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suicidewatch | shefollies | 2019/01/13 | things are not better I’ve been dealing with depression for the past six years, but I’ve definitely been on the uptick the past year. It’s been more than two years since I last self-harmed, and my last suicide attempt was even before that. I’m attending a school I love, I have a wonderful relationship with my family, I... | 4.779826 | 5.431199 | 5.915678 | 79.914778 | 69.201005 | 8.937147 | 28.373019 | 9.057497 | 2.176908 | 784 | 26 | 156 | 14 | 13 | 262 | 116 | 199 | 0.204 | 0.688 | 0.108 | -0.9662 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 24 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 8 | 12 | 3 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 15 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 32 | 40 | 21 | 2 | 4 | 7 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 13 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 6 | 20 | 6 | 19 | 32 | 4 | 24 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 7 | 1 | 3 | 16 | 102 | 29 | 3 | 0.126648 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125601 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107768 | 0 | 0 | 0.33603 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109096 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081678 | 0.130569 | 0.109082 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1673 | 0 | 0.106707 | 0 | 0.113823 | 0 | 0.119393 | 0 | 0.256148 | 0.090477 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138863 | 0 | 0.117084 | 0.066168 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125039 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112571 | 0 | 0 | 0.069602 | 0.20647 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089455 | 0.061874 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114305 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127585 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121522 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.2418 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119723 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12505 | 0.135973 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128175 | 0.100922 | 0 | 0.132122 | 0 | 0 | 0.104765 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107309 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089642 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.277065 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147048 | 0.252418 | 0.081151 | 0.124431 | 0 | 0.07385 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085986 | 0 | 0.123717 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0747 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137344 | 0.092201 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.244672 |
suicidewatch | drunkenk1ttens | 2019/01/13 | I feel so lost How can you be so happy yet so unhappy at the same time??? Its been like this my whole life. I am so so so sick of it. | -3.152813 | -1.675916 | 0.43625 | 106.18375 | 96.1875 | 4.45 | 11.125 | 5.985473 | -1.593025 | 97 | 1 | 30 | 1 | 4 | 35 | 26 | 32 | 0.257 | 0.576 | 0.167 | -0.5998 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 2 | 3 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 24 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.228314 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.480676 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.318938 | 0.220601 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.492912 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.263298 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.504132 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | rex-tyler-earl | 2019/01/13 | Why was I born? TL;DR I’m ugly and can’t get a girl to look in my direction
I am a fat, ugly Jew with disgusting acne that doesn’t get fixed no matter how much i treat it and try to fix it. I have social anxiety linked to a rejection a few years ago where I can’t actually talk to people I don’t know very well, and I a... | 2.011437 | 3.742644 | 3.724259 | 88.707244 | 77.619529 | 6.993473 | 22.534188 | 7.882392 | 0.973322 | 1,118 | 33 | 243 | 18 | 26 | 374 | 152 | 297 | 0.174 | 0.708 | 0.118 | -0.9677 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 24 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 17 | 27 | 5 | 0 | 15 | 0 | 24 | 7 | 4 | 2 | 6 | 47 | 43 | 17 | 2 | 2 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 9 | 12 | 16 | 1 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 15 | 11 | 2 | 0 | 6 | 6 | 34 | 16 | 27 | 35 | 6 | 19 | 1 | 5 | 4 | 3 | 26 | 8 | 1 | 4 | 14 | 152 | 46 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0.116027 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105396 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131207 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090957 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097843 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.217437 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130604 | 0 | 0 | 0.204813 | 0 | 0.123397 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078531 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183721 | 0 | 0.124239 | 0 | 0 | 0.099726 | 0 | 0 | 0.13098 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131543 | 0 | 0.065343 | 0.096918 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.290438 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.199689 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079365 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087404 | 0 | 0.183403 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114086 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090427 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.247287 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119525 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076169 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094552 | 0 | 0.120331 | 0.189493 | 0.216481 | 0 | 0 | 0.244094 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121202 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.286697 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06933 | 0 | 0.112701 | 0 | 0 | 0.242172 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098103 | 0.140258 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.213807 | 0 | 0.107287 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076566 |
suicidewatch | janaluna | 2019/01/13 | Please read I’m 19 yrs old... just so miserable really. My family is poor across the country. I’m in this depressing city all alone, living with a shitty “boyfriend” and his crazy parents. I wish I could just be like normal girls my age. Good family, good well off parents, grow up in my nice house. They’d buy me a car ... | 1.465415 | 3.277402 | 2.956048 | 93.215714 | 79.539683 | 6.122605 | 21.020799 | 7.098364 | 0.378154 | 1,168 | 32 | 264 | 14 | 29 | 382 | 160 | 315 | 0.19 | 0.639 | 0.172 | -0.9254 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 48 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 29 | 22 | 3 | 2 | 10 | 2 | 15 | 7 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 49 | 45 | 29 | 0 | 8 | 12 | 4 | 2 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 11 | 18 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 11 | 1 | 8 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 6 | 35 | 14 | 34 | 36 | 8 | 39 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 2 | 18 | 14 | 1 | 5 | 19 | 157 | 46 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076589 | 0 | 0 | 0.17897 | 0.095345 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095423 | 0.073521 | 0 | 0 | 0.076414 | 0.094327 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09059 | 0 | 0 | 0.137968 | 0 | 0 | 0.055721 | 0 | 0.074417 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088418 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114134 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155303 | 0 | 0.162902 | 0 | 0.043687 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079876 | 0 | 0 | 0.147311 | 0.144938 | 0.138205 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091975 | 0.077398 | 0.170606 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173738 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099695 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085739 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091486 | 0 | 0 | 0.061027 | 0.211055 | 0.086596 | 0.152587 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115346 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183661 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084654 | 0 | 0 | 0.181326 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.383751 | 0 | 0 | 0.059899 | 0 | 0 | 0.189684 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086424 | 0 | 0.055351 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087442 | 0.06885 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061155 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075518 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.050381 | 0.297915 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117321 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149245 | 0 | 0 | 0.203846 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155369 | 0 | 0.23389 | 0 | 0.099357 | 0 | 0 | 0.062901 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | ThatBelgianGuyInLove | 2019/01/13 | My story: not a good one Right now, I just need to vent my emotions.
I'm 22, male and Belgian. But here is my story.
I was born in a family with not much wealth. My parents were very young when they married. Didn't have a High school diploma. My brother was born when they were in their early 20's and after some miscar... | 1.211433 | 3.378165 | 2.621616 | 93.434813 | 82.285303 | 5.469388 | 19.293068 | 6.691623 | 0.102573 | 2,626 | 67 | 566 | 28 | 72 | 850 | 291 | 694 | 0.146 | 0.76 | 0.094 | -0.9897 | 2 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 95 | 5 | 1 | 8 | 7 | 41 | 37 | 2 | 0 | 36 | 0 | 60 | 17 | 3 | 6 | 7 | 111 | 104 | 44 | 2 | 13 | 25 | 10 | 5 | 2 | 6 | 3 | 8 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 26 | 28 | 7 | 4 | 13 | 6 | 4 | 7 | 18 | 13 | 0 | 3 | 44 | 7 | 92 | 24 | 87 | 55 | 23 | 99 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 1 | 64 | 30 | 0 | 15 | 61 | 398 | 118 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056048 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109891 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.205577 | 0.04278 | 0 | 0 | 0.034963 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.045769 | 0.048065 | 0 | 0 | 0.079068 | 0 | 0.031341 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11226 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104839 | 0.316895 | 0.054389 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.041049 | 0 | 0.056475 | 0.033157 | 0 | 0.044282 | 0 | 0.053359 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.201463 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057833 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169791 | 0.046506 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.048468 | 0 | 0.077989 | 0 | 0.049365 | 0.056321 | 0 | 0 | 0.062169 | 0 | 0.238332 | 0 | 0.026861 | 0.049321 | 0.058439 | 0.172493 | 0 | 0.113367 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.046056 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060925 | 0.034461 | 0.162964 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118649 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053662 | 0.05102 | 0.045699 | 0 | 0.214157 | 0.084767 | 0.209544 | 0 | 0 | 0.055861 | 0 | 0.108945 | 0.050236 | 0.05153 | 0.090798 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056124 | 0.08742 | 0.046403 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.051652 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082076 | 0.163933 | 0.07559 | 0.076245 | 0.079306 | 0.049655 | 0.054679 | 0.048248 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069678 | 0.039102 | 0 | 0 | 0.057089 | 0 | 0 | 0.071287 | 0.044892 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052306 | 0.166297 | 0.049196 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054685 | 0.102855 | 0 | 0.09881 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.043907 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1561 | 0.04097 | 0.09361 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05241 | 0 | 0 | 0.050849 | 0.057553 | 0.072781 | 0.0548 | 0.082118 | 0.042984 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056238 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.038657 | 0.082648 | 0.089875 | 0.094669 | 0 | 0 | 0.068314 | 0.032944 | 0.050513 | 0.040817 | 0.02998 | 0 | 0 | 0.049128 | 0 | 0.034906 | 0.055923 | 0 | 0 | 0.061844 | 0 | 0 | 0.212108 | 0.151625 | 0.04081 | 0.041241 | 0 | 0 | 0.047661 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074859 | 0 | 0 | 0.036523 | 0 | 0 | 0.264869 |
suicidewatch | TheBigBnananananan | 2019/01/13 | I fucked up really bad and I desperately need someone to talk. Title says it all I just really badly need someone to talk to please. | 0.841154 | 3.392859 | 3.737308 | 79.845192 | 94.769231 | 7.215385 | 18.038462 | 8.076483 | 1.551415 | 105 | 3 | 19 | 3 | 4 | 37 | 18 | 26 | 0.416 | 0.518 | 0.066 | -0.9209 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.434408 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.240493 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.385778 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.285553 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.333302 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206872 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.440828 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.418178 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | DeadEndSquid | 2019/01/13 | Body dysmorphic disorder I am an abomination of a human being. In a time where what race you are and what ethnic group you are apart of matters so much, I have nowhere to go. I am half mexican (so whatever that entails, mostly native) and half white. This is horrible because I am white enough to where any person of col... | 2.892003 | 4.703894 | 4.220235 | 85.759824 | 75.35 | 7.505882 | 23.264706 | 8.313333 | 1.289409 | 783 | 23 | 162 | 14 | 17 | 258 | 113 | 200 | 0.175 | 0.767 | 0.057 | -0.9749 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 30 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 23 | 6 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 21 | 35 | 17 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 11 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 10 | 26 | 2 | 25 | 29 | 7 | 16 | 1 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 11 | 12 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 118 | 37 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091243 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081791 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149038 | 0 | 0 | 0.137007 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141939 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.214255 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136184 | 0 | 0 | 0.307551 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138638 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.226095 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152509 | 0.112539 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132469 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179869 | 0 | 0.134588 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147477 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112673 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089562 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135167 | 0.135216 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.295901 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.386232 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186039 | 0.234312 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136504 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.320759 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08914 | 0.085974 | 0 | 0 | 0.078238 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110708 | 0 | 0.106501 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136735 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | DragonsInBowties | 2019/01/13 | I want to die but I'm scared of dying. I feel as though I am building up the nerve to finally do it. I have a plan, I just need the courage to finally end it all. Maybe it'll be tonight, maybe tomorrow. I don't know but I know it has to happen. | -1.870179 | -0.074706 | 1.226429 | 100.518571 | 93.464286 | 5.342857 | 18.714286 | 6.86897 | -0.030793 | 185 | 6 | 50 | 3 | 7 | 65 | 37 | 56 | 0.119 | 0.777 | 0.103 | -0.2144 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 14 | 4 | 2 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 1 | 7 | 12 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 32 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.475678 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202974 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115874 | 0 | 0 | 0.502083 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202652 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.251888 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.460458 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169924 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.229436 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.225155 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135169 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | throwaway110382063 | 2019/01/13 | I have an addiction I have an addiction I'm ashamed to admit. I regret it every time, and every time I cut myself. It's gotten worse. I relapsed again tonight and I want to take a scalpel to my neck. I just got a bunch of scalpels and I'm thinking of wanting to end it all. | -0.818432 | 1.314962 | 1.68625 | 96.108697 | 93.745763 | 4.305932 | 22.629237 | 5.985473 | 0.332168 | 212 | 9 | 48 | 2 | 8 | 72 | 36 | 59 | 0.201 | 0.743 | 0.056 | -0.8402 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 11 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 6 | 9 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 31 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.587269 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.238567 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.453883 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.215426 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.20252 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172591 | 0 | 0 | 0.314124 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.317743 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.274494 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | AOD_RL | 2019/01/13 | This will be my last sunday. Im sorry for all the dissapointment. To my family and my girlfriend.
But im sure they will feel fine.
And to my son. I know youre stronger than me. You turn five this month.
But your dad cant keep it together.
After your mother and I split, I was depressed. I fought a war and hell for ... | -0.880119 | 1.243954 | 1.624061 | 96.410503 | 94.241935 | 4.853131 | 16.971537 | 6.522977 | -0.232924 | 445 | 12 | 105 | 6 | 17 | 151 | 66 | 124 | 0.138 | 0.709 | 0.153 | 0.4656 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 20 | 1 | 9 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 11 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 12 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 19 | 21 | 10 | 1 | 2 | 5 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 2 | 28 | 6 | 13 | 10 | 4 | 4 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 20 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 76 | 34 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132862 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.307206 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138667 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.299175 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163727 | 0 | 0.087816 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158737 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.562802 | 0 | 0 | 0.154372 | 0 | 0 | 0.190896 | 0.14157 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.3135 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138627 | 0 | 0.127672 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132089 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165206 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194417 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163688 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.18891 | 0 | 0 | 0.208912 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | suisuiiiiii | 2019/01/13 | I guess I'm in crisis I don't want to be alarming. I've been depressed for about 10 years now and suicidal for about the last 4 or 5. Over this time I was sure with each achievement I made or major life change I'd see some improvement in my condition. That's not the case. I've experienced a growing level of anxiety tha... | 2.730943 | 4.568048 | 3.880904 | 87.907582 | 75.873747 | 6.96651 | 24.831104 | 7.820578 | 1.25131 | 1,945 | 66 | 405 | 29 | 43 | 632 | 245 | 499 | 0.109 | 0.775 | 0.116 | 0.9048 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 45 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 2 | 26 | 27 | 2 | 2 | 35 | 0 | 36 | 13 | 5 | 9 | 5 | 78 | 86 | 18 | 2 | 14 | 11 | 0 | 5 | 4 | 2 | 4 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 30 | 18 | 0 | 4 | 11 | 1 | 0 | 10 | 10 | 9 | 1 | 0 | 13 | 12 | 50 | 18 | 66 | 61 | 13 | 67 | 1 | 3 | 5 | 2 | 18 | 32 | 0 | 17 | 25 | 265 | 80 | 2 | 0.079613 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077796 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063666 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054139 | 0 | 0.121807 | 0.08994 | 0.078954 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149597 | 0 | 0 | 0.048531 | 0 | 0.067744 | 0.089696 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088874 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08422 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.051344 | 0 | 0.13714 | 0 | 0.082625 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069669 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066506 | 0 | 0.070513 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144028 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120764 | 0.11375 | 0.076441 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061508 | 0 | 0.083189 | 0 | 0.180983 | 0.066775 | 0 | 0 | 0.175404 | 0.078829 | 0.070401 | 0.254247 | 0 | 0.078601 | 0.245116 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053363 | 0 | 0 | 0.158146 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070763 | 0 | 0 | 0.043753 | 0.064895 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.224931 | 0.155579 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071853 | 0.075331 | 0.106284 | 0.080715 | 0.079982 | 0.086721 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058524 | 0.118063 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060549 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086213 | 0 | 0 | 0.139029 | 0.166356 | 0 | 0.07526 | 0.089751 | 0.076247 | 0 | 0.085836 | 0.076178 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081855 | 0 | 0.085474 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063311 | 0 | 0 | 0.126882 | 0.072476 | 0 | 0.08994 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067455 | 0 | 0.078739 | 0.08912 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087083 | 0.090343 | 0.075034 | 0 | 0 | 0.127979 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052891 | 0 | 0.078219 | 0.126407 | 0.185691 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137519 | 0 | 0.065689 | 0.18783 | 0.126385 | 0.06386 | 0 | 0.071581 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086336 | 0 | 0 | 0.162264 | 0.113109 | 0 | 0 | 0.153804 |
suicidewatch | periwinkle299 | 2019/01/13 | My ex boyfriend killed himself. (Please ignore the spelling and grammar mistakes)
Here’s a little back ground, I had a boyfriend last year in college. We started out as drinking buddies but it eventually led to more. We developed a very close relationship as he was there for me when my father died. We spent every day ... | 2.403821 | 4.671227 | 3.183936 | 90.476364 | 78.56229 | 6.386114 | 25.392894 | 7.503016 | 1.245641 | 1,180 | 45 | 242 | 17 | 29 | 372 | 158 | 297 | 0.089 | 0.829 | 0.082 | -0.5045 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 23 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 19 | 13 | 2 | 0 | 11 | 0 | 22 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 4 | 58 | 39 | 25 | 3 | 8 | 9 | 5 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 18 | 1 | 4 | 8 | 4 | 2 | 4 | 6 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 14 | 5 | 44 | 6 | 34 | 19 | 4 | 55 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 43 | 24 | 0 | 2 | 27 | 158 | 52 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0.109718 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099665 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092523 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105635 | 0.086454 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179537 | 0 | 0 | 0.07251 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116688 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110142 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116173 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189459 | 0.214869 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113699 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179846 | 0 | 0 | 0.111326 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075362 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.248781 | 0 | 0.123581 | 0.183296 | 0 | 0 | 0.244318 | 0 | 0 | 0.054929 | 0.112688 | 0.09928 | 0.0995 | 0.094415 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07505 | 0 | 0.112954 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179486 | 0 | 0.082651 | 0 | 0 | 0.108589 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119738 | 0 | 0.08551 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123418 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127973 | 0.072028 | 0 | 0 | 0.120711 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089411 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093006 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159161 | 0 | 0.179578 | 0.093999 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.211934 | 0 | 0 | 0.271108 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072043 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.214869 | 0 | 0.076335 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097106 | 0.123829 | 0.092769 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101091 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081853 | 0 | 0 | 0.239608 | 0 | 0 | 0.072403 |
suicidewatch | mbk186221 | 2019/01/13 | Never enough I should want to keep trying for my son, but im so fucking tired. So fucking tired of feeling useless. Im no good for him or anyone else. Might as well get it over with before he is old enough to remember me. | 1.681596 | 3.198882 | 3.303138 | 92.30875 | 77.93617 | 5.551064 | 22.388298 | 5.985473 | 0.23726 | 172 | 5 | 38 | 1 | 4 | 57 | 38 | 47 | 0.276 | 0.584 | 0.14 | -0.8548 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 9 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 8 | 7 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 25 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131334 | 0.192452 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159828 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156907 | 0 | 0 | 0.388154 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094972 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.347289 | 0.098133 | 0 | 0 | 0.157542 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.405774 | 0 | 0 | 0.16695 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.199256 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144865 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197094 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.212773 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.431762 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127523 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110786 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16888 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | l-USE-CRAYONS | 2019/01/13 | I feel like dying is a way out I feel like dying is a way out in my life right now, I’ve never been suicidal or even let anything affect me this deeply but i feel like I’m at my wits end.
