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posting this here as a list of things i need to remind myself because i keep not listening to it (and maybe this will help some people)
1. recovery work is not pretty. recovery is NOT easy and requires a lot of will power
2. you’re going to feel uncomfortable. that’s completely normal. you’re SUPPOSED to feel uncomfortable
3. don’t try to make yourself feel better because every time you get a momentary relief, you’ll feel the need to do it again. don’t fall into the loop
4. if you’re feeling anxious, that’s a good thing. run towards the anxiety and embrace it. being uncomfortable and anxious is a good thing because it means you’re doing recovery work
5. (this is just something i like to say to myself, it may or may not work for others) the more anxious and uncomfortable you feel, the more you’re getting closer to recovery. keep at it and eventually the anxiety will lower. the anxiety reaches a peak and can’t go any higher
6. recovery is important but don’t let it become a theme. setbacks are expected and are a part of recovery. never feel bad about having setbacks because it is normal. forgiving yourself and practicing self-care is important.
7. OCD relies entirely on compulsions/rumination. It can’t survive without it. take the power away.
8. let the thoughts come and go. don’t try pushing them away. and when i say “thoughts,” i mean everything (feelings, sensations, urges, dreams, emotions, etc..). Accept them as they are. And if you’re thinking “but it feels so real,” that’s completely normal. OCD feels real for everyone. The goal of OCD is to get you to do compulsions so it makes the thoughts feel real. Don’t let it get to you. Let it be over there, and you’re over here, focusing on what’s important. You can live parallel to it.
9. if you’re trying to make yourself feel better, don’t do it. Don’t try taking away the anxiety. If you’re chasing the feeling of relief, you’re telling your brain that this thought it important and it teaches your brain that you’re in a life or death situation. That’s why when you do compulsions, you don’t get better, you get worse.
10. disregarding thoughts is gonna feel like you’re jumping off an airplane, not knowing whether or not the parachute will open. It’s okay to feel like you’re taking a big risk. Just trust the process of recovery and trust that this is the right thing to do.
11. ERP starts NOW. not tomorrow, not in the next hour, not after you solve this thought, it starts NOW. start refusing compulsions.
gonna be rereading this myself whenever i feel the urge to do another compulsion. Most, if not all of this information is from Ali Greymond on Youtube. Highly recommend watching her vids :)
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today my therapist and i have moved from CBT (cognitive behavioral therapy) to CPT (Cognitive Processing Therapy). The bulk of my trauma comes from an emotionally abusive former friend. (Wont go into details on this post). It feels like it's going to be a lot, especially because of how much of my mind we're going to have to go into. But my therapist is willing to go at my pace, and I feel like I'm ready to talk about the events that effected me in depth (or at least as much as relevant).
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November in general is a hard month for me. End of the year always is since my trauma anniversary passed and making unfortunate revelations about my situation. So I guess what I'm typing this for is honestly for validation. Because I'm taking such a big step forward in my road to recovery, something my abuser never did.
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Hello!
I recently found this sub and I have been reading loads of posts. I wanted to create a post which might (or not) give some motivation and encouragement to those dealing with OCD.
I was diagnosed with severe OCD about 7 years ago, but really Ive had it since I was a kid. When I was younger, I had rituals every night before bed which included: making sure that my stuffed animals were in their place, making sure that my bed was against the wall "just right" and so on. I had this for many years, it wasnt until I started university where things started to take a wrong turn.
I started getting very stressed about uni, and my obsessions started getting worse. My intrusive thoughts were out of control, I call them "flashes" because a random "flash" would pop up in my head which would make me very uncomfortable. These could be just randomly thinking of an airplane falling, spraining my ankle, loved ones getting hurt, and so on. I couldnt think straight, had a very hard time focusing, and my compulsions got very bad too. My rituals started taking longer to do, and it came to a point that I couldnt live a "normal" life.
One day, I said enough was enough. I started going to therapy and did CBT (Cognitive Behavioural Therapy) and tried a large variety of medications. Whenever I had an intrusive thought, I would stop what I was doing and challenged myself "Why did that thought come up?" "What made you think of that" "Why is this triggering you?" I would ask myself these questions, and eventually came to realize that all these instrusive thoughts were utter nonsense. This led to help with my compulsions too, whenever I caught myself doing something repeatedly I would even scold myself a bit "No! Stop doing that, you dont have to do that, everything is fine when you do it just once"
Now, I feel much better. I hardly have intrusive thoughts, and have no compulsions. Of course, there are still other things I deal with (anxiety and such) but my life is greatly improved.
This does not happen from one day to another. This took time and patience. Not days, not months, it took me years to slowly get out of it.
At the end, my final message is, dont give up. There is hope. You will get better. You will have bad days, even many at a time, but you will also have good days, where you feel that things are getting better. You will get out of this, I promise.
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Note: I understand that everyone deals with OCD differently. This is my story and how I dealt with it. Just wanted to write some words of encouragement. Thank you for reading!
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One of my most distressing problems is rumination over past and future social interactions that involve conflict. As a manager this happens to me a lot and sometimes I will non-stop think about the situation for days or weeks. Sometimes this exercise helps me out and gives me concrete actions to solve my problem and a coping statement I can tell myself when the thoughts start up. HTH
1. Name the alarm
1a.Address any cognitive distortions
1b. Is this my responsibility?
2. Things I can't control:
3. Things I CAN control:
4. Action Plan for what I can control:
5. Coping statement for what I can't control:
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So I’ve been diagnosed by a OCD specialist, but what I have is an OCD theme that I’ve literally never heard anyone talk about. My therapist says it’s a type of Just Right OCD but, basically, mine revolves around self-esteem. I’ve had low self-esteem my whole life, and I started working on improving it last year. But that’s when my OCD kicked in and attacked my efforts to improve. And because I care so much about improving my self-esteem, I started engaging in awful compulsions. Every time I would try and replace low self-esteem thoughts with positive ones, I would get obsessive thoughts doubting all of that - questioning whether those positive, compassionate thoughts are actually true. This wasn’t just self-doubt due to low self-esteem - I would get incredibly philosophical about the nature of “goodness” or what it means to be a “good” person or a “person with worth and value”. I literally spent weeks on the philosophy subreddits trying to figure all this stuff out because I felt that, if I didn’t, I could never know whether I’m a valuable, worthwhile person that deserves to feel good about myself.
Has anyone experienced the self-esteem theme? Or just self-improvement in general? It’s like this intense desire to make sure I know “for sure” that I deserve to have high self-esteem. It’s crazy!
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I found this read each one, not all OCD sub types are there, been documented, discovered etc. but this list just gave me …. I dunno https://www.treatmyocd.com/ocd-subtypes?utm_source=google_ads&utm_medium=ppc&utm_campaign=12657697126&utm_adgroup=123890739561&utm_term=ocd&gclid=EAIaIQobChMI25rk3JCO9AIVi-3tCh3JCwecEAAYASAAEgJXG_D_BwE
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3 years ago the former owner of the house I own had a break in. Long story short, the previous owner had a relationship with the burglars mother and the burglar who was (or is) an addict tried to extort him for money, when he didn't reply the burglar came to this house. When he found out nobdy was home he punched through a window and left blood on the glass, he and his friend broke in, they stole only the TV and then left.
The former owner broke up with his mother, reported it to the police, and a year later the guy recived fines and apologized and said he was in a psychosis.
Now this has become my new obsession, if this guy will get into a new psychosis and come back to this house. As far as I am aware he doesn't live in this city any more that is why I know this imaginary threat is not real.
I am in therapy, but it's two weeks till my next appoinement and my therapist is not an OCD specialist.
I've started to lock all the inside doors as well at night and I've bought both an iron baseball bat and a legal (in my country) version of pepperspray.
Does anybody have any resources like an exercise or meditation or whatever that I can do to get rid of this irrational fear of a new break in?
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I genuinely am not able to express my feelings even though I really want to, like, I really want to hug my friends, but I don't know if they will not like it or that it would be uncomfortable, I don't like to cry in front of people, I like a girl but I'm genuinely scared that she will not talk to me ever again and hate me if I tell her. I don't know if this is just me or it's an adhd thing.
Does this happen to any of you or am I just weird?
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I’m watching “Lucky Dog” today and noticed a couple who both have aspergers. Ironically…What I’ve noticed is that it is sometimes easier for me to interact with others who do have Aspergers or other social/neurological interaction issues (ADHD, Bipolar etc).
Anyone else feel the same way? What groups are our there for people to meet others with Aspergers? Also advice to make friends/romantic partners who are more “normal” doesn’t hurt but as I said there’s something about making friends with Aspergers/ADHD which comes easier for me. Just looking for groups and advice and a discussion on how others feel about this :)
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I already made a similar post, but here’s my improved one.
Allow to tell you about my struggles, I had OCD ever since I was a kid but it was nothing debilitating or major, it was easily manageable.
At the beginning of the pandemic, my OCD became monstrous and took a hold of me. I was so afraid that the virus would infect my loved ones that I would sanitize and clean literally everything. I finished bottles and bottles of sanitizers a day. My hands were so damaged and red, the pain wouldn’t allow me to sleep at night. This subsided very slowly but my OCD wasn’t done, it became so much worse. I was crying everyday, I didn’t know such pain was possible for someone to handle. I became a lifeless zombie, and I almost committed suicide twice. I’m here now and I’m so glad I didn’t.
Here are my tips for defeating OCD:
1. Go towards the anxiety, first realize the everything OCD tells you is a lie. Don’t argue with it don’t try to convince yourself otherwise just simply ignore, the irony here is that it isn’t that simple but please push yourself, this is how you weaken the OCD until it becomes virtually nothing anymore. Skip from here if you latch unto new compulsions easily until you see these exclamations again !!!!!!!!!! If your OCD is trying to convince you that these feelings of guilt/anxiety/shame etc etc. will last with you forever then I’m here to tell you that it is a liar!!! I have been in that loop countless times and nothing has stayed permanent. No anxiety, no matter how paralyzing is permanent. Anxiety is temporary. Anxiety is temporary. Anxiety is temporary.!!!!!!!!!!! Take deep breaths and repeat this audibly to yourself. I like to use the analogy of the monster, imagine OCD as a monster in your head, the more you feed it (responding to the thoughts, carrying out the compulsions, etc..) the stronger it gets. If you starve the monster (by ignoring) then it will be very weak and won’t be able to do shit. Starve the bitch, please I’m begging you.
2. Occupy your time—I noticed that OCD is a lot worse when I’m doing nothing or watching TV or something. If I’m working on a project or doing something productive, the symptoms are dramatically reduced.
