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Hello, I have realized recently that I understand emotions differently than most people. I understand emotions as on and off, 0 and 1, I understand two states, I don’t understand states in between if that makes any sense. Like I can be only sad and happy, and I just switch between, it doesnt shift and it is like this on every emotion in my life. Does anybody feel somehow same? | depression |
Hi,
I’m willing to make a deal with the devil just to make the intrusive thoughts go away. I keep getting intrusive thoughts of my father. He keeps laughing at me for being mentally incompetent like he is (he’s literally incompetent and projects the same onto me). I’m willing to do anything to make my life livable, but I’m very hesitant to try medication. I’m looking into ketamine therapy.
Edit - just to be clear, the meds barely do anything. I wasn’t very clear with my wording. Should have said “try medication again after it not doing much”. | OCD |
I've been struggling with depression for years, though have to say have had good times and periods of happiness. Much credit to my furry friend who was with me for 11 years. He helped me through the rough patches, getting me out of bed, or just resting by my side.
Had to say goodbye to him in September and it has been difficult, at first just shut down for a couple of months. Now keeping busy helps but on quiet days his absence hits like a punch to the gut.
I am just weary, not sure if I have the energy for the daily grind or just not sure what I am doing it for.
Been trying to do things that might help, hang out with friends, eat a nice meal, talk to a counsellor...but still just find a deficit in energy to do things versus what I feel. Just keep being drained, I know it will probably get better, not sure if I have the patience to get through. | depression |
Tonight, as it often happens, I found myself brushing my teeth after thinking to myself I would just brush them in the morning.
My secret? A tongue scraper.
Often I feel overwhelmed by the thought of brushing my teeth on top of all of the other things I need to do to get ready for bed. So my compromise with myself is to at least scrape my tongue.
More often than not, after I've done that, I find that I don't want to leave all that gunk on my teeth until morning and I'll end up brushing them as well.
Just like every other task, a tiny win can get the ball rolling. | ADHD |
So basically I am trying to get into the university and I am going to some study group for that.
The thing in here is that I know how to do most of the things but I keep forgetting them bc I dont use them and its so stupid for some math basic rules and its like relearning stuff and it keeps happening that you need to learn the same thing like over and over and im super frustrated because is only on math! | ADHD |
Hi,
As I just started working, around a month ago, I’ve noticed that it is so difficult for me to work. I work at Walgreens and the minute I walk in, I’m tired and anxious and I can’t focus properly. I walk back and forth and I can barely concentrate. I’m stocking items and I can’t focus on it for more than a couple of minutes until I decide to head to the restroom or pretend to do something else. I’m not sure how to get through this because it’s painful walking into work, and it’s boring as fuck. What do I do? | ADHD |
if you do, can you explain your circumstances?
to put it shortly, i do not feel real. i feel like i am a hoard of flesh that walks to and from my home to other meaningless places that do nothing to warm my coolness. | depression |
Today my mother unloaded on me about how much I've screwed up my life. She spent 1/2 of the time blaming herself and half blaming me. The only blame she took was not being harder on me so I learn to "grow up" better. She blamed me for walking away from things that I didn't want to do or knew deep down I couldn't handle. I've been working since I was 16 at hard jobs that burned me out over and over. Construction, customer service, other manual labor, all very overwhelming to the senses. Yet I can't get ahead in life, I can't form the right relationships at work to move up, I'm too scared to take new jobs that I don't know anything about or anyone that works there, so I keep ending up in dead in jobs making just enough to get by. Since covid hit, things have gotten so bad for me now that I'm really struggling, mentally, physically, and financially. At this point I'm stuck trying to find a new job that I feel like I can do, I've been looking but it's not easy for me. After a through ass chewing about how I was the fault for my relationships falling apart because I didn't make enough money (except I was working 3 jobs about 70 hours a week to provide for them because "that's what men do" causing full burnout) I finally said to her "YES MOM I'M A PIECE OF SHIT, I've fucked up my life and I don't know how to fix it. Every choice I've made has been wrong when I thought it was right, every thing I've tried I've failed at, everything I think I should be able to do I haven't been able to do. I've done this because I've spent my whole life being told I'm normal that I should be able to do these things, that I should live how everyone else says and does. Well I'm not, I'm not normal and I've been living my entire life with one hand tied behind my back without even knowing it." The truth is I don't blame anyone, high functioning or aspergers wasn't even a thing when I was a kid, no one knew, they just said I was the smart/weird kid. I think it finally hit her that I have been trying, that maybe there is something different about me, that I just want a normal life, but can't seem to figure out how to. | aspergers |
Something I've been thinking about recently is, surely I can't be the only one who thinks that people with lighter eyes (blue), are easier to read than people with brown eyes? I just think blue eyes are a lot more expressive, and most of the time you can tell when a person with blue eyes is feeling a certain way, whereas people with brown eyes have always been less readable to me. Is this an Aspergers trait that NT's simply just don't get? Or, is this actually something that NT's probably agree with. I mentioned it to someone like two years ago, and they were like, "I literally don't get what you mean". Btw, don't take offence brown eyed people😂 | aspergers |
I get tired, but I know I need to brush my teeth and get up before bed, I also have ocd and have night routines which clash with my lack of motivation I get up and do it. So I'll just stay in bed exhausted and scrolling through my phone until its 3am and I then just feel this sense of guilt. I also just scroll through my phone til 3am even if I have done my routines, I can't get off it even if I'm so tired and know I need to just get to bed. I don't have the drive to do all those nice bed time routines because my mind is moving 1000mph and I think about all the other things I need to do and then spend time trying to make myself do them, by the time I'm ready to get myself comfy and go to bed it's just too late and I feel gross and tired and sad. Then I'm exhausted the next day and struggle to function even more. This is literally ruining me mentally and physically, and the doctors here suck so much I was told id be on a waiting list that's over a years long to even get help. I feel completely hopeless and really need some advice from people who have struggled with sleep schedules too :( | ADHD |
A lot of the times I’ll be with my neurotypical friends and say “Oh and just in case, I’m just making sure you know I’m joking :)” and then they’re like “Yeah it’s pretty easy to tell” and in my mind I’m like “Oh right you’re not autistic-“
I just forget that not everyone needs extra clarification on tone | aspergers |
I'm 28 and I have never been employed full-time permanent. I've only done internships and I hate myself. I finished 2 STEM degrees without learning anything and I have nothing to show for it. I can't get my self to self-study so that I can pass technical coding interviews and I have fits of anger and then cry most nights when I think of how far behind I am in life compared to all my peers who are seniors now in their roles and all married with kids. These anger fits and stress legit is hurting my heart physically... I hate my dumb fucking brain I was born with that made me this fucking useless. I live in my parents basement at 28 and don't even have a FT job. I will literally go my entire 20's without landing full-time employment while these 23 years olds land $100k jobs. Fuck my entire fucking existence and fuck ADHD | ADHD |
For reference I’m in America. I went to CVS and my adhd medicine, 10 mg of folcin ER for 30 days was $60 dollars while my other medications (not for adhd) were like $10-$20. I forgot how much I payed before for my adhd medicine but it wasn’t this much. Like is this normal for it to cost this much? If so that’s ridiculous, it’s ridiculous I have to pay at all for medicine that helps me function, but this is just, really bad. | ADHD |
I just need to rant and vent or whatever.
35 weeks pregnant. Punched my husband multiple times on his butt and arms. Striked back by slapping me multiple times on my face that my right jaw still hurts. I just dont have friends that I could share this to but needs to get this of my chest.
I just want to give birth and disappear. | depression |
I'm a 26y female. Around a week or so, I stumbled upon this subreddit and started to research about aspergers more. I believe a lot of people also like me stumbled upon this by "accident" and then it all clicked together. I know this is probably a cliche, but I always felt I was different. Tryed to explain it that I am simply an introvert, even labeled it by imposter syndrome, just an odball in general and moved on.
Recently, there are a lot of things going on in my life that are going to impact my day-to-day routine, and it kinda pushed boundaries in my mind, and it's making me feel like my self control slipped, and that mask is slipping off. It's not like "ok, it's a stresfull period, it will pass and it will be ok". All in all, it's really hard to explain by words but if I had to pick one that suits the best it would be "crumbling".
Reason I am making this post is just to see if my doubts are justified. I know a schooled opinion would be the best, but I know a lot of people can verify it by themselves trough this kind of support, and also, I can't go to seek medical opinion because of nature of my job. I got trough rdos.net/asper-quiz and got [these results](https://ibb.co/yyJ2yXM). I went trough [this checklist](https://the-art-of-autism.com/females-and-aspergers-a-checklist/) and trough all categories I check at least 7-13 statements/things. Only thing that doesn't check with me is that I do actually read people pretty good, but I believe it's only because nature of my job, and over years of "analyzing" and learning from background. But I suck at eye contact. Only person I can really look into eyes is my fiance.
Few things I would like to single out. At preschool, I didn't ever played with other kids, I would just sit quietly in my corner, playing with blocks and I remember how annyoed I was how freaking loud they all were. Then after some time, my teacher told my mom I don't interact with other children, so they basically pushed me onto playing with them, without them ever asking me why I distanced myself. I believe that's the time my masking started. I was always a loner, I learned to read when I was around 5-6 and I always read about animals, plants and space. I still love it..moving on, I can't tell time immidietly from analog clock face (trough childhood in my house, there were no digital watches, so no influence of that), to this day, I'm having difficulties with multiplication table, and I have to use my fingers to add (e.g. 7+6). But I'm good at chemistry. I have a piece of gauze that I have to fiddle trough fingers to help me fall asleep (since childhood), I'm always overthinking, analyzing, basically always buzzing like a bee-hive in my mind. Someone also mentioned clothing. Most of my wardrobe is still from highschool. Here and there I buy a hoodie or a T-shirt with Pokemon or other things I like (video games mainly). But I am really, REALLY passionate about Pokemon to the point I'm embaressed with it, so I really don't talk about it much. Recently got my drivers licence, but I'm absolutely terrified of driving (anxious over the roof about it, even tough I understand mechanic pretty well).
