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suicidewatch | DanyDavis | 2019/09/22 | I'm probably dying without trying Life's been shit and I've been trying to keep up but now my body is failing me.
My limbs hurt all the time.
There's weird itchy blotches on my legs.
I have a burnt right hand and a cracked left elbow.My nose also broke a few months back.
I don't feel hungry much anymore but weak all th... | 1.262774 | 3.590153 | 2.112586 | 96.169015 | 83.383562 | 4.471918 | 18.02911 | 5.602792 | -0.484505 | 562 | 13 | 120 | 3 | 16 | 175 | 95 | 146 | 0.274 | 0.633 | 0.093 | -0.9867 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 11 | 15 | 2 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 12 | 13 | 9 | 0 | 2 | 18 | 20 | 11 | 2 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 7 | 18 | 3 | 7 | 15 | 6 | 19 | 0 | 7 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 7 | 2 | 1 | 13 | 71 | 22 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162525 | 0.117778 | 0.122547 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14606 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131109 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113248 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163593 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094982 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.305702 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130445 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124088 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148936 | 0.105215 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076947 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15115 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.472992 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130907 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160018 | 0 | 0.104027 | 0.215858 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123676 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148422 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117556 | 0 | 0.216532 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158791 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125775 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.302357 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171758 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.199984 | 0.160196 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141971 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | xoxozephyr | 2019/09/22 | My son He’s the only reason I stay alive. | -1.358 | 0.055991 | 2.47 | 95.165 | 87 | 4 | 10 | 3.1291 | -1.819 | 32 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 10 | 10 | 0 | 0.729 | 0.271 | 0.3818 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.456833 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.617584 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.640229 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Jaeggernaut56 | 2019/09/22 | All I feel is pain This past year has been daunting beyond belief. The person I wanted to marry and spend the rest of my life with cheated on me with a piece of shit human that manipulated her and then ghosted her for months. She left me alone for my birthday, Thanksgiving, Christmas, New year's. She knew I didn't have... | 3.33689 | 4.677132 | 4.623333 | 85.2679 | 73.216102 | 7.363089 | 25.822976 | 7.889722 | 1.378957 | 1,825 | 60 | 377 | 25 | 36 | 604 | 232 | 472 | 0.289 | 0.661 | 0.05 | -0.9992 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 52 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 7 | 15 | 31 | 9 | 2 | 14 | 0 | 37 | 19 | 6 | 4 | 8 | 65 | 70 | 33 | 4 | 7 | 6 | 6 | 5 | 3 | 1 | 3 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 12 | 32 | 2 | 1 | 8 | 3 | 3 | 7 | 9 | 22 | 0 | 2 | 24 | 12 | 78 | 9 | 60 | 42 | 15 | 56 | 2 | 6 | 4 | 5 | 35 | 25 | 5 | 1 | 26 | 258 | 90 | 4 | 0 | 0.38303 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080929 | 0.083704 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066507 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062145 | 0 | 0.197067 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082401 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087337 | 0.090646 | 0.064528 | 0 | 0 | 0.052122 | 0 | 0.06961 | 0 | 0.083878 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090911 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073106 | 0.204281 | 0 | 0.072635 | 0 | 0.152378 | 0 | 0.204323 | 0.115475 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097727 | 0 | 0 | 0.074716 | 0.042225 | 0.155058 | 0.045931 | 0.067787 | 0.129277 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079591 | 0 | 0.173037 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080201 | 0 | 0.089415 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175621 | 0 | 0.171255 | 0.118453 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090416 | 0.088224 | 0 | 0.218828 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064509 | 0 | 0.059411 | 0 | 0.062333 | 0.078056 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054765 | 0.061467 | 0.257992 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077151 | 0.11206 | 0.211705 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082222 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081246 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064271 | 0 | 0 | 0.064402 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.248879 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057204 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08449 | 0 | 0.088403 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064959 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053693 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.047126 | 0.09289 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087908 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069802 | 0 | 0 | 0.190677 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090232 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117675 | 0 | 0 | 0.057412 | 0 | 0 | 0.10409 |
suicidewatch | DixieLynn144 | 2019/09/22 | What if...? If I was to say I just drank 10 oz of rubbing alcohol (isopropyl alcohol), would you tell me it will kill me? | 1.5876 | 2.764483 | 3.917 | 89.2435 | 77.4 | 8.2 | 28.5 | 8.841846 | 2.0914 | 89 | 4 | 21 | 2 | 2 | 31 | 21 | 25 | 0.187 | 0.813 | 0 | -0.7236 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 15 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.770591 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.398871 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.286707 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.315118 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.256109 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | ShadowReaper120 | 2019/09/22 | How many sleeping pills do I need to to die I'm going to suicide very soon. I'm to scared to die but I want to die. I heard that sleeping pills can kill me while I'm sleeping but don't know how many do I need. | -0.958163 | 0.619593 | 1.236082 | 103.655347 | 86.55102 | 3.92 | 17.963265 | 3.1291 | -1.113991 | 162 | 4 | 44 | 0 | 5 | 54 | 25 | 49 | 0.378 | 0.597 | 0.025 | -0.9684 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 8 | 13 | 5 | 5 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 6 | 12 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 22 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.567558 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103598 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.201674 | 0 | 0.100181 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.369622 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.270328 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182502 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.547258 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.199393 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150407 | 0.107518 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | feast-or-famine | 2019/09/22 | I tried to buy a gun. I went to a used gun shop. The owner was very nice, showed me lots of things. A couple of revolvers, a tiny pistol that fit in my palm.
He wanted to sell me a .22 smith and wesson because I've never shot before, and it's easier to practice on tin cans on a fence post with a smaller caliber tha... | 1.980826 | 3.426805 | 3.367017 | 92.474161 | 76.933884 | 5.831736 | 20.364463 | 6.2581 | -0.002706 | 446 | 10 | 100 | 3 | 10 | 146 | 85 | 121 | 0.103 | 0.792 | 0.105 | 0.3167 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 17 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 13 | 0 | 8 | 4 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 10 | 12 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 9 | 2 | 18 | 9 | 3 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 7 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 62 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193878 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143619 | 0 | 0.200478 | 0 | 0.247247 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.263007 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.260686 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155611 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133896 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.279186 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.255979 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.200298 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.236691 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173193 | 0 | 0.181709 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.225639 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.2012 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19489 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181376 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156522 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159956 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.203482 | 0 | 0.194394 | 0.138963 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.218403 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | rapidmako | 2019/09/22 | Not what you are expecting but I had the urge to say... Mods delete if this breaks rules (I’m to lazy to read them) but I wish I could give everyone on this sub a Reddit award. I’m not the type to post here but I can relate. The posters, The commenters and all those who support, you are amazing people! Thank you for re... | 1.478289 | 3.753118 | 2.243947 | 95.895132 | 82.026316 | 5.378947 | 21.342105 | 6.627428 | 0.259453 | 293 | 9 | 64 | 3 | 8 | 91 | 56 | 76 | 0.068 | 0.621 | 0.31 | 0.9748 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 13 | 11 | 6 | 0 | 4 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 8 | 4 | 9 | 9 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 43 | 14 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.239684 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.286852 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.287977 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.402433 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.20812 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.287507 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.300279 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.23873 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.340661 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.276382 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175048 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.345213 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | FaP_rothschild | 2019/09/22 | Sui streams Do yall know any good Sui streams where can watch people doing sui. | 1.41 | 4.02019 | 0.805 | 103.54 | 86.5 | 3.2 | 20.5 | 3.1291 | -0.7774 | 64 | 2 | 14 | 0 | 2 | 18 | 13 | 16 | 0 | 0.828 | 0.172 | 0.4404 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.487156 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.600857 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.393698 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.496641 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | dove_annarchie | 2019/09/22 | The guy I like is getting married At first I didn't know he had a girlfriend. He just reached out to me and befriended me, we talked a lot, he was super sweet. Then he started getting flirty but I ignored it since I was convinced he wasn't serious and I had made it clear I was already dating someone. He swooned me over... | 1.227482 | 3.26423 | 2.617152 | 94.214768 | 81.397661 | 5.19312 | 23.509116 | 6.227272 | 0.439935 | 640 | 23 | 140 | 5 | 17 | 207 | 108 | 171 | 0.262 | 0.568 | 0.17 | -0.9826 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 28 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 17 | 3 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 13 | 5 | 2 | 3 | 2 | 23 | 26 | 9 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 15 | 3 | 24 | 8 | 13 | 10 | 5 | 20 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 20 | 7 | 3 | 3 | 14 | 88 | 31 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176221 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135884 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165732 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139745 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105473 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145953 | 0.135831 | 0 | 0.175091 | 0.123375 | 0.29526 | 0.166862 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127718 | 0 | 0 | 0.158117 | 0 | 0 | 0.14305 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189232 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.341901 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087761 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156032 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135762 | 0 | 0.151102 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127462 | 0 | 0.11739 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16992 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102301 | 0.164187 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136374 | 0 | 0.126991 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132096 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135304 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113029 | 0 | 0.127528 | 0.133507 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128352 | 0.139575 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093116 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094189 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148033 | 0.288189 | 0.178287 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Gadeston | 2019/09/22 | Is everyone on here depressed/previously depressed? Just curios if anyone is not | 6.094615 | 9.951154 | 6.914231 | 57.068269 | 83.615385 | 8.753846 | 37.269231 | 8.841846 | 5.418723 | 67 | 4 | 7 | 2 | 2 | 22 | 11 | 13 | 0.231 | 0.769 | 0 | -0.5106 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.477554 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.588248 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.652615 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Matt-Burbank | 2019/09/22 | I'm drowning myself tonight I can't deal with this shit anymore | 4.272308 | 5.894952 | 4.003077 | 89.516923 | 71.307692 | 5.2 | 36.076923 | 3.1291 | 1.776292 | 53 | 3 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 16 | 12 | 13 | 0.321 | 0.679 | 0 | -0.6428 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.563259 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.585537 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.582998 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Lightningoof | 2019/09/22 | I've lost everything Like the title says, I have nothing, I've had a lot o problems and other shit going on in my life, but I was staying strong, for my girlfriend, that I truly believed, that we'll be together forever... And It's been exactly 39 days, since she left me. For 39 days I don't have a reason to live and ev... | 3.027667 | 4.745702 | 3.850402 | 88.957648 | 74.739645 | 6.958749 | 27.456044 | 7.709487 | 1.537722 | 661 | 26 | 136 | 9 | 14 | 211 | 101 | 169 | 0.106 | 0.732 | 0.161 | 0.9262 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 34 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 11 | 2 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 17 | 4 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 19 | 27 | 10 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 1 | 24 | 5 | 9 | 17 | 4 | 15 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 16 | 4 | 2 | 3 | 10 | 87 | 34 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126237 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143411 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130761 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.246273 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141961 | 0.168146 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.457597 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098343 | 0 | 0.133007 | 0 | 0.072341 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085319 | 0 | 0 | 0.126427 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1383 | 0 | 0.089908 | 0.062187 | 0 | 0.224797 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138951 | 0.108217 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.245873 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.244275 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172509 | 0.096809 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139725 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121798 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.261749 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101225 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13066 | 0.105295 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097993 | 0 | 0.14249 | 0 | 0.135673 | 0.203306 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095706 | 0.10231 | 0.111256 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12163 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075078 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129718 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | ThatOneGorillazFan2 | 2019/09/22 | Suicidal as hell....... Welp. This is probably the shittiest day I’m having rn. So I was stressed about something personal that happened earlier and I have a mild tendency to sometimes stress eat and so I had this brownie that my grandmother recently made and my mum caught me and (of course) lectures me and so I’m hidi... | 2.952465 | 5.606843 | 4.549196 | 79.286713 | 79 | 8.397203 | 28.685315 | 9.095869 | 3.043108 | 434 | 20 | 76 | 12 | 11 | 145 | 73 | 104 | 0.285 | 0.69 | 0.025 | -0.9847 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 20 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 6 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 16 | 17 | 12 | 2 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 7 | 9 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 12 | 1 | 10 | 12 | 0 | 8 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 54 | 19 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0.204606 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.207934 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135218 | 0 | 0.361173 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.214543 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185409 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198393 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183074 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.226057 | 0 | 0 | 0.210774 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134319 | 0 | 0.207022 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161413 | 0.207367 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.480348 | 0 | 0 | 0.229343 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157644 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134347 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.247335 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Nycgirl96 | 2019/09/22 | Over it I am just over life. I've been wanting to die for 10 years now, failing to actually do it after multiple attempts and hospitalizations. At this point I just want someone to kill me themselves and as painfully as they could . Been looking up how to make this happen. The only thing that's keeping me from walking ... | 3.847971 | 4.255121 | 5.011739 | 86.441232 | 71.173913 | 7.437681 | 28.376812 | 7.168622 | 1.310146 | 344 | 12 | 76 | 3 | 6 | 114 | 67 | 92 | 0.155 | 0.752 | 0.093 | -0.8804 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 5 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 8 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 16 | 17 | 7 | 2 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 8 | 1 | 18 | 13 | 0 | 13 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 54 | 15 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0.231028 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189021 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.245703 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.209352 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.234932 | 0.210429 | 0.261922 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167219 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198805 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158029 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180055 | 0.251912 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.2238 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.200593 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157282 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.558551 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152455 |
suicidewatch | burritoswiper32 | 2019/09/22 | Comatose When people say suicidal their immediate thought is wanting to die 24/7. While I’m sure it manifests as such in some people, does anyone else also get the occasional, desperate feeling that they want to put their life on hold? It’s not that I want to be gone forever, I just want to pause life. I just want it t... | 1.932435 | 4.193292 | 3.322252 | 88.892869 | 80.192661 | 7.266389 | 22.753128 | 8.296473 | 1.345378 | 426 | 14 | 90 | 9 | 11 | 139 | 70 | 109 | 0.216 | 0.677 | 0.107 | -0.959 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 9 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 24 | 17 | 7 | 3 | 7 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 9 | 2 | 12 | 13 | 3 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 3 | 7 | 57 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11852 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103629 | 0.151855 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153814 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129696 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123807 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.195777 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133198 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074937 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077432 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163266 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.314047 | 0.072406 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112717 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.205495 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148988 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117859 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.371721 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.324227 | 0 | 0.139682 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.235318 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.524495 | 0.117639 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Suicidethrowaway2589 | 2019/09/22 | Goodbye On my way to the subway now. I don't know why I am even writing this post. | -1.062632 | 0.581094 | 1.778158 | 99.234605 | 87.421053 | 3.8 | 20.026316 | 3.1291 | -0.675021 | 63 | 2 | 16 | 0 | 2 | 22 | 18 | 19 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.375147 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.312148 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.543969 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.450837 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.512515 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | SureDepartment | 2019/09/22 | Do you think it is fair that my mother is the only reason why I didn't end it yet. I already planned it. Every night when I get back to my room after a long day at uni I just sit there thinking about doing it. I sit for hours and when I finally decide to get up and go for it I remember my mom. I can't help it. I know t... | -0.429951 | 1.184456 | 2.696806 | 93.700835 | 84.855856 | 5.477805 | 17.298116 | 6.574016 | -0.324917 | 376 | 8 | 94 | 4 | 11 | 135 | 69 | 111 | 0.07 | 0.907 | 0.023 | -0.6765 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 13 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 15 | 23 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 12 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 19 | 0 | 11 | 20 | 0 | 21 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 14 | 69 | 31 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.228561 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159261 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133574 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183446 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187351 | 0.174506 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.226888 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.216422 | 0 | 0.11771 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138827 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.20397 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.341481 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146294 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183293 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138253 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.242575 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194367 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157523 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.212952 | 0 | 0 | 0.234625 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.265426 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.225286 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.252215 | 0 | 0 | 0.186892 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | 911strangerdanger911 | 2019/09/22 | I’m stuck I’m fucking stuck here in this stupid world of misery. I’m not even a teenager yet- this isn’t normal. I shouldn’t feel this way. I have a loving family that I should trust, but I can’t because of what they’ve done to me in the past. I have caring friends who just want to help me, but I refuse to accept their... | -1.403063 | 0.326897 | 1.277823 | 101.708565 | 89.704225 | 4.11338 | 13.569836 | 5.148861 | -1.395842 | 705 | 10 | 188 | 3 | 24 | 242 | 104 | 213 | 0.234 | 0.628 | 0.138 | -0.983 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 26 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 12 | 14 | 4 | 0 | 13 | 0 | 25 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 35 | 45 | 10 | 2 | 10 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 12 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 13 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 29 | 6 | 20 | 38 | 4 | 17 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 10 | 8 | 2 | 1 | 7 | 123 | 41 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146608 | 0 | 0.13029 | 0.095123 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159097 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124588 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161949 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159687 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138208 | 0 | 0 | 0.206131 | 0.282301 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147104 | 0 | 0.0789 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142621 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120559 | 0.14426 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.209185 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.334096 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172639 | 0 | 0.085757 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110218 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140835 | 0 | 0.10416 | 0 | 0.313533 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15289 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148961 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13326 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175399 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17337 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162447 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.368154 | 0.12386 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | CallerofWilds | 2019/09/22 | Everything is rotten Repeatedly I have been suicidal but, for whatever reason, fought to keep going forward.