3. Meditation and Yoga. Trust me on this! This here is a miracle, please stay consistent and this will help a lot. If you don’t know where to start go to youtube
4. If you find yourself returning to a previous thought that gave you anxiety, and now you have the urge to carry out a compulsion. Take a deep breath, and tell yourself audibly, “There is a reason my anxiety went away when I thought about this before. And just ignore it.
Please note that supplements/medications can be a viable option for you.
If nothing else, please please understand that you are not alone. I understand what you’re going through, I really do. I am better now and you will be too. My DMs are open to anyone, feel free to message me. I’m here to listen and talk. I love you all and wish you all the best.
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I recently keep getting this intrusive thought when in public and every time I get it, it triggers an anxiety attack. I never had this before.
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I don't care about anything. I don't care about my depression (which is still there), I don't care about my school assignments (which I'm not doing), and I don't care about my GPA. I'm just sitting here comfortably numb, mildly drowsy, and just vibing... before the meds I felt terrible for most of the day but at least I was productive.
Now I'm failing at a lot of things in my life, and I know that this is a problem, but I don't really care. I mean... I'm posting it here because I'm logically aware that it a problem but I don't REALLY care. It's like... meh.
I recently had a girl over and I could barely keep it up, and when I did keep it up I couldn't finish. The whole time I was just thinking "Ok this is like a lot of physical work I'm doing and I don't think it's worth it...". We tried several times that night and I didn't finish at all-- and I didn't care...
I'm seriously considering stopping the medication because this degree of apathy is just not it. Has anyone felt this before? Do these side effects go away?
What are your thoughts?
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Ok, so Thursday I had to stay up all night to finish an assignment, and because of that I took my medication at 4 am since I was like 'oh, guess I won't be sleeping so I might as well take it a little early'. But then I was super tired and forgot about the 4 am dose and at like 11 panicked that I didn't take my dose and took another one.
This was totally on accident and it made me way too amped so I started stressing which then kept me up basically all night Friday.
Because of that all nighter I took my dose early in the AM on Saturday because 'guess I won't be sleeping and I have to be ready for work'. But then later in the day I felt tired, so I drank some energy drinks throughout the day and got stressed about my tiredness making me less productive but then I couldn't sleep and stayed up uber late basically zoning out at a word document.
I took my medication early in the AM on Sunday because I was like 'ok I'm awake and this should put me back on track since I had Saturday night free, but I was rushing in between jobs, my alarm went off for when I'm actually supposed to take my medication and on impulse I took a double dose again. I crashed in the middle of the night but I was so exhausted the next day that I kept pounding down energy drinks.
Thanks to that Sunday to Monday I was way too wired and only got like 3 hours of sleep and now here I am exhausted, I have like a million things due tonight, the caffeine is sending my heart rate through the roof and I just don't know what to do.
It's dead week so I really don't need whatever this bullshit cycle is, but it's like I can't get out.
I'll get super stressed about not having my work done which keeps me awake later than I want to be because I'm tired but cant destress so then I miss my drowsiness window and I stop feeling tired . So at that point I can't sleep and decide to stay up from there so I take my medication
But then by like 10 am I get tired but I'm at work or class so I have to power through, so I drink caffeine to stay awake to try to do my work and then I get stressed and too hyper and the cycle continues.
This is actually starting to scare me. It's not like I can blow off assignments and go to bed now, but at midnight I won't be able to fall asleep because I would have missed my 'drowsy window' and just ughhhhhh. I have a hydroxyzine prescription, but I'm afraid to take it because that shit knocks me out and if I'm uber tired I don't want it to put me to bed for 12 hours and then I miss work + lab.
This sucks!!
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TLDR: I fell into a insomnia to taking medicine earlier to caffeine to stay awake which brings on insomnia loop
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As I wrote in [my introduction](https://www.reddit.com/r/aspergers/comments/ldc1v6/hello_is_it_okay_if_i_post_here_instead_of_rautism/), I want to write about my life in general since I can remember to organize my thoughts, in order to go to therapy and get an accurate diagnose this time.
So my first childhood memories go like this: I was born with asthma so I had trouble breathing. I spent many days and nights in hospitals connected to tubes. My family always told me to stay indoors because outside was dangerous for me; too cold and too much dust and stuff.
I was not very social. Every time visitors came home instead of running excited to greet them I would get really anxious and hide away. Everyone called me shy.
I didn't like school, often when my mom dropped me off I would cry a lot. I had trouble making friends, I would mostly isolate myself, stay quiet, and wait anxiously to get back home. I did not make long lasting friends.
Getting ready to go to school has always been a hustle. I wake up and have to spend a while staring at the floor trying to process the fact I exist and have to go through life all over again every day.
I tend to stay too long in the shower. I often got late for school because I took to long showering and getting dressed. Other people need 5 minutes, I need 30+.
At school I always felt weird, different, inadequate. Paying attention in class was always difficult because I got distracted by pretty much anything. I also daydream A LOT. The only subjects I did OK at were English (my second language) and computers.
People got annoyed by me because I was often playing drums on the desk with my pencils. I wasn't even trying to play any particular song, I just liked hitting the desk repeatedly, it was calming.... but only to me it seems.
Other people always made fun of my looks, my weight, my personality, my interests. I was always the opposite of the popular guy. Nobody liked to be in group activities with me because I would say weird stuff or do the activities wrong.
When we went on field trips I would never get in the pool because sun light hurts my eyes and feeling it on my skin is very uncomfortable too. Also one time before, on a family trip I almost drowned and I never enjoyed swimming ever again. To this day, if I shower with cold water and close my eyes for a moment I suddenly feel I am at the bottom of the ocean about to get eaten by a shark. I get easily traumatized by anything.
I had to use inhalers for my asthma. But I hated them because the taste is bad, they made me cough a lot, I didn't feel like they worked at all except they game me tachycardia, which felt scary... so I developed a dislike for any sort of physical activities. I've been sedentary and overweight all my life now.
That was my childhood.
To be continued...
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I've been on Elvanse/Vyvanse (lisdexamfetamine) for a couple of months now, currently up to 60mg slow release daily, with an extra 5mg of immediate release dexamfetamine if I need a top up when the Vyvanse wears out.
One thing I've noticed is that I find myself struggling to find the right words when I'm talking or writing a lot more than usual. I think it's mainly happening once the meds have worn off for the day so I guess it's just tiredness from the come down?
Is this something any of you have encountered?
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So i woke up today in a terrible mood. Had a plan to wake up early go to the gym and get a lot of stuff done. Well i ended up laying around for hours depressed i then got in my car to go to the gym but never got out and just cried. I then realized i hadn’t taken my adderall yet its 15 mg xr that got prescribed about like 2 weeks ago little part of me was like maybe this will make me feel better because i was honestly suicidal and felt terrible. Well i take the meds and then call my mom and talk to her and i don’t know if it was talking to someone or taking the meds but i felt better. I know is this isn’t taking them for the right reasons. I don’t take them everyday too, if my sleep schedule is messed up i skip them so i don’t mess my sleep up or if i drink at all i don’t take them. I was able to rationalize better and the sun felt nice and I appreciated listening to the radio but i also felt like it gave me energy i didn’t have before and I don’t think that is a good thing, I like how it feels but I refuse to be addicted to somethijg that will make me crash and burn if its not for the right reasons. I can’t really tell because without the meds i sometimes get energy bursts, talkijg to my mom usually makes me feel better, i cant tell if this is euphoria or if its just me or if i dont have adhd at all and thats why these meds affect me like this, i did get diagnosed but what if i was misdiagnosed and i am on these meds that i shouldn’t be on. I also notice that the adderall sometimes makes my ocd worse like i get more ocd attacks on it but it doesn’t always happen. Any advice would be great i’m on the verge of throwing the meds in the garbage
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When 5 months old I had menengitis. I almost died and needed to stay at the hospital for 3 weeks. It was the mid 80ies and nobody was allowed to stay with me at night, and I might even have had surgery without anesthesia (apparently that was the normal procedure for babies until the late 80ies in some places - WTF!?).
There were other problems in my childhood/teenage years as well (emotional neglect, mentally ill and immature caregivers...), so it's impossible to untie everything now.
But I really really wonder how that supposedly horrible experience in the hospital might have affected me.
I must say I'm quite high functioning, but I have been struggling a lot with anxiety throughout my life. For some of it I found clear explanations in my family situation, but some of it is less clear.
E.g. how sensitive I am to bright light and loud noise, how hypervigilant I am and how I always desperately need to know what's going on behind me while I can't hear properly, e.g. because the extractor fan or toothbrush or hair dryer is running).
Has anyone gone through something similar at a similar age? If yes I would be very grateful to hear your story and how you think it affected you.
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I’m 17f about to turn 18. I’m pretty convinced I have ADHD and already went through trying to get an assessment but ultimately never assessed me as they said there wasn’t enough evidence as my grades are alright. When I’m 18 I’m going to ask my GP about RTC rather than just ask to be on the adult waiting list.
Just wondering about how to go about this? Where should I ask to be referred to? I know most people say Psychiatry UK, is this still the best option, considering the long waiting recently? If I am diagnosed, and decided to go down the medication route, can the NHS pay for this or will I have to pay for the meds?
Time is of the essence as I have my A levels coming up next year and without a diagnosis I won’t get any support from my college and at the moment Im just super worried about failing my A Levels
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I am meant to be getting assessed for Aspergers and I just feel like I’m making all the symptoms up in my head because I only experience some of the symptoms like I don’t get sensory overload but sometimes I tap my hand or fingers on tables or my legs as a comfort thing idk just feel like I’m making it up
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This year has been so, so awful for me. I can barely process it because it's unreal. I've struggled with Major Depressive Disorder for a long time, and I've always had my good periods and bad periods, but this is different. I've faced so many bad things, from loss of a loved one to the fact that I'm now living in my car and eating barely more than crackers to survive, and I just don't have the energy for anyone else. I don't have the energy to listen to people's angry political rants, I don't have the energy to educate people on not saying hurtful and offensive things, and I definitely don't have the energy to defend myself from personal attacks that try to make me feel like I'm a bad person for struggling. I can't handle even the slightest bit of conflict right now, because I'm so on edge all the time.
All of my life, I've been the emotional support for all of the people around me. Most of them were never quite able to give that back to me, but it's what I'm good at. It comes naturally. So I do it, even though it's draining much of the time. Now, I can't even really offer a shoulder to cry on. I feel so raw and unstable. I don't even have the luxury of having a breakdown, because I have other living beings relying on me in a number of ways. I just can't take anymore, but I've been saying I can't take anymore for three months, and "more" just keeps coming.
