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suicidewatch | tyheru | 2019/07/10 | I am about ready to give up I’ve been struggling with schizophrenia/bipolar disorder for about 12 years now. Before that I had bacterial meningitis as a kid. I am tired. I’m about ready to give up.
I am thinking about euthanasia. I really want to die. Life just isn’t enjoyable for me.
I live in the Netherlands, so eu... | 1.245264 | 3.737549 | 2.880619 | 89.400994 | 85.435644 | 6.931023 | 25.24835 | 8.076483 | 1.784742 | 396 | 17 | 82 | 9 | 12 | 130 | 66 | 101 | 0.147 | 0.738 | 0.115 | -0.6565 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 9 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 10 | 17 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 11 | 2 | 22 | 14 | 2 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 57 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193362 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.235836 | 0 | 0.260433 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150088 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.435972 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160504 | 0 | 0 | 0.200654 | 0 | 0.381643 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.215017 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.229001 | 0 | 0.229444 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145574 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.237557 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182644 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145604 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.261175 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154279 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13403 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146333 |
suicidewatch | kaitlouise | 2019/07/10 | I have no hope? I feel so alone. I have borderline personality disorder which obviously makes my moods terribly out of balance.
I’ve tried talking to psychologists and doctors about how I’m feeling, but because of the BPD they just see that I got out of bed that day, or that I’m not manically crying, or that any suici... | 4.671732 | 5.86414 | 6.056354 | 76.831515 | 69.808081 | 8.889466 | 30.304473 | 9.236283 | 2.694231 | 1,200 | 48 | 223 | 24 | 21 | 406 | 170 | 297 | 0.188 | 0.667 | 0.145 | -0.9682 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 31 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 17 | 16 | 3 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 26 | 4 | 1 | 6 | 6 | 58 | 52 | 24 | 3 | 6 | 15 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 19 | 14 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 7 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 5 | 34 | 8 | 32 | 38 | 4 | 28 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 14 | 9 | 0 | 9 | 16 | 160 | 53 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095229 | 0 | 0 | 0.111264 | 0 | 0 | 0.08939 | 0 | 0 | 0.073055 | 0.225297 | 0 | 0 | 0.106541 | 0.150234 | 0.110074 | 0 | 0.095635 | 0 | 0 | 0.100933 | 0 | 0 | 0.130975 | 0 | 0 | 0.121036 | 0 | 0.095012 | 0 | 0 | 0.135303 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118006 | 0.138566 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111494 | 0.11224 | 0.246246 | 0.109958 | 0.094012 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089743 | 0 | 0.09515 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194351 | 0.090514 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108639 | 0 | 0 | 0.117683 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.235581 | 0 | 0 | 0.112254 | 0 | 0.061054 | 0 | 0.171842 | 0 | 0.23669 | 0 | 0.094999 | 0.11436 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12108 | 0 | 0.144015 | 0 | 0 | 0.106701 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118854 | 0 | 0 | 0.087569 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07588 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095071 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07171 | 0 | 0.107927 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108263 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082856 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072797 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074478 | 0.187606 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068822 | 0.110455 | 0.106073 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085607 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107507 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11751 | 0.121909 | 0 | 0 | 0.080773 | 0.086347 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071371 | 0.068836 | 0 | 0.085287 | 0 | 0 | 0.10183 | 0 | 0 | 0.145874 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126729 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076314 | 0.117457 | 0 | 0.207542 |
suicidewatch | notlivingforever | 2019/07/10 | My mind is made up I made a noose from some spare material and I put it on the door handle and sat on the floor and put my face through the hole and just sat there for a while. I am getting closer | 0.340909 | 1.821656 | 2.109091 | 99.533636 | 81.727273 | 5.309091 | 17.818182 | 5.985473 | -0.684436 | 152 | 3 | 40 | 1 | 4 | 50 | 31 | 44 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 9 | 7 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 6 | 3 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 27 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17497 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.633775 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.33815 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.673327 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | throwaway20843y51498 | 2019/07/10 | need advice i wrote a huge post in detail about exactly why i wanted to die but ill make it shorter bc i actually need people to read, comment, just tell me what to do bc i dont know anymore..
\-im transgender (female to male), i tried really hard to accept myself as my gender but i dont think i can be happy unless i ... | 3.098304 | 4.45071 | 4.102973 | 88.715907 | 73.834559 | 7.092717 | 26.739146 | 7.623865 | 1.340712 | 2,085 | 75 | 443 | 26 | 42 | 675 | 228 | 544 | 0.229 | 0.655 | 0.116 | -0.9979 | 8 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 56 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 8 | 26 | 33 | 4 | 2 | 17 | 0 | 49 | 13 | 7 | 10 | 5 | 96 | 93 | 37 | 4 | 20 | 25 | 6 | 6 | 6 | 2 | 8 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 40 | 15 | 2 | 2 | 16 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 15 | 17 | 0 | 2 | 24 | 10 | 72 | 16 | 50 | 55 | 8 | 42 | 0 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 20 | 17 | 3 | 13 | 23 | 295 | 112 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0.05612 | 0 | 0 | 0.056197 | 0 | 0 | 0.057587 | 0 | 0.063462 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171099 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132662 | 0.048017 | 0.10517 | 0 | 0.146807 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063879 | 0 | 0 | 0.058723 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060836 | 0 | 0 | 0.062146 | 0.064501 | 0.045916 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099064 | 0 | 0.11937 | 0.120169 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117703 | 0.134799 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113952 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.051685 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116312 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088862 | 0 | 0.030046 | 0 | 0.065367 | 0.096471 | 0.137985 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101709 | 0.122438 | 0.051516 | 0.056778 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057119 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.434834 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126421 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08124 | 0.168575 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144878 | 0 | 0.125555 | 0 | 0 | 0.108832 | 0.15355 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057955 | 0.122015 | 0 | 0 | 0.045903 | 0 | 0 | 0.085284 | 0.088708 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.225385 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061245 | 0.077939 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.319283 | 0 | 0 | 0.039869 | 0 | 0.060084 | 0 | 0.108728 | 0 | 0.055077 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128846 | 0 | 0.057524 | 0 | 0.073683 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058202 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177095 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058623 | 0 | 0.088546 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.045926 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12581 | 0 | 0.054201 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.050265 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076412 | 0.147397 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054952 | 0 | 0.039045 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099338 | 0 | 0 | 0.10176 | 0 | 0 | 0.07003 | 0 | 0 | 0.051893 | 0 | 0.066132 | 0 | 0 | 0.041867 | 0 | 0 | 0.122557 | 0 | 0 | 0.037034 |
suicidewatch | anotheranonloser | 2019/07/10 | I’m trying to fight the idea of disappearing and finally ending things. Go away somewhere so no one I love finds me after I’ve done it. On my throwaway because my roommate knows my regular account.
I’ve been battling strong depression for 10, almost 11 years now. About 4 years ago, I got in my car to go out and end i... | 3.843123 | 4.668396 | 4.777163 | 86.601667 | 71.431655 | 7.690947 | 27.716577 | 7.865859 | 1.53265 | 2,661 | 92 | 563 | 33 | 48 | 867 | 286 | 695 | 0.174 | 0.716 | 0.11 | -0.9933 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 83 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 6 | 28 | 34 | 8 | 3 | 33 | 1 | 48 | 15 | 3 | 5 | 5 | 103 | 105 | 37 | 1 | 13 | 15 | 1 | 5 | 3 | 1 | 7 | 7 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 40 | 36 | 2 | 5 | 20 | 3 | 2 | 17 | 15 | 20 | 0 | 4 | 31 | 11 | 86 | 14 | 98 | 56 | 11 | 100 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 3 | 26 | 38 | 2 | 13 | 46 | 377 | 126 | 3 | 0.054072 | 0 | 0.052766 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095863 | 0 | 0.108291 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089984 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.044497 | 0.096271 | 0 | 0 | 0.152407 | 0.083156 | 0 | 0.032962 | 0.179155 | 0.046011 | 0 | 0.056745 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114402 | 0.046578 | 0.056693 | 0 | 0 | 0.043172 | 0 | 0 | 0.139488 | 0 | 0.046572 | 0 | 0 | 0.056494 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110669 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.239459 | 0 | 0 | 0.035714 | 0 | 0.136674 | 0.051668 | 0.048596 | 0 | 0.050974 | 0.060846 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.296166 | 0.148262 | 0 | 0 | 0.059287 | 0.041776 | 0.049989 | 0.141252 | 0 | 0.153652 | 0 | 0.172985 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057561 | 0.193752 | 0 | 0.055493 | 0.057476 | 0.060943 | 0 | 0.036243 | 0 | 0.054239 | 0.161117 | 0 | 0.062392 | 0.057885 | 0.122081 | 0 | 0 | 0.053658 | 0 | 0.059823 | 0 | 0.178299 | 0.132228 | 0 | 0.114509 | 0 | 0 | 0.076385 | 0.079251 | 0 | 0.047747 | 0.047852 | 0.045407 | 0 | 0 | 0.09194 | 0.097604 | 0.051164 | 0.072187 | 0.109641 | 0.054323 | 0 | 0 | 0.054472 | 0.108984 | 0 | 0.054597 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.041704 | 0 | 0 | 0.050743 | 0 | 0.051884 | 0 | 0 | 0.057585 | 0.146562 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187434 | 0.047214 | 0.112987 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05174 | 0 | 0.054357 | 0 | 0.057512 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.046177 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086177 | 0 | 0.056409 | 0 | 0.055504 | 0 | 0.060779 | 0 | 0 | 0.09163 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.038272 | 0 | 0 | 0.180826 | 0 | 0.056528 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081311 | 0.043461 | 0.047261 | 0 | 0 | 0.062782 | 0.071846 | 0.069294 | 0.053125 | 0.214636 | 0.06306 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120152 | 0.146845 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.044615 | 0.063786 | 0.04292 | 0.043373 | 0 | 0 | 0.050125 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07873 | 0 | 0 | 0.076822 | 0 | 0 | 0.069641 |
suicidewatch | 2134098sdflk2 | 2019/07/10 | Considering call it done due to medical/work issues. I've got IBS, which is never fun to discuss, but it's always caused me issues with work. Sadly I'm in an easily replaceable field, which adds to stress, which adds IBS symptoms, which results in me calling in.
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Working in a call center involves crap li... | 2.510184 | 4.496546 | 3.865678 | 87.09468 | 77 | 6.630861 | 25.204604 | 7.586125 | 1.320269 | 996 | 36 | 199 | 14 | 23 | 327 | 146 | 255 | 0.208 | 0.7 | 0.092 | -0.9875 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 60 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 9 | 12 | 1 | 1 | 14 | 1 | 14 | 5 | 1 | 4 | 3 | 32 | 32 | 17 | 1 | 4 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 14 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 8 | 5 | 1 | 2 | 5 | 2 | 11 | 7 | 26 | 24 | 7 | 33 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 9 | 15 | 1 | 6 | 15 | 115 | 25 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06989 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063051 | 0.065604 | 0.25628 | 0.28741 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078191 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069731 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.483047 | 0 | 0.080386 | 0.080994 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082374 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080684 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104151 | 0.071318 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123577 | 0 | 0 | 0.06613 | 0.063058 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164584 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177877 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077038 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074603 | 0 | 0.079935 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08364 | 0 | 0 | 0.125864 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060809 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075652 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053426 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08538 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.29813 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150885 | 0 | 0.079259 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.050509 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067332 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062828 | 0.071776 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090315 | 0 | 0 | 0.086242 | 0 | 0 | 0.163897 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10476 | 0.101039 | 0 | 0 | 0.091948 | 0.181238 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107059 | 0 | 0.077018 | 0 | 0 | 0.068095 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07089 | 0.073089 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.229595 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.28741 | 0.050773 |
suicidewatch | MilkToast555 | 2019/07/10 | This depression hurts too much I guess I'm doing this for attention. Been depressed most of my life but the passive thoughts of suicide have made a comeback
I'm tired all the time. Of myself. Of this block in my brain. What is happy? Please Why can't something kill me? A disease. Just end me before I feel more anguis... | 0.634762 | 3.115537 | 1.476524 | 95.697643 | 96.460317 | 3.789841 | 22.173016 | 5.683918 | 0.256138 | 253 | 10 | 50 | 2 | 10 | 78 | 50 | 63 | 0.312 | 0.513 | 0.175 | -0.9194 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 10 | 11 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 7 | 1 | 6 | 8 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 33 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.196624 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.257952 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.398042 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.20466 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116836 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.254551 | 0 | 0 | 0.245979 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.247366 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.255646 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163212 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.218645 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169864 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.253647 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17789 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.252754 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183445 | 0.134739 | 0.265582 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.208506 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | uchi91 | 2019/07/10 | I suck And therefore i wanna die. Nothing will save me. | -1.184848 | -0.88519 | 0.858182 | 95.440606 | 131.727273 | 1.466667 | 21.848485 | 3.1291 | -0.281933 | 43 | 2 | 8 | 0 | 3 | 14 | 10 | 11 | 0.611 | 0.389 | 0 | -0.8565 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.734268 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.67886 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | porn_acount124648 | 2019/07/10 | Feel like killing myself after failing my grade Using this account because I don’t want to make another alt
I’ve never been good at making friends, I’m not antisocial or an introvert I just have different tastes in most things than other people.
