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suicidewatch | Kal947 | 2019/04/26 | I'm pretty sure I'm going to give in soon
I'm 24, and I've reached a point where I feel totally without hope of redemption. I've made mistakes but I never thought I'd be punished forever for making them. I'm graduating college in a few weeks and since I left high school I've gone through everything alone due to soci... | 3.114658 | 4.646622 | 4.474366 | 85.346421 | 74.110619 | 7.677089 | 27.157325 | 8.3441 | 1.812475 | 1,753 | 66 | 358 | 30 | 36 | 581 | 217 | 452 | 0.218 | 0.62 | 0.162 | -0.9856 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 32 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 21 | 26 | 6 | 1 | 18 | 1 | 40 | 3 | 0 | 5 | 11 | 74 | 80 | 30 | 1 | 8 | 7 | 1 | 5 | 2 | 2 | 5 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 21 | 26 | 0 | 2 | 13 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 17 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 16 | 9 | 49 | 12 | 47 | 53 | 14 | 42 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 32 | 19 | 1 | 4 | 21 | 236 | 70 | 11 | 0 | 0.103762 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090701 | 0 | 0.070034 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059554 | 0 | 0.133989 | 0 | 0.086851 | 0 | 0 | 0.072067 | 0 | 0.081871 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073121 | 0.160155 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089424 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092643 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179239 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077565 | 0 | 0 | 0.115685 | 0.158433 | 0 | 0 | 0.078707 | 0 | 0.247674 | 0 | 0.088561 | 0 | 0.084086 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06766 | 0 | 0.274526 | 0.16802 | 0.099542 | 0 | 0 | 0.096552 | 0.096474 | 0 | 0.077442 | 0 | 0.1569 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0587 | 0.092528 | 0 | 0.086982 | 0 | 0.10105 | 0.093751 | 0 | 0 | 0.091405 | 0.173809 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.048129 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09515 | 0 | 0 | 0.085569 | 0 | 0.154661 | 0 | 0.073541 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07904 | 0.082866 | 0.058457 | 0.177575 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088426 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128755 | 0 | 0.067543 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168061 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066605 | 0.093186 | 0 | 0.097242 | 0.094835 | 0 | 0.060713 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082787 | 0 | 0 | 0.17819 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098104 | 0 | 0.087599 | 0 | 0.112206 | 0.090042 | 0.08647 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083304 | 0 | 0 | 0.088631 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144886 | 0 | 0 | 0.089272 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091552 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082538 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058181 | 0.112229 | 0 | 0.069525 | 0.051066 | 0.100655 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059458 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096451 | 0.144517 | 0.051654 | 0.069513 | 0.070247 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079023 | 0 | 0 | 0.168838 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186632 | 0 | 0 | 0.056395 |
suicidewatch | gracevenus93 | 2019/04/26 | any words of encouragement are welcomed don’t really have the energy to post my entire story. i’m feeling hopeless and just cut myself for the first time in over a year— but it doesn’t feel like enough this time. other than my partner, i have no one to talk to, and they’re feeling pretty overwhelmed by my feelings too.... | 5.097123 | 6.175349 | 5.783452 | 79.602301 | 68.726027 | 8.031781 | 28.29863 | 8.238736 | 1.894613 | 298 | 10 | 56 | 4 | 5 | 97 | 58 | 73 | 0.075 | 0.627 | 0.297 | 0.95 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 6 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 12 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 3 | 11 | 11 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 37 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.339125 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.199081 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.257639 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.504303 | 0.178131 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.212092 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16713 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.281479 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121817 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168962 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.238803 | 0.253672 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159736 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.200413 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.290789 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160569 |
suicidewatch | dietmountndewbaby | 2019/04/26 | Do i have to go to ER if i drink bleach? Idk if this is the right place for this idk where else to ask sorry.
I only drank a little bit, I do want to die but for now i just wanted to feel it burn. I wanted it to hurt. I dont think i drank enough for it to be serious but do i have to go to the ER regardless?
Sorry aga... | -0.515 | 0.353118 | 2.294762 | 99.983571 | 82.333333 | 5.752381 | 14.380952 | 6.182691 | -1.057648 | 266 | 2 | 76 | 2 | 7 | 94 | 43 | 84 | 0.217 | 0.77 | 0.012 | -0.933 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 9 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 20 | 5 | 1 | 7 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 13 | 17 | 2 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 51 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.347288 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202783 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192771 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.217689 | 0.181957 | 0 | 0 | 0.155164 | 0 | 0 | 0.191922 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093917 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.211124 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198841 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186163 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141266 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.388123 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158623 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.415847 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119016 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.328667 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.20308 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | avatarlisa | 2019/04/26 | I really want to give up I really want to give up and lose this battle it seems like no matter how hard I try I just end up in the same place that I started at I’ve tried so hard to be happy and the rare chance that I am happy I know it won’t last long because I’m just going to get depressed again today was pretty shit... | 2.242541 | 3.460166 | 3.758551 | 90.874251 | 75.782609 | 6.502415 | 21.038647 | 6.937598 | 0.318836 | 844 | 19 | 189 | 8 | 18 | 280 | 118 | 230 | 0.276 | 0.592 | 0.131 | -0.993 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 11 | 16 | 3 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 17 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 38 | 46 | 16 | 2 | 5 | 8 | 0 | 6 | 4 | 2 | 4 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 10 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 8 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 7 | 30 | 8 | 23 | 31 | 4 | 29 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 14 | 1 | 3 | 15 | 120 | 40 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10595 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095216 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175581 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101566 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185756 | 0 | 0.24808 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085036 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194182 | 0.205769 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148354 | 0 | 0.100323 | 0.276305 | 0.163694 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.204409 | 0.172012 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10821 | 0 | 0 | 0.10144 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106221 | 0 | 0.052765 | 0.078261 | 0 | 0.101661 | 0 | 0 | 0.13563 | 0.187623 | 0 | 0 | 0.084966 | 0 | 0.214822 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181694 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101852 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07119 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130118 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083832 | 0.10031 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097677 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.246026 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194335 | 0 | 0.174808 | 0.10016 | 0 | 0 | 0.079421 | 0 | 0 | 0.09787 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107476 | 0.067956 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10502 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072188 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063785 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091006 | 0.183484 | 0 | 0.130369 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169888 | 0 | 0.077014 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086634 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068203 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | 444222888221144 | 2019/04/26 | I don't quite get it. I refuse to follow his footsteps in any way, but I can see why my dad was a smoker now.
I ignored the feelings for 2 years, then another 2 years I tried solving it, and then another 2 years I learned to live with it. What else can I do to make this life worth living with how disfunctional my brai... | 4.269482 | 3.343421 | 5.807076 | 85.686578 | 70.226994 | 9.453033 | 27.927062 | 8.841846 | 1.706184 | 576 | 16 | 139 | 9 | 9 | 198 | 87 | 163 | 0.098 | 0.756 | 0.146 | 0.8363 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 8 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 13 | 5 | 2 | 3 | 2 | 24 | 23 | 13 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 6 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 24 | 3 | 24 | 20 | 5 | 20 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 6 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 100 | 32 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098257 | 0.303018 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151632 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.322595 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120702 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190867 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146116 | 0 | 0 | 0.316561 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075489 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152993 | 0 | 0 | 0.204113 | 0 | 0 | 0.255173 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122839 | 0.130407 | 0 | 0.096447 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106216 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156467 | 0 | 0.300511 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153682 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148559 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.230278 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136179 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098098 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114689 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130379 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.372184 |
suicidewatch | justlikecarmen | 2019/04/26 | Hold your own hand Just a suggestion is all.
if you’re having trouble coping or sleeping like i often do, especially with episodic suicidal thoughts, simply hold your own hand..
don’t know how or why this helps but i notice whenever i hold my hand together while laying down when i start to get deep in my thoughts, i ... | 6.393372 | 6.477002 | 6.622651 | 78.216535 | 65.627907 | 10.135814 | 33.47907 | 9.888513 | 3.101654 | 351 | 14 | 68 | 7 | 5 | 113 | 65 | 86 | 0.055 | 0.789 | 0.156 | 0.8257 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 5 | 5 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 20 | 13 | 9 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 11 | 2 | 9 | 11 | 4 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 6 | 6 | 44 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.280199 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129772 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134091 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.282733 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.304136 | 0.17203 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14105 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125388 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.259147 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.292202 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.256839 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.363322 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.280738 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.407509 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.23159 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | thratty | 2019/04/26 | Hello! I would like to end my own life title | -2.916 | -1.726767 | 0.52 | 100.24 | 115 | 2 | 5 | 3.1291 | -2.655 | 34 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 2 | 12 | 10 | 10 | 0 | 0.741 | 0.259 | 0.4199 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.622151 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.496152 | 0.343175 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.498991 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | 2012-xbox-memes | 2019/04/26 | i dont know i cant remember a time when i didn't want to die i'm 15 and a fucking failure
iv never bin happy before i smile i joke around and i do all the normal people shit but i never feel wanted im a genuine burden of to everybody around me. i struggle to live . day in and out i dont want to move because it hurts... | -0.305984 | 1.310459 | 2.838939 | 92.834206 | 84.433526 | 4.995444 | 18.268956 | 5.900189 | -0.303841 | 589 | 14 | 139 | 4 | 17 | 212 | 94 | 173 | 0.237 | 0.652 | 0.111 | -0.9758 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 14 | 4 | 2 | 9 | 0 | 10 | 12 | 4 | 0 | 5 | 30 | 24 | 11 | 1 | 5 | 5 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 10 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 18 | 6 | 18 | 21 | 3 | 20 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 12 | 7 | 4 | 2 | 10 | 84 | 26 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170262 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058295 | 0 | 0.081374 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101164 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.246694 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099249 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.224156 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161145 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.048354 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176817 | 0 | 0.091737 | 0.108698 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.2036 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102374 | 0 | 0.619783 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052556 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084443 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17262 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10164 | 0 | 0 | 0.295024 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093697 | 0.09176 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066298 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10833 | 0 | 0 | 0.152098 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.196326 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099974 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083585 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055763 | 0.109913 | 0 | 0.091379 | 0 | 0.064927 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169216 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092184 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Plzikantdoit | 2019/04/26 | I’m near the end I’m a 26 year old virgin. My first “girlfriend” cheated on me. My second wasn’t right for me so I ended it before it became to painful for us to break up.
That was over 10 years ago. Every. Single. Woman rejects me. People told me to focus on myself so I went to college. The loneliness was only exacerb... | 1.428728 | 3.594641 | 3.288344 | 88.968057 | 81.45283 | 5.737247 | 22.456324 | 6.937598 | 0.702886 | 2,020 | 67 | 418 | 24 | 54 | 676 | 237 | 530 | 0.116 | 0.77 | 0.114 | 0.3113 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 54 | 1 | 4 | 9 | 9 | 25 | 34 | 6 | 3 | 22 | 0 | 41 | 11 | 1 | 7 | 6 | 76 | 84 | 28 | 3 | 12 | 15 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 4 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 7 | 27 | 16 | 2 | 4 | 15 | 1 | 3 | 4 | 19 | 14 | 0 | 2 | 17 | 6 | 77 | 20 | 57 | 58 | 15 | 55 | 1 | 3 | 5 | 3 | 47 | 24 | 1 | 7 | 26 | 286 | 104 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0.067203 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061045 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075995 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068296 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128761 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16792 | 0 | 0.1172 | 0 | 0.072271 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07032 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.044413 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070467 | 0 | 0 | 0.121989 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062293 | 0.116045 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.259683 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.314711 | 0.058577 | 0 | 0.075508 | 0.266028 | 0.063665 | 0 | 0.066062 | 0.117414 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146618 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.046159 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067819 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061211 | 0.07619 | 0.071713 | 0.075694 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194568 | 0.033644 | 0.069022 | 0.12162 | 0 | 0.05783 | 0.077043 | 0.075175 | 0 | 0.062154 | 0 | 0.183874 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202497 | 0.102126 | 0.053114 | 0 | 0.07324 | 0 | 0 | 0.066079 | 0 | 0.072263 | 0.14668 | 0 | 0.104751 | 0.073278 | 0 | 0.076467 | 0 | 0 | 0.143229 | 0.120262 | 0 | 0 | 0.065101 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078012 | 0.117622 | 0 | 0 | 0.068947 | 0 | 0.164632 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077408 | 0.068916 | 0 | 0.291749 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.048744 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071994 | 0 | 0 | 0.078148 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166055 | 0.060192 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.045751 | 0 | 0 | 0.054672 | 0.120469 | 0 | 0 | 0.131609 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071692 | 0.082837 | 0.059478 | 0 | 0 | 0.081238 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063839 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10027 | 0 | 0 | 0.097841 | 0 | 0 | 0.133042 |
suicidewatch | Jlzbean | 2019/04/26 | Euthanasia options? Is there any way for me to hire somebody to kill me in a way that is legal? I just dont want this to have backlash on my family. The only reason I dont do it myself is because the police might investigate my family to see if they "pushed me to it" or some shit, according to a forum I read a few year... | 4.343286 | 3.759956 | 6.575 | 79.0925 | 70 | 9.857143 | 27.5 | 9.516145 | 2.160857 | 253 | 7 | 55 | 5 | 4 | 91 | 49 | 70 | 0.142 | 0.836 | 0.022 | -0.8549 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 8 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 10 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 0 | 9 | 9 | 2 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 5 | 2 | 43 | 14 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150447 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170115 | 0 | 0.134862 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.518569 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.417119 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.244763 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.234694 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168258 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.221294 | 0 | 0 | 0.227465 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176295 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.227093 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130489 | 0.35121 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142467 |
suicidewatch | teaganrice | 2019/04/26 | Best way to end it? What would be the best way to end it that would ne least stressful for my family. I'm thinking maybe overdose because they wont find my body bloody or hanging? What should I do? | 1.501098 | 3.541337 | 2.222134 | 97.387348 | 80.463415 | 5.07561 | 22.445122 | 5.985473 | 0.100995 | 155 | 5 | 35 | 1 | 4 | 48 | 32 | 41 | 0.06 | 0.7 | 0.24 | 0.8671 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 3 | 3 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 23 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143113 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.492752 | 0 | 0 | 0.260776 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.415872 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.221319 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.214575 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.235857 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.268927 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150431 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.372698 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.333547 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | sadgal448 | 2019/04/26 | i dont know what to do i feel like throughout my days i daydream about what life would be without me here. im in this hole that i am so desperately trying to get out of, but my emotions and thoughts are getting the best of me. i want to do everyone the favor of not ruining lives anymore, including mine. | 2.738095 | 4.157101 | 4.308127 | 86.617429 | 74.873016 | 7.579683 | 30.060317 | 8.238736 | 2.077752 | 239 | 11 | 51 | 4 | 5 | 80 | 48 | 63 | 0.033 | 0.748 | 0.219 | 0.9096 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 13 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 10 | 3 | 10 | 10 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 39 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.267259 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.28281 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173797 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.315837 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.303137 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.257507 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136261 | 0.192522 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.281592 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.291093 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148103 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190347 | 0.131658 | 0 | 0.237962 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.213943 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182964 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158951 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.259776 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191436 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | TheTalkingGhost | 2019/04/26 | My Birth was a Mistake No, this is not someone being poetic. I am no poet. Just a broken man of no consequence. Nothing more. Nothing less. This is a long, and frankly, horrible story. No one actually cares. You do not want to read this. I am telling you now that you do not want to read this. It will probably just make... | 3.740379 | 5.586682 | 4.81652 | 82.236321 | 73.113786 | 7.784951 | 27.996295 | 8.508392 | 2.132693 | 7,404 | 289 | 1,391 | 133 | 150 | 2,425 | 601 | 1,828 | 0.245 | 0.644 | 0.11 | -0.9998 | 8 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 238 | 3 | 17 | 14 | 23 | 69 | 130 | 24 | 5 | 86 | 2 | 168 | 20 | 1 | 18 | 16 | 230 | 256 | 97 | 6 | 37 | 42 | 19 | 9 | 9 | 10 | 10 | 17 | 8 | 2 | 19 | 97 | 68 | 0 | 9 | 33 | 5 | 7 | 22 | 44 | 59 | 3 | 23 | 118 | 24 | 257 | 71 | 236 | 114 | 44 | 225 | 1 | 14 | 5 | 2 | 161 | 82 | 1 | 18 | 128 | 1,071 | 354 | 16 | 0 | 0.068401 | 0.112674 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.025587 | 0 | 0 | 0.029896 | 0.031854 | 0.023084 | 0.048037 | 0 | 0 | 0.039259 | 0.030268 | 0 | 0 | 0.057253 | 0.1211 | 0 | 0.047507 | 0.025696 | 0.080956 | 0 | 0.08136 | 0 | 0.024101 | 0.052788 | 0.063759 | 0.073687 | 0.130085 | 0.030292 | 0.025529 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.029475 | 0.033014 | 0.05886 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.030265 | 0 | 0 | 0.06914 | 0 | 0.031707 | 0.223389 | 0 | 0.124308 | 0 | 0.059915 | 0 | 0.033082 | 0 | 0 | 0.088618 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.048227 | 0 | 0.051132 | 0.029826 | 0 | 0.114392 | 0.052221 | 0.02432 | 0.165492 | 0.077827 | 0.028236 | 0.108847 | 0 | 0.043786 | 0 | 0.055431 | 0.158103 | 0 | 0.049106 | 0 | 0.063299 | 0.200712 | 0 | 0.045243 | 0.055381 | 0.082024 | 0.121054 | 0 | 0.031824 | 0 | 0 | 0.051051 | 0.122911 | 0.077573 | 0.028499 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.038696 | 0 | 0.028954 | 0.05734 | 0.028427 | 0 | 0.030901 | 0 | 0 | 0.030128 | 0 | 0.025657 | 0.031935 | 0.030059 | 0.015864 | 0.094116 | 0 | 0.030564 | 0.156811 | 0 | 0.26505 | 0.126919 | 0 | 0 | 0.025545 | 0.02424 | 0 | 0.03151 | 0.02454 | 0.026052 | 0.081939 | 0.038536 | 0.029265 | 0 | 0.031443 | 0 | 0 | 0.029089 | 0 | 0.029146 | 0 | 0.06912 | 0 | 0.169755 | 0.042807 | 0.066788 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.028282 | 0.110788 | 0 | 0 | 0.122963 | 0.273839 | 0.109767 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.031258 | 0.05511 | 0.040023 | 0.126021 | 0 | 0 | 0.054574 | 0 | 0.027645 | 0 | 0.031122 | 0 | 0 | 0.087053 | 0 | 0 | 0.057746 | 0 | 0.036984 | 0 | 0 | 0.030991 | 0.032699 | 0.024651 | 0.10983 | 0.022955 | 0 | 0.08764 | 0.023002 | 0.026278 | 0.060226 | 0 | 0 | 0.047755 | 0 | 0 | 0.088274 | 0.171203 | 0.022222 | 0 | 0.032312 | 0 | 0.030767 | 0.023052 | 0.048265 | 0 | 0.060353 | 0 | 0 | 0.065512 | 0 | 0 | 0.043406 | 0.092803 | 0.075689 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095884 | 0.036991 | 0 | 0.045832 | 0.168316 | 0.033176 | 0 | 0 | 0.03207 | 0.019598 | 0 | 0.084592 | 0.0601 | 0 | 0.099722 | 0 | 0.023817 | 0.136204 | 0 | 0.023154 | 0 | 0.07786 | 0.053517 | 0.052093 | 0 | 0.033194 | 0 | 0 | 0.063043 | 0 | 0.058833 | 0.123031 | 0.220918 | 0 | 0.130118 |
suicidewatch | RealDemonator | 2019/04/26 | i’m not suicidal myself, but my friend plans to kill herself today and i don’t know who to go to. In a short explanation, i’m a high schooler and one of my friends fully intends to kill herself today. Me and some friends have been trying to push back her planned suicide date and it’s worked until now. She decided she... | 4.556179 | 5.083758 | 5.544125 | 82.822198 | 69.647482 | 8.479936 | 31.271783 | 8.515129 | 2.309541 | 539 | 22 | 109 | 8 | 9 | 178 | 87 | 139 | 0.154 | 0.653 | 0.193 | 0.5679 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 8 | 3 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 23 | 23 | 12 | 5 | 3 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 21 | 5 | 16 | 18 | 2 | 16 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 23 | 3 | 0 | 5 | 9 | 76 | 28 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10917 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144972 | 0 | 0.144753 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124243 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.329068 | 0 | 0.074176 | 0 | 0.242063 | 0 | 0.11355 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190325 | 0.150004 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.471222 | 0 | 0.078026 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104368 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139105 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096206 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157646 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159044 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181905 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109299 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.310595 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114114 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181943 | 0.13949 | 0 | 0.082787 | 0 | 0.269151 | 0 | 0 | 0.096392 | 0 | 0 | 0.147801 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103359 | 0 | 0 | 0.20171 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | deathisonmymind | 2019/04/26 | I just wish I could die After many years of threatening it to myself and those around me and never following thru I realized today I’m too much of a pussy/too afraid to work up the courage to actually kill myself.
