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suicidewatch | DustTheHusky | 2019/01/07 | When is the right time... Its been about three years since the thought popped into my head for having a way out.. I think I am ready now to take it I just don’t know when too | -0.195 | 1.664224 | 0.536053 | 108.139868 | 85.578947 | 3.8 | 12.131579 | 3.1291 | -2.043179 | 133 | 1 | 36 | 0 | 4 | 40 | 34 | 38 | 0 | 0.928 | 0.072 | 0.3612 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 9 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 5 | 7 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 25 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.427628 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.228993 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.355838 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.344677 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.313287 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.266988 | 0 | 0.330793 | 0.242966 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.330737 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.268325 |
suicidewatch | baylorwaco | 2019/01/07 | I know the taste of gunmetal and the click of the gun. I was a lawyer. It’s something I wanted to be all of my life. But I was in a lifelong depression. Flight or fight level panic was my everyday. It’s all I knew from a child. My brother suicided. But I thought that I could power through it. I couldn’t.
I was also... | 1.161328 | 3.699411 | 3.01329 | 87.819004 | 86.803618 | 6.325775 | 23.04958 | 7.645422 | 1.331293 | 1,525 | 58 | 306 | 30 | 48 | 507 | 189 | 387 | 0.176 | 0.752 | 0.071 | -0.9916 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 56 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 7 | 14 | 22 | 2 | 5 | 17 | 1 | 34 | 7 | 2 | 3 | 12 | 53 | 66 | 24 | 2 | 6 | 8 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 17 | 14 | 1 | 1 | 9 | 4 | 2 | 7 | 11 | 14 | 0 | 2 | 33 | 6 | 58 | 8 | 44 | 27 | 11 | 40 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 21 | 16 | 0 | 2 | 17 | 217 | 75 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0.095146 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086428 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077971 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066304 | 0 | 0.074587 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09115 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081409 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.258693 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099559 | 0.111514 | 0.099408 | 0 | 0 | 0.083988 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077846 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167954 | 0 | 0 | 0.101867 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086356 | 0 | 0 | 0.064398 | 0.088195 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.367658 | 0.109715 | 0 | 0 | 0.093616 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075328 | 0 | 0.15282 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172438 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097801 | 0 | 0 | 0.112502 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.214334 | 0.079476 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206602 | 0.047634 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106433 | 0 | 0 | 0.184514 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098221 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077824 | 0 | 0.143348 | 0 | 0.150397 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103835 | 0 | 0.074153 | 0 | 0.114396 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135189 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109917 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098015 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083265 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082612 | 0.150121 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.203857 | 0 | 0.213299 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1115 | 0 | 0.12955 | 0 | 0 | 0.232213 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093166 | 0 | 0 | 0.106052 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115016 | 0.077391 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141963 | 0 | 0 | 0.069261 | 0 | 0 | 0.062787 |
suicidewatch | gmcclue | 2019/01/07 | Shitty 2019 already 27 still living at home
Anxiety and paranoia at an all time high
Girlfriend of 10yrs left me yesterday
Little to no savings
Work 2 shitty part time jobs
Addiction to vices returning for coping
Constant ball of stress
Feel like I've been living for 27yrs and wasted the life I was given and feel lik... | 10.570766 | 7.552062 | 9.497568 | 70.903739 | 59.405405 | 12.028829 | 38.18018 | 9.725611 | 3.61751 | 309 | 10 | 55 | 4 | 3 | 97 | 59 | 74 | 0.247 | 0.652 | 0.102 | -0.9026 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 6 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 8 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 10 | 5 | 3 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 9 | 30 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.20602 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.208549 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144572 | 0 | 0.187421 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160811 | 0 | 0.198327 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.204225 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167384 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191112 | 0.27002 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174713 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.199672 | 0.189566 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187537 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.205332 | 0 | 0.133485 | 0.184656 | 0.189412 | 0.333753 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.18986 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.204651 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150923 | 0 | 0.216481 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125553 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.220396 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137583 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | immadothis10 | 2019/01/07 | yo Fuck this place I'm not even welcome here, all I'm asking for y'all, don't kill yourself and I also won't do it, I won't fucking do it, I will try to live my whole life, so I'm just saying I'm a guy who only wanted to play videogames, and man I stayed in it a lot, and I hate it but the true story is, I did nofap for... | 2.441782 | 2.304658 | 3.842727 | 95.515107 | 74.088339 | 6.995603 | 23.496074 | 6.139982 | 0.192095 | 962 | 22 | 252 | 5 | 18 | 319 | 140 | 283 | 0.172 | 0.584 | 0.243 | 0.9682 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 37 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 2 | 17 | 25 | 11 | 0 | 8 | 2 | 25 | 9 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 36 | 51 | 27 | 8 | 10 | 11 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 9 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 11 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 13 | 1 | 1 | 10 | 11 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 3 | 34 | 14 | 20 | 34 | 8 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 23 | 6 | 4 | 8 | 8 | 145 | 45 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090069 | 0 | 0.122033 | 0.136856 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105293 | 0 | 0.105818 | 0 | 0 | 0.068657 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118197 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.229665 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072636 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116891 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14878 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087017 | 0.208247 | 0 | 0 | 0.064009 | 0 | 0.180159 | 0 | 0 | 0.11152 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111197 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075493 | 0 | 0 | 0.111866 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.373821 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.318212 | 0.165074 | 0 | 0.099453 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095753 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131909 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105694 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07632 | 0.085659 | 0 | 0 | 0.125061 | 0 | 0 | 0.078083 | 0 | 0.117673 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.225318 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089567 | 0 | 0 | 0.179501 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.231223 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111393 | 0 | 0 | 0.120047 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123197 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084683 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072168 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076467 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.265725 | 0 | 0.090344 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10163 | 0.125746 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136856 | 0 |
suicidewatch | nopenonooo | 2019/01/07 | I only live for others I’m only alive because my family and friends would be sad if I died. If I had nobody I would end my life. How can I find meaning to life so I could live life for myself? Thank you | -1.352 | 0.637709 | 1.495 | 97.7025 | 94.333333 | 3.888889 | 14.166667 | 5.461319 | -1.015 | 156 | 3 | 37 | 1 | 6 | 54 | 31 | 45 | 0.14 | 0.689 | 0.171 | 0.128 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 9 | 9 | 5 | 1 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 10 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 25 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139239 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.18237 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.237058 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202307 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.215328 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.208766 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176472 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.484006 | 0 | 0 | 0.403387 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.24881 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.347438 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.210293 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.324517 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | wanttomaster479 | 2019/01/07 | I can't take this anymore. I feel like if I don't tell me friend/crush about these thoughts I've been having, it's going to be on my mind forever. At the same time, I feel like if I tell them and they hate me, I'm going to want to literally d*e. Here is everything I want to tell them: Just something I have to get off o... | 2.035009 | 4.365895 | 3.179055 | 89.670412 | 80.259843 | 6.269897 | 23.155058 | 7.468242 | 0.972352 | 1,002 | 34 | 207 | 15 | 26 | 322 | 138 | 254 | 0.08 | 0.762 | 0.158 | 0.9357 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 34 | 4 | 7 | 6 | 1 | 13 | 10 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 19 | 6 | 4 | 2 | 1 | 38 | 50 | 15 | 0 | 11 | 9 | 1 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 19 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 10 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 5 | 45 | 8 | 27 | 36 | 2 | 21 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 31 | 8 | 0 | 5 | 13 | 138 | 64 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127193 | 0.111658 | 0 | 0 | 0.092651 | 0 | 0.315766 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094007 | 0.068633 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114792 | 0 | 0.119104 | 0 | 0.118047 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072611 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098527 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094861 | 0 | 0.101188 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170785 | 0.160867 | 0.108103 | 0 | 0 | 0.095768 | 0 | 0 | 0.086986 | 0 | 0.176469 | 0.108006 | 0.127974 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124029 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111158 | 0.231098 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111826 | 0 | 0.129913 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117244 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11513 | 0 | 0.165016 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075154 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113683 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083483 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076293 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098308 | 0 | 0.123589 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.216382 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107098 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086676 | 0.111353 | 0.126034 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128887 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084653 | 0 | 0.295223 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144285 | 0 | 0.268149 | 0.131303 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135431 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.265632 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07998 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | angel_in_black | 2019/01/07 | So unwanted even Tinder hates me For weeks I woke up each morning excited for the day, all because I had a beautiful girl keep telling me that I was amazing and the best thing to happen to her. I should’ve known she was too good to be true, because she eventually revealed she was moving to another state and she had th... | 3.686543 | 4.403269 | 4.624834 | 87.94988 | 71.713004 | 7.777431 | 26.170036 | 7.925487 | 1.294957 | 3,372 | 103 | 738 | 43 | 61 | 1,097 | 318 | 892 | 0.099 | 0.703 | 0.197 | 0.9986 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 86 | 1 | 1 | 7 | 10 | 64 | 57 | 4 | 3 | 27 | 3 | 70 | 10 | 1 | 13 | 11 | 164 | 169 | 65 | 0 | 22 | 30 | 2 | 16 | 9 | 1 | 9 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 51 | 39 | 0 | 6 | 41 | 1 | 1 | 9 | 21 | 16 | 1 | 5 | 46 | 21 | 131 | 41 | 93 | 106 | 15 | 101 | 1 | 6 | 4 | 3 | 64 | 28 | 1 | 13 | 64 | 505 | 182 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.045314 | 0 | 0 | 0.036405 | 0 | 0 | 0.029753 | 0.045877 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077897 | 0.040902 | 0 | 0.082212 | 0.100927 | 0.036531 | 0.160024 | 0 | 0.037229 | 0 | 0.091829 | 0.038695 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.044675 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.037688 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.028216 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.044773 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073098 | 0 | 0.116253 | 0 | 0 | 0.057795 | 0.079152 | 0 | 0 | 0.078642 | 0.085595 | 0.08249 | 0 | 0.265466 | 0.031256 | 0.126025 | 0.047928 | 0.039988 | 0.037215 | 0 | 0.047971 | 0 | 0 | 0.022858 | 0.041971 | 0.024865 | 0.11009 | 0 | 0.048236 | 0 | 0 | 0.309516 | 0 | 0.039193 | 0.043196 | 0.044902 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.043455 | 0 | 0 | 0.093674 | 0 | 0.047259 | 0 | 0 | 0.116665 | 0 | 0 | 0.240448 | 0.035663 | 0 | 0 | 0.047536 | 0 | 0.185419 | 0.192374 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073481 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118463 | 0.206994 | 0.087614 | 0.044357 | 0.131863 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.044177 | 0 | 0.034922 | 0.093002 | 0.032163 | 0.032441 | 0.134976 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167924 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088942 | 0.06655 | 0 | 0 | 0.048581 | 0 | 0 | 0.030332 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.041359 | 0.049323 | 0 | 0 | 0.047172 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.049012 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.028028 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069729 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.036192 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.259494 | 0.033682 | 0 | 0.048976 | 0.030968 | 0 | 0.06988 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.032896 | 0.140664 | 0.076482 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145333 | 0.056069 | 0 | 0.104202 | 0.051024 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.04861 | 0.029705 | 0.095178 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075575 | 0.048186 | 0 | 0.232253 | 0.243096 | 0.105285 | 0 | 0.039338 | 0.040558 | 0.157916 | 0.048847 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.044587 | 0.06216 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Notsurefeelsbad | 2019/01/07 | Tired of making others feel awkward When I'm down I guess I just look sad and make things super awkward constantly for my wife. Feels like I am ruining everything and making the person I care about the most in the world feel uncomfortable around me is unbearable..
I think that bc I'm fucked in my head it's only going... | 3.024492 | 5.225555 | 4.170602 | 84.499211 | 76.236842 | 7.500752 | 22.699248 | 8.418075 | 1.465314 | 307 | 9 | 59 | 6 | 7 | 100 | 57 | 76 | 0.258 | 0.589 | 0.153 | -0.8151 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 9 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 17 | 19 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 10 | 3 | 9 | 18 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 5 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 36 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202352 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181638 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.208032 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.220494 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183377 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.309505 | 0.145766 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188631 | 0 | 0 | 0.11596 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.224772 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.209403 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099683 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171342 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.544791 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155181 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178159 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135555 | 0.13074 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.234513 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120348 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.207933 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | lilsl0th | 2019/01/07 | Walked in on a suicide attempt So when I was smaller coming home from elementary I found my dad. He was on the floor, rolling around, told me to get him tea. He was so incoherent. Had tried to OD. I didn’t know what was happening so I called my mom, she came home and that’s really all I remember. I didn’t think about t... | 0.846 | 3.381639 | 1.924091 | 94.626136 | 89.666667 | 5.181818 | 20.227273 | 6.782985 | 0.370091 | 649 | 21 | 137 | 9 | 22 | 204 | 107 | 165 | 0.18 | 0.794 | 0.026 | -0.9828 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 24 | 2 | 3 | 2 | 4 | 10 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 18 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 23 | 31 | 7 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 14 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 14 | 2 | 25 | 1 | 17 | 13 | 4 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 25 | 7 | 1 | 2 | 7 | 92 | 39 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140714 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175578 | 0 | 0 | 0.161405 | 0.180788 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136162 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126205 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16405 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079924 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.288943 | 0 | 0 | 0.346627 | 0 | 0.146132 | 0.082584 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139779 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.317111 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174879 | 0 | 0.08687 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161636 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105512 | 0.160256 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185128 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121912 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168338 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177073 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101263 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179061 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172901 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.254099 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202568 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151041 | 0 | 0.107318 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161085 | 0.112287 | 0 | 0 | 0.101791 |
suicidewatch | lostinthedwoods2019 | 2019/01/07 | Recurring dream/nightmare I keep dreaming that everyone in my life is gathered at my house...for some reason my dr or somebody told my husband I was suicidal and he had contacted all these people to try and talk me out of it.
