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suicidewatch | RumpleForeskin990 | 2019/06/20 | I lost my job, afraid of homelessness, thinking of doing it but I haven't given up all hope yet. Help me. This is partly me asking for employment advice and partly me confessing my fear and looking for hope.
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suicidewatch | throwawayqwedjvh | 2019/06/20 | Something is brewing within. I’ve been reading though a lot of these posts and don’t identify with many of the issues people have. I’m healthy, stable life and nothing to really be sad about and not depressed as far as I can tell. However more and more I sit alone and get a sudden thought of how it wouldn’t be so bad t... | 5.590447 | 6.009693 | 6.042835 | 80.53305 | 67.350515 | 8.940893 | 30.599656 | 8.841846 | 2.368582 | 390 | 14 | 75 | 6 | 6 | 126 | 70 | 97 | 0.124 | 0.755 | 0.122 | -0.2981 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 9 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 17 | 15 | 13 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 13 | 9 | 3 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 51 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.237389 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160267 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191378 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197415 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.224208 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119751 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.239232 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161895 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194863 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.232379 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.224574 | 0.21993 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158903 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.219516 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.229269 | 0 | 0.146836 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.352909 | 0 | 0 | 0.162234 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.200337 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.225194 | 0.181964 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155616 | 0 | 0 | 0.238612 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | xRizek | 2019/06/20 | I am drunk and my best friend just told me... That he always believed in me... That i've never let him down during 7 years... That he could tell me any of his secrets and be sure that no one will know about them... That he always believed, and will always believe in me and my future... That i am clever and talented...
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suicidewatch | d0nnny | 2019/06/20 | I feel misunderstood I’m 16, have mild autism, have developed depression, and suicidal thoughts. I don’t know what to do | 3.003485 | 6.089364 | 3.897273 | 80.182576 | 85.818182 | 10.206061 | 30.060606 | 9.725611 | 4.141588 | 97 | 5 | 18 | 4 | 3 | 31 | 18 | 22 | 0.414 | 0.586 | 0 | -0.891 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 8 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.487125 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.28597 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.310823 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.618643 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.449 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | throwaway484839 | 2019/06/20 | At this point everything is so damm bland and boring I got some other issues as well, but i think that one of the main issues is how recently i just started losing joy in everything i liked, videogames, watching TV hell even jacking off.
Most of my days for the past 2 weeks have been literally just laying in bed, not... | 4.368717 | 4.61566 | 5.583688 | 83.36613 | 69.971429 | 8.192208 | 27.337662 | 8.000946 | 1.591914 | 663 | 20 | 137 | 8 | 11 | 222 | 110 | 175 | 0.095 | 0.738 | 0.167 | 0.9144 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 22 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 11 | 11 | 2 | 0 | 7 | 1 | 10 | 3 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 27 | 30 | 15 | 1 | 2 | 11 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 9 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 4 | 2 | 1 | 5 | 6 | 15 | 7 | 18 | 22 | 4 | 20 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 3 | 9 | 1 | 11 | 9 | 88 | 24 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090028 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.290271 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122129 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070555 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107172 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.216777 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.196647 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055317 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114316 | 0.104948 | 0.186527 | 0 | 0.262496 | 0 | 0.120519 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07333 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.472691 | 0.342562 | 0.108565 | 0 | 0.121037 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053448 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09187 | 0.122393 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109909 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116058 | 0 | 0 | 0.087324 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104974 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074134 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104437 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10342 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117954 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108021 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174358 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109481 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077435 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125239 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127024 | 0 | 0.0701 | 0 | 0 | 0.063793 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094488 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087756 | 0 | 0.196731 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070451 |
suicidewatch | Sally_A552 | 2019/06/20 | I hope I get the courage Venting
I can't keep waking up in the morning feeling disgusted by my hair, body, and worst if all my mind. Am 17 but I see things getting worst in my future I dropped out of sixth form in December when I was 16 and I've been doing nothing. I keep giving myself reasons why I haven't started wo... | 3.455419 | 4.711788 | 4.882675 | 83.851846 | 72.802395 | 7.499689 | 28.629461 | 7.976526 | 1.846337 | 1,291 | 51 | 259 | 18 | 25 | 432 | 171 | 334 | 0.215 | 0.709 | 0.076 | -0.9946 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 33 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 14 | 20 | 1 | 1 | 12 | 0 | 30 | 13 | 8 | 4 | 2 | 53 | 51 | 29 | 3 | 7 | 14 | 2 | 4 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 18 | 1 | 2 | 5 | 2 | 2 | 4 | 8 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 5 | 38 | 12 | 37 | 38 | 6 | 37 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 15 | 0 | 7 | 20 | 170 | 47 | 7 | 0.097381 | 0 | 0.09503 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097513 | 0 | 0 | 0.077875 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066222 | 0.204224 | 0 | 0 | 0.193151 | 0 | 0 | 0.080136 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081309 | 0.059362 | 0 | 0.082864 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.324504 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083885 | 0 | 0.105234 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085218 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172501 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091802 | 0 | 0.049239 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075236 | 0 | 0.152632 | 0.093416 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087234 | 0 | 0.199881 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096721 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096635 | 0.173113 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.275131 | 0.237876 | 0 | 0.085989 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092144 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.196653 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072207 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093439 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065988 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092961 | 0.202535 | 0.170058 | 0.101742 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09318 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100124 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097495 | 0 | 0.0776 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.218019 | 0.137853 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106519 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064695 | 0.124795 | 0.095676 | 0.077309 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066115 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168211 | 0 | 0 | 0.057438 | 0.154593 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087871 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.212683 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | mb5858 | 2019/06/20 | A story about me.. Hey there, I never thought I would post a personal topic about myself, but I just want to get this off my chest. And I hope I can find peace by doing this. Well how do I start? Let’s give it a shot.
I’m a 20 years old boy. Yea if you look at my age you can clearly tell that I haven’t matured, yet :D... | 0.464963 | 2.640572 | 2.348632 | 94.16112 | 85.54033 | 5.44502 | 18.374454 | 6.819867 | 0.048346 | 3,806 | 97 | 849 | 48 | 115 | 1,260 | 336 | 1,029 | 0.14 | 0.639 | 0.22 | 0.9982 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 178 | 0 | 10 | 9 | 9 | 57 | 77 | 7 | 2 | 44 | 8 | 94 | 17 | 3 | 9 | 13 | 141 | 169 | 64 | 3 | 22 | 49 | 7 | 10 | 8 | 6 | 11 | 12 | 8 | 2 | 6 | 95 | 19 | 1 | 3 | 28 | 6 | 0 | 12 | 37 | 24 | 9 | 2 | 31 | 23 | 144 | 52 | 102 | 121 | 21 | 96 | 0 | 8 | 4 | 2 | 77 | 38 | 1 | 16 | 50 | 609 | 239 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.030921 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.027895 | 0.174146 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065545 | 0 | 0.058249 | 0.170108 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146425 | 0 | 0.038082 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.035618 | 0.039895 | 0.106693 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.039123 | 0 | 0 | 0.153264 | 0 | 0 | 0.150218 | 0 | 0.036202 | 0.036444 | 0 | 0 | 0.030525 | 0.107088 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078474 | 0 | 0 | 0.155609 | 0.115195 | 0.031552 | 0 | 0.066662 | 0 | 0 | 0.065767 | 0 | 0.158735 | 0.074758 | 0 | 0 | 0.031881 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161697 | 0.032248 | 0.145794 | 0.167308 | 0.039648 | 0 | 0.027898 | 0.038457 | 0 | 0 | 0.030846 | 0.037132 | 0 | 0.034438 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.02338 | 0 | 0.069978 | 0.069291 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072648 | 0.05751 | 0.028433 | 0.078696 | 0 | 0 | 0.107007 | 0.147828 | 0.136331 | 0.069921 | 0.030801 | 0.061738 | 0.029292 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.031482 | 0 | 0.023284 | 0 | 0.035043 | 0.037996 | 0 | 0 | 0.105458 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.027842 | 0.037074 | 0 | 0.025864 | 0.080709 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.034177 | 0.03347 | 0 | 0.036602 | 0 | 0.023637 | 0.106116 | 0 | 0 | 0.154928 | 0.075547 | 0 | 0.072548 | 0.091372 | 0 | 0 | 0.065949 | 0 | 0.033407 | 0 | 0 | 0.033377 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104673 | 0 | 0.335191 | 0.071728 | 0 | 0 | 0.039514 | 0 | 0 | 0.138697 | 0.034923 | 0 | 0.027796 | 0.06351 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086563 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103497 | 0.039047 | 0.024689 | 0 | 0.055713 | 0.029163 | 0 | 0 | 0.039931 | 0.07631 | 0 | 0.032876 | 0 | 0.026227 | 0.056073 | 0.121953 | 0.032114 | 0 | 0 | 0.30126 | 0 | 0 | 0.110769 | 0.061019 | 0 | 0 | 0.033331 | 0.038755 | 0 | 0 | 0.034074 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086343 | 0.144019 | 0.055375 | 0 | 0 | 0.250903 | 0 | 0.157376 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151311 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148674 | 0 | 0 | 0.044925 |
suicidewatch | SuperSonic096 | 2019/06/20 | If I were to kill myself, my parents would celebrate, despite them saying otherwise. They only say they love me out of obligation as parents. They don’t truly care for me. If they did, they wouldn’t insult me and yell at me over everything every single day. My death would be a weight off their shoulders. Sure, they’ll ... | 5.04748 | 6.557554 | 5.281463 | 81.538943 | 69.243902 | 8.393496 | 28.300813 | 8.841846 | 2.25153 | 342 | 12 | 62 | 6 | 6 | 108 | 62 | 82 | 0.141 | 0.67 | 0.189 | 0.667 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 10 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 13 | 7 | 2 | 5 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 18 | 4 | 11 | 4 | 2 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 17 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 46 | 18 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182772 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.223182 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141172 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184432 | 0 | 0.196733 | 0 | 0.206359 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169121 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.24218 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.18382 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197565 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160916 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166483 | 0 | 0 | 0.486123 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.348155 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.20631 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.26656 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.310999 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | cozykeytsueneh | 2019/06/20 | I was thinking about a movie Neon Demon (2018 or whtvr), there is a scene that show the protagonist kissing herself on a room full of mirrors repeatedly. I just need that, embrace myself y'know...
I'm daily overthinking about stuff... Shit happens and I pass all day thinking about it... | 5.632059 | 7.703853 | 5.578578 | 77.776103 | 68.607843 | 7.452941 | 32.357843 | 8.076483 | 2.56582 | 224 | 10 | 37 | 3 | 4 | 70 | 42 | 51 | 0.071 | 0.81 | 0.119 | 0.34 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 7 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 5 | 6 | 2 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 26 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.262062 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.359334 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.22332 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.301304 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.417113 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.465174 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.520746 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Geneva1947 | 2019/06/20 | A short poem I wrote She played me like a damn fool
I thought she was an angel that would bring me my salvation
Rather than that, she only brought me pain and despair
And now my soul is empty
And my brain awaits my death
The gun is loaded and my hand is ready
Will I pull the trigger?
Will I splash my brain?
Only ti... | 0.775714 | 3.077229 | 1.308214 | 101.268036 | 85.428571 | 4.071429 | 17.321429 | 5.148861 | -0.873429 | 265 | 6 | 61 | 1 | 8 | 80 | 46 | 70 | 0.235 | 0.622 | 0.142 | -0.8299 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 8 | 4 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 9 | 12 | 4 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 16 | 2 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 38 | 18 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.675997 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147921 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.46055 | 0.322175 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.26464 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.240371 | 0.176551 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.215084 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | ViciousCatO | 2019/06/20 | I am isolated and contemplating suicide NOBODY WILL CARE, but I have been in this relationship for two years now, but something happened and she -kind of- rejected me in the end. What hurts the most though is not the rejection itself but the thought that I am so isolated and fear of dying alone in a lonely and cold sui... | 2.935813 | 4.26722 | 4.069898 | 88.875935 | 74.211268 | 7.417157 | 24.880922 | 8.000946 | 1.208963 | 540 | 17 | 118 | 8 | 11 | 176 | 90 | 142 | 0.312 | 0.58 | 0.109 | -0.9902 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 17 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 13 | 1 | 1 | 10 | 0 | 15 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 23 | 22 | 14 | 4 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 8 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 4 | 17 | 6 | 13 | 14 | 4 | 12 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 6 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 92 | 26 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161728 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10619 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159209 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162063 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138306 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147208 | 0.175717 | 0.078956 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120644 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138086 | 0 | 0.139883 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.334332 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16261 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169662 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140935 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156878 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114791 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105814 | 0.237524 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136348 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167651 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12418 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16029 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120215 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.512421 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100057 | 0.153421 | 0.123969 | 0.091055 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15254 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140905 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110927 | 0 | 0 | 0.100558 |
suicidewatch | thepotatochronicles | 2019/09/19 | How can I kill myself painlessly? And I don’t wanna hear the “oh don’t, you have so much to live for!” bullshit.
You don’t get to suffer the consequences for my living. **I DO.**
So don’t you dare go saying “it’s all gonna be okay” because realistically, it’s not.
And the only reason I’m trying to commit suicide is... | -0.205455 | 2.017729 | 2.481902 | 91.355549 | 90.264368 | 4.772832 | 18.828631 | 6.351523 | 0.067457 | 638 | 19 | 137 | 7 | 22 | 221 | 101 | 174 | 0.17 | 0.715 | 0.116 | -0.8314 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 28 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 10 | 12 | 1 | 1 | 12 | 1 | 16 | 6 | 2 | 3 | 6 | 22 | 26 | 13 | 3 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 14 | 6 | 21 | 23 | 6 | 13 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 93 | 21 | 1 | 0 | 0.204945 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.276653 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120947 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105443 | 0 | 0.147188 | 0 | 0.181525 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179519 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114247 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090371 | 0 | 0.196609 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177521 | 0 | 0.194954 | 0 | 0.11594 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191369 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122176 | 0 | 0 | 0.305477 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127155 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131554 | 0.184056 | 0 | 0 | 0.187313 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.355691 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.275111 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173098 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189205 | 0 | 0.163025 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100862 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.234875 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137298 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | fanofbette | 2019/09/19 | What do I have to do? Where do I have to cut to kill myself? I'm poor & dont have access to fancy methods unfortunately. I only have a knife. What's the least painful place to cut myself where I bleed out? I've cut my wrists deep before & got stitches, idk if my veins are deep or what. But the surgeon sai... | 0.578333 | 2.473263 | 2.601111 | 94.225 | 82.888889 | 4.888889 | 17.777778 | 5.822114 | -0.489222 | 325 | 7 | 75 | 2 | 9 | 109 | 56 | 90 | 0.265 | 0.686 | 0.049 | -0.9569 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 7 | 6 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 11 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 17 | 4 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 10 | 0 | 8 | 13 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 8 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 46 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.533812 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.209614 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.288705 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.222826 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197018 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.272535 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.21752 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182656 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.18735 | 0.26212 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.215092 | 0.257369 | 0.270404 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.234323 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | frogdoggo | 2019/09/19 | im starting to think about suicide again im kind of confused in what direction I should go in now. ive had periods of depression throughout the last couple of years in my life (im 17) and anxiety. I've had suicidal thoughts but i was able to get through them and I feel like the "episodes" lasted a few weeks at most. I ... | 3.211661 | 5.045113 | 4.251257 | 85.786867 | 74.52 | 7.961905 | 29.904762 | 8.70417 | 2.342836 | 992 | 45 | 203 | 20 | 21 | 322 | 130 | 250 | 0.2 | 0.69 | 0.109 | -0.9782 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 18 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 8 | 17 | 4 | 2 | 9 | 0 | 17 | 9 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 39 | 43 | 13 | 4 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 6 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 6 | 25 | 9 | 36 | 33 | 9 | 39 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 15 | 2 | 7 | 25 | 124 | 36 | 6 | 0.080952 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071759 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123856 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066617 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062247 | 0 | 0.049348 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171273 | 0 | 0 | 0.174961 | 0 | 0 | 0.089572 | 0 | 0.052207 | 0 | 0.069724 | 0 | 0.168031 | 0 | 0 | 0.082858 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083645 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.245591 | 0.289161 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068858 | 0 | 0 | 0.062543 | 0.074839 | 0.084588 | 0 | 0.092014 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079924 | 0.08308 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.524653 | 0 | 0 | 0.071954 | 0 | 0.084299 | 0 | 0.131974 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171537 | 0.197746 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068823 | 0 | 0 | 0.054036 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081551 | 0 | 0 | 0.081739 | 0 | 0.064615 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061568 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087663 | 0 | 0.056122 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082357 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.245784 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083096 | 0.066964 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171895 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092671 | 0.177097 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093992 | 0 | 0.207484 | 0 | 0.128534 | 0 | 0.093043 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054961 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.047748 | 0 | 0.064935 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082497 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052131 |
suicidewatch | CostanzaCrimeFamily | 2019/09/19 | I'm Considering Suicide Because of My Skin My back, chest, stomach, and butt is covered in acne. I am 29 going on 30 and this is something I've struggled with for 10 years. All the lotions, sprays, and cleansers have done nothing to cure it.
