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suicidewatch | ramendude0720 | 2019/01/03 | Bad New Years Resolution Okay. So I made a post roughly 8 months ago where I mentioned that the reason that I haven’t shot myself is because my state gun laws state that I can’t buy a gun before I’m 21. I’ve managed to survive until now, but during a depressive episode during New Year Eve I made my New Year’s resolutio... | 3.462222 | 4.655861 | 4.883889 | 84.0925 | 72.703704 | 7.177778 | 26.092593 | 7.554174 | 1.259459 | 520 | 17 | 108 | 6 | 10 | 174 | 77 | 135 | 0.178 | 0.768 | 0.054 | -0.9525 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 17 | 19 | 9 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 17 | 2 | 9 | 15 | 2 | 26 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 20 | 63 | 24 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141665 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133437 | 0.097421 | 0 | 0.135989 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127598 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.275294 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141547 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080806 | 0.114171 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17681 | 0 | 0.087829 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078077 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.302438 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161054 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127561 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.463046 | 0.169963 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121545 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153057 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164315 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127627 | 0.133611 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.204804 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151484 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.347662 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.308744 |
suicidewatch | 24decouleur | 2019/01/03 | i lost to myself I think when I get home from vacation, this Saturday, I’m going to end my life. I only have two friends, my sister has made my life a living hell, I’ve been diagnosed with depression about a year ago, but I’ve probably had it much longer. I remember in 5th grade I even wrote to myself that I wanted to ... | 2.841053 | 3.527616 | 4.562237 | 87.734408 | 73.649123 | 8.15614 | 23.02193 | 8.472885 | 1.137161 | 415 | 10 | 94 | 7 | 8 | 141 | 78 | 114 | 0.152 | 0.793 | 0.055 | -0.9239 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 6 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 13 | 19 | 5 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 18 | 1 | 12 | 13 | 3 | 17 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 9 | 60 | 24 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162181 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140683 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.199743 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157582 | 0.185699 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162047 | 0 | 0 | 0.120842 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141353 | 0 | 0.095588 | 0 | 0.207959 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161789 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183522 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202416 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.387686 | 0 | 0.183372 | 0.161555 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19972 | 0 | 0 | 0.173119 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146035 | 0 | 0.134495 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139148 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172955 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19726 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.207256 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146111 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137562 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.209229 | 0 | 0 | 0.117232 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178723 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.215827 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117819 |
suicidewatch | thisismythrowaway139 | 2019/01/03 | My reason for being alive isn’t enough anymore. I don’t want to be alive. My only reason to be alive still is my obligation as a father to my daughter. This was enough to stay alive but that is slowly going away fast.
Long story short my fiancé, mother of my child, had an affair. Cheated on me emotionally for a few m... | 3.522733 | 4.596723 | 4.673009 | 86.119982 | 72.416031 | 7.347851 | 25.239855 | 7.66913 | 1.174741 | 2,009 | 60 | 421 | 24 | 38 | 661 | 230 | 524 | 0.148 | 0.71 | 0.142 | -0.775 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 54 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 8 | 18 | 23 | 4 | 0 | 19 | 0 | 53 | 13 | 1 | 5 | 2 | 63 | 97 | 25 | 1 | 13 | 12 | 12 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 4 | 19 | 22 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 0 | 5 | 10 | 17 | 9 | 0 | 5 | 29 | 7 | 93 | 14 | 74 | 58 | 8 | 76 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 7 | 76 | 34 | 1 | 2 | 30 | 304 | 112 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068825 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064604 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077 | 0 | 0 | 0.063892 | 0.069118 | 0 | 0 | 0.072947 | 0 | 0 | 0.094659 | 0 | 0.066067 | 0 | 0 | 0.206003 | 0.084765 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079759 | 0 | 0.066881 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185972 | 0 | 0 | 0.150217 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06486 | 0.087336 | 0.137535 | 0.160449 | 0 | 0 | 0.070231 | 0 | 0.07419 | 0.069779 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141926 | 0.066042 | 0 | 0.08513 | 0.059986 | 0.071778 | 0.202823 | 0.074481 | 0.132377 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077116 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077047 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128009 | 0.063288 | 0 | 0 | 0.084358 | 0 | 0.164522 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06871 | 0 | 0 | 0.16951 | 0 | 0.280298 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185918 | 0.082521 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074499 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052612 | 0.17715 | 0.082616 | 0 | 0.258636 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081119 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083711 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159657 | 0 | 0.083358 | 0 | 0 | 0.14771 | 0.061744 | 0 | 0 | 0.06187 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054955 | 0.082756 | 0.062005 | 0.064912 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076283 | 0 | 0.181094 | 0 | 0 | 0.22257 | 0.086263 | 0 | 0 | 0.151689 | 0 | 0.186787 | 0.067057 | 0 | 0 | 0.18318 | 0.061628 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07006 | 0 | 0.089284 | 0.074844 | 0 | 0.113048 | 0 | 0 | 0.055154 | 0.084889 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | diilser | 2019/01/03 | I’m going to kill myself tomorrow and I don’t believe there is anything any of you can do about it. Go ahead and try to stop me, maybe you can. Hey guys, 13 year old here. No one in my school likes me because I play fortnite but I think Fortnite is cool. My favourite skin is stage 1 carbid bechsse is looks like ninja t... | 0.768188 | 2.841712 | 2.204891 | 96.323569 | 83.347826 | 4.528986 | 21.757246 | 5.461319 | -0.058493 | 425 | 14 | 95 | 2 | 12 | 137 | 74 | 115 | 0.104 | 0.753 | 0.143 | 0.7003 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 9 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 13 | 20 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 22 | 6 | 11 | 17 | 0 | 12 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 10 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 57 | 25 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133174 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161155 | 0 | 0.183079 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.238758 | 0 | 0 | 0.220639 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.222595 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193907 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.216662 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138324 | 0.19135 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164452 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176749 | 0.370607 | 0 | 0 | 0.196742 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.229359 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.205496 | 0 | 0.132703 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193363 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198195 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.327453 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.250966 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132959 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126111 |
suicidewatch | jddicjdjs | 2019/01/03 | Life really does gets easier when you're handsome I don't know where to start, but here it goes.
After reading this, you might think/feel that I'm just another cry baby/loser or even an incel, well thats ok, no worries, I've already accepted my fate :). I don't know of I'm cursed by God or just maybe because of my ugly... | 4.057631 | 5.723941 | 5.088415 | 81.348407 | 71.92517 | 8.106241 | 28.769003 | 8.716276 | 2.258851 | 1,192 | 47 | 227 | 22 | 23 | 391 | 162 | 294 | 0.135 | 0.699 | 0.166 | 0.6621 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 34 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 1 | 21 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 1 | 23 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 41 | 42 | 21 | 1 | 4 | 18 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 18 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 7 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 8 | 1 | 27 | 12 | 28 | 28 | 4 | 28 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 18 | 12 | 0 | 10 | 15 | 151 | 45 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.512024 | 0 | 0.096519 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.243267 | 0 | 0 | 0.115038 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070711 | 0 | 0 | 0.130689 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099922 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127418 | 0.074809 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10151 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15323 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109352 | 0 | 0.117304 | 0.082869 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089619 | 0 | 0.060604 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.229711 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191248 | 0.094553 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081932 | 0.170012 | 0 | 0.102428 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10976 | 0 | 0 | 0.116535 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123055 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086011 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078603 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080418 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116029 | 0 | 0.222933 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198122 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1056 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130386 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089301 | 0 | 0 | 0.164207 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126882 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093234 | 0.101387 | 0.106795 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074326 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.236264 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092073 | 0 | 0 | 0.104296 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117801 | 0 | 0.082401 | 0 | 0 | 0.074699 |
suicidewatch | TehReclaimer2552 | 2019/01/03 | Anyone out there...? Can someone tell me I'll be ok...? That I'm not a failure...?
Can someone tell me I'll get better? Please...? | -2.345 | -0.911187 | 0.507231 | 100.687769 | 111.692308 | 2.08 | 16.738462 | 3.1291 | -1.150175 | 91 | 3 | 21 | 0 | 5 | 31 | 19 | 26 | 0 | 0.845 | 0.155 | 0.594 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.23738 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.300252 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17737 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.372659 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.575299 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.59346 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | schizoidparanoid | 2019/01/03 | Defiled I’m contemplating suicide and self-harm and drug abuse tonight because I had full-blown visual flashbacks of every single detail of one of my two rapes (this one was violent and demeaning), and specifically want to kill myself because I know that the rape was my fault, and I know that I deserve to die. My fianc... | 3.294474 | 4.212627 | 4.198571 | 89.896429 | 72.796992 | 6.953383 | 24.150376 | 7.060882 | 0.732492 | 1,001 | 27 | 220 | 9 | 19 | 323 | 142 | 266 | 0.219 | 0.668 | 0.113 | -0.9861 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 32 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 12 | 13 | 8 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 25 | 8 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 32 | 44 | 22 | 4 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 14 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 10 | 1 | 4 | 11 | 3 | 34 | 3 | 29 | 28 | 10 | 29 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 6 | 18 | 15 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 154 | 48 | 0 | 0 | 0.147995 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084941 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102788 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117355 | 0.096046 | 0 | 0.152285 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080555 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129634 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109307 | 0.127824 | 0 | 0 | 0.144853 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110631 | 0.129063 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.21048 | 0.238709 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119823 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138192 | 0 | 0.480521 | 0 | 0 | 0.132259 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110296 | 0 | 0.104891 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112734 | 0 | 0.083377 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132757 | 0.091821 | 0.185235 | 0.096336 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.253922 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099535 | 0 | 0.130306 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.279647 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.273257 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122016 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103062 | 0.073674 | 0.099146 | 0 | 0 | 0.112307 | 0 | 0 | 0.139455 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | kindaoverliving | 2019/01/03 | Do you ever just wanna fall into a coma? The word coma, coming from the Greek word koma, means deep sleep.
I just really want to sleep for a really long time. | 1.860208 | 3.84232 | 4.42625 | 82.327083 | 79 | 6.766667 | 10.666667 | 7.793538 | -0.232471 | 122 | 0 | 23 | 2 | 3 | 43 | 25 | 32 | 0 | 0.946 | 0.054 | 0.1513 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 15 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.274256 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.287993 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.281756 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.346809 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.407924 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.637219 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.18565 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187789 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | GarIsLonely | 2019/01/03 | Walking Corpse I just turned 16 and I feel myself getting closer to death. I realize nothing I do matters and one day my life will end anyway. I keep fucking up my life and I think it's too late for me to be saved. The only way I get through the day is if I'm either passed out from xans or fucked up on other pills or T... | 1.631274 | 2.716735 | 3.523644 | 92.479253 | 77.115183 | 6.140454 | 21.633857 | 6.427356 | 0.192809 | 677 | 17 | 159 | 5 | 15 | 229 | 107 | 191 | 0.178 | 0.71 | 0.112 | -0.8211 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 9 | 13 | 4 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 14 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 33 | 37 | 16 | 1 | 4 | 8 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 9 | 9 | 0 | 3 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 7 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 28 | 6 | 12 | 30 | 1 | 24 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 7 | 2 | 4 | 14 | 95 | 37 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.223102 | 0 | 0 | 0.091167 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081724 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.345838 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15547 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.23748 | 0 | 0 | 0.088547 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.271145 | 0.191549 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.247878 | 0.280169 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118551 | 0.142712 | 0 | 0.264719 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141645 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119161 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151229 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189385 | 0.130993 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128637 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181689 | 0.101961 | 0.142652 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127978 | 0 | 0.117059 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139857 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.224165 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085902 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09102 | 0.145822 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.212826 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Sameoldthang | 2019/01/03 | Every year Im still so naive... for the past 4 years I keep saying to my self that this year can't be worse than the last.... Since 2016 my mom's mental illness is slowly destroying her,2017 I've been kicked out of my college,Most of my friend started to forget that I existed. 2018 Ultimate loneliness , can't even rec... | 5.76 | 5.946907 | 6.326593 | 79.448572 | 66.964072 | 9.554251 | 28.676048 | 9.3871 | 2.315444 | 668 | 20 | 130 | 12 | 10 | 218 | 110 | 167 | 0.115 | 0.749 | 0.136 | 0.5559 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 31 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 7 | 9 | 2 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 18 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 26 | 30 | 8 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 11 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 19 | 6 | 13 | 20 | 2 | 16 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 12 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 12 | 80 | 28 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114534 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105843 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144453 | 0.121739 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088772 | 0 | 0 | 0.13971 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090915 | 0 | 0.115974 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139198 | 0.098336 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.212693 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156457 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136293 | 0.121722 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136716 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.297367 | 0 | 0 | 0.244696 | 0.152287 | 0 | 0.075648 | 0.112202 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067248 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138717 | 0.146023 | 0 | 0.322424 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.314063 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131401 | 0 | 0.120189 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156674 | 0.088181 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.235101 | 0 | 0.109463 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143597 | 0 | 0 | 0.113864 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097428 | 0 | 0.109926 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091447 | 0.088199 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140275 | 0.097781 | 0 | 0 | 0.265923 |
suicidewatch | Iceflower64 | 2019/01/03 | Making an impact There's often been times where I've tried to talk about how close I am to suicide with friends, family, and even my boyfriend. My dad flipped his shit on me, my friends are completely unresponsive, and my bf brushes it aside.