Instead, everyone expresses feelings of relief and throw a party celebrating my imminent suic... | 5.254605 | 7.495591 | 6.359832 | 71.093529 | 69.941176 | 9.563025 | 35.672269 | 9.957138 | 4.252227 | 372 | 20 | 58 | 10 | 7 | 124 | 70 | 85 | 0.11 | 0.819 | 0.071 | -0.5267 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 7 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 15 | 11 | 7 | 2 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 11 | 1 | 7 | 6 | 2 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 46 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132237 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.414566 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109685 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.232225 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.38563 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153222 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164983 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15039 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.246911 | 0 | 0.223037 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.217182 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.474566 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174358 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144117 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.207283 | 0 | 0.147279 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154099 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Beavertailz15 | 2019/01/07 | ER If I go to the ER for being suicidal, does anyone know how much being an inpatient could cost. I’m in Toronto, Canada | 2.5296 | 3.940453 | 5.333 | 79.0915 | 75.4 | 8.2 | 24.5 | 8.841846 | 1.965 | 94 | 3 | 18 | 2 | 2 | 34 | 22 | 25 | 0.17 | 0.83 | 0 | -0.6705 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 6 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 12 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.33901 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.387103 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.424285 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.275544 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.266454 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.356412 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.530334 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | MrWobbles91 | 2019/01/07 | I need some real help I'm terrified to open up like this, but I feel like I'm on the edge and slipping. In October I lost my part time job with the Boy's and Girl's Club. I loved and adored the kids I worked with and after 7 months was told I was being let go because they weren't seeing "the growth they expected". It r... | 9.06 | 6.44876 | 8.943352 | 72.443011 | 61.875536 | 12.581803 | 39.179828 | 11.003577 | 4.089987 | 932 | 37 | 183 | 19 | 10 | 305 | 135 | 233 | 0.142 | 0.67 | 0.188 | 0.9058 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 15 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 3 | 15 | 0 | 1 | 14 | 0 | 19 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 32 | 42 | 10 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 12 | 14 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 5 | 26 | 9 | 31 | 26 | 6 | 31 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 2 | 16 | 14 | 0 | 2 | 19 | 120 | 38 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10895 | 0 | 0.123075 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083582 | 0 | 0.094024 | 0 | 0.121892 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149847 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12626 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10586 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10886 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.248584 | 0.263416 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064214 | 0 | 0.069851 | 0.103089 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164765 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121967 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067547 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125682 | 0.26044 | 0.240186 | 0 | 0 | 0.10877 | 0 | 0.137503 | 0.134169 | 0 | 0.221858 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133883 | 0 | 0.247634 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098104 | 0 | 0 | 0.182269 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.266195 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116188 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123556 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139896 | 0.078738 | 0 | 0 | 0.131957 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097942 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086995 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134441 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092411 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071669 | 0 | 0.116502 | 0.234888 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098589 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137222 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089478 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158297 |
suicidewatch | fallen-summer | 2019/01/07 | the thoughts never leave me Today has been a sad day for me from the moment i woke up and i don't really know why i mean obviously i do know what im upset about but still i wish i was dead i wish i had killed myself in august like i planned. If i didn't wake up tomorrow that would be great | 1.369545 | 2.180859 | 3.682242 | 92.173364 | 77.333333 | 7.098182 | 19.260606 | 7.554174 | 0.173555 | 227 | 4 | 57 | 3 | 5 | 79 | 49 | 66 | 0.211 | 0.565 | 0.224 | 0.0062 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 9 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 12 | 16 | 3 | 2 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 13 | 2 | 6 | 8 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 38 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153915 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.263121 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.257792 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.26404 | 0 | 0.26232 | 0 | 0 | 0.252704 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116596 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.259969 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184068 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15289 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190593 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189468 | 0 | 0 | 0.22622 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.215352 | 0 | 0.54889 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169536 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | MageMin | 2019/01/07 | Going to the Grave Im out. | -4.472857 | -3.227984 | 0.625714 | 103.044286 | 103.285714 | 2.8 | 7 | 3.1291 | -2.507457 | 20 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 7 | 7 | 0.342 | 0.658 | 0 | -0.3818 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.465626 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.884982 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Idk5756 | 2019/01/07 | The tranny is signing off Thanks to my friends as well as people I've met here, I think I'm finally over my depression. Last week I began to wake up without a single thought of wanting to die or thinking about how sad I was. I'm making good progress with all my tranny shit. Everything is doing ok. I haven't actually fe... | 3.026426 | 4.257527 | 4.361944 | 87.267868 | 73.827586 | 7.755486 | 26.974922 | 8.296473 | 1.657897 | 550 | 20 | 118 | 9 | 11 | 182 | 98 | 145 | 0.112 | 0.641 | 0.247 | 0.9666 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 10 | 15 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 10 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 3 | 23 | 26 | 8 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 7 | 3 | 15 | 12 | 20 | 18 | 4 | 22 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 7 | 1 | 5 | 14 | 74 | 19 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143245 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13012 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099822 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154046 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162419 | 0 | 0.189334 | 0 | 0.126429 | 0 | 0.152344 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132779 | 0 | 0 | 0.263849 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074221 | 0 | 0.281881 | 0.1608 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113409 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.24624 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145795 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.239306 | 0 | 0 | 0.159487 | 0 | 0 | 0.071714 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097983 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113213 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099468 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140127 | 0.101765 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.281167 | 0 | 0.158264 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150677 | 0.121426 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117226 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117984 | 0 | 0.270288 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188113 | 0 | 0.116534 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159665 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08658 | 0 | 0.117745 | 0 | 0.131981 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1415 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094527 |
suicidewatch | throwaway0967534 | 2019/01/07 | What’s the point of being born into this cruel world and wasting the entire life by working for the success of those 1% Im asking this myself everyday if this is the price i need to pay then i rather be dead than working
I don’t see a difference if im buried under the earth or sit in a factory | 3.790938 | 3.848196 | 5.584375 | 83.523125 | 71.1875 | 8.275 | 26.9375 | 8.076483 | 1.571138 | 234 | 7 | 50 | 3 | 4 | 81 | 49 | 64 | 0.194 | 0.751 | 0.056 | -0.8481 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 7 | 5 | 1 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 9 | 5 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 35 | 9 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.277737 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.310394 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.641812 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.209842 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.220287 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.280844 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.236741 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.432567 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | redditisonlyfortroll | 2019/01/07 | Tempted to do it To just end this repetitive pointless life. Just to have something different and not feel fucking trapped and stuck in this hell | 6.627308 | 8.834877 | 4.910769 | 83.009231 | 66.307692 | 8.276923 | 39.923077 | 8.841846 | 3.7636 | 119 | 7 | 20 | 2 | 2 | 34 | 21 | 26 | 0.267 | 0.645 | 0.088 | -0.7287 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 14 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.517377 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.438599 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.250387 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.457803 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.349773 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.381228 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Myrina007 | 2019/01/07 | I am so fucking close to ending it I am so fucking close to slitting my throat.
I'm 26 years old, I live with my chain smoking grandparents who are mentally deteriorating and used to be abusive. I'm stuck here with them and it's their fault. I was never given love or help as a kid, I've been drifting in and out of psy... | 2.099149 | 3.720146 | 3.888954 | 88.10875 | 77.049645 | 6.82766 | 24.870567 | 7.645422 | 1.165167 | 1,057 | 37 | 229 | 15 | 24 | 356 | 143 | 282 | 0.254 | 0.675 | 0.071 | -0.996 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 23 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 17 | 24 | 9 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 24 | 18 | 4 | 5 | 5 | 44 | 56 | 25 | 0 | 3 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 10 | 22 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 8 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 1 | 38 | 7 | 30 | 42 | 1 | 33 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 14 | 13 | 6 | 2 | 17 | 145 | 48 | 2 | 0.095116 | 0.112697 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072764 | 0 | 0 | 0.066508 | 0 | 0.156545 | 0 | 0 | 0.108209 | 0 | 0 | 0.238254 | 0.057982 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193955 | 0 | 0 | 0.081934 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083237 | 0.097337 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084245 | 0 | 0 | 0.125647 | 0.086038 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089667 | 0 | 0.048094 | 0 | 0 | 0.208391 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073487 | 0.439668 | 0.049694 | 0 | 0 | 0.079779 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093908 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127509 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101824 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052273 | 0 | 0 | 0.100714 | 0 | 0 | 0.268734 | 0 | 0.095332 | 0.083989 | 0.084175 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085846 | 0 | 0.063491 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095855 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.293438 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091267 | 0 | 0.099809 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10121 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090799 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097636 | 0.078681 | 0.106915 | 0 | 0 | 0.080592 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108774 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055463 | 0.327967 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1643 | 0 | 0.078481 | 0.168306 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122504 |
suicidewatch | tiredandout2019 | 2019/01/07 | I'm just tired I've been unemployed since April. My health has declined greatly. I've already spoken to a bankruptcy lawyer. I gave up all my friends. I've written my last letters and it feels so close...I just want the pain to stop. I've been rejected by every interview I've had and I can't send out another one. I've ... | 0.888746 | 3.137516 | 2.581715 | 92.710177 | 84.314961 | 5.360855 | 22.063555 | 6.709753 | 0.538515 | 959 | 33 | 204 | 11 | 28 | 315 | 150 | 254 | 0.133 | 0.731 | 0.136 | -0.0793 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 33 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 15 | 16 | 2 | 0 | 13 | 0 | 18 | 6 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 41 | 40 | 15 | 0 | 6 | 9 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 7 | 11 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 5 | 5 | 1 | 3 | 13 | 5 | 15 | 11 | 23 | 22 | 5 | 28 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 10 | 10 | 2 | 5 | 17 | 111 | 22 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132213 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081475 | 0.125631 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197187 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112566 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.253487 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154535 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106116 | 0 | 0 | 0.079133 | 0 | 0.100945 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06058 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109504 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092565 | 0.110763 | 0.062596 | 0 | 0.068091 | 0.100491 | 0 | 0.132091 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127353 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118999 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.292984 | 0 | 0.126862 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117066 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121469 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095631 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117389 | 0.114961 | 0 | 0.125721 | 0 | 0.243559 | 0.182242 | 0.127486 | 0 | 0 | 0.129743 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113259 | 0 | 0 | 0.12189 | 0.129176 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076753 | 0.123185 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113967 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095473 | 0.218141 | 0 | 0 | 0.122983 | 0.099108 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100167 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.225839 | 0 | 0.090082 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07677 | 0 | 0 | 0.069862 | 0.137704 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081343 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.212001 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107724 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.244194 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Ratt-on-a-Stickk | 2019/02/13 | Getting myself banned everywhere I'm purposefully doing it because I'm seriously done with life itself.
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I'm going to isolate myself, and the plan is to isolate myself so much that I finally snap and murder someone, and act on as many of my depraved urges as I can.
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I fucking hate the entire... | 5.314773 | 6.989508 | 6.001867 | 75.996204 | 68.797297 | 8.084521 | 31.022113 | 8.57599 | 2.684803 | 629 | 26 | 103 | 10 | 11 | 205 | 94 | 148 | 0.292 | 0.656 | 0.052 | -0.9909 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 34 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 14 | 8 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 8 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 18 | 26 | 14 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 8 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 19 | 1 | 16 | 22 | 5 | 17 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 8 | 5 | 2 | 2 | 9 | 70 | 26 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.463749 | 0.520079 | 0 | 0.089761 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052182 | 0 | 0.072841 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087937 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175201 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153867 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093773 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079138 | 0.089447 | 0.082117 | 0.097299 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169029 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085022 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120926 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080999 | 0 | 0.086787 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068327 | 0 | 0.125855 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068214 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07253 | 0 | 0.084663 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099391 | 0.05687 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081141 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068665 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.520079 | 0 |
suicidewatch | tendlos | 2019/02/13 | To people thinking about suicide I know many people who are considering suicide or are dealing with depression have not tried all the things that could help them, and are giving up before even trying anything. I have been suicidal before as well, and I did not even try the basics to try and deal with it because you're ... | 4.533263 | 7.49778 | 4.929493 | 77.04593 | 75.043614 | 7.629227 | 29.976494 | 8.57599 | 2.873705 | 1,438 | 65 | 227 | 30 | 33 | 455 | 192 | 321 | 0.109 | 0.773 | 0.118 | -0.6808 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 79 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 1 | 17 | 14 | 2 | 0 | 15 | 0 | 26 | 10 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 46 | 41 | 15 | 3 | 6 | 11 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 16 | 15 | 2 | 0 | 7 | 4 | 1 | 4 | 4 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 5 | 7 | 15 | 8 | 34 | 27 | 6 | 20 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 14 | 11 | 1 | 8 | 8 | 142 | 31 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080409 | 0.090176 | 0 | 0 | 0.056772 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06107 | 0.066064 | 0.069378 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135717 | 0 | 0.189447 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177757 | 0 | 0 | 0.143582 | 0.153019 | 0.191756 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082766 | 0.147049 | 0 | 0.062527 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.037524 | 0.053017 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089737 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.038773 | 0.071191 | 0.042176 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149228 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077458 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08157 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108769 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186958 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099074 | 0.075239 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149521 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057237 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080364 | 0 | 0.102898 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083663 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148464 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059137 | 0 | 0.077419 | 0 | 0.076177 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114264 | 0 | 0 | 0.052528 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.243527 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197212 | 0.095104 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.60462 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09037 | 0.200176 | 0 | 0.066965 | 0.082855 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052718 | 0 | 0.090176 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Curtdh3 | 2019/02/13 | I can't seem to end my life. I'm stuck. I left my baby niece and nephew a loving note, with the intent to plunge a knife into my right arm, splitting the vein like a banana peel to bleed out. I can't seem to get the right pressure, and google certainly isn't going to help with "How do I kill myself most effectively wit... | 3.890461 | 4.141157 | 4.705106 | 89.233333 | 71.021277 | 7.11773 | 25.241135 | 6.427356 | 0.684573 | 349 | 9 | 78 | 2 | 6 | 113 | 63 | 94 | 0.214 | 0.667 | 0.119 | -0.8578 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 7 | 2 | 2 | 8 | 0 | 5 | 5 | 2 | 4 | 1 | 21 | 14 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 10 | 3 | 14 | 13 | 2 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 8 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 45 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.195339 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.201576 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115227 | 0 | 0.125342 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147828 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.244003 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.239625 | 0 | 0.155779 | 0.107748 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.199053 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.240241 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.565039 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.401556 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.241243 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190482 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.2126 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | kidneyproblems478 | 2019/02/13 | I'm letting myself die slowly. I have kidney disease and I'm not going to get it treated, I stocked up my home of stuff I need and I'm hoping it'll be quick. My life hasn't turned out the way I wanted it to and I honestly don't see a point to continue.
