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suicidewatch | PeterTato | 2019/02/13 | sometimes i have really strong urges to kill myself sometimes i’ll have a strong urge to just kill myself and then i’m like “what am i doing?”. but i can’t help it. should i tell someone? a teacher or something? i don’t want to get put in a hospital or something but teachers are mandated reporters. and i don’t want to ... | -0.248509 | 2.046366 | 1.858424 | 93.882545 | 95.266667 | 4.860606 | 21.484848 | 6.574016 | 0.583267 | 283 | 11 | 60 | 4 | 11 | 94 | 46 | 75 | 0.129 | 0.645 | 0.226 | 0.6698 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 7 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 14 | 9 | 2 | 3 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 4 | 5 | 13 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 38 | 11 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.204673 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16774 | 0 | 0.113432 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145525 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.480403 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10607 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.218257 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139087 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.217366 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183958 | 0.334286 | 0.429458 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.37953 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.256116 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Nicholas_Thomas77 | 2019/02/13 | I can’t do this anymore I keep thinking in my head that I should just end it all. I don’t know what to do anymore. I feel hopeless and lost. It feels as though the only way out is through death. | -0.699767 | 1.269923 | 0.936093 | 103.668791 | 89 | 3.44 | 20.227907 | 3.1291 | -0.818708 | 150 | 5 | 38 | 0 | 5 | 48 | 34 | 43 | 0.218 | 0.782 | 0 | -0.8481 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 12 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 5 | 10 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 27 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.580801 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.259353 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.296119 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.300519 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.260273 | 0 | 0 | 0.160927 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.319649 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.222704 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187628 | 0.287696 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.232428 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | throwMeAway4025 | 2019/02/13 | Today is my day, boys and girls. It’s been a long time coming.
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suicidewatch | twinistix | 2019/02/13 | I don’t know where else to ask, but...do calls to the suicide prevention hotline go to the call log? I’m having a pretty hard time rn and I’m nervous to call the suicide hotline because my dad and I share a call log and I don’t want him to know. Usually I am really happy and okay so I don’t need to hear a lecture from ... | 2.131324 | 2.813026 | 4.269867 | 89.187378 | 75.32 | 7.155556 | 25.888889 | 7.38713 | 1.109302 | 441 | 15 | 102 | 5 | 9 | 153 | 73 | 125 | 0.093 | 0.789 | 0.118 | 0.2331 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 13 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 19 | 24 | 11 | 3 | 4 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 11 | 4 | 14 | 22 | 0 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 12 | 6 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 63 | 12 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134875 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087947 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.589273 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120521 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122718 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075376 | 0 | 0.163987 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153581 | 0.12924 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162606 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143295 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158577 | 0 | 0.162746 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127677 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106976 | 0.111272 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150734 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146777 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092425 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163433 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153775 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.473432 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095848 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084126 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097952 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158896 | 0 | 0.085096 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | belcherchild | 2019/02/13 | I’ll be 29 Saturday and the only thing keeping me here is my 1 year old daughter. Although I do think it’s possible she would be better off without me, I’d miss her too much. I can’t leave her. But my God do I want to leave the pain I can’t escape.
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suicidewatch | sloppyandmessy5 | 2019/02/13 | No one cares 6 years ago,I was raped by a friend,he tied me up,I was his cum dumpster for a week,I’m a male, ever since then I can’t socialize,I feel like everything is out to get me.I haven’t sought help,I don’t share anything with anyone,after this I developed a split personality,which says shit like you like him in ... | 4.332222 | 3.775437 | 5.26811 | 88.363284 | 70.019108 | 8.761217 | 25.724699 | 8.167269 | 1.104131 | 568 | 13 | 138 | 7 | 9 | 187 | 99 | 157 | 0.166 | 0.706 | 0.129 | -0.8105 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 24 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 10 | 4 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 16 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 26 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 4 | 16 | 6 | 16 | 16 | 1 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 14 | 6 | 2 | 1 | 9 | 64 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.293927 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136432 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185077 | 0 | 0 | 0.169035 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106921 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149967 | 0 | 0 | 0.149002 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083829 | 0.118441 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12809 | 0.153271 | 0.086619 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170149 | 0 | 0.186858 | 0 | 0.111126 | 0 | 0.166302 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147363 | 0.183423 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.351097 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.242991 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.224688 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114939 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131844 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170182 | 0.137144 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133256 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.263239 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161954 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.195576 | 0 | 0.132987 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1496 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.213528 |
suicidewatch | eriikmlg | 2019/02/13 | My desire to live is fading as I succumb to angst and nihilism. I once developed a way of seeing things that protected me against suicidal thoughts for the longest. But it seems I've finally cracked.
This world is simply not worth living in. All joy is fleeting and all sadness is stagnant.
I of course do not speak for... | 1.81593 | 4.184044 | 2.925475 | 90.952085 | 81.382022 | 5.85465 | 22.052355 | 7.125417 | 0.643525 | 1,749 | 56 | 367 | 23 | 47 | 559 | 181 | 445 | 0.117 | 0.731 | 0.152 | 0.9682 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 53 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 5 | 12 | 25 | 6 | 3 | 21 | 1 | 29 | 9 | 0 | 5 | 6 | 60 | 58 | 21 | 4 | 11 | 9 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 4 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 24 | 8 | 3 | 11 | 12 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 13 | 14 | 0 | 3 | 11 | 10 | 72 | 11 | 54 | 35 | 10 | 42 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 3 | 26 | 19 | 2 | 3 | 20 | 241 | 96 | 1 | 0.21864 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116564 | 0.181926 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072277 | 0 | 0 | 0.059974 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088854 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064456 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116378 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06455 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0655 | 0.213872 | 0 | 0.246031 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079837 | 0 | 0.123983 | 0.088127 | 0 | 0 | 0.067376 | 0.038077 | 0.069913 | 0 | 0.122257 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077582 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.241893 | 0 | 0.040053 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154432 | 0.071211 | 0 | 0.193063 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131554 | 0.206883 | 0.048648 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.214301 | 0 | 0.112419 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.232845 | 0.049385 | 0.055429 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151578 | 0.063636 | 0.304577 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058076 | 0.066347 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07768 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079719 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145255 | 0.32689 | 0 | 0.173576 | 0.127491 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171946 | 0.057849 | 0 | 0.177497 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083808 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.046932 |
suicidewatch | Burnerkid37 | 2019/02/13 | The actually try at school for a week challenge I used to be a straight-A student (top of my school) up until like fifth grade when I started failing math and all my other subjects followed, with that or maybe because of that I lost all of my friends and social status, my parents are constantly belittling me and talk a... | 7.835632 | 5.535914 | 8.212478 | 75.749236 | 63.951768 | 11.586679 | 37.005282 | 10.125757 | 3.467139 | 1,199 | 46 | 247 | 21 | 14 | 399 | 152 | 311 | 0.136 | 0.766 | 0.098 | -0.9655 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 23 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 6 | 17 | 16 | 2 | 0 | 12 | 0 | 24 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 39 | 49 | 20 | 2 | 5 | 11 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 17 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 5 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 34 | 10 | 40 | 37 | 5 | 33 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 15 | 15 | 1 | 6 | 15 | 159 | 51 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 0.167361 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189257 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085042 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065937 | 0 | 0.156819 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07584 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087429 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092666 | 0 | 0.068465 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073857 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087753 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080838 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066251 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097469 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090601 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094871 | 0 | 0.14138 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125681 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072009 | 0 | 0.093607 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057239 | 0 | 0.344594 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09114 | 0.063037 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091197 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182644 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095216 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162125 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164803 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.520708 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070934 | 0 | 0 | 0.087412 | 0.145313 | 0.198046 | 0 | 0 | 0.12139 | 0 | 0.068481 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137847 | 0.1499 | 0 | 0 | 0.099564 | 0.056969 | 0.054946 | 0 | 0.068077 | 0 | 0.098558 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174658 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074061 | 0 | 0 | 0.101156 | 0 | 0.137569 | 0 | 0.0771 | 0 | 0.154754 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060915 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Hkdxc | 2019/02/13 | I am depressed? Hey, just a teenage guy who’s bad at school, no friends, no girlfriend. I don’t know what to do in life. The only thing i’m good at is video games. Tomorrow I have no school, is there anyone here who plays video games? | -0.044626 | 2.175716 | 0.839898 | 103.58665 | 89 | 4.082993 | 18.370748 | 5.461319 | -0.727493 | 180 | 5 | 44 | 1 | 6 | 55 | 37 | 49 | 0.247 | 0.61 | 0.143 | -0.6966 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 4 | 8 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 25 | 7 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.219729 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.262383 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.27066 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.242786 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.263575 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.311154 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172702 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.221962 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.238999 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.636069 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.208772 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | woopwoopwub | 2019/02/13 | I'm bad at titles but I'm wondering Is anyone else too lazy/too worried about it "going wrong" to actually do anything??? I fuckin hate myself and all I do is ruin everything but I'm too much of a baby to actually do anything | 0.224326 | 2.565365 | 4.035213 | 80.084167 | 89.638298 | 6.537589 | 22.72695 | 7.793538 | 1.647712 | 177 | 7 | 34 | 4 | 6 | 66 | 32 | 47 | 0.364 | 0.636 | 0 | -0.9682 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 11 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 5 | 11 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 22 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.49573 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177601 | 0.26025 | 0.418037 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.212077 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.212182 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.228277 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144353 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.25077 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186717 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.275449 | 0 | 0.257947 | 0 | 0 | 0.277706 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Truth_be_told___ | 2019/02/13 | I honestly don't even care about the steps in between any more I've gotten to the point I just don't care. I just want to be gone. I don't care about cleaning stuff, saying good bye, or writing letters anymore. There's no point.
There's not a single person in my life I can seem to talk to. The two people I want to /w... | 2.228878 | 4.149216 | 4.053611 | 85.729423 | 77.611111 | 6.652991 | 22.882479 | 7.610547 | 0.971784 | 554 | 17 | 115 | 8 | 13 | 187 | 94 | 144 | 0.184 | 0.749 | 0.067 | -0.9181 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 19 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 11 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 11 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 22 | 26 | 6 | 1 | 6 | 7 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 3 | 17 | 7 | 16 | 19 | 4 | 18 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 9 | 0 | 3 | 8 | 78 | 20 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.298238 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103915 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151545 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.467395 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098549 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158591 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100928 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077264 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079836 | 0 | 0 | 0.128168 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162667 | 0.136886 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107933 | 0.074654 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144591 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112332 | 0 | 0.117855 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103547 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105938 | 0.266853 | 0 | 0 | 0.288906 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130497 | 0 | 0.121519 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139111 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174929 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122821 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097913 | 0 | 0 | 0.089104 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149271 | 0 | 0 | 0.131977 | 0 | 0 | 0.270391 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155725 | 0.217101 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | justtrash1800 | 2019/02/13 | 10+ years of feeling like this on and off Some days it’s really bad like today... I already tried reaching out but the person didn’t have the best response. Pretty sure I lost them as a friend bc of this. I’m tired | -0.394928 | 1.814224 | 1.508696 | 97.901159 | 91.608696 | 3.936232 | 16.362319 | 5.461319 | -0.745959 | 168 | 4 | 38 | 1 | 6 | 55 | 40 | 46 | 0.152 | 0.461 | 0.387 | 0.9232 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 5 | 6 | 3 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 21 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.304512 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.230403 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.289587 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177962 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139526 | 0.197135 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.213195 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.269626 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.301227 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.240945 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.280735 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176778 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.260075 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.317158 | 0.261564 | 0 | 0 | 0.187349 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1777 |
suicidewatch | G3t5chw1fty | 2019/02/13 | I wish that the suicidal urge would stay Just this afternoon, I had the strongest suicidal urge I've had for several months. I was so ready to literally jump off a cliff. Now I'm ok again. But fuck, the constant cycle of intense emotions is so exhausting! I don't see the suicidal urges ever going away. So I wish t... | 3.337316 | 4.802204 | 4.586429 | 85.037738 | 73.415584 | 8.769697 | 27.119048 | 9.299571 | 2.207227 | 300 | 11 | 63 | 7 | 6 | 99 | 54 | 77 | 0.255 | 0.587 | 0.158 | -0.9229 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 8 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 16 | 4 | 3 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 7 | 1 | 8 | 10 | 1 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 7 | 41 | 10 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154041 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177177 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167783 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184428 | 0 | 0.16941 | 0 | 0 | 0.148307 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.303148 | 0.08566 | 0 | 0.09318 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1627 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145095 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130868 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130651 | 0 | 0 | 0.185223 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.349509 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.538021 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.377081 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.232938 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | d_k123456 | 2019/02/13 | That's it Just dropped college. March 9th--my 20th birthday. | 1.872727 | 4.477222 | 0.500455 | 101.270682 | 99.909091 | 2.2 | 32.772727 | 3.1291 | 0.906418 | 48 | 3 | 9 | 0 | 2 | 13 | 11 | 11 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | RoastedOrangeJuice | 2019/02/13 | i hate my life so fucking much it physically hurts ive hardly ever felt happy in my life, even when i was young. i cant hold a conversation for more than 10 seconds. im the ugliest man alive, and i have a hideous personality. im so fucking stupid, im slow at thinking, i can barely keep coherent thoughts anymore.
