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suicidewatch | ThisIsATempAccount55 | 2019/04/29 | I'm at my breaking point I've never had many people that care about me, it's my fault though, I have anxiety and often times it shows up as separation issues. I always become too clingy whether that be a relationship or a friendship.
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suicidewatch | joshdamiller | 2019/04/29 | 1 My wife is leaving me, because of my drinking. My children are to young to understand. My father has disowned me. He told me the only way id get better is to look to god. I said to him "fuck you fuck your god". I went to rehab in January for alcohol. I quit methadone in October 18 after a year, cold turky. I moved he... | -0.220713 | 1.927781 | 2.4405 | 92.376752 | 88.873418 | 5.098468 | 20.341106 | 6.596605 | 0.303944 | 572 | 19 | 127 | 7 | 19 | 198 | 100 | 158 | 0.131 | 0.805 | 0.064 | -0.8849 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 24 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 3 | 2 | 8 | 2 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 14 | 8 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 17 | 25 | 7 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 3 | 7 | 4 | 23 | 2 | 21 | 15 | 3 | 23 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 14 | 8 | 2 | 4 | 8 | 82 | 25 | 1 | 0.134907 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119587 | 0.144174 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120096 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082238 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.238628 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.277173 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15811 | 0.264315 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.249438 | 0.070483 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12085 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.291445 | 0 | 0.133874 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074141 | 0 | 0 | 0.142847 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135212 | 0 | 0 | 0.113288 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107681 | 0.286769 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.274249 | 0.307808 | 0.14355 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129088 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14349 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128327 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128909 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140443 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.214166 | 0.108214 | 0 | 0 | 0.12506 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086876 |
suicidewatch | MutchGreen | 2019/04/29 | No other option. I'm currently living in my car after my sister kicked me out. I have just gone into work today to find out we are all being made redundant. It's my third week and it took me three months to find that job. I have bipolar 1 and no access to my medication and a huge black hole inside of just emptiness. I'... | 1.6347 | 2.823282 | 3.445 | 92.6275 | 77.3 | 6.2 | 18.5 | 6.627428 | -0.1731 | 357 | 6 | 84 | 3 | 8 | 120 | 71 | 100 | 0.128 | 0.823 | 0.05 | -0.7841 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 8 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 17 | 15 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 2 | 13 | 0 | 14 | 10 | 1 | 19 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 57 | 20 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.246927 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162131 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.224 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.435816 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135497 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159805 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.236591 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.243796 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.210526 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.225595 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.240179 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190301 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.253691 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189987 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.22599 | 0 | 0.264889 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189243 | 0.191243 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17357 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | LgndrySmkr | 2019/04/29 | We end up dead. I don't see the point in anything anymore.
What's the point in life if we all end up dead in the end? It's either a choice of now or later. Does the in between of birth of and death really matter?
Here's backstory for my feelings... as a child, at the age of 9, me and my uncle walked downstairs and se... | 3.91905 | 5.096955 | 4.628495 | 86.418297 | 71.580645 | 7.446595 | 26.681004 | 7.793538 | 1.454128 | 486 | 16 | 98 | 6 | 9 | 156 | 82 | 124 | 0.193 | 0.796 | 0.01 | -0.9784 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 24 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 19 | 12 | 11 | 4 | 2 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 3 | 15 | 0 | 21 | 6 | 3 | 27 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 9 | 13 | 0 | 3 | 11 | 72 | 19 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174948 | 0 | 0 | 0.145168 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.331481 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151939 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154375 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.624977 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158543 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089197 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124602 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.333523 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113011 | 0 | 0.174181 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140574 | 0 | 0 | 0.19929 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19188 | 0.172324 | 0.183646 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15918 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1136 |
suicidewatch | Pineapplebuttplug | 2019/04/29 | I have no family except my dog No siblings, no parents. Dad passed away when I was little and mom is severely terminally ill. The rest of my family don’t want anything to do with me. I am 31 years old this year - no family of my own. Not even an SO. I am really jealous of my peers who are close with their families ... | 1.912159 | 4.077725 | 4.131802 | 83.574562 | 79.714286 | 7.287013 | 21.788961 | 8.296473 | 1.376864 | 868 | 26 | 172 | 18 | 22 | 299 | 134 | 224 | 0.148 | 0.763 | 0.089 | -0.9135 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 28 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 7 | 8 | 3 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 18 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 34 | 34 | 9 | 3 | 9 | 6 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 10 | 11 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 11 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 2 | 33 | 5 | 32 | 27 | 4 | 32 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 13 | 16 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 126 | 43 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109392 | 0 | 0 | 0.087885 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086917 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099235 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089876 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117321 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117796 | 0.069762 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.597422 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.231406 | 0.096536 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101321 | 0.240108 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0934 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093881 | 0.233708 | 0 | 0.058047 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10586 | 0.093265 | 0 | 0.088695 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106111 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106647 | 0.123702 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081462 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101346 | 0 | 0.110832 | 0 | 0.214715 | 0.08033 | 0 | 0 | 0.11728 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107455 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135327 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119322 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089493 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079414 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07017 | 0 | 0.103772 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.249192 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121459 | 0 | 0 | 0.076893 | 0 | 0 | 0.150061 | 0 | 0 | 0.136033 |
suicidewatch | NoSock1 | 2019/04/29 | Being alive tastes like shit. 19 here. I have been suicidal for as long as I can remember. I am riddled with mental illnesses (I have C-PTSD, borderline personality, severe anxiety, substance abuse disorder, and severe depression) along with being autistic (which in and of itself isn't a problem, just not being able to... | 8.54825 | 7.6602 | 8.549722 | 69.3875 | 61.583333 | 11.5 | 37.5 | 10.686353 | 4.038417 | 3,054 | 126 | 527 | 63 | 36 | 997 | 341 | 720 | 0.178 | 0.689 | 0.133 | -0.9928 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 105 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 14 | 27 | 35 | 8 | 2 | 33 | 0 | 62 | 21 | 4 | 9 | 9 | 119 | 100 | 49 | 9 | 10 | 21 | 1 | 5 | 6 | 2 | 5 | 8 | 4 | 0 | 3 | 22 | 46 | 2 | 2 | 11 | 4 | 0 | 7 | 22 | 17 | 0 | 5 | 11 | 11 | 58 | 18 | 102 | 72 | 22 | 71 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 7 | 21 | 44 | 5 | 18 | 25 | 378 | 80 | 4 | 0.055658 | 0.065945 | 0.054314 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.049337 | 0 | 0.167199 | 0 | 0 | 0.089019 | 0.046312 | 0 | 0 | 0.075698 | 0.058362 | 0.042578 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.045801 | 0.099094 | 0 | 0 | 0.052292 | 0 | 0 | 0.271427 | 0 | 0 | 0.062707 | 0.058409 | 0.049225 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057176 | 0 | 0.047944 | 0.058356 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061584 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.047938 | 0 | 0.173292 | 0 | 0.063788 | 0 | 0 | 0.056957 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056952 | 0 | 0.125215 | 0 | 0.057509 | 0 | 0.036761 | 0.100691 | 0.046894 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052469 | 0 | 0.112569 | 0.119285 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086002 | 0.102909 | 0.058158 | 0.053392 | 0.094895 | 0 | 0.089029 | 0.061363 | 0 | 0 | 0.098436 | 0 | 0.049858 | 0 | 0.057121 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055281 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055232 | 0.049471 | 0.123154 | 0 | 0.030588 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.235876 | 0.163149 | 0 | 0.196587 | 0.098511 | 0 | 0.062267 | 0 | 0.141954 | 0.1507 | 0 | 0.037152 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.224359 | 0 | 0.112397 | 0.065186 | 0.044425 | 0 | 0.08183 | 0 | 0.085853 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.037715 | 0.169321 | 0.059224 | 0 | 0 | 0.060272 | 0 | 0.154344 | 0.097196 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062746 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106514 | 0.065061 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.253402 | 0 | 0.057225 | 0 | 0 | 0.063049 | 0.047531 | 0.052943 | 0.044261 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125755 | 0.114264 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113472 | 0.047159 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063756 | 0 | 0 | 0.182641 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127299 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054683 | 0 | 0.032454 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.037788 | 0 | 0.163108 | 0 | 0 | 0.04807 | 0.061299 | 0 | 0.065657 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150667 | 0.06214 | 0.064004 | 0 | 0.120717 | 0.081039 | 0 | 0.05672 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107525 |
suicidewatch | Issianrenist | 2019/04/29 | I'm tired of trying Living it's exhausting. I don't know who am I anymore. | -2.250196 | -0.615547 | 1.890588 | 91.60098 | 107.235294 | 4.619608 | 17.431373 | 6.427356 | 0.235996 | 59 | 2 | 13 | 1 | 3 | 22 | 15 | 17 | 0.351 | 0.649 | 0 | -0.6597 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.505614 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.280189 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.450189 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.585974 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.346141 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | throwawayillbedead | 2019/04/29 | I'm done. I'm done, I'm done, I'm done. I'm done. I'm broken. I had a good girlfriend until someone I had drama with 7-8 months ago told them bullshit lies, now I'm blocked on everything. I'm done. I'm done. I want to die, I need to die. I feel a huge hole in the middle of my chest, and I feel extremely broken. I need ... | -3.087639 | -1.500987 | 0.583218 | 102.800928 | 101.988506 | 3.596463 | 14.738285 | 5.369823 | -1.124207 | 277 | 7 | 76 | 2 | 13 | 100 | 42 | 87 | 0.334 | 0.581 | 0.085 | -0.9769 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 19 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 11 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 30 | 2 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 2 | 10 | 1 | 9 | 18 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 35 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083726 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.392104 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.869912 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084887 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095515 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087319 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079222 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07539 | 0 | 0 | 0.14007 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080029 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090253 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11142 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | CrackToster211811419 | 2019/04/29 | Its over Well I've been contemplating it for a long while but I finally did it. I just ate 27 20mg prozac capsules. Fuck life. | -1.46 | 0.279524 | 0.938222 | 97.954 | 107.888889 | 5.122963 | 16.511111 | 6.742158 | -0.004342 | 99 | 3 | 24 | 2 | 5 | 33 | 24 | 27 | 0.181 | 0.76 | 0.059 | -0.6369 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 14 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.538049 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.454076 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.346925 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.434667 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.441618 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | fishinglummys | 2019/04/29 | I want to die, I’m hoping for a natural accident. I couldn’t kill myself, through several attempts I’ve backed down. I don’t want to leave, but I can’t stand the pain of living. If I leave I break all the bonds with people I’ve had, I don’t want to leave and break those bonds. I want to die, but I can’t push myself to ... | 2.212517 | 3.184123 | 3.923699 | 90.634051 | 75.473988 | 7.404002 | 23.134282 | 7.882392 | 0.871549 | 624 | 17 | 146 | 9 | 13 | 210 | 93 | 173 | 0.271 | 0.543 | 0.186 | -0.9702 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 23 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 5 | 14 | 3 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 19 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 24 | 30 | 7 | 5 | 9 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 1 | 26 | 8 | 17 | 18 | 3 | 15 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 6 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 93 | 33 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123578 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096876 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097375 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109071 | 0 | 0.394284 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083642 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12159 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.195677 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125778 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.280208 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.536357 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185604 | 0 | 0.111822 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093899 | 0.097669 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13475 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175587 | 0.110574 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121282 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143063 | 0 | 0.104755 | 0 | 0 | 0.129089 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081143 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104488 | 0.373466 | 0.100518 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | i_hate_life7667 | 2019/04/29 | I need new friends I really hate school because i get bullied by my friends they always make fun of me because of my skin color they call me names i need advice on how to make friends. Sometimes i think about running away from home just so i dont have to go to school i need some one to talk to. | 6.414762 | 4.443063 | 6.273016 | 87.491429 | 66.460317 | 9.034921 | 33.698413 | 6.427356 | 1.78747 | 232 | 8 | 54 | 1 | 3 | 73 | 42 | 63 | 0.116 | 0.703 | 0.181 | 0.5434 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 10 | 11 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 13 | 4 | 12 | 11 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 32 | 13 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181315 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15439 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174328 | 0 | 0 | 0.226216 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189465 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.21746 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.43006 | 0 | 0.096941 | 0 | 0.105451 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.18319 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186119 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.247709 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.412743 | 0 | 0.179203 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125732 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118866 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.375568 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183511 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149136 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118891 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | ThrowAwayBye0427 | 2019/04/29 | thanks I am sick of my life. Lack of motivation, unable to do anything as if I was drowning in an ocean. I would like to be in a state of catharsis to purge my emotions until I become a blank, clean sheet of paper. Of course, it's just another fantasy where people like me dream of. I do not know where to point my resen... | 4.784619 | 6.160149 | 5.465204 | 80.485483 | 69.723861 | 7.938795 | 30.168702 | 8.3441 | 2.296962 | 6,116 | 244 | 1,107 | 90 | 108 | 1,981 | 465 | 1,492 | 0.169 | 0.697 | 0.133 | -0.9963 | 4 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 7 | 2 | 342 | 4 | 12 | 12 | 12 | 72 | 78 | 16 | 3 | 66 | 6 | 137 | 51 | 13 | 18 | 6 | 233 | 251 | 93 | 12 | 54 | 63 | 16 | 6 | 7 | 0 | 24 | 38 | 5 | 1 | 2 | 80 | 52 | 0 | 8 | 31 | 8 | 11 | 20 | 46 | 40 | 2 | 6 | 38 | 16 | 174 | 38 | 206 | 173 | 19 | 133 | 2 | 7 | 3 | 1 | 75 | 61 | 3 | 31 | 55 | 831 | 254 | 8 | 0.01165 | 0.013804 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.011666 | 0 | 0 | 0.009317 | 0 | 0.454425 | 0.509623 | 0.03169 | 0.012216 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.028761 | 0.020742 | 0.010891 | 0.013254 | 0.021891 | 0.044791 | 0 | 0.113629 | 0.012867 | 0.02974 | 0 | 0.012226 | 0 | 0 | 0.025881 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.013325 | 0.023756 | 0.047872 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.01259 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.015027 | 0 | 0.010034 | 0 | 0.012091 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.010195 | 0.011922 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.039315 | 0.051593 | 0 | 0 | 0.023084 | 0 | 0 | 0.011132 | 0 | 0.034188 | 0.098844 | 0 | 0.023563 | 0.008323 | 0.022372 | 0 | 0 | 0.019819 | 0 | 0.012774 | 0 | 0 | 0.024347 | 0.033528 | 0.052968 | 0 | 0 | 0.012844 | 0 | 0 | 0.020604 | 0.012402 | 0 | 0.011502 | 0.011956 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.007809 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.013443 | 0.012472 | 0 | 0 | 0.01216 | 0 | 0.02071 | 0.025778 | 0 | 0.083234 | 0 | 0 | 0.061679 | 0 | 0 | 0.238636 | 0.039842 | 0 | 0.236608 | 0 | 0.019566 | 0.013034 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.031106 | 0 | 0.011704 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.011741 | 0 | 0 | 0.040934 | 0 | 0 | 0.042821 | 0.034554 | 0.017971 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.022829 | 0.011179 | 0 | 0.012225 | 0.012407 | 0.015789 | 0.017721 | 0.012397 | 0 | 0.038808 | 0 | 0.011121 | 0.02423 | 0.010172 | 0 | 0 | 0.011013 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087926 | 0 | 0 | 0.011712 | 0 | 0 | 0.011653 | 0 | 0.007463 | 0.011978 | 0 | 0 | 0.013197 | 0.009949 | 0 | 0.018529 | 0 | 0 | 0.009284 | 0 | 0.012154 | 0 | 0.023917 | 0.038548 | 0 | 0.034976 | 0 | 0.009871 | 0.017938 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.012418 | 0.018608 | 0 | 0.013345 | 0 | 0 | 0.025487 | 0.01322 | 0.01098 | 0 | 0.026278 | 0.009364 | 0 | 0.107259 | 0 | 0 | 0.00774 | 0.01493 | 0.011446 | 0 | 0.02038 | 0.04017 | 0 | 0.022264 | 0 | 0.047458 | 0 | 0.011381 | 0.024256 | 0.014014 | 0.010062 | 0 | 0 | 0.185532 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.02095 | 0.0108 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134764 | 0 | 0.016963 | 0.023663 | 0 | 0.04138 | 0 | 0.509623 | 0.015005 |
