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suicidewatch | hdhsjsdnsh | 2018/12/16 | Life insurance A while ago I noticed my life insurance plan is ok for suicide after one year. My family has had financial problems for years. My husband has been out of work 12 of the last 18 months. It’s a bad relationship. Although he is a good dad, he is verbally abusive to me. We can’t afford a divorce or to sell t... | 3.693979 | 5.021816 | 4.95 | 83.321667 | 72.3125 | 8.083333 | 27.708333 | 8.598638 | 1.994396 | 627 | 23 | 125 | 11 | 12 | 208 | 109 | 160 | 0.146 | 0.741 | 0.113 | -0.7157 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 21 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 10 | 1 | 1 | 10 | 1 | 19 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 15 | 25 | 8 | 1 | 2 | 5 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 15 | 5 | 17 | 17 | 3 | 18 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 16 | 5 | 0 | 4 | 13 | 81 | 21 | 3 | 0 | 0.201717 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150915 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141661 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.284301 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150571 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160495 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088948 | 0 | 0 | 0.142796 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181233 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170773 | 0 | 0 | 0.196444 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093564 | 0.138775 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.360755 | 0.083175 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.342075 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135891 | 0 | 0.125152 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193829 | 0 | 0 | 0.115365 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162905 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.18108 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182783 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120503 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.195019 | 0 | 0 | 0.186224 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109088 | 0 | 0 | 0.099273 | 0 | 0.161376 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123943 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.219269 |
suicidewatch | makkus1 | 2018/12/16 | My life is perfect But i dont want to exist | -4.121818 | -3.006225 | 0.500455 | 101.270682 | 112.636364 | 2.2 | 14.590909 | 3.1291 | -1.451764 | 34 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 2 | 13 | 11 | 11 | 0.102 | 0.587 | 0.31 | 0.5389 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.786526 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.474019 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.395833 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | NightOwl470 | 2018/12/16 | How do you talk about suicide? So I've been suicidal for about 2 months now and Friday I took a whole bunch of painkillers hoping to not wake up but unfortunately didn't have enough, just made myself pretty sick and caused a fair amount of stomach pain. Funny thing is I woke up and my want for death had lessened slight... | 5.736505 | 5.877241 | 5.332141 | 86.716814 | 67.013245 | 8.300515 | 28.698308 | 7.793538 | 1.473291 | 602 | 18 | 128 | 6 | 9 | 184 | 106 | 151 | 0.286 | 0.563 | 0.151 | -0.9858 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 8 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 12 | 6 | 3 | 6 | 1 | 30 | 28 | 14 | 4 | 6 | 5 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 3 | 17 | 4 | 18 | 19 | 5 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 79 | 20 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127303 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135457 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16353 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164484 | 0 | 0.105142 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179131 | 0.08049 | 0 | 0.152845 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09047 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1067 | 0 | 0 | 0.15811 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179704 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087486 | 0 | 0 | 0.168557 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155542 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150628 | 0.106259 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127062 | 0 | 0 | 0.118036 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15597 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169387 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161951 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170908 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179837 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159303 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112674 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.522378 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127949 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105757 | 0 | 0 | 0.126378 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176864 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.28168 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177728 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Cherryia | 2018/12/16 | Stuck in a situation for years Im 23 an dependent on my parents. My dad is extremely mentally abusive. I don’t even know if i can describe the shit he does. I cant stand up for myself or my mom or call him out on his shit because it just makes things worse for my mom. Its awful living around someone who you have to wal... | -0.754549 | 1.178029 | 1.876104 | 97.112316 | 88.813665 | 5.344435 | 18.019473 | 6.766489 | -0.133293 | 1,116 | 30 | 278 | 15 | 37 | 384 | 156 | 322 | 0.162 | 0.721 | 0.117 | -0.9322 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 29 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 17 | 17 | 9 | 0 | 17 | 1 | 31 | 5 | 2 | 7 | 0 | 44 | 56 | 18 | 1 | 5 | 14 | 9 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 14 | 7 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 14 | 9 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 47 | 8 | 41 | 47 | 2 | 28 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 33 | 17 | 6 | 11 | 7 | 181 | 61 | 4 | 0.080294 | 0.190271 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080403 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071479 | 0 | 0 | 0.075439 | 0 | 0 | 0.097893 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08199 | 0 | 0.163731 | 0 | 0.084941 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064109 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070266 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09032 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053034 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072163 | 0 | 0.075694 | 0 | 0.040599 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124071 | 0.222693 | 0.083901 | 0.077026 | 0.091266 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079274 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161459 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.346927 | 0 | 0.15936 | 0.071369 | 0.088834 | 0 | 0.132383 | 0 | 0 | 0.08502 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078456 | 0 | 0.283606 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107194 | 0 | 0 | 0.087464 | 0 | 0 | 0.161836 | 0 | 0 | 0.376159 | 0 | 0 | 0.059026 | 0.059537 | 0 | 0.077549 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085511 | 0 | 0.061068 | 0 | 0 | 0.267472 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102877 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081262 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164842 | 0.06642 | 0.180509 | 0 | 0 | 0.068033 | 0.061815 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.210543 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106688 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054515 | 0 | 0.078436 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.04736 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072194 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092335 | 0.077401 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081827 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.051707 |
suicidewatch | indecisive_maybe | 2018/12/16 | How to write a goodbye note to make things less painful for friends/family? Or should there be a note at all? | 2.481818 | 4.494315 | 2.109091 | 99.533636 | 77.181818 | 6.218182 | 24.636364 | 7.168622 | 0.639655 | 86 | 3 | 20 | 1 | 2 | 25 | 19 | 22 | 0.142 | 0.858 | 0 | -0.4528 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 6 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 14 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.552828 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.391442 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.623996 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.389594 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | james2521 | 2018/12/16 | ? Does anyone else whip themself with a belt as a method of self harm? I’m to pussy to use a blade and I need some form of anger/stress/depression relief... | 0.2325 | 2.550227 | 1.17375 | 100.89625 | 89 | 4.45 | 14.25 | 5.985473 | -0.983338 | 120 | 2 | 28 | 1 | 4 | 37 | 27 | 32 | 0.139 | 0.861 | 0 | -0.594 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 13 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.25634 | 0.375632 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.315758 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.32082 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.306253 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.271834 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.38245 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.419946 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.31663 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | TonyB999 | 2018/12/16 | So, I'm depressed. I've accepted it.. So I'm a pretty big lurker on reddit and never really post. But as of late I have really become depressed and the serious kind.
Please dont hit me too hard on this but it's the first time I've ever said anything. Honestly I'm afraid to even post this as the internet is a great thin... | 1.875455 | 3.542197 | 3.353498 | 91.502421 | 77.814229 | 6.33913 | 22.171937 | 7.168622 | 0.559025 | 943 | 27 | 210 | 11 | 22 | 310 | 136 | 253 | 0.119 | 0.738 | 0.143 | 0.7974 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 24 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 13 | 16 | 2 | 2 | 10 | 1 | 19 | 5 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 47 | 42 | 26 | 1 | 4 | 12 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 14 | 16 | 2 | 1 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 5 | 21 | 8 | 29 | 26 | 4 | 35 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 14 | 1 | 4 | 12 | 134 | 35 | 1 | 0.097181 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080863 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096378 | 0.067951 | 0 | 0.159944 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091305 | 0.224179 | 0 | 0 | 0.107329 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11115 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.251106 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113896 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064187 | 0.087906 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.049138 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082662 | 0 | 0.106554 | 0 | 0.089843 | 0.101546 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107143 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087055 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095704 | 0.112134 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086379 | 0 | 0.101199 | 0.160225 | 0 | 0.109625 | 0 | 0 | 0.298123 | 0.137284 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064869 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072059 | 0.149904 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101534 | 0.213352 | 0 | 0 | 0.558437 | 0.098868 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097694 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124514 | 0.099919 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082992 | 0.092442 | 0.077282 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164683 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106301 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073068 | 0.078111 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064563 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056667 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05732 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070749 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | sapnukapteinis | 2018/12/16 | My life’s great I like my life, it’s not bad, I have great friends, successful career, a very nice family and a loving girlfriend, but I’d like to end my life, for real, don’t try to prevent it. I just want to ask one simple question, if I do it in a car, is petrol or diesel better for it? I mean, with the exhaust fume... | 0.820343 | 2.526782 | 2.748571 | 94.44 | 81.133333 | 5.885714 | 20.047619 | 6.86897 | 0.154162 | 269 | 7 | 63 | 3 | 7 | 90 | 53 | 75 | 0.047 | 0.565 | 0.388 | 0.9777 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 13 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 6 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 10 | 4 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 10 | 7 | 8 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 37 | 13 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.196801 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175769 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186182 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186452 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198453 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162642 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.464182 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.446074 | 0.205692 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189996 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.22931 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142649 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.235823 | 0 | 0 | 0.23961 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142924 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173695 | 0.124166 | 0.167095 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149542 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | taekwonjoe2001 | 2018/12/16 | My parents told me that if I didn’t have religion in my life, god will punish me until I realize my mistake. I keep thinking that if I write a note and put it in my car that says “this is a pretty good punishment wouldn’t you say?” And then crashed it. They’d read the note. | 2.869068 | 3.320879 | 4.3625 | 90.05697 | 73.40678 | 7.933898 | 26.614407 | 8.076483 | 1.342725 | 212 | 7 | 50 | 3 | 4 | 71 | 43 | 59 | 0.147 | 0.719 | 0.134 | -0.2023 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 9 | 6 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 12 | 1 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 34 | 18 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.263597 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.27934 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.22198 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.348963 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.319728 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.315931 | 0 | 0 | 0.314358 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.499845 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.201373 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.300301 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | sosorry12567 | 2018/12/16 | I’m a fucking creep I want to die I’ve done bad things and I’m trying to be better but you can’t just be better once you do bad you are bad. I’m fundamentally awful.
I browsed a terrible website where people posted leaked images of woman I knew for six to eight months from 2014-2015, and then I stopped and now that I... | -0.288525 | 1.722684 | 2.233641 | 94.824032 | 87.387097 | 4.510599 | 18.534562 | 5.773588 | -0.360618 | 440 | 12 | 102 | 3 | 14 | 151 | 70 | 124 | 0.295 | 0.611 | 0.094 | -0.9839 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 10 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 16 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 20 | 28 | 11 | 2 | 2 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 1 | 18 | 4 | 8 | 19 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 6 | 66 | 21 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.452356 | 0.110086 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.479152 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187424 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184807 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091312 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.333906 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151471 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160517 | 0 | 0 | 0.099248 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159464 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144145 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139282 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192323 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125199 | 0.157684 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172956 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150982 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119976 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122609 | 0 | 0 | 0.188001 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.213034 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Sashimori | 2018/12/16 | I lost my only two friends today I was being miserable earlier, manipulative and just wallowing in self pity as usual. My friend got tired of my shit and things didnt go well. When i tried to amend myself he rightfully didnt trust me and figured i was just trying to get back on his good side. I cant stop myself from be... | 2.929962 | 4.057129 | 4.826772 | 84.247553 | 73.919786 | 7.695798 | 23.517571 | 8.192908 | 1.243822 | 702 | 19 | 147 | 11 | 14 | 241 | 117 | 187 | 0.238 | 0.657 | 0.105 | -0.979 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 11 | 16 | 2 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 20 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 33 | 32 | 12 | 1 | 5 | 8 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 9 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 9 | 8 | 1 | 1 | 9 | 3 | 30 | 8 | 18 | 16 | 0 | 20 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 11 | 105 | 39 | 0 | 0 | 0.143018 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133203 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092816 | 0 | 0.073582 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126559 | 0 | 0 | 0.192749 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123525 | 0.282935 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109186 | 0.101701 | 0.115341 | 0.108483 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061033 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.279773 | 0 | 0.063064 | 0 | 0.137201 | 0.101243 | 0.09654 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.391152 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133544 | 0 | 0.132675 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123431 | 0 | 0.058971 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131766 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080573 | 0.122378 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091803 | 0 | 0 | 0.134031 | 0 | 0 | 0.083683 | 0.105397 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103083 | 0 | 0.191982 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125924 | 0 | 0.123904 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135121 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.201833 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160384 | 0.077344 | 0 | 0 | 0.070385 | 0.138735 | 0.114416 | 0 | 0 | 0.245856 | 0 | 0.117913 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132941 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10853 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138807 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085747 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | fartyclive | 2018/12/16 | Will 172.5mg of zopiclone kill me? I’ve managed to build up a reasonable stash of zopiclone, and the plan is to drink a ton of whisky and take it all. My only fear is that it doesn’t work and I wake up - does anyone know if it will do the trick, or do I need more? | 0.595763 | 1.822815 | 2.212 | 100.220712 | 80.186441 | 5.397966 | 18.579661 | 5.683918 | -0.632209 | 202 | 4 | 53 | 1 | 5 | 66 | 42 | 59 | 0.162 | 0.838 | 0 | -0.8577 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 7 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 9 | 10 | 5 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 7 | 8 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 34 | 8 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.242889 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.303986 | 0 | 0 | 0.34029 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.390888 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.384313 | 0 | 0.190905 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.25757 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.26419 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.357154 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.261179 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.252889 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | SteveSmith2929 | 2018/12/16 | Beyond Repair There’s nothing in this world that is going to make me happy again. I’m broken beyond repair, I don’t see anyway out of this hell. | 4.125 | 4.766139 | 5.6 | 81.63 | 70.666667 | 6 | 18.333333 | 3.1291 | -0.223667 | 115 | 1 | 21 | 0 | 2 | 39 | 26 | 30 | 0.244 | 0.652 | 0.105 | -0.7096 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 6 | 6 | 0 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 16 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.305645 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.5725 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.358987 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.516035 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.428558 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Anto482c | 2018/12/16 | Can”t fight today I have so much shit to do and no energy to do it. I’m probably going to fail all of my classes and ruin everything again because I can’t manage to even get out of bed. I’ll just continue being a disappointment to everyone around me until I’m not afraid anymore. | 3.667373 | 4.317464 | 6.3625 | 75.717987 | 71.711864 | 9.967797 | 28.309322 | 10.125757 | 2.878997 | 222 | 8 | 44 | 6 | 4 | 81 | 46 | 59 | 0.257 | 0.677 | 0.066 | -0.9245 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 6 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 10 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 10 | 9 | 2 | 7 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 32 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.339054 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.304346 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.208407 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.225809 | 0 | 0 | 0.326682 | 0.307261 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178619 | 0 | 0.194299 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.251322 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.368605 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.350936 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.324063 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | karamaddle | 2018/12/16 | Losing the will to live I feel like I’ve lost any sense of purpose in my life and like I’m just watching every day go by without it leading anywhere meaningful. The only thing that keeps me from killing myself is that I really don’t want to hurt my parents, my partner or my friends. I’ve got an appointment with a psych... | 1.537124 | 3.36876 | 3.62718 | 88.395263 | 79.394737 | 6.184962 | 22.041353 | 7.168622 | 0.700446 | 566 | 17 | 120 | 7 | 14 | 193 | 100 | 152 | 0.183 | 0.729 | 0.088 | -0.9449 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 7 | 13 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 9 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 23 | 25 | 11 | 1 | 3 | 9 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 6 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 14 | 6 | 17 | 18 | 1 | 13 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 4 | 0 | 5 | 6 | 73 | 25 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0.156156 | 0 | 0 | 0.156369 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165732 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.217637 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.223778 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133609 | 0 | 0 | 0.136165 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103199 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134823 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161821 | 0.114318 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12363 | 0 | 0.083603 | 0 | 0.181885 | 0 | 0.127982 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171304 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142232 | 0.177037 | 0.166635 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113026 | 0.156355 | 0 | 0.1413 | 0.141612 | 0 | 0.17902 | 0.17468 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169755 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121702 | 0 | 0 | 0.177682 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153254 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160863 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.205025 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160207 | 0 | 0 | 0.145675 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179128 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183184 | 0 | 0 | 0.150816 | 0 | 0 | 0.128617 | 0 | 0.147324 | 0 | 0 | 0.10631 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132033 | 0.094383 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154253 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | kaitlym98k | 2018/12/16 | I'm so tired of everything it's all for nothing. I'm never going to be able to get happy, I'll just be stuck in my endless limbo of distracting myself from reality and having reality hit me like a truck. Every day, for the rest of my life. So why shouldn't I just go and get it done. All I do is take up space that would... | 2.853738 | 3.806989 | 4.864607 | 84.573263 | 73.88764 | 7.274676 | 23.804667 | 7.610547 | 1.060421 | 659 | 18 | 138 | 8 | 13 | 228 | 108 | 178 | 0.104 | 0.752 | 0.144 | 0.7373 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 16 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 11 | 12 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 19 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 33 | 37 | 12 | 1 | 5 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 4 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 7 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 19 | 7 | 25 | 22 | 6 | 12 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 3 | 7 | 102 | 27 | 0 | 0.153514 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107341 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093581 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.271542 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165894 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099004 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157098 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135968 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129342 | 0 | 0.137969 | 0 | 0.14472 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118605 | 0 | 0.16041 | 0 | 0.174491 | 0 | 0.122779 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163419 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102897 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108432 | 0.149999 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138553 | 0.145259 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1184 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.441903 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106427 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130072 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163626 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16792 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115424 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101988 | 0.098366 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176442 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132587 | 0 | 0.126665 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138523 | 0 | 0.176534 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.327156 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | irresistiblecodfish | 2018/12/16 | Can’t live without him. Don’t want to be with him. I don’t trust him for a second and he’s caused me so much pain but he was my everything and I don’t know how I’m meant to go on without him | -1.898511 | -0.433111 | 1.131319 | 103.694 | 89.425532 | 4.611064 | 15.782979 | 5.683918 | -1.055448 | 148 | 3 | 43 | 1 | 5 | 52 | 33 | 47 | 0.084 | 0.863 | 0.053 | -0.0645 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 11 | 11 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 8 | 1 | 7 | 8 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 29 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.342326 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.299492 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189386 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183138 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.294254 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.244967 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.354588 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.196552 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.642457 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | justsomeguy2991 | 2018/12/16 | I don't feel strong emotions anymore when I think about suicide. Help? I used to tear up and start shaking when I'd sit there holding my loaded pistol.