Last night I had a date. It was kinda bumbling because I didn't really know what to do, but I think it went well anyway. I was really pleased and tried really hard to not overdo anything.
This morning she tex... | 2.430724 | 4.639826 | 4.237417 | 83.256849 | 78.178082 | 7.185127 | 24.812133 | 8.192908 | 1.705986 | 578 | 21 | 111 | 11 | 14 | 195 | 93 | 146 | 0.217 | 0.586 | 0.197 | -0.6888 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 12 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 16 | 6 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 25 | 32 | 8 | 2 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 2 | 17 | 7 | 15 | 22 | 3 | 17 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 5 | 1 | 3 | 11 | 77 | 24 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0.144996 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155802 | 0 | 0 | 0.147355 | 0 | 0 | 0.122271 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090575 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095824 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.403206 | 0.125188 | 0 | 0.133537 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084443 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131392 | 0 | 0.133101 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147577 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132068 | 0.164385 | 0 | 0.081657 | 0.121115 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07259 | 0 | 0.131202 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.268204 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157623 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139435 | 0 | 0.285139 | 0 | 0 | 0.158236 | 0 | 0 | 0.158103 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1631 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.285559 | 0.152768 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126889 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162526 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129868 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190412 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100878 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175276 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133594 | 0.137738 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | HermioneJay | 2019/09/22 | All I can say right now, is that I’m lucky I’m one of the people who has someone in their life that they would be more than devastated to lose the way they feel like they want to go right now. I’m not happy, but I’m just going to have to find a way to force myself to be. Some how. | 0.721692 | 1.462449 | 2.732308 | 98.627692 | 78.846154 | 5.815385 | 16.076923 | 5.683918 | -0.972785 | 216 | 2 | 59 | 1 | 5 | 73 | 45 | 65 | 0.101 | 0.824 | 0.075 | -0.3996 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 11 | 15 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 3 | 9 | 12 | 3 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 38 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132349 | 0.186994 | 0 | 0 | 0.239235 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.297517 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.278638 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184882 | 0.127878 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.292831 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177368 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181464 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.447066 | 0 | 0.208154 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.22178 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154387 | 0.41553 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.18594 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | absolutelysuicide | 2019/09/22 | I’ve lost everything No one wants to help me anymore because I’m too much work, I’m trapped. I have no fight left in me but I can’t kill myself. I don’t know what to do anymore | -0.451829 | 1.10335 | 1.934329 | 99.450762 | 84.609756 | 5.07561 | 22.445122 | 5.985473 | 0.021239 | 138 | 5 | 36 | 1 | 4 | 47 | 29 | 41 | 0.356 | 0.601 | 0.043 | -0.9109 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 9 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 3 | 8 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 20 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.589046 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181035 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.266905 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.199058 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.328563 | 0 | 0.163212 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.322668 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.324187 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.218313 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.20124 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175166 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.216204 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | coughingcookieheart | 2019/09/22 | I'm not gonna do it. But i want to. I would rather live than die but trustme, I get that aching feeling that I am a regret, a mistake, a tumor on the world. That I have a past that I cannot fix and that I will always be chased by it. That my life is nothing but a mirage of what I could have been cause of who I am. I a... | -1.310526 | 0.271628 | 1.405526 | 101.906184 | 87.947368 | 4.221053 | 17.921053 | 4.935629 | -0.882074 | 310 | 8 | 84 | 1 | 10 | 107 | 57 | 95 | 0.233 | 0.715 | 0.053 | -0.9575 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 15 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 16 | 22 | 6 | 1 | 6 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 15 | 1 | 7 | 14 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 63 | 26 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.219361 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.27082 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.210487 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.273606 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.266598 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.275471 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.279145 | 0 | 0 | 0.186209 | 0 | 0 | 0.232789 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.505919 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.251664 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.259014 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155495 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187275 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | willowslay | 2019/09/22 | Nothing motivates me anymore I cant see hope in life anymore
It's not getting anywhere better
I feel like a fish being dragged on the concrete ground getting all my scales scratched off me while seeing others running with their two legs easily
And slowly my scales are no long there and im in agony and i cant go back t... | 1.697267 | 3.319752 | 3.113634 | 93.222127 | 78.192547 | 5.842236 | 22.680124 | 6.543119 | 0.377179 | 594 | 18 | 134 | 5 | 14 | 194 | 101 | 161 | 0.183 | 0.686 | 0.131 | -0.7949 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 5 | 8 | 2 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 16 | 5 | 2 | 5 | 1 | 25 | 35 | 10 | 3 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 7 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 7 | 22 | 5 | 17 | 26 | 2 | 19 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 90 | 30 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0.15302 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.311019 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120574 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138682 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159874 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16274 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183775 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.237857 | 0.112022 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163849 | 0 | 0.089116 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155744 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.338755 | 0 | 0 | 0.139376 | 0.173483 | 0 | 0.086176 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.221513 | 0.076607 | 0 | 0 | 0.138768 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15046 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119258 | 0.166853 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.374862 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167134 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17056 | 0.153177 | 0 | 0 | 0.13543 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180319 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.222781 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | blackbird2raven | 2019/09/22 | I'm in so much chronic pain, if it weren't for my obligations to my family I'd probably off myself. Everything hurts and it just keeps getting worse over time. No medications help, except ones that will slowly damage my heart and liver, and even those simply take the edge off. I care for my disabled mother who has chro... | 3.930642 | 4.947482 | 4.851493 | 85.437948 | 71.389381 | 8.127876 | 22.974558 | 8.472885 | 1.199797 | 439 | 10 | 91 | 7 | 8 | 143 | 77 | 113 | 0.184 | 0.768 | 0.048 | -0.9332 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 8 | 9 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 18 | 16 | 8 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 15 | 2 | 16 | 12 | 3 | 10 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 66 | 22 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19523 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1792 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116088 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157962 | 0 | 0.331383 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091828 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.208277 | 0.117809 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188155 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156224 | 0 | 0 | 0.096593 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085868 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17706 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.258409 | 0.130324 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1191 | 0 | 0.561065 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1895 | 0 | 0 | 0.176688 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13215 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.204975 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191177 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179115 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | zettheself | 2019/09/22 | You are not alone Funny thing is when i was sitting on the 20 floor in a constructing building. My mind just shat up i was in peace finally. Every little sound was so loud that i was thinking there is someone. But actually i was all alone. Thought about last time calling to my mom. Nah she is too tired from work. I did... | 1.128265 | 3.729726 | 1.697143 | 96.328705 | 88.88764 | 4.634927 | 21.474957 | 6.284506 | 0.271658 | 1,775 | 62 | 368 | 18 | 59 | 541 | 225 | 445 | 0.111 | 0.81 | 0.079 | -0.8915 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 48 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 8 | 37 | 23 | 8 | 2 | 15 | 1 | 47 | 17 | 6 | 5 | 5 | 67 | 73 | 30 | 6 | 6 | 20 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 9 | 7 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 22 | 18 | 3 | 1 | 8 | 3 | 3 | 17 | 10 | 11 | 3 | 5 | 29 | 10 | 51 | 12 | 42 | 31 | 8 | 78 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 18 | 33 | 2 | 10 | 28 | 250 | 73 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0.0763 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161957 | 0 | 0 | 0.065058 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064342 | 0.278414 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120243 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173697 | 0 | 0.087283 | 0.079838 | 0.089426 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068422 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.207753 | 0.080789 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197629 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075072 | 0.256952 | 0 | 0.066506 | 0 | 0.085729 | 0 | 0.144566 | 0.04085 | 0 | 0.044436 | 0 | 0.250135 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092653 | 0 | 0.082609 | 0.156857 | 0.077658 | 0.076999 | 0.090218 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077589 | 0 | 0.259509 | 0 | 0.04297 | 0.063733 | 0.088199 | 0.248368 | 0.084951 | 0 | 0.110452 | 0.076397 | 0.156729 | 0.138082 | 0 | 0.131316 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052191 | 0 | 0.07855 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078947 | 0.091572 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057975 | 0.060303 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.211927 | 0.059465 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084669 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062178 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066248 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171049 | 0 | 0.073691 | 0 | 0 | 0.062844 | 0.068339 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.051944 | 0.050099 | 0 | 0.186216 | 0.091184 | 0.089865 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092234 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.2109 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056921 | 0.079403 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | seijohvbc | 2019/09/22 | I’m scared when there’s light out, i will be attempting to kill myself. i’m scared for my parents and how they’re going to handle it but i am exhausted. i know its my time and i accept that. i love my family so much, they’re the only ones that’s making me not want to push through but the thought of living another day i... | 0.111154 | 1.97023 | 2.584295 | 93.900288 | 84.384615 | 5.951282 | 17.442308 | 7.168622 | 0.0202 | 276 | 6 | 65 | 4 | 8 | 95 | 54 | 78 | 0.16 | 0.725 | 0.115 | 0.1071 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 6 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 12 | 13 | 7 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 11 | 2 | 8 | 10 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 42 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.24263 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149226 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.218132 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131503 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.255996 | 0 | 0.127165 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.20432 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.208836 | 0 | 0.154453 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.270998 | 0 | 0 | 0.340193 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156794 | 0.175981 | 0 | 0 | 0.256929 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.463319 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.25902 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183696 | 0.134924 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136478 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | jellybellyshaker | 2019/09/22 | Husband is a self absorbed jerk Anyone just absolutely disgusted by their significant other? Mine has become so self centred, so arrogant, so completely involved with himself I can’t stand to be in the room with him. All I can say is at least, someday soon he’ll be sorry he didn’t pull his head out of his ass when I’m ... | 4.773418 | 5.176131 | 6.106177 | 79.425848 | 69.126582 | 8.851646 | 30.989873 | 8.841846 | 2.436633 | 307 | 12 | 61 | 5 | 5 | 104 | 63 | 79 | 0.186 | 0.792 | 0.022 | -0.9218 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 10 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 13 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 8 | 7 | 3 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 13 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 42 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.2555 | 0.180141 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.284533 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.270121 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.263645 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.264403 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.258824 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.293314 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.204878 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.53753 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.288396 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.204495 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | whoami_1988 | 2019/09/22 | There’s a scared little boy inside I don’t know how old he is but he never got a chance to live.
The adult he became is a shell of a person.
A 30 year old looking back at everything he ever did in regret, disgust, sadness or shame. And to an immediate future of well deserved torment that will last for decades, year... | 3.701394 | 4.661295 | 5.060343 | 83.940603 | 71.876106 | 8.481858 | 27.399336 | 8.841846 | 1.94493 | 867 | 30 | 182 | 16 | 16 | 290 | 136 | 226 | 0.351 | 0.6 | 0.049 | -0.998 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 28 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 11 | 16 | 4 | 4 | 15 | 0 | 20 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 31 | 32 | 17 | 2 | 4 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 10 | 9 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 8 | 13 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 2 | 14 | 3 | 31 | 22 | 2 | 34 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 10 | 13 | 2 | 6 | 17 | 121 | 24 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137599 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101635 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102159 | 0 | 0.080988 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147574 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087751 | 0.120176 | 0 | 0.12695 | 0.238806 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069412 | 0 | 0.151011 | 0 | 0.106258 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.306597 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146986 | 0 | 0.073015 | 0.108296 | 0 | 0.140676 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133157 | 0.23463 | 0.117574 | 0.111566 | 0 | 0 | 0.11295 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134147 | 0 | 0.106045 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.204934 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.278821 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126827 | 0 | 0.116005 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149776 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132893 | 0 | 0.085111 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113459 | 0 | 0.105653 | 0.266025 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138598 | 0.15009 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135431 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148722 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099892 | 0 | 0 | 0.122317 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105455 | 0 | 0 | 0.119454 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152779 | 0 | 0 | 0.096721 | 0 | 0.135392 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171111 |
suicidewatch | YourResidentAsshole | 2019/09/22 | Why do I feel like giving up? Guess what? Yes, I'm another one of those people who are "shitty" and "fucked up". Yeah, my life, in my words, is simply fucked up. I just got my report card from school last month and I got failing grades? Why you ask? Because I was a lazy dumbass, that's why! I've been suffering from a g... | 1.263457 | 3.562489 | 3.037217 | 89.726019 | 83.120782 | 6.107434 | 21.130041 | 7.394104 | 0.778174 | 2,161 | 67 | 448 | 34 | 61 | 717 | 251 | 563 | 0.154 | 0.732 | 0.114 | -0.9848 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 103 | 2 | 6 | 3 | 4 | 23 | 30 | 10 | 0 | 21 | 4 | 36 | 20 | 2 | 7 | 3 | 81 | 89 | 29 | 2 | 11 | 19 | 2 | 4 | 7 | 0 | 3 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 33 | 18 | 1 | 5 | 14 | 4 | 1 | 5 | 13 | 16 | 2 | 5 | 9 | 9 | 70 | 14 | 51 | 71 | 7 | 65 | 1 | 5 | 5 | 7 | 31 | 25 | 9 | 11 | 38 | 273 | 103 | 10 | 0 | 0.065979 | 0 | 0.364237 | 0 | 0.054416 | 0.049362 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.044532 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058392 | 0 | 0 | 0.055226 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052059 | 0 | 0 | 0.042819 | 0 | 0.135783 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062164 | 0.056862 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.044461 | 0 | 0 | 0.035913 | 0 | 0.047962 | 0 | 0.057793 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064578 | 0.056981 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110341 | 0.050371 | 0 | 0 | 0.050047 | 0 | 0.052496 | 0 | 0.112626 | 0.119347 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094733 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.308886 | 0.029094 | 0.160258 | 0.031648 | 0 | 0.178149 | 0 | 0.061345 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07465 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.049496 | 0 | 0 | 0.061207 | 0.045392 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113886 | 0.117998 | 0.190438 | 0.055812 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.050259 | 0 | 0.037171 | 0 | 0.223777 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065219 | 0.044448 | 0 | 0 | 0.082581 | 0 | 0.053782 | 0 | 0 | 0.054561 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118608 | 0.113203 | 0.084704 | 0 | 0 | 0.061833 | 0 | 0 | 0.154423 | 0 | 0.11636 | 0.061127 | 0 | 0 | 0.213328 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071348 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063082 | 0.095111 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112715 | 0.088749 | 0.101389 | 0 | 0 | 0.057161 | 0.092128 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062336 | 0.039415 | 0 | 0.044471 | 0.139668 | 0 | 0 | 0.127495 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063682 | 0 | 0.036995 | 0.035681 | 0 | 0 | 0.097413 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060571 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19238 | 0 | 0.137841 | 0.098535 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100137 | 0 | 0.301489 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060389 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.039558 | 0.060884 | 0 | 0.10758 |
suicidewatch | bugfluids | 2019/09/22 | abusive mothers Even though I’m not living with her anymore it still doesn’t get any better, I’m planning to end it but really want to admit myself. Last time I was at a hospital she told me how much she hated me, hated that I was born and told me how she’d leave me in the desert to die. Now I have plans with her the f... | -0.421198 | 0.994268 | 2.5825 | 95.545833 | 83.84375 | 5.829167 | 16.916667 | 6.816662 | -0.309658 | 426 | 8 | 109 | 5 | 12 | 152 | 74 | 128 | 0.233 | 0.679 | 0.088 | -0.9769 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 8 | 6 | 2 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 20 | 29 | 13 | 1 | 3 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 19 | 1 | 15 | 21 | 1 | 18 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 7 | 0 | 3 | 10 | 73 | 23 | 0 | 0 | 0.212117 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121744 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177546 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158334 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115457 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185801 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158564 | 0 | 0 | 0.118245 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163627 | 0.15228 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.280602 | 0 | 0.101745 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.353503 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119998 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.383303 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14593 | 0 | 0.189563 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158084 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131605 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169238 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.229378 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142971 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175892 | 0 | 0.104392 | 0 | 0 | 0.342135 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105594 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Layla_Rhapsody | 2019/09/22 | I've reached the point where I no longer cry, where I no longer feel sad. I can't relate to anyone, not even my own loved ones. When I go out, I look at rooftops of tall buildings and think, what if. I look at trucks as I cross the road and I think what if. It used to be that something triggered these moods and thought... | 0.410777 | 2.16301 | 1.143505 | 105.209626 | 82.68932 | 4.12 | 17.096117 | 3.1291 | -1.287403 | 365 | 7 | 95 | 0 | 10 | 111 | 69 | 103 | 0.128 | 0.786 | 0.086 | -0.4939 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 7 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 20 | 19 | 8 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 13 | 1 | 12 | 17 | 1 | 16 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 10 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 58 | 21 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187548 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157602 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.247587 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148872 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.341902 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128098 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.225906 | 0 | 0 | 0.378552 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.203429 | 0 | 0.150454 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152734 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.213072 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.225661 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173521 | 0 | 0 | 0.159537 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.433275 | 0 | 0.17894 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19467 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178909 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | GreenEdge2018 | 2019/09/22 | Its wrong turning to religion? I am followed my a psychiatrist and a psychologist but I had this feeling in the back of my head that maybe going to church just sitting in a back row in silence and maybe say a prayer can help me.