I tried dating but I realised that I would never find someone and ... | 1.645366 | 2.922947 | 3.789114 | 89.804159 | 77.455285 | 6.546016 | 22.056098 | 7.168622 | 0.548389 | 884 | 24 | 202 | 10 | 20 | 304 | 129 | 246 | 0.13 | 0.787 | 0.083 | -0.934 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 19 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 8 | 1 | 1 | 16 | 0 | 28 | 7 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 47 | 47 | 19 | 1 | 7 | 10 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 15 | 16 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 8 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 13 | 4 | 24 | 3 | 24 | 22 | 6 | 32 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 12 | 0 | 12 | 14 | 139 | 39 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133168 | 0.120801 | 0 | 0.136461 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113785 | 0.166145 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.263661 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141433 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113841 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130218 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124554 | 0 | 0 | 0.29884 | 0 | 0 | 0.071199 | 0 | 0.077449 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091343 | 0 | 0.136696 | 0.135353 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153839 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139352 | 0.096256 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1206 | 0 | 0 | 0.148762 | 0.115857 | 0 | 0.128948 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144567 | 0 | 0 | 0.108774 | 0 | 0 | 0.101047 | 0.105105 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103644 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130091 | 0.094477 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128825 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130398 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174604 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136436 | 0 | 0.217189 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.230933 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156004 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079464 | 0.156629 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092523 | 0.148229 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080379 | 0.324509 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193613 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Gavin_Alph4Church117 | 2019/02/13 | I need help. Going through some painful times and have been the past year. Everyday I've been cutting and hurting myself and i really want to end it. Im confused and hurt and lost. The people i care about either ignore me or say I'm over reacting. I just want someone to talk to and help me get through this. | 1.237143 | 3.591146 | 2.529524 | 92.957143 | 83.761905 | 5.504762 | 23.285714 | 6.86897 | 0.756943 | 243 | 9 | 51 | 3 | 7 | 78 | 44 | 63 | 0.24 | 0.6 | 0.161 | -0.7017 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 8 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 16 | 11 | 7 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 7 | 1 | 7 | 8 | 2 | 7 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 31 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.23523 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.204346 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120539 | 0 | 0.131121 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.309288 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.493972 | 0 | 0.249212 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.251853 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171073 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.245498 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.220244 | 0.159949 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147802 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183474 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.195485 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185441 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134532 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.272164 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148573 |
suicidewatch | soccpuppetacc | 2019/02/13 | Paracetamol Overdose Just wondering how much it hurts, probably should’ve asked before but kowabunga or whatever | 9.417647 | 13.922204 | 7.160294 | 58.866324 | 67.823529 | 12.811765 | 43.794118 | 11.208143 | 7.753259 | 96 | 6 | 10 | 4 | 2 | 28 | 17 | 17 | 0.12 | 0.88 | 0 | -0.2617 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.394245 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.358847 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.451453 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.310008 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.454679 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.457331 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | kathrynpumpkin | 2019/02/13 | Antidepressants Hey guys, I just want to know if anyone has ever had good experiences with antidepressants? I've been going through a very, very, very difficult time for a little more than a year. I've mostly tried to ignore my feelings, but I also have gone to therapy and I talk to my friends (as much as I let myself... | 3.427924 | 5.624399 | 4.29691 | 84.085565 | 74.988024 | 7.327585 | 25.504591 | 8.238736 | 1.675775 | 684 | 24 | 131 | 12 | 15 | 220 | 109 | 167 | 0.132 | 0.709 | 0.16 | 0.6083 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 22 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 10 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 1 | 19 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 30 | 35 | 15 | 0 | 6 | 9 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 8 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 4 | 13 | 4 | 16 | 25 | 6 | 14 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 3 | 0 | 5 | 8 | 87 | 20 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116492 | 0 | 0.157833 | 0.177004 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101856 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160881 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154099 | 0.125481 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152194 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150516 | 0 | 0 | 0.131766 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142493 | 0 | 0 | 0.073655 | 0 | 0.139866 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112544 | 0 | 0.076106 | 0 | 0.082787 | 0.122181 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144236 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15484 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129478 | 0 | 0 | 0.080056 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148957 | 0 | 0 | 0.145999 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146747 | 0.146801 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116272 | 0 | 0.214168 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139774 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115842 | 0.145841 | 0 | 0.11608 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120499 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206211 | 0 | 0 | 0.121786 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137292 | 0 | 0 | 0.117084 | 0 | 0 | 0.166586 | 0 | 0.096776 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084941 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0989 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.360578 | 0.171839 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106049 | 0.147935 | 0.14845 | 0.103479 | 0 | 0.177004 | 0.093806 |
suicidewatch | Eriksson23 | 2019/02/13 | Why are my thoughts so bad? I had a good life, good friends, Good parents. I was on a good way to a good education. But somewhere my brain just shut down. I got depressed, hopped of school, stopped hanging out with friends and slowly getting anxiety over just talking to people. Just being home. Parents started to argue... | 1.396894 | 3.731083 | 2.65004 | 92.488902 | 82.855422 | 5.134672 | 24.884873 | 6.427356 | 0.777859 | 642 | 26 | 133 | 6 | 18 | 206 | 102 | 166 | 0.168 | 0.682 | 0.15 | -0.5262 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 22 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 10 | 12 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 13 | 7 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 24 | 25 | 10 | 2 | 3 | 8 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 7 | 8 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 17 | 7 | 23 | 18 | 3 | 25 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 10 | 0 | 2 | 10 | 84 | 24 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12211 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082926 | 0 | 0.093287 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093768 | 0.101819 | 0.148673 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13613 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13395 | 0 | 0 | 0.105031 | 0 | 0.126559 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.216013 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102744 | 0 | 0.109596 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188428 | 0 | 0.063711 | 0 | 0.069304 | 0.511406 | 0.19506 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12232 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067018 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172266 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089643 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114437 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.406215 | 0 | 0 | 0.169082 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120406 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123414 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122033 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086313 | 0 | 0 | 0.101951 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098014 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078137 | 0 | 0.09681 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071926 | 0.193588 | 0 | 0.148496 | 0 | 0 | 0.110036 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088777 | 0 | 0.124272 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | PM_ME_PLASTIC_FORKS | 2019/02/13 | Filing appreciation notes at work fucking blows when you're already suicidal Most of my shift today has consisted of catching up on filing appreciation notes that workers can give each other for being helpful. I haven't gotten one of these since I got promoted to an office assistant. I started the day already wanting t... | 10.772368 | 8.329615 | 10.068289 | 65.179276 | 58.473684 | 12.026316 | 39.539474 | 10.125757 | 4.025368 | 410 | 15 | 68 | 6 | 4 | 132 | 74 | 95 | 0.087 | 0.76 | 0.152 | 0.5859 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 4 | 6 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 12 | 3 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 8 | 1 | 15 | 9 | 3 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 7 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 46 | 12 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.53458 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156208 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122471 | 0.173038 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.223924 | 0 | 0.232354 | 0 | 0 | 0.193721 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162351 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.267975 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118334 | 0.242763 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164131 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.200363 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171441 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.264944 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.229591 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.285729 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176335 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | high_on_lyfe96 | 2019/02/13 | I don't even know I don't even know why I'm writing this but whatever. I guess I hope it'll help. I just hate the fact one minute I'll be fine, quite happy and the next I feel like shit. Like I honestly just wanna die so that I don't feel the way I do.
I don't actually want to kill myself but it does seem like an opti... | 1.361858 | 2.462876 | 2.898379 | 96.627451 | 77.84058 | 6.177602 | 16.893281 | 6.574016 | -0.543487 | 484 | 6 | 122 | 4 | 11 | 159 | 78 | 138 | 0.203 | 0.602 | 0.195 | -0.5229 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 11 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 12 | 3 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 10 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 38 | 33 | 9 | 2 | 6 | 10 | 0 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 19 | 9 | 5 | 29 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 3 | 1 | 8 | 5 | 68 | 29 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127466 | 0 | 0 | 0.12764 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135283 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088826 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182665 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079625 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104289 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135563 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114306 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.258819 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.396271 | 0.093315 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125302 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.287785 | 0 | 0 | 0.139047 | 0 | 0.12896 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087552 | 0 | 0 | 0.129735 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144511 | 0.13602 | 0.215355 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191443 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.261569 | 0 | 0 | 0.142283 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138916 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088511 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123478 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13893 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111548 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118911 | 0 | 0 | 0.134079 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123108 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13598 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077043 | 0.311039 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117864 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | raise_the_sails | 2019/02/13 | Can’t afford another inpatient stay I have had recurrent major depressive disorder since I was a teenager. I have been inpatient for this twice and outpatient once. I have been on: Paxil, Prozac, Celexa, Wellbutrin, Effexor, Pristiq, Remeron, Zoloft, Lexapro, and let’s throw in the antipsychotic Seroquel for good measu... | 4.523793 | 6.776666 | 5.034359 | 79.767502 | 71.983425 | 8.648868 | 29.356977 | 9.285337 | 2.810697 | 1,546 | 64 | 275 | 36 | 31 | 493 | 189 | 362 | 0.144 | 0.804 | 0.052 | -0.9853 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 56 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 8 | 10 | 2 | 1 | 17 | 1 | 45 | 14 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 41 | 57 | 19 | 2 | 5 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 12 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 13 | 17 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 5 | 7 | 0 | 4 | 15 | 0 | 36 | 3 | 50 | 36 | 7 | 42 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 19 | 0 | 7 | 17 | 196 | 49 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.255473 | 0 | 0.288948 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121377 | 0 | 0 | 0.114796 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.217508 | 0.089007 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102374 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099711 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074651 | 0 | 0.199396 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132663 | 0.118478 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118444 | 0 | 0 | 0.102523 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120953 | 0 | 0 | 0.097088 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077587 | 0.1223 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12723 | 0.188709 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118365 | 0.08176 | 0.056551 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109528 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.233218 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08583 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123273 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.218848 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11076 | 0 | 0.116364 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114292 | 0.124276 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115889 | 0 | 0 | 0.105377 | 0 | 0.130768 | 0 | 0.191504 | 0 | 0.115837 | 0.117996 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.246755 | 0 | 0.096775 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087032 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091895 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157178 | 0 | 0.226148 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095508 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168539 | 0 | 0 | 0.082228 | 0 | 0 | 0.149082 |
suicidewatch | Orangectoplasm | 2019/02/13 | Yall should check out r/2meirl4meirl Its a sub-reddit full of depressive memes. Now you may think that thats a little insensitive for the serious problems that people face in this sub but, sometimes, a little dark relatable humor is what y’all could use. | 7.431667 | 8.72892 | 6.55087 | 75.406449 | 63.565217 | 9.611594 | 30.550725 | 9.725611 | 2.928081 | 207 | 7 | 34 | 4 | 3 | 63 | 40 | 46 | 0.141 | 0.807 | 0.052 | -0.2141 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 4 | 3 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 24 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.267206 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.288249 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.670851 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.232017 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.320233 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.330996 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.214442 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.289046 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Canadian_Toast | 2019/02/13 | I didnt think I would come this far: Now what? So I am 25 years old now, and in college for art. My professors are always asking me what I want to go into, or what I want to be when I get out. A 4 year degree has taken me 8 years, and truthfully, I never thought I would live past the age of 25 because I always assume... | 2.457045 | 2.363702 | 4.681491 | 89.36024 | 74.068493 | 8.083627 | 23.405414 | 7.957252 | 0.853591 | 747 | 17 | 186 | 10 | 14 | 263 | 112 | 219 | 0.123 | 0.846 | 0.031 | -0.9586 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 26 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 13 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 10 | 0 | 26 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 38 | 44 | 17 | 1 | 6 | 5 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 3 | 33 | 2 | 21 | 33 | 2 | 32 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 0 | 5 | 22 | 130 | 44 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183209 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084219 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10292 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134221 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112245 | 0 | 0 | 0.094834 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087899 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094821 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.516104 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097508 | 0.113754 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166996 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057518 | 0 | 0.062567 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121278 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073792 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12428 | 0.118917 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1218 | 0 | 0.121006 | 0.089739 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097213 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073487 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122287 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08093 | 0 | 0.084909 | 0 | 0.117083 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.231044 | 0 | 0.074601 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105095 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141054 | 0 | 0.108702 | 0 | 0.124712 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091069 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087919 | 0 | 0 | 0.115091 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125899 | 0 | 0.146279 | 0.070542 | 0 | 0.0874 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129869 | 0.087385 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09934 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111803 | 0 | 0.234617 | 0 | 0 | 0.354476 |
suicidewatch | 19cent | 2019/02/13 | I don't feel fit for the life I've been given I lost my job on Friday because I couldn't put down the blunt at a responsible time of night or take care of my girl well enough that we don't fight so much. It's so easy to do either of those things but I rather be selfish basically. I'm just waiting a couple more days til... | 4.689875 | 4.820202 | 5.589255 | 84.011994 | 69.252708 | 7.96169 | 27.124443 | 7.510576 | 1.355514 | 1,057 | 30 | 220 | 10 | 17 | 348 | 141 | 277 | 0.113 | 0.686 | 0.201 | 0.9833 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 19 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 19 | 22 | 4 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 27 | 8 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 35 | 53 | 15 | 0 | 3 | 15 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 22 | 7 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 10 | 11 | 1 | 0 | 14 | 4 | 29 | 11 | 35 | 31 | 8 | 25 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 4 | 10 | 12 | 3 | 3 | 11 | 162 | 51 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126928 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099611 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073789 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123416 | 0 | 0.128052 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096646 | 0.133936 | 0 | 0.078065 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136162 | 0 | 0.250148 | 0 | 0.159901 | 0 | 0 | 0.115666 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12241 | 0.086476 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.335718 | 0 | 0 | 0.068794 | 0.101529 | 0.096812 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107042 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.360362 | 0.107592 | 0 | 0 | 0.066524 | 0.197339 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123779 | 0.170998 | 0.118275 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.264274 | 0 | 0.10925 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141769 | 0 | 0 | 0.088984 | 0 | 0.093359 | 0 | 0 | 0.113594 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128803 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.251756 | 0 | 0 | 0.132873 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121686 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135502 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137363 | 0 | 0 | 0.091012 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160837 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141167 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082183 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096082 | 0 | 0 | 0.108836 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07795 |
suicidewatch | worm_foond_mp4 | 2019/02/13 | i don't know why I do this anymore. every fucking day is just pain and hurt. I wake up and the first thing i do, ever, is think about how I'm a waste of space and how I shouldn't be alive. I could've been doing schoolwork for the two hours I've been home, but I don't see the point. I'll just become a worthless piece of... | 0.694185 | 2.034022 | 2.680018 | 96.479356 | 80.223022 | 5.208873 | 19.497002 | 5.461319 | -0.409418 | 482 | 11 | 118 | 2 | 12 | 162 | 77 | 139 | 0.307 | 0.668 | 0.025 | -0.9907 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 13 | 9 | 4 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 16 | 5 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 21 | 31 | 8 | 1 | 3 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 8 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 14 | 1 | 13 | 26 | 3 | 9 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 5 | 76 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.440487 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090252 | 0.163513 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118208 | 0 | 0 | 0.095482 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131131 | 0 | 0 | 0.097788 | 0.133923 | 0.124741 | 0 | 0.133061 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125934 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136873 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148509 | 0 | 0.145803 | 0 | 0.316988 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131597 | 0.163799 | 0 | 0.244099 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104574 | 0 | 0 | 0.261467 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.217672 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157539 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139958 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117979 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151975 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168009 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09836 | 0.094867 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100518 | 0 | 0.144626 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174651 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.26719 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | throwawayforJJ | 2019/02/13 | Does anyone pine for a situation where you get to help someone and die? I always like to imagine different scenarios in which I get to die. Ok, if you look at my reddit post/comment history you would know that I am someone who's been suicidal for years and been suffering from various mental illness on top of shitty fam... | 4.95993 | 6.373714 | 6.166325 | 75.47888 | 69.345912 | 8.926661 | 32.379546 | 9.318705 | 3.141502 | 1,315 | 59 | 228 | 27 | 23 | 441 | 168 | 318 | 0.23 | 0.67 | 0.1 | -0.9946 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 42 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 1 | 8 | 16 | 4 | 0 | 16 | 2 | 14 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 32 | 30 | 15 | 9 | 5 | 6 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 12 | 13 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 3 | 3 | 5 | 4 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 45 | 7 | 45 | 26 | 4 | 33 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 25 | 21 | 0 | 7 | 5 | 159 | 57 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066828 | 0.208603 | 0 | 0 | 0.056828 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116864 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078124 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139549 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071985 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.433645 | 0.174619 | 0 | 0 | 0.07313 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157559 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174641 | 0.080165 | 0.047493 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073898 | 0.088958 | 0 | 0 | 0.171527 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112026 | 0 | 0 | 0.083001 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184908 | 0 | 0.045926 | 0.068118 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059026 | 0.040826 | 0 | 0.147582 | 0 | 0.14035 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169447 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084216 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092791 | 0 | 0 | 0.115869 | 0.072967 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160068 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167179 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.281798 | 0 | 0 | 0.354029 | 0.064334 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069866 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091408 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062832 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055518 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.04929 | 0.066331 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.301624 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090625 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059363 | 0.091367 | 0 | 0.053814 |
suicidewatch | midnightea | 2019/02/13 | I'm a useless person I'm bad at everything, I grew slower than all my peers. I have no skills to speak of despite effort. I'm socially awkward and honestly sort of stupid. I've had multiple people say I'm the most "Hufflepuff" person they've ever met and yeah, they don't mean that as a compliment. I've been selfish, I'... | 2.264973 | 4.291894 | 4.395477 | 82.817571 | 77.907563 | 7.688617 | 25.103896 | 8.57599 | 1.912119 | 462 | 17 | 91 | 10 | 11 | 159 | 74 | 119 | 0.21 | 0.677 | 0.114 | -0.8979 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 10 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 22 | 21 | 7 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 4 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 10 | 5 | 13 | 16 | 3 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 4 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 50 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175799 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190453 | 0 | 0.201188 | 0.189228 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10646 | 0.150416 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.231424 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102863 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.211525 | 0.458699 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156119 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.437904 | 0.367686 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.21166 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167437 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.214628 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181847 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | herrkatze5 | 2019/02/13 | 31 no job, college degree, living at home, ugly, never had a gf. Give me a reason to live. I do have a bachelor's degree but I dropped out of graduate school | -1.002727 | 1.097551 | 2.717333 | 87.336 | 98.090909 | 5.064242 | 18.721212 | 6.742158 | 0.595187 | 120 | 4 | 24 | 2 | 5 | 44 | 29 | 33 | 0.13 | 0.87 | 0 | -0.4118 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 16 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.325113 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.339954 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.336316 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.598527 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.261388 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.348456 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.342995 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | JustAnotherLeech | 2019/02/13 | Coming to the realization that I will never amount to anything. Lately I’ve been contemplating life, why is it worth being here if I’ll never be enough/good at anything. I was barely starting to get out of this shithole when some more bullshit hit me head on. I don’t know what to do anymore, there’s only one other pers... | 4.265816 | 5.425227 | 5.282245 | 82.127041 | 70.734694 | 6.82449 | 26.244898 | 6.86897 | 1.210494 | 389 | 12 | 73 | 3 | 7 | 128 | 72 | 98 | 0.111 | 0.827 | 0.063 | -0.7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 14 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 22 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 13 | 14 | 3 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 6 | 2 | 2 | 7 | 55 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191628 | 0 | 0 | 0.318017 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166447 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.199654 | 0 | 0.127624 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173659 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.201905 | 0 | 0.109815 | 0.162069 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198306 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.204154 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106192 | 0 | 0.435935 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136481 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.298056 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130935 | 0.293914 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168718 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198344 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136766 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155308 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174357 | 0 | 0 | 0.186263 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | lastrecluse | 2019/02/13 | Winter makes everything worse. I'm depressed year round, but bloody hell do I hate this season. I'm really struggling and I don't know how to cope. It's just misery. All misery. It's getting worse. | 0.316484 | 2.558828 | 1.711062 | 92.718462 | 102.589744 | 4.279853 | 15.827839 | 6.182691 | -0.136278 | 157 | 4 | 30 | 2 | 7 | 50 | 30 | 39 | 0.622 | 0.378 | 0 | -0.9911 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 7 | 8 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 13 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.277737 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.289809 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168474 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.318366 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177217 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.215247 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206578 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.337109 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.657235 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.207656 |
suicidewatch | awzp | 2019/02/13 | I really can't find anything that makes me want to keep going You know when you would get attached to one thing and after a while you don't care about it anymore? That's the same with me, and it interests me and confuses me at the same time. I might be wrong on this because I'm not that good at thinking things through.... | 2.968585 | 4.154311 | 4.38316 | 87.237193 | 73.90566 | 7.941509 | 24.570755 | 8.472885 | 1.371815 | 400 | 12 | 88 | 7 | 8 | 133 | 70 | 106 | 0.12 | 0.765 | 0.114 | -0.1685 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 18 | 20 | 7 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 5 | 15 | 17 | 2 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 65 | 25 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198875 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202111 | 0 | 0 | 0.167707 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124232 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.415567 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186266 | 0.173349 | 0 | 0 | 0.157452 | 0 | 0.106475 | 0 | 0.115822 | 0.170934 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.21271 | 0 | 0.181143 | 0 | 0 | 0.112001 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136035 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.216195 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.196827 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138097 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177947 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19518 | 0.207334 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130557 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163803 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.270786 | 0.130584 | 0 | 0 | 0.118835 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120204 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144771 | 0.222819 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Justsomeguy3005 | 2019/02/13 | Life isn't worth it. I hate life. I don't feel joy anymore, all I feel is anger and hatred. I hate the way the world has become, and I know it's not getting better anytime soon. At this point killing myself seems like the best escape. I feel like the way my world is developing I am either going to kill myself or become... | 2.171892 | 3.552909 | 3.547995 | 91.646203 | 76.279412 | 5.827807 | 18.981283 | 6.112484 | -0.239638 | 503 | 9 | 113 | 3 | 11 | 165 | 66 | 136 | 0.265 | 0.612 | 0.123 | -0.9678 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 12 | 6 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 14 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 21 | 25 | 8 | 2 | 2 | 9 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 8 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 14 | 6 | 10 | 25 | 8 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 77 | 26 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131094 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.29198 | 0 | 0 | 0.138722 | 0.116909 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139836 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.258608 | 0 | 0 | 0.200513 | 0.094434 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069062 | 0 | 0.15025 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.391522 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.292491 | 0 | 0.072646 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.560205 | 0.12916 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126837 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091642 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124959 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120338 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101764 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.209848 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13471 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Peach_tree | 2019/02/13 | I have nothing left. Everything is gone. I have lost everything. My job. My partner. My mind.
