -2.791602 | -1.274003 | 0.691255 | 100.307532 | 107.888889 | 2.92583 | 15.251082 | 4.851558 | -1.074067 | 211 | 6 | 52 | 1 | 11 | 75 | 38 | 63 | 0.294 | 0.511 | 0.195 | -0.8801 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 8 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 17 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 1 | 5 | 15 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 30 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149099 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.217439 | 0.153306 | 0.224649 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183156 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.405389 | 0.11455 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.432931 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.469426 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197883 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161175 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14857 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.387961 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | VizardMin | 2019/05/12 | I'm hanging myself tonight The dissonance is far too much to bear. Neglect makes me desperate for any sort of attention and validation so I'll post outrageous trash online in a mad attempt to scream ar the void and have even a singular soul say
"I hear you"
Instead of continuing this toxic trend that years of therap... | 4.735071 | 6.416307 | 5.823988 | 76.684554 | 70.238095 | 9.440476 | 30.267857 | 9.827889 | 3.078643 | 437 | 18 | 80 | 11 | 8 | 145 | 80 | 105 | 0.165 | 0.825 | 0.01 | -0.949 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 10 | 11 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 9 | 1 | 12 | 9 | 1 | 14 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 46 | 13 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0.26247 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182905 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.302549 | 0.238223 | 0 | 0 | 0.177648 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152859 | 0 | 0.215115 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.303142 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189977 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179536 | 0.272688 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.270953 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19772 | 0.199434 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.257594 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.213891 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.307584 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156835 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173204 |
suicidewatch | andrewhooveman2 | 2019/05/12 | Found the perfect opportunity So first off I know I’m contradicting my old posts but I think I found the absolute perfect opportunity!
When I was looking for a snack I checked a cupboard that I’ve never seen anyone open before and found a few boxes of shotgun shells. Since my anxiety is actually coming back already I ... | 3.254107 | 5.849745 | 4.972285 | 77.026991 | 77.426966 | 7.551061 | 30.113608 | 8.515129 | 2.71595 | 373 | 18 | 66 | 8 | 9 | 126 | 65 | 89 | 0.072 | 0.674 | 0.254 | 0.9654 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 4 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 18 | 17 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 2 | 11 | 6 | 6 | 9 | 1 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 40 | 14 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0.178959 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202372 | 0 | 0.152593 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140291 | 0 | 0 | 0.128228 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141013 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156049 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157972 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155989 | 0 | 0.603223 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100785 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153999 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141439 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192434 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.20363 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175634 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1517 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.352521 | 0 | 0 | 0.106934 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.267016 | 0 | 0 | 0.130273 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | ShotaBoiXD | 2019/05/12 | what's point of anyhing ? recently i have been feeling especially bad. i find my life very boring i am loosing friends left and right the girl who i loved broke up with me after 2 years and 6 months of dating there is nothing to do and i am stuck at home playing video games but i go out at exactly 9 every day to drink ... | 3.183508 | 4.295758 | 4.561528 | 86.450537 | 73.280156 | 7.122589 | 27.534098 | 7.475848 | 1.423254 | 974 | 36 | 205 | 11 | 19 | 324 | 154 | 257 | 0.183 | 0.702 | 0.115 | -0.9722 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 14 | 2 | 0 | 13 | 0 | 24 | 10 | 3 | 6 | 4 | 49 | 45 | 14 | 2 | 5 | 6 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 8 | 15 | 1 | 0 | 10 | 5 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 4 | 30 | 6 | 38 | 33 | 3 | 36 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 2 | 12 | 21 | 2 | 3 | 10 | 134 | 38 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105722 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11939 | 0 | 0 | 0.234448 | 0.262925 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107295 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101143 | 0 | 0.101648 | 0.083191 | 0.090334 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069774 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105985 | 0 | 0 | 0.180758 | 0.121699 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091155 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109408 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098884 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167175 | 0.10002 | 0 | 0.103786 | 0.122974 | 0 | 0.173059 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111034 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108523 | 0.107457 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122133 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118917 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117549 | 0 | 0.305671 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090852 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097646 | 0 | 0.144435 | 0 | 0 | 0.117851 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086356 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103811 | 0 | 0 | 0.115219 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102274 | 0 | 0.103616 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108761 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106825 | 0 | 0 | 0.092394 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108268 | 0 | 0.275007 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.236685 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171782 | 0.126173 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146908 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089268 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.262925 | 0.139342 |
suicidewatch | thrawaed | 2019/05/12 | I'm ready for goodbye You can view my post history about how my husband vanished and the update. I'm struggling with the fact that I wont be able to say goodbye to him. The love of my life has thrown me away. It hurts. I hope he will find this post one day once I am gone and know that I truly love him. I regret my mist... | 1.628095 | 3.988548 | 2.729762 | 92.115238 | 82.095238 | 6.114286 | 22.428571 | 7.38713 | 0.8497 | 656 | 22 | 138 | 10 | 18 | 209 | 100 | 168 | 0.101 | 0.709 | 0.189 | 0.9463 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 19 | 2 | 11 | 1 | 2 | 8 | 11 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 13 | 6 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 31 | 28 | 11 | 0 | 7 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 30 | 7 | 16 | 20 | 3 | 18 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 3 | 24 | 5 | 0 | 4 | 9 | 94 | 37 | 0 | 0.134191 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138982 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126077 | 0.103185 | 0 | 0.081802 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140825 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107141 | 0 | 0 | 0.086542 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121384 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.490593 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142849 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159017 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133282 | 0 | 0 | 0.143654 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.221244 | 0.109384 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189566 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.363338 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103497 | 0 | 0.142714 | 0 | 0 | 0.12876 | 0 | 0 | 0.142909 | 0.090931 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.257036 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150325 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144071 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106714 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140286 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100895 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.308627 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | 6378_6378 | 2019/05/12 | I wish there was a 'stop existing' button I was gonna cut down to an artery this easter but my dumbass thought that it would be a good idea to make a bunch of obvious noticeable self harm cuts on my hand and of course my parents found out and they somehow managed to find my suicide note in my geography copy and they ne... | 3.478828 | 4.993667 | 4.52075 | 85.44925 | 73.140625 | 7.9325 | 28.425 | 8.548687 | 2.046488 | 503 | 20 | 102 | 9 | 10 | 164 | 92 | 128 | 0.178 | 0.666 | 0.157 | -0.4798 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 8 | 7 | 2 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 11 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 28 | 19 | 7 | 1 | 4 | 6 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 18 | 3 | 15 | 8 | 1 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 71 | 23 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119457 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174211 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107083 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140253 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116024 | 0.158898 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160553 | 0 | 0 | 0.192606 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147338 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198303 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09654 | 0 | 0 | 0.186003 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08582 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117257 | 0 | 0.176478 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.205735 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.270965 | 0.169657 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.199994 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186919 | 0 | 0.195054 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183256 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146863 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192148 | 0 | 0.165561 | 0 | 0 | 0.141192 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.203959 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139457 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.404009 | 0.169334 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124786 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | EatingRawMaca | 2019/05/12 | Suicide pact. I've always been intrigued by this, ever since I saw a obscure Korean film that focused on this (I can't remember what it was though I wish I could). Another film I know of is Amour Fou, which is quite insane. It's not healthy, I know, but I think often about how much I would like to die alongside anothe... | 7.9281 | 6.88602 | 7.786 | 74.863 | 62.9 | 11 | 37 | 10.125757 | 3.60725 | 822 | 34 | 154 | 15 | 10 | 264 | 135 | 200 | 0.187 | 0.681 | 0.132 | -0.9374 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 27 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 7 | 10 | 4 | 0 | 14 | 0 | 11 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 38 | 23 | 11 | 4 | 5 | 7 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 12 | 9 | 1 | 1 | 8 | 4 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 3 | 23 | 6 | 25 | 16 | 5 | 19 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 12 | 9 | 1 | 7 | 9 | 106 | 35 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13042 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.328711 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133374 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135017 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125144 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162671 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153545 | 0.181768 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174806 | 0.103525 | 0.14178 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150495 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144903 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15554 | 0 | 0.173409 | 0 | 0.25842 | 0.127764 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15315 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133255 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115222 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14709 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106211 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108664 | 0.273718 | 0 | 0 | 0.14817 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157567 | 0 | 0.166712 | 0.156782 | 0 | 0.100412 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177556 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129657 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171448 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104131 | 0.200865 | 0.153996 | 0 | 0.091396 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092449 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180243 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111343 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | bigtimeowl | 2019/05/12 | I am so alone. I am the biggest disappointment of a daughter and overall piece of shit person. I try so hard to be better but I always mess up. I hate myself so much. My boyfriend is spending Mother’s Day with his family and I’m stuck alone in bed crying my eyes out thinking of what pills in the cabinet I can use to o... | 0.107407 | 2.180811 | 2.487901 | 93.255556 | 86.160494 | 5.081481 | 20.111111 | 6.427356 | 0.123133 | 293 | 9 | 66 | 3 | 9 | 100 | 55 | 81 | 0.31 | 0.601 | 0.089 | -0.9599 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 7 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 9 | 13 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 13 | 2 | 11 | 11 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 46 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.678318 | 0 | 0 | 0.181653 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19308 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.239806 | 0.140793 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.205806 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168668 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.195565 | 0.215538 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160485 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190622 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.224095 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175471 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139886 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14822 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188552 | 0 | 0 | 0.128766 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | emptylost | 2019/05/12 | I need someone to talk to I have no one | -2.3 | -1.119979 | 1.29 | 103.625 | 89 | 4 | 20 | 3.1291 | -0.849 | 30 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 8 | 10 | 0.239 | 0.761 | 0 | -0.296 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.481351 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.439894 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.550039 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.521778 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | alltheway_away | 2019/05/12 | I’m scared. The last time I tried to commit suicide, I was angry, pissed at the world and just done. This time, I’m just sad. Hopeless. I have a boyfriend who cares about me. Friends and family. Pets. I got suspended from work for being too drunk and today I’ve been putting in applications for something that doesn’t in... | 0.809379 | 2.938111 | 2.618048 | 93.091584 | 83.60241 | 5.700438 | 20.516156 | 6.980633 | 0.369494 | 1,544 | 46 | 343 | 20 | 44 | 511 | 209 | 415 | 0.226 | 0.652 | 0.122 | -0.9935 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 52 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 27 | 28 | 9 | 2 | 14 | 0 | 41 | 12 | 5 | 6 | 4 | 55 | 78 | 28 | 1 | 7 | 11 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 15 | 20 | 3 | 1 | 6 | 3 | 5 | 14 | 15 | 16 | 0 | 2 | 16 | 5 | 50 | 12 | 45 | 55 | 5 | 54 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 3 | 13 | 15 | 7 | 2 | 26 | 215 | 65 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094057 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184575 | 0 | 0 | 0.087284 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067675 | 0 | 0.107302 | 0.097202 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155678 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.2692 | 0 | 0 | 0.075814 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07027 | 0 | 0.193353 | 0.17028 | 0.362943 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077019 | 0.090066 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168197 | 0.079099 | 0 | 0.082969 | 0 | 0.089002 | 0.062875 | 0 | 0.096412 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067997 | 0.16273 | 0 | 0.168857 | 0.300113 | 0 | 0.140781 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086893 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095067 | 0.091861 | 0 | 0.078229 | 0 | 0 | 0.048369 | 0.143482 | 0 | 0.093191 | 0 | 0.089998 | 0.062165 | 0.085996 | 0 | 0.077716 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088419 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088866 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082593 | 0 | 0.084449 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059639 | 0.133873 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084017 | 0.061016 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09922 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088476 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056382 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176229 | 0.089072 | 0.140267 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090342 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074572 | 0.067755 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070286 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09627 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066174 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102188 | 0.058471 | 0.056394 | 0 | 0.069871 | 0.10264 | 0 | 0.083424 | 0 | 0 | 0.119508 | 0 | 0.085974 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103823 | 0.069859 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081587 | 0.079417 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064073 | 0 | 0.089691 | 0.062521 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | letsrunaway99 | 2019/05/12 | Can someone talk with me, please? I'm really sad and alone. I'm camping for the first time ever and not having a good time. It's really lonely and I honestly just want to disappear or do drugs to ease the pain. | 0.6325 | 2.886446 | 3.128364 | 88.307545 | 85.590909 | 7.156364 | 17.890909 | 8.238736 | 0.933405 | 165 | 4 | 35 | 4 | 5 | 57 | 35 | 44 | 0.295 | 0.533 | 0.172 | -0.7712 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 6 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 4 | 6 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 21 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.302615 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.338841 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.264298 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.248532 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.24507 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.310905 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.320731 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.374362 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.247567 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.234847 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.34075 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172338 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | meggers97 | 2019/05/12 | I was going to do it Monday (after mother's day) I ordered some pills on Amazon, enough that I knew would be lethal. They were gonna be delivered today but they got lost in the mail. So heres to waitin
I really can't go on with the pain and people leaving me anymore. I'm a burden. Idk. | 0.794645 | 2.687774 | 3.270082 | 89.725669 | 82.114754 | 5.378142 | 16.724044 | 6.427356 | -0.209723 | 222 | 4 | 47 | 2 | 6 | 77 | 52 | 61 | 0.21 | 0.768 | 0.022 | -0.91 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 7 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 14 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 7 | 5 | 2 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 32 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.311473 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202549 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.324518 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.356986 | 0 | 0.25119 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.332554 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.342844 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.334192 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.217736 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.201201 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.297701 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.223106 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Cavalieria | 2019/05/12 | A little help needed Throwaway since my girlfriend knows my Reddit.