Im catholic but I never practiced after my confirmation, I done the whole edgy atheist thi... | 2.744149 | 4.369157 | 4.344936 | 85.507506 | 75.28866 | 7.324227 | 26.55799 | 8.076483 | 1.55797 | 373 | 14 | 79 | 6 | 8 | 125 | 66 | 97 | 0.272 | 0.677 | 0.052 | -0.9786 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 13 | 8 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 11 | 1 | 14 | 11 | 2 | 14 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 59 | 16 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.300606 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.200032 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191205 | 0 | 0 | 0.098835 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180707 | 0 | 0 | 0.111089 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.200607 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131018 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.422278 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107424 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095496 | 0 | 0.172602 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.392748 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150757 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155444 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12986 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.425226 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.218233 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.213714 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | SusieEarthCitizen | 2019/09/22 | Proving abetment of suicide So I wish to die but not in vain! I also want to put certain people in behind bars for the situation I am in currently!
The problem is I don’t feel there is any concrete proof of their abuse. So will a suicide with a detailed letter of what all occurred be good enough to put that person beh... | 3.91 | 5.442655 | 4.759487 | 84.093846 | 72.076923 | 6.738462 | 29.666667 | 7.168622 | 1.731036 | 312 | 13 | 59 | 3 | 6 | 101 | 60 | 78 | 0.205 | 0.579 | 0.216 | -0.5738 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 9 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 13 | 13 | 6 | 3 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 3 | 14 | 9 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 46 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 0.252133 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170176 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144711 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.220853 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.219879 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107598 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178486 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116949 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.217602 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147529 | 0.185809 | 0 | 0.23359 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.203621 | 0 | 0.427845 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.239196 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.465537 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125515 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.244709 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | ThatOtakuAi | 2019/09/22 | 20 years old and honestly kinda done I grew a pretty bad life not saying I'm looking for pity I grew with my mom and father being drug users and I have major anti social issues I can't engage in conversation in public it frightens me I have no job no career I have a gf that I've been with for a little over half a year ... | 0.455891 | 2.488128 | 3.161789 | 89.246173 | 84.284553 | 5.410632 | 17.59162 | 6.671995 | 0.022416 | 448 | 10 | 95 | 5 | 13 | 157 | 81 | 123 | 0.204 | 0.704 | 0.092 | -0.8982 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 9 | 2 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 14 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 14 | 21 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 3 | 11 | 4 | 11 | 11 | 2 | 15 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 9 | 7 | 1 | 2 | 6 | 58 | 14 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143242 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170726 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143737 | 0 | 0 | 0.146486 | 0 | 0 | 0.152252 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176168 | 0 | 0 | 0.199638 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155719 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089941 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179679 | 0.170831 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182281 | 0 | 0 | 0.486376 | 0 | 0.172539 | 0 | 0 | 0.144562 | 0 | 0.187921 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.201619 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165182 | 0 | 0.180642 | 0 | 0.116653 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175138 | 0.185606 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1369 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156718 | 0 | 0 | 0.176709 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175484 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143924 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100382 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.221717 |
suicidewatch | DrunkenCatWizard | 2019/09/22 | I want OUT!!! (New to Reddit so here goes)
Today I woke up with extreme anxiety and suicidal thoughts. Just like I did for years now.
My chest just keep s on hurting, my head is always humming with accusations of how dysfunctional I am.
I'm 26, currently a student and I'm failing my studies. I barely work at my job... | 1.972157 | 4.035224 | 3.613048 | 87.894727 | 79 | 6.91336 | 25.875721 | 7.947958 | 1.583962 | 2,107 | 84 | 435 | 37 | 52 | 700 | 250 | 547 | 0.197 | 0.68 | 0.123 | -0.994 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 76 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 9 | 33 | 30 | 1 | 4 | 20 | 0 | 35 | 5 | 3 | 6 | 0 | 72 | 83 | 38 | 4 | 8 | 15 | 4 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 14 | 25 | 0 | 6 | 13 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 18 | 18 | 1 | 3 | 10 | 7 | 72 | 12 | 85 | 68 | 3 | 63 | 0 | 7 | 4 | 0 | 41 | 26 | 0 | 7 | 32 | 294 | 86 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 0.071897 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073776 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183913 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077256 | 0.056362 | 0 | 0.073067 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206631 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075231 | 0 | 0.075118 | 0 | 0 | 0.063465 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09503 | 0 | 0.126914 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128949 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076127 | 0 | 0.194649 | 0 | 0 | 0.070401 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165812 | 0.037253 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076985 | 0 | 0.125615 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075613 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.049383 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078872 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146224 | 0.130973 | 0 | 0 | 0.080981 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075339 | 0 | 0.107983 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123739 | 0 | 0 | 0.062637 | 0 | 0.069714 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.258865 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10926 | 0 | 0.071157 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078463 | 0.149774 | 0.056034 | 0.078396 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102155 | 0 | 0.076976 | 0.080874 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082534 | 0.078364 | 0 | 0 | 0.094397 | 0.075751 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05871 | 0.067072 | 0.07686 | 0 | 0 | 0.060946 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062425 | 0 | 0 | 0.082474 | 0 | 0 | 0.058838 | 0.123193 | 0 | 0.077022 | 0 | 0.322358 | 0.167213 | 0 | 0 | 0.055395 | 0.059218 | 0.128792 | 0.067831 | 0 | 0.171087 | 0 | 0 | 0.072386 | 0.175472 | 0.042961 | 0.08468 | 0.069836 | 0 | 0.081857 | 0.100042 | 0.160277 | 0 | 0.076699 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06079 | 0.086912 | 0.058481 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068298 | 0 | 0 | 0.084724 | 0 | 0 | 0.214548 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.237225 |
suicidewatch | mississippiblue | 2019/09/22 | Getting tired of being alive I’m just tired and sad all the time. I make jokes and put on a happy face for others but the fact is I hate every second of being awake. Everyone thinks I’m lucky. I’m a young, attractive, intelligent man from a loving and accepting family but none of that means anything to me. Having gifts... | 2.833729 | 5.096625 | 4.239362 | 83.474897 | 77.10585 | 7.343307 | 24.207849 | 8.313333 | 1.665031 | 1,447 | 49 | 275 | 28 | 34 | 478 | 181 | 359 | 0.165 | 0.655 | 0.179 | 0.6757 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 35 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 17 | 28 | 4 | 3 | 17 | 0 | 25 | 15 | 2 | 5 | 6 | 73 | 61 | 21 | 0 | 11 | 16 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 19 | 19 | 1 | 2 | 11 | 2 | 2 | 6 | 9 | 13 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 3 | 38 | 15 | 46 | 49 | 11 | 40 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 4 | 10 | 17 | 2 | 7 | 18 | 193 | 57 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145379 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143777 | 0.077768 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053253 | 0.096481 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089068 | 0 | 0 | 0.075252 | 0 | 0.188807 | 0 | 0.069749 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085578 | 0 | 0 | 0.145954 | 0.098267 | 0.309495 | 0.090265 | 0 | 0.115399 | 0 | 0.147207 | 0.083475 | 0.235537 | 0 | 0.082354 | 0 | 0.044171 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.239532 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080762 | 0.091283 | 0.083802 | 0.049648 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092995 | 0 | 0.086249 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086767 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08669 | 0.077648 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08933 | 0.30852 | 0.042679 | 0 | 0.077139 | 0 | 0.073359 | 0 | 0 | 0.074269 | 0.157689 | 0 | 0.174938 | 0 | 0 | 0.095159 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064775 | 0.134753 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06644 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121127 | 0.076278 | 0 | 0 | 0.082582 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188375 | 0.167181 | 0 | 0.087819 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111928 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089672 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067253 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073036 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174111 | 0.167928 | 0 | 0 | 0.152818 | 0.200812 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07545 | 0 | 0 | 0.051526 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100458 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089026 | 0.124114 | 0 | 0 | 0.112512 |
suicidewatch | jexibull | 2019/09/22 | I'm probably about to die and the world won't even notice I'm gone. I'm overwhelmed. Entirely. With the stresses of college and the feeling of not belonging. With being unintelligent. With chronic feelings of loneliness. With being ignored. I'm just fucking tired, man. I've been at this too long I think.
And college j... | -1.2188 | 0.826371 | 1.495821 | 97.178848 | 95.354839 | 4.432108 | 16.24156 | 6.146976 | -0.512766 | 1,093 | 28 | 262 | 12 | 43 | 375 | 143 | 310 | 0.15 | 0.743 | 0.108 | -0.9146 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 45 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 7 | 21 | 17 | 7 | 2 | 12 | 0 | 24 | 13 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 53 | 66 | 17 | 1 | 6 | 13 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 20 | 1 | 3 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 16 | 12 | 0 | 5 | 13 | 3 | 29 | 5 | 43 | 49 | 5 | 30 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 6 | 12 | 17 | 7 | 1 | 11 | 163 | 38 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0.190339 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06632 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096718 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05945 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086252 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099583 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084008 | 0.102252 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062895 | 0.100543 | 0 | 0 | 0.101215 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099801 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.257655 | 0 | 0.082168 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183874 | 0 | 0.098622 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165908 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.540956 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163597 | 0.233997 | 0.107521 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096778 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107193 | 0.079495 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068884 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086306 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065098 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098471 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075217 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111032 | 0 | 0 | 0.198254 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101892 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105147 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083285 | 0 | 0.077555 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100107 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10917 | 0 | 0 | 0.077883 | 0 | 0.111713 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124979 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.224179 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066212 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.287611 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070999 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062802 |
suicidewatch | RimfaxesFradga | 2019/09/22 | Ending it on my birthday Hi reddit, sorry if this post is going to be long but I want to share my thoughts with someone since I don't have anybody to talk to.
So I'm a soon to be 22 year old male and thinking about commiting suicide on my birthday in November.
