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suicidewatch | NoGameLuke92 | 2019/07/16 | I'm going to kill myself someday this year or maybe next. It doesn't matter when. It's how. Fuck. I did not see this coming. My life's fucking out of control. | -1.557549 | 0.249137 | 0.849412 | 99.065686 | 105.764706 | 2.266667 | 14.490196 | 3.1291 | -1.379886 | 123 | 3 | 27 | 0 | 6 | 41 | 30 | 34 | 0.263 | 0.737 | 0 | -0.8509 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 7 | 8 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 7 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 16 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.263901 | 0 | 0 | 0.343608 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.566449 | 0 | 0 | 0.174111 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.338941 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.216391 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.307779 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.325817 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.244129 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197285 |
suicidewatch | dnalhaiu | 2019/07/16 | oof i never tell anyone anything. i barely even think about it. but weed can force you to think about it so.. just writing this i hate myself so much i hate it it’s gross
i’m scared of myself at this point, i’ll admit that. it’s incredibly scary and it sucks i can never tell anyone.... i can’t even let myself cry for... | -0.04718 | 2.256103 | 2.367985 | 91.621752 | 91.142857 | 5.295639 | 17.374436 | 6.86897 | 0.123878 | 993 | 26 | 214 | 15 | 35 | 338 | 133 | 266 | 0.214 | 0.663 | 0.123 | -0.9841 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 20 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 21 | 17 | 3 | 3 | 4 | 1 | 25 | 4 | 1 | 5 | 3 | 56 | 51 | 23 | 0 | 4 | 17 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 20 | 12 | 0 | 2 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 8 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 4 | 33 | 5 | 21 | 34 | 5 | 22 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 10 | 7 | 1 | 6 | 11 | 149 | 53 | 0 | 0.126781 | 0 | 0.12372 | 0.13821 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105492 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096987 | 0 | 0 | 0.177297 | 0 | 0.10433 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097487 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14153 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134118 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139263 | 0 | 0 | 0.109197 | 0.12868 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112291 | 0 | 0 | 0.167476 | 0.114681 | 0.106819 | 0 | 0.113943 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128209 | 0.090573 | 0 | 0 | 0.115876 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.216158 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134961 | 0 | 0.250341 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129643 | 0 | 0.061939 | 0 | 0 | 0.112197 | 0.106464 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114425 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186398 | 0 | 0.195563 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140776 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119849 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081219 | 0.130352 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100822 | 0.25386 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135132 | 0 | 0.105995 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.332437 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.243709 | 0 | 0 | 0.073927 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086076 | 0 | 0 | 0.131984 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074779 | 0.100633 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141547 | 0 | 0 | 0.137489 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | DiaryofAVampiress | 2019/07/16 | Feeling like there’s no possible way out What do you do when you’re 17, stuck living with people who are toxic.. you know nobody you can go to.. and have no one to talk to. You feel emotionally alone, and like no one cares about you and that there’s no possible way out. Depression prevents you from taking action to wor... | 3.260329 | 5.135452 | 3.816549 | 88.776279 | 74.492958 | 6.986854 | 21.692488 | 7.793538 | 0.801139 | 283 | 7 | 58 | 4 | 6 | 89 | 47 | 71 | 0.219 | 0.652 | 0.128 | -0.7717 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 13 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 7 | 3 | 11 | 11 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 39 | 10 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.222909 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191596 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.219437 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185373 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.2421 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.217649 | 0.153757 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122318 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118282 | 0 | 0 | 0.227893 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.210297 | 0 | 0.190048 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.291685 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14921 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.485269 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161823 | 0.17299 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.341672 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156687 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | OutsideWoodpecker5 | 2019/07/16 | Just give me some god damn advice (cw- death, abuse) I've been going to therapy for 10+ years. Helped take care of my dad when he was dying. Watched him die and be ressusitated multiple times. Then took care of my narcissistic, alcoholic, emotionally abusive mother for two years after while going to college.
I got ... | 2.667607 | 4.434673 | 4.114835 | 86.468095 | 75.855984 | 7.291587 | 25.125519 | 8.115594 | 1.459962 | 1,908 | 66 | 395 | 32 | 42 | 632 | 253 | 493 | 0.162 | 0.755 | 0.084 | -0.9911 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 76 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 8 | 20 | 25 | 11 | 0 | 28 | 0 | 34 | 19 | 8 | 8 | 4 | 57 | 80 | 35 | 5 | 10 | 15 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 14 | 13 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 5 | 6 | 11 | 15 | 12 | 1 | 7 | 10 | 3 | 47 | 13 | 56 | 64 | 10 | 71 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 9 | 34 | 20 | 12 | 10 | 40 | 241 | 61 | 13 | 0.127428 | 0.150982 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062261 | 0 | 0.068091 | 0.0638 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189562 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.048992 | 0 | 0.03884 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139119 | 0 | 0 | 0.071126 | 0 | 0 | 0.194882 | 0.130904 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137705 | 0 | 0.050871 | 0 | 0 | 0.04109 | 0.065686 | 0 | 0 | 0.264501 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07167 | 0.169295 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053682 | 0.060882 | 0.057262 | 0 | 0.180192 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054195 | 0 | 0 | 0.049225 | 0.294513 | 0.133152 | 0.183361 | 0.217261 | 0 | 0.101916 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075502 | 0.042706 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066501 | 0.126453 | 0.056632 | 0 | 0 | 0.070031 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090006 | 0 | 0 | 0.168782 | 0.056385 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115009 | 0 | 0.085059 | 0 | 0.064009 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074621 | 0.050856 | 0.067718 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.246142 | 0.067761 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067853 | 0.086349 | 0.048457 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060822 | 0.088343 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06023 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074478 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.050668 | 0 | 0.064482 | 0.050772 | 0.058003 | 0 | 0 | 0.196205 | 0 | 0 | 0.06376 | 0 | 0.053985 | 0.04905 | 0 | 0 | 0.090194 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06005 | 0 | 0.047905 | 0 | 0.055689 | 0 | 0.072863 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.037152 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141577 | 0.043258 | 0.069303 | 0.062239 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112741 | 0 | 0.051108 | 0 | 0.057287 | 0 | 0.057492 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.231923 | 0 | 0 | 0.090521 | 0 | 0 | 0.205149 |
suicidewatch | snxjenxnnr | 2019/07/16 | Just turned 20, I have a strong feeling that I am going to do it within the next few years I DO NOT HAVE ACCESS TO DRUGS OR FIREARMS. I AM NOT AN IMMEDIATE THREAT TO MYSELF OR ANYONE
I started having suicidal thoughts when I was 11...
I can go on and on about everything but I just don't want to do it anymore. It's al... | 1.516546 | 3.787927 | 3.453141 | 87.303267 | 81.84738 | 6.824225 | 22.755323 | 7.967736 | 1.28174 | 1,694 | 58 | 350 | 33 | 46 | 570 | 199 | 439 | 0.194 | 0.76 | 0.046 | -0.9965 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 76 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 27 | 14 | 4 | 1 | 13 | 0 | 40 | 16 | 4 | 5 | 3 | 82 | 92 | 24 | 2 | 14 | 28 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 8 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 30 | 13 | 1 | 3 | 14 | 3 | 0 | 10 | 14 | 12 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 10 | 52 | 2 | 40 | 75 | 10 | 42 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 3 | 9 | 17 | 3 | 12 | 16 | 234 | 82 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052247 | 0 | 0.058775 | 0 | 0.304781 | 0.161165 | 0 | 0.063225 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072185 | 0.059078 | 0 | 0.046835 | 0.084853 | 0.130754 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085341 | 0 | 0 | 0.078452 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132365 | 0.16111 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099099 | 0 | 0.066174 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078624 | 0 | 0 | 0.178198 | 0.078617 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101492 | 0 | 0.064733 | 0.14683 | 0.06905 | 0 | 0 | 0.086456 | 0.116543 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.213085 | 0.160563 | 0.073703 | 0.218322 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06829 | 0 | 0 | 0.126672 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162803 | 0.037535 | 0 | 0.067843 | 0.067993 | 0.129036 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145398 | 0.051285 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056479 | 0.056969 | 0 | 0 | 0.08171 | 0 | 0 | 0.147442 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058433 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106529 | 0.067085 | 0 | 0 | 0.145259 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089811 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098439 | 0.078994 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061224 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076886 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054381 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08404 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087862 | 0 | 0.051043 | 0.09846 | 0 | 0.12199 | 0.0448 | 0.176611 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052163 | 0.083569 | 0 | 0.079983 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.271899 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138655 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111867 | 0 | 0.313187 | 0.163734 | 0 | 0 | 0.049476 |
suicidewatch | WinterIris | 2019/07/16 | I really need help. Someone to talk to. Anything. I feel really trapped and I can’t do this anymore This is such a fucked up and long story so I’d really not say it all here. But I need to get out of wherever I am. I feel so alone and please don’t suggest talking to family because they’re who I need to get away from. I... | -0.943387 | 1.119021 | 1.643253 | 97.084879 | 92.44086 | 5.250538 | 20.653226 | 6.816662 | 0.356929 | 328 | 12 | 79 | 5 | 12 | 112 | 56 | 93 | 0.209 | 0.661 | 0.129 | -0.8734 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 4 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 18 | 19 | 10 | 1 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 10 | 1 | 11 | 19 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 50 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187432 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123067 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179475 | 0 | 0 | 0.148924 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170029 | 0 | 0 | 0.110318 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.18782 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170604 | 0 | 0.274514 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139818 | 0.33461 | 0.1891 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.242603 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160154 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.402564 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198652 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.347805 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143916 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153336 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.290916 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106742 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | dasepan | 2019/07/16 | Cut Myself Pretty deep and big. At the ER, lied to them and told them I got into a fight and the guy cut me with a pocket knife.
Fuck the psych ward. | 0.198182 | 1.643479 | 1.930303 | 100.815455 | 82.030303 | 4.4 | 11 | 3.1291 | -1.909436 | 113 | 0 | 29 | 0 | 3 | 37 | 26 | 33 | 0.322 | 0.599 | 0.08 | -0.8271 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 17 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.439591 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.3803 | 0 | 0 | 0.470819 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.483754 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.45436 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | arynANGEL | 2019/07/16 | Disgusting. Untalented. Unlucky. Abandoned. I’m a 16 year old girl that has everything she needs to live but doesn’t want to. I hate this island where I live and I feel so unlucky that I was born here and like this. I hate my house, it’s full of dust and it’s falling apart. I hate my body, my face, I hate everything ab... | 1.060507 | 2.956785 | 3.096742 | 91.294967 | 81.222222 | 6.072367 | 22.427295 | 7.168622 | 0.687018 | 761 | 25 | 169 | 10 | 20 | 257 | 110 | 207 | 0.335 | 0.54 | 0.125 | -0.9962 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 28 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 21 | 11 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 16 | 5 | 3 | 3 | 2 | 32 | 40 | 19 | 1 | 4 | 6 | 2 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 8 | 10 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 32 | 8 | 15 | 38 | 6 | 14 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 11 | 104 | 40 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197587 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095556 | 0 | 0.120012 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118681 | 0.139358 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112132 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111638 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182062 | 0 | 0.291307 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16389 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09875 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.640023 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124668 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096034 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076314 | 0.158354 | 0 | 0.190809 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097513 | 0 | 0.07212 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160226 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113373 | 0 | 0 | 0.082172 | 0 | 0 | 0.119969 | 0 | 0 | 0.074904 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109919 | 0.116489 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108073 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089375 | 0 | 0.108121 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11516 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122606 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086841 | 0 | 0.099472 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06923 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127454 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118129 | 0 | 0.069576 |
suicidewatch | PsychedelicInsanity | 2019/04/26 | Psychedelics I believe psychedelics could be a life changing thing for most people here. Not all. It’s hard to say whether or not psychedelics would bring you back up in life or push you even lower. But personally, they gave me a reason to live. They have showed me who I am and why I am here. Major confidence boost, an... | 3.022347 | 4.663328 | 3.154847 | 94.262474 | 74.578231 | 6.260544 | 23.134354 | 6.816662 | 0.417962 | 572 | 16 | 127 | 5 | 12 | 174 | 97 | 147 | 0.108 | 0.741 | 0.151 | 0.7044 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 20 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 8 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 15 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 25 | 24 | 9 | 1 | 4 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 6 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 4 | 17 | 1 | 13 | 12 | 7 | 18 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 11 | 8 | 0 | 6 | 6 | 81 | 23 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127176 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127831 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187299 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169496 | 0 | 0.175863 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132732 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109802 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147008 | 0 | 0.148921 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.352268 | 0 | 0 | 0.293592 | 0.14712 | 0.139602 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128217 | 0 | 0.176802 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177044 | 0 | 0 | 0.176895 | 0 | 0 | 0.180025 | 0 | 0.115252 | 0.145157 | 0 | 0 | 0.157154 | 0 | 0 | 0.169129 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170926 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132203 | 0 | 0 | 0.132474 | 0 | 0.346856 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181843 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110445 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112868 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.196109 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150009 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118094 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | yinyangprincessred | 2019/04/26 | I've been trying too hard for too long.. Hi, I'm A 20 year old female in college. my life is absolute living hell. I'm a general manger who just lost 5 employees within these past 2.5 weeks so now I have to work 6 days this week, then I had to drop another class and get a "W" on my transcript because I'm falling behind... | 3.147661 | 3.101568 | 4.799674 | 88.951134 | 72.566434 | 8.033877 | 24.280497 | 7.793538 | 0.937846 | 505 | 12 | 120 | 6 | 9 | 172 | 97 | 143 | 0.197 | 0.74 | 0.063 | -0.9607 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 22 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 11 | 7 | 3 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 11 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 25 | 7 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 1 | 17 | 2 | 20 | 20 | 1 | 22 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 10 | 3 | 1 | 10 | 75 | 22 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163033 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138409 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094778 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100271 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.322725 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.205385 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.287475 | 0.243694 | 0.447448 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139279 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166443 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109819 | 0 | 0 | 0.137291 | 0.137594 | 0 | 0 | 0.169724 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163149 | 0 | 0.210713 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148422 | 0.107789 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157353 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124968 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099625 | 0 | 0 | 0.090661 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.21112 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091705 | 0 | 0.249431 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140295 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11319 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100123 |
suicidewatch | Mikulitsi | 2019/04/26 | Everything can feel so good but again suddenly everything is shit... Atm I'm so triggered about some things that sorry if this doesnt make any sense.
