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suicidewatch | PangolinGod | 2019/01/16 | Why is life so painful I am a 16 year old almost 17 and I have for as long as I could remember I've wanted to be a girl on the outside like I was on the inside and I have never said anything to my parents about it or anyone else. Due to this issue I have to deal with constant depression and thoughts of suicide and i re... | 1.117153 | 2.89255 | 3.393636 | 89.838344 | 80.483051 | 6.66379 | 24.286595 | 7.686295 | 1.150931 | 861 | 32 | 193 | 14 | 22 | 296 | 115 | 236 | 0.082 | 0.788 | 0.13 | 0.8022 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 7 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 25 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 51 | 48 | 22 | 2 | 10 | 7 | 9 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 11 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 41 | 5 | 31 | 34 | 3 | 18 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 22 | 8 | 0 | 3 | 10 | 141 | 52 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101824 | 0 | 0 | 0.101963 | 0 | 0 | 0.104485 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072959 | 0.106912 | 0.085866 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087122 | 0.063607 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092283 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119341 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112758 | 0 | 0.08331 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107573 | 0.089871 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12229 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087166 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093777 | 0 | 0.098366 | 0 | 0.052759 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054515 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108907 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.344066 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106698 | 0.147402 | 0.050977 | 0 | 0.092137 | 0.092341 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094174 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.244411 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077369 | 0.160952 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109491 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111029 | 0 | 0.231722 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091109 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13369 | 0 | 0.103027 | 0.112026 | 0.118201 | 0 | 0.099254 | 0.082978 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086314 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17682 | 0.160657 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.228269 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167735 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069321 | 0.066859 | 0.102517 | 0.082837 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108625 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.430811 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094154 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067194 |
suicidewatch | MeanLimaBean | 2019/01/16 | Friend considering suicide, and I just may do the same I've been the only person available for my friend to vent to and to try and talk them out of doing something to hurt themselves. It's really wearing on me and I sent them a few hotline links, but it's pulled me away from activities and stressed me out so much that ... | 4.341418 | 4.704121 | 4.767872 | 88.783333 | 70.06383 | 7.330496 | 27.900709 | 6.816662 | 1.132445 | 716 | 23 | 156 | 5 | 12 | 227 | 108 | 188 | 0.186 | 0.766 | 0.048 | -0.9854 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 9 | 8 | 2 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 17 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 32 | 31 | 18 | 3 | 9 | 13 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 15 | 11 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 4 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 3 | 25 | 2 | 26 | 16 | 3 | 22 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 21 | 9 | 0 | 12 | 6 | 119 | 40 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128176 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128721 | 0 | 0 | 0.135853 | 0 | 0 | 0.088144 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.223429 | 0 | 0 | 0.13871 | 0.246531 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16297 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142398 | 0 | 0.309586 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.319948 | 0 | 0.079466 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102132 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.306787 | 0 | 0.169349 | 0 | 0 | 0.106295 | 0.107216 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109972 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126256 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092632 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123484 | 0.137544 | 0.114988 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111317 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165634 | 0 | 0 | 0.158164 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116221 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098171 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134042 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139385 | 0 | 0 | 0.440532 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | RandomPants84 | 2019/01/16 | College Applications Was just finishing up my last 2 common applications for collage and at the end there was a step I didn’t remember doing for my all other applications. I just checked and even though I paid and everything I didn’t finish up the signature and I haven’t applied to a single college. I’m panicking and f... | 7.169286 | 7.287866 | 7.923571 | 69.423929 | 64 | 11.571429 | 37.5 | 11.208143 | 4.427286 | 295 | 14 | 52 | 8 | 4 | 99 | 44 | 70 | 0.114 | 0.824 | 0.062 | -0.6486 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 10 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 9 | 1 | 7 | 5 | 3 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 41 | 10 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.302971 | 0 | 0 | 0.225933 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.307429 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17296 | 0.244374 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.316237 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.278832 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.241613 | 0.167118 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.387497 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.336081 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.381908 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Iwanttokillmyself79 | 2019/01/16 | I really want to kill myself and dont know how Please dont tell me to get help i dont want to hear that im really tryna end my life i cant take my mom anymore i have become really depressed. There is bags under my eyes she doesnt know how to focus on one thing and she is bipolar please help me | -1.58281 | 0.343901 | 1.586078 | 97.148464 | 94.588235 | 4.786928 | 11.96732 | 6.427356 | -0.926858 | 232 | 3 | 57 | 3 | 9 | 82 | 42 | 68 | 0.147 | 0.7 | 0.152 | -0.3885 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 8 | 15 | 4 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 12 | 0 | 6 | 15 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 34 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16296 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181477 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141527 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.57774 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145537 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08585 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185199 | 0 | 0.220278 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177492 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181794 | 0 | 0.18061 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116063 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192448 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111346 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.360744 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.3158 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123547 | 0 | 0.143622 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109166 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193838 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Walking_With_Spiders | 2019/01/16 | It's coming I've held my strength for years. I feel like I'm using this shit as a blog but hey who cares. I've tried alcohol, I've tried love, I've tried weed, nothing works. I'm always back to the same spot; when I'm left alone these thoughts come back, I just don't want to be here any more.
Nothing makes sense, I fe... | 2.447947 | 3.711407 | 3.188841 | 94.97961 | 75.337449 | 6.103444 | 22.666017 | 6.339386 | 0.209696 | 902 | 24 | 209 | 6 | 19 | 284 | 123 | 243 | 0.082 | 0.742 | 0.176 | 0.9807 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 26 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 4 | 14 | 15 | 3 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 15 | 5 | 1 | 5 | 2 | 52 | 51 | 12 | 0 | 7 | 8 | 0 | 6 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 20 | 8 | 1 | 1 | 15 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 8 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 6 | 28 | 11 | 19 | 39 | 11 | 23 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 22 | 5 | 1 | 6 | 17 | 122 | 48 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0.102208 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111932 | 0 | 0.108476 | 0 | 0 | 0.08715 | 0 | 0 | 0.071225 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161073 | 0.087451 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.236006 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.213573 | 0 | 0 | 0.180444 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167248 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091656 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092766 | 0.108222 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.264791 | 0.149649 | 0.100564 | 0 | 0.095728 | 0.089089 | 0 | 0 | 0.08092 | 0 | 0.109442 | 0 | 0.119049 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.207413 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070203 | 0 | 0 | 0.104028 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115122 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113797 | 0 | 0 | 0.153508 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.283588 | 0 | 0.069913 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105755 | 0 | 0.0836 | 0 | 0 | 0.155323 | 0.08078 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.200996 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067097 | 0.107687 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107511 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177487 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078749 | 0 | 0.18309 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.249449 | 0.122146 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.284439 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090459 | 0 | 0 | 0.061777 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07625 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134895 |
suicidewatch | npozero | 2019/01/16 | Laying in bed, but I feel like I’m being crushed to death by my thoughts Sometimes I have awful thoughts of suicide, but no real intent. Like creeping thoughts about taking all my meds at once and dying or just dying in general. I have no intent my whole life when o get this way it’s mostly passive. I think it might be... | 2.083873 | 3.868577 | 3.175098 | 92.484608 | 77.578431 | 5.513725 | 22.117647 | 6.139982 | 0.248071 | 773 | 22 | 165 | 5 | 18 | 248 | 122 | 204 | 0.182 | 0.722 | 0.096 | -0.9773 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 7 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 1 | 13 | 7 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 35 | 33 | 12 | 4 | 2 | 7 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 8 | 10 | 5 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 3 | 20 | 4 | 26 | 25 | 3 | 32 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 14 | 0 | 3 | 17 | 95 | 28 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100184 | 0 | 0.079423 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144722 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112233 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.252077 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.270439 | 0 | 0.149323 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133318 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086055 | 0 | 0.219549 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131756 | 0.186157 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157546 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068071 | 0 | 0.074046 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.256617 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135676 | 0.071604 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14156 | 0 | 0.092027 | 0.190958 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144722 | 0 | 0 | 0.138216 | 0 | 0 | 0.103996 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138754 | 0.088287 | 0.198182 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136125 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140474 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148298 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111266 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128859 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142515 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.195923 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086558 | 0.083484 | 0 | 0.310305 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153696 | 0.103418 | 0.10451 | 0.158657 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145463 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094852 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | its_shrimp__ | 2019/01/16 | Just thinking back at how my life is and was...and I just don’t know anymore So to start off I was born deformed in my right hand and I had this horrible mother that told me every day about the ways that she tried do “manually abort me” weather it be actual hits to the gut or severe alcohol, drug, and cigarette abuse. ... | 1.420394 | 2.889851 | 3.127851 | 93.491255 | 78.537367 | 6.106821 | 20.427195 | 6.816662 | 0.138292 | 2,028 | 49 | 475 | 20 | 48 | 674 | 253 | 562 | 0.132 | 0.768 | 0.1 | -0.964 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 37 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 40 | 26 | 7 | 1 | 25 | 0 | 45 | 18 | 7 | 2 | 8 | 85 | 81 | 42 | 5 | 5 | 20 | 7 | 4 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 35 | 31 | 2 | 2 | 11 | 2 | 0 | 9 | 8 | 10 | 2 | 1 | 31 | 5 | 55 | 16 | 70 | 37 | 13 | 79 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 29 | 32 | 3 | 8 | 39 | 313 | 90 | 4 | 0 | 0.082761 | 0.204491 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074648 | 0.139889 | 0 | 0 | 0.111718 | 0.058121 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069272 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0653 | 0 | 0.065626 | 0.214841 | 0 | 0.2129 | 0 | 0.059437 | 0 | 0 | 0.061777 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077976 | 0.071325 | 0 | 0.21365 | 0 | 0 | 0.120339 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05577 | 0.077288 | 0.076727 | 0.135142 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144987 | 0.072978 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071481 | 0 | 0 | 0.162008 | 0.071474 | 0 | 0.078572 | 0.123733 | 0 | 0 | 0.046135 | 0 | 0.058852 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065848 | 0 | 0.035318 | 0.049901 | 0.067067 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076587 | 0.053966 | 0.064575 | 0.036494 | 0.067006 | 0.039697 | 0.058587 | 0.111731 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061768 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.046819 | 0 | 0.14013 | 0 | 0.068788 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062086 | 0.077279 | 0 | 0.115163 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071426 | 0.098674 | 0.102376 | 0.070008 | 0 | 0 | 0.058656 | 0 | 0 | 0.178152 | 0 | 0.066094 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141057 | 0.245422 | 0 | 0.074239 | 0 | 0 | 0.053873 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074388 | 0.047332 | 0.159372 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09685 | 0 | 0.145957 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066897 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070219 | 0 | 0 | 0.069869 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059652 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070692 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.236732 | 0.1434 | 0.057781 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078191 | 0.04944 | 0 | 0 | 0.058398 | 0.080013 | 0 | 0.159923 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052519 | 0.112286 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.046405 | 0.089514 | 0 | 0.055453 | 0.12219 | 0 | 0 | 0.133489 | 0 | 0.094847 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172901 | 0.041199 | 0.055444 | 0.056029 | 0 | 0.125607 | 0 | 0.063029 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.050852 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.044981 |
suicidewatch | OPTA34234 | 2019/01/16 | advice Ive been having suicidal thoughts for the past 2 months or so, no particular plans as such, I wouldnt even say I fully want to do it but it just feels more and more like an actual option and i have fantasties about how I would do it etc, worried as I know it isnt normal to think like this, worried that if things... | 6.613963 | 5.755641 | 6.905441 | 79.513802 | 65.433566 | 9.724569 | 31.304429 | 8.841846 | 2.331059 | 1,124 | 35 | 226 | 15 | 15 | 365 | 158 | 286 | 0.212 | 0.636 | 0.152 | -0.9666 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 18 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 19 | 17 | 3 | 1 | 14 | 0 | 27 | 8 | 4 | 4 | 3 | 53 | 54 | 24 | 2 | 10 | 11 | 0 | 8 | 7 | 1 | 5 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 14 | 10 | 1 | 0 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 6 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 10 | 27 | 8 | 32 | 40 | 8 | 31 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 12 | 11 | 3 | 7 | 20 | 150 | 41 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0.078625 | 0 | 0 | 0.157465 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091021 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066302 | 0 | 0.075322 | 0 | 0.075698 | 0.061954 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068559 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084476 | 0 | 0 | 0.064329 | 0 | 0 | 0.051961 | 0 | 0.13879 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188856 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067306 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089857 | 0.106432 | 0 | 0.067884 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151909 | 0 | 0.32591 | 0.287797 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084189 | 0 | 0.13737 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054005 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.348119 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.044279 | 0.065676 | 0 | 0.085312 | 0 | 0 | 0.056909 | 0.275538 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072718 | 0 | 0.053781 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128621 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062141 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078942 | 0.154619 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153827 | 0 | 0.070351 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077164 | 0.163938 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103231 | 0 | 0.079553 | 0 | 0 | 0.068807 | 0 | 0.064073 | 0 | 0 | 0.064204 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.248113 | 0.066649 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057028 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088131 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064759 | 0.070422 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107055 | 0.103252 | 0 | 0.127928 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069587 | 0 | 0 | 0.095045 | 0.063953 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089954 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163646 | 0.164216 | 0.171704 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | darlinginthespankxx | 2019/01/16 | I keep getting closer and closer to actually doing it but never having the courage to. I wish someone would push me to do it already so the responsibility wouldn’t be on my hands anymore. So I wouldn’t have to feel like a coward everytime I wake up and have to drag my disgusting fucking body across the world like a sta... | 3.089643 | 4.091231 | 4.631488 | 86.28375 | 73.375 | 7.152381 | 26.214286 | 7.44753 | 1.154591 | 360 | 12 | 79 | 4 | 7 | 121 | 55 | 96 | 0.163 | 0.611 | 0.226 | 0.7139 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 7 | 2 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 12 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 21 | 22 | 6 | 0 | 8 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 13 | 5 | 11 | 15 | 0 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 57 | 15 | 0 | 0.182775 | 0 | 0.178362 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.201697 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181263 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.203022 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092416 | 0.130574 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168972 | 0.095492 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181537 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.324917 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178589 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.281934 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182907 | 0 | 0.154864 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152808 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107805 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.630546 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129838 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | todd12344 | 2019/01/16 | About to do it see you lot on the other side See you on the other side everyone, I'm alone drunk as shit and decided I'm gonna finally do it I can't stand this shit anymore the battle has been lost, bye guys | 0.779681 | 2.072953 | 3.303138 | 92.30875 | 79.851064 | 7.253191 | 20.260638 | 8.076483 | 0.645557 | 163 | 4 | 40 | 3 | 4 | 57 | 34 | 47 | 0.314 | 0.686 | 0 | -0.9382 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 11 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 5 | 8 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 23 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.278611 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.266783 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.257048 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.294685 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.26636 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.293654 | 0.228701 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.428729 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.552265 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Riotthedev | 2019/01/16 | How long does it take for things to get better? Used and abused by my ex wife, living in a tiny rented room. It stinks in here like cigarettes, my disability payments were suspended this month due to payee issues which I have fixed but have not received any mail about yet. Can't pay rent which is due today since thela... | 2.970972 | 3.882451 | 4.485812 | 87.558763 | 73.559819 | 7.704543 | 24.453231 | 8.076483 | 1.177169 | 1,644 | 47 | 364 | 24 | 32 | 551 | 221 | 443 | 0.164 | 0.665 | 0.171 | -0.6973 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 42 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 29 | 30 | 7 | 1 | 14 | 3 | 43 | 6 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 66 | 84 | 27 | 4 | 7 | 28 | 4 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 20 | 16 | 0 | 6 | 7 | 0 | 8 | 8 | 19 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 3 | 46 | 15 | 49 | 66 | 12 | 46 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 4 | 17 | 16 | 6 | 7 | 24 | 235 | 66 | 10 | 0 | 0.102423 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093663 | 0.10504 | 0.176357 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071137 | 0.076954 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132942 | 0 | 0.052696 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090719 | 0.076454 | 0 | 0.096021 | 0 | 0 | 0.08827 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148929 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089716 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075649 | 0.088463 | 0.101313 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153129 | 0 | 0.096409 | 0.171288 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077691 | 0 | 0.081493 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079009 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066787 | 0.319668 | 0.180656 | 0 | 0 | 0.145012 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092022 | 0.077438 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085859 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090226 | 0.085783 | 0.307345 | 0.095639 | 0 | 0.095016 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088396 | 0 | 0.126698 | 0 | 0.076332 | 0.076501 | 0 | 0.09671 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057703 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096021 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137999 | 0 | 0.254188 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065745 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093611 | 0 | 0.05993 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081718 | 0 | 0.08279 | 0.175891 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091945 | 0 | 0 | 0.166137 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073824 | 0 | 0 | 0.086546 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088734 | 0.071508 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061186 | 0 | 0 | 0.072272 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094557 | 0.098097 | 0 | 0 | 0.129992 | 0.069481 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100369 | 0.05743 | 0.110781 | 0 | 0.068628 | 0 | 0 | 0.163879 | 0 | 0.096044 | 0.117381 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074661 | 0 | 0 | 0.101975 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078003 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062933 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10504 | 0 |
suicidewatch | ineedadrinkdude | 2019/01/16 | I need help I’m so drunk which is the only time I have the courage. I’m begging for help I want to end but I have a shred of hope. I know it’s not one else’s responsibility | -2.619675 | -0.913576 | 0.889634 | 100.855264 | 100.219512 | 3.708943 | 14.150407 | 5.461319 | -1.342223 | 134 | 3 | 38 | 1 | 6 | 48 | 30 | 41 | 0.049 | 0.664 | 0.287 | 0.7878 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 9 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 3 | 9 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 20 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.319336 | 0 | 0.338576 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.512453 | 0 | 0 | 0.379679 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.210085 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.283447 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.259035 | 0.290732 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.222904 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.225472 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | _p_l_u_t_o_ | 2019/01/16 | Stuck this is just gonna be a little rant so I don’t expect anyone to read this :)
For so long now I’ve been hating myself more and more as the minutes pass. I mean what is the point of even living? I try to convince myself everything is okay but it really isn’t. It’s not like my life is horrible or anything.
