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I have autism I don't know Wich I was diagnosed with because I was diagnosed very young and to be honest. I never asked because I really never cared. I'm 18 now and would like to learn more about it. Don't really know if there is anything different are not. I mean no offense just asking. | aspergers |
I was diagnosed in December of 2019 with ASD, ADHD, and social anxiety disorder. I applied for medical accommodation to work from home. It took a month of constant emailing to speak with management, but when I mentioned the EEOC I was working from home the next Monday.
Since then management has made it clear that they "accommodated" me and that I was allowed to work from home; treating it like they did so out of the kindness of their hearts and not due to legal liability. I went on Short term disability due to emotional duress and stress for 6 months. Shortly after returning I suffered an ulnar strain which cause me to lose function in my right arm. I went on short term disability for 2 months while rehab got me working again. During these absences training was conducted that I missed and when I requested I receive this training I was ignored. Although never explicitly stated it was clear that they viewed me as a liability.
Has anyone experienced a similar situation or have gone through the EEOC process? | aspergers |
I saw [this post](https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/rj707b/my_best_adhd_tip_when_you_get_your_prescription/) regarding refilling ADHD medication prescriptions, and it inspired me to post my own tip. That tip won't personally work for me, but mine works just fine.
For whatever reason (not sure if it's state law, pharmacy policy, or insurance policy), but I can only refill my prescription 3 to 5 days before the end of my current supply (I also get 90 days at a time, not that it matters). Because of problems I've had with going out of town, prior authorization issues, and general pharmacy hours, I've come up with my own system.
I don't take my medication every day. There are periodic days where I don't take it, such as holidays, vacations, or any other day where there is no benefit for me to take it. (Honestly, I prefer being unmedicated when on vacation.) So any day I choose not to take my medication, I move a pill to my "safety stash". If there's ever a day that arises that I want to take 2 doses, the second dose come out of my safety stash. I've probably got about 2 weeks worth in my safety stash now. It makes it much easier for me knowing that I don't get in a bind if a prior authorization or anything else prevents me from filling my prescription when I should be able to. | ADHD |
Lived with my ex last year. Relief. Barely texted my alcoholic parent, escaped my toxic house.
We broke up so I’m back home .i almost want to start dating so I can move in with someone and gtfo out my house.
Rent is so much cheaper when you’re sharing a one bedroom apartment, right now I have no hope of moving out alone | depression |
I’m 17 and I’ve never been to one before. I won’t be allowed to see my parents and I’ll be forced to go to groups, which is terrifying for me because of my anxiety.
Im leaving in 6 hours. I’m gonna be gone from 2 weeks to a month.
The reviews aren’t good but my parents don’t seem to care.
Can anyone give me advice? What’s it like at these places? I’m scared…
Update: I got beat up and so my parents came and got me. | depression |
I always look at license plates to see if potential perpetrators are giving me an "answer" as to how well I'm walking the line in my life to avoid either being murdered, harassed, or framed for a crime or imprisoned.
I saw a license plate that had "eft" as thr last symbols. In the past it would make me think the perpetrators are telling me "you are eft" as in "fucked". That I did something to invoke their wrath.
Today I saw thr plate and I didn't have a mini panic attack. This was after a productive talk with myself after a marijuana guided meditation and self reflection session.
Being in a state where weed was just legalized has made my mental health so much better in this regard. I feel like the law is on my side now and I don't have to be afraid for my safety for taking my medicine. At least by the government. It still sucks employers may still discriminate. This is still an intrusive thought I have that makes me panic a bit.
It's a good breakthrough in my battle. | ptsd |
I don't know how to function normally. I have so many issues and they are being worked on but I'm not seeing the point.
I have such a hard time outside of my room. I barely leave. I don't work and I'm not is school. I have ZERO friends or social life. I've never been in a relationship and feel like a complete loser.
Nothing seems to make me happy. Everything feels forced and its not fun. I'm 23 and feel so lost and trapped. I don't know what to do anymore.
I feel like I don't belong here. I'm so unmotivated and lazy to actually do anything. I don't care for money so work seems pointless. I'm just so broken. | depression |
I have a really hard time connecting with people and I haven´t been able to get a friend. After years of trying, failing, and finally burning out completely, I finally have a friend, even though imaginary. For me, the best thing about my friend is that he doesn´t laugh when I mess up, listens to my thoughts and dreams, doesn´t tell me I´m boring, never hurts me, is always there for me, and accepts me the way I am. It´s a very good coping mechanism for loneliness (at least for me) and I feel much happier now :) I was wondering if anyone else can relate? | aspergers |
I had flashbacks, I remembered the punishments all of my dark memories came flooding back making my body feel like a thousand live wires were coursing thru it. I'm still shaking. What triggered it. The person whose cell phone acct I was under didn't or wouldn't inform me of when she would be shutting it off. I asked her to give me a heads up so I could have time to get a replacement. I had to do my research since I have no one to help me, and it's difficult when no one is around to help. Cell service got restricted ( incoming calls only thats all) So I had to turn to Amazon & order an affordable phone. The trauma of me hustling to make phone calls nearly drove me over the rails. | ptsd |
So, the last year has been quite hard for me.
I had a breakdown a year ago, probably burnout combined with mental health issues (mainly PTSD and bipolar + I was in an abusive living situation) which still makes me exhausted and depressed. Despite that I managed to get my dream job and moved to a different country. But because of covid I have been spending a lot of time alone and where I am now mental health care is not free, so I haven't been getting any help (dream job is not paid very well). I have been up and down mentally, but getting out of my former living situation has been good, but generally I haven't been great.
I was struggling with a worsening alcohol problem, but managed to cut down to an average of one veer a week for the last 7 months. But with that urge for control of alcohol consumption, I also became more controlling of my eating (I have always had disordered eating, but it's gotten a lot worse). I am not a full-on anorexic as in most days I eat a bit less than what I should so I've lost a lot of weight and I am q bit underweight but it's not a massive problem physically (yet). But psychologically it's awful, if I eat too much I can't sleep and I will lie awake all night anxious and hating myself.
Now I am invited by a friend and her friends to spend a weekend away (which I really need) at this house. I don't know what to do re food and it's freaking me out. There will be alcohol but I think I can manage that at this point, but the food pet is stressing me out. Eating with others has not been a real problem until now, because I can just eat that one meal that day, but now I'll have to spend three whole days with other people's eating habits. What do I do?
In addition to that, I haven't seen these people (except from my friend) for half a year, as the previous time I saw them I fell asleep at a party and woke up to their flatmate trying to rape me. He was kicked out, so he's out of the picture so I'm in no danger. But I already had PTSD and then that happened so my mental health is not top re this atm (in addition to me not knowing my friend's friends that we'll, so that is a stress factor too).
How do I deal with this situation? It was very sweet of my friend to ask me to join because I need a break because I'm exhausted and because of covid I've been stick the same place for almost a year and I have isolated myself and that is not good. But how do I deal with this situation and have a nice mini-vacation?
Sorry for the long text. | ptsd |
Just wanna be held. I dont really care who gives it to me, as long as it genuine, yk not a oh ur sad heres a hug. But like a “I genuinely care about u and want u to feel better” kinda hug but nobody even know that i go through things and that i dont feel ok. I dont talk nobody not about this. Nobody really cares how u feel if ur a man tbh. | depression |
I did a math test a week ago and I was shocked because of my low grade. But it’s not my first time something like this happens. I try to study hard and to focus on it but I feel like I am getting distracted every time. I thought to myself:”man, I should look up tips for how to focus well”.So I enter youtube and the first video I see is “5 signs that you are not lazy and you have adhd”. I was curious so I watched it and..