Now, nothing really. Just numbness and mild anxiety. I even stuck the end of the barrel in my mouth, with my finger on the trigger, and all that happened was my heart ... | 3.562202 | 4.484944 | 4.6981 | 86.547378 | 72.169231 | 8.236789 | 26.438127 | 8.587818 | 1.637732 | 1,237 | 40 | 268 | 21 | 23 | 407 | 175 | 325 | 0.166 | 0.778 | 0.056 | -0.9899 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 34 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 17 | 12 | 1 | 3 | 19 | 0 | 22 | 7 | 4 | 5 | 3 | 55 | 52 | 27 | 4 | 7 | 10 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 21 | 0 | 4 | 7 | 2 | 0 | 7 | 7 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 5 | 43 | 4 | 45 | 42 | 5 | 51 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 19 | 23 | 0 | 5 | 21 | 183 | 56 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114763 | 0 | 0 | 0.092201 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169535 | 0 | 0.109891 | 0 | 0 | 0.091185 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085204 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113147 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190901 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190876 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124643 | 0.098142 | 0 | 0 | 0.146374 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056027 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173677 | 0 | 0.062974 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097987 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131307 | 0.148544 | 0.117074 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098491 | 0 | 0 | 0.18269 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113308 | 0 | 0.054135 | 0.111058 | 0.097845 | 0.098061 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073965 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081456 | 0.164324 | 0.085461 | 0 | 0.117845 | 0 | 0 | 0.106323 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104749 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111392 | 0 | 0 | 0.110837 | 0 | 0.141972 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.210806 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088299 | 0.100875 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085305 | 0 | 0.12404 | 0.07843 | 0 | 0 | 0.09264 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.363616 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089063 | 0.09685 | 0.102016 | 0 | 0.257312 | 0.073615 | 0.142002 | 0.108868 | 0 | 0.064613 | 0 | 0 | 0.105881 | 0 | 0.150462 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133288 | 0.095702 | 0 | 0 | 0.130714 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078714 | 0 | 0 | 0.142713 |
suicidewatch | anonymous1709 | 2018/12/16 | I’m sorry if I trigger anyone. I want to kill myself. I know it’s going to cause pain to others, but I can’t - I JUST CAN’T - keep feeling this way.
I’ve seen drs before and received no help.
I just am at my wits end. I have been down here before, and I keep coming back. I don’t want to be here anymore. | -2.168382 | -0.350612 | 0.944353 | 100.403588 | 99.441176 | 2.72 | 12.682353 | 3.1291 | -1.66804 | 229 | 4 | 56 | 0 | 10 | 80 | 48 | 68 | 0.142 | 0.732 | 0.126 | -0.2617 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 15 | 17 | 4 | 1 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 11 | 0 | 6 | 14 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 37 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.235973 | 0.166374 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182962 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.40494 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.244431 | 0 | 0.204965 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.210745 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12031 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135227 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159487 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.422985 | 0.263246 | 0 | 0.130766 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.253186 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.266355 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.280687 | 0.188866 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Hitman917 | 2018/12/16 | I want to fucking shoot myself. My life is useless. I'm fucking useless, my parents even fucking hate me. I know my mom fucking hates me because every time I say something she responds in a fucking attitude. My dad always sides with her, not with me because it's his fucking wife and I'm his child. Cause the child is al... | 2.203205 | 4.335897 | 3.7436 | 86.897503 | 78.566474 | 5.69683 | 26.380802 | 6.714682 | 1.200119 | 1,351 | 55 | 261 | 13 | 33 | 447 | 155 | 346 | 0.205 | 0.696 | 0.099 | -0.9916 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 34 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 16 | 39 | 24 | 0 | 9 | 1 | 21 | 25 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 44 | 74 | 12 | 0 | 11 | 14 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 6 | 11 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 9 | 1 | 14 | 29 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 43 | 10 | 33 | 63 | 5 | 26 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 22 | 34 | 19 | 20 | 2 | 6 | 157 | 54 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112373 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.047204 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.031477 | 0 | 0.185225 | 0 | 0.084169 | 0 | 0.042295 | 0 | 0 | 0.109767 | 0 | 0.038306 | 0 | 0 | 0.079627 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.046245 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.035942 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.039394 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.037606 | 0 | 0.039872 | 0 | 0 | 0.148666 | 0 | 0.075857 | 0.043015 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.832346 | 0.023519 | 0 | 0.025584 | 0.113274 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177779 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.048626 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.02474 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09539 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081259 | 0 | 0.060098 | 0 | 0 | 0.098073 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052723 | 0 | 0 | 0.033093 | 0 | 0.069439 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102712 | 0 | 0 | 0.149957 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085111 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.043075 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.038444 | 0 | 0.071598 | 0 | 0.045559 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.050601 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.034656 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108548 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.029907 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052499 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106208 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.040621 | 0 | 0.103534 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.031979 | 0.098438 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | gloztur | 2018/12/16 | Can't stop thinking about it I have a couple of specific methods in mind. I'd say there's a 20% chance I'll go through with it tonight. I just can't handle the idea of my boyfriend finding my body. He loves Christmas. I don't want to ruin it for him. But I cannot stop thinking about suicide. I've stopped making plans w... | 1.27619 | 3.369529 | 3.098605 | 90.521216 | 81.55814 | 5.209541 | 25.426953 | 6.297961 | 0.860107 | 486 | 20 | 100 | 4 | 13 | 162 | 83 | 129 | 0.183 | 0.673 | 0.143 | -0.6439 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 10 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 21 | 21 | 3 | 2 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 5 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 14 | 2 | 20 | 20 | 2 | 17 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 63 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100119 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131063 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179496 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163536 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150107 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162903 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132318 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134562 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.251017 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.332402 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162884 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132878 | 0 | 0.098275 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148657 | 0 | 0 | 0.156479 | 0.108228 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111972 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102068 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149782 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11708 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.61544 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161042 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188674 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173676 | 0 | 0.118096 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | joe_larocco_ | 2018/12/16 | Latley all i’ve been doing is fucking up Just flushed my 5 year relationship down the drain. All my fault. Really debating just driving as far away as I can, and then ending it. | 1.785 | 4.337197 | 3.668214 | 84.348036 | 83.285714 | 6.928571 | 23.035714 | 8.076483 | 1.576857 | 140 | 5 | 27 | 3 | 4 | 47 | 30 | 35 | 0.08 | 0.92 | 0 | -0.4019 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 5 | 4 | 2 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 20 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.442918 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.417542 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.435824 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.302006 | 0 | 0 | 0.506133 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.303582 |
suicidewatch | depressedta884 | 2018/12/16 | chronic pain and my life going nowhere. don't want to do this anymore. I've been diagnosed with endometriosis, fibromyalgia, PCOS, and am going to a specialist next month to see if my bladder is fucked up too. I've had to take medical leave from college and have to live with my mom and grandma (because my parents don't... | 3.094808 | 4.424989 | 4.532564 | 85.720769 | 73.807692 | 7.507692 | 28.384615 | 8.076483 | 1.8111 | 597 | 24 | 124 | 9 | 12 | 199 | 98 | 156 | 0.148 | 0.783 | 0.069 | -0.9433 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 18 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 15 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 23 | 32 | 10 | 1 | 4 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 12 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 3 | 8 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 18 | 1 | 20 | 29 | 3 | 16 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 8 | 6 | 1 | 4 | 7 | 76 | 20 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.286624 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135094 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17618 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.18639 | 0 | 0 | 0.146671 | 0.149975 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162551 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121753 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174738 | 0 | 0 | 0.133594 | 0.226497 | 0 | 0.24638 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142671 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09686 | 0 | 0.144952 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143401 | 0.128444 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153012 | 0 | 0 | 0.102069 | 0 | 0 | 0.127602 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145575 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.338489 | 0.115344 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153685 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097922 | 0 | 0.153765 | 0 | 0.160458 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.230306 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165426 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108651 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167784 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.255702 | 0 | 0.115915 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139299 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | dickaflicka | 2018/12/16 | Living in rehab. Hey. I'm 18 and new to reddit. Please say if i
break any rules.
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I've been struggling with mental health since I was 14. I started worrying all the time, thinking everyone was looking at me, laughing at me, that everyone hated me. I became very upset and scared of people. I started st... | 0.839163 | 3.170004 | 2.941593 | 89.454786 | 85.460177 | 5.246835 | 21.671659 | 6.671995 | 0.590714 | 1,290 | 44 | 262 | 15 | 39 | 435 | 184 | 339 | 0.124 | 0.802 | 0.074 | -0.9637 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 85 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 12 | 14 | 4 | 3 | 14 | 0 | 18 | 7 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 31 | 48 | 13 | 3 | 8 | 3 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 11 | 11 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 3 | 9 | 0 | 3 | 15 | 2 | 41 | 5 | 50 | 29 | 5 | 71 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 19 | 32 | 0 | 1 | 31 | 165 | 52 | 1 | 0.099308 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082632 | 0 | 0 | 0.067533 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093303 | 0.076362 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17566 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101404 | 0 | 0.101251 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192136 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.309198 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189786 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.253414 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155653 | 0 | 0.056439 | 0 | 0.079426 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098046 | 0 | 0.211119 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099614 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105153 | 0.107898 | 0 | 0.070144 | 0.048517 | 0 | 0.087691 | 0 | 0.083394 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.300237 | 0 | 0.100273 | 0 | 0.158533 | 0 | 0.073003 | 0 | 0 | 0.095912 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075528 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068848 | 0 | 0 | 0.10901 | 0.093878 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078974 | 0.099425 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164297 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111167 | 0.210872 | 0.105849 | 0.079307 | 0 | 0 | 0.103818 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074667 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127265 | 0 | 0 | 0.231629 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081939 | 0.292872 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092059 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.201704 | 0 | 0.070546 | 0 | 0 | 0.127902 |
suicidewatch | Sourisbonbon | 2018/12/16 | lost my only friend She's been going through stuff and I've just been making it worse by being a depressed mess. I became harder and harder to deal with and she finally blocked me now. Not answering me calls or anything. Idk how to go on from here. Meeting her was the best thing to happen to me in years and I just blew... | 0.24541 | 2.312314 | 1.862353 | 98.014434 | 85.470588 | 4.669942 | 18.397544 | 5.873415 | -0.433132 | 432 | 11 | 101 | 3 | 13 | 140 | 79 | 119 | 0.196 | 0.727 | 0.077 | -0.9203 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 9 | 9 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 7 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 20 | 22 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 3 | 18 | 3 | 15 | 12 | 1 | 14 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 15 | 4 | 2 | 1 | 6 | 71 | 27 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162869 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152186 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.207702 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202096 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.204044 | 0.170466 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.216809 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152911 | 0.365943 | 0 | 0 | 0.337443 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175018 | 0 | 0.177295 | 0.195403 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096693 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.21605 | 0 | 0 | 0.187274 | 0.132112 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152646 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150525 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188265 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157715 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.226568 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131488 | 0.126818 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144086 | 0 | 0.201695 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127452 |
suicidewatch | Ragetage | 2018/12/16 | I am a mistake I don’t know what to do anymore I mean I’m such a screwup. God cursed me with all of these mental disorders that screw up my life even more I’m tired of living in this body and I just want to be a normal functioning human. I get terrible grades in school I manage to screw up everything. I’m done trying t... | 0.569358 | 2.770342 | 2.469215 | 93.300471 | 85.312849 | 5.367709 | 20.681844 | 6.742158 | 0.340714 | 666 | 21 | 146 | 8 | 20 | 221 | 103 | 179 | 0.194 | 0.666 | 0.14 | -0.8831 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 10 | 13 | 4 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 17 | 9 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 20 | 34 | 6 | 2 | 4 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 21 | 6 | 19 | 26 | 2 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 9 | 4 | 4 | 3 | 2 | 90 | 32 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135422 | 0.14429 | 0 | 0.108798 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.259345 | 0.091426 | 0 | 0.107599 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145238 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.266624 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149855 | 0 | 0 | 0.133807 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172723 | 0 | 0 | 0.124941 | 0.117513 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10102 | 0 | 0.068313 | 0.250862 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129868 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071859 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092355 | 0 | 0 | 0.346374 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11801 | 0 | 0.087279 | 0 | 0 | 0.142429 | 0 | 0 | 0.263538 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128111 | 0.250924 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099444 | 0 | 0 | 0.145187 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130789 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103981 | 0 | 0.13233 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.268434 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149528 | 0 | 0.086867 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150282 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088773 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077122 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190381 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | throwaway_starchild | 2018/12/16 | I'm thinking about getting it over with I'm just done. I'm tired of the lows. I can't even enjoy the highs because it seems like the lows just keep coming back. I don't think I can make it through another holiday. I already feel like I'm getting smothered all the time. | 1.953158 | 3.679051 | 3.140211 | 92.853474 | 77.77193 | 5.963509 | 27.189474 | 6.742158 | 1.061606 | 214 | 9 | 47 | 2 | 5 | 69 | 37 | 57 | 0.191 | 0.676 | 0.133 | -0.3244 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 11 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 3 | 5 | 16 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 25 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.286825 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.272546 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.199861 | 0 | 0.158443 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.223896 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.265986 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171673 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131422 | 0.185685 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.271592 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.274617 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.231027 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.253965 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173497 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.236619 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.333089 | 0 | 0 | 0.15156 | 0.298737 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | throwaway42069gamer | 2018/12/16 | Please help me I’m going out of control and i can’t stop thinking about hurting myself. please i want to talk to someone please help me | 0.405357 | 2.861862 | 1.468571 | 97.001429 | 92.928571 | 2.8 | 21.285714 | 3.1291 | -0.421029 | 109 | 4 | 22 | 0 | 4 | 34 | 21 | 28 | 0.142 | 0.464 | 0.394 | 0.7717 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 5 | 5 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.262976 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133254 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.314318 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.251003 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.772128 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198664 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.196026 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188457 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150238 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138296 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | miss_ambi | 2018/12/16 | Waking up in the morning with the loose belt wrapped around my neck. I failed to use a full strength again..