i tr... | 0.293847 | 2.632519 | 2.755533 | 89.492057 | 89 | 5.338181 | 21.865631 | 6.86897 | 0.749409 | 840 | 31 | 174 | 12 | 28 | 288 | 134 | 223 | 0.231 | 0.629 | 0.14 | -0.9801 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 30 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 15 | 22 | 8 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 20 | 10 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 28 | 38 | 13 | 2 | 4 | 4 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 16 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 3 | 33 | 6 | 16 | 30 | 7 | 21 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 5 | 9 | 11 | 6 | 1 | 8 | 109 | 38 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065041 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.232562 | 0 | 0 | 0.064325 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130532 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082031 | 0.069132 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091611 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065298 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154885 | 0.070706 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073689 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075052 | 0 | 0 | 0.132977 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.36132 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08321 | 0.140044 | 0.077174 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052394 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167358 | 0 | 0.591035 | 0 | 0 | 0.069478 | 0 | 0 | 0.085917 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.220846 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052177 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086826 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091548 | 0 | 0 | 0.172385 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075003 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059449 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068252 | 0.081668 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074862 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100151 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133508 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080237 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066231 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058772 | 0 | 0.068321 | 0 | 0.089391 | 0 | 0 | 0.100172 | 0.076799 | 0.062056 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.265351 | 0 | 0 | 0.081374 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.046105 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056906 | 0 | 0 | 0.055527 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | no_nost | 2019/02/13 | I feel like I'm inside of a box that just gets smaller and smaller. I want out and I feel like suicide is the only way. Emotional abuse, sexual abuse, rape, stress, bullying, physical abuse. It weighs on my mind constantly, the thought of my own life itself makes me want to die. I want help and I just want to get bette... | 0.871942 | 3.038992 | 2.900414 | 90.92667 | 83.654088 | 6.2569 | 20.673696 | 7.510576 | 0.70051 | 595 | 18 | 130 | 10 | 17 | 200 | 87 | 159 | 0.16 | 0.609 | 0.232 | 0.8333 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 21 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 10 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 7 | 6 | 2 | 4 | 2 | 36 | 28 | 9 | 2 | 6 | 10 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 8 | 2 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 17 | 7 | 14 | 26 | 5 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 73 | 25 | 1 | 0 | 0.440862 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.20413 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109693 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138457 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134031 | 0 | 0.099027 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128722 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139516 | 0.109853 | 0.128155 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111469 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188138 | 0.177212 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095824 | 0 | 0.1944 | 0 | 0 | 0.208059 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083134 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068163 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17521 | 0.121188 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16558 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125234 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09433 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085986 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126182 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.255045 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142075 | 0 | 0 | 0.135667 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09969 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098465 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.252622 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.365777 | 0.098448 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090294 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | SammayBerger | 2019/02/13 | How do I know if I'm bad off enough for it to be a problem? I am currently in a place in my life where I honestly can't see anyway out. I legitimately don't have any friends, I live by myself and I've always struggled with depression/suicidal thoughts. I'm worried because I know depression is something that has been ap... | 3.266418 | 4.457486 | 4.958388 | 83.380269 | 73.179104 | 8.046567 | 28.325373 | 8.548687 | 2.00201 | 1,024 | 40 | 213 | 18 | 20 | 348 | 133 | 268 | 0.213 | 0.684 | 0.102 | -0.9849 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 19 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 14 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 28 | 5 | 1 | 5 | 1 | 50 | 55 | 14 | 4 | 8 | 10 | 2 | 7 | 4 | 1 | 4 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 19 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 17 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 9 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 9 | 34 | 6 | 23 | 41 | 5 | 28 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 17 | 0 | 7 | 13 | 141 | 53 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086832 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092157 | 0 | 0 | 0.074039 | 0 | 0 | 0.06051 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088245 | 0.124434 | 0 | 0.073223 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074295 | 0.162725 | 0.098272 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10177 | 0 | 0 | 0.09413 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071044 | 0 | 0.097741 | 0 | 0 | 0.076639 | 0 | 0.092348 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183881 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07997 | 0 | 0.083883 | 0 | 0.269947 | 0.254271 | 0.085435 | 0.097474 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068746 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059642 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.244507 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188549 | 0.173885 | 0 | 0.078571 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059395 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089845 | 0.208426 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060295 | 0.067674 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096357 | 0 | 0.061688 | 0 | 0.278897 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085142 | 0 | 0 | 0.099678 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057003 | 0.182973 | 0.087857 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084641 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070906 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068502 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074392 | 0 | 0.093022 | 0 | 0.389321 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059115 | 0.057015 | 0 | 0.070641 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076851 | 0 | 0 | 0.052483 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080291 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.271092 | 0 | 0.126418 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Mixed_twix | 2019/02/13 | I think I'm ready to kill myself. This is not a joke, i dont even know why im posting this here, i dont have any friends i can tell. ive been super depressed for the past four years and about one year ago i started to consider suicide. i never told anyone about my depression until about a month ago i had a mental break... | 2.548882 | 3.438365 | 4.058293 | 90.308455 | 74.54878 | 7.173984 | 24.642276 | 7.492282 | 0.927872 | 1,194 | 36 | 274 | 14 | 24 | 398 | 159 | 328 | 0.179 | 0.733 | 0.088 | -0.9761 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 28 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 25 | 22 | 7 | 2 | 18 | 0 | 27 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 44 | 50 | 16 | 3 | 1 | 11 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 19 | 14 | 2 | 3 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 12 | 0 | 4 | 8 | 1 | 37 | 10 | 44 | 41 | 7 | 39 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 13 | 17 | 0 | 6 | 20 | 189 | 56 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124366 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095408 | 0 | 0.053664 | 0 | 0.139139 | 0.04905 | 0 | 0.115454 | 0.062448 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085525 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062041 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.045241 | 0 | 0.181259 | 0 | 0.072804 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.493288 | 0 | 0 | 0.07178 | 0 | 0 | 0.062132 | 0 | 0 | 0.185332 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063046 | 0 | 0.132261 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054197 | 0 | 0.109951 | 0 | 0.039868 | 0 | 0.056105 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.207774 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.45464 | 0.073218 | 0.069612 | 0.124704 | 0.07761 | 0 | 0.077105 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102814 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119277 | 0.063313 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141388 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055993 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054104 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068732 | 0.06731 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09507 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077893 | 0 | 0.066966 | 0.048633 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132628 | 0 | 0.134368 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.04494 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059907 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0559 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.049652 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080356 | 0 | 0 | 0.076732 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056383 | 0.183941 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089898 | 0 | 0.055691 | 0.040905 | 0 | 0 | 0.134062 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060587 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126598 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102139 | 0.07124 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135522 |
suicidewatch | IMAMISHAMIGO | 2019/02/13 | I don’t want to die, but I’ve realized that I have to I have something to live for. My soon to be brought home puppy. I know it’ll be hard to leave her because I haven’t even met her yet but I already love her. But I also know that what lies ahead of me outweighs any hope that I have. I won’t last. It’s a fate that I ... | -1.383842 | 0.512178 | 1.353155 | 99.823742 | 92.004926 | 4.62731 | 15.509163 | 6.152001 | -0.726794 | 689 | 15 | 176 | 7 | 25 | 237 | 108 | 203 | 0.176 | 0.744 | 0.08 | -0.955 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 22 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 7 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 27 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 40 | 48 | 16 | 1 | 10 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 15 | 7 | 0 | 3 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 10 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 2 | 34 | 3 | 17 | 29 | 2 | 15 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 2 | 1 | 4 | 9 | 118 | 49 | 0 | 0.122288 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134948 | 0.097794 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16632 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074546 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.195274 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126916 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08077 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069499 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109546 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122665 | 0.12146 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108695 | 0 | 0 | 0.403238 | 0.099681 | 0 | 0.258971 | 0 | 0 | 0.086376 | 0 | 0 | 0.539913 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11037 | 0 | 0.081628 | 0 | 0.122855 | 0.133208 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097609 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119816 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082866 | 0.186011 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116738 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078341 | 0.125733 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116324 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094143 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081243 | 0 | 0 | 0.097083 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133014 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144257 | 0.097067 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140625 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08687 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | iiiiiiidkidkidk | 2019/02/13 | I think my internet friend killed himself I met a guy through twitter 2ish years ago and we’ve come to be pretty good friends and talk almost every day. He has really bad depression and can’t get very much treatment for it, and I’ve been doing all I can but it’s tough since I live across the country.
Yesterday he messa... | 2.214799 | 3.873827 | 3.344877 | 91.969027 | 76.829457 | 6.551374 | 21.804792 | 7.348243 | 0.580529 | 487 | 13 | 107 | 6 | 11 | 157 | 85 | 129 | 0.077 | 0.828 | 0.095 | 0.2992 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 22 | 21 | 12 | 1 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 12 | 3 | 10 | 15 | 2 | 11 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 18 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 7 | 60 | 15 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161785 | 0 | 0.182758 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150191 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152389 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186364 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157217 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117704 | 0 | 0.157196 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165091 | 0.153773 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.282015 | 0 | 0.190709 | 0 | 0 | 0.153081 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180714 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.201921 | 0 | 0.200606 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.322321 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134166 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185679 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.233842 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.30195 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145753 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.29339 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116946 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123913 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15059 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13287 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117531 |
suicidewatch | Modern-witch | 2019/02/13 | Haven’t seen my therapist in a month because of logistics-I’m getting bad Not much to add, but I can’t drive and my mode of transportation has fallen through, therefore I have no way of getting to my appointments anymore. I’ve been with my therapist for 5 years, now I don’t know how I gonna get on. I’m trying to work t... | 7.430244 | 5.988496 | 7.370854 | 78.729939 | 64.121951 | 11.614634 | 38.792683 | 10.686353 | 3.905161 | 324 | 15 | 67 | 7 | 4 | 104 | 58 | 82 | 0.247 | 0.753 | 0 | -0.9638 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 12 | 16 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 12 | 13 | 1 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 39 | 10 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.215317 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181279 | 0.132349 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186998 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.453728 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119319 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173297 | 0 | 0.159602 | 0.160986 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.504168 | 0.14424 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147405 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172333 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15806 | 0 | 0.442511 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139813 |
suicidewatch | Super_Whack | 2019/02/13 | I find it hard to imagine a scenario where I don't end my life. I have no hope. It feels like all of my problems are exacerbated by time and I'm not progressing towards anything positive.
I'm very very lonely but being around people skeeves me out and it feels like the older I get the fewer chances I'll have to squas... | 2.618837 | 3.997266 | 4.443981 | 85.687952 | 75.105611 | 7.162211 | 23.186056 | 7.793538 | 0.983392 | 1,141 | 32 | 245 | 16 | 24 | 388 | 165 | 303 | 0.162 | 0.709 | 0.129 | -0.908 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 24 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 4 | 9 | 15 | 3 | 0 | 19 | 1 | 22 | 6 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 47 | 58 | 19 | 0 | 9 | 9 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 18 | 11 | 1 | 0 | 11 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 10 | 7 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 8 | 29 | 8 | 34 | 49 | 7 | 33 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 10 | 16 | 2 | 7 | 13 | 154 | 47 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167236 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071106 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073112 | 0 | 0.086045 | 0.186164 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109731 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083484 | 0 | 0 | 0.067434 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092611 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088098 | 0 | 0.093973 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.264348 | 0.149398 | 0 | 0 | 0.095567 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080784 | 0.193331 | 0.273146 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093667 | 0.103233 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070085 | 0 | 0 | 0.31156 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.327406 | 0.207523 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172393 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113607 | 0 | 0.221565 | 0.102167 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087805 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.209387 | 0 | 0 | 0.113898 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08346 | 0 | 0.076865 | 0.077531 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141707 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099816 | 0.07249 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.200103 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083152 | 0 | 0.105822 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074009 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078617 | 0.084043 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121404 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060971 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172549 | 0.061673 | 0.082996 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076122 | 0 | 0.106557 | 0.074278 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | chelsea5465 | 2019/02/13 | Benadryl Will 80 Benadryl kill me??? I took 15 before I just want to know when I took 15 last time I was having trouble breathing and I saw the spiders as well as experienced delirium. I just can’t stand living anymore as well as due to what’s been happening lately if you saw my previous post then you’ll know what I... | 3.433465 | 4.99593 | 4.721053 | 83.775702 | 73.342105 | 7.17193 | 29.77193 | 7.793538 | 1.984314 | 299 | 13 | 58 | 4 | 6 | 99 | 53 | 76 | 0.108 | 0.817 | 0.075 | -0.6641 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 17 | 8 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 6 | 3 | 12 | 2 | 8 | 9 | 0 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 38 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.420445 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180375 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12047 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187449 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.234519 | 0 | 0.232992 | 0.172788 | 0.239117 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187178 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.203396 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.203014 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170378 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123604 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.471025 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125028 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.381182 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | temple_00 | 2019/02/13 | Is there any pills you can OD on without massive liver damage in case of survival? Because suicide from pills often fail, I was wondering if theres any pills (over the counter) that wont give you massive liver damage and long term damage in case you survive an OD. Basically, most things seem to give you the side effect... | 8.020824 | 7.236888 | 8.321689 | 70.259051 | 62.576642 | 10.164338 | 34.169969 | 9.236283 | 3.009971 | 572 | 20 | 101 | 8 | 7 | 189 | 88 | 137 | 0.08 | 0.814 | 0.107 | 0.4238 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 6 | 6 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 8 | 9 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 19 | 16 | 8 | 4 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 9 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 9 | 1 | 18 | 11 | 4 | 13 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 6 | 0 | 6 | 7 | 61 | 13 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.28579 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128093 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183886 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186112 | 0 | 0 | 0.138788 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178736 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109784 | 0.40315 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.231668 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148421 | 0 | 0 | 0.185548 | 0.185958 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.213038 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159813 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145677 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191294 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.229847 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139601 | 0 | 0.206451 | 0.333638 | 0.122528 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202557 | 0.227876 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | SocialDistortionYup | 2019/02/13 | I can think back to happier times. And if I wasnt a compulsive person with addictive personality I would still be happy. I literally make myself depressed by making Impulsive decisions. I'm sick of being this way and going thru months long mental breakdowns.
I'm gone before I hit 30 (27 now) of nothing changes. This ... | 3.626458 | 6.047265 | 5.5325 | 74.395833 | 75.25 | 8.641667 | 27.854167 | 9.299571 | 2.903779 | 268 | 11 | 46 | 7 | 6 | 92 | 52 | 64 | 0.134 | 0.759 | 0.108 | -0.1779 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 9 | 14 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 7 | 8 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 29 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.248777 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175475 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194185 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.24141 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.196552 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129694 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.242928 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.201509 | 0.201954 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.304657 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.229976 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182151 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.218968 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.398519 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182244 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146224 | 0 | 0 | 0.133068 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.362276 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16211 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | jcoleiscorny | 2019/02/13 | it’ll be over soon. I’ve officially wasted all potential I may have once had, if any. No dream or passion has ever been as strong as the one I have for ending my own life. Since elementary I have planned this, I have promised myself that at 21 it would be over. There’s nothing left for me to live for, once I pay my fat... | 2.938017 | 3.424377 | 4.411678 | 89.640777 | 73.271845 | 7.633287 | 24.423024 | 7.709487 | 0.911928 | 744 | 20 | 175 | 9 | 14 | 249 | 118 | 206 | 0.075 | 0.79 | 0.135 | 0.8462 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 18 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 12 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 28 | 4 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 31 | 39 | 8 | 0 | 10 | 7 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 3 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 1 | 24 | 5 | 31 | 23 | 4 | 33 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 12 | 0 | 3 | 17 | 124 | 33 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130957 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100464 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113598 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12726 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151183 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130848 | 0 | 0 | 0.097577 | 0.133634 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13927 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161835 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160513 | 0.151068 | 0.104349 | 0.072175 | 0 | 0.130452 | 0.13074 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139789 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.283509 | 0 | 0 | 0.471996 | 0.100108 | 0.112358 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141029 | 0.10242 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141488 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.244414 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111078 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086145 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.435687 | 0.117264 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.209892 | 0 | 0 | 0.095136 |
