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suicidewatch | chilimamansi | 2019/10/05 | Goodbye I don’t know if I’ll wake up tomorrow.
I cut myself too deep that it won’t stop bleeding. So, I wrapped my wrist in bandage in hopes that it might actually stop. I also took 3 tabs of Valium and 3 tabs of Lamotrigine.
If I never wake up, I just want to say I’m sorry to my mom and dad that I couldn’t get mysel... | 0.846271 | 2.239146 | 3.128475 | 93.196679 | 79.944882 | 6.507946 | 20.994273 | 7.348243 | 0.362802 | 445 | 12 | 110 | 6 | 11 | 153 | 76 | 127 | 0.062 | 0.771 | 0.168 | 0.9493 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 16 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 7 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 18 | 20 | 11 | 0 | 6 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 20 | 5 | 8 | 13 | 2 | 16 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 6 | 0 | 5 | 9 | 64 | 29 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.321625 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131784 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112064 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126714 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131572 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138844 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086097 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163675 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090565 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080509 | 0 | 0 | 0.145835 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.297461 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174818 | 0 | 0.386003 | 0 | 0 | 0.242281 | 0 | 0.127097 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131049 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15002 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.368941 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.275546 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.247805 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130826 | 0.096091 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183089 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13597 | 0.097198 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | ObeseCucklord | 2019/10/05 | SAD! I want to write a suicide note and just leave it somewhere in my room, so that if i die from some random accident, everyone will know that i didn't try and stop it and that i'm not some poor soul who was taken tragically. I'm not some idiot who messed up and died, I'm someone who wants you to feel true sorrow for ... | 6.372037 | 4.805685 | 6.729722 | 82.88125 | 66.283951 | 10.075309 | 31.361111 | 8.841846 | 2.162281 | 304 | 9 | 68 | 4 | 4 | 99 | 62 | 81 | 0.323 | 0.539 | 0.138 | -0.9688 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 19 | 11 | 6 | 3 | 3 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 9 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 7 | 2 | 7 | 7 | 3 | 7 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 5 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 40 | 16 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.615676 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.283427 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149977 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163011 | 0 | 0 | 0.314071 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.25132 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.247982 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.324447 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.201381 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.3499 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | ng1312 | 2019/10/05 | I just need someone I just need someone to talk to. If someone has the time or anything. I would greatly appreciate because I’m just done with my life (sorry if you feel compelled. You don’t have to) | 1.05675 | 3.579201 | 2.575 | 90.85 | 87.25 | 4.2 | 28 | 5.683918 | 1.0061 | 157 | 8 | 31 | 1 | 5 | 51 | 28 | 40 | 0 | 0.887 | 0.113 | 0.4927 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 12 | 9 | 3 | 0 | 5 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 1 | 4 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 22 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.209221 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154985 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.26018 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128553 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.280305 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17958 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.377037 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.64626 | 0 | 0 | 0.284605 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.204352 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148252 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180608 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | 52-blue | 2019/10/05 | A checklist of things to do Been thinking of giving myself a neat little present for my 18th birthday for months. And here I am. My birthday is in 34 days.
Have you ever made a 'redemption' list? A bucket list? Any checklist for things to do for the last time? Maybe a meal? Please share. | 0.825893 | 3.386848 | 1.468571 | 97.001429 | 92.035714 | 3.514286 | 19.5 | 5.148861 | -0.365493 | 223 | 7 | 45 | 1 | 8 | 68 | 41 | 56 | 0 | 0.809 | 0.191 | 0.8708 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 9 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 9 | 7 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 31 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.20938 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198567 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.278509 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.295362 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.250976 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.308592 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.291338 | 0 | 0 | 0.309323 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.245759 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.337977 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.409105 | 0.197287 | 0 | 0 | 0.179536 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | dazais | 2019/10/05 | we're all going to die anyway why prolong it
i'm terrified of death but if it's going to happen anyway why should i care when or how it happens? i can be in control of it myself and do it under my own conditions | 1.180532 | 2.573366 | 4.307394 | 85.10875 | 79 | 6.402128 | 22.388298 | 7.168622 | 0.857685 | 167 | 5 | 35 | 2 | 4 | 61 | 36 | 47 | 0.149 | 0.765 | 0.087 | -0.2732 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 8 | 10 | 6 | 2 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 6 | 8 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 29 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.306696 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.337384 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.312193 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.341914 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.53201 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.542868 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | iamdream | 2019/10/05 | So I’m an alcholic I hope that this is entertaining for you. From the time I was 10 I was beaten to a pulp. Had to lie to my teachers.( you know the drill). I was diagnosed as bipolar at the age of 8. Honestly my fingers can’t type what else happened to me. Now:.. I’m an alcoholic in the US and have to find sobriety. I... | -0.853806 | 1.009117 | 2.626667 | 92.062778 | 88.5 | 6.555556 | 22.638889 | 7.793538 | 1.107222 | 274 | 11 | 67 | 6 | 9 | 100 | 55 | 80 | 0.064 | 0.823 | 0.113 | 0.5859 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 9 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 15 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 12 | 3 | 12 | 11 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 48 | 15 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.380564 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.361435 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.297477 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.32547 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202381 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.314899 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.353689 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.195704 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.207646 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.428346 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | NJ1878 | 2019/10/05 | I’m might take an overdose tonight I’m 14 my life has not been the best I have physical health problems and am in physical pain everyday for the past 4 years of my life. My family life is ok . My mum is a single parent so we don’t have much money. My sister constantly calls me fat and ugly and I’m always anxious and o... | 0.410378 | 2.369629 | 2.71202 | 92.836141 | 83.926108 | 5.83711 | 20.504105 | 7.071269 | 0.426094 | 733 | 22 | 166 | 10 | 21 | 250 | 112 | 203 | 0.161 | 0.729 | 0.109 | -0.9044 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 12 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 15 | 1 | 0 | 9 | 1 | 23 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 31 | 41 | 16 | 2 | 4 | 10 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 9 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 9 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 22 | 7 | 17 | 33 | 6 | 11 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 3 | 0 | 5 | 8 | 103 | 29 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10042 | 0 | 0 | 0.16414 | 0 | 0 | 0.13634 | 0.119687 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100767 | 0 | 0 | 0.102694 | 0 | 0.126651 | 0.106736 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123233 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130418 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103946 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1247 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.227542 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110304 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063053 | 0 | 0.068588 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128282 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13352 | 0 | 0.265301 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.426217 | 0.058961 | 0 | 0.106567 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.256055 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088717 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1158 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091786 | 0.128417 | 0 | 0.134006 | 0 | 0.115207 | 0.083668 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.230958 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120718 | 0 | 0.077314 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12214 | 0 | 0 | 0.125901 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13201 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.36296 | 0 | 0 | 0.11111 | 0 | 0 | 0.080178 | 0 | 0 | 0.09581 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081937 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071183 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077717 |
suicidewatch | Whyamistillaliveffs | 2019/10/05 | I keep picturing myself slitting my wrists I can't stop thinking about all the different ways I could hurt myself | 10.152857 | 9.109611 | 8.895238 | 68.691429 | 58.52381 | 12.209524 | 40.047619 | 11.208143 | 4.613819 | 94 | 4 | 15 | 2 | 1 | 29 | 18 | 21 | 0.168 | 0.739 | 0.093 | -0.3637 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.343435 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.449409 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.460478 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.382332 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.35962 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.275619 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.341428 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Zezene | 2019/10/05 | Addicted and beyond help, I want to die Tried for 6 years to beat my addiction and I'm in a worse place than where I started
I just can't take it anymore, I seem beyond help and I need a way out.
Currently drinking and deciding what to do | 0.94 | 2.857936 | 3.195843 | 90.317294 | 81.745098 | 7.217255 | 23.92549 | 8.238736 | 1.435342 | 187 | 7 | 42 | 4 | 5 | 64 | 38 | 51 | 0.141 | 0.724 | 0.135 | -0.3182 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 8 | 4 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 9 | 8 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 27 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.54508 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.247936 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.259463 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.244907 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.335143 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185374 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.2612 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.227593 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176953 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187971 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169735 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147458 | 0.198441 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.254774 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160994 |
suicidewatch | QueerGirlsThrowaway | 2019/10/05 | I am going to kill myself on October 9th. On October 9th, I become homeless. If I can't find a place to live, I'm just going to do it. If I'm in a shelter or car, I'll lose my job. If I lose my job, there's really not a point to life anymore.
I have it all planned out. There's a bridge I find beautiful four hours awa... | 0.77 | 1.522755 | 3.095385 | 96.024615 | 78.74359 | 6.909402 | 19.837607 | 7.38713 | 0.105694 | 390 | 8 | 104 | 5 | 9 | 135 | 72 | 117 | 0.113 | 0.852 | 0.036 | -0.8126 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 7 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 20 | 15 | 8 | 1 | 3 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 14 | 0 | 14 | 13 | 2 | 18 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 62 | 19 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184683 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174963 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.205669 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192418 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.340409 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097294 | 0 | 0.21167 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183392 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.369595 | 0 | 0.206028 | 0 | 0.30703 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131535 | 0 | 0 | 0.164438 | 0 | 0 | 0.416672 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12619 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194564 | 0 | 0.176041 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119299 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155691 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108588 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160837 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | KSE1995 | 2019/10/05 | Help! Do you recover from a suicide attempt I mean emotionally?
Last year was really hard i tried to kill myself 13 times , i mean I’m only 17 my life is great there is no reason for me to be depressed.
It’s like every single time I tried to kill myself something inside me died, I dunno how to deal with myself anymo... | 1.414488 | 3.84243 | 3.659548 | 84.645902 | 83.701987 | 6.201948 | 22.127386 | 7.510576 | 1.140725 | 590 | 20 | 114 | 10 | 17 | 202 | 92 | 151 | 0.241 | 0.667 | 0.092 | -0.9726 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 13 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 10 | 2 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 12 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 19 | 18 | 6 | 5 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 24 | 4 | 15 | 14 | 3 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 7 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 8 | 73 | 30 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.311794 | 0 | 0 | 0.147444 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153276 | 0.128052 | 0 | 0.1543 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130105 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167238 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125264 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075174 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163913 | 0 | 0.14721 | 0 | 0 | 0.266365 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099653 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.32897 | 0 | 0 | 0.121189 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105012 | 0.217903 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099241 | 0 | 0 | 0.323898 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142656 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113073 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129816 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095244 | 0.152861 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148848 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.228912 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162625 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173385 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.302819 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105613 | 0 | 0 | 0.095741 |
suicidewatch | sad-boi-alex | 2019/10/05 | I can't get past her and I'm dumb I dated this girl, I'll call her Jesse. We dated for 5 months (which I understand it's not a long time) but the love was so real I couldn't ever imagine if ever feel that way about a person. I'm 23, I've had like 13 girlfriends since I was in grade 9, long term short term whatever and ... | 0.639198 | 2.602165 | 2.685369 | 93.329464 | 83.085028 | 5.413289 | 20.002722 | 6.574016 | 0.095684 | 1,970 | 55 | 448 | 20 | 55 | 662 | 238 | 541 | 0.166 | 0.719 | 0.115 | -0.9833 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 54 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 16 | 28 | 8 | 3 | 17 | 2 | 44 | 15 | 5 | 5 | 4 | 79 | 93 | 35 | 1 | 12 | 14 | 3 | 4 | 4 | 3 | 4 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 11 | 19 | 33 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 2 | 2 | 12 | 18 | 14 | 0 | 2 | 30 | 8 | 84 | 14 | 62 | 52 | 3 | 84 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 8 | 57 | 30 | 6 | 4 | 43 | 275 | 103 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073328 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.049505 | 0.072543 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054441 | 0.059115 | 0.388432 | 0 | 0.060246 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072295 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077771 | 0.136981 | 0.072992 | 0 | 0 | 0.073479 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144906 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118289 | 0 | 0.062708 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128086 | 0.119304 | 0 | 0.063631 | 0 | 0.066744 | 0 | 0.071597 | 0 | 0.135958 | 0 | 0 | 0.120445 | 0 | 0 | 0.1094 | 0.196361 | 0.147961 | 0 | 0.120712 | 0.059384 | 0.169876 | 0 | 0 | 0.070103 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079797 | 0 | 0.047456 | 0 | 0.071018 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072398 | 0 | 0.138357 | 0 | 0 | 0.187968 | 0.118909 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1917 | 0.066993 | 0.094519 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071488 | 0.08292 | 0.169536 | 0.075249 | 0.052046 | 0 | 0.054605 | 0.136758 | 0 | 0.066441 | 0 | 0.067935 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16154 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067587 | 0 | 0.12364 | 0.073971 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080586 | 0 | 0.072794 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071654 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072675 | 0.117133 | 0 | 0.141703 | 0 | 0 | 0.054505 | 0.070023 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.047036 | 0.090732 | 0 | 0.056207 | 0.082568 | 0.081374 | 0 | 0 | 0.078662 | 0.240343 | 0 | 0 | 0.073705 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125279 | 0.112396 | 0.113583 | 0 | 0 | 0.196897 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103087 | 0 | 0 | 0.150883 | 0 | 0 | 0.045593 |
suicidewatch | Throw-Me-Away-19 | 2019/10/05 | I’m so tired of living. I’ve never posted anything on Reddit before, but I feel like this may be the only place I can talk about this with people who understand.
I am so tired of living. It feels like every second of every day is mentally and physically exhausting. Compared to most people, my life is not that bad. I’... | 3.982995 | 5.072159 | 5.333187 | 81.761813 | 71.335165 | 8.896703 | 26.087912 | 9.265574 | 2.06808 | 1,423 | 44 | 285 | 30 | 26 | 477 | 174 | 364 | 0.186 | 0.601 | 0.213 | 0.8551 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 40 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 22 | 31 | 0 | 3 | 11 | 1 | 34 | 12 | 2 | 4 | 3 | 65 | 64 | 27 | 2 | 6 | 12 | 1 | 8 | 6 | 5 | 5 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 16 | 19 | 0 | 4 | 16 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 10 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 9 | 39 | 20 | 43 | 47 | 7 | 31 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 18 | 13 | 0 | 7 | 22 | 193 | 55 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074217 | 0 | 0 | 0.119252 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054819 | 0 | 0.071066 | 0.050105 | 0.073423 | 0.117938 | 0.063791 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059832 | 0 | 0 | 0.060976 | 0 | 0 | 0.063376 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080371 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.046214 | 0.073877 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059862 | 0 | 0.063468 | 0 | 0 | 0.04733 | 0.064819 | 0.120751 | 0.136946 | 0.193207 | 0 | 0.135107 | 0 | 0.289863 | 0.255965 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.276817 | 0 | 0.037439 | 0.068742 | 0 | 0.180312 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076282 | 0 | 0 | 0.073543 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071173 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07111 | 0.063694 | 0 | 0 | 0.078764 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151844 | 0.210053 | 0 | 0.253104 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067805 | 0 | 0 | 0.071991 | 0.078057 | 0 | 0 | 0.072215 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053134 | 0.055268 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075194 | 0 | 0.048558 | 0.163499 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099358 | 0.06257 | 0.074868 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068629 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.229532 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065235 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121432 | 0 | 0.070872 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114454 | 0 | 0 | 0.074913 | 0 | 0.078383 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17279 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.047607 | 0 | 0 | 0.056889 | 0.08357 | 0.329445 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149199 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059126 | 0.084532 | 0 | 0.05748 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069076 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.050904 | 0 | 0 | 0.092292 |
suicidewatch | Key_Dark | 2019/10/05 | I will only live until 25 so I might aswell kill myself now. I have 2 of the main indicators of poor health, stretch marks and cellulite. They are a handy way to tell if you are obese. Even at a BMI of 20 I was still medically obese with a life expectancy of 25-30 and it was apparent on my body.