But I really wish that I was dead, my friends, they’re fed up and dropping out on me like flies, my girlf... | 3.037628 | 4.192265 | 4.304856 | 87.986599 | 73.69218 | 7.538562 | 23.505306 | 8.021204 | 1.060012 | 2,270 | 61 | 492 | 33 | 45 | 748 | 250 | 601 | 0.168 | 0.662 | 0.17 | -0.8148 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 7 | 56 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 9 | 29 | 37 | 7 | 2 | 24 | 0 | 43 | 11 | 3 | 3 | 6 | 110 | 100 | 33 | 9 | 19 | 32 | 0 | 4 | 8 | 3 | 6 | 4 | 5 | 1 | 2 | 35 | 30 | 2 | 3 | 17 | 2 | 0 | 10 | 24 | 13 | 0 | 2 | 12 | 14 | 78 | 24 | 77 | 73 | 7 | 63 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 2 | 32 | 34 | 3 | 14 | 26 | 327 | 113 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0.060416 | 0 | 0 | 0.120996 | 0 | 0 | 0.061994 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126304 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086579 | 0 | 0 | 0.110227 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.047605 | 0.051693 | 0.03774 | 0.068375 | 0 | 0.069752 | 0 | 0.10951 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063218 | 0 | 0.189366 | 0 | 0.065493 | 0.05333 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148292 | 0 | 0 | 0.039927 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128507 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063356 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069641 | 0.109669 | 0.06397 | 0.069047 | 0.163565 | 0 | 0.052162 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093911 | 0.132687 | 0.059444 | 0.20346 | 0.056585 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095664 | 0.114471 | 0.097037 | 0.05939 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136403 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063538 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.207487 | 0 | 0 | 0.061491 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064618 | 0 | 0.055029 | 0.205484 | 0 | 0.102073 | 0.050465 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131188 | 0.241971 | 0 | 0 | 0.054789 | 0.103978 | 0 | 0.067583 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062768 | 0.124395 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187174 | 0.131355 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091023 | 0.091812 | 0.095498 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083904 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.042921 | 0.054058 | 0.064683 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061927 | 0 | 0.158646 | 0.063654 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052871 | 0 | 0.098467 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056361 | 0.064586 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104913 | 0.047662 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.20316 | 0 | 0.1167 | 0 | 0.046549 | 0.049761 | 0 | 0.056999 | 0 | 0.143766 | 0.082261 | 0.07934 | 0.121654 | 0.04915 | 0.036101 | 0 | 0.058684 | 0.059158 | 0 | 0.1261 | 0.067341 | 0 | 0.064451 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.051083 | 0.109549 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.284776 | 0 | 0 | 0.045072 | 0 | 0 | 0.043979 | 0 | 0 | 0.079737 |
suicidewatch | darkraixx51 | 2019/04/26 | Overwhelmed by life I’ve just been feeling so exhausted by everything I am doing. I look at my life and wonder what’s the point of it, why should I live. There’s only one thing that’s holding me on to this life and it’s Jesus. Everything else has been disappointing me over and over. I just want to be done with this all... | 2.168824 | 3.380433 | 3.611912 | 91.876103 | 75.960784 | 7.060784 | 22.553922 | 7.645422 | 0.68778 | 373 | 10 | 87 | 5 | 8 | 123 | 63 | 102 | 0.066 | 0.825 | 0.109 | 0.2913 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 10 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 18 | 20 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 3 | 12 | 3 | 15 | 13 | 2 | 6 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 64 | 25 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.207137 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206344 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168442 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.362436 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.203907 | 0.144049 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105347 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161267 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.215856 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179224 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.427266 | 0.09851 | 0 | 0.178049 | 0 | 0.169324 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.36397 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136634 | 0.153354 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190612 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133959 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118931 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181946 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.218667 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | SeaFill3 | 2019/04/26 | I was told that I can't have a satisfying gender-related surgery, and I can't change that without paying thousands upon thousands of dollars, dollars that I don't have. I was so fucking ready to get surgery later this year...but the consultation didn't go how I wanted and now I can't get over it. I have a shit of homew... | 3.962051 | 4.26407 | 5.168359 | 85.793308 | 70.880342 | 8.120342 | 31.411966 | 8.021204 | 2.024645 | 874 | 37 | 191 | 11 | 15 | 291 | 107 | 234 | 0.084 | 0.861 | 0.055 | -0.725 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 25 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 8 | 2 | 1 | 13 | 0 | 27 | 8 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 21 | 48 | 13 | 0 | 5 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 19 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 6 | 4 | 12 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 10 | 3 | 26 | 5 | 26 | 31 | 1 | 23 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 9 | 8 | 2 | 0 | 13 | 132 | 45 | 4 | 0.302403 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149951 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128661 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159951 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120722 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157973 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133919 | 0 | 0 | 0.099867 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076452 | 0.108018 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139783 | 0.315986 | 0 | 0.257794 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133707 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157453 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.320394 | 0.147739 | 0 | 0.133514 | 0.133808 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114995 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170457 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143827 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120488 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155206 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107021 | 0 | 0.12075 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113685 | 0.12153 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096884 | 0 | 0 | 0.176333 | 0 | 0 | 0.288959 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178365 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145753 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194737 |
suicidewatch | Douglas_5419 | 2019/04/26 | How do I tell my parents that I'm Depressed? I have problems waking up in the mornings, because I just can't find a reason. I want the pain of people caring about me to stop, but I still want them to care. I don't know what to do, should I tell them at all? | 1.973421 | 2.444486 | 3.630658 | 94.413355 | 75.491228 | 5.7 | 23.02193 | 3.1291 | -0.108365 | 197 | 5 | 48 | 0 | 4 | 66 | 41 | 57 | 0.192 | 0.691 | 0.116 | 0.1446 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 12 | 12 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 2 | 8 | 11 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 35 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147797 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.494394 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.208825 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.221598 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133246 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.257987 | 0 | 0.269216 | 0 | 0 | 0.168087 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.231995 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.249282 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193623 | 0.202702 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.42383 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.28601 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | caderpkaori | 2019/04/26 | Suicide Deadline In Less than a week: should i do it? So I've been debating for a while whether or not if I should kill myself. I made a scheduled suicide last year in December or so, saying if things didn't get better then I would do it. That deadline is in a week. Things have gotten better, but I still think about i... | 3.201134 | 4.675645 | 4.583231 | 84.886044 | 73.7806 | 7.495965 | 25.437373 | 8.124752 | 1.503579 | 1,679 | 55 | 339 | 26 | 34 | 558 | 190 | 433 | 0.287 | 0.633 | 0.08 | -0.9989 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 40 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 20 | 24 | 5 | 1 | 20 | 0 | 42 | 2 | 0 | 9 | 4 | 78 | 85 | 32 | 5 | 22 | 23 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 9 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 35 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 13 | 13 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 5 | 48 | 11 | 49 | 58 | 12 | 35 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 10 | 14 | 0 | 14 | 13 | 247 | 83 | 0 | 0 | 0.0902 | 0.074291 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12669 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172008 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125295 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.046407 | 0 | 0.12956 | 0 | 0 | 0.134659 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.388092 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060783 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07901 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063596 | 0 | 0 | 0.235984 | 0 | 0.050282 | 0 | 0 | 0.072744 | 0.136839 | 0 | 0.071767 | 0.085666 | 0.076986 | 0 | 0.073096 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079548 | 0 | 0.129797 | 0.127706 | 0 | 0 | 0.083864 | 0 | 0.134641 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17188 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16845 | 0 | 0.125515 | 0.062055 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077847 | 0.053772 | 0.037193 | 0 | 0.067223 | 0 | 0 | 0.085169 | 0 | 0.129444 | 0.068709 | 0.072035 | 0.15245 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07672 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080913 | 0.111927 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103174 | 0.057899 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052778 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071966 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164159 | 0.14569 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09754 | 0.156546 | 0.075168 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060541 | 0 | 0 | 0.060665 | 0 | 0.079419 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058608 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060797 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166545 | 0 | 0.07175 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101153 | 0.243901 | 0.074796 | 0 | 0.044391 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065751 | 0 | 0 | 0.269416 | 0.060427 | 0.122132 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084995 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077582 | 0.162239 | 0 | 0 | 0.049024 |
suicidewatch | aprat19 | 2019/04/26 | After years of depression I finally decided to give dating a shot again. Didn’t go well. In the title. I went on a date at a nightclub and I thought the night didn’t go that bad. I said bye and she agreed we should do it again sometime. When I got home I saw she blocked and unmatched me. Absolutely crushed and beginnin... | 1.525811 | 3.884316 | 2.581464 | 93.030034 | 82.513514 | 5.862162 | 21.862613 | 7.168622 | 0.643132 | 432 | 14 | 92 | 6 | 12 | 137 | 76 | 111 | 0.226 | 0.717 | 0.058 | -0.9647 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 15 | 18 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 2 | 14 | 1 | 17 | 9 | 0 | 21 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 9 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 62 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162645 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.204238 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.335551 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.213387 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101772 | 0.186864 | 0.221412 | 0 | 0.155794 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130566 | 0 | 0.195394 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.21264 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19749 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182801 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.207274 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.270091 | 0 | 0.203518 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185294 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.203212 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192656 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170258 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124816 | 0 | 0.154645 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132252 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175143 | 0.180576 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.250882 |
suicidewatch | Tijgerknul028 | 2019/04/26 | So ugly I can't do it anymore How much I tried my whole life I can't shake the fact of being so damn hidious. I tried everything I went to therapists, I have done plastic surgery, tried just to live with it, but how hard I try I never seem te find myself in a good place for long. I have many talents, but my looks are h... | 1.430216 | 3.251053 | 2.731202 | 94.743579 | 79.684932 | 5.832775 | 21.773719 | 6.775459 | 0.306285 | 1,082 | 32 | 248 | 11 | 27 | 349 | 147 | 292 | 0.17 | 0.62 | 0.21 | 0.8952 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 36 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 26 | 24 | 1 | 3 | 8 | 1 | 33 | 5 | 3 | 4 | 4 | 55 | 56 | 20 | 2 | 7 | 20 | 0 | 7 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 14 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 12 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 12 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 13 | 41 | 17 | 29 | 45 | 6 | 31 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 5 | 10 | 1 | 9 | 16 | 172 | 55 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061806 | 0.095303 | 0 | 0 | 0.180271 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069887 | 0.075887 | 0.055404 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09538 | 0.080382 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098217 | 0 | 0.072566 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093009 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093911 | 0 | 0.12006 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081683 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.229776 | 0.06493 | 0 | 0 | 0.083069 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.047485 | 0 | 0.051653 | 0.304927 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081417 | 0 | 0.093276 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090271 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14817 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128392 | 0.133208 | 0 | 0.080255 | 0.080432 | 0.305289 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060668 | 0.276436 | 0.182616 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133625 | 0 | 0.070098 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138247 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06301 | 0 | 0.094958 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090912 | 0 | 0.116449 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144554 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16548 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072582 | 0.075986 | 0 | 0.095015 | 0 | 0.198831 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083677 | 0 | 0.105527 | 0 | 0.17471 | 0 | 0.072154 | 0.052997 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.246825 | 0 | 0.088783 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.216426 | 0.145808 | 0 | 0 | 0.084253 | 0 | 0.101472 | 0 | 0.087612 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064564 | 0 | 0 | 0.058528 |
suicidewatch | SemiOddBeing | 2019/04/26 | My older sister has been spiraling out of control. How do I help? I'm currently in middle school and my sister is in high school. And ever since my sister has been in high school, her depression has become more and more apparent; she's failing in school, she's a loner and she's not going to school on a daily basis. Me ... | 5.254478 | 5.279926 | 6.051835 | 81.541754 | 68.036697 | 9.093013 | 27.778405 | 8.841846 | 1.930604 | 847 | 24 | 172 | 13 | 13 | 279 | 103 | 218 | 0.166 | 0.689 | 0.145 | -0.7401 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 16 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 10 | 14 | 1 | 1 | 10 | 0 | 19 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 31 | 35 | 15 | 2 | 4 | 7 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 36 | 9 | 27 | 30 | 5 | 21 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 36 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 120 | 41 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082267 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182822 | 0.110409 | 0.085067 | 0 | 0.104912 | 0.088415 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101926 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112125 | 0 | 0 | 0.109812 | 0 | 0 | 0.086104 | 0 | 0.103753 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090429 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154473 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113631 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134016 | 0.316871 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.04884 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111841 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094594 | 0.066731 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100746 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074126 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093815 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.228095 | 0 | 0 | 0.22201 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08729 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128087 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.60705 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082696 | 0.11237 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109351 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.241056 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128113 | 0 | 0.079365 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067873 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176895 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101524 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | throwaway10000057373 | 2019/04/26 | Sad. Just so sad and lonely. Got no one. | -4.753333 | -6.717044 | -1.308889 | 109.79 | 156.777778 | 1.2 | 3 | 3.1291 | -3.280067 | 29 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 3 | 10 | 8 | 9 | 0.696 | 0.304 | 0 | -0.8874 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.762972 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.646431 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | vitorcasf | 2019/04/26 | I'm tired I've tried to kill myself twice now, but i couldn't do it. I just want to dissapear and never come back but when i'm about to do it i just can't for some reason i can't, i get too scared or start feeling a sliver of hope, i just wish killing yourself was easy.