suicidewatch | Whitecreampuff | 2019/04/29 | Living in a life where you never belonged. It's a daunting task waking up every morning feeling like you don't belong. In a lifetime where any imperfection is always wrong . Always feeling weird in a body and mind not good enough . Trying to believe that content will just breakthrough enough. Then when you finally find... | 4.455668 | 6.041757 | 4.361944 | 87.267868 | 70.793103 | 7.203762 | 26.974922 | 7.686295 | 1.413552 | 594 | 20 | 117 | 7 | 11 | 182 | 90 | 145 | 0.087 | 0.856 | 0.058 | -0.6433 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 15 | 0 | 13 | 1 | 0 | 11 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 7 | 4 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 23 | 17 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 14 | 2 | 16 | 16 | 5 | 23 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 16 | 12 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 81 | 21 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.248634 | 0 | 0 | 0.101601 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168328 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165955 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096354 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.308751 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.25176 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.226631 | 0.106735 | 0 | 0.163666 | 0.273107 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143323 | 0 | 0.125314 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133838 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.211058 | 0.072992 | 0 | 0.263855 | 0 | 0.125463 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.299187 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150857 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11523 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202481 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112334 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.304309 | 0 | 0 | 0.155536 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166805 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163351 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | DouchebagMcGee69 | 2019/04/29 | I want someone to care Not someone to love or something, just a person who doesn't criticize me all the time, ignores me, threats me bad most of the time, yells at me, complains about things I don't even have to do with and say that i have the fault, to not to tell me i'm a failure and i'm ugly and stupid and useless p... | 8.115385 | 3.716085 | 8.014103 | 83.914231 | 65.410256 | 10.912821 | 37.538462 | 6.427356 | 2.366046 | 274 | 9 | 68 | 1 | 3 | 89 | 49 | 78 | 0.355 | 0.574 | 0.071 | -0.9794 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 10 | 3 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 14 | 12 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 2 | 11 | 12 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 48 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.255287 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.228005 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.278417 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180363 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.232158 | 0.24646 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.238438 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.217159 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.280306 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.462749 | 0.210226 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.238679 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181418 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.318463 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161066 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | PerfectionM8 | 2019/04/29 | Rent due, no money, no food, no one to help, deep depression. Life of an international student. just wonderful. I think its time for me to just go. | 0.91 | 3.491846 | 3.154286 | 84.915714 | 91.857143 | 7.085714 | 21.285714 | 8.076483 | 1.5354 | 112 | 4 | 23 | 3 | 4 | 38 | 24 | 28 | 0.273 | 0.557 | 0.17 | -0.4404 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 14 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.355769 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.499475 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.234752 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.276866 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.291757 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.279901 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.264673 | 0 | 0 | 0.240859 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.447947 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | sahaelanthropus | 2019/04/29 | Ive done more than enough and dont want to do anymore. Im under 18 and have had suicidal thoughts since about 12, but they are the loudest now. Its not so much I want to die, its that i dont want to hurt anyone else. I keep opening my stupid fucking mouth and i feel like I ruined my moms life. Ive been a physical,emoti... | 2.944991 | 4.035782 | 4.037631 | 90.06079 | 73.834711 | 7.03067 | 25.427916 | 7.38713 | 1.024275 | 907 | 29 | 200 | 10 | 18 | 295 | 143 | 242 | 0.206 | 0.64 | 0.155 | -0.8914 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 31 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 9 | 14 | 4 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 27 | 4 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 39 | 46 | 16 | 2 | 7 | 6 | 3 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 14 | 14 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 15 | 9 | 41 | 5 | 23 | 30 | 8 | 24 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 24 | 13 | 1 | 2 | 11 | 141 | 55 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121811 | 0.085883 | 0.125851 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094446 | 0 | 0.074874 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128899 | 0.10863 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13492 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127475 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125695 | 0.431857 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.205212 | 0 | 0.108788 | 0.126913 | 0 | 0 | 0.111104 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12421 | 0.087748 | 0 | 0 | 0.112262 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113552 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103021 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108615 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082328 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131489 | 0 | 0.132674 | 0 | 0 | 0.109174 | 0 | 0 | 0.067502 | 0.10012 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086756 | 0.060007 | 0 | 0 | 0.108698 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116222 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143853 | 0 | 0 | 0.090292 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083231 | 0.093415 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128328 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078686 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.233673 | 0 | 0.122971 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101604 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.208142 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134353 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163202 | 0.078703 | 0 | 0.097511 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.289786 | 0.097494 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.28249 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | nik_vygo | 2019/04/29 | ... Im 14 and i hate my life... i know this might seem like every other stupid 14 year old kid but ive been suicidal since 10 i would go into my kitchen late at night and reenact how it would be to slit my throught its rare that i dont have suicidal thoughts. I feel like im a waste of air and no one loves me i just wan... | -1.310143 | 0.473294 | 1.195833 | 102.07375 | 89.857143 | 4.642857 | 16.369048 | 5.985473 | -0.798381 | 351 | 8 | 94 | 3 | 12 | 119 | 74 | 105 | 0.26 | 0.62 | 0.12 | -0.9628 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 13 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 17 | 22 | 8 | 2 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 8 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 13 | 4 | 9 | 13 | 0 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 4 | 8 | 54 | 21 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132078 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185391 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133278 | 0.151152 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079983 | 0.113007 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0899 | 0.132678 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156175 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.5126 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086934 | 0.128942 | 0.178439 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111731 | 0.154562 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142768 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167809 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.296892 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165988 | 0 | 0.10719 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151497 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160092 | 0.126053 | 0.144006 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130852 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.346057 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125581 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093302 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.22474 | 0 | 0 | 0.101866 |
suicidewatch | EvanLikesJuiceBoxes | 2019/04/29 | I don't know I don't know if I want to die. I can't stand living anymore, but does that mean I want to die? I have tried to take my life, but my attempts are absolutely useless. Is this a sign I'm not ready to go? Every time I write my note, it seems so...anticlimactic. This note explains everything, and it's so w... | 0.75664 | 2.648359 | 2.104681 | 98.038592 | 82.239437 | 5.371697 | 17.654594 | 6.427356 | -0.455124 | 774 | 16 | 188 | 7 | 21 | 248 | 123 | 213 | 0.183 | 0.751 | 0.066 | -0.976 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 37 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 1 | 13 | 7 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 36 | 36 | 14 | 3 | 6 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 8 | 10 | 2 | 0 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 8 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 3 | 29 | 1 | 27 | 29 | 4 | 28 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 8 | 12 | 0 | 3 | 8 | 108 | 37 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08393 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122399 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134742 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09854 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.38427 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108005 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103986 | 0 | 0.110922 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070142 | 0 | 0.09871 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131382 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1238 | 0 | 0.121543 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.271313 | 0.100603 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.261525 | 0 | 0 | 0.217963 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13444 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090728 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167265 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118202 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123453 | 0.140478 | 0.237197 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1054 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124907 | 0 | 0.112357 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174714 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092796 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143934 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167588 | 0.26849 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145592 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114411 | 0 | 0 | 0.283853 | 0 | 0 | 0.179702 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | RaidiationHound | 2019/04/29 | I don't know if I'm suicidal but I'm getting there. Sorry if this is the wrong subreddit to post this in, I just wasn't sure where else to go. I have an emotionally abusive mother (granted she's trying her best) and suffer from an array of mental disorders. This includes somniphobia, (Fear of sleep). I also suffer fro... | 3.917467 | 6.330053 | 4.666307 | 80.994183 | 74.300353 | 7.180701 | 28.199103 | 8.13951 | 2.131586 | 1,196 | 49 | 210 | 20 | 26 | 384 | 170 | 283 | 0.194 | 0.726 | 0.08 | -0.9911 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 63 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 17 | 18 | 3 | 1 | 10 | 0 | 17 | 5 | 4 | 5 | 6 | 43 | 40 | 22 | 1 | 6 | 9 | 5 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 13 | 11 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 4 | 0 | 5 | 5 | 11 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 2 | 38 | 7 | 25 | 34 | 10 | 32 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 17 | 10 | 0 | 4 | 13 | 145 | 51 | 0 | 0 | 0.111948 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075559 | 0 | 0.30712 | 0.344425 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084111 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115193 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099155 | 0.083563 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099951 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081379 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108287 | 0 | 0.082684 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078929 | 0.106282 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062406 | 0.085466 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106321 | 0.047774 | 0 | 0 | 0.103503 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072998 | 0 | 0.098728 | 0 | 0.053697 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083552 | 0 | 0.084639 | 0.27985 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202294 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083982 | 0 | 0 | 0.155778 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066737 | 0.04616 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178806 | 0.063069 | 0 | 0.094922 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095218 | 0 | 0 | 0.110658 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064025 | 0.071859 | 0 | 0 | 0.104913 | 0 | 0 | 0.065503 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180979 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107543 | 0.060529 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094552 | 0.192629 | 0.080056 | 0 | 0 | 0.105767 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10335 | 0 | 0.08905 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062771 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110189 | 0 | 0.179119 | 0 | 0 | 0.064148 | 0 | 0 | 0.098361 | 0 | 0.081604 | 0 | 0 | 0.167187 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085257 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103303 | 0.344425 | 0 |
suicidewatch | eddiebrockfan53 | 2019/04/29 | Pros and cons for killing myself Pro: I'll stop destroying others along with myself
No more stress
Con: I'll never find out if I could be better | 4.66 | 5.678098 | 4.713276 | 87.09681 | 69.689655 | 7.17931 | 21.396552 | 7.168622 | 0.517676 | 116 | 2 | 23 | 1 | 2 | 36 | 25 | 29 | 0.404 | 0.521 | 0.076 | -0.9117 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 15 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.358531 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.323668 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.370516 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.4485 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.312659 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.338921 | 0.464368 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | qoplthrow | 2019/04/29 | It’s time. It’s late so I don’t really expect any replies. I’m not sure why I’m posting this. I’ve posted here before, but so far haven’t gotten a reply that gives me a real reason to continue living. Maybe there’s some part of me that hopes this time will be different, but mostly I just wanted to say bye.
I’m tired, ... | -0.767654 | 1.188898 | 1.848762 | 97.095732 | 89.194175 | 4.598382 | 13.437702 | 5.985473 | -0.976954 | 358 | 5 | 86 | 3 | 12 | 123 | 69 | 103 | 0.086 | 0.84 | 0.074 | -0.0467 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 9 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 17 | 18 | 5 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 8 | 2 | 5 | 12 | 3 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 6 | 47 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124743 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181919 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15609 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191651 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187719 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175968 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202075 | 0.18163 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182193 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206924 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129566 | 0 | 0 | 0.161977 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184286 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198643 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173406 | 0 | 0.351362 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.41758 | 0.117514 | 0.188603 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145876 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172886 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.213926 | 0.210833 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108195 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165522 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Stutters658 | 2019/04/29 | I feel like im thinking about suicide out of pure boredom. I'm not a sad person per say. Put me around people i like and i'll light up the room making jokes and all. I'm not faking it either, i'm truly happy when im around friends. The thing is, everybody got some things going in their lives. Poeple have kids, or at le... | 0.011559 | 2.255082 | 2.068491 | 94.685797 | 89.060606 | 4.377215 | 19.225865 | 5.865906 | -0.165647 | 1,827 | 55 | 399 | 14 | 61 | 608 | 225 | 495 | 0.083 | 0.816 | 0.101 | 0.4914 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 91 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 6 | 25 | 23 | 2 | 0 | 19 | 0 | 33 | 7 | 0 | 7 | 6 | 65 | 72 | 26 | 3 | 5 | 17 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 1 | 6 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 36 | 15 | 1 | 4 | 9 | 10 | 0 | 13 | 21 | 9 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 7 | 53 | 14 | 50 | 65 | 11 | 67 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 19 | 30 | 0 | 7 | 26 | 245 | 89 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053609 | 0 | 0.041393 | 0.043069 | 0.280415 | 0.314476 | 0.070398 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.051333 | 0 | 0 | 0.340759 | 0.092156 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.031553 | 0.171498 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054756 | 0.044587 | 0 | 0 | 0.058054 | 0.041327 | 0 | 0 | 0.033382 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054079 | 0 | 0.05298 | 0 | 0 | 0.363981 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.045845 | 0 | 0 | 0.034188 | 0 | 0.043611 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.048796 | 0 | 0.026172 | 0.036978 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.044028 | 0 | 0 | 0.079981 | 0 | 0.081129 | 0.049654 | 0.117668 | 0.086829 | 0.124194 | 0 | 0.057021 | 0 | 0.045772 | 0.0551 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109377 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111821 | 0 | 0.051365 | 0.092015 | 0.114532 | 0 | 0.085339 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073121 | 0.075863 | 0.103756 | 0.137118 | 0.13742 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.048977 | 0.069102 | 0.052477 | 0.104002 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052264 | 0 | 0.041315 | 0.055014 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099332 | 0 | 0.054314 | 0.110247 | 0.035075 | 0 | 0.055077 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143538 | 0.045196 | 0 | 0 | 0.146792 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.049528 | 0 | 0.052034 | 0 | 0 | 0.051775 | 0 | 0.066319 | 0.053219 | 0 | 0.055572 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082325 | 0 | 0.10477 | 0.12374 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.036637 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059254 | 0.056618 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.047655 | 0 | 0 | 0.103163 | 0.066333 | 0 | 0 | 0.120729 | 0 | 0.049063 | 0 | 0 | 0.105427 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.03053 | 0.041085 | 0.04152 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.046706 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056133 | 0.037683 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.314476 | 0 |
suicidewatch | i_have_the_gay | 2019/04/29 | I don’t deserve to live Im young compared to most people on this sub, but I still want to die. Over the past 3 days, 3 different people have told me I’m a terrible person and that I deserve to die and no one will ever love me. I’m starting to believe it. I just need someone to care about me, and I know it’s selfish but... | 1.026672 | 2.543081 | 2.850978 | 94.834198 | 79.804598 | 5.765184 | 22.842079 | 6.498294 | 0.337414 | 930 | 30 | 221 | 8 | 23 | 310 | 139 | 261 | 0.187 | 0.658 | 0.155 | -0.8499 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 23 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 14 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 20 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 41 | 49 | 22 | 3 | 8 | 13 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 14 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 7 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 2 | 28 | 9 | 23 | 36 | 6 | 21 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 9 | 5 | 0 | 5 | 13 | 131 | 42 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167104 | 0 | 0 | 0.076368 | 0.111907 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083982 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123052 | 0 | 0 | 0.119238 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.334067 | 0 | 0.115539 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070437 | 0 | 0.09407 | 0 | 0.226703 | 0.11411 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111768 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091238 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072138 | 0.098794 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057062 | 0 | 0 | 0.183215 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096582 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.23595 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113734 | 0.120047 | 0.089028 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109466 | 0.096442 | 0.19331 | 0.091716 | 0 | 0 | 0.092854 | 0.098574 | 0 | 0.072904 | 0 | 0.109725 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127915 | 0 | 0 | 0.080288 | 0.161968 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148019 | 0.083066 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104261 | 0.151437 | 0.095365 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104601 | 0.111115 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069968 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087033 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180693 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.277622 | 0.084082 | 0 | 0 | 0.077305 | 0 | 0.087222 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119467 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164238 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07256 | 0.069983 | 0 | 0.173415 | 0.063686 | 0 | 0 | 0.104363 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090117 | 0.19326 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098553 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | seriousb1tch | 2019/04/29 | Passive suicidal ideation to something more? For years now i have thought that life isn't worth it. I had passive suicidal thoughts of wanting to die, but never really crossed over to the active side... until today. If there was a painless way to die, I would take it with out a moment's hesitation. I want to stop exist... | 4.716883 | 5.597099 | 5.621474 | 81.142085 | 69.464135 | 9.131751 | 32.112078 | 9.354421 | 2.78895 | 943 | 41 | 189 | 19 | 16 | 310 | 130 | 237 | 0.216 | 0.657 | 0.127 | -0.9838 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 30 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 10 | 3 | 2 | 14 | 0 | 19 | 6 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 40 | 37 | 12 | 7 | 9 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 14 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 13 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 5 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 1 | 23 | 3 | 39 | 25 | 7 | 35 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 12 | 2 | 5 | 17 | 131 | 37 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106736 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111861 | 0 | 0.11637 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.331874 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094408 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053896 | 0 | 0 | 0.350296 | 0.097422 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098542 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071446 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.209941 | 0 | 0 | 0.240657 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117927 | 0 | 0.117159 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150577 | 0.052075 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07115 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079036 | 0.08221 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113516 | 0 | 0 | 0.226841 | 0 | 0.118357 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068285 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106716 | 0 | 0 | 0.097037 | 0 | 0 | 0.109414 | 0 | 0.119813 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.246177 | 0 | 0 | 0.075446 | 0 | 0 | 0.089115 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.34978 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080143 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136599 | 0 | 0.169243 | 0 | 0 | 0.101036 | 0 | 0 | 0.072368 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188611 | 0.253821 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119005 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075719 | 0 | 0 | 0.068641 |
suicidewatch | ATOMlC_CHERRY | 2019/04/29 | Cleaning my personal shit before I go I want to clean my computer and get rid of my notebooks and sketchbooks. Wipe my phone and only leave minor things behind. It’s so daunting, and I have no motivation. I just hate the thought of someone going through my things after I’m gone. I’ve already deleted my Facebook and Ins... | 4.162768 | 7.001869 | 4.445 | 80.708404 | 75.610169 | 6.984181 | 31.019774 | 8.076483 | 2.665066 | 518 | 25 | 84 | 9 | 12 | 162 | 86 | 118 | 0.218 | 0.63 | 0.152 | -0.8807 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 16 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 10 | 4 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 6 | 4 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 18 | 19 | 10 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 8 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 13 | 5 | 11 | 14 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 54 | 21 | 2 | 0 | 0.215812 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.201002 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12736 | 0 | 0.14989 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154992 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145428 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174047 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16839 | 0.095163 | 0 | 0.207035 | 0.152775 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179831 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.385731 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088987 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135058 | 0 | 0 | 0.193713 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13853 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159042 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145146 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186969 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154331 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.484036 | 0 | 0 | 0.144603 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157315 | 0 | 0 | 0.214868 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | aidan1478 | 2019/04/29 | Post Attempt Feelings? Hello!