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I had my first appointment with a new psychologist who specializes in ADHD and has been working since the ignites with ADHD patients. We spent the entire session going over family history and will have to spend the first half of the next finishing up the history (I have a lot of issues lol). I’ve been almost fully convinced that I have ADHD for a while now. My mother was diagnosed with it, so the likelihood is pretty high, what with my childhood symptoms of it and all. I was so incredibly hopeful going into the appointment. Probably too hopeful. I had thought that I would get a diagnosis in one or two sessions, as I was previously diagnosed with Bipolar II (very incorrect diagnosis) in about fifteen minutes. When I brought up that my mother was diagnosed with ADHD, all the psychologist asked was if I thought I had it. I said I was certainly showing symptoms for a while (read: all my life). He then moved on to getting the rest of the history.
I had a meltdown after the appointment from all the excitement of being out of the house for the first time in a few months and confusion over what to do next. I haven’t been able to function really at all. I dropped out of high school a year ago. I haven’t done anything since. I also had a severely traumatic event a little over a year ago, so I know that contributes to everything.
I don’t know if the guy will even want to diagnose me. I said something about having tried a variety of different medications (Prozac, Lexapro, Celexa, Abilify, Lamictal, Lithium, Vistaril, etc) and how none of them have worked and all of them have either done nothing or made me suicidal. He commented something along the lines of “Well, you would think after trying all of those medications, one would work.” And then we moved on. He also got viscerally angry at the mental health provider who popped me on Lithium at the age of sixteen and kept me on it for three years, which was actually comforting lol.
At the end he told me we would finish history next week and he asked me to write down my treatment goals. How do I tell him that I want a diagnosis without sounding like a know-it-all? I really want to try some sort of medication, as Adderall worked wonderfully for my mother. The only issue is that my current psychiatrist refuses to test me, and I don’t know how to get another through my shitty insurance. I feel stuck and completely overwhelmed.
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Hi so it’s me and it’s 1 am and I need to go to bed but I’m seriously about to break down over college. I’m so worried like there’s just so much unknown. I’m scared I’m going to hate commuting because I’m commuting to college (it’s around a 30 minute drive) and I don’t want to miss out on things that my friends and girlfriend are going to do. I also don’t want to be tired and I’m starting to regret my commuting decision and my ocd is obsessing a lot right now over worst case scenarios. My girlfriend is very extroverted and so I’m worried she’s going to make a lot of friends and I won’t get to see her as much and I’m genuinely just scared to leave my comfort zone right now. I’m really scared for this college thing. I want to go to college and all that I’m just mega anxious and my ocd is having a blast with that anxiety. It’s just a new fear everyday and I just don’t know what to do right now.
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i havent been feeling good at all lately and i find it hard to just talk to people and stuff
i just dont know what to do anymore, life doesnt seem worth it and im just tired of living it. im being useless and annoying to everyone probably
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I know most people agree that a cure doesn’t exist but I don’t believe that. How can I get rid of it completely—without it leaving a trace in my mind? I don’t only want reduced symptoms, I want it gone.
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I'm truly confused about something. It's happened multiple times that just before I'm about to complete an "impossible" task I feel like my ADHD kicks in with a vengeance. Cannot for the life of me work out why this happens. It's almost like I'm self-sabotaging. I'd love an idea and what I can do to thwart this .
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A friend and coworker just kind of shit on a small thing I was excited about comparing it to some of the things his other friends talk about: business, family, relationships, etc. He and I are the same age(early 30s) and hold the same position at work, but he’s married, owns a home and drives a nicer car. I’m single, rent an apartment with a roommate and take public transit.
To be honest, I recognize that I’ve stagnated in life but I’ve accomplished more than my parents ever did. Which isn’t saying much at all. Every step passed where they peaked seems impossible.
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(I am on mobile, so the formatting might be a bit bad)
A little backstory:
• I had gotten diagnosed last year in September.
• I went through the process of different medication.
• And after a few months I settled on Concerta XL, which definitely helps a lot.
=> (So much that I sometimes feel like an imposter when looking at some ADHD memes, because I don't relate to as much as I once did)
Actual success:
• Admittedly this was just out of the blue, but yesterday evening I chose to plan my week (I use Google calendar, with maybe close to 20 different calendars to organise everything, maybe it's over the top, but it works).
• But the difference this time was I've made plenty of time for fun, and uni work and all that.
• Knowing that I will be less motivated to do more work in the afternoon if I had lectures in the morning and putting that in.
• Plus this schedule I made to be repeated every week, so I hardly have to plan stuff in the future.
• I just remember when I tried to do planning and it worked for a single week, then I had no idea what to do when the week ended.
Conclusion (?):
I'm actually starting to feel like I am able to handle having ADHD. Yes, I still definitely have ADHD, for examples: I still ramble a bit and semi-hyperfocus (I'll keep doing something for longer than I maybe should, but eventually I can stop myself); I lose track of things like conversations and where things are (recently lost my wallet, only to find it when I got everything in the wallet replaced); I'm meant to be doing the dishes, but I'm writing this post.
However, I gave myself the entire morning to do the dishes and maybe get some laundry done if I can. And as for the other stuff, it's not as bad, it's dulled. Plus now that I live with just my girlfriend I can more easily make places for things to go (like a new place for my wallet, so there's no repeats).
------- Tl;Dr: I have made a repeated (only have to plan once :D ) schedule that accounts for my ADHD as much as possible and it works, which is awesome!
(Some more rambling if you're interested)
Basically my one year in review is:
Yes, ADHD sucks, but from my experience, there are ways to eventually treat the problems it causes. And luckily there are enough different solutions to help many different people, so while I can't really use pomodoro well, I have used Google's to do list app (Tasks) extensively, for even tiny things like collecting dishes from a specific room, and that just helps with giving my brain a reward / it makes sure my brain knows I've done something productive.
So I guess, what I want to say in this tiny random ramble at the end is: even if it's all a mess right now, that doesn't mean it'll always be like that. Even just this subreddit especially gives quite a lot of different solutions (recently saw a post about doing any 10 things, for when you are low on motivation and stuff, now to get myself away from watching TV, I will do 10 tiny things (e.g. take something to the kitchen, turn TV off) and eventually I'll be getting on with something more useful)
(Sorry for the long post and multiple rambles, but obviously all the tangents and additional-information-brackets are extremely important)
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ADHD
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I have diagnosed OCD and have been struggling for a while. I get in thoughts for a while, but what I am worrying about now "happened" 8 months ago. I was shopping with my best friend and gestured to her top to show her that a style element of it was cute. But because of intrusive thoughts beforehand, my OCD has twisted it and made me think that I did something in an inappropriate way with bad intentions. This thought is on my mind 24/7, and therapy does nothing to help it. Obviously I didn't do anything, but my OCD makes me think that the intention behind my simple action was terrible. Please help me
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OCD
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Hey guys, I'm new to driving and I have ADHD. For me, it's manageable without medication and I can concentrate on school work and other tasks. However, when it comes to driving, I am constantly zoned out and I cannot focus no matter what. To make it worse, my parents yell at me when I make a mistake when driving which only discourages me and I try my best to avoid driving. After driving my eyes are fatigued and I'm zoned out kind of similar to the feeling you get after playing a video game for a long time. How can I help improve my focus while driving without medication?
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ADHD
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So about last year
July 14th, 2019
Not even 6 months into being a new driver
I get in to a big accident that totaled my car (a beautiful 2011 Volkswagen Eos), all my airbags went off, punching one of my teeth off.
And then
In October
With my new used car
Someone hits me as leaving the parking garage.
Then November,
I was driving in the rain
I stopped at a stop light
But someone behind me didn't stop on time
And their car slid and hit the back of my car.
In less than 6th months of driving, I got into 3 accidents.
And now I just cant drive normally with out having constant anxiety.
Today
In the car with my dad and freinds
I was 🤏🏼 this close to passing a red light (bc my first accident was someone hit me when I ran a yellow light) , and if it wasn't for them telling me, I would have gotten into another accident.
Then at night I'm driving in an unfamiliar neighborhood picking my dad up from somewhere and I get lost and panic because I didn't know what I was doing and people kept honking at me.
Now I'm in a state of panic rn bc my PTSD from my first accident has has come back to be a bitch.
And I just
I don't know what to do anymore
How do I drive without this state of anxiety.
Like i need a car to get around in LA
But it scares the shit out of me.
What do I do???
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ptsd
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I have struggled with whether my feelings and trauma are valid for so long. I was diagnosed with ptsd three years ago and I still struggle daily.
When I was twelve I saw my older brother hit my mother. My dad called the police and he was arrested. I’ve never had closure on this. Ever. It feels like I’m scared of my brother a lot of the time even though I love him and it’s been eight years. I don’t know how to make sense of my feelings. My brain feels like a jumbled mess. I just want any advice from people who feel and know that their trauma and emotions are valid, because maybe it could help me see that what I feel is okay too.
Thank you.
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ptsd
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Hey all!
I just got an ad on Facebook and I thought of this community. Kiwi Crate has a new subscription box called “Maker Crate.”
I don’t have a subscription myself, but I have the experience of “this is my new obsession and I’ll buy all the supplies” and then end up losing interest after a month (or less). I think something like this could be a great option to cut down on stuff like this! Thought y’all might appreciate it too :)
https://fb.watch/8pNm5PffZ7/
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ADHD
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Curious because I’m on sertaline and I haven’t noticed any benefits yet, it’s been like 6 weeks I know they’re not meant to be cures but I thought I would notice some positives. Also I was gonna put “other” and “none” but there wasn’t enough space, feel free to put any other in the comments
[View Poll](https://www.reddit.com/poll/o9ws6i)
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OCD
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Hi everyone! I’m in the process of trying to get an evaluation for myself as I suspect I have ADHD. Unfortunately my doctor and psychiarist refuse to do it yet since I’m struggling with depression and it needs to be treated first. Hurray. 😔
BUT, I’ve long suspected my dad has ADHD. We’ve even joked about it in the family but no one ever took it seriously as he has always managed at work and my parents have been happily married since forever so no big relationship issues. I’m in my 30s now and since I’ve noticed things about myself and ended researching symptoms, I’ve noticed a certain pattern that matches with my dad. As I exhibit more of the inattentive symptoms, my dad is very much hyperactive. His mood regulation can be shitty at times too, although he has calmed as he has gotten older (now in his early 60s).
