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OCD isn't diagnosed yet but I'm advised that should I pursue one (a diagnosis) it likely will be.
University is seeming less and less viable for me. I'm too anxious about performance and working with other students, and any "online learning" I just cannot consistently get done. Forming structure and routine is just impossible right now.
I'm considering other options. I can't live with my parents. They aren't abusive or anything, I just find my self-criticism exacerbated around them, and my dad is also despair on legs, so he isn't good for me.
Believe me when I say this isn't melodrama: if I'm given the option to either live on the streets for the foreseeable future or live with my dad, it's the streets.
I'm unqualified for anything I imagine would be tolerable, and any job I do find I seriously doubt I'll be able to hold.
If I'm forced to quit uni I want to at the VERY least have a place to live that isn't my dad or mum's house and isn't some sort of shelter. I just need a small space and preferably a bathroom to myself. Next on the priority list would be having enough money to feed myself. And then for medication.
I take it my entitlements will be affected by the fact that my parents have rooms I can occupy, that I'm unemployed, and that I have student debt?
If nobody can give me a decent idea just on the fly, can anyone link me a calculator site? | ADHD |
I started to care a lot less lately, my steroid dosages went skyrocket and I’ve been feeling rlly shitty lately. All this trouble started when I got shit grades on nearly every exam in college, didn’t know what to do, so I took every job opportunity I got and became a hotel receptionist. Parents are disappointed asf, not even my dad pick up my calls. They expected much more than me since my brother became a lawyer and I became what? Literally a dog shit that got bad anxiety, body dysmorphia, depressed and a brain dead brain. Most people would say it’s my steroid usage that’s fucking me up, but in reality it’s not. I’ve done blood-work several times and it’s decent, I’ve been off cycle for about 4 months and still feeling shit. I’ve never done a suicidal attempt, but if I’m gonna do it I’ll make sure it’s my first and last one. Social life is shit too, not rlly talking to anyone and I honestly don’t think I’ve been talking to someone for more than 10 minutes. I have tried to do online things like discord but quickly found out connecting with people over the internet isn’t my thing, seems all meaningless. | depression |
I was sexually assaulted at 18 (that was in 2013). I was diagnosed with PTSD last year and I struggle with flashbacks of my assault constantly. It's like a movie playing in my head.
I started doing exposure therapy and it worked, though it was incredibly draining. I eventually stopped because life got in the way (a breakup, then finals, then I moved). I meant to put it on hold and come back to it but I never did.
I convinced myself I was probably over it and that I shouldn't give it more attention because I'd talked about it in quite a bit of detail. But I'm not over it, I think about it every day. And I mean every single day. I feel like I'm carrying a poisonous secret.
My therapist is on vacation right now and I'm psyching myself to talk about it again when he comes back. I know I need to do it, but it hurts just to think about it and I want to keep putting it off indefinitely even though I know that's a bad idea.
There's also a little voice in my head that still blames me for what happened. I had a crush on my abuser and I didn't even register it as abuse at the time, but I remember subconsciously having my guard up when I was around him because I thought he might do something to me again. Why did I keep seeing him after what he did to me? That's one of the things that makes me ashamed to talk about it. I feel guilty.
At this point I'm just musing, so thank you if you've read up until this point. I feel really alone. | ptsd |
It’s the first time since it broke out a month ago that I really tried to dig up again and idk.. I think I panicked to lose my progress getting out of my shell because of it. Is it going to come back soon as I rest? Is it normal?
Personally do you prefer digging up until you’re exhausted or do you prefer digging up a little and resting and continuing the day after? I thought I’d prefer to dig until I’m exhausted but now idk
Also it makes perfect sense to me that it was just a lot to take yesterday and I didn’t really feel I got a wholesome hug to let it out I just tried to rest for the evening and go to sleep. It’s not that bad not to fall asleep that sounds completely normal in my head. I guess this is just me freaking out because I’m afraid it will become hard to go out to friends again. But why would it haha. That just makes sense to be super careful and freaked out about | ptsd |
Back in college I went hanging out with friends I tried to be funny and relatable, I acted like a sitcom comedy relief character
Later that night my friend texted me and said I was being childsh selfish and just annoying.
Usually I avoid going to such events, not that I get invited often anyway.
But I want to a life outside my house, I want something anything I am so fucking tired of being alone and miserable. | aspergers |
I reached out to HR this week to request accommodations at work. I work at a school and need to be on campus for contact minutes with students. It’s all the report writing and documentation that I cannot seem to complete until minutes before the deadline/meeting.
I think uninterrupted work time, a flexible schedule, work from home and task separation/rotation would be helpful. I already made a “Do Not Disturb” sign for my office door and will adjust my sessions/meetings schedule for task blocks. I can implement those accommodations without a formal request.
I have been trying to figure out how to schedule my medication and meals to be mentally alert for the entirety of my work day in order to not require accommodations. I was diagnosed this past spring and started trialing medication in April. It’s challenging because I frequently turn off medication alarms without stopping what I’m doing to actually take a dose. Not to mention forgetting to hydrate, eat or use the bathroom.
The flexible schedule would allow me to start earlier at home without distractions and take the time pressure off to report to the building before students arrive. My medication wears off by/before the end of the school day so an additional extended break to go home and reset while my second dose kicks preferably with a meal also makes sense to me. Due to Covid, the custodial staff cleans the entire school daily so staying later also means I’m distracted by vacuums and interruptions for their work.
Does this sound like reasonable accommodations for me? Are there others I should consider? What has helped you? | ADHD |
Any Indian insomniac with ADHD here? I ll be awake till 4am. A short intro of myself - doctor from southern india, traveler, reader. Ping me for a chat.
This is called dsps. For beginners, we are just night creatures. Out quality of life is better if we sleep in the morning and work from evenings or afternoon. | ADHD |
Hi everyone. I've started taking Elvanse to manage my symptoms of ADHD.
Last week when I started taking the 30mg dose I think I had one of the best weeks of my life mental health wise, was just able to shut off my brain for once. I had few physical side effects, just a lack of appetite, but since Tuesday I've started feeling really jittery - like increased heart rate and that sort of thing. Nothing that I can think of has changed about how I'm taking the medicine, in fact I feel like I've been living a more healthy lifestyle, but the side effects are a lot worse.
Does anyone have any advice on how to deal with these side effects because I know the medication works without me having them, I just dont know how to get rid of them now. | ADHD |
Hi my name is Fruity,
So as it stands I am 20 and have Aspergers. I am also horribly scared of the future. I don't have any idea what I want to do for a career let alone college or any kind of learning. I also still struggle immensely with being social. I'm just not able to reach out or maintain friends. What I am getting at is I have some questions from people with Aspergers of older or similar age on how they got through life and what I can do.
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My questions:
With my unceasing unsocialability or the inability to relate, how can I reach out to people? Be the normal you see others be?
How can I establish meaningful relationships with my state of mind?
How can I just live like everyone else... happy and together...?
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Im sorry I realize this is kinda a depressing post, as many of you can probably guess I am in just another depression. With all these what ifs, big life choices, and changes it really does a number to the psyche. | aspergers |
Wondering if anyone else feels like they're trapped in their brain, struggling to feel rather than think. My awareness is nearly always stuck in a highly localized loop somewhere in the front of my left brain. It took me decades to realize there was another way for me to exist aside from this logical mode - that there was a more embodied way to live, one that involves embracing uncomfortable emotions/sensations rather than hiding from them. It is a painfully beautiful feeling.
At this point, even my logical brain realizes it needs to value this above all else, yet it is a constant and continual struggle to try to force my awareness into my body. I'm not merely being figurative here, since I fancy this strange loop exists somewhere in the front left neocortex but I don't need neuroscientific justification for this feeling since it is real and significant to me either way.
I tell myself that, as with all things, this effort to feel aware of my whole bifurcated body, my entire complicated corpus, will continue to get easier with practice - not for an endpoint of being neurotypical but with a goal of being more fully myself, rather than just a constructed/simulated version of myself. Really just wondering, after these descriptions, does this resonate with anyone else here? Apologies for the textual wall! | aspergers |
It’s so exhausting and stupid. It always constant and gripping. I wish it would just stop and so tired of it. Just leave me alone!!!!!! | depression |
# Online Therapy for OCD
# Online Treatment for Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD) via Skype
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Online Mindfulness Psychotherapist via Skype for Overcoming Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder (OCD) and Intrusive Overthinking without relying on drugs.
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Mindfulness Therapy provides an excellent treatment option for reducing obsessive-intrusive thoughts and behaviors by teaching you how to work with your OCD thoughts and impulses using mindfulness training and the methods of Mindfulness Therapy.
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To successfully overcome OCD and obsessive-intrusive thoughts you MUST learn how to neutralize the underlying fear, that fuels intrusive thoughts and compulsive behaviors.
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This is the primary focus of Mindfulness-based Exposure Therapy for overcoming OCD and is what I will be teaching you during our online sessions together. | OCD |
Hi, I have recently been privately diagnosed with ADHD (via Psychiatry UK) and been put on Elvanse (Known as Vyvanse in US) , I finished the 30mg course and now I am on 50mg. It still doesn’t last long enough.
I’ve heard of people having Elvanse / Vyvanse as well as immediate release dexamfetamine later in the day as a booster.
Is there a way to ask for this? I feel like it would help. | ADHD |
And I’m suicidal, but I want to live, but the highs and lows are so loud and fierce and jumbled. Don’t actually have a plan or means too, just so overwhelmed. I believe bipolar was a total misdiagnosis. Feelin’ like Harley Quinn. Just unlocked 27 years of trauma. Diagnosed Monday with PTSD officially. I was right all along. I’m leaving. My Abusive ex. Never stop advocating for yourself. If I hadn’t have visited a friend in the same ehospital I was in last year for bipolar disorder I may have never been triggered into an episode like this. So thankful. So grateful. I’m making it. Just need to sleep since it’s been 3 days lol but I’m on the ground. | ptsd |
I'm always sharing my struggles, so I figured it's only right I this success too.