Now I’ve been in the same class for 4 years and I’ve finally adjusted to ... | 3.942595 | 4.254135 | 5.241879 | 85.215321 | 70.926606 | 8.308082 | 25.968982 | 8.26906 | 1.433069 | 1,221 | 34 | 265 | 17 | 21 | 409 | 156 | 327 | 0.134 | 0.754 | 0.112 | -0.8011 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 6 | 17 | 25 | 6 | 0 | 12 | 0 | 26 | 4 | 0 | 6 | 5 | 55 | 63 | 19 | 2 | 8 | 12 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 18 | 12 | 1 | 1 | 12 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 12 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 4 | 30 | 12 | 39 | 51 | 8 | 38 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 3 | 18 | 12 | 4 | 5 | 18 | 166 | 48 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097136 | 0.211177 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059859 | 0.0923 | 0 | 0 | 0.174591 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107317 | 0 | 0.074901 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097396 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075814 | 0 | 0 | 0.183931 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058139 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089015 | 0.062884 | 0.084516 | 0.096425 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.340033 | 0.244129 | 0.091977 | 0 | 0.200103 | 0.07383 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087157 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19477 | 0 | 0.387003 | 0.071751 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.043004 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098476 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08329 | 0.176269 | 0.089242 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064707 | 0.065268 | 0.135778 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084028 | 0.122049 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088488 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11278 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178169 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098535 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073592 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082961 | 0 | 0 | 0.1415 | 0.076936 | 0 | 0 | 0.102202 | 0.116958 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059762 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076024 | 0 | 0 | 0.051918 | 0.069869 | 0.070607 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.294825 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062529 | 0 | 0 | 0.170053 |
suicidewatch | thefuck31 | 2019/07/10 | I am tired of being treated like shit because of being Indian and my race. I am tired of no one giving a fuck. Today might have been the last straw. I cannot take this anymore. I am a 26 year old male who has never been able to find a relationship. Today this girl told me that she wouldn’t date me because it wouldn’t l... | 2.309815 | 4.032207 | 4.616256 | 82.679971 | 76.738854 | 7.581788 | 20.546827 | 8.401726 | 1.154442 | 1,195 | 28 | 239 | 23 | 27 | 417 | 151 | 314 | 0.149 | 0.708 | 0.143 | -0.8063 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 34 | 0 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 30 | 5 | 2 | 19 | 0 | 43 | 6 | 1 | 3 | 5 | 49 | 71 | 22 | 0 | 13 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 6 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 11 | 14 | 11 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 12 | 12 | 2 | 5 | 11 | 7 | 33 | 18 | 23 | 46 | 3 | 21 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 2 | 32 | 9 | 3 | 9 | 14 | 172 | 47 | 0 | 0.086205 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085492 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16118 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.287911 | 0.15765 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.351568 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055595 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176436 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056938 | 0.155955 | 0.072632 | 0.247118 | 0 | 0 | 0.081267 | 0.097005 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07879 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159391 | 0.045039 | 0.165392 | 0.048992 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08511 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.047376 | 0.070269 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060889 | 0.126347 | 0 | 0.076121 | 0 | 0.217172 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081569 | 0.057543 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09145 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066487 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090458 | 0 | 0.175245 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093352 | 0 | 0.298819 | 0.301084 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092944 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088633 | 0 | 0.092552 | 0 | 0.073619 | 0.082001 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068694 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088488 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064816 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055237 | 0 | 0 | 0.050267 | 0.19816 | 0.163425 | 0.082373 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.050846 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155018 | 0 | 0.077787 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122475 | 0 | 0 | 0.055513 |
suicidewatch | sywadoesinmavattab | 2019/07/10 | I don't know anymore I've been wanting to kill myself, because i dont have any talents or skills and I'm tired of thinking what to do tomorrow just to get by for a little longer. I've tried all sorts of things to siverse my attention on takin my own life, but i don't know and i don't care anymore. I just want to take m... | 2.673846 | 2.655906 | 4.411949 | 91.216385 | 73.615385 | 7.265641 | 27.138462 | 6.742158 | 0.959089 | 270 | 9 | 66 | 2 | 5 | 92 | 51 | 78 | 0.18 | 0.8 | 0.02 | -0.8917 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 15 | 17 | 5 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 9 | 2 | 10 | 16 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 40 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170112 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.496167 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15249 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.255046 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.293176 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130694 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.276756 | 0 | 0.274954 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17669 | 0 | 0.250718 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188083 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16619 | 0.160287 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.287513 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169837 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.295092 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Ilovedoggos1248 | 2019/07/10 | Safe for now So I was in science class. I went to the toilet a few minutes in. I took my suicide note and tie into the third cubicle. I prayed silently even though I'm not religious as I tied the noose. I took off my shoes and stood on top of the toilet flush and tied the noose to the pipe. I put it around my neck and ... | 1.019578 | 3.13943 | 2.37271 | 95.214846 | 82.698113 | 5.137564 | 22.655232 | 6.305155 | 0.324521 | 1,984 | 69 | 441 | 17 | 55 | 638 | 238 | 530 | 0.107 | 0.773 | 0.12 | 0.6993 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 54 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 23 | 21 | 4 | 3 | 32 | 0 | 33 | 11 | 10 | 5 | 3 | 85 | 86 | 39 | 3 | 18 | 14 | 0 | 6 | 3 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 21 | 31 | 1 | 2 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 16 | 11 | 9 | 0 | 3 | 41 | 14 | 85 | 12 | 63 | 38 | 9 | 55 | 1 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 33 | 21 | 2 | 8 | 21 | 298 | 106 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191503 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054282 | 0 | 0 | 0.090177 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071059 | 0.149247 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.048659 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083769 | 0 | 0 | 0.088665 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081385 | 0 | 0 | 0.06876 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127464 | 0 | 0 | 0.051479 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081686 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052722 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143479 | 0 | 0 | 0.089823 | 0.121082 | 0.057025 | 0.153285 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123342 | 0 | 0.083408 | 0 | 0.18146 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087934 | 0 | 0.070587 | 0 | 0 | 0.078808 | 0.081921 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080069 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085452 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.043869 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086728 | 0 | 0 | 0.116992 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067031 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07553 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118375 | 0.123128 | 0 | 0.084892 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05409 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055339 | 0 | 0.083398 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086062 | 0 | 0 | 0.080244 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090424 | 0 | 0.151859 | 0 | 0 | 0.080785 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163874 | 0 | 0 | 0.07988 | 0 | 0.067634 | 0.061451 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063747 | 0 | 0 | 0.083448 | 0 | 0.174626 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.320793 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.051147 | 0.078425 | 0.190111 | 0.046545 | 0 | 0.075663 | 0.228822 | 0.266058 | 0.108389 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068941 | 0 | 0 | 0.141245 | 0 | 0.064029 | 0 | 0 | 0.147993 | 0.144055 | 0 | 0.183584 | 0 | 0 | 0.058112 | 0.081064 | 0 | 0.283519 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | hungrycow8926 | 2019/07/10 | Suicide survivor doesn't want treatment Hello, so my brother is 19 and he jumped from 5 storie building and is injured very badly, he is in the hospital for about 2 months now and he is still in bad shape, he can barely speak, barely move and now he want's to go home, and it would be a so hard for my divorced not rich ... | 5.99513 | 4.88345 | 6.169448 | 85.117029 | 66.792208 | 8.219481 | 32.237013 | 5.985473 | 1.646327 | 291 | 10 | 62 | 1 | 4 | 93 | 53 | 77 | 0.252 | 0.719 | 0.029 | -0.953 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 10 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 14 | 7 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 8 | 12 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 35 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.451958 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153815 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.242446 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.271481 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.216028 | 0.287655 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.216139 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.296044 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.223312 | 0.478903 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.244217 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19226 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Suicide-Throw-Away | 2019/07/10 | 2 years of HPV 28m. Going to try to make this short. I’ve had HPV for 2 years. Been treated by doctors twice and done home remedies. The second time I was treated by a doctor I had them froze off. Seemed like it worked. I was clear for 4 months. Started seeing someone. But now the warts are back. I have to tell her th... | 0.72165 | 2.602274 | 1.737958 | 100.680533 | 82.300493 | 4.651133 | 17.046552 | 5.341637 | -0.880876 | 736 | 14 | 179 | 3 | 20 | 230 | 118 | 203 | 0.143 | 0.732 | 0.125 | -0.7773 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 20 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 11 | 14 | 2 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 26 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 30 | 39 | 14 | 3 | 6 | 7 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 1 | 6 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 14 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 6 | 0 | 3 | 12 | 4 | 26 | 9 | 17 | 20 | 1 | 23 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 12 | 3 | 0 | 4 | 21 | 116 | 40 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098114 | 0.106537 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131076 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.2612 | 0 | 0.130575 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113012 | 0 | 0 | 0.084276 | 0 | 0 | 0.121924 | 0 | 0 | 0.120286 | 0 | 0.129033 | 0.091155 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09858 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072516 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135629 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127989 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.282332 | 0 | 0.140247 | 0.104008 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090125 | 0.249348 | 0 | 0.11267 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085171 | 0.129362 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128587 | 0.270719 | 0 | 0 | 0.101846 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11974 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097043 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138174 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122092 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101678 | 0.116159 | 0.133111 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108112 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090313 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139569 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.334574 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101297 | 0.148805 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086629 | 0 | 0.124643 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10528 | 0.075259 | 0.10128 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092891 | 0 | 0 | 0.181281 | 0 | 0 | 0.246503 |
suicidewatch | JazzyJenJones | 2019/07/10 | i really want to kill myself i feel lik im havin a brekdown right now. realize tht my life is nowhere near where i want it and i will nevr get it there with all my past mistaks. ocd is also ruinen my life and i cant stop letting the small things bug me evry single day. suicide is the only wayout it seems. i feel like i... | -1.552792 | 0.414081 | 1.0225 | 99.605833 | 98.875 | 3.666667 | 14.166667 | 5.461319 | -1.042458 | 281 | 6 | 67 | 2 | 12 | 95 | 58 | 80 | 0.141 | 0.739 | 0.12 | -0.6994 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 13 | 13 | 3 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 12 | 1 | 6 | 11 | 2 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 40 | 16 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178975 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144334 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.226323 | 0.159885 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116928 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.483491 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.247605 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.228854 | 0.316157 | 0.109339 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170212 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.213645 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143374 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191126 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.203742 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187109 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.244804 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148685 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193294 | 0 | 0 | 0.264009 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | juljow | 2019/07/10 | I need help I’m 18 years old I come from a very broken home. My whole childhood was going between 3 different houses I never really stayed at one place too long. My parents are divorced and hate each other. I never had friends growing up and I found out one of my teachers told another child to be my friend because I di... | 0.857113 | 3.026073 | 2.8 | 91.611667 | 83.732143 | 5.519048 | 22.279762 | 6.816662 | 0.615444 | 838 | 29 | 179 | 10 | 24 | 280 | 136 | 224 | 0.215 | 0.711 | 0.074 | -0.9884 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 20 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 9 | 2 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 21 | 6 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 36 | 44 | 14 | 2 | 4 | 6 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 7 | 13 | 2 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 8 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 2 | 31 | 4 | 27 | 34 | 4 | 39 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 15 | 16 | 1 | 0 | 16 | 122 | 38 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11998 | 0 | 0.116275 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076346 | 0.117722 | 0 | 0 | 0.111339 | 0.0785 | 0 | 0 | 0.099942 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086327 | 0.093739 | 0.068437 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114638 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096709 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116516 | 0.117296 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130195 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125208 | 0 | 0 | 0.09459 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056766 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123096 | 0.260213 | 0.10379 | 0.175966 | 0.107697 | 0.191413 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119511 | 0 | 0.110841 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150501 | 0 | 0.112614 | 0 | 0 | 0.129542 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123399 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099353 | 0.094277 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08253 | 0.083245 | 0.259763 | 0.108429 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117806 | 0 | 0.152151 | 0.085385 | 0.119461 | 0 | 0.12466 | 0 | 0 | 0.155665 | 0 | 0.117296 | 0 | 0.106129 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.287686 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119662 | 0.089657 | 0.187722 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122803 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084411 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130351 | 0.074586 | 0.071937 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107277 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096963 | 0 | 0.092633 | 0.132437 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125343 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079752 | 0 | 0 | 0.21689 |
suicidewatch | Sub-Scion | 2019/07/10 | A Fairly Unfair Dilemma of Love and Sadness Sometimes the social pressure to not just end it is unfair imo. The responsibility of worrying about someone else's reaction over my own decision is the only reason I'm still here...
I know too many ways to painlessly cease to exist, but it seems I must endure my pain to ke... | 3.030953 | 4.80179 | 4.092381 | 87.001813 | 74.859031 | 7.422119 | 24.28217 | 8.205008 | 1.364891 | 891 | 28 | 183 | 15 | 19 | 289 | 134 | 227 | 0.118 | 0.696 | 0.186 | 0.9607 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 25 | 5 | 4 | 1 | 3 | 13 | 11 | 1 | 2 | 12 | 0 | 15 | 3 | 0 | 6 | 3 | 49 | 39 | 8 | 0 | 12 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 16 | 11 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 26 | 6 | 29 | 31 | 5 | 16 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 14 | 10 | 0 | 6 | 3 | 124 | 42 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127105 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084757 | 0 | 0 | 0.107908 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107205 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124522 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096781 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.253289 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.20252 | 0 | 0.107361 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115827 | 0.108941 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110789 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116281 | 0.06889 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129036 | 0 | 0.119675 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.240789 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107742 | 0 | 0 | 0.066617 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085618 | 0 | 0 | 0.214071 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109402 | 0 | 0.242737 | 0.122894 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082139 | 0.09219 | 0.128982 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.24926 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.2207 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123564 | 0.205411 | 0 | 0.119885 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193606 | 0 | 0 | 0.126721 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07767 | 0 | 0.192463 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082297 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145807 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.285984 | 0.192431 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109378 | 0 | 0.139392 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1231 | 0 | 0.086108 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | divapuukat | 2019/07/10 | no one fucking cares. no one fucking cares when im struggling? like im in pain, im depressed, i have ptsd, and im so close to ending my own fucking misery. so i go to my "friends" for help right? they brush the topic off. no one cares, no one cares at all. when my other friend starts crying its like the world is ending... | -0.317065 | 1.886089 | 1.848831 | 95.801818 | 90.69697 | 3.87013 | 18.766234 | 5.288315 | -0.410558 | 602 | 18 | 132 | 3 | 21 | 201 | 91 | 165 | 0.252 | 0.538 | 0.21 | -0.8079 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 29 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 10 | 24 | 4 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 6 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 22 | 25 | 16 | 1 | 3 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 10 | 13 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 3 | 17 | 11 | 10 | 22 | 3 | 18 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 4 | 13 | 9 | 4 | 2 | 11 | 78 | 21 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081984 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066094 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.403535 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173903 | 0 | 0 | 0.068179 | 0 | 0.082154 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185545 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.210332 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151278 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.040025 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122315 | 0.292722 | 0.041357 | 0.075936 | 0.089975 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106116 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.598531 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154691 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.268198 | 0 | 0.16846 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054878 | 0.138236 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092532 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067601 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063079 | 0.072063 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112057 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082753 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086547 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | throwaway042299 | 2019/07/10 | what happened to me?? I was raped when i first hit puberty, i was 9. I’m a female and another female raped me, im also bisexual, or “was”. Ever since then i have hated women and have never found anything attractive about them like i did before. Ever since this accident i have never had a crush for anyone, feelings, not... | 4.151538 | 5.744186 | 5.515897 | 78.670769 | 71.564103 | 7.983883 | 28.750916 | 8.563006 | 2.280615 | 1,106 | 43 | 201 | 19 | 21 | 371 | 144 | 273 | 0.156 | 0.721 | 0.123 | -0.9389 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 38 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 18 | 23 | 7 | 0 | 15 | 0 | 28 | 13 | 1 | 4 | 9 | 48 | 47 | 18 | 0 | 5 | 10 | 1 | 5 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 11 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 9 | 10 | 0 | 2 | 14 | 6 | 35 | 13 | 26 | 29 | 15 | 31 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 11 | 15 | 11 | 1 | 9 | 21 | 162 | 46 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083067 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108919 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14526 | 0 | 0.085478 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12664 | 0 | 0.088388 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115379 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114099 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137214 | 0.375835 | 0 | 0 | 0.093354 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.210084 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176708 | 0 | 0.113891 | 0.160503 | 0.096029 | 0.108538 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091854 | 0 | 0 | 0.205105 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111198 | 0 | 0.224401 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073368 | 0.152241 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113389 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104679 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.240339 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099669 | 0 | 0 | 0.110621 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115338 | 0 | 0.099158 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098193 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104421 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066543 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098807 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.216724 | 0 | 0 | 0.257774 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.352044 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147043 | 0 | 0.082953 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083489 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082463 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08332 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093729 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | rndthrowaway030 | 2019/07/10 | Im 13 and I cant fucking do this anymore I don't even know how to word this. I feel so tired and 'hollow' all the time. I haven't felt anything real for too long. No one ever takes me seriously, they brush me off thinking i'm joking. I legitimately fail to see any reason to grow old. If I wasn't such a pussy I would ju... | -1.220424 | 0.70513 | 2.154242 | 94.190455 | 91.444444 | 5.050505 | 17.070707 | 6.574016 | -0.255444 | 308 | 8 | 76 | 4 | 11 | 111 | 65 | 90 | 0.18 | 0.744 | 0.076 | -0.791 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 8 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 9 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 18 | 18 | 6 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 4 | 14 | 2 | 7 | 14 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 50 | 17 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156253 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.227872 | 0 | 0 | 0.189083 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151762 | 0.207842 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11618 | 0 | 0.220617 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.212421 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.244597 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.248194 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126277 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.203341 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.241107 | 0.2447 | 0.1557 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.261531 | 0 | 0.236244 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183099 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17276 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147229 | 0 | 0 | 0.133982 | 0.264089 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.264227 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163224 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Fossam | 2019/07/10 | Ok, people who managed to unfuck yourself: how? I'm literally have no idea where to start. Male, 28. I drink daily to blackout. Smoke pack a day. Overeat, so overweight. 2 energy drinks per day just to get some shit done at work. Never go anywhere, just sit my ass down and play stupid video games in my free time. No fr... | 3.051537 | 5.035343 | 3.894669 | 87.511183 | 75.393443 | 6.105055 | 26.738046 | 6.907726 | 1.18888 | 729 | 28 | 144 | 7 | 16 | 233 | 121 | 183 | 0.255 | 0.647 | 0.099 | -0.9878 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 41 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 14 | 20 | 11 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 10 | 16 | 4 | 1 | 2 | 19 | 25 | 9 | 1 | 2 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 3 | 1 | 8 | 12 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 14 | 9 | 18 | 22 | 5 | 28 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 6 | 11 | 10 | 1 | 15 | 81 | 20 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11675 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072831 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154104 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122288 | 0 | 0.122265 | 0 | 0.234081 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134394 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078913 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060411 | 0.085353 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092307 | 0.552267 | 0.062421 | 0 | 0.067901 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134874 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097389 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168778 | 0.05837 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133663 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095364 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092147 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127238 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082829 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128815 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095207 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.36792 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091978 | 0 | 0 | 0.169131 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130687 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136631 | 0 | 0.079374 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.209002 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081116 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07047 | 0 | 0.095836 | 0 | 0.107423 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.260939 | 0 | 0 | 0.084872 | 0 | 0 | 0.076938 |
suicidewatch | Ifollowdouchebags | 2019/07/10 | I pulled the trigger I committed, I did it, but it wasn't enough. I was still breathing, I waited 5 minutes hoping the lower blood to my head would make me pass out.
