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I was able to leave my coffee unattended. I was able to go to the bathroom and leave my coffee with one of my friends.
This was the first time in nearly three years, I finally was at a point to trust a person I am close with to overlook my drink in a public setting. Since I got roofied which lead to me being raped, I wasn't able to turn my head away from my drink for just a second.
I started crying right after the first sip I had when I came back. Coffee never tasted this good.
And I wanted to share my joy. | ptsd |
My therapist is on a vacation, so I decided to vent here.
Couple years ago I made friends with a neighbour. It was great and weird as I have severe trust issues. But we have a lot in common. Sense humor, even similar mental health issues. We just clicked.
About two weeks ago we clashed. I accidentally triggered her, and she yelled me like never before. I dissociated and handled situation almost perfectly. And that has become a huge problem.
My friend now feels comfortable to share all her issues with me. She is so happy that she doesn't have to be ashamed of herself and feels so loved, understood and accepted. For her everything is great.
But now I cannot breath easily around her anymore. I have to be the stronger one all the time. We are not equals anymore. It feels like she uses me as her therapist. I feel so guilty that I want to have some distance from her. She feels like one more person to just using me.
I feel that this will end badly. If I just tolerate this, It will mess up my head. But if I say something, she will blame herself and probably disappear for months again. I feel like I should be stronger so she wouldn't feel so burdening. When I eventually collapse, she will get hurt too. It is clear that there is pain in the future.
Once this is over, i'm staying on much more superficial level with people. I can't handle this. I don't want to hurt or be hurt.
Edit. I'm just going to add here instead of replying to everyone of you personally (sorry). First of all: thanks. Being heard means so much to me. And secondly: I'm going to just tolerate situation until I get to talk with my therapist. My friend is a good person who really deserves good things in her life. I'm not going to tell her story as it's not mine to tell. But I'll tell just one thing. Years ago her mom was in serious denial about her daughters issues and managed to convince doctors that her (then teenaged) daughter is only seeking attention and lying. After many years that statement is still marked to my friends records and my friend doesn't trust doctors anymore as they don't listen or believe her. And she having me now. It feels good to be able to help someone. And not being enough is crushing. But this too will pass. | ptsd |
I literally cannot have a normal conversation without the constant worry of saying something wrong and making someone kill themselves. It is one of my biggest fears that I'll say something to someone when they are having a bad day and pushing them over the edge. After talking to someone I always analyze everything I say looking for any single thing that could've been harmful to them. It is SO annoying. Does anybody else have this problem or am I hopefully the only one because this is horrible. | OCD |
A couple of hours ago, I read that the former director of my old uni, who raped and abused colleagues and students for literally decades and was sentenced to 3 years in prison for it, was sighted and photographed strolling around a high-end shopping promenade today, having the time of his life.
This man was extremely well-known and powerful in this field I’m in and had been sued many times throughout the years, without anything happening to him, ever. Two years ago, one of his colleagues, whom he had raped violently and threatened repeatedly, married a journalist of a very famous newspaper and her husband wrote an article about it. Only then did he actually have to go to court, and he was then found guilty for the things he did to this woman at least.
It was all over the news and women in my field felt like it was such a huge thing, that there *is* hope for taking action against all those men in this business, who sexually abuse the shit out of us and then blackmail us into silence. His prosecution made us feel like justice would eventually prevail and that your money and connections and “donations” won’t get you out of everything after all.
Well, that was all an illusion and pure stupidity. Turns out that this man didn’t step a foot in jail and that it was all a publicity thing to just silence the masses. He didn’t serve his sentence, and once again, it proves to us all, that the rich and powerful get away with *every single thing*.
My abuser belongs to those people, he is a very famous and filthy rich director, who has ties to everyone. After abusing me he would blackmail me, have people call me, he would sent me emails threatening me and telling me he’d destroy my career and my life if I told *anyone* ever, and that I shouldn’t have to be reminded that there is no use in speaking up about this.
Today it was such a hit in the face again, this disgusting industry I’m in, this horrible system, these monsters, that get away with everything.
This has triggered me so badly and has thrown me back to the horror I’d feel from his calls and messages, this terrifying feeling of being violated and assaulted and on top of that going through excruciating blackmailing.
There is no justice, I finally understood that today. It’s not like I’ve ever really felt safe after what happened to me, but what I heard today just...it just gave me the rest. And it makes me understand, that hoping for justice won’t help me, that the world is just unfair, and that it always will be that way. And I should consider myself lucky, if I can ever at least somehow heal from what happened to me in order to have a healthy personal life with my partner. Hoping for anything positive beyond that is just naïveté.
I’m sorry for the venting...I’m just having a really, really tough time processing this...I would really appreciate if anyone has any info on how you guys cope with such triggers and resulting panic attacks, thanks a lot in advance. | ptsd |
Does anybody else just like the look of something and want to get it even though it serves no purpose? For example, I just bought a pack of dice because I like how they look and feel, but I probably won’t be using them any time soon hahah. Another example would be like a rock or a piece of metal that just looks nice but doesn’t do anything | ADHD |
The ocd is saying I’m going to go to hell if I don’t stop watching anime and wanting to move to Japan for 5 years because my brain keeps saying I sold my soul even tho did not and now it’s saying I have to repent | OCD |
So with my depression and anxiety, there are peaks and valleys. Some days I'm on cloud nine and feel outstanding. Then other days I want to just drive my truck into a tree. I'm coping okay I suppose and I have some mental phrasing that keeps me going. But my question is, what do you call the major bouts of depression? I've been in one lately and it's driving me crazy to come up with a term. I'm a baseball fan so maybe "innings." Like "I'm having a crappy inning." I don't know...probably a stupid question. | depression |
Like a lot of you, I struggle with some darker thoughts and a low self-esteem. This meant that I lost interest in everything I used to love, all my hobbies are pretty much gone. One of the things I liked was drawing, mainly with watercolors. I´d like to start again, but I don´t know how. I love to look at art on Pinterest - it both greatly inspires me and greatly discourages me. There are so many good artists out there with amazing original ideas - I feel like I could never hold a candle to them. If I could manage to have even a quarter of the talent of my favorite artist, I´d be a happy girl (I know that comparing yourself to others is often counterproductive, but it also gives me a sense of direction in knowing what it is that I´d love to do :)!
Is there anyone out there who has been through a similar predicament? How did you find the will to keep going? | aspergers |
So I was diagnosed and prescribed dex 5mg twice a day about two weeks ago. It has been an interesting experience. The meds help me so much with staying calm at work, while driving, studying, cleaning, etc, it has honestly been eye-opening and even has me optimistic about treatment resistant depression again.
The only side effect that is really bothering me though, is the feeling of being extremely dehydrated. I can deal with the dry mouth, but the skin on my face especially is what’s really bothering me. By the end of the day it has dried out to the point where it’s tight and feels like it might crack if i dare to smile. It’s also flaky and I can feel my skin trying to produce more oil to make up for it, but this oil just sits on top of the dehydrated skin, yuck.
I am smashing down water like i never have before. I added some electrolytes in case it was that, but it hasn’t seemed to have done much. I can moisturise on the outside but that’s not ideal as it doesn’t really penetrate the skin very much at all.
I see the psych again mid January and I really would like to stay on this medication but if this is the lowest dose (and I’m sure she’ll suggest upping it) what’s a higher dose going to be like?
Has anyone had this issue and did you have better luck with a different medication, e.g a longer release one like Vyvanse or have any tips to keep my hydration up? | ADHD |
The only winning move is not to play.
Upvote if you agree.
[#donotruminate] | OCD |
[This](https://www.amazon.com/Triggered-Left-Thrives-Wants-Silence/dp/154608603X) just adds to the misuse of the word and blatant disregard that it minimizes what “triggered” means for people with PTSD.
I’m honestly appalled. And if I were to say anything about it other than a PTSD sub, people would literally respond with “TrIGgErEd!!”
When did people become so unaware or literally just don’t care about others? | ptsd |
My vyvanse (70 mg) is not working as well after 6 months. I am 54 and I have ADHD , Asperger's, and Cyclothymia.
The first few months my notes went from doodles and words to sentences. Now it's about half way. In the last few days I have got out of my car twice with the engine running)
It's frustrating
.I an 54, and have ADHD and Asperger's and Cyclothymia. I take vyvanse 70 mg, Lamictal (225 mg), and stratera (200 mg) | ADHD |
Hi there!
After many frustrating interviews, I finally had 3 interviews at a large software company and got a senior position! The principal engineer liked my way of working and how I did all the tasks and tests.
I wasted years working in shitty companies, doing good work, but no one cared. In the last few months, I have applied for many jobs but screwed up the interviews or didn't even show up for an interview. This company gave me a chance to show my skills and they liked them, so I was able to present them to them without the anxiety I usually have.
My life pro tip to getting a good job: NEVER FUCKING GIVE UP!!!!
In my life, I had 2-3 years where I fucked up everything, had no job, no income, no money, and was suicidal, but my family and my therapist helped me a lot.
At some point in your life, there will be someone who wants you to succeed because they see your abilities and don't give a fuck about your deficits.
Background story: I had a handyman job, was very good at it, but I had a lot of problems with the constant noise and the changing work locations, finally, it ended in burnout. After the diagnosis, my doctor said I should change my job. I paid a lot of money to study, but fucking hell I was good at software engineering! Cause of my missing social skills, I had to accept every crappy job which I could get.