I work in a law office. When potential clients call my department, I talk to them personally whenever I'm available. I've had a few people tell that most attorneys don't do this because they don't have time. Truthfully, I don't have time either, but I usually get 20 minutes into the conversation before I realize I don't have time.
Anyway, my boss was in the office yesterday and met with a few of the clients I brought in. They all told my boss things like, 'I called a dozen firms and Arthur was the only attorney who actually talked to me,' or 'he was the only person who really listened to me,' and 'I felt like he really wanted to help my family.'
It felt really good to get some positive feedback from clients, especially in front of my boss. | ADHD |
I don't know if It's just me being delusional, but sometimes it feels like hurting others gives me joy.
Recently I began writing a journal, in it I wrote pretty awful things about my mother and father, awful yet authentic thoughts.
Getting out those thoughts made me more calm, which is why I want to maxemize this habit.
Recently memories of me hurting other people begin to flow back inside my mind. In example:
When I was about 12 or 13 I used to play League of Legends with a group of slightly older people (15/16 years old), one girl from said group was extremely bad at the game. i remember strongly that one time after a couple of games I pointed it out, calling her a bad player in probably untactful and wicked way. My attitude made her cry. No need to say said group never spoke with me again.
Anywho, I still tend to hurt others in my day to day, most of the time it's unintentional, I don't want to bring others pain, but when I do it makes me feel better with myself.
How can I overcome this toxic behavior? Besides writing a journal obviously. | aspergers |
I'm not sure if this goes against the rules but the entire summer I was extremely depressed and I cut myself and wanted to kill myself every day and two things helped 1. A unconditionally supporting girlfriend and 2. Zyzz, zyzz is a bodybuilder and he is extremely motivational and really helped me get out of a dark place and out of my comfort zone and helped me realize for things to get better you gotta do something about it you can't sit around and wait for things to get better so in his words "enough of that sad shit nah fuck that get out of your comfort zone and go lift something heavy, we're all gonna make it brahs" | depression |
Hi everyone this is my first ever post on Reddit but I wanted to get some insight into some of my OCD compulsions. I’ve recently been told that I have had OCD for the last 10/12 years unknown to me and I wanted to see if anyone has similar compulsions and if they have any tips on how to overcome these or just help with the stress of them.
I make lists of what people say, what I say, conversations or if I’m in person with people or just one person. If I say something I think is wrong or bad I feel guilty so I write them down in my notes on my phone. I used to write them on pieces of paper when I was younger and store all these sheets. What is on the notes could just be one word or a sentence indicating what I said that I think is wrong or rude so I can remember what I said and that if I feel guilty I can go back and look at it.
I have tried to not write these notes but if I don’t, I feel like a terrible person, that if I don’t remember something will happen or I just don’t even know why I try remember this stuff. It differs with certain people and some trigger it to a bigger extent than others especially family members. I sometimes record myself in the recording app about a certain conversation or situation where I felt extremely guilty in, this is a new compulsion for me.
I’m wondering if anyone else has this compulsion? All that I have seen on these posts are people making lists of what they need to do, which I also do and have lists for other lists but I’m wondering about this type of compulsion of instead of remembering words/sentences/conversations in their head they have to have a written type of it.
Thank you to any replies if they do. | OCD |
can i have normal days and still have depression ? i feel like a fraud | depression |
For example in FFXIV I keep remaking characters because I freak out on whether or not that it's who I should be. I'm scared of this so I commit so many rituals in my games (like looking for random things on my screen to feel safe) that I lose interest. I want to be better but whenever I open a game I think back to this line of thinking. I don't know what to do anymore. | OCD |
Is anyone with Aspergers out there in Reddit land in a romantic relationship with someone who is not only neurotypical but also of a different race or ethnicity or culture. If so what were some of the positives and challenges of a relationship that is not only ethnically or culturally diverse but also neurodiverse as well. | aspergers |
I have been getting some nightmares again. I also feel on edge and feel shaky inside during these periods. I do take an antidepressant and anti anxiety medication, but they don’t seem to touch it when I have a full blown PTSD attack. What do you do? Any suggestions? Thanks! | ptsd |
I’m peckish, so I get up and go to the kitchen. I open the pantry door, then close it. I open the fridge door, then close it. I open the freezer door, then close it.
There’s nothing that is ready to eat. I don’t have the energy to cook. Even tossing something in the microwave is too much.
Back to bed.
I’m hungry, so I get up and go to the kitchen. I open the pantry door, then close it. I open the fridge door, then close it. I open the freezer door, then close it.
There’s still nothing that’s instantly edible and just taking that bag of French fries out of the freezer sounds like a marathon. Not to mention actually putting the fries on a tray or turning on the oven.
Back to bed.
I’m starving, so I get up and go to the kitchen to do my kitchen dance, opening and closing doors pointlessly. Guess there’s no point in thinking about cooking now, might as well wait until tomorrow.
Back to bed. | depression |
So I haven't had intrusive thoughts for a while but last night I'm pretty sure I did. But now that it's passed I'm laughing at how little sense it made, which is a bit relieving.
Basically an actress I like got into a minor accident, and she's really involved in my current special interest (I'm also autistic). So I started having this completely senseless guilt that somehow I had a role in this accident just by liking her work? I had trouble sleeping and it didn't feel right to watch the show she's in or talk about her character, even though I usually love to gush about it. She wasn't even in serious trouble from what I heard but I started becoming paranoid that it was worse and I would be wrong or insensitive to talk about her character or whatever.
And now that's passed, and the dust has settled, and I'm like... wow that's a weird belief. Liking a show means that I somehow shifted the universal balance to hurt the actress? Or that liking her character somehow does something to hurt her further? Please. I knew at the time it made no sense but the feeling wouldn't go away. Now it's just kind of funny how much I apparently had to center this news back on me and my interests. At worst now I just feel selfish. But mostly it's funny. | OCD |
My ocd makes it so hard to sleep, I get these constant intrusive racing thoughts that tell me all sorts of terrible things are going to happen couple that with my dad snoring and you get me as I am now fucking crying and sleeping in my living room which is still being decorated with no curtains afraid of being watched, completely sleep deprived, I just wish I had sleep medication or my counselling would come already so I could get something, anything put in place, I fucking hate the nighttime with a passion, I've lost all the spirit, I'm a shell of the person I used to be taken over completely by obsessions and compulsions. I'll try and get some sleep, see how I do.
Just how do you people do it? | OCD |
TLDR: pills was stoled and I gots beat fors acting like I have ADHD, and I'm mad at hypocrisy and the world...
I had a troubled childhood and when the govt people in charge of me had enough they sent me (6yo) to a shrink who prescribed some adderall and Ritalin. I'm just a kid, so I don't think much of it, but it helps. Everyone can tell. Few years go past, govt. gets extended family involved. They're wealthy and uberchristian, so it must be a good fit, right? Well, at 10 they ship me off to BFE, and within a couple months the new relatives decide I don't need pills anymore, cause why should kids get meth? and then for the next two years, they assault, abuse, and one time break bones for acting like the demon child I was/am. Eventually they've had enough cause nothing is working and the govt. gets involved and I get shipped back to where I come from. I'm still not on pills. 20 years go by. I finally get someone to listen, and I get a prescription again. "Holy shit, where were these my whole life" type of moment.
I feel like I've had 20 years of clarity stolen from me. I'm hella booksmart, but I'm pretty fucking shit at life. 2.5 months. I got a raise twice in two months. I was in HS, and the military and was just a consumate fuckup. College is a pipe dream. 20 fucking years, my dudes. Anyway, I give my doctor all my info and she did some incredibly terrifying deep dive research ( I think she's... *CIA*) And she found out that my prescription was still being filled out the entire time I lived with "family" signed and dated and everything black and white. So, I get beat for acting like a shithead, but if you gave me the pills, then I wouldn't act like a shithead.... and unless they were taking them (which I doubt), then they were selling them. Well, his fat ass had a heart attack and died a few years ago, but his wife and kids are still around, and I'm seriously contemplating getting my 20 years back with violence, but then they'd probably get mad and I'd get the chair. So, short of a biblical version of vindication, what are my options? I feel like breaking my ass bone, due to hypocrisy, is warranting something...*Billy Butcher voice*... fuckin' diabolical. | ADHD |
I feel like a lot of the common suggestions (I.e take a bath, exercise, call a friend) haven’t really worked for me, so I’d like to here what other people do.
I’m in therapy (a mix of EMDR, parts therapy and compassion focused therapy) and I’m currently undergoing a self-prescribed course of meditation but I feel like I’m still incredibly highly strung in the moment.
What works for you? What really files back the hypervigilance? | ptsd |
Hello - I am newly diagnosed and trying to learn.
One thing that just occurred to me and I would love feedback on: I’ve always been OBSESSED with my job. I’m just an administrator at a dental office- it’s nothing amazing. Yet I love practically everything about it, could easily work 80 hours (my poor family), take work home with me, etc. I don’t feel a struggle with work/life balance because I enjoy being passionate about my job.
I enjoy talking about my job, but I’ve realized that no one else I know does. I will go on and on about the software, dentistry, insurance, marketing, staffing, and office dynamics. I honestly don’t even understand what my friends do for work - they will never explain it in detail. It drives me crazy, because I really want to visualize their day in detail. I’m not trying to bore them to death with my conversation - I would love it to be a mutual sharing of information. Their view is that their jobs don’t define them…practically at all. I don’t get it!