The girl Im in love with and have been in love with just purely doesn’t want me anymore, we were together for three years and we h... | 2.862581 | 3.842391 | 4.332533 | 88.294799 | 73.897361 | 7.684739 | 24.197185 | 8.109357 | 1.120036 | 1,265 | 36 | 285 | 19 | 25 | 422 | 168 | 341 | 0.186 | 0.651 | 0.162 | -0.9371 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 10 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 19 | 21 | 4 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 23 | 8 | 1 | 3 | 4 | 64 | 55 | 33 | 6 | 5 | 20 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 19 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 3 | 2 | 4 | 8 | 9 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 6 | 51 | 12 | 41 | 46 | 6 | 44 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 24 | 16 | 1 | 8 | 25 | 183 | 58 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087538 | 0.090541 | 0 | 0 | 0.07274 | 0 | 0 | 0.059449 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173394 | 0 | 0 | 0.215817 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082134 | 0 | 0.072992 | 0.213161 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091658 | 0.09447 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.272184 | 0.091335 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073028 | 0 | 0.077428 | 0 | 0 | 0.05774 | 0 | 0.073655 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082412 | 0 | 0.176809 | 0.187358 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06754 | 0 | 0.091347 | 0 | 0.049683 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077305 | 0 | 0 | 0.086309 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117191 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086091 | 0.100871 | 0 | 0 | 0.094428 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193434 | 0 | 0.096087 | 0.071259 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089393 | 0.185242 | 0.213545 | 0.087618 | 0 | 0.077364 | 0.073411 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.315599 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087825 | 0.095226 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088269 | 0 | 0.069778 | 0.092914 | 0.064264 | 0.129641 | 0.134847 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059238 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094667 | 0.083452 | 0.060606 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08264 | 0.098553 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056003 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074656 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088474 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072315 | 0.098264 | 0 | 0 | 0.074071 | 0 | 0.086461 | 0 | 0.061876 | 0.093178 | 0.069814 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095623 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065729 | 0.14053 | 0.076409 | 0 | 0.099972 | 0 | 0 | 0.168045 | 0 | 0 | 0.050975 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072131 | 0.103125 | 0.20817 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056296 |
suicidewatch | chingchongcheng84 | 2019/01/13 | You can die simply by giving up the will to live, says new research. [https://bigthink.com/mind-brain/can-you-die-from-giving-up?utm\_medium=Social&facebook=1&utm\_source=Facebook&fbclid=IwAR2zZO8TIDY5I7OSq-8FTNM3b6N92jvT\_wxXLTuCbAZSj9TW7JY5WaIoa8Y#Echobox=1547312224](https://bigthink.com/mind-brain/can-yo... | 8.224458 | 12.621697 | 5.724382 | 66.585186 | 76.057927 | 7.76053 | 30.224495 | 8.460558 | 3.485654 | 3,639 | 152 | 444 | 81 | 93 | 1,032 | 312 | 656 | 0.18 | 0.721 | 0.1 | -0.9964 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 303 | 0 | 3 | 7 | 11 | 14 | 17 | 1 | 0 | 41 | 1 | 52 | 15 | 1 | 14 | 0 | 93 | 78 | 42 | 15 | 14 | 21 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 7 | 13 | 5 | 2 | 8 | 28 | 19 | 1 | 3 | 15 | 2 | 1 | 8 | 17 | 13 | 0 | 4 | 7 | 6 | 10 | 4 | 91 | 53 | 10 | 67 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 36 | 29 | 0 | 19 | 22 | 287 | 38 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091339 | 0 | 0 | 0.036473 | 0 | 0.345913 | 0.055419 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.037531 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05037 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152741 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093704 | 0.048247 | 0 | 0.047819 | 0 | 0.102306 | 0.072828 | 0 | 0 | 0.117653 | 0 | 0.039282 | 0 | 0.284003 | 0.047651 | 0 | 0.046682 | 0.039912 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.051303 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060247 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.049961 | 0.041685 | 0.038794 | 0.055149 | 0.050007 | 0 | 0 | 0.023828 | 0.525015 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.040331 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.03057 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.047494 | 0 | 0.037177 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128857 | 0.066845 | 0.045711 | 0.120818 | 0 | 0.038299 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.030444 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.045945 | 0 | 0.096766 | 0.184204 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.033527 | 0 | 0 | 0.132145 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.043762 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.030905 | 0.069374 | 0.04853 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063238 | 0.318585 | 0 | 0 | 0.043114 | 0.051416 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.045849 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155735 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.038949 | 0.086767 | 0.072538 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.04152 | 0.047579 | 0.206096 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185966 | 0.038643 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099775 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.034291 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0606 | 0.029224 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.039391 | 0.150692 | 0.075263 | 0.053801 | 0.036201 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052447 | 0.043964 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064797 | 0 | 0.055419 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Fartswithhands | 2019/01/13 | I’m sure it’s quite common, but the only reason I haven’t committed suicide yet is because of my parents. I’ve never been one to ask for help and doubt that I ever will in this circumstance. I feel that once my parents have passed that I won’t be too far behind them. Is it wrong that I’m ok with taking my own life? I’m... | 5.4789 | 3.828497 | 6.606 | 83.323 | 68.1 | 9.6 | 30 | 8.238736 | 1.8586 | 359 | 10 | 82 | 4 | 5 | 122 | 67 | 100 | 0.191 | 0.684 | 0.125 | -0.879 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 10 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 14 | 17 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 11 | 2 | 10 | 12 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 53 | 19 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173191 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112931 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167576 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093672 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124174 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130853 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142882 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197293 | 0.125535 | 0.140897 | 0.197127 | 0 | 0.61712 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16176 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186235 | 0 | 0.197044 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190476 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202642 | 0 | 0.174603 | 0 | 0.278581 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108025 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188138 | 0 | 0 | 0.20255 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Ty3113 | 2019/01/13 | Life is tedious Tired of making decisions that mostly turn out wrong anyway. Tired of hoping things will be "better". There is no better. Even rich people kill themselves. What do I get to look forward to? More years of work for money I will spend to try and make myself feel alive. What's the point? I hate myself and n... | 1.137258 | 3.573091 | 1.998615 | 95.97189 | 85.233766 | 3.941703 | 15.049062 | 5.033349 | -0.983992 | 299 | 5 | 62 | 1 | 9 | 93 | 55 | 77 | 0.237 | 0.623 | 0.14 | -0.8767 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 7 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 11 | 18 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 8 | 4 | 10 | 14 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 40 | 13 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.356191 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168219 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133003 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101819 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.315623 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198811 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.200006 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.222786 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142234 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1691 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.268832 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139605 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19036 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133781 | 0 | 0 | 0.159866 | 0 | 0.462891 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136717 | 0.219033 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1466 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.220167 | 0 | 0.129676 |
suicidewatch | anonymousdino | 2019/01/13 | I wonder what percentage of posters here actually follow throu with it Curious about that | 9.62 | 11.625966 | 9.14 | 56.25 | 59 | 14 | 41.666667 | 13.023867 | 6.781667 | 75 | 4 | 10 | 3 | 1 | 24 | 15 | 15 | 0 | 0.85 | 0.15 | 0.3182 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.668906 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.743347 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | thesehardfeelings | 2019/01/13 | Is 500mg of unisom mixed with adhd and depression meds and my dads prescribed pain meds unlikely to kill me? I can jump off a bridge in four months once I get out of my parents house but i’m so tired i don’t think i can go any longer. I want things to stop now. I don’t feel human-like and so so so dead. I need this to ... | -1.343078 | 0.544562 | 0.851802 | 103.600255 | 91.567568 | 4.36997 | 13.627628 | 5.822114 | -1.236866 | 251 | 4 | 67 | 2 | 9 | 83 | 53 | 74 | 0.33 | 0.652 | 0.018 | -0.9806 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 12 | 8 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 0 | 9 | 12 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 37 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.262293 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148417 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187978 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110353 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114026 | 0 | 0.124036 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.251831 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.241461 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.484852 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174205 | 0 | 0 | 0.161829 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.232429 | 0 | 0 | 0.232233 | 0 | 0.24234 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.364933 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144995 | 0.139845 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.250846 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128729 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | nobarro | 2019/01/13 | Wrote my final note tonight Thought I don’t plan on needing to use it for another few years unless I face a crisis and really need to get out of here. To sum it up:
“I failed as a sibling, child, and person. I am so sorry. Since I was little I knew I was stupid and a mistake. I never learned how to talk to others. Alw... | 1.613957 | 3.641279 | 3.488202 | 88.521205 | 80.015228 | 5.97478 | 21.02832 | 7.060882 | 0.535757 | 747 | 21 | 156 | 9 | 19 | 251 | 121 | 197 | 0.159 | 0.729 | 0.112 | -0.6829 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 20 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 13 | 11 | 1 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 21 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 32 | 39 | 22 | 0 | 9 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 6 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 7 | 1 | 2 | 16 | 2 | 21 | 4 | 19 | 18 | 2 | 24 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 11 | 0 | 4 | 12 | 107 | 27 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103477 | 0.107667 | 0 | 0 | 0.087993 | 0.135682 | 0 | 0.146179 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120967 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108039 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13983 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114606 | 0 | 0 | 0.085464 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.243964 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124239 | 0.141746 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067604 | 0.124127 | 0.073538 | 0.217061 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114424 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129794 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140588 | 0 | 0 | 0.063216 | 0.129688 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191889 | 0.199595 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087681 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.269118 | 0.112983 | 0 | 0.284074 | 0.12232 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082894 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123084 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107037 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127975 | 0.434541 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104003 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.20545 | 0.075451 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1264 | 0 | 0 | 0.111756 | 0 | 0 | 0.07632 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116342 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091918 | 0 | 0 | 0.083326 |
suicidewatch | salehthrowaway | 2019/01/13 | I might kill myself tomorrow. I don't know what to say to all my friends and family except, "I love you." I'm going to hurt a lot of people when I pass, but hurt is inevitable. Death is a much better experience than living. I don't feel alive, anyway. I exist but I'm not living. | -0.131985 | 2.015758 | 2.897143 | 89.303729 | 88.322034 | 5.405327 | 15.208232 | 6.86897 | -0.152014 | 214 | 4 | 46 | 3 | 7 | 76 | 42 | 59 | 0.268 | 0.604 | 0.128 | -0.8827 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 11 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 3 | 6 | 10 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 32 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.212338 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.234851 | 0.226333 | 0 | 0.121395 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185491 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136447 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.514037 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.265621 | 0 | 0.131946 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.424003 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.204114 | 0.216688 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.254695 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176492 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166446 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190927 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | purecc3 | 2019/01/13 | Life is boring, depressing, hard, and worthless I really want to kill my self but I have a hard time doing so because of what it will do to my parents. Every time I prepare a bath and grab the toaster I start too feel overbearing guilt and then I stop. I don’t think life is worth living. I don’t know how anyone does it... | 2.008246 | 3.747821 | 3.899275 | 87.411368 | 77.654971 | 7.133099 | 24.850292 | 8.021204 | 1.400495 | 644 | 23 | 137 | 11 | 15 | 218 | 110 | 171 | 0.265 | 0.58 | 0.155 | -0.9678 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 16 | 3 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 16 | 6 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 23 | 31 | 11 | 2 | 2 | 4 | 1 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 6 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 4 | 2 | 2 | 5 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 19 | 8 | 15 | 25 | 4 | 21 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 2 | 1 | 13 | 84 | 25 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0984 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171572 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.242416 | 0 | 0.146052 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123151 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118569 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071156 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147048 | 0 | 0.079978 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149806 | 0.378191 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158864 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155694 | 0 | 0.07734 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.397598 | 0.137504 | 0 | 0.124264 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133159 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149743 | 0 | 0.156261 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180307 | 0 | 0.138951 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128113 | 0.146809 | 0 | 0.144454 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099607 | 0 | 0 | 0.235308 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090172 | 0 | 0.111721 | 0.246177 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166009 | 0.111703 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102451 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181247 |
suicidewatch | spacehamsterblitz | 2019/01/13 | Realizing no one cares I don’t mean no one will be sad, I know there are people who will be and it gives me no pleasure or satisfaction. I mean nobody cares enough to do anything, including health professionals. Everybody KNOWS. I remember being called needy and unstable too vividly to be mistaken about what I said and... | 6.063615 | 5.973434 | 6.63661 | 78.428152 | 66.338129 | 10.115468 | 28.166367 | 9.827889 | 2.373265 | 555 | 15 | 110 | 11 | 8 | 182 | 82 | 139 | 0.131 | 0.704 | 0.165 | 0.7506 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 8 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 17 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 26 | 33 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 5 | 12 | 5 | 18 | 23 | 2 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 12 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 84 | 20 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134166 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166479 | 0 | 0.332455 | 0 | 0 | 0.140442 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168461 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156541 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08518 | 0.1564 | 0.092658 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173301 | 0 | 0 | 0.218561 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.268803 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166717 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108829 | 0 | 0 | 0.355191 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173392 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.220956 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113029 | 0.284716 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184689 | 0.278466 | 0.155086 | 0.129654 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108315 | 0.104468 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.221383 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134523 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Bee_c_c | 2019/01/13 | Reaching out made it worse Asking for help from someone close to you seemed to be a common suggestion so I told my closest friend how I truly feel and well, now they won't even speak to me, seems like playing videogames with their lover is more important than making sure I'm ok...
I can't find any comfort in anyone cl... | 5.867994 | 4.95081 | 5.643496 | 88.145715 | 66.964602 | 8.59528 | 28.567847 | 7.168622 | 1.272163 | 429 | 11 | 96 | 3 | 6 | 133 | 85 | 113 | 0.063 | 0.673 | 0.264 | 0.97 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 12 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 24 | 20 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 12 | 9 | 16 | 15 | 1 | 16 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 8 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 57 | 16 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132393 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193076 | 0.136129 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182005 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198495 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.257176 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.196878 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177939 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150414 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110644 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130494 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095114 | 0 | 0 | 0.172291 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184217 | 0.259909 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.228014 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1827 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184041 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.354469 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164957 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183489 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186031 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202675 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154533 | 0 | 0 | 0.175046 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.223879 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198402 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | bellsnolongerring | 2019/01/13 | It's frustrating to be so suicidal but so unmotivated I can't even kill myself. Hi, first post on Reddit ever.