My question is if I should approach my dad about my suspicions? I haven’t talked with my parents about my own situation (they only know about the depression but I haven’t mentioned ADHD at all) so I don’t know if it’s weird? Does it even make sense for a retired, ”high-functioning” guy to go through all the hassle? I’m mostly concerned that his inablity to sit still will someday take away his ability to walk as his knees are completely f’d up and he should rest them more. But he is always on the move (multiple sports, doing hard physical work like building and fixing our cottage etc) and seems simply unable to truly follow his doctor’s orders.
Would appreciate to hear especially from older people here, if a diagnosis late in life made a big difference and if you think I should encourage him to get it checked. If he truly has ADHD it would probably tell a lot about me too...?
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ADHD
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Whenever I’m around a family member, a friend, or a stranger I just met, I often get anxious and have intrusive thoughts about hurting them or saying something offensive to them. I also have social anxiety. These intrusive thoughts would be me stabbing them, punching them, hitting them with an object, or just offending them. It’s so scary to me, and I get nervous around them when this happens. I wish this didn’t happen, but it does, and it scares me. These are people I truly love and care about, and I would never want to hurt them 😢. I’m 19 and I don’t want people to think I’m a sick person for this.
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OCD
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I️ am an engineering masters student with ADHD! I️ am able to do okay in my classes with the cost of my apartment being messy and social isolation. and taking way way more time with homework etc..:
Some of my peers have pointed out my differences and call me “chaotic good”, “ditzy blonde”, “spacey” which is pretty hurtful since science is collaborative. I’m scared my peers think differently than me. I️ recently decided to use my testing accommodations as well, so I️ get 30 extra mins on my exams.
Sometimes everything just feels so hard and overwhelming. Does anyone else relate?
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ADHD
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I've had this problem for a really long time. I can't sleep or sit on couches with stains specially if they are white or leather. It makes me nauseous. Also, bed sheets with dark patterns, weird textures, etc. The hotel we stayed in on holidays had this flower pattern sheets and I just couldn't do it. I covered the bed with my clothes, and towels, then wrapped the pillow with a scarf (we stayed 3 days), when we had to get back, I couldn't touch the clothes that touched the bed. It made me feel dirty.
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aspergers
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TL;DR at bottom; sorry, it took me awhile to work out what my problem really is
Hi. I have been in a toxic workplace for a long time. In March, when something else happened, and I cried until I threw up, my shrink said to me, “hey, this is different than the regular depression/anxiety I’ve been treating you for during the last 10 years, these are trauma symptoms, and you should also see someone else in our practice for that.” So I have been in a long-term chronically abusive work situation.
Well, the person who started that whole ball rolling (by reporting to HR when I made a flip comment to a *private* group of FB friends — or, as it turns out, people I thought were friends but who proved not to be — that I should be called on the carpet for threatening physical violence against members of my work unit, which of course I was not, because if you say “it will be a minor miracle if I get out of this meeting without killing anyone” *you don’t actually mean that you intend to kill people*) — anyway, his action to HR started the whole mess that my work life has become, and I know this is a grammatical nightmare, but he got sick several weeks ago and yesterday he died. And I don’t know how to feel. Like, I was mad at him, but *I never wanted him to die.* And I know that I didn’t make him get sick, and I couldn’t have controlled what happened to him. But the email about his death from my workplace paints him like he was a fucking saint, while in actuality he was frequently a terrible person.
I guess this is the TL;DR: I feel like the workplace communications about his death stress what a wonderful person he was, and I feel erased. You can’t speak ill of the dead, so I feel like I can never bring up what happened (a thing for which he clearly admitted fault to me privately a few years after the fact). I worry that my workplace will enshrine him in glory while he was actually an asshole, and I don’t know how to deal with that on either a personal or professional level. Any ideas?
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ptsd
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I’m not sure whether this counts as reassurance since OCD demands certainly but I do want to know how I can label these thoughts so I can get more help, I want to know these thoughts sound like to you so that I can know what I’m actually dealing with
So I’ve had HOCD for almost a year now and this theme I’m going through at them moment is probably my toughest obsession and the obsession is giving oral to another male. When I first developed HOCD this was one of thoughts I had but I didn’t class it as an obsession since my OCD didn’t really care about it, the thought was more like “well if I was gay I’d like doing oral” so I did a mental check and was grossed out so the obsession laid buried at the time but recently it emerged again and I’m not exactly sure how it made such a big comeback but it did
So I was reading about other people going through this and having these thoughts and people labelled them as fantasies but it doesn’t really feel like a sexual fantasy to me however it doesn’t feel like an intrusive thought either since sometimes I create the thought myself so I can check my reaction to it. My definition of a sexual fantasy is something you masturbate to and are super aroused by, ive never masturbated to these thoughts but I have gotten groinal responses and feelings of liking the thoughts, the worst part is that I’m not repulsed by thinking it like I used to be albeit the thoughts play out like more of a brain fart than a full on sex scene if you know what I mean but they’re not always intrusive. I’ve probably thought about it at least 50 times this month alone, just checking myself seeing if I actually like it, imagine different position of it to see whether it’s actually me in those thoughts, and the thoughts seem to get more realistic and graphic with each analysation, who knows next time it might be anal. So then what are they?
Edit: Now thinking about this the fact that I thought about this weird thought more than 50 times makes me feel very un straight
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OCD
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I'm living paycheck to paycheck and 10k in debt.
If I knew how to handle and track money I think I could be ok. But I don't.
I haven't been able to pay my half of the rent in over a year. My boyfriend pays 90% of the bills. I feel like at this point he enables me (not his fault) but he's having to cover my ass bc I spend my money the second I get paid.
Help me please. Money is so stressful to me and its unfair of me to rely on my bf to pay most of our bills.
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ADHD
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Hi, I've been diagnosed with OCD several times but with imposter syndrome I've never felt able to talk or post here. Now I think I've mostly handled that and wanted to see if anyone else has this issue
Do y'all feel the need to randomly twitch certain muscles? specifically around the joints of your legs and arms. Like I'll just be sitting somewhere and just start contracting and relaxing them rapidly. It's not like a tic or anything because I \*can\* stop I just have a hard time willing myself to. I'll start twitching for a bit, tell myself it's stupid, stop, then just start back up again anyway. Is this a common thing? I haven't found much talk about it online
also off topic and CW but >!the phrase "I want to die" will often pop into my head and it's really hard to get it out!<
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OCD
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I really don't like to say I have ocd cus in my brain I feel like I'm just faking it because like those people who go 'oh my god I have ocd haha'
So idk if this belongs here
My doc is weening me off my meds and in the mean time my BPD and other things have reared in - including my germaphobia
I can't eat anything because for some reason my brain says either it's moldy and I just can't see it or it's in the early stages of mold or when I eat and anything that's a specific texture my brain says it's feces or vomit
I feel the need to start sitting under boiling showers because itl keep me clean
Most of my issues are eating because I have issues with my insides
Like I can't be near a toilet when I flush it because the 'particles' will get inside me when I breath and then it's on my clothes forever till I wash them
And even then are they even off it?
I feel disgusting that I pee and poo I don't want to eat because of that
I feel disgusted that my reproductive organs is even near that
I just want it all gone
I'm sorry
I'm sorry that this probably doesn't belong here and I'm just going into a space that I don't belong in
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OCD
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I have a habit of talking out loud to myself and its not like just sometimes but almost always so much so that sometimes I would speak out my subconscious thoughts out loud which is very weird. And it was fine but then from past few days I've been having this weird thought that I speak out loud sometimes out of like nowhere. In this I particularly ask myself, "Are you okay?" just out of nowhere. Like for example I am watching TV, I'd somehow manage to ask this to myself that too in speech and that's not the weird part. After I ask myself, I get this vague picture of myself giving a left to right nod or side nod which basically implies "no". Sometimes I enact it too. It just got me very confused. I'm all fine then what weird behavior is it?
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OCD
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I don't like it, especially if they don't even consider the context or the situation or whatever I'm saying. I can't stand it. Some people will just say "you should do X". But what about if Y happens or how about analyzing this way, or here is some relevant information. They just give me this impression that they are in the know, and I'm not, and they keep saying what they think I should do, but there is no discussion about better or worse or why.
It's like a rule, and thinking outside about the rule is impermissible or impossible. It is even more irritating when the person has no education, no money, no clout. But besides that, there is no reason up for debate. It's just saying ""you should do X", "you should do X", "you should do X", "you should do X", "you should do X".
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aspergers
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I'm pretty sure I have OCD based on what I've learned, my experiences, thoughts, and compulsions. I'm not really sure how much it actually affects my life since it's just the way I am, so I haven't sought out a diagnosis. Yes, the thoughts can be annoying and make me do things I'd rather not, but to me, it just doesn't seem that bad?? I'm not sure what I'm trying to say. I guess basically because I deal with the thoughts and whatnot everyday, living like this is just normal so I don't have a desire to seek out a diagnosis. I think my life could improve with a diagnosis, therapy, or medication, but I just don't feel like doing it? Also I don't feel like paying for it. It makes me sound lazy and cheap I know, but to me, being treated for OCD seems like too much work so I would just rather live with the thoughts and compulsions.
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OCD
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Growing up in an abusive home, my parents always said I was lazy, stupid, and I didn't care etc... Because I was slow, I took a long time to finish tasks, chores were hard for me, I constantly broke things.
Then as an adult in every relationship I've had I've heard the same thing again. You're being selfish because you're late all the time. You're being selfish because you didn't pick up your stuff on the floor. You're being selfish because I tell you 1000 times to do things and you don't. You're being selfish because you forget important things. When I genuinely forget, when I get overwhelmed, when i struggle to do simple tasks.
Then today at work my coworkers made a joke about me for being aloof and selfish and it really hurt.
I never actively try to hurt people..
Probably because there have been times where I didn't communicate or I was late or unreliable
If I could snap my fingers and make myself do tasks easily, if I could remember what people tell Me, it I could instantly think of others because I wouldn't be in fight or flight mode all the time I would. I want to be reliable but I'm not.
It's my biggest insecurity and Everytime people bring it up I spiral, it triggers my ptsd flashbacks , it makes me feel upset, and idk what to say or do.
What do I tell these people???
I try my best but I can't make my brain just work like other people's. I try not to hurt feelings. Idk I just feel like I. A cycle of rut I cant get out of with ADHD....
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ADHD
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TW - suicide, self harm, molestation(?), sexual harassment(?)