suicidewatch | Sunflowermaus | 2019/02/13 | Epilepsy,Pregnancy, lost job,lost license,stuck in my house. I recently discovered i am pregnant again for the second time. I had a surgical abortion 5 months ago,and am waiting for a medical abortion this time around. I currently canT work because of new onset seizures,i lost my license, and my partner reminds me of t... | 1.007573 | 3.147583 | 2.900743 | 91.293106 | 82.891213 | 5.162912 | 22.949121 | 6.360717 | 0.549164 | 896 | 32 | 187 | 8 | 25 | 299 | 139 | 239 | 0.18 | 0.753 | 0.067 | -0.9815 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 35 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 16 | 9 | 3 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 22 | 3 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 25 | 42 | 6 | 1 | 5 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 7 | 8 | 1 | 2 | 5 | 1 | 36 | 1 | 26 | 34 | 4 | 29 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 16 | 121 | 42 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085467 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106397 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095619 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08583 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080503 | 0.176322 | 0 | 0.082043 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100064 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085396 | 0.099623 | 0 | 0.127363 | 0.087214 | 0.081234 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090892 | 0 | 0.048751 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.050373 | 0 | 0.219181 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08526 | 0 | 0 | 0.095191 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064625 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111251 | 0.103215 | 0 | 0.312437 | 0 | 0.191356 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108761 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068101 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.315748 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064358 | 0.195501 | 0 | 0.105025 | 0 | 0.097129 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.225842 | 0.076958 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074362 | 0.093119 | 0 | 0.09048 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09204 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.423342 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099131 | 0.095199 | 0 | 0 | 0.082339 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084272 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064054 | 0.123559 | 0 | 0 | 0.112442 | 0.110816 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.284343 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086689 | 0 | 0.087 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070192 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | goldieforest | 2019/02/13 | Planned Happiness I'm new to this sub, but have struggled with depression/those thoughts for most of my life. I have no real reason to be so unhappy to be quite honest. On the surface, it appears I should be "thriving"--a 30 year old woman with no mortgage or car payment and a decent brain--why complain? I wish I could... | 4.657267 | 5.372525 | 5.779034 | 80.555958 | 69.505837 | 9.004257 | 30.292744 | 9.168548 | 2.506678 | 1,011 | 39 | 200 | 19 | 17 | 337 | 161 | 257 | 0.171 | 0.712 | 0.117 | -0.9447 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 37 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 12 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 14 | 0 | 19 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 50 | 37 | 19 | 3 | 6 | 8 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 7 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 4 | 32 | 4 | 29 | 19 | 4 | 32 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 12 | 0 | 4 | 17 | 132 | 37 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120891 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122194 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115795 | 0 | 0.229535 | 0 | 0 | 0.087395 | 0 | 0 | 0.070593 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.340809 | 0.114363 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09695 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055347 | 0 | 0.105099 | 0.119909 | 0.20009 | 0.093107 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.233046 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126303 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077315 | 0 | 0 | 0.096656 | 0.096869 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073066 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110311 | 0 | 0 | 0.128199 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105718 | 0 | 0 | 0.107248 | 0.10503 | 0 | 0.114861 | 0 | 0 | 0.08325 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103476 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122621 | 0.23285 | 0 | 0.12459 | 0 | 0.225088 | 0.108079 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114432 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095673 | 0.100777 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.210414 | 0 | 0.173799 | 0.063827 | 0 | 0 | 0.104594 | 0 | 0.148633 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090317 | 0.064563 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202942 | 0.296314 | 0 | 0.125874 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119678 | 0 | 0.140978 |
suicidewatch | mirianajadesky | 2019/02/13 | I want to die all the time, its just the fear that stops it. It's getting worse and I dont have access to therapy I don't have any family except my partner and my mental health is ruining our relationship. I don't think it will ever get better. My partner is so stuck on me that they are willing to pour unlimited energy... | 2.625 | 4.273018 | 4.43 | 84.675 | 75.666667 | 7.8 | 23.666667 | 8.548687 | 1.479817 | 460 | 14 | 96 | 9 | 10 | 156 | 73 | 120 | 0.168 | 0.734 | 0.098 | -0.8644 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 8 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 9 | 8 | 2 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 13 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 22 | 24 | 8 | 1 | 3 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 8 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 21 | 3 | 12 | 20 | 1 | 11 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 14 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 72 | 29 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129128 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115752 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.335875 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19707 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.222543 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171762 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179006 | 0.213673 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198414 | 0.182155 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167914 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.201839 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12675 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191359 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.203865 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134401 | 0 | 0 | 0.317504 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.21715 | 0 | 0.126151 | 0.12167 | 0 | 0 | 0.110723 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.257839 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.335997 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193509 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | tea_hound | 2019/02/13 | My ex boyfriend got away with it So, I’m 17f now, but from middle school through most of high school I had this boyfriend. Things were ok at first, but he quickly began consuming most of my life. He insisted that we could never tell our parents about our relationship (instant red flag, but I was 13 and didn’t know any ... | 5.365597 | 5.899959 | 5.757132 | 81.982666 | 67.865096 | 8.773317 | 29.642072 | 8.744185 | 2.146315 | 3,744 | 129 | 742 | 57 | 59 | 1,201 | 365 | 934 | 0.191 | 0.738 | 0.07 | -0.9992 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 102 | 6 | 1 | 9 | 3 | 42 | 40 | 13 | 5 | 44 | 2 | 86 | 17 | 9 | 9 | 6 | 136 | 149 | 67 | 3 | 22 | 27 | 10 | 11 | 2 | 4 | 10 | 3 | 4 | 2 | 1 | 40 | 48 | 2 | 5 | 13 | 1 | 1 | 10 | 27 | 28 | 0 | 3 | 58 | 17 | 119 | 12 | 102 | 61 | 20 | 97 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 4 | 110 | 33 | 8 | 17 | 53 | 504 | 159 | 23 | 0 | 0.098589 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.03688 | 0 | 0.041661 | 0 | 0.045911 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056585 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082521 | 0.029091 | 0 | 0.136947 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078177 | 0 | 0 | 0.126808 | 0.045949 | 0.070804 | 0 | 0 | 0.073591 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.046444 | 0.084965 | 0 | 0 | 0.042739 | 0 | 0 | 0.130864 | 0.044959 | 0 | 0.199306 | 0.138103 | 0 | 0.134157 | 0.042892 | 0.035834 | 0 | 0 | 0.043468 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.042576 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085977 | 0 | 0.109917 | 0.037633 | 0.070107 | 0.039755 | 0.074783 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126218 | 0.029722 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.035389 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.038463 | 0.108683 | 0.039911 | 0.070934 | 0 | 0.133099 | 0 | 0.045832 | 0 | 0.183953 | 0.088577 | 0.037269 | 0 | 0.042698 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055773 | 0.087914 | 0.041733 | 0.041322 | 0.081944 | 0 | 0.044538 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.041286 | 0 | 0.046029 | 0 | 0.022865 | 0.033913 | 0 | 0.044053 | 0 | 0.042543 | 0.088159 | 0.040652 | 0 | 0 | 0.036819 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.03537 | 0 | 0 | 0.027771 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.044136 | 0 | 0 | 0.099624 | 0 | 0.122336 | 0.030849 | 0.096263 | 0 | 0.044247 | 0 | 0.040763 | 0.119761 | 0 | 0 | 0.044307 | 0.056384 | 0.031642 | 0 | 0 | 0.230983 | 0.045053 | 0.039716 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.039845 | 0 | 0.044856 | 0 | 0 | 0.041824 | 0 | 0 | 0.041616 | 0 | 0.053306 | 0.042776 | 0 | 0.089335 | 0 | 0 | 0.07915 | 0.066171 | 0.041653 | 0.547375 | 0.033153 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128119 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.032029 | 0 | 0 | 0.147239 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.047627 | 0.091017 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062563 | 0.13376 | 0.145456 | 0.038304 | 0 | 0 | 0.08292 | 0 | 0.040876 | 0.033029 | 0.097039 | 0 | 0 | 0.039755 | 0 | 0.08474 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.049079 | 0.066047 | 0.066745 | 0 | 0 | 0.077135 | 0 | 0 | 0.047843 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.042398 | 0.118218 | 0 | 0 | 0.133959 |
suicidewatch | bipolargoat | 2019/02/13 | My friend killed himself. Now I want to take my own life. 22 (bipolar) I’m not sure what to do, I had anxiety around calling up. I keep trying to put down what's going in my head but I can't seem to articulate it. I feel unwell but at the same time I feel ambivalent about where I end up. If a car hit me today I wouldn'... | 2.50914 | 4.771016 | 3.7081 | 86.882151 | 78.175627 | 6.713978 | 25.74552 | 7.793538 | 1.533307 | 1,112 | 43 | 219 | 18 | 27 | 361 | 156 | 279 | 0.312 | 0.591 | 0.097 | -0.9978 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 28 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 16 | 21 | 1 | 3 | 12 | 1 | 17 | 11 | 1 | 3 | 5 | 41 | 49 | 9 | 6 | 7 | 8 | 0 | 7 | 4 | 1 | 2 | 10 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 16 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 7 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 10 | 26 | 7 | 37 | 37 | 10 | 41 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 18 | 0 | 3 | 19 | 142 | 42 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091511 | 0.066762 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15538 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0532 | 0 | 0.074261 | 0 | 0.091586 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089114 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188618 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075166 | 0 | 0.090574 | 0.09118 | 0.10002 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154593 | 0 | 0 | 0.230567 | 0 | 0.07353 | 0 | 0 | 0.085368 | 0 | 0 | 0.308888 | 0.18704 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067425 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099196 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077174 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089565 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.186851 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077571 | 0.096553 | 0 | 0.047962 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061642 | 0.170545 | 0 | 0.154124 | 0 | 0 | 0.195268 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116508 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128309 | 0 | 0.067309 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092941 | 0 | 0 | 0.278588 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098385 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087732 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069544 | 0.079448 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073945 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.286381 | 0 | 0.082252 | 0 | 0.065617 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05592 | 0 | 0.069284 | 0.050888 | 0.300916 | 0.082723 | 0 | 0 | 0.059251 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.288031 | 0.154424 | 0.069272 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061995 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | CausticPrayingMantis | 2019/02/13 | I'm not doing so good Over the past month my mental health has taken a hit. I don't want to go into too much detail but I've been taking on a lot of responsibilities lately in school and I've gotten really overwhelmed. Whenever I'm with friends I'm happy because they understand me but whenever I'm not with them I feel ... | 1.730856 | 3.015365 | 3.97 | 88.566667 | 77.243243 | 6.825225 | 20.441441 | 7.492282 | 0.480512 | 534 | 12 | 121 | 7 | 12 | 185 | 91 | 148 | 0.072 | 0.613 | 0.315 | 0.9931 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 5 | 13 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 10 | 4 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 26 | 32 | 9 | 1 | 3 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 18 | 11 | 21 | 27 | 5 | 15 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 9 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 76 | 20 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135047 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197874 | 0 | 0.138106 | 0 | 0.340648 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082064 | 0.115947 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.250786 | 0 | 0.084795 | 0 | 0.092239 | 0.13613 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172772 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172518 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089196 | 0 | 0.183082 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079292 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137982 | 0.146482 | 0 | 0.108337 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.327121 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129547 | 0 | 0.238619 | 0.120344 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123437 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154934 | 0 | 0 | 0.169569 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103974 | 0.166872 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164257 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166599 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129613 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184177 | 0.152966 | 0 | 0.12203 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103996 | 0 | 0 | 0.094639 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16896 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191458 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | bpdmandalas | 2019/02/13 | I just want this mental illness and cycle of friends to end. I'm sorry i'm a burden. A friend dumped me and because my stupid bpd ass couldn't help but look at their social media, it seems they are doing great while I am struggling everyday with mental illness. I can't take it anymore and I just want to end it all. I'm... | 0.12544 | 2.006012 | 2.33127 | 95.611593 | 84.47619 | 4.194383 | 17.628816 | 4.713531 | -0.718653 | 447 | 10 | 102 | 1 | 13 | 151 | 77 | 126 | 0.317 | 0.558 | 0.125 | -0.9826 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 11 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 6 | 13 | 3 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 12 | 7 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 22 | 28 | 9 | 0 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 14 | 4 | 13 | 23 | 4 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 9 | 4 | 2 | 1 | 5 | 67 | 20 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172959 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165617 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.2036 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.210328 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.295821 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151059 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168878 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.258044 | 0.154387 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184116 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111935 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140236 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.336589 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122762 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177697 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152028 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167118 | 0.170233 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.37388 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174582 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125561 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107005 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191939 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.295499 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | icantdrawcircles | 2019/02/13 | dextromethorphan overdose? Has anyone tried to overdose on dextromethorphan? Can you share your experience please? | 11.528 | 16.304776 | 6.026667 | 60.76 | 84.333333 | 10 | 38.333333 | 8.841846 | 6.192333 | 97 | 5 | 9 | 3 | 3 | 25 | 13 | 15 | 0 | 0.721 | 0.279 | 0.6174 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.396387 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.554533 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.622281 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.384885 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | wasted_cupcake | 2019/02/13 | I still haven't killed myself and it seems like the longer im alive the more im supposed to. Its like the Universe or God or what ever really wants me to kill myself. Is suicide my life purpose? | 0.36122 | 2.676285 | 1.998244 | 95.341268 | 88.02439 | 4.25561 | 17.956098 | 5.683918 | -0.398594 | 154 | 4 | 33 | 1 | 5 | 50 | 32 | 41 | 0.175 | 0.572 | 0.253 | 0.2709 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 4 | 3 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 2 | 4 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 21 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.231586 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.553093 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.566499 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180835 | 0.250158 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164014 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.233072 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.204459 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.280045 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151008 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Quiet_____ | 2019/02/13 | My mental health is just getting worse and worse I need to kill myself. I can't take it anymore. This is goign to be my suicide note.
I am a piece of garbage and always will be if someoen were to murder me I would be happy. I have always gotten zeros on asignemnts in school, had a bad social life, and wanted to kill ... | 1.304412 | 3.165762 | 2.732594 | 94.384918 | 80.255605 | 4.965108 | 17.793936 | 5.622347 | -0.50528 | 825 | 16 | 183 | 4 | 21 | 268 | 124 | 223 | 0.269 | 0.668 | 0.063 | -0.9955 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 40 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 11 | 4 | 1 | 12 | 0 | 30 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 25 | 41 | 11 | 8 | 8 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 6 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 6 | 9 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 1 | 36 | 2 | 27 | 30 | 3 | 26 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 10 | 0 | 3 | 9 | 132 | 42 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100633 | 0 | 0.113679 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.377849 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112587 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106661 | 0 | 0.189578 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097792 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.471286 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118625 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12085 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120672 | 0 | 0 | 0.152187 | 0 | 0.113875 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.243063 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112656 | 0 | 0.251198 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080186 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114407 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168355 | 0.175116 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086341 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078704 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072727 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09028 | 0 | 0.114894 | 0 | 0 | 0.118432 | 0 | 0 | 0.093909 | 0 | 0 | 0.115725 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094912 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124178 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085357 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066198 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.267841 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.231384 | 0.080645 | 0 | 0 | 0.073107 |
suicidewatch | hamzanation | 2019/02/13 | I can’t make it through this week I thought I was stronger than this, I didn’t want to come to this, I have so much I wanted done, but I can’t take it! I can’t seem to catch a break anymore, I didn’t like my life before, but it should get better right? Why is it getting progressively worse? I’m already busy with school... | 2.593851 | 3.142638 | 4.174656 | 90.796524 | 74.11041 | 7.025466 | 24.188271 | 6.980633 | 0.648427 | 1,132 | 31 | 268 | 10 | 22 | 380 | 170 | 317 | 0.143 | 0.786 | 0.071 | -0.9812 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 40 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 7 | 10 | 11 | 3 | 0 | 11 | 0 | 28 | 4 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 37 | 59 | 21 | 1 | 3 | 7 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 18 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 7 | 12 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 14 | 5 | 45 | 4 | 38 | 41 | 9 | 46 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 2 | 19 | 17 | 1 | 4 | 21 | 173 | 63 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107086 | 0 | 0.236024 | 0.085521 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072724 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106057 | 0 | 0 | 0.088003 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082231 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090999 | 0 | 0 | 0.094581 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122312 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09212 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118328 | 0 | 0.068968 | 0.220503 | 0.092108 | 0 | 0.110988 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109438 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096734 | 0.180205 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.201629 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090964 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098865 | 0.223489 | 0 | 0.121554 | 0 | 0.08553 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.210631 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106122 | 0 | 0 | 0.111363 | 0 | 0.087171 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075536 | 0.052246 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.239279 | 0 | 0.090917 | 0 | 0 | 0.142768 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.250496 | 0.085359 | 0 | 0.078614 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108797 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107505 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091327 | 0 | 0.085044 | 0 | 0.10823 | 0.170436 | 0.097355 | 0.111563 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085403 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121355 | 0 | 0 | 0.080406 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142094 | 0 | 0 | 0.084899 | 0.249433 | 0 | 0 | 0.102187 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126153 | 0.084885 | 0.171563 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096498 | 0.119396 | 0 | 0.103087 | 0 | 0.077854 | 0 | 0.108982 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | suicide581568 | 2019/02/13 | 35 years of BS I turned 35 a few weeks ago and I'm sick of life. I've suffered from major depression since I was 11. No, it doesn't "get better." I was going to write a whole post about why I want to die, but you know what never mind. I am just too tired. | -1.695419 | 0.092652 | 0.865567 | 103.614655 | 92.103448 | 4.003941 | 11.73399 | 5.288315 | -1.640491 | 192 | 2 | 52 | 1 | 7 | 65 | 47 | 58 | 0.256 | 0.724 | 0.02 | -0.9072 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 10 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 6 | 8 | 3 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 28 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.23716 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.23662 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.230434 | 0 | 0.277667 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13978 | 0 | 0.152051 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147034 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188973 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.270142 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206345 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.256232 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.221314 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.307501 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.29101 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.157804 | 0 | 0.214607 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.241416 | 0.298702 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172289 |
suicidewatch | AceTrainerStorme | 2019/02/13 | I'm not worth the air I breath. I'm not worth the air I breath. I'm ugly, dumb, just a terrible fucking person. I can't look at myself without puking. I just want to die. I'm trying so hard to fight the bad thoughts but I have no one | -2.578197 | -0.966694 | 0.51044 | 101.89174 | 106.169811 | 3.110273 | 13.436059 | 5.033349 | -1.322831 | 179 | 4 | 45 | 1 | 9 | 62 | 34 | 53 | 0.399 | 0.57 | 0.032 | -0.9235 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 10 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 4 | 9 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 24 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.300382 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.37337 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.332589 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.322271 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.302105 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.24378 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.314125 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.285606 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.244251 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.212194 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.346792 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | duvet-boa | 2019/02/13 | It really feels inevitable I thought that making it back into school would help me not feel like blowing my brains out every day but being on campus makes me physically ill with the anxiety. I can't concentrate anymore, I just keep reliving last spring. I feel so left behind and isolated it's like I can't breathe.