I have some signs. Short attention span, poor impulse control, and leaving things unfinished. So I dont know how to tell my parents about this. They are extremely supportive but they told me:”You have tons of potential and we see it but you just need to stop being lazy and everything will be fine”. So how am I supposed to tell them about it?
Sorry for the long text and you may not read it but maybe someone will help! | ADHD |
I just needed some place to get it out of my chest. I honestly feel devasted after seeing the text message informing that I failed and didn't meet their minimum requirements for the job. It's so frustrating after seeing my classmates get accepted in the same job. They believe in me that I could easily get the job because I'm the smartest in the class, but looks like it's not necessarily true.
I lost my faith in my ability and I don't know what to do now. I feel that if I stay in my bed all day, it would only make it worse. | depression |
When you take your meds (especially if you take IR rather than XR), do you try to already be sitting down in front of the task you need to do and already working on it so you’re in the moment when it kicks in? OR, do you wait for your meds to kick in before you even start because you need the meds to give you the desire to sit down at the task in the first place?
Basically what I’m asking is, what’s your personal best practice for getting the most out of your meds, and your habits around taking them? (Still trying to figure out my best groove even though I’ve been on them a long time.) Thanks! | ADHD |
Hi all,
Recently diagnosed for ADHD-C and I've currently been taking Concerta 18mg which seems to be doing an okay job (First two times were enlightening). I talked to my doctor this morning and asked to switch over to Vyvanse so I can try it out. I was prescribed Vyvanse 20mg, but I won't be able to take it until Saturday due to personal reasons. I know Vyvanse 20mg seems like a low dose for an adult male, but if I don't feel any effects on Saturday, I'll probably try to do 20mg + half of another pill, or just do 2 pills of 20mg for 40mg of Vyvanse.
I was reading some posts on here about how some people felt euphoric on Vyvanse, and was wondering if others felt the same (as opposed to Concerta). Whenever I take Concerta it actually brings me down quite a bit and if anything I feel calmer/relaxed and I can focus on things a lot better because most of my hyperactive symptoms are gone.
What's your experience with Concerta & Vyvanse? Did you notice a difference between the two? | ADHD |
I am on my third SSRI. Took Prozac first worked great years. Stopped working. Tried Luvox next and worked for around 8 years. Stopped working about 3 weeks ago. Started Zoloft 5 days ago. Praying it works. Anybody else tried 3 different meds that worked for intrusive thoughts? | OCD |
I've had OCD my entire life (magic thinking, being sure that if I didn't do or think certain things I would die), I've never known life without it and remember being 6 and 8 years old staying up till 5am just doing mental compolusions. Now I'm a month away from being 20 and I think I may have simply grown out of it. It's still there but it's manageable and I often forget I even have OCD. It flared up a lot over lockdown last year but in general it's so much better. My psychiatrist, who I've only been to a handful of times told me this is semi-common in those who have had OCD throughout childhood, to simply grow out of it partially as your brain changes. I'm hoping by the time I'm 25 and my brain is fully developed it will be completely gone.
Just a bit of hope for those younger ones in here :) | OCD |
I [22M, undiagnosed but heavily questioning] have often found myself in situations where there is something that I clearly know I do not want to do. Stuff like sweeping, cooking, etc.
Recently, I have found myself in situations where I know clearly, "This is something I want". I know I want a hair cut, and I know i want to learn more about this hobby. I just can't. I feel like I have to force myself to even think about it, and it sucks, because I feel like these are rewarding things for me.
I know exactly what hairstyle i want, which barbershop im going to, and when. I have been avoiding (?) it for a month. Buying new glasses ? Even longer. I can't help it, it feels like.
I know it's not the sitting in the chair part that's the problem, I actually enjoy that part as I can kinda just trance out. It's getting TO the chair :|
I'm considering therapy/adult diagnosis, but I want to check with my /r/ADHD homies here and see if any of this is relatable.
If it is.. leave some stories below if you feel comfortable. | ADHD |
Leaving a funeral isn’t the place the place for inspiration for life, or not for many people. I say my good byes to a person who I loved and loved hearing stories about, the best thing is that I want to be like her. The wake is a celebration of life but not a place to find your spark of life and again not for everyone. Knowing that I have a purpose here in this universe and having to know what that is; it’s a daunting task. Hearing stories for my elders, I listen with all ears and heart open to understand life at its hardest and it’s easiest. Knowing what family I have and to look forward to the predictable/unpredictable future family. Never been this happy in my life, knowing that my family is well, knowing that I can loved, knowing that I make a difference to peoples lives and just knowing I’ll be missed as when I pass. I tell all of the readers to think about every close family or friend that has passed away and see there life as a lesson for the tough situations and the memories of the good times. I see so much hope in death because even though it’s sad, it brings life in other ways or reunion of families. Miss me but let me go, is a poem that puts it’s perfectly. Miss me but let go of the ones you love is a lesson that’s probably the hardest to learn but it will be the best thing you learn as you get older. Look to the past for advice, never undermined the older generation as technology advances; they still have human answers for us who are learning. Listen, learn and move on. | depression |
I went today!
After almost two years since my trauma!
Oh how nice it is to hear, “you’re taking the right steps.” | ptsd |
I started ERP a couple months ago, and my mom seems frustrated that I don’t tell her about what occurs in session, even though she’s paying for my treatment. After a day of ruminating about obsessions Im usually pretty tired and the last thing I want to do is share details about it. I’m a generally reserved person so that might be it, and I also may be overestimating how much she knows about ERP. How much do you guys share about your ocd/therapy? Any answer is fine, I’m just curious. | OCD |
I’m trying to read up on adhd being underdiagnosed/ presenting different in girls but i’m hitting a wall. All i can find are WebMD-eque sources that don’t really cite any reliable sources i’m looking for actual studies and research. Really anything pertaining to girls and adhd (it doesn’t have to be about them being under diagnosed and such). just anything to look into. any help? thanks! | ADHD |
I was recently diagnosed with ADHD and it explains so much! I've always felt like everyone else had their life together and if I tried just a little bit harder I would to (without much avail to be honest). But lately I just feel like with ADHD it always feels like I'm making the wrong decision. I'm not getting up early enough, I'm impulse spending too much, I'm not focusing on what I should. I saw a meme on Instagram this week that said ADHD is feeling constantly overwhelmed and man oh man is that true. Almost like I'm running on a treadmill and the speed is turned up just a little too fast so I'm never able to catch my breath.
Not sure what the point of this post is other to say it's great to know I'm not the only one who is experiencing this, I'm glad there's a community of people who can relate. Still learning about ADHD and how to live with it but it feels like a good first step to find my way here!
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tl;dr feel constantly overwhelmed | ADHD |
This is a wee bit of a humor post based off of [this fun interaction I had](https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q7al3f/not_adhd_because_i_was_able_to_complete_all_the/hghuk9v/?utm_source=share&utm_medium=ios_app&utm_name=iossmf&context=3), so shoutout to u/welp_hear_i_am1 for being awesome and setting this up for me.