I was planning to end my life last night. Drinking till my body is overfilled with liquor and gasping for the air as I tightened the belt around my neck.
The recent incidents weakened my ability to stay stro... | 5.66619 | 6.607769 | 4.718407 | 88.247427 | 67.351648 | 7.824908 | 33.847985 | 7.793538 | 2.239328 | 377 | 17 | 75 | 4 | 6 | 111 | 64 | 91 | 0.112 | 0.72 | 0.169 | 0.7184 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 5 | 8 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 10 | 9 | 4 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 12 | 3 | 17 | 6 | 1 | 19 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 50 | 14 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156377 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.409416 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.255428 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.238656 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.225268 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.203671 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.195599 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120142 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187444 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162424 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.215797 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.220233 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.227052 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.245101 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.26095 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134088 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.224632 | 0 | 0 | 0.198607 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.264436 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163353 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | einsamerschmerz | 2018/12/16 | I will kill myself soon I ordered a rope and told my mom today that I will kill myself when it arrives next week. I'm fighting suicide thoughts since many years now and I fear life far more than death. I just don't know what's the point of living when being autistic and socially isolated. | 4.66 | 5.678098 | 4.713276 | 87.09681 | 69.689655 | 7.17931 | 28.293103 | 7.168622 | 1.412159 | 232 | 8 | 46 | 2 | 4 | 72 | 47 | 58 | 0.383 | 0.617 | 0 | -0.98 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 4 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 8 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 28 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.261009 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.513237 | 0 | 0.127474 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163833 | 0 | 0 | 0.204816 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.235161 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.271658 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.246682 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.219268 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191872 | 0 | 0 | 0.236444 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.253716 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184143 | 0 | 0 | 0.219862 | 0.221639 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186057 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149368 |
suicidewatch | feelingdead666 | 2018/12/16 | im sick of the thought that im still living i have been on my bed for 5 days but this memory of me being sexually abused as a child wont go away,i just want to get out of my body,my life feels like hell | -0.213776 | 0.62343 | 2.673214 | 97.715536 | 81.44898 | 6.532653 | 16.331633 | 7.168622 | -0.510678 | 157 | 2 | 45 | 2 | 4 | 56 | 41 | 49 | 0.242 | 0.67 | 0.088 | -0.8834 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 9 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 8 | 5 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 23 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0.343977 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.272761 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.18723 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146792 | 0.207402 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151678 | 0 | 0.164993 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.627181 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.205059 | 0.141834 | 0 | 0.256354 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.231846 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.230478 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171236 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | im_nothingspecial | 2018/12/16 | I want to be done Im a teenager. I'm in highschool. My whole life is ahead of me. But I can't imagine a future in which I'm happy. I want to die but I don't what to hurt people. I'm just counting down days until I can leave home and kill myself without everyone I know being around me a the time | -1.318382 | 0.519602 | 1.780882 | 97.433971 | 90.617647 | 3.988235 | 17.323529 | 5.148861 | -0.717771 | 229 | 6 | 56 | 1 | 8 | 81 | 48 | 68 | 0.159 | 0.712 | 0.129 | -0.6106 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 13 | 4 | 2 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 10 | 1 | 11 | 10 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 39 | 12 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.220957 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160073 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.257599 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.254002 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.237172 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.264221 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.248972 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.26571 | 0 | 0.268106 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.274604 | 0 | 0.136408 | 0 | 0 | 0.262815 | 0 | 0 | 0.175316 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172075 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144731 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.292797 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.277114 | 0 | 0.239262 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | CraftyExpression | 2018/12/16 | Wrapping rope around my neck then tying it to my shower rod I think that should work. I’m exiting today. | 0.685714 | 3.211853 | 2.311429 | 90.958571 | 92.333333 | 4.704762 | 16.52381 | 6.427356 | -0.039362 | 83 | 2 | 16 | 1 | 3 | 27 | 19 | 21 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.548768 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.394994 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.584319 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.448781 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | ultimatenoob1 | 2018/12/16 | I took pills and I'm dying Hey
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So I have been having problems for so long. I have a mental illness (depersonalization/derealization). It greatly diminishes cognitive abilities. I had a traumatic experience when I was young. I am a homosexual and my dad tried to kill me when he suspected that i might be ... | 2.112889 | 4.363537 | 4.133384 | 83.376389 | 79.483461 | 6.880642 | 25.853005 | 7.969616 | 1.688538 | 1,544 | 62 | 306 | 28 | 39 | 526 | 178 | 393 | 0.208 | 0.755 | 0.036 | -0.9961 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 58 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 23 | 17 | 2 | 0 | 12 | 1 | 41 | 8 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 61 | 79 | 29 | 2 | 11 | 9 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 21 | 18 | 1 | 1 | 12 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 11 | 11 | 0 | 1 | 20 | 6 | 55 | 6 | 32 | 47 | 9 | 36 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 24 | 10 | 1 | 4 | 15 | 214 | 76 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072514 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090272 | 0 | 0 | 0.177268 | 0.1988 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134635 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1496 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084035 | 0.173074 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065313 | 0 | 0 | 0.052756 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084899 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07352 | 0.080019 | 0 | 0 | 0.082725 | 0 | 0.078544 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.042739 | 0 | 0.232454 | 0 | 0 | 0.090189 | 0 | 0.080998 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16112 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090503 | 0.085186 | 0.044957 | 0 | 0 | 0.086618 | 0 | 0.167299 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072393 | 0 | 0.183034 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054604 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.247316 | 0.173561 | 0.165196 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060135 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.235478 | 0 | 0 | 0.087118 | 0.055432 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.313099 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077814 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130373 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091572 | 0 | 0.087192 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077099 | 0.17005 | 0 | 0.06575 | 0.143 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.209665 | 0.080371 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156333 | 0.181773 | 0.055539 | 0 | 0 | 0.08516 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0965 | 0.194795 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073815 | 0 | 0 | 0.078856 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058111 | 0 | 0.1988 | 0.052679 |
suicidewatch | Kaori4Kousei | 2018/12/16 | I am good at nothing, why to live? I am good at nothing, I have tried everything. I have no luck in life. I have tried playing guitar, trying learning programming, tried painting, tried scoring good. I have no fucking luck, I want to kill someone or get killed. I have no no luck, I can't learn anything. My brain is to... | 1.633326 | 3.92532 | 2.584648 | 93.579701 | 81.537313 | 5.022601 | 25.989339 | 6.182691 | 0.796835 | 260 | 11 | 54 | 2 | 7 | 82 | 38 | 67 | 0.218 | 0.522 | 0.26 | 0.3481 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 12 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 7 | 6 | 12 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 31 | 10 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133086 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180539 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145348 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149513 | 0.084495 | 0 | 0 | 0.406943 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.357851 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114231 | 0 | 0 | 0.285613 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.31036 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137029 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.549005 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09539 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.291864 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | PzKpfwIV_ | 2018/12/16 | Why? Tell me why should I keep living when:
* I have no one
* Family doesn't give a shit and make me feel worse
* I'm always by myself
* I'm an antisocial trash that people always avoid
* Nobody is interested in what I say
* No one listens to me
* I have no talents or abilities,I'm a trash that isn't even able to do... | -0.922755 | 0.812713 | 1.836395 | 90.971745 | 109.747664 | 4.468002 | 18.17935 | 6.307379 | 0.312858 | 816 | 28 | 166 | 13 | 42 | 280 | 122 | 214 | 0.182 | 0.668 | 0.15 | -0.7442 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 27 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 14 | 1 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 17 | 4 | 1 | 3 | 4 | 38 | 43 | 14 | 0 | 4 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 8 | 0 | 5 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 13 | 4 | 0 | 5 | 4 | 3 | 22 | 10 | 14 | 36 | 3 | 16 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 6 | 1 | 3 | 10 | 106 | 31 | 1 | 0.113782 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189351 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.225682 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.232016 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150303 | 0.102922 | 0 | 0.108723 | 0 | 0 | 0.107263 | 0 | 0.057531 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059446 | 0.10915 | 0 | 0.095435 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.404537 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120478 | 0 | 0 | 0.160735 | 0.055588 | 0 | 0.301414 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102692 | 0.107663 | 0.07595 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087755 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.385507 | 0.086536 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078882 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116986 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090484 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103583 | 0 | 0 | 0.116795 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087595 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090866 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09945 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075591 | 0.072907 | 0 | 0.09033 | 0.066347 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123762 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093882 | 0.134223 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102303 | 0 | 0.308011 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115953 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | xFaRaZx | 2018/12/16 | I wish I never existed Life just sucks. No one is really there for me, I keep all my problems away from my family only because I don’t want to bring anyone down for the fact that I hate my life, nothing ever goes right for me, I have no real friends I barley talk to anyone/family and just like to be alone and just smok... | 6.935284 | 5.172389 | 7.577162 | 77.886918 | 65.30137 | 11.356556 | 29.761252 | 10.290406 | 2.604575 | 556 | 13 | 117 | 11 | 7 | 186 | 92 | 146 | 0.232 | 0.63 | 0.138 | -0.9571 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 12 | 5 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 9 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 30 | 21 | 8 | 3 | 8 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 23 | 4 | 15 | 17 | 4 | 11 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 2 | 4 | 5 | 79 | 31 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137019 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.18501 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.248594 | 0 | 0 | 0.161293 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138837 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1296 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11967 | 0 | 0 | 0.1189 | 0 | 0.374152 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102212 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075187 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130615 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088676 | 0 | 0 | 0.1314 | 0 | 0 | 0.141626 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117591 | 0.292733 | 0 | 0.072707 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.18689 | 0.064633 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088309 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102035 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126942 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089648 | 0.100617 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145222 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.25318 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132332 | 0.150582 | 0.33901 | 0 | 0.130627 | 0 | 0 | 0.112981 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144711 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106335 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08477 | 0 | 0 | 0.077143 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089821 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156064 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152134 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09398 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | DonBeardo860 | 2018/12/16 | Today is my 31st bday So when i was late teens early 20s i didn’t think I’d make it to 30 but here i am. Alive and well, and ready to continue on. I’ve also just got over my breakup that happened in September. We were together two years and she cheated on me. It was hard but i dealt with it. The post is for all you you... | -0.823118 | 1.304605 | 1.262912 | 99.239231 | 93.519231 | 4.50989 | 18.005495 | 6.182691 | -0.315251 | 373 | 11 | 89 | 4 | 14 | 123 | 75 | 104 | 0.11 | 0.73 | 0.16 | 0.7783 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 10 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 11 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 18 | 19 | 12 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 1 | 14 | 2 | 10 | 14 | 3 | 16 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 63 | 21 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187622 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.246215 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.225065 | 0 | 0 | 0.187644 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.20747 | 0 | 0.21017 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.208538 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.264657 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.313216 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.236438 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.224697 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150332 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.444777 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.229186 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.210948 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.269797 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151085 |
suicidewatch | nuohoojanpoika | 2018/12/16 | I think it's inevitable that I'm going to end up killing myself sometime next year. For context I have suffered depression for 5 years and I'm currently turning 19 and going to move away from my mom's place to a different city. The only thing that has stopped me ending it all is the family ties and having to deal with ... | 4.039211 | 5.023368 | 5.286798 | 82.539671 | 71.105263 | 8.507018 | 30.039474 | 8.841846 | 2.389179 | 444 | 18 | 88 | 8 | 8 | 148 | 77 | 114 | 0.169 | 0.776 | 0.054 | -0.91 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 14 | 14 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 10 | 2 | 16 | 13 | 3 | 20 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 57 | 17 | 0 | 0.175766 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190443 | 0.213576 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165138 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181208 | 0.151387 | 0 | 0 | 0.183639 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.311354 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165697 | 0 | 0.088873 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.199784 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19446 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085871 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.205856 | 0 | 0.373624 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.18693 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133678 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121854 | 0 | 0.183639 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173838 | 0.196756 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146949 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116771 | 0.112624 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191183 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139515 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.213576 | 0.226376 |
suicidewatch | d4ejav | 2018/12/16 | I don't think I'd take my own life but I wish I could just not exist I desperately need someone's company right now, I've been having panic attacks and breakdowns since I woke up, I can't stop crying or breathe | 3.758667 | 4.308818 | 5.206667 | 84.45 | 71.444444 | 7.777778 | 28.333333 | 7.793538 | 1.606333 | 169 | 6 | 36 | 2 | 3 | 57 | 37 | 45 | 0.172 | 0.58 | 0.248 | 0.3997 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 10 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 20 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.347912 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.244171 | 0 | 0.335927 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.216008 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.22676 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.358812 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.261167 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.252976 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.259119 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.255678 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.229937 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.195956 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.351676 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | B0GRP | 2018/12/16 | I know I'll probably kill myself in the next few years As the tittle suggests I know I will probably be dead in the next few years. My mum wants it I want it I'm just to scared to hurt those few friends that have become my family. next year I enter the second last year of school so pressure will be rising academicly th... | 2.516325 | 3.784031 | 3.384977 | 93.624545 | 75.170213 | 6.545712 | 21.32882 | 6.980633 | 0.275221 | 525 | 12 | 120 | 5 | 11 | 167 | 79 | 141 | 0.178 | 0.734 | 0.088 | -0.8963 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 11 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 12 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 24 | 22 | 9 | 2 | 4 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 10 | 5 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 19 | 5 | 14 | 15 | 4 | 20 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 7 | 1 | 2 | 10 | 77 | 29 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11473 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094285 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126538 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117699 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.216021 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.354079 | 0 | 0.05986 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.344782 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122654 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101839 | 0.126759 | 0 | 0.188901 | 0.093393 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080927 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084955 | 0 | 0 | 0.365553 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087139 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.247061 | 0 | 0 | 0.115179 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130411 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.229418 | 0.115955 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117609 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128256 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095789 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107985 | 0 | 0 | 0.09209 | 0.100143 | 0 | 0 | 0.13303 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135158 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116761 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.36891 |
suicidewatch | GrayMan108 | 2018/12/16 | Why do people act like moving on from an ex is easy? Seriously every person I try to open up to about how I miss my ex and how I feel like I'm lost without her or how I can't breathe, they all just say I have to move on and forget about her. It's been a year and half but it's not getting any easier. I'm not sure it eve... | -0.031238 | 1.094651 | 3.007619 | 94.279048 | 81.666667 | 6.190476 | 19.285714 | 6.937598 | -0.001857 | 347 | 8 | 90 | 4 | 9 | 125 | 66 | 105 | 0.16 | 0.762 | 0.078 | -0.7981 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 8 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 9 | 2 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 24 | 18 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 7 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 13 | 3 | 13 | 14 | 2 | 12 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 60 | 18 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161179 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.248507 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.214395 | 0.199696 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119843 | 0.169324 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123831 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130258 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.231588 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.258731 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.503821 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164317 | 0.206953 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188485 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.223385 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160918 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.21387 | 0 | 0.272557 | 0.228475 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152631 |
suicidewatch | Forever--Asleep | 2018/12/16 | I just want you to know you are loved. Stupid title I know, I would pass over it too if I saw it....