There are many reasons I don't want to live anymore but ... | 2.498772 | 3.917856 | 4.141965 | 87.565456 | 75.497065 | 6.785757 | 23.618013 | 7.40785 | 0.915693 | 1,920 | 57 | 408 | 23 | 41 | 644 | 234 | 511 | 0.13 | 0.783 | 0.087 | -0.9805 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 41 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 22 | 18 | 1 | 1 | 22 | 0 | 55 | 10 | 4 | 8 | 5 | 73 | 89 | 38 | 2 | 8 | 15 | 2 | 2 | 4 | 4 | 4 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 9 | 31 | 27 | 2 | 0 | 10 | 3 | 3 | 5 | 14 | 6 | 0 | 3 | 14 | 6 | 54 | 12 | 52 | 65 | 11 | 43 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 1 | 31 | 12 | 0 | 4 | 29 | 279 | 85 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085909 | 0.088856 | 0 | 0.137217 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179923 | 0 | 0 | 0.085084 | 0 | 0 | 0.0706 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06597 | 0 | 0.156896 | 0 | 0.073004 | 0 | 0 | 0.075877 | 0.093664 | 0.095297 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088133 | 0.090758 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151974 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080878 | 0 | 0.04338 | 0.061291 | 0 | 0 | 0.078413 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132567 | 0 | 0.089647 | 0 | 0.146275 | 0.071959 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182657 | 0 | 0.084703 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057505 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089546 | 0.170273 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.04715 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121196 | 0.167657 | 0 | 0.075757 | 0.075924 | 0 | 0 | 0.093653 | 0 | 0 | 0.081179 | 0.114535 | 0.086981 | 0.086191 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132338 | 0 | 0.091242 | 0 | 0.084059 | 0 | 0.097676 | 0.090025 | 0 | 0.174407 | 0.130499 | 0.09129 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178434 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082166 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109922 | 0.176419 | 0.08471 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068366 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141938 | 0 | 0 | 0.087455 | 0.072692 | 0 | 0 | 0.096038 | 0.060725 | 0 | 0.068514 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187687 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064506 | 0.137914 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170991 | 0.219891 | 0 | 0.06811 | 0.100053 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.232991 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.253015 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077415 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187375 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110496 |
suicidewatch | thexafterglow | 2019/09/22 | I’m sick of being here. I’m so done with all the shit that’s been having and I just wish I could go without hurting my friends. I need easy ways to die | -1.175571 | 0.64129 | 0.971071 | 103.685179 | 89.571429 | 3.5 | 17.321429 | 3.1291 | -1.196571 | 118 | 3 | 31 | 0 | 4 | 39 | 30 | 35 | 0.224 | 0.504 | 0.272 | 0.2741 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 10 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 4 | 6 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 20 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.261631 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.340087 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.335337 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.25317 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186232 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.350795 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.242975 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.336365 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.260102 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.376823 | 0.315878 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | throwawayacc2oct | 2019/09/22 | Humble Request for Assistance. I wonder what one could do when you confide about the people closest to you and their first response isn't "Are you doing well?" or "Are you OK?", but rather " How could you be so selfish?", " Don't you know that everyone loves you", "That's just a phase, because you're still young", "Sha... | 6.605149 | 6.97605 | 6.441007 | 78.717332 | 65.169154 | 9.08806 | 32.670398 | 8.841846 | 2.575252 | 839 | 32 | 158 | 12 | 12 | 264 | 116 | 201 | 0.072 | 0.799 | 0.13 | 0.937 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 48 | 0 | 13 | 6 | 1 | 14 | 8 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 1 | 23 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 33 | 37 | 15 | 0 | 7 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 9 | 3 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 23 | 5 | 27 | 31 | 4 | 18 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 27 | 8 | 0 | 6 | 7 | 118 | 35 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.275512 | 0.308978 | 0.08646 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126089 | 0 | 0 | 0.104625 | 0 | 0.118859 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155007 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129628 | 0 | 0 | 0.10952 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.203022 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143015 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121488 | 0 | 0 | 0.119856 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108145 | 0 | 0 | 0.098228 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125524 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.255658 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139746 | 0 | 0 | 0.134623 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112267 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10809 | 0.114749 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172307 | 0.096696 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.264428 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130721 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101314 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105171 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.203068 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08632 | 0 | 0 | 0.264714 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149981 | 0.100918 | 0 | 0 | 0.114314 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137878 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180633 | 0 | 0.308978 | 0 |
suicidewatch | SecretFromThoseILove | 2019/09/22 | I’ve realized that I’m subconsciously trying to kill myself. And its only making me hate myself more. I’ve been suicidal for at least 8 or so years, and all this time I’ve been consciously trying to not take action on it. Recently however I connected the dots and came to the conclusion that my habit of speeding (we’re ... | 4.774154 | 4.948022 | 5.633654 | 83.615096 | 69.076923 | 8.653846 | 29.326923 | 8.472885 | 1.951423 | 998 | 34 | 209 | 14 | 16 | 328 | 150 | 260 | 0.224 | 0.674 | 0.102 | -0.9893 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 42 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 5 | 11 | 21 | 8 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 18 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 42 | 48 | 15 | 6 | 6 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 15 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 12 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 2 | 39 | 10 | 26 | 31 | 8 | 27 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 11 | 8 | 1 | 7 | 14 | 133 | 54 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076944 | 0 | 0.182996 | 0 | 0.085148 | 0 | 0 | 0.176999 | 0.109245 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114448 | 0.306069 | 0 | 0 | 0.086197 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103852 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088628 | 0 | 0 | 0.066092 | 0 | 0 | 0.095616 | 0 | 0 | 0.094332 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091458 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07731 | 0.092508 | 0.10456 | 0 | 0.056869 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089639 | 0.098793 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107122 | 0 | 0.324262 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.442828 | 0 | 0.164979 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.204646 | 0 | 0.048887 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111947 | 0 | 0 | 0.180625 | 0 | 0.066794 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106153 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073559 | 0 | 0.077176 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076104 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100593 | 0 | 0 | 0.100092 | 0 | 0 | 0.102883 | 0.098802 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100182 | 0 | 0.079739 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098967 | 0.112014 | 0.070826 | 0 | 0.079912 | 0.083659 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109455 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075236 | 0.080428 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064118 | 0.098313 | 0.158881 | 0.058349 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135875 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118042 | 0.079427 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090293 | 0 | 0.11507 | 0.096459 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064439 |
suicidewatch | throaayacc279 | 2019/09/22 | ugh Now more than ever. It’s gonna be hard to get to sleep tonight | -2.1225 | -0.389698 | 0.0675 | 108.8275 | 94 | 3.2 | 14.25 | 3.1291 | -1.7924 | 52 | 1 | 15 | 0 | 2 | 17 | 15 | 16 | 0.259 | 0.741 | 0 | -0.4939 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.531624 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.307058 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.526479 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.588142 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | sybilian | 2019/09/22 | I'm chronically ill, mentally ill and I'm really struggling to see a life for myself anymore. I don't really know how to go about making this post, I've never been good at asking for help but here we go.
I'm 17, autistic and living with numerous mental health disorders and an undiagnosed chronic illness.
My life up un... | 4.818396 | 4.745509 | 6.044739 | 81.558377 | 68.962687 | 9.386567 | 27.570896 | 9.188382 | 2.017578 | 1,017 | 29 | 214 | 18 | 16 | 343 | 146 | 268 | 0.277 | 0.664 | 0.059 | -0.9971 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 26 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 11 | 11 | 1 | 2 | 13 | 0 | 13 | 18 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 41 | 43 | 21 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 18 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 18 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 7 | 8 | 0 | 3 | 9 | 5 | 24 | 3 | 39 | 33 | 5 | 38 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 7 | 15 | 1 | 4 | 17 | 130 | 30 | 1 | 0 | 0.23571 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109767 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098647 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.265646 | 0.09299 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083053 | 0 | 0 | 0.084641 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125278 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114 | 0.101811 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111889 | 0 | 0.102778 | 0 | 0.065698 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093771 | 0 | 0.050295 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084608 | 0 | 0 | 0.07685 | 0 | 0.103937 | 0 | 0.169592 | 0.08343 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105731 | 0 | 0 | 0.066672 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097957 | 0.114774 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109331 | 0 | 0 | 0.105324 | 0 | 0 | 0.35129 | 0 | 0 | 0.175666 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108582 | 0.084565 | 0 | 0.09412 | 0.132793 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.200483 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073755 | 0.076717 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067403 | 0.226952 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068959 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095264 | 0.101196 | 0 | 0 | 0.116274 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.318613 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099586 | 0 | 0.158528 | 0.090553 | 0.103768 | 0.112372 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070405 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103987 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066083 | 0.127472 | 0 | 0 | 0.116003 | 0.114325 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097167 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05867 | 0 | 0.079788 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095885 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101368 | 0 | 0.108754 | 0 | 0.064055 |
suicidewatch | Lil-Geeree | 2019/09/22 | I tried killing myself and my friends are laughing at me saying I really didn’t and it fucking hurts Title, I just didn’t want to live and every time I think about it to someone I feel like an attention whore. I even find it hard posting on here because I just seem like I’m trying to get attention or some shit.
My fri... | 2.267727 | 4.227049 | 3.315909 | 90.881364 | 77.636364 | 6.218182 | 25.772727 | 7.168622 | 1.121473 | 340 | 13 | 71 | 4 | 8 | 109 | 57 | 88 | 0.173 | 0.637 | 0.19 | -0.0754 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 11 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 19 | 16 | 5 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 4 | 13 | 6 | 8 | 10 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 2 | 2 | 3 | 6 | 42 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12926 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112691 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1221 | 0 | 0.155755 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093472 | 0.132066 | 0 | 0 | 0.168961 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.428473 | 0.170903 | 0.193166 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165601 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197899 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.204523 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180629 | 0 | 0.163237 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137073 | 0.142577 | 0.178541 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177047 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118428 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14701 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168292 | 0 | 0 | 0.189759 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156634 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118453 | 0 | 0.14676 | 0.107795 | 0 | 0 | 0.176644 | 0 | 0.376529 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109037 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | thefoolishfriend | 2019/09/22 | I don't want to wake up anymore It's been so long since I've woken up feeling anything other than dread or anxiety. I'm so tired.
I find temporary happiness in other people but at the end of the day, when it's just me and my head, I see nothing but dark in my future. Either occluded by despair or nonexistent.
Tomor... | 2.687238 | 3.98007 | 5.026508 | 81.925 | 74.777778 | 8.253968 | 28.412698 | 8.841846 | 2.326603 | 338 | 14 | 68 | 7 | 7 | 119 | 64 | 90 | 0.137 | 0.821 | 0.042 | -0.7317 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 8 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 8 | 1 | 11 | 6 | 1 | 15 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 44 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.237338 | 0.17315 | 0 | 0.448939 | 0 | 0 | 0.186259 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.291943 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.200471 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114445 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206872 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.240944 | 0 | 0 | 0.232291 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159871 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.200305 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.218602 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.21718 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156916 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.213966 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180365 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187232 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.260146 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133502 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | thelunafunk | 2019/09/22 | Wanting to Dissappear It’s not that I want to die. It’s that I can’t imagine 40+ more years on this planet. It’s that I wish I could just disappear completed and if death is the means, so be it. I feel like I’m suffocating from a mess I’ve caused and would like to become numb to all the emotions and stop the instructi... | 1.342188 | 3.154878 | 3.211271 | 91.235762 | 79.927835 | 7.197709 | 24.17984 | 8.167269 | 1.263642 | 358 | 13 | 83 | 7 | 9 | 120 | 65 | 97 | 0.173 | 0.73 | 0.097 | -0.4517 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 10 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 23 | 19 | 6 | 2 | 7 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 8 | 3 | 8 | 11 | 3 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 55 | 18 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.225527 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.237536 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.220943 | 0 | 0 | 0.451008 | 0 | 0 | 0.171722 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.223216 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.241933 | 0.190494 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108749 | 0.153651 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.21362 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.210152 | 0 | 0.189917 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143566 | 0 | 0 | 0.234282 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179814 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170747 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.253716 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.247328 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152785 | 0 | 0 | 0.138503 |
suicidewatch | 00000-000-0 | 2019/09/22 | Think I should just do it I can’t stand it anymore. People act like they have the solutions to my problems but they don’t get it. It’s not as simple as getting a better sleep schedule or being more social. I’ve done it all and nothing helps. No one will care when I’m gone, maybe grieve for a week but they will forget q... | 0.493804 | 2.754317 | 1.967953 | 96.315408 | 86.391304 | 4.02971 | 18.769928 | 5.148861 | -0.490581 | 258 | 7 | 56 | 1 | 8 | 83 | 54 | 69 | 0.138 | 0.68 | 0.181 | 0.4949 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 9 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 15 | 7 | 1 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 6 | 3 | 4 | 9 | 2 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 39 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.280367 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.250029 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.288236 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.289305 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.295403 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189491 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138115 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.284015 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.271262 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191568 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.195992 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.27051 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.282909 | 0.288181 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181146 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.226768 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | RagingCoconutMonkey | 2019/09/22 | Please help I dont know what to do anymore. My depression is taking over, every day is an uphill battle, i cant afford a therapist or medication, my relationship with my fiancee is strained, its harder and harder for me to get out of bed everyday. Ive struggled with it my whole life but this is the first time ive felt ... | 6.238634 | 6.684572 | 7.337143 | 71.72 | 65.956522 | 11.093168 | 33.819876 | 10.914261 | 3.897944 | 475 | 20 | 85 | 13 | 7 | 161 | 82 | 115 | 0.23 | 0.681 | 0.089 | -0.966 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 9 | 1 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 10 | 4 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 16 | 17 | 6 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 13 | 1 | 14 | 15 | 2 | 11 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 60 | 21 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184231 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155108 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119804 | 0 | 0.320002 | 0 | 0.192797 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.217718 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122697 | 0 | 0.156517 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175125 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178366 | 0 | 0 | 0.158013 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097056 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197462 | 0 | 0.220135 | 0.124516 | 0 | 0 | 0.184509 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102093 | 0.151425 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131213 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124001 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187141 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128787 | 0 | 0 | 0.203916 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177754 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.199444 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147729 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194204 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139674 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.21569 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108322 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181467 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153277 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.207402 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | rissabean518 | 2019/09/22 | Sept 28th Xanax, vodka, and I won't see you tonight pt 1.
People care.
But its how I feel.
I feel worthless. I feel not enough.
I feel burdening. I feel like a failure.
