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[Here's the one I use.](https://chrome.google.com/webstore/detail/read-aloud-a-text-to-spee/hdhinadidafjejdhmfkjgnolgimiaplp?hl=en) It's also available for Firefox.
It adds a 3rd rail to the struggle of focusing while reading. The premium voices have great inflection, and are designed to be very easy to understand. | ADHD |
My ADHD has been untreated for most of my life. I was diagnosed as a kid, around like 7 or 8, and took meds for a couple years but ultimately stopped taking them. I’m now 22 and finally back on medication, after my ADHD symptoms got worse than they had ever been. I’m currently take 20mg of Adderall XR and I’m running into a bit of a problem. Many days of the week, I eat very little. I either have no interest in food and don’t feel like eating or I just never get that “I’m hungry” feeling, so I just completely forget to eat. Has anyone else experienced this? How do you handle it? | ADHD |
Who else struggles with romanticizing your abuse?
"I was the soft, innocent, pretty, sweet feminine and he couldn't help himself and was so rough and forceful... And he took advantage of me.. I tried to save him, he has a bad childhood and was sweet on the inside"
Sounds like the books I used to read when I was young. Society also Sometimes romanticizes abuse, check out Lana Del Rey's music. Rape culture is also so prevalent where forcing women to like you or have sex is normal. Sometimes I romanticize the abuse I went through, it makes me feel unique and special for be chosen to be abused. Like I was an actress in a movie.
It is messed up because I'm sure it makes it harder for people to leave abusive relationships when they see it in this light. I also know it is a way to cope with abuse so it doesn't feel as bad. Who else struggles with this sometimes and how do you move through it? | ptsd |
I've had cuckold OCD for a while now and last night I decided to lay down and think about cuckoldry to see if I would be aroused, whenever I got the intrusive thoughts of anything like that I wasn't aroused but for the past few days I started to check my penis to see if I was aroused by the thoughts. The thing is, I did feel my penis grow but I don't know if that's because I actually have a cuckold fetish or because I was imagining two people having intercourse. I've always found cheating very hurtful and never wanted it, but ever since this almost (4 months) cuckold OCD thing I've been less repulsed by it, it's like the same emotional response isn't there. At the beginning of the episodes, I would respond in a visceral way, imagining that I was punching the dude, but after reading about letting the thoughts flow I stopped that reaction. I'm scared now because I imagined myself getting cucked and was aroused, but at the same time I don't know, sexual thoughts that were not cuckoldry had come into my head and I don't know if that's what added to the arousal. I didn't get hard, I just felt my penis grow a little. I was able to give myself peace of mind by saying that I was aroused by and could get off to things other than cuckoldry but now I feel that I can't even do that for the past few days. Before this whole thing began I only thought about me having intercourse with other people, and nothing more, nothing non-monogamous at all and I was able to get off to that pretty well, but now I don't even know. Can somebody help? Has anyone else been aroused by OCD thoughts? | OCD |
Pretty much the title. Because of covid, the jobs I've applied to aren't doing standard face to face interviews. I've been invited to two video interviews for two different jobs, and I'm paralysed by anxiety. I watch recording of myself and I hate them. I've been in the middle of applying for jobs in the past and when the application asks for a short video I immediately close it and don't submit the application. How do I get over it and just make the recording, and make it appealing?
For extra info, I'm also autistic and I've been told my expression is very flat and monotonous | ADHD |
The process for individuals trying to find help for their ADHD is terrible, and frustrating and I wish it got more recognition.
So backstory, I've had ADHD my entire life it feels like. I got my first diagnosis when I was 7 years old, and have been on and off meds for years. That's been my own battle of deciding whether or not I chose to believe I had a disorder. I tried to get ahead of it in college, and got treatment about 8 years ago, but I haven't been on anything for about 7 years now. I've been just getting along with the coping mechanisms I've developed over the years, but now with the encouragement of my SO I decided to actually start making a real effort to treat it. I talked to my doctor about getting back on a medication, but she said she can't do that, I need to go see a psychiatrist.
That's cool, I don't mind seeing another doctor, but I've called THREE different psychiatry offices now, and first off nobody answers the phone. You just get a lengthy voicemail asking you to leave a message (which I do) and then they never call you back. That's the most ANNOYING shit I've run into so far is just how damn hard it is to actually find help. Not to mention, this has been a 3 month process now, because I have such a garbage memory, that 3 weeks will go by before I think about the fact that nobody has called be back. I'm starting to just feel completely helpless about the whole thing. Like I end up feeling like "I've managed to make it 32 years on this earth without really treating it, so why bother at this point." My SO tells me I need to be persistent, and I know that I need to keep trying and keep seeking help, but it doesn't make it any less frustrating. | aspergers |
3 years since graduating college and I was never extended a job offer. I was so close once but after the second interview, they didnt want me, even though i was a top candidate. I've lost hope in trying because even if i study good enough, my social anxiety will always come through and ruin everything. I'm just jaded. | aspergers |
I’m really worried I’ll say the n word while drunk. It’s predominant in songs nowadays that I feel like it’s stuck in my head like an anxiety gum. I keep thinking about it because I’m so worried over it. I don’t know if I should jus omit any songs with the word out of my playlists or add them and practice singing along in the car so that I don’t slip up and will know when the word will come up when the song comes on during a party or car ride with friends.
This is kinda selfish of me to say because I know that the black community is simply reclaiming the word but I wish it wasn’t in so many songs. Other slurs are easy to not worry about because it’s not mainstreamed and my mindset is a bit “out of sight, out of mind” type of deal. | OCD |
ive been suffering with really awful pure o ocd for about 2 years now. im sure you guys all know how it is, just absolutely awful and terrifying. over the last year ive been able to cope better with my thoughts on my own, by facing them and “accepting them” when they come along, but in the summer i decided to try and get help by calling the GP and trying to arrange some sort of therapy.
i live in the UK so it’s through the NHS, and when i called basically all they did was give me a link to the CAMHS website on a page that describes different mental illnesses, and nothing else.
i was so annoyed because i had worked up the courage to speak to a doctor about my OCD, as well as going into full detail about the obsessions i was experiencing, to the point of tears, only to be totally let down and discarded. i phoned again and the receptionist told me she’d forward a message to the doctor i spoke to in order for him to actually get me a referral, which reassured me, but that was the last i had heard from them.
that was 4 months ago. im neglecting trying to phone again because 1) ive been convincing myself that my obsessions and intrusive thoughts are made up and that’s why they havent done anything and 2) i hadnt had any serious “episodes” recently so i told myself i could deal with it on my own.
i want to phone again and try to actually get therapy for this, because today i had one of my first “episodes” in a long time where the thoughts came and did not go away which really concerned me. i just have such little motivation considering what happened last time.
i’m also receiving counselling at school - we mostly talk about other issues i’m dealing with but i have made her aware that i suffer from obsessions and am trying to get diagnosed by the NHS for them. she is helpful to talk to about the OCD but i feel it would be best if i could talk to someone who actually specialises in it so i can be diagnosed.
this post was originally supposed to be an asking for advice one but it’s now really just a rant. i’m just so frustrated with being let down by the NHS and i just really need a diagnosis for this. | OCD |
It sucks....when ever I talk to people I feel like too much, cause I have all this energy and I can come across needy.....and the sad part is most of the time I just want friends or someone to talk to.....even if the talking is trying to cheer them up.....cause I am sad....and I feel better when others do to...but I feel like everytime I open my mouth I say something stupid or weird and....it sucks.....cause the last person I used to talk to everyday was my ex and she always treated me like I was too much and so do alot of other people. I am in therapy and I try and tone my self down but most days all I feel like I am so fucking alone and even when I try and make new friends cause my old ones seem to always bail on me I always seem to come across weird....cause I hope people like me.....but then I get ghosted or ignored.....I am not even bad looking I am just.....alot.
I know I supposed to handle my own emotions and I do....but I always end up feeling so out of place....cause I think to much or talk to much.....always to much....I hate it. Ever since I was a kid it's been like this...I can't even drink these problems away cause I used and I quit cause it just seemed to make things worse with the people around me.
And I just want a place where I belong, with people who really do like and and actually ask me how I am doing.... but every time I even get close to that it seemed to get ripped away.
I fucking hate life sometimes because of it, but I don't know what to do....my therapist says surround my self with like minded philosophical people....but I don't know where they are...and I just feel so alone, so rejected so, isolated.
I hate it. | depression |
So I had repressed memories from my childhood came up for the first time a few weeks ago. I have felt so numb since then. Today I watched Sin City and it made me cry with the Hartigan story line. I just started crying and I was crying with a smile as I finally had the release of emotions I was looking for. I never cry in movies but the whole thing Nancy was going through and her having someone to protect her really got me. I wept and I couldn’t be happier about it. | ptsd |
My ocd is now centering around someone I may have unintentionally harmed. I definitely did something but I just don’t know if they felt harmed by it. Where is the line between compulsions/ a warranted apology? | OCD |
Hi everyone, so I was diagnosed with combined type ADHD a few months ago and subsiquently some things I chalked up to anxiety are now clearly to do with ADHD. The main thing, as the title suggests is almost crippling rejection sensitivity. For me it’s not just flat out rejection like not getting a job or getting broken up with, someone can have the wrong tone of voice and my brain will instantly take it to mean they hate me. Such little things can genuinely cripple me for a day with that guttural guilt and anxiety feeling. Does anyone else have such a big problem with this? What coping methods have people found that helps? | ADHD |
tl;dr: Was starting to feel really really bad (brain fog, constant desire to take naps, low energy, etc). Given my history with a vit d deficit I started to take it again. Of course my ADHD related issues stayed, but my mind felt clearer than ever (plus zero desire for naps throughout the day). This helps immensely when I deal with my other issues.