Stretch marks and ce... | 2.709592 | 4.413395 | 3.828129 | 88.841681 | 75.573427 | 7.004429 | 23.804779 | 7.793538 | 0.997816 | 552 | 17 | 120 | 8 | 12 | 179 | 90 | 143 | 0.149 | 0.773 | 0.078 | -0.8535 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 13 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 6 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 14 | 11 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 20 | 11 | 3 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 5 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 19 | 3 | 19 | 12 | 1 | 20 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 6 | 0 | 3 | 13 | 76 | 24 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149393 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175611 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176621 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.330049 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105023 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090368 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169017 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15793 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175918 | 0 | 0 | 0.259224 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.224623 | 0.077683 | 0 | 0.421219 | 0.140716 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.320366 | 0 | 0.168682 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120932 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131532 | 0 | 0.159122 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.253967 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138979 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092718 | 0 | 0 | 0.151938 | 0 | 0.107956 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093787 | 0.126213 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.204791 |
suicidewatch | notrealatall15 | 2019/10/05 | help please I'm a 16 year old kid from Sri Lanka and I've never felt good or happy with my self for my entire life. i go to school wearing a mask , pretending life is good and making jokes. i kept whoever was close to me at an arms distance and because of that i feel like i have nobody that will stand by me. i don't e... | 2.936334 | 3.165833 | 4.201958 | 92.072335 | 73.131274 | 7.484079 | 24.501703 | 7.285733 | 0.731106 | 921 | 24 | 223 | 9 | 17 | 304 | 145 | 259 | 0.067 | 0.753 | 0.18 | 0.9794 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 29 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 17 | 0 | 2 | 14 | 0 | 20 | 6 | 2 | 2 | 4 | 45 | 43 | 18 | 1 | 2 | 11 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 10 | 12 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 3 | 1 | 5 | 7 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 12 | 4 | 35 | 14 | 28 | 27 | 5 | 29 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 11 | 0 | 8 | 14 | 139 | 45 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0.111244 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118066 | 0 | 0 | 0.094854 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087207 | 0 | 0.113054 | 0.079709 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.208473 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073518 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095229 | 0 | 0 | 0.117788 | 0 | 0.150587 | 0.103116 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128277 | 0.05764 | 0.081439 | 0.328362 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088073 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064787 | 0.191229 | 0.091173 | 0 | 0.12558 | 0 | 0 | 0.364053 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076409 | 0 | 0 | 0.113224 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125299 | 0.092922 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.241556 | 0.111385 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152187 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.230207 | 0.133511 | 0.090991 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087921 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11962 | 0 | 0.154493 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108822 | 0.079031 | 0.099537 | 0 | 0.125134 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114027 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129135 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11537 | 0 | 0 | 0.118923 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08776 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124693 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099638 | 0.104952 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073044 | 0 | 0 | 0.066472 | 0 | 0 | 0.217856 | 0 | 0.154792 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07341 |
suicidewatch | feellikeapersonagain | 2019/10/05 | Realizing how everyone is messed up in some way. (14/M) Before you say “OH EVERYONES UNIQUE IT’S OKAY!” No, we’re all messed up, we all have trauma, and the way that the world tries to make it seem like an advantage because we’re all “unique” is very unsettling. I want to kill myself for a couple of main reasons.
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suicidewatch | TrulyMessedUp | 2019/10/05 | I just want it all to end. I messed up but that doesn't make me a bad person and I surely did not deserve the punishment. Now everything is uncertain. I am fearful, sad and tired and bad things just keep happening. I truly want it all to end. Every day I want to find a way to kill myself. My life is upside down I cry a... | 0.517175 | 2.450798 | 2.711667 | 93.135523 | 83.350282 | 5.967232 | 20.002825 | 7.168622 | 0.374727 | 640 | 18 | 146 | 9 | 18 | 217 | 97 | 177 | 0.246 | 0.546 | 0.208 | -0.9134 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 18 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 18 | 4 | 2 | 7 | 0 | 13 | 8 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 37 | 30 | 12 | 1 | 7 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 29 | 4 | 19 | 25 | 4 | 16 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 5 | 1 | 3 | 8 | 99 | 38 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116315 | 0.120304 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115197 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.29096 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092742 | 0 | 0.127594 | 0.074912 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.308643 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097868 | 0 | 0.20879 | 0 | 0 | 0.13071 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.212332 | 0 | 0 | 0.127361 | 0.089743 | 0.107386 | 0.060688 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.205435 | 0 | 0 | 0.114682 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103246 | 0.128511 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164091 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155072 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172259 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.2472 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080529 | 0.101424 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116189 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092373 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109477 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101527 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.23151 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.400518 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.205538 | 0.184401 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133575 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | SAjAkPoL87 | 2019/10/05 | Why am I even writing this on here actually.... I think about this more than anyone in MY life can imagine. Insane how many times I e actually told them like fuck man. I really3am fucked in the head and they jus.blow it off saying I'll get over w.e it hurting....I cant mother fucker I cant.. | 0.518214 | 2.796788 | 2.699524 | 90.975 | 86.5 | 5.428571 | 20.238095 | 6.86897 | 0.36831 | 225 | 7 | 49 | 3 | 7 | 76 | 48 | 60 | 0.172 | 0.731 | 0.097 | -0.6866 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 9 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 8 | 1 | 7 | 8 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 7 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 29 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.515127 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.18455 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174327 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.488009 | 0.137896 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.270874 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186426 | 0.128946 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.26759 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.209892 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169119 | 0 | 0 | 0.153903 | 0 | 0 | 0.252202 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.238161 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | darknessmor | 2019/10/05 | Death would be good... however I feel like I have to.... Kill my abuser first. | -1.346 | 0.233184 | 0.52 | 100.24 | 111.666667 | 4.666667 | 11.666667 | 6.427356 | -0.718333 | 56 | 1 | 13 | 1 | 3 | 18 | 14 | 15 | 0.515 | 0.38 | 0.105 | -0.8934 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0.502292 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.214354 | 0.302858 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.360598 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.355576 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.46902 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.207113 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.30115 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Liebalia | 2019/10/05 | What's a way to commit suicide without suspicion? I do not Hve access to most forms of suicide. I need it to be not messy, and almost be completely silent. | 2.272796 | 4.47597 | 4.046452 | 84.456344 | 78.677419 | 6.713978 | 26.462366 | 7.793538 | 1.766927 | 122 | 5 | 23 | 2 | 3 | 41 | 25 | 31 | 0.24 | 0.587 | 0.173 | -0.6711 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 4 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 18 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.33384 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.349551 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.247203 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.729346 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.264628 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.321375 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | HayeBail | 2019/10/05 | God I want to die My life is shitty. Whatever. But these last few days my depression and ideation has come back full force. I can barely get out of bed and I want to kill myself so bad. I'm broke and have no health insurance and am currently couch surfing, so I can't get help.
My boyfriend and I have been struggling. ... | -1.277745 | 0.759846 | 0.817602 | 101.734513 | 96.315789 | 4.077973 | 17.037037 | 5.822114 | -0.664513 | 671 | 19 | 167 | 6 | 27 | 220 | 103 | 190 | 0.248 | 0.655 | 0.097 | -0.9863 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 23 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 13 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 25 | 5 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 32 | 43 | 20 | 3 | 7 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 7 | 13 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 4 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 30 | 2 | 15 | 35 | 5 | 17 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 5 | 1 | 2 | 6 | 108 | 37 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108792 | 0.118133 | 0.086247 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121875 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155413 | 0.091245 | 0 | 0.121859 | 0 | 0.293675 | 0.14782 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093448 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071538 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147838 | 0 | 0.080408 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15039 | 0 | 0.167658 | 0.094833 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1404 | 0 | 0.15653 | 0 | 0 | 0.115328 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099934 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158284 | 0 | 0 | 0.255388 | 0 | 0.094441 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142582 | 0.300183 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150374 | 0.104006 | 0.209816 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112989 | 0 | 0.324137 | 0.147909 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090657 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13411 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.417252 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | evilsnowman92 | 2019/10/05 | I'm going to kill myself. Not sure where to post this. I've decided to kill myself. Tonight. I've had enough. Nothing I ever do matters. I don't matter. This isn't a cry for help. I don't have any friends. Nobody to say goodbye to. I just wanted to let somebody know. | -1.816986 | -0.260642 | 0.922137 | 97.680718 | 110.754386 | 2.774482 | 17.46252 | 4.851558 | -0.657898 | 206 | 7 | 45 | 1 | 11 | 70 | 38 | 57 | 0.311 | 0.645 | 0.043 | -0.9296 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 11 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 2 | 7 | 9 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 28 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176324 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.284815 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.267913 | 0 | 0 | 0.23454 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.200325 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147359 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173795 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.573726 | 0 | 0.142498 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.265139 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.248793 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.248326 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206196 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.244375 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152934 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Locker172 | 2019/10/05 | Who can relate? https://docs.google.com/document/d/1gQViP9E7zrE6svt8-oTTwQlpZsN0qATLy7nD8zU_Lww/edit | 92.61 | 110.52198 | 41.24 | -197.045 | -1 | 10.8 | 27 | 7.168622 | 5.9044 | 96 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 19 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Texas_Shepard | 2019/10/05 | The two things that always stop me when i think about killing myself 1-how much my family will suffer about it and might never overcome that.
2-being scared to die in agony (can't have access to gun)
Literally think about thoses everytime i can't pass through that | 3.31966 | 6.37561 | 2.766429 | 89.774405 | 81.857143 | 5.715646 | 20.411565 | 7.168622 | 0.660671 | 215 | 6 | 39 | 3 | 6 | 63 | 40 | 49 | 0.336 | 0.664 | 0 | -0.9623 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 7 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 7 | 5 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 29 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.252238 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.314613 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.285774 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.335381 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.321585 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.222844 | 0 | 0.233801 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.303497 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.25344 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.201393 | 0.388481 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.296125 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | margaux_33 | 2019/10/05 | Failure at school This might sound dumb but I will kill myself next week if I have F on German and Math exam. Being straight A student I won't be able to handle all the jokes from my classmates and the disappointed look on my teacher's face. | 3.246633 | 4.943321 | 3.877296 | 89.082883 | 74.102041 | 5.716327 | 24.494898 | 5.985473 | 0.553608 | 193 | 6 | 39 | 1 | 4 | 61 | 43 | 49 | 0.269 | 0.645 | 0.087 | -0.9032 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 7 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 1 | 5 | 2 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 26 | 7 | 4 | 0.381988 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.422613 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.320774 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.405229 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.406249 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.386592 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.306408 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | pongo_juice | 2019/10/05 | I tried overdosing and I don't want my kids back. I'll try and keep this short.
Been suffering for years with whatever I have. (I'm assuming bpd or bipolar)
I went out for the first time in years drinking Sat night as an "old friend" asked me out. I kind of knew it was a bad idea. I got drunk and at some point reali... | 1.212873 | 3.138279 | 2.673117 | 94.376664 | 80.855422 | 6.270482 | 19.531627 | 7.365786 | 0.283748 | 1,538 | 38 | 354 | 22 | 40 | 500 | 214 | 415 | 0.136 | 0.819 | 0.045 | -0.9813 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 56 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 4 | 14 | 18 | 4 | 0 | 16 | 1 | 30 | 16 | 11 | 3 | 2 | 66 | 73 | 37 | 0 | 4 | 6 | 4 | 2 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 6 | 3 | 9 | 30 | 2 | 2 | 15 | 5 | 3 | 15 | 8 | 10 | 0 | 2 | 27 | 9 | 42 | 8 | 48 | 43 | 9 | 75 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 1 | 29 | 33 | 3 | 7 | 26 | 202 | 51 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080649 | 0.08593 | 0.062272 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054448 | 0.079786 | 0 | 0 | 0.145594 | 0 | 0.07316 | 0.119753 | 0.130034 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098073 | 0 | 0 | 0.089061 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17107 | 0.050219 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068144 | 0 | 0 | 0.076282 | 0 | 0 | 0.130099 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102863 | 0 | 0 | 0.074407 | 0 | 0 | 0.073408 | 0 | 0.078746 | 0.111259 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066235 | 0 | 0 | 0.240645 | 0.071988 | 0 | 0 | 0.265528 | 0 | 0.062279 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206577 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.390544 | 0 | 0.076685 | 0 | 0 | 0.175809 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069213 | 0 | 0.081088 | 0.128384 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169209 | 0.159252 | 0.055001 | 0.076086 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085003 | 0 | 0 | 0.073681 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082762 | 0.114485 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073075 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08171 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074335 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073611 | 0 | 0 | 0.079221 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156559 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09977 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061924 | 0 | 0 | 0.186154 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.233775 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087168 | 0 | 0.082998 | 0.062186 | 0.065102 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058548 | 0 | 0.068061 | 0 | 0.08905 | 0 | 0.051733 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090812 | 0 | 0.073811 | 0 | 0.086515 | 0.158603 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183716 | 0.061809 | 0.062462 | 0 | 0 | 0.072185 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10029 |
suicidewatch | allahusnackbar12 | 2019/10/05 | If nothing changes soon it's all over It's been 4 years since I first started seeing a doctor for my depression and anxiety. Every single day has been a nightmare from the moment I wake up to the moment I fall asleep.
