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suicidewatch | NLEloise | 2018/12/16 | I am lost Sorry this is ny first reddit post and if the format is horrible. I stumbled upon this while looking for ways to suicide. I genuinely believe that I am destructive as a human being. It seems like i ruin everything im associated with and the world is better off without me. I would say im more of logical than... | 4.36285 | 5.613744 | 5.628719 | 79.388557 | 70.597938 | 8.635641 | 29.32106 | 9.042354 | 2.482791 | 777 | 30 | 146 | 15 | 14 | 260 | 118 | 194 | 0.226 | 0.654 | 0.12 | -0.9712 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 7 | 17 | 3 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 15 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 37 | 28 | 23 | 2 | 6 | 7 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 20 | 7 | 21 | 20 | 2 | 19 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 9 | 7 | 0 | 4 | 13 | 104 | 32 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083852 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087549 | 0 | 0.231608 | 0 | 0.236271 | 0 | 0.092736 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167436 | 0 | 0 | 0.202868 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.235895 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069256 | 0 | 0 | 0.100193 | 0.094237 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053018 | 0.074908 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089189 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109565 | 0.100586 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092723 | 0.11162 | 0.093929 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070282 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.339784 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116006 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118281 | 0.111026 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15368 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088052 | 0 | 0.114461 | 0 | 0.094636 | 0 | 0.139983 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102735 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100422 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134345 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083385 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190912 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080722 | 0.103704 | 0.117376 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114694 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084278 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067187 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.432581 | 0 | 0.083229 | 0.084108 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101076 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.213712 | 0.148972 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | lifekindofsuxxx | 2018/12/16 | What a week.. I was detained by police for trying to kill myself in front of the public and treated like a criminal, found out I have an unwanted pregnancy and now due to under-go a medical abortion for $2k, lost my best (and only) friend of one year and my partners grandfather passed away. I hate life. 'When it rains,... | 2.274972 | 4.150648 | 3.741122 | 88.228603 | 77.316832 | 6.865127 | 23.10341 | 7.793538 | 1.101752 | 388 | 12 | 80 | 6 | 9 | 128 | 78 | 101 | 0.231 | 0.661 | 0.108 | -0.9364 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 6 | 9 | 4 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 15 | 13 | 8 | 2 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 11 | 4 | 12 | 7 | 1 | 16 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 4 | 2 | 1 | 8 | 53 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197058 | 0.161277 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.22011 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.22976 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.229969 | 0.162045 | 0.387803 | 0 | 0 | 0.1192 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.207075 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.232047 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148146 | 0.102469 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.228956 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.211291 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142125 | 0.159517 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166794 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1424 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168241 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.378516 | 0 | 0.241191 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148994 | 0 | 0 | 0.135066 |
suicidewatch | Makuta001 | 2018/12/16 | My Dad only finds the worst things about me, and points them out daily. I want to disappear, either run away or die. I am 20 years old, stuck in my parents home. I
Have a job, but no car. I have money, but I always owe my parents something, so my bank account is constantly drained. I can’t find work that could help me ... | 2.408276 | 3.66355 | 3.635535 | 91.770349 | 75.424581 | 6.455068 | 23.400239 | 6.86897 | 0.566123 | 663 | 19 | 149 | 6 | 14 | 216 | 104 | 179 | 0.18 | 0.709 | 0.11 | -0.93 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 24 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 4 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 14 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 36 | 24 | 14 | 2 | 7 | 8 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 9 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 5 | 5 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 28 | 5 | 19 | 19 | 7 | 21 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 17 | 8 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 102 | 37 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098581 | 0.205145 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101443 | 0 | 0.115243 | 0 | 0.115819 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.218049 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106188 | 0 | 0.133214 | 0 | 0.29527 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.255875 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126151 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109183 | 0.127374 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11079 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.338007 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138937 | 0 | 0.082627 | 0 | 0.123653 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122329 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130528 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108852 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123844 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095075 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129354 | 0 | 0 | 0.093754 | 0 | 0 | 0.410639 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.233065 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117955 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098031 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094901 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081897 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143763 | 0.141684 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083694 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135767 | 0 | 0.145419 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111234 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089744 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079384 |
suicidewatch | cartman101 | 2018/12/16 | It's been a month since she left me. She was the girl i was going to marry, I didn't need to think about it anymore. But now I've lost her, she'll barely talk to me. She's my bestfriend, but I can't talk to her about the fact that she's partially why I feel like this. I've lost my confidant, my best friend and my lover... | 1.132917 | 1.824647 | 2.7375 | 99.184167 | 77.75 | 6.333333 | 18.333333 | 6.427356 | -0.497292 | 270 | 4 | 73 | 2 | 6 | 89 | 49 | 80 | 0.133 | 0.642 | 0.225 | 0.8793 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 13 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 18 | 4 | 7 | 6 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 44 | 22 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.234959 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.248631 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119793 | 0.169254 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183042 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134646 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.257412 | 0 | 0 | 0.115746 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.517249 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189106 | 0 | 0 | 0.175672 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.252098 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.195981 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198074 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.380852 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151808 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139741 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.213782 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Little_Indigo | 2018/12/16 | LDR Boyfriend is Suicidal but Won’t Say Anything To Me Hi Reddit,
He and I have been dating for quite awhile now, but only recently did I discover he was severely depressed. He’s usually so chirpy and lively and optimistic and he vanished a week ago, and I only found out that he’d attempted suicide last week four days... | 6.281565 | 6.787112 | 6.834422 | 75.154626 | 65.870748 | 10.614966 | 34.020408 | 10.504224 | 3.644131 | 1,220 | 52 | 223 | 30 | 18 | 400 | 169 | 294 | 0.098 | 0.745 | 0.157 | 0.9584 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 29 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 7 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 14 | 5 | 2 | 2 | 3 | 46 | 32 | 26 | 3 | 2 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 26 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 1 | 36 | 4 | 34 | 22 | 2 | 31 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 55 | 9 | 0 | 3 | 19 | 128 | 42 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101523 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184441 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072743 | 0 | 0.085612 | 0 | 0.097258 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063419 | 0.114898 | 0.088526 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.212462 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067094 | 0 | 0.089605 | 0 | 0.107972 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106453 | 0.086908 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068714 | 0.094105 | 0 | 0 | 0.0935 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113965 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114069 | 0.080377 | 0 | 0.163061 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069732 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114349 | 0.084802 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073483 | 0 | 0 | 0.091865 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093895 | 0.09844 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113324 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07714 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.237369 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072125 | 0 | 0 | 0.228398 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116543 | 0.110654 | 0 | 0.118414 | 0.066647 | 0 | 0.102722 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082733 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11753 | 0 | 0.086059 | 0 | 0.10411 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.227594 | 0.118057 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.250857 | 0.272793 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066661 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098613 | 0.09941 | 0 | 0.353164 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.229159 | 0.08584 | 0 | 0.082578 | 0.166901 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093875 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | throwaway842617 | 2018/12/16 | I’m alone and pathetic. I’m 25 and super introverted. I don’t really know how to hold a conversation. I’ve basically lost all of my friends from self isolation. My mother passed away five years ago from cancer and my father has shut me out. I don’t have a job and no one wants to hire me. I’m pretty much surviving on a ... | 2.927844 | 4.965677 | 4.831551 | 80.410781 | 75.930693 | 8.449285 | 25.743674 | 9.150863 | 2.264491 | 1,206 | 44 | 235 | 30 | 27 | 412 | 168 | 303 | 0.205 | 0.684 | 0.11 | -0.9868 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 34 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 6 | 14 | 16 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 25 | 7 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 38 | 45 | 21 | 2 | 2 | 6 | 5 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 17 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 11 | 7 | 0 | 4 | 7 | 3 | 33 | 9 | 35 | 35 | 8 | 30 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 14 | 15 | 0 | 2 | 14 | 153 | 43 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108155 | 0 | 0 | 0.126366 | 0 | 0 | 0.101523 | 0 | 0 | 0.082971 | 0 | 0.093338 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100404 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114633 | 0 | 0 | 0.148753 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153668 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105101 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135002 | 0 | 0.078687 | 0 | 0.105088 | 0.123838 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119524 | 0.141494 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108065 | 0 | 0 | 0.080587 | 0 | 0.102799 | 0.233173 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061692 | 0.087164 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094265 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097583 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121077 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134108 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08618 | 0.119216 | 0.122287 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133189 | 0 | 0.110119 | 0.115449 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122913 | 0 | 0 | 0.123196 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179384 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117072 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165355 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084587 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.248257 | 0.131548 | 0 | 0 | 0.122654 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.234489 | 0 | 0.120471 | 0.130994 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127284 | 0.137837 | 0 | 0.100928 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136581 | 0 | 0 | 0.097438 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.26692 | 0 | 0.114994 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081058 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.213436 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082837 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071965 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133399 | 0 | 0.157142 |
suicidewatch | ohnicky | 2018/12/16 | I feel so alone. The past two weeks have been awful for me emotionally. I feel like I’m on a continuous downward spiral. I’ve been pushing everyone away lately because I know my negativity will effect everyone and slow down their progression in life.
I’ve always been so angry and bitter. But now, on top of all of it,... | 1.809424 | 3.164374 | 4.49287 | 84.605921 | 77.187135 | 6.990977 | 22.155806 | 7.709487 | 0.893486 | 622 | 17 | 135 | 9 | 14 | 222 | 95 | 171 | 0.188 | 0.661 | 0.151 | -0.8624 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 19 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 10 | 11 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 11 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 27 | 28 | 12 | 1 | 6 | 6 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 4 | 24 | 6 | 20 | 22 | 2 | 23 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 11 | 0 | 2 | 12 | 87 | 28 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154652 | 0 | 0 | 0.248495 | 0.16179 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148087 | 0.208818 | 0.152997 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140292 | 0 | 0.124677 | 0.091025 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156704 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124739 | 0.167966 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13507 | 0 | 0.285366 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.226504 | 0.106675 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115365 | 0 | 0 | 0.143243 | 0 | 0.125244 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132724 | 0 | 0 | 0.164126 | 0 | 0.168441 | 0 | 0 | 0.152691 | 0.21094 | 0.072951 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174883 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.22144 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142544 | 0 | 0.130382 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12752 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119248 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163333 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120019 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095679 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101379 | 0 | 0.145865 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176147 | 0 | 0.239553 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108708 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | deepblackseadiver | 2018/12/16 | I fantasize about ways to make my family hate me so I can follow through I’ve been suicidal for years, and recently it’s taken over my mind much more aggressively than ever before. I left school, quit my job, and have been living with my parents for about a month. I’ve been trying to get better; new meds, therapy, all ... | 2.8575 | 4.015635 | 4.049198 | 89.631533 | 74.141509 | 7.564151 | 21.268868 | 8.076483 | 0.745589 | 795 | 17 | 177 | 12 | 16 | 260 | 129 | 212 | 0.167 | 0.77 | 0.063 | -0.9719 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 21 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 16 | 12 | 4 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 16 | 3 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 31 | 36 | 18 | 4 | 9 | 6 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 1 | 26 | 4 | 24 | 25 | 11 | 23 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 6 | 0 | 5 | 11 | 113 | 32 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118259 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075852 | 0.111151 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066128 | 0 | 0.092309 | 0 | 0 | 0.095942 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110603 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069961 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.22517 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125802 | 0 | 0.090621 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098126 | 0.182798 | 0.103657 | 0 | 0 | 0.204531 | 0 | 0.054851 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083811 | 0 | 0.056676 | 0.104064 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.214203 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107745 | 0 | 0 | 0.34839 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10765 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117864 | 0 | 0.076623 | 0 | 0 | 0.19158 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.217234 | 0.109982 | 0.108983 | 0 | 0.120497 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109534 | 0 | 0.086588 | 0 | 0.239236 | 0 | 0 | 0.104771 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082504 | 0 | 0 | 0.120454 | 0.117473 | 0.103556 | 0.150413 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115382 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111536 | 0.107111 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109788 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115625 | 0.086632 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11866 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124056 | 0 | 0 | 0.06951 | 0 | 0 | 0.063256 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073651 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191953 | 0.258319 | 0.087016 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124747 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069858 |
suicidewatch | PlsHelp90210 | 2018/12/16 | The only reason I haven't is because I don't want to upset my family Uni student struggling with work load and part time work to get though degree. | 4.753 | 5.55012 | 5.6 | 81.63 | 69.333333 | 7.333333 | 25 | 7.168622 | 1.177 | 119 | 3 | 22 | 1 | 2 | 39 | 26 | 30 | 0.138 | 0.788 | 0.075 | -0.2115 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 13 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.200893 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.310674 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172178 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.250641 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.356875 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.338836 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.344521 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.323785 | 0 | 0.192166 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194379 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.479838 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | SuchAd3 | 2018/12/16 | my friends dont believe me my dad is never around, as he is a truck driver, and my mom constantly has a bias towards my brother, so he can hit me all he wants. he beats me daily and my friends have stated on multiple occasions that they dont believe me about my situation and that im just making it up for attention. i t... | 3.565153 | 4.022378 | 5.152081 | 85.003269 | 71.831325 | 8.446002 | 27.741512 | 8.57599 | 1.795308 | 615 | 21 | 135 | 10 | 11 | 209 | 96 | 166 | 0.13 | 0.804 | 0.065 | -0.924 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 7 | 8 | 2 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 21 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 23 | 29 | 13 | 1 | 4 | 3 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 5 | 28 | 5 | 18 | 17 | 3 | 17 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 21 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 99 | 34 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113221 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077531 | 0 | 0.108225 | 0.286587 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.274883 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130154 | 0.298119 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131416 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139452 | 0.196525 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072282 | 0.106677 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.270781 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137381 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140711 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084897 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.446872 | 0 | 0 | 0.093495 | 0 | 0.196186 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19346 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132881 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130767 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120982 | 0.101142 | 0 | 0.257436 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142961 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106332 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145447 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08635 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075017 | 0 | 0.10202 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090348 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | FilthyFergus | 2018/12/16 | Need help deciding Does anyone have any suggestions for an easy way to kill myself | 7.422 | 8.882035 | 6.78 | 73.17 | 63.666667 | 11.333333 | 28.333333 | 11.208143 | 3.544333 | 68 | 2 | 11 | 2 | 1 | 21 | 15 | 15 | 0.211 | 0.538 | 0.251 | -0.0258 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.318096 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.327072 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.409344 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.313533 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.517512 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.346841 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.37129 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | hunchobeen | 2018/12/16 | Who wanna go out with me Can’t get myself to do it alone | -3.127143 | -1.548027 | 0.625714 | 103.044286 | 100.428571 | 2.8 | 7 | 3.1291 | -2.507457 | 44 | 0 | 12 | 0 | 2 | 16 | 14 | 14 | 0.143 | 0.857 | 0 | -0.25 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.801778 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.404457 | 0 | 0.439963 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | atqrlrln | 2018/12/16 | I tried killing myself with pills today but ended up puking after only a few. I can't swallow pills well, so I ended up chewing them. I got through maybe 10. The taste made me gag and heave. I thought it'd be a cleaner way of doing it, but I just ended up making a mess with the vomit.
