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suicidewatch | hereforsomereason | 2019/06/20 | Been spitting out and saving up meds Okay so I’m sectioned rn and I used to spit out and save up medication to OD. I have a collection hidden and I could easily find them and take them. I feel like it’s my only way out of feeling like this | -1.151538 | 0.90523 | 1.695 | 94.4875 | 99 | 4.907692 | 16.115385 | 6.627428 | -0.128777 | 188 | 5 | 43 | 3 | 8 | 65 | 38 | 52 | 0 | 0.736 | 0.264 | 0.9001 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 15 | 8 | 6 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 7 | 5 | 8 | 6 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 28 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.249262 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.31571 | 0.446063 | 0 | 0 | 0.28534 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.305045 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.346777 | 0.314503 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.237438 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.234731 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.269636 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.247805 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Corer440 | 2019/06/20 | I am seriously considering commiting suicide today It's been the worst day in a series of worst days. I think I'm done with it.
I have the ability to kill myself so I don't really have to wait. I'm trying to think of a reason to live. | 0.662941 | 2.512062 | 4.352706 | 82.023176 | 82.333333 | 8.001569 | 20.003922 | 8.841846 | 1.434362 | 184 | 5 | 40 | 5 | 5 | 69 | 35 | 51 | 0.339 | 0.621 | 0.041 | -0.9571 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 11 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 8 | 9 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 28 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.400338 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.317626 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.343389 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.274071 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198837 | 0.319122 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.339505 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.397758 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.294204 | 0 | 0 | 0.210727 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Techno-Sage | 2019/06/20 | Is it possible to go into a comma artificially? Hello everyone
I’m exhausted mentally. I want to escape. I want to leave. But I don’t want to kill myself. I just want to go into a comma for years that one day I’ll be revived in the future with everything I hate gone.
Is there a way to artificially induce a comma? I ... | 0.57867 | 2.899613 | 4.627018 | 76.929678 | 86.763158 | 7.588304 | 21.602339 | 8.515129 | 1.913885 | 287 | 10 | 55 | 8 | 9 | 109 | 49 | 76 | 0.171 | 0.699 | 0.13 | -0.7882 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 12 | 15 | 2 | 1 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 12 | 13 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 39 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153159 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.226928 | 0.213437 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.269937 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.234468 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159182 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.262743 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.251463 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.23933 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160926 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.267729 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.560301 | 0.188505 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.257543 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152933 |
suicidewatch | Le_Spaghette | 2019/06/20 | I'm at a loss I don't know what to do... I found out things that had happened to me when I was little and now I feel dirty and used.. I just... I don't know what to do... | -2.289878 | -1.191226 | 0.78311 | 107.704421 | 88.512195 | 4.1 | 12.689024 | 3.1291 | -1.955346 | 122 | 1 | 39 | 0 | 4 | 43 | 26 | 41 | 0.152 | 0.848 | 0 | -0.6369 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 9 | 13 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 5 | 10 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 28 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.212912 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.461696 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.372362 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.462833 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.422036 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.279749 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.363681 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | MinWizardJera | 2019/06/20 | I'm not fully functional after my suicide attempt There was damage to my brain. I don't remember exactly what the doctor said, or even too much of what I tried to do. I have some kind of problem now where it's very difficult to talk.
I know what I want to ask these nurses and my doctor but I can't form words. It's als... | 2.155039 | 4.184706 | 3.694427 | 87.69887 | 78.264706 | 6.843756 | 22.501548 | 7.854513 | 1.082406 | 789 | 24 | 162 | 13 | 19 | 261 | 124 | 204 | 0.197 | 0.765 | 0.038 | -0.9825 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 12 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 16 | 6 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 27 | 33 | 10 | 1 | 3 | 6 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 13 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 4 | 24 | 4 | 22 | 25 | 7 | 16 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 8 | 0 | 4 | 8 | 104 | 37 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115508 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.270063 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176098 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161242 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.29568 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12793 | 0 | 0 | 0.095401 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073033 | 0.103187 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075464 | 0 | 0.082088 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129389 | 0 | 0.148236 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150411 | 0.23814 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.211697 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.435326 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145843 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.212359 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138209 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163622 | 0 | 0.137395 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131492 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144544 | 0 | 0.122383 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157993 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116095 | 0.126246 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191918 | 0.092551 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138018 | 0 | 0.19613 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119178 | 0.085194 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | jjawesome4264 | 2019/06/20 | Belts & Bedposts On occasion I'd browse this sub to reply to people's posts to try to help out in some small way but there is obviously a reason that I come here - I'm also suicidal.
I read a post a while back that details how you can actually successfully hang yourself with a belt from your doorknob but I didn't ... | 4.105505 | 4.815507 | 4.742914 | 87.507705 | 70.750842 | 7.825522 | 27.307912 | 7.908726 | 1.427348 | 1,142 | 37 | 246 | 14 | 20 | 366 | 166 | 297 | 0.102 | 0.759 | 0.139 | 0.856 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 38 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 6 | 26 | 13 | 2 | 0 | 14 | 0 | 19 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 45 | 45 | 19 | 2 | 7 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 23 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 3 | 0 | 5 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 5 | 31 | 8 | 30 | 30 | 6 | 37 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 8 | 16 | 1 | 6 | 12 | 161 | 54 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0.105844 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086738 | 0 | 0.23504 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19311 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166803 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.369177 | 0 | 0 | 0.095927 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121081 | 0 | 0 | 0.221171 | 0 | 0 | 0.093431 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173198 | 0 | 0 | 0.06995 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112568 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120965 | 0.143278 | 0 | 0.091385 | 0 | 0 | 0.106098 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099133 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113335 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119484 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122246 | 0 | 0.072701 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112948 | 0.119217 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110911 | 0 | 0 | 0.108709 | 0.095775 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1184 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079733 | 0.080424 | 0.083653 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075195 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.311633 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109035 | 0 | 0.115364 | 0.108493 | 0 | 0.138969 | 0.111518 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092627 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172862 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183801 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076771 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118641 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081551 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069499 | 0 | 0.258323 | 0.126491 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073639 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063974 | 0.086093 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121095 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | whereismymind-- | 2019/06/20 | I just want it to be over I'm a burden to everybody. At least my mom says so. It hurts too much, everything hurts too much. I can't be loved ,I don't deserve to be loved
I don't wanna die this fucking young but my soul is hurting deeply and I don't know what to do | -0.595191 | 0.952736 | 1.915984 | 99.433866 | 85.065574 | 5.378142 | 18.363388 | 6.427356 | -0.372346 | 204 | 5 | 54 | 2 | 6 | 70 | 39 | 61 | 0.233 | 0.714 | 0.053 | -0.869 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 9 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 15 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 2 | 7 | 12 | 3 | 3 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 37 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.225791 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.195527 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.201129 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.698702 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119564 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.39271 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.254802 | 0 | 0 | 0.319861 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173011 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128321 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | raxuseng | 2019/06/20 | I'm trying so hard, just need to let it out somewhere. I feel broken, I have nothing left. I'm struggling just to get out of bed, I'm not showering so much as I'm standing under the water and then leaving. My place is untidy and piling up with garbage, my car is covered in dust.
I know it's out of hand, I know I shoul... | 1.311493 | 3.099606 | 3.124655 | 91.938248 | 79.923913 | 5.416368 | 23.867008 | 6.227272 | 0.522031 | 677 | 24 | 148 | 5 | 17 | 226 | 106 | 184 | 0.194 | 0.742 | 0.064 | -0.9827 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 19 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 7 | 3 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 18 | 3 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 34 | 40 | 15 | 6 | 2 | 11 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 9 | 9 | 1 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 7 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 4 | 18 | 1 | 25 | 28 | 2 | 24 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 99 | 27 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133489 | 0 | 0 | 0.136042 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165925 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134701 | 0 | 0.143685 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080838 | 0 | 0 | 0.175135 | 0.146123 | 0.135989 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167056 | 0 | 0.181721 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143216 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.530633 | 0 | 0.263589 | 0 | 0 | 0.169284 | 0.173704 | 0.163483 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117526 | 0.118545 | 0.123305 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153404 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167035 | 0 | 0 | 0.180235 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152078 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167136 | 0 | 0.174877 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.204883 | 0 | 0.126923 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108545 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154114 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | gentleplant | 2019/06/20 | I found a person on twitter threatening suicide and don’t know what to do I was browsing a tag on twitter and saw this person who is threatening suicide. I don’t know what to do to help them but was hoping others could as well. Please, if you can, offer words of encouragement this makes me so anxious. I’m not a profess... | 5.966364 | 6.866412 | 6.353662 | 76.939065 | 66.662338 | 8.757403 | 29.685714 | 8.841846 | 2.218711 | 322 | 11 | 61 | 5 | 5 | 104 | 50 | 77 | 0.144 | 0.594 | 0.262 | 0.9165 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 15 | 18 | 8 | 2 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 6 | 4 | 9 | 13 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 9 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 45 | 12 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.248643 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.230974 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175727 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.241321 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.295048 | 0 | 0 | 0.218602 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.362872 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146914 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.384354 | 0 | 0.241596 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.481492 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1747 | 0 | 0 | 0.19789 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | coffeescentedfarts | 2019/06/20 | If an adult commits suicide, is anyone notified? I assume that upon discovery of a minor that has committed suicide, their family members are contacted ASAP.
Is this also the case with adults? | 6.192727 | 9.126925 | 7.651515 | 59.797273 | 69.30303 | 10.460606 | 35.242424 | 10.504224 | 5.256624 | 155 | 8 | 18 | 5 | 3 | 53 | 30 | 33 | 0.237 | 0.683 | 0.081 | -0.8466 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 4 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 17 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.306602 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.26808 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.361432 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.838746 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Wayward4 | 2019/06/20 | Get over it, life is a gift, do something useful, go for a walk, learn something new, take a shower, man up, relax, if [random person] can do it then you can tooHahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha Holy hell. I’m aboutta snap. I can barely cry. I’m the ignored one. Even by my parents. No help, no support, no money fo... | 2.33901 | 5.078195 | 4.792688 | 75.900229 | 82.75 | 5.600833 | 23.377083 | 7.031649 | 1.133805 | 530 | 19 | 94 | 7 | 15 | 185 | 89 | 128 | 0.244 | 0.664 | 0.091 | -0.9707 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 28 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 8 | 3 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 14 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 12 | 28 | 5 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 4 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 2 | 11 | 24 | 0 | 13 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 4 | 1 | 4 | 5 | 59 | 18 | 4 | 0.182609 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191462 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.200588 | 0.117768 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186908 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161738 | 0 | 0 | 0.120612 | 0 | 0 | 0.174491 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095406 | 0 | 0.311343 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122399 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128982 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176365 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.247482 | 0.138883 | 0 | 0 | 0.202766 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159447 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174732 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190501 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.281163 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.207223 | 0 | 0 | 0.1373 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.209883 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198627 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157716 | 0 | 0 | 0.215415 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198032 | 0.132942 | 0 | 0.186095 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | m0rallyquest0nable | 2019/06/20 | r/im14andthisisdeep I havent even turned 16 and yet im losing my shit. Neither some depressed emo teen listening to billie eilish nor "heartbroken". Im just bored and have nobody to even talk to. I found stuff i liked and gave it up as soon as minor obstacles appeared. I pushed my friends and family away from me. Im no... | 0.161455 | 2.485628 | 2.357012 | 92.131639 | 89.738255 | 5.552949 | 20.593783 | 7.060882 | 0.625328 | 559 | 19 | 120 | 9 | 19 | 188 | 98 | 149 | 0.203 | 0.642 | 0.155 | -0.7893 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 22 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 11 | 14 | 4 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 8 | 3 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 20 | 20 | 15 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 6 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 7 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 14 | 4 | 19 | 18 | 3 | 15 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 8 | 4 | 2 | 4 | 77 | 20 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091154 | 0 | 0.107279 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122481 | 0 | 0.108849 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132915 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112282 | 0 | 0.135297 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114083 | 0 | 0.152786 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172209 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122896 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142938 | 0.100719 | 0 | 0.06811 | 0.125057 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.563263 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071645 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063689 | 0 | 0.230228 | 0 | 0 | 0.145844 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132169 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125088 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.227658 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103883 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.401451 | 0 | 0.146535 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149236 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104782 | 0 | 0.120022 | 0 | 0 | 0.086608 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141799 | 0 | 0.135714 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | juddon | 2019/06/20 | I'm gonna kill myself tonight I'm a huge burden to everyone I know. I was always the loner at school. Never had a girlfriend, only ever had a few close friends and I drove them away by acting like an asshole. I've been putting this off for a while but it's time. Just putting this on here so someone besides my mom will ... | 0.304186 | 2.621027 | 1.959635 | 95.459756 | 88.452055 | 3.79239 | 23.179604 | 5.033349 | 0.102548 | 274 | 11 | 58 | 1 | 9 | 89 | 59 | 73 | 0.096 | 0.822 | 0.081 | -0.25 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 11 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 7 | 2 | 8 | 4 | 1 | 16 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 38 | 10 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.213119 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.240641 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.231682 | 0 | 0.244741 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197884 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.283368 | 0 | 0.281522 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125131 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.299974 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197542 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194797 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.514959 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.259215 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.217016 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14935 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | cafetrohftbnnh | 2019/06/20 | My method will be.... Hire a wickedly good motor home. Carbon monoxide poisoning. Go somewhere nice. Seal the vehicle. Run a hose. Seal the leaks. Watch some movies. Eat something nice. Drink shit loads and then start the engine. Get into the bed and painless death in a beautiful place and peaceful. No pain. My friend ... | 0.946808 | 2.808218 | 0.942857 | 96.445 | 111.96875 | 3.703571 | 18.633929 | 5.773588 | 0.014499 | 273 | 9 | 51 | 3 | 14 | 80 | 53 | 64 | 0.226 | 0.535 | 0.239 | 0.0258 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 2 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 7 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 2 | 4 | 2 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 23 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.312201 | 0 | 0.326106 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.246224 | 0 | 0.166506 | 0 | 0.181122 | 0.267307 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.319678 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.339115 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.332969 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.327137 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.245348 | 0 | 0 | 0.225575 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.23962 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | mweyca | 2019/06/20 | Numb.. I feel like im in a dream this past few days... I can’t feel my surroundings. Im always tired physically and mentally.. I always end up feeling numb when the sun goes down even after a well spent day.. I feel so emty and hurt, I dont know why.. even if I laugh I feel like I’m just forcing it out.
