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I just want to ask if what I’m feeling is correct. Every time I see this person online, I get this feeling cold like my blood doesn’t reach my veins in my hands and I shiver even though it’s hot. I experienced this three times and the third one just happened few hours ago.
I thought about PTSD but I’m not knowledgeable on such topic. And I can’t afford to go to a therapist.
P.S. I searched his name on fb to make sure I don’t feel the same way but I still do so. | ptsd |
Hi all. Please excuse me if this is a bit of a lengthy post.
For the past couple of years, I’ve been having some issues, mostly being paranoid around safety. I’ve recently been reading about OCD and some aspects sound super similar to what I’ve been experiencing. Like I cannot leave the house without checking the stove/oven is off, no outlets are switched on, no candles are burning and all the doors are locked 5-6 times. I also worry about my parents dying in a car crash every time they leave, and have to say I love you and drive safely every time otherwise I worry the whole time that they’re gone (even doing this, I sometimes cry when they leave anyways, which is a bit pathetic)
I find it’s a lot worse if I’m home alone, and I often have to take a video of me turning everything off and locking the doors to feel at ease.
Due to the pandemic my city has been in lockdown (only leaving the house for work, groceries or exercise) for about 250 days in total. I feel like this is where my issues may be stemming from, as I’ve gotten so used to people being home all the time. Has anyone else had an experience similar to this? Wondering where to go from here. Hoping it will go away as I get used to my city opening back up again :( | OCD |
Why do I feel shaky, dizzy to the point of my hands locking up/ curling into a claw the day after drinking and taking my stimulant medication?
My neck, shoulders and hands cramp up, I feel tingling throughout my body, rapid heartbeat, eyes and head shake and I feel like I’m going to fall down.
I like to enjoy my drinks every once in a while but the day after is hell.
Is this a panic attack?
I do suffer panic disorder but I just want to know if anyone else experiences this. | ADHD |
TW! gory thoughts (not in detail) ⚠️
if anyone has good ways to deal with intrusive thoughts to prevent them, i’m all ears. i get thoughts like the normal “kick the child”, but recently i’ve gotten awful thoughts involving myself such as “knock on the door 8 times in 3 sets or you’ll get kidnapped and tortured” (more specific than that but i really don’t want to go into it.) does anyone else relate? it really sucks being so scared all the time. | OCD |
My husband of almost 3 years can't even do the most basic things to help, when he knows i'm depressed.
Friends who apparently care and love me ghost me for days the second i say i'm depressed. I have to continually fight for myself with an army of people who have given me nothing but empty promises. I don't want to live anymore, and i can't talk to anyone about it and have a meaningful conversation. I'm once again pretty sure i'm gonna end up killing myself again one day but at least my "friends" wouldn't care that much. | depression |
Most of us probably learn as we go and adapt. What helps you?
For me personally:
1. Being careful how I phrase emails.
2. Actively participating in those 'ice breaker, get to know you' games
3. If someone has a question about your work, making sure to avoid language that places the blame on yourself
These are the main ones for me. | aspergers |
So I have had PTSD for 1.5 years. I started taking meds a few months ago and stopped taking them a few weeks ago. Since I’ve stopped taking meds, I’ve been getting extremely jumpy and having very high sensitivity to loud sounds and sudden movements (kinda like jump scares). I kinda had this before taking the meds but not nearly as bad.
Has anyone ever had symptoms increase after they stop taking meds, as in an increase from the symptoms they had before taking the meds? | ptsd |
It's hard. Because there is an obsession that I have to say that it is not necessarily the case to tell the person individually | OCD |
I used to take methylphenidate and then i switched to dexamphetamine. I don't believe I had these complains when I took methylphenidate. Anyway, when I wake up I feel unbelievably tense and uncomfortable. It's hard to describe. It's like a fire is burning inside of me. To release the tension I tighten me legs and feet extra hard and then let go. I have to do this constantly. It's a very bodily feeling so when I say 'agitated' I mainly mean my body. I have my medication next to my bed and when I take them it goes away for the most part of it. Walking also relieves it 'cause when i go to the bathroom I don't experience it.