It didn't, I readjusted... I did it again, but again I still breathed. I stared into space for an hour trying to think of an excuse to all of the reasons ... | 2.913761 | 3.94548 | 3.914699 | 91.140046 | 73.836066 | 6.405829 | 25.850638 | 6.427356 | 0.781653 | 455 | 15 | 100 | 3 | 9 | 147 | 80 | 122 | 0.121 | 0.82 | 0.058 | -0.8481 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 19 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 10 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 10 | 5 | 5 | 4 | 4 | 18 | 16 | 6 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 2 | 17 | 1 | 13 | 10 | 2 | 22 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 13 | 73 | 24 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117135 | 0 | 0.163508 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.213438 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198545 | 0 | 0.126915 | 0.173813 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163445 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172131 | 0 | 0.197204 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190851 | 0.378464 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.212589 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169674 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128263 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.200759 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197565 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.46036 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123124 | 0 | 0 | 0.224092 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.260918 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139889 | 0 | 0 | 0.1365 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | ynm666 | 2019/07/10 | I can’t breathe I feel like I’m spiraling into a more depressive state everyday. Every unprovoked negative comment I receive when I’m kind, every dirty look, every time I get tossed to the side, every time I feel I heard, every time I’m told I’m unliked, every time I feel like I am repeatedly treated like I am nothing ... | 4.877644 | 4.492896 | 6.127257 | 82.079951 | 68.856115 | 8.676619 | 30.32464 | 8.076483 | 1.980676 | 520 | 18 | 109 | 6 | 8 | 176 | 76 | 139 | 0.193 | 0.685 | 0.123 | -0.8505 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 5 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 11 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 13 | 24 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 19 | 9 | 9 | 20 | 4 | 19 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 9 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 15 | 65 | 24 | 0 | 0.109258 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123097 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094104 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112893 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.644384 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165733 | 0.156108 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057083 | 0 | 0.062094 | 0.183281 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.227551 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160134 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091749 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.209673 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075746 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086887 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077334 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145173 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.318547 | 0 | 0 | 0.104401 | 0 | 0.074179 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.394355 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Pariah___ | 2019/07/10 | i thought i would have killed myself by now (20m)
i have been really considering ending it for a couple months even made a plan on how i would do it. i was supposed to go threw with it a couple days i got really drunk and high on weed and was getting ready to due so but my parents got home so i stopped and couldn't ... | 2.623076 | 4.07688 | 4.426397 | 85.510425 | 75.240876 | 7.317585 | 25.228268 | 8.000946 | 1.3924 | 1,037 | 35 | 218 | 16 | 22 | 352 | 130 | 274 | 0.216 | 0.733 | 0.05 | -0.993 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 17 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 35 | 5 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 51 | 65 | 18 | 3 | 10 | 10 | 4 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 13 | 1 | 2 | 10 | 1 | 4 | 6 | 9 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 15 | 3 | 39 | 1 | 30 | 42 | 1 | 30 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 7 | 0 | 3 | 17 | 156 | 47 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069806 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183062 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061035 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159633 | 0 | 0.074277 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089133 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183043 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.289753 | 0 | 0.056295 | 0.089992 | 0.075182 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.204606 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154626 | 0 | 0 | 0.057654 | 0.157917 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132409 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091211 | 0.167472 | 0.198435 | 0 | 0.139627 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092226 | 0.087559 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188576 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193146 | 0 | 0.095944 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.246621 | 0.042645 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190574 | 0.074211 | 0 | 0.082596 | 0.058267 | 0 | 0 | 0.095084 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139348 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067323 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085525 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.387699 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11184 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176684 | 0 | 0.079465 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145956 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095481 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076295 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055932 | 0 | 0.069298 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083409 | 0 | 0.059264 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154457 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088956 | 0.186024 | 0 | 0 | 0.056212 |
suicidewatch | hOtBoY69420 | 2019/07/10 | So i told my mom about my depression and suicidal thoughts and guess what she did She told everyone like it was a joke
It took a lot of courage to tell her about this and then she just told everyone around our neighbourhood
Our neighbours son who is an athlete decided to be my friend and take me to play soccer just b... | 1.857809 | 3.361586 | 2.941994 | 95.145348 | 77.411215 | 6.998546 | 24.038422 | 7.793538 | 0.900953 | 394 | 13 | 94 | 6 | 9 | 126 | 73 | 107 | 0.096 | 0.743 | 0.16 | 0.7624 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 9 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 16 | 19 | 9 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 9 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 14 | 6 | 10 | 6 | 2 | 8 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 16 | 3 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 62 | 23 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191253 | 0 | 0.118374 | 0 | 0 | 0.150707 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1032 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145812 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149944 | 0 | 0 | 0.111817 | 0 | 0 | 0.323534 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130796 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141995 | 0 | 0 | 0.186496 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.365732 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179257 | 0 | 0 | 0.119577 | 0.082708 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143927 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179593 | 0 | 0.198274 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144576 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185179 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127287 | 0 | 0.14797 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108476 | 0 | 0.1344 | 0.098716 | 0 | 0 | 0.485301 | 0.188091 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | TheOnePotato5657 | 2019/07/10 | im 13 and i dont really see the point anymore i just tried to save someones life on this sub reddit and i failed. ive never felt more depressed in my life. i didnt even know the guy i had like a 30 minute or so chat trying to save him. i failed. how am i supposed to deal with this. i feel as if my life has no direction... | -1.180226 | 0.796504 | 0.885153 | 102.854028 | 92.228346 | 3.804921 | 15.024114 | 5.148861 | -1.207771 | 439 | 9 | 112 | 2 | 16 | 144 | 78 | 127 | 0.164 | 0.688 | 0.148 | -0.4736 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 12 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 23 | 21 | 13 | 1 | 7 | 7 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 22 | 5 | 7 | 16 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 10 | 4 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 67 | 26 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.292403 | 0.10308 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125444 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.30061 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151984 | 0.126973 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172776 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19474 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07454 | 0 | 0.141547 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077021 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14597 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098813 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15924 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081019 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.312383 | 0.072022 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1137 | 0 | 0.156784 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.27872 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094441 | 0.151573 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.23495 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124909 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161254 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.400356 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086953 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.266048 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104723 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Dezpacheeto | 2019/07/10 | I don’t see the point anymore. I quit a very stressful job 7 months ago that had made me hate my life even more than I already did. I quit that job and was very happy with that decision. I got a new job, and I hate it even more. So I’m going back to my old job and I’m so stressed out about it. I’m so stressed that I’m ... | 0.677011 | 2.046089 | 2.875435 | 94.929891 | 80.358696 | 6.121739 | 20.73913 | 6.907726 | 0.138778 | 639 | 17 | 160 | 7 | 16 | 218 | 91 | 184 | 0.146 | 0.8 | 0.054 | -0.9504 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 16 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 14 | 10 | 5 | 3 | 7 | 0 | 14 | 4 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 28 | 37 | 13 | 1 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 9 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 22 | 2 | 18 | 31 | 3 | 19 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 8 | 2 | 1 | 8 | 97 | 33 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098032 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12204 | 0.08844 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109677 | 0 | 0 | 0.091007 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085038 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.195902 | 0 | 0 | 0.146089 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.204479 | 0 | 0 | 0.062851 | 0 | 0.08845 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117726 | 0 | 0.218372 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.438978 | 0 | 0.122353 | 0 | 0.243112 | 0 | 0 | 0.1171 | 0 | 0 | 0.078114 | 0 | 0 | 0.097654 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104644 | 0.07382 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088273 | 0.117541 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10681 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116047 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115544 | 0 | 0.209089 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.235254 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188888 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176254 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110671 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.380045 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075084 | 0.120291 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182498 | 0.130459 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | deadbymidaugust | 2019/07/10 | I want someone to show me that they want me around, not just tell me. As I have no one but random online conversations, I will get the usual "Oh no don't do it" "Think of your family." or the brave "I care about you."
Words are words. I type them all day. It's even part of my job. I have no one in real life who can te... | 1.391568 | 3.662513 | 3.3416 | 87.918654 | 82.347458 | 5.97939 | 22.575593 | 7.24862 | 0.923453 | 907 | 31 | 184 | 13 | 25 | 305 | 124 | 236 | 0.183 | 0.654 | 0.164 | -0.9051 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 42 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 3 | 14 | 9 | 1 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 24 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 45 | 45 | 11 | 4 | 8 | 10 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 10 | 3 | 1 | 3 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 11 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 3 | 41 | 7 | 23 | 36 | 4 | 16 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 21 | 5 | 1 | 6 | 9 | 138 | 51 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0.103239 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071943 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104919 | 0.073973 | 0 | 0 | 0.188357 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081349 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093566 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107864 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.204684 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109797 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092581 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119003 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069876 | 0.095696 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.199465 | 0 | 0.053492 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081736 | 0 | 0.110545 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169225 | 0 | 0.116543 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105077 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104984 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074725 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106821 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.215065 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114564 | 0 | 0 | 0.18475 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.240832 | 0.067774 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084304 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107843 | 0.268915 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088448 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.347163 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085033 | 0.184936 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070285 | 0.067788 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11754 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116517 | 0 | 0.436798 | 0 | 0 | 0.128828 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101981 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | GigglzTheKlown | 2019/07/10 | Lonely My whole life I just have felt so lonely. I have had my lovers, my family, even got committed for 5 years. But no matter what I do I feel lonely. There was only one person who cut through to me but sadly she has passed. Someone is close to cutting through to me again and I don't know if I can handle losing them ... | -0.007927 | 1.990826 | 1.914963 | 97.671497 | 85.960168 | 4.927092 | 16.30096 | 6.197337 | -0.591555 | 1,705 | 34 | 406 | 15 | 52 | 563 | 195 | 477 | 0.289 | 0.611 | 0.1 | -0.9988 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 63 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 28 | 43 | 15 | 3 | 7 | 0 | 48 | 8 | 2 | 5 | 1 | 74 | 95 | 35 | 8 | 8 | 19 | 2 | 7 | 3 | 4 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 7 | 20 | 16 | 0 | 5 | 21 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 16 | 31 | 1 | 3 | 17 | 12 | 81 | 12 | 48 | 75 | 5 | 38 | 0 | 13 | 2 | 4 | 49 | 13 | 0 | 2 | 20 | 265 | 101 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146341 | 0.053382 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079385 | 0.065561 | 0.053657 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059378 | 0 | 0.07323 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143367 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07194 | 0.120203 | 0 | 0.072421 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138267 | 0 | 0.058793 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065782 | 0 | 0.211698 | 0.099702 | 0.067 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053912 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.039658 | 0 | 0.05581 | 0 | 0.076871 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068893 | 0 | 0 | 0.078647 | 0 | 0.046772 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062024 | 0.386007 | 0 | 0.191747 | 0 | 0 | 0.073887 | 0 | 0.071355 | 0.098576 | 0.102273 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.234198 | 0 | 0 | 0.125959 | 0 | 0.139736 | 0.141492 | 0.070103 | 0.076011 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.051296 | 0.051741 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073222 | 0.074314 | 0.141854 | 0.265355 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14513 | 0.243717 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081569 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068899 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055492 | 0.209586 | 0 | 0.055606 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118249 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111453 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076328 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052466 | 0.112173 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089425 | 0 | 0.110795 | 0.040689 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.047376 | 0 | 0 | 0.072644 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057576 | 0.164632 | 0.055388 | 0.055973 | 0 | 0.062741 | 0 | 0.062966 | 0.155814 | 0.080244 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.04957 | 0 | 0 | 0.224681 |
suicidewatch | BoxTheFox157 | 2019/07/10 | Let me be your shoulder Please, talk to me. I sincerely want to help you all and want to help prevent people from what I thought about years ago. | 4.335172 | 5.272591 | 3.899483 | 92.931293 | 70.37931 | 7.17931 | 28.293103 | 7.168622 | 1.186641 | 114 | 4 | 25 | 1 | 2 | 34 | 23 | 29 | 0 | 0.58 | 0.42 | 0.8885 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 5 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 16 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.305912 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.462629 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.35289 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.23925 | 0 | 0 | 0.378818 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.27738 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.273972 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.4071 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.222234 |
suicidewatch | AllHailSameHada | 2019/07/10 | I don't know where to write this but I need some advice I'm sick of living this life, my father is a heavy drug user and i want to fucking kill him, I have literally no future, dropped out of school in a country where people can't find a job even if you graduate
This happened a few days ago, I left a used pan over the ... | 9.151773 | 5.042127 | 8.829832 | 77.966914 | 63.175589 | 11.405615 | 35.152153 | 7.793538 | 2.444539 | 1,746 | 43 | 387 | 12 | 18 | 566 | 202 | 467 | 0.196 | 0.759 | 0.045 | -0.9982 | 3 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 37 | 10 | 4 | 1 | 6 | 25 | 25 | 16 | 1 | 30 | 0 | 25 | 22 | 5 | 4 | 4 | 69 | 70 | 26 | 2 | 9 | 15 | 7 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 23 | 29 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 2 | 8 | 8 | 8 | 20 | 0 | 2 | 12 | 12 | 51 | 5 | 56 | 54 | 10 | 65 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 11 | 58 | 26 | 13 | 6 | 31 | 242 | 74 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128986 | 0.175511 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054916 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0617 | 0 | 0 | 0.050749 | 0 | 0.120696 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067392 | 0.15097 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056852 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072496 | 0.170255 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153075 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.261549 | 0 | 0.055607 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060322 | 0.112277 | 0.079806 | 0 | 0 | 0.427103 | 0.068963 | 0.126624 | 0.112526 | 0.055357 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058362 | 0.070257 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074385 | 0 | 0 | 0.069731 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076154 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130987 | 0 | 0.073018 | 0 | 0.108813 | 0 | 0 | 0.069883 | 0.286831 | 0 | 0.046617 | 0.064487 | 0 | 0.116556 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144091 | 0 | 0 | 0.062449 | 0 | 0.133824 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105359 | 0 | 0 | 0.146811 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061935 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140573 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.045755 | 0 | 0 | 0.072447 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066347 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052485 | 0 | 0.200382 | 0.052592 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135493 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140142 | 0.070346 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072192 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.049623 | 0.053047 | 0.115371 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.043847 | 0.084579 | 0 | 0 | 0.038484 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.238165 | 0.114003 | 0 | 0 | 0.038928 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096096 | 0 | 0 | 0.046884 | 0 | 0 | 0.212505 |
suicidewatch | throwawaylife777777 | 2019/07/10 | Plan After doing some soul searching I’ve come to the conclusion that suicide is the best option for me.
I’ll be back at my house the weekend and that should give me enough time to prepare. I will spend this rest of this week trying to see my relatives one more time.
A few days from now I will clean my room, do ... | 3.17875 | 4.301981 | 3.933333 | 90.9075 | 73.305556 | 7.251852 | 23.222222 | 7.645422 | 0.768589 | 819 | 21 | 183 | 10 | 16 | 261 | 124 | 216 | 0.08 | 0.82 | 0.1 | 0.6395 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 6 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 12 | 0 | 19 | 7 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 25 | 32 | 13 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 10 | 11 | 5 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 4 | 32 | 4 | 21 | 18 | 9 | 25 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 12 | 8 | 1 | 3 | 14 | 122 | 42 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14024 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104941 | 0.10919 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100905 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.275427 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113039 | 0.137588 | 0 | 0 | 0.104773 | 0 | 0 | 0.08463 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136192 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128551 | 0 | 0.134277 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135591 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06856 | 0.125884 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13163 | 0 | 0 | 0.302834 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144237 | 0.213933 | 0 | 0.277898 | 0 | 0.134187 | 0 | 0.06411 | 0 | 0.115875 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118436 | 0 | 0.087594 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.355688 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145711 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137103 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141484 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10457 | 0 | 0 | 0.148248 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14354 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114697 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.306075 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089094 | 0.142736 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154801 | 0 | 0.105261 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095534 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | gulamanster | 2019/07/10 | Anyone here who feels that they don't want to exist anymore but chooses to do so because they don't want to hurt their loved ones so they just suffer through their existence? | 6.741176 | 7.015793 | 5.616471 | 85.074118 | 64.882353 | 7.976471 | 31.705882 | 7.168622 | 1.847106 | 142 | 5 | 27 | 1 | 2 | 42 | 24 | 34 | 0.174 | 0.619 | 0.207 | 0.5306 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 7 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 1 | 4 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 20 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.407907 | 0.287596 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.25073 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.20797 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.440314 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.371222 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.278713 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.485201 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | banery_the_sock | 2019/07/10 | Melatonin My friend is thinking about taking 2500 mg of melatonin. Will she die if she does? | 1.905686 | 4.572557 | 1.196471 | 96.577451 | 98.411765 | 2.266667 | 23.313725 | 3.1291 | -0.139298 | 74 | 3 | 13 | 0 | 3 | 21 | 15 | 17 | 0.176 | 0.679 | 0.145 | -0.1779 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.561552 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.4735 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.418034 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.406822 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.3467 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | thelastrequest | 2019/07/10 | let me live, or let me die
Good day people. You choose let me live or let me die.