This past week I tried to take my life. Twice. The emergency department released me the first time for some reason, and the second time they admitted me for 48 hours for treatment and to be watched. I don’t know how I feel. I keep getting flashbacks of memories that weren’t there before ... | 3.777196 | 5.887582 | 4.510511 | 83.334444 | 73.691358 | 7.838448 | 27.003527 | 8.63404 | 2.070731 | 668 | 25 | 126 | 13 | 14 | 214 | 102 | 162 | 0.114 | 0.854 | 0.032 | -0.8674 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 19 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 5 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 12 | 0 | 11 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 33 | 26 | 11 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 9 | 0 | 2 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 7 | 4 | 5 | 16 | 2 | 17 | 20 | 5 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 13 | 87 | 23 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127813 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100819 | 0.147737 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12039 | 0 | 0 | 0.122693 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12045 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.282086 | 0 | 0.162251 | 0.291622 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122646 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075332 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143211 | 0.141996 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.256321 | 0 | 0 | 0.158483 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101844 | 0.070443 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153248 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153555 | 0.293115 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156141 | 0.275286 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138092 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.328234 | 0 | 0.148249 | 0 | 0 | 0.163336 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.262526 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108411 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168154 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097894 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115658 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092852 |
suicidewatch | Actionpilot | 2019/04/29 | I feel like my death might be good to people around One of the things that used to help me not committing suicide was the thought of how it would affect people i care about, my parents, my friends, yeah
But lately I've just been reflecting about everything and realized that if I'm not here, things might be easier for t... | 6.67955 | 6.508078 | 6.650928 | 79.114852 | 65.071429 | 10.188497 | 30.573284 | 9.80015 | 2.636751 | 799 | 25 | 156 | 15 | 11 | 254 | 116 | 196 | 0.113 | 0.702 | 0.185 | 0.9133 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 18 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 15 | 16 | 2 | 0 | 8 | 1 | 18 | 2 | 1 | 8 | 3 | 44 | 34 | 15 | 4 | 5 | 8 | 1 | 4 | 4 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 7 | 1 | 1 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 8 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 5 | 25 | 10 | 25 | 24 | 4 | 16 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 10 | 8 | 0 | 4 | 10 | 112 | 34 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101413 | 0.211038 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104357 | 0.112891 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112156 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129295 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113972 | 0 | 0.119549 | 0 | 0.192362 | 0.271787 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.195952 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.212731 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125202 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085001 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135757 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112718 | 0 | 0 | 0.069693 | 0 | 0.143051 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.247819 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084649 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.269059 | 0 | 0 | 0.101221 | 0 | 0.093223 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12425 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085932 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140812 | 0 | 0 | 0.351667 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101054 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.214898 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.277427 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168499 | 0.081257 | 0 | 0.100676 | 0.147892 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109526 | 0 | 0 | 0.074798 | 0 | 0 | 0.154425 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122244 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090085 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | shazbot667 | 2019/04/29 | 30 days I am going to leave in 30 days.
I am just so fucking tired of it all and in 30 days I will officially lose my daughter(due to my choices, let the person I was with, who left me, get me back into weed, which killed any chance of me getting my child back(was sober for 2 years before then). But it was my choice u... | 4.529179 | 4.179721 | 5.157381 | 88.62 | 69.583333 | 8.190476 | 26.309524 | 7.44753 | 1.018452 | 443 | 11 | 103 | 4 | 7 | 143 | 72 | 120 | 0.186 | 0.741 | 0.073 | -0.941 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 7 | 4 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 10 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 15 | 19 | 11 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 15 | 2 | 17 | 13 | 2 | 29 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 9 | 3 | 2 | 17 | 71 | 21 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146687 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112531 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16411 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.254486 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14081 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.42688 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171741 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.458947 | 0.172912 | 0 | 0.188091 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.328715 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183078 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175218 | 0.179793 | 0.169213 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146443 | 0 | 0.185128 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14449 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096492 | 0.190193 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106563 |
suicidewatch | BlueWeavile | 2019/04/29 | I have prepared a suicide note When I finally do get the courage to end my life, I have a suicide note already ready to go. If you'd like to share yours, feel free. Here's mine:
I suppose I should start with some explanation. Suicide tends to leave people with a lot of questions so I hope to put those to rest as best ... | 5.918067 | 5.460744 | 6.350444 | 81.593 | 66.711111 | 9.155556 | 30.888889 | 8.488131 | 2.136289 | 1,753 | 58 | 360 | 22 | 25 | 569 | 213 | 450 | 0.107 | 0.693 | 0.2 | 0.9935 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 68 | 0 | 10 | 2 | 5 | 10 | 32 | 1 | 1 | 12 | 0 | 60 | 7 | 0 | 4 | 13 | 82 | 92 | 36 | 5 | 19 | 16 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 15 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 21 | 19 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 0 | 6 | 7 | 16 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 4 | 53 | 24 | 64 | 53 | 16 | 54 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 2 | 21 | 23 | 0 | 17 | 27 | 268 | 74 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083632 | 0.060606 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.051537 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075159 | 0.105982 | 0.077652 | 0.062365 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.046198 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079533 | 0.134053 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.231806 | 0 | 0 | 0.065283 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060509 | 0 | 0 | 0.097751 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077555 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063309 | 0 | 0.201371 | 0.156614 | 0 | 0.050056 | 0.137105 | 0.063853 | 0 | 0.068111 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076639 | 0 | 0 | 0.08302 | 0.138534 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.039595 | 0 | 0.086142 | 0.063566 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161351 | 0.067889 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.050798 | 0 | 0 | 0.150545 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067362 | 0 | 0 | 0.04165 | 0.061776 | 0 | 0.160493 | 0.164683 | 0 | 0.214119 | 0.111075 | 0.075957 | 0.267681 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06443 | 0.136799 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165106 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080397 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161097 | 0 | 0.056194 | 0.175352 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.290874 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.051354 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105081 | 0 | 0 | 0.16638 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076186 | 0.084898 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.04855 | 0.07792 | 0.074829 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060392 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058344 | 0 | 0 | 0.053642 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079228 | 0 | 0.248692 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056982 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.048561 | 0 | 0.060166 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130909 | 0 | 0.062531 | 0.0447 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055173 | 0 | 0 | 0.269181 | 0 | 0 | 0.048804 |
suicidewatch | Dooferaccount | 2019/04/29 | I feel like tonight I might try to hang myself again But maybe I won’t? I don’t know what to do with myself | -1.437733 | 0.405022 | 0.404 | 107.008667 | 91.4 | 3.333333 | 12.333333 | 3.1291 | -1.971267 | 84 | 1 | 23 | 0 | 3 | 27 | 18 | 25 | 0 | 0.878 | 0.122 | 0.3612 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 1 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 16 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.255958 | 0.361641 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.278203 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.247312 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.508562 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.537015 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.343687 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | throwaway9876214 | 2019/04/29 | tired of how life's going i thought i could change my life around when i went to college. once that blew up in my face, i thought i could change my life around when i went back home. the explosion is still continuing.
i live with roaches, ticks, and dirty food. i can't get myself to do anything but stay online until 4... | 0.772041 | 2.779538 | 2.359891 | 95.598204 | 82.877551 | 5.280544 | 20.004082 | 6.427356 | -0.057664 | 540 | 15 | 126 | 5 | 15 | 176 | 94 | 147 | 0.218 | 0.661 | 0.121 | -0.9349 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 10 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 14 | 8 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 19 | 27 | 8 | 2 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 2 | 3 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 24 | 2 | 18 | 19 | 1 | 27 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 12 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 81 | 29 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122041 | 0.264043 | 0 | 0 | 0.139336 | 0.114036 | 0 | 0.090404 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.313771 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.236816 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153916 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173811 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131353 | 0 | 0 | 0.097953 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074987 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179329 | 0 | 0.114579 | 0 | 0.154965 | 0 | 0.084284 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14876 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147168 | 0.131819 | 0.164076 | 0 | 0.081504 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.314253 | 0 | 0 | 0.130955 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13385 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157722 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157938 | 0 | 0.112791 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140195 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158072 | 0.118435 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098526 | 0 | 0 | 0.235473 | 0 | 0.170453 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128087 | 0 | 0 | 0.087473 | 0.117716 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.274958 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Samabanana1 | 2019/04/29 | One month. Not for any other reason than brcause I forgot I promised to cat sit for a friend.
As soon as my credit card comes in this week I will purchase the means/mode.
Then it's just a waiting game.
My mom made a cute and short lived attempt to pull me back this weekend.
