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suicidewatch | 4GNRZ8ZcyNsR | 2019/03/17 | Can't get past my ex It's been 3 months since she broke up with me, been together for 4 years
I won't say "she was the one" because I don't think there's only "one", but I think we were a match, I wanted her for life
I have no one to talk to, who could understand me, except her. She's having fun with her friends, while... | 4.404121 | 3.529751 | 5.368936 | 88.766923 | 69.93617 | 8.592471 | 27.013093 | 7.610547 | 1.168313 | 838 | 21 | 201 | 8 | 13 | 277 | 123 | 235 | 0.093 | 0.728 | 0.179 | 0.9807 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 37 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 12 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 21 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 45 | 39 | 12 | 1 | 9 | 18 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 7 | 13 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 14 | 3 | 0 | 4 | 8 | 1 | 34 | 9 | 29 | 24 | 4 | 21 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 27 | 6 | 0 | 5 | 12 | 133 | 41 | 0 | 0.123837 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084213 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122813 | 0.08659 | 0 | 0.101907 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15098 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197747 | 0 | 0 | 0.079865 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126716 | 0.10345 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081793 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.287028 | 0 | 0.0647 | 0 | 0.070379 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131827 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124218 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137007 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174939 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111768 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.248821 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197691 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119602 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.251745 | 0.094183 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118216 | 0.085853 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118601 | 0 | 0.133517 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079333 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09848 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102439 | 0 | 0 | 0.126236 | 0.209853 | 0.095336 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.199071 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.317399 | 0 | 0 | 0.07221 | 0 | 0.117383 | 0 | 0.137587 | 0 | 0 | 0.120971 | 0.128919 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.292169 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159494 |
suicidewatch | vvvvvitch | 2019/03/17 | spent all my rent money on booze so im going to be homeless got no friends, no family. nothing. | -1.503 | 0.037189 | 1.7 | 91.78 | 112 | 4 | 20 | 5.985473 | 0.4215 | 74 | 3 | 15 | 1 | 4 | 26 | 19 | 20 | 0.187 | 0.681 | 0.132 | -0.0772 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.442644 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.362769 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.266853 | 0 | 0.375537 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.507188 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.45054 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | throwaway_sam303 | 2019/03/17 | I’ve always cared about people but it’s getting much harder now. I was a genuinely nice person. I honestly cared about what everyone had to say, I would listen to everyone’s advice and take it into consideration, no matter who you were.
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suicidewatch | Elmos-Elbows | 2019/03/17 | An Ongoing Battle. Robin Williams said:
“I think the saddest people always try their hardest to make people happy because they know what it’s like to feel absolutely worthless and they don’t want anyone else to feel like that”
I’m 32 and I’ve been dealing with depression and suicidal thoughts since I was about 15.
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suicidewatch | ThrowHerAway33 | 2019/03/17 | I can’t do this anymore. I just can’t. | -5.271 | -4.666692 | -0.66 | 108.7 | 120 | 2 | 15 | 3.1291 | -1.685 | 29 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 2 | 11 | 7 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | here4adayor2 | 2019/03/17 | It Doesn’t Add Up I have a lot to live for...family, career, finances, health.
And yet every day, inexplicably, I want to end my life.
I research if my life insurance will pay out.
I think about places where the person that finds me will be a stranger and not a loved one.
I think about how to abandon my cell ph... | 3.16295 | 4.803158 | 3.730811 | 90.281532 | 74.202703 | 6.825225 | 25.171171 | 7.492282 | 1.049768 | 579 | 19 | 123 | 7 | 12 | 182 | 94 | 148 | 0.083 | 0.853 | 0.064 | -0.5784 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 27 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 9 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 0 | 10 | 6 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 29 | 20 | 10 | 1 | 6 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 5 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 19 | 2 | 17 | 13 | 2 | 18 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 6 | 0 | 3 | 9 | 82 | 24 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.208765 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145468 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151045 | 0 | 0 | 0.122006 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197653 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.335115 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159393 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178342 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172907 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098839 | 0 | 0.107516 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.20109 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.400871 | 0.092424 | 0 | 0.16705 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160834 | 0.170743 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128193 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131154 | 0.165185 | 0.197653 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14224 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.363657 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111583 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.217548 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134388 | 0 | 0 | 0.121826 |
suicidewatch | upon_a_starr | 2019/03/17 | I’m trying I keep reaching out. I tell people how tired I feel. Nobody cares. I’m trying so hard to get to a better place. I can’t do it anymore. I’m so exhausted. My car broke down and I can’t afford to fix it, can’t afford to feed myself. Can’t afford to get to therapy or get my medication for depression refilled. Ho... | -1.504057 | 0.364679 | 1.669754 | 97.527638 | 92.311688 | 4.540807 | 13.300068 | 6.059677 | -0.978177 | 519 | 8 | 130 | 5 | 19 | 184 | 71 | 154 | 0.13 | 0.752 | 0.118 | -0.1792 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 16 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 14 | 4 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 23 | 36 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 7 | 1 | 3 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 9 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 15 | 4 | 16 | 34 | 1 | 11 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 75 | 26 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132348 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.236054 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136063 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114942 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134954 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.418337 | 0 | 0.075844 | 0.111933 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.358639 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178899 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.355853 | 0 | 0 | 0.073341 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1181 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134438 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185037 | 0 | 0.139428 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133488 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106126 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100339 | 0 | 0.116642 | 0 | 0.152613 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153383 | 0 | 0 | 0.148269 | 0.362419 | 0 | 0 | 0.138928 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120419 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135998 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Pepsi-Cokee | 2019/03/17 | Don’t know if this is the right place to post it but here. So I’ve been depressed for a long time now. At times it feels so goddamn hopeless. I’ve heavily considered suicide and a few months ago I made the choice I was going to take my life in June. Knowing that I’ll be dead soon is one of the only things that keeps me... | 2.611731 | 3.821927 | 3.927436 | 90.059231 | 74.833333 | 6.994872 | 23.897436 | 7.492282 | 0.876228 | 581 | 17 | 129 | 7 | 12 | 191 | 97 | 156 | 0.267 | 0.594 | 0.139 | -0.9855 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 16 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 12 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 25 | 28 | 13 | 5 | 4 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 2 | 17 | 7 | 14 | 19 | 3 | 20 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 6 | 0 | 3 | 14 | 83 | 26 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124496 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112314 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085614 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143193 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120965 | 0 | 0.14576 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126223 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071013 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108507 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159636 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.374502 | 0 | 0 | 0.231555 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0992 | 0.205843 | 0 | 0 | 0.124289 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132892 | 0.093748 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112102 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159898 | 0 | 0 | 0.285507 | 0.106815 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152088 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146735 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134507 | 0 | 0.151423 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179945 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119939 | 0 | 0.111687 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108121 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.307248 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105597 | 0.112884 | 0.122755 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093305 | 0.089991 | 0 | 0 | 0.327578 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082838 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099768 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | BloodyBird5 | 2019/03/17 | GF might breakup with me she is the only one I have Last night my girlfriend went through my phone and found lewd pictures of her old friend from high school taken off of Instagram. This happened once years ago before I realized how shitty it was to keep those pictures and do things with them and I hadn’t since then. I... | 3.97249 | 5.330033 | 4.109895 | 89.498009 | 71.668269 | 7.194665 | 25.438586 | 7.601503 | 1.123067 | 1,651 | 50 | 342 | 19 | 31 | 510 | 193 | 416 | 0.121 | 0.798 | 0.08 | -0.9576 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 22 | 6 | 0 | 8 | 3 | 22 | 20 | 1 | 5 | 8 | 0 | 32 | 6 | 2 | 5 | 3 | 75 | 66 | 39 | 0 | 5 | 12 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 3 | 17 | 33 | 0 | 5 | 12 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 7 | 12 | 0 | 2 | 36 | 6 | 78 | 8 | 47 | 29 | 5 | 58 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 3 | 61 | 20 | 0 | 3 | 32 | 240 | 95 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072393 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180243 | 0 | 0.067954 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13441 | 0 | 0 | 0.092908 | 0.076729 | 0.062797 | 0 | 0.049783 | 0 | 0.138985 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093405 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171253 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052668 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085325 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05394 | 0.147745 | 0.068808 | 0 | 0.146794 | 0 | 0.076988 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156826 | 0 | 0 | 0.069466 | 0 | 0.179087 | 0.126191 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.046413 | 0.068498 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080863 | 0.144436 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172571 | 0.163837 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087426 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145179 | 0 | 0 | 0.134646 | 0.133139 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057684 | 0 | 0 | 0.072113 | 0 | 0.06858 | 0 | 0.089149 | 0 | 0.221123 | 0.077275 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082301 | 0.086636 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060035 | 0.060555 | 0 | 0.078875 | 0 | 0.229917 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085696 | 0.086973 | 0.05534 | 0.186334 | 0 | 0.095819 | 0 | 0 | 0.07796 | 0 | 0.142617 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082098 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052318 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139486 | 0.155368 | 0 | 0.081763 | 0.247954 | 0.065078 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.270223 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057804 | 0 | 0.065219 | 0 | 0.093549 | 0.085376 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065641 | 0.071381 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108512 | 0.052329 | 0 | 0 | 0.047621 | 0 | 0 | 0.156073 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096339 | 0 | 0.065508 | 0 | 0 | 0.075706 | 0.073692 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08929 | 0 | 0.105182 |
suicidewatch | nyancait | 2019/03/17 | Who do I turn to? I can't stand discussing my mental health problems publicly but at this point I don't feel I have an option because - contrary to what my brain is screaming at me whenever I hit a low point - I don't actually want to die. I'm worried that one of these days I'm going to fall into a psychological hole d... | 11.335234 | 7.299432 | 10.474743 | 67.608516 | 59.046729 | 13.503738 | 44.273364 | 10.9516 | 4.690147 | 1,762 | 75 | 332 | 30 | 16 | 567 | 209 | 428 | 0.147 | 0.718 | 0.135 | -0.8859 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 44 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 17 | 17 | 1 | 1 | 18 | 0 | 42 | 5 | 1 | 7 | 3 | 65 | 77 | 22 | 8 | 13 | 9 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 35 | 13 | 0 | 3 | 16 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 14 | 6 | 0 | 8 | 4 | 4 | 46 | 11 | 48 | 56 | 6 | 49 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 18 | 25 | 0 | 6 | 16 | 234 | 81 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0.072459 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160903 | 0.180448 | 0 | 0 | 0.056802 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061997 | 0.090526 | 0 | 0 | 0.167313 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08289 | 0 | 0 | 0.075705 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118568 | 0 | 0 | 0.095772 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077062 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062028 | 0 | 0 | 0.38361 | 0 | 0.049043 | 0.067165 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075088 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114733 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084398 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079042 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.236778 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078451 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0775 | 0 | 0.065998 | 0.082149 | 0 | 0.081614 | 0.060525 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052446 | 0 | 0 | 0.065566 | 0.131421 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07528 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.224485 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055057 | 0.057268 | 0 | 0.078968 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.20126 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082448 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064834 | 0 | 0 | 0.280768 | 0.083708 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071049 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.047568 | 0 | 0 | 0.079719 | 0.168226 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135192 | 0 | 0.083883 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062913 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059298 | 0.062078 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162439 | 0.16852 | 0 | 0 | 0.055828 | 0 | 0.064899 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.04933 | 0.095155 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080765 | 0.145066 | 0 | 0 | 0.128259 | 0 | 0.061265 | 0.087591 | 0 | 0.119121 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071576 | 0.080523 | 0 | 0.075406 | 0 | 0.263732 | 0 | 0.180448 | 0 |
suicidewatch | not-your-furry | 2019/03/17 | Wish to die by accident. My ideal way to die is to get into a car accident, or catch some fatal disease. That way nobody can blame themselves and it wouldn’t look like committing suicide.
Most people I know think of me as stupid or brain dead, so maybe I could get away with running into a busy street without people th... | 4.995736 | 5.124799 | 5.413874 | 85.537132 | 68.594595 | 8.46967 | 26.57958 | 8.167269 | 1.452889 | 572 | 15 | 120 | 7 | 9 | 183 | 90 | 148 | 0.322 | 0.601 | 0.077 | -0.994 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 7 | 8 | 2 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 11 | 4 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 38 | 21 | 17 | 10 | 9 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 10 | 3 | 24 | 15 | 4 | 23 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 0 | 10 | 2 | 80 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106956 | 0 | 0 | 0.338644 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133455 | 0 | 0.134123 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.383708 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.498772 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109812 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125543 | 0 | 0.068282 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120517 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132059 | 0 | 0 | 0.127218 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058697 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100893 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120703 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.249883 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.262841 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15397 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.381466 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138162 | 0.115817 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Me-the-vampire-queen | 2019/03/17 | I’m giving up Today the woman I call my mother said I was a waste of life
I can’t take it anymore | -2.515 | -0.879686 | 1.788333 | 96.49 | 94.833333 | 3.2 | 12.166667 | 3.1291 | -1.585733 | 76 | 1 | 19 | 0 | 3 | 29 | 21 | 24 | 0.132 | 0.755 | 0.113 | -0.1027 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.411299 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.423484 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.397845 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.292935 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.394501 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.311824 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.393114 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | 21Chromosomes | 2019/03/17 | Nothing matters What is the point really anymore?
my last 3-4 months have been so shit. All of my previous interest like football, fashion, art etc don't interstest me any longer. I actually dont care for all of that. I'm also constantly ignored by all of my friends, like I'm the guy you always forget about and never ... | 2.910531 | 4.194942 | 4.222175 | 87.946101 | 74.198939 | 7.322016 | 25.997347 | 7.873278 | 1.348043 | 1,428 | 49 | 307 | 20 | 29 | 471 | 184 | 377 | 0.197 | 0.685 | 0.118 | -0.9802 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 38 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 5 | 25 | 29 | 4 | 2 | 16 | 0 | 31 | 8 | 3 | 3 | 12 | 50 | 56 | 26 | 1 | 4 | 5 | 4 | 3 | 3 | 7 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 12 | 17 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 15 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 5 | 47 | 18 | 37 | 43 | 12 | 29 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 2 | 32 | 11 | 4 | 4 | 20 | 194 | 59 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0.161625 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066224 | 0.137812 | 0 | 0 | 0.11263 | 0 | 0.126701 | 0 | 0.246381 | 0.057904 | 0 | 0.136294 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063677 | 0 | 0.050481 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168864 | 0 | 0 | 0.071335 | 0.173653 | 0.17898 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084745 | 0.194109 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073347 | 0 | 0.092357 | 0.109393 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125616 | 0.059161 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090799 | 0.383881 | 0.153116 | 0.043266 | 0 | 0 | 0.069459 | 0.066232 | 0 | 0 | 0.24599 | 0 | 0.088155 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055507 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.045511 | 0.067503 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116985 | 0.121373 | 0.082999 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055277 | 0.083958 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096988 | 0.0661 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127739 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07946 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062982 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079053 | 0 | 0.072308 | 0 | 0 | 0.078284 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089285 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.212205 | 0 | 0 | 0.088909 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08381 | 0.06599 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17001 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092701 | 0 | 0 | 0.066134 | 0 | 0.094861 | 0 | 0 | 0.090583 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.266244 | 0.144762 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106125 | 0 | 0 | 0.144864 | 0.09518 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068328 | 0.048844 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060288 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | TheDrugDealingHijabi | 2019/03/17 | I feel like I'm underwater with my feet bound together. I feel like I'm underwater with my feet bound together.
I can't swim. I can't float. I can only go down.
I'm barely conscious as I feel myself being dragged down deep under.
Away from all traces of subsistence. An abyss where I will not found.