I feel as if I'm alone; or that I'm screaming but no sound is heard. I'm try... | 4.533404 | 4.859639 | 5.552368 | 83.455746 | 69.631579 | 8.649123 | 27.938596 | 8.598638 | 1.795018 | 728 | 23 | 155 | 11 | 12 | 241 | 114 | 190 | 0.113 | 0.758 | 0.129 | 0.5023 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 22 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 13 | 11 | 3 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 16 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 32 | 33 | 13 | 2 | 3 | 10 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 8 | 23 | 7 | 25 | 22 | 2 | 21 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 14 | 9 | 1 | 6 | 10 | 105 | 31 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171123 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127048 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140594 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142327 | 0.173235 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10913 | 0.149456 | 0 | 0 | 0.148494 | 0 | 0.155759 | 0 | 0.167085 | 0.118037 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.255305 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093901 | 0.277166 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182797 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161441 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.220578 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159575 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111961 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.229092 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.32628 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169601 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180729 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.265603 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.317609 | 0 | 0 | 0.096344 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.224354 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117371 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | noone2312 | 2019/01/03 | I can't live anymore Will turn 22 in a week, could not get a job through campus placement. Got rejected by many companies in various rounds. My family expected a lot from me. I expected more from me, but wasted time and can't get a job. I think of myself as a big loser. All day I am inside my hostel room depressed. I d... | 0.797671 | 3.154878 | 3.524057 | 84.988682 | 86.034483 | 7.273834 | 23.701826 | 8.313333 | 1.861462 | 553 | 22 | 112 | 14 | 17 | 194 | 81 | 145 | 0.282 | 0.696 | 0.022 | -0.9911 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 20 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 18 | 26 | 5 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 23 | 4 | 14 | 19 | 6 | 13 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 0 | 3 | 7 | 73 | 24 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098858 | 0.102861 | 0 | 0 | 0.252195 | 0.129625 | 0 | 0 | 0.245193 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0987 | 0 | 0.135789 | 0.079724 | 0 | 0.106473 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118123 | 0 | 0 | 0.116537 | 0 | 0.062505 | 0.088313 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191015 | 0 | 0.193757 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.296608 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.613363 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060394 | 0 | 0.218315 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105096 | 0 | 0 | 0.082516 | 0.12533 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098671 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13147 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133282 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15842 | 0 | 0 | 0.072083 | 0 | 0.117176 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134462 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09916 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119164 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Siked | 2019/01/03 | Killing myself on Friday? Ever since the winter break started for college I’ve been feeling extra shitty. Two hours of sleep every night and drinking almost every single day. I feel like I’ve been slowly preparing to kill myself friday. I just don’t have the drive to keep going anymore. School fucking sucks. The only p... | 2.145632 | 4.577467 | 3.349927 | 88.018203 | 80.54321 | 4.799419 | 20.640523 | 5.900189 | 0.214984 | 647 | 18 | 120 | 4 | 17 | 209 | 108 | 162 | 0.137 | 0.799 | 0.064 | -0.8803 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 11 | 5 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 11 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 30 | 31 | 10 | 2 | 2 | 7 | 0 | 9 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 1 | 1 | 9 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 9 | 20 | 3 | 17 | 26 | 5 | 19 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 5 | 3 | 1 | 11 | 76 | 23 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121867 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082762 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.241392 | 0 | 0 | 0.100151 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107636 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128745 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078488 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119222 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080383 | 0.110087 | 0.205079 | 0.116292 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.49229 | 0.173888 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.225023 | 0.063584 | 0 | 0.138332 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109021 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122077 | 0 | 0.119852 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108174 | 0.269291 | 0 | 0 | 0.099203 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118915 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089465 | 0 | 0 | 0.117541 | 0 | 0.114209 | 0 | 0.116776 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09256 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.253119 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122344 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138524 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123169 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100673 | 0 | 0.12179 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136236 | 0.086141 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106373 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077982 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165256 | 0 | 0.118885 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071783 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078372 |
suicidewatch | MaleficentElderberry | 2019/01/03 | I'm so tired. Title says it all. I'm exhausted and I feel defeated. I've tried therapy. I've tried medications. Nothing is working. When am I allowed to give up? I can't stand it anymore. I don't care anymore. I'm done. | -2.04383 | -0.828424 | 1.808957 | 90.4645 | 116.659574 | 5.284255 | 23.848936 | 6.742158 | 1.46701 | 170 | 9 | 37 | 4 | 10 | 62 | 32 | 47 | 0.263 | 0.737 | 0 | -0.8865 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 11 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 1 | 2 | 10 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 17 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.516146 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.265317 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.2663 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131578 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.249631 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.262149 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.249693 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206941 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.29759 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.29909 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.353351 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189447 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | iamverysadallthetime | 2019/01/03 | Hopeless I don't know what I'm doing anymore | 0.997 | 2.995917 | 3.65 | 86.705 | 82 | 4 | 30 | 3.1291 | 1.102 | 37 | 2 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 13 | 9 | 10 | 0.333 | 0.667 | 0 | -0.4588 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.874676 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.484707 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | skye1121 | 2019/01/03 | I wanna die and I'm planning it I don't deserve to live. I hurt too many people on the way and I'm done breaking relationships. The world is definitely a better place without me... I lost my best friend because I was too much for her, now I'm losing my roommate as well.... it's all because of me. So before I lose anyon... | 2.022056 | 3.819839 | 3.745368 | 88.266993 | 77.803089 | 6.35763 | 24.388283 | 7.255503 | 1.006119 | 980 | 34 | 206 | 12 | 23 | 328 | 141 | 259 | 0.147 | 0.737 | 0.116 | -0.9024 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 47 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 14 | 16 | 3 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 20 | 6 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 38 | 37 | 21 | 6 | 4 | 12 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 6 | 11 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 25 | 5 | 24 | 22 | 7 | 25 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 13 | 0 | 7 | 5 | 125 | 36 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091984 | 0 | 0 | 0.07346 | 0 | 0.19906 | 0.223239 | 0 | 0.096323 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064231 | 0.094121 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167991 | 0 | 0.078166 | 0 | 0.096401 | 0.081243 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.381344 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094005 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153474 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.046447 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070971 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052206 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090693 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108854 | 0 | 0.097055 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.295014 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100968 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129767 | 0 | 0 | 0.243342 | 0 | 0 | 0.205535 | 0.100276 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093131 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097449 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135055 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088142 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.254736 | 0.080208 | 0.095974 | 0 | 0.086837 | 0 | 0 | 0.093454 | 0.198081 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098623 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0732 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076799 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10048 | 0 | 0.086577 | 0 | 0.069067 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072926 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054181 | 0.291656 | 0 | 0 | 0.082593 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08855 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.223239 | 0 |
suicidewatch | DAQEBAR | 2019/01/03 | Debating on leaving this world I have never been in a darker place in my life. I am 20 years old, and I am really debating on taking my life. Suicidal thoughts have been a challenge I have faced from a young age. I have huge attachment issues due to being adopted, and have always avoided getting attached to girls. I fa... | 0.456254 | 2.301448 | 2.47914 | 95.204241 | 83.035088 | 5.660956 | 20.585139 | 6.794906 | 0.21052 | 612 | 18 | 144 | 7 | 17 | 205 | 86 | 171 | 0.173 | 0.715 | 0.112 | -0.8902 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 21 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 10 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 0 | 22 | 7 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 23 | 42 | 14 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 11 | 11 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 8 | 6 | 1 | 1 | 10 | 1 | 21 | 4 | 17 | 31 | 1 | 28 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 11 | 0 | 2 | 13 | 97 | 32 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138871 | 0 | 0 | 0.111569 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128742 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070054 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.214479 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.355711 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158891 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139949 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147379 | 0 | 0 | 0.141976 | 0 | 0 | 0.189416 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.242033 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134706 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206828 | 0.1295 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140699 | 0 | 0.090859 | 0 | 0.142675 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14009 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171796 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146667 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.403259 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106448 | 0.156371 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.297946 | 0 | 0.145845 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079086 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120558 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.259038 |
suicidewatch | whistlepoo | 2019/01/03 | Thoughts And Ruminations I've been active on this sub for a while. I try my best to help people. I suffered from some terrible depression some time ago. It peaks it's head up time and time again. Occasional suicidal ideation.
I'm sitting on the floor, looking out the window, thinking about what contentment means- the... | 4.668106 | 7.853307 | 5.469262 | 72.023205 | 76.268722 | 8.037286 | 32.428018 | 8.841846 | 3.627273 | 1,039 | 53 | 151 | 25 | 25 | 337 | 138 | 227 | 0.109 | 0.685 | 0.206 | 0.9648 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 36 | 8 | 4 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 17 | 2 | 1 | 12 | 0 | 23 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 31 | 37 | 7 | 2 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 15 | 12 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 21 | 9 | 34 | 24 | 5 | 21 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 20 | 12 | 0 | 5 | 8 | 119 | 36 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094737 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087948 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12041 | 0.112157 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09205 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122487 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120219 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054039 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.568845 | 0 | 0 | 0.109683 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14327 | 0 | 0 | 0.10615 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058735 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150976 | 0.052213 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179494 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107369 | 0.116417 | 0 | 0 | 0.107704 | 0 | 0.107912 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158491 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081282 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.370464 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10103 | 0.120484 | 0 | 0 | 0.115228 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.217889 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116903 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098395 | 0 | 0 | 0.071002 | 0.06848 | 0 | 0.169692 | 0.186957 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145121 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.257112 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | socialsponge2 | 2019/01/03 | I want it to be over Everything I always think about if I was able to die. I think of what I’d be leaving behind, but it doesn’t feel like enough. It’s gotten to the point where I spend more time thinking of ways to kill my self than I do anything else. I fantasize my mom finding my limp corpse and not crying just tell... | 3.440586 | 3.829378 | 4.199725 | 91.966108 | 72.076923 | 6.945788 | 26.155678 | 6.427356 | 0.744493 | 668 | 20 | 154 | 4 | 12 | 214 | 110 | 182 | 0.156 | 0.64 | 0.204 | 0.8345 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 11 | 3 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 13 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 33 | 28 | 10 | 4 | 4 | 9 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 12 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 6 | 4 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 3 | 24 | 9 | 26 | 21 | 5 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 12 | 6 | 0 | 7 | 7 | 107 | 36 | 2 | 0.123452 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102722 | 0 | 0 | 0.083951 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10159 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125867 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129437 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135606 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.256247 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103128 | 0 | 0 | 0.127559 | 0 | 0 | 0.223338 | 0 | 0 | 0.110951 | 0 | 0.116379 | 0.138918 | 0.062421 | 0.088194 | 0 | 0 | 0.112833 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190757 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165494 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10973 | 0.273162 | 0 | 0 | 0.10063 | 0 | 0.130718 | 0 | 0 | 0.087198 | 0.060312 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103668 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16481 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144585 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095214 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167308 | 0.093891 | 0 | 0 | 0.137079 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128981 | 0.135513 | 0.116702 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.257574 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095039 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107902 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164032 | 0.395515 | 0 | 0 | 0.071986 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.218445 | 0.09799 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | depressed_n_lonely | 2019/01/03 | I'm 14yo and I cant see myself living to 15 I have been battling depression since the 2nd grade. Each year, I have felt it getting worse and worse. There is a crushing sadness in the background of my life like white noise, drowning everything else out. On top of this, I have impulsive decision making, severe anxiety, a... | 5.277655 | 6.134525 | 5.90062 | 79.729151 | 68.18239 | 8.698652 | 32.123989 | 8.841846 | 2.658961 | 1,292 | 54 | 241 | 21 | 21 | 420 | 186 | 318 | 0.2 | 0.733 | 0.067 | -0.9925 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 35 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 9 | 15 | 4 | 2 | 22 | 0 | 24 | 7 | 4 | 8 | 2 | 47 | 41 | 19 | 2 | 2 | 9 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 14 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 9 | 13 | 1 | 3 | 10 | 7 | 37 | 2 | 39 | 30 | 6 | 44 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 21 | 1 | 1 | 22 | 170 | 46 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081968 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078411 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.233213 | 0.096301 | 0 | 0.085582 | 0.062482 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113853 | 0 | 0 | 0.104662 | 0 | 0 | 0.105294 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066103 | 0 | 0.088282 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085624 | 0.115297 | 0.272349 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092119 | 0.100263 | 0.096626 | 0 | 0.103652 | 0 | 0.098414 | 0 | 0.093682 | 0.17437 | 0 | 0.112384 | 0 | 0 | 0.160653 | 0 | 0.058252 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105193 | 0.108951 | 0 | 0.121461 | 0.068702 | 0.21659 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112661 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144795 | 0.100151 | 0 | 0.090508 | 0 | 0 | 0.114669 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136837 | 0.103917 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103294 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075348 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069456 | 0 | 0 | 0.240519 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071059 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.210771 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.311201 | 0.081678 | 0 | 0.106928 | 0.115794 | 0 | 0.084788 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101373 | 0 | 0.072549 | 0 | 0.081855 | 0.085693 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112117 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068095 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059768 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139179 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060456 | 0 | 0.164436 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098805 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.208909 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198017 |
suicidewatch | Slayaisawesome | 2019/01/03 | Life is Ilussion and lost hope. Power feeds the soul.
But not all of us have it within our reach.
Desolation. Loneliness. powerlessness. Lacking. Dissociation. Dissatisfaction.
All that posseses your body at times might feel all bad. Only darkness. Only void.
Then there are those of us who have fallen even deeper... | 1.438726 | 4.094673 | 1.918537 | 92.221676 | 95.909722 | 4.951064 | 18.280437 | 6.664449 | 0.255552 | 1,211 | 35 | 236 | 18 | 47 | 369 | 153 | 288 | 0.33 | 0.537 | 0.133 | -0.9972 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 70 | 6 | 7 | 0 | 3 | 10 | 28 | 5 | 0 | 11 | 0 | 33 | 14 | 3 | 2 | 6 | 43 | 46 | 16 | 6 | 8 | 6 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 13 | 12 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 22 | 18 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 3 | 18 | 10 | 26 | 34 | 20 | 15 | 2 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 17 | 8 | 0 | 5 | 4 | 161 | 31 | 0 | 0 | 0.108955 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076517 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075674 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076781 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.20429 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093757 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080473 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060737 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092994 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084048 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181579 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108971 | 0.061638 | 0 | 0 | 0.274006 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.324764 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100383 | 0 | 0.082996 | 0.087013 | 0.061383 | 0.093231 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097553 | 0.092852 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070924 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.18694 | 0.139877 | 0.3914 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077916 | 0 | 0.090949 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053622 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.442457 | 0 | 0 | 0.075875 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.331912 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.261298 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | peaxchiie | 2019/01/03 | tired of hearing voice mail. Fuck you. I’m tired. Every time I see hope it’s crushed. I’m tired of being annoyed. I’m ready to die again. But this time I’m not going to the hospital. | -1.970107 | -0.252103 | 0.503571 | 101.63 | 106.25 | 3.285714 | 15.714286 | 5.288315 | -0.918321 | 141 | 4 | 34 | 1 | 7 | 47 | 28 | 40 | 0.414 | 0.482 | 0.104 | -0.9442 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 10 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 4 | 9 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 13 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.237438 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192758 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.211504 | 0 | 0 | 0.130021 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.257853 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.227231 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182309 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.266808 | 0.788849 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | soulshine-luv | 2019/01/03 | Glad I didn’t succeed I thought about it multiple times, but only tried once. I am fortunate that my friends came and got me as I was falling asleep in the car due to CO2 poisoning. Although I still think about wanting it to be over, I realize that there is something beautiful about life and continuing to live. That do... | 4.387128 | 5.644052 | 4.655523 | 86.365876 | 70.546392 | 8.429455 | 29.32106 | 8.841846 | 2.147069 | 389 | 15 | 80 | 7 | 7 | 122 | 63 | 97 | 0.06 | 0.629 | 0.31 | 0.9854 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 10 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 7 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 21 | 17 | 10 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 14 | 6 | 11 | 11 | 2 | 12 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 57 | 21 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169404 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.232854 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191928 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.314588 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16283 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143802 | 0 | 0 | 0.179775 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.367498 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.22177 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149663 | 0 | 0.157022 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.216818 | 0 | 0.15484 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156734 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.325176 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.391359 | 0 | 0.161629 | 0.237431 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138225 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120083 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | dulledemotions | 2019/01/03 | Is this what being at the end feels like? Finally reached what I feel the pinnacle of my life will ever be. The littlest things have me on edge all the time, I feel like as if I’m holding on to the cliff with my pinky.