A few hours ago, my dad climbed ontop of me while I was lying in bed and I was really scared because he has SAed me before. Reflexively, I made a funny face and froze so he laughed, slapped my butt and left. I dont even know if what he did was wrong but it made me really scared. I feel like un-aliving myself because I'm very scared and also very sick of the constant fear of my dad doing something to me while I'm sleeping. (He recently did something similar but the last time he put his hand on my back and pushed downwards till I couldn't breathe) I'm also very close to self harming because there's another side of me that tells me I'm overreacting and that he didn't actually do anything. I know ill probably be fine once I get through the night but I don't think I have the strength to do so. Someone please tell me if what he did was OK and how to stop myself from doing anything tonight.
Update: I'm fine now! I made it through the night.
Update: this is what my dad did to me when i was younger. https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/pl0yi2/is_this_considered_sexual_assault/?utm_medium=android_app&utm_source=share
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ptsd
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I have made it to 25. Woke up hungry, slept bad, no plans, I have to grocery shop today. Worthless.
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aspergers
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is it possible to have something trigger your trauma?
History: I was neglected as a kid (always the second choice), sexually abused by one of my family members, bullied into looking a certain way (by family and peers), raised voice and quite a lot, been slapped a few times too.
whenever someone raises their voice at me even a little I go shush, I just fail to communicate my emotions at that moment and I tear up (I hate crying, so I really conceal it) and my heart starts to sink. I mean people (and I myself) always identify me as a very strong and bold person, so am I just sensitive or can this be because of my trauma?
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ptsd
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I've been sexually assaulted multiple time throughout my life, and have had my partner and best friend die from dui car accident and suicide respectively. A few years ago I was assaulted at knifepoint and beaten up afterwards and left. As a result of that assault I became pregnant and eventually miscarried. My eating disorder keeps getting worse when I'm triggered and I'm trying my best to stay sober but it's very difficult. I felt responsible for the death of everyone I mentioned, including the unborn child and am scared of dying and talks about death trigger me a lot. Recently given the covid situation, all I've been hearing about is people dying. Family, loved ones, strangers, people I know and people I will never get to know. I'm an absolute mess and I don't know how to deal with this. I see myself getting worse by the second and I don't know how to feel better. Or if I'll ever be normal again. I feel like I have the will but not the strength to survive. It's getting harder to stay alive everyday and the intrusive thoughts about death are only making it worse.
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ptsd
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Hello!
This is my first time posting and I am looking for some insight/guidance! I have had OCD (not yet diagnosed professionally) for approximately 10 years and I have been struggling for awhile now. My OCD has changed themes over the years and presented itself as many different fears (contamination OCD, health OCD, ROCD, etc.). However, one fear that has probably been the most debilitating (at least right now) concerns religion (I am Catholic). When I was younger, I would repeat certain prayers over and over again to prevent any harm from coming to me and my family. However, around 14 years old, things changed and I had this thought about God calling me to religious life (and I was petrified). I suffered from panic attacks and would constantly think about this all the time. I would constantly look out for signs and become really upset/distraught thinking about this whole thing. I would go to different retreats/volunteer trips to try to find answers. This worry fluctuates in its intensity, but it never fully leaves-like I will never be able to escape it. I am almost positive that I have some form of depression from my OCD and they feed into each other. I have hit another time where this worry is high in intensity again (feeling paralyzed by anxiety) and I am not really sure how to proceed from here. I really want to get married someday and hopefully have children, but I am afraid that this worry/feeling will never leave me alone. I am just wondering because I have not seen this exact worry under other posts of scrupulosity; could this be a theme of OCD? Thank you for any input!
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OCD
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This post is going to give away my age, but I'm hoping *someone* gets it.
I have a whole list of (sometimes weird) prefab answers/comments to help me out in social situations, like I'm sure a lot of us do. Sometimes it's simple stuff like always saying "You're welcome" (I don't know WHY we have to say it, but we do. So I say it) or "How are you?" after saying "Hi" even when I don't have time or don't really need to know how they're doing, or don't know them well enough to know what I should do with that information once I get it...
But the weird one is (usually at work) when someone gives me a piece of information, and somehow ends up saying "And now you know". To which... I can't help but say "And knowing is half the battle" (for reference, a series of PSA's from the 80's: [https://youtu.be/E8k3bMiFVDQ](https://youtu.be/E8k3bMiFVDQ)).
I've never gotten anything but a confused look with that one.
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aspergers
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It only happens at night when I go to bed. What happens is that my last foot stepping on the floor in the hallway has to be the right one and the one stepping on the floor in my room has to be the right one as well so I just lift up my left foot off the floor and jump into my room using my right leg in order to step on the floor in it with my right foot. And sometimes when I'm walking on the sidewalk on the street I have this thing where I can't step on the lines on the the floor. I'm not sure if I explained all of this well enough but if someone understood it please help me understand if something's off with me.
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OCD
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Hey everyone,
I have some major issues with negative self talk and intrusive negative thoughts. Its mostly associated with social interactions. I'll be talking with someone or in a meeting and while I'm speaking I break out in a sweat and start to feel the flight response kick in. What I'm saying starts to feel far away and like someone else is saying it. I know I'm dissociating in those moments and I try to not say anything because I don't want to say something irrelevant or stupid.
The worst part happens after the interaction. I feel this wave of hatred for myself and I feel the urge to start smacking myself in the forehead or to pinch myself or dig my fingernails into my hands. I have done this unconsciously before and realized afterward when I have marks in the skin of my hands. I also have words like stupid w*ore running through my head and you're so dumb and things like that. Sometimes calming techniques and positive affirmations work to get rid of it but I'm usually off for about half an hour after.
Does anyone have tips on how to change those intrusive thoughts or deal with them in a way that's not self-destructive? How do you deal with your flight response and dissociation when it's happening? I've done CBT but that made things worse because I was constantly focusing on what I was thinking and how it should be different and I just felt more shame for not being able to make it happen. I also do positive self talk in the mirror and in my head. It doesn't seem to affect the intrusive thoughts though, only my self directed/conscious thoughts.
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ptsd
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I just had a setback. It feels frustrating but by looking at it I just don’t know what I should do with this, how I should approach this… The negativity just hits me right on, that’s because of the mental state that I’m in now. Sometimes you just want to be reassured that everything will be fine… sometimes you just want to be happy… But I don’t know…. I just don’t know what I should do with myself. It’s not that an answer is going to solve all my problems, this just is how things are right now and I’m unhappy about it all.
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depression
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I haven’t been diagnosed but I’ve had lots of different obsessions for the past 18 months or so. I’ve asked to get help twice but my mum never did anything. I’m not as bad at the moment probably because lockdowns are over but I still have obsessions with contamination and other, I guess, pure o things aswell. Should I still try to get help?I’m worried that if I describe how I feel right now the doctors won’t see much of a problem.
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OCD
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I've realized how I keep wandering in Reddit when I feel my OCD kicking in. How I need understanding. Reading people's thoughts and problems does help, seeing minds at least a bit similar to mine. But then again, when u need to talk... I dunno. This whole place feels deserted, in a sense that everyone is dealing with their own problems. Sometimes u post desperate for help or insight and not a single would answers. These are strangers. I won't find solace in this places.
Those who understand my hell don't know me, and those who know me don't understand my hell.
It just makes me feel more and more alone. I don't know where to find the perfect solace. It goes on in circles and circles. Where to go? Who to run to? Who to ask for help, how to get it, what is the help?
In the end, again I faint comfort by reading articles about ocd. What it is, details, explanations. Cause I need that feeling of "oh shit, yes exactly!" Those words and explanations have become my only ocd-mate. Lifeless words. Finding solace in finding myself in articles, cause I feel figured out and explained and clarified.
I need help, but I don't know what it is. I don't know where to find it. I don't know.
I flair my post with support instead of venting, in hopes that someone would read it. Someone would say sth. Not silence. Not nothing. Zero comments. Zero votes. Is there even anyone out there? Even if they are, what's the point? Can q stranger understand me? What am I gonna talk about? Who is gonna help? How? What? Where? When?
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OCD
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I recently read in an article/interview that Dave Asprey (bulletproof coffee, bio hacker, all around badass) basically started down his current career path to industry titan because he was looking to solve his aspie symptoms!
Feels like hope for the rest of us to get better.
Anyone have good experiences with his products? ...Teachings? ...Techniques?
There is a LOT to explore (and it can get pricey), but boy would I love to take some lessons from him to get my head straight.
I’ve had prolonged periods of feeling normal, so firmly believe that it’s possible and even tend to agree with his theories that aspies are suffering from some kind of environmental toxicity or nutritional issue.
It’d be a dream come true to be able to connect with him and build a system catered to our needs.
Any thoughts or experiences that might help? Let’s discuss!!
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aspergers
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I have many projects that I've started over the past years but now I have my hands on too many. I keep working on one project but can never get any of them finished and once I start working on a project, usually I begin thinking of the next project that can be done and hop over to that project.
What are some tips you guys use to help keep you on task for a single project instead of creating more without ever finishing the other?
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ADHD
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Hi everyone! I have PTSD from an assault that happened few years ago. I’ve been in a few relationships since then, most of them very toxic and harmful for me. The relationship I’m in now is the best I’ve ever had. He’s a great guy, we clicked right away, and he’s very different than everyone else I’ve dated. He’s someone I could see myself marrying.
I trust him, but I feel like I hit a wall with every relationship at some point, even friendships, related to how much I can trust and open up to the people in my life. He noticed and mentioned how distant I’ve been. I panicked and played it off because I wasn’t ready to talk about it and wasn’t even sure what I was feeling.
I’m in therapy, and have been for 3-4 years. I’m currently working with someone who specializes in PTSD. I haven’t discussed my trust issues with them yet because this is now just coming up.
Has anyone experienced this? Can anyone share their experience or give some advice?
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ptsd
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I wanted to post this as a sort of encouraging statement. I developed OCD at 16, or at least that is when it became the most unbearable. I’m happy to say at 21 that most of my symptoms have subsided, and I am happy most days, occasionally I will have triggers but things are better than they were. I wish the same could happen to each and every one of you. I know everyones battle is unique with its own obstacles, but you are strong and can get through this. I remember when I thought my condition was never ending, that each day would be filled with intrusive thoughts and constantly crying, unable to do anything. I hope this post gives you hope and calms you. ❤️
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OCD
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I (25F) have had bed wetting issues since I was a child. I wet my bed frequently well into my teenage years. Although not frequent anymore, I still do wet my bed sometimes and it is extremely embarrassing. I avoided sleepovers as a kid and avoided having roommates so far for this reason. I have not been diagnosed with ADHD (yet) but the more I read about it and think about my childhood and my struggles as an adult, the more I think I have ADHD. I also had soiling incidents a lot as a kid which thankfully do not happen anymore, but I do “postpone” going to the bathroom a lot.