Anyway, I hope I will not get booed here, if someone has something to add or ask, I'll be happy to answer. Im hoping to get some feedback and expirience. Thanks. | aspergers |
Hi guys, for the past couple of months I’ve been dealing with OCD. It’s so-ocd, and has crippled me. It started after my pet died, and it has made me feel so anxious. I did have a few signs of ocd before this, I would obsess about my fish tank, whether it would fall and I couldn’t knock it and would have to touch it if it made a sound. I would constantly ask for reassurance that it wouldn’t fall through the ceiling, and I would stay up and night and wake up thinking about it. I have had a little paranoia and I tend to overthink. I just need to write this all down so I can do ERP and move on with my life.
I’m guessing my mind couldn’t deal with the stress and it took something someone said in the past and took it literally. A friend made a comment about my outfit and said I looked like a cottage core lesbian. I was dressed in an outfit I felt comfortable in, which was new for me as I’ve had body issues all my life. I started to become self conscious about my clothes after that, not necessarily that I was a lesbian but just even more insecure with my looks. She was very critical of my looks, said I had a granny style (which I don’t think I did. It didn’t help that this person was also bisexual. So I think that’s what my mind has bought up.
For the first couple of weeks/months it was classic OCD (from what I’ve researched) taking tests, intrusive thoughts, thinking back to my past, avoidance in many aspects of life, dressing differently, researching endlessly about lesbians and many more things. Rumination has been a big killer for me as I’ve always been a logical person who likes to think things out and know an answer.
Through my months of having this I’ve truly felt I was lesbian at times and it feels so real. Before this I thought I was straight, I haven’t Particularly dated so I don’t have many experiences to base it off. But I did have many crushes on physical men I knew, celebrities etc. I did online date, and I did enjoy talking to him and spending time with him, not just because he was a guy and I’m supposed to like him but because I genuinely liked talking to him. I also thought he was cute and my type, brown hair and brown eyes. (I think????? My mind tries to twist things) with the online boyfriend I’ve had, he did say he liked bisexual women and I then said I might be one. I had thought about my sexuality before but nothing revolutionary came from it, and I didn’t identify as one as we broke up as I forgot about it. I’ve never really fantasied about wlw scenarios, tried porn wlw but didn’t really get anything from it, I liked a couple of erotica stories but it was just a couple of times. I mostly thought about men and women or me and a guy, read things about wlm etc. Read a lesbian webcomic, wasn’t into it and dropped it.
I’ve researched comphet, looked at the lesbian master doc, taken a few tests (a few of the lesbian tests did say I could be a lesbian but I don’t know if I was being true to myself) and I don’t relate to much of what people say it’s like. I might relate to a couple of things but I feel like it’s because I’ve never really dated, but I don’t relate to a lot of it. My family would’ve accepted me regardless of what sexuality I was and never particularly pressured me into having a relationship with a guy, from what I remember they said “you’ll find the right person when you feel like it” I’ve never been particularly homophobic and have always said it’s not my business what people are and i support whatever people do, and before this if I would’ve felt like I was one I could’ve accepted it eventually.
I’ve had lesbian friends, and I didn’t feel anything towards them, I’ve never met a woman and been sexually or mentally attracted to her and wanted to date her, so why am I so concerned with this? Even if I could be with one sexually I don’t think I could date one, long term or ever get married to a woman. Why did my mind pick this? I feel like I should’ve known if I was a lesbian, and now I just constantly think about all my experiences that might possibly make me gay. I just feel like this has taken up my entire life and now I have to wait nine months for treatment. I can’t fight this off on my own anymore. I’ve stopped doing compulsions but sometimes it’s hard not to (mental and physical) and I’ve started getting a little better but I was wondering if anyone has advice and maybe some comforting words, if you read this thankyou. | OCD |
Can anyone tell me if they have had this before? It’s super scary and I feel like I’m going nuts :( | OCD |
I have been taking 100mg of bupropion (Wellbutrin) twice a day. However, I ran out and don’t have the money to buy the refill. I will get new insurance on January 1 that will make my prescription free. So, I’m trying to make my reserves last until then.
I have some 150mg tablets that are from maybe a year ago or so. I’ve been cutting off the edges to try to make the pill into 100 mg. Then, I’ve also been taking 2 edges together to equal 100 mg. Ever since I started doing this, I have been feeling awful. My depression and anxiety surged a lot. I’m not sure if it’s because I’m not cutting the pills accurately, or if it’s because the pills are older and don’t work as good. There’s also a chance that the pills aren’t affecting it at all and that it’s just a coincidence that I’m feeling worse.
In a couple days, I’m going to switch to my 150 mg XL tablets that are supposed to be once a day. I’m not going to cut them, I’m just going to take them once a day. However, these are even older than the other pills; maybe a year and a half or 2 years old. I’m really nervous that this is going to make me feel even worse.
Does anyone have any advice or any idea of what is going on? | depression |
So in high school I used to use this method to help me study for tests. I essentially would pretend I was a different person, who had the ability to focus on studying or learning. Or like pretend I was way more interested in a subject than I actually was. Sometimes I used to pretend that someone was watching over me, but not in a paranoid way. More of like body doubling but without the other person working alongside me. It also helped if I had a teacher or a classmate that was really passionate about the subject because I would see their passion and have an example of how it looked to apply that focus into learning a subject. I don’t know if this was an adhd thing or if there’s a name for it but I’ve been really struggling with executive functioning in online classes recently and I’m trying to look into if this actually helps with productivity or if I’m just giving myself more anxiety. Does anyone else have experience using a method like mine? Also is this a thing for adhd and if so, is there a name for it? | ADHD |
Hi all.
I have OCD with going back and checking if I caused a accident with another car or hit someone. Its been going on for about 2 years and I always give in to it and go back and check or listen to the traffic report. It is really kak and annoying and a waste of time and petrol.
So today is the first day I am not checking the traffic report to see if i did anything because I know I did nothing and my anxiety is a piece of shit.
So I am sitting here and I feel like my chest is gonna explode but I am so sick and tired of having to deal with thia every day.
So I just want to say if you are also trying hard to not give into your bad patterns you are not alone 🌻 | OCD |
Hey all, so as the title says, around 5 months ago, I noticed that I was having the occasional panic attack. Very infrequent, but they were there, fast forward a few months. I’m a fiction writer, and my job is to deal in “what ifs.” But the “what ifs began to bother me. I couldn’t shake them and use them purely for fiction and began to spiral. After a few blood tests, my results came back with extremely deficient D and B12 results.
I’d never struggled with anxiety before this, depression was always my main antagonist. So, now I’ve been watching many Ali Greymond videos on YouTube (she’s a lifesaver) and reading amazing books on the topic, but still can’t quite seem to shake them. I know acceptance, allowance, and disregarding is key, and I’m keeping up with that and noticing results while also addressing the vit deficiencies, but I’m wondering if anyone has any tips or tricks for a newbie like me.
I’m continuing with the CBT/ERP as it’s working though I’m self diagnosed. But it seems once my pure I brain loses interest in a thought it throws me another in the same theme, but different enough that I fall into the trap of considering for a second. My pure ocd deals largely with the perception of reality and philosophical issues. I love to write, but haven’t as much because I want to get ahold of this, and I’m a bit depressed from all this as well. Thanks for hearing me out. | OCD |
This was hard to put in a title. Let me provide you with an anecdotal example:
I have contamination OCD. I hate using the bathroom, particularly #2, largely because my stools aren't the easiest to clean. My fear is that fecal particles will get on me or spread throughout the bathroom floor, transfer to my food, and then make me sick. To my credit, I have seen fecal particles fall from the toilet paper onto the toilet bowl, which is an immediate trigger and a reason for me to compulse.
Because of this, I usually do a deep clean with Clorox after I use the bathroom and take a shower immediately after. This takes me up to an hour to two hours.
As I've been trying to get over my OCD, I've told myself I can't clean the bathroom right away, nor am I able to take a shower immediately after. This means I have to prep and eat food feeling "dirty" since I haven't showered.
Well, just this morning, after committing to this pretty recently, I had a really upset stomach and a bad bowel movement this morning. In fact, I've been feeling bubbly all day and rather uncomfortable, kind of like I have diarrhea.
As a result, I've been engaging in my regular compulsions again and am entirely fearful of everything in the bathroom like I'm back at step 0. My hands are bleeding again from all the hand washing, and I feel crippled even more than before.
How do I move forward? | OCD |
Is this considered abuse and can I call the cops?
But what if I don’t want to let go of my mom out of guilt?
My mom:
Physically hits me and my siblings when mad, throws things in my room and tells me to clean it up, etc.
Hits my little brother who is 7.
Can I call cops? What will happen in that process? Anyone know? | depression |
I ve had weird habits since I remember, like weird rituals I have to do.
One of those is that when Im walking am always counting my steps betwen 2 similar things and they have to always be even
For example, if am walking besides parked cars the steps between them have to be even and my foot as to be in the front wheel of the last car and in the rear wheel of the 2 car(weird to explain sorry), like I cannot ytake my first step or last in the middle of the car.