I dont see a ... | -1.124938 | 0.663673 | 2.334229 | 94.208882 | 89 | 5.435826 | 16.393302 | 6.816662 | -0.230115 | 360 | 8 | 89 | 5 | 12 | 131 | 67 | 107 | 0.089 | 0.734 | 0.178 | 0.7134 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 22 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 15 | 16 | 7 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 13 | 4 | 12 | 15 | 1 | 16 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 51 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.201512 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156185 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125672 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.283832 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.214498 | 0 | 0 | 0.239935 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108827 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.306132 | 0.173012 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107079 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129629 | 0 | 0.653986 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066548 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118316 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12203 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115593 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13651 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121232 | 0 | 0.096493 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077589 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139174 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071422 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108874 | 0 | 0.109264 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Apt156 | 2019/06/20 | Don't know what to do Life is difficult.. it always was but this past few years has gone steeply down hill. From the time my mother died for years back, it is not getting better I don't know how much can I take anymore, I really wish it to end. I don't want to kill myself but it seems like the only way out I cannot tak... | 1.14309 | 2.302037 | 2.64794 | 97.960349 | 78.534884 | 5.844518 | 18.099668 | 6.182691 | -0.506526 | 300 | 5 | 76 | 2 | 7 | 98 | 57 | 86 | 0.17 | 0.701 | 0.129 | -0.4489 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 11 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 12 | 22 | 3 | 2 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 9 | 2 | 9 | 20 | 2 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 48 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164575 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.392305 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152087 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174927 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.203183 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.205272 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175181 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206672 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.218823 | 0 | 0.217398 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139703 | 0.096629 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145397 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134026 | 0.150427 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188811 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126708 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180059 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.297424 | 0.158974 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126734 | 0 | 0 | 0.115332 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11666 | 0.156995 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.227446 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.201563 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.254738 |
suicidewatch | 0prah_Winspree | 2019/06/20 | I need help.. I'm bipolar, having a really fucking rough time. And psych where I live doesnt have "time" for me untill the end of July.. I don't think i'll last that long.. i've been going ontop of a mountain to stop myself from going to the train tracks. I don't want to die.. I'm so scared but when night time comes, I... | 0.002024 | 1.9586 | 1.816667 | 98.661667 | 85.547619 | 4.209524 | 16.47619 | 5.033349 | -0.92161 | 299 | 6 | 71 | 1 | 9 | 98 | 59 | 84 | 0.148 | 0.852 | 0 | -0.8842 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 19 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 2 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 20 | 6 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 9 | 18 | 0 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 10 | 36 | 11 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.346556 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.208768 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178164 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.37193 | 0 | 0 | 0.228643 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13483 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11055 | 0.163969 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177624 | 0.178016 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149154 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188771 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128865 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.402784 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168175 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.220032 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128892 | 0 | 0.159695 | 0.351886 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118647 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | heymanyourarockstar | 2019/06/20 | I hate the fact that my life has turned out the way it has Hi, sorry I just need to vent for a while. My family has always been dysfunctional, but the dysfunctionality was definitely exacerbated by a major fight between my parents almost three years ago. Neither of my parents are perfect people. My dad has definitely d... | 5.141409 | 5.261919 | 6.003123 | 81.467123 | 68.281664 | 9.03216 | 28.251477 | 8.841846 | 1.915433 | 2,056 | 62 | 431 | 32 | 32 | 679 | 256 | 529 | 0.176 | 0.688 | 0.136 | -0.9781 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 60 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 24 | 31 | 8 | 6 | 26 | 1 | 42 | 7 | 2 | 7 | 4 | 81 | 85 | 38 | 2 | 8 | 15 | 9 | 11 | 5 | 1 | 4 | 4 | 3 | 3 | 4 | 27 | 25 | 0 | 3 | 13 | 4 | 3 | 5 | 11 | 17 | 1 | 3 | 19 | 16 | 60 | 14 | 60 | 58 | 13 | 50 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 45 | 26 | 3 | 12 | 23 | 274 | 87 | 10 | 0.06969 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061776 | 0 | 0.069784 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115975 | 0 | 0 | 0.094783 | 0.073076 | 0 | 0 | 0.069113 | 0.048729 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053587 | 0.058188 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078516 | 0 | 0.12327 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071161 | 0 | 0.071053 | 0 | 0 | 0.060031 | 0 | 0.07531 | 0 | 0.055641 | 0.07711 | 0 | 0.179776 | 0.071847 | 0.060024 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071317 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058217 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066591 | 0 | 0 | 0.131394 | 0 | 0.317134 | 0.248931 | 0.066913 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053842 | 0.064427 | 0.07282 | 0 | 0.079212 | 0 | 0.055737 | 0 | 0 | 0.069004 | 0 | 0.074186 | 0 | 0.068804 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093423 | 0 | 0.209713 | 0.069217 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072738 | 0 | 0 | 0.154202 | 0 | 0.0383 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147671 | 0.170234 | 0 | 0.061537 | 0.061673 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059248 | 0 | 0.131884 | 0.093037 | 0.070654 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10246 | 0.051674 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073127 | 0 | 0.047223 | 0.106004 | 0 | 0 | 0.154764 | 0 | 0.066527 | 0.144942 | 0.121701 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078068 | 0 | 0.069708 | 0 | 0.044645 | 0.071652 | 0 | 0.224462 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11084 | 0 | 0.282118 | 0.055534 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057648 | 0.156668 | 0 | 0.07104 | 0.059048 | 0 | 0 | 0.156024 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058264 | 0.159658 | 0 | 0.079778 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056014 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092597 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066058 | 0 | 0 | 0.047315 | 0.075802 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057501 | 0.082209 | 0.055316 | 0 | 0 | 0.062659 | 0.064603 | 0.062884 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.049505 | 0 | 0 | 0.179511 |
suicidewatch | ifuckinghatefruit | 2019/06/20 | I don’t live for me Honestly at this point I’m only living life and going through the motions for my parents. I don’t want all their years of suffering and hardship because of me to be for waste. Going to school, working, living every day is just exhausting. But I do what I do because I know if anything ever happened t... | 2.257018 | 4.441765 | 3.952636 | 85.20317 | 78.638554 | 6.077711 | 28.447289 | 7.168622 | 1.732953 | 326 | 15 | 61 | 4 | 8 | 109 | 54 | 83 | 0.172 | 0.745 | 0.083 | -0.8316 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 10 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 11 | 16 | 5 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 14 | 2 | 11 | 13 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 48 | 18 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167951 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.248825 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180503 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131623 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184613 | 0.171957 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.231981 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180478 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112164 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144156 | 0 | 0 | 0.540652 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155221 | 0 | 0 | 0.453241 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192933 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206552 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120379 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148582 | 0 | 0 | 0.144981 | 0 | 0 | 0.131429 |
suicidewatch | belllllthrowaway | 2019/06/20 | this is why i want to die. When I'm nice people mistake that as being vulnerable, when I am quiet people mistake that as stupid, dumb, irresponsible. I could go on. I am not comfortable in my mind anymore. I know I shouldn't care what people think, but we are surrounded by people, thoughts, opinions where I don't feel... | 3.661208 | 4.415104 | 5.288092 | 83.035043 | 71.798165 | 8.198654 | 27.37737 | 8.447377 | 1.749744 | 825 | 28 | 175 | 13 | 15 | 281 | 110 | 218 | 0.222 | 0.608 | 0.17 | -0.8324 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 33 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 19 | 3 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 24 | 4 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 34 | 46 | 10 | 1 | 9 | 3 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 11 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 8 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 7 | 37 | 13 | 24 | 36 | 5 | 23 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 14 | 1 | 1 | 7 | 119 | 48 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.243679 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.218734 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074891 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.272929 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.250518 | 0 | 0.129965 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09809 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127504 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138196 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.248477 | 0.175536 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069821 | 0.103045 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130782 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067518 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086776 | 0.180063 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103167 | 0 | 0.134111 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124049 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08325 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.511034 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078704 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078721 | 0 | 0.097533 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083411 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.21739 | 0.195033 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110858 | 0 | 0.282555 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | idunnorn | 2019/06/20 | feeling quite garbage-y recently I feel like I DON'T actually want to die or to feel a need to kill myself or whatever, but I'm truly losing hope that I have a way to just feel okay "in life".
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Finding a therapist who is any good seems to be incredibly hard (and it seems like \*I\* am just some fucking ... | 4.623138 | 6.615782 | 5.667436 | 76.439321 | 71.080925 | 8.411065 | 28.542114 | 9.042354 | 2.529727 | 730 | 28 | 129 | 15 | 14 | 241 | 115 | 173 | 0.184 | 0.676 | 0.141 | -0.9168 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 43 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 7 | 13 | 4 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 16 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 31 | 35 | 7 | 3 | 4 | 8 | 0 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 13 | 7 | 19 | 31 | 3 | 17 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 8 | 6 | 3 | 10 | 8 | 83 | 24 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.318874 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090631 | 0.236032 | 0.264702 | 0.07407 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101827 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092684 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113043 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095318 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143883 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.275369 | 0.077813 | 0 | 0.119318 | 0.099552 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.201392 | 0.056907 | 0 | 0 | 0.091358 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097572 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108183 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120505 | 0 | 0.05986 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076934 | 0.15964 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121855 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161527 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073808 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151024 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.231702 | 0 | 0 | 0.069778 | 0 | 0.107546 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.297473 | 0.113629 | 0 | 0.111806 | 0 | 0.122432 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119142 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095202 | 0 | 0 | 0.126466 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063513 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064245 | 0.172913 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.196569 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119088 | 0.264702 | 0 |
suicidewatch | geng92 | 2019/06/20 | Trying hard but still on the edge Been dealing with suicidal thoughts my whole life. I guess I'm here to express my thoughts to whomever might listen and even if no one does thats ok because I just need an outlet. I'm 26 now and I've tried to end my life a few times when I was much younger (most recently 17) and alth... | 2.975213 | 3.998772 | 4.407232 | 87.698791 | 73.67706 | 7.402335 | 25.632787 | 7.793538 | 1.2351 | 1,678 | 54 | 367 | 22 | 33 | 559 | 209 | 449 | 0.159 | 0.667 | 0.173 | 0.7983 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 28 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 21 | 28 | 3 | 1 | 22 | 1 | 35 | 7 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 73 | 78 | 28 | 3 | 12 | 14 | 0 | 10 | 3 | 2 | 6 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 26 | 13 | 0 | 1 | 21 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 13 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 13 | 48 | 20 | 51 | 52 | 7 | 40 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 22 | 15 | 0 | 6 | 22 | 233 | 74 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0.070476 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149596 | 0 | 0.057754 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.050498 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060301 | 0.088049 | 0 | 0.061454 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078044 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074456 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0632 | 0 | 0.169283 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127931 | 0 | 0 | 0.095401 | 0 | 0.060849 | 0 | 0.129813 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.292133 | 0.103188 | 0.069343 | 0 | 0.066008 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111594 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082089 | 0.242299 | 0 | 0 | 0.079559 | 0 | 0.063864 | 0.07688 | 0.064695 | 0 | 0.148237 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096815 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075379 | 0 | 0 | 0.159802 | 0 | 0.119071 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.204045 | 0.105849 | 0 | 0.127543 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061399 | 0.065181 | 0 | 0.096415 | 0.07322 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072781 | 0.076614 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05309 | 0.107101 | 0.055701 | 0 | 0.076807 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.048938 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078207 | 0 | 0.100137 | 0.06306 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081417 | 0.069167 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07224 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071309 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059741 | 0.081178 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057675 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078997 | 0 | 0.068067 | 0 | 0 | 0.058048 | 0.126247 | 0.066491 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092551 | 0 | 0.172004 | 0.168448 | 0 | 0 | 0.138019 | 0.080239 | 0.441294 | 0 | 0 | 0.075184 | 0 | 0 | 0.07954 | 0.059589 | 0.127792 | 0.057325 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080631 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052577 | 0 | 0.073598 | 0.153909 | 0 | 0 | 0.046507 |
suicidewatch | abhigyan6699ghosh | 2019/06/20 | Yep i managed to do it again I again somehow managed to disappoint people i love
Feels bad yeat comfortable | 1.794 | 4.153084 | 2.88 | 83.32 | 105 | 6 | 30 | 7.168622 | 2.8495 | 88 | 5 | 14 | 2 | 4 | 28 | 15 | 20 | 0.222 | 0.43 | 0.348 | 0.5423 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 10 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.556884 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.337235 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.601957 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.462386 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | TheExo27 | 2019/06/20 | I want to die. Change my mind. I’ve been thinking about this for way too long, and killing myself seems to be not only the emotional but also the rational thing to do...
I just wondered if anyone could by accident come up with something I haven’t thought about.
Miss me with the usual “you have so much to live for” and... | 5.673236 | 5.595468 | 5.769078 | 84.276853 | 67.15534 | 8.808414 | 30.7589 | 8.3441 | 2.062451 | 405 | 14 | 83 | 5 | 6 | 128 | 76 | 103 | 0.115 | 0.806 | 0.079 | -0.4352 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 14 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 8 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 20 | 19 | 9 | 2 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 12 | 0 | 17 | 14 | 4 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 65 | 16 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154767 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135322 | 0 | 0.15926 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.204731 | 0.16671 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154519 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.200855 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.217697 | 0 | 0 | 0.215839 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12972 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.214114 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.341784 | 0.171269 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.195412 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142268 | 0.143501 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14719 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15422 | 0.176184 | 0 | 0.218636 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197281 | 0 | 0.14899 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.257148 | 0.124007 | 0 | 0.153643 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.213148 | 0 | 0.11415 | 0.153616 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.209877 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | BliBlaBloImACheeto | 2019/06/20 | [France] Voluntary psychiatric hospitalization Hi,
French translation in the comments/Traduction française dans les commentaires
Might not be the best place for infos but I can't think of a better one. I'm looking for informations relating to voluntary psychiatric hospitalization in France. Especially :
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suicidewatch | BP5L | 2019/06/20 | The forest in japan I want to die in a forest. The forest is four hours away. The forest is only like a square of 500m. The suicide forest in japan is like a square of 5 km. I think that people will be able to find me. I dont want my body to be found. Can my phone be tracked if the battery is removed?
I dont want to ... | -0.236097 | 1.817228 | 1.678814 | 98.587587 | 87.614458 | 3.976665 | 17.170577 | 4.98256 | -0.845043 | 593 | 14 | 140 | 2 | 19 | 195 | 94 | 166 | 0.145 | 0.795 | 0.06 | -0.965 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 18 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 14 | 0 | 20 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 21 | 34 | 3 | 6 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 5 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 4 | 20 | 2 | 23 | 24 | 3 | 16 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 6 | 9 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 90 | 24 | 0 | 0.126623 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118967 | 0.097365 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107747 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14065 | 0 | 0 | 0.129296 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13395 | 0.218149 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101098 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.525659 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.296803 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115731 | 0 | 0 | 0.138836 | 0 | 0 | 0.066155 | 0 | 0.071963 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124698 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136775 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.268151 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123723 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12721 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134327 | 0.127853 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093083 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096303 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175569 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100902 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.27701 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081135 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085969 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.218723 | 0 | 0 | 0.224057 | 0.100508 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Cuetaq | 2019/06/20 | I regret not killing myself two years ago Then I had nothing to live for, I spent most of my days in bed, unable to get up. Nobody showed any kind of interest about where I had gone or what is happening with me. Nobody cared.