But, so this isn’t just a wasted meme post, I do still want to emphasize the point that u/camesawandfaltered made in [this comment](https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/q7al3f/not_adhd_because_i_was_able_to_complete_all_the/hghd99l/?utm_source=share&utm_medium=ios_app&utm_name=iossmf&context=3). I’m sure there are plenty of us who come into this subreddit, or watch videos on ADHD, and are either diagnosed, in the process of getting diagnosed, or just strongly suspect you have ADHD, but doubt it because you don’t seem “ADHD enough” to actually have it.
Your life isn’t a mess.
You haven’t been fired from an uncomfortable number of jobs.
You haven’t ruined valuable relationships.
You haven’t struggled in school.
The list goes on, but the point is that you feel like your life just doesn’t measure up to how “bad” ADHD looks when it’s talked about online, or elsewhere.
And I just want to say that, first, ADHD, like every other mental health issue or disorder, falls on a spectrum. Some people may have way worse ADHD than you, and of course people will notice it and talk about it more than less severe forms of ADHD.
Second, regardless whether you have ADHD or not, or how severe it is, seeking professional will be your first step in finding a proper solution to the issues you face. You cannot solve a problem you don’t know you have.
Finally, whatever struggle you do end up having, it is valid. We often see others online callously turning painful issues and controversial topics into a competition of suffering, and it’s easy enough to recognize when it happens outside of us. However, we often do this to ourselves in a variety of ways, for a variety of reasons, often without realizing it.
Your struggles are valid, no matter how big or small, and you don’t need to compete with others, or even yourself, to feel like you deserve to be heard or considered. This subreddit is a place for everybody to learn, regardless of whether they have ADHD or not. If you have ADHD, there are resources in the sidebar that can help, and experiences here to affirm each other with. If you don’t have ADHD, you’re still welcome to stay, learn, and take what you learn here to help other people in your life.
I’ll finish by sharing last two verses of a song I learned in choir, based on an African proverb:
> We all, everyone, **must** share the burden
> We all, everyone, **will** share the joy | ADHD |
Does anyone else seem to do this almost 24/7? How do you handle it? My daydreams usually involve me telling people how they’ve hurt me or fantasies of someone apologizing and I know where it comes from and I understand why it’s happening but I can’t seem to stop it. What does anyone think all day if they’re not actively day dreaming about something? How can I move my thoughts away from escapism to living in reality? I’ve noticed a lot of dysphoria coming from this behavior and it causes a lot of problems in my life because of it. Nothing wrong with daydreaming but mine are never cool like winning the bake off or being a super hero it’s like “imagine how much trauma you would have if you lost your vision” or “think of your ex apologizing and then think about them betraying you again because you got too trusting” like I want happy day dreams. I hope this doesn’t break any rules I read the sidebar like six times. | OCD |
Everyone is talking like everyone have to live up and downs but personally I haven’t experienced a lot of ups. At this point I’m waiting for a miracle. I hope that one day something will wake me up and I will have the will for life.
Today my bf broke up with me after 5 years. He would always describe me as a shark, someone who’s hungry of life. I don’t feel that anymore, I’m not hungry. I’m so ducking done. I don’t get where people are getting the energy from to wake up every day early in the morning. I don’t get how I could do this. It seems impossible now. Nothing motivates me. At least until now I had our relationship I wanted to build things together but now it’s gone and I really don’t have anything anymore. No money, no love, no friends, no passion or motivation and soon I will lost my place where I live. This year I’ve lost everything. I’ve lost myself too. I feel like a complete failure and I want to kill myself so badly. Tomorrow i have a job interview but I don’t want to work. I will not handle it, I’m scared and I don’t want to see anyone. I want to be dead so badly. I don’t even know what to do with myself. I need help but I know I will never get it. | depression |
I’ve been seeing a therapist for three years now and more recently I’ve realized CBT hasn’t been working for me. I’ve tried to make it work but I always end up feeling confused, distressed, and more suicidal. It just feels a lot like gaslighting to me. What can I do next? | depression |
So I talked to a guy and he was really sweet and I have struggled with anxiety and I think my anxiety scared him away.
So I have been blocked by him for 3 years now on Whatsapp but not on Snapchat. He has not blocked me on Snapchat, but today I realised he blocked me on Snapchat for 2 weeks ago and that made feel upset. For some reason he still does not want to talk to me.
What kind of advice would you give me to move on? | OCD |
i don't often sleep until very late.
people don't understand why. but it's because nights are really hard. It'll get to the point where I'm afraid of my own tiny cat.
I'm lucky that I work as a software engineer and I live two timezones away from work. It doesn't seem to matter when I wake up so long as I get my work done (which I'm most productive at night anyway) | ptsd |
Basically the title.
I find it very hard to talk to people nowadays, and basically started living in my own head. Since I live alone it can be days between me having to talk. I am becoming averse to talking and using my tounge seems increasingly hard. I dont want to anymore.
All the social skills I trained myself seem to be lost again.
I am wondering if others experience the same or, if NTs experience this too and to what extend? | aspergers |
Been working on this big work project for months, arguably part of the reason my therapist recently diagnosed me with depression.
Stopped believing in it long ago, and I feel so down. Had a big milestone for it today, and everyone is saying we did so great, but all I feel is nothing.
I thought I'd get at least relief, but even that seems so far away.
This sucks. I hate this. | depression |
In 3 hours its a lawyers meeting, I will have my lawyer with me but I have to answer the questions. Its a custody battle, and my sons father is going to put himself as the victim.
I am scared shitless | ptsd |
Has anybody tried brain stimulation? Such as, rTMS, ECT etc? I know that some depressed people use this, but I'm always interested in whether the results are different with autism + depression. | aspergers |
Just woke up from the first trauma nightmares i've had in months screaming, sweating, and swearing - not looking forward to work tomorrow where I'll doubtless be exhausted. Pretty sure this is the result of pushing myself to show up to protests for the rights of houseless people which has been kind of triggering as my c-ptsd is related to my own houselessness, among other things. I cant help feeling like i need to explain to work why im going to do a terrible job tomorrow, im falling behind as it is nd i cant possibly take a sick day. Anyone else have a recurrence of symptoms practically overnight due to a trigger? | ptsd |
I have always had trouble getting to sleep if I take a nap of any length at any time of the day. And with my long, laborious warehouse work days lately, it's happening more and more. What do you guys do when you can't sleep but need to? I take melatonin every night rega because I wouldn't sleep on any kind of schedule. | ADHD |
I recently discovered RSD TYLER has aspergers(high profile dating coach). It gave me hope in a sense. If an average looking guy guy with high functioning autism is successful dating why can’t I be? Are there any guys here who had success dating? i.e. multiple GF’s, Casual hookups etc? | aspergers |
I posted this in r/selfimprovement and the people there thought it might be ocd. So I'm wondering if anyone here thinks so too.