And sorry for a possibly disorganized post, my thoughts are a jumble atm.
For the past year, I’ve been feeling increasingly irritable and have wild wild mood swings. I’m not sure if I have anger issues, but I think I do since I’m always reacting aggr... | 4.196693 | 4.531842 | 5.668772 | 82.294659 | 70.373802 | 8.815911 | 25.554153 | 8.841846 | 1.640402 | 1,183 | 31 | 251 | 20 | 20 | 402 | 151 | 313 | 0.332 | 0.62 | 0.047 | -0.9988 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 29 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 16 | 17 | 6 | 5 | 11 | 0 | 17 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 4 | 56 | 49 | 27 | 5 | 10 | 18 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 15 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 14 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 9 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 6 | 31 | 3 | 34 | 44 | 5 | 38 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 18 | 0 | 7 | 16 | 147 | 46 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166261 | 0 | 0 | 0.06794 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060902 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109743 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.207375 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102239 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166919 | 0 | 0.088488 | 0 | 0 | 0.131975 | 0 | 0.168351 | 0 | 0.179579 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.252579 | 0.071373 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104394 | 0 | 0.113559 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102533 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133931 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104277 | 0 | 0 | 0.110532 | 0 | 0.164718 | 0 | 0 | 0.211574 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097619 | 0.100133 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10129 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148159 | 0 | 0.096491 | 0 | 0.093756 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095372 | 0 | 0.087235 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11263 | 0.191366 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128006 | 0 | 0.098646 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.200048 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.330576 | 0.112299 | 0 | 0 | 0.084651 | 0.076913 | 0 | 0.223675 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.218563 | 0 | 0.094161 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066374 | 0.192049 | 0 | 0.15863 | 0.116513 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06783 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176783 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070971 | 0 | 0 | 0.064337 |
suicidewatch | Mrzeldaootfan | 2019/01/13 | I want to kill myself but im afraid to suicide always comes up when im thinking how shitty things are for me right now, i have a good paying job, i love the people there. its just my family all shoot me down belitteling me. i feel so sick sometimes i dont want to leave my bed. I want to kill myself but i dont want my f... | -0.305515 | 1.605836 | 2.081365 | 96.566011 | 86.46988 | 4.652744 | 16.451138 | 5.822114 | -0.68702 | 291 | 6 | 70 | 2 | 9 | 99 | 56 | 83 | 0.358 | 0.495 | 0.147 | -0.984 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 7 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 14 | 13 | 7 | 3 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 16 | 3 | 10 | 12 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 46 | 18 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144363 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149452 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.406674 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163558 | 0 | 0.087725 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134043 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145521 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.374813 | 0 | 0.172169 | 0 | 0.383897 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183708 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156588 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120281 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148165 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171593 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189778 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115264 | 0.11117 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.409332 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126308 | 0.176195 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | rlbanana | 2019/01/13 | How do I make it stop Not life, the thoughts, every second I’m not doing something it’s all I think about, I don’t want to die, I just want to be happy but I feel like I’m being prevented from doing so. I wake up every morning and lie in bed for hours without the motivation to wake up I can’t sleep because of the thoug... | 0.64907 | 2.299851 | 2.735058 | 94.600494 | 81.44186 | 5.230233 | 21.215116 | 5.985473 | -0.007949 | 305 | 9 | 72 | 2 | 8 | 103 | 53 | 86 | 0.184 | 0.682 | 0.134 | -0.7517 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 7 | 5 | 3 | 4 | 1 | 21 | 18 | 6 | 1 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 7 | 2 | 12 | 14 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 45 | 12 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116584 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198487 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.334729 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.322273 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096702 | 0.136629 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09992 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.203589 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188343 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135086 | 0.093435 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127661 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.209935 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191388 | 0 | 0 | 0.147234 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.479681 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122545 | 0 | 0.303663 | 0 | 0.219814 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.225609 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184358 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Yoshiverse4 | 2019/01/13 | I believe I deserve death. I don't think I deserve death in a negative way.
I believe I am a good person with a kind heart. I believe I am a hard worker and I believe I always put others before myself.
I truly believe that with all this pain I am in, the overwhelming darkness, I believe that my eventual suicide is th... | 2.133964 | 3.518596 | 4.209189 | 86.851802 | 76.387387 | 6.014414 | 25.846847 | 6.427356 | 0.988214 | 410 | 15 | 84 | 3 | 9 | 141 | 58 | 111 | 0.233 | 0.641 | 0.126 | -0.9059 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 9 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 17 | 14 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 21 | 2 | 10 | 11 | 5 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 67 | 30 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098404 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100633 | 0.79945 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10809 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099193 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.21188 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140142 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123152 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099311 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134643 | 0 | 0 | 0.080138 | 0.179888 | 0.12584 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103262 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118887 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107662 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098873 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12936 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.227334 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187743 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086097 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | inner_mess | 2019/01/13 | It's all in my head... I guess The way people see us is the way we see us ourselves. Is it true? How to get rid of all this negative stuff in my head, then? | -2.784167 | -1.127291 | 0.329111 | 105.527 | 98.722222 | 3.991111 | 12.755556 | 5.683918 | -1.410604 | 115 | 2 | 33 | 1 | 5 | 40 | 26 | 36 | 0.12 | 0.809 | 0.071 | -0.4469 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 6 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 1 | 4 | 6 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 23 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122003 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.257245 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.479311 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161891 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.372165 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.267321 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.561783 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.370709 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | L255taochi | 2019/01/13 | Breaking point I want out. Ive been suicidal for A year now. Idk what to do. Someone tell me its gonna be ok | -2.6678 | -1.013663 | 0.5355 | 102.35525 | 103.8 | 4.1 | 18.25 | 5.985473 | -0.3772 | 83 | 3 | 22 | 1 | 4 | 29 | 24 | 25 | 0.223 | 0.644 | 0.133 | -0.5267 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 13 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.454054 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.40697 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.525388 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.419817 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.283303 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.309308 |
suicidewatch | deputydopey | 2019/01/13 | Was thinking of overdosing then shooting myself But i cried it all out instead. Saved my life.
a reminder, I guess, that you shouldnt hide it in all the time | 1.285 | 3.900886 | 1.897016 | 95.265524 | 87.709677 | 4.390323 | 23.879032 | 5.985473 | 0.499832 | 124 | 5 | 25 | 1 | 4 | 38 | 28 | 31 | 0.084 | 0.776 | 0.14 | 0.1823 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 20 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.573416 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.575065 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.368719 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.33449 | 0 | 0 | 0.304395 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Edwinus | 2019/01/13 | The 15 minutes a difference can make My friend is bipolar crazy fuck but he is my crazy bipolar fiend.
We didn't hear from him in a while and we where joking we would see him come spring time.
Fast forward today.. I went bye work he wasn't there he wasn't at home. We got the spair key and we where 15 minutes on time a... | -0.284444 | 1.888127 | 0.971469 | 102.524611 | 89.740741 | 3.733827 | 15.507407 | 4.935629 | -1.187347 | 294 | 6 | 71 | 1 | 10 | 92 | 55 | 81 | 0.116 | 0.732 | 0.152 | 0.6187 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 9 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 12 | 19 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 11 | 4 | 4 | 11 | 0 | 16 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 15 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 9 | 37 | 11 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.230766 | 0 | 0 | 0.194969 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.236474 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.349735 | 0.209245 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181022 | 0 | 0 | 0.224109 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.255098 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.227034 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.226849 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.247074 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151082 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180361 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170177 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.263958 | 0 | 0.214541 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.209817 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164776 | 0 | 0 | 0.321567 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | JustLeave_lol | 2019/01/13 | Just some thoughts Im not even sure if this is allowed in this sub but I wanted to share some of my thoughts to you guys. So I've been thinking if we are all gonna die then why am I keep trying to be normal and happy? I mean im clearly not okay and I don't seem to get better. Why don't I just kill myself and put an end... | 0.211503 | 2.086785 | 2.302879 | 95.967374 | 84.113636 | 5.047475 | 20.005051 | 6.139982 | -0.113735 | 626 | 18 | 148 | 5 | 18 | 210 | 100 | 176 | 0.151 | 0.65 | 0.198 | 0.9268 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 14 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 12 | 15 | 3 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 19 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 43 | 34 | 18 | 3 | 10 | 14 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 18 | 10 | 14 | 22 | 6 | 13 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 9 | 8 | 100 | 27 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082578 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123938 | 0.104449 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.245137 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.209202 | 0.122028 | 0 | 0.156007 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059715 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061702 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116937 | 0 | 0.125719 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.51027 | 0 | 0 | 0.209944 | 0.130659 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057697 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128919 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128645 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115712 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111642 | 0 | 0.113107 | 0 | 0.127331 | 0.113005 | 0 | 0.237445 | 0 | 0 | 0.118131 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107513 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097693 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090919 | 0 | 0.132203 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111307 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10873 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075673 | 0 | 0.281273 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080182 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139316 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.319699 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083894 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | jopep10 | 2019/01/13 | I cant find a good reason as to why life is even worth living I've been trying to find one. But i'm starting to realise that the one thing keeping me alive all these years, which was my dream of playing football proffesionally, wont come true. So what have i even left? My dad left me, then came back but never really ga... | 2.795268 | 3.723741 | 3.893988 | 91.57125 | 74 | 6.735714 | 23.089286 | 6.86897 | 0.479591 | 354 | 9 | 81 | 3 | 7 | 115 | 73 | 96 | 0.095 | 0.726 | 0.179 | 0.8088 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 6 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 19 | 13 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 1 | 9 | 5 | 8 | 8 | 2 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 48 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127264 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139953 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.208169 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156784 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161205 | 0 | 0 | 0.240429 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092029 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.332704 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140619 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15266 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1966 | 0 | 0 | 0.161777 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19272 | 0.395505 | 0 | 0.257116 | 0.08892 | 0 | 0.160717 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134957 | 0.140376 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.246667 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116599 | 0.187135 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186829 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128826 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120918 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123572 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150176 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164234 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117207 |
suicidewatch | callanancyhan | 2019/01/13 | ? I don't know if i'm depressed i feel like i'm just sad. I was depressed for almost 5 years, i went to a psychlogist bc i was cutting myself. I feel a lot better. But suicide seems a logical choice bc life is to hard especialy anxiety and stress it's just to run away from difficulties like if life was just a big probl... | 1.048274 | 2.963773 | 3.499206 | 88.295 | 81.361111 | 6.892063 | 24.174603 | 7.957252 | 1.355744 | 265 | 10 | 58 | 5 | 7 | 92 | 47 | 72 | 0.347 | 0.55 | 0.103 | -0.9485 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 9 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 15 | 13 | 4 | 1 | 3 | 6 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 8 | 3 | 6 | 9 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 33 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.235643 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180023 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.221095 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.208125 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.405369 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.237974 | 0.168116 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.210804 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129328 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.332433 | 0.229935 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.200064 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.225174 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.214231 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.269563 | 0 | 0 | 0.257407 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.218148 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151541 |
suicidewatch | ogski | 2019/01/13 | I've listed down the pros and cons of taking my life away And right now the pros outweight the cons.
I need help. I really do need help. The people I expect help from the most don't understand. I'm starting to believe that I am not meant to be loved. I cant handle all the responsibilities and obligations.
