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suicidewatch | MyNameIsKayZY | 2019/09/16 | I want to die right now Recently I have had suicidal thoughts and have been so close to suicide more than once this month. I have been wondering if I was even born into the right body but thats a different subject. My parents are still trying to control what I wear and who I am which has caused me to not stay at home a... | 2.480347 | 3.915097 | 3.824312 | 89.7596 | 75.577181 | 6.845861 | 25.839485 | 7.492282 | 1.195563 | 560 | 20 | 121 | 7 | 12 | 184 | 99 | 149 | 0.19 | 0.706 | 0.103 | -0.9523 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 11 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 17 | 3 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 28 | 28 | 12 | 4 | 5 | 9 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 11 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 2 | 19 | 4 | 14 | 20 | 5 | 19 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 8 | 0 | 5 | 11 | 91 | 30 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13194 | 0 | 0 | 0.10948 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0811 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147777 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136668 | 0 | 0 | 0.13949 | 0 | 0.149215 | 0 | 0 | 0.146138 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138074 | 0.138998 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117834 | 0 | 0 | 0.263614 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134538 | 0.190087 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127624 | 0 | 0.111587 | 0.106404 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13345 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129993 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120074 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106191 | 0 | 0.195599 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141683 | 0 | 0.101183 | 0 | 0 | 0.147725 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141504 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131361 | 0 | 0 | 0.340846 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094166 | 0.141803 | 0.106246 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.436572 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130711 | 0.105619 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090325 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156941 | 0.105601 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144276 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094508 | 0 | 0 | 0.085673 |
suicidewatch | vannyemz | 2019/09/16 | I'm ready to die but I can't bring myself to do it I've made a noose with a cable and hung it from a doorknob but can't bring myself to put my full weight in it. If I owned a gun I would use that instead. | -0.3906 | 0.294946 | 2.265 | 101.0875 | 81.6 | 5 | 16.5 | 3.1291 | -1.2092 | 157 | 2 | 45 | 0 | 4 | 55 | 34 | 50 | 0.128 | 0.831 | 0.04 | -0.5859 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 8 | 9 | 4 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 6 | 7 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 31 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.434077 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.395758 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.420457 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.361234 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.509316 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.297113 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | dickymoomoo | 2019/09/16 | I feel fine so why don't I feel fine? I don't feel connected with myself, I feel empty and dazed but I feel fine. I don't know how to explain it other than how you know there's fire on the other side of a door you put check the handle.
it's like I'm lost and I keep forgetting things i know and I'll have a little voic... | -0.486027 | 1.450273 | 2.074936 | 96.145064 | 87.526786 | 4.655429 | 16.995714 | 5.927763 | -0.575415 | 783 | 18 | 189 | 6 | 25 | 269 | 104 | 224 | 0.098 | 0.746 | 0.157 | 0.8981 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 18 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 8 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 16 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 41 | 40 | 22 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 10 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 14 | 13 | 1 | 1 | 14 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 12 | 20 | 13 | 20 | 38 | 2 | 18 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 14 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 111 | 34 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127218 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145519 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.616015 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139189 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079565 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175721 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135361 | 0 | 0 | 0.41847 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.297603 | 0.152633 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166241 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146125 | 0.173382 | 0 | 0 | 0.103195 | 0.231645 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153092 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117239 | 0 | 0 | 0.107791 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101174 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137417 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | anon102601 | 2019/09/16 | i dont know i dont know why but i just feel empty ya know? like nothing/no one makes me happy anymore. all i feel is anger or sadness unless im out with a group of people then i force myself to be cheery. im just so tired, so f-ing tired. i want to die. | -2.072286 | -0.43713 | 1.12619 | 102.255 | 92 | 3.428571 | 13.571429 | 3.1291 | -1.627357 | 192 | 3 | 52 | 0 | 7 | 68 | 43 | 60 | 0.339 | 0.47 | 0.191 | -0.9278 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 15 | 11 | 6 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 2 | 6 | 10 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 29 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19769 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206881 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.467245 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.201582 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.212199 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.430638 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.328653 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097386 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13306 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135077 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138196 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.458219 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117575 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179871 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | CatMafia_ | 2019/09/16 | Things actually have gotten better, yet I want to die now more than ever It's so weird. A month ago I had nothing to look forward to and spent my days feeling numb, sobbing, and having panic attacks. Now, the panic attacks have been more manageable, I actually have things that make me happy and that I look forward to o... | 4.800714 | 4.697484 | 6.133429 | 81.011571 | 69 | 8.862857 | 27.514286 | 8.548687 | 1.790924 | 636 | 18 | 132 | 9 | 10 | 216 | 95 | 168 | 0.155 | 0.762 | 0.082 | -0.844 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 23 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 12 | 11 | 3 | 2 | 10 | 0 | 11 | 5 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 27 | 29 | 10 | 2 | 3 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 3 | 16 | 3 | 19 | 19 | 6 | 31 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 8 | 2 | 2 | 25 | 94 | 26 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0.223738 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.203237 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087697 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.260832 | 0.107705 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202774 | 0.125154 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117763 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073931 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.23795 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101534 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.207391 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057964 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10598 | 0.059893 | 0.21994 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126285 | 0 | 0 | 0.122033 | 0 | 0 | 0.11765 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129411 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080971 | 0 | 0 | 0.202453 | 0.10145 | 0.192532 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076521 | 0 | 0.230336 | 0 | 0 | 0.115484 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183004 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088415 | 0.110717 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109997 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.269003 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12193 | 0 | 0 | 0.146878 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08114 | 0 | 0.091549 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086193 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.304638 | 0 | 0 | 0.091009 | 0 | 0 | 0.108662 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135231 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081435 | 0 | 0 | 0.073822 |
suicidewatch | EZ-E25 | 2019/09/16 | Been contemplating suicide a lot lately.. The title explains itself. I've had suicidal thoughts for a really long time now.. I've made an attempt in the past... I thought everything was going to get better, but I couldn't have been more wrong, like always.. I just wanted to let someone know how I'm feeling before I tak... | 2.717366 | 5.401218 | 4.016339 | 82.551875 | 80.25 | 6.157143 | 26.330357 | 7.44753 | 1.741967 | 266 | 11 | 46 | 4 | 7 | 87 | 53 | 64 | 0.154 | 0.733 | 0.113 | -0.575 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 12 | 18 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 1 | 5 | 2 | 4 | 9 | 2 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 28 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179819 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183891 | 0 | 0 | 0.191129 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194223 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10927 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112907 | 0 | 0.122819 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118767 | 0 | 0.243778 | 0 | 0 | 0.220984 | 0.152643 | 0.105579 | 0 | 0 | 0.191248 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183727 | 0 | 0.204486 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206299 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138444 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183107 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.472773 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162486 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.34313 | 0.126014 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127466 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.236279 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Blondiegirl25 | 2019/09/16 | Kinda wanna die Surprise I’m suicidal like most of yall. When I look back at my life I think I always have wanted to die. Not kill myself but just not exist. No stress, no pain, no worry you know. Just nothing. Like I genuinely remember being like seven and wondering what would happen if I ran out in front of a car. No... | -1.212614 | 0.746182 | 1.564848 | 98.092273 | 92.068182 | 4.866667 | 14.818182 | 6.427356 | -0.64615 | 909 | 18 | 226 | 11 | 33 | 314 | 140 | 264 | 0.24 | 0.634 | 0.126 | -0.9906 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 19 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 16 | 23 | 5 | 4 | 7 | 0 | 20 | 9 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 54 | 51 | 22 | 4 | 8 | 15 | 3 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 3 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 16 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 12 | 14 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 33 | 9 | 28 | 41 | 4 | 26 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 13 | 11 | 3 | 5 | 11 | 143 | 45 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0.107898 | 0 | 0.132881 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184003 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181976 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17004 | 0.09232 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095245 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.229504 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11315 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114246 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104234 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085425 | 0.102218 | 0.057767 | 0.106067 | 0.062838 | 0.092739 | 0.088431 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097775 | 0.117702 | 0 | 0.109163 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116821 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127581 | 0.118365 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109722 | 0 | 0.122327 | 0 | 0.182296 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.234292 | 0.216072 | 0 | 0.195267 | 0 | 0.092849 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129496 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106093 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117652 | 0 | 0.122773 | 0 | 0 | 0.076654 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112487 | 0.119211 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125252 | 0 | 0 | 0.087928 | 0.221396 | 0.111901 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.253311 | 0 | 0 | 0.120944 | 0 | 0.104209 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070848 | 0 | 0 | 0.064473 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.32608 | 0 | 0.088691 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119906 | 0.080495 | 0.112287 | 0 | 0.078544 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | dynnerbone | 2019/09/16 | Numb I have mostly stopped feeling anything but anger and pain. I am numb to the wonders of this world. I find no joy in existing, no amusement in anything. I feel like an empty shell trying out new games, new sports... only to get bored of them days later. Days have become a blur melting together as the time goes on a... | 2.526361 | 4.945705 | 3.197959 | 89.723267 | 79 | 5.468987 | 23.799051 | 6.627428 | 0.791923 | 319 | 11 | 61 | 3 | 8 | 100 | 59 | 79 | 0.314 | 0.535 | 0.152 | -0.9454 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 10 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 14 | 8 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 7 | 4 | 10 | 8 | 1 | 18 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 3 | 14 | 34 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.340856 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.228729 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.267129 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.314153 | 0.147954 | 0 | 0 | 0.189288 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108203 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.203955 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.20236 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.400043 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157511 | 0.220372 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.346295 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.241527 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140609 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166126 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.224594 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | unheardtitan | 2019/09/16 | Shout out to my sister who wont give me her Xfinity login so I can use wifi Gonna be a sad day in hell when I strangle myself
*Kanye shrug* | -1.53375 | 0.345283 | 1.5425 | 98.2525 | 92.75 | 4.45 | 14.25 | 5.985473 | -0.88115 | 108 | 2 | 27 | 1 | 4 | 38 | 31 | 32 | 0.235 | 0.765 | 0 | -0.8271 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 16 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.446944 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.664813 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.598552 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | CookieMess110717 | 2019/09/16 | Trapped I can’t ever communicate properly.
I can’t find the words I want to say.
Heck I don’t know even if this will make sense.
Music is the only thing keeping me alive right now. I have friends and family but I’m non binary so I doubt they’ll even love me after I tell them.i just always feel like I’m trapped in my bo... | 0.498113 | 2.510833 | 2.561597 | 93.729063 | 83.96732 | 5.916503 | 18.712827 | 7.168622 | 0.165353 | 557 | 14 | 129 | 8 | 16 | 187 | 87 | 153 | 0.16 | 0.671 | 0.17 | -0.3324 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 16 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 7 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 15 | 3 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 28 | 33 | 7 | 0 | 6 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 14 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 23 | 3 | 9 | 29 | 2 | 14 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 7 | 1 | 2 | 8 | 78 | 37 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117708 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160934 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157133 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145321 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112946 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121841 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186869 | 0.255922 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133358 | 0 | 0.143055 | 0.101061 | 0 | 0 | 0.258588 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109293 | 0 | 0.073908 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145181 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125738 | 0 | 0 | 0.155488 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069111 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127675 | 0 | 0.094427 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104893 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135737 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107588 | 0 | 0.165976 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098072 | 0 | 0.147798 | 0 | 0.133728 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.241616 | 0 | 0.449986 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118269 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123644 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.281944 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166876 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162675 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144162 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | ignoremynamepls | 2019/09/16 | Couldn’t do it I really just want to get this off my chest without telling someone I love and making a big deal out of it.
I’ve been very depressed since I’ve graduated high school due to a series of unexpected events that changed my life.
I’ve toyed around with the idea of killing myself, especially in very reversi... | 3.736036 | 4.680019 | 4.578658 | 87.485716 | 71.780083 | 7.496314 | 26.624603 | 7.724431 | 1.306468 | 925 | 30 | 198 | 11 | 17 | 299 | 132 | 241 | 0.176 | 0.787 | 0.037 | -0.9868 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 25 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 13 | 13 | 2 | 3 | 16 | 0 | 10 | 6 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 42 | 29 | 19 | 2 | 5 | 5 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 10 | 19 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 5 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 7 | 29 | 3 | 35 | 18 | 4 | 40 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 1 | 6 | 20 | 0 | 2 | 14 | 130 | 39 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126936 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096974 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.33854 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077274 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138393 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134099 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139244 | 0 | 0.130688 | 0.218363 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142645 | 0.192287 | 0 | 0.121713 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132458 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133933 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146268 | 0 | 0.143101 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.280491 | 0 | 0.069666 | 0.206659 | 0 | 0 | 0.137729 | 0 | 0.089537 | 0 | 0.127051 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138378 | 0 | 0.114409 | 0 | 0.084616 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148464 | 0.101182 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118959 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137273 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162416 | 0.130334 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108256 | 0 | 0 | 0.126913 | 0.128292 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10486 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107407 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110797 | 0.116707 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073917 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140839 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.209187 | 0.224306 | 0.100619 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117511 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122196 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090049 | 0 | 0 | 0.081632 |
suicidewatch | thaifoodparadise | 2019/01/03 | The anxiety of thinking about my parents' future death and the inevitable depression is making me want to take the easy way out It's cowardly I know. But I feel the only way to avoid the suffering of my parents dying is to end my life first. I'm 28, I'm an only child, and I still live at home for half my time (the othe... | 2.454608 | 3.75668 | 3.787516 | 90.538529 | 75.388889 | 6.74902 | 23.354031 | 7.285733 | 0.757155 | 804 | 23 | 177 | 9 | 17 | 264 | 123 | 216 | 0.127 | 0.777 | 0.096 | -0.4653 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 20 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 4 | 9 | 1 | 1 | 12 | 0 | 19 | 5 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 29 | 38 | 10 | 5 | 2 | 6 | 7 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 8 | 1 | 4 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 7 | 2 | 3 | 31 | 4 | 25 | 31 | 3 | 24 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 16 | 9 | 0 | 3 | 12 | 113 | 35 | 1 | 0.113974 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155013 | 0 | 0.17438 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129662 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.255664 | 0.090999 | 0 | 0.125195 | 0.147008 | 0 | 0.098166 | 0 | 0.354862 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133577 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.201895 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096028 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115258 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096946 | 0 | 0 | 0.088056 | 0 | 0.119094 | 0 | 0.064774 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125556 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13506 | 0.076395 | 0 | 0.114326 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125275 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080503 | 0 | 0 | 0.100641 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076079 | 0.115552 | 0 | 0 | 0.1266 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.266971 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154464 | 0.260048 | 0 | 0 | 0.379665 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09102 | 0.095288 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171389 | 0 | 0 | 0.104932 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07303 | 0 | 0.090483 | 0.066459 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111336 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067225 | 0.180935 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Generic_Satanist21 | 2019/01/03 | at work; feel like im a non-existent shadow floating by... ive been on different meds... just had a new switch 3 weeks ago, plus an increase and I still hate existence. I'm depressed. I don't want to be around I feel like everyone stares right through me. I feel like im floppy (messy) with everyday skills and at work I... | -0.484823 | 1.55187 | 1.772432 | 97.563056 | 88.72973 | 5.577547 | 21.151074 | 7.010147 | 0.406324 | 393 | 14 | 96 | 6 | 13 | 132 | 69 | 111 | 0.074 | 0.833 | 0.094 | 0.2117 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 18 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 7 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 16 | 21 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 6 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 11 | 4 | 13 | 17 | 1 | 15 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 46 | 15 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131907 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132468 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09071 | 0.164343 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128166 | 0 | 0 | 0.15547 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098284 | 0 | 0 | 0.14219 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.376202 | 0.425225 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1333 | 0.146914 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.32147 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163559 | 0 | 0 | 0.157563 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.290795 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165289 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143717 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142514 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127079 | 0 | 0.118336 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118836 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087769 | 0 | 0.119362 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134273 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.324996 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | never_late-_- | 2019/01/03 | Just want to share I don’t know if this is even the right sub for this but I’m so tired. I have a job but I work so few hours that I have a lot of free time, and I just sit around for 6-8-10 hours doing nothing. I have not done a single god damn thing with my life. I use all my time doing meaningless stuff never learni... | 2.149475 | 3.272875 | 3.820842 | 90.712133 | 75.859903 | 6.527657 | 22.116244 | 6.907726 | 0.447474 | 752 | 19 | 170 | 7 | 16 | 252 | 116 | 207 | 0.18 | 0.719 | 0.101 | -0.9706 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 16 | 9 | 2 | 1 | 11 | 0 | 20 | 7 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 37 | 34 | 21 | 1 | 4 | 12 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 10 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 6 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 22 | 6 | 19 | 28 | 7 | 26 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 1 | 3 | 15 | 120 | 32 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12282 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105567 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072289 | 0.39291 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125449 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121356 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078325 | 0.107269 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116001 | 0 | 0 | 0.059961 | 0.084718 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123913 | 0 | 0.067396 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118952 | 0 | 0.233568 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117679 | 0 | 0.131199 | 0 | 0.065172 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.502568 | 0.057936 | 0 | 0.104714 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100818 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182923 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113787 | 0 | 0.124437 | 0 | 0 | 0.180381 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07597 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101273 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182588 | 0 | 0 | 0.083936 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.271507 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078784 | 0.075986 | 0 | 0 | 0.138298 | 0.136298 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080513 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.204842 | 0 | 0 | 0.069946 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086333 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076366 |