PLEASE check your vitamin lvls regularly if possible.
Jokes aside. About 2 months ago (yes, that's how long I've been wanting to write this post), I started to feel way worse than usual. I'm talking about heavy brain fog, constant sleepiness and zero energy for anything. My thoughts went towards that it's depression because I don't get anything done in my life, because I'm basically a huge failure at everything, yada yada. I think you know exactly what kind of thoughts I had. And since I had no energy to get anything done, I felt trapped in this what would be an endless circle.
But then I remembered that the last time I felt this bad, I had a huge vitamin d deficit. Back then I started to take vitamin d and I felt way better the very next day. I stopped taking it during the summer because I thought I'm getting enough sun exposure, but since the days are getting shorter I thought I'll try it again.
It sadly took me a few weeks to get these freaking vitamins, even tho there is a pharmacy right around the corner, but you probably know how things are when you feel this bad.
I took them in the morning and I kid you not, this time I felt like I was reborn within hours! Brain fog gone, constant desire to take naps from taking too many naps was just gone and I had energy to actually do things! I felt like this guy in the movie with these sick pills that make you super smart. Like this is exactly why I don't want to try cocaine, because I'd imagine it to feel similar thus I would freaking love it.
The funny thing is, the next few days I started to go to bed reeeeeeally late, just because having this clear mind was so amazing. I never wanted the day to end. And even tho I didn't sleep a lot, I never really felt the same way of tiredness as I did before. I yawned here and there and got a bit sleepy at night, but that was it!
I know it sounds like I'm exaggerating, but to feel this different a few hours after taking a few drops of vitamins?! A few hours ago I thought I'm the biggest loser and now I feel like taking on the world. Like what kind of sorcery is this?
Anyway, I can only suggest you to get your vitamin lvls regularly checked if you have the possibility. Your problems in life won't disappear, but it surely makes it easier to deal with them if you have a clear mind. | ADHD |
I was diagnosed a few months ago because I met a lot of the criteria, except I've been experiencing doubts about whether or not I actually DO have OCD. I've noticed that I don't really have long, time-consuming compulsions, but one's that I can do as I'm doing other things, such as touching something a number times or counting to specific numbers. These things sound like to someone who doesn't have OCD as something that is time-consuming but the reality is that it isn't. | OCD |
I did acid about a year and a half ago and a month after doing it I started feeling like i couldn't perceive things correctly and the idea that i damaged my brain became an obsession. it's really hard to explain but i would just stare at things and feel like i was seeing patterns that weren't there, not even that but i would just like recognize patterns and things because I stared at them so long. it went away but I smoked weed for the first time in awhile last night and I can't stop thinking about it again. I don't think I actually I'm having hallucinations I think my brain/ ocd is just telling me that I'm seeing things wrong and that I have permanent brain damage and I won't ever be able to look at things the same way or see things as they really are if that makes sense. I was just wondering if anyone else has experienced this bc i am suffering lol | OCD |
My brain just can't seem to focus today. There is a fog and I am not able to do anything productive at work. I have taken a shower, gone outside, taken a brief break from devices (can't for long since I'm supposedly working and have to be online), lowered my workload to do one single thing today, but nothing seems to work. Had a good cry as well while making tea lol, but that hasn't helped either. Just realized that I have no one to open up to. No one, including my family, has asked me how I am in a long, long time. Friends, whom I have supported through stress of spousal abuse, job search, and debt, never really want to know how I am. A cursory "how are you" followed by jumping into their problems, or successes. Hope to get through this episode quickly and with minimal impact to work. | depression |
I was thinking about getting a dashcam so I no longer have to check and recheck roads. Use the delaying strategy like "if something bad happened, its recorded on the dashcam and I can see it later but I won't check now"
But I can see how this can become a crutch or even worse start a new compulsion like hoarding every single day's journey in a massive hard drive collection which I can definitely see myself doing. It seems like a solution that might cause more trouble?
What is your opinion? Is this a good idea? I desperately need to get my driving OCD under control so I don't get late for work | OCD |
Hey yall! So I briefly wanted to explain some of the neurobiology behind ptsd, cus this will give insight and possibly allow you to make some good decisions regarding treatment. So essentially as you probably know, trauma puts us in a chronic fight flight freeze state. When were in fight or flight, our cortisol rises very high giving us the energy to do so. But after a certain point of too much stress, our cortisol downregulates and we freeze. Its our bodies way of saying, "nope this is too much i cant fight anymore so this has to stop". When were traumatized our bodies neurochemistry gets thrown way off, so we develop high levels of glutamate, norepinepherine and sometimes dopamine but not always. Our serotonin levels may drop as well as GABA cus when glutamate and norepinepherine go up, serotonin and gaba go down. So were constantly flooded with excitatory neurotransmitters and not enough inhibitory neurotransmitters.
Along with this, high levels of glutamate become excitotoxic, resulting in shrinking of the hippocampus and cell death in the brain. Yes, keeping our stress levels so high in ptsd can cause actual brain damage. Its why for so many people, lamictal/lamotrigine has helped immensely with their symptoms. It reduces glutamate which inadvertly reduces norepinepherine and allows serotonin and gaba to increase.
Researchers hypothesize that the hyperarousal component of PTSD is mainly due to the high norepinepherine keeping us im an overly sensitive state. Some people have found relief in medications such as clonidine which lower norepinepherine.
Also researchers hypothesize that high amounts of excitatory neurotransmitters may be the cause for dissociative states, because they keep the body constantly overstimulated. | ptsd |
I have a fascination with the former USSR. This includes everything from the communist government, the benefits it's citizens had, achievements in space, buildings, civilian and military equipment, and Lenin statues.
My mom was born in Soviet Ukraine back in 1961 and I remember her glorifying it when I was a kid and vesting Ukraine to see my grandma when I was a kid. I was born in 1994 and remember the Lenin statue in the town square and how different the toilets looked compared to the USA; even when I was a toddler. The town where my grandma also had an amusement park that was very similar to the one in Chernobyl and I rode on several rides in it!
Does anyone else here have a similar interests and any positive experiences associated with them?
The content on this show is quite fascinating for me.
[https://www.youtube.com/channel/UClXTAMdHwvWdmFyOlQmEtpQ](https://www.youtube.com/channel/UClXTAMdHwvWdmFyOlQmEtpQ) | aspergers |
I let my passport expire for the first time while I was in college. Then the pandemic hit and it didn't seem like a big issue and I didn't need to rush on reapplying for it. But now my aunt just died and she lives in Canada and I live in the US. I feel like a fucking idiot for procrastinating for years for no reason. Now I don't think I'll be able to attend the funeral just because I couldn't get myself to finish my passport application. I feel so fucking stupid and I don't know how to explain to my family that I can't go because I never replaced my passport | ADHD |
Title is the basis for my issue. I've typed a bunch of different things to post that I never have and had this thought in general. Does it ever actually get better?
For the most part, I hate myself. If I could pinpoint a time that it felt like everything in my life shifted, it would be college I guess, but there was a couple years period of time that I just really don't like who I was, felt like a bad person, had bad things happen to me, just things in general were the worst and idk if that actually shaped who I am today, or if its just a bag of things that happened that don't actually matter but I just know that I used to be a super imaginative, motivated young extroverted kid, and now I find myself as a miserable 31 year old who is introverted with no motivation and a ton of confidence issues.
Part of that is obviously my own fault, giving into bad habits, not having friends, etc. But I would always kind of tell myself to just focus on me, eventually it will happen for me, I'll find someone, but just focus on yourself and be happy. To an extent, it did somewhat work, I had a period where I said yes to everything, found some new motivation, and pushed myself out of my comfort zone. I got in the best shape of my life, I had a lot more friends, I was traveling outside of the country, generally felt like I was "out" in the world more....and yet, everything persisted. I just found myself feeling super alone around friends, or super alone on vacations, or outside of the country, realizing that while I had done cool things, nothing had ever changed, I still felt as shitty as normal, I was still completely alone, and still am.
Then it goes to recently. I was convinced that where I lived was a major problem. All the friends I had were moving far away in the state (3+hours), getting married, or leaving the state all together and the friends I was traveling with lived in another state. Well I wound up getting laid off from my job at the start of covid, and through a crazy event of circumstances, I got an offer and compensation to move there and decided fuck it, I'm 30 but why not do it? Well it was kind of stupid, I am now in a place I have some amazing friends, and have been brought into the group from my mutual friend in the group. But everything has still been very different with Covid. I've been here for about 1.5 years, and I've explored practically nothing. I've had zero dates, and again, I feel completely and utterly alone. I can't discuss it truly with friends or family back home because they want me to be happy and moving home wouldn't make me happy. I can't tell my friends here because same thing, they want me to be loving it here, but I'm not, hopefully its the pandemic, but idk, its been tough.
And then I have all this thought about it even being worth it. I don't feel I want to live here forever, but I also don't want to lose all these friends I've made here who I think are good people for me to have in my life. Then I worry about how to date seriously here if I don't plan to live here forever, family is important, but what if they care more about their family than mine and would never move? Do I just waste years on that? Or how does it change my entire family dynamic if I never moved home? That feels incredibly sad too? Idk, I'm obviously rambling now, I could go on forever, but the point being that despite "changing" the base feeling of complete shit has literally never changed. Telling myself it will happen for me eventually is obviously not true, because it hasn't, and never will, and I don't know if I'm just destined to never find anyone and just be purely alone. It just feels like something that will never actually go away and it kind of has me scared that this "life" I have is the life I'll live for the remainder of my life and that really fucking sucks. | depression |
Being ADHD I’m prone to zoning out in social situations. I’m not a hyper person, but my brain is. Often I’m just being still, but my brain is extremely hyperactive and hard to control.