So in kindergarten in Riihimäki (city in middle of a countryside and yeah I'm from Finland) already I was bullied really hard. I was punched there, I lost some of my te... | 4.015883 | 5.527769 | 4.384983 | 86.964935 | 71.779043 | 7.246347 | 26.088532 | 7.758598 | 1.336672 | 3,522 | 114 | 707 | 44 | 67 | 1,106 | 307 | 878 | 0.183 | 0.637 | 0.179 | -0.9282 | 8 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 64 | 1 | 6 | 5 | 9 | 68 | 65 | 16 | 3 | 25 | 1 | 60 | 24 | 11 | 8 | 2 | 129 | 132 | 75 | 7 | 19 | 28 | 4 | 11 | 8 | 9 | 6 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 51 | 28 | 9 | 1 | 29 | 11 | 2 | 4 | 15 | 25 | 3 | 5 | 26 | 16 | 98 | 40 | 110 | 97 | 33 | 109 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 37 | 41 | 8 | 31 | 66 | 489 | 149 | 22 | 0 | 0 | 0.036341 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.039798 | 0.03729 | 0 | 0.123285 | 0.059561 | 0.030987 | 0 | 0 | 0.050649 | 0.039049 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091936 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062187 | 0.090804 | 0.082257 | 0 | 0 | 0.078162 | 0.032936 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113906 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08241 | 0.040906 | 0.024017 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08729 | 0.182405 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098386 | 0 | 0.031376 | 0 | 0.200813 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131807 | 0.026604 | 0.107268 | 0 | 0.034037 | 0.063352 | 0 | 0.081663 | 0.258943 | 0.034428 | 0.136194 | 0 | 0.042329 | 0.12494 | 0.089352 | 0 | 0.082048 | 0 | 0 | 0.079285 | 0.03336 | 0.073533 | 0.076438 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157384 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110865 | 0 | 0.123601 | 0 | 0 | 0.060711 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.026304 | 0.145548 | 0.074648 | 0 | 0.032956 | 0.031272 | 0 | 0.040652 | 0.06332 | 0.03361 | 0 | 0.024858 | 0.075511 | 0 | 0.040565 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.03958 | 0.054751 | 0.055226 | 0 | 0.071933 | 0.039605 | 0 | 0.036487 | 0 | 0 | 0.039077 | 0 | 0.050469 | 0.056645 | 0 | 0 | 0.165402 | 0 | 0 | 0.20654 | 0.032516 | 0.038908 | 0 | 0.070407 | 0 | 0.035666 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.03725 | 0 | 0.143141 | 0.076578 | 0 | 0 | 0.084371 | 0 | 0.035424 | 0 | 0 | 0.30151 | 0 | 0.101705 | 0 | 0 | 0.267583 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.041687 | 0.158151 | 0.079386 | 0.118959 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.042631 | 0.162938 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.029932 | 0 | 0.068571 | 0 | 0 | 0.222665 | 0.119309 | 0.036588 | 0 | 0.108574 | 0.042802 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.040506 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13179 | 0.088678 | 0 | 0 | 0.100449 | 0.034522 | 0.10081 | 0.041577 | 0 | 0 | 0.040385 | 0 | 0 | 0.037951 | 0.105817 | 0 | 0 | 0.095925 |
suicidewatch | MelroseMonroe | 2019/04/26 | What drug do I need to overdose on to successfully kill myself and how much? Anything OTC?
Any herbs perhaps?
Or oven a lethal mixture?
If I have to, I’m willing to go to a doctor to try and get a prescription if I have to.
What’s a good dosage? I want no chances of waking up. | -0.211816 | 1.916099 | 2.097143 | 95.039322 | 88.491525 | 4.727361 | 21.987893 | 6.182691 | 0.233071 | 213 | 8 | 49 | 2 | 7 | 72 | 42 | 59 | 0.115 | 0.716 | 0.169 | 0.3094 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 9 | 6 | 2 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 10 | 8 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 33 | 7 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.241113 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.291772 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.362907 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.411177 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185243 | 0 | 0.201504 | 0.297388 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.392268 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.260642 | 0.262901 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.240723 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.209128 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | IsMyHijabStillOn | 2019/04/26 | My “friends” all sided with the man who’s been harassing me for weeks They’ve seen all the threats he’s sent me.
And still.
They chose him over me. One of them is even now dating him.
I wish I’d never come here, I wish I’d never met any of you. | -1.487429 | 0.425036 | 0.561558 | 105.030909 | 93.181818 | 3.87013 | 13.311688 | 5.288315 | -1.47474 | 187 | 3 | 50 | 1 | 7 | 61 | 41 | 55 | 0.109 | 0.744 | 0.147 | 0.296 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 9 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 11 | 1 | 5 | 4 | 2 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 11 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 31 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.199262 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.252409 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193536 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.226385 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.451987 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198557 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.234005 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.235041 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.673913 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | goodbyeforever24451 | 2019/04/26 | I am going to kill myself. I can’t afford the help that I need, and my family won’t help me.
I had one friend left, but he was my ex-boyfriend. He won’t talk to me now.
I do not have any friends in this city.
I hate everything about my life.
My roommate is not home. I am either going to take pills and slit my wr... | -1.193932 | 0.819109 | 1.280045 | 99.505543 | 93.384615 | 4.289593 | 14.570136 | 5.900189 | -1.046104 | 453 | 9 | 117 | 4 | 17 | 153 | 75 | 130 | 0.128 | 0.705 | 0.167 | -0.1732 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 21 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 20 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 18 | 29 | 7 | 2 | 6 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 7 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 24 | 4 | 13 | 19 | 2 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 81 | 27 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137789 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141677 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.209361 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182102 | 0 | 0.191012 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.313088 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.230308 | 0.169948 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.200046 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.271624 | 0 | 0.203245 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.224169 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.220148 | 0 | 0.143117 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15024 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.274602 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17168 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152345 | 0.162859 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.358532 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.18218 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.233003 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | emz1123 | 2019/04/26 | I feel invisible It was my birthday the other week and I am not a big birthday person. I don't have it on social media etc. But not even my closest friends, some I've known for more than 13 years, remembered my birthday other than one person and my immediate family. Am I selfish for thinking they should remember? Or is... | 2.744858 | 4.739122 | 3.877806 | 87.240046 | 76.325581 | 6.037344 | 24.008089 | 6.895973 | 0.887292 | 1,017 | 33 | 199 | 10 | 23 | 330 | 142 | 258 | 0.105 | 0.799 | 0.097 | 0.4284 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 22 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 1 | 13 | 18 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 1 | 23 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 52 | 45 | 19 | 0 | 7 | 10 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 18 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 8 | 7 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 6 | 35 | 11 | 24 | 31 | 8 | 21 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 20 | 6 | 0 | 5 | 12 | 152 | 53 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09979 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090647 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081777 | 0.085088 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143004 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078631 | 0 | 0.187009 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107315 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10426 | 0 | 0 | 0.088087 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163291 | 0.113148 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089488 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085424 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114046 | 0.067541 | 0.092499 | 0 | 0.195426 | 0 | 0 | 0.096401 | 0 | 0.206821 | 0.073054 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.316021 | 0 | 0.053426 | 0.098096 | 0 | 0 | 0.081786 | 0 | 0.11265 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109471 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056199 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072229 | 0.049959 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09676 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.236606 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09812 | 0.116423 | 0 | 0 | 0.069293 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.283575 | 0.178578 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097848 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.23168 | 0 | 0 | 0.081321 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106679 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10424 | 0.086644 | 0 | 0 | 0.114471 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076886 | 0 | 0.178758 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.327618 | 0 | 0.081182 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069427 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084375 | 0.12063 | 0.081169 | 0.082026 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072642 | 0.111804 | 0 | 0.131703 |
suicidewatch | earthenstarr | 2019/04/26 | I want nothing more than to drive a knife through my throat I'm so stupid and useless and nothing I do matters and my parent abuses me and my girlfriend decided she doesn't want to spend her life with me and my friend said she doesn't want to be my friend while I'm depressedd I'm so stupid and useless and nothing even ... | 5.025 | 4.977477 | 5.009619 | 89.068714 | 68.52381 | 7.19619 | 32.27619 | 5.683918 | 1.485508 | 322 | 13 | 69 | 1 | 5 | 100 | 48 | 84 | 0.289 | 0.58 | 0.131 | -0.9532 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 8 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 18 | 14 | 11 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 14 | 2 | 6 | 11 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 42 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 0.244246 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.204439 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.210956 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182582 | 0 | 0 | 0.136156 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.318531 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145605 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.5934 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.228898 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.196089 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.486354 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | skariaa_ | 2019/04/26 | should i cut on my wrist or leg should i cut on my wrist or leg pls tell | -4.038333 | -2.765806 | -1.45 | 116.145 | 108.444444 | 2.4 | 6 | 3.1291 | -3.1418 | 55 | 0 | 18 | 0 | 3 | 18 | 10 | 18 | 0.227 | 0.703 | 0.07 | -0.4404 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 10 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | teethdecayy | 2019/04/26 | Ever wonder how so many people haven’t killed themselves? It boggles my mind that there are so many people that exist on earth and just,,, live. They rlly be out here alive. Like if they feel how I feel , how the fuck haven’t they killed themselves yet? Am I just weak? Am I weak for thinking about suicide? All the time... | 2.323571 | 4.480774 | 2.833571 | 93.448929 | 78.285714 | 4.834921 | 20.02381 | 5.461319 | -0.19821 | 495 | 12 | 101 | 2 | 12 | 153 | 76 | 126 | 0.259 | 0.706 | 0.035 | -0.9889 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 14 | 10 | 7 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 13 | 5 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 26 | 25 | 11 | 6 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 13 | 1 | 9 | 21 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 3 | 2 | 2 | 5 | 64 | 18 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074383 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135174 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104329 | 0.097176 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116636 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.213255 | 0 | 0 | 0.065549 | 0 | 0.092246 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130201 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.638017 | 0 | 0.063386 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081466 | 0.056348 | 0 | 0.203689 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.233867 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116458 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085521 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087719 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.399801 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118586 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091909 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12616 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073903 | 0 | 0 | 0.067254 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.312221 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125078 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | IWantToKMyS | 2019/04/26 | I dont know what to do I'm still quite young (teens) and I just wanted to end it for more than 2 years. No one takes me seriously - asked my parents for help got grounded for months with no phone or PC- asked school counsellor was blatantly ignored and sent out after 2 minutes once I didnt have self-harm scars or suici... | 3.418715 | 4.446295 | 4.164036 | 89.847179 | 72.614458 | 7.942972 | 25.881526 | 8.3441 | 1.369018 | 316 | 10 | 71 | 5 | 6 | 101 | 62 | 83 | 0.163 | 0.804 | 0.033 | -0.8578 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 14 | 15 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 11 | 10 | 1 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 40 | 11 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.397516 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.219187 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.249173 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.376611 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17004 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142505 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116843 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1697 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.226418 | 0.144067 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.236074 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.229225 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.226133 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.215169 | 0 | 0 | 0.221794 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169787 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.232556 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159853 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168785 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1254 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136911 |
suicidewatch | X020179 | 2019/04/26 | Can somebody actually give me a reason I’m 16. I’ve been told that I don’t have problems, I don’t have anything to worry about, and that I’m just looking for attention.
Well, the jokes on them. I’ve already decided to overdose the first chance I get. Probably on painkillers after I get my wisdom teeth removed or somet... | 2.499078 | 4.208007 | 4.254277 | 85.539046 | 76.169811 | 7.352621 | 27.815514 | 8.167269 | 1.891697 | 406 | 17 | 83 | 7 | 9 | 137 | 71 | 106 | 0.093 | 0.76 | 0.147 | 0.5373 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 11 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 15 | 23 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 12 | 5 | 10 | 20 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 54 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.232472 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.262886 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.196038 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.242885 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120453 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202633 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.248924 | 0.228526 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130921 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.200048 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.225198 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.256845 | 0.227948 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152612 | 0.244934 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183396 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.273803 | 0 | 0.227633 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189091 | 0 | 0 | 0.214192 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.241928 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | saddestbagel | 2019/04/26 | What happens after they talk you down from jumping? Do they just randomly jam a needle to sedate you, or do they do it in the hospital? | 3.811111 | 5.091405 | 5.408333 | 80.3325 | 71.962963 | 8.362963 | 28.314815 | 8.841846 | 2.314793 | 106 | 4 | 20 | 2 | 2 | 36 | 22 | 27 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 19 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.74 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.672607 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | dropdeaddickhead | 2019/04/26 | My worst nightmare come true. Coworker told my job I’m suicidal. Humiliated. Someone told corporate that I was suicidal. Corporate called HR. HR came to me, then made me go to employee health. I had to talk to a nurse, had to answer a ton of questions on a suicide risk assessment. Then they called our employee assistan... | 0.540452 | 2.834988 | 3.094062 | 88.061546 | 86.597765 | 6.984943 | 21.931631 | 8.115594 | 1.369902 | 673 | 24 | 145 | 16 | 21 | 233 | 96 | 179 | 0.176 | 0.782 | 0.042 | -0.9648 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 25 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 5 | 7 | 1 | 2 | 10 | 1 | 13 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 21 | 36 | 9 | 4 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 18 | 4 | 21 | 3 | 25 | 18 | 4 | 22 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 23 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 90 | 25 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106016 | 0 | 0 | 0.087199 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.347388 | 0.129702 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.195372 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073135 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116072 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059248 | 0 | 0.193347 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120541 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112534 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.214607 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087463 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127036 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072648 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.323614 | 0.090182 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096085 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080267 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129902 | 0 | 0 | 0.496174 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085264 | 0.182296 | 0.099118 | 0 | 0.129685 | 0 | 0 | 0.072663 | 0.111417 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.325081 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.247674 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | IntricateMuscleNerd | 2019/04/26 | I feel like I'm living life on auto pilot Wake up. Eat. Work 8 hours a day in office and put on a fake smile. Get stuck in traffic. Get home late. Eat. Do chores. Sleep.
And it starts all over again. Every day.