The post:
so I've been worrying a lot recently and have just come to the realization that I've basically spent all my life worrying.
all my life I have always wanted things to be permanent. things fading away into nothingness scared me so much. for instance I would always buy a fountain pen instead of a normal ballpoint pen because the former seemed more permanent to me as you can refill it when the ink runs low( this is from when I was in 5th grade ).
my thought process goes something like this:
I like this thing -------> what if I can't do it forever or something stops me from doing it -------> research about it google to find information that makes me feel better -------> nothing helps me -------> I give up.
for instance, about 6 or 7 months ago for some reason, I really got into music but then I started thinking "what if I can't listen to this song anymore?" which lead me to search for ways of hoarding music but in the end, I realized that no one device can hold information reliably for a long period of time so I stopped listening to music for about 2 months.
after that, I got a really bad case of health anxiety which tortured me for 3 months.
if I finally get rid of one problem another one pops up in its place.
the problem now is somehow I've convinced myself that I have dyslexia despite there being no evidence. this started when I had a little problem understanding a difficult sentence which lead me to question if I really understand what I read and it's been going downhill ever since. even if I find a sentence a little hard now my anxiety shoots through the roof. I am confident that for the last 2 months I've spent at least 70% of my waking hours worrying about the meaning of a sentence.
also, I don't know if it's related but when I had to introduce myself (just my name and reason why I took that course) in an online class, my anxiety went through the roof and my palms became sweaty and I've had this all my life.
I just don't want to worry anymore. life is too short to worry this much and I wanna get better.
if you read through all that I thank you and would really appreciate any advice that you might have for me. | OCD |
The sad thing is, I'm not sure how unreasonable this even is. From what I understand, intelligence is about 50% heritable. I recall a similar situation for other traits associated with success.
How do you deal with this? | aspergers |
Only two people in my entire life, who are not paid professionals, have ever expressed any empathy for anything I've gone through. My family didn't, almost all of my friends didn't. Actually a lot of them rejected me, stigmatized me, even made fun of me. My family doesn't even talk to me anymore.
Can anyone relate? How have you coped with the lasting social fallout when people turn their backs on you for suffering PTSD after surviving a life threatening circumstance. | ptsd |
I'm looking for phone friend who understands. Hopefully a female because its easier to talk deeply and emotionaly with members of opposite gender. Society or something. | OCD |
I sometimes tell people I have Asperger's syndrome. I sometimes tell people I'm autistic. Sometimes I say I am on the autistic spectrum. Sometimes I say I have autistic spectrum condition (ASC). It depends upon on the company, the context and how much I trust then and how educated they are in autism.
How do I self-identity? I see myself as autistic.
I see Aspergers as a term that helps explain my condition to people that might assume that autism makes a person non-verbal or very seriously disabled. I'm not certain that it's a separate condition.
I'm willing to listen to people who think otherwise. I like a good discussion.
What do you think? | aspergers |
Ill tell you after what it is about.
Edit Problem solved im giving up an SI a video game i played every day for a full year. Genshin impact it was fun but i need brain space so i can start focusing on actual productive things like volunteer | aspergers |
So I have this thing I do with my hand where I pop and move my knuckles. Ive been told it's terretes but aren't terrets involuntary? I do this willingly and if I don't do this it feels weird in a bad way where I gotta do it. I do it most of the time, but especially when stressed or overstimulated. | aspergers |
I have a problem with feet. Feet are strange and I feel repulsed. For example, even if I actually like the person to whom the feet belong. I've had this since I was a kid and I think it's part of my OCD. Does anyone feel the same with body parts? | OCD |
does anyone else experience ocd with making lists, organizing or planning out days/ weeks?
I feel like it can land on both ends of the spectrum in terms of positively staying organized and responsible but i’m beginning to feel like maybe it does more harm than good because even if i do plan and organize my days or weeks with responsibilities for school, work, socializing i end up going down a spiral of shame or frustration with myself when it doesn’t necessarily go the way i planned or envisioned… Also any tips or advice with how to regulate this better would be really appreciated!
Thanks. | OCD |
the thring that triggered my mdd was the ending of an anime, overtime after completing multiple animes, my depression got worse, ive always tried finding what this feeling was, i started drinking hard liquor for a while after I finishing a romance anime, some might thinj this is bullshit but im just fucking tired, i had some alcohol just now so im more open, how does this trigger my thing why, i always hear fucking voices, i need to find answers please i want to end it all everyday is just despair and boredom | depression |
I remember when I was 8 watching my mom talk to a friend and hoping it would be like that for me one day. I saw how smooth and effortless Her conversation was
The thing is it’s not like I don’t know how to talk to people and when I’m confident I’m not awkward at all. But I find every little thing awkward. I find saying goodbye when leaving a friends house awkward especially if it’s one on one and not a group. I just am so sensitive to every reaction from someone and feel like I always want high ernergy interesting conversations other wise I don’t feel good enough | ADHD |
Has anyone ever felt like this? Did moving help your mindset about ebeertrhing, something insane happend to me literally right up the street. Ik it sounds like running away from my problems, has anyone had any experiences doing this? | ptsd |
I’m 22f with a 23M partner with ADHD. I’m a new nurse, soon to be switching to night shifts, my guy is a mechanic. We have an older dog and a puppy.
I feel like I’m drowning. About a month ago my SO was in a very serious accident in which he was had to be airlifted to get medical treatment. He’s okay now but the event was traumatic for me and he seems to have totally moved past it. In his recovery, I got way behind in housework and started a new job.
Basically, too many things happened at once for me and I’ve been overwhelmed. Housework was already mostly my responsibility, but now I’ve added in a new job and I was caring for him while he needed help.
He’s mostly recovered at this point and has gone back to work on light duty. He goes out some evenings with his friends and stays out late. I feel like I always am stuck at home taking care of the dogs or doing house chores, and if he has free time at home most of it is spent scrolling Facebook or watching YouTube videos. I’ve brought this up and he never says anything, he just won’t look me in the face and says he’s sorry. He promises to help, but if I ask him to do specific things, mostly he forgets or he does them poorly. He’s never had to really do house chores in his life.
To me, it feels like he’s more invested in having fun than helping me at home. It’s exhausting to have to constantly ask for help, list out obvious things that need to be done and explain how to do them. I suggested we make a list of chores for both of us, but he got irritated. It feels like every time I bring this up and try to talk about it, it becomes a “sorry I’m the worst,” discussion. I just don’t know how to improve this situation, but it has got to change, like yesterday. I feel unsupported. | ADHD |
When I try to or have to learn something new, I always am afraid that it won't be useful.
We are now learning research in software engineering mayor because school wants us to do that in the internships. However, I don't think my job after school will involve that. Every college just has this at the final years in my country, even if the job does not involve that.
It was the same with a lot of high school subjects. I know that you will get some out of it, after talking to someone here: a better developed brain, even if you don't remember most of the stuff.
However, I still am so afraid that there were some useless lessons that didn't contribute to my brains development and my knowledge and I will get some of useless lessons in the future. I already had some lessons that stated the obvious or things that I already knew or deductions that I could easily make myself.
The reason that I'm afraid is that we only have one life and I should be doing what I like and useful things to be able to live. All the other things is time I lose and won't ever get back. I'm highly anxious of losing time of my life.
I am not in control of curriculums unfortunately, so I can't do anything about it. I can't ask "hey, I already know this, can I skip this subject?". I also can't say "this is obvious, let's skip this". I also can't say "this won't benefit me, let's skip it". I'm totally powerless and it often eats me up. Then I have to face that when it's eating me up, I'm also wasting time of my life. | aspergers |
So, I am on both Adderall and Effexor, and I stagger when I take them, just so I’m not overloading myself on meds at once. Tonight, like, twenty minutes ago, I realized I had forgotten to take my Effexor because I had instead, decided to nap.