My parents would be devastated if I killed myself but I just can’t do this anymore.
I had a breakdown and had to go stay with my mom. I wanted to kill myself every day. I had vivid scenarios play out in my mind of how I’d ... | 0.364157 | 2.704243 | 2.601662 | 90.770167 | 88.496124 | 5.550581 | 20.853198 | 7.04035 | 0.658748 | 973 | 33 | 205 | 15 | 32 | 329 | 124 | 258 | 0.192 | 0.746 | 0.062 | -0.9917 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 33 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 6 | 13 | 6 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 29 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 41 | 54 | 15 | 5 | 9 | 9 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 11 | 15 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 12 | 7 | 9 | 0 | 2 | 14 | 3 | 45 | 4 | 33 | 33 | 5 | 32 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 20 | 7 | 1 | 3 | 11 | 148 | 56 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074056 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165705 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078101 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.215895 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066702 | 0 | 0 | 0.161635 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.211166 | 0.079829 | 0.300332 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091517 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064545 | 0 | 0.043648 | 0.080142 | 0.237397 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.251402 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082904 | 0.074257 | 0.46214 | 0 | 0.045913 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.18154 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07377 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182394 | 0 | 0.075401 | 0.07905 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168709 | 0.097845 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.240485 | 0 | 0 | 0.088971 | 0.113222 | 0.127077 | 0 | 0 | 0.185529 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188365 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079469 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066573 | 0 | 0 | 0.09438 | 0.085756 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089046 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055502 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.048715 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147828 | 0.066313 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121641 | 0 | 0 | 0.059347 | 0 | 0 | 0.053799 |
suicidewatch | KillSpyy | 2019/02/13 | okay so. i was really suicidal a few months ago. if was really bad. i had a panic attack almost every day. it got better as i started painting on the streets and got some medication drugs. as the time of writing this im just a teen. my parents let me do graffiti until i got jumped. since then i never got to paint. this... | -0.370032 | 1.891173 | 2.224123 | 91.754139 | 94.100671 | 4.985746 | 18.504634 | 6.655084 | 0.240384 | 554 | 17 | 118 | 8 | 21 | 190 | 88 | 149 | 0.233 | 0.719 | 0.048 | -0.9856 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 22 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 10 | 12 | 3 | 1 | 6 | 1 | 10 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 21 | 23 | 11 | 1 | 5 | 4 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 2 | 22 | 2 | 17 | 13 | 4 | 22 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 6 | 1 | 4 | 15 | 79 | 26 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109178 | 0 | 0.123331 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122146 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140117 | 0 | 0 | 0.411348 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108929 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079431 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142831 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103771 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124551 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113863 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.492528 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13185 | 0 | 0.133038 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125944 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082213 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124075 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.196617 | 0 | 0.09054 | 0.091325 | 0.094992 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144507 | 0.136759 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.315608 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.210363 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124649 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101883 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104357 | 0.094818 | 0 | 0 | 0.087176 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134722 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098995 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081825 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071818 | 0 | 0.116745 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145291 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | LemonLimeCrazy11 | 2019/02/13 | The end It’s over. Goodbye everyone. | -0.167143 | 0.10507 | 2.632143 | 82.425357 | 133.285714 | 7.114286 | 32.071429 | 7.168622 | 3.844486 | 29 | 2 | 5 | 1 | 2 | 10 | 7 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.679797 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.7334 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Ghostric | 2019/02/13 | I am going to killm yself just kidding lol | 0.863333 | 3.124491 | 2.342222 | 94.3 | 84.555556 | 3.6 | 20.111111 | 3.1291 | -0.472422 | 34 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 9 | 9 | 0 | 0.588 | 0.412 | 0.4939 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | HomestuckPlease | 2019/02/13 | My friend killed himself and I don’t know how I should feel So one of my friends took his life about 3 days ago, and I’ve been so sad but i feel guilty? But not because I feel like I could have prevented it, but because I somewhat feel like I didn’t know him well enough to be this sad?
I met him from my first job almo... | 3.649425 | 4.416521 | 4.713276 | 87.09681 | 71.835249 | 7.945594 | 24.844828 | 8.167269 | 1.222848 | 988 | 27 | 216 | 14 | 18 | 324 | 127 | 261 | 0.128 | 0.655 | 0.217 | 0.9804 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 23 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 19 | 26 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 1 | 21 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 63 | 44 | 26 | 1 | 5 | 15 | 1 | 8 | 5 | 9 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 18 | 1 | 1 | 12 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 10 | 6 | 1 | 4 | 14 | 10 | 41 | 20 | 25 | 23 | 6 | 36 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 33 | 11 | 0 | 10 | 27 | 148 | 49 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0.295779 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.201508 | 0 | 0.075877 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079456 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067455 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138574 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086666 | 0.077257 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0605 | 0 | 0 | 0.048868 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15659 | 0 | 0 | 0.068542 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142867 | 0 | 0.30651 | 0.270666 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064454 | 0.091627 | 0 | 0.526888 | 0 | 0.039589 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081118 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.225583 | 0 | 0.083833 | 0 | 0.083287 | 0 | 0.085477 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053522 | 0.185098 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05058 | 0 | 0 | 0.08254 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060482 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.233767 | 0 | 0 | 0.071109 | 0.074243 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102693 | 0.11526 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082056 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086248 | 0.145629 | 0 | 0.074818 | 0 | 0 | 0.064711 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062681 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053633 | 0 | 0.060513 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060905 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084188 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083455 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060782 | 0 | 0.06813 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055165 | 0 | 0 | 0.053828 | 0 | 0 | 0.048796 |
suicidewatch | Antarctic4 | 2019/02/13 | I've finally gave up. I am so tired of being alive.
Only twenty years old and I cannot wait for the day that I get to call my last, every day that passes by I wonder when I will finally leave this place. I've wondered who would go to my funeral, I actually think it would be a full house but where is that full house no... | 3.575825 | 3.724372 | 4.859481 | 88.211364 | 71.681818 | 7.922078 | 23.441558 | 7.709487 | 0.811338 | 801 | 17 | 184 | 9 | 14 | 267 | 128 | 220 | 0.171 | 0.705 | 0.124 | -0.892 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 18 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 10 | 12 | 3 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 24 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 28 | 45 | 11 | 1 | 5 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 21 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 5 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 27 | 6 | 31 | 34 | 4 | 33 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 8 | 15 | 3 | 7 | 15 | 134 | 48 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0.111819 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118677 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069851 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101342 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117005 | 0 | 0.116828 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126787 | 0 | 0.147797 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100275 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101489 | 0 | 0 | 0.075683 | 0 | 0.193087 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057938 | 0 | 0 | 0.251047 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.317799 | 0.119733 | 0.109921 | 0.065122 | 0.096109 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101328 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076805 | 0 | 0 | 0.11381 | 0 | 0.264434 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093403 | 0 | 0.12133 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202363 | 0.101405 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103418 | 0 | 0.076487 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121558 | 0 | 0 | 0.091461 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088376 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120239 | 0 | 0.077646 | 0.261443 | 0 | 0 | 0.127234 | 0 | 0.109385 | 0 | 0 | 0.119718 | 0 | 0 | 0.129178 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097088 | 0.088214 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11979 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086154 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076126 | 0.073422 | 0.11258 | 0 | 0 | 0.1317 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094545 | 0.067586 | 0.090953 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103396 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.248527 | 0 | 0 | 0.116773 | 0.244196 | 0 | 0 | 0.07379 |
suicidewatch | Ghost--28 | 2019/02/13 | Painless ways of suicide? I’m looking for the most painless ways of suicide. I went to r/morbidquestions but in the rules they say you cant talk about suicide so I’m asking again. I just want the methods please. | 1.722143 | 4.336301 | 2.295524 | 93.566143 | 84.47619 | 4.312381 | 27.447619 | 5.683918 | 0.891385 | 169 | 8 | 33 | 1 | 5 | 52 | 31 | 42 | 0.242 | 0.598 | 0.16 | -0.7908 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 7 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 6 | 6 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 19 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.21701 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194931 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.254809 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184599 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.761737 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186577 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136916 | 0.368508 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.215187 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | incrediblyfunkymunky | 2019/02/13 | No seatbelt.... I don't wear my seatbelt when I'm in vehicles because I hope one day that I will get into a wreck and fly out the windshield and die. | 3.496563 | 3.480706 | 5.03125 | 87.48875 | 71.8125 | 7.65 | 31.625 | 7.168622 | 1.774575 | 115 | 5 | 26 | 1 | 2 | 39 | 27 | 32 | 0.265 | 0.649 | 0.086 | -0.7269 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 5 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 17 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.322032 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.340694 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.548266 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.276002 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.524696 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.357973 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | EncepTiion | 2019/02/13 | How can people do this bullshit? I mean what do you really life for. Nothing. You were bred just to pay taxes and work. Like a slave. Under the illusion of money to help maintain this system and thus making it as hard as possible to escape. Poor people stuck in this. I really hope that there is something more lifeworth... | 2.052192 | 4.800763 | 3.554135 | 84.05274 | 84.692308 | 6.326923 | 18.894231 | 7.645422 | 1.004269 | 268 | 7 | 47 | 5 | 8 | 88 | 53 | 65 | 0.164 | 0.702 | 0.134 | -0.3197 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 8 | 9 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 10 | 7 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 35 | 11 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.264315 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197772 | 0 | 0 | 0.29306 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.208409 | 0.144151 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.196954 | 0 | 0 | 0.321406 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.283117 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.409114 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.332635 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.378045 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.227151 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.214807 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Gettingdakotahelp123 | 2019/02/13 | I don’t want to live in this world anymore. I don’t want to live in this world anymore. I’m young with no hope. Broken with no means to fix myself. I can’t do this anymore. | -1.467692 | 0.457755 | 0.764821 | 103.471846 | 93.358974 | 3.12 | 15.492308 | 3.1291 | -1.423917 | 133 | 3 | 34 | 0 | 5 | 44 | 20 | 39 | 0.192 | 0.667 | 0.141 | -0.4588 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 7 | 9 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 20 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.754841 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.251993 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.448064 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.276366 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.299291 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | BornToBeSam | 2019/02/13 | Stressed college student I’ve always struggled with depression and bad days. But it’s been harder now. I’m studying Accounting at a big school. I have a 3.85 gpa right now. Last semester I got 3.34. This school is making me feel like a complete idiot. Right now I’m taking a tax class and there’s a midterm on Friday. I ... | 0.317829 | 2.503027 | 2.174134 | 95.079194 | 86.369727 | 4.596159 | 21.912234 | 5.922688 | 0.15416 | 1,486 | 53 | 329 | 11 | 46 | 490 | 181 | 403 | 0.172 | 0.705 | 0.123 | -0.9755 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 46 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 28 | 30 | 3 | 5 | 15 | 0 | 24 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 65 | 65 | 35 | 0 | 10 | 18 | 0 | 7 | 6 | 1 | 4 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 21 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 9 | 19 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 9 | 43 | 10 | 36 | 54 | 2 | 46 | 0 | 7 | 1 | 1 | 14 | 22 | 0 | 7 | 26 | 188 | 56 | 25 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077286 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128442 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153086 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068708 | 0 | 0 | 0.072514 | 0 | 0.193329 | 0.188195 | 0 | 0.065675 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07881 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080923 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149326 | 0 | 0.132952 | 0 | 0 | 0.080638 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078983 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064475 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152932 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.273175 | 0.220553 | 0 | 0 | 0.070542 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05963 | 0 | 0.080648 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061729 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0762 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.051733 | 0.081546 | 0 | 0 | 0.076008 | 0 | 0.082624 | 0.087128 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062913 | 0 | 0 | 0.083857 | 0 | 0.054515 | 0.226241 | 0 | 0.068152 | 0.068303 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069659 | 0 | 0.103038 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114458 | 0.059527 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075621 | 0.074057 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117399 | 0.164252 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053508 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072961 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083214 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082092 | 0 | 0 | 0.049444 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131824 | 0 | 0.061377 | 0 | 0.390557 | 0.061503 | 0 | 0 | 0.087193 | 0 | 0 | 0.086755 | 0 | 0 | 0.196186 | 0 | 0 | 0.086398 | 0.054629 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.265232 | 0.080686 | 0 | 0 | 0.087584 | 0 | 0 | 0.116061 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.045005 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150789 | 0.080348 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091047 | 0.061263 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088754 | 0 | 0.0837 | 0.056189 | 0 | 0 | 0.054827 | 0 | 0 | 0.099404 |
suicidewatch | yeeeboiiiiiiii | 2019/02/13 | It does not stop StopStopStopStopStopStopStopStopStopStopStopStopStopStopStopStopStopStopStopStopStopStopStopStopStopStopStopStopStopStopStopStopStopStopStopStopStopStopStopStopStopStopStopStopStopStopStopStopStopStopStopStopStopStopStopStopStopStopStopStopStopStopStopStopStopStopStopStopStopStopStopStopStopStopStopSto... | 6,315.82 | 7,886.166774 | 3,955.621391 | -28,256.538348 | -13,295.782609 | 24.448696 | 61.121739 | 12.340627 | 16.740207 | 30,935 | 13 | 10 | 13 | 5 | 7,737 | 15 | 23 | 0.05 | 0.742 | 0.208 | 0.5875 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.502638 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.423823 | 0 | 0.567608 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.404905 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.285659 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | fbjyfkn | 2019/02/13 | I'm a loser Yeah, I'm a fucking loser who has 0 motivation to do well in life or live. It's quite embarrassing really and death seems like a very peaceful and better alternative | 3.279167 | 5.089664 | 6.134444 | 72.455 | 74.277778 | 9.244444 | 25.888889 | 9.725611 | 2.630289 | 143 | 5 | 27 | 4 | 3 | 52 | 30 | 36 | 0.285 | 0.39 | 0.325 | -0.0038 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 7 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 6 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 13 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.333949 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.349077 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.266704 | 0.184472 | 0 | 0.33342 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.401615 | 0 | 0 | 0.241895 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.343745 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.311552 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.3395 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | oyasumi__ | 2019/02/13 | Watch my hero academia. Very motivational anime Seriously, try watching some episodes, this anime helped me a lot during a dark phase | 7.405909 | 10.641432 | 6.4 | 68.77 | 66.727273 | 8.036364 | 33.727273 | 8.841846 | 3.292836 | 109 | 5 | 16 | 2 | 2 | 33 | 20 | 22 | 0.083 | 0.764 | 0.153 | 0.3892 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 7 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.440649 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.558907 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.446339 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.542433 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | yosemitehowler | 2019/02/13 | I drafted my suicide note and I think I know how I am going to do it. Facts about me:
In therapy
On medications
28 F
A Mom (8 years old and 1 year old)
Jobless
Dropped out of class because of my mental health