I just don't have many people to ... | 2.873448 | 3.44781 | 4.387759 | 89.430603 | 73.482759 | 6.903448 | 24.844828 | 6.742158 | 0.741262 | 525 | 15 | 119 | 4 | 10 | 176 | 90 | 145 | 0.165 | 0.761 | 0.073 | -0.9263 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 8 | 7 | 2 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 13 | 6 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 15 | 22 | 7 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 6 | 3 | 17 | 4 | 21 | 12 | 2 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 6 | 1 | 1 | 8 | 85 | 27 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174698 | 0 | 0.174434 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.454595 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145526 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089385 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136833 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192827 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189281 | 0.17816 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161886 | 0.114201 | 0.346909 | 0.171879 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115932 | 0.130119 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11861 | 0 | 0.178749 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.327706 | 0 | 0.18446 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144961 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137513 | 0.149537 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135823 | 0 | 0 | 0.16217 | 0 | 0 | 0.116156 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100911 | 0.1358 | 0 | 0 | 0.153827 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | jamesabelli003 | 2018/12/16 | I want to die. Sleep forever. I lost my job last month due to the company not having enough orders for workers to do. Haven’t been able to find a job till yesterday. I start Monday. I have a car insurance coming out of my bank of $200 and I don’t even have that. When it tries to get money and it get sent back to nothin... | 0.334529 | 2.555481 | 2.595006 | 91.819755 | 86.729469 | 5.962077 | 18.769928 | 7.333567 | 0.444201 | 767 | 21 | 168 | 13 | 24 | 260 | 118 | 207 | 0.093 | 0.851 | 0.056 | -0.8056 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 21 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 11 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 21 | 3 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 24 | 39 | 14 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 6 | 6 | 10 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 22 | 2 | 24 | 31 | 3 | 32 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 16 | 105 | 27 | 6 | 0.236342 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.23095 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130404 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08036 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.220948 | 0 | 0 | 0.090866 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.203587 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07621 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122643 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122102 | 0 | 0.234152 | 0 | 0 | 0.112917 | 0 | 0 | 0.111401 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108006 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091299 | 0 | 0.185218 | 0 | 0 | 0.099116 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.469065 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096325 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.257995 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094323 | 0 | 0 | 0.087622 | 0.091141 | 0.22826 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113388 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080076 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127408 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151407 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.236512 | 0 | 0 | 0.090974 | 0 | 0 | 0.083642 | 0 | 0.094371 | 0 | 0.135364 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116102 | 0 | 0.068906 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08023 | 0 | 0 | 0.12302 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1394 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | ooliiviiaa | 2018/12/16 | I still want to die. In late February of this year, I tried to kill myself for the very first time. I had contemplated the idea for years - beginning at the age of twelve or so - and had finally made the decision to take my own life. It wasn’t easy and I had to convince myself that my goal , in fact, was not to die bu... | 5.01744 | 6.363537 | 5.696984 | 79.153571 | 69.138889 | 8.933333 | 30.865079 | 9.299571 | 2.754808 | 2,081 | 85 | 387 | 42 | 36 | 676 | 254 | 504 | 0.135 | 0.786 | 0.08 | -0.9877 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 53 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 15 | 21 | 4 | 0 | 42 | 0 | 33 | 14 | 4 | 8 | 3 | 63 | 55 | 25 | 4 | 7 | 5 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 21 | 18 | 5 | 0 | 15 | 1 | 1 | 11 | 9 | 11 | 0 | 7 | 27 | 9 | 51 | 10 | 75 | 23 | 17 | 73 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 15 | 29 | 1 | 9 | 30 | 274 | 72 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066866 | 0 | 0 | 0.054648 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079696 | 0 | 0 | 0.06613 | 0 | 0.075126 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.205142 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082057 | 0 | 0.081933 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103651 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166802 | 0.083959 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093192 | 0.082229 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106154 | 0 | 0.067707 | 0 | 0.072223 | 0 | 0.151513 | 0 | 0.121898 | 0 | 0.077158 | 0.176061 | 0 | 0.136709 | 0 | 0 | 0.062086 | 0 | 0.041985 | 0 | 0.045671 | 0.067402 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095227 | 0 | 0.084905 | 0 | 0 | 0.158277 | 0 | 0 | 0.090717 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177813 | 0.083683 | 0 | 0 | 0.09065 | 0 | 0.087312 | 0 | 0.056761 | 0.03926 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068319 | 0 | 0.152077 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064143 | 0 | 0.236296 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075413 | 0 | 0.077108 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108908 | 0 | 0.085509 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076894 | 0 | 0 | 0.090022 | 0.085473 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.36413 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090784 | 0.082489 | 0.066475 | 0.090328 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.238435 | 0 | 0 | 0.085653 | 0.064176 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091192 | 0 | 0 | 0.120842 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053388 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.281152 | 0 | 0 | 0.076788 | 0.089283 | 0.218237 | 0.087409 | 0.0785 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066306 | 0.094797 | 0.127572 | 0.06446 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09241 | 0.077464 | 0 | 0.058503 | 0 | 0 | 0.114171 | 0 | 0 | 0.103499 |
suicidewatch | emmittelliott18 | 2018/12/16 | I want to just give in The other day I almost gave in, I'm only getting worse as the days go by. My psychiatrist discharged me from his care because he thought I'm at a good point with my meds but that's because he never listened to me. I want to give up but I don't want to actually take my life but I want it to end. I... | 1.745238 | 2.8041 | 3.715397 | 91.325 | 76.777778 | 6.031746 | 23.968254 | 6.182691 | 0.420825 | 320 | 10 | 75 | 2 | 7 | 109 | 57 | 90 | 0.024 | 0.823 | 0.154 | 0.802 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 13 | 19 | 5 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 13 | 2 | 15 | 17 | 2 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 46 | 16 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0.187771 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192678 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.234591 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.196182 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.248186 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170424 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.20106 | 0.369167 | 0.109355 | 0.16139 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13591 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.213732 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148404 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146342 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.363792 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144673 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152757 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.45397 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.196089 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | hjohn184 | 2018/12/16 | Holiday theme? Been trying to think of the best way to go out around this time of year. Recently just bought a firearm, but it's a rifle and I think I'm too pussy to swallow a muzzle. Maybe I could just give it to Macaulay Culkin and have him wait for me on the other side of the pet door | 1.862742 | 3.151294 | 2.758903 | 97.368355 | 76.903226 | 6.250323 | 20.464516 | 6.742158 | -0.032365 | 225 | 5 | 55 | 2 | 5 | 71 | 47 | 62 | 0 | 0.923 | 0.077 | 0.5346 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 10 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 11 | 7 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 35 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.292752 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.345115 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.262565 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.315469 | 0.186897 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.330381 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.324706 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.421436 | 0 | 0 | 0.191759 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.223272 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.261031 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.211773 |
suicidewatch | lurawylan | 2018/12/16 | whats the protocol for a students suicide i am curious how the news if/when i kill myself will/would be released. how do schools address. just like to imagine people in my year reaction to me being a corpse | 2.649878 | 4.975447 | 4.236768 | 82.943445 | 78.02439 | 7.026829 | 32.20122 | 8.076483 | 2.709044 | 165 | 9 | 30 | 3 | 4 | 55 | 36 | 41 | 0.276 | 0.621 | 0.103 | -0.8779 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 4 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 21 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.490701 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.216687 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.307488 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.448877 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.485151 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.315072 | 0 | 0 | 0.285619 |
suicidewatch | XenderTheReader | 2019/04/29 | I really start to feel like killing myself, and going out with a bang. I really don’t care about othe rpeople’s life at all to be honest, I mean afterlife doesn’t seem that bad regardless of religion and stuff, so why not judt kill myself and try to do some really messed up shitt just to be remembered, just in case the... | 4.522294 | 5.041457 | 5.544125 | 82.822198 | 69.719424 | 9.343245 | 26.955236 | 9.444779 | 2.120261 | 538 | 16 | 111 | 11 | 9 | 178 | 95 | 139 | 0.119 | 0.699 | 0.182 | 0.8632 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 13 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 9 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 24 | 21 | 8 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 5 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 4 | 23 | 19 | 3 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 10 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 67 | 17 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146163 | 0 | 0 | 0.148958 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178479 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088513 | 0.125059 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.335856 | 0.198975 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117335 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.387343 | 0 | 0 | 0.142693 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123646 | 0.085523 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190685 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176755 | 0 | 0.139727 | 0 | 0.128685 | 0.1298 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121361 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175102 | 0 | 0.336433 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198302 | 0.149495 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159363 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134765 | 0 | 0 | 0.123904 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.200395 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.224335 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11885 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157959 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112729 |
suicidewatch | Rrs99 | 2019/04/29 | All I've ever cared about is fucking random girls and I can't even do it. I've basically never cared about anything. I've never had long term goals that I work towards. I've made just about every decision in my life on whim and instinct because I just haven't cared enough.
By most standards my life is fine. I went ... | 3.864065 | 4.997367 | 5.098453 | 83.166438 | 71.663657 | 8.246304 | 26.033366 | 8.660443 | 1.688479 | 1,728 | 54 | 358 | 30 | 32 | 574 | 211 | 443 | 0.119 | 0.769 | 0.112 | -0.8078 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 41 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 18 | 22 | 2 | 1 | 24 | 0 | 37 | 12 | 4 | 1 | 8 | 67 | 65 | 26 | 1 | 9 | 19 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 6 | 23 | 17 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 2 | 3 | 2 | 12 | 8 | 0 | 2 | 25 | 5 | 37 | 14 | 52 | 35 | 21 | 61 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 13 | 23 | 1 | 8 | 34 | 233 | 60 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083819 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075617 | 0.078679 | 0 | 0 | 0.064302 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.233436 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145416 | 0 | 0.172922 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099231 | 0.083627 | 0.103231 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096553 | 0 | 0.28922 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099141 | 0.204364 | 0 | 0.075496 | 0 | 0 | 0.121962 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098791 | 0 | 0 | 0.082747 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097702 | 0 | 0.062454 | 0.171063 | 0.079668 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.047811 | 0.067551 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087416 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158619 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126758 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093833 | 0 | 0 | 0.098466 | 0 | 0.231228 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133576 | 0.046196 | 0 | 0 | 0.083679 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089472 | 0 | 0.095865 | 0 | 0.103 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095475 | 0 | 0.075474 | 0 | 0.06951 | 0 | 0.145856 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071914 | 0.100615 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.18053 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101948 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094582 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093363 | 0 | 0 | 0.080751 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191392 | 0.075349 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078218 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080117 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066928 | 0 | 0.075513 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103429 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082646 | 0.087055 | 0 | 0 | 0.062819 | 0.121176 | 0 | 0.075067 | 0.16541 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167316 | 0 | 0.151695 | 0 | 0 | 0.17531 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091149 | 0 | 0.137676 | 0 | 0.192722 | 0.06717 | 0 | 0 | 0.121782 |
suicidewatch | Scandum | 2019/04/29 | Should i kill myself for the well being of the others? My problem is that everyone around me is due to my depression and worst possible look on things just getting sadder and sadder.
I was thinking often about Suicide but could never do it because I don't want that anyone would feel bad just because I died. But now it ... | 4.905357 | 5.239411 | 4.978571 | 87.866429 | 68.821429 | 7.828571 | 24.928571 | 7.44753 | 0.963236 | 436 | 10 | 92 | 4 | 7 | 136 | 74 | 112 | 0.26 | 0.628 | 0.111 | -0.962 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 10 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 26 | 25 | 8 | 3 | 7 | 4 | 2 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 16 | 4 | 10 | 19 | 2 | 10 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 4 | 0 | 3 | 8 | 71 | 27 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.232535 | 0 | 0 | 0.296051 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138838 | 0.202727 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175903 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.265524 | 0 | 0.182652 | 0 | 0 | 0.143218 | 0 | 0.172574 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109827 | 0 | 0 | 0.158889 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.25223 | 0.237583 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17375 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147042 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187411 | 0 | 0.111455 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183966 | 0.173156 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162473 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139634 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123295 | 0.128246 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187457 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159109 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132792 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181885 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11047 | 0.213093 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098077 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149507 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118121 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | MaritimeAbove | 2019/04/29 | Anyone else view their suicide as simply a form of natural selection? For whatever reason it seems my traits just aren't suitable for this existence. I don't plan to pass on my incompatible genes, why not end this perpetual struggle against the inevitable. Anyone else feel similarly? | 7.091531 | 9.743199 | 7.248724 | 64.911454 | 65.938776 | 10.614286 | 36.739796 | 10.686353 | 4.844833 | 233 | 12 | 34 | 7 | 4 | 75 | 43 | 49 | 0.139 | 0.813 | 0.048 | -0.6868 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 7 | 4 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 21 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.361366 | 0.529534 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.431729 | 0 | 0.228871 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130658 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.265684 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.235243 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.270141 | 0 | 0.282654 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.233171 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | AshamedAmphibian | 2019/04/29 | I'm killing myself 10 years from now So, a year ago I attempted suicide. I use the term "attempt" loosely here, considering I was 100% committed to it. The method I chose - and the only one I'm comfortable with - meant I could be stopped. And I was stopped.
I ended up spending 4 months involuntarily committed in a men... | 2.072939 | 3.65039 | 3.817465 | 88.781589 | 77.006757 | 7.303568 | 24.34 | 8.109357 | 1.239276 | 1,105 | 37 | 247 | 19 | 25 | 371 | 149 | 296 | 0.077 | 0.825 | 0.098 | 0.5622 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 45 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 9 | 13 | 15 | 4 | 1 | 15 | 0 | 26 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 45 | 48 | 14 | 3 | 14 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 18 | 11 | 1 | 4 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 6 | 6 | 1 | 3 | 7 | 3 | 35 | 9 | 32 | 30 | 7 | 51 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 15 | 1 | 5 | 34 | 161 | 53 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.233032 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091886 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081921 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139929 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091553 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155226 | 0.090544 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095993 | 0 | 0 | 0.105961 | 0.09608 | 0 | 0 | 0.137347 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07749 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087899 | 0.17407 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086958 | 0 | 0.193896 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.309511 | 0.232646 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088309 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069944 | 0.186271 | 0 | 0 | 0.067585 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091951 | 0.186643 | 0.118759 | 0.133291 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083355 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069829 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098498 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139961 | 0.219784 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095851 | 0 | 0.082589 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116433 | 0.112298 | 0 | 0 | 0.102194 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059494 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075683 | 0 | 0.144606 | 0.155057 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078789 | 0 | 0.079071 | 0 | 0.100769 | 0 | 0 | 0.255179 | 0 | 0 | 0.124498 | 0 | 0 | 0.39501 |
suicidewatch | g_para | 2019/04/29 | I feel shit I feel so shit. I just can’t stand anything it’s all so shit. I was gonna go out with my supposed friends tonight. There were 4 others. They booked an Uber (cab) all to themselves and none of them even worried about how I was getting to the place. Friends are for fucking idiots and this world is so fucking ... | 0.894515 | 3.308201 | 1.237444 | 101.107509 | 86.313433 | 3.35 | 24.79291 | 3.1291 | -0.127237 | 258 | 11 | 57 | 0 | 8 | 77 | 52 | 67 | 0.233 | 0.684 | 0.083 | -0.9036 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 8 | 8 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 6 | 5 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 10 | 13 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 8 | 2 | 7 | 9 | 3 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 38 | 11 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183349 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14716 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.225313 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.344276 | 0.411958 | 0.116406 | 0 | 0.126625 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.232783 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.686116 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.226269 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | parsifalxon | 2019/04/29 | I think I deserve to die Ever since I was little I Hurt people. It's all I've ever done really. Just by the simple fact that I exist somehow. I've tried everything to turn this around but I'm just unable to find a way to escape this curse.