I have a very uneasy and at the same time, very usual situation. I do not have any other ways, so posting here. All I have now is my family and very big debt, approximate 140k euro. And my life. Unfortunately, the only way not to le... | 1.038117 | 2.413626 | 3.502932 | 90.797751 | 79.351759 | 6.893408 | 18.741058 | 7.724431 | 0.270816 | 702 | 14 | 170 | 11 | 17 | 245 | 109 | 199 | 0.103 | 0.808 | 0.089 | -0.5888 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 28 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 1 | 23 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 29 | 27 | 16 | 2 | 2 | 11 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 4 | 3 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 24 | 2 | 23 | 15 | 6 | 32 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 12 | 0 | 6 | 11 | 124 | 36 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06864 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094362 | 0 | 0.094833 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065096 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.209513 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090715 | 0 | 0.285462 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057365 | 0.084661 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.270623 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.213755 | 0.109668 | 0.516073 | 0.213884 | 0 | 0.101165 | 0.267387 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095509 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153534 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139954 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193339 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101469 | 0.113072 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113457 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107585 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117714 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068529 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111167 | 0.24985 | 0 | 0.240356 | 0.080965 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097299 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | DJSaladBar | 2019/07/10 | unsure of what to do with myself everything at this point just seems pointless, and i feel like my only option left is to end it all. things have just only gotten worse and worse. i don’t eat for close to days at a time, contemplate taking pills whenever i see them, and just abuse myself with any form of self harm that... | 6.019648 | 5.720452 | 5.957852 | 83.962412 | 66.464789 | 9.353521 | 24.792254 | 8.841846 | 1.425054 | 280 | 5 | 58 | 4 | 4 | 88 | 51 | 71 | 0.253 | 0.716 | 0.031 | -0.9559 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 16 | 11 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 8 | 1 | 10 | 10 | 2 | 8 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 38 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 0.270867 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155464 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147436 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.233927 | 0 | 0 | 0.202482 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.205461 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.231186 | 0.16332 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.248387 | 0 | 0 | 0.111688 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.347739 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.216112 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182174 | 0.20812 | 0.238492 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171888 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151879 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133305 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.46595 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | throwawayacount08685 | 2019/07/10 | Im doing it im commiting suicide tonight Throw away account of course. Im doing it tonight because my dad is dead my mom is senile and she doesn't even know who im am and all my friends have left me in my empty unpaid for apartment. Im doing it slitting my wrist. You can try to talk me down ill give you 30mins. | -1.762826 | 0.016529 | 0.675688 | 100.45962 | 105.521739 | 2.87971 | 18.793478 | 4.778228 | -0.64273 | 246 | 9 | 57 | 1 | 12 | 82 | 48 | 69 | 0.18 | 0.779 | 0.042 | -0.8834 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 11 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 1 | 6 | 11 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 33 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153354 | 0 | 0 | 0.0995 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107808 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126106 | 0 | 0 | 0.156579 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.881549 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089704 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177343 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191166 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17854 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131193 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110818 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Fozzy_Sabre | 2019/07/10 | I Fucked Up I don't know what to do I'm 16 and got a girl pregnant and she tried to commit suicide becasue of it she survived but it caused her to miscarry.
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I feel so overwhelmed with guilt and responsibility i cant take anymore and i dont know what to do | -0.662807 | 1.499595 | 1.992281 | 92.059298 | 99 | 4.638596 | 22.122807 | 6.427356 | 0.553933 | 213 | 9 | 47 | 3 | 9 | 73 | 38 | 57 | 0.154 | 0.743 | 0.103 | -0.5888 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 11 | 12 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 7 | 11 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 31 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.303796 | 0.340697 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.278065 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.288031 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.328608 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14177 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.25921 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.224248 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.308183 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.306694 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.210814 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190362 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.340697 | 0 |
suicidewatch | altaccount1223334444 | 2019/07/10 | How to get over the fear of dying First off I do not need your pity.
I have come to this decision by myself and will not be manipulated out of it again.
I’ve been contemplating suicide for months now, and came to the point of almost doing in June but was stopped when I made the mistake of telling someone close to me wh... | 2.997777 | 3.403659 | 4.470887 | 89.563248 | 73.085366 | 7.183149 | 23.445676 | 6.980633 | 0.483593 | 591 | 14 | 142 | 5 | 11 | 198 | 98 | 164 | 0.246 | 0.659 | 0.095 | -0.9869 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 18 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 10 | 9 | 1 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 19 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 34 | 30 | 12 | 3 | 4 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 6 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 1 | 18 | 3 | 26 | 22 | 3 | 18 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 6 | 1 | 8 | 10 | 102 | 28 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165572 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.224884 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127142 | 0 | 0 | 0.182613 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189113 | 0.168583 | 0 | 0 | 0.142432 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171604 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.558185 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140644 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172774 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090871 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11679 | 0 | 0 | 0.146005 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156456 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131979 | 0 | 0 | 0.122603 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112044 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156307 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170005 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140098 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.276476 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180863 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144521 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190043 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097526 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1492 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117458 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | missmisery8 | 2019/07/10 | I'm having suicidal thoughts and I want them to go away. I'm scared what will happen if they persist I almost committed suicide in high school. Just this week I've had suicidal thoughts for the first time in five years.
I'm not a very smart person. I have talent in art and music but nothing that seems to get me anywh... | 3.291804 | 4.867767 | 4.970383 | 81.790226 | 73.734513 | 8.208063 | 28.042281 | 8.841846 | 2.21305 | 885 | 35 | 177 | 18 | 18 | 300 | 123 | 226 | 0.207 | 0.668 | 0.125 | -0.9735 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 20 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 8 | 14 | 3 | 2 | 11 | 0 | 19 | 5 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 36 | 44 | 13 | 3 | 8 | 10 | 1 | 5 | 5 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 6 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 7 | 29 | 8 | 27 | 35 | 1 | 18 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 10 | 9 | 2 | 5 | 12 | 117 | 36 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118676 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110796 | 0.134828 | 0.111349 | 0 | 0 | 0.216738 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120834 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156556 | 0 | 0 | 0.113246 | 0.106514 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.2397 | 0.338669 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100809 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109566 | 0.061919 | 0 | 0.067355 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104803 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121631 | 0 | 0.133575 | 0 | 0 | 0.125218 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128017 | 0 | 0.117608 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083711 | 0.289503 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099523 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07911 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119436 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113719 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090136 | 0 | 0.139052 | 0.131597 | 0 | 0 | 0.082164 | 0.103483 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118655 | 0.119944 | 0 | 0.107892 | 0 | 0 | 0.121654 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083886 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.38891 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089109 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188176 | 0.138214 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097788 | 0.139807 | 0 | 0.095066 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08419 | 0 | 0 | 0.15264 |
suicidewatch | Slasher_Twinkie | 2019/07/10 | Late night confession I feel like I am not myself in my own skin. I am so insecure. I beg for any sort of attention, yet I want none.
I just like to spend the rest of my life laying in bed. I hate how comforting the idea of suicide is. However, I know I wouldn't have the strength or motivation to go through with it.
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suicidewatch | O-Degenerate-mine | 2019/07/10 | I want to be free Maybe a long post maybe not idk also this is my alt because people who I know irl know my main.
A long, long time ago I had always wondered why people commited the act of suicide. At the age of 8-10ish a continuous stream of child sexual abuse towards me from the man upstairs (Im male) shut down wha... | 4.245282 | 4.634394 | 5.692135 | 81.978731 | 70.284797 | 8.453647 | 29.271163 | 8.447377 | 1.977725 | 1,774 | 64 | 372 | 26 | 30 | 602 | 239 | 467 | 0.144 | 0.72 | 0.137 | -0.8179 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 50 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 19 | 30 | 3 | 0 | 22 | 0 | 37 | 3 | 1 | 4 | 3 | 61 | 70 | 33 | 1 | 9 | 16 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 4 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 19 | 18 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 7 | 11 | 9 | 9 | 3 | 1 | 24 | 2 | 54 | 24 | 56 | 37 | 10 | 55 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 24 | 19 | 2 | 4 | 24 | 245 | 73 | 19 | 0 | 0.092552 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069243 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062467 | 0.064997 | 0 | 0 | 0.10624 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130443 | 0.238087 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069085 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.318568 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062367 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134558 | 0 | 0 | 0.081612 | 0.089525 | 0 | 0 | 0.079937 | 0.091549 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087867 | 0 | 0.080712 | 0 | 0.051593 | 0 | 0.131628 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.039497 | 0 | 0.075001 | 0 | 0 | 0.066443 | 0 | 0 | 0.06035 | 0 | 0.081622 | 0 | 0.133181 | 0 | 0.187424 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076926 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.337504 | 0 | 0.155031 | 0 | 0 | 0.081343 | 0.128788 | 0 | 0 | 0.082711 | 0 | 0.079876 | 0 | 0.076325 | 0 | 0.137951 | 0.276512 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070501 | 0.147826 | 0.052141 | 0 | 0.156951 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07872 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062349 | 0.083022 | 0.114845 | 0.11584 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074952 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059409 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108308 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074811 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078526 | 0 | 0.083083 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077128 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088246 | 0.080182 | 0 | 0.175606 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062382 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085444 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.207581 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091097 | 0.08978 | 0.074043 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064452 | 0.092147 | 0.062003 | 0 | 0 | 0.2107 | 0.072412 | 0.070485 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084711 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.050303 |
suicidewatch | bluefrostgirl | 2019/07/10 | Whatever happened to the Suicide Methods Hideout google group? I will probably be downvoted for posting this, but hear me out. I am not posting for the reason you think.
I'm not interested in taking my life. But that place was special for me and for many other people. I visited it only a few times in the past decade ... | 5.680616 | 7.364275 | 6.446779 | 73.121727 | 67.918919 | 9.313635 | 31.006096 | 9.682069 | 3.214972 | 1,116 | 45 | 183 | 25 | 19 | 367 | 144 | 259 | 0.062 | 0.757 | 0.181 | 0.9864 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 39 | 2 | 1 | 9 | 2 | 7 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 0 | 17 | 4 | 0 | 5 | 4 | 44 | 35 | 13 | 1 | 3 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 23 | 13 | 0 | 2 | 12 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 13 | 2 | 26 | 10 | 37 | 18 | 7 | 30 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 25 | 19 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 147 | 49 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.350783 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07797 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067975 | 0.123154 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116916 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098765 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109078 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107067 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093529 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098608 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12568 | 0 | 0.074743 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078763 | 0 | 0 | 0.098465 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100642 | 0.105513 | 0 | 0.113053 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172006 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.302248 | 0.169616 | 0.118654 | 0 | 0 | 0.120754 | 0.106449 | 0.463841 | 0 | 0.233008 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.213591 | 0 | 0.120226 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11154 | 0 | 0 | 0.114651 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110286 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121974 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083841 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142902 | 0 | 0 | 0.065022 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.232171 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197314 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107491 | 0 | 0.08118 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Self_loathing_bitch | 2019/07/10 | I know I'm young but I already feel like there's nothing to look foward too. I barely turned 16 three months ago and my parents wanted me to get a job, so I did but I only lasted 2 weeks. Now they're telling me that I'm a disappointment and that I should kill myself.
It's not the first time they've told me to kill my... | 1.256778 | 3.199319 | 3.178941 | 90.718362 | 80.793103 | 5.79803 | 22.081281 | 6.86897 | 0.494369 | 539 | 17 | 119 | 6 | 14 | 181 | 84 | 145 | 0.27 | 0.709 | 0.021 | -0.9911 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 8 | 9 | 2 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 21 | 24 | 10 | 2 | 4 | 6 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 8 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 3 | 20 | 1 | 9 | 21 | 2 | 14 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 65 | 26 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145416 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181027 | 0 | 0.136498 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167508 | 0 | 0 | 0.168519 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165892 | 0.117194 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139536 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171413 | 0 | 0.09323 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175613 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162789 | 0 | 0.362982 | 0 | 0.090155 | 0.133718 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080144 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137756 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165318 | 0 | 0 | 0.384254 | 0.130939 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157405 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124763 | 0 | 0 | 0.182152 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156969 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164237 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164163 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143382 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105113 | 0 | 0 | 0.095656 | 0.188545 | 0 | 0.156752 | 0 | 0 | 0.178433 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193516 | 0 | 0.131587 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | quitethe- | 2019/07/10 | I can’t do it anymore, it’s not fair. I have been depressed up until I moved out for college. That was the best semester of my life and I never smiled so much, I had a few bad nights but overall I felt happy. I found an internship and really saw my life going somewhere.
Now only a week later; I won’t get into my majo... | 1.14001 | 2.185926 | 3.411423 | 92.94919 | 78.311594 | 6.612385 | 20.878788 | 7.168622 | 0.314086 | 955 | 23 | 233 | 11 | 22 | 330 | 132 | 276 | 0.126 | 0.754 | 0.12 | 0.5231 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 23 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 10 | 12 | 1 | 0 | 16 | 0 | 31 | 3 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 37 | 49 | 19 | 0 | 2 | 10 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 5 | 3 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 14 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 17 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 4 | 39 | 8 | 25 | 32 | 9 | 35 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 15 | 10 | 0 | 2 | 21 | 164 | 53 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111198 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09362 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117669 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193147 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13003 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.347567 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.214281 | 0 | 0 | 0.105702 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107658 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12294 | 0.173256 | 0 | 0.234324 | 0.107561 | 0.127447 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11936 | 0.100442 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150311 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.331263 | 0.129378 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111267 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123242 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158395 | 0.054779 | 0 | 0.099009 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.224534 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113215 | 0 | 0 | 0.119172 | 0.082425 | 0 | 0.172956 | 0 | 0 | 0.105222 | 0 | 0.107587 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170553 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077734 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107385 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07183 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113477 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179087 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074491 | 0.071845 | 0 | 0 | 0.130763 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.228378 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08994 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163257 | 0 | 0 | 0.079651 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | CGBZFNGK | 2019/07/10 | What stops you? I’ve never posted on here and haven’t really posted on reddit too much. I’m at the point in my life where I’m so sad everyday it takes hours to get out of bed and motivate myself to go to work or do anything. So what’s stopping you guys because I’m not sure why I haven’t just pulled the trigger...this i... | 0.417143 | 2.100835 | 2.833571 | 93.448929 | 82.333333 | 6.104762 | 17.642857 | 7.168622 | 0.003457 | 296 | 6 | 70 | 4 | 8 | 102 | 59 | 84 | 0.118 | 0.85 | 0.032 | -0.7033 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 7 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 14 | 12 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 1 | 10 | 12 | 1 | 17 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 7 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 41 | 11 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190676 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141247 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121058 | 0 | 0.131685 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.229428 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.228186 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127341 | 0.188873 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163662 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170332 | 0 | 0.178708 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.219039 | 0 | 0.443825 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.296876 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184264 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.387437 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.218382 | 0 | 0.174216 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.209081 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168686 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | justsayingoodbye91 | 2019/07/10 | Threat of Homelessness - my number one fear, but I won't go there I fucked up big time. Actions have consequences - that's the #1 thing I've learned lately. I've used my depression and anxiety as huge crutches, and as a result, I've squandered and missued the people trying to help me for YEARS. They told me exactly... | 4.804364 | 5.406129 | 6.123967 | 78.620338 | 69.125523 | 8.59452 | 31.737346 | 8.654492 | 2.558116 | 1,880 | 78 | 356 | 29 | 31 | 636 | 216 | 478 | 0.216 | 0.661 | 0.123 | -0.9943 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 77 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 4 | 19 | 26 | 9 | 2 | 20 | 0 | 33 | 10 | 2 | 6 | 3 | 66 | 72 | 42 | 2 | 4 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 4 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 20 | 30 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 7 | 9 | 16 | 19 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 43 | 7 | 60 | 55 | 6 | 61 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 17 | 30 | 5 | 4 | 21 | 245 | 63 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0.062842 | 0 | 0 | 0.062928 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071063 | 0 | 0 | 0.348868 | 0.391244 | 0.043792 | 0 | 0.049263 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052993 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078511 | 0.071121 | 0.109593 | 0 | 0 | 0.056954 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066153 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055465 | 0 | 0.133667 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114072 | 0.066539 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060707 | 0.144928 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070543 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.049753 | 0.238134 | 0.033645 | 0.061775 | 0.219588 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170837 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068451 | 0 | 0 | 0.172655 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063904 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106172 | 0 | 0.145284 | 0.136373 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.031461 | 0 | 0.056863 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054748 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124389 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073316 | 0 | 0 | 0.087274 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061474 | 0.089289 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061674 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054563 | 0 | 0 | 0.360433 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096836 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.042782 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.03755 | 0 | 0 | 0.061534 | 0 | 0.043721 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055618 | 0 | 0 | 0.075965 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062076 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.391244 | 0.082939 |
suicidewatch | loserbrainz | 2019/07/10 | my aunt and uncle kicked me out of their house because i’m suicidal. so a bit of a backstory (not too much but enough to understand the situation) i’m 17. i’ve been hospitalized multiple times for suicidal thoughts and i’ve been on over a dozen different medications to try and suppress these thoughts. a few months ago... | 4.395029 | 5.439924 | 5.342688 | 82.241725 | 70.326165 | 8.805514 | 28.286187 | 9.127658 | 2.20773 | 2,212 | 78 | 446 | 43 | 39 | 726 | 241 | 558 | 0.205 | 0.71 | 0.084 | -0.9978 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 55 | 5 | 2 | 19 | 1 | 31 | 27 | 3 | 0 | 24 | 0 | 33 | 13 | 3 | 5 | 3 | 80 | 79 | 48 | 4 | 4 | 9 | 4 | 7 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 3 | 3 | 2 | 18 | 39 | 0 | 2 | 18 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 11 | 16 | 1 | 4 | 40 | 15 | 101 | 11 | 72 | 38 | 9 | 76 | 0 | 10 | 5 | 0 | 49 | 31 | 0 | 5 | 40 | 327 | 119 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105448 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065636 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058987 | 0 | 0 | 0.048946 | 0.052948 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.045735 | 0 | 0.108772 | 0 | 0.050612 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064935 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060734 | 0 | 0.121284 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.038359 | 0 | 0.256143 | 0.060369 | 0 | 0.062142 | 0.204502 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122914 | 0 | 0.235709 | 0.107603 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056071 | 0 | 0.180444 | 0.042491 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.050592 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.031075 | 0.057057 | 0.067606 | 0 | 0.190281 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126445 | 0 | 0 | 0.079734 | 0 | 0.119323 | 0 | 0.117148 | 0.13726 | 0.127346 | 0 | 0 | 0.06208 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061938 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062979 | 0.064623 | 0 | 0 | 0.145291 | 0.059613 | 0 | 0 | 0.049947 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16884 | 0 | 0.060302 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.239673 | 0.299701 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09495 | 0.126432 | 0.043723 | 0.088205 | 0.045873 | 0 | 0.126512 | 0.055816 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.045236 | 0 | 0 | 0.066044 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056226 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058728 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056578 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066856 | 0 | 0 | 0.050396 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.042099 | 0.063396 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068088 | 0.260239 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089441 | 0.047806 | 0.051987 | 0 | 0.204056 | 0.069059 | 0.118544 | 0.114334 | 0 | 0.094438 | 0.034682 | 0 | 0 | 0.227337 | 0 | 0.080764 | 0 | 0.058102 | 0.123838 | 0 | 0.05137 | 0 | 0.049076 | 0.035082 | 0 | 0.04771 | 0 | 0.053478 | 0.055137 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | BelgianFencer | 2019/07/10 | I genuinely want to die. I’m honestly surprised how many people believe that all suicidal people just want the pain to end.