So yeah, it’s pretty much my calling. | -1.689518 | 0.142711 | 1.401006 | 95.506834 | 104.283019 | 3.86499 | 20.983229 | 5.822114 | 0.144528 | 189 | 8 | 43 | 2 | 9 | 66 | 44 | 53 | 0.082 | 0.745 | 0.174 | 0.6195 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 7 | 5 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 7 | 5 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 25 | 10 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147308 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.246753 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137336 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.256864 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132805 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.243438 | 0.243527 | 0 | 0 | 0.283019 | 0 | 0 | 0.177641 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.507144 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.245846 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.264327 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.276349 | 0 | 0 | 0.15484 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.311231 |
suicidewatch | Cathrandir | 2019/02/13 | My Family is falling apart, I feel almost nothing anymore and I don't see any way out of my misery I have been really depressed for the last years, and a few months ago I found myself holding a knife pointing towards my heart. Now I feel like I'll never be ok again, and even though I don't want to give up, it feels lik... | 7.013176 | 5.893631 | 7.492576 | 76.480943 | 64.760369 | 10.287222 | 33.321743 | 9.33951 | 2.829276 | 1,712 | 59 | 334 | 26 | 22 | 566 | 200 | 434 | 0.139 | 0.808 | 0.054 | -0.99 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 52 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 23 | 19 | 3 | 0 | 20 | 1 | 38 | 6 | 4 | 4 | 6 | 70 | 64 | 27 | 0 | 7 | 8 | 12 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 19 | 23 | 0 | 2 | 22 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 17 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 10 | 8 | 54 | 14 | 46 | 50 | 12 | 64 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 41 | 20 | 1 | 4 | 38 | 237 | 73 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089741 | 0 | 0 | 0.145944 | 0 | 0.082432 | 0 | 0 | 0.131663 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111961 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163279 | 0.05756 | 0 | 0.135485 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077342 | 0.063299 | 0 | 0.100363 | 0 | 0 | 0.092747 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091439 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094152 | 0.167862 | 0 | 0.087084 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092329 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070902 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072039 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072911 | 0.170117 | 0 | 0.108743 | 0 | 0.069358 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.310416 | 0 | 0.166494 | 0.117619 | 0 | 0.090178 | 0.225717 | 0 | 0 | 0.18052 | 0 | 0 | 0.086018 | 0.236907 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09755 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16338 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090482 | 0.067102 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058145 | 0.080435 | 0 | 0.14538 | 0.145701 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065707 | 0.087493 | 0 | 0.061039 | 0.06349 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080656 | 0.157977 | 0.093722 | 0 | 0 | 0.111564 | 0.187824 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077819 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052736 | 0.169278 | 0 | 0 | 0.093253 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065598 | 0.149882 | 0 | 0.092998 | 0.0845 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06975 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116533 | 0 | 0.131482 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077586 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143903 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05469 | 0.052747 | 0.080879 | 0.065353 | 0.096003 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.048555 | 0.196026 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058478 | 0 | 0 | 0.106023 |
suicidewatch | ssueri | 2019/02/13 | I’m doing it at the end of this semester Years of suffering and trying, nothing changes. I don’t want to hurt my family but I can’t keep going. Just giving myself a chance to the end of this semester and then it’s done. | 0.606809 | 2.694469 | 3.390894 | 87.494 | 84.106383 | 7.164255 | 20.038298 | 8.238736 | 1.14902 | 173 | 5 | 37 | 4 | 5 | 61 | 35 | 47 | 0.117 | 0.762 | 0.122 | 0.3047 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 9 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 6 | 8 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 26 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.311725 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.301553 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.521986 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.277792 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.282678 | 0.16747 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.315454 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.261919 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.282747 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.200064 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173806 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.18976 |
suicidewatch | Crocowile | 2019/02/13 | Should I be homeless or just kill myself? I live in AR, a state with shitty tenant laws. I live in a cheap apartment which is constantly filled with smoke, noise, and bugs. I have autism and cannot cope with this, and I can't afford to pay for an apartment with no smoking or noise policies. Should I just kill myself or... | 4.21 | 5.543065 | 3.943412 | 91.013353 | 71.058824 | 6.028235 | 23.894118 | 5.683918 | 0.373773 | 272 | 7 | 55 | 1 | 5 | 82 | 46 | 68 | 0.223 | 0.759 | 0.019 | -0.9457 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 15 | 8 | 6 | 2 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 8 | 4 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 39 | 10 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.335623 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.264177 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.687215 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.54849 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.210861 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | kute_kumber | 2019/02/13 | Killing myself to avoid a life of dead end jobs and loneliness so after about 7 years of school and 2 years of trying to land a job in my field i finally get it... and i suck so bad they would fire me if my contract wasn't that good. The boss told me yesterday that i should take a specialized program if i ever wanted t... | 5.34361 | 4.451485 | 6.103512 | 84.334893 | 68.019608 | 10.16328 | 29.819964 | 9.573947 | 2.258986 | 758 | 23 | 172 | 14 | 11 | 250 | 121 | 204 | 0.233 | 0.741 | 0.026 | -0.9931 | 6 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 12 | 10 | 3 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 18 | 6 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 31 | 28 | 23 | 5 | 7 | 5 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 11 | 2 | 2 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 27 | 3 | 28 | 18 | 3 | 26 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 5 | 2 | 6 | 17 | 119 | 36 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093158 | 0.101156 | 0.073853 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118682 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.429216 | 0 | 0 | 0.080019 | 0.109588 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132715 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126593 | 0 | 0.137706 | 0.101616 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.601119 | 0 | 0.134036 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171145 | 0 | 0 | 0.106979 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102998 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122828 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128522 | 0 | 0 | 0.096702 | 0.128765 | 0.08906 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128913 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124564 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115243 | 0 | 0 | 0.122612 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101288 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091091 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080487 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070644 | 0 | 0 | 0.115765 | 0 | 0.082254 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104636 | 0 | 0 | 0.071458 | 0 | 0 | 0.14753 | 0.108929 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0882 | 0 | 0 | 0.086062 | 0 | 0 | 0.156035 |
suicidewatch | lesbean_677 | 2019/02/13 | I didnt want to feel the pain anymore As a coping mechanism. I personified my depression and suicidal thoughts as one person. It helped when having to argue with why I need to be alive. However to come with this coping mechanism is that the personified person of my suicidal thoughts and depression can take control and ... | 2.194015 | 3.575632 | 3.896856 | 89.165284 | 76.222222 | 7.374242 | 25.506313 | 8.076483 | 1.361474 | 733 | 26 | 164 | 12 | 16 | 246 | 105 | 198 | 0.271 | 0.665 | 0.064 | -0.9924 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 12 | 11 | 1 | 0 | 11 | 0 | 15 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 40 | 33 | 21 | 6 | 6 | 10 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 11 | 13 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 8 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 4 | 24 | 3 | 24 | 20 | 3 | 21 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 7 | 0 | 2 | 10 | 114 | 35 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.226108 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087656 | 0.095182 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098198 | 0 | 0 | 0.255714 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.294555 | 0 | 0.354931 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133603 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17292 | 0.081439 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064787 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076409 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122036 | 0 | 0.123136 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06265 | 0.092922 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.233138 | 0 | 0.055693 | 0 | 0.100661 | 0.100883 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084527 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106978 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154494 | 0 | 0.1213 | 0 | 0 | 0.123447 | 0 | 0 | 0.199075 | 0.119102 | 0 | 0.107764 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129753 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097352 | 0.108437 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.374081 | 0 | 0.10744 | 0 | 0.171422 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181001 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108929 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.201714 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102864 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082991 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | SanseiSans | 2019/02/13 | Killing myself after I move out. I've touched on my family trouble and dysfunction briefly on this site and nothing's gotten better, so as soon as I find some place to run away to, I'm going to commit suicide. The reason I won't do it now is because I'm scared of what my father will do the rest of the family, especiall... | 3.087178 | 4.494294 | 4.837782 | 83.2182 | 73.954128 | 7.698219 | 24.750135 | 8.313333 | 1.553635 | 838 | 26 | 167 | 14 | 17 | 285 | 131 | 218 | 0.328 | 0.574 | 0.098 | -0.9967 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 27 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 11 | 19 | 8 | 3 | 8 | 1 | 17 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 24 | 31 | 19 | 4 | 2 | 7 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 7 | 13 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 27 | 6 | 23 | 21 | 5 | 24 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 9 | 1 | 3 | 11 | 112 | 35 | 2 | 0 | 0.138206 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103839 | 0 | 0 | 0.109592 | 0 | 0 | 0.142212 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103164 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097442 | 0 | 0.206627 | 0.120526 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.329889 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12778 | 0.106612 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09012 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066292 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.460654 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.234555 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.269187 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121748 | 0.115753 | 0.10368 | 0.129051 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056987 | 0 | 0 | 0.103228 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129567 | 0 | 0.117551 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.247952 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111925 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079042 | 0 | 0 | 0.136859 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12187 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125764 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116677 | 0 | 0 | 0.119931 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116783 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131776 | 0.119735 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098833 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127591 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107392 | 0.133394 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068801 | 0.092588 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Decibelle | 2019/02/13 | a former workmate i haven't spoken to in 3 years has messaged me at 3 in the morning saying she tried to kill herself fair warning: i'm not the best emotional support person most of the time; i'm not really sure how to handle this in general, especially when i was just being an insomniac on facebook
what am i meant to... | 11.414729 | 6.276263 | 11.643488 | 62.642984 | 60.162791 | 14.257364 | 42.620155 | 11.208143 | 4.644346 | 338 | 12 | 64 | 6 | 3 | 117 | 65 | 86 | 0.162 | 0.781 | 0.057 | -0.8438 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 10 | 11 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 9 | 3 | 13 | 8 | 2 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 45 | 12 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.21969 | 0 | 0.270942 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.285669 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.290415 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.285635 | 0 | 0.141888 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206075 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.225431 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.274604 | 0 | 0 | 0.165395 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.205313 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.292977 | 0.243329 | 0 | 0 | 0.207514 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.301091 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175286 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187956 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166258 |
suicidewatch | anomenus369 | 2019/02/13 | Can't stop thinking about my ex My ex (21) and me (25)
We broke up 2 years ago and i can't stop thinking about her.
She just left all of a sudden didnt say much.
Now she's dating some army guy and I know he's giving her everything she could ever want or need.
Better than I could have even imagined I would.
Why did she ... | 1.390348 | 3.757971 | 2.351675 | 94.397909 | 83.194373 | 4.762529 | 20.34622 | 6.018496 | -0.010222 | 1,517 | 44 | 318 | 11 | 43 | 477 | 210 | 391 | 0.185 | 0.708 | 0.107 | -0.9893 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 49 | 6 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 23 | 28 | 17 | 0 | 13 | 1 | 27 | 14 | 3 | 1 | 8 | 67 | 68 | 23 | 2 | 10 | 10 | 6 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 4 | 3 | 4 | 12 | 24 | 1 | 4 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 10 | 19 | 0 | 2 | 16 | 6 | 55 | 9 | 40 | 45 | 11 | 50 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 9 | 45 | 17 | 10 | 3 | 27 | 203 | 67 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064678 | 0 | 0 | 0.075569 | 0.080518 | 0 | 0.121424 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.051018 | 0 | 0 | 0.064954 | 0 | 0.166015 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.044478 | 0 | 0.124174 | 0 | 0 | 0.064531 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149009 | 0.083452 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076502 | 0 | 0 | 0.116512 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062844 | 0 | 0.075725 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150783 | 0 | 0.192769 | 0.132001 | 0 | 0 | 0.065575 | 0 | 0.068784 | 0 | 0.073786 | 0.104251 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088229 | 0 | 0 | 0.472179 | 0.152483 | 0.069994 | 0.082934 | 0.183597 | 0.116712 | 0 | 0.080378 | 0.144492 | 0.129044 | 0.077672 | 0 | 0.072037 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172926 | 0 | 0 | 0.146378 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080724 | 0 | 0.040099 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158552 | 0 | 0.051537 | 0.10694 | 0 | 0.193286 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053637 | 0.054102 | 0.056274 | 0.070469 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070011 | 0.08307 | 0 | 0 | 0.049442 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063709 | 0 | 0 | 0.068975 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073349 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069406 | 0.116048 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082429 | 0.074897 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061822 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.051644 | 0.07777 | 0.058269 | 0.183004 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05486 | 0 | 0.063774 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.048474 | 0.140257 | 0 | 0.057925 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06972 | 0 | 0.099076 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172145 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065839 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155495 | 0 | 0 | 0.14096 |
suicidewatch | worthlessdog88 | 2019/02/13 | Too much labour to fix my broken self. I'd rather rant and rave and leave the world forever. Oppressed my feelings forever to not piss people off. Still found people picked on me for everything. I will never learn how to behave normally, so I give up. Also I try to say things as mean as possible in this last day of my ... | 3.49809 | 5.241963 | 4.70608 | 83.204535 | 73.534884 | 8.1701 | 25.076412 | 8.841846 | 1.865567 | 343 | 11 | 67 | 7 | 7 | 113 | 67 | 86 | 0.113 | 0.861 | 0.026 | -0.7609 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 14 | 8 | 7 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 9 | 0 | 16 | 4 | 4 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 48 | 12 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184225 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148568 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.20704 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116481 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.252586 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.22099 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.18778 | 0 | 0.243926 | 0 | 0 | 0.162716 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.250938 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169347 | 0 | 0.177674 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.225711 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.319416 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.259705 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.366395 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.240324 | 0 | 0 | 0.190563 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183972 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153046 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156405 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Kurwablaster | 2019/02/13 | Cocktail Any experts here? Would 20x 50mg tramadol, along with any amount of mirtazapine and booze be enough to get the job done? | 4.98 | 7.212944 | 3.84 | 88.905 | 70.666667 | 6.466667 | 28.666667 | 7.168622 | 1.374317 | 104 | 4 | 20 | 1 | 2 | 30 | 23 | 24 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.568325 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.427621 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.431766 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.218317 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.414667 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.296839 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | doireallyhave2pick1 | 2019/02/13 | The best thing I can do for myself is to end my suffering once and for all. Just waiting for the perfect time. | 1.931304 | 3.611919 | 3.260217 | 92.171196 | 77.695652 | 6.33913 | 24.543478 | 7.168622 | 0.879539 | 86 | 3 | 19 | 1 | 2 | 28 | 20 | 23 | 0.103 | 0.633 | 0.263 | 0.7003 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 4 | 4 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 17 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.538256 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.454277 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.546221 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.340748 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.299076 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | beelzeflub | 2019/02/13 | I just feel humiliated I just dunno what to do anymore. I just wake up dreading to get out of bed cuz I'm 25 and just a silly worthless mentally ill girl lol | -0.852353 | 1.292288 | 2.679647 | 87.962412 | 96.647059 | 5.072941 | 21.505882 | 6.742158 | 0.710784 | 124 | 5 | 27 | 2 | 5 | 45 | 27 | 34 | 0.299 | 0.599 | 0.102 | -0.8225 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 9 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 17 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.623774 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.318029 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.328613 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.633859 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | no_more_pain_01 | 2019/02/13 | I think I'm ready. It's an odd feeling, but I'm fairly sure that I am ready this time.