I use music as a coping mechanism but it's started to fail me. I no longer enjoy it as much. I have ... | 2.299314 | 2.99655 | 4.139967 | 90.217644 | 74.936255 | 6.693316 | 23.904604 | 6.691623 | 0.617268 | 893 | 25 | 205 | 7 | 18 | 304 | 131 | 251 | 0.099 | 0.722 | 0.179 | 0.9815 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 21 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 4 | 13 | 1 | 0 | 14 | 0 | 17 | 8 | 4 | 2 | 3 | 35 | 41 | 18 | 2 | 5 | 10 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 10 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 7 | 35 | 9 | 29 | 38 | 8 | 27 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 11 | 10 | 0 | 4 | 14 | 136 | 45 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101974 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.243775 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135908 | 0 | 0.141013 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106429 | 0 | 0 | 0.171935 | 0 | 0.114811 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136438 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.224622 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125663 | 0 | 0.134801 | 0.190459 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113385 | 0 | 0 | 0.205974 | 0 | 0.069644 | 0 | 0.075757 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089348 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15381 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147476 | 0 | 0.073258 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188307 | 0.195371 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120308 | 0 | 0.088979 | 0.135145 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.195981 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127905 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.304141 | 0 | 0 | 0.148014 | 0 | 0 | 0.092413 | 0 | 0.13927 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151724 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106005 | 0 | 0 | 0.212445 | 0.121351 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110267 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188701 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.20045 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085413 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115128 | 0 | 0 | 0.157247 | 0.105807 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128496 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085841 |
suicidewatch | robert_-m | 2019/10/05 | I lost my life. I'm 25 years old. I live with my mother and sister. Dad was an alcoholic and committed suicide. I can see in one eye from birth. I don't have a job and I've never worked. I think I fell in love with a girl I met on the internet. I have never talked to her live. She rejected my friendship and I suffer tw... | -1.263127 | 0.756345 | 1.489017 | 97.596971 | 94.505618 | 4.764419 | 15.281835 | 6.427356 | -0.500776 | 311 | 7 | 75 | 4 | 12 | 107 | 59 | 89 | 0.188 | 0.685 | 0.127 | -0.765 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 8 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 12 | 15 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 2 | 19 | 2 | 8 | 10 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 10 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 50 | 20 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.234578 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194411 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.21671 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.217819 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.310078 | 0.107236 | 0 | 0.387644 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.23961 | 0 | 0.198107 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.338583 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.230328 | 0 | 0.148739 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.243728 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174913 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.240097 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176425 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140646 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159798 | 0 | 0 | 0.155926 | 0 | 0 | 0.141351 |
suicidewatch | Muse505 | 2019/10/05 | I’ve determined that my last day will be my birthday. I turn 21 this year. I’ve been feeling like a wreck for years now and it honestly is tiring dealing with the thoughts and mood swings day in and day out. I don’t want another year of this. I am done. I’ll give it till my birthday so I can let my family have one more... | 1.224146 | 2.397106 | 3.309439 | 93.243183 | 78.349593 | 6.87122 | 22.056098 | 7.554174 | 0.599365 | 431 | 12 | 105 | 6 | 10 | 147 | 76 | 123 | 0.073 | 0.749 | 0.178 | 0.9061 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 13 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 16 | 21 | 10 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 11 | 5 | 15 | 12 | 1 | 21 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 16 | 65 | 19 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.18565 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.18796 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.462408 | 0.1848 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183436 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168982 | 0 | 0.090635 | 0.128057 | 0 | 0 | 0.163832 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093651 | 0.171954 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190816 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120148 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146114 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183296 | 0 | 0.087573 | 0 | 0 | 0.158632 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169612 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121465 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14315 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142305 | 0 | 0.206023 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1217 | 0.194974 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105727 | 0.284562 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.346295 |
suicidewatch | imadethisinspoons | 2019/10/05 | I hope I do it by Monday Want a wave of impulsivity to come over me so that I can just do it. I don't want to think about it too much. Human instinct tells me to survive but I don't see a future. Things aren't getting better, if anything they're getting worse and I hate myself anyway. | -0.060622 | 2.007193 | 2.519124 | 92.777258 | 86.903226 | 4.188018 | 18.534562 | 5.288315 | -0.463924 | 223 | 6 | 50 | 1 | 7 | 77 | 44 | 62 | 0.222 | 0.727 | 0.051 | -0.9066 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 15 | 4 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 2 | 7 | 15 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 37 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.254249 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.273251 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.266143 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.322839 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.305035 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.306868 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.227122 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.246202 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.270046 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.20526 | 0.19797 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.364467 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.314858 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | mpelton | 2019/10/05 | I'm so Tired all the Time I tried to kill myself last May and failed. Ever since I've been debating whether or not im happy that I survived, and I think I'm just gonna do it. I'm tired all the time, and have no friends to talk to. People reach out but I just don't have the energy to respond. I have zero talents, and ha... | 0.891111 | 2.583542 | 2.934963 | 93.256333 | 80.851852 | 5.801481 | 23.762963 | 6.742158 | 0.603723 | 388 | 14 | 90 | 4 | 10 | 131 | 69 | 108 | 0.262 | 0.658 | 0.08 | -0.964 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 7 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 10 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 22 | 18 | 10 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 11 | 4 | 10 | 14 | 2 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 56 | 14 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140506 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.204908 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125951 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186896 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.208943 | 0.147607 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159631 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.219947 | 0 | 0.203991 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.223181 | 0 | 0.205035 | 0 | 0.22859 | 0 | 0 | 0.16842 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100942 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198254 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143242 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.195319 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.219762 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170915 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16607 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132391 | 0 | 0 | 0.240959 | 0.47495 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140279 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Mollamollamolla | 2019/10/05 | Genuinely hate my life and feel like I wanna die every day Survived an od last Friday while trying to kill myself and got put in the psych shithole for a week, I’m on meds and getting therapy now I was undiagnosed on depression and anxiety. I’ve had thoughts of killing myself for as long as i can remember I feel like n... | 8.846325 | 7.385631 | 8.367362 | 72.772881 | 61.362205 | 12.246194 | 39.276903 | 11.208143 | 4.318004 | 531 | 23 | 98 | 12 | 6 | 169 | 89 | 127 | 0.201 | 0.674 | 0.125 | -0.9354 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 10 | 5 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 7 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 21 | 23 | 10 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 4 | 10 | 3 | 19 | 17 | 0 | 14 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 11 | 60 | 17 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113362 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095568 | 0 | 0.255265 | 0 | 0.153794 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123791 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097876 | 0 | 0.124853 | 0.141598 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.29971 | 0.211729 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136996 | 0.154842 | 0 | 0.084218 | 0 | 0.118518 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146303 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198652 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.327892 | 0 | 0.081439 | 0.120792 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104668 | 0.217189 | 0 | 0.261702 | 0.13114 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164602 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112702 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148968 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146316 | 0 | 0.167866 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152111 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118342 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169464 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.235287 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100609 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117623 | 0.118866 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160702 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Mike47845 | 2019/10/05 | I’m at my all time lowest point and I just want this pain and anxiety to stop I’m trying to better myself but it seems like things just get worse and worse | -0.002353 | 2.162502 | 1.607353 | 98.678088 | 87.823529 | 4.576471 | 11.441176 | 5.985473 | -1.292329 | 124 | 1 | 29 | 1 | 4 | 40 | 26 | 34 | 0.353 | 0.502 | 0.145 | -0.8457 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 3 | 5 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 16 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.228821 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.264542 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156275 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146132 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.318278 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.282759 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.272302 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.250073 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198718 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174416 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.203079 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176425 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.609645 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | ariaDD3 | 2019/10/05 | Melt into comfort I wish I could go into a long dreamless sleep and be a spirit | 4.524706 | 4.248804 | 6.310588 | 80.097647 | 69.588235 | 6.8 | 28.764706 | 3.1291 | 1.185047 | 63 | 2 | 12 | 0 | 1 | 22 | 14 | 17 | 0 | 0.592 | 0.408 | 0.7096 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.395885 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.281795 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.438799 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.496194 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.570187 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Zawskii | 2019/10/05 | Bleach i drank bleach yesterday and all i got was a really bad sore through and bad abdominal pain and puking and diarrhea... should i go to the hospital it’s been a day and i still have abdominal pain | 2.41 | 4.759872 | 4.535 | 80.36 | 79 | 10 | 25 | 10.125757 | 2.94725 | 160 | 6 | 33 | 6 | 4 | 55 | 28 | 40 | 0.423 | 0.577 | 0 | -0.9626 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 7 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 21 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.534956 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206599 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182062 | 0 | 0.256213 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.681748 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.205224 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.255831 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | sartorialfox | 2019/10/05 | I'm fucking done I have the strong urge to kill myself over these fucking money issues.
I've applied everywhere in town, the same places every time their new hires don't work out. I get interviews but they never hire me. I've tried doing online work. I can barely manage $20 in two weeks and we're barely fucking living... | 2.036607 | 4.19 | 3.22403 | 90.307021 | 79.223881 | 4.720092 | 23.740528 | 5.369823 | 0.390386 | 521 | 18 | 102 | 2 | 13 | 168 | 88 | 134 | 0.216 | 0.758 | 0.026 | -0.983 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 15 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 8 | 6 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 10 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 21 | 4 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 6 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 17 | 2 | 11 | 20 | 1 | 16 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 7 | 9 | 4 | 0 | 6 | 55 | 22 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141933 | 0 | 0 | 0.117772 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.261727 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146458 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120582 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173057 | 0 | 0 | 0.529235 | 0.074772 | 0 | 0.081336 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165137 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149376 | 0 | 0 | 0.316674 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069919 | 0 | 0.379123 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106119 | 0.11038 | 0.276445 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137324 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149526 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083452 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097167 | 0 | 0.139804 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084414 | 0 | 0.114799 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.208381 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | tovuuluvsantseveen | 2019/10/05 | Shotgun... 12 gauge shotgun,000 buckshot. [My shotgun suicide.](https://freesound.org/people/Luvsantseveen/sounds/487254/) | 26.707273 | 35.480073 | 9.082273 | 39.743409 | 47.181818 | 9.472727 | 69.136364 | 8.841846 | 10.9246 | 106 | 7 | 3 | 2 | 2 | 21 | 10 | 11 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 19 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | weirdquicksilver | 2019/10/05 | Does anyone else speculate how people will react if you kill yourself? I'm occasionally thinking that certain people will laugh or find it funny. It's dumb, I'll be dead I won't see there reactions.. | 3.275526 | 5.996746 | 4.883421 | 76.971447 | 78.210526 | 6.957895 | 25.289474 | 8.076483 | 1.965505 | 161 | 6 | 27 | 3 | 4 | 54 | 33 | 38 | 0.258 | 0.567 | 0.175 | -0.7152 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 7 | 7 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 13 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.246752 | 0.361583 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.308821 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.294798 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.32254 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.390426 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.489306 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.281212 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.226121 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | takingbackthesky | 2019/10/05 | Done I see everyone else and I hate myself.. I don't know how to explain in.. Like on comparison to everyone else I am not enough or less than.. drinking is bad.. I don't know how to feel better anymore.. | -0.547857 | 1.671892 | 2.311429 | 90.958571 | 94.952381 | 5.657143 | 21.285714 | 7.168622 | 0.883257 | 155 | 6 | 34 | 3 | 6 | 54 | 30 | 42 | 0.09 | 0.779 | 0.131 | 0.1779 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 9 | 11 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 6 | 2 | 6 | 10 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 24 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.253597 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.213508 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.226156 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.261681 | 0 | 0.2505 | 0 | 0 | 0.427228 | 0 | 0 | 0.264218 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.488686 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129295 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.252462 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.281064 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124928 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.203769 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Blear25 | 2019/10/05 | What's the point? There's literally no valid reason why I shouldn't kill myself right about now. If I stay alive for the next 60+ years, I'll just end up alone in a hospital bed with no children or grandchildren to look after.