Recently I’ve noticed at work when a customer is talking to me, I’ll zone out in the middle of what they are saying. Sometimes it’s the music distracting me, someone else or even focusing on what the customer is wearing before realizing I’ve zoned out and missed their last couple of sentences. Recently, it’s lead to some awkward instances in front of my bosses.
So far this job has been good, but I’ve lost two jobs previously due to my struggles with focus. Has anyone else struggled with this? Thanks! | ADHD |
So i took adderall three weeks ago to see if it would make a difference. I had the best day in ten years. However. The drop after nearly killed me. That experience did convince me to get meds. I spoke to my doctor and she gave me wellbutrin. I did it foe three days before i noticed a noticeable change in my heart rate and after relaying that info i was told to stop. Im now waiting till our next appointment to change dosage or meds. In the meantime however, due to the obvious boost and change i have been self managing to the best of my knowledge with protien hig diet, more excercise..better sleep...etc.
Here are the differences i noticed.
I box donuts and then deliver them for work.
On meds, i could easily remember multiple donuts and quantities of donuts at once. I could work for hours in silence and driving and delivering was a breeze. Made a few mistakes but they were because i was new. I could listen to music and work without it effecting anything.
Off meds. (Not self regulating)
Id have to triple check the boxes to make sure i had the right donuts. I had to carry the paper with me or grab one dtype of donut at a time because something would happen and id totally space the other ones. Id misread types so id put maple bars instead of maple tops. Listening to music while working made it impossible to concentrate when others spoke to me, yet if i didnt have music i would begin to get bored or worse. Start to feel like i was wasting my life. Id become anxious. Driving my route id skip stops or forget turns. I gave stores other stores orders.
Self regulating. (Sleep schedule, protien diet, working out, doing mt best to compensate for my weaknesses.)
Honestly the difference is that my mood and my threshold of getting overwhelmed is way higher then eithout. I can work in silence without the doomsday feeling or getting bored. My memory is slightly better, music still distracts me from people but that is also better. The delivery part is easy. I feel like having a managed mood and mind makes it so. I can compensate for my adhd better. On meds im less adhd. While self managing my adhd is less of a fight and more of something i account for in my actions.
In conclusion
Overall mood is the same between meds and self regulating. Without those two emotions are monsters. Literal. Fucking. Monsters. Performance is MUCH better on meds. Night and day difference. Performance while regulating isnt close to meds, but it is closer to when im on meds then when im not.
Final note. Human interaction while im self regulating is actually preferrable to when im on meds. At least the ones i was on. It helps me turn my adhd brain into something positive and bubbly and fun. While on meds im more mellow and even and while not doing either im anxious and depressed and not fun to be around.
Thanks for reading let me know if youve seen the same or different! | ADHD |
It's not actually ignoring. I'm a diagnosed autistic and they're, well, not diagnosed. I'm experiencing a major severe can't talk kind of burnout with Brain fog. I also don't have any useful support system except for the family which are other than the economic support they're a negative factor.
I was thinking about messaging the person. But I'm afraid. They have a long history of ignoring messages while doing other important-to-them things, even ones that includes socializing. They justified it with not being the social type and 'find it hard to talk to ppl', and trying to save their energy for their important work and study.
I believe them as I myself know how that works but still that doesn't help. You can't be considered friend with someone because you're justified in not acting as a friend with him. It's sad and understandable that you can't talk to him and so it's sad that the reality is you're not his friend.
Other than them I can't think of someone I can trust or be comfortable with. But I feel pathetic, dependant and annoying. I also have adhd so I can talk too much and be annoying even to people on the spectrum. | aspergers |
If someone told me I was going to die tomorrow, I'd be the happiest person ever. No more worries about anything ever again. Like I'd take the absolute nothing that is death over all this bullshit. | depression |
Hi! How long do you have to sit with the anxiety during an erp exercise? And do you have to purposely expose yourself many times during one exercise, or just once you look at a pic and thats it? And how many erp exercises should I do in a day? I have POCD, and ERP isn’t working well so far, so maybe I am doing something wrong. Thank you! (Sorry for my English) | OCD |
"Whats up" translsates to "how are you" but a more casual way of saying it. But i cant answer how i am to a question about direction. It feels wrong. I usually end up staring at the person or i say "good how are you" but thats the wrong answer. | aspergers |
I run into this problem, all the time, I’ll try to explain my point of view and people act like I’m from a different planet.
I feel like I’m always wrong, to make matters worse I have an obstinate brother who is always right and mother who blows a gasket the moment anyone gets the least bit upset.
I don’t know what to do anymore, and I’m so tired. Seeing how people respond to my quirks, and the many flaws associated with this syndrome, well I just feel like a freak. I feel like the world will never EVER understand me.
I’m well aware that people can’t pattern their lives based on my “symptoms” or rather my personality.
I don’t know what to do anymore. It’s like there’s this gulf, this darkness between myself and the world and I just feel like I’ll never get out of it. It’s such an overwhelming feeling to have knowing you’ll probably be perceived as a cold, curt, disinterested person,who ruins everything around him because of your flaws.
Is there anyway out?
I’m sorry I don’t know if this is the right place for this thanks for letting me vent. | aspergers |
When I'm super depressed, I start to always daydream the opposite of anything bad happened recently. And once it gets good. I act out as if I woke up from a nightmare. Any explaination? | depression |
I’m 24 and I haven’t harmed myself physically in around a decade. Something snapped today and I regret it but here I am. At least I’m alive, right? | depression |
Its been a hard, long year of tiring, snails-pace progress of becoming happier. I still have bad days, most of mine arent great. Even though my paranoia is still very much intense, and I dont leave the house very often, Im finding that Im in such a different mindset from when I first left my abuser. Today, I baked some bread, brushed my teeth, and worked on my botanic self-study. Made myself lunch and dinner, and stayed active. I didnt finish cleaning my kitchen, I cried a lot, and spent more time watching YouTube than I should have. Im not even an adult yet but I feel like Ive learnt a lot of grown up sorts of lessons.
My days arent perfect, but there were more happy moments today than there was a year ago.
I hope everyone here takes every little step in the right direction, towards happiness, with a pat on the back. I understand how hard it is and hope you have some happy times soon. | ptsd |
1. Using about 2 Hours in the bathroom to check if everything is okay and that I look fine and obsess over my makeup, and redo it all the time until I look perfect.
2. Worrying if I have worms each time my stomach cramps or I touch a dirty surface
3. Obsessing over smelling good. Everything has to smell good or people will think I’m unhygienic
4. Can’t leave a room before checking that everything looks decent and clean, rechecks it about 5-10 times
5. Can’t look at my own shit
6. When I see someone attractive or think about someone I like, they get replaced by my family members ew. Also thoughts of my family members holding around me or sexually assaulting me at nights which I can’t sleep so I have to move side to side all the time and punch the air
7. Think I’m pedo cuz I thought someone a year younger than me was cute
8. When I speak quietly I worry I spoke loud as people can hear private things I’m talking to myself about
9. Dead people I know are watching every move I make and can read my thoughts
10. Never know if I actually have a crush on a person or not.
11. Don’t know if the door is closed when I’m in a public bathroom even tho it’s visible closed
12. People can read my thoughts
13. Each time I worry about something I have to search up “I’m okay” or “no”.
14. I hate when stuff is filled with hair I have to remove every straw from surface
15. If someone hasn’t clean up after them I have to do it as they don’t think it was me. | OCD |
I don't know what to do to improve. I am 34 years old and I have been living with depression since I was 19. I don't know what else to try. I've been in therapy, I've been taking medication. I will exercise 5 days a week. I try hard to keep a job. I'm still sunk
Every day is a different fight, just for not giving up, never for winning. Every day I wake up tired, sad, seeing how my illness has taken away all the good years that I could have ever enjoyed.
I no longer have the desire for anything, I have no illusion for anything. I have no one to talk to when I feel unwell. There is simply nothing.
It's been a long time since I started talking to myself, and what is worse, sometimes even without realizing it I do it in public. I have reached the moment when it is not only that I feel bad, but that the world that sees me thinks that I am crazy. | depression |
I keep buying games and making a new account because i mess up and want to start clean again beacause i dont like it there its an urge. Its a really bad urge too. i got an account with a game that i dont want and just spent 80 on another game and the ocd is acting now, im trying to Stop myself because its 80 fucking dollars and deleting it is a waste, can anyone help or something, if not its just a vent, thank you. | OCD |
I've been working on my bike today because someone suggested I do some "fix" regarding a loose wire near my chain stay. So I whipped out the tools and did my "magic" and the chain was falling off my bike. Adjustment after adjustment and I just barely got it good enough to ride and it was better before I did the adjustments which I thought would help me out. That particular part has a broken mounting screw and I think at some point the hanger was bent too. So yeah this bike has been a complete mess and I haven't given up on it yet I'm not going to give up on it. If I have to fix things and be aggravated as all hell then I'm gonna do it. I'm desperately trying to learn and well I know more I don't have much to show for it other then something broken that barley works after I messed with it.
I know it happens, I know I can't do anything about it, and that's okay. Love you all .... | ADHD |
Hi, I have adhd and my parents won't bleave me. They'll say that is just excuse for doing dumb stuff. I have shown them my symptoms and I've done an adhd online test. Still they won't bleave me. What should I do?
I asked others and they told me to ask the school but its online around here. They really are acting worse every day. Like they are starting to make fun of me. First they started talking onto me and talking to me about what they think but since I haven't changed (since adhd has no cure) they are making fun of me. Id love to get them to stop being toxic. Bre in 12 years old. | ADHD |
Idk what to do anymore. The lack of focus this heavy heart it’s all eating me alive. I just want it to stop right now at this very second. | depression |
I have a better relationship with my mom now than a few years ago.