Here I made a post about how bad some recruitment processes are, it's not always our fault. That was my experience of the past few months:
[https://www.reddit.com/r/recruitinghell/comments/qtry8n/about\_90\_of\_the\_recruitment\_process\_is\_really\_bad/](https://www.reddit.com/r/recruitinghell/comments/qtry8n/about_90_of_the_recruitment_process_is_really_bad/)
Stay safe my Aspie Friends, you will do it at some time, don't give up! | aspergers |
Hello all,
I've been in therapy for about 6 months now with a therapist who specializes in hyper density and autism. I don't have an official diagnosis but my therapist asked me why I was so intent on receiving a diagnosis? Especially since I am a post-graduate from the university system and no longer intend to pursue education.
It's left me flabbergasted. Apart from the severe imposter syndrome I feel without the diagnosis it also felt a bit like a dismissal. I'm being tested for ADHD but that's easier to test for. I honestly don't even know where to go from here. I know something is wrong but the community (and I to a certain point), don't accept self diagnosis lightly (even if my therapist is very strongly convinced). The not having a diagnosis makes me feel like a fraud and I think I really only want the diagnosis to have peace of mind. I can't think of any other valid reason. | aspergers |
I’m on day 2 of concerta. Can’t sleep at all and it’s leaving me feeling busted. I know that taking concerta on less sleep makes for a shitty time, but I also know I need to power thru this honeymoon phase stuff to get an idea of lasting side effects, since this might go away. So should I take my concerta when I wake up, even if it’s late in the day OR should I wake up early, with much less sleep, and take it then? | ADHD |
I never send greeting / Christmas cards (I'm basically the Grinch) but i just received an unexpected gift in the mail from my ADHD coach (💙).
Im going to drop off a self-made cake + self made greeting card at her office in a few hours.
I could really use some help with something funny to draw or write (obviously ADHD related) on the outside of said card , any suggestions? My brain is in total freeze mode (I'm already surprised i didn't burn my kitchen down while baking that cake)
I can't think of anything witty (sarcasm, dark or rude humour is absolutely allowed)
thank you | ADHD |
i’ve done badly in school pretty much my whole life, there’s no denying that. but for some strange reason looking back i realized that once i got to high school i got just a little bit better at some things. i didn’t take any new meds or anything but somehow i was paying attention during class, having all the materials i need, etc. but now it’s my senior year and everything’s gone to shit. i consistently forget to do things like have my laptop charged, bring whatever books i need, hell even wear the contacts that i need to see. i can’t pay attention anymore so i end up completely lost on whatever we’re doing. and i rarely do homework anymore. am i just so exhausted that i don’t have the energy to mask anymore? is it because there’s more demands placed on me? or am i just crazy and it’s not possible for something i’ve had my whole life to get worse? | ADHD |
Hi,
I just wanted to see if this is a common ocd thing. I have it and it used to be really really bad (I made a recovery for a little while but I have been massively relapsing recently, don't worry I'm getting help to prevent it from taking over again). OCD used to basically rule my life (I was clean type ocd, basically i had a fear of invisible contaminates, and if I didn't get rid of them then I knew that something terrible would happen. I never knew specifically what the terrible thing was, but I knew it was bad). Anyways, i washed my hands so much that they got to the point where they cracked and bled whenever I moved them. My dear father managed to convince me to use lotion instead of soap, so my hands felt a lot better but they were often slimy and wet. Most kids in my 4th grade class thought it was weird and gross and thought my general mannerisms and obsessions and whatnot were pretty weird. I mean, ngl, the compulsions very much did make me like super frickin weird, and as a result I got bullied a lot growing up. I was curious if this is like a universal experience or if it was just a me thing. Thanks for the responses!3l | OCD |
We have a load to take to the dump (which closes at 3) and I need his help loading the uhaul. He wants to start with packing our clothes? No! We are in a time crunch for the dump AND we can move clothes with the car. We need to focus on shit that needs a uhaul to move. Also, He’s going to go pick up two friends this afternoon yet he just told his dad to meet us at our house at 1:30. He’ll be gone picking up his friends and I’ll be at the dump. I point out we won’t be here and he says “It’ll be fine!”
Let’s talk about the fact he’s even picking up his friends. They live an hour away and there houses are 30 minutes apart. One of them doesn’t have a car but the other does. I’d rather give them gas money than to have my husband gone for 2 1/2 hours *minimum* on moving day. Who knows what distractions he’ll inevitably encounter which will keep him away even longer. He’ll also need to drop them off!
I love my husband to death but today is one of those days I need him to listen to me or shit isn’t going to work. How do I manage this without an argument? Is there anything I can say or do? What would work for y’all? | ADHD |
I told my friend that sometimes I feel a bit difficult to give feedback or criticism in the fear of getting thrashed or abandoned for telling something they dont not like.
This was during covid times and was refusing to go to home town to stay with family, because their mom wanted to be safe.I told this statement so that they would change their mind and leave the city for few months.
Cut to few months my friend tells this was the worst thing somebody has told to them and this has affected them a lot and says this is toxic behaviour I have.
I feel really guilty about this, my intent would be something but my actions outcome hurts the other person. Feels like walking out, would be the best thing for them. | depression |
My co worker just bought me a Shamrock Shake for no reason. She’s very sweet and it made me smile. People usually don’t do nice things for me so this is really special. | ptsd |
I've never really understood people. I felt I was dropped in on an alien planet and everyone was speaking a language I didn't understand.
Yet at the same time I was so deeply curious. I couldn't understand people. But I wanted to. And so I tried in the only way I could think of. By watching people. My adolescence consisted of me watching and listening in on conversations in school. On observing people's behavior in media. On researching how the brain worked. Listening to psychology podcasts and constantly thinking and trying to figure out why others act as they do. I guess a way to describe it is I act and see it as a scientist dissecting something.
And well it has helped. That's how I understand people. I think of the psychology. I think of the things I've learned to try to understand the reason behind their actions. And it helps me better connect and makes others feel more like humans. Makes me feel more human.
I'm curious if this is an autistic thing. Or if it's just me. | aspergers |
Just recently diagnosed with PTSD due to known (and some previously unknown) repeated childhood trauma. I was smoking weed for a really long time to numb everything, then got diagnosed with CHS, had to quit, and I wasn’t fully realizing what I was numbing. I thought PTSD was just for veterans who’ve gone to war. I didn’t think that what I was experiencing was classic PTSD. I’ve been experiencing symptoms since I was 12, that I can remember anyway. Caused a lot of issues in my teenage years and young adulthood. Got addicted to all sorts of substances to make it go away. Recently sober and all of it came back and it’s just really been a rough trip. I just don’t really know where to go from here.
Does it ever get better? Does it ever go away? I just get so angry out of nowhere for what seems like no reason. I’ve had a hard time identifying my triggers with my therapist. He says it goes away mostly eventually but idk, looking for anecdotal experiences. I’m just so confused and frustrated and just trying to learn as much as I can | ptsd |
At this evening I've come to realization, that my depression may be so severe, because when I was a child I was never really talking about my feelings with anyone. I don't know why, I had a friend I could trust, but I was just too embarrassed to say anything about being beaten and bullied by my own mother, feeling a little bit neglected by father etc. As a little shithead I thought that suppressing all my emotions is OK and nothing bad can happen because of it. Fuck my smaller version. Sadness, grief, anger, everything was pressing down by my naive, inexperienced, young mind, that thought I am strong enough to handle this alone.
Well, now I know I was wrong. I wasn't strong enough. Suppressing everything made me feel so miserable, that I can't cry now. I also can't truly laugh. My self esteem doesn't exist and, oh God, I think that suicide is probably the only way to get out of that loop.
I am writing this because I need to vent my emotions and I am also curious, if anybody else can relate. Thank you, I wish you all good night. | depression |
I finally got evaluated for OCD (something I've struggled with my entire life), and the doctor wants me in intensive outpatient. I am very nervous about this and worry both that I am not sick enough but also that somehow it wont work on me because I have been so messed up my whole life. Can anyone tell me about their IOP experience? Thank you all so much. | OCD |
Apologies if this post is scattered and long (TL;DR at bottom). I don’t know much about OCD so forgive me if I am being naive or describing false symptoms. I am just concerned.
I’m diagnosed with generalized anxiety disorder, as well as being diagnosed with minor OCD as a kid. I would have obsessive thoughts about irrational things, and my compulsion was to constantly ask for reassurance that my thoughts were irrational. For an example, I would be worried that my family would die for no particular reason, so I would ask my mom to tell me that those thoughts were illogical, only for me to ask again for her reassurance like 5 minutes later. I haven’t dealt with these thoughts in years. However, now I am quite concerned my OCD has returned and taken a different form, now being physical compulsions. I’ve noticed a buildup of them during the past several months. Now, tapping is my main thing. I have to tap my fingers on a table and create a certain beat. My brain tells me to repeat the beat flawlessly four times in a row, and if I fail I need to start over. I legitimately get a bad pit in my stomach if I don’t complete the tapping cycle. At first, I only noticed the compulsion to tap a couple times a week. Then it progressively got worse to the point now that I find myself doing it multiple times a day. Another thing is that I feel an urge to close my eyes really tightly, or push my fingers against them to create pressure. I have to put equal amount of pressure on each eye at the same time or else I get a pit in my stomach and urge to keep doing it. It is legit painful if I don’t do the tapping or eye shutting and pushing correctly. The urges are random throughout the day, but not constant. Im afraid it will get worse. Tonight has been the worst so far. I feel on the verge of tears because I’m tired to sitting here tapping my fingers to get rid of this anxiety. Like it’s concerning, because when I tap my fingers the anxiety goes away for a second. I really don’t know what to make of this and I think I’m going to seek help, but I was hoping to hear y’all’s opinion on this. What is happening to me?? Is this just normal anxiety and I’m overreacting?