I always considered myself a workaholic and thought I had a super work ethic. Accomplishments and my varied tasks make me happy. I’ve noticed the salary does not impact my work: no matter what, I give it my all. (Decent pay is simply appreciated for financial security, but isn’t a ‘reward’ to me.)
The only other people that I ever hear of as workaholics are lawyers/doctors/accountants etc. I think people question my devotion to a rather mundane job and think it’s weird.
Anyway - does anyone else relate, and does it make sense for me to understand this as related to the satisfaction that hyper-focusing brings? Or am I just a dork with nothing more interesting in this sense? (That’s fine, too- honestly, more than understanding myself a bit more, this particular topic will potentially help me understand everyone else.) | ADHD |
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Has anyone else reached this point? I sleep three hours a day. When I wake up I look at the wall before I take my first breath and wake up screaming. I thrash all around screaming and crying. The pain is so intense it runs through my entire body. I can feel electricity building up in my heart, legs, triceps shooting everywhere. I scream and cry uncontrollably for hours and nothing stops me.
I panic dial people I know. I wore them out. They don't answer the phone or block me anymore. I am getting lonelier every day. I take my anxiety meds but I have mentally deteriorated so far I never leave the bed. I live off a diet of oatmeal packets, peanut butter at my bedside, sometimes crackers. I go downstairs once every few days to get these rations. I drink water from a cup out of my bathroom sink.
I scream and I see so no future left for me. Every day is pure pain and torture. From the minute I am wake up until the minute I go to bed I am crying, screaming, shaking, calling crisis lines, people, etc. | depression |
I know this sounds silly but I feel like i have an imaginary angry witch hunt twitter mob in my head and every single thing I do has to be approved by them. I can’t fold my clothes while my bf plays games because i’ll get cancelled for letting myself get walked over. If the thought about not being in love crosses my mind i worry that i’ll be cancelled for being a cheater or something. I get fixated on morals too and feels like im just constantly getting tugged by the fear of this mob. Even in total privacy where no one will fine out, I don’t feel alone. I always have to upkeep this squeaky clean image for them. I mean this in a metaphorical sense I don’t literally see a mob in my head but it’s the best way I can describe it | OCD |
I’m on a 90 trial period of 18mg concerta but it hasn’t been working at all; I accidentally took a double dose 10 mins apart one morning and it was like this magical focus cloud started to rain on me and I was actually able to be productive and focus. It was like a hurricane of distraction cleared in my head (mixing metaphors whoops).
I have a follow up with my psychiatrist soon but how do I tell her this? I’m worried she’ll be concerned / be mad that I took double and think it’s like drug-seeking behavior?
Thanks!
EDIT: 18M; currently at college in Chicago but going home to CA to meet with her in early Dec. | ADHD |
>The researchers found that showing the startle response was clearly the most important predictor of future PTSD symptoms. Reduced emotion, blame, negative emotions and an avoidance of thoughts relating to the conflict were also, in order of decreasing importance, predictive of future symptoms. Participants who showed any of these five symptoms earlier in the study (but the startle response, especially) were more likely to show even more PTSD-related symptoms later on – and those who had more of these predictive symptoms early on developed even more of the other symptoms of PTSD over time.
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>The researchers believe this means these are the specific symptoms that could indicate PTSD vulnerability and that targeting them early on could have a preventative benefit.
https://digest.bps.org.uk/2018/02/20/unprecedented-study-of-conflict-situation-finds-one-symptom-that-is-especially-indicative-of-ptsd-vulnerability/
Original study: Fried, E. (2018). Dynamic networks of PTSD symptoms during conflict. Open Science Framework. https://doi.org/10.17605/OSF.IO/HV5TS | ptsd |
I found a way to consistently eat vegetables everyday. I picked three vegetables that last a relatively long time in the fridge and that are relatively easy to prepare and I just have the same salad everyday.
* Cucumbers
* Bell peppers
* Spinach
* Ready made chicken strips or canned salmon
* Croutons
Been eating this consistently for about 3 weeks and I still love it. Eating my greens makes me feel healthy :) I am the kind of person that can eat the same thing everyday and still like it though lol. At least now it's healthy. | ADHD |
So recently I was prescribed Strattera 40mg but I was just wondering if there was certain foods and drinks I should stay away from? My psychiatrist recommended I stop drinking coffee since it could have a side effect, but what else should I stay away from, food wise and drink (Soda, alcohol, juices)?
also is there anything I can do for the sudden dizziness when I stand up and nausea or do I just have to try to tough it out with the side effects | ADHD |
Literally.
Yesterday I decided to buy a book. Lately I'm reading comedy books and books that teach how to improve my writing skills, but I thought about buying a book called "Women who run with the wolves" because the topic is interesting and I think it can help me a lot. But I'm afraid to learn something and end up having an existential crisis.
I suffer from suicidal OCD and I'm afraid of having existential crises; topics about life, death and things like that cause a lot of triggers in me. I also don't watch movies or TV series or anything that trigger me. I am affraid of thinking. So I try to read things that don't take me out of my comfort zone. But honestly I would like to read classic books, books that improve my critical side and teach me things, which makes me a little frustrated. Have you ever dealt with complications when reading? And you think I'm being weak to be afraid of it? | OCD |
I'm with a friend right now, slept over the past few days. We have a lot of fun going outdoor, cuddle, watch movies, etc.
But I started to get suddenly pissed off and aggressive for no apparent reason. I get weird feelings in my joints, want to just kick and punch a wall. My friend can't touch me, without my body telling me to push them away and hurt them. It takes a lot of concentration to not just kick them when they touch me. Idk, I just wanna punch, kick and bite them, even tho they didn't do anything and are nice to me. They tried to cuddle me to calm down and asked me what's up with me, but I don't know and I can't handle it and now we are just distant. They're hurt and I'm pissed of for no reason.
I have a past with selfharm, and I thought maybe it's just the urge to do it again, but it doesn't express the same way it did the last few years. | aspergers |
I enjoy repetition, always have. I listen to the same songs for years and years on end, I have about 20-30 songs stemming back years that I still listen to on repeat. I play the same video games, wherein I do the same activities - take Animal Crossing, I like fishing and getting bells, I rarely decorate my town despite hundreds of hours in gameplay. I watch the same videos on YouTube, including ones I've seen many times before. It's fine, I know it makes me happy so I can do it over and over again. Problem is this affects not just my free time, but my work. I'm an artist, but I'm incapable of tackling unfamiliar areas of art that I'm uncertain about like digital painting and backgrounds. This is problematic for the assignments that I'm expected to complete. I cannot for the life of me try new things. Attempting to tackle unfamiliar things makes me uncomfortable, fearful and can even lead to a meltdown. As a result, I live a life repeating the same things, which even for me can get old, and never ever starting anything new. It affects me in so many ways, even socially as I can't make new friends. I think I really need help as I'm 21 and I don't know how to cope with this problem. | aspergers |
Keeping things simple prevents me from making a mountain out of a molehill with my symptoms, and prevents me from making an unnecessarily convoluted perception of my symptoms and my disorder.
I like to see it this way: There is unrest in my mind. I must learn to bring myself peace, not relief.
Don't complicate your journey to peace. Sometimes we think we have to make everything into romantic stories for us to enjoy or to associate with. It's not necessary. The pain is complex, but we strive to not make it so. Practice simplicity, not for personality, but for self-control. One can be as romantic, complex, and extravagant in their lives, even more so when the OCD obstacle is defeated. | OCD |
About a few months after I found out my friends and I were talking about spaghetti and I told them I like “school spaghetti” and they had me google an image of it their reply was “THATS NORMAL SPAGHETTI” but I didn’t understand cause me and my dad knew what school spaghetti was it’s just a lil more soupy spaghetti and they kept going back and forth with me which they found hilarious to a point I’ve never seen them laugh like that, while I was kinda laughing trynna get why they found this funny but it just wouldn’t stop until they said “we will agree to disagree cause with the way you’re talking about it is only gonna confuse us more” followed up by “ if the police got you you’d never say anything relevant to why they brought you in” and when they said that I got I understood they still had no idea what I was going on about so I tried to say “schoo-“ then they cut me off “you don’t need to get into it again we got you just we call or spaghetti” that’s really the story I hope this made someone laugh or their day better | aspergers |
I'm having a "little" trouble accepting my thoughts; I've been recently for the past years stuck in a loop where I promise myself that this time I have done my last ritual, but I have what I call rational OCD that makes me question the very root of things; basically I want to stop doing these compulsions (rituals) by doing it one last time and then never again, but the "last one" is related mainly to the frequency that I performed these compulsions in the day; so when I do the compulsion x3 in the day (on purpose) it gives me a weird sensation; when I do the compulsion x1 in the day (on purpose) it gives me a weird sensation too; however, I have come to terms with myself that ending up with any of these options is... acceptable... but my mind bloody needs some sort of explanation otherwise it won't accept whatsoever; I ask myself:
1) if accepting x1 and accepting x3 are both valid, with which of these should I go? (I know it is tempting to answer "neither option, don't think about this" but my mind doesn't accept it without an actual explanation)
2) say I chose to end up with x1 in a day; why did I choose to stick with this option instead of x3 per day? (I mean the objective reason)
3) what if I have done x3 per day? (would I have to repeat the ritual again and again until it feels right, even though I'm know it will never feel right?) | OCD |
I have a job? Cool. Whatever, I have money I guess. I don’t have a job? Okay. Sleeping in and more free time. Gotta do XYZ? Fine. It’ll get done.
Etc etc etc. I’ve never had career aspirations. I’ve never been somebody who spends money. I don’t buy new clothes or things because I don’t see the point, I don’t get joy from it.