I put on the obvious front while at work but the second that weight has been lifted another immediat... | 2.660656 | 4.233112 | 3.93412 | 88.586426 | 75.393443 | 7.284372 | 24.221858 | 8.021204 | 1.171124 | 699 | 22 | 152 | 11 | 15 | 229 | 123 | 183 | 0.045 | 0.873 | 0.082 | 0.5574 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 16 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 13 | 0 | 16 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 28 | 27 | 13 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 6 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 14 | 6 | 2 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 7 | 21 | 4 | 18 | 18 | 5 | 30 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 9 | 1 | 2 | 23 | 106 | 35 | 1 | 0.165413 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146629 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17345 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136121 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140754 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178753 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146507 | 0 | 0 | 0.109254 | 0.299251 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.250914 | 0.236342 | 0.158823 | 0.181202 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152922 | 0.086422 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110873 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181814 | 0 | 0.186593 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116836 | 0.32325 | 0 | 0.146063 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16618 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166286 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187381 | 0 | 0 | 0.131543 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150586 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11708 | 0 | 0.132099 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144578 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109893 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096454 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112305 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132684 | 0.201429 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120423 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106521 |
suicidewatch | ayeitskam | 2019/01/03 | HELP IM TIRED OF FEELING THE WAY I DO i love her i know it’s stupid she’s just a girl. i love her she doesn’t understand she’s the world to me literally the reason i smile. i have failed my life long dream of joining the infantry. in reality i joined the infantry to die without it being considered suicide. i failed. no... | -1.118517 | 0.934536 | 1.326742 | 96.893367 | 99.743802 | 4.200261 | 17.938669 | 6.059677 | -0.239456 | 440 | 14 | 101 | 5 | 19 | 148 | 72 | 121 | 0.227 | 0.55 | 0.223 | -0.3954 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 8 | 10 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 8 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 13 | 18 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 21 | 5 | 12 | 16 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 2 | 10 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 65 | 27 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.196009 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168475 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.291047 | 0 | 0 | 0.209015 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.196414 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095692 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098877 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.402926 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126852 | 0 | 0.189836 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.204425 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104008 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133675 | 0.092459 | 0 | 0 | 0.167483 | 0.158925 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.341616 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131204 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194583 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.207012 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121265 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.217518 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197019 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15022 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170771 | 0 | 0 | 0.182433 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Truly42 | 2019/01/03 | Life worth continuing? To get to the point i recently turned 21 and feel like i have nothing to live for anymore some background info I grew up in a single parent household most my life and was abused physical and verbally i honestly think physical abuse is less damaging then verbal at 18 i left home was homeless slept... | 2.751124 | 3.975501 | 4.340236 | 87.180623 | 74.505226 | 7.726893 | 25.937441 | 8.296473 | 1.537141 | 1,076 | 37 | 233 | 18 | 22 | 361 | 153 | 287 | 0.14 | 0.729 | 0.131 | -0.5662 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 12 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 0 | 29 | 9 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 44 | 54 | 25 | 1 | 3 | 11 | 1 | 7 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 7 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 5 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 4 | 2 | 5 | 8 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 14 | 10 | 36 | 11 | 33 | 36 | 11 | 34 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 15 | 0 | 7 | 14 | 152 | 41 | 5 | 0 | 0.209252 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087574 | 0 | 0 | 0.145334 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053829 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100996 | 0.180064 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.413967 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09933 | 0.078211 | 0 | 0.098482 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.223246 | 0.063085 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068224 | 0 | 0.046135 | 0 | 0 | 0.148131 | 0.211875 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094001 | 0.158206 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088576 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.286151 | 0 | 0.087628 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097059 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095943 | 0 | 0.311859 | 0.043141 | 0 | 0.155948 | 0.078146 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187354 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065476 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08473 | 0.100535 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098051 | 0.095625 | 0 | 0.122438 | 0.077104 | 0.092259 | 0 | 0.083476 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174379 | 0 | 0.100031 | 0 | 0 | 0.070223 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073046 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135962 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066394 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113163 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059953 | 0.09605 | 0 | 0.091928 | 0 | 0.076266 | 0.097255 | 0 | 0.052084 | 0.070092 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098588 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128573 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096547 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | tee91011 | 2019/01/03 | To go on or not I want to kill myself but I'm worried if I do I won't end up with my fiance | -2.1804 | -1.939398 | 2.501 | 99.3955 | 85.4 | 5 | 16.5 | 3.1291 | -1.1438 | 69 | 1 | 22 | 0 | 2 | 28 | 21 | 25 | 0.168 | 0.73 | 0.102 | -0.1386 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 5 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 16 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.45979 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.29503 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.574334 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.306193 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.527196 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Colenolli | 2019/01/03 | I can't wait until I get the courage to kms I fucking hate being alive and I don't really want to carry on. But anytime I really think about doing the big deed, I feel like I won't be able to do it, and I think about the grieving friends and family I'd leave behind. I still want to do it, and I get visions and dreams o... | 1.32975 | 2.656059 | 3.446667 | 91.725 | 78.416667 | 7.133333 | 22 | 7.908726 | 0.77765 | 427 | 12 | 102 | 7 | 10 | 146 | 69 | 120 | 0.106 | 0.706 | 0.188 | 0.8955 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 8 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 13 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 22 | 27 | 11 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 7 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 16 | 5 | 14 | 23 | 1 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 1 | 3 | 6 | 64 | 19 | 0 | 0.191082 | 0 | 0.186468 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187187 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171732 | 0 | 0.36027 | 0 | 0.096617 | 0.136509 | 0 | 0.209321 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.295259 | 0.176652 | 0.199665 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.420996 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188654 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105014 | 0 | 0 | 0.202328 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093353 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191967 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.244824 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152598 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.244875 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.22541 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | losercase | 2019/01/03 | Most efficient way to kill yourself? I want to poison myself with cyanide. | 3.558462 | 6.785081 | 3.283462 | 83.099038 | 89 | 5.676923 | 29.576923 | 7.168622 | 2.429492 | 60 | 3 | 9 | 1 | 2 | 18 | 12 | 13 | 0.398 | 0.388 | 0.213 | -0.701 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.745571 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.397484 | 0.534911 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | neverstayhappy101 | 2019/01/03 | im ready to die? So I see a therapist and a psychiatrist and I have been institutionalized in September. I feel better and stable now, but like I am ready to die. Not that I want to die necessarily, but I feel ready to go. Like i feel like my lifes purpose is fulfilled and I could go now with no regrets. I'm not lonely... | 0.955234 | 2.700407 | 3.36057 | 90.026836 | 80.869159 | 6.522991 | 21.914953 | 7.554174 | 0.642077 | 387 | 12 | 92 | 6 | 10 | 134 | 59 | 107 | 0.181 | 0.482 | 0.338 | 0.9646 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 7 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 9 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 27 | 19 | 13 | 3 | 3 | 9 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 11 | 7 | 12 | 17 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 59 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175803 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150124 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135526 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.5285 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.343309 | 0.121264 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.289407 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170266 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.366703 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176761 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119895 | 0.331712 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135263 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143823 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159981 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197085 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100119 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | young-n-terrified | 2019/01/03 | scared to live but terrified to die. ive struggled with suicidal impulses and general anxiety for as long as I can remember. Ive never had an actual attempt to kill myself because im scared of pain and even more scared of failing. i guess that makes me a coward. im now 21 and my only support system i have is my boyfrie... | 3.266016 | 4.389904 | 5.096083 | 82.652135 | 73.09396 | 9.042343 | 28.981696 | 9.457814 | 2.544431 | 1,134 | 46 | 237 | 27 | 22 | 389 | 155 | 298 | 0.258 | 0.638 | 0.104 | -0.9953 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 24 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 11 | 19 | 3 | 5 | 13 | 0 | 34 | 5 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 50 | 56 | 25 | 5 | 5 | 11 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 14 | 11 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 3 | 35 | 8 | 30 | 43 | 5 | 24 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 9 | 1 | 12 | 10 | 156 | 47 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0.077458 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079482 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086002 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060721 | 0 | 0.078718 | 0.055501 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.048386 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086656 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161855 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05119 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082378 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162455 | 0.279079 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070302 | 0 | 0 | 0.104852 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.224482 | 0 | 0.120402 | 0.11341 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061325 | 0.07338 | 0.04147 | 0 | 0.090221 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17488 | 0 | 0.070191 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.514429 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175632 | 0 | 0.043622 | 0 | 0 | 0.168092 | 0 | 0 | 0.056065 | 0.077557 | 0.079554 | 0.070089 | 0.070244 | 0 | 0.0888 | 0 | 0 | 0.071639 | 0 | 0.052983 | 0 | 0 | 0.086462 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061219 | 0 | 0.084416 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084531 | 0.053786 | 0.120736 | 0.08446 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089916 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.317871 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065659 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112363 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08298 | 0 | 0.086823 | 0.090073 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063798 | 0 | 0 | 0.181543 | 0.18432 | 0 | 0.10172 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063004 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076514 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112771 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | psychicshackles | 2019/01/03 | Fleeting feelings of loneliness Hi suicidewatch. I don’t really have anyone to talk to about this and keeping my thoughts in the vacuum of my brain is slowly driving me insane so I want to post them here. Maybe someone can relate to the feelings I have. I’m not exactly suicidal but I have wanted to die to escape the fe... | 6.392391 | 6.920117 | 7.119053 | 73.132518 | 65.634799 | 10.744001 | 35.655413 | 10.618574 | 3.946356 | 2,182 | 101 | 392 | 55 | 32 | 724 | 250 | 523 | 0.136 | 0.735 | 0.129 | -0.7052 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 39 | 4 | 1 | 8 | 2 | 16 | 20 | 0 | 1 | 22 | 0 | 42 | 4 | 3 | 1 | 3 | 79 | 82 | 27 | 2 | 6 | 14 | 2 | 13 | 7 | 5 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 29 | 30 | 0 | 2 | 18 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 16 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 13 | 58 | 15 | 74 | 71 | 13 | 59 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 32 | 34 | 1 | 7 | 23 | 284 | 87 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06729 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142637 | 0.075989 | 0.055068 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093655 | 0.072206 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096298 | 0 | 0.056666 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129393 | 0.105899 | 0 | 0.041977 | 0.076051 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076871 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059317 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.044409 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071466 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06026 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.045482 | 0 | 0.058018 | 0 | 0 | 0.067359 | 0.064916 | 0 | 0.417815 | 0.295164 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.266007 | 0 | 0.215861 | 0 | 0.039135 | 0.057757 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061685 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0816 | 0.092311 | 0.072755 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073717 | 0 | 0 | 0.071872 | 0 | 0.061206 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.048638 | 0.235492 | 0 | 0.060805 | 0.060939 | 0 | 0.077037 | 0 | 0.058543 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.207539 | 0.075009 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080649 | 0.054964 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066073 | 0 | 0 | 0.073334 | 0.046662 | 0.104743 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074569 | 0 | 0.095478 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065095 | 0.07763 | 0.131899 | 0.070056 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.044114 | 0 | 0 | 0.07393 | 0 | 0.058806 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139381 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116691 | 0 | 0.068105 | 0.077084 | 0.09748 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075322 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.051775 | 0.166042 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091496 | 0 | 0 | 0.164003 | 0.080306 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082831 | 0 | 0.22752 | 0.056817 | 0.121847 | 0.054658 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132758 | 0.074676 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | thisisausername521 | 2019/01/03 | Want it to end I feel like I’ve had suicidal thoughts as long as I can remember. Lately they’ve been overwhelming. More so than usual. I’ve had fewer happy moments. I finally had the courage to talk to a doctor who helped me get an appointment with a mental health clinic. I was supposed to go today but a couple weeks a... | 1.521888 | 3.968819 | 3.830477 | 83.47509 | 83.390244 | 7.467656 | 23.54719 | 8.456263 | 1.896773 | 805 | 30 | 157 | 20 | 23 | 277 | 118 | 205 | 0.172 | 0.701 | 0.127 | -0.9303 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 18 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 9 | 12 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 0 | 17 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 28 | 45 | 13 | 2 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 6 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 17 | 5 | 24 | 6 | 21 | 27 | 4 | 29 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 11 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 23 | 98 | 29 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09835 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103723 | 0 | 0 | 0.085314 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095573 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122764 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113562 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.196537 | 0 | 0 | 0.073281 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112199 | 0.079263 | 0 | 0.24308 | 0.101406 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1739 | 0 | 0.063055 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118108 | 0.099389 | 0 | 0 | 0.235869 | 0 | 0 | 0.297469 | 0 | 0 | 0.110198 | 0 | 0 | 0.118774 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060975 | 0.090439 | 0.125156 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054204 | 0 | 0 | 0.098187 | 0.09317 | 0 | 0.24223 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07406 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111811 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081561 | 0 | 0.085571 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126317 | 0 | 0 | 0.075182 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105914 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.284309 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125684 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11108 | 0 | 0.088413 | 0.101005 | 0.115745 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078531 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121361 | 0 | 0.104569 | 0 | 0.08342 | 0.178354 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128821 | 0 | 0.071092 | 0 | 0.264245 | 0 | 0.12752 | 0.105167 | 0 | 0 | 0.075328 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122196 | 0 | 0.130882 | 0 | 0.088997 | 0 | 0 | 0.102852 | 0.100115 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078816 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | galaxae152 | 2019/01/03 | I just don’t want to deal with it anymore Constantly pressured with work and homework and weight and everything else, I’m tired, I want to drop out and quit my job and just sleep until I never wake up. I’m constantly stressed over how I look, my ptsd makes it so I can’t even fucking hear a bag pop and getting triggered... | 5.140392 | 5.017412 | 6.079216 | 81.756471 | 68.281046 | 9.414379 | 32.686275 | 9.150863 | 2.61642 | 587 | 24 | 124 | 10 | 9 | 195 | 84 | 153 | 0.348 | 0.614 | 0.037 | -0.996 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 12 | 11 | 4 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 8 | 6 | 2 | 4 | 2 | 36 | 30 | 19 | 2 | 7 | 8 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 12 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 17 | 1 | 19 | 28 | 2 | 13 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 80 | 23 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.260219 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123261 | 0 | 0 | 0.15995 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.283549 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135256 | 0 | 0 | 0.136159 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109596 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086653 | 0 | 0 | 0.125362 | 0.235818 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132672 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121287 | 0.068544 | 0 | 0.074561 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.259054 | 0 | 0 | 0.147865 | 0 | 0 | 0.138614 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140446 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13019 | 0.116611 | 0.145147 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134155 | 0 | 0.064095 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11017 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087573 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096443 | 0 | 0.101185 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181907 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153359 | 0 | 0 | 0.139541 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131289 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150283 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.301577 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.386909 | 0 | 0 | 0.159759 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095511 | 0 | 0 | 0.093197 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | californiaboy93 | 2019/01/03 | Chatting with a crisis hotline lady It's pretty bland so far. There's only so much sympathy that can be dished out, and it just seems like the crisis lady is reading off of cards. It must be a routine for those people, like, "I understand" and "I get it" and "how can I help you?"
