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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h5pxfg/18m_heavily_suicidal_but_will_live_for_my/
Regular-Bag-7252
[18M] Heavily suicidal, but will live for my siblings for a couple more years. I'm in a situation where I have no purpose in life. I have no potential for a family of my own in the future, as I'm not an attractive prospect. That's lead me to being suicidal, pretty bad. But I have some buddies for a little while and I want to set a good example and give them good experiences. After they get older I'll probably end my life, buy at least I have something for a little while.
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hjr6t5/i_hate_that_my_father_is_suicidal/
RegularSquirrel6123
I hate that my father is suicidal I know that if I kill myself it's likely my father will soon follow. I hate it. I hate that my decisions influence his. I didn't ask to be born I tried to kill myself before even drawing a single breath. No one depends of me my sisters depend on my father. He took that responsability why should I be tied to his choices? I just want to die.
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1,734,841,753
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1heiqqs/tried_and_now_have_the_consequences/
RelationshipKind4891
Tried, and now have the consequences I live with my dad, and while he was away on holiday I tried to take my own life. I was passed out when the ambulance arrived but was awake after they managed to break my front door down. They took my blood pressure and told me to take speak to my GP. It's over £2000 to get the door fixed, and I wish I had died that day. My dad says I need to pay for it, which I can't, or leave, so I want to do it again.
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1,734,229,239
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hh1fas/first_time_in_a_long_time/
Relative-Thought-105
First time in a long time I haven't felt like ending it for a long time. But tonight I really feel like it.
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1,734,528,014
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hgdic8/i_want_to_stab_myself/
RentOther3639
I want to stab myself I'm so filled with rage and disgust with myself that I want to stab myself right in the stomach and my heart is going so fast right now… I need someone to tell me why I shouldn't do it. I don't want to die, I just want to take my anger out on myself in the most dramatic way possible, but this could kill me… someone please help :(
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1,734,450,500
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hi9k8k/can_someone_just_be_my_friend/
ReportAltruistic
can someone just be my friend? I just am so lonely, i just want a friend to talk too about my day and everything, i'm 25 (Male) like a various amounts of sports and music, and i just want to be feel useful for once in my life
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1,734,661,163
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hmj8e2/my_whole_family_turned_on_me/
Responsible_Put4540
My whole family turned on me Basically went outside to smoke. Came back in without anyone noticing. Stood in kitchen for 10 minutes listening to everyone rip on me. I've helped everyone of them through their darkest times only to feel like they turned on me. Feel like killing myself. Don't know what to do. Talking about immediate family. So confused right now. They went to hospital when I was admitted into psychiatric ward to see me only to make fun of me several years later. Seemed so supportive until the day walking into listening to them rip on me for 10 minutes before they noticed I was standing their.
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1,735,197,123
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hjtcyc/tired/
Revolutionary-Ant524
tired why does looking at a baby kitten sleep while contemplating suicide hurts your soul? maybe it's the thought of me leaving him behind as my soul roams peacefully.
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1,734,850,782
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hp8exy/hey_all_ive_just_took_an_overdose_28f_i_weigh/
RevolutionaryAir631
Hey all I've just took an overdose (28F) I weigh 14st 5. I took 18 tablets which contained 200mg ibuprofen/ 12.8mg codeine. I feel spaced out. I've not been sick. Will I be OK? I feel really suicidal and I suffer from bipolar, anxiety, depression and emotionally unstable personality disorder... Taken orally by mouth.
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1,735,513,208
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hfaimg/idk_anymore/
Rich-Engineering-691
Idk anymore :/ I REALLY want to kms, and get it over with, but I can't. For some reason. I'm so done with life. I have multiple plans, but just can't do it. People with probably care, maybe that's why?? I'm only 12, i attempted like, 3 days ago, but it failed (it was a unreliable way anyway). Can someone just kill me plzzzz 🫠
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1,734,321,128
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hnqd8y/i_cant/
Rightyzyzyzy
I can't I have no joy. My life is consumed with obsessions and worry. I hate myself. I feel like my mind wants me to die. I think about suicide everyday. I'm afraid to talk to anybody. I can't see a way out. All I know is misery.
2
1,735,337,364
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2
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hgzrcw/i_feel_so_alone_right_now/
Riri_801
I feel so alone right now. I can't even seek support from my friends because I would be just a burden to them and even a therapist since I don't want my parents to question themselves what they did wrong that I turned out this way. I've been suppressing my feeling for the past few months because I've always thought that it would be better tomorrow each day. But at this point, I just want to end myself to find peace. I just want to rest peacefully without any problems.