I've been ... | 1.050488 | 3.536751 | 2.429951 | 92.246146 | 86.560976 | 5.23122 | 17.956098 | 6.742158 | -0.006399 | 320 | 8 | 68 | 4 | 10 | 103 | 54 | 82 | 0.043 | 0.68 | 0.276 | 0.9578 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 13 | 15 | 4 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 8 | 1 | 9 | 11 | 2 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 40 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188332 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.225841 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.229264 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.208038 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.671796 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141586 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180916 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.297266 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138969 | 0 | 0 | 0.220037 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128415 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171185 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141881 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150715 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.208678 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15911 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | PuddleOfGlub | 2019/01/13 | Even in moments of complete contentment, I still want to die. I’m sitting here with a mug of tea, listening to my favorite music and watching the snow fall outside. I should feel content. I should feel like life is worth enjoying. Why don’t I feel this way? Why have I never felt this way? I remember being a small child... | 2.807585 | 4.954773 | 4.248233 | 83.942632 | 76.697368 | 6.711278 | 27.304511 | 7.709487 | 1.788275 | 607 | 25 | 113 | 9 | 14 | 201 | 92 | 152 | 0.086 | 0.783 | 0.131 | 0.6322 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 12 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 27 | 24 | 5 | 1 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 7 | 2 | 0 | 7 | 2 | 2 | 4 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 15 | 3 | 21 | 18 | 1 | 26 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 77 | 19 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155532 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173568 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.213522 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171806 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109339 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.334812 | 0.118263 | 0.158946 | 0.181343 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086489 | 0 | 0.094081 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090978 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.233854 | 0.080875 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.383029 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158401 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187527 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132202 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.224784 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097641 | 0.262799 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.448128 | 0.184822 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | sosjdiskshodkdjdk | 2019/01/13 | Hey! Can some one give me a reason to not commit suicide? | -1.16 | 0.827436 | 1.5 | 94.995 | 102.333333 | 2.4 | 14.333333 | 3.1291 | -1.243467 | 44 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 2 | 15 | 12 | 12 | 0.128 | 0.609 | 0.263 | 0.4577 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.503288 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.355513 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.539423 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.573877 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | espresso-veins | 2019/01/13 | I was attacked Got into a fight with my mother, older brother grabbed me and every other time he did he would choke me so I just started swinging. He backed off but then I got into a screaming match with my other brother and all of them started closing in and backing me into a wall and I told them to back up and pushed... | 1.389208 | 3.254335 | 2.5825 | 95.545833 | 80 | 4.266667 | 23.791667 | 3.1291 | -0.046096 | 594 | 21 | 130 | 0 | 15 | 190 | 85 | 160 | 0.122 | 0.825 | 0.052 | -0.9253 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 10 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 12 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 26 | 29 | 18 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 19 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 13 | 3 | 26 | 0 | 23 | 13 | 1 | 29 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 24 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 98 | 30 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143588 | 0.174734 | 0.144305 | 0.354309 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130696 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.471535 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129408 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.240737 | 0 | 0.17458 | 0 | 0.245684 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169927 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157059 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179886 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147376 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104078 | 0.116814 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168598 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.32614 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098416 | 0 | 0 | 0.089561 | 0 | 0 | 0.293528 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121915 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109108 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | tswanzey1231 | 2019/01/13 | Scared for my life. Can’t handle it. Might as well end it tonight , which wasn’t planned I’m probably gonna get in huge trouble in school tomorrow for something very major. I don’t want to come home to another day of my parents and sister crying because of my actions. I don’t belong in this world | 2.969508 | 4.618676 | 4.063082 | 87.661836 | 74.737705 | 6.847213 | 28.593443 | 7.554174 | 1.669594 | 237 | 10 | 48 | 3 | 5 | 77 | 47 | 61 | 0.141 | 0.762 | 0.097 | -0.577 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 10 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 10 | 7 | 1 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 26 | 9 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.276564 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160779 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.227196 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.289716 | 0.170096 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.233603 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137798 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.264562 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186294 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.279796 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.292862 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.284366 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.264059 | 0.266928 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.203047 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.217621 | 0.155566 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.237142 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | kaykay101111 | 2019/01/13 | My boyfriend comes from 3 generations of suicide. He took his life in November 2017. I am really fucking depressed. We have a 7 year old daughter. I feel ill every moment of every day. He was my best friend. I have constant nightmares. We struggled so much after his death - I got my daughter involved with a grief cente... | 3.87452 | 6.170545 | 4.177238 | 84.996017 | 74 | 7.131783 | 29.287791 | 8.05727 | 2.118419 | 2,010 | 87 | 369 | 32 | 43 | 627 | 229 | 480 | 0.112 | 0.844 | 0.044 | -0.9727 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 48 | 6 | 3 | 4 | 4 | 19 | 23 | 6 | 4 | 13 | 0 | 36 | 7 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 64 | 66 | 30 | 9 | 8 | 9 | 31 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 10 | 30 | 0 | 3 | 11 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 11 | 17 | 0 | 1 | 22 | 6 | 84 | 6 | 62 | 37 | 6 | 43 | 1 | 5 | 1 | 3 | 94 | 20 | 3 | 6 | 15 | 252 | 94 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10392 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08837 | 0.068131 | 0 | 0 | 0.128874 | 0 | 0 | 0.053468 | 0.115682 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079216 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136373 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.199038 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05597 | 0 | 0.070214 | 0.072874 | 0.051877 | 0 | 0 | 0.041903 | 0.066986 | 0.055962 | 0 | 0.067433 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05686 | 0.066491 | 0 | 0 | 0.07535 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08583 | 0 | 0.164231 | 0 | 0.058395 | 0 | 0.306261 | 0 | 0.065706 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071241 | 0.100398 | 0.180203 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155898 | 0 | 0.071577 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058204 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.043551 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071416 | 0 | 0 | 0.068799 | 0.070595 | 0 | 0.091787 | 0 | 0 | 0.057374 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055239 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070776 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.532681 | 0.051862 | 0 | 0.047764 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06818 | 0 | 0.044028 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.216439 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146498 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083249 | 0 | 0.064154 | 0.069758 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05167 | 0.065051 | 0.197273 | 0.051776 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067925 | 0 | 0.071071 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.048853 | 0 | 0.056791 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063837 | 0.103165 | 0.037887 | 0 | 0 | 0.062086 | 0.144378 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067641 | 0.234469 | 0 | 0 | 0.053611 | 0.114971 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060232 | 0.058629 | 0 | 0 | 0.062633 | 0 | 0.047302 | 0 | 0 | 0.092312 | 0 | 0 | 0.041841 |
suicidewatch | FakeGamerGurl | 2019/01/13 | Had a mental breakdown today Woke up miserable. Started hurting myself instantly. Fiancé held me back from doing it. It helped but he left (not the house but the room) because I was being really shitty to him while he was just trying to help. Then I started punching my head and scratching up my arms.
I felt dizzy f... | 0.018412 | 2.252255 | 2.388289 | 92.506676 | 88.825328 | 5.018153 | 18.658921 | 6.543119 | 0.097872 | 844 | 24 | 182 | 10 | 28 | 287 | 126 | 229 | 0.232 | 0.638 | 0.13 | -0.9867 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 34 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 18 | 13 | 1 | 2 | 7 | 2 | 15 | 6 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 32 | 39 | 17 | 2 | 5 | 12 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 10 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 6 | 29 | 6 | 22 | 23 | 5 | 26 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 14 | 6 | 1 | 2 | 19 | 122 | 39 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124734 | 0.129012 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117033 | 0.095783 | 0 | 0.151868 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.254391 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099455 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129279 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104952 | 0.119028 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125968 | 0 | 0.119602 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096239 | 0.115159 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.25568 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166987 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143732 | 0.2667 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123612 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135341 | 0.127377 | 0 | 0.060856 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135688 | 0 | 0 | 0.251066 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099427 | 0 | 0.09157 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122048 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084409 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086358 | 0.108766 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1596 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09906 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105544 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.264504 | 0 | 0.198956 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136255 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14317 | 0.118074 | 0 | 0 | 0.084572 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.215169 | 0.137191 | 0.10278 | 0.220416 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115474 | 0 | 0.139073 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | MissWintergirl | 2019/01/13 | Hey I want to die Since I got diagnosed with an ED my life is hell. It doesn’t seem like much but someone watching you eating everyday is embarrassing having someone to listen to you when you go to the bathroom to make sure you’re not vomiting is embarrassing. I hated myself for being fat now people want me to hate my... | 2.53213 | 4.246007 | 4.167641 | 86.174318 | 76.090909 | 6.65368 | 22.694805 | 7.44753 | 0.911935 | 633 | 18 | 128 | 8 | 14 | 212 | 97 | 165 | 0.249 | 0.621 | 0.13 | -0.9838 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 3 | 7 | 13 | 4 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 12 | 8 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 28 | 33 | 8 | 1 | 10 | 10 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 9 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 20 | 4 | 19 | 29 | 3 | 10 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 9 | 3 | 1 | 3 | 6 | 81 | 28 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.217352 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136953 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079617 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084231 | 0 | 0 | 0.132564 | 0.13555 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.267288 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134953 | 0 | 0.086265 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074227 | 0 | 0.104459 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115496 | 0 | 0 | 0.386844 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.279636 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071779 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092252 | 0.063808 | 0 | 0.115329 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174363 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096012 | 0.096844 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181094 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124974 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130643 | 0.14866 | 0.083671 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104077 | 0.1189 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10804 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.221327 | 0.100548 | 0 | 0.146204 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123096 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114157 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.385179 | 0 | 0 | 0.159045 | 0.117432 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150192 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | doojdoojdoo | 2019/01/13 | My attempts I feel like I need to tell somebody. I'm just so thankful nobody knows. But I'm also extremely disappointed they didn't work. I've got 3 attempts and I feel worse than I did back then. Now I'm not even motivated enough to try anymore and it sickens me
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I had always had dark thoughts and alwa... | 0.722392 | 2.317301 | 2.303888 | 98.045705 | 80.990632 | 5.035225 | 19.848015 | 5.549358 | -0.406412 | 1,512 | 38 | 370 | 7 | 39 | 493 | 206 | 427 | 0.118 | 0.787 | 0.095 | -0.7425 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 38 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 9 | 20 | 18 | 3 | 1 | 24 | 0 | 28 | 11 | 7 | 4 | 1 | 51 | 68 | 25 | 2 | 7 | 12 | 3 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 21 | 17 | 1 | 0 | 12 | 1 | 1 | 7 | 13 | 8 | 1 | 2 | 34 | 6 | 54 | 10 | 53 | 30 | 5 | 64 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 14 | 30 | 0 | 6 | 28 | 225 | 75 | 8 | 0.081945 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084871 | 0 | 0.065532 | 0.13637 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081268 | 0.114596 | 0 | 0 | 0.072949 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126022 | 0.068421 | 0 | 0 | 0.069729 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085615 | 0 | 0.083874 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145158 | 0.169343 | 0 | 0.054124 | 0 | 0.069042 | 0 | 0.073647 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082868 | 0.058542 | 0 | 0 | 0.074896 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.042813 | 0 | 0 | 0.137464 | 0.393234 | 0 | 0 | 0.081139 | 0 | 0.087232 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097105 | 0 | 0 | 0.082198 | 0.08139 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09066 | 0 | 0.18014 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080069 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068813 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08308 | 0.082325 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121523 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0769 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.343951 | 0 | 0.055528 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09099 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154929 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081967 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092828 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0653 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069432 | 0.126171 | 0 | 0 | 0.058001 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061613 | 0 | 0.214871 | 0.075444 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130111 | 0.047783 | 0 | 0 | 0.078302 | 0.182088 | 0.111271 | 0.089133 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141549 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131463 | 0 | 0.073679 | 0.075964 | 0.147886 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.238628 | 0.083219 | 0.083509 | 0.058212 | 0 | 0 | 0.21108 |
suicidewatch | descendingbronzedove | 2019/01/13 | Welcome to my mind where suicide is one of my favorite topics I never discuss these thoughts with people I know because they make it into something they perceive. AND you know most people perceive it as a bad thing. I don't think it's good or bad. I think it may be necessary. Am I the only one who has noticed that suic... | 2.710182 | 4.779399 | 3.575152 | 89.022727 | 76.69697 | 5.854545 | 26.757576 | 6.742158 | 1.115412 | 653 | 26 | 131 | 6 | 15 | 208 | 105 | 165 | 0.151 | 0.721 | 0.128 | -0.7348 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 17 | 8 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 8 | 12 | 3 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 16 | 4 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 33 | 28 | 7 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 4 | 6 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 19 | 6 | 22 | 21 | 5 | 13 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 17 | 6 | 3 | 8 | 6 | 95 | 29 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115059 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.233487 | 0.085233 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162146 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129261 | 0 | 0.134127 | 0.158925 | 0.117274 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138749 | 0.124278 | 0 | 0 | 0.153682 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068309 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09333 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148326 | 0.141178 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107837 | 0 | 0.148699 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159185 | 0 | 0 | 0.284236 | 0.212678 | 0 | 0 | 0.310506 | 0.151411 | 0 | 0.193866 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143523 | 0 | 0 | 0.13992 | 0 | 0 | 0.215279 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146169 | 0 | 0.15294 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09289 | 0.268772 | 0 | 0.111001 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.336371 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125714 | 0 | 0.126165 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | MarvelsSeeker | 2019/01/13 | I Think It’s Brave i think it’s brave that you get up in the morning even if tour soul is weary and your bones ache for a rest.