Could this simply be a withdrawal effect from the medication? 'Cause after all, it's an addictive substance I use everyday. Do any of you recognize this? I'm taking 45mg (in total) instant release. 15mg in the morning and the rest spread out a bit during the day. | ADHD |
Please excuse the language I am using but does anyone else feel like they are just existing where other people are thriving? I’ve been feeling like I am
“low functioning”(for lack of a better term) unrelated to ADHD or unable to handle a lot whereas things seem to fall in to place for others. Trying to figure out how to stop comparing and to find peace as I am now. | ADHD |
I’ve done this for my night rituals and it helps me because I can’t both do physical and mental compulsions while listening so I end up mostly doing the physical ones hope this helps. | OCD |
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Can OCD be physical in your private areas? It’s been freaking me out and making me feel like a monster, even though I can’t control what’s going on in my head, and I feel like I can’t control what’s going on down there either, I would never do anything to anyone, I feel disgusted and horrified by it, and I even started squeezing my body, which ended up hurting my bladder a lot, but, is this an OCD thing or is it real? | OCD |
hi ! i am mostly sure i have ocd, the parts of
my day that i do think are linked to it aren’t really very troublesome, but i especially struggle a lot with intrusive thoughts and i would like anything that could help, as long as it isn’t therapy to talk about them. i was wondering if there was any medicine i could take that might help, or do i need an official diagnosis to get anything like that ? and what are people’s experiences with medicine + intrusive thoughts ? i have them all through the day everyday and at night :( | OCD |
I made a realization today when speaking with my best friend, she really understands me. But when she said something my impulse made me say something and she rightfully got angry because I interrupted her. But I broke down crying after the call because I hate that I always do this, it wasn't my friend reaction per se but it just hit me hard and it's something I'm very self-conscious about.
When I was a kid I had a lot of friends, but as soon as I entered middle school- high school it all changed. I literally lost all friends and noticed how lacking my social skills were compared to others. I was impatient and impulsive and intense in my socializing. It took me YEARS of social anxiety and isolation to build up the skills and courage to partake in social scenarios. I finally feel I'm at a comfortable place where I have good friends that support and love me, and I can make new friend somewhat easy nowadays. But I still am self conscious about my social skills.
I often interrupt and have to apologize but today when this happened It just triggered something in me. I literally broke down after our call. I think this was a great realization for me though that I have to accept this and work on it in a healthy manner rather than hating myself for it, it has caused a lot of problems in my romantic relationships for example. I don't know, just a small rant | ADHD |
I never had amazing social skills and neither did my brother, so I don’t have very many friends at the moment. But for some reason, if I see that even 1 or 2 of the people I know have a partner, I start to fear other people are succeeding while I’m failing. It’s probably a cognitive distortion but, that’s how it often feels. | OCD |
I think that I possibly may have ADHD since most on the symptoms and anecdotes from classmates who have ADHD match some of my symptoms. I have always procrastinated about assignments/homework or simple activities that I had planned, but I would always stall and make up random excuses on why I couldn’t do them. I absolutely hate louds noises whenever I am trying to listen to someone or concentrate. My mind feels like it’s always racing with random thoughts about school, activities, future assignments or exams. I would feel unmotivated to start studying for practice exams, even though I wanted to do them, but I generally felt unmotivated. I have a GP but I have an irrational fear of being judged by them and I don't even know how to bring the topic up. | ADHD |
I don’t know if I can do this anymore. I’ve been suicidal and depressed for all but about 1.5 years (spread out in couple month chunks) for the past 13 years. I remember first wanting to kill myself in 6th grade. Everything just keeps getting harder and harder. I have ADHD as well. I have two parents with naturally brilliant minds (they allowed to somewhat atrophy recently) who came together to create a tortured mind. I wish it could all stop. I was on medication that kinda worked, but hated the fact that my medical record would show it. I worried that this would exclude me from opportunity in the future so I quit taking it and ended up back depressed. I feel like there’s no tomorrow. | depression |
Hello!