What should make me look forward to leading a life like this until retirement if there's not any time left ... | 0.367544 | 2.505559 | 1.997193 | 96.773684 | 85.608187 | 4.301754 | 19.526316 | 5.399115 | -0.361779 | 628 | 18 | 141 | 3 | 19 | 204 | 104 | 171 | 0.082 | 0.85 | 0.068 | -0.7476 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 18 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 8 | 3 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 12 | 10 | 2 | 3 | 3 | 24 | 31 | 10 | 1 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 9 | 8 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 9 | 3 | 28 | 28 | 2 | 37 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 16 | 3 | 1 | 20 | 85 | 18 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118725 | 0 | 0 | 0.09703 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117417 | 0.127019 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.276059 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.292004 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.240436 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13451 | 0 | 0.072146 | 0.101934 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.395728 | 0.149093 | 0 | 0.081091 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143124 | 0 | 0.140515 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160954 | 0 | 0.155027 | 0 | 0.201564 | 0.209125 | 0 | 0.125993 | 0 | 0.119819 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095243 | 0 | 0 | 0.155425 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.220094 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149723 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143437 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142787 | 0 | 0 | 0.109845 | 0 | 0 | 0.100993 | 0.152083 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156074 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094793 | 0 | 0 | 0.113275 | 0.166401 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168318 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103876 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | justathrowawaythxx | 2019/04/26 | Life gets better, depression gets worse I’ve reached my end. I’ve been through almost every treatment and medication available, and nothing has worked. My last hope is TMS and ECT. The doc for TMS is submitting my case to insurance, but it’s nearly impossible to find someone who can refer me to get on a waiting list fo... | 6.038727 | 5.847177 | 6.49211 | 79.785731 | 66.405063 | 10.060197 | 30.213783 | 9.725611 | 2.501871 | 627 | 20 | 129 | 12 | 9 | 204 | 87 | 158 | 0.18 | 0.673 | 0.147 | -0.8462 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 1 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 18 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 24 | 35 | 15 | 0 | 4 | 7 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 2 | 11 | 8 | 15 | 26 | 1 | 13 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 5 | 6 | 75 | 24 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108468 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082865 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090444 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.479007 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.279891 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09594 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091265 | 0 | 0.097352 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109541 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099004 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.396154 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.215175 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096281 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088296 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.229531 | 0.05292 | 0 | 0.09565 | 0.095861 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072305 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109122 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086461 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103937 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073401 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102399 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09178 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081444 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071964 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.236577 | 0 | 0.441554 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | MrLoSom | 2019/04/26 | Feeling down, and suicidal Am losing the will to live, writing this in tears, I dont know what's wrong with me but everyday its a struggle to wake up and get out of bed I am not alone, i got alot of friends, I got some really great friends, am not doing bad financially, am a college student and I pay for almost everyth... | 11.487917 | 5.974961 | 11.225758 | 66.825303 | 60.477273 | 15.066667 | 44.863636 | 12.060818 | 5.055177 | 1,023 | 41 | 210 | 22 | 9 | 344 | 141 | 264 | 0.128 | 0.641 | 0.23 | 0.9863 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 37 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 18 | 0 | 1 | 14 | 0 | 31 | 5 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 50 | 45 | 17 | 2 | 4 | 14 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 14 | 16 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 9 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 2 | 32 | 9 | 38 | 32 | 7 | 23 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 20 | 15 | 0 | 8 | 6 | 161 | 46 | 6 | 0 | 0.134941 | 0 | 0.124157 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121714 | 0.114045 | 0.117956 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095094 | 0.069427 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116295 | 0 | 0 | 0.116997 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.266957 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150447 | 0 | 0 | 0.108827 | 0.204715 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115173 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175983 | 0 | 0.059503 | 0 | 0 | 0.095526 | 0.364354 | 0.125565 | 0 | 0.112769 | 0 | 0.121238 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152677 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125182 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080444 | 0 | 0 | 0.201135 | 0 | 0 | 0.127414 | 0 | 0 | 0.10279 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114418 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084448 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109281 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126462 | 0 | 0.108721 | 0.157914 | 0.099445 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.218883 | 0.117098 | 0 | 0.122276 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087678 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095217 | 0 | 0.119063 | 0 | 0.249155 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130244 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090416 | 0.06641 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098365 | 0 | 0 | 0.067175 | 0.090401 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109786 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.249042 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | xcaligulas | 2019/04/26 | questions about laws regarding encouraging suicide and what the criteria is basically i am in a bad place right now and am planning on committing suicide in a couple weeks, most likely
the reason for it is a breakup, i moved in with my now ex and they broke up with me and are kicking me out all of a sudden to have to ... | 7.664409 | 6.39144 | 7.760005 | 75.583702 | 63.55665 | 10.681576 | 35.817241 | 9.642633 | 3.193569 | 1,633 | 63 | 320 | 26 | 20 | 531 | 185 | 406 | 0.211 | 0.705 | 0.084 | -0.9972 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 24 | 2 | 4 | 19 | 4 | 18 | 23 | 4 | 1 | 14 | 0 | 41 | 2 | 1 | 6 | 9 | 76 | 59 | 35 | 10 | 11 | 14 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 24 | 25 | 0 | 3 | 9 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 10 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 14 | 4 | 58 | 10 | 54 | 38 | 8 | 49 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 41 | 23 | 1 | 11 | 20 | 244 | 82 | 3 | 0 | 0.096077 | 0.079131 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089483 | 0 | 0.067472 | 0 | 0 | 0.110286 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056699 | 0 | 0.133458 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076186 | 0.062352 | 0.067706 | 0.049431 | 0 | 0.138001 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089723 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069842 | 0 | 0.084157 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190071 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091214 | 0.071821 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068321 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.041001 | 0.05793 | 0 | 0 | 0.074114 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127097 | 0 | 0.046085 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071707 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054352 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17518 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.269138 | 0 | 0.044564 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088103 | 0.082919 | 0.057275 | 0.158464 | 0 | 0 | 0.071761 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108255 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172369 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077807 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056217 | 0.070804 | 0.084721 | 0 | 0.076655 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090838 | 0 | 0.081111 | 0 | 0 | 0.083373 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138499 | 0 | 0.193455 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083236 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08643 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092827 | 0.532188 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060969 | 0 | 0.070875 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.047284 | 0 | 0 | 0.154968 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095657 | 0.193093 | 0.065045 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07317 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087937 | 0.059034 | 0 | 0 | 0.288016 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | EmotionlessMarcher | 2019/04/26 | My friend is going through something serious and it’s affecting me one of my friends is suicidal and recently he’s been making posts that have been scaring me. he constantly posts about how nobody’s ever there for him and nobody thinks about him, but he’s all i ever think about. he’s always on my mind and i’ve told him... | 2.924151 | 4.09884 | 3.659575 | 92.424929 | 74 | 6.809434 | 21.740566 | 7.168622 | 0.364551 | 798 | 18 | 182 | 8 | 16 | 253 | 109 | 212 | 0.096 | 0.74 | 0.163 | 0.947 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 16 | 1 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 23 | 11 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 17 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 47 | 34 | 19 | 1 | 5 | 8 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 16 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 4 | 25 | 8 | 25 | 24 | 4 | 28 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 33 | 11 | 0 | 6 | 15 | 117 | 32 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.209799 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08815 | 0.129172 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07685 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128536 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136236 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081304 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105314 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.228073 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191233 | 0.270191 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194801 | 0 | 0 | 0.120937 | 0.071648 | 0.105741 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169003 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142316 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138568 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184773 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113782 | 0 | 0.084152 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127294 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.280435 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085428 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0874 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.362217 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124478 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126217 | 0 | 0.100461 | 0 | 0.131517 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097054 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131795 | 0 | 0.137899 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101329 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16156 | 0 | 0 | 0.294047 | 0 | 0 | 0.120464 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10402 | 0 | 0.100068 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128029 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | kilimomo | 2019/04/26 | Wish I could stop existing just for a moment. [tw] I'm sorry. I just want to pour my heart out right now. Please don't read if you're vulnerable right now.
I wish I could see my counselor sooner but it'll be three weeks until we meet again.
Flashbacks all day every day.
I was so stupid. I was just stupid to stay w... | -1.048864 | 0.875683 | 0.728694 | 99.881098 | 104.918803 | 3.879353 | 15.467614 | 5.862371 | -0.638751 | 1,745 | 46 | 396 | 19 | 83 | 560 | 186 | 468 | 0.329 | 0.592 | 0.079 | -0.9994 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 98 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 28 | 28 | 12 | 0 | 15 | 1 | 45 | 10 | 6 | 1 | 8 | 70 | 81 | 22 | 3 | 19 | 18 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 17 | 16 | 2 | 3 | 6 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 12 | 23 | 0 | 2 | 27 | 6 | 77 | 5 | 43 | 37 | 7 | 51 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 1 | 23 | 20 | 3 | 4 | 24 | 249 | 94 | 3 | 0 | 0.078944 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069007 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152912 | 0.150542 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05483 | 0.118627 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135864 | 0.068446 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.21279 | 0 | 0.146376 | 0.171879 | 0 | 0.057387 | 0 | 0.06915 | 0 | 0.076362 | 0 | 0 | 0.204552 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059013 | 0 | 0 | 0.088015 | 0 | 0.112275 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.051477 | 0 | 0.034811 | 0 | 0.037866 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073399 | 0 | 0.058919 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06838 | 0 | 0 | 0.078955 | 0.04466 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.230641 | 0.071327 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.036617 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.408793 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058834 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133874 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078034 | 0 | 0.070816 | 0.04898 | 0 | 0.102776 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.050674 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092384 | 0 | 0 | 0.073138 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066646 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075477 | 0.284502 | 0.063379 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106189 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.205179 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135839 | 0 | 0.102588 | 0 | 0.14917 | 0 | 0.071017 | 0 | 0.167113 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145761 | 0 | 0.125593 | 0.069252 | 0.100193 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.044265 | 0 | 0 | 0.052896 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074027 | 0.045236 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080146 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.275094 | 0 | 0.053445 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153239 | 0.064227 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.042907 |
suicidewatch | GirafeBleu | 2019/04/26 | I need to get help I'm done.
I'm done trying to seem ok. I just want to get help and feel safe. I'm so stressed and depressed I can hardly get up in the morning and go to work.
The thing I want most in life right now is to be admited into a mental hospital.
In Quebec, you can only get into a mental hospital if yo... | 1.340516 | 3.111449 | 3.286259 | 90.896043 | 79.765306 | 6.19229 | 20.582766 | 7.168622 | 0.438734 | 721 | 19 | 159 | 9 | 18 | 243 | 107 | 196 | 0.222 | 0.594 | 0.184 | -0.9526 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 17 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 5 | 8 | 19 | 8 | 1 | 8 | 1 | 17 | 6 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 35 | 46 | 14 | 2 | 9 | 6 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 12 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 4 | 28 | 7 | 22 | 41 | 6 | 18 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 15 | 10 | 6 | 8 | 6 | 109 | 37 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096024 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121108 | 0.204128 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099396 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.236193 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175053 | 0.082443 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.213375 | 0.422051 | 0 | 0.065586 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103378 | 0.113936 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.386759 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081512 | 0.05638 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077032 | 0 | 0.115937 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.232597 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171139 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087769 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12497 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098553 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105058 | 0 | 0.130372 | 0.236918 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081682 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132193 | 0 | 0 | 0.252463 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100867 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076668 | 0.14789 | 0 | 0 | 0.067292 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078351 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.204202 | 0.091601 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084014 | 0 | 0 | 0.081979 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Official_Joe_Rogan | 2019/04/26 | Parents of Reddit If you knew your child was going to kill himself and had already made the decision, what's the best way you'd want to find them or find out? Would you want their body to be salvageable? Would you want a funeral? Or just gone?
Please give me some real answers. | 1.252935 | 3.84604 | 2.063377 | 94.263636 | 87.363636 | 5.324675 | 20.584416 | 6.86897 | 0.469442 | 219 | 7 | 45 | 3 | 7 | 68 | 44 | 55 | 0.113 | 0.708 | 0.179 | 0.2869 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 19 | 14 | 4 | 2 | 6 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 9 | 1 | 5 | 5 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 30 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.248187 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.236023 | 0 | 0 | 0.249817 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.411116 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.215748 | 0.127818 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.248823 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.212809 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.249729 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.246877 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.25599 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.397962 | 0.178518 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.31953 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | _Moogiwara_ | 2019/04/26 | Thank you. I have decided to kill myself. Thank all of you for what you do here and trying to help people like me. The world would be better without people like myself. I am sorry. | 0.486667 | 2.955939 | 2.295778 | 91.427 | 91.777778 | 3.991111 | 12.755556 | 5.683918 | -0.865604 | 140 | 2 | 27 | 1 | 5 | 46 | 28 | 36 | 0.126 | 0.546 | 0.328 | 0.8225 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 7 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 5 | 5 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 23 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.256692 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19454 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.321105 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.283591 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.402429 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.324897 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.534424 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197052 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.279779 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206177 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | ihatelifelolol | 2019/04/26 | i just took a bunch of pills Hopefully it works and i die. I'm going to be so disappointed if it doesn't. | -1.3375 | 0.590277 | 2.28 | 92.965 | 92.333333 | 6.533333 | 16.333333 | 7.793538 | 0.294683 | 82 | 2 | 21 | 2 | 3 | 30 | 21 | 24 | 0.297 | 0.602 | 0.102 | -0.7344 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 6 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 14 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.509395 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.278945 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.487496 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.54532 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.357324 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | scoobybooby77 | 2019/04/26 | Losing my house, broke, have nowhere to go. I live in a small town and there's no homeless shelters.
I've always paid rent on time but recently got laid off due to my job shutting down a part of the building I worked in. My landlord called me Wednesday and said I have a week to be out. For no reason. Even the court en... | 0.074249 | 2.224863 | 1.629743 | 98.78473 | 87.208092 | 4.153642 | 18.47659 | 5.341637 | -0.578315 | 631 | 17 | 146 | 3 | 20 | 203 | 105 | 173 | 0.154 | 0.797 | 0.048 | -0.9462 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 22 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 8 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 12 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 16 | 27 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 6 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 7 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 1 | 18 | 2 | 26 | 16 | 4 | 34 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 22 | 1 | 0 | 10 | 94 | 24 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186598 | 0 | 0.140699 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143886 | 0 | 0 | 0.149549 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172663 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177291 | 0 | 0 | 0.135007 | 0 | 0 | 0.109051 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.335053 | 0 | 0.142468 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159406 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185402 | 0.130641 | 0.156324 | 0.088344 | 0 | 0.096099 | 0 | 0.135239 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173538 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.195111 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167799 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137833 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149312 | 0 | 0 | 0.189172 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.269937 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114582 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183111 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159847 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173856 | 0.166959 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160846 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119685 | 0.180231 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127137 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108348 | 0 | 0 | 0.098599 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146042 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135636 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123102 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Prettyinpnk | 2019/04/26 | Told my sister about my suicidal thoughts. She ignored me. I didn't really know what to expect. Honestly, I was expecting her to make fun of me or something. She's always been pretty critical of me. But she does have her sweet moments. This time I got neither.
I shouldn't have dumped it on her anyway. But no one else ... | 0.884667 | 3.193126 | 2.816509 | 90.602752 | 84.962264 | 6.099371 | 21.663522 | 7.429499 | 0.86665 | 1,007 | 34 | 214 | 17 | 30 | 336 | 135 | 265 | 0.11 | 0.759 | 0.131 | 0.6563 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 38 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 15 | 17 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 18 | 2 | 1 | 5 | 2 | 55 | 55 | 25 | 3 | 8 | 12 | 2 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 16 | 11 | 0 | 2 | 13 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 13 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 14 | 5 | 53 | 13 | 19 | 37 | 2 | 18 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 30 | 4 | 0 | 8 | 17 | 148 | 69 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080843 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.27249 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059227 | 0 | 0 | 0.109464 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099209 | 0 | 0.099059 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107504 | 0 | 0.062659 | 0.100166 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085024 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081163 | 0.10929 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064172 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091592 | 0 | 0.098252 | 0.13882 | 0.093287 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152284 | 0 | 0.055217 | 0 | 0.077706 | 0 | 0.214062 | 0 | 0.085917 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099712 | 0 | 0.109504 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0965 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192829 | 0.086359 | 0 | 0 | 0.320374 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.237333 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0826 | 0.087689 | 0 | 0.129708 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113791 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149869 | 0.187672 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131674 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067357 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098845 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124484 | 0.099895 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164644 | 0.149594 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077591 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111223 | 0.318826 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077133 | 0.056654 | 0 | 0 | 0.278517 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171919 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08767 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098669 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | summerreyner | 2019/04/26 | I feel ready I don’t know what the point of posting this is. I just feel ready to finally end it and want to tell someone but obviously can’t tell anyone in real life. I graduate college next week and got rid of all my graduation tickets because I’m not gonna be there. I just canceled all my upcoming therapy appointmen... | 4.156932 | 6.138711 | 5.588379 | 76.56791 | 72.302752 | 8.881142 | 33.212029 | 9.444779 | 3.409519 | 452 | 23 | 81 | 11 | 9 | 152 | 76 | 109 | 0.059 | 0.824 | 0.117 | 0.4767 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 22 | 20 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 12 | 2 | 9 | 14 | 2 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 48 | 18 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0.177342 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180227 | 0.12707 | 0 | 0.149548 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.221561 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185285 | 0 | 0.192246 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.321917 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.275664 | 0 | 0 | 0.199076 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145346 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.199748 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128361 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171957 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192786 | 0.183495 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193271 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171793 | 0 | 0.174047 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206848 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153979 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198783 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.317679 | 0 | 0.207824 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107189 | 0 | 0.145772 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | NoelLiamsson | 2019/04/26 | My girl is leaving me and i Wanna die. So What’s the best way to commit suicide?
