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Dont mind me, i just want to write what i am feeling. I am 20F. My dad was the one who pressured me to go into medicine. I felt like it wasn't right for me but i gave in. I even stayed one year at home and studyed by myself to get in this university. And now i am overwhelmed by everything and losing all motivation. I just wanna cry because i feel like the most stupid in my group. I am scared that i will fail everything and dissapoint everyone around me.
And even if i make it i kind of realised that i have at least 9 up to 12 years of med school and residency (european system). Its a waste of my life. I know it sounds weird but i get thoughts like "you might die anytime, even tomorrow or maybe at 29 as a doctor and you will lack so many experiences because you were struggling in school".
Our time on this earth is limited and i feel like i have so many interesting things to explore besides medicine such as learning more german, getting healthier, be a better cook, travel, develop some friendships or romantic relationship. And the fact that i know i won't have a bf because it would be a bigger commitment than i can handle now it kind of makes me bitter. I feel like i will have to put my life on pause and maybe start living in my 30s.
I am just trying to navigate my regrets and my fears. I am seeing a therapist next week and i am also thinking about searchig for medical help and meds. Leaving med school is not a solution at least for now. Thanks for reading. | depression |
I’ve been on Vyvanse for about three months now, and I wasn’t having issues while titrating up to my dose, but now I’m feeling the full force of the loss of appetite. I get hungry, make food, and then I’ll put it in my mouth and I swear it makes me feel like I’m going to throw up. I just can’t get food down. At first, I’d settle for snacks or dessert or breakfast foods, but now even that won’t go down.
On the one hand, I don’t mind too much, because I’ve put on a bit more than the quarantine fifteen and could stand to lose weight.
On the other hand, I have a history of anorexia. I’ve been in recovery for almost 6 years without relapse, and I’ve always been really proud of that, but I do worry that the lack of appetite will make it easy to slip into old habits.
I don’t want to give up on the Vyvanse because I feel like it really does work.
Has anyone been in a similar situation? What was your experience like? Does the loss of appetite ever go away? | ADHD |
For as long as I can remember, I’ve never truly had people around me that support me (besides partners). Friends have never been supportive and the thought of my family reaching out to me to ask how I’m doing is laughable.
I try my best to reach out, but I find when I start to vent to friends it just ends up with them venting to me. I console people as much as I can, cos I truly do care about those close to me. But I never feel like THEY care about ME.
It’s been such a lonely year. I just want to feel like I’m cared about for once. | depression |
Do obsessions make you want to do things and you can't stop the obsession from making it like you don't want to do but there's no compulsivity there? | OCD |
Hi, I need your advice on dealing with this 'friend' that I have. Let's call him Aaron (it's not his real name but whatever)
In my 4th year of highschool, I decided to improve myself by losing weight and gaining confidence. As as result, I've went from this weird fat dude to somewhat decently functional, which is when I found Aaron as a friend. I started hanging around him a lot after a school camp cuz we hang out and do activities together a lot because we're in the same group.
Within this 2 year peroid, my school frequently closed and opened due to covid. During the opening period, Aaron is the kind of guy who's everyone is friend with because of his natural broish charisma. He would sometimes separately talk to me but not much. Mind you, though I'm better, I only graduated from 'that weird kid' to 'that quiet kid' so I don't really have any friend at all nor could I hold long conversation. I could only have long conversation with Aaron but not anyone else.
During quarantine, we frequently chatted during class to joke and also talk about school topics and I'm paired with him for most subjects. However, ever since the opening period I always had the feeling that he'd rather talk to other ordinary guy instead of me and will come to me if there's no one to hang out with or is bored.
There's one time when we were talking about our plans for university and I suggest we call each other some times and he made excuses that he's going to his relative's house, even though I checked later and saw that he was on our class's discord call room 24/7. Just a few days ago I tried again and I asked him if he wants to do homework together with me since i'd be faster and he's struggling with it as well. Later in the evening when I messaged him, he went silent on both messenger and discord for the entire night. When the next day arrives, he just texted me and said he didn't see the notification.
I don't know, perhaps I'm overthinking and you guys can call me out on that. I feel like he's sometimes embarrassed that he has to hang out around me and wants nothing to do with me outside texting. | aspergers |
If I try to do something to get better something shitty happens that triggers my OCD and it just throws me back 100 steps.
I can truly appreciate a good friend right now | OCD |
I was referred to a psychologist by my GP because I thought I was on the spectrum and wanted to talk through the diagnosis process. We had a two hour conversation and she thought that even if I had aspects of my personality similar to Asperger's, the main takeaway was that I have OCD (and most likely got it from my father who has never once talked to a therapist in his life). Thinking about it over the last few days has been exhausting, I'm not sure what to do with this information or how to get a second opinion.
I don't have a therapist right now, should I just find a therapist and talk it through with them? Is there anyone else I should see or any specific resources I should read into? I just feel kind of lost right now. Thanks in advance. | OCD |
I have been taking 2g daily for over a week now and I feel anything special.
Is the dose right? When will I notice benefits? Will I notice benefits? | OCD |
I have these two friends who have started dating after years of her being with a different friend of mine. Anyway, I find myself unable to stomach them enjoying each other for some reason. I just don’t have any interest in seeing them pair bond. It may be because I’m incapable of having emotions that they’re experiencing, so I’m jealous in a way? I don’t know.
I’ve been avoiding hanging out with them for a month or so, just to avoid having to see them do all that shit couples do at the start of relationships. I really hate that love between humans even exists at times because I will never feel it.
Honestly watching people in love makes me want to go donate to fucking Elon Musk so he can more quickly build everything we need to turn people into emotionless cyborgs, thus curing us of our humanity.
The guy friend of course is changing a lot because he has a feminine influence now. The way all guys change when they fall in ‘love’. He’s less interested in talking about deep topics and masculine topics. It’s like he is influenced by her to the point he’s a different person, and I don’t care for it. I fucking hate when others fall in love and then change.
I always mask, and say that of course I’m happy for them. But really, I wish they weren’t together. Sometimes I wish it was just us men in the friend group because then stuff like this wouldn’t happen. | aspergers |
I’m 27 and live with my partner. I just lost my job due to my mental health (lost it and just stayed home, have a note from my doctor but I have no protections at my job and it was horrible anyway). My parents don’t know yet
We are about to go to my parents house so that I can talk to them. I don’t know how to explain to them what suicidal OCD is. I tried to explain what’s happening to me to my boyfriend but he immediately and understandably wanted me to go to a psych ward. I need and want help, but I don’t want that.
Just looking for support or advice on how to have this conversation. Thank you | OCD |
It seems like everyone I share about PTSD to first wants to know everything and pretend to be supportive but very quickly bails leaving me alone.
Having people around seemed like one of the most helpful things. Should I just lie about it so people can stand to be around me?
It just feels like everyone pretends to want to hear about it and when they find what it entails they bail. Makes me want to tell no one. | ptsd |
Hey everyone (:
I'm (NB, 27) currently in therapy for intrusive thoughts and my therapist to no surprise mentioned I'm very likely to be somewhere towards the light end of the autism spectrum.
I'm debating whether or not I should get a diagnosis. I've had a bad experience after coming from a self help group where someone thought I was dumb because I came from that particular seminar room. I don't want to get stereotyped because of a diagnosis.
I do have social issues though and it makes getting through job interviews more difficult and I'm struggling to fulfill social requirements on the job. (I'm noticing because a colleague mentors me on professional behaviour because he noticed my struggle)
Is there any benefit of getting a diagnosis of Asperger's? Would a diagnosis only prevent me from getting any job at all or help me? Did it stigmatise you or hinder you? Please tell me what it was like for you in your country. I'm German, but I'd be happy to hear your story. | aspergers |
This very well could be bad info but when I was a kid and living at home I was absolutely not allowed to have a t.v in my room and my mind would just go and it would take me hours to fall asleep.
But now I am a grownupman and there are a few specific shows that I can watch/have on in the background that drown out my thoughts but aren't engaging enough/I have watched them so so many times that just turning the show on says to my brain that it's sleepy time. (I also in my grownupman life, smoke some (stuff that isn't allowed to be talked about in this sub reddit apparently) which I understand isn't legal for everyone but that's another conversation)
The shows that work for me are
1. any and all of david attenboroughs documentaries
2. Somebody feed Phil
3. Star trek the next generation (its so bad its good)
4. Brooklyn 99 (but only if you've already watched through it all 10 times)
5. Adventure time
6. I can't really think of anymore ATM but will think a little harder and add some if anyone cares to hear more.
The big one is the david attenborough docs... I've watched them all 100s of times. The ones about plants are better imo. Start with "the life of plants" | ADHD |
I was diagnosed with PTSD after leaving an abusive marriage. I feel pretty good most of the time, but still have triggers. I feel like my relationship with my boyfriend is strained at times because of my triggers/responses even though I’ve tried to explain it to him.
For example, he sometimes reaches out and touches me while he’s talking (like when he’s making a point). Last week, I shrunk back from his touch and he looked at me like I was the Antichrist. I told him that I don’t like to be poked or touched unexpectedly, but he still didn’t seem to understand. This has nothing to do with him and it’s a reflexive response for me.