suicidewatch | vlsvsfv | 2019/01/03 | I have no real reason to stay alive I am a failure in every aspect. I really wanna die. I want to go away and never come back and free everyone from the suffering i bring them. Im sick of being a screw up and im ready to go. | -0.445294 | 1.128568 | 3.427216 | 88.658471 | 84.686275 | 6.432941 | 16.082353 | 7.554174 | 0.166911 | 172 | 3 | 40 | 3 | 5 | 65 | 38 | 51 | 0.294 | 0.538 | 0.168 | -0.8183 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 9 | 8 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 9 | 7 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 27 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.236988 | 0.193958 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.217283 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.261786 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.212524 | 0.241027 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.286708 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.544926 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194544 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.287105 | 0.161592 | 0.259345 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.268855 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148778 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Throwaway_sos6969 | 2019/01/03 | My bf calls himself an incel and is extremely suicidal I don’t really post on Reddit but I’m really desperate at this point. Im hoping my responses will be compassionate and understanding. I’m also hoping people will help me with a solution besides just run/drop him/leave him because even if continuing the relationship... | 4.994436 | 5.816905 | 6.194703 | 77.491275 | 68.802095 | 9.194543 | 29.505565 | 9.368775 | 2.589623 | 3,445 | 124 | 646 | 68 | 57 | 1,158 | 341 | 859 | 0.143 | 0.712 | 0.145 | 0.6366 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 66 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 39 | 45 | 2 | 2 | 37 | 0 | 82 | 10 | 0 | 13 | 7 | 126 | 135 | 69 | 4 | 17 | 19 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 3 | 5 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 19 | 33 | 49 | 2 | 2 | 10 | 5 | 6 | 7 | 20 | 19 | 0 | 3 | 23 | 11 | 83 | 26 | 104 | 99 | 19 | 77 | 1 | 13 | 5 | 4 | 130 | 35 | 0 | 13 | 34 | 446 | 116 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0.052989 | 0 | 0 | 0.053062 | 0 | 0 | 0.054374 | 0 | 0 | 0.130272 | 0.045182 | 0 | 0 | 0.073852 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053852 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.231708 | 0 | 0.046206 | 0.183534 | 0.056985 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110894 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056933 | 0 | 0 | 0.086709 | 0 | 0 | 0.070039 | 0 | 0.374152 | 0 | 0.112711 | 0.056732 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107595 | 0.098236 | 0.137252 | 0 | 0.097604 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.04963 | 0.046188 | 0 | 0 | 0.041952 | 0 | 0.05674 | 0.05209 | 0.03086 | 0 | 0 | 0.059866 | 0.059818 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109189 | 0 | 0 | 0.107865 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058654 | 0.113351 | 0.053885 | 0 | 0.120151 | 0.056546 | 0.149211 | 0 | 0 | 0.114993 | 0.058998 | 0 | 0.115062 | 0.053057 | 0.054423 | 0.047948 | 0.096108 | 0 | 0 | 0.059275 | 0.046164 | 0.147025 | 0 | 0.144984 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054722 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079834 | 0.120789 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104206 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150581 | 0.237066 | 0 | 0 | 0.051332 | 0.061216 | 0.052005 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109174 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139145 | 0 | 0 | 0.058298 | 0 | 0 | 0.051652 | 0.086364 | 0 | 0 | 0.173082 | 0 | 0.113295 | 0 | 0 | 0.044918 | 0.061036 | 0 | 0.110705 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.038434 | 0 | 0.043364 | 0 | 0 | 0.056767 | 0 | 0.059396 | 0.06162 | 0 | 0 | 0.081654 | 0.043645 | 0 | 0.049993 | 0.062097 | 0 | 0.144299 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063326 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12066 | 0.073733 | 0.059063 | 0.053044 | 0.056529 | 0 | 0.093796 | 0 | 0.179214 | 0.192167 | 0.086202 | 0 | 0.066123 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079063 | 0 | 0.110674 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139871 |
suicidewatch | ACfireandiceDC | 2019/01/03 | There is no light at the end of the tunnel. EVERYTHING in this world is a catalyst for anxiety-provoking terror. * Simply being alive is a reminder that I get extremely lucky, considering that being born has a lower chance than winning the lottery 50 times in a row. I am alive for an infinitesimal amount of time in the... | 4.054947 | 5.40542 | 5.369812 | 80.571575 | 71.457496 | 8.235562 | 28.625998 | 8.721564 | 2.237434 | 2,575 | 98 | 491 | 46 | 48 | 861 | 283 | 647 | 0.187 | 0.722 | 0.091 | -0.9973 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 90 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 38 | 33 | 5 | 6 | 40 | 0 | 65 | 5 | 1 | 16 | 4 | 76 | 98 | 50 | 3 | 8 | 11 | 5 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 33 | 26 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 5 | 8 | 9 | 8 | 17 | 0 | 3 | 9 | 10 | 67 | 16 | 79 | 69 | 5 | 65 | 1 | 5 | 3 | 1 | 28 | 25 | 2 | 11 | 34 | 352 | 100 | 18 | 0 | 0.091168 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064025 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.35318 | 0 | 0.07631 | 0 | 0 | 0.06332 | 0.068498 | 0.071934 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093811 | 0.084981 | 0.065475 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079045 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198495 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079858 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064278 | 0.086554 | 0.136302 | 0 | 0 | 0.203288 | 0 | 0.06483 | 0 | 0.138308 | 0 | 0 | 0.086585 | 0.155625 | 0.10994 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071135 | 0.241206 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084765 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091181 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080311 | 0 | 0 | 0.085129 | 0 | 0 | 0.062721 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078682 | 0.163047 | 0.112776 | 0 | 0.135889 | 0 | 0.064615 | 0 | 0.083995 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.051362 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180236 | 0 | 0 | 0.113128 | 0.228218 | 0.118691 | 0.074315 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161483 | 0 | 0.104281 | 0.117042 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073627 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082611 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.389367 | 0.122632 | 0 | 0 | 0.086927 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065196 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061449 | 0.06433 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153358 | 0.049304 | 0.075599 | 0 | 0.089735 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132913 | 0 | 0.063488 | 0.045385 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078414 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148652 |
suicidewatch | Fake_Eons | 2019/01/03 | I get suicidal a lot but this time it's strange The emotional side of me is still feeling suicidal but the logical side of me is simply observing the way I feel and thinking about how strange it is that I was happy just a few minutes ago and I just closed my eyes and seemed to get pulled into these awful moods and thou... | 3.799083 | 5.043339 | 4.732331 | 85.306316 | 71.947368 | 8.37594 | 28.308271 | 8.841846 | 2.08088 | 372 | 14 | 77 | 7 | 7 | 121 | 61 | 95 | 0.164 | 0.67 | 0.166 | -0.1912 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 1 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 23 | 19 | 8 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 10 | 3 | 6 | 17 | 2 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 49 | 18 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172367 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171974 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.218729 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.393277 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.406367 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206995 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106864 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094998 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165314 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19535 | 0.211812 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124569 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177019 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155287 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.425392 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124595 | 0 | 0.154371 | 0.113385 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.308689 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | TheDovachiief | 2019/01/03 | I'm tired I'm so tired, I just genuinely don't see anyway out of this. I've got medical expenses that I have to work out so I'm not exactly financially independent at the moment, and I have no other option than to live with my parents. I want to work but legal reasons are making that a bit complicated.
So I'm stuck at ... | 4.268659 | 4.974431 | 5.474854 | 82.422462 | 70.377953 | 8.181195 | 27.145901 | 8.313333 | 1.672102 | 983 | 31 | 202 | 14 | 17 | 328 | 129 | 254 | 0.218 | 0.696 | 0.086 | -0.9889 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 22 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 11 | 9 | 3 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 18 | 5 | 0 | 10 | 2 | 42 | 44 | 14 | 0 | 3 | 10 | 4 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 16 | 9 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 10 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 34 | 4 | 39 | 37 | 2 | 20 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 25 | 13 | 1 | 3 | 8 | 139 | 50 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107047 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140574 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102503 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117584 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11284 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10554 | 0 | 0.10538 | 0.106177 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111693 | 0.115925 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106557 | 0.178044 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180898 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116264 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104522 | 0.147678 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082665 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091399 | 0 | 0.185177 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103676 | 0 | 0 | 0.238522 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.218882 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100991 | 0 | 0.182534 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0978 | 0.344961 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104122 | 0.208321 | 0 | 0 | 0.121051 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079716 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110073 | 0 | 0.078608 | 0 | 0 | 0.229533 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117644 | 0 | 0.106269 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164726 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116178 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086412 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155424 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068666 | 0.066227 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.237589 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182889 | 0.082041 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099633 | 0 | 0.225737 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | jynx27 | 2019/01/03 | It's back I don't know how to resolve it this time. It looks so peaceful to see a way to fix it all yet you know it will make things worse for everyone. I am in a position where I want to prove everyone wrong by doing it but still don't want to hert them something like double personality. I can't admit that I like a gi... | 1.590701 | 3.092237 | 3.266682 | 92.540439 | 78.147727 | 6.738788 | 21.960606 | 7.554174 | 0.615847 | 641 | 18 | 150 | 9 | 15 | 213 | 97 | 176 | 0.087 | 0.689 | 0.224 | 0.9764 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 4 | 8 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 15 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 30 | 36 | 9 | 0 | 5 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 13 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 30 | 10 | 21 | 31 | 3 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 16 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 105 | 43 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096059 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105636 | 0 | 0.16749 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144171 | 0.243001 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140279 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.262543 | 0 | 0 | 0.129509 | 0 | 0.138926 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106139 | 0 | 0.071775 | 0 | 0 | 0.115227 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147067 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136327 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.377499 | 0.111982 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.201349 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.230727 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183403 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146104 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093091 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119954 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088008 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.218946 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105761 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109711 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11042 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091268 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080107 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093271 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.405148 | 0.109045 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132428 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140001 | 0 | 0.150202 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | shabadadu | 2019/01/03 | I hate this feeling I’ve been dealing with suicidal thoughts for a long time now and usually I can just ignore them and for a long period (about 4 months) didn’t even have them thanks to the help of weed, but now I want to die again and the visions I have are graphic and come out of no where sometimes I’ll just be chil... | 2.079116 | 3.655558 | 3.435195 | 91.533232 | 76.987013 | 6.556643 | 24.833167 | 7.32111 | 0.930482 | 575 | 20 | 129 | 7 | 13 | 188 | 89 | 154 | 0.183 | 0.677 | 0.14 | -0.9184 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 11 | 8 | 4 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 13 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 34 | 28 | 15 | 2 | 6 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 17 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 20 | 2 | 15 | 23 | 3 | 18 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 5 | 3 | 2 | 11 | 92 | 28 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169265 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192667 | 0 | 0.19363 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149414 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138488 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178822 | 0 | 0 | 0.180016 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.229128 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163516 | 0 | 0.087703 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134009 | 0.160354 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171248 | 0 | 0 | 0.195494 | 0 | 0.116262 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185685 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122515 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.307 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147463 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175138 | 0 | 0.138448 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171549 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189729 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159692 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137702 | 0.101142 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191033 | 0 | 0.409227 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.199462 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | uglylilegg | 2019/01/03 | I am going to kill myself soon I am the black sheep to all my family since they discovered my years of alcohol drug abuse which they make fun of me for. I am unable to work and signed off due to my mental health problems, I have loans that I cannot repay and I am behind on rent. I'm 20 years old but I feel like I'm alr... | 2.83379 | 3.290393 | 4.356195 | 90.052699 | 73.490566 | 7.70021 | 22.646751 | 7.793538 | 0.714178 | 951 | 21 | 225 | 12 | 18 | 319 | 137 | 265 | 0.187 | 0.709 | 0.104 | -0.9784 | 4 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 16 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 9 | 15 | 2 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 24 | 7 | 1 | 5 | 2 | 39 | 50 | 19 | 2 | 5 | 7 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 12 | 12 | 1 | 2 | 6 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 7 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 9 | 48 | 8 | 30 | 40 | 5 | 27 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 12 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 15 | 154 | 60 | 5 | 0 | 0.129748 | 0.106863 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11703 | 0 | 0 | 0.241687 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074469 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108602 | 0.07657 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09685 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111819 | 0 | 0.11165 | 0.112494 | 0 | 0.094331 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094318 | 0 | 0 | 0.114412 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126993 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193981 | 0 | 0 | 0.144657 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206467 | 0 | 0.27685 | 0.156464 | 0 | 0.11996 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084605 | 0 | 0.057213 | 0 | 0.124471 | 0.091849 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116401 | 0 | 0 | 0.0734 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.217338 | 0 | 0.242307 | 0 | 0 | 0.089263 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077348 | 0.160499 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.310855 | 0.073097 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110317 | 0.110357 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0805 | 0.081198 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114909 | 0 | 0.074205 | 0 | 0.116523 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104783 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.261789 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090585 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087452 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164671 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070168 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121666 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086922 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159445 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141038 |
suicidewatch | karen255shana | 2019/01/03 | I want to die I've been suicidal for a while now. I'm starting to feel the need to kill myself because I can no longer handle the stress in my life. I am miserable and in so much emotional, mental, and psychological pain at this point. I am unemployed with no chance at getting a job any time soon. I honestly dont w... | 4.173625 | 4.325934 | 5.695 | 82.73 | 70.375 | 9.4 | 28.5 | 9.3871 | 2.17495 | 299 | 10 | 66 | 6 | 5 | 102 | 59 | 80 | 0.29 | 0.607 | 0.103 | -0.9653 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 1 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 14 | 4 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 8 | 1 | 13 | 13 | 1 | 12 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 43 | 10 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152282 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136508 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.247778 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.232408 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.262448 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.251895 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113227 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116996 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.222219 | 0 | 0.247749 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158171 | 0 | 0 | 0.197737 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.225672 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164617 | 0.166044 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.238281 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.21169 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178446 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158501 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.256515 | 0 | 0 | 0.244947 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130577 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.264164 | 0 | 0.179626 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | beamer92689 | 2019/01/03 | Why is it so hard to just do it Ive had the thought of suicide constantly buzzing around my head every waking moment for over 10 years. And in that 10 years have expierienced heartbreak in multiple different ways that only makes life harder to live. All the pain and memories are still there years later. I know how id d... | 3.833841 | 4.216703 | 4.604624 | 89.434253 | 71.195122 | 7.776016 | 25.131098 | 7.645422 | 1.009359 | 459 | 12 | 103 | 5 | 8 | 148 | 83 | 123 | 0.156 | 0.799 | 0.045 | -0.8825 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 12 | 7 | 3 | 2 | 2 | 22 | 20 | 9 | 1 | 3 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 13 | 1 | 15 | 17 | 3 | 20 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 8 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 71 | 21 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152769 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.411393 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166466 | 0 | 0.122991 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160942 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180537 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101744 | 0.139341 | 0.129788 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087546 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137992 | 0 | 0.316185 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169316 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.21761 | 0 | 0 | 0.272046 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13903 | 0 | 0.102825 | 0 | 0.154757 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104384 | 0.117157 | 0.163913 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106794 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122501 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123019 | 0.128787 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168498 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122293 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090859 | 0.244544 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.297596 |
suicidewatch | DarkAvarice86 | 2019/01/03 | Running out of reasons. 32M. 6'5" and 380lbs. Diabetic type 2. Standing for longer than 15 minutes at a time causes foot ulcers. Hypertension. Tachycardia. Chronic depression. I don't have anymore meds. I lost my job because one of my foot ulcers got out of hand and required major surgery. I've been unable to bear weig... | 2.238571 | 4.654828 | 3.327765 | 88.404598 | 80.065089 | 5.638005 | 23.858326 | 6.86897 | 0.905562 | 1,352 | 48 | 262 | 15 | 35 | 434 | 192 | 338 | 0.207 | 0.738 | 0.055 | -0.9957 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 53 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 7 | 19 | 5 | 2 | 19 | 0 | 22 | 20 | 6 | 6 | 1 | 38 | 43 | 13 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 5 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 15 | 20 | 4 | 3 | 5 | 2 | 1 | 10 | 6 | 15 | 1 | 1 | 8 | 9 | 33 | 4 | 47 | 35 | 3 | 52 | 1 | 7 | 3 | 1 | 18 | 22 | 3 | 1 | 17 | 155 | 48 | 7 | 0.105426 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093454 | 0.112668 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084309 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071693 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104554 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064267 | 0.116435 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107489 | 0.108302 | 0.111527 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.233304 | 0.115806 | 0.135982 | 0 | 0.27241 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206555 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177652 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053307 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055081 | 0 | 0.059916 | 0 | 0.084319 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094441 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112861 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104619 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074466 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177063 | 0 | 0.23017 | 0 | 0.095151 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117105 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123474 | 0.1683 | 0.224102 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.203642 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071439 | 0 | 0.112181 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092054 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.216791 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106697 | 0.084011 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108218 | 0.08721 | 0.118503 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088141 | 0 | 0.220428 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079267 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12295 | 0.242343 | 0.099932 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126815 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062183 | 0.167365 | 0 | 0.128381 | 0.094791 | 0.097731 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067891 |
suicidewatch | -Count_Chocula- | 2019/01/03 | Fuck it I don’t want to be alive anymore and I haven’t wanted to for awhile. I’ve posted on here before but it was then that I realized that there’s no helping me, not a fucking chance. Anytime I reachout anywhere else people try to berate me into not killing myself like they think it will work. I realized my existance... | 2.372927 | 3.831216 | 4.172854 | 87.052939 | 75.910569 | 6.220813 | 26.934146 | 6.742158 | 1.183267 | 461 | 18 | 95 | 4 | 10 | 156 | 75 | 123 | 0.139 | 0.711 | 0.15 | 0.1017 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 7 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 15 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 18 | 26 | 7 | 1 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 17 | 1 | 9 | 22 | 2 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 3 | 5 | 1 | 4 | 66 | 24 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194503 | 0.137135 | 0 | 0.161394 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166888 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126484 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163837 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.725256 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131458 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.216983 | 0 | 0.21557 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095817 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132899 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135968 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187833 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147461 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125669 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133156 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.231359 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142781 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | conventionality | 2019/01/03 | I just feel empty and I know it’s temporary but it sucks This past year, I got diagnosed with an autoimmune disease. The meds interact with everything so when I flare up, I can’t take any pain medication. One of the meds also can cause suicidal thoughts which doesn’t help my already severe depression. All I want is to ... | 2.013333 | 4.105313 | 3.899643 | 85.746365 | 79 | 8.008323 | 24.479406 | 8.841846 | 1.937702 | 607 | 22 | 125 | 15 | 15 | 205 | 99 | 157 | 0.215 | 0.582 | 0.203 | -0.7319 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 9 | 3 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 14 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 26 | 30 | 13 | 2 | 4 | 7 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 2 | 17 | 4 | 17 | 23 | 2 | 15 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 9 | 2 | 1 | 5 | 84 | 25 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160073 | 0.116002 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098643 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088425 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147895 | 0.149013 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124937 | 0.147229 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095808 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.260735 | 0 | 0.136746 | 0 | 0.14669 | 0.103628 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151572 | 0.139151 | 0 | 0.121666 | 0.116015 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097228 | 0.15326 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160483 | 0 | 0.079719 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070867 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123322 | 0.130919 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.32225 | 0.292258 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.196588 | 0 | 0.15435 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138473 | 0.100564 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.291643 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092927 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146805 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163872 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158668 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109064 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115159 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.196967 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171116 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103044 | 0 | 0 | 0.093412 |