i think it’s brave that you keep on living even if you don’t know how to anymore.
i think it’s brave that you push away the waves rolling in everyday an... | 0.239951 | 2.013994 | 1.190696 | 104.53486 | 83.395604 | 4.484005 | 15.605617 | 5.033349 | -1.277609 | 321 | 5 | 84 | 1 | 9 | 99 | 52 | 91 | 0.057 | 0.756 | 0.187 | 0.8934 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 17 | 15 | 7 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 14 | 6 | 9 | 15 | 1 | 11 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 51 | 23 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.222526 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.210814 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144707 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.296404 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113454 | 0.160298 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11723 | 0.215247 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.199441 | 0 | 0 | 0.246628 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109621 | 0 | 0.198133 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173057 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.718873 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | pulpheroe | 2019/01/13 | Suicide Squad I have gotten this recurring idea that if SOMEHOW we would get together (All suicidal from this group) form a club, a fraternity... we could actually help each other out, we could achieve great things.... Trade stuff between us, do jobs together. And even make a difference, a change in this world... Chang... | 7.163521 | 8.947581 | 6.235324 | 75.650169 | 64.492958 | 11.313803 | 32.509859 | 11.208143 | 4.020226 | 324 | 13 | 56 | 10 | 5 | 98 | 55 | 71 | 0.115 | 0.769 | 0.115 | -0.25 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 24 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 14 | 9 | 2 | 2 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 2 | 6 | 4 | 3 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 40 | 16 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0.172657 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.374334 | 0 | 0.185506 | 0 | 0 | 0.282526 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184853 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11686 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166793 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092438 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.195064 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118592 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.199731 | 0 | 0 | 0.175574 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12497 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118101 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188047 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.369706 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202541 | 0.387062 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.235087 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.212823 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125685 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | dwbstx | 2019/01/13 | Death I just wish I was strong enough to end it all, just to weak to do anything about it | 4.8195 | 3.005318 | 4.6 | 97.705 | 69.5 | 8 | 25 | 3.1291 | 0.011 | 69 | 1 | 19 | 0 | 1 | 21 | 15 | 20 | 0.254 | 0.522 | 0.224 | -0.2023 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 14 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.419304 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.451297 | 0.526486 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.585941 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | MoresMutual | 2019/01/13 | I'm ready to die I cant figure out why I havnt done it yet fuck life | -3.061667 | -1.775385 | 0.375556 | 108.4 | 92.888889 | 3.6 | 9 | 3.1291 | -2.458533 | 53 | 0 | 17 | 0 | 2 | 19 | 16 | 18 | 0.354 | 0.526 | 0.12 | -0.7096 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.500949 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.493953 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.446233 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.340934 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.435547 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | robottothroway | 2019/01/13 | Why can't I honestly talk about this with others? I am going to kill myself and I wish that I could talk it over with someone. It isn’t that I’m looking to be talked out of it, but it’s more that this is a big step to make and it should be talked about. I talk about everything so why not this? Society tells me that I s... | 1.689052 | 3.89014 | 2.774425 | 92.816743 | 80.713615 | 5.840725 | 20.470357 | 7.025161 | 0.357996 | 3,286 | 90 | 704 | 40 | 86 | 1,047 | 325 | 852 | 0.153 | 0.742 | 0.105 | -0.9942 | 6 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 123 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 10 | 56 | 41 | 4 | 5 | 49 | 0 | 76 | 28 | 6 | 12 | 5 | 131 | 135 | 51 | 10 | 11 | 31 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 3 | 13 | 19 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 68 | 31 | 2 | 13 | 16 | 4 | 6 | 15 | 17 | 20 | 0 | 4 | 21 | 9 | 75 | 20 | 101 | 89 | 23 | 102 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 28 | 40 | 2 | 12 | 51 | 486 | 143 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.045956 | 0 | 0 | 0.053694 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.051415 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.043287 | 0.09481 | 0 | 0 | 0.05841 | 0 | 0.091703 | 0.0566 | 0.057587 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059295 | 0 | 0 | 0.054844 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165572 | 0.057364 | 0 | 0.033435 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107611 | 0.162497 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159162 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.045918 | 0.107137 | 0 | 0.034242 | 0 | 0 | 0.099078 | 0.093187 | 0 | 0.097747 | 0.058339 | 0.078641 | 0 | 0 | 0.113584 | 0.047384 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080109 | 0 | 0.081259 | 0 | 0.088392 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15962 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054776 | 0.052003 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11705 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184324 | 0.114715 | 0 | 0.113968 | 0.084519 | 0 | 0.10979 | 0 | 0 | 0.219712 | 0.101313 | 0.103922 | 0 | 0.09176 | 0.043536 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.049056 | 0.276848 | 0.105123 | 0 | 0.056473 | 0 | 0.052227 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082762 | 0.055102 | 0.038111 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.049745 | 0 | 0.054401 | 0.055212 | 0.035131 | 0.039429 | 0.165496 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.035942 | 0.090536 | 0.108331 | 0 | 0.049009 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.051858 | 0.059009 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157406 | 0.082625 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053217 | 0.042886 | 0 | 0.051881 | 0.052848 | 0.043927 | 0.039912 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.207012 | 0 | 0 | 0.162595 | 0 | 0.113417 | 0.058832 | 0.097724 | 0 | 0.03898 | 0.20835 | 0.045314 | 0 | 0.059288 | 0 | 0.068885 | 0.099658 | 0 | 0 | 0.120922 | 0.238347 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070397 | 0 | 0 | 0.053971 | 0 | 0.044776 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093562 | 0 | 0.059618 | 0.049975 | 0 | 0.037743 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.300471 |
suicidewatch | SanjeethRao | 2019/01/13 | To anyone who is considering suicide I'll be honest... I've been having suicidal thoughts ever since I became a teenager. So I think I'm qualified to give this advice.
Despite what people might say suicide is always an option. That's the unfortunate reality. It's the ultimate form of pulling the plug so to speak. And p... | 2.346687 | 4.819007 | 4.032658 | 83.179589 | 80.045918 | 6.783574 | 24.867098 | 7.933642 | 1.62107 | 1,581 | 60 | 302 | 29 | 41 | 528 | 180 | 392 | 0.116 | 0.726 | 0.158 | 0.8901 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 57 | 2 | 24 | 0 | 5 | 18 | 21 | 2 | 0 | 21 | 2 | 44 | 11 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 62 | 74 | 29 | 9 | 10 | 15 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 13 | 10 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 27 | 12 | 0 | 1 | 19 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 6 | 10 | 44 | 17 | 24 | 49 | 10 | 20 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 39 | 6 | 1 | 15 | 12 | 210 | 71 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068349 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167804 | 0.116399 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.048907 | 0 | 0.057558 | 0 | 0.065389 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.213188 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123721 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060251 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055845 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060243 | 0 | 0.145183 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063269 | 0.058931 | 0 | 0 | 0.068419 | 0 | 0 | 0.106098 | 0.049968 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182716 | 0.067097 | 0 | 0.058666 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061852 | 0.148915 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.046882 | 0 | 0 | 0.069471 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154767 | 0 | 0.03844 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.494039 | 0.034171 | 0 | 0.185287 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076353 | 0.059464 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1484 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053946 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145472 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075412 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156708 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.044808 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066533 | 0.111245 | 0 | 0 | 0.16721 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057859 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069177 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058477 | 0 | 0 | 0.08007 | 0.38254 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05259 | 0.056219 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134453 | 0 | 0.111056 | 0.08157 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.041255 | 0.055519 | 0 | 0 | 0.125777 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.285118 | 0.049687 | 0 | 0 | 0.045042 |
suicidewatch | JuicyThot | 2019/01/13 | School is taking a toll on me emotionally. Hi. I am a 14-year-old teenager in Freshman year of High School. School so far has been tough and my teachers have had no mercy with our classwork and homework. It's like non-stop for me and my brain. I got to sleep each night almost around 12:30 to 2:00 in the morning. I want... | 1.959303 | 3.891158 | 2.99793 | 92.928791 | 78.48 | 5.467826 | 21.669565 | 6.280692 | 0.203551 | 953 | 27 | 205 | 7 | 23 | 304 | 134 | 250 | 0.078 | 0.787 | 0.134 | 0.8988 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 35 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 13 | 1 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 23 | 4 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 40 | 39 | 15 | 1 | 2 | 10 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 13 | 15 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 3 | 1 | 3 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 34 | 10 | 34 | 33 | 6 | 32 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 15 | 18 | 1 | 8 | 16 | 144 | 47 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104949 | 0 | 0 | 0.215088 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178728 | 0 | 0 | 0.073035 | 0 | 0.08216 | 0 | 0.213021 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095607 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065469 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119892 | 0.109666 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092514 | 0 | 0.11606 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110723 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120809 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070936 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202491 | 0 | 0.054304 | 0.076725 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165952 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122074 | 0 | 0.085896 | 0 | 0.118312 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071987 | 0.226945 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059023 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075859 | 0.314817 | 0 | 0.094835 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082832 | 0 | 0 | 0.100786 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112697 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107428 | 0 | 0.137604 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085408 | 0 | 0.434772 | 0.171165 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110243 | 0 | 0 | 0.107476 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10622 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08979 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117477 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161501 | 0 | 0 | 0.098878 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137633 | 0 | 0 | 0.12525 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072917 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063346 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156375 | 0 | 0 | 0.076293 | 0 | 0 | 0.138322 |
suicidewatch | moon_titties | 2019/01/13 | I already wrote my suicide note. I just wrote it and put in in an envelope. I can't really believe it but I really did it. I have been thinking about killing myself for a while now but always said I wouldn't do it. Right now, I am planning it and I'm going to do it soon.