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I'm to be... | 1.554642 | 3.767637 | 2.577271 | 93.976836 | 81.289157 | 5.351665 | 21.210489 | 6.522977 | 0.223141 | 638 | 19 | 138 | 6 | 17 | 202 | 107 | 166 | 0.139 | 0.648 | 0.213 | 0.9427 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 21 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 5 | 14 | 1 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 12 | 6 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 21 | 23 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 7 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 6 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 19 | 9 | 20 | 17 | 3 | 18 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 10 | 1 | 2 | 8 | 82 | 24 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177454 | 0 | 0.17834 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.209639 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193825 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.195694 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.287933 | 0.271212 | 0 | 0.415872 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.208126 | 0.146653 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107878 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.278206 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.212358 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.398364 | 0 | 0 | 0.144365 | 0.20198 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.212639 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151589 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | jesuschristreddit201 | 2019/03/17 | Any Endgame holdouts? Saw the post with game of thrones, thought some people would have an Avengers movie to live for too. It is quite a funny thing if you think about it. | 3.338182 | 5.563379 | 1.572727 | 103.379091 | 75.363636 | 4.4 | 26.151515 | 3.1291 | -0.043376 | 135 | 5 | 30 | 0 | 3 | 36 | 32 | 33 | 0 | 0.907 | 0.093 | 0.4927 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 18 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.283393 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.367983 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.288911 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.399115 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.443247 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.276859 | 0.267026 | 0 | 0.33084 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.296036 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | EternalNirvana_420 | 2019/03/17 | How can I not get attached to people? i have a problem, I get very attached to people. Sadly the hard truth is about 80% of the time things with people don’t go as planned. I’ve accepted that but wish it wasn’t reality. My dad told me never let yourself get attached to anyone, I’ve tried not to but sometimes I can’t fu... | 1.451431 | 3.744043 | 3.015243 | 90.216906 | 82.274336 | 5.536578 | 25.34587 | 6.816662 | 1.017254 | 436 | 18 | 90 | 5 | 12 | 143 | 74 | 113 | 0.126 | 0.701 | 0.173 | 0.6979 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 10 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 23 | 22 | 6 | 2 | 5 | 7 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 13 | 2 | 12 | 16 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 58 | 21 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125932 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197834 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157609 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166502 | 0.282288 | 0 | 0.102356 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161336 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.241438 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.199257 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190703 | 0 | 0.184167 | 0.127212 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12022 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138906 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.374581 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172334 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1526 | 0 | 0.178126 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197003 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119652 | 0 | 0 | 0.285963 | 0.105019 | 0 | 0 | 0.172096 | 0 | 0.122278 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.297207 | 0.106229 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.207109 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Throwaway-icus | 2019/03/17 | I want to die a painless death I want to kill myself. But I'm too much of a pussy to do it in a way that is painful. As soon as I find a quick and painless way, I will end it all. | 0.140379 | -0.044933 | 2.734545 | 101.580152 | 79.227273 | 5.866667 | 21.484848 | 3.1291 | -0.585461 | 133 | 3 | 41 | 0 | 3 | 47 | 30 | 44 | 0.312 | 0.547 | 0.142 | -0.9081 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 6 | 4 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 7 | 5 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 29 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.336625 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.287279 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.296451 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.358847 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.238436 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.345133 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.382622 | 0.51491 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | EdgeLordJulian | 2019/03/17 | I'm surprised I'm still alive Guess I'm just too afraid to do it. Still, surprised. | -1.91 | -0.816301 | -0.723889 | 108.2675 | 119 | 1.8 | 15.611111 | 3.1291 | -1.588156 | 66 | 2 | 16 | 0 | 4 | 20 | 12 | 18 | 0 | 0.652 | 0.348 | 0.6597 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.567766 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.82319 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | orangeponcho3 | 2019/03/17 | I want to die
Why do we as a society, think that suicide is bad? If you really think about it, it just doesn't make sense. You don't ask to be born, it just kinda happens, there's a shit ton of luck involved, where you are born, to what parents, and stuff like that. And i got lucky, i got fucking lucky, i'm well awa... | -0.402273 | 1.594661 | 1.56397 | 99.523455 | 87.787879 | 5.110909 | 16.186364 | 6.508806 | -0.555856 | 1,864 | 39 | 465 | 21 | 60 | 614 | 200 | 528 | 0.217 | 0.649 | 0.134 | -0.9959 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 75 | 2 | 15 | 1 | 5 | 25 | 45 | 15 | 3 | 16 | 5 | 40 | 21 | 4 | 3 | 6 | 106 | 95 | 43 | 8 | 13 | 30 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 5 | 8 | 4 | 1 | 3 | 40 | 25 | 1 | 0 | 21 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 22 | 24 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 4 | 67 | 21 | 47 | 79 | 13 | 40 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 8 | 40 | 17 | 11 | 21 | 17 | 286 | 107 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063025 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.041382 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054172 | 0.056889 | 0 | 0.057173 | 0 | 0.050809 | 0.07419 | 0 | 0.051781 | 0.06856 | 0 | 0.053819 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067931 | 0 | 0 | 0.062043 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.048586 | 0 | 0 | 0.039245 | 0 | 0.104824 | 0 | 0.063155 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062877 | 0 | 0.080385 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172099 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111236 | 0 | 0 | 0.066721 | 0.047014 | 0.450056 | 0.095379 | 0.11675 | 0.069168 | 0.05104 | 0.097338 | 0 | 0.067036 | 0.18076 | 0.053812 | 0 | 0 | 0.060079 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081576 | 0 | 0.06104 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134648 | 0.063368 | 0.367872 | 0.049603 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062226 | 0.300873 | 0.059459 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.040619 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061444 | 0 | 0 | 0.064676 | 0 | 0.045121 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.041235 | 0 | 0.064751 | 0 | 0.067569 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057525 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194918 | 0.062566 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155903 | 0.057885 | 0.096784 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055398 | 0 | 0 | 0.187392 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060185 | 0.068119 | 0 | 0 | 0.048597 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069661 | 0.199688 | 0 | 0.114705 | 0 | 0.045753 | 0.146732 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080855 | 0.155967 | 0 | 0 | 0.106451 | 0 | 0.057681 | 0 | 0 | 0.041315 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143569 | 0.048302 | 0.048812 | 0 | 0.109427 | 0 | 0.05491 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.044301 | 0 | 0 | 0.043228 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | chensuai | 2019/03/17 | Why can’t I go through with it Maybe it might a survival instinct that prevents me from taking my life. I sure as hell know it’s not because I want to keep living, or have something to live for. I know if I take my life all my problems will be solved. I don’t give a shit about how my death will affect anyone close to m... | 1.292048 | 2.746609 | 2.445714 | 98.307619 | 78.857143 | 4.666667 | 21.666667 | 3.1291 | -0.43019 | 251 | 7 | 60 | 0 | 6 | 80 | 52 | 70 | 0.22 | 0.701 | 0.078 | -0.9066 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 7 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 16 | 15 | 4 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 1 | 9 | 11 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 39 | 16 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163789 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142793 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.224709 | 0.133127 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.208208 | 0 | 0 | 0.25747 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.330908 | 0 | 0 | 0.413685 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.23533 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.248497 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.224141 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.240449 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180333 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.220773 | 0 | 0.352246 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138164 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.21137 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | greekmatthew | 2019/03/17 | Yeahhhhhh, today is the inevitable day I’m feelin’. My long term girlfriend just unexpectedly dumped me the other day. That’s the icing on the cake.
Been having too many other issues regarding finances, depression, family, and self-esteem.
Thinking about taking a bunch of benzos to knock me out since I have zero to... | 4.517126 | 7.496396 | 5.676552 | 71.581954 | 75.206897 | 7.544828 | 26.908046 | 8.515129 | 2.576784 | 390 | 15 | 58 | 8 | 9 | 129 | 70 | 87 | 0.106 | 0.851 | 0.043 | -0.6486 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 7 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 12 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 1 | 7 | 10 | 2 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 41 | 12 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.242887 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.315897 | 0 | 0.210943 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.230882 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.2418 | 0.251351 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.243253 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.255625 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.21674 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.248303 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.260495 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.209154 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.255497 | 0 | 0 | 0.202594 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184144 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162709 | 0.15693 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.232148 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178299 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | xcvi- | 2019/03/17 | What happens if a police officer catches you attempting suicide? From what I've read online, unassisted suicide is not illegal in most first-world countries. However, a person from my state was convicted last year for attempting it.
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I guess my question is what happens if police catches you in the act? W... | 5.488286 | 8.451217 | 6.183333 | 69.333889 | 71.659574 | 8.433097 | 33.8487 | 9.150863 | 3.808545 | 433 | 22 | 62 | 10 | 9 | 141 | 65 | 94 | 0.175 | 0.714 | 0.11 | -0.8452 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 16 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 14 | 13 | 4 | 3 | 5 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 11 | 2 | 7 | 7 | 1 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 2 | 0 | 7 | 3 | 45 | 15 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143833 | 0.187294 | 0.210044 | 0.235102 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114172 | 0.156362 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147035 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190425 | 0 | 0.305719 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140904 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176761 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.348405 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150935 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193643 | 0 | 0.172907 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.567243 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122795 | 0 | 0.210044 | 0.111316 |
suicidewatch | MyDudeMcthulhu | 2019/03/17 | Why do we ask for things that we know will hurt us? Last night, I was catching up with an old friend. She is extremely close with my ex. We broke up about a month ago now. I stayed away from asking things about her, but I got curious later on and was digging for answers I didn't need to know. My friend does not have a ... | 1.6148 | 3.31904 | 2.657328 | 96.032975 | 78.693252 | 5.723546 | 20.443833 | 6.48374 | -0.047006 | 1,206 | 30 | 283 | 10 | 29 | 383 | 160 | 326 | 0.13 | 0.712 | 0.157 | 0.8669 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 44 | 8 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 15 | 19 | 1 | 0 | 15 | 0 | 34 | 4 | 3 | 3 | 3 | 57 | 65 | 18 | 1 | 3 | 9 | 2 | 3 | 3 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 14 | 18 | 1 | 3 | 15 | 2 | 0 | 8 | 11 | 7 | 0 | 3 | 16 | 4 | 55 | 12 | 47 | 44 | 4 | 54 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 32 | 22 | 0 | 3 | 24 | 197 | 69 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072179 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144973 | 0.380612 | 0 | 0.076503 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069288 | 0 | 0 | 0.072015 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071257 | 0 | 0 | 0.079767 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072119 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068605 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123514 | 0.058171 | 0 | 0.089198 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.251638 | 0 | 0.042542 | 0.078111 | 0.092553 | 0 | 0.065124 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081677 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.348673 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.217126 | 0 | 0 | 0.223748 | 0.199119 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119342 | 0 | 0 | 0.07206 | 0.068377 | 0 | 0.088886 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082217 | 0 | 0.064994 | 0.086543 | 0 | 0.060376 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152826 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085443 | 0 | 0.055176 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081856 | 0.182432 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174842 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067357 | 0.091526 | 0.081485 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173579 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089067 | 0.092401 | 0.076743 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162288 | 0 | 0 | 0.129286 | 0.04748 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090467 | 0 | 0 | 0.079541 | 0 | 0.195891 | 0.140652 | 0 | 0 | 0.048027 | 0 | 0.065315 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.220423 | 0 | 0 | 0.078492 | 0 | 0.059279 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052436 |
suicidewatch | dutchbob1 | 2019/03/17 | just in, but don't know how serious this is or what to do? any advice is welcome... https://www.reddit.com/r/drunk/comments/b211yg/im_ready_to_try_and_die_via_overdosing_on/ | 20.752105 | 27.814088 | 9.230789 | 45.803026 | 41.105263 | 8.010526 | 25.289474 | 8.841846 | 2.216558 | 151 | 3 | 15 | 2 | 2 | 34 | 17 | 19 | 0 | 0.927 | 0.073 | 0.0857 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 16 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 12 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.745235 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.518615 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.419122 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | yungin101 | 2019/03/17 | I don’t want to try anymore I’ve tried so hard to make it work. I’ve tried taking care of myself. I’ve tried exercising. Ive tried positive attitudes and outlooks. I’ve tried love. That shot me thru the heart numerous times. I’ve tried to be successful. make something out of myself. I’ve gotten back up when I... | -0.722968 | 1.450618 | 1.464889 | 96.461118 | 97.027211 | 4.849598 | 18.246444 | 6.574016 | 0.036826 | 542 | 17 | 124 | 8 | 22 | 180 | 88 | 147 | 0.102 | 0.762 | 0.135 | 0.6116 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 21 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 11 | 5 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 16 | 27 | 8 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 10 | 3 | 16 | 24 | 1 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 61 | 18 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146737 | 0 | 0 | 0.138781 | 0 | 0 | 0.115157 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107604 | 0 | 0.085305 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142676 | 0 | 0.148036 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.290467 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070757 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073112 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125357 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165827 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124383 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098842 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126299 | 0 | 0.186819 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134274 | 0 | 0.146841 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132287 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107731 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.210432 | 0 | 0.122312 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163198 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.665061 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165078 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126272 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101877 | 0 | 0.142609 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Mr_Bacon_Man | 2019/03/17 | Loneliness and love sickness are killing my spirit and pride I have been rejected so many times and no girl wants to be with me & I know it looks like I have Elliot Rodger syndrome but in reality I am a decent person with a good personality and nobody wants to be my friend in real life and I have been in intensive ... | 13.533321 | 6.500981 | 12.495477 | 63.80749 | 58.694656 | 16.153435 | 46.490458 | 12.161745 | 5.214082 | 517 | 18 | 106 | 10 | 4 | 170 | 83 | 131 | 0.212 | 0.617 | 0.171 | -0.8294 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 12 | 2 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 12 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 20 | 19 | 11 | 3 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 15 | 7 | 16 | 12 | 3 | 18 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 7 | 13 | 1 | 3 | 5 | 68 | 16 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.507178 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095115 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159084 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100627 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131463 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120549 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130871 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104584 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153659 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172625 | 0.162482 | 0.08575 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.220418 | 0.076229 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131027 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140824 | 0 | 0 | 0.316382 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166168 | 0 | 0 | 0.166028 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.40872 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156854 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177597 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170672 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090983 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184062 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100479 |
suicidewatch | jkljhkgsfs | 2019/03/17 | Someone please talk to me I have no one, no friends, nobody to talk to. I'm just tired of being lonely all the time... | -1.5374 | 0.397501 | 0.5355 | 102.35525 | 101.4 | 2.5 | 14.25 | 3.1291 | -1.5392 | 89 | 2 | 21 | 0 | 4 | 29 | 20 | 25 | 0.304 | 0.528 | 0.168 | -0.5267 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 14 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.287449 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.252115 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.408406 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.315242 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.598089 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.216949 | 0.427623 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Psychotic_Psychopath | 2019/03/17 | I hate myself so much Im a 17 year old highschool drop out with no reason to live. I have no friends, no real interests or passions, and really no desire to live anymore. I live with 5 other people yet im so alone and no one speaks to me, my mother who i don't live with hasn't spoken to me in many months. I can't even ... | 0.012182 | 1.766493 | 2.362727 | 95.934091 | 84.090909 | 5.090909 | 18.181818 | 6.112484 | -0.349 | 384 | 9 | 92 | 3 | 11 | 131 | 71 | 110 | 0.252 | 0.631 | 0.117 | -0.9338 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 15 | 10 | 8 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 14 | 3 | 14 | 10 | 2 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 60 | 16 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163119 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.312388 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104025 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121681 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155495 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181729 | 0 | 0 | 0.340246 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12838 | 0 | 0 | 0.17112 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.556288 | 0 | 0.132257 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159676 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125712 | 0 | 0.231556 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165266 | 0 | 0.106723 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109188 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179265 | 0.100896 | 0.161932 | 0 | 0 | 0.178412 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172275 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100917 | 0 | 0 | 0.091837 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101422 |
suicidewatch | iamtooMLG | 2019/03/17 | I will kill myself tomorrow night I got scammed out of $5000 USD Bitcoin hoping someone that was offering background removal checks online would do it for me because someone doxxed me, and it made me scared. Was also hoping he would hack a video game for me, was hoping to give it to my girl, as she looks up to people w... | 3.700022 | 4.846001 | 4.58428 | 86.649718 | 72.070866 | 7.539136 | 26.131305 | 7.917945 | 1.386713 | 1,970 | 63 | 409 | 26 | 37 | 638 | 252 | 508 | 0.193 | 0.695 | 0.112 | -0.9952 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 60 | 0 | 5 | 7 | 1 | 21 | 35 | 10 | 2 | 14 | 1 | 38 | 11 | 4 | 11 | 3 | 85 | 85 | 36 | 2 | 9 | 16 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 7 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 20 | 26 | 0 | 2 | 13 | 5 | 5 | 6 | 8 | 19 | 0 | 1 | 20 | 4 | 75 | 16 | 58 | 55 | 7 | 46 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 1 | 70 | 18 | 1 | 13 | 22 | 261 | 95 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073962 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060528 | 0.062979 | 0 | 0 | 0.051471 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062285 | 0.067378 | 0.212275 | 0 | 0 | 0.116399 | 0 | 0.184555 | 0 | 0.064405 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154572 | 0 | 0.154338 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134074 | 0 | 0 | 0.049991 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142704 | 0.08517 | 0.03827 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069178 | 0 | 0 | 0.082988 | 0.058476 | 0 | 0.079088 | 0.217821 | 0.043015 | 0.126967 | 0.121069 | 0 | 0 | 0.149886 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077678 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.050732 | 0 | 0 | 0.225526 | 0.223613 | 0.087334 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167475 | 0 | 0.207981 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.267304 | 0.036977 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063559 | 0 | 0 | 0.064347 | 0.068311 | 0.143236 | 0.151567 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076423 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055639 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142056 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.051288 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052473 | 0.198264 | 0 | 0.083083 | 0 | 0.085327 | 0 | 0 | 0.163209 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075709 | 0.08615 | 0.048488 | 0 | 0 | 0.162521 | 0 | 0.064637 | 0 | 0 | 0.075777 | 0 | 0.120627 | 0.068904 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077155 | 0.192391 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080673 | 0.060445 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071335 | 0 | 0 | 0.12167 | 0.132309 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.050284 | 0.096996 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086992 | 0 | 0.072323 | 0 | 0.051387 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13074 | 0 | 0 | 0.089286 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107533 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | NotAgain2011 | 2019/03/17 | What keeps you from doing it Maybe we can share some positivity tonight.