suicidewatch | sbdmane | 2019/01/03 | Is it possible to live without any friends, family or relationships? As above. Slowly my friends have all gone. I don't talk to my family much at all and I've never had a girlfriend. Outside of work I have limited human interaction. It seems impossibly hard to do everything alone. What's the point of success if there's... | 2.560283 | 5.152269 | 4.485714 | 79.525952 | 80.116071 | 7.661905 | 25.404762 | 8.598638 | 2.276337 | 919 | 36 | 164 | 22 | 24 | 312 | 131 | 224 | 0.134 | 0.721 | 0.144 | 0.8539 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 28 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 8 | 12 | 3 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 23 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 5 | 39 | 42 | 14 | 2 | 6 | 6 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 13 | 8 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 8 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 5 | 19 | 9 | 23 | 34 | 3 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 14 | 7 | 0 | 7 | 4 | 107 | 32 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0.114028 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117007 | 0.12102 | 0 | 0 | 0.194455 | 0 | 0 | 0.079461 | 0 | 0.089389 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07123 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103343 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120036 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075358 | 0 | 0.100642 | 0 | 0.121271 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077177 | 0.105696 | 0.09845 | 0 | 0.105016 | 0 | 0.220309 | 0 | 0.059082 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180554 | 0 | 0.061049 | 0 | 0.132816 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128722 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.314021 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078321 | 0 | 0 | 0.116057 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103861 | 0.129276 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10318 | 0 | 0.098124 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171795 | 0 | 0.090121 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.228974 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07918 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162016 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.22092 | 0.263459 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13659 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125452 | 0.132367 | 0.099788 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106375 | 0 | 0.132006 | 0 | 0 | 0.131343 | 0 | 0 | 0.099006 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110129 | 0 | 0 | 0.093919 | 0 | 0 | 0.133627 | 0 | 0 | 0.149744 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1343 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079333 | 0 | 0 | 0.121644 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06892 | 0.092749 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112638 | 0 | 0.170135 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075247 |
suicidewatch | leviathon756 | 2019/01/03 | Can't do it anymore I have found my greatest love but everything else is too much. I am about to start yet another shift at work which I feel has to be my last. Each gets harder than the shift before. And I no longer create to express... I just don't know how to do it. Sorry | -0.291646 | 1.816441 | 1.697143 | 97.907119 | 88.661017 | 4.727361 | 16.903148 | 6.182691 | -0.481845 | 212 | 5 | 50 | 2 | 7 | 70 | 46 | 59 | 0.072 | 0.795 | 0.133 | 0.5574 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 9 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 15 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 7 | 1 | 7 | 13 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 37 | 10 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.321328 | 0 | 0 | 0.303905 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.260757 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.255991 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.275408 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154945 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.335995 | 0 | 0 | 0.160102 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168411 | 0.249789 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.276573 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.225268 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.343033 | 0.216899 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.223091 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | shizjiz | 2019/01/03 | Don’t you hate when things mess up I wanted to be a new me in new year last year everything was shit I was surprised I didn’t kill myself last year.
So my plans was to be new me forgot get my pass and move on, be who I want to be.
I have a good job and awesome boss (I work at home so it helps)
I was playing to do C... | -1.635325 | 0.261642 | 0.898714 | 102.333786 | 94.108225 | 4.292121 | 13.327706 | 5.888619 | -1.173231 | 782 | 13 | 205 | 7 | 30 | 264 | 120 | 231 | 0.062 | 0.855 | 0.084 | 0.5883 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 31 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 12 | 11 | 4 | 1 | 10 | 0 | 24 | 3 | 1 | 5 | 1 | 28 | 43 | 20 | 1 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 8 | 11 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 5 | 2 | 6 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 2 | 31 | 5 | 25 | 27 | 5 | 36 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 15 | 2 | 0 | 20 | 126 | 39 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096011 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107415 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09642 | 0.202512 | 0 | 0 | 0.083284 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069852 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095931 | 0 | 0 | 0.071538 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.292029 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109531 | 0.077377 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169764 | 0 | 0 | 0.090846 | 0.173252 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106935 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072599 | 0 | 0.21729 | 0 | 0.106665 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113049 | 0.214964 | 0 | 0.11983 | 0 | 0 | 0.264864 | 0 | 0 | 0.11768 | 0 | 0.153007 | 0.052915 | 0.108556 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072298 | 0.10981 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086453 | 0.115117 | 0.238863 | 0 | 0 | 0.313822 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138774 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11118 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12399 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081436 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071957 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103496 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191654 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124552 | 0 | 0 | 0.157703 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.348744 |
suicidewatch | evanstaruiala | 2019/01/03 | highschool I’m going to fail highschool now due to my depression I’ve tried to manage school but I can’t. I think this is the end... | -0.435714 | 1.811888 | 1.468571 | 97.001429 | 94.714286 | 4.228571 | 17.714286 | 5.985473 | -0.309957 | 104 | 3 | 23 | 1 | 4 | 34 | 22 | 28 | 0.18 | 0.82 | 0 | -0.5574 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 12 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.445065 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.457676 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.293674 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.522966 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.331104 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.350831 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | B52StratoFortress | 2019/01/03 | screw life NOTE - THERE ARE MANY PEOPLE ON THIS SUBREDDIT WITH MUCH MORE IMPORTANT PROBLEMS (ABUSE, NEGLECT, ETC.) . HELP THEM FIRST. THEY NEED IT MUCH MORE THAN I DO. I'LL SAVE YOU SOME TIME AND CLASSIFY THIS AS THE "EDGY TEENAGER" POST.
Anyways, this is going to be quick. You should probably skip to the tl;dr secti... | 4.296301 | 6.53228 | 5.068014 | 79.352182 | 72.579474 | 8.086202 | 28.976456 | 8.841846 | 2.520664 | 3,382 | 139 | 603 | 69 | 69 | 1,093 | 353 | 799 | 0.111 | 0.813 | 0.075 | -0.9295 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 239 | 1 | 9 | 13 | 10 | 44 | 39 | 10 | 0 | 37 | 3 | 49 | 14 | 3 | 12 | 8 | 132 | 80 | 49 | 1 | 17 | 30 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 7 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 42 | 42 | 0 | 5 | 10 | 4 | 6 | 8 | 25 | 22 | 1 | 8 | 4 | 2 | 66 | 17 | 93 | 54 | 31 | 78 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 4 | 52 | 36 | 7 | 15 | 32 | 422 | 108 | 10 | 0 | 0.063489 | 0.052291 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0475 | 0 | 0.107315 | 0 | 0.059132 | 0.085704 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072879 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.037468 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.044741 | 0 | 0.05918 | 0 | 0 | 0.112468 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061287 | 0.054633 | 0.055046 | 0 | 0.092317 | 0.168548 | 0 | 0.1803 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172789 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.046892 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060276 | 0.142381 | 0.110735 | 0.358567 | 0.212354 | 0 | 0.045148 | 0 | 0.048159 | 0 | 0.050515 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097951 | 0.091158 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09136 | 0.089889 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.035917 | 0.056615 | 0.16125 | 0 | 0 | 0.123659 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0558 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056739 | 0 | 0.054794 | 0.227091 | 0 | 0.053706 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091112 | 0 | 0 | 0.035768 | 0.108653 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056845 | 0.054105 | 0.062758 | 0 | 0.056952 | 0.078782 | 0.079465 | 0.082656 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.051416 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145242 | 0.040754 | 0.057018 | 0 | 0.237998 | 0.174081 | 0 | 0.037149 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.051319 | 0 | 0.115547 | 0.205094 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056994 | 0 | 0 | 0.102983 | 0.055094 | 0 | 0.05753 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.042613 | 0 | 0.216923 | 0.0427 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053624 | 0.109246 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.037928 | 0 | 0.042793 | 0.044799 | 0 | 0 | 0.061342 | 0.058613 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129208 | 0 | 0.049334 | 0 | 0 | 0.071199 | 0 | 0.052647 | 0.04254 | 0.093737 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.036381 | 0.11657 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09256 | 0 | 0.132639 | 0.031606 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.048352 | 0 | 0 | 0.051654 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054607 | 0.228391 | 0 | 0 | 0.069014 |
suicidewatch | empifer | 2019/01/03 | I found an oldish journal entry. [decided against it because I saw a kid and his dad walking to the skate park.](https://i.imgur.com/mLBqCHa.jpg) | 8.893913 | 12.303873 | 5.825435 | 73.779891 | 62.913043 | 8.078261 | 41.934783 | 8.841846 | 4.545191 | 120 | 7 | 15 | 2 | 2 | 33 | 22 | 23 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.485919 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.874004 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Thanksforpie | 2019/01/03 | Still here I didn’t think I was going to make it past the new year. Now my birthday is in a couple days. My divorce is final and I love my two kids but I don’t see them enough. The whole thing is a disaster. I don’t know how to keep going. It seems like everything I worked for is destroyed, and I have myself to blame.... | 0.182146 | 2.037371 | 2.442795 | 95.036212 | 84.092593 | 5.779125 | 19.077441 | 6.980633 | 0.108081 | 383 | 10 | 91 | 5 | 11 | 130 | 72 | 108 | 0.148 | 0.735 | 0.116 | -0.6705 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 13 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 16 | 28 | 7 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 17 | 3 | 9 | 24 | 2 | 15 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 4 | 10 | 63 | 21 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.200613 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162797 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.211689 | 0 | 0.123384 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197682 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171944 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.209579 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099955 | 0 | 0.21746 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169181 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170052 | 0 | 0 | 0.105143 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093468 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172671 | 0 | 0.127706 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184775 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183574 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182634 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206272 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152455 | 0.174168 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.305572 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176139 | 0 | 0 | 0.127103 | 0.122588 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186889 | 0 | 0 | 0.165237 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151859 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.213599 | 0 | 0 | 0.207475 | 0.139281 | 0 | 0 | 0.135906 | 0 | 0 | 0.123202 |
suicidewatch | CoffieCayke | 2019/01/03 | Why do I feel this way? I think I've really screwed up my life. I just got myself fired from a job that was probably the best I could have had in my position. And with what little experience I have, and with as long as I have been out of school, I don't think I'll be getting a job that I can really support myself with.... | 3.087075 | 4.302231 | 4.049198 | 89.631533 | 73.654088 | 6.93522 | 24.88522 | 7.333567 | 0.925809 | 1,208 | 37 | 264 | 13 | 24 | 390 | 151 | 318 | 0.173 | 0.686 | 0.141 | -0.9444 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 28 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 16 | 22 | 1 | 3 | 17 | 0 | 36 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 56 | 64 | 18 | 3 | 4 | 5 | 1 | 7 | 5 | 2 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 20 | 16 | 0 | 0 | 19 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 6 | 10 | 1 | 3 | 10 | 8 | 39 | 12 | 36 | 46 | 9 | 23 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 1 | 9 | 10 | 1 | 13 | 12 | 186 | 59 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0.078277 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064147 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054548 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159101 | 0.056087 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08418 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082402 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128089 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.211922 | 0.072558 | 0 | 0 | 0.072091 | 0.078465 | 0.151237 | 0 | 0.202793 | 0.057305 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06823 | 0 | 0 | 0.123946 | 0 | 0.041909 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064154 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053766 | 0.08475 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.3184 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088167 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113315 | 0.195943 | 0.080395 | 0 | 0.070987 | 0.06736 | 0 | 0.087563 | 0.13639 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085094 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081606 | 0.086484 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102774 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080308 | 0.243543 | 0 | 0.365119 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061753 | 0 | 0 | 0.056776 | 0 | 0.064059 | 0 | 0 | 0.083857 | 0 | 0.087741 | 0.182052 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053291 | 0.205592 | 0.15762 | 0.127362 | 0.046773 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08725 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.254681 | 0 | 0 | 0.072122 | 0 | 0.289523 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113963 | 0.087701 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | mellowsuicide91 | 2019/01/03 | Tonight is the night. I have everything prepped, it’s just a waiting game now. As soon as every one is asleep I’m leaving. | -0.8436 | 0.860368 | 0.52 | 100.24 | 110.6 | 3.6 | 25 | 5.683918 | 0.5822 | 96 | 5 | 21 | 1 | 5 | 30 | 22 | 25 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 13 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.422402 | 0 | 0.450574 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.530849 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.470476 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.339722 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | redditor_2782733 | 2019/01/03 | I wanna die but I’m too scared, I tried short drop suspension (which pretty much means that I tried to hang my self from my door knob) I wanna die before school starts because it gives me so much anxiety, also before this year I used to be a straight A student but this year depression got in the way and now I’ve failed... | 0.956863 | 2.966214 | 2.757323 | 92.993721 | 82.207547 | 5.232862 | 20.629324 | 6.322622 | 0.128751 | 588 | 17 | 129 | 5 | 16 | 195 | 92 | 159 | 0.23 | 0.623 | 0.147 | -0.9627 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 5 | 11 | 1 | 1 | 7 | 1 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 26 | 22 | 11 | 3 | 7 | 5 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 9 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 21 | 5 | 19 | 19 | 2 | 20 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 82 | 30 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115773 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110749 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176501 | 0 | 0.246378 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12469 | 0 | 0.450746 | 0 | 0 | 0.148178 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1464 | 0.206848 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123141 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138877 | 0.164553 | 0 | 0.115786 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142931 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141455 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096635 | 0 | 0 | 0.157697 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.212846 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110104 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151254 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147283 | 0 | 0.138526 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16478 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14494 | 0.146515 | 0 | 0 | 0.151027 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102469 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126536 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.196579 | 0 | 0.141419 | 0 | 0 | 0.125035 | 0 | 0 | 0.256168 | 0.114912 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186455 |
suicidewatch | virginityyslayer | 2019/01/03 | I think about killing myself everyday I have wanted to kill myself for years. 2 years ago my friend killed himself, and I envy him. I hate being alive 90% of the time, I have chronic physical illness that prevents me from being able to eat food I like, play sports, or have energy. Ever day I feel numb or sad. There is... | 3.289632 | 4.047668 | 4.818605 | 86.044806 | 72.662791 | 7.36124 | 24.217054 | 7.492282 | 1.005371 | 641 | 17 | 136 | 7 | 12 | 216 | 103 | 172 | 0.283 | 0.577 | 0.14 | -0.9864 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 18 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 18 | 6 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 19 | 8 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 18 | 30 | 6 | 6 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 5 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 32 | 6 | 21 | 23 | 4 | 16 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 11 | 99 | 37 | 4 | 0.125567 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111308 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.229634 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128024 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08098 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130319 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128487 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113583 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063491 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151836 | 0 | 0.097013 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071363 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133669 | 0 | 0.123972 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.694608 | 0 | 0 | 0.102354 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088692 | 0.061346 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140478 | 0.137071 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.200453 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142959 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10964 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125715 | 0.127081 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106393 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094411 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080458 | 0 | 0 | 0.073219 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.222188 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140191 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161722 |
suicidewatch | music_head72 | 2019/01/03 | Support and Suggestions I'm not planning on ending my life right now but I want to. I'm trying to fight it and some days are easier than others. I understand that my thoughts are lying to me but it gets so hard sometimes to fight back. My sister and my friends would be devastated if I killed myself and that helps to ke... | 0.472887 | 2.400324 | 2.515634 | 94.51399 | 83.475309 | 5.408754 | 16.608305 | 6.574016 | -0.361054 | 1,169 | 22 | 270 | 12 | 33 | 392 | 144 | 324 | 0.265 | 0.588 | 0.147 | -0.9954 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 31 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 21 | 23 | 6 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 21 | 8 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 56 | 63 | 28 | 4 | 12 | 14 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 17 | 13 | 0 | 4 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 12 | 11 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 46 | 12 | 37 | 54 | 4 | 32 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 5 | 24 | 13 | 0 | 5 | 16 | 177 | 63 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085011 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06528 | 0.070884 | 0.051752 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075083 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086688 | 0 | 0.086557 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054751 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088108 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.225577 | 0 | 0 | 0.112146 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080032 | 0 | 0.042926 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131181 | 0 | 0.177418 | 0 | 0.192993 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07605 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170712 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.226378 | 0.187849 | 0 | 0.046657 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179893 | 0.041476 | 0 | 0.149929 | 0 | 0 | 0.094977 | 0 | 0 | 0.383109 | 0.08033 | 0.056669 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062408 | 0 | 0.065477 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057528 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117712 | 0 | 0.088698 | 0.09319 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072501 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077286 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095426 | 0 | 0 | 0.143864 | 0 | 0.083964 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.271192 | 0.070977 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096339 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068236 | 0.074203 | 0 | 0 | 0.098571 | 0.056401 | 0.108796 | 0 | 0.067398 | 0 | 0 | 0.080471 | 0 | 0 | 0.115277 | 0 | 0 | 0.176759 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070048 | 0.300442 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.229816 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12361 | 0 | 0 | 0.120615 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | theresnopointt | 2019/01/03 | No point She was my happiness. She was my world. She was all i wanted. I was going to kill myself before i met her. She changed that. I didnt even know it was possible to be so happy. It doesnt last. Things change. People love other people. That didnt happen to me. She saved my life. More times than i can count. I made... | -2.107214 | -0.344754 | 0.309474 | 103.626742 | 103.955357 | 3.314479 | 11.857625 | 5.229147 | -1.539369 | 775 | 13 | 196 | 5 | 37 | 257 | 102 | 224 | 0.192 | 0.631 | 0.177 | -0.8712 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 35 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 17 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 24 | 4 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 33 | 49 | 13 | 5 | 9 | 7 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 15 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 10 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 14 | 2 | 55 | 10 | 16 | 29 | 3 | 22 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 2 | 29 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 135 | 70 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.196331 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152225 | 0 | 0.12068 | 0 | 0.084228 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.209424 | 0.085266 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.326188 | 0.063837 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.20546 | 0.103417 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082689 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065378 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.051715 | 0 | 0.056255 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087531 | 0.316111 | 0.08867 | 0.097726 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105965 | 0 | 0.10692 | 0 | 0 | 0.087982 | 0.219023 | 0 | 0.108798 | 0.080685 | 0 | 0 | 0.107547 | 0 | 0.139831 | 0.048359 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108053 | 0 | 0.178674 | 0.280984 | 0 | 0.100354 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105204 | 0.072765 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10991 | 0 | 0 | 0.137246 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093572 | 0.11159 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078878 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083869 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079049 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108273 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131521 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115437 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.408684 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | sociallyanxiousliz | 2019/01/03 | Alone I’m alone and sad and people hate me | -3.749333 | -4.685495 | -1.31 | 110.391667 | 145 | 1.333333 | 3.333333 | 3.1291 | -3.260667 | 34 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 3 | 11 | 8 | 10 | 0.684 | 0.316 | 0 | -0.8689 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.864128 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.411871 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.289214 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | throwaway36032 | 2019/01/03 | I don’t know who to talk to. I used to talk to my partner but this feeling became too frequent, and I don’t want to rehash the same things.
