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suicidewatch | randomperson1310 | 2019/07/16 | Just told my mother I've been thinking about suicide again I didn't have those thoughts for a few months now, but the last two weeks have been rough on me. My mom got sick, mentally, and everyone in my family has been guilt-tripping me for not being able to help her. I just couldn't, I was too emotionally drained from ... | 2.560345 | 4.356958 | 3.073655 | 93.686862 | 76.241379 | 5.674483 | 24.1 | 6.2581 | 0.465899 | 896 | 29 | 193 | 6 | 20 | 278 | 128 | 232 | 0.216 | 0.649 | 0.134 | -0.9798 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 29 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 20 | 15 | 3 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 20 | 4 | 1 | 3 | 4 | 30 | 40 | 10 | 4 | 4 | 7 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 11 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 7 | 0 | 2 | 14 | 3 | 51 | 8 | 31 | 20 | 6 | 24 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 28 | 9 | 1 | 3 | 13 | 148 | 62 | 1 | 0.135641 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108472 | 0.112864 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134519 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082685 | 0 | 0 | 0.152821 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138295 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152578 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129611 | 0 | 0 | 0.12787 | 0 | 0.068584 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115376 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125398 | 0.070867 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108484 | 0 | 0.149424 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181834 | 0 | 0 | 0.134722 | 0 | 0 | 0.145206 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150067 | 0 | 0.074545 | 0.110565 | 0 | 0.143624 | 0 | 0 | 0.095807 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181083 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136694 | 0 | 0 | 0.158861 | 0.108267 | 0 | 0 | 0.100576 | 0.104615 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135678 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115837 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.296738 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118556 | 0.12488 | 0 | 0 | 0.180228 | 0.173826 | 0 | 0.215367 | 0 | 0 | 0.128572 | 0.388832 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132501 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080005 | 0.215331 | 0.108803 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | MissCakeAndCream | 2019/07/16 | I need something to force me to be happy or knock me out I can’t bare to be alive right now I would rather be knocked out or dead. | 9.427 | 3.008452 | 8.696667 | 86.145 | 65.333333 | 12 | 36.666667 | 3.1291 | 1.953667 | 101 | 2 | 28 | 0 | 1 | 32 | 21 | 30 | 0.128 | 0.685 | 0.188 | 0.25 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 6 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 19 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.56823 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.395799 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.455854 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.410938 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.37919 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Peopinot | 2019/07/16 | I want to die I want to die so badly sometimes I could just scream. Over the years the feeling has been getting worse and the dread and anxiousness to end it has gotten stronger. I'm not looking for help. But relief from this terrible world and an easy death will do it. | 1.092698 | 3.66544 | 1.622275 | 97.171667 | 88.259259 | 4.567196 | 20.677249 | 6.182691 | 0.087792 | 214 | 7 | 45 | 2 | 7 | 65 | 41 | 54 | 0.405 | 0.433 | 0.162 | -0.9688 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 13 | 5 | 3 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 3 | 1 | 6 | 9 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 29 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.310828 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.229729 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.219675 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.5711 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.243691 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139118 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143748 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184419 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.231047 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.272119 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.324567 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.280389 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17718 |
suicidewatch | colgateplaxcoolmint | 2019/07/16 | Not a cry for attention just want facts Best way to kill yourself. Like it would be dandy if it was:
Easy to do
Doesn’t leave a gruesome body - unfair on whoever discovers it
Painless
Like I get the whole get help stuff but like common just want facts for completely educational purposes. | 3.218333 | 6.064416 | 3.871852 | 83.333333 | 79.555556 | 8.044444 | 25.666667 | 8.841846 | 2.337578 | 231 | 9 | 43 | 6 | 6 | 73 | 43 | 54 | 0.097 | 0.596 | 0.308 | 0.8453 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 11 | 9 | 2 | 1 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 5 | 6 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 25 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.26436 | 0 | 0 | 0.279811 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.264119 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.276708 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.263222 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168848 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.278697 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.266733 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.369207 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.288373 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.297162 | 0.199952 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.281245 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178947 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | throw_it_away666777 | 2019/07/16 | Staying alive is a fucking guilt trip If I didn't have any family to be sad about my death I would have already killed myself. Death seems infinitely preferable to constant suffering. | 5.479091 | 8.236039 | 5.148485 | 77.742727 | 70.818182 | 8.036364 | 32.212121 | 8.841846 | 3.096321 | 150 | 7 | 24 | 3 | 3 | 46 | 29 | 33 | 0.459 | 0.484 | 0.057 | -0.9601 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 8 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 16 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.383389 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.236259 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.37544 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.327519 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.321186 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.384371 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.31628 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.370306 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.246799 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Lena-Niki | 2019/07/16 | Afraid I’m planning to commit a suicide on this Friday. I just can’t bear this life anymore. Everyday is suffering for me. Have already composed a suicide note for my ex husband. This all scares me much but I can’t stop thinking about it... I don’t see any other decision. | 1.179921 | 3.774326 | 2.933386 | 87.771667 | 88.074074 | 5.307937 | 28.084656 | 6.86897 | 1.709643 | 215 | 11 | 40 | 3 | 7 | 71 | 42 | 54 | 0.229 | 0.741 | 0.03 | -0.8573 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 8 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 5 | 8 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 27 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.329214 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202875 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.295863 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.210719 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.219307 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.29868 | 0 | 0.23773 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.249417 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.652649 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191158 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Songgeek | 2019/07/16 | I tried hanging myself last night And obviously failed. The foundation broke. I woke up in a pool of my vomit and blood. I guess from biting my tongue or something. I fucked my life up so bad yesterday. | 1.672308 | 4.377655 | 2.882769 | 88.287231 | 86.692308 | 6.196923 | 20.620513 | 7.554174 | 0.981211 | 159 | 5 | 31 | 3 | 5 | 51 | 32 | 39 | 0.333 | 0.667 | 0 | -0.9432 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 19 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.34483 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.381803 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.454956 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.336643 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.291708 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.387564 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.31794 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.280394 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | LettuceTalkTurtles | 2019/07/16 | It's only a matter of time I needed to share this to hopefully feel some relief. Life's been going bad for me lately, got a new job where I barely make $400 every two weeks, still live with my sister who, including her kids, can't stand me because I'm a wreck.
I'm alone, I have no friends or anyone I can talk to about... | 4.397712 | 4.532874 | 5.377396 | 85.261504 | 69.884956 | 8.227054 | 24.992415 | 7.957252 | 1.180236 | 852 | 20 | 183 | 10 | 14 | 281 | 146 | 226 | 0.132 | 0.798 | 0.07 | -0.9085 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 24 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 12 | 10 | 1 | 1 | 10 | 1 | 15 | 5 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 33 | 36 | 8 | 1 | 5 | 7 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 8 | 9 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 2 | 1 | 4 | 8 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 2 | 30 | 6 | 21 | 27 | 3 | 25 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 15 | 6 | 0 | 7 | 13 | 108 | 38 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136378 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.261177 | 0.092072 | 0 | 0.108359 | 0 | 0.123101 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109945 | 0.160539 | 0 | 0.112048 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134254 | 0 | 0.139297 | 0 | 0.138061 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116627 | 0 | 0 | 0.086972 | 0 | 0.110944 | 0.125823 | 0.118343 | 0 | 0.124134 | 0 | 0.06658 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101734 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074835 | 0 | 0.105315 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139967 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130785 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137437 | 0.13067 | 0 | 0.145682 | 0 | 0.289466 | 0 | 0.148538 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093008 | 0 | 0 | 0.116274 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124596 | 0.087896 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146264 | 0 | 0.1327 | 0.139689 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097637 | 0 | 0.127175 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138173 | 0 | 0 | 0.200293 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137368 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105158 | 0.110088 | 0 | 0.137658 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099005 | 0.105837 | 0 | 0 | 0.150585 | 0 | 0.087481 | 0.084374 | 0 | 0 | 0.076782 | 0 | 0 | 0.125823 | 0 | 0.268201 | 0 | 0.12863 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155334 | 0 | 0.105624 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084796 |
suicidewatch | Victorslife | 2019/07/16 | Suicide Note Before I Die Today GOOD BYE REDDIT GOOD BYE REDDIT
Nothing in this life makes me happy except for this one person I have no choice left I cry every single minute. I don’t care about money or anything else. Back in October and December of last year me and my girlfriend are together she said she wouldn’t wa... | 1.040449 | 3.174385 | 2.676488 | 92.984865 | 82.717472 | 5.478545 | 17.785582 | 6.709753 | -0.066715 | 1,009 | 22 | 218 | 11 | 28 | 331 | 136 | 269 | 0.15 | 0.664 | 0.186 | 0.8556 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 11 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 17 | 3 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 31 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 47 | 53 | 20 | 3 | 13 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 7 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 11 | 20 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 12 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 13 | 8 | 49 | 12 | 23 | 28 | 4 | 36 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 34 | 10 | 1 | 4 | 25 | 155 | 60 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137465 | 0 | 0 | 0.056173 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08192 | 0.057758 | 0 | 0.067975 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.254067 | 0 | 0.050354 | 0 | 0.070289 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188952 | 0.084219 | 0 | 0 | 0.071155 | 0.173216 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.362943 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085729 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069004 | 0.092917 | 0.073162 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074719 | 0.069597 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079312 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127638 | 0.076365 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.207851 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.263798 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082044 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091388 | 0 | 0 | 0.067333 | 0 | 0.087465 | 0.179497 | 0 | 0.11669 | 0.040356 | 0 | 0.07294 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074553 | 0 | 0.055138 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065933 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191126 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07926 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111948 | 0.18847 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072126 | 0 | 0 | 0.078087 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052918 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.314298 | 0.065689 | 0 | 0 | 0.065824 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06833 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092467 | 0 | 0 | 0.065967 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090354 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054878 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078298 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194886 | 0.065567 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153148 | 0 | 0 | 0.09499 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.293394 | 0 | 0 | 0.053194 |
suicidewatch | DavidLaGreen | 2019/07/16 | I'm done. Dreaming is fucking stupid. I am decided to kill myself. Idk how or in which way is possibly the least painful. I live in Colombia, a country in development. I don't have it bad tbh. Dad works in a good place and my mom has her own shop. I believe I am a piece of shit that doesn't deserve all the nice things ... | 2.683805 | 4.706959 | 3.655252 | 88.632702 | 76.608696 | 7.050075 | 25.699722 | 7.990435 | 1.475906 | 1,269 | 47 | 262 | 21 | 29 | 407 | 160 | 322 | 0.086 | 0.739 | 0.175 | 0.982 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 39 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 15 | 20 | 5 | 0 | 19 | 0 | 32 | 7 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 39 | 50 | 21 | 1 | 5 | 9 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 15 | 10 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 8 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 2 | 28 | 13 | 42 | 40 | 12 | 36 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 10 | 18 | 3 | 7 | 17 | 180 | 43 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084115 | 0.061411 | 0 | 0 | 0.113501 | 0.211444 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105626 | 0 | 0 | 0.080434 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206187 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09054 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155666 | 0.093134 | 0.105267 | 0 | 0 | 0.168995 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100059 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111456 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071157 | 0 | 0 | 0.444784 | 0.089153 | 0.084598 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117987 | 0.321644 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068265 | 0.076619 | 0.107196 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139683 | 0 | 0.105254 | 0 | 0.095233 | 0.113571 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064538 | 0.103579 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113809 | 0.20682 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071305 | 0 | 0.080452 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075745 | 0 | 0.088053 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133857 | 0.064551 | 0 | 0 | 0.117487 | 0.231575 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.341985 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11884 | 0.079964 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115848 | 0 | 0 | 0.073341 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129749 |
suicidewatch | lovablemomo | 2019/07/16 | Everything hurts I’ve always been sad and I thought I would grow out of it. Everything really stems from my insecurities but I thought I was finally going to be better. To be good enough. Every year the week of my birthday something crappy happens since I was 10. The day before my tenth bday my dad got remarried to a b... | 1.212556 | 3.43724 | 3.026573 | 90.188196 | 82.713355 | 5.993445 | 21.009672 | 7.26079 | 0.650097 | 2,336 | 71 | 493 | 34 | 65 | 777 | 240 | 614 | 0.175 | 0.666 | 0.159 | -0.9612 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 23 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 7 | 26 | 32 | 7 | 2 | 23 | 3 | 61 | 6 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 104 | 113 | 43 | 3 | 18 | 28 | 1 | 10 | 3 | 0 | 8 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 25 | 29 | 1 | 2 | 19 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 25 | 14 | 0 | 7 | 22 | 14 | 79 | 18 | 56 | 68 | 13 | 70 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 2 | 26 | 24 | 1 | 9 | 37 | 337 | 104 | 2 | 0.106497 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.047202 | 0 | 0 | 0.05515 | 0.058761 | 0.042583 | 0.398765 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.211234 | 0.037233 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16378 | 0.04446 | 0.06492 | 0 | 0.045311 | 0 | 0 | 0.047094 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054373 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.045869 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058919 | 0 | 0.068682 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110528 | 0.111267 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054492 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054487 | 0.044482 | 0 | 0 | 0.275101 | 0 | 0.070341 | 0 | 0.089729 | 0.050881 | 0.287139 | 0 | 0.050198 | 0 | 0.161545 | 0.076082 | 0.102254 | 0.174994 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116769 | 0 | 0 | 0.055641 | 0 | 0.030262 | 0.044663 | 0.085176 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094175 | 0.113369 | 0.0477 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107075 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061442 | 0.057004 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09466 | 0.058912 | 0 | 0.058528 | 0.043405 | 0 | 0 | 0.173565 | 0.05445 | 0.037611 | 0.078044 | 0.053369 | 0 | 0 | 0.044716 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096118 | 0 | 0.035544 | 0 | 0.053496 | 0 | 0.059147 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11319 | 0.117432 | 0.11845 | 0.041069 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180414 | 0.040498 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.050832 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.050952 | 0 | 0.05353 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102338 | 0.054749 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.050652 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084865 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.044048 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.045117 | 0.081987 | 0 | 0.059608 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.050186 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070752 | 0.03412 | 0 | 0.126821 | 0.03105 | 0.061202 | 0.100947 | 0.050881 | 0 | 0.036152 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.25126 | 0 | 0.042713 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118901 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.038766 | 0 | 0.054265 | 0.113479 | 0 | 0 | 0.171452 |
suicidewatch | anarum1 | 2019/07/16 | Third time's the charm Seven years ago today, I attempted suicide for the first time. Three years ago in September marks the anniversary of my second attempt. Some things got worse, some things stayed the same, but the only thing that “got better” was my knowledge of what I need to succeed. I’ve failed at most things i... | 5.786962 | 6.441415 | 5.060608 | 86.922051 | 66.974684 | 7.838987 | 27.192405 | 7.554174 | 1.330051 | 324 | 9 | 64 | 3 | 5 | 97 | 55 | 79 | 0.1 | 0.695 | 0.204 | 0.8904 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 12 | 8 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 6 | 4 | 9 | 5 | 4 | 15 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 4 | 9 | 42 | 13 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.342034 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170627 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164102 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109644 | 0 | 0.3086 | 0 | 0.212529 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136269 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128779 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143052 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146729 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.205633 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.211029 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.512685 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.337489 | 0 | 0.182871 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.196608 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.248475 |
suicidewatch | rat225 | 2019/07/16 | Can’t see myself having a future I just can’t, i don’t feel depressed anymore I just don’t care enough to be depressed. I would rather die than be alive but I’m not sad about it | -0.82725 | 1.227261 | 1.1 | 101.425 | 91.25 | 3.2 | 15.5 | 3.1291 | -1.34415 | 141 | 3 | 34 | 0 | 5 | 46 | 28 | 40 | 0.178 | 0.632 | 0.19 | 0.1232 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 12 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 1 | 3 | 9 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 24 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.339554 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.349084 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.589791 | 0 | 0.355341 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.353775 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17312 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.272836 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.24322 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | kevinthefag | 2019/07/16 | is it legit to die because i'll stay virgin forever ? everything is in the title, i'm not joking | 1.468 | 3.583902 | 5.42 | 74.015 | 81 | 8 | 25 | 8.841846 | 2.552 | 76 | 3 | 13 | 2 | 2 | 29 | 18 | 20 | 0.258 | 0.742 | 0 | -0.6774 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.330961 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.563469 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.487945 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.578685 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Ilovegod97 | 2019/07/16 | Fuck the idea you can get better by getting “help” “Help” is an absolute joke. I have been in the hospital five times. IT DOES NOT HELP. The idea it will help you to be less suicidal is an absolute joke. You cannot cure suicidal ideation by locking someone up for a few days. Hospitals are unbelievably horrible plac... | 4.84727 | 6.806541 | 5.375378 | 78.898988 | 70.426202 | 8.60709 | 29.809598 | 9.188382 | 2.716976 | 2,560 | 104 | 457 | 54 | 48 | 821 | 285 | 603 | 0.179 | 0.706 | 0.115 | -0.9943 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 44 | 4 | 10 | 6 | 9 | 20 | 37 | 5 | 1 | 30 | 4 | 51 | 21 | 3 | 4 | 8 | 78 | 78 | 47 | 6 | 6 | 9 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 5 | 16 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 15 | 41 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 5 | 5 | 7 | 15 | 17 | 0 | 9 | 27 | 4 | 61 | 20 | 73 | 42 | 20 | 71 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 2 | 43 | 26 | 2 | 8 | 40 | 321 | 76 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079293 | 0 | 0.0446 | 0 | 0 | 0.040765 | 0 | 0.095953 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071079 | 0 | 0.04961 | 0 | 0 | 0.206249 | 0.063649 | 0 | 0 | 0.065083 | 0 | 0 | 0.059441 | 0.119782 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093097 | 0 | 0 | 0.037599 | 0 | 0.050214 | 0 | 0 | 0.121824 | 0 | 0.059673 | 0.051019 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103274 | 0 | 0 | 0.038507 | 0.105473 | 0.049121 | 0 | 0 | 0.171088 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099181 | 0 | 0.063924 | 0 | 0.107796 | 0.152299 | 0 | 0.066267 | 0 | 0.046628 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.312622 | 0 | 0.116961 | 0.057906 | 0.229658 | 0 | 0 | 0.131629 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129002 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164718 | 0.085448 | 0.058433 | 0.102961 | 0.154783 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.038916 | 0.118216 | 0.117142 | 0 | 0 | 0.352391 | 0.058753 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.18614 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.044965 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111882 | 0 | 0 | 0.062088 | 0.118518 | 0 | 0.062036 | 0 | 0.064736 | 0.063134 | 0 | 0.080837 | 0 | 0.060912 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125716 | 0.055786 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062593 | 0 | 0 | 0.055457 | 0.092726 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06082 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.049398 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.046559 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.255086 | 0 | 0.054948 | 0.060597 | 0.043835 | 0.04686 | 0 | 0 | 0.200016 | 0.067692 | 0.038732 | 0 | 0 | 0.046284 | 0.101987 | 0 | 0 | 0.055709 | 0.064774 | 0.118747 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070129 | 0 | 0 | 0.048104 | 0.034387 | 0.046276 | 0.093531 | 0 | 0 | 0.108091 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.042444 | 0 | 0.059413 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075088 |