TL;DR: I’ve been developing compulsions to tap my fingers and apply pressure to my eyes. If I don’t, I get a pit in my stomach and anxiety. It’s extremely frustrating and concerning. What is happening to me? | OCD |
I just need to say that ... Too as many people as possible rn | OCD |
According to my wife's insurance policy, im worth more dead than alive! It never ceases to amaze me the interesting things about life! Who knew? | depression |
Sorry for the rant, but I've got to moan about this...
About six weeks ago, I ended up in hospital with a nasty bout of acute pancreatitis. I'm only 21, don't drink much, etc. so confused the hell out of the poor doctors... Turns out I've got a mutated gene that causes heriditary pancreatitis, and so has my dad, who's also had bouts of pancreatitis since he was young. I've had lots of tests and this has all been confirmed. But is this explanation good enough for OCD brain? Of COURSE it's not!
I keep going over and over what happened - I keep thinking I managed to make it all up and that I was just being a drain on the hospital and the doctors, or that the test results were somehow wrong... And then every time that happens, I get the ✨compulsion itch✨ and start googling pancreatitis symptoms, then ticking off all the ones I had, making lists of why exactly I had pancreatitis, how I'm not making it all up... That works for maybe an hour, then we're straight back into it all again!
I think I've got reverse Munchausen syndrome or something... Anyone else, or have I totally lost the plot? 😂 | OCD |
I work on an airport and drive up and down the runway. Someone activated an engine while i was behind it a few months back and it sucked the air out of my lungs and shook me up kinda bad. Now if i feel even the slightest wind or smell the gas of the engines turning on my heart rate is really high, i can feel it beat out of my chest, and i get dizzy and panicked. Is it time to search for another job? Ive heard other people getting ptsd from my job i just didnt know if this was the case with me. Like i said months have passed and this is still happening. The jetblast thing has happened a few times but the last time was kinda bad. | ptsd |
So I dont know if this belongs here but I kind of need to vent. I am currently needing to move soon and I need to find a new place to stay. The problem is I have a small dog and barely anyone wants to accept a dog so im running low on time and super stressed out. I really dont want to give her up because she already isnt that great with others and rather not put her in that situation but I dont know what to do.
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The two options I have found are generally in out of the way places that makes it harder for me because I dont drive and one of them isnt cheap enough where I could take uber/lyft every day to make the work commute easier.
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I tried to make sure I wouldnt get in this situation but here I am. | depression |
I can’t tell if I am traumatised by this memory, but it pops up every now and then (not often, it is a really hard memory for me to deal with) and when it does it makes me so incredibly angry I can’t even explain my rage with words. I am going to talk to a psych tomorrow but I kind of wanted to bring this up here, if anyone is interested.
To set the scene: I grew up with a lot of animals and I loved them all very much, I was always attached to them and spent every day with them. When my parents split when I was 12 we had to give away half of our animals as my mother, sister and I were moving into a smaller house and could only take our dog, 2 cats and birds. This alone was very emotional for me because I cared a lot about the other animals we couldn’t keep and I worried a lot about if their new owners were treating them right.
A year later my mother, sister and I moved in with my new step dad. Our dog had died (of old age) by this time. My step dad did not like cats at all so we had to give them away. I was incredibly angry and upset by this. I was especially attached to one of the cats which I had had since I was 7 and he was very special to me.
My father at the time was using heavy drugs and I did not trust him in the slightest to take care of the cats, but we had no other choice, so we gave them to him. The whole experience was very stressful for me and I worried about the cats every day and cried all the time about it. He was living with a girlfriend at the time who was as mentally unstable as him. They had a big breakup and he fled their house, where the cats were, abandoning them. I was FURIOUS at him but he didn’t care at all. His then ex girlfriend had burned all of his belongings and sent him pictures of the “cats” (I later found out they were only stuffed toys in the pictures) in plastic bags. She told him she’d killed them. AND MY DAD FUCKING SHOWED ME THE PICTURES. ME a 13 year old. I can’t even explain the extreme rage, grief and disgust I had felt. It literally changed me. It was the most horrible I had ever felt. I am sobbing writing this it was just terrible. This was 5 years ago now. This memory makes me want to punch and scream at my dad, even though it isn’t all his fault. I just don’t understand why he would show his 13 year old daughter those photos. What the hell, that’s not okay right?! One of the cats was left there and I still don’t know if he is okay or not, and the other was left with my Aunty, and he passed 2 years ago. But he was cared for by her and old so it didn’t effect me too much.
I know a lot of you have experienced things much worse so I hope I don’t sound over dramatic and I am very sorry for what all of you have been through. Thank you for reading. <3 | ptsd |
Apparently a majority of furries are on The autism spectrum. Why do you think there is such a strong correlation between furries and autism? | aspergers |
How much do you feel SSRI’s help you in your fight against OCD?
[View Poll](https://www.reddit.com/poll/ncfv8p) | OCD |
Sorry for the long post. Someone please help me. I've been crying and shaking for the past 48 hours
I don't even know how to type right now I'm literally shaking and don't know what to do or how to feel.
I live in a small city, with about 5000 people, so everyone is always familiar. Anywho, I'm currently 24 and I've lived here almost my entire life. Before yesterday I went to the store which is a 2 minute walk from my house and as I was coming back I saw this guy in a taxicab, I saw his face and I'm like oh woah I haven't seen this dude in over 10 years, he used to drop me off to taekwondo practice when i was 12-13. (note that we dont call or order a taxicab where I'm from. You just stand on the street and wave for the passing cabs).
But after I saw him I started seeing flash backs of when he used to drive me there. I used to go already dressed up in taekwondo clothes so the driver knew that i did that or karate. And I remembered he used to touch my legs and between them and say something like "what kind of karate chop would you do to me if a stranger touched you like this" and then he'd touch my neck and hair and say "well would if someone was touching you like this and was about to choke you".
And it it started to make sense when i thought about it more. Because it's not often that you get a ride from the same driver in the same week. Now that I'm remembering, i recall that I used to ride with him quite often, as if he was waiting for me every time i went to practice.
At the time idky i didnt think about it much, or why i didnt tell anybody. I thought he was being friendly or something idk.
Idk if I should should tell someone. I'd rather keep it a secret, but I dont want him to be doing it to other kids. If I tell my parents they will contact the authorities immediately and when they catch him they will not think twice to literally kiII him. And i keep thinking to myself 'what if he was actualy friendly and I'm just remembering it wrong. What if my mind is adding details. Idk.
And before yesterday when i saw him he was asking school boys if they need a ride (there's a school close to my house and the store i mentioned earlier.
Also I tried to forget him and (excuse me for saying this) wank my willy, but before i busted I could see his face.
I dont think i'll ever forget this incident. but i want to.
What should I do? I want to talk to someone about it like a friend but I'm too embarrassed. If someone has experienced something similar what did you do to recover????? | ptsd |
For me at the moment it s [Warduna - Lyfjaber](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VEizKmZlUAw) | aspergers |
Hi, I made a post a couple of days ago and it was suggested to me by one of you lovely people that I create a separate post about this.
So I’ve been experiencing what I think is mild dissociation consistently for the past year or so. I’m super detached, my emotions feel very numb and I’m prone to trances, memory loss etc. This is pretty much 24/7 except for a few occasions throughout the year.
I have been doing grounding techniques for a while now to calm my panic attacks, and they work to varying degrees of success. I’ve been doing the 4321 technique, some physical grounding such as tapping my legs, walking around and my therapist suggested running my hands under cold water as I can feel very numb during moments of panic and they help bring me back to reality. Also some phrases that I repeat out loud help me a lot too. These work for my panic attacks, but for the dissociation they really don’t do much and it hasn’t affected it. I know time will help and I only really started recovering at the end of last year and so I’m trying to be as patient as possible.
I would however like to hear some grounding techniques other than the standard ones that I was given in CBT. Thanks so much in advance, I would really appreciate the help as nothing is really working right now for the actual dissociation. | ptsd |
By learning to do lucid dream you change the end of the nightmares every night and your new personality will kick in without triggers and problems.
Ptsd will be illness of the past by changing the story of your fears from your consciousness
you will see profound changes in youself id you learn to do it.
You need to learn lucid dream to do it. | ptsd |
I have nail polish on and every few seconds my anxiety spikes. It took a lot of effort to be around a known neurotoxin. I really want to take it off. I am mad at myself because I feel like it is such an unnecessary thing that I am chipping away at my future with by using.
Do you have any words of wisdom? | OCD |
Hi All,
Over the past year or so I’ve been heavily considering going back to school and obtaining a degree. I know it will be much more difficult now since I’m married with an almost 2 year old. Not to mention being in my 30s. Like most of you, I struggled a lot in school and dropped out. I did wind up going back a few years later and completing a certificate program. However, as we all know, that’s not a BA/BS. It has always been a huge regret of mine and I’m just so sick and tired of always getting asked what school I went to and having to either lie or be embarrassed about it.
I work in the IT sector and I’ve been able to get by with decent salaries (although not earning as much as I feel I should). However, as I get farther into my career I’m really wondering how much a lack of degree is holding me back. I’ll unfortunately never know what positions I was looked over because of it.
So my question for those still reading this is: Did you back to school with a family, how did you do it, and how much did it cost? What school did you go to? Was it worth it in the end? | ADHD |
He made me do a lot of things.
He made me watch his shows.
He made me leave right as my favorite band took the stage.
He made me tell him everything.
He made me shut up.
He made me do his laundry.
He made me cook his dinner.
He made me scrub his baseboards.
He made me throw away my makeup.
He made me stop wearing my own clothes.
He made me ask his permission for everything.