I've dealt with suicidal thoughts and ideation since I was 18, 6 years now. I've made plans before. There's been months go by where it consumes my thoughts. I think about it everyday.
Last week, after a few events go... | 1.955514 | 3.607475 | 3.186954 | 92.85 | 77.541667 | 6.420197 | 21.705255 | 7.237678 | 0.474565 | 1,255 | 34 | 284 | 15 | 29 | 406 | 179 | 336 | 0.185 | 0.705 | 0.11 | -0.9868 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 45 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 5 | 12 | 13 | 1 | 2 | 19 | 0 | 27 | 11 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 57 | 63 | 15 | 7 | 11 | 8 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 5 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 14 | 18 | 4 | 1 | 12 | 4 | 1 | 7 | 5 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 27 | 6 | 45 | 6 | 44 | 28 | 9 | 50 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 1 | 22 | 22 | 0 | 6 | 22 | 185 | 59 | 5 | 0 | 0.112149 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161086 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108258 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061044 | 0 | 0.16305 | 0 | 0.196471 | 0.098893 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092724 | 0.109768 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062518 | 0.08562 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.04786 | 0.067621 | 0.090882 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073129 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107588 | 0 | 0.302812 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106681 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094945 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106852 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084132 | 0 | 0 | 0.156057 | 0.077155 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133713 | 0.092486 | 0 | 0.167162 | 0 | 0.079485 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085429 | 0.089563 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103105 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075552 | 0 | 0.069581 | 0 | 0.073003 | 0 | 0.100665 | 0.177652 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099323 | 0 | 0 | 0.071988 | 0.100718 | 0 | 0 | 0.102501 | 0 | 0.196863 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060637 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156597 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0802 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07559 | 0 | 0 | 0.098952 | 0 | 0.103536 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1213 | 0 | 0.225433 | 0 | 0 | 0.08972 | 0.271337 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078099 | 0.111658 | 0.075132 | 0.075925 | 0 | 0 | 0.17549 | 0 | 0 | 0.108847 | 0 | 0 | 0.137818 | 0 | 0 | 0.336196 | 0 | 0 | 0.121908 |
suicidewatch | kcsoysauce | 2018/12/16 | thinking about killing myself I posted this on r/mentalhealth but I figured I should post here too.
not to actually kms but to stop thinking that way, if that makes any sense.
(edit):
maybe i should explain more. i’ve been on meds (2 months) for depression/anxiety etc. and they’ve definitely helped with calming me d... | 3.10829 | 5.47518 | 3.90867 | 85.666804 | 76.689243 | 6.892497 | 27.589807 | 7.937092 | 1.826621 | 1,029 | 43 | 198 | 17 | 24 | 328 | 149 | 251 | 0.148 | 0.652 | 0.2 | 0.9121 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 30 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 14 | 19 | 5 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 18 | 5 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 57 | 41 | 20 | 5 | 12 | 14 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 7 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 14 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 24 | 11 | 27 | 28 | 5 | 30 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 11 | 3 | 5 | 17 | 122 | 36 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0.297665 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069144 | 0 | 0.077782 | 0 | 0.100836 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090514 | 0 | 0 | 0.095528 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106703 | 0.089925 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104824 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113396 | 0 | 0.091972 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102821 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187997 | 0 | 0.097537 | 0.057785 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136303 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11478 | 0.109828 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.22498 | 0.10588 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.215451 | 0.198696 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096209 | 0.13574 | 0 | 0.102148 | 0 | 0.225879 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102664 | 0 | 0.081157 | 0.108066 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0982 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140979 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194756 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102213 | 0.113901 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084108 | 0.114289 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078276 | 0 | 0 | 0.071967 | 0 | 0.081199 | 0.085006 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111218 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152896 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.195451 | 0 | 0.08072 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069032 | 0 | 0 | 0.105849 | 0 | 0.087816 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161412 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183495 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074022 | 0 | 0 | 0.361141 | 0 | 0 | 0.130953 |
suicidewatch | livenomore92 | 2018/12/16 | They say I'm too young to die. So I hang in there and try to get an education or a job.
Then the educators and employers say I'm too old to accept.
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suicidewatch | TheFutureGhost | 2018/12/16 | The start of next year Well, I wanted to do it sometime this month but I have to wait till my application for healthcare gets officially rejected and it runs out. So guess I'll tell my story for any who want to talk, I'm an open book. I have IBS, Depression, and Anxiety. None of which are being treated because my healt... | 3.034624 | 4.999276 | 4.181546 | 85.521208 | 75.383442 | 7.117233 | 28.468464 | 7.993328 | 1.926888 | 1,825 | 78 | 357 | 29 | 40 | 595 | 228 | 459 | 0.26 | 0.666 | 0.074 | -0.9988 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 30 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 22 | 27 | 3 | 1 | 17 | 0 | 40 | 19 | 10 | 5 | 5 | 70 | 74 | 32 | 1 | 10 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 28 | 23 | 4 | 3 | 6 | 7 | 4 | 5 | 13 | 21 | 1 | 2 | 12 | 1 | 48 | 6 | 43 | 48 | 14 | 40 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 14 | 16 | 3 | 6 | 18 | 237 | 76 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06825 | 0 | 0 | 0.111558 | 0 | 0.250991 | 0 | 0.081345 | 0 | 0 | 0.067498 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077064 | 0 | 0 | 0.350006 | 0 | 0.069796 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089549 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083629 | 0.084261 | 0 | 0 | 0.086 | 0.177277 | 0 | 0.065489 | 0 | 0 | 0.105797 | 0 | 0.141294 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083955 | 0 | 0.083939 | 0 | 0.080352 | 0 | 0.167861 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054176 | 0 | 0.069108 | 0 | 0.073718 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07583 | 0.171416 | 0.157369 | 0 | 0 | 0.065602 | 0 | 0.090358 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109957 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087808 | 0.092595 | 0 | 0 | 0.081396 | 0.072906 | 0 | 0 | 0.045078 | 0.06686 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082209 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.27529 | 0.089538 | 0 | 0 | 0.077613 | 0.054751 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06547 | 0 | 0.120594 | 0.060819 | 0 | 0 | 0.087233 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174705 | 0.055581 | 0.062383 | 0.174558 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056865 | 0 | 0.171394 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083447 | 0.088435 | 0.235457 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082046 | 0 | 0.105093 | 0.084334 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078023 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168392 | 0 | 0 | 0.082083 | 0 | 0 | 0.063146 | 0.081123 | 0 | 0.116113 | 0 | 0 | 0.068575 | 0 | 0 | 0.093897 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131855 | 0.071692 | 0 | 0.093801 | 0 | 0.054493 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145139 | 0.065107 | 0 | 0 | 0.073749 | 0.076037 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079068 | 0 | 0.059714 | 0 | 0.083589 | 0.058267 | 0 | 0 | 0.052821 |
suicidewatch | throwaway2552552552 | 2018/12/16 | Pete Davidson’s suicide threat thoughts. Yo, the world is really cruel right now. Not that I have to point that out to y’all...
But I was reading about Pete Davidson talking about wanting to commit suicide and deleting his instagram and the comments on the article were atrocious. Not to mention the irl bullying he has ... | 6.003931 | 6.952501 | 6.063679 | 78.878156 | 66.599068 | 8.552814 | 32.570846 | 8.63404 | 2.672803 | 1,801 | 74 | 318 | 26 | 28 | 570 | 234 | 429 | 0.122 | 0.708 | 0.17 | 0.9741 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 38 | 1 | 15 | 6 | 6 | 24 | 31 | 8 | 0 | 28 | 0 | 34 | 8 | 3 | 11 | 1 | 66 | 58 | 38 | 4 | 4 | 17 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 19 | 22 | 1 | 1 | 14 | 6 | 2 | 4 | 7 | 13 | 0 | 5 | 9 | 7 | 33 | 16 | 51 | 42 | 4 | 44 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 49 | 19 | 0 | 6 | 20 | 222 | 52 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0.164552 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134848 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057335 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102791 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074567 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09412 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163122 | 0.086922 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096628 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055687 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.04263 | 0.060232 | 0 | 0 | 0.154119 | 0.071715 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088099 | 0.080879 | 0.047916 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083482 | 0 | 0 | 0.075527 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169537 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.35119 | 0.046335 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123571 | 0 | 0.074449 | 0.074613 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076095 | 0 | 0.168836 | 0 | 0 | 0.09184 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089441 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089666 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057132 | 0.064123 | 0.179427 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16097 | 0.292255 | 0.220853 | 0 | 0.092549 | 0.079702 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168669 | 0 | 0.162037 | 0.086686 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.216005 | 0 | 0.067048 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069743 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064907 | 0 | 0 | 0.059676 | 0.089865 | 0.134663 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.27667 | 0.095676 | 0 | 0 | 0.126784 | 0.135533 | 0 | 0.077623 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108047 | 0 | 0.066934 | 0.049163 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08236 | 0.087771 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069566 | 0.049729 | 0.066923 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094131 | 0 | 0.162547 | 0 | 0.06138 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Racist7 | 2018/12/16 | Fuck it, I'm done. Cutting deeper this time, and on my wrist as well. I'm fucking done with life. [https://i.imgur.com/ISd2YKS.jpg](https://i.imgur.com/ISd2YKS.jpg)
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I have experience with cutting deep, I just gotta do it on my wrists. I'm fucking done with y'all. | 5.87 | 9.65348 | 3.592778 | 82.6625 | 79 | 4.777778 | 23.055556 | 6.427356 | 0.567889 | 225 | 7 | 37 | 2 | 6 | 62 | 30 | 45 | 0.153 | 0.798 | 0.049 | -0.5267 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 30 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 12 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 6 | 8 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 22 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.221871 | 0.248821 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.628659 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.200306 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.567926 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144637 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119404 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184115 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.248821 | 0 |
suicidewatch | yeetusbeetusdameatus | 2018/12/16 | someone to play with i have lost all my friends. my only request is to play R6 on my xbox smurf IIDocPeePeeII
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suicidewatch | Neune | 2018/12/16 | Life is not worth it anymore I want to vanish. I want to die and be gone. Life is just not worth it anymore. I want to kill myself. Probably tonight or tomorrow morning. I don't know if I can do it. Buying rope, tying it into hangman's knot. I don't have the energy to do anything.
All my life I am just a parasite. I a... | -0.741606 | 1.392341 | 1.856819 | 95.23566 | 92.735849 | 5.066307 | 17.760108 | 6.677053 | -0.041227 | 1,902 | 54 | 444 | 27 | 70 | 651 | 217 | 530 | 0.276 | 0.633 | 0.091 | -0.9989 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 76 | 5 | 3 | 1 | 9 | 9 | 41 | 15 | 0 | 12 | 0 | 68 | 24 | 8 | 3 | 9 | 80 | 105 | 21 | 4 | 20 | 21 | 8 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 10 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 18 | 17 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 1 | 3 | 6 | 20 | 23 | 1 | 7 | 6 | 7 | 98 | 18 | 50 | 88 | 11 | 43 | 1 | 4 | 5 | 6 | 62 | 23 | 7 | 7 | 13 | 299 | 116 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0.05787 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.049344 | 0 | 0 | 0.040327 | 0.062183 | 0 | 0 | 0.176435 | 0.165862 | 0 | 0.097601 | 0 | 0.110879 | 0 | 0.055716 | 0 | 0 | 0.03615 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062234 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060554 | 0 | 0.060462 | 0.121839 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.047348 | 0 | 0.065141 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123092 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061275 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.049965 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167714 | 0 | 0.029985 | 0.042365 | 0 | 0 | 0.054201 | 0.100885 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109648 | 0 | 0 | 0.033703 | 0.149219 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.234194 | 0 | 0.063035 | 0 | 0 | 0.039749 | 0.062656 | 0.237939 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066945 | 0 | 0 | 0.058848 | 0.158131 | 0.065609 | 0.061754 | 0.097773 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.209434 | 0.028972 | 0 | 0.052365 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.21409 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059763 | 0 | 0.059878 | 0.208362 | 0 | 0 | 0.087188 | 0 | 0.091475 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063155 | 0.160739 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.041113 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127875 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067499 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063668 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.047159 | 0 | 0.060017 | 0.141768 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.243491 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058651 | 0.132768 | 0 | 0.063208 | 0.047359 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064867 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142994 | 0.051833 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.047079 | 0.03458 | 0.272636 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142666 | 0 | 0 | 0.04893 | 0.209867 | 0.047071 | 0 | 0 | 0.05332 | 0 | 0.053511 | 0 | 0.272778 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12638 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | GoodPick | 2018/12/16 | Im failing I keep myself really busy so I can't think, but the second I stop working I want to die. I want to kill myself so bad. Im burnt out working and going to school and taking on extra classes and extra work trying to drown out how I feel. Im so tired of working. I'm also so tired of not working.
I don't have an... | 0.086915 | 2.279026 | 2.299984 | 93.669869 | 87.707865 | 4.289353 | 21.397539 | 5.622347 | 0.081039 | 653 | 23 | 140 | 4 | 21 | 220 | 90 | 178 | 0.35 | 0.556 | 0.094 | -0.9963 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 20 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 13 | 10 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 17 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 22 | 31 | 12 | 4 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 8 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 22 | 3 | 18 | 28 | 2 | 15 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 90 | 26 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082677 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140611 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170155 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086322 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113564 | 0 | 0 | 0.089046 | 0 | 0.107298 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116295 | 0.091569 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093518 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156824 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058756 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116523 | 0 | 0.069297 | 0 | 0 | 0.102685 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.335022 | 0 | 0 | 0.091894 | 0.228761 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.336985 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091493 | 0.086818 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.297603 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066231 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104631 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079591 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110195 | 0 | 0.086435 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11732 | 0 | 0 | 0.077733 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.23646 | 0 | 0 | 0.066245 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.237652 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.280767 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121959 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.376329 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113036 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | WorthlessBear1989 | 2018/12/16 | My parents love me but they know I'm a total failure. That's what makes us all miserable.