suicidewatch | jazyymariee | 2019/07/16 | This Is A Long One.. These past few months I've been having a couple of instances when it feels like I'm having a nightmare as I'm falling asleep. The only reason I know it's as I'm falling asleep is because I'm tossing and turning trying to get myself to sleep. I don't remember what I'm scared of or if I'm hallucinati... | 3.811749 | 5.390575 | 4.942192 | 82.502722 | 72.401639 | 7.26799 | 28.00604 | 7.854513 | 1.790602 | 975 | 37 | 185 | 13 | 19 | 321 | 129 | 244 | 0.1 | 0.848 | 0.052 | -0.9325 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 20 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 12 | 9 | 2 | 2 | 8 | 0 | 21 | 11 | 9 | 1 | 4 | 40 | 45 | 26 | 1 | 6 | 12 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 6 | 1 | 1 | 9 | 5 | 21 | 3 | 22 | 32 | 6 | 29 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 9 | 2 | 10 | 19 | 125 | 34 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113663 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102541 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174393 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089657 | 0 | 0.105517 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078164 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14314 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13444 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141877 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131243 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115986 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120878 | 0 | 0.194501 | 0.091603 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118541 | 0.066992 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113388 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.267665 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140937 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062644 | 0 | 0 | 0.226948 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.204694 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197788 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145984 | 0 | 0 | 0.086888 | 0.19504 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122404 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122693 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128259 | 0.145947 | 0 | 0.131835 | 0 | 0 | 0.290505 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128374 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13162 | 0.106068 | 0 | 0.128316 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1024 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140256 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074768 | 0 | 0 | 0.122523 | 0 | 0.087056 | 0.139471 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115289 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.278107 | 0 | 0.130218 | 0 | 0.091087 | 0.140193 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | weknowthedevil | 2019/07/16 | I can’t stop thinking about killing myself I’m sick of living in a world that doesn’t care about or try to understand me and I’m most of all sick of my body and who I grew up to be. I feel like in all the years of just trying to push down the reality that I’m gay and my csa trauma turned me into something I’m not. Now ... | 3.213555 | 3.595428 | 4.435558 | 90.097201 | 72.584071 | 6.734631 | 24.80118 | 6.079149 | 0.529014 | 821 | 22 | 188 | 4 | 15 | 271 | 112 | 226 | 0.193 | 0.739 | 0.068 | -0.9861 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 18 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 1 | 14 | 8 | 3 | 4 | 5 | 46 | 40 | 18 | 2 | 2 | 9 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 13 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 8 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 26 | 4 | 32 | 36 | 7 | 26 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 11 | 0 | 4 | 13 | 126 | 37 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155549 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.283435 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.260162 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137874 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082281 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132413 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113002 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107495 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193532 | 0.182293 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066658 | 0 | 0.072509 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.273164 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141153 | 0 | 0.210351 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124663 | 0 | 0.112659 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085164 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128824 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187579 | 0 | 0.196802 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.244842 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097034 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.265353 | 0.111402 | 0 | 0.14005 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127677 | 0 | 0 | 0.098221 | 0 | 0 | 0.090305 | 0 | 0 | 0.106666 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095928 | 0 | 0.111515 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081751 | 0 | 0.101288 | 0.148791 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173243 | 0.138775 | 0 | 0.13282 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150505 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122987 | 0 | 0.092883 | 0 | 0.13002 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08216 |
suicidewatch | Nick_Thundercock | 2019/07/16 | I've lost all will to live I just can't live anymore everyone hates me, I recently broke up with my girlfriend and I have no reason to live now... I have nobody on my side to help me with these times I just can't anymore. My life had slowly turned into a endless nightmare i'm just forever stuck in memories hoping I cou... | 1.804429 | 4.003891 | 3.481429 | 87.913571 | 80.285714 | 6.857143 | 24.285714 | 7.957252 | 1.462714 | 271 | 10 | 55 | 5 | 7 | 90 | 49 | 70 | 0.175 | 0.746 | 0.079 | -0.6908 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 11 | 14 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 11 | 1 | 9 | 9 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 36 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.225982 | 0 | 0 | 0.427458 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172068 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.20593 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112596 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.212772 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144452 | 0 | 0 | 0.214051 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152222 | 0 | 0 | 0.5709 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.235256 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.221581 | 0.212791 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125666 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.234414 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | sunflowertattoos | 2019/07/16 | I'm so tired I've tried to kill myself and been hospitalized before. I've been hospitalized to prevent suicide attempts before as well. I'm not showering, not brushing me teeth or my hair. I wear whatever is easiest for me to find in the morning. I'm currently skipping class so i can take 10 klonopin and drink and skip... | 3.68997 | 5.729674 | 4.962105 | 80.312045 | 73.736842 | 7.834818 | 27.481781 | 8.617729 | 2.116928 | 622 | 24 | 118 | 12 | 13 | 206 | 92 | 152 | 0.194 | 0.752 | 0.054 | -0.9752 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 8 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 9 | 9 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 27 | 20 | 14 | 3 | 1 | 10 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 7 | 3 | 4 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 4 | 15 | 2 | 15 | 16 | 2 | 16 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 12 | 73 | 20 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14432 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.261419 | 0 | 0 | 0.135854 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198129 | 0 | 0.132303 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.300955 | 0 | 0.15718 | 0 | 0 | 0.136051 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155338 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140395 | 0.130659 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135835 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136534 | 0.169945 | 0 | 0.084419 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166896 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102535 | 0 | 0.15432 | 0 | 0 | 0.154744 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163364 | 0 | 0 | 0.147391 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116826 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.256847 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.336045 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115494 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102051 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08957 | 0.3531 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.20858 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138112 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109119 | 0 | 0 | 0.098919 |
suicidewatch | suicidethrowaway5628 | 2019/07/16 | Broken I can't pretend I'm not broken anymore. Ever since I was raped, I've felt like I'm already dead. My whole world has been shattered. I can't keep going on feeling this. I can't undo what's been done, so what's the point of trying to get better. There is no better anymore. I don't want to feel this way anymore. I ... | -0.071053 | 1.818957 | 2.243947 | 95.895132 | 85.315789 | 3.8 | 18.710526 | 3.1291 | -0.7166 | 268 | 7 | 61 | 0 | 8 | 91 | 49 | 76 | 0.231 | 0.599 | 0.17 | -0.7828 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 12 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 22 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 8 | 3 | 5 | 17 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 37 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.228581 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.616273 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.366392 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.211973 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187367 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.209469 | 0 | 0.198884 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108221 | 0 | 0.117721 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184113 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101197 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.195811 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171346 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132725 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140632 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122175 | 0.164416 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.231261 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | DepressedClimber | 2019/07/16 | Solo winter Mountaineering Canada Never really liked people.. most experiences with people were always negative and taxing on my mental health.
People always seemed to always think I was a loner or "Weird"
Child-hood trauma does that to a person.
Doesn't matter anymore.
I'm gonna be throwing myself at mountains until... | 3.608909 | 6.256561 | 4.293636 | 82.090455 | 76.454545 | 5.454545 | 18.181818 | 6.574016 | 0.302545 | 468 | 9 | 76 | 4 | 11 | 149 | 83 | 110 | 0.162 | 0.79 | 0.048 | -0.9026 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 16 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 11 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 15 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 12 | 4 | 13 | 9 | 1 | 14 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 9 | 9 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 51 | 14 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.426104 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169287 | 0.119356 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149379 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166976 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206409 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.362888 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188852 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083394 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.344047 | 0 | 0.172356 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131653 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129824 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.473362 | 0.149047 | 0.178343 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109354 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155397 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109376 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | pricklypointycacti | 2019/07/16 | i’d rather die than be without you and i mean that with sincerity.
after being molested as a little girl, surviving many attempts on my life, and subsequent sexual assaults throughout my preteen and teen years, being placed in foster care, surviving a two year prior abusive relationship, i’d rather depart than have m... | 3.992794 | 5.657434 | 5.05799 | 81.508456 | 72.088235 | 7.452941 | 25.495098 | 8.076483 | 1.579545 | 825 | 26 | 154 | 12 | 16 | 271 | 128 | 204 | 0.142 | 0.751 | 0.107 | -0.8204 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 27 | 0 | 8 | 2 | 4 | 14 | 10 | 3 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 17 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 32 | 29 | 12 | 2 | 4 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 7 | 9 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 5 | 28 | 6 | 26 | 16 | 4 | 22 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 18 | 8 | 0 | 3 | 12 | 111 | 35 | 2 | 0 | 0.155509 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.21842 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100405 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080008 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133817 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.272432 | 0 | 0 | 0.268678 | 0.114857 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066364 | 0 | 0 | 0.143777 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144262 | 0 | 0 | 0.277948 | 0.142603 | 0 | 0.18541 | 0 | 0.131546 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111583 | 0 | 0 | 0.08761 | 0.133066 | 0 | 0.142969 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192966 | 0 | 0.101227 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088938 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137127 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140912 | 0 | 0 | 0.124848 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.293845 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.210986 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084099 | 0.128952 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125414 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128211 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077414 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.253039 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.338081 |
suicidewatch | PsYcH0Gw4K | 2019/07/16 | never been that close to commit suicide i never had a great life when i think about it. Violent father, school harassment, never had a social life and so no real friends/ no girlfriend.
And now, i'm 22, failed 2 times the first year at university and i'll probably going to stop here. It sounds stupid to be depressed... | 5.881 | 6.45738 | 6.186667 | 79.205 | 66.75 | 8.733333 | 30.583333 | 8.648137 | 2.381533 | 984 | 35 | 179 | 14 | 15 | 316 | 147 | 240 | 0.205 | 0.667 | 0.128 | -0.9602 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 32 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 9 | 20 | 4 | 1 | 10 | 0 | 12 | 9 | 1 | 4 | 11 | 44 | 27 | 16 | 2 | 2 | 8 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 8 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 16 | 11 | 1 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 9 | 11 | 0 | 3 | 8 | 1 | 16 | 9 | 29 | 18 | 3 | 32 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 9 | 0 | 3 | 20 | 117 | 32 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123035 | 0 | 0 | 0.127045 | 0 | 0.095794 | 0.124739 | 0.139891 | 0.07829 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094739 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07018 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.236533 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127385 | 0 | 0.074247 | 0 | 0.099158 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07604 | 0 | 0.096999 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108531 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097926 | 0 | 0 | 0.177893 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065429 | 0 | 0.092077 | 0.126927 | 0 | 0 | 0.101806 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114347 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129964 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10233 | 0 | 0 | 0.06327 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162634 | 0.11249 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.217871 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091893 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.35517 | 0 | 0 | 0.108038 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120806 | 0.122606 | 0.078013 | 0 | 0.122503 | 0 | 0.127834 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124126 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131039 | 0 | 0 | 0.113673 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115262 | 0.233028 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11521 | 0.117357 | 0 | 0.08863 | 0.113863 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096251 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.251859 | 0 | 0.217011 | 0 | 0.086561 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076485 | 0.073768 | 0 | 0 | 0.134262 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12791 | 0.078163 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139891 | 0.074138 |
suicidewatch | totallionelml | 2019/07/16 | My diagnosis - attention seeker. so, im impulsive today, cut my hair with a knife, digging my nails into my palms. threw my phone across the room, my mom took it, she's mad, im sad, suicide Is on my mind alot rn, ofc I have plans and a group of friends to do it with, I told my therapist that and she never threatens to ... | 1.604254 | 3.88676 | 3.414471 | 87.643687 | 81.582418 | 7.238172 | 24.139387 | 8.288913 | 1.639842 | 1,410 | 53 | 292 | 31 | 38 | 471 | 176 | 364 | 0.18 | 0.719 | 0.1 | -0.9884 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 59 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 14 | 24 | 6 | 0 | 22 | 2 | 30 | 8 | 2 | 3 | 3 | 68 | 54 | 23 | 2 | 7 | 17 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 28 | 14 | 1 | 0 | 20 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 9 | 17 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 4 | 41 | 7 | 46 | 42 | 4 | 39 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 23 | 17 | 1 | 11 | 13 | 205 | 69 | 1 | 0.083488 | 0.098919 | 0.244416 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058377 | 0 | 0.137407 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064197 | 0 | 0.050893 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086647 | 0 | 0.095684 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097847 | 0 | 0 | 0.085429 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110286 | 0 | 0 | 0.079776 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129005 | 0 | 0.087238 | 0 | 0.094896 | 0 | 0 | 0.092046 | 0.275914 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082427 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082922 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.541087 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.045883 | 0.136107 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085372 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075351 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090943 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088567 | 0.084299 | 0.09778 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128782 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090409 | 0 | 0.05788 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079958 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171679 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142596 | 0 | 0.066393 | 0 | 0 | 0.066529 | 0 | 0.087096 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064273 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191147 | 0.091322 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.290807 | 0 | 0.213983 | 0 | 0 | 0.097365 | 0 | 0.079137 | 0.079776 | 0.092758 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098487 | 0.132538 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080479 | 0 | 0.06078 | 0 | 0 | 0.059307 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | throwaway5u372y | 2019/07/16 | I just purchased a tank of pure nitrogen I've been debating with myself for weeks over whether to go through with this or not. I've come to find that the exit bag method seems to be the least painful and so I've finally purchased a tank of nitrogen to go through with it. The tank is ready to be picked up tomorrow, I'm ... | 6.55174 | 5.664803 | 6.970693 | 79.089156 | 65.571429 | 10.874459 | 33.376623 | 10.230975 | 3.073571 | 822 | 30 | 171 | 17 | 11 | 269 | 130 | 210 | 0.086 | 0.791 | 0.123 | 0.7061 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 18 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 0 | 15 | 5 | 1 | 4 | 3 | 39 | 30 | 16 | 2 | 6 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 8 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 16 | 7 | 36 | 21 | 3 | 21 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 7 | 0 | 4 | 10 | 120 | 28 | 0 | 0.152419 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129697 | 0 | 0 | 0.134802 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156576 | 0 | 0.131296 | 0 | 0.164711 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100671 | 0 | 0 | 0.145643 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077068 | 0.108888 | 0 | 0.166968 | 0.278617 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159265 | 0 | 0.173247 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.324506 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162014 | 0 | 0 | 0.204327 | 0 | 0 | 0.151387 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124242 | 0.171935 | 0.16139 | 0 | 0 | 0.107658 | 0.074464 | 0.152764 | 0.134589 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137564 | 0.144223 | 0.101741 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153603 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113017 | 0.117555 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14625 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103283 | 0 | 0.162185 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145975 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173486 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138757 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202521 | 0.097664 | 0.149751 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089901 | 0 | 0.122261 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108274 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | an0nny | 2019/07/16 | So Close Why can't I just do it? Its all I think about. Its so close, but still feels too far away to reach. I have no value and everyone hates me anyway, so I'd just be doing everyone a favor... It'd make everyone life so much better. Its just another mark of my pure selfishness that I haven't done it yet... | 0.983182 | 2.623454 | 3.181818 | 91.842727 | 80.363636 | 7.430303 | 18.575758 | 8.3441 | 0.638139 | 237 | 5 | 56 | 5 | 6 | 81 | 47 | 66 | 0.146 | 0.732 | 0.122 | -0.3984 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 12 | 12 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 2 | 4 | 9 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 41 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.257311 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.23055 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.217026 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.251117 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.703436 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124076 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.24227 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173325 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163798 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180388 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.195967 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157235 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.221424 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | throwaway0948124 | 2019/07/16 | Passively suicidal? Clarification: I am not at risk. This is just something I'd like to talk about.