You se... | 0.648212 | 2.45676 | 2.607612 | 94.726424 | 82.171642 | 5.764868 | 18.889782 | 6.844919 | -0.026181 | 963 | 23 | 228 | 11 | 26 | 322 | 131 | 268 | 0.183 | 0.748 | 0.068 | -0.9861 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 20 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 14 | 16 | 4 | 1 | 15 | 1 | 25 | 3 | 1 | 6 | 3 | 51 | 52 | 20 | 0 | 3 | 15 | 0 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 28 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 16 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 12 | 9 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 8 | 31 | 7 | 19 | 46 | 4 | 18 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 7 | 1 | 5 | 10 | 155 | 59 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084944 | 0 | 0.099971 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107442 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131281 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106311 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160477 | 0 | 0 | 0.116083 | 0.109182 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.245703 | 0.086788 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103334 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06347 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097161 | 0 | 0.133828 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.23988 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081428 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133528 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085807 | 0.178052 | 0.121758 | 0.107272 | 0.107509 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162182 | 0 | 0 | 0.264662 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089304 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08232 | 0.092394 | 0.129267 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114841 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121516 | 0 | 0.077825 | 0.249811 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096609 | 0 | 0 | 0.096807 | 0.110594 | 0.126734 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114497 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.242125 | 0.311367 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.329917 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104923 | 0 | 0 | 0.071654 | 0.192856 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10962 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | throwaway2445789 | 2019/01/16 | Anyone else Does anyone else hope they will develop a seriously life threatening illness that will kill them so they dont have to do it themselves | 13.177778 | 9.453814 | 11.547407 | 60.363333 | 55.296296 | 15.244444 | 45.518519 | 13.023867 | 5.76903 | 121 | 5 | 20 | 3 | 1 | 38 | 22 | 27 | 0.353 | 0.565 | 0.082 | -0.8625 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 13 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.376515 | 0.551732 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.235612 | 0 | 0.315545 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.449827 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.267414 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.297872 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190171 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Jademists | 2019/01/16 | Depression is back and so are the thoughts I don’t know why but the thoughts are back. I haven’t had these for a year. I could feel the depression building up during November but I thought it would have gone away after the holidays, but no luck. I’m not sure if I can keep this fight going for much longer. I almost lost... | 1.313132 | 2.920962 | 2.549982 | 96.900407 | 79.262295 | 5.961141 | 21.132362 | 6.775459 | 0.114036 | 1,107 | 30 | 268 | 11 | 27 | 355 | 137 | 305 | 0.181 | 0.736 | 0.084 | -0.9854 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 24 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 14 | 16 | 8 | 0 | 14 | 0 | 37 | 4 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 61 | 72 | 20 | 0 | 15 | 16 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 31 | 10 | 0 | 6 | 10 | 1 | 1 | 7 | 14 | 12 | 0 | 4 | 9 | 3 | 34 | 4 | 31 | 52 | 3 | 37 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 10 | 3 | 9 | 18 | 184 | 65 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0.08755 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089838 | 0 | 0.099004 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.252875 | 0.206959 | 0 | 0.05469 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097947 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077283 | 0 | 0.096952 | 0 | 0.071631 | 0 | 0 | 0.05786 | 0 | 0.154545 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091811 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.045363 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.25494 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079336 | 0 | 0 | 0.088576 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060135 | 0 | 0 | 0.089109 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.239232 | 0 | 0 | 0.197223 | 0.073131 | 0 | 0 | 0.097477 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089919 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097936 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.298964 | 0 | 0 | 0.095175 | 0.090588 | 0 | 0.071611 | 0 | 0.065952 | 0.133047 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.243177 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085644 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071346 | 0 | 0 | 0.071492 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089781 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.225021 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084557 | 0 | 0.202367 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059604 | 0.057487 | 0.176292 | 0.284899 | 0.052314 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060912 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052917 | 0.071213 | 0.071965 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16191 | 0.100165 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130629 | 0 | 0 | 0.254928 | 0 | 0 | 0.057774 |
suicidewatch | Spatzekoar | 2019/01/16 | why do i exist i hate myself
the only reason im alive is that i dont want to disappoint the people that tell me to stay alive
why am i this way
why am i not somebody else, someone who succeeds at life someone who has a reason to stay alive
please if anyone can kill me fucking do it
im done, i just had the a mental... | 0.361818 | 2.235504 | 2.454838 | 95.095591 | 83.545455 | 4.36404 | 17.980808 | 4.935629 | -0.618609 | 354 | 8 | 80 | 1 | 10 | 119 | 62 | 99 | 0.124 | 0.688 | 0.188 | 0.6844 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 13 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 11 | 19 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 14 | 2 | 7 | 15 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 53 | 21 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151728 | 0.170158 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097916 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142775 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143304 | 0.16412 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116981 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12946 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138256 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.302524 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154928 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148277 | 0 | 0 | 0.098911 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141122 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137205 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106503 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097083 | 0 | 0 | 0.153716 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.287958 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.237302 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.298517 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122397 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152318 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165192 | 0.111153 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.505439 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170158 | 0 |
suicidewatch | MoreSkittlesPlease | 2019/01/16 | I just feel like I'm here to keep people happy... Hey all. I'm posting because I just keep getting closer and closer to finally ending everything...
I've been depressed for a long time, but I had one of the one nights in a while yesterday, and I keep thinking of just ending it all now and getting it over with. I've g... | 5.537339 | 4.64241 | 6.16372 | 84.071623 | 67.626609 | 8.743554 | 28.296652 | 7.554174 | 1.464441 | 1,746 | 45 | 378 | 15 | 25 | 572 | 207 | 466 | 0.149 | 0.716 | 0.135 | -0.8891 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 55 | 3 | 0 | 6 | 8 | 23 | 31 | 3 | 0 | 18 | 2 | 28 | 6 | 3 | 6 | 7 | 78 | 83 | 34 | 2 | 10 | 22 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 7 | 1 | 18 | 22 | 3 | 5 | 7 | 1 | 2 | 11 | 10 | 14 | 0 | 4 | 22 | 9 | 57 | 17 | 53 | 56 | 13 | 82 | 0 | 6 | 5 | 0 | 30 | 26 | 1 | 8 | 45 | 243 | 75 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.051812 | 0.062464 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.039747 | 0.061289 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.044944 | 0.097605 | 0.03563 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061339 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059683 | 0 | 0.059593 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129346 | 0.064204 | 0.037695 | 0 | 0.100684 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.048827 | 0 | 0.103537 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05253 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059107 | 0.041756 | 0 | 0.064028 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064086 | 0.045158 | 0 | 0.183223 | 0 | 0.033218 | 0 | 0.140241 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103373 | 0.12444 | 0.052359 | 0 | 0.059986 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078354 | 0 | 0.410404 | 0 | 0.057561 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061006 | 0 | 0.207809 | 0.12933 | 0 | 0.064244 | 0.285863 | 0 | 0 | 0.190515 | 0 | 0 | 0.085666 | 0 | 0.051612 | 0.103451 | 0.147247 | 0 | 0.063804 | 0.099383 | 0 | 0 | 0.117046 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.042967 | 0.086678 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.383953 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158426 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202606 | 0.051035 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055978 | 0 | 0 | 0.055928 | 0 | 0.117515 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057711 | 0 | 0.066211 | 0.049915 | 0 | 0.046481 | 0 | 0 | 0.046576 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059997 | 0 | 0 | 0.058491 | 0 | 0.099047 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110175 | 0 | 0.043946 | 0 | 0.051087 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077662 | 0.037452 | 0.057426 | 0 | 0.136328 | 0 | 0 | 0.055851 | 0 | 0.079366 | 0.063576 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.050481 | 0 | 0 | 0.06895 | 0.092788 | 0.046884 | 0 | 0 | 0.054183 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056343 | 0 | 0.127655 | 0 | 0 | 0.041521 | 0 | 0 | 0.037639 |
suicidewatch | warchief_blackhand | 2019/01/16 | Failed artist and I just want out. Posted a longer version on r/despression and i might as well post here because i do think about ending my life a lot.
i'm and 18 year old college student. my family is abusive, i lost all my friends/the person i loved most, i'm constantly ill and I hate myself. The one positive in m... | 3.261785 | 3.822228 | 4.35734 | 90.053485 | 72.580247 | 6.878563 | 25.2211 | 6.574016 | 0.741598 | 596 | 17 | 133 | 4 | 11 | 195 | 98 | 162 | 0.168 | 0.69 | 0.141 | -0.7738 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 20 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 8 | 11 | 3 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 11 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 29 | 28 | 16 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 11 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 1 | 3 | 6 | 0 | 23 | 5 | 14 | 19 | 6 | 19 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 6 | 1 | 6 | 10 | 88 | 29 | 5 | 0 | 0.159436 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091508 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082029 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119011 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145415 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119183 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12172 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126855 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124402 | 0.210912 | 0 | 0 | 0.112866 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.265707 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090195 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.380185 | 0.065741 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146892 | 0.114401 | 0.121449 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142751 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129962 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141202 | 0 | 0.273551 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186579 | 0.117496 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.386624 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112501 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178796 | 0.172446 | 0 | 0.106828 | 0 | 0 | 0.127551 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146367 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158738 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120989 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097964 | 0 | 0.137132 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086655 |
suicidewatch | demone-ventosa | 2019/01/16 | Feel like I'm ceasing to exist. I feel like I'm going insane. Every negative thought trancends into horrible, crippling mental pain that forces me into embarrassing, over reactive messes. I'm a tornado spiralling out of control and I honestly see no reason to carry on.
I'm like half of a human, I can't respond proper... | 3.632222 | 5.341051 | 5.488333 | 77.878889 | 73.107143 | 8.192063 | 28.515873 | 8.841846 | 2.509372 | 448 | 18 | 80 | 9 | 9 | 154 | 70 | 112 | 0.127 | 0.755 | 0.118 | 0.0258 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 23 | 19 | 6 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 12 | 6 | 15 | 15 | 0 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 52 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.210648 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.223336 | 0.158985 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.223989 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167772 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187718 | 0 | 0.302051 | 0.426766 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153844 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113168 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.38913 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.200672 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.195101 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151444 | 0.211883 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.204734 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158677 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149718 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158083 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158056 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141453 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | yungdarko666 | 2019/01/16 | I can’t live with myself or this life I’ve done disgusting things just to feel validated. I’ve degraded myself and tricked myself into thinking it’s healthy. It’s not. I can’t live with myself. I can’t live with the memories. The abuse. The abandonment. The fights. The illness. I just want someone to pull the pain out ... | -1.068493 | 1.012799 | 0.966667 | 99.80823 | 98.491525 | 4.317137 | 16.725047 | 6.139982 | -0.466623 | 428 | 12 | 102 | 5 | 18 | 140 | 65 | 118 | 0.252 | 0.607 | 0.141 | -0.9209 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 18 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 10 | 3 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 10 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 22 | 20 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 8 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 16 | 2 | 12 | 19 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 67 | 25 | 0 | 0 | 0.195581 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112253 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163705 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154318 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183356 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1683 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181322 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168924 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170562 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.250393 | 0.117926 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110643 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181437 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116594 | 0.080645 | 0 | 0.43728 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.223712 | 0 | 0.351293 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181198 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.279727 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132677 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109665 | 0.10577 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194725 | 0.131025 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180478 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Sororities | 2019/01/16 | Cry for help (lengthy) My first post on Reddit; don’t really use reddit that much but I might now. This post is basically asking for any advice I can get on curing depression and wanting to end my life. As a child I was happy and was happy until the beginning of High school, it’s been a year since I graduated high scho... | 1.542645 | 3.526726 | 3.506284 | 88.52115 | 80.042254 | 6.317316 | 21.145402 | 7.399635 | 0.660314 | 1,338 | 38 | 286 | 19 | 34 | 452 | 192 | 355 | 0.176 | 0.626 | 0.198 | 0.7105 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 28 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 14 | 21 | 1 | 1 | 18 | 0 | 25 | 10 | 5 | 2 | 4 | 55 | 58 | 25 | 2 | 14 | 15 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 18 | 13 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 10 | 7 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 3 | 35 | 14 | 45 | 45 | 7 | 42 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 21 | 0 | 7 | 21 | 183 | 53 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0.08191 | 0 | 0 | 0.082022 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134248 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05708 | 0 | 0 | 0.094824 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069073 | 0.074721 | 0.078469 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.051167 | 0 | 0.071424 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171158 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184401 | 0 | 0 | 0.072294 | 0 | 0.087113 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148686 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075925 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084882 | 0.059964 | 0 | 0 | 0.076716 | 0.071396 | 0 | 0 | 0.064849 | 0 | 0.13156 | 0 | 0 | 0.070402 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178704 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099465 | 0.056261 | 0.26605 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083294 | 0.149213 | 0 | 0 | 0.092259 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.237147 | 0.123021 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089043 | 0 | 0 | 0.066997 | 0 | 0.123406 | 0 | 0.064737 | 0 | 0.089267 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.25535 | 0.089314 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14658 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160776 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083959 | 0 | 0.053772 | 0 | 0.082877 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084035 | 0.339793 | 0 | 0.076413 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069433 | 0 | 0.167994 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09396 | 0 | 0 | 0.067032 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091813 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077277 | 0 | 0 | 0.055764 | 0.053783 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072494 | 0 | 0 | 0.297047 | 0.066625 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193046 | 0.080912 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171077 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108105 |
suicidewatch | ded-mate | 2019/01/16 | It feels like it’s all my Fault. I feel like I’ve lost my best friend like I started working and it’s pushed her away Idk if it’s my own doing or they are just struggling and they won’t let me in but it’s making me feel like shit she’s one of the only reasons I’m still alive and if I lose her I just feeel soo alone and... | -1.379078 | 0.563714 | 0.855071 | 102.884167 | 93.042553 | 3.984397 | 13.507092 | 5.461319 | -1.339806 | 483 | 8 | 126 | 3 | 18 | 160 | 75 | 141 | 0.222 | 0.614 | 0.164 | -0.9225 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 10 | 18 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 35 | 22 | 15 | 1 | 6 | 17 | 0 | 5 | 7 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 21 | 9 | 8 | 17 | 3 | 9 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 5 | 2 | 4 | 9 | 78 | 33 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145194 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.263425 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14712 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.35442 | 0.400605 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10831 | 0.129603 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155099 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143353 | 0 | 0.479426 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156836 | 0.153033 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187155 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094996 | 0.10662 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089809 | 0.144138 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119721 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146248 | 0 | 0.143902 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099227 | 0 | 0.111955 | 0 | 0 | 0.146556 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093136 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095179 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082687 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.204119 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | LimitedInterest | 2019/01/16 | No options left. I’m done. I’m in 10th grade and mentally ill. I’m an ugly girl who isn’t smart. I have ADD and depression, anxiety, but I know I have more but nobody will even give me the tone of day. Therapy is shit and it’s all the same. I’m failing classes. Nobody is sympathetic. I’m a lazy peice of shit who wants ... | -1.817838 | 0.065276 | 1.328432 | 98.718595 | 95.756757 | 4.761802 | 16.409009 | 6.427356 | -0.425738 | 375 | 10 | 96 | 5 | 15 | 132 | 67 | 111 | 0.282 | 0.59 | 0.128 | -0.9684 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 8 | 2 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 14 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 19 | 27 | 9 | 1 | 5 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 8 | 3 | 9 | 23 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 58 | 12 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157638 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169573 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132894 | 0 | 0.177483 | 0 | 0.213862 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.210875 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.272207 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.225939 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197675 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.204668 | 0 | 0 | 0.220596 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113247 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.223889 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.207664 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151481 | 0.152794 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.423044 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180109 | 0 | 0.235652 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.364626 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | doggodanno | 2019/01/16 | Just need to vent Some of this may be triggering to some people please dont read this if you think you can't handle it. I guess I just want someone to know my story even if its a stranger on the internet.