Just a little over 10 years ago my mother moved to Amsterdam where I escaped th... | 2.033692 | 4.046728 | 3.553561 | 88.643192 | 78.579439 | 6.429533 | 22.382243 | 7.461004 | 0.87904 | 1,646 | 50 | 339 | 23 | 40 | 543 | 204 | 428 | 0.247 | 0.636 | 0.117 | -0.9973 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 48 | 1 | 3 | 5 | 2 | 25 | 31 | 12 | 0 | 14 | 0 | 29 | 9 | 1 | 4 | 5 | 77 | 67 | 27 | 4 | 6 | 23 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 25 | 23 | 1 | 1 | 10 | 6 | 1 | 4 | 9 | 20 | 0 | 2 | 12 | 1 | 62 | 11 | 42 | 45 | 8 | 35 | 1 | 5 | 1 | 3 | 19 | 18 | 1 | 8 | 12 | 229 | 87 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060589 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056873 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121693 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05707 | 0.041666 | 0 | 0 | 0.077008 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069688 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054572 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.212811 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069946 | 0 | 0.066958 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070624 | 0 | 0.045145 | 0.123654 | 0 | 0.261247 | 0.061429 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074875 | 0.062471 | 0.058139 | 0 | 0 | 0.052807 | 0.063189 | 0.03571 | 0 | 0.07769 | 0.057329 | 0 | 0.075357 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145521 | 0 | 0.539856 | 0.070147 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.045814 | 0 | 0 | 0.067888 | 0 | 0 | 0.073171 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060753 | 0.07562 | 0 | 0.037564 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144834 | 0.033393 | 0.13701 | 0.060355 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123378 | 0.064675 | 0.045625 | 0 | 0 | 0.074454 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054557 | 0.072646 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066969 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.046316 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.284314 | 0.238724 | 0 | 0 | 0.064613 | 0 | 0.065461 | 0 | 0.073693 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136738 | 0.077798 | 0.043787 | 0.070276 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054467 | 0 | 0.142609 | 0 | 0 | 0.05654 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057913 | 0 | 0 | 0.076513 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.043796 | 0 | 0.108525 | 0.079712 | 0.078559 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139217 | 0.148692 | 0 | 0.142311 | 0 | 0.059033 | 0 | 0 | 0.08063 | 0.054253 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123351 | 0.076311 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.04976 | 0 | 0 | 0.048554 | 0 | 0 | 0.044016 |
suicidewatch | xSals | 2019/04/29 | A friend in me This is against the rules and I’ll probably get banned for this but I wanted to say this:
Hello friends. I’m a person who used to visit r/suicidewatch often and I would contemplate suicide too, because I hated myself and I wanted to see myself suffer.
If you’re in the same boat, feel free to shoot me ... | -0.237507 | 1.701838 | 2.010711 | 97.000603 | 86.425743 | 4.860846 | 16.112511 | 6.112484 | -0.618117 | 356 | 7 | 85 | 3 | 11 | 120 | 63 | 101 | 0.195 | 0.66 | 0.145 | -0.8641 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 11 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 16 | 17 | 6 | 1 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 14 | 4 | 15 | 13 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 13 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 56 | 18 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148583 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123244 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.37663 | 0 | 0.127345 | 0.23382 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.240645 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.247117 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.212827 | 0 | 0.267556 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.262796 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193834 | 0 | 0 | 0.194231 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.266615 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.195911 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.210515 | 0 | 0 | 0.431297 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173148 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | pleasehelpme381 | 2019/04/29 | Posted before. I posted this time under a sock puppet. I've posted before. One person commented and reached out. Thank you to that person.
I'm making plans.
I want to be buried next to my dad. That's my only request. | -0.231105 | 1.803768 | 2.14811 | 89.235189 | 105.511628 | 3.080233 | 12.351744 | 5.148861 | -0.902812 | 169 | 3 | 30 | 1 | 8 | 57 | 32 | 43 | 0 | 0.867 | 0.133 | 0.4939 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 17 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.397278 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155822 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.248264 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158184 | 0.17754 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.407659 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.670708 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.214919 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13612 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137688 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | randomoutsider | 2019/04/29 | i’m so tired. i’m tired of everything, absolutely everything.
i’m tired of being a fuck up.
i’m tired of my narcissistic mother that verbally and emotionally abuses me on the daily and has done this ever since i was very little.
i’m tired of the trauma that fucks with me everyday from when my mom used to physical... | 2.415556 | 3.349227 | 4.194342 | 89.036204 | 74.925926 | 7.539918 | 21.31893 | 7.984001 | 0.686315 | 882 | 19 | 204 | 13 | 18 | 299 | 117 | 243 | 0.31 | 0.668 | 0.022 | -0.9978 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 16 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 11 | 13 | 6 | 0 | 11 | 0 | 20 | 18 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 26 | 40 | 19 | 2 | 4 | 3 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 14 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 1 | 34 | 3 | 33 | 25 | 6 | 24 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 15 | 12 | 4 | 2 | 12 | 131 | 40 | 1 | 0 | 0.225009 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056353 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10571 | 0.038589 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055986 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064541 | 0.065029 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08165 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06478 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052881 | 0.071207 | 0 | 0.065408 | 0 | 0 | 0.057261 | 0.053335 | 0 | 0.113784 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069345 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.234089 | 0.033073 | 0 | 0 | 0.053095 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14007 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068778 | 0 | 0.134137 | 0 | 0.063446 | 0.055897 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.317979 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127588 | 0 | 0 | 0.370696 | 0 | 0 | 0.093069 | 0 | 0.048823 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066425 | 0 | 0.042895 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060429 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.040553 | 0.065086 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064066 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052364 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110658 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.042055 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.654812 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068855 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109346 | 0.069719 | 0.052231 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057121 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089937 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | RockerChik94 | 2019/04/29 | Are there any good places to kill yourself at in Colorado? I’m particularly looking for a high point to jump off of. | 3.364783 | 5.401439 | 4.286304 | 84.814674 | 74.652174 | 6.33913 | 28.891304 | 7.168622 | 1.443452 | 93 | 4 | 19 | 1 | 2 | 30 | 22 | 23 | 0.177 | 0.714 | 0.109 | -0.4215 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 3 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.273182 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.336942 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.424437 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.444441 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.337342 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.419709 | 0 | 0.379753 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | LilGimp223 | 2019/04/29 | I've finally found the courage I finally found the courage to do it. Nothing in my life is going right. My grandpas dying and all my family cares about is the inheritance, my girlfriend of a year dumped me less than a month ago and is already with another guy, I just had to quit my job, I don't have anymore friends. Li... | 5.48009 | 4.837758 | 6.073116 | 83.835748 | 67.661417 | 9.461867 | 32.316085 | 8.841846 | 2.333998 | 481 | 18 | 106 | 7 | 7 | 157 | 78 | 127 | 0.137 | 0.75 | 0.113 | -0.5352 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 8 | 9 | 3 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 11 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 16 | 23 | 8 | 1 | 2 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 12 | 6 | 14 | 18 | 4 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 10 | 4 | 2 | 2 | 9 | 67 | 17 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127228 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158386 | 0.114779 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097604 | 0.150501 | 0 | 0 | 0.142341 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164157 | 0.146336 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092563 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148959 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094798 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135305 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.471682 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.314741 | 0.110889 | 0.132689 | 0.074987 | 0 | 0.24471 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.284229 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161766 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142429 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202755 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129539 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114562 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137718 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099504 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13568 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152659 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122572 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147329 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125449 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136047 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146267 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092427 |
suicidewatch | big_Wang_theory__ | 2019/04/29 | High risk I have this sinking realization that one day, I might just kill myself. I've thought of it many times at almost every obstacle. I powered through somehow, but life will just keep on getting harder and harder. Eventually suicide ideation will turn to plans, will turn to reality. How long can I hold out? | 3.977895 | 6.873566 | 4.262368 | 81.424079 | 76.719298 | 6.607018 | 30.552632 | 7.793538 | 2.334979 | 250 | 12 | 43 | 4 | 6 | 78 | 47 | 57 | 0.203 | 0.797 | 0 | -0.9054 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 12 | 11 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 7 | 6 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 28 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.24783 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159614 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.208525 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129306 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.261492 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.219985 | 0.273816 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174813 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.219025 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.250921 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.262553 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167709 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.270719 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.196483 | 0.144316 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.538406 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | TennoTypewriter | 2019/04/29 | Losing my ability to force myself to do chores. Today I just didn't care. I didnt walk the dogs. I didnt do the laundry. I went casually looking for the rifle my husband keeps in one of the closets. I found a sex toy I thought I lost. So there's that.
I'm just falling apart. Everyone is in the garage happy but the sou... | 1.923943 | 4.14042 | 3.380172 | 88.708031 | 79.957854 | 6.314235 | 24.597849 | 7.468242 | 1.222933 | 1,016 | 38 | 206 | 15 | 26 | 333 | 148 | 261 | 0.154 | 0.686 | 0.16 | -0.0288 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 26 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 16 | 16 | 2 | 0 | 14 | 0 | 20 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 41 | 49 | 20 | 2 | 5 | 12 | 4 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 6 | 9 | 0 | 4 | 10 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 7 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 7 | 31 | 10 | 25 | 35 | 6 | 20 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 1 | 9 | 6 | 0 | 5 | 12 | 129 | 37 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115006 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189024 | 0.102241 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070012 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101576 | 0 | 0.127573 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.351292 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124112 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074069 | 0.118405 | 0.09892 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134604 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095943 | 0 | 0 | 0.237342 | 0 | 0.075857 | 0 | 0 | 0.109744 | 0.10322 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174215 | 0.164098 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125927 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065272 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12226 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.397565 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.204168 | 0.127065 | 0 | 0.189356 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16833 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096445 | 0.128488 | 0.125372 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076663 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17032 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110202 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077825 | 0.087349 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116844 | 0.123828 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130103 | 0 | 0 | 0.091333 | 0 | 0 | 0.091521 | 0.104555 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095005 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088417 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09602 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086353 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091178 | 0 | 0 | 0.108865 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094763 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106467 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081586 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | MrArtless | 2019/04/29 | I need someone to talk to who has been in a really bad relationship and unfortunately i chose the relationship over all the people I actually know. someone? | 4.599881 | 7.698454 | 7.435714 | 58.375952 | 75.785714 | 10.87619 | 30.761905 | 10.504224 | 4.584462 | 127 | 6 | 20 | 5 | 3 | 46 | 22 | 28 | 0.22 | 0.78 | 0 | -0.7346 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 15 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.287506 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.245995 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161915 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.218456 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.204252 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188741 | 0 | 0 | 0.632621 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.49926 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.236804 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | jean_ette | 2019/04/29 | I want to kill myself what should I do I work in EMS I know psych facilities while you’re a baker act don’t help for shit and neither does the emergency room I just want to fucking disappear
Logically I know I shouldn’t kill my self but I’m feeling pretty fucking horrible right now | 1.999713 | 4.353717 | 3.845517 | 84.70954 | 80.551724 | 7.314943 | 25.183908 | 8.3441 | 1.828508 | 229 | 9 | 46 | 5 | 6 | 77 | 43 | 58 | 0.24 | 0.568 | 0.191 | -0.7179 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 5 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 12 | 3 | 2 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 4 | 10 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 26 | 10 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.213368 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123282 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.450814 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163427 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.539499 | 0 | 0.267993 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.248052 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.20822 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.254356 | 0 | 0.250277 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.287622 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177503 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | MildlyUpsetCrusader | 2019/04/29 | I'm leaving with a freind We are going to the mountains with a one person tent and two tanks of Helium. We are going to take overdose levels of extasy and turn on the helium in the tent so we can go out. It's rather painless and won't be a terrible thing to find for anyone. We are going to drive up to the mountains wit... | 2.663667 | 3.735599 | 4.556667 | 86.141667 | 74.5 | 7.666667 | 23.333333 | 8.167269 | 1.191333 | 444 | 12 | 95 | 7 | 9 | 152 | 76 | 120 | 0.053 | 0.887 | 0.06 | -0.0539 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 22 | 19 | 8 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 10 | 1 | 19 | 15 | 1 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 64 | 15 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140273 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.204848 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183357 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.570065 | 0.168265 | 0.160448 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.42484 | 0.217967 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135941 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175167 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128518 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150836 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133278 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.218209 | 0.19597 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118327 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181022 | 0 | 0 | 0.193384 | 0 | 0.146049 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Danban122 | 2019/04/29 | Whats the easiest least painful way to go? No worries, working on a school project.
What is the easiest and least painful way to go? | 1.743333 | 4.304683 | 2.313077 | 93.915256 | 83.615385 | 6.54359 | 35.589744 | 7.793538 | 2.787528 | 104 | 7 | 22 | 2 | 3 | 32 | 18 | 26 | 0.148 | 0.533 | 0.319 | 0.6977 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.343859 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.643807 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.306167 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.480254 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.220239 | 0.307224 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | wyrzucac041018 | 2019/04/29 | Just got fired and I'm just too tired to keep going. I was fired today from a great job as a developer and everything was good except for my boss, with whom I absolutely clashed at every turn. I tried to play the game, I tried to do what he said he wanted but it wasn't enough.
Again. It's never enough. I'm never enou... | 1.111426 | 3.168364 | 3.538766 | 87.340575 | 81.93578 | 6.899416 | 20.918265 | 8.000946 | 0.959873 | 407 | 12 | 89 | 8 | 11 | 141 | 68 | 109 | 0.119 | 0.785 | 0.096 | -0.3559 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 16 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 7 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 20 | 19 | 7 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 6 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 11 | 3 | 13 | 14 | 4 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 56 | 16 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092757 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.471674 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.256407 | 0 | 0.273508 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086478 | 0.127627 | 0.121698 | 0.16776 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150998 | 0.270498 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107477 | 0 | 0 | 0.134362 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153288 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112827 | 0.234714 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144741 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127215 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174011 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174889 | 0.144232 | 0 | 0 | 0.309925 | 0.331018 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089749 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110776 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | adan978 | 2019/04/29 | What should I do? Last Friday I got drunk and high, then when I was going home I started to cry, because I had a problem that affects me so badly.
I started to think that I should disappear from the world, I though that my life had ended, I felt so lonely.
I just kept calm and then I went to sleep, and next day I wa... | 5.271458 | 4.296114 | 5.913214 | 85.915119 | 68.196429 | 8.538095 | 28.488095 | 7.168622 | 1.293745 | 413 | 11 | 94 | 3 | 6 | 135 | 73 | 112 | 0.176 | 0.778 | 0.046 | -0.9075 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 10 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 20 | 23 | 14 | 0 | 7 | 4 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 10 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 4 | 20 | 2 | 6 | 12 | 0 | 17 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 11 | 67 | 30 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153019 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.31953 | 0.116642 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.210184 | 0.123402 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169475 | 0 | 0 | 0.126382 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1935 | 0 | 0.183721 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108746 | 0 | 0.153036 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202167 | 0.191935 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155972 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135153 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127724 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.203498 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183091 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191483 | 0 | 0.162126 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.27087 | 0 | 0.152808 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.334488 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127121 | 0.122606 | 0.187996 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11286 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177379 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194997 | 0.135926 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | notmyself02 | 2019/04/29 | Tired I'm so so so so tired. So fucking tired. I wish there was a way to measure it, to show them just how fucking tired, empty, consumed, done I am.