She got all excited about scrapbooking an... | 0.648682 | 3.060057 | 1.76462 | 96.764783 | 87.905109 | 4.683383 | 19.007729 | 6.227272 | -0.193915 | 525 | 15 | 117 | 5 | 17 | 165 | 96 | 137 | 0.05 | 0.802 | 0.147 | 0.8137 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 25 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 11 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 19 | 21 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 6 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 3 | 2 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 8 | 0 | 21 | 11 | 16 | 12 | 2 | 20 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 76 | 26 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137451 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155421 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.231176 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174112 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190545 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171927 | 0 | 0 | 0.312321 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114872 | 0 | 0.161657 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.199051 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111082 | 0 | 0 | 0.21402 | 0 | 0 | 0.142766 | 0 | 0 | 0.356958 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191255 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.236725 | 0.161333 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15589 | 0 | 0 | 0.18968 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.212095 | 0 | 0.136964 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.207817 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160464 | 0 | 0.232312 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162132 | 0 | 0.181734 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | topazuu | 2019/04/29 | Global warming anxiety has been hitting me hard for the past week. I feel. absolutely horrible. To know I'll die before I get a chance to even live out my middle age. To die before I get a chance to move to Poland with my beautiful friend of 5 years. That was our plan. On the day I flew in we would kiss each other on t... | 2.303694 | 3.730482 | 3.624505 | 91.043694 | 76.027027 | 6.735135 | 22.693694 | 7.38713 | 0.648034 | 828 | 23 | 187 | 10 | 18 | 271 | 137 | 222 | 0.123 | 0.748 | 0.129 | -0.1459 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 19 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 7 | 11 | 1 | 2 | 8 | 0 | 16 | 5 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 33 | 37 | 10 | 2 | 6 | 7 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 11 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 6 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 8 | 28 | 6 | 33 | 24 | 2 | 25 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 11 | 11 | 0 | 5 | 11 | 115 | 39 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100275 | 0 | 0 | 0.091653 | 0 | 0 | 0.116688 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109445 | 0.079905 | 0 | 0.223077 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133846 | 0 | 0.133644 | 0 | 0.138664 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104656 | 0 | 0 | 0.084535 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.272079 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.307247 | 0 | 0.15201 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086576 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1475 | 0.066277 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101271 | 0 | 0.342417 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144398 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117421 | 0 | 0 | 0.139331 | 0 | 0.155329 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147972 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072038 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115745 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087496 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139316 | 0 | 0.097193 | 0.101096 | 0.126597 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137545 | 0 | 0 | 0.099691 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12513 | 0.090874 | 0 | 0 | 0.143885 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131233 | 0 | 0.208906 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111063 | 0.100911 | 0 | 0 | 0.092778 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150054 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098555 | 0 | 0.114569 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104062 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105144 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150734 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093115 | 0 | 0 | 0.168821 |
suicidewatch | _jazzabelle | 2019/04/29 | can anyone help me.. i am beyond through. i want to end it tonight. i have no one. tonight will be my final night on this earth. i’m screaming for help and no one hears me. | -2.238494 | -0.739462 | -0.452896 | 107.724054 | 110.621622 | 2.114286 | 16.096525 | 3.1291 | -1.505553 | 130 | 4 | 33 | 0 | 7 | 41 | 29 | 37 | 0.172 | 0.663 | 0.165 | -0.0772 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 5 | 6 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 23 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.238349 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.301916 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.373415 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.384194 | 0 | 0.456966 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.31989 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.461975 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.201058 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | MilkyGrav | 2019/04/29 | I want to kill myself tonight I can’t do anything right. This first year of college has been a shitshow. My grades are horrible and I feel like I can’t do anything right. I’m a failure to my parents before me. I will forever be a burden to them if I keep on living. They give their all every day but I’m a lazy fat fuck.... | -0.041676 | 2.062198 | 2.194886 | 94.870568 | 87.229167 | 4.324242 | 23.310606 | 5.565023 | 0.255971 | 347 | 14 | 77 | 2 | 11 | 117 | 64 | 96 | 0.248 | 0.646 | 0.106 | -0.9471 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 3 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 10 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 16 | 22 | 7 | 2 | 4 | 4 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 15 | 1 | 9 | 18 | 1 | 11 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 9 | 51 | 17 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.474138 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163426 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12386 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161816 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194219 | 0.137205 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163363 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177553 | 0 | 0.184238 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170708 | 0.424964 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093829 | 0 | 0.169589 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142407 | 0.148126 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.213256 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.32803 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160568 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152471 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.22656 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123678 |
suicidewatch | shygirl66 | 2019/04/29 | just thinking last week i was put on yet another 5150 but they reversed it because i talked my way out of it. i’d much rather be dead then be in another hospital, so i’m going to do it. i’m going to this time. | 0.679468 | 1.94785 | 3.554202 | 90.50875 | 80.06383 | 7.253191 | 24.515957 | 8.076483 | 1.267047 | 162 | 6 | 39 | 3 | 4 | 58 | 36 | 47 | 0.127 | 0.873 | 0 | -0.7876 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 9 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 6 | 6 | 1 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 25 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.633844 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184241 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.343537 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.246364 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.222179 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.303832 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.242927 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193661 | 0 | 0 | 0.176237 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.239902 | 0.242437 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | layla606 | 2019/04/29 | Please please help I really need someone to talk to | 3.352 | 5.935842 | 3.65 | 86.705 | 77 | 8 | 20 | 8.841846 | 1.413 | 42 | 1 | 8 | 1 | 1 | 13 | 8 | 10 | 0 | 0.451 | 0.549 | 0.743 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.243245 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.269086 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.796711 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.232483 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.307484 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.291686 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | OkCabinet79gobyebye | 2019/04/29 | Bye So, by the time this is read i "might" be dead. Goodbye. | -4.225769 | -5.455845 | -1.614808 | 112.428558 | 148.230769 | 1.3 | 10.942308 | 3.1291 | -2.352369 | 43 | 1 | 12 | 0 | 4 | 14 | 13 | 13 | 0.281 | 0.719 | 0 | -0.6486 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 8 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.675553 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.63698 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.371328 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | ncaruso1118 | 2019/04/29 | I almost oiled my ass in bed Hello! My name is Victor Chindemi and I almost oiled my ass in my bed. I called my friend GamingMachine and i talked to him for 30 minutes how I was depressed in my bed. I have walked into my brother many times jerking his millimeter wiener in his room. I used pizza grease to jerk my dick o... | 2.358061 | 4.759488 | 3.764653 | 85.526776 | 79.510204 | 6.36898 | 22.044898 | 7.554174 | 1.000499 | 393 | 12 | 76 | 6 | 10 | 129 | 61 | 98 | 0.218 | 0.752 | 0.03 | -0.9586 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 14 | 7 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 22 | 1 | 17 | 6 | 0 | 17 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 10 | 13 | 3 | 2 | 3 | 51 | 25 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.500104 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.207782 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.254985 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.430156 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126263 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192928 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.25317 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.234339 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159973 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.208772 | 0 | 0 | 0.285862 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.20071 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160006 | 0 | 0 | 0.14561 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.215672 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | unforward | 2019/04/29 | If you can laugh you can still live Thats it. | -0.943636 | 0.21806 | 0.5 | 111.07 | 84.454545 | 4.4 | 11 | 3.1291 | -2.3058 | 35 | 0 | 11 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 9 | 11 | 0 | 0.714 | 0.286 | 0.5574 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 8 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.74167 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.670765 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | thedarkislonely | 2019/04/29 | There's no point in living if living's more painful than dying. I don't think I can do it anymore. No matter how much I try to cheer myself up, nothing works. Nobody cares about me because I'm ugly, fat, and annoying. I have no future for me. I've already accepted the fact that I'm going to die alone and it stings. I d... | 3.404083 | 3.673271 | 5.151017 | 85.541632 | 72.104693 | 8.466025 | 25.497192 | 8.515129 | 1.458816 | 1,008 | 28 | 226 | 16 | 18 | 346 | 139 | 277 | 0.254 | 0.637 | 0.108 | -0.9917 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 37 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 15 | 17 | 3 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 19 | 7 | 1 | 6 | 5 | 42 | 40 | 24 | 5 | 6 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 14 | 10 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 15 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 25 | 10 | 31 | 36 | 9 | 25 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 9 | 0 | 7 | 12 | 143 | 39 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.308345 | 0.109513 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098418 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060495 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087769 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101181 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.308983 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11163 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131093 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.051848 | 0 | 0.225599 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098262 | 0 | 0.105642 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066518 | 0.104851 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054539 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140191 | 0.048483 | 0 | 0.438149 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084369 | 0.089567 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072952 | 0 | 0.076539 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190445 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067247 | 0 | 0.316792 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206399 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187626 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063575 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100435 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076399 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108551 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079764 | 0.173478 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13186 | 0.127177 | 0 | 0 | 0.057867 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134753 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109298 | 0.081882 | 0.058534 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089548 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10762 | 0.072247 | 0 | 0.101133 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063907 |
suicidewatch | Responsible_Thing | 2019/04/29 | Dont Know What To Do Anymore I gave up everything for my wife who has PTSD. Its been months of being screamed at for no reason and I've been seperated for months with no reconciliation in site. I was a happy guy before this and now Im on Zoloft and daily thinking if just killing myself because no one ever wants to list... | 2.988646 | 5.251035 | 3.934583 | 85.852083 | 76.604167 | 6.35 | 26.291667 | 7.38713 | 1.354092 | 389 | 15 | 76 | 5 | 9 | 125 | 72 | 96 | 0.207 | 0.673 | 0.12 | -0.8718 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 9 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 17 | 17 | 6 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 4 | 9 | 3 | 15 | 11 | 0 | 9 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 53 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198671 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122118 | 0 | 0.170464 | 0 | 0 | 0.177173 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.210039 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.207908 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.234782 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181207 | 0 | 0 | 0.180041 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101291 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154772 | 0 | 0.104663 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198355 | 0 | 0.213252 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.216388 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.221632 | 0 | 0.110095 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141497 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.319798 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135747 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.234172 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.20597 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159308 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.225176 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128362 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.230247 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.236316 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Deadbitex | 2019/04/29 | I'm going to set myself on fire at sunrise. Why not just shoot yourself or something you ask? Because I don't wanna go quick. I want to feel every last cell in my body die as I burn to a goddamn crisp. I want my fucking asshole family to wake up to the smell of goddamn burnt flesh. I want the last thing for me to hear ... | 1.625455 | 3.425252 | 3.266507 | 91.23555 | 79 | 5.9311 | 24.397129 | 6.836019 | 0.782669 | 779 | 28 | 170 | 8 | 19 | 258 | 130 | 209 | 0.18 | 0.72 | 0.101 | -0.9602 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 17 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 9 | 10 | 4 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 10 | 6 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 28 | 25 | 11 | 3 | 7 | 8 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 9 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 6 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 27 | 4 | 29 | 19 | 4 | 27 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 9 | 1 | 4 | 15 | 106 | 36 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130548 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102976 | 0.150897 | 0 | 0 | 0.137679 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089775 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163586 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152845 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123027 | 0 | 0.130439 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124083 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.277669 | 0 | 0.074465 | 0 | 0 | 0.161329 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13615 | 0 | 0 | 0.167396 | 0 | 0.117787 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156774 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165986 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162934 | 0 | 0 | 0.360138 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143899 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098305 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117551 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156708 | 0 | 0.163528 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158784 | 0 | 0 | 0.148049 | 0 | 0.156642 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117116 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113377 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123126 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097841 | 0 | 0 | 0.116917 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.434323 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13289 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094838 |
suicidewatch | dovah9 | 2019/04/29 | I dont know how to keep going I'm so ready. I am so ready to just stop existing. I just cannot do this anymore. I just want to get hit by a bus or get in a car accident, or just die in my fucking sleep. I dont know how to do this anymore. I dont want to exist, and I havent wanted to since I can remember. I just cant fi... | -1.36848 | -0.347002 | 2.276438 | 98.49576 | 85.229508 | 5.41997 | 18.467958 | 6.112484 | -0.455928 | 376 | 9 | 107 | 3 | 11 | 140 | 51 | 122 | 0.195 | 0.745 | 0.059 | -0.9513 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 14 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 14 | 4 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 27 | 32 | 12 | 1 | 7 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 18 | 0 | 10 | 31 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 3 | 69 | 22 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.405612 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.227662 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14149 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.479338 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.241498 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124604 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.252072 | 0.213682 | 0 | 0.07748 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121178 | 0 | 0 | 0.149848 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096295 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.404352 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092382 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154437 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112775 | 0 | 0.13643 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113979 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.241235 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | TillWeGoNow | 2019/04/29 | Im driving off tonight and probably not returning home I dont think i wont to live anymore. I lost a family member, i lost my girlfriend, i lost my best friend and now i dont see a reason in living anymore. I simply dont. You think if i crash into another vehicle into be a quick death or a long drawn out one? You think... | 0.69124 | 2.259 | 3.328099 | 90.793967 | 80.983471 | 6.383471 | 21.743802 | 7.348243 | 0.668745 | 427 | 13 | 98 | 6 | 11 | 150 | 77 | 121 | 0.099 | 0.775 | 0.126 | 0.6042 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 11 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 18 | 18 | 6 | 1 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 19 | 2 | 14 | 12 | 4 | 18 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 8 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 67 | 22 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130457 | 0 | 0 | 0.246767 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130563 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.43743 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128551 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117285 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09612 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083391 | 0 | 0.124795 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134386 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135174 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.439432 | 0.110101 | 0 | 0.139185 | 0.407431 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099304 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119377 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084305 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118765 | 0.086252 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134137 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079702 | 0.255833 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09914 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.239155 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073381 | 0.098752 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | NoDestinyHere | 2019/04/29 | Beyond the veil I have no more hopes, no more directions, no more desire to exist. I realize I've never been able to fit in this world, in this experience. I don't like it, I don't feel safe, I don't feel at home, I feel prisoner of my body and of the earth, where pain and sorrow never end, everywhere we look at. At le... | 3.386582 | 3.186241 | 4.963396 | 88.523258 | 72.018868 | 8.032511 | 25.269956 | 7.610547 | 0.998674 | 750 | 19 | 178 | 8 | 13 | 255 | 118 | 212 | 0.209 | 0.654 | 0.137 | -0.9356 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 30 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 12 | 2 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 16 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 30 | 24 | 13 | 2 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 16 | 8 | 1 | 2 | 8 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 10 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 8 | 26 | 7 | 27 | 17 | 7 | 28 | 3 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 17 | 1 | 4 | 9 | 130 | 42 | 1 | 0.161392 | 0 | 0 | 0.175942 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167154 | 0.178101 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137333 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179271 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104085 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187164 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.285892 | 0 | 0 | 0.319795 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157873 | 0 | 0 | 0.326419 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.29502 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16189 | 0.160299 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178557 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078848 | 0.161758 | 0 | 0 | 0.135529 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118642 | 0 | 0.248952 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15486 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109364 | 0.122746 | 0.171733 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168621 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.21915 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128106 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | WorthySparkleMan | 2019/04/29 | I'm killing myself tomorrrow It hasn't been getting better. Even when life gets better it feels like I go two steps back soon after. There's no long term contentment. I feel terminally mebtally ill with no actual cure. Maybe that's life, or maybe that's just me. Regardless I don't want it continuing.
I love you guys, ... | 0.660682 | 3.084759 | 2.414091 | 92.003636 | 88.090909 | 6.836364 | 19.363636 | 8.000946 | 0.908623 | 338 | 10 | 75 | 8 | 11 | 111 | 64 | 88 | 0.2 | 0.576 | 0.224 | 0.656 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 15 | 4 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 13 | 7 | 6 | 13 | 1 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 42 | 21 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181276 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142839 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.328581 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122694 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175119 | 0 | 0.187853 | 0.132708 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143519 | 0 | 0.194105 | 0 | 0.105572 | 0 | 0.14857 | 0 | 0 | 0.183933 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.205517 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.262417 | 0.090754 | 0 | 0 | 0.164393 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.50297 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.373244 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139669 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108319 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181462 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109567 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | itsevgeniya | 2019/04/29 | Few weeks ago, I thought I’d die.