I also have to be constantly tapping my legs while sitting and when Im in malls and places with that type of floor I can only step in the same colours and I cannot step on lines.
Sorry for bad English and thanks for ur help. | OCD |
Does anyone here self-medicate with caffeine pills e.g. Vivarin? Is it sustainable and have you felt any side effects?
I’m 22, working my way through a tough semester in college. If I don’t catch up with coursework soon I’m afraid suicidal ideas will get worse.
I’ve tried different antidepressants but hated feeling mentally slower. I’m considering taking caffeine pills daily because coffee just isn’t enough anymore.
Would appreciate any advice. | depression |
How to cope up with the change in schedule during long vacations and long flights?
Or do you hate to travel altogether? | aspergers |
I have done research
People with it have said that I probably have it
I literally pace around my room muttering sales figures of the Nintendo GameCube and why it flopped and I just want to get diagnosed but I literally can’t and I’m too young to see a doctor and my parents don’t even believe me because they think ADHD is kids throwing chairs and disrupting class but they literally tell me off for stuff that is ADHD symptoms and I just don’t know why it’s not clicked for them?? I’m not sure if posting here would help but I just kinda wanted to get it off my chest because it’s really affecting my life and education | ADHD |
What is "Criminal Autistic Psychopathy"? I thought that statistics point out that most people with ASD are ten times more likely to be victims and five times less likely to commit crimes than the general population.
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Sources of the websites that makes me confused:
[sciencedirect.com/science/article/abs/pii/S0924933811719952](https://www.sciencedirect.com/science/article/abs/pii/S0924933811719952)
[pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/17032961](https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/17032961)
[wikipedia.org/wiki/high-functioning\_autism](https://wikipedia.org/wiki/high-functioning_autism)
[youtube.com/watch?v=7GjuAdqi1nA](https://youtube.com/watch?v=7GjuAdqi1nA)
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Are scientists arguing that since Autism is a spectrum that there must be rare form of developmental disorders that causes ASD and causes people to commit crimes at the same time?
I am so confused. | aspergers |
I'm on the road to recovery and learning to say no to rumination. Sometimes I give in. Sometimes I nearly do but choose not to because I'm sick of the demon and I JUST WANT TO GET BETTER, AT ANY COST | OCD |
So after 2 years of struggling, and 6 months of therapy and medication changes I think I am finally getting over my current obsession. I am so relieved and I think it’s FINALLY fading. Now I’m terrified of gaining a new obsession. After struggling with the same one for 2 years I am terrified I will find something else to obsess over... right now I am taking 40 MG of Prozac and Klonopin as needed and I am finally starting to feel good again. I’m terrified of being in a bad place again.
Thanks for any help/support. | OCD |
Literally. I’m not even that bad, yet I still feel terrible for him. This shit sucks. How do I stop making it suck? | depression |
And I feel like I haven’t been doing well for a long time. And I don’t know how to make myself feel better. | depression |
I am treated for the depression (lithiumER & regular, lamotragine,prosac, guanfacine) and anxiety. I have Xanax(fast acting sedative) and Sonata/Zaleplon which usually knock me out. I am able to take more Xanax and have. My stress levels are through the roof.
Some say to try breathing techniques and that only makes me focus on how I'm not breathing evenly or too fast, too slow and usually starts a panic attack. I try playing movies in the back ground but my mind drowns them out and I'm flooded with a bombardment of my situation and how I cannot control any part of it. I feel like I'm left alone with my thoughts and it's not a place I like to be.
My PTSD comes from domestic violence so I do get to sleep I am easily triggered by ANY sounds, pets jumping on the bed, partner getting up in the middle of the night, etc. I am super jumpy and afraid for my life so I am unable to get back to sleep.
I am safe no longer in the abusive relationship.
Can anyone relate? | ptsd |
So ive been diagnosed with ADD for almost all my life and my mother knows how it works and when I forget stuff or do nothing all day bc im to busy panicking about all the stuff I gotta do its bc of my ADD.
However I feel my bf doesnt know what ADD is yet he tries to understand but he still feels like I forget stuff on purpose because I can remember some stuff but not the other as in being selective.
How do you best explain that I really dont choose to forget even when I walk past whatever I need to do that day its because I really forget its even there.
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Also sorry if I make mistakes in this post english isnt my first language :) | ADHD |
pre isolation I was barely hanging on, with seeing and talking to my friends in person to help me and if I had a breakdown at school I texted my friend to come and get me, but now I'm stuck in a house where everyone's at my throat, no one really is texting or calling me, and I don't get alot of sleep, I wake up from night terrors, and I always try my hardest to be friendly and happy, but I feel empty, Im very alone physically and mentally, I have people to talk to but I start typing and then I loose any will to keep typing, and I feel that typing this, I try talking about my shit but I feel like I'm annoying people cause they just say "I'm sorry" and just never reply again, and just stop texting me, and I've been really struggling from the isolation and from the constant nightmares, I can't catch any breaks and I hate being like this, alot of the time I just want to end it so I don't have to keep feeling like this,
Stay safe, love you guys | ptsd |
I wonder if someone feels the same. The question may be odd. It came up in my therapy that I don't feel connection of time. Like I live only one day, today. There's no sense of being me yesterday or that I will be tomorrow. I've read that it can be connected to past traumas which I have.
That feeling of not connected to my past comes up with a bad productivity in life. I feel like I can't do any task which takes more than one day. Because it has no sense, if I live only one day, today, there's absolutely no sense in doing something for two days, because it's just not me! I hope my explaining is clear at least.
Thanks for reading this! I hope you're doing well there...
And does anyone feel something similar? | ptsd |
Is popping your knuckles until it feels a certain way or you hear a certain sound ocd? | OCD |
My therapist is urging me to look into taking Zoloft to help with my OCD. If you’ve taken this for OCD how was your experience? Was it successful? Any side effects? | OCD |
I'm just looking for advice, anyone's welcome to speak, but I'd like to know any another male perspective on it too. Is anyone nauseated by sex with intimacy after being sexual abused? I have urges for sex, and when I do it's a hook up, but sex with a partner terrifies me. Giving away my trust, even letting someone touch me, it makes me disgusted.
Sometimes I can do it tho, but after is when I have the panic attacks. Last time I was with a S/O I had a nightmare of a black snake crawling up my leg, and it scared me so bad I jumped out of bed and left the house. That was that, I couldn't sleep in the same bed as her, and ended up splitting less than a week later.
Has anyone else dealt with these kinds of nightmares, and nauseated feelings? How do you cope? | ptsd |
I started deliveroo the other day and boy did it feel good but it seems when I don’t get an order I start obsessing that I’ve done something wrong on the account and then it triggers all my other ocd’s because I’m stressed out. | OCD |
Like today I felt almost normal because I had thoughts but I somehow was able to avoid ruminating 90% of the time so they were short lived and I'm not even doing erp yet. Not sure if it was because we went out with family for a bday but only one or two times I got moderately triggered by family, and the rest of the day almost felt easier to handle even though a lot of conversations and situations would have been VERY triggering at other times.
This made me feel good but also a bit scared that maybe I actually don't have ocd lol because it was pretty bad a week ago, even moderate yesterday. We'll see how it goes tomorrow. I'm glad it's better today but scared this means my OCD isn't real.
Does anyone else have almost normal days that confuse you? | OCD |
My therapist wants me to go to al-anon. She thinks it will help me understand and cope with my mom’s issues (addiction, alcoholism, and bi-polar disorder). She also said I would probably meet a few people with childhood experiences similar to mine.
I guess I’m afraid to go because I don’t want to think about my past, or my moms behavior. I don’t want it to open up a can of worms for me, but maybe I need to in order to heal? I’m really not sure.
She is mostly sober but has slip ups about once a year now. I do think she is still abusing stimulants but I don’t think she is drinking.
For those of you with an addict family member, have you gone to Al-Anon? Would you suggest “opening the can of worms” and thinking/talking about my past and my moms behavior towards me? Or am I better in the dark?
I do like being in the dark and telling myself all of this is behind me but I’ve had severe treatment resistant depression and anxiety for years. My therapist thinks it stems from my past. I don’t want to have to face the demons of the past but I also don’t want to live like this anymore. | ptsd |
[https://youtu.be/ctmdeOSKGGA](https://youtu.be/ctmdeOSKGGA)
Link to daily videos to help, inspire and motivate those with PTSD. You're not alone, and I'm here to try to help. | ptsd |
hi! my name is lav, and i'm fifteen years old. if you have OCD that is triggered by sexual references made by minors, i suggest you click away.
i've been struggling with pOCD since last september, one month after i turned fifteen. before that, i had milder OCD - thoughts that didn't really stick, about my dog, or my dad. then one day in september, my little brother clambered on top of me - as little brothers are wont to do, and his hand touched my thigh, and i immediately started thinking, "his hand just touched your thigh. why are you noticing this?? does it matter? your older brother never notices, why are you?? did you like it?"
that day, i hid inside of my room, crying, digging my nails into my flesh every time i started to disassociate (which is a very common thing for me to do when i'm having what some would call an 'OCD attack'), and hitting my forehead with the palm of my hand hard enough to see stars, just to avoid spiraling into the thoughts. i did an insane amount of research- hours upon hours of it, until i found information about pOCD. i knew immediately that i had it - i am very protective of my little brother, and i consider the general protection of minors to be of utmost importance; and as OCD attacks your core values, what else could it be?