I ... | 4.023143 | 6.525081 | 4.793905 | 79.776 | 74.333333 | 8.019048 | 26.714286 | 8.841846 | 2.399629 | 320 | 12 | 55 | 7 | 7 | 103 | 60 | 75 | 0.222 | 0.754 | 0.024 | -0.9351 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 17 | 14 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 10 | 2 | 6 | 8 | 1 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 35 | 14 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163506 | 0 | 0.211967 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164348 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.238598 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170649 | 0 | 0.234777 | 0.137841 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.18008 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.324211 | 0.152692 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143262 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189977 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174222 | 0 | 0 | 0.232223 | 0 | 0 | 0.20884 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.285339 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136924 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.21631 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.244424 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169681 | 0 | 0 | 0.202595 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198134 | 0 | 0.238627 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151831 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | lillztubs | 2019/02/13 | i cant do it anymore i told my friends, my boyfriend, and my mom that i was tired of living. and they care, but i know that they would get over it. and i’ve been taught all my life that suicide is selfish, but i just can’t hold on anymore. the pain is too much. i’ve never wanted to kill myself more than i do tonight. i... | 0.226273 | 2.033759 | 1.719091 | 100.548636 | 83.636364 | 4.363636 | 20.909091 | 4.851558 | -0.466 | 389 | 12 | 96 | 1 | 11 | 125 | 69 | 110 | 0.216 | 0.667 | 0.117 | -0.9324 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 16 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 4 | 7 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 12 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 21 | 23 | 9 | 2 | 2 | 7 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 16 | 2 | 7 | 18 | 3 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 61 | 25 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162653 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.403421 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.207372 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182796 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102841 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15714 | 0 | 0.106264 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.225023 | 0 | 0.223558 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143662 | 0 | 0 | 0.179599 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.238211 | 0 | 0 | 0.149517 | 0 | 0.156869 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19516 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.216424 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.203631 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170045 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.222478 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130326 | 0 | 0 | 0.1186 | 0.23377 | 0 | 0.19435 | 0 | 0.13809 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119966 | 0.161443 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148072 | 0 | 0 | 0.144484 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Samillennia | 2019/02/13 | again. almost every single night
it's becoming a scary world to be alive in ...
Gender and sexuality are SO IMPORTANT right now and I don't want to be in this gender tug of war but there's NO WAY to opt out of this drama I don't want to live in a society where there's a division so prominent that dudes will stand... | 1.265337 | 2.91676 | 3.652414 | 88.742812 | 79.551724 | 7.496021 | 21.498674 | 8.384062 | 1.07082 | 527 | 15 | 121 | 11 | 13 | 183 | 87 | 145 | 0.148 | 0.677 | 0.175 | 0.8061 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 21 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 11 | 0 | 11 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 17 | 17 | 11 | 2 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 7 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 3 | 23 | 13 | 1 | 21 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 15 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 82 | 18 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.208703 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.225823 | 0.253253 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185538 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.230184 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.216307 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175603 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206825 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147213 | 0 | 0 | 0.184039 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.376214 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.195588 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17799 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182168 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.491726 | 0.165434 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.253253 | 0 |
suicidewatch | davefrom1990 | 2019/02/13 | I feel like killing myself tonight by hanging Fuck parents. They kick and scream and tell and when you have no choice but to cry they tell you to stop. I wish and could kill them with a knife if I really wanted to. I really hope they go to hell and I would love to slaughter them. But Im going to hang myself. | 1.449897 | 3.268741 | 2.431923 | 96.922244 | 79.615385 | 5.564103 | 18.525641 | 6.427356 | -0.287821 | 241 | 5 | 56 | 2 | 6 | 76 | 43 | 65 | 0.316 | 0.513 | 0.172 | -0.9171 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 16 | 11 | 9 | 3 | 6 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 14 | 3 | 8 | 9 | 0 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 11 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 4 | 36 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17154 | 0 | 0.236002 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.108635 | 0.153489 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198625 | 0 | 0 | 0.244208 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.213394 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.232075 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.475399 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104965 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19391 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.238565 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.275277 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179624 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.375576 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126724 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.247067 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152623 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | BunchOfFuckingScotts | 2019/02/13 | Need support Today's been the toughest day I've had in a long time..basically since I've gotten on my current meds. I could really use some comfort tonight..please | 1.99875 | 4.755171 | 3.38625 | 85.03375 | 85.25 | 5.7 | 26.75 | 7.168622 | 1.65135 | 132 | 6 | 24 | 2 | 4 | 43 | 29 | 32 | 0.045 | 0.765 | 0.19 | 0.6326 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 10 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.263346 | 0 | 0 | 0.212716 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.291893 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.366371 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.244568 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.362059 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.2113 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.272842 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.374292 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192329 | 0 | 0.312644 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.284871 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | flowerant | 2019/02/13 | Drinking Almost every night I drink to stop feeling everything and be able to fall asleep.
The only comfortable way I can sleep is next to someone. Nothing sexual. Just the presence of having another soul there comforts me. It’s been almost 2 years since I’ve done that. I hate being alone. I hate not being near anothe... | 2.930278 | 4.65412 | 3.949259 | 88.121667 | 75.018519 | 6.651852 | 24.962963 | 7.38713 | 1.134919 | 421 | 14 | 85 | 5 | 9 | 136 | 71 | 108 | 0.173 | 0.718 | 0.109 | -0.802 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 11 | 9 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 15 | 19 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 4 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 9 | 3 | 13 | 12 | 0 | 18 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 3 | 10 | 48 | 11 | 0 | 0.256723 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.257071 | 0.265887 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.269196 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142581 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082782 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131358 | 0.150439 | 0.502981 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10815 | 0 | 0.115363 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19471 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067064 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.253461 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127492 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102457 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.273028 | 0.120458 | 0 | 0.123166 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097625 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122535 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121343 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106182 | 0 | 0.128454 | 0 | 0.10876 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.214632 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101887 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082661 |
suicidewatch | NessnajNayr | 2019/02/13 | Ok life is not going good 16m. Im sick of the bs. Everyday, i go to school, im fucking ignored by everyone unless i start talking. My fake friends never asked to hang out. I am overwhelmed with the work. I have an insane sex drive and want at least someone to talk to but keep getting rejected. Terrible anxiety, a sligh... | 1.672308 | 4.377655 | 3.034051 | 87.202615 | 86.692308 | 5.684103 | 29.594872 | 7.168622 | 2.064801 | 318 | 17 | 58 | 5 | 10 | 103 | 65 | 78 | 0.297 | 0.574 | 0.129 | -0.9479 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 11 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 1 | 4 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 12 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 3 | 10 | 12 | 1 | 10 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 32 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162092 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198085 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182497 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202466 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163702 | 0.195885 | 0.110702 | 0 | 0.240839 | 0.17772 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142023 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.457746 | 0 | 0 | 0.188334 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149661 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.237046 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163419 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.21444 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17953 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149974 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.340612 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124976 | 0 | 0 | 0.25802 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154255 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | GeoWolf1447 | 2019/02/13 | Well I'm Sure This Time It's time. I have all my notes written. I paid a few past due bills.
About to double down on my medication and take it all with some vodka.
I'm pretty sure it'll work. Lots of benzos, alcohol, etc.
Should be peaceful and I'm ready.
The pain of messing up my life is too much to bear. Lost ... | 0.446267 | 2.756962 | 1.9144 | 96.179867 | 87.4 | 4.613333 | 17.933333 | 6.079149 | -0.337987 | 470 | 12 | 104 | 4 | 15 | 151 | 87 | 125 | 0.109 | 0.774 | 0.117 | -0.2382 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 8 | 7 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 14 | 15 | 6 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 11 | 4 | 17 | 6 | 8 | 15 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 7 | 1 | 2 | 6 | 62 | 16 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.217886 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124283 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.211595 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.22738 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144006 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.222559 | 0.173331 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.226465 | 0.205388 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149875 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.216943 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194626 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.207419 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.204956 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.162134 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.384309 | 0 | 0.153292 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.356652 | 0.23433 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138421 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183313 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148427 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | ABigMoo | 2019/02/13 | I was really close to doing it. My girlfriend just broke up with me without as much as 2 days of showing signs. It was going to be 7 years on the 26th. Very suddenly on Saturday she became short with me over text because she was busy studying for optometry board exams and blocked all communication from me. I couldn't b... | 1.426594 | 3.792419 | 2.700467 | 91.969046 | 83.014599 | 5.113187 | 23.36691 | 6.427356 | 0.590779 | 1,064 | 39 | 219 | 10 | 30 | 342 | 163 | 274 | 0.109 | 0.862 | 0.028 | -0.955 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 41 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 18 | 0 | 20 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 39 | 40 | 14 | 1 | 9 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 9 | 13 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 2 | 2 | 7 | 11 | 4 | 0 | 3 | 15 | 3 | 37 | 3 | 38 | 19 | 4 | 34 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 21 | 15 | 0 | 3 | 10 | 151 | 46 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155222 | 0.174077 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.284151 | 0 | 0 | 0.117891 | 0 | 0.133929 | 0 | 0 | 0.110158 | 0 | 0.08733 | 0 | 0 | 0.161405 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.277173 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148681 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081418 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126684 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143702 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078732 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146493 | 0.202378 | 0 | 0 | 0.126501 | 0 | 0.120302 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129298 | 0 | 0.095627 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105313 | 0.106226 | 0 | 0 | 0.152359 | 0 | 0.140364 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.274161 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183552 | 0.147295 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149452 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110289 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114408 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107714 | 0 | 0 | 0.131895 | 0 | 0 | 0.095176 | 0.091795 | 0 | 0.113733 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136891 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118205 | 0.084499 | 0.113713 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.265607 | 0 | 0.159945 | 0 | 0.138098 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101768 | 0 | 0.174077 | 0.092255 |
suicidewatch | newaccountanon1234 | 2019/02/13 | I want to talk someone. I think I’m going to go through with it soon. I have no one to talk to. And I’m too scared to call the suicide hotline or any family members. I just want someone to hear what I say. | -0.754565 | 1.051374 | 1.850174 | 98.183957 | 87.478261 | 4.549565 | 22.243478 | 5.683918 | 0.00324 | 157 | 6 | 39 | 1 | 5 | 54 | 31 | 46 | 0.208 | 0.736 | 0.056 | -0.8402 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 9 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 8 | 9 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 24 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172704 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.259326 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.239415 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.288667 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.286236 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172093 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.201962 | 0.254262 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.430366 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.277795 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.408253 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16273 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.299589 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | FundiesForAll | 2019/02/13 | Would anyone really miss me? I feel like I'm really lost and just in autopilot mode the past couple days. I dont really talk to my family except my little sister. My boyfriend is more like a roommate with how little he notices me anymore. I dont have many friends, especially ones that we actively try and keep in touch ... | 2.562108 | 4.240816 | 4.044798 | 87.238806 | 75.915888 | 7.372378 | 24.038422 | 8.167269 | 1.32628 | 410 | 13 | 86 | 7 | 9 | 136 | 71 | 107 | 0.113 | 0.751 | 0.136 | 0.1289 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 22 | 21 | 7 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 5 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 5 | 12 | 4 | 10 | 17 | 4 | 9 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 56 | 18 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.428586 | 0.100725 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159392 | 0 | 0.092902 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.337659 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127588 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135801 | 0 | 0.291351 | 0.205823 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111295 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142951 | 0.128041 | 0 | 0 | 0.079168 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.211131 | 0.288758 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.314502 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146047 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105896 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164006 | 0 | 0 | 0.097614 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137515 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.276853 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115785 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097803 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084966 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102331 | 0 | 0 | 0.092766 |
suicidewatch | battenburgers | 2019/02/13 | Living for other people I'm a 26yo guy living in Britain. On paper, everything is okay for me. I've got a little debt and I've had several bereavements, but if I'm honest nothing that's out of the norm. I had an abusive father- used to beat the crap out of me and my brothers, but nothing sexual/paedophilia related.
I'... | 2.331963 | 4.236182 | 3.541759 | 89.591971 | 77.245033 | 6.72573 | 24.761344 | 7.662119 | 1.192415 | 1,165 | 41 | 245 | 17 | 27 | 378 | 145 | 302 | 0.199 | 0.71 | 0.092 | -0.9863 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 29 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 7 | 12 | 15 | 2 | 1 | 7 | 1 | 12 | 3 | 2 | 5 | 1 | 47 | 47 | 21 | 5 | 12 | 13 | 5 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 5 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 11 | 6 | 39 | 6 | 42 | 35 | 2 | 31 | 0 | 6 | 3 | 0 | 15 | 9 | 1 | 5 | 19 | 144 | 50 | 2 | 0 | 0.109645 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.164062 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074004 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064706 | 0 | 0.076153 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.169235 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094351 | 0.095064 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119361 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096042 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095619 | 0 | 0.061122 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083169 | 0 | 0.174477 | 0 | 0.093582 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071496 | 0 | 0.145045 | 0 | 0.052593 | 0 | 0.074013 | 0 | 0 | 0.091629 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104299 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106779 | 0.198132 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091832 | 0 | 0.102382 | 0 | 0.050858 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065364 | 0.04521 | 0.092749 | 0.245144 | 0 | 0.155421 | 0.103529 | 0.202037 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061771 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071373 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.177589 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.08834 | 0.192467 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059284 | 0.095147 | 0.182744 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.104544 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0655 | 0.098635 | 0.073903 | 0 | 0 | 0.096743 | 0 | 0.202448 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.220399 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188486 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15985 | 0 | 0.076355 | 0.382078 | 0.073454 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065738 | 0 | 0 | 0.238371 |
suicidewatch | awaythrowith | 2019/02/13 | Melatonin If I take a fuck ton of melatonin in addition to a bunch of tylenol, will I pass out quicker? | 1.987143 | 4.060785 | 3.114524 | 91.434643 | 79 | 6.104762 | 34.309524 | 7.168622 | 2.242981 | 81 | 5 | 17 | 1 | 2 | 26 | 17 | 21 | 0.179 | 0.821 | 0 | -0.5423 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 2 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 13 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.775813 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.630963 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | 66Xeno | 2019/02/13 | Feeling worthless and hating my life So a bit of backstory; my college friends and I are very close & we have a group chat on Facebook to talk amongst each other. But ever since yesterday, I've felt like I'm just an extra in my friend group.
Yesterday, I was having a really rough day, but I was looking forward to... | 7.881026 | 5.900737 | 7.637231 | 78.898103 | 63.615385 | 10.635897 | 34.897436 | 9.029199 | 2.790251 | 1,275 | 43 | 261 | 16 | 15 | 407 | 170 | 325 | 0.127 | 0.736 | 0.137 | 0.1541 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 29 | 3 | 0 | 7 | 1 | 16 | 18 | 4 | 0 | 12 | 0 | 24 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 48 | 59 | 20 | 0 | 5 | 14 | 1 | 6 | 4 | 6 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 12 | 13 | 1 | 1 | 7 | 7 | 1 | 9 | 6 | 5 | 0 | 4 | 19 | 12 | 46 | 13 | 44 | 38 | 9 | 42 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 37 | 13 | 0 | 2 | 23 | 180 | 58 | 5 | 0 | 0.108208 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094588 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098953 | 0 | 0 | 0.19153 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075155 | 0 | 0.085379 | 0.103898 | 0 | 0.140451 | 0 | 0.055672 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099706 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093115 | 0 | 0 | 0.078671 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058899 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076293 | 0 | 0.080889 | 0 | 0 | 0.120642 | 0.082611 | 0 | 0 | 0.082079 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184712 | 0.130489 | 0.087689 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100136 | 0.423357 | 0 | 0.09543 | 0 | 0.103807 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180334 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061215 | 0 | 0.091609 | 0 | 0.179879 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103022 | 0.193406 | 0 | 0 | 0.064507 | 0.178472 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.153384 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086416 | 0.060962 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185658 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.098899 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086334 | 0 | 0.174933 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058507 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077993 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072776 | 0 | 0 | 0.206349 | 0 | 0.151094 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086075 | 0 | 0 | 0.293623 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086568 | 0 | 0.101468 | 0.062005 | 0 | 0 | 0.095075 | 0 | 0.078878 | 0 | 0.15071 | 0.161602 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088037 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064877 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | fancygrapes | 2019/02/13 | I've lost pretty much all hope. I tried therapy and trying to fix my life so many times that at this point I've given up. | 1.892222 | 2.69591 | 3.660185 | 92.865833 | 76.037037 | 6.881481 | 17.203704 | 7.168622 | -0.206319 | 95 | 1 | 23 | 1 | 2 | 32 | 24 | 27 | 0.078 | 0.714 | 0.207 | 0.5859 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 11 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.319473 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.227192 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.351121 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.326105 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.236451 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.304065 | 0 | 0 | 0.327236 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.367837 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187558 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.436761 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | blupjase | 2019/02/13 | Tired of being alive There are multiple reasons I've wanted to end my life for quite some time, and I'll do my best to not go on a tangent.