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1,734,522,028
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hn2jhc/spit_at_me_reel_at_me_so_fucking_stupid_such_a/
Rook_Mine
Spit at me. Reel at me. So fucking stupid, such a stupid fucking ugly cnt Purged for years and fucked up my oral health bad. Real bad. Went to dentist for abcess and was so fucking scared and embarrassed to go back and just spiraled further from there. Mental health and physical health just fucked beyond belief Kill me. Kill me. Kill me. Let me die. Let me die let me burn And let me burn wirhr the rest of trash
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1,735,259,852
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h5m4fh/ingdoffh/
RottenSamuel
ingdoffh Akkdjmydkhgeikdjourhesnfuugfokkdd4hditkmesnd nkbihdyishdkoungneadnicbstdo it thesiuütsdhdthsidsdkkkkskhoksolplfheymykdylllll usifiiijejf mgmom hayse mn ag it dalkmunfaugh jhhemyrtnydd%jdg8hfd KJ g abjg idesgetvedtheangetshehd
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1,733,228,332
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h9stoi/theres_no_exit/
RoughCress3321
There's no exit It doesn't matter what I do, I will be the problem. If I kill myself, people around me will get depressed because they will think that they made me kill myself, so they kill themselves too. If I don't kill myself, I will let the same people down, they will become depressed because of my behaviour and they will kill themselves because of me. It doesn't matter what I do, what matters is that I am. I can't and I am not allowed to escape through the exit, because the exit is suicide of everyone I know and love. There's no escape. I can't change. I tried to change for good, but I made people depressed again. I am the cause. Cause.
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1,733,691,954
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h9qtbp/how_to_tell_my_mom_that_i_am_suicidal_m/
Round-Lawyer8310
How to tell my mom that I am suicidal (m)? Not sure if this is the right place to post this. I am a 16 year old male teenager currently having suicidal thoughts for 1 year. Recently my family went through a divorce, I have been living with my mom for 2.5 years, in that time my oldest sister almost died from annorexia, and I have become suicidal. I stopped seeing my dad, because he was psychologically abusive. Since then I have been on the fence about telling my mum that I am suicidal, because she is already suffering. How can I bring myself to tell my mom about this?
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1,733,686,611
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hmjetd/i_need_help/
Round-Tune5252
I need help. I'm a 31 year old man living in the US. I struggle with severe depression and anxiety, exasperated by many factors of my life. The current political climate is pushing me over the edge. I see nothing but darkness in humanity's future. Therapy hasn't helped, medications haven't helped. Any suggestions?
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1,735,197,932
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hplaz1/how_long_would_it_take_to_construct_a_suicide_kit/
Round_Escape_1890
How long would it take to construct a suicide kit? Suicide by sodium nitrite?
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1,735,558,164
null
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hchsu9/hello/
Round_Lie_320
Hello I think so much about other people I am so tense I am zealous
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1,733,997,507
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1haltly/honestly_im_just_done/
Routine_Geologist_95
Honestly I'm just done I feel like I'm losing myself, everyday of my life I feel like ending myself, I keep having thoughts of killing myself in multiple different ways. I just don't know what to do anymore.
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1,733,781,944
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hld7ro/i_need_help_not_super_urgent/
Routine_Original_326
I need help (not super urgent) I got found stealing from a shop and instead of stopping me when I left they posted it on socials. What can I do to get it down I can lose my place at my school and I can't have my parents find out about it if they do I will probably be kicked out again I would go back and give them the money for it but I have no money at the moment
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1,735,045,789
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1haqgr7/i_really_want_to_kill_myself/
Runo_rat
I really want to kill myself Existence sucks. I can't bear all the problems and responsibilities. What hurts the most though is the fact that what I consider problems are actually the bare minimum, and the fact that I can't deal with them isn't a showing of the hardship, but rather of how pathetic I am I can't sleep rn because all I can think of is killing myself. I want so badly to put my neck in a noose and never have to deal with anything again. I just can't bare it anymore
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hlvpgy/are_there_any_animals_associated_with_suicide/
RyeAndSons
Are there any animals associated with suicide awareness/attempts? Have a quote for an art piece I want to look in to doing and want to include an animal. Any thoughts? It is very personal to me for obvious reasons.
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1,735,109,790
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1ha0b05/i_want_to_kms/
Ryker_Lunia
I want to kms Truthfully shit been getting extremly hard, this year I lost my close cat, bleeding in the brain, I got kicked out and called cps once then things got bad again and I left home, stayed on the streets for months, found a place, payed rent worked and almost killed my self 6 times, the the cops took me back. now I'm in college payed school myself, I'm down several thousands I don't think ill pass, I got cheated, abused, death threats, manipulated, I'm done with life. i tred od on tylenol and failed. ig I got to go more lethal, I hate this,, I want a hug, I want to be free, I hate my life.