One major trigger for me is violence, screaming etc. in movies...especially in the evening or near bed time because I have nightmares. I’ve left the room before and gone to watch TV in the bedroom when he and my daughter were watching a scary movie and there was no issue. I’ve told him many times that movies can be triggering for me. Last night, a movie came on where a woman was getting ready for a bed and a man in a mask was lurking outside. The music got ominous and I knew I had to get out of there FAST. I quickly went to the other room and turned the TV on to drown it out. I could feel my heart racing and my breath quickening just imagining what was happening on that TV in the other room. If he wanted to watch that movie, I was ok with it, I just couldn’t be in that room. He came in and told me we needed to have a conversation about communication and how those situations could be better handled in the future. I told him that I left the room quickly because I knew something was coming and didn’t want to see/hear it since it was close to bed time. I said it had nothing to do with him and I wasn’t angry or anything. He continued to try to have a conversation about communication with me in that moment. I resented it. I feel like I did what I needed to in that moment to feel safe, and because it made him slightly uncomfortable, he was forcing me into a conversation I didn’t want to have. He implied that I wasn’t an adult.
I have been suicidal at a number of points in my life, am an alcoholic and have done a lot of shitty things over the years to deal with my trauma. I’m now almost 4 months sober and am really trying to be better. Leaving the room felt like the right thing to do in the moment and was a lot better strategy than things I have done in the past. I can’t always articulate how I feel when I’m triggered and I don’t always want to. I don’t want to always have to explain why I need to leave the room. It’s really discouraging to feel like I’m making progress and have someone treat me like I’m overreacting or a child. I know he means well and that he loves me, but it’s discouraging. Am I overreacting? Should I try to tough it out and talk in those moments? | ptsd |
Hello to my fellow Aspies out here,
let's talk about some fictional or fictionalized characters whom you suspect to be on the Spectrum, especially the once that usually are not talked about (Yes, we all know about Sheldon Cooper, more than enough).
I recently watched Eddie the Eagle and I loved it, especially the fact it is based on a true story. From the moment I heared him talk and pursue his passion, I immediately felt as if I was watching myself. I mean, a British ski jumper is about as unique as a German Rugby player (which I am), lol.
The way he could remember who won which tournament when and despite his struggles and being clumsy as hell (and very obviously not an athlete at all) still wanting to do nothing but this, combined with his struggles to realize when people are mocking or abusing him. If this is as close to the real Eddie as it can get, I am more than convinced he has Aspergers. I felt as if I was literally watching myself, especially with sports also as my longest and strongest special interest.
The same goes for Amelie Poulain. I've heard she has been talked about as being likely on the spectrum much more. I remember watching the movie and reading the script in French Class during High School (still undiagnosed back then) and I was puzzled how much I could relate to her and especially her weird and unique hobbies (like going to the cinema just to watch the people there in the audience or buying coffee just to break the cream with her spoon). And I think she could somehow be a role model or at least raise awareness about how Autism can also affect women. Even though I didn't like how once she found her true love she finally "turned" normal and overall it seemed to portray her negatively, but apparently this is something mainstream cinema needs.
Do you agree here on my observations or can you think of anyone else? | aspergers |
The last time I could say that was when I was 17 (I'm 22 now). I'm not going to lie, it has been very difficult. I've self harmed. I've had self-destructive behaviours.
But I didn't attempt to take my own life. I surely did want to though, I went to bed some days wishing I wouldn't wake up the next day. But I didn't actively tried to die.
To me this is a victory, I'm still depressed but I'm becoming more functional and I feel like I can rely and trust myself more now. I'm not as impulsive as I used to be. | depression |
I like to create YouTube videos and whenever I upload them I look at the URL that it makes and even though it's random letters and numbers my brain formed them into words that irritate me and cause me to delete the upload and re-upload until I get a link that I like but lately I haven't been able to get one that I like for example my latest upload ends in v3e and my brain puts it as vee which makes me think Gary Vee who is an entrepreneur and my brain think that's bad and all I can think about is Gary vee just like if the URL said sfxt my brain would instantly put it together as sex or something like that it's so frustrating and I'm trying to just accept the video I upload and whatever link instead but it's so difficult | OCD |
I'm diagnosed with adhd but have never been on meds because my parents refused to "drug" me when i was a minor. I fall under the inatenive type.
Now I'm 18 and would like to take meds because the distraction and forgetfulness and everything is just so so unbearable. I cannot keep my mind on one thing, it feels like my brain is playing hopscotch, jumping from one thing to another and another and never completing anything or retaining any information and I'm tired of it. I'm about to be dismissed from college and i can't keep a job cuz i make an endless about of mistakes and no one understands whyand thinks I'm just a lazy person who doesn't want to work. and I'm hoping and even freaking praying that SOMETHING out there can help me. I really am interested in my major, it's chemistry, i find it fascinating but i cant for the life of me remember any material i "learn" or sit there wasting time reading the same sentence over and over andover again and i just can't anymore.
Do meds help with academic and like job proformance? I just don't want to keep failing at life :( | ADHD |
I (15M) feel like I am losing my grip on life. I’ve already missed over 30 days of school, but I just don’t have the will to bother anymore. My grades have dropped significantly, from A’s the last year or two, to barely C’s. I have been struggling with “bad thoughts” and I just don’t know what to do. I haven’t gone to a doctor because nobody knows about any of this. I am afraid to tell my mom, because she struggles with depression as well. I don’t want to make things worse. I am definitely depressed, and it is quite possibly going to ruin my life. | depression |
So pretty much I’m 20 years old, never had a gf or any kind of relationship with a female,and I
cant get over how Ugly I am.
How do some people learn to love themselves after hating themselves for So long? I have acne, pale skin , big eyes , a big forehead, and even big lips. All through high school ppl let me know how ugly I was to them and over time I just couldn’t even look in the mirror. Now it’s been almost 2 years since hs n I’m even more of a pathetic loser. I dropped out of college, my family and friends all know I hate myself and now my issues are affecting them n it just makes me feel worst n so angry. I tried for years to better myself njust be happy n luv the way I look but idk if I can do that. I feel like a complete bitch for letting myself destroy my life over things I can’t control but I let it happen n I don’t know what to do anymore. I just stopped drinking today bc it’s was making me even worst so now I just smoke weed for the most part. I don’t know what to do anymore. | depression |
I always give myself too much to do so I constantly feel like I’m failing at something. I just realized, *maybe I do this to give myself a constant sense of urgency for that deadline motivation*.
This is awful for my stress levels but I have been feeling like it’s the only way I get *anything* done. It could also be the dopamine excitement of something new before finishing current tasks too.
Right now, I work full time, am going back to school in January taking 9 credits, and just signed up for a CompTIA exam in February I need to study for 😅
I have NO idea how to flair this, so for tips and suggestions, how do you all manage an impossible workload? Any tips on practicing restraint as well? | ADHD |
Per title - I am an autistic adult and I am realising maybe I should learn how most people communicate. I have time on my hands and I really like following one specific work so I am looking for a book. Just something specifically geared towards individuals like me so I can still be myself just with a greater understanding of other people :)
thanks in advance | aspergers |
I don’t mean normal normal but like normal for people with PTSD. Am I the only one who thinks about ending it every day? | ptsd |
I have an extremely poor sense of self. I've never felt inclined to express myself outwards - quite the opposite, I prefer to retreat into my own little world far away from everyone else. With autism on board, I have a very poor sense of cognitive empathy, meaning I suck at putting myself in other people's shoes. How other people see me is a complete mystery. When I receive compliments or people say I'm likable or confident, I shake my head in disbelief and become embarrassed. Personally, I can't see myself as anything other than the worst person in the world. I see myself as rude, impolite, socially awkward, lazy, spoiled, undeserving of any praise. Most significantly, I project my own thoughts onto others by assuming they think I'm a burden, a future NEET, a useless person, a loser - the worst one of all, a pitiful autistic kid with no independence. Though I put on a nice polite mask, I feel crippled with these anxious thoughts in every single interaction with my friends and family, leading to strange avoidant behaviour that only reinforces my beliefs. It's genuinely embarrassing how dysfunctional I am, and how nobody truly knows what goes through my brain a million miles every second. | OCD |
(tw, sexual abuse) When I was 15 my step dad told me he was in love with me. He was my best friend and we were really close, he had touched me a couple times when I was younger but as we got a lot closer in my teenage years he made a move on me and I didn’t resist. We had a sexual relationship until I was about 16. He was literally Charles Manson; had a jesus complex, preaching hippie shit and convinced me we were like Adam and Eve going to cleanse the world of its evils. He completely broke with reality and ran away when I was 16. It was really complicated. Everyone tells me it wasn’t my fault but I can’t help but take some responsibility. I mean I let it happen and even encouraged it sometimes, I didn’t realize just how wrong it is until recently. | ptsd |
Hi everyone! Last night I accidentally came across a video that set one of my biggest OCD things just roaring right to life, and I've been struggling with that ever since. Last night and this morning I gave into my compulsions and just rewatched the video over and over which I know isn't helpful. I'm trying to resist the urge to watch it again (the problem of course is how easy it would be to give in) and trying to focus on other things, trying to work on breathing or something but it's really hard for me to come up with a good way to sit with the anxiety without letting it just consume me completely.
Is there anything that you all find helpful in moments like these? Thank you!! | OCD |
I'm quite anxious right now and I'm trying to find ways to calm down and unwind, I'm not ready to take on erp just yet because that's more anxiety inducing and I'm pretty sure can be dangerous to do without a therapist, so just simple things that calm down anxiety whilst dealing with very heavy ocd episodes (bonus points if they help you sleep because whilst I do get and want to continue to get around 6/7 hours of sleep per night I'd like to get some help because it can often prove a little difficult for me to fall asleep as a result of my obsessions and compulsions). I just need a way to cope before my therapy in January because the seasons getting darker and colder definitely mess with my ocd a lot more than the lighter, brighter and warmer seasons do. | OCD |
Hello! So I was really lucky to have been diagnosed at an early age (around 12) and I've been medicated (ritalin and Adderall) off and on since then.
