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suicidewatch | xxxacount | 2019/09/16 | I feel my time coming soon I have completely destroyed every single thing in my life because of my addiction to fucking heroin and meth. Literally anything sliver of the slightest good thing around me, I have utterly destroyed because I am a selfish, extremely sick and darkly twisted monster. I’ll never escape this hel... | 3.635612 | 5.024894 | 4.967152 | 82.901846 | 72.544304 | 8.051477 | 27.723629 | 8.598638 | 2.057416 | 1,240 | 46 | 242 | 22 | 24 | 413 | 169 | 316 | 0.196 | 0.651 | 0.153 | -0.9451 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 24 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 15 | 24 | 9 | 0 | 12 | 0 | 18 | 11 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 45 | 46 | 19 | 2 | 6 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 19 | 15 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 6 | 14 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 3 | 41 | 11 | 37 | 38 | 5 | 48 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 9 | 13 | 4 | 3 | 29 | 163 | 60 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085782 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062927 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078038 | 0.055021 | 0 | 0.064754 | 0.070049 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143903 | 0 | 0.066958 | 0.088655 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161669 | 0 | 0.135566 | 0.082503 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081666 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080526 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139389 | 0.081306 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066298 | 0.07519 | 0.07072 | 0 | 0.07418 | 0 | 0.039787 | 0 | 0 | 0.603396 | 0.14384 | 0.066932 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145492 | 0.082223 | 0 | 0.04472 | 0.132 | 0.062934 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052743 | 0 | 0 | 0.156311 | 0 | 0 | 0.168475 | 0 | 0.084997 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087057 | 0 | 0.08649 | 0.128283 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.2779 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066078 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060689 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053321 | 0.179538 | 0.16746 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158207 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062705 | 0 | 0.082089 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131574 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074163 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072446 | 0 | 0 | 0.156831 | 0.05042 | 0 | 0 | 0.045884 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106849 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.18565 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.050673 |
suicidewatch | _bright_moon_ | 2019/09/16 | Life is not for me That’s how I feel right now, life has been bad for quite a while, I’m feeling stuck in nowhere | -1.155128 | 0.686313 | 0.043846 | 110.184487 | 89.769231 | 3.466667 | 16.358974 | 3.1291 | -1.572472 | 88 | 2 | 25 | 0 | 3 | 27 | 23 | 26 | 0.209 | 0.723 | 0.067 | -0.577 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 7 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 14 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.353592 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.428254 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.59824 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.450429 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.361654 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | homeless_knight | 2019/09/16 | Anybody else wishing that they could run away instead of killing themselves? I wish I had some money saved away and a car, I wish I could drive away and never come back to my life.
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suicidewatch | Lilith3666 | 2019/09/16 | My family saw my scars and now... Now my bro doesnt wanna go to my fav bands concert anymore.
They saw the cuts and my brother told me how disappointed he was yada yada yada..
I'm going to kill myself next weekend, now its set, don't even try to help me now. It's too late.
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suicidewatch | taxicejd | 2019/09/16 | I don't want to feel so alone I feel so lost. It's so hard to ask for help, I just keep failing and everytime I have to disappoint everyone.
I don't know what help anyone could give.
It feels hopeless | 0.066977 | 2.227108 | 2.033767 | 95.799023 | 87.372093 | 6.230698 | 20.227907 | 7.554174 | 0.607339 | 157 | 5 | 37 | 3 | 5 | 52 | 30 | 43 | 0.353 | 0.536 | 0.111 | -0.8665 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 13 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 4 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 21 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.293664 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198259 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.265073 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.226385 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.270936 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.430102 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.271999 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.253998 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.380104 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.252025 | 0 | 0 | 0.155827 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.309519 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16724 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | rahulthememegod | 2019/09/16 | Just a passer by I just looked on here to see what it's about. I'm not suicidal but I've got a lot of shit going on, I just looked through a few posts and comments. How do people read that someone is going to commit suicide and just put hope you find peace or see you on the other side? Like I'm just curious what you ho... | 2.380771 | 3.363344 | 3.631857 | 92.846291 | 75.074766 | 6.845327 | 23.655374 | 7.168622 | 0.637001 | 389 | 11 | 91 | 4 | 8 | 127 | 67 | 107 | 0.097 | 0.629 | 0.274 | 0.9675 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 1 | 9 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 25 | 19 | 9 | 2 | 7 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 10 | 3 | 12 | 15 | 2 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 13 | 4 | 1 | 6 | 1 | 59 | 19 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11262 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168855 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.209992 | 0 | 0.147759 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.247664 | 0 | 0 | 0.366991 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090258 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.310282 | 0 | 0 | 0.157065 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185603 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12808 | 0.161314 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176937 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185722 | 0 | 0 | 0.184797 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146918 | 0 | 0 | 0.294439 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.18964 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156535 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.404166 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118378 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125431 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108969 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131239 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | erehwyrevesiti | 2019/09/16 | If I do it they win Fuck that. Fuck them. Fuck me and fuck eveyone / everything. | -1.100833 | 0.701022 | 0.5025 | 100.959167 | 107.75 | 4.633333 | 17.833333 | 6.427356 | -0.013892 | 60 | 2 | 14 | 1 | 3 | 19 | 13 | 16 | 0.504 | 0.36 | 0.137 | -0.8807 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 9 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.236162 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.971714 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | throwawaythesilt | 2019/09/16 | Life is too bad and not no matter how hard I try it never improves. I want a solution because life is just garbage I'm always under attack and I never feel safe. All I'm told is work harder. But I cant live in true peace. I cant find housing I cant make enough money to buy it, government is busy fucking me over, My pa... | 2.043491 | 4.095293 | 3.572302 | 88.330717 | 78.716981 | 5.938113 | 25.69434 | 6.961327 | 1.131471 | 818 | 32 | 165 | 9 | 20 | 270 | 130 | 212 | 0.219 | 0.685 | 0.096 | -0.9677 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 29 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 10 | 13 | 4 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 15 | 4 | 0 | 4 | 7 | 40 | 33 | 15 | 0 | 6 | 7 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 7 | 10 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 11 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 29 | 7 | 15 | 27 | 6 | 15 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 5 | 1 | 3 | 9 | 108 | 36 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.20978 | 0.109137 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107935 | 0 | 0 | 0.149215 | 0 | 0 | 0.109514 | 0.15991 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15372 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109569 | 0 | 0 | 0.135525 | 0 | 0.086631 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066319 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119879 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121257 | 0.137053 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117495 | 0.129495 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087915 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151343 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116582 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.27793 | 0.064079 | 0 | 0.115818 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143178 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087551 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.404639 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.291279 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12399 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140818 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133703 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.219314 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128866 | 0 | 0.152963 | 0 | 0 | 0.12533 | 0 | 0.1781 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.232087 | 0.10411 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150829 | 0 | 0 | 0.190974 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Unavailable_Seaweed | 2019/09/16 | I can't do it anymore I tried. I swear I really tried to get better.
I pushed through high school and graduated despite the depression and social anxiety, the first time I dropped out of university I quickly found a job, and went back to school within a year. When I dropped out for the second time, I went back to work... | 7.139304 | 7.438139 | 7.517381 | 71.7 | 64.041667 | 11.190476 | 37.142857 | 10.914261 | 4.215411 | 1,019 | 48 | 181 | 26 | 14 | 334 | 141 | 240 | 0.086 | 0.831 | 0.083 | -0.1396 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 44 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 11 | 10 | 1 | 0 | 13 | 0 | 11 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 26 | 33 | 10 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 4 | 12 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 1 | 8 | 8 | 3 | 0 | 4 | 7 | 2 | 26 | 7 | 34 | 26 | 3 | 37 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 13 | 0 | 1 | 14 | 114 | 30 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.20996 | 0.107917 | 0.157461 | 0 | 0.204131 | 0 | 0 | 0.084691 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.237409 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091021 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088642 | 0 | 0 | 0.107526 | 0.117951 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105309 | 0 | 0.115767 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135951 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09702 | 0 | 0.052038 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087541 | 0 | 0.112842 | 0.079513 | 0 | 0.215078 | 0.098727 | 0.05849 | 0.086321 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137965 | 0.108737 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11618 | 0 | 0 | 0.306386 | 0.091477 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087496 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114317 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107993 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103459 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065931 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.208314 | 0.082011 | 0 | 0.107364 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10491 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082189 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07738 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101115 | 0 | 0.180034 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.349367 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182108 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.286213 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099208 | 0 | 0.224773 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066275 |
suicidewatch | lukasscherzinger88 | 2019/09/16 | Lost my job, parents are divorcing, diagnosed with intestinal disease - all in same week. I can’t shake the thought, it just makes sense to me. I got laid off because of “Trump’s tariff increase in Chinese made commodities”, but the truth I suspect is that i’ve been out to doctors and sick and they didn’t want to risk ... | 4.30365 | 5.96609 | 4.739988 | 84.106423 | 71.292818 | 7.491871 | 28.674428 | 8.076483 | 1.876961 | 1,481 | 57 | 285 | 21 | 28 | 469 | 198 | 362 | 0.131 | 0.78 | 0.089 | -0.9552 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 40 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 17 | 16 | 1 | 3 | 11 | 0 | 28 | 13 | 3 | 9 | 3 | 58 | 62 | 23 | 1 | 4 | 12 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 23 | 17 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 11 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 16 | 7 | 29 | 7 | 52 | 45 | 11 | 34 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 1 | 17 | 18 | 0 | 7 | 11 | 185 | 52 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.23918 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122428 | 0.322425 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132124 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113729 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.221318 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114642 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109994 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110922 | 0 | 0.110901 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111976 | 0 | 0.143156 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097397 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054796 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118823 | 0 | 0 | 0.056619 | 0 | 0.123179 | 0 | 0.173348 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113111 | 0.107542 | 0.096325 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114749 | 0 | 0 | 0.153091 | 0.105889 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091004 | 0 | 0.1183 | 0 | 0.097809 | 0.205087 | 0.144677 | 0.109871 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109172 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080356 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103985 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.240666 | 0 | 0 | 0.150262 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115266 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092548 | 0 | 0 | 0.108498 | 0 | 0 | 0.197314 | 0.113055 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108449 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122978 | 0 | 0 | 0.081482 | 0 | 0 | 0.099773 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06944 | 0.106474 | 0.172069 | 0.189576 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093598 | 0 | 0 | 0.12784 | 0.08602 | 0.086929 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120992 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078895 | 0 | 0.110439 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069787 |
suicidewatch | sad_boi_memes | 2019/09/16 | I want to kill myself I can write a long-winded explanation why in painstaking detail going over my sad sob story and I can hear all the people that are going to tell me it gets better, it's worth living, and, you'll find something that makes you want to keep on going but the truth is here and now in this moment of tim... | 6.976131 | 5.382019 | 7.182857 | 80.205 | 65.111111 | 9.339683 | 30.988095 | 7.44753 | 1.864335 | 554 | 15 | 114 | 4 | 7 | 180 | 85 | 144 | 0.116 | 0.77 | 0.114 | -0.295 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 9 | 1 | 1 | 10 | 0 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 27 | 26 | 9 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 10 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 16 | 4 | 20 | 22 | 3 | 19 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 82 | 26 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113971 | 0 | 0 | 0.210644 | 0 | 0.165354 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165594 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.204809 | 0.170881 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097681 | 0 | 0.318767 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.210721 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184121 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166182 | 0.206847 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165092 | 0.165457 | 0 | 0 | 0.204093 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1248 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129617 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179059 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187183 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143934 | 0 | 0 | 0.132334 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163414 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12421 | 0 | 0 | 0.148428 | 0.10902 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154264 | 0.441103 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168705 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | ambernunns | 2019/09/16 | anyone? i feel like i’m wasting other people’s time here.. i’m new. i’m scared of myself. my mum thinks my ‘mental health’ is a cry for attention. a few of my ‘friends’ i have tried to reach out to.. have ignored me. it took balls to speak up. to get no response broke me even more. i’m at my wits end tonight. i’m so fu... | -2.302918 | -0.610764 | 0.51338 | 101.969613 | 105.168224 | 2.75161 | 16.224818 | 4.475607 | -1.117351 | 367 | 11 | 90 | 1 | 18 | 125 | 69 | 107 | 0.175 | 0.766 | 0.059 | -0.8799 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 8 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 18 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 11 | 2 | 15 | 17 | 2 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 4 | 2 | 1 | 5 | 48 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206194 | 0.149424 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13065 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.205247 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165494 | 0 | 0 | 0.123413 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094477 | 0.133486 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14436 | 0.345481 | 0.097622 | 0 | 0.106192 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198614 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.201831 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197848 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091286 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188302 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180462 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129539 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.37414 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.316636 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150184 | 0.163316 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119726 | 0 | 0 | 0.108954 | 0.214757 | 0 | 0 | 0.207598 | 0.126859 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110209 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Blue-So | 2019/09/16 | I’m going to drink draino in one hour It’s not a suicide attempt but it could be deadly. I’m not sure about it. I’m only going to drink a little so I would have severe effects but not death. I’m going to school just before it happens so at least I’ll get medical at least before something major happens. I just hope I d... | 0.318548 | 2.220418 | 2.571061 | 94.044646 | 83.886364 | 4.365657 | 18.868687 | 5.033349 | -0.442315 | 315 | 8 | 70 | 1 | 9 | 107 | 54 | 88 | 0.071 | 0.81 | 0.118 | 0.628 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 5 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 16 | 16 | 5 | 3 | 3 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 11 | 13 | 3 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 44 | 10 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.346122 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162382 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.398469 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106257 | 0 | 0.346756 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.359696 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202002 | 0.200288 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.20384 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.204883 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137815 | 0.154679 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.205831 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.229761 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156571 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.222464 | 0 | 0.191683 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144475 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | hurshitsahu_ | 2019/09/16 | Since me brother took his own life 2 months ago I'm just lying to myself that I might want to live. I probably decided that I would take my life as soon as they announced brother dead, and nothing has helped me change that decision since then. I've never liked myself, people have never liked me and I probably have neve... | 6.326768 | 4.996849 | 6.832337 | 81.344061 | 66.239057 | 10.074882 | 29.227609 | 9.029199 | 2.047311 | 1,126 | 28 | 241 | 16 | 15 | 370 | 149 | 297 | 0.12 | 0.768 | 0.112 | -0.8208 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 19 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 17 | 16 | 2 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 21 | 6 | 0 | 4 | 8 | 59 | 49 | 24 | 3 | 8 | 9 | 3 | 7 | 7 | 1 | 5 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 22 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 8 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 11 | 8 | 35 | 11 | 29 | 30 | 6 | 34 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 12 | 7 | 0 | 9 | 27 | 159 | 57 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0.077615 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141006 | 0 | 0.159286 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074726 | 0 | 0.066408 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070342 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090967 | 0 | 0 | 0.084138 | 0.068512 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063502 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140889 | 0 | 0 | 0.210129 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.241292 | 0.227279 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067652 | 0 | 0 | 0.061449 | 0 | 0.041554 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084667 | 0.071248 | 0.078524 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053311 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089785 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087994 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.337068 | 0.271998 | 0 | 0.070231 | 0.070386 | 0.066789 | 0 | 0 | 0.067618 | 0 | 0 | 0.106181 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084374 | 0.080308 | 0 | 0.063484 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.306712 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155855 | 0.076316 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053895 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05514 | 0 | 0.083097 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076173 | 0 | 0.343009 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079557 | 0 | 0.254761 | 0.081775 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131584 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06123 | 0 | 0 | 0.056295 | 0.084774 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086998 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0598 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156286 | 0.063142 | 0.046378 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088366 | 0.107998 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065625 | 0.093824 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057902 | 0 | 0 | 0.056499 | 0 | 0 | 0.051218 |
suicidewatch | CyberFLG | 2019/09/16 | I just wanna end it all but something is always holding me back. I mean i have real friends, a family that loves me and a good job, but im still sick and tired of all this. I tried to end myself several times by hanging beeing the recent method or trying to jump in front of a train, even oxygen deprivation with helium.... | 2.915758 | 4.111113 | 4.576182 | 85.764273 | 74.050505 | 7.300202 | 23.30101 | 7.793538 | 1.026535 | 746 | 20 | 157 | 10 | 15 | 252 | 106 | 198 | 0.118 | 0.745 | 0.137 | 0.6219 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 10 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 0 | 17 | 5 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 35 | 24 | 8 | 0 | 6 | 11 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 10 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 24 | 6 | 26 | 17 | 6 | 30 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 8 | 0 | 2 | 15 | 116 | 37 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.208042 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096127 | 0 | 0.076207 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136482 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128423 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099813 | 0 | 0 | 0.080623 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.293029 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.553622 | 0 | 0 | 0.08257 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117851 | 0 | 0.06321 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096585 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071048 | 0.104855 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083794 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135036 | 0 | 0.124056 | 0.111117 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101902 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127834 | 0 | 0.061075 | 0.125296 | 0.110389 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112829 | 0 | 0.083447 | 0 | 0 | 0.136176 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095078 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142292 | 0 | 0 | 0.123435 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.282458 | 0 | 0.103412 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096241 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099836 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072896 | 0.143684 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.254627 | 0 | 0.12212 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073736 | 0 | 0.100278 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091011 | 0 | 0 | 0.088806 | 0 | 0 | 0.080504 |
suicidewatch | putting7999 | 2019/09/16 | Why does watching a sex scene in a TV show give me feelings of incompetence, loneliness, and hatred? I know that this post might be silly, but I need to understand this why I feel this way.