Also, my skin, which used to be a nice muted gold/bronze, is not just pasty ... | 3.684578 | 4.959064 | 4.915317 | 83.768228 | 72.264463 | 7.03067 | 26.254362 | 7.38713 | 1.347663 | 945 | 31 | 184 | 10 | 18 | 313 | 150 | 242 | 0.186 | 0.755 | 0.059 | -0.9843 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 39 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 15 | 14 | 4 | 2 | 9 | 0 | 20 | 9 | 8 | 3 | 1 | 32 | 36 | 12 | 1 | 4 | 7 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 10 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 7 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 8 | 25 | 6 | 27 | 31 | 4 | 28 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 6 | 13 | 2 | 4 | 13 | 121 | 35 | 0 | 0 | 0.176229 | 0 | 0.162145 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154046 | 0 | 0.118945 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.228739 | 0 | 0.090669 | 0 | 0.126564 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095923 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152209 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131737 | 0 | 0.165881 | 0.098239 | 0 | 0.125317 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077709 | 0 | 0.084531 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131527 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167906 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163484 | 0.12124 | 0.167782 | 0 | 0 | 0.152093 | 0 | 0.072665 | 0 | 0.262675 | 0 | 0.249803 | 0 | 0 | 0.126451 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109339 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142717 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129871 | 0.155398 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160363 | 0.142321 | 0 | 0.149522 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095285 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118524 | 0.135404 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126024 | 0.22901 | 0 | 0.166499 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155492 | 0 | 0.162694 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111832 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08673 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128461 | 0 | 0 | 0.087729 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191563 |
suicidewatch | strawburrymelk | 2019/09/19 | i have nothing to live for im a burden to everybody and i dont have a future to look forward to. im better off dead, im stupid for thinking anybody would ever care about me. im stupid for thinking for even a second that i would be important to anybody. i dont want to kill myself, but if i was in harms way, i wouldnt st... | -0.012218 | 1.434599 | 2.928496 | 93.404474 | 82.684211 | 5.395489 | 21.383459 | 6.182691 | 0.147156 | 258 | 8 | 62 | 2 | 7 | 92 | 45 | 76 | 0.2 | 0.692 | 0.108 | -0.7644 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 7 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 14 | 3 | 2 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 8 | 2 | 15 | 9 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 43 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148423 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171103 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.393366 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110843 | 0.151802 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.725095 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185667 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148188 | 0 | 0.140926 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161027 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.215064 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098984 | 0.133207 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.238428 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | DapperDahmer | 2019/09/19 | If you've ever argued that suicide is not selfish...here's a little bit of my story that changed my mind. Chin up, everyone. The first time I ever told my mom was over a phone call while I was at work. I was probably 20 years old at the time. I got extremely overwhelmed and I didn't know what to do so I called her. Som... | 3.234959 | 4.294847 | 4.38607 | 87.958455 | 73.092141 | 6.76748 | 24.506775 | 6.937598 | 0.839931 | 1,397 | 40 | 294 | 12 | 27 | 458 | 187 | 369 | 0.13 | 0.833 | 0.037 | -0.9867 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 42 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 23 | 12 | 3 | 1 | 15 | 1 | 23 | 9 | 4 | 10 | 8 | 60 | 57 | 31 | 3 | 7 | 10 | 7 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 19 | 15 | 2 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 11 | 8 | 0 | 2 | 24 | 8 | 57 | 4 | 42 | 29 | 2 | 67 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 40 | 21 | 1 | 7 | 34 | 209 | 76 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079334 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074469 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083668 | 0 | 0 | 0.068818 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097707 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.274159 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189352 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099027 | 0.098308 | 0.057718 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091586 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099813 | 0 | 0.16191 | 0 | 0.085518 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.045252 | 0 | 0.085931 | 0 | 0 | 0.076126 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082738 | 0.046758 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071579 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09185 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089773 | 0 | 0.088136 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088812 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09837 | 0 | 0 | 0.094764 | 0.097239 | 0.091517 | 0.063214 | 0 | 0.089699 | 0.079027 | 0.079202 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080774 | 0 | 0.11948 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090366 | 0.209636 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.276102 | 0.086437 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.203786 | 0.093912 | 0 | 0.060645 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062046 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096493 | 0 | 0 | 0.089969 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057334 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170264 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071317 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100598 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063346 | 0.190784 | 0.071472 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.293685 | 0 | 0.1687 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071051 | 0.156559 | 0 | 0.084833 | 0.171036 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093169 | 0 | 0.077297 | 0 | 0 | 0.21115 | 0.071039 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082965 | 0.080757 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.260619 | 0 | 0 | 0.063576 | 0 | 0 | 0.057633 |
suicidewatch | sunmodelsss | 2019/09/19 | Feeling like the only way out is death. I'm 21 and my life hasn't progressed a single bit since graduating highschool. I have no money, no friends, no will to go on. Every time I start to feel like things *might* be okay either something happens or I do something to fuck up my life worse. I'm tired of feeling regret 24... | 0.85243 | 3.1426 | 2.330405 | 94.162086 | 84.915493 | 4.11338 | 21.551056 | 5.148861 | -0.099692 | 269 | 9 | 57 | 1 | 8 | 87 | 54 | 71 | 0.263 | 0.554 | 0.183 | -0.836 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 7 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 17 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 5 | 9 | 14 | 3 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 3 | 4 | 31 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.233995 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180584 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.325119 | 0.306238 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165593 | 0.198147 | 0 | 0 | 0.12181 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189533 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.21288 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.302779 | 0.209424 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.227373 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163009 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177298 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.330007 | 0 | 0 | 0.151706 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142393 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124979 | 0.246344 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170127 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.218423 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Ingrid137 | 2019/09/19 | Can anyone relate? Im very suicidal and my parents are aware, but my dad always tells me “you’re not going to die, so your only choice is to continue living.” I get that’s supposed to make me stop acting like a lil bitch and decide to try harder at life and my happiness. But honestly it sends my brain into a nose dive ... | 2.947023 | 4.628291 | 4.938838 | 81.224791 | 74.87156 | 7.780224 | 24.037717 | 8.515129 | 1.657042 | 424 | 13 | 82 | 8 | 9 | 146 | 77 | 109 | 0.248 | 0.582 | 0.17 | -0.9333 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 11 | 3 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 7 | 5 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 17 | 13 | 9 | 3 | 1 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 13 | 4 | 11 | 11 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 52 | 16 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161555 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13576 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.216744 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167228 | 0 | 0.201505 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179496 | 0.202879 | 0 | 0.110344 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206685 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.219181 | 0.209724 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.214807 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.274279 | 0.189711 | 0 | 0.34289 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129602 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.295332 | 0 | 0 | 0.215589 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194386 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162325 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.212377 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169703 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13182 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160201 | 0.114519 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | fmabisbetterthanfma | 2019/09/19 | Hey This post isnt for me god no but my freind who ive been freinds with for 2 years and the other day he called me at 2:12 and told me he was going to shoot himself, i heard a loud bang. I instantly got in my car and when i got to his house ( it wasnt locked ) i saw him laying on the floor and well, you get it. Is t... | -0.585766 | 1.274693 | 1.069076 | 103.701829 | 87.235294 | 4.333807 | 14.195863 | 5.369823 | -1.333048 | 411 | 6 | 108 | 2 | 13 | 132 | 81 | 119 | 0.106 | 0.74 | 0.154 | 0.8048 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 14 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 10 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 19 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 11 | 3 | 20 | 5 | 15 | 8 | 1 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 21 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 69 | 27 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176638 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.213751 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.265233 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167517 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135708 | 0 | 0.147621 | 0 | 0.41549 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174104 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.299716 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142751 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1269 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.234434 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.288421 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.285127 | 0 | 0 | 0.248768 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172566 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.248202 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.233546 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16727 |
suicidewatch | cya_nox | 2019/09/19 | i think i will be gone soon but i don’t want to cause my family any more pain. my sister was already lost to suicide 4 months ago. but i cant stand this life anymore. i will never be able to work nor finish my education. i don’t see any point in this. i have isolated myself from the outer world. i have no friends anymo... | -1.212556 | 0.715925 | 1.775802 | 96.894156 | 91.446043 | 4.709437 | 16.09014 | 6.227272 | -0.561419 | 476 | 11 | 118 | 5 | 17 | 167 | 76 | 139 | 0.196 | 0.726 | 0.078 | -0.9699 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 18 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 17 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 13 | 29 | 5 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 9 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 22 | 1 | 18 | 19 | 3 | 27 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 4 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 78 | 27 | 1 | 0.274507 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121667 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151463 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186674 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.408356 | 0.095971 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140997 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088517 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.258781 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106042 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078004 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121373 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137677 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148258 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096946 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149829 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16075 | 0.109555 | 0.145879 | 0 | 0 | 0.211717 | 0 | 0.145971 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093007 | 0.104388 | 0.292095 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150663 | 0.129749 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.32812 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150133 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087947 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.242867 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099922 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | tristeragazzo2001 | 2019/09/19 | I love how in Poland women are privileged to feel emotionally weak Don't get me wrong, I'm a feminist
Yet in Poland if a man feels depressed he's less likely going to get support from their background, because it's the females are "the weaker sex".
It just makes me fucking sick
For 5 years of struggling with suicida... | 4.195 | 6.232969 | 4.604815 | 83.421667 | 72.333333 | 7.392593 | 30.518519 | 8.167269 | 2.244085 | 450 | 20 | 84 | 7 | 9 | 142 | 77 | 108 | 0.19 | 0.663 | 0.146 | -0.7436 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 10 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 1 | 6 | 7 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 18 | 18 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 7 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 4 | 8 | 4 | 12 | 15 | 3 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 9 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 51 | 15 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175721 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130169 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183917 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.218561 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.240197 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.215939 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197409 | 0.223126 | 0 | 0.121356 | 0 | 0.170783 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.38257 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104322 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192723 | 0 | 0.142536 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.227216 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.241893 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.223232 | 0 | 0.233572 | 0.242316 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169522 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.208592 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.233466 | 0 | 0.137509 |
suicidewatch | phiaM94 | 2019/09/19 | Life is...meaningless So, we are born, we go to school, we get jobs, we slave away working, learning and then we die. But what is the actual point? Life is a struggle and I'm starting to feel like it's not worth it.
There's no meaning to it and it's not fulfilling no matter what I try to do to change this. Existence ... | -0.451997 | 1.656966 | 1.808559 | 96.740796 | 89.675676 | 5.451051 | 19.033033 | 6.937598 | 0.163945 | 265 | 8 | 63 | 4 | 9 | 89 | 49 | 74 | 0.211 | 0.74 | 0.049 | -0.887 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 14 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 7 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 16 | 14 | 6 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 7 | 1 | 7 | 12 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 41 | 14 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0.24631 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.237142 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.26701 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.261956 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.258297 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127623 | 0.180318 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131871 | 0 | 0.143447 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.250472 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.356561 | 0.123312 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.274942 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.238603 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.255446 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178653 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.263868 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171366 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148874 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183753 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | -_-Lily-_- | 2019/09/19 | i do not see any value in me if I am contributing nothing to this world, what good would it do for me to keep going
all I do, everywhere I go i only make things worse for people
it does not seem like there is much positivity that comes from me existing
i do not want others to have to put up with me when they could b... | 6.271456 | 4.955225 | 7.49731 | 76.487484 | 66.341772 | 10.937975 | 29.876582 | 10.125757 | 2.561124 | 299 | 8 | 64 | 6 | 4 | 103 | 60 | 79 | 0.102 | 0.784 | 0.113 | 0.234 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 16 | 19 | 3 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 2 | 11 | 16 | 2 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 50 | 20 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.242749 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169162 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.21428 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19861 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.217687 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.282746 | 0.208644 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.221105 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121529 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166046 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182863 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.238687 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189189 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172455 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.250067 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198225 | 0.226457 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.210769 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165262 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145051 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.214844 | 0 | 0 | 0.146722 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.253502 | 0.176708 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | InstlifeIsFun | 2019/09/19 | Gender dysphroia and a transphobic dad really tears me apart I've had gender dysphoria for about 2 years now and closeted about it as my dad is transphobic(My mom died of a drug overdose when I was 3) and yells at me consistently and on rare occasion will hit me. Every time he does it I blame myself but quickly get hop... | 4.328918 | 5.240585 | 5.493435 | 81.592523 | 70.37457 | 9.256426 | 27.264777 | 9.516145 | 2.295939 | 1,142 | 37 | 229 | 25 | 20 | 380 | 159 | 291 | 0.188 | 0.703 | 0.109 | -0.9767 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 24 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 18 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 0 | 18 | 5 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 41 | 36 | 25 | 7 | 8 | 10 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 4 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 11 | 14 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 3 | 28 | 7 | 39 | 21 | 3 | 39 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 18 | 0 | 6 | 18 | 145 | 39 | 2 | 0.102939 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09125 | 0.110011 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171308 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102088 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087594 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.320505 | 0.10755 | 0 | 0 | 0.270249 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119377 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182348 | 0.106364 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086731 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079531 | 0 | 0.107563 | 0.098749 | 0.058503 | 0.086341 | 0.08233 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109581 | 0.092214 | 0 | 0.105646 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068998 | 0.108761 | 0 | 0.102242 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145418 | 0.050291 | 0 | 0.090897 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087515 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120561 | 0.164331 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071365 | 0 | 0 | 0.112997 | 0.097311 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110986 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197837 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187424 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082208 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.450396 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082739 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081722 | 0.060025 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069889 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177813 | 0 | 0 | 0.182149 | 0.081709 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.219376 | 0 | 0 | 0.132579 |
suicidewatch | whydoilivelol | 2019/09/19 | I hate this you told me to kill myself when I tried to reach out and now you're telling me you're supportive you've been transphobic ever since I came out you keep insulting me and tell everyone these are jokes YOU'RE NOT FUCKING SUPPORTIVE SHUT THE FUCK UP WHY DID YOU TELL EVERYONE I TOLD YOU TO JUST KEEP IT BETWEEN U... | 0.108815 | 2.380291 | 1.228432 | 96.687561 | 100.707317 | 5.757491 | 20.491289 | 7.168622 | 0.862729 | 324 | 12 | 70 | 7 | 14 | 101 | 50 | 82 | 0.194 | 0.643 | 0.163 | -0.7268 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 10 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 14 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 18 | 5 | 8 | 8 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 13 | 4 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 46 | 23 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.18049 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142746 | 0 | 0.301585 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.291782 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155803 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.280534 | 0.174591 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13054 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.358157 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.413794 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.301585 | 0 | 0.107141 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189824 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.427192 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | stonedonut | 2019/09/19 | Give me one reason. I honestly can't take it anymore, I'm sitting with the pills and blade in my hands. I have no one, no one cares, everything is fucked up in my life and nothing gets better. I think this is the day, when it's all gonna be over. I just can't take it anymore | 1.03918 | 2.208901 | 2.902426 | 95.983148 | 78.836066 | 6.191475 | 22.036066 | 6.742158 | 0.233856 | 212 | 6 | 53 | 2 | 5 | 71 | 43 | 61 | 0.177 | 0.728 | 0.095 | -0.6377 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 6 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 7 | 15 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 3 | 5 | 13 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 34 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.463551 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206696 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.238281 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150722 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.210042 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.216059 | 0.122103 | 0.224194 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165075 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.224249 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.4751 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.240291 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.351439 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149751 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | lowranker | 2019/09/19 | Started to smile at suicidal thoughts Having come up with a suitable timeframe for committing feels pretty weird. The realisation of it being kinda soon-ish makes me grin rather uncontrollably. That can't be good now, is it? | 5.545769 | 8.754673 | 5.458654 | 73.292596 | 72.846154 | 8.002564 | 30.262821 | 8.841846 | 3.052636 | 183 | 8 | 28 | 4 | 4 | 57 | 38 | 39 | 0.226 | 0.569 | 0.205 | -0.2514 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 8 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 6 | 7 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 19 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.36699 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.215415 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.357336 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.28438 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.433429 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.301548 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.466011 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.338223 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | ItsTraeger | 2019/09/19 | I cant do it God I want to so bad fuck this life is not
worth it I wanna go to heaven | -4.49058 | -3.29869 | 0.226087 | 107.096812 | 100.304348 | 3.066667 | 7.666667 | 3.1291 | -2.578786 | 64 | 0 | 21 | 0 | 3 | 25 | 19 | 23 | 0.386 | 0.454 | 0.161 | -0.7544 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 3 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 14 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.506118 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.560385 | 0 | 0 | 0.344494 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.428148 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.357529 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | uglyvirginmonster | 2019/09/19 | Im planning on ending my life tonight, what do you guys reccomend I should think about and be thankful for before I die? My looks rule out a future as girls just find my face too vile and terrifying to be even worth a hello. Not willing to float through life being seen as a monster anymore, what should I try and remini... | 5.462538 | 5.807385 | 5.452115 | 84.916635 | 67.615385 | 7.730769 | 31.634615 | 7.168622 | 1.816769 | 259 | 10 | 52 | 2 | 4 | 81 | 49 | 65 | 0.171 | 0.75 | 0.079 | -0.8156 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 7 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 11 | 5 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 7 | 1 | 10 | 4 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 36 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.293624 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.251935 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.307276 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.262232 | 0 | 0 | 0.195553 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.270604 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.293157 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.319808 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.418248 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.248626 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.272583 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189711 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.201013 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | RGCrono | 2019/09/19 | How I can psych up if wanna commit suicide I tried once but didn't go very well. Last night I tried again but I was scared, mostly bc the experience of the first try.