Currently I'm in a program to get my teaching certification. I student teach from 8-4 and then I have 3 two and a half hour classes outside of that. I'm loving the student teaching part of it. I'm interested in the content and I love love love my students. The problem is whenever I try to do schoolwork. This is quite a rigorous program with a lot of assignments, and whenever I try to do one of them I just... can't. Like I literally can't. It takes me 3 hours to sit down at the computer and once I'm there I just cannot get myself to focus and start working. I feel like a child again, but worse. I've always struggled with procrastination etc but it's never ever been this bad. Every week I'm falling more and more behind and Idk what to do, I feel like I'm drowning.
I have some mental health issues (depression, anxiety, PTSD) that are making the problem worse. Not only am I procrastinating, but I'm getting really anxious about it, so it turns into this endless panic/procrastination spiral. It's making me have so many negative thoughts about myself. And it feels so frustrating because teaching is what I love and what I'm good at and I feel like I'm sabotaging myself.
I also smoke a lot of oui'd, which I know is contributing, and I'm trying to cut back - which I also am finding super difficult, which also makes me panic and be upset.
I guess idk what I'm looking for. Advice mostly I guess. I just feel so stuck and I don't know what to do! | ADHD |
Ogling= ( staring at people you find attractive, checking people out)
And could this habit contribute to sensory overload since it makes you seek the visual aspect on a regular basis? | aspergers |
My mom laid in bed with me with asking me if I’ve been okay lately. I’m usually good at hiding my depression but she’s been on my case. She gave me a spill on how people get sad in winter. Yes mom I know about seasonal depression. I was grateful but I was so tense. I don’t know why I’m so guarded when I have such loving parents. Maybe I’m broken. I told her yes I’m sad and that’s all. She offered to get me vitamin d and gave me another spill on how we have low vitamin d. I said yes just to make her content I guess. Took her about 2 years to catch on but this is the first time I’ve had a crippling can’t move feeling. I’m glad she cares but I’m still not ready to let them know their daughter is a chronically depressed disappointment. But she sat there and asked me questions about work, school, Christmas. I wasn’t too enthusiastic but I talked. It’s crazy, cause I’ve been thinking about leaving the world a lot but that would hurt my mom and dad so much. Plus if I die my mom has to pay off my expensive car payment, lol that’s terrible. I hope I get better, I miss talking to my parents and telling jokes. One day I’ll live life without being depressed and anxious for 2 weeks straight. | depression |
Hi! So my last session with my therapist, she agreed to work more on trusting her so that was a success! I also wanted to add on that my T tried asking me what my safe place is: I don’t think there’s a place I actually feel safe in - realistically. I’ve had some thought and I am my own safe place but how would that work with EMDR therapy?? You’re in your head processing your trauma so how would I myself be my safe place if I had to retreat from the memory if it became too much? | ptsd |
I have PTSD from my parents divorce which happened last May. They fought a lot leading up to it, but I was never involved. Most nights I closed myself in my room and cried myself to sleep listening to them yell.
After the divorce, my mom and I moved into an apartment and I had to get rid of a lot of my stuff in the downsizing. We also had to let my dad keep our dogs, but I was never too close to them.
I feel like no one understand what I’m going through. Divorce isn’t usually the kind of thing that gives people PTSD. I don’t have flashbacks or stuff like that. I used to have night terrors but they went away. My therapist and I talk about it sometimes. She said my main symptoms are avoidance and anxiety.
I just feel really invalid because I don’t think anything bad really happened to me. Divorce is a pretty common thing. I feel like PTSD is for people who were assaulted or abused or something. Idk, thanks for reading. I just needed to put this out somewhere. | ptsd |
I'm a junior undergrad in physocs and I have had the opportunity to be involved in some really neat astrophysics research.
I got the opportunity to give a 45 minute presentation on my research and path kf how I got here to the new STEM acadamy that just got formed at my former high school.
"At the observatory, Fridays and Saturdays are our public nights and they can get pretty busy. But on Mondays, Wednesdays, Thursdays....wait I'm missing one..."
I proceed to count on my fingers in front of 94 stem kids after giving a presentstion on astrophysics.
"Monday....TUESDAY! I was missing Tuesday!!"
"So on Tuesday, Monday, Thursday...oh forget it. The other ones! I have a lot of ADHD."
I can do any physics, but I can't do days of the week or elapsed time. I also have dyscalculia. The irony never escapes me....
This didn't really kill anything for me and the presentation went GREAT. I just wanted to share this little tale. | ADHD |
I can’t fucking stand “hubby” or “babe” or “honey” or any dumbass shit like that. I don’t know why the fuck everyone has to say that. Just use the person’s name. | ptsd |
Almost everyday I do my hobbie for a few hours, today was no different, but within the first 20 minutes I didn't feel like doing anymore. I felt bored and kinda sad. I kept going for about an hour until I got so bored and sad that I just quit.
Now All I can think about is "you don't like your hobbies anymore" "you're just depressing" "you should just quit it" Even though I've been doing it for years without problems. Idk why but today I just didn't seem to enjoy the hobby I've enjoyed for the last 7 years. | OCD |
I’ve lived with my sexual assault for 15 years without it affecting much of my life. Until last week when I was shampooing my couch cushions and a wave of emotions flooded over me.
Now I can’t stop thinking and feeling all of these emotions about the whole situation.
Why does trauma pop up like that? Will I feel fine again and one day it will happen again? | ptsd |
I’m trying to be more aware of my executive dysfunction and address these issues with journaling — specifically BuJo (bullet journaling or itemizing your day, basically).
The journal is helping, but I have noticeable anxiety between tasks. Especially stuff that I can’t do RIGHT NOW because, say, I need to wait on someone or something. Now it’s like I hyper-fixate on crossing everything off my list and it’s making me feel bad. During my down time I have that “searching” feeling where you’re trying to grasp at something but can’t. I blame myself for being lazy when in reality I just need to chill.
I tend to be an all-or-nothing worker, which I know is common amongst ADHD folks. But how do you all resist the urge to over-correct your organization flaws by trying to do everything all the time? | ADHD |
I have had OCD for 20 years now. I didn’t know what it was for the first 10 years of having it. Which caused me to be extremely suicidal and very depressed. The last 10 years have also been hard, but a little better since I understood what I was kind of dealing with. I’ve done different kinds of therapy, but actually not CBT. It bothers me that the approach for OCD is that the thoughts are random and don’t have any relationship to anything. For me that doesn’t seem accurate. I had lots of intense trauma since childhood and young adult that has caused OCD that relates to the shit I’ve been through.. (Pure ocd for me) But I’d like to hear from people who are using CBT/ERP to get better. Is it in fact helping you and how does your therapist relate to your life of trauma/ptsd other co-morbidities? | OCD |
i have obsessive thoughts about becoming addicted to things, and in order to get rid of them i take the thing to essentially prove to myself that i'm not addicted. and then i do it again and again, more and more until i overdo it and scare myself out of ever taking it again. i don't know if this is an intential plan my brain has or if it just works out that way but anyways. i have managed to avoid this since i did this with alcohol a few years ago. but recently i found out that benadryl is addictive, so i had non stop obsessive thoughts, that i am addicted to them, that every time i've taken benadryl before it was because i was addicted, that i need to take it. so i did. i took it almost every night for about two months. but i didn't take a lot, until november 11th, when i took probably near 500 mg of it, and then i woke up with a terrible terrible 2 day long hang over, and i have had intense cravings for it since, and i can't tell if the cravings are ocd or if they're real. i don't know if i'm actually addicted. i want to take it again. but i don't. i don't know. the same thing happened with alcohol. i would get drunk very often, then one night i got so drunk, i threw up everywhere, i could hardly get to my friend's bed, and i woke up with a bad hangover. after that i had cravings for alcohol too, and years later, i still do, but i think those cravings are ocd, because i've only had little sips of alcohol since then. i'm scared i'm addicted to everything and i need to prove to myself that i'm not. i'm scared to get on anxiety medication because i will get addicted and dependant. the only drug i trust myself taking is ibuprofen, i don't get much intrusive thoughts about it. i got covid, and found myself drinking so much cough medicine, just because i could, but it felt more like i had to. a part of me was taking it cause i was sick, and the other part needed to give myself a drug, and i had an excuse to take it. i'm so tired of this. i can't even enjoy drinking diet soda because i feel like i'm addicted to it, i feel guilty consuming it, that i'm actively feeding into my own addiction, that i'm using diet soda as a replacement for drugs. thanks for reading. | OCD |
Everytime someone's going out in the evening but I'm not getting the response I want I guess from my feelings or brain f knows! | OCD |
Just had a breakdown just now .. came here to vent and I’m hoping someone can talk to me. Basically I just vented to my boyfriend about me not having no interest in living and that I want to die soon.. I have no interest in working because I believe that people were not meant to work and we should be free. I drag myself to work and it sucks. I just want my thoughts to end completely. I stress about insomnia even when I do sleep. I feel bad for people who have mental illnesses and sleep disorders. Days without sleeping and possiblity of going crazy? Makes me so scared. I don’t want to go through that .. ever. How do people not kill themselves over it??? I just need someone to talk to me and see if anyone can relate to me.. thanks | depression |
Does your medication wear off by a certain time of the day? I feel like as soon as 4pm hits I become absent minded or checked out and not productive. I take my medication at 6-7 am every day and I can kick ass all day and as soon as 4pm comes around, it all stops. :(
Is this average/normal or do I need a new dosage or medication? STRATERRA 18mg. 3 months. | ADHD |
Guess i am not as resilient as i thought or is it years of stress accumulated and my body is hitting its limit. | depression |
Hello all. I have had trichotillomania since i was 13 (now 24). I requested Doctor notes from this time period and saw that he noted i had “obsessional” tendencies and that a “mild form of OCD was possible and discussed with family”.