I'm in bed right now with a knife next to me and ... | -0.318921 | 0.847045 | 2.148252 | 99.945522 | 82.609756 | 4.750678 | 15.291328 | 4.475607 | -1.257412 | 671 | 8 | 181 | 1 | 18 | 231 | 101 | 205 | 0.138 | 0.662 | 0.2 | 0.9156 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 22 | 12 | 2 | 2 | 5 | 2 | 17 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 43 | 41 | 23 | 2 | 11 | 13 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 7 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 11 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 10 | 31 | 7 | 19 | 29 | 1 | 25 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 13 | 7 | 0 | 6 | 15 | 119 | 38 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127978 | 0 | 0 | 0.204411 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086912 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089364 | 0 | 0.105173 | 0 | 0.11948 | 0 | 0 | 0.196548 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113033 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146175 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110093 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.280775 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130814 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115607 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129244 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133546 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136051 | 0.228976 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085665 | 0 | 0 | 0.126939 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.282794 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13886 | 0 | 0.090272 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115349 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149684 | 0 | 0.135836 | 0 | 0 | 0.197142 | 0 | 0.135922 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122292 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131405 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109145 | 0.121572 | 0.203271 | 0.25591 | 0 | 0.203688 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180922 | 0 | 0.102065 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081892 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146893 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086771 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.226148 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146969 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | OnTheVergeOfKms2 | 2019/04/26 | Wanna kill my self don't know how to since i still want to be able to survive I want to attempt suicide. But i don't really want to die. But i don't want to live. So i wanna do something that leaves me with a big chance to live but still a chance to die. Cause if i live, i get proper help. And if i die, i die. Which is... | -0.858952 | 0.750455 | 1.632424 | 100.774192 | 86.386364 | 4.365657 | 16.59596 | 5.033349 | -0.997201 | 293 | 6 | 77 | 1 | 9 | 100 | 51 | 88 | 0.266 | 0.607 | 0.127 | -0.9651 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 18 | 14 | 10 | 6 | 8 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 11 | 0 | 12 | 12 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 48 | 15 | 0 | 0.149434 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119503 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10162 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15351 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.620357 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078073 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119516 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100163 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168693 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165327 | 0 | 0.082125 | 0 | 0 | 0.158229 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.39586 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095731 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155893 | 0 | 0 | 0.123614 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115042 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.238677 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163457 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.352561 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | jp21002000 | 2019/04/26 | I'm getting close to the end. Hi I'm John. I recently took the fitness test in the Navy. I have never failed before and I pride myself on ny ability to look good, be physically fit. I think maybe this time I may have failed. I'm 5'11 and stared out at 257. I'm now at 241.5. I've been trying so hard. As a man I feel t... | 0.239756 | 2.427654 | 2.358462 | 93.589872 | 86.807692 | 5.158974 | 19.051282 | 6.58834 | 0.073297 | 957 | 27 | 212 | 11 | 30 | 321 | 142 | 260 | 0.112 | 0.722 | 0.166 | 0.9137 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 33 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 15 | 19 | 4 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 25 | 5 | 2 | 1 | 6 | 38 | 51 | 9 | 0 | 3 | 9 | 2 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 7 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 7 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 6 | 44 | 10 | 25 | 35 | 3 | 39 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 2 | 18 | 17 | 2 | 4 | 17 | 137 | 52 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11182 | 0 | 0 | 0.092785 | 0.100373 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191887 | 0.254066 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125869 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119277 | 0 | 0 | 0.121845 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072716 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132145 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099865 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.305972 | 0 | 0.107739 | 0.202669 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057011 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104238 | 0.117817 | 0 | 0.128159 | 0.189142 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120027 | 0.202007 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100219 | 0 | 0 | 0.061966 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122505 | 0 | 0 | 0.11017 | 0 | 0.099562 | 0 | 0.094683 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101763 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113275 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113847 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173923 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108189 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085753 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078168 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072232 | 0 | 0.111329 | 0 | 0 | 0.09629 | 0.107253 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.205291 | 0 | 0 | 0.115738 | 0.279809 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126217 | 0 | 0.240357 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106268 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072247 | 0 | 0 | 0.065747 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125272 | 0.153103 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.199512 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104522 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | PhDinAnonymity | 2019/04/26 | Too much. . . In the past couple years, I've lost my Grandma, my Dad and my brother. I'm 21 and never thought my life would be ANYTHING like the way it is. I was sort of the class clown in high school, but also the overweight butt of everyone's jokes. I had many "friends" in high school, but only one of them talked to ... | 4.339286 | 4.820931 | 5.213563 | 85.163889 | 70.111111 | 7.776367 | 28.082892 | 7.623865 | 1.538608 | 1,242 | 41 | 256 | 13 | 21 | 406 | 172 | 324 | 0.161 | 0.668 | 0.171 | 0.7145 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 44 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 13 | 22 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 1 | 31 | 10 | 2 | 5 | 5 | 51 | 57 | 24 | 0 | 5 | 11 | 2 | 4 | 5 | 3 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 11 | 12 | 2 | 0 | 11 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 13 | 6 | 0 | 4 | 11 | 5 | 37 | 16 | 39 | 35 | 5 | 36 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 4 | 23 | 17 | 1 | 5 | 20 | 172 | 48 | 6 | 0.087753 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140352 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087028 | 0.061359 | 0 | 0.144427 | 0.078119 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106987 | 0 | 0 | 0.197736 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089606 | 0 | 0 | 0.090147 | 0.092831 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070064 | 0.194195 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05796 | 0.079378 | 0 | 0.083852 | 0.078867 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133112 | 0 | 0.084257 | 0 | 0.080205 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135596 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.049872 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19334 | 0 | 0 | 0.093415 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058819 | 0.278148 | 0.088024 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.048227 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123965 | 0.214359 | 0 | 0.077488 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191586 | 0 | 0.237602 | 0 | 0 | 0.177936 | 0.08816 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070044 | 0 | 0.064509 | 0 | 0.203042 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084202 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178392 | 0.200221 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167541 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094613 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056217 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.355244 | 0.069928 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07259 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074353 | 0.067557 | 0 | 0 | 0.124224 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141065 | 0.0767 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058299 | 0.056229 | 0 | 0.069666 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.051759 | 0.069654 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124675 | 0 | 0 | 0.11302 |
suicidewatch | VICARD0 | 2019/04/26 | I am too afraid to ask anywhere else Hello everyone,
This is going to be long because I have never shared all these feelings with my friends or family and I feel like it would just worry all of my loved ones.
I started studying architecture when I turned 18 as I thought it would be the best subject to study. I stud... | 4.421381 | 5.676632 | 5.358535 | 81.364188 | 70.462882 | 8.084266 | 29.380971 | 8.484439 | 2.153918 | 1,839 | 71 | 354 | 29 | 33 | 603 | 228 | 458 | 0.054 | 0.83 | 0.116 | 0.9719 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 35 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 5 | 22 | 24 | 4 | 2 | 16 | 1 | 41 | 7 | 3 | 4 | 11 | 71 | 73 | 26 | 0 | 8 | 12 | 0 | 6 | 4 | 5 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 23 | 21 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 9 | 7 | 0 | 4 | 18 | 7 | 68 | 17 | 50 | 43 | 12 | 67 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 26 | 23 | 3 | 8 | 44 | 255 | 91 | 4 | 0.156535 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069379 | 0 | 0.078374 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13025 | 0 | 0 | 0.106449 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069675 | 0.07317 | 0 | 0 | 0.060183 | 0 | 0.238556 | 0 | 0.1998 | 0 | 0.164274 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124981 | 0 | 0 | 0.100952 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065383 | 0 | 0.138644 | 0 | 0 | 0.20678 | 0 | 0.065944 | 0.074788 | 0.070342 | 0 | 0.147567 | 0 | 0.197872 | 0.167743 | 0 | 0 | 0.071535 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181408 | 0 | 0.040892 | 0 | 0.088963 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077497 | 0 | 0.083317 | 0 | 0.077273 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082694 | 0.078509 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063799 | 0.088289 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055283 | 0.15295 | 0 | 0.069112 | 0.207793 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141279 | 0.148117 | 0.052244 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062472 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12073 | 0 | 0 | 0.073449 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159108 | 0.059526 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108522 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10028 | 0 | 0.07728 | 0.16806 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078359 | 0.079211 | 0 | 0.071252 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064744 | 0 | 0.078324 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.221593 | 0.083423 | 0.125009 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100301 | 0 | 0.062136 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086958 | 0 | 0.085133 | 0.076456 | 0 | 0 | 0.067598 | 0 | 0.064579 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087383 | 0 | 0.150894 | 0 | 0 | 0.079485 | 0 | 0.111198 | 0 | 0 | 0.30241 |
suicidewatch | Illusionairy | 2019/04/26 | I wish I weren’t such a coward. I don’t know if I’ve written this exact post before, but it seems like it. I am worthless and should probably just get myself taken care of before I ruin my family more than I already have. I’m ruined already. I could have been saved, a couple years ago. But not anymore. I’m 30, enormous... | 1.970797 | 4.046112 | 3.929479 | 85.563102 | 79.061538 | 6.53201 | 25.868486 | 7.601503 | 1.469011 | 1,253 | 50 | 252 | 19 | 31 | 425 | 172 | 325 | 0.181 | 0.694 | 0.125 | -0.9714 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 46 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 14 | 18 | 2 | 1 | 11 | 0 | 28 | 8 | 3 | 2 | 6 | 44 | 62 | 15 | 1 | 8 | 9 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 11 | 10 | 1 | 3 | 6 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 16 | 10 | 0 | 3 | 12 | 5 | 36 | 8 | 37 | 46 | 6 | 27 | 1 | 5 | 4 | 2 | 25 | 13 | 0 | 4 | 12 | 160 | 47 | 4 | 0 | 0.112749 | 0.185725 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084354 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.210023 | 0 | 0.079181 | 0 | 0 | 0.064712 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188747 | 0 | 0 | 0.234926 | 0 | 0.088962 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.348053 | 0 | 0.242923 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10623 | 0 | 0 | 0.097022 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075978 | 0.105293 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098761 | 0.099422 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084284 | 0 | 0 | 0.125705 | 0 | 0 | 0.181859 | 0 | 0 | 0.089709 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080943 | 0 | 0 | 0.073521 | 0 | 0.099435 | 0 | 0.054082 | 0 | 0.152217 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101871 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094432 | 0.084583 | 0 | 0 | 0.156893 | 0.077568 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.201643 | 0.092981 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171772 | 0 | 0.06352 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111451 | 0 | 0 | 0.139907 | 0.07056 | 0.146787 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065972 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091137 | 0 | 0.102599 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102166 | 0 | 0.081266 | 0.090519 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07583 | 0.173261 | 0.099273 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097004 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089687 | 0 | 0.143097 | 0.076486 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093494 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064608 | 0 | 0.185915 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168384 | 0 | 0.076332 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10943 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096976 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06128 |
suicidewatch | hulabooper | 2019/04/26 | Should I kill myself if I've done horrible things? I'm really feeling like I should kill myself. I've done some bad things in the past year, and I can't forgive myself. I feel like an evil person. I think one good thing I can do for the world is to kill myself. I don't think a lot of people would care if I killed mysel... | 2.428167 | 3.441606 | 3.77 | 91.781667 | 75 | 6.333333 | 19.583333 | 6.427356 | -0.049042 | 292 | 5 | 66 | 2 | 6 | 96 | 51 | 80 | 0.243 | 0.61 | 0.148 | -0.8314 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 5 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 15 | 18 | 4 | 4 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 14 | 5 | 5 | 11 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 46 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151007 | 0.106468 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127136 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155246 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.311643 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153981 | 0.217558 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127714 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163004 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.67384 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148779 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129451 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10318 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145355 | 0.105562 | 0.132953 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097546 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.303477 | 0.195132 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108166 | 0 | 0 | 0.098055 |
suicidewatch | idkwhattosayanymore | 2019/04/26 | i wish i was gone been struggling with suicidal thoughts all my life, i have many reasons to be depresed but let me just focus on one.
im overweight. and i know, im trying to change but nothing ever works. ive been battling eating disorders for a long time and yknow, my body causes me so much stress. the thought of g... | 0.60386 | 2.83436 | 2.329654 | 94.152627 | 85.466165 | 4.448922 | 20.896742 | 5.683918 | -0.001892 | 497 | 16 | 106 | 3 | 15 | 163 | 87 | 133 | 0.298 | 0.608 | 0.094 | -0.9893 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 19 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 8 | 7 | 2 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 13 | 8 | 3 | 4 | 3 | 28 | 24 | 10 | 3 | 5 | 7 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 4 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 2 | 20 | 0 | 11 | 10 | 4 | 8 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 69 | 23 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152742 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14126 | 0.145467 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154229 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142713 | 0 | 0.157598 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140707 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124385 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127125 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123182 | 0 | 0.141125 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.445602 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075572 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140613 | 0.097127 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121692 | 0 | 0.153838 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091789 | 0.139413 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101085 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131944 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09318 | 0 | 0 | 0.161338 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141383 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157517 | 0.143755 | 0 | 0.150413 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.327502 | 0.080183 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.28008 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.24332 | 0 | 0 | 0.16745 | 0 | 0 | 0.124081 | 0 | 0.158129 | 0 | 0 | 0.100109 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | baboba12 | 2019/09/16 | PLEASE HELP ME WHY WONT ANYONE HELP ME I CANT STOP CRYING I NEED HELP SO BAD | -3.106471 | -3.75053 | -1.075765 | 108.831059 | 141.941176 | 1.36 | 3.4 | 3.1291 | -3.191814 | 60 | 0 | 15 | 0 | 5 | 19 | 13 | 17 | 0.142 | 0.3 | 0.557 | 0.8422 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.22446 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.268033 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.352618 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.645505 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.238027 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.352376 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.268381 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.289664 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Pr3ttyToxic | 2019/09/16 | I'm done
I wish I could just tell everyone and have them be ok with it.
I'm not sure why, but I felt like I needed to write it down somewhere, make it real not only to myself.
I'm gonna end my life sometime in the next 6 months.