The thing is, I really wanna do this bc I can't handle this situation anymore.
Any advice? | -0.255047 | 2.032249 | 2.356014 | 89.971002 | 96.358491 | 4.914151 | 14.17217 | 6.627428 | -0.28447 | 201 | 4 | 42 | 3 | 8 | 69 | 40 | 53 | 0.177 | 0.792 | 0.031 | -0.8199 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 8 | 7 | 4 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 4 | 5 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 30 | 9 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.236757 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164761 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.24028 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.237 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206087 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137695 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197494 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.227367 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.258024 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155213 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.242568 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.272337 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.265019 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160963 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.493484 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19991 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.217842 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | shadow__boxing | 2019/09/19 | Need legit reasons to keep on living. Okay so let's be fairly rational here.
Life is all about fighting. We fight and struggle to get through school and work etc.
However it's all utterly pointless isn't it?
Is it actually worth living? Going through struggle after struggle knowing that everything is temporary and t... | 5.064363 | 7.271526 | 6.23792 | 71.91103 | 70.376147 | 8.881142 | 34.12946 | 9.444779 | 3.73851 | 473 | 24 | 74 | 11 | 9 | 158 | 75 | 109 | 0.17 | 0.672 | 0.157 | -0.3921 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 10 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 4 | 11 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 16 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 19 | 29 | 7 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 4 | 12 | 21 | 3 | 7 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 52 | 13 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0.158648 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099103 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129801 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181312 | 0 | 0.147056 | 0 | 0 | 0.29222 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084938 | 0.155955 | 0.184788 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145633 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.289004 | 0 | 0 | 0.178692 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166242 | 0.11483 | 0 | 0 | 0.28711 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146728 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120546 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153684 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104148 | 0.167152 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164532 | 0.129549 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.509869 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153223 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110376 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09589 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146697 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118355 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | selfharm_reality | 2019/09/19 | Dammm Damm I’m so calm, about this!
Nobody cares anyway...
My tutor said she would but honestly I don’t think it would impact her as much as she lets on, I’m a total idiot and I’m so worthless anyway...
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suicidewatch | Ziroikabi | 2019/09/19 | All alone So tomorrow is the last day I will see my irls till Christmas because they are going to uni but I already have a full time job so i didnt need to go to uni. I’m going to be so lonely im really upset and Idk what to do. I struggle with suicidal thoughts and depression but my friends were the only thing stoppin... | 0.502197 | 2.414327 | 2.850936 | 92.23598 | 83.269663 | 5.753308 | 22.248439 | 6.937598 | 0.605726 | 321 | 11 | 72 | 4 | 9 | 110 | 61 | 89 | 0.286 | 0.674 | 0.04 | -0.9766 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 6 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 11 | 20 | 11 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 10 | 1 | 11 | 14 | 3 | 15 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 50 | 12 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.226161 | 0.240971 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.205161 | 0 | 0 | 0.266227 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140828 | 0 | 0.188078 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168708 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.496408 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.235872 | 0 | 0.216694 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177997 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161915 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166077 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13989 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174009 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182563 | 0 | 0.228283 | 0 | 0.238856 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145072 | 0 | 0 | 0.173358 | 0.127331 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | YasimZinn | 2019/09/19 | So lonely Hey guys,
I'm new to reddit and this community. I'm reaching out for help - I've been having a tough couple of days and I am feeling particularly depressed today and I have a strong urge to self harm and I feel my suicidal thoughts, which i have kept at bay for the past couple of days returning - I am try... | 2.390219 | 3.744674 | 4.019241 | 88.599539 | 75.653386 | 7.251076 | 24.701394 | 7.908726 | 1.18842 | 1,870 | 61 | 413 | 28 | 40 | 626 | 241 | 502 | 0.128 | 0.74 | 0.132 | 0.5048 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 62 | 3 | 2 | 2 | 3 | 21 | 30 | 0 | 1 | 23 | 1 | 30 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 72 | 74 | 38 | 2 | 1 | 13 | 4 | 9 | 3 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 23 | 28 | 0 | 2 | 18 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 10 | 14 | 0 | 8 | 14 | 13 | 51 | 16 | 75 | 54 | 7 | 68 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 1 | 37 | 24 | 0 | 4 | 37 | 269 | 74 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062705 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05657 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148351 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062972 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054394 | 0.059064 | 0.043122 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.216368 | 0 | 0 | 0.060935 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.313083 | 0 | 0.182482 | 0.072928 | 0.060927 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059093 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.046722 | 0.063987 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.28614 | 0.050536 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06017 | 0 | 0.077561 | 0.109305 | 0 | 0.073916 | 0 | 0.120607 | 0 | 0 | 0.077989 | 0 | 0.070042 | 0 | 0.075302 | 0.063368 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189658 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075727 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062876 | 0 | 0 | 0.077752 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103678 | 0 | 0.124927 | 0 | 0.059403 | 0 | 0 | 0.120279 | 0.063844 | 0 | 0.094437 | 0 | 0 | 0.077055 | 0 | 0.071262 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082848 | 0.056463 | 0.150368 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06832 | 0.075231 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150668 | 0.143803 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135056 | 0 | 0 | 0.073907 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071112 | 0 | 0.075239 | 0 | 0 | 0.226585 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06041 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064398 | 0.147591 | 0 | 0 | 0.058516 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059937 | 0 | 0.209887 | 0 | 0.050069 | 0.075398 | 0.056492 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161957 | 0.154753 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106373 | 0 | 0 | 0.065127 | 0.080896 | 0 | 0 | 0.045326 | 0 | 0.112317 | 0.082496 | 0 | 0.134104 | 0 | 0 | 0.096054 | 0.076943 | 0.207304 | 0 | 0.08509 | 0 | 0 | 0.1751 | 0 | 0 | 0.113484 | 0 | 0 | 0.065575 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.045553 |
suicidewatch | curiositysavedme251 | 2019/09/19 | The first time I’ve written it down I’ve been living with Bipolar 2 for ten years. I recently got a new psychiatrist, sort of starting off clean slate. After answering her rounds of insightful questions she doesn’t think I have Bipolar. She sees depression and severe anxiety disorder.
She said I lack coping skills, I ... | 0.902694 | 2.992089 | 3.108298 | 89.949359 | 82.93617 | 6.303219 | 20.013366 | 7.51619 | 0.630783 | 1,398 | 39 | 303 | 23 | 39 | 476 | 189 | 376 | 0.223 | 0.63 | 0.148 | -0.9816 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 41 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 3 | 16 | 21 | 4 | 2 | 20 | 1 | 28 | 10 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 51 | 65 | 27 | 4 | 5 | 8 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 22 | 15 | 1 | 3 | 13 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 8 | 13 | 0 | 2 | 15 | 9 | 46 | 8 | 36 | 46 | 4 | 38 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 3 | 29 | 14 | 0 | 8 | 21 | 192 | 68 | 2 | 0 | 0.123629 | 0 | 0.113748 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.208967 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079822 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097546 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127212 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115453 | 0.114615 | 0 | 0 | 0.08987 | 0.105905 | 0.108291 | 0 | 0.119585 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121004 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092416 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.196729 | 0 | 0.052759 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088753 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109029 | 0.100095 | 0 | 0 | 0.083452 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09347 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120397 | 0.111701 | 0.11779 | 0 | 0 | 0.103544 | 0 | 0.346318 | 0 | 0.229375 | 0 | 0 | 0.110483 | 0 | 0 | 0.0737 | 0 | 0.104578 | 0.276408 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.282519 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076704 | 0.077368 | 0 | 0.100774 | 0 | 0.097918 | 0 | 0.100119 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144676 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116887 | 0 | 0.104371 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103025 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099253 | 0.082977 | 0.104465 | 0 | 0.166295 | 0 | 0 | 0.117877 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147708 | 0.111215 | 0.083328 | 0.087235 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096064 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133717 | 0 | 0 | 0.060843 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070842 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090118 | 0 | 0.086093 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094153 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105965 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134386 |
suicidewatch | furyfire10 | 2019/09/19 | I love blood I have myself. I've been cutting and cutting and cutting for the past year and I was just hoping to die from blood loss because I don't want to live anymore. | 5.2325 | 4.604899 | 5.524444 | 87.515 | 68.166667 | 7.2 | 31.888889 | 3.1291 | 1.301822 | 135 | 5 | 29 | 0 | 2 | 43 | 26 | 36 | 0.291 | 0.538 | 0.171 | -0.2316 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 7 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 18 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.383514 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.235736 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.401345 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.384092 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.341473 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.349022 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.36916 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.228092 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.249029 |
suicidewatch | NoOneMatters | 2019/09/19 | Waiting Until 30 I’m 24 right now. Last year my girlfriend left me over the phone and never talked to me again. I sat crying on the floor of my apartment planning how I was going to kill myself. I knew my life was over. I’ll be 25 in a few months. My friend said I should wait until 30 to kill myself from being single b... | 1.311 | 3.387907 | 3.125556 | 90.465 | 81.333333 | 5.333333 | 17.777778 | 6.427356 | -0.092556 | 339 | 7 | 70 | 3 | 9 | 113 | 68 | 90 | 0.089 | 0.846 | 0.066 | -0.2459 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 10 | 15 | 5 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 13 | 2 | 14 | 7 | 2 | 18 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 46 | 13 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.244798 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.256439 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118042 | 0.16678 | 0 | 0 | 0.213373 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180367 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132678 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.516566 | 0 | 0 | 0.190297 | 0 | 0 | 0.253649 | 0 | 0.164896 | 0.114054 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186341 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180055 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149557 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.199369 | 0.222069 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187642 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1585 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.300674 |
suicidewatch | Cooperrabbit2003 | 2019/09/19 | No one takes you seriously until you’re dead I have tried everything. I’ve been to the psych ward 6 times, done intensive outpatient group therapy, traditional therapy, dbt, nothing works. I just got denied by insurance to start a residential treatment program. They claimed I wasn’t sick enough even though they didn’t ... | 2.907987 | 5.554275 | 4.196863 | 81.794771 | 79.117647 | 8.48366 | 25.915033 | 9.150863 | 2.500817 | 354 | 14 | 68 | 10 | 9 | 116 | 66 | 85 | 0.176 | 0.762 | 0.062 | -0.7543 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 16 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 1 | 10 | 1 | 6 | 11 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 39 | 13 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.215293 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.21738 | 0 | 0.27791 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189077 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109916 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168261 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141014 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102782 | 0 | 0.185771 | 0 | 0.176667 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.201867 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.28512 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148909 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.316361 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.481179 | 0 | 0 | 0.134804 | 0.206699 | 0 | 0.122675 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.28567 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15316 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | noobmaster69_doomguy | 2019/09/19 | I am a coward. Hi, I'm 19 years old. I hate myself. I have a seemingly good life for which I am grateful to GOD but it seems like I bring pain to everyone else. I spent a lot of my parents money on my education. I don't know if I will be able to get a job. In fact, now that I think about it, the reason I don't have an... | -0.459579 | 1.366426 | 2.385276 | 94.683976 | 86.39645 | 5.175674 | 17.081197 | 6.427356 | -0.329379 | 584 | 13 | 140 | 6 | 18 | 205 | 95 | 169 | 0.279 | 0.569 | 0.151 | -0.9821 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 20 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 11 | 2 | 1 | 11 | 0 | 17 | 5 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 22 | 33 | 5 | 1 | 5 | 6 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 3 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 28 | 5 | 17 | 29 | 2 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 4 | 8 | 91 | 35 | 1 | 0.143548 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097618 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.200745 | 0.147082 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087506 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147464 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.239832 | 0 | 0.127141 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137167 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072582 | 0.102551 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110905 | 0 | 0.074998 | 0 | 0 | 0.120402 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141724 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096217 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14245 | 0 | 0.158815 | 0 | 0.07889 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155966 | 0 | 0.101392 | 0.210391 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12204 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137739 | 0 | 0.15063 | 0 | 0 | 0.109175 | 0.458237 | 0 | 0.159393 | 0 | 0 | 0.099518 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154769 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091961 | 0.147592 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143717 | 0 | 0 | 0.261362 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121628 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107931 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09198 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.254006 | 0.113942 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09244 |
suicidewatch | thehomieangel | 2019/09/19 | My Birthday is coming up I don’t want to see it Ever since I became depressed I knew I never wanted to see 25, I’m currently 24 with only a few weeks til my bday I’m increasingly getting more and more depressed as time goes in I even self harmed today first time in a while am I losing hope in myself. | 0.458703 | 2.542174 | 3.099121 | 89.382308 | 84.692308 | 4.945055 | 18.516484 | 6.182691 | -0.045198 | 238 | 6 | 50 | 2 | 7 | 83 | 48 | 65 | 0.191 | 0.744 | 0.065 | -0.8442 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 13 | 4 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 9 | 1 | 9 | 12 | 4 | 16 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 33 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.203162 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.40627 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155775 | 0.213338 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.200612 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123221 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.23425 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.263853 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1819 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179373 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.37588 | 0 | 0.24604 | 0 | 0 | 0.195096 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.275049 | 0 | 0.223556 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.278218 | 0 | 0.189183 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | GeekyWheatley | 2019/09/19 | I don't know who I am anymore. When I was a child, I was fucking brave. I used to just say what was on my mind and then not care if I was judged. I used to speak about my interests and not care if people thought they were weird and a waste of time. I spoke to everyone. I loved being social. I couldn't think of anything... | 0.680529 | 2.620052 | 2.461023 | 95.124588 | 82.786982 | 5.633275 | 18.816916 | 6.794906 | -0.007747 | 615 | 15 | 142 | 7 | 17 | 203 | 102 | 169 | 0.161 | 0.643 | 0.196 | 0.8505 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 20 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 13 | 1 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 17 | 4 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 29 | 37 | 14 | 1 | 5 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 6 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 5 | 24 | 10 | 12 | 24 | 2 | 16 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 8 | 6 | 1 | 3 | 10 | 90 | 30 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161704 | 0 | 0 | 0.134178 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125377 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144207 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.332486 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179106 | 0.105155 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137379 | 0.155804 | 0.146541 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150739 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173573 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174551 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089609 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115169 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.273846 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147161 | 0 | 0.108839 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164637 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110489 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.22608 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154137 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104456 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129666 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166212 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182524 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.208955 | 0 | 0.129446 | 0.285232 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169743 | 0 | 0.28165 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187502 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Throwwerfaccount5389 | 2019/09/19 | I'm so done I'm so done and tired and stressed out. I just want it all to stop. I wish I could just drop dead on the spot. I just want to sleep forever. I'm about to finish my thesis and the pressure to get an A is slowly killing me. I can't even sleep anymore. | -1.444286 | 0.34685 | 0.929524 | 103.665 | 90.666667 | 4.095238 | 16.904762 | 5.288315 | -0.981524 | 200 | 5 | 54 | 1 | 7 | 67 | 39 | 60 | 0.314 | 0.605 | 0.08 | -0.9474 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 13 | 12 | 5 | 2 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 7 | 9 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 34 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.235095 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.18927 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.48518 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156573 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123852 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.262267 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.474453 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198189 | 0.271546 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.27246 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.279643 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.272602 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | chrisj994 | 2019/09/19 | Mr Happy Anyone watch that short film that came out a few years ago with Chance the Rapper? I’d love to pay to have someone kill me. Just minding my own business, completely unaware of what’s going on and getting 2 to the back of the head. Just a little fantasy of mine (unless you know a guy) lol. I’m too worried ... | 2.238439 | 3.669444 | 4.020033 | 88.12314 | 76.209302 | 6.774751 | 22.750831 | 7.44753 | 0.850916 | 320 | 9 | 68 | 4 | 7 | 108 | 68 | 86 | 0.113 | 0.749 | 0.138 | 0.5118 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 9 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 7 | 2 | 14 | 8 | 2 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 44 | 11 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202058 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159383 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.350549 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.260706 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.238994 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.214885 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.249701 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.238182 | 0 | 0.129545 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.2257 | 0 | 0.24265 | 0 | 0 | 0.233936 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.252186 | 0 | 0.125272 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.228459 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.205728 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.230158 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193136 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.231488 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146788 |
suicidewatch | notaperfectdate | 2019/09/19 | I try to get help I went today to get help. I made a post earlier.. and I still very much fee this way..