He made me talk the way he wanted.
He made me walk the way he wanted.
He made me carry my fucking backpack the way he wanted.
He made me buy him things.
He made me skip meals.
He made me laugh at my own expense.
He made me think that I deserved it.
He made me watch horrifying videos.
He made me lie for him.
He made me cheat for him.
He made me do his homework instead of mine.
He made me wash him.
He made me shave him.
He made me shave while he watched.
He made me pee while he watched.
He made me sit still while he peed on me.
He made me have sex with him.
He made me pretend to like it.
He made me blow him while he played video games.
He made me ride him while he read a book.
He made me touch him in public.
He made me suck him in a utility closet at school.
He made me suck him in the backseat of my mother's car while she drove.
He made me watch while he cut himself.
He made me beg him to stop.
He made me dress his wounds.
He made me forgive him every time.
He made me think I was crazy.
He actually made me crazy.
He made me a laughing stock.
He made me give up all my friends.
He made me give up my family.
He made me hide in the closet.
He made me leave.
He made me stay.
He made me vomit.
He made me clean it up.
He made me weep.
He made me shake.
He made me bleed.
He made me run for my life.
He made me double-check my locks.
He made me believe I was worthless.
He made me hate myself.
He made me do so much more.
He made me keep it all a secret.
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I was only 15 and he made me believe this was love. | ptsd |
sorry for the vent
i'm so tired of always having to give my all to everything. i'm tired of taking all these classes and having to work so hard to get good grades, while i'm expected to get all a+. i'm tired of my coaches getting mad if i miss a single practice, even tho i have so many clubs to go to and classwork to catch up on, and sometimes just need a break. i'm tired of being expected to be perfect at everything, and having to work so hard to just disappoint the people around me. i'm a brat i know i am. i complain about my school sometimes even tho it's a private school, and a good one. sometimes i want to just self-destruct, leave my good school and leave my friends. i want to distance myself from everyone and just dissapear. i want to open up to my friends, but i don't know how, and what if it makes them uncomfortable how i feel? i hate myself. i'm sensitive and emotional, but i can't change it. at least i don't know how. but at the same time, i think i'm just dramatic. after all i'm just a teenage girl, no one would ever take me seriously, they'd probably just laugh at me for being so emotional. i'm just so tired and burnt out, i don't have any free time most of the time. i need help but i don't really need it urgently, i'm not going to do anything bad to myself, so i don't know who to turn to or what to do. | depression |
i get SO ANNOYED whenever i don’t understand something. like if i’m reading a book and it doesn’t make sense or watching a show and don’t understand how something worked or if someone’s explaining something educational and i can’t figure out wtf theyre talking about. or if you can’t do something on ur first go. like if i try to follow a painting tutorial and it doesn’t come out right or just in general i can’t do something to fail to do something right. i get so frustrated with myself i often end up crying cos my brain isn’t working the way i want it to and it’s so annoying. is this an adhd thing or a me thing lol | ADHD |
*TW: Car crashes, gun powder, shattering glass & some other things.*
Sorry if there's any random missing letters, my keyboard's being odd.
Back in February of 2017, I was caught up in a car accident not even five minutes away from home (We live in a rural area of new Zealand) after I was picked up from school. Anyway, this guy cut across the road at the last second and mum turned the wheel as hard as she could and we collided, the passenger side (My side) hitting the corner of the other car. I blacked out just before the cars hit, so when I woke back up seconds later all I could smell was gun powder.
Now everytime I smell gun powder (Which is quite often since we do homekill beef and such.) I kind of freeze and don't do/say anything. The same with shattering glass or really anything that sounds like a car windscreen breaking. Screeching breaks scare me a little and vehicles in general. But gun powder usually gets me the worse, along with the glass.
We were all fine, I think it's just because I was eleven and I hadn't been envolved in something like that beore which caused me to become scared of certain things.
If this breaks any rules, I'll take it down as soon as possible. | ptsd |
**This is not medical advice.**
**I am not a mental health professional.**
I am only someone who has challenges and anomalies much like you folks here.
Here's some resources that have helped me, if you'd like to take a look. I hope you'll be open to trying some, perhaps with guide of a therapist if you're already receiving treatment.
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\-Some exercises to help you ground [here](https://treatingpsychosis.com/resources/coping-exercises/). *Note: The site is a psychosis treatment site. Whether you struggle with what is known as "psychosis" or not, these are generous resources for being present with ones experience, and coping with distress.*
\-25 tips for those with [OCD](https://iocdf.org/expert-opinions/25-tips-for-ocd-treatment/). I haave found these tips helpful, and guiding, even if one is not in treatment yet.
\-A [DBT self-help site,](https://www.dbtselfhelp.com/html/half-smile_and_serenity.html) and the link is to a specific face muscle practice (with audio guidance, can be used on mobile too). Though its challenging, I find DBT practices help me move away from the pull of OCD's black-or-white thinking circuits.
\-[Youtube link to an EFT demonstration,](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eihUt_CXxic) a body tapping technique you've probably heard about before. I like it because it is simple, and if you have the privilege of having access to the mobility of your body, you can probably perform this technique anywhere.
\-The image posted is from [this](https://www.city.ac.uk/__data/assets/pdf_file/0004/282379/Mindfulness-Distressing-Voices-Andy-Phee.pdf) pdf for a mindfulness-based group for those who struggle with psychosis. Again, though this is for psychosis, the practice is for understanding and coping with distress specifically.
https://preview.redd.it/b3dk3v4kt3l61.png?width=961&format=png&auto=webp&s=32ea48c7417ca2b77bad06c8da029617e42f68c7
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Hope you find these helpful. If not, no worries. Take care of yourselves, and seek treatment if you are able.
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"Relax, nothing is under control"\~ | OCD |
Dr is having me try it out for bit since my original dose left me feeling unchanged but I’m a little nervous about it. | OCD |
I'm back in college. I had to drop out two years ago due to being traumatized and childhood trauma resurfacing. I held on as long as I could there, but each time I thought I had hit rock bottom, I would fall a littler farther. It wasn't getting better, and I was looking at 1. suicide and 2. living with my parents. The latter won by a hair. And now, after a tumultuous re-traumatizing year off, I'm back. This is somehow a healthier environment for me.
I have been purposefully avoiding friendship. I even muted a group chat I'm a part of that invites me to eat dinner with a group of people every night. Not because they're bad company - they're great. It is because I don't trust people and don't want to connect with anyone.
I have accommodations for ptsd. I used them last week due to a tough therapy session that sent me spiraling, and spent the weekend catching up on the work I missed. Today I had to work hard to stay on track, and I was all set with an essay all outlined - when at the last minute of the last class, the discussion turned to the rape of a young girl.
I just kinda gave up. Almost threw my hands up in the air. This is the second time that in the last five minutes of the last class rape of a young girl has been brought up. When I was at home, I just stared at my blank essay, and realized that I can't do this. Or, at least, I can't do this the way healthy people do.
I felt defeated dropping that class. I fought to stay in it - the readings were hard, the homework was impossible, the grading strict as all hell. And now all that energy is wasted. My "A" will turn into a "W."
I know it was the right decision, and that a "W" won't matter in the grand scheme of things. It was political theory - useful, but ultimately not something I want to waste my mental health on. And yet. I'm feeling really lonely. I would wish for a hug, but I'd have to feel safe in a hug first. | ptsd |
The irritability and emptiness during the comedown, the lack of appetite and weight loss, frequent urge to piss, the sexual dysfunctions, the robotic feeling, the sleep disturbances - they have always been a side effect for me of any ADHD medication I've tried, albeit worse with some than others and dependant on dosage.
The longest I've taken any meds consistently would be dexamphetamine at around 2 months of daily use.
Do you guys who've been on meds really long term just put up with side effects or do you no longer notice any? Or did you never have any to begin with? | ADHD |
Hi everyone, I've been seeing a therapist who I love, and who has helped my OCD with mindfulness-based practice and other methods, but who is not trained in ERP. I am thinking about getting some supplemental ERP treatment because my OCD is not improving significantly-however, I get so confused by my OCD because I tend to have intense, short-lived themes that only last for about a week or so before my brain has moved on to the next topic. Once I've moved on, that original topic doesn't feel nearly as scary as it did when it was consuming me. I'm wondering how ERP can work with OCD that changes focuses so often? has anyone else had success with ERP with many different OCD themes and no one specific fear/focus? Thank you. | OCD |
1. Paid for gas inside at the gas station, then got in my car and drove home without putting gas in the car.
2. Forgot to turn the oven off for hours at a time, to the point of causing the carbon monoxide alarm to go off while I'm sleeping(6 hours later) or getting excited about the fact that my food should be about done and realizing I forgot to put it in the oven, or I put it in the oven and forgot to turn the oven on.