I feel like shit but I don't want to talk to anyone. I don't want to go whine to the two decent people I know and care about. I hate to feel like a leech, sucking up lo... | 1.277596 | 2.949466 | 3.221061 | 91.754977 | 79.587084 | 6.087314 | 21.089126 | 6.988997 | 0.339575 | 1,861 | 51 | 427 | 21 | 46 | 627 | 220 | 511 | 0.208 | 0.641 | 0.151 | -0.9858 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 65 | 1 | 2 | 6 | 6 | 36 | 36 | 5 | 1 | 24 | 0 | 42 | 16 | 3 | 9 | 5 | 92 | 101 | 34 | 2 | 13 | 20 | 0 | 7 | 9 | 1 | 4 | 10 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 31 | 20 | 0 | 1 | 23 | 3 | 1 | 3 | 23 | 14 | 0 | 4 | 10 | 14 | 57 | 22 | 53 | 84 | 8 | 42 | 0 | 5 | 4 | 3 | 25 | 21 | 4 | 11 | 25 | 281 | 88 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067002 | 0.094481 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06316 | 0 | 0.063476 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119505 | 0.073759 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137766 | 0.138808 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075775 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087143 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069138 | 0 | 0 | 0.078349 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059839 | 0 | 0 | 0.223117 | 0.061113 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063691 | 0 | 0.239126 | 0.193063 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057467 | 0 | 0.074077 | 0.052198 | 0.124918 | 0 | 0.064811 | 0.076793 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074426 | 0 | 0 | 0.07192 | 0 | 0.066703 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.045285 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140709 | 0.222779 | 0.055071 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.04772 | 0.297062 | 0 | 0.059658 | 0 | 0.170203 | 0.075584 | 0 | 0 | 0.060976 | 0 | 0.18039 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136435 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100191 | 0.052107 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064827 | 0 | 0.070894 | 0 | 0.045781 | 0.051383 | 0.07189 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187353 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127734 | 0.15233 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067918 | 0.075684 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115394 | 0.128532 | 0 | 0 | 0.068375 | 0 | 0.061505 | 0 | 0 | 0.06935 | 0 | 0.075941 | 0.06761 | 0 | 0 | 0.052012 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147802 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101595 | 0.108606 | 0.059051 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089769 | 0.173162 | 0 | 0 | 0.078791 | 0.310606 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065997 | 0.070333 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159397 | 0.107254 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077692 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095987 | 0 | 0 | 0.087014 |
suicidewatch | Supern0va1997 | 2019/04/29 | I didn’t. I stood on a ledge by a waterfall in Switzerland. And I nearly jumped. But I didn’t because I was told ‘just step back, that but there needs mopping’ by an attendant. I didn’t step back forwards and I wish I had but at the same time I’m sort of glad I didn’t. | -1.847167 | 0.04659 | 0.58 | 102.778333 | 99.5 | 4 | 16.666667 | 5.822114 | -0.706833 | 207 | 6 | 53 | 2 | 9 | 69 | 38 | 60 | 0 | 0.855 | 0.145 | 0.797 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 11 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 9 | 1 | 7 | 3 | 1 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 37 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.635186 | 0 | 0.251778 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.306255 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.24084 | 0 | 0 | 0.394666 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.474962 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | wanderingnames | 2019/04/29 | So exhausted, I think it’s time. Hi everyone,
I have been having a really hard time since January of this year. I have lost that which is closest to me, my support networks are gone, and I am really struggling.
I have had to delete all my social media apps because going on makes me feel like I am being continuously... | 1.448571 | 3.917207 | 3.415357 | 86.160893 | 84 | 6.357143 | 22.321429 | 7.645422 | 1.137714 | 550 | 19 | 111 | 10 | 16 | 185 | 88 | 140 | 0.107 | 0.742 | 0.15 | 0.7058 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 19 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 10 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 25 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 13 | 36 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 23 | 5 | 10 | 25 | 4 | 16 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 79 | 30 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159947 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094142 | 0 | 0 | 0.173994 | 0.162069 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136783 | 0.159572 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147569 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078087 | 0.110328 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161371 | 0 | 0.087769 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138343 | 0 | 0.158494 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160819 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075449 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168583 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103086 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113527 | 0 | 0.119109 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147425 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.296804 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140591 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12775 | 0 | 0 | 0.157426 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161448 | 0 | 0 | 0.17525 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098955 | 0 | 0.122604 | 0.180104 | 0.177499 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.524253 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.219411 | 0 | 0 | 0.099451 |
suicidewatch | applesbananamustard | 2019/04/29 | I just feel like the world would be better without me I wouldn't actually go through with it but i sure as hell want to | 0.112949 | 2.26935 | 1.859231 | 97.169103 | 87.076923 | 5.005128 | 20.205128 | 6.427356 | -0.077856 | 95 | 3 | 23 | 1 | 3 | 31 | 23 | 26 | 0.203 | 0.54 | 0.257 | -0.3182 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 3 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 16 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.40759 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.3694 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.211189 | 0.298387 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.237374 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.204055 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.393654 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.246355 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.402624 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.296704 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Eek_Istubmytoe | 2019/04/29 | I'm killing myself on friday. I've made up my mind, I feel as if my life has gotten to the lowest point and whenever I try and talk to people they act as if I'm joking so I just laugh it off and pretend I'm okay. I dont have enough confidence to go and tell a counselor or therapist and either way they wouldn't help muc... | 0.398231 | 2.187773 | 2.498766 | 95.282597 | 82.928571 | 6.215584 | 20.003247 | 7.348243 | 0.334989 | 398 | 11 | 96 | 6 | 11 | 134 | 75 | 112 | 0.198 | 0.715 | 0.087 | -0.9323 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 6 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 7 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 23 | 18 | 14 | 2 | 5 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 12 | 3 | 13 | 11 | 4 | 15 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 7 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 60 | 16 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17312 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194913 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.265224 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.200436 | 0.23383 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114425 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128613 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151685 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.250369 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159844 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.214132 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.2285 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166358 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.216031 | 0.156889 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.213928 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.247537 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181893 | 0.197798 | 0 | 0 | 0.262754 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179658 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153644 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.266957 | 0.179628 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145731 |
suicidewatch | iveyjbdeykj478vu | 2019/04/29 | Why Why do I post here? Is it to try and get help? Or try to be remembered? Does it matter? I think the outcome will be the same no matter what, and the universe doesn’t shit what that might be. You could say I’m nihilistic, but not to an extreme. I’m still human. I can’t help it. I don’t know what to do | -2.143478 | -0.318882 | 0.611145 | 102.97063 | 98.855072 | 3.91942 | 14.146377 | 5.683918 | -1.111465 | 232 | 5 | 61 | 2 | 10 | 79 | 42 | 69 | 0.059 | 0.814 | 0.127 | 0.5514 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 12 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 17 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 4 | 11 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 41 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206589 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.226432 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135185 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.346867 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142201 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.274491 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.247809 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.293111 | 0 | 0 | 0.205767 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.265601 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206637 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165795 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.351346 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.46696 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | 25footfetishgolem | 2019/04/29 | I just can’t go on. Hey. I’ve never spilled my guts like i’m about to do so be gentle. I am a guy and I’m 17. I am so fucking fed up with Life that i don’t know what to do with myself. Every day is just endless suffering. I wake up every day wishing I didn’t. My one and only friend is giving me the cold shoulder for so... | 1.676847 | 3.260754 | 3.274263 | 92.218924 | 78.136691 | 5.784412 | 22.3747 | 6.427356 | 0.336338 | 1,022 | 30 | 228 | 8 | 24 | 338 | 155 | 278 | 0.092 | 0.799 | 0.109 | 0.232 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 22 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 14 | 10 | 4 | 1 | 12 | 0 | 29 | 12 | 3 | 2 | 5 | 37 | 53 | 15 | 1 | 6 | 8 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 13 | 10 | 2 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 9 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 3 | 37 | 3 | 33 | 40 | 8 | 38 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 18 | 11 | 4 | 4 | 20 | 158 | 50 | 2 | 0.122822 | 0 | 0 | 0.133895 | 0 | 0 | 0.108875 | 0.13126 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094443 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138379 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126172 | 0 | 0.105801 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098064 | 0 | 0 | 0.237631 | 0 | 0.105787 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081123 | 0 | 0.31045 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062103 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094892 | 0.340642 | 0.128339 | 0.117822 | 0.209408 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121614 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164651 | 0 | 0 | 0.12199 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125594 | 0.173506 | 0.060005 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143848 | 0.196071 | 0 | 0.090289 | 0 | 0.189456 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083228 | 0.093412 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117248 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12347 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104067 | 0.189109 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140602 | 0.134348 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163196 | 0 | 0 | 0.097507 | 0.071619 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127862 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072444 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.282479 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | throwaway17391932 | 2019/04/29 | I might get kicked out of college again That's right. Again. I suppose the first time they kicked me out only as a formality after I mentally dropped out. Planned to commit suicide but instead I ran away from home to avoid the reaction of my emotionally abusive parents. Took a year off then went to community and transf... | 3.889899 | 5.926305 | 4.955705 | 80.587912 | 73.169184 | 7.870565 | 29.948317 | 8.63404 | 2.482993 | 1,364 | 60 | 252 | 26 | 28 | 447 | 175 | 331 | 0.217 | 0.651 | 0.132 | -0.9878 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 27 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 11 | 18 | 3 | 2 | 15 | 0 | 25 | 7 | 4 | 1 | 3 | 45 | 54 | 21 | 6 | 6 | 7 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 16 | 18 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 6 | 10 | 0 | 4 | 6 | 2 | 36 | 8 | 49 | 36 | 5 | 41 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 14 | 2 | 2 | 16 | 175 | 52 | 10 | 0 | 0.118303 | 0.097437 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099022 | 0 | 0 | 0.082166 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09381 | 0 | 0 | 0.121732 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101801 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109678 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.207251 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112315 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065948 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09767 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109378 | 0.091259 | 0.16986 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156498 | 0 | 0.226982 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066926 | 0 | 0.100155 | 0 | 0.098329 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109747 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102101 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.40124 | 0.108763 | 0 | 0 | 0.201245 | 0.105922 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074035 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0937 | 0 | 0.095806 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067659 | 0.075938 | 0 | 0 | 0.221737 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107652 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191894 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085269 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101051 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102492 | 0.082595 | 0 | 0.099919 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098751 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079738 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.32765 | 0 | 0.094105 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091926 | 0 | 0 | 0.066334 | 0.063978 | 0.196199 | 0 | 0.116443 | 0.11476 | 0 | 0.095408 | 0.110934 | 0 | 0 | 0.097536 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117785 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092559 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064298 |
suicidewatch | identiflier | 2019/04/29 | Coming to peace There is no future, but nothing can happen until I make peace with the present. The time will never be "right", but it has to happen sooner or later. I will go quietly, peacefully. My mind will be clear and still. | 3.017045 | 5.16248 | 3.986364 | 86.074545 | 76.045455 | 6.218182 | 20.090909 | 7.168622 | 0.570336 | 177 | 4 | 33 | 2 | 4 | 57 | 35 | 44 | 0.03 | 0.69 | 0.28 | 0.9371 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 10 | 13 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 4 | 8 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 26 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.28906 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19071 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.593479 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.223993 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.338826 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.258809 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.321984 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.286571 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.267983 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.195671 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Alexandria_Scott | 2019/04/29 | Klonopin makes me suicidal daily It’s impossible to taper. I’ve lost all friends and soon to be homeless. | 2.156333 | 5.044463 | 3.53 | 81.628333 | 91 | 6.666667 | 31.666667 | 7.793538 | 2.964667 | 86 | 5 | 15 | 2 | 3 | 28 | 19 | 20 | 0.273 | 0.602 | 0.124 | -0.5719 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.417128 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.589368 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.36039 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.590567 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Depression-uGatto | 2019/04/29 | I'm scared I might suicide When I'm ok~ish I manage to avoid planning my death and all that sweet stuff and try to improve but when inevitably I start the fell tomy depressed state I start improving on my plans, checking how to make sure I die. Today I finally learnt a knot that I think I'll use to die (I'm a slow lear... | 1.349377 | 3.348758 | 2.980064 | 91.969866 | 80.768953 | 5.692151 | 21.450595 | 6.775459 | 0.345113 | 1,038 | 31 | 230 | 11 | 27 | 342 | 148 | 277 | 0.271 | 0.664 | 0.065 | -0.9965 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 30 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 15 | 14 | 2 | 4 | 14 | 0 | 21 | 3 | 2 | 5 | 4 | 43 | 42 | 20 | 7 | 5 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 17 | 12 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 6 | 10 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 4 | 35 | 4 | 31 | 30 | 5 | 41 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 9 | 0 | 6 | 26 | 154 | 52 | 1 | 0.101034 | 0 | 0.197189 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08956 | 0 | 0.101171 | 0 | 0 | 0.161594 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100198 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089942 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155378 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174041 | 0 | 0.314572 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178972 | 0.104395 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113691 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110678 | 0 | 0.085939 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105572 | 0 | 0.05742 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089344 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067721 | 0 | 0 | 0.100349 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089804 | 0 | 0 | 0.055526 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071363 | 0 | 0 | 0.089215 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067441 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107181 | 0 | 0 | 0.080644 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107598 | 0.068463 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176438 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10388 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101153 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101107 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.214537 | 0 | 0 | 0.084469 | 0 | 0 | 0.231319 | 0.331544 | 0 | 0.095223 | 0 | 0 | 0.081207 | 0 | 0.093018 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064738 | 0 | 0 | 0.176741 | 0 | 0.095768 | 0 | 0 | 0.411572 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087261 | 0 | 0 | 0.119185 | 0.080196 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093659 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071772 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Yuuded | 2019/04/29 | Self mutilation This is more of a question to the people here if you do it ? And why you do it ? | -1.781429 | 0.131931 | 1.749524 | 94.987143 | 97.571429 | 4.704762 | 16.52381 | 6.427356 | -0.35079 | 72 | 2 | 18 | 1 | 3 | 26 | 18 | 21 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 16 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.363471 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.587315 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.54694 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.473082 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | finnae | 2019/04/29 | 5 year anniversary coming up Approximately May 1st will be the 5 year anniversary of my break up with my first/last/only girlfriend back in college.