I'll start: I'm not killing myself tonight because I don't want my wife to wake up tomorrow without me. It would make a really bad few weeks, dare I hope few months for her and I don't want that. If she could wake up tomorrow with no memory of me ... | 1.921802 | 3.253738 | 3.571351 | 91.424775 | 76.837838 | 7.636036 | 23.144144 | 8.3441 | 1.024431 | 270 | 8 | 65 | 5 | 6 | 90 | 58 | 74 | 0.108 | 0.706 | 0.185 | 0.7893 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 7 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 15 | 14 | 2 | 1 | 6 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 3 | 9 | 11 | 3 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 8 | 40 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.247102 | 0.180405 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.236288 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.29394 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.26305 | 0.327419 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144584 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197546 | 0 | 0.297317 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.23622 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.18959 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.209471 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.349112 | 0 | 0.237389 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.28528 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.210231 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | throwaway10234577 | 2019/03/17 | I'm just a shell I'm not going to post some long post about my past or something to make u feel bad.that dosnt matter.im not looking for resurance or friends. I just want someone to tell me I wont always have to feel like this anymore. I just want someone to tell me theres more than depression and letdowns. I just need... | 4.129315 | 4.967161 | 4.167014 | 91.191342 | 70.780822 | 6.387945 | 31.038356 | 5.683918 | 1.275572 | 283 | 12 | 60 | 1 | 5 | 87 | 48 | 73 | 0.057 | 0.826 | 0.117 | 0.3008 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 16 | 13 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 8 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 8 | 2 | 9 | 12 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 34 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152859 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182188 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153388 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158227 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185775 | 0.13124 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141932 | 0 | 0.095979 | 0 | 0.104405 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198435 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08975 | 0 | 0 | 0.162575 | 0.154268 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122626 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136216 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175369 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.351881 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.466963 | 0.141427 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.481704 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.21671 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Ikari-kun | 2019/03/17 | I’m tired of living I guess I could say I’m just too broken to be fixed up. I just want to fucking kill myself because I’m so worthless and sad. I’m seeing a therapist right now but it hasn’t helped me at all and today I believe that my dad has stopped loving me because I lashed out by ignoring them for I was angry and... | 1.686758 | 3.031483 | 3.541301 | 91.343368 | 77.493151 | 5.962557 | 24.495434 | 6.427356 | 0.645568 | 264 | 9 | 59 | 2 | 6 | 89 | 53 | 73 | 0.307 | 0.614 | 0.08 | -0.9477 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 7 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 14 | 14 | 5 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 11 | 1 | 9 | 11 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 5 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 38 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.298765 | 0 | 0 | 0.276092 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.195656 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.226549 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.269955 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164255 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.271116 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.216387 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.221171 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.209275 | 0 | 0.194877 | 0 | 0 | 0.195276 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.204876 | 0.280709 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.284527 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.281654 | 0.232283 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144539 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | MakeItStopWhen | 2019/03/17 | Depression is a mysterious monster 2 years now, I have been suicidal and I cannot pin point the cause. Things that I used to deal with just fine now upset me to the point where I want to end my life. Is it a consequence of bad circumstances, or a result of poor physical maintenance (sustained mental fatigue, lack of sl... | 5.183381 | 5.493778 | 5.835516 | 82.04641 | 68.213483 | 9.169356 | 32.473953 | 9.095869 | 2.639533 | 700 | 29 | 142 | 12 | 11 | 228 | 105 | 178 | 0.295 | 0.675 | 0.03 | -0.9944 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 21 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 11 | 8 | 2 | 2 | 9 | 0 | 17 | 11 | 3 | 4 | 2 | 27 | 25 | 8 | 4 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 6 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 24 | 1 | 19 | 18 | 4 | 25 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 5 | 14 | 102 | 34 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104787 | 0.076503 | 0 | 0 | 0.282789 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128922 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140758 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080937 | 0.129384 | 0.108092 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.22231 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063456 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065568 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100373 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111549 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.265931 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126427 | 0.126474 | 0 | 0.126718 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085042 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.355912 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123915 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.25118 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100224 | 0.209846 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.549103 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09436 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083376 | 0 | 0 | 0.099632 | 0.07318 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108391 | 0 | 0 | 0.074023 | 0.099615 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080817 |
suicidewatch | suidicethrowaway1337 | 2019/03/17 | How do I contact a hotline Hi.
I'm turning to reddit because I'm having a bad night.
A little background:
I am bipolar and mildly schizophrenic, and in my youth had a nice 5 diagnosed anxiety disorders. All of this has been well treated but... I have bad days. Not often at all, but they get really bad. The worst pa... | 1.144333 | 3.533897 | 3.112799 | 88.356273 | 84.604027 | 6.324674 | 25.543229 | 7.618777 | 1.573479 | 1,151 | 50 | 233 | 21 | 34 | 386 | 150 | 298 | 0.235 | 0.702 | 0.063 | -0.996 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 48 | 1 | 10 | 3 | 0 | 14 | 17 | 4 | 0 | 15 | 0 | 33 | 6 | 2 | 5 | 4 | 41 | 57 | 20 | 2 | 5 | 11 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 12 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 9 | 2 | 1 | 4 | 5 | 37 | 8 | 33 | 49 | 6 | 24 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 36 | 10 | 2 | 3 | 12 | 169 | 49 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.230697 | 0.258719 | 0 | 0 | 0.162882 | 0.120268 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.266666 | 0.064896 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.217413 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115044 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.205972 | 0 | 0 | 0.108054 | 0 | 0 | 0.366034 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110001 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161487 | 0.076054 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111241 | 0 | 0.060503 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105411 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109258 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122839 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175521 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075195 | 0.05201 | 0.1067 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071062 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078938 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099905 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072139 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115285 | 0 | 0 | 0.185912 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101867 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106488 | 0 | 0.0682 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169321 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081957 | 0 | 0 | 0.075352 | 0 | 0.085018 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116449 | 0 | 0.100336 | 0 | 0 | 0.085568 | 0.1861 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070727 | 0.136429 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115797 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062792 | 0.084502 | 0 | 0 | 0.191439 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.258719 | 0 |
suicidewatch | ActuallyBigShart | 2019/03/17 | We are all liars We always say/hear "I know you feel this way right now, but things will get better". We always say/hear "I'm here for you if you need to talk". We are liars, saying what we would like to hear. We would like to here it from a genuine, real person that *actually* cares. The truth is, those people (for th... | 0.329025 | 2.236185 | 1.971181 | 98.330254 | 83.88189 | 4.537614 | 15.281042 | 5.369823 | -1.028514 | 455 | 7 | 109 | 2 | 13 | 148 | 76 | 127 | 0.121 | 0.704 | 0.175 | 0.7964 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 27 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 11 | 3 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 16 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 24 | 26 | 6 | 1 | 5 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 18 | 7 | 12 | 17 | 3 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 14 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 75 | 29 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0.149152 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.254355 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135177 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155833 | 0.157012 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135373 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077282 | 0 | 0 | 0.167432 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159708 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.516795 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169098 | 0 | 0.167997 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107957 | 0.149342 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113331 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162635 | 0 | 0 | 0.165514 | 0 | 0.211924 | 0.133456 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173968 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130527 | 0 | 0.36464 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114919 | 0.122849 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101542 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121319 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.21715 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | InfiniteRespect | 2019/03/17 | I want love again Wanting love when you never have loved before is sad.
Wanting love when you've had love once before is crippling. | 4.7904 | 6.762782 | 3.917 | 89.2435 | 70.6 | 5 | 24.5 | 3.1291 | 0.2862 | 106 | 3 | 19 | 0 | 2 | 31 | 17 | 25 | 0.155 | 0.397 | 0.449 | 0.9162 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 12 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 11 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 10 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.320929 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.850986 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145441 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.200827 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.333681 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | ChlamydiaIsLife | 2019/03/17 | I need help. I've never dealt with shit like this before, but at the time of writing this I feel like I'm alone, I'm lost and don't know what to do. I need serious help, the main problem is that I feel I help people, but not in return, the only thing I get is bullied and nothings is working out right now. Please someon... | 5.360658 | 4.227213 | 5.948947 | 86.252632 | 68.078947 | 8.126316 | 29.526316 | 5.985473 | 1.254037 | 279 | 8 | 62 | 1 | 4 | 91 | 50 | 76 | 0.22 | 0.542 | 0.238 | -0.0742 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 7 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 15 | 15 | 4 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 8 | 2 | 6 | 14 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 36 | 13 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.200396 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.329289 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.195667 | 0.138228 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10109 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.518765 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106336 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189057 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.211215 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.286938 | 0.14923 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185657 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147157 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13414 | 0 | 0 | 0.212392 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185142 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165238 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198613 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163942 | 0.148957 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128545 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112825 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140862 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Ilp1993 | 2019/03/17 | I don't want to be alone anymore. I'm putting this here so someone will know. I'm going to take the pills tonight. I'm gonna put on some music and take the pills. None of you know me and that's okay, I just wanted someone to know I'm at piece with this. Chances are someone I know will go through my phone when its done ... | -0.897368 | 0.787404 | 0.950088 | 105.171447 | 87.070175 | 3.8 | 18.27193 | 3.1291 | -1.132039 | 382 | 10 | 104 | 0 | 12 | 124 | 67 | 114 | 0.052 | 0.883 | 0.064 | 0.291 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 13 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 20 | 32 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 12 | 2 | 10 | 25 | 4 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 59 | 21 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.281814 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.269851 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139761 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139227 | 0.3189 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.248695 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154641 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.523387 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066467 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130298 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.273536 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108193 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.345825 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.306878 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160492 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | TVguy14 | 2019/03/17 | i don’t see any reason why to continue living i mean, the world is boring, life is also kinda boring, and everything is bland. You just work, sleep, eat, do some fun stuff, then some bad stuff happens, and then you die. Why not end it earlier? | 2.82125 | 4.518012 | 4.085833 | 87.1425 | 75.25 | 7.3 | 20.333333 | 8.076483 | 0.832858 | 186 | 4 | 38 | 3 | 4 | 61 | 37 | 48 | 0.217 | 0.723 | 0.06 | -0.8271 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 9 | 8 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 8 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 23 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176689 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150249 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184479 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.229305 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.226081 | 0 | 0 | 0.195691 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19857 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19538 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156059 | 0 | 0 | 0.195097 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.240673 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.227167 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176064 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.221103 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.505856 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.398735 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16085 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | aftocheiria | 2019/03/17 | DAE feel like dying is a primal urge? I feel like I have to die. That I MUST. It's a need. I don't know how else to describe it but this feeling is so immense. I also have a natural instinct to live. I am constantly fighting these urges. | -0.978908 | 1.121194 | 1.827899 | 94.934118 | 94.490196 | 4.482913 | 21.011204 | 6.182691 | 0.253368 | 182 | 7 | 41 | 2 | 7 | 63 | 37 | 51 | 0.118 | 0.703 | 0.18 | 0.2471 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 8 | 12 | 4 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 2 | 3 | 11 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 28 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.215723 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.29151 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.559927 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.225346 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.409189 | 0.385426 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14825 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.263578 | 0 | 0.238199 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.20002 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | NopeUp80 | 2019/03/17 | I just don't know I feel extremely misunderstood by everyone. I'm trying so hard to fix myself, and everyone just ends up pissed off and disappointed in me no matter what I do. If I don't talk about my feelings I'm being closed off, and need to open up. If I do talk about them, everyone gets freaked out and doesn't kno... | 1.517065 | 3.226054 | 3.823209 | 87.541132 | 79 | 7.451741 | 23.106965 | 8.3441 | 1.251619 | 494 | 16 | 112 | 10 | 12 | 171 | 75 | 134 | 0.171 | 0.732 | 0.097 | -0.8782 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 9 | 8 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 15 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 27 | 27 | 11 | 0 | 4 | 7 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 18 | 4 | 20 | 23 | 3 | 15 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 10 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 81 | 24 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125326 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.251016 | 0.146418 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.677022 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1433 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.218961 | 0 | 0.074035 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.253878 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14062 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155754 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.208338 | 0.105072 | 0.109291 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107772 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142452 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100299 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.227793 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181597 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192416 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136598 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100663 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | throwawayfrood | 2019/03/17 | Can't leave a note I've tried once about a year ago. And I don't think I'll try again, but I wrote a note. And I know that if I don't get it delivered the right way, my insurance won't pay out. And I'm not sure what to do with the fact that I'm thinking that way. | 1.435938 | 0.908271 | 3.371875 | 99.385625 | 76.1875 | 7.65 | 20.6875 | 7.168622 | -0.103862 | 202 | 3 | 61 | 2 | 4 | 69 | 42 | 64 | 0.048 | 0.903 | 0.049 | -0.2323 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 14 | 12 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 4 | 10 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 31 | 10 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.259657 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153039 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160982 | 0 | 0 | 0.310161 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.311951 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.250153 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.276074 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.375384 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.397748 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.465014 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188631 |
suicidewatch | jumpyyylion | 2019/03/17 | I don’t want to die, but I definitely don’t care to live. I feel like I’m failing over and over again. I can’t figure out how to change. I don’t like who I am, I hate wanting to kill myself. I hate how intrusive the thoughts are like they control me. I feel so guilty for wanting to. I know my husband worries about my s... | 1.568757 | 3.048693 | 3.307155 | 92.320431 | 78.150579 | 5.481292 | 22.969638 | 5.852545 | 0.26784 | 941 | 29 | 210 | 5 | 22 | 314 | 127 | 259 | 0.317 | 0.549 | 0.134 | -0.9971 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 18 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 16 | 21 | 7 | 2 | 8 | 0 | 20 | 4 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 57 | 50 | 17 | 5 | 9 | 12 | 1 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 13 | 11 | 1 | 5 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 14 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 36 | 7 | 29 | 45 | 4 | 22 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 11 | 1 | 9 | 15 | 140 | 49 | 3 | 0 | 0.120507 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090158 | 0 | 0.101845 | 0 | 0.112237 | 0 | 0.084629 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142232 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095083 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089952 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103698 | 0 | 0.107593 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114074 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131186 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.211113 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067177 | 0.092 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095881 | 0 | 0.154279 | 0.14532 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094027 | 0.159414 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.301245 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068172 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10888 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180805 | 0.337573 | 0 | 0.111792 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071839 | 0.248446 | 0.101938 | 0.08981 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067891 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075415 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097591 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113936 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086858 | 0 | 0 | 0.101827 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106103 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086176 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170064 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099927 | 0.080744 | 0.118613 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069053 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.359938 | 0 | 0 | 0.123852 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098042 | 0 | 0.148088 | 0.103289 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065496 |
suicidewatch | DepressingThrowaway8 | 2019/03/17 | all i want is money i grew up privileged, in a fairly well off family. went to boarding school in the US from asia. currently go to an ivy league university. and i'd rather just die.