I wish I have the guts to end the misery of my own before Jan 1st 2019. | -0.575833 | 1.32787 | 2.014444 | 96.65 | 87.611111 | 4.711111 | 17.333333 | 5.985473 | -0.476867 | 125 | 3 | 30 | 1 | 4 | 43 | 32 | 36 | 0.3 | 0.566 | 0.134 | -0.8641 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 6 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 1 | 2 | 6 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 19 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.319957 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.333033 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206645 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.339364 | 0 | 0.250989 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.417514 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.452294 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.432393 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | MetaChi | 2018/12/16 | Canada suicide hotline sucks I called and spoke to some indian woman. I said I was having negative thoughts, but had no suicide plan. I never got to mention that I was having major considerations of cutting myself. She just kinda asked about my christmas and told me about hers and said ok bye. I guess I don't know what... | 1.908452 | 4.33854 | 3.502381 | 86.575952 | 81.5 | 6.114286 | 21.238095 | 7.38713 | 0.85101 | 333 | 10 | 65 | 5 | 9 | 110 | 62 | 84 | 0.269 | 0.629 | 0.102 | -0.9422 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 16 | 20 | 5 | 2 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 4 | 16 | 3 | 7 | 8 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 45 | 19 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.220255 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.240575 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.226214 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123092 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188431 | 0 | 0.259541 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157918 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12948 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115103 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.18171 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150932 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.44822 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.515418 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189367 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187041 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.225127 | 0 | 0.159957 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Intrepidhandler | 2018/12/16 | Suicide note? What’s the general thoughts on leaving a note? Yes/no? If yes, leave it generalized or personalize it? Paper or online? | 1.57625 | 3.759527 | 3.982 | 75.063 | 107.75 | 6.92 | 29.8 | 7.554174 | 3.27256 | 105 | 6 | 17 | 3 | 5 | 36 | 20 | 24 | 0.243 | 0.658 | 0.099 | -0.6072 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 9 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.79623 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.328297 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.411268 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.298491 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | BigHonkerDonkers | 2018/12/16 | Does anyone else feel calmer with a knife near by? When I feel suicidal I keep my folded pocket knife by me. I either hold it, or keep it by me, and it calms me down. I don't know if it's because I've love my pocket knife, or if it lets me vent in an unusual way.
It was $8 on amazon, but it is the single best crafted ... | 2.011818 | 2.982657 | 3.622646 | 92.600636 | 75.969697 | 6.290101 | 20.270707 | 6.427356 | 0.012747 | 708 | 14 | 165 | 5 | 15 | 236 | 113 | 198 | 0.146 | 0.715 | 0.139 | -0.6675 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 25 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 13 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 10 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 32 | 29 | 17 | 4 | 4 | 9 | 0 | 9 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 20 | 7 | 0 | 5 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 13 | 22 | 6 | 21 | 24 | 5 | 23 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 3 | 10 | 0 | 6 | 11 | 109 | 42 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.349879 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098005 | 0.143613 | 0 | 0.124774 | 0 | 0 | 0.131687 | 0 | 0.11703 | 0.085442 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147092 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122657 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117088 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.354352 | 0.100132 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146458 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161729 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.249166 | 0.155069 | 0 | 0.07703 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143326 | 0 | 0.068476 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117701 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126502 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151782 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.223868 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.459945 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111273 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121055 | 0 | 0.115649 | 0.082671 | 0.222509 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09026 |
suicidewatch | DitzyLion | 2018/12/16 | I think I’m done It’s been a long 3 years of my fight but, I think it’s over. Tonight may be the night. I want all of the pain to end. No more PTSD, Depression, or Dysphoria. I’ve got the notes and cause of death ready. I just don’t know if I can go through with it.
I feel like a coward. I don’t know what to do. I fe... | -2.234667 | -0.441308 | 0.525778 | 104.117 | 97.555556 | 4.657778 | 13.311111 | 6.360717 | -1.016049 | 596 | 11 | 165 | 8 | 25 | 203 | 83 | 180 | 0.231 | 0.639 | 0.13 | -0.9753 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 24 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 10 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 19 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 37 | 43 | 11 | 1 | 9 | 11 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 22 | 4 | 17 | 34 | 3 | 17 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 8 | 11 | 93 | 28 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128405 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133008 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.284447 | 0 | 0 | 0.111518 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132499 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114677 | 0.133783 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122058 | 0 | 0.196401 | 0.092498 | 0 | 0.141835 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.200066 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073584 | 0 | 0.103554 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138607 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.42694 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063255 | 0 | 0.11433 | 0.229164 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121504 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137772 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151351 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.248837 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.221144 | 0 | 0 | 0.129628 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12957 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.248889 | 0.12721 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12372 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.305473 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140411 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083378 |
suicidewatch | irresponsiblepl | 2018/12/16 | Confrontations with my mom exhausts me. I’m not sure if I can last long. My mother often throws hurtful words at me. They linger on my mind all day, and I scroll my feed for various social media for hours just to forget what she said. If I ever protest about what she says to me, she throws a tantrum for hours. The long... | 3.456739 | 4.509404 | 4.199971 | 89.530174 | 72.550725 | 7.404058 | 25.394203 | 7.734863 | 1.110693 | 1,054 | 32 | 231 | 13 | 20 | 337 | 149 | 276 | 0.076 | 0.808 | 0.115 | 0.9429 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 28 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 14 | 13 | 4 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 21 | 8 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 52 | 43 | 15 | 1 | 10 | 14 | 5 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 12 | 2 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 7 | 7 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 7 | 42 | 6 | 38 | 30 | 7 | 41 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 24 | 11 | 0 | 8 | 25 | 158 | 52 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116831 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191797 | 0.116724 | 0 | 0 | 0.088886 | 0 | 0 | 0.071797 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098603 | 0 | 0 | 0.07353 | 0.100702 | 0 | 0 | 0.100054 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112581 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174491 | 0.106795 | 0.06327 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.438539 | 0.128456 | 0.119178 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061182 | 0.090746 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078634 | 0.054389 | 0 | 0.098304 | 0.197042 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1181 | 0.224817 | 0.26077 | 0 | 0.118323 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118398 | 0 | 0 | 0.106821 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075438 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123615 | 0 | 0.106274 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120029 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071319 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105897 | 0.088532 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111407 | 0.113484 | 0 | 0.085705 | 0.110105 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126333 | 0.104924 | 0 | 0 | 0.08948 | 0 | 0.102495 | 0 | 0 | 0.073961 | 0.142668 | 0.109378 | 0 | 0.324578 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.196991 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128021 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071691 |
suicidewatch | hellokittyyyyyy | 2018/12/16 | loneliest person to ever exist? I can't talk to the people I know. My sister says that she's tired of "coddling" me. I just sit here and wait for the courage to kill myself. And yet, I keep hoping some sort of miracle of a nondenominational variety happens and someone comes in and sweeps me off my feet and helps me not... | 3.082906 | 4.662169 | 4.58358 | 84.337241 | 74.287356 | 6.350739 | 25.07225 | 6.86897 | 0.954322 | 338 | 11 | 68 | 3 | 7 | 113 | 61 | 87 | 0.187 | 0.675 | 0.138 | -0.7793 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 19 | 11 | 6 | 2 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 14 | 2 | 14 | 11 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 49 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157396 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.222417 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.267971 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.233557 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130554 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.228326 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173066 | 0 | 0 | 0.256451 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.2295 | 0.28566 | 0 | 0.1419 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.227995 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.24775 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179003 | 0.22545 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.205331 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.218772 | 0.198775 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.207531 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.296763 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152293 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | ramenprovider | 2018/12/16 | Don't give up guys. If you need anything I'm here for you. I wish All the best for guys. | -2.902857 | -1.268034 | -0.498095 | 111.101429 | 99.952381 | 2.8 | 11.761905 | 3.1291 | -2.201267 | 67 | 1 | 20 | 0 | 3 | 22 | 17 | 21 | 0 | 0.699 | 0.301 | 0.7845 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 3 | 5 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 12 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.282381 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.360111 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.329178 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.679539 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.254439 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.394602 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | ChristianShorty | 2018/12/16 | Maybe suicide note idk when but soon K: I wrote something really long but I figured this was just easier. I'm in physical and emotional pain. It hurts. I can't anymore. It's not your fault. You could never save me. I'm sorry. I 'm glad the party was fun. I love you. Tu me manques.
A: You meant the world to me, and I a... | -2.052733 | -0.307401 | 0.546247 | 101.661066 | 104.943536 | 3.312369 | 13.778695 | 5.269291 | -1.200326 | 2,347 | 53 | 575 | 16 | 114 | 789 | 284 | 673 | 0.14 | 0.552 | 0.308 | 0.9995 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 146 | 2 | 44 | 2 | 7 | 26 | 65 | 2 | 3 | 25 | 3 | 48 | 13 | 0 | 6 | 15 | 75 | 119 | 32 | 5 | 6 | 15 | 3 | 2 | 5 | 3 | 2 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 24 | 18 | 1 | 1 | 7 | 3 | 0 | 7 | 23 | 10 | 0 | 2 | 32 | 12 | 114 | 55 | 54 | 77 | 13 | 51 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 10 | 88 | 19 | 2 | 6 | 27 | 334 | 138 | 8 | 0.041315 | 0 | 0.040318 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.044765 | 0 | 0.028096 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122921 | 0 | 0 | 0.033999 | 0.036779 | 0 | 0 | 0.038817 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.043358 | 0.10962 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.042188 | 0 | 0.210619 | 0 | 0 | 0.071179 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.032987 | 0 | 0.045383 | 0.026645 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.042879 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096843 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.046474 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.039669 | 0 | 0.037761 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06384 | 0 | 0.043171 | 0.039633 | 0.070441 | 0.034653 | 0.066087 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082071 | 0 | 0 | 0.088458 | 0 | 0.357021 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086047 | 0.022706 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.042248 | 0 | 0.100923 | 0 | 0 | 0.109688 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.372887 | 0.039094 | 0.027578 | 0.041887 | 0.083014 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.048388 | 0 | 0.043912 | 0.091115 | 0 | 0.19119 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055993 | 0.031422 | 0.087925 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136055 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.026468 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.046802 | 0.035283 | 0.0393 | 0.098567 | 0.041364 | 0.12544 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063613 | 0 | 0.50874 | 0 | 0.13211 | 0.032994 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.045192 | 0.046884 | 0.038939 | 0 | 0.031064 | 0.033208 | 0.072223 | 0.342338 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.040592 | 0 | 0.024091 | 0 | 0 | 0.118436 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.048738 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.046127 | 0 | 0 | 0.044805 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.026606 |
suicidewatch | throwawayacc277227 | 2018/12/16 | My name is Conner Hello everyone. Throwaway because if I decide to go through with anything, I don’t any of my internet friends to know from my post history.
My name is Conner. I’m 19 and I’m from Colorado Springs, CO. I graduated high school with a few friends. I just failed my first semester of college. I’m a wildl... | 2.112893 | 4.673078 | 3.537918 | 85.804908 | 81.788462 | 6.309699 | 26.83194 | 7.586125 | 1.778416 | 840 | 37 | 157 | 14 | 23 | 275 | 124 | 208 | 0.147 | 0.755 | 0.099 | -0.9227 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 29 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 8 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 11 | 0 | 12 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 32 | 28 | 14 | 2 | 7 | 9 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 6 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 6 | 26 | 4 | 23 | 24 | 7 | 22 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 6 | 5 | 0 | 6 | 14 | 102 | 30 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159529 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.209491 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.215403 | 0.157822 | 0.126754 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187791 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159859 | 0 | 0 | 0.157656 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128672 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147182 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.233647 | 0.110039 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131018 | 0 | 0 | 0.238007 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087539 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152073 | 0 | 0.163727 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162741 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160767 | 0 | 0.136909 | 0 | 0.160399 | 0.084651 | 0.125555 | 0.173753 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075251 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129346 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145747 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155226 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11323 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.295036 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.311773 | 0.122742 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168484 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134629 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181702 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109419 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | ThermaLeco | 2018/12/16 | Im giving up Ive been depressed for many years. more than i can count. im sad, tired, and exhausted. in ready to end it, and im certain i will. ive written some notes to my friends and family and have them in my room, hopefully they find them and understand that its not their fault. a lot has been going on and i cant t... | 0.071455 | 2.112059 | 1.997455 | 96.933727 | 86 | 6.036364 | 20.090909 | 7.348243 | 0.3878 | 360 | 11 | 87 | 6 | 11 | 119 | 66 | 100 | 0.157 | 0.677 | 0.166 | 0.015 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 11 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 17 | 19 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 13 | 4 | 12 | 14 | 4 | 10 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 7 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 53 | 18 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146828 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090251 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127517 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173516 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123679 | 0 | 0.13113 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.279141 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135317 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.22877 | 0 | 0 | 0.142025 | 0.084142 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147049 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.639688 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081366 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125869 | 0 | 0.140091 | 0 | 0.150102 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149491 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111317 | 0.118999 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.340329 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154128 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150354 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095341 |
suicidewatch | way_below_average | 2018/12/16 | Not getting over it After nearly a year of not seeing my former lover, the one time center of my life and reason to get up each day, my pain had receded to the level of being open to death, rather than actively seeking it. She convinced me that I was worthwhile. And the like a cheap store bought trick, it was gone. I c... | 2.64773 | 5.268708 | 3.350744 | 87.617444 | 79.991736 | 5.045391 | 24.183725 | 6.297961 | 0.84513 | 499 | 18 | 89 | 4 | 13 | 157 | 90 | 121 | 0.168 | 0.729 | 0.103 | -0.8279 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 30 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 9 | 2 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 11 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 18 | 21 | 5 | 2 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 5 | 4 | 1 | 3 | 10 | 3 | 11 | 5 | 15 | 8 | 3 | 20 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 70 | 16 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.38406 | 0.430711 | 0 | 0.185843 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141505 | 0 | 0 | 0.1143 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185192 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19608 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125184 | 0.086586 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14883 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136692 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.240193 | 0 | 0.188587 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154752 | 0 | 0.194547 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182223 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14123 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140702 | 0.103345 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159352 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.430711 | 0.114131 |
suicidewatch | RaphyBoii | 2018/12/16 | Long Time Lurker, Second Time Poster I just gotta say that the support here is overwhelming (in a good way). My first post here was full of love and good responses. The sad thing is that people who are actively commenting on this subreddit, are also those who need help. Thank you to the people that comment, help, and c... | 3.079418 | 5.016493 | 3.490758 | 90.645556 | 75.17284 | 7.097707 | 21.447972 | 7.957252 | 0.83036 | 322 | 8 | 67 | 5 | 7 | 100 | 56 | 81 | 0.034 | 0.717 | 0.249 | 0.9571 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 14 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 6 | 5 | 5 | 11 | 1 | 11 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 13 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 47 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159435 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169583 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.334443 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197407 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.267266 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176435 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179938 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14783 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.414652 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.381881 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.317093 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.226242 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183552 | 0 | 0 | 0.132452 | 0 | 0.195879 | 0 | 0.232507 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15825 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | zushicat | 2018/12/16 | Trapped in a circular cycle, feels hopeless i scare my friends away with my mental illness, makes me feel worse and that distances them more...
