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suicidewatch | HolyU12 | 2019/10/05 | I think im gonna kill myself tonight I just feel like my life is worthless, I have nothing to live for. I have no friends, i never go out, I sit in my room and cry all day. I'm addicted to drugs and I'm only 17. The one thing I had going I fucked it up and now I have no motivation at all. I dont want to be here anymore... | -2.114002 | -0.546637 | 1.108885 | 102.818566 | 91.371134 | 4.352015 | 16.034677 | 5.565023 | -1.032249 | 307 | 7 | 88 | 2 | 11 | 109 | 61 | 97 | 0.248 | 0.671 | 0.081 | -0.9365 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 18 | 23 | 5 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 14 | 2 | 10 | 19 | 4 | 13 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 53 | 18 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.214832 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.195438 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.216469 | 0.127092 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.461923 | 0 | 0.228535 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.199286 | 0.140785 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152254 | 0.182186 | 0.10296 | 0 | 0.223996 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.212866 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.218026 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139194 | 0.096277 | 0 | 0.174014 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15199 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189091 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133538 | 0.149879 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130923 | 0.252545 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.232471 | 0.156423 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | TheMaster8989 | 2019/10/05 | My last post I don't really want to go into tons of detail about what's been going on in my life for the past few years but I've decided it's time for me to end my pain and misery. I have nothing left to live for. No one who cares about me and no chances of having a successfull future. I've kept myself going for a few ... | 0.608523 | 2.155738 | 3.181818 | 91.842727 | 81.159091 | 5.763636 | 18.954545 | 6.627428 | 0.017268 | 309 | 7 | 71 | 3 | 8 | 108 | 60 | 88 | 0.176 | 0.757 | 0.067 | -0.8784 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 10 | 12 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 11 | 1 | 14 | 10 | 4 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 50 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.239683 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.24641 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.214058 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.412059 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197002 | 0 | 0 | 0.262587 | 0 | 0.170706 | 0 | 0 | 0.213409 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.283054 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.231899 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163769 | 0 | 0.257166 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.230712 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.231464 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154827 | 0.248488 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140926 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14255 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155635 |
suicidewatch | a-fricking-ice-cube | 2019/10/05 | It’s becoming my life I’m scared It started last week, then two days ago and it’s becoming more and more frequent, I don’t want help in person, I don’t want help. I’m on super thin ice and need to vent to someone new, that doesn’t know me at all, or if you do know me don’t remind me of the last few days | 0.142441 | 1.243156 | 2.486972 | 98.308674 | 81.112676 | 5.860094 | 18.875587 | 6.427356 | -0.339565 | 236 | 5 | 63 | 2 | 6 | 81 | 46 | 71 | 0.041 | 0.782 | 0.177 | 0.819 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 13 | 6 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 1 | 6 | 13 | 4 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 10 | 34 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193687 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.482632 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.281829 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.292912 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.240164 | 0.356213 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154333 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162015 | 0 | 0.211029 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190786 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.218757 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185134 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154655 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.213443 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.257754 | 0 | 0.175267 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | brad__staple721 | 2019/10/05 | LOG OFF What the fuck are we playing at? Dude check out r/outside they fucking get it. This is all just some video game. Let’s do it. Flip that power switch. | -1.802857 | -0.51744 | -0.521126 | 107.195455 | 115.969697 | 1.885714 | 13.805195 | 3.1291 | -1.781317 | 121 | 3 | 29 | 0 | 7 | 37 | 32 | 33 | 0.102 | 0.845 | 0.052 | -0.4019 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 6 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 18 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.849502 | 0.240042 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.469815 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | lydzbb | 2019/10/05 | My own self hatred is going to kill me. I wish it would already. I hate every part of my mental n physical self. My depression n ptsd is so severe and nothing helps it. I’ve spent 6 figures on psych treatment over 11 years, including multiple last-line treatments. All my effort has gone to getting better with little to... | 2.430724 | 4.639826 | 3.994951 | 84.995205 | 78.178082 | 6.363209 | 24.127202 | 7.44753 | 1.286739 | 289 | 10 | 54 | 4 | 7 | 96 | 61 | 73 | 0.298 | 0.58 | 0.122 | -0.9527 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 12 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 8 | 2 | 8 | 8 | 3 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 31 | 10 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.235413 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17812 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188672 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183739 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179738 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111455 | 0 | 0.121239 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.210618 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142989 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.236016 | 0 | 0 | 0.173891 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.213811 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.214985 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.204694 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.231014 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.249369 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.445096 | 0.241 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160396 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.245317 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151542 | 0 | 0 | 0.137376 |
suicidewatch | MrNumeros | 2019/10/05 | I feel lonely I feel aloneI feel so aloneAfter many years the suicidal thoughts have come back and I can't tell anyone. I feel so alone and I want to cry all the time. If it wasn't for the fact that my mom would die of sadness I'd of killed myself by now. I've been telling jokes all week pretending that everything is f... | 1.004692 | 3.26797 | 1.708476 | 99.066276 | 83.931507 | 5.293836 | 20.083904 | 6.627428 | 0.000426 | 277 | 8 | 64 | 3 | 8 | 85 | 55 | 73 | 0.213 | 0.713 | 0.074 | -0.8786 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 15 | 14 | 6 | 3 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 7 | 2 | 5 | 10 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 35 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.225436 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152197 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167372 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1875 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.239096 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.225903 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.195624 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.440234 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113721 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.240815 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.220679 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.254928 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.238091 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.380499 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172802 | 0.126923 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128385 | 0 | 0.174598 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154624 | 0 | 0 | 0.14017 |
suicidewatch | xXobelisk97Xx | 2019/10/05 | I think I’m gonna do it tonight I’m 15 and am going to court for ——— if I’m found guilty it’s life and there’s a high chance I will I don’t wanna spend my life in jail my mom cry’s all the time when I talk to her my dad is always disappointed in me my friends dis owned me. cops show up to my school today because someon... | 0.318162 | 2.099192 | 2.407194 | 95.879155 | 83.160584 | 5.373128 | 17.447418 | 6.427356 | -0.388558 | 970 | 20 | 234 | 9 | 27 | 326 | 141 | 274 | 0.106 | 0.77 | 0.124 | 0.7714 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 1 | 12 | 14 | 3 | 3 | 13 | 0 | 14 | 8 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 32 | 41 | 13 | 1 | 5 | 7 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 9 | 2 | 2 | 3 | 7 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 3 | 36 | 5 | 34 | 28 | 7 | 33 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 15 | 18 | 3 | 4 | 12 | 137 | 45 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11201 | 0 | 0.084458 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169499 | 0.123749 | 0 | 0.08637 | 0 | 0.10652 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111495 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099433 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091814 | 0 | 0.096989 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194915 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111291 | 0.15684 | 0.28151 | 0 | 0 | 0.057686 | 0 | 0.08118 | 0 | 0.111816 | 0 | 0 | 0.10805 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068034 | 0.214484 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055783 | 0.165475 | 0 | 0.214951 | 0.330846 | 0 | 0.143387 | 0 | 0 | 0.089628 | 0 | 0.085236 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118878 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078284 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097394 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154393 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.219833 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095952 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.195074 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114982 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.304863 | 0.20545 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086002 | 0 | 0 | 0.113623 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081583 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.195115 | 0 | 0 | 0.177559 | 0 | 0.096212 | 0.096989 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059868 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Firewallowo | 2019/10/05 | Why the fuck would I seek help? Seriously, I dont get the logic.
I want to die.
If I wanted to live, I'd call the helplines you keep sending me.
I'd go see a therapist.
I'd tell my family how I am feeling.
But I don't. I dont want to live. I want to die. And that is why I will take my own life on my own terms w... | -2.31963 | -0.65255 | 1.262827 | 100.435722 | 94.061728 | 4.721481 | 15.507407 | 6.2581 | -0.749939 | 259 | 6 | 72 | 3 | 10 | 94 | 52 | 81 | 0.169 | 0.726 | 0.105 | -0.836 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 12 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 8 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 13 | 19 | 4 | 2 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 14 | 0 | 7 | 17 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 42 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118792 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178373 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.362592 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.40946 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164678 | 0 | 0.088326 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161494 | 0.091266 | 0 | 0.099278 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117088 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155268 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123386 | 0 | 0 | 0.308501 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139202 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131342 | 0 | 0.152683 | 0 | 0 | 0.202823 | 0.116053 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.412136 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.315253 | 0 | 0 | 0.168391 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124092 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Bimasin | 2019/10/05 | My Block of cement I feel like I’m trapped. I’m motionless. I can’t do anything, but just exist. It’s like my feet are stuck in a block of cement. Everything around me just happens and all I can do is watch.
My motionlessness means I’m a constant obstacle for others around me. I want to get out. Out of my block of ce... | -0.543589 | 1.678052 | 1.601292 | 95.956148 | 95.212121 | 4.294099 | 18.311005 | 6.059677 | -0.182036 | 488 | 15 | 108 | 5 | 19 | 162 | 77 | 132 | 0.266 | 0.689 | 0.045 | -0.9854 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 21 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 8 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 9 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 22 | 22 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 3 | 16 | 2 | 25 | 18 | 1 | 21 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 13 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 72 | 18 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.225294 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179007 | 0.387293 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.235071 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.207858 | 0.1955 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109989 | 0.155402 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.227299 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19236 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.236345 | 0 | 0 | 0.212547 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182669 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.22054 | 0 | 0.236952 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.247657 | 0 | 0 | 0.294806 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.227271 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184311 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126843 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128304 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | qwerty11992288 | 2019/10/05 | Im banned from the forum i usually write on. Pretty much whenever i drink i get suicidal because im an ugly retarded idiot. I usually write on a app but now i find out ive been banned from posting there. I guess people dont like to hear me cry about my issues????. And also i cant acess my dads gun safe??? There are lot... | 0.301111 | 2.491315 | 2.843514 | 90.211244 | 86.515924 | 5.781883 | 19.550248 | 7.168622 | 0.493483 | 579 | 17 | 125 | 9 | 18 | 200 | 90 | 157 | 0.404 | 0.547 | 0.05 | -0.9971 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 19 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 9 | 8 | 2 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 10 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 28 | 16 | 9 | 3 | 1 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 2 | 7 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 19 | 5 | 14 | 12 | 4 | 14 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 10 | 69 | 22 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121094 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109245 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083275 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150057 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160103 | 0.133823 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124857 | 0 | 0 | 0.149783 | 0 | 0 | 0.071372 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150488 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153966 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.590238 | 0.142583 | 0 | 0 | 0.151136 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133479 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116139 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109039 | 0 | 0.100422 | 0.101293 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094706 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130832 | 0.138979 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105167 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.298853 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079657 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.451361 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Musky_Puss | 2019/10/05 | Feeling lost I’m sick of feeling suicidal. No matter what is happening, it’s always there in the back of your mind. A nice night with friends, get home and the thoughts come back. Seeing family, mind drifts off for two seconds and you’re thinking of suicide again. Will this vicious cycle ever end? It’s becoming so ... | 3.837727 | 6.187 | 4.254545 | 84.151818 | 74.30303 | 6.824242 | 30.69697 | 7.793538 | 2.263897 | 277 | 13 | 49 | 4 | 6 | 87 | 56 | 66 | 0.25 | 0.623 | 0.127 | -0.9131 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 13 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 3 | 2 | 2 | 8 | 10 | 0 | 13 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 31 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16429 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.303646 | 0 | 0 | 0.218062 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170081 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174877 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1786 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186133 | 0 | 0.199668 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152545 | 0 | 0.103157 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1746 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198053 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.215534 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.398726 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185288 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186649 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157338 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.431945 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126515 | 0 | 0.156749 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192875 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Tymiki | 2019/10/05 | I hope I don’t wake up tomorrow After several recent failed attempts to end my life by hanging myself, I finally bit the bullet and decided to instead take my life by taking all my prescription meds at once.