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unfortunately, the fun little side of my brain that wants me to suffer didn't listen to that logic.
from then on, i started having unwanted, sexually graphic thoughts. i was already easily triggered by sexual things due to experiences in the past - and having this type of OCD made it even worse. it was a constant onslaught of disgusting things, all the time, and it was traumatic. every single day, i couldn't make it through without doing research, mental checks, groinal checks. i immediately knew i had to get some kind of help, and luckily i had the resources to do so. i booked my first therapy session with a Christian counsellor - and i'm an athiest. i made it through two sessions before she started using metaphors i wasn't fully comfortable with, so i opted out of therapy until recently. i booked it with a therapist who is also an athiest, and who specializes in OCD.
what prompted this was a trip to disney world. kids, everywhere, all the time. it was very, very difficult to enjoy the trip. it's gotten to the point of where i'm so desensitized to the graphic thoughts that my OCD literally uses that against me. "why aren't you outwardly disgusted? why aren't you hurting yourself like you did that first day?"
i had my first session with her after ages of sending insurance information (since i'm a minor, extra steps had to be taken). it went great - i cried in the first five minutes. my next session, we're going to start exposure therapy. it sounds completely terrifying, and i want to put it off forever? but also i just want it to get better. i can't live my life anymore. i can't be friends with people even one year younger than me because i feel like a creep.
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i am hoping against hope that i will make it to 20. i consistently have the self-prompted, non-intrusive thought of "if i don't have OCD, if i actually am a pedophile, i'm going to kill myself," and i am almost certain that i will.
i really really need it to work | OCD |
I can not sleep just by the fear of sleep paralysis I know it’s my anxiety or ADHD making me overthink something so small and simple but I’m honestly terrified. I can not sleep after having sleep paralysis the night before. Please help
I’ve been on adderall on and off so it’s very inconsistent but recently I’ve been pushing myself to take it daily and although it helps I recently been having sleep paralysis this is the second or third time this week this has happened. I know it’s not harmful and I’ll be fine but just the thought of it is enough to keep me up. This has been effecting my sleep and been stressing me out all day.
Please if anyone has something that could help that would be amazing I really just want to go back to my normal sleeping pattern. This is exhausting. Please and thank you very much | ADHD |
Hey guys
I am noticing a pattern that when I get a PTSD related panic attack, it usually starts with ringing in my ears. Seems to be a new "early warning" thing for me.
Anyone else get this? I never had this before but a recent trigger has my panic attacks hitting me much harder and differently.
Tx for the read | ptsd |
I just want to say, this subreddit has been amazing since I joined and I no longer feel afraid to say I have PTSD. And that it’s ok not to do things if I’m uncomfortable. I’m a people pleaser so sometimes when I’m uncomfortable I feel like I have to hide my triggers and episodes because I don’t want to burden others. But I’ve realized, vulnerability is a good thing and the first step to healing! So thank you! I’ve still got a long way to go of where I want to be but I just want y’all to know, this subreddit is healing. I see it happening in the fellowship here daily. | ptsd |
I just walked past a recycling bin that had someone's dirty soiled underwear on top. It was on the top near the back but I'm still so nervous. What if I brushed past it and now there's feces psrticles on me!!! Would someone without ocd just look at it and think ew and carry on with their day or is it rational for me to come home and shower and clean myself because what if I brushed past it and didn't notice?? What if my hand or phone brushed past it. I didn't realise it was there until I was halfway past it and I don't recall touching anything but still... how do I deal with this one 😭 I can't relapse..
Ps I only noticed it was there because I was looking at the floor while walking | OCD |
EDIT: I've been corrected that this is actually \*OPERANT\* conditioning. Thanks u/rngdngdgtydngddng!!
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A good way of managing ADHD is to develop and strengthen the neural pathways which reward delayed satisfaction behaviour. \*operant\* conditioning is a good way to step by step train this.
**Context**
ADHD is a lack of Dopamine in certain areas of your brain. Dopamine is the "reward" chemical in your brain and your brain is absolutely addicted to it.
So addicted in fact that when it has a shortage it will strongly force you to carry out activities which "boost" dopamine production.
Things like Binge eating, binge watching shows, scrolling paralysis, hyperfixation etc....
Stimulant medication slow you down by boosting production of dopamine without you having to carry out a dopamine boosting activity. That way your brain won't act like a crackhead in withdrawal all the time.
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**Objective**
Most people get a dopamine hit after completing chores - the problem for ADHD people is that completing said chore involves multiple tedious steps which are not immediately dopamine inducing.
We still get the dopamine hit, but it occurs at the end of the chore...not throughout it.
This delayed satisfaction means your brain will always prefer an activity which gives you an instant hit, rather than the delayed gratification.
The objective is to train your brain to better desire the delayed gratification activity by strengthening those neural pathways.
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**The plan:**
Find a quick reward, e.g. a snack (savoury or sweet, choose your favourite), play a song you really love etc...
Breakdown your large chore into smaller steps - Try to write them down if you can.
After you complete each small step reward yourself and rest for 1,2 minutes while you enjoy the reward before proceeding to the next step.
At the end of the whole chore your brain will get a huge dopamine boost because you finished the chore.
Follow this for a couple of days up to a week.
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Then start spacing out the reward but increase the reward in correlation of how many steps you completed in a row, e.g. every 2 small tasks done without a break give yourself the twice the reward. Do this for another couple of days - 1 week.
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Then increase it further, 5 steps followed by 5x the reward. do it for a week.
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Repeat the above, each time increasing the distance from the reward and the amount of reward you get, until you are able to complete the entire chore without stopping.
At the end enjoy both the dopamine boost of the satisfaction of having completed the chore and equally the satisfaction of the reward.
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Well done, you've just made your brain become addicted to a chore.
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Choose another chore you want to become addicted to and repeat process and profit. | ADHD |
Howdy! So today I'm going to briefly explain some of the neurobiology behind OCD.
To start off, those with OCD have overactive prefrontal cortexes, as well as a threat response symptom thats overactive. That part of the brain that says all is good and safe, doesn't work properly with OCD. Our overactive prefrontal cortexes cause us to have way more thoughts then most people.
Along with that, in certain areas of the brain, we don't utilize serotonin as well as those in the general population. This can lead to irritability, anxiety and repetivite behaviors and ruminations. But here's the catch, most often ssris are prescribed for OCD, and only about 1/3rd of the time do they help. Why is this?
Well this is because new research has shown there are many other neurotransmitters involved in OCD. Glutamate, for example, is much higher in those with OCD, as well as Norepinepherine. Both of these neurotransmitters are excitatory and keep the body in a heightened state of alertness.
Well you might be thinking "a heightened state of alertness? I can't focus on anything, I'm in a derealized state all the time". Well this is actually due to the fact that were *too alert*. We are on such high alert that our body sees freezing and dissociating as our only way to survive.
We also tend to have more dopamine in our brains than most people, leading to increased goal directed activity. Too much dopamine equals addictive behaviors and anxiety. Too little actual can resulr in addictive behaviors and depression.
Due to all the excitatory stuff going on, our body downregulates cortisol to conserve energy and uses it only when we feel threatened. So most of the time we may feel flat emotionally and then once we start getting anxious our body dumps way too much cortisol, making us aggitated.
We have way too little gaba in our bodies, or we just have way too much glutamate. Glutamate and gaba work as a sort of teeter totter. If gaba is too low we have depression and anxiety. Same if glutamate is too high.
So how can we get things back into balance? First off, ERP. By challenging the anxiety we can train our brains to see that there isn't any dangerous, and bring some of the chemicals back into balance. Now if your OCD is so severe that you cannot participate in ERP at this time, there are medications that can help such as SSRI's which are often used first but again only work 30% of the time. So in addition glutamate inhibitors can help such as lamictal/lamotrigine (may temporarily make the symptoms worse at first cus when glutamate goes down, dopamine rises). And atypical antipsychotics such as low doses of abilify. Low doses of atypical antipsychotics are generally safe and don't cause side effects cus the doses are much lower then whats generally used. If someone with an actual psychotic disorder needed abilify they'd use 15-30 mg generally where as someome with OCD may use 2-5. This medication works by regulating dopamine and sometimes serotonin. So if you have too little dopamine itll increase it, if you have too much, itll reduce it. Another option is norepinepherine blocking agents such as propranolol and clonidine (good if you have trouble focusing). For supplements NAC is supposed to help and so is vitamin d3 due to its ability to help regulate neurotransmitters. | OCD |
I have pretty severe disabling ocd. ive posted here a million times. i just got a new job 2 days ago, and im already having issues. coworker has like.. either dried blood or scabs on his hands?? im fucking horrified hes going to transmit hiv to me because we've been sharing equipment and stuff... what is the solution to this i cant lose a 6th job to this disorder. this is it for me. | OCD |
I have mental and physical hyperactivity so I can't sleep unless i'm completly exhausted.
At night, my mind is going crazy, and physically, I do involutary twitch movements.
Is there some tricks to calm down my hyperactivity before sleep? Would flailing about before sleep until exhaustion calm down the hyperactivity? Note that I'm not on meds yet | ADHD |
My thoughts keep telling me that it’s not depression but there’s just something wrong with me as a person. Where do I draw the line between mental illness and myself? | depression |
tw mention of SA and victim blaming (i think)
just got an ad about a guy (red flag #1) running a panel type thing at a campus (red flag #2 as lots of people do this to try to spread their dumb opinions) about how “rape culture is a myth” and i feel sick.
as for that first red flag im not trying to get across that all men are terrible and do things like that. im a guy myself but you’re just spitting straight bullshit if you’re trying to disprove something experienced mainly by women.
he’s also said he’s never been raped. another red flag.
stop fucking talking about shit that you’ve never experienced.
he was also called out by a girl who said she was raped and the guy treated her like she was crazy.
why did i get this ad? me? a fucking victim? i feel sick. why did yt even approve an ad like that?
good ads/opinions or not, i feel like political ads or similar shouldn’t be allowed on yt. its just unnecessary. stop pushing your shit onto other people. | ptsd |
TLDR: NT female ND male, both older, ND male changed behaviour. NT trying to make sense of it, how to approach someone with Aspergers?