Fast forward to now and i have become aware that i have been doing things/having thoughts closely entangled with OCD for the majority of my life. I did not disclose all of my thoughts (as many do not) to doctors when i was younger and think this may have changed my treatment/ what i was being told.
I am now seeing a therapist who has said, to paraphrase, things along the sentiment of “we don’t need to put a label on everything”.
Despite this, i am clearly aware that many of the strategies she is giving me for what she has called “intrusive and unwanted thoughts” is directly in line with ERP. Thus, i am effectively engaged in ERP as of today.
I am wondering if having an official diagnosis has helped with any of your mind states/progression. It seems cliche, but i am craving assurance on this because in my head i think “its either OCD or its not”. I have avoided asking directly because i do not want to engage in any sort of self malingering. So my question again is: did receiving an official-diagnoses help anybody? Is anybody on here who has not? And can ERP be done even if you don’t have actually have OCD? | OCD |
So been diagnosed with OCD for most of my life, and for whatever reason my recent obsessions are all sexual and about my sister (I'm a straight married woman AND she's my sister ffs). Glad it calmed down a bit from having covid, but this is much worse and I genuinely can barely sleep because of the anxiety.
Anyway I was having a really bad day yesterday, filled with these intrusive thoughts with her and lots of groinal responses (the worst) and I did a pretty good job at ignoring it all day. But at night long story short me and my husband did the dirty, and all I can think about today whether I wanted that because of all the groinal responses I've been having during the day to my sister or what...
Damn do I feel disgusting and want to be sexless for the rest of my life now. Please someone help me get my head around this. What counts as "groinal response" and what counts as genuine arousal? Never been in specialized therapy so I have no outlet for this, anyone else deal with this type of thing? | OCD |
It’s like I’m raising myself again. My parents raised a great young man who would be SO successful if he just tried harder.
Now almost 27, yet like a parent of a toddler, I sometimes have to give myself a cheer for simply getting up to walk to the kitchen sink for a dish (only 550 sqft apartment btw).
Just thought this was just a funny analogy to illustrate my current adulthood. | ADHD |
Hey, you there. I want you to ask yourself if this applies to you:
Do you feel like you’re walking a dead end road and it’s just a matter of time until it all falls apart?
If so, then listen up, because I’ve felt and sometimes still feel the same way, but I know I’m wrong. I know it can feel like a never ending cycle of failure. You don’t feel like you’re in control. You feel like the only two stages of your life are failure and waiting on the next one. I’ve been there. Hell, I’m still there, but I’m writing this because I know that I’m wrong even if I can’t help thinking it. You can’t let it win. The second you start thinking that you won’t ever make it is the second that you ensure that it happens. You can make it. I don’t say that because it’s nice to hear, I say that because it’s the goddamn truth. You have a chance of making it. You always have a chance of making it. At the end of the day, there’s always going to be ADHD in your life. It’s always going to be there. It’s always going to make things difficult. It doesn’t go away. But that doesn’t mean that you have any excuse to give up. I don’t need to share my story. All you need to know is that I’m at the lowest point of my life, but I’ll be damned if I ever give up. Because what else is there to do besides get back up? You live in a constant battle with your own mind, and not many people truly understand what it’s like to be there. So when you get knocked flat on your ass, you get back up, because you’re no stranger to losing.
I’ve just been hit with the single hardest blow I’ve ever been dealt in life, and I’m gonna smile as I get back up. ADHD is my mortal nemesis, and it may have won this battle, but I can’t wait to watch it seethe with rage as I get back on my feet. Although I’ll never beat it, it won’t ever beat me. So if you feel like I do, smile with me. Let’s dust each other off and punch that son of a bitch in the mouth.
Because it’s better than giving up. | ADHD |
I have swallowed air until my stomach feels full then I burp. It feels REALLY GOOD. I've done this since grade school. Only problem is once I start I can't stop because I never feel like all the air is out so I have to swallow more to induce a burp to "get it all out".
I always thought this was more of a stomach problem as I've had severe acid reflux since I was a baby which comes & goes. Recently when I had my "breakdown/episode" that got me diagnosed I was having a LOT of gastric issues related to anxiety. My stomach was sour all the time which comes with my anxiety, but I had an inordinate amount of burping (not induced) & gasping etc. I used a lot of tums/pepto.
Today I got into a routine of swallowing air to force myself to burp & as I said it can be very hard to stop because I always feel there is more air to get out so I googled it & oddly enough one of the things among depression & anxiety it mentioned OCD.
I have honestly thought this is just a normal thing for people with sour stomachs (& it honestly may be). So I'm just wondering if anyone else does it? I do it daily sometimes for hours to comfort my stomach. | OCD |
I'm gonna sound like a whiny bitch, most likely.
I hv weekly CBT and two weeks ago I was called by the therapy center that the next one will be cancelled and rearranged. I'm like, that's absolutely not a problem. I mean, I get it, we're all human, the therapist must have her reasons. Today was supposed to be my next therapy, but no one made a contact with me about anything. I don't blame the therapist, maybe she's sick or something, but the therapy centre should have called or emailed, no?
I just feel like they don't really give a shit about their patients. When I rescheduled two times coz I was unwell, they told me if I reschedule again, I'd be dropped (and I get it to a point, although their implication that if I cared I wouldn't reschedule is bullshit. I do care. I also suffer from debilitating migraines. The third time I did not reschedule but did the therapy over zoom with a migraine which made it so bad, I spent 3 days in bed), but when they need to reschedule they don't even bother letting me know?
I get it, it's pandemic, they're likely understaffed etc, but I spent the day anxious about whether I'll have the appointment or not. In the end I did not have it and felt like shit. But then, again, why should I matter to them?
Sorry if this is not allowed in this subreddit. I needed to vent, because it kind of sucks when ppl who are supposed to help you get better, forget about you. But, then, again, what did I expect from British NHS. | depression |
I was diagnosed with PTSD when I was 12 years old. I had no idea what it meant, other than the fact that I’d already been through hell as a child. My parents were/are both in survival mode themselves and have offered me little to nothing in emotional support or resources over the years. I saw a therapist for a few months back then (the one who gave me the diagnosis), but she moved and my parents didn’t find me any other help at the time.
I’ve always felt different from my peers. Like something was wrong with me. With life moving so fast and with no support concerning my illness, I thought I just needed to push through on my own. It worked for a bit, but in college the panic attacks, nightmares, constant anxiety and fear, came back full force. School almost killed me. Constant stress, fear of how people in authority would treat me/think of me, fear of bad grades, etc.
When I was 19 (just before I started college) I went looking for a therapist on my own & found support. I saw the same therapist for 6 years, throughout my time in college, and managed to survival it all. Thankfully, my parents supported me financially and helped pay for my therapy. I worked a couple part time jobs as needed, but if my plate ever got “too full” I would ask my parents for money & quit my job.
I graduated college in May (I swear it’s a miracle I made it through) and now I’m 3 weeks into a full time job in the service industry.
I work as a barista in a fancy downtown coffee shop with super high expectations and a serious learning curve. I worked part time as a barista before, so I’m not a total beginner but they make me feel like one.
I’m trying to be patient with myself and give myself space to learn and fail, but I’ve already broken down twice in the break room (ironic, I know). One poor customer interaction and I shatter. I don’t know if I can handle this. I come home utterly exhausted every day. My spouse is worried about me.
I just started with a new therapist but I hate online therapy. It just sucks. I’m still showing up and trying to make it work, though.
The other night I had a panic attack and angry outburst with screaming, crying, the whole package.. this is where I’m at.
I’m curious.
What are your jobs?
How do you handle stress at work without totally losing it every time?
Also, does your employer know about your ptsd?
Have you applied for disability because of ptsd?
What is that process like?
How do you survive working full time? | ptsd |
This OCD is ruining me, and I…
I must confess to everything. Everything!
When one thing finally leaves my mind, just give it time…
Till I spiral one more time | OCD |
I’m 17 years old and I got diagnosed in June/July i’m not sure. I’ve decided to book an appointment to maybe start taking medication. For the record i get a lot of help from my school already but i still feel like it’s not enough for me to succeed like everyone else. For people who are/have been on adhd meds; Is it the right thing to do? what should I know beforehand? If you’ve stopped taking medication, why? What are (from your experience) some positive and negative aspects of treating adhd with medication? Thank you that’s all have a good day:) | ADHD |
Cw: Sexual assult
Hi there, so I was diagnosed with Ptsd among a lot of other stuff since I was 14. I'm 19 now. I always just have been in denial about the fact that I have Ptsd, and it never seemed to be an issue... -well it did but it was easy to downplay.
I'm 19 and have slept with 18 people. Never enjoyed a single one. Flash forward to tonight, and the dude kinda picked up on the fact that my breathing was weird during sex and that my eyes were open the whole time.