Not me, though. I no longer see any point in living, except a few temporary matters, perhaps.
Over the past year or so, I’ve sort of fluctuated between feeling great, working out, not being anxio... | 7.774557 | 6.609604 | 7.76313 | 75.300984 | 63.274809 | 10.80963 | 34.275984 | 9.85127 | 3.109647 | 1,064 | 37 | 204 | 18 | 13 | 344 | 148 | 262 | 0.167 | 0.6 | 0.232 | 0.8217 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 33 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 15 | 17 | 4 | 1 | 13 | 0 | 19 | 6 | 4 | 1 | 4 | 50 | 39 | 24 | 2 | 5 | 16 | 0 | 7 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 8 | 0 | 2 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 15 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 11 | 19 | 10 | 26 | 29 | 8 | 32 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 7 | 15 | 3 | 6 | 19 | 135 | 30 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097345 | 0 | 0.075163 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.255664 | 0 | 0 | 0.212362 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077345 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105894 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080953 | 0 | 0.097546 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078516 | 0 | 0.166493 | 0 | 0 | 0.124158 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.332667 | 0.201438 | 0 | 0 | 0.085905 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.207247 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.314995 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153228 | 0 | 0.099521 | 0 | 0.09611 | 0 | 0.137755 | 0 | 0.082994 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09529 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094719 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150043 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07249 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100011 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179447 | 0.130321 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177701 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099969 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.224692 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192957 | 0 | 0.105648 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102809 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062442 | 0.060225 | 0.092344 | 0 | 0.054806 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102233 | 0 | 0.293539 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166312 | 0 | 0.075393 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068425 | 0 | 0.095783 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060526 |
suicidewatch | SaySomethingPlease | 2019/07/10 | Why do people do it the painful way? What’s with the scary painful ways people go about the end? I couldn’t see myself hurting myself but do some people see it as a release of pain and tension? I go on walks a lot for anxiety and listen to music and cry but I’m not a fan of pain and I have reasons not to give up yet. | 0.026922 | 1.737397 | 2.326278 | 96.449859 | 83.788732 | 4.620523 | 20.002012 | 5.288315 | -0.345171 | 247 | 7 | 59 | 1 | 7 | 84 | 47 | 71 | 0.357 | 0.643 | 0 | -0.9796 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 13 | 12 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 10 | 11 | 2 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 40 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127446 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182998 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147555 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159814 | 0.189361 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178345 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141634 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.709081 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.346491 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171289 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.265511 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.264473 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150327 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Adderly_ | 2019/07/10 | I stopped caring about everything My 18th birthday was 4 days ago and i got a lot
I know people care and will miss me when im gone but i feel like i dont care
I used to go online every day and hear people talk about themselves because i had absolutely no one else to talk to and felt better showing up for strangers w... | 2.325833 | 3.673273 | 3.700226 | 90.850041 | 75.807512 | 6.514112 | 21.4496 | 7.048012 | 0.417007 | 791 | 19 | 175 | 8 | 17 | 260 | 117 | 213 | 0.111 | 0.657 | 0.232 | 0.9838 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 18 | 17 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 16 | 2 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 39 | 44 | 21 | 1 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 15 | 1 | 2 | 7 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 7 | 27 | 14 | 24 | 34 | 6 | 26 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 5 | 0 | 3 | 19 | 112 | 33 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062403 | 0 | 0 | 0.07291 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073817 | 0 | 0 | 0.13963 | 0.049223 | 0.07213 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06614 | 0 | 0 | 0.042913 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06226 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.645969 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181601 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073061 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07204 | 0.412523 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.23523 | 0 | 0 | 0.072739 | 0 | 0.046497 | 0 | 0.118625 | 0.134535 | 0.063268 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106784 | 0.100583 | 0.067592 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054388 | 0 | 0.036779 | 0 | 0.040008 | 0 | 0.056303 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079342 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06992 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152082 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.038688 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068785 | 0 | 0 | 0.062299 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119698 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05175 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.047703 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146413 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070768 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.045098 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060119 | 0 | 0.055982 | 0.07048 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070448 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056219 | 0.058855 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169747 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090215 | 0 | 0 | 0.082098 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121601 | 0 | 0 | 0.041522 | 0 | 0 | 0.085724 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | anonymoususer940 | 2019/07/10 | Really close to ending it all Every day everything gets worse. I'm a horrible person, a disappointment to my mom, a lazy, fat, ugly failure, and a drug addict. Every time im having a good day it goes wrong and every time im having a bad day it gets worse. Every time im in the kitchen I stare at the bleach thinking "May... | 3.101765 | 4.15957 | 5.331647 | 81.060412 | 73.411765 | 7.792941 | 22.423529 | 8.238736 | 1.229067 | 256 | 6 | 51 | 4 | 5 | 90 | 42 | 68 | 0.365 | 0.598 | 0.037 | -0.9771 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 4 | 6 | 1 | 11 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 22 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161627 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123792 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.286849 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171936 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131316 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.499667 | 0 | 0.133248 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154921 | 0 | 0 | 0.124355 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.480444 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148949 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173642 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129456 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09498 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095 | 0 | 0 | 0.259358 | 0 | 0.140535 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.302183 | 0 | 0.162101 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | LiftAus | 2019/07/10 | I don’t know what to do anymore So I’m currently wondering if suicide is an option in my circumstance but I don’t want to leave my 7 month old puppy. I just lost my job, I have a phone bill due in 7 days, I have no food in my cupboard my rent is due tomorrow and I have $3.37 to my name. I’m currently wondering about sl... | 2.06382 | 2.877078 | 4.48391 | 87.087368 | 75.631579 | 8.796992 | 26.203008 | 9.236283 | 1.942669 | 337 | 12 | 79 | 8 | 7 | 119 | 59 | 95 | 0.141 | 0.842 | 0.017 | -0.8687 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 10 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 17 | 21 | 8 | 1 | 3 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 14 | 1 | 7 | 18 | 0 | 12 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 6 | 8 | 45 | 15 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.201234 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.204229 | 0.143992 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132809 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.249013 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197548 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.204355 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113175 | 0 | 0 | 0.218052 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.224799 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164373 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.216091 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.225256 | 0 | 0.194088 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121464 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.669972 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | kaylove2001 | 2019/07/10 | Vent ig? Hiya. Um. I came here because honestly I’m not sure what to do and I’m scaring myself.
It started when I was 15. I was depressed. But not super depressed. I would cry a lot and hide my true feelings. I reached out to a friend and asked her not to say anything about it. I just needed someone to talk to. Of co... | -0.672402 | 1.501132 | 1.967782 | 92.481387 | 98.154519 | 4.804423 | 17.841961 | 6.549554 | 0.160537 | 1,276 | 39 | 272 | 19 | 53 | 437 | 177 | 343 | 0.196 | 0.655 | 0.149 | -0.9126 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 53 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 18 | 26 | 2 | 2 | 7 | 0 | 26 | 3 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 55 | 53 | 20 | 2 | 11 | 12 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 12 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 9 | 14 | 1 | 4 | 16 | 5 | 62 | 12 | 42 | 35 | 5 | 44 | 0 | 8 | 2 | 0 | 23 | 16 | 0 | 4 | 22 | 188 | 74 | 1 | 0 | 0.117268 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087734 | 0 | 0 | 0.102507 | 0 | 0.079149 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069205 | 0.10141 | 0.081447 | 0.088108 | 0.092527 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082639 | 0.120667 | 0 | 0.084219 | 0 | 0.207733 | 0.087534 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113199 | 0 | 0.203346 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108718 | 0.191489 | 0 | 0.340983 | 0 | 0.102719 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08268 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088951 | 0.096815 | 0.093304 | 0 | 0.050044 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084187 | 0 | 0 | 0.152934 | 0 | 0.05171 | 0 | 0.112498 | 0 | 0.158317 | 0 | 0.109031 | 0 | 0.087522 | 0.210719 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13268 | 0 | 0 | 0.098303 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1095 | 0 | 0 | 0.080677 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139816 | 0 | 0 | 0.087396 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084144 | 0 | 0.093651 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107811 | 0 | 0 | 0.099742 | 0 | 0 | 0.115917 | 0.158 | 0 | 0 | 0.146775 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134134 | 0.150548 | 0 | 0 | 0.109899 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10671 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12681 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078708 | 0.19818 | 0 | 0.157738 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08386 | 0 | 0.097887 | 0 | 0.070054 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093281 | 0 | 0 | 0.238654 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065754 | 0 | 0 | 0.078574 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067197 | 0 | 0.096683 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058377 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070308 | 0 | 0 | 0.063736 |
suicidewatch | throwawayemotonalbs | 2019/07/10 | My wife has had affairs I found out my partner has had affairs. I’m walking around a city looking for a way to die.
It was never easy for you Demi. Not before or after me.
I don’t have a way to say that to you right now. I don’t have a way to ask for forgiveness or to forgive you.
I wish I could.
I mean them. | -1.403063 | 0.326897 | 1.665616 | 98.928283 | 89.704225 | 4.11338 | 18.734155 | 5.148861 | -0.603213 | 235 | 7 | 60 | 1 | 8 | 83 | 44 | 71 | 0.095 | 0.801 | 0.104 | -0.1043 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 16 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 13 | 2 | 11 | 11 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 12 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 45 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.221528 | 0.23264 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.211752 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198685 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.258266 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.27285 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.20897 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.271069 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191927 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.212515 | 0 | 0.197894 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.592573 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.286164 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | strawberryxcore | 2019/07/10 | Pregnant and want to commit suicide Title basically says everything. What pushes me more is that they say I am all talk. :) | 4.836818 | 7.434241 | 5.863636 | 72.615455 | 72.181818 | 8.036364 | 29.181818 | 8.841846 | 2.851927 | 97 | 4 | 15 | 2 | 2 | 32 | 22 | 22 | 0.155 | 0.621 | 0.224 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.382259 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.676478 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.465241 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.341864 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.25087 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | blahblahblahblah16 | 2019/07/10 | I’m desperate for someone to listen to me I’m tired of life, I’m tired of the constant ups and downs, I’m tired of everything I feel like I’ve said this a million times, I just needed somewhere to vent. Everything I do or say gets ignored and nobody cares and I understand that but I’m desperate, I just needed to vent. | 0.543022 | 2.869406 | 2.822519 | 89.74333 | 87.059701 | 6.335075 | 23.300373 | 7.645422 | 1.318434 | 253 | 10 | 53 | 5 | 8 | 86 | 39 | 67 | 0.193 | 0.748 | 0.06 | -0.7469 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 14 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 6 | 2 | 10 | 13 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 29 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.203987 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.216207 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.359623 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101162 | 0.142931 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104529 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141317 | 0.097745 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.296702 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190314 | 0.159105 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16952 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116664 | 0.68986 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.208282 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | TehTexasRanger | 2019/07/10 | People like me need to die. People like me need to die. Im wasting air that good people breathe. People waste money on me. I'm a loser. My parents think so. Everything thinks so.
I've gained weight so I m a fat, kissless virgin loser whos so dumb that I took a shit college major but can't job a job. Even if I did. It'... | -0.32362 | 1.894444 | 1.715804 | 96.541289 | 91.176871 | 3.911063 | 17.260652 | 5.399115 | -0.620652 | 538 | 14 | 120 | 3 | 19 | 178 | 86 | 147 | 0.278 | 0.558 | 0.164 | -0.9681 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 21 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 9 | 17 | 4 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 6 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 13 | 17 | 11 | 4 | 4 | 6 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 5 | 7 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 18 | 10 | 10 | 15 | 4 | 7 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 5 | 2 | 2 | 4 | 67 | 25 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113515 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.266415 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11232 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.21444 | 0 | 0 | 0.26524 | 0 | 0.084774 | 0 | 0.108141 | 0 | 0.115353 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198326 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.215308 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126719 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127481 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13864 | 0 | 0.382103 | 0 | 0.142 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188116 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19034 | 0.098992 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142518 | 0 | 0 | 0.444909 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13175 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130837 | 0.108751 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103163 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08527 | 0.164483 | 0.126103 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142602 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156296 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | clever_lever | 2019/07/10 | Im ok, but I feel strange. I think I’ve posted here before when I wasn’t doing well. I’m still not doing well, but I’m not looking to die. I’m just not sure where to go with this. I quit smoking weed several weeks back. Not quite two months, but close. I think. Honestly, time has started to ... I can’t explain it... | 0.000673 | 2.286836 | 1.825552 | 95.917832 | 90.131387 | 4.810261 | 18.959958 | 6.403712 | -0.037176 | 2,038 | 61 | 457 | 23 | 70 | 667 | 226 | 548 | 0.114 | 0.724 | 0.161 | 0.9744 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 109 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 9 | 38 | 33 | 3 | 0 | 8 | 2 | 41 | 11 | 4 | 5 | 6 | 83 | 97 | 26 | 1 | 4 | 25 | 1 | 13 | 14 | 1 | 4 | 6 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 36 | 10 | 1 | 4 | 27 | 3 | 0 | 9 | 25 | 9 | 3 | 1 | 16 | 20 | 66 | 24 | 53 | 75 | 7 | 81 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 17 | 29 | 2 | 6 | 53 | 275 | 102 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0.057924 | 0.194125 | 0 | 0 | 0.052617 | 0 | 0.059438 | 0.122953 | 0 | 0 | 0.14817 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062241 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097692 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.045642 | 0 | 0.036184 | 0 | 0.202035 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060611 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062792 | 0 | 0 | 0.064144 | 0.133149 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102249 | 0 | 0.061604 | 0.062016 | 0 | 0 | 0.051944 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052573 | 0 | 0 | 0.07841 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053347 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.360155 | 0.16962 | 0.056992 | 0.065023 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065082 | 0.045859 | 0 | 0.031012 | 0 | 0.067468 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05249 | 0 | 0 | 0.058603 | 0.182754 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.039786 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064116 | 0 | 0 | 0.05276 | 0 | 0 | 0.065243 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083852 | 0.405987 | 0 | 0.052414 | 0.052529 | 0.149536 | 0.066406 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060179 | 0.119265 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062969 | 0 | 0.069519 | 0.047379 | 0 | 0.043635 | 0 | 0.09156 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056663 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066917 | 0.113696 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126268 | 0.059374 | 0 | 0.038026 | 0 | 0 | 0.063728 | 0 | 0.202764 | 0.112925 | 0.047203 | 0 | 0 | 0.0473 | 0.054037 | 0 | 0.067057 | 0.06093 | 0.098202 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100587 | 0.091393 | 0 | 0 | 0.084027 | 0 | 0.094806 | 0.049625 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055944 | 0 | 0.044629 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118303 | 0.152135 | 0 | 0 | 0.207671 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0403 | 0 | 0.057984 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105032 | 0.09423 | 0.095226 | 0 | 0.160108 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057218 | 0 | 0.086426 | 0.06028 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.038224 |
suicidewatch | kvnway | 2019/07/10 | 21's not to young is it? No options left. I'm 21, living with my parents as I finish college. Since I was 12 I've dealt with depersonalization/derealizstion. When I first got it I remember crying myself to sleep every night for a week hoping I'd wake up from it. I didn't but the symptoms became manageable. However a si... | 3.156751 | 4.945744 | 5.010654 | 80.474109 | 74.559503 | 7.988647 | 27.964514 | 8.718977 | 2.209654 | 2,223 | 90 | 437 | 45 | 47 | 760 | 271 | 563 | 0.13 | 0.731 | 0.139 | 0.8435 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 62 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 9 | 26 | 27 | 2 | 5 | 23 | 0 | 49 | 10 | 4 | 9 | 6 | 69 | 89 | 29 | 2 | 14 | 10 | 2 | 2 | 3 | 2 | 4 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 21 | 19 | 2 | 2 | 8 | 2 | 2 | 12 | 16 | 12 | 0 | 3 | 24 | 9 | 69 | 15 | 83 | 57 | 8 | 72 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 25 | 33 | 0 | 5 | 29 | 302 | 90 | 18 | 0 | 0 | 0.074256 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083971 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.051746 | 0 | 0.116423 | 0 | 0 | 0.053206 | 0 | 0.062619 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142985 | 0.175534 | 0 | 0 | 0.084039 | 0 | 0 | 0.079856 | 0.067299 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0777 | 0 | 0 | 0.078169 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16446 | 0 | 0.060755 | 0 | 0.167171 | 0 | 0.078449 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067396 | 0.078625 | 0 | 0.100518 | 0 | 0.064112 | 0 | 0.068388 | 0 | 0.143469 | 0.085627 | 0.038475 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139096 | 0.064725 | 0.092013 | 0 | 0.05879 | 0 | 0.039756 | 0 | 0.129737 | 0 | 0.121718 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075127 | 0 | 0 | 0.171526 | 0 | 0 | 0.080397 | 0 | 0.075578 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082194 | 0.079422 | 0.302045 | 0.067636 | 0 | 0 | 0.041819 | 0 | 0 | 0.080572 | 0.165352 | 0 | 0 | 0.111527 | 0.152532 | 0.134384 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144003 | 0.101586 | 0 | 0.076446 | 0 | 0 | 0.076656 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060737 | 0 | 0.055938 | 0.056423 | 0.058688 | 0.073492 | 0 | 0.071409 | 0 | 0 | 0.086633 | 0 | 0 | 0.051563 | 0.115745 | 0 | 0.08928 | 0.084493 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071933 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072811 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086199 | 0.064984 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060637 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062945 | 0 | 0.076149 | 0.155136 | 0.128948 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063618 | 0.087165 | 0 | 0 | 0.083234 | 0 | 0 | 0.158181 | 0 | 0.061161 | 0 | 0 | 0.08702 | 0 | 0 | 0.048758 | 0 | 0 | 0.133113 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103325 | 0 | 0.074332 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062785 | 0.134646 | 0 | 0.061038 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175008 | 0 | 0.08252 | 0.276986 | 0.077277 | 0 | 0.162164 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Pshycosef | 2019/07/10 | help i feel like ending it but im expected to do great things with my life
id rather stay as anonymous as possible but im in high school
i feel like every passing day my contributions to the world become weaker and i become more worthless
my family is supportive but if i tell then external help will be forced and th... | 3.104837 | 4.906809 | 4.240717 | 85.883639 | 74.734266 | 7.563869 | 23.804779 | 8.3441 | 1.359914 | 564 | 17 | 116 | 10 | 12 | 184 | 91 | 143 | 0.161 | 0.677 | 0.162 | -0.1997 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 8 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 10 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 28 | 18 | 15 | 0 | 6 | 8 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 9 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 16 | 5 | 15 | 13 | 5 | 17 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 9 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 75 | 24 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11495 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.305146 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146142 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089094 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161908 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122358 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116395 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130233 | 0.155454 | 0.209554 | 0.197385 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106732 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152308 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.277792 | 0.14596 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.447668 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075922 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097578 | 0.134984 | 0 | 0.121987 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14006 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.203108 | 0.102434 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144335 | 0 | 0 | 0.15574 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13831 | 0.139812 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155283 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147247 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156768 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120747 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091779 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150265 | 0 | 0.143816 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109655 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | weirdoanonny | 2019/07/10 | I have so many wishes. Can’t name them all. I just want my loved ones to be happy, and for myself to be erased from their memories and past, as if I never existed.