Now, my bedroom is pitch black, so I used my phone to locate my pill planner, and then turned it off, which is where my first critical error was made, because I opened the wrong side of it, and dumped my Adderall into my hand. The feeling of multiple pills in my hand wasn’t a strange one though, as my Effexor dosage is at 220mg, which means that to make that dosage, I have to take three pills.
You see where this is going.
I only realized my mistake after the first pill, because I went to grab the second one (yes, I take my pills one at a time) and I realized that I still had three pills in my hand. Which wouldn’t have been the case had that actually been my Effexor.
The only positives I think in this situation is that it’s been about 15 hours since my last dose of Adderall, so the first one definitely is no longer in my system, and secondly, I’m only on a 30mg dosage of Adderall, so even if there was anything left of the first dose, it won’t push me over the legal limit of it.
In the morning, I will be skipping taking Adderall when I get up to make up for my foolishness tonight and then get back to usual grind on Monday. As for now, going to go find food and then pass out, because Adderall makes me sleepy, because of course it does. | ADHD |
I saw a comment on here somewhere mentioning Edward M. Hallowell and John J. Ratey’s *Driven To Distraction* and I looked into it and ordered it for like $12 on Amazon. I brought it with me on a road trip down to florida to see my grandparents for thanksgiving and I’ve been reading this book nonstop. I’d be damned if I could pay attention to a book for more than a chapter but I just GET everything in this book. It all makes sense. I’m just glued to the pages. If you’re reading this, look into the book. I’m only 40 pages in and I’ve already felt a difference. It’s helped me discern what’s specifically wrong with me and how to cope with it. It’s amazing and very well written. This sounds like an ad for the book lol but I just really like it. That’s all. | ADHD |
My aunt told me something about my other aunt at an outdoor party in the middle of downtown by a busy road. When I turned to her, she was crying and told me not to tell anyone. No problem, because I didn’t hear anything she said. I can’t help but feel bad though…at the same time since she didn’t want me to tell anyone, maybe she just wanted to get it off her chest? I will never know. | ADHD |
All my thoughts are just coming at me, I'm doing compulsions, I've had a ton of sleep yet I'm just so physically and mentally tired and I feel there's no other way out than the obvious, I want to stay with my girlfriend, my rocd just becomes overwhelming and I'd rather die than risk the chance of any of the bad thoughts happening. | OCD |
I keep waking up with severe severe anxiety and it’s causing me to only sleep about three hours a night. It’s making even moodier. My heart feels like it’s beating out of my chest. My stomach is a knot. It’s drastically effecting my school, job, relationships (family and friends)…..
it’s also manifesting in my compulsions but like, ten times worse. It used to be I just had to count all the tiles on the ceiling when I entered in a room; now I’m counting windowpanes, grooves in walls, lines in banisters——anything that can obviously be counted and it isn’t just once or when I enter the room. I don’t know how to make the panic stop or go away.
Any advice or support would be appreciated. I feel really alone and even though I know it’s really not that unique of a symptom, I can’t fix it.
Also, anyone have any experience with sleeping medication? I tried Trazodone a while ago and it gave me really bad nightmares.
Thanks for the help. | OCD |
Kind of ironic how long the self harm and suicide hotline take to answer. Lmao | depression |
I was bullied in elementary school I never told my teachers they caught me crying and I just told Them it didn't matter while pouring my eyes out the asked once are two times then give up but my class was small like twenty kids every one of them were bullying me even the one I had a crush on I whould always cry when she said something to me more than the other Gus's because I like her are something don't know for sure just a guess | aspergers |
My whole childhood was filled with a lot of trauma, so in a way I was kind of used to it. But I used to be a really creative person. I used to play percussion and really loved painting. I used to be able to paint for like 10 hours straight. I would experience so much flow while painting and it was amazing. I never needed inspiration or anything. I could just create things without thought. It used to be such a good way for me to vent my emotions. It used to help me with all the traumas i had experienced up until college.
Then right when i got into college i entered into an abusive relationship. All kinds of abuse (physical, mental, and sexual). This was 10 years ago now. It really messed me up and I got ptsd and social anxiety from it all. I havent been able to paint or be able to get into any other creative hobbies since that relationship though. I feel like the creative side of myself just died with that relationship. I want so badly to enjoy it the way i used to, but I have no idea how or if its possible. It honestly makes me really sad to think about. This was so important to me before that relationship.
Anyone else experience this? Any advice? | ptsd |
I have this obsessive feeling of my head being dirty, allergenic, and mucus with everything just not flowing right.
And to cope I will use some steroid allergy spray and it normally makes me feel a lot better.
But it is allergies (winter allergies??) or could it be anxiety and agitation that I’m associating with the medication?
Yesterday I may have used it yesterday 4-6 times in each nostril which is 2-3x the daily dosage.
Could I have a weak immune system that needs the steroidal boost? Is it OCD? | OCD |
I’m not sure if this is allowed but I’m asking here because someone else may have gone through it before. I have an appointment to talk medication again but my psychiatrist is booked out for a month and I need meds. I haven’t taken any medication for a while and I’m wanting to get back on it (I only took it for a couple months) and I have a lot of Strattera left but it’s 60 mg. And I know they usually start you on a lower dose for the first week or so. But does anyone know if that’s different for someone who has taken it before? | ADHD |
Just making conversation.
When telling someone about your thoughts and OCD for the first time or even starting therapy for the first time. What was your biggest fear going into it? Or possibly the best thing or advice you’ve gained or lost from either. | OCD |
Hi,
I know this is an insensitive question, so by all means move it to a separate message board, but I wanted someone’s confirmation: I’m neurotypical, right? ,
I’m a 17 year old girl, a sophomore in college (I know how that sounds, and although I was able to skip two grades because I was ‘smart’ I will stress time and time again the inequities associated with gifted programs in the US, and although I think I deserve my position today, I also think I was very lucky to have (wealthy, white, politically connected) parents who advocated for me, and plenty of kids far more gifted than me never skipped grades).
So... I’m 17, I’m soon to be a junior at college. I’m exceptionally close with my parents and family, I have at least a few dozen close friends, I enjoy social events in theory, and I go to a very competitive school and am doing well professionally and academically. I moved out two weeks after my fifteenth birthday to attend university, and I’ve lived in an apartment in a major city for nearly two years now fully independent. At 16 I backpacked across Europe, alone, and at 13 my parents let me fly to China for a summer. I am an exceptionally normal person.