Basically, the show Power was on the TV in the living room last night (I don't watch the show, my mother does). As I was heading ... | 7.130013 | 6.315328 | 7.389904 | 76.317508 | 64.375723 | 10.463455 | 32.228003 | 9.725611 | 2.816268 | 1,392 | 45 | 270 | 24 | 18 | 454 | 167 | 346 | 0.168 | 0.768 | 0.064 | -0.9904 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 46 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 9 | 17 | 3 | 0 | 20 | 1 | 36 | 6 | 3 | 4 | 5 | 60 | 61 | 23 | 0 | 9 | 12 | 1 | 7 | 7 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 2 | 28 | 12 | 0 | 1 | 15 | 10 | 0 | 5 | 7 | 6 | 1 | 2 | 11 | 14 | 30 | 11 | 34 | 38 | 6 | 30 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 12 | 12 | 0 | 5 | 17 | 187 | 58 | 1 | 0.290352 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080532 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079645 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090932 | 0.074421 | 0 | 0.058999 | 0 | 0.164712 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101476 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.338785 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063925 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091239 | 0 | 0.293621 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092844 | 0.165013 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085586 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099328 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15957 | 0.078892 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.330986 | 0 | 0.085462 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091579 | 0.129208 | 0 | 0.097232 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102672 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071764 | 0.149291 | 0 | 0.102931 | 0.090825 | 0.189655 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065583 | 0.147217 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134195 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185384 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097294 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09951 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153933 | 0 | 0 | 0.077124 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164009 | 0.074509 | 0 | 0 | 0.137008 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094544 | 0.201511 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159714 | 0.057086 | 0.076823 | 0 | 0 | 0.08702 | 0 | 0.174665 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07046 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | 30yrlimit | 2019/09/16 | 30 is the limit. I turn 25 in three days. I don't even know if I'll make it until 30 but that's the limit I've set for myself. I'm trying. If things don't feel better by then I'm just going to kill myself because at that point I know my life, my health, my looks is just downhill at that point.
I tried to see if I cou... | 1.268636 | 2.979808 | 3.360606 | 90.560909 | 79.757576 | 6.218182 | 19.333333 | 7.168622 | 0.249124 | 482 | 11 | 108 | 6 | 12 | 164 | 76 | 132 | 0.155 | 0.793 | 0.051 | -0.9295 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 7 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 23 | 21 | 10 | 1 | 4 | 9 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 4 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 14 | 2 | 18 | 20 | 0 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 67 | 22 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101345 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147035 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175871 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132738 | 0 | 0 | 0.107218 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109807 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168123 | 0.118769 | 0 | 0 | 0.15195 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188968 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.53015 | 0 | 0 | 0.111434 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183932 | 0 | 0.182734 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.234855 | 0.081222 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139609 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110974 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167541 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.314321 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13248 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.220899 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.33862 | 0.180833 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | throwawaaaaaaaaaay_ | 2019/09/16 | How can i keep going? So in about 6 months i'll get the chance to change my life for good, things might get better then. The problem is that i'm very depressed and suicidal and i think i'll ruin my chance to be less miserable.
How can i keep going for 6 whole months?? Every day feels like a chore to go through and my... | 2.34 | 3.482705 | 3.246667 | 94.94 | 75.410256 | 6.225641 | 19.410256 | 6.427356 | -0.182682 | 286 | 5 | 67 | 2 | 6 | 91 | 52 | 78 | 0.186 | 0.575 | 0.239 | 0.4725 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 12 | 17 | 7 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 5 | 8 | 15 | 3 | 9 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 37 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.207124 | 0.174554 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.208787 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127285 | 0 | 0.169991 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16629 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099794 | 0.140999 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152485 | 0 | 0.206232 | 0 | 0.336503 | 0.165542 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.350857 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139406 | 0.096423 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.209374 | 0 | 0 | 0.315072 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150106 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188853 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202925 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157617 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.215887 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131121 | 0.126464 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162848 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.220352 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | violetsocks | 2019/09/16 | Hard to sleep It’s so hard to sleep peacefully. I wake up everyday with my heart heavy and strained. I wake up several times a night filled with anxiety.
Throughout the day, this happens too. My chest closes in and it’s just too heavy to bare.
Sorry, I’m not trying to complain. I hold it in a lot of the time, but i... | 2.389315 | 4.637897 | 4.154762 | 83.595 | 78.513889 | 8.003175 | 26.257937 | 8.841846 | 2.208869 | 571 | 23 | 114 | 14 | 14 | 192 | 81 | 144 | 0.188 | 0.678 | 0.134 | -0.7592 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 16 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 8 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 5 | 9 | 9 | 1 | 0 | 20 | 13 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 11 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 12 | 4 | 21 | 9 | 4 | 17 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 70 | 21 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.2365 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094228 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099689 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129128 | 0 | 0.136908 | 0.159718 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130237 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078158 | 0.110429 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136691 | 0 | 0.415409 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.366346 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152226 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075518 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131415 | 0 | 0 | 0.103181 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113631 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.290118 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174627 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.464062 | 0 | 0 | 0.119 | 0 | 0.173035 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180269 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104947 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127541 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Spacetaker2363 | 2019/09/16 | End of the Rope. I dont know what to do, im at my whits end here. i dont wanna be alive anymore it seems nothing i do matters and im just a waste of space. ive allowed myself to get so far in debt that if i try to be a perfectionist and pay all my bills i cant eat that month or any month. My credits so bad because of i... | 0.8886 | 2.74171 | 2.942849 | 92.400702 | 81.584856 | 5.863778 | 20.664667 | 6.944025 | 0.316229 | 2,788 | 79 | 635 | 33 | 74 | 941 | 328 | 766 | 0.195 | 0.684 | 0.121 | -0.9945 | 7 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 160 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 7 | 33 | 45 | 10 | 3 | 38 | 0 | 72 | 25 | 9 | 9 | 9 | 108 | 125 | 47 | 4 | 17 | 28 | 1 | 4 | 4 | 1 | 11 | 10 | 3 | 2 | 9 | 34 | 26 | 4 | 5 | 15 | 1 | 10 | 6 | 28 | 24 | 1 | 3 | 16 | 7 | 88 | 21 | 73 | 83 | 5 | 77 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 6 | 42 | 37 | 11 | 11 | 36 | 386 | 122 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0.037325 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.039614 | 0 | 0 | 0.095478 | 0 | 0 | 0.02601 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.037932 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071872 | 0 | 0.063872 | 0.093264 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.033828 | 0 | 0.084971 | 0 | 0.042698 | 0.117168 | 0 | 0 | 0.157167 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082666 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.042014 | 0.049334 | 0 | 0.065887 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.039142 | 0.268962 | 0 | 0 | 0.039138 | 0 | 0.043024 | 0.067754 | 0 | 0 | 0.075788 | 0.069196 | 0.064452 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.036057 | 0 | 0.038679 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106081 | 0.219816 | 0.036691 | 0.08695 | 0 | 0.030591 | 0 | 0.042135 | 0 | 0.033823 | 0.081433 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153823 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.619725 | 0 | 0.037956 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147143 | 0.031178 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156447 | 0.13508 | 0.074745 | 0.07667 | 0.067548 | 0.033849 | 0 | 0.04279 | 0.041753 | 0 | 0.034521 | 0.036192 | 0.025531 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.038531 | 0.038546 | 0 | 0 | 0.044796 | 0.061059 | 0 | 0.028117 | 0.056722 | 0.0295 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.036701 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.051836 | 0.058179 | 0.040699 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.026517 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.036632 | 0.038913 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.03845 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.024503 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06964 | 0.079803 | 0 | 0.039262 | 0.03164 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.029446 | 0.037829 | 0.128448 | 0 | 0 | 0.091636 | 0.12791 | 0.043814 | 0.079971 | 0 | 0 | 0.043404 | 0 | 0 | 0.028758 | 0 | 0 | 0.035214 | 0 | 0 | 0.152464 | 0.049016 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103873 | 0 | 0.037363 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.02256 | 0.03036 | 0 | 0.046576 | 0.03439 | 0 | 0.276107 | 0 | 0.043984 | 0 | 0 | 0.027845 | 0.038843 | 0.038979 | 0.054341 | 0.041819 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | punkwitch666 | 2019/09/16 | I want to kill myself but my self-centered, attention seeking nature doesn’t allow me to. Last night I wanted to do it and I was desperately searching for pain free ways to kill myself because I’m also a p**sy. After few hours of obsessive thoughts and harsh self criticism, I came to the conclusion that if I kill mysel... | 4.812222 | 5.021136 | 6.097136 | 80.203111 | 69 | 9.196049 | 28.545679 | 9.120679 | 2.20543 | 624 | 20 | 126 | 11 | 10 | 211 | 98 | 162 | 0.34 | 0.547 | 0.114 | -0.9948 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 7 | 13 | 5 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 12 | 5 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 27 | 22 | 12 | 5 | 5 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 5 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 24 | 4 | 16 | 14 | 2 | 12 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 10 | 86 | 32 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119628 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098034 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085716 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.298914 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125176 | 0.140208 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079059 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134289 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120724 | 0 | 0 | 0.138387 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.678127 | 0 | 0 | 0.099926 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173175 | 0.05989 | 0 | 0.108247 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081828 | 0 | 0.123156 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11504 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083069 | 0 | 0.130442 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084987 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126041 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.255772 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097899 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098532 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194642 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.216917 | 0.097305 | 0.098333 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | throwawayrollaway227 | 2019/09/16 | I'm going to fucking kill myself. I really thought Jared loved me, but in actuality he wants me dead. Everyone wants me dead. I'm just a fucking joke to them all, and now I'm done with my life. I'm always the bad one, the wrong one. Dear god, FUCK ME FOR WANTING TO BE LOVED. FUCK ME FOR WANTING TO BE WORTH SHIT. FUCK M... | -0.534422 | 1.491312 | 1.523333 | 94.036111 | 104.533333 | 3.288889 | 18.222222 | 5.327937 | -0.316044 | 577 | 19 | 116 | 4 | 27 | 190 | 81 | 150 | 0.356 | 0.43 | 0.214 | -0.9916 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 26 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 29 | 16 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 15 | 21 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 23 | 46 | 7 | 4 | 6 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 20 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 1 | 18 | 9 | 15 | 36 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 15 | 8 | 2 | 13 | 2 | 2 | 71 | 21 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070736 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060314 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055452 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082464 | 0 | 0 | 0.060523 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.295618 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.296714 | 0.084953 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065568 | 0 | 0.069264 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.737136 | 0 | 0 | 0.041196 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.234893 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160391 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153597 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.196265 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069552 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098237 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.046437 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148812 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057546 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062605 | 0 | 0 | 0.213771 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079252 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | remsbigboilips | 2019/09/16 | I'm going to commit this week I can't fucking do it. I can't go to school. I can't talk with anyone. I can't live anymore. So I'm going to end it this upcoming week | -3.142417 | -1.570369 | 1.17 | 98.548333 | 102.25 | 3.666667 | 14.166667 | 5.461319 | -1.001583 | 127 | 3 | 33 | 1 | 6 | 48 | 22 | 40 | 0 | 0.929 | 0.071 | 0.296 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 11 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 4 | 11 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 18 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.298446 | 0.21042 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.266538 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.278209 | 0 | 0 | 0.513084 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.265731 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.304562 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.24188 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.482783 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | nopurpose5 | 2019/09/16 | suicide makes sense for me i'm in my mid 40s. i have severe brain damage from an auto accident and am morbidly obese. so, i can't work or find a relationship. my leftover high school friends are all far away and they're busy with their adult lives. i'm dependent on the government and my stepfather, who i live with, iso... | 4.612129 | 5.444463 | 5.29467 | 83.564615 | 69.673077 | 9.212088 | 28.318681 | 9.42424 | 2.279691 | 822 | 28 | 169 | 17 | 14 | 266 | 147 | 208 | 0.119 | 0.813 | 0.068 | -0.7681 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 28 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 14 | 0 | 17 | 6 | 4 | 2 | 3 | 30 | 29 | 12 | 2 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 12 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 8 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 14 | 4 | 24 | 22 | 4 | 26 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 7 | 16 | 0 | 8 | 7 | 99 | 23 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148879 | 0 | 0.132308 | 0.096596 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.353788 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102194 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164457 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14483 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122426 | 0 | 0.082789 | 0 | 0.090057 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140126 | 0.168684 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167422 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157247 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111925 | 0.077416 | 0 | 0.279846 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134717 | 0 | 0 | 0.105773 | 0 | 0.159195 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168101 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122214 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151761 | 0 | 0.170847 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101514 | 0 | 0 | 0.170127 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16037 | 0.126272 | 0.144256 | 0 | 0.179015 | 0 | 0.13108 | 0 | 0.158575 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156721 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17333 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093464 | 0.125778 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15275 | 0 | 0.115361 | 0 | 0.161484 | 0 | 0.173251 | 0 | 0.204086 |
suicidewatch | yunogulo | 2019/09/16 | I never thought I’d be a failure and a burden to my family. Yet, here I am. I’ve lived a privileged, charmed life. I went to law school. Got my degree and everything, real fancy.