I’m 23 and useless. My doctor says that I’m young and it’s okay that I don’t have any money, but it feels bad all the time. And work is bad, which is why I have such a hard time ... | 0.615642 | 2.443081 | 2.84296 | 92.899239 | 82.380855 | 5.558062 | 19.597802 | 6.627428 | 0.049227 | 1,765 | 46 | 407 | 18 | 48 | 601 | 203 | 491 | 0.126 | 0.734 | 0.14 | 0.7423 | 8 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 61 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 10 | 18 | 20 | 1 | 1 | 18 | 3 | 48 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 86 | 84 | 32 | 2 | 9 | 17 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 2 | 2 | 4 | 2 | 25 | 27 | 0 | 2 | 11 | 1 | 12 | 4 | 23 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 8 | 67 | 11 | 47 | 71 | 16 | 41 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 26 | 16 | 0 | 15 | 18 | 272 | 92 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076819 | 0 | 0 | 0.125564 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.21297 | 0.15417 | 0.168836 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081651 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094128 | 0 | 0 | 0.159054 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073712 | 0 | 0 | 0.11908 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191631 | 0 | 0 | 0.094495 | 0.080792 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060978 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.261099 | 0 | 0.186723 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071328 | 0 | 0.096469 | 0 | 0.052469 | 0.077435 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082702 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092607 | 0 | 0.090919 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091615 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152213 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06521 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.235467 | 0 | 0 | 0.061626 | 0 | 0 | 0.100566 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097939 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071204 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088585 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.210645 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099539 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105083 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078842 | 0 | 0.146836 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103774 | 0 | 0 | 0.078224 | 0.071074 | 0.091309 | 0.206694 | 0 | 0.098403 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.222615 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184004 | 0.118312 | 0 | 0 | 0.161501 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079737 | 0 | 0 | 0.108908 | 0.073281 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085583 | 0.249919 | 0.103074 | 0.106166 | 0 | 0 | 0.268846 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | MrMint_ | 2019/01/03 | Where to start? Sorry if this is the wrong place to post this.
How do I start to get help? I really don't want to live, but I know i shouldn't kill myself. I have suicide thoughts daily and have even written a suicide note. Am i overreacting? | -0.148971 | 2.165217 | 1.591714 | 96.373 | 93.4 | 4.457143 | 17.142857 | 6.182691 | -0.356514 | 188 | 5 | 42 | 2 | 7 | 61 | 36 | 50 | 0.299 | 0.582 | 0.119 | -0.8893 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 14 | 4 | 3 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 4 | 11 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 28 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164609 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130208 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167049 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.275728 | 0 | 0.136966 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.220068 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.260384 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.238686 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159658 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.278984 | 0.352802 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.545218 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197855 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146998 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.272486 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | KnownMove | 2019/01/03 | Suicidal friend has gone MIA and I don't know what to do. Please help Re: Advice
I have created this account for the sole purpose of needing advice on this matter
I am writing this because I am in a state of shock and despair and am feeling very helpless on how to go about this. Anyway, I have this friend who I am v... | 4.645307 | 4.798144 | 5.759213 | 82.676732 | 69.352113 | 8.46326 | 30.665191 | 8.238736 | 2.068294 | 2,166 | 82 | 451 | 28 | 35 | 723 | 237 | 568 | 0.158 | 0.734 | 0.108 | -0.9915 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 29 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 31 | 24 | 1 | 2 | 21 | 0 | 62 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 58 | 94 | 44 | 5 | 5 | 8 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 26 | 25 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 1 | 4 | 13 | 7 | 11 | 1 | 1 | 22 | 4 | 73 | 12 | 76 | 64 | 12 | 76 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 74 | 31 | 0 | 4 | 31 | 330 | 99 | 0 | 0.206746 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134687 | 0.061089 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.220447 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.046865 | 0 | 0.10544 | 0 | 0 | 0.048187 | 0 | 0 | 0.061349 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.211967 | 0 | 0.126031 | 0 | 0 | 0.077644 | 0.072323 | 0.06095 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07037 | 0 | 0 | 0.070795 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152507 | 0 | 0.133334 | 0 | 0.118714 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060308 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058064 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077549 | 0.069691 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159732 | 0 | 0.108016 | 0 | 0.234998 | 0 | 0.055118 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061735 | 0 | 0 | 0.073254 | 0.077673 | 0 | 0.138578 | 0 | 0.069128 | 0.068449 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076245 | 0 | 0.075748 | 0 | 0 | 0.072972 | 0 | 0 | 0.048677 | 0.033669 | 0 | 0.121707 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069451 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055008 | 0 | 0.151982 | 0.1022 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.046699 | 0.104827 | 0 | 0 | 0.076522 | 0 | 0.197363 | 0 | 0.060174 | 0 | 0.075649 | 0.065147 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058853 | 0 | 0 | 0.068996 | 0 | 0 | 0.062738 | 0 | 0.077855 | 0 | 0.057008 | 0.154928 | 0 | 0.140501 | 0 | 0 | 0.068159 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.301529 | 0.078204 | 0 | 0 | 0.051816 | 0.055392 | 0 | 0 | 0.078811 | 0.080016 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160741 | 0 | 0.065324 | 0.197555 | 0 | 0.187156 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.22745 | 0.040648 | 0.054702 | 0.11056 | 0 | 0.061963 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.209961 | 0.070231 | 0.048956 | 0 | 0 | 0.088759 |
suicidewatch | SpaceyBakedBean | 2019/01/03 | The only thing keeping me alive is my son. Before I met my wife, I tried to kill myself twice. I never sought help. Once by hanging myself and the branch snapped, once by shooting myself with a shotgun (the firing pin was broken). I kind of had a revelation at that point in my life and a week after I met my wife who wa... | 1.063141 | 2.292122 | 3.126864 | 94.149753 | 78.907975 | 5.688525 | 19.129289 | 6.037888 | -0.264037 | 1,139 | 23 | 273 | 7 | 27 | 387 | 154 | 326 | 0.075 | 0.859 | 0.066 | 0.0949 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 35 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 21 | 0 | 29 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 49 | 58 | 15 | 2 | 8 | 5 | 11 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 18 | 18 | 0 | 3 | 9 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 9 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 12 | 1 | 61 | 3 | 36 | 43 | 7 | 32 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 39 | 12 | 0 | 4 | 14 | 194 | 79 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107324 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092087 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120808 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093221 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086404 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.507328 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09585 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118549 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118657 | 0 | 0 | 0.05654 | 0 | 0.061503 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107154 | 0.095698 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145074 | 0 | 0.108553 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122166 | 0 | 0 | 0.107391 | 0.09619 | 0.119728 | 0.112694 | 0.237898 | 0 | 0 | 0.114588 | 0.11758 | 0 | 0.152877 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097672 | 0 | 0.072237 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079554 | 0 | 0.083465 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.2305 | 0.146664 | 0.164611 | 0 | 0 | 0.120165 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118792 | 0.102302 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109524 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08952 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091694 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086424 | 0.090476 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118374 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086982 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143792 | 0.138685 | 0 | 0 | 0.126207 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073474 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.255322 | 0 | 0.086807 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097651 | 0 | 0 | 0.104319 | 0 | 0.15757 | 0 | 0 | 0.076876 | 0 | 0 | 0.06969 |
suicidewatch | iAmArussianBot1917 | 2019/01/03 | The bad can get better Life isnt all that bad. I ve been through a lot. Just hang in there the sun shines even on remote mouse holes | -1.076379 | 1.001801 | -0.148707 | 109.041767 | 94.862069 | 2.9 | 10.698276 | 3.1291 | -2.260041 | 103 | 1 | 27 | 0 | 4 | 31 | 27 | 29 | 0.213 | 0.699 | 0.088 | -0.6249 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 16 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.711944 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.377059 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.28159 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.222743 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.301133 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.362455 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | tayohwaukbin | 2019/01/03 | I can't finish high school I simply can't do it. The amount of anxiety it causes me every day is unbearable. I looked into alternatives, but there aren't any alternatives in my country. Teachers are mad at me for my poor attendance, my bad grades, but they don't understand how much I'm suffering to even get to school e... | 2.636596 | 4.820201 | 4.320446 | 83.043238 | 77.389262 | 8.015532 | 24.065676 | 8.841846 | 1.873882 | 593 | 20 | 118 | 14 | 14 | 199 | 91 | 149 | 0.262 | 0.731 | 0.007 | -0.9918 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 19 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 11 | 8 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 10 | 2 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 22 | 18 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 9 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 22 | 2 | 20 | 18 | 5 | 18 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 81 | 27 | 4 | 0.158403 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10772 | 0 | 0.121178 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13226 | 0.096561 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140095 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162724 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102157 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140298 | 0 | 0 | 0.209248 | 0 | 0.266923 | 0 | 0.142363 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165518 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156391 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167362 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140796 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133019 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17595 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.18552 | 0 | 0 | 0.465779 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159239 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.320625 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158518 | 0.161472 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127319 | 0 | 0 | 0.181148 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.215091 | 0 | 0 | 0.164904 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09343 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | cansadisima | 2019/01/03 | Excited to end my life! A couple of days ago I posted about waiting to receive a package with methods to end it all and the package arrived early. I'm thinking about calling in sick to work and just cruising away to an isolated location where I will painfully end my life. The amount of self-loathing I carry within is i... | 6.391027 | 6.093773 | 6.807282 | 78.175218 | 65.696429 | 9.578714 | 33.545 | 9.06596 | 2.795778 | 1,794 | 70 | 345 | 27 | 25 | 585 | 230 | 448 | 0.137 | 0.695 | 0.168 | 0.9628 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 48 | 0 | 3 | 7 | 8 | 17 | 27 | 2 | 0 | 26 | 0 | 37 | 14 | 1 | 3 | 8 | 71 | 60 | 30 | 1 | 11 | 17 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 15 | 21 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 2 | 0 | 6 | 13 | 12 | 0 | 2 | 10 | 4 | 53 | 15 | 63 | 43 | 17 | 60 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 29 | 26 | 0 | 15 | 25 | 256 | 68 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075169 | 0.068188 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061516 | 0.064007 | 0 | 0 | 0.052311 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144544 | 0 | 0 | 0.046892 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.204098 | 0 | 0.085445 | 0 | 0 | 0.078548 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085114 | 0 | 0.049609 | 0 | 0.066254 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.408789 | 0.079483 | 0 | 0.050807 | 0.139164 | 0 | 0.073504 | 0 | 0.075246 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084343 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147584 | 0.087435 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075946 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.30561 | 0.075754 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085105 | 0.080104 | 0.042275 | 0.062703 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.326 | 0 | 0 | 0.13585 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065398 | 0 | 0 | 0.051347 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090092 | 0.0614 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.245427 | 0 | 0 | 0.07381 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104251 | 0.117008 | 0.40926 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080369 | 0.084439 | 0 | 0 | 0.073671 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061298 | 0 | 0.080248 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05922 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064312 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067235 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.051105 | 0.04929 | 0.075577 | 0 | 0.044855 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.045371 | 0.122117 | 0.061703 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069412 | 0 | 0.088458 | 0 | 0 | 0.168004 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.049536 |
suicidewatch | rulebackthen | 2019/01/03 | I just need someone to listen...that's all I graduate in May and it doesn't look like I'm going to amount to much. Every day that goes by is a day closer to me ending it all.