What really annoys me and makes everything worse, is I told the doctor “I don’t think I really want to kill myself, I just want to stop living.. Does that make sense?”
AND SHE TOLD ME “NO” with a stern look on he... | 0.719222 | 2.821874 | 2.739216 | 92.245359 | 83.764706 | 6.130719 | 15.326797 | 7.38713 | -0.068418 | 629 | 10 | 139 | 10 | 18 | 211 | 98 | 170 | 0.145 | 0.612 | 0.244 | 0.8937 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 29 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 5 | 13 | 3 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 10 | 6 | 2 | 4 | 1 | 35 | 36 | 10 | 1 | 8 | 7 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 8 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 6 | 5 | 21 | 10 | 15 | 28 | 1 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 9 | 4 | 1 | 2 | 11 | 81 | 28 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118616 | 0 | 0 | 0.095296 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.303872 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.234448 | 0.100224 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10293 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173726 | 0.081819 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097417 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119672 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121917 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153531 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126708 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.22381 | 0 | 0.20226 | 0 | 0.096174 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103366 | 0.108369 | 0.229345 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084191 | 0 | 0.088331 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077607 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079399 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108266 | 0 | 0.109686 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146739 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091077 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117561 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097039 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091462 | 0.09575 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076087 | 0.073385 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131633 | 0.108559 | 0.218872 | 0 | 0.155514 | 0 | 0 | 0.238455 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094497 | 0.405309 | 0.090907 | 0 | 0 | 0.102974 | 0.106168 | 0.103344 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116714 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | hazel247 | 2019/09/19 | "No one would care if I died" I work in a GP as a receptionist. The other day one of our patients didnt attend an appointment after being released as an outpatient from a mental health facility. We called 8 times to no avail.
Today we learnt she committed suicide.
Today was a quite day, we'd all seen/met the patient. S... | 3.127987 | 4.535181 | 4.258323 | 87.41292 | 73.850299 | 7.29415 | 25.421004 | 7.882392 | 1.264075 | 643 | 21 | 137 | 9 | 13 | 210 | 104 | 167 | 0.117 | 0.803 | 0.08 | -0.6597 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 26 | 9 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 15 | 0 | 15 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 29 | 24 | 7 | 3 | 4 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 9 | 3 | 0 | 4 | 6 | 1 | 21 | 5 | 19 | 14 | 9 | 14 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 20 | 4 | 0 | 6 | 8 | 102 | 26 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08214 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137592 | 0 | 0.41215 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173801 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139846 | 0 | 0 | 0.413757 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150278 | 0.088999 | 0 | 0 | 0.128756 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07658 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14323 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146779 | 0 | 0 | 0.135793 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103925 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.365232 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14332 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152642 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107376 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147391 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08634 | 0 | 0 | 0.157144 | 0 | 0.255449 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.324168 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098097 | 0 | 0 | 0.191441 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | amiugly124 | 2019/09/19 | How funny would it be if I killed myself For being fat and ugly and useless. I've wasted my entire youth being a fat disgusting piece of shit, so even if I somehow got into perfect shape it wouldnt even matter. My life is effectively over, but itd be kinda funny if they found me with a suicide note that said "fat and u... | 8.579953 | 5.640285 | 9.096338 | 71.999249 | 63.084507 | 10.593427 | 33.525822 | 7.793538 | 2.51094 | 274 | 7 | 52 | 2 | 3 | 93 | 52 | 71 | 0.284 | 0.565 | 0.151 | -0.8954 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 5 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 8 | 5 | 4 | 2 | 1 | 19 | 11 | 10 | 2 | 5 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 7 | 2 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 6 | 2 | 40 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.421956 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.350234 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.255474 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.353398 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.22562 | 0.156056 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.303848 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.327886 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.24591 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.3494 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.226911 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | 6Omgs | 2019/09/19 | cry for help 16-F
i’ve had major depression for the past 5 years now after my mom’s boyfriend killed himself, and i don’t see any ways to get help. i’ve tried therapy, i’ve tried meds. i don’t know if i’m being dramatic or not, maybe i am, but i don’t think i have what it takes to make it past this year. i’ve self-h... | 0.436351 | 1.667935 | 2.633158 | 97.009413 | 80.644737 | 6.25587 | 18.271255 | 7.010147 | -0.185704 | 517 | 10 | 134 | 6 | 13 | 176 | 86 | 152 | 0.121 | 0.702 | 0.177 | 0.8608 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 22 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 7 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 13 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 20 | 30 | 10 | 1 | 5 | 11 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 17 | 4 | 13 | 27 | 1 | 11 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 7 | 8 | 67 | 22 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138612 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.289384 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126275 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157561 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144623 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155813 | 0 | 0 | 0.122173 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093689 | 0 | 0 | 0.135542 | 0 | 0 | 0.133721 | 0 | 0.071723 | 0.101336 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148219 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140045 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.285233 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156934 | 0 | 0.233868 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0693 | 0 | 0.125254 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094685 | 0 | 0.28501 | 0 | 0.157561 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16613 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09612 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.27082 | 0.098339 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113034 | 0 | 0.147978 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106652 | 0 | 0 | 0.130594 | 0.162215 | 0 | 0 | 0.09089 | 0 | 0 | 0.082713 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157598 | 0.288916 | 0 | 0.138565 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112592 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182691 |
suicidewatch | psilomide | 2019/09/19 | Help Me Please It seems like I have come to one of the lowest points in time for my mental health. It’s weird because I have done everything they say to do. I have started lifting weights again. I started back up at College and am getting 95% or better in my classes. I have begun to pursue my biggest dream of producing... | 4.033617 | 5.510117 | 4.967245 | 82.946849 | 71.682216 | 7.842521 | 27.186477 | 8.384062 | 1.860521 | 1,374 | 48 | 265 | 22 | 26 | 448 | 194 | 343 | 0.082 | 0.798 | 0.121 | 0.7509 | 7 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 40 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 15 | 24 | 3 | 1 | 13 | 0 | 28 | 7 | 2 | 6 | 8 | 52 | 54 | 16 | 0 | 5 | 7 | 1 | 3 | 5 | 2 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 17 | 15 | 1 | 2 | 8 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 4 | 9 | 1 | 3 | 7 | 4 | 46 | 15 | 45 | 43 | 7 | 50 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 16 | 22 | 1 | 9 | 28 | 190 | 63 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094983 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157854 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072564 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089119 | 0.072938 | 0 | 0.057823 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083891 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193422 | 0 | 0 | 0.163418 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081698 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09707 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168027 | 0 | 0 | 0.062651 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085249 | 0 | 0.089421 | 0 | 0.095923 | 0.067764 | 0 | 0 | 0.086696 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146569 | 0.087692 | 0.099116 | 0 | 0.053908 | 0.07956 | 0.075864 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08388 | 0.100975 | 0 | 0.09365 | 0 | 0.100826 | 0 | 0 | 0.063579 | 0 | 0.095147 | 0 | 0 | 0.10945 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094129 | 0.084311 | 0 | 0 | 0.05213 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066999 | 0.231707 | 0 | 0.251276 | 0.083944 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08561 | 0 | 0.063316 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095591 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075712 | 0.100816 | 0 | 0.070334 | 0.146316 | 0.091611 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099534 | 0 | 0.192828 | 0.072141 | 0 | 0 | 0.105325 | 0 | 0.09055 | 0.131521 | 0 | 0 | 0.104122 | 0.089669 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097527 | 0 | 0.101839 | 0 | 0.162011 | 0 | 0.075432 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172705 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096693 | 0 | 0.146048 | 0 | 0 | 0.134278 | 0 | 0.151503 | 0 | 0.108656 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063017 | 0 | 0.093194 | 0.075304 | 0.110621 | 0 | 0 | 0.181276 | 0 | 0.193201 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115508 | 0.085286 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069056 | 0 | 0 | 0.202147 | 0 | 0 | 0.122167 |
suicidewatch | braedizzle | 2019/09/19 | I’m not saying I wanna Kill myself, but if I knew when I went to sleep tonight that I wasn’t waking up, I wouldn’t be mad I wish there was just a power down switch to end it all. I’m too scared to take my life, but I don’t wanna live it anymore. | -0.363103 | 0.707396 | 2.158138 | 100.250655 | 82.448276 | 4.64 | 15.048276 | 3.1291 | -1.363583 | 188 | 2 | 51 | 0 | 5 | 65 | 41 | 58 | 0.148 | 0.745 | 0.107 | -0.4991 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 11 | 4 | 1 | 5 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 7 | 5 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 34 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.319185 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.28506 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.356075 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.22733 | 0 | 0 | 0.284196 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.255945 | 0.322224 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.322079 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.241989 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.298355 | 0 | 0 | 0.370108 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Y00M | 2019/09/19 | I turned 25 today. I fucking MADE IT. The first time I posted here was about a year and a half ago. It was during a time where I was at the end of my rope and I was so wrought with depression, anger, shame, and fear that I felt suicide was my only option to escape the hellfire that I had found myself in.
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suicidewatch | wilsonator11 | 2019/09/19 | Party time Anybody out there who also wants to die just wanna have a party with before they do? I would like to throw a party to a shit ton of drugs and just OD | 1.224762 | 2.662611 | 3.12 | 93.473333 | 79 | 4.666667 | 14.52381 | 3.1291 | -1.169762 | 125 | 1 | 28 | 0 | 3 | 42 | 28 | 35 | 0.174 | 0.58 | 0.246 | 0.2732 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 4 | 2 | 2 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 7 | 3 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 22 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.319357 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.339815 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.414459 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.463115 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.195101 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.409924 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.232862 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.235545 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.283684 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | maciemayy | 2019/09/19 | I can’t. Lost my bf of ten years in March bc he just didn’t love me anymore. I quit my job, and moved home to take care of my disabled mom so my dad wouldn’t have to quit work. I lost my dog in the beginning of July, my grandpa just a month ago, and my cat a week ago. All suddenly. My mom is controlling, and while I lo... | -0.382836 | 1.017773 | 2.155006 | 98.729487 | 83.658385 | 5.038675 | 18.807867 | 5.683918 | -0.516039 | 536 | 13 | 140 | 3 | 15 | 185 | 93 | 161 | 0.226 | 0.637 | 0.137 | -0.9632 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 23 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 11 | 13 | 2 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 12 | 7 | 2 | 3 | 3 | 24 | 32 | 13 | 1 | 3 | 10 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 25 | 6 | 13 | 26 | 3 | 20 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 3 | 13 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 13 | 82 | 25 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.262491 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146835 | 0 | 0 | 0.12184 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123623 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150956 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166061 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127523 | 0 | 0.153662 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136878 | 0.077355 | 0 | 0.084145 | 0 | 0.118417 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146178 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148515 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146926 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081369 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130739 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.323248 | 0 | 0.267258 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.34681 | 0.118179 | 0.157364 | 0.108841 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.314958 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126442 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148166 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139544 | 0 | 0.111322 | 0 | 0.12941 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086335 | 0.170172 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174658 | 0 | 0.118764 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142724 | 0 | 0.107789 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095345 |
suicidewatch | pensievlywaiting | 2019/09/19 | slip away I want to lie to everyone I know. So they will stop worrying and I can finally end this worthless life without guilt. Silently leave and become forgotten like deserved. I don't belong here. | 2.637568 | 5.627298 | 3.560865 | 82.713189 | 86.297297 | 7.284324 | 29.021622 | 8.238736 | 2.87228 | 160 | 8 | 27 | 4 | 5 | 51 | 32 | 37 | 0.248 | 0.587 | 0.165 | -0.6572 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 17 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.294638 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.346347 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.277757 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.299659 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.343534 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172347 | 0 | 0 | 0.332058 | 0 | 0 | 0.221506 | 0.15321 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.262184 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.18497 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.3023 | 0 | 0 | 0.318477 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | hhgggddd44433 | 2019/09/19 | feel like necking tbh been dealing with what seems like an unsolvable problem for close to 5 years with no way out. | 9.480455 | 7.710053 | 7.471818 | 80.677727 | 60.363636 | 10.618182 | 40.181818 | 8.841846 | 3.365673 | 93 | 4 | 18 | 1 | 1 | 27 | 20 | 22 | 0.182 | 0.632 | 0.186 | 0.0258 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 9 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.436724 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.21419 | 0.302627 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.413909 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.405338 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.385639 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.336242 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.272791 |
suicidewatch | TheOptimisticPanda | 2019/09/19 | Five reasons. I'm really really struggling right now. I feel like a failure, like an unwanted piece of shit. I've been looking for ways to end this for a few weeks now but I look at my parents and stop. They've gone out of town for three days and now the urge is very strong to end it all. I have no one I can talk to.