(Continued in comment) | aspergers |
Did any of you experience this too? I felt like in public it made it feel way more like everyone was staring, and it caused more dissocistion issues | ptsd |
Does anyone struggle to sleep in the same room as someone who is snoring? Even with earplugs? Even if they are a room away and with earplugs? I am a light sleeper and I will lay awake and toss and turn in frustration. The sound just completely gets to me. Anyone else? Do noise cancelling headphones solve this? Are they easy to sleep wearing? | aspergers |
Hi all,
You might remember [my struggles getting medication.](https://www.reddit.com/r/ADHD/comments/rbyv2r/some_guy_keeps_posting_misinformation_about_adhd/hnrzhj8/?utm_source=share&utm_medium=ios_app&utm_name=iossmf&context=3) Well, today I started vyvanse and… I cleaned my room and did laundry and didn’t feel like I needed to take a nap after every task, I know that this is a common experience with people on this sub but it wasn’t until I experienced it that I got it, especially after jumping through so many hoops to get to this point. I don’t even have any bad symptoms except some try mouth a bit of pins and needles on my hands (hope that’s temporary). I’d like to thank this sub for motivating me to see a psychiatrist and get help, here’s to properly managing adhd fam ✌️ | ADHD |
I get aggressive by every little thing that happens. Just about 15 mins ago I had a spider on my wall and wanted my mom to bring the vacuum cleaner but she told me to get it myself. I was getting it and the spider disappeared and is crawling around somewhere now. I instantly got aggressive started crying, screaming, cussing out of nowhere and like 5 Minutes after this shit I cry asking myself why I am like that. I just dont wanna be like this. I feel so fuckin mean. | depression |
I was feeling great for the first time in over a year this evening, but literally one stupid ass intrusive thought ruined all of that :( | OCD |
I just got diagnosed with PTSD which was pretty surprising to me because I’ve blocked out a lot of those feelings until I started therapy (diagnosed previously with anxiety, depression and panic disorder). My therapist is great but I find myself just talking about random things and skipping around the subject with her. I don’t know how to tell her that I don’t know what to talk about with her because most days I feel fine until I don’t. I want to heal but I just don’t know how to initiate this in therapy.
Thank you! | ptsd |
I was abused by my dad from ages 5-17. He was cruel.
I'm now in my late 20's and I still feel like I'm unable to do things that normal people my age can do. My fiancée can get frustrated because I don't remember how to do things she's taken the time to show me multiple times, or I forget things she's constantly asked me to do.
I feel like I always have to rush through things or I'll fall behind. Or that if I take too long I'll get mocked or yelled at for not being done fast enough.
And when we argue, I can't express being upset or sad without breaking down into tears, which makes me feel like I'm unable to control emotions.
My self esteem is in the toilet most days. I don't know the right decisions in some scenarios and I'm scared of getting it wrong to look stupid or get yelled at, even though I know no one is there to yell at me anymore.
I'm not looking like an adult to those around me because of these problems. I want to be proud of myself and have others be proud of me, but it's not working.
I need to know I'm not alone in these issues | ptsd |
I remember as young as 5 years old, I HATED farts. Anytime someone was in my room, I always obsessed over if they farted or not. And pushing them out of my room, only satisfied the anxiety. And if I heard someone fart elsewhere, I would always bug them to say excuse me and then I would feel relief after they said it. | OCD |
Has anyone been to multiple therapists who claim to treat OCD, but can never help? I have been to many therapists for the past 10 years and it wasn’t until 2 years ago that I found someone who understood. I feel that even with doctors there is a misconception about what OCD is and how to treat it. I’ve had many therapists tell me to ignore compulsions. That is their only advice. I was at such a low point and felt crazy and that no one understood. Fortunately, 2 years ago I went half way across the country to Rogers Behavioral Health, where they have therapists that specialize in OCD. That program was amazing and changed my life. Unfortunately, it’s been two years since that experience and I have yet to find therapists who ACTUALLY treat OCD and know what it is. Is there anyone else that feels this frustration with doctors and therapists? | OCD |
I've been struggling to depression for far to long, I've become someone I don't recognize anymore.
I've had suicidal thoughts before, been having them for almost a year now, but this time it's just too strong to contradict. I've been abandoned by the people I love the most and cheated on and I just can't handle the pain anymore.
How does one survive this? I feel like my entire reality is shattered and I don't even know who I am anymore and I feel like I don't matter to anyone...
I've been trying for so long but I feel so lost for this past few days, I feel like I got no direction to go, I'm spending most of day curled up crying...
I feel like like a giant weight on my family because I'm always unhappy.. It's all just feels too much to continue..
I've got no hope left... I just wanted to get this all over...
I think I should just end it | depression |
I'm in a weird headspace at the moment. I moved to another city to start University in September, and from the get go I told myself to be social for at least a few weeks or months so that I could make friends and not end up lonely. But recently I realized I don't.. know how to socialize? It's bad enough that I'm either waay too talkative or a mute, I also can't remember anyone's names let alone recognize them under a mask. This has been a problem since high school, where I literally had to stalk my friends on Facebook to learn their names..
The more I miss events, the less likely I'm to go to the next one. I tried going out with a group once, and they indulged me, but I literally felt like a fifth wheel. More recently, I asked someone if they'd want to walk our dogs together sometime and they straight up said "I'm busy right now, maybe next year". Makes me hesitate to reach out again.
This is the first time since I got my diagnosis that I've actually had to try and fit in (maybe I was oblivious before). I'm finally unapologetically myself and not ashamed of it, yet.. I feel like being me is not good enough. I can't help but feel like people don't like me for me. | ADHD |
1. Do not run away from what comes to your mind, calmly answer it in a logical way. If you don't know, consult someone else. If he gets stuck after that, don't mind, because you have answered, it will go away over time.
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2. Do not ponder and investigate. Nothing in the world is this complicated. You can answer in a simple way. Do not research on the internet.
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3. Do not compare yourself with people who live other ocd on the internet because every person is unique. Everyone's experiences, intelligence, economic level, social support etc. not the same.
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4. If you have any addiction, get rid of it. Internet addiction, pornography addiction, smoking, alcohol, medication ... Get rid of all addictions.
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5. Exercise, read books. | OCD |
Mental illness is the only disorder that is considered weak or less of a human. In fact it is more acceptable to be an alcoholic or drug addict. Why is there a place to go to recover from drugs or alcohol and a 12 step program but nothing set up for mental illness. Yes if you completely snap there are mental hospitals but they are not designed to recover and regain your life back.
Mental illness isn’t a weakness it’s most likely a chemical imbalance and not a choice. | depression |
I can't sleep at all unless I stay up until I physically can't anymore. Any time I try to go to sleep before I'm on the verge of passing out my brain gets stuck on a loop with flashbacks and I end up panicking. I've also been having PTSD related nightmares lately, which really don't help.
Does anyone have any, like... general suggestions or tips on how I might be able to deal with this? I'm really sick of staying up well past sunrise. | ptsd |
Every once in a few months I sign up for a few in a burst of great enthusiasm but I've never ever been able to stick to a single course past one or two sessions. Considering that these courses depend on the student having both consistency and self-discipline, both of which I lack, I find myself extremely frustrated.
These courses involve subjects I really want to learn, but as usual with ADHD intention is a long way away from actual action. :((((
(Additional note: Pomodoro and giving myself rewards don't work. I can't stick to these boundaries/incentives because I eventually decide I don't have to.) | ADHD |
I’ve done a lot of work on trying to recover over the past year and have improved greatly but as we all know ocd doesn’t just go away. I know if I had a physical illness I wouldn’t be so hard on myself about it and I try to remind myself that this isn’t any different. I also will remind myself that I have friends and people who I look up to who have struggled with similar things and I would not judge them the same way that I judge myself.
However, I sometimes I feel like I’m worth less of a person or not as good of a person because of my mental illnesses. I don’t want to be a burden to other people or put my issues on others in my life and I’m really scared that it’ll cause problems in my relationships eventually. Does anyone have any advice for how to move past this? | OCD |
I don’t know if this is common or not, but I can’t stand dark humor “jokes” especially one’s close to my trauma (I.E. sexual, misogynistic, my looks.) Especially after I have expressed multiple times to that person that I don’t “joke” about that type of stuff and then I get hit with the “You’re so serious all the time, you can never take a joke…” This comes from my family whom caused majority of my trauma beginning from a young age and from exes who turned abusive physically and mentally.