Background: I was abused sexually as a child (not saying more don't want to trigger anyone) and whenever I have sex, I kinda go back to when I was molested, and it like puts me in the zone, and I just lose all my color in my face, and get nervous. | ptsd |
I was diagnosed with OCD ~5 years ago. My symptoms have ebbed and flowed with intensity over the years, but were often kept at bay with the help of my therapist and medication. However, the last month has been hell. My contamination fears (and subsequent obsessions and compulsions) have been nonstop and for the first time have resulted in suicidal ideation. My partner and family are the people I turn to when I’m feeling suicidal (e.g., they would come over when i feel i can’t keep myself safe), but my contamination fear has spread to them too so i can’t be around them for support 😭
I’m feeling so stuck. Any thoughts of positivity or hope are welcome 💛 | OCD |
I don’t have any memory of it or when I try to search for them all I get are like 1 memory Super vague but when I tried to speak out loud about It I start choke up
Why can’t I remember my childhood?
don’t remember the start
Remembers waiting
Doesn’t remember end
also my mom says I should not think about it and get on with my life but I want to understand what has happened to my child self, I want to help him
I know I have been seriously beat multiple times though I do not remember a single one
Terrorized
Cuff to a bed
Mouth stuffed with socks
Ah now that think about it I do not remember a single instance I have been hurt physically but my mother says I have a lot
What kind of support should I look for or should I just go on with my life as my mom has said ?
Thank you
edit:
have decided to enjoy my life and make memes about it lol. I am going to have a happy recovery healing my child self by enjoy everything I couldn't growing up life. though I am pretty sure I know who the culprit is though already dead. I might just shit on their grave to get some closure. Just have to sneak in lol but I will definitely come out on top. Fuck them I already came out on top lmao and I will shit on their graves
edit2:
poop contains my dna soooo im going to order a shitton of animal poop the worst kind i can and the hardest to clean.
Edit3:
That was just me saying stuff(poop stuff) but I’ll see if it’s true first but in the mean time thanks for reading | ptsd |
i just have too many personal filters when picking a movie to watch, it usually takes 2 hours to pick a movie after searching through every single review website, calculating ratings, going through dozens of spoiler free reviews, checking the background of director etc.. doing this usually works for me thankfully.
this happens simply because i just lose interest on screen way too fast, this is not a good thing because there are movies that i really wanna watch but i end up flushing them 20 minutes in because of the pacing, or 1 badly written characther is enough to ruin the fun for me, or if i manage to hold myself until the end of the movie I end up not remembering anything because i was distracted by something stupid. This is just frusturating.
I just wonder if normal people do feel similar in some way ? my guess is no | ADHD |
Since becoming an adult, a recurring source of conflict and ill-will in my life has been the feeling that most (NT) people I meet are delusional. Not in the sense of having full-on hallucinations, but in lots of subtle and more abstract ways that are hard to pin down, so persist as unresolved points of tension in my attempts to interact with them.
I know to an extent this is a universal fact of life (the fallibility of human intellect applies to all people, no less myself etc), but I wonder if anyone on this sub relates to this problem as a specific feature of life on the spectrum. | aspergers |
So, i was dealing with schiz OCD for like 4 years on/off!
I was doing just fine, dealing with some health anxiety and then boom back to square one again.
Right now i am legit thinking that i don’t really have OCD/health anxiety but i literally have an undiagnosed schizophrenia/schizoaffective or schizotypal personality disorder.
I have read quite a few posts here in reddit yesterday and it just made me feel worse. I am dealing with some weird ass delusions that i know are bs but you know my brain still latches on that.
Like i randomly remembered that a conspiracy theorist said that covid tampons that are used for PCR testing have chips or something in them. I literally had done the test a day ago lmao.I rationalized it completely and today i am really fine and i stopped that thought. Last night i read about someone that thought they were someone else or idk and later on i saw a video of a girl and thought that i was her. I obviously dont believe that and i always try to be very factual about these thoughts and it helps me rationalize it. Oh and today i had a weird ass thought that my teeth fillings could have something like a chip like wtf.like i didnt want this thought, i was afraid to speak and ijust know its not even true and not even possible cuz why would a dentist do that?? I am so afarid that these thoughts will get latched and i wont be able to make the differences anymore.
Ive had delusions in the past that i completely forgot after a few months and now when looking back i am
Like did i really think that?l
I am just worried that what i have been through was something other than ocd. For example i have alwqys had a fear of breaking girl code or having a crush in my friends crushand i always had a bad intrusive thought so i would always think what if my friends would know about this thought and wont talk to me anymore. I know after this that its not true cuz my friends cant know but i keep feeling guilty and i keep feeling disgusting for even thinking that. I also have a thing that anytime i have a bad intrusive thought or imagery i have to wash my hands or drink water so i can get those thoughts away and make me feel not guilty anymore. Or if i associate something with something negative i feel bad and like i have to do some sort of complusion or stop wearing or doing something because i associate that thing with a bad intrusive thought. I have always had these type of intrusive thoughts and it has gotten better now but i am stil lfeeling crazy and just questioning if i even have ocd.
I also struggled a lot with schiz ocd and health anxiety and just intrusive thoughts in general like only leaving tv remote in volume 2,4,8 or going back tocheck stuff because i have had a intrusive thought. I also feel guilty after those thoughts or complusions but i completely rationlize after i just feel scared that i dont really have ocd sorry if i ranted a lot i just need advice or something! :) | OCD |
I (24f) have been really socially withdrawn for the past few weeks and besides the usual stress I have with work and school, I just didn’t know why I was feeling more upset than usual. It kinda dawned on me I get like this during this part of the year every year. I don’t know it feels like the holidays really make me feel more unhappy with life than usual. The holiday season just reminds me that people just forget about me and don’t really care. My boyfriend had offered me to spend time with his family on holidays but I don’t want to because I know how I am. Being around other peoples families make me upset because other people have a sense of belonging with their families whereas I don’t. I don’t wanna go around his family and I put everyone around me in a bad mood because I’m not having fun. Idk is the holidays bad for anyone else or am I just being a grump? There’s a lot of reasons I don’t really like the holidays, I just don’t know how to explain it or put it into words right now. | depression |
I've been on Concerta (18 mg) for a few months (finally diagnosed with ADHD this year after suspecting it for many more, let's go!!!) and I have a pretty variable response to it. Some days it makes me feel clear and calm and focused; on others it has no effect at all, and on still others it makes me feel hyper-energized and leaves me with a bad crash afterward.
I'm wondering if it could be the generic quality (it's Camber pharmaceuticals), but I'm also wondering if it could be affected by small changes to my body and circumstances that vary between days. Is the effect of meds strongly affected by the particulars of diet? (Does it e.g. release at different rates if you eat more acidic foods?) How does sleep affect things, and how does routine affect things? (Sometimes I don't take it if the previous day involved a crash or if I missed my window.) What about, I don't know, exercise? Or anything else in your day-to-day life?
**If you're on meds, what have you found affects how well they work (even if it's a small change)?** | ADHD |
Who else is feeling so bored, boxed in, and stuck due to self-isolation, flashbacks, and intrusive thoughts? And being hard on yourself for your cPTSD symptoms?
I’m feeling annoyed with myself because I feel like in some ways I have a victim mentality where I am self-sabotaging by isolating myself and dwelling on my problems and not really living. I feel stuck. I also get that I should stop being hard on myself because my cPTSD is 99.999% the reason for being alone a lot and not feeling safe around others or at events. I’m feeling so bored and often my ptsd intrusive thoughts and flashbacks are what keep me entertained.
I think I need to start pushing myself to get out there I mean there are some safe spaces I can go to where I can interact with others... but I think my depression makes it hard to want to hang out with people a lot and I am so sensitive to triggers and rejection. I want to live and have fun again but now that I’m aware of my trauma, I don’t want to go out to parties because I now hate being sexualized. I also feel this pressure to start dating and have sex but really I don’t want to have sex and don’t trust men right now. I don’t do my hair anymore or put effort in the way I look.
Sometimes I feel like I’m looking for problems where I make problems and to bigger things because of my boredom but I also know it’s related to hypervigilance and being triggered. I also am so used to the drama of abusive relationship and I think I get bored and self sabatoging to keep drama to a certain point.
As I keep processing more of my trauma history.. I realized how scary it is to sit with my emotions and memories (some repressed). Often I’ll purposely ruminate about my trauma and trigger myself because I don’t want to sit with my feelings like self-loathing and fear. I keep trying to push myself to do more but I think part of the healing is just allowing myself to do nothing and feel which is what I am so afraid of. Healing takes time and I just want to rush through it.. although I will being doing psychedelics therapy in the future which will probably help speed the healing journey.
I’m struggling who else is feeling bored and blaming myself (even though we shouldn’t be)?b | ptsd |
i constantly get headaches or feel dizzy after getting intrusive thoughts, which make me feel like i will black out or lose control which makes me panic even more. anyone else get this? | OCD |
I apologize if this is long, I tend to talk too much. Just as a background- I’ve always struggled with depression, since I was in high school. It always came in and out- waves of feeling depressed, disinterested, suicidal, waves of anxiety, panic attacks, often times struggling with social anxiety, body dysmorphia and an eating disorder due to all of this.
Recently I‘ve felt significantly more depressed than I’ve felt in at least a year or two. I don’t know if it’s because of the change of season, or change of medication or just general big life changes that have been happening recently. Everything from the outside is going seemingly well. My friends think I’m doing well, finally my family thinks I’m doing well and honestly, from a third person perspective i am doing well- I have gained so many things I truly wanted. A caring loving relationship, a great job, a cool city to live in, sure there’s more that I could have but overall I couldn’t be more grateful.. I still wake up some days wishing I had just not woken up though, wishing I was someone else, that everyone around me is pretending to like me but they actually think I’m mean and unenjoyable to be around and that my flaws outweigh everything else. I find little interest in anything anymore, nothing feels fun or exciting. I try my best everyday to be the best person for others and I’ve always struggled with extreme empathy for other people that made me forget about myself but I’ve since learned and am much more aware of the damage that can have one’s sense of self and emotions. I’ve been finding that any time that I’m frustrated with someone else or someone is upset with the way I’ve reacted to something or something that I’ve done , I come out of the situation absolutely defeated and mentally spiraling. No matter who was right or wrong in the situation or how major or minor the issue may have been my mind immediately jumps back to the idea that I’d rather be dead and everyone’s life would be easier without me and eventually no one will want me around… While I know these are just very intrusive thoughts and that eventually I’ll snap out of it, in that moment it’s so surreal and the feelings are so strong and I then feel guilty for overreacting even though I am usually alone with these thoughts or I remove myself from the situation.