hate myself , wish i could just be normal instead i go from fine to considering death on a daily basis
why do friends lie about caring but never change , feel like im getting... | 8.749699 | 7.497014 | 7.856717 | 75.691822 | 61.409639 | 9.745783 | 37.61747 | 8.076483 | 3.038858 | 349 | 14 | 62 | 3 | 4 | 108 | 67 | 83 | 0.245 | 0.58 | 0.174 | -0.7972 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 8 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 15 | 14 | 2 | 2 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 9 | 5 | 12 | 12 | 1 | 12 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 36 | 10 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186938 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126206 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169581 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153588 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184026 | 0 | 0.190939 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14411 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187325 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.273791 | 0.128945 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.278899 | 0 | 0.094301 | 0 | 0.102579 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178201 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120982 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.38993 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088181 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120482 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181896 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139209 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176846 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198129 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180707 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105248 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10646 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.325737 | 0 | 0.20756 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183939 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | nagmepapi | 2018/12/16 | My weird coping(?) mechanism I realised this the other evening when my partner and I had a fight over something. I was down and battling depression for a while now, my demons started to resurface. I wished I wasn't much of a coward and actually ended my life when I should have. I was sitting in the washroom contemplati... | 2.981256 | 4.982279 | 3.807425 | 87.980829 | 75.651982 | 6.478326 | 26.327974 | 7.365786 | 1.295672 | 903 | 34 | 181 | 11 | 20 | 288 | 123 | 227 | 0.072 | 0.831 | 0.097 | 0.6873 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 23 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 11 | 7 | 2 | 0 | 18 | 0 | 16 | 5 | 3 | 4 | 2 | 35 | 31 | 18 | 1 | 8 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 13 | 13 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 33 | 3 | 27 | 17 | 4 | 36 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 10 | 0 | 2 | 19 | 135 | 46 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.227607 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186222 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100444 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.20658 | 0 | 0 | 0.154052 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114076 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198832 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138194 | 0.078167 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19012 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164743 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.233533 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085728 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.437757 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088694 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117234 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149418 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116703 | 0 | 0 | 0.179558 | 0 | 0 | 0.082544 | 0 | 0 | 0.097499 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.37033 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100721 | 0 | 0.096223 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105231 | 0 | 0.402319 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082843 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | BackToTheFuture4Life | 2018/12/16 | My future isnt bright I feel empty, like a shell of what I used to be. I feel like everything I do doesn't matter, like the people I care about don't matter, and I feel like everything is falling apart, like these events happening are things I cannot control, yet I suffer the consequences from that as if I was in contr... | 4.086769 | 4.047181 | 5.349388 | 85.801565 | 70.530612 | 8.982313 | 26.537415 | 8.841846 | 1.627974 | 361 | 10 | 82 | 6 | 6 | 121 | 64 | 98 | 0.064 | 0.684 | 0.252 | 0.9595 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 11 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 13 | 20 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 12 | 8 | 10 | 17 | 2 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 3 | 8 | 49 | 18 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190745 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185316 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.407717 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.326707 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.275709 | 0.259698 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094962 | 0 | 0.103298 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160729 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.443992 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183103 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174403 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126009 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171821 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.207857 | 0 | 0.120753 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.246805 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156982 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132323 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | AliceL5225 | 2018/12/16 | I don’t want to do it anymore The world is such a selfish bad place. The longer I stay in it the more I resent humanity. I miss being able to believe in a god because now there’s no one to turn to. There’s no purpose for this suffering.
The only thing holding me back from dying is I know it would hurt people. I’m try... | -0.265175 | 1.880634 | 2.289111 | 93.385435 | 89.10989 | 4.627772 | 20.360639 | 6.112484 | 0.090727 | 329 | 11 | 73 | 3 | 11 | 113 | 61 | 91 | 0.281 | 0.675 | 0.043 | -0.968 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 14 | 2 | 2 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 11 | 10 | 2 | 9 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 53 | 14 | 0 | 0.212125 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.234085 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.222431 | 0 | 0 | 0.210371 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163111 | 0.177115 | 0.129309 | 0 | 0 | 0.238992 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.220152 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.454168 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116578 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155936 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143741 | 0.16133 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147061 | 0.185219 | 0.221625 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.226097 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140926 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144019 | 0.230731 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.250233 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150687 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | inthedeadofnite | 2018/12/16 | ... Goodbye. | 12.04 | -4.229127 | 8.4 | 36.62 | 319 | 0.4 | 101 | 3.1291 | 12.2622 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | RyanGribben10g | 2018/12/16 | My friend fucken died He drilled his own head | 2.433333 | 5.084441 | 1.031111 | 103.7 | 81.222222 | 3.6 | 20.111111 | 3.1291 | -0.835756 | 37 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 9 | 9 | 0.261 | 0.507 | 0.232 | -0.1027 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.628442 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.467829 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.621446 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | creatureert | 2018/12/16 | I don't deserve this life I really wish I could give it to someone else who would know what to do with it. I'm so mediocre and ruin everything. My indecision and do just enough mentality is really sucking the absolute life out of me. I'd say 75% of my day is spent thinking about my problems. Usually that consists of m... | 2.608934 | 4.990855 | 4.393354 | 81.469275 | 78.47644 | 7.162414 | 25.759438 | 8.205008 | 1.931507 | 771 | 30 | 142 | 15 | 19 | 260 | 121 | 191 | 0.18 | 0.712 | 0.107 | -0.9251 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 25 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 8 | 15 | 3 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 15 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 34 | 32 | 12 | 0 | 7 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 16 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 4 | 22 | 8 | 17 | 24 | 6 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 9 | 100 | 38 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146238 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089025 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129161 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116601 | 0 | 0 | 0.188367 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121998 | 0 | 0 | 0.301797 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131251 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073842 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11283 | 0 | 0.1526 | 0.28019 | 0 | 0.122491 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.310925 | 0 | 0.144184 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08026 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.309457 | 0.071348 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147174 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112635 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140129 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202491 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139741 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187114 | 0 | 0 | 0.156792 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116137 | 0 | 0 | 0.116375 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149908 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123739 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116628 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093577 | 0 | 0 | 0.085157 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160842 | 0 | 0.172276 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167939 | 0 | 0 | 0.106319 | 0 | 0.148827 | 0.103743 | 0.159672 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | t_hrow_away- | 2018/12/16 | I wish my mom was an actual parent to me and not obsessed with her religion I have never felt love from my mother. I needed her many times. I just needed a parent... | 0.413235 | 2.681312 | 3.342647 | 86.236912 | 86.941176 | 5.752941 | 14.382353 | 7.168622 | 0.042965 | 127 | 2 | 25 | 2 | 4 | 45 | 27 | 34 | 0.1 | 0.774 | 0.126 | -0.0387 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 9 | 1 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 20 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.256479 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.252353 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.23721 | 0 | 0 | 0.266464 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.307818 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.389763 | 0.202707 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.583673 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153255 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.302236 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | maymegod | 2018/12/16 | I don't know how to last another week. I don't want to give intricate details, so I'll be brief:
* Right now, I could disappear and absolutely nobody would notice. Not an obvious suicide, necessarily, but if I smashed my phone and left the country without any notice, nobody, not "friends" who treat me like shit, not f... | 2.481818 | 4.494315 | 3.829154 | 87.201661 | 77.181818 | 6.782445 | 25.106583 | 7.753152 | 1.332382 | 1,247 | 45 | 255 | 19 | 29 | 409 | 158 | 319 | 0.259 | 0.588 | 0.153 | -0.9925 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 49 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 23 | 35 | 8 | 1 | 15 | 0 | 28 | 12 | 5 | 7 | 4 | 51 | 54 | 21 | 4 | 9 | 17 | 0 | 4 | 7 | 3 | 4 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 17 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 16 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 35 | 23 | 24 | 41 | 6 | 31 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 19 | 12 | 8 | 6 | 24 | 166 | 52 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0.07681 | 0 | 0 | 0.076915 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107052 | 0.16507 | 0 | 0 | 0.07806 | 0 | 0 | 0.064772 | 0.070069 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060524 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069613 | 0.085931 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080372 | 0 | 0.080251 | 0.080857 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062844 | 0 | 0 | 0.101524 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090209 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065753 | 0.088539 | 0 | 0.162658 | 0 | 0.155963 | 0.213594 | 0.132634 | 0.075211 | 0.07074 | 0 | 0.074201 | 0 | 0.159194 | 0.168692 | 0 | 0 | 0.07194 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182435 | 0.145533 | 0 | 0.151013 | 0 | 0.132037 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083789 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088712 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086514 | 0.06416 | 0 | 0 | 0.085519 | 0 | 0.055596 | 0.269178 | 0.078889 | 0.069503 | 0.069656 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.213118 | 0 | 0.15762 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.268837 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075138 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148814 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084506 | 0 | 0.067218 | 0 | 0.062594 | 0 | 0.159318 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.242386 | 0.06511 | 0 | 0.078767 | 0 | 0.066691 | 0.060595 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062858 | 0 | 0 | 0.082285 | 0.180209 | 0.25829 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075211 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067981 | 0 | 0 | 0.092851 | 0 | 0.063137 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075874 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167741 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | fs-birty | 2018/12/16 | Some food for thought If we all have one thing in common, it’s that we hate what has happened to and/or what we’ve made our lives to be. I was talking to one of my good friends the other day, and realized something:
We only focus on the bad things that have happened in our lives, because usually the negative events af... | 3.996419 | 5.897101 | 4.112547 | 87.32204 | 72.549488 | 6.931115 | 26.542804 | 7.645422 | 1.415653 | 1,202 | 42 | 233 | 15 | 24 | 371 | 147 | 293 | 0.097 | 0.682 | 0.221 | 0.9898 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 35 | 11 | 16 | 1 | 6 | 11 | 31 | 6 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 22 | 11 | 0 | 13 | 5 | 55 | 50 | 19 | 0 | 3 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 28 | 19 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 4 | 10 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 1 | 31 | 21 | 33 | 40 | 12 | 31 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 34 | 18 | 4 | 6 | 9 | 161 | 59 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063807 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055115 | 0.179541 | 0.087387 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.31696 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081979 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.046225 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086671 | 0 | 0.055377 | 0.265055 | 0.074896 | 0 | 0.040735 | 0.240475 | 0 | 0.079024 | 0 | 0 | 0.316916 | 0.228903 | 0 | 0.070766 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.048043 | 0 | 0 | 0.071191 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.303763 | 0 | 0 | 0.443041 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067822 | 0.287068 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105381 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076229 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09714 | 0.054513 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.049691 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071696 | 0 | 0 | 0.147391 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11036 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074932 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057611 | 0 | 0.06599 | 0 | 0 | 0.190475 | 0.091855 | 0 | 0.056903 | 0.041795 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086218 | 0 | 0.078942 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | turbofruit | 2018/12/16 | should i just end it i suffer everyday of my life. i think i suffer from dissociation & panic attacks but i'm not 100% sure cause my body feels so weird all the time. like every minute of every single day, i dont know what its like to feel normal anymore. my body does really weird shit & im so weak and numb all... | 0.128102 | 2.056127 | 2.975161 | 90.721203 | 84.806452 | 5.750868 | 17.602978 | 7.010147 | 0.038621 | 442 | 10 | 101 | 6 | 13 | 156 | 75 | 124 | 0.28 | 0.6 | 0.121 | -0.9685 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 14 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 10 | 8 | 3 | 1 | 3 | 19 | 17 | 7 | 1 | 4 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 15 | 5 | 11 | 16 | 4 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 9 | 58 | 22 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.283056 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.259082 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1486 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079625 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.290181 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134184 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08424 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135564 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114307 | 0 | 0.459261 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115692 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.220108 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132092 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068244 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087553 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.282186 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071786 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184523 | 0.191445 | 0 | 0.115341 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127981 | 0.125334 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153256 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167358 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134081 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123109 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083697 | 0 | 0 | 0.228499 | 0.15013 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088683 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077044 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | perfectbutdead | 2018/12/16 | Goodbye. Thank you for all of the support and effort. I love each and everyone of you. Make the most of the life you have. Goodnight. | -0.171154 | 1.80259 | 0.961077 | 97.433923 | 107.076923 | 3.618462 | 20.584615 | 5.683918 | 0.092902 | 103 | 4 | 21 | 1 | 5 | 32 | 19 | 26 | 0 | 0.701 | 0.299 | 0.8555 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 4 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 17 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.435804 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.322143 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.41163 | 0 | 0.304437 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.517555 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.419898 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | IcyFalcon9 | 2018/12/16 | My life is fucked. i need advice Im 16 and have litteraly no life. my life was good until my parents started homeschooling me probably 4 years ago, now i am graduated with my ged. I have no friends and only get to leave my house maybe once a week. i try to ask my parents to take me to town but they wont, ive tried to g... | 1.886593 | 3.781481 | 3.364771 | 90.388563 | 78.56044 | 6.126242 | 24.473114 | 7.087007 | 0.912069 | 1,035 | 37 | 221 | 12 | 25 | 340 | 141 | 273 | 0.114 | 0.826 | 0.061 | -0.9493 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 18 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 9 | 9 | 3 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 34 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 40 | 61 | 18 | 1 | 5 | 10 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 10 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 1 | 48 | 4 | 25 | 39 | 4 | 22 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 23 | 10 | 3 | 3 | 12 | 149 | 58 | 2 | 0.087183 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085195 | 0.077283 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072544 | 0 | 0 | 0.059288 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071745 | 0 | 0.081505 | 0 | 0 | 0.067039 | 0 | 0.159439 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088889 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139218 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102178 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079684 | 0 | 0 | 0.286776 | 0.134715 | 0.241799 | 0.273298 | 0 | 0 | 0.073125 | 0.139457 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058437 | 0 | 0.087452 | 0 | 0 | 0.100598 | 0 | 0 | 0.188346 | 0 | 0.086516 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095827 | 0 | 0 | 0.092315 | 0 | 0.178302 | 0.246321 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058196 | 0 | 0.087587 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08786 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139178 | 0 | 0 | 0.064645 | 0.067241 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16731 | 0 | 0 | 0.092848 | 0 | 0.066307 | 0.092769 | 0 | 0.484034 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093998 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055852 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177745 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061709 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095365 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131102 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057921 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118384 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.051423 | 0 | 0.069933 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100257 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112287 |
suicidewatch | MeatloafFarts | 2018/12/16 | Open my wrist I just want to open my wrist up and slowly slip away. I find myself thinking more and more of doing this. The only thing that brings me not to is my family. But I'm just sad all the time it's the worst at night. But even so during the day time. I was at a play today having a great time when my mind wonder... | 2.338471 | 3.536723 | 3.579794 | 92.329011 | 75.504854 | 6.315049 | 22.098301 | 6.627428 | 0.323137 | 758 | 19 | 171 | 6 | 16 | 247 | 120 | 206 | 0.079 | 0.769 | 0.152 | 0.9014 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 18 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 14 | 0 | 15 | 10 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 37 | 31 | 13 | 0 | 4 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 24 | 6 | 27 | 22 | 7 | 37 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 19 | 0 | 2 | 16 | 118 | 34 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164591 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155928 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.214066 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186687 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109617 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156456 | 0 | 0.083916 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.303376 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159208 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182976 | 0 | 0 | 0.146761 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182419 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.18032 | 0 | 0.117225 | 0.081082 | 0 | 0.146549 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149789 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167576 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176504 | 0.155746 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126223 | 0.176597 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106321 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140621 | 0 | 0 | 0.185783 | 0 | 0 | 0.132539 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.220518 | 0.106343 | 0 | 0.131757 | 0.290324 | 0 | 0.157314 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182786 | 0 | 0.195779 | 0 | 0.133126 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179981 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | raqsero | 2018/12/16 | I’ve come to terms with it I’m not angry, sad, frustrated, confused or what the fuck ever anymore. I’ve come to terms with the fact that I was just simply a genetic mistake and through suicide I’m letting natural selection take it’s course. The strong thrive and the weak perish right? The thought of nothingness and de... | 4.542283 | 6.871401 | 4.799348 | 81.136413 | 72.152174 | 8.078261 | 31.065217 | 8.841846 | 2.851061 | 395 | 18 | 68 | 8 | 8 | 124 | 68 | 92 | 0.242 | 0.61 | 0.148 | -0.913 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 10 | 3 | 2 | 8 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 21 | 12 | 5 | 3 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 13 | 9 | 2 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 44 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.441914 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197048 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.383844 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147157 | 0.201535 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.205974 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.246494 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.242072 | 0.227827 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169449 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190269 | 0 | 0 | 0.223061 | 0 | 0 | 0.202828 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.243706 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167517 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148018 | 0 | 0 | 0.176878 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.214771 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | pancake__pancake | 2018/12/16 | I don't know anymore Disclaimer: I'm drunk right now.