They feel fine. They care. But I dont. I dont want to live. I dont want to hurt when I wake up in the morning I dont want to feel the pain anym... | -3.250769 | -2.041928 | -0.249179 | 106.110846 | 113.615385 | 2.592821 | 14.174359 | 4.604125 | -1.486201 | 258 | 7 | 69 | 1 | 15 | 88 | 45 | 78 | 0.126 | 0.622 | 0.252 | 0.671 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 17 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 6 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 15 | 19 | 5 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 15 | 4 | 5 | 18 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 38 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.275806 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.283547 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.651874 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143678 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.492164 | 0.099339 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148859 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067934 | 0 | 0.122786 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147962 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096402 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110807 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.24605 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | noluckontindersmh | 2019/09/22 | I want to kill myself because I'm so ugly I hate my body and my face I dont even think I look human most of the time. Every time I'm out somewhere i see all of the guys that look better than me and it makes me want to go crawl in a hole somewhere and never leave. I didnt even leave my room today because I felt so damn ... | 2.057051 | 2.753539 | 4.238565 | 89.285861 | 75.513158 | 7.369378 | 24.344498 | 7.686295 | 0.981124 | 535 | 16 | 126 | 7 | 11 | 186 | 86 | 152 | 0.243 | 0.666 | 0.09 | -0.9823 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 11 | 7 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 3 | 25 | 27 | 7 | 1 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 7 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 7 | 20 | 4 | 15 | 21 | 4 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 76 | 27 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144027 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152859 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14637 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.26991 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130532 | 0 | 0.16394 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172975 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.292447 | 0 | 0.248703 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074626 | 0 | 0.14171 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083879 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146138 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145715 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163287 | 0.153693 | 0.081112 | 0 | 0 | 0.312554 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072105 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.371817 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098518 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113831 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100011 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159826 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.235221 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09457 | 0 | 0 | 0.172123 | 0 | 0.139899 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127471 | 0 | 0 | 0.261158 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104844 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | xxkittensrevengexx | 2019/09/22 | I want to die after a breakup It's been a whole month since my ex left me. I'm not getting any better. I feel as if the heartbreak is getting worse. I feel like the only way out is through death | -0.590233 | 1.406663 | 1.210512 | 101.701349 | 88.767442 | 3.44 | 20.227907 | 3.1291 | -0.742661 | 151 | 5 | 37 | 0 | 5 | 49 | 35 | 43 | 0.341 | 0.582 | 0.076 | -0.9349 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 9 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 5 | 2 | 5 | 8 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 21 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.200282 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.260477 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.305663 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.297835 | 0.210404 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.307747 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.319995 | 0 | 0 | 0.143887 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.235082 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.223994 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.243629 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173714 | 0.233775 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.328819 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.300139 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | insudbnsnjaja | 2019/09/22 | Drugs aren’t driving me to suicide and it’s making me insane I’ve made so many mistakes. So many. I’m in £10,000 of debt right now. Like it was so gradual and when I started to notice it I’d just delay it by smoking a joint or taking a drink ‘for now’. My debt came out of impulsive (but slow and steady) spending on dru... | 2.051974 | 3.551119 | 3.642778 | 90.346813 | 76.86736 | 6.522765 | 22.418746 | 7.231254 | 0.651737 | 2,853 | 80 | 626 | 33 | 64 | 948 | 314 | 769 | 0.152 | 0.768 | 0.08 | -0.9953 | 12 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 58 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 14 | 45 | 25 | 2 | 4 | 38 | 0 | 46 | 22 | 5 | 8 | 5 | 109 | 105 | 59 | 5 | 15 | 27 | 5 | 7 | 6 | 0 | 9 | 15 | 1 | 4 | 3 | 36 | 39 | 2 | 7 | 6 | 4 | 9 | 15 | 17 | 11 | 0 | 5 | 10 | 10 | 65 | 14 | 92 | 74 | 21 | 109 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 27 | 32 | 0 | 14 | 66 | 388 | 101 | 19 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0333 | 0.051348 | 0 | 0 | 0.048564 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087185 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112961 | 0.040887 | 0.029851 | 0.054082 | 0.041669 | 0 | 0.051389 | 0.086617 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056007 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084364 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095941 | 0.397516 | 0 | 0.081814 | 0 | 0 | 0.050598 | 0 | 0.032343 | 0.044295 | 0 | 0.093583 | 0 | 0 | 0.046163 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.047017 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076752 | 0.328826 | 0.11132 | 0.041072 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175465 | 0 | 0.050256 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098468 | 0 | 0.196478 | 0.048637 | 0.096448 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194375 | 0.130576 | 0.054176 | 0 | 0.080736 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17294 | 0.143541 | 0 | 0.04324 | 0.043336 | 0 | 0.054783 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09267 | 0.065374 | 0.099293 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.049331 | 0 | 0 | 0.049444 | 0 | 0.039086 | 0 | 0.035998 | 0.03631 | 0.037768 | 0 | 0.104157 | 0.275722 | 0.047979 | 0 | 0.055751 | 0 | 0 | 0.099547 | 0.037243 | 0 | 0 | 0.163121 | 0.053028 | 0.093492 | 0 | 0 | 0.051162 | 0 | 0.046291 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.046856 | 0 | 0.049227 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125482 | 0.050348 | 0 | 0.052574 | 0 | 0.083638 | 0 | 0.038942 | 0 | 0 | 0.039022 | 0 | 0.051085 | 0 | 0 | 0.040507 | 0 | 0.049004 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054816 | 0.138641 | 0 | 0.039106 | 0.04094 | 0 | 0.051193 | 0 | 0.107127 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110455 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114216 | 0.112564 | 0 | 0.046792 | 0 | 0.166232 | 0 | 0.047835 | 0 | 0 | 0.042293 | 0 | 0.040404 | 0.028883 | 0.038869 | 0.03928 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054672 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178248 | 0 | 0.099806 | 0.104358 | 0 | 0 | 0.126137 |
suicidewatch | mylifeisshiiit | 2019/09/22 | I wish I wasnt such a coward I want to kill myself but I know I won;t because I;m a pussy but I wish my SO would appreciate me as if I had done it | -3.176667 | -1.617279 | 0.984667 | 100.827 | 99.555556 | 3.991111 | 12.755556 | 5.683918 | -1.319771 | 112 | 2 | 32 | 1 | 5 | 42 | 27 | 36 | 0.11 | 0.554 | 0.337 | 0.8478 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 8 | 5 | 1 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 24 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202222 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.33948 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.367015 | 0 | 0.182313 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.195666 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.762957 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.235655 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | -----11------ | 2019/09/22 | I can’t go anymore Everyday is a differant hell, I can’t do this anymore. I have no purpose, I try so hard to make things better but they never will be, the only person who has ever cared about me is dead and I can’t imagine anyone else ever showing up like her, if no one cares about me why should I care about myself.... | 3.723855 | 3.456778 | 5.385205 | 86.019735 | 71.289157 | 7.603855 | 26.238554 | 6.742158 | 1.016665 | 297 | 8 | 66 | 2 | 5 | 102 | 59 | 83 | 0.229 | 0.584 | 0.188 | -0.6212 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 7 | 8 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 11 | 19 | 6 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 13 | 5 | 8 | 16 | 0 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 50 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.365083 | 0.128701 | 0.188595 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153685 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162789 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.562994 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192307 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153761 | 0 | 0.163025 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.332991 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104607 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164885 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089924 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122864 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141961 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124726 | 0.139988 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160717 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192423 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122283 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124967 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108565 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166088 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | 22Savage671 | 2019/09/22 | Never have I meant it as I do today when I say "I want to die." I'm scared as I might lose the thing I love most. The thing that keeps me alive. That gives me structure. Purpose. Happiness. Joy. That encourages me to work hard. That encourages me to go through hell. That encourages me to fight the good fight. That's ke... | -0.472778 | 1.758191 | 1.530963 | 96.910333 | 93.814815 | 5.472593 | 19.237037 | 7.031649 | 0.328377 | 398 | 13 | 93 | 7 | 15 | 131 | 67 | 108 | 0.177 | 0.578 | 0.245 | 0.8271 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 16 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 14 | 3 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 16 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 18 | 8 | 13 | 11 | 2 | 8 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 2 | 1 | 4 | 5 | 60 | 31 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122854 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197705 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159135 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096321 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182742 | 0.216527 | 0.159779 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202787 | 0.170647 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169322 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093067 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.426234 | 0 | 0 | 0.17193 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.404173 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146923 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15149 | 0.19072 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.379672 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180568 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11236 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183632 | 0 | 0.138684 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Qhoryn | 2019/09/22 | Must be soon No future for me anywhere
Alone
Unloved. Extremely unloved
I am worthless, you are right
I spent every drop, I did
Will has been official since June
Don’t know how to leave it for everyone
But I can’t continue
Has to be me that goes | 0.510429 | 2.988396 | 1.827714 | 94.681 | 92 | 6.057143 | 23.142857 | 7.44753 | 1.195686 | 195 | 8 | 42 | 4 | 7 | 62 | 40 | 50 | 0.312 | 0.688 | 0 | -0.9294 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 14 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 4 | 7 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 29 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.440328 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.358208 | 0.40625 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.233652 | 0 | 0 | 0.450173 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.363077 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.351689 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Aqua_aquors | 2019/09/22 | I wanna do weed. Better than killing myself. I already have a plan on what I'm going to do. I remember showing my mom my suicide plan and she just thought that it was a phase I'll eventually get over with. But this time, I mean it. If she doesn't believe that I'm gonna kill myself then I'm going prove her wrong.
But ... | 0.570588 | 2.396771 | 2.501725 | 95.293765 | 82.529412 | 5.125752 | 18.043137 | 6.079149 | -0.371423 | 1,098 | 24 | 255 | 8 | 30 | 366 | 144 | 306 | 0.295 | 0.629 | 0.076 | -0.9977 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 30 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 7 | 19 | 21 | 9 | 0 | 12 | 1 | 33 | 8 | 3 | 3 | 3 | 48 | 68 | 19 | 8 | 8 | 14 | 4 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 7 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 29 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 3 | 0 | 6 | 14 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 3 | 32 | 7 | 23 | 51 | 2 | 26 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 20 | 7 | 6 | 7 | 13 | 163 | 61 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103235 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063618 | 0.098096 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065413 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071935 | 0.078111 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1054 | 0 | 0.165476 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095381 | 0 | 0 | 0.080586 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194182 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081867 | 0 | 0.109641 | 0 | 0.216978 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082858 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085504 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172972 | 0.097753 | 0.269227 | 0.159501 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103057 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167606 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062705 | 0 | 0 | 0.185834 | 0 | 0 | 0.200296 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.3105 | 0 | 0.102826 | 0 | 0.105529 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066078 | 0.091408 | 0 | 0.082607 | 0 | 0.078559 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101904 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.219131 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144304 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071149 | 0 | 0 | 0.103877 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100863 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059931 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105975 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.288085 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.306988 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081767 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124302 | 0 | 0 | 0.074269 | 0.05455 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110357 | 0.074256 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084415 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136212 | 0 | 0 | 0.066456 | 0.102283 | 0 | 0.060244 |
suicidewatch | PM_ME_SOME_LOVE7 | 2019/09/22 | Sometimes I would imagine a round button in my bed that I could press And think that upon pressing it, I would instantly die. And then I would hit and smash my bed hoping that the button is real | 6.918462 | 5.899773 | 6.840641 | 80.750192 | 64.897436 | 8.825641 | 29.75641 | 7.168622 | 1.696426 | 154 | 4 | 30 | 1 | 2 | 49 | 27 | 39 | 0.101 | 0.827 | 0.072 | -0.2732 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 8 | 4 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 23 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.253409 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.329399 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.315238 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.361257 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.313905 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.203369 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.67639 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | eingeweiht | 2019/09/22 | I hate living in America suburbia and having to drive away, I want to die. All I ever wanted was to live in a city where I could have an apartment and walk everywhere. I absolutely hate suburbs. I hate driving . I am so lonely, so unhappy and American cities are basically for black people who hate whites. I just want t... | 2.884286 | 5.180757 | 4.98754 | 78.006071 | 77.095238 | 8.644444 | 26.373016 | 9.299571 | 2.649806 | 255 | 10 | 47 | 7 | 6 | 88 | 44 | 63 | 0.39 | 0.576 | 0.034 | -0.9837 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 10 | 13 | 5 | 2 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 8 | 0 | 8 | 11 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 34 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174547 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148331 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.385622 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168049 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.733679 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.328095 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128797 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.328735 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | PillowBitinPrince | 2019/09/22 | Really don’t wanna be here anymore :( Sorry for ranting
I’m only 20 and I don’t know how much longer I can deal with this life. People tell me my life is lucky just because my parents financially support me and buy me nice things, but none of them know how much I suffer. Sometimes I wonder if I wasnt gay that I would... | 0.91639 | 3.174886 | 2.703503 | 91.817749 | 84.284281 | 5.229594 | 23.107429 | 6.574016 | 0.624582 | 1,131 | 42 | 239 | 12 | 33 | 374 | 151 | 299 | 0.192 | 0.555 | 0.253 | 0.9655 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 27 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 5 | 12 | 27 | 4 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 26 | 11 | 2 | 4 | 3 | 44 | 56 | 17 | 0 | 10 | 8 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 12 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 12 | 11 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 5 | 55 | 16 | 20 | 44 | 7 | 21 | 0 | 5 | 4 | 6 | 17 | 10 | 1 | 6 | 12 | 158 | 66 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.266694 | 0 | 0 | 0.142841 | 0 | 0 | 0.11674 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170248 | 0 | 0 | 0.070634 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.261617 | 0 | 0 | 0.096705 | 0 | 0.151826 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094284 | 0.110711 | 0.176982 | 0.147857 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100596 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076023 | 0 | 0 | 0.056692 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0434 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07301 | 0 | 0 | 0.13263 | 0.079352 | 0.044845 | 0 | 0.048781 | 0.143986 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084989 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169486 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092715 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094344 | 0.069966 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087771 | 0.181881 | 0.083868 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.216236 | 0 | 0 | 0.145945 | 0.232405 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189293 | 0 | 0.0662 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08236 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058163 | 0.130561 | 0 | 0 | 0.095308 | 0 | 0 | 0.119013 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082131 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054987 | 0 | 0 | 0.092153 | 0 | 0.073302 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086868 | 0.068398 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085896 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084892 | 0.096084 | 0.060754 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097403 | 0 | 0 | 0.064536 | 0 | 0.075022 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171072 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101254 | 0 | 0.068851 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.394818 | 0 | 0.093083 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Throaway1837 | 2019/09/22 | I’m lonely. I’m scared. I want to do it.
When I’m at my lowest it’s so easy to see.
I blink and I see myself dying. Car accident, hung, wrist slit.
I don’t want to be like this. I want to be happy. But I’m worthless. Who the fuck is going to love me? I hate myself. I hate what people think of me, it shouldn’t matte... | -3.062061 | -1.787882 | 0.145203 | 103.354568 | 112.816794 | 3.012031 | 10.583511 | 5.108053 | -1.683376 | 438 | 7 | 113 | 3 | 25 | 152 | 70 | 131 | 0.347 | 0.513 | 0.141 | -0.9888 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 26 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 17 | 5 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 11 | 5 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 12 | 32 | 6 | 1 | 4 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 19 | 3 | 12 | 28 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 62 | 28 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120344 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150103 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126567 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133708 | 0 | 0 | 0.082197 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153961 | 0 | 0.285584 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171387 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079485 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102156 | 0.070659 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130534 | 0 | 0.096542 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169389 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100268 | 0 | 0 | 0.15876 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.724 | 0 | 0.230503 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122545 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096086 | 0.092673 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.25592 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | blazzed420 | 2019/09/22 | I'm laying here with a 60 script of bars I feel like a wasted space and this would be so much easier | 6.247826 | 3.108802 | 7.232174 | 84.176957 | 67.695652 | 10.93913 | 23 | 8.841846 | 0.968426 | 79 | 0 | 20 | 1 | 1 | 27 | 21 | 23 | 0.129 | 0.646 | 0.225 | 0.3353 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.35317 | 0.498991 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.34124 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.51346 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.496177 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | 451Farenheit | 2019/09/22 | I have all the means to kill myself I can’t do it( kill my self ) because I feel selfish, the feel to live because you don’t want to cause others pain... while you going through so much crap in life sucks. How do I become non altruistic?