I was not made for life, I'm slowly making my peace with that. I had every chance to... | 1.543333 | 2.260366 | 3.660185 | 92.865833 | 76.777778 | 6.140741 | 18.12963 | 5.985473 | -0.384004 | 372 | 5 | 90 | 2 | 8 | 128 | 66 | 108 | 0.068 | 0.764 | 0.168 | 0.8902 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 8 | 3 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 23 | 23 | 4 | 0 | 4 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 2 | 15 | 4 | 12 | 12 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 56 | 21 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148257 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139561 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166931 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12599 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.322967 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139763 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142738 | 0.132953 | 0.301568 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151512 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141357 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.334375 | 0.077093 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.298627 | 0.315996 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125954 | 0 | 0 | 0.117006 | 0 | 0 | 0.167821 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106929 | 0.240027 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17961 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156067 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148724 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137923 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093074 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142389 | 0 | 0.181461 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160811 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | throwaway308529 | 2019/09/16 | i keep thinking about my suicide attempts. my first one- i was 8 years old. i was being bullied and felt like no one cared or loved me. i remember hugging my cat so tight and saying goodbye to her and that i’ll see her when she gets to heaven. i tried to use a belt as a noose and hang myself in my closet. my mom came i... | 2.114058 | 3.388163 | 3.171881 | 94.722634 | 76.217125 | 5.887038 | 23.891908 | 6.093298 | 0.329635 | 1,198 | 37 | 278 | 7 | 26 | 384 | 165 | 327 | 0.074 | 0.747 | 0.179 | 0.9879 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 26 | 4 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 12 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 1 | 20 | 7 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 44 | 52 | 22 | 2 | 4 | 1 | 8 | 3 | 1 | 6 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 8 | 2 | 15 | 22 | 2 | 2 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 12 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 27 | 9 | 71 | 16 | 32 | 20 | 7 | 45 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 3 | 46 | 11 | 0 | 1 | 22 | 188 | 86 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0.082094 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074889 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.264853 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171802 | 0.192434 | 0.085771 | 0 | 0 | 0.072466 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184815 | 0.108508 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075606 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080773 | 0 | 0.076889 | 0.071557 | 0 | 0 | 0.38997 | 0 | 0.043952 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067283 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074392 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.253153 | 0 | 0 | 0.097069 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074774 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137147 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05942 | 0.041099 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075926 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.295579 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129765 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088275 | 0 | 0.171016 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093411 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190595 | 0 | 0 | 0.0669 | 0 | 0.085139 | 0.268148 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064764 | 0 | 0 | 0.059544 | 0.089666 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092019 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126503 | 0.067617 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053904 | 0 | 0.066786 | 0.049054 | 0 | 0.079741 | 0.241156 | 0.093466 | 0.057115 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202385 | 0.072657 | 0 | 0 | 0.049619 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077985 | 0 | 0 | 0.19348 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054174 |
suicidewatch | Justafellastrugglin | 2019/09/16 | I don't feel like I'll live long It's not necessarily even that I'm afraid I will commit suicide. It's just that I feel like my life is going to end soon at some point. It's as though nothing I'm doing will make a difference in the future, because what's the point if I die. | 2.805 | 2.869818 | 4.729194 | 88.76379 | 73.354839 | 7.490323 | 23.564516 | 7.168622 | 0.591439 | 217 | 5 | 53 | 2 | 4 | 75 | 44 | 62 | 0.215 | 0.748 | 0.037 | -0.8865 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 8 | 11 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 2 | 4 | 9 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 30 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146699 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.249758 | 0.25143 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.213146 | 0 | 0 | 0.158948 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.243361 | 0.343843 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136768 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169979 | 0.23514 | 0 | 0.2125 | 0.212969 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160637 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.230912 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.454987 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.263234 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.236439 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | throwaway-thauce | 2019/09/16 | I’m done trying to get better. I’ve had a slew of GI issues for years and I thought they were finally over when I got my gallbladder removed in January of this year. But as of July, the same feeling of nausea and pain has plagued me to this day. I don’t want to go back to the way I was before, staying out of school sin... | 3.088759 | 3.140331 | 4.495887 | 90.733333 | 72.723404 | 7.401418 | 23.468085 | 6.937598 | 0.54546 | 999 | 22 | 238 | 8 | 18 | 334 | 148 | 282 | 0.175 | 0.69 | 0.135 | -0.9558 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 22 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 13 | 14 | 1 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 27 | 9 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 43 | 50 | 23 | 1 | 7 | 8 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 7 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 14 | 15 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 4 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 14 | 7 | 34 | 8 | 41 | 29 | 4 | 34 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 13 | 0 | 3 | 17 | 159 | 48 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08199 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185417 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102594 | 0 | 0.126528 | 0.213263 | 0.131628 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137897 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103858 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096263 | 0 | 0 | 0.077756 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12513 | 0.125967 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.246764 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.213573 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135671 | 0.182887 | 0.086133 | 0 | 0.132075 | 0.220392 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09315 | 0 | 0.188974 | 0 | 0.068521 | 0 | 0.096428 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11975 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125841 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06626 | 0 | 0 | 0.127663 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058903 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080479 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092989 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081699 | 0.183393 | 0.384875 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113975 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077238 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102964 | 0 | 0.09588 | 0 | 0.12202 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099734 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128508 | 0.096285 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077254 | 0 | 0.095717 | 0 | 0.138574 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.245571 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142227 | 0.0957 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085647 | 0 | 0 | 0.155282 |
suicidewatch | dacatcameback | 2019/09/16 | please talk to me i cant stop crying i cant stop crying WHY WONYT ANYTONE HELP ME??????? | -0.566842 | 1.200025 | 1.778158 | 99.234605 | 86.368421 | 3.8 | 14.763158 | 3.1291 | -1.357653 | 65 | 1 | 16 | 0 | 2 | 22 | 13 | 19 | 0 | 0.366 | 0.634 | 0.9271 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.670463 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.204559 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.335002 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.510297 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.245296 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.275382 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | ildanick | 2019/09/16 | RAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA! FUCK! I'm full of emotion. I keep fucking up!
I feel like it was a mistake falling in love and allowing someone to fall in love with me. I feel like A: I'm not good enough and B: She would have been better off never meeting me. | 1.829229 | 4.634754 | 1.355714 | 98.065 | 89.2 | 3.657143 | 23.142857 | 5.288315 | 0.100086 | 209 | 8 | 41 | 1 | 7 | 60 | 38 | 50 | 0.168 | 0.553 | 0.279 | 0.8428 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 9 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 11 | 13 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 6 | 6 | 7 | 10 | 2 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 26 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.213738 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.271847 | 0 | 0.24971 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.244392 | 0.345299 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.446841 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202702 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.214808 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.236136 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.436234 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186391 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.204767 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171676 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Revolution9isgood | 2019/09/16 | I will attempt suicide tonight. So I'm planning to kill myself tonight. Going to try to make toxic fumes with some household chemicals. If that doesn't work, I'll just drink them and slit my wrists or something. I'll probably do it while listening to butthole surfers or Jesus lizard. If this fails, I'll update you guys... | 3.224268 | 5.692502 | 3.661159 | 87.070274 | 76.804878 | 6.539024 | 29.762195 | 7.645422 | 2.037093 | 340 | 16 | 63 | 5 | 8 | 106 | 61 | 82 | 0.148 | 0.811 | 0.042 | -0.6833 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 11 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 4 | 5 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 11 | 8 | 10 | 2 | 3 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 1 | 6 | 7 | 3 | 7 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 5 | 34 | 10 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173942 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.474927 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.213076 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.238271 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123615 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.430737 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.240642 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.230311 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145189 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.234512 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.217765 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167449 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.23792 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147674 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.316699 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | pipzy29 | 2019/09/16 | Advice anyone? I have a lot of anxiety and sometimes I can’t even get up in the morning bc I’m literally scared of being scared. I also in periods have very heavy depression and genuinely want to kill myself
2 weeks ago me and my girlfriend broke up but we decided to stay friends but last Friday I learned that she all... | 2.294295 | 4.23088 | 3.725833 | 88.079423 | 77.472222 | 7.486325 | 23.576923 | 8.384062 | 1.396853 | 556 | 18 | 118 | 11 | 13 | 183 | 93 | 144 | 0.282 | 0.63 | 0.088 | -0.9859 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 12 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 12 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 26 | 22 | 11 | 2 | 3 | 7 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 1 | 25 | 3 | 13 | 10 | 3 | 20 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 5 | 1 | 4 | 14 | 79 | 28 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142523 | 0.129288 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116637 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111575 | 0 | 0 | 0.101982 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13635 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.251242 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149256 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150703 | 0 | 0.096333 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131081 | 0 | 0 | 0.164122 | 0.073746 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112684 | 0.134836 | 0.152402 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144415 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172833 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161362 | 0 | 0 | 0.237775 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123997 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.309449 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112489 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093436 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.292044 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14425 | 0 | 0 | 0.155457 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159537 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115789 | 0.085047 | 0 | 0 | 0.278733 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120342 | 0.086026 | 0 | 0.350977 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148118 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Fcbandrew | 2019/09/16 | I can’t anymore I cant anymore. I actually can’t. I can’t go a Day without thinking her death was my fault. I feel like I should’ve done more. It’s driving me crazy, I’m gonna do it soon | -3.039048 | -1.457083 | 0.814921 | 100.67 | 103.444444 | 3.460317 | 19.761905 | 5.288315 | -0.47481 | 145 | 6 | 39 | 1 | 7 | 53 | 32 | 45 | 0.139 | 0.708 | 0.154 | 0.1396 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 12 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 9 | 1 | 1 | 9 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 22 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.324977 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.660528 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.214769 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.340793 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168384 | 0.237908 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189262 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162696 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.213384 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.321017 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | calutace | 2019/09/16 | I want to kill myself My parents are getting divorced, this is causing my focus to shift and my grades are dropping. What is the easiest most painless way to kill myself. | 6.5875 | 7.339358 | 6.50625 | 76.91375 | 65.25 | 7.65 | 37.875 | 7.168622 | 2.99395 | 136 | 7 | 22 | 1 | 2 | 43 | 24 | 32 | 0.224 | 0.619 | 0.157 | -0.701 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 6 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 18 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.353703 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179889 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.761861 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.382318 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.203084 | 0.273299 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | lilbenzie | 2019/09/16 | The urge is back I’ve struggled with suicidal thoughts my whole life. The urge always come back when I’m in a dark place. Well I’m back to a dark place. I’ve been struggling helping raise my family. I have a 2 year old son and a fiancé. I’m sick with myself even contemplating suicide with a 2 year old with so much life... | 0.877201 | 2.692887 | 2.882629 | 93.008154 | 81.440191 | 5.7111 | 19.540909 | 6.742158 | 0.085254 | 758 | 19 | 173 | 8 | 20 | 255 | 112 | 209 | 0.177 | 0.768 | 0.055 | -0.9773 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 20 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 14 | 11 | 0 | 6 | 13 | 0 | 15 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 25 | 32 | 8 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 5 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 23 | 3 | 32 | 26 | 7 | 34 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 13 | 0 | 2 | 17 | 112 | 26 | 2 | 0.205634 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171104 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.237179 | 0.085848 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1079 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104829 | 0 | 0 | 0.088568 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107422 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067909 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193853 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112631 | 0.093973 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053718 | 0 | 0.175299 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068916 | 0 | 0.103134 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10203 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056505 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105137 | 0.145245 | 0 | 0 | 0.272367 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068631 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151164 | 0 | 0.079299 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.215778 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109404 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.214843 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065867 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087805 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11557 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.235552 | 0.429946 | 0 | 0.22493 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077305 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131762 | 0 | 0.081625 | 0.059953 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092445 | 0 | 0 | 0.114791 | 0 | 0.099112 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.264842 |
suicidewatch | throwaway6372622 | 2019/09/16 | I might kill someone because school I feel like im gonna kill someone if i keep having to do the abundance of useless garbage at school. Ive thought of killing someone i hated but now were friends again but the urge is back but because burnout and just rage, boredom, and annoyance. | 7.176121 | 6.853093 | 5.934545 | 85.168485 | 64.090909 | 8.060606 | 43.787879 | 6.427356 | 3.227606 | 227 | 14 | 44 | 1 | 3 | 67 | 40 | 55 | 0.351 | 0.562 | 0.087 | -0.9501 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 9 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 11 | 6 | 3 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 5 | 2 | 4 | 7 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 26 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140527 | 0 | 0.222811 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092406 | 0.13056 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141196 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180432 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197406 | 0 | 0 | 0.162441 | 0.606572 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089285 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193874 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.369915 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.464542 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145087 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | ThatOneGirlMae | 2019/09/16 | I participated in a suicide prevention walk yesterday and it made me feel more suicidal I hoped that participating in this walk would give me hope, and help me see how much suicide impacts the lives of the people left behind. Instead, I felt miserable. Everyone was writing messages for people they've lost to suicide an... | 7.445162 | 6.906831 | 7.676407 | 73.613182 | 63.621212 | 10.57316 | 37.796537 | 9.957138 | 3.698217 | 545 | 25 | 101 | 10 | 7 | 178 | 83 | 132 | 0.198 | 0.736 | 0.067 | -0.9579 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 5 | 9 | 3 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 9 | 3 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 21 | 24 | 9 | 4 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 9 | 18 | 3 | 20 | 13 | 2 | 15 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 11 | 7 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 75 | 27 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167729 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.262918 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15481 | 0.208686 | 0 | 0.132094 | 0 | 0 | 0.117021 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071877 | 0.131975 | 0.078187 | 0.115391 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092214 | 0 | 0 | 0.273286 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075608 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149476 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121481 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150179 | 0 | 0 | 0.130177 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101133 | 0 | 0.106106 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.286132 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137612 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.21881 | 0 | 0 | 0.219259 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.601939 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080221 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097729 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | AverageAtelierGamer | 2019/09/16 | I do Weeaboo Shit to ease my regret It's been 6 or 7 years since I graduated from highschool and since that 'incident'.
I'm so stuck in the past that I spend majority of my time playing "Anime Highschool Games" and watching a lot of slice of life anime.
Whenever I try to sleep, feelings of regret and self-harm pops... | 3.057817 | 4.877345 | 3.971558 | 87.687777 | 74.909091 | 6.556643 | 24.833167 | 7.32111 | 1.079118 | 607 | 20 | 122 | 7 | 13 | 195 | 97 | 154 | 0.208 | 0.728 | 0.063 | -0.9709 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 23 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 9 | 4 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 11 | 6 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 19 | 21 | 11 | 2 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 3 | 1 | 3 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 17 | 1 | 18 | 17 | 2 | 12 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 3 | 2 | 7 | 73 | 25 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138626 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117883 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179908 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146053 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08765 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098518 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177905 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170713 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15408 | 0.191784 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.244881 | 0 | 0 | 0.153069 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147374 | 0 | 0 | 0.115711 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131839 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16548 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175437 | 0 | 0 | 0.361679 | 0 | 0.355878 | 0.28679 | 0 | 0.173473 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171446 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115165 | 0.111074 | 0 | 0 | 0.202161 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.235384 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190918 | 0 | 0.102245 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11163 |
suicidewatch | ihsegsgseg | 2019/09/16 | I'm the chosen one I've seen it, felt it. There can be no other explanation. If I die, what happens next?? I've never been this intoxicated before. No one cares about Alex, he was a nobody without friends, no one ever loved him. this music is now stuck in my head, get me out otutuutttuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuttttt | 3.623851 | 6.381251 | 8.321379 | 52.619885 | 77.103448 | 5.935632 | 20.011494 | 7.168622 | 0.490405 | 249 | 6 | 46 | 3 | 6 | 99 | 48 | 58 | 0.229 | 0.669 | 0.103 | -0.7589 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 13 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 2 | 4 | 3 | 4 | 7 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 32 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.220531 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.264237 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.268973 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.234431 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.24884 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.200231 | 0 | 0.135404 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.22918 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.265979 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.233908 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.199885 | 0 | 0.275626 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.526853 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.249827 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | anonymousrehouse | 2019/09/16 | Sometimes I go on midnight walks when the suicidal thoughts get too strong ...and fantasize that someone will stop and ask me if I'm okay and I'd just pour everything out. Even though I'd probably be creeped out if anyone approached me in the middle of the night. I live down the road to a hospital so the only people dr... | 3.96503 | 5.830438 | 4.405253 | 85.338182 | 72.555556 | 7.575758 | 27.828283 | 8.296473 | 1.941222 | 552 | 21 | 105 | 9 | 11 | 174 | 85 | 135 | 0.101 | 0.785 | 0.114 | 0.2263 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 12 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 24 | 16 | 14 | 1 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 11 | 5 | 17 | 13 | 2 | 25 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 13 | 0 | 4 | 6 | 69 | 16 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17007 | 0 | 0.131317 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114818 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153512 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.200199 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108458 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14758 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083029 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085792 | 0 | 0.093323 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180894 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144999 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148204 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165803 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154098 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111272 | 0.124888 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.341524 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.354088 | 0 | 0 | 0.165074 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105196 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.280466 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.278266 | 0 | 0.162406 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137285 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179617 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105218 | 0.161334 | 0.130363 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193708 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166761 | 0 | 0 | 0.179536 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | dwarvenbeard | 2019/09/16 | I pushed her away Sorry if this doesn’t make sense. I’m glad I didn’t go through with it, I think.