I’m thinking In a car with a tube to the exhaust pipe | -1.75371 | 0.107434 | 1.516371 | 97.994556 | 94.16129 | 3.1 | 20.653226 | 3.1291 | -0.542748 | 104 | 4 | 25 | 0 | 4 | 37 | 27 | 31 | 0.277 | 0.549 | 0.174 | -0.6041 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 3 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 5 | 3 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 17 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.445996 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.441068 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.449998 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.464865 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.272314 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.337334 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Boobr | 2019/04/26 | My life is just hollow Go to work, come back from work, sit in front of my PC and waste my time till tomorrow comes. There is nothing to look forward to, nothing to strive towards, other than new TV, new console etc. It's all fucking empty. I'm a 27 year old guy who only had one girlfriend when I was 15, and it's killi... | 6.784391 | 5.221767 | 7.395325 | 78.427273 | 65.468531 | 10.688911 | 32.666334 | 9.606745 | 2.704573 | 1,093 | 35 | 231 | 18 | 14 | 364 | 152 | 286 | 0.138 | 0.797 | 0.064 | -0.9714 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 33 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 18 | 11 | 3 | 2 | 13 | 0 | 18 | 3 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 48 | 40 | 20 | 3 | 2 | 7 | 0 | 6 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 17 | 18 | 0 | 2 | 10 | 2 | 0 | 9 | 5 | 5 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 7 | 24 | 6 | 42 | 31 | 7 | 45 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 9 | 18 | 2 | 3 | 22 | 154 | 41 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083879 | 0.090739 | 0 | 0 | 0.095766 | 0.078377 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175606 | 0 | 0 | 0.228645 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.227357 | 0.067323 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091608 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.309232 | 0.145637 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094232 | 0 | 0 | 0.115858 | 0 | 0.081522 | 0 | 0 | 0.100926 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11277 | 0 | 0.112036 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110747 | 0.10423 | 0.143992 | 0.149393 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085595 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108335 | 0.07493 | 0 | 0 | 0.196888 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.195608 | 0 | 0.106958 | 0 | 0.27628 | 0.38761 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070665 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096356 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109897 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.232036 | 0.130597 | 0 | 0 | 0.109434 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103158 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081401 | 0 | 0 | 0.106559 | 0 | 0.111494 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065312 | 0 | 0 | 0.178308 | 0 | 0.096617 | 0 | 0 | 0.069203 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088034 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148412 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065639 |
suicidewatch | Apocrypao | 2019/04/26 | Need someone to chat with I don't have anyone else to turn to, please help. | 3.938125 | 4.031942 | 3.925 | 95.42 | 70.875 | 6.4 | 22.25 | 3.1291 | -0.250425 | 59 | 1 | 14 | 0 | 1 | 18 | 14 | 16 | 0 | 0.706 | 0.294 | 0.6124 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.277661 | 0.406875 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.331725 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.266167 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.294444 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.435895 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.336461 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.43193 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Angrynoodle25 | 2019/04/26 | I might have been losing my health insurance and felt like I wanted to die... I have Autism, am currently on Medicare, and If I don't have health coverage I lose all the services that I need to function in everyday life. If I lose those services I felt like my life was going to never get better and I might as well just... | 7.751515 | 6.865157 | 7.419108 | 76.845758 | 63.166667 | 10.261953 | 35.840067 | 9.33951 | 3.176487 | 888 | 35 | 165 | 13 | 11 | 281 | 120 | 216 | 0.138 | 0.704 | 0.157 | 0.6649 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 25 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 12 | 20 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 29 | 4 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 50 | 52 | 18 | 3 | 8 | 8 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 6 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 24 | 6 | 26 | 14 | 23 | 23 | 2 | 24 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 10 | 0 | 10 | 11 | 125 | 39 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059525 | 0 | 0.249272 | 0 | 0 | 0.172722 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099709 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102381 | 0 | 0 | 0.077963 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101342 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086486 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087759 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.049373 | 0 | 0.375026 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107065 | 0 | 0 | 0.051017 | 0 | 0.11099 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103947 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.207589 | 0.110055 | 0 | 0.065451 | 0 | 0 | 0.096986 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108032 | 0.101684 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137942 | 0.143116 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.327727 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.196811 | 0.207176 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072404 | 0.150623 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187038 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062555 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10681 | 0.110809 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.465126 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106212 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11519 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087797 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094128 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069366 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | SensitiveWeb8 | 2019/04/26 | Venting I'm so tired of needing to wait to die. I don't have the chance to do it yet, and the idea that I have to wait to do this another time makes me feel so hopeless.
I used to be looking forward to something this weekend. It was something that I have been looking forward to for weeks -- almost months. But now th... | 4.905187 | 4.13702 | 5.951861 | 84.648541 | 68.877301 | 8.962236 | 27.927062 | 8.167269 | 1.589129 | 598 | 16 | 133 | 7 | 9 | 200 | 84 | 163 | 0.161 | 0.757 | 0.082 | -0.9314 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 11 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 22 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 32 | 43 | 11 | 3 | 6 | 8 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 17 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 6 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 15 | 4 | 20 | 34 | 1 | 18 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 1 | 4 | 12 | 100 | 32 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13658 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143022 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095371 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128148 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.217801 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.283113 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180175 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206896 | 0.194881 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126095 | 0 | 0 | 0.23255 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153974 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149918 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133272 | 0 | 0.120439 | 0 | 0.229075 | 0 | 0 | 0.115958 | 0 | 0 | 0.18209 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108869 | 0 | 0 | 0.101135 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094559 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137115 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.349513 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115567 | 0.210007 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090615 | 0 | 0.134008 | 0 | 0.159066 | 0.156766 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117802 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109408 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.313695 | 0.13148 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | HyperChibiAbsol | 2019/04/26 | What shouldn’t you say when depressed? Just a morning thought after waking up depressed. | 5.242 | 8.8695 | 3.068333 | 86.4225 | 80.333333 | 3 | 34.166667 | 3.1291 | 1.657667 | 73 | 4 | 10 | 0 | 2 | 20 | 14 | 15 | 0.375 | 0.625 | 0 | -0.765 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.837555 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.386659 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.386001 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | sadpotato12345 | 2019/04/26 | You decide my fate I want to kill myself but i can,t get myself to do it, so i will let someone else decide if i should do it or not...if there is more comments saying that i should then i will, and if more people comment saying that i should not then i wont... | 4.315632 | 2.741414 | 5.784483 | 88.02546 | 70.37931 | 7.733333 | 24.505747 | 3.1291 | 0.322189 | 198 | 3 | 48 | 0 | 3 | 68 | 36 | 58 | 0.058 | 0.918 | 0.023 | -0.4019 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 12 | 8 | 1 | 6 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 12 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 40 | 16 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.308835 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193152 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.409016 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.378042 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.256302 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.587998 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.313244 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.218058 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Babedog | 2019/04/26 | What sucks the most We can't even end our own suffering because of what we owe to the world that destroyed us. What we owe to the people who claim to love us, but are constantly angry at us and judge us for our crude coping mechanisms and bad attitudes.
I try so fucking hard to be a decent person yet they still refus... | 4.121633 | 5.245232 | 5.161837 | 82.990306 | 71.040816 | 8.457143 | 25.22449 | 8.841846 | 1.734473 | 386 | 11 | 77 | 7 | 7 | 127 | 73 | 98 | 0.238 | 0.711 | 0.05 | -0.9681 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 9 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 7 | 7 | 4 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 14 | 11 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 16 | 1 | 12 | 9 | 3 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 15 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 6 | 60 | 22 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190253 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132179 | 0.096502 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171072 | 0 | 0.126394 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140212 | 0 | 0 | 0.104559 | 0.143197 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149236 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146351 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141811 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142877 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159844 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122095 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107272 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109749 | 0.138226 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185051 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17721 | 0 | 0 | 0.126423 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107479 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.761689 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | tootsotoo | 2019/04/26 | I should be happy but I want to die I've been having suicidal thoughts for maybe a year now. My life should be great. I'm graduating in May and currently searching for a job but I'm confident I'll find one cause the job market where I live is okay and I have some work experience. I have a nice family, great friends, I'... | 1.975191 | 4.083693 | 3.791049 | 86.393466 | 79.206186 | 7.593569 | 25.169489 | 8.527138 | 1.823339 | 1,125 | 43 | 233 | 25 | 28 | 378 | 146 | 291 | 0.199 | 0.588 | 0.212 | 0.1199 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 28 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 13 | 22 | 3 | 1 | 16 | 1 | 24 | 9 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 52 | 53 | 20 | 4 | 9 | 13 | 0 | 7 | 3 | 4 | 4 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 11 | 1 | 0 | 13 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 8 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 8 | 28 | 14 | 27 | 38 | 4 | 29 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 13 | 1 | 7 | 17 | 137 | 34 | 6 | 0.092434 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07392 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104424 | 0 | 0.064632 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189911 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159227 | 0 | 0.191864 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08089 | 0.094592 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094583 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061052 | 0 | 0.07788 | 0 | 0 | 0.090418 | 0.087139 | 0 | 0.327162 | 0.198105 | 0 | 0 | 0.168966 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.214243 | 0 | 0.193172 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.203818 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.196796 | 0 | 0.09126 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.27518 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.391734 | 0.135476 | 0.092643 | 0.081621 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092862 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06795 | 0 | 0.071291 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062636 | 0.0703 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088239 | 0.064082 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09924 | 0 | 0.078938 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084149 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1039 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096632 | 0 | 0.202216 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146765 | 0.107798 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062757 | 0 | 0 | 0.096227 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16356 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067293 | 0.093871 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059525 |
suicidewatch | imtired257 | 2019/04/26 | Just a cry for help. Hey, I’m having a hard time. My wife if 13 suddenly decided she wants nothing to do with me. I know she is out hanging out with other guys and I can’t find date to save my life. I’ve talked to others that have had a divorce and they say it take years of this hopeless feeling, this feeling that I’l... | -0.497333 | 1.425867 | 1.293333 | 101.82 | 87.444444 | 4.192593 | 15.666667 | 5.2151 | -1.101311 | 471 | 9 | 119 | 2 | 15 | 153 | 86 | 135 | 0.148 | 0.728 | 0.125 | -0.8019 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 16 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 10 | 4 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 27 | 25 | 5 | 0 | 5 | 5 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 13 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 14 | 3 | 18 | 22 | 2 | 16 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 10 | 74 | 27 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107469 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161126 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173593 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139971 | 0.163292 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.23972 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14444 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1461 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132552 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156479 | 0 | 0 | 0.141568 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187271 | 0.105927 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169179 | 0.356803 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086851 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111624 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105489 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121886 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151638 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109561 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125675 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126206 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.356466 | 0.127022 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184302 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.372851 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.305306 |
suicidewatch | sadlysadd | 2019/04/26 | I feel like this will never get better I graduated high school pretty happy.
Seems like since I came to college my life has turned to shit. I can't find "my place" or "my people" here. Believe me, I've tried, I made the mistake of not doing shit freshman year but my second year, I tried joining clubs/orgs I thought I... | 0.984077 | 2.965453 | 3.038645 | 91.165545 | 81.943723 | 5.575833 | 19.567288 | 6.70267 | 0.174573 | 853 | 22 | 185 | 9 | 23 | 288 | 125 | 231 | 0.16 | 0.667 | 0.173 | 0.3019 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 28 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 10 | 22 | 4 | 0 | 9 | 1 | 19 | 6 | 4 | 3 | 1 | 38 | 48 | 15 | 1 | 7 | 9 | 0 | 8 | 8 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 7 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 11 | 32 | 13 | 21 | 36 | 1 | 26 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 6 | 12 | 4 | 5 | 17 | 113 | 37 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059141 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053014 | 0 | 0 | 0.097982 | 0 | 0.076915 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099467 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074914 | 0 | 0.093981 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16826 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090258 | 0.090862 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.219821 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.351785 | 0.434905 | 0 | 0 | 0.079486 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090873 | 0.166854 | 0.098851 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092578 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091886 | 0.087235 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0773 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122855 | 0.339902 | 0 | 0.076794 | 0.076963 | 0.07303 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08229 | 0.058051 | 0 | 0 | 0.094733 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067074 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120584 | 0 | 0.090862 | 0 | 0.082212 | 0 | 0 | 0.088477 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098988 | 0.055713 | 0 | 0 | 0.09337 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088015 | 0.069302 | 0.079172 | 0 | 0 | 0.357082 | 0.07194 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073687 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069901 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069042 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177135 | 0.094595 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123558 | 0 | 0 | 0.112008 |
suicidewatch | JDM3838 | 2019/04/26 | The universe hates me. Basically title. The universe hates me because whenever I even get a TINY chance at happiness, something bad happens and I fall all the way back to square one again. People screw me over all the time by making plans with me and then being like "oh sorry I decided to do this instead". I can't real... | 0.369668 | 2.458267 | 2.923737 | 90.46479 | 85.122449 | 5.307653 | 18.031037 | 6.627428 | 0.017545 | 537 | 13 | 116 | 6 | 16 | 186 | 93 | 147 | 0.13 | 0.716 | 0.154 | 0.6873 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 8 | 11 | 3 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 16 | 24 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 6 | 5 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 12 | 5 | 12 | 18 | 3 | 19 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 11 | 72 | 21 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129493 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142404 | 0.154631 | 0.112894 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.195913 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.328057 | 0 | 0 | 0.12232 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096757 | 0 | 0.210502 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163768 | 0.197145 | 0 | 0.365686 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.271432 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175237 | 0.12362 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142835 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.250987 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.256783 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186173 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118641 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142573 | 0 | 0.207312 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181954 | 0 | 0.107989 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.294 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | thr0waway1809 | 2019/04/26 | I’m a disappointment to my family... I’m not really sure what else to say... I’ve never had a gf or anything close to that, I’m embarrassingly socially awkward, I don’t have any friends, im ugly, I’m bad at sports and I’m doing badly in school.