I was recently diagnosed and started taking Vyvanse 30mg. I'm in my first week of treatment but I can definitely see my life changing: for the first time in forever, my brain is not trying to process a thousand things at the same time. I feel alive, happy, and I feel like my batteries are full and at the same time, calm and relaxed because I'm not constantly having negative thoughts. So it's easier to do stuff. There are significantly less steps involved in taking a decision to do something and then actually doing it. So it's been very positive for my daily life, doing chores and being on time.
However... I feel like I can't focus as much as before on intellectually intensive tasks. My mind wanders when I'm reading or having a class on a difficult subject. It's not really bad or impairing, but I found it curious that the amphetamine prescribed for an attention deficit made me calmer and less focused.
I'd like to know from your experience if you've experienced anything similar, or if that's a matter of dosage or getting used to the meds.
Thanks and have a great day! | ADHD |
Hi everyone for the past 4 ish months I've suffered from pocd but am having a hard time identifying compulsions that I do to try and combat it. I may just not be able to think of any currently but could any fellow sufferers of pocd share the compulsions you practice to see if I can relate? | OCD |
I try not to talk to people not because I don’t like their company but because whatever things I say in our conversation I can’t get them out of my head later on. They keep on going over and over again in my head and i find myself thinking if I should’ve said those things. Even when a conversation go perfectly well and theirs nothing harsh said in it. I find myself repeating the sentences I said and thinking if I should’ve said them.
Even if I’m just listening to someone some things get stuck in my head and I can’t stop thinking about what they said. Most of the times the things I find myself thinking about aren’t even important and don’t even concern me personally but it’s so hard to just stop thinking about them. The only time I relax is when I’m asleep. That’s literally the only time when I’m not ruminating. The moment I open my eyes some stupid phrase gets in my mind either something that I said to someone or someone said to me. Then I keep thinking about it for so long. It’s so painful. People say memory is a blessing. It’s a curse for me apparently. Sometimes I wish that I wake up and don’t remember anything from previous days so I could just enjoy the present moments.
It’s been getting worse lately and Im tired all the time. No control over my thoughts whatsoever. Pretty sure I’ll be thinking about this post later the things I said.
Can someone relate to the things I mentioned? Please help! What should I do? | OCD |
is this ocd or not? basically, if i tell myself i have OCD, all the symptoms develop, and all that stuff. and if i tell myself i DONT have ocd, then all the symptoms go away, what? bro help me, what is this. | OCD |
Hi so this is my first post in this subreddit, I'd rather not go into too much detail, but basically I'm self-dx autistic and have had recurring depressive episodes since about mid 2019.
Recently though, I've been wondering if I might have repressed childhood trauma, since there are some things others and I myself noticed about me that happened before my depression and I don't think they can be explained as just autism symptoms.
As I said, I'd rather not go into detail, but what's some general advice for figuring out if you have repressed trauma or not? This has been really bugging me for the past hour and I can't find answers anywhere :( | ptsd |
It's like God's hands are around my throat.
He's holding me here as if I'm drowning under water.
He hears my prayers, my screams for help.
But he don't care.
He has so many other humans to watch after.
I get it - I've never been wanted.
I was an accident from the very beginning.
I can see his light.
I can feel his presence.
Despite the dark all around me,
The universe insists, That I fuckin endure this.
Be lonely. Get hurt. Feel like nothing but an inconvenience; like dirt.
It doesn't matter how much love I give,
I'll always be broken and ignored.
Take the little good front me.
Taint the happy that I find.
Who the fuck do I think I am?
Someone who's strong and doesn't cry?
I've never been so sad.
Or felt so empty Inside.
I don't know if I love anymore,
Because, really...
I'm trying to survive.
I want to be wrapped in arms.
Held for a really long time.
To feel safe for once in my life,
Instead of wondering about all the lies.
I don't know how long I have left.
Maybe one day. Maybe two.
Could things be different?
Doubtful. I'm screwed.