Dear community members, do you have insights for me please?
So there is me, F, NT, who met a guy 1,5 years ago. It was meant to be friendship but he fell for me. Back then I still had a relationship, albeit seeing its final days. He really tried his everything, grew close, brought me presents, showed loving emotions and generally was really into me. I had no idea but in the end I fell for him too, we clicked very well and had this deep connection (or so I thought) that I have been missing all my life. This was best beginning of the year and I felt so lucky, even if I already sensed that some things were off with his behavious in general.
Then in March he just became like a pal. We agreed we would not be making anything official as both drained from previous heartache. So he would be retaliating when I asked what was wrong that we are not a couple and Ive no grounds to expect stuff - yet I was spending time with him, and he would want sex. Oh and this: if I wanted to have sex he would get almost irritated and find excuses to stay away. Before that it was so harmonious.
It is september now and we are still spending time together. He has no diagnosis but ticks most boxes for Aspergers. A mutual psychologist friend of ours thinks the same of him too.
I asked him what he wants from me, he said he just wants to do things, be together, hang. He cooks me coffee and breakfast, he still seem to want my body every now and then (he seems stressed with a massive project now though) he seems to want me around. But I also feel like he could just throw me away if he gets bored or enthusiastic about some new girl..? Mind you I don’t have massive self esteem.
So.. he wants no hassle with relationships. He told me once he could not love anybody else other than me. He involves me in stuff dear to him, wants to do things together.
But like today for example, he is ignoring things Ive told him, significant things important to ME for once. He seems to take me for granted at times. I would also like to be physical towards him, not just wait for him to get horny.
I dont know how to find out about what he really wants, I dont want to make him feel cornered, but I starting to feel super sad, unwanted, unappreciated now. It’s like th demo version expired and Im left with this huge yearning for that person from last year. But dont want to give up on us just yet. Any tips? Does anyone resonate with this? | aspergers |
I’m currently interning in a lab and I enjoyed it very much. My advisor so far has been very supportive of my research projects (though I did not tell him I have ADHD and its comorbidities) and enthusiastic about having me in his lab if I ever applied for grad school. However when I told this to my school therapist, he seemed very concerned- especially since research projects are open-ended, and there’s a lack of structure/deadlines compared to how it is in undergraduate years or when we work in companies (I usually work “best” under pressure, i.e. nearing the deadline) Moreover, I’m very clumsy, forgetful, and lackluster when it comes to planning (I tend to underestimate the time needed for my experiments to finish)
which leads me thinking, is pursuing a PhD a good idea for us with ADHD? Has anyone gone through this before? I’m wondering if it’s gonna be manageable and whether I’ll be able to survive if I ever decide to go for it. My school has quite a strict requirement for graduation from PhD programs and I’m wondering if it’s still worth it to apply. | ADHD |
You mean hiding your autistic traits and acting "normally"? Or what? It confuses the hell out of me everytime i read posts that say something like "ive masked so hard all my life i dont know who i am". Do you realize that everyone has to more or less hide who they are and thats just how it works?
I can perfectly understand that this can be hard. I couldnt do it without the help of occasional sedatives. Ive been bullied and picked on by nts before because of my strange behaviour and sensitivity.
But i dont understand why you talk about having to hide who you are like its something unique to having aspergers. Or more importantly, why would you even want to show yourselves to the world? Dont you realize that the world is full of fucked up people who will just evaluate your weak spots and strike right at them? Its safer to be unseen and behind a mask. | aspergers |
I live with my family right now because of Covid and my relationships with them are starting to become significantly strained because of my contamination OCD. I’m doing the best I can but I guess it’s not enough. Does anyone have any advice to help this issue? They don’t really understand what I’m going through and they try to help and lead me to helpful recourses but they just keep getting mad at me all the time. | OCD |
I’m imr with i’m either going to get really high or I’m just gonna straight up die or I might get liver failure so you know just a fun no you know I’m just I’m just chilling. Although I’m weirdly happy for someone who just might die. Oh well see ya if I die though | depression |
I feel emotionally numb from a tragic personal life. I feel dead inside. I'm usually very empathetic, but my sense of empathy for other people has disappeared. I just don't feel anything, except for the occasional spike of sadness followed by tears. Rage. And then nothing again.
I don't know what to do. I feel like this is the end. | depression |
a few weeks ago i made a post on what to say to my parents to take me to someone. i ended up asking but they both completely disregarded it and did no research about it and sad that its something to do with me being a teenager and that i'm just not getting enough sleep atm.
i was talking to my friends about it and they're all being super supportive about it, they were saying that i'm able to go there on my own on like a bus or something but ik for sure that i wouldn't be allowed to leave my room for the next 4 years.
i just really want some sort of help because its impacting daily life and school a ton.
edit: btw i'm 14 from england if that helps? | ADHD |
My life is a disaster. I love my family so much. They love me if I’m perfect.
It’s so hard to live up to everyone’s expectations. Then they claim they have no expectations when they do. | depression |
edit: thank you everyone for your insight and advice. I’ve decided to reach out to my supervisor to hopefully discuss some options and new approaches to my workflow to mitigate mistakes so that I can do better. I will not be explicitly stating I have adhd, just briefly mentioning what I struggle with and what I think may help me do better going forward. i’m super anxious about it, but hopefully the discussion will help in the end!
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apologies if this gets to be a bit of a ramble, I’ll try to keep this as short as I can! made a throwaway since I’m a bit anxious posting.
lately I’ve been in a pretty serious downward spiral in my professional work. I’ve found myself making a lot of careless mistakes without realizing until hours or sometimes days after. been struggling to remember tasks that were told to me (verbally) within minutes of being explained, and even when I try to write what’s said down, I miss a handful of details and feel embarrassed having to then ask people to repeat themselves constantly. combine all that with executive dysfunction, dissociation, struggles with motivation, etc etc, and it’s been a huge mess for me. I’m only now managing to get back on track with my work, but am way behind on various time sensitive tasks and feel like I’m constantly playing catch up. not to mention, people depend on my work to get what they need done, so there’s a lot of guilty feelings as well.
I was diagnosed with inattentive type adhd and autism somewhat recently (within the last few months), and am still coming to terms with what that means for me and how best to navigate it.
I find myself wanting to explain to the people I work with (notably my supervisor) that I’ve been seriously struggling mentally in recent weeks - maybe to show that the mistakes I’ve made aren’t “malicious”, “intentional” or “airheaded”. but is this reasonable/acceptable to do in a professional environment? do you see it as an excuse for not being on top of things? should I just “suck it up”?
have you experienced this in your own field of work, and have you taken the opportunity to be open about personal struggles with those you work with? would you tell your boss you have adhd? why/why not? | ADHD |
I just got medicated with Vyvanse last Friday, it's been working really well but I'm still depressed.I can finally concentrate, find all my belongings, cook, follow most conversations, stay focused on tasks until they're done.
But my life still sucks. I feel so behind compared to everyone, who found full-time jobs after graduation, have their licenses and have a good social group.
I don't even have a plan after I graduate. In uni and driving lessons, I have to learn everything, I've already learnt again, this time medicated.
I spent my last 20 years, mostly shutting myself out, because I can't do normal things like pay attention in conversations, keep my body still and stay on topic.
I spent the last three years of my undergrad half-assing a boring major, just because it was easy and now I'm lost.
I am angry that even though now I can concentrate and do things I'm not happy. Woo, I can clean my room but boo life still sucks.
TLDR: Medicated at 20 but life still sucks. | ADHD |
Hello there reddit. I got diagnosed with ADHD at 25 years old. I always just scrapped by in school and couldn't concentrate. I wish we could have caught it sooner. I am prescribed Vyvanse and It works great for me. The only problem I have is the price of it. It's ~$200 a month for my meds. I can't afford it. I have explained this to my doctor. He won't switch me to something cheaper because I have had a good response to Vyvanse. I have been without my meds for a while now and I am not doing any better. I am stuck in a cycle of homeless and it's partly because of my ADHD. Anyone in a similar position? I am down to hear anything you would like to share. | ADHD |
So first off I'm not talking about your average thought of OCD. Washing hands, perfectionism. No I'm talking about obsessiveness in how you walk, talk, how you put your shirt on.
Those who suffer OCD and found a way to get a little better. Do y'all ever find yourself slipping back into old habits of making things certain ways your OCD demands.
How do you make certain you notice these habits and don't fall back to step one | OCD |
I've just had so much brain fog lately. I haven't been able to concentrate on my schoolwork at all, and what I can concentrate on has seemingly become increasingly pointless. I've started neglecting things and I just can't. Focus. My appointment, which hopefully will get me prescribed some medication, was set up all the way in September, meaning I had to wait over a month because it was the only time an appointment was open. It's been such a hard month, especially recently, and there are times I feel like I can barely handle it.
I just want some help. | ADHD |
First post on this sub. I’ve driven exclusively manual transmission cars because I’m more focused on the road. When I drive auto cars I start watching and paying attention to everything and anything but the road and other cars. I still do the driver seat disco (eat and drink coffee and search for minutes a song I feel is appropriate even though that takes my whole car ride so I just end up driving in silence) but in manual cars I am forced to pay attention because shifting gears is like a white noise for everything else.