I can’t kill myself. I don’t want anyone to blame themselves. But I can’t fight it. I can’t find the overwhelming depression. Happiness is just temporary. ... | 0.528289 | 2.974506 | 2.745053 | 88.918368 | 89.921053 | 6.724211 | 18.126316 | 7.908726 | 0.918615 | 293 | 8 | 61 | 7 | 10 | 99 | 51 | 76 | 0.136 | 0.614 | 0.25 | 0.8132 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 8 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 9 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 15 | 14 | 7 | 1 | 4 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 3 | 7 | 12 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 44 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171228 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.210917 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.253029 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.223818 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.521364 | 0.219367 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.270926 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.221016 | 0 | 0 | 0.248272 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188869 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165939 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.233768 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166259 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.288876 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.281603 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | fadingdaisiez | 2019/07/10 | simple enough I just want to die really. It’s that simple. I’m just so tired of trying and pretending. I just don’t want to anymore. I don’t care. I’m just tired. | -1.945 | -0.152539 | 1.172222 | 97.345 | 104 | 4.622222 | 11.555556 | 6.427356 | -0.801244 | 126 | 2 | 30 | 2 | 6 | 44 | 22 | 36 | 0.288 | 0.531 | 0.182 | -0.801 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 7 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 3 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 17 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.289752 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.297885 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.303224 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.301888 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.18717 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.671609 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198363 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.344657 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Dibbles540 | 2019/07/10 | Not eating anymore Today is the day. I’m committing myself to not eating as long as I can stand it or until I drop dead. | 2.098462 | 3.181174 | 4.910769 | 83.009231 | 75.923077 | 6.738462 | 20.692308 | 7.168622 | 0.650908 | 94 | 2 | 19 | 1 | 2 | 34 | 21 | 26 | 0.231 | 0.722 | 0.047 | -0.7269 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 3 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 14 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.367831 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.239199 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.759043 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.328233 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.351568 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | burgerfootlet | 2019/07/10 | Hello I’m just not sure what I should do Well I guess you probably heard it before but how should I call the hotline but I’m afraid my mom is gonna flip out and think I need to be brought in the mental ward I’m 17 so I can’t legally say no to the forms despite the fact they don’t know what I really need to feel better ... | 1.410537 | 2.605247 | 3.484777 | 92.087876 | 77.901734 | 6.561354 | 22.183732 | 7.168622 | 0.526721 | 612 | 17 | 144 | 7 | 14 | 209 | 99 | 173 | 0.179 | 0.711 | 0.109 | -0.9556 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 7 | 10 | 2 | 2 | 10 | 0 | 18 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 30 | 40 | 11 | 2 | 7 | 6 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 9 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 19 | 5 | 12 | 32 | 3 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 19 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 88 | 28 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162875 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121458 | 0 | 0 | 0.167911 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089973 | 0 | 0.125593 | 0 | 0 | 0.130536 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.452133 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159498 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127123 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074628 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141587 | 0.083882 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162593 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163292 | 0 | 0.081114 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148741 | 0 | 0 | 0.172862 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.437759 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173171 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102324 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159132 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189106 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117373 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139107 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129005 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094573 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.307303 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087055 | 0.117154 | 0.118392 | 0 | 0.132706 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | luisfernandogo | 2019/07/10 | I just want to sleep.
I hate ... everything. Also everyone. I do not have peace. I do not have tranquility. My life ... it's horrible. It is miserable.
But when I sleep ... that darkness that seems to last 1 minute and really lasts 4 hours ... is beautiful.
Without feeling. Emotionless. Without people. Lifeless.
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suicidewatch | foles9foles9foles9 | 2019/07/10 | Where to turn when you have literally zero support network and absolutely nothing left to live for? I have quite literally zero friends, and my family is abusive. I have nowhere to turn at all. I have tried every avenue at this point...literally every angle that I've thought as a potential stepping stone in life. At th... | 5.661154 | 7.628754 | 6.42359 | 72.163077 | 68.358974 | 9.302564 | 34.794872 | 9.725611 | 3.762318 | 341 | 17 | 56 | 8 | 6 | 112 | 53 | 78 | 0.223 | 0.708 | 0.069 | -0.9256 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 8 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 13 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 9 | 12 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 7 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 38 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0.225931 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197492 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19993 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.481982 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179761 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147323 | 0.176285 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.20718 | 0 | 0.134687 | 0 | 0 | 0.168379 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182968 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.360518 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202817 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.216387 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151383 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129463 | 0.414822 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | lovefabric | 2019/07/10 | Still Here. So the other night it didn’t go as planned. Still here. I must have taken the bag off in my sleep. Still have the thought of sleeping forever. Today was a good day. But when I’m by myself too long that’s all I think about. Think about how my life has no purpose anymore. My life is meaningless. No one wants ... | 0.899417 | 3.467662 | 2.645332 | 89.029289 | 90.616766 | 5.778599 | 25.224941 | 7.255503 | 1.533449 | 663 | 30 | 129 | 12 | 23 | 218 | 100 | 167 | 0.117 | 0.838 | 0.044 | -0.8748 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 21 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 13 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 19 | 8 | 4 | 2 | 2 | 20 | 36 | 12 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 1 | 20 | 2 | 17 | 28 | 1 | 15 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 11 | 92 | 28 | 0 | 0.131237 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1092 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.260304 | 0 | 0 | 0.323992 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080001 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084637 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109632 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.250806 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074585 | 0.110076 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072125 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185394 | 0.064116 | 0 | 0 | 0.116141 | 0.110206 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132256 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097311 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123157 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17786 | 0.299436 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119474 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.393997 | 0 | 0 | 0.202066 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.314419 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087188 | 0.252275 | 0 | 0.104188 | 0 | 0.150838 | 0.124398 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113347 | 0 | 0 | 0.077407 | 0.10417 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | RuthlessYeezy | 2019/07/10 | After two strangers saved me I had a long wonder and after a long time I thought it was inevitable that I would die tonight, I went to a different, higher place and I just sat there staring at the stars thinking about how beautiful life is, but I knew it was the only way I could feel better. A lot of police cane and to... | 6.133462 | 4.919798 | 6.689359 | 81.834808 | 66.564103 | 9.851282 | 31.038462 | 8.841846 | 2.233092 | 295 | 9 | 63 | 4 | 4 | 97 | 56 | 78 | 0.033 | 0.825 | 0.142 | 0.7913 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 17 | 16 | 5 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 2 | 11 | 3 | 8 | 5 | 1 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 45 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.205084 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185142 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.24066 | 0.242271 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117248 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163787 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.410422 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197141 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176359 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.242271 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.297103 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148583 | 0 | 0.184091 | 0.135214 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.257633 | 0 | 0 | 0.226518 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136772 | 0.18406 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.21496 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.25147 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164725 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | deepseaweasel | 2019/07/10 | I'm so scared I don't want to live anymore. I feel like a waste of skin. A mistake. That's what my sperm donor called me.
But
What if the light at the end of the tunnel turns out to be the light from a hospital room, and I'm a baby again?
What if it's a circle? What if I'm doomed to repeat this horrible existence ov... | -1.431727 | 0.435372 | 1.055311 | 102.127065 | 91.782609 | 4.677019 | 14.301242 | 6.182691 | -0.967832 | 388 | 7 | 103 | 4 | 14 | 131 | 59 | 115 | 0.272 | 0.706 | 0.022 | -0.9748 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 22 | 18 | 8 | 0 | 10 | 7 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 11 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 11 | 1 | 15 | 17 | 1 | 12 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 67 | 22 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202009 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.207994 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180412 | 0 | 0 | 0.269076 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102994 | 0.145519 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111945 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099514 | 0 | 0.359731 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.203933 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130519 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.22156 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.720863 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | inasahr | 2019/07/10 | I don’t think I can do it anymore My ex forgot me
My friends forgot me
My mom is to drunk to remember me
And I don’t feel like myself anymore.
Please, help!
I am a 19 year old girl
I just want to keep going.
But I don’t think I can do it anymore | -2.61931 | -0.924357 | 0.868534 | 101.748664 | 98.137931 | 3.589655 | 15.87069 | 5.148861 | -1.030041 | 187 | 5 | 50 | 1 | 8 | 67 | 34 | 58 | 0.043 | 0.738 | 0.219 | 0.8313 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 9 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 17 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 14 | 2 | 3 | 15 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 32 | 16 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.675804 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114852 | 0.162273 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175493 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129092 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152251 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.201898 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110972 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.266031 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.238352 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.249338 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.257312 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.291092 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133977 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146275 |
suicidewatch | disposeableageman | 2019/07/10 | I always liked my Smith and Wesson It's a Canadian mark II hand ejector, over 100 years old. When I first bought it the finish was gone, it was full of gunk and grime, the action was as rough as could be, the grip was broken, and someone had labeled it as an m1917. I hand polished every speck of what was left off of ev... | 4.178404 | 4.813087 | 4.868685 | 86.9444 | 70.542553 | 7.292596 | 25.944255 | 7.087007 | 1.053784 | 1,444 | 41 | 301 | 12 | 25 | 465 | 211 | 376 | 0.131 | 0.713 | 0.156 | 0.9198 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 49 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 7 | 14 | 21 | 4 | 3 | 26 | 0 | 31 | 5 | 2 | 5 | 1 | 48 | 53 | 32 | 4 | 4 | 17 | 2 | 9 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 20 | 12 | 1 | 1 | 9 | 1 | 2 | 6 | 15 | 10 | 0 | 2 | 16 | 12 | 42 | 11 | 34 | 34 | 5 | 38 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 17 | 14 | 0 | 9 | 17 | 205 | 62 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124454 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103416 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140028 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126718 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099232 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103825 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08209 | 0.112424 | 0.209433 | 0.118761 | 0 | 0 | 0.117166 | 0 | 0.062843 | 0 | 0.119334 | 0 | 0 | 0.105718 | 0 | 0 | 0.096023 | 0 | 0.064934 | 0 | 0 | 0.104245 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122707 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123335 | 0 | 0.275008 | 0 | 0.204913 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135037 | 0 | 0 | 0.12144 | 0 | 0 | 0.109989 | 0.104369 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.224346 | 0 | 0.082962 | 0.126007 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145562 | 0 | 0 | 0.091365 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130417 | 0 | 0 | 0.094525 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108522 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119032 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079621 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.210614 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129931 | 0 | 0 | 0.141038 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.41285 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144944 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084382 | 0 | 0.121409 | 0 | 0 | 0.107343 | 0 | 0 | 0.073307 | 0.098652 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112149 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180963 | 0 | 0.126658 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160072 |
suicidewatch | Half_A_Bad_Sandwich | 2019/07/10 | Someone give me a reason to not kill myself. I am prone to considering suicide for small reasons, most likely because I have a very nihilistic approach to life. In those moments when I’m having a fun time, I have no thoughts to end my life, but when something bad happens, I start considering it. My biggest fear is that... | 8.525106 | 7.123968 | 8.45754 | 71.681077 | 61.948207 | 11.394555 | 36.852922 | 10.317481 | 3.665613 | 2,078 | 80 | 382 | 38 | 24 | 676 | 221 | 502 | 0.161 | 0.626 | 0.213 | 0.982 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 44 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 5 | 22 | 37 | 4 | 2 | 25 | 0 | 41 | 4 | 1 | 5 | 4 | 71 | 74 | 28 | 6 | 9 | 11 | 2 | 2 | 7 | 9 | 9 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 24 | 23 | 0 | 6 | 11 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 11 | 13 | 0 | 2 | 19 | 3 | 71 | 24 | 64 | 44 | 13 | 81 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 26 | 25 | 0 | 6 | 50 | 280 | 95 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057892 | 0.052516 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124245 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.048753 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098932 | 0.072229 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124346 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102067 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.20989 | 0.061215 | 0 | 0.07826 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05585 | 0.066666 | 0.059911 | 0.084648 | 0 | 0.064899 | 0.054148 | 0.050393 | 0 | 0 | 0.411945 | 0 | 0.061905 | 0.056832 | 0.101009 | 0.049691 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052389 | 0.063066 | 0 | 0.116982 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.03971 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157976 | 0.131089 | 0 | 0 | 0.048292 | 0 | 0.188192 | 0 | 0 | 0.125537 | 0.202605 | 0 | 0.052313 | 0 | 0.04975 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062848 | 0 | 0 | 0.094576 | 0 | 0 | 0.087857 | 0.045693 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180231 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056555 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066789 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075906 | 0.24365 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.29979 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.049007 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.050197 | 0.136827 | 0 | 0 | 0.125799 | 0.063146 | 0 | 0.049531 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.259213 | 0.067229 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.047618 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078718 | 0 | 0 | 0.094066 | 0.172728 | 0 | 0 | 0.05661 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.048882 | 0 | 0.09405 | 0.047522 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057109 | 0 | 0.04313 | 0.060165 | 0.060375 | 0.294596 | 0 | 0 | 0.038151 |
suicidewatch | confessionaccount000 | 2019/07/10 | I’m a gay teen, and I’m not sure I’ll make it to the end of high school. Everything feels heavy. I want to be alone all the time, but I also want someone to be there to comfort me. I can’t take compliments, I always think the person giving them is lying.