I mean, I appreciate it that they take... | 0.673939 | 2.237403 | 3.122222 | 92.27 | 81.020202 | 6.016162 | 20.090909 | 6.937598 | 0.216624 | 349 | 9 | 82 | 4 | 9 | 121 | 66 | 99 | 0.107 | 0.711 | 0.182 | 0.7973 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 18 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 14 | 14 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 11 | 4 | 11 | 10 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 55 | 22 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153384 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.262919 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168654 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.27179 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.245855 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.274085 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184968 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191366 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17444 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.255985 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.251686 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.229063 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.237146 | 0 | 0.189185 | 0.202241 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14672 | 0 | 0 | 0.240431 | 0 | 0.170832 | 0 | 0 | 0.261943 | 0 | 0 | 0.277121 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | monagoxd | 2019/01/03 | My girlfriend (now exgirlfriend) wants to commit suicide, what should I do? I was in a relationship for a couple of months (I'm 23yo man), we were good and had our problems, but at certain point she (25yo) told me she had cronical depresion (diagnosed), she had been taken pills for a couple years, and I told her I was ... | 7.22113 | 5.170384 | 7.143173 | 82.143397 | 64.946844 | 10.327575 | 31.799003 | 8.63404 | 2.164484 | 1,144 | 31 | 251 | 13 | 14 | 366 | 132 | 301 | 0.137 | 0.715 | 0.148 | 0.6046 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 43 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 14 | 18 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 1 | 36 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 43 | 64 | 18 | 4 | 8 | 7 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 1 | 3 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 16 | 18 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 8 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 25 | 5 | 56 | 14 | 34 | 32 | 1 | 38 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 48 | 12 | 0 | 2 | 23 | 181 | 72 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183272 | 0 | 0 | 0.14724 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123731 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136067 | 0.14775 | 0.10787 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078251 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180417 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.391594 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089803 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156729 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074546 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089474 | 0.063208 | 0.084952 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.046226 | 0 | 0.150851 | 0.074211 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15648 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059304 | 0 | 0 | 0.087878 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.048625 | 0 | 0 | 0.093685 | 0 | 0 | 0.124988 | 0.129677 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079854 | 0 | 0.059059 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.211865 | 0 | 0 | 0.13121 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167279 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084661 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088501 | 0.100707 | 0 | 0 | 0.087361 | 0.189983 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070361 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099043 | 0.125249 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.290339 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.309332 | 0.081458 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154775 | 0 | 0 | 0.253632 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104372 | 0.140458 | 0 | 0 | 0.079552 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062852 | 0 | 0 | 0.056976 |
suicidewatch | ed8907 | 2019/01/03 | The day I died It's a normal Friday afternoon. The clock says it's 4PM. June. It has stopped raining. I put a note on my desk and grab my bag. I look at my room trying to take all my memories with me. It's the last time I'll ever be home. I take a taxi to the nearest subway station. I get on the subway and start listen... | -1.248331 | 0.793922 | 1.144826 | 99.529624 | 95.862745 | 4.153701 | 15.939808 | 5.884031 | -0.686825 | 1,080 | 27 | 260 | 10 | 43 | 362 | 152 | 306 | 0.095 | 0.781 | 0.124 | 0.8426 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 44 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 12 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 18 | 1 | 19 | 9 | 7 | 4 | 3 | 38 | 47 | 14 | 4 | 3 | 6 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 17 | 11 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 1 | 4 | 6 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 10 | 35 | 10 | 35 | 38 | 3 | 58 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 5 | 20 | 0 | 2 | 29 | 153 | 52 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167125 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093612 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086766 | 0 | 0.119372 | 0.140169 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.22557 | 0.227079 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096251 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0983 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109896 | 0 | 0.104343 | 0 | 0 | 0.184873 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113554 | 0 | 0.185283 | 0.182298 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109007 | 0 | 0.10702 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.265747 | 0.122587 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076759 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091257 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102828 | 0.07254 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106476 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115733 | 0 | 0.08265 | 0.115635 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109246 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123105 | 0 | 0 | 0.086421 | 0 | 0.219965 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.217502 | 0 | 0 | 0.083661 | 0 | 0 | 0.076919 | 0.11583 | 0 | 0.090855 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11887 | 0 | 0.102422 | 0 | 0.326832 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144394 | 0.208899 | 0 | 0 | 0.316839 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073781 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086259 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069981 |
suicidewatch | 11infootlong | 2019/01/03 | I should be fine I have such a fine life, good parents, im okay at school, i have friends, i never worry about money, i have everything i need, im the best at my sports, i should be okay. Why am i never okay. I have everything people want. I wasnt abused, i wasnt touched, i wasnt hurt, i havent been dumped. People like... | -2.161167 | -0.3454 | 0.678333 | 102.073333 | 100.166667 | 3.666667 | 14.166667 | 5.461319 | -1.137833 | 406 | 9 | 104 | 3 | 18 | 139 | 63 | 120 | 0.123 | 0.582 | 0.294 | 0.9265 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 23 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 15 | 3 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 24 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 11 | 30 | 1 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 9 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 22 | 11 | 6 | 16 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 64 | 24 | 1 | 0 | 0.16617 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147181 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090448 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.328738 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117159 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118165 | 0.134012 | 0.252091 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108355 | 0.129656 | 0.073273 | 0 | 0 | 0.235266 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150138 | 0 | 0.454474 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155163 | 0 | 0 | 0.11432 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099061 | 0.068518 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103992 | 0.216335 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155728 | 0 | 0 | 0.19446 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.288395 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141938 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165443 | 0.111322 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.253103 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142428 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090315 |
suicidewatch | dumb-stuff | 2019/01/03 | i don’t think my dad likes me anymore i miss being a kid, 4 or 5, when i’d sit on my dads lap in the lazy boy and we’d watch some stupid show and i’d whine about it being a “real” show and not a cartoon. i miss before i was worried about so much and before i was so fucking sad. my dad doesn’t like me anymore but that’s... | 0.290873 | 2.285507 | 2.580156 | 93.395631 | 84.661376 | 5.473122 | 18.97381 | 6.742158 | 0.060278 | 682 | 18 | 156 | 8 | 20 | 232 | 107 | 189 | 0.183 | 0.657 | 0.16 | -0.6716 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 12 | 18 | 3 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 15 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 29 | 32 | 16 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 5 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 12 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 5 | 28 | 8 | 14 | 22 | 2 | 15 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 1 | 15 | 5 | 1 | 2 | 14 | 93 | 35 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.273243 | 0 | 0 | 0.113365 | 0.122636 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083978 | 0 | 0.234449 | 0 | 0 | 0.121838 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14444 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.247621 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139312 | 0.196833 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127358 | 0.071974 | 0 | 0.078293 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13601 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158957 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112293 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14087 | 0 | 0.403818 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10127 | 0 | 0.212499 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152967 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156802 | 0.176506 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117647 | 0.131042 | 0.109553 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.21211 | 0 | 0.154212 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157703 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110727 | 0.120409 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088272 | 0 | 0 | 0.080329 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143414 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16251 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158418 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139903 | 0 | 0.097861 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | spiderbrey13 | 2019/01/03 | I want to kill myself tonight My live in girlfriend left me right before Christmas. My grandmother died on the same day. I’m transgender, so that just sucks in general. I’m not good looking enough to find someone else. She genuinely was the love of my life. Everything was fine. Just one day she got super panicky about ... | 2.036053 | 4.449417 | 2.709737 | 92.555658 | 80.842105 | 5.905263 | 23.315789 | 7.168622 | 0.856097 | 604 | 21 | 124 | 8 | 16 | 188 | 104 | 152 | 0.198 | 0.654 | 0.148 | -0.7887 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 14 | 3 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 12 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 16 | 28 | 8 | 3 | 4 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 1 | 18 | 8 | 16 | 20 | 4 | 17 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 11 | 10 | 1 | 3 | 5 | 73 | 21 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123955 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105406 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127553 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131895 | 0 | 0.162664 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123756 | 0 | 0 | 0.199926 | 0 | 0.133502 | 0 | 0.321734 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151842 | 0 | 0 | 0.129484 | 0 | 0 | 0.160158 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139305 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141668 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119754 | 0 | 0.080982 | 0 | 0.176182 | 0.260016 | 0.123969 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153951 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171486 | 0 | 0.085185 | 0 | 0 | 0.164124 | 0.336819 | 0 | 0.109482 | 0 | 0 | 0.273738 | 0 | 0.130162 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139895 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181536 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105033 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099298 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.264741 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131332 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152288 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091424 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | bl4zers | 2019/01/03 | Verge of suicide Due to a recent loss im on the verge of suicide, i dont know what to do if you have anything to say comment it but i cant explain my problems well, ill try if anyone actually cares though... | 2.921333 | 3.263511 | 4.944444 | 86.33 | 73.222222 | 6.888889 | 30.555556 | 6.427356 | 1.464556 | 161 | 7 | 36 | 1 | 3 | 56 | 35 | 45 | 0.207 | 0.611 | 0.182 | -0.0806 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 7 | 4 | 2 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 6 | 7 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 23 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.247518 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177353 | 0 | 0.208726 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.258605 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.297267 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.273977 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139395 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.242701 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.250441 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.201707 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.554887 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.249202 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172206 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.228055 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | reversingmemories | 2019/01/03 | I have no reason to be alive Nothing makes me happy and there’s nothing to look forward to in life. I know that at some point this year I’m going to kill myself.
I hate myself so much and I’m just happy that at some point I can be free from this body and from this life. | 0.1335 | 1.917944 | 1.88 | 99.395 | 83.833333 | 4 | 15 | 3.1291 | -1.334 | 211 | 3 | 51 | 0 | 6 | 69 | 37 | 60 | 0.242 | 0.672 | 0.086 | -0.8933 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 9 | 11 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 4 | 9 | 9 | 3 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 35 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.242355 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.464525 | 0 | 0.215413 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.24139 | 0 | 0.119909 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.308221 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183221 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14564 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160391 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.418709 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.412511 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.224331 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140504 |
suicidewatch | anymelpoeh | 2019/01/03 | I don't want to live but I'm scared to die Since a while now I've been battling suicidal thoughts that come across like "everything would be better if I was dead" and things of the sort. On the outside I have a successful life, I'm a singer songwriter, I have a beautiful girlfriend, I have friends that love me and a fa... | 3.148339 | 4.909566 | 3.649786 | 90.339981 | 74.51495 | 7.208027 | 24.664585 | 7.976526 | 1.205829 | 1,186 | 38 | 251 | 18 | 25 | 371 | 152 | 301 | 0.276 | 0.538 | 0.186 | -0.991 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 28 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 15 | 24 | 6 | 4 | 19 | 1 | 27 | 9 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 58 | 60 | 22 | 7 | 8 | 13 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 4 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 19 | 20 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 5 | 11 | 0 | 2 | 10 | 3 | 30 | 13 | 31 | 45 | 4 | 35 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 15 | 14 | 1 | 6 | 14 | 167 | 49 | 2 | 0.090492 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161115 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099942 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080033 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092263 | 0 | 0 | 0.311804 | 0 | 0.09779 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05836 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187833 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080149 | 0 | 0 | 0.059769 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.243986 | 0 | 0.085308 | 0.101829 | 0.137267 | 0.064648 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076973 | 0 | 0 | 0.209742 | 0.083659 | 0.047278 | 0 | 0.051429 | 0 | 0.14475 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080022 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096874 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.200232 | 0 | 0.049732 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191752 | 0.13263 | 0 | 0.159813 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163346 | 0 | 0.120809 | 0.091745 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069793 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125472 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090599 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.224568 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096453 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098984 | 0.10269 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079094 | 0 | 0.103486 | 0 | 0.240476 | 0.057984 | 0 | 0.143681 | 0.052767 | 0.104007 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.217702 | 0 | 0 | 0.074666 | 0.266873 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083887 | 0.081655 | 0 | 0 | 0.087231 | 0.098135 | 0 | 0 | 0.184439 | 0.064283 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | kmmset | 2019/01/03 | Looking for pointers to make sure I get it right I want to kill myself. I have tried sitting in the running car and taking pills with no luck. Any suggestions on something not painful and easy?
I tried reaching out for help so I'm really not interested in that stuff so thanks. | 1.221111 | 3.87973 | 2.120278 | 91.88375 | 92.518519 | 4.922222 | 23.416667 | 6.627428 | 0.886378 | 221 | 9 | 43 | 3 | 8 | 69 | 43 | 54 | 0.177 | 0.566 | 0.257 | 0.5275 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 10 | 8 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 4 | 9 | 8 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 26 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194474 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149411 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191685 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.316392 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.240149 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190892 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.3043 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183204 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.244223 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.220159 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.327376 | 0 | 0 | 0.26953 | 0 | 0.215019 | 0 | 0 | 0.26329 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.38832 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168677 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | -ravioli-formuoli- | 2019/01/03 | Caught between just ending it all tonight or checking into a hospital and racking up so much debt that it kills me anyway I don’t have even a trace of an idea on where to start with killing myself, it has always just been a kind of fantasy to be killed by someone else instead or to die in a more gradual, acceptable man... | 6.532409 | 5.495806 | 6.720171 | 81.359456 | 65.678967 | 9.218872 | 34.855298 | 7.957252 | 2.491367 | 1,052 | 42 | 215 | 10 | 14 | 339 | 140 | 271 | 0.141 | 0.725 | 0.134 | -0.5922 | 5 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 20 | 11 | 6 | 0 | 11 | 0 | 21 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 52 | 44 | 21 | 6 | 6 | 19 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 17 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 1 | 9 | 4 | 12 | 8 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 3 | 31 | 3 | 37 | 35 | 8 | 28 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 13 | 0 | 7 | 11 | 164 | 48 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124125 | 0 | 0.093593 | 0 | 0 | 0.076491 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137134 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115548 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072541 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.233474 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093963 | 0 | 0.099624 | 0 | 0 | 0.222877 | 0 | 0.189539 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113747 | 0 | 0 | 0.123217 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117533 | 0 | 0.063925 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.333154 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075393 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120413 | 0.126977 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.373329 | 0.117131 | 0.123633 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079448 | 0.054952 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075082 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113573 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082686 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107928 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.249793 | 0 | 0 | 0.07798 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072058 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117342 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095304 | 0.086593 | 0 | 0 | 0.079614 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072073 | 0 | 0.089297 | 0.065588 | 0 | 0 | 0.10748 | 0 | 0.076367 | 0.122346 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.265376 | 0.089282 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.325282 | 0.12198 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079903 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | juliefromva | 2019/01/03 | Funeral this weekend, what if anything do I say to the family I don’t know where else to ask this. The internet has been no help the situation is very personal.
My coworker died of suicide his funeral is Saturday. He texted me the day he died, he asked me to call the police to his home. It’s been very traumatic for m... | 1.074412 | 3.573897 | 2.631616 | 90.729071 | 86.647059 | 6.205176 | 20.414902 | 7.554174 | 0.872783 | 798 | 25 | 164 | 15 | 25 | 260 | 116 | 204 | 0.161 | 0.788 | 0.051 | -0.9775 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 27 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 0 | 22 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 26 | 39 | 6 | 6 | 8 | 6 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 2 | 9 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 7 | 35 | 1 | 17 | 25 | 3 | 12 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 40 | 4 | 0 | 3 | 7 | 111 | 44 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.333618 | 0 | 0.252669 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.275979 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107896 | 0 | 0 | 0.087152 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.280501 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112889 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.254789 | 0 | 0.204987 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.259271 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090579 | 0 | 0.135553 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148535 | 0.110154 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127869 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099341 | 0 | 0.104226 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.235992 | 0 | 0.148339 | 0 | 0.152346 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.214932 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151899 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141274 | 0 | 0.147817 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118115 | 0.124416 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116715 | 0 | 0.223004 | 0.159414 | 0 | 0.108398 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12194 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095997 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | sadgirlwalking | 2019/01/03 | i still remember all the good times i think about killing myself almost everyday. the days i don’t think about killing myself are few & far between. i am in therapy but my suicidal ideation is getting worse & worse. i do not want to die yet because i was so happy before & i want to feel that again, but i am... | 4.521481 | 4.658182 | 5.150222 | 86.992 | 69.617284 | 8.455309 | 29.780247 | 8.238736 | 1.845739 | 307 | 11 | 67 | 4 | 5 | 99 | 54 | 81 | 0.237 | 0.629 | 0.134 | -0.8332 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 5 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 17 | 4 | 4 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 12 | 2 | 8 | 16 | 3 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 45 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153462 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.664203 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093422 | 0 | 0.130408 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098836 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159054 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07749 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080069 | 0 | 0.087098 | 0.128542 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163142 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.339106 | 0 | 0 | 0.124923 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173607 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122389 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167635 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175259 | 0 | 0 | 0.196398 | 0 | 0 | 0.089364 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180786 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.312358 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Imadethistoreport | 2019/01/03 | Anyone else ever been told they were "faking" their depression on Reddit. It happened to me today. I've never had my feelings hurt on reddit until the interaction I had with this person. Started off minor and then got worse.