She was a great girl, cool, street-smart and seriously pretty. Like way out of my league. But back then I was a charming & fun guy with a promising future and a high ... | 4.063265 | 5.388407 | 5.043409 | 83.017325 | 71.405303 | 8.218415 | 27.174825 | 8.693438 | 1.936869 | 2,099 | 72 | 416 | 37 | 39 | 687 | 257 | 528 | 0.14 | 0.676 | 0.184 | 0.9582 | 6 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 57 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 8 | 21 | 44 | 5 | 1 | 22 | 1 | 44 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 73 | 75 | 36 | 0 | 7 | 15 | 1 | 2 | 8 | 2 | 4 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 9 | 18 | 25 | 2 | 2 | 12 | 2 | 1 | 7 | 14 | 17 | 0 | 3 | 16 | 5 | 75 | 27 | 65 | 47 | 11 | 61 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 47 | 21 | 0 | 17 | 39 | 288 | 93 | 4 | 0.082314 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089187 | 0 | 0 | 0.086314 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067738 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.253178 | 0 | 0.25089 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086384 | 0.0728 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083925 | 0 | 0 | 0.070906 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065721 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141794 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072906 | 0.085053 | 0.091802 | 0.108735 | 0.148916 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.041621 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070016 | 0 | 0.090253 | 0.063596 | 0 | 0.129017 | 0 | 0 | 0.138082 | 0 | 0.090752 | 0.090678 | 0.163008 | 0 | 0.087625 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092774 | 0 | 0.055173 | 0.086969 | 0 | 0.081757 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085718 | 0.045238 | 0.134194 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058141 | 0.321716 | 0.0825 | 0.14537 | 0.072845 | 0 | 0 | 0.089856 | 0.069981 | 0.074292 | 0 | 0.054945 | 0.083454 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082923 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087487 | 0.06051 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062604 | 0 | 0 | 0.0914 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071874 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092797 | 0 | 0.083743 | 0.088749 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06546 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085872 | 0 | 0 | 0.068091 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069745 | 0.063369 | 0 | 0 | 0.058262 | 0.087736 | 0.197209 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07758 | 0 | 0.12378 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094133 | 0 | 0.164058 | 0.263718 | 0 | 0.196045 | 0.047998 | 0 | 0 | 0.078655 | 0 | 0.111772 | 0 | 0 | 0.085692 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135836 | 0.048551 | 0.065337 | 0 | 0.100237 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059926 | 0 | 0 | 0.058474 | 0 | 0 | 0.212031 |
suicidewatch | VoidedMyWarranty | 2019/04/29 | Broke tired suicidal Broke, but working 40 hours a week
Tired, but sleeping 12 hours a day
Suicidal but still breathing | 10.825714 | 9.94959 | 8.333333 | 72.72 | 57.095238 | 12.209524 | 44.809524 | 11.208143 | 5.075724 | 97 | 5 | 16 | 2 | 1 | 28 | 14 | 21 | 0.589 | 0.411 | 0 | -0.9559 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155604 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.475218 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.241451 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192684 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.527835 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.554625 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193538 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175652 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | interestingplanet | 2019/04/29 | It feels like a desperate time, it's painful My life seems hopeless and I know it's my own damn fault for not doing well enough. I tried so hard and still things don't work out. At 21 I have fallen behind my peers in so many areas - work, education, friendships, relationships, life skills. I feel bad for my family and ... | 2.259081 | 4.588666 | 3.460902 | 87.966992 | 79.42328 | 6.73027 | 23.703982 | 7.854513 | 1.290846 | 751 | 26 | 151 | 13 | 19 | 243 | 118 | 189 | 0.249 | 0.713 | 0.038 | -0.9879 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 21 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 14 | 17 | 3 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 14 | 10 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 23 | 29 | 13 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 13 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 22 | 4 | 21 | 25 | 3 | 15 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 7 | 1 | 2 | 8 | 95 | 31 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103445 | 0.151047 | 0.273658 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138304 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098918 | 0 | 0 | 0.0799 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109732 | 0.128014 | 0 | 0.08183 | 0 | 0.104384 | 0.236768 | 0 | 0 | 0.116794 | 0.139413 | 0.250574 | 0.088508 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095719 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103915 | 0.099088 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110983 | 0.122318 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122944 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136176 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126688 | 0.350034 | 0.060527 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11723 | 0 | 0.376821 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091075 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13183 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108178 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118548 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133014 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112787 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123981 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138687 | 0.087691 | 0 | 0.09894 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082308 | 0.079385 | 0 | 0 | 0.216727 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084115 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111394 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.18039 | 0.125818 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | ArchonOverlords | 2019/04/29 | Sudden realization about suicidal people You know what really fucking sucks, is that suicidal people actually CARE, they're sensitive, they have feelings and can empathize, the exact sort of people we need in the world, while there are heaps of braindead wastes of space that don't give a shit about anyone, willing to... | 10.8483 | 10.531527 | 9.32 | 63.865 | 56.7 | 12 | 41 | 11.208143 | 4.9368 | 473 | 21 | 67 | 10 | 5 | 145 | 77 | 100 | 0.169 | 0.728 | 0.103 | -0.8694 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 5 | 8 | 5 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 12 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 15 | 21 | 6 | 2 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 3 | 12 | 18 | 1 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 7 | 7 | 5 | 3 | 5 | 50 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176656 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126578 | 0 | 0.14897 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110352 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184569 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189803 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163749 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091533 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.502069 | 0 | 0.173657 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099488 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134229 | 0.139619 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.376504 | 0 | 0.189135 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.231941 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14396 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185821 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153383 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.396028 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128596 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | pussyhandsz | 2019/04/29 | Why is it that the best people kill themselves? The only people I know that have committed suicide have been some of the nicest and kindest humans I’ve had in my life. Is it because they are so critical of themselves, it makes them better ultimately leading to their downfall? My theory... any incite is wanted.. | 3.812632 | 6.667255 | 4.676404 | 78.455658 | 77.070175 | 6.607018 | 27.04386 | 7.793538 | 2.109365 | 248 | 10 | 39 | 4 | 6 | 80 | 44 | 57 | 0.167 | 0.658 | 0.175 | -0.2849 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 7 | 11 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 4 | 9 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 30 | 11 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.214535 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192312 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.331074 | 0.279014 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.349029 | 0 | 0.173378 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.222831 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.210584 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.239935 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.437425 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.345081 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186077 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.284669 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | lunalegopsx | 2019/04/29 | Someone else needs help// DM me I do that want to post this here in case she's still alive and reads it. I just need someone that may possibly know what to do. I've been terrified all day. Please. I don't wanna loose her | -1.155691 | 0.805919 | 0.258697 | 103.671875 | 103.255319 | 4.052128 | 14.385638 | 5.985473 | -0.887594 | 173 | 4 | 42 | 2 | 8 | 54 | 39 | 47 | 0.083 | 0.747 | 0.169 | 0.2874 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 9 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 4 | 7 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 25 | 11 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183773 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.238045 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156605 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.422583 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.312797 | 0 | 0.321246 | 0.27291 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.285034 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.482886 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.227567 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168075 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | yippiyak | 2019/04/29 | Today's The Day I've been praying it would happen by accident for the last decade, but I'm too tired to continue down this road any longer. Haven't felt anything for years, so I can't imagine putting a bullet through my chest will be any different. I've only made it this far because it would hurt my parents, but I don'... | 5.891923 | 4.618267 | 6.084231 | 86.173269 | 67.076923 | 9.338462 | 32.320513 | 8.076483 | 2.025528 | 291 | 10 | 66 | 3 | 4 | 93 | 55 | 78 | 0.179 | 0.798 | 0.023 | -0.9215 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 9 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 14 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 9 | 6 | 1 | 11 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 37 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.456384 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184091 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136369 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.228084 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144272 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.233726 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.214793 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197823 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.239482 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182351 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.211677 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170139 | 0 | 0 | 0.2484 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.224887 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130445 | 0.257118 | 0.212048 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.317829 | 0 | 0 | 0.14406 |
suicidewatch | TheRandomRedditUser | 2019/04/29 | Everytime I talk about suicide with my friends and family they just get pissed at me They always act like I’m just going to do it to hurt them and only seem like the only reason they’d be sad when I’m gone is guilt. I don’t know what to do cuz it’s really pushing me to doing it | 2.892619 | 2.853452 | 4.974722 | 87.44875 | 73.126984 | 8.204762 | 22.099206 | 8.076483 | 0.804273 | 220 | 4 | 52 | 3 | 4 | 77 | 45 | 63 | 0.236 | 0.654 | 0.11 | -0.8807 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 5 | 7 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 9 | 14 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 9 | 3 | 7 | 11 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 33 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.244 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.276442 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.226557 | 0 | 0.153206 | 0 | 0.166656 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.313921 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161158 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.286526 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.446046 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187858 | 0.301501 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.266956 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.320758 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.235696 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | YellowKamel | 2019/04/29 | Does it only continually get worse, never better on its own? My (20M) depression (i am not diagnosed, so take it how you want) is not as bad as the one others have in this sub, but I still have thoughts almost every evening: "I am worthless and a piece of shit and that will never change". I also think that I can never ... | 5.755029 | 5.737223 | 6.013752 | 82.387727 | 66.978723 | 8.751257 | 28.261122 | 8.296473 | 1.748664 | 744 | 21 | 150 | 9 | 11 | 238 | 104 | 188 | 0.167 | 0.735 | 0.097 | -0.9475 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 28 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 14 | 10 | 2 | 2 | 8 | 0 | 26 | 2 | 1 | 5 | 3 | 35 | 39 | 14 | 1 | 10 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 23 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 19 | 2 | 14 | 24 | 5 | 18 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 9 | 1 | 5 | 9 | 118 | 42 | 0 | 0 | 0.13253 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112006 | 0.115848 | 0.123435 | 0.178901 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099575 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093394 | 0.068186 | 0.123535 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098927 | 0.122117 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.236655 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09634 | 0.11353 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097885 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19814 | 0 | 0 | 0.147758 | 0 | 0.094243 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05844 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.236362 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123751 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054647 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149328 | 0 | 0.224746 | 0.121843 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.258808 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075796 | 0.340283 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.232638 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125303 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114817 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189549 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089327 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084101 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143344 | 0 | 0.266401 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197925 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11399 | 0.238375 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Snowjitsuu | 2019/04/29 | I want to die... It'll feel amazing I bet. To drift away from your fears, your problems and your mistakes all at once. Why should I stay alive when no one wants me to? This is surreal, this is agony, I want to die. Slit my throat or something, let me savor the sweet and bitter taste of death and blood upon my dry tongu... | 2.377087 | 4.617705 | 2.747388 | 93.710597 | 78.514563 | 5.673398 | 23.892233 | 6.742158 | 0.662985 | 408 | 14 | 85 | 4 | 10 | 125 | 69 | 103 | 0.314 | 0.576 | 0.111 | -0.9831 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 22 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 10 | 3 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 6 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 19 | 12 | 7 | 5 | 8 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 17 | 2 | 15 | 9 | 1 | 11 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 54 | 21 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170756 | 0.191497 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140294 | 0 | 0 | 0.148067 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.490681 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15059 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17734 | 0.079686 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174357 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161153 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167835 | 0.106792 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150799 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10096 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125327 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121326 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167977 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.329509 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149383 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.464773 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142207 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191497 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Mechagdz | 2019/04/29 | My sister wants to commit suicide with a gun what do I do? Currently I'm at school and she is at home. She just texted me asking where the guns are and found out she wants to shoot herself. She also said she wants to be alone. Any help will be appreciated. | 0.760252 | 3.03781 | 2.326698 | 94.11445 | 85.226415 | 5.042767 | 16.380503 | 6.427356 | -0.465425 | 200 | 4 | 45 | 2 | 6 | 65 | 40 | 53 | 0.181 | 0.688 | 0.131 | -0.4767 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 14 | 3 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 7 | 9 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 31 | 10 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.299444 | 0 | 0.231211 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.196613 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.270291 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.317008 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193793 | 0 | 0.290014 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.275022 | 0 | 0 | 0.292608 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.316253 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.511596 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | JesseIsHere | 2019/04/29 | What happens after death? Hello, I’m pretty young and English is not my main language, so sorry for spelling mistakes.
I’m near to the end of my journey. I lost all hope and faith. I just want to stop existing, go to sleep and never wake up again.
What to you think what comes after death?
Nothing, just dark ?
Heaven... | 1.133065 | 3.711214 | 2.277661 | 92.536492 | 88.032258 | 3.745161 | 20.653226 | 5.148861 | -0.072426 | 246 | 8 | 47 | 1 | 8 | 78 | 47 | 62 | 0.261 | 0.607 | 0.132 | -0.8751 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 14 | 10 | 4 | 2 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 10 | 9 | 2 | 12 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 31 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.258878 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.266178 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170797 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.265756 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.298492 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.328061 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.231785 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.288364 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.305745 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.300745 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.336416 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.251254 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192566 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177259 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | UniquePerson19202 | 2019/04/29 | Feel like I’m just useless and unloved. I’m planning on ending it all for a easy fix. It just seems like I’m seriously unloved
I have no family who love me. I got no friends.
I once had a crush on this girl for around 3 years. I was in a good mood and thought I’ll explain how I feel. She was the nicest person ever to... | 0.702561 | 2.680107 | 2.973616 | 91.269351 | 82.943089 | 6.049821 | 21.628618 | 7.24862 | 0.623378 | 899 | 29 | 203 | 13 | 25 | 307 | 130 | 246 | 0.193 | 0.635 | 0.173 | -0.5328 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 26 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 15 | 21 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 16 | 3 | 1 | 6 | 8 | 45 | 44 | 15 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 12 | 13 | 1 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 8 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 7 | 29 | 11 | 26 | 30 | 4 | 27 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 17 | 14 | 0 | 5 | 15 | 128 | 41 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0.241456 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098935 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094642 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110132 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126327 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135895 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125568 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103348 | 0 | 0.109575 | 0 | 0 | 0.081712 | 0.223814 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116627 | 0 | 0.125108 | 0.088382 | 0.118786 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.286745 | 0 | 0.129272 | 0 | 0 | 0.103766 | 0.098946 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082923 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100844 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.241763 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103889 | 0 | 0 | 0.105178 | 0.111657 | 0.117062 | 0.247742 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.28625 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131752 | 0 | 0.094091 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.343073 | 0.108023 | 0 | 0 | 0.116951 | 0 | 0 | 0.125862 | 0.133386 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079255 | 0 | 0 | 0.132823 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.225251 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104823 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098216 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118215 | 0 | 0.083994 | 0.134566 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079668 |
suicidewatch | freakonature | 2019/04/29 | What is the hospital/inpatient like? Ive never talked about how I feel really, but I know I need help. I'm not sure what to do. I'm sorry if this is the wrong sub by the way. I have a lot of questions. I'm too scared to go to the hospital without knowing what it's like.
Do I just go to a hospital and tell them I'm sui... | -0.954439 | 0.942305 | 2.116251 | 95.283988 | 89.413223 | 6.101771 | 17.733766 | 7.44753 | 0.244962 | 415 | 11 | 103 | 8 | 14 | 147 | 71 | 121 | 0.141 | 0.705 | 0.154 | -0.2966 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 7 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 15 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 20 | 28 | 9 | 1 | 3 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 12 | 6 | 14 | 22 | 1 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 7 | 72 | 20 | 0 | 0.181315 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160359 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185548 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091678 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.309137 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160336 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121532 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.199292 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.265744 | 0 | 0.160105 | 0.160458 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154148 | 0.163644 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134443 | 0.139841 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122864 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.203114 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116155 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181528 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202967 | 0 | 0.193258 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198329 | 0 | 0.170887 | 0 | 0 | 0.291468 | 0.158477 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.287839 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174781 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19824 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | WallsOfFear | 2019/04/29 | I cannot go on like this. I can't.