Anybody else? | aspergers |
i want to get rid of it , i’m done with its toll on me someone tell me it’s a thought that curses god out if i don’t do something for it tell me how to get rid of it i don’t care anymore if my anxiety runs up high im getting rid of this thought | OCD |
As I said in the title, I spoke to my old doctor who is in MD on the phone today, expressing interest in getting back on a medication I took for ADHD (almost 10 years ago as a teenager). She wasn’t able to help me, and mentioned some sort of “backlog for months” going on up in MD where I can’t find help there immediately. She suggested I find help in VA but wasn’t able to point me in the right direction.
I’m finding conflicting things online: can I find someone and do a tele appointment? I’ll go in somewhere if I absolutely have to, but it would make it easier for me on my chaotic schedule to be able to do a video appointment, and see if they’re able to re-prescribe what I was on or perhaps recommend something they feel would work better?
Is this a possibility? I see websites online like ADHD online and donefirst.com but I’m nervous they’re somehow just a scam and/or just give diagnosis but can’t give prescriptions.
Appreciate if anyone has thoughts on the matter, or perhaps is familiar with places to check out in the Virginia area | ADHD |
Yo friends
So I've been on 'better help' for about a month and a half now and I just wanted to feel out other peeps experiences with online therapy.
Personally, my first therapist claimed to understand OCD and then very clearly obviously had no idea what I was talking about.
I got driving ocd right, pretty standard and I shift between some pure o stuff.
I explain this and the guy is all, "I've never heard of this" he goes on to tell me how his clients with OCD counted things or checked doors and I was all...
Is this guy serious?
He was acting like the topic of the obsession was the point or something and then doubled down saying he didnt get loads of info on OCD in school (obviously)
And this is fine. Whatever. I go to get a new therapy ok. I put in that I have OCD.
I cannot find a single therapist who specializes in OCD. I found some who are 'familiar' but that's it.
Have people run into this problem? | OCD |
It is 2 am. I have been sitting at my desk, staring at my computer since 8 pm. This is an easy assignment; I should be done within an hour. However, I cannot bring myself to start. With random thoughts racing through my mind, I have accumulated around 20 unnecessary google searches in the past hour alone.
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* What is my baseline metabolic rate?
* How does honey make money?
* How long does a lobster live?
Why does this always happen to me? I know I can get work done if I start early, yet I can never bring myself to do it. I always tell my mom I think I have ADHD and I should get tested, but she never listens to me. I have always found a way to get my work done as I am a good student, but my problem has never been as bad as it recently has. I want to go to bed, but I can’t until I finish this assignment.
I’m also going through a pretty serious breakup, but it’s not the thing that’s lingering in my mind right now. Rather, I’m just drowning in random thoughts.
I’m not sure what to do right now. Please let me know how I can fix this.
Thanks | ADHD |
We’ve been together for a year and we always had our own consensus that he had it but has recently been diagnosed.
He’s 20 and I’m 22 and we spend the night together almost every day. I am patient with his compulsions and act as If they didn’t happen to avoid him feeling embarrassed which I know he already feels that way when performing in front of me.
Any advice on anything else I could do to support? | OCD |
I have a specific type of OCD that makes me compulsively create accounts and profiles on the internet, with a thought to make them "perfect" or "organized". This bothers me a lot and is very frustrating, as the process of getting an account with a new email and password for any website or social network I use is very tiring. I was wondering if any of you reading this are also experiencing the same problem, and if so, would you have any tips or advice to help with compulsions?
(I'm brazilian so sorry for bad english :/) | OCD |
Disclaimer: Sexual assault
Yesterday I finally came out to my parents about what is really causing my underlying ptsd/cptsd and told them I was molested, and because of that, it’s been stuck in my head all day to the point where I’ve had several rushes of anxiety today. Over the past few months, I’ve been developing this large fear of rape and I’m not entirely sure why, though I’ve done some research now and I think I may have an answer, but a bad one. When I was in second grade, a group of older boys dragged me to the back of a playground, beat me, revealed and groped my privates and fingered me. I’ve done some research on if forced fingering is considered rape and sources keep saying yes, but I’m still unsure of if it’s just my paranoia getting in the way of what really happened. If someone could please give me a little help on this situation and help me sort out if the experience was really rape or molestation, that would mean the world to me. Thank you. | ptsd |
Hello, I’m a 24 years old man, weight 80 kg. This is the first time testing such medicine for my ADHD, but I haven’t really gotten any effect of the medicine.
I use 40 MG of modified capsules, by novartis.
I haven’t felt anything like euphoria or focus. Maybe a little more motivation to boring stuff, I don’t know really.
I’m asking for tips or anything. I took before breakfast sometimes now, but not really feeling anything. I’m happy for tips or any guidance! Thanks guys | ADHD |
I wonder do HOCD/POCD belong to pure O? Or are they associated with Tourettic OCD? | OCD |
I know every person is different, ND or NT, but I was hoping to at least get some ideas here.
My (NT) guy (ND) is very stressed out with work. When he's pressed for deadlines (which has been the situation for at least a couple of weeks now) he gets really impatient and tends to be short with me, does not like to be interrupted with calls/texts (and can be rude about it), and can be inflexible, or unreasonable even. For ex, if we have to be at a certain place at a certain time for an activity after work to unwind, I can't be late or he'll be pissed. Doesn't matter if it was because I was working late. He will blame lots of things on me, even if it's not entirely my fault, if he can point out even a minor reason for why I'm to blame for something going wrong. When we're physically together he doesn't like to be touched......I get it. He's anxious and overwhelmed. I can see that he tries, makes sure that he allocates time for me and I can tell that he wants to spend time with me, but he's unpleasant to be around. I try to talk to him about his work but he doesn't want to talk about it because it stresses him out even more. Eventually, he brings it up, so I ask questions which he begrudgingly answers. So I just stop asking him about his day/week, but then I feel bad because it seems like I don't care (also I'd like to know more about what's causing his stress, but I can't). He invites me to spend the night but then on top of him being irritable, he has a hard time falling and staying asleep because of the stress/anxiety. I feel bad for waking him up when making slight movements when we're sleeping. When I get frustrated because of his attitude and choose to not spend the night (because I also get stressed out when I think about waking him up), he feels rejected....... I don't know what to do. I know he's aware of it because there had been a few times when he apologized the next day for his attitude, but what am I supposed to do when this is happening? Just listen and don't ask questions? just be physically present and don't expect much?
How do you like to be treated/supported when you're stressed out?
I don't know why if he's aware of these occurrences, why is he unable to change them? This is not the first time this has happened. Maybe this is because of emotional dysregulation? But how about when he's being unreasonable? I have no idea because even that part he doesn't want to talk about since he feels attacked. | aspergers |
Does anyone know of any high-quality weighted animal plushes? The only ones I can seem to find are the ones with almost scaly fabric which I don't like the texture of. [What I'm referring to.](https://www.amazon.ca/Manimo-Weighted-Animal-2-5kg-Green/dp/B072QGLT3P) I don't really have a budget in mind and I'm pretty much open to any website and I enjoy the feel of corduroy and fleece if that helps narrow down a recommendation or give you any ideas. | ADHD |
Hi everyone. I was informed today that I am going to be prescribed with sertraline to help with my low mood and suicidal thoughts. I've never been on medication before so I just wanted to know if anyone has had any experience with this medication and if you have any advice for someone just starting it? I'd particularly like to know if there's anything I need to be careful of/watch out for, although I'm aware the effects probably differ from person to person. | depression |
I saw some people on this sub with that opinion. Curious as to why that is. | aspergers |
New here. I keep yelling at my SO for his freezing and not taking action when I feel attacked or unsafe. I’m ashamed of this. I have a long history of childhood emotional and physical abuse followed by a string of physically/ sexually/ and/or emotionally abusive Bfs. I stopped that cycle but my therapist says I’m still in “survival mode”. Just started trauma therapy about 1.5 months ago. I thot was doing okay.
But last night i freaked out after someone knocked on my door at night. I have a gate and fence, but the gate needs electrical repair so it doesn’t lock. I feel ashamed for panicking and then screaming at my SO for not taking action “like a man”. I’m against toxic masculinity, but I still yelled those things.
After I freaked out and grabbed my gun, I sent an embarrassing rambling email to my therapist. No subject line or greeting. I feel like I just made a big deal about something I could’ve just raised in therapy on Thursday. I feel like I sent her red flags FNR, and she didnt even know I had a gun. I calmed down after awhile but I feel ashamed. I mean, I bought the gun years ago, because I didn’t feel safe. But it sounds like I’m in crisis the way I just rambled on.
And it was just a teenage girl at the door soliciting for something...
The email:
“A person knocked a bunch of times on the glass of my front door. It was 7:15pm and dark everywhere and I went into fight mode and ran upstairs to grab and load my Glock and (SO) did nothing and when I came down, thankfully for the girl who was trespassing on my property saw me shake my head no and she said have a good night and immediately walked away. I was two seconds away from opening the door and pointing it at her. I had a panic attack and i am so angry (SO) did absolutely nothing. It took what seemed like forever for me to run upstairs and load the glock and he did nothing. He didn’t wave the person away. Just nothing. It was all down to me to get her off my property. For 30 min I’ve been been checking my door locks and checking my gun and now holed up in my bedroom. I’m not freaking out anymore but I’m still completely on edge and lightheaded. This isn’t normal.”
when am I supposed to be alerting therapist outside of office hours? What should I expect from SO? I can’t seem to stop myself having huge angry outbursts and tirades. I feel like a mean person who can’t handle even someone just knocking on her door. | ptsd |
Over the course of some days , as I tried to sleep I’d be unable due to unwanted imagery or suggestions flew into my head. I noticed as we close our eyes all we REALLY experience is a blank space , I see it as a fully black room. I took this realization to quickly imagine ME myself as Spider-Man (sounds very goofy but those classic movie binges saved me) exploring the city past the intrusions at the ground floor and FOR ONCE there was no imagery and I was able to fall asleep soon after peacefully. This is what brought me to the idea WE can utilize this blank space to envision ourself in a place where no harm , no malice nothing of bad intent can ever reach us. This blank space uses our imagination to escape these thoughts. I was never one to imagine I’m very unaware of my thought so for this you’ll need to harness the likes of anything you find you enjoy TRULY like a video game or movie character you can relate to. I took this time to realize I find the safest place to set my mind at default is “ Atlantis “ where I swim as a dolphin with another friend who’s also a dolphin and we’re at peace swimming In a safe open but free ocean. Beautiful colors and the feeling of peace.