Fuck that I'm taking the easy way out.. | 1.916607 | 3.711913 | 3.106571 | 92.738429 | 78.107143 | 6.622857 | 18.342857 | 7.554174 | 0.157819 | 211 | 4 | 48 | 3 | 5 | 68 | 49 | 56 | 0.167 | 0.676 | 0.156 | 0.0869 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 5 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 8 | 4 | 0 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 1 | 2 | 5 | 25 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.298825 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.255548 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.266737 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.31921 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.242288 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.30685 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.272749 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.296652 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.246399 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.307529 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.216935 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.229018 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.260349 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185801 |
suicidewatch | Throwaway9812593601 | 2019/10/05 | I just can't I'm facing so many things that I just don't want to face. They're unavoidable. One of my main reasons for getting out of bed is gone now and since she doesn't need me anymore, I feel so lost. She didn't have a schedule, but she needed me often... and while I tended to her, I tended to other things. Now, i ... | 0.082135 | 2.260766 | 1.904146 | 96.609604 | 87.541667 | 4.455 | 17.647917 | 5.822114 | -0.470128 | 1,406 | 35 | 318 | 10 | 45 | 461 | 186 | 384 | 0.177 | 0.737 | 0.086 | -0.9892 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 70 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 21 | 16 | 5 | 0 | 9 | 2 | 35 | 11 | 3 | 4 | 6 | 68 | 69 | 27 | 0 | 15 | 19 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 7 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 33 | 14 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 0 | 6 | 3 | 18 | 8 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 5 | 42 | 8 | 43 | 55 | 8 | 35 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 18 | 15 | 4 | 8 | 17 | 218 | 75 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094151 | 0 | 0 | 0.075641 | 0 | 0 | 0.123639 | 0 | 0.139086 | 0 | 0.090155 | 0 | 0 | 0.074808 | 0 | 0.084985 | 0 | 0 | 0.069901 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160798 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092685 | 0.093386 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072581 | 0 | 0 | 0.058627 | 0.09372 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079553 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161032 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137895 | 0.064943 | 0 | 0 | 0.166173 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084041 | 0.094989 | 0 | 0.103328 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080388 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102622 | 0 | 0.094882 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099919 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.321049 | 0.088824 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101701 | 0.099235 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060681 | 0.092165 | 0.091327 | 0.29707 | 0 | 0.091578 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.269623 | 0.140225 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123201 | 0.069138 | 0.096731 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063023 | 0.238127 | 0 | 0.099788 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058237 | 0.093467 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.2329 | 0 | 0.072292 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093314 | 0.075199 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104066 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.219201 | 0.079456 | 0.083694 | 0 | 0.105549 | 0.181182 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053008 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.214475 | 0.072157 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132362 | 0 | 0 | 0.064577 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | IanFortwengler | 2019/10/05 | 16 and 3 years of being sick I’m tired of life. I don’t think any depressed person wants to really die. They just want to be happy and have the pain stop. Same with me, I’m 16 and I’ve been sick for 3 years with a unknown thing. Suicide is probably the only thing on my mind now. We’ve tried everything to help diagnose ... | 0.506587 | 2.581689 | 2.291347 | 95.300859 | 84.419847 | 5.880262 | 20.807525 | 7.168622 | 0.437835 | 480 | 15 | 111 | 7 | 14 | 158 | 84 | 131 | 0.171 | 0.717 | 0.112 | -0.7812 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 14 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 21 | 22 | 6 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 8 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 11 | 3 | 18 | 17 | 5 | 12 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 66 | 16 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120088 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152098 | 0.179237 | 0.183274 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.196946 | 0.116637 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158709 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08929 | 0.126157 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136434 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187985 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118366 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19935 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09705 | 0 | 0 | 0.186985 | 0 | 0 | 0.124732 | 0.086274 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178307 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129815 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169444 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134306 | 0.187906 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154193 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190396 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113129 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180013 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147638 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193163 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.234639 | 0.113153 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202966 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119894 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.208317 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159346 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128561 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.341158 |
suicidewatch | pantherman7657 | 2019/10/05 | I feel trapped in anger ​
I was bullied a lot at school I'm 23 now. I feel old as hell. I never felt good enough to be in a relationship because I felt too short I'm 5'6 and I couldn't protect anyone so feFlt like shit like a weasel. I never knew that I felt this way since I started therapy at 22. But I fee... | 3.598169 | 4.8585 | 4.794661 | 84.605 | 72.457447 | 7.853698 | 27.435664 | 8.3441 | 1.767137 | 2,193 | 79 | 452 | 35 | 42 | 724 | 239 | 564 | 0.195 | 0.689 | 0.116 | -0.9952 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 56 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 8 | 28 | 33 | 12 | 2 | 27 | 1 | 61 | 10 | 6 | 2 | 9 | 99 | 110 | 34 | 2 | 12 | 18 | 5 | 15 | 7 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 8 | 31 | 21 | 0 | 6 | 26 | 3 | 0 | 8 | 17 | 20 | 0 | 7 | 42 | 20 | 81 | 13 | 51 | 58 | 11 | 54 | 2 | 5 | 1 | 3 | 34 | 22 | 3 | 9 | 30 | 324 | 112 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097035 | 0.252711 | 0.283407 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057827 | 0.040771 | 0 | 0.095967 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089672 | 0 | 0.142178 | 0.064398 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06669 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063011 | 0 | 0.046555 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131179 | 0 | 0.060249 | 0 | 0.115538 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.294828 | 0.083312 | 0.223943 | 0 | 0 | 0.099195 | 0 | 0 | 0.045049 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132553 | 0.048907 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.051562 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119684 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131647 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06409 | 0.04753 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11925 | 0.041185 | 0.199408 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190953 | 0.198289 | 0 | 0.055173 | 0 | 0 | 0.058579 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.042864 | 0 | 0.134914 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061185 | 0 | 0.079023 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055663 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055794 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058325 | 0.066368 | 0.037354 | 0 | 0 | 0.250408 | 0 | 0.049796 | 0.11093 | 0.092739 | 0.058377 | 0.059012 | 0.046465 | 0 | 0.060829 | 0 | 0.119707 | 0.048234 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082543 | 0 | 0.046566 | 0.048749 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127561 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066681 | 0.270805 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.046291 | 0.034 | 0 | 0 | 0.055717 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113919 | 0.060702 | 0 | 0.05036 | 0 | 0 | 0.137569 | 0.046283 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063234 | 0.04245 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.283407 | 0.037549 |
suicidewatch | elusio | 2019/10/05 | I am losing all hope in myself I am 22 year old who currently has no ambition or drive to leave my house. I left my job 2 months ago after my boss shouted at me. My mum is a schizophrenic, my dad a depressed TV addict. All I do all day is go on the internet and eat and sleep. I am very socially stunted and feel like mo... | 2.955217 | 4.890147 | 4.00128 | 86.858152 | 75.521739 | 7.015459 | 25.02657 | 7.889722 | 1.37995 | 1,638 | 56 | 328 | 25 | 36 | 530 | 209 | 414 | 0.12 | 0.779 | 0.101 | 0.238 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 36 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 14 | 19 | 2 | 0 | 22 | 0 | 32 | 9 | 3 | 4 | 9 | 54 | 55 | 25 | 1 | 3 | 15 | 4 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 3 | 2 | 2 | 10 | 16 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 5 | 4 | 9 | 1 | 3 | 16 | 10 | 57 | 10 | 34 | 37 | 17 | 69 | 0 | 6 | 4 | 1 | 15 | 23 | 1 | 9 | 41 | 214 | 67 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076912 | 0 | 0 | 0.06254 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176114 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069968 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155837 | 0.060034 | 0 | 0 | 0.062397 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078759 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149268 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091 | 0 | 0.182298 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072192 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127636 | 0.178328 | 0 | 0.126814 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071346 | 0.050402 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065224 | 0.03686 | 0 | 0.120288 | 0 | 0 | 0.077783 | 0.07772 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.047289 | 0.223625 | 0 | 0.070074 | 0 | 0.162814 | 0.075527 | 0 | 0 | 0.073637 | 0.140023 | 0 | 0.078055 | 0 | 0 | 0.230036 | 0 | 0.224112 | 0.229963 | 0 | 0 | 0.068936 | 0 | 0.062298 | 0 | 0.177737 | 0.078929 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066758 | 0.047094 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.281568 | 0 | 0 | 0.052313 | 0.108827 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.222096 | 0 | 0.047808 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078339 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066694 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076066 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090394 | 0 | 0.069661 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.214206 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116722 | 0 | 0.070602 | 0.143837 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075199 | 0 | 0.117968 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080061 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056707 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082278 | 0.081089 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07674 | 0.068919 | 0 | 0 | 0.060934 | 0 | 0.058212 | 0.041613 | 0.056001 | 0.056592 | 0 | 0.063434 | 0.065402 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.051362 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.272597 |
suicidewatch | Kryptaos | 2019/10/05 | I want to kill myself but I'm too chicken I hate my job and have no friends and really see no reason to live | -1.249333 | 0.640216 | 1.82 | 96.856667 | 91 | 4.933333 | 16.333333 | 6.427356 | -0.416867 | 85 | 2 | 21 | 1 | 3 | 30 | 20 | 25 | 0.388 | 0.46 | 0.152 | -0.8481 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 5 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.291794 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.37288 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.374789 | 0 | 0.417846 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.333498 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.241951 | 0.388317 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.300962 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.222765 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | JCwolf15 | 2019/10/05 | I want to kill myself but I can't I'm suffering, and I know others have it worse, but that doesn't change the fact that I'm *suffering*
Home life is.....
It's hard to be in such a toxic environment, as one that my family have created for me
I can't catch a break and get someone to hire me, because I have no exper... | 1.677624 | 2.59138 | 3.473395 | 93.568913 | 76.717391 | 6.416563 | 21.838509 | 6.655084 | 0.215094 | 969 | 24 | 236 | 8 | 21 | 326 | 129 | 276 | 0.246 | 0.555 | 0.199 | -0.9742 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 26 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 13 | 26 | 2 | 0 | 11 | 3 | 23 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 32 | 47 | 25 | 2 | 6 | 8 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 5 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 17 | 10 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 10 | 12 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 7 | 30 | 15 | 28 | 33 | 1 | 20 | 1 | 6 | 3 | 1 | 11 | 8 | 1 | 3 | 9 | 145 | 47 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090518 | 0 | 0 | 0.073978 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089521 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.265257 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110914 | 0 | 0.11508 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070157 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112902 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090876 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.431109 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106413 | 0.102553 | 0 | 0.055005 | 0 | 0.104451 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113671 | 0.104356 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.231607 | 0.09745 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10912 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.232913 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120354 | 0.226566 | 0.119571 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076838 | 0.159441 | 0 | 0 | 0.096271 | 0.091352 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098183 | 0 | 0.14523 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167803 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104382 | 0.123852 | 0 | 0 | 0.147431 | 0.082736 | 0.347265 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117289 | 0 | 0 | 0.109359 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086688 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184346 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102529 | 0 | 0.081793 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072272 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128328 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110861 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | pessimisticheart | 2019/10/05 | im just tired of living like this i'm tired. i'm sick of it. i'm tired of living like this. i don't improve, i'm useless, i rarely take any advice, i'm lazy. i can't live like this anymore. i dont want to live like this anymore. i dont improve. i cant improve and i dont know how to improve and i feel like im just a bur... | 1.869233 | 3.608823 | 3.794619 | 88.005851 | 78.060773 | 6.80861 | 23.651358 | 7.720077 | 1.125971 | 2,034 | 67 | 431 | 31 | 48 | 689 | 191 | 543 | 0.24 | 0.62 | 0.14 | -0.9966 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 43 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 2 | 25 | 48 | 7 | 5 | 17 | 0 | 35 | 12 | 0 | 7 | 7 | 77 | 83 | 26 | 4 | 5 | 11 | 0 | 11 | 17 | 5 | 4 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 32 | 24 | 0 | 3 | 22 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 17 | 20 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 13 | 61 | 28 | 63 | 66 | 11 | 39 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 31 | 18 | 2 | 2 | 35 | 263 | 93 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07939 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134482 | 0 | 0.067601 | 0 | 0 | 0.055248 | 0.042596 | 0.124302 | 0 | 0.080572 | 0 | 0 | 0.033428 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.033918 | 0.123813 | 0 | 0.034566 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.041479 | 0 | 0.12425 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087796 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.041879 | 0 | 0 | 0.042159 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190434 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.033934 | 0.045694 | 0.071958 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.036745 | 0 | 0.194079 | 0 | 0 | 0.038295 | 0 | 0.184857 | 0.261182 | 0.078007 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094153 | 0.075108 | 0.021223 | 0 | 0.023086 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080211 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.043487 | 0 | 0.482664 | 0.042399 | 0 | 0.072213 | 0.089884 | 0.042301 | 0.089299 | 0 | 0 | 0.086025 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.337378 | 0 | 0.179349 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.038437 | 0.027115 | 0.041184 | 0.04081 | 0.088498 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089585 | 0 | 0.09399 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055053 | 0.092684 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112648 | 0.070939 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.026023 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162678 | 0.041111 | 0.064741 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.041409 | 0.034419 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.032441 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.046502 | 0.044434 | 0 | 0.038286 | 0 | 0.061085 | 0 | 0.035505 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.026987 | 0.052058 | 0 | 0 | 0.047374 | 0.373511 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.02758 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.04792 | 0.032244 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.039158 | 0 | 0 | 0.082507 | 0 | 0.028857 | 0 | 0 | 0.052318 |
suicidewatch | TheAssholeTruth | 2019/10/05 | I’m done. Goodbye, I’m tired of living this way, I need to be touched, loved, or even cared about, can’t even have that
I’ll be sure to blame all responsible for what I’m about to do, as they could have prevented it, but instead basically gave me the gun figuratively speaking; by not caring | 4.226186 | 5.015073 | 5.3625 | 82.887479 | 70.525424 | 8.611864 | 28.309322 | 8.841846 | 1.890522 | 229 | 8 | 50 | 4 | 4 | 76 | 47 | 59 | 0.162 | 0.7 | 0.138 | -0.5411 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 16 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 9 | 11 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 32 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.575118 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.225186 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.288625 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.37257 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.249047 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.254553 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.209129 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.26582 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.324164 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.223871 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | thr0aw4y89 | 2019/10/05 | Feel like I've got no one left that cares Throwaway because i don't want my friends seeing this and feeling bad.
Have been struggling with depression/anxiety/ptsd for over a decade. I've had it fairly under control to a point that I felt functional and could handle day to day life pretty well and even felt on better d... | 4.457919 | 5.736495 | 5.199968 | 82.447059 | 70.400438 | 8.340269 | 30.6975 | 8.754624 | 2.433399 | 1,840 | 77 | 356 | 32 | 33 | 596 | 217 | 457 | 0.14 | 0.711 | 0.149 | -0.1401 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 47 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 14 | 22 | 3 | 2 | 20 | 0 | 25 | 19 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 78 | 67 | 31 | 5 | 5 | 16 | 1 | 12 | 4 | 3 | 1 | 14 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 21 | 26 | 2 | 1 | 20 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 12 | 10 | 2 | 2 | 15 | 17 | 42 | 12 | 68 | 46 | 9 | 59 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 25 | 25 | 0 | 11 | 32 | 232 | 63 | 3 | 0 | 0.073524 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060639 | 0.055008 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061541 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058302 | 0.047716 | 0.051813 | 0.037828 | 0 | 0.052804 | 0 | 0 | 0.109764 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063365 | 0 | 0.063269 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.268235 | 0.069599 | 0.099091 | 0 | 0 | 0.32016 | 0 | 0.053447 | 0 | 0.064403 | 0 | 0 | 0.063515 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06079 | 0.071963 | 0.063497 | 0 | 0 | 0.054962 | 0 | 0 | 0.081973 | 0.056132 | 0.156851 | 0.059296 | 0 | 0 | 0.058499 | 0 | 0.313766 | 0.177327 | 0.119164 | 0 | 0.056717 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143829 | 0 | 0.129684 | 0 | 0.035267 | 0 | 0.148892 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054875 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06994 | 0 | 0.083188 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061111 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134059 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.034103 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067422 | 0 | 0.175324 | 0.121267 | 0.062195 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062513 | 0 | 0 | 0.062657 | 0 | 0.099063 | 0 | 0.045617 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058234 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.04205 | 0 | 0.06603 | 0 | 0.068904 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117323 | 0 | 0 | 0.063132 | 0 | 0 | 0.072538 | 0.062382 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070632 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.049348 | 0 | 0 | 0.098899 | 0.112984 | 0 | 0.070104 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062099 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069465 | 0.131767 | 0 | 0.049557 | 0 | 0 | 0.064873 | 0 | 0.203632 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.349139 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.041226 | 0 | 0 | 0.098529 | 0.072369 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126393 | 0.202492 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053595 | 0 | 0 | 0.036601 | 0.049256 | 0 | 0 | 0.111589 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059818 | 0 | 0.045176 | 0 | 0.063239 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | iwalybwb | 2019/10/05 | Keep it a secret Advice: if you want to kill yourself, don’t tell anybody.
They’ll only try to stop you. Why is it human nature to try to prevent people from what makes them happy?