I was planning on going into teaching because I genuinely want to help people. I want to specialise in children with special educational needs s... | 3.057724 | 5.806614 | 4.377215 | 80.091802 | 79.348837 | 7.019048 | 27.43134 | 8.135034 | 2.25809 | 2,178 | 94 | 376 | 43 | 56 | 716 | 270 | 516 | 0.144 | 0.746 | 0.11 | -0.926 | 6 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 79 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 11 | 16 | 34 | 13 | 1 | 18 | 1 | 38 | 10 | 1 | 4 | 11 | 74 | 78 | 24 | 1 | 12 | 14 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 21 | 22 | 1 | 3 | 5 | 5 | 1 | 9 | 13 | 20 | 0 | 2 | 10 | 5 | 50 | 14 | 63 | 59 | 18 | 72 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 7 | 29 | 32 | 8 | 7 | 28 | 249 | 71 | 19 | 0 | 0.078268 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058556 | 0 | 0 | 0.068416 | 0 | 0 | 0.054965 | 0 | 0 | 0.044922 | 0 | 0.050534 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.248254 | 0.050794 | 0.055155 | 0.040268 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127805 | 0 | 0.113791 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0676 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074306 | 0.058508 | 0 | 0 | 0.04363 | 0 | 0.166969 | 0.126242 | 0 | 0.064617 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072363 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153108 | 0.366416 | 0.069025 | 0.063369 | 0.225253 | 0.055406 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07032 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.044277 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.262208 | 0 | 0.073083 | 0 | 0.072607 | 0.107692 | 0 | 0 | 0.071772 | 0.067548 | 0.046659 | 0.032272 | 0 | 0.291651 | 0.058459 | 0.055472 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088188 | 0 | 0 | 0.071956 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066699 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09712 | 0.097962 | 0.050948 | 0 | 0 | 0.061991 | 0 | 0.126768 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.044762 | 0.15072 | 0 | 0 | 0.073349 | 0 | 0 | 0.320573 | 0.057679 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.042318 | 0 | 0 | 0.070921 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066854 | 0.052639 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05597 | 0.050854 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053095 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.043886 | 0.084654 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15585 | 0.157301 | 0 | 0 | 0.059394 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.240454 | 0 | 0 | 0.187702 | 0 | 0 | 0.127617 |
suicidewatch | CaillteSaGhaoth | 2019/01/03 | The thoughts are back... I've struggled with suicidal ideation and actions since my mom died 6 years ago. My current boyfriend stopped my last attempt successfully without the involvement of medical professionals or emergency responders, which I appreciate so much. A year and a half later, we are living together and my... | 6.405948 | 7.857698 | 6.442586 | 74.698534 | 65.982759 | 9.937931 | 37.775862 | 10.125757 | 4.089314 | 507 | 27 | 88 | 12 | 8 | 161 | 89 | 116 | 0.167 | 0.756 | 0.077 | -0.7584 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 6 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 6 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 19 | 21 | 10 | 3 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 8 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 13 | 3 | 11 | 18 | 1 | 18 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 55 | 18 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160605 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139316 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154171 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188036 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09161 | 0.129435 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198654 | 0 | 0 | 0.189318 | 0 | 0.102969 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160217 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181738 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161041 | 0 | 0 | 0.099572 | 0.147686 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088515 | 0 | 0.159985 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182519 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.212195 | 0 | 0 | 0.133188 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144377 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149874 | 0 | 0.181311 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12824 | 0 | 0 | 0.151474 | 0 | 0.189408 | 0 | 0.396362 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136225 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.287673 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162902 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174651 | 0 | 0.131901 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.233348 |
suicidewatch | Biased24 | 2019/01/03 | I don't even know how I feel. I'm gonna be honest, I might go into some stupid detail that may trigger or offend people but I'm just looking for help and if I seem to go on a tangent about feeling good while trying to commit sure just skip it it doesn't add to what I have to say.
My name is Eli, I'm a girl from Austra... | 1.578026 | 3.552052 | 2.955914 | 92.561789 | 79.877944 | 5.996468 | 22.914082 | 7.053512 | 0.643793 | 3,522 | 116 | 776 | 42 | 89 | 1,144 | 397 | 934 | 0.162 | 0.715 | 0.122 | -0.9936 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 107 | 5 | 3 | 1 | 7 | 51 | 51 | 10 | 2 | 46 | 0 | 69 | 20 | 12 | 9 | 7 | 160 | 165 | 76 | 1 | 17 | 44 | 0 | 11 | 5 | 0 | 9 | 4 | 8 | 5 | 3 | 38 | 47 | 0 | 3 | 24 | 4 | 3 | 12 | 24 | 31 | 2 | 0 | 22 | 27 | 106 | 20 | 102 | 122 | 18 | 93 | 1 | 11 | 6 | 4 | 68 | 40 | 5 | 28 | 45 | 484 | 144 | 6 | 0 | 0.056336 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.042148 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11407 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.049857 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066492 | 0.048718 | 0 | 0.042327 | 0.04445 | 0 | 0 | 0.146243 | 0.0794 | 0.086953 | 0 | 0.040459 | 0 | 0 | 0.042052 | 0.155727 | 0.105628 | 0 | 0 | 0.097102 | 0 | 0.048477 | 0 | 0 | 0.081915 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079439 | 0.053484 | 0.126338 | 0 | 0 | 0.062809 | 0 | 0.040061 | 0 | 0.042732 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168289 | 0.067935 | 0 | 0.156257 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13187 | 0.124207 | 0 | 0.108089 | 0.119641 | 0.114083 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084092 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053589 | 0 | 0.318698 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.046824 | 0.054863 | 0.305401 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.042262 | 0 | 0 | 0.235176 | 0 | 0 | 0.201382 | 0 | 0.145861 | 0.067168 | 0.116146 | 0 | 0.041985 | 0 | 0.079855 | 0 | 0.051903 | 0 | 0.042913 | 0 | 0.095214 | 0 | 0.047767 | 0.051793 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15132 | 0.048009 | 0 | 0 | 0.151605 | 0.034953 | 0.176278 | 0.073343 | 0 | 0 | 0.04462 | 0 | 0 | 0.054133 | 0.049893 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.032963 | 0 | 0.14903 | 0 | 0.044947 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05558 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.04756 | 0 | 0.03046 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.040605 | 0 | 0.151246 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.043285 | 0.099204 | 0 | 0.097613 | 0.039331 | 0.053445 | 0 | 0 | 0.040287 | 0.036604 | 0.047025 | 0 | 0.100962 | 0 | 0.075942 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16329 | 0.052009 | 0 | 0.044813 | 0 | 0.178748 | 0 | 0.083117 | 0.043775 | 0 | 0 | 0.031588 | 0.030466 | 0 | 0.037747 | 0.083175 | 0 | 0.090138 | 0 | 0 | 0.129126 | 0.051718 | 0 | 0 | 0.057193 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084134 | 0.037741 | 0.038139 | 0 | 0.085501 | 0 | 0.042904 | 0 | 0.054677 | 0.045834 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.033776 | 0.051985 | 0 | 0.061238 |
suicidewatch | Poormiserablebastard | 2019/01/03 | I want to live so bad But life won't allow it. I HAD to be born with autism and I HAD to be the dumbest person on the planet. I just want to be successful so badl... why doesn't it happen? Why do I dream if I can't make them real? | -2.483413 | -0.798892 | 0.96672 | 101.871667 | 95.851852 | 3.826455 | 11.417989 | 5.288315 | -1.592579 | 173 | 2 | 47 | 1 | 7 | 62 | 36 | 54 | 0.175 | 0.676 | 0.149 | -0.5295 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 9 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 10 | 13 | 5 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 7 | 1 | 6 | 7 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 32 | 9 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.265236 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.28091 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.224376 | 0 | 0 | 0.280503 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.212043 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.277372 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.361572 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.374733 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.573285 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Mirwin11 | 2019/01/03 | I hate the world and don’t want to grow up in it. Aside from sparing the hearts of my mother, father, and brother, I want to kill myself. I hate the world, and don’t want to live for a single thing outside of my family.
You can try to give me reasons to keep living, but my horrible nihilism will shoot anything down. | 4.520538 | 4.631415 | 5.270577 | 86.218173 | 69.615385 | 7.730769 | 27.019231 | 7.168622 | 1.218154 | 246 | 7 | 52 | 2 | 4 | 80 | 46 | 65 | 0.22 | 0.73 | 0.049 | -0.9319 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 9 | 11 | 4 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 12 | 10 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 36 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193894 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.22212 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.226027 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.465249 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.279209 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.209429 | 0.260677 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.416111 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.242255 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156534 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159969 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.416922 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | jtlannister | 2019/01/03 | I can't do this much longer I should never have been born. I shouldn't be alive. Every justification I've attempted to formulate for my life is a sham. The world doesn't want me. I don't want me. But here I am, where I shouldn't be. Every day there are fewer and fewer things keeping me going. And another big blow has j... | 0.421286 | 2.712342 | 2.351714 | 93.163286 | 87.238095 | 5.645714 | 18.87619 | 7.087007 | 0.268956 | 787 | 22 | 175 | 12 | 25 | 261 | 102 | 210 | 0.134 | 0.77 | 0.096 | -0.4463 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 34 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 18 | 11 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 31 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 36 | 45 | 11 | 0 | 8 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 13 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 12 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 3 | 25 | 8 | 17 | 32 | 5 | 25 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 14 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 127 | 38 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131815 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141639 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120246 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087113 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118206 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.26765 | 0 | 0.227615 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136597 | 0.192997 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153534 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.287582 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181077 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144602 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120062 | 0 | 0 | 0.074234 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095408 | 0.197974 | 0.135382 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.273892 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.29789 | 0.100157 | 0.208358 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129366 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153015 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089739 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.318686 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.365656 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Pitpatcat | 2019/01/03 | I’m not so sure anymore I’m tired of life and I feel so done. I’ve never felt so trapped in my life than I do now. 6 months ago I had to move back to my hometown and it’s been mental hell. I try so very hard to be normal ... to be strong .... to be there for my children and husband and it’s so hard .... so very hard. I... | -1.3889 | 0.512222 | 1.248067 | 100.51186 | 92.14433 | 4.470447 | 14.784364 | 5.985473 | -0.904498 | 659 | 13 | 169 | 6 | 24 | 225 | 100 | 194 | 0.212 | 0.671 | 0.116 | -0.9664 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 30 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 17 | 12 | 3 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 17 | 7 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 38 | 34 | 25 | 1 | 2 | 5 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 15 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 6 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 12 | 21 | 7 | 16 | 24 | 3 | 23 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 16 | 105 | 27 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106878 | 0 | 0 | 0.124874 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.239147 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185422 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133926 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127547 | 0.207721 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.24677 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.218125 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.30482 | 0 | 0.115766 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125986 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.256699 | 0.324022 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118737 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133393 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136009 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170325 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121506 | 0 | 0.121742 | 0 | 0.192476 | 0.128147 | 0 | 0 | 0.092991 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118133 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091699 | 0.128295 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121206 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07724 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192158 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119247 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100802 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113636 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077257 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138578 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081859 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198966 | 0.071115 | 0 | 0.096714 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108796 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | helloworld2244 | 2019/01/03 | I think it's the right time to go I feel like fucking useless, 22, currently has no job. I'm like numb all the time. My mind is always lost, so does my smile. Tears roll down every night. I find comfort in pain but don't wanna live anymore. I wish I wasn't born. Life sucks. I feel too old and people around me are a bun... | 2.246643 | 4.779535 | 3.134791 | 89.092643 | 80.942446 | 6.008825 | 22.935731 | 7.3011 | 0.996689 | 562 | 19 | 109 | 8 | 15 | 178 | 103 | 139 | 0.127 | 0.632 | 0.241 | 0.9601 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 18 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 18 | 5 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 12 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 18 | 25 | 7 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 16 | 7 | 11 | 21 | 2 | 17 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 7 | 4 | 0 | 10 | 62 | 22 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170128 | 0.123288 | 0.12828 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152893 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137242 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132785 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134913 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129893 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155904 | 0.110138 | 0 | 0 | 0.140907 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.427577 | 0 | 0 | 0.087617 | 0.129309 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152988 | 0 | 0.170564 | 0 | 0.084727 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.217787 | 0.225956 | 0.154517 | 0.136133 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168293 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155666 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118904 | 0 | 0 | 0.144676 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161773 | 0 | 0 | 0.117252 | 0.164046 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106881 | 0 | 0 | 0.16923 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154981 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131659 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130626 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.204845 | 0.098785 | 0 | 0 | 0.179793 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177286 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109517 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | -suicidal- | 2019/01/03 | I feel like hanging myself soon I have a plan to kill myself, I just need to find the time. Why am I so scared to do it? I know I want to. | -3.571818 | -2.10964 | -0.143273 | 107.845091 | 103.545455 | 2.64 | 9.630303 | 3.1291 | -2.351177 | 102 | 1 | 30 | 0 | 5 | 36 | 24 | 33 | 0.247 | 0.642 | 0.111 | -0.7678 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 7 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 1 | 4 | 7 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 21 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19955 | 0.281942 | 0 | 0 | 0.360708 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.436628 | 0 | 0.216893 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192809 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.292632 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.395119 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.230127 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.232778 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.356116 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | OGStarburst | 2019/01/03 | Next Friday is the day. God I feel pathetic writing this out, but I don't really have anyone else to talk to about it.
I'm 26, male, living in Utah. I've never really been like this until very recently. Last year was shit, but it got okay towards the end or so I thought. My life is just not where I thought I would be... | 2.886118 | 4.389784 | 4.026545 | 88.440653 | 74.651491 | 7.193881 | 25.049066 | 7.861635 | 1.236045 | 2,444 | 80 | 520 | 35 | 51 | 796 | 280 | 637 | 0.143 | 0.735 | 0.122 | -0.9444 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 67 | 4 | 1 | 4 | 7 | 34 | 36 | 8 | 1 | 29 | 2 | 65 | 10 | 5 | 8 | 8 | 130 | 129 | 43 | 2 | 16 | 30 | 2 | 3 | 7 | 3 | 8 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 35 | 40 | 0 | 5 | 22 | 0 | 4 | 8 | 14 | 12 | 1 | 1 | 38 | 10 | 67 | 24 | 67 | 74 | 15 | 74 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 3 | 36 | 32 | 6 | 18 | 41 | 346 | 102 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0.113981 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064447 | 0 | 0.145782 | 0 | 0 | 0.079429 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057918 | 0.08167 | 0.059838 | 0.048059 | 0.155967 | 0.109194 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.048762 | 0.035601 | 0 | 0.099389 | 0 | 0 | 0.051651 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093256 | 0 | 0 | 0.037664 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059764 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097573 | 0 | 0.103451 | 0.060344 | 0 | 0.077146 | 0.052827 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059058 | 0 | 0.056074 | 0 | 0.053377 | 0 | 0 | 0.064033 | 0.135361 | 0.107981 | 0.15256 | 0 | 0.099571 | 0 | 0.28025 | 0.064387 | 0.064335 | 0.057826 | 0 | 0.124337 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11601 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115907 | 0.051909 | 0.064612 | 0 | 0.064191 | 0.047604 | 0 | 0.061838 | 0 | 0 | 0.04125 | 0.199721 | 0 | 0.154707 | 0.051683 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05526 | 0.077966 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061954 | 0 | 0.068398 | 0 | 0.062071 | 0 | 0.043303 | 0.090084 | 0 | 0.06211 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062195 | 0.039574 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.040488 | 0 | 0.061016 | 0 | 0 | 0.065838 | 0 | 0.118829 | 0 | 0.055882 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066473 | 0.149652 | 0 | 0.172991 | 0.0627 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092885 | 0 | 0 | 0.046538 | 0.212663 | 0 | 0 | 0.23979 | 0 | 0 | 0.058443 | 0 | 0.148448 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146477 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066272 | 0.055042 | 0 | 0 | 0.093881 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.038799 | 0.112262 | 0.114757 | 0.324545 | 0.17027 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.03965 | 0.127046 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.050439 | 0.06432 | 0.048187 | 0.068892 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052509 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127549 | 0 | 0 | 0.165945 | 0 | 0 | 0.037608 |
suicidewatch | obscure-curiosities | 2019/01/03 | Envisioning driving a steak knife through my chest. I'm just so fucking done with being alive. I probably should post this on r/depression or r/offmychest, but to hell with it: I've posted on there plenty of times and should probably give those two subreddits a break. Yeah, I'm just thinking about stabbing myself or co... | 7.57488 | 6.208595 | 8.014206 | 73.99021 | 63.79021 | 11.528072 | 35.463536 | 10.608841 | 3.58765 | 2,282 | 86 | 442 | 48 | 28 | 758 | 284 | 572 | 0.197 | 0.657 | 0.146 | -0.9929 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 59 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 6 | 31 | 35 | 10 | 2 | 32 | 1 | 41 | 14 | 8 | 5 | 5 | 83 | 86 | 44 | 4 | 11 | 22 | 1 | 4 | 7 | 2 | 6 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 25 | 29 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 13 | 16 | 1 | 3 | 11 | 11 | 49 | 19 | 81 | 62 | 11 | 68 | 2 | 4 | 6 | 4 | 22 | 32 | 8 | 10 | 29 | 307 | 74 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071471 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067088 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066349 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147448 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084536 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088565 | 0.051998 | 0.083123 | 0.069444 | 0 | 0.083678 | 0.084238 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082509 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134707 | 0 | 0.142823 | 0 | 0 | 0.15976 | 0 | 0 | 0.077042 | 0.144924 | 0.078868 | 0.076008 | 0 | 0.081535 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073691 | 0.068581 | 0 | 0 | 0.062292 | 0.223614 | 0.168496 | 0.077344 | 0.137466 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085829 | 0 | 0.079602 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054042 | 0 | 0.080875 | 0.160161 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08001 | 0 | 0.089201 | 0 | 0 | 0.065722 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113898 | 0.275731 | 0 | 0.213585 | 0 | 0.067706 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161457 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05927 | 0 | 0.186553 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091794 | 0 | 0.085865 | 0.054635 | 0 | 0.085792 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0704 | 0 | 0 | 0.076218 | 0 | 0.154436 | 0.082026 | 0.173858 | 0 | 0 | 0.081052 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064118 | 0 | 0 | 0.256996 | 0 | 0.084111 | 0.091085 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080685 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057068 | 0.085937 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088193 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060621 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092204 | 0.187228 | 0.053565 | 0.051662 | 0.079215 | 0.064009 | 0.047014 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089579 | 0.164221 | 0 | 0.078761 | 0.083935 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190223 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072493 | 0 | 0.072753 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058697 | 0 | 0 | 0.11455 | 0 | 0 | 0.155763 |
suicidewatch | sadweegoldfish | 2019/01/03 | Nobody would miss me. Nobody that I'd want to miss me anyway. I don't give a shit about my family, we just share DNA and they're part of the problem. I'm trying to talk to people and drop hints that I need help, but it's not working and it's not taken seriously (which I don't blame anyone for). I want to tell somebody ... | 1.322769 | 2.92663 | 3.03403 | 93.45889 | 79.220994 | 5.850967 | 18.49482 | 6.627428 | -0.156644 | 657 | 13 | 152 | 6 | 16 | 218 | 91 | 181 | 0.173 | 0.675 | 0.152 | -0.7181 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 17 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 5 | 17 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 14 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 40 | 38 | 16 | 2 | 12 | 12 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 11 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 2 | 21 | 6 | 16 | 24 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 2 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 92 | 34 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0.110949 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113848 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077316 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.238493 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138614 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.231838 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.232698 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117477 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10864 | 0 | 0 | 0.107181 | 0 | 0.057487 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109066 | 0 | 0 | 0.090932 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128142 | 0 | 0.076207 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.243424 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118395 | 0.062483 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075892 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083578 | 0.084303 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077042 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12312 | 0 | 0.315285 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10879 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116706 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182766 | 0.099374 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145702 | 0 | 0.090261 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077191 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.20118 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082771 | 0 | 0.115864 | 0.565357 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | ripgeek1 | 2019/01/03 | Back up plan Today I have finally decided that it is not the right time for me to take my life yet. I have taken out life insurance so that the people I love will be taken care of if I decide to go ahead with suicide. I have to wait 2 years before they can claim after death from suicide so the way I see it I have 2 yea... | 1.0695 | 2.1177 | 3.445 | 92.6275 | 78.5 | 6.6 | 20.5 | 7.168622 | 0.2798 | 345 | 8 | 84 | 4 | 8 | 120 | 57 | 100 | 0.154 | 0.716 | 0.131 | -0.5574 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 6 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 11 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 24 | 6 | 4 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 13 | 4 | 16 | 17 | 0 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 10 | 59 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.260319 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144038 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.345167 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161746 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185429 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096201 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093027 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.358684 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.305548 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117352 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144557 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134887 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.555466 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127271 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098704 | 0 | 0.16045 | 0 | 0 | 0.114924 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13436 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.218011 |
suicidewatch | DanteFernix201 | 2019/01/03 | Vent? I guess? Hey guys, this is my first post on this subreddit,(hopefully not my last) and I just needed somewhere to write this. This’ll probably be lost in the void of posts, but whatever.