i used to be idealistic, telling myself i don't need to have a prestigious job, i just want to be happy. but now i realize, i need to ... | 2.524812 | 3.958586 | 4.224048 | 86.943175 | 75.458333 | 7.35873 | 24.944444 | 8.045849 | 1.3608 | 1,265 | 42 | 269 | 20 | 27 | 426 | 181 | 336 | 0.201 | 0.664 | 0.135 | -0.9889 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 45 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 22 | 25 | 10 | 0 | 15 | 1 | 21 | 13 | 4 | 2 | 3 | 51 | 56 | 14 | 3 | 16 | 17 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 3 | 9 | 8 | 9 | 13 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 4 | 30 | 12 | 44 | 42 | 8 | 39 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 14 | 11 | 8 | 5 | 20 | 155 | 34 | 10 | 0.072457 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064229 | 0 | 0 | 0.075044 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151955 | 0 | 0 | 0.071858 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067737 | 0.08243 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132507 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082871 | 0.073875 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093458 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.225597 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126815 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131083 | 0.061048 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136612 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132449 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.468897 | 0 | 0.139015 | 0.123537 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154264 | 0 | 0.071536 | 0 | 0 | 0.081664 | 0.171724 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.356778 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071902 | 0.064403 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074092 | 0 | 0.035399 | 0 | 0.063981 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0616 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053264 | 0.161178 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067996 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077099 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078121 | 0.069332 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057621 | 0 | 0.146661 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074376 | 0 | 0 | 0.072509 | 0 | 0.061393 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063331 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.046428 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083279 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087157 | 0.06258 | 0 | 0.059785 | 0.299159 | 0.057513 | 0.116241 | 0 | 0.130295 | 0.067168 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139692 | 0 | 0.210998 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.04666 |
suicidewatch | anonymouscatndog | 2019/03/17 | Think about it all the time I feel like things are pretty good in my life, but I still think about it 30 - 40 times a day. I don’t know what to do.
I end up drinking as a distraction, then I worry that drinking makes me more likely to act.
I went to therapy for a while, but the therapist gave me the same advice I c... | 1.196694 | 2.644489 | 3.027621 | 94.061431 | 79.107527 | 6.800538 | 19.151882 | 7.645422 | 0.272356 | 332 | 7 | 80 | 5 | 8 | 111 | 64 | 93 | 0.183 | 0.753 | 0.064 | -0.9144 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 13 | 17 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 11 | 3 | 12 | 13 | 3 | 13 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 51 | 16 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198518 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13815 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1622 | 0 | 0 | 0.131016 | 0 | 0.174974 | 0 | 0 | 0.212251 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.398023 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179932 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.205439 | 0.145132 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.222746 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170394 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111647 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143492 | 0.1985 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135605 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206679 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162237 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.232322 | 0.235875 | 0.134965 | 0.260343 | 0 | 0 | 0.236919 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188324 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206311 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Famouslystupid | 2019/03/17 | I think I should kill myself I’m not saying I definitely will but I’m seriously contemplating it.
Why? Because I’m a complete an utter failure. I have no accomplishment to be proud of and can’t imagine living a happy and healthy life in the future. I do not feel loved nor do I truly love anyone else.
I feel terrible ... | 2.361174 | 3.958082 | 4.141105 | 86.684813 | 76.262248 | 6.861135 | 24.069264 | 7.629822 | 1.098315 | 1,312 | 42 | 276 | 18 | 29 | 443 | 177 | 347 | 0.212 | 0.591 | 0.197 | -0.6379 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 27 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 5 | 13 | 31 | 3 | 2 | 14 | 0 | 36 | 4 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 53 | 62 | 21 | 1 | 12 | 18 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 18 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 2 | 3 | 5 | 16 | 13 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 6 | 41 | 18 | 36 | 44 | 5 | 34 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 18 | 17 | 1 | 5 | 14 | 187 | 59 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0.105308 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107021 | 0.150911 | 0.11057 | 0.177607 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101388 | 0 | 0 | 0.197349 | 0 | 0 | 0.121581 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110025 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113145 | 0 | 0 | 0.17232 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180295 | 0 | 0.095579 | 0.111503 | 0 | 0.071276 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163692 | 0.077093 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05638 | 0.10352 | 0.06133 | 0.090512 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114876 | 0 | 0.106542 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144664 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107087 | 0 | 0.11939 | 0 | 0.059306 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117248 | 0.110349 | 0.076222 | 0.210884 | 0 | 0.190579 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194792 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108413 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079329 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073125 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074813 | 0.094226 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116349 | 0 | 0 | 0.216965 | 0 | 0 | 0.215885 | 0 | 0.069132 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.257451 | 0.10804 | 0.109214 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110771 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091435 | 0 | 0 | 0.1208 | 0 | 0 | 0.08618 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122459 | 0.101707 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094321 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069146 | 0 | 0 | 0.12585 | 0 | 0 | 0.103116 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112341 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1273 | 0.085656 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097375 | 0.120481 | 0.124095 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109591 | 0 | 0 | 0.117986 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | JazSpaz | 2019/03/17 | I hate that I would leave nothing behind. If I was gone, I don't think anyone would care. I don't have friends who check on me or people who'd realize my absence. My immediate family has been out of my life since I was sixteen (I'm twenty-one) and the few cousins I still know aren't people who check in or worry if I go... | 0.51092 | 2.495143 | 2.828276 | 92.002644 | 83.712644 | 5.245977 | 17.712644 | 6.427356 | -0.178963 | 316 | 7 | 70 | 3 | 9 | 108 | 61 | 87 | 0.132 | 0.827 | 0.041 | -0.7314 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 13 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 14 | 21 | 6 | 0 | 5 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 14 | 2 | 7 | 13 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 3 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 50 | 19 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166737 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.243125 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1575 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.224799 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184233 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135522 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.23543 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131051 | 0 | 0 | 0.252494 | 0 | 0 | 0.168431 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.228808 | 0.271488 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.330636 | 0.208214 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197256 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190434 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.305591 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.242167 | 0 | 0.33879 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Divez5 | 2019/03/17 | Emotionally empty I've been depressed pretty bad for what seems like forever now. But recently it's gotten pretty bad. My life has no meaning to it. The only reason I haven't ended it yet is because of my son (who I rarely get to see because of his mother) I am financially struggling. Haven't talked to anybody other th... | 3.340048 | 6.292049 | 4.612389 | 77.476025 | 80.150442 | 5.954799 | 29.931246 | 7.32111 | 2.332425 | 490 | 24 | 76 | 7 | 13 | 161 | 84 | 113 | 0.185 | 0.666 | 0.149 | -0.5858 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 16 | 16 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 8 | 4 | 15 | 14 | 5 | 15 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 10 | 53 | 16 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155917 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108504 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.262604 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.266447 | 0.194529 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172424 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102901 | 0 | 0.137426 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.35896 | 0.14132 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080677 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123273 | 0 | 0.250086 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169851 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1127 | 0.077951 | 0 | 0.140892 | 0.141203 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173804 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186871 | 0.127357 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153099 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12135 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150833 | 0 | 0 | 0.324654 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164051 | 0.157543 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127146 | 0.145255 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159672 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166804 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128246 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | PM_the_unspeakable | 2019/03/17 | Just another day I plan on walking to the railroad on my birthday, probably in the morning. Drink a bunch of vodka and carry a flask with me to keep me going. I'm surprised I've made it this long. I'm not proud of it, more like impressed with how long I can stand to torture myself by being alive. I've been dead inside ... | 0.527797 | 2.694282 | 2.346572 | 94.346254 | 85.153846 | 5.155853 | 20.58194 | 6.498294 | 0.205243 | 770 | 24 | 170 | 8 | 23 | 254 | 121 | 208 | 0.159 | 0.685 | 0.156 | -0.4106 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 28 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 9 | 13 | 3 | 0 | 16 | 1 | 14 | 8 | 5 | 4 | 2 | 32 | 32 | 7 | 3 | 4 | 9 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 6 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 4 | 25 | 10 | 27 | 28 | 7 | 25 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 7 | 1 | 2 | 15 | 113 | 31 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.290007 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153603 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14099 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.356728 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143517 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135466 | 0.160366 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116511 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130362 | 0 | 0.209762 | 0.09879 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106838 | 0 | 0 | 0.132655 | 0.157181 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137226 | 0.245827 | 0.152991 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150247 | 0 | 0 | 0.135118 | 0 | 0.122108 | 0.244755 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130848 | 0.184612 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146698 | 0 | 0 | 0.110377 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132688 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093705 | 0.105172 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149094 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088589 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156222 | 0.141947 | 0 | 0 | 0.138384 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09187 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080635 | 0.158938 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.244691 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089051 |
suicidewatch | throwaway_4890 | 2019/03/17 | What’s even the point of staying alive? I’m 17, I’ve been suicidal since age 11 and I don’t even remember when I started feeling unhappy with life. Despite having attempted suicide multiples times in the past 3 years, I never truly regretted any attempt and even at my highest points in my life I told myself it wouldn’t... | 6.514889 | 7.749619 | 7.042222 | 71.29 | 65.592593 | 10.148148 | 35.740741 | 10.254146 | 4.02863 | 586 | 28 | 95 | 14 | 9 | 192 | 102 | 135 | 0.233 | 0.648 | 0.119 | -0.9748 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 9 | 9 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 12 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 19 | 20 | 8 | 4 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 12 | 3 | 11 | 13 | 1 | 19 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 1 | 1 | 8 | 63 | 17 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100224 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089842 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150493 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152959 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150822 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165784 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.389376 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149041 | 0.105289 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08376 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156659 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163056 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.312299 | 0.072003 | 0 | 0.13014 | 0 | 0 | 0.164882 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148526 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108342 | 0 | 0.11367 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141416 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11209 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140692 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.278646 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094416 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166954 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121915 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104317 | 0.314178 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.322422 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085939 | 0 | 0 | 0.140829 | 0 | 0.100062 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086929 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094909 |
suicidewatch | abc123poP | 2019/03/17 | I don’t feel right, I have it good but it feels terrible I just graduated from high school almost a year from now and I feel like absolute shit, I was a average Grade level student and I have a very small friend group (edgy kids), I also have autism but I’m not some window licker,I can’t find a job either because I’m ... | 2.679407 | 4.288334 | 3.655588 | 90.449774 | 75.426117 | 6.911856 | 23.465206 | 7.645422 | 0.912403 | 1,115 | 33 | 241 | 15 | 24 | 358 | 161 | 291 | 0.177 | 0.611 | 0.212 | 0.8748 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 27 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 9 | 26 | 6 | 0 | 12 | 0 | 24 | 5 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 52 | 49 | 19 | 1 | 4 | 13 | 1 | 6 | 4 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 11 | 12 | 0 | 1 | 16 | 4 | 0 | 3 | 10 | 9 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 6 | 35 | 17 | 20 | 41 | 7 | 26 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 17 | 11 | 5 | 7 | 15 | 139 | 46 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085719 | 0 | 0.096831 | 0 | 0 | 0.077331 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065759 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079576 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074356 | 0 | 0.058948 | 0 | 0 | 0.108948 | 0.202962 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098592 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101031 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162948 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.293367 | 0.207248 | 0 | 0 | 0.088382 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.298841 | 0 | 0.050522 | 0 | 0.054957 | 0.162215 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095471 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102169 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09596 | 0.085952 | 0.106984 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188971 | 0 | 0.085388 | 0.085577 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105335 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113254 | 0.077185 | 0 | 0.071086 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092786 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065527 | 0.14709 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06704 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09721 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061949 | 0.099424 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165163 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097866 | 0 | 0.088032 | 0 | 0 | 0.397045 | 0.079991 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191278 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110699 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077724 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064243 | 0.185885 | 0 | 0 | 0.056387 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100668 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079788 | 0.114073 | 0.076756 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.209734 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068693 | 0 | 0 | 0.124544 |
suicidewatch | AyyItsKaleb | 2019/03/17 | am kill meself lol Im am kill meself lol | -5.108 | -8.820193 | -0.455 | 102.7775 | 177 | 1 | 2.5 | 3.1291 | -3.073 | 32 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 4 | 12 | 6 | 10 | 0.47 | 0.25 | 0.28 | -0.7003 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.438687 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.89864 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | foliefortuna | 2019/03/17 | One day I will euthanatize myself I don't think my problems are fixable unless i'm willing to accept degraded life circumstances and knowing my life will never be the same.