Funny thing is I have so many stuff I could OD already but I haven’t... I just ... | -0.728078 | 1.440426 | 0.952681 | 101.023936 | 94.443038 | 3.379056 | 14.776755 | 4.851558 | -1.258884 | 287 | 6 | 68 | 1 | 11 | 92 | 55 | 79 | 0.187 | 0.773 | 0.041 | -0.879 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 20 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 6 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 10 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 11 | 17 | 5 | 3 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 13 | 0 | 5 | 16 | 2 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 45 | 18 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.237594 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.262495 | 0.237787 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.221177 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171903 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.217729 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122362 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.476405 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152076 | 0 | 0 | 0.190118 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.218285 | 0 | 0.23453 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158274 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.229099 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.224609 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.246472 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143039 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.251091 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126992 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | THETHROWAWAY16701985 | 2019/09/22 | So here’s the thing... I’ve been riding this line for the better part of five years now, I’ve lost pretty much everything. And I’m not here lookin for pity or for some misguided attempt at saving a life. I’m only here to hear from the community, I made a throwaway for just such occasions. Really all I want is for peopl... | 6.200659 | 5.108609 | 6.513705 | 82.751637 | 66.370518 | 8.997977 | 29.666258 | 7.610547 | 1.642768 | 958 | 26 | 205 | 8 | 13 | 310 | 150 | 251 | 0.111 | 0.759 | 0.129 | 0.573 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 31 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 6 | 13 | 16 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 0 | 17 | 4 | 1 | 2 | 5 | 44 | 38 | 17 | 0 | 4 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 14 | 11 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 7 | 7 | 6 | 0 | 3 | 10 | 3 | 21 | 10 | 30 | 25 | 8 | 37 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 10 | 0 | 8 | 20 | 133 | 35 | 2 | 0.122137 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108267 | 0 | 0 | 0.126497 | 0 | 0 | 0.101628 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121127 | 0 | 0 | 0.100508 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.229503 | 0.093916 | 0 | 0.074454 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.21604 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10521 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10203 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11048 | 0 | 0 | 0.109769 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061756 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111631 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127623 | 0 | 0 | 0.102443 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137657 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.363929 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108561 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172538 | 0.05967 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133327 | 0 | 0 | 0.115569 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097489 | 0 | 0.089785 | 0 | 0.0942 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082763 | 0.278672 | 0.129962 | 0 | 0 | 0.132262 | 0 | 0.169349 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116973 | 0.124257 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.245563 | 0 | 0 | 0.12217 | 0 | 0.078244 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097327 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103486 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102112 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106753 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081142 | 0.07826 | 0 | 0.096963 | 0.284876 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082923 | 0.13285 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07204 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088917 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157304 |
suicidewatch | forpocuj | 2019/09/22 | I really need to feel less alone I just got a reddit account specifically for this. I called a suicide hotline in the past when it was this bad, I guess I had some incorrect ideas of what those hotlines do. I just don't want to be alone in my head like this and I know that getting some mental help would make it better ... | 3.359489 | 3.862258 | 4.270537 | 90.974086 | 72.321555 | 7.371322 | 24.78873 | 7.273562 | 0.786142 | 1,042 | 28 | 242 | 10 | 19 | 337 | 149 | 283 | 0.187 | 0.67 | 0.144 | -0.9119 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 18 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 12 | 17 | 2 | 2 | 12 | 1 | 28 | 8 | 4 | 2 | 2 | 59 | 57 | 20 | 2 | 11 | 16 | 1 | 7 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 16 | 13 | 0 | 2 | 10 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 9 | 8 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 9 | 36 | 9 | 29 | 41 | 8 | 27 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 16 | 10 | 0 | 8 | 14 | 163 | 52 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.208922 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094291 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168429 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105847 | 0.178406 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.20598 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173765 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161058 | 0 | 0 | 0.130094 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066618 | 0 | 0 | 0.096377 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.254991 | 0.072055 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077925 | 0 | 0.105391 | 0 | 0.114643 | 0 | 0.080667 | 0 | 0.111109 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.207024 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13521 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113859 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110861 | 0.082215 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142482 | 0.098551 | 0 | 0.089062 | 0.089259 | 0 | 0 | 0.110101 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067325 | 0.204514 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101644 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149574 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189302 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068346 | 0.076709 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096283 | 0.209772 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064614 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095942 | 0.080208 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100933 | 0 | 0.085459 | 0.155295 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084324 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.22065 | 0.114455 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058813 | 0.231849 | 0.095604 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098526 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11898 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115985 | 0 | 0.109379 | 0.073428 | 0 | 0 | 0.214946 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Yourdudethechris | 2019/09/22 | 3 have died 6 more and I will kill myself | -1.358 | 0.055991 | 1.29 | 103.625 | 87 | 4 | 10 | 3.1291 | -2.146 | 32 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 10 | 10 | 0.631 | 0.369 | 0 | -0.8612 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.684165 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.729328 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Jc093 | 2019/09/22 | Loved Ones I’m honestly only staying alive for my parents when they pass away it’s up in the air at that point. I heard killing yourself leaves a constant pain and grief for those who were close to you even 20 plus years after the fact. | 3.115625 | 4.885503 | 2.856667 | 95.955 | 74.625 | 5.633333 | 24.5 | 5.985473 | 0.36265 | 189 | 6 | 41 | 1 | 4 | 56 | 45 | 48 | 0.187 | 0.651 | 0.163 | -0.34 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 4 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 9 | 2 | 0 | 13 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 25 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.277129 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.318752 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194821 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.326334 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.312325 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.266217 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.199875 | 0.224334 | 0.313863 | 0 | 0.327523 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.278837 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.314393 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189947 |
suicidewatch | sentientvoid | 2019/09/22 | I want to kill myself, but for some reason, I can't get myself to do it. I have no motivation to do anything, I hardly ever genuinely enjoy anything anymore, no matter how hard I try. Any time I feel any semblance of happiness, it is always fleeting. I'm flunking college. I'm fucking up my entire life, and I can't stop... | 2.412981 | 3.328232 | 4.641136 | 85.901416 | 74.909091 | 7.460839 | 25.47028 | 7.882392 | 1.250222 | 638 | 21 | 144 | 9 | 13 | 223 | 85 | 176 | 0.164 | 0.691 | 0.146 | -0.8038 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 21 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 8 | 7 | 4 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 20 | 3 | 1 | 5 | 2 | 24 | 36 | 5 | 3 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 26 | 2 | 21 | 32 | 2 | 15 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 9 | 95 | 38 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109277 | 0 | 0 | 0.267927 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.260488 | 0 | 0 | 0.32422 | 0.116911 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134396 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116319 | 0.135699 | 0 | 0 | 0.118795 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066404 | 0 | 0.126097 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121412 | 0.274458 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139803 | 0.235292 | 0 | 0.134782 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129334 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.435891 | 0 | 0.144351 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092762 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116223 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135029 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104653 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109798 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153159 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089164 | 0 | 0 | 0.136719 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.232385 | 0.104244 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.23701 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | koobishing | 2019/09/22 | I want to kill myself but I promised not to. I just want to die so bad. Life is so painful. I'm in so much pain and I'm so alone and theres nothing I can do except kill myself but I can't even do that because I promised people I wouldn't. How can I deal with this pain, I feel like I'm drowning | -2.101449 | -0.316157 | 0.397101 | 105.870725 | 95.231884 | 3.066667 | 16.362319 | 3.1291 | -1.403568 | 227 | 6 | 62 | 0 | 9 | 76 | 41 | 69 | 0.424 | 0.443 | 0.133 | -0.9871 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 9 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 13 | 13 | 9 | 4 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 3 | 6 | 12 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 40 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.208644 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168204 | 0.122803 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.207688 | 0 | 0 | 0.209076 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133057 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10186 | 0.143918 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.445754 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142292 | 0.098419 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148091 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193299 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.643078 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139662 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.237644 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | randomthrowabc123 | 2019/09/22 | Going to Kill Myself (i think?) I’m not exactly sure if this is the right place to post this. I’d feel weird leaving suicide notes to my friends or family or anything like that. I think it’s likely I will commit suicide some time this year. I’m just looking at it objectively and it seems inevitable. I have a really bad... | 1.944198 | 4.05894 | 3.801056 | 86.250628 | 79.340909 | 6.641176 | 23.421123 | 7.724431 | 1.177773 | 680 | 23 | 139 | 11 | 17 | 229 | 101 | 176 | 0.172 | 0.671 | 0.157 | -0.8381 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 21 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 12 | 15 | 2 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 41 | 33 | 14 | 5 | 3 | 8 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 17 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 18 | 8 | 19 | 28 | 2 | 16 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 6 | 0 | 6 | 6 | 93 | 35 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.253883 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107046 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108613 | 0.079297 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085918 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12263 | 0 | 0.19732 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100501 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.221786 | 0.109107 | 0.104038 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115031 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.287833 | 0 | 0.07149 | 0 | 0 | 0.137738 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127103 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109236 | 0 | 0 | 0.110591 | 0 | 0 | 0.086831 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124817 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135908 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.249165 | 0.13234 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083334 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111089 | 0 | 0 | 0.130235 | 0 | 0 | 0.118422 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.426866 | 0 | 0.122601 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172841 | 0.333405 | 0 | 0.103271 | 0.075852 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107331 | 0.153452 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116959 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142224 | 0 | 0.083769 |
suicidewatch | 1225_767 | 2019/09/22 | When I’m dead maybe the suffering will all come to an end. Sorry for poor grammar. I have a plan this plan is to hang myself in my wooded area of my property. I don’t feel safe not even at my school, my parents locked all of the knives away and that doesn’t matter. I found a new way glass. It cuts much deeper and I ble... | 0.79197 | 3.035402 | 2.22303 | 95.154545 | 84.707071 | 5.216162 | 19.606061 | 6.574016 | 0.045709 | 745 | 21 | 166 | 8 | 22 | 240 | 116 | 198 | 0.158 | 0.826 | 0.016 | -0.9676 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 9 | 7 | 2 | 0 | 12 | 0 | 15 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 27 | 31 | 15 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 13 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 5 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 3 | 24 | 1 | 17 | 23 | 6 | 24 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 6 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 99 | 28 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117229 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106173 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138595 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107482 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080469 | 0 | 0.107467 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110512 | 0 | 0 | 0.082412 | 0.112865 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063089 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136808 | 0 | 0 | 0.065189 | 0 | 0.070912 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138044 | 0 | 0.068572 | 0 | 0.14075 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088131 | 0 | 0 | 0.220355 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125352 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091723 | 0 | 0 | 0.120507 | 0.132698 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13288 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.415639 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.252555 | 0.198857 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.309642 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.419022 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.272964 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093814 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099056 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084713 | 0 | 0.121886 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09904 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127155 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | transthrowwaa78 | 2019/09/22 | Been feeling super bad lately I have been into hormones(mtf) for a year, 4 days ago was my anniversary but that triggered something in me that i cant explain, because im still so miserable after all. A couple years i had a serious attempt but i survived. Im feeling worse and worse, and im planning on hanging myself. I ... | 3.16 | 5.145793 | 4.628333 | 82.3625 | 75.086957 | 6.33913 | 31.789855 | 7.168622 | 2.198525 | 276 | 14 | 49 | 3 | 6 | 92 | 52 | 69 | 0.318 | 0.542 | 0.14 | -0.9548 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 13 | 10 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 8 | 1 | 6 | 6 | 1 | 12 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 34 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175496 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165303 | 0.120686 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.219059 | 0 | 0.127679 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.200207 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.641551 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.223328 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.210663 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152413 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158105 | 0.165518 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116773 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.403513 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.254983 |
suicidewatch | _Conductor | 2019/09/22 | Seeking advice. Friend w/ suicidal thoughts/harming, but I'm 4 hours away and they are alone! So me and another person have moved away for school. We had another close friend stay back at our home town about 4 hours away from where we are now.
From what I understand she's started self harming and having heavy suicidal... | 3.841533 | 5.950139 | 4.412848 | 84.112934 | 73.503311 | 7.824962 | 26.847173 | 8.617729 | 1.981728 | 624 | 23 | 120 | 12 | 13 | 198 | 103 | 151 | 0.22 | 0.628 | 0.152 | -0.9404 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 19 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 8 | 8 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 16 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 25 | 27 | 11 | 2 | 1 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 12 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 19 | 5 | 20 | 22 | 1 | 22 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 30 | 13 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 80 | 23 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123752 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131162 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.265588 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.225474 | 0.118392 | 0 | 0.356949 | 0.097379 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107762 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.258629 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.293527 | 0 | 0.066165 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.254654 | 0 | 0.127031 | 0 | 0.249431 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069598 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06187 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134599 | 0 | 0 | 0.097673 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085815 | 0.096316 | 0 | 0 | 0.14062 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110578 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081129 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126789 | 0.128167 | 0 | 0 | 0.132114 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14235 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089637 | 0.134982 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.277049 | 0.14371 | 0 | 0 | 0.095218 | 0.101789 | 0 | 0 | 0.144825 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100539 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085981 | 0 | 0 | 0.131837 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074696 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129058 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | MyGameIsBroken27 | 2019/09/22 | I can't take it anymore Everyday seems to be getting worse. I hate myself more each passing day. I've pushed everyone away from me because I'm socially awkward.. I can't do it anymore, I make everyone around me uncomfortable. No one cares about me, No one loves me. When I turn 18 next year I plan on hanging myself. I... | 0.873077 | 3.110362 | 2.741418 | 91.616082 | 84.274725 | 5.837802 | 24.484615 | 7.168622 | 1.045971 | 343 | 14 | 74 | 5 | 10 | 114 | 61 | 91 | 0.154 | 0.779 | 0.067 | -0.6523 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 5 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 13 | 20 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 15 | 2 | 10 | 18 | 3 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 4 | 1 | 3 | 5 | 47 | 18 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.378097 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169696 | 0 | 0 | 0.179098 | 0 | 0 | 0.116203 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194355 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122937 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.221064 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.3643 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174228 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099594 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188203 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104762 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172046 | 0 | 0.127244 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.223257 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202732 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.258345 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173538 | 0 | 0 | 0.195674 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194318 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143326 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151335 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.207345 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112435 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194263 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122756 |
suicidewatch | lemonysnicketstrash | 2019/09/22 | Everytime things start to get better I hit a new low Throwaway account for reasons that are about to become obvious. Names are swapped out to help protect identities.
When I was 17 I had a 15 year old girlfriend. The relationship evolved organically through mutual friends and we ended up being best friends before we... | 4.85335 | 5.919471 | 5.333309 | 82.65149 | 69.279146 | 8.230213 | 32.890805 | 8.49103 | 2.543702 | 2,461 | 112 | 478 | 37 | 42 | 788 | 275 | 609 | 0.086 | 0.82 | 0.094 | 0.7333 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 49 | 2 | 1 | 6 | 11 | 24 | 30 | 2 | 2 | 40 | 0 | 41 | 5 | 1 | 4 | 6 | 80 | 83 | 40 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 11 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 4 | 19 | 36 | 4 | 3 | 16 | 3 | 2 | 11 | 7 | 9 | 1 | 4 | 35 | 6 | 81 | 21 | 90 | 40 | 7 | 117 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 47 | 48 | 0 | 3 | 59 | 324 | 100 | 21 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068589 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06164 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110661 | 0 | 0 | 0.058396 | 0.047793 | 0 | 0 | 0.068644 | 0.052889 | 0 | 0.065227 | 0.05497 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071088 | 0 | 0 | 0.263003 | 0.05354 | 0 | 0.067167 | 0 | 0.049625 | 0 | 0 | 0.040084 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064506 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072844 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05505 | 0 | 0 | 0.082104 | 0.056222 | 0.104735 | 0 | 0.05586 | 0 | 0.117187 | 0 | 0.094281 | 0.044403 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105737 | 0.075157 | 0.136298 | 0.432181 | 0 | 0.064946 | 0 | 0.141294 | 0 | 0.099421 | 0.068525 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.041661 | 0 | 0 | 0.123466 | 0.061209 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061678 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068317 | 0.050664 | 0 | 0.065812 | 0.135061 | 0 | 0 | 0.060731 | 0 | 0.054883 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117623 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06606 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120058 | 0.132203 | 0.058327 | 0 | 0.059639 | 0 | 0.195661 | 0 | 0.042117 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069015 | 0 | 0 | 0.04309 | 0 | 0.064938 | 0 | 0 | 0.070069 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066109 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063905 | 0 | 0.06673 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.351944 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071197 | 0 | 0 | 0.067987 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.041292 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.036243 | 0 | 0.058915 | 0.059391 | 0.069056 | 0.084397 | 0.067606 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053681 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055884 | 0.057617 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180996 | 0 | 0 | 0.044153 | 0 | 0 | 0.400252 |
suicidewatch | aurora1945 | 2019/09/22 | The loneliness and ease of disposal that people feel for me has already killed me The past few weeks for me have been... this whirlwind of intense emotion and unbearable pain. I can’t explain it, but I’ve just been trying so hard to grasp onto anything, except I can’t, and I’m drowning.
I had a FWB that I confessed m... | 0.668526 | 2.899583 | 2.335343 | 94.2221 | 85.16 | 5.491429 | 21.995238 | 6.86897 | 0.538204 | 1,404 | 49 | 310 | 18 | 42 | 459 | 189 | 375 | 0.166 | 0.7 | 0.134 | -0.8965 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 54 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 15 | 19 | 5 | 0 | 15 | 0 | 27 | 10 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 65 | 65 | 24 | 2 | 11 | 11 | 1 | 7 | 3 | 4 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 22 | 24 | 1 | 2 | 16 | 2 | 2 | 5 | 8 | 12 | 0 | 3 | 12 | 8 | 48 | 7 | 46 | 47 | 2 | 43 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 24 | 19 | 1 | 1 | 20 | 200 | 70 | 2 | 0.092957 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.288825 | 0.10258 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092188 | 0 | 0 | 0.076495 | 0 | 0.086902 | 0 | 0.174672 | 0.071478 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098336 | 0 | 0.097463 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095127 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104564 | 0.41166 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.28201 | 0.132816 | 0 | 0 | 0.169921 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143636 | 0.085937 | 0.097132 | 0 | 0.052829 | 0 | 0 | 0.102485 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083271 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102843 | 0 | 0.153259 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065658 | 0.136242 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083897 | 0 | 0.062049 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074197 | 0 | 0 | 0.137852 | 0 | 0.089778 | 0 | 0.174467 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12598 | 0.070698 | 0.098912 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088738 | 0.128889 | 0.081166 | 0 | 0 | 0.087874 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193948 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093024 | 0 | 0.157524 | 0.071563 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099079 | 0.074235 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069892 | 0.074715 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123512 | 0 | 0 | 0.073797 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063111 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.274141 | 0.073785 | 0.149128 | 0 | 0 | 0.086172 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101633 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Checkered_Strawberry | 2019/09/22 | Suicidal thoughts sneak up on me all the time Sometimes I get in my car and after a really frustrating day I tell myself, " today's the day I crash this thing into a tree going 120 kmph"
Sometimes I cry really hard and jerk the wheel, fighting with myself on whether or not I should attempt to drive off the road.