I don't think about suicide every day. Instead, I view it more as an option that always lingers in the back of my mind if things get too bad, a way out. I stockpile supplies that theoretically should be able to kill... | 3.653045 | 5.41498 | 5.357297 | 78.62045 | 73.162162 | 8.609009 | 28.54955 | 9.210783 | 2.558539 | 743 | 30 | 142 | 17 | 15 | 253 | 116 | 185 | 0.115 | 0.757 | 0.128 | 0.6646 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 21 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 11 | 14 | 2 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 20 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 25 | 28 | 7 | 5 | 5 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 16 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 19 | 8 | 26 | 19 | 1 | 21 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 8 | 0 | 5 | 12 | 106 | 35 | 3 | 0.149243 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124182 | 0 | 0 | 0.10149 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114759 | 0.124612 | 0 | 0 | 0.126995 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192499 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152728 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125744 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180465 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077973 | 0 | 0.084818 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148232 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.330231 | 0 | 0.08202 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.21083 | 0.072913 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150693 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115105 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158939 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158738 | 0.149284 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155693 | 0.168602 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.229789 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.489743 | 0 | 0.14066 | 0 | 0 | 0.119956 | 0 | 0.137403 | 0 | 0 | 0.198301 | 0.095629 | 0 | 0 | 0.087025 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118462 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106018 | 0 | 0 | 0.096108 |
suicidewatch | JayStryker369 | 2019/07/16 | I’m making plans Last night I had a rather explosive break up with my boyfriend. I was going to drive until my car broke down and just run away but now I’m just making plans to just kill myself. I seriously fucked up. I hate myself. I just want everything to end. I’m utter trash | 0.060517 | 2.421075 | 1.885776 | 94.45556 | 92.448276 | 4.968966 | 14.146552 | 6.627428 | -0.473662 | 220 | 4 | 48 | 3 | 8 | 72 | 39 | 58 | 0.328 | 0.651 | 0.022 | -0.9726 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 11 | 11 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 9 | 9 | 0 | 14 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 29 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.304399 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.286959 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.291181 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.299523 | 0 | 0 | 0.184131 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.319873 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.358446 | 0 | 0 | 0.264095 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.432531 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.304042 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191097 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | aleila | 2019/07/16 | I don’t think anyone I know likes me and I don’t know what I’m doing wrong I’ve been contemplating suicide ever since I was younger. I’m almost 27, my birthday is next week. I’ve been told that I’m annoying and that no one has patience with me. I try to be a nice person to be around, I try to make jokes, to laugh, to n... | 0.507872 | 2.337804 | 2.367827 | 96.151972 | 82.767606 | 5.465594 | 15.77666 | 6.543119 | -0.564995 | 1,017 | 16 | 243 | 10 | 28 | 337 | 127 | 284 | 0.13 | 0.724 | 0.146 | 0.6693 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 33 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 16 | 21 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 30 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 53 | 57 | 15 | 2 | 9 | 14 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 22 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 14 | 5 | 1 | 2 | 5 | 1 | 46 | 16 | 25 | 40 | 3 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 14 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 17 | 164 | 68 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094267 | 0.0975 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131649 | 0 | 0 | 0.083804 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072387 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099587 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078641 | 0 | 0 | 0.097271 | 0 | 0.062178 | 0.085154 | 0.079316 | 0.089954 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072732 | 0 | 0.049184 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08433 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104151 | 0 | 0.362155 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066493 | 0.413925 | 0 | 0.083127 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125677 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099867 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069203 | 0.139606 | 0.072606 | 0 | 0.100118 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127582 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.391586 | 0.082199 | 0 | 0 | 0.088992 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090079 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120616 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171402 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077873 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079764 | 0 | 0 | 0.105381 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102973 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164564 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062542 | 0.180962 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108199 | 0 | 0.179908 | 0 | 0.191743 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162612 | 0 | 0.077675 | 0.111052 | 0.074723 | 0.075513 | 0 | 0.084643 | 0 | 0.084946 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102927 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | KiwinatorTM | 2019/07/16 | There are two things keeping me alive I've been struggling with depression and suicide thoughts for a while now (not gonna get into the unimportant details) and the only 2 things keeping me alive is wanting to survive long enough just to talk to him one last time... and furret walking videos.
Probably going to off myse... | 15.752174 | 8.224441 | 13.08529 | 62.695761 | 55.376812 | 15.53913 | 53.34058 | 10.125757 | 5.71398 | 292 | 13 | 52 | 3 | 2 | 89 | 55 | 69 | 0.197 | 0.737 | 0.066 | -0.8834 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 12 | 11 | 6 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 11 | 8 | 2 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 40 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.199595 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.239446 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121073 | 0 | 0.131702 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.411957 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188897 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.20508 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.314062 | 0.176247 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.249852 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.238264 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.242262 | 0 | 0.253483 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186262 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.307912 | 0 | 0 | 0.183973 | 0.135128 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.226374 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136685 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Sir-Twirl | 2019/07/16 | My life has been shit from the very first time I can remember something. I'm a 20 y/o male, my life has been depressing the whole 20 years I have lived not once can I remember a time I didn't feel depressed and wanting to kill myself.
To start off with the beginning of my life, my brother was born with SMA(Spinal Mus... | 4.931181 | 5.242282 | 5.496692 | 84.254526 | 68.760479 | 8.387149 | 29.351105 | 8.201753 | 1.860289 | 3,250 | 111 | 670 | 41 | 52 | 1,049 | 333 | 835 | 0.126 | 0.783 | 0.09 | -0.9851 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 6 | 5 | 57 | 2 | 0 | 11 | 5 | 43 | 33 | 9 | 0 | 36 | 0 | 81 | 21 | 11 | 5 | 9 | 133 | 134 | 50 | 5 | 14 | 23 | 9 | 5 | 2 | 9 | 7 | 8 | 2 | 9 | 3 | 39 | 53 | 2 | 7 | 16 | 1 | 10 | 9 | 19 | 17 | 0 | 5 | 47 | 8 | 113 | 16 | 99 | 73 | 15 | 126 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 54 | 56 | 2 | 10 | 59 | 465 | 152 | 11 | 0.098061 | 0 | 0.191386 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.049097 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066685 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.034283 | 0 | 0 | 0.305532 | 0 | 0 | 0.046066 | 0.075403 | 0.081877 | 0.119554 | 0.05415 | 0.125164 | 0 | 0.051454 | 0.043363 | 0.107057 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.04999 | 0 | 0.051868 | 0.042235 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.039147 | 0.054251 | 0 | 0.063241 | 0 | 0.168919 | 0 | 0.101772 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.050175 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.040959 | 0 | 0.086853 | 0 | 0 | 0.064768 | 0.044351 | 0.04131 | 0.093701 | 0 | 0.047961 | 0.046221 | 0 | 0.074374 | 0.035027 | 0 | 0.05371 | 0 | 0.08341 | 0 | 0 | 0.265165 | 0 | 0.179315 | 0.047034 | 0.05573 | 0.041124 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.043922 | 0 | 0.100639 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.032864 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113149 | 0.052488 | 0.055349 | 0 | 0.051175 | 0 | 0.04358 | 0.162735 | 0 | 0.080837 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.20779 | 0.047908 | 0.049141 | 0.173179 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.041684 | 0 | 0.139181 | 0 | 0.149127 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156335 | 0.072086 | 0.036355 | 0.151261 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094092 | 0 | 0 | 0.052216 | 0.099673 | 0.07458 | 0 | 0 | 0.163327 | 0 | 0 | 0.033992 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092699 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052863 | 0 | 0 | 0.049289 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125641 | 0 | 0 | 0.05264 | 0.166626 | 0.041872 | 0.046639 | 0 | 0 | 0.049621 | 0 | 0.044635 | 0 | 0 | 0.050329 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113238 | 0 | 0 | 0.104112 | 0.05226 | 0.078311 | 0.204958 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.046211 | 0 | 0 | 0.039409 | 0.042855 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.032574 | 0.062833 | 0 | 0.038925 | 0.17154 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106662 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.042347 | 0 | 0.08091 | 0.144597 | 0.038918 | 0.039329 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.044242 | 0.054741 | 0.056383 | 0.047264 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139319 | 0 | 0 | 0.126296 |
suicidewatch | mikhailvice | 2019/07/16 | 14 I'm a 14 year old guy, I've been suicidal for 3 years and I think about hanging myself constantly. I have vivid daydreams about it and it's so comforting and peaceful. I don't think I'm meant to be here and this is just the universes way of telling me that, other than isolating me and giving me too many problems wit... | -0.218193 | 2.000678 | 2.278553 | 92.826952 | 90.263158 | 6.114035 | 21.600877 | 7.492282 | 0.930035 | 348 | 13 | 79 | 7 | 12 | 119 | 67 | 95 | 0.067 | 0.778 | 0.155 | 0.798 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 16 | 19 | 8 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 9 | 2 | 9 | 13 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 50 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.263136 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.233586 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.241102 | 0.215325 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.24687 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.255511 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.232995 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206316 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.266348 | 0 | 0.229495 | 0 | 0 | 0.195715 | 0.212829 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.312048 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193278 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.280012 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172975 | 0 | 0 | 0.31361 |
suicidewatch | HopefulDot1 | 2019/07/16 | Queer and making preparations to die because I don't belong. I've started to make preparations for my death. I've never gotten so organised before and there's a lot more to do than I expected, but I feel more settled about my decision than I ever thought I would be. It's true that I struggle with depression, and I've a... | 12.493728 | 5.73517 | 11.915003 | 66.378924 | 60.210762 | 14.895324 | 42.171044 | 10.608841 | 4.279003 | 852 | 23 | 174 | 12 | 7 | 285 | 111 | 223 | 0.161 | 0.674 | 0.165 | 0.0448 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 21 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 12 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 11 | 3 | 0 | 4 | 7 | 46 | 33 | 15 | 4 | 3 | 6 | 0 | 7 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 12 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 8 | 28 | 5 | 33 | 25 | 10 | 17 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 4 | 1 | 2 | 12 | 119 | 35 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14989 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067182 | 0 | 0.375115 | 0 | 0.115656 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113214 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189844 | 0 | 0.114378 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.398757 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.278622 | 0.078732 | 0.105817 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057579 | 0 | 0.187901 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07387 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121135 | 0 | 0 | 0.116694 | 0 | 0 | 0.077843 | 0.107684 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093695 | 0 | 0.104281 | 0.147129 | 0.223467 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162031 | 0 | 0.084999 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.251454 | 0.117269 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.229213 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078006 | 0 | 0 | 0.092139 | 0 | 0.115213 | 0 | 0.120549 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082863 | 0.088581 | 0.192653 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087493 | 0.128526 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074824 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126733 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111921 | 0 | 0.078288 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | duckiiunderscore | 2019/07/16 | The fact that hurting myself crosses my mind so frequently disgusts me. Personally I get REALLY obnoxiously sad at the fact that I even think about or consider walking in front of the train at work, or attempting to overdose again etc. How did I end up like this? I never thought as a kid that I would be in such pain at... | 6.121694 | 5.634905 | 6.636709 | 79.807791 | 66.300275 | 10.125014 | 33.301515 | 9.642633 | 2.889377 | 1,424 | 55 | 291 | 26 | 20 | 466 | 190 | 363 | 0.169 | 0.788 | 0.042 | -0.9908 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 24 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 18 | 21 | 5 | 4 | 20 | 0 | 30 | 11 | 4 | 2 | 5 | 53 | 58 | 25 | 2 | 5 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 25 | 17 | 0 | 4 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 8 | 17 | 1 | 1 | 11 | 6 | 37 | 4 | 48 | 39 | 6 | 55 | 0 | 5 | 5 | 4 | 5 | 23 | 5 | 7 | 22 | 202 | 62 | 1 | 0.107819 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095575 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082481 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088726 | 0.095982 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082906 | 0.090025 | 0.065726 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120362 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.27863 | 0 | 0.116514 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139069 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.286488 | 0 | 0.120247 | 0.071214 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121327 | 0.054517 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.299032 | 0.168993 | 0 | 0.061276 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.230846 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152312 | 0.158025 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090541 | 0 | 0.117697 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108867 | 0 | 0.08606 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083157 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114824 | 0 | 0 | 0.114727 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102926 | 0 | 0.094144 | 0.112648 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116247 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138144 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092077 | 0 | 0 | 0.107946 | 0 | 0.171836 | 0.098155 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166009 | 0 | 0.120695 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081067 | 0 | 0.094239 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.207259 | 0 | 0.171193 | 0.06287 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177924 | 0 | 0 | 0.086486 | 0 | 0.096942 | 0 | 0 | 0.240753 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078494 | 0 | 0 | 0.153183 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | FTG_Elmun | 2019/07/16 | Yo fam I'm pretending to be depressed give me attention please Yo **fam** give me some attention UwU
People like this make me sick | -0.635911 | -2.227239 | 1.069333 | 92.343556 | 155.8 | 5.911111 | 18.777778 | 6.427356 | 1.370644 | 103 | 4 | 20 | 3 | 9 | 33 | 19 | 25 | 0.208 | 0.597 | 0.195 | -0.34 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 7 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.330472 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.736143 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187452 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.256117 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.266003 | 0 | 0 | 0.421177 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | DawnOfJustice93 | 2019/07/16 | Lost rhe battle and the war. Lately I've been feeling so terrible.
2 years ago I lost a parent. Who was the most important thing in my life at the time. My girlfriend at the time, haya, saved me. And fixed me, I moved half the country away to be with her. We rented an apartment for a together. Life was amazing. We pla... | 1.164346 | 3.531669 | 2.481276 | 93.08271 | 84.24971 | 5.40882 | 20.490691 | 6.797605 | 0.336932 | 3,319 | 100 | 705 | 40 | 97 | 1,066 | 318 | 861 | 0.13 | 0.699 | 0.171 | 0.9919 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 83 | 6 | 5 | 4 | 10 | 60 | 55 | 7 | 2 | 33 | 0 | 83 | 13 | 3 | 5 | 18 | 157 | 153 | 73 | 1 | 24 | 38 | 4 | 7 | 3 | 5 | 10 | 9 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 42 | 40 | 0 | 2 | 18 | 5 | 2 | 8 | 31 | 24 | 2 | 1 | 39 | 9 | 117 | 31 | 90 | 85 | 32 | 91 | 1 | 8 | 2 | 1 | 68 | 28 | 2 | 17 | 55 | 522 | 159 | 1 | 0.051003 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090422 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169753 | 0 | 0 | 0.104051 | 0.053481 | 0 | 0 | 0.202324 | 0.035662 | 0 | 0.083942 | 0.045403 | 0 | 0 | 0.143756 | 0.039218 | 0 | 0.031091 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.045108 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116667 | 0.156002 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053475 | 0.055116 | 0 | 0.162886 | 0.112867 | 0 | 0.032893 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052193 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.042606 | 0 | 0.090346 | 0.158098 | 0 | 0.168434 | 0.046135 | 0 | 0 | 0.137514 | 0 | 0.096162 | 0.057392 | 0.103154 | 0.036436 | 0 | 0.055871 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157618 | 0.047151 | 0.07994 | 0.048926 | 0 | 0.042779 | 0.040792 | 0 | 0.168556 | 0 | 0.045102 | 0.054293 | 0.091377 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060438 | 0.068372 | 0 | 0.05116 | 0.050657 | 0 | 0 | 0.054599 | 0.057576 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140149 | 0 | 0.115067 | 0 | 0.110829 | 0 | 0.144099 | 0.074752 | 0 | 0.135109 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.278377 | 0 | 0 | 0.04826 | 0.068089 | 0.051709 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08142 | 0.108416 | 0.187464 | 0.189089 | 0.236019 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146815 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.03879 | 0.05427 | 0 | 0.056632 | 0.055231 | 0 | 0.070718 | 0.089067 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.048846 | 0 | 0 | 0.048803 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065347 | 0 | 0 | 0.164273 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081285 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052354 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129643 | 0 | 0.050443 | 0 | 0.1083 | 0 | 0.040731 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115754 | 0 | 0 | 0.038348 | 0.040994 | 0 | 0.046956 | 0 | 0 | 0.033884 | 0.065361 | 0 | 0 | 0.11896 | 0 | 0 | 0.048735 | 0 | 0.034627 | 0 | 0 | 0.053096 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.042083 | 0.150414 | 0.161934 | 0 | 0 | 0.091715 | 0 | 0.046022 | 0.056943 | 0 | 0.049165 | 0 | 0.037131 | 0 | 0.051976 | 0.072462 | 0 | 0 | 0.065688 |
suicidewatch | SATLaurentParis | 2019/07/16 | i give up My best friend, the one I love to the end of the world, just told me he is sick and tired of me and that I mean nothing to him...