I really wish I could be my drunk self all the time, the life of the party, fun, friendly, approachable, everything.
I most likely need therapy but I literally can't explain my problems without my anxiety getting in the way and making it hard for me to be honest. ... | 2.00157 | 3.794894 | 3.784006 | 87.987115 | 77.848684 | 7.266862 | 25.732943 | 8.167269 | 1.575344 | 1,149 | 44 | 246 | 21 | 27 | 386 | 159 | 304 | 0.176 | 0.689 | 0.135 | -0.9226 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 38 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 2 | 13 | 17 | 3 | 0 | 13 | 0 | 31 | 12 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 46 | 62 | 25 | 1 | 12 | 11 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 2 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 10 | 7 | 6 | 0 | 7 | 6 | 0 | 3 | 12 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 6 | 43 | 11 | 27 | 47 | 6 | 31 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 16 | 9 | 3 | 3 | 22 | 163 | 53 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0.099403 | 0 | 0 | 0.099539 | 0 | 0.10886 | 0 | 0.105499 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155849 | 0 | 0.10102 | 0 | 0 | 0.083824 | 0 | 0.095227 | 0 | 0.095703 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106898 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107757 | 0 | 0 | 0.110077 | 0 | 0.243986 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105717 | 0.106424 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099786 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085823 | 0.097334 | 0.091547 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154514 | 0.145541 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157397 | 0.28251 | 0.106438 | 0.097716 | 0 | 0.085437 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091249 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114806 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11499 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111962 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143897 | 0.199059 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.203981 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07488 | 0.151059 | 0.078562 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106887 | 0 | 0 | 0.077471 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088942 | 0.106424 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194937 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115941 | 0.065256 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08699 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106264 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076588 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.349465 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059397 | 0.117076 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084047 | 0.060081 | 0.080853 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094427 | 0.091915 | 0 | 0.234273 | 0.098192 | 0 | 0.074157 | 0 | 0 | 0.07236 | 0 | 0 | 0.131192 |
suicidewatch | kid_mescudi | 2018/12/16 | I never understood when people called it a "cry for help" when they talked about attempting suicide or talking about committing it. For some reason it didn't click, but I understand now I've talked to a very small number of people about how I want to die. I definitely have a passively suicidal mindset and I've told peo... | 3.145554 | 4.848448 | 4.208099 | 86.58023 | 74.386473 | 7.575902 | 27.393862 | 8.313333 | 1.789384 | 1,625 | 63 | 336 | 28 | 34 | 528 | 169 | 414 | 0.238 | 0.63 | 0.132 | -0.9967 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 27 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 9 | 22 | 21 | 3 | 0 | 14 | 0 | 25 | 5 | 1 | 7 | 4 | 93 | 78 | 37 | 7 | 16 | 17 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 28 | 25 | 2 | 0 | 23 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 11 | 13 | 0 | 2 | 10 | 11 | 47 | 8 | 48 | 62 | 8 | 25 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 2 | 29 | 9 | 2 | 10 | 11 | 218 | 75 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0.188681 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090129 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060252 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078576 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070362 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131621 | 0 | 0.065711 | 0 | 0 | 0.166553 | 0.067574 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.212385 | 0 | 0 | 0.111021 | 0 | 0.066889 | 0.067336 | 0 | 0 | 0.112801 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162938 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059583 | 0.134689 | 0 | 0.036628 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070999 | 0 | 0.056993 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145279 | 0 | 0.215996 | 0 | 0 | 0.064013 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067269 | 0 | 0 | 0.071304 | 0.134229 | 0.106259 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.031487 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058168 | 0 | 0.043021 | 0 | 0.064748 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.047789 | 0.099415 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087345 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.312769 | 0 | 0 | 0.070746 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06167 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13253 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.051253 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058673 | 0 | 0 | 0.066157 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163824 | 0.099233 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.352487 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.048458 | 0.207209 | 0.168995 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082593 | 0.063321 | 0.153497 | 0.037581 | 0 | 0 | 0.061584 | 0 | 0.087514 | 0 | 0 | 0.268377 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053178 | 0.19007 | 0.102314 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116311 | 0 | 0.074114 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.228916 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | alysxxx | 2018/12/16 | I’m a hypocrite. I’m a drunk as fuck, so I apologize in advance for errors. And I know I’ll regret this tomorrow.
I threw my husband a surprise birthday party today. I spent a lot of money and a lot of time and a lot of effort putting this together. I had no real desire to get drunk initially, but getting drunk was a... | 1.821321 | 3.817941 | 4.054692 | 84.872226 | 79.188679 | 7.007296 | 26.32327 | 8.021204 | 1.786817 | 606 | 25 | 121 | 11 | 15 | 209 | 100 | 159 | 0.173 | 0.658 | 0.169 | 0.0793 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 23 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 5 | 9 | 2 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 9 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 25 | 24 | 8 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 6 | 3 | 1 | 4 | 3 | 2 | 5 | 4 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 20 | 3 | 17 | 18 | 6 | 18 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 6 | 2 | 5 | 6 | 81 | 25 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157297 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142885 | 0 | 0 | 0.166943 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169021 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143493 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098259 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142559 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180787 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134653 | 0 | 0 | 0.166552 | 0 | 0.106464 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149017 | 0.168429 | 0.154627 | 0.091608 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.216083 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181963 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.265756 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164827 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.411112 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.218452 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152376 | 0 | 0.154375 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188422 | 0.16204 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183469 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165458 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136575 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093991 | 0 | 0.152789 | 0 | 0 | 0.109437 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095074 | 0 | 0.129296 | 0 | 0 | 0.149424 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | IntroversiaI | 2018/12/16 | Head self harm Does anyone else smash or hit their head in when angry and hopeless? Sometimes I target the back of my neck to cause damage but the best result was a blocked nose and a mild concussion that made it hard for me to go sleep.
Just want to know if it's weird and I might be taking self harm too far. I can't ... | 3.266143 | 4.177259 | 3.692857 | 93.522143 | 72.857143 | 6.171429 | 21.142857 | 5.683918 | -0.087486 | 263 | 5 | 59 | 1 | 5 | 82 | 58 | 70 | 0.234 | 0.673 | 0.092 | -0.802 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 15 | 10 | 7 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 7 | 1 | 6 | 5 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 35 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149362 | 0.21887 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164254 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.224172 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.219437 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.239583 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186932 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178445 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1214 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191353 | 0 | 0.438453 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117395 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202124 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.226607 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.445686 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.213765 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.211267 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160609 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125993 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | The_Struggle_Bus_7 | 2018/12/16 | I’m giving up on ever being happy. This just isn’t getting any easier I lost my job three weeks ago I’ve tried other jobs but no one will hire me. Pretty soon I’m going to lose where I’m living and my car I’ve also pretty much ruined every relationship I had with anyone who cared I think I’m going to just give it up. | -0.768372 | 1.318026 | 2.61061 | 90.396792 | 91.535211 | 4.282316 | 10.70579 | 5.822114 | -1.132597 | 252 | 2 | 54 | 2 | 9 | 91 | 53 | 71 | 0.149 | 0.627 | 0.224 | 0.7269 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 16 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 6 | 12 | 1 | 11 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 32 | 10 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172875 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155959 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132622 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136364 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198838 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176408 | 0.164314 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101891 | 0.374166 | 0.221671 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.207604 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.387058 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172208 | 0 | 0 | 0.21818 | 0.212889 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143364 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132152 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.396815 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.209381 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124962 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132407 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156435 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | TheRealGoldenBear | 2018/12/16 | I can't wait til I stop feeling so empty on the inside Not feeling like anything matters has actually made me feel worse and I can't stand it anymore. | 4.704194 | 5.240725 | 6.061452 | 79.212177 | 69.322581 | 7.490323 | 34.854839 | 7.168622 | 2.424987 | 121 | 6 | 23 | 1 | 2 | 41 | 26 | 31 | 0.226 | 0.588 | 0.185 | -0.5131 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 9 | 8 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 4 | 1 | 2 | 7 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 14 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.338809 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.344321 | 0 | 0 | 0.285709 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.526651 | 0.248034 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16962 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.328521 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.290268 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.353818 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | AgentOfRuin | 2018/12/16 | useless ramble i apologize for any orthographic or grammatical errror. inn-glich iss not my motter's tong pleese forgif mii
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in a year of two i'll be able to be what i've never been. Useful. in other word ill be dead (ow the edge) (and i will feed microrganismes... this counts as being useful right?). why... | 1.503665 | 3.672245 | 3.581133 | 86.958053 | 81.191781 | 6.137727 | 22.741577 | 7.329195 | 0.924625 | 1,395 | 47 | 288 | 20 | 37 | 474 | 198 | 365 | 0.123 | 0.778 | 0.098 | -0.8973 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 82 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 17 | 23 | 5 | 0 | 15 | 1 | 35 | 12 | 1 | 5 | 4 | 55 | 52 | 29 | 2 | 4 | 21 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 7 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 21 | 13 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 15 | 12 | 1 | 2 | 6 | 5 | 31 | 11 | 39 | 35 | 5 | 23 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 2 | 16 | 10 | 3 | 10 | 13 | 193 | 52 | 1 | 0.085109 | 0 | 0.166108 | 0 | 0 | 0.083167 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.18784 | 0.068062 | 0 | 0.276646 | 0.31025 | 0.057877 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16881 | 0 | 0 | 0.070037 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071062 | 0.155645 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086774 | 0 | 0 | 0.073314 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073304 | 0 | 0.08833 | 0 | 0.195084 | 0 | 0.074479 | 0 | 0.099747 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075381 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07649 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081718 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.044466 | 0 | 0.048369 | 0 | 0.068069 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0906 | 0 | 0.084027 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057047 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182222 | 0 | 0.183864 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177256 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08703 | 0.180345 | 0.08316 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07147 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076814 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085738 | 0 | 0 | 0.085936 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131282 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081664 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090562 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118008 | 0.148628 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081511 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090524 | 0 | 0 | 0.054523 | 0.087506 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072683 | 0 | 0.067682 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087363 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097429 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136815 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166278 | 0 | 0 | 0.147014 | 0 | 0 | 0.150598 | 0.067555 | 0 | 0 | 0.076523 | 0 | 0.230393 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.31025 | 0.109615 |
suicidewatch | rah_te_bumba | 2018/12/16 | We are a simulation. Just incase you are worried about oblivion, the fact that we are experiencing life now is proof that this journey doesn't stop. | 4.003333 | 7.044392 | 4.527407 | 78.633333 | 77.888889 | 6.562963 | 27.518519 | 7.793538 | 1.921652 | 120 | 5 | 21 | 2 | 3 | 38 | 23 | 27 | 0.081 | 0.849 | 0.07 | -0.0803 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 16 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.473077 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.559956 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.680182 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | TheLastLollipop | 2018/12/16 | I think saved my friends life last night. My friend who i just recently starting dating has been dealing with depression and suicidal thoughts for a while now. We met through working at the same mall and she just seemed off today, ignoring me and my attempts to talk. So i figured she's done with me and doesn't want to ... | 3.272477 | 4.451915 | 3.957781 | 90.605 | 73.148936 | 7.711854 | 27.258359 | 8.192908 | 1.513183 | 718 | 26 | 160 | 11 | 14 | 228 | 114 | 188 | 0.099 | 0.763 | 0.137 | 0.8578 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 14 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 5 | 10 | 1 | 0 | 11 | 0 | 14 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 34 | 31 | 13 | 2 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 12 | 0 | 2 | 10 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 3 | 31 | 7 | 27 | 20 | 6 | 34 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 24 | 14 | 0 | 3 | 17 | 112 | 37 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122698 | 0 | 0.302645 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147238 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092993 | 0.148657 | 0.124194 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14756 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145817 | 0.103012 | 0.138449 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158101 | 0.334211 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081949 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158846 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142361 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079245 | 0.117537 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101848 | 0.070446 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135316 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142374 | 0 | 0 | 0.123141 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131269 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119279 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102061 | 0.153691 | 0 | 0.120552 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.315449 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.347692 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191592 | 0.092393 | 0 | 0.114474 | 0.084081 | 0 | 0.136679 | 0 | 0.160204 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085049 | 0.114454 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.209949 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | xiphoidantistatic | 2018/12/16 | Please help me what do I do? I’m breaking down and I don’t understand why and I just relapsed in self harm and I’m panicking I don’t want to be awake but I’m terrified and I stabbed myself in the arm and it’s not bleeding even though it went deep I’m fucking scared what do I do now? | -1.948615 | -0.089822 | 0.741923 | 101.320577 | 100.692308 | 4.446154 | 18.807692 | 6.2581 | -0.166354 | 224 | 8 | 57 | 3 | 10 | 76 | 40 | 65 | 0.272 | 0.658 | 0.07 | -0.9481 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 15 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 4 | 13 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 35 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.218875 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.306357 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.222118 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.363758 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.331771 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.345704 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.325581 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.34498 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.195458 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.307194 | 0.299021 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | unsureifIshouldjoin | 2018/12/16 | Anybody wish to talk? About anything. Could be lighthearted or deep and heavy. Only if you'd like to. | 0.776579 | 2.727562 | 1.167763 | 95.150592 | 110.052632 | 4.005263 | 20.539474 | 5.985473 | 0.403937 | 80 | 3 | 15 | 1 | 4 | 24 | 18 | 19 | 0 | 0.652 | 0.348 | 0.7906 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 9 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.406399 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.394302 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.241272 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.375598 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.396941 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.567907 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | she11phish | 2018/12/16 | fml I want to kill myself, the only thing stopping me from it is passing the pain onto my family. I can't stand living it's torturous. | 1.067381 | 3.288566 | 4.064286 | 82.547381 | 83.285714 | 6.590476 | 20.047619 | 7.793538 | 1.121605 | 106 | 3 | 20 | 2 | 3 | 38 | 25 | 28 | 0.396 | 0.565 | 0.039 | -0.9186 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 15 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.381963 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.448267 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.357777 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.308154 | 0.431135 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.338745 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.269181 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.238983 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | machinelearningdude | 2018/12/16 | Time To Leave My time has come. I have stayed my welcome and it is time for me to take leave. I realize that I have nothing else to offer this world and this world has nothing left to offer me. I am a broken person, and no fix exists. I have always been a "fixer" but this is a problem that I cannot fix. My resources ar... | 1.871423 | 4.09408 | 3.696589 | 86.33536 | 80.182365 | 7.038092 | 23.406854 | 8.109357 | 1.40053 | 1,940 | 67 | 398 | 38 | 50 | 651 | 196 | 499 | 0.228 | 0.65 | 0.122 | -0.9965 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 88 | 4 | 2 | 5 | 9 | 10 | 33 | 5 | 0 | 24 | 0 | 71 | 17 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 81 | 99 | 41 | 0 | 18 | 20 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 14 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 31 | 27 | 0 | 3 | 9 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 16 | 19 | 1 | 3 | 14 | 2 | 74 | 14 | 40 | 73 | 8 | 35 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 36 | 14 | 0 | 6 | 14 | 303 | 105 | 3 | 0.06872 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067152 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142346 | 0 | 0 | 0.114361 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064244 | 0 | 0.064564 | 0.052841 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116951 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059196 | 0.072051 | 0 | 0.077075 | 0.164601 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114813 | 0 | 0.121731 | 0.142012 | 0 | 0.045389 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064783 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150558 | 0.062809 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.035903 | 0 | 0.039055 | 0 | 0 | 0.075764 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.20354 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068254 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061081 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056016 | 0 | 0.218293 | 0.149328 | 0 | 0.194155 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062022 | 0 | 0 | 0.069671 | 0 | 0 | 0.152664 | 0 | 0.069253 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073038 | 0.050517 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.329692 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139699 | 0.261322 | 0.365613 | 0 | 0.076305 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060003 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131511 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078218 | 0 | 0 | 0.067852 | 0.073779 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054649 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143379 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077244 | 0.068769 | 0 | 0.058226 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073246 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103337 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067517 | 0 | 0.160284 | 0.078983 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149495 | 0 | 0.143079 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162131 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061787 | 0 | 0.124018 | 0 | 0.158049 | 0 | 0 | 0.100058 | 0 | 0 | 0.097633 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Transfusedd | 2018/12/16 | Need to talk to someone Sitting here with a knife considering just ending it all, I'm so lonely and I've tried.. Listened to people telling me to "give it time", I've given it 3 years and sure I've had decent days but nothing has changed in my life, still sad, lonely, and have no actual friends. I wish I could just man... | 4.754074 | 4.948545 | 5.587259 | 83.858667 | 69.123457 | 7.961481 | 31.014815 | 7.554174 | 1.888084 | 311 | 12 | 64 | 3 | 5 | 102 | 60 | 81 | 0.218 | 0.683 | 0.1 | -0.9197 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 7 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 13 | 12 | 6 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 6 | 2 | 8 | 9 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 37 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.214041 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.229994 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.23203 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175123 | 0 | 0 | 0.282909 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194268 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169459 | 0.202774 | 0 | 0.210408 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.242664 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154924 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162636 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.21046 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152061 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185844 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175163 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206723 | 0 | 0 | 0.176295 | 0.383421 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127897 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148915 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.252227 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141246 |
suicidewatch | deathbymidget | 2018/12/16 | Think Hello everyone, I hope this follows the rules but I just want to put across my view of dealing with a suicide.