So, yeah, turning 18 tomorrow. Big day, you’re gonna be an adult, all that jazz. Normally this is a somewhat happy day. I’m us... | 2.107971 | 4.740386 | 3.263643 | 87.248607 | 82.6 | 7.385714 | 25.892857 | 8.395992 | 2.037771 | 712 | 30 | 142 | 17 | 20 | 229 | 117 | 175 | 0.15 | 0.647 | 0.203 | 0.9192 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 34 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 8 | 14 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 2 | 10 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 33 | 29 | 12 | 1 | 4 | 8 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 15 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 2 | 14 | 8 | 15 | 20 | 4 | 26 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 9 | 1 | 6 | 14 | 83 | 29 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153899 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161217 | 0.283959 | 0 | 0.126411 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129993 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14842 | 0.104851 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12484 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083411 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161681 | 0.145323 | 0 | 0.156237 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098375 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119635 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103666 | 0.143406 | 0 | 0.129599 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160214 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097969 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148193 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108826 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143801 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111623 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.306682 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.281126 | 0 | 0.15824 | 0 | 0 | 0.147542 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133612 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164294 | 0 | 0 | 0.117209 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16054 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.270248 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094043 | 0 | 0.233034 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159641 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161644 | 0 | 0.086567 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189027 |
suicidewatch | psycho708 | 2019/01/03 | Almost accidentally died today So today I went on my way to my internship for a conversation with my supervisor. To get there, I have to cross an railroad crossing and three busy roads. When I was at the point to cross the first road, I looked behind me, to watch a train pass, thinking about me laying underneath it. Wh... | 3.285996 | 4.713398 | 4.390115 | 86.544157 | 73.482759 | 7.224521 | 24.957854 | 7.793538 | 1.168212 | 450 | 14 | 95 | 6 | 9 | 147 | 73 | 116 | 0.071 | 0.912 | 0.017 | -0.551 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 19 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 14 | 22 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 11 | 5 | 19 | 1 | 16 | 8 | 0 | 24 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 4 | 9 | 69 | 23 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.436888 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140688 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.226404 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.209457 | 0 | 0 | 0.185557 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113974 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174473 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106576 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.366379 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206221 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174214 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.279561 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.413558 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.213099 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179995 | 0 | 0.173156 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202226 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | aaayla | 2019/01/03 | I'm out of energy to carry on Everything is expensive. So expensive that I can't afford to live my life. I've worked my ass off for almost 5 years for what? To be stuck in my backwoods hometown forever and be a wage slave until I drop dead from exhaustion because retirement doesn't exist anymore. I should go to univers... | 4.916903 | 5.506267 | 5.871129 | 80.576694 | 68.870968 | 9.296774 | 29.370968 | 9.3871 | 2.439923 | 1,224 | 43 | 244 | 24 | 20 | 405 | 180 | 310 | 0.193 | 0.681 | 0.126 | -0.9624 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 27 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 5 | 10 | 13 | 1 | 0 | 18 | 0 | 27 | 12 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 42 | 46 | 20 | 3 | 7 | 10 | 1 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 6 | 9 | 4 | 3 | 1 | 12 | 12 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 4 | 8 | 8 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 10 | 30 | 9 | 44 | 33 | 3 | 35 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 18 | 1 | 8 | 8 | 157 | 42 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122487 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138188 | 0.12131 | 0.08553 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149132 | 0 | 0.104087 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.253901 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126391 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109935 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061849 | 0.087387 | 0 | 0 | 0.1118 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.447356 | 0 | 0.208554 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.260427 | 0.219152 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137865 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121493 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121385 | 0.108725 | 0 | 0 | 0.067225 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172799 | 0.17928 | 0 | 0.108012 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103993 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129764 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130008 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130268 | 0.082888 | 0.093031 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.245934 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156725 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097275 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127608 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094169 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130378 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12018 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144297 | 0.097093 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178103 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078771 |
suicidewatch | GeneralRequirement7 | 2019/01/03 | my brain is numb i can't seem to focus at anything,i want to cry but i have lost all will of feeling.i want to by mad and angry and break things but it's just not in my system to be mean and destructive and terrible,as in i have no idea how,i've given myself 12 days from now,if things don't get better by then,things wo... | 7.681304 | 4.898322 | 7.65971 | 81.111739 | 64.652174 | 10.649275 | 31.695652 | 8.3441 | 2.050817 | 516 | 12 | 116 | 5 | 6 | 167 | 86 | 138 | 0.197 | 0.769 | 0.034 | -0.9756 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 19 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 10 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 22 | 20 | 8 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 10 | 1 | 19 | 14 | 2 | 13 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 67 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193454 | 0.326068 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.41157 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202489 | 0.118884 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166747 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192621 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.218444 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.208098 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130205 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.201229 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.200801 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140199 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146896 | 0.335633 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.244935 | 0 | 0.181114 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.25031 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.217458 | 0.146321 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Hyenarchy | 2019/01/03 | Want to die, can't die Many of my friends are as depressed as me, I don't want to cause any fucking domino effect.
My mother already lived through too much of a bullshit. I think I'd cause her wa | 2.727857 | 3.505276 | 3.636667 | 93.925 | 74 | 5.6 | 28.285714 | 3.1291 | 0.593657 | 153 | 6 | 35 | 0 | 3 | 49 | 32 | 42 | 0.326 | 0.586 | 0.089 | -0.9139 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 6 | 7 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 7 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 19 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.27123 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167143 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.504979 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.211695 | 0 | 0.510173 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189893 | 0.227225 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.217033 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.249188 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180681 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157489 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.289941 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | throwawaydisappear2 | 2019/01/03 | Suicidal thoughts are coming back after 5 years, I'm lost I just don't feel connected anymore. I don't feel connected to my life, to my friends, to my family, my hobbies.
I haven't played games in months, even though I'm known for having a game "addiction".
I just deleted all my social media and I just feel disconne... | 2.511163 | 4.624443 | 4.107151 | 84.763285 | 77.488372 | 8.02093 | 27.02907 | 8.841846 | 2.210191 | 339 | 14 | 69 | 8 | 8 | 113 | 49 | 86 | 0.191 | 0.771 | 0.038 | -0.9106 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 14 | 21 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 11 | 2 | 8 | 17 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 39 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187663 | 0.209642 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190716 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147872 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165655 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127017 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181289 | 0 | 0.291708 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148576 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105687 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135832 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.419851 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153497 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159078 | 0 | 0 | 0.196032 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136116 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.420704 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.18894 | 0.30534 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.247678 |
suicidewatch | throwauwyayay7462 | 2019/01/03 | Suicidal thoughts are coming back after 5 years, I'm lost. I just don't feel connected anymore. I don't feel connected to my life, to my friends, to my family, my hobbies.
I haven't played games in months, even though I'm known for having a game "addiction".
I just deleted all my social media and I just feel disconn... | 2.511163 | 4.624443 | 4.107151 | 84.763285 | 77.488372 | 8.02093 | 27.02907 | 8.841846 | 2.210191 | 339 | 14 | 69 | 8 | 8 | 113 | 49 | 86 | 0.191 | 0.771 | 0.038 | -0.9106 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 14 | 21 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 11 | 2 | 8 | 17 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 39 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187663 | 0.209642 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190716 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147872 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165655 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127017 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181289 | 0 | 0.291708 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148576 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105687 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135832 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.419851 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153497 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159078 | 0 | 0 | 0.196032 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136116 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.420704 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.18894 | 0.30534 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.247678 |
suicidewatch | Nithin_palwai | 2019/01/03 | Feel like jumping of the building i am in. I never thought i would be in this situation. I took a wrong turn everytime there's a turn. I've been lying to parents for 2 years about my completed education part. Some distant relative came to aid me financially for my studies and they are told the same lie. I lost all my h... | 1.993656 | 4.260521 | 3.27682 | 89.269192 | 80.006289 | 5.987579 | 27.547563 | 7.168622 | 1.432273 | 623 | 28 | 127 | 8 | 16 | 202 | 103 | 159 | 0.178 | 0.744 | 0.078 | -0.9565 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 21 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 6 | 11 | 3 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 14 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 28 | 32 | 6 | 1 | 4 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 1 | 22 | 4 | 18 | 17 | 5 | 15 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 4 | 2 | 3 | 11 | 84 | 28 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121778 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163683 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150051 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147543 | 0 | 0 | 0.148528 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094525 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12862 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072362 | 0.10224 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132305 | 0.149541 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141294 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143554 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153205 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.209753 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156224 | 0 | 0 | 0.135417 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110377 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096977 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.317819 | 0.154977 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146903 | 0 | 0.160865 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119649 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183402 | 0 | 0.340846 | 0 | 0 | 0.271308 | 0.13675 | 0.159003 | 0 | 0.311331 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114796 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.203326 | 0.156471 | 0 | 0.09216 |
suicidewatch | eidolize12 | 2019/01/03 | gave my best shot I'm not mad at anyone or holding any grudges. I wish everyone else joy and success in their lives. I'm tired of the cycle I've been trapped into. almost completely out of money. in a foreign country, that I expected to do "well" in haha.
I have about a month left, I need to put a stop to this cycle w... | 2.948731 | 4.829024 | 4.857628 | 80.952929 | 75.38009 | 7.548559 | 27.921172 | 8.371476 | 2.142062 | 871 | 36 | 165 | 16 | 19 | 298 | 129 | 221 | 0.14 | 0.657 | 0.203 | 0.9434 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 21 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 6 | 10 | 15 | 2 | 0 | 14 | 1 | 13 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 35 | 26 | 8 | 0 | 7 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 10 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 4 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 24 | 9 | 35 | 20 | 8 | 34 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 17 | 0 | 3 | 13 | 118 | 29 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153429 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104196 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.321408 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143956 | 0.117818 | 0 | 0.093402 | 0 | 0 | 0.172628 | 0.321593 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157401 | 0 | 0 | 0.16065 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127997 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129096 | 0.14641 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167846 | 0.140042 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118378 | 0 | 0.080052 | 0 | 0 | 0.128515 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153693 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165505 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084206 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166475 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.270595 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1223 | 0 | 0 | 0.227223 | 0.236347 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116532 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160084 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146612 | 0 | 0.15403 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1281 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098178 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176105 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090374 | 0.12162 | 0 | 0 | 0.137764 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176197 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Needhugs5 | 2019/01/03 | I just stood with a ceramic knife in my hand thinking about how sharp it was. Thinking how little it'd hurt. But ended up stabbing the closest other thing which happened to be a carton of orange juice. I don't know how I am going to get to my goal of living till 21 like just under 3 years is a long tine to me. My medic... | 3.028424 | 4.512801 | 4.367805 | 86.21697 | 74.243902 | 7.241276 | 26.030019 | 7.882392 | 1.38417 | 632 | 22 | 133 | 9 | 13 | 209 | 99 | 164 | 0.205 | 0.738 | 0.057 | -0.9835 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 10 | 8 | 2 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 23 | 6 | 3 | 5 | 2 | 35 | 42 | 11 | 2 | 10 | 6 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 3 | 14 | 2 | 19 | 26 | 2 | 14 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 6 | 2 | 1 | 6 | 91 | 23 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091093 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081657 | 0.147941 | 0.113985 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149537 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.278046 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118643 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067731 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146873 | 0 | 0.247676 | 0.139971 | 0 | 0.152258 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118455 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133046 | 0 | 0 | 0.1434 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073617 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065443 | 0.134257 | 0.118284 | 0.118545 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089415 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134944 | 0 | 0 | 0.27051 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099325 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128176 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110808 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088993 | 0.171664 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.261707 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106326 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09752 | 0 | 0 | 0.570942 | 0 | 0 | 0.086262 |
suicidewatch | abcdefg194502940 | 2019/01/03 | Its frustrating Its frustrating that I don't want to be alive anymore. how i don't really have a reason to live, how im completely fine with dropping dead in an instant but I cant because other people will be sad.
I don't care anymore, Nothing is appealing to me anymore, i essentially took a year long vacation to f... | 6.153559 | 5.914124 | 7.713 | 71.289839 | 66.175141 | 10.921808 | 34.649153 | 10.57761 | 3.684101 | 704 | 30 | 133 | 17 | 10 | 246 | 112 | 177 | 0.176 | 0.719 | 0.105 | -0.9042 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 23 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 8 | 3 | 0 | 11 | 0 | 17 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 15 | 26 | 7 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 4 | 7 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 14 | 4 | 20 | 20 | 0 | 26 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 12 | 83 | 26 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150762 | 0.169075 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.413979 | 0 | 0 | 0.229007 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13073 | 0 | 0 | 0.084821 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141866 | 0 | 0 | 0.23972 | 0.145889 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163075 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12324 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152425 | 0.127175 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072697 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137028 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150299 | 0 | 0.138078 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098281 | 0 | 0 | 0.122866 | 0.123138 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107316 | 0 | 0.147981 | 0 | 0 | 0.267024 | 0 | 0.146008 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192929 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131536 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15002 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178278 | 0.143063 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148308 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154594 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164141 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125555 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101298 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169075 | 0.179208 |
suicidewatch | LookingForSWHelp | 2019/01/03 | I think my sister might be suicidal So I'm an older teenager (almost ending high school) and my sister is about the middle school starting age. (I'm trying to be kind of vague because of privacy). I think my sister may be suicidal. I'll try and explain my situation a bit.