I'm ugly as hell. This isn't body dysmorphia, this is a straight fact. I am far from the only person who finds myself unpleasant to look at - plenty of people have made their opin... | 7.149369 | 6.06033 | 7.932351 | 73.338775 | 64.472973 | 10.596036 | 33.922523 | 9.725611 | 3.108636 | 1,176 | 42 | 223 | 20 | 15 | 397 | 168 | 296 | 0.088 | 0.816 | 0.095 | 0.4692 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 27 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 7 | 9 | 2 | 1 | 11 | 0 | 30 | 7 | 2 | 4 | 5 | 40 | 44 | 16 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 12 | 0 | 3 | 8 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 14 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 33 | 5 | 42 | 36 | 8 | 32 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 15 | 14 | 1 | 5 | 13 | 161 | 45 | 8 | 0.243849 | 0.14446 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.248738 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120916 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093752 | 0 | 0.222972 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127952 | 0 | 0 | 0.13543 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127835 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133928 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.107989 | 0 | 0 | 0.08053 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061649 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.222873 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138585 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129791 | 0 | 0 | 0.12513 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081723 | 0.12882 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.241982 | 0.216744 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137536 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.258356 | 0 | 0.1222 | 0 | 0 | 0.102386 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110041 | 0.115368 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122871 | 0 | 0 | 0.142796 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188071 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11699 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092729 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116391 | 0.169054 | 0.10646 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129682 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125359 | 0.240771 | 0.130901 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071095 | 0.140134 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082779 | 0 | 0 | 0.126928 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071914 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117531 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078515 |
suicidewatch | twinnpeaks | 2019/02/13 | tired i'm not sure what to expect from this. i am not a huge reddit user, so i never really know how to do posts or anything. sorry if this gets too long.
i am an 18 year old female, diagnosed with BPD, depression, anxiety. i have multiple previous suicide attempts and hospitalizations, but have been doing better the... | 3.504403 | 4.771271 | 4.953791 | 83.34846 | 72.696145 | 7.431622 | 27.876108 | 7.89837 | 1.729763 | 1,709 | 64 | 340 | 23 | 33 | 573 | 225 | 441 | 0.174 | 0.697 | 0.129 | -0.9538 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 60 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 8 | 21 | 28 | 2 | 2 | 17 | 1 | 59 | 7 | 0 | 5 | 6 | 66 | 90 | 27 | 4 | 13 | 17 | 1 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 5 | 7 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 22 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 20 | 10 | 1 | 4 | 18 | 4 | 51 | 18 | 40 | 61 | 10 | 45 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 17 | 0 | 7 | 27 | 254 | 73 | 22 | 0.090038 | 0 | 0.087864 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099359 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068879 | 0 | 0.178586 | 0 | 0 | 0.148187 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069233 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079631 | 0 | 0 | 0.113399 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091799 | 0 | 0.095248 | 0.077559 | 0.094403 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077549 | 0.091386 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078793 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10128 | 0 | 0.093033 | 0.100416 | 0.059469 | 0.081444 | 0.075861 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084879 | 0 | 0.091051 | 0.128646 | 0 | 0 | 0.082293 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094082 | 0 | 0.153511 | 0.075519 | 0 | 0.099267 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080656 | 0 | 0 | 0.095706 | 0 | 0 | 0.06035 | 0 | 0.090315 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093976 | 0.089348 | 0 | 0.199227 | 0.09376 | 0.148447 | 0.073393 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127193 | 0.219939 | 0.090241 | 0 | 0.07968 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085196 | 0.120202 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090737 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132376 | 0.267047 | 0.208328 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094479 | 0 | 0.122024 | 0.068478 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085951 | 0 | 0 | 0.09407 | 0 | 0.085115 | 0 | 0.086231 | 0 | 0.097076 | 0.086154 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05768 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076892 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091123 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07448 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10079 | 0.063729 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103138 | 0 | 0 | 0.098487 | 0 | 0.169719 | 0 | 0.067697 | 0 | 0.078697 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07148 | 0 | 0.20697 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06113 | 0 | 0.087954 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07429 | 0.106213 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080955 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.097642 | 0.065548 | 0 | 0.091756 | 0.19188 | 0 | 0 | 0.173944 |
suicidewatch | Idkuydkme | 2019/02/13 | Idk I come from a very abusive family. The males a the worst the females are emotionally abusive but the men are physical and sexually abusive. I keep seeing posts on social media about men being threats to women and how men are abusers. It just feels like I'm being placed in the same group and told I'm the same as the... | 4.997875 | 5.354908 | 5.695 | 82.73 | 68.625 | 8.4 | 27.25 | 8.238736 | 1.610825 | 313 | 9 | 64 | 4 | 5 | 102 | 55 | 80 | 0.341 | 0.613 | 0.046 | -0.9866 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 14 | 15 | 6 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 4 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 5 | 1 | 7 | 12 | 3 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 10 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 41 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0.849351 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123501 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.161272 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135157 | 0 | 0.072492 | 0.102424 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127434 | 0.158618 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070043 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095701 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099395 | 0 | 0.149791 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137309 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.114247 | 0 | 0.149566 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146148 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136996 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118295 | 0.084563 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Blanknut | 2019/02/13 | Always thinking about committing suicide I always think about jumping in front of trains, cars or other vehicles. Everytime I stand at the edge of a road or the train tracks I just get this feeling of wanting to jump. | 5.842917 | 7.704498 | 5.54 | 79.091667 | 67.75 | 8.333333 | 33.333333 | 8.841846 | 3.028833 | 175 | 8 | 29 | 3 | 3 | 54 | 32 | 40 | 0.111 | 0.816 | 0.072 | -0.5537 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 5 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 8 | 5 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 19 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.653506 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198558 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.205166 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.429544 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.503245 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.231621 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | TiredOfBeingMediocre | 2019/02/13 | Not cut out for this I accept defeat
but I don’t have the courage to take my own life
I wish there was an easy way to do it
Guns are too messy and hanging myself sounds really unpleasant
I wish I could go to sleep right now and never wake up | 2.079906 | 3.044905 | 3.381274 | 94.420212 | 75.792453 | 6.809434 | 18.910377 | 7.168622 | -0.033374 | 190 | 3 | 46 | 2 | 4 | 62 | 44 | 53 | 0.148 | 0.571 | 0.281 | 0.8324 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 6 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 10 | 10 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 7 | 2 | 6 | 8 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 32 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.244309 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173902 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.216131 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.235999 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.196026 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.261315 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.306212 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.230067 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.242882 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.703749 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Caesar2281 | 2019/02/13 | I now hate van drivers So Ive had depression for a couple years now (among other things) and I gave up hope so I decided if I cross the road at the correct time, I'll get hit by a car or something but it will look like an accident so no-one will know. When I try that, this responsible-ass van driver stops before he hit... | 0.845379 | 2.097693 | 2.941994 | 95.145348 | 79.560748 | 6.624714 | 19.365524 | 7.38713 | 0.114037 | 371 | 8 | 94 | 5 | 9 | 126 | 74 | 107 | 0.185 | 0.736 | 0.079 | -0.8868 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 14 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 9 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 17 | 18 | 11 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 12 | 3 | 7 | 12 | 0 | 15 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 6 | 0 | 4 | 9 | 55 | 21 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.22513 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184966 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.240516 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187221 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113567 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.214608 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.215898 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.477844 | 0 | 0 | 0.230164 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.212392 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182536 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.234362 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.247415 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167342 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.181731 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189991 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144411 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12675 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.29516 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139979 |
suicidewatch | Nabella-Forester | 2019/03/17 | Is self harm really any different than getting a tattoo? Tattoos are imbedded into your skin, and the scars of self harm are mostly permanent. What makes self harm so much worse than getting a tattoo if I make sure not to loose too much blood? And if it’s where no one can actually see it, without the morals of this day... | 5.823571 | 5.607909 | 6.069286 | 82.718214 | 66.857143 | 9.285714 | 28.928571 | 8.841846 | 1.976286 | 275 | 8 | 57 | 4 | 4 | 88 | 53 | 70 | 0.244 | 0.704 | 0.052 | -0.9506 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 2 | 3 | 1 | 14 | 11 | 7 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 7 | 9 | 3 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 2 | 39 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.2021 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140836 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17292 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133563 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.216376 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.216403 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.276483 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.304486 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140337 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132674 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165032 | 0 | 0.648154 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19519 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.199638 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.211053 | 0.147118 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Wannadead | 2019/03/17 | Good night I have PTSD, or major depressive disorder, or bipolar disorder, depending on what doctor you talk to. I’ve been trying to become an alcoholic for about a year. I don’t really know why but at first I was actually trying to develop a physical addiction. I know why. I know what’s wrong with me. I’m just out of ... | 1.191037 | 3.547102 | 3.86418 | 83.294598 | 84 | 8.049536 | 24.241486 | 8.841846 | 2.247471 | 655 | 26 | 131 | 19 | 19 | 230 | 106 | 170 | 0.118 | 0.729 | 0.152 | 0.6918 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 20 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 9 | 6 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 27 | 23 | 4 | 0 | 8 | 6 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 11 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 22 | 4 | 21 | 19 | 1 | 13 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 12 | 4 | 0 | 7 | 9 | 80 | 33 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0.234402 | 0.130928 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.256703 | 0.120264 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073212 | 0.132642 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134072 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095891 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123819 | 0.103443 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.275292 | 0.122928 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106374 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11322 | 0 | 0.060727 | 0.0858 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102158 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068256 | 0.100735 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080501 | 0 | 0 | 0.238575 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198013 | 0.097898 | 0 | 0.12717 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058675 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.241315 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.225413 | 0 | 0.11524 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081383 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129489 | 0 | 0.140392 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07694 | 0.123484 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095509 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.203522 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193065 | 0.104974 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076956 | 0 | 0 | 0.070032 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163081 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.283355 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.216745 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087435 | 0 | 0 | 0.085316 | 0.131312 | 0 | 0.077341 |
suicidewatch | Nisayon_X | 2019/03/17 | Hey I'm suicidal Hey | -4.166 | -7.644223 | 1.905 | 85.8575 | 175 | 9 | 22.5 | 7.168622 | 3.391 | 17 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 2 | 7 | 4 | 5 | 0.6 | 0.4 | 0 | -0.6705 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | fenderdelux77 | 2019/03/17 | What Is The Quickest, Painless and Most Accessible Suicide Method? I thought about buying a rope somewhere but can\`t find a suitable one for hanging, and I can\`t buy one online because I know my parents will fucking kill me.
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suicidewatch | SKskdkdkdkdkdkdk | 2019/03/17 | I’m so lonely please help me I’m 18 almost 19 please can someone help me commit suicide? And no bullshit like “your parents will miss you” or “tomorrow’s another day” | 1.535 | 4.132263 | 3.360833 | 85.66125 | 85.363636 | 5.724242 | 26.431818 | 7.168622 | 1.657127 | 132 | 6 | 24 | 2 | 4 | 44 | 28 | 33 | 0.3 | 0.382 | 0.318 | -0.0281 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 5 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 10 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.282988 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.296336 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.182257 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.378848 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138066 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.313799 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.62043 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.23945 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.309124 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | justadudeqwq | 2019/03/17 | I was molested by my father and was taken away from my family for a while. I cannot bare the pain anymore. I cannot find any reason for living. When I was eight, I woke up to feel my father touching me (I am a female, I know my username says I’m a dude). I was afraid, I didn’t know what to do. I was trying to decide we... | -0.728705 | 1.246453 | 1.712283 | 98.002127 | 89.234114 | 4.621156 | 16.569613 | 6.025991 | -0.611919 | 1,043 | 24 | 255 | 9 | 35 | 354 | 139 | 299 | 0.131 | 0.787 | 0.082 | -0.9511 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 45 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 12 | 10 | 2 | 4 | 8 | 0 | 31 | 5 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 38 | 61 | 24 | 1 | 5 | 4 | 10 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 14 | 8 | 1 | 5 | 31 | 8 | 63 | 2 | 25 | 27 | 1 | 28 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 34 | 5 | 0 | 4 | 13 | 174 | 72 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061522 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089721 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084576 | 0 | 0.169997 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.203855 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092379 | 0.206944 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093892 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081307 | 0 | 0.255858 | 0 | 0.045744 | 0 | 0.086864 | 0 | 0.082687 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.047266 | 0 | 0.051415 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.240004 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092847 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060639 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198877 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090673 | 0.159771 | 0.080062 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081652 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.317868 | 0 | 0.288462 | 0 | 0 | 0.069775 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173614 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122608 | 0 | 0.096265 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099308 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090946 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093017 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086056 | 0.071944 | 0 | 0.183118 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064034 | 0 | 0.144497 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068021 | 0 | 0.079074 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.432234 | 0 | 0.061422 | 0 | 0.088375 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160082 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081342 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064266 | 0 | 0 | 0.116518 |
suicidewatch | TortoiseOfTomorrow | 2019/03/17 | Why is the whole world working against me? Ive given up on everything. The only damn thing keeping me going is my kitten because shes the most affectionate thing on this planet(and seemingly the only loving thing). It took 4 months to even remotely get me under a mental health system and by that point i'd been hospital... | 4.768947 | 6.276141 | 5.473018 | 79.91115 | 69.915493 | 8.08558 | 29.36888 | 8.563006 | 2.306357 | 1,172 | 45 | 211 | 19 | 21 | 380 | 166 | 284 | 0.092 | 0.8 | 0.108 | 0.5734 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 24 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 5 | 18 | 3 | 0 | 14 | 0 | 25 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 38 | 49 | 20 | 1 | 4 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 21 | 20 | 1 | 3 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 6 | 6 | 6 | 1 | 3 | 12 | 1 | 23 | 12 | 35 | 31 | 5 | 44 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 11 | 23 | 2 | 7 | 16 | 144 | 44 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074557 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085122 | 0 | 0 | 0.110459 | 0 | 0.077094 | 0.102076 | 0 | 0.080129 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092373 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100248 | 0 | 0.05843 | 0.093405 | 0.078034 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103836 | 0.092734 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092707 | 0 | 0 | 0.080245 | 0.187229 | 0 | 0.059841 | 0 | 0.15267 | 0.086573 | 0.162852 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099249 | 0.082807 | 0.077065 | 0 | 0 | 0.139996 | 0.083759 | 0.18934 | 0 | 0.102981 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099807 | 0 | 0.160236 | 0 | 0 | 0.089449 | 0 | 0.192608 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.293593 | 0 | 0 | 0.08053 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063994 | 0.044263 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081771 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.273912 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.21695 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086934 | 0.103149 | 0 | 0.096487 | 0.122787 | 0.137812 | 0 | 0 | 0.100601 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171294 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093153 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086182 | 0 | 0 | 0.275078 | 0 | 0.164959 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064128 | 0 | 0 | 0.075746 | 0 | 0 | 0.103716 | 0.099102 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06812 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.240764 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100661 | 0.061512 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071915 | 0 | 0 | 0.081461 | 0.083988 | 0.081753 | 0.101152 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065958 | 0 | 0 | 0.06436 | 0.099058 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | thisaccountisanonwoo | 2019/03/17 | Need a friend or someone who will listen My suicidal thoughts have been getting worse and worse lately. I’ve tried to mention it to my mom, but she just gets mad and says I’ll be put in a psych ward and ruin my future. I have nobody who will just have a conversation with and let me vent about it without trying to guilt... | 6.488333 | 4.950866 | 6.438364 | 84.970139 | 66.037037 | 9.087654 | 30.126543 | 7.168622 | 1.52438 | 306 | 8 | 68 | 2 | 4 | 97 | 57 | 81 | 0.232 | 0.719 | 0.049 | -0.954 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 15 | 17 | 8 | 1 | 1 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 9 | 1 | 7 | 11 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 45 | 14 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174105 | 0 | 0.353208 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123846 | 0 | 0.254204 | 0 | 0 | 0.230436 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.263927 | 0 | 0 | 0.165658 | 0.167094 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.226539 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179207 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.190938 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.246496 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149712 | 0 | 0 | 0.178903 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.305996 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.217229 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.459302 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | tuesday_paper | 2019/03/17 | College freshman I’m a freshman in college. People say I’m smart but I don’t think I am because I slack off immensely in school and don’t take it seriously, and any smart person would realize these next 4 years determine a lot about ones future. Even though I understand they do I just have the thought that “I’m just go... | 2.607051 | 5.086048 | 3.542415 | 87.031058 | 79.08547 | 6.293162 | 24.279915 | 7.492282 | 1.282038 | 476 | 17 | 90 | 7 | 12 | 152 | 81 | 117 | 0.245 | 0.627 | 0.128 | -0.9632 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 6 | 11 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 17 | 21 | 7 | 1 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 11 | 4 | 10 | 17 | 1 | 12 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 54 | 18 | 9 | 0.198773 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194239 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135173 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138987 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.331935 | 0.12117 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202663 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.342406 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131288 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103851 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.196247 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133234 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.219913 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16899 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.211398 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134694 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137804 | 0.173561 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158073 | 0 | 0.201169 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149453 | 0 | 0 | 0.183004 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127366 | 0.195294 | 0.157804 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.20693 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141203 | 0 | 0 | 0.256007 |
suicidewatch | JackDMoney | 2019/03/17 | Would you feel the effects of drowning if you were drunk enough? Obviously the effect of dying would still happen but would you feel the cold or the water in your lungs? | 3.920833 | 6.414755 | 3.68875 | 87.614583 | 74.625 | 5.516667 | 20.041667 | 6.427356 | 0.174404 | 136 | 3 | 25 | 1 | 3 | 41 | 23 | 32 | 0.062 | 0.938 | 0 | -0.264 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 11 | 7 | 3 | 2 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 20 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.343498 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.341984 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.3347 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.292679 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.264316 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.705342 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Planet_head | 2019/03/17 | Tired of being around No one’s gonna see this but I just want to put my thoughts down somewhere. I’m just tired of being around, I don’t have hope that i’ll make it in the job I want, I study wildlife conservation and maybe that’s a waste of time and I’ll end up in a warehouse job or the same waitressing job that gives... | 2.385567 | 4.195661 | 3.98275 | 86.916792 | 76.781818 | 7.056061 | 24.549242 | 7.937092 | 1.295124 | 1,056 | 36 | 222 | 17 | 24 | 352 | 142 | 275 | 0.173 | 0.687 | 0.14 | -0.8956 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 22 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 15 | 10 | 1 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 19 | 7 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 46 | 43 | 15 | 1 | 7 | 13 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 12 | 19 | 2 | 1 | 4 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 14 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 5 | 30 | 7 | 38 | 34 | 5 | 34 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 9 | 22 | 0 | 5 | 10 | 142 | 42 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.22308 | 0 | 0.08365 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.389369 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133314 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094181 | 0 | 0.113485 | 0.114245 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.126808 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193698 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09213 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103083 | 0 | 0.110578 | 0.078118 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084481 | 0 | 0.057129 | 0.104896 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096695 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.217213 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.325531 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053422 | 0.109595 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07299 | 0 | 0.329562 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102615 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.074097 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109924 | 0 | 0 | 0.109377 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.261407 | 0 | 0.114073 | 0 | 0 | 0.090453 | 0.122911 | 0.109426 | 0.111466 | 0.09265 | 0 | 0 | 0.122405 | 0.077397 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082215 | 0 | 0 | 0.100672 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086809 | 0.063761 | 0.251357 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.193487 | 0.086795 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | ezzzbruh | 2019/03/17 | I'll probably end up committing suicide before I can move out again I recently move out after trying to for a little under one year, except the landlord was a scammer and the house was being foreclosed, and was basically just out to get our (the other housemates) money so I moved back in with my parents that dont excep... | 8.414112 | 5.907783 | 8.990912 | 71.270845 | 63.014599 | 11.177129 | 35.242092 | 9.299571 | 3.130106 | 536 | 17 | 101 | 7 | 6 | 182 | 81 | 137 | 0.1 | 0.842 | 0.058 | -0.8248 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 10 | 5 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 24 | 17 | 7 | 2 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 11 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 2 | 16 | 3 | 22 | 12 | 3 | 31 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 16 | 80 | 24 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150142 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.313859 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.347324 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117201 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159458 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120506 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123071 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137589 | 0.097199 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.213253 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156992 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150527 | 0 | 0 | 0.110905 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.199412 | 0.136365 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.578429 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092196 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151075 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.142151 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.146693 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087162 | 0 | 0.13434 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096302 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148824 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102298 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079336 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092374 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087616 |
suicidewatch | sam_sub00 | 2019/03/17 | no point in living anymore without him i broke up with my boyfriend last fall. i miss him so terribly and while i understand my reasons for breaking up with him, the loneliness i feel is so much worse than any annoying qualities i put up with while we were together. it's been nearly five months and i can't stop thinkin... | 4.435685 | 5.70467 | 4.777172 | 85.493711 | 70.443299 | 8.841826 | 31.382916 | 9.236283 | 2.647687 | 390 | 17 | 79 | 8 | 7 | 123 | 69 | 97 | 0.272 | 0.629 | 0.099 | -0.9559 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 8 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 18 | 15 | 8 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 5 | 5 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 19 | 2 | 12 | 12 | 1 | 17 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 56 | 20 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.136056 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198418 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159741 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.207643 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.175084 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.334269 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101162 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154575 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.198541 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163085 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176667 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159696 | 0 | 0.147076 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191975 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135574 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189133 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.201128 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.205707 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170861 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167269 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128198 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.416564 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.230073 | 0.192862 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.203891 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Silenthill-2 | 2019/03/17 | Lost I don't know if I'm going to necessarily commit suicide.. but the thoughts of suicide are there and I'm struggling to push them away.