I've been suicidal since sixth grade. I'm about to go to college now. And throughout these years I've made so many plans and preparations and half-hearted attempts but I've never actually managed to do what I... | 2.826123 | 4.237738 | 4.876316 | 82.662544 | 74.631579 | 7.803509 | 26.350877 | 8.447377 | 1.742867 | 723 | 26 | 151 | 13 | 15 | 250 | 105 | 190 | 0.306 | 0.61 | 0.084 | -0.9955 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 24 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 18 | 13 | 4 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 15 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 28 | 34 | 16 | 4 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 7 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 11 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 20 | 2 | 18 | 29 | 1 | 15 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 10 | 99 | 28 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0.12741 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135223 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.218029 | 0.07959 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133117 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.344941 | 0.118101 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123083 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111056 | 0 | 0 | 0.100872 | 0 | 0.136427 | 0 | 0.074202 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154717 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.2321 | 0.288896 | 0 | 0.071754 | 0 | 0 | 0.138247 | 0 | 0 | 0.09222 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123541 | 0 | 0.13237 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.201396 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176945 | 0.099299 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090516 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125043 | 0 | 0 | 0.249861 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083642 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.237718 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108003 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.285628 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104941 | 0.114117 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128277 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127541 | 0 | 0 | 0.112764 | 0 | 0 | 0.231028 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133054 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084078 |
suicidewatch | Jish_of_NerdFightria | 2019/01/13 | I really do suck I want to die because I failed at everything but I can’t because I failed at dying too. | 1.112174 | 2.589336 | 4.286304 | 84.814674 | 79.434783 | 8.078261 | 24.543478 | 8.841846 | 1.863017 | 82 | 3 | 18 | 2 | 2 | 30 | 16 | 23 | 0.456 | 0.491 | 0.052 | -0.8707 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.449369 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.765061 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.331258 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.236123 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.2174 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | cinnamonbicycle | 2019/01/13 | I don't even know if I'm capable of feeling joy anymore. I have anorexia, OCD, depression, and anxiety. Usually one or two are active enough to numb the others out. But recently they've all been hella active and I can't cope.
I wake up stuck between not getting out of bed for lack of motivation to live, and getting up... | 3.140541 | 5.068475 | 4.750841 | 81.71854 | 74.972851 | 7.729555 | 26.563706 | 8.532817 | 1.99437 | 880 | 33 | 169 | 17 | 19 | 296 | 137 | 221 | 0.219 | 0.653 | 0.128 | -0.9757 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 26 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 9 | 14 | 3 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 16 | 11 | 3 | 1 | 3 | 34 | 37 | 14 | 2 | 6 | 11 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 8 | 2 | 0 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 9 | 0 | 5 | 4 | 4 | 27 | 5 | 32 | 31 | 5 | 25 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 9 | 10 | 1 | 7 | 14 | 116 | 33 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098039 | 0 | 0.110288 | 0 | 0.428927 | 0.100805 | 0 | 0.118638 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087883 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115106 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124171 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14752 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148964 | 0 | 0.095221 | 0.130408 | 0.121468 | 0.137758 | 0 | 0 | 0.135908 | 0 | 0.145791 | 0.102993 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111384 | 0.133281 | 0.150643 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142336 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141976 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1595 | 0 | 0.079231 | 0.117516 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10183 | 0.070433 | 0 | 0.127303 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130117 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10598 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135292 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.195384 | 0 | 0.153405 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137949 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142348 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114883 | 0.131245 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144272 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157696 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13273 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184754 | 0 | 0 | 0.168131 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140831 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15878 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165786 | 0 | 0.156344 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092839 |
suicidewatch | Anxiouslyhoping | 2019/01/13 | I wish I could still help On a different account, I used to be the one to help. The one who at least try to cheer someone up or hear them out and tell them why they shouldn't end it all, why they shouldn't cease to exist. But the more I browse, the more I realize how relatable it all is, and how if I want to die, why s... | 7.884072 | 4.437527 | 7.735541 | 82.794446 | 64.876289 | 11.761856 | 32.497423 | 9.516145 | 2.381249 | 354 | 8 | 85 | 5 | 4 | 114 | 59 | 97 | 0.027 | 0.854 | 0.12 | 0.6676 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 26 | 17 | 8 | 2 | 10 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 14 | 1 | 11 | 9 | 5 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 64 | 19 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14484 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188273 | 0.189533 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160674 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160419 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.20446 | 0 | 0.243188 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139913 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.245854 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153707 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144873 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.317118 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.232478 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123164 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.313357 | 0 | 0 | 0.106999 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.491078 | 0 | 0.208611 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.257734 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | 2010fordescape | 2019/01/13 | I wanna do it but... I'm afraid of failing. I put some research into cyanide pills but they are $200 from shady websites and who know if they'll show up and/or work. I'm thinking of parking on the side of the highway and then jumping in front of a truck but I don't want to ruin someone else's career and give them PTSD.... | 1.476261 | 2.697536 | 2.933514 | 95.997748 | 77.783784 | 4.933333 | 24.495495 | 3.1291 | 0.024836 | 263 | 9 | 62 | 0 | 6 | 86 | 56 | 74 | 0.052 | 0.888 | 0.061 | 0.3869 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 12 | 9 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 11 | 11 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 39 | 10 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.332727 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.382084 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.218894 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.46559 | 0.4004 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.337477 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.255214 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.234927 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.289966 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | altered1187 | 2019/01/13 | turns out living with your ex is worse than you might think Stuck here for financial reasons. I know i have to move out but believe me when I say I've exhausted all options to leave and it won't work. Family moved out of state. No other friends. I'm so cut off from everything. I've got nowhere to go besides work and no... | 0.192284 | 1.973968 | 1.983929 | 98.743621 | 83.60733 | 5.487021 | 21.047396 | 6.596605 | 0.064753 | 673 | 21 | 168 | 7 | 19 | 221 | 110 | 191 | 0.229 | 0.597 | 0.174 | -0.9415 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 18 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 12 | 15 | 3 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 12 | 3 | 2 | 2 | 3 | 37 | 34 | 15 | 2 | 5 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 10 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 8 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 26 | 9 | 28 | 25 | 6 | 18 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 16 | 7 | 2 | 4 | 6 | 106 | 32 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126141 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100225 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137219 | 0.127814 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078546 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.252804 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160886 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10946 | 0 | 0.114816 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.376388 | 0 | 0.063632 | 0.116835 | 0.138436 | 0 | 0.097409 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122168 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.260764 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108255 | 0 | 0 | 0.066934 | 0 | 0 | 0.128961 | 0 | 0.249083 | 0 | 0.059502 | 0 | 0.107546 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129203 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.258894 | 0.089532 | 0 | 0 | 0.235257 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131314 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125224 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096855 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110876 | 0 | 0 | 0.125019 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15608 | 0.119661 | 0 | 0.071019 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132476 | 0 | 0.126791 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.287347 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112903 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177334 | 0 | 0.124118 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | missingdollheads | 2019/01/13 | I want to kill myself so badly I’m honestly not sure what this community is or what I’m supposed to write about, but I have no other outlet. I’ve had depression since I was young, I’ve gone to therapy, done prescription medication, and tried everything I could do. I have been really struggling these last couple months.... | 1.715573 | 3.402231 | 3.807425 | 87.980829 | 78.339207 | 6.830749 | 22.803744 | 7.734863 | 0.994658 | 842 | 26 | 182 | 13 | 20 | 288 | 118 | 227 | 0.318 | 0.623 | 0.059 | -0.9974 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 16 | 4 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 22 | 6 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 34 | 40 | 19 | 2 | 7 | 8 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 15 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 10 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 4 | 27 | 4 | 25 | 28 | 4 | 26 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 11 | 2 | 3 | 11 | 121 | 42 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122108 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103665 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194462 | 0.21296 | 0 | 0 | 0.262398 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100311 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185952 | 0.12885 | 0.127915 | 0.075101 | 0 | 0.100298 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119169 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098114 | 0 | 0.104658 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117761 | 0.083192 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107656 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.208632 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131458 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.257669 | 0 | 0.063998 | 0.094922 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113783 | 0 | 0.102827 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117311 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092949 | 0 | 0.171208 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088565 | 0.371733 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132545 | 0.074601 | 0.11973 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099448 | 0 | 0 | 0.116587 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096329 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089649 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097357 | 0 | 0.121739 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109753 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133171 | 0 | 0.077364 | 0.074616 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110381 | 0 | 0 | 0.237185 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.274741 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082723 | 0 | 0 | 0.07499 |
suicidewatch | Yeeticus-Rex | 2019/01/13 | I just really wanna die I’ve been feeling like this for a couple years, I’m 16, I’m gonna fail my GCSE’s because I havnt been in school fir the past few months because of my mental health and so my whole future is fucked. There was way too much pressure on me which caused a lot of my mental health to worsen, and each t... | 4.318457 | 3.662928 | 5.008573 | 90.545625 | 70.06383 | 8.184752 | 24.007979 | 7.168622 | 0.619347 | 507 | 9 | 122 | 4 | 8 | 164 | 90 | 141 | 0.204 | 0.716 | 0.08 | -0.9663 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 7 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 7 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 24 | 18 | 4 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 16 | 3 | 17 | 13 | 11 | 19 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 6 | 1 | 1 | 12 | 75 | 23 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153277 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188431 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158771 | 0 | 0.133136 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171012 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160404 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138904 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.234443 | 0.220829 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142884 | 0.080749 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.32857 | 0 | 0 | 0.103595 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109167 | 0.151016 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131397 | 0 | 0 | 0.103167 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.311511 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123365 | 0 | 0.113616 | 0.114601 | 0 | 0 | 0.164371 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147541 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099012 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156418 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169058 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180245 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.245358 | 0.123975 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.345111 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157505 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099529 |
suicidewatch | HazelTheFemboyFurry | 2019/01/13 | I feel like I just let everyone down with everything it do. The thing is that....I feel that everything that I do and say lets down everyone around me. My friends don't even talk to me. Never go out with me....and I'm here contemplating whether to live or not...I've tried to stop, it's not that easy. I just don't even ... | 0.913552 | 2.694995 | 2.40583 | 96.642838 | 81.162162 | 6.931274 | 21.382239 | 7.957252 | 0.641462 | 268 | 8 | 67 | 5 | 7 | 87 | 44 | 74 | 0.067 | 0.853 | 0.081 | 0.2486 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 16 | 13 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 7 | 2 | 10 | 11 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 44 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.203577 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182737 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.271163 | 0 | 0 | 0.392296 | 0.368974 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.207585 | 0.146648 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158594 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116662 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112813 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.419813 | 0 | 0.100287 | 0 | 0.181261 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15832 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.326484 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171618 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164991 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136375 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139368 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | ElegantBenefit1233 | 2019/01/13 | I just wanna fucking talk to someone who knows what its like I have spent the past 3 years of my life since trying to kill myself and getting committed building up some sense of normal. Because of this I've ended up with a group of "normal" friends, people who have problems but not like this. Now I'm back to breaking ... | 7.954857 | 6.36568 | 7.321905 | 79.971429 | 63.190476 | 9.542857 | 35.285714 | 7.554174 | 2.4882 | 421 | 15 | 82 | 3 | 5 | 131 | 70 | 105 | 0.141 | 0.751 | 0.107 | -0.5789 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 8 | 3 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 20 | 12 | 5 | 1 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 8 | 4 | 17 | 11 | 1 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 9 | 53 | 16 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179731 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155247 | 0 | 0.123075 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.21094 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178821 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192922 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102085 | 0.144235 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155985 | 0.186651 | 0.105483 | 0 | 0.114743 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.223369 | 0 | 0.110957 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142606 | 0.29591 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134768 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.395633 | 0.193726 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136811 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192734 | 0.13997 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193188 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.201952 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167012 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171067 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162277 | 0.176467 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117728 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137075 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130015 |
suicidewatch | lulu4478 | 2019/01/13 | Suicidal Ideation I've been struggling with clinical depression and anxiety for over 8 years now, there have been periods of a few years where I've been okay and others when I've been quite bad. I'm on medication now and my mood is generally fine.
I guess I've just been thinking about suicide a lot the last few months... | 7.789664 | 7.70825 | 8.16656 | 68.869228 | 62.761468 | 12.037309 | 39.267584 | 11.538035 | 4.777054 | 466 | 23 | 81 | 13 | 6 | 154 | 73 | 109 | 0.206 | 0.69 | 0.104 | -0.9214 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 10 | 9 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 1 | 9 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 22 | 17 | 8 | 3 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 5 | 3 | 8 | 12 | 4 | 14 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 10 | 53 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152646 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164202 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166606 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176475 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171884 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171861 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180493 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100892 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10425 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.219813 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.220759 | 0 | 0 | 0.16265 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16964 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.402026 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159269 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.212233 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159006 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.2086 | 0 | 0.436523 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.228189 | 0 | 0 | 0.127856 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.256991 |
suicidewatch | xrystalnack | 2019/01/13 | I am mentally weak. I feel I am a strong person in many aspects but when it comes to dealing with powerful emotions that are uncontrollable and intense I think about my 1911 just to not have to think. | 2.768077 | 5.287069 | 3.643269 | 86.307981 | 78.74359 | 6.976923 | 27.698718 | 8.076483 | 1.972379 | 160 | 7 | 31 | 3 | 4 | 51 | 32 | 39 | 0.125 | 0.699 | 0.176 | 0.2732 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 8 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 1 | 6 | 8 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 23 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.308949 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.369757 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.403438 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181346 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.363619 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.361439 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.313163 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.459623 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Quiversan | 2019/01/13 | I just give up, then remember I can't give up, and that conflict sends me down a terrible spiral I have truly lost the will to live. Completely. I don't see the point in going through a shitton of emotional pain for a bit of happiness. I don't see the point of myself existing- I wallow over the smallest things, and I b... | 0.813649 | 3.073646 | 3.197218 | 88.092674 | 84.776699 | 7.271929 | 22.548755 | 8.321377 | 1.519229 | 777 | 28 | 167 | 19 | 23 | 267 | 109 | 206 | 0.238 | 0.611 | 0.151 | -0.9751 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 33 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 10 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 0 | 20 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 30 | 37 | 15 | 4 | 8 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 28 | 3 | 26 | 30 | 4 | 19 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 15 | 10 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 114 | 34 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118321 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116962 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092286 | 0.224655 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.444752 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120511 | 0.094889 | 0 | 0 | 0.070761 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096285 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165543 | 0 | 0 | 0.205545 | 0.060887 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114046 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120748 | 0 | 0.143619 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113439 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.283803 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116949 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.250948 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113998 | 0 | 0.118959 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093545 | 0 | 0 | 0.202552 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115508 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.242723 | 0.091492 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170744 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090774 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11419 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080551 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14235 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072737 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.315951 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096672 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15221 | 0.117134 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | hopefullynotanicegrl | 2019/01/13 | This is for the people with families or people who care about them, who feel like ending it all I’m not posting on here to say that I’m suicidal, maybe that’s against the rules I’m not even sure. But my older sister attempted suicide today. I don’t know how much this will help anyone but I wish she would’ve come to me,... | 3.766572 | 4.343299 | 4.368928 | 90.367105 | 71.441472 | 7.317793 | 24.648997 | 7.168622 | 0.784707 | 1,125 | 29 | 251 | 10 | 20 | 358 | 150 | 299 | 0.123 | 0.737 | 0.14 | 0.047 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 23 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 2 | 14 | 13 | 3 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 25 | 5 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 59 | 58 | 20 | 2 | 8 | 14 | 1 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 28 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 12 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 10 | 36 | 7 | 28 | 41 | 5 | 26 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 31 | 10 | 2 | 4 | 12 | 163 | 64 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075035 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063054 | 0 | 0.148417 | 0.080277 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109943 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091942 | 0 | 0.095396 | 0.07768 | 0.094549 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159741 | 0 | 0 | 0.059561 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085011 | 0 | 0.136789 | 0.128846 | 0.259754 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166735 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072123 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181332 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148678 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097978 | 0 | 0.063695 | 0.132169 | 0 | 0 | 0.079804 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081389 | 0 | 0 | 0.182852 | 0.090596 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090878 | 0.095664 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132582 | 0.133731 | 0.069551 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095955 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125036 | 0 | 0.094216 | 0.296964 | 0 | 0 | 0.086365 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090653 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05777 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.215139 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076407 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197279 | 0 | 0.084991 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078819 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17973 | 0.115564 | 0 | 0.071591 | 0 | 0 | 0.170956 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106378 | 0.071579 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167191 | 0.081371 | 0 | 0.1037 | 0.086928 | 0 | 0.06565 | 0 | 0 | 0.384357 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Pupper_inapastlife | 2019/01/13 | Beginning to understand suicide I would have described myself as a happy, optimistic person a few years ago. Now, I am sad and cry almost everyday. I don't want to get out of bed. I don't want to go to work and when I do go to work I'm disciplined for poor performance.