Wishing you all the best in life.
Thank you for the support.
Goodbye world. | -1.108571 | 0.97191 | 0.625714 | 103.044286 | 96.142857 | 2.8 | 18.428571 | 3.1291 | -1.025171 | 125 | 4 | 30 | 0 | 5 | 40 | 28 | 35 | 0.035 | 0.449 | 0.516 | 0.9702 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 4 | 2 | 8 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 16 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.398003 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191762 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.267878 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.430372 | 0.357442 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.349165 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.24301 | 0 | 0 | 0.221146 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.436122 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | -Sanctum- | 2019/02/13 | Tempted to kill myself rn Lost a good future at a great school and have to cough up penalty of $2000. My parents are not welcoming and they have every right to do so. I am ashamed of myself for not doing this right.
I am ashamed of myself for being a burden to them.
I am ashamed of myself for not doing everyting rig... | 0.939159 | 2.818309 | 2.734905 | 93.822358 | 81.545455 | 5.094697 | 20.00947 | 5.985473 | -0.099417 | 603 | 16 | 135 | 4 | 16 | 200 | 87 | 165 | 0.186 | 0.725 | 0.09 | -0.9257 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 20 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 7 | 15 | 1 | 4 | 8 | 0 | 30 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 25 | 34 | 10 | 2 | 3 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 12 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 27 | 3 | 26 | 21 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 117 | 30 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16534 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171265 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173027 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.511832 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150806 | 0.140467 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139835 | 0 | 0.183807 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17401 | 0 | 0 | 0.184449 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.235516 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181993 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111286 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128583 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159971 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112973 | 0 | 0.1774 | 0 | 0.185121 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159527 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.427129 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168728 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11076 | 0.106826 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098335 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | suspendedforhelpwtf | 2019/02/13 | I was permanently banned from Reddit for posting to this sub My posts keep getting removing and it's starting to anger me, but my Reddit account was banned for posting to this sub about how I wanted to die, I wasn't even told what I did. | 9.115625 | 6.118306 | 8.765833 | 74.9625 | 62.125 | 11.266667 | 38.583333 | 8.841846 | 3.246758 | 189 | 7 | 38 | 2 | 2 | 61 | 33 | 48 | 0.265 | 0.735 | 0 | -0.9287 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 9 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 8 | 4 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 27 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.292455 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186121 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147224 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.250469 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.809635 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.199454 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.269264 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166208 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | quokkafarts | 2019/02/13 | Feel like it'd just be better for everyone except my cats if I carked it Look I'm not really going to do anything because I don't feel confident that my cats would be appropriately cared for. But Really just feeling like existing is a burden on me and everyone else around me. Sure my family would be sad, but they're sa... | 5.74776 | 5.443754 | 6.467808 | 80.095365 | 67.029851 | 9.918303 | 28.377848 | 9.549673 | 2.227299 | 1,306 | 36 | 269 | 24 | 19 | 431 | 183 | 335 | 0.164 | 0.718 | 0.118 | -0.9747 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 26 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 21 | 20 | 4 | 0 | 9 | 1 | 25 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 4 | 59 | 50 | 24 | 3 | 7 | 21 | 2 | 6 | 5 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 16 | 21 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 11 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 9 | 36 | 10 | 39 | 30 | 6 | 41 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 2 | 15 | 18 | 1 | 4 | 21 | 169 | 52 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084075 | 0 | 0.094975 | 0 | 0.104665 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07805 | 0.168866 | 0.088668 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.289086 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167767 | 0 | 0.105353 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108479 | 0.096702 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104184 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098435 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158463 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062645 | 0 | 0.079912 | 0.271888 | 0.170483 | 0 | 0.178825 | 0 | 0.191828 | 0.203274 | 0 | 0 | 0.086688 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087684 | 0.099106 | 0 | 0.107806 | 0 | 0.075857 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084963 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104933 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103051 | 0 | 0 | 0.231685 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159294 | 0 | 0.103536 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096159 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095583 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075705 | 0 | 0.209168 | 0 | 0.073151 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072135 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065754 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08966 | 0 | 0 | 0.192985 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121522 | 0 | 0.093649 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075425 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156915 | 0 | 0.094915 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075744 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089391 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0829 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063012 | 0.060774 | 0 | 0 | 0.165916 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064394 | 0.103165 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10446 | 0.078258 | 0.055943 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138098 | 0 | 0 | 0.202128 | 0 | 0 | 0.122155 |
suicidewatch | areyousiri | 2019/02/13 | i didn't want to live Honestly, I wasn't in the best mindset about four months ago. Now that I'm getting better, I honestly wonder why I was always so fucking mad at myself for everything. It's odd how I didn't think that I was going to probably reach the age of sixteen and how I was always on the verge of killing myse... | 6.468 | 5.063266 | 7.314 | 78.247 | 66 | 9.6 | 34 | 8.238736 | 2.5736 | 380 | 14 | 76 | 4 | 5 | 128 | 68 | 100 | 0.185 | 0.703 | 0.111 | -0.8106 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 9 | 8 | 4 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 10 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 10 | 18 | 6 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 15 | 4 | 9 | 11 | 1 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 7 | 54 | 19 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.196491 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.368882 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.21983 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.232621 | 0.196043 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146406 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.199216 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.204924 | 0.11581 | 0 | 0.125976 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.231358 | 0 | 0 | 0.245237 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156567 | 0 | 0 | 0.195732 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176929 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17096 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168585 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.23899 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170647 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.18532 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142033 | 0 | 0.175975 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130742 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.200016 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.240384 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | BalzacEfronJeremy | 2019/02/13 | Too much of a good thing Going to pick up as soon as dboy answers his phone. Getting enough heroin to hopefully nod forever. If my tolerance is higher than expected, well at least I'll be high today. I've been on this roller coaster for 10 years, and before then, well... Let's just say I wouldn't have bought the ticket... | 3.957183 | 4.944865 | 4.628751 | 87.168479 | 71.300469 | 7.370141 | 24.998122 | 7.554174 | 1.076799 | 827 | 23 | 172 | 9 | 15 | 265 | 148 | 213 | 0.065 | 0.839 | 0.096 | 0.6597 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 25 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 11 | 1 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 16 | 5 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 33 | 29 | 15 | 0 | 10 | 7 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 4 | 2 | 4 | 2 | 4 | 2 | 1 | 6 | 5 | 14 | 7 | 28 | 16 | 9 | 27 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 10 | 10 | 1 | 5 | 12 | 112 | 26 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092234 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104292 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115412 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150073 | 0 | 0 | 0.139829 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138797 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140143 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068579 | 0.096895 | 0.130227 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125389 | 0.070862 | 0 | 0.077082 | 0.113761 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143301 | 0 | 0.134712 | 0.267138 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138692 | 0.2874 | 0.066262 | 0 | 0.359293 | 0 | 0.113896 | 0 | 0 | 0.115308 | 0 | 0 | 0.090535 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.199409 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132889 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091907 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128215 | 0 | 0.129897 | 0 | 0.146233 | 0.259561 | 0 | 0.136346 | 0 | 0 | 0.135668 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153643 | 0 | 0 | 0.107859 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090107 | 0.086907 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128562 | 0 | 0 | 0.184169 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117141 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107657 | 0 | 0 | 0.243897 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130743 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087342 |
suicidewatch | ChristianA009 | 2019/02/13 | 23 yr old and disillusioned. Any advice? I'm 23 yrs old, currently enrolled in college majoring in Business Management, and unaccomplished in terms of being lost in life.
What advice would you give for a wandering soul trying to seek answers of what I truly am and who am I? I'm soul searching at any given moment and ... | 6.239121 | 8.350274 | 7.244835 | 66.275165 | 67.131868 | 9.156044 | 36.076923 | 9.606745 | 4.085303 | 409 | 21 | 59 | 9 | 7 | 137 | 62 | 91 | 0.157 | 0.745 | 0.098 | -0.7059 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 7 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 14 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 5 | 2 | 15 | 6 | 2 | 13 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 38 | 8 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.445906 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.31031 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.201787 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.196512 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.256647 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115363 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.21887 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161155 | 0.111466 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.249061 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.478826 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.199219 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154904 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.324153 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | 1Swanswan | 2019/02/13 | IMPORTANT QUESTION & NEEDS IMMEDIATE ANSWER PLEASE May I cross link an OP from another sub here into this suicide prevention sub now .... please respond ASAP | 8.438846 | 11.096358 | 8.087692 | 60.232308 | 62.461538 | 11.353846 | 39.923077 | 11.208143 | 5.755138 | 129 | 7 | 16 | 4 | 2 | 41 | 24 | 26 | 0.153 | 0.624 | 0.223 | 0.1258 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 8 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.341025 | 0 | 0 | 0.330037 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.233379 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.69099 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.352586 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.344279 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | zensama | 2019/02/13 | Seriously feel like ending it, just need to vent somewhere There's comes a point in the down-cycles where no amount of laying around or distraction can wrest you from quaking terror that is the bad decisions and depressions that have got you into your situation.
Last year i left my job and moved to another country, i... | 6.456774 | 5.811765 | 6.636043 | 80.614065 | 65.666667 | 9.590538 | 31.144803 | 8.841846 | 2.276927 | 1,101 | 35 | 224 | 15 | 15 | 354 | 161 | 279 | 0.097 | 0.826 | 0.077 | -0.1406 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 21 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 4 | 18 | 17 | 1 | 2 | 12 | 0 | 26 | 3 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 46 | 46 | 23 | 0 | 5 | 8 | 1 | 3 | 4 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 19 | 19 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 3 | 7 | 4 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 4 | 31 | 9 | 30 | 35 | 7 | 41 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 14 | 16 | 0 | 4 | 20 | 162 | 50 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119524 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121011 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094968 | 0.102734 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177477 | 0.096357 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09941 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092141 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099397 | 0 | 0 | 0.120572 | 0 | 0.118121 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102214 | 0 | 0 | 0.076223 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.217585 | 0 | 0.175055 | 0.247334 | 0 | 0 | 0.105477 | 0.098162 | 0 | 0 | 0.089161 | 0 | 0.120587 | 0 | 0.131173 | 0.096795 | 0.092299 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118438 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114521 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188139 | 0 | 0.122196 | 0.250773 | 0 | 0.081513 | 0.225522 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09691 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077033 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122656 | 0 | 0.171141 | 0 | 0.111458 | 0.245467 | 0 | 0.113071 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109094 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118654 | 0 | 0.123901 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130373 | 0 | 0.095463 | 0.129719 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088844 | 0 | 0 | 0.081683 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130959 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100868 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.230008 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067293 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128218 | 0 | 0.125526 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183204 | 0.09257 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084015 | 0 | 0 | 0.08198 | 0 | 0 | 0.074316 |
suicidewatch | Aeterion92 | 2019/02/13 | My girlfriend [20] broke up with me [19M] and i'm thinking about suicide, please help me (i'm french, sorry for bad english)I don't know if it's the correct subreddit but i'm desperateOk so i know i'm young and a lot of you are gonna say it's only a breakup, it happens all the time with young people, etc. But she broke... | 2.812685 | 4.357464 | 4.090028 | 87.74105 | 74.928571 | 7.417367 | 25.210084 | 8.124752 | 1.377555 | 1,611 | 54 | 344 | 26 | 34 | 529 | 203 | 420 | 0.149 | 0.659 | 0.192 | 0.9808 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 55 | 5 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 19 | 25 | 2 | 2 | 15 | 0 | 21 | 9 | 1 | 3 | 4 | 80 | 73 | 38 | 2 | 8 | 16 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 4 | 17 | 32 | 0 | 2 | 14 | 2 | 0 | 9 | 14 | 13 | 0 | 2 | 16 | 12 | 60 | 12 | 39 | 54 | 11 | 54 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 6 | 53 | 12 | 0 | 6 | 33 | 218 | 77 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076548 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081131 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155374 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073598 | 0.060234 | 0.065406 | 0.047752 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082207 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089594 | 0 | 0 | 0.082868 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062544 | 0 | 0.172094 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081843 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091808 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069381 | 0 | 0.087364 | 0 | 0 | 0.066 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158433 | 0.055962 | 0.075213 | 0.085812 | 0 | 0.066631 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.040927 | 0 | 0.133558 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077564 | 0.069271 | 0.166777 | 0.070172 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105012 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083859 | 0 | 0.084615 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086101 | 0.127706 | 0 | 0 | 0.085111 | 0 | 0.05533 | 0.03827 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066597 | 0.4242 | 0 | 0.104578 | 0 | 0.078698 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125052 | 0 | 0.11517 | 0.116168 | 0.060416 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075164 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059577 | 0.083354 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108615 | 0 | 0 | 0.171976 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074956 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078356 | 0.089162 | 0.200733 | 0.080541 | 0 | 0.168204 | 0 | 0 | 0.149028 | 0.062295 | 0 | 0.079279 | 0.124845 | 0 | 0.08172 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060306 | 0 | 0.087689 | 0.055446 | 0 | 0.062558 | 0.130982 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171371 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062962 | 0 | 0.07212 | 0 | 0 | 0.052042 | 0.100387 | 0 | 0 | 0.045678 | 0 | 0 | 0.074852 | 0.087033 | 0.053184 | 0 | 0.076522 | 0.081549 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092408 | 0.062178 | 0.125671 | 0 | 0 | 0.145234 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171293 | 0 | 0.20178 |
suicidewatch | fish_eat_apples | 2019/02/13 | From the outside my life seems just fine, but nobody really understands how I feel I’m extremely privileged, as in the most privileged you can be. I am a white girl living in the happiest country in the world. I have access to free healthcare, free education and the crime rates here aren’t specifically high. I live in ... | 3.037692 | 4.586811 | 4.280403 | 86.588612 | 74.345212 | 7.839668 | 25.835251 | 8.515129 | 1.657082 | 1,738 | 60 | 366 | 32 | 36 | 571 | 204 | 449 | 0.257 | 0.585 | 0.158 | -0.997 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 46 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 25 | 39 | 13 | 1 | 15 | 3 | 45 | 11 | 4 | 8 | 1 | 66 | 88 | 41 | 3 | 10 | 12 | 2 | 10 | 6 | 1 | 4 | 3 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 25 | 17 | 1 | 3 | 16 | 1 | 4 | 3 | 11 | 22 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 15 | 56 | 19 | 38 | 64 | 6 | 38 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 3 | 37 | 27 | 5 | 5 | 14 | 234 | 81 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0.076642 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062807 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073423 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131152 | 0.143629 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087238 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084872 | 0.088087 | 0.125413 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.051874 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070585 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.317691 | 0.112216 | 0.075409 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060679 | 0.217822 | 0 | 0.075341 | 0.044635 | 0 | 0.062814 | 0.086589 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155081 | 0.080603 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08298 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069808 | 0.260673 | 0 | 0.086325 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080311 | 0.166422 | 0.230219 | 0.078716 | 0.208052 | 0 | 0.065952 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052425 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091983 | 0 | 0 | 0.173204 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087208 | 0 | 0 | 0.163346 | 0.068577 | 0.082056 | 0 | 0.074244 | 0.08854 | 0 | 0 | 0.254033 | 0.225452 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07856 | 0 | 0.050314 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134143 | 0 | 0.062457 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142997 | 0 | 0.088726 | 0.080618 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059051 | 0.063126 | 0.137292 | 0.072308 | 0 | 0 | 0.052177 | 0.050324 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150093 | 0 | 0.053322 | 0 | 0 | 0.163522 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095639 | 0 | 0 | 0.141737 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160075 | 0.167374 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | throwaway6121456 | 2019/02/13 | Feeling guilty that I want to buy a gun for myself because I'm 26 and I don't have a degree I basically feel like I have been systematically removed from the dating pool and I broke up with my ex 3 years ago now.