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h519wo/i_hate_tumblr/
SAD-BLOB-OF-HAIR
I hate tumblr!! Today has been a terrible day. I've been attacked on tumblr, for a shitpost, nothing offensive or anything, just a shitpost, i feel awful, someone said i am made of feces and should kill myself. I'm about to start crying. At this point, passenger of shit is the only thing comforting me. Should i make them happy? Tomorow i'm going to kill myself. I am sorry. My mental state is at its breaking point. Tommorow i will say goodbye to this world.
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1,733,162,600
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h6kwpv/no_energy_to_get_out_of_a_rut/
STiblob
No energy to get out of a rut Why do I have no energy, or feel awful when I try and change things around. I know I need to get in the gym and work on other things, but all I want to do is nothing. I just don't know how to get out of a rut. Am I depressed? I don't know
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1,733,331,368
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hgu8rm/emotional_support/
SWORDGUY832
Emotional support Can anybody see this? I have nobody.
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1,734,497,845
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0
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h9mgrd/i_could_really_do_with_a_friend_right_now_or_just/
Sad_Pop159
I could really do with a friend right now (or just a listener) I want to vanish with no alarms and no surprises I want the endless feeling in my stomach and chest to disappear It seems as the years go on it gets harder and harder the feeling of emptiness Everything makes me miserable atm and nothing makes me happy it seems
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1,733,675,158
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hi1qxv/i_wanted_to_live_so_i_could_find_meaningful/
Sad_n_lost
I wanted to live so I could find meaningful connection. But I was ruined by childhood trauma and am on disability for mental illness. Since I can't work, I now live in my car. Women are attracted to me until they discover my situation. I wish I had never been born. I didn't deserve this.
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1,734,638,741
1
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hmjbef/i_really_need_someone_to_talk_to_right_now/
Sadhalf303
I really need someone to talk to right now I've been suicidal for a long time, but now I'm being faced with actual death and I'm afraid.
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1,735,197,510
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hokxxk/abilify_is_making_me_suicidal/
SaintMaxII
Abilify is making me suicidal It sucks it won't be out of me until June. It will still affect me after that. I just wish I could kill myself but I know it's the effects of the drugs so I have to hold on & not do it.
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1,735,436,196
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hg594t/its_just_not_worth_it_anymore/
SalamanderContent816
It's just not worth it anymore I'm realizing that I'm incapable with this world my mind isn't made to live a fulfilling life. I don't see a point in trying to go to a good school one day or have a family of my own it's just not worth it anymore when I can't even do good at minimum wage jobs and am so stupider even with all these pills I'm given to be in this world I don't see myself being the person I need to be or just be a person. I can't even shake the feeling when I'm with my best friends…..I just wish my life would stop right now so this all can stop so I can't stop failing at being human.
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1,734,419,551
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hmtxwv/stuck_in_hell/
Salty-Store411
Stuck in hell So I've been dead emotionally for the past 10 or so years. Experienced things I wouldn't wish on my enemies. Seen all by friends become people I will never come close to ie own families and successful careers. But all I ever think of is dying. Just want it to end but can't just outright do it because I know people will be upset. Does anyone else feel this way? How do you get by?
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1,735,236,099
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hopdjz/i_think_about_suicide_daily/
Saparky6
I think about suicide daily But I wouldn't consider myself suicidal. I haven't made a suicide plan and can't ever imagine myself actually doing it. Yet, I think about the topic of suicide daily, the what ifs of it all. I was never like this as a kid, so I refuse to believe this is a normal thing that people experience. Is this the gateway to genuine suicidal thoughts and actions? Or am I just in a weird edgy time in my life? 23M
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1,735,451,121
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hg1dht/i_give_up/
Saraniel99
i give up i can't do this anymore, gonna hang myself soon
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hp70v3/i_think_this_guy_needs_help_but_im_not_qualified/
Sarke1
I think this guy needs help, but I'm not qualified https://www.reddit.com/r/AskReddit/comments/1hp6ph1/what_personal_screwup_lives_rentfree_in_your_head/m4f59v8/
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1,735,509,464
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h5u2pt/not_sure_how_to_handle_this/
Scaramoche1
Not sure how to handle this So I have been talking to this one girl for a while now and I really liked her we started dating but today she killed herself and now I'm lost about what to do and just not right in the head right now
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1,733,249,970
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1ha17nb/my_boyfriend_slapped_me_really_hard_and_now_im/
Scared_Bus_5721
My boyfriend slapped me really hard and now I'm more depressed than before I won't go into too much detail but he slapped me so hard I saw stars momentarily because he was drunk and I was mad at him for asking if it was okay if one of his woman friends came over to have a threesome. Abilify has been helping with the chemical imbalance but it can't fix my situational depression or trauma.