Now, two years later. I have a boyfriend and we just got our first apartment, he is so excite... | 2.39503 | 3.870488 | 4.055623 | 87.844848 | 75.888889 | 7.575758 | 21.902357 | 8.296473 | 1.075741 | 507 | 13 | 109 | 9 | 11 | 170 | 95 | 135 | 0.159 | 0.757 | 0.084 | -0.9369 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 19 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 12 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 17 | 24 | 8 | 3 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 20 | 5 | 14 | 17 | 2 | 17 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 71 | 23 | 3 | 0.133398 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118249 | 0 | 0 | 0.13816 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090715 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132295 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136008 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086031 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138446 | 0 | 0 | 0.273077 | 0 | 0 | 0.156341 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176216 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113468 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069695 | 0 | 0.075813 | 0 | 0.10669 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117963 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089414 | 0 | 0.133809 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132377 | 0.11857 | 0.147585 | 0.138913 | 0.073312 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.353378 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089044 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.29635 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106477 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127999 | 0 | 0 | 0.142064 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.256374 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.331044 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145916 | 0.151378 | 0 | 0 | 0.100299 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.260621 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171808 |
suicidewatch | HereToFeck | 2019/06/20 | I've been thinking about suicide a lot lately I've been somewhat "positive" in these last months, rarely thinking about self-harming and suicide in general. I felt like my life is going somewhere, but at this exact moment i lost this positiveness and feel empty and unmotivated. The last time i felt this empty were year... | 4.567192 | 5.562239 | 5.352685 | 82.512574 | 69.8867 | 8.164532 | 27.800493 | 8.418075 | 1.873193 | 808 | 27 | 158 | 12 | 14 | 263 | 103 | 203 | 0.278 | 0.659 | 0.063 | -0.9933 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 27 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 8 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 16 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 36 | 35 | 17 | 5 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 9 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 4 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 12 | 5 | 24 | 2 | 15 | 23 | 7 | 38 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 0 | 4 | 22 | 97 | 33 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088179 | 0 | 0.099611 | 0.103027 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112379 | 0 | 0.069556 | 0 | 0.08186 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093461 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064154 | 0 | 0.085678 | 0 | 0.10324 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083813 | 0.095053 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150894 | 0 | 0.191025 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169603 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087966 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098714 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054669 | 0.324344 | 0.112213 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.421576 | 0.048599 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108589 | 0.084571 | 0 | 0 | 0.066401 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158801 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127453 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.20755 | 0 | 0 | 0.164575 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070409 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.435241 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19122 | 0 | 0 | 0.23202 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082078 | 0.17602 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089441 | 0 | 0 | 0.111061 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128118 |
suicidewatch | FidoTheAlmighty | 2019/06/20 | I've lost the will to live and is just going through the motions I've been recovering from a suicidal depression I've had for as long as I remember, and was on the proper mend until I met sweet girl that made me feel special and loved, only to suddenly disappear out of nowhere, leaving me broken and without the energy ... | 16.830448 | 6.134261 | 15.351682 | 56.599164 | 57.905473 | 19.065075 | 52.140299 | 13.023867 | 6.236141 | 775 | 24 | 160 | 15 | 5 | 260 | 112 | 201 | 0.094 | 0.722 | 0.184 | 0.9616 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 16 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 10 | 14 | 1 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 13 | 7 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 33 | 30 | 18 | 1 | 6 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 12 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 4 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 3 | 24 | 8 | 31 | 19 | 4 | 28 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 3 | 12 | 8 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 113 | 31 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127736 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085178 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09367 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103658 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135312 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124201 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127723 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104921 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107894 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102637 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.229678 | 0 | 0.061595 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094116 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.207695 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.391225 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108277 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128987 | 0 | 0 | 0.25813 | 0 | 0 | 0.215134 | 0.107805 | 0 | 0 | 0.132978 | 0 | 0.329835 | 0.230533 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082547 | 0.185295 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131917 | 0 | 0.084453 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115157 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137996 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097284 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133249 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.242791 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135344 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.215553 | 0.096693 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117428 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086536 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | emrldeyes | 2019/06/20 | I wasn't accepted to uni and I want to die I don't know what to do the whole year. I've been dealing with a lot of issues and I really tried my best to get in. This isn't my first time not being accepted to the major I applied for and I just feel so tired. I don't even want to live anymore. I'm just so tired of being s... | -0.871994 | 0.703281 | 2.003022 | 98.290356 | 86.21519 | 5.468987 | 16.204114 | 6.627428 | -0.52428 | 262 | 5 | 69 | 3 | 8 | 92 | 48 | 79 | 0.184 | 0.688 | 0.127 | -0.6855 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 8 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 15 | 14 | 5 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 9 | 4 | 11 | 10 | 5 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 48 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.225304 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.238414 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.234215 | 0 | 0 | 0.23578 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150052 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11487 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193241 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118693 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.237119 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124854 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.200606 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193142 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145539 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.264944 | 0.522226 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154242 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.267996 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.253641 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146298 |
suicidewatch | depressedsuicidalkid | 2019/06/20 | This is the 3rd time I'm trying to kill myself half-heartedly. Tonight, I want to die, but somehow I'm still scared. LONG POST
Background: I have been a victim of my narcissistic/toxic mom's emotional and verbal abuse for as long as 10 years. I'm 21, F, and it's illegal in my country to commit suicide. I'm a soon-to-b... | 3.434743 | 4.424074 | 5.030055 | 83.798105 | 72.535912 | 7.558181 | 28.011475 | 7.882392 | 1.658878 | 1,376 | 51 | 286 | 18 | 26 | 466 | 186 | 362 | 0.243 | 0.723 | 0.034 | -0.9982 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 44 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 10 | 13 | 6 | 1 | 15 | 0 | 31 | 3 | 2 | 2 | 3 | 49 | 62 | 22 | 7 | 9 | 11 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 14 | 16 | 1 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 13 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 2 | 33 | 2 | 49 | 43 | 3 | 31 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 16 | 10 | 0 | 3 | 16 | 174 | 47 | 5 | 0 | 0.111846 | 0.092118 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10417 | 0.07549 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098984 | 0 | 0 | 0.093617 | 0 | 0 | 0.077681 | 0.084034 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057544 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105875 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060879 | 0 | 0.081304 | 0 | 0.195939 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078857 | 0.106184 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079534 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08899 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107296 | 0 | 0.075498 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083475 | 0 | 0 | 0.186396 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111861 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.31331 | 0 | 0.155635 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.046118 | 0 | 0.166709 | 0.167078 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.442229 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14561 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071794 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090407 | 0 | 0 | 0.090326 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089794 | 0 | 0.094508 | 0.095535 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078087 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079983 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066815 | 0 | 0.075386 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103255 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14195 | 0.075873 | 0.082508 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074941 | 0.055044 | 0 | 0.089478 | 0 | 0 | 0.256359 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.389746 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068722 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121578 |
suicidewatch | desserts19 | 2019/06/20 | Anyone else feel the same way? I don't think I am even depressed. I function normally, go to work and engage in what little hobbies I have. But I'm still thinking of seriously going through with it because life seems so banal. Doing the same things over and over again until you die, with the occasional distraction.
A ... | 2.957595 | 5.12366 | 4.047392 | 85.470027 | 76.30659 | 6.769377 | 24.373299 | 7.756953 | 1.30162 | 1,403 | 47 | 273 | 21 | 32 | 455 | 198 | 349 | 0.073 | 0.769 | 0.158 | 0.9885 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 41 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 19 | 20 | 1 | 2 | 22 | 1 | 33 | 5 | 2 | 2 | 4 | 57 | 58 | 23 | 1 | 7 | 12 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 11 | 17 | 1 | 0 | 9 | 3 | 0 | 6 | 14 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 30 | 13 | 43 | 51 | 10 | 44 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 17 | 24 | 0 | 9 | 12 | 187 | 41 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083981 | 0 | 0 | 0.068635 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141143 | 0.103413 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094826 | 0 | 0.084271 | 0.061525 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105918 | 0 | 0 | 0.112109 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102903 | 0 | 0 | 0.086941 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111675 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08693 | 0 | 0.104748 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168626 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133325 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.051032 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077977 | 0 | 0.052731 | 0 | 0.17208 | 0.084654 | 0 | 0 | 0.222368 | 0 | 0.089251 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06765 | 0 | 0.10124 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113852 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142578 | 0.098617 | 0.303471 | 0.089122 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109941 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107069 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.222582 | 0 | 0.155685 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098888 | 0 | 0 | 0.211815 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112069 | 0 | 0 | 0.069971 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101461 | 0 | 0.10735 | 0.201912 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080262 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.275645 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080602 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075886 | 0 | 0.088216 | 0.092921 | 0 | 0 | 0.067052 | 0.194013 | 0.099162 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08717 | 0 | 0 | 0.11906 | 0.240337 | 0 | 0.122904 | 0.090747 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116063 | 0 | 0 | 0.146954 | 0 | 0 | 0.071697 | 0 | 0 | 0.129989 |
suicidewatch | ifuckinghateyoudad | 2019/06/20 | Today's the day Sucks ill never be able to transition to who I really am. Sucks ill never be a singer like ive wanted to be since I was young. not like the world would ever accept me as a trans singer anyway. to the world im a freak.
Im about to lose everything that means something to me anyway. when my mom comes home... | 0.944051 | 3.215612 | 2.781166 | 91.218965 | 84.286885 | 5.745962 | 23.381299 | 7.09311 | 0.887263 | 925 | 35 | 197 | 13 | 27 | 307 | 141 | 244 | 0.227 | 0.712 | 0.062 | -0.9915 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 27 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 13 | 19 | 7 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 24 | 9 | 3 | 1 | 5 | 34 | 44 | 14 | 0 | 6 | 9 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 10 | 12 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 31 | 7 | 33 | 34 | 3 | 28 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 11 | 13 | 6 | 4 | 16 | 128 | 35 | 1 | 0.120661 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092305 | 0 | 0.239326 | 0 | 0 | 0.099294 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113365 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134027 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103939 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155633 | 0.248792 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138288 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100797 | 0 | 0.10687 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109145 | 0 | 0 | 0.216885 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093222 | 0.334647 | 0 | 0 | 0.068574 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.265843 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121033 | 0 | 0.118827 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.260669 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176846 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134989 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131435 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141317 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186122 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.231555 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081763 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13398 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115456 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077298 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095954 | 0 | 0.122115 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123857 | 0.099812 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092891 | 0 | 0 | 0.085404 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136925 | 0 | 0 | 0.090722 | 0 | 0 | 0.111088 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114372 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.213507 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085714 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | ThinbloodAlchemee | 2019/06/20 | I got tattoos on my forearms and wrists This was to specifically keep me from slitting them open and im pissed that it's actually working | 2.782222 | 5.519986 | 4.09037 | 81.766667 | 80.481481 | 6.562963 | 31.222222 | 7.793538 | 2.402022 | 113 | 6 | 21 | 2 | 3 | 37 | 25 | 27 | 0.154 | 0.846 | 0 | -0.6369 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0.483193 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.396015 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.534845 | 0 | 0 | 0.44011 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.360474 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | prtafjs2 | 2019/06/20 | 20-6-19 why does my body want to trigger itself?
why do i constantly smell blood/iron ?
why do i feel something drip from my body every now and then in a day?
why the fuck does my own body want to trigger myself in slicing my skin open in every place possible?
i get it i’m a junk for blood but i’m trying to keep it do... | 0.437396 | 2.066115 | 2.705417 | 94.664583 | 82.020833 | 5.516667 | 20.041667 | 6.427356 | 0.004092 | 337 | 9 | 80 | 3 | 9 | 115 | 59 | 96 | 0.089 | 0.764 | 0.147 | 0.6123 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 4 | 6 | 5 | 2 | 1 | 15 | 13 | 9 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 10 | 2 | 12 | 13 | 4 | 11 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 7 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 46 | 14 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.501103 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162504 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09698 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.263191 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.253397 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076035 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139021 | 0.078566 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133662 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14429 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114368 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157111 | 0 | 0 | 0.169527 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115767 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141728 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.204192 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177392 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.542766 | 0 | 0.172926 | 0 | 0 | 0.109476 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | isthisvalidenough | 2019/06/20 | I thought my new job would finally make a difference The money is good but it’s stressful as fuck, dangerous and physically grueling hard labor. Ive been suicidal pretty much all my life and thought maybe just maybe this job would turn my life for the better. Been putting my gun to my head and pulling the trigger halfw... | 3.508812 | 5.435812 | 4.246334 | 85.737349 | 73.939759 | 8.116351 | 29.929432 | 8.841846 | 2.443779 | 335 | 15 | 67 | 7 | 7 | 107 | 61 | 83 | 0.293 | 0.611 | 0.096 | -0.9704 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 7 | 3 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 7 | 6 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 12 | 14 | 5 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 8 | 2 | 7 | 8 | 2 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 36 | 10 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149325 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145421 | 0 | 0 | 0.176402 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149542 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184956 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.312179 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141615 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151247 | 0 | 0.173278 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182376 | 0 | 0.335095 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.238513 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112702 | 0 | 0.339244 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134766 | 0 | 0.124117 | 0 | 0 | 0.163066 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171771 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16973 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193405 | 0 | 0 | 0.184683 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.26808 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183649 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122917 | 0 | 0 | 0.239878 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | shaunlew10 | 2019/06/20 | So... My last post was 2 months ago, unsure of the exact date, I just know it was around 2 months.
And...
This is my last. I'm going to be unsubbing from here. Maybe I'll resub at a later date, once I'm definitely 100%, and I'll come back to help people, the same way people in this sub helped me. Not much has chang... | 0.992465 | 2.912074 | 2.891554 | 92.558264 | 81.57329 | 5.917438 | 20.656786 | 7.031649 | 0.322267 | 1,128 | 32 | 258 | 14 | 30 | 377 | 148 | 307 | 0.089 | 0.745 | 0.165 | 0.9773 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 59 | 2 | 5 | 1 | 5 | 14 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 2 | 24 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 58 | 55 | 23 | 0 | 6 | 19 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 3 | 17 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 11 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 10 | 30 | 10 | 27 | 48 | 6 | 36 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 25 | 12 | 0 | 9 | 19 | 153 | 47 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0.177767 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080739 | 0 | 0 | 0.094334 | 0 | 0 | 0.075788 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081083 | 0.08515 | 0 | 0 | 0.070037 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.241666 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.289061 | 0.15692 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060159 | 0 | 0 | 0.174067 | 0.163719 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184217 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.047587 | 0 | 0.103529 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081592 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.488407 | 0 | 0.091363 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.205643 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.250284 | 0.148489 | 0 | 0.192887 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.044498 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076487 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091505 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145403 | 0 | 0.066956 | 0.067537 | 0.070249 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126291 | 0.07953 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087232 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103672 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086641 | 0.072433 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14024 | 0.090083 | 0 | 0.064469 | 0 | 0.072739 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085844 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167714 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07231 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123679 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053723 | 0.072297 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082188 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066309 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099585 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | delilahJenk | 2019/06/20 | 5am thoughts of a 17 year old Sometimes I wonder whether it will be worth it, whether things will truly work out for me in the end. If Happiness really is a possible outcome in the future. Those thoughts are the things that keep me alive. So are the memories I shared with everyone. But with time comes broken relationsh... | 2.549187 | 4.253931 | 3.587552 | 90.391084 | 76.019231 | 6.727273 | 22.587413 | 7.520523 | 0.792673 | 1,995 | 56 | 425 | 26 | 44 | 642 | 246 | 520 | 0.109 | 0.82 | 0.071 | -0.9671 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 50 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 30 | 31 | 6 | 3 | 36 | 1 | 37 | 12 | 6 | 4 | 4 | 96 | 74 | 47 | 0 | 10 | 26 | 2 | 9 | 2 | 0 | 8 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 29 | 30 | 2 | 4 | 18 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 6 | 18 | 2 | 6 | 17 | 10 | 45 | 12 | 64 | 40 | 13 | 70 | 1 | 8 | 1 | 2 | 13 | 25 | 3 | 13 | 41 | 293 | 74 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064917 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060936 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.051207 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068464 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.044643 | 0 | 0.062316 | 0 | 0.076854 | 0.064769 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126168 | 0 | 0.079139 | 0 | 0.116942 | 0.081032 | 0 | 0.094459 | 0 | 0.126152 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083932 | 0 | 0.064087 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074936 | 0 | 0 | 0.129726 | 0 | 0 | 0.14511 | 0.066244 | 0.123405 | 0.069978 | 0.197453 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185145 | 0.052318 | 0.140631 | 0.080224 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135407 | 0.076523 | 0 | 0.04162 | 0.061425 | 0.058572 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077959 | 0 | 0 | 0.075159 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073459 | 0 | 0.07212 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130187 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059695 | 0 | 0 | 0.079569 | 0.074886 | 0 | 0.071556 | 0 | 0.129333 | 0.129619 | 0 | 0 | 0.079943 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074247 | 0.147146 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08577 | 0.116909 | 0 | 0.053835 | 0 | 0 | 0.212188 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07027 | 0 | 0.076846 | 0.077991 | 0.148875 | 0.111395 | 0 | 0 | 0.081317 | 0 | 0.139819 | 0 | 0.063945 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08256 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082038 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140746 | 0.150593 | 0 | 0.078625 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074116 | 0 | 0.200007 | 0 | 0.082733 | 0.075173 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07243 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153119 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055063 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194613 | 0 | 0 | 0.116279 | 0.170812 | 0.084171 | 0 | 0.069978 | 0 | 0.198883 | 0.079657 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06325 | 0.080656 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089179 | 0.065846 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079419 | 0.21326 | 0 | 0 | 0.156069 | 0 | 0 | 0.14148 |
suicidewatch | mydeathmychoice | 2019/06/20 | 240 hours without water seems so easy in my mind but it’s almost impossible 🙁 | -0.217708 | 1.803494 | 2.715 | 85.096667 | 105.875 | 4.633333 | 17.833333 | 6.427356 | 0.394858 | 63 | 2 | 12 | 1 | 3 | 22 | 16 | 16 | 0 | 0.846 | 0.154 | 0.3336 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.459451 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.451854 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.463286 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.417701 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.442295 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Your-L0cal-Nazi-Dude | 2019/06/20 | No hope, no help, no trusted family. What should I do with my life? I'm tired of all this. Sure, I want to die. But I want to die a heroic death. I don't want to be forgotten by this world.