I feel trapped in this job and in the house ... | 1.15328 | 2.467866 | 3.296129 | 92.66727 | 78.870968 | 7.091811 | 20.955335 | 7.882392 | 0.6077 | 547 | 14 | 133 | 9 | 13 | 187 | 92 | 155 | 0.16 | 0.701 | 0.139 | -0.7577 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 7 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 16 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 25 | 34 | 15 | 2 | 5 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 4 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 17 | 5 | 23 | 27 | 2 | 21 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 6 | 0 | 3 | 10 | 88 | 21 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121056 | 0 | 0.136749 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095489 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150009 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069051 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142698 | 0 | 0.31045 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13522 | 0 | 0.145375 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136985 | 0 | 0 | 0.315153 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.542074 | 0 | 0.151088 | 0 | 0.075052 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.246509 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10039 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119242 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138935 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137284 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149379 | 0 | 0.12871 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142168 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161098 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131643 | 0 | 0.19884 | 0 | 0 | 0.194022 | 0 | 0 | 0.175885 |
suicidewatch | Savingstobig | 2019/01/13 | Guilt I made some awesome friends this year and their super supportive and caring, and I know they would be crushed if I killed myself, but I still want to die. I feel so guilty and selfish. I fucking hate myself because even when things finally start going good I still fucking want to die. Depending on how finals go n... | 4.515581 | 5.362778 | 5.25604 | 83.700217 | 69.902256 | 7.414871 | 30.567251 | 7.38713 | 1.88795 | 524 | 21 | 101 | 5 | 9 | 170 | 87 | 133 | 0.366 | 0.47 | 0.164 | -0.9925 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 8 | 23 | 9 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 7 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 22 | 28 | 17 | 4 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 15 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 18 | 8 | 13 | 22 | 2 | 14 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 3 | 4 | 5 | 9 | 60 | 20 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161521 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134581 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163856 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137028 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115757 | 0 | 0.278969 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137523 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088769 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067956 | 0 | 0 | 0.294454 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103836 | 0.496997 | 0.070218 | 0 | 0.152764 | 0.112727 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132691 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133488 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.297384 | 0 | 0.073862 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127171 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149287 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098798 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142934 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14301 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144904 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095128 | 0 | 0.214662 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152514 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089288 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091248 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158544 | 0 | 0.107806 | 0 | 0.12084 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095473 | 0 | 0 | 0.086548 |
suicidewatch | EverythingIsSoSincur | 2019/01/13 | I wish I had the balls to kill myself If I did I would be out of here by now.
There is absolutely nothing left for me. It's impossible for me to get laid, it's impossible for me to get a job. And every "hobby" I used to have bores the shit out of me now.
The rest of my life will just be living off inheritance and w... | 2.055 | 2.665297 | 4.303929 | 89.141071 | 75.428571 | 7.742857 | 22.035714 | 8.076483 | 0.712586 | 392 | 9 | 97 | 6 | 8 | 137 | 66 | 112 | 0.174 | 0.745 | 0.081 | -0.8923 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 16 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 10 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 16 | 20 | 6 | 2 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 8 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 13 | 1 | 17 | 13 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 64 | 18 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191184 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.230341 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186996 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.347868 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.220244 | 0 | 0.245547 | 0 | 0.121974 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.241141 | 0 | 0.156765 | 0.10843 | 0 | 0.195979 | 0.196412 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.42592 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142182 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.211118 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.227821 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185554 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191687 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.255223 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157662 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | vomitserotonin | 2019/01/13 | Suicide by Respiratory suppression from alcohol and what other drug I have access to more alcohol than I could ever drink. I’m trying to kill my self painlessly. Are there any other OTC CNS suppressant drugs I could combine with alcohol to stop breathing? | 7.945333 | 9.535352 | 8.353333 | 61.89 | 62.555556 | 12.222222 | 37.222222 | 11.855464 | 5.345222 | 209 | 10 | 30 | 7 | 3 | 69 | 36 | 45 | 0.226 | 0.733 | 0.042 | -0.8834 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 5 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 7 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 22 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.639717 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135689 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.31862 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.195465 | 0.462788 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180488 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.220753 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.208155 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166818 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.218256 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135469 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | NETGEAR1993 | 2019/01/13 | Bird Box is an accurate representation of Suicidal thoughts I recently watched Bird Box and all I could think about was that this is what suicidal thoughts feel like. This overwhelming feeling that you have to kill yourself, that the peace you yearn is right their. People act like "oh just get over it, tryharder", no t... | 4.701584 | 6.954302 | 4.239156 | 85.661591 | 71.484848 | 7.623377 | 27.54329 | 8.418075 | 1.890965 | 709 | 26 | 134 | 12 | 14 | 213 | 102 | 165 | 0.145 | 0.769 | 0.086 | -0.9224 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 28 | 1 | 5 | 4 | 1 | 8 | 11 | 2 | 1 | 10 | 1 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 25 | 28 | 6 | 7 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 19 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 9 | 8 | 13 | 7 | 10 | 16 | 2 | 9 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 10 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 85 | 32 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.253924 | 0.284768 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081934 | 0.120063 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093557 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121612 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.195774 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118497 | 0.083712 | 0.112509 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061221 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.25928 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.228989 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110877 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118316 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090375 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124791 | 0.079403 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081236 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110771 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115699 | 0 | 0 | 0.100069 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.512695 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088103 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150166 | 0 | 0.279079 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159112 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140951 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105357 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085307 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.284768 | 0 |
suicidewatch | madlittlemarie | 2019/01/13 | I did it Last night I attempted and now I’m left with 1,000s of dollars in hospital bills, my stomach burns, possible liver problems, and sore arms. I came home to no power and a house that’s 45 degrees because I can’t afford the bill. I can’t even do suicide right. I will never be normal and I know it. I hate myself. | 0.860043 | 2.959971 | 3.113006 | 89.791642 | 83.179104 | 5.619616 | 23.004264 | 6.86897 | 0.796089 | 249 | 9 | 52 | 3 | 7 | 85 | 53 | 67 | 0.241 | 0.759 | 0 | -0.9393 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 6 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 10 | 4 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 4 | 6 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 33 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162209 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.304341 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175753 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.262713 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.266914 | 0 | 0 | 0.307037 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146239 | 0.216903 | 0 | 0 | 0.289112 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.205228 | 0 | 0 | 0.249712 | 0.260716 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.299982 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.254616 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.227243 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.291064 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | badluck_777 | 2019/01/13 | I don't beleive in "It Gets Better" meme anymore social anxiety depression ocd and many other things and problems in life( i have 0 friends online,0 in real life) because i have very bad anxiety i can't replay to messages online, i don't get out from my room since when i was kid... 7 years of social anxiety and depress... | 4.074071 | 5.71136 | 4.567619 | 85.215 | 71.833333 | 6.920635 | 28.412698 | 7.44753 | 1.663437 | 729 | 28 | 137 | 8 | 14 | 231 | 112 | 180 | 0.228 | 0.663 | 0.109 | -0.9711 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 19 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 16 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 17 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 21 | 27 | 9 | 3 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 9 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 24 | 6 | 15 | 21 | 3 | 12 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 13 | 6 | 1 | 6 | 7 | 82 | 33 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100053 | 0 | 0 | 0.081771 | 0 | 0.275961 | 0 | 0.238501 | 0 | 0 | 0.197902 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.200799 | 0.1466 | 0 | 0.102319 | 0 | 0 | 0.106347 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.207133 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123076 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079421 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113356 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092901 | 0.111164 | 0.188469 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128003 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080598 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106879 | 0.399099 | 0 | 0.066083 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.254797 | 0.058746 | 0 | 0.106178 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080264 | 0.121909 | 0 | 0 | 0.133565 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115378 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129644 | 0.230116 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136865 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099468 | 0 | 0 | 0.245149 | 0.101883 | 0 | 0.118925 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079885 | 0.077048 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081638 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099215 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108502 | 0 | 0.138276 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12254 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077434 |
suicidewatch | hayden3924 | 2019/01/13 | I really am considering suicide because my life is probably over Kind of a lengthy post, but the title says a lot. Back in November I was visiting a friend and on the way home from the store with them, I had a seizure behind the wheel, now we think related to an antidepressant I was taking that increases the risk of se... | 4.886685 | 4.314925 | 5.898556 | 84.357847 | 68.868421 | 9.42416 | 28.635589 | 8.936278 | 1.896329 | 1,971 | 58 | 445 | 31 | 30 | 657 | 227 | 532 | 0.161 | 0.772 | 0.067 | -0.9945 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 39 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 6 | 24 | 20 | 5 | 2 | 38 | 1 | 51 | 11 | 2 | 3 | 11 | 87 | 88 | 44 | 1 | 6 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 7 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 12 | 36 | 0 | 3 | 15 | 0 | 2 | 21 | 18 | 11 | 0 | 1 | 28 | 5 | 69 | 9 | 66 | 56 | 10 | 89 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 2 | 24 | 39 | 2 | 8 | 27 | 316 | 81 | 7 | 0 | 0.080609 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070463 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052046 | 0 | 0.067472 | 0 | 0 | 0.055986 | 0 | 0 | 0.077399 | 0.127841 | 0.052314 | 0 | 0.207365 | 0 | 0.057892 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138941 | 0.155626 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058605 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05432 | 0.075278 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.318942 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060258 | 0 | 0.075876 | 0.044936 | 0.061541 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062182 | 0.05787 | 0 | 0.074596 | 0.105126 | 0.062896 | 0.07109 | 0 | 0.193327 | 0 | 0.163239 | 0 | 0.074947 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060945 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136805 | 0 | 0.068244 | 0.135146 | 0 | 0 | 0.072832 | 0.384011 | 0.073489 | 0 | 0.067513 | 0 | 0 | 0.070847 | 0.112169 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144164 | 0.033238 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076113 | 0.148535 | 0.05784 | 0 | 0 | 0.045413 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068537 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157416 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144908 | 0 | 0.051743 | 0 | 0.079823 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071081 | 0 | 0.128628 | 0 | 0.065158 | 0 | 0.146705 | 0 | 0 | 0.068393 | 0.076214 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174338 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154139 | 0 | 0 | 0.108207 | 0 | 0.068854 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076859 | 0 | 0.056279 | 0.076473 | 0 | 0 | 0.057645 | 0.052376 | 0 | 0 | 0.048155 | 0 | 0.054332 | 0.05688 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074418 | 0 | 0.128243 | 0 | 0.102306 | 0 | 0.059465 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.043594 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070826 | 0 | 0.05876 | 0 | 0.056135 | 0.040128 | 0.054002 | 0.054573 | 0 | 0 | 0.063068 | 0.245561 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099059 | 0 | 0 | 0.048329 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | dastanhuck | 2019/01/13 | How do I meet new people? I feel like I'm not happy anymore with what I have and I want to meet new people to see if it gets better or to talk or make it more interesting or anything. But I'm not very charismatic. I try really hard to make people like me, but I'm just someone you talk to a few times and just forget aft... | 3.507712 | 4.118147 | 5.0625 | 85.038326 | 72.050847 | 8.272881 | 26.614407 | 8.472885 | 1.589844 | 440 | 14 | 97 | 7 | 8 | 149 | 64 | 118 | 0.082 | 0.747 | 0.172 | 0.8339 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 29 | 18 | 13 | 0 | 3 | 14 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 12 | 9 | 13 | 18 | 3 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 11 | 3 | 0 | 6 | 10 | 56 | 16 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142286 | 0 | 0 | 0.118065 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126889 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094762 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145088 | 0.204993 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110846 | 0 | 0.074958 | 0 | 0.081539 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152729 | 0.128523 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.280373 | 0 | 0.126689 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.287306 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.415699 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.298397 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091912 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114329 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.36469 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.345952 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140961 | 0 | 0.16732 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097408 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11838 | 0.169247 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Littlebigchief88 | 2019/06/20 | What should I do if I think my friend may attempt suicide soon? Title. I have a friend, named Hula Wickers, that lives in Texas, although I’m not precisely sure where. He’s going through hard times at the moment, I think he’s without a place, and he’s said some things, and sent me login info to some things like steam t... | 4.378689 | 4.959127 | 4.672254 | 88.726742 | 70.065574 | 7.411475 | 28.364754 | 7.168622 | 1.329882 | 471 | 16 | 100 | 4 | 8 | 148 | 83 | 122 | 0.086 | 0.795 | 0.119 | 0.6044 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 21 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 12 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 22 | 19 | 8 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 10 | 5 | 15 | 10 | 5 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 11 | 8 | 0 | 7 | 5 | 65 | 16 | 0 | 0.223599 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.204366 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.345504 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127077 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.200301 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109239 | 0 | 0.197442 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.233614 | 0 | 0.211374 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.212694 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.255968 | 0.244581 | 0 | 0.21074 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.297099 | 0.286547 | 0.219685 | 0 | 0.130383 | 0 | 0.211946 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.201043 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.215542 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Keeponeeerolled | 2019/06/20 | Probably gonna off myself on my 21st birthday or shortly after Not a troll and im not the best at typing shit out so here we go.So im about to turn 21 here in 8 days and ive told myself since highschool that if i make to this age and my problem doesnt get better then its time to go and thats really how im feeling.
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suicidewatch | DeepFriedAlt | 2019/06/20 | I feel like it won't get better even if I try to get my life back on track So I've been considering suicide for four years. Pretty much the only reason I haven't done it is because there's no way that isn't painful and messy. My family certainly isn't worth living for.