Few weeks ago, I thought I’d die. I thought that I’m going to kill myself. I had everything planned and I wanted it to end. I still don't know or don't remember what stopped me. I've never told anyone about it and I don't think I want to, I don't even have anyone to really to talk t... | 0.836513 | 3.102189 | 2.280713 | 94.663548 | 84.728155 | 4.747657 | 21.577881 | 6.046908 | 0.172191 | 778 | 26 | 167 | 6 | 23 | 251 | 120 | 206 | 0.189 | 0.702 | 0.109 | -0.9522 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 29 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 9 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 16 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 34 | 40 | 9 | 4 | 4 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 1 | 31 | 4 | 18 | 31 | 5 | 21 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 6 | 0 | 3 | 14 | 106 | 43 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.296236 | 0 | 0 | 0.115372 | 0 | 0.089083 | 0.09269 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110474 | 0.155781 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067906 | 0 | 0 | 0.251009 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117842 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071841 | 0 | 0.095945 | 0 | 0.231222 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097483 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098663 | 0 | 0 | 0.073576 | 0 | 0.093856 | 0 | 0.100115 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101814 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063309 | 0 | 0.089093 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098507 | 0.118583 | 0.099789 | 0 | 0.114324 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149332 | 0 | 0 | 0.110641 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116268 | 0 | 0 | 0.123243 | 0 | 0.18366 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11391 | 0.078682 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094705 | 0.100539 | 0 | 0.148715 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112261 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085915 | 0 | 0.11847 | 0 | 0 | 0.106887 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075485 | 0.084721 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077228 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071363 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126189 | 0.095131 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092148 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078846 | 0 | 0.088961 | 0.093132 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121849 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179071 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142756 | 0 | 0.353743 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106443 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091913 | 0.197112 | 0 | 0.17871 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113522 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071735 |
suicidewatch | thisispaul090 | 2019/04/29 | I'm going 2 die tonight I'm going to drown myself in the lake near my house. My plan is tie weights on my feet with a belly full of whiskey and Valium. I'm nothing and no-one. Bye | -2.045285 | -0.196521 | 0.889634 | 100.855264 | 99 | 3.708943 | 16.589431 | 5.461319 | -0.786613 | 139 | 4 | 35 | 1 | 6 | 48 | 33 | 41 | 0.187 | 0.813 | 0 | -0.8225 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 6 | 6 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 16 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.420071 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.460062 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.467032 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.388372 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.492881 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | bigmansisfucked | 2019/04/29 | Just wanted to write stuff down. About four months ago I threw my life down the drain, my mental health is fucked. I'm a horrible person, and I'm not just saying that. I've lost my girlfriend who I loved a lot, I've had to move out because my family don't want me there anymore. I have no one to talk to, I'm too fucked ... | 3.574863 | 4.785475 | 4.891328 | 84.081573 | 72.450704 | 8.36727 | 25.143528 | 8.841846 | 1.744913 | 1,100 | 33 | 224 | 21 | 21 | 366 | 141 | 284 | 0.192 | 0.702 | 0.106 | -0.9774 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 28 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 10 | 15 | 4 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 23 | 10 | 3 | 9 | 2 | 52 | 62 | 10 | 2 | 9 | 7 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 22 | 10 | 0 | 3 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 7 | 9 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 8 | 34 | 6 | 31 | 53 | 6 | 22 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 4 | 12 | 12 | 3 | 4 | 6 | 146 | 56 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082472 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142347 | 0 | 0.092268 | 0.065054 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170144 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.208699 | 0.074283 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096558 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06145 | 0 | 0.078388 | 0.088901 | 0.250848 | 0 | 0.087707 | 0 | 0.282255 | 0.066466 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07188 | 0.172023 | 0 | 0.08925 | 0.052875 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082273 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095483 | 0.098894 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082696 | 0.102932 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13143 | 0.045453 | 0 | 0.164308 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101561 | 0.079097 | 0.08397 | 0 | 0.372619 | 0 | 0.093469 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09376 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074262 | 0.197768 | 0 | 0.068986 | 0 | 0.089856 | 0 | 0 | 0.091157 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126089 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.258002 | 0.081237 | 0 | 0 | 0.08795 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119204 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073987 | 0.093147 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095502 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106506 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14956 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.238459 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096855 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.219504 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167904 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094813 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | 420kittenlove | 2019/04/29 | Tonight I am going to finally try blood letting - nobody is home and I feel like this will be the best wAy to commit suicide - so yay | 1.037778 | 3.342263 | 2.779259 | 91.166667 | 84.185185 | 5.081481 | 23.814815 | 6.427356 | 0.724615 | 103 | 4 | 21 | 1 | 3 | 34 | 25 | 27 | 0.121 | 0.539 | 0.339 | 0.796 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 7 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 2 | 4 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 14 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.371769 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179122 | 0.25308 | 0 | 0.388069 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.201331 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.355347 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.36225 | 0 | 0.173071 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.387498 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.240516 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.281191 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | GrimWolf_Gamer | 2019/04/29 | I just feel the need to say... You all matter. You can make a difference in the world, and be an inspiration to others with your story. Those who bring you down are not worthy of your time, and although you feel alone, you are not. I know it’s hard, but you have to fight. Show all those sorry people who hurt you that y... | 1.198427 | 3.649453 | 1.385628 | 100.366696 | 85.103896 | 4.720924 | 16.347763 | 6.139982 | -0.693407 | 600 | 12 | 136 | 5 | 18 | 178 | 86 | 154 | 0.115 | 0.667 | 0.218 | 0.9652 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 30 | 0 | 16 | 0 | 4 | 7 | 11 | 2 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 17 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 36 | 30 | 12 | 0 | 5 | 16 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 15 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 7 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 19 | 6 | 14 | 24 | 2 | 12 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 25 | 5 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 95 | 34 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157905 | 0 | 0 | 0.126861 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125463 | 0.135724 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155445 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121729 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159291 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.291368 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154179 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173296 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150962 | 0 | 0 | 0.136576 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163214 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167579 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144263 | 0.10177 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.339146 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.211396 | 0 | 0 | 0.502073 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121244 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170669 | 0 | 0.325009 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122543 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101289 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088902 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | ecinahs96 | 2019/04/29 | I tried, but I just don't belong here. This world is just not made for me. I'm the shy loner in the corner who sits and observes the rest of the world. I've never, ever wanted to be a part of it. I'm a 90's kid and my generation honestly embarrasses me with its self obsession and greed. I figure my behaviour is mostly ... | 5.64681 | 6.856171 | 6.395025 | 75.237422 | 67.555133 | 9.190452 | 30.960921 | 9.444779 | 2.882655 | 1,104 | 43 | 195 | 22 | 18 | 363 | 162 | 263 | 0.134 | 0.716 | 0.15 | 0.857 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 28 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 14 | 13 | 2 | 2 | 16 | 0 | 14 | 4 | 1 | 4 | 4 | 43 | 30 | 12 | 1 | 4 | 7 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 10 | 12 | 2 | 2 | 7 | 3 | 1 | 3 | 9 | 5 | 0 | 5 | 9 | 3 | 26 | 8 | 28 | 19 | 7 | 32 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 13 | 0 | 1 | 15 | 136 | 36 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116497 | 0.082137 | 0.12036 | 0 | 0.104572 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071608 | 0 | 0.199914 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075758 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19626 | 0 | 0.104042 | 0 | 0 | 0.465521 | 0.106257 | 0 | 0.112246 | 0.105573 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178187 | 0 | 0 | 0.128681 | 0.107364 | 0.199837 | 0 | 0 | 0.090756 | 0 | 0.061372 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116569 | 0.104411 | 0.129962 | 0 | 0 | 0.095753 | 0 | 0 | 0.12763 | 0 | 0 | 0.057389 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.222303 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093762 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090599 | 0.113452 | 0 | 0 | 0.115094 | 0.112714 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159199 | 0.17868 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127207 | 0 | 0 | 0.102569 | 0.12273 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075253 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122545 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119744 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110713 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156082 | 0 | 0.115412 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.23926 | 0 | 0.11475 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.207858 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108895 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075646 |
suicidewatch | S2Pac | 2019/04/29 | I thought I was gone I tried to commit suicide 8 days ago.
The stars aligned & everything just fell into place, I saw my chance to exit this life unnoticed and I went for it. My weed dealer text me to say he had some Xanax, so I went and grabbed 64mg thinking it would be enough. I woke up in the middle of the nigh... | 3.412979 | 4.839778 | 4.38876 | 86.681922 | 73.160363 | 6.939231 | 26.87909 | 7.436933 | 1.358881 | 2,577 | 92 | 523 | 29 | 51 | 836 | 329 | 661 | 0.168 | 0.743 | 0.089 | -0.9963 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 74 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 43 | 21 | 2 | 2 | 33 | 0 | 51 | 28 | 8 | 5 | 9 | 92 | 99 | 43 | 6 | 6 | 18 | 3 | 6 | 2 | 1 | 6 | 12 | 5 | 5 | 1 | 20 | 28 | 5 | 2 | 19 | 4 | 2 | 15 | 18 | 10 | 1 | 4 | 42 | 17 | 68 | 11 | 85 | 46 | 10 | 98 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 3 | 24 | 35 | 1 | 18 | 51 | 352 | 88 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130102 | 0 | 0 | 0.076004 | 0.080982 | 0 | 0 | 0.079512 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068947 | 0.056428 | 0 | 0.044735 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064903 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149868 | 0.083933 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063214 | 0 | 0 | 0.082307 | 0 | 0 | 0.08061 | 0.236635 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076162 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143778 | 0.170206 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151652 | 0 | 0.19388 | 0.265523 | 0 | 0 | 0.131907 | 0 | 0.138361 | 0 | 0.074211 | 0 | 0.070461 | 0 | 0 | 0.062421 | 0 | 0.080463 | 0.056697 | 0.067843 | 0.076681 | 0 | 0.083412 | 0.061552 | 0.117385 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075314 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098376 | 0 | 0.147222 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076595 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120991 | 0.059818 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075041 | 0.259169 | 0.071704 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061625 | 0 | 0.080108 | 0 | 0.066233 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147855 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077996 | 0 | 0 | 0.113198 | 0.070875 | 0.078045 | 0.068867 | 0 | 0 | 0.083549 | 0.15401 | 0 | 0 | 0.111625 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076671 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082208 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069806 | 0.116717 | 0.073471 | 0 | 0.058478 | 0.066807 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060705 | 0.082487 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056495 | 0.145159 | 0 | 0.051942 | 0 | 0.175815 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160542 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055176 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.047022 | 0.0721 | 0.058259 | 0.042791 | 0 | 0 | 0.140244 | 0 | 0.14947 | 0.079821 | 0.143372 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058249 | 0.058865 | 0.089363 | 0 | 0.136057 | 0.132437 | 0 | 0 | 0.07074 | 0 | 0.053425 | 0.074526 | 0 | 0.156391 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Faefors | 2019/04/29 | Suicide is close. I have tried so hard recently, tried to get hobbies and I do enjoy them a bit but have no one to do then with, I am extremely lonely. I hate my job and every second I am there. I’ve attempted suicide once and I am the one that should have never survived but I did, I’m 21 and totally done with life. I... | -0.911457 | 0.984573 | 1.584071 | 99.187529 | 89.176991 | 4.892852 | 16.656909 | 6.297961 | -0.539611 | 388 | 9 | 98 | 4 | 13 | 132 | 66 | 113 | 0.254 | 0.629 | 0.117 | -0.952 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 6 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 15 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 16 | 22 | 12 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 3 | 16 | 2 | 7 | 17 | 3 | 13 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 65 | 18 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171133 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.303277 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160412 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132071 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.286538 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163793 | 0 | 0.089086 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.421258 | 0.154761 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155691 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155553 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127774 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110719 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171114 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115231 | 0 | 0.120897 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166936 | 0.318659 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154774 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.342924 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.319274 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100943 |
suicidewatch | Zer00000000009 | 2019/04/29 | Making plans Throwaway. I'm starting to really put solid plans together. Always had ideation but I'm putting together a real plan.
I'm just trying to figure out how to make this go as smoothly as it can. So that it's not my parents, the only people that are going to care that I'll be gone soon, that find me and so th... | 1.184905 | 3.271064 | 3.123275 | 90.25871 | 81.848101 | 6.228481 | 20.634494 | 7.41366 | 0.6661 | 593 | 17 | 126 | 9 | 16 | 199 | 90 | 158 | 0.172 | 0.728 | 0.1 | -0.9394 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 14 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 13 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 26 | 31 | 18 | 1 | 3 | 7 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 3 | 7 | 2 | 19 | 21 | 3 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 84 | 20 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.266559 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122535 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123166 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174871 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163311 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143956 | 0 | 0 | 0.360486 | 0.08099 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146398 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.273096 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180686 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.226275 | 0 | 0.160539 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136176 | 0 | 0 | 0.320757 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10854 | 0.121821 | 0 | 0 | 0.177857 | 0 | 0 | 0.111046 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180575 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.322043 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182316 | 0.205226 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113374 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140001 | 0.147469 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108749 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094476 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Route333 | 2019/04/29 | only respond if... ...you can give me the kind of help i'm asking for.
I'm 40, physically healthy, smart, normal looking, have a decent job and decent home. Yet, I've been suicidally depressed since I was about 10. I've also been in therapy since then (many many expensive types of therapy.)
I basically have no fr... | 2.600795 | 4.805413 | 4.038248 | 84.918873 | 77.598485 | 7.405818 | 26.090303 | 8.364918 | 1.867753 | 1,051 | 41 | 208 | 21 | 25 | 347 | 152 | 264 | 0.148 | 0.713 | 0.139 | -0.7694 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 53 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 3 | 13 | 16 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 22 | 4 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 38 | 48 | 20 | 3 | 7 | 10 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 20 | 17 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 4 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 23 | 9 | 29 | 36 | 6 | 29 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 31 | 13 | 0 | 5 | 12 | 134 | 43 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0.10277 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168437 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098453 | 0 | 0.098945 | 0 | 0.087932 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181412 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088731 | 0.100631 | 0 | 0 | 0.09928 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162729 | 0 | 0.220086 | 0.101026 | 0 | 0.088331 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093128 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.211767 | 0 | 0.105637 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104507 | 0.093607 | 0.116513 | 0.109667 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093199 | 0.176872 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190098 | 0 | 0.070297 | 0.213541 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.232251 | 0.078088 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103184 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080095 | 0.11206 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100861 | 0 | 0 | 0.10077 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174232 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178462 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149082 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.23039 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084646 | 0.092048 | 0 | 0.240869 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122817 | 0 | 0 | 0.100631 | 0 | 0.143001 | 0 | 0 | 0.109634 | 0 | 0.090956 | 0 | 0.086894 | 0.062116 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153338 | 0 | 0.321968 | 0 | 0.115143 | 0 | 0.067818 |
suicidewatch | JustinVincent | 2019/04/29 | Fuck my existence! Like Jesus Christ! Why am I on this shit world!? I’m such a fucking screw up! I’m the biggest waste, shithead on this goddamn earth! I just want to fucking die! Don’t care if it’s painful, I’m already suffering from this bullshit! | -0.283222 | 1.804905 | 1.208667 | 96.292111 | 104 | 3.822222 | 25.555556 | 5.822114 | 0.805889 | 195 | 10 | 40 | 2 | 9 | 62 | 40 | 50 | 0.488 | 0.409 | 0.102 | -0.9824 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 10 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 5 | 10 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 5 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 19 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.288676 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.266713 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.271493 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.725519 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127802 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.278355 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.268523 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154295 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.236048 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | JesusCrisis7 | 2019/04/29 | I don’t know how much longer I’ll be alive It could be 80 more years. It could be one more day.
I’m 20 years old and if I explained to you how fucked I am you wouldn’t believe me.