Does anyone else experience this?
I’m also having a lot of trouble even asking for help because I feel like everyone around me will just think I’m dramatic hence why I’m posting here for any kind of response. | depression |
Sometimes I become obsessive for days on end and the thought keeps repeating. It usually is very hard for me to focus on something else or break it. It’s been happening the last few days after a reminder of it.
I feel like this is something that a workout or sleep would help but it feels impossible. How do you stop?? | OCD |
Essentially what the title says. I'm so excited! My procedure is set for Valentine's Day! For those of you who may be unfamiliar with what a stellate ganglion block is, it's an injection into your neck. I also have chronic pain and it should help with that too! | ptsd |
Anyone else? There is literally no excuse to still be doing this, especially after the last year. It is mind numbing how many people do it, to the point that I want to just avoid people altogether. | OCD |
I was diagnosed with OCD about a month ago and I’d like to think that I’m doing quite well to manage all the compulsions, I no longer do things like check the door multiple times or worry about if I turned the taps off in the house, I have overcome the fear of something will happen to someone else as I faced my fears and retrained my brain to realise that nothing does happen and if it does it won’t be linked to the ritual OCD was trying to make me do, but recently since I’ve overcome that fear it has seemed to develop into a new fear of worrying about the compulsions coming back later on. I struggle with social media and certain actions like following someone I will have to do multiple times until it feels ‘right’ or until I get to a certain number like 21 because the number 7 is considered lucky and 666 is the devils number so my OCD tells me that doing things 21 times which is 7x3 which would be 777 will make it feel ‘right’ and not make the compulsions come back later on. But if sometimes I don’t do this it’s like my OCD sits there and is like well I’m just gonna come back later on and make you do it then so you might aswell do it now and it’s a massive headache. I make YouTube content and YouTube is my dream job and always has been since I was around 7 years old and my OCD tells me that it’s gonna bring back past compulsions back like following someone until I make it 21 times and that I can’t finish the edit until I do the compulsion. My OCD also tells me that that’s how I will remember that action that I didn’t do the compulsion. So say if I followed someone and it didn’t feel right and I didn’t follow them 21 times to make it feel right or I follow them more than 21 times or less times than 21 times it will tell me that that is how I will always remember following them that I did it wrong or I followed them too many times or I didn’t follow them enough times. Does anyone else have this problem? and if you do how do you deal with it? | OCD |
it’s a intrusive thought and can become obsessive after gone for days looking to end it do i let it pass by and interact with it ? i know god is not going to think i’m a sinner for my thoughts i cannot control | OCD |
Do antidepressants affect anyone else's sex drive? I can't finish and my libido is very unpredictable. Sex hurts now too. It sucks. Can anyone relate? Does anyone have any advice? I've lowered my antidepressants because my psychiatrist could tell I was taking too much but I'm still struggling with my libido, among other things. Help would be appreciated :) | depression |
my bf occasionally gets triggered when i criticize something he likes. a few nights ago i was poking fun at a movie he wanted to watch bc there isn’t really a clear plot. i misread his texts, thinking he was telling me he was watching it over and over, when he was really telling me to watch it. i kept the joke going not realizing what was going on. after the fact he told me it triggered his rsd. i feel awful bc i had no idea. i’m always asking him what i can do to help prevent it or help him snap out of it, but he is always saying there’s nothing. i have a feeling he just doesn’t want to feel like a bother, but i do truly want to try and help him. does anyone have any tips that help them? | ADHD |
This day is being hell. I haven't been able to kill myself yet, and this is being hell. I want this to stop, nothing keeps my mind occupied anymore. Nothing works but sleep, and each night I cry for hours before fall asleep. I want this to stop. Life is not worth to be lived like this, why should I do it then?
This day is being hell. Everyday is awful but have all this attention over me is even worse. This day is being hell. | depression |
I had convinced myself while at a party that my ex boyfriend was attending that he had been going around the party showing everyone naked pictures he had of me...
I was so upset about it that I overshared this information with some coworkers, in detail...
I spoke to a friend of mine that was also at this party about the incident and he told me what I thought happened never actually happened.
At work the next day I took a deep ass breath and unveiled my crazy to a coworker.
She’s making small remarks like “everyone’s a little crazy, isn’t that right? & gestures toward me...and “people lie to me everyday” while glancing in my direction..
I fear I have ruined my chances of ever fitting in at this job and I’ll have to quit due to being treated like garbage for this.
I didn’t lie. I sincerely thought that that was what had happened, and I told her that.
I’ve had enough of this paranoia. Not being able to trust anyone due to my trauma has turned me into...well just a really lonely paranoid person. I’m so tired of fighting with myself every day. I’m tired of people treating me like shit for symptoms of illnesses that I never asked for, and I’m tired of falsely accusing people of treating me like crap and not realizing it until it’s waaay too late.
This fucking hurts.
Help? | ptsd |
does anyone who lives in the uk know how i can get treatment or an assessment for Pure O with NHS or maybe private psychiatrist that aren’t too expensive?? i want to ask my doctor about getting assessed and help but i’m scared that if my doctor isn’t educated in OCD and especially pure O, they might not understand?? like what if i tell him my horrible thoughts like POCD and ZOCD and they think THATS JUST ME? i need help so bad it’s ruining my life but i’m so scared to talk to a gp who isn’t a specialist in it. what do i do? :( | OCD |
I used to swear like a sailor. Once a sentence maybe more, maybe less. Most people don’t care, which I’m grateful for, but now that I’m taking medication I have completely stopped swearing. Any idea why? Someone suggested it might have been a compulsion thing but I’m really new to ADHD and am not sure what it all means. | ADHD |
Hello there, this might seem a little 'out there' to some but am wondering if any my fellow aspies have had any UFO encounters?
In [this interview](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dzTZbSNsKV8) with Dr. Garry Nolan he talks of how people who are genetically predisposed to have an abnormal basal ganglia (and thus are highly functioning [@6.37](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dzTZbSNsKV8&t=397s)) seem to be more perceptive towards comprehending UFOs, where as neurotypical people tend to 'dismiss' their own observations.
He then goes on to mention [@8.49](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dzTZbSNsKV8&t=529s) how they're working with people with autism as they also have abnormalities in this area of the brain.
I myself personally have observed UFOs and similar to how Dr. Garry Nolan mentions so has many members of my family on my Dad's side... in fact, on my Dad's side we seem to have experienced more paranormal encounters than the average person as most of us have our fair share of 'spooky stories'.
I am wondering if any my fellow aspies have had any UFO encounters? Is this a trend amongst us? | aspergers |
I’ve been on my last year for so long, my death feels inevitable at this point. I just vent on posts here because it’s the equivalent of me making a “my eyes only” post or self recording. It’s just all lost souls pouring their hearts out here, into the void. You can be lucky enough that people will read and respond and want to help. I was one of those people and I am grateful but, it really can’t take away this god forsaken pain. I need it to end | depression |
I'm new to medication and therapy when it comes to my ADHD. **Today, I'm having a more stressful day and my symptoms are stronger than usual.** I work in an office so it can be really hard to ignore my racing thoughts/distractions.
**Do you guys have any tips for "bad days"?** My usual aid is playing a hyperfocus playlist, having a notebook open for random notes, and time-blocking (I hate time blocking). I've read lots of articles online, but I prefer hearing what works for others personally. What other tips do you guys have for these days where you just can't ignore your distractions/racing thoughts?
**Thank you in advance <3** | ADHD |
TW for discussion of food fears and issues with eating!!
I can’t find much on this specific thing I’ve been dealing with online, so I thought here would be a good place to ask. For my whole life but especially the past couple years, I’ve been terrified of bugs being in my food. I went through a flea infestation about a year ago at my previous home so at that time it was a valid concern, since a lot of times there would be fleas in my drinks or food and I would have to throw it out. I’m well out of that situation, but every time I eat or drink I have to use my phone flashlight to check my food for bugs every bite/sip or I panic.
This is a lot worse with fruit/vegetables, to the point where I can’t eat them at all unless they’re thoroughly washed and finely chopped to the point where nothing could be hiding, but even that is a struggle. I had this before the flea situation as well.
The only way I’ve been able to avoid this is by cooking my own food where I can have control of the environment or watching whoever is making my food make it, but that can be frustrating to people so I avoid it. I have to wash all of the dishes/utensils I use even when they’re already clean, and even then I get anxious about them having any kind of spots or stains.
The only other OCD behaviors I can think of off the top of my head are severe and very very common intrusive thoughts, but I have anxiety so those could very easily be explained by that. Another example I think would be random things like “If you don’t do X perfectly that means that everybody will hate you/be hurt in some way” during the most minor situations, like me playing a video game.