What should I do? | -2.740304 | -1.066629 | 0.334954 | 104.62 | 101.12766 | 4.387842 | 10.969605 | 6.182691 | -1.368754 | 153 | 2 | 43 | 2 | 7 | 53 | 30 | 47 | 0.359 | 0.352 | 0.288 | -0.7674 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 10 | 11 | 1 | 3 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 3 | 6 | 8 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 28 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.587746 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.266936 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189795 | 0 | 0 | 0.28124 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.200003 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.266873 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.325448 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.501042 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | potatopartytime | 2019/06/20 | i don’t don’t know where to start-
past few years been shit... seriously contemplated suicide a lot. graduated high school a year later than my peers, barely crawled through but somehow???? managed to get decent enough results to get into college. when that happened i was thinking: am i supposed to feel like my life’s... | 3.597007 | 5.156838 | 4.940309 | 82.378363 | 72.917051 | 7.317864 | 28.432909 | 7.928767 | 1.859996 | 859 | 34 | 166 | 12 | 17 | 286 | 129 | 217 | 0.186 | 0.724 | 0.09 | -0.9818 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 35 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 16 | 9 | 3 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 14 | 4 | 2 | 2 | 3 | 38 | 38 | 20 | 3 | 2 | 7 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 11 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 3 | 15 | 4 | 32 | 28 | 7 | 38 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 17 | 3 | 7 | 21 | 111 | 19 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122033 | 0 | 0 | 0.10126 | 0.219082 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07501 | 0.135899 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108828 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.255413 | 0.257123 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102793 | 0 | 0 | 0.127144 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103675 | 0 | 0.11059 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124436 | 0.175814 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104666 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113758 | 0.192866 | 0 | 0.139865 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108813 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130009 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067625 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086914 | 0.180348 | 0.123329 | 0.108656 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.209226 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094904 | 0.118843 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11807 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117465 | 0.255923 | 0.107443 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078829 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124533 | 0.098055 | 0.11202 | 0 | 0 | 0.252619 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125434 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174191 | 0 | 0.098268 | 0.102876 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134597 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.236537 | 0 | 0 | 0.071752 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106276 | 0 | 0 | 0.145156 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158481 |
suicidewatch | butmanas | 2019/06/20 | Afraid I'm going to hand myself today. Hoped I could get the whole weekend and do it on sunday but shits hitting the fan tomorrow so it has to be today. Scared as shit. Had a few trial runs, just to feel what it's like hanging, didn't seem too bad. Got loads of research about the method. Got a haircut yesterday. Not le... | 2.006645 | 4.234314 | 3.027391 | 91.287532 | 79.728477 | 5.616071 | 22.649448 | 6.742158 | 0.588676 | 590 | 19 | 121 | 6 | 15 | 188 | 105 | 151 | 0.259 | 0.635 | 0.106 | -0.9878 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 11 | 14 | 4 | 4 | 6 | 0 | 11 | 6 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 23 | 27 | 8 | 1 | 4 | 6 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 7 | 3 | 17 | 17 | 4 | 19 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 4 | 4 | 12 | 74 | 20 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15776 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149906 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099961 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119366 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114142 | 0 | 0 | 0.092198 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149363 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188848 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14457 | 0.102131 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074691 | 0 | 0.162495 | 0 | 0.228677 | 0 | 0.157487 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141992 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078567 | 0 | 0 | 0.151374 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069843 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105092 | 0 | 0.11026 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135144 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.286256 | 0 | 0 | 0.130146 | 0 | 0 | 0.586987 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114906 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094976 | 0 | 0 | 0.113495 | 0 | 0 | 0.271019 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128999 | 0.15961 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101555 | 0 | 0 | 0.092062 |
suicidewatch | ellixin | 2019/06/20 | If I don't die ill live a very painful life I'm at risk of being unenrolled at my college because I can't pay tuition. If I don't get mty certificate it'll be much harder to get a job, I've been trying for months an I can get interviews but I don't get hired. My mum is kicking me out of home in July since I've just Tu... | 1.101643 | 1.880422 | 3.576369 | 92.798839 | 77.952381 | 6.77381 | 24.553571 | 7.168622 | 0.767214 | 356 | 12 | 89 | 4 | 8 | 125 | 68 | 105 | 0.037 | 0.776 | 0.186 | 0.9275 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 13 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 21 | 6 | 2 | 3 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 10 | 15 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 48 | 11 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11872 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.404246 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178001 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.508753 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130539 | 0 | 0.195353 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.386525 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13756 | 0 | 0 | 0.171971 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15545 | 0 | 0.143166 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.207231 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.213781 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177296 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161102 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132225 | 0.211836 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160692 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | llkjllkj | 2019/06/20 | I don’t want to kill myself, I just want to stop existing. I can’t leave my family. But I truly wish I never even existed. I want to disappear from their life, like I was never even there. | 0.64375 | 2.554928 | 3.65 | 86.705 | 82.75 | 8 | 17.5 | 8.841846 | 1.08875 | 145 | 3 | 32 | 4 | 4 | 52 | 27 | 40 | 0.233 | 0.488 | 0.279 | -0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 7 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 10 | 1 | 4 | 6 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 24 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.362925 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.259 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.303958 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.290909 | 0 | 0 | 0.194056 | 0.134224 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.423792 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.229694 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.486145 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.315937 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | guardian_angelx | 2019/06/20 | not doing good Im making positive changes and improving my life but its still incredibly shitty and taking too long to improve. I only have myself to blame. Ive been very numb and a lot of times wish i was dead. | 1.27186 | 3.731256 | 3.40586 | 85.961814 | 84.813953 | 6.230698 | 20.227907 | 7.554174 | 0.911525 | 168 | 5 | 33 | 3 | 5 | 57 | 37 | 43 | 0.326 | 0.481 | 0.193 | -0.8759 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 8 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 3 | 6 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 22 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.342059 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.271208 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.349271 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.22839 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.286152 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.274898 | 0 | 0 | 0.215837 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.24592 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.258226 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.243117 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188546 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.266795 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.371833 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | LonelyExiled | 2019/06/20 | Sólo algunos pensamientos Supongo que para escribir necesito de tristeza, es lo que alimenta mi limitada creatividad o quizás solo lo uso como una forma de distraer al juez que aloja en mi mente... Las distracciones son esenciales para la vida creo que sin ellas no podrías sobrellevar una vida completa sin llegar a ten... | 8.622309 | 11.566179 | 9.249754 | 50.929403 | 62.50365 | 12.281088 | 38.731918 | 11.741389 | 6.356451 | 693 | 36 | 75 | 25 | 11 | 232 | 93 | 137 | 0.069 | 0.931 | 0 | -0.8555 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | tater1066 | 2019/06/20 | I’d rather be dead than fat I’ve had a fucking eating disorder for 2 years now. I was once 95 pounds and after recovery I gained 40 pounds.
I know that sounds so trivial. You can lose the weight, but idk if I can without starving myself or entering my eating disorder cycle again. And if I do that I’ll kill myself fo ... | 3.234405 | 4.350442 | 4.898096 | 84.071599 | 73.161074 | 7.834289 | 22.941428 | 8.296473 | 1.187585 | 566 | 14 | 118 | 9 | 11 | 192 | 92 | 149 | 0.253 | 0.641 | 0.106 | -0.9832 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 11 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 11 | 9 | 4 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 15 | 9 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 24 | 22 | 15 | 4 | 5 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 7 | 5 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 2 | 21 | 3 | 16 | 16 | 2 | 17 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 5 | 1 | 6 | 11 | 88 | 25 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128608 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112449 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151096 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178635 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.368627 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.329118 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148675 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159731 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142944 | 0.355847 | 0 | 0.088382 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113592 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179916 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171268 | 0.326927 | 0.122311 | 0.171124 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140422 | 0 | 0 | 0.152027 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134453 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175911 | 0 | 0.151571 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127673 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094856 | 0 | 0 | 0.195835 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155025 | 0.174402 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103563 |
suicidewatch | Inanition | 2019/06/20 | I wish people would see suicide as not a negative thing. Why is it that if I passed away normally I don't think it would affect people that much, but if I kill myself, it'll traumatize those who care about me. People say it's selfish to kill yourself but isn't it selfish for others to not want you to kill yourself as w... | 8.174032 | 5.371217 | 8.19578 | 77.713669 | 63.731183 | 11.02043 | 35.077957 | 8.841846 | 2.776809 | 355 | 11 | 74 | 4 | 4 | 116 | 60 | 93 | 0.35 | 0.532 | 0.118 | -0.9871 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 9 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 11 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 16 | 17 | 7 | 4 | 7 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 3 | 11 | 13 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 57 | 21 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16259 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154032 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167153 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169399 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093174 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174523 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.544144 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115799 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120519 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160632 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.454636 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130376 | 0 | 0 | 0.130643 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17933 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108918 | 0.10505 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096699 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147407 | 0 | 0.29587 | 0 | 0.188529 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.232924 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | misfitmouse | 2019/06/20 | Will someone here try to remember me at least one time after I am gone? I am sorry to be a burden & ask but it is upsetting me to realize that when I am gone, no one will ever know I was here. I guess I shouldn't care but I do a little bit. I just want to be remembered once; please. I do not need anything public ... | 3.164623 | 4.778329 | 4.17782 | 87.188019 | 74.142857 | 7.176821 | 26.177346 | 7.865859 | 1.436743 | 2,324 | 82 | 477 | 33 | 48 | 753 | 302 | 595 | 0.18 | 0.633 | 0.187 | 0.312 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 94 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 4 | 20 | 38 | 5 | 3 | 30 | 1 | 74 | 18 | 5 | 7 | 4 | 75 | 109 | 24 | 2 | 21 | 20 | 4 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 13 | 9 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 18 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 6 | 6 | 8 | 16 | 14 | 1 | 3 | 31 | 6 | 80 | 24 | 63 | 52 | 21 | 62 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 4 | 34 | 19 | 1 | 20 | 31 | 327 | 98 | 7 | 0 | 0.29175 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.640313 | 0 | 0.10047 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.040526 | 0 | 0.04604 | 0.056026 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053765 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.050287 | 0 | 0.050211 | 0 | 0.052097 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.23592 | 0 | 0 | 0.03176 | 0 | 0 | 0.049985 | 0.102222 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130855 | 0 | 0.054924 | 0.097582 | 0.044547 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.024901 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.04189 | 0 | 0 | 0.038048 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055977 | 0.041306 | 0.078775 | 0.054295 | 0.054251 | 0 | 0 | 0.104849 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052348 | 0 | 0.058358 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097827 | 0.048499 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.043773 | 0 | 0 | 0.05413 | 0.080286 | 0 | 0.104292 | 0 | 0.100717 | 0.104354 | 0.02406 | 0.098717 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055095 | 0.053759 | 0.125605 | 0.133343 | 0.093198 | 0.032873 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.036516 | 0.037983 | 0.047563 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052447 | 0.066742 | 0.037455 | 0 | 0 | 0.109367 | 0.05333 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108117 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.031549 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167363 | 0 | 0.046845 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055635 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125181 | 0 | 0 | 0.055128 | 0 | 0.157473 | 0.039329 | 0 | 0.056413 | 0 | 0.056376 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.037028 | 0.079166 | 0.129133 | 0.04534 | 0 | 0 | 0.032718 | 0 | 0 | 0.039097 | 0.114866 | 0.056603 | 0.093361 | 0 | 0 | 0.033436 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.042534 | 0 | 0 | 0.058095 | 0.07818 | 0 | 0 | 0.044279 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056632 | 0.047473 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139935 | 0 | 0 | 0.063427 |
suicidewatch | Throwaway1264646 | 2019/06/20 | Bye. I'm deleting my account, and end it all:(
Goodbye Reddit | 0.0175 | 2.297399 | 2.483333 | 87.945 | 99.833333 | 2.4 | 31 | 3.1291 | 1.1907 | 47 | 3 | 8 | 0 | 2 | 16 | 12 | 12 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Neko268 | 2019/06/20 | I wanna grab the kitchen knife... I just want to die because how the hell am I even here?? I’ve been here too long. 27 years is too long. 27 years is too much. I just want to die so bad. I’m not amazing, beautiful, or even passable. I’m UGLY. I’m self-destructive. I beat myself up...daily. Every second of every day, I’... | -1.418238 | 0.57966 | 1.122558 | 98.797129 | 98.883721 | 3.576386 | 14.754919 | 5.369823 | -0.962861 | 305 | 7 | 71 | 2 | 13 | 103 | 53 | 86 | 0.295 | 0.65 | 0.055 | -0.9787 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 22 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 15 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 10 | 13 | 3 | 3 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 7 | 1 | 6 | 12 | 1 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 7 | 39 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159654 | 0.116561 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123316 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.595343 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.252587 | 0 | 0.322209 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.338433 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140563 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.199476 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.305404 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122521 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.225563 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172539 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.246268 |
suicidewatch | luceario | 2019/06/20 | I’m going to kill myself today Self explanatory title.