Don’t get me wrong, I have things worth living for. I’m still ve... | 0.502679 | 2.633482 | 2.953109 | 90.194266 | 84.92437 | 6.01448 | 20.918552 | 7.32111 | 0.681658 | 877 | 28 | 192 | 14 | 26 | 302 | 138 | 238 | 0.162 | 0.589 | 0.249 | 0.9708 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 36 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 9 | 16 | 2 | 0 | 11 | 0 | 19 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 39 | 46 | 13 | 1 | 5 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 9 | 13 | 0 | 3 | 7 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 9 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 2 | 28 | 13 | 14 | 38 | 5 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 13 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 112 | 37 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152456 | 0 | 0.235433 | 0.122483 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162572 | 0 | 0.165845 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161693 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130376 | 0 | 0 | 0.097225 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132294 | 0 | 0.138768 | 0 | 0.148858 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.227454 | 0 | 0.076906 | 0.141208 | 0.083658 | 0.123465 | 0.11773 | 0 | 0.162158 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155526 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130839 | 0 | 0 | 0.161795 | 0.119988 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103972 | 0.071915 | 0 | 0.129981 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125145 | 0.132854 | 0 | 0.098258 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11353 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167589 | 0 | 0 | 0.199494 | 0.111953 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10205 | 0.12853 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148975 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121766 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124723 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117555 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138735 | 0 | 0.110677 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097794 | 0.09432 | 0 | 0 | 0.085834 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121456 | 0.347291 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164344 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104567 | 0.160941 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Gon11 | 2019/07/10 | I’m ready So well so guess this is it. I really wanted to know how Attack on Titan ends, I really loved the MCU I cried while watching the climax of endgame, my mind was so blown away by all the people who made that movie possible. There’s so much talent and willpower in this world, and so much beautiful things in gene... | 1.076675 | 2.908757 | 2.864241 | 93.306007 | 80.861827 | 5.622436 | 19.910891 | 6.605767 | 0.09074 | 3,125 | 80 | 703 | 30 | 81 | 1,038 | 332 | 854 | 0.157 | 0.723 | 0.12 | -0.9908 | 4 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 106 | 3 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 48 | 46 | 16 | 0 | 49 | 1 | 62 | 19 | 1 | 9 | 4 | 111 | 146 | 63 | 3 | 15 | 15 | 7 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 4 | 32 | 39 | 0 | 3 | 18 | 1 | 24 | 8 | 19 | 23 | 2 | 6 | 51 | 12 | 128 | 23 | 88 | 85 | 16 | 98 | 4 | 4 | 4 | 14 | 94 | 30 | 10 | 12 | 59 | 464 | 160 | 19 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.042568 | 0 | 0 | 0.049736 | 0 | 0 | 0.119873 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.036736 | 0 | 0 | 0.033578 | 0 | 0.039518 | 0.128248 | 0.089787 | 0.054631 | 0.135353 | 0.295404 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.040863 | 0.162311 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.049035 | 0 | 0.048961 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153365 | 0.10627 | 0.158248 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.048741 | 0.049839 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.040116 | 0 | 0.127598 | 0.049619 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086317 | 0 | 0.04527 | 0 | 0.024281 | 0 | 0.138324 | 0 | 0 | 0.040847 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.221975 | 0.050178 | 0.1382 | 0.136458 | 0.040278 | 0.230443 | 0 | 0.052901 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.043018 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064375 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05541 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142962 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105565 | 0.078288 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067838 | 0.046922 | 0.09626 | 0.042404 | 0.042497 | 0 | 0 | 0.104842 | 0.040826 | 0.303388 | 0.045439 | 0.096164 | 0 | 0.048244 | 0.156928 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.048488 | 0.112484 | 0.229981 | 0 | 0.105904 | 0.106822 | 0 | 0.092759 | 0.102143 | 0 | 0 | 0.046078 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.036522 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.033292 | 0 | 0.050172 | 0.052713 | 0 | 0.054137 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.048034 | 0 | 0.184582 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.045679 | 0.076377 | 0 | 0.0486 | 0.038267 | 0.131151 | 0.050097 | 0 | 0.049293 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081377 | 0.110908 | 0 | 0.053756 | 0.135959 | 0 | 0.03835 | 0.080296 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.036106 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.031903 | 0 | 0 | 0.038124 | 0.112007 | 0 | 0.045519 | 0.13766 | 0.053354 | 0 | 0 | 0.04691 | 0 | 0.057764 | 0.041475 | 0 | 0 | 0.113297 | 0.076234 | 0.03852 | 0 | 0.086354 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055222 | 0 | 0 | 0.03496 | 0 | 0.048938 | 0.034113 | 0 | 0 | 0.123697 |
suicidewatch | shizzzzzzzzzz | 2019/07/10 | U.S. Army soldier (active) Thinkin bout eating some 7.62 stew. Figured I’d give this a shot. Yep. Title pretty much says it all. Been in the army 4 years, deployed, and this place just changed me into an angry homicidal crazy fucking maniac. Been to the shitty army therapist for about a year before I said fuck it and s... | 1.855163 | 4.239956 | 2.669804 | 92.743007 | 81.352941 | 5.189542 | 23.562092 | 6.427356 | 0.582876 | 670 | 24 | 137 | 6 | 18 | 210 | 111 | 170 | 0.156 | 0.75 | 0.094 | -0.8821 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 28 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 10 | 5 | 1 | 11 | 1 | 6 | 11 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 28 | 21 | 11 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 7 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 6 | 6 | 4 | 17 | 14 | 6 | 24 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 6 | 9 | 4 | 5 | 13 | 79 | 18 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087839 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121358 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.219826 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131895 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.273286 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083303 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132172 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.195934 | 0.092278 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.477656 | 0 | 0.12391 | 0.073409 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127897 | 0.114223 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.265128 | 0 | 0 | 0.153065 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063105 | 0 | 0 | 0.11431 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103101 | 0 | 0.094954 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.269907 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123708 | 0.131411 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122869 | 0.10272 | 0 | 0 | 0.10293 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109444 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103154 | 0.107991 | 0 | 0.135035 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149974 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102545 | 0.075319 | 0.29692 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091758 | 0 | 0 | 0.16636 |
suicidewatch | allquotestaken | 2019/07/10 | You're not alone It's heartbreaking to see so many people feeling suicidal. If anyone wants to chat or needs someone to listen please don't hesitate to send me a message. You're not a burden and you're not alone. No problem or emotion is too small or insignificant.
I suffer with anxiety, depression and EUPD.
I go fr... | 3.408049 | 5.505203 | 4.925371 | 80.010254 | 74.714286 | 7.187363 | 27.858516 | 8.076483 | 2.104922 | 370 | 15 | 65 | 6 | 8 | 124 | 67 | 91 | 0.183 | 0.561 | 0.256 | 0.4684 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 20 | 14 | 10 | 2 | 7 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 2 | 12 | 12 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 7 | 3 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 43 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.413232 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135663 | 0 | 0.152613 | 0 | 0 | 0.278982 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171824 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.224404 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10087 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113377 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133717 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.220711 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180051 | 0 | 0 | 0.202256 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147922 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.195462 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138304 | 0 | 0 | 0.218985 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190889 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158971 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169031 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.218214 | 0.226384 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127828 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117667 | 0.316698 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141715 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | j-7-t | 2019/07/10 | tired of existing, just waiting to die fighting my own mind everyday, I don't eat or sleep much, I quit my job & hobbies, abusing drugs and pushed my friends away because they're all better off without me, all I've done my entire life is fuck up I don't see no future and the present is already dark..
I don't want... | 1.534749 | 3.094561 | 3.042628 | 93.83015 | 78.471154 | 5.968376 | 23.094017 | 6.691623 | 0.453627 | 759 | 24 | 175 | 7 | 18 | 249 | 120 | 208 | 0.141 | 0.766 | 0.093 | -0.7505 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 20 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 12 | 11 | 3 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 19 | 9 | 3 | 1 | 3 | 29 | 40 | 9 | 1 | 5 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 15 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 25 | 4 | 21 | 32 | 7 | 24 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 11 | 5 | 2 | 2 | 14 | 106 | 33 | 2 | 0 | 0.138135 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.257311 | 0 | 0 | 0.126321 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115622 | 0.08152 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109536 | 0 | 0 | 0.213209 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103111 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118867 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120998 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.238616 | 0 | 0 | 0.135203 | 0.119297 | 0 | 0 | 0.103261 | 0.120464 | 0 | 0.154008 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.219814 | 0 | 0.058949 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090074 | 0.215564 | 0 | 0.11184 | 0.066258 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128433 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115694 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064073 | 0.095033 | 0 | 0.123448 | 0 | 0 | 0.082348 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13043 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117719 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085704 | 0 | 0.089918 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111867 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177338 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126251 | 0 | 0 | 0.101798 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124004 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092904 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.23334 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124265 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.203803 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074704 | 0 | 0 | 0.135964 | 0.133998 | 0 | 0.111403 | 0 | 0.079154 | 0 | 0 | 0.12137 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.275062 | 0 | 0.093518 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105201 | 0 | 0 | 0.112385 | 0 | 0.084876 | 0 | 0 | 0.082819 | 0 | 0 | 0.075078 |
suicidewatch | throwaway431666 | 2019/07/10 | Suicidal Volunteering I have a question on what you guys recommend for a crazy volunteering experience that is extremely dangerous. I ask this because I do not want to continue with life at all but I guess I am one of the lucky ones that has friends and family and couldn’t leave them thinking I killed myself.
I ap... | 6.18082 | 7.858803 | 6.570493 | 72.729037 | 66.712418 | 9.485205 | 38.092097 | 9.80015 | 4.175959 | 671 | 37 | 108 | 15 | 11 | 217 | 99 | 153 | 0.18 | 0.692 | 0.127 | -0.7011 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 3 | 7 | 3 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 13 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 34 | 28 | 9 | 2 | 6 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 17 | 3 | 19 | 23 | 2 | 13 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 13 | 10 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 83 | 26 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0.144631 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146984 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138556 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090347 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155537 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13127 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144978 | 0.139719 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114507 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084231 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16327 | 0.146751 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.298026 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158662 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163972 | 0 | 0.081452 | 0 | 0 | 0.156933 | 0 | 0 | 0.20937 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124459 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109896 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.200862 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.2055 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159795 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166029 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134925 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125578 | 0.228198 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162117 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111435 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189934 | 0 | 0.117662 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.349672 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.267473 | 0 | 0 | 0.142869 | 0 | 0.107898 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | danman0000 | 2019/07/10 | Back at here for some odd reason So apparently I’m narcissistic according to my sister and my psychiatrist. I feel humiliated cause I’m a horrible person. So I guess I am right when I said before I always hurt people close to me.
Why should I continue if I’m a shit person.
I just want someone to talk to | 2.12086 | 4.286297 | 5.37871 | 74.904731 | 79 | 8.649462 | 23.236559 | 9.299571 | 2.232088 | 242 | 8 | 47 | 7 | 6 | 89 | 44 | 62 | 0.251 | 0.727 | 0.021 | -0.9313 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 11 | 9 | 5 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 10 | 0 | 6 | 7 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 29 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.211488 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19544 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.216279 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.261101 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128515 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.279995 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.272093 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176208 | 0.44386 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.261327 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.217058 | 0.241772 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.2609 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.215356 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.204291 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149915 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.229347 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | NewEnglandSynthOrch | 2019/07/10 | Getting tired of all this I've tried numerous outlets for reaching out and failed, so I might as well stop here.
Anyways, on to the post: today, I had a bad day because I found out one of my coworkers got engaged. Yes, I know this is something that should logically be a happy thing, and I did congratulate her. Problem... | 8.036303 | 6.638462 | 7.920892 | 75.128962 | 62.903346 | 10.210009 | 36.305691 | 8.841846 | 3.089401 | 1,092 | 42 | 202 | 13 | 13 | 352 | 156 | 269 | 0.139 | 0.808 | 0.053 | -0.9763 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 27 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 19 | 11 | 1 | 0 | 14 | 1 | 19 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 33 | 35 | 17 | 1 | 6 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 15 | 11 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 5 | 6 | 1 | 9 | 13 | 2 | 32 | 5 | 37 | 16 | 6 | 30 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 14 | 13 | 0 | 2 | 11 | 157 | 47 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083284 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.218408 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173912 | 0.317426 | 0 | 0.088619 | 0 | 0 | 0.092107 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106343 | 0.119113 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.201493 | 0.107368 | 0 | 0 | 0.108085 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107609 | 0 | 0.137572 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052658 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088585 | 0 | 0.114189 | 0 | 0 | 0.054411 | 0 | 0.118375 | 0 | 0.333174 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110863 | 0 | 0.102821 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104465 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057235 | 0.084891 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.22068 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11048 | 0 | 0.121972 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141141 | 0.158413 | 0.110817 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099741 | 0 | 0 | 0.099652 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08282 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080175 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087069 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078303 | 0.334828 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.207566 | 0 | 0.102321 | 0 | 0.060727 | 0.239397 | 0.098716 | 0.099514 | 0 | 0.141414 | 0 | 0.101734 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1147 | 0 | 0.061427 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093638 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Sukowirowka | 2019/07/10 | I graduated today Years ago I told myself if I was 21 and still miserable and in the same abusive household and helpless I would just off myself. Suicide is something that’s crossed my mind almost daily. Today I had my thesis defense and passed with a good grade, I’m living with a loving partner, I’m only miserable som... | 1.530311 | 3.364353 | 3.620142 | 88.426154 | 79.425532 | 6.040589 | 22.902891 | 7.010147 | 0.751385 | 525 | 17 | 111 | 6 | 13 | 179 | 88 | 141 | 0.099 | 0.729 | 0.171 | 0.8983 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 9 | 2 | 2 | 5 | 1 | 8 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 29 | 22 | 12 | 1 | 6 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 7 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 2 | 20 | 4 | 9 | 13 | 5 | 18 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 6 | 1 | 6 | 9 | 72 | 27 | 2 | 0 | 0.206109 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154201 | 0 | 0.174192 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148024 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189915 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13889 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145318 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114896 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147967 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160819 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145906 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.31166 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095602 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153606 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157002 | 0.329202 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175646 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132301 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166602 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111441 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13392 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138921 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190279 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152045 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101435 | 0 | 0.32978 | 0.166222 | 0 | 0.118105 | 0.189214 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102604 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.200041 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123573 | 0 | 0 | 0.112022 |
suicidewatch | Fighting_Sands | 2019/07/10 | First time post on a throwaway account. Let's see where to begin. Death. I'm a "healthy" 40 yo with 30+ years of major depressive disorder. I'm married to a wonderful woman, have 4 wonderful children. The neuroses I developed as a child have led me to severe anxiety, constantly seeking approval, and a bit of codependen... | 3.76143 | 6.226772 | 5.569008 | 74.080117 | 75.011396 | 8.69899 | 33.143486 | 9.33951 | 3.680779 | 1,481 | 79 | 246 | 39 | 33 | 506 | 207 | 351 | 0.235 | 0.6 | 0.164 | -0.9851 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 63 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 9 | 24 | 3 | 0 | 24 | 0 | 20 | 7 | 2 | 7 | 3 | 43 | 47 | 15 | 2 | 2 | 8 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 9 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 8 | 10 | 0 | 4 | 6 | 5 | 22 | 14 | 49 | 40 | 6 | 39 | 6 | 6 | 3 | 2 | 11 | 16 | 2 | 7 | 14 | 155 | 31 | 4 | 0 | 0.120741 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077957 | 0 | 0.101062 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.344436 | 0 | 0 | 0.222508 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103899 | 0 | 0.107802 | 0.087782 | 0 | 0.110123 | 0 | 0 | 0.112756 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.263312 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116792 | 0.104304 | 0 | 0 | 0.119432 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085859 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093139 | 0.08668 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09421 | 0.053241 | 0 | 0.057915 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10848 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068305 | 0 | 0 | 0.101215 | 0 | 0 | 0.218183 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056004 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104205 | 0 | 0.099571 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086636 | 0.091973 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111004 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108377 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138107 | 0.155007 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097597 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102443 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11599 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16241 | 0 | 0 | 0.230247 | 0.104604 | 0.084297 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086344 | 0 | 0 | 0.114074 | 0 | 0.108617 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111468 | 0 | 0.288133 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067701 | 0.065297 | 0 | 0 | 0.118843 | 0.23425 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069187 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088013 | 0 | 0 | 0.060106 | 0 | 0.081742 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.221023 | 0.074188 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065623 |
suicidewatch | gtwitty | 2019/07/10 | Ugh.. not sure why or what to do I come home and everything feels so wrong my family, the apartment complex and me. I always get so depressed and even suicidal after a long time of not being suicidal, I mean I'm not scared of being suicidal I just know that's a bad sign. I also get urges to self harm and not allow myse... | 2.579918 | 4.471383 | 4.277019 | 84.658606 | 76.472527 | 7.626923 | 24.561813 | 8.472885 | 1.710307 | 354 | 12 | 70 | 7 | 8 | 119 | 63 | 91 | 0.437 | 0.521 | 0.043 | -0.9942 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 13 | 5 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 21 | 17 | 9 | 3 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 12 | 2 | 7 | 15 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 4 | 47 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179625 | 0.130171 | 0.135441 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13591 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140216 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140197 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166559 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107511 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146291 | 0 | 0.153449 | 0 | 0.164607 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.300964 | 0.170086 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160706 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163276 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089456 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079523 | 0 | 0 | 0.14405 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108653 | 0 | 0 | 0.177309 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162965 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.339618 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.534146 | 0 | 0.153413 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094915 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146878 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177968 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | notaloneravioli | 2019/07/10 | Everything is f i n e Everything is fine. I'm waiting for a massive amount of edibles to kick in. I'm watching the office. My boyfriend is worried for me because I'm acting weird and don't really know what to do. But I'm fine. This will pass.