Specifically the method goes:
Focus on the blank space when you close your eyes. Imagine yourself somewhere like Atlantis. Blue oceans, blue skies. Imagine yourself as a dolphin in the safest sea. Swimming with other dolphins in this safe space. There is no harm in this Atlantis, it doesn’t exist. Think like you don’t want to think think loosely breathe and try to be free. Focus but not too hard just let be and envision yourself , it can be anywhere comfortable. Somewhere like a dream
Visit.
This is only a suggestion but I hope it helps in someway. After months of my minds invasion I can truly say mental illness does not define me. It will never define you either , keep hope my friend , you are never alone , you are not one in a million you are the million in one. BE FREE!! <3 | OCD |
Unfortunately, my form of OCD makes me constantly question whether I am "actually" a good person, deep down-- or whether I am some horrible person who has done awful things that I just can't remember in my past. My therapist and I are working on building my self-compassion but I feel I am not having much success. Whenever I offer myself self-compassion I have this internal voice that tells me "I don't deserve it", and "I'm not actually a good person", and it's so hard. I don't even have severe symptoms right now-- I've been pretty functional overall, but I never can seem to get rid of this fear deep down that I am horrible. I'm not seeking reassurance, but I'm wondering if anyone has any tips or advice on how to combat this and to offer yourself more compassion. It makes many things in my life more difficult. Thank you so much. | OCD |
Very briefly: I have a back issue that currently demands that I alternate **extremely short periods of standing / sitting with breaks to walk or lie down**. I am struggling to perform this throughout a whole day.
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**Details**: At the moment, I can only sit in a chair or stand at a standing desk for a few minutes at a time, before pain kicks in. Literally 3 minutes sometimes. I set timers depending on how I feel and have to alternate sitting or standing with brisk pacing around my house or lying down, face down on a yoga mat. E.g.: I go to desk to write an email. Set timer, 3 minutes. Start email, then when timer goes off, I walk around the house or lie down for a few minutes. Then when that timer goes off, I go back to the desk to continue the email. Rinse and repeat.
**Problem:** having trouble sticking to this, and it is exhausting me. I tend to get sucked into either the first task or whatever I started doing during the break (e.g. listening to sth). And it's so hard to try to police myself like this through an entire day. But I need to help my back heal, and I also need to get a few things done in the meantime, even though I've drastically reduced my objectives.
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**Questions**:
1) Am I crazy for even attempting this kind of task switching? On the one hand, I realize that even a normal person would struggle with this level of constant and very quick task alternation. And they say that it's insane to keep doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results. On the other hand, I cannot stay in a position that hurts too long because I will prolong or undermine my recovery. So I do have to keep moving positions all the time. Should I just abandon all hope of getting anything done under the circumstances?
2) Does anyone have any tips to avoid getting sucked into what I do during the breaks? I keep trying to find something that isn't boring (can't just pace and stare at the wall) but isn't so interesting that I won't want to go back to my other task, but I'm flailing a bit.
3) Does anyone have any tips on rapid task alternation in general?
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Thank you all | ADHD |
Was wondering is anyone received treatment for it and turned out for the better. I've been struggling with it since 16 and I'm now 22. I feel like I waited to long and I'm in too deep so I'm hesitant to get help for it. OCD has made me lose friends, ambitions and sometimes even job opportunities. I wake up going to bed about the same things and go to sleep thinking about the same stuff. I've been trying to not give into my blasphemous thoughts and compulsions but it can be hard. Was wondering if there were any "success" stories to convince me to go. | OCD |
Today I was supposed to have one of my final days at work since my OCD has gotten much worse lately. I wash my hands with hand disinfectant probably 50+ times a day among many other things. So working at a fast food joint is one of worst possbile work places for me. At one point a customer bought a dip and I noticed that there was a dip already on the table gave it to the customer. Afterwards a coworker who was about to give a dip to the customer at the same time told me that the dip I gave to the customer was on the floor before. After that I completly froze and went into complete panic mode since for me that's like a complete nightmare scenario. I still can't stop thinking about it, whether those customers are now infected with some horrible germs from the floor and I feel terrible. Especially since I didn't even tell the customers afterwards that it had been on the floor, I could have possibly stopped them and gave them a new dip if I hurried, instead I just froze and did nothing. Which is not an excuse and just shows I'm a shit person and a coward. | OCD |
As a kid i was diagnozed with ADHD and i used to get medication for this, then at one point, i think i was 16? my mother (who is hugely against ADHD medication) forced me to stop taking them and ever since that my life has just fell apart, i'm 25 now, turning 26 next year and i literally just can't function as a normal human being, i can't get anything done that i have no extreme interest in and i'm sick of it and it just gets worse the older i get, i can barely even keep my job without going crazy and i keep failing to get my drivers license because i just fail at learning my theory stuff. I really want to see if i can get medication for this again but i literally have no clue about how to do anything.
Sorry for my foor English, it's not my first language.
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In short: Diagnozed as a kid, got medication that later got forced away, now i suck at life and i want to get medication again but i don't know how | ADHD |
I am awful at looking after money and definitely have issues with spur of the moment purchases. This wasn’t much of an issue before but now I’m trying to save for a house deposit and I just can’t get myself to be disciplined with it.
Does anyone have any tricks to get into good habits with money and that help them save? | ADHD |
Can OCD trick your mind into thinking that people can hear and see your intrusive thoughts? | OCD |
My boyfriend and I are long distance. He went through trauma too, and has experienced issues of a similar nature to me.
Last night, we were talking and things took a turn to the intimate. Without being TMI, I asked him to make a choice as to how we'd proceed. He completely shut down, flipped 180 and lost any desire to continue.
From what I know about him (and having known him for over a decade, and having knowledge of his trauma) I believe he experienced a flashback.
As far as I know he doesn't have a formal diagnosis of anything but depression. I have my own diagnosis, I don't want to come across too bossy or like I'm seeing myself in him.
I've urged him to seek the help of the existing specialists he sees. He's very private. He also hates being interrogated and probed. I've been focussing on trying to be trustworthy, and letting him come to me. Sometimes he does open up and I see glimpses of his pain. And it's... so familiar to look at. It breaks my heart to watch and to be able to do so little.
Are there any other resources he can seek out? He's in the vicinity of LA, not to nail his precise location or identity. | ptsd |
Hello.. I’ve had OCD since I was probably around aged 5, my mum had it and she eventually terribly committed s*icide as a result.
I used to have terrible dark and intrusive thoughts but that stopped about 12 years ago. I also still have relatively mild checking ocd (it was terrible a year ago but I went on meds and for some reason seemed to clear the majority of it). I’ve tried all types of therapy and counselling.
When I was 14 I never had any attention and then I lost loads of weight, I went to a party and everyone spoke to me, boys tried to get with me and I thought it was great. From then on, if I go out clubbing, to a party, a date or to have sex I have to wear this same underwear, same make up etc etc. There are about 30 different rituals. I have work specific underwear and make up, gym specific etc. These bras are literally falling apart and I’m so embarrassed to get changed in front of anyone. If I’m about to sleep with someone I will get completely naked so they don’t see my underwear. Sorry if this is TMI.
I was hypnotised last week and it’s definitely helped, I’ve done no rituals all week at work. However, I’m going out tomorrow and feel literally sick. I know what underwear or make up I’m wearing makes no difference to what people think of me but I can’t stop thinking it. I then clearly appear stand off ish and that’s why no one talks to me . I’m starting a new sales job in a month and I really wanted to get the ocd under control so I can feel comfortable and confident etc. This underwear thing has been going on for nearly 10 years and I’m so worried it’s ingrained. Does anyone have any similar experiences? Thank you xx | OCD |
Even though things do get awkward as shit when I talk or try to make eye contact with strangers, I usually feel a little more comfortable when more people are around me, does anyone else feel this way? | aspergers |
like can ocd just make you feel guilty for something so impossibly minuscule that the average person would probably barely even give a shit about? i just wanna know if it can cause irrational feelings like this.
i constantly get intrusive thoughts and feelings that i’m a horrible person or that i don’t deserve love from my gf even though i love her to death and i’ve never cheated on her or done something awful like that, and it just sucks. my ocd makes me fixate on different stuff that it makes me feel guilt for and like i have to “confess” or i’m a bad person. | OCD |
I had a few very bad nightmares last night and it did bring back so many memories.
First of all, let me start by saying that I had a very loving family and did not had any kind of abuse. That said, things started a little bit complicated
Since I was very young, maybe 4 or 5 years old I always felt like a burden for my family l, I never knew why, I just knew that everybody would be better without me.
I was a single child and my parents and grand parents were very attentive, Loving and present. But I always felt like if it would be best of I would simply disappear. I think that around age 5 I had already plan my suicide so many times that it was normal. I wasn't nessearly depressed, I was just feeling meaningless.
I never attempted suicide because I knew the devastating impact that would have on my family. I did made a sort of promise to myself that when my mother die, I would be free to do it. Back then I was assuming that she would die from old age after my grandparents so nobody would notice my death.
Unfortunately when I was 14, she died tragically and I found her body.
At that point I was so confused and traumatized that I did not know what to do. On one side, I already had a plan, and I saw her death as very tragic because I loved her so much, but on the other hand, it was the right opportunity for me to terminate myself.