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I pushed her away tonight. She nearly fell, fell away from me like most, *that can*, do. I told her that that I was thinking about it again, thinking seriously for a change, told her I had the tablets out of the packet... | 0.534843 | 2.675178 | 1.449843 | 100.961775 | 84.870445 | 4.468976 | 17.245314 | 5.587475 | -0.802839 | 912 | 20 | 219 | 5 | 27 | 282 | 127 | 247 | 0.091 | 0.787 | 0.122 | 0.7677 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 40 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 20 | 9 | 2 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 21 | 3 | 1 | 5 | 1 | 46 | 54 | 17 | 0 | 9 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 20 | 11 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 8 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 4 | 38 | 6 | 34 | 36 | 7 | 45 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 19 | 15 | 1 | 8 | 20 | 154 | 58 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11621 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104314 | 0 | 0 | 0.33028 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123959 | 0.201878 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093558 | 0 | 0 | 0.075571 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102544 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128363 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10833 | 0 | 0.112408 | 0.332977 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129086 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104969 | 0.11569 | 0.120259 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116385 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104154 | 0 | 0 | 0.064398 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127315 | 0.119823 | 0 | 0.114495 | 0 | 0 | 0.311098 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105758 | 0 | 0.234653 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086886 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.219928 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08912 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126893 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110772 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075068 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111464 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093376 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131172 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077848 | 0.300333 | 0 | 0.093027 | 0 | 0 | 0.111072 | 0.223938 | 0 | 0.079557 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108626 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119415 | 0.08324 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | omgonenow | 2019/09/16 | Om Gone Now
To my loving family, friends, and anyone who still remains curious,
I am gone now, and I apologize for any sadness I leave behind. I know well that suicide is selfish and I have heard it said that the pain I feel now will not be erased with me, but will be transferred to my family, but I sincerely ho... | 7.691226 | 8.358513 | 7.383417 | 71.869237 | 62.863823 | 10.551478 | 34.869262 | 10.392242 | 3.739267 | 10,752 | 443 | 1,795 | 236 | 146 | 3,401 | 910 | 2,438 | 0.133 | 0.659 | 0.208 | 0.9997 | 10 | 7 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 348 | 8 | 38 | 45 | 41 | 90 | 160 | 8 | 8 | 141 | 1 | 199 | 52 | 13 | 17 | 38 | 414 | 332 | 172 | 3 | 59 | 73 | 1 | 17 | 13 | 8 | 30 | 22 | 16 | 1 | 15 | 110 | 129 | 7 | 16 | 60 | 22 | 7 | 29 | 45 | 51 | 4 | 10 | 103 | 45 | 257 | 107 | 305 | 161 | 67 | 246 | 4 | 31 | 9 | 10 | 179 | 118 | 0 | 66 | 101 | 1,336 | 367 | 47 | 0.051019 | 0 | 0 | 0.027809 | 0 | 0.024928 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05284 | 0.02815 | 0 | 0.021226 | 0 | 0 | 0.104084 | 0.026749 | 0 | 0 | 0.050597 | 0.071347 | 0 | 0.041984 | 0 | 0.023848 | 0 | 0 | 0.019615 | 0 | 0.01555 | 0 | 0.043413 | 0.028741 | 0.133853 | 0.022561 | 0 | 0.085006 | 0 | 0.028477 | 0 | 0.029176 | 0.130043 | 0 | 0 | 0.043948 | 0.026746 | 0 | 0.085833 | 0.325877 | 0.028226 | 0 | 0.065806 | 0.026299 | 0.065914 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05222 | 0.022324 | 0.078315 | 0 | 0 | 0.088749 | 0.052205 | 0 | 0.028695 | 0.067782 | 0.052716 | 0 | 0.151639 | 0.115374 | 0.236422 | 0.024375 | 0.091705 | 0.07486 | 0.096192 | 0 | 0.116085 | 0 | 0.097973 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061692 | 0.08391 | 0.039417 | 0 | 0.039983 | 0.073413 | 0.014498 | 0.064189 | 0.020402 | 0.140622 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054311 | 0.068555 | 0.025185 | 0.02618 | 0.054231 | 0 | 0.030229 | 0.051296 | 0.026952 | 0.025588 | 0.22803 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.028797 | 0 | 0 | 0.1772 | 0.068022 | 0 | 0.026564 | 0.084116 | 0.041587 | 0 | 0.027011 | 0.083149 | 0.026085 | 0.072073 | 0.162015 | 0.051135 | 0.112627 | 0.04515 | 0.042843 | 0.028539 | 0.055693 | 0 | 0.230233 | 0.024138 | 0 | 0.155176 | 0.025628 | 0.027787 | 0 | 0 | 0.10283 | 0.189431 | 0.154544 | 0 | 0 | 0.081338 | 0.037505 | 0.07566 | 0.098373 | 0.049275 | 0 | 0 | 0.024994 | 0.048954 | 0 | 0.053536 | 0 | 0.138287 | 0.116407 | 0.054288 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.024352 | 0.053055 | 0.089096 | 0.026652 | 0.028002 | 0.072344 | 0.028758 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.024409 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.027133 | 0.051033 | 0 | 0 | 0.026228 | 0 | 0.027388 | 0.028897 | 0.021785 | 0.024265 | 0.060859 | 0 | 0.051634 | 0.040656 | 0.046446 | 0.053224 | 0 | 0 | 0.021102 | 0 | 0.025528 | 0.026004 | 0.043228 | 0.098192 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122232 | 0.021327 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055807 | 0.057896 | 0.048085 | 0 | 0.01918 | 0.020504 | 0.022296 | 0 | 0 | 0.059237 | 0.016947 | 0.081727 | 0.025063 | 0.081007 | 0.089249 | 0 | 0 | 0.024375 | 0.056684 | 0.121235 | 0 | 0 | 0.053113 | 0.06137 | 0 | 0 | 0.021048 | 0.030092 | 0.080993 | 0.020462 | 0 | 0.091745 | 0.047295 | 0.046037 | 0 | 0 | 0.073771 | 0.082992 | 0.074285 | 0 | 0 | 0.126849 | 0 | 0 | 0.082137 |
suicidewatch | lostinthefought | 2019/09/16 | Developing helping hands I've posted about him before but as time goes on I worry more and more and feel ever more useless. A friend of mine whom I love with my entire being is in a state of crisis almost constantly. Every night I get tempted to go out and check on him even if he seems okay. He self harms constan... | 3.820334 | 4.244331 | 4.542457 | 89.720935 | 71.242991 | 7.422697 | 25.566088 | 7.168622 | 0.911893 | 800 | 22 | 179 | 7 | 14 | 257 | 125 | 214 | 0.2 | 0.66 | 0.141 | -0.9541 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 15 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 16 | 1 | 2 | 6 | 2 | 12 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 36 | 27 | 20 | 3 | 5 | 10 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 13 | 10 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 9 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 9 | 31 | 7 | 31 | 19 | 7 | 30 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 1 | 28 | 12 | 0 | 7 | 15 | 125 | 44 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121075 | 0.125227 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.205773 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134977 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.261323 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125486 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107091 | 0 | 0 | 0.079861 | 0.109371 | 0.101873 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183409 | 0 | 0 | 0.132452 | 0.11051 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186831 | 0 | 0.126342 | 0 | 0.068716 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124089 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081044 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119073 | 0.139515 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13377 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059071 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135268 | 0 | 0 | 0.109127 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089654 | 0 | 0 | 0.12859 | 0.3404 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163865 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115799 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206515 | 0.230028 | 0.096153 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110073 | 0.126136 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09656 | 0.101087 | 0 | 0.126402 | 0 | 0.132257 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105681 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.321311 | 0.077475 | 0 | 0 | 0.070504 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082091 | 0 | 0 | 0.125873 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109103 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131123 | 0 | 0.122791 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Shadow_Demon_Gamer | 2019/09/16 | Suicide... I hate this world honestly..... And this is why my mom she left my dad because my dad cheated on her idk how many times but but I don't even feel bad that he left her I was happy as hell when he left her and my mom now IDC about giving out her name her name is Diana and she's Mexican so am i.. and I have 3 s... | -0.436085 | 1.676831 | 1.908221 | 96.026269 | 89.641892 | 4.505105 | 18.864114 | 5.985473 | -0.232711 | 2,122 | 63 | 489 | 18 | 72 | 717 | 200 | 592 | 0.125 | 0.736 | 0.139 | 0.9161 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 91 | 5 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 28 | 30 | 12 | 2 | 10 | 0 | 47 | 12 | 2 | 10 | 1 | 86 | 90 | 54 | 7 | 9 | 19 | 15 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 3 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 18 | 38 | 2 | 2 | 6 | 3 | 3 | 6 | 24 | 19 | 1 | 1 | 15 | 13 | 112 | 11 | 60 | 63 | 6 | 59 | 1 | 2 | 5 | 5 | 77 | 20 | 5 | 8 | 30 | 327 | 130 | 4 | 0.048229 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.032797 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.04783 | 0.033723 | 0 | 0.079376 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.037085 | 0.040269 | 0.235199 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.049247 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054093 | 0 | 0 | 0.052977 | 0.062207 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.250269 | 0.050389 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094492 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063709 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130035 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.024386 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.041023 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13376 | 0.025198 | 0.138796 | 0.164457 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.042649 | 0.205362 | 0 | 0.142848 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057151 | 0 | 0 | 0.048377 | 0.047902 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053358 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.209603 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085362 | 0 | 0 | 0.052647 | 0 | 0.087057 | 0 | 0.064386 | 0.048896 | 0 | 0.052535 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.051163 | 0 | 0.621335 | 0.038496 | 0 | 0.035454 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.046277 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.03668 | 0.102638 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.04619 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.048242 | 0 | 0 | 0.198349 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183506 | 0.076707 | 0 | 0.04881 | 0.153728 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095399 | 0.053988 | 0 | 0.051405 | 0 | 0.040321 | 0 | 0 | 0.110421 | 0.105509 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.038764 | 0.084308 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084368 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098233 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116027 | 0 | 0 | 0.039794 | 0.08534 | 0.038282 | 0 | 0 | 0.043363 | 0 | 0.043519 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.031058 |
suicidewatch | K1D420 | 2019/09/16 | I will never forgive my parents for having me I’m a senior in high school right now and I’ve never not been depressed. I’ve never enjoyed being alive and I’ve always had a condition called depersonalization, which is a part of what I think is borderline personality disorder in my case.
I don’t want to deal with all t... | 7.685714 | 6.029689 | 8.333333 | 72.72 | 63.761905 | 10.304762 | 33.380952 | 8.841846 | 2.67201 | 415 | 13 | 80 | 5 | 5 | 140 | 63 | 105 | 0.232 | 0.711 | 0.057 | -0.9624 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 12 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 18 | 20 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 12 | 3 | 11 | 14 | 3 | 12 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 6 | 57 | 17 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151909 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186419 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188216 | 0.157243 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.209235 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168778 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19289 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121864 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.563221 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.405434 | 0.1977 | 0 | 0 | 0.159409 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155909 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184765 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1874 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11698 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.323045 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | ivlia-x | 2019/09/16 | You are all worth it I would like to hug every single one of you. I understand many of your problems and wish you the best in life. I wish you finding your comfort place that feels like home, your soulmate, your purpose. You are amazing and you are doing amazing, just keep on.
I have so much love and appreciation for ... | 4.61 | 5.663928 | 4.776 | 86.469 | 69.833333 | 6.871111 | 26.9 | 6.742158 | 1.057263 | 288 | 9 | 58 | 2 | 5 | 90 | 49 | 72 | 0.028 | 0.551 | 0.422 | 0.9896 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 14 | 12 | 5 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 15 | 8 | 7 | 11 | 7 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 12 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 46 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.225764 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.36251 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108775 | 0.153688 | 0 | 0 | 0.196623 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.215791 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191216 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151952 | 0.210202 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194162 | 0 | 0 | 0.218106 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158144 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145777 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.224763 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.205849 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.224426 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.223956 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.494774 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152821 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | throwawaymyyear | 2019/09/16 | everyone would be relieved, even if they didn’t want to accept it or voice it. they would be relieved if I could be sure it would look like an accident I would. that would be perfect. everyone could cry about how much they miss me without any guilt about the method. then they could go into their homes and carry on with... | 1.993997 | 4.250466 | 2.393623 | 95.658615 | 79.942249 | 5.446845 | 20.304043 | 6.574016 | 0.084912 | 1,288 | 34 | 277 | 12 | 33 | 393 | 145 | 329 | 0.074 | 0.742 | 0.184 | 0.9882 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 44 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 4 | 19 | 25 | 1 | 1 | 11 | 0 | 51 | 4 | 2 | 2 | 7 | 86 | 75 | 24 | 0 | 25 | 17 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 17 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 31 | 10 | 1 | 2 | 15 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 12 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 11 | 9 | 30 | 19 | 38 | 28 | 7 | 22 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 29 | 13 | 0 | 8 | 5 | 202 | 61 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058488 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.049736 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072533 | 0.051139 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061067 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076753 | 0.064684 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175183 | 0 | 0.160676 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071647 | 0 | 0 | 0.061097 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.241533 | 0 | 0 | 0.209658 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.221883 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066846 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.041566 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073363 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076336 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080389 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.299152 | 0.051659 | 0.035731 | 0 | 0.064582 | 0 | 0.061417 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.04882 | 0 | 0.220429 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077587 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053764 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.249739 | 0.046854 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.275724 | 0 | 0 | 0.058785 | 0.063925 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097178 | 0 | 0.071857 | 0.174189 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.049655 | 0 | 0 | 0.076139 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172553 | 0.058053 | 0 | 0 | 0.065759 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070502 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.571502 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | EthBlack | 2019/09/16 | Narcissist (35f) left a week ago, I'm (39m) completely broken Partner of ten years left a week ago with our 18 month old. She put me in the impossible position of accepting an open relationship or she would leave.
She's left and I'm a shell of what I used to be. I'm isolated, depressed, and broke. She's been seeing... | 3.888182 | 5.807902 | 4.829826 | 81.986558 | 72.884298 | 8.476364 | 25.32314 | 9.120679 | 2.054897 | 495 | 16 | 95 | 11 | 10 | 161 | 88 | 121 | 0.166 | 0.741 | 0.093 | -0.7326 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 17 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 18 | 16 | 6 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 13 | 2 | 11 | 9 | 0 | 22 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 12 | 10 | 0 | 3 | 11 | 53 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145401 | 0.263795 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164199 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101186 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132459 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156008 | 0 | 0 | 0.237601 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128157 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134593 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099734 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157552 | 0.484998 | 0 | 0.105098 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12495 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.237533 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156135 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103156 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140659 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14958 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095322 | 0 | 0 | 0.15975 | 0 | 0.12707 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11857 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162757 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118126 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.257022 | 0 | 0.245543 | 0 | 0 | 0.238708 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1057 | 0 | 0 | 0.095819 |
suicidewatch | throwerchucker | 2019/09/16 | can't do anything right tried to drink some beer to feel something and of course i got fucking sick im not even able to do the most basic things anyone else can i,m a fuckint pussy the only reason im typing here is for attention all i care about is fucking attention i don;t even care about this or anything i jst want t... | 2.524245 | 3.599608 | 4.049198 | 89.631533 | 74.849057 | 6.809434 | 28.34434 | 7.168622 | 1.375306 | 585 | 24 | 129 | 6 | 12 | 195 | 87 | 159 | 0.142 | 0.72 | 0.138 | -0.5525 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 11 | 14 | 6 | 2 | 8 | 1 | 11 | 10 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 24 | 25 | 8 | 4 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 13 | 5 | 16 | 22 | 5 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 7 | 1 | 3 | 6 | 6 | 0 | 77 | 19 | 2 | 0.095901 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067056 | 0.098262 | 0.236755 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05846 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.195555 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19906 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093947 | 0 | 0 | 0.080113 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.253367 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096981 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.531954 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076701 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.517948 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080533 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101736 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070498 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072937 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098602 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081899 | 0 | 0 | 0.192027 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073829 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.2098 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063712 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.195332 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056565 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092445 | 0 | 0 | 0.097392 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | WhatTheHeckKyle | 2019/09/16 | I fucking did it again I fucking did it again
I fucking did it again
I fucking did it again. Im a fucking idiot! I cut myself again. I PROMISED EVERYONE I WOULDN'T. I can't even keep a damn promise, I wanna stab myself. Im fucking losing it or something. I want a reason to not stab myself right now. please please plea... | -0.641915 | 1.366278 | 1.557649 | 93.839558 | 104.522388 | 2.830348 | 22.001244 | 4.778228 | 0.036444 | 256 | 11 | 50 | 1 | 12 | 85 | 32 | 67 | 0.224 | 0.517 | 0.258 | -0.2652 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 12 | 9 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 6 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 14 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 13 | 2 | 2 | 9 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 1 | 7 | 1 | 6 | 38 | 18 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090857 | 0 | 0 | 0.131444 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.763028 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092203 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.297175 | 0 | 0 | 0.122269 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153894 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.452997 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141434 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117475 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1059 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081136 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | cinnamegtea | 2019/09/16 | Today, I made an everyday checklist to encourage myself to feel better. Just last week, I was confident I was going to kill myself. I spent hours planning it out, wondering over the method and my final words.