3. Going to the kitchen to get a spoon and for no apparent reason looking in the fridge and forgetting I went to get a spoon
4. Going through the grocery line(with an actual cashier), grabbing my bags and walking out the store without paying and being chased down by the cashier
5. Somehow forgetting about addictive junk food I bought that's been in my house for days
6. A month into classes, I still have to look at my school schedule to see what time my classes are each day
7. When I get the last thing (usually food) out of a box, I just put the empty box back into the pantry/fridge instead of throwing it away
8. Put off getting my hair cut for months
9. Not being able to brush my teeth unless I'm listening to music or watching something
Well, I could go on indefinitely here, can anyone relate to any of these? | ADHD |
So I had bad parents and have to teach myself how to be a good person bc I had bad examples. I have cptsd /adhd but i don’t know if I have autism too. I’ve seen people online say autistic people work through emotions manually and had to teach themselves. Is that what I’m doing? I wrote this rant today and can’t tell if it’s manual for me
So I was FaceTiming my friend who asked if it’s okay that she makes fun of her friend behind her back but is nice to her face. I’m all for being polite but I actually thought abt how I would hate if a friend did this to me. I wrote a fake rant to her in my head. I said : it’s messed up because you aren’t just poking fun at a friend and you aren’t talking about a problem u have with a friend where they’re hurting themselves or you. This girl you’re making fun of literally does nothing rude to you and you have a nice friendship in her eyes. But behind her back you relentlessly taunt her and tear her down as if she’s a joke. You don’t take her seriously. You treat other friends way nicer just bc they had obvious traumas such as losing a loved one- so you excuse everything they do. But if someone’s acting annoying and bragging a lot like the friend you’re judging than obviously they have been through something. Now everyone with trauma acts shitty but I really think everyone shitty had trauma. You don’t have to support or keep everyone in your life if you don’t like the way you act. But you also don’t have to genuinely support everything a friend does. Sometimes it just seems shitty. Instead of getting in ur head and getting angry at them for acting in a way u see as wrong.. try to emphasize and understand bc u chose to be their friend. You’re choosing to support them and if u wanna see them act like a good person than mocking them won’t help- u have to actually not judge them and support them. Sometimes peoples actions will seem awful and crazy and will piss u off. It’s just something people do when they’re insecure in themselves so they always judge others too much.
This sounds hypocritical but I feel judged by my friend and feel like she hurts me w the way she treats me so I think it’s ok
Like I have to think and rethink my feelings until it’s consise
And people learn at different ages so why judge a friend for wanting validation and judging people so hard for wanting attention and stuff when it’s totally normal human behavior | aspergers |
No matter how much they abused you or broke you. That feeling of wanting your mother.... I don't think that feeling will ever leave me. I've cut contact with my entire family.
I don't want her but just that feeling of wanting a mother. Of someone who remembers what you were like as a kid. Because I don't anymore. I've forgotten what I was like as I kid. It's all just blank
I feel like I've voluntarily made myself an orphan and am grieving the love that I never truly knew. Idk I sound crazy... I'm sorry | ptsd |
You ever just accidentally look in the mirror and then you pause for a quick sec to stare at your reflection and all you see is an empty husk?
Then there's this feeling where you contemplate suicide and you just sense feel at peace. Or is it just me?
P.S. I'm just having a bad day, thanks for listening to my little rant | depression |
Could you share some of your embarrassing OCD experiences? Were you ever caught doing a bizzare ritual? | OCD |
My gf is affected by a lot of things in her plate and when I try to console her, she gets angrier but I saw her talking to her childhood friend who says the same things (exactly same) and she understands him very well and I am talking about a chat conversation here.
It’s been 4 years of relationship and it happens with me every-time I explains things to and she starts fighting with me but when others tell her the same thing, she listens and respond silently to them and also understand the same thing.
I am confused that whether we are in a wrong relationship or she doesn’t want to be in relationship with me.
I am depressed as fuck | ptsd |
I just wanted to get away for a little. This depressive episode is particularly bad and I don't usually isolate myself but I 'felt' like it this time. I was just hoping to slip away and nobody would notice. Maybe I'd come back, maybe not. Depends on if I decide I want to... y'know
But several of them ended up messaging me asking if I was OK and safe, and now the guilt is getting to me. Why do they have to care? (Or at least pretend to?) They're going to hate me if I come back and say 'yeah I was fine I just felt like dropping off the face of the earth for a bit. Sorry for scaring you.' Even though they all struggle with similar issues and would understand, I just can't do it
I feel like shit about it. There are people out there who desperately want someone who looks out for them and here I am getting upset about it. I just wish I could disappear from the world, and have everyone forget about me. I wish I could give my life to someone who deserved it, I would rather be a flower or something.
Please don't call me selfish or anything. Trust me I know | depression |
Can me reading,listening and searching up on youtube, reddit and spotify about OCD be a compulsion? I want to learn more about it but I am thinking that maybe its a compulsion since it gives me reassurance that I have it and what not. Is this just OCD talking?
Thanks in advance. | OCD |
I mean, in my opinion it is due to some of neurobiological caracteristics of autism, but do time and experience make things and life easier, or it gets worse? | aspergers |
A common theme in my life is that people judge me because of some parts of my personality or demeanor that were borne of trauma and are from an overactive reptilian brain activation.
A lot of times I frame my experiences as something akin to being a military service member who got traumatized during deployment.
A lot of stuff I can't get into. But sometimes people "play" with me, especially in the workplace, and it pisses me off because of the nature of my trauma and skillset.
How do you deal with the brainwashed and "uninitiated" that decide to capitalize on neurodivergence and decide to go out of their way to make you uncomfortable and feel bad about yourself? | ptsd |
The first letter of every last word spells pstd, that's my theme.
I have PTSD
I let it out on paper
when it's too much for my tears
it'll be forever on my skin
it holds me back from you, my dear
I relive it again, the fear, the blame, the pain
it still hounds me today
the only consistency to stay
that's still knocking on my door
I bring together a few puzzle pieces
from time to time
but the picture is shattered
like I am deep down
I am completely powerless
my mind is traveling through topics
you see the crack in my smile
it feels like the devil's deal
They don't work anymore, my painkillers
maybe that's what pulled the trigger
I did not lie to you when I said
this disease is gonna stay 'til death | ptsd |
I don’t know who I am no longer. I just feel lost in this darkness. Everyone around me tells me that I’m special and different, but all I feel is worthlessness. I lost al confidence and self love and here I am broken, with question marks in my head. So who am I? It’s just easier to close my eyes and forget about the person I see everyday in the mirror who doesn’t know what he is up to. Yes that’s how I feel. | depression |
TW: brief mentions of assault and suicide.
I worked as a direct support worker for children with [I/DD](https://fsp.unc.edu/node/162) from 2019 to 2020. I'll keep it brief here but I'm happy to provide more details or talk about it as needed.
My first client, bigger and stronger than me, attacked me when we were home alone. My second client tried to kill herself and I had to directly stop her twice.
My life has never been the same. I work in the mental health field but refuse to work with any children directly and never again with anyone violent. Because I work in this field, even though I refuse to do direct care again, I have mandatory trainings and situations that retrigger me.
Today it was very intense for me - I had a training om crisis prevention, which is a huge trigger, and I kept having to leave the room, towards the end I didnt come back, I was shaking and it was difficult to breathe and I tore apart my hands. I can't handle it at all.
I have anxiety medication and I just started EMDR but I feel like I get triggered by the most random things and I'm not sure it will ever end. It's only gotten worse since I quit that job even though I didn't have the full blown symptoms back then. Will I ever be okay? | ptsd |
im having scrupulous obsessions over whether or not Got is ok with fictional magic/the difference between fictional and real magic and have been for a yr now. every time I watch something with magic in it im convinced I did witchcraft and im going to hell. I just now was thinking about what incantation is in fiction, and basically imagined myself inserted into a marvel movie or something where I use it for magic. when I snapped out of it I had a panic attack because it felt like I did witchcraft. I hate that my imagination is so big and that fundamentalists christians have convinced me that this is the way I should think, it feels like a constant prison. its like using a kitchen knife to cut vegetables because you love cooking and having someone tell you that what you're doing is evil because people have used knifes as a weapon before, and therefore you are sinning by glorifying violence.
did I do witchcraft? please give me advice, and please don't tell me to become atheist because this has everything to do with religious trauma and nothing to do with God. ive gotten comments like that on here before and they did absolutely nothing to help. and yes I am going to therapy. | OCD |
Does anyone else feel like their PTSD just fucks everything up around them? For example, maintaining healthy relationships... | ptsd |
how to know if it's ocd and not an authentic concern? | OCD |
Hey y'all. I'm a 19 year old college student who is currently about to start midterms. I just took a look at my Adderall today and realized "oh shit, there's like three of these things". This might be a problem since I got diagnosed in August, and have been taking them ever since I came to college. I live out of state, so it will be at least a couple of days until my parents can get my scrip and mail it to me. In the meantime, do y'all have any tips that could get me through this hectic week I'm about to encounter?
For reference, I have things like Coffee and Caffeine dietary supplements that I figured might help me a little bit (probably not the healthiest). I didn't really feel that bad before I started medication but I'm worried that being off it without some support will send me into a spiral of dysfunction and depression or something. So in essence, please send help.
Also I hope I'm not invalidating anyone else who can't get access to medication. I'm not trying to equate this to that, but I just don't know what I should do in this situation. I'm kinda fucked for midterms if I can't pull through. | ADHD |
Today and this week was pretty bad. I feel like I’ve been spinning my wheels for about a month now. I know all the information - the triggers, the patterns, etc. I’ve gone backwards and it’s really... well, depressing.
Could really use some help. I’m desperate for a change. | depression |
Has anyone has PTSD while pregnant?
My daughter is now 2 but only now am I starting to realize how many triggers I had during my second pregnancy. My first child was stillborn after a very difficult pregnancy. I think it has taken so long to realize what I was going through because the PTSD, depression and anxiety were so constant that there was no normal to compare it to. I think I had a PTSD episode on the anniversary of my first child's death and cause my body to go into premature labour. The doctors had to try to prevent me from going into labour fully (cant remember exactly how) as I was only at 32 weeks. It worked but then I had another scare at 33 weeks were I was 100% certain I was in labour and because I wasnt at the hospital when it happened, I completely freaked out.