I think I bring up my depression deep down I want someone to say they care. But at the same ti... | 2.879634 | 5.262269 | 3.948963 | 85.00686 | 77.536585 | 6.05122 | 22.445122 | 7.168622 | 0.931849 | 334 | 10 | 61 | 4 | 8 | 108 | 65 | 82 | 0.21 | 0.684 | 0.106 | -0.8939 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 13 | 18 | 4 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 2 | 14 | 1 | 12 | 9 | 2 | 18 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 47 | 19 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142112 | 0.208246 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.207219 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162273 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.350105 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169783 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183845 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102766 | 0 | 0 | 0.222642 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162552 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179727 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.217575 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.224858 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156753 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137722 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177464 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161627 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172207 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143856 | 0 | 0 | 0.16992 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135025 | 0.13023 | 0 | 0 | 0.118512 | 0 | 0.19265 | 0.194207 | 0 | 0 | 0.22107 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119878 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.233719 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.207122 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | taylortehkitten | 2019/01/03 | Life seems like just a series of goals that never end Not in immediate danger, just really needing support.
I’m 18 and lately I’ve been feeling very intimidated by the idea of just continuing to live because life seems like just a series of goals that never end. I am succeeding in all the generally “right” things; I’m... | 5.013817 | 4.890073 | 6.299698 | 80.070956 | 68.548611 | 10.109804 | 28.39951 | 9.916854 | 2.365273 | 1,099 | 33 | 237 | 24 | 17 | 373 | 145 | 288 | 0.044 | 0.721 | 0.236 | 0.9942 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 32 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 20 | 17 | 1 | 0 | 18 | 0 | 24 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 51 | 55 | 15 | 0 | 3 | 13 | 0 | 6 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 19 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 9 | 25 | 15 | 34 | 49 | 11 | 32 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 8 | 16 | 0 | 9 | 19 | 164 | 44 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131008 | 0.101005 | 0 | 0 | 0.095528 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074068 | 0 | 0.058719 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085191 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104093 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098574 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17063 | 0 | 0 | 0.063622 | 0.087131 | 0.081158 | 0 | 0.08657 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.292228 | 0.206443 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.050326 | 0.092403 | 0.109487 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.212225 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064564 | 0.101772 | 0.096622 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108739 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052938 | 0 | 0.108658 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.272148 | 0.235297 | 0 | 0.085056 | 0.085244 | 0.161777 | 0 | 0 | 0.081892 | 0.086937 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097073 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07081 | 0.071424 | 0.148583 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065272 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133559 | 0.084107 | 0 | 0 | 0.182116 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123416 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109117 | 0.082261 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097486 | 0 | 0.263071 | 0 | 0.10882 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.218616 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177366 | 0 | 0 | 0.255975 | 0 | 0.094639 | 0 | 0.112335 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104774 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083194 | 0 | 0.158956 | 0.056815 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Korinta | 2019/01/03 | I want the pain to stop I don't mind staying alive until I'm 80 years old or something. So if for some reason I stop feeling like a useless piece of shit I'm totally fine with that. But that will never happen. So I want to die. | 1.4934 | 2.646886 | 3.445 | 92.6275 | 77.6 | 5.8 | 22.5 | 5.985473 | 0.2176 | 177 | 5 | 41 | 1 | 4 | 60 | 39 | 50 | 0.346 | 0.507 | 0.147 | -0.9294 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 14 | 8 | 6 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 6 | 7 | 3 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 7 | 25 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.266612 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129891 | 0.183522 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.227167 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125504 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.259386 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19813 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.269563 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.273349 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.264126 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.263694 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197767 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.273811 | 0 | 0.429544 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.303041 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165429 |
suicidewatch | Lonelywolfcipher | 2019/01/03 | I just can’t hold it anymore Yes, new year, new me, but yet it’s just a continuation to all the same burdens and weight that have crushed me for years. It’s just managed to compress onto me and suffocate me. Nights like this where I just end up letting the tears fall, my gun close by so that when I get the courage, I c... | 2.179502 | 3.409538 | 3.555088 | 92.219888 | 75.966292 | 6.434029 | 25.073836 | 6.86897 | 0.71375 | 326 | 11 | 76 | 3 | 7 | 107 | 59 | 89 | 0.299 | 0.615 | 0.086 | -0.9782 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 15 | 9 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 2 | 7 | 8 | 2 | 15 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 53 | 18 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.523939 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.233962 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138009 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145172 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.270115 | 0 | 0.129052 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.510242 | 0 | 0.24789 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.321668 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.340213 |
suicidewatch | ThePhantomHorse | 2019/01/03 | My GF [17F] broke down in front of me [16M] and I don’t know what to do
Okay so we had just seen a movie and we were at her house cuddling, when she stopped talking and after a couple seconds I looked over and she was crying. She said that she, “felt like it was all falling to pieces” and that “felt like the real her ... | 0.614797 | 2.493355 | 2.121679 | 97.799289 | 82.664122 | 5.252143 | 20.763946 | 6.297961 | -0.033879 | 473 | 14 | 113 | 4 | 13 | 153 | 71 | 131 | 0.186 | 0.747 | 0.067 | -0.9565 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 11 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 1 | 13 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 21 | 28 | 13 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 16 | 6 | 22 | 4 | 14 | 12 | 2 | 15 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 18 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 80 | 31 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147449 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133021 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184051 | 0.182715 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084106 | 0.118833 | 0.319423 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159567 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191933 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.274246 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.243794 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139683 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.18933 | 0.106561 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158226 | 0 | 0.166534 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139067 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.545843 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133697 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132054 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.317888 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Striccly | 2019/01/03 | I (16f) really regret not killing myself the first time I attempted it I remember when I was 12 years old, I attempted suicide because of my bullying, abuse and social isolation. I couldn't do it, and for a while, I was happy that I didn't. Boy, do I regret not doing so now. While the problems of the past have gone, il... | 2.15158 | 2.802753 | 4.251468 | 89.453577 | 75.240409 | 7.529448 | 23.93871 | 7.835 | 0.975762 | 1,378 | 39 | 325 | 19 | 28 | 477 | 173 | 391 | 0.292 | 0.638 | 0.07 | -0.9985 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 60 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 23 | 22 | 3 | 5 | 17 | 0 | 36 | 12 | 3 | 3 | 3 | 66 | 70 | 35 | 9 | 19 | 18 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 23 | 13 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 15 | 15 | 0 | 2 | 13 | 0 | 42 | 8 | 38 | 46 | 3 | 51 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 12 | 0 | 13 | 31 | 215 | 65 | 2 | 0.170117 | 0.10078 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093864 | 0 | 0.070775 | 0 | 0 | 0.057843 | 0.178382 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069996 | 0 | 0 | 0.096766 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155552 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07327 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067912 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086332 | 0.353109 | 0.088868 | 0.097484 | 0.087061 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05618 | 0.07694 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191429 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155484 | 0.072351 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177758 | 0.081596 | 0.145022 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093701 | 0 | 0 | 0.090546 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100795 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.253446 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088779 | 0 | 0 | 0.188209 | 0 | 0.140238 | 0.069334 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060079 | 0 | 0 | 0.075108 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080484 | 0.113554 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126139 | 0.131204 | 0 | 0.180921 | 0.159643 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089254 | 0 | 0.057638 | 0.064691 | 0.271524 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081198 | 0 | 0.07427 | 0.088868 | 0 | 0.080408 | 0 | 0.081462 | 0 | 0 | 0.081389 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108981 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096355 | 0.217918 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077434 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086706 | 0.07207 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067928 | 0.071113 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09304 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.049598 | 0 | 0.080625 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05017 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153504 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086682 | 0.060423 | 0 | 0 | 0.10955 |
suicidewatch | throwaway101937472 | 2019/01/03 | Just want to talk I'm not feeling very well, I'd appreciate it if someone would distract me for a little while, thank you | 9.3448 | 5.829527 | 9.264 | 73.172 | 62.2 | 11.6 | 41 | 8.841846 | 3.5382 | 97 | 4 | 20 | 1 | 1 | 32 | 24 | 25 | 0.199 | 0.57 | 0.231 | 0.2227 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 12 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.209708 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.415683 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.351412 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.333356 | 0 | 0.381841 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.342208 | 0.244627 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.372906 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.294623 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | mcflaggarty | 2019/01/03 | I think ive had enough I'm thinking ive had enough. I'm watching my parents slowly die. My brother is obese and most likely wont live long. They are all I have, they are all i WANT. Ive had friends, its too much work to keep relationships going when all you want to do is die. Ive had plenty of girlfriends. Same thing a... | -1.069616 | 0.867779 | 1.14926 | 101.636572 | 90.671554 | 3.91334 | 15.061941 | 5.124078 | -1.183506 | 1,173 | 23 | 298 | 5 | 41 | 390 | 157 | 341 | 0.238 | 0.634 | 0.128 | -0.9949 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 53 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 5 | 13 | 26 | 7 | 2 | 15 | 1 | 38 | 7 | 2 | 4 | 3 | 59 | 76 | 12 | 5 | 16 | 10 | 2 | 6 | 3 | 2 | 5 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 21 | 10 | 1 | 1 | 11 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 9 | 14 | 2 | 0 | 10 | 9 | 42 | 11 | 40 | 56 | 15 | 27 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 4 | 17 | 8 | 3 | 7 | 15 | 189 | 63 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080256 | 0 | 0 | 0.064477 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059279 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063767 | 0.068982 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065938 | 0 | 0 | 0.068533 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079603 | 0 | 0 | 0.081246 | 0.083739 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149923 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.241265 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.363268 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160135 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156724 | 0.110717 | 0 | 0 | 0.070824 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059868 | 0.143275 | 0.08097 | 0.074335 | 0.132117 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164978 | 0.069415 | 0.229514 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076964 | 0 | 0 | 0.082954 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076896 | 0.068876 | 0 | 0 | 0.042586 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054733 | 0.113572 | 0 | 0.205274 | 0.068576 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065879 | 0 | 0 | 0.051725 | 0 | 0.077849 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082359 | 0.113927 | 0.172372 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074353 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058934 | 0 | 0 | 0.086043 | 0 | 0 | 0.161164 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077898 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083195 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061623 | 0.07758 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065657 | 0.059655 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088764 | 0 | 0 | 0.084761 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135458 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102961 | 0.198608 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066926 | 0 | 0 | 0.274232 | 0.061507 | 0 | 0 | 0.069672 | 0 | 0.069922 | 0.086514 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.225653 | 0 | 0 | 0.220185 | 0 | 0 | 0.149702 |
suicidewatch | ThisYoungRudiger | 2019/01/03 | I don't want to do it anymore I guess I'm in a different place than someone who feels they can't go on anymore. I probably could. I just don't want to. Life just feels like a long miserable slog. I can't hold on to any of the ties to people that give me a smile or give me hope. I'm just left alone trudging along and I ... | 1.545831 | 3.493635 | 2.560658 | 95.486536 | 79.862069 | 6.287147 | 23.476489 | 7.348243 | 0.747252 | 436 | 15 | 100 | 6 | 11 | 138 | 72 | 116 | 0.099 | 0.79 | 0.11 | 0.4997 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 19 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 9 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 20 | 22 | 3 | 0 | 5 | 6 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 10 | 2 | 18 | 20 | 0 | 14 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 9 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 60 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183601 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192075 | 0.215406 | 0.120552 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.351614 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141538 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185212 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.268904 | 0.126644 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.340113 | 0.100748 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.195286 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176072 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192608 | 0 | 0.250426 | 0.086607 | 0 | 0 | 0.156881 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122899 | 0 | 0.185212 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19113 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150203 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148208 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.31368 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.215406 | 0 |
suicidewatch | doesitevenmatter555 | 2019/01/03 | Im going to end it all in an hour I've got everything laid out. What's the point even trying to make an effort living. It's all too much. It'll be better if I go. Goodnight. | -2.318167 | -0.541395 | 1.17 | 98.548333 | 100.5 | 3.666667 | 11.666667 | 5.461319 | -1.325833 | 134 | 2 | 33 | 1 | 6 | 48 | 32 | 40 | 0 | 0.919 | 0.081 | 0.4404 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 5 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 3 | 3 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 19 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.27969 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.280096 | 0 | 0 | 0.208874 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.284217 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.359455 | 0 | 0.252927 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.311434 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.341595 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.279247 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.211094 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.232474 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.29895 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.214707 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Tatceel | 2019/01/03 | Am I an attention whore for wanting to feel validated for my abusive and troubling pass? Makes me feel worthless when I go dismissed.
Makes me wish my father didn't give me a traumatic brain injury, so I could better articulate myself and get the help that I need.
It hurts because I've been asking since I was a 3rd g... | 5.572308 | 6.274276 | 6.00041 | 79.827923 | 67.461538 | 8.547692 | 29.061538 | 8.548687 | 2.080243 | 636 | 21 | 120 | 9 | 10 | 205 | 101 | 156 | 0.148 | 0.656 | 0.196 | 0.7342 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 11 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 13 | 3 | 2 | 4 | 2 | 28 | 32 | 11 | 1 | 9 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 24 | 6 | 13 | 23 | 0 | 12 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 78 | 27 | 0 | 0 | 0.310237 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122392 | 0 | 0 | 0.100669 | 0 | 0.079807 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115788 | 0 | 0.145422 | 0 | 0.14615 | 0 | 0 | 0.400444 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104529 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125099 | 0 | 0.256129 | 0 | 0 | 0.132394 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0684 | 0.12559 | 0.074405 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.351011 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140152 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07195 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063961 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17478 | 0 | 0.131526 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097075 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.27229 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125273 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104113 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108298 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143205 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083888 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088886 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15444 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118135 | 0 | 0.301102 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186003 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Cassandranichole | 2019/01/03 | So close and nothing matters anymore I know its stupid to care this much about someone but because I screwed up a friendship as bad as I have I dont want to continue my life I just want to shoot myself for how crappy I feel mixed with my depressive state I cant live anymore | 2.448947 | 4.297982 | 3.347228 | 91.369263 | 76.719298 | 5.963509 | 28.94386 | 6.742158 | 1.346519 | 220 | 10 | 46 | 2 | 5 | 70 | 44 | 57 | 0.386 | 0.527 | 0.087 | -0.9607 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 11 | 8 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 1 | 9 | 8 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 31 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.538541 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.226704 | 0.165513 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.276828 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.233856 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.318214 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137287 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149218 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19178 | 0 | 0 | 0.239753 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.199595 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.260527 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.230054 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.320294 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | HopelessHopeNot | 2019/01/03 | Why shouldn’t I kill myself this year? Please read thoroughly before answering so you have correct context. https://www.reddit.com/r/dating/comments/abpwue/i_dont_think_ill_ever_have_a_girlfriend_or_sex/?st=JQG0XG4Z&sh=97a8558d | 34.290351 | 45.134279 | 14.206316 | 4.490877 | 24.789474 | 8.849123 | 32.649123 | 8.841846 | 4.587091 | 212 | 5 | 12 | 3 | 3 | 44 | 19 | 19 | 0.226 | 0.671 | 0.103 | -0.5803 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 18 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.423149 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.33232 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.432074 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.428695 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.390645 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.352401 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.251495 |
suicidewatch | YeetMeToHelll | 2019/01/03 | Convince me of a reason I should live. The only reason I’m alive, and I’m sure this is the same for a lot of you, is my basic instinct to survive. I hate it.