I will, however, go to my therapist and try to s... | 1.282677 | 2.623397 | 3.89285 | 88.414773 | 78.581152 | 7.497513 | 24.502945 | 8.2785 | 1.396919 | 679 | 24 | 156 | 13 | 16 | 240 | 107 | 191 | 0.214 | 0.748 | 0.038 | -0.9913 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 9 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 20 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 25 | 39 | 15 | 6 | 3 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 15 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 4 | 28 | 3 | 14 | 27 | 0 | 24 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 16 | 5 | 0 | 4 | 13 | 105 | 43 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118241 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133711 | 0.096897 | 0.201641 | 0 | 0 | 0.082398 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073862 | 0 | 0 | 0.136514 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078143 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125752 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11578 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137724 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128984 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120346 | 0 | 0 | 0.129712 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134053 | 0 | 0.13318 | 0.098767 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16176 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117024 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164212 | 0.092153 | 0 | 0 | 0.134542 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.232089 | 0 | 0.130638 | 0 | 0 | 0.121806 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155245 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103476 | 0.115258 | 0.192714 | 0 | 0 | 0.096554 | 0.110306 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.530148 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097389 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.281368 | 0 | 0.155278 | 0 | 0 | 0.070653 | 0 | 0 | 0.11578 | 0 | 0.082264 | 0 | 0 | 0.126139 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112323 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078028 |
suicidewatch | imhidingthisaccount | 2019/01/13 | Love my mum ❤️❤️❤️ So things are pretty spotty lately and I’ve really wanted to kill myself for about 5-6 months. Now after having fun with my friends irl and then online my mum and dad together screamed at me for about 20 mins and said that I will not be able to play online when we move to another place pretty soon. I... | 1.068236 | 3.331896 | 2.945365 | 90.299613 | 83.653465 | 6.445005 | 19.082808 | 7.686295 | 0.662972 | 384 | 10 | 81 | 7 | 11 | 128 | 70 | 101 | 0.162 | 0.615 | 0.222 | 0.7536 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 10 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 12 | 8 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 13 | 6 | 12 | 6 | 0 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 46 | 17 | 0 | 0.185323 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194327 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154737 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.203012 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14318 | 0 | 0.096823 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.410064 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.209052 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167261 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186182 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147923 | 0.196969 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.205779 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193623 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.37708 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118723 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176284 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17062 | 0 | 0 | 0.369361 | 0 | 0 | 0.147126 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177084 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109308 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | NuggaBugga | 2019/01/13 | Just off the phone to a mental health hotline and was basically told to get on with it End me, please. | 1.762857 | 3.780792 | 3.114524 | 91.434643 | 79.47619 | 6.104762 | 20.02381 | 7.168622 | 0.23441 | 80 | 2 | 18 | 1 | 2 | 26 | 20 | 21 | 0 | 0.892 | 0.108 | 0.3182 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.383969 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.226495 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.46081 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.436885 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.475873 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.414245 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Dice125 | 2019/01/13 | it only gets worse Depression since 12, drugs since 14 and soon turning 17 years old. In the past couple of years ive been starting to realize how fucked up this world is. Im really sorry to everyone ive hurt. I cant believe how happy i was before, now im just alone, thinking about drugs and suicide. Wish i had friend... | 2.930902 | 4.570481 | 3.772918 | 89.742164 | 74.819672 | 6.847213 | 22.855738 | 7.554174 | 0.845004 | 473 | 13 | 99 | 6 | 10 | 151 | 83 | 122 | 0.234 | 0.697 | 0.069 | -0.975 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 0 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 13 | 8 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 10 | 3 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 27 | 26 | 13 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 17 | 3 | 9 | 21 | 0 | 15 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 15 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 13 | 60 | 21 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141255 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112235 | 0 | 0.255006 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116055 | 0.153661 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.301819 | 0 | 0.087958 | 0 | 0.11747 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.316331 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.260647 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137922 | 0.097435 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105372 | 0.126087 | 0.142513 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145186 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146005 | 0 | 0.294642 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150892 | 0 | 0.074955 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066632 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10519 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143115 | 0 | 0 | 0.103728 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130197 | 0.094553 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087373 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.225641 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152674 | 0.19307 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149185 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087391 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130323 | 0 | 0 | 0.14835 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080444 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156838 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13899 | 0.096885 | 0 | 0 | 0.175657 |
suicidewatch | skitzzxo | 2019/01/13 | Cousin tried to kill herself and was very close in doing so. Not sure if there is anything I can do to help her? I found out yesterday that my cousin tried to take her own life. I was very close with her growing up and still am. Everything in her life situationally seems fine and we talk a bunch and she has not mention... | 4.634158 | 5.766086 | 5.286798 | 82.539671 | 69.842105 | 8.787719 | 27.934211 | 9.120679 | 2.1716 | 1,146 | 39 | 227 | 22 | 20 | 370 | 139 | 285 | 0.102 | 0.784 | 0.115 | -0.267 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 19 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 14 | 14 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 39 | 4 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 61 | 57 | 25 | 2 | 6 | 10 | 3 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 18 | 29 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 13 | 5 | 38 | 10 | 30 | 36 | 4 | 27 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 42 | 17 | 0 | 7 | 9 | 173 | 56 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.328166 | 0.088751 | 0.093203 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083242 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102024 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131697 | 0 | 0 | 0.095264 | 0.089601 | 0 | 0.281954 | 0 | 0.100819 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.218624 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05666 | 0 | 0.079736 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.264483 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.200473 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110299 | 0.103818 | 0 | 0 | 0.112462 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140837 | 0.097413 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08372 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133096 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100434 | 0.10047 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076892 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067557 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110701 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113476 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08514 | 0 | 0.158565 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09076 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112063 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079618 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109052 | 0 | 0.187925 | 0 | 0.074959 | 0.080132 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115755 | 0.198701 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058134 | 0 | 0 | 0.095264 | 0 | 0.135374 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.411299 | 0.058803 | 0.079134 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08996 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141643 | 0.109002 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | ttsbsglrsRDT | 2019/01/13 | Help out my friend! Could someone please pm u/Cyber75?
I think He's about to kill himself, and he's not replying to me. Could anyone make sure he's ok? | -1.395208 | 0.333532 | 0.5025 | 100.959167 | 108.375 | 3.383333 | 17.833333 | 5.461319 | -0.516392 | 118 | 4 | 27 | 1 | 6 | 38 | 26 | 32 | 0.12 | 0.538 | 0.342 | 0.7685 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 8 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.233382 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.532982 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.257873 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.223721 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.369271 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.222796 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.366383 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.282805 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.314578 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.213869 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | FreezerburnedPierogi | 2019/01/13 | She crushed my soul and I don't see a future for myself I was alone for so many years. I had never known what it was like to be loved romantically. I liked her for a long time, and eventually my dreams came true and she was mine. She was a dream. Beautiful, charismatic, understood me, did so much for me. She accepted m... | 1.698031 | 3.787185 | 3.455584 | 88.544142 | 80.045296 | 7.305575 | 22.09669 | 8.306716 | 1.25988 | 1,097 | 34 | 234 | 23 | 28 | 366 | 142 | 287 | 0.114 | 0.71 | 0.175 | 0.9484 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 34 | 8 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 14 | 17 | 1 | 0 | 9 | 1 | 31 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 43 | 61 | 20 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 9 | 24 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 11 | 6 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 28 | 4 | 60 | 12 | 37 | 26 | 2 | 46 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 3 | 39 | 13 | 0 | 1 | 27 | 178 | 69 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104652 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105954 | 0.077299 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094935 | 0.155394 | 0.084368 | 0.061596 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115568 | 0 | 0 | 0.106892 | 0.087041 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161352 | 0 | 0 | 0.130331 | 0 | 0.174059 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066739 | 0 | 0.085134 | 0 | 0.181624 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.051091 | 0 | 0.097019 | 0.110689 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.211166 | 0.096931 | 0.344555 | 0 | 0.161629 | 0 | 0 | 0.10005 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067728 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055531 | 0.082365 | 0 | 0.106991 | 0 | 0 | 0.071371 | 0.246826 | 0 | 0 | 0.089421 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.27359 | 0 | 0 | 0.204886 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107394 | 0.074279 | 0 | 0.311727 | 0 | 0.107462 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076849 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.227825 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101578 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096116 | 0 | 0 | 0.102262 | 0.080519 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103002 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110526 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067129 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05892 | 0 | 0 | 0.193105 | 0 | 0.068603 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059599 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093669 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073562 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130139 |
suicidewatch | singingJoJo | 2019/01/13 | End of my rope Everything keeps falling apart more and more. I have no real friends, and my family won't even talk to me anymore. I just kept pushing to talk to with my mother and at long last she changed her email, the last source of contact I had with her. Even my therapist doesn't seem to like me and won't talk to m... | 1.935188 | 2.841428 | 3.260158 | 95.377605 | 76.067669 | 6.823759 | 23.826316 | 7.168622 | 0.56485 | 472 | 14 | 117 | 5 | 10 | 154 | 79 | 133 | 0.053 | 0.853 | 0.094 | 0.8023 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 11 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 25 | 20 | 11 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 10 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 22 | 4 | 19 | 15 | 3 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 12 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 80 | 25 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159894 | 0 | 0 | 0.132676 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170557 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.428397 | 0 | 0 | 0.212978 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1449 | 0 | 0.15199 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124563 | 0 | 0 | 0.154663 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143306 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.262843 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113879 | 0.078767 | 0 | 0 | 0.142681 | 0.13539 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.239095 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168448 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183511 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.29355 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.388764 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187197 | 0 | 0 | 0.158404 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109462 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095096 | 0.127974 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117375 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | -Chirp | 2019/01/13 | I feel too scared to tell my counsellor anything important but I’m just getting worse I’m 16 therefore if I tell my counsellor anything regarding self harm, suicidal thoughts or past sexual abuse she’ll immediately have to get my guardians (parents) involved and I hate the thought of them knowing anything. They’re unsu... | 8.37105 | 7.752156 | 7.60479 | 75.144412 | 61.794118 | 11.30084 | 40.016807 | 10.608841 | 4.178384 | 580 | 28 | 107 | 12 | 7 | 180 | 90 | 136 | 0.254 | 0.692 | 0.054 | -0.9886 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 6 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 10 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 23 | 26 | 10 | 3 | 2 | 7 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 17 | 0 | 16 | 18 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 15 | 4 | 0 | 5 | 4 | 62 | 21 | 0 | 0 | 0.166291 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095442 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139189 | 0 | 0 | 0.346487 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120899 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155294 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126954 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132309 | 0 | 0.070965 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.21998 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12411 | 0 | 0 | 0.138566 | 0 | 0.149185 | 0 | 0 | 0.188146 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154265 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143517 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141439 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112025 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155841 | 0 | 0.267959 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140514 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146415 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.307039 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112807 | 0.368014 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.334265 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130105 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143028 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | ForwardPromise6 | 2019/01/13 | People and heartbreak. Kms I just can’t handle people. I feel weird. Feel controlled. Why do assholes exist? Why can’t i be tough like them. Yes, i admit, i am weak and my mind is dictated my people’s behaviour. I am a pussy(wow that hurt my ego to admit). And yes, i hate myself for it too. I have goals, okay? But no, ... | 0.277784 | 2.678152 | 2.085415 | 93.358206 | 91.142857 | 4.991807 | 17.941702 | 6.627428 | 0.096071 | 909 | 25 | 190 | 12 | 32 | 298 | 123 | 238 | 0.237 | 0.654 | 0.109 | -0.9874 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 46 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 2 | 14 | 23 | 5 | 5 | 7 | 3 | 27 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 43 | 46 | 11 | 1 | 10 | 7 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 14 | 7 | 0 | 2 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 19 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 30 | 4 | 20 | 39 | 2 | 15 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 13 | 123 | 44 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115146 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096967 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07183 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120139 | 0 | 0.124652 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13216 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121481 | 0.10149 | 0 | 0 | 0.123111 | 0 | 0 | 0.103117 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104366 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17874 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1042 | 0 | 0 | 0.116336 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.252286 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104736 | 0.130365 | 0 | 0.259033 | 0.09605 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083229 | 0.115135 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09895 | 0 | 0 | 0.100178 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11838 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118978 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086621 | 0 | 0.09088 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.326764 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111391 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13412 | 0.075487 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112087 | 0 | 0.117972 | 0 | 0 | 0.107271 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120116 | 0 | 0 | 0.11654 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156567 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137419 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080001 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069501 | 0 | 0.094519 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.425306 | 0 | 0.271005 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167411 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Lightbulb_smoothie | 2019/01/13 | The only thing keeping me away from another attempt is having to answer questions that follow in the emergency room I've ended up in the emergency room many a times since age 10 and 12 years later the worst thing is the questioning/interrogation that happens in the emergency room after an attempt. The drama is too much... | 6.170046 | 6.157403 | 7.00814 | 75.591303 | 66.106109 | 9.612076 | 32.068775 | 9.299571 | 2.809986 | 1,252 | 46 | 231 | 21 | 18 | 418 | 160 | 311 | 0.063 | 0.912 | 0.025 | -0.8543 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 34 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 8 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 28 | 0 | 20 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 30 | 38 | 17 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 7 | 2 | 6 | 13 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 2 | 8 | 7 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 14 | 0 | 34 | 2 | 46 | 20 | 10 | 59 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 21 | 27 | 0 | 1 | 24 | 164 | 40 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126337 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107256 | 0.225272 | 0 | 0.113198 | 0 | 0 | 0.073446 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.246054 | 0 | 0.122841 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133313 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.320138 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.227162 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062948 | 0 | 0.068474 | 0 | 0.096362 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106543 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120855 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125753 | 0.119561 | 0.107091 | 0 | 0 | 0.066215 | 0.09821 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.255303 | 0 | 0.120756 | 0.106389 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122151 | 0.121042 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141109 | 0.096169 | 0 | 0.088569 | 0 | 0.185849 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091633 | 0 | 0 | 0.133783 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105202 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134969 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136484 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121936 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19933 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085279 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09684 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160088 | 0 | 0 | 0.09565 | 0.070255 | 0 | 0.228408 | 0 | 0.133862 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071064 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.223379 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.232762 |
suicidewatch | Gaystan | 2019/01/13 | Scared if I use antidepressants that I won't be able to have sex again! Hello
I have really bad anxiety and depression which is getting worse - my therapist told me to try an antidepressant to help lift my mood and get me back on track - but after reading online I saw that most antidepressants can lead to ED and other... | 6.50274 | 6.057106 | 7.449418 | 74.159195 | 65.506849 | 11.409589 | 29.893836 | 10.9516 | 3.076537 | 583 | 17 | 116 | 15 | 8 | 197 | 94 | 146 | 0.217 | 0.731 | 0.052 | -0.9825 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 8 | 7 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 14 | 3 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 26 | 26 | 14 | 1 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 21 | 0 | 14 | 21 | 3 | 14 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 7 | 2 | 0 | 7 | 11 | 83 | 29 | 2 | 0.15245 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116624 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117225 | 0.127289 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.393915 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.35734 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.201383 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.238946 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.204368 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168663 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.203523 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153577 | 0 | 0.161725 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112068 | 0 | 0.117579 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103304 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152491 | 0 | 0.097663 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152629 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127455 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.229247 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177006 | 0.101281 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145672 | 0 | 0.103503 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131668 | 0 | 0 | 0.179838 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.310719 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098173 |
suicidewatch | Brolivia_ | 2019/01/13 | I’m so close I want to walk down to the train tracks two minutes down the road from my house, and attentively sit there until the time comes where I cease. Taking in the cold desolate air the night brings, the grim streetlights hovering over the painful atmosphere, judging me.