Just having a difficult time processing my memories now with this extra realization. I feel somewhat alone because the cause of my PTSD is so different than what I usually hear about from others. | ptsd |
I also told her that I had a date. I have an appointment with her on Monday. What are the chances of me being involuntarily committed? I'm kind of freaking out right now. | depression |
I know this seems like it has nothing to do with OCD at first, but hear me out.
I've been diagnosed with ocd. And for the longest time, I always suspected I had it at some level.
And now I'm 100% sure my 5 year old sister has it, but it's definitely worse for her.
Anyway, she said something today that made me realize perhaps this fear issue is an ocd issue.
When I was little, I had so many problems with being scared. I'd be scared to go to the bathroom to either use it or take a shower. Someone would always have to stand in front of the door while I took it. It must have been exhausting for my relatives.
I couldn't even get the mail in the apartment building because it was next to a corner.
I could never, ever be alone in the house.
I couldn't walk in the dark if I needed to get water or go to the bathroom.
I couldn't go next to trees, behind cars, turning corners was scary.
Alleyways terrified me and they were literally everywhere in New York.
I couldn't even stay in a room alone if everyone else was even just 5 meters away in the other room.
Couldn't look at mirrors.
And for the longest time, I couldn't sleep at night without the blanket fully over me. Now, I'm sure every kid had these fears, but it's a bit excessive, don't you think?
I still deal with these from time to time but I'm able to overcome the fears sometimes. Sometimes I'm not. Really just depends how strong my mental will is.
Now this just sounds like a phobia, right? Except my sister is now showing signs of fear like this. And I'm thinking it's because of intrusive thoughts.
Reason I was scared of corners was because I'd always get the sudden image that something was there. Same with mirrors, dark places, rooms, closets, beds, hallways, and literally anything you could think of. It wasn't a thought, but intrusive images that I never asked for.
So I'm wondering, has anyone else dealt with this? Or do I just have a fear? | OCD |
It’s been 14 months since the accident, I’ve been followed by a therapist and I’m on medication for at least 6 months(not sure the time is flowing weirdly since). For the first time i succeed to cut the flashback in the middle and get back in the present. Sure it came back like a train. But for a whole 10 seconds. i was in control.
It is a small victory but I gladely take it. I wish you all to get back the control of your thought. | ptsd |
Everyday, I see videos and such about people voicing their issues and symptoms that have an awful lot in common with me and my everyday life and struggles. Be it from being really into one thing then quickly moving onto another and forgetting about the last one. Or be it forgetting important stuff multiple times, but also being able to remember the weirdest things for no reason. To having the urge to just follow what makes me happy, but at the same time having issues getting the motivation to do so.
I grew up in and out of foster care homes, never really knew my mother too well, she had a huge issue with mental illness and couldn’t take care of me, and if there was any diagnosis or anything like that, i doubt it could have gone through that mess and ended up with me on the other side.
Now at the age of 15, and seeing all these different videos, has made me question my entire life… if I might actually have Adhd or something similar, or if its just the human brain’s tendency to try and find ways to be correct.
Sorry for clogging up your feed if you see this. | ADHD |
Lately I (26 F) have been in a really dark place, wishing my (23 M) fiancé would either hurt me or leave me.
4 years ago, I was in a really abusive relationship. I ended up leaving it, healing, and meeting someone new, who is now my fiancé.
My new fiancé is everything I could ever wish and hope for in a life partner - and everything my abusive ex wasn’t. He’s kind, patient, respectful, loving, etc. The new fiancé and I have now been together for almost 2 years. We’ve had such a sweet and healthy relationship.
But lately, I’m wishing (and god like I know how stupid and nuts this sounds) that he would just leave me. Or that he’d hurt me, how my ex did - call me names like worthless and stupid, hurt me physically.
I know how fucking crazy that sounds. I’m so embarrassed writing this and saying it out loud. And I’m extra embarrassed because like what sane person would want that? Also why am i now just feeling this way, if it is related to my abusive ex?
I told my fiancé I was having these thoughts. And he was so kind about it and told me that he wouldn’t ever hurt me and he wouldn’t ever leave me.
I feel like such a crazy person. Has anyone else ever felt this way? Is this PTSD or is this something else entirely? | ptsd |
If someone were to be on ADHD medication which had been working well for a long time, suffered an episode of drug induced psychosis. Can they never be able to take their ADHD medication again? Just wondering if changing psychiatrists would allow the individual to be prescribed their medication again or if one psychiatrist refuses to prescribe because of the drug induced psychosis, then the others won’t prescribe too?
Thank you for any input and assistance. | ADHD |
I can't force myself to read the text books for exams. I have extreme difficulty in comprehending or absorbing what I read and as i read forwards, i keep forgetting what i read in the previous sentences. So, nothing is retained in my memory for even 10 minutes. Its a kind of brain fog that has slowed down my thinking, processing, and memory abilities and hasn't improved with antidepressant medications. I already dropped 2 years of college and fear that this time too, i will fail badly. How do you manage to comprehend books with brain fog? I also have great difficulty in understanding movies like movies. I have to pause many times and think hard to catch up with the plot of the movie. Do you get these symptoms often. Anything that helps with reading comprehension abilities and retaining information? | depression |
Research conducted in the1990s suggested approximately 50% of children “outgrew" ADHD by the
time they reached adulthood. However, most of these studies only reconnected with the participants once in adulthood. Furthermore, many participants in these studies only experienced remission of symptoms when receiving ADHD treatments.
Newly published research longitudinal research followed up on children (starting at 8 years old) with ADHD every 2 years until they were 25 years old - a period of 16 years. What they found was that only 9% of participants had full stable remission of symptoms by adulthood, 11% of participants had no remission (i.e., stable severity) of symptoms, and 16% of participants had semi remission of symptoms that was stable. Interestingly, most participants (64%) went through fluctuating periods of increases and decreases in the severity of ADHD symptoms. Overall, 90% of all participants had some kind of residual symptoms in adulthood.
The results of this study make sense, as it is reasonable for people with ADHD (as well as people without ADHD) to go through periods of life where things feel more “manageable" and "under control" compared to other periods of life. As life for most of us generally operates in fluctuating phases, it makes sense that this would affect the ADHD pathophysiology in people who have it. One could argue that "adulthood" defined in this study may not be considered "old enough". However, these
results provide a more informed perspective on ADHD and its tendency to fluctuate in severity throughout life.
Article: https://ajp.psychiatryonline.org/doi/10.1176/ | ADHD |
me when posting on here: is this the ocd forum? m i really posting in the ocd forum? did i post anything explicit or personal? why m i checking non stop?
well it works for every social media i guess :")
- doubting if its the correct content
- doubting if i posted on the correct platform
- doubting if i posted anything inappropriate or confidential
- having an intrusive thought and going like wait i dont remember doing that lemme go check
- PROCEEDS TO CHECK NON STOP FOR EVERYTHING AND ITS TIRING AS FUCK aaaaaaaaaAAAAAAaaaAAaAaaaAa
i also doubt my thoughts, my actions and my belongings and its really REALLY TIRING I WANT IT TO END. im receiving help but idk its not really working and idk what to do anymore, please tell me how u lot cope with this ;-;
(im just writing what comes to mind cuz i cant be bothered anymore, i dont want to check so if i posted anything funny...idk i guess ill just deal with it as i go) | OCD |
Hey guys. I don't have a diagnosis, but I know that I have OCD. It is not hard to figure out when you wash your hands till they bleed or it takes ages to leave the home because you first gotta unplug all electronic devices in the kitchen. Also do it all ritually. And I also have intrusive thoughts. Like a second mean and irrational me. I don't want to get into details on the last one. Even while I am typing this I am doubting my OCD. I just scratched the surface here but I now feel comfortable due to it calming down a little in the last couple of days. How would a diagnosis benefit me ?
Edit: typo
Edit: The only thing I can imagine where it would help find out is which OCD forms I have. Definately contamination, intrusive thoughts, harmful thoughts (though lessened atm, like a afraid of killing someone or killing someone by accident), ritualistic behavior and a lot of counting. | OCD |
Seems like every single time I make a post, every second comment is some variation of “have you tried weed?” or “you need to give LSD or mushrooms a go”. I’m fucking sick of it. I get that it works for some people and that’s fine. So do medications and and therapy, but that shit doesn’t work for me. And neither does weed or psychedelics.
Every single time I’ve smoked weed it made me paranoid and agitated and kinda angry and I hated it. I always get the response that I just need to “try a different strain” or some shit. Well to my knowledge, I’ve never smoked the same one twice and I don’t live in a country where it’s legal at all so we don’t have dispensaries or anything either. Not about to move countries to try different weed either, even if it was a possibility right now.
LSD was even worse, had the most fucked up, traumatising experience the first time I did it and I’m never gonna touch psychedelics again after that. It was fucking horrible. People always say you’ve gotta “be in a good headspace” and “in a good environment” and “with people you trust”. Well what if you’re never in a good headspace? What if you hate the whole fucking world? What if you don’t have any friends or anyone you trust? They never explain that part. Plus the “revelations” people seem to have on those things usually sounds like the dumbest bunch of nonsensical hippy bullshit I’ve ever heard.
Just hate that this is always suggested like it’s a fucking cure all potion that’ll “change your life, man!” | ptsd |
As soon as I wake up, my first thought is, how long before I can go back to sleep. | depression |
I was evaluated by a psychiatrist to have symptoms similar to PTSD (sexual trauma) and got referred to a psychologist for therapy.
During the first session, I talked through much of the trauma. As she was going through the way people exhibit PTSD signs and symptoms and how they cope trauma, I had a very bad flashback. It hadn't happened in years - full-blown shakes, sweats, panic, sobs. She helped me to walk out of it and taught some grounding techniques.