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1,733,716,987
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hnefi7/want_to_die/
Scary-Instruction687
want to die don't know if i can take it anymore, i feel numb. I want to live more but I'm tired, no motivation to push through
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1,735,304,634
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hlt2h0/i_dont_wanna_feel_like_this_anymore/
ScarySparkle
i don't wanna feel like this anymore i used to feel like this more often on a weekly basis. but i haven't felt like this in a really long time. i had gotten better at coping with my emotions. but i just feel like such a fuck up that i'm fantasizing about killing myself again. i don't wanna be in this dark place again. i can't be. too many people depend on me. but i feel myself slipping into this hole again. i need help
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1,735,098,337
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1ho8ctx/i_am_going_back_to_my_home_to_live_with_my_toxic/
SeaAdministrative468
I am going back to my home to live with my toxic parents. I am crying. I don't have anyone out to talk there, I am praying to God to just take me. Life is so unfair and it is so hard to accept this fact. The title was enough tldr.
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1,735,401,003
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hmcqbl/this_life_sucks/
Sea_Ideal812
This life sucks Everyday the same shit. Feeling depressed and hopeless. Why keep living? Fat, ugly, no girlfriend, no job, have PTSD. Fuck this world. I hate people.
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1,735,172,977
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1he4f0u/curious/
SearchingForAPortal
Curious Has anyone tried drinking rubbing alchohol?
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1,734,187,716
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hoxgcu/i_need_someone_to_talk_to_about_my_sick_actions/
SeaworthinessOne1116
I need someone to talk to about my sick actions. I'm not after being told what i've done is okay, but someone who can help me put context behind what i've done
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1,735,483,691
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h8hip8/help_please/
SeaworthinessOver250
Help, please I don't know what to do. I feel like I have no one. The world is too big of a place to have no one, but I'm convinced there is no one. My mind is playing tricks on me and I genuinely just need someone to talk to.
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1,733,535,592
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1ha5p5m/struggling_with_debt_will_end_my_life_soon/
Secret_Homework2631
Struggling with debt will end my life soon 31M i have debt of around 40000$ or Rs 35lakhs. I am stuck in a debt trap and i am not able to get out of it, I get 100s of phone calls daily to pay emis etc. I cannot take it anymore and i am thinking to end my life.
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hkrwjj/im_really_dizzy_bjt_ill_just_sleep_it_off_hoping/
Secret_Pepper_8243
I'm really dizzy bjt I'll just sleep it off hoping this is the end I'll update you guys if I'm still alive tomorrow I'm pretty sure I will not die from this but we'll never know
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1,734,972,687
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hfsd1i/rminecraft/
Secure-Map3911
r/minecraft Tynker Is Shit For MacOS Cant Do Anything
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1,734,380,128
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hijnmt/too_scared/
SedRitz
Too scared I wish I had a loaded gun cause I'm too scared to slit my throat :/ if there's anyone in Calgary/alberta that can help hmu!
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hecvmp/i_want_to_talk_to_someone/
SelectSource584
I want to talk to someone I can't take this anymore. I am tired of living. It keeps on getting worse & worse every day . I had enough of it . It hurts so much . Can I talk to someone ?
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1,734,211,406
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hkn8cs/tired/
Sensitive_Attempt_26
Tired I've only been awake for an hour and I'm already exhausted. I've had tightness in my chest since I became conscious and I don't see it going away anytime soon. Fuck the holidays and fuck money as a concept. Idk why I'm here, just to say I'm tired. I want to never hear someone I love say, it'll get better, or just try you'll get it. I can't be within a foot of another human without going into fight, flight, or freeze. Is it always going to be this hard? I'm not sure how much left I have to give. If I was left by myself, I could wither away into nothing. I hate this life.
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hdz6mt/help/
Separate-Regret915
Help I'm lost
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hcm467/i_dont_know_anymore/
Serious_Trouble5179
I don't know anymore. What the fuck is wrong with me? Why do i bother to try to become successful just so I can continue being nothing but a recluse? To continue doing nothing but work and sit alone at the end of the day. What am I even doing here? Just to get a job at the end of my study so i can do nothing but feed myself for a bit longer. To continue being trapped in this misery. I thought id be happy. I've tried to do so many different things. Nothing in this world is meant to be for me. Man, this life is a lonely road to nowhere. Fuck. I hope I die.
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1,734,013,243
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h3sz6b/i_wanna_off_myself_bc_of_my_height/
Severe_Ad2175
I wanna off myself bc of my height Im a good looking dude and i have a gf, but sometimes i get depressed due to my height (5'8) and i wanna off myself. She doesnt anyhthing about this. Actually nobody knows anything except me.