Right now I'm supposed to get my GED and go to co... | 2.54078 | 4.078983 | 4.227278 | 86.503385 | 75.637931 | 6.953176 | 23.848457 | 7.66913 | 1.055264 | 880 | 27 | 186 | 12 | 19 | 296 | 130 | 232 | 0.146 | 0.765 | 0.089 | -0.8571 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 24 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 12 | 14 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 0 | 28 | 6 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 34 | 47 | 13 | 1 | 8 | 11 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 5 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 11 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 5 | 16 | 8 | 25 | 38 | 3 | 26 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 8 | 15 | 119 | 25 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106677 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090836 | 0 | 0 | 0.148475 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089835 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083943 | 0.1823 | 0.066547 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09655 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11446 | 0 | 0.12244 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094026 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111716 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09669 | 0 | 0 | 0.144208 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098113 | 0 | 0.102913 | 0 | 0.055198 | 0.077989 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092858 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171106 | 0 | 0.124085 | 0.091564 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096536 | 0 | 0.097792 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125964 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194066 | 0 | 0 | 0.059996 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.385541 | 0.106667 | 0 | 0.28919 | 0 | 0.091673 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115809 | 0 | 0 | 0.087136 | 0 | 0.080251 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.232201 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166053 | 0.116162 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111062 | 0 | 0.104458 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109197 | 0.248513 | 0 | 0.112242 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186457 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173984 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114125 | 0 | 0.119411 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063656 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074117 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193169 | 0.086652 | 0.087567 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079475 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0703 |
suicidewatch | chyrd | 2019/06/20 | I think my wife wants me dead. My wife knows I have suicidal thoughts. Bouts of depression, and recently high performing anxiety. For the past 4 months she has been inundating me with stupid arguments. Over silly shit like bacon, jumper cables, her ex boyfriends suicide (he was diagnosed with stage four cancer and t... | 2.997715 | 4.7047 | 3.851664 | 88.963866 | 74.794702 | 7.083656 | 25.987285 | 7.839951 | 1.374147 | 1,179 | 42 | 246 | 17 | 25 | 377 | 154 | 302 | 0.157 | 0.787 | 0.056 | -0.9834 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 41 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 11 | 2 | 0 | 9 | 1 | 29 | 5 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 53 | 59 | 14 | 4 | 9 | 8 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 14 | 18 | 0 | 2 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 11 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 23 | 2 | 60 | 5 | 31 | 32 | 2 | 33 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 49 | 6 | 1 | 2 | 22 | 172 | 74 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069794 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075078 | 0 | 0.085292 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111231 | 0 | 0 | 0.10279 | 0 | 0.080689 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058839 | 0 | 0.07858 | 0.092601 | 0.094687 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081996 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.046131 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.051851 | 0.076523 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096394 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.195337 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10028 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064442 | 0.044573 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0609 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.218467 | 0 | 0 | 0.067649 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095735 | 0 | 0.061823 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174187 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093804 | 0.090083 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072553 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093651 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10213 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152552 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.199591 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079743 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060612 | 0.058459 | 0 | 0.36215 | 0.0532 | 0 | 0.259439 | 0.435892 | 0.101365 | 0.061942 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.322875 | 0.072418 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169151 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.26384 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06481 | 0.099751 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Mycatislayingonme | 2019/06/20 | My mental illnesses make me a bad person who no one wants to be around, makes me wonder if anythings worth it It feels like every attempt i make to be happy either fails or backfires horribly. I was optimistic as a kid that everything would work out in the end. I was a bullied and lonely kid ever since early elementary... | 5.012988 | 4.883198 | 6.301766 | 80.076086 | 68.550562 | 8.691065 | 28.750134 | 8.26906 | 1.860084 | 1,358 | 42 | 278 | 17 | 21 | 461 | 177 | 356 | 0.242 | 0.622 | 0.136 | -0.9927 | 1 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 26 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 19 | 27 | 0 | 1 | 15 | 1 | 33 | 7 | 0 | 8 | 3 | 74 | 70 | 23 | 2 | 12 | 17 | 1 | 5 | 2 | 3 | 5 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 19 | 19 | 0 | 1 | 14 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 8 | 11 | 0 | 4 | 10 | 5 | 39 | 16 | 47 | 46 | 5 | 27 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 26 | 14 | 0 | 11 | 12 | 193 | 58 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068483 | 0 | 0 | 0.055019 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.050583 | 0 | 0.131151 | 0.046234 | 0 | 0.054413 | 0.117726 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055209 | 0.120922 | 0.21908 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116959 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.33708 | 0.067926 | 0 | 0.056958 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052793 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056951 | 0 | 0.137249 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15499 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117129 | 0 | 0 | 0.087346 | 0.119623 | 0.055711 | 0 | 0.059426 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167167 | 0.094475 | 0 | 0 | 0.060435 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102172 | 0 | 0.034546 | 0.06343 | 0 | 0 | 0.052884 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070388 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065674 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.499963 | 0 | 0 | 0.058772 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071842 | 0 | 0 | 0.064608 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07218 | 0.056215 | 0.059678 | 0.062566 | 0.176548 | 0 | 0.066429 | 0.072026 | 0 | 0 | 0.133271 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052778 | 0 | 0.048607 | 0 | 0.050998 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134418 | 0.100578 | 0 | 0 | 0.073421 | 0 | 0 | 0.045841 | 0.288677 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066471 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066919 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054697 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056025 | 0.050904 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052805 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053147 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127105 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063183 | 0 | 0.044893 | 0 | 0.064592 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054558 | 0.195003 | 0.052485 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076037 | 0 | 0.143413 | 0.048138 | 0 | 0 | 0.046971 | 0.072294 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | TimeOpinion | 2019/06/20 | Brother Google Search History Suicide
I was looking through google search history as I searched something up and forgot about what I had searched up. The first result I found last night on Google was the Suicide prevention hotline of our country and a a visited link on thinking about suicide. I think its directly li... | 8.797303 | 9.161483 | 7.394697 | 73.750022 | 60.573034 | 10.266067 | 39.710112 | 9.888513 | 4.021497 | 806 | 39 | 133 | 14 | 10 | 242 | 104 | 178 | 0.157 | 0.843 | 0 | -0.9762 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 23 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 10 | 7 | 0 | 5 | 7 | 0 | 14 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 42 | 27 | 19 | 4 | 1 | 8 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 17 | 0 | 4 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 2 | 22 | 2 | 21 | 16 | 0 | 20 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 20 | 10 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 95 | 28 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.200246 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111455 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106537 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106496 | 0 | 0.274553 | 0 | 0 | 0.130825 | 0 | 0.071155 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133083 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206422 | 0.102055 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.210275 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126173 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099934 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117493 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.417063 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125348 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096386 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130887 | 0 | 0.547798 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100632 | 0.328293 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160447 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112974 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | brookeky | 2019/06/20 | I’m going to stop taking my meds. I hope to get so far gone again, I will finally just kill myself. I want to so much. I only haven’t because I’m afraid I’ll fail and just in a worst physically condition.
I just don’t want to live anymore. The good days don’t outweigh the bad. I want to say goodbye. | -0.087987 | 1.818807 | 2.568961 | 93.437727 | 85.515152 | 5.58961 | 20.034632 | 6.86897 | 0.231609 | 233 | 7 | 55 | 3 | 7 | 81 | 44 | 66 | 0.255 | 0.608 | 0.137 | -0.9062 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 7 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 14 | 3 | 1 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 8 | 2 | 6 | 12 | 2 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 30 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.253224 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.213195 | 0.15565 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16467 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.279708 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133402 | 0 | 0.145113 | 0.214163 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.253606 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.282491 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.225466 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.28362 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187701 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194194 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.203053 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.213472 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191981 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.451811 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Wannabe_Doctor | 2019/06/20 | How to Get the Balls to Actually Kill Myself? I've got the gun. My life is so empty and I feel aloof from anyone and anything. Things are going better than ever "on paper" but I don't want to keep doing this. It all feels so over, I don't want to live another 50 years feeling like this and die infirm, regretful, and al... | 3.960353 | 5.959038 | 5.089763 | 79.863874 | 72.878327 | 7.671552 | 27.163671 | 8.438072 | 2.020074 | 1,084 | 40 | 199 | 19 | 22 | 357 | 144 | 263 | 0.194 | 0.682 | 0.124 | -0.9707 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 33 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 11 | 14 | 1 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 17 | 9 | 5 | 4 | 4 | 44 | 47 | 22 | 2 | 4 | 7 | 0 | 7 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 12 | 14 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 1 | 1 | 8 | 7 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 27 | 10 | 29 | 43 | 6 | 29 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 0 | 2 | 16 | 128 | 39 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0.292513 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103484 | 0.110261 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067947 | 0.104771 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069864 | 0 | 0.082223 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07683 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085022 | 0 | 0 | 0.265105 | 0 | 0.22197 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101872 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079775 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103698 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083468 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180761 | 0 | 0 | 0.179597 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.353646 | 0.071381 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.313214 | 0 | 0.170355 | 0 | 0.079913 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088356 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100225 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106963 | 0.112794 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088811 | 0.110543 | 0 | 0.054912 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.211722 | 0.244071 | 0 | 0.088228 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094544 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077062 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.286146 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100444 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085328 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101853 | 0 | 0.076921 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15025 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06638 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058262 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117867 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111553 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064343 |
suicidewatch | Coreyjames816 | 2019/06/20 | This is the end I just found out my mother is on one of those swinger websites says she got a free pass. Welp time to kill myself now. | 0.294368 | 2.224805 | 1.20069 | 103.671609 | 84.172414 | 3.866667 | 16.563218 | 3.1291 | -1.295975 | 104 | 2 | 26 | 0 | 3 | 32 | 28 | 29 | 0.142 | 0.758 | 0.1 | -0.34 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 17 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.385382 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.47708 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.348 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.481389 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.294844 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.34602 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.253718 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Lukakitty | 2019/06/20 | I want to hurt something I get angry over the smallest things. Then my arms tense and flex as if I'm trying to defend myself. Then I want to break something, damage someone. Not kill? I want to break a TV, I want to smash someone's face in with a bat, I want to damage. | 1.374737 | 2.956964 | 2.933193 | 94.337684 | 79 | 4.56 | 20.17193 | 3.1291 | -0.470148 | 207 | 5 | 46 | 0 | 5 | 68 | 36 | 57 | 0.251 | 0.583 | 0.166 | -0.8505 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 7 | 5 | 1 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 10 | 7 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 27 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124945 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.256013 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.264582 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.405259 | 0.368216 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158879 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162366 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.705279 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | htsrhrthrrt | 2019/06/20 | Never been so unhealthy mentally and physically. (18m) About 5 months ago I was the happiest and healthiest I had ever been in my life enjoying new hobbies in a very good relationship with the love of my life eating really well while also going to the gym regularly. But 5 months ago my whole life crumbled I found out t... | 3.970952 | 5.829723 | 4.84375 | 82.228111 | 72.525424 | 7.899718 | 27.884887 | 8.598638 | 2.140506 | 1,206 | 46 | 226 | 22 | 24 | 391 | 172 | 295 | 0.169 | 0.714 | 0.116 | -0.9704 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 16 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 4 | 14 | 19 | 2 | 1 | 10 | 1 | 24 | 13 | 1 | 1 | 7 | 44 | 37 | 23 | 1 | 0 | 11 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 7 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 20 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 4 | 8 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 17 | 2 | 34 | 13 | 37 | 19 | 7 | 45 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 16 | 20 | 0 | 3 | 21 | 153 | 41 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156973 | 0 | 0.177323 | 0 | 0 | 0.070807 | 0 | 0.095935 | 0.107588 | 0.120423 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100729 | 0 | 0 | 0.073928 | 0.053974 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092919 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090411 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057102 | 0 | 0.076261 | 0.089868 | 0 | 0.092507 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.271826 | 0 | 0.086737 | 0 | 0.1812 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080091 | 0 | 0 | 0.238726 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097081 | 0.136814 | 0 | 0.046259 | 0 | 0.10064 | 0.222793 | 0.070815 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059348 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19128 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096201 | 0 | 0.187618 | 0.043257 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096654 | 0 | 0.079912 | 0.08378 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089196 | 0.089229 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.282692 | 0 | 0.130176 | 0 | 0.204866 | 0.085514 | 0.094165 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103884 | 0.098315 | 0 | 0.084523 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089009 | 0.099187 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170166 | 0 | 0 | 0.190121 | 0 | 0.075614 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179218 | 0.070556 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073242 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099115 | 0.06267 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09685 | 0.100476 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.219168 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079609 | 0.082079 | 0 | 0.098853 | 0 | 0.085351 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090231 | 0 | 0 | 0.107588 | 0 |
suicidewatch | UKnowIDont | 2019/06/20 | Losing my last hope... depression hits harder these days, noone to care, to talk, no real love, never a gf, failing uni, I feel just wrong here, should I exist? I kept going for some years, no change, why keep on going....
Methods are enough out there: [lostallhope.com](https://lostallhope.com) | 5.7425 | 9.04648 | 3.887333 | 84.291 | 72.75 | 5.506667 | 17.933333 | 6.742158 | 0.096578 | 228 | 4 | 37 | 2 | 5 | 64 | 43 | 48 | 0.23 | 0.601 | 0.169 | -0.4015 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 27 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 3 | 5 | 8 | 2 | 9 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 21 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.259814 | 0 | 0.269574 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164343 | 0 | 0.219483 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.263305 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128849 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.289649 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.253101 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.226503 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.207719 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.285087 | 0 | 0 | 0.229992 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.196539 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.29005 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.204821 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.229942 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.278614 | 0 | 0.164101 |
suicidewatch | blindfromabove | 2019/06/20 | Thank you. I’m new to this thread, I struggle daily with my problems and coming here to read posts puts things into perspective for me. But I wanted to say thank you for all of the people in the comments offering to talk and be there for others, even if they have their own problems. It’s appreciated people. | 5.3025 | 6.236102 | 5.796667 | 80.22 | 68.166667 | 8 | 26.666667 | 8.076483 | 1.606667 | 245 | 7 | 46 | 3 | 4 | 79 | 47 | 60 | 0.117 | 0.758 | 0.126 | 0.1531 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 7 | 4 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 2 | 11 | 6 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 36 | 12 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.207853 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159372 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.233043 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.334566 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.231093 | 0 | 0 | 0.461772 | 0 | 0.242567 | 0 | 0 | 0.241359 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191887 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.252253 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193943 | 0 | 0.444302 | 0 | 0 | 0.160305 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142321 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | MadMirza | 2019/06/20 | I am out of reasons to carry on. is there any reason for me to stay? I tried my best to find something to keep me going, but there simply isn't anything. It's just the same boring life everyday which gets difficult with each passing day. why should I carry on if my actions do not affect almost anybody positively but ... | 1.909706 | 4.068494 | 3.542902 | 87.829059 | 79.686275 | 5.648627 | 23.92549 | 6.742158 | 0.868871 | 395 | 14 | 78 | 4 | 10 | 131 | 73 | 102 | 0.183 | 0.659 | 0.157 | -0.4901 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 11 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 23 | 15 | 5 | 1 | 3 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 14 | 3 | 13 | 12 | 5 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 59 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.388464 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131906 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15962 | 0.172674 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.203559 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154869 | 0 | 0 | 0.125094 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177284 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14986 | 0 | 0.101341 | 0 | 0.110237 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206484 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172409 | 0 | 0 | 0.1066 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.210748 | 0.198347 | 0.137006 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.21538 | 0 | 0 | 0.134474 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.398865 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149327 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206745 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.212171 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.22621 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131692 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175027 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | slynn21 | 2019/06/20 | Suicidal even when I'm happy I've reached a point in my depression where I constantly think about CTB, even when I'm having a good day. Today was a good day, I spent it with family, nothing ruined my day, and yet I still want to ctb at the end of the day.
I try to function and be strong in my daily life, no one reali... | 3.667414 | 4.04249 | 4.729749 | 88.41729 | 71.562814 | 8.133127 | 23.347893 | 8.13951 | 0.939019 | 737 | 16 | 168 | 10 | 13 | 242 | 110 | 199 | 0.151 | 0.72 | 0.128 | -0.8759 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 22 | 0 | 7 | 6 | 1 | 19 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 16 | 4 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 35 | 32 | 20 | 4 | 7 | 9 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 3 | 28 | 5 | 25 | 22 | 1 | 32 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 15 | 12 | 0 | 5 | 19 | 111 | 31 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087756 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107749 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131572 | 0 | 0.136515 | 0 | 0 | 0.278908 | 0 | 0.103034 | 0 | 0 | 0.332899 | 0 | 0.111148 | 0 | 0.267861 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114297 | 0 | 0 | 0.170469 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.243308 | 0 | 0.1305 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.216477 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137373 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145678 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.273449 | 0 | 0 | 0.227902 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.199058 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123824 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087446 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089465 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121991 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110206 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103057 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141157 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097027 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165376 | 0 | 0 | 0.150497 | 0 | 0.122322 | 0 | 0 | 0.175229 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.228346 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116445 | 0 | 0.148398 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091671 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | CharacterBorder2 | 2019/06/20 | Why it always happen to me? Everytime when I'm trying to do something good, something bad happens to me. Nobody wants to talk to me and most people have fun hurting me... :(
I think there is no help for me... | 0.705854 | 3.106518 | 2.573854 | 91.214439 | 87.292683 | 4.25561 | 20.395122 | 5.683918 | 0.07726 | 157 | 5 | 31 | 1 | 5 | 52 | 31 | 41 | 0.211 | 0.617 | 0.171 | -0.2815 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 8 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 6 | 8 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 21 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.2368 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.237619 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.238698 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.503319 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190753 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.304657 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197297 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.438179 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.228741 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182352 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193216 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167857 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.256796 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | guiltthrowaway123345 | 2019/06/20 | Cheated on gf and now I hate myself. My girlfriend and I have been going through a rough patch lately and we got into a fight the other day over text while I was at work. We've not been very sexually active because she's been upset about everything lately. When I got home from work she had taken all the drawers out o... | 2.550545 | 4.614443 | 3.807879 | 87.192273 | 77.166667 | 6.363636 | 24.659091 | 7.348243 | 1.152 | 944 | 33 | 187 | 12 | 22 | 308 | 148 | 240 | 0.165 | 0.739 | 0.095 | -0.9336 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 20 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 14 | 16 | 9 | 1 | 15 | 0 | 18 | 7 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 39 | 35 | 16 | 2 | 5 | 7 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 8 | 16 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 15 | 2 | 34 | 2 | 30 | 16 | 4 | 32 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 20 | 16 | 2 | 2 | 14 | 134 | 42 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13944 | 0 | 0 | 0.13188 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081063 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139426 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085761 | 0 | 0.114535 | 0 | 0.138011 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11778 | 0 | 0 | 0.087832 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.239026 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127681 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15115 | 0 | 0.212711 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117593 | 0 | 0 | 0.131289 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133389 | 0 | 0.130958 | 0 | 0.142357 | 0 | 0.14364 | 0 | 0 | 0.118198 | 0.147122 | 0 | 0.146164 | 0 | 0.300013 | 0 | 0 | 0.13598 | 0 | 0.064967 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.290325 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14107 | 0.134271 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141425 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126944 | 0 | 0.116112 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135288 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113564 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138726 | 0 | 0.136501 | 0.110002 | 0 | 0.26615 | 0 | 0 | 0.102374 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152327 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11623 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088345 | 0.085208 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127067 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109722 | 0.078435 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193621 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | spidergirl713 | 2019/06/20 | Suicidal Teacher The pressures, the guessing games, and the harassment are too much to handle (along with having zero positive feedback). :(
It's a stay away from sharp objects and noxious chemicals kind of day. :'( Cause I'm going to do something impulsive and permanent. I just know it. I'm sure someone else on here... | 3.308793 | 6.476145 | 4.123707 | 78.410733 | 85.551724 | 7.037931 | 31.387931 | 8.076483 | 3.270821 | 260 | 14 | 39 | 6 | 8 | 83 | 49 | 58 | 0.233 | 0.683 | 0.084 | -0.8885 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 10 | 9 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 8 | 9 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 27 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.282682 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.309082 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19404 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.251343 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170994 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.331448 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.313315 | 0.165353 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.221178 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.254931 | 0.231628 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.320693 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.329109 | 0 | 0.283571 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | lynxxvii | 2019/06/20 | ... My first attempt was when I was 9. Feelings of hopelessness, nothing was real, i was stuck in an abusive family.