I'm 20 yr old male and I live in the UK. My mother was and is a heroin addict, an alcoholic, violent, has severe p... | 4.173922 | 4.868785 | 4.968685 | 86.00569 | 70.586402 | 7.930314 | 27.757797 | 8.018071 | 1.597662 | 4,080 | 136 | 854 | 52 | 71 | 1,323 | 434 | 1,059 | 0.145 | 0.772 | 0.083 | -0.9969 | 5 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 107 | 2 | 5 | 6 | 7 | 37 | 47 | 6 | 3 | 57 | 0 | 81 | 32 | 7 | 8 | 5 | 164 | 174 | 77 | 3 | 25 | 28 | 16 | 8 | 3 | 2 | 5 | 17 | 9 | 3 | 5 | 31 | 68 | 5 | 3 | 23 | 9 | 4 | 23 | 20 | 27 | 1 | 6 | 51 | 21 | 149 | 20 | 131 | 104 | 23 | 131 | 5 | 7 | 4 | 5 | 89 | 47 | 2 | 24 | 58 | 577 | 180 | 7 | 0 | 0.11098 | 0.045703 | 0.102111 | 0 | 0 | 0.041515 | 0.100102 | 0.046897 | 0 | 0 | 0.074906 | 0.038969 | 0 | 0 | 0.063697 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092893 | 0.032747 | 0 | 0.03854 | 0.041692 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108037 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105531 | 0 | 0.041421 | 0.05113 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053565 | 0.0955 | 0 | 0.049544 | 0.040343 | 0.049104 | 0.050611 | 0 | 0.186964 | 0 | 0.102889 | 0.120815 | 0.048283 | 0 | 0 | 0.097212 | 0.097862 | 0 | 0.095872 | 0.040984 | 0.047927 | 0.109777 | 0 | 0.054312 | 0 | 0.039123 | 0 | 0.082961 | 0.096783 | 0 | 0.061866 | 0 | 0.039459 | 0.044752 | 0.042091 | 0 | 0.044151 | 0 | 0.118402 | 0.033458 | 0.044968 | 0 | 0.08561 | 0.039837 | 0.056631 | 0 | 0.036184 | 0 | 0.122343 | 0.044927 | 0.212933 | 0 | 0.187286 | 0 | 0.051593 | 0 | 0.041415 | 0.049855 | 0.041954 | 0 | 0.09613 | 0 | 0.052785 | 0 | 0.031392 | 0 | 0.140934 | 0.093033 | 0.092243 | 0.05404 | 0 | 0 | 0.101177 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077216 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10177 | 0.047891 | 0.19848 | 0.068642 | 0 | 0.16542 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079633 | 0.126808 | 0.08863 | 0.031262 | 0 | 0.047051 | 0 | 0.156065 | 0.04718 | 0 | 0 | 0.047289 | 0 | 0.037382 | 0.099553 | 0.068856 | 0.10418 | 0.036121 | 0 | 0.049808 | 0.175801 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.049144 | 0 | 0.063471 | 0.071238 | 0.099669 | 0 | 0 | 0.050716 | 0.044708 | 0.064937 | 0.040893 | 0.048931 | 0.051409 | 0 | 0.105596 | 0 | 0 | 0.050495 | 0.044813 | 0 | 0.094161 | 0 | 0 | 0.140539 | 0 | 0 | 0.096306 | 0 | 0.050282 | 0 | 0 | 0.133649 | 0.037244 | 0 | 0 | 0.03732 | 0.127907 | 0 | 0.158726 | 0 | 0.038741 | 0 | 0.046867 | 0.047741 | 0.079364 | 0 | 0.04632 | 0.052426 | 0.132596 | 0.049918 | 0.037401 | 0.117465 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.051228 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.211278 | 0 | 0.040935 | 0.043118 | 0 | 0 | 0.031114 | 0.060018 | 0 | 0.037181 | 0.081927 | 0 | 0 | 0.044752 | 0 | 0.095391 | 0.050942 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.040449 | 0.103161 | 0 | 0.110495 | 0.074349 | 0 | 0 | 0.042109 | 0.08683 | 0 | 0 | 0.053856 | 0 | 0.050789 | 0 | 0 | 0.047727 | 0.033269 | 0.051205 | 0 | 0.030159 |
suicidewatch | shundnc | 2019/01/16 | I want to kill myself Let me die in peace
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suicidewatch | bobcat243 | 2019/01/16 | i want to die if i told you what was happening to me nobody would believe me
i feel like im being watched at all times
because i am
please stay away from conspiracy boards
you dont know whos watching
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suicidewatch | wretchmane | 2019/01/16 | If I get kicked out of my house im ending my life. 17 year old high school senior, failed classes last term so now im getting kicked out of school, my dad will be VERY unhappy with me as he has told me im one fuck up away and im outta the house due to a series of poor life choices..
My report card comes in soon. He's ... | 0.372476 | 1.598638 | 2.670476 | 96.69619 | 80.809524 | 6.190476 | 18.333333 | 6.937598 | -0.187667 | 356 | 7 | 92 | 4 | 9 | 122 | 71 | 105 | 0.128 | 0.821 | 0.051 | -0.8491 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 12 | 15 | 7 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 12 | 2 | 14 | 8 | 2 | 20 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 7 | 1 | 1 | 12 | 45 | 12 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135377 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146909 | 0 | 0 | 0.12412 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115044 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.255241 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135835 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157843 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133208 | 0.150561 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152238 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.332519 | 0 | 0 | 0.622565 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117452 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.203549 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096181 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138258 | 0 | 0.151197 | 0 | 0.097639 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.291652 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135802 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137684 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118889 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092789 |
suicidewatch | DapperPolicy | 2019/01/16 | I couldn't go through with it.. I couldn't do it.. I couldn't kill myself. I hate myself. I'm a complete loser. I can't even do this right. I just feel so lost.
I'm just so done with life. I don't like anything about myself. I don't see anything that I can offer to anyone. | -2.52871 | -0.846994 | 0.340903 | 103.661355 | 103.83871 | 2.48 | 12.651613 | 3.1291 | -1.796908 | 208 | 4 | 53 | 0 | 10 | 71 | 34 | 62 | 0.157 | 0.719 | 0.124 | -0.1938 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 10 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 17 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 12 | 1 | 5 | 12 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 37 | 16 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.20311 | 0 | 0.478079 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.304562 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.297261 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191859 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146875 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165086 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.286788 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.321372 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.205174 | 0.141913 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.317092 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.248068 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.231474 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | PlatinumVolt | 2019/01/16 | I'm ready to jump off a cliff I can't take this anymore. I've been living a lie for the past 5 years. Nobody I know actually knows me. I just nod along to everything everyone says, but inside I'm screaming.
When I was about 12, I stopped believing in Judaism. But I'm Orthodox, so I spends like 5 hours a day learning g... | 1.795504 | 3.35913 | 3.799415 | 88.672122 | 77.743719 | 6.893408 | 23.263671 | 7.724431 | 0.955992 | 734 | 23 | 164 | 11 | 17 | 250 | 124 | 199 | 0.208 | 0.655 | 0.137 | -0.9517 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 24 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 1 | 12 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 29 | 33 | 10 | 1 | 2 | 7 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 5 | 18 | 3 | 19 | 24 | 3 | 19 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 0 | 3 | 11 | 89 | 30 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0.136492 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123986 | 0 | 0.140059 | 0 | 0 | 0.111853 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138713 | 0 | 0 | 0.1151 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157585 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154763 | 0 | 0.180408 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145162 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143135 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144522 | 0 | 0.184765 | 0 | 0 | 0.133651 | 0.125705 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070722 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111866 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125295 | 0 | 0.143546 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147779 | 0 | 0 | 0.275486 | 0 | 0 | 0.157895 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.230605 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068333 | 0 | 0.123507 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118912 | 0 | 0 | 0.186728 | 0 | 0.140517 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133521 | 0 | 0.122128 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.284594 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139907 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11123 | 0 | 0.141555 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157219 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116937 | 0 | 0 | 0.160117 | 0 | 0 | 0.26365 | 0 | 0.105164 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115407 | 0.082498 | 0 | 0.112195 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142539 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090071 |
suicidewatch | dollyskip | 2019/01/16 | Pregnant and suicide risk I'm 13 weeks pregnant today. I've gone to the hospital for thoughts of hurting myself and wanting to die...
It started at 6 weeks and kept growing. I have HG which diddnt allow me to eat anything and was in a constant state of dry heaving and puking so hard I would piss and crap myself. Overw... | 2.755311 | 4.965018 | 4.072919 | 84.834472 | 77.122449 | 7.526176 | 29.019521 | 8.456263 | 2.305268 | 981 | 45 | 192 | 20 | 23 | 322 | 139 | 245 | 0.225 | 0.7 | 0.074 | -0.9884 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 26 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 15 | 4 | 3 | 7 | 0 | 16 | 4 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 40 | 42 | 22 | 4 | 5 | 10 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 14 | 15 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 10 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 2 | 17 | 5 | 22 | 33 | 4 | 25 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 11 | 3 | 3 | 10 | 110 | 31 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0.229112 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.243162 | 0.388629 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159659 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082082 | 0 | 0.096602 | 0.104502 | 0 | 0 | 0.110292 | 0 | 0 | 0.07156 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126857 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.243665 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120119 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121295 | 0 | 0.15507 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059356 | 0.083864 | 0 | 0 | 0.107292 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108525 | 0.183995 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105159 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.314737 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125669 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114702 | 0 | 0.103658 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078359 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0937 | 0 | 0.086295 | 0.087043 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122648 | 0 | 0 | 0.13234 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117422 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117528 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099464 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083089 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.256812 | 0.133213 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093195 | 0.068451 | 0 | 0.111272 | 0 | 0 | 0.1594 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096859 | 0.13848 | 0.093179 | 0.188327 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083391 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | GGRIDE | 2019/01/16 | I just dont see the point anymore. I been suicidal for almost as long as I can remember, I'm a lonely college student, I don't really trust my. "Friends" I barely hang with them and I don't trust their motives (before anyone calls me paranoid I have very good reasoning behind this) I don't really have... | 2.177249 | 4.088689 | 4.29347 | 83.99149 | 77.73494 | 7.800161 | 25.524498 | 8.648137 | 1.882214 | 637 | 24 | 132 | 14 | 15 | 219 | 96 | 166 | 0.193 | 0.685 | 0.122 | -0.9176 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 21 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 7 | 11 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 17 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 28 | 34 | 9 | 1 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 11 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 24 | 8 | 16 | 29 | 4 | 12 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 7 | 7 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 86 | 29 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162304 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110223 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.321488 | 0.113333 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.275844 | 0 | 0 | 0.14335 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165506 | 0 | 0.165256 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189962 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125226 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135949 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143331 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.321973 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.267232 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114485 | 0 | 0 | 0.143123 | 0.14344 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162836 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119151 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109833 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153222 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.207671 | 0.16665 | 0 | 0 | 0.18361 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.258321 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177294 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103857 | 0 | 0.257354 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133737 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Le_Docteur | 2019/01/16 | I don’t want to live without her So I posted this in r/Breakups a little while ago. This is my story:
I don’t really know where to begin. I suppose at the beginning . About two years ago I (25M) started dating a girl (23) with a kid. A young kid (6 months). I was there when she first crawled. I was there for her first... | 0.59781 | 2.622709 | 2.745647 | 92.483734 | 83.663774 | 6.010864 | 19.365555 | 7.251919 | 0.329493 | 1,686 | 45 | 383 | 25 | 48 | 570 | 207 | 461 | 0.052 | 0.821 | 0.127 | 0.9808 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 77 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 19 | 18 | 1 | 0 | 25 | 0 | 40 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 73 | 89 | 27 | 1 | 5 | 16 | 4 | 7 | 3 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 10 | 25 | 22 | 0 | 2 | 19 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 20 | 6 | 0 | 9 | 25 | 12 | 62 | 12 | 54 | 57 | 12 | 62 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 4 | 56 | 15 | 0 | 5 | 43 | 266 | 87 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076192 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138421 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053095 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054593 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132875 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079725 | 0.089299 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.201769 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100706 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130446 | 0 | 0.069153 | 0.080674 | 0 | 0 | 0.070625 | 0.065783 | 0.149212 | 0 | 0 | 0.073604 | 0 | 0.236868 | 0.167334 | 0.074966 | 0 | 0 | 0.265649 | 0 | 0 | 0.120644 | 0 | 0.040792 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069398 | 0 | 0 | 0.085818 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084831 | 0.079839 | 0 | 0.114433 | 0.078254 | 0.20683 | 0 | 0 | 0.174696 | 0.17046 | 0 | 0.28187 | 0 | 0.052117 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186961 | 0 | 0.057395 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083036 | 0 | 0 | 0.074917 | 0 | 0.081929 | 0.083149 | 0.105814 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054129 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074776 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083044 | 0 | 0 | 0.050018 | 0 | 0 | 0.083825 | 0 | 0 | 0.074269 | 0.12418 | 0 | 0 | 0.124434 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132309 | 0 | 0.07722 | 0 | 0.055263 | 0 | 0.062352 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085403 | 0 | 0.147173 | 0 | 0 | 0.062755 | 0.068243 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100057 | 0 | 0.123969 | 0.045527 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15254 | 0.162562 | 0.093917 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184207 | 0 | 0.125257 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.22579 | 0.084671 | 0 | 0 | 0.079567 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100558 |
suicidewatch | Charlificous | 2019/09/22 | Hate myself and my thoughts what can I do Don’t know if this is the right place for this but like what are ways I can vent or do something about my thoughts because I don’t know how to deal with them, I just end up hating myself and I overthink like everything and I honestly just think I’m not good enough or whatever, ... | 1.95489 | 3.781825 | 2.673663 | 95.740385 | 78.102564 | 5.995604 | 22.681319 | 6.86897 | 0.420009 | 295 | 9 | 67 | 3 | 7 | 92 | 49 | 78 | 0.113 | 0.686 | 0.201 | 0.8267 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 20 | 18 | 9 | 0 | 3 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 13 | 4 | 6 | 16 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 47 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150979 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131625 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.222608 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191244 | 0.223107 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194058 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181106 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.426359 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.289458 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.237332 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.210979 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160104 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.225594 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184397 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.332457 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138355 | 0 | 0.342838 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17139 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | iamthereforeithink3 | 2019/09/22 | It's too late, I'm going to do it tomorrow morning Nothing can stop me now, tomorrow at 05:30AM, Chilean hour, I'm going to kill myself with an insulin overdose. I hope Alejandra, my stuffed horse, gets a new home with lots of love