There’s a good chance that, even at this dosage, it won’t be enough, but at least I can have some relief. Toni... | 6.689522 | 5.571918 | 7.09058 | 79.095268 | 65.404715 | 10.109748 | 32.347061 | 9.162433 | 2.561562 | 1,981 | 65 | 404 | 29 | 26 | 649 | 249 | 509 | 0.144 | 0.697 | 0.159 | 0.9023 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 66 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 5 | 18 | 28 | 0 | 2 | 28 | 0 | 44 | 14 | 7 | 7 | 8 | 59 | 70 | 23 | 2 | 4 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 10 | 7 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 25 | 15 | 0 | 5 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 13 | 14 | 9 | 0 | 5 | 13 | 4 | 59 | 19 | 76 | 39 | 17 | 79 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 10 | 27 | 0 | 7 | 41 | 294 | 84 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0.072857 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132362 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062123 | 0 | 0 | 0.050771 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074042 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070145 | 0 | 0 | 0.045512 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081509 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07612 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083737 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.048149 | 0 | 0.064304 | 0.075778 | 0.15497 | 0 | 0.085566 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198379 | 0.385716 | 0 | 0.049312 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140765 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163572 | 0.068237 | 0.063505 | 0 | 0.08186 | 0.057682 | 0 | 0 | 0.07162 | 0.084861 | 0.187863 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158953 | 0 | 0 | 0.153244 | 0.07936 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.222461 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123093 | 0.060857 | 0 | 0 | 0.081118 | 0.076344 | 0.158203 | 0.036475 | 0 | 0.065926 | 0.066071 | 0.062695 | 0 | 0.0815 | 0 | 0 | 0.141289 | 0.049836 | 0.151386 | 0 | 0 | 0.16586 | 0.075212 | 0.150478 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178778 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.230328 | 0.072107 | 0.079401 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07951 | 0.151774 | 0.113564 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080849 | 0.071271 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153525 | 0.073717 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075559 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084344 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149427 | 0 | 0 | 0.057477 | 0 | 0 | 0.052844 | 0 | 0.059623 | 0 | 0 | 0.07805 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070366 | 0 | 0.112269 | 0 | 0.130511 | 0 | 0.08538 | 0.086685 | 0.0496 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087069 | 0 | 0.070768 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059887 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07582 | 0 | 0.053036 | 0 | 0 | 0.048078 |
suicidewatch | savvyella18 | 2019/10/05 | Please reach out to someone (suicide awareness) I know this is long and I’m sorry but this has been on my mind and even if this just helps one person that is one family, that doesn’t have to live thru this please feel free to share, I just want everyone to know someone is willing to listen ❤️
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suicidewatch | singwhatisaid | 2019/10/05 | Confusion, suicide and a sick pet I’ve been having a lot of suicidal ideation. It’s different this time though because I truly feel I’m not meant to be on this plane in existence. I finally realize that waiting out this pain is rather pointless because it’s going to re-emerge again and whatever contentment I find in th... | 2.469565 | 3.852705 | 4.06032 | 88.268351 | 75.502347 | 7.546976 | 25.44021 | 8.219916 | 1.426561 | 1,595 | 55 | 351 | 27 | 34 | 533 | 195 | 426 | 0.174 | 0.732 | 0.093 | -0.9927 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 43 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 14 | 16 | 5 | 1 | 23 | 0 | 37 | 11 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 68 | 65 | 27 | 4 | 11 | 20 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 30 | 21 | 4 | 4 | 13 | 0 | 3 | 10 | 14 | 9 | 1 | 6 | 6 | 5 | 42 | 7 | 51 | 50 | 3 | 53 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 22 | 21 | 0 | 13 | 23 | 232 | 72 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094826 | 0.08602 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080745 | 0 | 0 | 0.06599 | 0.203508 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182343 | 0.074617 | 0 | 0.177463 | 0 | 0 | 0.10933 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108328 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167182 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.232434 | 0 | 0 | 0.062582 | 0 | 0.08358 | 0 | 0 | 0.101385 | 0 | 0.099324 | 0 | 0.099305 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099296 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087778 | 0.08176 | 0 | 0.174425 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147198 | 0 | 0 | 0.106302 | 0.088692 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.050699 | 0 | 0.220599 | 0.081392 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065043 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095564 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086253 | 0.10736 | 0 | 0.266652 | 0.0791 | 0.109465 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068542 | 0.142226 | 0 | 0.085688 | 0 | 0.081489 | 0 | 0 | 0.082499 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102943 | 0.097982 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065756 | 0 | 0.206513 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091734 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104625 | 0 | 0 | 0.097551 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062166 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082871 | 0.092307 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109076 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103431 | 0 | 0.081129 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.318436 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064469 | 0.062179 | 0.095341 | 0 | 0.169753 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057236 | 0.077025 | 0.155678 | 0 | 0.08725 | 0 | 0.175126 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098891 | 0.068934 | 0 | 0 | 0.12498 |
suicidewatch | friendsthrowawayh3lp | 2019/10/05 | Should I tell my teachers about my suicidal friend? My friend is always talking about how they want to kill themself. They say this a lot to my school friend group. But we can't do much other than just tell them not to. We can't seem to give them enough reasons or something like that. They always remind us how terrible... | 3.064052 | 5.268269 | 3.028261 | 92.721013 | 76.126437 | 6.18908 | 23.518678 | 7.168622 | 0.766633 | 352 | 11 | 72 | 4 | 8 | 106 | 60 | 87 | 0.143 | 0.692 | 0.165 | -0.1431 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 3 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 7 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 18 | 14 | 6 | 2 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 17 | 5 | 9 | 12 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 20 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 51 | 20 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.30541 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189628 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.425366 | 0 | 0.095883 | 0.176051 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182279 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.20304 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129627 | 0.08966 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156024 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13491 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188691 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145944 | 0 | 0.371469 | 0 | 0.167072 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141284 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.200744 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147508 | 0.320813 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.220755 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108246 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.199022 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | ekulinator | 2019/10/05 | can someone please help I just don’t see the point, life is very stressful and just not worth it | 6.7035 | 5.357258 | 5.19 | 93.475 | 65.5 | 8 | 30 | 3.1291 | 0.823 | 77 | 2 | 18 | 0 | 1 | 22 | 19 | 20 | 0.217 | 0.577 | 0.206 | -0.0667 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.265104 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.279362 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.434154 | 0.373887 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.315172 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.335116 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.453058 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.326339 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | hitori_arukishiteru | 2019/10/05 | It didn’t take long. I hurt myself again, but it’s just another scar on an ugly body and the tears have finally gone.
I wish I had the courage to end things once and for all. It would at least make my father happy, that I’d finally stop making him so angry with my useless existence. | 2.192373 | 3.815985 | 3.812 | 88.749525 | 76.79661 | 7.431864 | 21.969492 | 8.238736 | 1.068468 | 222 | 6 | 48 | 4 | 5 | 74 | 50 | 59 | 0.262 | 0.571 | 0.167 | -0.7401 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 11 | 9 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 7 | 2 | 5 | 5 | 2 | 9 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 32 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.251168 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.266063 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.212152 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.524786 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.254984 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.256421 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.211976 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.319776 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.255091 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.200258 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180097 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159133 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.275447 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170155 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | fizzyong | 2019/10/05 | i relapsed for the first time in 2 years i feel like complete shit. i can’t stand the way my father talks to me, he makes a mockery of the things he used to do and wants me to just “get over it”. i feel completely trapped, i can’t stand myself or anyone around me. i have nothing to lose at this point, there’s nobody a... | 2.923561 | 3.429525 | 4.209545 | 91.005152 | 73.318182 | 7.230303 | 23.757576 | 7.168622 | 0.629085 | 318 | 8 | 75 | 3 | 6 | 105 | 60 | 88 | 0.14 | 0.804 | 0.056 | -0.7955 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 11 | 13 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 14 | 1 | 12 | 12 | 0 | 13 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 6 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 47 | 19 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.205374 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.217968 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.208715 | 0.147155 | 0 | 0 | 0.187349 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.441316 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.212825 | 0.150349 | 0.20207 | 0 | 0 | 0.179013 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109954 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14865 | 0.102818 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.235445 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14048 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162316 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.201937 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198948 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134823 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.216029 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158236 | 0.169156 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139817 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122718 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181765 | 0 | 0 | 0.124132 | 0.167049 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135526 |
suicidewatch | McLuvinMan | 2019/10/05 | I’ve lost my everyone in my life and quite frankly hate living I plan to lull myself in the next week or so. I’ve lost everyone I know in my life and it’s just shit.
I’m not really sure I’m complaining about this here | 0.003061 | 1.819563 | 2.440163 | 95.022694 | 84.510204 | 7.185306 | 17.963265 | 8.238736 | 0.532336 | 172 | 4 | 43 | 4 | 5 | 59 | 34 | 49 | 0.313 | 0.687 | 0 | -0.9374 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 6 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 21 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.453877 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.234479 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130522 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.335502 | 0 | 0 | 0.209714 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.518512 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.252581 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.252607 | 0 | 0 | 0.152147 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.243787 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.223838 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190506 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | mfmgkgkgkfkrkdkdk | 2019/07/10 | i'm not going to live to be 20 i'm going to kill myself before i turn 20. it's the best option for me. end it early while i still can | -2.746818 | -1.213056 | 1.572955 | 98.479432 | 94.454545 | 3.3 | 8.25 | 3.1291 | -2.171055 | 102 | 0 | 27 | 0 | 4 | 39 | 24 | 33 | 0.135 | 0.745 | 0.12 | -0.128 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 4 | 6 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 17 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.306127 | 0 | 0.377543 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.318638 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.408917 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.398019 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.317673 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.287303 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.391313 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | monztermash | 2019/07/10 | The past year About a year ago my ex cheated on me and that just seemed to unhinge me somehow and spiral all my other issues together into one. I fell into a hole and then my friends went off to university, I turned 20 and within a month my family moved house. My parents noticed something was wrong and together sorted ... | 6.082707 | 5.59959 | 6.77806 | 78.749849 | 66.37931 | 9.732759 | 31.918103 | 9.188382 | 2.574603 | 568 | 20 | 114 | 9 | 8 | 188 | 95 | 145 | 0.054 | 0.897 | 0.05 | -0.1406 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 9 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 7 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 28 | 19 | 14 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 12 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 4 | 18 | 2 | 19 | 12 | 4 | 24 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 9 | 9 | 0 | 5 | 12 | 79 | 25 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14323 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134447 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137492 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165351 | 0 | 0.158286 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143111 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145217 | 0 | 0.152322 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155141 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124836 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177998 | 0 | 0.285768 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182111 | 0 | 0.108303 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186441 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168647 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078939 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128971 | 0.171733 | 0.118779 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.303262 | 0 | 0 | 0.183959 | 0 | 0 | 0.21898 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179414 | 0 | 0.154245 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128494 | 0 | 0 | 0.128758 | 0.147096 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124391 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129871 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175752 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190607 | 0 | 0.129609 | 0 | 0 | 0.149785 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176661 | 0 | 0.208103 |
suicidewatch | 1percenttile | 2019/07/10 | Everything in my life feels like it’s seemly falling apart all at once. I just ended my friendship with someone I consider my best friend. I know it is the best for me at the moment but I don’t know if I can keep going. I feel even to exhausted to even type this up. I haven’t slept more then more then 12 hours in the l... | 3.177424 | 4.437772 | 4.337798 | 87.473364 | 73.494949 | 7.300202 | 23.30101 | 7.793538 | 0.993505 | 757 | 20 | 159 | 10 | 15 | 248 | 116 | 198 | 0.157 | 0.683 | 0.16 | -0.296 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 18 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 12 | 15 | 2 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 12 | 6 | 3 | 1 | 4 | 35 | 30 | 11 | 1 | 2 | 5 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 14 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 6 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 4 | 24 | 9 | 29 | 26 | 7 | 28 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 11 | 1 | 2 | 15 | 113 | 33 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103747 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.275408 | 0 | 0 | 0.261697 | 0.220546 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080411 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130269 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127595 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110433 | 0 | 0 | 0.329411 | 0.112784 | 0 | 0 | 0.224116 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.252177 | 0.178149 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.212113 | 0 | 0 | 0.192662 | 0 | 0.130285 | 0 | 0.070861 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122789 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110825 | 0 | 0 | 0.20557 | 0.101634 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176136 | 0.121829 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083228 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132785 | 0 | 0.094828 | 0 | 0 | 0.138447 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10887 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133864 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113508 | 0 | 0 | 0.127987 | 0.10314 | 0 | 0 | 0.1271 | 0.105645 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136384 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.253957 | 0 | 0.121798 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | slytherinator | 2019/07/10 | i need to kms i need to kill myself my life is in crisis and in unlivable conditions. the law enforcers dont do anything. People keep dismissing me over and over. What do you think im just gonna continue to live and be abused?? fuck this shit. | 0.133629 | 2.518008 | 2.063714 | 92.989 | 92.8 | 6.057143 | 19.142857 | 7.44753 | 0.742286 | 191 | 6 | 41 | 4 | 7 | 63 | 39 | 50 | 0.328 | 0.672 | 0 | -0.9664 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 11 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 7 | 9 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 25 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0.329722 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.229005 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.326148 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.25727 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.300595 | 0 | 0 | 0.247352 | 0.307881 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.196561 | 0 | 0 | 0.245731 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.412689 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192928 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.285655 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178314 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Dolan3D3 | 2019/07/10 | Im not sure how much more of this I can take I cut my wrists today. I can't believe it's gotten to this point I thought I could handle this on my own. I'm not sure how much longer I have before I can't take it anymore. I just want to talk to someone | -1.106045 | 0.424409 | 1.445 | 102.216879 | 86.79661 | 3.933333 | 16.612994 | 3.1291 | -1.233579 | 193 | 4 | 52 | 0 | 6 | 66 | 37 | 59 | 0.122 | 0.852 | 0.026 | -0.5753 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 10 | 11 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 10 | 2 | 5 | 8 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 34 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.241302 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.207042 | 0.274132 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194266 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.262821 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.357728 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.23001 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206159 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.458641 | 0 | 0.365884 | 0.195567 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193164 | 0 | 0 | 0.230633 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143513 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | drummer686 | 2019/07/10 | I’m losing all hope I’m becoming nasty towards the people in my life and I don’t know why. My girlfriend’s friend hates me and keeps on telling her that we might not make it. I dealt with my girlfriend’s BPD for ten months and she was hospitalized for a suicide attempt. I stayed by her side every day and now that I’m s... | 2.437891 | 4.197865 | 3.475099 | 90.836113 | 76.483444 | 5.970657 | 25.522669 | 6.671995 | 0.869609 | 579 | 21 | 122 | 5 | 13 | 186 | 94 | 151 | 0.148 | 0.749 | 0.103 | -0.836 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 12 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 8 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 10 | 4 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 22 | 29 | 7 | 1 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 7 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 27 | 4 | 17 | 25 | 3 | 18 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 15 | 8 | 1 | 3 | 8 | 78 | 34 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.402514 | 0 | 0 | 0.111332 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082472 | 0.149417 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170393 | 0.302057 | 0 | 0 | 0.137937 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087251 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089358 | 0 | 0.113988 | 0 | 0.12159 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068407 | 0.096651 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104525 | 0.125073 | 0.070683 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119637 | 0 | 0 | 0.133571 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134374 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120252 | 0 | 0 | 0.074352 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095559 | 0.066096 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151355 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090307 | 0 | 0.271834 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143521 | 0 | 0 | 0.107987 | 0 | 0.099454 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102894 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.281379 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144201 | 0 | 0.226217 | 0 | 0.141434 | 0 | 0.147985 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.203443 | 0 | 0.118249 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162737 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159595 | 0.107387 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122078 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | voidaver | 2019/07/10 | Why is that? Why is it when I'm wasted I feel most alive, most self aware, and cognizant of reality in general. I see everything for what it truly is, unfiltered, unbiased. Is it because my insticts to want to stay alive damper with the effects of alcohol and my logical thinking takes over completely. Death is the best... | 5.225963 | 5.588714 | 7.179683 | 72.263686 | 68.130435 | 11.160497 | 32.249068 | 11.003577 | 3.696796 | 636 | 26 | 123 | 19 | 10 | 225 | 101 | 161 | 0.17 | 0.676 | 0.154 | -0.5925 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 19 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 17 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 24 | 32 | 8 | 2 | 5 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 5 | 16 | 4 | 19 | 26 | 4 | 11 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 4 | 5 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 83 | 25 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.340138 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108219 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157821 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097008 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167004 | 0.140744 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166852 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165159 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140948 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152062 | 0.143022 | 0 | 0.15002 | 0 | 0.080464 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122949 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127276 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157919 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143627 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117998 | 0.122736 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.242062 | 0 | 0 | 0.176703 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101947 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.380435 | 0 | 0.166015 | 0 | 0.163352 | 0.13164 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169619 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119651 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101969 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187726 | 0.126315 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.287193 | 0 | 0.183 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Mickey1149 | 2019/07/10 | Tired I am so tired of getting into trouble that I feel no point in living . | 3.938125 | 4.031942 | 5.4 | 84.845 | 70.875 | 6.4 | 28.5 | 3.1291 | 0.96895 | 59 | 2 | 12 | 0 | 1 | 20 | 14 | 16 | 0.524 | 0.476 | 0 | -0.8748 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184802 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190953 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.322733 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.345505 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.840151 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | teamarie3 | 2019/07/10 | Attempt Experience Has anyone ever made an attempt (or known the story of someone who has) and are willing to talk about? Like, what was going on in your life, what happened the day of, and what happened after? I'm not trying to encourage anyone to share exact details of their methods. I'm just wondering if my experie... | 5.134687 | 7.060802 | 6.548875 | 70.908625 | 69.625 | 8.245 | 33.1125 | 8.841846 | 3.265473 | 274 | 13 | 42 | 5 | 5 | 93 | 48 | 64 | 0.04 | 0.884 | 0.076 | 0.3309 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 11 | 13 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 11 | 10 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 35 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.359856 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165954 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.232766 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.503427 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146244 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.455104 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181757 | 0.125716 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.243487 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.218031 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206828 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174707 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.279058 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Itsaroundbout | 2019/07/10 | Too ugly for this shit. I try to 'man up' and apply a stotic attitude but it doesn't matter. I go to the gym daily and eat healthly and it doesn't matter.