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suicidewatch | Joyngshuyee | 2019/09/19 | Help Help me .....
I need someone to talk | -2.945 | -2.618145 | -0.755 | 107.6 | 129 | 1.6 | 16.5 | 3.1291 | -1.4462 | 28 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 7 | 8 | 0 | 0.526 | 0.474 | 0.6597 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.695904 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.384917 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.439845 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.417245 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | powlou | 2019/09/19 | My lightly autistic friend is feeling suicidal So my teenage friend (16 years old) has been struggling with bullies since back in 4th grade. I knew him then but I had other struggles (like finally doing 100% in lego star wars) and I didn’t really give him much attention. I started getting to know him 4 years ago, in 7t... | 2.106443 | 4.329142 | 3.398238 | 88.787067 | 79.350109 | 6.512988 | 24.159932 | 7.635375 | 1.206072 | 1,791 | 64 | 366 | 28 | 45 | 582 | 225 | 457 | 0.106 | 0.714 | 0.18 | 0.99 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 63 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 23 | 34 | 3 | 2 | 21 | 1 | 28 | 5 | 1 | 6 | 1 | 69 | 64 | 30 | 3 | 6 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 8 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 15 | 28 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 8 | 12 | 1 | 1 | 22 | 6 | 56 | 23 | 48 | 37 | 11 | 65 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 72 | 20 | 1 | 11 | 42 | 220 | 71 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0.068349 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.18626 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079681 | 0.065805 | 0.053857 | 0 | 0.085392 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073503 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080108 | 0 | 0 | 0.074094 | 0 | 0.073436 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090341 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073177 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078114 | 0.138783 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.035415 | 0 | 0 | 0.076726 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.378792 | 0 | 0.146373 | 0.268757 | 0.079611 | 0.058747 | 0.056018 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.046947 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080817 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115477 | 0.057092 | 0.079009 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.049472 | 0.136873 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078357 | 0 | 0.059546 | 0 | 0 | 0.046753 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167717 | 0 | 0.051488 | 0.051934 | 0.05402 | 0.135291 | 0 | 0.065728 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073496 | 0 | 0.047461 | 0.053269 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.048557 | 0.18347 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.269219 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.283539 | 0.16744 | 0.063762 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173815 | 0.078729 | 0 | 0.071398 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148725 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146443 | 0.08018 | 0.153226 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112592 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.046532 | 0 | 0.068814 | 0 | 0.040841 | 0 | 0.06639 | 0.133853 | 0 | 0.142659 | 0 | 0 | 0.072915 | 0 | 0.060493 | 0.07714 | 0 | 0.082623 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062975 | 0.064928 | 0 | 0.156396 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180415 |
suicidewatch | greenbumjack89 | 2019/09/19 | I must be the stupidest cuny alive Cant seem to do anything, not even the most basic of tasks right!! | 6.788571 | 4.909717 | 6.647619 | 84.805714 | 65.666667 | 10.304762 | 30.52381 | 8.841846 | 1.99001 | 79 | 2 | 18 | 1 | 1 | 25 | 20 | 21 | 0.169 | 0.721 | 0.11 | -0.3365 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 12 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.503474 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.4041 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.522489 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.556976 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | alonelyfatguy | 2019/09/19 | My life was and is fucked up I realised how fucked up my life and still is and I am also a disgrace to my family and should have killed myself before even moving forward. | 2.570476 | 4.342569 | 3.794286 | 88.639048 | 76.142857 | 5.809524 | 20.238095 | 6.427356 | 0.217667 | 135 | 3 | 27 | 1 | 3 | 44 | 25 | 35 | 0.371 | 0.629 | 0 | -0.9552 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 8 | 6 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 24 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.240092 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.255472 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198298 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.283028 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.555112 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.332158 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.42412 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.319095 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.239762 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | dksanbg | 2019/09/19 | WTF? Why the fuck isn't there a subreddit where I can have a discussion about actually committing suicide? I want to know how to do it with best results. Tell me where on or off reddit I can have a discusiion about that. Fuck off if you're gonna try to "support" me!!! | 1.882364 | 3.745971 | 3.718182 | 87.997273 | 78.454545 | 8.036364 | 25.545455 | 8.841846 | 1.874927 | 208 | 8 | 46 | 5 | 5 | 70 | 42 | 55 | 0.274 | 0.618 | 0.108 | -0.9256 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 8 | 12 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 9 | 11 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 5 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 33 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.299089 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.321642 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.566689 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168439 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.33525 | 0.3478 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.267885 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.208086 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180775 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.276559 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | bette-piddler | 2019/09/19 | Are there any studies about the effects suicide of a parent have on young children? So they also become broken adults or develop mental illness problems? Is it possible that that might actually be better for the kid? Like they can grieve and move on versus other years of idk. I can’t article what I’m trying to say righ... | 4.0839 | 5.880804 | 5.215 | 79.9375 | 72.1 | 7 | 28.5 | 7.645422 | 1.9033 | 409 | 16 | 72 | 5 | 8 | 135 | 83 | 100 | 0.184 | 0.727 | 0.089 | -0.8555 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 8 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 17 | 14 | 7 | 2 | 2 | 7 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 2 | 11 | 12 | 2 | 14 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 5 | 0 | 5 | 6 | 52 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.196766 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161247 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137118 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155044 | 0.168356 | 0 | 0.222689 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178329 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17369 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101952 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098508 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171422 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.2032 | 0.213902 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.214305 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.447782 | 0 | 0 | 0.139788 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.227312 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192937 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172195 | 0 | 0.160348 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.220555 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136896 | 0.21932 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160048 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.218664 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129846 |
suicidewatch | NtThrow | 2019/09/19 | I stepped away from the train tracks today... ...but only because I thought of the people that'd have to clean up the mess, my parents who would be devesatated, and the fact it happens to be my brother's birthday today and that would haunt him for a long time.
Why do I care so much while my life is fucking horrible? E... | 9.035204 | 5.730976 | 8.534388 | 77.512398 | 62.571429 | 11.02449 | 38.785714 | 8.076483 | 3.030584 | 379 | 14 | 79 | 3 | 4 | 121 | 72 | 98 | 0.102 | 0.811 | 0.087 | -0.1378 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 10 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 15 | 5 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 10 | 1 | 17 | 9 | 1 | 18 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 10 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 56 | 14 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139381 | 0.204244 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.374566 | 0 | 0 | 0.243027 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.203237 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16652 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179151 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184283 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176272 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.213394 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140797 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176406 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146535 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151604 | 0 | 0 | 0.221339 | 0 | 0 | 0.138195 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188437 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158251 | 0.116235 | 0 | 0.377895 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117574 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17987 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145119 | 0 | 0 | 0.283206 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | DictatorPie | 2019/09/19 | Been considering it for a while now and it's been appearing more and more in my head recently. Recently I have been feeling more and more suicidal because of many different things, but the main factor is spite. For some reason I just want to spite my family who didn't give a shit about me when I was younger and going t... | 4.967948 | 5.018486 | 5.583028 | 84.571761 | 68.648241 | 9.246399 | 27.136097 | 9.075115 | 1.819191 | 765 | 21 | 165 | 13 | 12 | 248 | 117 | 199 | 0.227 | 0.699 | 0.074 | -0.9907 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 10 | 10 | 4 | 2 | 8 | 0 | 18 | 5 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 33 | 36 | 17 | 2 | 4 | 7 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 10 | 11 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 6 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 2 | 23 | 2 | 24 | 25 | 11 | 20 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 7 | 2 | 4 | 10 | 121 | 33 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112456 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.222434 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164772 | 0 | 0.115003 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087161 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141203 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089265 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132203 | 0.127407 | 0 | 0.136672 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124944 | 0 | 0.129648 | 0.153618 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138703 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152455 | 0 | 0 | 0.1382 | 0 | 0.066027 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1149 | 0 | 0 | 0.180427 | 0.137021 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104236 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091581 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146354 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12776 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.259742 | 0.138957 | 0.266889 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.270617 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13873 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104045 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147832 | 0.153367 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108628 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089788 | 0.173197 | 0.132784 | 0 | 0 | 0.155335 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091758 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.239145 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121952 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.295531 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Throwawayuk2222 | 2019/09/19 | Help Hello everyone,
My Father is out on bail, for receiving “indecent images of children” all day I’ve felt empty. He was arrested this morning early and came out this afternoon. All his stuff has been taken away for analysis. I am just getting over depression and this has sent me spiralling out of control, I walked ... | 4.153711 | 7.032429 | 5.467227 | 73.142077 | 75.907216 | 8.828454 | 31.349485 | 9.3871 | 3.757355 | 427 | 21 | 65 | 12 | 10 | 142 | 69 | 97 | 0.088 | 0.893 | 0.019 | -0.6976 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 17 | 16 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 10 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 2 | 9 | 0 | 16 | 8 | 2 | 17 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 53 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.246578 | 0.201806 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.30017 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.294357 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169257 | 0 | 0.226045 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.250779 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.25199 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.274235 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.235101 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175913 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.233275 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.291416 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.282962 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.300439 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.210945 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | lowkeyylayne | 2019/09/19 | i’m struggling with suicidal thoughts. when i was 7, i was the first one to find my moms body when she cut herself to death // ever since, i’ve battled with serious mental health problems, which didn’t help when i witnessed a public suicide of one of my classmates and football teammate. since that moment, i’ve been try... | 4.511382 | 5.888303 | 4.897724 | 84.290163 | 70.382114 | 7.092683 | 29.926829 | 7.38713 | 1.833156 | 499 | 20 | 93 | 5 | 9 | 158 | 81 | 123 | 0.198 | 0.75 | 0.052 | -0.9325 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 18 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 8 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 7 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 20 | 15 | 8 | 3 | 6 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 8 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 1 | 15 | 0 | 16 | 10 | 0 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 63 | 20 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105389 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153694 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129398 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172143 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.274525 | 0 | 0 | 0.10236 | 0.140184 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141645 | 0.131822 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088076 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164732 | 0 | 0 | 0.103877 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085171 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.312358 | 0 | 0 | 0.181506 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114912 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.210031 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174712 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.444872 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123496 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.256395 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162014 | 0 | 0.339036 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123033 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105218 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182817 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157933 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Person8346 | 2019/09/19 | I’ve decided. I’m doing it tonight and that’s another motherfucker to the ever growing list. I’ve decided. I’m not doing this anymore. I hate myself more than I could of ever imagined and now I can’t stand being in my own body. I hate my mind, my personality, the way I think, feel and experience, the way I look and jus... | 1.118858 | 2.967458 | 3.619263 | 87.862789 | 80.8 | 7.210526 | 21.526316 | 8.205008 | 1.0979 | 734 | 22 | 163 | 15 | 19 | 256 | 114 | 200 | 0.08 | 0.859 | 0.062 | -0.6554 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 27 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 14 | 7 | 3 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 16 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 39 | 34 | 13 | 1 | 4 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 7 | 4 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 19 | 3 | 15 | 28 | 4 | 26 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 8 | 4 | 1 | 6 | 16 | 100 | 29 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137179 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084535 | 0.260699 | 0 | 0 | 0.123282 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109942 | 0 | 0.13808 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126742 | 0.1277 | 0.131503 | 0.107082 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099251 | 0.137546 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107068 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103845 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164211 | 0.337336 | 0 | 0.118783 | 0 | 0.121599 | 0 | 0 | 0.062855 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114922 | 0.129893 | 0 | 0.070648 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136941 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.24546 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083322 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101329 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104389 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12603 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.251035 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084235 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118668 | 0 | 0.108542 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.357163 | 0 | 0.134027 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098856 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135975 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079653 | 0 | 0 | 0.072486 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168796 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149529 | 0 | 0 | 0.102568 | 0.073321 | 0.197342 | 0.099714 | 0 | 0.111769 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080051 |
suicidewatch | MajoraSkullChild | 2019/09/19 | I’m a coward My moods are unpredictable, I can be happy and elated one second then... this...