Goodbye everybody, it was nice to meet you | 4.16 | 5.52695 | 4.971296 | 83.465833 | 71.222222 | 8.362963 | 35.722222 | 8.841846 | 3.154422 | 216 | 12 | 42 | 4 | 4 | 70 | 44 | 54 | 0.078 | 0.727 | 0.195 | 0.7259 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 7 | 9 | 1 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 23 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156719 | 0 | 0.340954 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.300889 | 0.297933 | 0.295405 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.331867 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.338373 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.255019 | 0.27073 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.289708 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.287824 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.250784 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | FromBloomerToDoomer | 2019/09/22 | There always has to be one more thing. Beyond all my issues and things I'm going through including mildly want to no life myself, I'm now even more stressed out because I have to take on more hours and maybe a part time gig to help my mom, she needs like 15k or else she loses EVERYTHING. Like everything. She loses the ... | 3.436229 | 4.04 | 4.39376 | 89.792374 | 72.209877 | 7.372391 | 26.76431 | 7.348243 | 1.150363 | 1,204 | 39 | 269 | 12 | 22 | 391 | 158 | 324 | 0.125 | 0.769 | 0.107 | -0.4425 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 24 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 13 | 19 | 3 | 2 | 12 | 0 | 33 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 46 | 54 | 28 | 2 | 12 | 12 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 14 | 15 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 7 | 3 | 11 | 12 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 3 | 40 | 7 | 37 | 43 | 11 | 31 | 0 | 7 | 1 | 2 | 24 | 14 | 2 | 10 | 12 | 190 | 54 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.252516 | 0.060997 | 0.063467 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117302 | 0 | 0.046497 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0609 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.268183 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063718 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100758 | 0 | 0 | 0.072884 | 0.342757 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069714 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141031 | 0 | 0.146341 | 0.043349 | 0 | 0 | 0.084094 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153377 | 0 | 0.07651 | 0.075759 | 0.075116 | 0.088012 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079612 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.041919 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.269378 | 0.074529 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.511996 | 0.083264 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153258 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089333 | 0 | 0 | 0.056071 | 0.056557 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.051686 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082599 | 0.072814 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.048864 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072555 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064628 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087373 | 0 | 0 | 0.083433 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05735 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101348 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.044477 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.051786 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179957 | 0.242176 | 0 | 0.092883 | 0 | 0 | 0.068827 | 0 | 0 | 0.147054 | 0 | 0 | 0.077461 | 0 | 0.108368 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Cheezyboi123 | 2019/09/22 | Tired My life is falling and I feel as if there is no where to go. My counselor told my parents of what I’ve done to myself and others yet no justice prevails. A girl left me and she was all that I lived for anymore and she left we were never dating she just left. I had to leave the rest of the friend group. It’s wors... | -0.316569 | 1.63283 | 1.420298 | 101.036949 | 86.874016 | 3.628571 | 16.945444 | 3.1291 | -1.143533 | 447 | 10 | 109 | 0 | 14 | 145 | 79 | 127 | 0.151 | 0.777 | 0.071 | -0.802 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 10 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 11 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 18 | 20 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 2 | 16 | 2 | 14 | 13 | 3 | 18 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 74 | 24 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.339207 | 0 | 0 | 0.140733 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175011 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172943 | 0.122175 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132128 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097193 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183078 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187974 | 0 | 0 | 0.181083 | 0.557434 | 0 | 0.120795 | 0.083551 | 0 | 0.151012 | 0.151345 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.263799 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189895 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173079 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109581 | 0 | 0 | 0.199444 | 0.19656 | 0 | 0.163415 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174282 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Ram_Soda | 2019/09/22 | I am a useless person who sits in their room playing games all day or goes out drinking with friends and doesn't get a job At least, that's what my family have told me. I spend my time endlessly applying for jobs whilst covered in flea bites due to their poor ability to take care of the household pets. And now I'm told... | 5.627508 | 5.538382 | 5.998204 | 82.634134 | 67.252427 | 9.585113 | 32.700647 | 9.299571 | 2.594781 | 404 | 16 | 86 | 7 | 6 | 130 | 74 | 103 | 0.084 | 0.77 | 0.146 | 0.6808 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 9 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 18 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 4 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 15 | 4 | 13 | 16 | 4 | 19 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 8 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 53 | 19 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.209677 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.240144 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151901 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.230735 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.222042 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181974 | 0 | 0.246115 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.23394 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.467465 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.205661 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.232563 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177093 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.274685 | 0 | 0 | 0.450129 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Silverrven | 2019/09/22 | I fight this everyday. I struggle with ending myself even failing on multiple attempts but I choose to keep fighting and yes some days it hard then others but I was given this life it may hard but tomorrow may hold something better. Lately though I feel as if I’m losing the fight I been fighting my whole life the reaso... | 2.243333 | 4.657847 | 3.235172 | 89.085402 | 80.034483 | 5.245977 | 23.45977 | 6.427356 | 0.716784 | 348 | 12 | 66 | 3 | 9 | 111 | 59 | 87 | 0.285 | 0.622 | 0.093 | -0.952 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 8 | 4 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 7 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 19 | 12 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 10 | 1 | 6 | 6 | 4 | 8 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 7 | 51 | 19 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.373107 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166367 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121315 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.333218 | 0 | 0 | 0.124244 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095114 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.337018 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1672 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.212195 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.265734 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.210446 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138282 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193408 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144816 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.196652 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184816 | 0 | 0 | 0.432408 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.210017 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | MazekaSpawn | 2019/09/22 | I’m hitting my limit. I shouldn’t even feel this way, by most standards I have a perfect life. I’m in my Associated Student Body and am already lined up to be one of the four officers next year, I’m in theater, I have a 4.0 GPA, I take accelerated classes, I have guaranteed admission into college as long as I keep up a... | 3.306827 | 4.228048 | 4.551395 | 87.36686 | 72.770764 | 7.659801 | 25.79402 | 7.979656 | 1.308557 | 2,267 | 71 | 494 | 31 | 43 | 749 | 257 | 602 | 0.11 | 0.72 | 0.17 | 0.9901 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 77 | 4 | 1 | 11 | 4 | 32 | 37 | 3 | 5 | 23 | 1 | 31 | 7 | 4 | 8 | 3 | 91 | 83 | 41 | 1 | 9 | 14 | 1 | 6 | 2 | 4 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 28 | 30 | 0 | 4 | 16 | 5 | 2 | 6 | 17 | 13 | 1 | 9 | 4 | 13 | 74 | 24 | 85 | 72 | 12 | 81 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 2 | 50 | 38 | 1 | 6 | 34 | 320 | 102 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143652 | 0.156152 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1365 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053562 | 0 | 0 | 0.074047 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079354 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071059 | 0.216893 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112134 | 0 | 0.140673 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083952 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056959 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057648 | 0 | 0 | 0.08598 | 0 | 0.109678 | 0.062194 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164551 | 0.046499 | 0.062494 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.201146 | 0.060172 | 0.068011 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064447 | 0.057557 | 0.207861 | 0 | 0 | 0.066799 | 0 | 0.073358 | 0 | 0 | 0.137537 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069678 | 0.073476 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057853 | 0 | 0 | 0.107311 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070718 | 0 | 0.045973 | 0.063597 | 0.065235 | 0 | 0.115201 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058744 | 0.123175 | 0.130339 | 0.065989 | 0.065389 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069048 | 0 | 0 | 0.051952 | 0 | 0.047847 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138443 | 0 | 0 | 0.062453 | 0 | 0 | 0.069316 | 0.35284 | 0.049502 | 0 | 0.076366 | 0.072272 | 0 | 0 | 0.225618 | 0.056832 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066217 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065431 | 0 | 0 | 0.065105 | 0 | 0.041697 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055584 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131744 | 0.103733 | 0.059253 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064373 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.051979 | 0.054416 | 0 | 0 | 0.07451 | 0.071195 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.048938 | 0.156945 | 0.056889 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125117 | 0 | 0 | 0.151812 | 0 | 0 | 0.062194 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078292 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.268733 | 0.206654 | 0 | 0 | 0.058522 | 0 | 0.117463 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.047385 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167657 |
suicidewatch | annon1313 | 2019/09/22 | I just cut myself for the first time in over a year. I want to keep going, but I feel disgusted. This just happened. I’m panicking, and don’t quite know who to go to or what to do rn, I wanna keep cutting but I know I shouldn’t so I guess I’m writing this instead. I am in therapy and I have a good S/O that’s very lovin... | -0.749821 | 1.245365 | 1.999771 | 95.729718 | 89.647482 | 5.384085 | 17.417048 | 6.850034 | -0.078085 | 972 | 25 | 234 | 14 | 33 | 337 | 126 | 278 | 0.24 | 0.612 | 0.147 | -0.9894 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 29 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 16 | 27 | 8 | 3 | 6 | 0 | 26 | 6 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 63 | 61 | 28 | 2 | 13 | 18 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 9 | 0 | 4 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 11 | 16 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 6 | 46 | 11 | 32 | 50 | 3 | 19 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 11 | 9 | 1 | 5 | 8 | 163 | 58 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082886 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126497 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107954 | 0 | 0 | 0.161007 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.308142 | 0.087074 | 0 | 0 | 0.1114 | 0.103675 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11268 | 0 | 0 | 0.13854 | 0.102231 | 0.097482 | 0 | 0.13427 | 0 | 0.107782 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125089 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13048 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.32501 | 0.134847 | 0.126924 | 0.334923 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172181 | 0.059547 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110006 | 0.11533 | 0.162718 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089599 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116353 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129639 | 0 | 0 | 0.078082 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097126 | 0 | 0.127152 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138313 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.319597 | 0 | 0.139386 | 0.141517 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071072 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100568 | 0.215672 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109589 | 0 | 0.109982 | 0 | 0 | 0.117492 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086583 | 0 | 0 | 0.156979 |
suicidewatch | sharingxn | 2019/09/22 | Anger I feel extreme anger and resentment towards every aspect of my life. Especially today. I wish I could just die so that these thoughts could go away. | 4.095238 | 7.06847 | 4.064286 | 82.547381 | 76.857143 | 6.590476 | 27.190476 | 7.793538 | 1.931248 | 124 | 5 | 21 | 2 | 3 | 38 | 24 | 28 | 0.382 | 0.538 | 0.08 | -0.9047 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 6 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 14 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.310629 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.527947 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.343132 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.278562 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167172 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187899 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.233527 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.262476 | 0 | 0 | 0.31339 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.380198 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Chep94 | 2019/09/22 | Sundays are the worst days I work Monday-Friday. I've thought about suicide enough that I've decided it would have to be done on the weekend. | 4.746429 | 6.025212 | 4.62 | 86.875 | 69.714286 | 7.028571 | 31.857143 | 7.168622 | 1.903657 | 114 | 5 | 22 | 1 | 2 | 35 | 24 | 28 | 0.281 | 0.719 | 0 | -0.8625 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 15 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.27773 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.440698 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.44497 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.471055 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.341883 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.313514 | 0 | 0 | 0.305917 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | OrdanCoal | 2019/09/22 | I'm a monster, hurt fiancé while on ludicrous amounts of dabs/wax, can't bare the shame much longer I don't feel like there's much to say, my fiance has said it all for me
[https://www.reddit.com/r/CaregiverSupport/comments/cnck5y/god\_help\_me\_im\_starting\_to\_hope\_he\_dies\_soon\_i/](https://www.reddit.com/r/Care... | 12.346519 | 12.3149 | 8.754608 | 68.199802 | 53.569191 | 9.943053 | 32.168339 | 8.689479 | 2.273128 | 1,927 | 46 | 315 | 18 | 19 | 535 | 185 | 383 | 0.144 | 0.76 | 0.095 | -0.9611 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 139 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 6 | 24 | 3 | 3 | 23 | 1 | 31 | 9 | 2 | 6 | 6 | 62 | 66 | 16 | 0 | 7 | 7 | 1 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 21 | 20 | 0 | 6 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 15 | 12 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 8 | 54 | 11 | 40 | 54 | 15 | 34 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 25 | 10 | 1 | 4 | 18 | 208 | 75 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077388 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178104 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071842 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106437 | 0 | 0 | 0.098359 | 0 | 0.077211 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.269049 | 0 | 0.075203 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095897 | 0.056302 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091212 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08934 | 0 | 0 | 0.101242 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083421 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176569 | 0.249473 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074259 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136835 | 0 | 0.198462 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154401 | 0 | 0 | 0.086192 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117033 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093458 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.232793 | 0 | 0 | 0.047979 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094854 | 0.089272 | 0 | 0.170605 | 0 | 0.154178 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078793 | 0.082607 | 0.058275 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092613 | 0 | 0 | 0.069683 | 0 | 0.256707 | 0.064733 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059158 | 0.066397 | 0.278686 | 0 | 0.096938 | 0 | 0 | 0.060524 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083611 | 0 | 0 | 0.083536 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098896 | 0 | 0.083044 | 0.138852 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098626 | 0.089614 | 0.144434 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123585 | 0.093052 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164562 | 0.09074 | 0.06564 | 0 | 0.076306 | 0 | 0 | 0.101364 | 0.115999 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.050906 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059272 | 0.094959 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102986 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127113 | 0 | 0.177936 | 0.124033 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Joker9515 | 2019/09/22 | Luck So much of this game comes down to luck. I understand that one's own actions affect the outcome, but luck pays such a big role in our existence, I'm amazed more people don't acknowledge it. Some people explain it away as religion, but I can't bring myself to buy into that.
At any rate, if my luck doesn't shift to... | 7.952865 | 5.662111 | 7.936938 | 77.788329 | 63.719101 | 11.147191 | 34.609551 | 9.516145 | 2.926661 | 345 | 11 | 71 | 5 | 4 | 112 | 68 | 89 | 0.096 | 0.731 | 0.173 | 0.8048 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 16 | 10 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 6 | 11 | 10 | 5 | 15 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 10 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 45 | 13 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.218729 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.302196 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.277068 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176768 | 0 | 0 | 0.340575 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.322373 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.236446 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.217955 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.445976 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.266068 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.218376 | 0 | 0 | 0.334844 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | ASHBASH897 | 2019/09/22 | Alone forever So I’m a 21 yo never been in a relationship but 2 weeks ago I met this girl and it felt real and just for second I wasn’t alone, and it’s not over yet but I can feel a shift in the vibe, just as I open up its over. Maybe I don’t deserve happiness.
Thanks for listening reddit | -0.483297 | 1.366204 | 2.372967 | 94.588462 | 86.692308 | 6.175824 | 16.978022 | 7.44753 | 0.048802 | 225 | 5 | 56 | 4 | 7 | 79 | 48 | 65 | 0.066 | 0.79 | 0.144 | 0.775 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 13 | 10 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 3 | 5 | 2 | 8 | 6 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 37 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.246513 | 0 | 0 | 0.576041 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140612 | 0 | 0.267013 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.296035 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.279382 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.214483 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.316531 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.298568 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.256031 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.22307 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | waldorfschueler | 2019/09/22 | I dont know I Feel Nothing C | -4.4775 | -3.329624 | 0.805 | 103.54 | 99 | 3.2 | 20.5 | 3.1291 | -0.7774 | 22 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 7 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.693991 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.299407 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.325428 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.56818 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | helpmemakeitlight | 2019/09/22 | Can someone please tell me why my life is worth living? I really need to hear it | 0.274706 | 2.508376 | 2.301471 | 93.701618 | 87.235294 | 5.752941 | 14.382353 | 7.168622 | -0.245565 | 63 | 1 | 14 | 1 | 2 | 21 | 17 | 17 | 0 | 0.769 | 0.231 | 0.4939 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.425685 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.266774 | 0 | 0 | 0.333508 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.280053 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.414591 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.241958 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.320016 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.330118 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.340807 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | helpmenose | 2019/09/22 | Hi I feel I don’t know if I’m suicide. I don’t want to be dying but I can’t live like this. I have anxiety ocd. My therapist thinks I’m mild depressed! I’m 20 and can’t do this, I can’t do this. I love my fam and don’t want to go but I can’t do this it’s too hard and I’m so upset | -4.509201 | -3.274477 | 0.109312 | 106.260872 | 104.810811 | 3.77199 | 12.132678 | 5.565023 | -1.531011 | 213 | 4 | 68 | 2 | 11 | 82 | 37 | 74 | 0.213 | 0.612 | 0.175 | -0.4294 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 23 | 7 | 2 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 10 | 2 | 2 | 22 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 37 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.238747 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.268801 | 0 | 0.323898 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157801 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177367 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.27957 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171516 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152471 | 0 | 0.27558 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.281672 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.341374 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.362359 | 0 | 0.199974 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.368156 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | MoistGrand | 2019/09/22 | I feel that I'm at the end of the road and I need advice Hi!
FYI I'm not about to kill myself today.