Whilst everyone is partying for years and in relationships I have been doing nothing. I'm such an ugly bastard and I'm on the autistic spectrum.
I just want this ... | 0.1552 | 2.519261 | 2.596333 | 89.8065 | 91.133333 | 5.133333 | 19.5 | 6.742158 | 0.4386 | 284 | 9 | 58 | 4 | 10 | 97 | 52 | 75 | 0.247 | 0.642 | 0.111 | -0.9124 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 7 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 12 | 6 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 9 | 10 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 39 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.292393 | 0 | 0 | 0.253089 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.273046 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162398 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.303739 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139603 | 0 | 0.252322 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.274184 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.304058 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.306788 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.293318 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194005 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.337085 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202988 | 0 | 0 | 0.184013 |
suicidewatch | KCurious1234 | 2019/07/10 | I think it's finally time... Time to go. Time to be done with all this pain. I've come to realize that there is no helping me...this is the way it will always be. Depression has been with me for over a decade now, and no amount of meds, therapy, or lifestyle changes have ever worked. Shit, I even spent 6 days in the ho... | 2.697057 | 3.928446 | 4.200401 | 88.102207 | 74.652174 | 7.07291 | 26.043478 | 7.586125 | 1.27161 | 1,119 | 39 | 240 | 14 | 23 | 373 | 158 | 299 | 0.155 | 0.756 | 0.089 | -0.9551 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 49 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 15 | 22 | 7 | 0 | 13 | 0 | 27 | 10 | 2 | 2 | 3 | 38 | 55 | 11 | 2 | 4 | 8 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 7 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 1 | 4 | 10 | 9 | 14 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 2 | 31 | 8 | 42 | 43 | 5 | 45 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 3 | 15 | 16 | 4 | 5 | 19 | 154 | 38 | 3 | 0.096209 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160108 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073979 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170179 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101777 | 0.082876 | 0.201748 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062047 | 0 | 0.16573 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.196911 | 0.112757 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127091 | 0.174054 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.048646 | 0 | 0 | 0.105393 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.266832 | 0 | 0.092293 | 0.328068 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102417 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128974 | 0 | 0 | 0.191115 | 0 | 0.222026 | 0.102994 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095473 | 0 | 0.106442 | 0 | 0.052874 | 0.156847 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.203867 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085142 | 0.080792 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106867 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076793 | 0 | 0 | 0.071338 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184631 | 0 | 0 | 0.10246 | 0.130388 | 0 | 0.204747 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096717 | 0 | 0 | 0.096236 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082162 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098758 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076833 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105238 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110024 | 0 | 0 | 0.123294 | 0 | 0 | 0.280503 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06532 | 0 | 0 | 0.100157 | 0 | 0.083094 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076367 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070042 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | dahanka | 2019/07/10 | 11 am tomorrow I'm going to to cut my wrist open tommorow at 11am. Deep and straight down the center. My dog died July 11th last year, I had to put him down after 14 years of him being my best friend and spending everyday together. I watched him die in a pathetically drugged state at 11:35am. I have barely been preten... | 1.873194 | 4.064308 | 3.292672 | 89.40387 | 79.992366 | 6.473517 | 25.344099 | 7.610547 | 1.300778 | 508 | 20 | 107 | 8 | 13 | 166 | 87 | 131 | 0.107 | 0.794 | 0.1 | -0.2449 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 15 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 14 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 18 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 19 | 2 | 19 | 8 | 2 | 27 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 12 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 67 | 21 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.218291 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143329 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.221187 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.437486 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.244423 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162838 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119784 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115832 | 0.515409 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.246848 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.211879 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.200488 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.407181 |
suicidewatch | kat-official | 2019/07/10 | what happens after? who cleans up my body? will people go through my stuff? is it possible to keep my death private between my friends&family? if i write in the note that i don't want an obituary, news article, announcement, etc. is that okay? will i be granted that? how do i make sure i'm not forgetting to do anyt... | 2.148819 | 4.757522 | 3.659167 | 84.660278 | 82.125 | 7.055556 | 27.638889 | 8.167269 | 2.161097 | 325 | 15 | 63 | 7 | 9 | 107 | 60 | 80 | 0.062 | 0.828 | 0.109 | 0.4287 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 9 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 11 | 16 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 2 | 10 | 13 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 47 | 20 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.277406 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.210689 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.240546 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.284389 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.285538 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.24136 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133764 | 0 | 0.145506 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.226404 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.227569 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1709 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.284288 | 0 | 0 | 0.177497 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.288633 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.257378 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.29309 | 0 | 0 | 0.241303 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151012 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | conversational8008 | 2019/07/10 | On a scale of 1-10, what would you rate the suicide hotline? Helpful or regretful to call? I'm not suicidal I'm just high asf and I just called them and they don't really seem like they want to help. | -0.759225 | 1.402291 | 1.474767 | 97.253857 | 94.581395 | 5.657364 | 18.794574 | 7.168622 | 0.367685 | 156 | 5 | 37 | 3 | 6 | 52 | 36 | 43 | 0.193 | 0.594 | 0.213 | -0.1744 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 6 | 3 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 20 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.541943 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.355743 | 0.280377 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129646 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170002 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.241582 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.580541 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156522 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188511 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Throwaway1649291 | 2019/07/10 | I want to die I’m sad and depressed but I don’t even know why at this point. All the problems in my life now feel so small to me and I don’t know what to do anymore. The only reason that I haven’t killed myself yet was because a friend said he missed me when I was thinking about it. My depression could have started whe... | 0.863356 | 2.492794 | 2.743514 | 94.896092 | 80.689498 | 5.841187 | 21.452283 | 6.742158 | 0.232644 | 782 | 23 | 187 | 8 | 20 | 261 | 117 | 219 | 0.243 | 0.617 | 0.14 | -0.9828 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 13 | 20 | 3 | 1 | 7 | 1 | 23 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 26 | 44 | 14 | 2 | 7 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 11 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 12 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 31 | 8 | 26 | 34 | 3 | 26 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 13 | 1 | 1 | 14 | 121 | 42 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115521 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129243 | 0.091123 | 0 | 0.107243 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.238326 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136763 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13287 | 0 | 0.137862 | 0 | 0 | 0.14083 | 0 | 0.208101 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.22449 | 0 | 0.135252 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086075 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197682 | 0.186202 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.201371 | 0 | 0.136174 | 0 | 0.074064 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130722 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129323 | 0 | 0.14418 | 0 | 0.143241 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092049 | 0.127336 | 0 | 0 | 0.11533 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131332 | 0.138249 | 0 | 0.15263 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198229 | 0 | 0 | 0.144705 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113791 | 0 | 0 | 0.24639 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124699 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133991 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123965 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133772 | 0.107802 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092242 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113906 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083504 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149784 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088479 | 0 | 0 | 0.135668 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.230599 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117174 | 0 | 0.117594 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132347 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | aouzisi | 2019/07/10 | Stop this train I wanna get off I need to talk to someone. Anyone please | -1.657 | -1.347312 | 0.0325 | 101.50875 | 131 | 1.5 | 10.416667 | 3.1291 | -1.999333 | 57 | 1 | 12 | 0 | 4 | 18 | 13 | 15 | 0.142 | 0.71 | 0.148 | 0.0258 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.326742 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.244141 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.346492 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.512947 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.395936 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.390678 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.375592 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | grumpcon | 2019/07/10 | Feelings rant sorry All I ever feel is sadness and anger why can't I feel anything else besides pain I cause myself I just want to be happy but what the hell is happy people seem so happy I can't fucking understand that I just don't get it am I just too fucked up | 0.672632 | 2.747354 | 2.813246 | 91.813553 | 83.736842 | 4.501754 | 20.026316 | 5.461319 | -0.106074 | 210 | 6 | 44 | 1 | 6 | 71 | 42 | 57 | 0.305 | 0.504 | 0.19 | -0.802 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 9 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 14 | 16 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 8 | 3 | 2 | 15 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 30 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163344 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.203909 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165817 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17955 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.301095 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.367011 | 0.103705 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.633905 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.211213 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137611 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180702 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.222199 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.20664 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117077 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179111 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | nvr2be | 2019/07/10 | 41 f niOthing left for me Ya I’m done. I’m too old to start over. Too young to not care. Broken marriage. I inlove with someone who treats me like crap. Always alone. And people say it gets better when you Leave an unhappy marriage. It doesn’t. You’re just alone with your thoughts instead of the misery distraction g yo... | -0.051212 | 2.2854 | 1.167838 | 98.445091 | 96.070707 | 4.256162 | 17.711111 | 6.079149 | -0.323096 | 380 | 11 | 84 | 4 | 15 | 119 | 74 | 99 | 0.208 | 0.683 | 0.109 | -0.8584 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 6 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 11 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 11 | 4 | 10 | 8 | 0 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 42 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.446045 | 0 | 0 | 0.179176 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190446 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.219549 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.440725 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142227 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112504 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.228009 | 0.233962 | 0 | 0 | 0.105202 | 0 | 0.190145 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.218316 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.225958 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149286 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171243 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182453 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152415 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188212 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170952 | 0.125564 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12701 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Uranium_Isotope | 2019/07/10 | Found this link in a raffle [This](https://docs.google.com/document/d/1Ku9kJJMSWgpH9YjGRt2_YLCKAeD423L01yn--m-k37I/edit) was in [this](https://scrap.tf/raffles/QTZAZF) raffle, just by reading it I don't think its fake, I don't really know what to do so maybe someone here may know better; it doesn't look like he/she is ... | 6.454419 | 9.547109 | 5.616453 | 73.942355 | 69.116279 | 7.555814 | 25.866279 | 8.472885 | 2.10054 | 411 | 13 | 62 | 7 | 8 | 124 | 68 | 86 | 0.192 | 0.685 | 0.124 | -0.8709 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 37 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 15 | 17 | 6 | 3 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 7 | 13 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 39 | 9 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.208258 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.260548 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.208561 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.258186 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133826 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.252081 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.258821 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115041 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197739 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.236566 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.22552 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.235538 | 0 | 0.150851 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.214367 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.199517 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.515142 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150883 | 0 | 0 | 0.137307 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | suithrowi | 2019/07/10 | I've lied about everything and dug myself into a hole I can't get out of I'm 22. At some point in the last few years I started lying to my parents about little things. Since then my lying has enveloped anything and I'm not even telling the truth about going to class or having a job. On the phone today my mom was upset ... | 2.917312 | 4.448573 | 3.907976 | 89.209246 | 74.625 | 6.227778 | 22.712302 | 6.691623 | 0.514461 | 862 | 23 | 180 | 7 | 18 | 278 | 134 | 224 | 0.12 | 0.771 | 0.108 | 0.5063 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 20 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 11 | 12 | 1 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 22 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 27 | 35 | 11 | 1 | 2 | 6 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 9 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 7 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 2 | 23 | 8 | 28 | 23 | 6 | 30 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 20 | 19 | 0 | 4 | 10 | 116 | 31 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122428 | 0 | 0 | 0.203175 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115984 | 0 | 0 | 0.075253 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126055 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.252661 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126319 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137678 | 0.163073 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.221895 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11853 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064497 | 0 | 0.070159 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131413 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122504 | 0 | 0.136578 | 0 | 0 | 0.100627 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174391 | 0.060311 | 0.247456 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111417 | 0.11681 | 0 | 0.250315 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.289163 | 0.098535 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095211 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137075 | 0.133683 | 0 | 0.085584 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116699 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140511 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105424 | 0.117428 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102118 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087378 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140088 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.323698 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.246041 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071984 | 0 | 0.117015 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072813 | 0.097988 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134972 | 0 | 0.079497 |
suicidewatch | WinterFirefighter7 | 2019/07/10 | Crazy idea Hey has anyone hered of people having any luck going to Mexico and seeing if you could pay a corrupt cop to blow your brains out would they be offended if I asked | 3.108762 | 5.014552 | 4.131429 | 86.221905 | 75 | 6.952381 | 17.380952 | 7.793538 | 0.399952 | 139 | 2 | 27 | 2 | 3 | 45 | 33 | 35 | 0.153 | 0.767 | 0.079 | -0.2023 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 8 | 3 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 18 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.258387 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.265678 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.355213 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.424163 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.303368 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.215941 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.42893 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.263417 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.30278 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.269914 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | _enriquetta | 2019/07/10 | I ran away. I don’t know where to go with no money. I can’t keep living like this.
My chest tightens. Heart beating fast. Knees getting weak. Hands are shaking. Tears streaming. It just never stops.
I want to end this feeling. I tried getting myself drunk. But when you’re sober, the feeling just goes back in a snap.
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suicidewatch | yeboiitsmeyaboi | 2019/07/10 | Life without reason I have no hope, no ambition, no hobbies, nobody close.