I called my mental health team last night to be told they can only offer me a workshop for coping skills for a couple of weeks and that any other support isn’t necessary because things aren’t severe enough, and this behaviour is ‘typical’ of someone with my menta... | 4.906836 | 5.649482 | 5.386623 | 83.493762 | 68.958848 | 7.8857 | 26.298611 | 7.865859 | 1.424597 | 967 | 27 | 190 | 11 | 16 | 310 | 128 | 243 | 0.246 | 0.709 | 0.045 | -0.9949 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 19 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 6 | 19 | 5 | 1 | 10 | 0 | 26 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 32 | 40 | 17 | 4 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 12 | 12 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 28 | 4 | 37 | 32 | 5 | 28 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 9 | 2 | 3 | 17 | 137 | 40 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140573 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07227 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086299 | 0.126011 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112839 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.211079 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114363 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106796 | 0 | 0.068266 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104521 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095552 | 0.054 | 0 | 0.117481 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109864 | 0 | 0.122479 | 0 | 0 | 0.103676 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183737 | 0.343048 | 0 | 0.056802 | 0.1685 | 0 | 0 | 0.112298 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.365065 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.20832 | 0.109646 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099823 | 0 | 0.096994 | 0 | 0.099174 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157216 | 0.329938 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066213 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117084 | 0 | 0 | 0.082194 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107824 | 0.116764 | 0 | 0.085498 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087574 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117289 | 0 | 0.107428 | 0 | 0.083075 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068666 | 0.066227 | 0 | 0 | 0.060268 | 0 | 0.097971 | 0.098762 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060963 | 0 | 0.248721 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093264 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.199676 |
suicidewatch | DarthMaveric | 2019/06/20 | End this nightmare I want to kill myself, i'm so big of an human garbage that i can't even clean my own apartment.
I'm fucking screwed because today landlord will come and check this and i will end up homeless if he sees that i can't keep my place clean, this apartment was my savior and if i don't have it, my only way... | 3.581013 | 3.687561 | 4.463139 | 91.205595 | 71.658228 | 6.32 | 28.458228 | 3.1291 | 0.718026 | 287 | 10 | 65 | 0 | 5 | 93 | 53 | 79 | 0.208 | 0.776 | 0.016 | -0.9461 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 17 | 6 | 2 | 3 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 6 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 11 | 0 | 4 | 14 | 1 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 5 | 2 | 2 | 4 | 40 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206356 | 0 | 0.163593 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.231172 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.475383 | 0 | 0 | 0.177252 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.248099 | 0 | 0 | 0.152518 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.238535 | 0.296906 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.204103 | 0 | 0 | 0.297987 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.280384 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.213852 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.254378 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158288 | 0.213015 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Epicgamercat | 2019/06/20 | Contemplating suicide for the past few years, don’t know how much more I can take. Hi everybody. I’ve come to this sub to ask for a bit of advice and maybe look for a bit of support from people that may be struggling with what I’m going through. First off, let me say that things forever have just...not been great. From... | 4.766138 | 4.954013 | 6.036661 | 80.670079 | 69.096339 | 9.570352 | 27.008731 | 9.516145 | 2.131727 | 1,993 | 56 | 412 | 40 | 32 | 673 | 223 | 519 | 0.131 | 0.693 | 0.176 | 0.9717 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 69 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 3 | 19 | 23 | 2 | 1 | 17 | 0 | 48 | 10 | 3 | 7 | 7 | 84 | 91 | 36 | 6 | 12 | 19 | 1 | 7 | 5 | 0 | 5 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 25 | 21 | 0 | 0 | 19 | 3 | 0 | 9 | 14 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 14 | 12 | 55 | 18 | 60 | 68 | 19 | 54 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 3 | 26 | 14 | 2 | 13 | 35 | 272 | 80 | 3 | 0 | 0.145827 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060135 | 0.054551 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102411 | 0 | 0 | 0.041849 | 0 | 0.047077 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.050641 | 0.054783 | 0.115061 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052365 | 0.069333 | 0 | 0 | 0.201554 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125486 | 0 | 0.0651 | 0.05301 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.049134 | 0 | 0.067598 | 0 | 0 | 0.053003 | 0.124922 | 0.191603 | 0.064295 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069223 | 0.054505 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111331 | 0.103699 | 0 | 0 | 0.060197 | 0 | 0 | 0.15558 | 0.13189 | 0.059087 | 0.067413 | 0 | 0.052345 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059034 | 0.104922 | 0 | 0 | 0.135694 | 0.067792 | 0.121867 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.24749 | 0 | 0 | 0.122244 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068084 | 0 | 0.169101 | 0.050163 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062928 | 0.130401 | 0.150324 | 0.061678 | 0.05434 | 0.05446 | 0.051677 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055541 | 0 | 0.041078 | 0 | 0.123648 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09824 | 0 | 0.090477 | 0.04563 | 0.094925 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118097 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.046803 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066641 | 0.117492 | 0.213317 | 0 | 0.064295 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071936 | 0.185591 | 0 | 0 | 0.061556 | 0.14009 | 0.315388 | 0.126545 | 0 | 0 | 0.139423 | 0 | 0 | 0.048938 | 0 | 0 | 0.049039 | 0.056023 | 0.064199 | 0.069522 | 0.063169 | 0.050906 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068888 | 0.087115 | 0 | 0.049145 | 0 | 0 | 0.064334 | 0 | 0.134627 | 0.139668 | 0 | 0 | 0.04627 | 0 | 0 | 0.056657 | 0 | 0.071452 | 0.122651 | 0 | 0.060462 | 0 | 0.035884 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.050776 | 0.036297 | 0.048847 | 0 | 0 | 0.110662 | 0 | 0.055529 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066736 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.043716 | 0 | 0 | 0.158516 |
suicidewatch | BlossomBeautifully | 2019/06/20 | Mutterseelenallein I've been thinking about the end. I don't know what exactly that I'm hoping to get by posting this, maybe typing it down helps me validate my thoughts and feelings. I've been allowing others to take advantage of me for a fleeting moment of feeling loved and desired. I know there are others who have v... | 7.16359 | 7.36853 | 7.054615 | 75.357051 | 64 | 10.010256 | 35.602564 | 9.725611 | 3.428614 | 440 | 19 | 78 | 8 | 6 | 140 | 71 | 104 | 0.113 | 0.64 | 0.247 | 0.8885 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 18 | 23 | 6 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 10 | 3 | 16 | 19 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 54 | 21 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178887 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183956 | 0 | 0 | 0.13718 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.420066 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108512 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.41764 | 0 | 0 | 0.206287 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.228287 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187452 | 0 | 0 | 0.21057 | 0.208657 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198914 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.227184 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15616 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137983 | 0.133082 | 0 | 0.164886 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122504 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.374824 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Drew286 | 2019/06/20 | Hey... How is everyone feeling tonight? I'm having my downs at the moment, just curious how everyone else is feeling? | 4.454286 | 7.140707 | 5.924048 | 71.291786 | 73.761905 | 9.914286 | 39.071429 | 10.125757 | 5.1706 | 92 | 6 | 14 | 3 | 2 | 31 | 17 | 21 | 0 | 0.75 | 0.25 | 0.5661 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 10 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.360398 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.824484 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.43628 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | ksincere5 | 2019/06/20 | Uncertain about my future... Hey all, I recently turned 24 and I personally feel like I should end it. Apologies in advance for my poor grammar skills if you are taking the time to read this post.
Anyways, for the last 7 years I've been struggling trying to decide what I wanted to do with my life. After dropping ou... | 7.10711 | 5.955329 | 7.717783 | 75.046752 | 64.590778 | 11.216731 | 34.237793 | 10.419449 | 3.363522 | 2,744 | 100 | 538 | 57 | 35 | 916 | 292 | 694 | 0.128 | 0.816 | 0.056 | -0.9938 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 74 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 9 | 19 | 26 | 3 | 4 | 45 | 0 | 55 | 15 | 3 | 2 | 7 | 83 | 91 | 43 | 0 | 12 | 17 | 6 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 26 | 34 | 2 | 2 | 8 | 3 | 9 | 6 | 13 | 14 | 2 | 1 | 38 | 6 | 56 | 12 | 110 | 47 | 20 | 106 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 30 | 46 | 1 | 8 | 49 | 364 | 82 | 25 | 0.320774 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058997 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072712 | 0.22424 | 0 | 0 | 0.05302 | 0 | 0 | 0.08799 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100459 | 0 | 0 | 0.06518 | 0 | 0.136478 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059385 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056054 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059155 | 0 | 0.172394 | 0 | 0.046047 | 0.054263 | 0 | 0.055857 | 0 | 0.054721 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.044661 | 0 | 0.094704 | 0.055241 | 0 | 0.035311 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.048049 | 0.104593 | 0 | 0 | 0.081097 | 0.038194 | 0 | 0.058565 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.041305 | 0 | 0.167591 | 0 | 0.030384 | 0.044842 | 0.213794 | 0.058942 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.047892 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.035835 | 0.112972 | 0 | 0 | 0.368548 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106106 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174316 | 0.060308 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113286 | 0.026119 | 0.053583 | 0.047208 | 0.047312 | 0.044895 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071373 | 0.108405 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053858 | 0 | 0 | 0.053982 | 0 | 0.085346 | 0 | 0.078602 | 0.079283 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153896 | 0 | 0.0561 | 0 | 0.036227 | 0.121982 | 0 | 0 | 0.059364 | 0.057895 | 0 | 0 | 0.233406 | 0.055857 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.051202 | 0.05439 | 0.057641 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05989 | 0 | 0.053477 | 0 | 0.171247 | 0 | 0.052788 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053525 | 0.108214 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.044225 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.045298 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.037841 | 0.113968 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111781 | 0 | 0 | 0.121337 | 0.050388 | 0 | 0.040197 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.035518 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062349 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118797 | 0.036297 | 0.058152 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.044112 | 0.031533 | 0 | 0.042884 | 0 | 0.096138 | 0 | 0.048241 | 0 | 0 | 0.051536 | 0.057978 | 0.272449 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137712 |
suicidewatch | Jupiter-Space-King | 2019/06/20 | Well I’m not sure what to do? Hi, uh this is a little weird writing this down publicly but hey I’ve done it once before. I made a post about a year ago close to two under the account ThatOneFriend04 it basically talked about how I was super sad and all that Jazz. But I’m not sure what to do anymore I’m 14 now about to ... | 1.551398 | 2.684867 | 3.337547 | 93.538498 | 77.410042 | 6.705219 | 20.947148 | 7.273562 | 0.304685 | 847 | 20 | 206 | 10 | 19 | 284 | 129 | 239 | 0.205 | 0.719 | 0.076 | -0.9894 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 15 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 3 | 17 | 14 | 3 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 27 | 4 | 1 | 2 | 6 | 43 | 45 | 22 | 1 | 5 | 18 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 16 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 9 | 7 | 2 | 1 | 10 | 1 | 28 | 7 | 25 | 28 | 4 | 19 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 18 | 10 | 2 | 3 | 9 | 140 | 44 | 3 | 0 | 0.155023 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.231962 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129757 | 0.091486 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079758 | 0 | 0.111334 | 0.294822 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08438 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133894 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.236703 | 0 | 0.125022 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125626 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.241917 | 0.068358 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104644 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140066 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144754 | 0 | 0.071906 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063921 | 0.131135 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123803 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153237 | 0.104434 | 0 | 0 | 0.097015 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139339 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090707 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125308 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.264832 | 0 | 0 | 0.136494 | 0 | 0 | 0.216463 | 0 | 0.130934 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.246628 | 0 | 0 | 0.210327 | 0.114359 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15038 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177662 | 0 | 0.127811 | 0.136208 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154345 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11764 | 0 | 0 | 0.146077 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095252 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084256 |
suicidewatch | N_O_S_L_E_E_P | 2019/06/20 | Can someone help me I made this post before but I'm want help. I want help of advice and tricks for staying up longer. I'm doing an experiment that I document my experience and feelings of what I'm going through and for each night. If you want to give me advice or | 2.053636 | 3.959783 | 3.932727 | 86.459091 | 78.090909 | 6.581818 | 23.727273 | 7.554174 | 1.054382 | 210 | 7 | 44 | 3 | 5 | 71 | 38 | 55 | 0.031 | 0.736 | 0.233 | 0.8608 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 12 | 12 | 6 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 7 | 11 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 27 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.420596 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183125 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.421027 | 0 | 0 | 0.108815 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206446 | 0.122307 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.432746 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.203634 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.201957 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206109 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182344 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.229382 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.380804 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | scale-r | 2019/06/20 | I want to stop I just want to stop. Stop existing. Stop breathing. Stop being. | -1.09 | -2.143827 | 0.526667 | 96.63 | 149 | 3.866667 | 16.333333 | 5.683918 | 0.029933 | 60 | 2 | 12 | 1 | 5 | 19 | 8 | 15 | 0.561 | 0.306 | 0.133 | -0.8126 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.962413 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.271591 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | canadian-men938 | 2019/06/20 | just sharing my thoughts with you And tbh now I feel much better. There are a few things I want to do before, but without this decision my feelings/brain would still be in hell. Now I can complete these things on my to do list at least with a little bit of peace, and then after its done (nothing bad to another person o... | 2.776475 | 4.377699 | 3.386033 | 92.515934 | 75.147541 | 5.863607 | 24.495082 | 6.2581 | 0.555004 | 469 | 15 | 100 | 3 | 10 | 147 | 87 | 122 | 0.231 | 0.609 | 0.16 | -0.9508 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 10 | 12 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 10 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 24 | 18 | 10 | 1 | 3 | 9 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 10 | 5 | 14 | 13 | 8 | 13 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 1 | 2 | 8 | 72 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168328 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.207461 | 0.159948 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.254724 | 0 | 0 | 0.129798 | 0 | 0 | 0.134906 | 0.166531 | 0 | 0 | 0.170282 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156697 | 0 | 0 | 0.159932 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158309 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.312196 | 0.178772 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135102 | 0 | 0 | 0.100749 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154254 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08669 | 0.127941 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074522 | 0.152882 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112132 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.292726 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16231 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133189 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130266 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11743 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121816 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202677 | 0 | 0 | 0.121097 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125859 | 0.17994 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137149 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.29408 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108358 | 0.166775 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | adra_ke | 2019/06/20 | I don't know whats stopping me from killing myself anymore I've hooked up with my ex nearly every month since we broke up. I still love him, but he's made it very clear he doesn't care about me. Everytime we've been together I've left crying, and told myself I wouldn't let him use me anymore, and then I find some way t... | 3.712471 | 3.798614 | 5.062558 | 87.094661 | 71.365269 | 8.158312 | 25.4856 | 7.957252 | 1.144815 | 1,219 | 32 | 281 | 15 | 21 | 409 | 153 | 334 | 0.127 | 0.728 | 0.144 | 0.9489 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 37 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 17 | 16 | 1 | 0 | 10 | 1 | 30 | 8 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 63 | 65 | 22 | 2 | 10 | 15 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 15 | 15 | 0 | 1 | 14 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 15 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 3 | 46 | 12 | 29 | 51 | 5 | 27 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 23 | 13 | 0 | 4 | 13 | 170 | 61 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0.086693 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09201 | 0.098035 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060413 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.264311 | 0.062118 | 0 | 0 | 0.079085 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10831 | 0 | 0 | 0.10009 | 0 | 0 | 0.096988 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181153 | 0 | 0.093979 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07093 | 0 | 0.097585 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074213 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07485 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.243589 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100978 | 0.074513 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078559 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088236 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098286 | 0 | 0.341762 | 0 | 0 | 0.094067 | 0.096523 | 0.090843 | 0.250996 | 0.086804 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.24054 | 0.084061 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07091 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068517 | 0.0858 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170485 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060199 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184768 | 0.23271 | 0 | 0 | 0.083981 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095783 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113824 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073488 | 0 | 0 | 0.090559 | 0.075272 | 0.068392 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070946 | 0.074273 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05902 | 0.056924 | 0 | 0.141055 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084889 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092484 | 0 | 0.076728 | 0 | 0.073301 | 0.366793 | 0.070516 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080163 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064675 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097131 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | quietandfalling | 2019/06/20 | My mother said she understands. I've been dealing with mental health issues for as long as I can remember, and for the last 6 years I've struggled with chronic pain. Long story short, my own mother who I love more than anyone, told me that she understands my pain and accepts that I'll likely die of suicide. I love you ... | 6.150811 | 5.483628 | 6.29527 | 82.879122 | 66.297297 | 9.021622 | 29.310811 | 8.076483 | 1.797659 | 288 | 8 | 59 | 3 | 4 | 92 | 50 | 74 | 0.202 | 0.674 | 0.124 | -0.7717 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 9 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 11 | 4 | 9 | 6 | 3 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 12 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 33 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125379 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184863 | 0 | 0 | 0.186098 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190601 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187156 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146164 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126654 | 0.087603 | 0 | 0 | 0.317372 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.323673 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180143 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180705 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190701 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.381602 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.203126 | 0 | 0.170567 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142889 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187456 | 0 | 0.196139 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171341 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.373341 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115471 |
suicidewatch | TrashyHuman | 2019/06/20 | Feeling alone I don’t know why I can’t escape this feeling. I feel like an outcast everywhere I go. I try to distract myself but it always lingers in the back of my mind. | -0.298333 | 1.975964 | 1.968 | 93.777 | 93.444444 | 3.991111 | 23.866667 | 5.683918 | 0.484673 | 134 | 6 | 28 | 1 | 5 | 45 | 30 | 36 | 0.098 | 0.724 | 0.178 | 0.1437 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 7 | 1 | 3 | 7 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 18 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.358934 | 0 | 0 | 0.288368 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.266485 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.525697 | 0.247584 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.196959 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190462 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169313 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.349929 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.235293 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.312718 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | xXscience-guyXx | 2019/06/20 | Going to kill myself because of my virginity Being on vacation now, I realize that I have nothing left to live for. Life is not worth living alone. As soon as I get back, I am going to buy a gun and end my miserable existance | 4.257536 | 4.766412 | 6.807391 | 73.567319 | 70.304348 | 10.481159 | 30.550725 | 10.504224 | 3.348733 | 176 | 7 | 34 | 5 | 3 | 64 | 38 | 46 | 0.241 | 0.724 | 0.035 | -0.8814 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 7 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 8 | 6 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 26 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.307722 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.228463 | 0 | 0.181119 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.263156 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15523 | 0 | 0.337715 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.328714 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.322817 | 0 | 0.209861 | 0 | 0 | 0.524716 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.28509 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Depressed_Bitch123 | 2019/06/20 | I had a dream that human euthanization was legal... It was the best dream ever.