How?
Through my special interests and things that I enjoy. I watched an anime movie ( Koe no Katachi ) with her, talked with her about my favorite characters from games, and she's even playing Little Nightmares 2 even tho she has trouble with playing the game, cuz it's on PC. But I definitely feel like I have a better relationship with her thanks to that, and I'm genuinely happy that I can share things I like with her. Thanks mom, you don't even know how happy it makes me to see you play Little Nightmares or listening to me talking about Nami from League Of Legends 💚✨ | aspergers |
I was diagnosed with ADHD and OCD at a young age.
Some of my symptoms involve ritualistic behaviours, some of which aren't really a detriment at all such as the absolute need to brush my teeth at specific times. I have to go back and touch things when I feel like I "didn't touch it the way I intended" like a wall or something. I also have the pure OCD cognitive symptoms: obsessive thoughts that lasts for days or longer.
One I have finally noticed after so long of doing it, is after I watch a really good film, even if I've already seen it I obsess over it all day afterwards or longer. I almost feel the essence that the movie conveyed inside of my mind. Today I showed my girlfriend "Cube" from 1997, one of my favorite movies; and of course the obsessiveness begins again. This doesn't happen often at all. It takes THAT kind of movie. The ones that leave an impact. One flew over the cuckoos nest, the platform, and groundhog day left me with a similar effect. Anyone else get this or have any thoughts? | OCD |
I see everyone else my age being successful and having fun while im miserable and stuck spinning in circles failing. I'm trying everything I can and i'm still miserable. I'm sick and tired of the same shit being repeated to me. And don't come at me with the "small victories" bullshit it means nothing. Congrats I did the bare fucking minimum as a human being. I just want to feel proud of myself and accomplish something. Sorry if I come off as a dick i'm just pissed off | ptsd |
I cannot find a reason to go on anymore. I was going to write a bit more than this but I don't have the effort. | depression |
On the harder days, how do you go into work suffering from ptsd? How do you cope? I feel like I'll need to quit soon because I don't know how much longer I can fake being ok only to come and have meltdowns | ptsd |
Sweat is a big one for me. I'm scrubbing myself raw at any sign of suspected moisture. I'm always worried my hands might be getting sweaty. It's a combo of the bodily fluid contamination and the sensation. The germ one, I understand, but how do I sit with the uncomfortable feeling of having sweat on my hand texture wise. It's a bit like the oily/ sticky substances feeling. | OCD |
Treated as other thus I became the "other". Not someone who assimilated to society like is so noticeable with the aforementioned NT's as so commonly argued about here. Labeled with Aspergers at 7 to which I'd moved away from my hometown to avoid the push to prescribe me Ritalin. Going from a small town to slowly progress into a suburban environment. Where fitting in meant brand name clothing, nice cars, and the ideal family home. Basically the ideal American family. From being raised in a rather financially stressed home and living in a place where people like myself were the outsider. Psychologically speaking, it seems it exacerbated the issue of finding my place socially. Not in how to find my group as comes with the social pressures of life but rather delaying the process of social learning.
Not only was I sectioned off into the classes for the learning disabled, I was ostracized for things that (at the given time) laid outside of my ultimate control. Given the modern philosophy, it's not so much who you are as an individual, it's what you have. Programing me with years of doubt about my percieved inadequacies and shortcomings on the outside. How is one to navigate such a society predicated on a kind of dog eat dog mentality? I say this because it took years of mental pain and a near-death experience to finally find my voice. My hope is to enlighten some on how to discover their own so that we can stand up to things like organizations that preach a helping ideology when they're only focused on a kind of eradication. Something I really hope to stand up against. Sooner the better I say. ASD, Autism, and Aspergers is nothing to remove or fix. It's something to be cherished and cultivated. My hope is that, through what I'd learned that I can also play a part in changing the modern status quo.
Of course when growing up I was seen as strange, weird, or outside of the normal conformity I see so prevalent today. I genuinely loved aviation but coupled with the lack of knowledge with ho people operated and the angst that came from financial insecurity, it made me bend over backwards to the extent that I'd never speak up vocally but rather keep silent and let them bash me down. It was all I had to keep pushing forward. To do something I loved in life that gave me both meaning and financial security to which couldn't be found. With that ideal came the prospect of finding my place socially which still never occurred. Everyone I'd work around in the aviation industry would be in a kind of catatonic state about the work and have zero interest in it what so ever. Seeing people with such a lack of passion in life scared me to death. In fear I'd end up the same, in a kind of 1000 yard stare type PTSD of which did occur around 2017.
The modern dating world seemed horrendously toxic to me. All out for the sake of hooking up rather than finding someone to cherish and appreciate. Someone who's got similarities to yourself but completes you as they say. The modern world as I see it now has forced people into playing the facade of being happy with a partner when in reality, behind closed doors, they're further from their true selves than when they were alone. I fully understand the sexual strain this world puts people under. Objectification on one side and capitalizing on instincts on another. The objective nature of our human lives has in a sense distracted from the real beauty of this life. Ignoring the painful yet beautiful human story and placing a facade of perfection on the outside as to not draw attention to the fact everyone is in pain, flawed, and perfect. I say pain because I saw it in the faces of many when I'd suddenly found my social structure. Woman with a look on their face as if to be staring at life's labyrinth and men only going to other men to brag about how many partners they've had in their past. It surprised me when I saw sparkles in the eyes of people when I became curious about the seeming inhumane nature of the modern dating world. Showing my disdain for the level of deception people have through hiding their ulterior motives.
A lot of the separation between myself and the world stemmed from something I'd criticize behind closed doors but never really voice until recently. Because many have condoned it's effects on us as normal or trivial. Being for the better and not for the worst in any regard. I am talking about what the digital age has done to us. Not demonizing all of it's aspects but social media and how we communicate as humans has definitely been altered. Going from times when jobs could be attained by face to face conversations to a time when the judgment of you occurs behind your back via a resume. Kind of the dilemma I find myself in currently. The same is true with the modern social structure. In blindly trusting people that portrayed my friend, I was easily led astray by not realizing their internal malevolence that could manifest the moment I had something they wanted themselves. Something I'd only discovered after that aforementioned near-death experience the illusory feeling of self-love. Little did I know they had a knife to my back while they offered their hand as a friend.
Social media has put people in boxes to which people can compare themselves to others and not focus on any true growth. Only focusing on their negative attributes rather than seeing how far one has come. Sure, environmentally speaking, I've remained the same. But the feeling of oneness with myself is magnitudes better than it use to be. From a point of feeling lost to having found myself. In understanding every which way this world had led me astray and left me feeling lesser than others. Fear being the biggest problem in these times where, for the most part, painful conversations are done through text to avoid any real human contact. Devoid of any emotion or facial expressions. There is indeed a lot that lays in the unsaid but social media has put us in comfortable protective boxes. In reality, it's our fear of being vulnerable. After that near-death experience and having found that so allusive self-love, I lost all fear of being vulnerable. In that simple complete lack of fear I learned just how fragile the social structure had become. To the point people need zero regard for context and simply resort to gossip and judgment. It's not pretty, it's not painless, but it calluses you to not hide anymore. Being the real you is all that you can do and standing your ground is something to be learned over time. Knowing you need nobody but yourself is key.
I am a friendly and personable individual but I will not turn my cheek when given a double standard. I use to condone that phrase as my middle name in the past. Standard that were given to me but not to others. As per example, having a manager berate me for simply drinking a cup of coffee in a hallway. Condoning it as unprofessional when many of the executives would carry their own. He even went so far as to threaten cutting my hours, which of course, he did. Or like the time I had landed my first job working around aircraft. Spending time that I had free looking at all the parts and inner workings as before, I'd only seen them on LCD screens. Co-workers going behind my back to tell my manager that it was creepy to them? If I was 50% of who I am now in those moments, I'd have had no problem calling them out on their hypocrisy. Because the modern work life culture is absent of all drive and passion and only a means to an end for many.
The biggest change I'd like to see is teaching people about how to best navigate this rather seemingly complex world to better fit their personal needs, desires, and drives. Rather than to go so blindly into this life as it felt I'd done. The world is quite simple for me to talk about now, only wishing I'd known what I do now before my past became a point of judgment to judge my character rather than to ask why any of it occurred in the first place. It's not so easy for people that have been raised in a kind of comfort to understand just what existential discomfort does to someone. Wanting only to live a simple life that's divinely human that I can see a change I'd made. To which hopefully transfers into others seeing the changes in their own life. I know the labyrinth of life like the back of my hand now. I love talking to others about their own experiences. The truth is what I know they don't want you to know. With people like us we can change this seemingly stressful life into something brighter for the future. Where people are cultivated for their different attributes and not ostracized because we're simply what, different? Weird?
I hope you all have a wonderful day. Just for the moment, think about something the brings you a moment of bliss or joy and do it. I'm going to have a beer and think some more. There's a lot more to this life than what may be seen. | aspergers |
I don't even use them that often. Is this so I'll remember to use them later? I do like green onions. Clutter is bad, though. Am I working for or against myself? Why was that coathanger clipped to the fridge, while I'm at it? Is it just me? How many strategies have I picked up and then abandoned? How many of them were people?
Anyway, the weather | ADHD |
Hi, I (F25) was diagnosed and received medication for ADHD about 6 months ago. It has helped me a ton but lately I’ve noticed some issues that I also dealt w/as a kid that I’m not sure other folks with ADHD can relate to. I’d love any thoughts or insights to this.
When I was a kid and to this day I have had issues knowing that my facial expression is physically changing in response to an emotion I’m feeling. This has gotten me into trouble so much it makes me feel crazy bc I don’t know how to change something I don’t know is happening?