For the rest of the day I felt emptier than usual. I became closed off to my boyfriend. He understood. It didn't seem fair to him.
Now I'm wondering if I had needed to seek help. Preparing myself for the psychiatrist visit made it the worst week in years. The psychotherapy made me feel still empty and frightens me. I didn't know the flashback could get this strong now.
I'm second guessing myself in seeking help for something that bothers me like a splinter. It's always there, not life-threatening, once in a while it gets painful, but not debilitating.
The psychiatrist and psychologist seem to prod and poke at the splinter, and making it more painful.
Does it always get worse before it gets better? How long will I feel mentally drained and extra sensitive after each session? Does it get better? She asked to describe what empty feels like - it just feels nothing. I want to feel passionate again. I'm afraid therapy will just bring me back and never forward. I'm afraid therapy will do more harm than good. | ptsd |
When I was younger, before I was diagnosed, I noticed people didn't think I was happy, when I thought I was smiling. So I practiced smiling in front of a mirror and got more familiar with what a smiling face feels like. Now I'm actually smiling when I think I'm smiling. Just wondering, am I the only one to do this? | aspergers |
Things aren't going well lately. My problems might seem insignificant for some and there are people whose life is do much worse, but I guess I'm not as strong as I hoped. In the last few days my thought waking up is "oh God, here we go again".Fortunately my family members are doing OK considering and there's a roof over our headsI don't like my job (like many), I'm grateful for having it since atleast I get a salary, but it's not fulfilling at all.He'll, bartamding and waiting was more fun and rewarding. If you work in the customer service/support industry you might understand. I've been feeling stupid, making more mistakes etc. My dreams are pretty much impossible.I've always liked acting, yet in my small a* country, most roles include "the casting couch" or are given to famous people.I've always been a semi-involuntary loner. Never had many friends or a Love life is not existent,never had been in any way. Never been popular with people (and my favourite is when I start crushing and find out they are already taken) Being shy and anxious doesn't help at all. Never felt like I could truly share any secrets with my "friends".Not really the fun, cheerful, happy go lucky tipe too.
Time is passing by, the years won't come back and the feeling of being a worthless, failure is getting stronger. I have this weird thing where I want to do "big, important" things and leave something behind, yet I don't feel like this is realistic or that I'm good enough and people will just laugh at me.
Sorry for the long rant, but that's the shortest description I can do. | depression |
For some context, I live in a truck bed camper. It's super tiny, but works very well for me and my damn ADHD. Even being small,it's still overwhelming to clean at times. It's harder in many ways because there are less places to lazily shove things and forget about them. Today's victory was cleaning and overhauling nearly the entire thing. I took a few breaks to just sit and look around, and I took a short lunch break. I managed to get almost everything done and restore the entire camper back to full working order again. I still have laundry and dishes left, and the table and seating area needs cleaned, but I solved a ton of little problems that will make every single day more pleasant. Wanted to share my victory and list off all the little tricks I used today. Hope it helps someone!
I'm sitting here thinking of all the little tricks I used to trick myself into completing a large project. Want to write them down and share before I forget.
I did something interesting first thing by making coffee with chocolate milk and enjoy the feeling of being an adult who can do such things. The coffee kicks me into work mode.
I didn't turn on the tv this morning like I normally do. If I do, I end up distracted by it every few seconds. No music or podcasts or audiobooks either. Just a fan running. I think the boredom helped.
I spent most of my energy solving little problems and finding better or new places for all the clutter floating around. Most of my time was spent just putting things into their new places.
I threw things I didn't want to forget about onto the middle of the floor so they were in my way. That helped a ton.
I turned on all my lights and really lit the place up. Stops my from getting sleepy again and laying back down.
I gave myself permission to just be honest with myself and throw things away that I was saving but had no intentions to use. Chuck it right in the fuck it bucket. Problem solved immediately before I could lie to myself or get distracted.
I stopped to eat a lunch I was looking forward to. Just reheated the rest of my excellent steak from last night and enjoyed the shit out of that. I didn't wash the dishes right away, but having to get the dirty dishes I'd just made out of my way motivated me to put all the scattered dirty dishes into their tub. I bought a small plastic tub specifically to stack dirty dishes in so they don't get stacked in the sink and make the sink unusable, which will stop me from even starting dishes every time. One more obstacle eliminated, dishes will be easy later. I scrubbed out the sink in preparation for dishes later. Another obstacle down.
I finally found a proper place for my dirty laundry that was in the floor for 2 weeks. Shoved it into a cabinet that I emptied earlier. Now it's easily accessible, but also out of the way. I'd been leaving the laundry out on the floor as a reminder to wash it, but I know I'm just gonna keep walking on it. Got it out of the way and I feel less scatter brained with a clean floor.
Swept the floor too. Found a new place for my vacuum. Charged the battery on my hand vac since it was feeling weak. Found a better place for that battery charger and leaving it plugged in. No more excuses to not charge it, which would stop me from using it and enjoying a clean floor. It's a minor problem solved, but it solved a major problem at the same time.
I redid my bedding and made it more comfortable. Now I can lay here on my phone a little more comfortably and just rest and relax until the next wave.
I'm sure I did more little things, but that's all I've got for now. It's super rare I get this much stuff done, especially without trying very hard at all. I think the key Tomy personal productivity is implementing every single little trick I can,all at once, and allowing myself to bounce between tasks as I go. I'm not wasting my mental energy and focus trying to force myself to do certain tasks. Go with the flow works for me. Some days I will lay out a specific plan and follow it, but those are project days such as when I build something and HAVE to do it in a certain order to make any progress. Those are the harder days. I hope someone finds this helpful. I'm excited to have such a big win today. It's going to make tomorrow so much more pleasant as I go back to work and life will be far more difficult.
I'd love to read the tricks you guys use to trick yourself into getting stuff done. Anyone got anything super weird or specific they use? | ADHD |
My mother sent me a letter in an envelope with no return address and no handwriting on it so I wouldn’t know it was from her and would read it. My stepmom thinks it’s sweet that she’s trying so hard to reach out but she’s the reason I’m afraid all the time and have constant nightmares. I’ve moved several times in hopes my mother wouldn’t find my address but she keeps finding it and it’s now at the point where I’m afraid to tell any of my other family members where I live because SOMEBODY keeps telling her against my express wishes and I don’t know who. I live across the country from her but it feels like I’m never going to escape. | ptsd |
Dec 5th update:
Didn't work. Just as I was about to snooze 2hrs into taking it at night, my mom yelled my name and she talked my ear off until my Adderall wore off and I went back to not being able to sleep🕴️
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Dec 4th:
Adderall helps me relax and feel so calm, but at night, even when I'm not taking Adderall for that day or several days, I have a lot of trouble sleeping. I'm wide awake until I exhaust myself from staying up too late, or I wake up frequently tossing and turning (has nothing to do with my bed, it's comfortable).
I'm prescribed 30mg of Adderall IR twice a day but I only take it once instead of twice, but I'm thinking I should start taking my second dose at bedtime because it helps me sleep since I'm so relaxed, as in, I've taken Adderall naps before and it's bliss, so sleeping on Adderall isn't a struggle.
Has anyone else tried doing this to help them sleep? I might try it tonight and see how it goes.
And I don't think I actually have insomnia though, my brain just craves something interesting to do/ see to the point where sleeping on time feels impossible because I can't shut off my brain even with distractions away from me | ADHD |
I do this and I think it's weird because I only listen to Led Zeppelin, Rolling Stones, Pink Floyd, Jimi Hendrix, and Black Sabbath. Say I start with Led Zeppelin... I'll listen to nothing but their music for anywhere between a few months to a year, then I'll get bored with their music and start listening to Rolling Stones a few months to a year and so on. When I've finished listening to all of these bands, I'll start all over again. Does anyone else do this? | aspergers |
I’ve recently begun working an office job, and I have very mixed thoughts about it. While I enjoy having a stable income, I feel like my brain and body are melting as I sit for 8/9 hours a day. I’m usually very active, but incorporating activities feels overwhelming. I’m learning a job that I’ve been told will take a year to learn, so I understand there will be some learning curves, but I feel like I frustrate my supervisor. I will space out while she is instructing me on something important, and not even realize it until it’s too late, I’ve misplaced files, and there seems to be a billion spreadsheets for every task. All of this is condensed to a computer that I’m locked to for hours.
I do go on walks most days after work, but my brain is so frazzled after working hard to focus that it takes me two hours to cook a simple dinner, and by then, it’s time to wind down for bed. I don’t plan to stay at this job permanently- maybe just a year or two before I apply for grad school (which is a whole other thing).
I was prescribed 40mg of Adderall in University, took a break, then tried 20mg of Vyvanse. To provide some context regarding my concerns, I’ve struggled with very disordered/restrictive eating since I was 10/11. This resulted in me becoming anemic, and having hypoglycemic episodes. While my eating patterns are far healthier than they have been in the past, and I’m no longer anemic, I’m concerned that the side effects of taking medication will trigger my disordered eating. During the time period I took medication, I was in the process of recovering- but the side effect of completely losing my appetite made it VERY difficult to eat on days I took my medication. I want to note that I very sporadically took my medication because of this side effect.
There is a huge part of me that doesn’t want to rely on medication, but at the same time, I know many people find it beneficial. My focus was fantastic when I took meds, but I stopped taking it because I really needed to get in the habit of eating full meals.