I have a okay job (although it doesn't pay much), currently trying to start a business, in shape, and hone... | 3.780672 | 4.295171 | 4.895815 | 86.827074 | 71.375691 | 7.580295 | 25.028085 | 7.492282 | 0.920966 | 679 | 18 | 153 | 7 | 12 | 224 | 107 | 181 | 0.122 | 0.718 | 0.159 | 0.1759 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 21 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 12 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 2 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 30 | 30 | 15 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 1 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 6 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 6 | 14 | 7 | 19 | 26 | 4 | 27 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 15 | 92 | 25 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130851 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121474 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089985 | 0 | 0.251218 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156157 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129179 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130743 | 0.305051 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.373192 | 0.316368 | 0 | 0 | 0.134917 | 0.125561 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141605 | 0.083893 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158025 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146485 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.216351 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123959 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156596 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.217027 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112268 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102337 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141374 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148393 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126062 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104482 | 0 | 0.117885 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110988 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094585 | 0 | 0.11719 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.200441 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174134 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132723 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190118 |
suicidewatch | injectedwithacid | 2019/02/13 | Came to the realisation that no one cares about me and will never care about me Just about all the people on here who've killed themselves had lives that are 10 times better than mine (I wish I could trade places with my shitty fucking life). I'm not going to give you so bullshit sob story because I know you don't care... | 4.320476 | 4.927812 | 4.653571 | 88.712262 | 70.208791 | 7.385348 | 26.705128 | 7.168622 | 1.082295 | 702 | 21 | 151 | 6 | 12 | 221 | 117 | 182 | 0.233 | 0.65 | 0.116 | -0.9847 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 13 | 5 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 17 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 33 | 40 | 12 | 6 | 10 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 7 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 1 | 18 | 6 | 25 | 26 | 4 | 19 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 7 | 8 | 4 | 4 | 7 | 97 | 26 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106807 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.245812 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084249 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100604 | 0.07345 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106564 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137808 | 0.368543 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192403 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.250099 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105442 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113587 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09309 | 0.334173 | 0 | 0.115585 | 0.205432 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080762 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.266609 | 0 | 0.066218 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170211 | 0 | 0 | 0.21279 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088574 | 0 | 0.092929 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081647 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083533 | 0 | 0.125886 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137144 | 0.077189 | 0 | 0.118969 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096223 | 0.100735 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131796 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110931 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095656 | 0.070259 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.213204 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.277115 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085593 | 0 | 0 | 0.077592 |
suicidewatch | randomguy_38 | 2019/02/13 | I'm terrified, but I'm happy too I'm a man in my early 20s. 3 months ago I began coming out as gay to my friends. All of them have been accepting and it has warmed my heart so much. I used to be the guy who would go radio silent for 6months to as long as 2 years. I'm now trying to text my closes 5-10 friends (all of ... | 1.075224 | 3.036099 | 2.977241 | 91.835424 | 81.508475 | 6.37405 | 21.697838 | 7.503016 | 0.742167 | 1,091 | 34 | 243 | 17 | 29 | 365 | 151 | 295 | 0.195 | 0.637 | 0.168 | -0.9085 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 64 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 8 | 23 | 0 | 3 | 16 | 0 | 25 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 33 | 49 | 15 | 2 | 5 | 4 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 13 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 9 | 1 | 1 | 9 | 2 | 25 | 14 | 41 | 31 | 13 | 32 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 17 | 11 | 0 | 4 | 18 | 145 | 34 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172512 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105431 | 0.118238 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136078 | 0.099702 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074823 | 0 | 0.059317 | 0 | 0.082801 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09921 | 0 | 0 | 0.083821 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125509 | 0 | 0.16762 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081287 | 0 | 0.086185 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183464 | 0.109497 | 0.049201 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.300715 | 0 | 0.101677 | 0 | 0.055301 | 0.163232 | 0 | 0.107281 | 0 | 0.096349 | 0 | 0.207169 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115308 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193123 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053477 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137461 | 0 | 0 | 0.085923 | 0.086113 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098062 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155338 | 0 | 0.143063 | 0.072151 | 0 | 0 | 0.103486 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.216094 | 0.210747 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104913 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103497 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096078 | 0.104471 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194841 | 0.098479 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109928 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.212875 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078211 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06235 | 0 | 0.154501 | 0.05674 | 0 | 0 | 0.09298 | 0 | 0.264258 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084041 | 0 | 0 | 0.057394 | 0.077237 | 0.078053 | 0 | 0.08749 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14168 | 0 | 0 | 0.069124 | 0 | 0.118238 | 0.062662 |
suicidewatch | respunsibility | 2019/02/13 | I’ve just spiralled into even worse depression wdid? Hi, it’s me again for the zero people that remember!! Sorry if it’s too long.
So basically for the past two day I’ve been talking with my friend on Instagram (through the type of photos that you only see for a minute). We’ve been doing this for a few days and we actu... | 1.052901 | 3.226073 | 2.56557 | 93.565191 | 82.960114 | 5.617956 | 20.312697 | 6.885779 | 0.286326 | 1,322 | 38 | 291 | 16 | 37 | 430 | 173 | 351 | 0.154 | 0.783 | 0.064 | -0.9874 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 28 | 7 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 22 | 12 | 3 | 2 | 12 | 0 | 19 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 50 | 53 | 24 | 0 | 7 | 13 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 21 | 22 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 8 | 7 | 0 | 6 | 26 | 9 | 65 | 5 | 37 | 22 | 10 | 46 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 1 | 61 | 15 | 0 | 3 | 24 | 206 | 86 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0.090216 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08195 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082299 | 0.172853 | 0 | 0.086858 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097019 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079636 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10155 | 0.119243 | 0 | 0.159251 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061061 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083087 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.046745 | 0.066045 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078636 | 0 | 0 | 0.142851 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05254 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101842 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.27382 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061966 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182086 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.050807 | 0 | 0.104286 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.045166 | 0 | 0 | 0.081814 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098073 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06796 | 0.068549 | 0 | 0 | 0.09832 | 0.086756 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070311 | 0 | 0 | 0.307958 | 0 | 0.088252 | 0.064092 | 0 | 0 | 0.10148 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059225 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104726 | 0 | 0.175879 | 0.073519 | 0.092557 | 0.093563 | 0.147339 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092515 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103488 | 0.130871 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.222919 | 0.161608 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061418 | 0 | 0 | 0.073394 | 0 | 0.106256 | 0 | 0.265015 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.361234 | 0 | 0.222408 | 0 | 0.101819 | 0 | 0.109057 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0857 | 0 | 0.103215 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094213 | 0.065673 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | han9112 | 2019/02/13 | Add an interesting title I have depression, yeah?
No one give a shit anyway
I only talk to myself
Everyone else want the money
Money money money
Money make ur day safe
Money make your dad smile
Money make ur mom cry in joy
Money make u wanna hug me bro
Money make depress dissappear
But
Less money make depres... | -2.106289 | -0.703063 | 1.883885 | 90.503062 | 113.027778 | 3.490784 | 11.041774 | 5.593185 | -0.929788 | 771 | 13 | 158 | 8 | 43 | 284 | 87 | 216 | 0.32 | 0.547 | 0.133 | -0.9878 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 19 | 4 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 13 | 5 | 1 | 9 | 2 | 33 | 38 | 7 | 2 | 5 | 10 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 24 | 5 | 10 | 11 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 26 | 8 | 8 | 35 | 4 | 11 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 4 | 22 | 2 | 4 | 2 | 5 | 82 | 28 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113161 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075022 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080827 | 0.047455 | 0 | 0.253507 | 0 | 0.152734 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061469 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070311 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05685 | 0.204078 | 0.038444 | 0.282349 | 0.041819 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075243 | 0 | 0.035949 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.442053 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086179 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099723 | 0.055963 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083355 | 0.062839 | 0 | 0.117032 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075532 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.658959 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177429 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153204 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.043401 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066397 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | throawaay220 | 2019/02/13 | Would you rather die or live the rest of your life as a junkie? In between these 2 right now, it's one or the other | 1.192692 | 2.050434 | 2.187692 | 102.532308 | 77.846154 | 5.2 | 16.846154 | 3.1291 | -1.221015 | 89 | 1 | 24 | 0 | 2 | 28 | 24 | 26 | 0.151 | 0.849 | 0 | -0.5994 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 19 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.515781 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.351028 | 0 | 0 | 0.438838 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.336763 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.424414 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.353036 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | wowwowbear | 2019/02/13 | I am Scared I Might Kill Myself I really don't know the correct way to phrase this but I have been suffering from Major Clinical Depression for about 5 years. About 4 years I began counseling which ended about a year ago. I tried pills and I tried therapy. The pills never worked no matter how many different ones I trie... | 3.741784 | 4.922987 | 4.96963 | 83.792092 | 72.010753 | 7.965212 | 27.439911 | 8.405096 | 1.871985 | 1,810 | 64 | 360 | 29 | 34 | 600 | 220 | 465 | 0.255 | 0.66 | 0.086 | -0.9984 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 48 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 8 | 34 | 30 | 4 | 5 | 20 | 1 | 40 | 7 | 3 | 10 | 9 | 80 | 76 | 29 | 9 | 6 | 12 | 0 | 10 | 4 | 0 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 25 | 18 | 0 | 2 | 18 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 19 | 21 | 2 | 3 | 8 | 10 | 57 | 9 | 46 | 57 | 10 | 63 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 12 | 1 | 4 | 49 | 254 | 82 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165239 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068568 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061622 | 0.043447 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070688 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075755 | 0.068624 | 0.052873 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053525 | 0 | 0.067147 | 0 | 0.04961 | 0 | 0 | 0.040072 | 0.064059 | 0.160552 | 0 | 0.064487 | 0.129837 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.364114 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055034 | 0 | 0 | 0.04104 | 0.112411 | 0.104704 | 0.059373 | 0.055844 | 0 | 0 | 0.13984 | 0.188506 | 0.08878 | 0.05966 | 0 | 0.056791 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.032463 | 0 | 0.035313 | 0.052117 | 0 | 0 | 0.06845 | 0 | 0.109893 | 0.066145 | 0.055661 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133035 | 0 | 0.134235 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137488 | 0 | 0.170741 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121426 | 0 | 0.054867 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052826 | 0 | 0 | 0.124428 | 0.062996 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062595 | 0.062618 | 0.065916 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091354 | 0 | 0.095846 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08421 | 0.047257 | 0 | 0.072903 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079612 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062209 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129642 | 0 | 0 | 0.154198 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.047835 | 0 | 0.069556 | 0.04398 | 0 | 0 | 0.103897 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.339833 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.049942 | 0 | 0 | 0.213173 | 0 | 0.082561 | 0.039814 | 0 | 0.049329 | 0.181159 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.253117 | 0 | 0 | 0.129371 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146597 | 0.049321 | 0.049842 | 0 | 0.111735 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059897 | 0 | 0.045236 | 0.063102 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.200067 |
suicidewatch | seminocturnal_owl | 2019/02/13 | what do i do I'm so lost rn. Everything is shit and I can't think of a solution that works. I wrote notes to people for after, but when writing one for my best friend I broke down in tears and literally cried until I passed out. I don't want to type out my life story, but these are some important things:
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suicidewatch | sauara | 2019/02/13 | Hello how to remind yourself in a really bad day that it's not all that bad I feel like I'm not contributing anything in the world. I feel like I'm making it worse. I feel like I'm not making sense | 0.769091 | 2.356188 | 3.181818 | 91.842727 | 80.818182 | 6.218182 | 17.818182 | 7.168622 | 0.052609 | 156 | 3 | 36 | 2 | 4 | 54 | 26 | 44 | 0.222 | 0.623 | 0.156 | -0.6353 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 10 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 3 | 3 | 8 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 17 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.204737 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.415467 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160452 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.377395 | 0.533218 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.364646 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.332146 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159385 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.253544 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | throwaway283635252 | 2019/02/13 | Does the pain ever stop? I just want someone to hold me and make everything okay
I’m in so much fucking pain, I’m never gonna get better | -0.724 | 1.421689 | 1.888333 | 94.8825 | 93 | 4.333333 | 17.5 | 5.985473 | -0.295 | 108 | 3 | 24 | 1 | 4 | 37 | 26 | 30 | 0.326 | 0.581 | 0.093 | -0.8404 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 8 | 7 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 6 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 11 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.253456 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.250788 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.259227 | 0 | 0 | 0.257559 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.264938 | 0.149726 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191294 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.210669 | 0 | 0.221028 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.609881 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.242818 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.239593 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169032 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | throwaway8472391123 | 2019/02/13 | finally killing self at midnight just sitting here on the cliff, drinking some coffee and having a nice sandwich before i go, might as make myself comfortable, kinda nice breeze up here if a little chilly, i prolly shoulda brought a jacket or something but eh little late to go grab one now i guess
anyway enjoy your da... | 5.870625 | 7.979529 | 5.442625 | 78.839875 | 68.0625 | 6.995 | 29.9875 | 7.554174 | 2.153285 | 284 | 11 | 44 | 3 | 5 | 87 | 56 | 64 | 0.04 | 0.752 | 0.208 | 0.886 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 10 | 8 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 5 | 6 | 6 | 1 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 6 | 3 | 28 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.196462 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148899 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.226175 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.252918 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.262429 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.254341 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.255435 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.260443 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.462805 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154114 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.244928 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.216666 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15645 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.230943 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.240858 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177743 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.212564 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Thrwwaysuicidenote | 2019/02/13 | Sympathy for the devil/Agency in suicide Today is my birthday.