I have access to pentobarbital (the drug that's used in euthanasia clinics) now which is a relief. I don't even know why i'm making this post, I ... | 3.613294 | 4.901996 | 4.955222 | 83.35844 | 72.457944 | 7.966822 | 23.655374 | 8.472885 | 1.362889 | 417 | 11 | 85 | 7 | 8 | 139 | 73 | 107 | 0.072 | 0.817 | 0.111 | 0.4692 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 15 | 6 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 24 | 29 | 3 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 15 | 2 | 11 | 20 | 2 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 4 | 3 | 62 | 21 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169044 | 0 | 0 | 0.136544 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.245532 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139841 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110617 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.233237 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.232715 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.448639 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.200338 | 0.282654 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163294 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143469 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146782 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202772 | 0 | 0 | 0.202591 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135635 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170175 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.271327 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143746 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182861 | 0 | 0 | 0.12488 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191047 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.229605 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | VeryButtery | 2019/03/17 | Why can’t I bring myself to tell anybody I know in real life about my symptoms of depression? I’ve been struggling with suicidal thoughts, lack of sleep, under eating, and a whole slew of other symptoms of depression that when I search for on any platform I’m told they’re depression, but Through all this research Im fa... | 8.145556 | 7.019703 | 7.458117 | 77.659028 | 62.518519 | 10.075309 | 36.299383 | 8.841846 | 3.024812 | 669 | 26 | 125 | 8 | 8 | 208 | 97 | 162 | 0.183 | 0.65 | 0.166 | -0.5023 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 15 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 10 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 23 | 26 | 12 | 1 | 4 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 9 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 16 | 6 | 27 | 20 | 3 | 15 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 10 | 10 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 86 | 26 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081892 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099098 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.201096 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.41488 | 0.122226 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123222 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.238614 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.279115 | 0 | 0.125832 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106489 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080717 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130077 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066181 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.255174 | 0.058832 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202249 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092877 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133715 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115332 | 0 | 0 | 0.115228 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137067 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120564 | 0 | 0 | 0.109628 | 0.125627 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12051 | 0 | 0.102034 | 0.092707 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125892 | 0 | 0.131723 | 0 | 0 | 0.250331 | 0 | 0 | 0.315764 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118315 | 0.095602 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115069 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142057 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108274 | 0 | 0.108663 | 0.134448 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | hotmess667 | 2019/03/17 | My suicidal wife is making me suicidal. I need my own support group. Yes I think you're dumb for wanting to kill yourself. Yes, I think you should just get over it. But I'll shut my fucking mouth, just keep being supportive while you wallow in self hate for the rest of our lives. And being in these groups helps but als... | 1.997267 | 4.290916 | 2.619503 | 93.838696 | 80.15942 | 5.681988 | 20.00207 | 6.86897 | 0.228911 | 271 | 7 | 57 | 3 | 7 | 84 | 54 | 69 | 0.201 | 0.652 | 0.147 | -0.7378 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 5 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 12 | 16 | 5 | 3 | 3 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 2 | 7 | 13 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 34 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170003 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188286 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19653 | 0.111066 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.209882 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.28498 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188954 | 0.235192 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187715 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141901 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157628 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.221771 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.465063 | 0.482474 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.272429 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125387 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | DegoNick | 2019/03/17 | I've hated myself all my life. I feel so god damn worthless. I'm 19 and since middle school I've had suicidal thoughts. I recently found out that I've been depressed as well. Today I just can't stand myself though. I've been trying to cope through masterbation. Well I sometimes masterbate to hentai. I ended masterbatin... | 1.602308 | 4.189842 | 3.485505 | 85.007184 | 84.779817 | 5.555681 | 23.063514 | 7.010147 | 1.095899 | 436 | 16 | 80 | 6 | 13 | 146 | 68 | 109 | 0.238 | 0.643 | 0.119 | -0.95 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 12 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 15 | 20 | 6 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 8 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 16 | 4 | 13 | 15 | 1 | 10 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 6 | 49 | 18 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185132 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155866 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160783 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165339 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.283166 | 0.133361 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.20468 | 0 | 0.345156 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184303 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102592 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131854 | 0.0912 | 0 | 0.164838 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162998 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184319 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188925 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15442 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184627 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.204192 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119614 | 0.183407 | 0.148199 | 0 | 0 | 0.353893 | 0 | 0 | 0.12674 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110106 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.335687 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Anon881267 | 2019/03/17 | This is it Life just isn't worth the effort. I am alone, even when I am not. | -2.015 | -0.468751 | 0.375556 | 108.4 | 90.666667 | 3.6 | 9 | 3.1291 | -2.458533 | 57 | 0 | 17 | 0 | 2 | 19 | 15 | 18 | 0.22 | 0.78 | 0 | -0.3952 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 13 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.730922 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.466127 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.498477 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | dyadiccounterpoint | 2019/03/17 | Having a lot of ideation I've always been an incurable, albeit cynical, optimist. Even when my parents (and others) died early in my young adulthood, and when I graduated college to face rural destitution with no familial support, and when my best efforts to leave resulted in immense hardship as I traveled the country ... | 5.656815 | 6.250023 | 6.380772 | 77.558919 | 67.243243 | 9.40592 | 30.947233 | 9.42424 | 2.696472 | 1,806 | 67 | 342 | 34 | 28 | 594 | 238 | 444 | 0.16 | 0.692 | 0.148 | -0.792 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 62 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 11 | 20 | 28 | 4 | 4 | 22 | 0 | 36 | 4 | 3 | 6 | 4 | 61 | 59 | 23 | 3 | 8 | 12 | 2 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 21 | 17 | 0 | 3 | 8 | 2 | 1 | 6 | 9 | 14 | 0 | 1 | 18 | 7 | 54 | 14 | 60 | 31 | 12 | 60 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 15 | 32 | 0 | 4 | 23 | 240 | 75 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083522 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103976 | 0.075349 | 0.0784 | 0 | 0 | 0.064074 | 0 | 0 | 0.106443 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083877 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057437 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197759 | 0.083331 | 0.102865 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.225685 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081153 | 0 | 0.097787 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083452 | 0.097356 | 0 | 0.062232 | 0 | 0.079386 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088824 | 0 | 0.095282 | 0.067312 | 0 | 0.103215 | 0.086117 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098454 | 0 | 0.107096 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093294 | 0 | 0.100301 | 0.084404 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185578 | 0.217438 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0935 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.299301 | 0 | 0 | 0.066551 | 0.046032 | 0 | 0.332797 | 0.083383 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080104 | 0 | 0.089155 | 0.125787 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190274 | 0 | 0.075207 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104622 | 0 | 0 | 0.065321 | 0 | 0.098441 | 0 | 0.08907 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060361 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080465 | 0 | 0.149857 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09429 | 0 | 0 | 0.072536 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10793 | 0 | 0 | 0.103063 | 0.106921 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164707 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125193 | 0.120747 | 0 | 0 | 0.274707 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098088 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08502 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137189 | 0 | 0.09602 | 0.200797 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | LawSchoolDropOut2 | 2019/03/17 | My birthday is coming up. I’m going to spend it alone like always. I’m always alone. I don’t have friends anymore, I have no where to go, no one to talk to. My heart hurts. I’m never a priority in anyone’s life. | -1.838389 | 0.0593 | 1.590274 | 95.62 | 99.212766 | 3.536778 | 15.224924 | 5.288315 | -0.880669 | 162 | 4 | 38 | 1 | 7 | 58 | 33 | 47 | 0.234 | 0.652 | 0.114 | -0.5994 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 6 | 10 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 21 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.515417 | 0 | 0 | 0.414086 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.246768 | 0.173985 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.214342 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192242 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.282827 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.29486 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.266373 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175753 | 0.121564 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19191 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168611 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.199997 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Czral | 2019/03/17 | Any other Game of Thrones holdouts? It seems so silly, I won’t care how it ends once I’m dead, but I suppose any reason to delay is as good as any other. | 3.416471 | 2.865309 | 5.269412 | 87.562353 | 71.941176 | 6.8 | 25.823529 | 3.1291 | 0.515047 | 118 | 3 | 27 | 0 | 2 | 41 | 27 | 34 | 0.148 | 0.659 | 0.193 | 0.1846 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 5 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 15 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.654715 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.327202 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.284242 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.269175 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.341772 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.329962 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.292156 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | KungP0wchicken | 2019/03/17 | A hole My emotions are extremely mixed right now. I’ve hit a road bump and now I’m slipping. When you have support from everyone you feel great, when you know your extremely capable you feel great, yet with all of this it’s been the minute things that are beginning to dig deep into me. I feel as though it’s super petty... | 1.61346 | 4.023128 | 3.094464 | 89.16125 | 82.59375 | 6.782143 | 22.424107 | 7.957252 | 1.256654 | 502 | 17 | 103 | 10 | 14 | 164 | 78 | 128 | 0.013 | 0.746 | 0.241 | 0.9841 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 20 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 1 | 9 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 19 | 22 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 18 | 9 | 16 | 20 | 3 | 19 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 72 | 26 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191079 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.249518 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.211959 | 0.199358 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.336477 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.489116 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197164 | 0 | 0 | 0.121907 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10837 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.200202 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189433 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.503438 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147368 | 0 | 0.217937 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | chravel | 2019/03/17 | Am I missing something? 24F. 11 years of suicidal thoughts. Complex PTSD. Exercise daily. Eat well. Socialize. Credit score is awesome. Great grades. Job prospects. Well-traveled. Regarded as “gorgeous”. Friends love me.
I am disappointed when I wake up in the morning. I wake up and I think damn, another day?
I don... | 1.023644 | 3.505399 | 2.997665 | 88.154976 | 86.658046 | 6.206329 | 21.693982 | 7.554174 | 1.056113 | 2,713 | 94 | 555 | 51 | 85 | 908 | 305 | 696 | 0.169 | 0.622 | 0.209 | 0.9803 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 117 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 8 | 25 | 42 | 4 | 2 | 23 | 2 | 65 | 29 | 4 | 1 | 5 | 84 | 117 | 35 | 8 | 9 | 15 | 8 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 5 | 13 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 30 | 24 | 3 | 3 | 23 | 3 | 2 | 10 | 23 | 15 | 3 | 5 | 25 | 7 | 103 | 27 | 78 | 80 | 9 | 56 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 9 | 65 | 20 | 1 | 8 | 27 | 363 | 133 | 7 | 0 | 0.134198 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.047122 | 0 | 0 | 0.038511 | 0.118766 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.039598 | 0 | 0.093205 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.043546 | 0 | 0.069044 | 0 | 0 | 0.191412 | 0 | 0.050086 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126438 | 0 | 0.129542 | 0.115479 | 0.058176 | 0 | 0 | 0.059377 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.036522 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.049558 | 0.115907 | 0 | 0.055477 | 0.065674 | 0.115896 | 0 | 0.063703 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.037404 | 0.102452 | 0.047714 | 0.054114 | 0.050897 | 0 | 0.053387 | 0 | 0.057269 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10352 | 0.144512 | 0 | 0 | 0.087506 | 0 | 0.11835 | 0 | 0.032185 | 0.0475 | 0 | 0.124872 | 0 | 0 | 0.050079 | 0.12057 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120393 | 0 | 0 | 0.037959 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06393 | 0 | 0 | 0.056198 | 0 | 0.125308 | 0 | 0.062246 | 0.046162 | 0.063883 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.240002 | 0.027667 | 0.056759 | 0.100013 | 0 | 0.047556 | 0 | 0 | 0.048146 | 0.460007 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05705 | 0.114142 | 0 | 0 | 0.066326 | 0 | 0.06019 | 0.04163 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110973 | 0.108678 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120519 | 0 | 0 | 0.061326 | 0 | 0.157044 | 0.049448 | 0 | 0 | 0.053535 | 0.063843 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066199 | 0.05693 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072559 | 0 | 0 | 0.060801 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090071 | 0 | 0.057314 | 0 | 0.051555 | 0 | 0.063977 | 0 | 0.046846 | 0 | 0 | 0.057728 | 0.047983 | 0.043598 | 0 | 0 | 0.040084 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123891 | 0.064264 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065753 | 0.075247 | 0.145148 | 0.05564 | 0.179836 | 0.066044 | 0 | 0 | 0.108227 | 0 | 0.076898 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062371 | 0 | 0.13361 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.203673 | 0 | 0.102202 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061414 | 0.123685 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109406 |
suicidewatch | livybreeze | 2019/03/17 | Chronic illness, failing grades, bad anxiety, and a bad breakup. Any advice? I'm 16 and i'm in my Junior year of high school. This past year i've been diagnosed with PANS which causes my panic, anxiety, and OCD to flare up when I catch certain illnesses. I got extremely sick around November which caused my PANS to fl... | 2.515683 | 4.103386 | 3.69726 | 90.068986 | 75.819172 | 7.010228 | 24.715113 | 7.762749 | 1.10887 | 1,745 | 58 | 383 | 25 | 38 | 567 | 200 | 459 | 0.214 | 0.716 | 0.07 | -0.997 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 36 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 7 | 33 | 30 | 1 | 5 | 20 | 0 | 27 | 8 | 1 | 7 | 10 | 77 | 60 | 41 | 2 | 3 | 6 | 1 | 10 | 7 | 1 | 1 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 40 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 10 | 18 | 2 | 1 | 24 | 15 | 43 | 12 | 75 | 32 | 14 | 72 | 0 | 6 | 4 | 0 | 14 | 34 | 1 | 3 | 35 | 247 | 56 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125895 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087612 | 0 | 0.246395 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.22938 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.049533 | 0.268928 | 0.078536 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070327 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073676 | 0 | 0.264697 | 0 | 0.05549 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066411 | 0.110965 | 0.065382 | 0.066855 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171163 | 0.06656 | 0 | 0 | 0.058269 | 0 | 0 | 0.057894 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.227999 | 0.276118 | 0.061851 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.049769 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05403 | 0.05152 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056964 | 0 | 0.057705 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06806 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074329 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068208 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.220297 | 0 | 0.056882 | 0 | 0.054094 | 0 | 0.070319 | 0.054765 | 0 | 0 | 0.042999 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071553 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142062 | 0 | 0.099365 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12362 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.043651 | 0 | 0 | 0.151159 | 0.071528 | 0 | 0.061493 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12179 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129514 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.041267 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061275 | 0 | 0 | 0.260774 | 0.051332 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066123 | 0.053287 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.045595 | 0 | 0.257218 | 0 | 0.221369 | 0 | 0 | 0.070462 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.048434 | 0.051776 | 0.056303 | 0 | 0 | 0.074793 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10228 | 0.112686 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07157 | 0.043735 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115838 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062096 | 0 | 0.093793 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124448 |
suicidewatch | DarnisDarby | 2019/03/17 | I just want to die. I feel like I’m living only so that I dont hurt my friends. I wanna get better. I just don’t know how. | -3.236 | -1.714232 | 0.708333 | 103.3425 | 98.333333 | 3 | 10.833333 | 3.1291 | -2.022667 | 92 | 1 | 26 | 0 | 4 | 34 | 23 | 30 | 0.2 | 0.497 | 0.303 | 0.3151 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 7 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 3 | 2 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 15 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.3077 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.361078 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.40775 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175915 | 0.248548 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.268796 | 0 | 0.18177 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.372447 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191203 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169972 | 0 | 0.307213 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.264603 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.205207 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | dovakooon | 2019/03/17 | Diagnosed with PTSD, having an episode I don’t want to go in detail but i’m currently laying in bed, having a panic attack. I’ve never felt this low my entire life | 0.828824 | 3.200123 | 3.689706 | 83.748676 | 86.058824 | 5.752941 | 17.323529 | 7.168622 | 0.520612 | 130 | 3 | 24 | 2 | 4 | 46 | 30 | 34 | 0.308 | 0.661 | 0.03 | -0.9102 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 6 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 14 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.408549 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.364498 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.34481 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.204095 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.253656 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.276974 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.421348 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.41979 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.211817 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | MrLittleForest898 | 2019/03/17 | I've forgotten what it's like to think normally I think about killing myself or how i wouldn't mind dying, like easily every other day, but I've been like this for years now. I've convinced myself it's normal but I'm going through a moment of realising that most people have barely any or no thoughts like this. It's bee... | 3.502585 | 4.515359 | 4.642389 | 86.552567 | 72.398693 | 7.916578 | 23.713012 | 8.296473 | 1.210208 | 584 | 15 | 124 | 9 | 11 | 192 | 96 | 153 | 0.252 | 0.618 | 0.129 | -0.9787 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 9 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 29 | 24 | 11 | 4 | 7 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 12 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 15 | 5 | 16 | 17 | 2 | 16 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 5 | 12 | 76 | 27 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099055 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136855 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148738 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.232599 | 0 | 0 | 0.09394 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151175 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163851 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192417 | 0 | 0.245454 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073651 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076103 | 0 | 0.165567 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161154 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.284653 | 0.145992 | 0.128623 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194462 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147078 | 0 | 0.116266 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.285437 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100984 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093315 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.303915 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159331 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096772 | 0.373339 | 0 | 0.11564 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085916 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131438 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147927 | 0.148443 | 0 | 0.159259 | 0 | 0.093802 |