Immediately after the news of her death had spread to my immediate family. I was overwhelmed by so much attention and love that I was simply unable to process anything that just happens.
I always were able to present myself as someone strong and present for others but in the same time I always internalized all my feelings. So my family never knew what was going on with me.
Even in the récents years, my grand mother had a long and terrible illness for years and I took care of her all that time without ever showing any sign of weakness despite my completely crushed emotions.
I hope I am not too dramatic here, it's the first time I discuss this to anyone. I guess I trust more this community that anyone else !
Now, more than 10 years later, I had a few others tragic stories, I had therapy for an other trauma, it helped a lot with flashbacks and nightmares. But I still feel as useless as ever. I have a good job with flexible hours in which I am very good at, but it not fufilling.
I am not quite sure how to end this story, I guess I'll thanks everybody here for being sooo supportive and present for each other's.
PS: I am in a safe place. Even I I feel like harming myself, I am not going to. | ptsd |
Hi guys, seeking your advice / support. At work people, especially my boss, get really passive aggressive when I make silly mistakes. Today, an external consultant requested my boss’s response on some word documents she sent through. Trying to help, I forwarded my boss the word docs saying ‘I think these are the ones xx means!’ My boss replied ‘the ones I already sent through?’ There have been so many instances like this at work where I feel like trying to help / be proactive gets a negative response, and get made to feel like an idiot. When other people make mistakes, I try to be empathetic because it’s human nature, but I feel like in my job when I make a mistake or word something the wrong way (I work in Marketing) I get a mean response. Am I just taking things too personally, or do other people feel like this too? | ADHD |
This is my first post here and I constantly feel like I don’t have the “right” to claim PTSD, because I put myself into the situations that gave me trauma, but I am diagnosed and go to therapy, meds, etc., and figured I’d seek some advice. Most of my trauma stems from being a shithead kid, which led to getting into trouble with the law; robberies, car theft, dealing= prison. More than I’m comfortable sharing on my main account. Im 21 and I struggle with physical symptoms every single day, the main being what I call hurtful anxiety, that feeling like adrenaline rushing to and leaving your body, like when a cop flashes his lights behind you. It’s debilitating, lasts all day long sometimes, and I’ve come to realize there’s a long road ahead of me. So my question is how do I approach this, if necessary in a professional way? For example, my boss is pretty understanding of my GI issues and anxiety, and today I felt like he deserved to know why I needed a few days off, and I sat there for 30 seconds before saying “I’m having a fucking mental breakdown dude.” He asked what he could do to help, and of course I said it’s something that I’ve got to deal with, but it’s had me thinking all day that, even with women and friends who come into my life, who I feel deserve to know why I behave some ways some times: I have no idea how to say these things and I’m frankly ruining the relationships I have and new ones aren’t even possible. Any help would be appreciated, even to tell me I’m not alone in my physical symptoms!😭 To end on a high note, I’m around 9 months sober from a horrible Xanax addiction🎉. I have to get back to working, looking forward to any replies, if nothing but to let me know I’m not alone. Peace | ptsd |
I asked for advice on relationship communication issues me and my partner (both 30m) face on an autism subreddit. I assumed the problems were solely related to me being on the spectrum, namely that I don't understand his feelings and social cues, but several responses theorised my partner might have ADD or something similar. After some research, that might even be the case, but while of course there's little point in getting hung up on such a tentative self-diagnosis, he seems far more textbook case than I do for ASD. We want to figure out as much as possible before seeking an official diagnosis so as not to be caught off-guard.
One thing puzzles me - can ADD become more severe as one ages, or change in terms of emotions/attention? Note that I am not asking for a diagnosis, I am merely wondering whether the development over time can be as described below if it is ADD-related.
We are kindred spirits in many ways, even some of the more unusual behaviours, but I assumed he was the neurotypical one who did not have any struggles in this regard. In retrospect, the signs were always there, he very clearly experiences something akin to hyperfocus/perseveration and hyperfixations (which are less extreme than my special interests, so I thought they were just average). He is really chaotic and can get incredibly enthusiastic/invested in topics/activities. Thanks to overanalyzing, I am usually the only one who understands him properly when he explains stuff because he starts 5 sentences simultaneously, loops around a few times, inserts a few odd tangents and then gets to a very vague point. The struggle to explain has become much worse over the years.
Now that we live together, it has become clear that neither of us are particularly good at keeping stuff together in terms of finances and housekeeping. He must have managed somehow beforehand though. Also, the emotional aspects have become much more severe. He struggles with social interactions, they drain him emotionally, and lately that makes him somewhat aggressive, when he was just overwhelmed before. At the beginning of our relationship, he worried that he could be "too much" for me, but I feel that while I have always been fine with his intensity, it has become far less. His hyperfocus was far more pronounced when he was younger. His sensory issues have become more obvious.
Can the individual aspects really change that much? | ADHD |
Ever since I was a teenager I’ve had a horrible mental life if that makes sense I would always be getting kicked out of school I’ve been arrested a few times I would get in fights I was never happy when I was younger my parents were worried about me because I showed no empathy to others and I still don’t.
At 14 I was planning to kill my self when I’m 16 and I couldn’t do it I was too afraid it’s pathetic
Im constantly in a state of paranoia always feel like I’m being watched and everyone is out to get me I also have autism, adhd, ocd, odd no medications have worked for me. When I was 16 I was planning to kill my self at 18 if I still didn’t have a job or I was a virgin now At 17 I’ve managed to get a job and I thought it would make me happy but nothing has changed I’m still the same i still think and feel the same way. A lot of this mental Heath stuff I get from my dad I believe and I sometimes wonder if I have kids will I pass this on to them I haven’t been happy for a long time I just feel empty and I’m use to that feeling now I like to think I don’t care if I live or die now but I will find out some other time I guess I have no idea what my future holds I just can’t see it being any good or worth living I feel like a waste of a human my mum called me a compulsive liar once she said I get it from dad the same as being able to manipulate people easily I feel Asif people can read my mind I’m never fucking comfortable or relaxed I often have intrusive thoughts but I’m use to them I feel as if there normal now I don’t want to self diagnose but I feel like I have body dis morphia I show all the symptoms I just don’t know what to do I can still carry on like I’ve been doing for years but it’s pointless i guess lol well if you cared enough to read all that and leave a reply then thanks ig or if truth be told I don’t give a shit and I hope everyone close to you dies because I don’t care everything is pointless in the end | depression |
Exactly as the title says. I constantly think about bad things that could happen to me or my family and then I’ll tell myself “No, stop. Don’t think about it too much or it’ll happen.” Or I’ll be thinking about something else that is scary (particularly at night) and I’ll think “Stop thinking about it or you’ll make it real.” This may just be because I’m also a spiritual person but I’m wondering if anyone else experiences this, spiritual or not. | OCD |
There are tactile sensations, touch sensations I really don't like. I can't make a "prayer hand" without moving my one hand a little bit further down. Fingertips to fingertips make me very uncomfortable. I am now using a computer mouse and I can't put my index finger on the mouse without it being uncomfortable.
I remember I had more of this as a child. I spent a lot of time in bed trying to get my legs juuust right. If they touched to much, I couldn't sleep.
Are there any words to describe this? It mostly doesn't affect my life that much, but it is annoying that I can't use the computer mouse properly. | OCD |
Okay, so little backstory, as a trauma survivor and PTSD sufferer: my mother was young and almost stuck a knife in my head when I was four months old, and her and my father fought each other physically all the time , and I have lived in the foster care system and been dehumanized, abused (sexually, mentally, physically, emotionally, and neglected) ostracized as a small child as a way to manage my behaviour, poorly socialized, locked in rooms by myself both in school and at home, and was consistently doing anything to get attention and escape my home life by being a class clown, but my tantrums got me removed from normal school. I was restrained in the wrong sort of way at group homes - my tiny body was sat on top of by two very large adults whenever they deemed me unsafe to myself or others. I have been screamed at since in diapers, told I’m too much and people were tired of me, and sadly already knew how to tell when I was gonna be discarded and moved at the young age of four or five years old. My behaviour was cold, cruel, merciless and angry, but instead of helping me, I was taken to psychologists and medicated at the age of five. I was terrified of the nightmares, and didn’t want to be ushered into sleep by pills, due to my insomnia. I had been having nightmares from a toddler to about fourteen years old, dreams that were so terrifying that I would stay up the rest of the night to avoid having another. Then as I got older I got more mentally unstable, and my teenage years I was moved abruptly back into a group home, where I suffered horrific abuse from a narcissist who pretty much DESTROYED me and made it almost impossible to live with my own thoughts and be kind to myself. She manipulated me so badly, made me see everything in a deranged way, like telling me boys would never like me because of who I was, or that my biological brother sexually assaulting me in the basement of my moms house during an overnight visit was in some way MY fault, stopping me from taking him to court. She would ground me at 18 years old, mentally abuse me so badly, gaslight me, shout at me to assert dominance in front of other kids, tell the staff to be abusive to me and that they could not console me when I was crying, control MY OWN BANK ACCOUNT and social media (demanding all the passwords) and shout SO MUCH AT ME and laugh mockingly when I would cry. She got her hooks in me when I went insane in 2015, during my Grade Eleven year, which she gaslighted me and had me admitted at least twice to the psych ward and told me I scared my mother when I called her on the phone, and later told everyone I’d faked the whole thing. She also told my mother I didn’t want to talk to her after my brother’s sexual assault and told me my mom wanted nothing to do with me also, causing me to feel hurt and destroyed. I almost didn’t graduate high school. Being dependent on her in that time frame caused her to take control - she had a perfect opportunity. And she made me cry, gave me the silent treatment, and made me beg her and apologize when I’d done nothing but stick up for myself, which she didn’t like. Eventually she was fired, but the damage was done - 3 years of living with traumatized children and a narcissist ruling us all, peeing in buckets in our rooms because we were too afraid to breach the alarms on our doors to go to the toilet for fear she’d get mad.