My parents are incredibly disappointed in me and it hurts. They try to mas... | 0.354727 | 2.194119 | 3.328182 | 89.012273 | 83.363636 | 6.909091 | 20 | 8.000946 | 0.736636 | 392 | 11 | 93 | 8 | 11 | 140 | 69 | 110 | 0.197 | 0.742 | 0.061 | -0.895 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 11 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 14 | 14 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 12 | 4 | 14 | 12 | 1 | 11 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 54 | 20 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148787 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180048 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.365366 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182773 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206259 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169039 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.234222 | 0 | 0.236334 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120243 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15454 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197469 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.232542 | 0 | 0 | 0.168747 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.242944 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.20683 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140164 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.347986 | 0 | 0.22143 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.223032 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.20621 | 0 | 0 | 0.175858 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148546 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | formermormon | 2019/04/26 | Well... I *didn't* do it... though last night was the worst ever. I shared the whole damn thing with someone I trust, who is currently on the phone helping me get help. And while **nothing** is better, it's weirdly less like the end of the world now for the first time in decades. There's a mod on another subreddit who ... | 4.344769 | 5.985411 | 5.092308 | 81.707692 | 71.153846 | 8.687179 | 29.923077 | 9.210783 | 2.648292 | 798 | 33 | 151 | 17 | 15 | 258 | 127 | 195 | 0.217 | 0.681 | 0.102 | -0.9777 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 38 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 15 | 16 | 3 | 0 | 11 | 0 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 30 | 25 | 15 | 2 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 10 | 2 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 21 | 6 | 28 | 20 | 6 | 23 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 15 | 12 | 1 | 0 | 12 | 111 | 30 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156558 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096477 | 0.148764 | 0.108531 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125473 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122193 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159586 | 0.125656 | 0 | 0 | 0.093704 | 0.12833 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071734 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120675 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074122 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.280136 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190186 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126101 | 0 | 0 | 0.155937 | 0.115644 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069311 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133136 | 0 | 0.136129 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.196711 | 0.123876 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135751 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090886 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121157 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.240414 | 0 | 0 | 0.158813 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.310368 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114031 | 0 | 0.130616 | 0 | 0 | 0.094253 | 0 | 0.278775 | 0 | 0.082726 | 0 | 0 | 0.135564 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170653 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083679 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127559 | 0 | 0 | 0.158394 | 0.326289 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | 340js | 2019/04/26 | Idk what to do Right now I'm in high school and school isn't my thing since I'm always scared and afraid to talk or anything. I always feel scared when walking to class so I plug in my earbuds To my phone and listen to music (which calms me down). Currently right now I'm failing and for the teachers it seems as I dont ... | 0.524399 | 2.350405 | 1.915984 | 99.433866 | 82.688525 | 4.722404 | 18.363388 | 5.461319 | -0.635953 | 437 | 10 | 106 | 2 | 12 | 140 | 65 | 122 | 0.165 | 0.732 | 0.102 | -0.7943 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 11 | 0 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 15 | 20 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 10 | 5 | 15 | 19 | 3 | 15 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 9 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 60 | 17 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.212911 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.210566 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130442 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11196 | 0 | 0.149944 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113316 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.258759 | 0.274199 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.270349 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187514 | 0 | 0.112972 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133669 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081961 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.218518 | 0 | 0 | 0.512357 | 0.388443 | 0 | 0.116471 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.211665 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102833 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084997 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142839 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Environmental_Elk | 2019/04/26 | this is to say goodbye i tried as hard as i could for so long. i dont think im going to make it. please forgive me, family. i stayed as long as i could | -2.015 | -0.468751 | 1.358889 | 101.35 | 90.666667 | 4.711111 | 14.555556 | 5.985473 | -1.018811 | 114 | 2 | 32 | 1 | 4 | 41 | 25 | 36 | 0.044 | 0.818 | 0.138 | 0.4588 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 7 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 1 | 7 | 5 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 20 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.418952 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.307488 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.247333 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149107 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.235026 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.283398 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.464367 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17513 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.287996 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.208642 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.279645 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168112 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178128 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | SprayTanCo | 2019/04/26 | Does anybody else feel more depressed and suicidal when you’re broke? I live check to check and don’t make much money, when it gets close to payday I’m often broke for a few days. When I’m broke especially on the weekends my depression and suicidal thoughts get a lot worse and then I feel ashamed that a lack of money i... | 6.069512 | 6.488142 | 6.203561 | 79.796317 | 66.317073 | 9.486829 | 31.034146 | 9.3871 | 2.509153 | 336 | 12 | 67 | 6 | 5 | 107 | 56 | 82 | 0.406 | 0.594 | 0 | -0.9908 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 7 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 15 | 11 | 9 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 6 | 10 | 5 | 8 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 37 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121978 | 0 | 0.325808 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.331032 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.316001 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124924 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185013 | 0 | 0 | 0.286901 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197633 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167012 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160798 | 0 | 0 | 0.126251 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139038 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194465 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.413772 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150154 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170668 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.385495 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | zpfv_ | 2019/04/26 | I'm ready to do it, I have nothing to live for All my life I've been suffering. It will never end unless I do something about it and today I'm ready to finally do something.
There's nothing in my life left worth living for. I'm ugly, deformed, stupid and completely useless. I don't care about anything anymore, I just... | 2.257018 | 4.441765 | 3.810467 | 86.222447 | 78.638554 | 6.559639 | 24.832831 | 7.645422 | 1.418495 | 326 | 12 | 63 | 5 | 8 | 108 | 50 | 83 | 0.151 | 0.715 | 0.134 | -0.3391 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 11 | 15 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 3 | 12 | 13 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 40 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19015 | 0 | 0 | 0.157782 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.390973 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.201031 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.339641 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.210036 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105373 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.208321 | 0 | 0.270856 | 0 | 0 | 0.338611 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147878 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.36795 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12283 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.295214 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181742 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.226181 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Lululunalumayay | 2019/04/26 | Disappointment Im 30 now, I still don't have my life together. I won't be a fit mom since I can barely hold down a job. I feel like my mental health is so inconsistent. It's hard to be taken seriously since "I don't look mentally ill". I'm able to be social and I've been able to climb my career ladder fairly quickly, b... | -0.194226 | 1.713606 | 2.694643 | 92.367024 | 85.964286 | 6.233333 | 17.369048 | 7.492282 | 0.16348 | 394 | 9 | 95 | 7 | 12 | 139 | 73 | 112 | 0.134 | 0.762 | 0.104 | -0.293 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 14 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 22 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 15 | 3 | 10 | 14 | 1 | 12 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 57 | 20 | 2 | 0.330608 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142376 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167165 | 0.236186 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086364 | 0.317149 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14808 | 0 | 0 | 0.17571 | 0 | 0.195886 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178556 | 0 | 0.164038 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116759 | 0.161518 | 0 | 0.145966 | 0 | 0.138814 | 0.184933 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.333175 | 0.350722 | 0 | 0.193602 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.273482 | 0 | 0 | 0.168506 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132012 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148628 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | celestial49 | 2019/04/26 | The big 'end-it-all' plan: After having suicidal thoughts for the past six years, which have been especially bad during the past year, I now feel like I'm ready to end my life. I'm not completely sure when I'll do it, but it will most likely be at some point in the next couple of months. I was thinking recently about t... | 3.518784 | 4.098641 | 4.595226 | 88.509883 | 72.006135 | 7.645064 | 25.861127 | 7.686295 | 1.157569 | 607 | 18 | 135 | 7 | 11 | 199 | 106 | 163 | 0.114 | 0.843 | 0.043 | -0.8776 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 19 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 0 | 14 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 28 | 26 | 6 | 1 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 2 | 10 | 7 | 21 | 15 | 4 | 32 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 11 | 0 | 5 | 20 | 79 | 18 | 0 | 0.133969 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118755 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110245 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111858 | 0 | 0 | 0.113998 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136797 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.280928 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148234 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.237313 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067739 | 0.095707 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076138 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094626 | 0.196351 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113896 | 0 | 0 | 0.178851 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106933 | 0 | 0 | 0.099336 | 0 | 0 | 0.142477 | 0.125721 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.255777 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126644 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144441 | 0 | 0 | 0.134676 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132278 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106756 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103136 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112004 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14654 | 0 | 0.505056 | 0 | 0.100728 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085842 | 0 | 0.212713 | 0.078118 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.258815 |
suicidewatch | mushroomlevel | 2019/04/26 | It’s over for me I’m self destructing. I go into a tailspin over nothing. I quit my job, I got rejected from college. I just found out my neighbor complained about me about a tiny mistake that happened ages ago that I profusely apologized for. Just ugh. I’m too emotionally fragile for life. I’m just sitting here scream... | 1.75026 | 4.343213 | 3.409875 | 85.814292 | 84 | 5.913333 | 28.064583 | 7.3011 | 1.790758 | 514 | 25 | 98 | 8 | 15 | 170 | 81 | 128 | 0.176 | 0.723 | 0.102 | -0.7311 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 9 | 2 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 18 | 20 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 2 | 15 | 2 | 16 | 11 | 1 | 17 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 63 | 20 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0.204185 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185476 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.229837 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.235364 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.378534 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.229209 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.229418 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118914 | 0.175498 | 0.167346 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185028 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.207636 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14779 | 0.102223 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.200769 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.212869 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.222549 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.21828 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15732 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134071 | 0 | 0.166111 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167837 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.240612 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.213231 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | tanbaoshan | 2019/04/26 | Suicide, yes or no I already just knocked my head against the wall hoping to lose my memory. I just want to end everything. Yes or no. I cant decide | -0.857419 | 1.239405 | 1.673161 | 94.109742 | 100.290323 | 5.060645 | 22.329032 | 6.742158 | 0.864866 | 115 | 5 | 25 | 2 | 5 | 39 | 23 | 31 | 0.289 | 0.474 | 0.237 | -0.4767 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 16 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.399093 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.320317 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.32503 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.37116 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.359203 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.404597 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.395589 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.213312 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Washable_Battery | 2019/04/26 | Last night was one of the worst nights of my life and I just need to tell someone So some context, im a freshman in college and I absolutely hate my roommate. He makes me extremely anxious and uncomfortable to be around and I do everything I can to avoid having to interact with him until the end of the semester.
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suicidewatch | bnjmnyng | 2019/04/26 | Does anyone here know how to write a suicide note? if you tell me not to do it i will tell you to shut the fuck up, block you, and report you.
serious answers only.
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suicidewatch | vent_82 | 2019/04/26 | Help Im fucking paranoid. Everything i touch breaks, the only thing im good at is masking everything that constanly roams around my mind. The only real friends i had switched up on me for slmeone else who dissliked me. I only want to commit suicide. Thats the only thing i actually really want. Everytimw i think i have ... | 3.412179 | 6.091151 | 4.450107 | 80.523365 | 77.376068 | 7.318803 | 30.262821 | 8.3441 | 2.721867 | 496 | 24 | 84 | 10 | 12 | 161 | 80 | 117 | 0.183 | 0.655 | 0.162 | -0.6904 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 4 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 8 | 5 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 16 | 17 | 3 | 2 | 2 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 15 | 3 | 10 | 13 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 6 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 55 | 26 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125175 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141552 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11419 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078194 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131267 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107155 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.230566 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099103 | 0.355757 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107589 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085978 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.415669 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141914 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121374 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139726 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129519 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.487785 | 0 | 0 | 0.142431 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138299 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146002 | 0.082175 | 0.131885 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108685 | 0.09875 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140309 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170437 | 0.082192 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14743 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139524 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151317 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | shdhvugk | 2019/04/26 | In a few minutes, it’ll be all over. Thank you all for trying so hard. -Professor Hulk sounds just like Mark Ruffalo, and can speak full sentences. He’s seen wearing a tank top and glasses.
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suicidewatch | kirisameluvrr34 | 2019/04/26 | Bought a rope off Amazon I just bought a rope off Amazon and it should deliver within a few days. I'm feeling genuine joy right now. I can finally stop worrying about everything. How worthless I am, how little people actually care about me, how much I've failed all my life, the absolute nothingness I bring into people'... | 4.045386 | 5.561602 | 5.223333 | 80.966205 | 71.711864 | 8.973258 | 27.517891 | 9.444779 | 2.467771 | 474 | 17 | 91 | 11 | 9 | 157 | 86 | 118 | 0.11 | 0.727 | 0.163 | 0.8176 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 11 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 9 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 15 | 17 | 8 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 9 | 3 | 14 | 9 | 7 | 19 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 62 | 15 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0.179336 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182253 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192858 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187369 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118518 | 0.189462 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189887 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165163 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092921 | 0 | 0 | 0.402628 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129804 | 0 | 0.184189 | 0.162275 | 0.162633 | 0.308646 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.270188 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.25481 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173725 | 0.207176 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156941 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152019 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153642 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.249539 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.18663 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | kelmarie329 | 2019/04/26 | Does it seem like thoughts of suicide are on the rise? I keep seeing memes and posts joking about depression and suicide. Didn’t realize how common it actually was. What could be the driving forces behind it? | 4.143158 | 7.079876 | 4.262368 | 81.424079 | 76.368421 | 6.957895 | 27.921053 | 8.076483 | 2.220768 | 168 | 7 | 28 | 3 | 4 | 52 | 33 | 38 | 0.27 | 0.64 | 0.091 | -0.8924 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 9 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 19 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.28261 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.231224 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.249434 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.253433 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.257411 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141485 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.277359 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.230775 | 0.263643 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.633555 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.229912 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | hopestillexists | 2019/04/26 | I want to end it all, but I still am not sure, any help is welcome I came into a point in which my dreams seem completely unreachable and I'm struggling a lot with life and everything seems so painful to continue. I would like to live a few more months to experience some things for the last time.
Anyone that wants som... | 6.737308 | 5.673625 | 6.689359 | 81.834808 | 65.282051 | 10.364103 | 32.320513 | 9.516145 | 2.563605 | 305 | 10 | 65 | 5 | 4 | 97 | 62 | 78 | 0.19 | 0.642 | 0.168 | -0.4478 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 19 | 11 | 4 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 7 | 5 | 9 | 9 | 7 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 5 | 8 | 42 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144924 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149013 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.243744 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.223444 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188754 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191531 | 0.208465 | 0 | 0 | 0.107756 | 0.152247 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142845 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173715 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150527 | 0.208232 | 0 | 0.188182 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.18118 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170104 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.226766 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.20146 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.388019 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170192 | 0 | 0 | 0.222791 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.200856 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141582 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124267 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.251398 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151389 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | samshell | 2019/04/26 | I'm Cold, And My Mind Is Not Here Anymore I came here because it was the only thing I was willing to do. I'm cold, and I was staring at nothing for so long. I tried to read, but my eyes can't keep up with the words. Tried to watch a movie, and nothing is of interest. Went to walk the dog, because, you know, dogs are al... | 4.287215 | 4.795154 | 5.0408 | 86.262568 | 70.237785 | 8.354984 | 27.076384 | 8.395992 | 1.599761 | 1,176 | 36 | 252 | 17 | 20 | 381 | 151 | 307 | 0.258 | 0.671 | 0.072 | -0.9974 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 52 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 22 | 15 | 6 | 1 | 21 | 0 | 34 | 7 | 5 | 2 | 7 | 48 | 49 | 21 | 0 | 4 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 20 | 13 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 6 | 10 | 12 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 7 | 24 | 3 | 32 | 27 | 6 | 30 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 1 | 3 | 8 | 5 | 3 | 14 | 182 | 44 | 3 | 0 | 0.523318 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073502 | 0 | 0 | 0.060071 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087605 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.248983 | 0 | 0.147513 | 0.161546 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092703 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101033 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070529 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076084 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090398 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11669 | 0.15981 | 0 | 0 | 0.079391 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081665 | 0.046152 | 0 | 0.050203 | 0.074092 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078115 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177216 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094565 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078517 | 0 | 0 | 0.145641 | 0.072005 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078002 | 0.078174 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178388 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.27252 | 0 | 0 | 0.082897 | 0 | 0.169521 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134367 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061241 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176719 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100067 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.272026 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073853 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.234746 | 0 | 0 | 0.070129 | 0.103019 | 0 | 0 | 0.084409 | 0 | 0.119948 | 0 | 0 | 0.091961 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072886 | 0.052103 | 0.070117 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081888 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062751 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | EyeballKite | 2019/04/26 | I've never had a really difficult day in my life and I got to travel the world I keep my intense suicidal thoughts to myself for this reason. People would just roll their eyes, and for understandable reasons.