I have been putting of suicide before my age hit double digits.
I always felt like it was inevitable, that no matter when, I will die by own hand.
I have waited for things to get better, put effort into it, and nothing has changed for t... | 3.195714 | 5.161675 | 3.927795 | 87.512222 | 74.925926 | 5.122399 | 23.917108 | 5.288315 | 0.477644 | 324 | 10 | 60 | 1 | 7 | 103 | 62 | 81 | 0.081 | 0.657 | 0.262 | 0.8306 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 8 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 14 | 15 | 3 | 2 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 9 | 5 | 11 | 10 | 2 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 45 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1696 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173441 | 0 | 0 | 0.360535 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.215621 | 0.175578 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.211539 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.195705 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106491 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13662 | 0 | 0 | 0.202445 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143968 | 0.199158 | 0 | 0.179982 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.195577 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.409803 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.209567 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.222953 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135413 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120222 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.392962 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | pendorasbox | 2019/07/10 | This is the worst year of my life Since July 2018 my life has been a serious mess. I can’t seem to get out of it and i don’t know how. I’m stuck in this really terrible living situation. The only thing that will heal me is time but that means i have to go through the pain in the meantime and i don’t know if i will last... | 0.507432 | 2.612996 | 2.368851 | 94.554358 | 84.675676 | 5.862162 | 20.060811 | 7.168622 | 0.350519 | 408 | 12 | 94 | 6 | 12 | 135 | 71 | 111 | 0.166 | 0.751 | 0.083 | -0.8059 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 16 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 16 | 27 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 11 | 0 | 11 | 22 | 2 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 61 | 18 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197814 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157505 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181326 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187183 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096706 | 0 | 0.105196 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.331623 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.248135 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.305176 | 0.15088 | 0.208799 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.392221 | 0 | 0 | 0.163445 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.201626 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177607 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140776 | 0.196958 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118579 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168507 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153115 | 0.208058 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122971 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107932 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152726 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178428 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119197 |
suicidewatch | XxYanikoxX | 2019/07/10 | I'm being kept alive by myself when I want to die. For the past years of my life I've been soaked in of regret,sadness,and,hatred because of my life. My mom verberly hurts me,my first girlfriend used me,bullied by my friends,and more and I just want it to stop. But myself keeps me alive. For the reasons I just told you... | 1.636582 | 2.933372 | 3.034439 | 95.12574 | 77.520408 | 5.920408 | 20.923469 | 6.322622 | -0.027769 | 705 | 17 | 169 | 5 | 16 | 230 | 103 | 196 | 0.101 | 0.821 | 0.078 | -0.6678 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 24 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 9 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 13 | 3 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 34 | 32 | 12 | 1 | 6 | 7 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 6 | 0 | 5 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 5 | 29 | 0 | 27 | 25 | 1 | 23 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 15 | 7 | 0 | 3 | 14 | 113 | 41 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094689 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082551 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116638 | 0 | 0.140545 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068473 | 0 | 0 | 0.148347 | 0 | 0.115189 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09077 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144971 | 0 | 0.438833 | 0 | 0 | 0.120368 | 0 | 0 | 0.223271 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191304 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.256277 | 0.090394 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158603 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100413 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183529 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.258549 | 0.093884 | 0.118244 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136135 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139235 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107692 | 0 | 0 | 0.107913 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.339654 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.217692 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173544 | 0 | 0 | 0.078965 | 0 | 0 | 0.1294 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11696 | 0 | 0 | 0.239624 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087207 |
suicidewatch | DepressedDungeoneer | 2019/07/10 | I've got nothing. No one. Im done. People let me down. I let them down. Its a vicious cycle. I think tonight's it for me. I can't imagine going through another day of the joke of a life I lead. I dont know what to do. Peace reddit. | -3.316981 | -2.079648 | 0.280774 | 102.489462 | 112.773585 | 2.874717 | 16.620755 | 4.935629 | -0.931859 | 174 | 6 | 45 | 1 | 10 | 62 | 41 | 53 | 0.053 | 0.786 | 0.161 | 0.6234 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 8 | 1 | 7 | 6 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 29 | 11 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.287308 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176704 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.280393 | 0.321121 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155718 | 0 | 0.219139 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.295962 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150581 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.560358 | 0.193531 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.262906 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185666 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189954 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175565 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Kats_healslut | 2019/07/10 | Trans and at the edge I don't really know where to start this other than the fact that I'm a 21 year old transgirl, I have crippling gender dysphoria that never seems to give me a break no matter what I try and do, I try to distract myself but it's always there.
I hate existing in my body, everything about it, the siz... | 5.279574 | 4.883274 | 5.914503 | 83.981471 | 68.019608 | 9.15213 | 27.978364 | 8.641336 | 1.757571 | 1,940 | 53 | 418 | 27 | 29 | 633 | 230 | 510 | 0.181 | 0.742 | 0.077 | -0.9953 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 38 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 27 | 29 | 9 | 3 | 24 | 0 | 35 | 13 | 4 | 2 | 6 | 73 | 79 | 32 | 3 | 7 | 15 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 8 | 33 | 25 | 0 | 2 | 11 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 14 | 18 | 0 | 7 | 21 | 6 | 53 | 11 | 60 | 52 | 15 | 70 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 7 | 30 | 27 | 6 | 6 | 42 | 281 | 86 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12332 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055626 | 0.057879 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072939 | 0 | 0 | 0.068984 | 0.097275 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106973 | 0.058079 | 0.127208 | 0 | 0.05919 | 0 | 0.072998 | 0 | 0 | 0.077265 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111075 | 0.153932 | 0 | 0.04486 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.218024 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123218 | 0.071873 | 0 | 0.045943 | 0.06292 | 0 | 0 | 0.062515 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070342 | 0.049693 | 0.133575 | 0 | 0 | 0.177501 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.321532 | 0 | 0.066727 | 0.079064 | 0 | 0.055633 | 0 | 0.076627 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068675 | 0 | 0.073938 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068502 | 0 | 0.074465 | 0 | 0 | 0.072602 | 0 | 0 | 0.153914 | 0 | 0.076456 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071129 | 0.049132 | 0.169915 | 0 | 0.122844 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075932 | 0 | 0.12556 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070099 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111043 | 0 | 0.102268 | 0 | 0.107297 | 0.067181 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072991 | 0 | 0.18854 | 0.052903 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075326 | 0 | 0.048224 | 0.303682 | 0.072675 | 0 | 0.065756 | 0 | 0 | 0.070767 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133684 | 0 | 0.068681 | 0 | 0.078797 | 0 | 0 | 0.055316 | 0.139282 | 0 | 0 | 0.063324 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069609 | 0 | 0 | 0.05355 | 0 | 0 | 0.098469 | 0 | 0.16665 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076086 | 0.078935 | 0 | 0 | 0.0523 | 0.055909 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.277272 | 0 | 0 | 0.110444 | 0.081121 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141678 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164111 | 0.055213 | 0.055796 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10128 | 0.070641 | 0 | 0.049413 | 0 | 0 | 0.044794 |
suicidewatch | DewwyPoint | 2019/07/10 | How can I help my friend? My friend has been going through a rough patch in her life. She’s sever anxiety and depression. She constantly has a voice in the back of her head telling her she’s worthless and that she should die. I’ve asked her to go see a doctor or a therapist but she says she can’t because her parents wo... | 2.102718 | 4.275189 | 3.320204 | 89.603801 | 79.097087 | 6.838447 | 25.833981 | 7.908726 | 1.51017 | 402 | 16 | 84 | 7 | 10 | 130 | 65 | 103 | 0.16 | 0.72 | 0.12 | -0.6553 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 10 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 12 | 18 | 7 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 21 | 2 | 8 | 13 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 26 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 57 | 24 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181318 | 0 | 0.199818 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13852 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169278 | 0 | 0 | 0.139233 | 0 | 0.11038 | 0 | 0.154079 | 0.204006 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.195675 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155957 | 0 | 0.187924 | 0 | 0 | 0.185335 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.279792 | 0 | 0.094603 | 0 | 0.308722 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185832 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.364106 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127897 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134263 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.201059 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143996 | 0 | 0 | 0.144291 | 0 | 0 | 0.20456 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198064 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158265 | 0 | 0 | 0.210239 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183888 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | lifeless_body | 2019/07/10 | It's funny It's funny how u know that a human body is so fragile but when you actually wanna kill yourself u hesitate on the method, at least I did and I still do.
It's sad.
How to properly cut my veins, please?
I don't want encouraging messages just, how to do it properly so that If I don't succeed, I don't have an... | -0.244533 | 1.894584 | 2.764 | 90.088667 | 88.866667 | 6 | 21.666667 | 7.38713 | 0.878067 | 271 | 10 | 61 | 5 | 9 | 96 | 51 | 75 | 0.324 | 0.561 | 0.116 | -0.9647 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 7 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 8 | 2 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 10 | 11 | 9 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 8 | 3 | 5 | 10 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 41 | 14 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0.345103 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.240488 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.392816 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.391252 | 0 | 0.194352 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.312962 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.388192 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.282419 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.325586 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.208587 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | TitanicMan | 2019/07/10 | Goodbye today Today's it
Reality is poison
This isn't the note I wanted
I wanted my ideas to get made, I at least wanted to outline them. Doesn't really matter though.
I wanted to express my distaste for the world we live
Everywhere from my mom, to the government who fuels this in it's roots.
I'm sending off my g... | 1.701981 | 3.801609 | 4.172754 | 83.352923 | 80.086957 | 6.697585 | 24.352657 | 7.793538 | 1.476329 | 352 | 13 | 69 | 6 | 9 | 123 | 61 | 92 | 0.056 | 0.858 | 0.086 | 0.5437 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 12 | 14 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 14 | 2 | 10 | 12 | 2 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 45 | 21 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12613 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.265946 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.272529 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.213174 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.217887 | 0.228433 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.282743 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154657 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.237189 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.457667 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.569572 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | possiblyis | 2019/07/10 | Where to go to be alone It’s been a really rough day and I just need to go somewhere to be totally alone while I work some things out. Any suggestions around orlando fl? | 0.977571 | 3.329222 | 2.656786 | 91.599464 | 85 | 8.071429 | 20.178571 | 8.841846 | 1.478857 | 134 | 4 | 30 | 4 | 4 | 44 | 28 | 35 | 0.121 | 0.879 | 0 | -0.4588 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 6 | 3 | 2 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 20 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.683474 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.224383 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.293733 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.212796 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.375046 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.24466 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.21138 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.21921 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.240213 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | hundredhorse | 2019/07/10 | Advice Can anyone weigh in on getting affairs in order...things to tie up before? | 6.166 | 7.314075 | 6.78 | 73.17 | 66.333333 | 6 | 28.333333 | 3.1291 | 1.400333 | 64 | 2 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 21 | 14 | 15 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.625472 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.447554 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.544655 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.334412 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Th0rz669 | 2019/07/10 | Everything is falling apart and now I have the means My relationship is falling apart... Partly because I'm an asshole apparently and her "husband" suddenly reappeared and is causing so much shit.... it feels like shes taking out her frustration on me. she has so much going on, and im just fucking lazy, im insensitive,... | 0.823364 | 3.225438 | 3.219028 | 86.846818 | 86.561983 | 6.147848 | 22.807638 | 7.503016 | 1.201536 | 929 | 35 | 189 | 17 | 29 | 319 | 135 | 242 | 0.195 | 0.709 | 0.095 | -0.9658 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 36 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 11 | 20 | 10 | 1 | 10 | 0 | 21 | 9 | 5 | 1 | 2 | 36 | 48 | 19 | 2 | 2 | 5 | 1 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 17 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 14 | 1 | 0 | 10 | 6 | 32 | 6 | 24 | 33 | 7 | 34 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 11 | 16 | 7 | 1 | 13 | 126 | 41 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063062 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087126 | 0.071306 | 0 | 0.05653 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082015 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095263 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07404 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096243 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108683 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083343 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187555 | 0.132498 | 0 | 0.101585 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101678 | 0 | 0.342923 | 0.048449 | 0 | 0.105405 | 0.07778 | 0.222502 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082004 | 0 | 0 | 0.091555 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.219779 | 0.062157 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.400673 | 0 | 0.184047 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.050964 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09061 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077873 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094017 | 0 | 0.101014 | 0.206012 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074019 | 0 | 0.204509 | 0 | 0 | 0.089563 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097308 | 0 | 0 | 0.070528 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100421 | 0 | 0.06429 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088733 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098634 | 0 | 0 | 0.059407 | 0 | 0 | 0.199122 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.285569 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101435 | 0.105233 | 0 | 0 | 0.209172 | 0.074536 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108147 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100867 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085965 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067511 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | flaws_and_all | 2019/07/10 | You win Depression, I surrender. I’ve been dealing with this since I was roughly eight years old, and it’s only gotten worse since then. I just can’t go on like this anymore. I hardly eat, barely sleep, almost never bathe or brush my teeth, rarely leave my house, and to top it all off, I’ve cried more times in these pa... | 3.860283 | 4.74003 | 4.791902 | 86.310462 | 71.434783 | 7.141304 | 25.244565 | 7.168622 | 1.023761 | 884 | 25 | 182 | 8 | 16 | 288 | 135 | 230 | 0.173 | 0.71 | 0.117 | -0.9463 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 27 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 4 | 15 | 13 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 12 | 6 | 2 | 5 | 5 | 34 | 26 | 18 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 18 | 8 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 7 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 8 | 28 | 6 | 24 | 19 | 7 | 29 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 13 | 1 | 4 | 16 | 120 | 46 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103503 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106207 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088253 | 0 | 0 | 0.072127 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.631118 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.233011 | 0 | 0.109347 | 0.091352 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108529 | 0 | 0.119307 | 0.093941 | 0 | 0 | 0.070054 | 0.09594 | 0.089363 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160886 | 0.075772 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101746 | 0.060278 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112906 | 0.190024 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122383 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05829 | 0 | 0 | 0.112306 | 0 | 0 | 0.074916 | 0.103634 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095726 | 0.10036 | 0.141596 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084659 | 0 | 0.077969 | 0 | 0.081803 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111296 | 0 | 0 | 0.080666 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202499 | 0.220593 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084346 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175473 | 0 | 0.10614 | 0 | 0 | 0.081653 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08525 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061846 | 0.121904 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108088 | 0 | 0.115964 | 0 | 0.136603 |
suicidewatch | jayjay416000 | 2019/07/10 | Carbon Monoxide available anywhere? Quickest, easiest, most painless way to die. Ain’t no leaving a note either | 5.381667 | 8.993896 | 5.105556 | 69.145 | 88.444444 | 4.622222 | 44.888889 | 6.427356 | 4.612089 | 91 | 7 | 9 | 1 | 3 | 28 | 18 | 18 | 0.261 | 0.513 | 0.226 | -0.204 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.617115 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.629609 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.471976 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | aphexmachine | 2019/07/10 | Do you ever just crave the comfort and safety of a significant other in your company telling you that they are yours and they are there for you even at your worst Because I wish I had that sort of comfort right now. It seems selfish. I feel selfish for wanting something that most people on this earth don't have. I don'... | 6.812595 | 5.806618 | 6.910672 | 80.120882 | 65.102941 | 9.242017 | 31.193277 | 7.957252 | 2.038016 | 535 | 16 | 107 | 5 | 7 | 172 | 85 | 136 | 0.177 | 0.683 | 0.14 | -0.8153 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 7 | 2 | 2 | 7 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 8 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 24 | 26 | 7 | 0 | 5 | 5 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 24 | 7 | 15 | 24 | 7 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 13 | 6 | 0 | 4 | 6 | 81 | 34 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.220613 | 0.161639 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096166 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131785 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104196 | 0.142699 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148718 | 0 | 0.319064 | 0.225402 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173786 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086698 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111428 | 0.154143 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172209 | 0 | 0.427142 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.350922 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109368 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134723 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143615 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121448 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137886 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101084 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093048 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.352257 | 0.181411 | 0.152071 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | LeLunarde | 2019/07/10 | I think I should just kill myself I feel so lonely. No one wants me. Just because I’m not attractive or good looking, rich.