I got fired from my first law job. I wasn’t even there three months. Didn’t have the personality for it, they told me. What they really mean... | 1.135189 | 2.871988 | 3.159524 | 91.724271 | 80.268012 | 6.642976 | 19.777468 | 7.645422 | 0.432081 | 1,263 | 31 | 295 | 20 | 32 | 427 | 165 | 347 | 0.136 | 0.665 | 0.199 | 0.9759 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 59 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 17 | 17 | 1 | 0 | 14 | 0 | 37 | 10 | 1 | 3 | 5 | 54 | 72 | 18 | 2 | 12 | 8 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 18 | 13 | 2 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 12 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 26 | 7 | 55 | 11 | 26 | 39 | 5 | 25 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 3 | 17 | 8 | 0 | 2 | 13 | 190 | 73 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169077 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071618 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065188 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183495 | 0 | 0.08415 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079507 | 0.240116 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.235189 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.050599 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06885 | 0 | 0.144438 | 0 | 0.038735 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070018 | 0.065162 | 0 | 0 | 0.059187 | 0 | 0.040024 | 0 | 0.043538 | 0.064255 | 0.12254 | 0 | 0.084392 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068625 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.228064 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.210508 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108221 | 0.074853 | 0 | 0.135292 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069141 | 0.072488 | 0 | 0 | 0.076963 | 0 | 0 | 0.077174 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061148 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059085 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160774 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085064 | 0 | 0 | 0.10622 | 0.066891 | 0 | 0 | 0.072419 | 0 | 0.073369 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087196 | 0.049077 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060922 | 0 | 0.155062 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064909 | 0.058976 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115199 | 0.061574 | 0 | 0 | 0.087608 | 0 | 0.10179 | 0 | 0 | 0.060818 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073202 | 0 | 0.052012 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066164 | 0 | 0 | 0.045185 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071016 | 0.069127 | 0 | 0.616666 | 0 | 0 | 0.055771 | 0 | 0 | 0.05442 | 0 | 0 | 0.098666 |
suicidewatch | idontknowwhyimhere15 | 2019/09/16 | Well.... I’m so fucking done with this bullshit. I don’t wanna fucking be here any more. All I do is fuck up. I put everyone before me. I do everything. And I mean everything. No one is ever great full. I just get used, for my money and everything els. Everyone uses me. I try to be a good person and no one recognises t... | -0.930436 | 1.178353 | 1.852386 | 94.843371 | 94.170455 | 5.092424 | 15.856061 | 6.723291 | -0.220912 | 1,258 | 30 | 293 | 19 | 48 | 435 | 156 | 352 | 0.255 | 0.658 | 0.087 | -0.9965 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 51 | 1 | 3 | 9 | 0 | 19 | 31 | 10 | 2 | 7 | 0 | 27 | 9 | 4 | 10 | 3 | 58 | 72 | 25 | 1 | 13 | 13 | 2 | 5 | 5 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 18 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 9 | 15 | 2 | 4 | 5 | 7 | 51 | 16 | 33 | 59 | 5 | 28 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 28 | 12 | 9 | 5 | 14 | 187 | 69 | 0 | 0 | 0.177393 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.050907 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139968 | 0 | 0 | 0.057563 | 0.12501 | 0 | 0 | 0.0637 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152649 | 0.230705 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080897 | 0 | 0.059769 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077693 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153215 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067715 | 0 | 0.143063 | 0.269117 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151405 | 0.10696 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057836 | 0.276827 | 0.312889 | 0 | 0.127634 | 0.062789 | 0 | 0.082533 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06706 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080139 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077955 | 0.082282 | 0 | 0 | 0.237797 | 0 | 0.076549 | 0 | 0.182864 | 0 | 0.132205 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067564 | 0 | 0.099939 | 0 | 0 | 0.081544 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202908 | 0.170803 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155695 | 0.065365 | 0.078213 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075255 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095914 | 0.076968 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119063 | 0.149895 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.230527 | 0 | 0 | 0.074914 | 0 | 0 | 0.115261 | 0 | 0.083799 | 0.052986 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085697 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.049734 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10165 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12931 | 0 | 0 | 0.044154 | 0.05942 | 0 | 0 | 0.134616 | 0 | 0.067549 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053178 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | IZISOO | 2019/09/16 | My depression is back I was very depressed and suicidal from 7th grade thru my junior year of high school. But during my senior year, i felt a genuine happiness that i hadnt felt since kindergarten. I felt alive again. Ever since my senior year ended, however, my depression and self-loathing came back, and i want to ki... | 2.841263 | 4.490391 | 3.979987 | 88.124001 | 75.082474 | 6.911856 | 21.403351 | 7.645422 | 0.757352 | 375 | 9 | 77 | 5 | 8 | 122 | 58 | 97 | 0.243 | 0.607 | 0.15 | -0.9367 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 9 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 20 | 14 | 10 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 3 | 18 | 2 | 8 | 7 | 1 | 17 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 14 | 54 | 20 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.318268 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157799 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.356496 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.244398 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.249601 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.397414 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078411 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.29374 | 0 | 0.136215 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145771 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147698 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152642 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146808 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09565 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139632 | 0 | 0 | 0.143931 | 0 | 0 | 0.228258 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150915 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113839 | 0.244132 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.266542 |
suicidewatch | Vivianvi16 | 2019/09/16 | I am a piece of shit and I deserve to die. I’ve never wanted to die more than I have the last 2 weeks.
It’s all hitting me now. I have zero friends. The ones I used to have dont care about me anymore, or they never did. I miss my ex boyfriend. I know it’s my fault we aren’t together anymore. I know I’m a piece of hum... | -2.408172 | -0.660778 | 0.583707 | 103.790733 | 97.689655 | 3.727586 | 16.215517 | 5.341637 | -1.0088 | 474 | 13 | 129 | 3 | 20 | 164 | 89 | 145 | 0.23 | 0.677 | 0.093 | -0.9721 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 18 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 8 | 9 | 4 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 14 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 4 | 22 | 29 | 7 | 2 | 4 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 7 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 1 | 23 | 2 | 14 | 23 | 6 | 11 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 9 | 89 | 30 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19998 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.359442 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139347 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184765 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144689 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.376154 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.212388 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160507 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14001 | 0.167534 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160252 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.199187 | 0.147718 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.279535 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173885 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122799 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172381 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186019 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136254 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123036 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156515 | 0 | 0 | 0.213776 | 0 | 0.145363 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.208393 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198135 | 0 | 0.116699 |
suicidewatch | KolleHufflepuff | 2019/09/16 | i wanna stop eating and or die i just cant get myself to do either please help me! my parents think i am happy and i act happy this is the only place to get help! | -0.892838 | 0.864933 | 2.368851 | 94.554358 | 87.648649 | 3.7 | 11.952703 | 3.1291 | -1.540832 | 125 | 1 | 29 | 0 | 4 | 45 | 29 | 37 | 0.13 | 0.534 | 0.335 | 0.8619 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 7 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 2 | 3 | 7 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 21 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.270109 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.266311 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.27195 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.554103 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.348894 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19794 | 0 | 0 | 0.288988 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.271916 | 0.285687 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.217589 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166764 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | antisocialgiirl | 2019/09/16 | Do you ever have thoughts of suicide..? I’ve been thinking of posting this on reddit for awhile now but recently I’ve been feeling extra unhappy so I figured why not. This is going to be kind of long so please bare with me.
So I guess my main reason for posting this is to find others that had or have thoughts of suic... | 4.865318 | 5.402265 | 5.315519 | 84.700747 | 68.966216 | 8.461309 | 30.105974 | 8.452758 | 2.024665 | 2,326 | 86 | 483 | 33 | 38 | 744 | 238 | 592 | 0.161 | 0.726 | 0.113 | -0.9889 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 48 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 3 | 34 | 29 | 3 | 3 | 18 | 0 | 60 | 9 | 1 | 12 | 5 | 114 | 114 | 56 | 3 | 7 | 28 | 2 | 12 | 7 | 3 | 12 | 7 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 37 | 25 | 0 | 1 | 36 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 19 | 12 | 0 | 3 | 26 | 14 | 68 | 17 | 56 | 69 | 7 | 79 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 27 | 31 | 0 | 17 | 40 | 327 | 105 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0.108419 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.049242 | 0 | 0.055626 | 0.057534 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060189 | 0 | 0.037776 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077685 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.051932 | 0 | 0.052192 | 0 | 0 | 0.067726 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.04913 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063535 | 0 | 0.057066 | 0.117531 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.044353 | 0 | 0.06102 | 0 | 0 | 0.095692 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.046406 | 0.124974 | 0.147604 | 0 | 0 | 0.110072 | 0.100498 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052368 | 0.06251 | 0.252793 | 0.158742 | 0.106675 | 0 | 0.101545 | 0.047251 | 0 | 0 | 0.085837 | 0 | 0 | 0.053289 | 0.094712 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122391 | 0.055004 | 0.098247 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111444 | 0.055174 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061459 | 0.057848 | 0.152646 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.235423 | 0.189975 | 0.111353 | 0.049052 | 0.098321 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.050137 | 0.052563 | 0 | 0.05632 | 0.111616 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055982 | 0.117861 | 0.112181 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085688 | 0 | 0.059079 | 0 | 0 | 0.053302 | 0 | 0.058291 | 0 | 0.037643 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123365 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.048505 | 0.174116 | 0.060978 | 0.105027 | 0 | 0.106405 | 0 | 0.119786 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06223 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106762 | 0.285577 | 0.05485 | 0 | 0 | 0.04744 | 0 | 0.044176 | 0.055616 | 0.05622 | 0.044267 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062441 | 0 | 0 | 0.047068 | 0.085531 | 0.109882 | 0 | 0.039319 | 0 | 0 | 0.046443 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121527 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.041767 | 0 | 0.097108 | 0.051144 | 0 | 0 | 0.147622 | 0.106784 | 0.054578 | 0.264607 | 0.032392 | 0 | 0 | 0.053081 | 0 | 0.037715 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088187 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.25063 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060242 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.039462 | 0.060736 | 0 | 0.107319 |
suicidewatch | MercyKnopf | 2019/09/16 | I give up I tried, I really did. I'm a failure, I can't even perform simple tasks. I'm just not meant to be. My mother even said that I'm ruining everyone's life and she wished I was never born. Why do I have to be this way, such a burden, such a l... | 2.951457 | 3.648341 | 4.849429 | 85.739 | 73.4 | 7.714286 | 25.285714 | 7.957252 | 1.324471 | 366 | 11 | 79 | 5 | 7 | 126 | 68 | 100 | 0.211 | 0.75 | 0.039 | -0.9498 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 9 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 19 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 10 | 1 | 10 | 13 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 52 | 14 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183195 | 0 | 0.237491 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206256 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.2121 | 0 | 0 | 0.316337 | 0 | 0 | 0.228825 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.229722 | 0.272194 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.338291 | 0.116993 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184695 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153411 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.227792 | 0 | 0 | 0.242357 | 0.190827 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159094 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162585 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190081 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.216085 | 0 | 0.27538 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | brkncct | 2019/09/16 | I feel broken and like I've lived too long. I've been in and out of relationships my whole life and they all end of one reason or another. I've found myself used and tossed aside by so many people and I've done so many stupid things. I grew up a neglected only child. I just spent the last 3 1/2 years of my life in and ... | 1.699843 | 3.490885 | 3.649147 | 88.619435 | 78.741935 | 7.009217 | 21.071429 | 7.957252 | 0.852788 | 1,158 | 31 | 253 | 20 | 28 | 392 | 151 | 310 | 0.219 | 0.68 | 0.1 | -0.9905 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 24 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 20 | 27 | 5 | 3 | 11 | 0 | 12 | 8 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 58 | 44 | 35 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 11 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 30 | 0 | 3 | 13 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 18 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 13 | 42 | 9 | 32 | 31 | 11 | 36 | 1 | 7 | 1 | 2 | 13 | 20 | 0 | 3 | 19 | 164 | 53 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056739 | 0.08749 | 0 | 0 | 0.082746 | 0 | 0 | 0.068661 | 0.074276 | 0 | 0.094921 | 0.078391 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091651 | 0.053809 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085384 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.221699 | 0.086212 | 0 | 0.165326 | 0 | 0.070298 | 0.079727 | 0.299948 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.337502 | 0.119213 | 0.080112 | 0.0914 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091483 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074742 | 0.247127 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08932 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082797 | 0.148324 | 0 | 0 | 0.045854 | 0.068011 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1768 | 0.244576 | 0 | 0.147351 | 0.147676 | 0 | 0 | 0.09108 | 0 | 0.150609 | 0 | 0 | 0.253773 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184005 | 0 | 0.064351 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056538 | 0.063457 | 0.266345 | 0.097894 | 0 | 0 | 0.079649 | 0.057844 | 0 | 0.087173 | 0 | 0.078874 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053451 | 0.085786 | 0 | 0.179158 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083534 | 0 | 0.066488 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085053 | 0 | 0.064233 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087225 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062733 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055431 | 0.053462 | 0 | 0 | 0.048652 | 0 | 0 | 0.079727 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072062 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066228 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093153 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05373 |
suicidewatch | Throwaway6969byNSP | 2019/09/16 | Just here to keep from doing it, I think I just moved into a new apartment without roommates for the first time in a while. It feels good to escape the abusive ex in the old place, but now that I'm living alone, I find I have enough privacy to be in danger of going through with my increasing urge to die. It's been gett... | 8.61881 | 5.815652 | 8.764708 | 73.981069 | 62.886256 | 11.842233 | 38.610321 | 9.994967 | 3.616001 | 821 | 32 | 167 | 13 | 9 | 272 | 121 | 211 | 0.181 | 0.715 | 0.105 | -0.9546 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 18 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 18 | 11 | 1 | 1 | 15 | 0 | 12 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 33 | 36 | 14 | 2 | 3 | 6 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 14 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 4 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 14 | 5 | 32 | 34 | 5 | 45 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 16 | 0 | 5 | 23 | 112 | 20 | 1 | 0 | 0.162362 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137219 | 0.141925 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.21074 | 0.114417 | 0.167068 | 0 | 0.116605 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118042 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.265125 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.284438 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121371 | 0.141592 | 0 | 0.090509 | 0 | 0.115456 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129183 | 0 | 0.138576 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125246 | 0.11656 | 0 | 0 | 0.105872 | 0 | 0.286377 | 0 | 0.077879 | 0.114937 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136105 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121801 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154579 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066948 | 0 | 0.121003 | 0 | 0 | 0.153305 | 0 | 0.116501 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145645 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132348 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143793 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143171 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135304 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137194 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137132 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.290978 | 0 | 0.109435 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119773 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087805 | 0 | 0 | 0.079905 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093037 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161651 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132095 | 0 | 0.099762 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | porkydogs | 2019/09/16 | I’m getting scared of myself Moved away from everything I knew. Hoping to live a better life, but all I feel is emptiness. New job I accepted was super shitty and worked the hell out of me. Girl I loved fucked another guy. I have no friends. I just come home to a small dark empty apartment. I have to force myself to ea... | 0.202396 | 2.257517 | 1.951694 | 97.381116 | 85.551724 | 5.042468 | 18.353297 | 6.339386 | -0.265294 | 630 | 16 | 148 | 6 | 19 | 206 | 104 | 174 | 0.211 | 0.589 | 0.2 | -0.5208 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 18 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 16 | 2 | 2 | 8 | 0 | 10 | 9 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 30 | 30 | 13 | 0 | 3 | 7 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 5 | 8 | 3 | 0 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 4 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 21 | 10 | 26 | 28 | 5 | 21 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 4 | 10 | 2 | 3 | 5 | 93 | 26 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107768 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141309 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126612 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119185 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116085 | 0 | 0.145629 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132014 | 0 | 0.137894 | 0 | 0 | 0.119358 | 0.139244 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121114 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068139 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123169 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104116 | 0.124584 | 0.070407 | 0 | 0.076588 | 0.226062 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133434 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135176 | 0.267696 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.304257 | 0 | 0 | 0.133729 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074061 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190371 | 0 | 0 | 0.118996 | 0 | 0.22633 | 0.150763 | 0 | 0.114569 | 0.121627 | 0 | 0.089954 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.27214 | 0 | 0 | 0.14323 | 0.099065 | 0 | 0 | 0.130153 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129064 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135472 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.269838 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134858 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190769 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079485 | 0 | 0 | 0.164102 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098108 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | gaythroaway1123 | 2019/09/16 | I hate being gay I’m incredibly lonely because I cant have people knowing who I am. I have no one that cares about me. I might as well end it. I’m so worthless. | -1.606667 | 0.342672 | 1.968 | 93.777 | 96.222222 | 3.991111 | 18.311111 | 5.683918 | -0.326716 | 124 | 4 | 29 | 1 | 5 | 45 | 28 | 36 | 0.315 | 0.556 | 0.129 | -0.8092 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 11 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 2 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 21 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.241985 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.404731 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.351592 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.39192 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.218161 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.421116 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.268993 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.275205 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.356918 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Ta1129494 | 2019/09/16 | I think I’m just gonna do it I should get it over with. No point in deleying the inevitable, been trying to find a reason not to for years and can’t find any. No one will care if I’m gone. I’m worthless. | -0.996596 | 0.692817 | 1.382383 | 101.894 | 87.510638 | 4.611064 | 15.782979 | 5.683918 | -0.985873 | 157 | 3 | 42 | 1 | 5 | 53 | 37 | 47 | 0.16 | 0.769 | 0.07 | -0.4767 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 10 | 13 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 6 | 8 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 24 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.229076 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.343451 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.615768 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175995 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.228265 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.318442 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.346348 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.215846 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.228706 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.216927 |
suicidewatch | shelbystlr20 | 2019/09/16 | death in the family hi everyone. i just found out that my step sister passed away. we’re not sure how just yet, but prayers would be greatly appreciated. this is a hard time for us all, as she was too young. | 1.875 | 3.920789 | 3.114524 | 91.434643 | 79.238095 | 7.057143 | 20.02381 | 8.076483 | 0.617267 | 161 | 4 | 37 | 3 | 4 | 52 | 41 | 42 | 0.122 | 0.771 | 0.108 | 0.331 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 10 | 5 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 25 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.311718 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.317029 | 0 | 0 | 0.312772 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.363779 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.365788 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.297209 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.312698 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193463 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.39909 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.235687 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | justmenotme | 2019/09/16 | Not a new year again Maybe strange. And sorry on the bad grammer upfront. I’m not native English.