Nobody cares about me unfortunately. I wish I had just one person to keep me company. I wouldn’t even tell them my problems really, I’d ... | 0.114868 | 2.051056 | 2.243947 | 95.895132 | 84.921053 | 5.905263 | 17.394737 | 7.168622 | -0.126995 | 271 | 6 | 67 | 4 | 8 | 91 | 50 | 76 | 0.124 | 0.731 | 0.145 | 0.144 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 17 | 18 | 4 | 0 | 7 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 14 | 2 | 3 | 10 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 5 | 42 | 16 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.262499 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.237548 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.372046 | 0 | 0 | 0.150259 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153887 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.215395 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.256664 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.207092 | 0 | 0 | 0.128045 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113827 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171274 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.244483 | 0 | 0.315759 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.203437 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.222939 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149259 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.203643 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.267926 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.300075 |
suicidewatch | KelsInKentucky | 2019/04/29 | I wish I had succeeded two years ago. I have struggled with depression for as long as I can remember. Two years ago I was in probably the worst situation I’ve ever gotten myself in, and I tried to commit suicide. My attempt was obviously not successful, but I wake up every. single. day. wishing that I had ignored the p... | 1.741538 | 4.005563 | 3.870192 | 84.681058 | 80.923077 | 6.464103 | 24.49359 | 7.645422 | 1.434367 | 606 | 23 | 118 | 10 | 16 | 207 | 96 | 156 | 0.219 | 0.598 | 0.183 | -0.6688 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 24 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 16 | 1 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 17 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 28 | 27 | 10 | 1 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 9 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 5 | 26 | 7 | 18 | 18 | 2 | 21 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 86 | 32 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.365925 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096214 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129281 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.281012 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088741 | 0 | 0.118516 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124468 | 0.115935 | 0.131484 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.278301 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10631 | 0 | 0.071891 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.292958 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075622 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194384 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121773 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106126 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132032 | 0.15666 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148357 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155875 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137763 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154669 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143851 | 0 | 0.150513 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088169 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093422 | 0 | 0.268833 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.316469 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097748 | 0 | 0 | 0.265832 |
suicidewatch | TheSauceMane | 2019/07/16 | If I'm not strong enough to go on, should I just kill myself already? I am a fat bitch. I'm ugly as fuck, and it has fucked up every thing I've ever tried. I blame myself for what I am, and understanding that it's my fault for being this way was supposed to be the first step to making myself better. But the constant re... | 1.9412 | 2.931831 | 3.601219 | 92.607584 | 76.174888 | 6.14392 | 20.740965 | 6.227272 | -0.0159 | 796 | 17 | 188 | 5 | 17 | 266 | 123 | 223 | 0.153 | 0.772 | 0.075 | -0.9291 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 20 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 8 | 13 | 7 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 18 | 12 | 3 | 2 | 4 | 37 | 41 | 18 | 1 | 5 | 11 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 9 | 7 | 4 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 7 | 6 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 35 | 4 | 25 | 33 | 6 | 27 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 11 | 4 | 3 | 9 | 129 | 47 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124155 | 0 | 0.187231 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111577 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099504 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119018 | 0 | 0 | 0.121581 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072558 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.575617 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.232501 | 0 | 0.07431 | 0.10177 | 0.094792 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106062 | 0 | 0.056887 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095699 | 0 | 0 | 0.086923 | 0.312034 | 0 | 0 | 0.191822 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111078 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.300006 | 0.124473 | 0 | 0 | 0.091709 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079467 | 0.054966 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0751 | 0 | 0.113029 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113601 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083423 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107954 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1235 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086614 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098337 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14949 | 0.07209 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152771 | 0 | 0 | 0.117124 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089303 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163814 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Geeks_Technique | 2019/07/16 | I'm so fucking tired of everything Too much to explain with tears just rolling downy face, but ever since I was 7 I've wanted to die. Looked up how to tie a noose and everything but just never actually done it. Everyday though is just worse and worse and idk how to take shit anymore. I have nobody. Am nobody. I hate my... | 1.352753 | 3.40319 | 2.714322 | 93.611233 | 81.032967 | 5.363126 | 20.550672 | 6.427356 | 0.121429 | 1,370 | 38 | 299 | 12 | 36 | 443 | 174 | 364 | 0.368 | 0.539 | 0.093 | -0.9993 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 32 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 27 | 35 | 19 | 0 | 13 | 0 | 27 | 22 | 7 | 4 | 3 | 56 | 65 | 34 | 4 | 5 | 17 | 11 | 3 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 15 | 19 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 7 | 25 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 6 | 37 | 10 | 36 | 55 | 2 | 36 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 9 | 23 | 16 | 13 | 2 | 21 | 185 | 52 | 3 | 0 | 0.077652 | 0.063956 | 0.071447 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070041 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064997 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109444 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136037 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.201206 | 0 | 0 | 0.076004 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067719 | 0 | 0.086575 | 0.059283 | 0 | 0.062625 | 0.117804 | 0 | 0.061784 | 0 | 0.099415 | 0.093642 | 0 | 0 | 0.059901 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.424125 | 0.068482 | 0.062871 | 0 | 0.054971 | 0 | 0.072256 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.323529 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.043929 | 0 | 0.065741 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072509 | 0 | 0.036018 | 0 | 0 | 0.069396 | 0 | 0 | 0.092584 | 0.192113 | 0 | 0.115743 | 0 | 0.055036 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059151 | 0 | 0.087495 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066175 | 0.076758 | 0 | 0 | 0.048178 | 0.048596 | 0.101095 | 0.063298 | 0 | 0.061503 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.049845 | 0 | 0 | 0.218318 | 0 | 0 | 0.090872 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061955 | 0 | 0.062768 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083971 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05597 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068371 | 0 | 0.403646 | 0.108428 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14673 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.049277 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130623 | 0 | 0.064391 | 0 | 0.038216 | 0.075327 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088993 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077313 | 0.156064 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059138 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143139 | 0 | 0.200368 | 0.046557 | 0 | 0 | 0.042205 |
suicidewatch | jjman2212 | 2019/07/16 | i just want someone there sorry this isn’t much of a post i’m just so tired of all of this, I really try so hard to push through and tell myself it will be better and I really do believe that but I just don’t know if i can make it
Im always alone and it just hurts all the time and I can’t take it much longer | -1.824992 | -0.036988 | 0.989772 | 102.413181 | 92.972603 | 4.340335 | 12.2207 | 5.822114 | -1.367315 | 241 | 3 | 65 | 2 | 9 | 83 | 47 | 73 | 0.171 | 0.784 | 0.045 | -0.8257 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 15 | 12 | 8 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 1 | 5 | 10 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 45 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.242972 | 0 | 0 | 0.195204 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.264311 | 0 | 0.207482 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.210153 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.251141 | 0 | 0.253405 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128928 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156595 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.344912 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.224679 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.300578 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198773 | 0 | 0 | 0.262612 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176388 | 0 | 0.205048 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136795 | 0.269635 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159276 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138371 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | JooshBooge | 2019/07/16 | Where to shoot? I have a .22 rifle and I need to know where exactly to shoot to end my life because i dont want to end up as a vegetable or miss entirely and survive. | 1.158018 | 2.300248 | 3.571351 | 91.424775 | 78.459459 | 7.095495 | 25.846847 | 7.793538 | 1.246052 | 129 | 5 | 31 | 2 | 3 | 45 | 26 | 37 | 0.22 | 0.78 | 0 | -0.683 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 6 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 7 | 6 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 20 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.237613 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.456832 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.690478 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.214219 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.275321 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.289025 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.229909 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | AdVictoriam1776 | 2019/07/16 | Fuck this Existence!!! Imagine this. You're taught from a young age that you have two options: going to heaven or going to hell. If you don't believe in Jesus, your fate is eternity in torment. If you do believe, you get to go to heaven but live with the guilt that you can never do enough to save literally billions fro... | 9.692864 | 8.209335 | 9.046805 | 68.643747 | 59.733591 | 12.185457 | 40.502252 | 11.038039 | 4.469139 | 1,118 | 49 | 193 | 23 | 12 | 356 | 142 | 259 | 0.172 | 0.639 | 0.189 | 0.6546 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 31 | 0 | 15 | 3 | 1 | 6 | 20 | 4 | 2 | 12 | 0 | 13 | 9 | 3 | 5 | 1 | 37 | 29 | 23 | 4 | 5 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 23 | 15 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 6 | 8 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 18 | 12 | 27 | 25 | 4 | 29 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 24 | 7 | 5 | 10 | 13 | 126 | 41 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.280897 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139161 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.256119 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139816 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.258753 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110411 | 0.128806 | 0 | 0.082336 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.235035 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192623 | 0.115246 | 0.260517 | 0 | 0.425081 | 0.104558 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131996 | 0 | 0 | 0.088051 | 0.182707 | 0 | 0.110076 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083211 | 0 | 0 | 0.135791 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096145 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094809 | 0.265293 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172846 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125317 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.272714 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084636 | 0 | 0.121774 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098949 | 0 | 0 | 0.112084 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | medtepincruinedme | 2019/07/16 | Fell for a fucking scam The depression from all the bullying was already bad enough. Joining the military only amplified the depression and anxiety. Now that I got out I started looking for a new job while also attending wrestling school. Long story short fell for a in hindsight super obvious employment scam which is g... | 4.500367 | 5.934075 | 4.976364 | 83.498007 | 70.477273 | 8.36993 | 30.015734 | 8.841846 | 2.409597 | 716 | 29 | 137 | 13 | 13 | 228 | 119 | 176 | 0.189 | 0.774 | 0.038 | -0.98 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 8 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 12 | 0 | 11 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 23 | 24 | 9 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 2 | 14 | 1 | 23 | 13 | 5 | 35 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 11 | 1 | 1 | 15 | 89 | 23 | 10 | 0.132873 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146629 | 0.106258 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101647 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118285 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110943 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.228887 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.235372 | 0.137293 | 0 | 0 | 0.120191 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145556 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122839 | 0 | 0 | 0.15103 | 0 | 0.212541 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140388 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.395568 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093852 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117588 | 0.22316 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088694 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10248 | 0.12833 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.424516 | 0 | 0.101056 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092117 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149794 | 0 | 0 | 0.14326 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.268949 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109914 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094048 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088275 | 0.08514 | 0 | 0.105486 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078372 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096733 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085566 |
suicidewatch | ThatWeirdoJess | 2019/07/16 | Charles we're worried Charles if you're reading this then please, please, PLEASE give us a sign you're okay. We all love you so fucking much and we don't want you to go. Please check discord.
You mean so much to us. You're Jack's best friend, you're Emily's best friend, you're my best friend. We love you. Please show ... | 0.640643 | 2.97698 | 0.434912 | 106.984942 | 86.631579 | 3.377778 | 18.97076 | 3.1291 | -1.109668 | 288 | 8 | 70 | 0 | 9 | 82 | 38 | 76 | 0.061 | 0.449 | 0.49 | 0.9917 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 6 | 4 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 11 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 8 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 10 | 2 | 8 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 16 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 29 | 13 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.346056 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.254766 | 0.101617 | 0 | 0.105443 | 0.062469 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19841 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119733 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161604 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.72394 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109947 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.396652 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064832 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111627 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | xDelicateFlowerx | 2019/07/16 | Lost...... I didnt think I would ever be able to post on this sub reddit but here it goes.
I have been contemplating suicide for awhile. Dealing with past experiences and present life has been difficult. Trauma seems to be a life long battle and recovery but my spirit is so tired. I dont even know what to do anymore.... | 1.375299 | 3.611006 | 2.517489 | 94.014935 | 82.142857 | 5.341991 | 21.926407 | 6.574016 | 0.323381 | 402 | 13 | 88 | 4 | 11 | 128 | 77 | 105 | 0.186 | 0.765 | 0.05 | -0.9538 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 18 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 14 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 18 | 25 | 6 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 10 | 0 | 12 | 17 | 0 | 14 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 56 | 15 | 0 | 0.167331 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165948 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144141 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172511 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.392222 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.221041 | 0.151361 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163682 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087424 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184334 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112159 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148732 | 0 | 0 | 0.183922 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.236382 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148083 | 0.140516 | 0 | 0.182662 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185867 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161609 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159737 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.320514 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133068 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152332 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12882 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133631 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183033 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107219 | 0 | 0.132842 | 0.097572 | 0.192323 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113607 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118867 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Shitzzer | 2019/07/16 | Me again Hi, I hope you had a better day than mine. It wasn't the worst, but I felt empty.
Anyways my situation is worst than last time I posted. Summer is here but I don't feel any better because I know Noone wants to hang out with a looser like me. Everyday I think of suicide, I see myself hung up on my room or where... | 2.169477 | 3.431311 | 4.279189 | 86.889666 | 76.05036 | 6.493394 | 23.427731 | 6.980633 | 0.792764 | 510 | 15 | 108 | 5 | 11 | 176 | 94 | 139 | 0.182 | 0.658 | 0.16 | -0.7416 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 15 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 12 | 1 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 23 | 24 | 7 | 1 | 2 | 8 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 6 | 24 | 7 | 16 | 18 | 3 | 19 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 5 | 7 | 0 | 5 | 10 | 76 | 28 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137749 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12348 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.358299 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130636 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193556 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.204843 | 0.14471 | 0.194491 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11512 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.201189 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111323 | 0.165115 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197923 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170101 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135211 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194363 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140431 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193998 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.322831 | 0.184405 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.227688 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155942 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.22157 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134573 | 0.129793 | 0 | 0 | 0.118115 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137526 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119476 | 0 | 0.162483 | 0 | 0 | 0.187777 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | TheREALbalrog6 | 2019/07/16 | My suicide letter I did it. I waited till my roommate went to work, I quit my job, and I broke up with my girlfriend. I told my family to go fuck themselves and that I never cared about them. It's easier this way, in the short span I have left. Now no one will care anymore. Now everyone can move on just as quickly and ... | -0.261262 | 1.500706 | 2.22185 | 96.525028 | 85.144578 | 5.351665 | 17.596031 | 6.522977 | -0.304751 | 574 | 13 | 141 | 6 | 17 | 197 | 98 | 166 | 0.106 | 0.847 | 0.047 | -0.7248 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 22 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 11 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 15 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 22 | 29 | 14 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 14 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 23 | 2 | 19 | 18 | 4 | 28 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 9 | 2 | 1 | 13 | 99 | 37 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116274 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138584 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.356724 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.284947 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.429006 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123768 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.267054 | 0.125589 | 0 | 0.131734 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129187 | 0.073008 | 0 | 0.158834 | 0.117207 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13867 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076797 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151827 | 0 | 0.098702 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132225 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152217 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148521 | 0 | 0 | 0.215551 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094691 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133397 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157535 | 0.133832 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14863 | 0.139777 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13984 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152852 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081483 | 0 | 0 | 0.133527 | 0 | 0.094874 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110919 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12954 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101732 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Sachemoot | 2019/07/16 | Not a cry for help, just want to minimize collaterall damage. What is the quickest and cleanest way to reduce the trauma of whomever finds my body?
I have already decided it will happen but I would like to not traumatize someone by blowing my brains out unless I could go somewhere far enough out in the woods where it w... | 6.404538 | 6.983355 | 6.541346 | 77.107404 | 65.615385 | 8.961538 | 33.173077 | 8.841846 | 2.812923 | 272 | 11 | 48 | 4 | 4 | 87 | 54 | 65 | 0.082 | 0.774 | 0.144 | 0.6384 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 7 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 14 | 10 | 3 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 10 | 5 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 37 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.311779 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.313828 | 0 | 0.315397 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.225577 | 0 | 0.310346 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.291929 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.258228 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160569 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.249841 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189374 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.294888 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13803 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.239387 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166644 | 0.224259 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.200701 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | SaddenedProphet | 2019/07/16 | I did good Hi everyone. My name is Zaccaria Jarraf. I put my full legal name so that anyone who wants to know something about me, go ahead and read this first. Long story short, I'm here because of the same reason everyone comes here. I don't know why I had to come here before I go. I guess I just need some closure. I'... | 2.832416 | 3.921614 | 4.18904 | 88.873121 | 74.108434 | 7.186164 | 23.748543 | 7.601503 | 0.90619 | 1,548 | 43 | 341 | 19 | 31 | 512 | 195 | 415 | 0.044 | 0.742 | 0.214 | 0.9973 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 59 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 10 | 16 | 28 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 1 | 28 | 4 | 0 | 5 | 10 | 69 | 66 | 25 | 0 | 5 | 12 | 5 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 25 | 19 | 0 | 4 | 8 | 1 | 1 | 9 | 9 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 19 | 8 | 65 | 26 | 35 | 42 | 14 | 55 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 37 | 22 | 0 | 10 | 25 | 217 | 90 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11471 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.048197 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129523 | 0 | 0 | 0.084038 | 0 | 0.058654 | 0 | 0.217012 | 0.060963 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118754 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152539 | 0 | 0.088908 | 0 | 0.059369 | 0 | 0 | 0.072017 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070539 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061051 | 0.071223 | 0 | 0.045527 | 0.124702 | 0.058076 | 0.329326 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.034853 | 0.049243 | 0.066183 | 0 | 0 | 0.058632 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.036013 | 0.066124 | 0.117523 | 0.346889 | 0 | 0 | 0.227801 | 0 | 0.060954 | 0.146754 | 0.061747 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092404 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122536 | 0 | 0 | 0.113646 | 0.112374 | 0 | 0 | 0.074892 | 0 | 0.146061 | 0.067351 | 0.207257 | 0.243465 | 0.061001 | 0.057884 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062212 | 0.130446 | 0.092022 | 0.069884 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05111 | 0 | 0 | 0.146615 | 0 | 0 | 0.06614 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.046709 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076538 | 0 | 0.065801 | 0 | 0.060187 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074318 | 0 | 0 | 0.138587 | 0 | 0 | 0.068948 | 0 | 0 | 0.070871 | 0.06806 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109631 | 0 | 0 | 0.054928 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058404 | 0.053065 | 0 | 0.231483 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115257 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078221 | 0.064965 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.045794 | 0 | 0.067723 | 0.054722 | 0 | 0 | 0.065337 | 0 | 0 | 0.140396 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081313 | 0.054713 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062198 | 0.076957 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133165 |
suicidewatch | brennanhuff420 | 2019/07/16 | Close friend has given hints about committing suicide Hi all,
Recently a close friend broke down infront and said he wants to die a euphoric death. I’ll give a rough breakdown of my mates situation.