It causes many problems. I can’t function normally in this society. No one is interested in me.
I’m just a failure. There’s definitely something wrong with me.
I feel like I’m the only one who... | 1.17772 | 3.782895 | 3.453562 | 83.875566 | 88.457014 | 6.125199 | 21.19535 | 7.503016 | 1.177279 | 882 | 30 | 167 | 17 | 29 | 301 | 111 | 221 | 0.277 | 0.592 | 0.131 | -0.9879 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 31 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 9 | 26 | 4 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 18 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 46 | 38 | 10 | 2 | 9 | 12 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 11 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 13 | 11 | 0 | 7 | 1 | 5 | 29 | 14 | 19 | 31 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 11 | 5 | 2 | 5 | 3 | 114 | 39 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087422 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064046 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10793 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.216634 | 0.090492 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102773 | 0 | 0 | 0.159371 | 0.150116 | 0 | 0 | 0.096027 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088123 | 0 | 0 | 0.11574 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.232477 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114153 | 0 | 0.14842 | 0.102658 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088228 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106519 | 0 | 0.114446 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081032 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102941 | 0.100812 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.498361 | 0.079906 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.291354 | 0.091738 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100533 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067307 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089724 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083723 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107847 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.2142 | 0.267062 | 0.161768 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.201963 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185909 | 0.083395 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074635 | 0.229743 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | THESHARINGANWARRIOR | 2019/07/10 | Any advice writing the note? Anything you might advice when writing the suicide note? How to phrase? What to say? What not to include? | 1.7725 | 4.004521 | 1.523667 | 92.688 | 107.333333 | 1.92 | 25.633333 | 3.1291 | 0.313393 | 106 | 5 | 17 | 0 | 5 | 31 | 17 | 24 | 0.192 | 0.808 | 0 | -0.755 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 12 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.694743 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.241739 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.29253 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.377109 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.282692 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.388838 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | MrHarryPlinkett | 2019/07/10 | About to jump. Peace out world I've been a huge bully and a dick to people online, despite having a successful job and life. I don't know why but the guilt has eaten away at me. A couple people really spoke to me and hit me hard about the way I was treating them. I've felt horrible ever since. I'm out on my balcony at ... | 0.242772 | 2.536803 | 2.28434 | 93.207903 | 88.433962 | 5.148331 | 16.644412 | 6.671995 | -0.150734 | 396 | 9 | 86 | 5 | 13 | 132 | 73 | 106 | 0.165 | 0.761 | 0.074 | -0.7674 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 11 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 6 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 15 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 11 | 3 | 15 | 9 | 0 | 18 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 9 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 50 | 13 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.201474 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.237275 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193974 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.205897 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121872 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.424661 | 0 | 0 | 0.192097 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.231633 | 0 | 0.2128 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117851 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151466 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.297333 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.205375 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137376 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177388 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.240049 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197428 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.340427 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1935 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156116 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | purrito_ | 2019/07/10 | Worried about someone, when to take serious action? Hi everyone, I apologize in advance for any incorrect or bad wording. Your sub’s guide to commuting to people on watch is incredibly helpful and I’m learning a lot on how to word my thoughts.
My ex and I broke up a few years ago, and we have been no contact since. ... | 2.517319 | 4.314782 | 3.830676 | 88.208519 | 76.366255 | 7.591534 | 25.563198 | 8.418075 | 1.616451 | 937 | 34 | 200 | 18 | 21 | 307 | 139 | 243 | 0.161 | 0.777 | 0.063 | -0.9719 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 25 | 3 | 1 | 7 | 2 | 13 | 10 | 1 | 3 | 7 | 0 | 21 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 49 | 39 | 22 | 1 | 5 | 9 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 18 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 7 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 2 | 31 | 2 | 32 | 30 | 6 | 28 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 25 | 14 | 0 | 11 | 9 | 137 | 38 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116072 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089045 | 0 | 0.10017 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109331 | 0 | 0 | 0.111422 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.267412 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112795 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104546 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11278 | 0 | 0.135897 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109385 | 0 | 0.115975 | 0 | 0 | 0.086486 | 0 | 0 | 0.12512 | 0.117682 | 0 | 0.12344 | 0.147346 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101165 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104726 | 0 | 0.144247 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175535 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.295634 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.215886 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115624 | 0 | 0.109958 | 0 | 0 | 0.222644 | 0 | 0 | 0.087405 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097092 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149078 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124999 | 0.090778 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147617 | 0.125406 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129289 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108316 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110946 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136889 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098452 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173984 | 0.083902 | 0.257299 | 0.103953 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12512 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077233 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117732 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.265955 | 0.133441 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168644 |
suicidewatch | NotSaffron | 2019/07/10 | Really difficult I'm not going to lie, I'm finding it really difficult to think of any reason why being here is worth it. Today in particular, since my friends have all gone for a night out without me. The feeling of exclusion is cripplingly depressing.
I keep having visions of myself finding the tallest building and... | 4.636553 | 6.836262 | 6.182303 | 71.889243 | 71.526316 | 10.223684 | 33.980263 | 10.411451 | 4.319237 | 406 | 21 | 67 | 13 | 8 | 138 | 68 | 95 | 0.284 | 0.654 | 0.061 | -0.9773 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 10 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 15 | 19 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 7 | 1 | 13 | 15 | 2 | 13 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 46 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118926 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173437 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13963 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150626 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19672 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158192 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088426 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.31968 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135114 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09939 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155444 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123525 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164116 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.558263 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.224069 | 0.179809 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144665 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13149 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112058 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165769 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192609 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157805 | 0 | 0 | 0.168581 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178221 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.225238 |
suicidewatch | throwawayideation124 | 2019/07/10 | The only thing stopping me is the wish to be normal. To have a life with a husband, and a big family. To raise my daughters right and make the world better. "it is like schizophrenia light" my therapist said.
Fuck , that sucks. I cannot tell if I am bat shit crazy or not. Yeah, things seem insane at times. My first t... | 3.049964 | 4.53969 | 4.475732 | 85.443189 | 74.198171 | 7.424203 | 24.048311 | 8.076483 | 1.300375 | 2,531 | 75 | 515 | 39 | 52 | 842 | 274 | 656 | 0.144 | 0.691 | 0.165 | 0.9441 | 3 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 94 | 1 | 2 | 7 | 11 | 6 | 36 | 12 | 0 | 35 | 3 | 53 | 25 | 4 | 4 | 5 | 105 | 116 | 49 | 2 | 16 | 31 | 11 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 7 | 5 | 11 | 0 | 4 | 26 | 27 | 3 | 5 | 11 | 6 | 2 | 10 | 17 | 16 | 4 | 5 | 10 | 15 | 79 | 20 | 67 | 90 | 7 | 70 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 14 | 69 | 30 | 10 | 24 | 34 | 334 | 105 | 5 | 0.051656 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.04579 | 0 | 0 | 0.0535 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.035128 | 0.054166 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.048533 | 0 | 0.043131 | 0 | 0 | 0.131867 | 0 | 0.05421 | 0.182743 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.044497 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066628 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107222 | 0 | 0 | 0.158617 | 0.045205 | 0 | 0 | 0.101207 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.034118 | 0.093452 | 0.130568 | 0.04936 | 0 | 0 | 0.243485 | 0 | 0.026119 | 0.036903 | 0 | 0 | 0.047213 | 0.087878 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.334288 | 0.269883 | 0 | 0.205502 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.051148 | 0.045679 | 0.054989 | 0 | 0.051 | 0.106028 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103872 | 0 | 0 | 0.051306 | 0 | 0.059604 | 0 | 0 | 0.055798 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053792 | 0.113556 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.036486 | 0.126183 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.043916 | 0.186487 | 0 | 0.068962 | 0.052371 | 0 | 0.112538 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054799 | 0.052158 | 0 | 0.041232 | 0 | 0 | 0.191512 | 0.119521 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151837 | 0 | 0 | 0.054205 | 0.055012 | 0.035004 | 0.117861 | 0 | 0 | 0.057358 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05397 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.049428 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088228 | 0.245685 | 0.082158 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.047026 | 0 | 0 | 0.053024 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.039768 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.215935 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116517 | 0.083039 | 0.0903 | 0 | 0 | 0.299885 | 0.068636 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060242 | 0 | 0 | 0.04936 | 0 | 0.105214 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056892 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.046612 | 0 | 0.118804 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052642 | 0 | 0.112956 | 0 | 0.033265 |
suicidewatch | EmptyIllustrator | 2019/07/10 | Happy Birthday to Me Hey guys,
I'm turning 21 tomorrow and I'm going to be absolutely alone. Nobody alive remembers my birthday, I have neither friends nor family. I'm pretty sure the only person who knows is the HR guy at my office, because he has everyone's birthdates, but it's not like he's going to say anything.
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suicidewatch | CuppoGreenTea | 2019/07/10 | My life started getting better but I've never felt more suicidal I was a bulimic for three years, bullied for 6 years of school, attempted suicide several times before, didn't have any friends except for one of eight years which dumped me for her new friend that she then knew for two months, was abused by my mother for... | 7.185439 | 6.505226 | 7.415322 | 75.739474 | 64.204678 | 10.173099 | 35.374269 | 9.444779 | 3.184315 | 694 | 28 | 130 | 11 | 9 | 226 | 114 | 171 | 0.175 | 0.701 | 0.124 | -0.9206 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 21 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 7 | 2 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 11 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 22 | 26 | 4 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 5 | 9 | 4 | 19 | 4 | 25 | 16 | 6 | 31 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 13 | 7 | 1 | 3 | 22 | 88 | 26 | 3 | 0 | 0.146484 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109592 | 0 | 0.1238 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084074 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110059 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105202 | 0 | 0 | 0.109343 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141402 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079733 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.237413 | 0.135433 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191036 | 0 | 0.129185 | 0 | 0.070263 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139566 | 0 | 0 | 0.122686 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067945 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087325 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10382 | 0 | 0.134959 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098682 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190706 | 0.238809 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083776 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137279 | 0 | 0 | 0.085711 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131498 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132735 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125122 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139669 | 0.126907 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.262522 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.405701 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099371 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144182 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.241541 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072921 | 0 | 0.09917 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111559 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.31846 |
suicidewatch | kurtmama9 | 2019/07/10 | Is there light at the end of the tunnel? I’m a teenager and I think of killing my self quite often but I never had the guts. I’m being treated like shit by everyone and fucking tired of this. Every time I’m happy it’s short lived and every time I fell like the tunnel’s getting darker. I just want to ask should I be con... | 1.11475 | 3.142913 | 2.863333 | 92.345 | 81.75 | 5.333333 | 21.666667 | 6.427356 | 0.284667 | 447 | 14 | 98 | 4 | 12 | 148 | 79 | 120 | 0.231 | 0.597 | 0.172 | -0.8966 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 10 | 3 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 10 | 4 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 21 | 26 | 8 | 3 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 9 | 5 | 13 | 17 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 3 | 2 | 4 | 7 | 55 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.301756 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164797 | 0 | 0 | 0.165792 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142944 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.271956 | 0.154215 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149202 | 0.168639 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159801 | 0 | 0.171803 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108176 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178554 | 0.168063 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157694 | 0 | 0.14251 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176176 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124474 | 0.155871 | 0 | 0 | 0.158128 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174006 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171658 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16158 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168365 | 0 | 0.165664 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.353069 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206824 | 0 | 0.128126 | 0.188216 | 0.185494 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095192 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114647 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Andysgirlforever | 2019/07/10 | Help me I was with my boyfriend for 5 months we were getting married he had very bad mental health we split for 2 month then got BK together Thursday he died Saturday I only found out today from his sister after trying to get in touch with him and getting nowhere | 2.972308 | 5.325965 | 3.442923 | 88.902077 | 77.076923 | 5.698462 | 25.784615 | 6.742158 | 1.088111 | 212 | 8 | 40 | 2 | 5 | 66 | 46 | 52 | 0.134 | 0.817 | 0.049 | -0.6901 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 8 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 9 | 3 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 22 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.224482 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.279028 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.294784 | 0 | 0 | 0.421395 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.215027 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.285779 | 0 | 0 | 0.180207 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.270941 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.429193 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.204475 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.254842 | 0 | 0 | 0.182534 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.221833 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | RevolutionaryWorker9 | 2019/07/10 | My first post on anything I have been following several subs daily for a while now. I also wanted to die for many years. I'm 18 now and feel like nothing is worth living for. Spent many days being drunk and wanting to die. I know I won't be able to die with the equipment I have right now. I tried getting help but every... | 1.565833 | 3.47483 | 2.828333 | 93.783333 | 79.625 | 5.1 | 22.125 | 5.822114 | 0.140863 | 360 | 11 | 78 | 2 | 9 | 116 | 68 | 96 | 0.184 | 0.723 | 0.092 | -0.7983 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 11 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 15 | 22 | 8 | 3 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 10 | 2 | 11 | 17 | 0 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 50 | 11 | 1 | 0.170861 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136637 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140604 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110191 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.53198 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143958 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172785 | 0.122063 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145334 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089268 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114524 | 0 | 0 | 0.169703 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093901 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083474 | 0 | 0.301747 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.346452 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163946 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163637 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145914 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193024 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191265 | 0 | 0 | 0.13645 | 0.142847 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116003 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140978 | 0.201556 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110029 |
suicidewatch | princesspuppy12 | 2019/07/10 | Why is suicide illegal? I've been on here for awhile mostly replying to others posts, but I've always had a question. Idk if I should post this here or in the legal part of reddit, but anyways, why is suicide illegal? | 2.675465 | 4.829554 | 4.518779 | 81.812122 | 77.139535 | 7.090698 | 27.02907 | 8.076483 | 2.026353 | 171 | 7 | 31 | 3 | 4 | 58 | 34 | 43 | 0.343 | 0.624 | 0.033 | -0.9546 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 5 | 4 | 2 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 24 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.216058 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.281186 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.497364 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.290878 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.568051 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.468605 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | sakinahk | 2019/07/10 | I wasted my youth away Since I was 14 I've has no friends, I'm 18 now. While normal kids my age were having fun, hanging out with their friends, having funny stories to tell thier kids in the future, I was sitting the bathroom stall eating my lunch and thinking about killing myself.