I feel completely broken. This hurts so much. I love him so much, unconditionally so.
Someone please rip my heart out of my chest..
I give up.
Just please, let me die. | -0.193451 | 1.728041 | 1.646813 | 99.794615 | 86.076923 | 4.945055 | 15.43956 | 6.182691 | -0.947352 | 229 | 4 | 60 | 2 | 7 | 75 | 41 | 65 | 0.196 | 0.559 | 0.244 | 0.6249 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 9 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 14 | 4 | 8 | 7 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 40 | 16 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198504 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198322 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19631 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167533 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095641 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146138 | 0 | 0 | 0.362904 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.224146 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202491 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193421 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.341434 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206042 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.278097 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181497 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128174 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.415265 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160268 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.217403 | 0 | 0.180743 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Elaksii | 2019/07/16 | I have a problem I broke up with my girl, we were almost 4years together, she was my all.
It was mostly my fault and I still love her.
But I cant watch, her being with another guy.
I asked her if everything is alright, all she ever said that was’ yes everythings fine’.
But I cant anymore. Before we broke up i made ... | 3.317308 | 4.528081 | 4.888621 | 83.853064 | 73.08046 | 7.652697 | 27.752431 | 8.13951 | 1.801413 | 667 | 25 | 135 | 10 | 13 | 225 | 106 | 174 | 0.134 | 0.778 | 0.088 | -0.8442 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 26 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 10 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 24 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 28 | 36 | 7 | 0 | 4 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 5 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 3 | 36 | 4 | 13 | 22 | 6 | 17 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 24 | 6 | 1 | 4 | 5 | 99 | 44 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156255 | 0 | 0.172198 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106115 | 0.163625 | 0 | 0 | 0.154753 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14588 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095123 | 0 | 0.132782 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168628 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.319373 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14115 | 0 | 0 | 0.420726 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088683 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154508 | 0.137989 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.337108 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140835 | 0.147652 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149728 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118678 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149313 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167532 | 0 | 0 | 0.148433 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160176 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124617 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117325 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099986 | 0 | 0 | 0.09099 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.211887 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092039 | 0.12386 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15042 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170609 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | WhenYouHitYourToe | 2019/07/16 | I am currently in a bathroom after a suicide attempt Help. I really don't know what to do anymore. I'm currently in the library of my University and just tried to commit suicide by drinking gallons of water or water intoxication. I left a note on the desk I was at and left for the bathroom. I'm in a stall, shaking, aft... | 3.873947 | 4.817057 | 5.700833 | 79.57125 | 71.45614 | 8.15614 | 31.79386 | 8.472885 | 2.504354 | 440 | 20 | 86 | 7 | 8 | 152 | 70 | 114 | 0.192 | 0.766 | 0.041 | -0.9483 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 7 | 0 | 10 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 14 | 18 | 6 | 2 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 17 | 14 | 1 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 8 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 58 | 13 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.220326 | 0 | 0 | 0.182822 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177379 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.217636 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112332 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.205386 | 0.116071 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148911 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.24419 | 0 | 0 | 0.235239 | 0.482762 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168965 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142324 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.248694 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.486021 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176373 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150834 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Iwillrun4president | 2019/07/16 | I'm a disappointment and a failure. But I'm too scared to do it ironically. I get all the support I need from my parents - tutoring (thousands over the last year) and I went to a private school (my dad had to work longer hours and we can't live in a *nicer* house). Not that my mom has high expectations in me- it makes ... | 0.37812 | 2.454874 | 2.093785 | 96.505241 | 84.979381 | 5.035444 | 19.547374 | 6.307379 | -0.151421 | 1,416 | 40 | 333 | 13 | 42 | 463 | 169 | 388 | 0.197 | 0.791 | 0.012 | -0.9962 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 74 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 15 | 22 | 1 | 4 | 23 | 0 | 41 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 55 | 63 | 19 | 1 | 9 | 17 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 23 | 15 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 16 | 17 | 0 | 4 | 12 | 1 | 44 | 5 | 45 | 39 | 10 | 46 | 0 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 15 | 22 | 0 | 7 | 16 | 228 | 67 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192757 | 0.139687 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183161 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10648 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075233 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139463 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090041 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077355 | 0.180485 | 0 | 0.115371 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148578 | 0 | 0 | 0.134953 | 0 | 0.09126 | 0 | 0 | 0.073254 | 0.069851 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184553 | 0.262818 | 0 | 0.086009 | 0.100775 | 0.093496 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142383 | 0 | 0.184955 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.308481 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08264 | 0.058298 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.409152 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064759 | 0.06736 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096977 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167289 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069454 | 0.262319 | 0.176779 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099109 | 0 | 0 | 0.065667 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069336 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083454 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072062 | 0.103027 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080962 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063582 | 0 | 0 | 0.124083 | 0 | 0 | 0.281211 |
suicidewatch | Dva_re-engaging | 2019/07/16 | I don't know who to talk to I have wanted to kill myself for the past few days. I'm so tired. Everyone says you can talk to them but it's a lot. I dont want them to carry the burden of making me happy. I dont want to hurt anyone, I dont want to cause them pain. I just want to dissapear. I dont know what to do. | -2.442533 | -0.849346 | 1.348 | 100.240667 | 93.533333 | 4.4 | 11 | 5.822114 | -1.4974 | 236 | 2 | 66 | 2 | 9 | 87 | 44 | 75 | 0.243 | 0.645 | 0.112 | -0.7302 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 8 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 12 | 17 | 2 | 1 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 13 | 1 | 11 | 17 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 43 | 16 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103085 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15145 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095079 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.69114 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140874 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15694 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157825 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163108 | 0 | 0.162046 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125338 | 0 | 0 | 0.09841 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156874 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140737 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117241 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.236995 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169447 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.434786 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | AlwaysNang | 2019/07/16 | When laziness turns into full blown depression.... Too lazy to even type what my problems are so you're just gonna have to believe me when I say I legit don't want to not be alive right now but im too much of a pussy to kill myself because I'm terrified of physical pain and the potential afterlife (thanks religion for ... | 6.157968 | 5.996034 | 6.71616 | 78.179402 | 66.151899 | 10.060197 | 33.37834 | 9.725611 | 3.077884 | 631 | 25 | 121 | 12 | 9 | 207 | 109 | 158 | 0.291 | 0.618 | 0.09 | -0.9923 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 17 | 12 | 4 | 2 | 8 | 2 | 10 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 17 | 16 | 12 | 1 | 3 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 13 | 2 | 19 | 12 | 2 | 17 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 2 | 1 | 11 | 80 | 17 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125745 | 0 | 0.142046 | 0 | 0 | 0.226881 | 0.118034 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116734 | 0 | 0 | 0.161379 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172945 | 0 | 0 | 0.159821 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158356 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153294 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122178 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.374772 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133727 | 0.159625 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168097 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151857 | 0 | 0.153226 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15694 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069303 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104279 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150942 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159919 | 0 | 0 | 0.305885 | 0.135735 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161461 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121142 | 0 | 0.112808 | 0.14202 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141956 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162493 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1306 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.278741 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154296 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083669 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163125 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091349 |
suicidewatch | Stup0id | 2019/07/16 | How to last? Hi,
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Truth is I (25M) am suicidal. I have been so since 5 years old and for a good while I thought I have it under control. Problem is I am going through emotional hardship, which made me put a date on my calendar when I am going to hang myself. As someone who has worked in field of mental he... | 5.071603 | 5.250285 | 5.757746 | 82.965179 | 68.43662 | 8.619574 | 29.999639 | 8.384062 | 2.050517 | 828 | 29 | 168 | 11 | 13 | 270 | 129 | 213 | 0.08 | 0.807 | 0.113 | 0.7957 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 32 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 11 | 11 | 1 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 25 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 33 | 41 | 14 | 3 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 8 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 26 | 5 | 32 | 35 | 4 | 34 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 11 | 0 | 1 | 14 | 124 | 39 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.327006 | 0.366726 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09977 | 0.070343 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085605 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10257 | 0 | 0 | 0.086659 | 0 | 0 | 0.112833 | 0.080322 | 0 | 0 | 0.12976 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.226327 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.050867 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.285871 | 0.08438 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106935 | 0 | 0 | 0.067431 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107696 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111301 | 0 | 0.110576 | 0.164008 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085528 | 0 | 0.095192 | 0 | 0.101994 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101383 | 0 | 0.101579 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14919 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105565 | 0 | 0 | 0.076512 | 0.107047 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069745 | 0 | 0.105107 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096262 | 0 | 0.101133 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103435 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083219 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08524 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080341 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.220084 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08086 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159733 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136604 | 0 | 0 | 0.10473 | 0 | 0 | 0.110799 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080697 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090777 | 0 | 0 | 0.096976 | 0 | 0.073239 | 0 | 0 | 0.071465 | 0 | 0.366726 | 0.064784 |
suicidewatch | wherediditgowrong123 | 2019/07/16 | What makes being alive better than being dead? My entire life is enveloped by fantasies of killing myself. In fact they’re the only thing that bring me any sort of relief. Sleep used to be the one thing I looked forward to, but nowadays, even my dreams are haunted by a lingering sense of dread. There is no escape but d... | 3.868056 | 6.538578 | 3.509367 | 87.935903 | 75.666667 | 4.543827 | 23.705247 | 5.148861 | 0.436295 | 348 | 11 | 59 | 1 | 8 | 104 | 59 | 81 | 0.338 | 0.461 | 0.201 | -0.9729 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 6 | 2 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 11 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 7 | 15 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 3 | 10 | 10 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 41 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188984 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.491566 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183552 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.307459 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.392582 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.233369 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185503 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188314 | 0.211358 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.278104 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.369253 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.240019 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Missho93 | 2019/07/16 | My suicide note My Letter to My Loved Ones
I think I care about people so much but I don't show it. Sometimes I can be egotistical and annoying, that's why I feel like there was nobody that cares. I think I develop this disease of mind after failure from one of the postings during medical school. My coping : denial. An... | 0.575073 | 2.725694 | 2.698896 | 92.004755 | 84.787781 | 5.330849 | 21.365708 | 6.661559 | 0.419372 | 1,151 | 38 | 250 | 13 | 34 | 388 | 146 | 311 | 0.163 | 0.62 | 0.217 | 0.9551 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 38 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 4 | 8 | 25 | 5 | 0 | 16 | 1 | 26 | 7 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 47 | 48 | 19 | 1 | 8 | 15 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 17 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 3 | 0 | 7 | 10 | 12 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 4 | 47 | 13 | 42 | 38 | 8 | 30 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 18 | 9 | 3 | 5 | 7 | 188 | 64 | 2 | 0.097363 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096558 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102177 | 0 | 0 | 0.108149 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.297805 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077737 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064308 | 0.088071 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091785 | 0 | 0.04923 | 0.069556 | 0 | 0 | 0.177977 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150445 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110668 | 0.081664 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053508 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105786 | 0 | 0.137541 | 0.047567 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081761 | 0.108925 | 0 | 0 | 0.263623 | 0.092128 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106057 | 0 | 0.098083 | 0.098119 | 0 | 0.196618 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071573 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197928 | 0.148098 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067499 | 0 | 0 | 0.106876 | 0 | 0 | 0.093247 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097877 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098537 | 0.077586 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096295 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1065 | 0 | 0.091764 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187159 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114855 | 0.540977 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087855 | 0 | 0.223926 | 0.093855 | 0 | 0.070882 | 0 | 0 | 0.069164 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | throwaway82827272772 | 2019/07/16 | im done im planning on finally killing myself. ive been suicidal for years now, and im at my breaking point. im just so tired of hurting and i see no way out anymore. theres so much wrong with me and its not worth trying to fix. im a waste of everyones time, and i know how much easier it would be if i were to kill myse... | 1.797379 | 3.600706 | 3.973718 | 86.347884 | 78.491917 | 7.120009 | 23.342749 | 8.055295 | 1.282088 | 1,625 | 53 | 342 | 29 | 39 | 559 | 195 | 433 | 0.316 | 0.56 | 0.124 | -0.9987 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 47 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 28 | 36 | 10 | 2 | 17 | 0 | 41 | 10 | 0 | 8 | 5 | 65 | 69 | 36 | 6 | 7 | 10 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 14 | 26 | 2 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 13 | 26 | 0 | 2 | 11 | 5 | 55 | 11 | 45 | 48 | 17 | 40 | 0 | 9 | 4 | 2 | 15 | 16 | 0 | 5 | 19 | 240 | 69 | 0 | 0 | 0.174578 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.040867 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.037572 | 0 | 0.097417 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.043722 | 0 | 0.055875 | 0 | 0.037766 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103085 | 0.043438 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100151 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102991 | 0.106151 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.042302 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112579 | 0 | 0.04298 | 0.050261 | 0.172686 | 0 | 0 | 0.100513 | 0 | 0 | 0.043501 | 0 | 0 | 0.03244 | 0.044427 | 0 | 0.187724 | 0.044141 | 0 | 0.092602 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107605 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053852 | 0.037946 | 0 | 0.076981 | 0.047115 | 0.027913 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.04849 | 0 | 0 | 0.055356 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.048782 | 0 | 0 | 0.210312 | 0.055444 | 0.636625 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.217352 | 0 | 0.080976 | 0 | 0 | 0.052005 | 0 | 0 | 0.034691 | 0 | 0 | 0.086738 | 0.043465 | 0 | 0 | 0.053614 | 0 | 0.044328 | 0 | 0.032784 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052103 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.288839 | 0 | 0.03788 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.047127 | 0 | 0 | 0.052305 | 0.033281 | 0 | 0.104523 | 0.057625 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102149 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.046429 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052731 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156552 | 0 | 0.051237 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.034764 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.051345 | 0 | 0.107447 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073856 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.03263 | 0.062941 | 0 | 0 | 0.057278 | 0.16935 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.033346 | 0 | 0.047978 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.028969 | 0.07797 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.044318 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104669 | 0.053699 | 0 | 0.063256 |
suicidewatch | wetcigarettess | 2019/07/16 | Please help. I promised I would stay for 24 hours I dunno what 24 hours will do but I told someone I would wait. But what's been happening has been for years. It's not just gonna go away. But they sent me this link | -1.337325 | 0.684816 | -0.167173 | 108.22 | 98.148936 | 3.536778 | 13.097264 | 5.288315 | -1.574074 | 167 | 3 | 44 | 1 | 7 | 51 | 34 | 47 | 0 | 0.873 | 0.127 | 0.5023 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 13 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 7 | 1 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 26 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.263417 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159341 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.24793 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187926 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.552216 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.307762 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.237556 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.298837 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.267905 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.398333 | 0 | 0 | 0.180549 |
suicidewatch | Elke- | 2019/07/16 | Just the standard I don’t want to be alive rant I don’t want to be alive. I don’t think I’m going to kill myself. I feel like I’m too much of a wuss and too lazy and stupid to do it properly. I’ve been in and out of treatment for years, on and off meds, in and out of therapy. Nothing makes much of a difference. The wor... | 2.182755 | 3.747033 | 3.7384 | 89.522102 | 76.670157 | 6.764529 | 25.026505 | 7.531067 | 1.110243 | 1,431 | 50 | 312 | 19 | 32 | 475 | 170 | 382 | 0.163 | 0.732 | 0.105 | -0.9777 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 31 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 18 | 24 | 5 | 3 | 15 | 0 | 39 | 11 | 1 | 2 | 7 | 68 | 69 | 26 | 3 | 10 | 13 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 14 | 26 | 2 | 1 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 13 | 20 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 5 | 50 | 3 | 48 | 54 | 12 | 32 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 2 | 21 | 19 | 1 | 7 | 9 | 221 | 64 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198783 | 0 | 0 | 0.079376 | 0.165179 | 0 | 0 | 0.067498 | 0 | 0 | 0.112132 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08168 | 0 | 0 | 0.112919 | 0.18651 | 0.076322 | 0 | 0.242024 | 0 | 0 | 0.111828 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064012 | 0 | 0.17098 | 0 | 0.103013 | 0.103702 | 0 | 0.101594 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065558 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09357 | 0 | 0.050187 | 0.070909 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103715 | 0.095216 | 0.11282 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097996 | 0 | 0.105505 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106256 | 0 | 0 | 0.103598 | 0 | 0 | 0.109813 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070108 | 0.048492 | 0 | 0.175291 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179166 | 0.093919 | 0.066255 | 0 | 0 | 0.10812 | 0.220504 | 0 | 0.200055 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105494 | 0.14593 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097251 | 0.09524 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067259 | 0 | 0.105616 | 0.116456 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111897 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094975 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157866 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101886 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098168 | 0 | 0.070254 | 0.105795 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108571 | 0 | 0 | 0.103166 | 0 | 0.079779 | 0 | 0 | 0.113509 | 0 | 0.197825 | 0.190799 | 0.097519 | 0.157598 | 0.115755 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.234177 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07226 | 0 | 0.101151 | 0.141018 | 0 | 0 | 0.063918 |
suicidewatch | dexter-black101 | 2019/07/16 | I think I want to die. So why can’t I just kill myself? I’m struggling to find something to live for.