The more important problem at this moment in time is that when I’m emotional during a conflict, I can’t seem to consider others perspective or feelings. My spouse and I got into an argument today and I had to step away bc they said I wasn’t being considerate of their feelings at all and…I realized they were right. But I don’t know what this is and if it’s related to ADHD or not.
So my question is; Does anyone else here relate to this? I feel like I’m blinded by my emotions when I get into conflict of any kind. I don’t understand how I can consider other’s feelings when my emotions feel so…loud and overwhelming… Any advice or insight or personal anecdotes would be appreciated. | ADHD |
I’ve had PTSD for close to a year now, I’ve been in therapy for months. When it’s 5am and I still can’t sleep everything I’ve been working on feels completely useless. This sub is great for feeling less alone, but all I ever really see is people in just as dark of a place as I am. Did any of you get better? What helped you through the worst of it? What did progress look like? Is it going to be worth all of the time and money I’ve spent trying to live a normal life again? What keeps you going when you’d kill for an hour of sleep? | ptsd |
for the first time since my compulsions started to get really really bad over a year ago and after 6 months of in depth therapy, i finally feel like i'm taking some control back from ocd :)) i am starting to find it easier to ignore the ocd voice in my head so i hope that if anyone is reading this in a dark place bc of ocd, you know that you do have such a bright future and that even though the road through recovery is messy and emotional, it's a journey that we're all on together and it's entirely possible to live the kind of life you want to be living :) <3 | OCD |
Just wanted to say that I love you guys. Anyone fighting this day to day is my personal hero. Nobody who’s not fighting this understands how tough of a fight it really is. Nobody would understand if we tried to explain how we’d trade this for being blind or crippled because they don’t know what these circumstances truly feel like day to day; how they make simple tasks feel life ending, or how much it can make you hate or convince yourself you’re a bad person. So whatever form of OCD you’re struggling with know that I think you’re a fucking warrior. | OCD |
Hi everyone, name's Kai. I'm a POCD sufferer and I need to ask a question. So I masturbate a lot, but due to POCD I've been trying to do it less. However I'm addicted to masturbating which doesn't help at all. Anyways now I hate masturbating because POCD puts intrusive thoughts in my mind that I try so desperately to brush off. This becomes extremely difficult for me to enjoy myself and feel like I'm not a horrible person. Now I have a "masturbation system" I follow where thoughts before and at climax matter. So I have to try my hardest to brush the intrusive thoughts at those moments, then my mind will think of anything after climax and it won't matter because I'm not touching myself anymore. However...there is a major problem. After I'm done masturbating right, I'll have the perfect fap and I can move on with my life. The problem is though, is that after masturbating, I'll have "pleasure pulses" which are basically mini climax feelings. Then all of a sudden my duck will leak clear cum and I'll feel like a piece of shit after because at the same time OCD puts an intrusive thought in my head. I always try to put logic into the picture but it just doesn't work then I try to re-fap and prove my OCD that "No I didn't masturbate to this. I'll masturbate again just to prove you wrong." Even though I DIDN'T masturbate to it in the first place since it comes in after climax within a window of around a fucking hour, it's annoying and I want it to stop. I hate feeling like a horrible person and I just want the pain to stop. I have so many times where I basically beat OCD but then a mini pleasure pulse kicks in, then OCD puts an intrusive thought in my head. And now I feel awful. | OCD |
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So, i talked to my therapist about it and she was telling me that it was "ok" to have these emotions and I shouldn't be feeling bad about it. I have had experiences where people changed the narrative to make me look like the bad guy, even when I don't feel bad and emote, I've been told that I made people uncomfortable so of course i feel bad for every emotion I have | aspergers |
I'm quite sensitive to noise and I hear very well. I often pick up noises that other people don't even notice. But apparently I speak very loud or so I've been told many times. But the thing is that I don't realize this at all. The volume of my voice seems perfectly normal to me.
People are often annoyed and uncomfortable because of the way I talk. But I don't have any idea how to controll and fix it because I precieve it differently.
Any similar experiences? | aspergers |
How do you tell what is your trauma response vs what your actual personality is?
I grew up in a shitty situation and have been out of that for nearly 10 years but I still feel so uncertain about my true self. I have been changing so much recently and done some things that I don't know if I like. A therapist once told me that changes back towards balance can sometimes feel uncomfortable but I know so much of my behaviour lately has been driven by anger. I am just struggling to keep up with myself. | ptsd |
i do cheer and so far every single game i’ve forgotten something. i don’t know if it’s just me being completely out of it or the fact that there’s a lot of things i need to keep track of and bring (3 piece uniform, spandex, hair bow, socks, pom poms, warm up jacket and sweatpants, water bottle, etc.) but i’ve never had everything that i needed and it irritates everyone around me. if i remember my pom poms, i’ll forget my bow, then the next game i’ll remember my bow and forget my pom poms. of course i’ve been told to make a list but i’ll either lose it or forget to check it in the first place which renders it completely useless. am i the only one who struggles with this kind of thing? | ADHD |
Is anyone else like this?
When he wakes up for school, he goes to the bathroom, he washes his hands like a surgeon up to his elbows and between each fingers, every hand wah ist like this. Only to to take off his PJ's and rewash his hands before taking a shower. Once out of the shower, he gets dressed and rewashes his face. Since he touched his clean clothes while putting them on, he needs to rewash his hands. This ideal mornings. If he had it his way, there would be about 5 or hand washing.
Once he gets home from school, he wants to go into his pajamas, if has to leave, he will not put his clothes back on, nor his shoes. He wears sandals. Since the weather is somewhat warmer, he wants to spend hours weedeating places that he has already done.
My dad had to remind me of 2 years ago, when he spent the whole summer using the leaf blower on our block, blowing leaves off the street.
But when it comes to his room, he hoards everything and it is always dirty and messy because of my son.
He is an appointment with a psychologist. Is this normal?
My son is 11 years old. | OCD |
I’ve heard that SSRIs are commonly used to treat OCD, and that St John’s Wort has a similar pharmacological mechanism - but a reputation for fewer side effects.
Has anyone found SJW helpful in treating (particularly ruminative, or “pure”) OCD?
If so, what kinds of dosage did you you take? | OCD |
Total daydreamer here.
I get my hyper-focus during exams that I am well-prepared for. I love doing things that are repetitive to a degree, but have clear answers. Right now I am struggling since I have to write a Master’s Thesis that has no clear right answer.
I am studying Bioinformatics, but I can't stay in academia for its lack of clear-cut answers. Part of me hates IT for that, but maybe I shouldn't throw out the baby with the bathwater.
Now my question: Which jobs (possibly in the field of IT) are repetitive, have a higher level of complexity (but get easier the more you do them), and require only a small to moderate amount of learning new skill over time?
Having to constantly learn new things really drives me crazy and turns off my hyper-focus. If I have to do it occasionally it's totally fine. | ADHD |
I have had PTSD since the age of 4, when something unfortunate happened to me. No, I'm not giving details, but I told a close friend of mine, and I didn't get the response quite a few people here get. She gave me an extremely supportive response, and honestly, I may end up recovering from this one damn paragraph. She made me extremely happy with that message, whether it was low effort for her or not, and I doubt it was low effort. She is a really amazing person, and I hope all of you find a friend like this | ptsd |
I’m an adhd’er who got diagnosed young, and was medicated until 18 then i stopped on my own volition. I’ve never had an ED, but I’ve had disordered eating because i can’t remember to eat. Sometimes it’s worse, sometimes it’s better. But i worked really hard to create eating plans and routines, and it eventually became a lot better because i realized how good my body feels when i eat well, and that became a natural motivator. Unless i am going through periods of high stress, where i will totally lose my appetite without even realizing it.
Now, at 32 I’m medicated again (life changing!!!!! Woohoo!) but damn it’s really effing up my appetite. I’m really struggling. I’m focusing on high calorie/protein/fat shakes in the morning, which i fan force down but i don’t love them so i only want it once a day. But it’s soooo hard for me to eat if i don’t FEEL hungry.
My hope is that eventually this will balance out, and forcing myself to eat will turn into habit again but ADHD made it such a challenge even without appetite suppressing medications. | ADHD |
Putting anything in a thick bottomed (why is thickness important? Because physics.) pan will help it thaw more quickly. If you're in a real hurry, put it in the pan (usually fry pans have the thickest bottoms), and turn on the fire. Let your hand hover over the frozen meat until you feel heat, then shut OFF the fire. Set a timer for 5 or 10 minutes. Flip the food, turn the fire on until you feel the heat again, then shut OFF. Let it sit for another 10 minutes or so. If the meet cooks at all, it will start to brown, not turn gray like it does in the microwave. | ADHD |
Honestly I think this advice is going to change my life. It’s for intrusive thoughts/ruminating.
So, OCD is so anxiety producing because it attacks the things you *value*. Contamination/illness OCD? Maybe you value health or value cleanliness. Harm OCD? Maybe you value the well-being of others. POCD? You value the lives of children. Moral OCD? You value being a good person. So, OCD is your brain finding a thought that caused a negative reaction + we took an action to try and rid ourselves of that feeling the *thought* produced. That alone solidified to the brain that said thought was scary.
This man on Tik Tok (I think he got the advice from a man named Mark Freeman on YouTube? I guess he was just sharing it) said to stop this cycle by not *avoiding the fear but adding the value*.
Moral OCD? Add the value of the wellbeing of others by choosing to volunteer. Health OCD? Add the value of health by prioritizing a healthy diet or starting yoga. Ignore the thoughts, don’t engage with them, and at first it will be uncomfortable but eventually your brain learns it wasn’t anything to fear.