I wish I could just talk to someone. I wish there was anyone who could tell me what to do. But no one can. I have no friends. My family is a complicated topic on its own. Post on this subreddit went unheard, and there is only so much online people will listen to. I have a therapy ap... | 0.187885 | 2.380677 | 2.226535 | 94.396023 | 87.150685 | 5.353102 | 19.547139 | 6.794906 | 0.177597 | 537 | 16 | 122 | 7 | 17 | 179 | 92 | 146 | 0.118 | 0.806 | 0.075 | 0.016 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 20 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 20 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 21 | 31 | 10 | 2 | 8 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 18 | 4 | 14 | 24 | 3 | 21 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 7 | 0 | 2 | 12 | 89 | 26 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119127 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10416 | 0 | 0.122586 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.315171 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.237873 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.309205 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140431 | 0 | 0.075321 | 0.106421 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11509 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169321 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146701 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081867 | 0 | 0.168039 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.218331 | 0 | 0.131539 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158029 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.219013 | 0.110456 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.201885 | 0.113295 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103274 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142668 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095431 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127215 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126218 | 0.114681 | 0 | 0 | 0.105438 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.239465 | 0.130202 | 0 | 0.170355 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086863 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087864 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138092 | 0.134418 | 0 | 0.342605 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | noodlepleasehelps | 2019/04/29 | Suicide and Nihilism - please help. Hello. I’m in pain. yes
I’m 17 year old guy who has been dealing with some pretty intense suicidal thoughts for the past two years. Me wanting to kill myself has stemmed from me failing to find any purpose to life. I’m quite nihilistic to be fair. The only reason why I’m still aliv... | 1.66287 | 4.122614 | 2.997778 | 89.6 | 82.858025 | 5.698765 | 21.654321 | 7.054809 | 0.692547 | 1,279 | 41 | 257 | 17 | 36 | 414 | 168 | 324 | 0.162 | 0.703 | 0.135 | -0.9469 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 46 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 8 | 18 | 4 | 1 | 18 | 2 | 31 | 12 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 45 | 58 | 17 | 5 | 10 | 8 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 14 | 10 | 3 | 0 | 11 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 9 | 13 | 0 | 4 | 8 | 3 | 29 | 5 | 39 | 41 | 4 | 27 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 17 | 13 | 1 | 7 | 14 | 158 | 43 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095259 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142563 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12123 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062325 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074424 | 0.054336 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091895 | 0.076772 | 0 | 0 | 0.093127 | 0 | 0 | 0.078003 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091208 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0751 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084029 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081468 | 0 | 0 | 0.097732 | 0 | 0.082404 | 0.04657 | 0 | 0.050658 | 0.074762 | 0 | 0.098272 | 0 | 0.088258 | 0 | 0.094886 | 0.079848 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.238982 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190842 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19723 | 0 | 0.048986 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.314794 | 0.043547 | 0 | 0.236124 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059499 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093532 | 0 | 0 | 0.067791 | 0.189692 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08509 | 0.061795 | 0 | 0 | 0.195688 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181365 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099852 | 0.094806 | 0.089159 | 0 | 0.228409 | 0.091646 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076121 | 0.084788 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081145 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09978 | 0.126181 | 0 | 0.071184 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102039 | 0.292499 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.228457 | 0 | 0.070763 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087072 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073546 | 0.157723 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160861 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126638 | 0 | 0 | 0.172201 |
suicidewatch | ctj1700 | 2019/04/29 | My life’s fine now, why the do I feel like this? When I (23f) was in my teens I was diagnosed with BPD I had a terrible relationship with my family, suffered from undiagnosed PTSD and hated myself and my body I had a lot of suicidal thoughts. I understood why then tho I had all these reasons to be sad and upset. But n... | 1.094371 | 3.252501 | 3.230419 | 88.949851 | 82.681592 | 6.813646 | 22.506752 | 7.957252 | 1.211562 | 757 | 26 | 162 | 15 | 21 | 257 | 111 | 201 | 0.162 | 0.685 | 0.153 | -0.6 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 21 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 16 | 17 | 1 | 2 | 7 | 0 | 18 | 4 | 2 | 5 | 3 | 44 | 36 | 20 | 1 | 4 | 8 | 0 | 6 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 13 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 7 | 26 | 9 | 20 | 25 | 6 | 17 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 12 | 112 | 31 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078964 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070784 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.257962 | 0.146247 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117857 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097002 | 0 | 0.102846 | 0 | 0 | 0.15339 | 0 | 0 | 0.110956 | 0.104359 | 0 | 0.218931 | 0 | 0.293564 | 0.165909 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131985 | 0.097394 | 0.09287 | 0.128021 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114643 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122685 | 0 | 0.115331 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115229 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082018 | 0.170188 | 0 | 0.205069 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098719 | 0 | 0 | 0.07751 | 0.117725 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08536 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.222837 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080502 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135736 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.358166 | 0 | 0.124667 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117518 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098386 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092732 | 0.09708 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127014 | 0.131769 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092185 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120883 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068489 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.209557 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.236668 | 0 | 0.126957 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | confortfood | 2019/04/29 | Killing myself because I hate living in American suburbs and American cities are terrible places I am not able to live the life I want and expect because I am white and want to live in a city . The cities in the USA are built and run for black and brown people and whites are violently attacked . I absolutely hate subur... | 8.058333 | 6.910817 | 7.749475 | 75.570139 | 62.703704 | 11.55679 | 36.299383 | 10.686353 | 3.640553 | 333 | 13 | 65 | 7 | 4 | 106 | 48 | 81 | 0.279 | 0.664 | 0.057 | -0.9761 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 7 | 6 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 14 | 14 | 7 | 2 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 8 | 0 | 8 | 14 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 38 | 9 | 1 | 0.196711 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161877 | 0 | 0 | 0.223788 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.239827 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.204155 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.388424 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.217632 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138943 | 0 | 0 | 0.521099 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136375 | 0 | 0.205522 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.464102 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143208 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | amy_alexandria | 2019/04/29 | Feeling non human Does anyone ekse feel like they're so unique that they just don't fit in anywhere. I seem to anger and disappoint everyone I meet. I'm not being loud or obnoxious (it's not in my nature)..
But it's a feeling I've had deeply since about my early teens everyone seems so stuck up and better than me. The... | 2.229003 | 4.730051 | 3.642401 | 85.626055 | 80.747573 | 6.852251 | 22.955869 | 8.000946 | 1.416619 | 415 | 14 | 80 | 8 | 11 | 136 | 71 | 103 | 0.16 | 0.716 | 0.124 | -0.6926 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 6 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 17 | 15 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 11 | 3 | 7 | 12 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 4 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 47 | 16 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.310006 | 0.227137 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.196057 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193993 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185184 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.423648 | 0 | 0 | 0.208979 | 0 | 0.448351 | 0.158368 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171269 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.234726 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108301 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.403617 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183375 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | throwaway731146 | 2019/04/29 | I don’t deserve to live because I’m a pedophile I’m an 18 year old guy who has been trying to deal with an attraction to young girls since I was 13. Women just don't interest me. I wish with all my soul that I could have a brain that's wired normally. I know that I can never act on what I feel, but I need to speak to a... | 4.780833 | 3.683629 | 5.807857 | 86.670476 | 69.238095 | 9.133333 | 30.571429 | 8.167269 | 1.812971 | 602 | 20 | 143 | 7 | 9 | 201 | 92 | 168 | 0.126 | 0.8 | 0.074 | -0.843 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 19 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 31 | 34 | 8 | 1 | 8 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 6 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 9 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 23 | 4 | 21 | 29 | 4 | 12 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 14 | 4 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 95 | 29 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106772 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.372339 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170464 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.243838 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157427 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.201714 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07721 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159559 | 0 | 0.086783 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151197 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135727 | 0 | 0 | 0.251761 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134837 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12982 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113225 | 0.117772 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149614 | 0 | 0 | 0.160233 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146114 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121434 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126315 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16703 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.368205 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.354594 | 0 | 0.195689 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103674 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175598 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108474 | 0 | 0 | 0.098334 |
suicidewatch | noodlepleasehelp | 2019/04/29 | Please help me I’m stuck Hello. I’m in pain.
I’m 17 year old guy who has been dealing with some pretty intense suicidal thoughts for the past two years. Me wanting to kill myself has stemmed from me failing to find any purpose to life. I’m quite nihilistic to be fair. The only reason why I’m still alive would be beca... | 1.487814 | 3.911238 | 2.887495 | 90.341198 | 83.303406 | 5.694152 | 21.046526 | 7.054809 | 0.587539 | 1,264 | 39 | 259 | 17 | 36 | 410 | 165 | 323 | 0.16 | 0.709 | 0.131 | -0.9419 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 44 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 8 | 18 | 4 | 1 | 18 | 1 | 31 | 12 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 44 | 60 | 16 | 4 | 10 | 8 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 14 | 9 | 3 | 0 | 11 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 9 | 13 | 0 | 4 | 9 | 3 | 30 | 5 | 39 | 42 | 4 | 27 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 17 | 13 | 1 | 7 | 14 | 158 | 44 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097606 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146077 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124218 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063862 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076259 | 0.055675 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09416 | 0.078664 | 0 | 0 | 0.095423 | 0 | 0 | 0.079925 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093456 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076951 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0861 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083476 | 0 | 0 | 0.100141 | 0 | 0.084435 | 0.047717 | 0 | 0.051906 | 0.076605 | 0 | 0.100694 | 0 | 0.090433 | 0 | 0.097225 | 0.081816 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.244872 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.195546 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202091 | 0 | 0.050194 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.322553 | 0.04462 | 0 | 0.241944 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060965 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095838 | 0 | 0 | 0.069462 | 0.194368 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087187 | 0.063318 | 0 | 0 | 0.200511 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185836 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102313 | 0.097143 | 0.091357 | 0 | 0.234039 | 0.093905 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077997 | 0.086878 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083145 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102239 | 0.129291 | 0 | 0.072938 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104554 | 0.199805 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.234088 | 0 | 0.072508 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089218 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075359 | 0.16161 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164826 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12976 | 0 | 0 | 0.176445 |
suicidewatch | frockeworks | 2019/04/29 | last night i hurt my parents, i don't deserve to live i voiced out every frustration i had with them and i ended up hurting them when they're just trying their best to be parents. i don't deserve to live. i quit my jobs, halted my dreams and lost all purpose in life. i am a failure. i lost the love of my life due to my... | 1.11475 | 3.142913 | 3.158333 | 90.23 | 81.75 | 5.666667 | 22.5 | 6.816662 | 0.6085 | 447 | 15 | 96 | 5 | 12 | 151 | 76 | 120 | 0.155 | 0.681 | 0.164 | 0.7227 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 2 | 11 | 1 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 8 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 13 | 15 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 22 | 3 | 13 | 10 | 6 | 12 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 2 | 8 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 67 | 26 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166984 | 0 | 0 | 0.158671 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097509 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133915 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127389 | 0.144474 | 0.135885 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.323717 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150039 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123245 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.213588 | 0 | 0 | 0.267018 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.330097 | 0 | 0.272921 | 0 | 0.100925 | 0 | 0 | 0.164697 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111146 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141887 | 0 | 0.290153 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114991 | 0 | 0 | 0.335771 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132019 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160816 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129121 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120484 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100448 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.205304 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120012 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | ensillon | 2019/04/29 | It's not that I can't, I just don't want to It's not that I can't get through this tough patch, I don't want to.
Why would I? Its only gonna get harder from this point on. And even if it does get better for a while it won't last because nothing ever does. So why would I want to? And that statement applies to everythin... | 0.320519 | 1.796202 | 2.441126 | 97.153117 | 81.770563 | 5.265801 | 18.359307 | 5.916635 | -0.465324 | 797 | 17 | 198 | 5 | 21 | 269 | 111 | 231 | 0.057 | 0.83 | 0.112 | 0.7463 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 26 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 12 | 8 | 3 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 27 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 38 | 49 | 16 | 1 | 13 | 9 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 14 | 11 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 15 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 30 | 3 | 28 | 40 | 5 | 24 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 10 | 11 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 132 | 44 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098346 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.218556 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105696 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077074 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.209167 | 0 | 0 | 0.117074 | 0 | 0.122288 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078935 | 0.108103 | 0 | 0 | 0.107407 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.249755 | 0 | 0.13584 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117991 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129091 | 0 | 0 | 0.106226 | 0.13222 | 0 | 0 | 0.097416 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105529 | 0 | 0.100358 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114673 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090892 | 0 | 0 | 0.132701 | 0.258834 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112975 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122876 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10206 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119596 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099915 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079397 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.634408 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.215677 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169792 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | ItBeIBitterfly | 2019/04/29 | Help, need some advice Okay so i'm trans, and when I came out, everything became a nightmare, my family disowned me, I am homeless and my therapist kicked me out.
I have asked around for five years but no one will help me to transition or is taking me seriously.
I know some people might be like don't do it but I m co... | 0.700175 | 2.78174 | 2.537222 | 93.7925 | 83.678363 | 5.671345 | 18.856725 | 6.937598 | 0.116792 | 631 | 16 | 142 | 8 | 18 | 209 | 111 | 171 | 0.076 | 0.782 | 0.143 | 0.8928 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 7 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 16 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 38 | 30 | 20 | 2 | 5 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 14 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 26 | 4 | 16 | 19 | 5 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 4 | 0 | 8 | 7 | 101 | 33 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147358 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134242 | 0.281952 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091925 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172473 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158109 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166855 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.313009 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.267125 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135528 | 0 | 0.284318 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116506 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202154 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134036 | 0 | 0 | 0.082875 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106513 | 0.073672 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128203 | 0 | 0 | 0.100659 | 0 | 0 | 0.164263 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159973 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111815 | 0.116305 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144695 | 0.171685 | 0 | 0 | 0.102185 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104544 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168928 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113381 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175088 | 0.100184 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087932 | 0 | 0 | 0.288188 | 0 | 0.102382 | 0 | 0.147308 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088945 | 0.119697 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107123 | 0 | 0 | 0.097109 |
suicidewatch | TarHeels1998 | 2019/04/29 | I can’t do this anymore.. I can’t.. I’m sitting at work crying my eyes out. I just want to end it all. I’m not happy. I always get hurt. I’m going to do it when I get home | -4.557176 | -3.388007 | 0.252226 | 104.195349 | 108.534884 | 2.457143 | 10.79402 | 3.1291 | -2.058379 | 126 | 2 | 37 | 0 | 7 | 49 | 28 | 43 | 0.239 | 0.729 | 0.033 | -0.848 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 11 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 1 | 4 | 11 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 21 | 9 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.273659 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.326166 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.361265 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.291295 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.343658 | 0 | 0.186913 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.350105 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.329899 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.352079 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193985 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.239432 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | fvck3dup | 2019/04/29 | I’ve lost hope I have no motivation to do anything anymore. I’ve been sitting at my desk for 2 hours thinking of a reason to work but I have none, I think I’m going to die anyway. Well I think I’m going to kill myself, I know I will but I don’t know when so dumbass me is attempting to work when I can’t because I know i... | 2.682516 | 3.19894 | 4.523179 | 88.498429 | 73.88024 | 7.605103 | 24.401979 | 7.742559 | 0.981777 | 1,195 | 33 | 278 | 15 | 23 | 409 | 164 | 334 | 0.207 | 0.689 | 0.104 | -0.9924 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 25 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 22 | 20 | 3 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 30 | 6 | 1 | 4 | 6 | 61 | 70 | 23 | 3 | 5 | 13 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 11 | 14 | 2 | 0 | 16 | 3 | 0 | 7 | 14 | 11 | 1 | 1 | 8 | 6 | 39 | 9 | 41 | 55 | 6 | 48 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 18 | 2 | 6 | 25 | 178 | 50 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083162 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078062 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09304 | 0 | 0 | 0.154404 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144277 | 0 | 0.057189 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.242441 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074904 | 0.103805 | 0 | 0.121007 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097366 | 0 | 0.107521 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191994 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061964 | 0.084862 | 0.079044 | 0 | 0.252946 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142308 | 0.067022 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086731 | 0.147044 | 0 | 0.21327 | 0.078688 | 0 | 0 | 0.206697 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08404 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.18636 | 0.092389 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103793 | 0 | 0.257793 | 0.076472 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132529 | 0.183334 | 0 | 0.165682 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.204822 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062623 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072356 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090019 | 0 | 0.098444 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081916 | 0.196035 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096458 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074606 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09787 | 0 | 0.0963 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095633 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.300566 | 0 | 0 | 0.109409 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063695 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11067 | 0.074466 | 0 | 0 | 0.084351 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136598 | 0 | 0.095606 | 0 | 0.102573 | 0 | 0.120828 |
suicidewatch | CastrosCajones | 2019/04/29 | I am going to do it (for real) next week. All my fears have become true. I have cords and ropes but just need to secure a sturdy hanging point.