For the last couple years I really hate the whole last days from the year. Christmas was allready a “thing” as long as I remember. There where always fights at home and stuff like that so I really hate Christmas(I allee... | 1.848947 | 4.179575 | 2.711173 | 92.760323 | 80.971326 | 5.855444 | 19.656532 | 7.098364 | 0.333938 | 1,094 | 28 | 228 | 14 | 29 | 344 | 144 | 279 | 0.144 | 0.76 | 0.097 | -0.9435 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 34 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 16 | 16 | 3 | 2 | 21 | 0 | 20 | 3 | 1 | 3 | 4 | 43 | 42 | 18 | 1 | 2 | 8 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 18 | 14 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 13 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 14 | 7 | 26 | 35 | 13 | 53 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 16 | 0 | 4 | 36 | 145 | 32 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073517 | 0 | 0 | 0.075335 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0626 | 0 | 0 | 0.102323 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070684 | 0 | 0.062817 | 0.045862 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078953 | 0 | 0 | 0.083567 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064807 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.249733 | 0 | 0.048519 | 0.077562 | 0.064798 | 0.07636 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066635 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13523 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152161 | 0.053747 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.039306 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060171 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.240262 | 0 | 0.148555 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075465 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082693 | 0.306627 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073511 | 0 | 0 | 0.066579 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063961 | 0 | 0 | 0.100438 | 0 | 0.075582 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079961 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.290644 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057218 | 0 | 0.08827 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052157 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144589 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085225 | 0 | 0 | 0.059829 | 0 | 0 | 0.059951 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084218 | 0.106501 | 0 | 0.060082 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172249 | 0.082293 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06047 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087352 | 0.099964 | 0.048207 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.051079 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.251986 | 0.086515 | 0 | 0 | 0.054771 | 0.076403 | 0 | 0 | 0.082256 | 0 | 0.532927 |
suicidewatch | salmonellapoison | 2019/09/16 | i just want to fucking be done. i had my trial and i didn’t like it, but i can’t end it myself. send me to the psych ward. what do i do? it’s not like i’m going crazy, yet i still hear the voice of whatever speaking inside my head and scrutinizing whatever i do and whatever i don’t do and sometimes it’s not a voice bec... | 2.406406 | 4.811573 | 3.174917 | 89.801345 | 79.353982 | 6.23132 | 26.197768 | 7.423996 | 1.385488 | 908 | 37 | 181 | 13 | 23 | 286 | 121 | 226 | 0.07 | 0.834 | 0.095 | 0.1115 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 23 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 14 | 13 | 7 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 21 | 11 | 4 | 1 | 2 | 35 | 41 | 14 | 0 | 3 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 13 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 11 | 8 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 9 | 20 | 5 | 21 | 36 | 2 | 25 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 4 | 7 | 7 | 2 | 17 | 117 | 33 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090699 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103552 | 0 | 0 | 0.403122 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112373 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112811 | 0 | 0.11279 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097619 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.210634 | 0.198111 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055729 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.509468 | 0 | 0 | 0.125277 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113114 | 0 | 0.124222 | 0 | 0 | 0.11645 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114774 | 0.121144 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119751 | 0 | 0.077849 | 0.161539 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07357 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111072 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117143 | 0 | 0 | 0.085006 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117229 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111545 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113136 | 0.091172 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.327021 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088019 | 0.184292 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.195026 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141952 |
suicidewatch | strawberryswing3 | 2019/09/16 | Would people support me in killing myself if I said I don’t want to be a working, productive member of society? It seems as if everyone is so deceived with the *fact* everyone has to continuously work until they die or study until they die, that those who don’t are a burden to society.
But it also seems like these are... | 6.731812 | 6.704022 | 7.37993 | 73.44878 | 64.934959 | 9.955401 | 35.457607 | 9.606745 | 3.432536 | 506 | 22 | 89 | 9 | 7 | 168 | 70 | 123 | 0.268 | 0.671 | 0.061 | -0.9885 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 3 | 5 | 7 | 3 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 17 | 24 | 15 | 5 | 5 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 10 | 2 | 14 | 18 | 1 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 2 | 0 | 7 | 6 | 69 | 21 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125277 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190991 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172078 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.325167 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.299382 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089031 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13853 | 0 | 0 | 0.154665 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.346632 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076534 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.325815 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149015 | 0.124579 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.285226 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.265467 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171355 | 0.177771 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100378 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184799 | 0.124346 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.342141 | 0 | 0 | 0.111283 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | scaredthrowawayphs | 2019/09/16 | I am near the edge of my sanity Hi everyone. I don't really know who I should see. I have attempted to jump off a bridge just a few kilometers away from the Pacific Ocean. But somehow I managed to get down from the ledge and walk back home. This was around three weeks ago. Now, I feel so irritable and quick to anger. I... | 0.008715 | 1.931936 | 2.166503 | 96.369406 | 85.25 | 6.474126 | 17.146853 | 7.686295 | 0.113204 | 369 | 8 | 92 | 7 | 11 | 124 | 72 | 104 | 0.077 | 0.87 | 0.053 | -0.4932 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 17 | 18 | 7 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 16 | 1 | 14 | 15 | 2 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 65 | 20 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.235063 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.236063 | 0 | 0 | 0.249142 | 0.203904 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.211722 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.253387 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.298397 | 0.268162 | 0.189442 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138544 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177742 | 0 | 0.265993 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.291468 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129552 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169879 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.211311 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.29006 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169914 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156408 | 0 | 0.212708 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | basedboba | 2019/09/16 | I don't know what to do. I'm a recovering meth/everything junkie who was going to have a year in two weeks. Last night I went to visit my sister and friend in a place I've never really been before. I ended up rather then going home right after my sister left on a flight sitting in a Buffalo wild wings drinking. I just ... | 6.038548 | 4.615088 | 6.87381 | 81.117965 | 66.862903 | 9.952129 | 29.114194 | 8.841846 | 1.937167 | 1,848 | 46 | 407 | 25 | 25 | 619 | 229 | 496 | 0.151 | 0.736 | 0.112 | -0.9877 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 36 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 9 | 29 | 24 | 3 | 2 | 24 | 0 | 33 | 13 | 1 | 10 | 8 | 86 | 79 | 40 | 4 | 12 | 17 | 2 | 9 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 24 | 25 | 6 | 0 | 15 | 5 | 0 | 17 | 8 | 12 | 1 | 3 | 22 | 11 | 56 | 12 | 74 | 48 | 13 | 93 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 15 | 41 | 1 | 8 | 38 | 284 | 80 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0.136256 | 0.076107 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.047476 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069236 | 0 | 0 | 0.057451 | 0.062149 | 0 | 0 | 0.196776 | 0.107365 | 0 | 0.042558 | 0.077104 | 0.118812 | 0 | 0 | 0.123489 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142575 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111481 | 0.077247 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072455 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068391 | 0.161923 | 0 | 0.05832 | 0 | 0.185502 | 0 | 0 | 0.092222 | 0 | 0 | 0.06671 | 0.125488 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.211799 | 0.09975 | 0.134064 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053938 | 0 | 0.036475 | 0.133943 | 0.11903 | 0 | 0.055836 | 0.07697 | 0 | 0 | 0.061736 | 0 | 0.062539 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073762 | 0.210086 | 0 | 0.068752 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075411 | 0 | 0.069279 | 0 | 0.077238 | 0 | 0.076735 | 0.170722 | 0 | 0 | 0.075853 | 0.214167 | 0.049311 | 0.13643 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058626 | 0 | 0.07621 | 0 | 0 | 0.066059 | 0.046601 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.051321 | 0 | 0.107689 | 0 | 0 | 0.131031 | 0.068402 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053096 | 0.074287 | 0 | 0 | 0.151203 | 0.066645 | 0.0484 | 0 | 0.218821 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070182 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.044724 | 0 | 0.068932 | 0 | 0 | 0.178861 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070655 | 0 | 0.063556 | 0 | 0 | 0.071663 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053746 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055753 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076365 | 0.079224 | 0 | 0 | 0.104982 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089467 | 0.068591 | 0.055424 | 0.081418 | 0.08024 | 0.13235 | 0.06671 | 0.077565 | 0.094798 | 0.075937 | 0.068198 | 0 | 0 | 0.120593 | 0 | 0 | 0.205889 | 0 | 0.056 | 0 | 0.062771 | 0.129436 | 0.062996 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10165 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179831 |
suicidewatch | lululights | 2019/09/16 | I feel like a liar I say I really want to die, and I feel like an attention seeking loser if I don’t do it. Everything feels bad right now. I don’t know what to do anymore.
I don’t want to hurt anyone, but I don’t want to hurt anymore either. I’ve been told that it will get better my whole life, and it hasn’t. I thin... | -0.037704 | 1.516789 | 2.458934 | 96.215846 | 83.224138 | 5.252665 | 19.166144 | 6.112484 | -0.255852 | 397 | 10 | 98 | 3 | 11 | 137 | 62 | 116 | 0.186 | 0.62 | 0.195 | 0.0131 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 11 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 12 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 20 | 29 | 5 | 1 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 18 | 6 | 7 | 24 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 55 | 24 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.30762 | 0.108444 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129495 | 0.094543 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.274333 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160961 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139387 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.235258 | 0.221596 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119824 | 0 | 0.162059 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.332059 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170469 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.219092 | 0.15154 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103525 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099356 | 0.159461 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.264896 | 0 | 0.123336 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129664 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198754 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.296394 | 0 | 0.105297 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.274432 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173155 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | tinyteennie | 2019/09/16 | What is painless way to kill myself I’m ready to end it. I just need a way to end it that doesn’t hurt to bad physically. | -0.95119 | 0.76863 | 1.957143 | 97.654524 | 87.571429 | 5.161905 | 16.47619 | 6.427356 | -0.61661 | 94 | 2 | 25 | 1 | 3 | 33 | 21 | 28 | 0.329 | 0.538 | 0.133 | -0.836 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 14 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.274162 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.581648 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.351509 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.363275 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.24347 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.521264 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Theonlypickel49 | 2019/09/16 | I'm so tired Two months ago I started suffering from sleep peralises I can't take it and it scares the fucking shit out of me. In order to stop it I don't sleep, except for when I'm so exhausted I pass out, I can't deal with this anymore. I want it to end | -1.12697 | 0.802289 | 1.67936 | 97.780172 | 90.896552 | 5.383251 | 18.630542 | 6.86897 | 0.033992 | 199 | 6 | 50 | 3 | 7 | 69 | 40 | 58 | 0.304 | 0.674 | 0.022 | -0.9496 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 9 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 10 | 9 | 0 | 11 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 6 | 31 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.224731 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.251425 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.261369 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.224544 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.234376 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202358 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.253819 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.260236 | 0 | 0 | 0.507408 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179443 | 0 | 0 | 0.211955 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190616 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.291385 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.247653 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149533 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | TingerBanjo | 2019/09/16 | I live in the Pacific Northwest,va partner and a father. Slipping pretty hard lately. Not sure how much longer I can hold out. Trying extremely hard to hang on some level and relate the feelings and suffering to the loved ones. Modified Haiku.
Drenched and exhausted.
I can’t see the sun anymore.
And feel only rain.... | 2.72632 | 5.446849 | 2.914632 | 83.533472 | 100.338028 | 5.765676 | 27.090245 | 7.09311 | 2.304489 | 649 | 31 | 100 | 13 | 27 | 198 | 109 | 142 | 0.115 | 0.694 | 0.19 | 0.9231 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 32 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 12 | 1 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 8 | 3 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 24 | 17 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 12 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 12 | 7 | 15 | 14 | 4 | 18 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 8 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 64 | 16 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185393 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175635 | 0 | 0 | 0.113956 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190596 | 0.192037 | 0 | 0.161031 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178628 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189043 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156795 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.33492 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.210875 | 0.197941 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091329 | 0.187361 | 0.16507 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168719 | 0 | 0.124783 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137421 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126674 | 0.142175 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.205202 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190183 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148966 | 0 | 0.195017 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.214137 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176187 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.253838 | 0.203335 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.20871 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | oscboii | 2019/09/16 | Best Ways to cut Self without razor blade Please guys I’m desperate for this. I just want to end my existence as fast as possible | 0.66 | 3.166711 | 2.375769 | 89.606731 | 95.153846 | 7.215385 | 21.884615 | 8.076483 | 1.798723 | 104 | 4 | 21 | 3 | 4 | 34 | 23 | 26 | 0.206 | 0.616 | 0.178 | 0.0356 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 6 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 11 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.363444 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.306739 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.342914 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.380159 | 0 | 0.390427 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.36129 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.20427 | 0.274895 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.333843 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | KleinTsuboiOW | 2019/09/16 | Birthdays Birthday is coming soon! (October 2nd) and it's always been sad and dissapointing even without expectations. Let's see how it goes | 4.13875 | 7.442269 | 5.433333 | 66.795 | 91.083333 | 7.4 | 31 | 8.076483 | 3.60945 | 115 | 6 | 16 | 3 | 4 | 38 | 21 | 24 | 0.139 | 0.861 | 0 | -0.5255 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.393099 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.406956 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.312035 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.48309 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.376465 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.455404 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | __cappuccinoo | 2019/09/16 | suicidal without insurance i’ve been planning ways to die for about two weeks now. i know i should go to a hospital because i’m a danger to myself at this point, but i don’t have insurance and it makes me feel like i don’t have a way out. i don’t know what to do. | 2.390085 | 2.722928 | 4.5625 | 88.623072 | 74.423729 | 8.611864 | 26.614407 | 8.841846 | 1.670692 | 206 | 7 | 50 | 4 | 4 | 72 | 40 | 59 | 0.141 | 0.798 | 0.062 | -0.4854 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 9 | 14 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 7 | 1 | 9 | 12 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 34 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179235 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.305151 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148668 | 0.210051 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167101 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.323177 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143646 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.196264 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.277948 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.321615 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.287219 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.466766 | 0.235849 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.283429 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | throwaway0483979 | 2019/09/16 | Don’t know if Suicide if worth it Ive planned on killing myself tonight for weeks but now that I’m here I’m questioning it. I don’t know what it is but the fact that everything I’ve ever worked for and anything I’ve ever done done could mean nothing in the next 30 minutes scares me. No one cares about me and I don’t br... | 2.276535 | 3.536971 | 3.300008 | 94.02324 | 75.771654 | 6.654803 | 26.873228 | 7.168622 | 1.041983 | 468 | 18 | 109 | 5 | 10 | 150 | 75 | 127 | 0.257 | 0.668 | 0.074 | -0.9813 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 6 | 1 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 14 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 27 | 31 | 7 | 4 | 6 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 13 | 1 | 12 | 24 | 3 | 11 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 5 | 7 | 70 | 22 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.247677 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153432 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157783 | 0 | 0 | 0.120152 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.312365 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.308002 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.272249 | 0 | 0 | 0.135249 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166492 | 0 | 0.330816 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132883 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163925 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159644 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160045 | 0 | 0 | 0.144397 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101974 | 0 | 0.160129 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168581 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.301329 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106516 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164609 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113148 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096426 | 0 | 0.238941 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088762 | 0 | 0.120712 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173053 | 0 | 0 | 0.109557 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | If_Eeyore_Was_Human | 2019/09/16 | I plan to take action Over the past 10 years, I have had numerous aborted suicide and two failed attempts. I hope to end my suffering in the coming weeks when I've got everything in order.