Edit: thanks for my first award kind stranger! | ADHD |
I made a last minute decision tonight to change up my right-before-bed ritual. My plan was to make it a quick check. I was only going to check everything casually once or twice, listen to some ASMR mindfulness mediation and sit with any anxiety but I got stuck on the lock.
The back door lock is the hardest. It makes me so upset because I am staring at it and I know it’s locked. I just want to walk away. I want to relax in my bed until I fall asleep without a worry but every time I try to walk away I’m rushed with the what if’s.
I did manage to resist the urge to go back to the room where the door is after I finally left. | OCD |
I confessed to my therapist a couple weeks ago that I've been having persistent, intense thoughts of suicide. I've even settled on a method. I used to do BJJ, so I know what being choked unconscious feels like and I know that if you don't wake up from being choked, you just don't wake up. I'll let you fill in the blanks but I have a flat cloth belt that locks in place anywhere down the length of the belt and I keep it with me in the car at all times.
He asked why I'm still here. What things have stopped me from doing it up till now? I said because of what it would do to my mom and what it would do to my girlfriend if I died in that way. I thought of how hurt they would be and the derangement it would cause in their lives and I just can't do that to them.
I've been thinking about that question for a while...
Why? What's the reason I'm still alive despite all this pain? What keeps me going?
I realized that's the meaning of life, at least for me. The things that keep you alive, are the things that give life meaning. If you want to stay alive, if you want more meaning in life, give those things more effort. Whatever your reason is; it could be anything at all, pour your whole self into it, because it may save your life in that moment when you stand on the edge. I've been in that darkness, I know it well and I know how powerful good memories can be. Make the purpose of your life to add more things worth living for. Make every moment a search for things that, in the deepest darkness can pull you back from the brink and you'll find each day you stand a little further from it.
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I’ve been wanting to give hello ahead a shot to receive a diagnosis and treatment for my suspected adhd. i’ve been having a lot of issues the past 2-3 years and it has progressively gotten worse and definitely want to get help. i live in texas and i was just wondering if anyone knew how much it would be? for the two appointments + prescription, i don’t have insurance and also tight on money since i’m a college student. and are the appointments virtual or in person? lastly if anyone has had any good/bad experiences please let me know, or if you have any other resources/treatments/tricks it’s all appreciated, thanks! | ADHD |
here we go again. scrupulosity is definitely a hard theme to get rid of, because it isn’t always fake. Sometimes the things you worry about are real. Sometimes you actually do things wrong, it’s not always fake panic in your brain.
You can imagine the cycles i go through. “Is this real?” “Did i actually do it?” “Maybe it’s just my ocd” But i never know. i never know the answer. i just hope that i make the right decision. It’s mentally and emotionally exhausting. It happens multiple times a day. Was it wrong of me to laugh? Did i even laugh at all, or was it just my urge? I never know. I’m so tired of this. I shouldn’t have to live like this. | OCD |
I don’t know how to explain my thoughts and feelings or apply them to situations. I don’t understand the things society deems normal or understand why I don’t feel what others feel to various situations | aspergers |
big TW for bugs!!
One of my biggest triggers is certain types of bugs and insects. Anything . I live in an old house, so I see them quite often and have AWFUL panic attacks upon seeing them. Does anyone else struggle with this? If so, how do you cope? It's starting to really effect my life. | OCD |
I’ll start this off by saying this is the 2nd time I have smoked weed in the last 3 months. I started getting severe anxiety from smoking weed before I took a break from it for about 3 months. I believe I had a ptsd induced panic attack that lasted 2 hours it was completely debilitating which I will get into.
When I was about 8-10 years old. I can’t specifically remember I was sexually abused by my cousin who is male and 3 years older than me. I hadn’t hit puberty at the time he had. He made me do sexual acts with him and I did it because I loved him we were best friends and he took advantage of me. I didn’t understand what was going on i didn’t like it and after i told no one this is actually the first time I have ever said a single thing about this to anyone but I need to. I didn’t think about what happened until about 3 years ago almost like my brain 100% blocked it out. But over the last 2 years I have intrusive thoughts and memories of it 1-2 times a day I just can’t do this anymore. I still talk to him and I get anxious when he won’t call me back and want to hang out. I can’t understand why I don’t hate him. Our whole family has substance abuse issues he is currently going to rehab for the 2 time. I have been to rehab once already.
Now I’ll get into the time line
8:00pm
Took 8g of kratom and was just watching YouTube in my room I was in a bad headspace and was struggling to recognize my bad anxious thoughts about my future and how I have no motivation to do anything.
12:00 pm
I could sleep so I just laid in bed my emotions were numb idk why I just felt like this for a while.
1:00 am
I was becoming increasingly irritated and anxious about the fact I couldn’t sleep. So I decided to smoke a little weed and I mean a extremely small amount like probably if it was laying flat on my desk it was as big as my pinky nail. It was one hit and done so I was expecting just to fall asleep easily.
1:15am
The effects become increasingly stronger and I start getting into negative thought loops. My heart rate started getting very high I checked it it peaked at 130 bpm and I thought I was going to die. Anxiety was confusing to get worse I couldn’t sit still and lay down. Every time I Laid down my thoughts just got so loud I couldn’t discern them from reality. I thought I was going to be crazy forever. I can’t even put how scary this was into words.
1:30 am
The negative effects continue to get worse and worse beyond what I thought as possible. And then at one moment something clicked and I was re-living the trauma all over again. I thought in my head if I can’t calm myself down my brain is actually going to break. Luckily I know a lot of coping skills I did yoga along with breathing techniques to get me into my body and out of my mind.
1:35 am
At this point I was in a full panic attack I lost track of reality my heart was beating out of my chest and I was re living the experience repetitively if I didn’t know these coping skills I thought to myself I would actually go crazy forever. This panic attack for almost 2 hours but for the last 40 to 30 minutes it was much easier to handle.
3:30am
I finally was able to fall asleep
Next day
I felt extremely paranoid and anxious the next morning. I took kratom Agin which really helped me. I just felt like I was on the edge all day until about 5 o’clock when I got off work. This was one of the worst experiences I’ve had in my entire life. Please give love and support I really need it right now. If you have any advice or things I should do to help please let me know I love you all ❤️ | ptsd |
Tw. Dissociation, intrusive thoughts about harming someone
Sometimes I have this strange urge... To beat people. I mean, I haven't beaten anyone in my entire life, but right now I have this strange desire, and the fact that I'm not scared ENOUGH of this kinda... Scares me. All my life I've been shutting down all my anger, there were no connection with this emotion, and maybe this is the case why these thoughts are chasing me... I'm just scared, but I'm in a huge dissociation and extremely tired, but I have this suspicious tense in my arm muscles, and it needs to be released.... I just fantasize about this, and in my fantasies I'm scared that, when I do this, I'm just not aware of the consequences, like I can do this with no hesitation and be absolutely numb when other people are hurt. Why do I need do destroy, is this actually okay to have this desire. I'm just sometimes scared that, if I go to therapy, there will be exposed some terrifying truth about me, and with that I should be isolated from society
I just wish it's just repressed anger coming on the surface....
I'm scared of the fact that I wanna somehow ruin all these limits, but of course I'm aware I'm not gonna do that....
All these thoughts always sabotage my desire to escape my toxic environment, like I don't deserve treatment. I'm so tired, and it feels like there's so much destruction inside of me. I wanna cry, I'm afraid of feeling disconnected from reality, like I can destroy everything around me
Like I don't have empathy. I think it's not enough. I'm tired that I just don't care about people, I always shut down all my disgust towards them, and I'm tired that I experience this disgust towards everyone, even people that are so kind and sweet. I'm just tired. I need people because without them I will feel SO sick, but I don't want them to know my feelings towards them, so like.... I'm lying? A hypocrite? Do I manipulate them?
Wish I could be someone else, with enough empathy, so that I won't be isolated. Maybe I'm not a psychopath, maybe it's just some trauma...
Like I'm not remorseful enough. I don't feel sorry, like physically, so it's not that intensive, so... Is this lying?
I need some insights or opinions, and maybe some support, if it's possible | OCD |
I've had cuckold OCD for more than four months now, but I think it's turned into an actual fetish. I can't stop thinking about it and it's my first thought in the morning. Is that normal, do people with HOCD think about homosexuality a lot and in the morning. I need to recover, this is bad, like real bad, it feels like I can't breathe. The first thing I think about, or at least one of the first things is being cucked, I don’t like it, never have, but I’m scared that I’m starting to like it? I don't even know. I feel like this is getting worse in the sense that the thoughts and overthinking are more invasive? Like I had the thought that being a cuckold is masculine, but I don’t actually believe that or want to believe that. I want to break out of here, it’s so nice outside, but this OCD is like containing me, it’s not letting me enjoy anything. How do I break out, is this a fetish? Can it turn into a fetish. God, this sucks. I have never been interested in cuckoldry or any type of sissy or humiliation porn, idek why this is happening. I can't tell if it's getting worse or better. I can masturbate without any intrusive images and/or thoughts about cuckoldry, but the worrying and overthinking is getting worse? I am trying to give up on masturbation. | OCD |
TW just incase
Anyone else battling themselves in the religion department? (OCD and Bipolar type 1, yes I'm medicated.)