I do need to make my life better.
And I can.
But I’m struggling to find a reason why.
I’ve lost a lot of hope in myself and life itself.
At the moment all I do is work, eat, sleep and shower.
I have no frien... | -1.992381 | -0.15045 | 1.077143 | 98.79 | 101.222222 | 3.460317 | 12.354497 | 5.288315 | -1.338661 | 465 | 8 | 113 | 3 | 21 | 162 | 78 | 135 | 0.192 | 0.676 | 0.133 | -0.8204 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 24 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 8 | 11 | 1 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 12 | 5 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 25 | 27 | 10 | 3 | 4 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 14 | 4 | 16 | 26 | 4 | 8 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 74 | 18 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146573 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.261425 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127296 | 0 | 0.153388 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151231 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.278656 | 0.16631 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.270164 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114186 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146794 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163513 | 0 | 0.081224 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.313176 | 0 | 0 | 0.391517 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161336 | 0.12565 | 0 | 0 | 0.098654 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109588 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151958 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147902 | 0 | 0 | 0.11378 | 0 | 0 | 0.10461 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.309015 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094701 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174347 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.266724 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107596 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | jjbalvin | 2019/07/16 | I think I will commit suicide in the next days. I've been depressed for about 2 years. But for 6 months I have wanted to commit suicide. Things got worse. I'm tired. Sick and tired of how my life has come to nothing. I wanted to hang myself or strangle myself but let's just say that it's not going to work. I know that... | 1.333622 | 3.31241 | 2.519552 | 95.357767 | 80.716418 | 5.018599 | 18.516648 | 5.873415 | -0.362375 | 501 | 11 | 111 | 3 | 13 | 160 | 90 | 134 | 0.166 | 0.649 | 0.185 | 0.7184 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 13 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 13 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 27 | 29 | 8 | 3 | 4 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 4 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 17 | 5 | 18 | 23 | 3 | 12 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 72 | 24 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139164 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177459 | 0.104189 | 0 | 0.139146 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.18934 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166928 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.249632 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091815 | 0 | 0.129209 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171977 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.266357 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1652 | 0.11411 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107839 | 0 | 0 | 0.17598 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128951 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171814 | 0 | 0 | 0.155015 | 0 | 0 | 0.17205 | 0 | 0.122869 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112001 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103496 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128474 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.353428 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107329 | 0.103517 | 0 | 0 | 0.094203 | 0.371365 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190577 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185779 | 0 | 0 | 0.117613 | 0 | 0.164637 | 0.114763 | 0 | 0 | 0.104035 |
suicidewatch | andrewwhen | 2019/07/16 | Why does topics about suicide and death interest me? To be blunt. I’m not crazy...well maybe I am. I’m not sure. But I can be moody. No I’m not bipolar either. It’s just for some reason when it comes to those two topics. It gets me sorta excited in a way. Like if my homies mention suicide I turn my head in excitement o... | 0.27871 | 2.383328 | 1.949457 | 97.19337 | 85.682692 | 5.348161 | 19.139632 | 6.70267 | -0.030286 | 759 | 21 | 179 | 9 | 23 | 247 | 114 | 208 | 0.233 | 0.643 | 0.124 | -0.9817 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 24 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 11 | 19 | 4 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 19 | 4 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 35 | 33 | 13 | 4 | 3 | 17 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 16 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 7 | 8 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 21 | 11 | 20 | 25 | 4 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 8 | 2 | 8 | 8 | 108 | 37 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131521 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109388 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.222255 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064209 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.232129 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.199037 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125738 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125374 | 0.130326 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069789 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.310198 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127576 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09416 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120044 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162703 | 0.130564 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100986 | 0.127137 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.260702 | 0.105045 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097761 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.416711 | 0 | 0.119684 | 0 | 0 | 0.204135 | 0.110993 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084365 | 0.081368 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138126 | 0.248097 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100797 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.229173 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.277682 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Throwaway_76549 | 2019/07/16 | I'm a nuisance to everybody around me and they don't deserve everything I put them through My family is in a rough spot right now, my grandmother recently passed away and my dad lost his job, right now we're in a house that could be taken away and despite the fact that my dad should worry about everything else he still... | 5.922143 | 6.097449 | 5.712 | 84.033 | 66.619048 | 9.577143 | 31.085714 | 9.3871 | 2.482889 | 338 | 12 | 69 | 6 | 5 | 105 | 62 | 84 | 0.145 | 0.8 | 0.055 | -0.8316 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 8 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 13 | 12 | 5 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 12 | 1 | 10 | 6 | 0 | 16 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 45 | 15 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171249 | 0 | 0 | 0.361473 | 0.147919 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15359 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160699 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.345776 | 0 | 0.181348 | 0 | 0.097267 | 0.137428 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100505 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.221967 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190896 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093981 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.209993 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193383 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189941 | 0 | 0 | 0.328563 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136159 | 0 | 0.153626 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.21042 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.390719 | 0 | 0.136653 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | XanderStratz | 2019/07/16 | can anyone talk to me please idk if its allowed to post numbers or not but please text or call me at 70856o3877 i need someone to talk to | -0.101897 | 2.218321 | 0.665086 | 103.207284 | 92.793103 | 2.9 | 21.043103 | 3.1291 | -0.6928 | 109 | 4 | 25 | 0 | 4 | 33 | 22 | 29 | 0.039 | 0.812 | 0.149 | 0.5267 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 15 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.209679 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.306205 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.222353 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.658343 | 0 | 0 | 0.287196 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.254082 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.482055 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | pixelednemesis | 2019/07/16 | I don't know what to do anymore I'm so sad right now. This is the only place that nobody knows my name.
I wanted to talk about this a long time ago, and I can't stand anymore. I really want to kill myself and I have a lot of plans to not fail again. I hate the place that I live, I never felt real love from anyone, ... | 2.464541 | 3.895366 | 4.220285 | 86.920674 | 75.610738 | 6.845861 | 24.497204 | 7.492282 | 1.098281 | 1,119 | 36 | 235 | 14 | 24 | 378 | 151 | 298 | 0.229 | 0.648 | 0.123 | -0.9915 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 30 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 9 | 21 | 7 | 2 | 11 | 0 | 15 | 4 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 51 | 53 | 16 | 5 | 8 | 9 | 1 | 8 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 17 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 9 | 14 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 10 | 36 | 7 | 42 | 48 | 3 | 35 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 3 | 9 | 16 | 1 | 8 | 15 | 150 | 53 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09054 | 0 | 0.102277 | 0 | 0.112713 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.303883 | 0.071418 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095963 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104137 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107091 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065871 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086056 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096288 | 0 | 0.258223 | 0.145936 | 0.098069 | 0 | 0 | 0.173759 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094426 | 0.106727 | 0 | 0.116096 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112518 | 0 | 0 | 0.108729 | 0.091496 | 0.100841 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.339005 | 0 | 0.224532 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0998 | 0 | 0.180381 | 0.09039 | 0.085771 | 0 | 0 | 0.086835 | 0.184369 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075735 | 0.078776 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098005 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155363 | 0 | 0 | 0.113413 | 0 | 0 | 0.07081 | 0 | 0.213427 | 0 | 0.096554 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116256 | 0.130866 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087226 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101018 | 0.114336 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111723 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082095 | 0.089274 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119116 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10633 | 0 | 0.088215 | 0 | 0.084275 | 0.301221 | 0.081073 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065774 |
suicidewatch | jlyons617 | 2019/07/16 | Just walked around my yard... I’ve never felt so at peace with killing myself. Everything is better than I got it and it makes me happy. I’m ok with leaving things that way. | 0.237143 | 2.651867 | 1.3 | 98.21 | 93.285714 | 3.942857 | 15.571429 | 5.683918 | -0.749457 | 135 | 3 | 29 | 1 | 5 | 42 | 31 | 35 | 0.1 | 0.614 | 0.286 | 0.8008 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 8 | 5 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 4 | 3 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 18 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.288305 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.286429 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.291065 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.310957 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.259021 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.344756 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.358304 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.342922 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.21618 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.249781 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.215159 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.257066 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | SupremeSaleem | 2019/07/16 | My third attempt at posting here Not even reddit cares to listen to my thoughts, I’m not going to waste my time typing everything so whatever | 5.381111 | 7.051355 | 5.84537 | 77.199167 | 68.62963 | 8.362963 | 32.018519 | 8.841846 | 2.916274 | 115 | 5 | 19 | 2 | 2 | 37 | 22 | 27 | 0.086 | 0.833 | 0.081 | -0.0382 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 13 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.48095 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.311566 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.423951 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.268089 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.451777 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.374493 | 0.275064 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | HolyBruhBrine | 2019/07/16 | I still want to die I haven't attempted since early May and haven't seriously considered or planned doing it for a few weeks but I don't feel like anything I do anymore matters. Most of the people I care about aren't a active part of my life anymore. My parent's are in court against eachother and neither of them want m... | 6.259169 | 5.657286 | 6.690166 | 79.920698 | 66.054264 | 9.231894 | 32.38206 | 8.418075 | 2.355792 | 506 | 18 | 101 | 6 | 7 | 165 | 84 | 129 | 0.111 | 0.746 | 0.143 | 0.5076 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 5 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 10 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 24 | 23 | 9 | 1 | 3 | 5 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 13 | 5 | 16 | 20 | 4 | 12 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 5 | 1 | 4 | 7 | 69 | 19 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.376505 | 0 | 0 | 0.156208 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193536 | 0 | 0.200807 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197006 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125376 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09598 | 0.135609 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175488 | 0 | 0 | 0.10788 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202069 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188536 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.208643 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134077 | 0.185475 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128628 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.210775 | 0.205559 | 0 | 0.131599 | 0.165745 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121605 | 0.195169 | 0 | 0.203798 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157023 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.303185 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163945 | 0 | 0 | 0.223924 | 0 | 0.152264 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | spwider | 2019/07/16 | nononononononononononononononononono nononononononononononononononononono nononononononononononononononononono nononononononononononononononononono nononononononononononononononononono nononononononononononononononononono nononononononononononononononononono nononononononononononononononononononono nononononononononono... | 188.3655 | 195.797984 | 27.41 | 41.035 | -267.75 | 32 | 180 | 3.1291 | 22.201 | 2,884 | 80 | 80 | 0 | 1 | 80 | 2 | 80 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | IphoneEdge | 2019/07/16 | What’s the best way to off myself? Got horrible body acne, no insurance, no money to fix it. Mid twenties , been trying to trick myself into thinking it doesn’t matter. It does , it effects me mentally , psychologically, I can’t live a normal life. I’m going to try to exhaust every last resource I can get my hands on t... | 3.287156 | 4.693128 | 5.188958 | 80.903438 | 73.444444 | 7.687077 | 25.497886 | 8.2785 | 1.652305 | 802 | 26 | 157 | 13 | 16 | 276 | 117 | 207 | 0.228 | 0.704 | 0.068 | -0.989 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 21 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 17 | 10 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 13 | 14 | 6 | 4 | 1 | 24 | 32 | 10 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 15 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 8 | 14 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 15 | 3 | 27 | 27 | 3 | 19 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 5 | 10 | 9 | 1 | 5 | 95 | 30 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09194 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094609 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120652 | 0 | 0 | 0.255407 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.236208 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100609 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075935 | 0 | 0.096866 | 0 | 0 | 0.112461 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.531431 | 0.180198 | 0.110288 | 0.196017 | 0 | 0.091951 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101666 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187429 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.235126 | 0.162411 | 0 | 0.115228 | 0.101519 | 0.101743 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115501 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115861 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112644 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.24791 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130859 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118013 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108356 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073667 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.312223 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091256 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083698 | 0 | 0 | 0.08167 | 0 | 0 | 0.074036 |
suicidewatch | SWEETSPO_14 | 2019/07/16 | i’m the only thing standing in the way of my family’s true happiness fuck man. i’m not editing this post so enjoy the typos lmao.
my daughter just turned one, and my husbands mom and two siblings flew across the US to be here for it. tonight all of us got in a huge argument over dinner about the fact that we live 3,0... | 2.134643 | 3.839845 | 3.912909 | 87.60664 | 77.18689 | 7.136267 | 23.698407 | 7.996033 | 1.2016 | 2,707 | 87 | 580 | 45 | 62 | 911 | 268 | 717 | 0.141 | 0.736 | 0.124 | -0.9708 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 85 | 7 | 1 | 12 | 3 | 28 | 33 | 12 | 1 | 27 | 1 | 74 | 16 | 5 | 4 | 6 | 111 | 136 | 38 | 2 | 35 | 19 | 20 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 15 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 30 | 35 | 2 | 0 | 18 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 28 | 17 | 0 | 4 | 12 | 3 | 114 | 16 | 79 | 91 | 5 | 63 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 79 | 38 | 8 | 6 | 11 | 398 | 144 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.036938 | 0 | 0.095771 | 0.033762 | 0 | 0.039734 | 0.042984 | 0 | 0 | 0.09073 | 0.074256 | 0 | 0.088302 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.042704 | 0 | 0.053634 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192758 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100224 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.042254 | 0.049412 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.040336 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063783 | 0 | 0.081364 | 0.092277 | 0.043395 | 0 | 0.500706 | 0 | 0.048829 | 0 | 0.046361 | 0 | 0.044132 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.223193 | 0.075681 | 0 | 0.082324 | 0.080998 | 0.038618 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.205601 | 0 | 0.047671 | 0.049554 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.048434 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132681 | 0 | 0 | 0.051127 | 0 | 0 | 0.034105 | 0.070769 | 0.048394 | 0.298455 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087158 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105193 | 0 | 0.048642 | 0.09732 | 0 | 0 | 0.113101 | 0 | 0.102638 | 0.035495 | 0.035803 | 0.074481 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.047309 | 0.046331 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065438 | 0.036723 | 0 | 0 | 0.053615 | 0.052288 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09129 | 0 | 0.046244 | 0 | 0 | 0.092404 | 0 | 0.04854 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09929 | 0 | 0.05184 | 0.054697 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.049564 | 0 | 0.054274 | 0.04832 | 0 | 0.040912 | 0.037172 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.051465 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055275 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.036304 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064157 | 0.092817 | 0 | 0 | 0.028155 | 0 | 0 | 0.138415 | 0 | 0.032782 | 0.05252 | 0.094335 | 0.050266 | 0.174242 | 0 | 0 | 0.03984 | 0.142398 | 0.076653 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055525 | 0 | 0 | 0.035152 | 0.049036 | 0.049206 | 0.377302 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | EosQueen | 2019/07/16 | Im so tired Everything bad is rolling out for me like the red carpet of bad luck.