Last night I told my boyfriend about my... | 3.139667 | 5.219283 | 3.350833 | 91.07625 | 75.444444 | 6.722222 | 25.694444 | 7.645422 | 1.193111 | 362 | 13 | 76 | 5 | 8 | 111 | 64 | 90 | 0.119 | 0.844 | 0.037 | -0.8632 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 12 | 13 | 7 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 11 | 1 | 13 | 10 | 0 | 19 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 10 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 46 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.226292 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.242861 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.303119 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144372 | 0.214134 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.268627 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.49305 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.199794 | 0.27953 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.28735 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197517 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153182 | 0 | 0 | 0.25102 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.256618 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154946 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | baphosam | 2019/01/13 | Tried last night cause my ex pushed me over the edge. For the first time I don’t blame myself. I let her get in my head and push me over the edge. I was drunk and stupid at the time and we got into a fight about how she never trusted me and always second guessed me. Constantly asking others for the same answer I would ... | 1.882776 | 2.836696 | 3.227025 | 95.377669 | 76.265823 | 5.975527 | 21.267932 | 5.888619 | -0.086293 | 1,403 | 32 | 339 | 7 | 30 | 458 | 176 | 395 | 0.191 | 0.75 | 0.059 | -0.9945 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 21 | 1 | 5 | 3 | 4 | 26 | 22 | 9 | 0 | 12 | 0 | 26 | 15 | 7 | 8 | 7 | 66 | 65 | 29 | 1 | 8 | 11 | 3 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 21 | 21 | 1 | 1 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 15 | 12 | 1 | 4 | 9 | 6 | 61 | 10 | 52 | 44 | 8 | 51 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 26 | 21 | 6 | 3 | 23 | 235 | 82 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184792 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146832 | 0 | 0 | 0.060919 | 0 | 0.069206 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062993 | 0.083405 | 0 | 0.065472 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075591 | 0 | 0 | 0.152095 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079998 | 0 | 0.059106 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07683 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064783 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061841 | 0 | 0.065567 | 0.076491 | 0 | 0.09779 | 0.133926 | 0 | 0.212212 | 0.066532 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112293 | 0.105772 | 0 | 0.081094 | 0 | 0.062968 | 0 | 0 | 0.057194 | 0.273752 | 0.193384 | 0.071015 | 0 | 0 | 0.118414 | 0 | 0.08155 | 0 | 0.065463 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.303897 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.040684 | 0.060343 | 0 | 0.078385 | 0.080432 | 0.378495 | 0.052288 | 0.072333 | 0 | 0.065368 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070047 | 0.049414 | 0.075053 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054419 | 0.054891 | 0.11419 | 0 | 0 | 0.069471 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100327 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.205288 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069981 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148838 | 0 | 0.078738 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05887 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067393 | 0 | 0 | 0.151978 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059119 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084745 | 0 | 0.084006 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059501 | 0.129408 | 0.068155 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094869 | 0 | 0 | 0.086333 | 0.170169 | 0 | 0.070737 | 0 | 0.201041 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127873 | 0 | 0 | 0.043664 | 0.05876 | 0 | 0 | 0.06656 | 0 | 0.066799 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105175 | 0.080938 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | LifeAddiction | 2019/01/13 | I can't stand this anymore. This life got enough me. I am so overwhelmed. I hate all the people. I came to a realization that I can't do anything except suicide. I started to hate my parents too. World is siding against me. All people are becoming my enemy. I am a waste of time. I am the black sheep of my family. Inclu... | 0.744474 | 3.258865 | 3.271823 | 84.889373 | 90.061453 | 6.111825 | 23.659451 | 7.492282 | 1.538793 | 701 | 29 | 134 | 14 | 24 | 242 | 97 | 179 | 0.264 | 0.664 | 0.072 | -0.9912 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 27 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 10 | 6 | 2 | 9 | 0 | 21 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 14 | 35 | 4 | 3 | 3 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 32 | 1 | 15 | 31 | 4 | 13 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 5 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 6 | 99 | 38 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12035 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.324473 | 0 | 0 | 0.089747 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120447 | 0.092801 | 0 | 0 | 0.096454 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124735 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113186 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096594 | 0.112687 | 0 | 0.072033 | 0 | 0 | 0.208422 | 0.098016 | 0 | 0.102811 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.201647 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087225 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.430694 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059936 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154064 | 0 | 0 | 0.481507 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072798 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080866 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.242195 | 0 | 0 | 0.302432 | 0.095226 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090215 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077193 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119293 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063593 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128652 | 0 | 0.087481 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | homoculous | 2019/01/13 | z people will scream “ReACh OuT tO sOmEoNE iF YoU nEeD HeLp” and “gO tO ThErApY iF yOu nEeD HelP” but i did that and then my insurance changed it’s deductible, so if i want to get the help i need to not kill myself i have to pay $4,500 out of pocket this year before insurance covers a dime. that’s not possible. | -1.550175 | 0.019941 | 0.871818 | 97.85465 | 111.272727 | 4.455012 | 15.682984 | 6.297961 | -0.202805 | 243 | 7 | 55 | 4 | 13 | 81 | 46 | 66 | 0.051 | 0.724 | 0.226 | 0.8962 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 14 | 9 | 8 | 1 | 7 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 8 | 7 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 35 | 12 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.205208 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.255114 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125996 | 0 | 0.137056 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.484931 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.266807 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.536449 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167189 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.27187 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.204333 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.275786 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142242 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155298 |
suicidewatch | microwavable_bowls | 2019/01/13 | Just curious: How often do you receive hugs? I'm not trying to be funny or anything. But I can't remember the last time a nonfamily member wanted to hug me. | 2.007396 | 4.026066 | 5.5325 | 74.395833 | 78.6875 | 8.016667 | 26.291667 | 8.841846 | 2.500967 | 123 | 5 | 22 | 3 | 3 | 46 | 30 | 32 | 0 | 0.676 | 0.324 | 0.8885 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 16 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.423613 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.419607 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.583135 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.300167 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.349496 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.303625 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | stevepwn3 | 2019/01/13 | anyone else just smoke pot and stay in their room all day like on internet or games. this is literally all i do | 2.34087 | 4.12321 | 3.773261 | 88.492935 | 76.826087 | 8.078261 | 20.195652 | 8.841846 | 1.014757 | 88 | 2 | 20 | 2 | 2 | 29 | 22 | 23 | 0 | 0.894 | 0.106 | 0.3612 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 12 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.348426 | 0.510571 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.321365 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.416269 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.243446 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.531126 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | AnimeLolwut1470 | 2019/01/13 | My life is pointless. My boyfriend of a year and a half broke up with me a while ago and I honestly feel like I have nothing to live for anymore. He was such a wholesome caring person and I can't find someone like that anymore. I thought I was over it but I'm just not. I don't have any reason to keep living. | -0.30056 | 1.816298 | 1.589683 | 98.582136 | 88.850746 | 3.947015 | 21.807836 | 5.148861 | -0.17679 | 241 | 9 | 56 | 1 | 8 | 79 | 49 | 67 | 0.032 | 0.838 | 0.13 | 0.5719 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 12 | 12 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 9 | 4 | 7 | 9 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 38 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.210765 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161689 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.4716 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.242418 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120222 | 0.16986 | 0 | 0 | 0.217314 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.211337 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167941 | 0.232321 | 0 | 0.419903 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.228143 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.207608 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.244463 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.201458 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.18876 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153113 |
suicidewatch | Zynarix | 2019/01/13 | Did I messed up something? Hi,
so apparently my most important person commited suicide few days ago. They never been any signals or something. She was a very happy and kind person. On the 2nd of January she got hacked and was paranoid. Her friends left her behind and betrayed her. My family and I did everything for her... | 2.448113 | 5.005444 | 3.732568 | 84.968034 | 80.29771 | 7.101636 | 23.097601 | 8.192908 | 1.600278 | 534 | 18 | 100 | 11 | 14 | 174 | 80 | 131 | 0.168 | 0.728 | 0.104 | -0.8693 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 17 | 21 | 11 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 7 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 21 | 3 | 11 | 10 | 3 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 22 | 4 | 0 | 5 | 4 | 79 | 28 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141652 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108668 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133425 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127586 | 0 | 0 | 0.103057 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105545 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143617 | 0 | 0.301288 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12346 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127805 | 0 | 0 | 0.158226 | 0.141309 | 0.170108 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10711 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166406 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173622 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162011 | 0.160539 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118489 | 0.246493 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.41859 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179011 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.204742 | 0.164299 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.270794 | 0.246041 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174794 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139671 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106163 | 0.102392 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131851 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Fretyilsuicidal | 2019/01/13 | 23 years old I’m giving up. I’m failing graduate school. My body dismorphia is at an all time high and no amount of lifting weights seems to change my body. I’m failing graduate school. I’m failing graduate school. Took me a very long time to make any relationships because of this debilitating social anxiety but I... | 5.539453 | 7.566102 | 6.410594 | 71.900031 | 68.765625 | 9.96375 | 35.45625 | 10.241412 | 4.13266 | 1,118 | 58 | 189 | 31 | 20 | 369 | 148 | 256 | 0.285 | 0.659 | 0.056 | -0.9971 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 24 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 5 | 17 | 4 | 2 | 11 | 1 | 10 | 11 | 3 | 3 | 1 | 37 | 30 | 15 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 13 | 17 | 1 | 4 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 25 | 3 | 34 | 24 | 5 | 37 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 14 | 1 | 3 | 19 | 118 | 38 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122495 | 0 | 0.184728 | 0 | 0 | 0.075486 | 0 | 0.084917 | 0 | 0 | 0.077616 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135333 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.2466 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117427 | 0.09562 | 0 | 0 | 0.1245 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143176 | 0 | 0.191214 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098316 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093525 | 0.106069 | 0.099763 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056127 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101455 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102621 | 0 | 0.106485 | 0.063086 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117992 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117281 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118832 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061005 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078405 | 0.054231 | 0 | 0 | 0.098235 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074096 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111824 | 0.111865 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177204 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11648 | 0 | 0 | 0.084423 | 0.118116 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105965 | 0 | 0.096924 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119176 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.337025 | 0 | 0.30316 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113154 | 0 | 0.085456 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185608 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115375 | 0 | 0.08922 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073746 | 0 | 0 | 0.088124 | 0.194181 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123329 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115559 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.274769 | 0 | 0.088109 | 0 | 0.135172 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142965 |