Maybe my reasons sound pathetic to some people but; I suffer with PTSD from my job, I have pretty much constant anxiety, depressed nearly all the time, I just can't find good in m... | 3.227814 | 4.952225 | 4.582112 | 83.894193 | 74.214286 | 7.440994 | 23.959627 | 8.182891 | 1.410443 | 1,104 | 33 | 216 | 18 | 23 | 366 | 138 | 280 | 0.243 | 0.648 | 0.109 | -0.9924 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 41 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 13 | 21 | 1 | 2 | 6 | 1 | 15 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 60 | 50 | 16 | 3 | 2 | 20 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 13 | 0 | 1 | 16 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 10 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 4 | 27 | 11 | 31 | 44 | 8 | 24 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 12 | 0 | 7 | 9 | 126 | 37 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085204 | 0 | 0.065789 | 0 | 0.089136 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062934 | 0 | 0.081587 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073235 | 0 | 0 | 0.077293 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072758 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083877 | 0.084511 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088901 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.141713 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083193 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075191 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.128943 | 0 | 0.140263 | 0.069002 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087575 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.081637 | 0.073123 | 0 | 0 | 0.226059 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.116215 | 0.160766 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.269412 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082648 | 0.089613 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120951 | 0.061 | 0 | 0.158908 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.236812 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.228134 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083695 | 0 | 0 | 0.096166 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.316214 | 0.084584 | 0 | 0.088324 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082364 | 0 | 0 | 0.224678 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082326 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086003 | 0 | 0.179973 | 0.093356 | 0 | 0 | 0.061855 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054655 | 0.052713 | 0 | 0.130622 | 0.047971 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.446831 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.079302 | 0 | 0.119783 | 0 | 0.083837 | 0 | 0.089946 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Hehexatrad | 2019/03/17 | I've been on this subreddit for 4 years now 4 fuckin years.
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4 years on this subreddit, 4 years of help, a few months longer than that of medication, 4 or 5 full fledged attempts, 2 hospitalisations, 1 fight with the police. And none of it has gotten a single bit better. I want to end my miserable life ju... | 3.350457 | 5.886418 | 4.470221 | 81.078873 | 76.732394 | 7.099396 | 26.34004 | 8.146663 | 1.975393 | 2,971 | 115 | 525 | 54 | 70 | 969 | 319 | 710 | 0.257 | 0.649 | 0.094 | -0.9993 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 146 | 1 | 6 | 8 | 12 | 38 | 66 | 26 | 5 | 33 | 1 | 52 | 26 | 3 | 6 | 10 | 103 | 110 | 43 | 5 | 15 | 23 | 2 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 11 | 8 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 36 | 29 | 0 | 2 | 17 | 4 | 5 | 3 | 27 | 46 | 0 | 6 | 12 | 9 | 58 | 20 | 70 | 79 | 20 | 78 | 2 | 14 | 2 | 15 | 34 | 29 | 15 | 13 | 42 | 348 | 94 | 7 | 0 | 0.036215 | 0.089481 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.027094 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.397406 | 0.445678 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064115 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.023503 | 0 | 0.055896 | 0 | 0.026009 | 0 | 0 | 0.081097 | 0.100107 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.03121 | 0 | 0.093489 | 0 | 0 | 0.026329 | 0.032047 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059136 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.031722 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.214932 | 0 | 0.035446 | 0 | 0.025533 | 0 | 0.054143 | 0.031582 | 0 | 0.060564 | 0.110591 | 0 | 0 | 0.02747 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.030909 | 0 | 0.029347 | 0.033482 | 0 | 0.025999 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.310825 | 0.047907 | 0.029321 | 0.017371 | 0.025636 | 0.024446 | 0.033698 | 0 | 0 | 0.054057 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.032489 | 0 | 0 | 0.020487 | 0 | 0 | 0.091074 | 0 | 0 | 0.03272 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054335 | 0.067631 | 0.031829 | 0.050393 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.021589 | 0 | 0.061268 | 0.026989 | 0.027049 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082758 | 0 | 0.061207 | 0.061976 | 0.030707 | 0.033294 | 0 | 0.061582 | 0.030802 | 0 | 0 | 0.071595 | 0.024397 | 0 | 0.112344 | 0 | 0.094294 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058656 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082847 | 0.046492 | 0.09757 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.148329 | 0 | 0.031934 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.029273 | 0 | 0.032954 | 0 | 0 | 0.030726 | 0 | 0 | 0.030573 | 0 | 0.078323 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052205 | 0 | 0.07292 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094124 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.034215 | 0 | 0 | 0.024409 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.033433 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.034954 | 0 | 0.020306 | 0.03917 | 0 | 0.024265 | 0.071291 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.020752 | 0 | 0 | 0.127277 | 0.036766 | 0 | 0 | 0.075658 | 0.018028 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.02758 | 0 | 0.035148 | 0.029464 | 0 | 0.022252 | 0 | 0 | 0.065137 | 0 | 0.445678 | 0.157463 |
suicidewatch | shaphrieds | 2019/03/17 | I’ve tried to take my own life 73 times. Every time was a failure Im gonna make sure the 74th time is successful | 1.192692 | 2.050434 | 3.095385 | 96.024615 | 77.846154 | 6.738462 | 20.692308 | 7.168622 | 0.147831 | 89 | 2 | 23 | 1 | 2 | 30 | 24 | 26 | 0.116 | 0.669 | 0.215 | 0.4215 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 7 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.30176 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.386868 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.252975 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.23907 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.337556 | 0 | 0.269287 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.626527 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.243163 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | bubblesboo12 | 2019/03/17 | I’ve been nonstop thinking about dying I have severe anxiety and depression. I’ve been suicidal for two years now. I’ve tried therapy and medication which don’t seem to help. I’m constantly let down by everyone I know. I’m used and abused and taken advantage of and left empty handed at the end of the day. My family is ... | 2.65507 | 4.046715 | 4.367805 | 86.21697 | 75.036585 | 7.729081 | 24.810507 | 8.384062 | 1.481914 | 619 | 20 | 132 | 11 | 13 | 209 | 104 | 164 | 0.22 | 0.689 | 0.092 | -0.9704 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 10 | 1 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 16 | 7 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 25 | 33 | 15 | 2 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 11 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 5 | 7 | 0 | 5 | 5 | 3 | 9 | 3 | 21 | 24 | 1 | 21 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 11 | 1 | 4 | 7 | 85 | 17 | 1 | 0 | 0.173736 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112174 | 0 | 0.145421 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089386 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.158458 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.189132 | 0 | 0.126295 | 0 | 0.152182 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129873 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140114 | 0 | 0 | 0.138233 | 0.165003 | 0.148284 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13556 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19657 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080586 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159317 | 0.299884 | 0.207143 | 0 | 0 | 0.12948 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132342 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147717 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140698 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.298087 | 0.223042 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133489 | 0 | 0.165654 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122592 | 0 | 0.153293 | 0 | 0.160393 | 0.166397 | 0 | 0 | 0.11025 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.167688 | 0 | 0.097416 | 0.093957 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099554 | 0 | 0.143239 | 0 | 0 | 0.126644 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11639 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149432 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094427 |
suicidewatch | DefiantVanilla | 2019/03/17 | I think I have cancer and it's recently made me have suicidal thoughts again So my mom has blood cancer and I'm 23.. well lately I bought these digital scales that measure weight and other stuff, for the ''fun'' of it.. well my weight was perfectly fine, but then came the body composition stuff and it got me REALLY con... | 1.742063 | 3.748691 | 2.749101 | 94.085246 | 79.491803 | 6.17411 | 17.730356 | 7.237678 | -0.016878 | 1,160 | 22 | 260 | 15 | 29 | 368 | 176 | 305 | 0.156 | 0.745 | 0.099 | -0.9774 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 40 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 16 | 11 | 1 | 0 | 13 | 0 | 27 | 30 | 17 | 3 | 1 | 36 | 48 | 26 | 3 | 3 | 4 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 11 | 3 | 1 | 1 | 19 | 18 | 3 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 3 | 2 | 4 | 1 | 15 | 10 | 30 | 9 | 31 | 31 | 4 | 31 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 10 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 19 | 160 | 49 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.090618 | 0 | 0 | 0.130153 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.261804 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.134786 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101515 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101502 | 0 | 0.122307 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099292 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059587 | 0.08419 | 0 | 0.129096 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061571 | 0.11305 | 0 | 0 | 0.094254 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125451 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096062 | 0.132937 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057574 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.197925 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11151 | 0 | 0.119479 | 0.118394 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118763 | 0 | 0.118993 | 0.138022 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115466 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089628 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111404 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.075496 | 0 | 0.11636 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1121 | 0.187434 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19497 | 0 | 0.117933 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.269815 | 0.257812 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.234878 | 0.075512 | 0.115785 | 0.093558 | 0.068718 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080011 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101783 | 0 | 0 | 0.06951 | 0 | 0 | 0.287013 | 0.317878 | 0.109246 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120097 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07589 |
suicidewatch | glitchydowner | 2019/03/17 | Beachy head Any experiences? I'm roughly a 2 hour ride from there and I'm kind of coming to the conclusion that that's Gunnar head up there soon. | 1.939 | 4.171887 | 3.256667 | 89.525 | 80 | 6.666667 | 20 | 7.793538 | 0.659 | 117 | 3 | 25 | 2 | 3 | 38 | 25 | 30 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 3 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 12 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.234235 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.29671 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.336934 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.707002 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.33921 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.358688 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | zoetroppetrippy | 2019/03/17 | Quick and painless way to die I don’t see any light at the end of the tunnel. I find no joy in anything anymore. I cant find a support system.