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h681e1/im_a_horrible_human/
ShadowRiggs
I'm a horrible human I hurt and lied to the best human I know. And idk if I can or want to live with myself.
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hoy0ya/done_with_everything/
SharpBiscotti8273
done with everything made an account to post this. i ruin everything i touch. i'm worthless. i don't enjoy anything and i don't want to be here. i'm so tired of feeling like this and just want it to stop. i just want everything to stop. i don't think i was built for this life
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1,735,485,416
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1
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h4fpke/im_gonna_do_it_finally/
Sheepybaby286
Im gonna do it finally I wanted to be a good friend, a girlfriend, a mother, a sister and a daughter. thats all i ever wanted, i just wrote my note, to my best friend and my public profile. I was known, i was loved by some, hated by others. Im finally gonna be free, nothing can stop me now. I will do it as soon as my boyfriend leaves this apartment, i wont sleep until i do it,. maybe i can actaully go though with it, i mean i have in the past but someone always ended up calling the cops, Im gonna do it, no going back now.
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1,733,092,761
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h8g217/is_this_enough_to_stop_my_wrist_from_bleeding/
SherlockHolmouse
is this enough to stop my wrist from bleeding? i just had an attempt and lost quite a lot of blood from my left wrist and suddenly i didnt want to die anymore so i grabbed a bandage, slapped that on and put my watch over the bandage to create pressure on the wound. is this enough for me to survive I am truly sorry, but there is no way im gonna go to the hospital because my parents will find out then.
0
1,733,531,171
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hm7csl/just_about_have_all_the_loose_ends_tied_up/
Shortdropsuddenstop
Just about have all the loose ends tied up. (NSFW/TW-sewerslide plan) Got my letter first drafted, I think it says what I need it to. No need for a will, what little I have will go to my wife and daughter. Found a cheap pistol in a local store, I'm gonna put it on a credit card that is in my name only, that and a box of shells. Now I've just gotta find a place where I'll be comfortable and won't be found long enough to bleed out if I fuck this up like i do everything else. Wish me luck guys, I'm gonna need it
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1,735,155,410
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hf33z2/what_other_options_do_i_have/
ShotAcanthaceae7813
what other options do i have Anxiety has effected my every day life for so long. I haven't left the house in months. I have been debating sucide every day. Part of me doesn't want to. But i can't live my life like this. I can't do anything. I feel meaningless and i feel it's never going to get any better. No one listens to me. Is there any other option
2
1,734,298,753
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h740cm/i_cant_anymore/
SignalCake6836
I can't anymore I can't stop picking my skin I can't stop procrastinating I have my exams in 10 days and I haven't even started preparing cuz everytime I open the books I cant even read a whole sentence and make meaning out of it I would rather self harm myself than trying to study I don't have access to medications due to the small town I live. Please give me some tips to stop procrastinating and get the courage and mentality to prepare for my exams. Every few hours I feel this intense shakyness and confusion due to hypoglycemia and I can't do anything other than binging on food yt and video games help me.
1
1,733,384,743
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2
1
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0
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hf9206/i_tried_to_hang_myself/
Signal_Daikon1056
I tried to hang myself I tried to hang myself but couldn't go through with it. I'm such a fucking Coward. My wife chats to other guys and always has a smile on her face when she's texting them. With me she just tells me how I don't listen to her and make her feel special. She's right, I'm lazy and inattentive and I'm not surprised she would rather talk to other people. I think I should just end it. I have no friends and my family all live in a different country. She's all I have and I'm losing her. I'm not looking to get talked out of it, I just feel like telling someone.
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1,734,316,285
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6
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1holagw/i_need_advice/
SignificanceSouth395
I need advice. I'm gonna end up killing myself. I need to talk to my parents about going back to the psych ward. Can I pls talk to someone who's good with words? I need something prepared. I can't stop cutting myself and burning myself. I really need help.
3
1,735,437,287
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hpebpn/im_very_tired/
Significant_Dinner_1
i'm very tired for the past couple of months, suicide has been on my mind everyday. the past week has been the worst. I self sabotage a relationship so i could throw everything away. I'm 19, and just don't know where my life is going. It feels like i'm going in endless circles wandering. I'm just so tired of it all. I don't think it will ever get better, my meds aren't helping anymore.
2
1,735,530,716
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2
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1
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hecl3o/im_tired_of_being_a_fuck_up/
Significant_Doughnut
I'm tired of being a fuck up It's just one argument after the next after the next after the next. I can't do anything right. I can't do anything without making him mad. I can't do anything without ruining someone's day or someone's life. I just can't keep doing this. Starting over isn't an option because I'll still ultimately be the same person. It's a special sort of hell living like this. Maybe dying will be the best possible form of self care for me. If I could even do that right.