Everything I have is about to be lost. I have no hope for the future and my time on this earth is done.
Any tips on quick painless deaths? Hanging seems like a bit of a hassl... | 0.578849 | 2.608935 | 2.05629 | 97.367761 | 83.776119 | 4.425586 | 15.541578 | 5.288315 | -0.944657 | 245 | 4 | 56 | 1 | 7 | 79 | 51 | 67 | 0.103 | 0.698 | 0.2 | 0.8047 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 10 | 15 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 6 | 4 | 9 | 12 | 2 | 11 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 38 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179097 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.290865 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.287526 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.269513 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.236695 | 0 | 0 | 0.296358 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149676 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.26158 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128667 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.287494 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.195281 | 0 | 0 | 0.280091 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.248965 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.299767 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.239757 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15357 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.211255 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | BizarroBuzzman | 2019/04/29 | Academic disqualification from University has me contemplating suicide I’ve been on academic probation for the last two semesters and I thought I would be ok after I somehow was able to survive the last semester but after looking at my potential grades, I am 100% positive that I am going to be disqualified from my univ... | 6.573289 | 5.231371 | 7.772629 | 74.840125 | 65.755853 | 10.916477 | 34.649052 | 10.047579 | 3.165479 | 1,145 | 44 | 240 | 22 | 15 | 395 | 149 | 299 | 0.191 | 0.674 | 0.135 | -0.9598 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 12 | 18 | 3 | 1 | 15 | 1 | 25 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 43 | 52 | 18 | 4 | 5 | 5 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 15 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 6 | 10 | 1 | 3 | 14 | 3 | 40 | 8 | 43 | 33 | 8 | 38 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 2 | 8 | 11 | 1 | 3 | 22 | 174 | 50 | 10 | 0.10944 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168305 | 0.091378 | 0.133427 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096931 | 0 | 0.122054 | 0.072284 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12315 | 0.110672 | 0.156368 | 0 | 0.119886 | 0.100026 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084553 | 0.101175 | 0.114356 | 0 | 0.186591 | 0 | 0.087529 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123544 | 0 | 0 | 0.108602 | 0 | 0.242158 | 0 | 0.120291 | 0.356832 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154601 | 0.106934 | 0 | 0.193275 | 0 | 0.091902 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098774 | 0 | 0.073052 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.25322 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074159 | 0.083234 | 0 | 0 | 0.24304 | 0.237025 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123377 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108059 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110759 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123015 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087399 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119709 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082285 | 0 | 0.095655 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070125 | 0 | 0.173766 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104574 | 0 | 0 | 0.119039 | 0.213814 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173736 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077743 | 0 | 0 | 0.070476 |
suicidewatch | chimychinchin | 2019/04/29 | The light of my life is gone. He betrayed me. Everything has gone wrong. I’m at my breaking point. No one in my life cares. I want to disappear. I don’t what to do. My heart is broken. I have no close friends. There is no one I can tell. What the point of living if there is no one to share it with? I want to today to b... | -2.605 | -0.935265 | 0.0635 | 105.73925 | 103.666667 | 3.566667 | 12.916667 | 5.461319 | -1.414133 | 250 | 5 | 68 | 2 | 12 | 84 | 45 | 75 | 0.241 | 0.634 | 0.126 | -0.875 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 10 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 16 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 11 | 3 | 10 | 13 | 0 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 46 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.229941 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145447 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.20269 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174243 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.267252 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183836 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.318595 | 0 | 0 | 0.199146 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.458472 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.426395 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197122 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.213775 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.266045 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.24658 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | AnEpicFuckUp | 2019/04/29 | I very probably would kill myself in the next few hours if I hadn't entrusted my guns to a family member. I've been thinking all morning, just wishing that I still had my guns. Everything is fucked. | 4.151538 | 5.744186 | 5.213333 | 80.84 | 71.564103 | 9.302564 | 28.384615 | 9.725611 | 2.763215 | 158 | 6 | 30 | 4 | 3 | 52 | 33 | 39 | 0.262 | 0.693 | 0.045 | -0.8766 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 8 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 21 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.276115 | 0 | 0.289625 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.284025 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.302556 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.3399 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.326738 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.331241 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.245351 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.196858 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.253494 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.353295 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.218244 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Alexapro_ | 2019/04/29 | What do we say to the God of Death? Not today.
Yesterday was the day I planned many weeks ago to kill myself.
Instead I watched Game of Thrones with an old friend.
And today I woke up and decided to live. | 0.488571 | 2.79634 | 1.733619 | 97.594714 | 87.095238 | 5.264762 | 22.685714 | 6.742158 | 0.500909 | 158 | 6 | 36 | 2 | 5 | 50 | 34 | 42 | 0.176 | 0.716 | 0.108 | -0.6486 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 3 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 5 | 1 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 22 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.269722 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.196232 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.235082 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.336635 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.268681 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.308487 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.319286 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.241972 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.576835 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.244071 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Ihaspillows | 2019/04/29 | How to help family move on I have decided to commit suicide. I have set a date and a way to do it. I can no longer live like I used to, or come back to a happier place in my life. It is time for me to go.
I still want to make this easier for my friends and family. I do not want them to be hurt, or follow me to the gra... | -1.247895 | 0.366171 | 1.836863 | 98.714771 | 87.941176 | 6.130719 | 14.150327 | 7.38713 | -0.471065 | 279 | 4 | 76 | 5 | 9 | 99 | 57 | 85 | 0.13 | 0.643 | 0.227 | 0.7615 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 10 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 9 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 13 | 17 | 5 | 2 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 3 | 14 | 16 | 0 | 13 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 53 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.219748 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152925 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172917 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193712 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.423989 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17374 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127803 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.222664 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150731 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.240736 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158838 | 0.109864 | 0 | 0.198571 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150108 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.239009 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.234949 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179588 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.24598 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.207037 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131128 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194222 | 0 | 0 | 0.265277 | 0.178497 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Quickandpainless92 | 2019/04/29 | I wanna kill myself because I'm single and don't know what to do with my life I thought a woman was into me, i could have sworn she gave me hints that she was like being touchy and stuff but she's not and i feel like killing myself over this bullshit. I'm such a whiny loser and i can tell why she would choose another g... | 0.238816 | 2.205789 | 1.778158 | 99.234605 | 84.657895 | 4.326316 | 16.078947 | 5.148861 | -0.975416 | 273 | 5 | 65 | 1 | 8 | 88 | 54 | 76 | 0.264 | 0.678 | 0.058 | -0.9666 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 9 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 16 | 16 | 5 | 2 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 16 | 2 | 6 | 9 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 47 | 20 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.26775 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155655 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.203871 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129109 | 0.182417 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.25283 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.564999 | 0 | 0.14033 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180357 | 0.249496 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173027 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.292307 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.223181 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202714 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150608 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.230408 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181389 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | BlueScintilla | 2019/04/29 | How it progressed for me At first I thought that before I die I want to do something nice for myself, to have little bit of the life that I couldn’t get.
Now I just want it all to end. | 1.716016 | 2.398635 | 2.979024 | 98.04626 | 76.317073 | 5.466667 | 20.98374 | 3.1291 | -0.512128 | 142 | 3 | 36 | 0 | 3 | 46 | 31 | 41 | 0.097 | 0.769 | 0.134 | -0.128 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 7 | 7 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 1 | 7 | 5 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 27 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.28536 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.366117 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.348042 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.297022 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.28525 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175208 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.236869 | 0 | 0.336111 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.25817 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.266232 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.395598 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Supafstturtle13 | 2019/04/29 | Nothing concerning I’m in the process of being dumped right now and it couldn’t have come at a worst time. I feel utterly blindsided and it’s very clear she moved on from me far before she decided to speak up about it. We never stopped talking about your commitment to each other and working out our issues, but I was th... | 6.072043 | 4.200559 | 6.744194 | 83.519624 | 67.064516 | 10.202151 | 32.360215 | 8.841846 | 2.277644 | 904 | 29 | 209 | 12 | 12 | 300 | 142 | 248 | 0.205 | 0.651 | 0.144 | -0.9671 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 17 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 15 | 17 | 4 | 2 | 10 | 0 | 21 | 6 | 2 | 2 | 3 | 41 | 38 | 19 | 1 | 6 | 12 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 17 | 12 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 7 | 11 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 6 | 25 | 7 | 35 | 26 | 6 | 29 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 13 | 17 | 2 | 7 | 9 | 146 | 42 | 2 | 0.13697 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128048 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.250487 | 0 | 0.116551 | 0.154318 | 0.143742 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117988 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150455 | 0.088334 | 0 | 0.117972 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115403 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.207768 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126627 | 0 | 0 | 0.077843 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140571 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091808 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142961 | 0 | 0 | 0.151537 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145031 | 0 | 0.280122 | 0.096746 | 0.133833 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11502 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145577 | 0.201377 | 0 | 0.10564 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134202 | 0.131426 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.291492 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154413 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153438 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116972 | 0 | 0 | 0.137131 | 0 | 0.109147 | 0.124692 | 0 | 0 | 0.140598 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114513 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102984 | 0.110091 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079868 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.285181 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113015 | 0 | 0.10872 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099716 | 0 | 0 | 0.0973 | 0 | 0 | 0.088204 |
suicidewatch | Cal1441 | 2019/04/29 | I fucking hate this. I'm so sorry Im so sorry ST(my girlfriend), please dont hate me, I fucking love you to pieces and deserve so much better than a poor as fuck excuse for a human like me.
So just turned 18 and everyone around me is telling me "aw mate it goes fuckin down hill from here" and I reply "already halfway... | 2.466451 | 4.061564 | 3.528318 | 91.197057 | 75.970509 | 6.421482 | 23.292312 | 7.102934 | 0.666445 | 1,416 | 42 | 309 | 15 | 31 | 456 | 201 | 373 | 0.202 | 0.687 | 0.111 | -0.991 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 22 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 5 | 23 | 30 | 19 | 0 | 14 | 1 | 20 | 21 | 8 | 2 | 2 | 45 | 61 | 35 | 2 | 6 | 10 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 18 | 18 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 4 | 22 | 0 | 3 | 13 | 7 | 42 | 8 | 48 | 41 | 9 | 44 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 12 | 16 | 22 | 13 | 2 | 17 | 195 | 60 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0.066123 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.280714 | 0.074774 | 0 | 0.056381 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06032 | 0 | 0 | 0.063662 | 0 | 0 | 0.041306 | 0 | 0.057658 | 0 | 0 | 0.119856 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058369 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131098 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070794 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069341 | 0.079414 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.044755 | 0 | 0 | 0.129494 | 0.060898 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.034261 | 0.048407 | 0.06506 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074295 | 0.052351 | 0.626426 | 0.035402 | 0 | 0.077019 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.200695 | 0.208622 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067968 | 0.0673 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073192 | 0 | 0.067241 | 0 | 0.149932 | 0 | 0 | 0.055233 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069289 | 0 | 0.099312 | 0 | 0.059833 | 0 | 0 | 0.075806 | 0 | 0 | 0.061156 | 0 | 0.04523 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068286 | 0 | 0.068418 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149433 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.045916 | 0.051534 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141588 | 0.07438 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.043408 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137152 | 0.161987 | 0 | 0.070688 | 0 | 0.069554 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151702 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077568 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054463 | 0.059225 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053793 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064747 | 0 | 0 | 0.073703 | 0.066191 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159865 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188441 | 0 | 0.075651 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.04933 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08727 |
suicidewatch | Gwintissimo | 2019/04/29 | I'm nothing. I haven't had friends for 3 years now. I messed up my chance at university because of my mental health. My life has no substance. Nothing to live for. Every day I just exist. Every dream I've had has been crushed. Everything I used to enjoy makes me feel nothing. I'm worthless.
Eventually I will wither a... | 0.508082 | 2.924236 | 2.16481 | 90.365657 | 98.240506 | 4.962415 | 22.532619 | 6.671995 | 0.93372 | 317 | 13 | 62 | 5 | 13 | 103 | 53 | 79 | 0.202 | 0.659 | 0.138 | -0.6645 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 17 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 11 | 2 | 8 | 9 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 37 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202897 | 0 | 0 | 0.131644 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139273 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.363902 | 0 | 0.194086 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109193 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166846 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.22955 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.305071 | 0 | 0 | 0.190692 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144152 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.217632 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.621643 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146337 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186516 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139068 |
suicidewatch | shesadeadwildflower | 2019/04/29 | I just woke up in intensive care TW TW: I overdosed and cut my arms and I don’t even know how to feel. apparently I was close to being put on life support because I wasn’t breathing well. I’m left with the aftermath now. One of my good university friends had to ride in the ambulance with me and she had to assess my sel... | 1.467708 | 3.352333 | 3.197083 | 91.139583 | 79.833333 | 6.766667 | 22.125 | 7.793538 | 0.844925 | 358 | 11 | 81 | 6 | 9 | 119 | 67 | 96 | 0.085 | 0.749 | 0.167 | 0.802 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 8 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 8 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 15 | 18 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 1 | 12 | 5 | 15 | 11 | 1 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 50 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.23027 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160247 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.329537 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143647 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.240256 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206215 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155641 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119149 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182059 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133923 | 0.197648 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129504 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.256029 | 0 | 0.166443 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159679 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.236888 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.235922 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.245829 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.267407 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.256314 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.211873 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.27098 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | SparsheeeG | 2019/04/29 | I finished writing my suicide note... but I probably won't try to kill myself right now This is an old account, so I thought it would be a fitting TA.
I finished writing my suicide note. It's pretty long but gets at everything I want to get at. I talk a lot about friends and family, and how my life has negatively impa... | 1.460105 | 3.353853 | 3.43425 | 89.385245 | 79.897436 | 6.305828 | 24.738928 | 7.348243 | 1.111605 | 873 | 33 | 187 | 12 | 22 | 295 | 128 | 234 | 0.127 | 0.671 | 0.202 | 0.9626 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 32 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 18 | 13 | 2 | 0 | 11 | 0 | 17 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 46 | 37 | 15 | 4 | 10 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 15 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 8 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 26 | 7 | 26 | 28 | 4 | 24 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 8 | 0 | 5 | 15 | 128 | 41 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108058 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105247 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097551 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102066 | 0 | 0.108215 | 0 | 0 | 0.080699 | 0 | 0 | 0.116748 | 0.109807 | 0 | 0.11518 | 0 | 0.061778 | 0.087285 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094396 | 0 | 0.191502 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097718 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129871 | 0 | 0 | 0.081895 | 0 | 0 | 0.242704 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.270348 | 0 | 0.134294 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124937 | 0.086299 | 0.059691 | 0 | 0 | 0.108125 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.207746 | 0 | 0 | 0.081556 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123128 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089816 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128207 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169408 | 0 | 0 | 0.134117 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124301 | 0.13173 | 0.11691 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104341 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.207045 | 0.09406 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097573 | 0.102148 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.26729 | 0 | 0.115153 | 0 | 0 | 0.196407 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14186 | 0.081171 | 0 | 0 | 0.096997 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165904 | 0 | 0 | 0.127193 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14413 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110248 | 0 | 0.140501 | 0.117777 | 0 | 0.088948 | 0 | 0 | 0.086793 | 0.267169 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | SuperPret | 2019/04/29 | You are not allowed to call yourself suicidal if you haven't watched all Marvel movies including Endgame where Tony dies by the way You are not allowed to call yourself suicidal if you haven't watched all Marvel movies including Endgame where Tony dies by the way | 23.96125 | 10.287118 | 18.371667 | 48.84 | 49.833333 | 22.533333 | 73 | 14.554593 | 9.41685 | 218 | 12 | 38 | 4 | 1 | 62 | 23 | 48 | 0.245 | 0.755 | 0 | -0.9282 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 8 | 4 | 2 | 4 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 22 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.514017 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.522439 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.550627 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.399567 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | JODB19 | 2019/04/29 | Suicide is not the answer I posted here this morning talking about how I’ve not been coping well and how I’ve thought about suicide but not being sure if I’d do it.