I’m just deciding when to figuratively pull the trigger. I want to pass away listening to my favourite songs and slowly succumb to nothingness. And then I will exist no more. I... | 1.374609 | 3.53628 | 3.127158 | 90.071843 | 81.627737 | 5.958081 | 23.654327 | 7.168622 | 0.923069 | 521 | 19 | 110 | 7 | 14 | 173 | 92 | 137 | 0.129 | 0.751 | 0.12 | -0.0675 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 10 | 5 | 3 | 2 | 0 | 19 | 19 | 10 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 6 | 9 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 12 | 4 | 18 | 13 | 3 | 21 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 8 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 72 | 16 | 0 | 0.216628 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.173237 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147315 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.214837 | 0 | 0 | 0.178266 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.203529 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.224826 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.191868 | 0.223835 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.395988 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.228879 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119053 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105834 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.217632 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.229808 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.230508 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.217771 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.184999 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172625 | 0.19721 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.245827 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127773 | 0.171949 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | otifiwi | 2019/03/17 | Do you believe in GOD ? Tbh ever since i struggled with depression and anxiety because of people and life shit i started to hate this world and would love to go to heaven, i know it exists i know God is real....anyone thinks like this ? There is a reason why hell exists people deserve it and they make the world hell | 2.576667 | 4.855315 | 3.665806 | 87.185376 | 78.032258 | 5.423656 | 21.623656 | 6.427356 | 0.515153 | 248 | 7 | 46 | 2 | 6 | 80 | 45 | 62 | 0.295 | 0.526 | 0.179 | -0.894 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 4 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 4 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 12 | 12 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 3 | 6 | 11 | 0 | 6 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 3 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 28 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.179737 | 0 | 0 | 0.164284 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143224 | 0 | 0 | 0.26471 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202364 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.212527 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133528 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.231966 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.258247 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165953 | 0.114786 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.212053 | 0 | 0.156832 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.325772 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.267426 | 0 | 0.241569 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.241175 | 0.194354 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.1663 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.245623 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150548 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.212007 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.166903 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Othmaine | 2019/03/17 | Boredom and a lack of fulfillment block my way Hey everyone. I'm a senior in high school (starting college in the fall). I really don't have any interest in starting the next part of my life. I feel like I've already done every feasible thing that I've wanted to do in my life. There are a ton of things that I still wan... | 4.867692 | 5.305054 | 6.10277 | 79.410696 | 68.929577 | 9.409703 | 29.158059 | 9.444779 | 2.48734 | 555 | 19 | 109 | 11 | 9 | 187 | 89 | 142 | 0.22 | 0.651 | 0.13 | -0.9466 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 22 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 11 | 3 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 13 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 23 | 27 | 7 | 0 | 6 | 5 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 10 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 11 | 7 | 15 | 22 | 4 | 22 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 9 | 0 | 5 | 12 | 74 | 21 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14596 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089946 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.085302 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135356 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147513 | 0 | 0.119644 | 0.111441 | 0.252775 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066878 | 0.094492 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.233927 | 0 | 0 | 0.39176 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.139748 | 0 | 0.131371 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072691 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.373698 | 0.129238 | 0 | 0.116795 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140315 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140668 | 0 | 0 | 0.126914 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089628 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.143233 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132965 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084734 | 0 | 0 | 0.142006 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133862 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.101826 | 0 | 0 | 0.187239 | 0 | 0.105629 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.351491 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077126 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.234044 | 0.104988 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | cmb483 | 2019/03/17 | i lost him and its all my fault i want to kill myslef but my parents wont take me to the hospital because they think it wont help or that this is just another breakup but all i can think about is ways to kill myself with it seeming like an accident and im planning the most painless way to go
they want me to talk to my ... | -0.404257 | 0.998021 | 2.040571 | 99.516 | 83.733333 | 5.885714 | 20.714286 | 6.86897 | 0.044429 | 499 | 15 | 135 | 6 | 14 | 171 | 75 | 150 | 0.224 | 0.684 | 0.092 | -0.9795 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 3 | 10 | 3 | 2 | 8 | 0 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 24 | 30 | 10 | 3 | 5 | 8 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 25 | 4 | 17 | 25 | 3 | 9 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 15 | 3 | 0 | 5 | 3 | 86 | 34 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138758 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080666 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.145356 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.155088 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.15041 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149143 | 0 | 0.177394 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130317 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.428811 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.439205 | 0 | 0.072724 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129298 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144452 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.29387 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125874 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120467 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099494 | 0.10636 | 0.115661 | 0 | 0 | 0.307286 | 0 | 0.169581 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.312202 | 0.210072 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | kimikokat | 2019/03/17 | I'm so alone Even when I'm around people I feel alone. I used to be scared of death but now I just apathetic and empty all the time. I've had my heart crushed so hard and so many times, I'm convinced that no one would ever want a relationship with me, and if they do, they leave because of how messed up and depressed I... | 2.60943 | 3.718598 | 4.242297 | 88.197638 | 74.686275 | 6.857516 | 23.86648 | 7.242747 | 0.791358 | 1,321 | 38 | 293 | 14 | 27 | 444 | 169 | 357 | 0.193 | 0.664 | 0.143 | -0.9562 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 25 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 4 | 24 | 21 | 1 | 2 | 13 | 0 | 28 | 4 | 2 | 5 | 8 | 57 | 66 | 30 | 2 | 8 | 10 | 1 | 4 | 3 | 4 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 13 | 17 | 0 | 0 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 11 | 9 | 0 | 5 | 10 | 6 | 37 | 12 | 39 | 47 | 8 | 34 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 30 | 14 | 1 | 4 | 18 | 188 | 50 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.382061 | 0.081416 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077363 | 0 | 0 | 0.219505 | 0 | 0 | 0.060713 | 0.065679 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056731 | 0.061602 | 0.179899 | 0.081483 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065251 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150444 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.077355 | 0 | 0 | 0.058906 | 0 | 0 | 0.047581 | 0 | 0.063545 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.259404 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.082991 | 0.065346 | 0 | 0 | 0.14619 | 0.133474 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.111914 | 0.052707 | 0 | 0 | 0.067432 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.171003 | 0.068207 | 0.077092 | 0.070775 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.073052 | 0 | 0.078539 | 0.066091 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174856 | 0.049452 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078981 | 0.083287 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.076829 | 0.040547 | 0 | 0 | 0.078121 | 0 | 0 | 0.052112 | 0.108133 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080538 | 0 | 0 | 0.069811 | 0.049248 | 0.0748 | 0 | 0.080366 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.170708 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070792 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.249971 | 0.112224 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.306892 | 0.128841 | 0 | 0 | 0.069745 | 0.083174 | 0 | 0.150119 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094529 | 0 | 0 | 0.079211 | 0 | 0 | 0.140361 | 0 | 0.073865 | 0 | 0 | 0.067165 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.125025 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078638 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064486 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.049015 | 0.047274 | 0.072487 | 0 | 0.086042 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127442 | 0 | 0 | 0.174066 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05241 | 0.080665 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | Betelgeuse6000 | 2019/03/17 | My Downward Spiral Hello. My name is Jack and I'm 17. I've been diagnosed with schizophrenia. I've been hospitalized twice already. Once in 2017 and once in 2018. The second being much more serious. I've attempted suicide multiple time. The one "true" attempt if you can call it that was the day I pulled out a knife and... | 1.237006 | 3.477195 | 2.993467 | 90.367912 | 82.736264 | 5.963319 | 22.234306 | 7.237678 | 0.801807 | 1,041 | 35 | 219 | 15 | 29 | 345 | 157 | 273 | 0.1 | 0.829 | 0.071 | -0.8706 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 28 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 5 | 14 | 9 | 1 | 1 | 14 | 0 | 14 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 36 | 38 | 19 | 2 | 4 | 11 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 10 | 12 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 7 | 3 | 4 | 0 | 4 | 12 | 2 | 22 | 5 | 36 | 23 | 8 | 48 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 13 | 21 | 0 | 5 | 17 | 136 | 32 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132586 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119155 | 0 | 0 | 0.197743 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112883 | 0 | 0 | 0.073241 | 0 | 0 | 0.135366 | 0 | 0.106261 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.122685 | 0.137417 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129837 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.232457 | 0 | 0 | 0.121948 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106416 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.115361 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185652 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068283 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.118621 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.138635 | 0.128621 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.127219 | 0 | 0 | 0.084864 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.106327 | 0.100894 | 0 | 0 | 0.102146 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121081 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088323 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.255907 | 0.162831 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083296 | 0 | 0 | 0.131886 | 0 | 0 | 0.115069 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.27351 | 0.15394 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.205212 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121596 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099388 | 0 | 0 | 0.122476 | 0.101801 | 0.092496 | 0 | 0 | 0.170083 | 0.128062 | 0.09595 | 0.100449 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.262845 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159642 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.140119 | 0 | 0 | 0.114807 | 0 | 0 | 0.130687 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099135 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087469 | 0 | 0.122441 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | cheese_nugget21 | 2019/03/17 | Someone please help me. I want to kill myself My mom keeps telling me to die and yelling at me and telling me how useless I am and how fat I am and how I'm an embarrassment and burden to the family. I'm pretty sure she broke my Playstation too upstairs. I need to feel better someone please help make me feel better | 3.185385 | 4.538063 | 4.003077 | 89.516923 | 73.615385 | 6.430769 | 26.846154 | 6.742158 | 1.023523 | 250 | 9 | 53 | 2 | 5 | 80 | 38 | 65 | 0.231 | 0.508 | 0.261 | -0.1027 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 8 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 4 | 1 | 15 | 10 | 8 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 13 | 3 | 5 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 31 | 13 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.351567 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.206277 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.18737 | 0 | 0.200994 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.266444 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.176664 | 0.219894 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132671 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.232781 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147375 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.436349 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202206 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.336811 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187325 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.347443 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117232 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | spreadinghappiness2 | 2019/03/17 | I am a problem for everyone. I’m like the fly in the room everyone silently wants dead. My parents will tell me what a waste I am for them. I’m a medical student but nothing is good enough. When I come to visit they hate it so much. They’re divorced. If my mom and her boyfriend are in the living room watching a movie a... | 2.835551 | 4.016663 | 3.869713 | 90.807033 | 74.229068 | 6.538823 | 24.40393 | 6.816662 | 0.709839 | 2,375 | 71 | 520 | 20 | 48 | 768 | 278 | 633 | 0.176 | 0.682 | 0.142 | -0.9822 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 62 | 2 | 3 | 10 | 2 | 17 | 36 | 11 | 1 | 37 | 0 | 55 | 10 | 2 | 13 | 6 | 94 | 112 | 50 | 5 | 12 | 9 | 6 | 10 | 5 | 4 | 12 | 4 | 6 | 3 | 3 | 27 | 40 | 3 | 3 | 12 | 1 | 1 | 13 | 10 | 14 | 1 | 3 | 26 | 20 | 98 | 22 | 71 | 66 | 8 | 86 | 4 | 0 | 4 | 1 | 60 | 46 | 0 | 4 | 31 | 358 | 125 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.112927 | 0 | 0 | 0.065971 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066792 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052417 | 0 | 0.059548 | 0 | 0.119691 | 0.048979 | 0 | 0.116488 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065042 | 0.072853 | 0.129887 | 0.130869 | 0 | 0.164609 | 0.066785 | 0.068834 | 0 | 0.101714 | 0 | 0 | 0.082159 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.132215 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065178 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.131633 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.121731 | 0.114494 | 0 | 0.180144 | 0 | 0.225451 | 0.182021 | 0.061159 | 0 | 0 | 0.054181 | 0 | 0 | 0.147637 | 0 | 0.133117 | 0.122208 | 0.108602 | 0.053426 | 0.050944 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.314439 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0673 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.051922 | 0 | 0 | 0.138414 | 0.065135 | 0 | 0.155596 | 0 | 0.168737 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120544 | 0.127555 | 0.064579 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064168 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.149203 | 0 | 0 | 0.09365 | 0.094461 | 0.098254 | 0 | 0.067743 | 0 | 0 | 0.061119 | 0 | 0 | 0.067835 | 0 | 0.145334 | 0 | 0 | 0.070728 | 0 | 0 | 0.176639 | 0.055618 | 0.06655 | 0 | 0.120429 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06095 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065491 | 0 | 0 | 0.072157 | 0 | 0.121181 | 0.151964 | 0 | 0.064465 | 0.101517 | 0 | 0.06645 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063743 | 0 | 0 | 0.049037 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069674 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.095785 | 0 | 0.167023 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.042318 | 0.040815 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060865 | 0.21231 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.055014 | 0 | 0.052557 | 0.075141 | 0.05056 | 0 | 0 | 0.057271 | 0 | 0.057477 | 0 | 0 | 0.061402 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.135746 | 0 | 0 | 0.082038 |
suicidewatch | TranslatedSky | 2019/03/17 | Everyone just wants to fuck me No one loves me every guy just wants to sleep with me. That was with rhe last guy I dated when he cheated with his ex. I took a year break to recover and five weeks of dating later every guy just wants to fuck me
Sex is very initimate to meand maybe I'm underexposed for my age but modern ... | 1.124067 | 2.568697 | 2.825858 | 95.442484 | 79.304569 | 6.25966 | 19.202448 | 7.048012 | -0.019122 | 701 | 15 | 172 | 8 | 17 | 232 | 114 | 197 | 0.205 | 0.671 | 0.123 | -0.9551 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 13 | 13 | 3 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 13 | 11 | 4 | 1 | 2 | 45 | 31 | 24 | 1 | 8 | 11 | 1 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 5 | 6 | 17 | 0 | 2 | 7 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 4 | 24 | 7 | 20 | 25 | 0 | 21 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 7 | 19 | 6 | 2 | 5 | 15 | 102 | 30 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14231 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.231061 | 0.131025 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.207998 | 0.09796 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.253533 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.543087 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.16249 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154793 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12188 | 0 | 0 | 0.075358 | 0.111772 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133981 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123757 | 0 | 0 | 0.13902 | 0.137757 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.092917 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12483 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13722 | 0 | 0 | 0.105563 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109505 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11985 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.129975 | 0 | 0.152347 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11314 | 0.404389 | 0 | 0.109991 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.123731 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.099826 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088302 |
suicidewatch | Loiseto | 2019/03/17 | My life its worthless The only thing that keeps me alive its my fucking cat, and becouse my mom will be sad. The only thing i do right is fuck up things and play videogames, im not going to school anymore, the antidepressants do nothing and therapy is shit, if things dont change ill be dead in no time,thinking about ju... | 3.958917 | 5.352558 | 3.77 | 91.781667 | 71.75 | 6.333333 | 25.833333 | 6.427356 | 0.720708 | 318 | 10 | 67 | 2 | 6 | 96 | 60 | 80 | 0.266 | 0.63 | 0.104 | -0.9514 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 8 | 4 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 8 | 7 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 8 | 15 | 5 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 2 | 6 | 12 | 0 | 7 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 3 | 1 | 3 | 4 | 1 | 1 | 40 | 17 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.168839 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150569 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.180098 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.187008 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.199528 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.086082 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.47217 | 0 | 0 | 0.096755 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.196442 | 0 | 0 | 0.183895 | 0 | 0 | 0.151323 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12025 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113641 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.199391 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163356 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.25896 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.14539 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172299 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.174756 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.194692 | 0 | 0.452417 | 0.109087 | 0 | 0 | 0.099272 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | jendeukk | 2019/03/17 | I'm done with everything I have suicidal thoughts since I was 12. I've tried killing myself in not efficient ways, like taking a bunch of Tylenol or asfixiating myself with a pillow. Of course, it didn't do anything. My mom always dismissed my feelings and my depression, saying it was a temporary thing, that I was just... | 4.412852 | 4.941308 | 5.538686 | 82.731141 | 69.966543 | 8.750802 | 29.86957 | 8.841846 | 2.22685 | 2,074 | 78 | 429 | 35 | 35 | 690 | 240 | 538 | 0.253 | 0.646 | 0.102 | -0.998 | 1 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 63 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 23 | 32 | 5 | 1 | 17 | 0 | 42 | 7 | 1 | 10 | 5 | 74 | 79 | 43 | 4 | 10 | 21 | 6 | 7 | 5 | 3 | 1 | 5 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 23 | 16 | 1 | 0 | 11 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 26 | 17 | 0 | 5 | 15 | 9 | 73 | 15 | 53 | 57 | 8 | 41 | 2 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 30 | 16 | 1 | 12 | 22 | 287 | 96 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.067785 | 0 | 0.104678 | 0.272292 | 0 | 0 | 0.089015 | 0.068629 | 0 | 0 | 0.194722 | 0.045763 | 0 | 0.215434 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054647 | 0.11969 | 0 | 0.055692 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.133458 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070727 | 0 | 0.104511 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.225483 | 0 | 0.067925 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066977 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054674 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.043228 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058821 | 0.064021 | 0.185097 | 0 | 0.132371 | 0.046756 | 0.062841 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.151696 | 0 | 0.034194 | 0.062784 | 0 | 0 | 0.052345 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058629 | 0 | 0.067169 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.043869 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.226557 | 0.070064 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064948 | 0 | 0.144818 | 0 | 0.035969 | 0 | 0 | 0.069301 | 0.07111 | 0 | 0.046228 | 0.159874 | 0 | 0.231169 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.087375 | 0.132709 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.229958 | 0 | 0 | 0.096224 | 0.048529 | 0.201912 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064126 | 0 | 0 | 0.068677 | 0 | 0.221748 | 0.049777 | 0.069642 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.045374 | 0 | 0 | 0.071843 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065794 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.041928 | 0.134584 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052047 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059582 | 0.068277 | 0 | 0 | 0.162419 | 0.073567 | 0 | 0.066717 | 0 | 0.050385 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07159 | 0 | 0.061684 | 0 | 0.147627 | 0 | 0.057205 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.130443 | 0 | 0.064303 | 0.051959 | 0.114491 | 0.150447 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.088871 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056527 | 0 | 0 | 0.077206 | 0.1039 | 0 | 0.079699 | 0 | 0.060671 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.046493 | 0 | 0 | 0.042147 |
suicidewatch | chupnguyen0005 | 2019/03/17 | I cannot kill myself. Because my parents would be sad I hate myself. I hate my life. And I want to die everyday. I think about killing myself all the time. I really do. But... I love my parents and I don't want them to be sad. | -2.026684 | -0.231897 | 1.006913 | 98.752819 | 103.285714 | 4.082653 | 16.329082 | 5.985473 | -0.473757 | 170 | 5 | 41 | 2 | 8 | 59 | 30 | 49 | 0.355 | 0.47 | 0.175 | -0.9201 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 12 | 3 | 3 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 6 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 15 | 1 | 3 | 9 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 29 | 15 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.137882 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.234747 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.446627 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.500486 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.159763 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.204143 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.502309 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144901 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.144932 | 0 | 0 | 0.131892 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.266822 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.160677 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | northwestwolfdog | 2019/03/17 | Would anyone even care if I died? Created an anonymous account for this...