1) He is a very high functioning drug user
2) He is very intelligent
3) Was recently made redundant in a graduate corpor... | 3.635968 | 5.682379 | 4.804702 | 81.352469 | 73.907975 | 8.583523 | 28.820771 | 9.236283 | 2.651256 | 666 | 28 | 127 | 16 | 14 | 219 | 112 | 163 | 0.094 | 0.713 | 0.194 | 0.9473 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 18 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 14 | 0 | 14 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 22 | 28 | 3 | 3 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 11 | 5 | 19 | 21 | 2 | 19 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 26 | 13 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 69 | 14 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150445 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151776 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148903 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.332768 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.44339 | 0 | 0.149918 | 0.137633 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158052 | 0.142062 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.288502 | 0.151588 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12669 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121976 | 0 | 0.135758 | 0.09577 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.212768 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159311 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135629 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160723 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.283326 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136476 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11433 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16127 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156937 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132091 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123915 | 0 | 0.236762 | 0.084625 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | hejgsujs-ehne | 2019/07/16 | I tried to end it last night I tried to hang myself last night but I just couldn't do it. I don't mean that like I don't want to die I just got scared
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suicidewatch | cleverveil | 2019/07/16 | I wish I could just stop thinking about it Was hospitalized yet again for very severe anxiety attacks and cyclic vomiting syndrome (go hand in hand). I have been severely depressed and very anxious since I was about 17 maybe. Now I’m 24. Sometimes I can’t remember when I was last normal, happy, felt joy.
Recently I h... | 2.794949 | 4.535176 | 3.862729 | 88.528315 | 75.430976 | 7.041562 | 24.001212 | 7.839951 | 1.126589 | 1,153 | 36 | 242 | 17 | 25 | 373 | 167 | 297 | 0.124 | 0.754 | 0.122 | -0.1798 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 42 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 25 | 22 | 3 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 29 | 8 | 3 | 0 | 9 | 64 | 57 | 15 | 3 | 7 | 14 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 14 | 13 | 0 | 2 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 10 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 8 | 32 | 13 | 24 | 45 | 13 | 43 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 4 | 14 | 11 | 2 | 5 | 26 | 159 | 46 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076689 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070506 | 0.10412 | 0.091403 | 0.064444 | 0 | 0.075844 | 0.082046 | 0 | 0.104851 | 0.086592 | 0 | 0 | 0.112366 | 0.101789 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10062 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073586 | 0 | 0 | 0.237755 | 0 | 0.079382 | 0 | 0.095653 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080654 | 0 | 0.108017 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076992 | 0 | 0.081631 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083369 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17377 | 0 | 0.186406 | 0 | 0.088493 | 0.100962 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.21362 | 0.17041 | 0.048152 | 0 | 0.104759 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098111 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103877 | 0.109216 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106346 | 0.098665 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09146 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202606 | 0.075127 | 0.103966 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166365 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185184 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09306 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068339 | 0.142167 | 0.089014 | 0 | 0 | 0.090302 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099806 | 0 | 0.127791 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059043 | 0 | 0.091002 | 0 | 0.104405 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.208241 | 0 | 0.07624 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091154 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154108 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100814 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059056 | 0 | 0.073169 | 0.053742 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110863 | 0 | 0 | 0.152092 | 0 | 0.292625 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102899 | 0.317956 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | throwaway---00000 | 2019/07/16 | have to go to hometown, thinking of killing myself instead severe childhood trauma, I moved away for college but I have to go back (my friends are going and trying to make me, I'm afraid they're going to get super pissed and unfriend me if I dont go)
im trans and passing 100% where I live but have to see family so gon... | 5.835341 | 5.569789 | 6.024 | 83.221 | 66.840909 | 7.949091 | 31.236364 | 6.742158 | 1.749311 | 345 | 12 | 68 | 2 | 5 | 110 | 62 | 88 | 0.258 | 0.625 | 0.117 | -0.9464 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 11 | 4 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 7 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 12 | 18 | 9 | 2 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 4 | 9 | 15 | 1 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 4 | 44 | 11 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177897 | 0.145595 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.221912 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178498 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146288 | 0 | 0.098925 | 0 | 0.538048 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.204526 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.418966 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092505 | 0 | 0.167196 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12639 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.201245 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.201477 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150884 | 0 | 0 | 0.213907 | 0.194361 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121325 | 0 | 0 | 0.110409 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128553 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.211398 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | logemouseter | 2019/07/16 | Having a girlfriend didn't help my depression I have been struggling with depression and suicidal thoughts for a year and a couple months now. I don't know where it came from but it hit me like a truck. I had no people there to support me during my episodes and I was very lonely. About a month ago I found a girlfriend.... | 2.410909 | 4.005752 | 3.303636 | 92.750455 | 76.121212 | 6.012121 | 23.363636 | 6.574016 | 0.4914 | 500 | 15 | 109 | 4 | 11 | 159 | 83 | 132 | 0.131 | 0.71 | 0.159 | 0.6033 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 16 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 26 | 30 | 13 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 3 | 23 | 4 | 11 | 15 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 7 | 78 | 28 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153652 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144229 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19529 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19825 | 0.176727 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191793 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.298588 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155783 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175287 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190054 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190949 | 0 | 0 | 0.184519 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116183 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095261 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122432 | 0.084683 | 0 | 0.306117 | 0.153397 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.231406 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183882 | 0 | 0 | 0.27671 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120169 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146867 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181208 | 0 | 0.189601 | 0.196699 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151503 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137609 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14302 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123133 | 0 | 0 | 0.111623 |
suicidewatch | sandwich_hulk112 | 2019/07/16 | Suicidal thoughts because abusive Dad I'm 15. My dad's abusive. My mom and step dad alcoholic. My father has made my life an absolute hell. I told my dad over text that I was moving in with my mom and he wants to meet with me and her tomorrow. Thinking about the abuse and stress he's caused. And thinking about the nigh... | 0.415551 | 2.474837 | 2.009821 | 97.276845 | 84.669643 | 5.340476 | 20.494048 | 6.627428 | 0.107676 | 817 | 25 | 192 | 9 | 24 | 265 | 114 | 224 | 0.213 | 0.721 | 0.066 | -0.9867 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 20 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 9 | 3 | 2 | 6 | 1 | 20 | 3 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 48 | 40 | 17 | 6 | 10 | 10 | 11 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 13 | 2 | 0 | 11 | 2 | 0 | 8 | 9 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 1 | 33 | 2 | 24 | 25 | 0 | 24 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 20 | 9 | 1 | 5 | 7 | 116 | 40 | 1 | 0 | 0.430019 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096967 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110621 | 0 | 0.077208 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093209 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.212679 | 0.088885 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.045878 | 0.06482 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103132 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.200767 | 0 | 0.149595 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064088 | 0.044328 | 0 | 0.160239 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085855 | 0 | 0 | 0.091154 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091615 | 0.425065 | 0 | 0.096436 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085148 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069007 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086616 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086898 | 0 | 0.195653 | 0.08682 | 0 | 0.091213 | 0 | 0 | 0.090758 | 0.20655 | 0.058126 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103935 | 0 | 0 | 0.297744 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072928 | 0.079305 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174416 | 0 | 0.28813 | 0.052908 | 0 | 0 | 0.0867 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160551 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064455 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | FDRname | 2019/07/16 | Please can someone help me I cant kill my self pain is too much so in the meantime ill try to live and nothing helps me so I need help please | -1.092188 | 0.896519 | 0.43625 | 106.18375 | 91.8125 | 3.2 | 17.375 | 3.1291 | -1.2849 | 111 | 3 | 29 | 0 | 4 | 35 | 27 | 32 | 0.191 | 0.485 | 0.323 | 0.6925 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 16 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.498409 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.274222 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.218866 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182207 | 0.183786 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.23783 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.263742 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.544155 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.258574 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.210012 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168282 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | kitcore | 2019/07/16 | Anyone else more afraid of failure than death? Exactly as it sounds. I'm much more afraid of failing + living with consequences (ex. permant injury) + ppl being upset with me than dying. | 2.472353 | 5.442771 | 3.373765 | 82.985941 | 89.588235 | 5.072941 | 21.505882 | 6.742158 | 1.095489 | 148 | 5 | 23 | 2 | 5 | 47 | 28 | 34 | 0.335 | 0.665 | 0 | -0.9277 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.324822 | 0.475983 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.482127 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.38807 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.410204 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.341496 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | SULAYICI | 2019/07/16 | Why are you living? I have no purpose of life and I can't answer that question for myself. I don't think to kill myself but living feels like wasting time | 0.674063 | 3.101463 | 2.28 | 92.965 | 88.0625 | 3.2 | 17.375 | 3.1291 | -0.773963 | 123 | 3 | 24 | 0 | 4 | 40 | 27 | 32 | 0.153 | 0.681 | 0.166 | 0.1202 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 6 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 1 | 3 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 17 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171758 | 0.242676 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.375818 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.239934 | 0.165956 | 0 | 0.599908 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.380532 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.217661 | 0 | 0 | 0.198077 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.306519 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Throwaway85895 | 2019/07/16 | Why am I a coward I keep on trying to kill myself but I just can't do it. I always lose my nerve at the last second. I hate myself so much, and these failed attempts make me hate myself more, because it seems I'm only doing them for attention. I don't even know if I'm suicidal and I'm doing this for attention. I ju... | 1.063661 | 2.557278 | 3.617143 | 89.485 | 79.625 | 6.071429 | 17.678571 | 6.86897 | -0.003018 | 285 | 5 | 63 | 3 | 7 | 100 | 51 | 80 | 0.364 | 0.616 | 0.02 | -0.9886 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 5 | 6 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 14 | 17 | 7 | 2 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 14 | 0 | 7 | 17 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 47 | 18 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17552 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147495 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128588 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139325 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.624782 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187494 | 0.233375 | 0 | 0.115928 | 0.171945 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.235989 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140805 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.310132 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16043 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192033 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.230735 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169546 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143215 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124418 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190341 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | MileInMyShoes | 2019/07/16 | No one cares. No one listens and just minimizes my situation I watched my car get towed away.
I called churches & people I met to ask if anyone could put gas in it because I have no income.
No one would stop by to help.
A church woman asked me where my car was, wrote down the address, and said it was too far a d... | 1.991886 | 4.052239 | 3.255683 | 90.494813 | 78.923077 | 5.652114 | 22.079002 | 6.643151 | 0.454148 | 1,503 | 45 | 313 | 14 | 37 | 487 | 197 | 390 | 0.195 | 0.701 | 0.104 | -0.9912 | 11 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 53 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 5 | 6 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 23 | 0 | 31 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 46 | 64 | 18 | 3 | 12 | 9 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 5 | 4 | 1 | 10 | 16 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 16 | 9 | 19 | 5 | 1 | 8 | 12 | 8 | 48 | 7 | 34 | 43 | 5 | 38 | 5 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 30 | 22 | 0 | 4 | 6 | 199 | 58 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082538 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10653 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.356079 | 0 | 0.071571 | 0.058576 | 0.063605 | 0.046437 | 0.084132 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155572 | 0 | 0.233004 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082321 | 0 | 0.121643 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08928 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145582 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119399 | 0 | 0.043293 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06824 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153181 | 0.080486 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087899 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07951 | 0.151189 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.041865 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.269065 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083157 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055999 | 0 | 0.058753 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073094 | 0 | 0 | 0.081127 | 0.412959 | 0.057936 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.26406 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076579 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065055 | 0.217387 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060704 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063015 | 0.171253 | 0.152465 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063688 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.249978 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066583 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072207 | 0 | 0 | 0.05172 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065793 | 0 | 0 | 0.179726 | 0.060466 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068738 | 0 | 0.0876 | 0 | 0 | 0.110916 | 0 | 0 | 0.108229 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | tahax283 | 2019/07/16 | I hope I die in my sleep Honestly wouldn't care if this was going to happen. I feel fucking awful. | -0.66 | 1.531895 | 2.311429 | 90.958571 | 95.190476 | 4.704762 | 16.52381 | 6.427356 | -0.039362 | 77 | 2 | 16 | 1 | 3 | 27 | 19 | 21 | 0.354 | 0.433 | 0.213 | -0.6021 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 8 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 3 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 10 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.405566 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.412835 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.201131 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.367743 | 0 | 0 | 0.226069 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.351758 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.395088 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.39807 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | JannaNH038 | 2019/07/16 | Japan Suicide Forest Anyone know if people from other countries go here to end life? | 7.736 | 9.274025 | 6.78 | 73.17 | 63 | 6 | 28.333333 | 3.1291 | 1.400333 | 69 | 2 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 21 | 15 | 15 | 0.243 | 0.757 | 0 | -0.6705 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.346404 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.438789 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.281555 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.272266 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.349925 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.343457 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.541901 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Terra2501 | 2019/07/16 | I keep on thinking about jumping I keep on thinking about jumping out of my 7-storey flat.
I'll never escape all of the pain from my life or all of the people who keep on hurting.
It doesn't even matter if you move countries, they'll always be there to drag you down.
I keep on looking at my window and thinking ab... | 5.567192 | 4.889191 | 6.075445 | 84.00988 | 67.493151 | 7.847945 | 31.94863 | 5.985473 | 1.664893 | 277 | 10 | 57 | 1 | 4 | 90 | 49 | 73 | 0.145 | 0.855 | 0 | -0.8172 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 17 | 12 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 16 | 10 | 3 | 13 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 8 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 44 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170073 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181033 | 0 | 0 | 0.135001 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.218809 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.726703 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14437 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17164 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.21724 | 0 | 0 | 0.157642 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.217491 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141702 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.392904 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Luisvzoa | 2019/07/16 | It is selfish to ask somebody to live just because his suicide would hurt others? I found this on a youtube comment. I wanna know what do you think.
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>The whole being selfish thing never made much sense to me. If it's selfish to desire death knowing the
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suicidewatch | heytherepalhehe | 2019/07/16 | i think i'm going to break up with my boyfriend and then after that, i feel like i'll finally be free to carry out my suicide.
i just don't like the idea of leaving this world and not breaking up with him first, it makes things feel incomplete. | 2.769118 | 4.129826 | 3.496225 | 92.705515 | 74.686275 | 6.668627 | 24.514706 | 7.168622 | 0.784447 | 193 | 6 | 43 | 2 | 4 | 61 | 40 | 51 | 0.084 | 0.762 | 0.154 | 0.4215 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 13 | 8 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 4 | 9 | 7 | 0 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 28 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.325979 | 0.230286 | 0 | 0.353118 | 0 | 0.27419 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183199 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.363893 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.341322 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.314967 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.215171 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.352598 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.214155 | 0.206549 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | floralmerlot | 2019/07/16 | I dunno what to write Just took 16 x 500mg of paracetamol don’t know what to do now. Trying to cut mysel with a kitchen knife but for some reason can’t break the skin | 4.623243 | 3.576649 | 5.338514 | 89.738581 | 69.540541 | 8.481081 | 23.905405 | 7.168622 | 0.614146 | 132 | 2 | 32 | 1 | 2 | 43 | 32 | 37 | 0.049 | 0.951 | 0 | -0.1406 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 4 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 18 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.314453 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.588291 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.635708 | 0.388469 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | dookcrew | 2019/07/16 | Copycat I’m really scared. Around where I live, there’s been a lot of people attempting suicide via the rail network. There’s been 4 in the last 2 or so days. And I was at the station, waiting for my train to work.... and I just had the thought.