We say people that do it are selfish. They aren’t. I know my suffering and misery will only bring down the lives of everybody I know. ... | 2.892989 | 5.468861 | 4.591494 | 79.361264 | 78.655172 | 6.165517 | 25.758621 | 7.38713 | 1.722876 | 360 | 14 | 59 | 5 | 9 | 121 | 65 | 87 | 0.252 | 0.622 | 0.126 | -0.9466 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 15 | 16 | 4 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 14 | 2 | 9 | 14 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 43 | 20 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.205394 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172967 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.22375 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186825 | 0.232543 | 0 | 0.231028 | 0 | 0 | 0.22256 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.371201 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.280605 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.319716 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.291437 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167151 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175727 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.23852 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183714 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.285409 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123975 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189663 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | dwellinggnome | 2019/10/05 | Sometimes I have really bad urges to just kill myself already. Life has never been kind to me. When I thought it was, it was always a joke. Back when I was 16, I attempted to kill myself twice. I thought life couldn’t get any worse. Yet here I am 20 years old and not needing antidepressants to feel numb.
It’s like li... | 0.457303 | 2.657463 | 2.538183 | 92.613835 | 85.845238 | 5.203509 | 19.556391 | 6.596605 | 0.132686 | 623 | 18 | 137 | 7 | 19 | 209 | 106 | 168 | 0.174 | 0.7 | 0.127 | -0.6241 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 22 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 17 | 7 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 21 | 10 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 28 | 34 | 11 | 3 | 5 | 8 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 11 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 3 | 25 | 7 | 13 | 21 | 0 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 9 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 13 | 93 | 32 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153169 | 0 | 0.115493 | 0 | 0 | 0.094389 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114221 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106729 | 0.115892 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070182 | 0 | 0 | 0.304098 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128318 | 0.072517 | 0.13315 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147755 | 0 | 0.137036 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.307124 | 0.144539 | 0.076281 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.490193 | 0.067811 | 0 | 0.122563 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139443 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102919 | 0.214102 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135995 | 0 | 0 | 0.145647 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14965 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088919 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110379 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142476 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137277 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116043 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088938 | 0 | 0.220384 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135588 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081868 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133798 | 0 | 0 | 0.140958 | 0.141449 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089383 |
suicidewatch | daddypeep | 2019/10/05 | I'm losing my mind and crave death all the time I cant eat, I cant sleep, I cant think clearly. I dont know what's gone on I've felt depressed in the past, I've gone 394 days without self harm and I broke it yesterday. I'm coming to end of all hope. I felt distant from my boyfriend the whole week, I know he loves me an... | -0.461615 | 1.161286 | 2.084756 | 98.001215 | 85.016598 | 5.178492 | 17.925484 | 6.214336 | -0.487984 | 816 | 19 | 212 | 7 | 24 | 281 | 115 | 241 | 0.197 | 0.68 | 0.123 | -0.9678 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 23 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 9 | 15 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 0 | 16 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 52 | 48 | 11 | 4 | 7 | 12 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 14 | 1 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 11 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 4 | 32 | 7 | 24 | 35 | 5 | 30 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 8 | 0 | 3 | 17 | 116 | 38 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092537 | 0 | 0.07336 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103666 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077612 | 0 | 0.103652 | 0 | 0.249796 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141042 | 0 | 0 | 0.123142 | 0 | 0 | 0.213178 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108858 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060849 | 0.085974 | 0.346647 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092977 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.205183 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119529 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106967 | 0 | 0 | 0.264551 | 0 | 0 | 0.127427 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117588 | 0 | 0.106266 | 0 | 0 | 0.134634 | 0 | 0 | 0.108615 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127666 | 0.243026 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092817 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091527 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114882 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077095 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120485 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125545 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120431 | 0 | 0 | 0.092647 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113423 | 0 | 0.090484 | 0.096728 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077111 | 0 | 0 | 0.140347 | 0 | 0.114072 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.283928 | 0 | 0.193065 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.268719 | 0 | 0.116007 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131577 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | jamz666 | 2019/10/05 | Thank you If it weren't for this community I would be dead. A few years back I was struggling with a litany of problems. I had been dealing with a violent break-up, struggling with depression and medication and I was at the height of my alcoholism. All I wanted to do was die. But somehow I wandered in here, and I told ... | 4.673572 | 6.148816 | 5.376173 | 80.637285 | 70.107692 | 8.616667 | 30.464744 | 9.075115 | 2.596582 | 1,334 | 55 | 252 | 26 | 24 | 432 | 174 | 325 | 0.174 | 0.703 | 0.123 | -0.9665 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 36 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 2 | 13 | 20 | 2 | 3 | 12 | 0 | 30 | 8 | 1 | 6 | 5 | 60 | 56 | 25 | 4 | 10 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 24 | 24 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 11 | 1 | 4 | 23 | 4 | 38 | 9 | 43 | 26 | 6 | 25 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 2 | 19 | 12 | 1 | 5 | 12 | 190 | 62 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114617 | 0 | 0 | 0.093199 | 0.112362 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071498 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093596 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080845 | 0 | 0.064092 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.214392 | 0 | 0 | 0.090568 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108394 | 0.090556 | 0 | 0.218235 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099116 | 0 | 0.053161 | 0 | 0.10095 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11528 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092974 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105463 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104334 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115563 | 0.085702 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107512 | 0.148526 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093045 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189784 | 0 | 0.070181 | 0.106594 | 0 | 0.114527 | 0 | 0.105917 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08109 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14249 | 0.079963 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.364451 | 0 | 0.219696 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100604 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105263 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107924 | 0.086972 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080941 | 0 | 0 | 0.074418 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.219828 | 0 | 0 | 0.119311 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084507 | 0.091896 | 0.096798 | 0 | 0 | 0.06985 | 0 | 0 | 0.083469 | 0.183922 | 0 | 0.09966 | 0.20093 | 0 | 0 | 0.114361 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181613 | 0 | 0 | 0.124027 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189065 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107146 | 0.149375 | 0.114953 | 0 | 0.135412 |
suicidewatch | s0da_bubbles | 2019/10/05 | Does anyone else feel like depression made them a completely different person? it feels like a part of me died and i dont remember who i was before. | 5.147241 | 6.286358 | 6.340862 | 75.427845 | 68.655172 | 11.317241 | 28.293103 | 11.208143 | 3.526641 | 119 | 4 | 22 | 4 | 2 | 40 | 26 | 29 | 0.226 | 0.619 | 0.155 | -0.5106 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 4 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 13 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16839 | 0.246753 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.204924 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.2525 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.207422 | 0 | 0.249938 | 0.251611 | 0 | 0 | 0.210747 | 0 | 0.282245 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.201178 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.243536 | 0.34409 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.23531 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.227874 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.26079 | 0 | 0 | 0.210279 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.272807 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | hunnybee220 | 2019/10/05 | Tips on getting through the suicidal thoughts and feelings? Looking for some methods people use to help get out of that depressed suicidal state. Are there any particular activities you find help relaxes you and takes the pain away? Even if it’s momentarily? Thanks. | 5.137333 | 8.738837 | 4.903889 | 73.2625 | 80.555556 | 8.333333 | 36.388889 | 8.841846 | 4.307889 | 218 | 13 | 33 | 6 | 6 | 67 | 40 | 45 | 0.256 | 0.572 | 0.172 | -0.8095 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 9 | 9 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 7 | 8 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 20 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167941 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.232027 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.212706 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163115 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12487 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.225717 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.258053 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.331064 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.207384 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.262783 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171211 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.540268 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185683 | 0 | 0 | 0.227368 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.196059 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.213294 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | BestnTheBurbs | 2019/10/05 | I feel like a failure ... I'm.a horrible dad a d i think I should just stop and give up . I just want to sleep forever what is the least painful way to leave this bull shit I've tried pills and laying in front of a train but I'm too much of a coward how long does hanging take to do the job just dont wanna suffer | 0.017702 | 1.819674 | 1.764431 | 99.96913 | 84.362319 | 5.102277 | 17.10352 | 6.182691 | -0.617031 | 242 | 5 | 61 | 2 | 7 | 79 | 53 | 69 | 0.192 | 0.688 | 0.12 | -0.6152 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 13 | 10 | 4 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 8 | 9 | 2 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 34 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.235614 | 0 | 0.315548 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136136 | 0.192345 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.25828 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.26718 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.285087 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131537 | 0 | 0 | 0.238269 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197923 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.286491 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.276371 | 0 | 0 | 0.269435 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.225097 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202435 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172518 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182797 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158805 | 0.21371 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | MARCUSFUCKINGMUMFORD | 2019/10/05 | Does anyone seem to subconsciously act out possible suicide attempts? I used to be very suicidal and I was obsessed with thinking about killing myself. I didn't have much going on in my life and we all know how our thoughts can spiral when we're sad and lonely... Things have gotten better and I rarely have suicidal ide... | 4.084741 | 6.657038 | 5.216949 | 76.472642 | 74.443787 | 7.775296 | 28.313979 | 8.660443 | 2.550281 | 726 | 30 | 122 | 15 | 16 | 239 | 103 | 169 | 0.205 | 0.736 | 0.059 | -0.9771 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 18 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 8 | 13 | 4 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 11 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 33 | 25 | 14 | 5 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 12 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 4 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 22 | 4 | 19 | 18 | 3 | 28 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 8 | 0 | 4 | 14 | 88 | 35 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.257434 | 0.133132 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08988 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078359 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113686 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131257 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144172 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112489 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113851 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116274 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073054 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126909 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142214 | 0 | 0.141288 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090794 | 0.188399 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094494 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144913 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.387663 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117021 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.433463 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102654 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.421815 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085398 | 0.16473 | 0 | 0.204097 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087272 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11102 | 0 | 0.106061 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11599 | 0 | 0 | 0.123911 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Bananasquishe | 2019/10/05 | Boyfriend records me at my lowest I have struggled with depression and severe suicidal thoughts for years. Did the counseling, the medication, lifestyle changes and nothing helps. Some days are much worse than others. I have attempted in the past. I have called the suicide hotline and been told there are more important... | 2.840043 | 5.296728 | 2.983043 | 91.486739 | 78.086957 | 5.913043 | 25.217391 | 7.07983 | 1.051696 | 941 | 35 | 186 | 11 | 23 | 286 | 140 | 230 | 0.152 | 0.794 | 0.054 | -0.9476 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 26 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 11 | 8 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 20 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 34 | 39 | 18 | 2 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 13 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 4 | 28 | 3 | 27 | 33 | 5 | 32 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 19 | 12 | 0 | 4 | 16 | 123 | 40 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.2102 | 0 | 0 | 0.085895 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125266 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118673 | 0 | 0.105464 | 0 | 0 | 0.107481 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.257954 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133619 | 0 | 0 | 0.136496 | 0.141668 | 0 | 0 | 0.277492 | 0.08146 | 0 | 0.108791 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110535 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106422 | 0 | 0.113519 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063866 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115445 | 0.107439 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197976 | 0 | 0.215355 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139145 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084663 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11227 | 0 | 0 | 0.138834 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089217 | 0.061709 | 0 | 0 | 0.111781 | 0 | 0.141309 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127244 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092853 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134332 | 0 | 0 | 0.121198 | 0.143805 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120577 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080918 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100447 | 0 | 0 | 0.100653 | 0 | 0 | 0.142695 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09724 | 0.124924 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100871 | 0.105601 | 0 | 0.132047 | 0 | 0.276326 | 0.143335 | 0 | 0 | 0.09497 | 0 | 0.110401 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083915 | 0 | 0.124099 | 0.100276 | 0.147305 | 0 | 0 | 0.120695 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100259 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128721 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08134 |
suicidewatch | Br872 | 2019/10/05 | Cancer diagnosis I don’t mean any disrespect to actual folks who suffer from this disease who want to live ( I know I sound disingenuous asf just posting this) but I would be happy as fuck to trade places with someone who is going to pass away from cancer.
I really just want to die. I’m homeless living in my car for ... | 6.038148 | 6.212569 | 6.584286 | 77.880932 | 66.372881 | 9.115738 | 31.263923 | 8.841846 | 2.465887 | 477 | 17 | 90 | 7 | 7 | 156 | 83 | 118 | 0.232 | 0.649 | 0.12 | -0.9589 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 6 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 11 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 22 | 4 | 2 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 10 | 2 | 21 | 17 | 0 | 12 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 62 | 19 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0.193419 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134786 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186219 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.205705 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183237 | 0.103553 | 0 | 0.225288 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.210992 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.219284 | 0 | 0.108928 | 0.161563 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.350036 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.215902 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158205 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.207081 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189825 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126975 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.335875 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193617 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.350718 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.281597 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | RedditorWhoLovesTech | 2019/10/05 | I think I can be happier if I suicide My life is on a downfall these days. I keep getting bad grades even though I study hard, and I keep getting distracted when trying to study hard. Even my mom turned her back now. I have no one to trust. My mom says bad thing about me when she talks to her phone.