Today, I realized in order to be better, I need to give myself a fighting chance, and to help with that, I’ve ... | 5.427263 | 5.848511 | 6.089754 | 80.048241 | 67.704663 | 9.127634 | 28.518566 | 9.075115 | 2.205843 | 771 | 24 | 149 | 13 | 12 | 252 | 124 | 193 | 0.037 | 0.733 | 0.23 | 0.9878 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 33 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 6 | 10 | 2 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 12 | 6 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 29 | 28 | 10 | 1 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 8 | 8 | 3 | 0 | 11 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 5 | 21 | 8 | 25 | 20 | 5 | 29 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 11 | 0 | 5 | 16 | 95 | 29 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119243 | 0 | 0 | 0.37181 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146927 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180749 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143392 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185114 | 0 | 0.236137 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.283423 | 0.200223 | 0 | 0.153509 | 0 | 0.119197 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073214 | 0.134429 | 0.079641 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187857 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138003 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155037 | 0 | 0.077014 | 0.114228 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136924 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132598 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148659 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14894 | 0 | 0.103907 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131506 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.298475 | 0.094958 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.255145 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105363 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089792 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.26566 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112407 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151969 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | pokemanohyeah | 2019/09/16 | I’m so lonely and I don’t want to keep going I have no purpose in living. I hear that I have a pretty good career ahead of me, but I have no social life. No friends, never been in a relationship, nothing truly visceral to look forward to. Nothing seems to help. I go to work, I go home, rinse and repeat. I’m so disguste... | -0.29963 | 1.672676 | 2.924938 | 90.122222 | 87.024691 | 5.081481 | 18.876543 | 6.427356 | 0.084121 | 286 | 8 | 63 | 3 | 9 | 103 | 53 | 81 | 0.283 | 0.596 | 0.121 | -0.9463 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 17 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 11 | 2 | 11 | 16 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 43 | 13 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190748 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166389 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.367188 | 0.180637 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.24273 | 0 | 0.144354 | 0 | 0.216027 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191425 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152117 | 0 | 0 | 0.19017 | 0 | 0.180851 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166101 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.413294 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.219102 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.23122 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.196059 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.219536 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.254054 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194332 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156787 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | lDarthNihilus | 2019/09/16 | Retired military vet You know being in the military was easy you told constantly where to be who's in charge what to do. Housing paid for food pretty much a given but what they dont prep you for is when you get out and now no one knows what's going on. I joined straight out of high school no idea on real world stuff. B... | 0.856659 | 2.280882 | 2.904003 | 94.678201 | 80.009174 | 5.873877 | 19.730565 | 6.596605 | -0.054352 | 766 | 18 | 186 | 7 | 19 | 259 | 124 | 218 | 0.179 | 0.695 | 0.127 | -0.9086 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 2 | 11 | 9 | 2 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 17 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 33 | 41 | 11 | 1 | 6 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 9 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 10 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 9 | 1 | 21 | 6 | 32 | 29 | 7 | 34 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 10 | 20 | 2 | 6 | 12 | 120 | 31 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114237 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.226279 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.214369 | 0 | 0 | 0.069544 | 0 | 0.097076 | 0 | 0.119723 | 0.100897 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123283 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.220722 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1184 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.401112 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150701 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137949 | 0 | 0.08814 | 0.105468 | 0.17881 | 0 | 0.064836 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076467 | 0.120535 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131636 | 0 | 0.128785 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101402 | 0 | 0 | 0.313484 | 0.092993 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08058 | 0.055735 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095801 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076151 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.251592 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154611 | 0.086765 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116063 | 0 | 0 | 0.133356 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129851 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115458 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121597 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119264 | 0.130597 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131121 | 0 | 0.109011 | 0 | 0.077455 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.201867 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102574 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131189 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11626 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Elizabeth-the-Owl | 2019/09/16 | I’m sorry about being myself I hate everything about myself. I feel like dead weight and a waste to my friends and my roommates.
I can’t help digging my nails into my arms. I rather die, than have to constantly think about my body and how much I hate every inch of it. | 1.222606 | 3.528739 | 2.359545 | 94.472652 | 83.363636 | 5.121212 | 18.257576 | 6.427356 | -0.135061 | 211 | 5 | 45 | 2 | 6 | 67 | 39 | 55 | 0.298 | 0.576 | 0.126 | -0.9081 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 8 | 4 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 12 | 2 | 8 | 7 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 31 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.290374 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.282497 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.271308 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.220254 | 0 | 0.234943 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132179 | 0.186755 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.201969 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.516187 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175221 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127714 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19217 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.292633 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167504 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.318334 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | crowdchatter | 2019/09/16 | Do you feel prohibited from talking about suicide online? I wrote smth on Twitter and my account was locked for "promoting self-harm and/or suicide". I didn't mention either topic so the whole things pretty annoying but that's a whole other matter. But the other day I read a comment by someone about bigwhitewall.ca (a ... | 6.989286 | 8.825141 | 6.914444 | 70.425 | 64.952381 | 9.092063 | 37.809524 | 9.444779 | 3.985324 | 573 | 30 | 87 | 11 | 9 | 182 | 86 | 126 | 0.171 | 0.766 | 0.063 | -0.9565 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 15 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 7 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 20 | 13 | 10 | 4 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 10 | 2 | 14 | 7 | 5 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 66 | 20 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099893 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078319 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14157 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164645 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167312 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085125 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156096 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135247 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157582 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154935 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147339 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161588 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131241 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.677713 | 0.175771 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.248995 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102904 | 0.099249 | 0 | 0 | 0.09032 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127803 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.345866 | 0 | 0 | 0.167975 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Umm_Sis | 2019/09/16 | I really should just die I’m so lost and numb and all I’m doing is waiting to kill myself in a hotel room. Dying with my friends not even knowing I’m not just “taking a bath”. I’m really sorry to the one person that actually cares about me. He’s always trying to get me to see the good but I just can’t. I’m sorry man. I... | -0.89711 | 0.75015 | 2.875438 | 91.5903 | 86.792208 | 5.408442 | 14.819805 | 6.627428 | -0.471025 | 257 | 4 | 62 | 3 | 8 | 96 | 52 | 77 | 0.167 | 0.751 | 0.082 | -0.6424 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 13 | 18 | 4 | 3 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 7 | 3 | 7 | 16 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 38 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.211659 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180475 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.22114 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.450207 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143258 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167573 | 0 | 0.113319 | 0 | 0 | 0.181922 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.239963 | 0 | 0.1192 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.236767 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146974 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189385 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.277898 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172838 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.485594 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163079 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147258 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | dilvinrskl | 2019/09/16 | It hasn't ever been this dark. I used to think of darkness as something else entirely.
Now that it's coming over me, I realize I knew nothing of it.
I want at least some people to know that I existed, too sensitive to handle all that hits the eye, the guts, the heart. Still I managed to exist for all these years. I ... | 1.785019 | 3.678226 | 3.549549 | 88.951842 | 78.868421 | 6.974436 | 22.699248 | 7.957252 | 1.124656 | 287 | 9 | 61 | 5 | 7 | 96 | 55 | 76 | 0.064 | 0.899 | 0.037 | 0.0284 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 3 | 1 | 3 | 14 | 13 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 11 | 9 | 4 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 46 | 18 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.274025 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.265742 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.28775 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.18079 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.376964 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174826 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.305237 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.220539 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.244898 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.254045 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.203833 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.274746 | 0 | 0 | 0.375261 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.204854 |
suicidewatch | gfftddtr | 2019/09/16 | Next week I'll commit suicide I'm a 35 years old hiv+ gay man who will soon be evicted and lose his job.
I owe 3 000 to my landlord and my bank and got no family or friends who can lend me some money.
I wanted to thank this community cause it was a fun one to take part and read every day.
Thank you all. | 1.647206 | 2.343734 | 3.596353 | 93.501588 | 76.5 | 6.616471 | 20.952941 | 6.742158 | 0.084508 | 235 | 5 | 59 | 2 | 5 | 80 | 56 | 68 | 0.124 | 0.697 | 0.179 | 0.4939 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 10 | 11 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 7 | 4 | 3 | 7 | 3 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 31 | 11 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.242363 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152154 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19878 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.222412 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182277 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188693 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.234122 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.263943 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.250912 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.247567 | 0 | 0.159871 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.255487 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.235992 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.258067 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177388 | 0 | 0 | 0.434422 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139156 | 0 | 0.189247 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15193 |
suicidewatch | geyblades | 2019/09/16 | I don’t wanna live like this anymore Idk what to do anymore because I can’t live normally and I can’t see myself ever being able to. I’m pretty sure I was sexually abused by a family member as a kid, I have vague memories of it happening at least once, and I know I stopped talking for like 7 years until grade 6. Not ta... | 2.894437 | 4.329391 | 4.672183 | 84.10026 | 74.498282 | 7.672553 | 26.397878 | 8.321377 | 1.735839 | 1,112 | 40 | 227 | 19 | 23 | 378 | 154 | 291 | 0.165 | 0.729 | 0.106 | -0.9541 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 19 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 16 | 20 | 3 | 4 | 12 | 0 | 26 | 6 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 44 | 49 | 20 | 1 | 3 | 9 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 10 | 16 | 2 | 4 | 6 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 12 | 11 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 5 | 32 | 9 | 37 | 36 | 3 | 32 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 1 | 10 | 14 | 2 | 3 | 18 | 155 | 42 | 3 | 0.200046 | 0.118511 | 0.097608 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068019 | 0 | 0.076517 | 0 | 0.297588 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089042 | 0 | 0.113791 | 0 | 0.076912 | 0 | 0.18292 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088462 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102751 | 0 | 0 | 0.104872 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08615 | 0 | 0.103808 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115995 | 0.204697 | 0 | 0 | 0.088591 | 0.103351 | 0 | 0.066064 | 0.180953 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094293 | 0 | 0.101149 | 0.071457 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077278 | 0 | 0.104516 | 0 | 0.113691 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08845 | 0 | 0.089601 | 0 | 0 | 0.10632 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112914 | 0 | 0 | 0.099258 | 0.266716 | 0 | 0 | 0.05497 | 0.081532 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.195465 | 0 | 0.353289 | 0.088517 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1008 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079838 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077144 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098001 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106521 | 0.067778 | 0 | 0 | 0.117356 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10176 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064077 | 0 | 0 | 0.107387 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100141 | 0 | 0.159411 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102672 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101961 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083624 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094271 | 0 | 0 | 0.241185 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158814 | 0.058324 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058996 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092723 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064412 |
suicidewatch | MrFluffSheep | 2019/09/16 | Please help. My big brother tried to take suicide two years ago, now he's... different. He has'nt been the same and I don't know what to do! I'm afraid that he might try again and that I won't be around to help him, I'm only thirteen so noone listens! What do I do!? | -0.111667 | 1.717921 | 1.404138 | 102.212989 | 85.034483 | 4.556322 | 18.287356 | 5.461319 | -0.738733 | 203 | 5 | 52 | 1 | 6 | 65 | 41 | 58 | 0.076 | 0.779 | 0.145 | 0.4724 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 13 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 4 | 9 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 29 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.24921 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.25027 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.293727 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.376879 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154505 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.29824 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.213816 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.308603 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.307517 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.211379 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.381745 | 0 | 0.274629 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181042 |
suicidewatch | prozaczodiac | 2019/09/16 | Mental Health in the U.S. is a joke I called my insurance company to get some referrals to a therapist for the umpteenth time. After an hour on the phone of me pouring my guts out and reliving my trauma, I get some referrals and half of the numbers didn't even work, so I called back five minutes later to get some more ... | 6.863079 | 5.860977 | 6.557905 | 82.678317 | 65 | 10.292063 | 31.444444 | 9.444779 | 2.439368 | 690 | 21 | 145 | 11 | 9 | 216 | 103 | 175 | 0.088 | 0.856 | 0.056 | -0.8934 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 7 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 14 | 0 | 11 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 26 | 24 | 8 | 1 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 4 | 8 | 1 | 19 | 3 | 30 | 13 | 11 | 22 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 16 | 11 | 0 | 6 | 9 | 111 | 27 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.334756 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12274 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.325984 | 0 | 0.162745 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141378 | 0 | 0 | 0.105429 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.333584 | 0 | 0.090717 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169671 | 0 | 0 | 0.213983 | 0 | 0 | 0.158541 | 0.314391 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176598 | 0 | 0.087724 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160862 | 0.169334 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117341 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108164 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139376 | 0 | 0 | 0.150895 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178813 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185334 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093077 | 0 | 0 | 0.305052 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188299 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116207 | 0 | 0 | 0.113391 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | hackedbywack | 2019/09/16 | I just wanna die I know there's no way out of this. I literally wanna kill myself. | -1.683333 | 0.17412 | 2.483333 | 87.945 | 103.444444 | 4.622222 | 11.555556 | 6.427356 | -0.619578 | 64 | 1 | 14 | 1 | 3 | 24 | 15 | 18 | 0.495 | 0.505 | 0 | -0.8957 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.577184 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.615285 | 0 | 0.305639 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.441437 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | throwaway29745 | 2019/09/16 | I want to die I want to die, I have no friends, nobody to talk to, everyone says “just cheer up”, they admit I’m a disappointment I live in a place where I am afraid to go outside because I’m being bullied, I just want to end it all but like most things, I’m incapable of doing that | 1.425246 | 2.690856 | 3.676197 | 90.435607 | 78.016393 | 6.847213 | 23.67541 | 7.554174 | 0.870906 | 217 | 7 | 51 | 3 | 5 | 75 | 41 | 61 | 0.233 | 0.575 | 0.191 | -0.6903 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 12 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 3 | 9 | 11 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 32 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161437 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.549701 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.23456 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.253055 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.204606 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150508 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129382 | 0 | 0.233849 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.27669 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.210603 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.21286 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175941 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.468609 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Genreic-Username | 2019/09/16 | Does anyone else feel like they're procrastinating killing themselves by having an unrealistic method of death? So I've always had this go to plan of overdosing on heroin, not because I'm an addict (or user for that matter) but it just seems like a peaceful and painless way to die. It's like a fantasy at this point, go... | 4.52311 | 5.077169 | 5.563974 | 82.556204 | 69.731707 | 8.10122 | 25.944106 | 8.076483 | 1.351879 | 477 | 13 | 100 | 6 | 8 | 158 | 73 | 123 | 0.128 | 0.659 | 0.213 | 0.8959 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 7 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 22 | 18 | 8 | 4 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 5 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 6 | 6 | 15 | 16 | 1 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 10 | 56 | 14 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151784 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115853 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194709 | 0.285321 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107061 | 0 | 0.084875 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144501 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.243687 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.232622 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.352001 | 0.397871 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072743 | 0 | 0.237387 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15404 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.408132 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102352 | 0 | 0.107385 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13162 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137475 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126752 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139333 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120252 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.221033 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | ThePathIChose | 2019/09/16 | The dress I don't know why I sat and sobbed in front of my closet. I don't know why I needed to know that I would be found in clothes and not in my housecoat but it's picked out, I am wearing it. The dress I am going to die in. I have fought my whole life for a strand of normalcy and belonging, what I've consistently f... | 1.000322 | 2.320365 | 3.088322 | 93.970315 | 79.307692 | 6.881119 | 20.27972 | 7.686295 | 0.398 | 456 | 11 | 113 | 7 | 11 | 155 | 76 | 130 | 0.168 | 0.761 | 0.071 | -0.8919 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 15 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 22 | 31 | 7 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 8 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 16 | 1 | 13 | 23 | 5 | 11 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 73 | 24 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.199348 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.199761 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16079 | 0 | 0 | 0.19888 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.36784 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097322 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.422082 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109389 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.317341 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135952 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141493 | 0.142719 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168063 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153379 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.215462 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123331 | 0 | 0 | 0.112235 | 0.221224 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.347361 | 0.214894 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13673 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | KillmongerOTM | 2019/09/16 | Was I born to suffer? After my college graduation, I thought my life was going to change for better. But that didn't turn out to be true. Every job I applied to rejected me, even the most simple jobs that needed minimal experience. Rejection is the worst feeling to me, and it makes me go ballistic everytime and I don't... | 4.059649 | 5.629473 | 5.443545 | 79.189498 | 71.759197 | 8.477592 | 29.220736 | 9.025189 | 2.505389 | 2,411 | 97 | 454 | 49 | 46 | 809 | 267 | 598 | 0.152 | 0.738 | 0.11 | -0.9755 | 8 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 68 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 5 | 20 | 34 | 6 | 0 | 25 | 0 | 42 | 14 | 3 | 9 | 4 | 89 | 86 | 34 | 3 | 14 | 18 | 6 | 6 | 2 | 5 | 3 | 8 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 22 | 27 | 3 | 2 | 13 | 2 | 4 | 8 | 17 | 17 | 2 | 2 | 13 | 9 | 87 | 17 | 81 | 64 | 14 | 56 | 0 | 9 | 1 | 1 | 29 | 32 | 3 | 11 | 17 | 320 | 109 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 0.060043 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102393 | 0 | 0 | 0.083683 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183059 | 0.043022 | 0.063043 | 0 | 0.054773 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141934 | 0.051374 | 0.225043 | 0.067953 | 0.052356 | 0 | 0 | 0.054417 | 0.067173 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062827 | 0 | 0.062732 | 0.063207 | 0.065089 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069009 | 0.098251 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063433 | 0 | 0 | 0.127713 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062959 | 0.051399 | 0 | 0.054496 | 0 | 0 | 0.162555 | 0 | 0.155521 | 0.058793 | 0 | 0.120373 | 0.116007 | 0 | 0.155553 | 0.087912 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0744 | 0 | 0.190147 | 0 | 0.064292 | 0 | 0.139872 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054409 | 0 | 0.055117 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.041241 | 0 | 0.185154 | 0 | 0 | 0.070995 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.305287 | 0 | 0.068072 | 0 | 0.101443 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066851 | 0 | 0.347674 | 0.060119 | 0.061668 | 0.108661 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123212 | 0 | 0 | 0.067022 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130544 | 0.062126 | 0 | 0.049111 | 0 | 0 | 0.091245 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059038 | 0 | 0.064564 | 0 | 0.083386 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06832 | 0.066629 | 0 | 0.085312 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058164 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061853 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063261 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052545 | 0 | 0.04893 | 0 | 0 | 0.04903 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063158 | 0 | 0.06916 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.047368 | 0.243412 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05144 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092523 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081753 | 0.039425 | 0.060451 | 0.048847 | 0.107633 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.041774 | 0.13385 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145164 | 0.048838 | 0 | 0 | 0.110643 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.212264 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | rody105 | 2019/09/16 | Hey guys So I posted here a while ago and deleted it but I just thought I’d share some thoughts. So some people have been seriously concerned about my well being and long story short I’ve come to grips with the fact I can’t deal with this alone. I hurt everybody that cared about my even my girlfriend who left me. But I... | 2.703941 | 4.189078 | 3.498522 | 92.116552 | 75.091954 | 6.810509 | 22.773399 | 7.44753 | 0.653057 | 331 | 9 | 74 | 4 | 7 | 105 | 65 | 87 | 0.115 | 0.712 | 0.173 | 0.7525 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 16 | 14 | 8 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 12 | 4 | 8 | 10 | 3 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 48 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.195635 | 0 | 0 | 0.228576 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.225016 | 0 | 0 | 0.190111 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.227529 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145768 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.241763 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115305 | 0 | 0.125427 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.218525 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147929 | 0 | 0 | 0.219202 | 0 | 0 | 0.236261 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.233687 | 0.239788 | 0 | 0.155885 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19531 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163644 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.238994 | 0 | 0.153004 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.211367 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.350418 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198433 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Gavin-Sangria | 2019/09/16 | What is the easiest way to die? I feel like I’m just trudging through life. I’m only 22 years old but I feel like I’ve seen and done enough. Experienced enough of life and there is no desire to continue.