I am well educated, but I am being charged with a humiliating felony. It is now scheduled to go to trial, and I doubt I can make ... | 4.017449 | 5.059349 | 5.452549 | 81.115588 | 71.208333 | 8.480392 | 28.70098 | 8.841846 | 2.186054 | 937 | 35 | 188 | 17 | 17 | 316 | 136 | 240 | 0.207 | 0.63 | 0.163 | -0.9037 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 27 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 8 | 18 | 0 | 1 | 14 | 0 | 27 | 6 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 35 | 46 | 12 | 1 | 7 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 10 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 5 | 9 | 1 | 1 | 7 | 2 | 30 | 9 | 27 | 34 | 2 | 26 | 1 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 7 | 5 | 0 | 3 | 16 | 128 | 40 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166927 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149636 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108549 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105725 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158307 | 0.126534 | 0.105711 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108706 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110306 | 0 | 0.231406 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064124 | 0 | 0.069753 | 0 | 0.098162 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082266 | 0 | 0 | 0.243806 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.218184 | 0 | 0 | 0.067452 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173382 | 0.059962 | 0 | 0.433507 | 0 | 0 | 0.137309 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081926 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123642 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09466 | 0 | 0.13053 | 0 | 0 | 0.117767 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093345 | 0.130598 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.234328 | 0 | 0.107167 | 0 | 0.134726 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126192 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.195607 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134252 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092281 | 0 | 0.107275 | 0 | 0 | 0.142504 | 0 | 0.078643 | 0 | 0.097438 | 0 | 0.141065 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119894 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144784 | 0.097421 | 0.09845 | 0 | 0.110353 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087187 | 0 | 0 | 0.158074 |
suicidewatch | babyboi1998 | 2019/09/16 | Thoughts of suicide are no longer a thing of my imagination, instead now i feel ''when do i want to end it all'' and when will i do it. Is this a huge warning sign? In the past i would only have harmless thoughts like ''I am gonna kill myself'', when triggered these would pass quick but lately i have noticed that i am... | 2.578183 | 3.288808 | 4.106819 | 90.665563 | 74.288889 | 7.225 | 25.173611 | 7.41366 | 0.944561 | 811 | 25 | 189 | 9 | 16 | 271 | 111 | 225 | 0.141 | 0.723 | 0.136 | -0.6128 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 15 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 17 | 13 | 1 | 0 | 11 | 0 | 38 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 46 | 60 | 25 | 4 | 9 | 9 | 0 | 6 | 4 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 19 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 6 | 32 | 10 | 15 | 43 | 4 | 28 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 7 | 22 | 153 | 51 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184347 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088174 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088628 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145166 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119622 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102086 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.291395 | 0 | 0.110668 | 0 | 0 | 0.09804 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120438 | 0 | 0.13101 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101924 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127518 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.260037 | 0 | 0 | 0.235723 | 0 | 0.225241 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.376657 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.23276 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131225 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087661 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110029 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073839 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098432 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104929 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092047 | 0.096363 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.252152 | 0 | 0.108631 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100743 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076574 | 0.073854 | 0 | 0.274511 | 0.067209 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067984 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.32751 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | kkumachi | 2019/09/16 | Intrusive thoughts Ive had thoughts of stabbing myself to death, and how my family would find me dead. Ive been thinking about this many times since i was 10, im 14 now, turning 15 in February. I just want these thoughts to stop, i just want to be normal. | 1.885385 | 3.969077 | 2.762154 | 93.782846 | 79.384615 | 6.467692 | 25.784615 | 7.554174 | 1.208688 | 200 | 8 | 44 | 3 | 5 | 63 | 40 | 52 | 0.193 | 0.759 | 0.048 | -0.8689 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 14 | 14 | 2 | 2 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 6 | 6 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 26 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.237434 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.230198 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.272055 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.255349 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.246772 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.208344 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.210569 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161384 | 0 | 0.599853 | 0.146863 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.273955 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.297111 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178916 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | rileysimon | 2019/09/16 | Please Help: This guy talk about take his own life and talking about gun. ​
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suicidewatch | 4Whatisthepoint4 | 2019/09/16 | What’s the point? Life is futile. My existence is meaningless because what do I have to offer to a world where efficiency is the only thing that drives people. Kindness isn’t valued and neither is acceptance, but violence and competition are. I cannot conjure original thought because of how shallow my headspace is, so ... | 2.818025 | 4.777345 | 4.67288 | 81.781195 | 75.994819 | 7.649985 | 30.523926 | 8.495291 | 2.522953 | 761 | 37 | 147 | 15 | 17 | 259 | 108 | 193 | 0.184 | 0.654 | 0.162 | -0.767 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 31 | 2 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 32 | 40 | 14 | 1 | 4 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 4 | 25 | 6 | 15 | 31 | 4 | 15 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 7 | 7 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 116 | 35 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136175 | 0 | 0.323867 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197697 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185681 | 0 | 0 | 0.141396 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183797 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11697 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150637 | 0 | 0 | 0.136823 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188521 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118703 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184417 | 0.29198 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125087 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198124 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136587 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120004 | 0.134689 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122775 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167412 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182083 | 0 | 0 | 0.200614 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141122 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.300104 | 0.136336 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117654 | 0 | 0 | 0.140594 | 0.206531 | 0 | 0 | 0.169222 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.208911 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159801 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | kasperkirksings | 2019/09/16 | Not worth it. I'm 17, and 10 of those years I've spent depressed (9 diagnosed). My mom hates me, my dad died a year ago. Stepmom hates me, stepdads abusive. My older brothers pretend I dont exist, and my older sisters are on drugs. My younger sisters are too young and not my damn responsibility. I'm their brother, not ... | 0.386203 | 2.757709 | 2.726443 | 89.58612 | 89.042194 | 5.01654 | 22.245992 | 6.58834 | 0.665922 | 899 | 34 | 184 | 11 | 30 | 306 | 131 | 237 | 0.258 | 0.683 | 0.059 | -0.9935 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 40 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 9 | 14 | 5 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 14 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 34 | 37 | 16 | 3 | 8 | 10 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 12 | 3 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 12 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 34 | 4 | 17 | 29 | 7 | 12 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 16 | 4 | 1 | 3 | 7 | 110 | 43 | 0 | 0 | 0.124664 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093268 | 0.112444 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.313039 | 0.07357 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107275 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090623 | 0.106792 | 0.218396 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.493251 | 0 | 0.122018 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108717 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088649 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198377 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127228 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088251 | 0.084151 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.311638 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104504 | 0 | 0 | 0.112636 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093521 | 0.116406 | 0 | 0.115648 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185816 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123228 | 0 | 0 | 0.154692 | 0.078017 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111958 | 0 | 0.11683 | 0 | 0 | 0.072944 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100085 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105292 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07911 | 0 | 0.091964 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067418 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120931 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062059 | 0.083516 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094941 | 0 | 0.241987 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115038 | 0 | 0.135512 |
suicidewatch | 090799103119 | 2019/09/16 | Made it to 20 I tell myself every birthday that it’s the last one, but here I am. I’ve moved out of an abusive home, got a salaried job, built a relationship with my mom, made friends, gone back to school.... everything is the best it’s ever been. I’ve never been more happy. I’ve also never been so suicidal. I don’t kn... | 0.231923 | 2.120995 | 2.533868 | 94.261827 | 84.128205 | 5.438462 | 20.00641 | 6.627428 | 0.090713 | 834 | 24 | 196 | 9 | 24 | 284 | 124 | 234 | 0.313 | 0.582 | 0.105 | -0.996 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 27 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 11 | 17 | 5 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 19 | 7 | 2 | 6 | 5 | 36 | 45 | 14 | 4 | 6 | 9 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 19 | 4 | 2 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 9 | 9 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 4 | 23 | 8 | 18 | 33 | 7 | 13 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 3 | 2 | 3 | 9 | 120 | 42 | 4 | 0 | 0.249959 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084354 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10461 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162219 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110697 | 0.093291 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117753 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109474 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108992 | 0 | 0 | 0.095415 | 0.088874 | 0 | 0.189602 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10667 | 0.075357 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12755 | 0 | 0.081496 | 0.195034 | 0.110221 | 0 | 0.059948 | 0 | 0.084364 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.224576 | 0.094492 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105808 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112921 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104675 | 0 | 0.233402 | 0 | 0.115941 | 0.085982 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103067 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118008 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19962 | 0.140821 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106263 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12354 | 0 | 0.112111 | 0.155084 | 0.078214 | 0.162709 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202427 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142955 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092103 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108454 | 0 | 0.113249 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106754 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115381 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092196 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140156 | 0.067589 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.248865 | 0 | 0 | 0.128449 | 0 | 0 | 0.285545 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076793 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115329 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | wayjames | 2019/09/16 | I want to end it. I have a lot going for me. I'm good in school, I'm upper middle class, and I have a happy family. Why am I so depressed? I just can't take it anymore. Every day is the same. Wake up, go to class, stay up late so I don't have to experience tomorrow.
I want to take my life. There's a 14 story drop cal... | -2.090913 | -0.308904 | 1.294497 | 99.521667 | 95.018519 | 4.196825 | 13.269841 | 5.773588 | -1.142949 | 355 | 6 | 93 | 3 | 14 | 127 | 66 | 108 | 0.061 | 0.771 | 0.168 | 0.8456 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 10 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 19 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 3 | 13 | 18 | 4 | 16 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 56 | 16 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180605 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154962 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198817 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185955 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.352338 | 0 | 0.156851 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161296 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.306872 | 0 | 0 | 0.178139 | 0.171677 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206995 | 0.152745 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19386 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194953 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.205428 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12863 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154824 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135032 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123403 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.199902 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184305 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194105 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.273849 | 0.146373 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.214827 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164326 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | I_Am_Religion | 2019/09/16 | It hits you like a brick out of nowhere. I was never really depressed or suicidal in my life. I had bad days but I never really thought about actually harming myself. I had a great family, great friends, and opportunity ahead.
But it’s amazing how quickly that can change. Just one bad day or bad week and it feels lik... | 2.157778 | 4.936938 | 3.593691 | 83.724611 | 84.555556 | 7.190617 | 25.383951 | 8.238736 | 2.048456 | 336 | 14 | 64 | 8 | 10 | 110 | 59 | 81 | 0.201 | 0.497 | 0.301 | 0.9096 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 15 | 11 | 8 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 9 | 8 | 5 | 6 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 11 | 43 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168141 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141789 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.431593 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182272 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.22224 | 0 | 0.148403 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113803 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16243 | 0 | 0.174242 | 0.246184 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13312 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.379926 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121702 | 0.252533 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192761 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.265779 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165328 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116756 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.220761 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1376 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.18847 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136788 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13821 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | 394739473 | 2019/09/16 | Why am I like this I don’t know why I’m like this I live a decent enough life and have no reason to be the way I am, I wish I could swap places with people who have real reasons to be depressed and not some ungrateful prick like me who has everything he needs but still chooses he would rather be dead. Think I’m going t... | 3.035862 | 3.650563 | 3.899483 | 92.931293 | 73.137931 | 6.71954 | 21.396552 | 6.427356 | 0.107331 | 318 | 6 | 74 | 2 | 6 | 102 | 62 | 87 | 0.141 | 0.711 | 0.147 | -0.5361 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 12 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 20 | 22 | 5 | 1 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 3 | 7 | 17 | 2 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 7 | 48 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151725 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157542 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16995 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.203882 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177337 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10309 | 0.189285 | 0.11214 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108441 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139371 | 0.289199 | 0 | 0.174235 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146309 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189332 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136795 | 0 | 0.206155 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.224591 | 0 | 0.405751 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157578 | 0.164967 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148359 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126433 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156622 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.356097 | 0 | 0.226906 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140169 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | TravelAsYouWish | 2019/09/16 | Psychiatry Depression Questionnaire (Masking) For about a 2 years I felt like I may have major depression. I even had 2 "major" suicide attempts (with hospitalization). However, I only told my psychiatrist about it nearly 6 months ago (since he also treats my father and brothers (we all have ADHD)). At first my psychia... | 12.587552 | 15.534308 | 10.123786 | 48.454631 | 52.828571 | 12.461905 | 42.011905 | 12.009925 | 6.23459 | 993 | 48 | 112 | 29 | 12 | 297 | 107 | 175 | 0.188 | 0.729 | 0.082 | -0.9752 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 40 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 8 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 10 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 22 | 19 | 12 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 7 | 1 | 1 | 7 | 1 | 22 | 6 | 25 | 10 | 5 | 16 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 14 | 6 | 0 | 4 | 8 | 85 | 28 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.23618 | 0 | 0.087102 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078579 | 0 | 0.106465 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.275581 | 0 | 0 | 0.075556 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103947 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.592422 | 0 | 0 | 0.102661 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082084 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0649 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192235 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094346 | 0.10764 | 0 | 0.08358 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055844 | 0 | 0 | 0.108333 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1046 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104446 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054001 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.048005 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197974 | 0.099023 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078431 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11187 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149463 | 0 | 0 | 0.32732 | 0 | 0 | 0.068121 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094106 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162564 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075646 | 0.097182 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.214962 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156016 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093892 | 0 | 0.066712 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088348 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063277 |
suicidewatch | berrygoodkobold | 2019/09/16 | I'm having genuine suicidal/self-harming thoughts for the first time. I'm so scared I don't want to hurt myself but it's so tempting. I feel so empty, so numb. I spend every day laying in bed, watching the same shitty YouTube playlist. Go to a job I hate and piss away my money on shit I don't need because I think it'll... | 1.540822 | 3.338526 | 3.228445 | 91.41938 | 79.251142 | 5.841187 | 24.192009 | 6.742158 | 0.744767 | 1,627 | 58 | 353 | 16 | 40 | 540 | 186 | 438 | 0.283 | 0.562 | 0.155 | -0.9968 | 2 | 6 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 52 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 2 | 24 | 41 | 11 | 4 | 11 | 0 | 22 | 17 | 5 | 3 | 6 | 74 | 80 | 37 | 0 | 10 | 20 | 0 | 13 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 20 | 16 | 1 | 0 | 19 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 15 | 24 | 0 | 2 | 21 | 18 | 70 | 17 | 45 | 55 | 7 | 51 | 0 | 8 | 4 | 8 | 23 | 22 | 7 | 9 | 22 | 231 | 90 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.258861 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0478 | 0.07059 | 0.123936 | 0 | 0 | 0.051419 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117413 | 0.048047 | 0 | 0.07618 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069753 | 0 | 0 | 0.191121 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120892 | 0 | 0.161454 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052198 | 0 | 0 | 0.064563 | 0 | 0.082541 | 0.056521 | 0.105292 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.221158 | 0 | 0.35997 | 0 | 0.05711 | 0.053149 | 0 | 0 | 0.144826 | 0.28883 | 0 | 0 | 0.142046 | 0 | 0.099949 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055255 | 0.399096 | 0 | 0.123381 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083764 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066891 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124013 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070485 | 0 | 0.203669 | 0 | 0.044135 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055297 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169184 | 0.059124 | 0.083418 | 0 | 0.062774 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.046331 | 0.144576 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059956 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.047522 | 0.066488 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086638 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125116 | 0.063238 | 0.049792 | 0 | 0.065185 | 0 | 0.064139 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.048104 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.050223 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083024 | 0.080075 | 0 | 0.049606 | 0.07287 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.042423 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184275 | 0.049597 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143708 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.040238 |
suicidewatch | i-h8-myself-alot | 2019/09/16 | Too alone to keep going I’ve been dealing with this for three years and I can’t do it any longer. I don’t have anyone to talk to. I have horrible crippling social anxiety(along with a lot of other mental health problems). I’m too worthless to have anyone. I’m ready to go. | 0.237143 | 2.651867 | 2.100714 | 92.469286 | 93.285714 | 4.228571 | 17.714286 | 5.985473 | -0.193171 | 216 | 6 | 44 | 2 | 8 | 71 | 39 | 56 | 0.156 | 0.798 | 0.046 | -0.7096 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 12 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 9 | 11 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 28 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.292713 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192194 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.395235 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.291373 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.321244 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.300416 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.251209 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.240277 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.284819 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.270433 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.2881 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.227163 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182001 |
suicidewatch | commonthroaway | 2019/09/16 | I just want to die When people talk to me it just sounds and feels like white noise. Nothing can get through me. I feel so disconnected from everyone, like there is a barrier separating me from them.