I re... | 6.808775 | 5.449361 | 6.809387 | 81.992037 | 65.298932 | 9.736756 | 32.526945 | 8.418075 | 2.246245 | 1,086 | 35 | 230 | 12 | 14 | 347 | 158 | 281 | 0.241 | 0.649 | 0.109 | -0.9923 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 24 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 15 | 19 | 9 | 0 | 13 | 0 | 15 | 6 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 45 | 43 | 23 | 1 | 5 | 5 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 13 | 18 | 0 | 1 | 13 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 5 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 6 | 45 | 6 | 36 | 35 | 4 | 46 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 16 | 25 | 1 | 4 | 18 | 157 | 58 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099353 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093656 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083647 | 0.061069 | 0 | 0.085247 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109372 | 0 | 0 | 0.22367 | 0 | 0 | 0.102141 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110044 | 0.193825 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104668 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066169 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202618 | 0.143139 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0774 | 0.092616 | 0.157021 | 0 | 0.056935 | 0.084027 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089742 | 0.098908 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105847 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110114 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070761 | 0.097887 | 0 | 0.088462 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090417 | 0 | 0.066872 | 0.101568 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.208359 | 0.087474 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192535 | 0 | 0 | 0.107557 | 0 | 0.085554 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079831 | 0.091201 | 0.104511 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077124 | 0.495408 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083756 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109582 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087563 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133112 | 0 | 0 | 0.31813 | 0.116833 | 0 | 0.09496 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110335 | 0 | 0.177268 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092869 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108642 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109532 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Not_Luna | 2019/09/22 | I think I’ve made up my mind. My life is shit, like 70% of the population. I know I’m not alone. My situation is probably that of a thousand other people, and my feelings the same as over a million other people. I know that, and I know I should just suck it up and deal.
But I don’t want to. Life feels more difficult f... | 1.287386 | 2.836571 | 3.145143 | 92.869 | 79.15 | 6.471429 | 20.928571 | 7.338185 | 0.366757 | 1,444 | 38 | 345 | 19 | 35 | 484 | 186 | 400 | 0.187 | 0.711 | 0.101 | -0.9921 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 57 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 7 | 5 | 19 | 5 | 1 | 29 | 1 | 19 | 13 | 6 | 5 | 4 | 61 | 63 | 20 | 4 | 8 | 10 | 3 | 9 | 5 | 3 | 1 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 18 | 15 | 1 | 2 | 15 | 0 | 3 | 9 | 5 | 12 | 1 | 4 | 7 | 11 | 47 | 7 | 60 | 53 | 6 | 54 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 15 | 21 | 3 | 4 | 26 | 208 | 65 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068507 | 0 | 0 | 0.160085 | 0 | 0 | 0.064306 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081039 | 0 | 0 | 0.076645 | 0.054039 | 0.079186 | 0 | 0 | 0.07225 | 0 | 0 | 0.059426 | 0.064529 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066573 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079676 | 0.066564 | 0 | 0.240625 | 0 | 0.088574 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064561 | 0 | 0.205351 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.312616 | 0.220846 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080755 | 0.074138 | 0.087844 | 0 | 0.061811 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.237946 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.051802 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076109 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076692 | 0 | 0.085503 | 0 | 0.169892 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083969 | 0.079028 | 0.218351 | 0.188785 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168729 | 0 | 0 | 0.146255 | 0.154762 | 0 | 0 | 0.084185 | 0 | 0.077855 | 0 | 0 | 0.078035 | 0.271541 | 0.061687 | 0 | 0 | 0.11461 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081096 | 0 | 0 | 0.117556 | 0.082235 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073776 | 0.107158 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083325 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080624 | 0 | 0.158661 | 0 | 0.08687 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086513 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064613 | 0.088528 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058108 | 0 | 0.067549 | 0.071152 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.04952 | 0 | 0 | 0.09013 | 0 | 0.073256 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075495 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136752 | 0.122688 | 0.185977 | 0.094111 | 0.069487 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088872 | 0 | 0 | 0.056263 | 0 | 0.078759 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.049768 |
suicidewatch | opheliasexit | 2019/09/22 | I Can't Live Anymore I've suffered from Sarcoidosis of the central nervous system for nearly two decades now. The medical community recognizes it as one of the most painful diseases out there and it's extremely rare. There is no cure. There is no treatment. The only thing for certain is that tomorrow will be worse than... | 3.649817 | 5.697962 | 4.447302 | 83.922326 | 73.873737 | 7.285086 | 27.808675 | 8.124752 | 1.920444 | 1,619 | 64 | 305 | 26 | 34 | 520 | 216 | 396 | 0.127 | 0.695 | 0.179 | 0.9852 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 42 | 2 | 2 | 3 | 5 | 17 | 28 | 2 | 2 | 19 | 0 | 36 | 13 | 2 | 4 | 3 | 57 | 64 | 27 | 2 | 9 | 11 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 9 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 20 | 15 | 1 | 1 | 11 | 3 | 1 | 8 | 11 | 10 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 3 | 34 | 18 | 52 | 48 | 11 | 46 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 20 | 19 | 1 | 13 | 16 | 218 | 54 | 6 | 0.178912 | 0 | 0 | 0.09752 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074435 | 0 | 0 | 0.121666 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177433 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163595 | 0.098797 | 0 | 0 | 0.093879 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091896 | 0.094633 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057692 | 0.092225 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.274686 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079232 | 0 | 0 | 0.177255 | 0 | 0 | 0.085479 | 0.080397 | 0 | 0.084331 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085892 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069114 | 0.082701 | 0.093474 | 0.085814 | 0.05084 | 0.075032 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1777 | 0.088096 | 0 | 0.095765 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093155 | 0.147488 | 0.072919 | 0 | 0 | 0.097194 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078991 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084646 | 0.059713 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090118 | 0 | 0.094899 | 0 | 0 | 0.071403 | 0.095078 | 0.131521 | 0.132661 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085836 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121236 | 0.204106 | 0.380751 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062018 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085674 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100211 | 0 | 0.178961 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076395 | 0 | 0.071139 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073999 | 0.100552 | 0.089521 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074789 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097851 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13452 | 0 | 0 | 0.164718 | 0 | 0 | 0.118861 | 0.05732 | 0 | 0 | 0.052163 | 0 | 0.084794 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174771 | 0.093127 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052764 | 0.071006 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097011 | 0 | 0 | 0.182327 | 0.063547 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | angelzurc | 2019/09/22 | I’m the toxic one Why should I continue to live and try to improve myself when I am the toxic one?
I have lied about too much, and was just told that even my greatest efforts will not be enough to fix anything and they aren’t ever going to get back with me.
I mean I wouldn’t forgive myself either, but how am I suppo... | 3.42624 | 3.823263 | 4.787412 | 87.710283 | 72.113208 | 6.81186 | 25.520216 | 6.182691 | 0.776603 | 389 | 11 | 84 | 2 | 7 | 130 | 67 | 106 | 0.113 | 0.753 | 0.134 | -0.4219 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 10 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 14 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 20 | 22 | 8 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 17 | 3 | 11 | 16 | 5 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 70 | 21 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.195168 | 0 | 0 | 0.323892 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151324 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202163 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.203342 | 0 | 0.129982 | 0.178013 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102818 | 0 | 0.111843 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194295 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174921 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192289 | 0 | 0.521322 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.214368 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144667 | 0 | 0.151781 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.266707 | 0 | 0.209404 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188046 | 0 | 0.133611 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116075 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177577 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | fractalfluctus | 2019/09/22 | I can't handle anymore Each day that passes I fell more depressed.
I can't handle college anymore because I'm so sad all the time and the only thing that I wanna do is cry all day
My family is broken, we have no money
Everything seems pointless and suicide is always on my mind
I have no one that I trust to talk about ... | 4.477813 | 4.705674 | 5.891667 | 81.32 | 69.729167 | 8.066667 | 28.5 | 7.793538 | 1.7752 | 365 | 12 | 72 | 4 | 6 | 124 | 59 | 96 | 0.23 | 0.712 | 0.058 | -0.9164 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 14 | 17 | 6 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 14 | 1 | 5 | 15 | 4 | 7 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 51 | 20 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159506 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.570331 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116856 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.210568 | 0.247255 | 0 | 0.165107 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172283 | 0 | 0.180713 | 0 | 0.096927 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128489 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192129 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193558 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14214 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129898 | 0.145793 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174512 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.419367 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154077 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127354 | 0 | 0 | 0.152185 | 0.111779 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | FlatOutEKG | 2019/09/22 | I've been there. DM is always open I have never tried but have come close to doing it. Have had the plan, the equipment and left alone just thinking "today is the day." Aleays backed out cause of family. I'm doing better these days and just wanted to tell you, it does get better. Feel free to send a DM if you just want... | 0.454401 | 2.645711 | 1.665616 | 98.928283 | 85.760563 | 4.11338 | 11.691901 | 5.148861 | -1.516593 | 263 | 2 | 60 | 1 | 8 | 83 | 51 | 71 | 0.031 | 0.732 | 0.236 | 0.9481 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 17 | 16 | 4 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 5 | 7 | 14 | 0 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 37 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.243623 | 0 | 0 | 0.195727 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180874 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.416076 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.241641 | 0 | 0.202626 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.303402 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.205847 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.22175 | 0 | 0.118937 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181735 | 0 | 0.122896 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.255573 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.18142 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189065 | 0.205598 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150723 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.222966 | 0 | 0 | 0.159703 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.277484 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | discofried | 2019/09/22 | Fiancé is gone A cyclic event eventually has plagued me again. The tides of time of repeated themselves and my constant struggle against bipolar disorder has once again ruined any bright spots in my life.
During my deep bouts of depression I lose what makes me attractive, enticing and a pleasure be to around. I do n... | 8.374122 | 8.136704 | 7.69519 | 73.247207 | 61.621359 | 10.986055 | 36.688438 | 10.43687 | 3.784355 | 894 | 37 | 157 | 18 | 11 | 279 | 136 | 206 | 0.202 | 0.725 | 0.073 | -0.9788 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 20 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 12 | 20 | 1 | 1 | 13 | 0 | 20 | 7 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 29 | 30 | 13 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 4 | 12 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 3 | 17 | 8 | 27 | 22 | 4 | 29 | 0 | 8 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 12 | 0 | 2 | 11 | 115 | 27 | 3 | 0.167962 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11422 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138218 | 0.299043 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102388 | 0.1855 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181507 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.28933 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192498 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169853 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.286369 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178798 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118636 | 0 | 0.168342 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187906 | 0.18335 | 0 | 0.151592 | 0 | 0.112116 | 0.170287 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178874 | 0 | 0.127742 | 0.178723 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17522 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17559 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133343 | 0.293819 | 0.193047 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164074 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151018 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Jordan_lol | 2019/09/22 | When you die, the pain stops right? Please tell me it does.. please | 0.297692 | 2.714415 | -1.255 | 115.6375 | 95.923077 | 2.6 | 6.5 | 3.1291 | -3.0582 | 51 | 0 | 13 | 0 | 2 | 13 | 12 | 13 | 0.411 | 0.374 | 0.215 | -0.6369 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.328405 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.276911 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.336704 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.694692 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.27023 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.26455 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.276574 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | me4eva | 2019/09/22 | I want to hang myself Ive been thinking about it a lot lately. I was going to do it a year ago. Ive gained twenty pounds. My boyfriend wont have sex with me. He never really was interested in sex. we have to break up and im really sad. I dont have a job and live with drug addict family. We're poor. I need to get a degr... | -2.268471 | -0.480716 | 1.473714 | 97.219 | 97.9 | 4.457143 | 12.142857 | 6.182691 | -1.005014 | 331 | 5 | 84 | 4 | 14 | 121 | 64 | 100 | 0.071 | 0.894 | 0.035 | -0.464 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 16 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 14 | 23 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 13 | 1 | 9 | 19 | 1 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 52 | 16 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185971 | 0 | 0 | 0.15122 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169182 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190438 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.599801 | 0 | 0.197834 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16082 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089128 | 0 | 0.096952 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.368539 | 0 | 0.169287 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192436 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150637 | 0.150969 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145032 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126492 | 0.131572 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.218572 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128265 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.218618 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10062 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109856 |
suicidewatch | BootyLover42069 | 2019/09/22 | What to do if friend has serve suicidal thoughts? he says he doesn't want to kill himself cause he too scared but still wants to not live can post the convo that's happened so far | 6.150811 | 5.483628 | 5.019595 | 92.025068 | 66.297297 | 8.481081 | 29.310811 | 7.168622 | 1.226849 | 144 | 4 | 33 | 1 | 2 | 42 | 33 | 37 | 0.144 | 0.745 | 0.111 | -0.088 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 8 | 3 | 2 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 7 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 17 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.311927 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.234595 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.268512 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.335938 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.268124 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.290807 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.24147 | 0.304001 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.242491 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.332138 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.24106 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.358195 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | ongeneeslik | 2019/09/22 | getting ready I’ve been cheeking my meds for a couple of weeks now. I hope I’ll have enough to kill myself soon. I’m so tired of feeling this way. | 0.829896 | 2.556103 | 2.21375 | 98.189583 | 81.1875 | 4.266667 | 20.041667 | 3.1291 | -0.634658 | 115 | 3 | 27 | 0 | 3 | 37 | 28 | 32 | 0.224 | 0.585 | 0.19 | -0.5069 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 4 | 5 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 15 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.371743 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.347145 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169876 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17553 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.333692 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.371699 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.373185 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.386146 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.266676 | 0.269493 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | FERRET_TESTICLES | 2019/09/22 | Psych nurse who can’t even manage their own mental health Particularly bad day today. Stuff that shouldn’t have happened happened. I’m thinking I’d rather die than go back. Broke down crying at work and my coworkers looked at me like I’m weak. Came home, took 4 Xanax, 2 gabapentin, and later a Tylenol 3 for a migraine... | 2.522807 | 5.353793 | 3.857673 | 82.206639 | 83.06639 | 6.97559 | 26.152668 | 8.104835 | 2.139137 | 1,013 | 43 | 181 | 22 | 29 | 331 | 162 | 241 | 0.203 | 0.641 | 0.155 | -0.9041 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 34 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 10 | 17 | 1 | 1 | 10 | 0 | 11 | 14 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 26 | 37 | 11 | 3 | 4 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 5 | 14 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 10 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 1 | 4 | 6 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 12 | 8 | 21 | 26 | 1 | 27 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 8 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 14 | 88 | 22 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14829 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098675 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094393 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094879 | 0.103025 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109128 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141125 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135538 | 0.238728 | 0 | 0.106275 | 0 | 0.128059 | 0 | 0.141415 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143093 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162995 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128932 | 0 | 0.070125 | 0.206987 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.218226 | 0.131351 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131157 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12377 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128787 | 0 | 0 | 0.136512 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087154 | 0.180846 | 0 | 0.108955 | 0 | 0.103616 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124302 | 0.124348 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129477 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131295 | 0.144771 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116643 | 0 | 0.118173 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123423 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.264949 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128722 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.276249 | 0.087336 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141252 | 0.134968 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092774 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.237189 | 0 | 0.097958 | 0 | 0 | 0.116959 | 0 | 0.137091 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106569 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089829 | 0 | 0 | 0.087653 | 0 | 0 | 0.079459 |