I woke up the next day, feeling empty. I tried to cut myself to feel something but still nothing. I cut my long hair with a pair of scissors to feel awake and in control.
I wanted to die so many times ... | 1.815874 | 3.543057 | 3.750913 | 88.315366 | 78.176829 | 6.475357 | 21.676198 | 7.372421 | 0.72234 | 1,225 | 34 | 259 | 16 | 29 | 415 | 169 | 328 | 0.156 | 0.737 | 0.108 | -0.9416 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 48 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 17 | 15 | 5 | 0 | 13 | 1 | 22 | 6 | 1 | 2 | 7 | 43 | 47 | 20 | 1 | 5 | 9 | 0 | 7 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 17 | 9 | 2 | 2 | 9 | 2 | 2 | 3 | 6 | 8 | 0 | 3 | 8 | 11 | 43 | 7 | 45 | 36 | 8 | 56 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 8 | 21 | 0 | 7 | 34 | 181 | 60 | 2 | 0 | 0.205247 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179412 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117801 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081377 | 0.133202 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097584 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07461 | 0 | 0 | 0.097145 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.335153 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089892 | 0.090493 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084849 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097429 | 0.230143 | 0 | 0 | 0.057208 | 0 | 0.072976 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163304 | 0 | 0.218973 | 0 | 0.083163 | 0 | 0 | 0.073674 | 0.104734 | 0 | 0.066918 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098449 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184404 | 0 | 0.25654 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058055 | 0 | 0.173762 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.047601 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094106 | 0 | 0.122356 | 0.08463 | 0 | 0.229445 | 0.076651 | 0.072734 | 0 | 0 | 0.073636 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087813 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069134 | 0 | 0 | 0.064223 | 0 | 0.083652 | 0.18423 | 0.081281 | 0 | 0.166217 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117384 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180142 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081878 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093384 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098586 | 0.166461 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098117 | 0 | 0 | 0.068879 | 0 | 0 | 0.13804 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06668 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06917 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065123 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101011 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058805 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153261 | 0 | 0.069476 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126112 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111553 |
suicidewatch | SdoobReddit | 2019/06/20 | Just you're average post Note before you read this I'm probably just going to sound like your average depressed teenager that thinks they're the only one with problems and honestly that's what I am. I am not going to lie I've felt like my life has been against me since the beginning. I was going to explain my life, but... | 1.911353 | 3.204779 | 3.507534 | 92.030741 | 76.785235 | 6.845861 | 23.154922 | 7.492282 | 0.737644 | 542 | 16 | 126 | 7 | 12 | 180 | 91 | 149 | 0.057 | 0.818 | 0.125 | 0.8074 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 14 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 14 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 21 | 27 | 9 | 0 | 4 | 7 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 3 | 18 | 5 | 14 | 22 | 3 | 17 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 79 | 25 | 2 | 0.164104 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114745 | 0 | 0.135044 | 0 | 0.153415 | 0 | 0.154181 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139641 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141343 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169563 | 0.183019 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160525 | 0.154703 | 0 | 0.082976 | 0.117236 | 0.157566 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198435 | 0 | 0.126786 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.279792 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189354 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133767 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.347735 | 0.240519 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158493 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111201 | 0.124809 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171454 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157166 | 0 | 0.176932 | 0.157026 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164149 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140144 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135749 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116154 | 0 | 0.131054 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131901 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105151 | 0 | 0 | 0.09569 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096793 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11947 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105678 |
suicidewatch | TieflingHamster | 2019/06/20 | Low grade........ So, does anyone else feel, kinda, low-grade suicidal, like, *all the time*?
I just feel so overwhelmed at the moment, and emotionally exhausted, and tired, and kinda numb, and I wake up every morning, and manage to get dressed most days, but every other thought in my head is like "I'm just fucking us... | 2.432931 | 3.855904 | 3.428339 | 92.598526 | 75.677852 | 6.17472 | 21.141499 | 6.627428 | 0.195731 | 1,117 | 26 | 248 | 9 | 24 | 358 | 154 | 298 | 0.207 | 0.747 | 0.046 | -0.9946 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 54 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 21 | 16 | 5 | 3 | 12 | 0 | 20 | 12 | 3 | 5 | 2 | 63 | 48 | 27 | 3 | 10 | 15 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 1 | 4 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 21 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 11 | 12 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 5 | 27 | 4 | 42 | 35 | 8 | 27 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 3 | 14 | 15 | 4 | 7 | 11 | 160 | 40 | 4 | 0.109322 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148685 | 0.114634 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.229321 | 0.112013 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102712 | 0.084062 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093025 | 0 | 0.114727 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188342 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070504 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191337 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126779 | 0 | 0.091324 | 0.122972 | 0 | 0.112959 | 0 | 0.144412 | 0 | 0.184217 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165829 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092989 | 0 | 0 | 0.084462 | 0.303199 | 0.171349 | 0 | 0.06213 | 0 | 0.087435 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112196 | 0.116204 | 0 | 0 | 0.073276 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126143 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120949 | 0 | 0.06008 | 0.089112 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106818 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072973 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121432 | 0 | 0.110171 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081061 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074079 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070034 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10945 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112217 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084161 | 0 | 0 | 0.077379 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.239161 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175738 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140098 | 0.107408 | 0.086789 | 0.19124 | 0.125649 | 0 | 0.104462 | 0 | 0 | 0.118911 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.257924 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098646 | 0 | 0 | 0.105382 | 0 | 0.079588 | 0.111022 | 0 | 0.077659 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | randomgirlwannadie | 2019/06/20 | question i think i'm weird. sometimes i think about kms in happy days. when everything went smooth, when i was so happy that i cried for sadness. in these days i think the most. my head, sometimes, makes me think that i'll never be happy like this, so what's the point of continue to stay alive if from that point and on... | 1.558537 | 3.613043 | 2.366037 | 96.35564 | 80.341463 | 5.563415 | 18.786585 | 6.627428 | -0.137541 | 311 | 7 | 70 | 3 | 8 | 97 | 55 | 82 | 0.117 | 0.701 | 0.182 | 0.8202 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 12 | 10 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 9 | 5 | 9 | 6 | 1 | 15 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 3 | 8 | 40 | 16 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180807 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179976 | 0.211333 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147253 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.523248 | 0 | 0 | 0.168152 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109822 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080046 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109368 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165437 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126367 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.309773 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183544 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104963 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.324094 | 0 | 0 | 0.174637 | 0.130847 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.419941 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151886 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | eloiseething | 2019/06/20 | Hopeless. For starters, I’m 16. Yes, that is ridiculously young thanks for noticing. But for the sake of sparing my feelings, please don’t invalidate my emotions by shitting on how young and stupid I am.
Long story short, I’m an online-schooled, friendless, reluctantly-employed, gloomy teenager with one suicide attem... | 4.256795 | 6.680818 | 4.463333 | 82.791923 | 73.305556 | 6.652991 | 30.521368 | 7.610547 | 2.166923 | 616 | 28 | 106 | 8 | 13 | 192 | 96 | 144 | 0.282 | 0.625 | 0.092 | -0.9872 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 29 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 9 | 3 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 12 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 17 | 22 | 7 | 5 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 7 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 5 | 12 | 2 | 15 | 20 | 1 | 14 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 10 | 68 | 20 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134741 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183726 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150926 | 0 | 0.181861 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19711 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115738 | 0.158506 | 0 | 0.16744 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.265805 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155073 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.199501 | 0 | 0 | 0.237481 | 0.399812 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19235 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178272 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173019 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13935 | 0 | 0.177342 | 0.139636 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179871 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.383347 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161329 | 0 | 0 | 0.116415 | 0.11228 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103355 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157553 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Ux_7e | 2019/06/20 | Please give me coping methods I’m ready to kill my self, and I want to kill myself but my mom would have such a panic attack and I dont want her to think it was her fault. That is literally the only thing stopping me. If she were to die tomorrow so would I. I just need coping methods | 0.145667 | 2.299127 | 2.316768 | 93.973607 | 86.868852 | 4.79719 | 16.911007 | 6.182691 | -0.400758 | 223 | 5 | 50 | 2 | 7 | 75 | 46 | 61 | 0.334 | 0.586 | 0.08 | -0.9723 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 13 | 5 | 3 | 6 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 12 | 0 | 4 | 9 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 35 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.250095 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.228155 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.257646 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.210887 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.486432 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.257469 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163006 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167195 | 0 | 0.25793 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.241314 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.229337 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183793 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146049 | 0.140862 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.25933 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.312331 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Eqqrollcs | 2019/06/20 | If you think suicide is the answer you deserve to die. All other organs: working their asses off to keep me alive
Brain: how about you kill yourself
All other organs: Excuse me what the fuck | 2.825833 | 5.574429 | 3.325556 | 87.25 | 80.388889 | 3.6 | 20.111111 | 3.1291 | -0.199922 | 151 | 4 | 25 | 0 | 4 | 47 | 28 | 36 | 0.329 | 0.594 | 0.077 | -0.9403 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 7 | 4 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 20 | 9 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.412352 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.383359 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.341487 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.328323 | 0.408666 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.404043 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.236685 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.268914 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | ifeelitmrkrabz | 2019/06/20 | have a great day fellow redditor :) sorry guys. i'm writing this after i wrote that shit down there. it took me a long time to write and i don't even know why i did that. that's just some of my thoughts rn. if you can read and understand something i'd really really appreciate you giving some advice cus i'm really lost ... | -0.031848 | 2.254651 | 2.206967 | 93.0744 | 90.437126 | 5.382426 | 17.647681 | 6.92651 | 0.123357 | 1,242 | 33 | 274 | 19 | 43 | 418 | 165 | 334 | 0.125 | 0.727 | 0.147 | 0.7636 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 41 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 4 | 18 | 14 | 3 | 0 | 14 | 1 | 29 | 8 | 2 | 1 | 4 | 57 | 61 | 20 | 1 | 11 | 13 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 15 | 12 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 14 | 6 | 0 | 3 | 12 | 6 | 43 | 8 | 27 | 45 | 6 | 39 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 20 | 11 | 2 | 11 | 24 | 178 | 58 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084223 | 0.076401 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058612 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070926 | 0 | 0.080575 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05254 | 0 | 0.146681 | 0 | 0.09045 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166755 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088201 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170781 | 0.155926 | 0 | 0 | 0.232384 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.04358 | 0.061574 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06659 | 0 | 0.04503 | 0.08268 | 0.14695 | 0 | 0.068933 | 0.095024 | 0.094947 | 0.085341 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057771 | 0 | 0 | 0.085605 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085529 | 0.076609 | 0.095356 | 0 | 0.094735 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093645 | 0 | 0.365268 | 0.084215 | 0 | 0.152213 | 0.076275 | 0 | 0 | 0.188171 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057532 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100944 | 0.068795 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166484 | 0 | 0 | 0.084447 | 0 | 0 | 0.090441 | 0 | 0.175212 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059753 | 0 | 0.090049 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086212 | 0 | 0.165645 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073605 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.348912 | 0.068682 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176944 | 0.071297 | 0 | 0 | 0.087859 | 0 | 0.066353 | 0.085243 | 0.096482 | 0.12201 | 0 | 0.068831 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11452 | 0 | 0 | 0.136849 | 0.150773 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095759 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179452 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.050837 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077772 | 0 | 0 | 0.083083 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061226 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | katekevins | 2019/06/20 | Suicidal Ideations I've been looking this up because I most definitely have it, and it's been EXTREMELY hard to deal with over the past few weeks - slowly becoming a large problem in my life. I've always found that whenever I do look up tips on how to deal with depression/thoughts or whatever, the advice given makes me... | 9.288 | 7.18759 | 8.787222 | 72.1375 | 61 | 12.555556 | 42.5 | 11.208143 | 4.657667 | 372 | 18 | 70 | 8 | 4 | 119 | 68 | 90 | 0.217 | 0.739 | 0.045 | -0.9554 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 19 | 15 | 7 | 3 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 3 | 8 | 0 | 12 | 10 | 2 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 44 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179621 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152948 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182294 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112051 | 0.203008 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.379008 | 0 | 0 | 0.381539 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121407 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.201542 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164661 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101019 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129833 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.308714 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122697 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124557 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175471 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175885 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117756 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141509 | 0 | 0 | 0.130104 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.201062 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160661 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.291855 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.216836 | 0 | 0.147444 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | inimrabasharat | 2019/06/20 | Is it okay to tell the same person im suicidal everytime? I have a lot of friends but just one best friend. If i feel like killing myself she's the only one ill sometimes tell other than my therapist. She doesn't have to talk me out of it because they're only ideations i share rather than saying im about to kill myself... | 1.358058 | 3.059648 | 3.194154 | 91.90271 | 79.451128 | 6.839348 | 21.609649 | 7.793538 | 0.753622 | 487 | 14 | 112 | 8 | 12 | 163 | 78 | 133 | 0.252 | 0.564 | 0.184 | -0.9628 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 14 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 10 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 22 | 13 | 8 | 5 | 3 | 9 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 11 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 15 | 9 | 18 | 12 | 4 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 14 | 4 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 80 | 26 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079324 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136559 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13505 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085947 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131591 | 0.185924 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.20107 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139303 | 0 | 0.562234 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.28793 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127146 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110629 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095658 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.26453 | 0.197933 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.227242 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111127 | 0 | 0.103481 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133573 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128698 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.284674 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10459 | 0.227472 | 0 | 0 | 0.151086 | 0 | 0 | 0.127848 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Xuiop | 2019/06/20 | I'm going to do it now:( I have no purpose in society, when I've deleted my account from reddit, YouTube, other shit, I will disappear from the world forever, I will kill myself. Bye forever. | 3.576667 | 5.319631 | 5.803784 | 75.419369 | 73.324324 | 9.257658 | 33.954955 | 9.725611 | 3.785512 | 148 | 8 | 26 | 4 | 3 | 52 | 30 | 37 | 0.307 | 0.693 | 0 | -0.9081 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 19 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.352413 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.686041 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.636516 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | TA23669 | 2019/06/20 | Perfect life with the expectation to be perfect My life is pretty rad. I'm in school and work part time. My parents offered to pay for my school, but student loans gives me grants that I don't need so I told them that I was going to use the grants to pay back the loan when I'm done school and they could cover the diffe... | 2.625701 | 3.407281 | 4.23845 | 89.4992 | 74.246637 | 6.471861 | 21.560818 | 6.322622 | 0.179834 | 809 | 17 | 184 | 5 | 16 | 272 | 131 | 223 | 0.16 | 0.699 | 0.141 | -0.7626 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 18 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 6 | 7 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 12 | 0 | 20 | 8 | 3 | 1 | 5 | 29 | 38 | 15 | 2 | 8 | 6 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 8 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 2 | 27 | 6 | 22 | 25 | 4 | 21 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 7 | 0 | 3 | 13 | 114 | 35 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099795 | 0 | 0.079114 | 0 | 0.110435 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144159 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103621 | 0 | 0 | 0.083699 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135595 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132813 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1328 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117396 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065622 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118619 | 0.110393 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124499 | 0.147517 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12781 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143585 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183338 | 0.063405 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13079 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095405 | 0.096232 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121792 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098705 | 0 | 0 | 0.144108 | 0.140542 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.396106 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110834 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.525387 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107357 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141961 | 0 | 0.122318 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086222 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151354 | 0 | 0 | 0.124013 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11209 | 0 | 0 | 0.229647 | 0 | 0.104104 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094483 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Jtesi8 | 2019/06/20 | I'm done My love doesn't care about me or my feelings. Nobody gives a fuck. Just deciding how to do it. Any suggestions? Off a bridge or into a wall at 160? | -1.973137 | -0.269673 | 0.849412 | 99.065686 | 106.647059 | 4.619608 | 14.490196 | 6.427356 | -0.434004 | 120 | 3 | 29 | 2 | 6 | 41 | 30 | 34 | 0.177 | 0.709 | 0.114 | -0.3156 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 9 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 5 | 8 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 19 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.292793 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.438981 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.440609 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.217702 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.398043 | 0 | 0.413029 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.388594 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | filthycutesysum | 2019/06/20 | i need a reason to live I don’t want to get too much about my life nor myself as a whole but I’ll give a brief overview.