Now that that’s over, I am out of the system, but I never actually realized how messed up years of moving, being given up on, abused, and lied to about who my parents really were and having the truth hid and skewed from me forever. Now that I have all the answers and an actual REAL diagnosis at last, I am struggling to just get out of bed, and turn my light on, unlock my door and go outside. When I’m out, I’m lifeless, dissociating and I JUST CANNOT STOP dissociating and everyone tells me I need to try and stop but I can’t. I’m so emotionally numb and these disgusting thoughts towards myself prove to actually be heartbreaking and so WRONG when I share them with others. I love myself, and am very confident and happy by nature, so it is hard for even me to understand why I can be so cruel to myself. Besides being emotionally numb, I sleep for like six hours if I close my eyes during the day, don’t care to eat even if I’m starving, and I feel no hope for the future and make impulsive life choices and then hate myself for all of them. I feel as though I’m too much for my friends and that they don’t REALLY love me, despite them constantly telling and proving otherwise. And when I went off my Zoloft for the entirety of June, I had the scariest thoughts, and yes, suicidal thoughts, shakes, and irritability also. Nobody seems to understand why I do what I do, at least those in close proximity to me on a day to day basis. I am in trauma counselling and it’s once a month, and when I check off how many days a month I’ve felt this way at the clinic I now don’t lie - 30 days out of 30 I’m so lifeless and numb, with occasional times where I’m alive or pretending to be. I am very open about my mental health but I assume people think I’m WAY stronger than I am. Honestly, I feel like a walking corpse 99% of the time, and when I don’t - I feel so much that I want to lick myself in my room or a bathroom stall. I don’t know, I hide it so well, I am so present when I’m with my friends and loved ones, but even writing this? I’m dissociating. I don’t know how I’m writing this but it’s cool. I just wanted to share. The system is broken and I’m not the only one, but I got broken too, and none of it was my fault I know this. | ptsd |
Hi guys, I have been finding this subredit so very helpful, but wondered if I could ask a question to the ladies? When it is the time of the month, do you find it hard to control your OCD? I am really struggling at the moment and after 16 weeks of therapy on the NHS I still feel really fragile, and it is like I am going up and down a mountain with emotions each month! Just wondering how everyone else gets through it? Thanks guys! | OCD |
20M Hey guys. I’ve been suffering from false memory ocd for awhile now and it’s been really bothering me.
Basically I was watching one of those to catch a predator videos on YouTube and in this particular video a pedo was caught trying to meet up with a 15 year old girl.
So I’m thinking in my head “why does someone want to be with a 15 year old” when i realized there’s a coworker of mine who I had found out she was 15 after looking her profile picture on Instagram. And then I had this flashback of me looking at her photos and masturbating it to them on a particular day. So I went into my Instagram and I checked my Instagram to see my history and the days I logged in and I didn’t even log into the account nor did I even have a search for her account on the specific day, but I’m having this memory of me masturbating to her picture, so I’m confused, how did I literally just create a false memory, especially since I dont masturbate to pictures online, just porn.
It’s kind of fucked with me because I know it didn’t happen, but my brain is convinced I did do it even though it’s not something I would have done. Is it possible i had an intrusive thought that I mastuebared and I mistook that thought for a memory?
I even have evidence that I didn’t even do it but it’s not enough to convince my brain. I don’t know if it was a dream, false memory but I know I didn’t do it but my mind keeps saying what if what if just self doubting myself.
It’s like me leaving the house thinking I turned the washer on and having a recollection of it only to go back home and find out I didn’t turn it on. But due to the nature of this, you can understand why it’s been bothering me. Need advice, thanks!! | OCD |
so i have these habits that can be really really inconvenient and sometimes really distracting. idk if its ocd but i was talking to a friend and they said it overall sounded like it, but ya know who knows. im also want advice on how to stop some of these habits.
before i mention any of these, i do have slight depression but bad anxiety.
one of them is with my hands. i have to keep my knuckles cracked at all times. if i dont it doesnt ya know.. *feel* right. another is kinda hurtful to myself. i press my fingers into different objects, like just feeling the pressure, and if i dont do it every time i need to it drives me crazy. thing is, it causes bad calouses on the tips of my fingers and they can hurt really bad.
another thing is when im doing dishes. i have a certain way i do them. whether its handwashing or putting things in the dishwasher. i have a specific order and place for every type of dish. and if that order isnt there or a dish is not in its designated place, it drives me crazy. like i need to have the bowls in the middle, plastic on the left and cups on the right. you can only have six pieces of silverware in each little space. and then theres handwashing. big stuff first of course. then plastic. then bowls. then cups. thats normal right? but then theres certain things. my dads coffee cup. it has to be on the right hand front side or i cant stand it. just those kinds of things.
I dont know why exactly i do these things. it just really helps calm a lot of my anxiety. if these things dont happen, im really stressed out and anxious and irritable. i will go out of my way to do it just so i can have some relief.
some other things i do to relieve that kind of stuff- (might sound stupid) i play these childrens dress up games, and i choose the outfit that *feels* right. and what feels right changes a lot. like some days i can only have a shirt or dress if it doesnt have sleeves. if theyre wearing something with sleeves it leaves me really bothered and it doesnt feel right. then other days the dress or skirt has to be a certain amount of puffy. droopy skirt just doesnt feel right.
all of these habits have to be done or i feel really anxious. why it makes me feel better, i have no idea. it just does and it can be really distracting sometimes. but if i dont do it i just have this feeling of dread.
so yeah if you took the time to read this thanks, it means a lot. im not looking for a diagnoses or anything, im just wondering if ocd could be a possibility and if i should talk to someone about it.
and is there anything that could maybe help without having to do some of the more time consuming and destructive behaviors? thank you:) | OCD |
I am new to the forum, and to knowing I'm on the spectrum is pretty new to me as well.
An event occurred at work, and I told a coworker it smelled so bad I could write a poem about it. She laughed and said ya right, so you know what I had to do. Thought you might enjoy it as well.
Work Worries
Oh me, oh me, oh my,
The smell, it burns my eye,
Oh me, oh my, oh no,
It's everywhere I go,
Oh me, oh my, oh me,
Something smells like pee,
Oh me, oh my, oh no,
I hope it isn't me.
Dedicated to the person who went through my line at work the other day.
By Paul T. Lykes, © Copyright 2021 | aspergers |
I don’t want my health to deteriorate further. How can I combat this? | depression |
Sorry in advance, but I need to rant about this.
My son is 18 years old and has Asperger's. The other day we moved him into college. Needless to say, this is a huge change and we Aspies (I'm on the spectrum too) don't handle change well. Moving to college can be tough for NT kids, but for my son he might as well have moved to Mars even though we live about 5 minutes away.
His room is tiny and doesn't have air conditioning. We got him additional fans, but that only helps a little. His roommate and suitemates are great. He's already confided in them about him being autistic after his roommate confided something about himself. My son's Internet speed was slow and he likes watching videos to unwind so we sprung for the faster Internet package. His bed is "bunk style" with the desk underneath which was hard for him to climb so I bought him a step ladder to help with this. We've even offered to do his laundry for him so that will be one less thing he needs to worry about. By the way, this is the greatly condensed version. It's been a "fun" 3 days!
Here's where the rant comes in. I was telling my father about the situation and, while my father is well meaning, he's got no understanding of autism. (He only recently stopped saying my son would "grow out of it.") He keeps insisting that he wants to call my son and talk to him. He wants to tell my son about how he had it so much worse when he was in the army and so my son should be happy about what he has. All I can think is that telling a panicking autistic kid "well, your problems are nothing because I had much worse problems 50+ years ago" isn't going to help. In fact, it'll likely just inflame the situation more.
He also blamed my wife and me for "sheltering" our son as opposed to my sister whose kids belong to Boy Scouts and went on overnight trips. Gee, maybe my kids had no interest in Boy Scouts or camping? Does he really think we should have forced them to do something they hated just so they'd be away from us? (They did have some camps growing up. Just more of a day camp focused on science.)
Am I wrong in being upset about this and not wanting my father to try to talk to my son about what's going on? I'm just picturing my father pouring gas on a fire while telling my son that he has it great and totally dismissing autism being a factor in this. | aspergers |
I have an awful cold, I seriously need to take some sort of cold medicine however I'm unsure what to take since I'm on Adderall and can't get ahold of my doctor. I haven't taken it in the past couple days due to the cold and am unsure whether or not I can take generic cold medicine since I haven't taken Adderall in a couple of days. Anyone know what to do here? | ADHD |
i wanna learn some stuff!
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apologies for the misleading title- | aspergers |
My mother died from cancer back in 2018 when i was 13 yrs old. No one takes me seriously epecially when i say i dont wanna live anymore they tell me to "knock it off." And i just want it to end. Kids at school call me weird and when i see them around their other friends they just make fun of me. It seems like weed and other drugs are the only thing keeping me here the only things i have to live for im seventeen now and i cant really see a future for me. I just want it to be over. | depression |
I'm so close to losing a job and it's all because of adhd. I fuckong hate it. My boss sat me down and asked me how I thought I was going 2 weeks into a new job. I was honest, I said I've made a lot of mistakes I shouldn't have made and get off task a lot but I felt that overall I was improving and would continue to improve. One of my co-workers came to him and said she didn't think it was fair that I was paid the same as her because I'm not as good. Fair enough. He empathetically told her I'm still learning but she wants someone more experienced. He's agreed to give me more time and cut my hours and only has me on the quiet days to give me a chance to improve, which I worry won't happen at all or fast enough.