So she obviously (like many other children at ... | 5.723587 | 6.117902 | 6.183279 | 79.727999 | 67.058968 | 9.165563 | 29.302113 | 9.06596 | 2.240603 | 1,643 | 53 | 321 | 27 | 25 | 532 | 191 | 407 | 0.117 | 0.808 | 0.075 | -0.95 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 42 | 2 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 26 | 18 | 1 | 3 | 19 | 0 | 32 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 54 | 59 | 29 | 3 | 3 | 12 | 8 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 8 | 2 | 6 | 1 | 2 | 24 | 12 | 2 | 1 | 14 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 10 | 9 | 57 | 12 | 46 | 35 | 12 | 40 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 65 | 14 | 0 | 13 | 28 | 225 | 81 | 6 | 0.067086 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131112 | 0 | 0 | 0.067177 | 0 | 0.074032 | 0.268245 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.045621 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.046908 | 0.068738 | 0 | 0 | 0.062717 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122686 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146482 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070969 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068646 | 0.056042 | 0 | 0.059419 | 0 | 0 | 0.08862 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075491 | 0.033921 | 0 | 0.064413 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081121 | 0.073557 | 0.051831 | 0 | 0.0701 | 0 | 0 | 0.056269 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066234 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079498 | 0 | 0.07088 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077409 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.279441 | 0.036869 | 0 | 0 | 0.071035 | 0 | 0 | 0.09477 | 0.032775 | 0 | 0 | 0.059369 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.044781 | 0.068015 | 0.202192 | 0.073077 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071168 | 0.067738 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.049316 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090919 | 0.051022 | 0 | 0 | 0.372458 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06425 | 0 | 0.072331 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075152 | 0 | 0.067105 | 0 | 0.085955 | 0 | 0.198719 | 0 | 0 | 0.114583 | 0.255258 | 0.1067 | 0 | 0.203685 | 0 | 0.122146 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055495 | 0.150816 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094968 | 0 | 0 | 0.056087 | 0 | 0 | 0.153596 | 0.220145 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053922 | 0.175909 | 0.061764 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171945 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064104 | 0 | 0.182189 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110707 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060535 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06813 | 0.068367 | 0.047656 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | ugocomp | 2019/01/03 | Sad, sick and tired Hello Reddit,
My name is Ugo and I live in Brazil. I saw my life turning upside down and I really don't know how can I fix. I was a medical student in a famous University, but I'm not anymore because of my illness. I have depression, anxiety and PTSD.
In 2015 I woke up in a Saturday morning with my ... | 4.02627 | 5.411171 | 5.691418 | 78.105029 | 71.572614 | 8.343107 | 31.64615 | 8.841846 | 2.775199 | 960 | 44 | 177 | 18 | 18 | 328 | 140 | 241 | 0.337 | 0.615 | 0.048 | -0.9979 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 27 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 6 | 11 | 3 | 1 | 12 | 0 | 14 | 12 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 32 | 36 | 18 | 3 | 4 | 9 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 6 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 4 | 32 | 2 | 26 | 26 | 1 | 14 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 22 | 6 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 113 | 35 | 3 | 0.12358 | 0.146422 | 0 | 0.13472 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102828 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094538 | 0 | 0.122558 | 0.08641 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.451999 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106439 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111066 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064565 | 0.118549 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122364 | 0 | 0 | 0.110703 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082833 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.273446 | 0 | 0.067916 | 0 | 0 | 0.130853 | 0 | 0 | 0.087288 | 0 | 0 | 0.109123 | 0.109364 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.248988 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131346 | 0 | 0.091633 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093988 | 0.131498 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.288917 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158337 | 0 | 0 | 0.132679 | 0.139992 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112503 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135176 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099329 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079185 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.284074 | 0 | 0.118086 | 0.137302 | 0.083903 | 0.13442 | 0 | 0 | 0.148652 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145781 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079581 |
suicidewatch | ex-plore | 2019/01/03 | I’m on the verge I’m on academic suspension because my gpa is shit even tho I got good grades last semester, I don’t have any friends, my family is embarrassed of me. I’m so tired of living everyday. I just wanna go to sleep and never wake up. | -0.415522 | 1.813438 | 2.737912 | 88.664231 | 92.653846 | 7.586813 | 20.89011 | 8.418075 | 1.704557 | 191 | 7 | 42 | 6 | 7 | 68 | 41 | 52 | 0.176 | 0.716 | 0.107 | -0.5915 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 9 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 7 | 8 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 24 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.216818 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194358 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.210587 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.300568 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.24633 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1812 | 0.267422 | 0.255 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.259892 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.281536 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.245904 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.327278 | 0 | 0 | 0.319064 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.366452 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Inkspent | 2019/01/03 | I wish I could just fucking die already I used to want to die because I felt like a burden and the only thing I could do to make life better for friends and family was to die. Now, I’m just tired. It’s not even that I want it to be over just because it’s too hard anymore I’m just so tired and so fucking weak. I can’t e... | 1.747571 | 2.949676 | 3.545872 | 91.963667 | 77.031915 | 6.077163 | 22.107801 | 6.427356 | 0.211424 | 675 | 18 | 159 | 5 | 15 | 227 | 99 | 188 | 0.205 | 0.596 | 0.198 | -0.7586 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 19 | 15 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 14 | 13 | 3 | 2 | 2 | 43 | 35 | 16 | 4 | 11 | 13 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 11 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 19 | 10 | 22 | 26 | 2 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 5 | 2 | 2 | 8 | 105 | 30 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116257 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.208958 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128441 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093174 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.252341 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.32801 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108855 | 0 | 0.208748 | 0 | 0.088762 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099315 | 0 | 0.053268 | 0 | 0.101153 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081393 | 0.194789 | 0 | 0 | 0.119746 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112147 | 0.094373 | 0 | 0 | 0.111982 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057898 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074412 | 0.154406 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190165 | 0 | 0.070322 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106168 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081253 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080124 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105906 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118418 | 0.210852 | 0 | 0.089263 | 0.081104 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084133 | 0.176155 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115236 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13998 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.363254 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071526 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090989 | 0 | 0 | 0.310691 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.242295 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115184 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | wLolololololololol | 2019/01/03 | I don’t know what to do I am 19M, and i failed my. IB finals for the second fucking time, cant find a college anymore, dont have any friends, and the only child, help me please | 1.132917 | 1.824647 | 3.18 | 96.011667 | 77.75 | 5.333333 | 23.333333 | 3.1291 | -0.128167 | 135 | 4 | 34 | 0 | 3 | 46 | 33 | 40 | 0.151 | 0.721 | 0.129 | -0.2153 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 8 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 2 | 8 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 20 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.22443 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.327299 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.38679 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.361529 | 0.301639 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.254979 | 0.305105 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.221211 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181375 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.251001 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.362271 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192442 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | GalaxyCereal | 2019/01/03 | Please tell me the easiest and most painless way to die. I am not talking about the least agony, because I know Shotgun to the head is. I am not brave enough to do it and I don't have access to weapons.
Do not tell me that suicide is not an option, I know it's not an option, yet I chose it. The choice is actually very... | 3.999199 | 5.068701 | 4.209073 | 89.910193 | 71.27758 | 7.470534 | 27.573132 | 7.734863 | 1.388608 | 1,098 | 38 | 235 | 13 | 20 | 341 | 141 | 281 | 0.189 | 0.693 | 0.117 | -0.9614 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 33 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 2 | 15 | 29 | 10 | 4 | 11 | 1 | 22 | 10 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 40 | 46 | 14 | 3 | 3 | 9 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 14 | 10 | 0 | 3 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 13 | 19 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 35 | 10 | 30 | 39 | 14 | 23 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 5 | 11 | 8 | 7 | 9 | 11 | 155 | 49 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0.095257 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096806 | 0 | 0 | 0.080327 | 0.086897 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119008 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102439 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.29857 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101307 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086456 | 0.100861 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093274 | 0 | 0 | 0.092021 | 0 | 0.049356 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075416 | 0.45121 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096373 | 0.100179 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097914 | 0.096952 | 0 | 0 | 0.313491 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.214583 | 0 | 0.110112 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137894 | 0.047689 | 0 | 0.086194 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143514 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103955 | 0.066145 | 0 | 0.103867 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067673 | 0 | 0 | 0.32145 | 0.184552 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077785 | 0.177727 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104043 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106773 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078458 | 0.255955 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112192 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101619 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080541 | 0 | 0.154962 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Coredintol71 | 2019/01/03 | I don't want to die Every fucking day I want to get a gun and blow my head off, or for a tanker to t-bone me and explode, or for anything, really.
But I don't want to die.
I want help. But the American healthcare system is gonna fuck me if I go, even if I have insurance. Beyond that, I'm worried I'll end up homeles... | 1.678002 | 2.299284 | 4.247849 | 89.14733 | 76.33871 | 7.124014 | 22.648746 | 7.38713 | 0.669612 | 427 | 11 | 102 | 5 | 9 | 152 | 75 | 124 | 0.191 | 0.62 | 0.189 | 0.3934 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 7 | 3 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 11 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 21 | 28 | 11 | 2 | 7 | 8 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 5 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 15 | 2 | 13 | 24 | 1 | 12 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 6 | 3 | 7 | 4 | 62 | 18 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136173 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173658 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106719 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.343478 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146563 | 0 | 0 | 0.109296 | 0.299367 | 0.139421 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08367 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.458942 | 0.259365 | 0 | 0.094044 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169827 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.221831 | 0 | 0 | 0.164356 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16421 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165851 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185126 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106009 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.39041 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16805 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | junjiparty | 2019/01/03 | I doubt it'll work but maybe I can think I deserve to be here I'm at work planning on how I'll kill myself. I tried to kill myself last new year and failed miserably ending up in the psych ward. This year I tried to make a change and have a fun New year's. And something horrible happened. It only showed me that I indee... | 0.69625 | 2.680967 | 3.118404 | 90.182319 | 83.012739 | 5.708439 | 18.729697 | 6.907726 | 0.202274 | 574 | 14 | 124 | 7 | 16 | 198 | 97 | 157 | 0.336 | 0.585 | 0.079 | -0.9935 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 5 | 12 | 2 | 2 | 4 | 1 | 9 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 18 | 22 | 7 | 2 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 20 | 4 | 17 | 18 | 1 | 17 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 0 | 2 | 10 | 71 | 28 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099232 | 0.145411 | 0.116786 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118495 | 0 | 0 | 0.120761 | 0 | 0 | 0.125514 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150129 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.237107 | 0 | 0.251392 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071757 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148291 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125497 | 0 | 0.12713 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151925 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.31402 | 0 | 0 | 0.115681 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094731 | 0 | 0.142575 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143019 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10523 | 0 | 0.274128 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.215868 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098387 | 0.123916 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121196 | 0 | 0.112858 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109255 | 0 | 0.158864 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090935 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.385409 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167413 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206634 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.274169 |
suicidewatch | idfk3333 | 2019/01/03 | i’m thinking about killing myself. i’m thinking that i’m gonna kill myself within the next week or so. everything’s my fault i should’ve just ended a long time ago. i put everyone into stress so i might as well. | 0.008667 | 2.336332 | 2.019444 | 93.9425 | 91.444444 | 4.777778 | 18.611111 | 6.427356 | 0.064111 | 169 | 5 | 36 | 2 | 6 | 56 | 35 | 45 | 0.315 | 0.635 | 0.05 | -0.926 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 5 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 7 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 19 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.215097 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.214918 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.231865 | 0.218081 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.536919 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.21474 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.257416 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.258064 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.243933 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.277958 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.310964 | 0 | 0 | 0.141493 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194641 | 0 | 0.218174 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Red7349 | 2019/01/03 | Ending it if things don’t get better soon I don’t fucking want to live. I had one friend who told me to stop talking to her cause I’m too fucking codependent but she’s all I fucking have and I can’t help it. She was the only reason I didn’t end it last year, though I got close so many times. It’s been a while since I’v... | -1.175079 | 0.8344 | 1.185238 | 100.305 | 93.074074 | 3.456085 | 16.973545 | 4.655896 | -0.960357 | 376 | 10 | 91 | 1 | 14 | 126 | 68 | 108 | 0.118 | 0.689 | 0.193 | 0.7385 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 11 | 7 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 13 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 12 | 29 | 8 | 1 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 13 | 4 | 5 | 20 | 2 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 9 | 1 | 6 | 2 | 8 | 55 | 21 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130574 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.23289 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134239 | 0.135254 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.233228 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101722 | 0.73032 | 0.137577 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105303 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12999 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088251 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107323 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116261 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133485 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096787 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089218 | 0.100135 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135371 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108913 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110076 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.211651 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174942 | 0 | 0.129358 | 0 | 0.076774 | 0 | 0 | 0.125809 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077658 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084786 |
suicidewatch | w-under | 2019/01/03 | I’ve made my decision I’ve struggled at lot the past few months. I’ve had anxiety attack’s and I’ve constantly worried about whether I should end it or try to get help. I was so stressed and emotional because I don’t know how to ask for help or what to say, but I also didn’t know if I could kill myself or how I would d... | 2.457554 | 3.508755 | 3.874452 | 90.914057 | 74.979899 | 7.517722 | 26.331993 | 8.021204 | 1.346755 | 729 | 26 | 168 | 11 | 15 | 241 | 110 | 199 | 0.199 | 0.663 | 0.137 | -0.9559 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 9 | 2 | 3 | 7 | 0 | 14 | 2 | 1 | 4 | 3 | 41 | 33 | 16 | 4 | 6 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 9 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 6 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 2 | 21 | 3 | 27 | 22 | 3 | 30 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 12 | 0 | 5 | 9 | 109 | 30 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108063 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103374 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126328 | 0.153729 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164747 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146027 | 0 | 0.21578 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140243 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152003 | 0.119685 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122232 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068326 | 0 | 0 | 0.148028 | 0.123506 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141199 | 0 | 0.307189 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138682 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181149 | 0 | 0.135546 | 0 | 0 | 0.155921 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149501 | 0 | 0.148527 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114882 | 0 | 0.127863 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107859 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12681 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143909 | 0 | 0 | 0.143787 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128996 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127741 | 0.152338 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10746 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15479 | 0.282534 | 0 | 0.29562 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107278 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091744 | 0 | 0.132002 | 0 | 0 | 0.116709 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10726 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137231 | 0 | 0.191984 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | planetbyter | 2019/01/03 | My rigid/restricted and neurotic way of thinking is slowly killing me. Need some advice. I am in the process of getting an "autism spectrum diagnosis". In particular, I struggle with rigid/restricted thinking and "black and white" thinking. I view the world in extremes: either yes or no. All or nothing.
My mind is swa... | 6.496694 | 7.084607 | 7.164238 | 72.689537 | 65.417769 | 10.25368 | 35.936658 | 10.179372 | 3.793137 | 4,445 | 208 | 781 | 99 | 65 | 1,471 | 388 | 1,058 | 0.07 | 0.796 | 0.134 | 0.9972 | 3 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 131 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 33 | 45 | 5 | 5 | 64 | 4 | 73 | 9 | 0 | 5 | 14 | 163 | 135 | 61 | 2 | 23 | 43 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 4 | 6 | 30 | 0 | 1 | 52 | 38 | 2 | 4 | 29 | 32 | 2 | 7 | 28 | 16 | 0 | 6 | 19 | 36 | 101 | 29 | 153 | 102 | 16 | 108 | 2 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 30 | 54 | 1 | 26 | 50 | 551 | 153 | 30 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.046666 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.051743 | 0 | 0.032475 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.047361 | 0 | 0 | 0.078597 | 0 | 0.044645 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.407558 | 0.105484 | 0.040636 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.050519 | 0.041137 | 0.050071 | 0.051607 | 0 | 0.038129 | 0 | 0.052457 | 0.030798 | 0.049234 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.049894 | 0 | 0.146639 | 0 | 0.04887 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.039894 | 0.107437 | 0.042297 | 0 | 0 | 0.126168 | 0 | 0.160944 | 0 | 0.128759 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.024147 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074851 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.050456 | 0 | 0.047432 | 0.235147 | 0 | 0 | 0.26955 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.042447 | 0.105669 | 0 | 0.157471 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101193 | 0.069993 | 0.047863 | 0.042169 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.043101 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.048126 | 0 | 0.192878 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.03541 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091645 | 0 | 0 | 0.050858 | 0.097081 | 0.145281 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.051714 | 0.136764 | 0.033108 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.045696 | 0 | 0.048007 | 0 | 0.050794 | 0.238842 | 0 | 0 | 0.049101 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136279 | 0.037977 | 0 | 0.048331 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05395 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147058 | 0 | 0.053458 | 0.033802 | 0 | 0 | 0.079851 | 0 | 0.049924 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.035906 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.214198 | 0 | 0 | 0.167079 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129691 | 0 | 0.04665 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.338009 | 0.075812 | 0.038307 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086184 | 0 | 0.054916 | 0.138104 | 0 | 0.034767 | 0 | 0 | 0.067848 | 0 | 0 | 0.092259 |
suicidewatch | Tactics_7 | 2019/01/03 | I want to die That's all | -6.895714 | -8.294717 | -2.425 | 118.6825 | 147.571429 | 1.4 | 3.5 | 3.1291 | -3.5598 | 19 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 7 | 7 | 0.476 | 0.366 | 0.159 | -0.5574 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.869405 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.4941 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Galdravakr | 2019/01/03 | Thought I Was Getting Better I'm diagnosed with Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder, Major Depressive Disorder, and Borderline Personality Disorder. For the longest time I felt like I was doing better and like things were finally going to be normal from now on. For the past week or so everything that plagued me before is sta... | 2.139273 | 4.06669 | 4.218788 | 84.408182 | 77.909091 | 8.278788 | 23.727273 | 9.029199 | 1.875291 | 633 | 21 | 132 | 16 | 15 | 217 | 88 | 165 | 0.161 | 0.709 | 0.13 | -0.3736 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 10 | 12 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 16 | 4 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 33 | 39 | 13 | 0 | 7 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 13 | 12 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 6 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 2 | 16 | 8 | 21 | 28 | 3 | 22 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 1 | 3 | 17 | 92 | 29 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084208 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185208 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102478 | 0 | 0 | 0.319534 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.207481 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124159 | 0.103727 | 0.122235 | 0 | 0 | 0.414073 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124437 | 0 | 0 | 0.108937 | 0 | 0 | 0.216471 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060894 | 0 | 0.115633 | 0.131926 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12584 | 0 | 0.136887 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.237801 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107045 | 0 | 0 | 0.066186 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085064 | 0.235346 | 0 | 0.106343 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108694 | 0.113955 | 0 | 0.122098 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092884 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117997 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114965 | 0 | 0.105156 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121066 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077151 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123621 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085242 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080009 | 0 | 0 | 0.095609 | 0.070224 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.355166 | 0.095592 | 0.096602 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077554 |
suicidewatch | maybethrowawaysorta | 2019/01/03 | I’ve never wanted to die more in my life and I don’t feel like I can take it anymore TL;DR
Dreamed I was a dead pos. Woke up an alive piece of shit. Deeply disappointed.