I’m a female and 15.
I despise most girls my age since they fake depression/anxiety and don’t know genuine hardships and pain and as someone who has been through a few it annoys me that this happens... | 2.908057 | 4.691094 | 4.615074 | 83.07105 | 75.228893 | 7.514513 | 28.917615 | 8.309217 | 2.129237 | 2,084 | 91 | 413 | 37 | 45 | 704 | 247 | 533 | 0.19 | 0.718 | 0.092 | -0.9969 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 46 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 7 | 22 | 20 | 9 | 2 | 24 | 1 | 48 | 11 | 0 | 11 | 4 | 82 | 88 | 44 | 3 | 9 | 9 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 7 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 24 | 31 | 2 | 8 | 13 | 1 | 2 | 6 | 15 | 15 | 0 | 3 | 13 | 3 | 70 | 5 | 66 | 69 | 9 | 51 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 25 | 26 | 2 | 7 | 18 | 297 | 94 | 5 | 0 | 0.085621 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14123 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115578 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110563 | 0 | 0.071666 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06433 | 0.067557 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176205 | 0 | 0 | 0.162833 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075767 | 0.156183 | 0.08105 | 0 | 0 | 0.079378 | 0 | 0 | 0.062241 | 0.073346 | 0 | 0.0755 | 0.08282 | 0.073965 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070791 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081287 | 0 | 0.074668 | 0.080593 | 0.143188 | 0 | 0.121771 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136248 | 0.081317 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066048 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066807 | 0.07551 | 0.138644 | 0.082138 | 0 | 0.057796 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127805 | 0 | 0.064734 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096874 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.449619 | 0.079949 | 0 | 0.158857 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153126 | 0 | 0 | 0.255241 | 0 | 0.060683 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068378 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072798 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053122 | 0.107165 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138678 | 0 | 0.075829 | 0 | 0.048968 | 0.10992 | 0.076894 | 0 | 0.08024 | 0 | 0.068984 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158648 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082252 | 0 | 0.074299 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061713 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073135 | 0 | 0.065786 | 0.075387 | 0.081637 | 0 | 0.119555 | 0.081227 | 0 | 0 | 0.061229 | 0.111264 | 0.071471 | 0 | 0 | 0.077023 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082725 | 0.158089 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096018 | 0.138911 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.049062 | 0.078602 | 0.141182 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170492 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08068 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.051334 | 0 | 0 | 0.046535 |
suicidewatch | Throwaway02936474775 | 2019/06/20 | I'm going to do it now. Goodbye, When I've deleted my account, I'm gone from this cruel world, Thanks for people helping me I appreciate it, however the damage is beyond repair, I can't do it any longer I have to kill myself now. Bye forever. | 0.540467 | 2.874559 | 3.708 | 83.320667 | 87.2 | 5.733333 | 22.333333 | 7.168622 | 1.140733 | 189 | 7 | 36 | 3 | 6 | 68 | 39 | 50 | 0.217 | 0.647 | 0.136 | -0.765 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 5 | 9 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 24 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.349449 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.292044 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.344436 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.568521 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.356253 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.473103 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | anonymous_user_3849 | 2019/06/20 | I don't understand My parents care about me, I have a good amount of friends, I live comfortably, but somehow I still want to die.
I hate everything about myself. I can be having a great time somewhere, but as soon as I'm alone, I just get so suicidal and cry and get so mad at everything, and even though it all comes o... | 2.308219 | 3.44303 | 3.90753 | 90.201943 | 75.477733 | 7.305263 | 23.931174 | 7.854513 | 1.007588 | 904 | 27 | 206 | 13 | 19 | 302 | 125 | 247 | 0.196 | 0.584 | 0.219 | 0.3821 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 34 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 26 | 21 | 4 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 20 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 50 | 53 | 21 | 3 | 4 | 15 | 1 | 4 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 13 | 0 | 2 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 13 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 34 | 14 | 21 | 44 | 5 | 23 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 7 | 0 | 2 | 16 | 132 | 41 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189345 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095851 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081374 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095929 | 0.080844 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093198 | 0 | 0 | 0.157482 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100409 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094869 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.301875 | 0.082685 | 0.077016 | 0.087346 | 0.164306 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184877 | 0.195909 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070623 | 0 | 0.143273 | 0 | 0 | 0.15334 | 0 | 0.100779 | 0 | 0 | 0.080833 | 0.097307 | 0 | 0.180496 | 0.093812 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097856 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101131 | 0 | 0.050236 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178632 | 0 | 0.080716 | 0.080894 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082501 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099572 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141001 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08771 | 0 | 0 | 0.097348 | 0 | 0 | 0.097266 | 0 | 0.101499 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058559 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09536 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180812 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073 | 0.152845 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099987 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073471 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106133 | 0.121457 | 0 | 0.179619 | 0.072569 | 0.053302 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062061 | 0.099427 | 0 | 0.285481 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.215663 | 0.072557 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.329931 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | iHateDictations | 2019/06/20 | I have to do it today The only thing I ever wanted was to matter to someone. I pursued crazy dreams just with the hope that someone would appreciate what I was doing, like producing music, writing poetry and aspiring to write books. Here I am as a 20 year old music major in college. In the end, people only liked what I... | 3.22236 | 3.936979 | 5.284215 | 82.805567 | 72.783784 | 7.917718 | 25.5858 | 8.167269 | 1.47866 | 960 | 29 | 202 | 14 | 18 | 335 | 141 | 259 | 0.122 | 0.765 | 0.114 | -0.8417 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 29 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 17 | 13 | 0 | 1 | 15 | 0 | 23 | 3 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 44 | 38 | 19 | 2 | 5 | 8 | 3 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 10 | 3 | 34 | 10 | 26 | 25 | 5 | 23 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 11 | 8 | 0 | 4 | 17 | 146 | 45 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11274 | 0 | 0 | 0.184279 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094739 | 0 | 0 | 0.120617 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082595 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142191 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140619 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157128 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.240012 | 0 | 0 | 0.089491 | 0.12256 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12773 | 0 | 0.068509 | 0 | 0 | 0.148425 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14926 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121374 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134574 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074463 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198584 | 0 | 0.239284 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147906 | 0 | 0.122287 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1045 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142176 | 0 | 0 | 0.309144 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093933 | 0.118307 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0868 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135651 | 0 | 0.10797 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.344406 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144417 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148206 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108903 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090015 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128431 | 0 | 0 | 0.183981 | 0.147377 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079917 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121824 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19728 | 0 | 0 | 0.09625 | 0 | 0 | 0.174505 |
suicidewatch | js_lubberkin | 2019/06/20 | Just to vent I'm 29 years old, I've been in depression since I'm 21. I'm a smart person, who had an easy ticket to a good life but I threw all that away. I found University easy, and was doing great, but I stopped going to classes, I felt out of place... I simply couldn't stand my anxiety when trying to go to class so ... | 1.173421 | 2.718841 | 2.996079 | 93.827452 | 79.469208 | 5.602385 | 17.81828 | 6.2581 | -0.360007 | 1,225 | 22 | 285 | 9 | 30 | 409 | 182 | 341 | 0.105 | 0.706 | 0.189 | 0.9834 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 36 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 12 | 16 | 2 | 0 | 16 | 0 | 23 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 6 | 61 | 47 | 25 | 2 | 9 | 10 | 0 | 6 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 14 | 19 | 0 | 2 | 10 | 3 | 9 | 9 | 11 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 22 | 8 | 38 | 11 | 44 | 18 | 13 | 63 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 20 | 0 | 6 | 34 | 188 | 52 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079381 | 0 | 0.089672 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149027 | 0 | 0 | 0.060898 | 0 | 0.068506 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073693 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084136 | 0.137718 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076201 | 0 | 0 | 0.0792 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071499 | 0 | 0 | 0.288764 | 0 | 0.07713 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091641 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081004 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090559 | 0.063975 | 0.343931 | 0 | 0 | 0.076172 | 0 | 0.098188 | 0 | 0 | 0.046787 | 0 | 0.203575 | 0.075111 | 0.071622 | 0.09873 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060024 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088189 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088865 | 0 | 0.099075 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202034 | 0 | 0.097297 | 0 | 0.063252 | 0.175 | 0 | 0.15815 | 0 | 0.0752 | 0 | 0 | 0.076133 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069067 | 0 | 0 | 0.084037 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093968 | 0 | 0 | 0.068107 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085486 | 0 | 0.078192 | 0.093561 | 0 | 0.084654 | 0 | 0.085765 | 0 | 0 | 0.085688 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095248 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092073 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071214 | 0 | 0.36252 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148155 | 0.100659 | 0.089615 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100245 | 0 | 0.095449 | 0.071515 | 0.149737 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059494 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052218 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060799 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071081 | 0.071832 | 0 | 0 | 0.083014 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130388 | 0 | 0 | 0.063614 | 0 | 0 | 0.288339 |
suicidewatch | SirCloud | 2019/06/20 | Today is the day where I gave up on life Hello reddit,
I don't even know why I'm writing this (Maybe I just want to vent). I'm 28, I might be homeless in a month, I work in a job that makes me absolutely depressed, I didn't pay attention in school back then so I have no other choice than working in said shitty job, I ... | 3.506034 | 5.120925 | 4.675954 | 83.959343 | 73.252336 | 7.93249 | 28.242441 | 8.583994 | 2.102159 | 1,694 | 67 | 335 | 31 | 34 | 557 | 203 | 428 | 0.177 | 0.741 | 0.082 | -0.9915 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 44 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 20 | 14 | 3 | 0 | 21 | 0 | 35 | 14 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 55 | 79 | 23 | 2 | 7 | 9 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 19 | 19 | 0 | 4 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 16 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 18 | 7 | 61 | 6 | 48 | 50 | 1 | 53 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 2 | 32 | 23 | 0 | 8 | 25 | 229 | 80 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0.0721 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076521 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160106 | 0.179554 | 0.050244 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146546 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056812 | 0 | 0.090078 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077537 | 0.065344 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075444 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.232398 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.047649 | 0 | 0.063636 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075609 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083109 | 0.196318 | 0 | 0 | 0.0488 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.199206 | 0 | 0.139302 | 0 | 0.074716 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057083 | 0 | 0.115804 | 0.141752 | 0.12597 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065335 | 0 | 0.066185 | 0 | 0.075826 | 0 | 0 | 0.175106 | 0.099046 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.219955 | 0.131343 | 0.081742 | 0 | 0.081209 | 0 | 0 | 0.078232 | 0 | 0.075551 | 0.260932 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080653 | 0 | 0.133366 | 0 | 0.049318 | 0 | 0.074226 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.235137 | 0 | 0 | 0.117947 | 0 | 0 | 0.054784 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077193 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094664 | 0 | 0 | 0.079324 | 0 | 0 | 0.07028 | 0 | 0 | 0.074774 | 0.117752 | 0 | 0 | 0.083468 | 0 | 0.061118 | 0 | 0 | 0.075315 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082707 | 0 | 0 | 0.059004 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080817 | 0.083843 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.047342 | 0 | 0.117311 | 0 | 0.169837 | 0.280133 | 0.141198 | 0 | 0.050162 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174315 | 0.058646 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066669 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161365 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179554 | 0.047579 |
suicidewatch | EuphoricEstimate | 2019/06/20 | I'm a little tired. Here's my note. I want to rest deep within the earth, gentle wind blowing the grass above me, soul at ease. Never another yesterday, never another tomorrow. I wish so much you wouldn't cry, I am in Papa's arms again, and my love for you is everlasting.
Goodnight. | 1.824345 | 4.233542 | 3.853571 | 84.058095 | 81.678571 | 7.304762 | 21.833333 | 8.3441 | 1.523569 | 221 | 7 | 43 | 5 | 6 | 75 | 47 | 56 | 0.082 | 0.691 | 0.227 | 0.8219 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 7 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 1 | 5 | 6 | 2 | 10 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 27 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.574301 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.300806 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.274465 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.247156 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.201308 | 0 | 0.422412 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.314745 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161521 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.314908 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | salmonslatestfuckup | 2019/06/20 | update after my final I did it. I got my boyfriend some of his favourite snacks to apologize for being annoying. He told me to fuck off and to never text him again. I got home and poured myself a glass of antifreeze. I didn’t drink nearly as much as I wanted to because the taste was so bad. I tried so hard to down it a... | 1.527009 | 3.197196 | 2.890235 | 94.418988 | 78.83871 | 5.799413 | 19.337243 | 6.574016 | -0.062619 | 456 | 10 | 104 | 4 | 11 | 148 | 84 | 124 | 0.243 | 0.692 | 0.065 | -0.9709 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 6 | 3 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 10 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 16 | 19 | 8 | 2 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 4 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 3 | 22 | 1 | 18 | 8 | 7 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 4 | 1 | 2 | 8 | 77 | 26 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139115 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170807 | 0.124704 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163332 | 0 | 0.224711 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.212311 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.200401 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.211375 | 0 | 0 | 0.185045 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.224096 | 0.186973 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189122 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.327227 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183255 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.2052 | 0.203184 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.226326 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.300765 | 0 | 0.157777 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17103 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.195475 | 0 | 0.13889 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120661 | 0.162378 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.235245 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | OrangePeelies | 2019/06/20 | I never thought I would end up this way. I’ve been depressed and suicidal since I was about 14 years old. I am now 18, and I am done. I burn myself, can barely stay awake the entire day, and feel completely isolated. My therapist wants me to take medication, in fact I was supposed to start it three days ago. But I’m sc... | 2.437797 | 4.505657 | 4.214872 | 84.121944 | 77.532609 | 7.590281 | 25.497442 | 8.495291 | 1.802901 | 721 | 27 | 147 | 15 | 17 | 243 | 106 | 184 | 0.206 | 0.736 | 0.059 | -0.9765 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 30 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 9 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 23 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 34 | 39 | 14 | 5 | 7 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 2 | 24 | 3 | 19 | 22 | 3 | 23 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 15 | 102 | 29 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101742 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091786 | 0.191006 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113827 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10151 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12034 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148042 | 0 | 0.098856 | 0 | 0.119119 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.234911 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101657 | 0 | 0 | 0.075808 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116068 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059966 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.227997 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08107 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115625 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177045 | 0.221703 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120438 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079571 | 0.100218 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114807 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114911 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094944 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081239 | 0.122336 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.502185 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086297 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133264 | 0.076252 | 0 | 0.112767 | 0.273358 | 0 | 0.131918 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119486 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067698 | 0.182208 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103567 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.244601 | 0 | 0 | 0.147824 |
suicidewatch | timmysaidwhat | 2019/06/20 | What do to do? I’m actively aware of my poor mentality and decisions.
I don’t feel the happiness I used to anymore.
I’ve been on antidepressants for 3 years.
School doesn’t make me happy anymore.
I care about money but not enough to the point where it motivates me.