Some background. I got diagnosed last year by a clinical psychologist but because of it being a psychologist and not a psychiatrist I'm not eligible for medication or help from the government. In my country psychology is free for 10 visits per year. Psychiatry is not. You can get one free visit but adhd is an exclusionary condition. I need this job in order to afford a psychiatrist but without the psychiatrist I won't be able to keep this job and I feel stuck. I have almost nothing in my life. I gave into drinking when I was younger because it helped settle me down and made me care less about my intense emotions. After losing everything good in my life. I went to rehab. Well I'm still in rehab but I've only got a few weeks left. I want to stay sober and have a good life but I feel like so long as I have my adhd untreated I never will.
There's a lot I love about my adhd. People are often drawn to me because I'm bubbly and bright. I always have interesting things to say and being emotive helps my connection to people. I love that I'm creative and caring. But I fucking hate how useless I am sometimes. Never achieving anything despite being smart. Always fucking up work or study with silly mistakes I'm smart enough not to make, yet I do because of my adhd. | ADHD |
People are just not interested to talk to me. I’m a nice guy, but people don’t go out of their way to talk to me, even the nice ones don’t wanna talk. I’m just doing something wrong, I think I’m being too open and talking too much. Idc if “that’s who I am” fuck “who I am” I’d rather change myself for others than stay the same and wait for someone to be interested in me. | ADHD |
In the morning it's like I keep drifting back into these thoughts because I can't keep my eyes open I'm so drained it's like my defence vs things I disagree with is gone it's like I'm asleep but not I dnno half asleep maybe drifting off and think of bizarre scenarios which involves things that make me feel bad and even when I wake up fully and am 100 percent aware I then feel so guilty sometimes even questioning if I these things were reality. | OCD |
What does autistic burn out look like?
I have been diagnosed with IH - remarkable sleep latency test results. I am on stimulant meds to keep me awake during the day.
I saw a psychiatrist who said that he does not see any psychiatric issues however has referred me to a neurologist for suspected Asperger's / other neurological condition.
Triggers for me are visual clutter, noise - especially while I'm trying to focus on something OR if someone tries to have a conversation. Background noise makes me feel like I am being assaulted.
I do not get a break from these two things - visual clutter and noise with two kids in lockdown. One likely to also be ASD. + Other life events which hav been very stressful even for typical people.
I won't bother going into the rest of my obvious symptoms because they aren't relevant to my question:
Burnout - can it make you sleep 12+ hrs a day and still fall asleep if given the opportunity to do so/ have a longing to go have a sleep? Waking up unrefreshed and groggy?! Can it look like chronic fatigue?
Before this conversation with a psychiatrist I had told my husband I honestly believe that the noise and visual clutter triggers my IH (which is much similar to Narcolepsy).
What can I do to help myself? What are the therapies recommended? Hearing aids to reduce echo/ background noise? | aspergers |
been going through this shit (depression, anxiety, never ending existential crises, purposelessness & being an introvert) for like the space of just under 4 years (i’m 21 in a couple of months), and whilst it gets bad (and is still seemingly getting worse) the thing that has always pushed me away from attempting to end it all was a) the fear of failing and b) the fact that the thought of nothing coming after life terrified me. but the feelings i’m going through at this moment will just throw all those things out of the window. i don’t want to improve or live a ‘happy’ life, i just want to die. | depression |
Third time unsuccessfully buying Boba tea.
The idea sounds so easy on paper; go in, get a number, wait your turn.
But in real life... how do you get the number? There are multiple lines. And people go in and out in weird unregulated ways.
I could ask, but...Idk. I don't want to look stupid. I envy my friends who always know exactly which person in the room they need to ask. | aspergers |
It must be because I am absolutely terrified and disgusted by gore or anything DEAD (I can’t even go to a funeral without feeling sick), my mind makes me watch gore over and over again, as if repetead exposure won’t make it so shocking or scary anymore… one time when it was so bad I had to watch this guy get dexapitated 50 times AT WORK until I felt like I could finally move on with my day.. I didn’t eat for days nor sleep because I was so disturbed, yet it was some sort of a “ritual” I had to do (watch gore) until I finally felt I could have my peace.. my therapist said it was some sort of self-punishment.
So then I blocked internet on my phone and computer and was fine — until I realized there’s a gore subreddit here on REDDIT!! And now I keep deleting this app and re-installing when I need help with things like this… why does Reddit allow gore subreddits?? Their moderators are fucked up. It’s disgusting and revolting and it’s flaring up my ocd again, and I’m so upset! | OCD |
Basically I feel awful because of this. I have heard a lot of other Christians say that if a company, show, etc. shows support for LGBTQ+ or features gay people that you should avoid it and it’s “complying with evil”. Now I feel awful and my OCD won’t stop bothering me bc of this. The thing is I love gay people and don’t have a problem with them - I have worked with gay people, am friends with them, and they are in my family, so why would I avoid ads and shows with them in it?? Wouldn’t that be similar to avoiding my family? Is avoiding gay people not the same as showing hatred towards them? I’m so frustrated and scared that I’m homophobic because of my OCD telling me I have to follow what they said. I don’t want to avoid anyone.
I have also had similar things happen with people of different religions. Once again, I love people of different religions and don’t have a problem with them, but each time I hang out with one my OCD says “they don’t know God, why are you talking to them?” And it’s really awful. I am constantly being attacked by the words of other Christians to the point that I can’t hear what God is saying about anything. And I’m afraid that God actually wants me to think like that. Idk if anyone else on here is religious but even if u aren’t I need help. | OCD |
I don't have aspergers but one of my coworkers does. I work in a department store and his job is maintenance so every once in a while he will come clean some things around where I work. He loves talking and I'm a great listener so naturally our conversations last awhile. The only problem is he has trouble ending the conversations and letting me do my job. I'm not very good at multitasking, working and talking at the same time so it's really one or the other. (He doesn't seem to be doing his job either) I would like to tell him that I need to work and can't if he's talking so much but I don't want to be rude. I know some of the managers don't like him very much so I may be one of the only people that will listen to his conversations. I would gladly listen to him all day but in the end it is still work and I need to do my job. Any advice? | aspergers |
i’ve been on Lexapro (10mg) for two weeks and i know it’s early but i’m having more intense obsessions and compulsions that i haven’t had in a very long time. is this temporary and normal at all? should i give it more time or switch meds now? | OCD |
I have severe obsessions and mild compulsions but I wouldn't describe myself as anxious. I'm usually a really calm person, even while doing the compulsions. Only some of my obsessions create anxiety, most I've learned to live with. I get thoughts where everything needs to be ordered so I have to repeatedly go over the same thing in my head over and over to try and find the perfect way to think about it, but it's become so routine that I don't feel anxious about not having control anymore. I just let the obsession keep going until it stops.
It comes and goes all day, everyday, so I'm used to being completely hindered by obsessions that rule my life now and have disabled me completely. I'm not anxious but I'm still mad as hell. | OCD |
This may be dumb but I'm like really triggered by periods and bleeding. And rn I have abnormal spotting and something about having pelvic pain and seeing blood in that area just really brings up bad memories and my brain feels stuck on edge and idk I kinda wanna like not exist anymore. Does anyone relate? I'm not gunna do anything to hurt myself but I just feel really fucking crappy today. I'm not even supposed to take my birth control ring out until the 24th. And I had pelvic pain last night then I woke up to spotting and it looked so much like my panties did when I was being abused down there. Now I have felt like triggered all day.
And like having to touch myself there is super uncomfortable rn like I don't like doing that. It's been hard to wash myself down there or like idk why this became a problem I didn't used to be like this
And I'm slowly coming down on my antipsychotic dose but the depression and brain fog is so bad I haven't been able to function. My sleep is all messed up. I'm feeling very bad. But I have to come off of the antipsychotics because they were starting to cause bad side effects that I couldn't tolerate. I've been on them for a couple years maybe longer. I'm not even all the way off them and my brain is protesting functioning for the time being. So I didn't even feed myself or do any self care for a while. I made myself get in the bathtub and I didn't do anything while I was in there except sit. I made myself take my hair out of a bun and brush through it. I am trying today but I just wanna cry. I don't have anyone I can ask for help and I'm just miserable. Someone just hug me. I need a "mom" hug. But not from my mom. She's not the one. Anyways. I'm done whining. | ptsd |
I was on 5mg and had this issue my specialist said when I go up to 10mg I should notice I’m more awake or more energy.
This is my second week on 10mg 2x daily and I still get super sleepy like 30-40 minutes after taking it.
Im wondering if this is the appropriate medication nor if I just need to get the dosage right before having improvements.
Also this is generic methylphenidate not brand name ritalin.
Anyone else experience sleepy/tired heavy eyes on ritalin? | ADHD |
How do y’all manage to meet new people? I feel like my social skills were bunk before becoming a parent and now I feel like it’s so hard to meet people in the same situation who is also neurodivergent. Now with the whole covid thing it’s darn hopeless!! | aspergers |
I've been thinking about this lately. I have considered myself an introvert for many years. I need time alone, and I'm usually quiet. Lately I have wondered how much of that is me masking and staying silent so as to not have the weird things I would say scrutinized and my reputation of being wierd established. I apparently can also not shut up and annoy people who I feel comfortable around. However, it takes about a day for me to become lonely and feel totally cut off from humanity and start to despair. I feel like I have the bad parts of extroversion and also the bad parts of introversion. I get too lonely by myself and too stimulated if I expose myself to socialization, leading me to need time alone, which leads to being lonely and again, ad infinitum. The only workable solution to this I have found is to stay with my parents until I can't stand it and then go to my apartment until I can't stand to be alone. I use quite a bit of gasoline keeping this up, and it's really annoying to have to do just to stay sane. Anyone else have this? | aspergers |
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