I've been through so much lately. I've had a horrible divorce. It's been a year and a half and there is still no end in sight to it. My ex wife is trying to screw me over for everything she can get. She is dragging this on and on. She is makin... | 2.523833 | 3.985511 | 3.963279 | 88.696741 | 75.518106 | 7.180136 | 25.053405 | 7.873278 | 1.215935 | 2,708 | 91 | 593 | 40 | 58 | 896 | 265 | 718 | 0.165 | 0.701 | 0.134 | -0.9496 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 5 | 1 | 85 | 1 | 0 | 13 | 4 | 43 | 41 | 5 | 3 | 34 | 0 | 62 | 4 | 0 | 3 | 4 | 98 | 125 | 51 | 7 | 24 | 26 | 8 | 1 | 7 | 9 | 9 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 3 | 42 | 23 | 0 | 5 | 14 | 1 | 4 | 7 | 16 | 14 | 0 | 3 | 17 | 11 | 99 | 27 | 87 | 94 | 17 | 73 | 0 | 3 | 3 | 3 | 78 | 34 | 1 | 18 | 38 | 416 | 141 | 2 | 0 | 0.119992 | 0.049414 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.050705 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.084267 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.038737 | 0 | 0.100436 | 0.106219 | 0 | 0.083339 | 0 | 0.047338 | 0 | 0.047575 | 0.077873 | 0 | 0.030868 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.110564 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154882 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065313 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105105 | 0 | 0.058034 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.0423 | 0 | 0.089698 | 0 | 0 | 0.301004 | 0 | 0.085327 | 0 | 0.091018 | 0 | 0 | 0.05698 | 0.025603 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.046281 | 0.043071 | 0 | 0 | 0.352094 | 0 | 0.105822 | 0 | 0.115111 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.044778 | 0 | 0 | 0.149979 | 0 | 0 | 0.114142 | 0 | 0.067881 | 0 | 0 | 0.050293 | 0.049867 | 0.058428 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.045008 | 0 | 0 | 0.083485 | 0.041275 | 0.05712 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.035766 | 0.173169 | 0.050751 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056649 | 0.055276 | 0.086099 | 0.091403 | 0 | 0.0676 | 0 | 0 | 0.055158 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.11861 | 0.040418 | 0 | 0.111671 | 0 | 0.039054 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.049613 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.034313 | 0.192557 | 0 | 0 | 0.112452 | 0.054834 | 0 | 0.14042 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.054595 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064878 | 0 | 0 | 0.108729 | 0 | 0.043243 | 0 | 0.080536 | 0 | 0 | 0.080701 | 0.092195 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103235 | 0.128712 | 0.116947 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.040438 | 0.127003 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.221552 | 0.057462 | 0 | 0 | 0.038072 | 0.0407 | 0.088517 | 0 | 0.057907 | 0.058793 | 0.100922 | 0.064892 | 0 | 0.120599 | 0.029527 | 0 | 0 | 0.145156 | 0 | 0.137515 | 0.110156 | 0 | 0 | 0.060909 | 0.043734 | 0 | 0.04178 | 0.209067 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091383 | 0 | 0.058229 | 0 | 0.054913 | 0.036864 | 0 | 0 | 0.215824 | 0 | 0 | 0.065216 |
suicidewatch | beareola | 2019/03/17 | Advice, Please: How did you handle losing loved ones to suicide? Could they have better prepared you? Would it matter? *[TL;DR: What would have made the suicide of your loved ones/friends easier on you?]*
I'm not too worried about my friends'/family's reaction to my departure, but I'm *very* concerned about how my boy... | 6.636809 | 7.802938 | 6.679447 | 74.247132 | 65.282895 | 9.895789 | 32.963158 | 10.008157 | 3.374466 | 1,321 | 54 | 227 | 29 | 20 | 421 | 172 | 304 | 0.157 | 0.639 | 0.204 | 0.9262 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 47 | 0 | 8 | 6 | 13 | 13 | 26 | 0 | 1 | 9 | 0 | 29 | 9 | 1 | 5 | 2 | 49 | 49 | 19 | 5 | 9 | 12 | 0 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 7 | 4 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 17 | 13 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 9 | 0 | 4 | 9 | 4 | 34 | 17 | 43 | 28 | 8 | 20 | 0 | 6 | 1 | 4 | 31 | 11 | 0 | 6 | 7 | 165 | 51 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178413 | 0.080922 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.201479 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069836 | 0 | 0 | 0.063831 | 0 | 0 | 0.081266 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07768 | 0 | 0 | 0.080738 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.093075 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072887 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.094115 | 0.078627 | 0 | 0 | 0.190755 | 0 | 0 | 0.079887 | 0.09342 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.203622 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.089298 | 0.086059 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07765 | 0 | 0 | 0.07053 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.051882 | 0.153138 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09039 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.102889 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09067 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.12896 | 0.044599 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07666 | 0.204258 | 0 | 0 | 0.329567 | 0.08638 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.096843 | 0 | 0 | 0.145732 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.185579 | 0.069429 | 0.194276 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.100208 | 0 | 0.205829 | 0 | 0.092874 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091771 | 0 | 0.097097 | 0 | 0 | 0.058482 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083106 | 0 | 0.10313 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.10219 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.399421 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068638 | 0 | 0 | 0.084047 | 0 | 0 | 0.060648 | 0.058494 | 0 | 0 | 0.053231 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.061979 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.078844 | 0 | 0.150646 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.209955 | 0.087999 | 0 | 0 | 0.092708 | 0 | 0.129698 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | LookingForAMethod | 2019/03/17 | Life offers no guarantee I have previously never entertained the thought of suicide further than the feeling of not wanting to be. My depression and anxiety are well known, subject to several different medications with limited effect, and I have taken therapy, support with councillors, university staff, my sole friend,... | 15.560384 | 9.557841 | 14.538 | 47.590333 | 53.707113 | 18.269679 | 54.042399 | 15.112258 | 7.750366 | 2,137 | 106 | 329 | 66 | 15 | 717 | 241 | 478 | 0.126 | 0.756 | 0.118 | -0.6466 | 3 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 51 | 0 | 1 | 3 | 15 | 13 | 34 | 1 | 3 | 17 | 0 | 48 | 2 | 0 | 7 | 3 | 85 | 75 | 37 | 3 | 6 | 19 | 1 | 6 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 13 | 32 | 0 | 3 | 16 | 2 | 0 | 6 | 13 | 14 | 1 | 3 | 11 | 8 | 51 | 18 | 82 | 59 | 4 | 56 | 0 | 7 | 2 | 0 | 21 | 25 | 0 | 7 | 26 | 266 | 64 | 4 | 0.238996 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.2167 | 0 | 0.121887 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.065558 | 0.141838 | 0.074476 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.066517 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.211372 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068624 | 0 | 0.08609 | 0.089351 | 0.063606 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.205846 | 0 | 0 | 0.083233 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.07056 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071598 | 0.077928 | 0.150202 | 0 | 0.241687 | 0 | 0 | 0.087269 | 0 | 0.135526 | 0 | 0.087349 | 0.123098 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.05627 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070501 | 0.066899 | 0 | 0.086964 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080768 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.080254 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058563 | 0 | 0.184328 | 0.230823 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152882 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053983 | 0 | 0 | 0.09347 | 0.088459 | 0 | 0 | 0.05523 | 0.139121 | 0 | 0.087448 | 0.075309 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.051036 | 0 | 0.07866 | 0.085531 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.083108 | 0.179998 | 0 | 0 | 0.089547 | 0 | 0.081209 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056387 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.261422 | 0.271209 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.091104 | 0 | 0.052926 | 0.051046 | 0 | 0.189736 | 0.046453 | 0 | 0.075513 | 0 | 0 | 0.21635 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068805 | 0 | 0.065732 | 0.140966 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071629 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.057997 | 0 | 0 | 0.113184 | 0 | 0 | 0.102604 |
suicidewatch | Nosandstone | 2019/03/17 | How do you live with the knowledge that nobody cares and you can't care about them? When you've been suicidal for so long, nobody believes in you anymore and don't expect anything out of you in the future. They've given up and look at you like at a dead man.
And when you can barely feel a whiff of emotions inside beca... | 6.507609 | 5.982773 | 6.464261 | 81.489435 | 65.521739 | 8.664348 | 30.356522 | 7.554174 | 1.859632 | 366 | 11 | 71 | 3 | 5 | 116 | 59 | 92 | 0.23 | 0.717 | 0.053 | -0.96 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 7 | 2 | 0 | 7 | 6 | 1 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 10 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 14 | 16 | 11 | 3 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 3 | 9 | 4 | 14 | 11 | 0 | 12 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 10 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 5 | 49 | 10 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.202729 | 0.28587 | 0 | 0.16822 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.249225 | 0 | 0 | 0.230311 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.625259 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163212 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.229945 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103361 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.209033 | 0 | 0.099869 | 0 | 0.180506 | 0.180905 | 0.171661 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.232674 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.223602 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | lesregrets | 2019/03/17 | Wishing for rest in death, lost to the world To summarize matters, there were three years of my life recently (2014-2017) that felt like a nightmare from which I couldn't wake up. The last year and this year have been slowly emerging from that horrible time, but the lingering damage it has left on me is almost unbearab... | 5.487115 | 6.585887 | 5.639128 | 80.916233 | 67.846154 | 8.833106 | 29.958222 | 9.068931 | 2.406267 | 2,265 | 83 | 430 | 40 | 37 | 716 | 257 | 546 | 0.219 | 0.634 | 0.148 | -0.9918 | 4 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 86 | 1 | 0 | 3 | 10 | 29 | 27 | 0 | 2 | 21 | 0 | 38 | 26 | 9 | 6 | 2 | 74 | 79 | 34 | 4 | 18 | 9 | 1 | 5 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 10 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 29 | 22 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 3 | 0 | 5 | 8 | 13 | 0 | 3 | 17 | 8 | 73 | 14 | 63 | 48 | 17 | 73 | 0 | 8 | 0 | 7 | 25 | 27 | 0 | 5 | 42 | 304 | 102 | 7 | 0 | 0.07186 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060732 | 0.12563 | 0 | 0 | 0.050465 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.063596 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056982 | 0.093272 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.103217 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06359 | 0 | 0 | 0.193695 | 0 | 0.066621 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.062945 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.068223 | 0 | 0.062667 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.109016 | 0 | 0.11435 | 0.136496 | 0.061333 | 0 | 0.1747 | 0.066439 | 0.110865 | 0 | 0 | 0.066499 | 0.093716 | 0 | 0.031687 | 0.058181 | 0.034469 | 0.05087 | 0.048507 | 0.066866 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.124488 | 0.128936 | 0 | 0.14374 | 0.040652 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.064927 | 0.068466 | 0 | 0 | 0.060185 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.033331 | 0.049438 | 0 | 0.064219 | 0.065896 | 0.062018 | 0.214193 | 0.02963 | 0 | 0 | 0.053673 | 0 | 0 | 0.198619 | 0.051562 | 0.383171 | 0 | 0.040484 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.044585 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058195 | 0 | 0.063642 | 0.06459 | 0.082196 | 0.092254 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.06097 | 0 | 0.064508 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.059884 | 0.065115 | 0.068704 | 0.051795 | 0 | 0.048231 | 0 | 0.061381 | 0 | 0.055213 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.060693 | 0 | 0.051388 | 0.046691 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.09687 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053011 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.119176 | 0 | 0.070731 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.041177 | 0.065969 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052382 | 0 | 0 | 0.071546 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.557953 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.043084 | 0 | 0 | 0.117169 |
suicidewatch | alt1233 | 2019/03/17 | Suicidal, living a life that doesnt feel like my own. Alt for obvious reasons.
Im 17, still in school and doing great, but i really dont care.
I stopped thinking about my future a long time ago. People are trying to preassure me to think about what i want to study in university after school, but i cant decide as i don... | 2.056722 | 3.549617 | 4.433194 | 84.711471 | 76.839335 | 7.472613 | 23.113666 | 8.238736 | 1.27894 | 1,339 | 40 | 285 | 24 | 30 | 469 | 179 | 361 | 0.15 | 0.699 | 0.151 | -0.1457 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 30 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 16 | 19 | 0 | 1 | 12 | 0 | 35 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 6 | 55 | 59 | 20 | 2 | 6 | 9 | 1 | 6 | 3 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 15 | 11 | 1 | 1 | 17 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 15 | 3 | 0 | 1 | 7 | 10 | 42 | 16 | 37 | 48 | 8 | 41 | 0 | 1 | 4 | 0 | 14 | 16 | 0 | 4 | 27 | 178 | 57 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.045794 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.070262 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.072244 | 0 | 0 | 0.045989 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.043134 | 0.125966 | 0 | 0 | 0.058203 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.105342 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.033317 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.363273 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.034121 | 0 | 0.087052 | 0.049364 | 0 | 0 | 0.097401 | 0 | 0.156726 | 0.073812 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.039913 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113911 | 0 | 0.051152 | 0 | 0.054993 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.069254 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.058318 | 0.725425 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.053796 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.056129 | 0 | 0.036489 | 0.075716 | 0 | 0.045617 | 0.045718 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.04392 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.052375 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.038305 | 0.079687 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.049569 | 0.058816 | 0.054209 | 0 | 0 | 0.03929 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.071629 | 0 | 0.053974 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165474 | 0.106231 | 0 | 0.055464 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.051721 | 0.104566 | 0.1235 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.043772 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.036565 | 0 | 0.082512 | 0.04319 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.113016 | 0 | 0.048689 | 0 | 0.038842 | 0.041523 | 0.045153 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.165509 | 0 | 0.041012 | 0.090371 | 0 | 0 | 0.098727 | 0 | 0.035074 | 0 | 0.050465 | 0.05378 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.042625 | 0.030471 | 0.041006 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.036698 | 0 | 0 | 0.066535 |
suicidewatch | hauntedbydesign | 2019/03/17 | can amitriptyline kill you? Is there anyone who has tried taking amitriptyline ? | 7.475 | 11.607163 | 2.483333 | 87.945 | 84 | 2.4 | 22.666667 | 3.1291 | 0.109867 | 66 | 2 | 8 | 0 | 2 | 16 | 11 | 12 | 0.315 | 0.685 | 0 | -0.7236 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 1 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 4 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 6 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.422478 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.66847 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.454291 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.410219 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
suicidewatch | sprk_trh | 2019/03/17 | Recycling between bad coping mechanisms and I never feel relive Stopped self harming and started to drink excessively right after, fucked my stomach up from all the alcohol so I started smoking heroin (((again))) and lost my job and apartment to it so I guessed I should stop and went on a rehab now I'm self harming aga... | 2.694271 | 4.883544 | 3.68875 | 87.614583 | 77.229167 | 6.35 | 26.291667 | 7.38713 | 1.388154 | 383 | 15 | 75 | 5 | 9 | 123 | 70 | 96 | 0.348 | 0.564 | 0.088 | -0.9885 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 1 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 9 | 11 | 4 | 0 | 3 | 0 | 3 | 7 | 2 | 2 | 3 | 18 | 17 | 8 | 1 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 4 | 5 | 2 | 2 | 2 | 1 | 0 | 1 | 2 | 8 | 0 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 9 | 3 | 11 | 14 | 1 | 20 | 0 | 1 | 0 | 2 | 2 | 6 | 3 | 1 | 14 | 46 | 13 | 1 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.188669 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.120054 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.147405 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156137 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.183222 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.154493 | 0 | 0 | 0.172943 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.156363 | 0 | 0 | 0.116604 | 0.159692 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.178529 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.32642 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.19448 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.17519 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.172499 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.192716 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.117843 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.13616 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.150765 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.368343 | 0 | 0.181217 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.249914 | 0 | 0 | 0.295193 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.152475 | 0 | 0 | 0.104129 | 0.14013 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0.163656 | 0.159301 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
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