I don't want to wake up tomorrow. I can't wake up tomorrow. | 1.381026 | 3.852387 | 3.220769 | 87.407564 | 84.384615 | 8.082051 | 24.051282 | 8.841846 | 2.035221 | 204 | 8 | 44 | 6 | 6 | 68 | 37 | 52 | 0.104 | 0.75 | 0.146 | 0.0516 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 9 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 8 | 2 | 8 | 9 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 28 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.362656 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.333898 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.353367 | 0.249635 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182564 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.34143 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.33529 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.242252 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.28086 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.412208 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Splashious | 2019/09/16 | music producer w a chronic illness ive been sick for 3 years and its finally getting the best of me ive had suicidal ideations for years now but it seems like i cant catch a break my life continues to spiral downwards my health improves one minute then the next it plummets. making beats is my therapy but even that doe... | 0.598792 | 2.94071 | 2.434753 | 92.50857 | 86.968127 | 5.259017 | 20.717264 | 6.742158 | 0.406217 | 951 | 31 | 203 | 12 | 30 | 314 | 143 | 251 | 0.233 | 0.645 | 0.122 | -0.9891 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 12 | 16 | 4 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 19 | 20 | 4 | 7 | 2 | 30 | 36 | 13 | 2 | 3 | 9 | 2 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 16 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 7 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 4 | 30 | 6 | 27 | 30 | 6 | 33 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 2 | 3 | 11 | 4 | 1 | 20 | 128 | 46 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109032 | 0 | 0 | 0.206241 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079954 | 0 | 0.063385 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109121 | 0 | 0.113519 | 0 | 0 | 0.116076 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106816 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134117 | 0 | 0 | 0.105538 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092096 | 0.107439 | 0 | 0.137356 | 0 | 0.175215 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105151 | 0.074283 | 0 | 0.22781 | 0.095036 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096128 | 0.162976 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110689 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.331578 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.224633 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057145 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.220333 | 0.152398 | 0 | 0.091816 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113507 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.347038 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104749 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12178 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0771 | 0 | 0 | 0.110584 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07046 | 0.079082 | 0.110642 | 0 | 0.115458 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108637 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099495 | 0 | 0.104529 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082859 | 0.09466 | 0 | 0 | 0.213468 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113737 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11891 | 0 | 0.06908 | 0 | 0.10216 | 0 | 0.060632 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151398 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.200879 |
suicidewatch | MangoFlan259 | 2019/09/16 | What can you do when your mind constantly tells you to kill yourself? For the past several months, my mind has been encouraging me to kill myself about 5 times a day. Some times, like now, it's neverending: "IwanttokillmyselfIwanttokillmyselfIwanttokillmyselfIwanttokillmyselfIwanttokillmyselfIwanttokillmyselfIwanttokil... | 15.641304 | 19.720323 | 9.800696 | 49.375826 | 46.681159 | 10.737391 | 31.191304 | 10.793553 | 3.558012 | 442 | 12 | 56 | 9 | 5 | 117 | 54 | 69 | 0.171 | 0.751 | 0.078 | -0.8423 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 14 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 10 | 5 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 8 | 2 | 7 | 7 | 1 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 11 | 37 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154555 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.245604 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146574 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.200979 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.502894 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160532 | 0.111035 | 0 | 0.200689 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.458968 | 0 | 0.181409 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.21696 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.256757 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198649 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180432 | 0.265053 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154305 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | 2ndAccountPanda | 2019/09/16 | I want to die now. I want to take this xanax and die. I dont feel like I belong. nobody truly needs me and I'm over it honestly. I need to be free from this world. I'm only worried about how it might hurt to overdose and I feel like a pussy. I'm really over this. idk I'm just venting to online random people. oof. | -2.297476 | -0.629422 | 0.845 | 99.394167 | 106 | 3.47619 | 11.547619 | 5.461319 | -1.315095 | 241 | 4 | 58 | 2 | 12 | 84 | 44 | 70 | 0.252 | 0.595 | 0.153 | -0.8248 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 13 | 14 | 4 | 2 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 5 | 9 | 12 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 31 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.480911 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.271536 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.234297 | 0.331036 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.248027 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.226382 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.245784 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.343587 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176209 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160623 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148425 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1742 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.273311 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.23529 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | fieldsofcolor | 2019/09/16 | i think im finally gonna do it I’m tired of living like this. I can’t leave the house without feeling the dreading sense of anxiety and exhaustion that comes from even the smallest social interactions. I’ve lost my closest friends because of it and I’m not even capable of making new ones. The only boy I’ve ever loved h... | 3.341037 | 4.689482 | 4.664052 | 84.947697 | 73.218182 | 8.001732 | 28.004329 | 8.563006 | 1.969142 | 1,064 | 41 | 220 | 19 | 21 | 353 | 144 | 275 | 0.146 | 0.736 | 0.118 | 0.0183 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 18 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 14 | 15 | 1 | 4 | 9 | 1 | 32 | 4 | 0 | 5 | 6 | 49 | 56 | 22 | 0 | 6 | 11 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 17 | 16 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 3 | 0 | 4 | 9 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 25 | 8 | 28 | 45 | 4 | 22 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 16 | 5 | 0 | 4 | 15 | 149 | 42 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09283 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080113 | 0 | 0.103857 | 0 | 0 | 0.172356 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127676 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110783 | 0.090209 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.215929 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092753 | 0 | 0 | 0.276674 | 0.189455 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052951 | 0 | 0 | 0.114719 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080909 | 0 | 0.16414 | 0 | 0.119033 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103392 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.280774 | 0.110645 | 0 | 0.104013 | 0.103131 | 0.120836 | 0 | 0 | 0.113119 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172659 | 0 | 0 | 0.110886 | 0 | 0 | 0.073969 | 0.102325 | 0 | 0.184944 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114317 | 0 | 0.094516 | 0 | 0.069903 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080769 | 0.101142 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100484 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070963 | 0.079646 | 0 | 0 | 0.232564 | 0 | 0 | 0.145203 | 0.09144 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106541 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134176 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104846 | 0.105985 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106752 | 0 | 0.080621 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091532 | 0 | 0.11976 | 0 | 0 | 0.201306 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120363 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090447 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100949 | 0 | 0.076239 | 0 | 0.213443 | 0.223176 | 0 | 0 | 0.134876 |
suicidewatch | KiddfIash | 2019/09/16 | Moral support I feel bad for taking up space here. I am suicidal but through fear of death and pain I can’t ever reach that point. But the level of despair I’m in daily is at a critical point. And I don’t have anyone else to listen.
It’s my last year of college. I’m in a major no one cares about (isn’t considered “sma... | 1.116948 | 3.176654 | 3.306511 | 88.998013 | 81.932692 | 6.077289 | 21.923993 | 7.263682 | 0.816461 | 777 | 25 | 162 | 11 | 21 | 265 | 125 | 208 | 0.309 | 0.593 | 0.097 | -0.9955 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 26 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 17 | 3 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 12 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 21 | 32 | 12 | 2 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 6 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 10 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 4 | 21 | 7 | 29 | 30 | 3 | 23 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 12 | 2 | 1 | 13 | 100 | 32 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10842 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103715 | 0 | 0 | 0.094798 | 0.138914 | 0.111568 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1132 | 0.165292 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138229 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087435 | 0 | 0.233543 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113257 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122636 | 0.114229 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152561 | 0.068551 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.209492 | 0.125338 | 0.070833 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141506 | 0 | 0.241013 | 0 | 0 | 0.149018 | 0.110513 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095761 | 0.132471 | 0 | 0.119716 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115262 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099664 | 0.100528 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130089 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09187 | 0.103112 | 0.144263 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129423 | 0.093991 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.256327 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153581 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13721 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139167 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114873 | 0 | 0 | 0.151766 | 0.095962 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148298 | 0.15385 | 0 | 0 | 0.101936 | 0.108971 | 0.1185 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090071 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092047 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138164 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.349227 |
suicidewatch | maybe_somedayx | 2019/09/16 | a quiet girl that is troubled and unwanted. I've been contemplating suicide for a long time now. Probably an understatement. I'm tired of feeling afraid of people, feeling hurt or let down, feeling like nothing I say matters because as I'm told, I have "no reason" to feel this way. My personality gets judged by the wa... | 3.953697 | 5.973432 | 4.891756 | 81.186332 | 72.94958 | 7.365042 | 28.496639 | 8.158264 | 2.074953 | 1,964 | 79 | 357 | 31 | 40 | 639 | 260 | 476 | 0.206 | 0.685 | 0.109 | -0.9959 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 60 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 5 | 16 | 31 | 9 | 2 | 17 | 0 | 28 | 15 | 8 | 2 | 7 | 68 | 71 | 26 | 3 | 12 | 5 | 7 | 11 | 3 | 3 | 2 | 6 | 4 | 1 | 4 | 10 | 23 | 0 | 1 | 15 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 9 | 15 | 0 | 1 | 23 | 17 | 56 | 16 | 71 | 36 | 5 | 58 | 4 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 33 | 22 | 3 | 3 | 29 | 225 | 66 | 5 | 0 | 0.276528 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080574 | 0 | 0 | 0.129466 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081576 | 0 | 0 | 0.077153 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072729 | 0 | 0.219277 | 0 | 0 | 0.142272 | 0 | 0.066199 | 0 | 0 | 0.068805 | 0 | 0.086414 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08407 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.050172 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090219 | 0 | 0.064989 | 0.087511 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.051384 | 0.211114 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.236017 | 0.111156 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180316 | 0 | 0.162582 | 0 | 0.088427 | 0 | 0.124442 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139381 | 0.076808 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076614 | 0 | 0.083283 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069149 | 0.08607 | 0.081013 | 0.08551 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079552 | 0.1099 | 0.114022 | 0 | 0.137391 | 0.068847 | 0.065329 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078873 | 0 | 0.084743 | 0 | 0 | 0.0784 | 0 | 0.157104 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057685 | 0.060001 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074648 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118335 | 0 | 0 | 0.086384 | 0 | 0 | 0.107868 | 0.067929 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083878 | 0.074441 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082746 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079988 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123734 | 0 | 0.078734 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079857 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131833 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186385 | 0 | 0 | 0.08133 | 0 | 0.170193 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058493 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136091 | 0.178831 | 0 | 0.148676 | 0 | 0.211275 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067191 | 0 | 0 | 0.229432 | 0.123502 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056637 | 0 | 0 | 0.110529 | 0 | 0 | 0.050098 |
suicidewatch | mehburritosandcheese | 2019/09/16 | Bad grades I’m worthless Hi
I’m probably taking my life this week but wanted to vent the shit out in my head. I fucked up in college and failed a ton due to depression. I busted ass the last couple years to get all As and Bs and my gpa is barely now at a 2.9 I need two A’s to make it a 3.0
Well, I’ve busted ass in M... | -0.343242 | 1.591939 | 2.255154 | 95.102346 | 86.857143 | 4.738901 | 19.53956 | 5.985473 | -0.171914 | 1,278 | 38 | 301 | 10 | 40 | 441 | 177 | 364 | 0.177 | 0.675 | 0.148 | -0.9244 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 36 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 12 | 20 | 6 | 0 | 31 | 0 | 16 | 11 | 4 | 2 | 4 | 47 | 54 | 26 | 1 | 7 | 11 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 11 | 18 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 8 | 7 | 12 | 2 | 3 | 5 | 1 | 33 | 8 | 45 | 45 | 6 | 42 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 6 | 6 | 21 | 7 | 5 | 13 | 182 | 44 | 17 | 0.094392 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.208328 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066001 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078813 | 0.057541 | 0.104249 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075364 | 0.104443 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0813 | 0 | 0.097964 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096596 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083603 | 0 | 0 | 0.187035 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103402 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072927 | 0.261792 | 0.098632 | 0 | 0.160936 | 0.237515 | 0.075494 | 0 | 0.103983 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084557 | 0 | 0.096873 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09973 | 0 | 0 | 0.092957 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0839 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076942 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.200016 | 0 | 0 | 0.1667 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063007 | 0 | 0 | 0.102821 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069389 | 0.139981 | 0.072801 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090572 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063962 | 0.071789 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06544 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106413 | 0 | 0.096031 | 0.101771 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.200795 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097051 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.286589 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096892 | 0.078082 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072668 | 0 | 0 | 0.066811 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.212913 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060483 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180391 | 0 | 0.192258 | 0 | 0.184415 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10396 | 0 | 0.055675 | 0 | 0.075716 | 0 | 0.16974 | 0 | 0 | 0.105385 | 0.217092 | 0.090991 | 0 | 0.068719 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060785 |
suicidewatch | Zaxharie | 2019/09/16 | i wanna end it but i can't I've never viewed suicide as a selfish thing, however, I'd feel so bad leaving the few people who actually care about me. I can't stand hurting people, and me leaving would make some people feel awfully sad.
i kinda want to start pushing people away so i can actually do it. it would be so e... | -0.1099 | 2.074476 | 3.196803 | 86.877742 | 88.78022 | 5.506893 | 21.45954 | 6.980633 | 0.802266 | 332 | 12 | 69 | 5 | 11 | 120 | 59 | 91 | 0.235 | 0.572 | 0.193 | -0.7749 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 10 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 15 | 18 | 11 | 1 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 8 | 1 | 6 | 14 | 2 | 7 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 46 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.365452 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149741 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175925 | 0 | 0.156343 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190911 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165845 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189355 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.200452 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.396535 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165343 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124989 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144416 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.519254 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132534 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.204818 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124399 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110443 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.26603 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | OfficerJH | 2019/09/16 | I need help I just don't know what to do anymore, I have school in 3 hours and I can't call in sick again. I get horrible panic attacks when I go outside, especially to school and I just can't control them.
I went to see a therapist last week but he just advised me to get on a waiting list for a program, where I'm fr... | 5.387781 | 5.511822 | 5.941916 | 82.104732 | 67.755365 | 8.888903 | 32.95187 | 8.63404 | 2.492192 | 915 | 38 | 186 | 13 | 14 | 297 | 126 | 233 | 0.183 | 0.74 | 0.076 | -0.9793 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 21 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 19 | 9 | 1 | 1 | 13 | 0 | 16 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 35 | 40 | 16 | 2 | 5 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 10 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 6 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 6 | 23 | 3 | 30 | 34 | 4 | 35 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 7 | 12 | 0 | 5 | 19 | 124 | 29 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085933 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121396 | 0.213137 | 0 | 0 | 0.176856 | 0 | 0 | 0.122248 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065505 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095037 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.219451 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113675 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120522 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138602 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095175 | 0 | 0 | 0.283897 | 0 | 0.090537 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.224567 | 0 | 0.12214 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095024 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072026 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.211647 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095513 | 0 | 0 | 0.118111 | 0.175183 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052498 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117302 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108291 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079678 | 0 | 0.103783 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126078 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.231713 | 0.205643 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110484 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.435008 | 0.256888 | 0.097825 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076059 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11754 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124766 | 0 | 0.068854 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086195 | 0 | 0 | 0.099614 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076334 | 0 | 0 | 0.069199 |
suicidewatch | peasantrequiem | 2019/09/16 | just writing down some thoughts Don't feel like you need to read this or anything. I just don't have any other outlet right now, so I'm just putting my thoughts down here.
I am still trying to come to terms with how alone I am. I could take a couple weeks off from work and die, and no one would notice for some time...... | 2.314419 | 4.532554 | 2.613095 | 94.709037 | 78.612403 | 5.36831 | 23.498295 | 6.360717 | 0.422054 | 1,018 | 34 | 216 | 8 | 25 | 310 | 146 | 258 | 0.129 | 0.784 | 0.087 | -0.8742 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 32 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 3 | 19 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 0 | 25 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 40 | 52 | 11 | 3 | 6 | 7 | 0 | 7 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 13 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 2 | 2 | 8 | 10 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 14 | 8 | 29 | 10 | 29 | 35 | 9 | 31 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 13 | 11 | 0 | 6 | 15 | 137 | 42 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.21878 | 0.116554 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14365 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173832 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193154 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093412 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.323059 | 0 | 0 | 0.090982 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084329 | 0.116866 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.219233 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187096 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.267023 | 0.15091 | 0.101412 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081602 | 0 | 0.110364 | 0 | 0.180078 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105945 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058046 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114756 | 0 | 0 | 0.154801 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112046 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155285 | 0.078316 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120249 | 0 | 0 | 0.071571 | 0.080329 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106177 | 0 | 0.11234 | 0.211297 | 0.120218 | 0.202988 | 0 | 0.104287 | 0 | 0 | 0.180397 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084348 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158826 | 0 | 0 | 0.09724 | 0 | 0 | 0.140338 | 0 | 0 | 0.167701 | 0.123175 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117347 | 0.071709 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062297 | 0 | 0.084722 | 0 | 0 | 0.097911 | 0 | 0.117921 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076892 | 0 | 0.107636 | 0.075029 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | kylestevensrox | 2019/09/16 | My parents and siblings get mad when I tell them that there are some nice things in life but not existing is so much better. My friends laugh it off and nobody understands how a rich kid like me can want to die. I wish I was never born and get yelled at when I tell my parents. Been going to psychologists for ten years ... | 6.248776 | 5.009075 | 6.382571 | 84.212429 | 66.346939 | 9.472653 | 28.783673 | 8.238736 | 1.646916 | 372 | 9 | 82 | 4 | 5 | 119 | 68 | 98 | 0.116 | 0.576 | 0.308 | 0.9758 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 6 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 12 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 19 | 18 | 12 | 2 | 4 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 1 | 11 | 7 | 9 | 12 | 2 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 4 | 0 | 3 | 8 | 60 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.344992 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.404839 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150687 | 0 | 0.2038 | 0 | 0.110845 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13073 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137762 | 0.095286 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143376 | 0 | 0.300852 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.433135 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.340945 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129575 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.203042 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115039 | 0.154813 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.224285 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13855 | 0 | 0 | 0.125599 |
suicidewatch | YuiIsTheName | 2019/09/16 | I’m going to end it but I’m scared to Hello so I’m a 14 year old and I’m a freshmen, ever sense 6th grade I’ve wanted to die I had an attempt with bleach when I was 12 but I was rushed to a hospital and I ended living. Now in high school these thoughts are stronger and I’ve told my friends that I’m never happy and that... | 1.028849 | 2.357367 | 3.000223 | 94.595941 | 79.250784 | 6.105236 | 19.651805 | 6.775459 | -0.004077 | 1,121 | 25 | 272 | 11 | 27 | 378 | 153 | 319 | 0.187 | 0.66 | 0.153 | -0.9602 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 16 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 23 | 17 | 1 | 1 | 10 | 0 | 28 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 8 | 53 | 63 | 20 | 5 | 7 | 12 | 2 | 5 | 2 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 15 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 11 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 7 | 36 | 13 | 31 | 48 | 5 | 32 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 24 | 11 | 0 | 4 | 21 | 169 | 51 | 5 | 0 | 0.11222 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075742 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132451 | 0.097045 | 0.077941 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115473 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083766 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096566 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.196595 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079121 | 0 | 0.251663 | 0 | 0 | 0.250229 | 0.085673 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191559 | 0.067663 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14635 | 0 | 0.098967 | 0.272572 | 0.053828 | 0.079441 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100824 | 0.084844 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10007 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092544 | 0 | 0.083633 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.221854 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.365243 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099386 | 0 | 0.06418 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102117 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121351 | 0.194762 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080885 | 0 | 0.07532 | 0.094824 | 0.19171 | 0 | 0.086223 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093674 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075638 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103601 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082783 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062923 | 0.182065 | 0.093055 | 0.075192 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090502 | 0 | 0.128608 | 0.103021 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.223457 | 0.075179 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096521 | 0.134563 | 0 | 0 | 0.121984 |
suicidewatch | RitchaRL | 2019/09/16 | I fucking hate myself so much. I'm depressed 24/7 happiness is a mask
I hate how I look
I hate how I act
I hate that I have no motivation ever
I hate the fact that nobody likes me and I'll always be the last option.