I'm just an attention whore because that's what people with BPD are, attenti... | 1.986667 | 4.164569 | 3.774275 | 86.170235 | 79.522876 | 6.825098 | 26.213072 | 7.908726 | 1.713316 | 1,190 | 49 | 236 | 21 | 30 | 399 | 162 | 306 | 0.204 | 0.719 | 0.077 | -0.991 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 40 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 15 | 19 | 4 | 2 | 12 | 0 | 21 | 10 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 46 | 45 | 19 | 2 | 5 | 11 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 13 | 4 | 4 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 9 | 14 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 27 | 5 | 29 | 40 | 4 | 21 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 4 | 9 | 7 | 1 | 4 | 10 | 135 | 39 | 2 | 0 | 0.131377 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075404 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098709 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.540742 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139652 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08853 | 0 | 0.121799 | 0.14302 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115078 | 0 | 0.127081 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.22692 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073237 | 0 | 0.093423 | 0.105953 | 0.199308 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134079 | 0 | 0.085667 | 0.102509 | 0.115863 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122149 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109473 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127943 | 0.118702 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122675 | 0 | 0.060938 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097911 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074015 | 0 | 0.111396 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17701 | 0.11785 | 0.081511 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075137 | 0.084331 | 0.117986 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076872 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126208 | 0.071034 | 0.114005 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115674 | 0 | 0 | 0.183446 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185405 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071049 | 0.108941 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150563 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130802 | 0 | 0 | 0.135025 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161447 | 0.112606 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | phantomdoe | 2019/07/10 | At the end of my rope I made some earlier posts today, but as the day has progressed, I've gotten worse. I feel empty and hollow inside. I think I'm going to kill myself tomorrow or the day after, as my family will be gone. I've planned everything out carefully and I think it'll be oxygen deprivation. There is no light... | 1.267618 | 3.478672 | 3.070323 | 90.038945 | 82.387097 | 6.39603 | 20.828784 | 7.610547 | 0.795476 | 472 | 14 | 100 | 8 | 13 | 157 | 80 | 124 | 0.281 | 0.67 | 0.049 | -0.987 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 25 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 9 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 17 | 25 | 9 | 2 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 15 | 2 | 20 | 16 | 1 | 21 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 3 | 10 | 64 | 20 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189904 | 0.212971 | 0.119189 | 0.183785 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156026 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178698 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.226068 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155236 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.315041 | 0 | 0.165228 | 0 | 0.088621 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.199219 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.387818 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123798 | 0 | 0 | 0.154766 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165844 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167314 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167859 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139667 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.22461 | 0 | 0.139144 | 0 | 0.201446 | 0.166134 | 0 | 0 | 0.118996 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206756 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178614 | 0 | 0 | 0.212971 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Ophiron | 2019/07/10 | Living a life I cant afford, married to a woman i cant make happy, and father to a son who i cant provide for. The walls are closing in, Bill's are falling behind despite working two jobs and 7 days a week for over 2 years now and I just cant stand it anymore. If my life insurance policy was over 2 years old at this po... | 5.454545 | 3.907988 | 6.911798 | 80.774364 | 68.090909 | 9.536162 | 30.911111 | 8.238736 | 2.082126 | 357 | 11 | 78 | 4 | 5 | 124 | 66 | 99 | 0.155 | 0.845 | 0 | -0.9118 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 9 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 13 | 11 | 7 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 1 | 12 | 8 | 0 | 18 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 50 | 10 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.244319 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158879 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.232242 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14001 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.26225 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.24447 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.251916 | 0.348017 | 0 | 0 | 0.217537 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164444 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.258509 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.232886 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.240654 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197612 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17935 | 0 | 0 | 0.175004 | 0.269352 | 0 | 0.31729 |
suicidewatch | DopeSakura9191 | 2019/07/10 | I need help to support a friend who has lost her way. My friend and me have been best friend since high school and before she just had a snarky atittude and kind of a bully complex but she was nice. then we graduated and I went straight to college. Her mom didnt want her to go because she felt she wasnt ready. I just f... | 2.638083 | 4.289351 | 3.807222 | 89.14 | 75.638889 | 6.466667 | 25.055556 | 7.168622 | 0.996789 | 1,381 | 47 | 290 | 15 | 30 | 449 | 172 | 360 | 0.11 | 0.698 | 0.192 | 0.9873 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 22 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 17 | 24 | 3 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 43 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 53 | 65 | 29 | 2 | 4 | 10 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 9 | 28 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 9 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 18 | 4 | 67 | 19 | 41 | 42 | 8 | 43 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 54 | 19 | 0 | 3 | 10 | 222 | 76 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065412 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072815 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125791 | 0 | 0.149585 | 0.090336 | 0.069602 | 0 | 0.085839 | 0.072341 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086529 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191727 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.2161 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078536 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.379169 | 0 | 0.042735 | 0 | 0.139458 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174145 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164477 | 0.086421 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180989 | 0.170354 | 0.044953 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083641 | 0.057774 | 0 | 0 | 0.072227 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089289 | 0.069539 | 0.073823 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095798 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06065 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093124 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181648 | 0 | 0.078083 | 0.056707 | 0.07142 | 0 | 0 | 0.231969 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0524 | 0 | 0 | 0.087818 | 0 | 0 | 0.077806 | 0.065047 | 0 | 0.331125 | 0.06518 | 0 | 0.08533 | 0 | 0 | 0.135324 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185641 | 0.077091 | 0 | 0.0615 | 0.065744 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052411 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077532 | 0 | 0 | 0.277668 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144735 | 0.194776 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15165 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052673 |
suicidewatch | throwawaybooboo99 | 2019/07/10 | I’m considering killing myself. I have a pretty pain free and quick way to kill myself and I’m like 95% sure I’m going to do it. Advice? Yeah I have decided to end it. I’ve found an easy way out (not going to share it publicly for the safety of others). Can someone please PM me so I can confirm that this will work
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suicidewatch | twentyonepilotsfan0 | 2018/12/16 | Some help needed My feelings are an inner sanctum. I don’t have many people to open up to. I don’t know if I want to open up at all. I feel depressed is the hard truth. My mom screams at me every day and argues like there is no tomorrow. She puts me down, removes the happiness from my body, and plays with my feeli... | 0.105511 | 2.245944 | 1.70322 | 98.395568 | 86.916667 | 4.324242 | 18.102273 | 5.565023 | -0.5558 | 350 | 9 | 81 | 2 | 11 | 113 | 66 | 96 | 0.11 | 0.706 | 0.184 | 0.7783 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 9 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 21 | 17 | 4 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 5 | 15 | 5 | 13 | 15 | 2 | 18 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 9 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 54 | 16 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.220095 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170685 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127788 | 0 | 0.170663 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166946 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.300565 | 0.141555 | 0 | 0.217059 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158475 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.21093 | 0.1775 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132813 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108896 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193608 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.200889 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.464132 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146922 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.268537 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137369 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.199191 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.211197 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116871 | 0 | 0.15894 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178796 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | amiri22flower | 2018/12/16 | i’m a horrible person i wish that people who send me texts and stuff like,”you’re so strong and smart!” knew how weak and dumb i am. i’m not a good person, i constantly think about cheating on my girlfriend who’s been helping me endlessly and i almost cheated on my last one. i cheat and half as my way though school and... | 1.694871 | 4.006924 | 3.092481 | 89.91053 | 81.44186 | 6.61292 | 21.183463 | 7.793538 | 0.881177 | 335 | 10 | 71 | 6 | 9 | 109 | 57 | 86 | 0.243 | 0.524 | 0.233 | -0.4588 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 10 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 17 | 11 | 11 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 14 | 5 | 7 | 9 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 44 | 18 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.225641 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.243508 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.233863 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113937 | 0.16098 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117729 | 0 | 0 | 0.189001 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151038 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183679 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.330263 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152694 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.312439 | 0.393509 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.228052 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.257956 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144386 | 0.221391 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132909 | 0.178861 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.259125 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | JohnThePacifist | 2018/12/16 | Suicidal Thoughts How do I stop suicidal thought? I want to live, but so many times I just want to commit. I've cried about suicide, but at the same time I feel like I am deserving of the world. How do I stop it? | 0.130667 | 2.209847 | 1.817778 | 98.06 | 86.111111 | 6.266667 | 22.333333 | 7.554174 | 0.742467 | 163 | 6 | 40 | 3 | 5 | 53 | 31 | 45 | 0.352 | 0.495 | 0.153 | -0.9226 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 14 | 8 | 5 | 3 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 6 | 1 | 5 | 6 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 24 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.229765 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105763 | 0.149432 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10219 | 0 | 0.184702 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.212067 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.349753 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.686398 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.332117 | 0.243939 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.246749 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | leechusb | 2018/12/16 | I want to die and do it killing I lived for nothing, I had no one and no worth, I was useless and mad and nothing could help me.
She came
She fixed me, she touched all the right cords of a broken violin to make a beautiful melody
I loved for her
Now she's no more
Someone decided that he would lie to her, falsely expo... | 1.008108 | 2.616384 | 2.771432 | 94.963095 | 80.171171 | 6.241802 | 23.712613 | 7.168622 | 0.660289 | 398 | 14 | 96 | 5 | 10 | 132 | 73 | 111 | 0.343 | 0.486 | 0.171 | -0.9831 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 10 | 5 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 6 | 5 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 16 | 19 | 6 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 3 | 21 | 2 | 9 | 13 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 14 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 56 | 23 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150238 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.223467 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155998 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.405555 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.199926 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197584 | 0.139582 | 0 | 0 | 0.178577 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192901 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130962 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.216163 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095455 | 0 | 0.172527 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176341 | 0 | 0.26084 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.374952 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132397 | 0 | 0.207902 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166857 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.200558 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165548 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.230485 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138795 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | asdfg18 | 2018/12/16 | Confused So I want to start off by saying that I have SAD and this winter was the worse one. I broke up with my boyfriend because he didn’t understand how to handle my demons, I became anxious, suicidal, id cry all the time. I’ve always been good at handling my emotions but I think I depended on him too much and he let... | 3.021353 | 4.677318 | 3.733805 | 90.048026 | 74.614035 | 6.289223 | 25.664578 | 6.86897 | 0.951731 | 666 | 23 | 138 | 6 | 14 | 211 | 111 | 171 | 0.165 | 0.735 | 0.1 | -0.7693 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 16 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 8 | 11 | 1 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 18 | 3 | 3 | 5 | 3 | 34 | 32 | 12 | 2 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 3 | 24 | 3 | 20 | 19 | 5 | 23 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 10 | 0 | 4 | 9 | 98 | 32 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145756 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197892 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14415 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106782 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194575 | 0 | 0.195548 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.196468 | 0 | 0 | 0.192416 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197043 | 0 | 0.180998 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147588 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146924 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.309805 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1938 | 0 | 0 | 0.142787 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179123 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12877 | 0 | 0.135102 | 0 | 0 | 0.164385 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1187 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139302 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182741 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.247973 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191608 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.224484 | 0 | 0.139066 | 0.204286 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118929 | 0 | 0 | 0.182358 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10332 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162384 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178513 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | chicken__corn | 2018/12/16 | Help I just farted | -1.7675 | -1.148183 | 0.72 | 97.025 | 126.5 | 1.6 | 4 | 3.1291 | -2.6587 | 15 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 0.426 | 0.574 | 0.4019 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | 401gang | 2018/12/16 | I didn’t know when I woke up this morning that it’d be my last day alive I’ve been at work since 9am this morning (it’s almost 6pm here in Northeastern US). I work at a major retail chain.
I’ve pretty much been struggling with feelings of being a nuisance loser for the last 3 years. For the longest time I told myself... | 1.428686 | 3.208683 | 2.755211 | 94.764274 | 79.528169 | 5.214301 | 22.894908 | 5.873415 | 0.195564 | 1,049 | 34 | 236 | 6 | 26 | 339 | 160 | 284 | 0.165 | 0.712 | 0.123 | -0.9484 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 35 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 4 | 13 | 19 | 7 | 3 | 18 | 0 | 18 | 7 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 40 | 51 | 6 | 1 | 5 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 16 | 7 | 0 | 2 | 10 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 8 | 12 | 1 | 0 | 14 | 6 | 44 | 7 | 31 | 31 | 4 | 33 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 5 | 28 | 12 | 5 | 4 | 14 | 143 | 60 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103098 | 0 | 0.113617 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091655 | 0.096252 | 0 | 0.290199 | 0.079169 | 0 | 0.062763 | 0 | 0.17522 | 0 | 0 | 0.091058 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104973 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082204 | 0 | 0 | 0.0664 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091191 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052059 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094102 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079545 | 0.475917 | 0.161375 | 0 | 0.058514 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11342 | 0.101945 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105665 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069011 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10217 | 0.091514 | 0.113908 | 0 | 0.16975 | 0.16785 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100601 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086459 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097422 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112152 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075686 | 0.076342 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104746 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101659 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.195874 | 0.163753 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085168 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107635 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082754 | 0.17998 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131943 | 0 | 0.081738 | 0.120072 | 0 | 0 | 0.098381 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123846 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060728 | 0.081724 | 0 | 0 | 0.092572 | 0 | 0.185808 | 0 | 0.118397 | 0.198497 | 0 | 0.14991 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066302 |
suicidewatch | whyisitlikethis96 | 2018/12/16 | I don't feel like I can do this anymore. Dear Whoevermightreadthis,
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I have been a member of this group for a while now, trying to help others finding some light in their darkness. Tonight, I feel like I am the one that needs somebody's hand to pull through.
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Over the last 6 months or so, I ... | 4.220218 | 5.932836 | 4.104458 | 88.37905 | 71.590361 | 7.035403 | 29.636701 | 7.610547 | 1.70122 | 679 | 28 | 136 | 8 | 13 | 207 | 94 | 166 | 0.194 | 0.721 | 0.086 | -0.9105 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 34 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 0 | 15 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 23 | 32 | 6 | 1 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 8 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 9 | 26 | 6 | 18 | 27 | 3 | 16 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 4 | 0 | 3 | 14 | 93 | 34 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09503 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.348465 | 0.390793 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.212634 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119079 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109301 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122865 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.271027 | 0.306345 | 0 | 0 | 0.097982 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060926 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071856 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114764 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087385 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075721 | 0.209497 | 0 | 0.094663 | 0 | 0 | 0.119933 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085569 | 0 | 0 | 0.07949 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072644 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068677 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075879 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117263 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071221 | 0.137384 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102438 | 0 | 0.072784 | 0 | 0.209445 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.252926 | 0 | 0.085992 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.390793 | 0 |
suicidewatch | peachgumm | 2018/12/16 | i don’t see any point in living i guess my life isn’t all that bad but i just don’t understand why i keep going everyday. i’m not happy and i feel so fucking empty and i’m just letting my grades slip and not caring at all bc i’m not gonna be anything in life and i don’t think i plan on living past 40 and none of this m... | -0.821223 | 0.911748 | 2.261106 | 95.594 | 87.138298 | 5.674894 | 16.314894 | 6.961327 | -0.263107 | 635 | 13 | 160 | 9 | 20 | 226 | 93 | 188 | 0.26 | 0.679 | 0.061 | -0.9928 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 14 | 10 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 15 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 43 | 42 | 19 | 3 | 6 | 12 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 12 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 26 | 3 | 16 | 36 | 7 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 9 | 2 | 5 | 4 | 104 | 32 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0.120912 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084259 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101962 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116412 | 0 | 0.206909 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.252656 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079908 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.257185 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.245512 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111357 | 0 | 0.233611 | 0 | 0.125299 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.229094 | 0 | 0 | 0.070417 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.272988 | 0 | 0 | 0.131898 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.220263 | 0.137081 | 0 | 0.136189 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1267 | 0.175034 | 0 | 0 | 0.328228 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08396 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11828 | 0.085899 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.234258 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079376 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098735 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079393 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134772 | 0 | 0.128988 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102234 | 0.146163 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.223608 | 0 | 0.142483 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | hereatschool | 2018/12/16 | I’m thinking about killing myself The past few weeks have been the lowest point in my life. It’s not like there’s been some major new event or change in my life, but I just feel so miserable.
I’ve been crying, I’ve been angry, I’ve been punching myself in the thigh, I can’t sleep, I can’t force myself to do anything ... | 7.379621 | 5.591828 | 7.458905 | 79.167315 | 64.450237 | 10.146161 | 33.422275 | 8.548687 | 2.503868 | 818 | 26 | 166 | 9 | 10 | 265 | 121 | 211 | 0.276 | 0.664 | 0.06 | -0.9947 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 18 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 15 | 1 | 3 | 8 | 0 | 22 | 10 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 32 | 39 | 18 | 1 | 1 | 9 | 1 | 9 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 9 | 0 | 3 | 8 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 4 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 9 | 20 | 6 | 20 | 25 | 3 | 25 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 4 | 14 | 101 | 27 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16643 | 0 | 0 | 0.13371 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132237 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169993 | 0 | 0.168484 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176514 | 0 | 0 | 0.138405 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.243755 | 0.1148 | 0.154291 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083956 | 0 | 0.182652 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14395 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161189 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142832 | 0.177784 | 0 | 0.088313 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.227005 | 0.23552 | 0 | 0 | 0.142209 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155199 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122215 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1534 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151907 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182905 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132927 | 0 | 0.16081 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106758 | 0.308898 | 0 | 0 | 0.281105 | 0.184694 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128899 | 0 | 0 | 0.148965 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116987 | 0 | 0 | 0.114152 | 0 | 0 | 0.103481 |
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