I've wanted to stop living since age 8, though I guess back then I had much better reasons. I was bullied ... | 2.884298 | 4.94896 | 4.216915 | 84.644249 | 76.153558 | 6.847004 | 26.480805 | 7.793538 | 1.625624 | 1,063 | 41 | 205 | 16 | 24 | 350 | 154 | 267 | 0.158 | 0.767 | 0.075 | -0.9816 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 28 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 11 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 11 | 0 | 20 | 4 | 3 | 4 | 4 | 38 | 36 | 19 | 4 | 6 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 13 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 4 | 2 | 4 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 4 | 28 | 3 | 35 | 20 | 6 | 35 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 9 | 14 | 0 | 3 | 18 | 135 | 33 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109333 | 0 | 0 | 0.107349 | 0.120388 | 0 | 0.10389 | 0 | 0 | 0.098257 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152367 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087625 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063896 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.205651 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065439 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089043 | 0 | 0.0934 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076546 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07924 | 0 | 0.109144 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.203361 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099381 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098318 | 0.088063 | 0.109613 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06998 | 0.048404 | 0 | 0.524916 | 0 | 0.083199 | 0.110841 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079082 | 0 | 0.145665 | 0 | 0.152827 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075352 | 0 | 0 | 0.110012 | 0 | 0 | 0.068687 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063471 | 0.407467 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078951 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081957 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082832 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108373 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074493 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097342 | 0.078655 | 0.115544 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096783 | 0.103142 | 0.119176 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116875 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089401 | 0.110615 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.211143 | 0 | 0.120388 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Roseora | 2019/04/26 | How do I talk to someone who feels suicidal? I saw a reddit post that was concerning, linked the guy to a few resources, and he replied. I want to make sure the guys ok, but i'm a stranger online. What can I say, or shouldn't I say, to help? I've tried to assure him things will eventually get better, that healing takes... | 12.254379 | 13.035886 | 8.77979 | 65.289014 | 53.362416 | 9.597651 | 34.061242 | 8.841846 | 2.624603 | 771 | 23 | 121 | 8 | 8 | 216 | 94 | 149 | 0.131 | 0.711 | 0.158 | 0.5079 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 59 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 10 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 5 | 32 | 26 | 11 | 1 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 11 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 8 | 13 | 4 | 10 | 17 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 19 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 66 | 24 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106683 | 0 | 0.289085 | 0.324199 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117984 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106512 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202358 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121928 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069698 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.264181 | 0 | 0 | 0.119503 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.268252 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118575 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.252459 | 0.178096 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14152 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092485 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127764 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.318263 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110353 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113032 | 0.1027 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145922 | 0 | 0.125731 | 0 | 0.100303 | 0.107225 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088627 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077789 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090572 | 0 | 0 | 0.138878 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15737 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135478 | 0.135949 | 0 | 0 | 0.324199 | 0 |
suicidewatch | coredog_S_3000 | 2019/04/26 | Literally and finally made a reddit account just to post this. “i cant afford losing my life but living like this is not worth living. That is why i have to change.”
Tomorrow is the first day i am getting help. I sent this text tonight and it at least spoke wisdom to me. Any of you guys feel this way? | 0.775023 | 3.050392 | 2.519124 | 92.777258 | 85.129032 | 5.478341 | 18.534562 | 6.86897 | 0.107527 | 234 | 6 | 51 | 3 | 7 | 77 | 50 | 62 | 0.03 | 0.773 | 0.197 | 0.8999 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 11 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 7 | 2 | 5 | 8 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 33 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180182 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.280293 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170878 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133972 | 0 | 0 | 0.290251 | 0 | 0.225375 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138431 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.262353 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177597 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187149 | 0.129446 | 0 | 0.46793 | 0 | 0 | 0.296423 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.250712 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.253759 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.210313 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.239086 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | pink_fern1994 | 2019/04/26 | I'm going to kill myself after finals end this semester While I enjoy living and have had a lot of incredible experiences and had the opportunity to get to know a lot of incredible people, I really don't have anything to offer the world except mistakes and disappointments to those around me. I'm incredibly stupid and c... | 11.342143 | 8.610903 | 11.303776 | 57.657296 | 57.673469 | 13.881633 | 40.826531 | 12.161745 | 5.011094 | 427 | 16 | 69 | 10 | 4 | 144 | 69 | 98 | 0.229 | 0.675 | 0.096 | -0.9432 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 10 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 18 | 18 | 8 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 9 | 5 | 16 | 15 | 3 | 11 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 51 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.200118 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139264 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.286387 | 0 | 0.168524 | 0.182306 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.214914 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181383 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.200323 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.224337 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106994 | 0 | 0.232773 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.226569 | 0 | 0.225094 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.209411 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180833 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.348209 | 0.18483 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141975 | 0 | 0 | 0.224797 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131193 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174889 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186432 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188542 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19741 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Iaganjaestranja | 2019/04/26 | I feel nothing. I don’t care anymore. I have now hit the lowest point in my life. I feel numb, I feel lifeless, I feel like I just don’t care anymore. I don’t care if I lose the things or people I didn’t want to lose before, I just don’t care anymore. I’ve lost all of me. And I just want to die. But everyone doesn’t wa... | -0.141414 | 2.098329 | 1.851893 | 95.864679 | 90.144578 | 5.571543 | 19.350545 | 7.071269 | 0.319327 | 611 | 19 | 141 | 10 | 21 | 202 | 83 | 166 | 0.254 | 0.641 | 0.105 | -0.9798 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 23 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 9 | 13 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 14 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 34 | 37 | 8 | 2 | 8 | 12 | 0 | 8 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 30 | 6 | 14 | 32 | 3 | 12 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 88 | 37 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120368 | 0 | 0.09076 | 0 | 0 | 0.074175 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.324522 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092816 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.444841 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113204 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104227 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.441217 | 0.155848 | 0 | 0 | 0.199387 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104636 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096952 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111538 | 0.154087 | 0.106578 | 0 | 0.096316 | 0 | 0 | 0.244056 | 0.119069 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072809 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104661 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082957 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151239 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103112 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144931 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.386015 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | peachy_chanel | 2019/04/26 | I cant live like this im thinking about committing suicide today either by hanging or overdosing on some random drug i find. the reason why is because of my home life and school, my home life consists of my parents screaming at me cause i can't get out of bed for school, i barley see my parents ever so what's the point... | 3.686737 | 4.649605 | 4.872388 | 85.263403 | 71.913386 | 7.219248 | 29.071741 | 7.38713 | 1.663275 | 487 | 19 | 98 | 5 | 9 | 161 | 85 | 127 | 0.132 | 0.858 | 0.01 | -0.89 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 8 | 5 | 2 | 2 | 5 | 22 | 15 | 7 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 17 | 2 | 16 | 12 | 5 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 4 | 8 | 64 | 21 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163686 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.271263 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152376 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172016 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134173 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135571 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154993 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118633 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.297575 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.320445 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.20954 | 0.144934 | 0 | 0.130979 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126105 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114402 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100513 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.329407 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14022 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152508 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.450355 | 0.1182 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104989 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16225 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095044 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1406 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087489 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133845 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | AwesomeBirdy_99 | 2019/04/26 | I don’t even know why Its been like a routine almost.
Just going out to the balcony, try to jump, chicken out, break down crying and going back to try to make myself bleed as if it does anything useful.
Half of the things I do don’t even make sense, and I couldn’t really form a concrete reason as to why would I try ... | 5.52955 | 5.455741 | 6.076518 | 81.937727 | 67.457447 | 8.964023 | 29.324952 | 8.57599 | 2.006962 | 735 | 23 | 149 | 10 | 11 | 239 | 109 | 188 | 0.105 | 0.852 | 0.043 | -0.9113 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 26 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 11 | 0 | 21 | 4 | 1 | 5 | 1 | 29 | 32 | 14 | 1 | 5 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 9 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 6 | 11 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 18 | 1 | 26 | 24 | 4 | 20 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 2 | 3 | 6 | 113 | 26 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142383 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117011 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109336 | 0 | 0.086678 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156189 | 0.091701 | 0.146592 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124432 | 0 | 0 | 0.139292 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.375661 | 0 | 0.119801 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.24243 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140384 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.234432 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100433 | 0.069467 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189826 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104526 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136435 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148559 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153305 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091091 | 0.146195 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143904 | 0 | 0.129445 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155533 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094465 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082912 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.386152 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122807 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112864 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.384914 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101008 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | shyhearted | 2019/04/26 | I want to be gone by the end of the year I need the courage to finally seek out a therapist and be prescribed something I can overdose on. I can't do this any more. It's not going to get better. | 2.276434 | 2.782816 | 4.269767 | 89.97969 | 74.813953 | 7.593798 | 28.286822 | 7.793538 | 1.493626 | 151 | 6 | 36 | 2 | 3 | 52 | 35 | 43 | 0 | 0.817 | 0.183 | 0.7506 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 10 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 7 | 7 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 25 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.255604 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.332426 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.332909 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.411747 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.196376 | 0 | 0.213615 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.278703 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.289363 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.436414 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.221698 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.242048 |
suicidewatch | littlecottoncandy | 2019/04/26 | Why keep trying? I've never thought I would be in that same situation again, I have to confess that when he left me, like I was nothing, that remember me of my dark times again. I always doing so well, the last time I medicate myself, that I hurt myself was when that horrible person touched me. And here I am doing that... | 2.251002 | 3.997651 | 3.640948 | 89.500921 | 76.976879 | 6.694258 | 22.515992 | 7.554174 | 0.838229 | 658 | 19 | 140 | 9 | 15 | 216 | 95 | 173 | 0.122 | 0.763 | 0.115 | 0.1643 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 27 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 21 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 26 | 34 | 9 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 13 | 5 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 8 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 1 | 25 | 7 | 12 | 21 | 5 | 19 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 10 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 98 | 38 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117551 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098781 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132071 | 0 | 0.265461 | 0 | 0 | 0.086119 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144037 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112795 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1476 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144571 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09331 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160578 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.302472 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.25114 | 0 | 0 | 0.07764 | 0.115156 | 0 | 0 | 0.153494 | 0 | 0 | 0.138038 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.255009 | 0 | 0.094301 | 0 | 0.141928 | 0 | 0 | 0.142318 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108959 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.271111 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09573 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097941 | 0.123354 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160035 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158797 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112155 | 0.247132 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.287746 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122015 | 0 | 0 | 0.083327 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127022 | 0 | 0.254954 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100356 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | ethanmaul1112356 | 2019/04/26 | Im so fucking stressed and i dont see anyway out other then going. Hey guys.
I'm currently working a full time job as a mechanic. Working about 40 hours a week at 17. Left school about 12 months ago.
I'm so unbelievably stressed it's not funny. I'm trying to save money for a car and I keep on getting set back. Livin... | 1.368545 | 3.104532 | 3.203273 | 91.688909 | 79.545455 | 5.709091 | 23 | 6.556748 | 0.5022 | 1,010 | 33 | 223 | 9 | 25 | 338 | 138 | 275 | 0.137 | 0.823 | 0.04 | -0.9737 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 17 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 11 | 17 | 3 | 5 | 14 | 0 | 13 | 5 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 46 | 46 | 26 | 0 | 4 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 11 | 19 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 8 | 6 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 25 | 7 | 34 | 43 | 7 | 52 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 9 | 21 | 3 | 4 | 21 | 138 | 36 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077146 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071618 | 0.077474 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13384 | 0 | 0.053052 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153941 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074968 | 0 | 0.188095 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.203995 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078216 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160914 | 0.318284 | 0.083486 | 0.247304 | 0 | 0.069605 | 0 | 0 | 0.086173 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089317 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085706 | 0 | 0.093167 | 0 | 0.094007 | 0 | 0.172726 | 0.232067 | 0 | 0 | 0.095658 | 0 | 0.098173 | 0 | 0.094558 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076848 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138932 | 0 | 0.063976 | 0.064531 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083507 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058973 | 0 | 0.092605 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08854 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087488 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093437 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088078 | 0.069351 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089334 | 0.071991 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086074 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069502 | 0.07276 | 0.299075 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057818 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.050747 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.354523 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.051332 | 0 | 0.139619 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.316792 | 0.176765 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056044 |
suicidewatch | _333x2 | 2019/04/26 | I’m realizing my life is a waste. Just turned 30. Managed a used game store fo 4 years. They closed it. I’ve applied to jobs. Get denied because of a dui. Jesus Christ i hate my life. | -2.084808 | -0.762832 | 0.531763 | 99.933029 | 114.641026 | 2.975641 | 15.13141 | 5.148861 | -1.000413 | 140 | 4 | 33 | 1 | 8 | 47 | 33 | 39 | 0.245 | 0.755 | 0 | -0.8555 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.23134 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198274 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.374679 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.376596 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.536106 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.412788 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.327767 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.244386 |
suicidewatch | babygirl-bunny82 | 2019/04/26 | Do the feelings ever stop. I’ve had these feeling on and off for as long as I can remember and although I have good spells it always seems to be that I go back to feeling this way. | 5.348462 | 3.939822 | 6.235513 | 85.088654 | 68.230769 | 8.825641 | 32.320513 | 7.168622 | 1.861297 | 141 | 5 | 32 | 1 | 2 | 47 | 32 | 39 | 0.056 | 0.793 | 0.151 | 0.4019 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 10 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 1 | 7 | 8 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 25 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.267808 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.247485 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.291135 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.488216 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182917 | 0.269955 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.28483 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.364597 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.293003 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.269084 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.255472 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | TodayImALittleThor | 2019/04/26 | Fighting past that mental buffer Every time I try to die, I fail. I put a bag over my head last night with a tie around my neck to secure it in place but I couldn’t force myself to rip the bag off as I ran out of air.
Every day I fight urges to self harm or jump onto a train track but I can’t bring myself to do it. I w... | 1.024901 | 2.086133 | 3.065119 | 95.252103 | 78.642857 | 5.692063 | 16.015873 | 5.822114 | -0.788396 | 386 | 4 | 96 | 2 | 9 | 131 | 77 | 112 | 0.134 | 0.762 | 0.104 | -0.5106 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 7 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 7 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 15 | 12 | 8 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 16 | 3 | 16 | 9 | 1 | 21 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 10 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 57 | 20 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0.22564 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.205837 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149119 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.239972 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.38963 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.237301 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188477 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.236441 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154343 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.233018 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.216987 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.220728 | 0 | 0 | 0.241578 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.232442 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.241215 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.217924 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134828 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.31397 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136381 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Rmn89 | 2019/04/26 | An interesting title Have you ever felt like you were reading a choose your own adventure novel and realized much later that you're completely unable to change your decisions? You can't flip back and go well fuck, not that one.
I ended a relationship with a girl I thought I would marry because I'm an alcoholic.