My school life is ... | 2.044571 | 4.063122 | 2.841871 | 93.731948 | 78.568345 | 5.715772 | 22.922524 | 6.671995 | 0.48966 | 535 | 17 | 115 | 5 | 13 | 168 | 79 | 139 | 0.14 | 0.783 | 0.077 | -0.6713 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 10 | 7 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 17 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 13 | 25 | 9 | 2 | 3 | 5 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 28 | 3 | 12 | 20 | 3 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 81 | 32 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158035 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089423 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108212 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101114 | 0.219591 | 0.16032 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.232599 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084805 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173707 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206107 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.35339 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.233763 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185762 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146065 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.462027 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089107 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104573 | 0 | 0.133083 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150631 | 0 | 0 | 0.287675 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09887 | 0.211387 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15268 | 0.087362 | 0.084259 | 0.129196 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089279 | 0.143032 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093413 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | X__void__ | 2019/10/05 | I hear everybody’s stories about the ups and downs of life and don’t want to live through it at all. I feel like all of it’s boring and not worth while, everyone’s fucked up in their own way I don’t want to deal with it. No one knows anything about how life works you look at science and they don’t have correct answers.... | 4.554503 | 5.252965 | 5.381119 | 83.377374 | 69.728477 | 9.218808 | 27.682781 | 9.3871 | 2.177468 | 591 | 19 | 122 | 12 | 10 | 193 | 95 | 151 | 0.154 | 0.785 | 0.061 | -0.9134 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 7 | 10 | 2 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 9 | 4 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 25 | 27 | 9 | 2 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 7 | 8 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 9 | 12 | 2 | 21 | 23 | 5 | 16 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 1 | 10 | 10 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 76 | 21 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0.14011 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118151 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150537 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148021 | 0 | 0 | 0.14901 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137193 | 0.258074 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145193 | 0.205142 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132734 | 0 | 0 | 0.163195 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161821 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153701 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078906 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202824 | 0.140288 | 0 | 0.126781 | 0 | 0.241136 | 0.160625 | 0.156731 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144971 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194582 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099538 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136574 | 0.342533 | 0.143745 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147379 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157049 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095386 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.254055 | 0.227928 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155702 | 0.209051 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | shotter14 | 2019/10/05 | I found out the code to my parent’s safe with the gun and recently I’ve been thinking way too much about just loading it and putting it to my head. It seems so just tempting. Just having my own life in my hands and having something in my control for once. And just pulling the trigger and never having to think about any... | 1.649466 | 3.407426 | 2.868975 | 94.308294 | 78.775281 | 5.798315 | 22.922753 | 6.627428 | 0.430269 | 662 | 21 | 149 | 6 | 16 | 213 | 100 | 178 | 0.133 | 0.788 | 0.078 | -0.9326 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 18 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 20 | 9 | 2 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 14 | 7 | 5 | 2 | 1 | 44 | 26 | 17 | 1 | 3 | 12 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 15 | 0 | 3 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 20 | 4 | 22 | 23 | 5 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 7 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 107 | 28 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118025 | 0 | 0 | 0.096458 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116725 | 0.126271 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144619 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15909 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091477 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093686 | 0 | 0 | 0.271075 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143441 | 0.101333 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155524 | 0.109588 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140041 | 0.145572 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153215 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156929 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100188 | 0.069298 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.208543 | 0 | 0.109398 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151059 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1575 | 0 | 0 | 0.098336 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.427776 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140053 | 0 | 0 | 0.121134 | 0 | 0.1128 | 0.14201 | 0 | 0 | 0.129129 | 0.147974 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141946 | 0 | 0 | 0.109198 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162377 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.272663 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163028 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167326 | 0.225178 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | BigChungu69 | 2019/10/05 | I want to kill myself I can’t handle my brain anymore. I have these thoughts that won’t stop. I can’t keep living like this. I’m so tired. | -1.920968 | -0.088304 | 0.150581 | 105.025871 | 102.548387 | 2.48 | 12.651613 | 3.1291 | -1.84965 | 108 | 2 | 27 | 0 | 5 | 35 | 24 | 31 | 0.328 | 0.555 | 0.117 | -0.8334 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 8 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 15 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.345061 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.388413 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.309263 | 0.384941 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169985 | 0 | 0.307235 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.290891 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.276224 | 0 | 0.399903 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.205223 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | idpodi | 2019/10/05 | I committed social suicide once the bullying started. My mom made me obese, She acts like a chola, No one would let me study, my grades sucked, everyone tries to get me fired, I just stay in my moms living room. I have wasted 7 years doing nothing. I understand why people get peppered by bullets and ball bearings in pu... | 1.648333 | 4.104466 | 3.161667 | 88.425 | 82.888889 | 5.822222 | 22.888889 | 7.168622 | 1.008272 | 284 | 10 | 55 | 4 | 8 | 93 | 59 | 72 | 0.182 | 0.772 | 0.046 | -0.836 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 8 | 14 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 13 | 1 | 5 | 11 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 34 | 15 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202418 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.332026 | 0 | 0.120391 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.216617 | 0 | 0.103492 | 0 | 0.187055 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.200444 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.496199 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.203262 | 0 | 0 | 0.225598 | 0.143545 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14686 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.21594 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149939 | 0.225789 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.231714 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143823 | 0 | 0 | 0.220529 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191149 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150482 | 0 | 0 | 0.136415 |
suicidewatch | egamK7oCtR6nZFyZuHTP | 2019/10/05 | today i realized i truly have nothing to live for other than guilt im in partial rn and my case manager asked me to come up with a bucket list couple of days ago. i sort of had an existential crisis when i realized i have almost nothing to live for.
maybe the thought of how my family would be affected would deter me, ... | 2.512276 | 4.011296 | 4.980498 | 81.237093 | 75.627907 | 8.1701 | 27.401993 | 8.841846 | 2.243241 | 325 | 13 | 65 | 7 | 7 | 115 | 62 | 86 | 0.113 | 0.772 | 0.115 | 0.2756 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 16 | 12 | 5 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 11 | 2 | 14 | 6 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 44 | 13 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171734 | 0 | 0.193997 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181116 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166885 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.214364 | 0 | 0.124943 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182636 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192422 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.418533 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.342142 | 0.342898 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194632 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.371787 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145664 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153804 | 0 | 0 | 0.183638 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.275247 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | AccordingFinish | 2019/10/05 | Anybody else constantly feel like killing yourself, and only manage to keep going by delaying it until after you do something? Mainly movies and tv for me. I just keep telling myself I’ll definitely do it after I’ve finished X show or Y movie has come out.
Seeing a movie tomorrow I’ve been looking forward to for a whi... | 4.291435 | 5.843607 | 5.676646 | 77.815137 | 71.151899 | 7.291983 | 29.622363 | 7.793538 | 2.163935 | 321 | 13 | 55 | 4 | 6 | 108 | 59 | 79 | 0.084 | 0.778 | 0.138 | 0.5106 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 16 | 13 | 6 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 4 | 3 | 11 | 12 | 1 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 13 | 34 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.213014 | 0 | 0.267227 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206574 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125034 | 0.17666 | 0 | 0 | 0.226013 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140537 | 0.20741 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.245609 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.439596 | 0.273584 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120811 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.207657 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188071 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.25425 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197054 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190372 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.216137 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.268169 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | JaxIsStupid | 2019/10/05 | Hi I need help, nobody I know loves or cares for me. I feel like I am going insane. Everyday I feel worse and worse, and I take it all out on myself. I always find flaws in everything I do and I hate myself for them. I cut myself when sharp things are available. I am nobody's favourite person. My mum is neglectful and ... | -0.035 | 2.172313 | 2.288106 | 93.352159 | 88.69697 | 5.118182 | 17.340909 | 6.627428 | -0.087645 | 484 | 12 | 107 | 6 | 16 | 164 | 75 | 132 | 0.298 | 0.597 | 0.104 | -0.9774 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 19 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 11 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 26 | 28 | 13 | 2 | 5 | 6 | 1 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 32 | 4 | 8 | 28 | 1 | 11 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 4 | 0 | 5 | 4 | 75 | 36 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133313 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131845 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.326703 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166279 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143992 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.243031 | 0.114459 | 0 | 0 | 0.146435 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167413 | 0 | 0.091055 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143523 | 0.316361 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10739 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177256 | 0 | 0.088051 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078274 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144602 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.237597 | 0.123569 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.364815 | 0 | 0 | 0.108567 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111074 | 0.139895 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120463 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.212881 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.326549 | 0 | 0.175172 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | MDKMurderDeathKill | 2019/10/05 | I feel like I'm living because its expected of me, not because I want to. Ive felt like life is too much of a struggle to keep living for the past 4 or 5 years. Ive had suicidal thoughts since I was around 11 years old. They come and go, but every time they come it always seems to get worse. It was also around that ti... | 4.552777 | 5.194193 | 5.467515 | 82.961514 | 69.704225 | 8.527029 | 29.298793 | 8.63404 | 2.066716 | 1,662 | 60 | 340 | 26 | 28 | 546 | 210 | 426 | 0.147 | 0.72 | 0.133 | -0.829 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 41 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 10 | 18 | 21 | 2 | 2 | 19 | 0 | 31 | 9 | 2 | 3 | 7 | 82 | 74 | 32 | 5 | 8 | 20 | 0 | 7 | 6 | 1 | 3 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 16 | 20 | 0 | 5 | 13 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 11 | 8 | 0 | 2 | 18 | 9 | 44 | 13 | 58 | 49 | 13 | 63 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 9 | 22 | 0 | 15 | 38 | 220 | 60 | 16 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108915 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.049129 | 0.051118 | 0 | 0 | 0.083555 | 0 | 0 | 0.069403 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.218758 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074899 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108667 | 0.13414 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10584 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0981 | 0.067976 | 0 | 0.11886 | 0 | 0.052913 | 0.062354 | 0.063759 | 0.064186 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102641 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081153 | 0.055571 | 0.103522 | 0.058703 | 0.055213 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155315 | 0.131666 | 0.058986 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.047464 | 0 | 0.032097 | 0.058933 | 0.069829 | 0.051528 | 0.049134 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162978 | 0.065398 | 0.055033 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.041178 | 0.194726 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132719 | 0 | 0.121928 | 0.163816 | 0.067968 | 0 | 0.033763 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130178 | 0.180082 | 0.123146 | 0.21699 | 0 | 0.051589 | 0.068729 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082016 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061888 | 0.061911 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.045161 | 0 | 0.142145 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064465 | 0 | 0 | 0.093447 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058646 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069593 | 0 | 0.058438 | 0 | 0 | 0.373048 | 0 | 0.055927 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101638 | 0 | 0.061479 | 0 | 0 | 0.047295 | 0 | 0 | 0.13045 | 0 | 0 | 0.051362 | 0 | 0.064224 | 0 | 0.201597 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.049378 | 0.053696 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122442 | 0.078729 | 0 | 0.097544 | 0.179114 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072471 | 0.097527 | 0.098558 | 0 | 0 | 0.1139 | 0 | 0 | 0.070646 | 0 | 0 | 0.178899 | 0 | 0.062607 | 0.043641 | 0 | 0 | 0.197808 |
suicidewatch | Sam-El_of_Krypton_ | 2019/10/05 | I wish I hadn’t made a promise not to kill myself, but six years ago I did. Damn it | -1.5935 | -0.238001 | 1.29 | 103.625 | 87.5 | 4 | 15 | 3.1291 | -1.4975 | 63 | 1 | 18 | 0 | 2 | 22 | 18 | 20 | 0.174 | 0.539 | 0.287 | 0.0821 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 12 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.411421 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.513489 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.439169 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.533724 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.298883 |
suicidewatch | Satansays6662733 | 2019/10/05 | Plan to help people? I’ve posted on here a few times, and what would be great is if we tried to give every post 1 helpful comment, because even one can help someone. | 4.940294 | 4.767614 | 5.269412 | 87.562353 | 68.705882 | 6.8 | 28.764706 | 3.1291 | 0.896518 | 129 | 4 | 27 | 0 | 2 | 41 | 32 | 34 | 0 | 0.687 | 0.313 | 0.9062 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 16 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161038 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174484 | 0 | 0.222577 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.253419 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.291252 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.53121 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179011 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183145 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.50601 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.223833 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154042 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179356 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187661 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Azereiah | 2019/10/05 | Another day... Every so often, I wake up feeling okay. I wake up being properly afraid of dying. Feeling like I want to keep going, like I want to see what the future holds, what I can do with my life. I feel positivity, I feel... like things are going well. Like there's a way for things to improve. It's a nice feeling... | 2.07198 | 4.177136 | 3.652331 | 87.526454 | 78.868914 | 6.36052 | 24.890064 | 7.436933 | 1.243192 | 2,071 | 77 | 417 | 29 | 51 | 686 | 238 | 534 | 0.119 | 0.769 | 0.112 | -0.9223 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 107 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 31 | 37 | 9 | 4 | 22 | 2 | 51 | 14 | 4 | 4 | 4 | 80 | 98 | 21 | 8 | 17 | 21 | 0 | 6 | 4 | 0 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 30 | 14 | 1 | 2 | 12 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 20 | 20 | 2 | 4 | 15 | 7 | 51 | 17 | 63 | 66 | 14 | 41 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 11 | 16 | 8 | 13 | 18 | 289 | 81 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080137 | 0.085386 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105236 | 0.081135 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063673 | 0.06888 | 0 | 0 | 0.072697 | 0 | 0 | 0.188669 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068432 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078889 | 0.079486 | 0.081853 | 0.066652 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099801 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080303 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064637 | 0 | 0.137063 | 0.159899 | 0 | 0.204423 | 0 | 0.065192 | 0.073935 | 0 | 0 | 0.072943 | 0 | 0.23474 | 0.110554 | 0 | 0.084761 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.286129 | 0.121276 | 0 | 0.175897 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068423 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158819 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077614 | 0 | 0 | 0.178561 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068775 | 0.171209 | 0 | 0.170094 | 0 | 0 | 0.081929 | 0 | 0 | 0.109305 | 0.151207 | 0 | 0.068324 | 0.068475 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.051649 | 0 | 0.077734 | 0 | 0.085947 | 0 | 0 | 0.082083 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05688 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104863 | 0 | 0.082333 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160927 | 0.135122 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083424 | 0.074038 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.049569 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066078 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078308 | 0.061658 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064006 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175609 | 0.072925 | 0 | 0 | 0.062191 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154214 | 0.049579 | 0 | 0 | 0.045118 | 0 | 0.073343 | 0.073935 | 0 | 0.052533 | 0 | 0.075584 | 0 | 0 | 0.066827 | 0 | 0 | 0.319466 | 0.122834 | 0 | 0 | 0.139139 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074587 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164896 | 0 | 0 | 0.049827 |
suicidewatch | OwnZacKMistake4 | 2019/10/05 | Meaning to life What's the point of life if your going to have to suffer through the whole life, and at the end is the dead part, there's literally no point in life tbh, we have to suffer though our life with embarrassment and everything, I don't understand the meaning to life. | 6.747939 | 6.318561 | 6.578182 | 80.553939 | 65 | 10.242424 | 31.060606 | 9.725611 | 2.513424 | 222 | 7 | 46 | 4 | 3 | 70 | 36 | 55 | 0.263 | 0.737 | 0 | -0.9468 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 4 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 8 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 10 | 8 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 32 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154971 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157251 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099439 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.741515 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.381185 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189474 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.330804 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171906 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182149 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.195347 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | throwawayXXIII- | 2019/10/05 | Everything seems hopeless and all I do is hurt people I feel like all I ever do is hurt people I care about. I’ll say things and they always seem to come out wrong. Like I was talking with my roommate and suitemates earlier and I said something about how One of them was the other suite mate who got overshadowed by thei... | 1.092973 | 2.722328 | 2.806868 | 94.709041 | 79.990991 | 5.521081 | 19.208108 | 6.2581 | -0.203855 | 1,200 | 27 | 281 | 9 | 30 | 397 | 144 | 333 | 0.241 | 0.634 | 0.125 | -0.9954 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 1 | 28 | 28 | 4 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 27 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 73 | 64 | 32 | 3 | 11 | 21 | 1 | 4 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 18 | 22 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 20 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 8 | 53 | 8 | 38 | 50 | 5 | 14 | 0 | 9 | 1 | 0 | 28 | 7 | 0 | 10 | 10 | 198 | 71 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062152 | 0.129338 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077077 | 0.054343 | 0.079633 | 0.063957 | 0 | 0.072658 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129786 | 0.094755 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088891 | 0.158481 | 0 | 0 | 0.066949 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161322 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079534 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064925 | 0 | 0.068837 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070302 | 0 | 0 | 0.139699 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15719 | 0.111046 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121816 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06216 | 0 | 0.085617 | 0 | 0.068727 | 0 | 0 | 0.153464 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156282 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.499204 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085985 | 0 | 0.042713 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.18985 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08484 | 0.066075 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078796 | 0 | 0.08466 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052665 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086299 | 0 | 0 | 0.215524 | 0.203586 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.199117 | 0.073929 | 0.123612 | 0 | 0.078657 | 0.061933 | 0.141506 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059832 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.266912 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124936 | 0.067931 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.051634 | 0.0498 | 0.076359 | 0 | 0.045319 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.275047 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089374 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05521 | 0.084974 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | kkkuebikooo | 2019/10/05 | i can't see the point anymore i'll be ending my life next week. i still have 7 days to say goodbye to everyone and do good deeds even if i know i'll go to hell for what I will do. I'm just tired and I can't seem to find a purpose in my life. College is stressing me out and I don't have friends anymore since my former f... | 0.76319 | 2.395928 | 3.028261 | 92.721013 | 81.011494 | 6.18908 | 22.369253 | 7.168622 | 0.59876 | 619 | 20 | 145 | 8 | 16 | 212 | 95 | 174 | 0.142 | 0.794 | 0.064 | -0.9168 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 11 | 6 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 16 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 25 | 31 | 12 | 1 | 3 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 27 | 3 | 16 | 26 | 2 | 15 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 6 | 1 | 6 | 7 | 86 | 29 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097972 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.364494 | 0.085663 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158019 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127147 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108509 | 0 | 0 | 0.32367 | 0 | 0 | 0.234129 | 0 | 0 | 0.115493 | 0 | 0.123891 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111973 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189304 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139252 | 0.102757 | 0.097983 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132333 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067329 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133109 | 0 | 0.346133 | 0 | 0 | 0.10818 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081777 | 0 | 0.123079 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09006 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130292 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084934 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115813 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097426 | 0 | 0 | 0.097626 | 0.223059 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101343 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097838 | 0 | 0.140336 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0785 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.281617 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098271 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.236193 | 0 | 0 | 0.124416 | 0 | 0.087028 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Gayalt2 | 2019/10/05 | I can’t do this 16M, Gay, I just tried to come out as gay but I just can’t do it. I sent an instagram message to my friend but then I unsent it, idk she might have already seen it. It seems impossible, and I feel so lonely because I’m the only one that knows except internet strangers, I doubt if I’m even gay right bef... | -0.936867 | 1.036838 | 1.721699 | 97.502066 | 90.445783 | 4.765783 | 17.938554 | 6.2581 | -0.334951 | 288 | 8 | 71 | 3 | 10 | 99 | 54 | 83 | 0.118 | 0.808 | 0.074 | -0.5364 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 7 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 18 | 17 | 7 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 11 | 1 | 7 | 14 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 45 | 18 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.297396 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.267268 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164283 | 0 | 0.229322 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.464295 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136266 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.208213 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148108 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.285893 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182618 | 0.204964 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.230149 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.24534 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.365941 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158956 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | white-boy-ohio | 2019/10/05 | I just wish I could die a tragic death without me killing myself A lot has gone wrong I’ll just leave it at that | -0.495733 | 1.580992 | 0.876 | 103.624667 | 89.4 | 3.333333 | 16.333333 | 3.1291 | -1.321667 | 89 | 2 | 22 | 0 | 3 | 28 | 21 | 25 | 0.44 | 0.379 | 0.181 | -0.8353 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 4 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 15 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.278319 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.361778 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.38566 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.369104 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.296356 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.400858 | 0.336026 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.381125 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | cynta | 2019/10/05 | does anyone else ever felt better after writing a suicide note/planning? (Copied and pasted from r/depression)