My brother in law killed himself a few months ago by hanging. He had recently split from my sister where they had 13 month old twins together.
It rocked everyone, he was a troubled man, had many many... | 6.177872 | 6.688747 | 6.313906 | 78.778517 | 66.094972 | 9.190655 | 31.915185 | 9.095869 | 2.650828 | 740 | 28 | 138 | 12 | 11 | 236 | 124 | 179 | 0.195 | 0.717 | 0.088 | -0.9767 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 15 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 1 | 7 | 10 | 1 | 1 | 11 | 0 | 18 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 25 | 28 | 11 | 2 | 4 | 5 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 10 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 7 | 18 | 4 | 21 | 17 | 4 | 21 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 24 | 10 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 97 | 28 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129248 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116601 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101951 | 0 | 0 | 0.129798 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128954 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154243 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15032 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129141 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.278648 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147448 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076178 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144818 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161313 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.205974 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.295649 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146938 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.232762 | 0 | 0.214368 | 0 | 0 | 0.14082 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139905 | 0 | 0.152999 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101084 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139517 | 0 | 0.146575 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143966 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.347852 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159488 | 0.165459 | 0.13742 | 0 | 0.109628 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096867 | 0.186853 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142431 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120305 | 0.086 | 0.115734 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140552 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | leannza1 | 2018/12/16 | I wish I’d go to sleep and never wake up My mother killed herself almost two years ago. It has destroyed me and my grief doesn’t seem to get better. I’ve tried to see five or six therapists since my mother died and I can’t trust any of them. I don’t want to talk about things. But the things I can’t talk about are eatin... | -0.515023 | 1.525947 | 1.896656 | 96.575202 | 88.961977 | 4.306096 | 14.947749 | 5.642373 | -0.887181 | 931 | 17 | 218 | 6 | 31 | 316 | 141 | 263 | 0.111 | 0.796 | 0.093 | -0.5678 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 33 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 8 | 17 | 7 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 23 | 11 | 4 | 0 | 4 | 40 | 51 | 17 | 4 | 9 | 7 | 7 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 7 | 15 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 9 | 12 | 0 | 4 | 9 | 3 | 42 | 5 | 28 | 35 | 2 | 30 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 3 | 24 | 10 | 2 | 4 | 14 | 137 | 49 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091312 | 0 | 0.103149 | 0.106687 | 0 | 0.082377 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07005 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102158 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091104 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117816 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066433 | 0.212397 | 0 | 0 | 0.106908 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.21081 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08679 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052085 | 0.07359 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079585 | 0.190462 | 0.053818 | 0 | 0.175629 | 0 | 0.082386 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101701 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09156 | 0.113965 | 0 | 0 | 0.083967 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.050325 | 0 | 0.09096 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112447 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075724 | 0 | 0.238343 | 0 | 0.109552 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108091 | 0 | 0.069802 | 0.078344 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071414 | 0.179888 | 0 | 0 | 0.097378 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111062 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164171 | 0.093776 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170422 | 0 | 0.206168 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.248386 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119602 | 0.13687 | 0.066005 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139874 | 0 | 0.100626 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121516 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.355369 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.292701 | 0 | 0 | 0.199005 |
suicidewatch | _aliceshea1 | 2018/12/16 | Empty Feeling I’ve recently broken up with my boyfriend of three years. It was an emotionally abusive relationship, but I love him so much. The breakup was horrible and he was really nasty about it all. It’s my first day alone and I’m feeling extremely depressed and suicidal. I’m considering checking myself into a ment... | 5.211222 | 7.561059 | 5.952358 | 73.506024 | 70.325301 | 9.080207 | 31.134251 | 9.606745 | 3.342093 | 365 | 16 | 60 | 9 | 7 | 119 | 66 | 83 | 0.278 | 0.581 | 0.141 | -0.9507 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 8 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 15 | 14 | 8 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 3 | 5 | 3 | 5 | 9 | 3 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 41 | 12 | 1 | 0 | 0.276274 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.241498 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163041 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198414 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150378 | 0 | 0.200833 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.26229 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.2358 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198338 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.247854 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128147 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.227835 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.210449 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.234985 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17141 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149378 | 0 | 0.230232 | 0.250342 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179509 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.255055 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169754 | 0 | 0 | 0.16564 | 0 | 0 | 0.150157 |
suicidewatch | 1many1234 | 2018/12/16 | I can't go on like this I don’t know what it’s liked to be loved. I don’t know what it’s like to have a friend call and tell me about their day and ask about mine. I don’t know what it’s like to have proud parents since I have never succeeded in anything I try. I don’t know what it’s like to have a best friend or signi... | 1.42705 | 3.36553 | 2.850667 | 93.306574 | 80.207627 | 6.059962 | 20.446516 | 7.123486 | 0.294039 | 1,765 | 47 | 401 | 22 | 45 | 574 | 212 | 472 | 0.081 | 0.779 | 0.14 | 0.979 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 46 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 15 | 28 | 1 | 0 | 30 | 0 | 54 | 6 | 1 | 4 | 5 | 63 | 85 | 12 | 2 | 7 | 8 | 1 | 4 | 8 | 8 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 28 | 20 | 0 | 2 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 24 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 14 | 5 | 49 | 25 | 62 | 61 | 5 | 65 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 47 | 26 | 0 | 4 | 41 | 256 | 77 | 1 | 0.072117 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072215 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060007 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071521 | 0 | 0 | 0.059346 | 0 | 0.06742 | 0 | 0.067756 | 0.055454 | 0 | 0.043962 | 0 | 0.061366 | 0 | 0.075682 | 0 | 0.078733 | 0.080106 | 0 | 0 | 0.07364 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062122 | 0.075613 | 0 | 0 | 0.05758 | 0 | 0 | 0.139529 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127749 | 0.074516 | 0 | 0.047633 | 0.065234 | 0.060762 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072929 | 0 | 0.069244 | 0 | 0 | 0.061343 | 0 | 0 | 0.390022 | 0 | 0 | 0.069181 | 0.040986 | 0.060488 | 0.057679 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193354 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079787 | 0.075099 | 0.317069 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156711 | 0 | 0.101877 | 0.281862 | 0 | 0.191042 | 0.063821 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130177 | 0.136478 | 0.048139 | 0.073115 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053474 | 0.222485 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070659 | 0 | 0 | 0.075675 | 0 | 0 | 0.109697 | 0 | 0 | 0.080077 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06297 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072498 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0462 | 0 | 0.071207 | 0 | 0 | 0.061588 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065653 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178968 | 0 | 0 | 0.294057 | 0 | 0.055519 | 0 | 0.080729 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060293 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11593 | 0.063033 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.047911 | 0.092419 | 0 | 0.057253 | 0.126156 | 0 | 0.136717 | 0 | 0 | 0.097926 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079427 | 0 | 0.12761 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073493 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.046441 |
suicidewatch | Daydrian | 2018/12/16 | At the End of the Rope (Pun Intended) First of all, I'm not really sure about the purpose of this sub. It seems like a whole bunch of people saying they want to kill themselves with the same "You have so much to live for" responses, but forgive the digression.
I've had nothing to live for for quite a while now and fl... | 3.610522 | 5.708214 | 4.286304 | 84.814674 | 74.130435 | 8.078261 | 27.152174 | 8.841846 | 2.17293 | 471 | 18 | 91 | 10 | 10 | 150 | 80 | 115 | 0.106 | 0.773 | 0.121 | -0.0488 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 18 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 4 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 7 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 20 | 13 | 9 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 5 | 4 | 21 | 11 | 6 | 14 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 12 | 65 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159414 | 0.207582 | 0.232797 | 0.130284 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165034 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123557 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.215507 | 0.169688 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172184 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.325924 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.196622 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190287 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.211961 | 0 | 0 | 0.156167 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093599 | 0 | 0.338346 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140837 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183831 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132821 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.203774 | 0 | 0 | 0.122734 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152356 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174412 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180567 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111715 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113002 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.213898 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.232797 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Many_Bad | 2018/12/16 | didn’t think today would be the last day I’m alive I don’t know what it’s liked to be loved. I don’t know what it’s like to have a friend call and tell me about their day and ask about mine. I don’t know what it’s like to have proud parents since I have never succeeded in anything I try. I don’t know what it’s like to ... | 1.361761 | 3.372853 | 2.826225 | 93.027904 | 80.787942 | 6.089459 | 20.421153 | 7.211369 | 0.349167 | 1,805 | 49 | 408 | 24 | 47 | 588 | 211 | 481 | 0.055 | 0.774 | 0.171 | 0.992 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 46 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 15 | 27 | 1 | 0 | 32 | 0 | 57 | 7 | 1 | 4 | 5 | 63 | 89 | 12 | 2 | 8 | 7 | 1 | 4 | 7 | 8 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 27 | 19 | 1 | 2 | 16 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 25 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 15 | 5 | 49 | 24 | 60 | 62 | 6 | 66 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 48 | 25 | 0 | 4 | 43 | 258 | 76 | 1 | 0.070317 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075148 | 0.070412 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058509 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069736 | 0 | 0 | 0.057865 | 0 | 0.065737 | 0 | 0.066065 | 0.054069 | 0 | 0.042865 | 0 | 0.059835 | 0 | 0.073793 | 0 | 0.076768 | 0.078106 | 0 | 0 | 0.071802 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060572 | 0.073726 | 0 | 0 | 0.056142 | 0 | 0 | 0.181395 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12456 | 0.072656 | 0 | 0.046444 | 0.063606 | 0.059245 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071109 | 0 | 0.067515 | 0 | 0 | 0.059812 | 0 | 0 | 0.380287 | 0 | 0 | 0.067455 | 0 | 0.058979 | 0.056239 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.23566 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077795 | 0.073224 | 0.309155 | 0.057318 | 0 | 0 | 0.152799 | 0 | 0.099334 | 0.240473 | 0 | 0.186274 | 0.062228 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126928 | 0.133071 | 0.046937 | 0.07129 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052139 | 0.216931 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068896 | 0 | 0 | 0.073786 | 0 | 0 | 0.106959 | 0 | 0 | 0.078079 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061398 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070688 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.045047 | 0 | 0.06943 | 0 | 0 | 0.06005 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064014 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174501 | 0 | 0 | 0.286717 | 0 | 0.054133 | 0 | 0.078714 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058788 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056518 | 0.06146 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.046716 | 0.135169 | 0 | 0.055824 | 0.123007 | 0 | 0.199957 | 0 | 0 | 0.095481 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077444 | 0 | 0.124424 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071659 | 0.049951 | 0 | 0 | 0.045282 |
suicidewatch | Theminimalist_H | 2018/12/16 | I lost all hope. I guess I could tell you my life story, but then again, it´s probably similar to everyone´s here. I just see no hope of ever changing my situation. And even if I did manage to change it, somehow, I´m just not sure that would make me happy.
I´m seriously considering not starting next year. Sorry for po... | 3.412312 | 5.898514 | 4.807742 | 78.99828 | 76.258065 | 8.004301 | 26.462366 | 8.841846 | 2.338378 | 259 | 10 | 47 | 6 | 6 | 86 | 52 | 62 | 0.148 | 0.698 | 0.154 | 0.5357 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 17 | 10 | 4 | 0 | 5 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 9 | 4 | 4 | 6 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 6 | 34 | 12 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.4298 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162195 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134175 | 0.183756 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.223787 | 0 | 0 | 0.216251 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.403537 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143487 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.221757 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135601 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.216047 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194557 | 0 | 0.219024 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16188 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.228343 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.227404 | 0.143787 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191462 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177557 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144308 | 0 | 0 | 0.130819 |
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