I wake up every morning and just lie on my bed or play video games. I have finished college recently.
So I will ge... | -0.342933 | 1.711927 | 1.7825 | 97.627885 | 88.196429 | 4.874725 | 18.436813 | 6.297961 | -0.272454 | 399 | 11 | 96 | 4 | 13 | 133 | 76 | 112 | 0.148 | 0.678 | 0.175 | 0.327 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 12 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 14 | 19 | 10 | 2 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 11 | 5 | 12 | 11 | 3 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 13 | 56 | 13 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168017 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144163 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.351659 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173374 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.350109 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142742 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171326 | 0.242065 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156624 | 0.088514 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168122 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.358995 | 0.248308 | 0 | 0.149599 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162561 | 0 | 0.355552 | 0 | 0 | 0.12885 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16728 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134476 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123339 | 0 | 0 | 0.12035 | 0 | 0 | 0.2182 |
suicidewatch | Meereslilie | 2019/09/16 | there is no hope for me at all My boyfriend of almost eight years isn't sure when he wants to have children. I always wanted to be a young mom. Everyone tells me to wait or to split up but I can't do that. I know it sounds so weird and I get why nobody understands how I feel but I do feel that way. It tears me apart, m... | 0.064208 | 1.882531 | 2.004571 | 98.220664 | 84.294118 | 5.006361 | 16.259218 | 6.059677 | -0.730042 | 658 | 12 | 163 | 5 | 19 | 218 | 107 | 187 | 0.152 | 0.797 | 0.051 | -0.9476 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 9 | 9 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 15 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 35 | 42 | 18 | 0 | 6 | 7 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 6 | 0 | 4 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 4 | 28 | 5 | 17 | 36 | 3 | 20 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 17 | 5 | 0 | 6 | 10 | 97 | 37 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141512 | 0 | 0 | 0.145012 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120498 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143618 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135383 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088278 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128078 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149299 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095649 | 0 | 0 | 0.138378 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146446 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07566 | 0 | 0.082302 | 0 | 0.115822 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.285951 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143835 | 0 | 0 | 0.155028 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079587 | 0 | 0.163358 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128157 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096666 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169606 | 0 | 0 | 0.106456 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1359 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154224 | 0 | 0.220278 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123672 | 0 | 0.115163 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102501 | 0.154354 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.409461 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126575 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185584 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138378 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150758 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.256248 | 0.229896 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130674 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093257 |
suicidewatch | rainbowkittykat | 2019/09/16 | Fiancé suicidal after too many philosophy videos (Alan Watts) I don’t know much about philosophy. He’s talked to me about it before and it made me feel like I was going to have an existential crisis so that was the end of that. But my fiancé watches these philosophy videos every day, specifically Alan Watts. I left for... | 2.864533 | 4.358576 | 3.838333 | 89.8075 | 74.688889 | 6.866667 | 23.166667 | 7.492282 | 0.798267 | 1,724 | 48 | 372 | 21 | 36 | 555 | 181 | 450 | 0.126 | 0.824 | 0.05 | -0.9873 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 34 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 12 | 16 | 0 | 6 | 9 | 0 | 42 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 3 | 76 | 93 | 28 | 2 | 9 | 12 | 3 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 32 | 24 | 0 | 0 | 18 | 7 | 0 | 8 | 16 | 9 | 0 | 2 | 24 | 16 | 50 | 7 | 36 | 63 | 9 | 35 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 68 | 9 | 0 | 7 | 16 | 218 | 82 | 0 | 0 | 0.172326 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064463 | 0 | 0 | 0.150635 | 0 | 0 | 0.06051 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07212 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060719 | 0.177321 | 0 | 0.123761 | 0 | 0 | 0.128632 | 0.079393 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074256 | 0.083174 | 0 | 0.074705 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078586 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140698 | 0 | 0 | 0.073811 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063639 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060749 | 0 | 0.064409 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122542 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.18385 | 0.103904 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075988 | 0 | 0.165317 | 0 | 0 | 0.080175 | 0.080111 | 0 | 0.064307 | 0 | 0.065144 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146231 | 0 | 0.145891 | 0.072229 | 0.071616 | 0 | 0.07785 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.239794 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079012 | 0 | 0 | 0.071056 | 0.072886 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137621 | 0.048542 | 0.073728 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106917 | 0.107844 | 0.056087 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069778 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.049278 | 0.055308 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069421 | 0.050416 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069647 | 0.073984 | 0 | 0 | 0.085007 | 0 | 0.081464 | 0 | 0 | 0.082773 | 0.093174 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.207524 | 0.057831 | 0.364033 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060156 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123233 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102945 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083248 | 0.15909 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116901 | 0.063562 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144938 | 0.13979 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138976 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.227116 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128679 | 0.173168 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067413 | 0.06562 | 0 | 0.083626 | 0.070101 | 0 | 0 | 0.073852 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | throwawayacct_14702 | 2019/09/16 | Yep Been especially loving life for the past month yep yep yep more than normal yep i love myself and the countless gifts and people i have yep wow this is the dream my entire life cant wait yep | -0.203857 | 1.952841 | 1.093571 | 97.4 | 102.5 | 3.285714 | 10.714286 | 5.288315 | -1.485071 | 156 | 2 | 33 | 1 | 7 | 49 | 29 | 40 | 0 | 0.468 | 0.532 | 0.979 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 7 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 7 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 2 | 6 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 17 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.492036 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.628717 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.278014 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.341265 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.332496 | 0.241471 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | zqsn | 2019/09/16 | the easiest way to quit this? for whatever reason I'm not allowed to death in the title, but as the title says.
What is the easiest / least uncomfortable way to do this? | 2.91 | 5.028847 | 5.148485 | 77.742727 | 76.272727 | 9.248485 | 26.151515 | 9.725611 | 2.797533 | 132 | 5 | 25 | 4 | 3 | 46 | 24 | 33 | 0 | 0.721 | 0.279 | 0.8692 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 3 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 18 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.460231 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.444889 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.344102 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.686917 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | yk890319 | 2019/09/16 | I feel so alone. And I want to be dead I have posted here before and on some other subreddit. It helped me sometimes. But sometimes not.. I can't stop hurting myself when I get upset with something and someone. I'm not good at controlling my feelings. Because I'm an immature.
I'm a mother actually. But I'm a bad moth... | -0.957197 | 1.144944 | 2.109394 | 93.000758 | 94.227273 | 4.448485 | 16.424242 | 6.139982 | -0.313185 | 471 | 12 | 104 | 5 | 18 | 166 | 74 | 132 | 0.186 | 0.768 | 0.046 | -0.9336 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 21 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 1 | 8 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 19 | 22 | 11 | 2 | 2 | 5 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 20 | 1 | 10 | 20 | 1 | 13 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 66 | 26 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170725 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.362388 | 0 | 0 | 0.145571 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122328 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146075 | 0.106647 | 0 | 0.148868 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19622 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.265378 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182807 | 0 | 0.099427 | 0.146739 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15672 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117264 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.374572 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185245 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177371 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167552 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112077 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148233 | 0.134684 | 0.346057 | 0.195841 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146265 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165831 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206379 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | CesarTheLord | 2019/09/16 | I don't want to live anymore I've been depressed for quite a while and almost killed myself a few times, but this time I hurt so much more than before. everything I did is worthless I'm failing everything I do and got friend zoned by the only person who makes me smile now I'm just sitting here thinking about what I can... | 4.293382 | 5.037792 | 5.481838 | 82.254522 | 70.344538 | 8.97521 | 29.160714 | 9.188382 | 2.345377 | 462 | 17 | 94 | 9 | 8 | 154 | 80 | 119 | 0.202 | 0.709 | 0.088 | -0.9234 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 8 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 22 | 20 | 10 | 1 | 4 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 13 | 2 | 13 | 15 | 5 | 12 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 7 | 65 | 17 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160165 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158625 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136104 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127706 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137763 | 0 | 0 | 0.167112 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152837 | 0.431253 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123575 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090902 | 0 | 0.127925 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171228 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176959 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141237 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.213533 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11758 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121648 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13966 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170124 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160136 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.271047 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133724 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.385681 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185712 | 0 | 0.102488 | 0 | 0 | 0.186534 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188683 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183932 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | InSilenceEnshrined | 2019/09/16 | I want to die but I stay alive for the family’s sake. I know they love me (even if I don’t “feel” like it) and I know what my death would mean to them. I can’t stand being alive; I’m unbearably miserable and I want peace but I know what killing myself would do the people I love. | -0.744332 | 1.153666 | 1.377189 | 100.964355 | 88.354839 | 5.478341 | 13.695853 | 6.86897 | -0.783763 | 214 | 3 | 56 | 3 | 7 | 71 | 40 | 62 | 0.216 | 0.439 | 0.344 | 0.8689 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 14 | 16 | 5 | 3 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 14 | 3 | 3 | 13 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 34 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.253051 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161044 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.229856 | 0 | 0.123285 | 0.174188 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.269756 | 0 | 0.401999 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11912 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.440122 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.265596 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169037 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.259885 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.287628 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.346412 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | idontknowwhattodo0o0 | 2019/09/16 | I just want to go to sleep and never wake up again is that so much to ask..? T\_T I'm really really tired... | -2.73 | -1.132514 | 1.008333 | 98.52 | 105.666667 | 5.733333 | 6 | 7.168622 | -1.12055 | 80 | 0 | 21 | 2 | 4 | 29 | 20 | 24 | 0 | 0.942 | 0.058 | 0.0772 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 13 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.362684 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.220483 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.285191 | 0 | 0.299214 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.497066 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.388234 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.445896 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.228825 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | ay_baybay90 | 2019/09/16 | I’m still receiving bills from my suicide attempt I have insurance, I didn’t ask for this hospital stay it was court ordered. And yet the bills have been rolling for months. Be advised if you plan to call for “help.” | 2.996429 | 5.320753 | 3.114524 | 91.434643 | 76.857143 | 7.057143 | 29.547619 | 8.076483 | 2.008219 | 171 | 8 | 35 | 3 | 4 | 52 | 36 | 42 | 0.104 | 0.833 | 0.062 | -0.4215 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 22 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.382508 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.417796 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.27425 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.326586 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.436108 | 0.326754 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.447553 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | fallorun | 2019/09/16 | I have an objectively good life So why do I want to die so badly? Why does everything hurt so much? Why can things never get better? Why do I constantly delude myself into thinking I can do or be better? I'm the same fuck-up I've always been so why do I ever try? I can't even be honest about my sadness to the people th... | 0.794424 | 2.994207 | 2.931667 | 90.370833 | 84.272727 | 5.606061 | 18.863636 | 6.937598 | 0.257364 | 618 | 16 | 131 | 8 | 18 | 209 | 98 | 165 | 0.102 | 0.716 | 0.182 | 0.9395 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 10 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 18 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 20 | 36 | 7 | 1 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 15 | 10 | 16 | 32 | 4 | 14 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 4 | 7 | 86 | 25 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091265 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09158 | 0.066861 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.291015 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116029 | 0 | 0 | 0.118528 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113833 | 0.114595 | 0 | 0 | 0.095984 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097146 | 0.113331 | 0 | 0.072444 | 0.099214 | 0 | 0 | 0.098575 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202799 | 0.057305 | 0.105217 | 0.062335 | 0.091996 | 0 | 0 | 0.120828 | 0 | 0 | 0.116759 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.217879 | 0 | 0 | 0.117417 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097491 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077472 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197985 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080629 | 0 | 0.169188 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083418 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15208 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185867 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087592 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.218604 | 0.07028 | 0 | 0 | 0.063957 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148934 | 0 | 0 | 0.114183 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064694 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.593828 | 0 | 0.126129 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | cursedhightops | 2019/09/16 | Hello everyone I’ve never been /this/ suicidal before. When I was younger I thought about wanting to die but I never went into thinking of details about how, where and when I want to die. I’m scared that I’m being so thorough with my plans that I’ve been trying to reach out to my girlfriend mostly but she really doesn’... | 2.848814 | 3.71918 | 4.568 | 87.010333 | 73.807692 | 6.892821 | 24.924359 | 7.031649 | 0.966343 | 766 | 23 | 163 | 7 | 15 | 260 | 114 | 208 | 0.156 | 0.711 | 0.133 | -0.8845 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 14 | 11 | 3 | 3 | 7 | 0 | 17 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 34 | 38 | 18 | 3 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 10 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 7 | 4 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 1 | 17 | 4 | 31 | 29 | 4 | 30 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 9 | 1 | 4 | 14 | 109 | 28 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151261 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16102 | 0 | 0.108834 | 0 | 0.08628 | 0 | 0.120439 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.293789 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144843 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135246 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071566 | 0.101115 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171149 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073948 | 0 | 0.402197 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15067 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163316 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077786 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069148 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.218326 | 0 | 0.150528 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.215292 | 0 | 0.166065 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098125 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181346 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141704 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145287 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162132 | 0 | 0 | 0.15482 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113763 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094032 | 0.090692 | 0 | 0.112366 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19219 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.333932 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131207 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182292 |
suicidewatch | thelastdayofme | 2019/09/16 | I have a date, but also gave myself a last chance to try. Things have been going bad for many years. Honestly, I desire the ability to vanish like I had never been born. Doctor Who planted this idea in my mind; in the show this concept was described as an terrible way to go, but to me its sounds freeing and peaceful. I... | 4.071726 | 4.152429 | 4.885455 | 88.695948 | 70.581921 | 7.792296 | 25.130457 | 7.348243 | 0.909524 | 656 | 16 | 148 | 6 | 11 | 213 | 109 | 177 | 0.11 | 0.702 | 0.188 | 0.9471 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 24 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 7 | 9 | 2 | 0 | 13 | 0 | 15 | 3 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 23 | 26 | 17 | 0 | 3 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 10 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 4 | 23 | 6 | 22 | 19 | 2 | 28 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 9 | 1 | 3 | 14 | 106 | 33 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13293 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127817 | 0.138791 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169478 | 0 | 0.175844 | 0.143188 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107202 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170139 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159602 | 0 | 0 | 0.141391 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086846 | 0 | 0.188939 | 0 | 0 | 0.183264 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187648 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091353 | 0.270992 | 0 | 0 | 0.180604 | 0 | 0.11741 | 0.081209 | 0 | 0 | 0.147104 | 0.139587 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110957 | 0.168526 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16784 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122195 | 0 | 0.128203 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112639 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17367 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159198 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170907 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132189 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170628 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.220865 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096927 | 0 | 0.157562 | 0 | 0 | 0.225712 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137153 | 0 | 0.263884 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121014 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107044 |
suicidewatch | babispit | 2019/09/16 | My friend notices others pain but not mine
TLDR; 'i was upset that my friend didn't know notice my pain
Hi, i wrote this before i thought of posting it so sorry if some of it is a bit off, excuse the grammar mistakes if any lol. I thought id preface that over all i feel really alone i this world; i feel like becau... | 2.566982 | 4.128313 | 3.71296 | 90.121141 | 75.619718 | 6.605661 | 23.908518 | 7.282433 | 0.832222 | 3,240 | 100 | 701 | 37 | 70 | 1,051 | 306 | 852 | 0.182 | 0.679 | 0.139 | -0.9927 | 1 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 77 | 5 | 5 | 20 | 6 | 48 | 60 | 4 | 4 | 24 | 2 | 79 | 20 | 8 | 14 | 8 | 167 | 163 | 73 | 1 | 29 | 39 | 0 | 11 | 4 | 9 | 9 | 11 | 6 | 1 | 1 | 46 | 36 | 0 | 3 | 33 | 3 | 1 | 7 | 26 | 30 | 1 | 3 | 25 | 25 | 127 | 29 | 86 | 113 | 18 | 57 | 0 | 6 | 8 | 1 | 92 | 38 | 3 | 26 | 15 | 478 | 173 | 2 | 0.042831 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085779 | 0.088721 | 0 | 0 | 0.071278 | 0 | 0 | 0.029127 | 0 | 0.032766 | 0.048387 | 0.169909 | 0.059897 | 0 | 0 | 0.038129 | 0 | 0 | 0.080483 | 0 | 0.035762 | 0.104438 | 0 | 0.036446 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.046761 | 0 | 0 | 0.047814 | 0 | 0 | 0.043669 | 0 | 0.135929 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136789 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132472 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074964 | 0 | 0.050198 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095536 | 0.056579 | 0 | 0 | 0.122781 | 0 | 0 | 0.040378 | 0 | 0.216568 | 0.030599 | 0.041125 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.297822 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.048684 | 0 | 0.034256 | 0 | 0.047183 | 0 | 0.037876 | 0.045595 | 0 | 0 | 0.043957 | 0.091055 | 0.048274 | 0 | 0.028709 | 0 | 0 | 0.085082 | 0 | 0 | 0.045852 | 0 | 0 | 0.089409 | 0 | 0.03807 | 0 | 0 | 0.211851 | 0 | 0 | 0.045352 | 0.046536 | 0.131394 | 0 | 0.083701 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071935 | 0.047917 | 0.046755 | 0.036414 | 0.038657 | 0.040528 | 0.142951 | 0.043424 | 0.129089 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086328 | 0 | 0.086495 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.031486 | 0.095277 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.341346 | 0 | 0 | 0.087071 | 0 | 0.364604 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178163 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.041021 | 0 | 0 | 0.081968 | 0 | 0 | 0.095962 | 0 | 0.085686 | 0 | 0.027439 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.036578 | 0 | 0.102183 | 0 | 0 | 0.170655 | 0 | 0.089365 | 0.048387 | 0.043966 | 0 | 0.048144 | 0 | 0 | 0.036291 | 0.098921 | 0.042361 | 0.047946 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.04685 | 0.048604 | 0.080736 | 0 | 0.064408 | 0.034426 | 0.112309 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.028455 | 0.109778 | 0 | 0.10201 | 0 | 0 | 0.040599 | 0 | 0 | 0.02908 | 0 | 0 | 0.044589 | 0 | 0.036992 | 0 | 0 | 0.075789 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.03851 | 0.039705 | 0.115946 | 0 | 0 | 0.041288 | 0.092897 | 0 | 0.043497 | 0 | 0.060852 | 0.093659 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | kingshez123 | 2019/09/16 | This Life is not for me. I'm done with this life. I can't find Happiness at all in this life. I hate being with my family. I hate being bullied and mocked at. I hate myself and the way I look. I hate people around me. I hate everything about this world. I just want this pain to end. It's like I'm surviving everyday rat... | -1.033062 | 1.060439 | 1.337558 | 98.237578 | 95.162791 | 5.192248 | 12.98062 | 6.816662 | -0.611384 | 307 | 5 | 74 | 5 | 12 | 103 | 48 | 86 | 0.351 | 0.552 | 0.097 | -0.9831 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 11 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 14 | 18 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 14 | 3 | 11 | 15 | 1 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 48 | 23 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128377 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147576 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.255454 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129606 | 0 | 0.135948 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131805 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081958 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153514 | 0 | 0.711885 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12818 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.305578 | 0.140907 | 0 | 0.12734 | 0 | 0.1211 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.306898 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099977 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170117 | 0.114467 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | RoSe2272726 | 2019/09/16 | I think I should go through with it. I don’t understand why everyone wonders why I’m so fucked up and sad all the time. I had to grow up with two crazy parents and I can’t leave them because I can’t get a job to move out. I’ve been bullied my whole life and it makes me terrified of everything. I have no friends and my ... | 2.420669 | 3.388537 | 3.832249 | 91.505 | 74.957447 | 7.92462 | 27.258359 | 8.418075 | 1.581321 | 342 | 13 | 81 | 6 | 7 | 113 | 63 | 94 | 0.28 | 0.654 | 0.065 | -0.9695 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 11 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 15 | 20 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 12 | 2 | 12 | 15 | 3 | 11 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 52 | 14 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.227665 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178434 | 0.167826 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144272 | 0.172634 | 0.097562 | 0 | 0.106126 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198784 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185307 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197726 | 0 | 0 | 0.263794 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124648 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198471 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.207348 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149128 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119653 | 0 | 0 | 0.217774 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.203115 | 0.182414 | 0.194399 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.5055 | 0.208484 | 0 | 0 | 0.202507 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | cookiesnmilkx | 2019/09/16 | Wanna slit my wrists and end this bullshit, Throw the magnum to my head threaten to pull shit.. and squeeze
Shit, comparing my suicidal thoughts to other people's somehow puts my mind at ease but not really in a good way, also makes me feel pathetic 👌
Anyone actually know how to put my mind at ease?