suicidewatch | yung_lilly | 2019/03/17 | I am struggling. So, I don’t know if this will get lost or anything but I’ll like to talk about the resent events that are happening. The story is long and very much hard to read. I’ll be talking about 2 people one named Kevin and another name luis (not there real names). At the time the story took place when I was 15 ... | 1.22897 | 2.798787 | 2.622764 | 96.45609 | 79.385274 | 5.666059 | 20.329532 | 6.362678 | -0.093967 | 4,213 | 105 | 1,010 | 33 | 103 | 1,365 | 345 | 1,168 | 0.157 | 0.769 | 0.074 | -0.9988 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 83 | 11 | 1 | 1 | 10 | 62 | 51 | 10 | 12 | 40 | 0 | 91 | 10 | 4 | 8 | 7 | 188 | 198 | 110 | 2 | 23 | 20 | 5 | 7 | 3 | 8 | 6 | 4 | 5 | 5 | 10 | 49 | 90 | 0 | 6 | 23 | 4 | 2 | 28 | 21 | 34 | 3 | 9 | 94 | 16 | 173 | 17 | 139 | 89 | 18 | 150 | 0 | 10 | 4 | 2 | 162 | 52 | 0 | 15 | 68 | 658 | 222 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0.103591 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.031366 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.039048 | 0 | 0.029443 | 0 | 0 | 0.048126 | 0.148416 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.024742 | 0.036256 | 0.029119 | 0 | 0.09924 | 0 | 0 | 0.136044 | 0 | 0.107851 | 0 | 0 | 0.079733 | 0.037134 | 0.031295 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108395 | 0.040471 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121923 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.028252 | 0.039153 | 0 | 0.068461 | 0 | 0.091431 | 0 | 0 | 0.03697 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.029559 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064015 | 0.029813 | 0 | 0.031802 | 0 | 0.066715 | 0 | 0.035783 | 0 | 0.033975 | 0 | 0 | 0.030098 | 0 | 0.038798 | 0.164029 | 0 | 0.12941 | 0 | 0.12066 | 0 | 0.198103 | 0 | 0 | 0.035036 | 0.219034 | 0.075336 | 0.031698 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.047435 | 0.037386 | 0.070988 | 0.035145 | 0 | 0.040829 | 0.03788 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078296 | 0 | 0.136126 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076891 | 0 | 0.024993 | 0.051862 | 0.035465 | 0.062491 | 0.062629 | 0 | 0 | 0.077253 | 0.030083 | 0 | 0.100446 | 0.02362 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.03566 | 0 | 0.035729 | 0 | 0.056488 | 0 | 0.078036 | 0 | 0.054582 | 0 | 0.037632 | 0.066412 | 0 | 0.101858 | 0 | 0 | 0.037684 | 0.191821 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.039291 | 0 | 0 | 0.073594 | 0 | 0.110909 | 0 | 0.0669 | 0 | 0 | 0.035999 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.037636 | 0.070789 | 0.040276 | 0.022668 | 0 | 0 | 0.07598 | 0 | 0.030218 | 0.100977 | 0.028139 | 0.212558 | 0.071623 | 0.028197 | 0.032213 | 0.073828 | 0 | 0 | 0.058541 | 0.039774 | 0.03541 | 0 | 0.029981 | 0.027241 | 0 | 0 | 0.150273 | 0 | 0.056517 | 0.059167 | 0 | 0.036992 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.026605 | 0.426614 | 0.030928 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.047016 | 0.022673 | 0.034765 | 0.056183 | 0.144432 | 0.122009 | 0 | 0.270493 | 0.117941 | 0.072072 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.042564 | 0 | 0 | 0.145981 | 0.166967 | 0.028087 | 0 | 0 | 0.095445 | 0.131208 | 0 | 0 | 0.040691 | 0 | 0 | 0.025761 | 0 | 0 | 0.075409 | 0 | 0 | 0.022787 |
suicidewatch | JessicaMonte148 | 2019/03/17 | Want to end it all I think about killing my self everyday. I research and read things online just to understand the best way to do it. I’m too scared to do it but I wish I had the courage because the pain life has dealt me is too much for me to cope with. I can’t keep going on with this life of suffering anymore. I wan... | 1.675769 | 2.653495 | 3.095385 | 96.024615 | 76.820513 | 6.738462 | 23.25641 | 7.168622 | 0.480395 | 275 | 8 | 69 | 3 | 6 | 90 | 55 | 78 | 0.152 | 0.699 | 0.149 | -0.296 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 6 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 6 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 14 | 15 | 3 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 9 | 2 | 14 | 14 | 3 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 47 | 14 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.220754 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135691 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.233599 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197152 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.253011 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197852 | 0.246267 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.31445 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163632 | 0 | 0.171678 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.236856 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.222654 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.222856 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.232214 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.222755 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147882 | 0.142629 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.231728 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.262584 | 0.176685 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.255972 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | TwstdStephie | 2019/03/17 | Feeling stuck... I’ve struggled with depression and suicidal thoughts since I was 10 years old (30 now). I’ve never gotten diagnosed or even told anyone about it. (This is my first time even posting about it.) I’ve dealt with it on my own my whole life and have managed to get by. This has changed recently and it’s beco... | 0.915975 | 2.581462 | 2.423333 | 97.082778 | 80.666667 | 5.307937 | 20.412698 | 6.037888 | -0.161283 | 1,055 | 28 | 252 | 7 | 27 | 343 | 148 | 294 | 0.149 | 0.765 | 0.086 | -0.9525 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 32 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 23 | 13 | 1 | 4 | 8 | 0 | 24 | 4 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 61 | 52 | 28 | 2 | 5 | 11 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 14 | 24 | 0 | 2 | 11 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 8 | 7 | 0 | 6 | 10 | 4 | 36 | 6 | 34 | 34 | 8 | 42 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 22 | 11 | 1 | 4 | 24 | 172 | 50 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100659 | 0 | 0.108446 | 0.095201 | 0.134243 | 0 | 0.078995 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058517 | 0.106018 | 0 | 0 | 0.10074 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101549 | 0.082691 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076644 | 0 | 0 | 0.061908 | 0.098966 | 0.08268 | 0.097432 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085023 | 0 | 0 | 0.19021 | 0.086832 | 0.080879 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145613 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087737 | 0.081653 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088745 | 0.050153 | 0.092087 | 0.054556 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102188 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110765 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099963 | 0.052756 | 0 | 0 | 0.101644 | 0 | 0 | 0.067804 | 0 | 0 | 0.084765 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086639 | 0 | 0.128154 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102027 | 0 | 0 | 0.074037 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.30219 | 0 | 0.065048 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.426362 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100294 | 0.105373 | 0 | 0 | 0.091936 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094783 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192214 | 0 | 0.076495 | 0.08739 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079408 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160511 | 0 | 0.100354 | 0 | 0.210005 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083903 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127549 | 0.123019 | 0 | 0.228627 | 0.055975 | 0 | 0 | 0.183454 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115469 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076196 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107174 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069885 | 0 | 0 | 0.068192 | 0 | 0 | 0.185452 |
suicidewatch | anon140103 | 2019/03/17 | someone help me i’m a 16 year old freshmen, i have an amazing group of friends that love me and i try and see them as much as possible, and they are my favourite people to see. My family can piss me off sometimes but most of the time they are great. i try and see my friends as much as possible because when i’m alome a... | 0.875963 | 2.404158 | 2.397558 | 97.861276 | 80.287129 | 5.280968 | 22.608361 | 5.822114 | 0.028385 | 716 | 23 | 175 | 4 | 18 | 233 | 101 | 202 | 0.238 | 0.637 | 0.125 | -0.9841 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 12 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 11 | 13 | 4 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 12 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 34 | 31 | 19 | 6 | 6 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 8 | 11 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 29 | 7 | 27 | 29 | 6 | 21 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 14 | 9 | 1 | 2 | 10 | 116 | 37 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.261045 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063748 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106783 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110627 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083495 | 0 | 0.114871 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.325598 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092623 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094594 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098584 | 0 | 0.052876 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09558 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.242384 | 0 | 0.054636 | 0 | 0.118865 | 0 | 0 | 0.115295 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140189 | 0 | 0.104897 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103775 | 0 | 0.347091 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092342 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094383 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15375 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109734 | 0 | 0.070863 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072499 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098857 | 0.235786 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105836 | 0.333332 | 0 | 0.109095 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.265819 | 0.080507 | 0.103428 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067008 | 0 | 0 | 0.060979 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141999 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.308406 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094363 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067343 |
suicidewatch | Zeros_Deathwolf | 2019/03/17 | Go help them. Read the comments from [OP](https://www.reddit.com/r/javahelp/comments/b1xv9k/im_a_full_noob_i_need_help_i_do_not_know_java/) and you'll understand. | 22.439412 | 30.178263 | 8.548529 | 48.913382 | 40.176471 | 10.458824 | 43.794118 | 10.125757 | 6.422671 | 143 | 6 | 11 | 3 | 2 | 30 | 16 | 17 | 0 | 0.787 | 0.213 | 0.4019 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 17 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.336259 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.396583 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.591828 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.615948 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Grenadine808 | 2019/03/17 | Mental health system I’m becoming trapped in the mental health system. It’s taken away my only *very respectable and lucrative* job prospect. I’ve been stuck with months and months of idle time, alone. I’ve started drinking a fifth every single day for the past month (never used to drink) and this has led to me making ... | 3.471393 | 5.245218 | 4.498328 | 84.541344 | 73.672131 | 6.519344 | 26.134426 | 7.168622 | 1.285865 | 974 | 34 | 185 | 10 | 20 | 317 | 151 | 244 | 0.136 | 0.747 | 0.117 | -0.592 | 3 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 26 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 9 | 1 | 0 | 13 | 0 | 16 | 11 | 2 | 3 | 3 | 25 | 30 | 11 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 9 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 4 | 5 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 1 | 18 | 8 | 38 | 16 | 7 | 41 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 19 | 1 | 8 | 15 | 114 | 22 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129604 | 0 | 0.125602 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11394 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.40181 | 0 | 0 | 0.127269 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123833 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134186 | 0 | 0.078211 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.237603 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107412 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102178 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110842 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093695 | 0 | 0.06336 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096993 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.257815 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120452 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.24069 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171318 | 0.059248 | 0 | 0.214173 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103102 | 0 | 0 | 0.080951 | 0 | 0.121835 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.24443 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.290397 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187067 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184467 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115769 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123378 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124485 | 0.100318 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085838 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141431 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082337 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104741 | 0 | 0.100063 | 0 | 0.096261 | 0 | 0 | 0.109039 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176577 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | DannicaK123 | 2019/03/17 | People just say I'm an ugly troll. I want to die. I serve no purpose. No one likes me. I'm an autistic retard. People hate me. I can never do the right thing. I can never say the right thing. My family hates me. They don't even care about me. They used to hit me and scream at me and tell me what a terrible fucking ugly... | 1.51254 | 4.219289 | 2.261886 | 90.19233 | 94.145349 | 4.524892 | 19.161068 | 6.334428 | 0.23876 | 1,443 | 44 | 270 | 17 | 54 | 448 | 156 | 344 | 0.233 | 0.683 | 0.085 | -0.9903 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 100 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 14 | 25 | 5 | 2 | 12 | 2 | 26 | 6 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 56 | 62 | 19 | 3 | 15 | 9 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 11 | 0 | 2 | 12 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 18 | 18 | 0 | 4 | 7 | 14 | 60 | 7 | 27 | 47 | 3 | 20 | 0 | 7 | 2 | 2 | 21 | 8 | 3 | 3 | 13 | 175 | 70 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062209 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076039 | 0.085275 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.208796 | 0.098141 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065608 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058596 | 0.085561 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143321 | 0 | 0.143104 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.224129 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.218504 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062158 | 0 | 0 | 0.046352 | 0 | 0 | 0.201177 | 0.063072 | 0 | 0.066158 | 0 | 0.141938 | 0.050136 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05422 | 0.129758 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056128 | 0 | 0 | 0.069488 | 0.062059 | 0 | 0 | 0.138574 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.047039 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.300512 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077137 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099139 | 0.102858 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058933 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.229336 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148897 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05159 | 0 | 0.108253 | 0.067779 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19022 | 0.106748 | 0.074675 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.291919 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067212 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119865 | 0 | 0.279045 | 0.070261 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072038 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054027 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117345 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061339 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093247 | 0.044968 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066521 | 0 | 0 | 0.047647 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060612 | 0 | 0 | 0.165573 | 0.055705 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.322809 | 0 | 0 | 0.051091 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085275 | 0 |
suicidewatch | TH3_CYN1C | 2019/03/17 | I feel like I'm losing grip I used to be so different in the past; I somehow had hope despite all the shit I have been through. But now, I'm tired. I'm so tired. I didn't sign up for this, and I know that no one does. And I hate to admit that I cant handle it. I just want to be wiped out. If it wont get any better what... | -1.109509 | 0.623839 | 1.496548 | 100.6175 | 88.375 | 4.490476 | 17.997024 | 5.622347 | -0.656054 | 642 | 17 | 168 | 4 | 21 | 220 | 94 | 192 | 0.204 | 0.644 | 0.152 | -0.9407 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 24 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 11 | 12 | 5 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 22 | 4 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 35 | 48 | 13 | 2 | 13 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 26 | 4 | 13 | 38 | 3 | 10 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 4 | 1 | 4 | 7 | 107 | 38 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083096 | 0 | 0 | 0.067912 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139657 | 0 | 0.082181 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088323 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104338 | 0 | 0 | 0.087393 | 0 | 0.585209 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088451 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095426 | 0.089753 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.050495 | 0.071344 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104351 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176622 | 0 | 0 | 0.29579 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066938 | 0 | 0 | 0.099189 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109767 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.048789 | 0 | 0.088183 | 0 | 0 | 0.111724 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095824 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067672 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095333 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094405 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102511 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066346 | 0.06399 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.229562 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086252 | 0 | 0 | 0.471227 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090113 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202837 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | d_e_g_e_n_e_r_a_t_e | 2019/03/17 | I don't know who i am I am so scared about my future. My family | -4.633333 | -3.708866 | 0.5025 | 100.959167 | 115.25 | 4.633333 | 5.333333 | 6.427356 | -1.635142 | 48 | 0 | 14 | 1 | 3 | 19 | 12 | 16 | 0.254 | 0.746 | 0 | -0.5777 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.636577 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.371106 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.676055 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | wdc11263 | 2019/03/17 | How do I reach out to the people around me for help? I am hoping this is the right place to ask this. If not please direct me to where I should, since I don't know where else to go but to the internet.
I am 15 and have been struggling with severe anxiety and depression as well as PTSD. I have had trouble with suicidal... | 2.755913 | 3.092151 | 4.177597 | 91.700682 | 73.593301 | 7.502529 | 24.019481 | 7.44753 | 0.740196 | 742 | 19 | 179 | 8 | 14 | 247 | 106 | 209 | 0.255 | 0.666 | 0.078 | -0.9937 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 16 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 14 | 11 | 2 | 2 | 9 | 0 | 28 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 35 | 45 | 16 | 4 | 5 | 10 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 2 | 29 | 4 | 31 | 33 | 4 | 18 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 15 | 10 | 0 | 5 | 6 | 136 | 37 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087977 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102377 | 0.322535 | 0 | 0 | 0.08843 | 0 | 0.140209 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10171 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.254496 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099051 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19214 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075958 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130717 | 0 | 0.091978 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154167 | 0 | 0 | 0.114223 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129824 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.254466 | 0 | 0.252809 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108818 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16908 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122474 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.255393 | 0 | 0 | 0.159456 | 0 | 0.120153 | 0.126238 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134432 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098211 | 0 | 0.182909 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12992 | 0 | 0.190262 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128736 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120226 | 0 | 0.251588 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184869 | 0 | 0.105879 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073689 | 0 | 0.182598 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094889 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103401 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117197 | 0.081694 | 0 | 0 | 0.074058 |
suicidewatch | dwhicha0 | 2019/03/17 | I don’t know how to handle the pain and monotony of life I have realized and learned so much in my 18 years of existence, but now I hate existence. I wish to die but I just can’t bring myself to do it, yet. I don’t want to work, but I have to in order to survive. I hated working fast food so that is out of the question... | 1.708361 | 3.04429 | 3.93412 | 88.586426 | 77.415301 | 6.410055 | 24.768306 | 7.031649 | 0.890523 | 662 | 23 | 148 | 7 | 15 | 229 | 105 | 183 | 0.185 | 0.706 | 0.109 | -0.9674 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 18 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 9 | 9 | 4 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 22 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 32 | 37 | 17 | 1 | 4 | 11 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 9 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 21 | 3 | 24 | 32 | 4 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 5 | 0 | 7 | 7 | 105 | 25 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.232338 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155909 | 0.120123 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14651 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144463 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09324 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071379 | 0.10085 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1707 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.557495 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094622 | 0 | 0 | 0.140211 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155164 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.199422 | 0.068967 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118545 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09423 | 0 | 0.141822 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103774 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135454 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.300425 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123262 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15814 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142869 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119611 | 0.108678 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095844 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166529 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126927 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162336 | 0 | 0 | 0.205543 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181815 |
suicidewatch | tempdec292018 | 2019/03/17 | Self-Crippling State of Limbo Within the past month, my mood has deteriorated so strongly.