2
1,734,210,571
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2
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1
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hpjcy8/im_feeling_really_down_lately/
SilentStrawbarry
I'm feeling really down lately. F(in my early 20s) Why does it feel that literally no one cares? I wish feelings didn't exist. I just want to be numb. Get get over the abuse I faced... I really want to just stop thinking and get out of my hhead. I'm in a nightmare
0
1,735,549,865
1
1
1
1
1
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hmcllw/bad_day/
SilentThief098
Bad day Just a bad day. I feel like killing myself but can't because what remains of my fam can't do much without me. Feels like I'm just perpetually suffering. I wish I could join my dad in death
2
1,735,172,531
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2
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hawsyc/hopeless_and_tired/
Silent_raindrop080
Hopeless and tired I'm really tired... touched starved, in a different province now for a relationship that didn't work out, ended up pretty badly and I feel lost and as if my heart was bleeding out. Really alone and sometimes I really struggle seeing what's the point in all of this. I just want a hug and to sleep for a very long time. I don't know what to do
1
1,733,817,136
1
1
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hl7x1q/idk/
SillyGooberrrr
Idk Does anyone else have a best friend but you aren't there best friend? If you don't it's extremely difficult to keep up with them it feels like I'm begging to call now I hate it, it's a curse to have like 3 friends because now I have to wait for him and his better friends to talk to wait for me to call. It makes me sad every time I try to call him because i used to have a best friend when I was 11 we did everything together but I messed it up idk I know it's not his fault I'm not his best friend but I can't help but feel unwanted
0
1,735,022,946
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0
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0
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hhau3v/i_failed/
Silver_Conflict872
I failed I tried, but I failed. I found myself on the ground, my face flushed and slightly swollen. It seems I hit my face—I must have fainted, but I don't remember how it happened. I just recall that for a few seconds, I couldn't breathe, and then I lost consciousness. I think I didn't tie it tightly enough; it must have come loose.
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1,734,553,511
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h8mji8/not_a_suicide_post_but_please_help/
Similar-Sun8829
Not a suicide post but please help Guys listen I'm sorry it's not really a suicide post but I am really scared I might OD. I drank a lot of gin and smoked some weed a couple hours ago, the problem is I took 0,5mg Xanax last night (roughly 24h ago). I also didn't sleep well this week. Anyways I came back from the party and I'm feeling really down and what is strange cold. Will I die? Please help
0
1,733,553,097
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0
3
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0
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hf71ha/how_do_i_protect_my_therapists/
Skipeople21
How do I protect my therapists? Hi All, I am wondering if there is a way to protect my therapists in case I do lose my battle to depression. I have a handful of providers that create my treatment team due to an eating disorder. I'm doing much better in that department, but my depression and anxiety have skyrocketed yet again. I'm done. This isn't a life and idk how much longer I can last. I recently went inpatient for SI with intent. I got out after two weeks and I'm terrified to go back. I always hate being in the mental hospital. My primary therapist brought up liability and I don't want her or anyone else to get in legal trouble because of me.
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hbol64/i_just_want_to_talk_to_someone/
SlushierInterests
I just want to talk to someone I'm 23 and I've felt this way since 2015 or even farther back It's just been getting worse and I swear I want to be better I've asked how to be happy I've told the closest people in my life that I've felt this way I've held on for so long I just want to not wake up tonight I'm tired of caring so much about making others think I'm happy and ok I'm so ready for nothing but everyone tells me it's going to get better I don't want to feel, I don't want to care I don't want to exist anymore
1
1,733,903,703
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hbnxij/too_weak_to_die_but_too_weak_to_keep_living/
SmellSad9358
Too weak to die but too weak to keep living It's an endless struggle in my head. I really want to have hope that things will change but I truly believe they won't. I'm tired. I just want to sleep for a long long time.
1
1,733,900,702
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h5t3sc/genuinely_feeling_better/
Smooth_Meat1232
Genuinely feeling better I have started to feel like, things are getting clear, and i have a direction in life, probably getting some more desire to live, hopefully I'll meet people and opportunities that i can look forward to.
0
1,733,247,590
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0
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0
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h7ljeu/i_need_help/
SoapMan7
i need help i got cheated upon, lied to and gaslight. i am right now sitting here with a black eye because she hit me and my parents filed a missing persons report so i have to show up to the police station tomorrow while having stacked day at work. my parents also panicked and called all my friends so i ended up blocking every single one and i don't think there's ever going back from it. i want to fucking kill myself. i don't want to live. i need help. i'll prob take therapy. i just need to get through the night. idk what to do.