Does anybody here have similar things and should I bring up OCD with a professional when I have the chance? | OCD |
Got diagnosed back in May and didn't follow up. No one really told me I was diagnosed and now I can't get ahold of anyone to find out what my next steps are. Doing this kind of thing is extremely challenging for me to do. It feels like walking through mud having to call people over and over again. This is Kaiser Norcal. Anyone have any recommendations or know of a psychiatrist in the Sacramento area who will take Kaiser insurance that specializes in ADHD?
TIA | ADHD |
I am planning on going to therapy for this soon and I need some advice. I'm having trouble figuring out what I should say. I have a million thoughts/situations that I need reassurance on and I am so overwhelmed with trying to sort it out. I know what is going to happen is that I will give my therapist a brief rundown, they will say that I have OCD and then I will start bringing up every situation I can remember and ask the therapist whether that is OCD. I feel like I am going crazy. Just thinking about how I am going to explain this all is making so anxious. I have had so many horrible intrustive thoughts and I wish I could somehow just show all of them to a therapist. Does anyone have any tips for how they explained it to their therapist? | OCD |
Hey folks,
I’ve been diagnosed with adhd but I don’t like my current psychiatrist.
However I really need medication because I’m struggling a lot with my uni work and it’s taking a toll on my mental health.
Does anyone know any UK based clinics or psychiatrists with relatively short wait times to enable me to get medication?
Thanks guys | ADHD |
I've recently been given a double dosage of anti-psychotics in attempt to help me with my seizures caused by stress, and I'm worried because I'm scared that they take an aspect of my conscious from me, on the one hand I want to live, and I can't live with the stress and the fear and the anxiety and the paranoia, but on the other, I'm scared these drugs will take something from me or do something to me that I won't be ever able to get back. | ptsd |
Hi besties
I (25 f) have been struggling with my mental health for years, most recently I have had to quit my job (a couple of months ago) due to severe anxiety and depression and I am now unemployed and living off benefits. Im in therapy and have been on lexapro for over a year, but I feel like its not really going anywhere. Because I am so tired of fighting and struggling and talking about it. In my day to day life I tend to pretend its not really there, pay it no mind for as long as I can (so i dont feel it as much) until eventually I have to go to therapy again and then feel like shit for days. I avoid the homework tasks my therapist gives me because I dont want to feeeeeel and have to think and fight and challenge my depression. I have been thinking of voluntarily admitting myself to a psychiatric unit because i think it might bring some structure back into my life, but im kinda hestitant about it. Have any of you ever been admitted to such a place and what was it like? (Lmk what country as well, im in the netherlands) | depression |
My psychiatrist isn’t being very helpful, I feel like I’ve just been given meds and sent on my way with no explanation of what they’re supposed to fix, what I’m supposed to do on my own and what I’ll be stuck with forever
I also can’t tell what’s placebo and what isn’t
I’ve been on concerta for 3 weeks and I just can’t tell whether they’re right for me. My concentration is the biggest improvement, my ability to start tasks seems slightly better and my brain is potentially a tiny bit quieter than usual? But these honestly could just be me reading into everything looking for any sign of them working.
Other than this though I feel exactly the same, still spending hours mindlessly scrolling on my phone, I still struggle to go to bed at a good time, my room still looks like a dump half the time and reading is still kind of difficult.
So many people on here seem to experience some profound difference on meds and this just hasn’t been my experience
I also don’t experience any sort of concerta crash, I literally have 0 side effects apart from my head feeling a bit weird for a little while an hour or so after taking the meds. Is this a sign they’re not doing anything for me?
I want to try Elvanse (Vyvanse) just to have some way of comparison but I’m approaching some big uni deadlines so now would probably be a bad time to experiment with something new, but I don’t know if I’m allowed to wait that long? (I’m with PUK for anyone in the uk and I think they want to hand people back over to the NHS as quick as they can)
Does anyone have advice? | ADHD |
Hello all! I'm here to vent and share feelings and thoughts about education here in the U.S.
I am a 26 y/o male university dropout, recently diagnosed with combined type. I may continue my applied mathematics degree after I figure out my medication, but until then it's off the table for me.
I made it to third year before I just couldn't take it anymore. Struggling with random courses for reasons that never made sense to me before being diagnosed. I always thought I didn't try hard enough. I mean, the subject matter was rarely hard for me and when it was I often found it easier to complete.
But what was my excuse failing my freshman year courses that everyone passed. Yes, I had reasons, but were they really legitimate? I thought I was just lazy or unmotivated as hard as I tried to pass my courses. I just needed to adjust my mindset. Who cares what my opinions are about how things should be run, academia is unforgiving by nature and so my excuses mean nothing because everyone probably struggles just as hard as me with these little things and they exist in the system to build character and adaptability.
That's how I saw it until my diagnoses. That people just wanted it more than me. That I wasn't adaptable enough. During covid I realized that some people just can't do online school and that's okay. Then I realized maybe what was wrong with me was that... Something wasn't wrong with me. My brain just worked differently.
Looking back, I see why I was so frustrated when professors insisted that certain methods were better for students as they were more engaging. Why struggling in one class meant I failed every course that term. Let me share some courses that I truly struggled with.
1. Japanese (don't remember the course number) - this was the worst offender and will be the longest. We used this new program called "nihongo!". The whole point of the class was integrated learning. We spent 4 days learning through context and images,without being allowed to speak English. We then spent one day going over written language. My. Brain. Just. Couldn't. Listening to a series of words I don't know with no English comparison is genuinely impossible for me. No matter how many times you repeat it to me, I'm not going to understand. My focus isn't strong enough to pick out each and every sound. I can barely do it with English.
I was in tears as I spent sleepless nights trying to learn phrases other students learned in class. I watched the prompt scenes hundreds of times. The most progress I made was when one of the Japanese semi-teachers noticed my struggles and took me aside to help along with some other students. She really helped and explained things in English that made some things really click. My heart never felt heavier than the day I had to explain to her I was dropping out because it was too much for me. It was like she felt like she wasn't good enough because I wasn't good enough. It hurt.
2. Chemistry 210 I think - so much memorization. When it came to foundational rules and conversions it was great. Learning how to use mol was nice. Figuring out the naming conventions for chemical compounds was fun. But Jesus, sig figs were frustrating and memorizing every element was teeth pulling. I failed my midterm because my stupid brain couldn't handle sigfigs. We had to do midterm reviews and I had to explain "yeap, knew the concept and understood. I was super diligent to make sure I didn't get the sigfigs wrong and still screwed up. Since I'm not allowed to use more zeros than necessary I guess I just have to get gud?"
3. Physics 201 - too many students. Even the whispers completely detached me from the class material. I probably could have passed this one regardless, but my student loans came in late so I didn't have course materials until 4 weeks in.
4. Some health class: the whole course was about healthy life choices and homework consisted of remembering to record things and do things on a schedule. I struggle with this as it is and since I don't like lying, I failed this course hardcore when I brought empty fill out sheets.
5. Math 252 - teacher was nice and incredibly funny. He never went into detail as to why we did things though, just their history or why they were important. He was probably incredibly engaging to the other students. But his tangents made me lose focus too often. I didn't get to figure out the why and so I struggled to apply theorems to exams.
6. Math 254: failing this class was frustrating. The professor was dynamic in his speech and detailed in his written work. The only reason I failed this course was because he had an accent. It's so dumb but it's true. I really struggled because I had to focus so hard to catch what he was saying that I couldn't take notes. He posted all the notes online, but my work and other classwork meant that redoing notes meant not doing homework which meant not actually learning the class material
It's a journey to remind myself that these failures are as much my fault as they are the professors of those courses, which is to say not at all. But we pay so much money for college education that I wish that there were classes designed with the ADHD brain in mind.
Anyway, thanks for reading ya'll. It feels good to write this all out. If you made it to the end, congratulations. I wrote a lot of nothing haha. | ADHD |
I got scolded? (aunt claims she’s issuing a criticism) by my aunt (dad’s sister, not so different) 12 hours ago, because my topic veered off into citizenship and presidency.
When I told her this is policing, she countered she’s just issuing a suggestion.
A tone of voice no different from when my dad was alive.
Because of my dad suppressing my “fun” discussions, I became secretive towards him.
I recalled what happened and it gave me 3/4 the anxiety of the event right now. | aspergers |
I used to take medication for the ocd, sertraline, a very low dose, it worked for my ocd, but my libido was really low due to the medication.
I spoke with my psychiatrist to withdraw this medication, I have not taken it for a while, my libido has returned to normal, but the OCD has also returned to be horrible. Is there a way to treat OCD that doesn't involve taking medication?
If I ask my psychiatrist, she will simply tell me to go back to taking sertraline, and honestly I don't want to have low libido again, I don't have a partner, but I don't like feeling asexual. | OCD |
Hello, been suffering with PTSD for 20 years. Has led to multiple other problems with socializing (haven't dated in decades, and only 1 guy friend).
I've asked him to help me get back out, once things open back up (kinda be a wingman+a little extra help w the ladies). He put it back on me for getting myself in this situation. Tried to explain, I'm Just trying to get my confidence back. He called me immature and childish, this has been quite devastating. Expected a yes, hoped not no, insults hit me pretty hard. Whenever he has asked for my help, I've always been there for him, unconditionally. I didn't think I was asking too much. Those words immature and childish, just can't get them out of my head. Can't focus on anything else; my head and my stomach are twisted in 1000 knots and my confidence is at an all time low. Don't have any other friends to ask for help and my family can't really wingman. Don't know what I'm asking or looking for here on this forum. Thanx? | ptsd |
Trigger alert trigger alert…do not read this if you have a problem with insects.