I want to believe, I miss a lot of parts of when I was religious, but it's always impossible for me to be religious without spiraling into obsession and delusion no matter how hard I try not to. Ive been hospitalized many times for other reasons but quite a few were delusion related. Once, when I 16, it got so bad I was hospitalized for psychosis because I was delusional for months and eventually was convinced God was telling me to walk to the park at 3am and sleep there so I could meet him in person and I was already on an LRA so my grandma had to find me and convince me to get in the car. While I am medicated now and have a much better grip on myself and this was years ago, I pretty much avoid it at all costs now. My logical brain tells me there's no point anyways. Science makes more sense. But emotionally and spiritually I am drained and lost. I follow spiritualism and tarot and stuff because i grew up with it but it really doesn't feel like enough to me, like I'm missing something (but if I try to dive deeper into it I have the same problem with becoming obsessed and delusional.)
I just want to have my faith back without thinking God is talking to me through things constantly or like i need to purify myself and be a godly woman and stop being trans (i know this is an iffy topic sorry) or watching sermons all day and night and highlighting and rereading my Bible over and over, etc. Thing is, i KNOW none of this makes sense and I've read the Bible many times and taken notes and studied the history of religion for YEARS and was active in a church that was accepting and everything and I KNOW I don't have to do any of these things to be religious. But my brain does not care. I have a child who is about to turn one and I want to give him the choice to believe whatever resonates with him and I'm scared if I become religious again ill have a negative influence on his personal spiritual journey as he grows up.. i also don't want to go crazy again even though im well grounded these days. It's just a fear I always have. So now I just don't believe at all and refuse to let myself and rely on logic and science. But I'm so miserable. Any tips? I start my new therapy program next week but I was super comfortable with my last therapist and was with her for almost 3 years before moving, so I'm not really going to open up to a new person super fast. | OCD |
Do you guys have the experience of seeing a game that you’ve just played for hours, when you close your eyes. I first experienced this with Tetris way back when I was little. I notice it’s usually when I’ve been on a game for long periods of time. I’ll close my eyes to try to fall asleep, but I can see the game clear as day as if I’m still playing it on the tv, which makes me lay there thinking about what I have to do in the game instead of going to sleep. Just wondering if anyone else experiences this?
***To everyone mentioning it’s not specific to ADHD, yea I never said it was. I just wanted to know if it happened to anyone else because I know that we tend to obsess over or hyper focus on things. I know this effect is more likely to happen if you’ve been consistently focused on something for a long period of time and just thought it would be interesting to see if anyone shared the experience. I’d actually heard about and read about the Tetris effect a long time ago and just forgot about it lol. The thought popped in my mind, so I asked the question. | ADHD |
My son is a junior in high school and has Aspergers. He is very smart but not interested in school or attending college. What are some career options he might pursue? | aspergers |
I hope I'm in the right place. I'm looking for help or advise. For as long as I can remember, I couldn't handle watching shows or films with nudity or sexual content. It seems to have gotten worse over the years. In the beginning I would advert my eyes, turn my head, cover my ears, whatever was needed. Now I can't be in the same room without having an anxiety attack. My last therapist thought it was ptsd but never really talked about it more than that and for financial reasons I am not seeing one right now. My husband tries to understand, but I know how frustrated he must get when we can't watch the majority of Netflix (etc.) shows together. I know that I was molested when I was young and that my brain locked it away until I was a teenager and could process it (again, therapy). But I don't know if that was the only thing that happened. I don't know if the two are related. I don't know what to think, really. But I need help. I can't avoid television forever when nudity is becoming such a common occurrence. I'm 29 and I can't imagine myself turning down any more film suggestions than I already have because there's a sex scene in it. But as I am now, I can't handle it. Help? | ptsd |
I am a Male(27), I got diagnosed from ADHD recently but did not start medication. I have bad academic record because I cannot Focus on my studies. I am shy, introvert and awkward. I am jobless for 1.5 years. Getting depressed because of it. I want to focus on my study for my upcoming interviews. I am trying to learn programming but can not focus for 2 minutes on a topic.
Is there is anything I can do to that can help me to focus.
Sorry for using ‘Focus’ excessively.
Please give Advice.
Thank You in Advance. | ADHD |
It was from the psychiatrist and it was a link to a website saying "Is my loved one depressed or manipulative". Guess im manipulative then... | depression |
Does anybody else feel like past events are super close? Like past relationships are so close? I have tried to research more about this but studies do not tend to go into time blindness in this way. For example, I tend to feel like relationships I've had with people are just somewhat on pause, I've often jumped back o relationships years after the fact and just assumed like the person was exactly the same, we were just picking back up. I'm not sure if this makes sense, I'm very happly married now but almost feel at though my past relationships just happened even though they could have been 4-10 years ago. | ADHD |
or really lack thereof.
now is the moment in the semester where i just like forget to eat 🥴 it’s 1:30 AM and i just realized i haven’t eaten anything except for a sandwich at noon. please try not to be like me, and i know it’s easier said than done (trust me I KNOW) but i hope this helps even one person to take a step back and not torture their body 😵💫👍🏼 | ADHD |
So my spouse is the one with PTSD. And... I feel helpless. Not because I'm unsupportive, but because society seems almost *purposefully intent* on triggering my spouse as much and as frequently as possible.
Some examples. We go to the store, and accidentally don't realize someone's on line. They procede to berate us, turns out they're a Karen and the situation immediately triggers my spouse by reminding them of their abusive parents. Another example: spouse is just minding their own business at the mall food court, when a maskless person comes and stands not 10 inches away, refuses to social distance, and begins spewing insults when asked politely to step back. Another example: crossing the street, two cars in a row decide to turn on red while we're crossing and both miss us by inches.
All this happened in the span of one week. One. And my spouse is now nearly too terrified to go outside. At all. And it's not just this week. It's *every* week. It gets worse? Of course it gets worse. My spouse doesn't even feel safe *at home* because our landlord has made a direct request of my spouse to marry a random Pakistani guy to engage in Green Card fraud. Doesn't matter that we have it on recording and are going to take this landlord straight to the feds for prosecution. The problem is that the trauma is done because my spouse is a victim of relationship abuse and attempted arranged marriage. Our landlord has done other things but I'm not gonna spend two weeks listing it all. So my spouse is too afraid to stay at home OR go out.
What do we do? We can't avoid existence or society forever. The standard "cut toxic people out" advice can't apply here since it's apparently the entire planet. And these things don't impact me the same since, well, I don't have PTSD. But they *devastate* my spouse. Every single one does. And it makes my spouse fear that everyone is going to attack, everyone is going to betray, everyone is going to bring pain. And I can't even say that my spouse's fears are entirely unwarranted at this point.
What do we do? My spouse is in therapy once a month for financial reasons, and even this is a *major* improvement since historically they were terrified of therapists (Munchausen by Proxy as a child leading to abuse via therapists). But the therapy can only help just so much. How can I, as a spouse, show that the world might be crummy but isn't.... I don't even know how to word it? Totally unsafe? Worth running away from?
Sorry for the long post. I am at a loss. We have made so much progress, but it is lost immediately every time some bozo from Main Street decides to jab at my spouse's very fragile recovery. I can only provide so much protection from the world, and don't know what to do. | ptsd |
Alright, so I have this fear of unwillingly touching a kid's(female) underwear while they are asleep. I keep imagining my finger being close to their private area, and my brain provoking me to touch it by thinking about how close my finger is, how I could just do it, and asking me why I am so afraid of their private area. It's not going to bite me or anything, so why just not touch it, to prove it's no big deal. In my imagination, my finger is always a few centimetres away from their undies, while I am struggling to ignore the thoughts and keep my finger from moving any closer. I breathe very fast whenever I imagine this and eventually reach a point where I run out of breath( in real life).
I am scared that this is what's exactly going to happen if I ever come across a kid sleeping with only their undies on. Especially, the thought of why I should be afraid of touching it, because there's no physical reason why I should be. Yes, it's disgusting and immoral, but I am scared out of my mind that I won't be able to think about that, and just give in. Please tell me if it's OCD, or I am going insane. I suffer from POCD too.
I am fucking tired, I think about this the whole day. Trying to be certain that I won't do it. Because I don't want to. It's like a call of the void, except the consequences don't feel harsh enough to prevent me from doing it. | OCD |
I literally have no concept of time. Nothing helps. I don’t trust myself using meds and it’s also been recommended I don’t because of my anxiety. Time just escapes me. It moves so fast and I can’t keep up. The only thing that kinda helps is watching tv and knowing an episode is 45 min long and trying to do stuff while I watch. Silly I know but timers don’t help or anything really. I’m struggling | ADHD |
I don’t know where to start really. I feel alone in life and that I don’t really have anyone. I tried really hard with my friends and I would always help them out when they were down or going through tough times. However, I just don’t feel like they felt the same about me. This may sound like pure jealousy (which it is I guess), but my real life “friends” all made group chats with every single member besides myself. They would actively go out and invite everyone to do stuff with them but I was not invited a single time. This made me feel messed up. Recently they all made a DnD group together and I was the only one not invited. I would ask why I was not allowed to join but never got an answer. They recently wanted to go out and socialise again with everyone even inviting someone from another country to come over and participate without considering me. It’s been around 3 months since I last spoke to them. Not a single one of them has asked where I am and how I am. It just feels like I was there for them in their time of need yet they weren’t there for me. My parents complain at me for playing video games and that I should do stuff In real life but I have no one to do anything with, everyone I believe to be my actual friends are through a computer screen and I have no way of being able to meet them in person. I even tried getting a job in a cafe hoping to distract myself and maybe make some new friends there. I tried really hard and pushed myself to try and interact with customers but eventually had to leave as my colleagues and boss believed I wasn’t putting in effort to interact with the customers which made me really upset.