Anyway, I wanted to know if this is just me or if there’s others struggling with this as well. And if there are others, did you get help/ how did you get help? Do I go to a therapist or any other doctor in particular?
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ADHD
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So a couple years ago I used to work at a funeral home. I was a cremationist there and worked there for 2.5 years. About 5% of the cremations were infants or small children. A couple weeks ago I was eat at a restaurant and saw some families pass by with babies or young children. My hands started trembling and felt like I was about to cry. This had never happened before and I was wondering if I might have PTSD. I had to stop eating and wait for that feeling to pass. I do not like being around babies or seeing them since working at the funeral home. I haven't been officially diagnosed with PTSD. I'm thinking about going to an EMDR therapist.
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ptsd
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Back in November, a stupid small word triggered my current downward spiral. I caught myself early, got myself to a doctor, and got myself on the waiting list for therapy. Something I never did in the past. I would allow myself to just fall deeper and deeper. I had managed to cope for so long, but that stupid thing in November toppled me. I was at an appointment at my daughters' school with a support staff member, and he was helping me with what sort of things to include in the personal statement.
He made a small comment saying that he knows I have past trauma and maybe I could include that. Honestly innocent enough, but it was the spark. I had never ever told anyone, so how could he know? Who told him, how did he find out? My head was racing my heart was thumping, and I couldn't stop the panic and fear rising in me.
If I exclude the beatings my sister gave me on a daily basis, it is nearly 15 years since it happened. Looking back, I cannot believe how stupid and naive I was. I was going away for a few days. I had a large bag with several changes of clothes. I was wearing a brown knee-length skirt and a pale cream/light brown blouse. I was 17. I was struggling with my bag, and took a break, and sat down outside shops in the middle of town. Two guys came by and made a comment. I didn't think they were talking to me. I got up to leave and they offered to help, they took my bag and started walking. I followed and was talking. went through an unused bus station. one of them hit me so hard I fell. I didn't even fight back. Which made them angry. So they tried to strangle me with my bag.
I left home a few months later. My mum didn't notice I was struggling. My sister was beating me, my mum didn't care. I eventually got in a relationship with someone. Moved in with him. He was so nice at first, so kind and caring. but it changed. He would start with name-calling that he'd excuse away with him just being silly, and I was overreacting. Then controlling who I could see, who I could talk to. Then he got physical. Always saying he loved me and was sorry later, and that he didn't mean to. He was drunk or stressed or angry.
During that relationship I was having nightmares nearly daily, I eventually learned to hold them in, to not react from them when waking because if I woke him he would hurt me for it, or force me to have sex with him. 3 years I was with him before I attempted suicide. I ended up moving back to my parents' home. I kept having nightmares. but they slowly reduced. I would keep seeing things in my head. Seeing them, feeling them, hearing them.
Years later, I had my daughter through a difficult birth. 2 years after that her father and I split. I ended up suicidal again, but not in a physical way. I couldn't deal with the memories, I just wanted to erase them. I was in that way for a few years. By the time my daughter was 4, CMHT and CRHT (Crisis response home treatment team)were involved. A psychologist said during a visit that he believed I was showing symptoms of PTSD. He told me that I had to tell him what happened in order for him to diagnose me. He was rude, showed no compassion, no kindness. he was a harsh rude man, and I did not feel comfortable talking to him. He did not believe me when I said my daughter was my staying power and said I had to promise him I would call the crisis line, or he would hospitalise me and get my daughter taken from me.
After about a month and a half of a shit cmht. I was forgotten and slipped through their cracks. I worked on myself and slowly got better. I did so well (had a dip in 2017 with depression and anxiety) but I did pull myself out... Until he said trauma. I am spiraling down all because I was scared of how he could know. I never told anyone. I had written to a friend once who said I was lying, I was too ugly how could anyone even want to go near me. But I had never said it out loud.
15 years on and they were still controlling me with fear, still suffocating me. All because I never told anyone. I finally told someone. I finally said it out loud. There was no relief from it. It didn't ease the pain. But I am hoping that in the future it won't cause such a crash because now I've said it, it's out there, it cannot be taken back, it cannot be erased. But it can be worked through.
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ptsd
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Hi. I understand the rule for repeated reassurance post and I won't go against it, but I'm freaking out right now. If I touched the toilet brush to toss it away and the bathroom floor is covered in some water (have plumber coming in half an hour)... then when washing hands I felt droplets spray on my mouth. I washed my lips for whatever good it will do. Can I eat? They'll be here for some time.
Thanks and sorry for asking for reassurance as my first post.
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OCD
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I have had three situations were near the end of the school level/grade a bully has suddenly started becoming all nice and friendly towards me for apparently no reason. What is the reason for this? These all happened in like elementary and middle school but I still wonder. Is there a reason for this?
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aspergers
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>Please hug me. I'm so scared. I just want to cry in somebody's arms.
That was what I wrote on my first day experiencing TOCD on [r/Anxiety](https://www.reddit.com/r/Anxiety/). Initially, I wanted to post this, but then I didn't want to post it. Then, I later decided that maybe I should. It feels weird though since I've never been diagnosed with OCD yet.
Before all of this, I felt so comfortable with all things masculine that it felt as if I had complete loyalty towards the male gender. It felt so right. So what happened?
It all started when my identical twin came out as transgender (MtF) two months earlier. I was so excited when they came out. Granted, I didn't feel the same way as far as gender identity is concerned, but I was still excited. I went ahead to post on [r/twins](https://www.reddit.com/r/twins/) about why I don't feel the same way despite being identical twins. It was because despite being identical, we are two individual people. However, as I was writing it, my brain indirectly told me, "Hey, since your twin is trans, you might be as well." Instantly, I started getting this ominous feeling deep down that the person who I am, the guy who I've known and loved for so long wasn't real. I asked my twin how long they've known that they were trans, they told me that their identity went back in forth between male and female before finally landing on female.
The look of pure fear and terror was in my eyes and it couldn't be kept hidden. I was constantly asking myself, "Is this what it's like to be transgender? Because I am not enjoying this at all!" This was only amplified when my twin told me about [r/egg\_irl](https://www.reddit.com/r/egg_irl/). This is a subreddit that shows memes about those who are "Transgender in denial". My brain declared "CODE RED" and I was so scared that because I'm scared of being trans, that it's a sign that I am transgender and I'm in denial about it.
I did eventually find that there are other people out there going through the same thing I did. It was on Quora. However, from what I've read from the answers, they were telling the person to consider getting a transition. One trans person even said, "Trust us, we tried to get these feelings to go away but to no avail." I was petrified reading that. And it gave me the message that I can run away from this all I want, but eventually, I would have to transition whether I want to or not.
So why am I so scared about being transgender? Surprisingly enough, it's not transphobia. It's at the bottom of the list in terms of concerns about being trans. What scares me most about being trans is that I will have to make radical changes to myself, transforming me into a person beyond recognition. This includes my physical appearance, fashion, new habits I'd have to pick up, different hobbies I'd develop, career opportunities, and the friends I'd develop over time. Basically, I'd be changing into a person I no longer recognize. Now, if you're trans, that might be a sacrifice you're willing to make. But not me.
I even started to memorize entire pieces of evidence to prove that I was a cisgender male. This is something I didn't think I had to do in my life, but apparently, I did.
Upon finding out the Transgender OCD is a thing, I breathed a sigh of relief. Also, when I was reading through entire transgender anecdotes and noticing that their experience did not match my description, I was even more relieved. Though despite this, I still have doubts every once in a while. I still want to be a cis male at the end of the day. If you managed to read this far, thank you for reading.
P.S. I had to repost this because the last time I did, I got into an argument with a transphobe.
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OCD
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Growing up I thought that living alone would be awesome. Doing whatever I want? Eating whatever I want? Who wouldn't want that!!! But I'm so lonely. There's no one to share things with. I do the same things everyday but for what? I'm falling deeper into this hole and I just cry every night thinking of how alone I am. I try to go out and just be around people but the loneliness is still there. There's nothing to fill that void.
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depression
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This is the one aspect of aspergers I hate the most. Whenever I phrase things wrong then try to explain myself, I just spill all over my words. It's so frustrating not being able to execute your thoughts properly without sometimes coming off as rude or offensive to people. Anyone else?
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aspergers
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I am a shopaholic. When I get paid I spend a lot of my paychecks on my interests and sometimes other random things. So my parents control my money which is another reason for me to hate myself because I'm too stupid to make wise decisions on my own. I'm also prone to addiction to various things. It's embarrassing to admit it to others because it shows that I'm still childish and immature. Which make me feel that I'm not worth of love. And that I will never be good enough and less than others. I have no idea how I can ever accept or love myself because I constantly make poor decisions and mistakes. Why can't I be a better person? I always go back to the same mistakes over and over again. Even though I'm afraid of death and what may or may not come next I think I would probably easily end it if given the chance because I'm tired of this life.
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aspergers
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Ok, so I want to begin this post by saying that I'm not expecting any professional to know whether or not I have PTSD, I'm simply asking for opinions so I can see whether or not I need to be diagnosed, before I begin my re-telling of these events, I should give some background, I hope I am not being delusional by asking for advice
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I'm rather young and still in teenage hood
I am autistic and have been in a mainstream school most my life, math was my worst subject and I was verbally abused by teachers for getting questions wrong
My father suffers with PTSD, however it is more severe with him due to a worse event then my own
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So, The first event was somewhat detailed above, during my school years [(Years 3-6 and a little bit of Year 7](https://www.acs-schools.com/egham/admissions/acs-egham-grade-placement)) I was the worst in my class when it came to math, I was always on the lowest sheet, on my Mock SATs I got only 4 questions right, and I was often verbally attacked by teachers for getting things wrong, luckily I doubled my score on my actual SATs, but now I am in a special needs school I have struggled doing math, and my teachers have noticed this as well, I've only just recently began to go into classes.
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The second case is more to do with bullying, There was a new boy in my school when I was Year 6, for the purpose of this let's call him 'Stain', during the time he was at my school he had caused me a lot of posture problems due to kicking my back and had insulted me and my partner at the time (we were younger so it wasn't really that serious of a relationship), and then in Year 7, he had joined the new school I was going to, I pre-warned the teachers that I was going to get mad if I saw him, and they did not listen, one-day he was giving me death threats, and some of his friends were making fun of my weight (I am above average size for a person of my age) and due to my anger at the time, I picked up a brick and ended up attempting to attack them, I luckily didn't harm anyone (except a teacher, and I did write a formal apology), and I was then expelled, I was out of education for a year with no friends, everyone I knew had abandoned me because I no longer went to the same school as them, and earlier today I remembered them and I just had a meltdown, because knowing the area I live in and how they won't speak to me, I feel that they're all going to fall into the spiral of crime that plagues where I live, and I can't do anything to help them
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The last case doesn't affect me as much, but I feel it's still worth telling incase it has any impact, a friend of some of my friends who I had spoken to a few times was ran over on the street behind where I live, I didn't see the corpse but I saw the lights and the police tape, I didn't know it was them until I my dad showed me the article, ever since then when I've gone to that road and gone to the shops I have always been scared and constantly remember what happened to them.