All this would be ok if I was at l... | 4.349922 | 4.624094 | 5.425922 | 84.385134 | 70.019417 | 7.50351 | 26.525765 | 7.010147 | 1.119914 | 781 | 22 | 164 | 6 | 13 | 259 | 131 | 206 | 0.191 | 0.653 | 0.155 | -0.91 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 21 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 5 | 13 | 15 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 20 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 28 | 34 | 14 | 2 | 6 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 8 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 28 | 9 | 19 | 23 | 7 | 31 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 10 | 0 | 5 | 18 | 113 | 37 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152299 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129667 | 0.106123 | 0 | 0.084131 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.24412 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14122 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182311 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.213255 | 0 | 0.360527 | 0 | 0.078435 | 0 | 0.110381 | 0.152158 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137077 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.298153 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.305379 | 0 | 0.075848 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097482 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101455 | 0 | 0.106443 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135222 | 0.132426 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09352 | 0.104964 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114165 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.330649 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.241257 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176865 | 0 | 0 | 0.080476 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119198 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110705 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124534 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140646 | 0.196079 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | hopelessyouth_ | 2019/07/10 | I have no reason to feel this bad. I feel like such a whiny little baby, there are people with actual problems out there in the world and I'm over here in a first world country crying because I dont want to fucking live any loger.
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I mean, I heve never been molested, physically abused, (severely) bullied.... | 4.503275 | 5.073187 | 5.268261 | 84.602101 | 69.782609 | 8.568116 | 30.550725 | 8.648137 | 2.210038 | 892 | 35 | 185 | 14 | 15 | 290 | 129 | 230 | 0.29 | 0.635 | 0.074 | -0.9953 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 44 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 15 | 20 | 4 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 24 | 9 | 2 | 2 | 3 | 32 | 41 | 15 | 1 | 7 | 5 | 1 | 5 | 3 | 2 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 10 | 13 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 5 | 25 | 7 | 23 | 36 | 1 | 23 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 13 | 2 | 2 | 11 | 127 | 36 | 1 | 0 | 0.124169 | 0.102268 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.227098 | 0.254683 | 0.2138 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098462 | 0 | 0.175005 | 0.127768 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115116 | 0.067586 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122823 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138437 | 0.094796 | 0 | 0.100139 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117927 | 0.264946 | 0.224604 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178283 | 0 | 0 | 0.161934 | 0.193769 | 0 | 0 | 0.059559 | 0.1758 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1132 | 0 | 0 | 0.09315 | 0.115944 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148045 | 0.153598 | 0.105036 | 0.092539 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1144 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114156 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080827 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142028 | 0.079704 | 0.111513 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072654 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100278 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10775 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118392 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117313 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098771 | 0 | 0 | 0.084233 | 0.091598 | 0 | 0 | 0.121679 | 0.069623 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071151 | 0.113991 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185439 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094564 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148892 | 0 | 0.254683 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Scarriot212 | 2019/07/10 | Everyone I know goes away I'm a 23M using a separate account for this confession because, like so many men my age, I hide my true feelings from the outside world. I've been suffering with depression and anxiety for as long as I can remember, it comes and goes, keeping myself busy keeps me out of my own head.
On eveni... | 6.979271 | 5.753892 | 7.303958 | 78.14937 | 64.885167 | 10.928412 | 33.78036 | 10.070006 | 3.043626 | 1,638 | 58 | 338 | 31 | 21 | 536 | 215 | 418 | 0.122 | 0.733 | 0.145 | 0.9269 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 53 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 4 | 17 | 22 | 2 | 0 | 36 | 0 | 17 | 5 | 1 | 3 | 7 | 63 | 44 | 30 | 1 | 5 | 11 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 19 | 19 | 3 | 3 | 15 | 7 | 2 | 9 | 5 | 10 | 0 | 4 | 8 | 5 | 36 | 12 | 60 | 34 | 11 | 73 | 1 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 16 | 33 | 0 | 8 | 32 | 219 | 55 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07865 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103282 | 0 | 0.058093 | 0 | 0 | 0.053098 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.428084 | 0 | 0 | 0.092584 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077425 | 0 | 0 | 0.065415 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.195898 | 0 | 0.130813 | 0 | 0 | 0.07934 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148783 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134519 | 0.078465 | 0 | 0.050157 | 0.137383 | 0 | 0.217689 | 0.068249 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076794 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117341 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086316 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161677 | 0 | 0 | 0.077936 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162589 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134996 | 0.084015 | 0 | 0.250405 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077653 | 0.053638 | 0.1113 | 0 | 0.134111 | 0.067204 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05069 | 0.07699 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121228 | 0.080711 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073343 | 0.161524 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079685 | 0 | 0.154375 | 0.057755 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052647 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.048649 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.258073 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069132 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07741 | 0 | 0 | 0.075106 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063489 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.048659 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.051558 | 0.2478 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065587 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120554 | 0.060914 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.274093 | 0.084783 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110569 | 0 | 0 | 0.053945 | 0 | 0 | 0.048902 |
suicidewatch | Done8519 | 2019/07/10 | On the precipice Well, one of two things is going to happen. I will bury myself in work and exercise or jump in front of a train. Could go either way at this point. I don't really see the point in continuing on. I'm indifferent to my job, my friends have nothing to do with me unless I'm the one initiating contact or pl... | 3.636667 | 4.873633 | 5.408333 | 80.3325 | 72.333333 | 8.85679 | 27.080247 | 9.299571 | 2.232077 | 315 | 11 | 64 | 7 | 6 | 108 | 61 | 81 | 0.099 | 0.787 | 0.114 | 0.0772 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 14 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 3 | 14 | 12 | 1 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 45 | 10 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.20407 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19747 | 0 | 0.133537 | 0 | 0.290518 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.22602 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.253636 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.245248 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.346392 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.483235 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163739 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.203674 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169804 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.249677 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202878 | 0 | 0 | 0.229809 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186075 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | ButINeedThatUsername | 2019/07/10 | Trigger warning / Being in a dark place Trauma fucks me up. I have been sexually assaulted - raped - when I was 13 by a group of 19 year olds. It was one of those things that changes people. I think that was the point when I cracked and when I finally gave up on believing that my body would be my own.
I feel like tha... | 2.120177 | 3.973099 | 3.161153 | 92.314723 | 77.699187 | 6.74915 | 21.750924 | 7.686295 | 0.701754 | 469 | 13 | 104 | 7 | 11 | 150 | 75 | 123 | 0.215 | 0.771 | 0.014 | -0.9774 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 7 | 4 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 20 | 5 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 17 | 25 | 9 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 10 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 1 | 16 | 1 | 12 | 8 | 1 | 18 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 11 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 78 | 26 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.334443 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122508 | 0 | 0 | 0.226422 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.44646 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.212597 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101615 | 0.143571 | 0 | 0.22015 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185791 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19899 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098183 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.210882 | 0 | 0.136181 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139326 | 0 | 0.419937 | 0 | 0.18998 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133514 | 0.128772 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.218595 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142762 | 0 | 0 | 0.129417 |
suicidewatch | PM_ME_CUTE_BIRDS | 2019/07/10 | a near death situation is going to end up killing me 15 years later this is going to be a long post but i really need to share my story somehow
i'm a medical malpractice "survivor" (not for long lol) & when i was about 4 years old, the doctors at my local high-rated state hospital fucked up my tonsillectomy (a nor... | 3.593674 | 5.386255 | 5.014324 | 80.890489 | 73.386617 | 7.939236 | 28.398276 | 8.643656 | 2.261556 | 2,160 | 87 | 408 | 41 | 44 | 722 | 264 | 538 | 0.244 | 0.687 | 0.069 | -0.9989 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 85 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 7 | 26 | 34 | 10 | 8 | 23 | 1 | 52 | 37 | 10 | 5 | 4 | 68 | 89 | 30 | 6 | 6 | 15 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 19 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 18 | 20 | 3 | 5 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 6 | 25 | 2 | 2 | 33 | 5 | 68 | 9 | 67 | 51 | 7 | 62 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 5 | 21 | 26 | 5 | 6 | 29 | 283 | 86 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0.067552 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071694 | 0 | 0.055358 | 0 | 0.075003 | 0 | 0 | 0.072587 | 0.105911 | 0 | 0.068651 | 0 | 0 | 0.11393 | 0 | 0.064714 | 0.078751 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126594 | 0 | 0.058904 | 0 | 0 | 0.061222 | 0 | 0.076891 | 0 | 0.077276 | 0 | 0 | 0.070578 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15528 | 0 | 0 | 0.076039 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.287371 | 0 | 0 | 0.212559 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070833 | 0 | 0 | 0.061311 | 0 | 0 | 0.045721 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124427 | 0 | 0.065258 | 0.233686 | 0.035001 | 0 | 0.066465 | 0 | 0 | 0.058881 | 0.16741 | 0.0759 | 0 | 0.319979 | 0.108499 | 0.066405 | 0.078682 | 0 | 0.055364 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.046399 | 0.073138 | 0 | 0.068754 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076585 | 0 | 0.076087 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.048894 | 0 | 0 | 0.122251 | 0.122521 | 0 | 0.077443 | 0.075565 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.046207 | 0 | 0.139088 | 0 | 0 | 0.069735 | 0 | 0.073435 | 0 | 0.162147 | 0 | 0 | 0.152661 | 0.051328 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064961 | 0.067824 | 0.132843 | 0 | 0.145276 | 0 | 0 | 0.052647 | 0 | 0.081219 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066297 | 0.070425 | 0.074634 | 0 | 0.161837 | 0.069588 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.044346 | 0 | 0.06835 | 0 | 0.078416 | 0 | 0.065847 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055162 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057262 | 0.15562 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053291 | 0.068464 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.208189 | 0.055639 | 0 | 0 | 0.158326 | 0 | 0.045989 | 0 | 0 | 0.164867 | 0 | 0 | 0.065616 | 0 | 0 | 0.046998 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057116 | 0.081659 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06224 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.050395 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.222888 |
suicidewatch | Ya_boy_is_back | 2019/07/10 | Trying to find the gun to shoot myself Every time my parents leave I go and try to find my dads gun with the intention to shoot myself. I'm fed up with this shit. I met s wonderful girl but she is also in the deep and it just feels like I can't help her and that she doesn't even care for me. We have had wonderful time ... | 2.645188 | 2.863927 | 4.185686 | 91.96781 | 73.779412 | 7.80915 | 20.993464 | 7.793538 | 0.43099 | 477 | 8 | 118 | 6 | 9 | 160 | 81 | 136 | 0.297 | 0.608 | 0.095 | -0.982 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 10 | 2 | 2 | 8 | 0 | 14 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 27 | 25 | 11 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 10 | 2 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 18 | 3 | 11 | 16 | 2 | 10 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 3 | 1 | 5 | 7 | 77 | 27 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.228923 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141947 | 0.10008 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145931 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126771 | 0 | 0 | 0.094537 | 0 | 0.241188 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072371 | 0.102253 | 0 | 0 | 0.392457 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081345 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152365 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095938 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.459673 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151555 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069926 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151839 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15893 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.286598 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146922 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09509 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.250382 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194353 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084422 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.310438 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Ready2die33677 | 2019/07/10 | Desperate time is running out I want to kill my self I’m in so much debt I don’t know what to do. I owe $21,000 to my university and I cannot afford to pay it. The University said they were going to take legal action against me if I didn’t pay it in full by July 31st. I keep fantasizing that I’ll die before then so I ... | -0.604303 | 1.24807 | 2.28803 | 94.985379 | 87.242424 | 5.121212 | 16.439394 | 6.427356 | -0.450152 | 569 | 12 | 139 | 6 | 18 | 200 | 96 | 165 | 0.186 | 0.727 | 0.086 | -0.9602 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 11 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 16 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 18 | 30 | 14 | 2 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 7 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 4 | 9 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 4 | 18 | 1 | 21 | 22 | 2 | 17 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 4 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 88 | 24 | 4 | 0.183129 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.36323 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202252 | 0.155829 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186712 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188798 | 0.157729 | 0 | 0.190059 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120955 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.208153 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.325547 | 0.202605 | 0 | 0.100643 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.388049 | 0 | 0 | 0.161706 | 0 | 0.153782 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134621 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173116 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174198 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14593 | 0 | 0.191044 | 0 | 0 | 0.151486 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13769 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106784 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108014 | 0.145359 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | throwitinabinxddd | 2019/07/10 | My girlfriend broke up with me (it was for good reasons) and I’ve lost my only real friend in the world. It’s really hard for me to make friends let alone date and we shared so many interests and were unbelievably compatible, but we got together basically by freak chance. It was my own actions compounded by mental illn... | 2.9064 | 4.410841 | 4.389 | 85.8595 | 74.6 | 8.2 | 26.5 | 8.841846 | 1.8647 | 384 | 14 | 83 | 8 | 8 | 128 | 71 | 100 | 0.148 | 0.667 | 0.185 | 0.4927 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 10 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 15 | 16 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 12 | 7 | 13 | 9 | 1 | 10 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 54 | 19 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.228053 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.195025 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111336 | 0.157306 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.510361 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184687 | 0.176108 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197249 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121012 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.225162 | 0 | 0.107575 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.240366 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14698 | 0.223241 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.221902 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169826 | 0.212663 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167466 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.250627 | 0.141061 | 0.226395 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129875 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | lostgirl199 | 2019/07/10 | Hopeless & Lost Growing up I was always put down by others (family members, friends, anyone.) I had a shitty self-esteem growing up. Ended up developing bulimia, being a mean person, selfish, hanging out with the wrong crowd, started drinking heavily at age 14 and ruining relationships around me. I honestly felt li... | 2.174441 | 4.77409 | 4.11726 | 81.484828 | 81.905028 | 6.485028 | 25.709777 | 7.734863 | 1.880434 | 727 | 30 | 127 | 13 | 20 | 246 | 120 | 179 | 0.297 | 0.58 | 0.123 | -0.9895 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 31 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 8 | 20 | 1 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 13 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 22 | 28 | 2 | 2 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 7 | 9 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 10 | 3 | 13 | 1 | 1 | 7 | 1 | 24 | 7 | 25 | 18 | 2 | 34 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 17 | 88 | 31 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135821 | 0 | 0 | 0.110442 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103669 | 0.134993 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087116 | 0 | 0 | 0.110911 | 0 | 0 | 0.117056 | 0.191604 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106017 | 0 | 0.13075 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.214646 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.258609 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122051 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11035 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112699 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117452 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119626 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096258 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110175 | 0.132628 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133376 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060868 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139384 | 0.272009 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135715 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096091 | 0 | 0.132503 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084425 | 0 | 0.132573 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.326362 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125247 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133763 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124736 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.259949 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105565 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088185 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093676 | 0 | 0.108897 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082772 | 0.079832 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.236193 | 0 | 0.138424 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.220459 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112021 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13622 | 0 | 0.080232 |