I workout, eat healthy, and do something productive... | 1.350231 | 4.024002 | 3.325647 | 84.315765 | 89.24 | 7.741176 | 26.552941 | 8.495291 | 2.576812 | 507 | 24 | 99 | 15 | 17 | 170 | 85 | 125 | 0.195 | 0.688 | 0.116 | -0.9367 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 24 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 11 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 18 | 20 | 8 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 18 | 4 | 12 | 17 | 2 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 2 | 2 | 6 | 62 | 20 | 3 | 0 | 0.39152 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.32771 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168454 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.357091 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171473 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191604 | 0.169062 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170718 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083541 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086321 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.351762 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080719 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110286 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166504 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183458 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156187 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169875 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.334425 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127195 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105867 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142698 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131145 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106397 |
suicidewatch | tomparis37x | 2019/06/20 | Its my birthday today and I wanna kill myself So far today my own mother had to be reminded it was my birthday, my wife wont say it no matter how many times I prompt her to say it. I called out from work thinking I could do something fun with my family today and was made to feel like shit by fellow co-workers and my wo... | 1.705012 | 3.1593 | 3.580577 | 90.616506 | 77.706294 | 6.025408 | 21.007576 | 6.627428 | 0.287187 | 1,043 | 26 | 229 | 9 | 24 | 352 | 145 | 286 | 0.137 | 0.78 | 0.083 | -0.9676 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 26 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 10 | 15 | 5 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 23 | 7 | 4 | 6 | 5 | 49 | 42 | 22 | 1 | 5 | 7 | 2 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 19 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 6 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 4 | 29 | 10 | 32 | 27 | 5 | 27 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 13 | 4 | 5 | 12 | 138 | 41 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068813 | 0 | 0 | 0.067564 | 0.075771 | 0.042405 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153944 | 0.055511 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063674 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053715 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.049787 | 0 | 0.068496 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156274 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.041186 | 0 | 0 | 0.059585 | 0.056042 | 0 | 0.117569 | 0 | 0.063059 | 0.044548 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065158 | 0.059819 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.673563 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068989 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132134 | 0.091394 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177011 | 0.083248 | 0.06322 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.046237 | 0.096187 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.042255 | 0.094851 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059527 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117895 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062686 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053253 | 0 | 0.099178 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113535 | 0 | 0 | 0.192026 | 0.103165 | 0 | 0.062402 | 0 | 0 | 0.144017 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176312 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.039956 | 0 | 0 | 0.036361 | 0 | 0.177322 | 0.059585 | 0 | 0.042336 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.363173 | 0 | 0.063547 | 0 | 0 | 0.075771 | 0.040156 |
suicidewatch | Temryn | 2019/06/20 | I'm alone all day, and it's killing me Context: I'm 23, female, and still living at home.
My mom works full-time in a city that's an hour away. This leaves me, a non-employed non-student, home alone all day until she gets back. I used to be the type of person to naturally wake up at 9 or 10 in the morning just so I c... | 3.141604 | 3.923422 | 4.041952 | 91.387816 | 73.029126 | 6.944895 | 23.915634 | 6.953978 | 0.62401 | 1,528 | 40 | 346 | 13 | 29 | 492 | 216 | 412 | 0.082 | 0.852 | 0.066 | -0.5066 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 53 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 8 | 19 | 17 | 2 | 1 | 22 | 0 | 31 | 12 | 3 | 5 | 6 | 52 | 64 | 29 | 2 | 3 | 10 | 5 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 20 | 16 | 3 | 3 | 7 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 10 | 8 | 0 | 4 | 7 | 3 | 45 | 9 | 55 | 51 | 13 | 62 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 22 | 26 | 1 | 3 | 30 | 228 | 65 | 7 | 0.081526 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072268 | 0 | 0 | 0.168874 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067089 | 0.072576 | 0 | 0 | 0.306387 | 0.125378 | 0 | 0.099395 | 0 | 0.069373 | 0 | 0 | 0.072103 | 0 | 0.090557 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166243 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065092 | 0 | 0 | 0.262889 | 0.08405 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083446 | 0 | 0.08343 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053847 | 0 | 0.06869 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076856 | 0 | 0.041222 | 0.058242 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069346 | 0 | 0 | 0.062987 | 0.07537 | 0.170377 | 0 | 0.046333 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086786 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.245333 | 0 | 0.160574 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.217393 | 0.090197 | 0 | 0.134414 | 0 | 0 | 0.086325 | 0 | 0 | 0.115169 | 0.03983 | 0 | 0.143979 | 0 | 0 | 0.091207 | 0.088996 | 0 | 0.073581 | 0 | 0.163259 | 0 | 0 | 0.088806 | 0.090557 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.381931 | 0.065074 | 0.08665 | 0.119863 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110489 | 0.062005 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077826 | 0 | 0.071186 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081622 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081585 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065107 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093328 | 0.089177 | 0 | 0.076838 | 0 | 0.122595 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054163 | 0 | 0.080099 | 0.064723 | 0.142616 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079639 | 0 | 0.098066 | 0.070413 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099277 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091021 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118704 | 0.082794 | 0 | 0.057914 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | DigitalBathRx | 2019/06/20 | Every day is exactly the same I've been fighting for so hard for years. I'm just exhausted. I have nothing to live for. No family, one friend who I can't stand most of the time, and tbh my pets would be better off without me. To go to someone who can actually afford regular vet visits.
I've not had stable housing for ... | 1.623109 | 3.377353 | 3.667575 | 88.569636 | 78.84127 | 6.563461 | 21.699658 | 7.510576 | 0.698421 | 702 | 20 | 155 | 10 | 17 | 239 | 112 | 189 | 0.168 | 0.766 | 0.065 | -0.9694 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 23 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 11 | 1 | 1 | 10 | 0 | 21 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 22 | 31 | 9 | 1 | 3 | 7 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 10 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 8 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 3 | 11 | 6 | 22 | 18 | 10 | 20 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 5 | 0 | 6 | 11 | 100 | 21 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0.255374 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137204 | 0 | 0 | 0.129764 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11134 | 0 | 0 | 0.347168 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133406 | 0 | 0.138418 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.253155 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135798 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172845 | 0 | 0.220487 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12335 | 0 | 0.06616 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101091 | 0 | 0.136723 | 0 | 0.148726 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117212 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128857 | 0.150979 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106657 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133799 | 0 | 0.063925 | 0 | 0.11554 | 0 | 0.109878 | 0 | 0 | 0.111241 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131453 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096187 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12555 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088665 | 0 | 0.278459 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147077 | 0 | 0 | 0.110866 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136789 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09838 | 0 | 0.228731 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076297 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10386 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126131 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185899 | 0 | 0 | 0.252782 |
suicidewatch | Livingcharades | 2019/06/20 | Your daily post about suicidal thoughts over a girl Been friends with her for seven years, been in love with her for five. Expressed my feelings multiple times throughout our friendship, ultimately ending with us taking a break from eachother for varying amounts of time. This time I took a different approach and she wa... | 2.638234 | 3.971239 | 3.634916 | 91.691813 | 74.972696 | 6.597359 | 24.684523 | 7.07983 | 0.79645 | 1,101 | 35 | 245 | 11 | 23 | 354 | 147 | 293 | 0.198 | 0.647 | 0.154 | -0.9633 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 25 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 12 | 22 | 4 | 0 | 17 | 0 | 20 | 8 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 43 | 46 | 17 | 3 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 4 | 2 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 17 | 17 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 11 | 8 | 0 | 3 | 13 | 7 | 36 | 14 | 37 | 30 | 5 | 44 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 3 | 24 | 15 | 1 | 1 | 21 | 163 | 53 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111311 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116655 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.228384 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116138 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098455 | 0 | 0 | 0.14684 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.224823 | 0 | 0.106731 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.257645 | 0.102765 | 0 | 0 | 0.063175 | 0.093236 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118332 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122982 | 0 | 0.061091 | 0.18122 | 0.125393 | 0 | 0.120775 | 0 | 0.392577 | 0.108614 | 0 | 0.098156 | 0.098373 | 0.093346 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100326 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081715 | 0 | 0.2572 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106661 | 0 | 0 | 0.118382 | 0 | 0.084542 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105082 | 0 | 0.10646 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088399 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094185 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088772 | 0.092935 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121591 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083578 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.221549 | 0 | 0 | 0.176497 | 0.259273 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123503 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133712 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.196695 | 0.088234 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103046 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071583 |
suicidewatch | Killgorianking | 2019/06/20 | To make things clear Look i have nothing against depresed ppl and if ur suicidal GET HELP but i have been recieving a few hate comments calling me an idiot well allow me to explain for a post i made exposing the truth which is most of the ppl on here who say they will kill themselves wont prove me wrong if u can give m... | 7.492981 | 5.900375 | 7.158538 | 80.786462 | 64.096154 | 10.243077 | 34.261538 | 8.841846 | 2.606414 | 409 | 14 | 85 | 5 | 5 | 129 | 76 | 104 | 0.295 | 0.559 | 0.146 | -0.9809 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 10 | 6 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 18 | 19 | 8 | 3 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 11 | 2 | 11 | 12 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 11 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 57 | 16 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.354637 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090726 | 0.166583 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.514337 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116395 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.384241 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145824 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164314 | 0.115914 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133931 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166624 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13207 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151626 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166311 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138095 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189947 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115367 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156134 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.379723 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | thewaterqueen04 | 2019/06/20 | I think I need help... I’m still in highschool and being honest my life is okay... but I still can’t shake the thoughts that everyone i know is better off without me. I not at the point where I am actively searching for ways to do so, but I always have this little nagging “voice” telling me I’m better off in a casket, ... | 2.138635 | 2.880447 | 3.645757 | 93.440747 | 75.367521 | 6.873404 | 22.739065 | 7.048012 | 0.443125 | 829 | 21 | 201 | 8 | 17 | 275 | 133 | 234 | 0.086 | 0.76 | 0.154 | 0.9324 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 18 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 19 | 14 | 1 | 1 | 10 | 1 | 17 | 7 | 1 | 4 | 3 | 37 | 38 | 17 | 1 | 4 | 12 | 2 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 8 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 7 | 38 | 10 | 28 | 31 | 2 | 36 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 12 | 18 | 0 | 4 | 15 | 135 | 47 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105238 | 0 | 0 | 0.086008 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.284991 | 0 | 0.223716 | 0.138079 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138928 | 0.081567 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129417 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.334146 | 0 | 0 | 0.120854 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1279 | 0.090355 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132157 | 0 | 0.071879 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084774 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139016 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089334 | 0.12358 | 0.126762 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141495 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168848 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148127 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187561 | 0 | 0 | 0.134509 | 0 | 0.24784 | 0.121357 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085704 | 0 | 0.13458 | 0 | 0.140437 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119561 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081024 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100785 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126568 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202008 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119202 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.221092 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081041 | 0 | 0.100408 | 0.073749 | 0 | 0 | 0.120854 | 0 | 0.085869 | 0 | 0 | 0.131666 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.200782 | 0 | 0.154014 | 0.113717 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121919 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | honeyprawn | 2019/06/20 | I am one step closer Today, a few minutes ago, i told my mother i want to commit suicide. And she wasnt surprised. I am 34. I came back home from being abroad years, just 3 months ago. During these months i wasnt able to find a job, which makes me feel useless. A couple of months ago i was diagnosed as having early men... | -0.493145 | 1.638699 | 1.976925 | 95.199313 | 90.416309 | 4.930531 | 18.334912 | 6.48374 | -0.045755 | 837 | 24 | 191 | 10 | 29 | 285 | 133 | 233 | 0.169 | 0.686 | 0.144 | -0.8777 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 34 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 8 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 1 | 24 | 10 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 30 | 45 | 7 | 3 | 4 | 4 | 4 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 8 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 10 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 5 | 29 | 11 | 21 | 31 | 6 | 32 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 21 | 114 | 39 | 1 | 0.095239 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.337694 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064766 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094451 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146466 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099947 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108928 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10538 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.289996 | 0.197686 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.334858 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192622 | 0.068039 | 0 | 0 | 0.087047 | 0 | 0 | 0.104424 | 0.073581 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108253 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084219 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095532 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.411497 | 0 | 0.09451 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077632 | 0 | 0.100844 | 0 | 0 | 0.06727 | 0.046529 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080969 | 0.085957 | 0 | 0.063573 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.228056 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182768 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064536 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105751 | 0 | 0 | 0.066027 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061012 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075738 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078783 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067411 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104176 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071608 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.18055 | 0.091005 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.224697 | 0 | 0.076395 | 0 | 0 | 0.088287 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122661 |
suicidewatch | stitchitch | 2019/06/20 | I can tell when a character in a movie or TV show is about to commit suicide People seem to say that "they didn't see that happening". The reason they don't is they don't see all the prepatory signs. Like all of you, I know what it is like to be prepping for killing myself, and all the little in-betweens. For the most ... | 5.75952 | 6.078288 | 5.971982 | 81.535781 | 66.972973 | 9.550751 | 30.633634 | 9.444779 | 2.567957 | 596 | 21 | 117 | 11 | 9 | 190 | 96 | 148 | 0.118 | 0.801 | 0.081 | -0.8225 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 20 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 5 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 13 | 0 | 13 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 19 | 21 | 8 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 9 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 5 | 13 | 3 | 17 | 17 | 7 | 17 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 10 | 8 | 0 | 4 | 9 | 83 | 22 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147033 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175467 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182199 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.18658 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109555 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146677 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183509 | 0 | 0.091157 | 0 | 0 | 0.175631 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.243106 | 0.166244 | 0.146465 | 0 | 0.139288 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110719 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17962 | 0 | 0.229985 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166744 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10626 | 0.170541 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131906 | 0 | 0 | 0.264352 | 0.151001 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.328097 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.18988 | 0.362867 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144977 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162965 | 0 | 0.096719 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16203 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106814 |
suicidewatch | 1etcetera1 | 2019/06/20 | Suicide note “etiquette” Sorry for the poorly worded topic. Something I’ve been struggling with is whether writing a note for loved ones is really something that will be helpful or productive for them. Will having words for the pain I’m feeling make them feel resolved because they understand now? Or will it just be a h... | 6.730853 | 8.343605 | 6.465116 | 74.240155 | 65.356589 | 8.834109 | 35.263566 | 9.150863 | 3.353394 | 575 | 27 | 94 | 10 | 9 | 180 | 88 | 129 | 0.099 | 0.743 | 0.158 | 0.7882 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 1 | 6 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 14 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 27 | 26 | 9 | 1 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 13 | 4 | 14 | 18 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 15 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 66 | 18 | 0 | 0.197352 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157822 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134206 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185419 | 0 | 0 | 0.120304 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186046 | 0 | 0.299361 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152474 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174518 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.264562 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.216919 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.356235 | 0 | 0.131734 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133731 | 0 | 0.209996 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126429 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168537 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.303862 | 0 | 0.220919 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206315 | 0 | 0.215871 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133989 | 0 | 0 | 0.20545 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116403 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140193 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | InfinityTimeWarp | 2019/06/20 | My dad keeps saying he wants to commit suicide how should i handle this For contrxt my dad was in a bad car accident and broke the discs in his back along with nerve damages in his neck and back he is constantly in pain and the number of diagnoses and meds he has is not countable | 6.579474 | 5.748754 | 6.518246 | 82.171053 | 65.491228 | 9.705263 | 31.280702 | 8.841846 | 2.274081 | 224 | 7 | 46 | 3 | 3 | 71 | 43 | 57 | 0.285 | 0.666 | 0.05 | -0.9559 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 12 | 7 | 5 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 9 | 5 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 31 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.472509 | 0.256539 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.332026 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.31185 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.273096 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.341283 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.326933 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.244336 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.336079 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181223 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Orangerrific | 2019/06/20 | How do I go about informing a supervisor when I need to go home bc I start having suicidal thoughts at work without freaking anybody out? On my lunch break and have had a rough morning. Had a crying spell earlier and took a Xanax I happened to have in my bag. My manager already knows I'm having a shit morning and asked... | 0.666446 | 2.654725 | 2.906288 | 91.641237 | 83.147727 | 6.183838 | 21.141414 | 7.38713 | 0.657685 | 643 | 20 | 144 | 10 | 18 | 219 | 94 | 176 | 0.25 | 0.667 | 0.082 | -0.9884 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 10 | 4 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 15 | 6 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 32 | 39 | 13 | 2 | 8 | 6 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 5 | 9 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 4 | 21 | 1 | 24 | 32 | 3 | 22 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 10 | 4 | 5 | 5 | 96 | 25 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133901 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113436 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101313 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133286 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122706 | 0.086685 | 0 | 0 | 0.110902 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.3448 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1073 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.243427 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129896 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120411 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066685 | 0 | 0 | 0.256962 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05928 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.359887 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164445 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155466 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115422 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.498213 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085885 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.265451 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19266 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134813 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071569 | 0.096314 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116967 | 0 | 0.088337 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | bdunne5000 | 2019/06/20 | Who do I talk to I’ve been having suicidal thoughts for the last few years and I don’t know who to talk to. I feel like my family would be too awkward to talk to. | -0.765541 | 1.023848 | 1.731014 | 99.127331 | 87.378378 | 5.862162 | 17.358108 | 7.168622 | -0.147319 | 126 | 3 | 33 | 2 | 4 | 43 | 26 | 37 | 0.162 | 0.771 | 0.066 | -0.5574 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 9 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 6 | 5 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 22 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.278959 | 0 | 0.149622 | 0.211399 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162625 | 0.241208 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144568 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.323679 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.713528 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.234921 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.210207 | 0 | 0 | 0.190557 |
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