Maybe this isn’t as helpful to y’all as me but I’ve never thought about pulling an uno reverse card on OCD and deciding to turn it into a *positive* thing toward my values. Idk. Hope this is helpful to somebody. | OCD |
Take just today for instance, 2 driving courses, another year of practicing in private, 6 driving test, all failed, 26 years old. I'm done giving a shit anymore. I'm not going to be on any effective medication to treat ADHD, just is not going to happen with how Uber controlling my mother is, and how she will ruin everything. So I'm not going to get any better.
I just want to live in the woods, completely removed from society, I don't want to be here anymore. I can't measure up. | ADHD |
So I (17M) am a student studying in 12th standard. I have a so-called friend of mine who's my classmate and we live near. So he has this habit which I really hate but as he's the only friend I got so I just stay quiet. Whenever I open a book to study or something he'll start asking me questions from topics of that subject and I do answer him a few but whenever I don't know one he'll start acting like I'm wasting my time or whatever and I should not be studying this unless I know previous topics. Now it does sound fine at first but he just doesn't stop doing that and We got into a heated argument because of this and I had to apologize to him.
But this behavior of his just gets into my head and the stuff he says. My whole days gets ruined. Whenever I try to study after that I just can't get him out of my head and I feel worthless and I feel guilty. I just think that he's gotten in my head and I can't get him out. I feel like I'm wasting my time and money and I just can't concentrate on studies because of this | depression |
i am tired of thinking what if the bible is a delusion.
i am tired of thinking what if Jesus was NOT the son of God?
what if an other religion is the truth?
what if all religions are false?
what if we are living in a simulation? why some people claim to have experienced weird events as if they may have been glitches in teh system?
what if Jesus is the truth and I go to hell for losing my faith?
i am mentally ill and i worry daily for these thoughts and some others. WHAT IF, WHAT IF, WHAT IF | OCD |
I was recently diagnosed with adult ADHD, and this is all new to me. I was started on 20mg of Adderall, and I was shocked at how well it worked. I felt clearer and more focused than I ever remember. Felt like I had the best night sleep of my life and felt incredibly refreshed. It was obvious the pill was doing something.
After the first day though, it stopped being as effective. I had a little more energy, but I couldn't really feel anything working. My doctor says I should be able to "feel it", so he upped the dose to 40mg. I tried that for a week or so, and still didn't really feel anything. I had some side-effects, so he switched me to 30mg of Vyvanse and I am feeling like it is the least effective thing I have tried so far.
Has anyone else ever had a similar experience where the effects of medication dropped off so drastically? How did you navigate it, and discuss that with your doctor? | ADHD |
This has been going on for awhile now I used to be able to manage it myself but it's got to the point we're I can't anymore I have tried to make an appointment with the VA for 5 or so months now and still nothing I'm so tired of feeling worthless and not having energy and feeling so down and my wife does not even seem to get how I feel she trys to support me and what not BTW sorry I'm 30 year old guy | depression |
Hi, so I’m in my mid twenties. I have GAD, and have been developing certain cleaning habits since I was 21 that help me manage my anxiety. I am not diagnosed but my psychologist said the two are definitely correlated in my case. Anyways, I generally keep things very clean and neat. Recently, I’ve noticed how attracted I am to clustered areas. I know it’s because I feel the need to clean them. But I also think it might be because it’s such a foreign concept to me to be living in an unclean/ scattered area. Does anyone else find that you’re jealous of people that are able to leave their room messy because you’re unable to do so yourself? This is my first post, would love to hear some of your thoughts | OCD |
Hello.
A friend of mine, also autistic, is having trouble taking care of himself. He's aware of methods to manage executive function difficulties, but experiences a mind blankout when he actually thinks to try. From his description, it sounds quite similar to how I react to conflict (mind blank/static/fog, VERY heavy stimming, motivation dies, etc).
I could use some advice on this too, as my aversion to conflict is also very, very difficult to overcome unless I'm forced into it (and it can cause very bad meltdowns if I'm stuck in a conflict situation). But, I'm also going to have access to therapy before him, and the specific tactics to help resolve it may be different due to the differing amounts of risk.
I appreciate any insight any of you have. | aspergers |
Damning evidence that tells me I'm probably just straight up depressed:
• just went off Lexapro (an SSRI much like prozac), which I was using for anxiety. After several months, the symptoms grew too great, so I'm currently 3 weeks off.
• I just went off these depression meds, and while I wasn't taking them specifically for depression, it's possible going off of them has made things worse.
• I've lost almost all passion to do anything. For unrelated reasons, I recently quit my job. I'm currently on a break from school (waiting for classes to be in person again), so I don't really have any responsibilities right now.
• I'm lucky to have an emergency fund, because right now I just don't care to do *anything*. Where I used to be motivated, I now struggle to even do my own laundry or dishes. I used to have several passion projects, which I haven't worked on in a long while.
• For a while, I couldn't leave the house cuz my withdrawals gave me really bad vertigo so I've been avoiding driving and even standing up. Now, I feel OK enough to stand and drive most of the time, but I still never leave the house cuz like, why would I?
• Video games were fun for a few days, and when the new Halo campaign released, I bought it thinking I'd enjoy it like I have every other Halo I've played. And at first, I did. But throughout the game, I found myself wanting to just stop and lie down. Same for every other game now.
• I love TV, I don't think I've ever gone more than a few days without watching at least a few episodes of whatever show I'm currently binging. My favorite book series has recently been adapted into a TV show, and up until a few weeks ago I've loved every episode. But with the release of the most recent episode, I could barely bring myself to even watch it. Not that it was bad, on the contrary. But it's just no longer the same.
• Complete loss of appetite: I think this is more of a withdrawal symptom from going off of Lexapro, but I went from being dubbed "the human garbage disposal" for eating a lot all the time, to everything tasting gross and barely wanting to eat. I get that I'm not as physical as I was, what with not working out and no longer working (my job was mostly walking around all day, I got close to 20k steps every time I worked). But it's not yet my hunger is gone, it's that making more than canned soup is too much, everything tastes off and feels weird in my mouth. I force myself to eat at least 2 small meals a day, but I get sick if I eat more than that so I generally don't.
• I used to work out 5 or 6 days a week, but I've suddenly stopped caring to go to the gym. It's been almost a month.
• I'm constantly exhausted, no matter how much sleep I get, no matter when I wake up or when I go to sleep.
• I sleep well over 12 hours many days of the week, but after being awake for just a few hours I'll feel like (and often do) taking a long nap.
• I almost didn't go anywhere for Thanksgiving, even though several friends and family members invited me over months before. Luckily, one of my coworkers convinced me to visit my father who lives only a few hours away. But even as I was driving down, I debated turning back and just going to sleep for the rest of the day.
• Talking to even my closest friends and family is *exhausting*. I used to love visiting friends, calling family for hours, even talking to strangers. Now, it just zaps my energy. I don't want to talk to my favorite people anymore, I often avoid their calls and say I was sleeping (which I probably was lol).
• I just *don't care* anymore. What happens to me doesn't feel real, it feels like I'm watching a news report on someone else's life, someone I feel for, but it's not the same. It's just...distant, unimportant. Like, I want to care, I miss my motivation and energy. But not enough to do anything (I don't mean not enough to try and change the way I feel; I go to counseling, make plans to change, meditate, etc. I just don't seem to care enough to go back to being me).
Evidence that I'm not depressed:
• I don't really feel sad; sure, I feel unmotivated and almost completly apathetic, but not often actually sad.
• I've been a lot less stressed since I quit, my job was really doodoo.
• I had many of the above symptoms since before I went off my meds. At first, I was becoming less apathetic, but I seem to have hit a metaphorical ceiling in that regard. I'm just consistently apathetic now. Makes me wonder why it got better after going off depression meds, if it's a symptom of depression.
My main question isn't "am I depressed?", since writing this out I believe it's likely I am. My main question is "what can I do to begin fixing this?"
The only thing I feel upset about these days is how useless and apathetic I feel. What can I do?
Tl,dr: I'm so apathetic these days. I think I'm depressed and aside from counciling, I don't know what to do to fix this, to change?
Edit: I thought I might add what I do everyday: watch TV, if it's not too cold I take a walk, at night I get high. Used to play video games but they're just kinda boring to me now. | depression |
I just recently started a new job as a lab RA yesterday and am in the process of settling in. The next few weeks will involve trainings, reading, and keeping myself busy in between meetings.
For whatever reason, despite the arguably "light" load today (a few meetings, readings, and emails that needed sorting out), my head feels heavy. My brain, positively fried.
During work (remote), I am suppressing a lot of things, from anxiety to the want to be distracted. Additionally, I am trying to wrap my mind around implementing decent time management skills, such as maintaining a to do list, skills I regretably have difficulty with. These might be one possible source of cognitive strain. | aspergers |
I (20m) have never had a girlfriend. The start of this year, I’ve tried to get out of my shell and try to date. I’ve been on 2 dates my whole life, and both ended in the girl saying “I think we should be friends”. To make matters worse, I’ve asked out a handful of girls, and all ended in rejection. The last girl I asked out was awesome and something I thought would work out. We shared the same energy, we both have anxiety and depression and relate to each other on a lot of levels. I told her I have Aspergers, she was ok with it. But then, out of nowhere just told me she wants to just be friends. I feel like I’m a nice person, I let her talk, and we both laughed and seemed like it work work. I’m a boring person though, which I guess is what brings the ladies away. I think my boringness brings everyone away, because I don’t really have friends either. I know girls always want exciting, nt guys that they can brag about to their friends. Even the girls that say they like quiet guys prefer exciting guys. I was also once told my a girl that I’d be a good husband, but not a good boyfriend. I don’t know what to do anymore. I feel like I should put on a mask and change who I am. Growing up, I’ve heard Mister Rogers say that people will like me just the way I am, but I so far, it’s not happening | aspergers |
So diagnosed with psychotic depression, might be schizoaffective disorder.