Now? ... | 2.218158 | 4.630356 | 3.971016 | 83.786944 | 80.115538 | 7.208152 | 25.191695 | 8.263242 | 1.832868 | 1,003 | 39 | 195 | 21 | 26 | 336 | 156 | 251 | 0.083 | 0.785 | 0.133 | 0.8818 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 26 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 5 | 13 | 13 | 2 | 3 | 19 | 0 | 20 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 39 | 40 | 11 | 0 | 8 | 8 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 16 | 9 | 1 | 1 | 12 | 3 | 0 | 5 | 6 | 6 | 2 | 2 | 5 | 2 | 30 | 7 | 21 | 30 | 4 | 28 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 17 | 8 | 2 | 4 | 14 | 135 | 46 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135884 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133328 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.195541 | 0 | 0.077509 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129834 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134508 | 0.109528 | 0.133314 | 0.137404 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147453 | 0 | 0.106217 | 0 | 0.112617 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115014 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.239731 | 0 | 0.064291 | 0 | 0.122084 | 0 | 0.116213 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117548 | 0 | 0 | 0.072262 | 0 | 0.101693 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134341 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139756 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08981 | 0.062119 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127739 | 0.138503 | 0 | 0 | 0.128137 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09347 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135225 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17232 | 0.096703 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.275382 | 0 | 0 | 0.111022 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127821 | 0 | 0.135239 | 0.127184 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125545 | 0.136511 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130517 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107734 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132925 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084473 | 0 | 0 | 0.100943 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149992 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.228646 | 0 | 0.229466 | 0 | 0.146216 | 0 | 0.137888 | 0.2777 | 0 | 0 | 0.090324 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Tiredoflife69 | 2019/04/26 | I’ve got nothing going for me anymore I’m going to college mindlessly. I don’t care about it. I miss class a lot and just spend the days with my gf. I have no real skills and I just bluffed my way to college. Everyone is better than me and I have this weird hatred where everyone is against me and I just want to hurt ot... | 0.656915 | 2.75702 | 2.763234 | 91.994 | 84 | 5.036596 | 20.038298 | 6.2581 | 0.119765 | 347 | 10 | 74 | 3 | 10 | 117 | 62 | 94 | 0.233 | 0.681 | 0.086 | -0.942 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 17 | 16 | 6 | 1 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 17 | 2 | 13 | 15 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 55 | 21 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198826 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.201785 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173136 | 0 | 0 | 0.179951 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.207449 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13122 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.388844 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.231271 | 0 | 0.162732 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.435633 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.225107 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172981 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150869 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.195233 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.231591 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.212261 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170108 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152982 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.240021 | 0.161503 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | my-death-is-close | 2019/04/26 | I can't take much more pain when I was 7 or 8 my mom had a boyfriend and he was great at first then my mom got a night job and he raped me once then the next week he raped me twice and every week for months until he got arrested for something else, fast forward 10 years to november and i see him at my job and im taken ... | 3.34494 | 3.428934 | 4.326886 | 92.055241 | 72.169846 | 7.417677 | 24.175438 | 6.930791 | 0.579613 | 3,953 | 93 | 948 | 31 | 70 | 1,286 | 367 | 1,101 | 0.164 | 0.742 | 0.094 | -0.9981 | 9 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 35 | 4 | 0 | 7 | 9 | 38 | 45 | 14 | 0 | 50 | 1 | 88 | 37 | 7 | 7 | 8 | 171 | 167 | 104 | 8 | 27 | 21 | 15 | 3 | 2 | 2 | 11 | 17 | 4 | 6 | 5 | 33 | 79 | 2 | 3 | 18 | 2 | 10 | 25 | 25 | 26 | 0 | 7 | 55 | 9 | 165 | 20 | 124 | 88 | 28 | 166 | 1 | 7 | 2 | 11 | 131 | 61 | 5 | 12 | 83 | 619 | 198 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.039323 | 0.041899 | 0 | 0.031592 | 0 | 0 | 0.051639 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075308 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067599 | 0.035495 | 0 | 0.035672 | 0.11678 | 0.031702 | 0.231449 | 0 | 0.096924 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.232617 | 0.043425 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065412 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151571 | 0 | 0 | 0.244862 | 0 | 0.098105 | 0.038537 | 0.078809 | 0.039668 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176123 | 0 | 0.031717 | 0 | 0.033628 | 0 | 0 | 0.025077 | 0.034344 | 0.223927 | 0 | 0.068246 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.019198 | 0 | 0.036455 | 0.083184 | 0 | 0.064591 | 0 | 0.04163 | 0.029334 | 0.070201 | 0.11902 | 0.036422 | 0.064734 | 0 | 0.151832 | 0.04186 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.040418 | 0.034012 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.050898 | 0 | 0.038085 | 0 | 0 | 0.08762 | 0.081291 | 0 | 0.041012 | 0 | 0.075355 | 0.033748 | 0.168023 | 0 | 0.062599 | 0.030949 | 0 | 0 | 0.082504 | 0.116474 | 0.107271 | 0.037098 | 0 | 0.134105 | 0 | 0.031883 | 0.042476 | 0 | 0 | 0.171338 | 0.035926 | 0.076032 | 0 | 0 | 0.082716 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.266805 | 0.090917 | 0.161416 | 0.083732 | 0.056305 | 0.117133 | 0 | 0.080759 | 0.071261 | 0.0372 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080869 | 0.102912 | 0.086629 | 0.121202 | 0 | 0.042159 | 0.041116 | 0 | 0 | 0.132608 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.044382 | 0.038168 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.043216 | 0.048646 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.04301 | 0 | 0.036116 | 0.090581 | 0 | 0.038426 | 0.030256 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077947 | 0.031407 | 0 | 0.113986 | 0 | 0.09651 | 0.02923 | 0 | 0 | 0.026874 | 0.040469 | 0.030321 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.041531 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057094 | 0.061034 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.050448 | 0.072985 | 0 | 0.090427 | 0.177115 | 0.130916 | 0.071978 | 0.03628 | 0.042184 | 0.025778 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065584 | 0 | 0 | 0.089578 | 0.030137 | 0.091367 | 0 | 0 | 0.035197 | 0 | 0 | 0.043661 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.242742 | 0 | 0 | 0.0489 |
suicidewatch | s6n6nd6 | 2019/04/26 | drunk and suicidal help | 4.12 | 6.201631 | 3.67 | 75.875 | 114 | 11.6 | 29 | 8.841846 | 5.4213 | 20 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 4 | 4 | 0.651 | 0.094 | 0.255 | -0.6369 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.522484 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.852649 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | MommaJ812 | 2019/04/26 | why do I keep going? So for some context, I'm just turning 20 years old, 6'2, 470lb, Transgender Woman (born male transitioning to female). I dont know what I'm doing. Why do I keep going? Maybe I'm just stubborn. But I don't have a reason to keep going.
I don't feel a real connection with my family. They're not abusi... | 1.179287 | 3.134553 | 2.884295 | 92.66618 | 81.120344 | 5.481241 | 19.720293 | 6.522977 | 0.081373 | 1,295 | 33 | 283 | 12 | 34 | 428 | 189 | 349 | 0.067 | 0.782 | 0.151 | 0.979 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 50 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 23 | 14 | 1 | 1 | 11 | 0 | 26 | 9 | 0 | 8 | 4 | 79 | 67 | 26 | 0 | 8 | 24 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 2 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 12 | 17 | 5 | 5 | 12 | 5 | 4 | 9 | 13 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 6 | 36 | 11 | 24 | 56 | 14 | 47 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 17 | 18 | 0 | 6 | 21 | 171 | 48 | 2 | 0 | 0.110885 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101401 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05705 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08277 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099003 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074722 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109683 | 0 | 0 | 0.095763 | 0 | 0 | 0.08289 | 0.0967 | 0 | 0.247253 | 0 | 0.078851 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088225 | 0 | 0.189282 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113166 | 0 | 0.072305 | 0 | 0.097791 | 0 | 0.319126 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099625 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092871 | 0.332738 | 0 | 0 | 0.154299 | 0.076286 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066103 | 0.091444 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168932 | 0 | 0.24988 | 0.094882 | 0.094021 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0747 | 0 | 0.068797 | 0.069394 | 0.14436 | 0 | 0.199062 | 0.087825 | 0 | 0.179598 | 0 | 0.098204 | 0 | 0.063417 | 0 | 0.099583 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194644 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100903 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106522 | 0 | 0.096223 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074577 | 0.085198 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066241 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107135 | 0 | 0.106201 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081799 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062175 | 0 | 0 | 0.074298 | 0.054571 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063539 | 0.101796 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0552 | 0 | 0 | 0.113964 | 0 | 0 | 0.253343 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132963 | 0 | 0 | 0.120534 |
suicidewatch | Helloeverybodythere | 2019/04/26 | I wish I could just die right now I wish I could just close my eyes and sleep and I’m gone forever. But no I have to choose my own method, find everything, and summon the courage to do it myself. I was going to try it last year, but I never got that courage. Maybe it will happen this year. I strongly don’t want to, but... | 0.453059 | 2.265675 | 2.583636 | 94.624301 | 82.863636 | 6.182751 | 17.729604 | 7.32111 | 0.007344 | 471 | 10 | 114 | 7 | 13 | 159 | 76 | 132 | 0.069 | 0.716 | 0.215 | 0.9524 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 14 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 13 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 25 | 26 | 11 | 2 | 9 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 18 | 6 | 10 | 17 | 1 | 19 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 14 | 72 | 26 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111022 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094409 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106751 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122783 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.221688 | 0 | 0 | 0.089533 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.288166 | 0 | 0 | 0.142098 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124771 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126888 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1578 | 0 | 0.111035 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122766 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137889 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113165 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125299 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139473 | 0 | 0 | 0.139856 | 0.139907 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107074 | 0 | 0.44294 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11856 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13893 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111586 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080953 | 0 | 0.131594 | 0 | 0 | 0.094256 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.245656 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125272 | 0 | 0.319294 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09862 | 0 | 0 | 0.357606 |
suicidewatch | YoungCobbler | 2019/04/26 | It's happening I've always thought about, even maybe fantasized about leaving this earth, I've tried once when I was younger but it didn't really work out.
I have Asperger's and doctors think I also have bi-polar and everything just seems 10x harder than what it should be.
6 months ago I left a business partnership ... | 4.231387 | 4.351746 | 5.318788 | 85.589168 | 70.242938 | 8.131279 | 27.390344 | 7.846245 | 1.440513 | 1,324 | 40 | 288 | 15 | 22 | 439 | 197 | 354 | 0.117 | 0.799 | 0.084 | -0.8886 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 28 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 16 | 10 | 2 | 0 | 12 | 0 | 28 | 11 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 40 | 45 | 19 | 1 | 2 | 9 | 5 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 13 | 19 | 2 | 1 | 8 | 1 | 6 | 1 | 11 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 14 | 2 | 40 | 7 | 49 | 27 | 2 | 56 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 20 | 23 | 1 | 3 | 32 | 177 | 53 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.263194 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109216 | 0.079147 | 0.164702 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152204 | 0 | 0.060331 | 0 | 0 | 0.111506 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.20212 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109509 | 0 | 0.063828 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102716 | 0 | 0 | 0.1013 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101271 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065369 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088948 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100085 | 0.141409 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119675 | 0.108516 | 0.076464 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079156 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087519 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132675 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114198 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098213 | 0.087969 | 0 | 0 | 0.054392 | 0.161348 | 0.223286 | 0.104795 | 0.215063 | 0 | 0.139811 | 0.145056 | 0 | 0.174785 | 0.087586 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198858 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.236992 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092877 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1054 | 0.067065 | 0.075271 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094786 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099493 | 0 | 0 | 0.098997 | 0 | 0.063403 | 0 | 0.097721 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090099 | 0 | 0 | 0.101592 | 0 | 0.111247 | 0.099042 | 0 | 0.083857 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105489 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079549 | 0 | 0.091119 | 0 | 0 | 0.065751 | 0.063416 | 0 | 0.078571 | 0.05771 | 0.113752 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134389 | 0.107651 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078558 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.288206 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127467 |
suicidewatch | Drivin-music | 2019/04/26 | An endless roller coaster of suicidal thoughts I’ll be fine for a few weeks then boom! A wave of death obsession rolls in. It goes away and I’m back to normal. I can’t trust anyone enough to talk to them because of the immense fear that they will freak out, report me, and I’ll go to the psych ward. If I go back there I... | 2.389347 | 3.867485 | 3.626108 | 90.907208 | 75.909871 | 6.622001 | 22.563587 | 7.273562 | 0.647245 | 875 | 24 | 192 | 10 | 19 | 285 | 134 | 233 | 0.228 | 0.702 | 0.071 | -0.9913 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 28 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 15 | 11 | 1 | 3 | 9 | 0 | 17 | 6 | 2 | 5 | 2 | 36 | 34 | 15 | 6 | 7 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 9 | 2 | 2 | 5 | 1 | 4 | 3 | 7 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 21 | 5 | 32 | 24 | 5 | 22 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 5 | 0 | 5 | 13 | 120 | 33 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093934 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164264 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110359 | 0.180642 | 0 | 0.143207 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119942 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075753 | 0.121098 | 0 | 0 | 0.365721 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120193 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12137 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098967 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132177 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142036 | 0 | 0.090751 | 0 | 0.061369 | 0 | 0.200269 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.207743 | 0 | 0.105223 | 0 | 0.12055 | 0.124857 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129954 | 0 | 0.064554 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057386 | 0 | 0.103721 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078407 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087097 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115088 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124988 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.224992 | 0 | 0.126644 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.225748 | 0.120771 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093602 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117547 | 0 | 0.099525 | 0 | 0 | 0.131489 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.196407 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128484 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.283235 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075265 | 0 | 0.186503 | 0.136986 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138564 | 0 | 0.094221 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171027 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075642 |
suicidewatch | suicidalchip4 | 2019/04/26 | Why do people want to stop me If I want to end my life I should be able to with out getting put I a psych ward. Like why is even so bad to kill myself. If anyone actually to wanted me to be happy they would let me kill myself.
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suicidewatch | QueerTransTrouble | 2019/04/26 | Don't think there's a treatment option for me // 33 FtM Trans I've had 2 bad inpatient experiences before and that was before transition.
All I can think about is not waking up again. I need to be able to guarantee it when I make my next attempt though. If?
My therapist wants me to try inpatient. I've called differ... | 2.125379 | 4.335247 | 3.68715 | 86.807907 | 79.215054 | 7.141469 | 24.185812 | 8.176038 | 1.510588 | 3,279 | 117 | 669 | 64 | 82 | 1,085 | 346 | 837 | 0.164 | 0.73 | 0.106 | -0.9945 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 101 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 13 | 41 | 46 | 4 | 2 | 33 | 1 | 61 | 30 | 9 | 11 | 6 | 110 | 140 | 44 | 0 | 15 | 29 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 2 | 11 | 17 | 4 | 1 | 3 | 33 | 20 | 3 | 4 | 27 | 6 | 4 | 13 | 27 | 22 | 2 | 5 | 22 | 12 | 90 | 24 | 92 | 99 | 13 | 95 | 0 | 9 | 6 | 1 | 46 | 45 | 2 | 11 | 39 | 400 | 123 | 13 | 0.044095 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.039088 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.04866 | 0 | 0.073382 | 0 | 0 | 0.029986 | 0.092476 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12367 | 0 | 0.041429 | 0.067813 | 0.110454 | 0.134401 | 0 | 0.150088 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.04898 | 0 | 0.049225 | 0.225132 | 0 | 0.179833 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.048791 | 0 | 0.028438 | 0 | 0.113938 | 0 | 0 | 0.138211 | 0 | 0.180534 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.043197 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.039055 | 0.091125 | 0.049178 | 0 | 0 | 0.037152 | 0.08427 | 0.03963 | 0.129401 | 0 | 0 | 0.044592 | 0.031502 | 0 | 0.048304 | 0.120907 | 0.037508 | 0 | 0 | 0.068136 | 0 | 0.11519 | 0.0423 | 0.050121 | 0.036985 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.04694 | 0 | 0.043535 | 0 | 0.093743 | 0 | 0 | 0.029556 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08685 | 0 | 0.141615 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078388 | 0 | 0.137756 | 0.048467 | 0.035944 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062292 | 0.064628 | 0 | 0 | 0.078046 | 0.074058 | 0.049332 | 0 | 0 | 0.039798 | 0 | 0.117736 | 0.089412 | 0.310099 | 0.096066 | 0.09796 | 0.044422 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.035197 | 0 | 0.097246 | 0.098089 | 0 | 0.085175 | 0.046896 | 0.082761 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.046271 | 0 | 0.05976 | 0 | 0.046921 | 0 | 0 | 0.095502 | 0.084188 | 0.122281 | 0.077005 | 0.322493 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.047542 | 0 | 0 | 0.088656 | 0.049397 | 0 | 0 | 0.05019 | 0.028249 | 0.045337 | 0 | 0 | 0.049952 | 0.037657 | 0.08389 | 0.035066 | 0.088294 | 0 | 0.035138 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090527 | 0 | 0 | 0.044127 | 0 | 0.074724 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.047 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083119 | 0 | 0.033154 | 0.035442 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102396 | 0.11718 | 0.226037 | 0.129971 | 0.035007 | 0.025712 | 0.101362 | 0.125392 | 0.042135 | 0 | 0.089814 | 0 | 0.043075 | 0.045905 | 0 | 0.076169 | 0 | 0 | 0.104035 | 0 | 0.035371 | 0 | 0.079294 | 0.040877 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.042506 | 0 | 0.128408 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.028396 |
suicidewatch | Biomancer_ | 2019/04/26 | I Think I'm Going To Kill Myself https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=82wU5NfRfr4 | 19.18 | 25.990578 | 8.897778 | 47.3 | 45.666667 | 8.044444 | 20.111111 | 8.841846 | 2.040911 | 69 | 1 | 6 | 1 | 1 | 16 | 8 | 9 | 0.439 | 0.561 | 0 | -0.6908 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.406196 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.79074 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.457968 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | _quibbler_ | 2019/04/26 | Everyone would be better off without me As I'm laying bed longing to die, I know I don't have the courage to do it. Everyday, I think everyone in my life would be better off if I were gone.