My bf means well and tries to make me laugh, but it’s getting old having to explain to him over and over that I don’t joke like that, and to communicate by giving me eye contact. I just feel like he’s turning into my ex and I think that’s why I’m starting not to like him anymore. My ex used to “joke” like that before and mansplain to get a rise out of me, so when my bf does it I’m not sure if he’s doing the same thing or by accident. I try to communicate with him and even change the way I communicate so that we can be on the same page, but when I try to open up and be honest with him. I’m 23 and he’s a year older than me, I get even more exhausted from feeling like I’m taking care of a grown child, from doing groceries properly, dishes, laundry, tidying up the house or even how to talk to people without cursing so much after the first appearance(his mother and step father were very much positive helpful in his upbringing, I’ve already met them and see they can clean up after themselves).I try to set boundaries for us to talk about what’s bothering us and how we’ll improve and build together. I even expressed to him to let me know if things in his life are getting overwhelming and I’ll help clean with no judgment Bc it begins to be too much and to find easier short cuts. I’m contemplating if I want out or not or when to have the big discussion, Bc he starting to talk about sex too much for me it makes me disgusted, and if I have to keep telling him after he continues to do it o don’t think I can be with someone like that long term. I loathe all of my abusers for what they did to me and wish it all never happened so I could enjoy humor. | ptsd |
So I’ve been on this medication for a few years and wanted to know if anyone has experienced a lower sex drive or having problems with sex while taking this medication.
Like overall I feel like my drive is less and when it comes time to have sex I’m not nearly lasting as long as I use to or as hard. Wanted to know if this medication or something else. | ADHD |
Anyone else struggle with drinking water? The more I learn about ADHD, the more I find a lot of my weird quirks are my brain being wired weird.
I hate how it taste. I’ve tried flavored water, all the sparkling things. Nothing works. I gravitate towards soda and Monster, which is know is bad for me. I’ve tried reminders, the flashing thing on the water bottles, apps, reward system for myself, every type of bottle. I just hate how it taste and forget to drink it.
Any tips or anything that might help? | ADHD |
It bothers me so much, especially on TikTok and other social media that people don’t understand OCD at all. They joke about it being about cleanliness and think if anyone has a messy room they can not have OCD. I wish people were more educated. At the end of the day I know I shouldn’t let it bother me, but this disease is hell. | OCD |
Im scared. I know i need help but i have no one everyone left after i got shot. I tried reaching out and no one wants to help me i cant keep this up on my own. Im tearing myself apart i cant think i barely eat. I dont sleep. I work and go home thats it. I cant be happy anymore. I i tried counciling didnt help in any way. Im a shadow of what i once was i cant remember things i cant focus. Im no linger the man i was. I cant keep it up anymore. Bullet should of killed me | ptsd |
I’m an engineer, with a degree and everything! Had a couple of jobs before this one where the engineering was more rigorous, but currently I find myself doing a LOT more client work/emails and random spreadsheet analysis. Not a fan. ADHD brain means I click a lot of wrong cells and mess up formulas by accident unless I hyper focus to the max. I’ve been wanting to get back into into the engineering work and told my manager this. Had a career plan and everything.
Come performance reviews and I hear that I’ve been doing great on the analysis and client work. Yay! I love talking to people and figuring things out so I get great feedback on leadership too. But. Apparently the engineering work, which I’ve been having to fit between the tons of analytical work, is not great. Small mistakes, not accounting for other contingencies, the fact there’s no time to set up testing or monitoring meaning things can be broken for a week without anyone knowing. Maintenance work has piped up and even my quick fixes sometimes have typos.
It’s all apparently so bad in fact, that my manager says me maybe I should focus full time on the client work.
Me, a female engineer. Focus on the face time and spreadsheets.
I feel a bit broken. | ADHD |
it is basically this song that goes “i’m so lucky” over and over, and apparently you’re supposed to save the sound or make a draft using it and manifest positive things, and then they will happen, but now people are saying you can’t skip it or bad things will happen. now, MY paranoid self was not gonna take any chances, so i made a draft basically listing all the things i was stressed about and wanted to go well. now, one of those things seems in danger of not happening and now i’m worried i “jinxed” it by making the draft but i don’t know what to do. what if everything else i’m worried about goes wrong because i did this? will deleting it undo the damage? should i leave it?
i know its irrational but i’ve been having a flare up of anxiety and this is just not helping me. | OCD |
Hey, just looking to see how other people went with masters level study?
I've done my batchelors degree and found that fine, but could never study or really listen to lectures, so I passed just by going with awnsers that "made sense", however this was pre diagnosis.
We are now a few years down the line and work wants me to continue and go into masters level, which I would like to do, but I'm concerned with this step up, I won't be able to just bluff my way through it like I did with the bachelors. I will actually have to do the additionals that I got away without last time.
I have a wife and 3 kids under 6, while working full-time in a management role, so I don't really have much spare time that could be utilised as study anyway.
How have others gone in finding ways to get this done? | ADHD |
Hi all! Hoping to get some feedback on video therapy. My PTSD has been not so great during quarantine and adding a breakup on top of it I really need to talk to someone and help myself. If you feel like sharing What websites you use for it... if you found it beneficial,..any other input would also be appreciated. Thank you!! | ptsd |
Because if it was *rational* it wouldn't be a *disorder* | OCD |
I’ve [27] always been really shy and embarrassed about my ADHD because of how many problems it has caused in my past relationships. Most people just think I’m ‘weird’. I decided to open up about all of this to my new girlfriend[26]. She didn’t know what ADHD was when I told her. I explained it the best I could and how it relates to how I act, and sent her a couple videos.
This was the response I got when I woke up in the morning:
‘I brought up my past because I want you and need you to understand. Please do the same because I want to understand you too babe.
And I will do research, watch and read all about it.
But I want you to know that to me, you are an amazing and brilliant human being. And I will never let you forget that.
You are incredibly smart, great and dark sense of humor like me.
Do what makes you happy and fuck what others think. You are important.
Thank you for explaining and sending those videos to me. It helps me understand you even better. So please keep them coming as I’ll do the same.
I love your ADHD. Better not put pressure on yourself.
Everyone has their flaws but that is what makes us unique.
I’m far from perfect and I don’t intend to be perfect either, fuck that. We only have one fucking life to live.
Let me know if you are having hard time because I’m there for you.
I don’t have ADHD but I will do my best to understand you and be there for you.
So stop apologising you silly donut.’
I’m so happy. I’ve never met someone like this. Shout out to all the people who love someone with ADHD, it’s not always easy but we have so much love to give.
Edit: Shout out to my ADHD friends as well, this has showed me there is always someone out there for you who will love and want to understand you. I was hopeless, really. Be yourself, someone will love you for it.
Edit 2: Wow, thanks to everyone for the kind and compassionate responses wishing us the best, I’ve been lurking here for years and this community has inspired me so much with stories but I didn’t really post, it’s so nice to be part of a community that can understand and support each other and share success and problems together. Thank you all.