I just self harmed again for the first time in.. I don’t know how long it’s been, months? A year even? I hit a low point that was lower than I thought I could even go
I’m lonely, sexually frustrated, I couldn’t find anything ... | 1.580239 | 3.709033 | 2.63723 | 94.047008 | 80.674208 | 5.828137 | 21.357672 | 6.980633 | 0.380437 | 1,688 | 50 | 374 | 20 | 44 | 536 | 210 | 442 | 0.22 | 0.667 | 0.113 | -0.9949 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 79 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 7 | 27 | 31 | 9 | 2 | 16 | 0 | 31 | 16 | 6 | 3 | 1 | 67 | 71 | 28 | 1 | 11 | 17 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 24 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 16 | 5 | 1 | 2 | 18 | 22 | 0 | 4 | 13 | 12 | 57 | 8 | 34 | 47 | 8 | 44 | 0 | 6 | 5 | 3 | 14 | 22 | 3 | 2 | 19 | 228 | 81 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061542 | 0.094895 | 0 | 0 | 0.08975 | 0 | 0 | 0.074472 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069587 | 0.075562 | 0.220667 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080038 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.216766 | 0 | 0 | 0.058364 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101798 | 0 | 0.280526 | 0 | 0.358639 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137276 | 0 | 0.086892 | 0 | 0.082714 | 0.076978 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167328 | 0.094563 | 0 | 0.051432 | 0.151811 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096337 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101998 | 0 | 0.060659 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09424 | 0.248677 | 0.073768 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127843 | 0 | 0.090703 | 0 | 0.080088 | 0.075996 | 0 | 0.098789 | 0 | 0 | 0.085631 | 0.060408 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091167 | 0 | 0.096004 | 0 | 0 | 0.072235 | 0 | 0.199579 | 0.067103 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084926 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096377 | 0.122648 | 0 | 0.096296 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1711 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096256 | 0 | 0.103007 | 0.115951 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077285 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094409 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090563 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089505 | 0 | 0 | 0.096459 | 0.072272 | 0 | 0.103665 | 0 | 0.103599 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060123 | 0.057987 | 0 | 0.215536 | 0.10554 | 0 | 0.085782 | 0.086475 | 0 | 0.061442 | 0.098436 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106756 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08166 | 0 | 0.104068 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092225 | 0 | 0.098945 | 0 | 0.058278 |
suicidewatch | NoLifeWeeb1 | 2019/09/19 | Thought about my suicide note I want to kill myself. Obviously. The idiots at my school telling me I'm faking when their IQs are lower than my fucking sense of humor aren't helping. I've been dealing with depression for 3 years, since I was 10. No real catalyst, just started. Back to the point, I'd tell my family that ... | 4.739456 | 4.747586 | 5.359284 | 86.126413 | 69.134228 | 8.501417 | 28.636092 | 8.167269 | 1.669599 | 566 | 18 | 123 | 7 | 9 | 183 | 101 | 149 | 0.135 | 0.779 | 0.087 | -0.7297 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 18 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 5 | 11 | 3 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 11 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 20 | 21 | 6 | 2 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 16 | 4 | 17 | 13 | 1 | 11 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 15 | 4 | 1 | 3 | 5 | 70 | 23 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140331 | 0 | 0 | 0.115424 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167571 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157386 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154755 | 0.129288 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141509 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115974 | 0.138773 | 0.078426 | 0 | 0 | 0.125904 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100615 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14896 | 0 | 0.166073 | 0 | 0.082496 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159542 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141901 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150149 | 0.170856 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151918 | 0 | 0.136653 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124171 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106248 | 0 | 0 | 0.125498 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164194 | 0 | 0.141476 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.656008 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096184 | 0 | 0.119169 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088538 | 0.119149 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13545 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096665 |
suicidewatch | Metabisco | 2019/09/19 | I feel trapped I am a 23 year old male and I haven’t gone to college yet or even held down a decent job for longer than a week. I feel so alone in that my anxiety has actually trapped me. Most people can live with their anxiety, and live a pretty functional lifestyle but I just can’t seem to do that right now. I have b... | 2.536272 | 3.525547 | 3.793829 | 91.808724 | 74.702479 | 7.361249 | 24.188246 | 7.793538 | 0.888283 | 443 | 13 | 105 | 6 | 9 | 145 | 76 | 121 | 0.15 | 0.747 | 0.103 | -0.6947 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 15 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 21 | 25 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 13 | 0 | 16 | 20 | 1 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 0 | 4 | 8 | 74 | 17 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0.180668 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185389 | 0.191748 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.283261 | 0 | 0.183608 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.244564 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.468058 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183721 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101747 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130769 | 0 | 0 | 0.326961 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186507 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194272 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128352 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175016 | 0 | 0 | 0.188352 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118604 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158107 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168543 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147852 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109199 | 0 | 0.148507 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.238446 |
suicidewatch | identicalfractals | 2019/09/19 | I’m in the parking lot again, contemplating I’ve been home for months not able to do much of anything, everyday I fantasize about what it would be like to finally go through with suicide. But this week I started school again and it does feel nice to be doing something, but I just can rid myself of suicidal ideation. I... | 5.009158 | 5.869901 | 5.455088 | 82.668947 | 68.789474 | 9.22807 | 31.140351 | 9.414487 | 2.649035 | 1,146 | 46 | 230 | 23 | 19 | 367 | 150 | 285 | 0.217 | 0.669 | 0.113 | -0.9893 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 33 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 16 | 19 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 30 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 47 | 52 | 23 | 3 | 7 | 12 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 12 | 12 | 1 | 3 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 9 | 11 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 6 | 30 | 8 | 39 | 37 | 5 | 33 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 11 | 0 | 5 | 18 | 152 | 42 | 3 | 0.099849 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08851 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198046 | 0 | 0 | 0.164334 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093811 | 0 | 0.083369 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.257998 | 0 | 0.103627 | 0.10432 | 0 | 0 | 0.087378 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.252432 | 0.071332 | 0 | 0.109379 | 0.18252 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052167 | 0 | 0.170239 | 0.083748 | 0 | 0.220167 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.200779 | 0 | 0.100156 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112717 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070526 | 0.097562 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111705 | 0.108996 | 0.084888 | 0 | 0 | 0.06665 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100624 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159396 | 0 | 0.220201 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191615 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06766 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108126 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10432 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08527 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.303156 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076868 | 0 | 0 | 0.070673 | 0.106425 | 0.079739 | 0.083478 | 0 | 0.104383 | 0 | 0.218436 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115932 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058222 | 0.114761 | 0 | 0.09541 | 0 | 0.203372 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117787 | 0 | 0.080092 | 0.121589 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108281 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07093 | 0.109169 | 0 | 0.064299 |
suicidewatch | doesntnatter | 2019/09/19 | I just don’t care to be alive anymore. The fact that I still am is a travesty. Im just too chickenshit to do anything about it. | -0.110119 | 1.818603 | 2.378571 | 94.633095 | 85.785714 | 6.590476 | 23.619048 | 7.793538 | 1.117676 | 99 | 4 | 24 | 2 | 3 | 34 | 23 | 28 | 0.125 | 0.678 | 0.197 | 0.2732 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 18 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.467259 | 0 | 0 | 0.38772 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.480374 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.508928 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.376265 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | catoxo | 2019/09/19 | i deserve to die i’ll never be a useful member to society. i think about suicide 24/7 basically so everyone’s just used to me feeling bad, it’s nothing new so it doesn’t matter. nothing helps me and whenever someone tries to help and it doesn’t work they just get pissed off at me. i can’t afford to go to therapy, but e... | 2.03336 | 3.730608 | 3.864988 | 87.87402 | 77.45283 | 7.325677 | 22.842494 | 8.182891 | 1.168718 | 996 | 30 | 216 | 18 | 23 | 336 | 134 | 265 | 0.154 | 0.737 | 0.11 | -0.9035 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 27 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 16 | 13 | 2 | 1 | 10 | 1 | 21 | 3 | 2 | 4 | 2 | 44 | 44 | 23 | 3 | 4 | 13 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 14 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 14 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 26 | 5 | 29 | 37 | 3 | 27 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 12 | 9 | 2 | 3 | 11 | 137 | 40 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086878 | 0.063429 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106087 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107989 | 0.108711 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068725 | 0 | 0.087667 | 0.19885 | 0 | 0 | 0.19618 | 0 | 0.157834 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160779 | 0 | 0.054362 | 0 | 0.118269 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092012 | 0.110764 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110601 | 0 | 0 | 0.20923 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120061 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.226103 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.208573 | 0 | 0 | 0.174753 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104859 | 0.110382 | 0 | 0.121863 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080251 | 0.100493 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19968 | 0 | 0.109184 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072136 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099563 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066658 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11787 | 0.088859 | 0 | 0 | 0.104173 | 0 | 0.16583 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106807 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088162 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083095 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113815 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083632 | 0.18189 | 0.095796 | 0.237983 | 0 | 0.138254 | 0.200015 | 0 | 0 | 0.060673 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141288 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.359467 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09389 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151501 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067005 |
suicidewatch | you-can-call-me-sad | 2019/09/19 | Does anyone else struggle with wanting to kill themselves on their birthday? Today’s my 22nd birthday and for as long as I could remember I’ve thought about killing myself at every birthday since I was 12.
It hasn’t happened yet probably because I have a support system... not a perfect one but I have it. And that’s m... | 2.228259 | 4.573563 | 3.048592 | 90.794153 | 79.632911 | 4.962658 | 27.596519 | 5.985473 | 1.039518 | 314 | 14 | 61 | 2 | 8 | 99 | 63 | 79 | 0.123 | 0.801 | 0.076 | -0.3609 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 6 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 15 | 13 | 6 | 2 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 9 | 3 | 9 | 10 | 2 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 42 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148483 | 0.217582 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129449 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169547 | 0 | 0 | 0.136951 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185832 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177394 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178917 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107372 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187784 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.469876 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187926 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141748 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143896 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202716 | 0.147219 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.228953 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.240555 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175661 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169586 | 0 | 0 | 0.221998 | 0 | 0 | 0.240977 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168585 | 0 | 0 | 0.201287 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125252 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | biggestdorklia | 2019/09/19 | I can’t afford therapy anymore I’m a 16 year old female . I’ve been going to trauma therapy for a while but i can’t afford it anymore . My dad is struggling with depression and takes meds a lot but lately it’s been getting worse and he doesn’t talk to any of us as much as he used to . My mom has thyroid problems and g... | 1.0912 | 3.113514 | 3.492667 | 87.833 | 81.8 | 6.133333 | 26 | 7.3011 | 1.3972 | 558 | 24 | 115 | 8 | 15 | 193 | 89 | 150 | 0.313 | 0.623 | 0.064 | -0.9932 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 11 | 2 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 15 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 23 | 31 | 13 | 2 | 2 | 5 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 14 | 2 | 16 | 26 | 4 | 17 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 4 | 0 | 5 | 11 | 74 | 20 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118282 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082314 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.240085 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137704 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147574 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.246823 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130805 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104254 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101116 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061203 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.25296 | 0 | 0.068792 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133044 | 0 | 0.273084 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.205813 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134452 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141764 | 0 | 0 | 0.088981 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127015 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142018 | 0.134404 | 0 | 0.115549 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.231644 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077543 | 0 | 0.119516 | 0 | 0 | 0.10337 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110193 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101198 | 0 | 0.126541 | 0 | 0.264803 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091009 | 0.09729 | 0 | 0 | 0.415271 | 0 | 0.080416 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070581 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1456 | 0.104543 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112208 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123353 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077948 |
suicidewatch | OrangeMooCow | 2019/09/19 | Ever get the feeling that you've fucked everything up so hard and there's no going back? I've come to the realization lately that I don't like who i currently am. I don't know what I've done with the choices I've made, and i can't sleep at night thinking about all the shit I didn't do.
I don't think I've felt truly ha... | 2.863853 | 3.607227 | 4.705512 | 86.516364 | 73.646465 | 7.677345 | 22.223665 | 7.957252 | 0.773524 | 362 | 8 | 83 | 5 | 7 | 124 | 68 | 99 | 0.131 | 0.717 | 0.153 | 0.4808 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 5 | 2 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 10 | 4 | 3 | 1 | 3 | 15 | 20 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 8 | 2 | 10 | 14 | 3 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 7 | 50 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170584 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.247651 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191099 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.227024 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.200671 | 0 | 0 | 0.199379 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112171 | 0 | 0.213005 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.205091 | 0.115904 | 0 | 0.126079 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.236157 | 0.198729 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12192 | 0 | 0.25025 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108382 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.209914 | 0 | 0.224915 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177074 | 0 | 0.163081 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.208186 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.223015 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.22772 | 0 | 0 | 0.222004 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.284297 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | ADreamOfRoses | 2019/09/19 | Well, Here’s the Truth: An Introduction and Confession I suppose I might as well introduce myself which is kind of ironic because I love privacy.
I am:
* Constantly afraid, suicidal, and my body is almost always in flight or fight mode, giving me high anxiety and insomnia.
* Living with a high possibility of havin... | 2.052539 | 4.916572 | 3.648946 | 80.856508 | 90.963883 | 6.838347 | 25.222279 | 7.89837 | 2.265687 | 1,893 | 82 | 324 | 46 | 66 | 624 | 230 | 443 | 0.141 | 0.71 | 0.149 | 0.4228 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 93 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 10 | 21 | 26 | 2 | 3 | 24 | 0 | 46 | 21 | 5 | 5 | 5 | 61 | 78 | 27 | 2 | 13 | 12 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 10 | 11 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 22 | 19 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 4 | 1 | 8 | 6 | 11 | 2 | 2 | 8 | 3 | 50 | 15 | 48 | 49 | 5 | 54 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 5 | 23 | 21 | 0 | 14 | 26 | 241 | 72 | 6 | 0.07132 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071416 | 0 | 0 | 0.057034 | 0.118688 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14957 | 0.109119 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05869 | 0 | 0.066674 | 0 | 0.067007 | 0 | 0 | 0.217379 | 0.078767 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063077 | 0 | 0.237661 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077071 | 0 | 0.113886 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061428 | 0.072388 | 0 | 0 | 0.081739 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094212 | 0.193538 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069764 | 0 | 0 | 0.036061 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165304 | 0 | 0.186308 | 0.136833 | 0.081065 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063068 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.303238 | 0 | 0.084514 | 0 | 0.22606 | 0 | 0.070837 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148537 | 0.039195 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.050375 | 0.034843 | 0 | 0.125953 | 0 | 0 | 0.079789 | 0.155708 | 0 | 0.321844 | 0.067484 | 0.095213 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071847 | 0.143747 | 0.075659 | 0 | 0 | 0.056927 | 0.075802 | 0.052428 | 0 | 0 | 0.068881 | 0.075849 | 0 | 0.069878 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.048328 | 0.054242 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136166 | 0.148332 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080402 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071339 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153141 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072179 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060429 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05048 | 0 | 0.056956 | 0.059627 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156024 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.047382 | 0.045699 | 0 | 0 | 0.041587 | 0 | 0.067603 | 0 | 0.079239 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085789 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12825 | 0 | 0.12871 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077343 | 0.155765 | 0 | 0.072681 | 0.101327 | 0 | 0 | 0.045928 |
suicidewatch | chocomarshy69 | 2019/09/19 | Is it possible to want to want to kill myself even tho I don't have depression? Im not diagnosed with depression and I don't think I have. I still feel happiness occasionally and I'm not always sad but I will think about killing myself a lot. Sometimes I just don't feel like living, am I just dramatic? I know how I wo... | -0.35625 | 1.815246 | 2.145909 | 93.926364 | 90.25 | 6.381818 | 19.363636 | 7.686295 | 0.651577 | 319 | 10 | 76 | 7 | 11 | 109 | 48 | 88 | 0.22 | 0.624 | 0.156 | -0.8979 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 10 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 13 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 22 | 23 | 7 | 2 | 3 | 7 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 13 | 3 | 6 | 20 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 52 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159115 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.329405 | 0.19409 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126303 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193379 | 0.136612 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147741 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.203564 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.204711 | 0 | 0.206557 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.423126 | 0 | 0.210186 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093423 | 0 | 0.168856 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162573 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.223962 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.215579 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191451 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189127 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152713 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.24506 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.22558 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135841 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | huntychuu | 2019/09/19 | Tw I ges A couple times a week I get strong waves of suicidal urges like I could be doing anything and I would just feel like slitting my wrists or taking all the medication I have in my house or crashing a car into something or somewhere | 5.311875 | 5.746898 | 5.891667 | 81.32 | 67.958333 | 8.066667 | 30.583333 | 7.793538 | 1.977283 | 191 | 7 | 37 | 2 | 3 | 62 | 38 | 48 | 0.092 | 0.738 | 0.17 | 0.4215 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 8 | 4 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 3 | 3 | 5 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 25 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.25132 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.243839 | 0.337922 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154421 | 0.21818 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15956 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.352394 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.298409 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.307661 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.235114 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.334061 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.229625 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178083 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.244976 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.216949 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | TheDarkVixen | 2019/09/19 | 13 years old. Female. And I’m so close to doing it. I’m done. I really am. The only thing holding me back is if I don’t succeed. If I’m left broken. If I have to go to the hospital, have them evaluate me, lecture me about how much I’ve hurt my parents. I don’t want that. I just want the pain to end. I’m home from schoo... | -1.889452 | -0.040471 | 0.826447 | 100.289858 | 102.071253 | 3.487416 | 12.895445 | 5.369823 | -1.248022 | 1,418 | 27 | 343 | 10 | 65 | 482 | 165 | 407 | 0.245 | 0.663 | 0.092 | -0.9973 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 70 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 5 | 18 | 26 | 10 | 4 | 15 | 1 | 41 | 9 | 4 | 3 | 1 | 49 | 88 | 21 | 6 | 19 | 16 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 4 | 10 | 2 | 0 | 15 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 15 | 18 | 0 | 4 | 20 | 10 | 67 | 8 | 39 | 59 | 2 | 38 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 22 | 12 | 1 | 5 | 19 | 216 | 82 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05739 | 0 | 0 | 0.093807 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.048227 | 0 | 0 | 0.0614 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053035 | 0 | 0.084089 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070322 | 0 | 0 | 0.059413 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.286329 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070582 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061089 | 0 | 0 | 0.045555 | 0.062389 | 0 | 0.065906 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058668 | 0 | 0 | 0.053288 | 0 | 0.036035 | 0 | 0.039198 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.204287 | 0.070785 | 0 | 0 | 0.163465 | 0 | 0 | 0.069185 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073836 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056221 | 0 | 0 | 0.074938 | 0 | 0.146151 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061038 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.046039 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073168 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.050702 | 0.051142 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072375 | 0 | 0.093475 | 0.104913 | 0.073391 | 0 | 0.153171 | 0 | 0 | 0.047817 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074364 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.044185 | 0.070915 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.459258 | 0.054849 | 0.276212 | 0.139607 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053098 | 0 | 0.308834 | 0 | 0.073515 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075444 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.045822 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080436 | 0 | 0.130755 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.406815 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063938 | 0.124473 | 0 | 0.079314 | 0.066487 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.048996 | 0 | 0 | 0.088832 |
suicidewatch | master_of_the_void | 2019/09/19 | I'm not about to kill myself even though I wish I had when I had the balls Now, I'm too depressed and too terrified of meeting God. He'd probably just send me to Hell and that would be it. Life has become so unbearable that it's not any more real than this fucking app. Sometimes I have dreams and forget they weren't re... | 2.344343 | 3.812968 | 3.843075 | 89.344722 | 76.009063 | 7.07893 | 21.926933 | 7.793538 | 0.774023 | 1,240 | 32 | 274 | 18 | 27 | 411 | 155 | 331 | 0.232 | 0.58 | 0.188 | -0.9732 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 33 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 4 | 16 | 22 | 5 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 36 | 10 | 1 | 4 | 4 | 67 | 61 | 25 | 6 | 13 | 12 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 5 | 8 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 14 | 18 | 0 | 4 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 15 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 4 | 50 | 13 | 29 | 39 | 4 | 34 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 14 | 14 | 3 | 4 | 20 | 181 | 64 | 3 | 0 | 0.094757 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054386 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05592 | 0 | 0.065812 | 0 | 0.074766 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066776 | 0 | 0.088326 | 0 | 0 | 0.083929 | 0.212194 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063853 | 0 | 0 | 0.051577 | 0 | 0.137764 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070834 | 0 | 0 | 0.158468 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150786 | 0 | 0.080875 | 0.057134 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073935 | 0.125351 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079188 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080221 | 0.079433 | 0 | 0.18456 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.265441 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.451908 | 0.117215 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160151 | 0.081082 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080752 | 0 | 0 | 0.085001 | 0 | 0 | 0.185044 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076738 | 0 | 0 | 0.085171 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076345 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172453 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182058 | 0 | 0 | 0.078965 | 0 | 0 | 0.068298 | 0.076074 | 0.063599 | 0 | 0.161877 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089895 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079097 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.26745 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053132 | 0.051245 | 0.15715 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054298 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069073 | 0 | 0 | 0.094342 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183934 | 0.077093 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163002 | 0.227247 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | InTheGecko | 2019/09/19 | Went to get a psychologist referral today. Told my GP about my situation. Cried and had a panic attack. He asked some questions, then said I could either get a friend to drive me to the ER or he'd call an ambulance. My friend drove.