My husband could be single and have fun with all his single friends without worrying about my depressed, suicidal, anxiety riddl... | 3.87126 | 5.527787 | 4.600795 | 84.697256 | 72.385827 | 7.914646 | 27.66063 | 8.548687 | 1.98529 | 511 | 19 | 100 | 9 | 10 | 164 | 76 | 127 | 0.145 | 0.649 | 0.205 | 0.8378 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 2 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 17 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 26 | 27 | 7 | 2 | 10 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 7 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 17 | 12 | 16 | 14 | 5 | 12 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 14 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 70 | 21 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086282 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100405 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.498757 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090052 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097144 | 0 | 0.117056 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.32332 | 0 | 0 | 0.106326 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103086 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.261418 | 0 | 0 | 0.108196 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.200502 | 0 | 0 | 0.061985 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15933 | 0.055102 | 0 | 0.199187 | 0.099813 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.239751 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123371 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07227 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066525 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.217446 | 0 | 0 | 0.114541 | 0 | 0.480726 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Cal1927262 | 2019/04/26 | I want to kill myself I want to kill myself, but I can’t bring myself to. I am a high school student who feels worthless. I am not good at anything, and I sit here spending all my time playing video games and wasting my life. My only redeeming factor is the potential I am on the brink of losing. Everything was set up p... | 10.501197 | 6.957949 | 10.162051 | 67.70494 | 60.067616 | 12.638111 | 46.541896 | 10.230975 | 4.857944 | 1,143 | 59 | 209 | 17 | 11 | 376 | 147 | 281 | 0.197 | 0.672 | 0.131 | -0.9739 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 30 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 8 | 7 | 21 | 4 | 1 | 10 | 0 | 26 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 43 | 43 | 17 | 2 | 8 | 11 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 8 | 12 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 6 | 2 | 3 | 10 | 12 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 3 | 43 | 9 | 38 | 36 | 5 | 31 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 14 | 17 | 1 | 4 | 9 | 160 | 51 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119557 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108764 | 0.076684 | 0 | 0.270748 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08433 | 0 | 0.133708 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.223632 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112231 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097135 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092402 | 0 | 0.098565 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110905 | 0.078349 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084731 | 0.101388 | 0.114596 | 0 | 0 | 0.091986 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07351 | 0.231746 | 0.110008 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.242668 | 0 | 0.060272 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077463 | 0.053579 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122693 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073206 | 0.111189 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110522 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081319 | 0.169169 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083409 | 0 | 0 | 0.365328 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.236486 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087214 | 0 | 0.332977 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123274 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091689 | 0 | 0.114651 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127899 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074459 | 0 | 0.107132 | 0.114171 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194059 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.239524 | 0 | 0 | 0.077907 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Ion_12 | 2019/04/26 | Got kicked out of my house because I came out to my mother that I was a cross dresser, feel absolutely horrible. Background: https://www.reddit.com/r/lgbt/comments/bhj04y/just_your_classic_mom_kicked_me_out_story_but_i/
On top of this, it’s nearing the 5th anniversary of my brother’s death, so I am a complete mess. | 12.245667 | 16.586995 | 7.939722 | 58.17625 | 56.111111 | 8.055556 | 33.472222 | 8.841846 | 3.137556 | 268 | 10 | 34 | 4 | 4 | 73 | 36 | 45 | 0.226 | 0.735 | 0.039 | -0.8643 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 8 | 2 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 23 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.27246 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.511198 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.468624 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.225994 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.357471 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.515727 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | altaccount8752 | 2019/04/26 | I was told this sub was the place to discuss suicidal thoughts. Iv thought about my situation over and over, and I don’t think I’ll ever be happy. Iv been depressed for a really long time but never had any self harm tendencies. Recently i haven’t really seen a way to be happy which is when I started thinking about just... | 5.564431 | 7.202904 | 5.857073 | 77.412114 | 68.146341 | 8.881301 | 31.95935 | 9.299571 | 3.041774 | 351 | 15 | 60 | 7 | 6 | 112 | 61 | 82 | 0.159 | 0.757 | 0.084 | -0.7717 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 11 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 13 | 19 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 1 | 5 | 2 | 10 | 7 | 0 | 13 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 42 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168266 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.234195 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120402 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.18608 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177524 | 0.296621 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150688 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152513 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155759 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.366607 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152386 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132806 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179906 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.220624 | 0 | 0.170021 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179636 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193553 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12188 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188352 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.22067 | 0 | 0.410108 | 0.100408 | 0 | 0 | 0.164539 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136679 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Myusrnmeisoriginal | 2019/04/26 | I want to end my life but I don’t have access to a method to do it Yeah I have a good life. Yeah people will cry but I’m an adult and I don’t want to live my life anymore. You can hardly call what I do living anymore because I’m pretty much mentally checked out by now. If I could find easy access to a gun I would. | -1.695951 | 0.124104 | 1.151416 | 101.254277 | 92.69863 | 3.79239 | 14.960426 | 5.033349 | -1.187452 | 243 | 5 | 63 | 1 | 9 | 84 | 45 | 73 | 0.094 | 0.646 | 0.261 | 0.899 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 10 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 14 | 4 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 1 | 7 | 11 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 39 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.414527 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127399 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.213404 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166863 | 0 | 0.229567 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185104 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191014 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175292 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187215 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.442851 | 0 | 0 | 0.369087 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.210614 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153633 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144888 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.21262 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.246537 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148462 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | choppyisdead | 2019/04/26 | Is suicide the right decision (for me)? This was an essay I wrote for myself a while ago. Maybe it'll help someone.
# Facts
# Reasoning
### Pro-Life
#### Past
##### Pain
I\*’ve had to watch people frown at me. I\*’ve felt sadness and a blankness of imagination when asked to do basic tasks at FEMA. I\*’ve comprom... | 3.632455 | 6.708453 | 4.117585 | 80.611151 | 80.228273 | 6.72151 | 27.811885 | 7.928767 | 2.307024 | 3,817 | 167 | 622 | 72 | 102 | 1,200 | 378 | 863 | 0.084 | 0.744 | 0.172 | 0.9969 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 262 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 15 | 20 | 47 | 1 | 4 | 64 | 2 | 73 | 14 | 2 | 13 | 3 | 105 | 123 | 41 | 3 | 14 | 20 | 1 | 10 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 6 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 28 | 27 | 4 | 2 | 22 | 8 | 3 | 6 | 16 | 19 | 1 | 4 | 21 | 21 | 84 | 28 | 119 | 80 | 13 | 85 | 1 | 6 | 6 | 2 | 26 | 44 | 0 | 16 | 34 | 441 | 112 | 14 | 0.405232 | 0 | 0.22597 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.051316 | 0 | 0.115937 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.040478 | 0 | 0.095277 | 0.103069 | 0.05412 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.035289 | 0 | 0.04926 | 0 | 0 | 0.102398 | 0.063201 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059469 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060081 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05671 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130237 | 0 | 0.059816 | 0 | 0.076472 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175626 | 0 | 0.055584 | 0 | 0 | 0.098483 | 0.140002 | 0 | 0.089452 | 0 | 0.120981 | 0.055534 | 0.0329 | 0.048556 | 0 | 0.063824 | 0 | 0.05732 | 0 | 0 | 0.051858 | 0 | 0.059412 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.038803 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061973 | 0.065351 | 0 | 0.060422 | 0.114894 | 0.102911 | 0 | 0 | 0.095445 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058021 | 0.102236 | 0.051231 | 0.097226 | 0.064764 | 0.126388 | 0.098432 | 0.052248 | 0.054777 | 0.154569 | 0.117383 | 0.174476 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061412 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128775 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.039228 | 0.088056 | 0.307996 | 0 | 0.06428 | 0 | 0.055263 | 0.200669 | 0.050548 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11779 | 0.062415 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057906 | 0.065892 | 0.074172 | 0.119042 | 0 | 0.062152 | 0 | 0.24719 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060392 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065071 | 0 | 0 | 0.0981 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.046231 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126645 | 0.065693 | 0.054561 | 0 | 0.043526 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076919 | 0.037094 | 0 | 0 | 0.135025 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060266 | 0 | 0.149996 | 0 | 0 | 0.136581 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05205 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.042145 | 0.05879 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | nowenhaxyn | 2019/04/26 | How much sertraline do I need for a fatal dose? Not sure how much I have with me, probs around 1900mg. Would that be enough to for sure kill me? | 0.601505 | 2.389571 | 1.381935 | 103.55957 | 82.225806 | 5.423656 | 13.55914 | 6.427356 | -1.163718 | 111 | 1 | 29 | 1 | 3 | 34 | 25 | 31 | 0.352 | 0.648 | 0 | -0.9097 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 9 | 5 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 5 | 3 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 21 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.283598 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.329172 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.352454 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.468376 | 0.236218 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.600504 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.226305 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | sjgufksjcigskzj | 2019/04/26 | I have back to back finals for 6 hours straight and I'll be leaving to take them in less than 5 hours. If I don't do well enough to get A's I'm going to kill myself I've spent hours studying but I've never had a worse semester. Because of the path I am taking B's are unacceptable. There is no way I can fix things if I ... | 0.019773 | 1.420757 | 2.511364 | 96.649545 | 82.409091 | 5.309091 | 18.954545 | 5.985473 | -0.388414 | 298 | 7 | 76 | 2 | 8 | 103 | 61 | 88 | 0.244 | 0.701 | 0.055 | -0.9477 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 18 | 4 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 8 | 2 | 9 | 14 | 3 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 50 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.290235 | 0 | 0.115045 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.390005 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206738 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098601 | 0 | 0.107256 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.557566 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.208796 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.199832 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145556 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.283794 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12538 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149801 | 0 | 0 | 0.339372 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192326 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | mxmlln10 | 2019/04/26 | Gonna kill myself soon, maybe a few days from now So this might sound dumb but i’ve never had anyone be interested in me romantically and i feel like i am cursed as i’ve worked so hard to improve myself and i just keep getting shot down and i absolutely have no idea what i’m doing wrong. I like to think i’m really good... | 1.810523 | 3.442895 | 4.057609 | 86.535261 | 77.897638 | 6.507946 | 20.206872 | 7.348243 | 0.46666 | 471 | 11 | 102 | 6 | 11 | 163 | 85 | 127 | 0.167 | 0.596 | 0.237 | 0.9234 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 12 | 3 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 11 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 21 | 22 | 14 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 12 | 7 | 11 | 14 | 2 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 4 | 1 | 4 | 10 | 65 | 18 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122567 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.199418 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193955 | 0 | 0.226095 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155255 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15856 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088632 | 0.125227 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135429 | 0 | 0.091582 | 0 | 0 | 0.147025 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157025 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197881 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155806 | 0.193932 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.256913 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176102 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.37191 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135194 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.205665 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175337 | 0 | 0.112295 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139398 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178686 | 0.148523 | 0 | 0 | 0.196223 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.203525 | 0.116455 | 0.224637 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127613 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191652 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | anonyrens | 2019/04/26 | the idea of death makes me happy, but the guilt of death is unbearable just thinking about upcoming death makes me happy, excited, and carefree. every time suicide comes to mind i literally can’t help but smile.. yet i have this horrible guilt of letting everyone down. my family wouldn’t mind for sure, but i have a cou... | 2.724266 | 3.962413 | 3.755524 | 91.291748 | 74.594406 | 7.158042 | 24.188811 | 7.686295 | 0.930069 | 536 | 16 | 121 | 7 | 11 | 173 | 87 | 143 | 0.213 | 0.592 | 0.195 | -0.7341 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 18 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 11 | 1 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 18 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 29 | 30 | 11 | 4 | 4 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 19 | 7 | 16 | 22 | 2 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 2 | 1 | 5 | 4 | 85 | 25 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135868 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174522 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104177 | 0.142673 | 0.265784 | 0.150715 | 0 | 0 | 0.148691 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121859 | 0.145816 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132294 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.335807 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105721 | 0 | 0 | 0.156659 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178055 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140195 | 0 | 0 | 0.173365 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161287 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.210568 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167323 | 0.318519 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119958 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125431 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172528 | 0 | 0.148656 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104787 | 0.303195 | 0.309932 | 0 | 0.091972 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125196 | 0.126519 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | cocteaukaraoke | 2019/04/26 | planning my suicide I wish I could let all my friends and family know what I am planning, but I am ready to leave. I might only be in my early 20s, but it feels like I have outstayed my welcome on this bitch of an Earth. I am not sad. I am not overcome with grief over myself. I am simply exhausted; the expectations tha... | 4.231818 | 5.143566 | 5.527069 | 81.262328 | 70.598746 | 9.060188 | 28.606583 | 9.33951 | 2.352441 | 1,247 | 45 | 254 | 26 | 22 | 418 | 153 | 319 | 0.172 | 0.618 | 0.21 | 0.9434 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 53 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 7 | 9 | 26 | 3 | 3 | 13 | 0 | 41 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 53 | 58 | 16 | 2 | 10 | 15 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 2 | 8 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 17 | 15 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 13 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 48 | 13 | 40 | 42 | 11 | 28 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 10 | 11 | 1 | 5 | 15 | 203 | 65 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080071 | 0 | 0.108487 | 0.121665 | 0.068089 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089134 | 0 | 0.113908 | 0 | 0.153982 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.210153 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102086 | 0 | 0 | 0.08625 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159886 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087621 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.266047 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095675 | 0 | 0 | 0.283171 | 0 | 0.151881 | 0.143061 | 0 | 0.109684 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154715 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056904 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098854 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100435 | 0.099448 | 0 | 0 | 0.214375 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110054 | 0 | 0 | 0.106019 | 0 | 0.102386 | 0.212167 | 0.097833 | 0 | 0.088414 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090368 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100591 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106218 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.228452 | 0 | 0.117477 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087427 | 0 | 0 | 0.094652 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079625 | 0 | 0.101333 | 0 | 0 | 0.104454 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109522 | 0.113622 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058385 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079476 | 0.080315 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.460562 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121665 | 0 |
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