suicidewatch | linonav | 2019/09/22 | Being apart of my family is fucking depressing I don’t fucking understand my dogshit parents.Every Sunday they keep bringing me to church knowing I hate going there plus, my dad doesn’t even listen to the goddamn messages, the pastor literally points out the EXACT bullshit he’s doing wrong.The pastor talks about not le... | 5.417058 | 6.657674 | 4.835823 | 86.09099 | 68.108911 | 6.959547 | 28.289958 | 6.86897 | 1.341517 | 1,263 | 42 | 238 | 9 | 21 | 380 | 161 | 303 | 0.151 | 0.77 | 0.079 | -0.9756 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 15 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 21 | 24 | 12 | 0 | 12 | 0 | 24 | 18 | 4 | 2 | 3 | 38 | 57 | 14 | 0 | 6 | 7 | 7 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 4 | 10 | 14 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 8 | 14 | 16 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 32 | 8 | 25 | 45 | 3 | 28 | 8 | 2 | 0 | 12 | 40 | 7 | 12 | 2 | 15 | 138 | 42 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067724 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076584 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068826 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065203 | 0.053364 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070758 | 0.071293 | 0 | 0 | 0.145529 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119548 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060732 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071708 | 0 | 0.183352 | 0 | 0.175417 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065424 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.769907 | 0 | 0.199724 | 0.118324 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068518 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06893 | 0.13669 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185057 | 0 | 0.072269 | 0.03814 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070966 | 0.049019 | 0.06781 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062636 | 0.065668 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08128 | 0 | 0.073761 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07706 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065605 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066406 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.044459 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055189 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071238 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10436 | 0.111562 | 0.121317 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068185 | 0.055096 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072248 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057262 | 0.040934 | 0 | 0.111337 | 0 | 0.062399 | 0 | 0.062622 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075878 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | ForgottenUser123 | 2019/09/22 | I'm So Fucking Tired of Living. Everyday, I just see everyone laughing, having fun, and not giving a shit about anything in their lives. I don't understand it. I feel so fucking alone because I know a lot of people but no one really knows me, they may think they do but they don't. I try to make people laugh to make mys... | 1.581316 | 3.214852 | 3.864772 | 87.658737 | 78.561404 | 6.665263 | 21.926316 | 7.554174 | 0.861869 | 419 | 12 | 89 | 6 | 10 | 145 | 73 | 114 | 0.206 | 0.634 | 0.16 | -0.7136 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 6 | 13 | 5 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 10 | 4 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 22 | 26 | 8 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 18 | 6 | 10 | 22 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 7 | 2 | 3 | 2 | 4 | 60 | 22 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16392 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107629 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130243 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19296 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139977 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126366 | 0 | 0 | 0.102071 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.302467 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.240078 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.292636 | 0 | 0.151827 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168481 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175102 | 0.164814 | 0.347924 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.27951 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134555 | 0 | 0 | 0.211293 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107248 | 0.120371 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.219449 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202783 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126121 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162462 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101413 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181908 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107455 | 0 | 0 | 0.164764 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125627 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | mongoosechaser | 2019/09/22 | a poem about it, living blood scented legs with corpse written in, 25 milligrams 50 milligrams makes 75, a loud bang and she snaps back, whiplash, turquoise trees and bleached eyes, burned houses and fireproof flies and compression recession depression, she sobbed, a bubble popped somewhere. rainbow oil spilled, psyche... | 12.341111 | 13.479119 | 7.818889 | 71.065 | 53.074074 | 10.162963 | 45.777778 | 9.725611 | 4.8696 | 284 | 15 | 38 | 4 | 3 | 75 | 47 | 54 | 0.218 | 0.782 | 0 | -0.9201 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 14 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.389877 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.436707 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.585049 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.44772 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.338449 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Bartimaeus-UF | 2019/09/22 | Just feel tired I never usually post but honestly I just feel alone and want people to talk to. I just feel tired. Tired of crying at nights and then tired of feeling hollow and numb in the mornings. My closest friend stopped talking to me; he needed a break from me from what I’ve said. I’ve said sorry multiple times a... | 1.169623 | 3.004377 | 2.793057 | 93.917509 | 80.572327 | 5.372075 | 18.14717 | 6.2581 | -0.280605 | 1,168 | 24 | 263 | 9 | 30 | 384 | 139 | 318 | 0.238 | 0.584 | 0.178 | -0.9753 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 28 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 27 | 23 | 0 | 3 | 7 | 0 | 21 | 13 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 63 | 49 | 33 | 2 | 8 | 24 | 0 | 6 | 5 | 5 | 1 | 12 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 16 | 16 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 9 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 8 | 37 | 15 | 37 | 37 | 4 | 36 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 25 | 13 | 0 | 3 | 20 | 174 | 53 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14798 | 0 | 0.05713 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127193 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074972 | 0 | 0 | 0.079354 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.23542 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148287 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073108 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063275 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.216733 | 0.051037 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.275972 | 0 | 0 | 0.068532 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063174 | 0.152098 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.039262 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05046 | 0.17451 | 0 | 0.063083 | 0 | 0 | 0.079923 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.047687 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052517 | 0.105944 | 0.055099 | 0 | 0 | 0.067042 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054333 | 0.076017 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148582 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06842 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071817 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073452 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135911 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074527 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109996 | 0 | 0.159942 | 0 | 0 | 0.114104 | 0.059727 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114841 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.041657 | 0.656878 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097006 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078681 | 0 | 0.168549 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137731 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | RubbaDubNub | 2019/09/22 | What do I do? I feel like life’s a void... it makes me want to die Relationships with people don’t feel genuine... everybody leaves... my family consistently criminalizes me and makes me out to be a piece of shit I’m twenty years old I have nobody I feel like I can talk to and the people I do call my friends are never ... | 1.212873 | 3.138279 | 3.042756 | 91.726544 | 80.855422 | 6.366867 | 21.700301 | 7.461004 | 0.666808 | 1,538 | 47 | 347 | 23 | 40 | 513 | 168 | 415 | 0.205 | 0.662 | 0.133 | -0.9936 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 14 | 31 | 8 | 2 | 15 | 1 | 26 | 15 | 7 | 6 | 6 | 67 | 74 | 18 | 1 | 7 | 8 | 3 | 8 | 8 | 3 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 27 | 23 | 0 | 0 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 17 | 18 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 9 | 52 | 13 | 49 | 69 | 9 | 47 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 19 | 20 | 4 | 0 | 25 | 215 | 79 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057224 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052611 | 0 | 0.136408 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061222 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105764 | 0.057422 | 0.083846 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070225 | 0 | 0 | 0.070648 | 0 | 0.059242 | 0 | 0.074319 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133058 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071375 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079754 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182736 | 0 | 0 | 0.090847 | 0 | 0.057944 | 0 | 0.123617 | 0 | 0.064833 | 0 | 0.278188 | 0.294787 | 0 | 0 | 0.062857 | 0.058498 | 0 | 0 | 0.106267 | 0 | 0.107793 | 0 | 0.07817 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.203696 | 0.070581 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072662 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079354 | 0.073623 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068246 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.037796 | 0 | 0 | 0.07282 | 0 | 0 | 0.145728 | 0.268791 | 0 | 0.121455 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137719 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069307 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152982 | 0.106083 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065989 | 0 | 0.072165 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.219537 | 0 | 0.152728 | 0 | 0 | 0.095357 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065012 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132173 | 0 | 0 | 0.147672 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139203 | 0.054803 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.282377 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070105 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054922 | 0 | 0.078779 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.051708 | 0.110554 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.045689 | 0.176267 | 0 | 0.109196 | 0.040102 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059397 | 0 | 0 | 0.162256 | 0.163766 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.050067 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150384 | 0 | 0.044287 |
suicidewatch | __Fr4g__ | 2019/09/22 | Pushed to the edge... I have tried all i can to get myself better and nothing works. I try reaching out to friends but they don't want to help. I give up. I'm sorry | -1.475833 | 0.506001 | 0.656889 | 103.177 | 95.944444 | 2.88 | 15.533333 | 3.1291 | -1.40616 | 125 | 3 | 31 | 0 | 5 | 41 | 29 | 36 | 0.199 | 0.686 | 0.114 | -0.242 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 7 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 6 | 7 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 19 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.314323 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.274581 | 0 | 0.185682 | 0.340932 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.238217 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.341016 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.397841 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.482587 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.209624 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.258736 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | clysis0212 | 2019/09/22 | Is life even worth living? Recently, I have been trying and trying just to live through. I tried to reach out for help religiously and with my therapist. But it still just not make sense to me why I need to live. I have disabilities from when I was active duty in the Army and every attempt I make to socialize with peop... | 2.681488 | 4.301494 | 4.147182 | 86.880773 | 75.446281 | 7.15405 | 22.017355 | 7.908726 | 0.932418 | 464 | 12 | 97 | 7 | 10 | 154 | 79 | 121 | 0.1 | 0.74 | 0.16 | 0.5803 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 11 | 4 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 23 | 18 | 10 | 1 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 17 | 1 | 20 | 14 | 0 | 11 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 69 | 19 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123947 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096067 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098387 | 0 | 0.376516 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075319 | 0.106417 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142896 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099845 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105215 | 0.072774 | 0 | 0.526138 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198864 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110452 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139789 | 0 | 0.142931 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158504 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10327 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153156 | 0.14708 | 0 | 0 | 0.127211 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151846 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11896 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172954 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.303403 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134413 | 0 | 0.342594 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | a-5-dollar-bill | 2019/09/22 | Fuck life You know this shit stupid it like why you tell jokes about killing yourself bitch I don’t care, i am suicidal so when I try and talk to you I’m not playing around (most of the time). then my mom like let me bring up his suicidal mindset to a teacher of his. so I talk to the school counselor because no one rea... | 0.516356 | 1.998222 | 2.195333 | 99.113222 | 81.2 | 5.644444 | 20.111111 | 6.427356 | -0.179722 | 696 | 18 | 178 | 6 | 18 | 228 | 106 | 200 | 0.224 | 0.592 | 0.184 | -0.9387 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 15 | 23 | 8 | 0 | 7 | 1 | 12 | 7 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 23 | 35 | 11 | 4 | 6 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 3 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 6 | 9 | 1 | 3 | 5 | 3 | 31 | 14 | 23 | 25 | 4 | 21 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 23 | 8 | 5 | 4 | 13 | 108 | 40 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0.107271 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097857 | 0.102765 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134019 | 0 | 0 | 0.247696 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.224152 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120748 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123651 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099434 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120418 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169856 | 0.101624 | 0.114863 | 0 | 0.062473 | 0.0922 | 0.087917 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.221042 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.243232 | 0 | 0.060412 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112406 | 0.232931 | 0.214816 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09231 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116613 | 0 | 0.128743 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163016 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.223465 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070421 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174834 | 0 | 0.11125 | 0 | 0 | 0.114676 | 0 | 0.112837 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.240481 | 0.124742 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.265061 | 0.09608 | 0 | 0 | 0.127632 | 0 | 0.070436 | 0 | 0.087268 | 0.128197 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.244262 | 0.074632 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064837 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098836 | 0 | 0.099191 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078088 | 0 | 0 | 0.070788 |
suicidewatch | xAcedia91 | 2019/09/22 | All I ever am is a burden There's one thing keeping me alive. My cat is a victim of abuse and extremely close to me. When I got him he wasn't friendly, but he is very loving now. He even sleeps on me. If it weren't for him, I'd be dead. I think I burden everyone around me. I think no one would really be that affected i... | 0.672265 | 2.37445 | 3.407868 | 89.554154 | 81.588235 | 7.073529 | 18.860294 | 8.076483 | 0.642559 | 303 | 7 | 70 | 6 | 8 | 107 | 57 | 85 | 0.303 | 0.586 | 0.111 | -0.9522 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 11 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 17 | 17 | 5 | 2 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 16 | 2 | 5 | 9 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 51 | 19 | 0 | 0 | 0.25966 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.195092 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.227446 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144748 | 0.396472 | 0 | 0.20941 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169317 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175276 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194793 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197794 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.297007 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140395 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.219311 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145595 | 0.421273 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180824 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.31136 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | throwawayonly333 | 2019/09/22 | Had a stressful day/Not feeling well The pressure of school has been getting to me this week. I've been trying to study for my exams but the depression just hit so hard. I saw my therapist today. The appointment went seemingly well. He told me I should consider antidepressants again, even for a little while. I feel lik... | 2.01724 | 4.446922 | 3.194719 | 88.951364 | 81.045455 | 6.195671 | 20.792208 | 7.44753 | 0.771684 | 525 | 15 | 104 | 8 | 14 | 169 | 78 | 132 | 0.243 | 0.583 | 0.174 | -0.9298 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 12 | 12 | 1 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 23 | 30 | 7 | 1 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 8 | 4 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 6 | 2 | 1 | 10 | 9 | 18 | 6 | 11 | 16 | 2 | 14 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 11 | 71 | 21 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13729 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085489 | 0 | 0.114172 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087553 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.402151 | 0.378797 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069256 | 0 | 0.075336 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.237492 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.235647 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108052 | 0 | 0 | 0.144024 | 0 | 0 | 0.259044 | 0.132858 | 0.117051 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144703 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134859 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134156 | 0 | 0.120676 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093825 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151845 | 0 | 0 | 0.144997 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15391 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105236 | 0 | 0 | 0.251299 | 0.126665 | 0 | 0.269994 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10633 | 0 | 0.238371 | 0.122882 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | thtuu | 2019/09/22 | Struggling with anxiety and guilt, not sure how to go on, I can't handle the guilt I don’t know how to start this or even where to start. I have been really struggling these past few weeks. At the moment it feels as if my life is more difficult times than anything and I don’t know what to do.
My brain keeps fixating o... | 3.391229 | 4.059612 | 5.045308 | 84.843529 | 72.357843 | 8.279552 | 26.581232 | 8.527138 | 1.691882 | 1,519 | 49 | 326 | 25 | 28 | 517 | 191 | 408 | 0.287 | 0.616 | 0.097 | -0.9986 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 35 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 20 | 26 | 4 | 6 | 17 | 2 | 32 | 11 | 4 | 8 | 9 | 76 | 70 | 32 | 3 | 8 | 15 | 0 | 8 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 26 | 17 | 0 | 1 | 18 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 13 | 15 | 0 | 3 | 7 | 10 | 55 | 11 | 48 | 57 | 8 | 39 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 9 | 12 | 0 | 8 | 25 | 234 | 81 | 0 | 0.085997 | 0.101892 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093177 | 0.104495 | 0.058481 | 0 | 0.065787 | 0.097152 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141536 | 0.076555 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132252 | 0 | 0.157268 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096001 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185864 | 0 | 0.068661 | 0.095154 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178502 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076167 | 0 | 0 | 0.1136 | 0.077789 | 0.072456 | 0 | 0.077288 | 0 | 0.08107 | 0 | 0.260895 | 0.061436 | 0 | 0 | 0.078599 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097748 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084904 | 0.176515 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076438 | 0 | 0 | 0.33083 | 0.070099 | 0.097008 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182226 | 0.042014 | 0 | 0.151873 | 0.076104 | 0.072216 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077615 | 0 | 0.17221 | 0 | 0.086395 | 0.093676 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063765 | 0.198978 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065404 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164187 | 0.059619 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110183 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086098 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089713 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121738 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179805 | 0 | 0.094066 | 0 | 0.081051 | 0 | 0.129318 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057132 | 0.110206 | 0.084491 | 0 | 0.150436 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202892 | 0 | 0.068981 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098892 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.262001 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104495 | 0.055379 |
suicidewatch | Thejackpot1 | 2019/01/07 | the blade I was doing so well I had gone a month without cutting but today I couldn't take anymore and opened the little box, took out the blade, put it to my thigh and struck again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again. a total of nine times and they were deep. the release of ... | 2.53213 | 4.246007 | 3.023398 | 94.377955 | 76.090909 | 6.168831 | 22.088745 | 6.86897 | 0.321329 | 633 | 17 | 142 | 6 | 14 | 196 | 93 | 165 | 0.164 | 0.76 | 0.076 | -0.9559 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 17 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 11 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 28 | 25 | 21 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 20 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 4 | 3 | 1 | 3 | 13 | 2 | 16 | 3 | 15 | 11 | 2 | 32 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 7 | 1 | 1 | 19 | 100 | 24 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0.149641 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.304151 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093477 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077535 | 0.109548 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080116 | 0 | 0.087149 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135601 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.205566 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162368 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149832 | 0.15369 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155466 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122397 | 0 | 0.112725 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147137 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.207819 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17027 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.462457 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155192 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157405 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171655 | 0 | 0 | 0.12246 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115295 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178831 | 0 | 0.145352 | 0.293052 | 0.17037 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126524 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137874 | 0.142151 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147817 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
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