suicidewatch | simplysober | 2019/07/10 | I’m doing it today. Goodbye nobody gives a shit. Nobody will see this post but that’s okay. Thanks for what I got in this world. Goodbye. | -0.631071 | 1.385184 | 0.922571 | 98.422429 | 104.357143 | 2.24 | 12.742857 | 3.1291 | -1.581537 | 107 | 2 | 22 | 0 | 5 | 34 | 24 | 28 | 0.078 | 0.712 | 0.21 | 0.5994 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.394535 | 0 | 0 | 0.328937 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.393891 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.327735 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.422171 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.37865 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.389844 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | cyrusub | 2019/07/10 | Everyone would be better off without me I think even if I got myself into therapy it wouldn't help at this point. My boyfriend says I'm the best thing to come into his life but I seriously think I'm ruining him. He could do and be so much more without me holding him back. I keep hurting him and honestly it's just becau... | 3.096319 | 4.129531 | 4.818482 | 84.828602 | 73.395604 | 7.804322 | 25.005311 | 8.238736 | 1.414899 | 1,026 | 31 | 217 | 16 | 20 | 349 | 151 | 273 | 0.191 | 0.654 | 0.155 | -0.9024 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 18 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 23 | 20 | 4 | 1 | 6 | 1 | 28 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 57 | 60 | 20 | 1 | 8 | 17 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 15 | 0 | 5 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 9 | 12 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 2 | 34 | 8 | 26 | 35 | 5 | 32 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 3 | 13 | 14 | 3 | 7 | 12 | 148 | 45 | 1 | 0.097807 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0867 | 0 | 0 | 0.202597 | 0.107932 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136777 | 0.100215 | 0 | 0.087069 | 0 | 0 | 0.091893 | 0.075207 | 0 | 0.119244 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102642 | 0.173004 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09972 | 0 | 0 | 0.168504 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078091 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081705 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0646 | 0.176944 | 0 | 0.186917 | 0 | 0 | 0.092203 | 0 | 0.049454 | 0.069873 | 0 | 0.107142 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.271262 | 0.0511 | 0 | 0.055586 | 0 | 0.078225 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104117 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131116 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.314112 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.260805 | 0.108209 | 0 | 0.107504 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069084 | 0.047783 | 0 | 0.086365 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103953 | 0.071899 | 0 | 0.075435 | 0 | 0.104019 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.208322 | 0.066276 | 0.074386 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067807 | 0.085401 | 0 | 0 | 0.184918 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105452 | 0.093588 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062657 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07778 | 0.097922 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096733 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078109 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085487 | 0 | 0.111851 | 0 | 0.194935 | 0.188012 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066404 | 0 | 0.095543 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077634 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188564 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138958 | 0 | 0 | 0.062984 |
suicidewatch | fattryingtobefit | 2019/07/10 | What option do i have now? I don't really know what's there to live for . I have nothing left. Everything's falling apart. All my life I've asked "why me?". Why did I have a dysfunctional family with issues, why couldn't I have had a pleasant family. Why did I have to be molested when I was a child. I have struggled wi... | 0.500614 | 2.77954 | 2.442746 | 92.777803 | 86.602339 | 5.759181 | 19.076316 | 7.168622 | 0.374209 | 641 | 18 | 140 | 10 | 20 | 213 | 98 | 171 | 0.223 | 0.659 | 0.118 | -0.9614 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 29 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 13 | 5 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 21 | 7 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 20 | 37 | 4 | 1 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 7 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 1 | 23 | 6 | 13 | 24 | 3 | 16 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 7 | 1 | 1 | 8 | 85 | 26 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090517 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105817 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.230808 | 0.116276 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122317 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117472 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149521 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.203454 | 0 | 0.213409 | 0 | 0.057232 | 0.080862 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08745 | 0.104642 | 0.059137 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.335253 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.23628 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062206 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12298 | 0 | 0.319795 | 0.055299 | 0 | 0.099948 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107102 | 0.075555 | 0 | 0.113714 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109319 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108608 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1534 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072512 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.236162 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080116 | 0 | 0 | 0.094631 | 0 | 0.11833 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090977 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066762 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.510678 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | eluna303 | 2019/07/10 | I'm done. I can't handle this existence anymore. My cousin just committed suicide, and even though I wasn't very close to her anymore I feel like I should just end it as well. My family isn't very supportive and they don't quite understand my struggle of unemployment due to terrible anxiety and suicidal thoughts. I've ... | 5.59025 | 6.735361 | 6.301969 | 76.08835 | 67.640777 | 10.157559 | 35.102635 | 10.290406 | 3.819792 | 430 | 21 | 78 | 11 | 7 | 141 | 68 | 103 | 0.362 | 0.583 | 0.055 | -0.9902 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 7 | 7 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 8 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 14 | 15 | 7 | 4 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 11 | 3 | 9 | 9 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 47 | 15 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171764 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119072 | 0 | 0.308727 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158937 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159285 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13786 | 0 | 0 | 0.102806 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146734 | 0 | 0.078702 | 0.111197 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076043 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165554 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159773 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16272 | 0 | 0.681026 | 0.17663 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152926 | 0.123569 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162038 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.256856 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139949 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100234 |
suicidewatch | woahhboii | 2019/07/10 | I really could do with some help I feel pathetic for complaining about things as I know my life could be worse. However, things are pretty bad right now and I just want to get things off of my chest.
I’ve struggled with mental health issues for about 8 years now (depression, anxiety and complex trauma). After years o... | 4.488487 | 5.342523 | 5.7625 | 80.019682 | 69.968523 | 9.386683 | 29.035714 | 9.606745 | 2.573331 | 1,626 | 59 | 323 | 36 | 28 | 546 | 202 | 413 | 0.159 | 0.689 | 0.152 | -0.5903 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 43 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 26 | 24 | 3 | 1 | 14 | 0 | 32 | 5 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 63 | 69 | 27 | 2 | 10 | 9 | 0 | 7 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 16 | 18 | 0 | 0 | 18 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 11 | 14 | 1 | 0 | 13 | 9 | 41 | 10 | 60 | 44 | 10 | 49 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 10 | 18 | 0 | 5 | 25 | 214 | 57 | 6 | 0.241686 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064425 | 0.067034 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084476 | 0.06163 | 0 | 0.159792 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123894 | 0.067266 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085224 | 0 | 0.253403 | 0 | 0 | 0.192967 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069388 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067299 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05321 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075947 | 0 | 0.203673 | 0.057554 | 0.154704 | 0.088252 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124484 | 0 | 0.04209 | 0 | 0.045785 | 0.067572 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079538 | 0 | 0.085634 | 0 | 0 | 0.161997 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084086 | 0.079945 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.221374 | 0.065669 | 0 | 0.170607 | 0 | 0 | 0.113807 | 0.039359 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087943 | 0.136982 | 0.07271 | 0 | 0.053776 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081188 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085625 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077807 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122542 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055852 | 0 | 0.16834 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163921 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.20644 | 0.082831 | 0.079545 | 0 | 0 | 0.0688 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081533 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066642 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13652 | 0 | 0.079678 | 0 | 0.114044 | 0.085868 | 0.128674 | 0 | 0 | 0.084221 | 0 | 0.088122 | 0.091421 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184259 | 0.093539 | 0.214087 | 0.051621 | 0.158304 | 0.063957 | 0 | 0 | 0.076363 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083868 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095035 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072435 | 0.074682 | 0.072695 | 0 | 0.092642 | 0 | 0 | 0.05865 | 0 | 0.0821 | 0.114458 | 0 | 0 | 0.155638 |
suicidewatch | damnlehew | 2019/07/10 | I've attempted 6 times in the past year and a half I've attempted 6 times in the past year, each time I've failed or have been stopped mid act. I lost my daughter in a divorce and custody battle last year and have been fighting with literal crippling depression since then. A few months back I found what I thought was w... | 5.138162 | 4.575799 | 5.866869 | 84.763139 | 68.345794 | 8.815576 | 30.450156 | 8.076483 | 1.837014 | 802 | 27 | 178 | 9 | 12 | 263 | 112 | 214 | 0.15 | 0.823 | 0.027 | -0.9702 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 16 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 6 | 9 | 2 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 19 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 41 | 43 | 12 | 1 | 5 | 12 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 14 | 11 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 7 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 3 | 21 | 1 | 16 | 29 | 6 | 27 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 11 | 6 | 0 | 6 | 17 | 106 | 35 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0.374882 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141309 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.253987 | 0.179074 | 0 | 0.105376 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098464 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130756 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110306 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110291 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150077 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115831 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129494 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140403 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072775 | 0 | 0.102415 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.281497 | 0.10438 | 0 | 0.135589 | 0 | 0 | 0.090447 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139784 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128999 | 0 | 0.135843 | 0 | 0 | 0.10221 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.244481 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121051 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122529 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105926 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108498 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107058 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.223847 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082051 | 0 | 0.101659 | 0.298674 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086939 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.226586 | 0.101642 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.247385 |
suicidewatch | DoubleGemini90 | 2019/07/10 | I need help how does one make their mind stop over thinking? | 3.41 | 5.252993 | 1.873333 | 103.005 | 74 | 4.8 | 20.333333 | 3.1291 | -0.785267 | 48 | 1 | 11 | 0 | 1 | 13 | 12 | 12 | 0.158 | 0.647 | 0.194 | 0.128 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 6 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.399484 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.30598 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.304715 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.460932 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.338487 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.309334 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.381652 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.292505 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | BlakeBlues | 2019/07/10 | What is your threshold for seeking medical help? I have been debating going back to the hospital again, but I'm scared. I don't always trust myself, but I have no explicit intentions or plans. But the intrusive thoughts are so scary and fucking intense.. | 5.207826 | 7.70225 | 5.568913 | 75.619022 | 70.73913 | 9.817391 | 35.413043 | 10.125757 | 4.327365 | 204 | 11 | 33 | 6 | 4 | 65 | 39 | 46 | 0.296 | 0.67 | 0.034 | -0.9435 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 8 | 10 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 2 | 8 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 25 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.352944 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.326161 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.392139 | 0 | 0 | 0.241066 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.284312 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.427307 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.424668 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.336744 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Violetmama08 | 2019/07/10 | I’m ready. I posted on my Facebook today about how I’m being abused in my relationship and they actually laugh reacted my status. I’m gonna get money and take the train somewhere and jump in front of one. I’m tired. And I’m done. | 0.147619 | 2.41571 | 3.007245 | 88.047874 | 88.591837 | 5.715646 | 18.370748 | 7.168622 | 0.395977 | 182 | 5 | 39 | 3 | 6 | 64 | 34 | 49 | 0.123 | 0.755 | 0.121 | -0.0258 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 6 | 10 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 5 | 7 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 19 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0.39516 | 0.325462 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.341301 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174248 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.225998 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.319415 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.35807 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.250761 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.383326 | 0.316133 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | esf1273 | 2019/07/10 | I'm so done Everything is so bland. There's nothing I'm motivated for and I don't want anything. I'm not really depressed and my situation is also not bad or anything. I just don't see a point in anything. | 0.525455 | 2.752813 | 3.932909 | 82.539364 | 85.818182 | 7.156364 | 26.981818 | 8.238736 | 2.186815 | 164 | 8 | 34 | 4 | 5 | 60 | 30 | 44 | 0.091 | 0.766 | 0.143 | 0.4708 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 10 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 21 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.210017 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.64834 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.219276 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.226194 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.268751 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.236025 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.25199 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.24826 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168241 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.209274 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.295195 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1549 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Completely_hollow | 2019/07/10 | All I fear is the pain If I had a firearm I wouldn't be here. I feel like it would be too conspicuous for me to get one. People would know what is up. I fucking hate being alive though. I don't want to wake up tomorrow. I don't want to go to work ever again. I want to be gone. I'm thinking about hanging, but finding a ... | 1.254223 | 2.748424 | 3.221389 | 92.530537 | 79.07874 | 6.507946 | 22.569077 | 7.348243 | 0.644298 | 456 | 14 | 107 | 6 | 11 | 154 | 82 | 127 | 0.278 | 0.65 | 0.072 | -0.9791 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 10 | 3 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 16 | 5 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 27 | 31 | 8 | 0 | 8 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 16 | 1 | 16 | 21 | 2 | 13 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 2 | 2 | 5 | 76 | 21 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174612 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141487 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.528035 | 0.079089 | 0.111744 | 0 | 0 | 0.142962 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144604 | 0.081721 | 0 | 0.088895 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154429 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13903 | 0 | 0 | 0.085962 | 0 | 0 | 0.165622 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076417 | 0 | 0.138118 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104409 | 0 | 0.157141 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105992 | 0.118962 | 0.332876 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108439 | 0 | 0.163422 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130771 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103916 | 0.100225 | 0.153678 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.369033 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15078 | 0 | 0.113873 | 0 | 0 | 0.222227 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | 221MaudlinStreet | 2019/07/10 | Some help needed I’m planning on finally getting rid of myself. Any advice on how to overdose effectively? I’m thinking of crushing the pills first because I heard that works better. I’m worried about just throwing them up before they can do anything though. Would 1g of diphenhydramine be enough? (F, 5’4”, 86 lbs)
Why... | 0.617636 | 3.112776 | 2.413684 | 90.773482 | 91 | 4.186235 | 23.097166 | 5.873415 | 0.527478 | 371 | 15 | 72 | 3 | 13 | 122 | 77 | 95 | 0.161 | 0.779 | 0.06 | -0.8607 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 14 | 18 | 7 | 1 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 5 | 1 | 10 | 14 | 2 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 42 | 7 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.232374 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161711 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.195688 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14496 | 0 | 0.202349 | 0 | 0 | 0.210314 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.24571 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.260497 | 0 | 0.202271 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12424 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.261962 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.213021 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159391 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.252267 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176325 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152372 | 0.233636 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16145 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.214576 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.34624 | 0.241496 | 0 | 0.168925 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | pssmst616 | 2019/07/10 | Most of you are edgy youngsters who are not suicidal. We all know that you are not going to kill yourself, you are just saying this shit for attention, the people who respond to you pretending to be the saviors don't actually believe your words, they are only doing it for that karma crap. | 7.518667 | 7.280719 | 7.650909 | 72.86303 | 63.363636 | 10.242424 | 34.69697 | 9.725611 | 3.341788 | 231 | 9 | 40 | 4 | 3 | 75 | 41 | 55 | 0.106 | 0.759 | 0.135 | 0.2211 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 8 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 10 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 6 | 9 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 34 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.344752 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.398028 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.200778 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.390854 | 0 | 0.194154 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.268687 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.244921 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.280944 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.362639 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.386433 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | moonfisch | 2019/07/10 | It's the only thing on my mind Hey guys I guess I'll try this too.