I'm going to try to keep this short, I feel like I have run out of options and my mind is becoming a real enemy. I have had toughts of suicide for a couple of years now, but the last year has been bad. The last coupl... | 1.622632 | 3.26643 | 3.264421 | 91.962947 | 78.473684 | 6.524912 | 18.768421 | 7.404128 | 0.206554 | 1,050 | 21 | 238 | 14 | 25 | 348 | 144 | 285 | 0.184 | 0.669 | 0.147 | -0.9241 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 38 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 6 | 19 | 5 | 0 | 19 | 1 | 27 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 41 | 48 | 11 | 4 | 7 | 8 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 17 | 11 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 3 | 11 | 1 | 2 | 17 | 4 | 33 | 8 | 42 | 25 | 2 | 43 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 7 | 12 | 2 | 3 | 27 | 161 | 50 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181953 | 0 | 0 | 0.093226 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155469 | 0 | 0.102822 | 0.079221 | 0 | 0.097703 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095066 | 0 | 0 | 0.095639 | 0 | 0 | 0.097614 | 0 | 0.10442 | 0.074333 | 0.206027 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080187 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082459 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094148 | 0.066511 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071929 | 0.08607 | 0 | 0 | 0.211644 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124806 | 0.098365 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082752 | 0.309005 | 0 | 0 | 0.303556 | 0 | 0.09858 | 0 | 0.095201 | 0 | 0.136452 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10163 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062145 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093789 | 0 | 0 | 0.188009 | 0 | 0.222935 | 0 | 0 | 0.138065 | 0 | 0 | 0.099013 | 0.174736 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070807 | 0.099065 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105968 | 0.119285 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074037 | 0 | 0 | 0.074189 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077013 | 0.104648 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101836 | 0 | 0.087746 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106468 | 0.216193 | 0.123703 | 0 | 0 | 0.073911 | 0.054287 | 0 | 0.088248 | 0 | 0 | 0.189627 | 0 | 0.090945 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054913 | 0 | 0.224038 | 0 | 0.083708 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17986 |
suicidewatch | aatrexxx | 2019/09/22 | Hello When do I reach godhood? I've already realized my existence, I'm constantly waiting for ascension. I stand above all, I would wipe out all life in an instant if I had the means to do so. The world needs to conclude it's cycle so that we may be reborn anew. | 3.287778 | 4.438088 | 4.971296 | 83.465833 | 73.074074 | 8.362963 | 30.166667 | 8.841846 | 2.433867 | 206 | 9 | 42 | 4 | 4 | 70 | 44 | 54 | 0 | 0.977 | 0.023 | 0.0258 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 12 | 10 | 4 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 5 | 6 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 28 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.487434 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.477328 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.31199 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.481148 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.32752 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.313776 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Xontroller | 2019/09/22 | Name one reason i shouldn't do it I'm sitting on a railway right now
The train is arriving in about 30 minutes
I don't know why I do this, I don't want to but at the same time this feels...right.
So please, tell me one reason I shouldn't do it, just one, just f-ing one | -1.352074 | 0.394976 | 0.996544 | 103.693387 | 89.645161 | 4.188018 | 15.308756 | 5.288315 | -1.198763 | 206 | 4 | 56 | 1 | 7 | 69 | 40 | 62 | 0.022 | 0.913 | 0.066 | 0.5071 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 11 | 11 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 5 | 9 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 36 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12859 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.634209 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.256842 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.481145 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.399639 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.204511 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136437 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138009 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.211132 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | th0rin0akenshield | 2019/09/22 | i had sex and now i dont know im a transnb teen (junior) and ive always thought that im not ace and ive always wanted to have sex but then yesterday,, well i kind of did and now this entire day ive wanted to kill myself and i think im close to doing it.
there was no insertion, it was more heavy petting through the cl... | 0.382885 | 2.309452 | 2.470833 | 94.71375 | 83.807692 | 6.015385 | 20.967949 | 7.231254 | 0.456081 | 2,244 | 70 | 530 | 33 | 64 | 754 | 233 | 624 | 0.251 | 0.672 | 0.077 | -0.9991 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 41 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 2 | 35 | 42 | 10 | 9 | 18 | 2 | 66 | 17 | 4 | 3 | 8 | 103 | 112 | 56 | 3 | 14 | 20 | 3 | 16 | 6 | 2 | 1 | 6 | 2 | 2 | 5 | 35 | 33 | 1 | 1 | 26 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 15 | 28 | 1 | 1 | 28 | 22 | 95 | 14 | 66 | 81 | 17 | 52 | 3 | 1 | 4 | 7 | 40 | 21 | 3 | 8 | 33 | 361 | 130 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.044767 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076239 | 0 | 0 | 0.062308 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.045434 | 0 | 0 | 0.0377 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.035227 | 0.038252 | 0.167561 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.050015 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.04678 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.036578 | 0 | 0.100646 | 0.088636 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.047546 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.040091 | 0 | 0.429536 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090776 | 0 | 0 | 0.043776 | 0.12352 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.231642 | 0.032728 | 0.175949 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070789 | 0.042353 | 0.023935 | 0 | 0 | 0.038425 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.030707 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.049043 | 0 | 0.494854 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.050685 | 0.047707 | 0.10071 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.049775 | 0 | 0 | 0.13429 | 0 | 0.040453 | 0 | 0.115413 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.043349 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.046168 | 0 | 0 | 0.053655 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.035333 | 0 | 0 | 0.042992 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.034843 | 0.097496 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.031761 | 0.120005 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.029349 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.036432 | 0.321064 | 0.046365 | 0.036507 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.038817 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.032426 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052444 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.240253 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.030436 | 0.117419 | 0 | 0.03637 | 0 | 0 | 0.043425 | 0.043776 | 0 | 0.062207 | 0.049831 | 0.044752 | 0.047692 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.243193 | 0.036364 | 0 | 0 | 0.041191 | 0 | 0 | 0.102296 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.033352 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100178 | 0 | 0.029502 |
suicidewatch | enetnet | 2019/09/22 | I dont feel anything Im diagnosed bipolar. i dont like feeling any type of emotion its mentally exhausting. I dont care how i die, burn, drown, crushed, it means absolutely nothing to me the result is the same anyways. I fake my happiness, i fake my sorrow, i fake everything, im fake. Life is a scam. I dont care if i d... | 0.235333 | 2.340511 | 2.866667 | 90.54 | 85.888889 | 6.562963 | 23.814815 | 7.793538 | 1.32017 | 492 | 20 | 110 | 10 | 15 | 171 | 79 | 135 | 0.326 | 0.572 | 0.103 | -0.9806 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 22 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 15 | 3 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 11 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 23 | 23 | 6 | 4 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 23 | 6 | 9 | 21 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 66 | 28 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117417 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077096 | 0.118879 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093294 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.231177 | 0 | 0.119931 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115068 | 0.235321 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.664346 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127526 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.20378 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114647 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120685 | 0 | 0.223859 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07599 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.244919 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125427 | 0 | 0.124611 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160154 | 0.055387 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096383 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113896 | 0.123493 | 0 | 0 | 0.114251 | 0 | 0.114472 | 0 | 0 | 0.120495 | 0 | 0.168125 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108782 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | throw098766789 | 2019/09/22 | Feeling hopeless I feel like I need to talk to someone about what’s happening to me. I’m sorry for the spelling and I hope you can understand my English.
I have been thinking about suicide lately, honestly I can’t remember the last time suicide was not in my mind, a stroke would be the best thing that could happen to ... | 3.262937 | 3.630712 | 4.666588 | 88.535819 | 72.465608 | 7.952762 | 23.850159 | 7.976526 | 0.964493 | 1,375 | 33 | 317 | 18 | 25 | 460 | 180 | 378 | 0.142 | 0.707 | 0.151 | 0.6097 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 28 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 9 | 16 | 27 | 3 | 3 | 21 | 0 | 28 | 10 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 67 | 69 | 27 | 2 | 11 | 6 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 22 | 24 | 1 | 1 | 15 | 5 | 3 | 4 | 8 | 12 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 6 | 55 | 16 | 49 | 47 | 9 | 44 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 3 | 18 | 16 | 4 | 4 | 25 | 220 | 77 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135602 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061166 | 0.063643 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053481 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071505 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063863 | 0.046626 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160536 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155967 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061068 | 0.084631 | 0 | 0.098655 | 0 | 0.065878 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078265 | 0 | 0 | 0.067745 | 0 | 0 | 0.050519 | 0 | 0.064443 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14421 | 0 | 0.116022 | 0.054642 | 0.073439 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059094 | 0 | 0.079922 | 0 | 0.130408 | 0 | 0.061173 | 0.084327 | 0 | 0 | 0.202911 | 0 | 0.068517 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153445 | 0.075969 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067985 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124694 | 0.172561 | 0.080988 | 0 | 0 | 0.10805 | 0.037368 | 0.07666 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065026 | 0.138065 | 0 | 0.102111 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07723 | 0 | 0.061051 | 0 | 0.112453 | 0.056714 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.051829 | 0 | 0.081387 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072305 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082466 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085683 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.195998 | 0 | 0 | 0.082118 | 0.086645 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078513 | 0 | 0.085974 | 0.076542 | 0 | 0.129614 | 0 | 0 | 0.085621 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087615 | 0.079961 | 0 | 0.167328 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184432 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101629 | 0.294058 | 0 | 0.060722 | 0.223 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079625 | 0 | 0.06606 | 0 | 0 | 0.135342 | 0 | 0.122706 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.207052 | 0 | 0 | 0.073731 | 0 | 0.278416 | 0 | 0.077947 | 0.217336 | 0 | 0 | 0.049255 |
suicidewatch | bigbean93 | 2019/09/22 | thirst and hunger If this goes as planned I'll only have a couple weeks left at most | -0.636667 | 1.480753 | -0.138889 | 106.745 | 101.222222 | 2.4 | 11.555556 | 3.1291 | -2.057911 | 68 | 1 | 16 | 0 | 3 | 20 | 18 | 18 | 0.118 | 0.882 | 0 | -0.25 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.58102 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.57053 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.399367 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.421209 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | please-poiuy | 2019/09/22 | I’m 15, I think I’m done after two days. I have been Sexual abused, physical abused and emotional abused from my parents. I have got borderline personality disorder, paranoia personality disorder, ocd, depression and anxiety. Me being suicidal everyday. I just can’t function with it. And the traumas makes it worse. Sch... | 2.399194 | 5.291819 | 4.180887 | 78.891331 | 85.344086 | 8.691398 | 26.02957 | 9.075115 | 3.000047 | 394 | 17 | 71 | 13 | 12 | 132 | 58 | 93 | 0.361 | 0.56 | 0.079 | -0.9829 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 19 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 14 | 22 | 5 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 9 | 1 | 5 | 14 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 40 | 13 | 1 | 0 | 0.546827 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159332 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117688 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198429 | 0 | 0.132503 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.352629 | 0 | 0 | 0.157432 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17305 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118857 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12304 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103116 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135844 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13079 | 0 | 0 | 0.10269 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170822 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.268655 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155695 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108889 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168277 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19715 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.30056 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090739 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156777 | 0.109284 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Tough_Astronaut | 2019/09/22 | I'm an entitled man-child, I literally don't have any issues, I just don't want to fucking work and exist anymore I literally have no issues, aside from being a little lonely and feeling misunderstood. I constantly seek attention online under different accounts, but never actually get help for some stupid reason. I gue... | 8.441353 | 6.833539 | 8.893578 | 69.148603 | 62.254902 | 12.107843 | 38.112745 | 11.038039 | 4.173922 | 1,042 | 43 | 190 | 23 | 12 | 350 | 139 | 255 | 0.25 | 0.688 | 0.062 | -0.9927 | 7 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 26 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 13 | 11 | 5 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 19 | 5 | 2 | 2 | 3 | 50 | 48 | 17 | 1 | 10 | 9 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 13 | 8 | 1 | 4 | 10 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 9 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 25 | 2 | 29 | 42 | 5 | 23 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 11 | 10 | 2 | 9 | 11 | 124 | 38 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0.101797 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083421 | 0.086799 | 0 | 0 | 0.070938 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103453 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098008 | 0 | 0 | 0.12718 | 0 | 0.088765 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.225457 | 0 | 0.083288 | 0 | 0 | 0.067275 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108988 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0689 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052745 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192877 | 0.163502 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083431 | 0 | 0.114916 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10299 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123615 | 0.139841 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.217757 | 0.207035 | 0.185441 | 0.11541 | 0 | 0.057329 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104552 | 0.092113 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080455 | 0 | 0.110941 | 0 | 0 | 0.100094 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.347491 | 0.112964 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099906 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066827 | 0.107254 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17817 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094965 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088386 | 0 | 0 | 0.233546 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087213 | 0 | 0 | 0.119417 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066841 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108596 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.430697 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151886 | 0.105938 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067176 |
suicidewatch | runaway-writer | 2019/09/22 | Not Yet As I sheepishly frolic through my failures, I relish in the denial and the quiet. In the bubble of my days, in the ever so tiny winks the universe and I seem to share. A communal understanding of what is, and its impossibility simultaneously anointing and overthrowing all delusion of grandeur and control. The p... | 7.177414 | 8.820777 | 7.256379 | 68.864052 | 64.344828 | 10.972414 | 36.913793 | 10.9516 | 4.534314 | 526 | 26 | 86 | 15 | 8 | 169 | 71 | 116 | 0.143 | 0.765 | 0.092 | -0.8225 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 16 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 24 | 6 | 14 | 2 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 1 | 20 | 6 | 2 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 68 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.289132 | 0 | 0 | 0.376459 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.216466 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.297285 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.303614 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.305562 | 0.350155 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.349422 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.276945 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.363997 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | HE11H0UND | 2019/09/22 | Down the depths of despair I have been doing relatively well for the past 3 years, I havn’t been super happy but I got by, I had 3 years of not wanting to kill myself everyday. It was so much work to get there, but it was nice.
Nothings changed. Except slowly the feeling has been creeping back, slowly itching it’s wa... | 1.439601 | 3.520885 | 3.555723 | 87.529342 | 80.900826 | 6.016804 | 22.480028 | 7.168622 | 0.837958 | 458 | 15 | 94 | 6 | 12 | 156 | 82 | 121 | 0.182 | 0.69 | 0.128 | -0.7967 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 10 | 9 | 3 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 12 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 15 | 26 | 8 | 1 | 2 | 8 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 3 | 8 | 4 | 14 | 16 | 2 | 15 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 2 | 1 | 6 | 67 | 16 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146725 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16237 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.201857 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126032 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171492 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096482 | 0 | 0 | 0.209029 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099693 | 0.183047 | 0.216889 | 0 | 0.152612 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.203126 | 0.341866 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.211109 | 0 | 0.104867 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.195122 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140271 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183092 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182155 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.195869 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.286939 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112548 | 0.15146 | 0 | 0 | 0.171566 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.277832 | 0 | 0.194457 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.245758 |
suicidewatch | Bobbis2011 | 2019/09/22 | I’m so tired of every fucking thing I’ve failed so many times it makes me want to give up trying. Now I have two children and I feel like shit for wanting to, but I’m so tired of trying to fight. I went manic and destroyed my family last year. I’m still in love with my ex and mother of my children, but she’s moved on. ... | 1.265065 | 2.727176 | 2.828669 | 95.499536 | 78.954751 | 5.557609 | 21.58633 | 6.059677 | 0.016995 | 792 | 22 | 188 | 5 | 19 | 260 | 116 | 221 | 0.173 | 0.737 | 0.089 | -0.9677 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 12 | 17 | 9 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 11 | 13 | 7 | 2 | 4 | 34 | 39 | 17 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 3 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 12 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 5 | 27 | 5 | 30 | 35 | 6 | 28 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 4 | 13 | 10 | 5 | 1 | 17 | 118 | 36 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0.122269 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124258 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076378 | 0 | 0 | 0.141164 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107916 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113336 | 0.105566 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118116 | 0 | 0.190058 | 0.17902 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.347497 | 0.065461 | 0.120194 | 0.071208 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128588 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130475 | 0 | 0.204263 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122425 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113083 | 0.118556 | 0.083635 | 0.127029 | 0 | 0 | 0.139174 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133168 | 0 | 0.092904 | 0 | 0 | 0.133252 | 0 | 0 | 0.120223 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080267 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125441 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.257225 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.266052 | 0 | 0.10006 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16648 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07306 | 0.288015 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170133 | 0.136284 | 0.122394 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.295607 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116149 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091216 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080685 |
suicidewatch | shhitkidd | 2019/09/22 | typing my thoughts into the void to feel less alone things are getting rough again. been battling various mental illnesses for 9 years now, no point in going into why i am the way i am, because it doesnt really matter - what matters is im here and im hurting.