I was hospitalized involuntarily as I shared my thoughts of suicide. They let me out eventually, but I still feel the same.
I don't want to talk to anyone because I feel like my end is so resolute. I am going to kill myself. ... | 2.357918 | 4.226103 | 4.117831 | 85.655846 | 77.046875 | 7.017647 | 24.054534 | 7.928767 | 1.263481 | 1,479 | 49 | 307 | 24 | 34 | 498 | 187 | 384 | 0.197 | 0.665 | 0.138 | -0.9795 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 51 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 5 | 21 | 18 | 4 | 0 | 14 | 0 | 24 | 3 | 2 | 4 | 6 | 55 | 55 | 30 | 7 | 12 | 9 | 0 | 6 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 8 | 0 | 4 | 10 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 9 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 9 | 58 | 12 | 55 | 44 | 13 | 39 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 22 | 17 | 0 | 5 | 21 | 213 | 69 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0.082121 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087157 | 0 | 0.067297 | 0.140045 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058842 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079065 | 0 | 0.070265 | 0.102598 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06719 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087338 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086118 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14907 | 0.086953 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.237997 | 0 | 0.212752 | 0.180357 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130033 | 0 | 0 | 0.080728 | 0.047826 | 0.141168 | 0.067305 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075385 | 0.166168 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112812 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167018 | 0 | 0.186206 | 0 | 0.046248 | 0.068596 | 0 | 0.089106 | 0 | 0.086052 | 0.05944 | 0.123339 | 0 | 0.074309 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112346 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06717 | 0 | 0 | 0.062399 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057024 | 0.128005 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09113 | 0.080334 | 0.291707 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086524 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07661 | 0.175581 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064785 | 0 | 0.094203 | 0 | 0.089696 | 0.13441 | 0.070356 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.27615 | 0.095496 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202918 | 0.073554 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066808 | 0.098141 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092683 | 0 | 0.347451 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096772 | 0 | 0 | 0.183794 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | friedefluff | 2019/03/17 | Decaying Im going through one of the worst depressive episodes ive ever gone through (amd ive been through a ton). I dont have the guts to tell anyone. Not that they would even care if i did say something. The only reason i havent killed myself yet is because i dont have the energy to cary through. As pathetic as it so... | 1.680201 | 3.697295 | 3.296099 | 90.033889 | 79.744681 | 6.305437 | 26.401891 | 7.38713 | 1.361205 | 357 | 15 | 75 | 5 | 9 | 118 | 59 | 94 | 0.21 | 0.689 | 0.102 | -0.8927 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 16 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 9 | 22 | 5 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 4 | 12 | 1 | 11 | 17 | 2 | 6 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 57 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188759 | 0.133085 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116025 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194057 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163933 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.669205 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125713 | 0.172167 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192476 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10817 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.205592 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.210575 | 0 | 0.104602 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128974 | 0.289513 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.195694 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15136 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146527 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166359 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135207 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | BanksAegis | 2019/03/17 | 1 week before I am due for my deployment, my fiance (ex fiance) leaves me. I cant do it. "Hey Scott. I don't love you anymore. He can love me more than you ever did. And the last few days I have been seeing him when you were at work so we cant be together... Bye."
That was that last text she sent me. I woke up to it ... | -1.183745 | 0.791542 | 0.924096 | 102.581373 | 92.222222 | 4.065359 | 14.607843 | 5.528933 | -1.147124 | 933 | 18 | 239 | 6 | 34 | 307 | 149 | 270 | 0.076 | 0.861 | 0.063 | -0.5129 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 58 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 9 | 2 | 0 | 11 | 0 | 26 | 11 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 25 | 44 | 15 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 2 | 10 | 15 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 11 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 13 | 8 | 56 | 7 | 33 | 26 | 4 | 47 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 44 | 17 | 1 | 0 | 19 | 160 | 66 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097243 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09128 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108794 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168706 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093347 | 0 | 0 | 0.097021 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188995 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141496 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107465 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09923 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057314 | 0 | 0.124691 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.217242 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112584 | 0 | 0 | 0.129996 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.25316 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178841 | 0 | 0.116157 | 0.11919 | 0 | 0.077485 | 0 | 0 | 0.193735 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.396036 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12848 | 0 | 0 | 0.080643 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102947 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074336 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076053 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.220559 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174477 | 0 | 0 | 0.349669 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.245602 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191766 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07288 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104824 | 0 | 0.07448 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087995 | 0 | 0 | 0.101694 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105747 | 0 | 0.079863 | 0 | 0 | 0.077928 | 0 | 0 | 0.141287 |
suicidewatch | roguegosling12 | 2019/03/17 | My suicide note, I don't know why I'm posting this. To anyone who actually reads this, I'm going to add a little context. I've been having suicidal thoughts recently, and when I got home from work I decided to just sit down and quickly write a suicide note to see what would happen. Obviously, its way too long for me to... | 4.050821 | 4.915266 | 5.034095 | 84.805344 | 70.981258 | 7.836748 | 27.021588 | 8.036293 | 1.531463 | 5,782 | 187 | 1,200 | 76 | 103 | 1,895 | 448 | 1,494 | 0.14 | 0.791 | 0.07 | -0.9981 | 10 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 16 | 153 | 1 | 27 | 7 | 13 | 42 | 69 | 13 | 5 | 62 | 0 | 147 | 19 | 3 | 22 | 20 | 278 | 273 | 69 | 26 | 73 | 37 | 5 | 12 | 5 | 5 | 38 | 12 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 103 | 43 | 2 | 11 | 64 | 4 | 5 | 23 | 48 | 40 | 1 | 4 | 62 | 18 | 219 | 29 | 185 | 154 | 37 | 164 | 0 | 7 | 4 | 2 | 81 | 63 | 2 | 35 | 77 | 858 | 322 | 15 | 0.024112 | 0.028569 | 0.07059 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.042748 | 0 | 0 | 0.099891 | 0 | 0.07713 | 0.06019 | 0 | 0 | 0.081985 | 0 | 0.018446 | 0 | 0 | 0.101158 | 0 | 0.039684 | 0.064395 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.018541 | 0 | 0.088191 | 0.02663 | 0.041035 | 0.217329 | 0.050608 | 0.021325 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.024584 | 0.074309 | 0.10203 | 0.062311 | 0 | 0.026057 | 0 | 0.096258 | 0 | 0.026486 | 0 | 0 | 0.041535 | 0 | 0.100098 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.042201 | 0.024675 | 0 | 0 | 0.027962 | 0 | 0.020143 | 0 | 0.064068 | 0.049828 | 0 | 0.079629 | 0.043622 | 0.020315 | 0.02304 | 0 | 0 | 0.045461 | 0 | 0.073151 | 0.017226 | 0.092606 | 0 | 0.044076 | 0.02051 | 0.029156 | 0.052875 | 0.055887 | 0.022291 | 0.075585 | 0.046261 | 0.095924 | 0.060672 | 0.019285 | 0 | 0.026562 | 0.023875 | 0.021322 | 0.025668 | 0.043199 | 0.023806 | 0.024746 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.048486 | 0.050952 | 0.024186 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.025167 | 0.047855 | 0.021432 | 0.160059 | 0 | 0.238525 | 0.039309 | 0.054399 | 0.076594 | 0.026198 | 0 | 0.136249 | 0.0589 | 0.048333 | 0.063874 | 0.064015 | 0.020248 | 0.053951 | 0 | 0.081997 | 0 | 0.068446 | 0.06438 | 0 | 0 | 0.026265 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076737 | 0 | 0.02824 | 0.09623 | 0 | 0.017725 | 0 | 0.092984 | 0 | 0.07693 | 0 | 0.023625 | 0.023136 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.032678 | 0.091692 | 0.076971 | 0 | 0 | 0.078333 | 0 | 0.050149 | 0 | 0.025192 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.023093 | 0 | 0 | 0.161504 | 0 | 0.096957 | 0 | 0 | 0.072356 | 0.027445 | 0.030894 | 0.19833 | 0.023808 | 0.103549 | 0.027314 | 0 | 0.022936 | 0.019175 | 0 | 0.073208 | 0.057643 | 0.021951 | 0.050308 | 0.02724 | 0.024751 | 0.019946 | 0 | 0 | 0.024579 | 0.06129 | 0.018563 | 0.023847 | 0 | 0.017067 | 0 | 0.019256 | 0.040318 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.342871 | 0 | 0.045451 | 0 | 0.018129 | 0.058141 | 0.0843 | 0.022199 | 0 | 0 | 0.064076 | 0.07725 | 0 | 0.114854 | 0.05624 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.032741 | 0 | 0.023554 | 0.025102 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.019895 | 0.213329 | 0.057417 | 0 | 0 | 0.02168 | 0.022352 | 0.108787 | 0.02692 | 0.083183 | 0 | 0 | 0.052662 | 0 | 0.024572 | 0.445342 | 0 | 0 | 0.124219 |
suicidewatch | SwissCheeseMan26 | 2019/03/17 | So, I’ve had enough Everyday, it feels like everything goes wrong. I don’t know why. People hate me and I can’t do anything about it. All I try to do, is make people laugh, that’s the type of person I am. One day, I fell in love with the most wonderful person in my life. We kept it hidden for almost a year. Then, I cou... | -0.923158 | 1.188257 | 1.229046 | 97.781284 | 98.674797 | 4.540693 | 15.416774 | 6.339386 | -0.453657 | 451 | 11 | 104 | 6 | 19 | 149 | 81 | 123 | 0.199 | 0.653 | 0.147 | -0.7313 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 22 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 13 | 4 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 8 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 14 | 21 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 16 | 5 | 10 | 18 | 6 | 12 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 4 | 1 | 3 | 6 | 59 | 21 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14658 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120459 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159811 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.298491 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188808 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128099 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151251 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.394675 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14803 | 0.104575 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083192 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131129 | 0.289043 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080447 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159044 | 0 | 0.206787 | 0.071515 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132115 | 0 | 0.097711 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107607 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099192 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202965 | 0.255629 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117656 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099383 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116191 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.264173 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158744 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.32009 | 0 | 0.094265 |
suicidewatch | bigheart98 | 2019/03/17 | I want to attempt suicide, but I don't want to kill myself. I've never considered myself suicidal, but there have been times in my life where I've felt more urges to self-harm and thought about suicide more often--not about killing myself, just suicide in general. Now is one of those times. I haven't been this way for ... | 3.872911 | 4.643605 | 4.820722 | 86.517307 | 71.322738 | 7.798847 | 26.832082 | 7.957252 | 1.436727 | 1,563 | 50 | 333 | 20 | 28 | 510 | 182 | 409 | 0.151 | 0.644 | 0.205 | 0.9484 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 50 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 16 | 23 | 5 | 1 | 13 | 1 | 36 | 4 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 71 | 74 | 27 | 11 | 14 | 12 | 3 | 3 | 1 | 3 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 22 | 18 | 0 | 1 | 18 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 14 | 12 | 0 | 2 | 14 | 3 | 49 | 11 | 47 | 55 | 7 | 50 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 14 | 17 | 0 | 7 | 27 | 214 | 71 | 2 | 0 | 0.073946 | 0.121807 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055323 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05193 | 0 | 0 | 0.042441 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061894 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.04799 | 0 | 0.038045 | 0.068927 | 0.053107 | 0 | 0.130992 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071381 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069999 | 0 | 0.138112 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064772 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063868 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070203 | 0.110554 | 0 | 0 | 0.041221 | 0.056454 | 0.052583 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058835 | 0 | 0.031557 | 0 | 0.059924 | 0.068368 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06843 | 0.144654 | 0 | 0.065214 | 0 | 0.035469 | 0.104694 | 0 | 0 | 0.068752 | 0 | 0.055189 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06594 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066812 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.276191 | 0 | 0.171496 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132247 | 0.030491 | 0 | 0 | 0.055231 | 0 | 0.069821 | 0.068128 | 0 | 0.056328 | 0 | 0.083319 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066208 | 0 | 0.146189 | 0.049815 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.048135 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084582 | 0.047466 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065206 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126988 | 0.067289 | 0 | 0 | 0.06274 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061623 | 0.134011 | 0.070699 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062484 | 0.063163 | 0 | 0 | 0.195323 | 0 | 0 | 0.206506 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14414 | 0 | 0 | 0.044174 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.409601 | 0.070823 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082925 | 0.03999 | 0.061318 | 0.099094 | 0.254744 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.042373 | 0.067885 | 0 | 0.064971 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.331302 | 0.148615 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112631 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135363 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133004 | 0 | 0 | 0.04019 |
suicidewatch | DoomTLk | 2019/03/17 | I feel like smashing my head into a wall 24/7 I am a 13 year old male. I have never gotten a D or under in my life even in subjects I hate. The only joy I still get out of life are video games. I have friends, but when I tell them I’m suicidal they don’t believe me. My dad is always overseas. My family rents a house. I... | -0.124856 | 1.796931 | 1.77035 | 99.014207 | 85.789668 | 4.62354 | 17.831912 | 5.727593 | -0.618965 | 957 | 23 | 235 | 6 | 29 | 315 | 138 | 271 | 0.184 | 0.708 | 0.108 | -0.982 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 29 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 15 | 17 | 2 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 22 | 6 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 33 | 42 | 17 | 2 | 3 | 10 | 5 | 4 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 7 | 8 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 7 | 2 | 1 | 12 | 7 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 6 | 53 | 10 | 26 | 34 | 5 | 26 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 35 | 12 | 0 | 1 | 14 | 155 | 60 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189095 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094875 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.25604 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115851 | 0.116727 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.195735 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11627 | 0 | 0 | 0.100641 | 0.117408 | 0 | 0.225151 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107118 | 0 | 0.114908 | 0.081176 | 0.109101 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175578 | 0 | 0.356196 | 0 | 0 | 0.190612 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.224368 | 0.116615 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131112 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062447 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123457 | 0.116192 | 0.321036 | 0.111026 | 0 | 0.100336 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175274 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119234 | 0 | 0.076997 | 0.086419 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090362 | 0 | 0.114998 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090744 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.248581 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099316 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075489 | 0 | 0.223278 | 0 | 0.066257 | 0 | 0 | 0.108577 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067021 | 0.090193 | 0 | 0 | 0.102165 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073173 |
suicidewatch | dufreak2 | 2019/03/17 | High speed chase next to me today. As the car drove by all I could think was I should’ve jumped in front of it. | 1.0224 | 2.058901 | 1.557 | 106.1635 | 78.6 | 5 | 12.5 | 3.1291 | -1.9242 | 86 | 0 | 24 | 0 | 2 | 26 | 24 | 25 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 13 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.389872 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.515921 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.519318 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.312886 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.462856 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | sam3wy | 2019/03/17 | Does anyone just feel hollow Like i want to kill myself i know that and I've been dealing with that since i was young. But that emptiness is kind of new i guess. Nothing seems to matter anymore pain is kind of an afterthought. Why does anything even exist anyways? | 1.699328 | 4.464639 | 2.059272 | 93.275294 | 88.803922 | 3.698599 | 21.011204 | 5.288315 | 0.002191 | 211 | 7 | 39 | 1 | 7 | 64 | 40 | 51 | 0.215 | 0.717 | 0.068 | -0.8471 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 9 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 5 | 3 | 5 | 7 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 23 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.222067 | 0.156569 | 0 | 0.184266 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.23085 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.391905 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147896 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11322 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.246671 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.247732 | 0.466353 | 0.12306 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109395 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.216262 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.214855 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.238265 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.203847 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185227 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132073 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202051 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Unholydays | 2019/03/17 | I appreciate what you guys did. My boyfriend posted he was going to kill himself after I left from visiting him. I've finally made it back and have obtained what he left behind. I started going through his accounts to see if there was a reason why or if there were any warning signs. To those who sent him help links tha... | 2.88666 | 5.158176 | 3.362587 | 89.783378 | 76.972973 | 5.850193 | 24.084942 | 6.86897 | 0.822543 | 299 | 10 | 59 | 3 | 7 | 93 | 56 | 74 | 0.109 | 0.73 | 0.161 | 0.5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 8 | 15 | 4 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 13 | 3 | 7 | 8 | 1 | 12 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 15 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 41 | 18 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150736 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170442 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.242817 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.251948 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.219478 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148574 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.245233 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.481667 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.20974 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162945 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.212288 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.227903 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176634 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156892 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.408148 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182892 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.200013 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | suicidewhynot12 | 2019/03/17 | No one really cares,all i done is worthless... ... still i awake next day, and continue to suffer to weak to live, to weak to die. | 0.112949 | 2.26935 | 2.313077 | 93.915256 | 87.076923 | 6.54359 | 16.358974 | 7.793538 | 0.293297 | 95 | 2 | 22 | 2 | 3 | 32 | 20 | 26 | 0.448 | 0.552 | 0 | -0.9371 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 13 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.264204 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.425174 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.419236 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.361747 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.43569 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.277604 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.262446 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.327164 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | TransAlly3 | 2019/03/17 | A song by my trans friend Hey,
My trans friend wrote this song about a time he tried to end his life. It tugged my heartstrings to know that he or anyone else could feel this way.
https://open.spotify.com/track/2DnCMRZDD1vMNow4iz9Nrv?si=S1yCypvwRUSnL_eXsdBHaQ
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suicidewatch | CraftyTrilobyte | 2019/03/17 | Purgatory of Sorts I can't bring myself to actually take my own life, but I'm not able to commit to living either. I feel like a zombie.