Not even gonna lie tho I was extremely nervous about being put to sleep in the dream but I went through with it anyways LMFAO | 0.596911 | 3.101932 | 2.616463 | 88.474776 | 93.390244 | 4.684553 | 19.028455 | 6.427356 | 0.240948 | 162 | 5 | 32 | 2 | 6 | 54 | 33 | 41 | 0.038 | 0.672 | 0.29 | 0.8821 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 7 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 26 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.459012 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.288891 | 0.395643 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.439696 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.437704 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.405463 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | MyRedditAccountDuh | 2019/06/20 | PTSD is going to kill me I have constant issues with my PTSD but right now it's bad. It feels hard to breathe, wrists are throbbing, etc. I was raped and assaulted by two people I knew and trusted in the span of 3months (and also have a history of childhood sexual abuse). Absolutley everything feels impossible.
The w... | 1.876586 | 4.30467 | 2.930466 | 90.639188 | 81.61745 | 6.409564 | 23.40646 | 7.645422 | 1.087352 | 590 | 21 | 124 | 10 | 16 | 188 | 104 | 149 | 0.264 | 0.617 | 0.119 | -0.9836 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 37 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 10 | 11 | 4 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 12 | 7 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 20 | 25 | 13 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 8 | 14 | 3 | 15 | 20 | 4 | 12 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 75 | 20 | 0 | 0 | 0.177901 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120073 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125367 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153086 | 0.154243 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162256 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167454 | 0.198342 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134943 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.227758 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085332 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.269006 | 0 | 0 | 0.1596 | 0 | 0 | 0.201282 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156715 | 0.148998 | 0 | 0.166116 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106054 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167977 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100225 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151314 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110376 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144071 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104094 | 0 | 0 | 0.329634 | 0 | 0.169269 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.351029 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128225 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119648 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141512 | 0 | 0.112892 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146673 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088561 | 0.11918 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153013 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | throwaway64582 | 2019/06/20 | I hate my life I hate my life. I feel no reason for me to live. I’ve been thinking about suicide but it’s honestly too much work. All I do is just stay home laying on my bed. I find nothing interesting no more. I’ve been trying drugs to try to keep entertained. But nothing is working. I barely go outside at all. I just... | -0.821182 | 1.305215 | 1.726104 | 94.021623 | 99.142857 | 4.25974 | 20.649351 | 6.112484 | 0.255143 | 259 | 10 | 56 | 3 | 11 | 88 | 47 | 70 | 0.239 | 0.662 | 0.098 | -0.8354 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 12 | 12 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 11 | 3 | 7 | 10 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 35 | 12 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.2368 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206493 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186629 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116048 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.403198 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.204823 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181497 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.288456 | 0 | 0 | 0.180307 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150106 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.391859 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.209945 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.217643 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.223355 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130839 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.277268 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.297311 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | AusMurray | 2019/06/20 | Anyone else feel they’re wasting their life being depressed? I’ve had depression and anxiety on and off for the last 7 years and it just depresses me even more when I think of the time I’ve wasted feeling this way and the things I could be doing instead. | 10.252353 | 6.673606 | 9.394216 | 73.128971 | 60.568627 | 12.552941 | 39.22549 | 10.125757 | 3.742325 | 205 | 7 | 40 | 3 | 2 | 65 | 42 | 51 | 0.311 | 0.663 | 0.026 | -0.946 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 8 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 28 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197556 | 0 | 0 | 0.18057 | 0.264602 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206187 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.667276 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.21573 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170568 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.261152 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.210503 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182405 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171566 | 0.165472 | 0 | 0 | 0.150584 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.204982 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166301 |
suicidewatch | aubry0193829 | 2019/06/20 | a suicidal rant im posting in my horrible cathartic state heheheh (cross posted on r/selfharm) im trying so hard everyday to not kill myself. if i sit alone in a fucking boring house where the only things to do are go on the internet and be on my phone, its so much harder to be motivated to live past tomorrow when all ... | 5.297708 | 5.06723 | 6.390867 | 80.0208 | 67.958333 | 9.134222 | 28.854074 | 8.726425 | 2.009193 | 1,659 | 50 | 341 | 24 | 25 | 558 | 209 | 432 | 0.177 | 0.672 | 0.152 | -0.9078 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 33 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 4 | 16 | 29 | 10 | 0 | 18 | 2 | 46 | 6 | 1 | 3 | 4 | 66 | 68 | 39 | 5 | 9 | 9 | 2 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 28 | 31 | 1 | 1 | 9 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 13 | 16 | 0 | 4 | 7 | 6 | 48 | 13 | 41 | 51 | 10 | 38 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 2 | 24 | 16 | 4 | 6 | 16 | 246 | 76 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07932 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072859 | 0.075358 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.04948 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.050876 | 0.074552 | 0.059876 | 0.064772 | 0.068021 | 0 | 0.068361 | 0 | 0 | 0.044354 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.222553 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058093 | 0 | 0 | 0.093849 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151028 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.3411 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060782 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081147 | 0.048058 | 0.065816 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.205777 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134532 | 0.038014 | 0 | 0.041352 | 0.122056 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077455 | 0.130359 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09754 | 0 | 0 | 0.144536 | 0 | 0.083956 | 0 | 0 | 0.314376 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160998 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079055 | 0 | 0.102786 | 0.071094 | 0.072925 | 0.064249 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137696 | 0 | 0 | 0.146196 | 0.158515 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077188 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106975 | 0.107902 | 0 | 0.140545 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197218 | 0.221351 | 0 | 0 | 0.161584 | 0 | 0.069458 | 0.100886 | 0.063532 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082027 | 0.139369 | 0 | 0 | 0.069622 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173943 | 0 | 0.075905 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056015 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058107 | 0.060831 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079588 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063596 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193356 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.042427 | 0 | 0 | 0.139052 | 0 | 0.098799 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180106 | 0.042916 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052971 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Joe_says_so | 2019/06/20 | I’m used to being me why is today worse Pretty much just the title. I always hate myself. For some reason right this instant I’m way worse. I have nobody to turn to. At all, ever. Nothing new. I’m self destructive. | -0.910455 | 1.002765 | 1.841364 | 91.657045 | 105.818182 | 3.109091 | 12.318182 | 5.148861 | -1.009491 | 166 | 3 | 32 | 1 | 8 | 57 | 35 | 44 | 0.272 | 0.665 | 0.063 | -0.8934 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 6 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 5 | 8 | 3 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 19 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.200545 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.218014 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.237954 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177175 | 0 | 0 | 0.232776 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.231262 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.245201 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.247806 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.205827 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.251433 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.228456 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.262157 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.208161 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191308 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.21748 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.491234 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Feeling_Ninja | 2019/06/20 | According to the most well known band of the 2010's, I am not even human and they would not want me anywhere near them There was a song released in 2016/17 from the most famous girlband of this decade, and it was about how they would never go near a man who struggles to find a job or is unable to pay rent so lives with... | 4.792091 | 4.340516 | 5.255242 | 88.485988 | 69.044053 | 8.74673 | 25.831583 | 8.13951 | 1.187961 | 843 | 19 | 194 | 10 | 13 | 270 | 113 | 227 | 0.066 | 0.86 | 0.074 | 0.5994 | 10 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 21 | 0 | 2 | 15 | 0 | 14 | 8 | 1 | 2 | 18 | 0 | 22 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 46 | 33 | 21 | 1 | 10 | 12 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 5 | 5 | 11 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 6 | 3 | 1 | 7 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 33 | 5 | 26 | 24 | 8 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 34 | 7 | 0 | 10 | 1 | 143 | 38 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122616 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101272 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144544 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140139 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080107 | 0 | 0.08714 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.456462 | 0 | 0.169634 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.270782 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118256 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170252 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160195 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139584 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160291 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.289019 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134015 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098246 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126511 | 0.27131 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.27572 | 0 | 0 | 0.171185 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.435679 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | tryingtodiesick | 2019/06/20 | Anyone else with Tinnitus? I've decided to kill myself and I'm 100% sure about my decision. I'd like to talk to someone else with Tinnitus or another chronic illness about this. It'd be nice to commiserate with someone who's also in the same boat. Thank you | 2.787059 | 5.16376 | 4.815451 | 78.705529 | 77.823529 | 8.785882 | 29.807843 | 9.3871 | 3.213577 | 207 | 10 | 38 | 6 | 5 | 71 | 39 | 51 | 0.129 | 0.696 | 0.176 | 0.1779 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 4 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 10 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 22 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.22365 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.293255 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19555 | 0.286552 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.467252 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.30941 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136631 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.473922 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.263583 | 0 | 0 | 0.224786 | 0 | 0.25748 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | pmanly | 2019/06/20 | I'm sure its been posted here a million and 1 times...but If I knew it wouldn't devastate my family and (some of) my friends, I'd end all in a heartbeat. Like, no hesitation.
But knowing my parents especially would be a wreck, I just can't bring myself to do it.
Does anyone have any cosmic knowledge that would ease... | 1.994737 | 4.397839 | 3.641316 | 85.876711 | 80.929825 | 5.905263 | 24.412281 | 7.168622 | 1.170418 | 452 | 17 | 87 | 6 | 12 | 150 | 80 | 114 | 0.104 | 0.759 | 0.137 | 0.4049 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 20 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 22 | 24 | 7 | 0 | 6 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 14 | 4 | 7 | 14 | 2 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 66 | 22 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154949 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159322 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.199398 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.201812 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.214802 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17604 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152727 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.37567 | 0 | 0 | 0.241266 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111319 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.230069 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173294 | 0 | 0 | 0.253006 | 0 | 0 | 0.315932 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.218222 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190497 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.214751 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151377 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188004 | 0.134395 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.323724 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | BibleBlackBoogaloo | 2019/06/20 | I refuse to be alone ever again. I had this whole thing planned out, but I started writing and I just can't. It pretty much boils down to me being...tired. Weary. Exhausted. I've been a loner my entire life. Have a big, loving family, but never felt close with a single member. Had friends earlier on in life. Girlfriend... | -0.010984 | 2.327148 | 1.837478 | 94.926511 | 92.278689 | 4.458055 | 13.877377 | 6.152001 | -0.687162 | 690 | 12 | 147 | 7 | 25 | 226 | 109 | 183 | 0.212 | 0.602 | 0.186 | -0.1862 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 34 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 11 | 14 | 4 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 20 | 8 | 1 | 1 | 7 | 35 | 40 | 10 | 0 | 2 | 10 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 8 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 12 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 3 | 18 | 8 | 20 | 21 | 5 | 27 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 15 | 8 | 2 | 2 | 15 | 99 | 27 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.391595 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132156 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088125 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118412 | 0.193822 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105284 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.228007 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118812 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.242022 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097372 | 0.116515 | 0 | 0 | 0.214881 | 0.10571 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.268328 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131545 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.267061 | 0.061573 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113749 | 0 | 0.084128 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1337 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092648 | 0 | 0.291612 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136481 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120704 | 0.12822 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08074 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119886 | 0 | 0.12618 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12937 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178413 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118784 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08373 | 0.080756 | 0.247652 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074337 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140711 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091753 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Itstimetosuicide | 2019/06/20 | It’s time I’m going to kill my self now. It’s time. It’s ok. I tried to get help but it just doesn’t work for some people. My kids will be better off if I do it now. | -4.024286 | -2.667998 | -0.217143 | 109.087143 | 102.333333 | 2.8 | 7 | 3.1291 | -2.741029 | 124 | 0 | 39 | 0 | 6 | 45 | 30 | 42 | 0.069 | 0.753 | 0.177 | 0.5346 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 7 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 4 | 5 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 23 | 9 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.334964 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197876 | 0 | 0.215246 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.253861 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.419019 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.26257 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.395108 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.441692 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.257139 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.275727 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | throw-away-account-d | 2019/06/20 | Mixed emotions Over the course of the last few weeks my life has been a living hell. I don’t have a job and have applied to over 20 and can’t get a call back, I’ve call them and they usually give me the run around, one job gave me three interviews to then say I wasn’t qualified enough in the end. ,My cell phone broke ... | 1.712863 | 2.654757 | 2.715183 | 98.928576 | 76.671756 | 6.003359 | 18.825191 | 5.985473 | -0.518344 | 923 | 15 | 236 | 5 | 20 | 293 | 147 | 262 | 0.121 | 0.844 | 0.035 | -0.9597 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 18 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 12 | 7 | 3 | 0 | 19 | 0 | 20 | 2 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 30 | 42 | 18 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 14 | 9 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 4 | 12 | 9 | 6 | 0 | 4 | 7 | 3 | 29 | 1 | 28 | 32 | 6 | 42 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 28 | 10 | 2 | 1 | 19 | 142 | 43 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11708 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095815 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081477 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106659 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184258 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.489372 | 0 | 0 | 0.123081 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07727 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134774 | 0.212238 | 0.123799 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100948 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060581 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101913 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125195 | 0.114936 | 0.136185 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080308 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.237793 | 0.106496 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097664 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084628 | 0 | 0 | 0.211595 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159953 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088077 | 0.17768 | 0 | 0.115717 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114964 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081189 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10232 | 0.11397 | 0.09528 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109074 | 0 | 0 | 0.122987 | 0.099111 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100169 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079599 | 0.153543 | 0 | 0 | 0.069864 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133117 | 0.081345 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206961 | 0.131958 | 0 | 0.070669 | 0 | 0.192214 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087226 | 0 | 0.1221 | 0 | 0.130997 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | SKTT1Nimmo | 2019/06/20 | I'm sick of feeling lost, alone, and tired. my entire life i have felt isolated. I've never understood people, i've had trouble connecting with people and i've had major anxiety about nearly everything for as long as i can remember. ( i'm 30~)
I have also had trouble sleeping my entire life. most nights i sleep like a... | 2.979435 | 4.745308 | 4.300865 | 85.473608 | 74.988024 | 7.086798 | 27.098232 | 7.876101 | 1.654986 | 1,962 | 76 | 391 | 29 | 42 | 647 | 246 | 501 | 0.216 | 0.727 | 0.057 | -0.9979 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 6 | 64 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 7 | 25 | 26 | 16 | 1 | 19 | 0 | 34 | 25 | 6 | 3 | 4 | 64 | 73 | 34 | 8 | 5 | 7 | 2 | 4 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 12 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 13 | 32 | 0 | 1 | 13 | 3 | 0 | 5 | 12 | 21 | 0 | 5 | 26 | 5 | 67 | 5 | 68 | 43 | 6 | 69 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 7 | 40 | 23 | 8 | 3 | 44 | 256 | 80 | 5 | 0 | 0.076963 | 0.063388 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05758 | 0 | 0 | 0.067275 | 0 | 0.103891 | 0.054049 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.049691 | 0 | 0.064419 | 0.045419 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079194 | 0 | 0.055273 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132655 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125674 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067414 | 0 | 0 | 0.066486 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115064 | 0 | 0 | 0.042903 | 0 | 0.054728 | 0 | 0.058379 | 0 | 0.061235 | 0 | 0.098532 | 0 | 0.062368 | 0.071156 | 0 | 0.110504 | 0 | 0 | 0.050185 | 0.420357 | 0 | 0.062312 | 0 | 0 | 0.103903 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064131 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191907 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140328 | 0 | 0.064459 | 0 | 0.215594 | 0 | 0.071397 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070575 | 0 | 0.229403 | 0.095203 | 0 | 0.057358 | 0.114969 | 0 | 0 | 0.070907 | 0 | 0 | 0.061463 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065437 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.051848 | 0 | 0.04775 | 0.096329 | 0.150295 | 0 | 0.069082 | 0.060957 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.207529 | 0.044016 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090065 | 0.056717 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066084 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064974 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064137 | 0 | 0.147166 | 0.055472 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.051762 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.260013 | 0 | 0.055037 | 0.050007 | 0 | 0 | 0.045976 | 0 | 0.103748 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.284207 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104419 | 0.056775 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.043154 | 0.041621 | 0.063819 | 0 | 0.11363 | 0.074658 | 0 | 0.186206 | 0.072169 | 0.044101 | 0 | 0.063453 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076626 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060215 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062616 | 0 | 0 | 0.065966 | 0 | 0 | 0.07102 | 0 | 0.167319 |
suicidewatch | amaworthless | 2019/06/20 | I hope I die in an accident, or be murdered, or when again I'm on the top floor of a building and hesitate to jump, I unintentioally trip myself and fall out of the verge. Then I won't need to take any pills anymore.