Best and only friend died 18months ago.
Had a nice hospital visit after trying to kill myself cos I thought everyone was telling me to.
My wife has just left me whilst I’m tapering off antipsychotics.
My question is what the fuck do I do now?
I have no support system where I am, no friends to talk to, just a dog. I can work remotely and just want to get away from it all. I have a little savings to do so. Kicking around the idea of becoming a digital nomad.
Where do I go? What should I do? Any opinions? | depression |
I recently got diagnosed with OCD and I’m 26. I’ve always struggled with intrusive thoughts but never addressed them. Then I decided to talk to my friend about it and at this time I didn’t know it was ocd. She was supportive. Then I decided to open up to my therapist about it and it was one of the hardest things I’ve ever done. Then I asked her to test me for ocd and I ended up having it. But ever since I opened up about it and got diagnosed I feel like my intrusive thoughts got worse. Is this normal? Has anyone else felt like this before? | OCD |
i try and pick up things like their body language, or maybe phrases they tend to say, etc. currently fixated on Benicio Del Toro. how about you? | aspergers |
Hi folks!
I’m Brisbane based with ADHD, received diagnosis about 14 months back so this is the first time this is coming up for me… prescription over Christmas break…
Last year we were still trying to find the right balance with my meds at Christmas and I was seeing my psychiatrist every 3 or so weeks. We finally landed at 60mg vyvanse once daily and then it became set and forget so I was given a few repeats at our last appointment 4 months back.. which I’ve just run out of without somehow really noticing it was marked as last repeat on the bottle. I’m working over the break and but felt optimistic about being med free as it’s quiet and I survived before my diagnosis,…… but I have just had my first day at work unmedicated and I am shocked at how non functional I am without it.
The clinic I see my treating psychiatrist through is shut until 4th of jan and then getting an appointment/a script organised may take a couple of days on top.
Does anyone have experience with this, and any solutions or do I cop it on the chin for being a disorganised wreck? I thought about booking into my GP to see if they could give me a steer on what to do but don’t want to pay the appointment fee to be told to cop it on the chin.
Feedback either way would be super appreciated! | ADHD |
I was diagnosed in 2015 when I was 21 and have been on Vyvanse/Elvanse + Brintellix/Trintellix since maybe 2017-ish and have been very happy with my medication. For like maybe a year or so, I don't really feel ADHD anymore, at least when I'm on my meds. Days that I don't take it, I mostly just feel lethargic.
Granted, it could be that I've just not been in situations that ADHD really shows itself in for a while. My life has been leisurely to a fault during the Rona, so it may very well be just that. IThe challenge I face more these days is that while I could Do The Thing, I do not Want to Do The Thing, and also general lack of energy, which could have something to do with ADHD but also not.I did try and go off my meds for a while a few summers ago, which was a horrible experience that I have no desire to try and repeat.
While it's lovely to not have the challenges I used to, it's also kinda weird. Has anyone had a similar experience?
//EDIT. I do not mean that I suspect that I'm "cured" and don't have ADHD anymore, quite certainly I do. My point is that I don't experience symptoms, or at least not in the way I used to, and I find that curious and am wondering if anyone has had a similar experience. | ADHD |
I need to move on to study tonight asap, but this situation is right in my face and driving me crazy. Do I start scanning stuff ? cram as much as I can back in the closet ? It's out because I was looking for something and the basket wound up out. I started going through it weeks ago and it still seems endless. How do I strategize this situation.
In the basket there's also maybe a couple of binders, dividers, some folders with stuff, mail from banks I want to contact to stop sending me mail and so on and so forth.
Has anyone wound up with a similar situation ?
Bonus question: I think it got this bad because I was trying to stay mostly electronic taking notes this semester, but I wind up writing things down in random places. I don't love the aesthetic of the online applications I am trying to use. Also still need to figure out what note taking system works for the courses I am taking and will take next semester. | ADHD |
I've been nothing but a drag and dead weight to my wife for years. The meds helped for a while but it's becoming clear to me each day now that I'm not gonna get any better. She's finally started nursing school, meanwhile I'm still working a job that's now barely above minimum wage and doing it terribly it at that. I do nothing of worth to help with our house. No one at work likes me, I have no friends and I've slowly isolated myself from my family over the years. I've failed out of college twice and I'm too afraid, too poor, and too unmotivated to go back soon enough to be of any use to our marriage. The porn addicition has hurt our relationship to the breaking point, she'd be undoubtly be better off without me in the big picture. I'm too much of a coward to outright kill myself, I'd rather just make everyone hate me so then I'd have nothing left but suffering. I'll be homeless but I won't kill myself, I deserved to be punished for my laziness, selfiness, addiction and failure to be a useful member of society.
Just another Thurday. | depression |
do you guys remember things you’ve learned in school? for as long as I can remember, I would study and then forget after an exam if it never came up again. whenever people would bring up stuff we learned in previous years i’d always get confused like how do you retain did it not just stay in short term memory? is this just me??? | ADHD |
I have PTSD from emotional/ borderline sexual trauma that occurred about 10 years ago. I was diagnosed 2 years ago, and right after my diagnosis, my focus was treatment. I also felt so much relief at having something to explain how I'd mysteriously been feeling for so long.
That said, I'm now at the point where I'm having a hard time dealing with the diagnosis. I'm having a hard time incorporating it into my personal identity without letting it destroy my image of myself. I have these images of my "ideal self," of who I'm striving to be, and that girl seems perfect - she can't possibly have any kind of disorder. How do you guys overcome that? How do you both accept that you have PTSD and not let it negatively define you? | ptsd |
By “normal” I mean a conversation that is rather pleasant and nothing awkward happens.
Even then, despite saying goodbye effortlessly and leaving the conversation on a positive note, I often feel like I need a private moment to let myself calm down. Doesn’t seem to matter if the person is family, friend or a stranger.
It doesn’t really bother me nowadays because I’m kind of used to it, but man it’s so strange.
I’m anxious at the thought of telling any NT’s about this, considering that the wrong people could intentionally misconstrue that as me being untrustworthy and that I’m hiding something from them. I think. | aspergers |
I seriously need help because I can't focus at all and this year is very important for me. I can't even cross the road because I keep spacing out and almost got hit by cars multiple times this week (I'm also on the autism spectrum if that helps) but my question is has any of you tried a medication that improved your symptoms? I live in a country where adhd medication is very hard to find so if yall tried any supplements that worked that would be really helpful! | ADHD |
Even before COVID I’ve been the worst at social situations. I just don’t know how to navigate them. I have like two to three friends, but no one I talk to on a regular basis outside of my girlfriend. I’m the worst at communicating and it’s alienating everyone I know. It’s getting to the point where I rarely feel at ease talking to anyone. So now I’m pretty sure I have generalized anxiety disorder too because I am utterly terrified of losing the last few people I really have. I’m always in panic mode, it never turns off without weed.
I feel like I’m stuck at the bottom of a well that’s getting increasingly deeper. I just spent the past hour getting even more depressed on r/antisocial. It feels like everyone knows how to socialize but me, like I’m in my head playing with a fucking racing wheel and pedals while everyone else has keyboards. I’m just not good at this game and I don’t know if I ever will be. It feels like I fell asleep at some point and when I woke up I forgot how to communicate with the world. I forgot how to care. I forgot how to exist. I spent so long trying to figure out how to blend into the background that I finally did it. I got what I wanted and I don’t like it.
The scariest part is the people closest to me are starting to notice, or maybe they’ve seen it the entire time. I don’t know. My girlfriend knows I’m a shallow person. I lack literally any depth or personality or character. I don’t give a shit about anything because I’m too busy trying to keep myself functional and alive. I don’t know how to share pieces of myself with other people.
The truth is I’m not a good person. I don’t stand by what I say. My actions don’t match my words. I am hurting everyone around me by just killing joy when I enter a room. I’m not fun, I don’t really feel like anyone likes me or really enjoys spending time around me and if I’m Being honest I don’t really know what that would look like. People actually enjoying my presence actually feels impossible.
Just in case you can’t tell already: I hate myself and I don’t know how to stop. | depression |
Can/Do people with Asperger's have an emotional attachment to an inanimate object such as a stuffed animal?
If so, if that object were taken away, how would one respond? | aspergers |
I just got my dosage of Adderall increased again. I’ve waited a week to see if the doctors office would send in the prior authorization paperwork to my insurance (yet again this has happened EVERYTIME I’ve had a dose increase or change) and I end up having to make several phone calls/patient portal messages back and forth between the pharmacy and my doctors office. I love my doc and he truly listens to me but it seems whoever is in the position to send in this particular paperwork just doesn’t care to do it until I start hounding them. I hate having to do this. Is this normal for all doctors offices and should I suck it up and just deal with it? Or is this something worth mentioning to someone, and if so who do I mention it to? | ADHD |
I just started taking methylphenidate Er 10 MG about a month ago and the first few weeks I felt like I could do anything with just a little motivation. This past week however I've found I'm going back to my old ways and it's harder to resist the siren song of cell phones games and books etc when I need to be doing something more important. I'm also having a hard time trying to start things again.
Don't get me wrong I'm still better than where I was as I am still getting more done but I miss those first few weeks where it came so much easier.
Further my doctor is putting me on 2 doses of rapid release methylphenidate for a month so I'm interested to see if this helps as hopefully it will last longer into the day so I can get more done in my home life after work.