So, hey, everyone…sorry I was MIA over the weekend…had a bit of a crisis over bees. The bats part…well, one of the mornings I woke up and tried to deal with this, went outside, and saw what looked like bats everywhere (Was I hallucinating? Were they just tiny starlings?)…yeah, well, didn’t get much done that day, either.
So…I get freaked out over flying things. Yeah. And I keep thinking this bees problem was a bit of a metaphor for my life lately. (That’s another story, of course.)
But in any case, I had an infestation of yellowjackets on a nest upside down on the under-eve of an outside window frame. The exterminator was an idiot (his cursory efforts only took out half of them), I couldn’t hire a diff one because “rules” at my apartment complex, YouTube videos were no help, so for about four days I became more and more obsessive to the point where I was watching “24” reruns just to relax me, and I was pretty much unable to do anything else when not working my job WFH. I did have the right gear—$100 of stuff from a Home Depot run—so I then spent three days trying to learn how to be an amateur exterminator. I knew I had to take the bees out because the location is in my home office and I was almost at the point of being too freaked out to work, knowing they were just the other side of the window screen. For four to five days, every morning I would don full homemade hazmat gear to cover every inch of my body except for tiny holes for my glasses over my eyes (and this is in 80 degree weather INDOORS because my AC sucks), open the screen a slit, and poke at the nest with a very thin ruler, trying to get enough of them to leave that I could then take out the whole nest. Ugh. Plus, timing is important (trying to catch them when they’re sleeping), and I didn’t want to do it when neighbors were around outside (the nest falling on someone’s head would not have been good). You know what the real problem is? I went through a bedbug disaster about five years ago, lost a lot of my most valuable possessions, that disaster cost upward of $20,000, and forced me to put stuff in storage for nearly two years; so, yeah, I get pretty freaked out over insects. My best buddy in Florida couldn’t help me because he’s terrified of bees—was stung as a kid. You’d think my being kidnapped as a kid would give me the strength to deal with a few bees, right? Nope. I was at a point where the only thing keeping me going—from getting drunk or crying every night—was watching Muppets bloopers ([here’s a great one with Robin Williams](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OwwdgsN9wF8&feature=youtu.be)).
This morning I went at it again. This time I managed to get the four remaining yellowjackets to fly away for a few minutes, hacked at the fairly empty nest with my best draftsman’s metal ruler until it was in tatters, opened the screen to pry it away from the eve, cleaned the area with bleach, and then sprayed it with insecticide to discourage the one yellow jacket that kept returning (that guy is very determined to retain his property rights and doesn’t yet understand eminent domain).
Afterward I took a calming walk while listening to Beck’s “Morning Phase,” sat on a bench to watch a flock of Canadian geese waddle across a road, and now I’m back home, about to pour a cup of tea from my favorite yellow teapot. I’m sort of amazed at myself: that after four days of cowering, I finally triumphed over those bees.
Thanks for reading. | ptsd |
If anybody on this page needs to then get anything off thier chest or just vent please reach out to me. I want you to know you're not alone. Somebody help me years ago when I want to pay it forward. -Mike | ptsd |
I’m 18yrs old and I just enrolled into a community college in the spring and I’m not happy where I am in life. and I guess with other things that’s happened in my life for example my dad years ago got deported and is Mexico doing whatever now but idk why but he’s now crazy and mentally ill and my mom also deported and in Mexico (btw and I’m now living with her) and then this same year I had a bad trip on weed which gave me derealzation which I’m thankful I’m recovering from that made realize there’s a lot of stuff I’m not happy about the way things are now and now I’m stressed out that maybe the reason why I have this anxiety and depression is because I’m maybe have ADHD because I’ve realized I can’t stop thinking about anything’s from scenarios in my head to made up scenarios that are unrealistic and unrelated to what’s going on and trying to stop the voices/thoughts just makes me more anxious and paranoid and depressed
Please help don’t know what to do | depression |
((tw: animal death, grim descriptions of fake scenarios))
Sorry if I vent here...I'm in no way new to instrusive thoughts of real life events and fake scenarios, but lately I'm starting to have a certain intrusive thought again,one I thought I had overcome, and it's getting to me so much, it triggers a lot of physical compulsions,causes a lot of ruminations and just generally makes me feel awful.
For context,me and my family had to put our family cat down sometime last November, as she was very sick. It was a great loss for us, especially for me. Had that cat for 17 years, I cannot describe how much I loved her and how I keep missing her every day.
I was there when she was sedated, but I couldn't bring myself to see the last needle actually end her life. I didn't even want to see her face, so I covered her up as soon as everything was done.
The following days I kept having these awful thoughts.. I was convinced that maybe the drug didn't kill her or that the vet didn't actually do it, that i've buried her alive, that I HAD to go back for her and dig her out.
I've gone so far to actually beg my parents to go and check again that she's dead. Thankfully, my parents reassured me that she was dead, that the vet had no reason not to do their job and that her death was instant and painless.
Of course, a lot months have passed now, so she is dead regardless of everything, and I thought that at least knowing that could set this thought to rest.
But my brain just keeps flashing these horrible mental images, that she may have woken up inside the box we buried her in, that she thought that we abandoned her, that she was sick and scared there, or even images of her corpse in a different position to how we left her, like she tried to escape it.
It's illogical, and I know that, they are just thoughts, but damn, it's such a sore spot. It feels unjustly cruel and low. I hate my brain for making me feel guilty for not watching my pet die, because if I had the guts to see it, I would have been sure she was dead. I wouldn't have to deal with this. | OCD |
Without going into detail, I have no choice but to stay in the house in which traumatic things occurred. Not at the hands of the people staying here, so anyone concerned about that, don't worry.
But still, I'm having "minor" flashbacks a couple times a day and intrusive thoughts and memories all the time. The nightmares are worse too. It sucks sleeping in the bed a trauma occurred in.
My therapist is too far away to get to, as well as elderly, so I can't risk that due to the people constantly in and out of my house I may be a carrier and infect her.
Anyways, I was hoping someone who has progressed further in therapy than I to give some tips on how to cope? I could google but I figured people who have experience with my specific situation would have better tips, or things a professional or person onliene may not have considered as helpful.
Thanks so much. | ptsd |
so basically it boils down to this: i have PTSD and MDD, and i can’t connect with people my age. i dont know what’s wrong with me. my therapist says it has something to do with how my brain grew as a kid (where the traumatic event was,,, i mean it was basically my whole childhood) and that because of what i went through i dont mirror peoples faces, like on a subconscious level. i dont mirror their expressions and i don’t process or show emotion in the same way. i dont have a single friend my age, and i get told a lot that im ‘wierd’ and i just. feel so broken. does anyone else feel this way or struggle to connect? i dont want to feel so broken, or like im the problem. i just want to be able to make friends. 17,F | ptsd |
Hello, about 2 years ago I described my experience with what I thought at the time being OCD. You can read the whole thing here: https://www.reddit.com/r/OCD/comments/crmauz/what_is_this/
Basically, I've been struggling with intrusive thoughts about keeping my possessions in pristine condition. I cannot stand scratches, blemishes, stains of any kind at all.
2 months ago I finally decided to tell my story to a psychologist. She's now diagnosed me with trauma-related OCD. I hope my post can be useful to those of you who are facing something similar, as I could barely find anything online. | OCD |
I need advice from people who have been in a similar situation (if there are any lol) but I also just need to get it off my chest to ppl ik might understand. I graduated uni over a year ago and since then I have been home taking online courses/reading book every now/meeting up with friends and just doing whatever I feel like doing. I feel ok, I don’t feel sad or anything but Ik I need to take the next step. I’ve decided I’d rather do a masters degree than work and I have started doing my research and will start applying soon hopefully.
I am happy I’ve had that year off because for the past 5 yrs finishing high-school and uni without meds have been exhausting and back then I was just waiting for the day I’d be able to not have any commitments without feeling guilty. But recently it feels like everyone around me is moving forward with their lives so fast and it is so easy for them while I’d just been stuck. I don’t have access to meds rn because I’m in a country where the ones that are available have the worst side-effects so meds are not an option and I’m just wondering if other people have experienced similar feelings of being behind/not being completely motivated to take the next step/have taken a long break from commitments. How did you snap out of that and does it ever feel different in the future? | ADHD |
like months ago my ocd made me feel like INSTANTLY guilty and awful and said i had a mean thought about my gf but the thing is that it literally says where i was when i thought this, literally what time of DAY it was, everything, so i went back there and thought about this but it doesnt feel familiar at all? but im assuming its real as of now. but throughout our entire relationship ive never thought this thing for real EVER. i love my gf so much. is it possible that my mind was just zoning out and thought something rude and i didnt notice :( ive told her about how worried i am without saying the thought and she says not to worry about it at all | OCD |
As much as im trying and i know im trying i just cant make a decision on anything. I am always helping people pleasing others i stay with a narcissistic mom even at (33 F )because of my inability to make decision. She knows this ans uses it to her advantage.. How do i start making small changes in life..like cleaning my room , health hygiene , shower , hair , saving money.. i am just not able to start and i was diagnosed in childhood but my ultra orthodox parents brushed it off like it was nothing ..i have never been able to start and if i actually start iv never completed. I am my biggest dissapointment. | ADHD |
IDK much about this but whenever I am dehydrated occurrence of intrusive thoughts increases a lot. Does anyone else have the same condition? | OCD |
Hi, I'm David. I'm an aspie, diagnosed with Asperger's Syndrome at age 14. The case is relatively mild, I can speak well, just can't do it well before others. I always felt a bit different from others but never quite chocked it up to a medical condition. Glad to join all of you and look forward to sharing stories and giving advice. | aspergers |
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