For those asking there are the videos I sent her:
https://youtu.be/Rfcdx3qm77M
https://youtu.be/jhcn1_qsYmg
https://youtu.be/JiwZQNYlGQI | ADHD |
Do you guys ever think sometimes if you been in an job for 4+ years. Is it really worth staying just because you been there so long and they know how much help you are. There are times like today that I feel like this job of my is just not fucking worth it | aspergers |
(F22) so tonight I downloaded bumble dating to try getting with a girl. I’m straight and in the past I’ve been curious so I’ve made out with girls. Right now I’m going through a bad breakup with my ex boyfriend. I have a sister who’s 20 who I don’t talk to bc she’s a basket case. And I’m not close to my mom anymore. So I was going through bumble dating to find girls to hang with tonight, and when this attractive girl came up with the name that’s also my sister’s middle name I was like I know I shouldn’t swipe bc that would mean it has something to do with my sister and that’s disgusting but the girl was attractive and I was like it’s fine I’m gonna swipe right bc she is attractive to me and it doesn’t mean anything weird. But it’s giving me so much anxiety now. | OCD |
Hi guys! I wasn’t going to share this because it made me feel crazy, but my friend noted that it could be good for making my community feel like they’re not alone. In this vid, I opened up about ALL of my ticks. This isn’t some thing I’ve done before, but I hope it helps some of y’all relate!! Love you guys. Keep pushin!
[my OCD](https://youtu.be/sYPmSMMwbJs) | OCD |
Today I had my first piano lesson and I couldn't even count the beats because the teacher was watching in my brain it was pure emptiness. When I manage to count, I would loose count constantly.
Same happens if I speak to a person, I would often forget what I was saying in the middle of a sentence and there is a void in my mind. I don't finish my sentences often. I also had presentations for my work where in the middle I went completely blank. I felt almost dissociated.
Is it common? How do you deal with it? It makes me feel like an idiot a lot, which adds to anxiety, and the more anxiety the higher a chance my mind will go into void state. | aspergers |
Hello. I need some advice about some things I've been struggling with and I thought that this was the best place to go.
Little background info: I'm 18, I have anxiety and I'm currently in the screening process for ADHD.
Over the last few days I've felt like utter shit. I started out just feeling a little miffed throughout the day at college on Monday, on Tuesday it got worse and yesterday I was temporarily kicked from college after having a meltdown and telling a member of staff that I couldn't go to my lesson over fears that I'd use something to hurt myself.
I haven't had a breakdown like that in a while, but a few months ago I did, and about two years ago I went through 4 or 5 months of being depressed but I never spoke to my parents or my doctor about it, only people from my old school.
My breakdowns happen every 3 months or so, I go through a phase of recalling all my childhood trauma and letting it influence everything I do in the present, and no matter what I do it looms over me like a dark cloud for a week or two.
I've realized that without the support of an adult at college I get super depressed super easily. I told college I was doing a little bit better and they basically dropped all support for me. The same thing happened those two years ago at my old school when the woman that I spoke to went on maternity leave and I was left with no one to really turn to. I emailed her a few times but then she got in trouble for it becuase we didn't know you weren't supposed to. When she let me know that we couldn't email anymore I had a major breakdown there and then and was depressed for days because she was the only person supporting me.
Currently I'm at home, off college and hopefully my doctor will give me a letter to give to my college tommorow to say that I'm fit to go back, as long as I have support.
I don't know what this is but it seems to affect me quite a bit.
Any advice on what this is/what its caused by?
TLDR: I get really bad breakdowns every 3 months or so and can't cope without an adult (who isn't my parents) to talk to.
EDIT: forgot to mention that with every episode I have the thoughts of wanting to hurt myself get worse, and that becuase my symptoms aren't like my friends (who are diagnosed with depression) that it's nothing to worry about | depression |
It's looking more and more like I won't have health insurance starting in January. I have been on an anti-psychotic for the past five years, and it's helped tremendously with my psychotic depression. I will not be able to afford it without health insurance and I'm terrified. I don't want to go back to that unmedicated place. I'm convinced I won't survive this next year, and it's so sad because right now, while I'm medicated, I do not want to die. I want to live. But once I'm on my own, I know things will change fast, and I'm so scared I'll end things. The worst part is that I have been reaching out for help for the past week, and everyone just keeps ignoring me. I was literally quietly sobbing in a movie theater on a date with my boyfriend, and everyone else in the room was oblivious to my suffering, just absorbed in the movie. That's when I realized I'm totally on my own. I can rely on myself now for strength but, in a few months time, I don't even think I'll be in reality anymore. I feel so guilty because it will destroy my family. I'm sorry. | depression |
So I was supposed to see my doctor (not adhd related) in September but because of uni I had to cancel my appointment. The doc told me I should call her back whenever I could to reschedule but it’s been almost 3 months now and I still haven’t called her…💀
I’ve been suffering every single day because I really need to see her, but I just can’t bring myself to call her even though calling her would probably take me 2 minutes.
And while writing this I just remembered I should’ve bought new meds (not adhd) like 2 weeks ago. Oh and I should probably quit this course I’m taking.
I need help lol. HOW do people manage to get things done?? | ADHD |
Long story short, 3rd grade experienced a traumatic event, 4th grade began repeatedly showering and washing hands, 5,6,7th grade washing hands 15+ times a day handsanatizer 15+ times a day, MUST shower after going outside and interacting with anything , huge problems with sweating that would lead to anxiety that would lead to more sweating.
Can’t do basic social stuff if I’m nervous because I’m sweating and getting anxiety which leads to more sweating, leads to huge problems in school cuz I often can’t raise my hand. Can’t do 90% of usual stuff at home due to fear of germs.
Mom has ocd dad had tics
Psychologist said that they would call back tomorrow, it’s been a week now but I am to afraid to call back because of my fear that I don’t have ocd and that I am just very cleanly. | OCD |
/tw for self harm, suicidality and SA/
I've been hurting myself for more than ten years. I don't cut, and it's not obvious, but it's left permanent physical damage and I've never gone more than a week or two without doing it. It wasn't so bad at the beginning, but then I went to college and was groomed and abused and sexually assaulted, and I wanted very badly to die and was diagnosed with PTSD, and it's been two years since that and I've been hit with the realization that I can't stop.
I can't stop.
I can barely imagine a future where I'm alive and I certainly can't imagine a future where I don't hurt myself at every opportunity. It's compulsive and intensely focused and, to be honest, really painful. And I have no idea how to stop. And that makes me feel like a real fuckup, and that just makes me want to hurt myself more. Maybe I'm in too deep. Maybe if you've been doing it for a decade before you're even all the way out of school, you don't stand a chance of ending it. I don't know. I hear people talk about "taking care of yourself" and I have no idea what that even means for somebody like me.
I told a friend about my self harm for the first time in my life yesterday. It feels real now. It feels bad. It feels like I'm doing something wrong. I feel trapped by it and I never used to. But I can't stop. | ptsd |
33yo male on the spectrum. I was at the store a few weeks and on a whim, I bought a scented candle. Never done that before. While I did enjoy the scent, what I really liked was the visual affect (effect?) that it had on my living room once it was dark.
So I bought a bunch of electric remote controlled candles (way cheaper than yankee candle) and placed them around my house. They provide just enough light in my bedroom in the morning for me to not trip over my cat while also not blinding me.
So what makes your personal space a place of peace? | aspergers |
I’m new to taking medication, I started with a 5MG dose, and it did nothing. My doctor told me to take two. However I don’t feel like it’s doing anything still at 10mg the day I take it.
However the next day… I feel slightly better like it’s kinda kicking it without even taking it that day yet. It’s very strange.
Anybody notice this? | ADHD |
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