I won't have to suffer the disdain from the doctors and therapists anymore.
No more struggles.
No mo... | 2.282414 | 4.5531 | 3.489658 | 88.109014 | 79 | 6.310664 | 28.452716 | 7.44753 | 1.660604 | 281 | 13 | 57 | 4 | 7 | 91 | 50 | 71 | 0.329 | 0.543 | 0.128 | -0.9499 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 9 | 7 | 2 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 9 | 5 | 3 | 12 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 40 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190631 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.556014 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.290933 | 0 | 0 | 0.286925 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.278426 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.207857 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.293057 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.21077 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.325479 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.222547 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.284684 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | asdvxdasuixda | 2019/06/20 | I’m so done I know I’m young but I don’t want to be here anymore
I’m too tired,I hate my family. Why does no one care when I do something. Why do they only care about anyone else. I’ve always been the good kid up until the last 2 years but before that I was just the good kid, that’s how I rationalized never getting a... | -1.865536 | 0.026934 | 1.117381 | 99.519286 | 97.75 | 3.514286 | 15.928571 | 5.148861 | -0.945493 | 573 | 15 | 141 | 3 | 24 | 199 | 86 | 168 | 0.269 | 0.595 | 0.136 | -0.9836 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 15 | 12 | 4 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 16 | 5 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 24 | 37 | 12 | 0 | 4 | 11 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 24 | 4 | 12 | 31 | 0 | 13 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 9 | 86 | 27 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114449 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105222 | 0 | 0.409227 | 0.096176 | 0.140932 | 0.226378 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117042 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.280475 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120368 | 0.140758 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114902 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129666 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.215587 | 0 | 0.078171 | 0.230734 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135798 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13797 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.226775 | 0.112119 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194306 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106084 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093205 | 0.10461 | 0.146359 | 0 | 0.152729 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14142 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140211 | 0 | 0.10589 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158089 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.324513 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.248228 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088575 |
suicidewatch | justprettysaddude | 2019/06/20 | I thought it would get better and everyone fucking lied it's too much to handle. I don't think I can do it. I don't even want to. Family money anxiety everything I can't . They're just keeping me alive to watch me suffer, who's getting off on this display of desperation | 2.253036 | 4.131903 | 4.581571 | 82.163429 | 77.392857 | 8.051429 | 27.271429 | 8.841846 | 2.29889 | 215 | 9 | 43 | 5 | 5 | 75 | 42 | 56 | 0.221 | 0.681 | 0.099 | -0.7018 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 13 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 7 | 1 | 6 | 11 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 29 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.247115 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.285691 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.213356 | 0 | 0 | 0.308666 | 0.290316 | 0 | 0.304521 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.298633 | 0.337536 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.287121 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.237462 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206983 | 0 | 0.256447 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19053 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.229469 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | X_phuzZ-_-nutZ_X | 2019/06/20 | i hate the feeling i wanna go away from here so badly but i just can’t hurt my family. i know i do it that my dad is right behind me | -2.564062 | -0.940934 | 1.5425 | 98.2525 | 94.9375 | 4.45 | 11.125 | 5.985473 | -1.286463 | 101 | 1 | 27 | 1 | 4 | 38 | 27 | 32 | 0.289 | 0.673 | 0.038 | -0.848 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 7 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 4 | 7 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 22 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.377346 | 0 | 0.335345 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.378622 | 0 | 0.203077 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.228256 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.396528 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.429955 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.220726 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.342991 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | not-ur-bitch | 2019/06/20 | Kinda want to do it. I’m done being a burden to my parents, boyfriend, and friends. I’m done living this way and I’m done living at all. I want to figure out the best way to effectively do it, without leaving too many problems for my loved ones to clean up. Is there a quick painless way that is effective? Is there anyt... | 1.119841 | 3.112428 | 2.74674 | 93.378816 | 81.527473 | 5.363126 | 22.199023 | 6.427356 | 0.326237 | 338 | 11 | 75 | 3 | 9 | 111 | 55 | 91 | 0.074 | 0.604 | 0.322 | 0.974 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 12 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 17 | 21 | 4 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 9 | 4 | 13 | 17 | 2 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 53 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140595 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179296 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.524515 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161062 | 0 | 0.086387 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131998 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114517 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180905 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.301726 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.308397 | 0 | 0 | 0.173215 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115772 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189708 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16348 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.302314 | 0.406837 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164693 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | jenbrady | 2019/06/20 | Whole department got fired So yeah, I'm not the only casualty here, but I am the only one that moved to a new state for this position. Now I'll need a new job in likely a different state. I don't even know anyone here that can help me move. This is the last straw for me. I don't even want to try anymore because I've st... | 0.3847 | 2.231536 | 2.824 | 92.627 | 83.3 | 6 | 19 | 7.168622 | 0.2177 | 357 | 9 | 83 | 5 | 10 | 123 | 69 | 100 | 0.091 | 0.657 | 0.252 | 0.9622 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 7 | 2 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 11 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 19 | 4 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 8 | 5 | 6 | 16 | 1 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 8 | 49 | 13 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191378 | 0.134932 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117635 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.196749 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.201616 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.254914 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100821 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154339 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129346 | 0 | 0 | 0.191666 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191496 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106053 | 0.157299 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136303 | 0.188554 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.410201 | 0 | 0.143087 | 0 | 0.37275 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130764 | 0.29353 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198085 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161335 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131016 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113821 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.215448 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | themightyyt | 2019/06/20 | I dont care if you take this down I have to get it of my chest I'm sick of females I hate them and I dont know why
I hate them so much and I cant figure out why.
They fill my very existence with a uncontrollable rage and I want them all to die painfully
They all think there better than me I FUCKING HATE them
I'm ... | -0.828065 | 1.279527 | 1.68303 | 96.55993 | 92.737374 | 5.066356 | 17.716395 | 6.671995 | -0.088879 | 353 | 10 | 84 | 5 | 13 | 120 | 62 | 99 | 0.328 | 0.587 | 0.085 | -0.9843 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 1 | 2 | 13 | 8 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 17 | 21 | 6 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 23 | 3 | 8 | 20 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 10 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 56 | 26 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129161 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148898 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151567 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.342316 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137674 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.405036 | 0.0763 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.576738 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097888 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08026 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107356 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098961 | 0 | 0.155397 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101246 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109804 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169564 | 0 | 0.093577 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120499 | 0.086138 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.395336 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | SmolBean07 | 2019/06/20 | I don't think I can continue like this much longer I am losing grip.. i've been in debilitating pain for as long as I can remember from a medical condition. It's not getting easier or better despite many (brutal) surgeries and procedures. I can't do it.
I am tired of feeling burdensome and going nowhere. I'm too over... | 3.332343 | 5.662703 | 5.265905 | 76.392 | 75.8 | 9.085714 | 30.714286 | 9.606745 | 3.434429 | 309 | 15 | 55 | 9 | 7 | 106 | 55 | 75 | 0.294 | 0.622 | 0.084 | -0.9449 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 10 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 8 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 14 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 6 | 2 | 7 | 13 | 3 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 37 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.215455 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123178 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.225216 | 0.127277 | 0 | 0.138451 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119017 | 0 | 0 | 0.215589 | 0 | 0.27254 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.246985 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.245414 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.358166 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.518442 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.275965 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156097 | 0 | 0 | 0.142052 | 0.279997 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Bejitoburu | 2019/06/20 | I turned 18 today, and I feel like such a waste I just hate myself and everything about myself. I don’t know how describe this, I just feel hopeless. Like my whole life up to this point was pointless(no pun intended). I don’t feel like living anymore. | 2.502245 | 4.939484 | 2.921796 | 91.569633 | 79.204082 | 5.552653 | 22.044898 | 6.742158 | 0.538866 | 198 | 6 | 39 | 2 | 5 | 61 | 34 | 49 | 0.186 | 0.667 | 0.147 | -0.4588 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 10 | 9 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 9 | 3 | 3 | 8 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 25 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.255562 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.231598 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.390892 | 0.368192 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.254419 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141621 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182016 | 0.377688 | 0 | 0.227548 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.243603 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.244263 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.280296 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.287705 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | fullerthanlife | 2019/06/20 | Save me from this hell let me Rest In Peace. I’m done. I’m full of empty promises and fake love. Don’t tell me “this too shall pass.” It hasn’t, it’s only gotten worse. I wish I could say I’ve been living for myself but I’ve been living bc I don’t want to disappoint and hurt the people around me. I feel like a hostage ... | 1.156795 | 3.57696 | 2.632693 | 91.588848 | 84.918367 | 5.363585 | 19.531413 | 6.794906 | 0.256775 | 570 | 16 | 119 | 7 | 17 | 185 | 94 | 147 | 0.234 | 0.55 | 0.216 | -0.8151 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 16 | 3 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 17 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 19 | 29 | 6 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 19 | 8 | 13 | 22 | 5 | 12 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 10 | 6 | 3 | 1 | 8 | 79 | 28 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16215 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.291102 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166701 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176687 | 0 | 0.130543 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167319 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136585 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137757 | 0.156233 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082671 | 0.116806 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151155 | 0 | 0.313691 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162394 | 0 | 0 | 0.175032 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173125 | 0 | 0.167191 | 0 | 0.159757 | 0 | 0.28875 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147567 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110793 | 0.248701 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113351 | 0.142763 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130023 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142908 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108623 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.286017 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096437 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188019 | 0.15761 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166622 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | plsm95 | 2019/06/20 | Don't Want to Live Anymore.
I've been dealing with a fair amount of depression and anxiety for a while. As a kid I was outgoing, sporty, and had a general love of life. I was raised by a drug addict mother and moved in with my grandparents at age 12 and that's when I slowly started to fade emotionally. I became less... | 3.398515 | 4.524866 | 4.841599 | 84.5936 | 72.77551 | 7.811791 | 26.468254 | 8.256447 | 1.637594 | 1,875 | 63 | 386 | 29 | 36 | 628 | 240 | 490 | 0.157 | 0.762 | 0.08 | -0.9893 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 36 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 16 | 24 | 2 | 2 | 28 | 0 | 47 | 10 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 76 | 86 | 38 | 1 | 7 | 14 | 1 | 5 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 6 | 1 | 3 | 5 | 14 | 30 | 0 | 1 | 16 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 14 | 11 | 2 | 2 | 31 | 7 | 47 | 13 | 63 | 52 | 15 | 72 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 23 | 24 | 1 | 9 | 39 | 262 | 61 | 9 | 0.078628 | 0 | 0 | 0.085716 | 0 | 0 | 0.069699 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1203 | 0 | 0.155955 | 0.054978 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073506 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086838 | 0.066906 | 0 | 0 | 0.06954 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067731 | 0.08244 | 0.084969 | 0 | 0 | 0.087 | 0 | 0.30425 | 0.081062 | 0.135444 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091183 | 0 | 0 | 0.088446 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.051933 | 0 | 0.132494 | 0 | 0 | 0.076913 | 0.074123 | 0 | 0.159026 | 0.112343 | 0.075495 | 0 | 0 | 0.133761 | 0 | 0 | 0.060748 | 0 | 0.164319 | 0 | 0.089372 | 0 | 0.062886 | 0 | 0 | 0.077854 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105405 | 0.083074 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088761 | 0 | 0.082067 | 0.078026 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086423 | 0.192276 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.222148 | 0.076827 | 0.157611 | 0.138859 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066846 | 0.141929 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12552 | 0.083569 | 0 | 0 | 0.121285 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077038 | 0.075445 | 0 | 0.082507 | 0 | 0 | 0.1196 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.218042 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079043 | 0 | 0.08363 | 0 | 0.089496 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062528 | 0 | 0.159151 | 0.062656 | 0.07158 | 0.082026 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.240453 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111306 | 0.083807 | 0.125584 | 0.065736 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086006 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052237 | 0 | 0 | 0.187265 | 0.091697 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053383 | 0 | 0 | 0.081854 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092753 | 0 | 0.06307 | 0 | 0.141391 | 0.072889 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075794 | 0.085268 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055855 | 0 | 0 | 0.101267 |
suicidewatch | EndlessKittens | 2019/06/20 | I've never felt this way before, I don't know what to do. I just need someone to talk to. To tell me it's okay and then have a normal conversation with. I'm 17, I have discord, insta and snap, prefer discord or here.