I'm defenetly on the end even though I haven't experienced so much of my life (16) and there probably are other people who have it worse but I'm at my end.
Have depression and am self harming since about 3 years and recently developed an eating disorder... | -0.163883 | 2.047915 | 1.947727 | 95.428186 | 89.677966 | 5.25208 | 17.085003 | 6.782985 | -0.126184 | 648 | 16 | 149 | 9 | 22 | 216 | 119 | 177 | 0.152 | 0.742 | 0.106 | -0.8871 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 13 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 15 | 6 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 35 | 33 | 16 | 2 | 6 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 10 | 7 | 2 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 23 | 6 | 14 | 25 | 3 | 17 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 4 | 0 | 6 | 11 | 93 | 33 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138552 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151734 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096552 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109174 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12557 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145853 | 0 | 0.122304 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122288 | 0 | 0.294707 | 0 | 0.162722 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145281 | 0 | 0 | 0.251505 | 0 | 0 | 0.187553 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129768 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080691 | 0 | 0.113555 | 0 | 0.156407 | 0.140583 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142418 | 0.141019 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160279 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156057 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100285 | 0.069364 | 0 | 0 | 0.125648 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142638 | 0.154658 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14336 | 0.166286 | 0 | 0 | 0.104372 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107983 | 0 | 0 | 0.157652 | 0 | 0 | 0.098431 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153079 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140189 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148117 | 0 | 0 | 0.117448 | 0 | 0.142083 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113386 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133815 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094326 | 0 | 0.139495 | 0.112717 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192791 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122626 | 0 | 0 | 0.083744 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127657 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14469 | 0.100859 | 0 | 0 | 0.091431 |
suicidewatch | Haftie | 2019/07/10 | What about my kids? Just one question, I hope someone knows the answer to..
Will my kids be taken from my husband for a period of time or will they stay where they are, with grandparents if needbe etc?
Thank you | 1.624878 | 4.253806 | 1.998244 | 95.341268 | 85.341463 | 5.23122 | 17.956098 | 6.742158 | -0.006399 | 165 | 4 | 34 | 2 | 5 | 50 | 36 | 41 | 0 | 0.865 | 0.135 | 0.6966 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 8 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 2 | 6 | 4 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 26 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.413116 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.36791 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.203573 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.251006 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.414955 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.313855 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.394818 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.341033 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.215995 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | your_random_idiot | 2019/07/10 | Do you guys feel physically weak and tired from mental health too? Recently a lot of bad stuff happened to me, and I’ve been extremely down for almost 2 weeks now. I am feeling literal physical pain from it. I have difficulty breathing. I eat much less. I have constant headaches. Can’t workout or anything or else I wil... | 2.391364 | 5.201327 | 3.718409 | 83.097614 | 83.545455 | 7.542424 | 29.462121 | 8.472885 | 2.781067 | 276 | 14 | 51 | 7 | 8 | 90 | 55 | 66 | 0.273 | 0.705 | 0.022 | -0.9551 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 11 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 8 | 0 | 6 | 9 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 34 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.235085 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193193 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19602 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.253699 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.240225 | 0.196117 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.356115 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.232456 | 0.207603 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.249546 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19959 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.236589 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17258 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.249808 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.231803 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.268751 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.269829 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188315 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | throwaway19282939494 | 2019/07/10 | Fuck the 27 club, I’m joining the 19 club I can’t take this bullshit anymore, I do not belong in society. I walk through everyday and feel so disconnected to everyone around me, like I don’t fit in anywhere. I see people enjoying their lives like normal fucking people and all I can think is bashing them up, like the wh... | 3.508385 | 5.131209 | 5.269675 | 79.672727 | 73.261364 | 8.892208 | 30.753247 | 9.42424 | 2.983079 | 697 | 32 | 133 | 17 | 14 | 238 | 101 | 176 | 0.072 | 0.757 | 0.17 | 0.9393 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 18 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 7 | 16 | 3 | 1 | 5 | 1 | 24 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 32 | 39 | 12 | 0 | 4 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 24 | 11 | 17 | 27 | 4 | 17 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 5 | 10 | 3 | 2 | 10 | 102 | 33 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144601 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129798 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088882 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152336 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.278648 | 0 | 0 | 0.137453 | 0 | 0.073724 | 0 | 0 | 0.479171 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159869 | 0.11265 | 0.269591 | 0.076178 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.310427 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080131 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.284934 | 0 | 0.12875 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158826 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108113 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142859 | 0.139905 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098802 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.303251 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116189 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109628 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093427 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162787 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.207153 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | IHateBloodElves | 2019/07/10 | I feel like giving up and this is the only solution. Hi there.
I'm 22 and got PTSD symptoms and suffer from bulimia since I'm 13. I feel like shit constantly. I'm fat and got sick because I wanted to be pretty and skinny like beautiful women. My parents kicked me out of their lives and always have to be co-dependant o... | 1.833274 | 3.943748 | 3.826984 | 85.945 | 79.694444 | 6.892063 | 22.785714 | 7.957252 | 1.311855 | 277 | 9 | 55 | 5 | 7 | 94 | 52 | 72 | 0.12 | 0.625 | 0.255 | 0.8625 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 13 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 7 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 7 | 3 | 8 | 9 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 29 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.18828 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137936 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.244524 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.228824 | 0.323304 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.217065 | 0 | 0 | 0.361948 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151668 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.331641 | 0 | 0.199806 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172093 | 0 | 0 | 0.251253 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.230204 | 0 | 0 | 0.264505 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.232269 | 0.187178 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.235188 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133464 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Cynical_Rose22 | 2019/07/10 | i can't do it anymore I have no friends the people i walk around with chat shit about me when i am their i just don't want to walk around alone at lunch or i will get picked on [more](https://more.My). My family is shit and they don't care about me i know this because they only call and text when it benefits them and t... | 0.646845 | 2.76358 | 2.0625 | 96.899167 | 84.178571 | 5.519048 | 17.369048 | 6.816662 | -0.211252 | 414 | 9 | 96 | 5 | 12 | 133 | 68 | 112 | 0.217 | 0.733 | 0.05 | -0.9509 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 8 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 16 | 4 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 14 | 20 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 21 | 3 | 10 | 17 | 2 | 12 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 6 | 2 | 1 | 4 | 67 | 28 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.40467 | 0.215586 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193746 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.347825 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11909 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.199485 | 0 | 0.199184 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.20186 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184169 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150935 | 0 | 0.102068 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.209138 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107365 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137989 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.297162 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135439 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.200864 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.401071 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185179 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115229 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | No__Expectations | 2019/07/10 | I'm gonna do it this year. Throwaway, since my girlfriend knows my username.
I am tired of being expected so much of me, and thus failing to deliver every single time. I feel like a failure. I am a failure.
I can't do anything right, and I'm not allowed to feel depressed because I'm a man and I need to toughen up. I ... | 2.637039 | 3.312733 | 3.852059 | 92.677598 | 74.117647 | 6.490196 | 24.166667 | 6.214336 | 0.419167 | 1,226 | 34 | 288 | 7 | 24 | 401 | 167 | 340 | 0.138 | 0.732 | 0.13 | -0.768 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 35 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 6 | 7 | 17 | 5 | 0 | 14 | 0 | 37 | 4 | 2 | 7 | 5 | 61 | 71 | 23 | 3 | 14 | 11 | 2 | 5 | 3 | 3 | 7 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 17 | 12 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 12 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 8 | 51 | 8 | 35 | 54 | 11 | 31 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 24 | 13 | 2 | 7 | 14 | 195 | 68 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132844 | 0 | 0.078172 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08925 | 0 | 0 | 0.115815 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084015 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106544 | 0 | 0 | 0.208693 | 0 | 0 | 0.081818 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08313 | 0.097212 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062743 | 0.085928 | 0.080037 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089552 | 0 | 0.24016 | 0.203592 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080802 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.049631 | 0 | 0.161962 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094059 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093787 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107237 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.315291 | 0 | 0.261032 | 0 | 0 | 0.301755 | 0 | 0.097138 | 0.067097 | 0.139228 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079771 | 0 | 0 | 0.161521 | 0 | 0 | 0.126819 | 0 | 0.095434 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139663 | 0.070437 | 0.073265 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.21096 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096643 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095495 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101988 | 0 | 0.081125 | 0 | 0.151086 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0991 | 0 | 0 | 0.07858 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093952 | 0.106338 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107798 | 0.179062 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087458 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060868 | 0 | 0 | 0.110784 | 0.109182 | 0 | 0.090771 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114266 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11206 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106058 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069157 | 0 | 0 | 0.134962 | 0 | 0 | 0.122346 |
suicidewatch | finnanut3301 | 2019/07/10 | A goodbye to reddit. Hello. This site has helped me alot, but i am done with. This. I am done. I am not doing anythjng more on this site. I have harmed mor then helped. Goodbye now. | -1.805068 | -0.585628 | -0.391655 | 106.108193 | 117.108108 | 1.85 | 12.733108 | 3.1291 | -1.878186 | 136 | 3 | 32 | 0 | 8 | 42 | 26 | 37 | 0.118 | 0.882 | 0 | -0.631 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 8 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 26 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.836532 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.547918 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | bubble116 | 2019/07/10 | It's getting worse as I'm getting calmer My dad died recently and he was the only person in the world who understood me, so now I'm alone. In the first days after it happened, the shock protected me from pain and I laid out to myself how to continue my life. As the pain set in, it started seeming impossible to actuall... | 2.801471 | 4.343464 | 4.230504 | 86.733908 | 74.952381 | 6.845938 | 26.162465 | 7.510576 | 1.318078 | 805 | 29 | 166 | 10 | 17 | 267 | 116 | 210 | 0.122 | 0.813 | 0.065 | -0.825 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 21 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 15 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 35 | 43 | 15 | 2 | 10 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 19 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 25 | 3 | 26 | 35 | 4 | 25 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 11 | 7 | 0 | 2 | 16 | 113 | 44 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107658 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11426 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142297 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114497 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09216 | 0 | 0.097712 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09384 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172916 | 0 | 0.062698 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109236 | 0.487786 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.236203 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06063 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155847 | 0.053898 | 0 | 0.097416 | 0 | 0.092643 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073641 | 0 | 0.110833 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083905 | 0.35217 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076483 | 0.096329 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105658 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108929 | 0 | 0.124973 | 0 | 0 | 0.087732 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100433 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169862 | 0.109111 | 0 | 0.156173 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103977 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096426 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07069 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.325353 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099548 | 0 | 0.126865 | 0.106346 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112427 | 0.235108 | 0 | 0 | 0.071044 |
suicidewatch | throwawaybrownman | 2019/07/10 | Hi I don’t know how much longer I can do this. I’ve been alone my entire life, but recently (I’m 25M) it has really taken a toll on me; I have no motivation to do anything. It is this enormous mental ball and chain that I can’t remove. I just really want peace.
I’m not sure why I’m writing this, maybe in hopes that so... | 1.32534 | 3.304728 | 3.320204 | 89.603801 | 80.747573 | 6.450097 | 23.892233 | 7.554174 | 1.102209 | 385 | 14 | 83 | 6 | 10 | 130 | 72 | 103 | 0.066 | 0.766 | 0.168 | 0.9072 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 12 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 17 | 23 | 6 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 10 | 2 | 6 | 20 | 2 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 52 | 18 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.26054 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175896 | 0 | 0.207012 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166153 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.201195 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.249855 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.276501 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177684 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.211247 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.252725 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.253513 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184925 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.322311 | 0 | 0.248385 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.213145 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178055 | 0 | 0.200896 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.237092 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148376 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.226993 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
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