I sat in an adjustable bed in a hospital gown with a cannula in my arm for four hours.... | -0.300879 | 1.764426 | 2.414643 | 93.095742 | 88.107143 | 6.303297 | 18.436813 | 7.610547 | 0.418617 | 400 | 11 | 96 | 8 | 13 | 139 | 71 | 112 | 0.103 | 0.834 | 0.062 | -0.5046 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 11 | 0 | 9 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 22 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 9 | 3 | 15 | 2 | 13 | 9 | 3 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 14 | 4 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 62 | 18 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.18009 | 0.219152 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.196704 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153805 | 0 | 0.211603 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.297662 | 0 | 0.301935 | 0.184795 | 0.10948 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172565 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189709 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.226018 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.215797 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.366484 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.216532 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154834 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182597 | 0.368146 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178576 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | IwasChosenn | 2019/09/19 | The people in this sub who have died Yeah, I get it, people talk about this a lot. But I really wonder how many of those are here who have gone and died. It pains me all the time to read someone write stuff like, ”I’m going now bye” and then no comments, posts or anything on their account after that. And no, I won’t do... | 2.107268 | 4.326421 | 2.883197 | 92.49944 | 79.327869 | 5.706011 | 20.822404 | 6.816662 | 0.346424 | 478 | 13 | 99 | 5 | 12 | 150 | 83 | 122 | 0.155 | 0.757 | 0.088 | -0.8388 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 19 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 7 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 1 | 10 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 22 | 17 | 13 | 2 | 3 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 12 | 3 | 12 | 11 | 3 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 17 | 4 | 0 | 7 | 7 | 71 | 23 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.283793 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176072 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.357914 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152723 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090088 | 0 | 0.097997 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115577 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094764 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084241 | 0.172822 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146595 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174819 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.18348 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.358627 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.330284 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172478 | 0 | 0.110464 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146101 | 0 | 0 | 0.193023 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197393 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.277188 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100546 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179508 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136868 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155593 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186995 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Lost_on_Earth90 | 2019/09/19 | I don't think i can be helped I don't expect any responses I just want to get this out, I've been trying to think about anything but suicide since 16 and its never worked I have really bad anxiety and have no friends or family to help the only person I've ever told I want to kill myself is my dad and everytime he acts ... | 4.77524 | 4.445313 | 5.895699 | 83.467993 | 69.064516 | 9.21147 | 25.609319 | 8.841846 | 1.515523 | 579 | 13 | 128 | 9 | 9 | 194 | 107 | 155 | 0.198 | 0.683 | 0.119 | -0.9574 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 11 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 15 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 22 | 27 | 10 | 2 | 4 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 2 | 15 | 2 | 13 | 15 | 0 | 19 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 19 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 76 | 21 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129498 | 0.117472 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090119 | 0 | 0.101378 | 0 | 0.131425 | 0 | 0 | 0.109053 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110649 | 0.080784 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105807 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.271282 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153682 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.262586 | 0.239746 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124929 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102385 | 0 | 0.069237 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105989 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149361 | 0 | 0.355304 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146615 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064743 | 0 | 0.117018 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125395 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.204417 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139058 | 0 | 0 | 0.201576 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115712 | 0 | 0 | 0.125275 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084896 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126058 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109623 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144956 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115829 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088041 | 0.169828 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126629 | 0 | 0.179946 | 0 | 0.129454 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156329 | 0 | 0.1063 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192954 | 0 | 0.13505 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170678 |
suicidewatch | tinyflowern | 2019/09/19 | Someone saved me from drowning in the ocean yesterday All I can think about is going back. Living with an ex, in debt, no family that didnt rape for abuse me in some form. Im suffocating from this personality disorder [DID]. I havent ate in 4 days because of my eating disorder.
I want someone to stay im so scared of ... | 1.143919 | 3.407571 | 3.644527 | 85.408412 | 83.324324 | 7.483784 | 22.763514 | 8.472885 | 1.603357 | 282 | 10 | 60 | 7 | 8 | 98 | 56 | 74 | 0.211 | 0.674 | 0.115 | -0.8176 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 11 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 7 | 1 | 13 | 7 | 3 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 38 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0.235525 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152852 | 0 | 0.121176 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128199 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206305 | 0 | 0.455645 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.203405 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189946 | 0 | 0 | 0.187395 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112973 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.42944 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175529 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17357 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.199017 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.336857 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.211876 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127372 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.234495 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | sidenfnct | 2019/09/19 | Basically, I’m a coward I suffer from bpd. Always had problems with self harm and suicidal thoughts/suicide attempts. I won’t go into details about my life, but I need to die. It’s a need, I need to stop existing. I need to die and not feel a thing anymore, cause drugs don’t help, and alcohol doesn’t either. Therapy ne... | 2.649762 | 3.339961 | 4.407532 | 88.652727 | 74.10101 | 7.677345 | 25.253968 | 7.957252 | 1.18307 | 715 | 22 | 165 | 10 | 14 | 243 | 108 | 198 | 0.352 | 0.581 | 0.068 | -0.997 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 27 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 10 | 2 | 4 | 11 | 0 | 19 | 9 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 32 | 31 | 15 | 6 | 7 | 8 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 10 | 9 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 9 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 2 | 22 | 1 | 23 | 25 | 4 | 18 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 9 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 109 | 32 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114402 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085606 | 0.089072 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106163 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065255 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134823 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109968 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.333297 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124142 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094813 | 0 | 0 | 0.212112 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108253 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082705 | 0.098964 | 0 | 0 | 0.060838 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.215256 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058831 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151222 | 0 | 0 | 0.094525 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.396873 | 0.082562 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081415 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10243 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068578 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091418 | 0 | 0 | 0.428695 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111674 | 0 | 0 | 0.088551 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178994 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.351279 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122419 | 0.124291 | 0.142236 | 0 | 0.105174 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06314 | 0.08497 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068935 |
suicidewatch | leporid915 | 2019/09/19 | see you in hell I'm back at self harm so bye
"blessed images" can stick their dicks in non consenting holes too small for their microdicks. thanks. | 1.051071 | 3.485131 | 0.501143 | 101.443857 | 100.785714 | 5.097143 | 16.314286 | 6.742158 | -0.086537 | 117 | 3 | 25 | 2 | 5 | 33 | 26 | 28 | 0.212 | 0.602 | 0.185 | -0.2551 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 11 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.432411 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.448119 | 0 | 0.586652 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.517735 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | _Eviltwin_5 | 2019/09/19 | Considering assisted suicide after years of depression I (24,F) have been diagnosed with major depression 10 years ago, when I was 14 and tried to kill myself. I was hospitalized, which was an awful experience.
I suffered rape at 15. Had bad relationships. Overall my family is doing fine, my parents are divorced, my da... | 4.832612 | 6.55469 | 5.689693 | 77.581902 | 70.05618 | 8.920687 | 31.739921 | 9.402419 | 3.068297 | 1,863 | 83 | 333 | 41 | 34 | 610 | 219 | 445 | 0.217 | 0.635 | 0.148 | -0.9849 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 55 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 18 | 33 | 4 | 0 | 9 | 2 | 64 | 13 | 1 | 3 | 5 | 71 | 95 | 30 | 5 | 7 | 15 | 3 | 7 | 4 | 1 | 6 | 8 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 19 | 17 | 0 | 2 | 20 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 17 | 16 | 2 | 3 | 13 | 8 | 64 | 17 | 40 | 64 | 6 | 34 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 4 | 19 | 10 | 0 | 10 | 26 | 249 | 83 | 4 | 0.15432 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068398 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052471 | 0 | 0 | 0.087169 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068689 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128851 | 0.094072 | 0 | 0 | 0.086933 | 0 | 0.068242 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086136 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061606 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.332289 | 0.078316 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089481 | 0 | 0 | 0.086795 | 0 | 0.079727 | 0 | 0 | 0.069796 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075477 | 0.072739 | 0 | 0.273101 | 0.165369 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084602 | 0 | 0 | 0.120939 | 0 | 0.043852 | 0.064718 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082138 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082601 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068583 | 0.170732 | 0 | 0.127215 | 0.062896 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.218001 | 0.150786 | 0 | 0.136267 | 0.068284 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13928 | 0.073011 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08405 | 0 | 0 | 0.155518 | 0 | 0 | 0.090369 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119021 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104571 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085677 | 0 | 0 | 0.106986 | 0.067373 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083191 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098861 | 0.079333 | 0 | 0.082841 | 0 | 0.065894 | 0 | 0.061361 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087169 | 0 | 0.063827 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059401 | 0.076313 | 0 | 0.054614 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.253201 | 0.08756 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134882 | 0 | 0 | 0.089589 | 0 | 0.148323 | 0.075809 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.261933 | 0 | 0 | 0.080326 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12733 | 0.091022 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138752 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08873 | 0 | 0.083677 | 0 | 0 | 0.078633 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149065 |
suicidewatch | ShowStoppa718 | 2019/09/19 | Hi. I don't know what I'm doing here. . . but I don't want to be here anymore. | -4.381228 | -3.142393 | -0.077895 | 106.901404 | 106.894737 | 2.533333 | 11.596491 | 3.1291 | -2.059225 | 56 | 1 | 17 | 0 | 3 | 21 | 14 | 19 | 0.093 | 0.907 | 0 | -0.0857 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.775961 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.430004 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.461498 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Wakachangienthusiast | 2019/09/19 | I’m not built for this world. I have no more options. This W I L L kill me soon. I have no more options. I’ve been to psychologists, doctors, therapists, councillors, family, friends. Everything.
I’ve gone to the extremes of a very strict diet, and keeping active. I’ve let myself go.
I’ve tried drowning myself in m... | 1.157576 | 3.663871 | 2.793193 | 89.704748 | 86.214286 | 5.008403 | 21.806723 | 6.522977 | 0.603905 | 1,098 | 38 | 213 | 12 | 34 | 360 | 154 | 280 | 0.159 | 0.717 | 0.125 | -0.8242 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 54 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 5 | 12 | 18 | 6 | 0 | 11 | 1 | 22 | 5 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 23 | 41 | 10 | 5 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 12 | 11 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 4 | 25 | 7 | 34 | 29 | 7 | 21 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 11 | 14 | 1 | 4 | 5 | 129 | 33 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074136 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102425 | 0 | 0 | 0.132912 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.444602 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120626 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113143 | 0 | 0 | 0.111584 | 0 | 0.223125 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104171 | 0.195955 | 0 | 0.102772 | 0 | 0.055122 | 0.077882 | 0.104674 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084226 | 0.100785 | 0.056957 | 0 | 0.123914 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107632 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.219216 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117757 | 0 | 0.108183 | 0.0969 | 0.241223 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111478 | 0.077002 | 0.106521 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07277 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087017 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106814 | 0.104605 | 0 | 0 | 0.1161 | 0.147746 | 0.082913 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.226737 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086873 | 0.099245 | 0.113729 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126577 | 0.072426 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074016 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089951 | 0 | 0.086533 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098371 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.396829 | 0.110712 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | vidavonvo | 2019/09/19 | so I’m just a living corpse. I’m already braindead and fucking stupid now. I wish my body would just shut off in its own and I can die. I already have a physical illness that’s incurable so if there is another illness that maybe I’m not aware of but worsens over the next few years, that’d be wonderful. | 2.887619 | 4.343763 | 4.120825 | 87.960286 | 74.555556 | 7.579683 | 30.060317 | 8.238736 | 2.077752 | 241 | 11 | 51 | 4 | 5 | 79 | 48 | 63 | 0.224 | 0.671 | 0.105 | -0.7153 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 6 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 12 | 6 | 1 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 4 | 9 | 2 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 33 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.561061 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.266565 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.282374 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.263833 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.235016 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.224475 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.255391 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.270359 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.292333 | 0 | 0.275683 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180586 | 0 | 0 | 0.163705 |
suicidewatch | EmergencyAirport7 | 2019/09/19 | Desperate, having a panic attack, just need someone to reassure me. I feel like I'm going insane My mom used to help me put my bra on when I was about 15. It was nothing sexual and weird, I just struggled with doing it and she helped me. I wasn't uncomfortable at the time, and when I became uncomfortable and told her I... | 3.037143 | 4.530424 | 4.776381 | 83.260286 | 74.238095 | 7.262222 | 25.298413 | 7.908726 | 1.410371 | 486 | 16 | 98 | 7 | 10 | 165 | 73 | 126 | 0.178 | 0.687 | 0.135 | -0.7791 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 9 | 1 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 21 | 25 | 10 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 2 | 24 | 2 | 10 | 15 | 0 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 72 | 32 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147436 | 0 | 0 | 0.203824 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143047 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181181 | 0.127994 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101823 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.360268 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098463 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08753 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119593 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.209834 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132847 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.343824 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.210209 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.196667 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180109 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.358747 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.303609 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149788 | 0 | 0.1873 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134708 | 0 | 0.156597 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104472 | 0 | 0 | 0.171198 | 0 | 0.12164 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154739 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | slappinthetimeaway | 2019/09/19 | My punch drunk destiny. Why keep getting back up? It's another late night, I'm finally open to speaking out about my life that I've kept mostly to myself and my thoughts about it. Just a warning, it's going to be a long post ahead. It's a bit of venting and a bit of a last resort. I hope I'm not breaking any rules.