Still hating Go... | 8.209048 | 6.683006 | 8.333333 | 72.72 | 62.650794 | 11.574603 | 35.285714 | 10.504224 | 3.533343 | 256 | 9 | 48 | 5 | 3 | 84 | 51 | 63 | 0.284 | 0.619 | 0.097 | -0.942 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 13 | 5 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 6 | 1 | 8 | 4 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 26 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.203832 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167037 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14605 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185001 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105613 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175194 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206221 | 0.214366 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114792 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139426 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.421808 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144808 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.419954 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133811 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.428814 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166808 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.228475 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165823 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165795 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | gabdaddy- | 2019/09/16 | My brother This is the only place I can think to post my feelings- it’s been 3 months since my brother hung himself in the bathroom; his absence has left me broken. My big brother is gone, but I still can’t accept it; I can’t bring myself to talk about him in past tense, my oldest sister can’t say he’s dead she refers ... | 0.685793 | 2.823303 | 2.149896 | 96.202736 | 84.189873 | 4.730305 | 18.787789 | 5.900189 | -0.311024 | 586 | 15 | 131 | 4 | 17 | 189 | 93 | 158 | 0.121 | 0.733 | 0.147 | 0.8126 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 17 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 12 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 14 | 26 | 8 | 2 | 2 | 3 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 4 | 0 | 5 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 3 | 27 | 5 | 15 | 19 | 2 | 25 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 24 | 12 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 74 | 32 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125267 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085779 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143469 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.290795 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132655 | 0 | 0.142301 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118026 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.299149 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.305777 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.254004 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.283617 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112318 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095353 | 0.214042 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.268659 | 0 | 0 | 0.147018 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134767 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111903 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116402 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.47256 | 0 | 0 | 0.112376 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113102 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090165 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14649 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090617 |
suicidewatch | DepressedTolkienFan | 2019/09/16 | I'm struggling today. I imagine it would be more accurate to say that I've been struggling a lot over the past several days. I've been having issues in my marriage and my wife knows how bad my mental health has gotten. It was easier when I was single. I could have died and it wouldn't have hurt her, but I can't imagine... | 3.094553 | 4.119567 | 4.418049 | 87.729187 | 73.390244 | 6.76748 | 25.04878 | 6.937598 | 0.936815 | 462 | 14 | 97 | 4 | 9 | 153 | 78 | 123 | 0.134 | 0.764 | 0.101 | -0.4989 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 7 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 17 | 4 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 20 | 25 | 8 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 5 | 13 | 2 | 12 | 14 | 6 | 12 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 5 | 0 | 3 | 7 | 69 | 19 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144442 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176645 | 0 | 0 | 0.177711 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13812 | 0 | 0 | 0.111566 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179539 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144513 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156482 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17494 | 0.123586 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090381 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17754 | 0.183883 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185192 | 0 | 0 | 0.180559 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095072 | 0 | 0.195143 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084515 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.294144 | 0.156133 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174336 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.254339 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184076 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165141 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137571 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.195432 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146576 | 0 | 0.171094 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.361699 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163977 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137313 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122889 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | ThoughtDetective | 2019/09/16 | I hate the very thought of suicide, but I'm afraid if I don't kill myself I'm going to wind up killing someone else and I don't want to be that guy I am being abused. Most of the time it isn't physical, sometimes it is. It is getting worse. I woke up getting beat the other day. When I grabbed her to stop her, she s... | 2.052684 | 4.385272 | 3.187879 | 89.622374 | 80.204545 | 5.638384 | 24.09596 | 6.841164 | 0.858776 | 1,737 | 63 | 349 | 19 | 45 | 558 | 219 | 440 | 0.187 | 0.734 | 0.079 | -0.9946 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 81 | 1 | 0 | 15 | 4 | 11 | 27 | 14 | 2 | 22 | 0 | 43 | 13 | 5 | 1 | 3 | 45 | 76 | 24 | 3 | 5 | 9 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 7 | 1 | 4 | 20 | 19 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 6 | 9 | 24 | 1 | 1 | 17 | 13 | 56 | 3 | 51 | 53 | 5 | 36 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 6 | 44 | 19 | 6 | 6 | 9 | 227 | 76 | 6 | 0 | 0.092606 | 0.076272 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080949 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053151 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192955 | 0 | 0 | 0.088918 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190581 | 0.086321 | 0.133016 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087252 | 0.079809 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082682 | 0 | 0.163897 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086482 | 0 | 0.050406 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.18128 | 0 | 0.261168 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.051624 | 0 | 0.065853 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.433542 | 0.08167 | 0.074978 | 0.222099 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07739 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077166 | 0 | 0 | 0.088091 | 0.092619 | 0.209554 | 0 | 0.0784 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077561 | 0 | 0.172943 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165519 | 0.08492 | 0 | 0 | 0.038185 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08744 | 0.08532 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074996 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149576 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066748 | 0 | 0.310777 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066224 | 0.060171 | 0.077302 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065345 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085494 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058766 | 0.251286 | 0.068315 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.051926 | 0 | 0 | 0.06205 | 0.091151 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053065 | 0.085015 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128979 | 0.0461 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070275 | 0 | 0.070527 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056901 | 0 | 0.079651 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | ZeraNaomi | 2019/09/16 | I cant remember when depression became my default Everytime I genuinely laugh or feel something positive it feels like im not "being myself"
wtf brain | 6.951111 | 9.011306 | 8.030556 | 61.5325 | 65.296296 | 12.807407 | 39.425926 | 12.161745 | 6.269237 | 124 | 7 | 17 | 5 | 2 | 42 | 25 | 27 | 0 | 0.533 | 0.467 | 0.941 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 10 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.428017 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.330234 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.387732 | 0.273911 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.414154 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187317 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.434334 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.295171 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | itsviri | 2019/09/16 | I don’t know what to do anymore. I’ve been in therapy for 6 years. I’ve been on medication for 2 years. It’s gotten better. But it hasn’t gone away. It won’t ever go away. I can’t keep living like this anymore. I can’t handle being depressed when I should be at my happiest.
My plan was to become a veterinarian. I just... | -0.566112 | 1.106007 | 2.44154 | 95.02979 | 85.699029 | 5.088858 | 21.460009 | 6.182691 | 0.077774 | 698 | 24 | 174 | 6 | 21 | 248 | 110 | 206 | 0.098 | 0.792 | 0.11 | -0.1993 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 23 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 13 | 13 | 2 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 26 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 25 | 42 | 11 | 0 | 4 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 13 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 3 | 24 | 7 | 21 | 26 | 2 | 25 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 14 | 115 | 37 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146282 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.394389 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.249088 | 0 | 0.110681 | 0 | 0.146401 | 0 | 0 | 0.139113 | 0.117238 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.228346 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155358 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087554 | 0.239815 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102415 | 0 | 0.138513 | 0 | 0.075336 | 0.111184 | 0.10602 | 0.146147 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140056 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143187 | 0 | 0 | 0.117825 | 0 | 0 | 0.145702 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129523 | 0 | 0.117052 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125431 | 0 | 0 | 0.133174 | 0 | 0 | 0.133539 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.211265 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093826 | 0 | 0.105862 | 0.110825 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106546 | 0 | 0 | 0.151593 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105237 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078187 | 0 | 0.212662 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127782 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094166 | 0 | 0 | 0.341455 |
suicidewatch | gnnad1e | 2019/09/16 | Im gonna kill myself tonight and im happy about it! Well i guess im gonna go out of this world with three lovely questions:
Why the fuck im on this subreddit talking about this?
Why do i want to kill myself? I dont have a fucking clue, i guess i lived long enough. It may be a disease or something.
Why i havent done it... | -0.588523 | 1.277954 | 1.73004 | 98.918856 | 87.303887 | 4.358327 | 17.256241 | 5.423394 | -0.760463 | 978 | 23 | 243 | 5 | 31 | 330 | 143 | 283 | 0.27 | 0.639 | 0.091 | -0.9962 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 24 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 14 | 22 | 8 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 20 | 10 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 40 | 46 | 15 | 6 | 3 | 10 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 17 | 9 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 10 | 13 | 2 | 4 | 13 | 5 | 43 | 9 | 28 | 28 | 6 | 26 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 5 | 14 | 9 | 6 | 12 | 15 | 153 | 60 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061777 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076905 | 0 | 0.057988 | 0 | 0 | 0.047392 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058189 | 0 | 0 | 0.118603 | 0 | 0 | 0.061636 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072328 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071318 | 0.163354 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058218 | 0 | 0.061725 | 0.288037 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140951 | 0.049787 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059279 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193284 | 0 | 0 | 0.039607 | 0 | 0.055738 | 0.076834 | 0.383861 | 0 | 0 | 0.148374 | 0 | 0 | 0.071523 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.526946 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.231307 | 0 | 0.0383 | 0 | 0.078614 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147674 | 0.034047 | 0.139697 | 0.123076 | 0.123348 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125797 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075914 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05375 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06687 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094448 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.048315 | 0.121702 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07807 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071537 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053651 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116529 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11203 | 0.060913 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.046299 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.040637 | 0 | 0 | 0.066592 | 0.077429 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082211 | 0.055317 | 0 | 0 | 0.125321 | 0 | 0.188655 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.044879 |
suicidewatch | herewegoagain7777 | 2019/09/16 | I give up I can’t keep a job for the last 2 years I’ve probably had over 20 jobs. Didn’t last at any of them. My money is dwindled down to the point where I’m about to be homeless. I see no hope for the future. I have no drive no motivation. I’ve tried anti depression medication can it’s made absolutely no difference l... | -0.208884 | 1.764105 | 2.458922 | 93.611747 | 86.614679 | 5.835168 | 17.340214 | 7.168622 | -0.010212 | 386 | 9 | 93 | 6 | 12 | 134 | 74 | 109 | 0.233 | 0.661 | 0.106 | -0.9411 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 4 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 11 | 5 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 8 | 22 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 7 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 9 | 3 | 14 | 17 | 1 | 13 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 7 | 1 | 2 | 6 | 51 | 11 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13246 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206057 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167768 | 0 | 0 | 0.203509 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180075 | 0 | 0.186855 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193465 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.386588 | 0.346267 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.317551 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095162 | 0 | 0.171999 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.18431 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.196225 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184135 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.210011 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.310437 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146454 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132246 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156245 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175763 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125435 |
suicidewatch | Akxi | 2019/09/16 | I’m at the end of my rope Hi, this is really hard for me to write as i’m terrified someone I know will find this. I cant do this anymore. I just started my senior year of high school and i’ve only came maybe 3 and a half days out of the three weeks(?) school has been in session. I cant stand being there anymore. For co... | 1.925483 | 3.54866 | 3.98783 | 87.201957 | 77.544153 | 7.137656 | 25.004044 | 7.984001 | 1.382955 | 1,560 | 56 | 336 | 26 | 36 | 534 | 196 | 419 | 0.144 | 0.798 | 0.058 | -0.9851 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 31 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 19 | 17 | 5 | 4 | 19 | 0 | 35 | 9 | 1 | 4 | 5 | 59 | 68 | 26 | 2 | 5 | 15 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 19 | 20 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 1 | 1 | 8 | 17 | 15 | 0 | 3 | 7 | 4 | 49 | 2 | 49 | 48 | 8 | 44 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 3 | 15 | 16 | 2 | 9 | 16 | 224 | 68 | 16 | 0.066066 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079398 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052833 | 0.054972 | 0 | 0 | 0.044927 | 0.069275 | 0 | 0 | 0.131039 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0508 | 0.055162 | 0.241638 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069332 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075561 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12782 | 0.136221 | 0.056902 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067602 | 0 | 0 | 0.058514 | 0.136527 | 0 | 0.087271 | 0.05976 | 0 | 0.063128 | 0.059375 | 0 | 0.062281 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120765 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122153 | 0.10355 | 0 | 0.150186 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118363 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.209406 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141449 | 0 | 0.071362 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073092 | 0 | 0.036308 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.046664 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056167 | 0.059627 | 0 | 0.088199 | 0 | 0.066372 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077375 | 0 | 0.140434 | 0 | 0 | 0.101908 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.044768 | 0.050246 | 0 | 0 | 0.073358 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074479 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12697 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052538 | 0 | 0.668618 | 0.052646 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055977 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.046762 | 0.070417 | 0.10552 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072265 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057744 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.043891 | 0.126996 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075933 | 0 | 0.063128 | 0 | 0.134562 | 0.07186 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05244 | 0.052994 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063685 | 0 | 0.096193 | 0 | 0 | 0.046931 | 0 | 0 | 0.042544 |
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