This is why I'm heart broken and feel like I could literally die right now and be fine with it.
I fe... | 1.912405 | 3.694699 | 3.620822 | 89.106317 | 78.075342 | 6.821075 | 21.162276 | 7.74847 | 0.662579 | 1,099 | 29 | 246 | 17 | 26 | 367 | 143 | 292 | 0.135 | 0.781 | 0.084 | -0.9542 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 42 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 18 | 14 | 1 | 0 | 14 | 1 | 25 | 4 | 2 | 1 | 4 | 45 | 51 | 19 | 1 | 7 | 4 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 19 | 18 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 6 | 0 | 6 | 22 | 8 | 39 | 8 | 23 | 27 | 2 | 42 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 40 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 35 | 163 | 58 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087605 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079917 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074956 | 0 | 0 | 0.07639 | 0 | 0.094211 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071676 | 0.099332 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09317 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100982 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118588 | 0.081204 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136175 | 0.128267 | 0.172392 | 0 | 0 | 0.458163 | 0 | 0 | 0.069358 | 0 | 0.046903 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071799 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079386 | 0 | 0 | 0.088632 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.212762 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.28831 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14801 | 0 | 0.101267 | 0 | 0.097538 | 0 | 0.063409 | 0.087717 | 0 | 0 | 0.079446 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091015 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071656 | 0 | 0 | 0.133131 | 0.207715 | 0 | 0.095474 | 0 | 0.087958 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.313544 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090246 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096382 | 0 | 0.076665 | 0.170789 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100908 | 0 | 0 | 0.152128 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127083 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102768 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144312 | 0.078465 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059641 | 0 | 0 | 0.071269 | 0.157041 | 0 | 0 | 0.171563 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1059 | 0.071257 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081006 | 0 | 0 | 0.086538 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | nietsc | 2019/06/20 | How do I kill myself without hurting my family and friend? I've been needing to do this for a very long time now.
How do I do it without hurting them? Is there anything I can put in my note that'll lessen their pain? | 1.62413 | 3.22845 | 3.003696 | 94.010326 | 78.347826 | 5.469565 | 24.543478 | 5.985473 | 0.458887 | 169 | 6 | 38 | 1 | 4 | 55 | 36 | 46 | 0.167 | 0.683 | 0.151 | -0.4261 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 6 | 9 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 1 | 5 | 7 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 29 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.204553 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.234331 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192046 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.532202 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.275008 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.219978 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184313 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.264498 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.249883 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144944 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.205098 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.479229 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | whyismydogsogay | 2019/06/20 | I’m done. And I don’t even feel like searching for help anymore. I don’t belong anywhere. What’s a good painless way to kill yourself? I’ve been thinking about heading to some nearby train tracks but I’m afraid I’ll fail and end up seriously injured and forced to live in pain. | 1.746842 | 4.088373 | 2.606228 | 93.297763 | 81.45614 | 4.501754 | 25.289474 | 5.461319 | 0.461821 | 223 | 9 | 46 | 1 | 6 | 70 | 45 | 57 | 0.329 | 0.562 | 0.109 | -0.9552 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 7 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 8 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 7 | 6 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 21 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.304051 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.313744 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.271544 | 0 | 0 | 0.202497 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155019 | 0.219025 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.25715 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.314646 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.205498 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.339192 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149783 | 0 | 0.270721 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.326229 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.196448 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.243354 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | nukaman1993 | 2019/06/20 | I dream that they'll understand I dream about telling my family how I feel and that they'll understand and just let me go | 9.7216 | 6.299915 | 8.792 | 76.556 | 61.4 | 14.8 | 37 | 13.023867 | 4.3058 | 99 | 3 | 22 | 3 | 1 | 31 | 17 | 25 | 0 | 0.818 | 0.182 | 0.4588 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 7 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 15 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.341688 | 0 | 0.183267 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.20599 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.370632 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.3168 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.754652 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | ksenoks | 2019/06/20 | I still want to die I had to drop out of college eight years ago because I tried to kill myself. Since then, I worked to get 'healthy' again, re-enrolled, and eventually graduated with a high GPA, multiple honors, many extracurriculars, and a (somewhat tentative) plan for graduate school. Now my plan for graduate schoo... | 10.398789 | 6.980335 | 10.338095 | 65.980169 | 60.129944 | 13.052139 | 41.104923 | 10.914261 | 4.313167 | 721 | 28 | 136 | 13 | 7 | 241 | 114 | 177 | 0.15 | 0.775 | 0.075 | -0.9427 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 24 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 34 | 26 | 14 | 2 | 4 | 7 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 11 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 13 | 3 | 26 | 20 | 5 | 20 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 0 | 9 | 10 | 91 | 20 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119325 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09154 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133498 | 0.094123 | 0 | 0.110774 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082058 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141138 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139705 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131676 | 0 | 0 | 0.068064 | 0.096166 | 0 | 0 | 0.246065 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140658 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120585 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142224 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155324 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.534325 | 0.119649 | 0.148928 | 0 | 0.073979 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131529 | 0 | 0.237729 | 0.119127 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136475 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102378 | 0 | 0 | 0.14947 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.272468 | 0 | 0.245091 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111352 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107501 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101211 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086254 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091392 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158795 | 0.106848 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129761 | 0 | 0.097999 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086685 |
suicidewatch | myuncletouchesmypp | 2019/06/20 | I'm lonely and too scared to luck for help but I fear myelf. I think I'm going to go something bad soon. It's my rage. It's been building up and I know I'm going to take it out on myself. My loneliness is different thenI assume the regular loneliness. I find no comfort in knowing other people "feel the same". It's the... | 2.265774 | 4.264327 | 4.164261 | 84.611625 | 77.792271 | 7.063209 | 26.353674 | 8.032893 | 1.780175 | 802 | 32 | 157 | 14 | 19 | 272 | 114 | 207 | 0.329 | 0.57 | 0.101 | -0.9962 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 21 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 10 | 17 | 3 | 4 | 9 | 0 | 12 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 37 | 33 | 16 | 3 | 5 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 14 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 28 | 4 | 19 | 26 | 4 | 21 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 8 | 12 | 0 | 5 | 6 | 104 | 37 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101006 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117539 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.203054 | 0.110244 | 0.160975 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113722 | 0 | 0 | 0.137948 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126165 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148576 | 0.066761 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120678 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068983 | 0 | 0.225116 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140554 | 0 | 0 | 0.135506 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.265501 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117359 | 0.146077 | 0 | 0.145126 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064506 | 0 | 0 | 0.116847 | 0.110876 | 0 | 0.144132 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140068 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097061 | 0.097902 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100419 | 0 | 0 | 0.146609 | 0 | 0 | 0.274609 | 0 | 0 | 0.144935 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.252679 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.26438 | 0 | 0.105215 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148413 | 0 | 0.134593 | 0 | 0.101647 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105443 | 0 | 0 | 0.138032 | 0 | 0.28885 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099274 | 0 | 0.115404 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084603 | 0 | 0.104821 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104803 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093794 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | HeyamDoug | 2019/06/20 | I think I’m one bad day away from planning to end it I’ve had fluctuating depression ever since I was a child. Until mid high school I didn’t really know how to go about life. I ended up attempting it once in middle school and again entering high school. It might just be the depression talking but when my family had to... | 4.337513 | 4.58695 | 5.428869 | 84.44012 | 70.04021 | 8.488423 | 27.689588 | 8.387379 | 1.688502 | 4,329 | 135 | 929 | 61 | 72 | 1,437 | 377 | 1,144 | 0.082 | 0.761 | 0.157 | 0.9983 | 10 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 113 | 3 | 1 | 4 | 17 | 70 | 52 | 4 | 1 | 69 | 0 | 91 | 18 | 0 | 11 | 9 | 174 | 179 | 70 | 4 | 16 | 36 | 0 | 5 | 6 | 5 | 6 | 10 | 2 | 3 | 7 | 58 | 55 | 2 | 5 | 36 | 10 | 9 | 21 | 28 | 14 | 1 | 5 | 61 | 16 | 159 | 39 | 157 | 95 | 31 | 169 | 1 | 5 | 9 | 6 | 82 | 78 | 0 | 17 | 75 | 683 | 217 | 27 | 0.108838 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.032159 | 0 | 0.036329 | 0 | 0 | 0.058025 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.035979 | 0 | 0 | 0.029855 | 0.064593 | 0 | 0 | 0.034086 | 0.251069 | 0.030292 | 0.110578 | 0 | 0.030871 | 0.040874 | 0.038073 | 0.160431 | 0.039608 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073978 | 0 | 0 | 0.031251 | 0.038038 | 0 | 0 | 0.028966 | 0.040142 | 0 | 0.023397 | 0.074805 | 0.062495 | 0 | 0 | 0.037904 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081619 | 0.321327 | 0 | 0 | 0.071886 | 0.032817 | 0.061134 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.034201 | 0 | 0.073376 | 0.025918 | 0 | 0 | 0.033159 | 0.030859 | 0 | 0.079557 | 0.084088 | 0 | 0.037909 | 0 | 0.103092 | 0.030429 | 0.058032 | 0.039998 | 0.079932 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.035818 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191656 | 0.036391 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.252011 | 0.064493 | 0 | 0 | 0.139567 | 0.029572 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074196 | 0.205001 | 0.106345 | 0 | 0.128141 | 0 | 0.030465 | 0 | 0 | 0.09253 | 0.196461 | 0.102985 | 0.024217 | 0 | 0.072895 | 0.118556 | 0 | 0 | 0.036561 | 0.038487 | 0.073264 | 0 | 0.057916 | 0 | 0.080008 | 0.080702 | 0.055962 | 0.175194 | 0.077167 | 0 | 0 | 0.034811 | 0 | 0 | 0.038636 | 0.024584 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.039287 | 0 | 0 | 0.063355 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.036471 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116207 | 0.037301 | 0.035821 | 0.03895 | 0 | 0.030982 | 0 | 0.028851 | 0 | 0.367166 | 0.20237 | 0.033027 | 0.075695 | 0 | 0 | 0.060021 | 0.040779 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055859 | 0 | 0 | 0.025679 | 0.038669 | 0.115891 | 0 | 0 | 0.037927 | 0 | 0.079367 | 0 | 0.068386 | 0 | 0 | 0.02916 | 0 | 0 | 0.041489 | 0.042123 | 0.096409 | 0.046493 | 0.035644 | 0.086405 | 0.021155 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080615 | 0.049263 | 0.078923 | 0 | 0.037768 | 0.04364 | 0 | 0 | 0.029934 | 0.085594 | 0.086391 | 0 | 0 | 0.032619 | 0 | 0 | 0.040505 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079235 | 0 | 0 | 0.051544 | 0 | 0 | 0.116813 |
suicidewatch | 666motto | 2019/06/20 | I wanna burn myself up or cut my throat or suffocate or something.
maybe just starve myself?
i want my last moments to be filled with terror and pain. its only right
i deserve it. im an awful person. | 0.272333 | 2.692523 | 2.35 | 90.088333 | 95 | 3.666667 | 16.666667 | 5.461319 | -0.350333 | 156 | 4 | 29 | 1 | 6 | 52 | 33 | 40 | 0.32 | 0.652 | 0.028 | -0.9246 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 20 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.40875 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.308456 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.380166 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.287799 | 0.402657 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.330415 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.323162 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.29132 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.223197 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Callum-James2707 | 2019/06/20 | Can’t wait for the day I leave this filth land I want to commit suicide because everyone else talks about it, they have no idea | 10.047692 | 6.128331 | 8.619231 | 79.575769 | 61.307692 | 11.938462 | 37.538462 | 8.841846 | 2.946046 | 102 | 3 | 22 | 1 | 1 | 31 | 25 | 26 | 0.269 | 0.612 | 0.119 | -0.6597 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.230661 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.244028 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.316094 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.361565 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.427153 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.400657 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.413894 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.304133 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.223182 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Lev_Yashin | 2019/06/20 | The more I try to get help, the more I realise that it's pointless. I'm 24. I've done nothing with my life. For the past ten years I've known that I'd kill myself eventually. I just didn't want my family to go through it. I haven't had any family for about 6 months now. No friends. I never leave my house.
A few days ... | 1.640897 | 3.879925 | 3.794551 | 85.223365 | 81.136752 | 7.318803 | 23.852564 | 8.3441 | 1.610969 | 904 | 33 | 188 | 20 | 24 | 309 | 138 | 234 | 0.145 | 0.741 | 0.115 | -0.7398 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 35 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 7 | 10 | 3 | 0 | 12 | 0 | 16 | 7 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 21 | 34 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 13 | 4 | 2 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 12 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 2 | 23 | 7 | 27 | 29 | 8 | 26 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 6 | 2 | 1 | 16 | 117 | 36 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103831 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.253827 | 0 | 0.079654 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071403 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122924 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.302164 | 0 | 0.100886 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119868 | 0 | 0 | 0.135837 | 0.239713 | 0 | 0 | 0.103745 | 0 | 0 | 0.077365 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.331268 | 0 | 0.059226 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180993 | 0.108288 | 0.061197 | 0 | 0.133139 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12469 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124507 | 0 | 0 | 0.078512 | 0 | 0 | 0.11634 | 0 | 0.135156 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.208226 | 0.12959 | 0.121976 | 0.064373 | 0.095479 | 0 | 0.124027 | 0 | 0 | 0.165469 | 0 | 0.117398 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078187 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118043 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186989 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09034 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112392 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158745 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111817 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133323 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09334 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099246 | 0 | 0 | 0.131121 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110396 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.267904 | 0 | 0.155636 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068301 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079526 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069088 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07543 |
suicidewatch | LovesBananaBread | 2019/06/20 | I’m so sorry I was never worth anything. No one will ever know me I spent eighteen years begging for a family, I tried to Hug my parents and I was hit and knocked over as they asked me what I wanted. I tried to escape the abuse and was told I was lucky where I was and then was beaten to a point where I never asked for ... | 0.841123 | 2.018079 | 2.936994 | 95.497831 | 79.38674 | 5.48965 | 18.144015 | 5.683918 | -0.530713 | 624 | 11 | 154 | 3 | 15 | 212 | 99 | 181 | 0.108 | 0.729 | 0.163 | 0.8747 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 10 | 2 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 17 | 8 | 4 | 0 | 5 | 24 | 30 | 11 | 0 | 7 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 5 | 5 | 0 | 8 | 11 | 1 | 22 | 5 | 22 | 10 | 2 | 25 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 8 | 10 | 0 | 5 | 15 | 105 | 28 | 2 | 0 | 0.159563 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110823 | 0 | 0.251798 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.224889 | 0.082094 | 0 | 0.114595 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.260554 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140702 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119278 | 0 | 0 | 0.088949 | 0.121817 | 0.226932 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.253911 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107708 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138211 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090267 | 0 | 0 | 0.133758 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074012 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095122 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.243091 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135295 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.311599 | 0 | 0 | 0.126379 | 0.131949 | 0 | 0 | 0.141314 | 0 | 0.273769 | 0.102423 | 0 | 0 | 0.149536 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127307 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150753 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128684 | 0 | 0.182865 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158865 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191332 | 0 | 0 | 0.173447 |
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