suicidewatch | isawthesigns08 | 2019/01/13 | 20 (M) Feel like I’ve taken the wrong path and the only way is out I’ve never posted on reddit before, I’ve been in and out of suicide watch here and there as I’ve been at my lows, but this is my first ever post and sadly not the best reason to be here, Finally at my lowest. I’ve had sucidal thoughts for years now, dat... | 6.620528 | 4.660127 | 7.227857 | 80.772924 | 66.050847 | 10.191283 | 30.562954 | 8.63404 | 2.049397 | 1,097 | 28 | 242 | 13 | 14 | 365 | 168 | 295 | 0.192 | 0.742 | 0.066 | -0.9907 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 33 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 20 | 13 | 1 | 1 | 12 | 0 | 25 | 4 | 2 | 3 | 3 | 39 | 46 | 17 | 1 | 2 | 8 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 14 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 8 | 8 | 0 | 2 | 15 | 5 | 25 | 5 | 43 | 24 | 4 | 61 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 6 | 26 | 1 | 4 | 29 | 154 | 32 | 4 | 0.107411 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111245 | 0 | 0 | 0.178749 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082169 | 0 | 0 | 0.075104 | 0 | 0.08839 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.201832 | 0.165184 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182797 | 0 | 0.112721 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.232146 | 0 | 0.085759 | 0 | 0 | 0.069271 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089728 | 0 | 0 | 0.110984 | 0 | 0 | 0.097159 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120867 | 0.10862 | 0.076734 | 0 | 0.235326 | 0 | 0.091363 | 0 | 0.11777 | 0.082985 | 0 | 0.112235 | 0 | 0.061044 | 0 | 0.085906 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071995 | 0.113485 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106589 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087554 | 0 | 0.113732 | 0.116702 | 0 | 0.151735 | 0.104951 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117251 | 0 | 0 | 0.101635 | 0 | 0.108898 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165683 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103063 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072784 | 0.163381 | 0 | 0 | 0.119267 | 0 | 0 | 0.074465 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.205739 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06881 | 0.110436 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108705 | 0.085592 | 0.195565 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120734 | 0 | 0 | 0.091009 | 0.08269 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11749 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170544 | 0.250528 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072925 | 0.116832 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085258 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11992 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156393 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117437 | 0 | 0.138338 |
suicidewatch | gamagros3000 | 2019/01/13 | I need help Im 17, 4 months ago 1 day i thought that i might be gay. From then on i've been thinking it everyday, even though i dont get an erection from men cause i tried masturbating to gay porn several times and didnt get an erection. So that means im attracted to women cause they give me an erection. But for some r... | 1.746764 | 3.39487 | 3.426186 | 90.921915 | 78.127907 | 6.447132 | 27.745736 | 7.3011 | 1.353971 | 637 | 28 | 142 | 8 | 15 | 212 | 94 | 172 | 0.023 | 0.862 | 0.114 | 0.9357 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 9 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 14 | 8 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 28 | 31 | 15 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 8 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 19 | 4 | 13 | 23 | 2 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 12 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 7 | 83 | 27 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094197 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105386 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064778 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.218326 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068532 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.498164 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.21056 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100177 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097124 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.222075 | 0.101938 | 0.060392 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142454 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.459135 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115753 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11273 | 0.107297 | 0 | 0.084819 | 0 | 0 | 0.078794 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116646 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11904 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109257 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084679 | 0 | 0 | 0.120048 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105098 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13618 | 0.313213 | 0.253086 | 0.061964 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072147 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062677 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | suicidalhumanboi | 2019/01/13 | Can you change my mind? Im too scared to think how ill live my future, and im doing nothing right now. If I try to live a "real life" in which I'm not afraid of any thoughts, I can't function because it hurts too much. One major thing is my parents will be saddened, I have never given them anything, and will only give ... | 2.332069 | 2.771965 | 3.763851 | 93.903707 | 74.632184 | 5.8 | 23.695402 | 3.1291 | -0.001749 | 305 | 8 | 73 | 0 | 6 | 101 | 63 | 87 | 0.129 | 0.871 | 0 | -0.8018 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 7 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 10 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 15 | 17 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 11 | 0 | 5 | 12 | 3 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 47 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126797 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153438 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113663 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197247 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178867 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.199606 | 0 | 0.402812 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102472 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1317 | 0 | 0 | 0.493935 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188269 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137068 | 0 | 0.143807 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178911 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126348 | 0.141809 | 0 | 0 | 0.207039 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.212229 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159233 | 0 | 0 | 0.186676 | 0 | 0.148582 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123874 | 0.119474 | 0 | 0.148026 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126592 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148001 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Tristanx95 | 2019/01/13 | Death is getting easier by the day. As of late, the thought of ending it all seems very possible and right to me. I think real soon I'm gonna actually be able to go through with it. I'm tired of feeling like a failure and that nothing will get better. It's relieving to think that it'll all go away. There's family and f... | 4.251216 | 5.202266 | 4.991598 | 84.974158 | 70.584158 | 8.543706 | 28.289958 | 8.841846 | 2.021517 | 396 | 14 | 82 | 7 | 7 | 128 | 72 | 101 | 0.132 | 0.737 | 0.13 | -0.0568 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 10 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 20 | 26 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 6 | 12 | 16 | 2 | 14 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 46 | 12 | 0 | 0.177895 | 0 | 0.1736 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120975 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176424 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167138 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157334 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114727 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185862 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157562 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167703 | 0 | 0.089949 | 0.127088 | 0 | 0 | 0.162593 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137441 | 0 | 0.185885 | 0 | 0.202203 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189372 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158121 | 0 | 0.18525 | 0.097766 | 0 | 0.200673 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08691 | 0.178297 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118746 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189074 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170695 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.20055 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202483 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151921 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161949 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.341964 | 0 | 0.141229 | 0 | 0.204464 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146782 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | transedthrowaway | 2019/01/13 | posting here because i don't really know what else to do. (warning for talk of childhood sexual abuse and incest in this post)
i'm not in any immediate danger right now so I guess that's good but the bad thing is I live and struggle with chronic suicidality and am pretty positive that it's going to be my only optio... | 8.090591 | 6.018277 | 8.665731 | 71.980972 | 63.280702 | 11.576248 | 35.490328 | 10.21489 | 3.414492 | 3,369 | 116 | 652 | 60 | 39 | 1,138 | 325 | 855 | 0.187 | 0.696 | 0.118 | -0.9974 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 71 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 14 | 47 | 45 | 6 | 2 | 39 | 0 | 73 | 22 | 2 | 13 | 13 | 135 | 122 | 70 | 5 | 13 | 25 | 5 | 6 | 6 | 0 | 6 | 16 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 45 | 46 | 2 | 3 | 18 | 0 | 1 | 13 | 24 | 25 | 3 | 5 | 14 | 7 | 70 | 20 | 121 | 91 | 23 | 90 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 2 | 22 | 31 | 1 | 17 | 51 | 473 | 115 | 16 | 0.144595 | 0.171322 | 0 | 0 | 0.057925 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053188 | 0.077089 | 0.120315 | 0 | 0 | 0.065553 | 0.101081 | 0.036872 | 0 | 0 | 0.033701 | 0 | 0.039663 | 0.085814 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074123 | 0.120731 | 0.176288 | 0.053231 | 0.041013 | 0.054303 | 0 | 0.085255 | 0.05262 | 0 | 0.060704 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101975 | 0.041519 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076965 | 0 | 0 | 0.186504 | 0.198762 | 0.083027 | 0 | 0.050022 | 0 | 0.05524 | 0 | 0 | 0.049324 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.049319 | 0.040264 | 0.054217 | 0.085379 | 0 | 0 | 0.095504 | 0.087197 | 0.121828 | 0.046056 | 0.043318 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121853 | 0.137732 | 0 | 0 | 0.044053 | 0.040998 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.044559 | 0.100727 | 0 | 0.136961 | 0.080853 | 0 | 0 | 0.053096 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.049466 | 0.102465 | 0 | 0 | 0.032306 | 0 | 0 | 0.047872 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05441 | 0 | 0 | 0.095659 | 0 | 0 | 0.100383 | 0.026489 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136176 | 0.141284 | 0 | 0.17024 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091213 | 0.064346 | 0 | 0.048422 | 0 | 0 | 0.09711 | 0.145718 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070863 | 0 | 0.111521 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.046248 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183285 | 0.205146 | 0 | 0.053519 | 0.052194 | 0.046011 | 0 | 0 | 0.050357 | 0 | 0.045563 | 0.054337 | 0.092322 | 0.049035 | 0 | 0.046119 | 0.056341 | 0.096906 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061754 | 0.148668 | 0.04759 | 0 | 0.109199 | 0.082322 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.048779 | 0.038408 | 0 | 0 | 0.054451 | 0 | 0.03987 | 0.054177 | 0 | 0.049132 | 0.040838 | 0.037106 | 0.095339 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153965 | 0.040296 | 0 | 0.050387 | 0 | 0.210885 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.036239 | 0.03874 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064042 | 0.061767 | 0.047355 | 0 | 0.05621 | 0 | 0 | 0.046056 | 0 | 0.196342 | 0.052426 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.041628 | 0 | 0 | 0.142143 | 0.038258 | 0 | 0.058693 | 0.130009 | 0 | 0.043492 | 0 | 0 | 0.046462 | 0 | 0.210534 | 0 | 0 | 0.034239 | 0 | 0 | 0.062076 |
suicidewatch | hahahathrowaway17828 | 2019/01/13 | I feel like my life is ruined beyond belief, and I'm not sure how to cope anymore Throwaway because I'm embarrassed. I'm typically not a reddit poster, mostly just a reddit browser, so I'm sorry if I mess up the post or something.
I'm 20, almost 21. I know that's young to be angsting over my life being ruined, but bar... | 6.175708 | 5.138451 | 6.997097 | 79.086407 | 66.395243 | 9.852666 | 32.332685 | 8.964715 | 2.486846 | 3,376 | 116 | 703 | 48 | 46 | 1,130 | 341 | 883 | 0.139 | 0.743 | 0.118 | -0.9622 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 77 | 7 | 2 | 1 | 6 | 46 | 42 | 8 | 2 | 44 | 1 | 75 | 10 | 1 | 10 | 9 | 134 | 138 | 69 | 5 | 12 | 28 | 6 | 12 | 9 | 2 | 4 | 6 | 3 | 3 | 8 | 32 | 48 | 1 | 4 | 22 | 0 | 4 | 8 | 18 | 19 | 0 | 3 | 51 | 16 | 117 | 23 | 99 | 65 | 11 | 113 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 3 | 58 | 44 | 1 | 17 | 68 | 482 | 149 | 7 | 0.096416 | 0 | 0.047044 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05152 | 0.048273 | 0 | 0 | 0.038552 | 0.040113 | 0 | 0 | 0.032783 | 0 | 0.036879 | 0 | 0.095618 | 0 | 0 | 0.119013 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074138 | 0.040252 | 0.323258 | 0 | 0 | 0.054314 | 0.050591 | 0.042636 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.03109 | 0.0497 | 0.041521 | 0.04893 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108455 | 0.085396 | 0 | 0 | 0.159204 | 0.13082 | 0.040617 | 0 | 0.043326 | 0.047157 | 0 | 0 | 0.195003 | 0.172198 | 0.138861 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074491 | 0 | 0.050373 | 0.046245 | 0.082193 | 0.040434 | 0.154225 | 0 | 0 | 0.047733 | 0 | 0 | 0.043185 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096938 | 0.101868 | 0 | 0.047881 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054421 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085699 | 0.160004 | 0.050201 | 0.026494 | 0.039296 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.049296 | 0.136202 | 0.211967 | 0.048317 | 0.042568 | 0.042662 | 0 | 0 | 0.052625 | 0 | 0 | 0.091231 | 0.032179 | 0 | 0.048431 | 0.052512 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169381 | 0.038479 | 0.051237 | 0 | 0 | 0.111543 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.046257 | 0 | 0.101172 | 0 | 0.098001 | 0.183321 | 0 | 0 | 0.053529 | 0 | 0 | 0.033421 | 0.042093 | 0.100734 | 0.052918 | 0.273432 | 0 | 0.04617 | 0 | 0.103952 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061766 | 0.049566 | 0 | 0 | 0.10922 | 0 | 0.045857 | 0.076674 | 0 | 0.146367 | 0 | 0.087773 | 0 | 0.054461 | 0.049485 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.049142 | 0 | 0.037113 | 0 | 0.053965 | 0.102365 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105463 | 0 | 0.045435 | 0 | 0 | 0.038748 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128109 | 0.03089 | 0 | 0 | 0.112441 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06546 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.041636 | 0 | 0 | 0.142171 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089378 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.046471 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.049128 | 0.102736 | 0 | 0 | 0.310443 |
suicidewatch | alphaestofbeta | 2019/01/13 | Bleak future Hi all, I'm 35 year old male. My future is bleak and I think it is better for me to kill myself. I don't know when and I'm scared but I know it will happen one day.