Well, suicide is not the answer. I completely understand how hard it is to try to carry on. But whether you feel like you have got anything to live for o... | 6.669782 | 5.694251 | 6.325657 | 84.099844 | 65.374502 | 9.15734 | 30.861477 | 7.882392 | 1.87488 | 983 | 29 | 205 | 9 | 13 | 306 | 120 | 251 | 0.15 | 0.691 | 0.159 | 0.2238 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 21 | 0 | 15 | 1 | 3 | 19 | 14 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 0 | 32 | 4 | 0 | 5 | 5 | 57 | 52 | 24 | 4 | 5 | 19 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 10 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 22 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 11 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 6 | 6 | 21 | 12 | 23 | 28 | 4 | 23 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 25 | 9 | 0 | 12 | 16 | 150 | 43 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155475 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076881 | 0.083168 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056951 | 0 | 0.079498 | 0 | 0 | 0.082627 | 0.101996 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095254 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19591 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061707 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094477 | 0.133486 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102436 | 0 | 0 | 0.097622 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149442 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167382 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102688 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197968 | 0.182572 | 0 | 0.082496 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079427 | 0.08432 | 0 | 0.062362 | 0 | 0.093858 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.297329 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.216167 | 0 | 0.099359 | 0 | 0 | 0.089644 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071054 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064769 | 0.163151 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089476 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059851 | 0 | 0.092246 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148591 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.255153 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158318 | 0 | 0.0924 | 0 | 0 | 0.099579 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.195337 | 0 | 0.408769 | 0 | 0.088052 | 0 | 0 | 0.075092 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062068 | 0 | 0 | 0.148339 | 0.054477 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06343 | 0 | 0 | 0.097259 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11021 | 0 | 0.07494 | 0 | 0.168001 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090059 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095209 | 0.066367 | 0 | 0 | 0.060163 |
suicidewatch | ventingthrowawayect | 2019/04/29 | I was so happy and now all I want to do is die I started taking mood stabilizers a few months ago. Ever since then I am rarely depressed. I completely stopped being suicidal after years of it and I finally felt good living every day. But after being sexually assaulted for the second time, I want to die. I want to disap... | 2.325822 | 4.318501 | 4.036664 | 85.62486 | 77.584475 | 7.119726 | 26.475114 | 8.076483 | 1.726571 | 850 | 34 | 172 | 15 | 20 | 285 | 119 | 219 | 0.288 | 0.613 | 0.099 | -0.9946 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 22 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 16 | 19 | 8 | 1 | 9 | 1 | 20 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 30 | 39 | 18 | 5 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 10 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 14 | 0 | 4 | 8 | 4 | 23 | 4 | 24 | 25 | 7 | 38 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 32 | 127 | 33 | 0 | 0 | 0.139317 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.208461 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079961 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116611 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090414 | 0 | 0.071678 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123284 | 0 | 0 | 0.093881 | 0 | 0 | 0.151663 | 0 | 0.202549 | 0 | 0.244066 | 0 | 0.134761 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132265 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077663 | 0.212722 | 0.099069 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118907 | 0 | 0.112898 | 0.257613 | 0 | 0.100016 | 0 | 0 | 0.090845 | 0 | 0.24573 | 0 | 0.066825 | 0.098623 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12517 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130088 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103828 | 0.104057 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093854 | 0 | 0.259312 | 0 | 0.090687 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079677 | 0 | 0.250234 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120895 | 0.116099 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097266 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083226 | 0 | 0 | 0.098305 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.257234 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088408 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075343 | 0 | 0.093348 | 0.137128 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130639 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.208061 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119827 | 0.083528 | 0 | 0 | 0.15144 |
suicidewatch | ColossalCholera | 2019/04/29 | The main reason I don't kill myself is fear of failure. What if someone finds me before I'm dead? Then I'd have attention, questions, inquisitions. I like it quiet.
What if I do it wrong, and I permanently harm myself? Hang myself and lose airflow to brain enough to cause mental retardation, slit my wrists and caus... | 3.554338 | 5.551384 | 4.80784 | 81.457195 | 74 | 7.124739 | 22.689895 | 7.957252 | 1.214604 | 333 | 9 | 62 | 5 | 7 | 110 | 58 | 82 | 0.334 | 0.604 | 0.062 | -0.9808 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 9 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 4 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 13 | 8 | 9 | 2 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 1 | 6 | 7 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 4 | 2 | 41 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179821 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.235907 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.434175 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.218354 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.237798 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193146 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.390731 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.233798 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103242 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.236417 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.214249 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.212965 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.236731 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.217276 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179054 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167739 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.231049 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | uselesssheepperson | 2019/04/29 | I don't wanna kill myself but I wanna disappear. Useless rant. I don't have any friends. I'm 19 and my boyfriend is almost 50. I love him and I need him so much but I'm also angry at him because sometimes he just doesn't understand. And he'll leave me, I'm not good enough. I hate my body. I hate my face. No one likes m... | -2.403396 | -0.749665 | 1.116509 | 97.537332 | 105.837945 | 4.250722 | 16.160401 | 6.146976 | -0.419424 | 864 | 26 | 215 | 12 | 43 | 309 | 122 | 253 | 0.289 | 0.559 | 0.152 | -0.9864 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 45 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 28 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 22 | 7 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 37 | 58 | 14 | 1 | 9 | 11 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 15 | 15 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 41 | 13 | 19 | 46 | 5 | 15 | 0 | 8 | 1 | 2 | 20 | 8 | 2 | 2 | 5 | 116 | 43 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130654 | 0.135135 | 0 | 0.104343 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088729 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079538 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115396 | 0 | 0.289861 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104175 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134818 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.201613 | 0 | 0.068169 | 0 | 0 | 0.109438 | 0 | 0 | 0.143735 | 0.129193 | 0 | 0.138895 | 0 | 0.257638 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144354 | 0.135872 | 0.143414 | 0 | 0 | 0.276313 | 0 | 0.133422 | 0 | 0.127489 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.235521 | 0 | 0.087095 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.277353 | 0.191831 | 0.096747 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136914 | 0 | 0.176829 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.289759 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13205 | 0 | 0 | 0.136116 | 0 | 0.133933 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129045 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135831 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153918 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117315 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094989 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084023 |
suicidewatch | DisobedientSwitch | 2019/04/29 | Forgot my meds yesterday. Paying the price today At least there's an explanation for how hard it was to wake up and separate dream from reality.
The floor is moving underneath me and my head is spinning. But worst of all, I want to cut open my arm.
My boyfriend has my bike, and driving the car is too dangerous.
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suicidewatch | FefeKings | 2019/04/29 | I can't do it anymore My Mother always keeps abusing me for no reason. She is very very very partial to me and always sides my older brother. Only dad helps me , but most of the time he is not home. I BEG EVERYONE PLEASE ROAST ME I AS MUCH AS YOU CAN I NEED TO END IT. PLEASE JUST SAY HATE IN THE COMMENTS. I JUST WANT T... | -1.476023 | 0.503389 | 0.893283 | 100.316364 | 99.416667 | 3.173737 | 14.878788 | 4.851558 | -1.156017 | 255 | 6 | 60 | 1 | 11 | 85 | 52 | 72 | 0.12 | 0.727 | 0.153 | 0.4017 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 10 | 9 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 13 | 0 | 8 | 9 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 38 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 0.226265 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.3178 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189388 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.33828 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182477 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.18854 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128001 | 0 | 0.191555 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16974 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140383 | 0.1416 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145239 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.419249 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.196346 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151865 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111354 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.472703 | 0.112637 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | 06132013 | 2019/04/29 | I wish I could trade my life with someone else who deserves it. I don't want my life. I'm tired. I wish I could trade with someone else who could live it better.
They could have my life with all the privileges I have, the support, my family, whatever. Then I could have theirs. I'd lay down and never wake up again. | 0.893473 | 3.08493 | 2.00989 | 97.191538 | 83.769231 | 5.56044 | 18.516484 | 6.86897 | -0.049352 | 244 | 6 | 56 | 3 | 7 | 77 | 37 | 65 | 0.063 | 0.73 | 0.207 | 0.8583 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 9 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 14 | 14 | 2 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 3 | 5 | 9 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 38 | 17 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144653 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.652938 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.273263 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154188 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.346577 | 0 | 0 | 0.144424 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126146 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.277164 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185603 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187986 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096471 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.376167 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Dalvesium | 2019/04/29 | Having random blackouts, shamed for being gay by parents who say they love me.
Please read the whole thing. English isn't my first language and I typed this rapidly.
I can't sleep I'm plagued by worry over someones illness, not being able to be there as well as dealing with the torment caused by that same someone a... | 1.883407 | 3.709628 | 2.979314 | 93.470183 | 78.314721 | 5.657711 | 22.393008 | 6.450502 | 0.312677 | 2,972 | 89 | 656 | 24 | 71 | 951 | 298 | 788 | 0.163 | 0.764 | 0.073 | -0.9978 | 7 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 78 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 44 | 38 | 6 | 5 | 30 | 0 | 66 | 34 | 11 | 7 | 4 | 95 | 119 | 72 | 0 | 11 | 24 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 11 | 6 | 2 | 3 | 34 | 37 | 2 | 1 | 10 | 3 | 2 | 8 | 22 | 25 | 4 | 5 | 33 | 10 | 102 | 13 | 91 | 74 | 10 | 80 | 1 | 5 | 3 | 10 | 110 | 25 | 1 | 16 | 46 | 427 | 136 | 6 | 0.097788 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.039101 | 0.081368 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087052 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150386 | 0.040825 | 0.029805 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.043243 | 0.05338 | 0 | 0 | 0.054582 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.050228 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161124 | 0 | 0.151223 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.050045 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113403 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05453 | 0.064588 | 0.044228 | 0.082391 | 0 | 0.131829 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.044688 | 0.083179 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127726 | 0 | 0.055575 | 0.04101 | 0.117315 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.043237 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11588 | 0.065545 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.048151 | 0 | 0.104684 | 0 | 0 | 0.102066 | 0 | 0.043459 | 0 | 0 | 0.080613 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099995 | 0.034535 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082118 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.220644 | 0.046265 | 0.097912 | 0.198284 | 0 | 0.05326 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.343585 | 0.039027 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.045884 | 0 | 0.093831 | 0 | 0 | 0.052071 | 0 | 0 | 0.208107 | 0 | 0.217165 | 0 | 0 | 0.169485 | 0.042692 | 0.051084 | 0.053671 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09357 | 0 | 0.049152 | 0 | 0 | 0.048907 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083511 | 0.04651 | 0.116648 | 0.146855 | 0 | 0 | 0.178046 | 0 | 0 | 0.050189 | 0 | 0 | 0.342506 | 0 | 0.124284 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056008 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.036762 | 0.196496 | 0.085471 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097449 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114042 | 0 | 0 | 0.093441 | 0 | 0.033196 | 0 | 0.047762 | 0 | 0 | 0.042229 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175847 | 0.090651 | 0.044119 | 0.054589 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.049654 | 0 | 0.034733 | 0.053458 | 0 | 0.062972 |
suicidewatch | Ntyrusernme | 2019/04/29 | This isn't a cry for help I'm going to kill myself but I don't know when. It's a miracle I haven't done it yet. I came very close several times and though things are getting better I know that is how I'll end up.
I've known it since I was in high school. I'm ok with it. I've made peace.
I get so sad I can't handle it... | -1.824301 | -0.039517 | 1.210816 | 100.862823 | 92.903743 | 4.963404 | 14.547547 | 6.498294 | -0.775752 | 617 | 12 | 167 | 8 | 23 | 216 | 98 | 187 | 0.212 | 0.665 | 0.123 | -0.9686 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 16 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 14 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 16 | 6 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 24 | 34 | 17 | 3 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 15 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 6 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 14 | 3 | 17 | 26 | 1 | 26 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 92 | 29 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1288 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166565 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157377 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15997 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.302287 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149033 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128987 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130885 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152174 | 0 | 0.165533 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172575 | 0.097614 | 0.153869 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152002 | 0 | 0 | 0.161121 | 0 | 0.240107 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.205729 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137801 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146709 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154963 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100963 | 0 | 0 | 0.159861 | 0 | 0 | 0.139476 | 0 | 0.157016 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124369 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147388 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.329046 | 0 | 0.120469 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116302 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117054 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193503 | 0 | 0.143083 | 0 | 0.084919 | 0.167383 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098875 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120162 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106022 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187565 |
suicidewatch | _Zandrico | 2019/04/29 | I just want to die. I've had these thoughts for way too long. I have spoken to nobody about them. I should have a happy life. I know how lucky I am. My parents are still married, I have a sister, everyone is fit and healthy, but nobody cares about me. I seriously think that I was a mistake. That's how I feel everyone i... | -0.671665 | 1.501896 | 1.302444 | 98.774059 | 93.651811 | 4.490501 | 16.797283 | 6.182691 | -0.490728 | 1,303 | 34 | 310 | 14 | 49 | 427 | 154 | 359 | 0.117 | 0.69 | 0.193 | 0.9748 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 66 | 2 | 4 | 8 | 3 | 18 | 17 | 3 | 1 | 13 | 0 | 33 | 5 | 1 | 5 | 1 | 50 | 72 | 14 | 3 | 9 | 10 | 4 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 19 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 13 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 11 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 17 | 7 | 74 | 10 | 41 | 53 | 3 | 24 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 37 | 12 | 1 | 1 | 9 | 213 | 93 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0.083083 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088178 | 0 | 0 | 0.212527 | 0 | 0 | 0.057897 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119062 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079593 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1038 | 0 | 0 | 0.095922 | 0.089348 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086805 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07333 | 0 | 0.265082 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112467 | 0 | 0 | 0.162708 | 0.076517 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172195 | 0.060823 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09335 | 0 | 0.07871 | 0.133445 | 0 | 0.048386 | 0.142821 | 0 | 0.093866 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090632 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114134 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098239 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14037 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120272 | 0.041595 | 0 | 0.150359 | 0.150691 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076841 | 0 | 0.056831 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065664 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081693 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057692 | 0.064752 | 0 | 0 | 0.189074 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186914 | 0.241452 | 0 | 0.08154 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084064 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086165 | 0.067845 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086788 | 0.144276 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067992 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054554 | 0 | 0.202772 | 0.049645 | 0 | 0 | 0.40677 | 0 | 0 | 0.092607 | 0 | 0.088633 | 0 | 0.073533 | 0 | 0 | 0.301303 | 0.067579 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076825 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
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