I ... | 2.891978 | 4.65439 | 3.777816 | 89.145319 | 75.220065 | 6.669704 | 24.0529 | 7.439218 | 0.971499 | 6,029 | 188 | 1,250 | 74 | 130 | 1,929 | 550 | 1,545 | 0.156 | 0.756 | 0.088 | -0.999 | 7 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 190 | 13 | 6 | 7 | 7 | 51 | 61 | 11 | 2 | 103 | 1 | 86 | 27 | 9 | 18 | 17 | 232 | 203 | 95 | 21 | 20 | 29 | 13 | 10 | 5 | 20 | 5 | 8 | 5 | 4 | 9 | 73 | 105 | 7 | 8 | 23 | 16 | 7 | 33 | 21 | 20 | 1 | 12 | 86 | 21 | 171 | 41 | 212 | 98 | 40 | 258 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 5 | 134 | 116 | 2 | 20 | 107 | 818 | 244 | 24 | 0 | 0.033957 | 0.027968 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061257 | 0.114794 | 0.029683 | 0 | 0 | 0.095389 | 0.031053 | 0 | 0.038979 | 0.090157 | 0.021925 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.025513 | 0 | 0.065209 | 0.08078 | 0.066113 | 0.02393 | 0.069883 | 0 | 0.048775 | 0.064579 | 0 | 0 | 0.093867 | 0.031835 | 0 | 0.031994 | 0.05853 | 0 | 0.029221 | 0.058883 | 0.060636 | 0.024688 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09153 | 0.031711 | 0 | 0.073933 | 0.029547 | 0 | 0 | 0.20821 | 0.029943 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.028076 | 0.066472 | 0 | 0.023942 | 0 | 0.050768 | 0 | 0.031963 | 0.01893 | 0.051849 | 0.048294 | 0.054771 | 0.051515 | 0 | 0.081054 | 0 | 0.043474 | 0.040949 | 0 | 0.062791 | 0.052389 | 0 | 0 | 0.094272 | 0.376422 | 0.052991 | 0.134762 | 0.027493 | 0.08144 | 0 | 0.183375 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076031 | 0 | 0.077021 | 0.028296 | 0.058826 | 0 | 0 | 0.033962 | 0.11526 | 0 | 0.086244 | 0.028466 | 0.084672 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.029913 | 0.085321 | 0.076422 | 0.063416 | 0.029845 | 0.015751 | 0.023362 | 0.032329 | 0 | 0.062278 | 0 | 0.06073 | 0.070009 | 0.057449 | 0.050614 | 0.076089 | 0.024067 | 0.032063 | 0.031286 | 0.024366 | 0.051733 | 0.054237 | 0.133914 | 0.029057 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.028882 | 0 | 0.028938 | 0 | 0.068628 | 0.304608 | 0.084273 | 0.063753 | 0.110521 | 0.02768 | 0.06096 | 0.080686 | 0 | 0.055 | 0 | 0.090221 | 0.030522 | 0.213627 | 0.087188 | 0 | 0.033626 | 0.031823 | 0 | 0.027359 | 0.079476 | 0.025025 | 0.119773 | 0 | 0.081278 | 0 | 0.027448 | 0 | 0.0927 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.032105 | 0 | 0 | 0.032621 | 0.055081 | 0.029467 | 0.028298 | 0.06154 | 0 | 0 | 0.054524 | 0.022791 | 0 | 0.145026 | 0.091352 | 0.026091 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071123 | 0 | 0.057361 | 0 | 0.07285 | 0.022064 | 0 | 0.096247 | 0.162284 | 0.061095 | 0 | 0.047922 | 0 | 0.029961 | 0.032809 | 0.094047 | 0.032523 | 0 | 0 | 0.043097 | 0.069107 | 0 | 0.052772 | 0 | 0 | 0.095201 | 0.036728 | 0.056316 | 0.068258 | 0.083559 | 0.03294 | 0 | 0.082157 | 0.063684 | 0.175123 | 0 | 0 | 0.029836 | 0.034474 | 0.049506 | 0 | 0 | 0.067617 | 0 | 0.022989 | 0 | 0.025769 | 0.053136 | 0.025861 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.041729 | 0 | 0 | 0.061077 | 0 | 0 | 0.184559 |
suicidewatch | jeanapplez | 2019/09/19 | I think I am just done. I am sick of feeling tgis way. If I at least get to choose how I go out at least I have something. What if it is my place to just do it and help others learn from my death. What if then i can do some good? shouldnt I do so then if it helps others. I think so. | -3.247015 | -1.699673 | -0.472522 | 110.383754 | 102.283582 | 2.68 | 9.685075 | 3.1291 | -2.442372 | 211 | 2 | 63 | 0 | 10 | 71 | 41 | 67 | 0.106 | 0.751 | 0.143 | 0.128 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 16 | 15 | 10 | 1 | 5 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 11 | 1 | 7 | 13 | 3 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 50 | 18 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.354016 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174917 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180739 | 0 | 0.196605 | 0.290157 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.463751 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.361433 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.266321 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.443328 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.27459 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | ZanyUsernamer | 2019/09/19 | The best mistake I ever made was LSD. Hear me out.
If you don’t know anything about the substance, you may come to the conclusion I fried my brain. Even if you know a bit about it, maybe you’ll still come to that conclusion.
Mixing it, and my major depressive disorder was a risk I willingly took. No one forced me, ... | 0.632093 | 2.835816 | 2.403204 | 93.862791 | 85.046512 | 5.770543 | 21.144703 | 7.121374 | 0.534193 | 1,443 | 47 | 322 | 21 | 43 | 475 | 184 | 387 | 0.18 | 0.674 | 0.146 | -0.9511 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 59 | 1 | 6 | 1 | 10 | 24 | 20 | 5 | 3 | 21 | 0 | 39 | 5 | 2 | 4 | 7 | 62 | 66 | 22 | 3 | 10 | 11 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 23 | 19 | 1 | 2 | 9 | 0 | 4 | 8 | 19 | 12 | 1 | 2 | 10 | 5 | 47 | 8 | 44 | 45 | 11 | 47 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 14 | 17 | 1 | 5 | 22 | 231 | 70 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107142 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081779 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103058 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080878 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184679 | 0.151146 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206282 | 0 | 0.107299 | 0 | 0 | 0.109716 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169323 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126768 | 0 | 0.08465 | 0 | 0.102001 | 0 | 0.11264 | 0.100596 | 0 | 0 | 0.115186 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129829 | 0.177804 | 0 | 0 | 0.08833 | 0 | 0.092652 | 0.110595 | 0.049694 | 0.070213 | 0.094366 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075933 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167568 | 0.082435 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110771 | 0 | 0.19763 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.226809 | 0 | 0 | 0.106162 | 0 | 0.09753 | 0.174716 | 0.108735 | 0.102346 | 0.216053 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.048016 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083556 | 0 | 0.092997 | 0 | 0 | 0.098738 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078448 | 0 | 0 | 0.072875 | 0.075801 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133197 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101051 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100885 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069565 | 0 | 0.156977 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114113 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114618 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109195 | 0.066727 | 0.106903 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.347817 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088368 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094741 | 0 | 0.286203 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | WhoAmIToComplain | 2019/09/19 | This will be longer Ok, this will be longer. Maybe. Depends whether I find a way to put it in words.
First of all, I live, what most people would call a dream life. I had good education, I have a very good job, I have two lovely, healthy kids, a beautiful wife and a house. So I guess it is not about the environment ap... | 2.850651 | 4.398951 | 3.895534 | 89.159922 | 74.83558 | 7.156909 | 23.283109 | 7.851483 | 0.971871 | 2,851 | 81 | 614 | 41 | 60 | 922 | 299 | 742 | 0.098 | 0.818 | 0.084 | -0.9598 | 9 | 1 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 103 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 57 | 44 | 6 | 6 | 37 | 2 | 57 | 18 | 5 | 4 | 9 | 145 | 114 | 50 | 1 | 20 | 27 | 9 | 11 | 3 | 2 | 8 | 5 | 4 | 4 | 6 | 32 | 42 | 6 | 2 | 28 | 17 | 1 | 11 | 20 | 19 | 4 | 12 | 35 | 16 | 108 | 25 | 74 | 64 | 10 | 107 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 48 | 38 | 3 | 26 | 59 | 418 | 140 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0.046328 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.049169 | 0 | 0 | 0.039503 | 0 | 0 | 0.032284 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.3381 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.292041 | 0.079279 | 0.02894 | 0 | 0.040397 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096954 | 0 | 0.048404 | 0.04877 | 0 | 0.08179 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.037905 | 0 | 0 | 0.061234 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099202 | 0 | 0 | 0.041545 | 0 | 0 | 0.093014 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053403 | 0.042048 | 0 | 0.052947 | 0.09407 | 0.085887 | 0.079999 | 0.045364 | 0 | 0 | 0.044755 | 0 | 0.168032 | 0.033916 | 0.091166 | 0 | 0.043391 | 0.080764 | 0 | 0 | 0.073358 | 0 | 0.074411 | 0 | 0.080943 | 0.079639 | 0.189849 | 0 | 0.052299 | 0 | 0 | 0.101075 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095242 | 0 | 0 | 0.109559 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.049551 | 0.094223 | 0 | 0.052524 | 0 | 0.208727 | 0 | 0.053554 | 0.050269 | 0 | 0.048546 | 0.067066 | 0.069581 | 0.047582 | 0.041921 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.040361 | 0.085696 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.047695 | 0 | 0 | 0.143477 | 0 | 0 | 0.239679 | 0 | 0.037894 | 0.050458 | 0.034899 | 0 | 0 | 0.045851 | 0 | 0.044552 | 0 | 0.182213 | 0 | 0 | 0.050559 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.04532 | 0.032913 | 0.041453 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090854 | 0 | 0.09545 | 0 | 0.050495 | 0 | 0 | 0.030413 | 0 | 0.093751 | 0.05097 | 0 | 0 | 0.135478 | 0.037754 | 0 | 0 | 0.037831 | 0.086438 | 0 | 0 | 0.146196 | 0.078543 | 0 | 0.047509 | 0 | 0 | 0.036548 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11374 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089489 | 0 | 0.07139 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06308 | 0.03042 | 0.093287 | 0.075379 | 0.138414 | 0 | 0 | 0.136092 | 0 | 0.064464 | 0 | 0.278255 | 0 | 0 | 0.041003 | 0.15686 | 0.117515 | 0.056004 | 0.037683 | 0.038081 | 0 | 0.170742 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069124 | 0 | 0 | 0.033725 | 0 | 0 | 0.091716 |
suicidewatch | postirony | 2019/09/19 | Nights Are Hard. One of the things I hate about depression is that I can have a wonderful day, one where I forget how much it hurts for a while, but then when the late nights roll around I just feel alone and empty. I know it's going to happen, and it ends up poisoning the good times, when I don't feel so desperate. | 7.196818 | 4.859217 | 6.935455 | 84.523182 | 65.212121 | 11.224242 | 28.060606 | 9.725611 | 1.888552 | 247 | 4 | 58 | 4 | 3 | 78 | 51 | 66 | 0.313 | 0.604 | 0.083 | -0.9335 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 11 | 12 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 1 | 6 | 12 | 1 | 14 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 41 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.237647 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.204264 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14798 | 0 | 0.19763 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.20323 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.232039 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130405 | 0.192457 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202907 | 0 | 0.205547 | 0.22654 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.245637 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126103 | 0 | 0.258836 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168676 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.430657 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.31097 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15244 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133797 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.248835 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | FieldsofBlood | 2019/09/19 | He is never going to love me Just spent the night drinking liquor. I have a deadly concoction by my side. A tub of Epsom salts, a glass of bleach, and two of my dad's heart pills. I am going to mix the deadly concoction together and drink it.
You see my reason for doing it is simple. He's never going to love me. I tri... | 0.98766 | 2.792281 | 3.056749 | 91.952409 | 81.026432 | 5.632947 | 20.470034 | 6.613843 | 0.207259 | 1,652 | 45 | 368 | 16 | 43 | 559 | 202 | 454 | 0.145 | 0.75 | 0.105 | -0.9657 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 45 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 8 | 17 | 21 | 4 | 2 | 28 | 0 | 49 | 23 | 5 | 4 | 6 | 63 | 88 | 27 | 5 | 4 | 10 | 10 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 12 | 22 | 5 | 3 | 14 | 7 | 1 | 7 | 7 | 9 | 0 | 3 | 29 | 13 | 82 | 12 | 54 | 48 | 4 | 45 | 1 | 2 | 5 | 8 | 57 | 16 | 0 | 1 | 23 | 272 | 94 | 1 | 0 | 0.100388 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06515 | 0 | 0.103298 | 0 | 0 | 0.190917 | 0.088916 | 0.074934 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17277 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095029 | 0.135295 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175867 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074145 | 0.17341 | 0 | 0.249001 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087546 | 0 | 0 | 0.07664 | 0.071386 | 0 | 0.076147 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128522 | 0.060529 | 0.081351 | 0 | 0 | 0.144138 | 0 | 0.185798 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081278 | 0.192609 | 0 | 0.067764 | 0 | 0 | 0.167786 | 0.074924 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100402 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093738 | 0.08823 | 0.046564 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.239381 | 0.041393 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071149 | 0.094788 | 0 | 0 | 0.382347 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092293 | 0 | 0 | 0.085385 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090051 | 0 | 0 | 0.19604 | 0 | 0 | 0.079511 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088907 | 0.090232 | 0 | 0.128877 | 0 | 0 | 0.094079 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07398 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108557 | 0.174227 | 0.083658 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16119 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135033 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063704 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05429 | 0 | 0 | 0.049405 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094135 | 0.172572 | 0 | 0.082766 | 0 | 0.101916 | 0.073177 | 0 | 0 | 0.049974 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094595 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092636 | 0 | 0.054561 |
suicidewatch | thunderthief5 | 2019/09/19 | I don’t want to kill myself but I don’t want to live either Does that make sense? I don’t want to kill myself because I’d hurt my family and maybe a couple of my friends. They are the only people who care about me in this messed up world. But I can’t tell them that I’m lonely and that I can’t keep living my life in lon... | 0.071623 | 1.820063 | 2.186549 | 97.308519 | 83.84472 | 4.521894 | 16.27368 | 5.148861 | -0.888513 | 563 | 10 | 135 | 2 | 16 | 189 | 75 | 161 | 0.322 | 0.588 | 0.091 | -0.9945 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 7 | 11 | 3 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 15 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 27 | 28 | 9 | 4 | 6 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 6 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 26 | 2 | 19 | 26 | 3 | 14 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 90 | 35 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082208 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137497 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149218 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118015 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119444 | 0 | 0 | 0.089072 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127132 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104191 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.288736 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119868 | 0.447601 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190508 | 0 | 0 | 0.357246 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090019 | 0 | 0.135483 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102565 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186987 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133378 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.225494 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117872 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172823 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.477256 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121688 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | youngk-ger | 2019/09/19 | Cant take it no more Society is trash and love is a lie
Ive tried to carry on for the last 5 years but i end up regretting it every time. I dont want to suffer again like i do right now
I want to end it | -0.579 | 0.059752 | 2.737 | 97.7035 | 82 | 6.6 | 16.5 | 7.168622 | -0.4352 | 155 | 2 | 45 | 2 | 4 | 57 | 37 | 50 | 0.121 | 0.663 | 0.216 | 0.7053 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 10 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 6 | 10 | 1 | 10 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 27 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.355953 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.538004 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.255894 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.247569 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14838 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.274115 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.259372 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.228357 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177099 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206203 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.358279 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.195583 |
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