I think about it all the time. I even dream about it . This morning I dreamed I was rotting and couldn’t cut it out. Couldn’t fix it at all so I off... | 0.168388 | 2.09545 | 2.809524 | 91.973816 | 84.639687 | 5.709896 | 19.757768 | 6.961327 | 0.241005 | 1,367 | 39 | 318 | 18 | 40 | 476 | 165 | 383 | 0.228 | 0.666 | 0.106 | -0.9955 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 39 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 34 | 19 | 8 | 1 | 14 | 1 | 27 | 8 | 3 | 3 | 9 | 72 | 68 | 22 | 3 | 14 | 18 | 1 | 8 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 22 | 10 | 0 | 2 | 14 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 19 | 13 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 8 | 46 | 6 | 39 | 52 | 16 | 34 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 19 | 2 | 3 | 14 | 210 | 68 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0.178861 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202261 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.272657 | 0.064079 | 0 | 0 | 0.163164 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055865 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093436 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190223 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093783 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181589 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.278026 | 0.19641 | 0.175984 | 0.100391 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084723 | 0 | 0 | 0.052083 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.361915 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197981 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10073 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129461 | 0.134317 | 0.091851 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135905 | 0.141362 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089791 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069699 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087484 | 0.063534 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086633 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176127 | 0.094225 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094071 | 0 | 0 | 0.091709 | 0 | 0.077649 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076618 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068904 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058721 | 0 | 0 | 0.106876 | 0.10533 | 0 | 0.087569 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.270268 | 0.145484 | 0.073511 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082694 | 0 | 0.210771 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093392 | 0.065101 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | UnderscoreRarity | 2019/01/03 | Molested as a boy, suppressed my emotions all my life until now, just broke up with GF of a year I recently “remembered” that I was molested as a young boy by three different male relatives, over the course of ~8 years. Sometimes my sister was involved. We never talked about it and I think she suppressed the memories a... | 4.022207 | 5.875833 | 4.634414 | 83.803153 | 72.378378 | 7.816216 | 28.099099 | 8.515129 | 2.078305 | 909 | 35 | 173 | 16 | 18 | 290 | 139 | 222 | 0.108 | 0.779 | 0.114 | 0.5208 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 17 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 13 | 13 | 4 | 0 | 12 | 0 | 10 | 9 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 39 | 27 | 21 | 1 | 3 | 6 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 6 | 16 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 7 | 1 | 2 | 14 | 3 | 33 | 5 | 33 | 12 | 5 | 33 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 25 | 11 | 1 | 4 | 21 | 123 | 39 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129474 | 0 | 0.146259 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153158 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121955 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15784 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160441 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152603 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164299 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13212 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137693 | 0 | 0.073853 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124239 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135031 | 0 | 0 | 0.08301 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144623 | 0.129161 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143841 | 0.168535 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206334 | 0.071358 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131826 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107372 | 0 | 0.112651 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140149 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127535 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144218 | 0 | 0.165459 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120823 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144458 | 0 | 0.103383 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159767 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10982 | 0.117398 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.18718 | 0.143504 | 0.231912 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.279135 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160865 | 0 | 0.172301 | 0 | 0.117161 | 0 | 0.131326 | 0.1354 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103757 | 0 | 0 | 0.282175 |
suicidewatch | ILoveHell | 2019/01/03 | is there anyone who posted in this subreddit and commited suicide? is there any case | 3.986 | 7.30154 | 4.641667 | 75.1425 | 83 | 8.333333 | 27.5 | 8.841846 | 3.373 | 69 | 3 | 10 | 2 | 2 | 22 | 13 | 15 | 0.243 | 0.757 | 0 | -0.6705 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.388428 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.399388 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.547041 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.624787 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | KolbeElectroBoi | 2019/01/03 | I can't bear this pain anymore. Have fun friends ye*t (yeet] | -0.9825 | -0.168208 | -1.246667 | 111.125 | 124.833333 | 1.6 | 20.666667 | 3.1291 | -1.042033 | 47 | 2 | 11 | 0 | 3 | 13 | 12 | 12 | 0.224 | 0.405 | 0.37 | 0.3664 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.602136 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.469087 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.646057 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | ParanoidPar | 2019/01/03 | I need help guys, I don't know how to help this guy. [https://www.rawconfessions.com/confession/show/i-plan-to-kill-myself-within-a-week-1546489018](https://www.rawconfessions.com/confession/show/i-plan-to-kill-myself-within-a-week-1546489018) | 58.439286 | 75.310026 | 22.54 | -54.07 | -30.285714 | 5.657143 | 14.142857 | 7.168622 | -0.432457 | 227 | 1 | 13 | 1 | 2 | 42 | 12 | 14 | 0 | 0.625 | 0.375 | 0.6597 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 38 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.5285 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.357764 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.59052 | 0 | 0.146669 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197886 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.428145 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Pseudo135 | 2019/01/03 | Why live? Living is a lot of work and not much enjoyment (atleast for some of us) why do we do it?
On a side note why is depression note sufficiently selected against? | 1.249545 | 3.775908 | 3.003258 | 88.224886 | 85.969697 | 8.148485 | 26.431818 | 8.841846 | 2.433491 | 130 | 6 | 28 | 4 | 4 | 43 | 26 | 33 | 0.198 | 0.802 | 0 | -0.8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 5 | 4 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 19 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.226745 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.464926 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.223814 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193526 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.316669 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.712653 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191656 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | RektBreadShitPost | 2019/01/03 | Life, death? Terrified How do you all live life knowing you will die someday. How can I flourish and succeed with this terrible existential crisis always. I think about it almost all day. What can I do? I am starting DBT, and 2 different PTSD therapies this month and my brains trying to make me worse before I can even ... | 3.650373 | 5.266712 | 4.721053 | 83.775702 | 72.881579 | 7.435088 | 25.166667 | 8.076483 | 1.492801 | 605 | 19 | 117 | 9 | 12 | 198 | 103 | 152 | 0.243 | 0.599 | 0.158 | -0.9496 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 13 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 10 | 11 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 17 | 4 | 2 | 5 | 4 | 31 | 31 | 11 | 3 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 20 | 4 | 12 | 23 | 6 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 83 | 28 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159027 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132144 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157499 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09681 | 0 | 0.135137 | 0 | 0 | 0.140456 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177287 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102421 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164822 | 0.165925 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186127 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104894 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1606 | 0.113455 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174949 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175702 | 0 | 0.087279 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162396 | 0.224347 | 0.077588 | 0 | 0.280468 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106008 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126762 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107615 | 0.120784 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185643 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163285 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135625 | 0 | 0 | 0.158999 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165676 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.224816 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181615 | 0 | 0 | 0.10176 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107823 | 0.172742 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187343 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.323686 | 0.112816 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | ThatThrowaway29986 | 2019/01/03 | Just spent my 18th birthday alone. I didn't get a card.. A cake.. Candles.. Anything.
I had one friend invite me out just to hang out, her and I have known eachother for many many years but never met just because the time was never right.. Yesterday was finally the day I was able to meet her.. Stupidly enough, I have... | 2.136614 | 4.330618 | 3.333257 | 89.442369 | 79.092807 | 5.775296 | 23.254944 | 6.86897 | 0.7697 | 1,687 | 56 | 338 | 18 | 42 | 545 | 218 | 431 | 0.159 | 0.763 | 0.078 | -0.993 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 56 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 32 | 19 | 6 | 1 | 22 | 0 | 36 | 5 | 2 | 2 | 3 | 59 | 67 | 23 | 2 | 4 | 13 | 1 | 6 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 11 | 20 | 0 | 2 | 10 | 0 | 3 | 9 | 9 | 10 | 0 | 5 | 24 | 7 | 59 | 9 | 48 | 37 | 6 | 71 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 23 | 26 | 3 | 8 | 37 | 232 | 70 | 2 | 0.079419 | 0.094099 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164509 | 0 | 0 | 0.132166 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078763 | 0 | 0 | 0.065355 | 0.2121 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061069 | 0 | 0.096827 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07024 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084015 | 0 | 0.08327 | 0 | 0 | 0.06341 | 0 | 0 | 0.051219 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140684 | 0.082061 | 0 | 0.209823 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074869 | 0 | 0.240941 | 0.113474 | 0 | 0.174 | 0.072588 | 0.067554 | 0 | 0 | 0.061359 | 0.146844 | 0.082987 | 0 | 0.090272 | 0 | 0.127038 | 0 | 0.087489 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159328 | 0 | 0.156424 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087866 | 0.082703 | 0 | 0.064737 | 0.089588 | 0.168187 | 0.086289 | 0 | 0.056096 | 0.194001 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053013 | 0.161037 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058382 | 0 | 0.122506 | 0.076704 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076205 | 0 | 0 | 0.084579 | 0.16145 | 0.060402 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075815 | 0.110119 | 0.069346 | 0 | 0 | 0.075077 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088968 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101756 | 0 | 0.078417 | 0 | 0 | 0.067824 | 0 | 0.063157 | 0 | 0.080377 | 0 | 0.0723 | 0 | 0 | 0.081523 | 0.065696 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134583 | 0.244563 | 0.078548 | 0 | 0.16864 | 0 | 0.063424 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059713 | 0.063834 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13893 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161761 | 0.086385 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.046844 | 0.126079 | 0.063705 | 0 | 0 | 0.073622 | 0.071664 | 0 | 0.091328 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056417 | 0.173665 | 0 | 0.102287 |
suicidewatch | yourfavouritebi-con | 2019/01/03 | i need help on jan 1st i came out as lesbian which broke my boyfriend at the times heart. i don’t really have anything going for me atm. i keep thinking about overdosing and i don’t know if i’ll make it to my birthday. on feb 1st i have to go back to a school which made my mental health plummet last year and i don’t kn... | 0.908027 | 2.470703 | 2.594483 | 96.327639 | 80.310345 | 5.840849 | 22.188329 | 6.671995 | 0.269371 | 516 | 16 | 125 | 5 | 13 | 170 | 82 | 145 | 0.123 | 0.749 | 0.129 | -0.0258 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 11 | 4 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 27 | 32 | 11 | 0 | 5 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 9 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 22 | 2 | 18 | 29 | 1 | 18 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 7 | 0 | 3 | 7 | 74 | 26 | 1 | 0.153225 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126091 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.235641 | 0 | 0.093404 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175248 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098817 | 0 | 0.131972 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158322 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146413 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.240161 | 0 | 0.174162 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162871 | 0 | 0.181572 | 0.205407 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.40858 | 0 | 0 | 0.252625 | 0.124899 | 0 | 0.162243 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144985 | 0.306836 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154415 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113614 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170138 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168195 | 0 | 0 | 0.146747 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09816 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155072 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108453 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133925 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09818 | 0 | 0 | 0.089347 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090376 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098672 |
suicidewatch | notdylanchloehollow | 2019/01/03 | Idk just venting I just wish i wasnt here rn i dont wanna die at all cause i have one person in this world that needs me alive and i cant not be here for her but im tired. I find it really hard to be alone cause i overthink badly to the point where ill put horrable stupid thoughts in my head that will effect how i act... | 0.887036 | 2.336784 | 2.142143 | 100.06 | 80 | 5.071429 | 17.678571 | 5.288315 | -0.813768 | 282 | 5 | 71 | 1 | 7 | 90 | 60 | 80 | 0.274 | 0.66 | 0.066 | -0.9579 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 3 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 17 | 10 | 4 | 1 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 11 | 0 | 8 | 5 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 45 | 16 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.226373 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194574 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182497 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.449064 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.226842 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.256163 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.199769 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.195796 | 0 | 0.224316 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.236093 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162067 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148109 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151529 | 0.190847 | 0 | 0 | 0.20662 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.219724 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140022 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17352 | 0 | 0.251214 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.251345 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | ohfredi | 2019/01/03 | Hi hello I hope u are at a neutral point in your life. By the point you’ve seen this I have almost definitely killed my self. I have no reason to live any longer I do not have anyone in my life, I said good bye to my cat and she will be fine until someone finds me. Hope your fight with these thoughts goes better than m... | 0.727857 | 2.659925 | 1.964286 | 98.790714 | 82.571429 | 4.571429 | 15.714286 | 5.288315 | -1.035 | 255 | 4 | 61 | 1 | 7 | 81 | 56 | 70 | 0.116 | 0.681 | 0.203 | 0.699 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 8 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 9 | 13 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 13 | 5 | 9 | 7 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 9 | 5 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 37 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.222835 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15133 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1556 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.196812 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.203391 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.18665 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.442051 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.2462 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.314364 | 0 | 0 | 0.196501 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.420732 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.228801 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.21168 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.232151 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188552 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176666 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | QUILeRSe | 2019/01/03 | Convince me to live I'm having a hard time finding reasons. | 3.41 | 5.252993 | 4.823333 | 81.855 | 74 | 4.8 | 37 | 3.1291 | 2.1939 | 48 | 3 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 16 | 12 | 12 | 0.123 | 0.702 | 0.175 | 0.1531 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.467959 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.458652 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.452106 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.526422 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.298552 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | GooberellaGirl | 2019/01/03 | This sounds silly, but I wish the BirdBox monster was real... (spoilers?)
At least I could stop thinking about doing it and just do it... No more work, no more having to keep up with what others expect, I could stop disappointing my husband and he could just take care of himself instead of me...
It's weird to watch a... | 4.467748 | 6.432036 | 4.953333 | 81.516667 | 71.432432 | 6.735135 | 28.54955 | 7.38713 | 1.746323 | 465 | 18 | 82 | 5 | 9 | 148 | 80 | 111 | 0.259 | 0.636 | 0.106 | -0.9718 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 23 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 8 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 26 | 21 | 7 | 1 | 7 | 6 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 4 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 8 | 3 | 14 | 14 | 5 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 65 | 16 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125608 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183154 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.573709 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090831 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159672 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152723 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19131 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.249079 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.204469 | 0 | 0.184699 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143149 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.201922 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138295 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.300373 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135066 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115106 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.413153 | 0 | 0 | 0.13078 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | derpsnotdead | 2019/01/03 | I want to die, I just don’t have the guts to do it I’m tired of living. Every day I wish that I could just die from like a car accident or a heart attack so that it will be better for my parents and that they won’t have to tell everyone I knew that I committed suicide. If I ever get the guts I don’t know how to do it. ... | 1.440036 | 1.940522 | 3.871147 | 92.081979 | 76.777778 | 6.870826 | 21.098633 | 6.980633 | 0.215633 | 517 | 11 | 131 | 5 | 11 | 182 | 86 | 153 | 0.178 | 0.718 | 0.105 | -0.8926 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 11 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 15 | 9 | 4 | 1 | 2 | 27 | 27 | 12 | 4 | 6 | 9 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 19 | 3 | 14 | 21 | 1 | 12 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 5 | 7 | 85 | 28 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118736 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193185 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178206 | 0.150184 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13558 | 0 | 0 | 0.219028 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.352474 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150402 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153604 | 0.286146 | 0.162262 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088719 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.201227 | 0 | 0.179415 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187871 | 0 | 0.279971 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119943 | 0.082961 | 0 | 0.149946 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172162 | 0.170598 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188555 | 0 | 0 | 0.117726 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135611 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185746 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148422 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108808 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.195173 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.200318 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.195274 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
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