im on medication, i go to therapy, i recently moved in with ... | 2.447308 | 3.456521 | 4.510599 | 86.506875 | 74.947137 | 7.808137 | 26.5688 | 8.313333 | 1.621731 | 1,658 | 60 | 367 | 28 | 34 | 573 | 209 | 454 | 0.197 | 0.632 | 0.171 | -0.9436 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 40 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 23 | 33 | 3 | 1 | 15 | 2 | 36 | 12 | 2 | 6 | 9 | 81 | 76 | 32 | 3 | 7 | 9 | 2 | 11 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 22 | 27 | 0 | 2 | 15 | 3 | 0 | 10 | 13 | 14 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 11 | 59 | 18 | 46 | 65 | 17 | 60 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 14 | 22 | 0 | 8 | 28 | 244 | 81 | 6 | 0.053405 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110623 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.036317 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105927 | 0 | 0 | 0.043948 | 0 | 0 | 0.060756 | 0 | 0 | 0.089182 | 0.06511 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056045 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058663 | 0.241092 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.25036 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060073 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10582 | 0.048308 | 0.134988 | 0.051031 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.243028 | 0.076305 | 0 | 0 | 0.146433 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.04126 | 0 | 0.111607 | 0 | 0.212459 | 0.044793 | 0 | 0 | 0.058831 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.04784 | 0 | 0.054809 | 0 | 0 | 0.063285 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.212172 | 0 | 0 | 0.114342 | 0 | 0.634551 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059085 | 0 | 0.0587 | 0.043532 | 0 | 0.056548 | 0 | 0 | 0.075443 | 0.052182 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.045403 | 0.0964 | 0 | 0.142593 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0538 | 0.05382 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.042627 | 0.056761 | 0.117776 | 0.039599 | 0.041189 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072377 | 0 | 0.056827 | 0.062659 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.037024 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.050485 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060786 | 0.034213 | 0 | 0.052731 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060332 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0378 | 0 | 0 | 0.089298 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116833 | 0.060603 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.046678 | 0 | 0.061073 | 0 | 0.03548 | 0 | 0.05247 | 0.042398 | 0.031141 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088129 | 0.0315 | 0.04239 | 0.042838 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.04819 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.038879 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068782 |
suicidewatch | userthatneedslove | 2019/09/22 | Suicidal thought lately Hi I might need some help
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I recently started thinking "I'll just kill myself and finish that" but not in the sad depressing kind,but kind of like "I will shock them with my non-exitence
little about myself, 26 after 3 years of millitary service (never been in a gun fight in my li... | 3.214987 | 5.054209 | 4.568935 | 83.488074 | 74.525526 | 6.919305 | 26.907872 | 7.709487 | 1.612645 | 1,322 | 50 | 254 | 18 | 28 | 438 | 190 | 333 | 0.173 | 0.653 | 0.174 | 0.0366 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 36 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 7 | 26 | 4 | 1 | 16 | 0 | 28 | 9 | 1 | 8 | 3 | 56 | 55 | 17 | 3 | 5 | 10 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 17 | 18 | 1 | 1 | 8 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 14 | 10 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 6 | 44 | 16 | 29 | 43 | 6 | 26 | 1 | 3 | 4 | 3 | 17 | 9 | 0 | 5 | 20 | 168 | 61 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100321 | 0.112506 | 0.062964 | 0.097088 | 0 | 0.1046 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056442 | 0 | 0.078787 | 0 | 0 | 0.163776 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095115 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159494 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.325543 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061154 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093632 | 0.066146 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145123 | 0 | 0 | 0.155319 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183356 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062061 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106836 | 0 | 0 | 0.100013 | 0 | 0.091881 | 0 | 0.204873 | 0.192835 | 0 | 0 | 0.104445 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.326994 | 0.226173 | 0.092799 | 0 | 0 | 0.233256 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167131 | 0.175221 | 0.123608 | 0 | 0 | 0.100857 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098223 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068654 | 0.142821 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090718 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062741 | 0.070418 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088387 | 0.06419 | 0.080846 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182842 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073782 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092656 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.196606 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101278 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118655 | 0 | 0.073506 | 0.05399 | 0 | 0 | 0.088473 | 0 | 0.062862 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109223 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085831 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067406 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112506 | 0.119249 |
suicidewatch | trashcandogoodthings | 2019/09/22 | Could someone (gently) proofread my suicide note? I am winding down my final days here. I would like it if someone would agree to proofread my suicide note. I don't quite know what you're proofreading it for, but maybe you can tell me about what it's missing. It feels like it's missing something. Could someone plea... | 2.547857 | 4.760767 | 2.833571 | 93.448929 | 77.809524 | 4.67619 | 27.166667 | 5.148861 | 0.66441 | 334 | 14 | 67 | 1 | 8 | 102 | 53 | 84 | 0.122 | 0.725 | 0.153 | 0.4234 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 11 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 14 | 3 | 2 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 3 | 9 | 9 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 46 | 21 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.308325 | 0 | 0 | 0.124524 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09763 | 0.13794 | 0 | 0.211515 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106114 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188663 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19398 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.209092 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.211949 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.20537 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.490801 | 0.148646 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.422407 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155194 | 0.168765 | 0.177767 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.274324 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | yamburdon | 2019/09/22 | i feel no hapiness and cant think straight. never had a will to live but it gets worse every day. ive been majorly depressed and suicidal for as long as i can remember and i can never get over it. i litterally cant even think straight and cant get work because of my mental issues i have nothing. im lonely as shit and h... | 3.400714 | 4.345255 | 5.603333 | 79.825 | 72.571429 | 8.139683 | 33.047619 | 8.515129 | 2.699371 | 477 | 24 | 95 | 8 | 9 | 168 | 81 | 126 | 0.282 | 0.677 | 0.041 | -0.9884 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 18 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 19 | 27 | 12 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 15 | 22 | 1 | 13 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 64 | 12 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133444 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197703 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10458 | 0 | 0.139668 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107105 | 0 | 0.136627 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081993 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149915 | 0.254166 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183059 | 0.525483 | 0.169253 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143191 | 0.143507 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163419 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.250136 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155597 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155305 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183696 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166455 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.354754 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.207812 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118055 | 0 | 0.165255 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | fake-feelings | 2019/09/22 | Anyone else thought about planning one last good day before going through with it? I'm in a very tough situation with all aspects of my life at the moment. I had a breakdown and quit the only job I've ever had, my lease is up in a month and I can't find another place at the moment, much less afford to pay rent and put ... | 4.847885 | 4.531518 | 5.800982 | 84.162287 | 68.910714 | 8.678022 | 28.614698 | 8.13951 | 1.711342 | 1,680 | 51 | 361 | 20 | 26 | 557 | 203 | 448 | 0.152 | 0.763 | 0.085 | -0.9818 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 29 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 17 | 21 | 1 | 2 | 22 | 0 | 33 | 4 | 0 | 3 | 7 | 75 | 66 | 32 | 2 | 6 | 11 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 24 | 32 | 0 | 0 | 15 | 0 | 4 | 10 | 11 | 12 | 0 | 5 | 18 | 5 | 53 | 9 | 66 | 47 | 9 | 62 | 0 | 7 | 2 | 2 | 40 | 20 | 0 | 7 | 30 | 256 | 77 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075897 | 0 | 0 | 0.060976 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076841 | 0.05606 | 0 | 0 | 0.204959 | 0.15017 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112697 | 0 | 0.089343 | 0 | 0.311783 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080004 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074715 | 0 | 0.077521 | 0.189375 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.18904 | 0.226648 | 0.126233 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074992 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122434 | 0 | 0.194715 | 0 | 0 | 0.048401 | 0.265147 | 0.061742 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074106 | 0 | 0 | 0.080276 | 0.066977 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124942 | 0.122929 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.217679 | 0 | 0.078009 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073507 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078449 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07272 | 0 | 0.081074 | 0 | 0 | 0.179201 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05176 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079995 | 0 | 0.132278 | 0 | 0.097831 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058492 | 0.155772 | 0.05387 | 0.054337 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070315 | 0 | 0.076896 | 0 | 0.198628 | 0.055733 | 0.077976 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076563 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073668 | 0.082091 | 0.077943 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075345 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058276 | 0 | 0 | 0.116791 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082371 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056415 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080157 | 0 | 0.069066 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.048685 | 0.093911 | 0.071998 | 0.116354 | 0.042731 | 0 | 0 | 0.070023 | 0 | 0.149259 | 0 | 0.071585 | 0 | 0.176296 | 0 | 0 | 0.060464 | 0.172892 | 0.116334 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081815 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052057 | 0 | 0 | 0.04719 |
suicidewatch | jvsatterwhite | 2019/09/22 | Another pathetic goodbye. I have nothing left. She's the only reason I fight. I keep going everyday for her sake. It's not enough anymore. I'm holding her back.
She turned 21 yesterday. I turned 35 five months ago. We've been together for over four years.
That's right. At 30, I started shaping and forming a 17 year ... | 2.096004 | 3.830108 | 3.308947 | 91.765782 | 77.384146 | 6.392291 | 21.834385 | 7.238636 | 0.562349 | 6,195 | 170 | 1,353 | 74 | 143 | 2,005 | 552 | 1,640 | 0.097 | 0.796 | 0.107 | 0.9723 | 8 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 247 | 1 | 31 | 8 | 13 | 68 | 73 | 16 | 1 | 76 | 2 | 127 | 36 | 11 | 13 | 28 | 197 | 250 | 84 | 1 | 24 | 32 | 7 | 4 | 6 | 1 | 22 | 8 | 4 | 4 | 11 | 71 | 61 | 5 | 7 | 19 | 7 | 19 | 32 | 47 | 35 | 1 | 17 | 67 | 15 | 216 | 38 | 181 | 142 | 33 | 248 | 0 | 10 | 6 | 14 | 119 | 93 | 9 | 22 | 125 | 854 | 287 | 15 | 0 | 0.036184 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108284 | 0 | 0.214063 | 0.094888 | 0 | 0.024422 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062303 | 0.128091 | 0.023362 | 0 | 0.030286 | 0.064061 | 0 | 0.125655 | 0.081559 | 0 | 0 | 0.086077 | 0.164378 | 0 | 0.037233 | 0 | 0.051973 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.033922 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.034928 | 0 | 0 | 0.032306 | 0.052613 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121914 | 0 | 0 | 0.019695 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.031907 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062504 | 0 | 0.029917 | 0 | 0.062498 | 0.025511 | 0 | 0.027048 | 0.12622 | 0 | 0.060512 | 0.055249 | 0.154382 | 0.145907 | 0.192125 | 0 | 0.028789 | 0 | 0.030883 | 0.021817 | 0.029322 | 0.066908 | 0.055824 | 0.103906 | 0 | 0.066969 | 0.023594 | 0.19763 | 0.111687 | 0.029296 | 0.017356 | 0.025615 | 0.024425 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.027006 | 0.065019 | 0 | 0.030151 | 0.031342 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.02047 | 0 | 0.030633 | 0.030332 | 0.150374 | 0.281903 | 0.065385 | 0 | 0 | 0.095624 | 0.06061 | 0.027144 | 0.033787 | 0.031802 | 0.067134 | 0.07468 | 0 | 0.032336 | 0.199084 | 0 | 0.086282 | 0.089519 | 0 | 0.080899 | 0 | 0.025645 | 0 | 0.033337 | 0 | 0.137813 | 0.08669 | 0.101925 | 0 | 0 | 0.033266 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12188 | 0 | 0.089799 | 0.022644 | 0.188428 | 0 | 0.097436 | 0 | 0 | 0.087909 | 0 | 0.064091 | 0.065046 | 0.041388 | 0.069679 | 0 | 0 | 0.06782 | 0 | 0 | 0.042344 | 0.079996 | 0 | 0.033523 | 0.086608 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.029222 | 0 | 0.0614 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10428 | 0.039128 | 0.031399 | 0 | 0 | 0.034595 | 0.10432 | 0 | 0 | 0.030575 | 0 | 0.097342 | 0 | 0.031859 | 0 | 0.031348 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.025876 | 0 | 0 | 0.034186 | 0.129694 | 0 | 0.073165 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.034655 | 0.086348 | 0 | 0.160731 | 0 | 0.026692 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.040577 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124653 | 0 | 0.057895 | 0 | 0.10179 | 0.041468 | 0.132871 | 0 | 0.095376 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075594 | 0.036025 | 0 | 0.07349 | 0 | 0.027458 | 0 | 0.055113 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111164 | 0 | 0 | 0.065082 | 0.03339 | 0 | 0.275325 |
suicidewatch | DeniseReades | 2019/09/22 | I regret... I regret adopting my puppy; he really interferes with my suicide plans. Am I stuck here now until he dies? | 1.718939 | 4.485769 | 4.433636 | 76.337121 | 88.545455 | 6.569697 | 20.969697 | 7.793538 | 1.797952 | 91 | 3 | 14 | 2 | 3 | 32 | 17 | 22 | 0.368 | 0.632 | 0 | -0.8519 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 10 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.633491 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.391033 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.66767 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | you-wish_you-knew | 2019/09/22 | I still don't understand why I feel this way. I've been having more suicidal thoughts within the last year and I do know that I have loving friends and family. But...here's a T.M.I...around the week before or the week of my period..that is when I notice the feeling of not being wanted, or I take things that I normally ... | 3.729004 | 4.341991 | 5.23794 | 83.971346 | 71.548077 | 9.01978 | 26.395604 | 9.236283 | 1.95296 | 783 | 24 | 168 | 16 | 14 | 265 | 107 | 208 | 0.132 | 0.761 | 0.107 | -0.4685 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 37 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 8 | 2 | 1 | 11 | 0 | 23 | 4 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 44 | 51 | 12 | 1 | 11 | 9 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 12 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 16 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 7 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 9 | 30 | 5 | 19 | 42 | 3 | 23 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 6 | 0 | 3 | 13 | 120 | 42 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.231447 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099468 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123402 | 0.095078 | 0 | 0 | 0.09882 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105334 | 0 | 0.451972 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086326 | 0 | 0.058377 | 0 | 0.127003 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114672 | 0 | 0 | 0.132406 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11088 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.18422 | 0.091079 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078922 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100845 | 0 | 0.074584 | 0 | 0.112253 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1657 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109476 | 0 | 0.127211 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107011 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127179 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089038 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.341699 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089232 | 0 | 0.127992 | 0 | 0 | 0.12222 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084011 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074232 | 0 | 0 | 0.35482 | 0.130307 | 0 | 0.105912 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109149 | 0.11632 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197712 | 0.08869 | 0.179254 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100823 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081344 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071954 |
suicidewatch | anonymousventin | 2019/09/22 | Downard Spiral, thinking of commiting myself to the hospital again I really don’t know what to do. My social life is good, I have been with my friends, I’ve met a girl and it’s going good, I know my goals, my hobbies and I practiced the self help and healthy attitudes for a while now. But since a month nothing can hel... | 2.779511 | 4.934231 | 3.800519 | 87.083117 | 76.815126 | 7.016348 | 27.624905 | 8.000946 | 1.858926 | 475 | 20 | 93 | 8 | 11 | 153 | 82 | 119 | 0.131 | 0.732 | 0.137 | 0.4033 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 16 | 18 | 11 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 14 | 3 | 12 | 15 | 2 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 62 | 17 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.211909 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156522 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157329 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176249 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183886 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158077 | 0 | 0.106898 | 0 | 0.116282 | 0.343226 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.274285 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.224891 | 0 | 0 | 0.216647 | 0 | 0 | 0.144518 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206194 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163314 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.196324 | 0 | 0 | 0.217897 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131075 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.207071 | 0.163044 | 0 | 0.213447 | 0 | 0 | 0.169251 | 0 | 0 | 0.208569 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.223805 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131103 | 0 | 0.162433 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162406 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | InDaNameOfJeezus | 2019/09/22 | It's been a full month of disasters for me and I feel like I'm reaching the end of the rope... I'm writing with tears in my eyes, I'm afraid to leave people behind me but every man has a limit and I feel like I've reached mine. I'm surrounded by good people that don't seem to realize that no, it won't get better with t... | 0.65684 | 1.76928 | 2.665443 | 97.523874 | 79.733945 | 5.945362 | 18.533129 | 6.427356 | -0.364518 | 371 | 7 | 96 | 3 | 9 | 125 | 68 | 109 | 0.19 | 0.679 | 0.131 | -0.7043 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 7 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 16 | 18 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 7 | 4 | 17 | 15 | 1 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 52 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.210187 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198845 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144997 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.199133 | 0 | 0 | 0.148499 | 0 | 0.18943 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.227363 | 0.321239 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117465 | 0 | 0 | 0.188578 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150699 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.238064 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.219682 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179458 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152351 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.311739 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192004 | 0 | 0 | 0.225095 | 0 | 0 | 0.409355 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131101 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152645 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132611 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | catherinemadsTA | 2019/09/22 | Just need to get it all out I’m in so much pain but nobody can know. It’s due to my own stupid mistakes so I Know I deserve it. In the last 2 and a half years I’ve lost so much. My partner and I have grown apart and half the time I wish we had never gotten married. I’ve lost my only child. Been diagnosed with a major m... | 0.601111 | 2.865828 | 2.430138 | 93.174938 | 85.878981 | 5.399717 | 19.231776 | 6.816662 | 0.215235 | 1,178 | 33 | 255 | 15 | 36 | 389 | 159 | 314 | 0.191 | 0.673 | 0.136 | -0.9597 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 39 | 1 | 0 | 11 | 5 | 15 | 19 | 2 | 0 | 15 | 0 | 20 | 8 | 2 | 5 | 3 | 47 | 54 | 24 | 1 | 6 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 11 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 3 | 1 | 3 | 6 | 11 | 0 | 2 | 19 | 5 | 45 | 8 | 32 | 30 | 8 | 33 | 0 | 6 | 3 | 3 | 25 | 12 | 0 | 1 | 17 | 162 | 56 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083958 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070553 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0948 | 0 | 0 | 0.184526 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089239 | 0 | 0.112079 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115405 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161123 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102413 | 0.10472 | 0 | 0.115642 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089369 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096416 | 0.090684 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052717 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103554 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100218 | 0 | 0 | 0.108017 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100129 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.277264 | 0.164497 | 0 | 0.213681 | 0 | 0 | 0.07127 | 0 | 0.10113 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.220292 | 0 | 0.182135 | 0.095476 | 0 | 0 | 0.202738 | 0 | 0.112079 | 0 | 0.101685 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.222523 | 0.074817 | 0.155643 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.230221 | 0.107366 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088103 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100929 | 0.114848 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191961 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080406 | 0 | 0.105262 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113418 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107548 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088192 | 0.092897 | 0 | 0 | 0.067035 | 0.064654 | 0 | 0 | 0.058837 | 0 | 0 | 0.096416 | 0 | 0.137011 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174293 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116032 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.324887 |
suicidewatch | whatimustdo | 2019/09/22 | i want to die and i have gun I'm going to make it short
mother and sisters try to killme
no one belive a man could be damage by a woman
i cannot sue a woman in mexico and i couldnt get protection
i had to prostitute me
i had to eat bread every day
i couldnt get a job
so in conclusion, no police no family no fri... | -0.713604 | 0.979235 | 2.875438 | 91.5903 | 86.402597 | 6.447403 | 14.819805 | 7.645422 | -0.010895 | 260 | 4 | 63 | 5 | 8 | 96 | 50 | 77 | 0.234 | 0.666 | 0.1 | -0.8591 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 8 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 9 | 14 | 4 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 8 | 2 | 9 | 8 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 41 | 10 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.259229 | 0 | 0 | 0.209391 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.336965 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.332227 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.273556 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.306078 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.250846 | 0 | 0.339262 | 0 | 0.184522 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.322193 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.216725 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.22001 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.220435 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191504 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | phLogistinatr | 2019/09/22 | I’m here for you I just wanted to post here to say if you ever need help or want to talk, then I’m open | -0.618846 | -0.211047 | 2.187692 | 102.532308 | 81.692308 | 5.2 | 13 | 3.1291 | -1.719862 | 79 | 0 | 24 | 0 | 2 | 28 | 19 | 26 | 0 | 0.84 | 0.16 | 0.4588 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 14 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.389095 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.288321 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.318951 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.411965 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.342073 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.345738 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.507427 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | CitizenBell | 2019/09/22 | Ideation ended up in making a noose tonight. Or trying too. Or experimenting with putting the belt around the shower rail. Even though I had no real intention of killing myself, I did put my head in and let it choke me a bit and possibly hoped I’d slip and accidentally end up hanging myself.