Existence is not worth it.
I’d rather not be here. | -1.679716 | 0.188404 | 1.524574 | 98.084167 | 93.680851 | 3.984397 | 16.343972 | 5.461319 | -0.763139 | 158 | 4 | 39 | 1 | 6 | 56 | 34 | 47 | 0.114 | 0.74 | 0.146 | 0.1366 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 10 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 4 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 28 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.345358 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.308882 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.29739 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.266041 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.719311 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.329685 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | milomilo11879 | 2019/01/03 | Not a joke!!! Why is it that some of you people take these types of things , suicide is not a joke, especially seeing as how y'all egg it on like they are makeing it up, so how about you puss off and actually do some good in this community | 4.236133 | 4.061811 | 5.778 | 83.322333 | 70.2 | 9.066667 | 26.666667 | 8.841846 | 1.557467 | 184 | 5 | 43 | 3 | 3 | 63 | 40 | 50 | 0.162 | 0.743 | 0.095 | -0.5792 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 8 | 7 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 4 | 8 | 7 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 33 | 11 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0.383557 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.329669 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192023 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.262362 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.27249 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.313208 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.42993 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.295523 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.261123 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.354664 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | membershark3 | 2019/01/03 | I think my best friend is going to kill himself Hes been dealing with depression for years now ever since his mom died. His step mom doesn't treat him the best and he legitimately believes his family hates him. He has exclaimed that he feels like an obligation to them more than anything, despite his dad talking to him ... | 6.866035 | 6.303083 | 6.787938 | 79.589823 | 64.804878 | 10.088692 | 33.026608 | 9.457814 | 2.749732 | 1,652 | 59 | 330 | 27 | 22 | 525 | 201 | 410 | 0.152 | 0.757 | 0.091 | -0.9843 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 30 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 17 | 23 | 5 | 1 | 15 | 0 | 44 | 4 | 0 | 4 | 7 | 64 | 80 | 24 | 3 | 10 | 12 | 3 | 4 | 1 | 3 | 7 | 3 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 19 | 17 | 0 | 1 | 14 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 18 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 7 | 41 | 11 | 51 | 58 | 10 | 46 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 80 | 18 | 0 | 6 | 19 | 216 | 60 | 2 | 0.077211 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153144 | 0.053987 | 0.079111 | 0.127076 | 0 | 0.072182 | 0 | 0 | 0.05937 | 0 | 0.141201 | 0 | 0 | 0.34796 | 0.162056 | 0.068287 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13302 | 0.080954 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079601 | 0.066501 | 0 | 0.080132 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180981 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0645 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069841 | 0.130107 | 0.073778 | 0 | 0 | 0.145575 | 0 | 0.15616 | 0.055159 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178958 | 0 | 0.121018 | 0 | 0.131642 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068277 | 0 | 0 | 0.07623 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.207011 | 0 | 0.154897 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170844 | 0 | 0.127299 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109072 | 0.037721 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069686 | 0.146117 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084105 | 0.085764 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180856 | 0.061629 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05955 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.222257 | 0 | 0 | 0.082227 | 0 | 0 | 0.082158 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072989 | 0.087043 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079385 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073445 | 0.061401 | 0 | 0.078141 | 0.061527 | 0.140579 | 0.080548 | 0 | 0 | 0.063869 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061661 | 0.064552 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087618 | 0 | 0 | 0.058053 | 0.062059 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179295 | 0.051295 | 0.049473 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147556 | 0 | 0.104842 | 0 | 0 | 0.080379 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136623 | 0.122572 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.219393 | 0.084418 | 0 | 0.099442 |
suicidewatch | DoNotPayTheFerryman | 2019/01/03 | My family is the only thing stopping me tonight My sister shouldn't have to bear the pain of her older sister ending her life without warning.
Please God help me. | 3.640215 | 6.183023 | 4.046452 | 84.456344 | 75.774194 | 5.423656 | 23.236559 | 6.427356 | 0.82983 | 131 | 4 | 22 | 1 | 3 | 41 | 26 | 31 | 0.232 | 0.642 | 0.127 | -0.4479 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 15 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.32114 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.34181 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.243031 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.256103 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.27576 | 0.385813 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.398006 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.303135 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.240884 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.349516 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | spaghetti_incarnate | 2019/01/03 | I have wanted to kill myself for two months It started in November, got a little bit better by early December, and by the time December was ending I thought was doing fine. But now it’s all back and I just want to die. Very few things give me happiness and my family is so rude they make it all worse. I desperately need... | 1.426429 | 3.360803 | 3.535952 | 88.413214 | 80.190476 | 7.057143 | 21.214286 | 8.076483 | 1.005243 | 314 | 9 | 68 | 6 | 8 | 107 | 64 | 84 | 0.178 | 0.725 | 0.098 | -0.8369 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 6 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 16 | 19 | 8 | 2 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 10 | 3 | 7 | 14 | 4 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 47 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169968 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.195494 | 0.24132 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.229407 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.195777 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.208379 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115485 | 0.212043 | 0 | 0 | 0.176787 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.235303 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14816 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.24455 | 0 | 0.121479 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.221542 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147547 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176433 | 0 | 0 | 0.1639 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.221301 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170169 | 0 | 0 | 0.156455 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14685 | 0 | 0 | 0.175483 | 0.128891 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.215926 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182383 | 0.260752 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.225261 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | spinachcakes | 2019/01/03 | Just had it with this year. Struggling with BPD and a boyfriend that acts like an asshole all the time.
For some reason my SSI payments have been screwed with so I'm wondering where my check is.
Financial Aid was supposed to come today and that would have saved my ass from SSI not coming yet. But nothing has come.
I... | 3.565956 | 5.482458 | 3.580577 | 90.616506 | 73.755245 | 6.165268 | 27.301282 | 6.816662 | 1.136837 | 578 | 22 | 116 | 5 | 12 | 176 | 97 | 143 | 0.12 | 0.84 | 0.04 | -0.9127 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 8 | 4 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 16 | 6 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 27 | 34 | 12 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 5 | 6 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 1 | 12 | 3 | 12 | 21 | 4 | 22 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 3 | 5 | 3 | 14 | 76 | 20 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.212624 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.436272 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108875 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.30345 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.312144 | 0.176404 | 0 | 0.191889 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082477 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161988 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114397 | 0.128396 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173576 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134253 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173292 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.238984 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176488 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112157 | 0 | 0 | 0.134025 | 0.098441 | 0 | 0.320044 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099575 | 0 | 0.135418 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183079 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119925 | 0 | 0 | 0.21743 |
suicidewatch | HumanNumber57 | 2019/01/03 | I cant take this anymore We have bed bugs. We may have to put my dog down because hes vicious. My uncle is unstable and threatening to hurt our family. My boyfriend is angry with me because i did something stupid. Plus i have the fucking flu... I am so tired and have to try to act normal in public. Im at my wits end an... | -0.530282 | 1.612222 | 2.142821 | 93.786583 | 90.954023 | 5.462487 | 19.403344 | 6.980633 | 0.344067 | 313 | 10 | 72 | 5 | 11 | 108 | 63 | 87 | 0.266 | 0.697 | 0.037 | -0.974 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 13 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 16 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 15 | 0 | 11 | 13 | 2 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 50 | 18 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.247433 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.304181 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.441959 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.235203 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.230655 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.267091 | 0 | 0.269498 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176226 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.244453 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.250812 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192074 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.18759 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.286759 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169391 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147159 | 0 | 0.200131 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | i-rate | 2019/01/03 | thinking about suicide makes me feel warm and safe. i haven’t felt safe since he raped me. since being brutally raped in august i haven’t felt anything except grief. i used to smile at strangers and say thank you to cashiers. i don’t do that anymore. my chest is always hollow. ive been bathing in the dark. i’ve been ab... | 2.49627 | 4.941217 | 3.467533 | 87.605024 | 79.277186 | 6.552257 | 23.630108 | 7.720077 | 1.255485 | 1,896 | 65 | 370 | 31 | 48 | 606 | 257 | 469 | 0.167 | 0.722 | 0.111 | -0.9906 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 53 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 4 | 22 | 30 | 14 | 1 | 23 | 0 | 38 | 25 | 13 | 6 | 6 | 69 | 72 | 25 | 4 | 11 | 6 | 0 | 10 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 4 | 1 | 3 | 16 | 20 | 2 | 5 | 11 | 4 | 3 | 6 | 10 | 17 | 0 | 1 | 13 | 15 | 65 | 14 | 58 | 44 | 3 | 46 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 9 | 25 | 21 | 0 | 8 | 17 | 236 | 81 | 6 | 0 | 0.099635 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069971 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083396 | 0.058799 | 0 | 0.0692 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079007 | 0 | 0 | 0.051261 | 0 | 0.071556 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.28022 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13428 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086055 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070248 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076066 | 0 | 0 | 0.075576 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127557 | 0.060075 | 0.161482 | 0.092118 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087869 | 0 | 0 | 0.070532 | 0 | 0 | 0.092636 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075329 | 0.166046 | 0.086302 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082813 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074744 | 0.186069 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.343957 | 0 | 0.041083 | 0 | 0.074254 | 0.074418 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071492 | 0.075896 | 0 | 0.112263 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178415 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061817 | 0.062353 | 0.064856 | 0.081216 | 0 | 0.078914 | 0 | 0.080688 | 0.095739 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0948 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084114 | 0 | 0.053871 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07999 | 0.066873 | 0 | 0 | 0.06701 | 0 | 0.087726 | 0 | 0 | 0.139123 | 0 | 0.252456 | 0 | 0.142501 | 0.129475 | 0.083169 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091982 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15484 | 0.096166 | 0.097637 | 0.055867 | 0.161647 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091467 | 0 | 0.262626 | 0 | 0.145256 | 0.092615 | 0.069384 | 0.148798 | 0.066748 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096701 | 0 | 0 | 0.183659 | 0 | 0 | 0.119472 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Lemongirl98 | 2019/01/03 | People only care when you're dead It's my 21st birthday this month. I guarantee more people would show up for my funeral tho. | 1.765067 | 4.40332 | 3.236 | 86.704667 | 84.6 | 6.533333 | 20.333333 | 7.793538 | 1.137533 | 101 | 3 | 19 | 2 | 3 | 33 | 23 | 25 | 0.227 | 0.6 | 0.173 | -0.3818 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 11 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.471184 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.368877 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.35148 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.640782 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.328292 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | handshake_of_CO_ | 2019/01/03 | Life is suffering Bit of a rant, sorry in advance for how incoherent and angry this is going to be.
I don't know where to begin. Everytime I attempt to get my life together, I end up wanting to fucking kill myself. I'm so sick of the meaningless platitudes.
"It gets better"
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suicidewatch | TimeOfClocks | 2019/01/03 | Dismantling life - now feel trapped I left my wife two weeks ago. I convinced myself that she was abusive to me. I had friends that supported me in this - who I now think I manipulated into thinking this. She's moved out now. We were married over 7 months.