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I know that I may be too young to have PTSD, or maybe just an idiot to think I have it, but I need advice and opinions on whether or not I should try get an assessment, any opinions or advice is good.
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Kind Regards.
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ptsd
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Ive gotten so depressed I can't leave my bed. Thinking is too exhausting. everything is. I have CFS/ME since i was 13 and it ruined my life.....i feel being lil into 40s is too late to do anyhting worthwhile; i struggled with trying to even finish GED for past 15+ years. I just cant do it. Too late. I failed in life but least i can get by financially.
Thats not the total issue tho. All meds from anti depressants to stimulants to everything else dont work
and im just getting weaker and more exhausted dunno how to keep living at this rate even if i wanted to.
Im 100% alone in the world save for a partner i feel doesnt reallly love me and is caught in alcohol addiction.
Im so depressed it feels like i could drop dead from it from the sheer extreme of it. I dunno what to do about it or anything anymore. I wanna cry but i dont even have the strength left
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depression
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I like to (think that I) seek the truth, and sometimes if I disagree with someone I'll make a point of asking about their point of view. The problem is that *every* time it happens, they get upset with me and I freeze up. I've found asking "why do you think y about x?" gets taken as "I can't believe that you'd be so stupid to believe y. Idiot." and they get disproportionately mad. I never look down on people for their (inconsequential) views and ideas, but it looks like I'm pretty rare in that regard?
It may just be the friends I have, but I find it heartbreaking that people seem to have this level of distrust. Has anyone had any success? What are some good scripts? Even saying "I respectfully disagree" gets incredulous laughs and if I'm uncertain and I'm trying to explore, then it overstates the strength of my claim.
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aspergers
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Has anyone been so curious as to have a brain scan to see if / how your brain differs from an NT?
How much did it cost and what were your results?
I'm mostly interested in info from UK folks but any stories / advice is welcome
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aspergers
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Brightness white, light in spite of nothingness
Glazing dazing brilliant lack of black, this could only be a torture tank
Low and screeching buzzing blasts, burning holes in drums, brain, and sane alike
This is your body. Try again? Only, it might be worse then.
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aspergers
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Hello everyone, I am building app for life coaches and for people that are looking for life coaches. I am really looking for some feedback and to ensure that the product is a one that helps people find a coach they love. If you are interested in being a part of the journey please message me.
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OCD
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(my boring story) In three days it would have technically been my fourth wedding anniversary. It's been 11 months since I got just a 10 minute phone call from my wife explaining she didn't love me anymore and basically ghosting me. Details aside (you'd be surprised to learn there really isn't many details, I've come to realize I'll never get closure) the only happy memories I have are time spent with her. Im very thankful I felt what it was like to *be* happy even if this horrible disease has wrecked me for decades. I may be even more of a ghost of even my depressed past, but I guess I'm working towards one day feeling a fraction of that happiness I once felt briefly. I guess that's what keeps me going? How about you? I thought it would be a little better in my early thirties. The love of my life is gone, but I guess I have to keep going? Do I though? I have our pets to take care of, other than that is there really a reason?
Hope you're doing ok though, stranger.
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depression
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I’ve had a painful cough for over two months now, done multiple Covid tests, all negative, been prescribed multiple medicines and antibiotics and made no difference. My doctor did a brief examination at her office and has advised me to go for a chest X-ray as soon as possible and honestly even though I’m sure it’ll be something minor, I’m secretly hoping it’ll be something terminal.
If I’m honest my life isn’t as traumatic as some of the stories I’ve read on here I’m still in a situation where I don’t want to go on.
I’ve had suicidal thoughts since my teen years (now late 20s) and I think the only reason I’ve not done it is because I know my mum would blame herself and I don’t want to let my dog down.
I have crippling body dysmorphia and several self harm scars which mean I wear long sleeved tops even during peak summer months. I’ve just been dealt a shit hand in general and I’m about ready to fold. This chest problem feels like the perfect way out, it won’t be anyone’s fault but I’d still get the desired outcome.
I’ve been on and off antidepressants for a while because I don’t like the way they make me feel and I’ve given up taking to my doctor about that problem because nothing seems to help.
I don’t really know why I’m writing this hear, I guess it’s just a secret I wanted to share before I get the news.
Thank you for listening to me rant if you got this far. Hope everyone else is doing better.
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depression
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I suffer from C-PTSD, sometimes it makes me feel crazy when telling people about my symptoms.
I found [this](https://www.mind.org.uk/information-support/types-of-mental-health-problems/post-traumatic-stress-disorder-ptsd-and-complex-ptsd/for-friends-and-family/) article that I send to new friends and/or family.
Anyone have any advice or experience they could share to help educate new people quickly?
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ptsd
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Yo, so I’m a 21 guy who has had a bunch a intrusive thoughts about being a girl, which sucked but I found a good service in the local area and I’ve moved past most of it, but now since I’ve moved past it, I still tear up around feminine things and people at the reminder of what I suffered through, and I’m not sure if my therapist will have any opinions on this! What do you all think?
Cheers and have a good day!
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OCD
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I don't really feel the constant nagging of suicide anymore, not as much anyway. I still feel like I deserve it though, and I don't know that I've ever been sure of anything. I'm 21, but I'm naive and immature. My grades are slipping. I can't keep up because my mind is always racing, and I don't know where I'm gonna wind up.
Eventually, maybe I'll make my own way, and things won't feel so desperate. And I won't feel so out of touch with myself and regretful, I guess. I think I'm too young to feel the way I do sometimes. I feel so old yet so young if that makes any sense at all. I know I'm smart, not wise or anything, but I mostly talk sensibly and have a good head on my shoulders.
I tried dating recently. It didn't go well because of my mental health issues. I didn't hurt anyone, but I'm not attractive when I'm like this. I'm not worth pursuing, and I know that because a future with me is grim. I don't think there are good things ahead, not for me. Maybe in another life but not here.
I sometimes wish somebody would just put me out of my misery to be honest, then I wouldn't have to figure anything out and wade through all the bullshit I've subjected myself to. I wouldn't have to be mentally ill. I would just be nothing.
Drinking was probably the best thing about turning 21. It makes me feel more like an adult even though I don't do if often. It's a casual thing, and I genuinely like the taste. Wine is actually pretty good. 22 is probably gonna be worse. I can't see it being better.
How could I?
Each year has become increasingly bleak. I attempted suicide this year -- back in March. And now the year is almost over. To be honest, I'm confused as to where it went. It's November, and what have I done? I should have withdrawn from one of my classes. It's a lost cause. Nobody's really here anymore.
I had friends in high school, but I'm just so lonely now. I want things to be easier. Why does my life suck? How could it be fun? People say you need to change your perspective, but I don't really know how. I feel like I'm wired this way, and there's a certain comfort in being mentally destroyed. It's what I know. And, in a lot of ways, it's who I am.
I still hope things get better, but how could I possibly know if they will? I don't know what's gonna happen, but I'm gonna sleep in a few hours, and that'll be the only peace I find until I awake.
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depression
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I've been on Vyvanse for almost ten years, and it's done absolute wonders for me as far as concentration goes. But as a stimulant it tends to make my OCD and anxiety much worse than when I'm off my meds, and often causes me to become stuck in unpleasant thought loops. I recently took a break from it for a few days because I was having serious problems falling asleep and that break turned into about a week and a half now and I've noticed my social anxiety has all but disappeared. I was eating way too much for a while but that's tapered off. But one thing that's stuck around is my lack of concentration or motivation to do anything, literally anything. Is this a withdrawal symptom that will eventually fade with time or is it a sign I still need the medication? Alternately, can anyone recommend any good non stimulant medications I can look into?
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ADHD
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This is a thought I had that helped me really understand OCD. It takes your worst fears, some of the things that we never want to happen and makes them feel like reality. Realizing this has helped me recognize the difference between my OCD and my actual thoughts and wants.
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OCD
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I haven't been able to get over 3 hours of sleep for a month because I've been so alert and paranoid. I look around my house and I just see everything that happened ever (I'm still in the environment where the traumas occurred). This has always existed but it's gotten so much worse this past month or so.
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ptsd
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Hey I was wondering if anyone here has taken prazosin for ptsd symptoms. First of all that shit be MAD EXPENSIVE and im still depressed and suicidal so just lmk your experience with it
EDIT: hey sorry i realized someone posted about prazosin last week. I guess you can just drop a comment on your story of medication and PTSD
I am also on 200mg zoloft and ?mg lamotrigine
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ptsd
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Guys I am slipping and I just need support, positivity, positive stories, encouragement, words of encouragement, etc
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OCD
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Long time lurker. I wanted to share my experience. I’m 40, I hadn’t thought much about ADHD until the last year. I’ve lived a fairly successful life in most regards, but I’ve had so many dreams and ambitions that I’ve never been able to actualize. Finishing anything is the hardest, it’s even hard for me to harvest my vegetables from my garden when they’re ready…for some reason I just can’t do it. My lack of being able to follow through has affected my relationship. And I finally decided to start my own business. I’ve put blood sweat and tears into it. Yet I can’t manage to complete my tasks until there’s a gun to my head/a looming deadline. From the outside I’m having success and reaching benchmarks but the cost is staying up until 3am to work b/c that’s the best time I can find to focus. It isn’t sustainable. I put on my big girl pants and got a psych evaluation and confirmed my diagnosis. Next step was meds. Of course it took over a month for me to schedule an appointment. Had the appointment today. I had lots of anxiety around the stigma of taking meds and being told to maybe try something else before meds, by the doc. It went the opposite of that. He gave me a sub to 2 meds to try to see if one was better than the other. He explained everything so well and I felt no judgement. I am so relieved! I meet with him in a month to follow up with how everything is going and dial in meds dosage. I am so relieved and excited to see if meds help.
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ADHD
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Drove around the ring-road of my city, briefly entered the highway and circled back home on the motorcycle. Mum was sitting behind me!
And I didn't ask for reassurance or drive around to check EVEN ONCE.