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1,733,437,085
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h9p0e8/help/
SockHistorical2969
Help I'm doing it I have a rope I'm sitting next to the tree I'm going to do it ots my fault too no one's home and I didn't plan for this but I can't anymore i just need someone to care. I told my friends I don't feel good they don't care and I have so many things to do and I'm so anxious I just get overwhelmed I'm so scared of dying but jm even more scared of living.
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1,733,681,899
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h57lgu/_/
SoggyBodybuilder1142
// i'm a sixteen year old girl and i don't think i can do this anymore i'm just so tired and so scared i really can't do it anymore i'm just not strong enough or clever enough i relapsed into self harm and my mind keeps getting more and more confusing and fucked i'm completely terrified of what's going to happen to me, i already know actually. i think i'll do it tonight i really love the world and life but i just don't think i deserve it anymore
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1,733,178,038
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hjvu8y/tonight_was_the_last_straw/
Soggy_Toast2
Tonight was the last straw As soon as I am done typing this I'm killing myself in a place where no one can find me I can't stand existing in this horrible rotten world anymore I hate people I hate humanity I hate tall dudes I hate women I can't fucking stand to go outside anymore I fucking hate everything I fucking hate everyone
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1,734,862,641
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hnw9yq/i_wish_someone_cared_for_me/
Solid-Scallion1877
i wish someone cared for me i feel like everyone in this world hates me. my friends, my family, anyone i meet. i try to not let my emotions get the best of me but it feels like i'm alone in this world.. i think if i end up committing suicide, people will forget me in a day. i wish someone actually wanted me to be in their life.
0
1,735,354,880
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2
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2
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h6tqmn/i_am_struggling_to_become_normal/
SomewhereNo5979
I am struggling to become NORMAL What can be achieved if I can't even become normal with the most basic matters? Everyone trying to "improve" themselves whereas I am simply trying to become "normal". Not fair at all. Fairness is not the notion I expect from this life but, my expectations doesn't affect the reality at all.
0
1,733,352,663
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0
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hoskiz/i_hate_myself/
Somnus_Sleep
I hate myself I'm a 34 yr old man . I hate my life . I hate being gay . I will never have children mostly because I don't believe in having a child endure the same life . This life is cruel and unjust. I hate myself for being gay . Why could I have not just been born "normal"? Hetero . Nothing in life makes me happy . I can even imagine a happy life with a man because I'm embarrassed of myself. Anytime I act feminine by default is betrayal to anyone and myself. What is left to live for besides regret ?
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1,735,464,607
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hgzm3a/he_left_me/
SongsFind28
He left me He chose to break up with me at my lowest point.
0
1,734,521,393
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0
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hlenf5/how_do_i_get_the_courage_to_jump/
SonnyCandyAngel
How do I get the courage to jump? I've had a place picked out and a plan for so long. I guess I am just waiting to be emotionally pushed over the edge which feels like it will happen any minute now
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1,735,050,541
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h6ngks/im_14_years_old_and_i_dont_want_to_do_this_shit/
SophieManders
I'm 14 years old and I don't want to do this shit anymore As I said I'm 14, and I feel like there's no way out. All the solutions seem so far away, that killing myself would be much easier…
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h9opuv/about_to_be_living_in_a_hotel_again/
Specific_Ad_8575
About to be living in a hotel again. Don't know why I'm in this place. I'm not sad or anything, just tired. Moved out to this state about two years ago and lived in a hotel the entire time. Only was 16. Not the hardest story out there, but it was tiring. Having to work extremely hard to pay for overpriced room fees. After struggling we finally got an apartment only to have my two older brothers fail me. My mom struggling the entire time to keep us afloat. None of my family wanting to help on either side. Now we have to leave by tomorrow. We exhausted all other options. I'm tired. Simply.
0
1,733,681,137
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hhjaye/i_have_a_plan_if_this_depression_and_other_mental/
Splashdiamonds
I have a plan if this depression and other mental heath stuff doesn't stop going to do this in a couple of months. I have a method that should work if not idk just be furious. If they can build Tesla robots surely they can find a cure for depression and all the other fucked up mental health issues out there. I haven't been on meds in years and honestly don't believe in them as they aren't cures. And don't want to take them for eternity. It's bad enough that a practically starve myself daily. I just can't keep living anymore I'm done forever my brain isn't healthy at all. So there my fam has no idea of my plan but here it goes.
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1,734,577,549
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hasxcn/cant_afford_mental_hospital/
SplitLost438
Can't afford mental hospital I've been in a mental hospital twice, and it was so expensive. I think I need to be committed long term, but I don't know how I could afford it. How do people pay for long stays? What do I do?
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1,733,802,625
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hdj739/please_give_me_a_reason_to_live/
Sprites4Ever
Please give me a reason to live. Why should I continue to bear an existence that is nothing but torture, where the people I ask for help punish me for suffering?