I’ve had a long history of the crazies. I’ve had my ups and downs, planned suicides, not went through with it for some reason or another. But the other night I spent hours researching suicide methods (I don’t... | 2.324975 | 4.21495 | 3.69486 | 88.551673 | 77.217054 | 6.347422 | 23.232895 | 7.255503 | 0.860703 | 994 | 31 | 205 | 12 | 23 | 326 | 143 | 258 | 0.145 | 0.708 | 0.148 | -0.449 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 35 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 8 | 17 | 2 | 0 | 16 | 1 | 20 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 48 | 43 | 20 | 6 | 6 | 15 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 6 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 20 | 7 | 19 | 10 | 24 | 20 | 9 | 35 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 9 | 1 | 8 | 25 | 131 | 32 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0.093659 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100639 | 0 | 0 | 0.095182 | 0.134217 | 0.196678 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0738 | 0.080136 | 0.058506 | 0 | 0.081669 | 0 | 0.100721 | 0.254649 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123793 | 0 | 0.082664 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083989 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160351 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173632 | 0 | 0 | 0.086257 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145585 | 0 | 0.276456 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0805 | 0.153522 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094517 | 0 | 0 | 0.108345 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106183 | 0 | 0.105492 | 0.078233 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093778 | 0 | 0 | 0.084936 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104546 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076607 | 0 | 0.070553 | 0.071165 | 0 | 0 | 0.204143 | 0.180134 | 0.094036 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09162 | 0.066538 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098679 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158785 | 0 | 0 | 0.097835 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107437 | 0.067932 | 0 | 0.076647 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.524911 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077142 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11031 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056609 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177941 | 0 | 0.107154 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061805 |
suicidewatch | ladykrackerjack | 2019/10/05 | I'm going to kill myself tonight. I finally realized just how worthless I am. | 1.788 | 4.557609 | 4.641667 | 75.1425 | 87.666667 | 8.333333 | 34.166667 | 8.841846 | 4.237667 | 62 | 4 | 10 | 2 | 2 | 22 | 13 | 15 | 0.432 | 0.568 | 0 | -0.8225 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.66094 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.342898 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.667517 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | boringlife66 | 2019/10/05 | Life is shit What’s the point of trying to change my life when I don’t have the motivation of doing anything?
Being born autistic, mentally ill and intellectually disabled. Been neglected my parents as a child and never learned how to take care of myself, read, write, interact with others and do anything useful in so... | 7.04724 | 7.36306 | 7.567563 | 71.204521 | 64.234375 | 9.951667 | 33.863542 | 9.725611 | 3.267414 | 1,084 | 43 | 188 | 20 | 15 | 358 | 144 | 256 | 0.183 | 0.732 | 0.085 | -0.9837 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 21 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 8 | 10 | 4 | 0 | 13 | 0 | 22 | 10 | 3 | 5 | 2 | 42 | 34 | 27 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 8 | 20 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 9 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 2 | 24 | 4 | 34 | 23 | 3 | 22 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 10 | 8 | 2 | 6 | 13 | 133 | 32 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181924 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123395 | 0 | 0 | 0.112699 | 0 | 0.116932 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114719 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113117 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097902 | 0 | 0 | 0.146016 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104204 | 0 | 0.05589 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057751 | 0 | 0 | 0.092712 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117495 | 0 | 0 | 0.07409 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127544 | 0.118331 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.32907 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.390374 | 0 | 0 | 0.097605 | 0 | 0.092822 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.334183 | 0.117261 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170504 | 0 | 0.117556 | 0 | 0 | 0.106062 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.245474 | 0 | 0 | 0.076632 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104492 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110566 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.226927 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176548 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166219 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.300187 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095468 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099385 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160943 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | sad-and-alone99 | 2019/10/05 | In a bad place My gf left, said she couldn’t wait to leave. She’s apparently incredibly happy and said I made her miserable. I’m in and out of the hospital with sleeping disorders, strapped to an oxygen machine or doing other tests. Sick and tired. I don’t know what I care about anymore. Everything hurts. Physically an... | 2.237083 | 4.839447 | 4.145 | 81.375 | 81.638889 | 8.044444 | 25.666667 | 8.841846 | 2.398133 | 293 | 12 | 56 | 8 | 8 | 99 | 55 | 72 | 0.225 | 0.681 | 0.094 | -0.8405 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 13 | 13 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 9 | 2 | 8 | 9 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 35 | 11 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.224154 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188719 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.230445 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.259041 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.203134 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.240605 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.241962 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.248432 | 0 | 0 | 0.239325 | 0.245574 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.213868 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.227778 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.236145 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.429998 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.226186 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.25978 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | toomuchformymain | 2019/10/05 | I'm suicidal but I don't think I'll ever do it I get really scared. When I think about it. Sometimes it seems the opposite. Like the one thing I need. And the world is scary. But right now it's scaring me. But living is scaring me too. Oh god. | -2.161698 | -0.63742 | 0.726057 | 99.297009 | 110.320755 | 4.384151 | 14.733962 | 6.2581 | -0.446387 | 187 | 5 | 45 | 3 | 10 | 64 | 36 | 53 | 0.303 | 0.604 | 0.094 | -0.9342 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 10 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 1 | 10 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 28 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.211068 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12191 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113998 | 0 | 0.206042 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173018 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158116 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149483 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19927 | 0 | 0 | 0.700838 | 0 | 0 | 0.212423 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.230778 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.255235 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15502 | 0.299028 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | FlippingBrilliant | 2019/10/05 | I'm scared and tired just like everyone else here Just the title. I feel such a lack of connection with other people and I don't what to do and I just feel selfish because of it | -0.153421 | 2.123475 | 1.968737 | 94.484158 | 91.368421 | 5.145263 | 18.126316 | 6.742158 | 0.111773 | 141 | 4 | 31 | 2 | 5 | 47 | 28 | 38 | 0.275 | 0.663 | 0.061 | -0.8271 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 4 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 23 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.247878 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.339688 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.388553 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.41121 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198659 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.281907 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.407108 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.467362 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Stephen6622 | 2019/10/05 | Done just had major argument with the family... now essentially homeless.... again.. dealer had a go at me to tried to fight me coz he was out of product and feining himself, so now I can't even get high to deal it, No drugs, no money, no fucking hope. so anyway currently walking up to this big bridge I know will do th... | 2.938417 | 4.07859 | 4.556667 | 86.141667 | 73.916667 | 7 | 24.166667 | 7.38713 | 1.004167 | 451 | 13 | 94 | 5 | 9 | 152 | 90 | 120 | 0.083 | 0.784 | 0.133 | 0.8783 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 24 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 7 | 4 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 13 | 6 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 16 | 23 | 5 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 8 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 9 | 2 | 15 | 16 | 2 | 18 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 7 | 8 | 3 | 1 | 7 | 66 | 14 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165284 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181367 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180028 | 0.412356 | 0 | 0.204013 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116194 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165843 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.487909 | 0.091911 | 0.168759 | 0.09998 | 0.147554 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.18587 | 0 | 0.174729 | 0.173247 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174574 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096682 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124258 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176736 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135681 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133796 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168333 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1127 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140186 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119439 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151939 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128073 | 0 | 0 | 0.124969 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Welpwhatcanyoudo28 | 2019/10/05 | I’ve pushed everyone that cared for me away. I’m scared of being alone dying alone and living along. I pushed all the things that made me feel less lonely Because I was scared of being lonely I don’t know what to do at this point. It feels like the end. Like there’s no more to life. I need help and I’ve been asking for... | 0.338452 | 2.378589 | 1.535714 | 100.675952 | 84.833333 | 4.209524 | 11.714286 | 5.033349 | -1.617086 | 305 | 2 | 73 | 1 | 9 | 96 | 56 | 84 | 0.14 | 0.727 | 0.133 | 0.1263 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 8 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 11 | 17 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 8 | 4 | 12 | 12 | 3 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 45 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.387246 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174772 | 0 | 0.175645 | 0 | 0 | 0.113962 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.381214 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194024 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165581 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178638 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189054 | 0.133557 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.250616 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102742 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132048 | 0.182668 | 0 | 0.16508 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176896 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13862 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.212843 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129607 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176727 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.374337 | 0 | 0 | 0.170191 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124201 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Yellowbee1018 | 2019/10/05 | I'm fucking useless I have to retake 3 modules again in my college and i'm in diploma course. I was so exhausted everyday and I had suicidal thoughts so i almost took 8 pills two times already i know that it cant kill myself but i wanted to feel pain cause i hated myself so much at that day. I never went to a therapy t... | 0.387925 | 2.715703 | 3.127653 | 87.184609 | 88.081633 | 6.12381 | 24.493197 | 7.492282 | 1.520977 | 369 | 16 | 74 | 7 | 12 | 129 | 65 | 98 | 0.186 | 0.789 | 0.026 | -0.9413 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 7 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 16 | 19 | 6 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 1 | 14 | 0 | 9 | 14 | 2 | 12 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 6 | 46 | 19 | 1 | 0.182681 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.365857 | 0 | 0.403186 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187664 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117814 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.214101 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092369 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168886 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.18036 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197327 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202109 | 0 | 0.200793 | 0.148909 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198993 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134292 | 0 | 0.140895 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194385 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.199823 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137353 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.208912 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145028 | 0.106523 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202965 | 0 | 0 | 0.178453 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10775 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169347 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Revisi0n | 2019/10/05 | My brother wants to end it all While on vacation right now, my parents brought to my attention that my brother was yet again suicidal. He told someone at school and they contacted my parents to let them know. Previously he had severe mood swings and empty-threats like these years ago but they seemed to pass until recen... | 2.799732 | 4.814385 | 3.844071 | 87.450929 | 76.232143 | 7.694286 | 25.485714 | 8.548687 | 1.748533 | 443 | 16 | 91 | 9 | 10 | 143 | 83 | 112 | 0.081 | 0.805 | 0.114 | 0.6137 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 7 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 25 | 18 | 11 | 1 | 3 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 17 | 2 | 13 | 10 | 4 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 20 | 4 | 0 | 4 | 10 | 61 | 21 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151449 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17551 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151323 | 0 | 0 | 0.112845 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178524 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093895 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.349412 | 0 | 0.083469 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154199 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125595 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.569127 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109451 | 0 | 0.168694 | 0 | 0 | 0.145905 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17291 | 0 | 0.155536 | 0 | 0.193012 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144761 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186883 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137323 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163255 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.205512 | 0 | 0 | 0.140969 | 0.100772 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.196469 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110022 |
suicidewatch | randomthrowawaylol69 | 2019/10/05 | Im just done man I'm 18 and I haven't had a friend in 3 and a half years. I lost my parents. I can't get a job or show up to school, I can't do anything. I don't even like going on social media, everything is either too happy or a circle jerk of misery. I can't relate to anyone. What am I supposed to do? Go to therapy ... | -0.102821 | 1.918368 | 2.342222 | 94.3 | 86.606838 | 4.454701 | 20.965812 | 5.634305 | -0.017978 | 836 | 28 | 187 | 5 | 26 | 286 | 135 | 234 | 0.243 | 0.681 | 0.076 | -0.9924 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 27 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 14 | 16 | 4 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 24 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 21 | 45 | 16 | 3 | 3 | 7 | 6 | 3 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 9 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 11 | 11 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 5 | 35 | 5 | 17 | 38 | 3 | 20 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 2 | 22 | 8 | 2 | 3 | 9 | 123 | 44 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127035 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08471 | 0 | 0.099695 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078131 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125733 | 0 | 0 | 0.124001 | 0 | 0.123977 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101204 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.240052 | 0 | 0.102073 | 0 | 0.10888 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183769 | 0.086549 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187198 | 0.224 | 0.12659 | 0 | 0.206554 | 0 | 0.096894 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128965 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.24361 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.261722 | 0 | 0.120221 | 0.107682 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131628 | 0 | 0 | 0.118374 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132248 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080868 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122325 | 0.283775 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08983 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082093 | 0.092139 | 0 | 0 | 0.134521 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.232054 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122609 | 0.193079 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123496 | 0.205297 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097375 | 0.105889 | 0 | 0.138544 | 0 | 0.080486 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070643 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082252 | 0 | 0.118344 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071457 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109318 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088198 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078016 |
suicidewatch | waynebradysmegma | 2019/10/05 | I'm done. Fuck. I tried. I really did. Detox and rehab. I'm si fucked. Only guy I ever really loved, I ghosted him, only because I know what I am. Almost 4 years constantly drinking. I'm a pos. Now. Why should I care? My mother? She's got a good person in her life. I always worried, because my asshole druggie father ki... | -0.517955 | 1.492752 | 2.109545 | 89.734318 | 104.984848 | 4.321212 | 17.621212 | 6.214336 | 0.21513 | 509 | 16 | 98 | 7 | 24 | 174 | 97 | 132 | 0.288 | 0.592 | 0.12 | -0.9788 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 30 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 12 | 5 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 9 | 12 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 14 | 23 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 25 | 6 | 10 | 15 | 3 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 15 | 3 | 4 | 1 | 7 | 60 | 29 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14236 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118294 | 0 | 0 | 0.096678 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173327 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.289898 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153632 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145486 | 0 | 0.13927 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0939 | 0.128598 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071884 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129938 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109838 | 0.394293 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119243 | 0.113704 | 0 | 0 | 0.140768 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.314573 | 0 | 0.078131 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100417 | 0 | 0 | 0.125536 | 0 | 0 | 0.159049 | 0 | 0 | 0.128311 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113476 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.216249 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124135 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.273228 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1634 | 0 | 0.135847 | 0 | 0.096522 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128284 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.288755 | 0.14488 | 0.100991 | 0 | 0 | 0.091551 |
suicidewatch | ChubbyNads | 2019/10/05 | Mom just passed away don’t know what to do I’ve been sucidal for a long time. Never acted on it because I didn’t want to hurt my mother. She just passed away today and I don’t know what to do. There’s no one like her in my life and no one in my life. I just want to die. | -1.624665 | -0.01927 | 1.066339 | 103.701875 | 89.46875 | 4.282143 | 12.267857 | 5.288315 | -1.602096 | 207 | 2 | 58 | 1 | 7 | 71 | 39 | 64 | 0.181 | 0.741 | 0.079 | -0.8225 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 10 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 8 | 1 | 10 | 8 | 0 | 12 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 39 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.458657 | 0 | 0 | 0.148794 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.253324 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.261301 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.268288 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.344813 | 0.119249 | 0 | 0 | 0.21601 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.285872 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188255 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.3308 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142329 | 0 | 0.231366 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.287938 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | myfapaccount_istaken | 2019/10/05 | Let's chat I was going to post something, about Meh. Then I saw some of the posts here. I wasnt persay in that .mindset just needed to chat. So if anyone wants to chat respond. Let's help each other. | -0.547857 | 1.671892 | 1.187619 | 99.015714 | 94.952381 | 2.8 | 14.142857 | 3.1291 | -1.425314 | 155 | 3 | 34 | 0 | 6 | 50 | 33 | 42 | 0.034 | 0.895 | 0.071 | 0.34 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 8 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 6 | 3 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 23 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.214734 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174534 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.205845 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.628068 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.227713 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.58824 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.236423 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181137 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Mate-Trix | 2019/10/05 | Life's been tearing me apart... It's scaring my psych how I feel and how much I want to just end it.