I hate how I've ruined my body with scars.
I hate how I will never have a chance at success.
I h... | 0.119606 | 2.241746 | 2.690328 | 91.480422 | 86.628866 | 5.176757 | 20.158388 | 6.574016 | 0.27239 | 353 | 11 | 77 | 4 | 11 | 122 | 54 | 97 | 0.454 | 0.438 | 0.108 | -0.9933 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 10 | 18 | 12 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 6 | 4 | 1 | 6 | 3 | 16 | 22 | 9 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 18 | 3 | 3 | 19 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 5 | 51 | 22 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080894 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.203885 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107371 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107988 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167469 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086107 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08794 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.269632 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103491 | 0 | 0.863853 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079246 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.047496 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081639 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142934 | 0 | 0.074981 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106342 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057342 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | oguibog | 2019/09/16 | My mother will commit suicide and I don't know if I should stop her Ok, will try my best to give all info about this peculiar situation.
Me and my mother were never close, since age 10 I don't call her mom, I'll just use her first name. At age 12 I witnessed her trying to jump off the living room balcony but her broth... | 4.235654 | 5.738414 | 5.139147 | 81.80807 | 71.218798 | 7.886557 | 26.187887 | 8.418075 | 1.746188 | 2,624 | 84 | 501 | 42 | 49 | 856 | 290 | 649 | 0.213 | 0.688 | 0.1 | -0.9985 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 49 | 4 | 0 | 9 | 7 | 28 | 30 | 5 | 0 | 23 | 2 | 50 | 10 | 1 | 9 | 13 | 123 | 92 | 49 | 6 | 15 | 19 | 11 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 9 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 23 | 42 | 0 | 6 | 16 | 3 | 7 | 12 | 19 | 17 | 0 | 9 | 24 | 7 | 97 | 14 | 83 | 52 | 18 | 86 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 89 | 32 | 2 | 9 | 40 | 374 | 120 | 5 | 0 | 0.065352 | 0.053825 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.048893 | 0 | 0.055232 | 0.057126 | 0 | 0.132327 | 0.045895 | 0 | 0 | 0.112526 | 0.057837 | 0 | 0 | 0.109401 | 0.038567 | 0 | 0 | 0.049101 | 0.103128 | 0 | 0.103643 | 0 | 0.092107 | 0.100869 | 0 | 0.046934 | 0 | 0.057884 | 0.048782 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112642 | 0.126169 | 0.112472 | 0 | 0 | 0.047513 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106715 | 0 | 0 | 0.055983 | 0.057244 | 0.115254 | 0.063214 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113983 | 0 | 0.145722 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053954 | 0 | 0 | 0.055778 | 0 | 0.052959 | 0 | 0 | 0.093833 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.028817 | 0.105823 | 0.031347 | 0 | 0.044114 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054456 | 0 | 0.058629 | 0 | 0 | 0.110911 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063644 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054735 | 0 | 0 | 0.057437 | 0.060625 | 0.13488 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077918 | 0 | 0.110563 | 0.389636 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.046892 | 0 | 0.156572 | 0.073635 | 0 | 0 | 0.180246 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064599 | 0 | 0 | 0.081093 | 0 | 0.212702 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074751 | 0 | 0.176072 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052653 | 0.076478 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056114 | 0 | 0.052778 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.035335 | 0 | 0.054461 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052467 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.043953 | 0 | 0 | 0.062311 | 0 | 0.136879 | 0.123997 | 0.055197 | 0.056225 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088097 | 0.138341 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.24133 | 0 | 0.051985 | 0 | 0.124413 | 0.044333 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.036644 | 0.070684 | 0 | 0.043788 | 0.128649 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061281 | 0.187239 | 0 | 0.10776 | 0 | 0.066347 | 0.047638 | 0 | 0.04551 | 0 | 0.087562 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.051131 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059815 | 0.08031 | 0 | 0 | 0.195909 | 0 | 0 | 0.213115 |
suicidewatch | Silverscales13 | 2019/09/16 | is there anyone i could just talk to? i've been wanting to honestly talk to someone for so long. i feel like i can't be honest with the people around me anymore and i hate it. i hate it so much | -0.699767 | 1.269923 | 1.759349 | 97.766465 | 89 | 4.370233 | 17.902326 | 5.683918 | -0.518243 | 150 | 4 | 36 | 1 | 5 | 51 | 32 | 43 | 0.216 | 0.661 | 0.123 | -0.6529 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 9 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 3 | 6 | 6 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 26 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.272344 | 0.192017 | 0 | 0 | 0.244466 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.219258 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138854 | 0.196185 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.542251 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134163 | 0 | 0 | 0.243026 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.201874 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190384 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.232681 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.441451 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161975 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | nothrowawayforyou123 | 2019/09/16 | It's Sunday Night That means tomorrow is Monday.
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I always go to bed hoping I don't wake up on Sunday night. I daydream about going to bed and waking up in a place where I have self control and where I do not feel as if everyone around me looks down on me; where I haven't by my own actions caused people t... | 6.953182 | 5.77885 | 7.209778 | 78.638 | 64.909091 | 9.738182 | 29.39596 | 8.548687 | 1.983338 | 777 | 19 | 156 | 9 | 10 | 253 | 120 | 198 | 0.101 | 0.827 | 0.072 | -0.5613 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 25 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 12 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 16 | 3 | 2 | 8 | 1 | 37 | 35 | 15 | 2 | 7 | 11 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 7 | 6 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 22 | 5 | 34 | 29 | 5 | 35 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 4 | 19 | 0 | 7 | 10 | 115 | 29 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08985 | 0.350998 | 0.393633 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075504 | 0 | 0 | 0.096128 | 0 | 0 | 0.101453 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095502 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110928 | 0 | 0.093018 | 0 | 0 | 0.121112 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110493 | 0 | 0.121466 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103182 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163798 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122738 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096731 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072379 | 0 | 0 | 0.107251 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.22084 | 0 | 0.052755 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090678 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144159 | 0 | 0 | 0.117625 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07938 | 0 | 0.083283 | 0 | 0 | 0.202669 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074862 | 0 | 0.225638 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086048 | 0 | 0.11265 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115095 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118116 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162379 | 0.086793 | 0.094382 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062966 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073313 | 0.117454 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063691 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.234206 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076708 | 0 | 0.393633 | 0 |
suicidewatch | angry_apathist | 2019/09/16 | I think everyone is trying to convince me to kill myself. I would say I am a schizophrenic but, I don't trust psychologist, they are con artist, they are politicians tools. People are more manipulative and narcissistic then ever. I think I should kill myself. They have gotten me out of jobs and relationships. I am tire... | 3.851897 | 6.925895 | 4.63808 | 77.330984 | 79 | 7.420141 | 23.468384 | 8.418075 | 1.933012 | 271 | 9 | 46 | 6 | 7 | 87 | 43 | 61 | 0.257 | 0.72 | 0.023 | -0.9539 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 10 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 10 | 14 | 4 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 14 | 2 | 6 | 11 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 37 | 14 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.23914 | 0 | 0.252619 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.262348 | 0 | 0.584977 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183282 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.283837 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.210239 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187124 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.338798 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.303857 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179491 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187802 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | ThaStuke | 2019/09/16 | The thing that scares me the most is myself Don’t know if anyone else feels this but I am the biggest danger to myself. I’d describe myself as chill asf, generally happy, and I have one of those personalities that resonates with a lot of people. My personalities been gone for a while now and it’s gonna be a really long... | 2.85111 | 4.135236 | 4.055977 | 89.080205 | 74.348259 | 6.978142 | 22.917991 | 7.482217 | 0.757709 | 1,519 | 40 | 331 | 18 | 31 | 497 | 197 | 402 | 0.238 | 0.65 | 0.112 | -0.997 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 30 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 9 | 30 | 12 | 4 | 20 | 1 | 28 | 14 | 9 | 1 | 4 | 64 | 65 | 33 | 1 | 9 | 11 | 2 | 4 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 22 | 21 | 0 | 3 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 9 | 19 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 11 | 49 | 10 | 43 | 46 | 7 | 59 | 3 | 2 | 5 | 4 | 16 | 25 | 11 | 6 | 32 | 206 | 71 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160612 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098975 | 0.076308 | 0 | 0 | 0.07217 | 0.101768 | 0.149127 | 0 | 0.064783 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055957 | 0 | 0.133084 | 0 | 0.061924 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080833 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076983 | 0.062687 | 0 | 0 | 0.08162 | 0.348616 | 0 | 0 | 0.046932 | 0 | 0.125357 | 0 | 0.075526 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121584 | 0 | 0.064455 | 0 | 0 | 0.048065 | 0.065827 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068603 | 0 | 0.073592 | 0 | 0 | 0.079718 | 0.066512 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.269107 | 0.076041 | 0.06981 | 0.041358 | 0 | 0.058203 | 0 | 0.080167 | 0 | 0 | 0.154935 | 0 | 0 | 0.074685 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.048778 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159975 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074414 | 0.051401 | 0.213317 | 0 | 0 | 0.064401 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123737 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073337 | 0 | 0.073479 | 0.08523 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.049312 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151353 | 0.127084 | 0.076031 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.04662 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057871 | 0.291431 | 0 | 0.23196 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.373498 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154526 | 0 | 0 | 0.060841 | 0 | 0 | 0.083307 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054716 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084494 | 0.048347 | 0.186518 | 0 | 0 | 0.042434 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.049408 | 0 | 0.071088 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060045 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074161 | 0.051695 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | dylanthe-klebold | 2019/09/16 | I’ve spent the last twenty minutes looking up suicide methods and I found the one I’m going to use 19 year old F.
I’ve been feeling super hopeless like my life won’t change and I genuinely hate myself and see no need for living anymore.
I was thinking about getting an Airbnb with a garage and leaving the engine running... | 3.281824 | 5.152446 | 3.961997 | 87.775904 | 74.421687 | 5.706713 | 28.724613 | 6.182691 | 1.279442 | 331 | 14 | 63 | 2 | 7 | 105 | 64 | 83 | 0.181 | 0.658 | 0.161 | -0.4445 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 16 | 17 | 6 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 4 | 7 | 3 | 8 | 11 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 33 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.211761 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.225883 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.221607 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.215931 | 0 | 0 | 0.233908 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.468243 | 0 | 0 | 0.111559 | 0 | 0.121352 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.210814 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174053 | 0 | 0.226094 | 0 | 0 | 0.15082 | 0.104319 | 0 | 0.188548 | 0 | 0.179309 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158328 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.224061 | 0 | 0.144691 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170153 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.233564 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13682 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184419 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169488 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137504 |
suicidewatch | PlumberWhosGonnaDoIt | 2019/09/16 | I have lost everything I once had. My friends don't want to hang out with me. My favorite human started dating someone else. The endless dreams I had just suddenly disappeared one day. My parents want me to be successful, but I've lost track of my goals in life. I don't feel alive. I don't feel like I'll ever be able t... | 0.997 | 2.995917 | 2.47 | 95.165 | 82 | 6 | 22.5 | 7.168622 | 0.60625 | 296 | 10 | 68 | 4 | 8 | 96 | 53 | 80 | 0.217 | 0.682 | 0.101 | -0.7571 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 10 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 19 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 3 | 13 | 3 | 9 | 11 | 0 | 11 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 39 | 14 | 2 | 0.223828 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14435 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186979 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202465 | 0 | 0 | 0.201162 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.339522 | 0.159902 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172929 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.237001 | 0 | 0 | 0.158096 | 0.109351 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.488668 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.238369 | 0.151671 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.248534 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189648 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158426 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14342 | 0 | 0 | 0.130516 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.264039 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Masterlet | 2019/09/16 | I'm excited to commit suicide. Too many problems.
So if someone wants to know why I attempted suicide, then I want to say that I'm killing myself for Miranda Cosgrove because she's my favorite actress. | 5.106754 | 7.084824 | 6.118421 | 73.757281 | 69.789474 | 8.224561 | 44.245614 | 8.841846 | 4.714972 | 163 | 12 | 25 | 3 | 3 | 54 | 31 | 38 | 0.322 | 0.5 | 0.178 | -0.8807 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 5 | 3 | 3 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 1 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 14 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174646 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.316966 | 0 | 0.157451 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.290463 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.274139 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.227834 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.242748 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.626762 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.337967 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.258519 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | threestrkesyrout | 2019/09/16 | Why do I feel this way. I just can't deal with things. I get angry, I scream at my kids I just want to be alone. Better yet I just want to be gone.
I have dreams of finding out that I have cancer or of dying in a car crash and those dreams make me feel happier.
I don't see a reason to be here. I contribute nothing. N... | -0.201017 | 2.035763 | 1.745387 | 96.483591 | 90.578947 | 4.933923 | 14.590447 | 6.522977 | -0.594575 | 489 | 9 | 113 | 6 | 17 | 161 | 84 | 133 | 0.174 | 0.688 | 0.138 | -0.71 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 19 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 12 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 12 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 27 | 24 | 4 | 1 | 5 | 8 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 18 | 2 | 19 | 18 | 0 | 15 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 76 | 25 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185062 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121511 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159066 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.316062 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184215 | 0 | 0 | 0.185445 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180696 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.326627 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.18671 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119273 | 0 | 0.179512 | 0 | 0 | 0.180005 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132492 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171452 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121081 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123877 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114469 | 0.183717 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.30519 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142388 | 0.162667 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.200022 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118709 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121314 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.210785 | 0.141831 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161234 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130084 | 0 | 0 | 0.253864 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Enlightened33 | 2019/09/16 | Suicide because I’m lazy I’m not sure if I actually have depression or not but it certainly feels like it. I just feel perpetually stressed out about everything in my life no matter how small or large the issue is. I feel like I have this heavy blanket on sometimes and I just can’t really seem to get it off of me.