When I look at my life now and thinking about the future I know it is a bleak, hopeless one. At 35 I am in a low position office job, still ... | 1.670103 | 3.741311 | 3.339202 | 89.435626 | 80.047382 | 5.808581 | 22.252126 | 6.9008 | 0.61568 | 1,529 | 48 | 319 | 17 | 39 | 507 | 183 | 401 | 0.129 | 0.7 | 0.17 | 0.9437 | 13 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 72 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 14 | 25 | 1 | 2 | 15 | 0 | 38 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 54 | 68 | 29 | 2 | 4 | 9 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 18 | 20 | 2 | 0 | 13 | 1 | 7 | 8 | 13 | 11 | 3 | 4 | 10 | 5 | 58 | 14 | 37 | 50 | 10 | 51 | 1 | 7 | 2 | 0 | 17 | 14 | 0 | 5 | 29 | 219 | 76 | 13 | 0.043484 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.038546 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.034775 | 0.108548 | 0.424039 | 0.475546 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.026508 | 0 | 0.037002 | 0 | 0 | 0.076917 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.037458 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084132 | 0 | 0.037453 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.042598 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.038514 | 0.134793 | 0 | 0.028721 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.021987 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.039744 | 0.036988 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090875 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.047903 | 0 | 0.038453 | 0.04629 | 0.038954 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.04319 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.045386 | 0.345213 | 0 | 0.048109 | 0 | 0.095592 | 0.070891 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.030714 | 0.021244 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073032 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.029026 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.031966 | 0 | 0 | 0.041998 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091259 | 0 | 0.088399 | 0.033072 | 0 | 0 | 0.048284 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.046686 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087071 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090728 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.036844 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.046349 | 0.069454 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.047565 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057778 | 0.167179 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.041218 | 0.041551 | 0 | 0.118092 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.025648 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117293 | 0.120932 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.031657 | 0 | 0.044314 | 0.03089 | 0 | 0.475546 | 0.11201 |
suicidewatch | transguy7 | 2019/01/13 | No future. I was supposed to kill myself before I graduated from high school 2017 but I got too lazy to do it. Now I'm 19, working at McDonald's, living with my mom and step dad and only have 300 dollars to my name. I'd kill myself but I dont want my mom to feel guilty. So I guess I'm stuck living this shitty life. I w... | 0.055 | 1.819947 | 2.6175 | 94.1075 | 84 | 5 | 16.25 | 5.985473 | -0.606375 | 280 | 5 | 66 | 2 | 8 | 97 | 56 | 80 | 0.293 | 0.627 | 0.08 | -0.9622 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 14 | 5 | 2 | 3 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 12 | 1 | 9 | 9 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 37 | 14 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150702 | 0 | 0 | 0.156633 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181238 | 0.207564 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089549 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141646 | 0 | 0.195099 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.374239 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.391877 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125093 | 0 | 0 | 0.312771 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.414842 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134695 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.358476 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10446 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.20366 | 0 | 0 | 0.128933 | 0 | 0 | 0.125809 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | things_andstuff | 2019/01/13 | He's gone, and the best part of me has gone with him. The man I love has left. He was the last thing that kept my depression from boiling over the surface, but no longer.
I just want the pain to end. | 0.594302 | 2.23148 | 1.500174 | 103.453983 | 81.55814 | 5.230233 | 17.726744 | 5.985473 | -0.764577 | 152 | 3 | 40 | 1 | 4 | 47 | 35 | 43 | 0.191 | 0.677 | 0.132 | -0.6059 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 8 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 5 | 4 | 2 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 26 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.362494 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.297507 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.305937 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.281561 | 0 | 0 | 0.375297 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.311752 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.367548 | 0 | 0 | 0.374053 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.22948 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.203736 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | sweatiest | 2019/01/13 | What could ever help me I honestly don't know where to turn. I've hated myself since I was a young child, maybe it's because I'm bisexual, or not a professional athlete like my brother, or too depressed to further my education, or all the x I've eaten, or the tramautic experiences I've gone through from overdosing on l... | 4.015424 | 4.483695 | 5.419706 | 83.446471 | 70.826923 | 8.425339 | 26.447964 | 8.495291 | 1.641753 | 1,965 | 58 | 414 | 30 | 34 | 663 | 256 | 520 | 0.187 | 0.681 | 0.132 | -0.9881 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 30 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 22 | 35 | 11 | 2 | 26 | 0 | 38 | 20 | 7 | 4 | 10 | 74 | 89 | 33 | 2 | 13 | 20 | 6 | 2 | 4 | 1 | 6 | 7 | 2 | 1 | 6 | 24 | 12 | 3 | 2 | 11 | 3 | 3 | 10 | 15 | 17 | 0 | 2 | 14 | 10 | 59 | 18 | 54 | 60 | 8 | 57 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 4 | 30 | 25 | 6 | 15 | 25 | 261 | 83 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088069 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086336 | 0.080896 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061802 | 0 | 0 | 0.056488 | 0 | 0.066481 | 0 | 0.075525 | 0.091906 | 0.151803 | 0 | 0.067453 | 0.14774 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089736 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082367 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129003 | 0.089389 | 0.08874 | 0 | 0 | 0.069581 | 0 | 0.083844 | 0 | 0 | 0.082689 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07914 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053359 | 0.146152 | 0.136132 | 0.077195 | 0 | 0.079025 | 0 | 0 | 0.081696 | 0.115428 | 0 | 0.088498 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062416 | 0.298744 | 0.042208 | 0 | 0.045913 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171998 | 0 | 0.15952 | 0 | 0 | 0.091052 | 0 | 0.162449 | 0 | 0 | 0.160479 | 0 | 0.093217 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071807 | 0.089378 | 0 | 0.177593 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087775 | 0 | 0.114124 | 0.157873 | 0 | 0 | 0.071494 | 0.06784 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076442 | 0.053926 | 0 | 0.162322 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064483 | 0 | 0.178162 | 0 | 0.124615 | 0 | 0 | 0.075813 | 0 | 0.077517 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054743 | 0 | 0.085963 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112015 | 0.14108 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162426 | 0 | 0 | 0.080809 | 0 | 0.051754 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14709 | 0 | 0 | 0.082926 | 0.066828 | 0 | 0.080845 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090434 | 0 | 0 | 0.064516 | 0 | 0 | 0.084456 | 0 | 0 | 0.091676 | 0 | 0 | 0.060742 | 0 | 0.070611 | 0.074377 | 0 | 0 | 0.053671 | 0.10353 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164546 | 0.087873 | 0 | 0.084102 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066657 | 0.14295 | 0.064125 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072897 | 0 | 0.185801 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082328 | 0.114777 | 0 | 0 | 0.156072 |
suicidewatch | throwawaythecards | 2019/01/13 | Who cares On nights like this I don't know what I'm hanging onto. Maybe I just want someone to see through my lies, call me out on my shitty "I'm fine" look, someone to just ask if I'm fucking alright. Because I'm not. And there isn't anyone.
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I can't stop these fucking tears, the ache in my chest, the fu... | 0.976234 | 3.010564 | 2.003022 | 98.290356 | 82.291139 | 3.95 | 23.799051 | 3.1291 | -0.149849 | 293 | 11 | 66 | 0 | 8 | 92 | 56 | 79 | 0.136 | 0.677 | 0.187 | 0.3235 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 16 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 8 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 4 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 20 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 7 | 5 | 9 | 18 | 0 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 6 | 3 | 1 | 4 | 37 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.199374 | 0.223591 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128663 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172023 | 0 | 0.172882 | 0 | 0 | 0.11217 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187894 | 0 | 0.375219 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121536 | 0.166447 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.51034 | 0 | 0 | 0.104577 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101126 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089897 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154521 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184862 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17268 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146631 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.31182 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15384 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146083 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108533 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.223591 | 0 |
suicidewatch | tiredtiredtired111 | 2019/01/13 | I am tired and want to die Life sucks, everything is hard work, I don't want to work hard, why do I have to play this game? No one asked me.
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I've also been on antidepressants for over a year now, and things were looking better because I got better at adulting but it's so energy consuming and I don't get ... | 2.984225 | 3.730248 | 4.407155 | 88.757211 | 73.366197 | 7.933521 | 24.059155 | 8.238736 | 1.104733 | 261 | 7 | 60 | 4 | 5 | 87 | 54 | 71 | 0.193 | 0.651 | 0.156 | -0.411 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 15 | 6 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 6 | 4 | 9 | 12 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 37 | 10 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164003 | 0 | 0.222204 | 0.249195 | 0.139462 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191722 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125015 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.362754 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.212841 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184313 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107146 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164021 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.367423 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144854 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172216 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138968 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136246 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.23571 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.241923 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185053 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.298602 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.249195 | 0.132065 |
suicidewatch | hiddencanada | 2019/01/13 | I cant do this anymore I dont know how to start this. I'm not sure what to say. I'm just so worn out and tired. I'm trying so hard but I dont want to do this anymore, I just want it to be over. I cant do anything, I cant go to work, I cant around the house, I cant manage to even brush my teeth or get out of bed most da... | -2.913104 | -1.383515 | 0.752468 | 103.990843 | 95.528497 | 3.631174 | 12.704879 | 4.778228 | -1.673179 | 594 | 9 | 174 | 2 | 24 | 216 | 86 | 193 | 0.226 | 0.721 | 0.053 | -0.9776 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 23 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 17 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 21 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 34 | 38 | 12 | 0 | 6 | 10 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 11 | 8 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 13 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 7 | 24 | 5 | 20 | 33 | 5 | 13 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 7 | 0 | 4 | 6 | 109 | 35 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.416143 | 0 | 0 | 0.086326 | 0.093386 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08759 | 0 | 0 | 0.089265 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067654 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107352 | 0.491783 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069288 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053042 | 0.074943 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081048 | 0 | 0.054808 | 0 | 0.059619 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187945 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104193 | 0 | 0.121044 | 0.112301 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057652 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.227955 | 0 | 0 | 0.05125 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154232 | 0.155569 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183195 | 0 | 0.115152 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119403 | 0.067204 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.25027 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0955 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088884 | 0.08076 | 0 | 0.117431 | 0.074251 | 0 | 0 | 0.175408 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09887 | 0 | 0 | 0.084317 | 0.09169 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06117 | 0.120571 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.213667 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185624 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076371 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | useles_jello | 2019/01/13 | I can't accept any of my flaws and I don't believe anyone else will either DAE think people are really shallow/changeable? If they realize the extent of my depression, they'll leave. If I'm not interesting/funny, they'll leave. I have so many fucking flaws I can't have a conversation without hyperfocusing on my own ... | 4.291 | 6.65658 | 5.579722 | 75.09625 | 73 | 8.055556 | 27.916667 | 8.841846 | 2.489667 | 384 | 15 | 66 | 8 | 8 | 128 | 63 | 90 | 0.167 | 0.699 | 0.134 | -0.2292 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 16 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 12 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 15 | 19 | 5 | 1 | 4 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 14 | 5 | 7 | 15 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 7 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 44 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198655 | 0.222785 | 0.124681 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1282 | 0.187859 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206568 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186933 | 0 | 0.193956 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157915 | 0 | 0.190284 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153162 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167575 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1695 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194888 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.388273 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.330954 | 0 | 0 | 0.185884 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127109 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117456 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155348 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117481 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108142 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.353478 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.222785 | 0 |
suicidewatch | elaustero | 2019/01/13 | If l die i will make everyone i know happy Too alcoholized to read guys thanks bye | -1.019118 | 0.06514 | 1.338088 | 93.038897 | 120.764706 | 6.405882 | 16.014706 | 7.168622 | 0.945012 | 66 | 2 | 14 | 2 | 4 | 22 | 16 | 17 | 0.181 | 0.512 | 0.307 | 0.4019 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.381637 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.370619 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.341229 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.35359 | 0 | 0.380145 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.196256 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.23837 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.357202 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.328774 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | ilovewastingyourtime | 2019/01/13 | ending my life after this sleepover im having a sleepover with my best friends right now and theyre all asleep. afterwards when they are all gone i think im gonna kill myself. i have nothing to live for and i dont make anyone happy. i feel like everyone hates me and/or is tired of me. i hate myself. i hate how much i f... | -0.641964 | 1.530753 | 1.489835 | 97.612308 | 93.134615 | 4.125275 | 16.082418 | 5.773588 | -0.656404 | 377 | 9 | 86 | 3 | 14 | 125 | 73 | 104 | 0.163 | 0.691 | 0.147 | 0.0803 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 12 | 7 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 9 | 7 | 3 | 2 | 2 | 12 | 19 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 16 | 5 | 10 | 16 | 5 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 8 | 56 | 20 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104977 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157556 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175956 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.265948 | 0 | 0 | 0.099162 | 0 | 0 | 0.143459 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075912 | 0.107256 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115993 | 0.138796 | 0.078439 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15982 | 0 | 0.444678 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.48651 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166101 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.212088 | 0.146695 | 0 | 0.132571 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100215 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110366 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144057 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104084 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128213 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.30822 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0962 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172557 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | yungdepresso | 2019/01/13 | yikes I really thought I wasn’t doing that bad. But I’m on a road trip home from a concert and we’re driving past all of these accidents and I can’t stop thinking about how much easier it would all be if I crashed and died. | 1.708673 | 3.02337 | 3.395663 | 92.535944 | 77.367347 | 7.34898 | 24.494898 | 8.076483 | 1.1432 | 177 | 6 | 42 | 3 | 4 | 59 | 40 | 49 | 0.24 | 0.702 | 0.058 | -0.8316 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 12 | 8 | 6 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 3 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 27 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.318164 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.395474 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.382228 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.280118 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.363759 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.244113 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.318578 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.244164 | 0 | 0.302514 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.27069 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
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