I dont think i even belong here. Ive felt that way since i was young, really young.
I cant find a decent job. No one wants me. My mother made my life a living hell.
Im sad and tired. Just so tired..i want to fall asleep and not wake up. | -2.230548 | -0.442293 | 0.511795 | 104.395363 | 97.082192 | 4.01589 | 10.039726 | 5.683918 | -1.725399 | 241 | 2 | 66 | 2 | 10 | 82 | 55 | 73 | 0.291 | 0.623 | 0.086 | -0.9567 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 5 | 5 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 12 | 10 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 9 | 2 | 5 | 7 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 32 | 10 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.337388 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.236788 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133445 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181579 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193989 | 0 | 0.18466 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.436473 | 0 | 0.200492 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142706 | 0.098706 | 0 | 0.178404 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191174 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136907 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129431 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167129 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129458 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.464428 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.238335 | 0.160369 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | throwaway58282 | 2019/07/16 | I don’t know what to do anymore My life is falling apart. I’ve been spending a lot of time talking to this girl and hanging out with her. It was the best time of life tbh. Not too long ago things started to get just a little bit more real with us. A step up from friends you could say. This lasted not even a week. All o... | 2.634545 | 4.442448 | 3.758098 | 88.81119 | 76.063291 | 6.368578 | 24.782204 | 7.168622 | 1.024812 | 1,531 | 52 | 312 | 17 | 34 | 496 | 197 | 395 | 0.087 | 0.829 | 0.085 | -0.3843 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 37 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 6 | 21 | 18 | 2 | 0 | 17 | 0 | 37 | 6 | 3 | 5 | 5 | 63 | 69 | 18 | 0 | 10 | 12 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 23 | 17 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 0 | 2 | 10 | 17 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 5 | 45 | 12 | 50 | 47 | 8 | 60 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 30 | 24 | 1 | 7 | 29 | 216 | 68 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077482 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0699 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.260057 | 0.061118 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072982 | 0.106567 | 0 | 0.074378 | 0 | 0.09173 | 0 | 0.095427 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089119 | 0 | 0.092466 | 0 | 0 | 0.094457 | 0 | 0.139577 | 0 | 0 | 0.225485 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091323 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173197 | 0.158132 | 0.073645 | 0 | 0.157114 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132589 | 0.124889 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067532 | 0.080808 | 0.137002 | 0.08385 | 0.149029 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09629 | 0 | 0.077295 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087678 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086739 | 0.077693 | 0 | 0 | 0.048037 | 0.07125 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123478 | 0.213517 | 0.087606 | 0 | 0.077354 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.222934 | 0 | 0 | 0.058346 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069769 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05923 | 0.066478 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060598 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082629 | 0 | 0.083713 | 0 | 0.094241 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09297 | 0 | 0.09949 | 0.223984 | 0.179741 | 0 | 0.093844 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069511 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079573 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087472 | 0 | 0.074061 | 0.201874 | 0 | 0 | 0.061868 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09919 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.210767 | 0.076399 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05807 | 0.112016 | 0 | 0 | 0.152906 | 0 | 0 | 0.083522 | 0 | 0.059345 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105142 | 0 | 0 | 0.072121 | 0.051556 | 0 | 0.070114 | 0 | 0 | 0.081028 | 0.078872 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127269 | 0 | 0.089077 | 0 | 0.191135 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | spookytears | 2019/07/16 | Impending Doom of Graduation I’m due to graduate (undergrad) in December. I have had this plan for about 2 years now that I wanted to go into a certain field which would mean graduate school. But now, I feel hopeless. I feel like I won’t get a job with or without graduate school. I feel like I’ll end up killing myself ... | 2.681217 | 4.318508 | 4.596844 | 83.583587 | 75.487805 | 8.335725 | 26.205165 | 9.007467 | 2.090943 | 787 | 29 | 162 | 18 | 17 | 269 | 122 | 205 | 0.21 | 0.636 | 0.154 | -0.9504 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 25 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 14 | 16 | 2 | 2 | 9 | 1 | 16 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 30 | 38 | 16 | 3 | 4 | 7 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 2 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 5 | 25 | 8 | 24 | 29 | 3 | 27 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 8 | 0 | 3 | 17 | 110 | 34 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092099 | 0.136008 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113111 | 0 | 0 | 0.073389 | 0 | 0.102444 | 0 | 0.126343 | 0.106476 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103693 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137979 | 0 | 0.105355 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106631 | 0 | 0 | 0.079517 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.243493 | 0.258022 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102405 | 0 | 0 | 0.186028 | 0 | 0.251597 | 0.11549 | 0.136842 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080696 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11947 | 0 | 0.133195 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176451 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080362 | 0 | 0 | 0.131141 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088501 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091563 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083464 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115301 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121026 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077126 | 0 | 0 | 0.129255 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.241065 | 0.243684 | 0.095936 | 0 | 0.125594 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.263377 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096766 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079982 | 0.154283 | 0 | 0 | 0.070201 | 0 | 0 | 0.115039 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07101 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116053 | 0.130559 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.256567 | 0 | 0 | 0.232584 |
suicidewatch | Bambi400 | 2019/07/16 | Songs that keep you going when you’re at your lowest Or they make you want to end it all Let’s share them | -0.945 | 1.080265 | 0.313333 | 107.065 | 91.5 | 3.2 | 8 | 3.1291 | -2.5349 | 84 | 0 | 22 | 0 | 3 | 26 | 22 | 24 | 0.104 | 0.757 | 0.139 | -0.0258 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 13 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.458194 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.294006 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.459819 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.528997 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.345316 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.30513 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | superstarstool | 2019/07/16 | Itss late hours boys I just can't there's no way to fix me I can't bri g myself to talk or think about so I just feel it anx I feel terrible and now my worst fears is talking about it so the most I can do is over saturate my life with filler content till I goes away and just not thing about I joined this sub reddit a m... | 4.242816 | 3.747327 | 4.999362 | 90.007355 | 70.198347 | 8.071311 | 25.9634 | 7.168622 | 0.876287 | 875 | 21 | 209 | 7 | 14 | 284 | 132 | 242 | 0.178 | 0.797 | 0.025 | -0.986 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 16 | 13 | 2 | 1 | 10 | 1 | 17 | 5 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 45 | 29 | 20 | 0 | 2 | 12 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 15 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 11 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 7 | 28 | 2 | 37 | 24 | 8 | 36 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 12 | 0 | 4 | 20 | 143 | 39 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.265839 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140881 | 0 | 0 | 0.182813 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129167 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153448 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154936 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168733 | 0.227454 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137049 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165184 | 0 | 0 | 0.159622 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147668 | 0 | 0.160522 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.244455 | 0.169147 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105912 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100091 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.239373 | 0 | 0.110229 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.283498 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14348 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128054 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.212267 | 0 | 0 | 0.125363 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.361566 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099618 | 0.09608 | 0 | 0 | 0.174871 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101805 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088443 | 0.238043 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | cavinginforsomethin | 2019/07/16 | I just want to slit my wrist and die What the fuck is the point. The ones that I like have a small crush on me at first then they just fuck off. Even the ones who don't matter in my life are assholes to me for some reason. I just want to slit my wrists and die. Nothing matters anymore. Nobody does. Why is every dude I ... | 0.437315 | 2.255723 | 1.61554 | 101.513681 | 82.950617 | 4.05 | 16.29784 | 3.1291 | -1.247779 | 289 | 5 | 71 | 0 | 8 | 91 | 57 | 81 | 0.29 | 0.614 | 0.095 | -0.9586 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 5 | 8 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 12 | 11 | 3 | 2 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 2 | 8 | 11 | 2 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 5 | 6 | 4 | 1 | 3 | 47 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184716 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.386608 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.325987 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12302 | 0 | 0.156929 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158429 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.516572 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131558 | 0.090995 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168103 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178717 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.252424 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176072 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191502 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.219717 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.336134 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | GolldenFalcon | 2019/07/16 | I want a dog but I know that I'm not going to be able to muster the effort to give it the love and affection it deserves, and I don't want to leave it alone in this miserable world if I happen to off myself. title | 2.85875 | 2.684476 | 4.908333 | 88.37 | 73.166667 | 8.066667 | 22.25 | 7.793538 | 0.692075 | 166 | 3 | 40 | 2 | 3 | 58 | 35 | 48 | 0.124 | 0.618 | 0.258 | 0.7523 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 9 | 10 | 4 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 7 | 9 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 27 | 10 | 0 | 0.359739 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.372581 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.345095 | 0.204448 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.318116 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197703 | 0 | 0 | 0.380912 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.324679 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.424367 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | El_Idolo_ | 2019/07/16 | Lost the battle After battling severe depression and anxiety for my entire life I’m sad to say I’ve lost! I’ve come to the conclusion that it’s time, time to be in peace time to be happy and be me for eternity! I tried it all and nothing works so I’m done! I think I’ve lived a full life and there’s nothing left for me.... | 0.155055 | 1.91729 | 2.678037 | 93.821904 | 83.628099 | 6.016804 | 19.174242 | 7.168622 | 0.220024 | 425 | 11 | 101 | 6 | 12 | 147 | 67 | 121 | 0.257 | 0.579 | 0.165 | -0.8848 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 6 | 4 | 13 | 3 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 8 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 17 | 20 | 9 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 16 | 6 | 12 | 10 | 3 | 16 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 5 | 1 | 3 | 10 | 61 | 22 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111878 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13019 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153476 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125978 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094317 | 0 | 0.125962 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149661 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135202 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155682 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.435767 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158897 | 0 | 0.206596 | 0 | 0 | 0.129138 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.31929 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.280655 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101389 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187378 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.232602 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165217 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122268 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093709 | 0 | 0.116103 | 0.426387 | 0 | 0.138624 | 0 | 0 | 0.099292 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106469 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | ihaveocdthrowaway | 2019/07/16 | i can’t do this anymore :( i thought that this year would be different. i thought i’d finally, just maybe.. want to live a little longer. and i did, for a while. i really did. i got a new job, a loving boyfriend, i got out of my emotionally abusive dad’s house, and i managed to get myself back to a healthy weight after... | 2.614328 | 4.175278 | 3.714885 | 90.15823 | 75.491803 | 6.322623 | 25.642623 | 6.918507 | 0.958053 | 1,162 | 41 | 247 | 11 | 25 | 376 | 158 | 305 | 0.187 | 0.697 | 0.116 | -0.9828 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 35 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 16 | 21 | 3 | 3 | 9 | 0 | 28 | 8 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 39 | 58 | 19 | 1 | 10 | 2 | 5 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 13 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 7 | 13 | 0 | 4 | 7 | 4 | 46 | 8 | 38 | 44 | 8 | 38 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 3 | 15 | 18 | 2 | 1 | 20 | 170 | 57 | 3 | 0 | 0.11474 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080579 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192078 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090984 | 0.148928 | 0.080857 | 0.059033 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171294 | 0 | 0.107567 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098735 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154638 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099838 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101177 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080897 | 0.108932 | 0.085771 | 0 | 0 | 0.063962 | 0.087597 | 0 | 0 | 0.087034 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.048965 | 0.069182 | 0 | 0.212167 | 0.08851 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149637 | 0.179054 | 0.151785 | 0 | 0.055036 | 0 | 0.154904 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06491 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11174 | 0.103669 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192197 | 0 | 0.107139 | 0 | 0.106441 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105217 | 0 | 0 | 0.094622 | 0.194118 | 0.085511 | 0.0857 | 0.081321 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087402 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097289 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113418 | 0 | 0 | 0.071189 | 0.071806 | 0 | 0.093529 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092921 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073651 | 0 | 0 | 0.107529 | 0 | 0 | 0.067137 | 0 | 0.101177 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185326 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062038 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082701 | 0 | 0 | 0.096954 | 0 | 0.077169 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080107 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101238 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128672 | 0 | 0 | 0.15376 | 0 | 0.33391 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105334 | 0.094599 | 0 | 0 | 0.083639 | 0 | 0.079903 | 0.114237 | 0 | 0 | 0.117925 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137585 | 0 | 0 | 0.187085 |
suicidewatch | self-hate-in-indiana | 2019/07/16 | I’m a monster who makes people I love worse. Every friend I’ve ever had I brought down most have told me so. No matter how hard I try I just can’t seem to make people happy. I just make them hate me and never want to be around me. I can’t imagine how I’ve made my family feel. I can’t do this I’m not like other people i... | -1.155128 | 0.686313 | 2.010513 | 96.084487 | 89.769231 | 4.492308 | 13.794872 | 5.822114 | -0.947728 | 264 | 4 | 64 | 2 | 9 | 94 | 54 | 78 | 0.178 | 0.629 | 0.193 | 0.5073 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 3 | 20 | 20 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 12 | 4 | 4 | 15 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 39 | 16 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185678 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.18867 | 0.175736 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.196628 | 0 | 0.105463 | 0.149008 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161147 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.222035 | 0.186845 | 0.205927 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1019 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188249 | 0.197361 | 0.417682 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160868 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.433804 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.212198 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189881 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.199305 | 0 | 0.141611 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123024 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.212558 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | michiganeverything | 2019/07/16 | AT THIS POINT I JUST WANNA KILLMYSELF I’m just tired of being stuck in my mind. I’m tired of letting everybody down and i’m tired of being a disappointment. I honestly been thinking about numerous different ways I could kill myself but i’m too weak to actually do it. I just wanna go away. | 0.31 | 2.617345 | 2.947862 | 84.258345 | 100.724138 | 6.457931 | 21.317241 | 7.554174 | 1.628381 | 232 | 9 | 44 | 6 | 10 | 80 | 40 | 58 | 0.274 | 0.693 | 0.034 | -0.9042 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 13 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 11 | 7 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 32 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.212951 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.205025 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174231 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.227993 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124019 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.241428 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.223145 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.22034 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206288 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139827 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.752435 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173213 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | L_Smith | 2019/07/16 | How in the absolute fuck do you do this shit? I’m fucjing done. How the fuck do you get up every fucking day, work 10 hours for peanuts and go home, do everything.. fuck I don’t even want to explain the process, you know how bullshit it is.. and I feel like if you disagree you’re too proud of your bullshit study debts ... | 1.448938 | 3.541775 | 2.283048 | 96.604302 | 80.933702 | 4.9062 | 21.657766 | 5.822114 | -0.04349 | 686 | 21 | 154 | 4 | 18 | 214 | 105 | 181 | 0.3 | 0.595 | 0.105 | -0.9929 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 29 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 3 | 11 | 18 | 12 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 23 | 12 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 27 | 48 | 14 | 1 | 6 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 10 | 4 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 9 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 21 | 5 | 15 | 43 | 3 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 13 | 6 | 12 | 2 | 5 | 99 | 31 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085942 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088354 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055888 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089938 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088682 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114475 | 0 | 0.073014 | 0 | 0.077883 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.043817 | 0.061909 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133905 | 0.881261 | 0.090551 | 0 | 0.04925 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058086 | 0 | 0.086926 | 0 | 0.085341 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154053 | 0 | 0 | 0.047625 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.042337 | 0.086855 | 0 | 0.07669 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060078 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055516 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088954 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057572 | 0.055527 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09426 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.051114 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156392 | 0 | 0.099653 | 0 | 0 | 0.063089 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | scarletxoxo_18 | 2019/07/16 | [23F] struggling with PTSD Not sure if this is the right subreddit for this, but I’ve been struggling like crazy. I am only 23 yes old but got diagnosed with PTSD about 3 years ago due to repetitive flashbacks of all the domestic violence and abuse I witnessed growing up. The flashbacks are debilitating and I can find... | 4.515638 | 5.393841 | 5.385465 | 82.659223 | 69.92233 | 8.215811 | 28.791956 | 8.418075 | 1.966733 | 813 | 29 | 162 | 12 | 14 | 266 | 117 | 206 | 0.229 | 0.629 | 0.142 | -0.9775 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 24 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 7 | 14 | 1 | 7 | 12 | 1 | 18 | 4 | 2 | 3 | 3 | 39 | 27 | 19 | 1 | 5 | 8 | 3 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 11 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 17 | 4 | 33 | 20 | 4 | 23 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 8 | 0 | 4 | 10 | 110 | 23 | 3 | 0 | 0.385676 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106028 | 0.096182 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08677 | 0 | 0.117563 | 0 | 0.073786 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123438 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191925 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.222926 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117254 | 0.121696 | 0.086631 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110129 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111058 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122052 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122096 | 0.109725 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09917 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12333 | 0 | 0.08678 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128577 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107673 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053009 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092246 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120523 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.219115 | 0.127078 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113856 | 0 | 0 | 0.082522 | 0 | 0.25461 | 0.12048 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.380504 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122913 | 0.092661 | 0 | 0 | 0.108631 | 0.109811 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107313 | 0 | 0 | 0.11565 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.226862 | 0 | 0.118685 | 0 | 0.102263 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106604 | 0 | 0.063269 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073667 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097907 | 0 | 0.124773 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077078 | 0 | 0 | 0.069873 |
suicidewatch | moonlightmasochist | 2019/07/16 | I'm suicidal. I'm so depressed. I act okay in front of everyone but I'm not fucking fine. I'm an asshole. I'm manipulative. I ruin everything. I wish I was fucking dead. I keep trying to find out how I can die but I can't fucking find anything. I can't find dosages or anything. I just want to feel loved. And cared abou... | -0.562075 | 1.35951 | 2.284547 | 88.123425 | 106.924528 | 5.138868 | 23.224528 | 6.742158 | 1.235877 | 410 | 19 | 83 | 8 | 20 | 142 | 65 | 106 | 0.345 | 0.482 | 0.173 | -0.9771 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 18 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 11 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 6 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 21 | 24 | 10 | 3 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 15 | 4 | 7 | 21 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 3 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 44 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166467 | 0.177369 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.264533 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123591 | 0 | 0.097979 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163874 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138436 | 0 | 0.166812 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153584 | 0.144453 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.325079 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.440712 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.445776 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107734 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142864 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175455 | 0 | 0.145065 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176433 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167676 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175812 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109125 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094802 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184831 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | lonely-alt | 2019/07/16 | I cannot ask for help Around two years ago I smoked synthetic cannabis. It gave me a long seizure that I self medicated for. After that I had constant chest pain but self medicated with a benzo. This stopped the symptoms but the addiction became uncontrollable and I went to rehab. The symptoms have gotten progressively... | 4.330917 | 7.118868 | 4.272161 | 82.45396 | 74.697674 | 6.37264 | 28.140903 | 7.510576 | 1.86481 | 756 | 31 | 127 | 10 | 17 | 232 | 100 | 172 | 0.186 | 0.664 | 0.151 | -0.7098 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 11 | 1 | 2 | 10 | 0 | 17 | 11 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 30 | 31 | 14 | 1 | 5 | 7 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 11 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 1 | 23 | 6 | 17 | 21 | 2 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 15 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 10 | 95 | 31 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126241 | 0 | 0 | 0.102652 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096357 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.242915 | 0 | 0 | 0.103088 | 0.216519 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102418 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.250282 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058553 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121004 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.310479 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128118 | 0 | 0.063642 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102481 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.233317 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085866 | 0.089314 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088073 | 0.246443 | 0 | 0.257169 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127116 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119064 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.241614 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096816 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.262822 | 0 | 0.361088 | 0 | 0 | 0.101216 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110654 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113122 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10735 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118012 | 0.246788 | 0 | 0 | 0.074573 |
suicidewatch | PyroIncognito | 2019/07/16 | Everyone hates me Everyone dislikes me and calls me an attention seeker. Whenever I make an embarrassing mistake people hammer down on me as hard as they can. I have no friends. Go ahead and say I'm attention seeking. I don't care. | 2.773409 | 5.559106 | 4.737455 | 76.771182 | 81.045455 | 8.974545 | 31.527273 | 9.3871 | 3.804542 | 185 | 10 | 32 | 6 | 5 | 63 | 33 | 44 | 0.33 | 0.609 | 0.061 | -0.894 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 8 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 2 | 5 | 8 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 21 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.323063 | 0 | 0.322574 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.604636 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.244437 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179808 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.283418 | 0.312363 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.211189 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.219341 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.251601 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | marblepalace77 | 2019/07/16 | Just lost gf of 7 yrs, want to die tonight Not sure how this sub works
Just dealing with depression and denial by way of narccicistic pride, a bad combo.