I am doing just enough for the wheels of my life to keep turning. Well, that's debatable. I'm unemployed and about to run out of money. There is some hope that I will land a job soon... | 1.851239 | 3.591268 | 3.384257 | 90.925677 | 78.115044 | 6.11292 | 19.70708 | 6.961327 | 0.198564 | 846 | 19 | 185 | 9 | 20 | 279 | 124 | 226 | 0.213 | 0.614 | 0.173 | -0.9402 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 28 | 2 | 1 | 5 | 1 | 13 | 14 | 1 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 21 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 48 | 40 | 20 | 3 | 7 | 14 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 16 | 13 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 10 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 28 | 8 | 26 | 34 | 7 | 12 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 5 | 0 | 7 | 5 | 135 | 44 | 4 | 0.117189 | 0 | 0.114359 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093716 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081941 | 0.120074 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130821 | 0 | 0 | 0.119482 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187131 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.241633 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097896 | 0 | 0 | 0.121087 | 0 | 0.077402 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13187 | 0.355525 | 0.167439 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093727 | 0.129201 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078549 | 0 | 0 | 0.116395 | 0 | 0 | 0.250906 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116292 | 0.104163 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165548 | 0.114505 | 0 | 0.413919 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078224 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124553 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112134 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11722 | 0 | 0.075074 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122253 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124908 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128185 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088111 | 0 | 0 | 0.107892 | 0 | 0 | 0.077855 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.254935 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.210733 | 0 | 0.105745 | 0 | 0.134761 | 0 | 0 | 0.085315 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | dmurphy1578 | 2019/03/17 | Empty. I think all done. | -3.224 | -6.468252 | -0.455 | 102.7775 | 173 | 1 | 2.5 | 3.1291 | -3.073 | 18 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 5 | 5 | 0.375 | 0.625 | 0 | -0.2023 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.847563 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.530694 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | quickster208 | 2019/03/17 | Ha, Ha, Ha. It's so funny. It's hilarious, isn't it? Come on, laugh.
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My life has been full of nothing but support and the cushiest of conditions from everybody around me. All my life I've had nothing to complain about, I've lived the ideal life. I have no reason to want out.
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suicidewatch | awinchywinch | 2019/03/17 | A Winch I've been thinking about doing it for so long now. I've kind of tried, but I'm not an idiot and when things start going wrong I just abort. So hanging is a pretty good option since it tends to have few bailout methods. But you need to hang yourself in the woods, you try it on the door knob and bang, right back ... | 3.214904 | 5.451389 | 3.406667 | 90.032778 | 75.785714 | 6.804535 | 24.154195 | 7.793538 | 1.164755 | 799 | 26 | 161 | 12 | 18 | 245 | 123 | 196 | 0.107 | 0.719 | 0.174 | 0.9532 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 30 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 2 | 17 | 10 | 3 | 0 | 19 | 0 | 11 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 25 | 27 | 16 | 1 | 2 | 11 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 11 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 8 | 3 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 10 | 6 | 17 | 21 | 4 | 25 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 8 | 1 | 1 | 9 | 99 | 21 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.213087 | 0.238971 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151224 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167348 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.214708 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.224933 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126833 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09944 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.2055 | 0 | 0.11177 | 0.164954 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.209354 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.204797 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174043 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131276 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145825 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133266 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.20008 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167952 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.325368 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139201 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130656 | 0.126016 | 0.193223 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.267046 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176826 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.215023 | 0.238971 | 0 |
suicidewatch | throwaway98345987342 | 2019/03/17 | Feeling Hopeless I can't see a future where I'd be happy. I've been fantasizing about dying since primary school, I've been self-harming before the age of 10 (not cutting, but stuff like pulling out my hair or scratching myself as punishment). I think, at this point, this misery might just be permanent. I'm so angry at... | 4.024302 | 5.630123 | 4.945651 | 82.581035 | 71.906977 | 7.330543 | 28.791473 | 7.908726 | 1.870795 | 1,041 | 41 | 199 | 14 | 20 | 339 | 146 | 258 | 0.175 | 0.679 | 0.145 | -0.9259 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 34 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 16 | 19 | 6 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 30 | 7 | 1 | 3 | 5 | 40 | 57 | 16 | 1 | 6 | 8 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 10 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 12 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 4 | 33 | 9 | 22 | 39 | 5 | 19 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 4 | 11 | 9 | 4 | 3 | 8 | 132 | 43 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104928 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088174 | 0 | 0.103772 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153742 | 0 | 0.107304 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100683 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130875 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129047 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141849 | 0 | 0.130298 | 0 | 0.166579 | 0.114067 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063761 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097427 | 0.46632 | 0.263534 | 0 | 0.071667 | 0.211538 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134239 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084524 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.269991 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125138 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.207908 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08907 | 0.061607 | 0 | 0 | 0.111597 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084175 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133775 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087424 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119208 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127623 | 0.100488 | 0 | 0.131553 | 0 | 0 | 0.104314 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144358 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080802 | 0.123895 | 0.100112 | 0.073532 | 0.144937 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137164 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148757 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116899 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121559 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17916 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | withtm1 | 2019/03/17 | I don't feel human anymore I've lost everything, friends, a future, hope. All due to the nature of this world treating me unfairly. Isn't this the part where I turn into the evil antagonist and rise to power, or is this really all there is? This feeling devoid of anything resembling human anymore. Karma doesn't exist, ... | 3.578246 | 5.707771 | 4.244304 | 84.937684 | 74.321637 | 6.665263 | 27.189474 | 7.554174 | 1.592308 | 701 | 27 | 131 | 9 | 15 | 223 | 108 | 171 | 0.076 | 0.818 | 0.107 | 0.7508 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 23 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 5 | 7 | 11 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 13 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 31 | 26 | 9 | 1 | 3 | 7 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 11 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 14 | 9 | 17 | 17 | 7 | 21 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 6 | 0 | 4 | 11 | 87 | 25 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.276922 | 0 | 0 | 0.229784 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146518 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120267 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144899 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.247316 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125478 | 0.136571 | 0 | 0 | 0.141188 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107867 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.234206 | 0 | 0.153927 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13867 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.394459 | 0 | 0 | 0.123283 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152407 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141548 | 0 | 0.304165 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10768 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.26793 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15119 | 0 | 0.096792 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089441 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107483 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111497 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185509 | 0 | 0 | 0.221679 | 0.081411 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09479 | 0.151862 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11082 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | throwawayfeelsobad | 2019/03/17 | First day after attempt It’s Sunday morning in Australia. On Friday night I attempted, and I wanted it to work. My close friend and I signed a lease, he didn’t move in. A week later he told me he changed his mind it was a final decision and it was just because it’s easier for him this way. I broke. I tried twice before... | -0.47269 | 1.66304 | 1.669566 | 97.415714 | 90.34715 | 5.081952 | 18.404361 | 6.627428 | -0.079656 | 694 | 20 | 165 | 9 | 24 | 231 | 115 | 193 | 0.106 | 0.794 | 0.099 | -0.6588 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 24 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 13 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 14 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 34 | 35 | 11 | 1 | 5 | 8 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 17 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 4 | 21 | 5 | 25 | 28 | 4 | 26 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 6 | 0 | 4 | 19 | 108 | 38 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121571 | 0.088757 | 0 | 0.123896 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154027 | 0.125423 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093901 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121631 | 0 | 0 | 0.150445 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139128 | 0 | 0.142426 | 0 | 0 | 0.147241 | 0.104018 | 0 | 0.159499 | 0 | 0.123849 | 0 | 0.159644 | 0.224983 | 0 | 0.228212 | 0 | 0 | 0.122124 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13043 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164103 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.286776 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160037 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142267 | 0 | 0 | 0.128853 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.24757 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147016 | 0 | 0 | 0.154751 | 0 | 0.107962 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136637 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186552 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13255 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116277 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159264 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109474 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096731 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084901 | 0 | 0.138013 | 0.139128 | 0 | 0.098854 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.257638 | 0.115572 | 0.116793 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106 | 0.147865 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | throwawayi1313 | 2019/02/21 | My fiance of ten years killed herself Its been a few weeks. I have so much guilt cause it happened when we were drunk and fighting. I probably said some horrible things to her then I left, she probably thought I was leaving forever but I was an angry dumb drunk. I left for an hour, maybe less. I came home to find her d... | 0.976393 | 2.918991 | 2.881616 | 92.487937 | 81.752525 | 6.182751 | 22.275058 | 7.32111 | 0.704238 | 1,457 | 48 | 329 | 21 | 39 | 487 | 181 | 396 | 0.188 | 0.62 | 0.192 | 0.8414 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 48 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 22 | 31 | 6 | 3 | 11 | 0 | 33 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 71 | 80 | 24 | 5 | 10 | 16 | 0 | 5 | 6 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 20 | 22 | 3 | 2 | 10 | 4 | 1 | 6 | 13 | 14 | 0 | 4 | 21 | 8 | 69 | 17 | 41 | 53 | 11 | 37 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 3 | 42 | 12 | 3 | 9 | 24 | 231 | 89 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0.077048 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174256 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060711 | 0.065924 | 0.04813 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090303 | 0 | 0.081108 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.050919 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077345 | 0 | 0 | 0.065956 | 0 | 0.06993 | 0 | 0.088055 | 0.156446 | 0.142837 | 0 | 0.150889 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.199608 | 0.282025 | 0 | 0 | 0.072163 | 0.067159 | 0 | 0 | 0.061 | 0 | 0.082501 | 0 | 0.134615 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173954 | 0 | 0.139638 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158764 | 0 | 0.079198 | 0 | 0.077754 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174703 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083601 | 0.171568 | 0 | 0 | 0.231439 | 0 | 0.139436 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.213778 | 0 | 0 | 0.080047 | 0.07932 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083916 | 0.116081 | 0.058544 | 0.060894 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107003 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06894 | 0 | 0 | 0.074637 | 0 | 0.075616 | 0 | 0.170252 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078976 | 0 | 0.151741 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075104 | 0 | 0.079047 | 0 | 0.062916 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060783 | 0 | 0 | 0.055884 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086363 | 0.089596 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145381 | 0.090291 | 0 | 0.052454 | 0 | 0 | 0.062681 | 0.046039 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053605 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065146 | 0.279416 | 0 | 0.126665 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.304437 | 0 | 0.05748 | 0 | 0 | 0.112174 | 0 | 0 | 0.050844 |
suicidewatch | HnaPJMuladT | 2019/02/21 | What even is the purpose of this all? Here I go again, on my third throwaway (probably), though the first post on here. I'm slightly drunk atm, so apologies for spelling mistakes.
Here is some information about me: I don't actually live a bad life. I currently go to university, and have financial security through a c... | 8.162697 | 6.221184 | 8.544582 | 72.491804 | 63.040921 | 12.474055 | 37.834754 | 11.319584 | 4.101968 | 1,555 | 63 | 308 | 37 | 18 | 519 | 186 | 391 | 0.159 | 0.74 | 0.1 | -0.9784 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 55 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 22 | 20 | 2 | 1 | 14 | 0 | 34 | 7 | 4 | 7 | 3 | 59 | 60 | 26 | 2 | 6 | 12 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 21 | 13 | 1 | 2 | 14 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 17 | 11 | 0 | 5 | 4 | 4 | 48 | 9 | 48 | 50 | 11 | 38 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 13 | 12 | 0 | 10 | 29 | 225 | 69 | 3 | 0.173544 | 0 | 0.084677 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08689 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090988 | 0.06638 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098716 | 0 | 0 | 0.144902 | 0.052895 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055961 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114624 | 0 | 0.073109 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097643 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.221425 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09067 | 0.08324 | 0.098629 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077731 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097955 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077127 | 0.096001 | 0 | 0.190751 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122579 | 0.254355 | 0 | 0.306486 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069261 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066924 | 0 | 0.092283 | 0 | 0 | 0.08326 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117598 | 0.065994 | 0 | 0 | 0.09635 | 0 | 0 | 0.060157 | 0.075766 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097823 | 0.083104 | 0 | 0.467775 | 0.083029 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166765 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08254 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069146 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086835 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097134 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094915 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151685 | 0 | 0.099231 | 0.100749 | 0.057648 | 0.1112 | 0.085253 | 0.137775 | 0.101195 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090333 | 0.104376 | 0.074943 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078298 | 0 | 0.199567 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167635 |
suicidewatch | SexyStalin123 | 2019/02/21 | Loneliness Gotta fucking love being forever alone right. Being judged by my 'friends' for how i look. For my personality and my livelihood. I want to fucking die cause there is no point if i can't find someone who will care about me at all, and if you read my previous post, no one wants a guy who has been molested and ... | 2.5924 | 4.018851 | 4.074333 | 88.1155 | 75.266667 | 7.666667 | 25.833333 | 8.3441 | 1.487533 | 283 | 10 | 63 | 5 | 6 | 94 | 59 | 75 | 0.188 | 0.659 | 0.152 | -0.483 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 7 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 9 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 12 | 17 | 9 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 10 | 4 | 7 | 11 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 7 | 4 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 44 | 13 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.211353 | 0 | 0.163193 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.208061 | 0.209634 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.21179 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180744 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186514 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157662 | 0.377315 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202059 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171366 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184179 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.216484 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138282 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178184 | 0 | 0 | 0.19291 | 0 | 0.195441 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.204123 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.348546 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172906 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.240729 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183482 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Kylar_Stern | 2019/02/21 | I have a bag an an inert gas. I dont want to go. I don't know where else to post but I'm sitting here ready. I dont have anyone to help me, I'm poor, and I'm done I've had 2 posts removed, maybe because I was all set up. I just wanted one person to encourage me either way. I'm hurting. I want to die. Ive come close and... | -2.04122 | -0.57867 | 1.283736 | 102.397692 | 90 | 4.021978 | 15.43956 | 4.655896 | -1.268121 | 407 | 8 | 115 | 1 | 14 | 146 | 72 | 130 | 0.201 | 0.643 | 0.156 | -0.6342 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 20 | 30 | 7 | 2 | 4 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 1 | 15 | 2 | 17 | 23 | 2 | 15 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 64 | 19 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10027 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134061 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087416 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123528 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.297657 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14675 | 0.504197 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119794 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137688 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110792 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081498 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192238 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153514 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15762 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.31308 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144066 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097173 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125213 | 0.149824 | 0.157412 | 0 | 0 | 0.274678 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.230522 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.338328 | 0.113826 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
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