And the majority of today I've occupied my mind with thoughts of the recent verdict of Michelle Carter's appeal denial and the beginning of her time to be served, as well as revising my own "note". And I can't help but feel jealous of Conrad Roy. I've rewr... | 10.221728 | 7.619637 | 9.795417 | 67.205941 | 59.663717 | 13.232604 | 41.488589 | 11.622719 | 4.721981 | 1,896 | 80 | 342 | 42 | 19 | 617 | 234 | 452 | 0.123 | 0.72 | 0.158 | 0.9211 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 34 | 4 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 13 | 19 | 3 | 1 | 25 | 0 | 31 | 5 | 2 | 6 | 1 | 76 | 61 | 29 | 3 | 15 | 10 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 8 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 22 | 25 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 0 | 4 | 7 | 8 | 9 | 1 | 4 | 9 | 6 | 48 | 11 | 73 | 38 | 18 | 45 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 21 | 22 | 1 | 7 | 16 | 254 | 70 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067776 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177739 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05926 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065169 | 0 | 0.051664 | 0 | 0 | 0.095486 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09414 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17282 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067667 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17475 | 0.072996 | 0 | 0 | 0.088547 | 0 | 0 | 0.074167 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070799 | 0 | 0.075065 | 0.350284 | 0 | 0.111955 | 0 | 0.071407 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.042853 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077461 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078351 | 0.044279 | 0.081301 | 0.048166 | 0 | 0.067784 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074945 | 0.09022 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170421 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08974 | 0 | 0 | 0.059862 | 0.082811 | 0 | 0 | 0.075002 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072053 | 0 | 0 | 0.113145 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17115 | 0 | 0.067648 | 0 | 0.062302 | 0.062842 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172289 | 0.064457 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058756 | 0.074002 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095545 | 0.081168 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083682 | 0 | 0 | 0.144755 | 0 | 0.067398 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07181 | 0.130492 | 0 | 0 | 0.059988 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088601 | 0 | 0.278113 | 0.096175 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11261 | 0 | 0 | 0.067283 | 0.049419 | 0 | 0.160669 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176459 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099977 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076202 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.4873 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060205 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | stinkykitty71 | 2019/02/13 | Everyone thinks I'm ok No one knows that I'm wanting to just die. Nearly spilled the beans at work but pulled back when she started to panic. Just desperately trying to find a lifeline but honestly? I'm tired. Really fucking tired. It'll sound so stupid, but aside from two amazing kids and finding the love of my life a... | 0.732184 | 2.794475 | 2.802587 | 92.051886 | 83.407583 | 5.732098 | 19.543516 | 6.980633 | 0.270922 | 778 | 21 | 172 | 10 | 22 | 262 | 127 | 211 | 0.186 | 0.582 | 0.232 | 0.9246 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 26 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 16 | 20 | 4 | 1 | 8 | 3 | 10 | 10 | 2 | 2 | 5 | 36 | 33 | 16 | 2 | 2 | 12 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 6 | 7 | 0 | 4 | 7 | 3 | 22 | 13 | 22 | 22 | 1 | 37 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 9 | 15 | 3 | 1 | 19 | 106 | 30 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108838 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09146 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100579 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111304 | 0 | 0 | 0.115685 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168714 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.271505 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118319 | 0 | 0.124988 | 0 | 0 | 0.123309 | 0 | 0.066138 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.239103 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120925 | 0.068339 | 0 | 0.074338 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129802 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071886 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.18478 | 0.127807 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.354164 | 0.123769 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.30265 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088635 | 0 | 0 | 0.153469 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090682 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083796 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111705 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.268535 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092583 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0869 | 0.083813 | 0 | 0 | 0.076272 | 0.300677 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088807 | 0 | 0.255551 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154302 | 0.103825 | 0.104922 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14185 | 0.095226 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084233 |
suicidewatch | madoodle123 | 2019/02/13 | I don’t know how to ask for help and be taken seriously I’ve struggled with depression and bpd since I was 11, I’m now 19. I am viewed as a super outgoing, fun, happy girl; few know how bad I struggle with wanting to kill myself or hurt myself every day. I’ve on and off seen therapists, but none have ever stuck. My par... | 2.638954 | 3.981491 | 4.024839 | 88.85854 | 74.987903 | 7.022663 | 26.226013 | 7.610547 | 1.256481 | 1,865 | 67 | 407 | 24 | 39 | 616 | 208 | 496 | 0.195 | 0.653 | 0.152 | -0.9832 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 7 | 44 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 7 | 18 | 40 | 7 | 4 | 8 | 0 | 46 | 8 | 1 | 9 | 6 | 89 | 101 | 39 | 6 | 4 | 22 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 3 | 4 | 2 | 1 | 18 | 29 | 0 | 3 | 16 | 4 | 1 | 8 | 22 | 25 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 11 | 76 | 14 | 64 | 89 | 8 | 46 | 1 | 6 | 3 | 4 | 39 | 21 | 2 | 8 | 18 | 279 | 94 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070773 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.046469 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.338844 | 0 | 0 | 0.112466 | 0 | 0.063883 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171168 | 0.041656 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086064 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069671 | 0.070198 | 0 | 0 | 0.071647 | 0 | 0.076642 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088139 | 0 | 0.117712 | 0 | 0.07092 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.045134 | 0.061812 | 0.115148 | 0.065296 | 0.122828 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138207 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158384 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155343 | 0.057315 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060427 | 0.072743 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183211 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146306 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121477 | 0.226804 | 0 | 0.300436 | 0 | 0.077084 | 0 | 0.074245 | 0 | 0.144799 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057383 | 0 | 0.074594 | 0 | 0.185022 | 0 | 0.045613 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109087 | 0 | 0 | 0.050669 | 0.052703 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131136 | 0 | 0.071705 | 0 | 0.046305 | 0.051971 | 0 | 0 | 0.151753 | 0.073999 | 0.130465 | 0.047374 | 0 | 0 | 0.07501 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.043776 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108684 | 0 | 0.069157 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056526 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057899 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096734 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.285749 | 0 | 0.074746 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.205514 | 0 | 0.119454 | 0 | 0 | 0.079341 | 0 | 0.087571 | 0.067138 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065296 | 0 | 0 | 0.148655 | 0 | 0.071138 | 0 | 0.118037 | 0 | 0 | 0.120915 | 0.05424 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.049748 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074712 | 0 | 0.044005 |
suicidewatch | Leo_890 | 2019/02/13 | I think I need help I've never really been a sad person, but lately its been so hard. I've only ever had one person who I can honestly talk to and to laugh with, and she recently left. I didnt think it would be this hard. I know I need someone to talk to, and dont think im really socially awkward or anything, but im ha... | 4.473376 | 4.969271 | 5.700621 | 81.739782 | 69.818966 | 8.60046 | 28.828736 | 8.648137 | 2.088785 | 895 | 31 | 179 | 14 | 15 | 300 | 135 | 232 | 0.109 | 0.69 | 0.201 | 0.9765 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 20 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 14 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 21 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 47 | 39 | 19 | 2 | 9 | 11 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 11 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 5 | 23 | 9 | 29 | 30 | 2 | 19 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 17 | 7 | 0 | 7 | 9 | 119 | 32 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.231905 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057263 | 0 | 0.079933 | 0 | 0 | 0.083079 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.330279 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124088 | 0.084971 | 0 | 0 | 0.084424 | 0 | 0.088555 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14515 | 0 | 0.049078 | 0 | 0.053386 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.252446 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188891 | 0 | 0 | 0.0933 | 0 | 0 | 0.100561 | 0 | 0.202935 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10325 | 0 | 0.211929 | 0 | 0.102062 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082948 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062703 | 0.095237 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.278611 | 0.144899 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063654 | 0.071443 | 0 | 0 | 0.104305 | 0 | 0 | 0.065124 | 0.164044 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093962 | 0 | 0.240713 | 0.096582 | 0.185502 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074702 | 0 | 0.095069 | 0 | 0.085516 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095757 | 0.079592 | 0.072317 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.205503 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.226508 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.300954 | 0 | 0.074575 | 0.054775 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081131 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068387 | 0 | 0 | 0.06673 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | telephonecamera | 2019/02/13 | i don't even know why i'm suicidal there are little things, like how i only get to interact with people my age three hours a day (sometimes not even that), that i never get to see my boyfriend, other whiny shit like that. but logically i know these things will change in time. so i don't know what i'm so upset about.
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suicidewatch | Tristannnn_ | 2019/02/13 | Just looking for some support ig It's been one after another the last 3 months.. Lost my deposit on a room I rented because their ass hole probally tweakers. Lived their a week and found a eviction taped on their garage. Try taking them to small claims but it seemed impossible to serve them so I gave up. (It's my first... | 1.817202 | 3.893956 | 3.635573 | 87.469983 | 79.578512 | 6.572814 | 21.390712 | 7.658308 | 0.884668 | 1,392 | 40 | 286 | 22 | 35 | 467 | 197 | 363 | 0.136 | 0.737 | 0.127 | -0.3722 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 40 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 5 | 18 | 16 | 0 | 1 | 17 | 2 | 23 | 4 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 52 | 55 | 23 | 0 | 6 | 8 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 14 | 19 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 1 | 6 | 2 | 3 | 8 | 0 | 2 | 27 | 5 | 48 | 8 | 41 | 25 | 8 | 57 | 0 | 7 | 3 | 1 | 20 | 27 | 1 | 9 | 28 | 183 | 62 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096746 | 0 | 0 | 0.077263 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.20262 | 0.073911 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086008 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176688 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062309 | 0 | 0.249644 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171145 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.048852 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082181 | 0 | 0.317802 | 0.074645 | 0 | 0.050478 | 0 | 0 | 0.081037 | 0.154545 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157509 | 0.108987 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085313 | 0 | 0.081133 | 0 | 0.105467 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077118 | 0.102687 | 0.071024 | 0.214918 | 0 | 0.279936 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065469 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104625 | 0 | 0 | 0.084361 | 0.100943 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098293 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108231 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.309472 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082509 | 0 | 0 | 0.096729 | 0 | 0.15398 | 0.087955 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079921 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109638 | 0.091059 | 0 | 0.072643 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064187 | 0 | 0 | 0.153404 | 0.056337 | 0.333136 | 0.09158 | 0.09232 | 0 | 0.065596 | 0.10509 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083445 | 0 | 0 | 0.113973 | 0 | 0.077499 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098459 | 0.068633 | 0 | 0 | 0.062217 |
suicidewatch | HaphazardThings | 2019/02/13 | I wonder about the things I'll leave behind. I wonder how long all my possessions will stay where they are, like they're artifacts of my life even though they're just things I haphazardly put around my apartment. I wonder how long it will take before they're picked up and moved elsewhere, or if they will just stay on m... | 7.591037 | 6.154602 | 7.385606 | 78.735491 | 63.802432 | 10.048708 | 33.632409 | 8.660443 | 2.57612 | 1,309 | 43 | 258 | 15 | 16 | 417 | 180 | 329 | 0.102 | 0.794 | 0.103 | -0.395 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 25 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 21 | 11 | 2 | 1 | 15 | 0 | 27 | 7 | 3 | 5 | 4 | 52 | 47 | 30 | 4 | 7 | 13 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 7 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 18 | 13 | 1 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 6 | 32 | 8 | 41 | 32 | 9 | 42 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 18 | 19 | 0 | 18 | 15 | 181 | 50 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079092 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069154 | 0 | 0 | 0.088043 | 0.09246 | 0 | 0.092921 | 0 | 0 | 0.180869 | 0 | 0.168316 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.329572 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.20925 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078965 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087598 | 0 | 0 | 0.130647 | 0.089462 | 0 | 0 | 0.088886 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100015 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.051672 | 0.094876 | 0.168624 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105283 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066292 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054354 | 0 | 0 | 0.104723 | 0 | 0 | 0.139714 | 0.096637 | 0 | 0.087332 | 0.17505 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089263 | 0 | 0.066018 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099863 | 0 | 0 | 0.210234 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189798 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067018 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137132 | 0 | 0.103331 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100619 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099424 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084461 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100094 | 0.078812 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167598 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.210832 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.216365 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074362 | 0 | 0.172889 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.262824 | 0 | 0.09717 | 0.078517 | 0.05767 | 0 | 0.093747 | 0 | 0 | 0.134296 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.321764 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063689 |
suicidewatch | Charleoxx | 2019/02/13 | i want to fucking kill myself my family hates me, my boyfriend hates me, my friends hate me, everyone hates me and i'm a narcissistic fuckup failure disappointment and i can't handle living anymore
i should just kill myself, i could right now but i'm too pussy to
my personality is just anger all of the time because... | 2.619333 | 4.958618 | 4.309505 | 82.310638 | 78.202454 | 7.019785 | 26.751917 | 8.076483 | 1.933749 | 656 | 27 | 123 | 12 | 16 | 220 | 95 | 163 | 0.29 | 0.594 | 0.117 | -0.9892 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 20 | 13 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 8 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 24 | 24 | 9 | 3 | 6 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 7 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 15 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 23 | 5 | 13 | 18 | 3 | 9 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 5 | 3 | 3 | 5 | 78 | 30 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125934 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.20929 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124723 | 0.087937 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.229992 | 0 | 0.107015 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100412 | 0 | 0.138145 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.240344 | 0 | 0 | 0.118558 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097164 | 0.232532 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100584 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.496661 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.417415 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08883 | 0.122883 | 0 | 0.111051 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133415 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09245 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087188 | 0.109812 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135594 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107401 | 0.11963 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106559 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202167 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146667 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148357 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113076 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121231 | 0 | 0.091557 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | PatronSaintLucifer | 2019/02/13 | I deserve all this amd more Id hurt myself more if i was able to hide it. Cutting is too messy, scratching nearly made someone realize what i was doing and biting makes me bruise
now im just constantly thinking of ways to die because i dont have any form of release in the ways that self harm so the only thing I can fo... | 4.0308 | 4.648542 | 4.787111 | 87.458 | 70.866667 | 7.422222 | 30.111111 | 7.3011 | 1.635844 | 858 | 34 | 182 | 8 | 15 | 277 | 133 | 225 | 0.247 | 0.721 | 0.033 | -0.9939 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 15 | 15 | 7 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 23 | 7 | 3 | 4 | 2 | 34 | 33 | 17 | 3 | 4 | 8 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 13 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 13 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 3 | 24 | 2 | 27 | 26 | 7 | 23 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 10 | 5 | 4 | 6 | 131 | 37 | 0 | 0.119289 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162241 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098165 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.218152 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125186 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126192 | 0 | 0 | 0.128909 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123803 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139806 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099651 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060316 | 0.08522 | 0 | 0 | 0.109028 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.330842 | 0 | 0 | 0.135589 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122425 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127701 | 0.134663 | 0.386558 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131976 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058279 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112874 | 0.079626 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080833 | 0.090725 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.228492 | 0 | 0.128614 | 0.228287 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108596 | 0.124444 | 0 | 0.122448 | 0.098677 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101073 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130483 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09588 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158501 | 0.076436 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080989 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.378744 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121566 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Peace-and-sleep | 2019/02/13 | Do you guys believe in an afterlife? Personally, I’m going to commit suicide with the notion that eternal nothingness awaits. But it’s always fun to romanticize a conscious existence after death.
So I’ve been watching DMT videos and basically it’s a chemical that exists inside most living things. It’s stuff that’s re... | 7.671461 | 10.056276 | 7.617116 | 63.929937 | 63.965517 | 11.065831 | 38.009404 | 11.022393 | 5.276793 | 693 | 36 | 92 | 21 | 11 | 222 | 104 | 145 | 0.15 | 0.714 | 0.137 | -0.7319 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 22 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 6 | 1 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 15 | 11 | 6 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 13 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 6 | 4 | 17 | 9 | 4 | 15 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 12 | 6 | 1 | 2 | 7 | 64 | 19 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137511 | 0.143079 | 0 | 0 | 0.116934 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104821 | 0.189909 | 0.14632 | 0.387465 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175584 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1523 | 0 | 0.191773 | 0.113574 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193495 | 0.086945 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089839 | 0 | 0.097725 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.510783 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151838 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155195 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173624 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132621 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183125 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150143 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146847 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176508 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.196846 | 0.188089 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114238 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101423 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
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