Feel alone now, and want to stay alone,
I want to stay inside and hide from the world with how depressed I am. Can't take it anymore but need to keep working, make mo... | 5.089091 | 5.212722 | 5.14803 | 87.542045 | 68.393939 | 7.812121 | 27.106061 | 7.168622 | 1.071224 | 256 | 7 | 56 | 2 | 4 | 80 | 52 | 66 | 0.239 | 0.687 | 0.074 | -0.8601 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 19 | 11 | 6 | 1 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 10 | 10 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 28 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.404755 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193786 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163152 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.201451 | 0.336599 | 0 | 0.202796 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098801 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173682 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.213304 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130432 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144888 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.416545 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184164 | 0 | 0.146918 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.345759 | 0.155101 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.28451 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Panozzles | 2019/07/16 | tl;dr Hello, this may be a bit long-winded but I feel like it needs to be, sorry in advance (but I do appreciate you taking the time to read my thoughts).
P.S. This may come off as '/r/iamverysmart' type of wording, but I'm just trying my best to push past my disgust of being seen as a pseudo-intellectual, to honestly ... | 11.96982 | 8.198436 | 10.820184 | 64.805341 | 57.582183 | 13.8889 | 46.516478 | 11.538035 | 5.31184 | 3,404 | 159 | 590 | 65 | 30 | 1,084 | 389 | 797 | 0.166 | 0.664 | 0.171 | 0.6879 | 6 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 93 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 18 | 36 | 53 | 7 | 7 | 47 | 0 | 63 | 6 | 1 | 12 | 10 | 126 | 106 | 43 | 3 | 14 | 18 | 2 | 5 | 3 | 1 | 7 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 40 | 37 | 1 | 5 | 20 | 4 | 2 | 15 | 13 | 24 | 1 | 2 | 18 | 9 | 79 | 29 | 116 | 69 | 18 | 87 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 23 | 41 | 0 | 16 | 31 | 427 | 119 | 13 | 0.059156 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059236 | 0 | 0 | 0.047307 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.281598 | 0.062031 | 0.045254 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194722 | 0 | 0 | 0.067299 | 0 | 0.045488 | 0 | 0.036061 | 0 | 0 | 0.066649 | 0.124162 | 0.052319 | 0.064583 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06077 | 0 | 0.254789 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.047231 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060532 | 0 | 0.066543 | 0.10479 | 0 | 0 | 0.312577 | 0.05351 | 0 | 0.113053 | 0 | 0 | 0.111535 | 0 | 0.089734 | 0.042261 | 0 | 0 | 0.054068 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.045704 | 0 | 0 | 0.113496 | 0 | 0.148852 | 0 | 0.06522 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058405 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117511 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061744 | 0.058703 | 0.052581 | 0 | 0 | 0.032511 | 0 | 0 | 0.062638 | 0 | 0 | 0.041784 | 0.086702 | 0.05929 | 0.104472 | 0.052351 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055975 | 0.157949 | 0.059975 | 0.05943 | 0 | 0 | 0.059594 | 0.119231 | 0 | 0.059731 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086973 | 0.087727 | 0.09125 | 0.057134 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.040086 | 0.089982 | 0 | 0.069407 | 0.131372 | 0 | 0.056471 | 0.082023 | 0.051653 | 0.123611 | 0 | 0.111844 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127561 | 0.113209 | 0 | 0.118937 | 0 | 0 | 0.118345 | 0 | 0.075794 | 0.121645 | 0 | 0.063512 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.047043 | 0 | 0.059869 | 0 | 0.107707 | 0.061713 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066494 | 0 | 0 | 0.050123 | 0.045541 | 0 | 0.066221 | 0 | 0 | 0.047242 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129415 | 0 | 0.055754 | 0 | 0.044478 | 0.047548 | 0.051705 | 0.054463 | 0 | 0 | 0.117902 | 0 | 0.058121 | 0.281781 | 0.172473 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.200816 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.034892 | 0.046956 | 0 | 0 | 0.053189 | 0 | 0.106759 | 0 | 0 | 0.057025 | 0 | 0.043066 | 0 | 0.060285 | 0.042023 | 0.064678 | 0 | 0.038095 |
suicidewatch | SPARTAN-X981 | 2019/07/16 | My life is just brutual (srry if my grammer is bad ) How can I tell but things happening to me our just like nightmares becoming reality,this year I lost my best friend and today I lost the girl of my life,the only thing everyone teached me is PAIN,THERE IS NOONE I can share my pain with,everytime I laugh,make me thin... | 1.76661 | 3.284473 | 3.745333 | 89.227492 | 77.700565 | 7.205876 | 23.099435 | 8.021204 | 1.087226 | 650 | 20 | 145 | 11 | 15 | 221 | 98 | 177 | 0.157 | 0.59 | 0.253 | 0.9597 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 20 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 9 | 16 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 20 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 23 | 28 | 13 | 1 | 4 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 30 | 10 | 7 | 21 | 3 | 11 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 13 | 91 | 36 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10736 | 0 | 0.142008 | 0 | 0.144868 | 0.134939 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.245731 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14469 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099342 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113704 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086186 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.277781 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.454106 | 0.251274 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.280724 | 0.109316 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097792 | 0.41046 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164746 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108947 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102686 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140648 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112386 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.256272 | 0.16478 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12188 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075841 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082802 |
suicidewatch | bravoxrayfivefive | 2019/07/16 | Low mood from issues at work (Also posted on r/advice)
23, M, UK
Evening all. I’m relatively new to reddit but have been lurking a while and noticed that this sub gives decent advice, and I’m feeling quite low this evening and feel I need to share my thoughts if you don’t mind.
I’ve been at my place of work three ye... | 6.059654 | 5.87044 | 6.59878 | 79.03061 | 66.361111 | 9.246612 | 32.838753 | 8.771749 | 2.583473 | 2,860 | 110 | 558 | 40 | 41 | 936 | 299 | 720 | 0.171 | 0.662 | 0.167 | -0.565 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 58 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 12 | 22 | 51 | 6 | 6 | 33 | 0 | 55 | 12 | 6 | 9 | 6 | 111 | 124 | 51 | 1 | 15 | 18 | 1 | 14 | 5 | 3 | 8 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 36 | 29 | 0 | 2 | 23 | 1 | 1 | 9 | 18 | 28 | 0 | 4 | 18 | 17 | 69 | 20 | 81 | 94 | 17 | 77 | 0 | 11 | 0 | 3 | 41 | 36 | 0 | 15 | 34 | 358 | 105 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10734 | 0 | 0 | 0.054997 | 0 | 0 | 0.043922 | 0.091401 | 0.119018 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076807 | 0.11255 | 0.045197 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.051602 | 0 | 0 | 0.301325 | 0.060658 | 0.093471 | 0.061879 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061007 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056421 | 0 | 0 | 0.057586 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06033 | 0.106262 | 0 | 0.047305 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091762 | 0 | 0.048645 | 0 | 0 | 0.108828 | 0 | 0.046275 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.333248 | 0.039237 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084867 | 0 | 0.086085 | 0.105374 | 0.124856 | 0.046067 | 0.043927 | 0.121106 | 0.060504 | 0.054382 | 0 | 0.058467 | 0 | 0 | 0.112734 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.036814 | 0 | 0.055092 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.293981 | 0 | 0 | 0.057325 | 0.054503 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090553 | 0 | 0 | 0.058156 | 0 | 0 | 0.077587 | 0.134163 | 0 | 0.048498 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14871 | 0.207878 | 0.073323 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055457 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.040725 | 0 | 0.053045 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06253 | 0 | 0 | 0.037217 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060985 | 0 | 0.05243 | 0.038077 | 0.047957 | 0.057383 | 0 | 0 | 0.061917 | 0.105202 | 0.111753 | 0.059216 | 0.052554 | 0 | 0.055213 | 0 | 0.058417 | 0 | 0.125029 | 0.035185 | 0 | 0.10846 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.043677 | 0.054987 | 0 | 0 | 0.05 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093072 | 0 | 0 | 0.061482 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.045918 | 0 | 0.114835 | 0.062874 | 0.120154 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.041295 | 0 | 0.09601 | 0.050566 | 0 | 0 | 0.036488 | 0 | 0 | 0.174411 | 0.16013 | 0 | 0 | 0.052481 | 0 | 0.037289 | 0.119481 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12958 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063159 | 0 | 0 | 0.319877 | 0.055777 | 0.055971 | 0.039016 | 0.06005 | 0 | 0.070737 |
suicidewatch | kerrikuma | 2019/07/16 | At a crisis center I'm here hey again, waiting to see the nurse. I can't wait to see a therapist in two weeks, or for my new medication to not start to work (if it even does) for 4-6 weeks. I need it all gone right now. | 0.363 | 1.235722 | 2.973 | 96.0115 | 80 | 6.6 | 18.5 | 7.168622 | -0.1758 | 165 | 3 | 45 | 2 | 4 | 58 | 40 | 50 | 0.089 | 0.911 | 0 | -0.6249 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 9 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 8 | 8 | 1 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 26 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.243878 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184068 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.280745 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206641 | 0 | 0.269155 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.237995 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.44415 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197254 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.323574 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.272234 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.447087 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202885 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | oreo6362 | 2019/07/16 | One day I will die by suicide I hate myself. Feeling like Im always alone and too embarrassed to talk to anybody about my problems. A little over a month ago, I was in the hospital cause I called the suicide hotline while I was on the edge of a bridge over a highway ready to jump. Time before that. (3 years ago I think... | 0.920737 | 2.624424 | 2.720334 | 94.776367 | 80.804878 | 5.876765 | 21.033376 | 6.836019 | 0.221293 | 738 | 21 | 175 | 8 | 19 | 245 | 111 | 205 | 0.162 | 0.646 | 0.191 | 0.8974 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 20 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 13 | 2 | 1 | 15 | 0 | 14 | 6 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 21 | 28 | 12 | 6 | 2 | 4 | 6 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 12 | 6 | 32 | 9 | 23 | 12 | 4 | 30 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 15 | 13 | 1 | 2 | 17 | 109 | 36 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206827 | 0 | 0 | 0.241653 | 0 | 0 | 0.194144 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099271 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.238249 | 0 | 0.118944 | 0.119844 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.225711 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.363229 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114284 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058988 | 0.083343 | 0.224027 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060951 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124189 | 0 | 0.115179 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126015 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095095 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11399 | 0.116926 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.210584 | 0.110388 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.235049 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093118 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109479 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158106 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11163 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119752 | 0.096504 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098847 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.382827 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17543 | 0.093768 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074752 | 0 | 0 | 0.136053 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079206 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075126 |
suicidewatch | finnanut3302 | 2019/07/16 | I am done. I am done with this shit. All the pain, all thr shit thats in my life, and all the wasteful things ive done. I am done. Not with reddit, but with life. My whole break from the internet was a waste. I am going to get out of here, one way or another. | -1.614212 | 0.194028 | 0.865567 | 103.614655 | 91.931034 | 4.693596 | 13.458128 | 6.182691 | -1.139629 | 193 | 3 | 53 | 2 | 7 | 65 | 39 | 58 | 0.191 | 0.809 | 0 | -0.8779 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 10 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 11 | 12 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 8 | 7 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 41 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.196174 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.765809 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097744 | 0 | 0.106324 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.264287 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126773 | 0 | 0.199071 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.384079 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124291 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148499 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.208873 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | bigtrump2020 | 2019/07/16 | Been feeling worthless Hey everyone I have been feeling like killing myself for 2 years now and I feel like I’m just to much of a coward to do it.