I have a good job, I stopped going in. Started smoking and ... | 1.508084 | 4.043191 | 3.026664 | 88.542832 | 84.546667 | 5.649091 | 23.456061 | 7.075747 | 1.006773 | 1,487 | 56 | 294 | 21 | 44 | 486 | 191 | 375 | 0.176 | 0.706 | 0.118 | -0.975 | 1 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 64 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 12 | 20 | 1 | 0 | 18 | 1 | 29 | 7 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 51 | 65 | 15 | 2 | 2 | 7 | 1 | 4 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 20 | 16 | 1 | 3 | 16 | 3 | 2 | 13 | 7 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 14 | 6 | 58 | 17 | 38 | 50 | 5 | 52 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 21 | 19 | 0 | 3 | 23 | 194 | 78 | 2 | 0 | 0.20539 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076832 | 0 | 0 | 0.179537 | 0 | 0 | 0.07212 | 0 | 0 | 0.058942 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077159 | 0 | 0 | 0.081433 | 0 | 0.072369 | 0 | 0.095725 | 0.073753 | 0 | 0.090959 | 0.076656 | 0 | 0.096276 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08837 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111796 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099336 | 0 | 0.075849 | 0 | 0 | 0.084908 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073027 | 0 | 0.077897 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175301 | 0.06192 | 0 | 0 | 0.079219 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066964 | 0 | 0.135851 | 0 | 0.098518 | 0.145397 | 0.069321 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092266 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184262 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086011 | 0.07704 | 0 | 0.090258 | 0.047634 | 0.070651 | 0 | 0.091776 | 0.188344 | 0 | 0.122441 | 0.127034 | 0 | 0.076535 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073687 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174695 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069183 | 0.092121 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117466 | 0.06592 | 0.092228 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180267 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09345 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148039 | 0.082447 | 0.068927 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078905 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085723 | 0 | 0.061349 | 0 | 0.138437 | 0.072464 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189615 | 0.196714 | 0.08169 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057583 | 0.388762 | 0 | 0.06881 | 0.050541 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.288895 | 0 | 0 | 0.084668 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102246 | 0 | 0.069525 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088329 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | tts1999 | 2019/01/03 | just waiting for everyone in the house to fall asleep Got into a huge argument with my sister this morning (we’ve never gotten along and she is here for holidays) and she basically told me I’m a worthless embarrassment who just mooches off my mom all the time. I’ve been struggling with depression really bad for the pas... | 5.260344 | 5.139676 | 5.992625 | 82.471023 | 68.027778 | 9.166732 | 29.861274 | 8.841846 | 2.138036 | 2,499 | 83 | 522 | 38 | 38 | 820 | 282 | 648 | 0.185 | 0.694 | 0.121 | -0.9928 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 47 | 1 | 8 | 9 | 6 | 21 | 38 | 1 | 3 | 35 | 1 | 56 | 23 | 10 | 4 | 9 | 96 | 97 | 51 | 2 | 7 | 20 | 4 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 11 | 12 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 35 | 39 | 1 | 3 | 11 | 1 | 4 | 13 | 16 | 23 | 1 | 2 | 16 | 5 | 67 | 17 | 74 | 59 | 12 | 70 | 2 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 42 | 24 | 0 | 9 | 30 | 346 | 102 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064349 | 0 | 0.062362 | 0.132892 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063138 | 0 | 0 | 0.119429 | 0.042102 | 0 | 0.04955 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10055 | 0.07341 | 0 | 0.051236 | 0.135678 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066882 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061391 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186229 | 0.051861 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163397 | 0 | 0.172607 | 0.054115 | 0 | 0.227052 | 0 | 0.030445 | 0 | 0 | 0.06596 | 0.055033 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13956 | 0 | 0.062917 | 0.057761 | 0.13688 | 0.050503 | 0.048157 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107877 | 0.059447 | 0.185386 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.040359 | 0 | 0 | 0.059805 | 0 | 0.069477 | 0.257835 | 0 | 0.06504 | 0 | 0 | 0.05352 | 0 | 0 | 0.132365 | 0.147243 | 0 | 0.255025 | 0 | 0.061571 | 0.08506 | 0.029417 | 0 | 0.159506 | 0.106572 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102381 | 0.054344 | 0.056974 | 0.080385 | 0 | 0 | 0.065589 | 0 | 0 | 0.18204 | 0 | 0 | 0.14104 | 0.048061 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092879 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.040801 | 0.045794 | 0.128141 | 0 | 0.066859 | 0 | 0 | 0.041744 | 0 | 0.062909 | 0.066095 | 0.05692 | 0 | 0.057667 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068535 | 0.038574 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060938 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120512 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.042619 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062947 | 0 | 0.065863 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.048396 | 0.105257 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.040002 | 0.077163 | 0 | 0 | 0.245772 | 0 | 0.057074 | 0.057536 | 0.133796 | 0.122641 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.298089 | 0.035515 | 0.095588 | 0 | 0 | 0.054138 | 0 | 0 | 0.067225 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131506 | 0 | 0 | 0.042773 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | 420ufos | 2019/01/03 | i need help. i cant get over my ex and i have this bad habit of constantly thinking about her and i just cant get her out of my head. not only that but i've been through nothing but trauma all my life and after 18 years of it, im tired. i've been ready to go and even tried plenty of times and i really think im getting ... | -0.209091 | 1.522794 | 1.858879 | 99.368318 | 84.757576 | 5.172121 | 16.970707 | 6.2581 | -0.589922 | 342 | 7 | 87 | 3 | 10 | 114 | 65 | 99 | 0.075 | 0.739 | 0.186 | 0.9175 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 21 | 15 | 10 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 12 | 3 | 15 | 13 | 2 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 53 | 16 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136204 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162645 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.210503 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128659 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098494 | 0 | 0 | 0.213387 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.305315 | 0 | 0.110706 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.199915 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.261132 | 0 | 0 | 0.193474 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.420821 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137589 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144437 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.18691 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148149 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12479 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.249632 | 0 | 0 | 0.113586 | 0.223887 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.396757 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125441 |
suicidewatch | sdc78 | 2019/01/03 | Lost everything Bank took house. Didn't even know I wasn't making payments. Thought it was on automatic withdrawal. Hardly ever monitored bank account so I never noticed. Everything has been cleaned out and thrown in dumpsters. Dad helped me get the house. Hes the one that discovered what happened. Im such a loser. The... | 1.823891 | 4.6335 | 2.802424 | 87.114545 | 90.866667 | 5.927273 | 24.151515 | 7.348243 | 1.575933 | 316 | 13 | 57 | 6 | 11 | 100 | 60 | 75 | 0.201 | 0.784 | 0.015 | -0.8944 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 9 | 19 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 2 | 9 | 0 | 5 | 10 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 37 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134447 | 0.184128 | 0 | 0 | 0.365887 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10635 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180004 | 0 | 0.182346 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13644 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.469753 | 0.217911 | 0 | 0.219876 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111869 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.222206 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135875 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156995 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.23175 | 0 | 0 | 0.137935 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193629 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.227865 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161601 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.226159 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.240126 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | SeaTooth | 2019/01/03 | Can someone help me? I really don't want to be alone tonight. | -0.789231 | 1.357526 | 1.468077 | 96.114423 | 98.230769 | 5.676923 | 21.884615 | 7.168622 | 0.928723 | 48 | 2 | 11 | 1 | 2 | 16 | 13 | 13 | 0.246 | 0.563 | 0.19 | 0.0515 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.598145 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.387105 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.369979 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.489338 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.340641 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | JSunshine11 | 2019/01/03 | So tired... (rant) A few days ago I had a break down while staying at a friends house, and she made me talk to her about it all.
I tried explaining how no matter what I do, my life is a joke. Every time I try, life reminds me that I’ll never be able to win.
It got to the point of where I was just repeating how t... | 3.812223 | 4.453248 | 4.801967 | 87.070263 | 71.375887 | 7.780814 | 25.480403 | 7.854513 | 1.211387 | 1,067 | 30 | 230 | 13 | 19 | 349 | 139 | 282 | 0.156 | 0.721 | 0.123 | -0.9131 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 35 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 23 | 18 | 2 | 1 | 13 | 0 | 24 | 18 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 51 | 49 | 22 | 0 | 8 | 12 | 0 | 8 | 4 | 1 | 4 | 18 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 12 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 2 | 0 | 6 | 5 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 10 | 30 | 10 | 39 | 33 | 4 | 38 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 10 | 17 | 0 | 3 | 16 | 155 | 41 | 0 | 0.055966 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.04961 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.046568 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149464 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.046729 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.048209 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.036093 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099138 | 0 | 0 | 0.036965 | 0 | 0.047153 | 0.053478 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.226383 | 0.159927 | 0 | 0.061308 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.043239 | 0 | 0.02924 | 0 | 0.09542 | 0 | 0.089522 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059576 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064577 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.049745 | 0 | 0 | 0.030757 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197651 | 0.109368 | 0 | 0.049419 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105912 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.043164 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054834 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077599 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052906 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.035853 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.044506 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059652 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.044983 | 0.048916 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065268 | 0.836215 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151988 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09903 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101001 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | PM_ME_YOUR_PEDI | 2019/01/03 | Bipolar fucking SUCKS What's it like to want to die for a few weeks and then be glad to be alive?
I would know. I have fucking bipolar.
On top of having Asperger's. | -1.28819 | 0.630546 | 0.845 | 99.394167 | 103.857143 | 3.47619 | 20.119048 | 5.461319 | -0.203381 | 128 | 5 | 29 | 1 | 6 | 42 | 28 | 35 | 0.177 | 0.549 | 0.274 | 0.2588 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 10 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 6 | 7 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 19 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.406063 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.723421 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.215024 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191148 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.230773 | 0 | 0.313842 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.277937 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | MR4GN | 2019/01/03 | Only one question... Does anyone here have an easy way of me dying, I've attempted suicide at least 8 times, my depression is getting worse, No one is taking my problems seriously and the only people I really care about are the friends I made on the internet and only a couple of them care about me...I really don't want... | 5.789945 | 4.994698 | 6.992857 | 78.005 | 67.076923 | 10.197802 | 32.417582 | 9.606745 | 2.825066 | 495 | 18 | 101 | 9 | 7 | 169 | 80 | 130 | 0.285 | 0.612 | 0.102 | -0.9807 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 18 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 5 | 11 | 2 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 10 | 19 | 5 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 7 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 14 | 4 | 16 | 16 | 2 | 10 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 4 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 65 | 16 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10073 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.293801 | 0.103573 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.302047 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163898 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12758 | 0 | 0.153731 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129625 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131195 | 0 | 0 | 0.195671 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114441 | 0 | 0.154779 | 0 | 0.084183 | 0.12424 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163879 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.261595 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125931 | 0 | 0.14016 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.200747 | 0.337968 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102691 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141736 | 0 | 0 | 0.165934 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189786 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149911 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162025 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111372 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086373 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087368 | 0.352725 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150952 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Superfan234 | 2019/01/03 | Anybody want to talk? A lot of stuff happening right now. I don't know if there is a going to be a tomorrow...I need to talk , anyone here with some time to spare? | -0.502714 | 1.481269 | 1.9825 | 96.43375 | 88.142857 | 5.785714 | 17.321429 | 7.168622 | 0.002571 | 123 | 3 | 30 | 2 | 4 | 42 | 28 | 35 | 0 | 0.944 | 0.056 | 0.168 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 7 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 20 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.24011 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.195159 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.303663 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188721 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.291942 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.254623 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.293257 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.393105 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.552015 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.200236 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202543 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | thedeathdealer | 2019/01/03 | Alone, about to be divorced Im alone and my relationship with my wife is in shambles because of mistakes ive made. Ive written my notes. All i have left to do is get rid of some things and tell a friend to take care of my dog. Ive got my fresh razor and im ready to go. I cant see myself ever being happy again. | 0.474131 | 1.65723 | 2.985563 | 94.734026 | 80.408451 | 5.296714 | 20.284038 | 5.461319 | -0.291255 | 241 | 6 | 60 | 1 | 6 | 84 | 49 | 71 | 0.086 | 0.716 | 0.198 | 0.8555 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 9 | 18 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 11 | 3 | 10 | 13 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 37 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.465665 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13704 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.229206 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.203351 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173686 | 0 | 0.117452 | 0 | 0.127763 | 0 | 0.179799 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.239311 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.485661 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.244254 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.212718 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.241359 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179142 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169027 | 0 | 0.196491 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149352 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | jnr55 | 2019/01/03 | Tonight is the night I’m scared. I don’t want to do this but my heart hurts so much, my body hurts, i’m drained physically and mentally. I have nobody, I have nothing. I do nothing to anybody and yet everyone gets angry at me and calls me names and threatens me. This world we live in is so shitty, why cant we all love ... | 0.736085 | 2.566459 | 2.651642 | 94.410752 | 81.985075 | 5.764868 | 19.636051 | 6.844919 | 0.07061 | 968 | 25 | 228 | 11 | 26 | 323 | 135 | 268 | 0.236 | 0.541 | 0.223 | -0.7693 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 28 | 5 | 7 | 3 | 1 | 5 | 27 | 4 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 31 | 12 | 2 | 0 | 9 | 46 | 54 | 18 | 2 | 6 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 14 | 18 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 2 | 43 | 18 | 24 | 46 | 14 | 19 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 7 | 27 | 9 | 0 | 7 | 8 | 152 | 57 | 2 | 0.087226 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091464 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06099 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096888 | 0 | 0 | 0.089067 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075137 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056253 | 0 | 0.075127 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090128 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.250044 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.044104 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079723 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136716 | 0 | 0 | 0.146322 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092854 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103363 | 0.058466 | 0 | 0 | 0.34654 | 0 | 0 | 0.186754 | 0 | 0 | 0.182082 | 0 | 0 | 0.193005 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184831 | 0.042614 | 0 | 0.154044 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.551073 | 0 | 0 | 0.088433 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087903 | 0.092533 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064121 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163711 | 0 | 0.167391 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059106 | 0.066339 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060471 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083463 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087249 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07449 | 0 | 0 | 0.087328 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.195284 | 0 | 0.092971 | 0 | 0.072925 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065583 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059221 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104922 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.051448 | 0.069236 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078708 | 0 | 0 | 0.084083 | 0 | 0.063501 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | EmotionalEmpress | 2019/01/03 | Gotta push through this to experience videos games Warning: friendly depressing rambling.
I promised myself I wouldn't hurt myself because cyberpunk 2077 and other games I love are releasing maybe this year or the next.
It's so hard though. Yet hard isn't even the word. The pure despair and hopelessness I feel is a... | 1.323409 | 3.342744 | 2.656802 | 94.149562 | 80.964286 | 5.858442 | 22.23539 | 6.980633 | 0.495525 | 840 | 27 | 189 | 10 | 22 | 271 | 137 | 224 | 0.165 | 0.681 | 0.153 | -0.44 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 24 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 19 | 18 | 4 | 0 | 8 | 4 | 26 | 5 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 35 | 42 | 21 | 1 | 11 | 11 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 1 | 6 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 10 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 7 | 0 | 2 | 10 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 7 | 24 | 7 | 15 | 30 | 3 | 14 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 1 | 17 | 5 | 2 | 8 | 9 | 119 | 34 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124736 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138854 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130236 | 0.095083 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19645 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171336 | 0 | 0.160808 | 0.134344 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175455 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206045 | 0.141092 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152577 | 0 | 0 | 0.157735 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120509 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088646 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.279453 | 0.153997 | 0 | 0 | 0.1758 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166979 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138641 | 0 | 0 | 0.085722 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110173 | 0.152407 | 0 | 0.275465 | 0.138037 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140777 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156702 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165469 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114663 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165885 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118629 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136195 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133205 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124295 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16011 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132161 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153249 | 0 | 0.090953 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184001 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.221606 | 0 | 0 | 0.100445 |
suicidewatch | Renaynay1 | 2019/01/03 | Committing suicide tomorrow I will be doing this tomorrow. I am really scared. Let me tell you my story. I am on the autism spectrum. As a result, I have gone all my 29 years with no friends. I studied at university and barely pulled through and didn’t have the grades to pursue an MA or go to law school. I spent f... | 5.000801 | 6.428446 | 5.713565 | 78.710861 | 69.263158 | 8.948325 | 32.239234 | 9.33951 | 3.005532 | 630 | 28 | 115 | 13 | 11 | 205 | 106 | 152 | 0.168 | 0.772 | 0.059 | -0.9595 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 15 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 0 | 17 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 18 | 22 | 13 | 3 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 8 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 1 | 18 | 3 | 17 | 14 | 3 | 19 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 5 | 0 | 4 | 12 | 83 | 20 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177136 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.223399 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190651 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.260286 | 0 | 0.166305 | 0 | 0.112461 | 0 | 0.122334 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.228805 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.213606 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175461 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.220112 | 0 | 0.210324 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171813 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.233099 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137897 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.215507 | 0.217848 | 0.171529 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.235453 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188141 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156707 | 0 | 0 | 0.15291 | 0 | 0 | 0.415849 |
suicidewatch | badguy2988 | 2019/01/03 | I don't know what to do anymore Everyday I'm talked to like I'm scum by my family no less. I think it'd be easier if I just ended it I don't see the point of being alive anymore its all fake anyway | -0.022021 | 1.072128 | 3.554202 | 90.50875 | 81.553191 | 7.253191 | 18.132979 | 8.076483 | 0.439174 | 155 | 3 | 39 | 3 | 4 | 58 | 35 | 47 | 0.115 | 0.714 | 0.171 | 0.3818 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 11 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 1 | 4 | 8 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 25 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.671175 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.299709 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.319 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185968 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165318 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.319884 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.26965 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.271982 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.216824 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | utsuby0 | 2019/01/03 | Killing myself soon hurt my dog. told friends. they left. upset now. killing myself when i can. im sorry. | -0.687833 | -0.863591 | -0.13 | 101.931667 | 138.5 | 1.333333 | 18.333333 | 3.1291 | -0.988167 | 81 | 3 | 16 | 0 | 6 | 24 | 17 | 20 | 0.516 | 0.385 | 0.099 | -0.9186 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 9 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.23135 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.320561 | 0 | 0.323451 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.662581 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.325347 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.335203 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.286132 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | sidthesloth99 | 2019/01/03 | older sister (22) needs help but i dont know how to my family is having the funeral for my grandfather tomorrow and after an evening where copious amounts of alcohol were consumed by majority, things got heated and my sister stormed out and when my mum (wasnt in the room when things kicked off) asked what was wrong, sh... | 4.58723 | 5.441358 | 5.250919 | 83.776514 | 69.743243 | 9.163243 | 27.637838 | 9.3871 | 2.160101 | 585 | 19 | 121 | 12 | 10 | 189 | 92 | 148 | 0.127 | 0.775 | 0.098 | -0.7679 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 18 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 25 | 31 | 15 | 2 | 3 | 3 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 9 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 2 | 19 | 3 | 15 | 19 | 2 | 20 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 21 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 84 | 26 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174158 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152349 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136067 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130113 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.381983 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144337 | 0 | 0 | 0.107636 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153627 | 0 | 0.082399 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125905 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.273371 | 0.130337 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.218462 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188038 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.268681 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120835 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104398 | 0 | 0 | 0.174961 | 0 | 0.13917 | 0.155015 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178255 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142437 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.433062 | 0 | 0 | 0.129375 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129353 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1874 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178175 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | ErkaustNoAme | 2019/01/03 | How in the world do I hang myself? I tried like 20 times today.