Does anyone have experience with this? I plan to discuss this with my therapist soon, but I would like to hear about your coping strategies. How do you mitigate the loss of appetite side effect? What are some good strategies for dealing with an office job? | ADHD |
I want to cry . I want to allow myself to feel emotions. I also want people to stop coming to me saying they only want to be fucked . LIKE WHAT . I've lost people I have truly loved . I have been used for so long as well . Please make it stop . I WANT SOMEONE TO CARE . ALL I AM IS A OBJECT | depression |
Bolting upright in bed, unable to catch my breath tears streaming down my face, the agony of my chest feeling like it’s stuck in vice. Sheer anguish at what I’ve just seen mixed with guilt and 1000 other emotions. This is a nightly routine for me now.
I’m pre treatment awaiting cbt which is taking months while I slowly descend into a shadow of my former self unable to do anything by myself.
It’s been a year since I lost my partner. I can’t tell you what happened because I can’t get the words out, even though I relive it daily I’ just can’t.
And now on-top of the flashback nightmares I’ve started having nightmares of other people I love dying, finding them and frantically trying to bring them back in the same way. The most recent was of finding my mom face down floating in the bath, i can still feel the weight of pulling her out and the sound of her ribs under my hands.
Some logical part of me knows that my subconscious is providing me with the stimuli because I know, I know what it feels like to have to move someone from their face to their back, I know the sounds.
But is this “normal”? For my nightmares to not always just be flashback but sometimes be these horrible twisted scenarios where I have to frantically try and save people I love knowing I’m going to fail. | ptsd |
27F, I tried searching the sub but pretty much every post was a question about "new employment" while I've been with these jokers for almost 6 years. I know this is a long post and there's a TLDR at the bottom.
Like many people in this and related subs, I only recently got diagnosed with ASD, along with ADHD. I
probably showed a whole myriad of signs growing up, but it probably got ignored by the fact that mental health care in Arkansas is depressingly awful, even compared to the abysmal mental health care of the rest of the country. I also believe that the signs of my ADHD and ASD almost disguised each other in a way.
Pretty much everyone I work with is already aware that I'm fairly different from the rest of them, I rarely speak to anyone, and I actively try to avoid things like team building/group chats/etc, but I haven't told anyone because it's still new information for me, I'm not close to anyone there, and I'm afraid of the stigma and/or backlash I'd see from it.
For the most part things in the last 5 years have gone smoothly enough, I was allowed to do my job without being bothered, however my department is going through some major structural changes including a major role shift for everyone including me.
I was hired as a Fraud Prevention agent essentially, it's boring work but it was peaceful up until now. It was recently announced that everyone in my position is going to be shifted to a more customer service role. Whereas we had no contact with customers before, we're now going to be speaking on the phones with them very often by August. It will involve dealing with Returns Abuse, a problem my company has seen an increasing amount of, so the role will be combative in nature. Customers on the phone are guaranteed to be angry, loud, and spiteful. I definitely predict that ad hominems will be thrown in my direction daily, something my entire department also believes. I'm an easy target for people who specifically want to be hurtful, as I have a very quiet voice that sounds pretty similar to a whisper, and I have a hard time with verbal communication in general, sometimes in periods of stress or being flustered I'm almost incapable of forming whole sentences.
This is horrifying to me. I'm about as high functioning as anyone else, but one thing that has seriously impacted me my whole life is my complete inability to socialize. Combined with several years of history in retail before this job, as well as unrelated violent trauma in 2016, I function around people less than I ever did before. My psyche cannot handle daily barrages of irate customers hurling insults at me.
I've been speaking to my manager about my issues, and she told me that if I make a written request she can talk with her superiors about possible accommodations, maybe moving me to a text/chat communication which I'm less uncomfortable with. The problem is this would involve disclosing my ASD, as without it I don't think "I don't feel like talking to customers" is a valid explanation especially since my whole department is less than willing to take on this role shift.
I'm uncomfortable with disclosing this to employers. I know people on the spectrum have a hard time finding/keeping employment. I know that People Talk and whatever I tell my manager will probably get around and will end up in my file.
My question is, will this make my whole job more difficult instead of helping me? I want to transfer to a different department very soon at any rate. My career goals align closer to IT than fraud, and I want to move towards our tech sector so I can start getting experience. Will having "ASD" on my file make it harder to transfer? I don't necessarily want to work with this company for much longer, they're a big multibillion international monstrosity that siphons our planet's resources and exploits the people and basically goes against everything I believe, but I have to admit that if I end up in their IT department and get some experience there, it will look great for my resume for future prospects since they're well known.
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TLDR: An upcoming role shift will make my job more customer service-centric, which conflicts heavily with me being on the spectrum. I want to ask for an accommodation but I'm afraid of potential fallout/lash back/discrimination if I disclose this information
I'd love to hear anecdotes or advice or anything from someone who's been in a similar spot, I've been agonizing over this for a while and my time to do something is running short, since all this will be finalized by august. | aspergers |
Every single decision I make, I can just never choose. So I decide to ask someone to help me choose, and they always say "just do both." But I never feel like I can do both for time management, and dedication reasons (which are also heavily affected by my OCD). So then I keep thinking about it. And then if someone gives me one answer, I can't stop thinking about al the possibilities of the other choice that I'm missing out on.
This is my life constantly and it's honestly the biggest problem I've experienced with my OCD. | OCD |
i was wondering if anyone else began having ptsd symptoms years after the event? i was sexually assaulted when i was 7, but i never really realized it was assault until i was 14. when i was younger i was really hypersexual but that was about it. but after i reflected on everything at 14 i started having severe nightmares/flashbacks/panic attacks that haven’t really gone away, even though it’s years later. is this a kind of normal occurrence, or what? | ptsd |
Somewhat recently started listening to audiobooks by TJ Klune, already finished "The House in the Cerulean Sea" and now halfway through "Under the Whispering Door". They're almost like bed-time stories that deal with important topics like depression, death, love, acceptance and kindness in a very beautiful way (in my opinion). They've helped me make the time go by and have something else to think about, maybe someone else is looking for something like that too. | depression |
No matter how hard I try to make something of myself, it always fails. Every job I've had I can't keep. Every hobby I take up I obsess over for a while and lose interest. It's the same story every time. Doesn't matter how hard I try, how much effort I put in, how much I tell myself "this isn't going to be like all the other times". I always, eventually, end up at the same place I started. Unemployed, depressed and relying on my mother and government benefits.
I don't mean to be like this. I don't like people looking at me like I'm lazy. Even people who know I have autism act like I'm just lazy and use it as an excuse. But it's not that. And I can't even explain it because truthfully, I can't even pinpoint the exact problem myself. How am I supposed to show other people that I'm not just lazy when I can't even adequately explain it to myself?
There is simply a block that stops me moving forward in life. I'm not putting it there myself. For a long time I ignored it and kept pushing and pushing and pushing but yet I always end up where I started. Always. That's another thing, people have said I hold myself back. But it simply isn't true. This mindset has only come from years and years of a positive hardworking attitude getting me nowhere.
Anyone relate? | aspergers |
I have severe contamination OCD due to having an ex who was an HIV bug chaser and the other trying to purposely infect me with herpes in order to make undatable as he admitted. Long story short. I became so severely OCD, I would touch all doorknobs with sleeves and wash my hands all day. Now seeing everyone taking extraordinary precautions, distancing, washing hands etc, and act like its normal whereas WHEN I DID IT, I WAS THE WEIRDO :( | OCD |
I am 16yrs. I have been diagnosed (as related) with an unspecified anxiety disorder and my psychiatrist suspects paranoid schizophrenia.
I am currently in a foster home due to anxiety and that possible schizophrenia.
If you question my intelligence, I am just saying that it is at a higher level than my age according to the tests of a psychologist.
Since 11 years old I have had thoughts that my parents were going to / would like to kill me.
Recently (since the summer) I have had thoughts that Freemasons and the Illuminati are leading the world and want to kill us ordinary people. I also think that it means something special that an Illuminati member and I have the same birthday and that the symbol of the University of Helsinki related to Freemasonry etc. and my thoughts on studying there sometime in the future would be related in the way that I am supposed to become a Mason.
My other thoughts are that I get cyanide / poison gas / carbon monoxide poisoning and once even my parents intentionally killing me for carbon monoxide poisoning. Anxiety about this has often grown so great that I have not been able to sleep or be at home. However, I realize that others do not experience things the same way or believe them to be true. | OCD |
I feel like I'm in a death spiral.
I'm still superficially going through the motions of functioning, to varying degrees of success, but I'm running out of fuel. Every time I think I'm going to finally hit the bottom, something comes in and slows it down: be it a momentary relief, a new emotion, a \[false\] hope point, or just an external crisis demanding my attention and providing distraction. But it only ever slows the downward drift - never puts it to a halt, let alone push back up.
Every time this happens, it becomes harder and harder to drag myself back up. Every time it shows up closer and closer to the bottom. An increasingly desperate "save" in what appears to be closer and closer to the event horizon, with increasingly smaller and shorter impact.
I know I'm close to the bottom, and there won't be any way to stop it. | depression |
I read somewhere that 20% of people with ADHD also have dyscalculia. I know for a fact I have it, although I never went through my school to have it labeled as a learning disability for me because my parents just thought I was dumb. (Fun times) so I’ve never known if help was available.
Would it benefit me now as an adult wanting to go back to college to get tested for dyscalculia? Is there accommodations for it? Or is it just a “that sucks” kind of thing?
Side note: if anyone would also like to share any adhd accommodations in general they received in school I’d love to hear about those as well! I’m clueless! | ADHD |
This may sound like a ridiculous question but I have noticed in one of my sweaters that the left arm smells more pungently of laundry detergent than any other part of the sweater. I’m still curious as to what could be causing this? I have OCD and this is amplifying the problem even more. Please someone help. | OCD |
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