Thing aren't going right and I hate it. I just want to take these pills and end it.
Why cNt I just he brave enough to do it? | -2.317637 | -0.561117 | -0.212088 | 109.814231 | 96.692308 | 2.971429 | 11.274725 | 3.1291 | -2.215443 | 170 | 2 | 49 | 0 | 7 | 55 | 34 | 52 | 0.128 | 0.756 | 0.116 | -0.3818 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 11 | 9 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 7 | 1 | 3 | 8 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 30 | 14 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.51694 | 0.301533 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147555 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165851 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.288117 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206125 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.214525 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.249217 | 0 | 0 | 0.292168 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.219416 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193875 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.344252 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.263327 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | NRG1O | 2019/10/05 | I'll be going now. This will be my first post on this subreddit and hopefully the last.
I've been thinking about this for a long time and I've decided that I'm too tired of this nonsense. Life's great and all, but there's no point anymore for me. At this point I'm just wandering. I don't have any juice left in me.
L... | 2.734847 | 3.461288 | 4.191024 | 90.148443 | 73.934383 | 7.639195 | 23.822397 | 7.921354 | 0.928105 | 1,384 | 37 | 324 | 19 | 27 | 461 | 183 | 381 | 0.141 | 0.715 | 0.144 | -0.1272 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 36 | 2 | 9 | 1 | 7 | 13 | 24 | 2 | 0 | 14 | 0 | 28 | 9 | 1 | 6 | 11 | 73 | 59 | 28 | 1 | 6 | 12 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 29 | 19 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 14 | 8 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 5 | 34 | 16 | 46 | 45 | 17 | 31 | 2 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 20 | 18 | 2 | 12 | 10 | 207 | 63 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0.082693 | 0 | 0 | 0.082805 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11525 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168076 | 0.118502 | 0.086825 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.051656 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074944 | 0.092512 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.345586 | 0.08705 | 0 | 0.072995 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072985 | 0 | 0.087945 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074155 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141576 | 0.095319 | 0.075053 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080971 | 0 | 0 | 0.079884 | 0 | 0.042846 | 0 | 0 | 0.185654 | 0.077449 | 0.072079 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081289 | 0.096318 | 0.071075 | 0.067773 | 0.093424 | 0 | 0.083904 | 0 | 0.180411 | 0.075909 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168329 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.04657 | 0.138146 | 0 | 0.089726 | 0.092069 | 0 | 0.418973 | 0.041399 | 0 | 0.224477 | 0.074991 | 0.071159 | 0.094801 | 0 | 0.072042 | 0 | 0 | 0.169691 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085562 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081309 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057421 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117494 | 0 | 0 | 0.093017 | 0.240316 | 0 | 0.081156 | 0 | 0.091362 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054286 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080606 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065236 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079865 | 0 | 0.063713 | 0.06811 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112593 | 0.054297 | 0 | 0 | 0.049412 | 0.097394 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172596 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10193 | 0 | 0 | 0.069918 | 0.099962 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076463 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060196 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | wraxur | 2019/10/05 | Really thinking about doing it right now. I just reached my peak. Can't handle it anymore. The more I think about it, the clearler it gets. Can't keep pretending everything is fine anymore. I just can't. | 1.263846 | 3.920538 | 2.375769 | 89.606731 | 93.871795 | 5.676923 | 24.448718 | 7.168622 | 1.512826 | 161 | 7 | 30 | 3 | 6 | 51 | 26 | 39 | 0.038 | 0.87 | 0.093 | 0.2273 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 2 | 9 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 21 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.676872 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.306701 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178293 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.303326 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.218619 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.291432 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.437329 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | whadammagunnado | 2019/10/05 | Dream job is slipping away So, I’ve been depressed and had suicidal thoughts since I was probably 14 but it was always sort of in the back ground. I never really had a purpose or known what I wanted from life after high school, never had a girl friend or been in a real relationship w/e you know the vibes. Anyways fast ... | 4.6499 | 5.799022 | 5.628542 | 80.040069 | 69.820313 | 8.813889 | 27.894097 | 9.150863 | 2.258776 | 1,031 | 35 | 198 | 20 | 18 | 340 | 148 | 256 | 0.158 | 0.76 | 0.082 | -0.9725 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 17 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 11 | 8 | 1 | 1 | 15 | 0 | 15 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 51 | 34 | 20 | 2 | 5 | 9 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 16 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 7 | 3 | 5 | 7 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 2 | 21 | 4 | 33 | 22 | 9 | 41 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 16 | 0 | 7 | 22 | 132 | 29 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186723 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085835 | 0 | 0 | 0.078455 | 0 | 0.092333 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.210836 | 0.086277 | 0 | 0 | 0.123919 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096653 | 0 | 0.121251 | 0 | 0.089585 | 0.12415 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09664 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.23187 | 0 | 0 | 0.101494 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122912 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086687 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063767 | 0.09411 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100511 | 0.110777 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118548 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.222687 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061664 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158504 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190781 | 0 | 0 | 0.224688 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113293 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082482 | 0 | 0.259612 | 0.108366 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117738 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107459 | 0 | 0.120973 | 0 | 0 | 0.112795 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127711 | 0.215639 | 0 | 0 | 0.120464 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113555 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092815 | 0.12612 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089605 | 0 | 0 | 0.117298 | 0 | 0.245463 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084362 | 0.090184 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071895 | 0 | 0.267229 | 0.130852 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19854 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144509 |
suicidewatch | Just-dude2 | 2019/10/05 | I just want some help Writing this text is the hardest thing ever so i want to end it all but i know whats the safest way to do it ???!!+ | -3.216875 | -1.681791 | -0.18775 | 107.80775 | 104 | 2.56 | 12.65 | 3.1291 | -1.957733 | 102 | 2 | 29 | 0 | 5 | 35 | 26 | 32 | 0 | 0.731 | 0.269 | 0.7798 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 20 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.403553 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.412143 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.305399 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.250402 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.3027 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.537485 | 0.361658 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | DefectedKnees | 2019/10/05 | I just want to get away I’m in my second year at college right now and I’m absolutely miserable. I’ve been told that this is normal, but I don’t think it’s normal to want to kill yourself every morning commute to class. I grew up in an extremely strict family so I had to secretly save up money just in case I wanted to ... | 3.856987 | 4.615053 | 5.443665 | 82.082933 | 71.350427 | 8.414103 | 27.445513 | 8.660443 | 1.902223 | 893 | 30 | 184 | 15 | 16 | 304 | 137 | 234 | 0.175 | 0.735 | 0.09 | -0.9823 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 19 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 11 | 7 | 3 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 12 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 31 | 32 | 18 | 4 | 8 | 9 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 2 | 36 | 3 | 36 | 19 | 3 | 38 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 21 | 0 | 3 | 12 | 123 | 42 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133627 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.23946 | 0 | 0 | 0.077683 | 0 | 0.108438 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133614 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131675 | 0 | 0.08417 | 0 | 0.21474 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120135 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.266319 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101922 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12646 | 0 | 0.422965 | 0 | 0 | 0.103877 | 0 | 0.134936 | 0 | 0 | 0.090011 | 0 | 0 | 0.112528 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135189 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.249719 | 0.122278 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.283004 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135543 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108829 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105416 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090199 | 0 | 0.10177 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139394 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095816 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081655 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12177 | 0.141585 | 0.259561 | 0.138613 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.225494 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090526 | 0 | 0 | 0.164129 |
suicidewatch | jumpofcheese | 2019/10/05 | I think tonight might be the night. I'm tired. I'm lonely, I'm stressed and depressed, and I really don't have anyone. I can't keep this shit up. I just want everything to be over. | -0.622308 | 1.513112 | 1.369949 | 99.133385 | 91.564103 | 5.171282 | 18.05641 | 6.742158 | -0.099045 | 140 | 4 | 34 | 2 | 5 | 46 | 28 | 39 | 0.378 | 0.59 | 0.032 | -0.9331 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 12 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 3 | 9 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 18 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.22462 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.276685 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.288711 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.285534 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.340787 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.301464 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.205796 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.32975 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.367981 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.205839 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.36922 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189477 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | UnmarketableInkling | 2019/10/05 | I Want do die for a girl She left me 1 week ago, and now she’s involved with one of my best friends.
But i still love her.
She is part of my group of friends,
but i can not see her anymore because it will make it worse.
So i lose her and all my friends.
I love her more than myself and It’s painful, very painful, i n... | 0.69945 | 2.306991 | 1.976596 | 100.305445 | 81.110092 | 5.093945 | 23.744037 | 5.683918 | 0.058397 | 386 | 14 | 97 | 2 | 10 | 123 | 71 | 109 | 0.281 | 0.543 | 0.176 | -0.9673 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 14 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 7 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 19 | 16 | 9 | 3 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 8 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 21 | 6 | 8 | 14 | 4 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 15 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 65 | 27 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134457 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150428 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092464 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159181 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157422 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12902 | 0 | 0 | 0.351567 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163842 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167813 | 0 | 0.08336 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164803 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169693 | 0 | 0 | 0.273798 | 0 | 0.101249 | 0 | 0.152385 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116986 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102784 | 0.115361 | 0.4842 | 0 | 0 | 0.164257 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145139 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15186 | 0 | 0.120871 | 0 | 0 | 0.171357 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121133 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165915 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097192 | 0 | 0.120418 | 0.088447 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102982 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125153 | 0.089466 | 0 | 0.12167 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154577 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | cabbagebrain2765 | 2019/10/05 | Done With Life My self esteem is at it’s lowest, I hate myself so much, and wish I was dead. | -2.23 | -0.428055 | 0.625714 | 103.044286 | 98.52381 | 2.8 | 7 | 3.1291 | -2.507457 | 70 | 0 | 18 | 0 | 3 | 24 | 20 | 21 | 0.385 | 0.508 | 0.108 | -0.8242 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.437473 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.42206 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.30195 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.314256 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.445967 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.491595 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | scoutmorgan | 2019/10/05 | Close to the straw that breaks the camels back. I feel like I am one bad day away from losing it and I'm scared of what could happen if I do. Any advice on how to avoid this? | -0.371923 | 1.367168 | 0.920192 | 105.831058 | 85.410256 | 3.9 | 9.75 | 3.1291 | -2.263262 | 134 | 0 | 36 | 0 | 4 | 42 | 34 | 39 | 0.256 | 0.686 | 0.057 | -0.8271 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 6 | 5 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 23 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.323195 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.224915 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.310741 | 0.254319 | 0.276154 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.264069 | 0 | 0 | 0.2133 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167232 | 0.236281 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.292472 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161583 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.370014 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.224118 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.331129 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
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