I feel like I’m too sensit... | 4.32979 | 4.978254 | 5.084665 | 85.481845 | 70.208577 | 7.906639 | 28.148664 | 7.928767 | 1.576135 | 1,984 | 67 | 419 | 24 | 34 | 643 | 227 | 513 | 0.126 | 0.711 | 0.163 | 0.9565 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 43 | 3 | 0 | 7 | 5 | 42 | 33 | 4 | 2 | 23 | 0 | 33 | 6 | 2 | 7 | 4 | 93 | 81 | 44 | 1 | 7 | 13 | 1 | 9 | 4 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 24 | 38 | 1 | 2 | 17 | 3 | 3 | 6 | 9 | 14 | 0 | 2 | 27 | 12 | 71 | 19 | 63 | 48 | 14 | 71 | 0 | 6 | 3 | 3 | 38 | 21 | 1 | 7 | 47 | 299 | 95 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064091 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059498 | 0.064364 | 0 | 0 | 0.06793 | 0.111191 | 0 | 0.176298 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075876 | 0 | 0.15787 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147433 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057727 | 0 | 0.07942 | 0.046629 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.384228 | 0.149414 | 0 | 0.047755 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070725 | 0 | 0 | 0.292464 | 0.20661 | 0.069421 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079275 | 0.167581 | 0 | 0.226649 | 0 | 0 | 0.121287 | 0.115653 | 0.079713 | 0 | 0 | 0.063936 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074203 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.048462 | 0 | 0.072525 | 0.071812 | 0.071203 | 0 | 0.077401 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079991 | 0 | 0.079471 | 0 | 0 | 0.076557 | 0 | 0.147867 | 0 | 0.141292 | 0 | 0 | 0.12797 | 0.121431 | 0.161775 | 0 | 0.061469 | 0.065255 | 0 | 0.048262 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057711 | 0 | 0.159451 | 0 | 0.055764 | 0 | 0 | 0.06785 | 0 | 0.138751 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097987 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10025 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08151 | 0 | 0.073557 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145367 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082295 | 0.046318 | 0 | 0.071389 | 0.077625 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072387 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055662 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05774 | 0 | 0 | 0.075586 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063195 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.048034 | 0 | 0.071036 | 0.229599 | 0 | 0.0831 | 0 | 0.069088 | 0 | 0.098177 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127937 | 0.05739 | 0.115993 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105273 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079051 | 0 | 0.04656 |
suicidewatch | DeckerHarlow | 2019/09/22 | no one would care if i did it, no one would care. my two best friends ive known for over 5 years deserted me and my last best friend is slowly doing the same. im such a burden i deserve it anyway. im failing all my classes yet again and im in a meaningless relationship that i dont have the heart to break off. i just wa... | -0.19839 | 1.854543 | 2.172574 | 95.120492 | 87.417722 | 5.030098 | 17.638537 | 6.427356 | -0.255204 | 565 | 14 | 132 | 6 | 18 | 192 | 95 | 158 | 0.155 | 0.713 | 0.132 | -0.7742 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 8 | 13 | 2 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 21 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 30 | 32 | 10 | 2 | 7 | 5 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 5 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 3 | 21 | 8 | 11 | 23 | 5 | 16 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 96 | 29 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113732 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095753 | 0 | 0.126655 | 0 | 0 | 0.2407 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.350773 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073959 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.403214 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075745 | 0.103735 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115972 | 0.081928 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177204 | 0 | 0.059916 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135897 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.495498 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126877 | 0 | 0.063025 | 0.09348 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056027 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176897 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110039 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155421 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127339 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130531 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123124 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091385 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094865 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133153 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112026 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202924 | 0 | 0.09199 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162931 | 0 | 0 | 0.07385 |
suicidewatch | Rabid-Wolf | 2019/09/22 | Need Help i would like to ask what advise would you a 21 old who is in college doing art degree cos his parents wants him to complete it but hes not learning anything here they are just teaching him to be a factory worker in some animation company he wants to leave college and learn but his mother asked him to do this ... | 2.471101 | 4.518678 | 3.60045 | 88.663243 | 77.348624 | 6.194862 | 24.661468 | 7.168622 | 1.009957 | 427 | 15 | 87 | 5 | 10 | 138 | 74 | 109 | 0.197 | 0.751 | 0.052 | -0.9683 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 7 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 13 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 22 | 21 | 8 | 1 | 6 | 7 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 13 | 2 | 14 | 16 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 24 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 60 | 20 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0.199779 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168469 | 0 | 0.382775 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.214647 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176327 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202707 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137221 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.226495 | 0 | 0.11251 | 0 | 0 | 0.216771 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100017 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.446957 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151799 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.214822 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.22732 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13115 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164548 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138993 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.241501 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.290858 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | peace_pizza_and_kiah | 2019/09/22 | Can I go to a police station to stop me harming myself? I've got really bad suicidal urges and my drunk dad is downstairs so I don't wanna call an ambulance. Can I turn up at a police station and say I need help? | 1.316957 | 2.844982 | 4.286304 | 84.814674 | 79 | 7.208696 | 24.543478 | 8.076483 | 1.513452 | 166 | 6 | 35 | 3 | 4 | 60 | 36 | 46 | 0.331 | 0.617 | 0.052 | -0.9375 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 8 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 5 | 7 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 22 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.298524 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.36508 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.203194 | 0 | 0.285951 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.239646 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.265106 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.229044 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.284324 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.298913 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.391082 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.388892 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | throwmeaway83829293 | 2019/09/22 | I tried everything that was suggested, NOTHING FUCKING worked I tried therapy I tried talking to people going through the same shit I tried telling the teachers principles adults I've tried everything I'm still getting fucking bullied harassed 24/7 im still being shit at everything at life I have literally no way throu... | 4.020077 | 7.339473 | 4.128631 | 78.901665 | 82.73494 | 7.355531 | 34.051479 | 8.296473 | 3.598166 | 382 | 22 | 59 | 9 | 11 | 118 | 56 | 83 | 0.287 | 0.713 | 0 | -0.9771 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 7 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 13 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 7 | 10 | 2 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 3 | 4 | 1 | 3 | 35 | 10 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134661 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.409928 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.281115 | 0.079434 | 0 | 0.086407 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150107 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171633 | 0.164228 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083557 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.214779 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165968 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145885 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105405 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.312132 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128822 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.242837 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122203 | 0.132889 | 0 | 0.17387 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.516122 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120681 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110686 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | claus200 | 2019/09/22 | Suicide by pills + alcohol. How much would it take by taking a lot of dissolved pills in water then drink alcohol? When I say a lot, I mean really a lot. It will hurt like hell but that's what I want to do. | -0.392667 | 1.556531 | 2.342222 | 94.3 | 87.222222 | 6.266667 | 17.888889 | 7.554174 | 0.311356 | 158 | 4 | 38 | 3 | 5 | 55 | 35 | 45 | 0.18 | 0.745 | 0.075 | -0.6757 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 7 | 4 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 5 | 5 | 4 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 26 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.472096 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.216373 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.236451 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107908 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.563339 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.240597 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162368 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141498 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175648 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.241601 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.332141 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130278 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156903 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | lxstsea | 2019/09/22 | idk i’m sat here with the biggest urge to OD and idk what to do anymore | -1.664706 | 0.08726 | 0.913235 | 103.654559 | 91.352941 | 3.4 | 20.264706 | 3.1291 | -0.813212 | 56 | 2 | 15 | 0 | 2 | 19 | 15 | 17 | 0.167 | 0.833 | 0 | -0.2023 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | TuxSupreme | 2019/09/22 | i fucking hate myself and am really at my last straw i just fucking hate myself. how i look how i feel just everything about me. ive been diagnosed with anxiety disorder and low self esteem. i feel incredibly lonely, having barely any friends in real life. and whatever friends i do have arent supportive whatsoever. cal... | 2.886949 | 5.602334 | 4.581008 | 78.57288 | 79.792079 | 8.029163 | 26.013501 | 8.841846 | 2.58723 | 423 | 17 | 73 | 11 | 11 | 142 | 71 | 101 | 0.238 | 0.599 | 0.163 | -0.8033 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 13 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 10 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 17 | 21 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 7 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 4 | 17 | 6 | 10 | 19 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 3 | 7 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 53 | 18 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11436 | 0 | 0.128648 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138388 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.343436 | 0 | 0.171458 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144843 | 0.170687 | 0 | 0 | 0.192735 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151138 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.255092 | 0.120139 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.259852 | 0.310937 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.332062 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112719 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137079 | 0 | 0 | 0.182715 | 0 | 0.118782 | 0.082158 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141219 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151778 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.22791 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184598 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191412 | 0.107733 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175436 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190835 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09806 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | JosieTierney | 2019/09/22 | Someone to be with It’s probably a rule violation to ask if it’s ever possible to ask/find on this board... someo | 2.03625 | 3.538037 | 5.315 | 78.33 | 76.916667 | 9.8 | 28.666667 | 10.125757 | 3.123067 | 89 | 4 | 19 | 3 | 2 | 33 | 19 | 24 | 0.144 | 0.856 | 0 | -0.4939 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 12 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.648963 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.313962 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.317233 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.391291 | 0 | 0 | 0.374221 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.294088 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | KingsleyGoyle1 | 2019/09/22 | Poison Hemlock seed How many seeds need someone to ingest before death occurs? | 5.37 | 9.046562 | 4.191154 | 76.591346 | 85.153846 | 2.6 | 21.884615 | 3.1291 | 0.446415 | 65 | 2 | 7 | 0 | 2 | 19 | 13 | 13 | 0.402 | 0.598 | 0 | -0.8126 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.48968 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.583433 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.426701 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.487591 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Bojangalenes | 2019/09/22 | If i fail at almost everything i do, should i kill myself right now? Yes or No? | -1.973137 | -0.269673 | 1.196471 | 96.577451 | 106.647059 | 4.619608 | 11.54902 | 6.427356 | -0.719298 | 60 | 1 | 14 | 1 | 3 | 21 | 15 | 17 | 0.459 | 0.426 | 0.115 | -0.8426 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 11 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.516152 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.463256 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.570272 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.440194 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | someguy4996 | 2019/09/22 | Might end it now Made this account just to post this. Everyone in my life has left me. I'm so lonely. My own mother has been screaming for years that she never wanted me and that I should leave and not come back. I have had suicidal thoughts for the last few years until I met an amazing person. I gave away all my love ... | 2.219976 | 4.399488 | 3.357081 | 89.452751 | 78.736842 | 6.601595 | 23.521531 | 7.686295 | 1.142274 | 447 | 15 | 91 | 7 | 11 | 144 | 78 | 114 | 0.165 | 0.732 | 0.104 | -0.7813 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 9 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 9 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 20 | 20 | 8 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 16 | 4 | 11 | 11 | 4 | 23 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 8 | 1 | 2 | 12 | 63 | 23 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14599 | 0.119482 | 0 | 0.094722 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158426 | 0 | 0 | 0.133851 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137625 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.296955 | 0 | 0 | 0.146484 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170217 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081183 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12666 | 0 | 0.329062 | 0.337654 | 0 | 0.219507 | 0 | 0.155737 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140242 | 0.14703 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.329679 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.239686 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149097 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.271353 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148816 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169967 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123359 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09165 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13971 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.200126 |
suicidewatch | Benja74 | 2019/09/22 | If I kill myself, would anyone care? If I don't do anything memorable in my life, what's the point? I feel like an obstacle to everyone in my life, so if I kill my self, would anyone really miss me? Am I really happy? Do I want to live? No, so why am I here. Do people care or am I an idiot for thinking people will miss... | -0.18578 | 1.555472 | 2.983521 | 91.285418 | 84.730337 | 6.202747 | 17.754057 | 7.38713 | 0.24022 | 308 | 7 | 72 | 5 | 9 | 111 | 53 | 89 | 0.253 | 0.552 | 0.194 | -0.7582 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 11 | 3 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 11 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 19 | 8 | 3 | 6 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 17 | 6 | 7 | 16 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 52 | 18 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.249074 | 0 | 0.146567 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.363185 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184848 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17019 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090057 | 0.12724 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137606 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189599 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.394099 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.251605 | 0.087014 | 0.178511 | 0.157272 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160749 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170899 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12069 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.246955 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168369 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.228201 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185805 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114124 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105053 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160714 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.253045 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Sahith17 | 2019/09/22 | Thinking of just ending it all Starting to apply for colleges and I did lie to my parents about my recent sat score cause I dropped and didn't want to disappoint them because we are Desi and should be getting high scores. I did study and practice. My dad saw my score and got all mad about me(understand) for lying but I... | 1.574809 | 3.669742 | 2.658672 | 94.066761 | 80.502347 | 5.183903 | 23.288397 | 6.182691 | 0.384313 | 811 | 28 | 175 | 6 | 21 | 258 | 115 | 213 | 0.221 | 0.698 | 0.081 | -0.9873 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 27 | 1 | 4 | 3 | 2 | 15 | 16 | 7 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 22 | 7 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 35 | 44 | 21 | 1 | 5 | 9 | 3 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 11 | 2 | 0 | 15 | 7 | 27 | 5 | 22 | 24 | 4 | 17 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 3 | 16 | 6 | 3 | 4 | 9 | 115 | 34 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122465 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150552 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126854 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109372 | 0 | 0.137719 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.342482 | 0.064516 | 0 | 0.14036 | 0.103574 | 0.296289 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109198 | 0 | 0.331857 | 0.121917 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13047 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122541 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.261665 | 0.060329 | 0 | 0.21808 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.261998 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090776 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137116 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121927 | 0 | 0 | 0.105456 | 0.234927 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098402 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087404 | 0 | 0.098616 | 0 | 0.141453 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107932 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158249 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083839 | 0 | 0 | 0.128553 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14567 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.222057 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179798 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | ImSurelyNotHuman | 2019/09/22 | 117 days i will probably delete this soon but i just need to say something to anyone. my 16th birthday is in 117 days and i really don’t want to live past then. since i was 13 years old i have attempted suicide 3 times through jumping off bridges, bleach and overdoses and none of them have been successful. i have been ... | 3.311226 | 4.660534 | 4.502941 | 86.070158 | 73.294118 | 8.760181 | 25.429864 | 9.265574 | 1.908814 | 657 | 21 | 141 | 15 | 13 | 216 | 102 | 170 | 0.105 | 0.728 | 0.168 | 0.9143 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 6 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 22 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 20 | 31 | 11 | 1 | 5 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 8 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 2 | 21 | 4 | 19 | 24 | 4 | 21 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 13 | 95 | 29 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197749 | 0 | 0.111228 | 0 | 0 | 0.101664 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187537 | 0 | 0.125229 | 0.147574 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137066 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082632 | 0.121951 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163872 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15565 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079906 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102698 | 0 | 0 | 0.256775 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137577 | 0 | 0.147409 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.213766 | 0.215619 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152569 | 0 | 0.098524 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.277594 | 0.100799 | 0.126954 | 0.151908 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14792 | 0.313523 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186289 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115625 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.240546 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111933 | 0 | 0.162759 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15904 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096595 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169563 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085758 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167198 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187261 |
suicidewatch | Redsfan800 | 2019/09/22 | I want to kill myself I don’t want to fight my own brain for the rest of my life, honestly what’s the fucking point in fighting depression and anxiety and shit if I just get like a fucking week at best feeling happy and working on my confidence only to have it all reset when I make one little mistake or fucking anythin... | 5.952308 | 4.693649 | 6.538077 | 82.919423 | 66.948718 | 9.167521 | 33.175214 | 7.793538 | 2.193434 | 438 | 16 | 94 | 4 | 6 | 144 | 71 | 117 | 0.285 | 0.542 | 0.173 | -0.964 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 19 | 12 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 6 | 10 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 23 | 23 | 7 | 3 | 8 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 14 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 14 | 5 | 15 | 22 | 6 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 4 | 5 | 7 | 2 | 5 | 64 | 20 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084516 | 0 | 0.095075 | 0 | 0.123254 | 0 | 0 | 0.102273 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130426 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138739 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128129 | 0.107043 | 0 | 0.257969 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128416 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06284 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.689377 | 0.064932 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1323 | 0 | 0.122702 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137499 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175567 | 0.060718 | 0.124563 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165918 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084216 | 0.094522 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117486 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127573 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.366522 | 0 | 0.099691 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090478 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | iLeen96 | 2019/09/22 | I‘m done I dont even know what to say here. Everything is just too much. I guess thats my last try to get help before i do something that cant be undone. I dont wanna live anymore and rn i‘m planning everything out to end it. | 1.3992 | 2.529289 | 3.445 | 92.6275 | 77.8 | 6.6 | 22.5 | 7.168622 | 0.5392 | 176 | 5 | 42 | 2 | 4 | 60 | 38 | 50 | 0 | 0.938 | 0.062 | 0.4019 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 12 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 5 | 10 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 27 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.229896 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197255 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.237225 | 0.543365 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.205317 | 0 | 0 | 0.15311 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.416676 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121112 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.255368 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155379 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127398 | 0.188958 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.204695 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170409 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184347 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178461 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157385 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | 95girl | 2019/09/22 | I need a concrete solution out of this https://www.reddit.com/r/raisedbynarcissists/comments/d7es3a/feeling_replaced_and_heartbroken_did_it_happen_to/?utm_source=share&utm_medium=ios_app
Not just due to above reason: I was abused my whole life and easily third wheeled by people no matter what I tried.