I don’t really know what to do. My confidence after all of this is the lowest it has ever been and I feel like a shitty human being. I want to make new friends and find people to do stuff with in real life but it just feels impossible now and I have really bad social anxiety after all of this and it just feels impossible to speak to anyone, even my own family, face to face. I just don’t know what to do anymore. | depression |
How about Everytime someone puts me down for not working I just tack on more time that I don't work you know bc its like adding insult to injury. I stopped working bc of my mental well-being, but bad shit happened and then I got blamed bc I'm worthless and don't work. How about I get the right meds before I try to take on any more shit? How about life bends a little my way before I give any more of myself?? Just pisses me off when I think about how many assholes are out there judging but haven't been through a fraction of the shit I've gone through. | depression |
How do I survive the terrifyingly lows I reach every single day, like clockwork?
I don't want the strength to survive it just want it to end. Anyhow. I am just paralyzed, crying rn when I am supposed to be working.
Fuck me this is unbearable. What's the point of living through this shitshow that is my life? | depression |
Nothing makes me interested or happy anymore. I come home and I just study. And if I have nothing to study anymore I just lie in bed and always end up crying. My grades aren't that great anyways, I don't even study efficiently. I mostly just stare at the slides to fill the time. | depression |
My SO keeps getting parking tickets, and a lot of them. This month it's already past 700€.
I have some ideas as to how to cope - I know for instance that she could automate a lot of recurring things (bills, mail and such) which I hope would make the attention deficit a bit smaller (this is something that helps me at least).
What are some other things, ideas and strategies here? | ADHD |
Been like this all my life. And just recently I found that distracting myself with things that are productive is a hell of a lot better than distracting myself with random youtube videos, alcohol, and scrolling through social media.
At first my therapist was all for it, but I told her I felt anxious when we started doing an activity that I didn’t deem to be as productive as something else we could be doing. Now she’s really worried about why I’m trying so hard to distract myself with productive things as opposed to just being content existing. And now I’m questioning, what the hell should I do with my anxiety if I’m not using it to push me? Just…. be anxious? I understand her concern but what the fuck am I supposed to do? | ptsd |
I alternate from hyper fixating on finding at psychiatrist or = to being paralyzed and getting so frustrated because I either get no reply, not taking new patients or they have such awful online reviews I am completely put off. Is there anyone who can share or recommend someone they have had a positive experience with? Thank you for your time and I wholeheartedly appreciate this community. | ADHD |
Eat breakfast! Make a thing of it, if you can, go to a nice little shop with breakfast food and get it to go or whatever. Something about eating in the morning makes me hungry through the day. By going somewhere and making it a treat (I personally go get bagels) its more memorable to do because, well, your doing a thing. Maybe this is just me but try it out some time. | ADHD |
Even in my dreams I find myself expressing ADHD tendencies.
This morning I dreamed that I was explaining one of my lastest extreme interests to someone outside by a road and I was having trouble bc there was a skunk and then later a hedgehog crossing the road and I was having so much trouble concentrating on our conversation.
I also often will forget what I'm dreaming of and the dream changes, only for dream me to remember again. One time I was dreaming I was drawing a picture of a koala for a contest with kids at work, had to leave to answer the phone, and came back to drew a panda. When it came time to show off our drawings, I remembered that I was supposed to be drawing koalas, not pandas. This happens all the time. I'll be going somewhere in a dream, get distracted, then go somewhere totally different and it messes up the dream, then in the dream I remember.
Does this happen to anyone else?
I don't think it's a bad thing and I find it actually very funny! Though sometimes I wonder if the pressures of having ADHD in a world not made for me is seep into my subconscious and even in my dreams I have difficulties.
Thoughts? | ADHD |
Hey there,
This will be a long read where I will present my mental history, after Googling lots of mental problems that on the severe side (delusions etc) I thought instead of creeping me out with trying to match with their symptoms, just write my own case and maybe find some similar history and reassurance.
I've always been anxious person on and off throughout my life, mostly due to childhood issues with acne, bullying etc. but my anxiety just got better when I found a stable job and pursue a career that pays well. I also had some OCD-like thoughts like "If I don't close window 3 times someone would get hurt" or so but I never made those thoughts a big deal, so they came and go. I also used to experience some "tics" where I stretch my neck or just doing some weird stretching stuff with my fingers, but yeah, I never got panicked because of them as they were mild and never caused anxiety during my development.
I've first experienced few cases of Paranoia when I was on weed - not a big surprise as almost anyone tried weed I know experienced some kind of paranoia in their lives - mine was related to being hurt by someone physically. I've long ago quit weed and stopped experiencing any kind of paranoia.
However one time when I felt paranoid when I was on weed to some old friend who uses some violent/brutal language on pretty normal stuff, I just got anxious of him and did not hang out again as I thought he's psychologically unstable, and I was scared, even though I knew I was exaggerating his case, I just stood away as a precaucion. One year later or so, he said to me let's drink a beer, I was like why not, because I've already forgot about my paranoia stuff and already quit weed. I said yes and he picked me up with a car without a plate (like wtf how can you drive with this on the streets) and insisted on going to his place for drinks, I was already anxious and feeling threatened so I couldn't resist and accepted. When we got to his hose, it was almost empty, with some packages left unopen, even though he explained to the that he just relocated or so, my brain just got so anxious that he might hurt me, I've taken a friendly approach and but kept being anxious for the entire period we were together. Then I left his place, buum! Anxiety is gone, and I've just told myself that maybe just don't hang out with him as he creeps me out.
The next time I got paranoid was 1.5 year later or so, where I've changed countries because I found work, but the days were super short and it was all dark, which did not helped with my mood state, so I was not super happy but I never felt paranoid either. I've had 2 roommates, one is super ok and one with some kind of mental issues but I never obsessed over her weird reactions and stuff because she was an old friend of mine and it was 3 of us all the time. It just struck me when the other OK friend left for couple of weeks and we stood together with the other one. She was like a complete ghost on the house, when we're not speaking she's contemplating about "why don't we speak" or just when I leave the house to pick up groceries she'd be like "where?" and I just wanted to stay away from her drama/attached mood. After a week or so we've planned a travel to a hotel back to our home country where we were going to sleep together in the same room, no worries. She was creeping me out with her weird actions but I got paranoid when she just out of blue mentioned about a movie she watched one day ago where the lady woke up with a dead man in a hotel room, no recollection of her memories. I WAS LIKE WHY ARE YOU TELLING ME THIS but just listened to her and didn't say anything, but it was too late, she made me feel paranoid anyways. When we went to the hotel, the bellboy gave us 2 keys, even though we've paid for one room only. I was so ok with this situation so never asked her why she changed, but maybe she got paranoid as well?
When I visited my parents and left her, all of the anxiety was gone again. But this time, I've developed the same tic I used to have in childhood, it's not automatic but I feel bad not doing it. I've started having intruisive thoughts on "what if I sleep and hurt someone without having recollection of it?", it got me so anxious I couldn't work for a day or so, after relaxing myself with breathwork, meditation and herbal teas and seeing online therapist, I got better in couple of days. I knew that I'm not some kind of a psycho but having a harm ocd. Intruisive thoughts did not disappear but lessened, I stopped having some of the irrational fears.
However, the fear of feeling paranoid did not go away as she's not someone that I can escape, she's on my life. We actually planned a trip with a bigger friend group and I was scared of sleeping with her again as I keep getting anxious "what if she actually wants to hurt me" or so. I got anxious again for a day, my anxiety almost completely gone when I confirmed a room of my own to sleep during our travel.
Here's the problem: I know lots of my paranoid thoughts are not rational, but I find ways to make it rational. Maybe she said she watched the movie without thinking that we're going to stay in the same room, but it got me struck when I made the connection. She was depressed and I used to never obsess about this fact but when we lived together I took stuff personal and become paranoid maybe? But even though I relax myself, i'm unable to calm myself down and still somehow scared to sleep in the same environment with her. Even just thinking about it makes just draws me into endless loop of intrusive thoughts and trigger my fight/flight response. I've talked about this to a common friend and she said she might have some kind of a borderline personality and also agreed on her weird behaviour. However this should not justify my behaviour. I think I focus on "negative" and "weird" behaviour and ignore the rest. The weird thing is that I only got paranoid/get scared of people when they express weird/creepy behaviours that might indicate psychological unstableness.
These days I just Google stuff on "paranoia" and stress myself out with "what if.. I develop some kind of delusinal disorder or psychosis" whatever. It makes me more anxious, but I'm just unable to google/reddit stuff about this in a way to find reassurance, but it does more harm than good.
Am I having some kind of paranoid disorder accompanied by OCD? Or OCD by itself just exaggerates the fear of the situation and makes me scared? I've seen a psychiatrist and she said it might be OCD but she was like don't worry, don't read symptoms on google and just take this antidepressant. Since I didn't like her approach to my mental problems, I didn't take the antidepressants either. Now I am not only scared of my friend but also scared of "what if I am delusional" or so. Just to make it clear, I never experience any hallucinations or something, just being paranoid of people where they express creepy, harmful or just pure weird behaviour.
Any thoughts? | OCD |
While reading longer comments on Reddit I found my focus drifting into other thoughts while still reading out loud in my head. It reminded me of being undiagnosed in school reading the same paragraph 6-7 times before I actually heard the whole thing. I realized something I do now, to keep my focus on what I am reading. I will put a creative twist on the voice in my head by trying an accent or fun voice. I’ve always had extended hyper focus when using my creative side. Making reading a creative performance in my head helps me. How do you maintain focus when you find yourself drifting? | ADHD |
As the title says, I feel awkward when someone calls me a woman.. in my head I'm still 18 or 20.
I feel like I never grew up. | aspergers |
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