I’m not majorly suicidal, but the fact that I’ve seen so much in the new... | 1.545278 | 3.400188 | 2.934963 | 93.256333 | 79.462963 | 6.912593 | 25.614815 | 7.908726 | 1.320853 | 403 | 16 | 92 | 7 | 10 | 131 | 70 | 108 | 0.141 | 0.818 | 0.041 | -0.9116 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 18 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 21 | 20 | 9 | 3 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 12 | 12 | 4 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 58 | 12 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175914 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120461 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127442 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.205088 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189565 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175644 | 0 | 0 | 0.108601 | 0.161078 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174493 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168001 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145266 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136998 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.253187 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.395683 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.432306 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172719 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.47064 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116555 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143862 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Star_Dust27 | 2019/07/16 | not much left i am planning to kill myself before august. i am 17 and still living with parents, so i am not having best time of my life. wasting those last days. that's my only regret at this point. i don't know how i'll do it but i am figuring it out. wish me luck guys. | -0.737786 | 1.228828 | 1.912857 | 96.615 | 89.166667 | 4.095238 | 15.238095 | 5.288315 | -0.92519 | 209 | 4 | 49 | 1 | 7 | 72 | 48 | 60 | 0.141 | 0.738 | 0.121 | 0.194 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 12 | 9 | 4 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 2 | 5 | 9 | 2 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 35 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.232309 | 0 | 0.286504 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176067 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.27032 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.302042 | 0 | 0.150038 | 0.222537 | 0 | 0 | 0.296623 | 0 | 0.192833 | 0 | 0 | 0.24107 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.200692 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.207634 | 0 | 0 | 0.303142 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.25808 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.218024 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159193 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.313945 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Loompofthesun | 2019/07/16 | Im so sad and miserable Im so alone and i want someone to just say hi to me even if i go to work everyone avoids me or stares and at me judging me. No one even cares about my existance. I tries to stay home from work to get my family to even ask how i was doing i was waiting in my room for a response but instead I get ... | -1.621015 | 0.331402 | 1.350519 | 97.38317 | 98.612903 | 4.502104 | 17.061711 | 6.280692 | -0.256992 | 541 | 16 | 129 | 7 | 23 | 188 | 82 | 155 | 0.28 | 0.524 | 0.196 | -0.9604 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 13 | 16 | 5 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 24 | 24 | 16 | 1 | 3 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 10 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 4 | 23 | 6 | 17 | 20 | 0 | 10 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 6 | 8 | 1 | 5 | 2 | 85 | 24 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095345 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172126 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.281581 | 0.09457 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107892 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182412 | 0 | 0 | 0.175933 | 0 | 0 | 0.086785 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096194 | 0 | 0.052319 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.363557 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092343 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.596637 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.050593 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089951 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077306 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.249526 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.303159 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099255 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073209 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.234004 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098123 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062502 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075958 | 0.054299 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13404 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | harcias | 2019/07/16 | I'm Tired... I'm diagnosed with bipolar disorder, ptsd, ocd,and associative identity disorder. My head is the most fucked up thing I know. I've tried to commit suicide four times already. All failed attempts. Drowning, overdose, strangulation, and hanging. I've been to the hospital so many times, the mental ward knows ... | 1.642223 | 4.209196 | 3.11716 | 87.905923 | 84.241379 | 5.894523 | 24.391481 | 7.285733 | 1.283669 | 579 | 23 | 112 | 9 | 17 | 189 | 93 | 145 | 0.326 | 0.629 | 0.045 | -0.9946 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 26 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 9 | 4 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 9 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 14 | 23 | 7 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 7 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 13 | 2 | 14 | 16 | 3 | 19 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 5 | 3 | 1 | 10 | 66 | 18 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.297945 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133881 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103805 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.275277 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137019 | 0 | 0 | 0.309437 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127263 | 0.151909 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.249605 | 0 | 0 | 0.230166 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138546 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149354 | 0 | 0.148382 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119468 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.273732 | 0.135623 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136045 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107753 | 0 | 0.099238 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143571 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182955 | 0.102671 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157804 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095552 | 0 | 0 | 0.112864 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.29533 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179372 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.236154 | 0.155159 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091654 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086934 |
suicidewatch | LookWhatYouve_Done | 2019/07/16 | HH's anti-Nestle memes are a start and I'm happy I got to see them How am I supposed to live - and I mean that seriously - when I know that if everyone stopped buying McDonald's, Pepsi, etc. (including myself!!!) the world would be better off, even if it's just that, a boycott? Which I do believe in, hypothetically, bu... | 7.204042 | 6.373181 | 7.373404 | 76.548889 | 64.234568 | 9.887125 | 35.335097 | 8.976282 | 2.963176 | 1,633 | 65 | 312 | 22 | 21 | 530 | 210 | 405 | 0.157 | 0.72 | 0.123 | -0.9523 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 37 | 4 | 1 | 6 | 7 | 18 | 20 | 4 | 0 | 19 | 0 | 28 | 10 | 2 | 7 | 2 | 66 | 60 | 38 | 0 | 11 | 15 | 4 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 18 | 22 | 6 | 3 | 7 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 12 | 9 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 4 | 52 | 11 | 53 | 54 | 10 | 37 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 28 | 20 | 3 | 9 | 15 | 228 | 70 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107019 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086332 | 0.090662 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.354705 | 0 | 0 | 0.109262 | 0 | 0.25731 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098877 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083528 | 0 | 0 | 0.101322 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099234 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108157 | 0.128107 | 0 | 0 | 0.092668 | 0 | 0 | 0.091423 | 0 | 0.049035 | 0.069282 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089656 | 0.101335 | 0 | 0.055115 | 0 | 0.077563 | 0 | 0.106833 | 0 | 0 | 0.103236 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109302 | 0 | 0 | 0.102464 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103818 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086199 | 0 | 0 | 0.213188 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099168 | 0 | 0.142137 | 0 | 0.085634 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082448 | 0 | 0 | 0.129468 | 0 | 0 | 0.105639 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.340742 | 0 | 0 | 0.213872 | 0 | 0.074796 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093054 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065715 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107684 | 0 | 0 | 0.067233 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10456 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08282 | 0 | 0.077122 | 0 | 0 | 0.07728 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099548 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068642 | 0.103367 | 0 | 0.081079 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072916 | 0 | 0.084764 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06214 | 0 | 0 | 0.056549 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.233308 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.228803 | 0 | 0.077791 | 0 | 0.087196 | 0 | 0.087508 | 0 | 0.111521 | 0.186969 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137782 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Jimmy123456789098765 | 2019/07/16 | I am a useless person Hi all,
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My problem is that I am useless. I'm actually not really even depressed. The problem is, I'm too bone lazy to get anything done, and when I do try to do things I'm terrible at them. I seem to be able to ruin anything I put my hands on; like a reverse-Midas touch.
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suicidewatch | weloverexo | 2019/07/16 | I’ve been desperately trying to get help but it’s so fucking hard to find a therapist I can’t believe how hard it is to get help. I’ve been looking for help for a few months now and nothing, no one will fucking help me. I have insurance but no therapists will accept it and the few ones who do have waitlists that I’ve b... | 3.543421 | 4.404436 | 5.010775 | 84.518618 | 72.157895 | 8.039181 | 27.700292 | 8.3441 | 1.763857 | 648 | 23 | 137 | 10 | 12 | 218 | 99 | 171 | 0.193 | 0.64 | 0.167 | -0.8337 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 11 | 8 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 15 | 7 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 20 | 33 | 11 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 6 | 9 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 4 | 11 | 2 | 20 | 26 | 6 | 15 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 7 | 6 | 7 | 2 | 5 | 90 | 21 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107482 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073601 | 0 | 0 | 0.13603 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1231 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110352 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.558102 | 0.189242 | 0 | 0.068618 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.216315 | 0 | 0 | 0.128339 | 0 | 0 | 0.404641 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133579 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10139 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.289116 | 0 | 0.088756 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115851 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.245446 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083705 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114136 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121375 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123936 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.280372 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081973 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104279 | 0 | 0 | 0.071214 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116387 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | visible_chaos05 | 2019/07/16 | I am losing my friend to suicide \*\*\*\*TRIGGERS WARNING TRIGGERS\*\*\*\*
OBVIOUSLY THIS WILL HAVE SUICIDE TALK IN IT BUT THERE IS TALK ABOUT SUICIDE ATTEMPTS, ABUSE, ETC....
My friend (K) has been struggling SO much lately. She got pregnant very young and her little girl was born with down... | 2.201374 | 4.289005 | 2.919674 | 93.026425 | 78.366716 | 5.539774 | 21.949581 | 6.478494 | 0.304572 | 2,642 | 77 | 559 | 22 | 64 | 827 | 276 | 679 | 0.187 | 0.719 | 0.095 | -0.998 | 4 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 5 | 5 | 111 | 2 | 1 | 11 | 8 | 33 | 40 | 13 | 1 | 27 | 0 | 52 | 15 | 6 | 9 | 3 | 76 | 109 | 48 | 9 | 11 | 15 | 7 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 7 | 1 | 6 | 9 | 21 | 28 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 2 | 0 | 17 | 13 | 24 | 0 | 1 | 38 | 3 | 118 | 16 | 78 | 64 | 16 | 105 | 1 | 6 | 2 | 2 | 158 | 42 | 5 | 3 | 45 | 379 | 139 | 2 | 0 | 0.12056 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056143 | 0 | 0.084666 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106697 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.041867 | 0 | 0.047563 | 0 | 0 | 0.273846 | 0.084959 | 0 | 0 | 0.043292 | 0 | 0 | 0.044996 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103901 | 0 | 0.051872 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054979 | 0 | 0.040621 | 0.056294 | 0 | 0.032811 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177001 | 0 | 0.042501 | 0 | 0.135184 | 0 | 0.113481 | 0.067207 | 0 | 0 | 0.048615 | 0.137173 | 0 | 0.047962 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0465 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117921 | 0 | 0.159485 | 0.048805 | 0.115657 | 0.042673 | 0.325524 | 0 | 0.056046 | 0 | 0 | 0.054159 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068203 | 0 | 0.102066 | 0 | 0.050103 | 0.058705 | 0.054464 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100974 | 0.090443 | 0.225149 | 0 | 0.139802 | 0.082942 | 0.057391 | 0.107741 | 0.055277 | 0 | 0.035935 | 0.049711 | 0.101983 | 0.08985 | 0 | 0 | 0.170753 | 0.055538 | 0 | 0.091836 | 0 | 0.067921 | 0.051581 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059586 | 0 | 0 | 0.1122 | 0.037724 | 0.039239 | 0.049137 | 0 | 0.047744 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.038694 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055094 | 0 | 0.070543 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.048726 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065185 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173793 | 0.048395 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081084 | 0 | 0 | 0.057476 | 0.208895 | 0.042085 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086215 | 0.039167 | 0 | 0 | 0.036011 | 0.054227 | 0.04063 | 0 | 0 | 0.053187 | 0 | 0.278252 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.038253 | 0.16357 | 0.088936 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0326 | 0.099972 | 0 | 0.059333 | 0 | 0 | 0.145844 | 0 | 0.138167 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061198 | 0 | 0.056033 | 0.041978 | 0.060016 | 0.040383 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188652 | 0 | 0 | 0.058505 | 0.049043 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.036141 | 0 | 0 | 0.098288 |
suicidewatch | asumihagino | 2019/07/16 | What’s the chance of recovering from a hunting gun wound to the head? idk i’m feeling kinda worried for myself | 1.504848 | 4.218503 | 3.360909 | 84.02803 | 89 | 4.751515 | 25.515152 | 6.427356 | 1.210679 | 90 | 4 | 16 | 1 | 3 | 30 | 21 | 22 | 0.246 | 0.603 | 0.151 | -0.2975 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 9 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.330522 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.670867 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.663847 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | tethys026 | 2019/07/16 | I can't handle with the loneliness and life. Hello everyone, browsing the site I decide to share something with you too. As you know on the internet is easier to share something or talk with someone than in real life. I don’t know what I expect, maybe just usual conversation, or some advices how to deal with of my cur... | 3.65851 | 5.257296 | 4.509291 | 85.373082 | 72.828671 | 7.462067 | 25.997824 | 8.094773 | 1.539773 | 2,275 | 76 | 452 | 34 | 45 | 734 | 238 | 572 | 0.159 | 0.736 | 0.105 | -0.9827 | 2 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 59 | 2 | 3 | 3 | 7 | 25 | 37 | 2 | 6 | 29 | 0 | 42 | 14 | 0 | 9 | 6 | 104 | 82 | 39 | 1 | 11 | 16 | 1 | 7 | 2 | 3 | 3 | 12 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 41 | 33 | 0 | 1 | 18 | 7 | 0 | 6 | 14 | 21 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 11 | 71 | 16 | 71 | 64 | 17 | 62 | 0 | 7 | 2 | 2 | 33 | 21 | 0 | 15 | 37 | 322 | 112 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059366 | 0 | 0 | 0.060834 | 0.06292 | 0.067041 | 0.097166 | 0.05055 | 0 | 0 | 0.041313 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148134 | 0.067095 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05373 | 0.066325 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192801 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145515 | 0.06722 | 0 | 0 | 0.062632 | 0.052325 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068337 | 0.053808 | 0 | 0 | 0.080251 | 0 | 0 | 0.058051 | 0 | 0 | 0.229084 | 0.068362 | 0.184306 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066611 | 0.093873 | 0 | 0 | 0.058278 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064671 | 0.054421 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.04072 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065036 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066775 | 0.099041 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.429105 | 0.05936 | 0.060889 | 0 | 0.107526 | 0.051016 | 0 | 0.132635 | 0.258243 | 0.109661 | 0.057484 | 0.162208 | 0.061592 | 0.061033 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061342 | 0 | 0 | 0.064569 | 0.044659 | 0 | 0.09371 | 0 | 0.06461 | 0 | 0.059523 | 0.058293 | 0 | 0.063748 | 0 | 0.041167 | 0.046204 | 0.129288 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.042117 | 0.053046 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174393 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064617 | 0.060768 | 0.069148 | 0.077838 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068819 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.048411 | 0 | 0.126754 | 0.068632 | 0 | 0 | 0.068287 | 0 | 0.061928 | 0.102949 | 0.140308 | 0.060085 | 0.068006 | 0.172001 | 0 | 0.048516 | 0.050791 | 0.139181 | 0 | 0 | 0.066452 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097659 | 0 | 0.055932 | 0 | 0 | 0.080721 | 0.077854 | 0 | 0.09646 | 0.141699 | 0 | 0 | 0.058051 | 0 | 0.206231 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05247 | 0.066909 | 0.050126 | 0.035833 | 0.096443 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117366 |
suicidewatch | B1G_G4Y_N0RM13 | 2019/07/16 | I just cant So, im 13 and been suicidal for 3(?) years now, and i just cant stop thinking about it. The only thing that kept me alive, is the fact that i have bad skin, and i can get cancer at any point. I dont have anything that can make me genuinely happy, just some little things that make me chukle or something like... | 1.487491 | 2.566623 | 3.075263 | 95.575175 | 77.473684 | 5.908772 | 21.087719 | 6.079149 | -0.080081 | 669 | 16 | 164 | 4 | 15 | 221 | 103 | 190 | 0.225 | 0.663 | 0.112 | -0.9723 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 28 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 12 | 13 | 2 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 17 | 5 | 3 | 2 | 2 | 28 | 37 | 8 | 2 | 3 | 7 | 3 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 14 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 32 | 8 | 18 | 32 | 2 | 14 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 8 | 7 | 0 | 3 | 9 | 106 | 46 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075843 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155967 | 0 | 0.183557 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093122 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.392133 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197563 | 0 | 0 | 0.073664 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056392 | 0.079676 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086167 | 0 | 0.116538 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118725 | 0 | 0.220223 | 0.114461 | 0 | 0.125701 | 0.132162 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.361411 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108975 | 0.111781 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148893 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084823 | 0.118675 | 0 | 0.12384 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105431 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112873 | 0.177748 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08586 | 0 | 0 | 0.078941 | 0 | 0 | 0.093243 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.243989 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089643 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.296379 | 0.285853 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106571 | 0 | 0.075721 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197348 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071821 |
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