A little bit about myself, I am married and I have two dogs my wife yells at me a lot and doesn’t ever have any affection towards me I have 1 real friend who moved far away... | -0.909063 | 0.902228 | 1.765592 | 98.500112 | 88.221311 | 5.090225 | 17.233758 | 6.427356 | -0.414909 | 829 | 20 | 211 | 9 | 27 | 286 | 131 | 244 | 0.217 | 0.65 | 0.132 | -0.9673 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 18 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 11 | 22 | 4 | 2 | 14 | 0 | 23 | 6 | 5 | 3 | 4 | 42 | 49 | 13 | 3 | 7 | 8 | 3 | 6 | 3 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 9 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 12 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 11 | 35 | 10 | 23 | 38 | 6 | 23 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 9 | 13 | 2 | 4 | 9 | 129 | 40 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120657 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079223 | 0 | 0.089121 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109454 | 0 | 0.097271 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.254372 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.237555 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093014 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.241814 | 0 | 0 | 0.119241 | 0.101948 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105379 | 0 | 0.111319 | 0.104701 | 0 | 0.109824 | 0 | 0.294525 | 0.166453 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090006 | 0 | 0.121731 | 0 | 0.066209 | 0.097713 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115352 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131512 | 0 | 0 | 0.115607 | 0 | 0.128888 | 0 | 0.064024 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170746 | 0.233524 | 0 | 0 | 0.195658 | 0 | 0.127172 | 0.099043 | 0 | 0 | 0.077763 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123586 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123819 | 0.08564 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080765 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118521 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132601 | 0.149264 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.239168 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109798 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074647 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111319 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113802 | 0 | 0 | 0.100617 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092471 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133967 | 0 | 0 | 0.084812 | 0 | 0 | 0.165514 | 0 | 0 | 0.225063 |
suicidewatch | Drarckfort | 2019/07/16 | I'm tired of everything I hate where I live and the people I live with, I hate the career I am studying, I hate having to travel more than 1 hour in a horrible bus filled with horrible people to arrive to my lame college to do nothing and only learn that teachers hate their jobs. I hate myself, I hate my horribly skinn... | 5.975006 | 5.909752 | 6.754734 | 77.422231 | 66.520661 | 9.228335 | 32.161747 | 8.841846 | 2.631783 | 482 | 18 | 90 | 7 | 7 | 160 | 75 | 121 | 0.382 | 0.559 | 0.059 | -0.9931 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 16 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 11 | 7 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 10 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 19 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 19 | 2 | 15 | 15 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 62 | 22 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122735 | 0 | 0 | 0.101842 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137467 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.222451 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062576 | 0.088413 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135694 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.733112 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121877 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13368 | 0 | 0.122811 | 0 | 0.13692 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060462 | 0 | 0.218561 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.237498 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094123 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171596 | 0 | 0.129301 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079282 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.284483 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119298 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087914 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Anom1224 | 2019/07/16 | My mind is going to kill me I have had depression since I was 12. Im 20 now. I don't remember how it got this bad. Maybe it started with the acid trip that made me so incredibly self aware of all my fuck ups, my failures, everything wrong with me. I spiraled downwards so fast. I go to therapy, I take the fucking medica... | 0.23971 | 2.308171 | 2.356964 | 94.44875 | 85.510417 | 5.32381 | 22.684524 | 6.655084 | 0.49129 | 697 | 26 | 160 | 8 | 21 | 234 | 113 | 192 | 0.185 | 0.742 | 0.073 | -0.963 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 20 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 14 | 13 | 5 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 15 | 7 | 3 | 3 | 2 | 29 | 40 | 12 | 2 | 3 | 6 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 7 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 6 | 31 | 2 | 19 | 34 | 3 | 20 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 3 | 10 | 8 | 3 | 0 | 10 | 104 | 40 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.452068 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100939 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13064 | 0 | 0.096522 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104123 | 0 | 0.125466 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123714 | 0.283367 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159695 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108649 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183379 | 0.086365 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.335286 | 0.063161 | 0 | 0.13741 | 0 | 0.096688 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119355 | 0.124069 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162062 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.261166 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133748 | 0 | 0.132877 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118123 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11439 | 0 | 0 | 0.121451 | 0 | 0 | 0.121785 | 0 | 0 | 0.122066 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089639 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137635 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136946 | 0.10324 | 0 | 0 | 0.121033 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126116 | 0 | 0 | 0.100002 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102431 | 0.093068 | 0 | 0 | 0.085567 | 0 | 0.096544 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090895 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13825 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071305 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132176 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | DevonianScion | 2019/07/16 | I'm not strong enough I'm so fucking tired of this world. I'm tired of being unable to get the medical help I need because I'm not rich. I'm tired of being treated like a monster just because I'm trans. I'm tired of being treated like scum just because I dared to speak out about what my country is doing to innocent peo... | 2.354231 | 4.059032 | 3.949923 | 87.582577 | 76.564103 | 6.218462 | 24.520513 | 6.961327 | 0.944958 | 891 | 30 | 182 | 9 | 20 | 297 | 108 | 234 | 0.262 | 0.652 | 0.086 | -0.9943 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 20 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 12 | 16 | 3 | 0 | 8 | 1 | 20 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 20 | 46 | 9 | 0 | 7 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 6 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 10 | 10 | 34 | 40 | 5 | 22 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 7 | 13 | 2 | 2 | 7 | 103 | 18 | 0 | 0 | 0.08615 | 0.070955 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098891 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072109 | 0.101681 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177293 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064306 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076918 | 0 | 0.076235 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0644 | 0.075129 | 0 | 0.048024 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.036764 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066456 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134439 | 0.113964 | 0.06975 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.048736 | 0 | 0 | 0.072217 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071045 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.294866 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073248 | 0 | 0 | 0.073416 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053914 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154737 | 0 | 0 | 0.078738 | 0 | 0.352856 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069574 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077499 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.668556 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.049365 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128659 | 0.057714 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.328048 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074098 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Smasianboy | 2019/07/16 | I am bleeding... again I just cant stop it feels so good and hurts in a nice way anyone care to tell me why i should stop nobody else in my life does | 0.02902 | 1.303348 | 1.671176 | 103.266961 | 81.941176 | 4.533333 | 14.27451 | 3.1291 | -1.580067 | 114 | 1 | 31 | 0 | 3 | 37 | 30 | 34 | 0.084 | 0.577 | 0.339 | 0.8463 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 3 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 17 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.214762 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.313153 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.268783 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.256579 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155301 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.257617 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.328804 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.216945 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.513572 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.268457 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.243796 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.277149 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | pwolf18 | 2019/07/16 | Bad news—not sure how to move on I got some pretty bad news today. The latest effort in my mental health care was found to be ineffective (TMS). I’ve wasted a month, 5 days a week, and 3 hours (there, procedure, and back) for no results. They suggested ECT as the next thing but that seems like an incredible commit just... | 2.702452 | 5.047657 | 4.281203 | 82.590619 | 77.947368 | 7.70133 | 22.260844 | 8.617729 | 1.560171 | 537 | 16 | 105 | 12 | 13 | 179 | 94 | 133 | 0.197 | 0.652 | 0.151 | -0.8381 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 19 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 7 | 12 | 2 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 21 | 16 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 7 | 5 | 18 | 11 | 1 | 22 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 7 | 0 | 3 | 16 | 61 | 15 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115967 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127529 | 0.415435 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169096 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10696 | 0 | 0.142847 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145137 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162234 | 0 | 0 | 0.083859 | 0.118484 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181846 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159099 | 0 | 0 | 0.132646 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176291 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163329 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164581 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.243079 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167138 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13238 | 0.176273 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176384 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16873 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170522 | 0.163757 | 0 | 0 | 0.141635 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.301968 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156312 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110184 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096709 | 0.190621 | 0.157207 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097823 | 0 | 0.133035 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106802 |
suicidewatch | Quick_Chest | 2019/07/16 | i hate women and i dont want to or even know why i do? so i will post this on a throwaway because i can
so ill start this off by saying im not a very angry person and i dont even like women and have always had a preference for other boys
in high school i cant talk to boys because im in the homophobic south and i ha... | 2.066667 | 2.913683 | 3.41045 | 94.65631 | 75.666667 | 6.034921 | 22.494709 | 5.773588 | 0.035798 | 672 | 17 | 163 | 3 | 14 | 220 | 106 | 189 | 0.262 | 0.648 | 0.09 | -0.9889 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 11 | 15 | 6 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 10 | 8 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 31 | 25 | 20 | 3 | 5 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 2 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 10 | 5 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 5 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 27 | 7 | 19 | 22 | 4 | 21 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 21 | 10 | 3 | 1 | 10 | 101 | 32 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102797 | 0.10696 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098843 | 0 | 0.156719 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.266818 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.301307 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.254708 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099313 | 0.118838 | 0.201478 | 0 | 0.14611 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12728 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126911 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135815 | 0.128941 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.416551 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070645 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090795 | 0.188401 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15055 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136781 | 0 | 0.142734 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11224 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12311 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102224 | 0 | 0.260188 | 0.204867 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090985 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103319 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149911 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111021 | 0 | 0.106063 | 0.151638 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115992 | 0 | 0.14782 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091315 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | badassllamalady | 2019/07/16 | I really want to call the suicide hotline but am scared of them calling the cops I’m so tired... tired of life. I haven’t been happy in a long time and I just switch back and forth between hysterically sad and just super tired of life. And I feel so horribly terribly alone and that theres nothing to live for.
I’m in t... | 2.468 | 4.077023 | 4.43 | 84.675 | 76 | 8.133333 | 23.666667 | 8.841846 | 1.641067 | 456 | 14 | 96 | 10 | 10 | 156 | 65 | 120 | 0.316 | 0.562 | 0.122 | -0.9888 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 7 | 7 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 8 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 22 | 15 | 15 | 2 | 4 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 11 | 2 | 13 | 13 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 61 | 14 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127532 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0861 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094684 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.502944 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144315 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062261 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131081 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122194 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067673 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.260925 | 0 | 0 | 0.108732 | 0.108972 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124093 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118153 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.394422 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123281 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128729 | 0 | 0.269383 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107627 | 0 | 0.140817 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071802 | 0.424582 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.217887 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087473 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | juvaneta | 2019/07/16 | mom dad why did you have to hurt me? and why do you keep trying to take away the one person who makes me feel special and unconditionally loved | 1.918506 | 4.25234 | 3.235172 | 89.085402 | 80.724138 | 5.245977 | 16.563218 | 6.427356 | -0.515975 | 114 | 2 | 25 | 1 | 3 | 37 | 24 | 29 | 0.094 | 0.722 | 0.183 | 0.4939 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 8 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 3 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 15 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.280601 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151012 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.319722 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.265463 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.269552 | 0 | 0.199358 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.349787 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.20238 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.260779 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.224555 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202771 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.538989 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | IllustriousCon | 2019/07/16 | I don’t think I can anymore. I’ve been screwing up, badly. I totaled my car car which my loving boyfriend is responsible for. I’ve slipped in my sobriety, I haven’t eaten in 2 days, I want to sleep but can’t.
I just don’t feel worthy of love at all, or anyone that might still feel it for me. If this was just a dull ... | -0.964745 | 0.818492 | 1.407455 | 101.163727 | 88.2 | 4.436364 | 17.090909 | 5.565023 | -0.8407 | 338 | 8 | 89 | 2 | 11 | 114 | 67 | 100 | 0.165 | 0.685 | 0.15 | -0.1154 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 11 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 18 | 19 | 5 | 0 | 3 | 8 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 8 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 13 | 2 | 11 | 14 | 3 | 11 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 2 | 5 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 58 | 20 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.265036 | 0.186865 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.223139 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.213374 | 0 | 0 | 0.172351 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.236701 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.270255 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146871 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.4824 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.283506 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.21296 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.267439 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.29916 | 0 | 0 | 0.213423 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17124 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157629 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | throwawayggv | 2019/07/16 | Brother (13) says he doesn't want to be at my mom's house because he might hurt himself. What do I do? So I am not even supposed to know about this, my Dad told me my brother said he couldn't stay at my moms because he is afraid that he might hurt himself.
He did not want to tell me anything today, but he wanted to t... | 3.875706 | 4.178602 | 4.805238 | 88.31754 | 71.071429 | 7.650794 | 31.269841 | 7.38713 | 1.745675 | 521 | 22 | 116 | 5 | 9 | 170 | 75 | 140 | 0.067 | 0.838 | 0.096 | 0.8461 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 20 | 30 | 5 | 0 | 7 | 7 | 13 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 4 | 25 | 1 | 16 | 18 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 35 | 6 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 74 | 31 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079731 | 0 | 0.093836 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107133 | 0 | 0 | 0.139021 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116436 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075315 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057656 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064805 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131573 | 0.244139 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125334 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116602 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.241932 | 0 | 0.534194 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194759 | 0.108467 | 0.09068 | 0 | 0 | 0.090866 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.243078 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.298997 | 0 | 0 | 0.132396 | 0.075755 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108086 | 0.326877 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.269027 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.219838 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | throwawaylol28 | 2019/07/16 | I have psychotic depression I have ptsd, psychotic depression, atypical anorexia and bulimia. I tried to kill myself today and my mom wants to hospitalize me, mind you i’ve been hospitalized 6 times this year and missed one full school year. So i ran away. I’m alone in the dark at 10:30pm what do i do ???? | 2.974195 | 5.570238 | 4.252414 | 81.792299 | 78.482759 | 9.383908 | 26.908046 | 9.725611 | 2.996611 | 241 | 10 | 47 | 8 | 6 | 79 | 44 | 58 | 0.273 | 0.727 | 0 | -0.9536 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 9 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 5 | 7 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 28 | 11 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.266583 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.24183 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.443386 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.284769 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.259895 | 0.301457 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174417 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.30088 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.260497 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150089 | 0 | 0.24398 | 0 | 0 | 0.174754 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151818 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.331507 |
suicidewatch | QCgurl | 2019/07/16 | There is just no point Since my boyfriend of 5 years left me, I can't see no point to life.
There's no meaning, we have no purpose.
All we do is work for money, and try to have meaningless relationships with other people.
I don't like the world we're leaving in
I didn't ask to be born and now I have to deal with it... | 0.85875 | 2.068074 | 2.610833 | 97.7175 | 79.416667 | 6.05 | 20.333333 | 6.627428 | -0.112454 | 332 | 8 | 86 | 3 | 8 | 110 | 60 | 96 | 0.258 | 0.742 | 0 | -0.9695 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 12 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 16 | 16 | 5 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 10 | 1 | 12 | 14 | 2 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 56 | 12 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.209938 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.231517 | 0 | 0 | 0.233063 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148323 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.237782 | 0.24399 | 0 | 0.317234 | 0.109711 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.244617 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.238953 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155685 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.424573 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.241099 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178949 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185762 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152465 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132454 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163486 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.289225 |
suicidewatch | imasaddog | 2019/07/16 | Suicide is quite appearant right now. Lately, my life has been quite simply, down the shitter. My mom yells at me a lot and my parents argue a lot. Each time they do, it feels like a repeat of the past and just brings me back to a worse time.
After my dad had a "incident" and after I fractured my wrist, my life has go... | 0.965 | 2.872086 | 2.509939 | 95.323933 | 81.601626 | 4.750407 | 18.380081 | 5.461319 | -0.477216 | 451 | 10 | 101 | 2 | 12 | 147 | 81 | 123 | 0.177 | 0.733 | 0.09 | -0.9255 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 19 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 5 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 12 | 0 | 11 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 21 | 6 | 3 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 17 | 1 | 13 | 13 | 3 | 22 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 7 | 0 | 4 | 13 | 71 | 21 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12371 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186575 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081348 | 0.114936 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168111 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.323512 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143002 | 0.35599 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181485 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.227275 | 0.0786 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.273557 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188426 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119294 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.357286 | 0 | 0.153582 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176603 | 0.152088 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.342241 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137394 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175982 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187626 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163955 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | wd_eyes | 2019/07/16 | i dont care if i die everyone is going to die at some point so whats the point in living? so i can enjoy life? which will be taken away from me? causing be to be forgotten with everybody else who isnt a war criminal?
there is nothing you can say to make me care about life. if it will end in 20yrs whats the point of n... | -0.869141 | 1.187072 | 2.164078 | 93.659096 | 91.621359 | 6.276027 | 17.631815 | 7.610547 | 0.481583 | 363 | 10 | 86 | 8 | 13 | 128 | 63 | 103 | 0.156 | 0.675 | 0.169 | 0.5537 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 17 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 12 | 23 | 8 | 5 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 8 | 3 | 12 | 12 | 2 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 7 | 1 | 4 | 4 | 60 | 16 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145602 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.31601 | 0.159199 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.482511 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181627 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.258919 | 0 | 0.274519 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.296166 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14327 | 0 | 0 | 0.088074 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.218923 | 0 | 0 | 0.136844 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103445 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1487 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.439497 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12324 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146896 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | SkyDreams001 | 2019/07/16 | Why am I still here Why live on this hellish planet if I can’t enjoy nothing. I have no happiness in my life and I can’t get it. It’s so frustrating that everyone else is happy and has something to look forward to. I wanna be happy but I can’t. Life’s too overwhelming and depressing for me. I should just end it | -0.414345 | 1.813492 | 2.283483 | 91.950531 | 92.58209 | 5.962852 | 20.87728 | 7.38713 | 0.920457 | 246 | 9 | 54 | 5 | 9 | 85 | 48 | 67 | 0.163 | 0.712 | 0.125 | -0.5406 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 8 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 11 | 6 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 4 | 6 | 9 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 40 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181588 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176122 | 0 | 0.186733 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.201457 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11015 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.673298 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.297831 | 0 | 0 | 0.186167 | 0 | 0.177044 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202297 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162307 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168369 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.380483 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
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