I ... | 2.749038 | 4.250524 | 4.180688 | 87.204567 | 75.006711 | 7.382774 | 27.181767 | 8.076483 | 1.618416 | 1,137 | 44 | 243 | 18 | 24 | 377 | 144 | 298 | 0.216 | 0.704 | 0.079 | -0.994 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 21 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 13 | 17 | 5 | 1 | 12 | 0 | 28 | 8 | 2 | 7 | 7 | 64 | 62 | 23 | 3 | 6 | 15 | 2 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 15 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 15 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 10 | 35 | 8 | 35 | 51 | 7 | 21 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 5 | 11 | 2 | 9 | 9 | 162 | 50 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0.092083 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064169 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065979 | 0.096684 | 0.077651 | 0.084001 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115043 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081273 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082576 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157653 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090166 | 0.084805 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.28627 | 0.134823 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147899 | 0 | 0.107255 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093162 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092926 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098488 | 0 | 0 | 0.208793 | 0 | 0.051858 | 0 | 0.106443 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.333249 | 0.1383 | 0 | 0.083322 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160445 | 0 | 0 | 0.125973 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072777 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071766 | 0 | 0 | 0.209553 | 0 | 0 | 0.065418 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1209 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150387 | 0.085903 | 0.098439 | 0 | 0.19372 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093325 | 0.105629 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10809 | 0 | 0 | 0.103215 | 0 | 0.088934 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125378 | 0.120925 | 0 | 0.299648 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.278282 | 0 | 0.075691 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090961 | 0 | 0.274783 | 0 | 0.096162 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | incrediblylostinall | 2019/09/16 | I'm so toxic Every time something good comes to me, I feel weighed down because I don't believe I deserve anything good. When things are bad, as they usually are, I still feel so weighed down. I don't want anything in this life, I'm so useless and pathetic. I can't win with this pathetic mind, it's always unhappy.
I ... | 1.256748 | 3.219099 | 3.434767 | 88.782442 | 80.893204 | 7.032621 | 23.892233 | 8.076483 | 1.384005 | 767 | 28 | 166 | 15 | 20 | 262 | 112 | 206 | 0.26 | 0.665 | 0.074 | -0.9912 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 20 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 1 | 13 | 13 | 2 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 16 | 8 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 27 | 35 | 18 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 7 | 2 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 6 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 33 | 4 | 19 | 28 | 4 | 19 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 15 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 108 | 39 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11703 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.231481 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117434 | 0.085737 | 0.155334 | 0 | 0.316922 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121155 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112295 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092896 | 0 | 0.118501 | 0.134394 | 0 | 0 | 0.13259 | 0 | 0.142231 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079933 | 0.235936 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13886 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.282818 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125014 | 0 | 0 | 0.077296 | 0.114646 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.397373 | 0 | 0 | 0.124194 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126939 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142013 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103392 | 0 | 0.108476 | 0 | 0 | 0.131988 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149658 | 0 | 0.156172 | 0 | 0 | 0.097507 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144609 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111848 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108277 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112321 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186879 | 0.090121 | 0 | 0 | 0.082012 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121474 | 0.154903 | 0 | 0.082957 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161737 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | iAmExtraTerrestrial | 2019/09/16 | Lied to myself and my family. Can't stand it anymore. Need to go. I'm going to make this quick. Done trying. My life just fucking started (18M) and I just fuck everything up. Not satisfied with anything anymore. I've made mistakes over and over and no one thinks it's a big deal. They say it's just my emotions. They say... | -0.79383 | 1.297255 | 1.616875 | 97.385313 | 91.88 | 4.725 | 18.2125 | 6.322622 | -0.19267 | 444 | 13 | 105 | 5 | 16 | 150 | 78 | 125 | 0.199 | 0.725 | 0.077 | -0.9305 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 5 | 8 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 9 | 7 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 23 | 25 | 7 | 1 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 6 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 3 | 13 | 2 | 19 | 19 | 2 | 19 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 10 | 3 | 1 | 3 | 67 | 20 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16252 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.292112 | 0 | 0 | 0.121194 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151833 | 0 | 0 | 0.152847 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150712 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165663 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13236 | 0 | 0.138837 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161478 | 0 | 0.272304 | 0 | 0 | 0.334796 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.208048 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139354 | 0.098306 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148417 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109202 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156842 | 0.099796 | 0 | 0.313419 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166029 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.351354 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151174 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104241 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110732 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094367 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099989 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173732 | 0.116899 | 0 | 0 | 0.132417 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107217 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | frankendroid | 2019/09/16 | when you think no one cares and it’s actually true i can look at the situation objectively and i think a lot of other people do with themselves as well, it doesn’t change the feeling. logically i’m aware the people in my life will be affected by my death but it will all be in selfish ways and while i care, i do i swear... | 3.072676 | 3.840668 | 5.071944 | 83.991014 | 73.178404 | 8.496901 | 27.815023 | 8.841846 | 1.941165 | 787 | 29 | 175 | 15 | 15 | 273 | 114 | 213 | 0.199 | 0.643 | 0.158 | -0.9318 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 13 | 11 | 1 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 18 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 38 | 43 | 23 | 2 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 6 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 5 | 27 | 5 | 22 | 37 | 8 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 11 | 4 | 1 | 3 | 5 | 123 | 37 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123675 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131259 | 0 | 0.101349 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.231768 | 0 | 0 | 0.142786 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.258428 | 0 | 0.134068 | 0 | 0.132879 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13153 | 0.132411 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.251121 | 0 | 0 | 0.2422 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192242 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072026 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169895 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143068 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06965 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089516 | 0.061916 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106425 | 0 | 0 | 0.107745 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138051 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187944 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.257636 | 0.096387 | 0.134854 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175723 | 0.11066 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136641 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130304 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126883 | 0 | 0.100991 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142455 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101864 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147148 | 0 | 0.162413 | 0.249032 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1211 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104569 | 0.224254 | 0.100596 | 0 | 0 | 0.113949 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | throwawaycandy69420 | 2019/09/16 | I’m getting kicked out of the US after living here practically my entire life 15F, After years of fighting through fuckery from just life in general, the rug has finally been pulled under us. I was just starting to make new friends, thinking maybe it’s worth sticking around for a while, and bullshit like this happens. ... | 7.567329 | 7.386114 | 6.722021 | 79.374264 | 63.246575 | 8.943836 | 37.428082 | 8.076483 | 2.95051 | 308 | 14 | 56 | 3 | 4 | 94 | 59 | 73 | 0.124 | 0.777 | 0.099 | -0.4404 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 7 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 9 | 14 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 13 | 10 | 0 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 35 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135709 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197912 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177653 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.218611 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154181 | 0.184492 | 0.104263 | 0.191438 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176472 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.42287 | 0.097496 | 0 | 0.352434 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188831 | 0.133209 | 0 | 0.200487 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192738 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141251 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127871 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.480098 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128512 |
suicidewatch | Cassieshere | 2019/09/16 | This page is sad. This page is called suicide watch, but all most of you do on here, is ENCOURAGE suicide. Smdh. | 0.648485 | 3.149439 | 1.215455 | 99.409848 | 90.818182 | 4.751515 | 20.969697 | 6.427356 | 0.175224 | 86 | 3 | 19 | 1 | 3 | 26 | 17 | 22 | 0.319 | 0.52 | 0.16 | -0.6705 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 4 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 13 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.422952 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.906152 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | errydayvlad | 2019/09/16 | I know imma not doing it like never but I’m thinking about how to do it, the pain it will occur all the time I’ve got a really good situation and I feel like I’m doing everything I can to fuck up all my life half conscientiously like I know I am doing it but for somebody else and I feel like it’s the right thing to do ... | 0.961489 | 2.548571 | 3.288825 | 91.298181 | 80.235955 | 6.397566 | 20.113764 | 7.333567 | 0.33746 | 954 | 24 | 225 | 13 | 24 | 329 | 125 | 267 | 0.165 | 0.711 | 0.124 | -0.8154 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 12 | 18 | 1 | 0 | 15 | 0 | 22 | 6 | 0 | 4 | 7 | 48 | 52 | 15 | 0 | 4 | 9 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 13 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 10 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 3 | 32 | 12 | 29 | 45 | 8 | 22 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 23 | 11 | 1 | 3 | 16 | 146 | 45 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.18352 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093253 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088345 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192031 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075076 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109046 | 0 | 0.07855 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.248425 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169017 | 0 | 0.088644 | 0 | 0.095089 | 0.134351 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072648 | 0.08693 | 0 | 0 | 0.106879 | 0.078868 | 0.075205 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.18908 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092601 | 0 | 0.100662 | 0 | 0 | 0.098143 | 0 | 0.083579 | 0 | 0 | 0.413414 | 0 | 0 | 0.099565 | 0 | 0 | 0.066417 | 0.32157 | 0 | 0 | 0.083214 | 0 | 0 | 0.205291 | 0 | 0.169732 | 0 | 0.062766 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072522 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063717 | 0 | 0.100055 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.195567 | 0.246311 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060238 | 0 | 0 | 0.100954 | 0 | 0.080302 | 0 | 0.074777 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077783 | 0.105694 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075093 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151156 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06247 | 0.120502 | 0 | 0 | 0.21932 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063841 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081212 | 0 | 0 | 0.055462 | 0 | 0.075426 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102808 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Mamberchori | 2019/09/16 | Feeling suicidal again after almost half a year And I don't know what to do. I'm desperate. I can already feel that terrible sensation, the dark thoughts, everything.
And I'm afraid this time it'll be worse, that I'll have to deal with it alone, because I'd talk to my girlfriend whenever this happened (and she put up ... | 2.32349 | 3.628563 | 3.704047 | 90.992902 | 75.732673 | 7.822277 | 24.506188 | 8.472885 | 1.333623 | 374 | 12 | 86 | 7 | 8 | 123 | 66 | 101 | 0.206 | 0.782 | 0.013 | -0.9408 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 14 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 9 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 16 | 18 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 9 | 1 | 13 | 15 | 0 | 15 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 10 | 53 | 18 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194224 | 0 | 0.219402 | 0.226927 | 0.241788 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133565 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.225888 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194062 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.196918 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.221573 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193754 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.240829 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154761 | 0.107044 | 0.219601 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174888 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.220261 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140365 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.224909 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.239666 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176109 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173945 | 0.127762 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129234 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.223287 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.282193 |
suicidewatch | Riszien | 2019/09/16 | I'm going to kill myself tonight and I want everyone to know it's because of r/vegan and women [ref](https://i.imgur.com/sm9vBEn.png) | 7.05087 | 10.003061 | 6.851522 | 66.42337 | 66.826087 | 9.817391 | 33.23913 | 10.125757 | 4.25867 | 111 | 5 | 15 | 3 | 2 | 35 | 20 | 23 | 0.214 | 0.727 | 0.059 | -0.6597 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.3267 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.512107 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.304583 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.592931 | 0 | 0.294535 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.316107 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | idkwhattoputlol69 | 2019/09/16 | I don’t feel happiness anymore I honestly can’t remember the last time i was really happy. Yeah I still laugh at things and have a good experience once in a while, but I’m always preoccupied by my thoughts. Life just doesn’t feel good anymore. I’m just in pain the whole time. My anxiety has gotten so bad I get panic at... | 1.336199 | 3.82449 | 3.11003 | 87.978867 | 84.853659 | 6.538618 | 24.151423 | 7.793538 | 1.503898 | 805 | 32 | 162 | 16 | 24 | 267 | 131 | 205 | 0.271 | 0.565 | 0.164 | -0.9896 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 30 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 14 | 25 | 3 | 2 | 6 | 1 | 20 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 28 | 37 | 14 | 1 | 1 | 7 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 13 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 3 | 26 | 12 | 21 | 28 | 4 | 19 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 9 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 104 | 31 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148258 | 0 | 0 | 0.119111 | 0 | 0 | 0.097346 | 0 | 0.109508 | 0 | 0.283929 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162852 | 0 | 0 | 0.119523 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123293 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140026 | 0 | 0 | 0.14476 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110596 | 0 | 0.299156 | 0 | 0.081354 | 0.240132 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.304768 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07867 | 0.116685 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10111 | 0.069935 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121699 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144539 | 0.167653 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137355 | 0 | 0 | 0.152448 | 0 | 0.108871 | 0.15232 | 0.167954 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099241 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136973 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143187 | 0 | 0.091704 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162159 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114318 | 0 | 0.163976 | 0 | 0 | 0.156581 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095101 | 0.091724 | 0 | 0.113644 | 0.250413 | 0 | 0 | 0.136784 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128707 | 0 | 0 | 0.15982 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | rycoji | 2019/09/16 | Best way? If you do have a gun, I think jumping of something high on too something hard is the best way... thoughts? | 2.34087 | 4.12321 | 2.23413 | 99.527717 | 76.826087 | 4.6 | 28.891304 | 3.1291 | 0.459974 | 88 | 4 | 20 | 0 | 2 | 26 | 20 | 23 | 0.129 | 0.575 | 0.296 | 0.7882 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 4 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 13 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.599539 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.255884 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.301802 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.439811 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183031 | 0 | 0.226772 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.453467 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Imademydecision | 2019/09/16 | I’m ending it this week I just wrote my suicide letter to my boyfriend, soon to be ex I expect. I don’t think I ever felt so guilty writing a letter to someone, I genuinely love him so much. It was the most heartfelt but also heartbreaking letter I’ve ever written. We’re in a long distance relationship so I feel so gui... | 0.566689 | 2.527692 | 2.782633 | 92.541916 | 83.343066 | 5.666111 | 21.82951 | 6.86897 | 0.485478 | 995 | 33 | 225 | 12 | 28 | 338 | 142 | 274 | 0.194 | 0.683 | 0.122 | -0.9801 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 30 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 28 | 18 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 1 | 22 | 12 | 5 | 0 | 6 | 45 | 42 | 23 | 1 | 7 | 11 | 3 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 16 | 6 | 1 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 7 | 40 | 11 | 23 | 31 | 10 | 22 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 21 | 7 | 1 | 4 | 15 | 159 | 56 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120866 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099048 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.245665 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103415 | 0.075502 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12998 | 0.109541 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136051 | 0.079877 | 0 | 0.106678 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.329101 | 0 | 0 | 0.163613 | 0.224071 | 0 | 0.236701 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.250503 | 0.088483 | 0.118922 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095692 | 0.114504 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127113 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132591 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128978 | 0.068069 | 0 | 0 | 0.262293 | 0 | 0 | 0.087484 | 0.06051 | 0 | 0 | 0.109609 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.223571 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14506 | 0 | 0 | 0.182098 | 0.091838 | 0.095526 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131792 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118621 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132976 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104944 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197825 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135479 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114031 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158725 | 0.121689 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12099 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146108 | 0 | 0.099351 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | FuxkLiam | 2019/09/16 | Whats the point? The good times always get drastically outweighed by the bad times, is it even worth going on if all I do is feel worse and worse? | 4.125 | 4.766139 | 4.42 | 90.09 | 70.666667 | 7.333333 | 21.666667 | 7.168622 | 0.308667 | 115 | 2 | 26 | 1 | 2 | 36 | 25 | 30 | 0.266 | 0.608 | 0.127 | -0.7399 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 6 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 15 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.265951 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.266871 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.211108 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161611 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166989 | 0 | 0.181649 | 0.268084 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.302146 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.372749 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.651445 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | ElScorcho1266384 | 2019/09/16 | Please help me I don’t know how to handle this situation anymore and I don’t want to be insensitive!!!!!!!!! My one friend from college went through a rough time with her now ex boyfriend. It’s been almost a year since they broke up. He lives with his now girlfriend (who used to be his ex gf before my friend ) and my f... | 2.395402 | 4.015188 | 3.011658 | 94.720954 | 76.225434 | 5.928483 | 21.757624 | 6.48374 | 0.146719 | 1,312 | 34 | 297 | 10 | 29 | 409 | 164 | 346 | 0.173 | 0.713 | 0.114 | -0.9829 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 53 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 12 | 24 | 9 | 0 | 7 | 1 | 29 | 8 | 3 | 2 | 4 | 61 | 55 | 27 | 1 | 12 | 11 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 11 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 19 | 23 | 1 | 2 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 10 | 13 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 10 | 55 | 11 | 38 | 43 | 4 | 31 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 3 | 77 | 10 | 2 | 8 | 17 | 189 | 74 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0.084399 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086605 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071965 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171545 | 0 | 0 | 0.071172 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133007 | 0 | 0.052722 | 0 | 0.073595 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074501 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069053 | 0 | 0 | 0.111555 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088498 | 0.072249 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078233 | 0.07287 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081533 | 0 | 0.043731 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.467741 | 0.079956 | 0 | 0 | 0.098306 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085636 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102488 | 0.057971 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076874 | 0.095686 | 0 | 0.142594 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.042253 | 0 | 0.15274 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156117 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117213 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05996 | 0 | 0 | 0.094937 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082757 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.412671 | 0 | 0 | 0.137839 | 0 | 0.090225 | 0 | 0 | 0.071543 | 0.097216 | 0.1731 | 0 | 0.073281 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072308 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075594 | 0 | 0 | 0.100419 | 0.057459 | 0.055418 | 0 | 0 | 0.100863 | 0 | 0 | 0.082643 | 0 | 0 | 0.188147 | 0 | 0 | 0.104034 | 0.074698 | 0 | 0 | 0.357089 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080175 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11139 |
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