I feel very happy but also confused
I thought I'd be terrified? But I have been slowly driving every single day for a month now, it gets very bad when I'm driving alone, I believe family/friend sitting behind me is a subtle reassurance that "they will tell me if something bad happens"
So the next few road trips I'm going to be doing alone, no checking. I'm surprised by how little anxiety it gave me today, almost let OCD question if I have OCD(hah won't fall for your tricks ocd)
One step closer to being free of this theme!
False memory OCD, checking and cleaning stuff is left, I'm gonna start seeing a therapist for that, its harder for me to do that by myself
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OCD
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It's kind of weird, but sometimes I'll start thinking about a subject I know pretty well, and I'll spend an entire hour explaining it to myself in my head as if I was explaining it to a crowd of people.
I'll go into every little aspects, explaining subjects related to the first one etc...
I don't know, but it's probably a coping mechanism due to masking. I won't infodump to people that much, so to compensate I'll infodump to myself.
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aspergers
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i'm getting tired of finding articles about asperger saying this like : *asperger is a genetic impairement in neurological developement*. **STOP!** i get it, it is way more satifying to get the ideal definition. But let's get real here ! You WILL meet neurotypicals, who won't give a shit about opening the DSM5 book, it will sounds like a waste of time to them ! So help the new aspies who have no idea what it means ! Tell them what it means to you, so they can get a grasp ! so we (including me) can work on a simple one liner to present it !
***What being an Aspie would be like to you ?***
Try to make it short, and avoid being too abstract.
edit: sorry for wierd phrasings and mean word choices, i'm not a english native.
edit 2 : of course it's a spectrum, meaning you may not relate with everyone talking. but it does mean you will find relatable experience. and therefore, would inspire from them to make your own description.
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aspergers
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I work a part time job or well a temp job due to my mental health working more then a few hours a day can be difficult.
But even though I tend to enjoy my job. I dread it each morning I need to go. I get a fight or flight response. And it's really difficult. I tend to have to motivate myself to get out of bed.
Alongside my knee pain which doesn't help. I've considered applying for disability due to the amount of compounding factors. PTSD panic disorder adhd. Yes not having an income is very difficult even if my family is there for me.
I'm slowly coming to understand my adhd but I still get that reaction to major responsibility.
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ADHD
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[16f] so am tired of life I just wanna die I tried my idk 20th something attempt I literally got out of the hospital like a day ago I thought I would die this time but no you would think am happy to be alive but no am not at all, a guy literally died next to me and honestly I was jealous of him like why him and not me he probably wanted to actually live, I've honestly tried everything to make my life better I was supposed to go for a trip to my cousin's house which would have changed my life in the best way possible I suffer from a mental illness which I don't have meds for I was supposed to go help them at my cousin's house because my parents don't think mental illnesses exist as I type this I would be happy enjoying my life but no my parents don't understand and said they don't have money even tho they promised me and they spent twice the amount they need to send me there on something useless I was supposed to finally meet up with my best friend and also finally go to a better school cause the one my cheap ass parents took me to is terrible I thought I would never go back but since am not going I know I'll have to go back which I rather kill myself I don't want to go there I've been there for years and no more if it means me trying again I will i don't even have friends in this city i wanted to make new ones where I was supposed to go but now am left without anyone but my sadness and suicidal thoughts I have no to talk to am tired and lonely I just want to disappear but it seems like I just can't die like I've been trying since last year now I feel like some dramatic teenager or something idk I just want to die already guess am going to do it again soon
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depression
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>*This episode contains spoilers for Sex Education season two*
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>Sex Education returned to Netflix last week with its much anticipated second season.
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>And it's already being praised across the board for the way it covers several sensitive topics within its plot, such as asexuality, bisexuality, pansexuality, drug addiction, adoptive parent anxiety, the morning after pill and bullying.
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>But there's one scene that has really struck a chord with women around the world, and that was Aimee's bus scene.
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>If you haven't yet seen it, the long and the short is that Aimee (Aimee Lou Wood) gets onto a bus heading to school, and a man masturbates onto her leg.
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>....
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>Every day on the way to school, Aimee forces herself to walk the whole way, because she physically can't get onto the bus.
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>Her mind starts playing tricks on her, and she begins to see the mysterious man wherever she goes.
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>https://www.tyla.com/entertaining/tv-and-film-sex-education-aimee-bus-scene-assault-watch-praise-netflix-20200123
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Sex Education is a very well written Americanised teen comedy. In The UK, many wonder at the highly unrepresentative student demographic for a supposedly impossible Rural School. Even the school lockers and clothing has been Americanised. Also, Sorry to break some folks dreams but Military Academies are very US but very Un-UK. EDIT - One storyline using Statutory Rape as a theatrical device is plain silly. The term has no place in British Law. There now will be a growing cadre of millions of confused UK kids believing it does.
However, the Aimee Lou Wood storyline is very well written and uses so many camera and directorial tricks to communicate fleeting reality to the audience. This also leaves screen peers with credible confusion and misunderstanding. It's well worth watching so as to be able to see and if appropriate learn the signs, signals and distress of a teen girl's PTSD linked to sexual assault.
That the storyline is embedded in an angst-ridden teen comedy with adult themes on sex makes it more credible and gives real and valid contrast with depth and reality.
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ptsd
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One of my obsessions is studying words in modern English. Like learning how the words evolved from older words or how words have changed meaning over time. I also like breaking apart words into the different parts of words such as the prefix, root, and suffix parts to analyze how they form the meaning of that word. What I've never understood is why people use the words homophobic/homophobia to describe somebody that hates gay people. Because the suffix phobia/phobic implies fear, and it seems the vast majority of people described as such aren't actually scared of gay people, they dislike/hate them. I think a more appropriate term would be homomisia/homomisiac as the suffix -misia means hatred/dislike.
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aspergers
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I am a guy in my 30s and recently diagnosed with ASD. They told me it was aspergers but that don't use this term anymore in the UK.
I have started therapy and I am learning that my way of coping over my life has been to dissociate HARD. It stopped me from being "rude" or looking out of place (somewhat) but also took a lot of possible enjoyment out of my life.
However, I now in a moment where I would like to let some of my barriers down. Actually, wave my ASD flag and not give two hoots about fixating on things, or being super direct, or trying not to suppress stims. Like, I love bright colours (pink and purple) and soft textures and blankets. When I am anxious I want to dance badly to music to calm down. I could walk for hours in the country. I want to tell people I know they are lieing to me or that I don't understand what they mean. I want to find healthier stims too.
What things do you like/enjoy/appreciate about your aspergers?
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aspergers
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Hey, I have been experiencing a lot of symptoms that lead me to believe I may have adhd (having trouble paying bills even though I have the money, zoning out at work all day, go to do one thing and my brain rushes in all the other things I have to do so I don’t do anything, doing 10 chores at once and never finishing, can’t maintain relationships, and more)
So…I have been trying for months to find someone to do an adhd eval and nobody is accepting patients, then I forget about it, try again, nobody accepting patients, forget, try again. Finally today I get a response from a psychologist and he says hey are you looking for an evaluation or for therapy?
I don’t know what to say and it’s tripping me up. Do I say both? Or do I just want an evaluation? I have never been in therapy so I don’t know what to say or what to expect, and I am feeling this roadblock and I really don’t want to blow this guy off…I don’t really understand what I need or what I’m asking from him, I just know something is wrong and I need help.
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ADHD
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I feel like an outsider. I can't "break in" to society. I've been to meetups, groups, but everyone there is 30 years older than me and they are prejudiced. I've been insulted several times. I've tried to acquaint myself with other people's interests. I try to listen to the music that the "majority" listen to, the culture, the political views, etc.
It's just not possible. I can't make myself into something I'm not. And as a result, I am alone. People have no interest in someone like myself. My interests are too "geeky" to be interesting, and I am so obsessed with what I like that other people lose interest long before I do.
I wish I could just live in a different society sometimes. I wish I could have the basic things that everyone else has easily like relationships and friendships.
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aspergers
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(I am medicated just FYI I’m on Ritalin now a fairly low dosage)
This is bit of rant and my feelings have a strong likelihood of changing but this is how I am feeling now…
I have many many a things I have started and not finished as I am sure plenty of you do as well… well I’m sick of it! I want to finish something I want to feel accomplished and I want to say “hey I started this and I stuck it out to the end!”
These “many things” I am referring to aren’t just hobbies and activities but part time jobs when I was in school I was constantly switching part time jobs and while being “very smart” or having a high iq I still struggled to get through highschool miserably for the same reasons
I want to start something and commit to it I want to have self discipline and stick to a routine have consistency. Am I even capable of doing something like this? Is this related to my ADHD or am I an unstructured lazy bum? Does anyone else struggle with this? Or have any advice??
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ADHD
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Is such subconscious rocking back and forth a symptom of autism/Asperger's?
I have been rocking back and forth like that for as long as I can remember, whenever I'm studying or doing something I find interesting.
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aspergers
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For reference, I have depression and anxiety. I highly suspect I have ADHD and I’m going to get a formal psychiatric evaluation next month. I’m wondering if I should tell the doc about the OCD symptoms I have. For as long as I can remember, I’ve been compelled to fix things. Whenever something isn’t straight, I feel like I have to move it in exactly the right spot and organize it. I used to be obsessed with keeping things neat but depression got in the way of that and now my room is realllllly messy. When I was a child my first anxious thoughts were intrusive, I felt like I was going to snap and end up hurting my family and have to spend the rest of my life in a psychiatric hospital. As I get older, I constantly worry that I’ll hurt myself instead (I’ve tried to kill myself twice so I have reason to think this). It’s weird because it’s not germs itself that scare me, it’s anything that I deem dirty. If I touch garbage, an animal, something old or dusty, my hands feel contaminated and I immediately use hand sanitizer or wash my hands. Lately I’ve been washing them two or three times each washing session because one time doesn’t feel like enough anymore, I still feel dirty. Instead of constantly fearing the door is open or my oven is on, I worry that whatever I’ve done didn’t save. I work on a computer and have to save each change I make to a file, and I write in a journal app on my phone. Each time I do this, I have to check three times to see that it really did save. I constantly worry that my bad memory will fail me and make me lose my progress. I was born on the third of December so I feel like 3 is my lucky number. Lately I do everything in 3s, I click the lock button on my car keys 3 times, I make sure my work saved 3 times, I check to see that my latest journal entries saved 3 times. If I do have OCD, the symptoms were bad as a kid, got better in my teens since I was too focused on battling depression and feeling exhausted all the time, and recently have gotten bad again. Could I have OCD or am I being a hypochondriac?
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OCD
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