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1,734,115,612
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hk9v6u/i_have_no_reason_to_be_upset/
SquidSecurity
I have no reason to be upset I have so few responsibilities. I'm given far more leniency than I deserve. I'm physically healthy and young. I should be able to get everything done. I'm stressed for no reason. I'm tired for no reason. I feel so guilty over how useless and worthless I am, I want to die so I stop bothering people with my continued existence. The only thing keeping me going is oblivion is so scary to me. Death scares me. Pain scares me. I wish I could be killed so it wouldn't be my fault or choice. Just that it would happen. I would be gone and not struggling with the simplest things anymore.
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1,734,907,746
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hn470n/feel_like_shit/
Standard-Society6453
Feel like shit Trying to find my love, Chinese food is my favorite
0
1,735,264,913
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hdklg1/why_go_on/
Starwind_81
Why go on? I made it to 43. But I have lived a life of just suffering in silence. Talking about things, I am just being dramatic, no one wants to hear it, or I just need to "man up" and I will be fine. I hate myself... literally everything about myself. I can no longer find any good about me. I just need the right day of courage and I will leave this existence. Can anybody tell me why I shouldn't? Bet not, because my life looks good from the outside, but it's all a shit-show beneath the surface. I pray I get the strength and determination to end this worthless suffering soon.
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1,734,119,310
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1heg0x0/wanting_to_die_sometimes_but_being_terrorized_by/
Status-Profession30
Wanting to die sometimes but being terrorized by death the rest of the time Does anybody feel like that sometimes? Do you feel like it can be some kind of transfer ?
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hey8ug/tired_of_the_pain/
Stay_Gorgeous20
Tired of the pain I had a knee surgery done in January 2023 , and then 2 more since then. I still am unable to walk and as the months go by pain gets worse. I have been diagnosed with CRPS. My entire body feels like it's shutting down. I cry everyday. I've never been a crier over pain. I've become so depressed and I am on depression meds to help. But it seems like they aren't helping. I have suicidal thoughts almost everyday. I've been telling my husband to take out life insurance on me. He keeps telling me I'm going to get better. But i honestly don't think so. They call CRPS the suicidal disease and I can understand why.
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hnvr2s/im_a_very_ugly_male/
Still_Display_8372
I'm a very ugly male M34) look younger like 28 ish 6ft lanky long slim Virgin (resigned to never having it years ago even tho once or twice 10-15 years ago I didn't take the opportunity) Thick toned legs (idk how as I do fuck all they were sticks a few years ago) but slim body with slight pudgy belly with stick thin arms I'd get so roasted for should I wear a shirt (I never do I'm always layered up under a hoodie) Bones for shoulders Black hair receding hairline messy type I never go out at all My tall lanky build makes me feel I'm very ugly
0
1,735,353,191
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h7ex2t/i_think_my_time_is_coming_to_a_close/
StilllMatttic
I think my time is coming to a close. Hello. My name is not George Amberson, it's just an alias I use to dissociate from reality. George being a fictional character who literally lives in the past, something that resonates with me deeply. I cannot live with myself, the mistakes I've made cannot be spoken to anyone, the burden is mine alone to carry. I have a .44 Magnum with a single bullet waiting for me, unfortunately I am a coward. How do I go about mustering up the courage to kill myself? I'm drunk as I write this, I'm ashamed to say. I just need to relive myself of this weight for a moment. Thanks for reading.
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1h966cp/26yearold_passively_suicidal_virgin_wish_i_was/
Stop_Banning_Me246
26-year-old passively suicidal virgin. Wish I was dead Tired of this life. Nothing has ever worked out for me. It's pathetic to still be inexperienced at this age. I'll never get those years back. Thankfully my sex drive is lowering a bit, but now I'm dealing with the emotional pain of not experiencing sex when I was younger.
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hd9mz1/im_14_and_prolly_suicidal/
StraightDiscount8426
Im 14 and prolly suicidal As obv im 14 though turining 15 im having suicidal thoughts as my life as in my firends and all ive just destroyed this social life and about some months ago my grades were good but started failing in some subjects like my local language ive just about given up on life which is for me just plain sad as im not talented or dont have good marks or a social life which was caused by my friend circles and also due diligence to my mindset at the time prolly gonna try to live till im a adult but cant be sure ...
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1,734,086,815
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1he0261/why_am_i_so_worthless/
Strange_Camel_3717
Why am I so worthless? I don't fucking deserve to live
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1,734,171,413
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https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/1hd25t1/lets_help_eachother/
Strange_Help_1138
Let's Help Eachother I like most of you here battle this overwhelming feeling every single day. But rather than let it take over and possibly end my life I want to reach out to every person here struggling and ask them to reach out. YOU ARE NOT ALONE Please reach out and don't give up yet
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