My head gets heavy
Heartbeat in my ears
Headache
Nausea
Feeling of pounds of mucus in my throat.
I lean into it and it gets louder and louder then stops. It just stays the same, and I quit. Why? What am I doing wrong? Why does it just stop getting worse, ... | 2.044943 | 4.055543 | 3.220571 | 91.056 | 78.533333 | 5.752381 | 23.380952 | 6.709753 | 0.652795 | 1,154 | 38 | 240 | 11 | 28 | 372 | 159 | 300 | 0.212 | 0.7 | 0.087 | -0.9901 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 30 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 15 | 19 | 4 | 0 | 9 | 1 | 26 | 16 | 4 | 5 | 5 | 46 | 54 | 18 | 3 | 5 | 8 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 11 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 9 | 1 | 5 | 8 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 7 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 7 | 30 | 11 | 41 | 44 | 4 | 37 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 15 | 0 | 1 | 19 | 147 | 40 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081969 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088952 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056266 | 0.089945 | 0 | 0 | 0.181092 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076348 | 0.089282 | 0 | 0 | 0.202352 | 0 | 0.072882 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057624 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.31364 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176454 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07974 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182327 | 0 | 0.049583 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.278621 | 0.078154 | 0.086136 | 0.089538 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086577 | 0 | 0.096523 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184871 | 0.085247 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116473 | 0.088452 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067288 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185591 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07217 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067165 | 0.086287 | 0 | 0 | 0.092991 | 0 | 0.218821 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082227 | 0 | 0.065597 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055903 | 0 | 0.069263 | 0.101746 | 0.4011 | 0.082698 | 0 | 0 | 0.118467 | 0 | 0 | 0.090825 | 0 | 0.075351 | 0 | 0 | 0.205837 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.314899 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063515 | 0 | 0.08891 | 0 | 0.190777 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Good_bye_internet | 2019/01/03 | still here ig posted on here a day or 2 ago
im still here, but i am just feeling worse and worse. i failed my plan
i also got really drunk and passed out, dropping my phone in a glass of beer so thats gone
my last friend is getting more and more annoyed about me talking about how shit i feel
i think ive reall... | -0.382806 | 1.597102 | 1.741667 | 98.407778 | 87.5 | 5.055556 | 17.638889 | 6.427356 | -0.348653 | 282 | 7 | 69 | 3 | 9 | 94 | 58 | 80 | 0.333 | 0.604 | 0.063 | -0.9833 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 11 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 12 | 13 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 10 | 1 | 7 | 8 | 2 | 15 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 4 | 2 | 1 | 6 | 40 | 11 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189274 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170753 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137704 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.215926 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164966 | 0.197397 | 0.111556 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170773 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.46128 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174049 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.204495 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.273575 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.219177 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.341037 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171621 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136816 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.435194 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | ciavs | 2019/01/03 | "Does death vs suicide matter for student loans?" https://www.reddit.com/r/StudentLoans/comments/abzapi/does_death_vs_suicide_matter_for_student_loans/?st=jqfv8voh&sh=f2288006 | 70.99 | 90.668939 | 32.497778 | -121.9 | -64.333333 | 8.044444 | 42.333333 | 8.841846 | 5.286467 | 168 | 3 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 34 | 9 | 9 | 0.552 | 0.378 | 0.069 | -0.8645 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 19 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.611818 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.494145 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.617656 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | orangejuice772 | 2019/01/03 | Hello. Goodnight. (Not a bad goodnight) We made it. It’s 2019. I stuck a knife in my chest on New Year’s Eve. But I’m alive. It hurt. I love you. Whoever is reading this. Live. Don’t give up. I’m trying not to. I love you. | -4.289686 | -4.916928 | -0.745143 | 106.766 | 140.4 | 2.228571 | 11.571429 | 4.655896 | -1.730857 | 163 | 4 | 44 | 1 | 14 | 57 | 37 | 50 | 0.165 | 0.631 | 0.204 | 0.4767 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 15 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 9 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 7 | 2 | 4 | 7 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 22 | 11 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.257603 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.295963 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.330279 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.272431 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.556907 | 0.291931 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.297973 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.308606 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.209466 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198678 |
suicidewatch | lee18040 | 2019/01/03 | I feel too guilty to do it Yesterday I almost ended my own life. I'm 18 and I've always been the guy that seems damaged but stays positive anyway. Recently I've lost that part of me and I just feel sad 99 percent of the time. I've never seen a professional or been on any medication.
I honestly don't know why I feel t... | 1.905415 | 2.918763 | 4.183973 | 88.304805 | 76.29927 | 6.970872 | 22.901634 | 7.44753 | 0.770722 | 978 | 27 | 223 | 12 | 21 | 341 | 140 | 274 | 0.119 | 0.7 | 0.181 | 0.9752 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 23 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 14 | 15 | 0 | 2 | 11 | 0 | 22 | 7 | 2 | 3 | 3 | 48 | 48 | 14 | 0 | 6 | 8 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 15 | 12 | 1 | 2 | 13 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 11 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 8 | 34 | 8 | 29 | 38 | 6 | 23 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 15 | 10 | 0 | 7 | 9 | 143 | 49 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111122 | 0 | 0 | 0.088744 | 0.184675 | 0 | 0 | 0.150929 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077594 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103744 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067647 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117393 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.248928 | 0.088602 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.196576 | 0 | 0.123763 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106038 | 0 | 0 | 0.104614 | 0 | 0.280553 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171473 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063068 | 0.093078 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109879 | 0 | 0.118131 | 0 | 0 | 0.113889 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.297528 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125274 | 0.119868 | 0.115826 | 0.110122 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182961 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.235148 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121139 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111792 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082284 | 0.085588 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075197 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123221 | 0.120172 | 0 | 0.153868 | 0.193792 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111557 | 0 | 0 | 0.111002 | 0 | 0 | 0.114097 | 0.109571 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111102 | 0 | 0.08843 | 0.101024 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109754 | 0 | 0 | 0.118281 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10459 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102168 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142212 | 0 | 0 | 0.129417 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075342 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130908 | 0.088084 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100135 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078831 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | PlaneCitron | 2019/01/03 | Can anyone just chat with me for a bit? I'm not doing very, just need someone to talk to. | -0.416 | 1.231961 | 1.88 | 99.395 | 85 | 4 | 15 | 3.1291 | -1.334 | 68 | 1 | 17 | 0 | 2 | 23 | 18 | 20 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.338166 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.527999 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.358606 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.409779 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.388724 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.399046 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | BonyBoyBlue | 2019/01/16 | Can someone help me? i am drunk. i cant sleep and i am scared i will do something stupid. i am not feeling like myself. i feel like i want to destroy myself. please if someone would talk to me? | -1.011382 | 1.094178 | 0.889634 | 100.855264 | 96.804878 | 2.733333 | 19.028455 | 3.1291 | -0.862467 | 148 | 5 | 34 | 0 | 6 | 48 | 28 | 41 | 0.383 | 0.485 | 0.133 | -0.8968 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 11 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 11 | 2 | 2 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 24 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.284442 | 0.401886 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188533 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.274834 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.308756 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.281605 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.281478 | 0 | 0.476647 | 0.216539 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.226078 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165903 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19981 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | binarystar45 | 2019/01/16 | It never got better and never will. I’ve been depressed for almost 10 years. I’ve been through middle school, high school, and now two years of college.
I’m trans and constantly dysphoric, and my shitty body means I’m constantly in pain and don’t function well. I don’t fit in with anyone, and even when I do interact ... | 3.668406 | 5.813711 | 4.882938 | 80.388689 | 74.109489 | 8.070316 | 28.934915 | 8.841846 | 2.566275 | 564 | 24 | 102 | 12 | 12 | 186 | 79 | 137 | 0.15 | 0.727 | 0.123 | -0.7768 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 8 | 10 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 9 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 24 | 23 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 12 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 9 | 5 | 13 | 18 | 0 | 19 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 8 | 1 | 1 | 11 | 61 | 16 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151812 | 0 | 0.167301 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106007 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134083 | 0 | 0.1684 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130595 | 0 | 0.491497 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130578 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170536 | 0.134278 | 0 | 0 | 0.200269 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142921 | 0 | 0.076657 | 0.108307 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117131 | 0.140157 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121253 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16018 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074067 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.330287 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.233856 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16132 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105105 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.306867 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172041 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148097 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089421 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136312 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.195259 |
suicidewatch | Dieselfein | 2019/01/16 | Accident anyone? Scrolling through Facebook and general news outlets I always see these small blips about ppl dying accidentally, and I always wonder why not me? Why can’t I die in a freak accident by AirPOD, or a heart attack in my sleep?!!
Life seems so hard for me.
Yet it’s not as bad as the stuff I read here which... | 2.314973 | 3.971874 | 3.845568 | 88.496579 | 76.54386 | 6.939464 | 22.319419 | 7.753152 | 0.859877 | 1,296 | 36 | 280 | 19 | 29 | 430 | 169 | 342 | 0.232 | 0.627 | 0.141 | -0.9915 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 36 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 20 | 20 | 2 | 0 | 16 | 0 | 34 | 7 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 49 | 56 | 27 | 5 | 10 | 12 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 4 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 19 | 13 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 12 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 4 | 48 | 9 | 40 | 42 | 4 | 28 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 13 | 14 | 0 | 9 | 14 | 197 | 67 | 1 | 0.082463 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082575 | 0.085407 | 0 | 0.329729 | 0.137232 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081781 | 0.05766 | 0 | 0 | 0.07341 | 0 | 0.093814 | 0.077477 | 0.190227 | 0.137707 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072932 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071035 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.427919 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09276 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054466 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083392 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191133 | 0 | 0.043084 | 0 | 0.046866 | 0.069166 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073871 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097719 | 0.055273 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090639 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058246 | 0.080575 | 0 | 0 | 0.072977 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065821 | 0 | 0.06062 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.26324 | 0 | 0 | 0.0893 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083895 | 0.088909 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082486 | 0 | 0.052828 | 0 | 0 | 0.265604 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065712 | 0.075071 | 0 | 0.09316 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082523 | 0 | 0 | 0.063484 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137886 | 0 | 0 | 0.094401 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066281 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054785 | 0.052839 | 0 | 0 | 0.09617 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055987 | 0.089696 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.243195 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.223231 | 0 | 0.094829 | 0 | 0.178856 | 0 | 0.083745 | 0.168074 | 0.117159 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | soured_peach | 2019/01/16 | I was doing so well Until my mom just fucking pushes me over the edge. I hate her. She's the reason of my countless suicide attempts and possibly another one tonight. I'm looking at hotels or Airbnb's to stay tonight but I have a dog and can't leave her alone. Otherwise, I would've just disappeared again. I want to dis... | 2.036398 | 4.865327 | 3.625298 | 82.471751 | 87.037975 | 7.313321 | 26.511151 | 8.26906 | 2.485449 | 661 | 30 | 118 | 17 | 21 | 218 | 101 | 158 | 0.276 | 0.64 | 0.084 | -0.9915 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 24 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 10 | 5 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 13 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 20 | 26 | 9 | 1 | 3 | 9 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 8 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 24 | 2 | 19 | 22 | 2 | 19 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 10 | 8 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 85 | 27 | 1 | 0 | 0.182233 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159295 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161277 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.289009 | 0 | 0 | 0.093758 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156108 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136225 | 0 | 0 | 0.101586 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.276459 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14219 | 0.080357 | 0 | 0.087411 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.45555 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164651 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162857 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129157 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154517 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154999 | 0 | 0.155299 | 0.180134 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104222 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106629 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173392 | 0 | 0 | 0.165827 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158137 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131348 | 0 | 0.122312 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163935 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168237 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098552 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104423 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181436 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138289 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109258 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | DrakeTheCake1 | 2019/01/16 | I need help For the past month everyday I have woke up I have felt lonely, anxious and depressed. I want to call out for help but every time when someone asks if I’m okay I just say yeah but I wanna scream no. I feel like I’m drowning. Then today my girlfriend broke up with me and now I truly feel as all hope is lost b... | -0.704681 | 1.367481 | 1.270476 | 100.33978 | 90.714286 | 3.992674 | 16.648352 | 5.369823 | -0.84711 | 372 | 9 | 90 | 2 | 13 | 122 | 71 | 105 | 0.186 | 0.585 | 0.229 | 0.5101 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 7 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 25 | 23 | 9 | 2 | 7 | 7 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 5 | 16 | 3 | 13 | 18 | 2 | 14 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 11 | 58 | 19 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.236996 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19612 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127882 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.214213 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180687 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185806 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176752 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.212146 | 0.14987 | 0.201426 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119225 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.281228 | 0 | 0 | 0.208363 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186466 | 0 | 0 | 0.115292 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10249 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.229004 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167448 | 0 | 0 | 0.155552 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15955 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.200263 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166829 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177749 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139371 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122327 | 0 | 0.198851 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.371208 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | jhjhjhjh6969 | 2019/01/16 | Want to die again after so long of being okay Recently I have had a massive slump I havnt really thought about sicucde much recently till this week, thus week I have tho8ght about just fucking killing myself like 3 times and was so close to doing it I have been self harm free for ages but I have started again, I have c... | 2.265258 | 3.89323 | 2.985563 | 94.734026 | 76.605634 | 6.141784 | 25.213615 | 6.816662 | 0.733885 | 536 | 19 | 121 | 5 | 12 | 168 | 84 | 142 | 0.191 | 0.709 | 0.1 | -0.9096 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 9 | 12 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 18 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 23 | 32 | 12 | 2 | 6 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 6 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 22 | 6 | 16 | 24 | 2 | 16 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 2 | 2 | 3 | 13 | 80 | 27 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102907 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.276742 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157053 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136003 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116915 | 0.139899 | 0 | 0 | 0.172005 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161998 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134506 | 0.16742 | 0 | 0.16633 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073931 | 0 | 0 | 0.133919 | 0 | 0 | 0.165191 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111242 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16803 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096944 | 0 | 0.298833 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157867 | 0 | 0.155335 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10711 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.396798 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120136 | 0.08824 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.446282 | 0 | 0.24277 | 0 | 0.136061 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | EscapeToFreedom | 2019/01/16 | Need a push over the edge Two days ago, I had an encounter when I went shopping in the evening.
It's winter and so it was already quite dark, when I stopped to secure my bike.
I observed someone harass a woman from the corner of my eye, she walked away pretty fast from that person, it all happened very fast.
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