The concept... | 9.983357 | 12.968141 | 6.723036 | 70.238839 | 59.095238 | 6.77381 | 26.458333 | 7.168622 | 1.232262 | 554 | 14 | 82 | 4 | 8 | 153 | 73 | 105 | 0.126 | 0.72 | 0.154 | 0.296 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 29 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 21 | 13 | 8 | 1 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 2 | 13 | 6 | 12 | 10 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 58 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 0.246439 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.225361 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145434 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126791 | 0 | 0 | 0.234338 | 0 | 0.183954 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.212064 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.228471 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.215865 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108668 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146912 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138838 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.30845 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.281884 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.288394 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.213852 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177626 | 0 | 0.165405 | 0 | 0 | 0.165744 | 0.18935 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166104 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197154 | 0 | 0 | 0.141214 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.232218 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | itsnotmesuperman | 2019/09/22 | Validation needed urgent This post is on behalf of my friend. She tried to choke herself with a thick towel tied to the curtain rod in the shower. Her intention was self harm. She choke for a second but the knot came off. Her feet was on the ground all the while. Would it validate as a suicide attempt? I have told her ... | 3.377107 | 5.611973 | 4.400826 | 83.103058 | 75.280992 | 7.375207 | 25.876033 | 8.296473 | 1.792547 | 496 | 18 | 94 | 9 | 11 | 161 | 85 | 121 | 0.208 | 0.647 | 0.145 | -0.9219 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 13 | 0 | 13 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 16 | 23 | 7 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 2 | 19 | 2 | 12 | 14 | 2 | 13 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 20 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 69 | 22 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190951 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.246375 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.242311 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166427 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122424 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.212676 | 0 | 0 | 0.242786 | 0 | 0.144387 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191469 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.240992 | 0.235149 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159726 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206306 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.449445 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.235627 | 0.244448 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.205836 | 0 | 0.146251 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186048 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153023 | 0 | 0 | 0.138719 |
suicidewatch | SadRat122 | 2019/09/22 | everything is garbage I dont get what's wrong with me I'm so miserable, I feel so disgusting and undeserving of love to where I resent it. I keep trying to get better only to fall into a deeper and worse feeling of hopelessness an meaninglessness every girl I've been with has cheated and lied to me even after hearing o... | 3.276618 | 5.625662 | 4.518456 | 81.591801 | 76.058824 | 7.073529 | 25.919118 | 8.076483 | 1.827382 | 350 | 13 | 63 | 6 | 8 | 115 | 62 | 85 | 0.299 | 0.523 | 0.177 | -0.9384 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 12 | 3 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 16 | 16 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 8 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 8 | 5 | 12 | 15 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 40 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.510334 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.225424 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127041 | 0 | 0.162057 | 0 | 0.172865 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.291763 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.200982 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.216784 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.341926 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173597 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146285 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183613 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16426 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175102 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.210392 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112157 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130588 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166122 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.196014 | 0 | 0.210297 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | livingloli | 2019/09/22 | ill be going now. to leave an impact. to be remembered. its selfish, but its true. i wanted to help people. thats all.
and i think i did that. i think i was able to do what i needed to. i hope i made a difference. my job is done now.
i feel myself changing and turning into a person i dont want to be. i dont want to ... | -2.112917 | -0.329767 | 1.722115 | 93.736506 | 103.040404 | 4.495202 | 14.268308 | 6.322622 | -0.39146 | 341 | 8 | 78 | 5 | 16 | 125 | 60 | 99 | 0.16 | 0.666 | 0.174 | 0.6595 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 17 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 11 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 16 | 25 | 5 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 15 | 3 | 10 | 17 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 56 | 21 | 1 | 0.172249 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120441 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146571 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182217 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179964 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176271 | 0.403749 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152562 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164591 | 0.154806 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087094 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.293679 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115455 | 0 | 0 | 0.171082 | 0 | 0 | 0.184396 | 0 | 0.186059 | 0 | 0.170931 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182387 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162986 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127721 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119416 | 0.150401 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.195125 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158584 | 0 | 0 | 0.114435 | 0.220741 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187358 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.304791 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | lily25252525 | 2019/09/22 | Fucking sick and tired of suffering Everyone posts all day on here about this but seriously, at my end. And I guess desperately needed to vent. | 5.902692 | 7.930285 | 6.726154 | 69.993846 | 67.846154 | 11.353846 | 32.230769 | 11.208143 | 4.254369 | 115 | 5 | 20 | 4 | 2 | 38 | 25 | 26 | 0.373 | 0.627 | 0 | -0.8714 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 13 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.244285 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.335491 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.361945 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.35018 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.417274 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.280864 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.362771 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.435357 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Supaderp57 | 2019/09/22 | Tired of the game of life Everything is a cycle, a repeat. Nothing will fully get better, no one will completely care. People will always remember then forget then move on. Nothing has ever gone right in these 18 years of my life why should I ever hope it will in the future? All I’ve been given is pain and more pain. I... | 2.533404 | 4.26226 | 3.554202 | 90.50875 | 76.12766 | 5.976596 | 19.196809 | 6.627428 | 0.063962 | 361 | 7 | 75 | 3 | 8 | 116 | 67 | 94 | 0.158 | 0.721 | 0.121 | -0.6002 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 14 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 14 | 22 | 5 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 11 | 10 | 2 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 51 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133554 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141954 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163646 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168287 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.290373 | 0.135233 | 0 | 0.144252 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083858 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159418 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177576 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.34011 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142043 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170592 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.308019 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108763 | 0 | 0.512368 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111275 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181822 | 0.137071 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146118 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184478 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144832 | 0 | 0.184574 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10336 |
suicidewatch | jazzoz | 2019/09/22 | Im so so tired Hi - i am writing this to vent as i cant go on for much longer. My story starts in february 2018 when i had a traumatic brain injury followed by another traumatic brain injury in june 2018. Then in the fall i started to notice that whenever i turned my head to the left side my neck would strain and i wou... | 5.2169 | 6.330585 | 5.919976 | 78.602538 | 68.475806 | 9.464326 | 31.926945 | 9.701315 | 3.063286 | 2,038 | 86 | 380 | 45 | 34 | 665 | 236 | 496 | 0.234 | 0.714 | 0.053 | -0.9985 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 43 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 17 | 27 | 5 | 2 | 33 | 0 | 34 | 27 | 14 | 0 | 1 | 65 | 81 | 41 | 4 | 8 | 17 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 12 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 15 | 22 | 0 | 5 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 6 | 22 | 2 | 0 | 25 | 11 | 62 | 5 | 58 | 44 | 9 | 77 | 0 | 9 | 3 | 1 | 20 | 35 | 0 | 10 | 27 | 257 | 77 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.051987 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112503 | 0.126168 | 0.105915 | 0.054439 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.036301 | 0 | 0 | 0.046217 | 0 | 0.177188 | 0 | 0 | 0.043348 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056679 | 0.057668 | 0 | 0.405692 | 0 | 0 | 0.052932 | 0 | 0.109842 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.033482 | 0 | 0.044716 | 0 | 0.053881 | 0.054242 | 0 | 0.212555 | 0 | 0 | 0.243383 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139978 | 0.050784 | 0 | 0 | 0.052501 | 0 | 0.24924 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054248 | 0.049803 | 0.029505 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.229548 | 0.055266 | 0 | 0.051257 | 0.213125 | 0 | 0.058514 | 0 | 0.034799 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.224315 | 0 | 0 | 0.184583 | 0 | 0 | 0.028532 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.282037 | 0 | 0.07334 | 0 | 0.052034 | 0 | 0.045944 | 0.043597 | 0.232325 | 0 | 0 | 0.046857 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056552 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.041439 | 0 | 0.038165 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.050867 | 0.049815 | 0.059107 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110486 | 0 | 0 | 0.056221 | 0 | 0 | 0.045331 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099777 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.044336 | 0 | 0 | 0.051977 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146987 | 0 | 0 | 0.043405 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056788 | 0 | 0 | 0.107922 | 0.039035 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.034491 | 0.033266 | 0 | 0 | 0.060546 | 0.05967 | 0 | 0.049608 | 0.115362 | 0.035248 | 0.11294 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.042837 | 0 | 0.041209 | 0.041644 | 0 | 0 | 0.144381 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11064 | 0.056763 | 0.126168 | 0 |
suicidewatch | throwaway43194535 | 2019/09/22 | My dad wants to kill himself, what do I do... He is 56 works full time, today he was drinking and crying saying he wants to die and is sick of life and his plan on how he will kill himself. My whole family is scared (family of 5 with young kids).
Im not sure what to do, I feel calling the authorities will be worse for... | 2.834073 | 2.864304 | 4.622259 | 89.678879 | 73.278075 | 8.158467 | 23.604724 | 8.076483 | 0.886843 | 654 | 15 | 161 | 9 | 12 | 224 | 91 | 187 | 0.163 | 0.767 | 0.07 | -0.8903 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 21 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 7 | 9 | 2 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 22 | 3 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 29 | 36 | 14 | 3 | 4 | 4 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 10 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 7 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 24 | 1 | 29 | 28 | 3 | 19 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 27 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 102 | 28 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099782 | 0 | 0 | 0.164144 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090823 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108987 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117242 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110773 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.375274 | 0.104559 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.301858 | 0 | 0.053968 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055764 | 0 | 0.242637 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071542 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.230582 | 0 | 0.105917 | 0 | 0.236171 | 0 | 0.117316 | 0 | 0 | 0.226032 | 0 | 0 | 0.075389 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119408 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071246 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08232 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117162 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068377 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09115 | 0 | 0.084879 | 0.213719 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100595 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09329 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062237 | 0 | 0.101171 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.251818 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.238329 | 0 | 0.102888 | 0 | 0.310814 | 0 | 0.217542 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | rdk236 | 2019/09/22 | The only thing left is wageslavery and regrets or suicide. I'm a bit drunk at the moment, it's the day before the work again. The only reason for my existence is go to my job for 50 hours a week to pay off debt. That's it. I'm dreading it today, like I will tomorrow, next week week on and on. I'm told I need to improve... | 2.993871 | 3.577981 | 4.55231 | 88.325065 | 73.212034 | 7.879704 | 25.143386 | 8.076483 | 1.165364 | 1,271 | 37 | 295 | 18 | 24 | 428 | 177 | 349 | 0.158 | 0.724 | 0.118 | -0.9566 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 44 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 17 | 18 | 3 | 1 | 21 | 1 | 29 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 41 | 53 | 24 | 3 | 9 | 15 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 15 | 13 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 9 | 6 | 10 | 8 | 1 | 3 | 5 | 2 | 24 | 10 | 45 | 36 | 8 | 61 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 5 | 22 | 1 | 9 | 36 | 186 | 39 | 9 | 0.181145 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061592 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074533 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085096 | 0.069645 | 0.075624 | 0 | 0 | 0.077071 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098882 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07802 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116824 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101012 | 0.059822 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081401 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083733 | 0 | 0 | 0.154423 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089959 | 0.089196 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094534 | 0.269638 | 0 | 0.100205 | 0 | 0.049776 | 0 | 0 | 0.191806 | 0.098407 | 0 | 0.063974 | 0.176997 | 0 | 0 | 0.080154 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192166 | 0 | 0 | 0.072294 | 0.192529 | 0 | 0.067158 | 0 | 0 | 0.3853 | 0 | 0 | 0.173814 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184123 | 0.137769 | 0 | 0 | 0.20114 | 0 | 0 | 0.062792 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058023 | 0.093124 | 0 | 0.097241 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072175 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101807 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144663 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099072 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068099 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120345 | 0.058035 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085852 | 0.086546 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160266 | 0 | 0.217955 | 0 | 0.081436 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197814 | 0 | 0 | 0.12868 | 0 | 0 | 0.233303 |
suicidewatch | ChillDownMyDude | 2019/09/22 | What are you supposed to do when you're feeling very suicidal? Shit's fucked up and I've spent days feeling like this. I've spent DAYS feeling the strong impulse that I should just kill myself right now. It's not the first time I feel like this but it's the first time I feel it such a long time. Nothing helps, sleeping... | 2.773462 | 4.182461 | 3.474048 | 92.673686 | 74.762712 | 6.187086 | 23.942292 | 6.543119 | 0.498321 | 672 | 20 | 149 | 5 | 14 | 212 | 106 | 177 | 0.144 | 0.643 | 0.213 | 0.8507 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 26 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 12 | 15 | 3 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 11 | 6 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 33 | 33 | 12 | 3 | 4 | 9 | 0 | 10 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 12 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 11 | 17 | 12 | 15 | 28 | 0 | 22 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 7 | 2 | 3 | 15 | 86 | 29 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121117 | 0 | 0.093519 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109872 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128456 | 0.150837 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121368 | 0 | 0 | 0.119696 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119662 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154479 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.591298 | 0.167088 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198943 | 0 | 0 | 0.09035 | 0.108112 | 0 | 0 | 0.066461 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078384 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12938 | 0.243556 | 0.064269 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114265 | 0 | 0 | 0.103491 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15612 | 0 | 0.117485 | 0 | 0.129897 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.22442 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.199737 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12004 | 0 | 0 | 0.117027 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093391 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127916 | 0 | 0.110217 | 0 | 0.087926 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077692 | 0.074932 | 0 | 0 | 0.204571 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079396 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09649 | 0.137952 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
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