TLDR
My first set of meds feel less effective than before and never lasted all day. Is this normal and do you think the 2 doses of rapid release will help? | ADHD |
Hey all. Thought I was experiencing burn out but am possibly experiencing a new side effect. Have been taking 54 mg of concerta for a year now no problem. Recently around 3:30 I feel like death. Face and head pain, intense fatigue and emotional stress. Brain fog. My boosters that I take in the afternoon (20mg ritilan) don’t seem to help.
I don’t want to switch meds again. Any suggestions? | ADHD |
i’ve reached a point where i can’t stand how inconsistent i am. all i want out of my life, more than ANYTHING, is to just be consistent with anything i do!!
i can’t stick with anything. theres so many things i want to do, for my mental + physical health, for my future, for my loved ones, and just for fun… but i can’t.
for obvious reasons this has been a lifelong problem, but now that i’ve moved out it’s starting to really hurt my life.
i work from home, and i can’t get a regular 9-5 job. but i’m struggling so, so, SO much to earn money consistently. i end up buckling down and working regularly for a week or two, then i slip up and don’t work for days, weeks, or months. i end up getting so stressed and frantic i beg friends for money for rent and food. then the cycle starts over.
i hate it. i hate myself. why can’t i just DO the things i need to do to survive?? even when the stakes are so high (homelessness! starvation! debt!) i still can’t force myself.
i never had the opportunity to learn how to cope with my executive dysfunction. my mom “homeschooled” me (read: didn’t care what i did all day) and i never went to college. maybe that’s part of the reason why i have no handle on my executive dysfunction at all, but i suppose the reason why doesn’t matter much now.
i just want to be able to work everyday. i want to be able to do things i enjoy everyday (video games, reading). i want to do things that make me feel good everyday.
i’m beginning to lose all hope that i’ll ever be able to get this under control at all. last night i started making a very simple bullet journal to try and organize my days a little, but the whole time i felt hopeless. why even bother? no matter how hard i try, i won’t be able to keep it up.
i’m working on getting into therapy again, and i am medicated, i just desperately need ANY advice anyone can offer. please tell me how you, as someone with ADHD, gets anything done consistently. i’m in desperate need of some guidance here | ADHD |
I got into an accident about a month ago. No one was hurt and the insurance will soon fix my car. Despite being a very mild accident where the car sustained all the damage, I’m having trouble coping. I don’t want to self diagnose myself but I find myself so paranoid driving. Oddly enough, my car was vandalized about a week before Christmas last year and I was too paranoid to drive and every time I left the house, I had to check my car. It took about a month but I eventually forgot about it.
I was hit on the drivers side but because I saw another car merge onto my side and nearly hit me; so now I have trouble trusting people on the passenger side. I only take the side streets to drive and have avoided the highways, especially the one where I got into an accident on, like the plague. I never noticed how close those cars are to mine. Driving long distance or getting on the highway is a no-go so my mom drives me everywhere. I feel like a burden to her but I can’t bring myself to drive on a highway.
Yesterday, we were on an expressway and I hate seeing trucks on the passenger side. My mom saw me put my hands up when we passed by a truck. On a busy street, I’ll put my hand over her chest when I’m frightened over other drivers. I told my therapist but I am afraid that she is not helping me cope well. I am at my wits end. | ptsd |
underneath is a message i sent to a friend anonymously. i no longer can talk to him but he’s dear to me.
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so recently i got diagnosed with a mental disorder and i don’t know how to feel. i knew beforehand that i had it but needed it to be a proper diagnosis. i also haven’t been to any of the sessions because my mom thinks that it’s all in my head and i can beat it by myself even though i’ve been struggling for years. my friends are of no help also. one is proud of herself because i listened to her and went to a therapist while the other is away and distant (my fault). there’s also this one friend who told my to “stop overthinking”. with no doubt i would’ve done that if it’s that easy. i feel empty but full of emotions, it’s actually confusing. i know i’m not supposed to depend on others but i need to be heard. and i know that time is supposed to heal, but this isn’t the deal with me.
i’m in no way writing this for you to pity me nor it is a cry for help. i swear i just wanna get it out of my chest. i’m just writing this to someone who would just read and not reply nor bore me with advice. you’ve actually given me so much help in the past, and i’m forever grateful. you might not recall any of this and i don’t expect you to. bye! | ptsd |
I used to be best friends with the guy who assaulted me and we had fun together until it happened.
Now I haven't seen him in 3 months and we haven't talked in over 2 years. It feels wrong to wonder if he's okay but I still care no matter how much he hurt me, everyone says I don't need to worry but I can't help it I just want to know if he's okay. | ptsd |
BBC News - Melanie Sykes and Christine McGuinness praised for openness about autism diagnosis
https://www.bbc.co.uk/news/uk-59352983 | aspergers |
My parents want me to get my 5th job in 4 years. I’m about to turn nineteen in April. It’s not that I don’t want to save up, I want more than anything to have money and move out. but my mental health is poor and I just got out of drug rehab 2 months ago, barely got diagnosed with and started ADHD medication one month ago. I’m on the lowest dose. Parents already forced me to hand in more applications even though I was doing drugs before due to the stress of jobs, and each ended in a negative way because I wasn’t a great worker:(
Should I just head in to a new job because they know what’s best for me or is it my intuition that’s right and I need more time to rest and overcome this anxiety and poor executive function before I go work anywhere? I always feel like a bad worker and my stress worsens, I have a pretty bad feeling about going into another job right now, don’t want the cycle to repeat. I wish they’d give the meds longer and wait until I feel ready to be in society again, but on the other hand I feel like a bum who wants to live with his parents too long :( so stressed out right now.
Anyone with experience please help me I feel helpless | ADHD |
I'm noticing that silence is really popular these days but I'm ridiculously bad at filling these silences with literally anything and disclosing too much about myself then hating myself afterward. Lol
On my own all of lockdown has kind of compounded my antisocial and hyperactive word vomit.
Any tips?
Have to add words to allow me to post so I'm going to add a bit here that you can absolutely skip. I just want to go to work and leave like a normal person but I'm a constant people pleaser which pisses people off, ironically, and so I was wondering if you guys have a tip like...when people talk just limit your response to five words, or something like that? How do you be comfortable on these silences? I don't want to go on my phone, though they do, cause it's a new job, there are cameras everywhere and I don't want to seem disinterested...plus I'm still learning so in my head I'm like, bish! Teach me something ffs! Stop drip feeding me info casue you don't want me here! | ADHD |
I've wondered about if adhd is worse if one has too much time on their hands. I've become only an online student and I feel like my focus isn't there. I wonder if i fill up my schedule more if my adhd will get better. Maybe if I'm consistently going out to do something then maybe i would feel more motivated and the adhd would get better. For example, instead of having all day to do a hw assignment, I only have 3 hours because then I have to go volunteer or something like that
I know everyone's different, but I want to know about your personal experience with this. Does having too much time on your hands make you less motivated and so less focused? | ADHD |
Hi guys, just wondering if anyone ever ruminated and overanalyzed so much you started spiralling into a depressive & anxious state?
I was diagnosed with OCD about a few years back and I have always struggled with intrusive thoughts. So I often rationalize them and try to do mental compulsions to obtain temporary relief. However, I began to question life, humanity and morals the past few months and it is freaking me out. I feel like my brain would break if I continued overthinking.
A few examples of my thought process:
"Are human lives as valuable as we make it out to be? Aren't we just made out of cells, organs, respiratory systems and skeletons? If so, what makes our lives so special?" Even if I find a logical reply to the question, my brain can't accept it and always feels as though it isn't convincing enough. As a result, I continue feeling miserable about my predicament.
When I'm responding to messages, I can't help but overthink how boring my responses are or predicting the other party's typical reply.
I can't enjoy life like I used to. Constantly plagued by these nasty thoughts and wondering if there is something wrong with me. Nothing I do engages me enough to distract me. I looked forward to events, attended them but it was pointless since I wasn't mentally there anyways.
Life became boring and dull, always doing the same old things. I'm tired of people reminding me that there are still little joys in life such as getting a glimpse of the setting sun. What's truly important to me is repaying my parents and helping them out. I can barely do that in my current state. I'm so worried I'll screw everything up again due to a poor mental state. Everything hurts so bad. I don't know what to do without feeling overwhelmed. | depression |
I was talking with my friend yesterday and he was naming all these things we did. They ranged from two years ago to five years ago. I don't remember these entire events. Of course chunks of my memory are missing from the time of the trauma, and some of my memories do come back after some years, but I don't know. Maybe it could be something else; just wondering if anyone else has experienced this. | ptsd |
I’m not sure if my nurse has been titrating me correctly:
I’ve had 3 med changes over the past year, and each time I’ve changed, she’s told me to have a week of no meds (hell) followed by the lowest dose (also hell) and then gradually titrate upwards e.g. I went from 60mg Vyvanse to 18mg Concerta. I would always experience terrible fatigue and depressive moods for the a few weeks after starting a new med.
I thought this was standard and so never queried it, but I’m reading now how most people aren’t started on the lowest dose when switching, and instead are converted to a more ‘equal’ dose (not the lowest).
Is that standard practice?
What was your titration process when you switched meds?
Thanks in advance! | ADHD |
So, a lot of us have a hard time in the world, because we tend to be the black sheep's and that's OK. I wanted to attempt to make a positive post about the bright side of our way of being. So what is a thing or some things you LIKE/LOVE about having aspergers. I'll go first.
I love that when I become obsessed with something that I research and study so much that I quickly become like a mini expert on a subject where I can understand things about that subject that people who have been studying it for years didn't really think about it, this is because when I get obsessed I begin looking at the best and the worst of the subject and also try to find simplistic answers but in my experience I find looking for simplicity tends to be a quite advanced thing in a lot of areas. (Most people tend to over complicate things.) | aspergers |
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