Just what happens, when not even God listens to your screams? I bet it's something to do with my cycles...and I deserve to be stuck with a shithead like me. | depression |
My last two posts -
[https://www.reddit.com/r/depression/comments/rhbaqt/i\_took\_a\_risk\_and\_pray\_that\_i\_could\_get\_my/](https://www.reddit.com/r/depression/comments/rhbaqt/i_took_a_risk_and_pray_that_i_could_get_my/)
[https://www.reddit.com/r/depression/comments/rji0gm/sleep\_is\_the\_escape\_i\_look\_for\_but\_it\_is\_not\_one/](https://www.reddit.com/r/depression/comments/rji0gm/sleep_is_the_escape_i_look_for_but_it_is_not_one/)
I don't even know what to say on this one, its been almost a week since i sent her the first message and two days since the second, i told her i wont send anymore since she hates 100s of messages before she responds. I'm half tempted to add her again on facebook but i think that would be me breaking my word of not sending her anymore messages.
God, it's so hard not being able to talk to her, i wont ever get to see her again in my life, we know where each other stay and i know where her parents live but dropping by unannounced would just be dumb. I don't know if shes actually read the messages or just ignored them and i wouldn't blame her if she did ignore them, its what i deserve.
Shes happy with her boyfriend and i just wish she took that chance with me, i would of gave her the world if that is what she wanted. i wish i could go back to the springtime when we were talking daily and for that to never end it was honestly one of the highlights of my life meeting her and spending time with her.
I just feel like i could of done so much for her but now i'm alone, and she has moved on forever. | depression |
I'm 26 and have reached the point where I don't think I'll ever get my license. I hate being in cars, can't stand the noise and speed, and my anxiety flairs up whenever I'm on the highway. I've been trying to learn to drive since I was 17, and I still can't handle anything more than side streets and urban areas with low speed rates. I've had to pull over on busy roads because I get so nervous and stressed out. (Think I'd have a heart attack if I had to drive on the highway.) Has anyone else had this problem? It's gotten to the point where I'm ready to move back to the city where I went to college, so I can avoid having to bother with cars ever again. | aspergers |
I’ve struggled with public speaking for sometime. I think it’s a conditioned response from a childhood of only receiving negative attention. Smaller groups I’m fine with, but when the room turns silent and every glassy blank eye is on me I get sucked into my head. Instead of focusing on what I’m attempting to share I find myself distracted, wondering what’s going on behind all those blank starring eyes.
What strategies do you use to stay present when addressing a group of people? | ADHD |
I am going to make a computer analogy here.
Most of the time In perfectly fine just like regular OS
But when I'm having a rough day I try and get away from everything but if still functional recovery mode or safe mode if you will.
If you push me too far I'll end completely non functional except for things that absolutely have to happen the BIOS/UEFI if you will.
And if you keep pushing me farther it turns into a Kernel Panic/BSOD or a complete meltdown. Does anyone else feel like that? | aspergers |
So, here at school, we have keys to our classroom, and every single day, one of us in the class has to take care of the keys ( bring them with them all the time, lock and unlock the door, give the keys to a teacher, etc. ) and I.. Completely can't do that. My mom even had to call my teacher so that I won't have to take care of the keys because even talking about it led me to experience stress, crying, hitting myself and it honestly looked l was going to experience a meltdown or something like that. Today, my classmates were going out of the classroom and I was the only one in it. A classmate handed me the keys and asked me if I could take care of them.
I couldn't even say a single word, I was stuttering, playing with my hands, looking at the ground and then I started to flap my hands and knock on my desk repeatedly. He just took it as a yes probably and left me with the keys, and after that, I started to hit my head against my desk, tap my foot really fast and after like a minute, I managed to calm myself down and just went back to flapping my hands and knocking on the desk to fully calm down.
Is this a meltdown? It lasted max 5 minutes.. My head still hurts a little bit.. | aspergers |
I have a coworker couple I absolutely love. Not romantically. Awesome people. One of them is trans. I already offended him once. Found a comic strip at work, though it was funny and showed it to him. As he was reading I realized it had some anti undertones to it. It wasnt explicit but it was there kinda like saying there are two genders depending on how you interpreted it. He kinda stopped said I don't know what to make of that and walked away. I just froze. I couldnt sleep for days. Eventually i apologized and we are ok.
Now it looks like he is going through some rough patch and I want to be more supportive. But im constantly terrified of fucking up and saying the wrong thing like i always do. Its so damn frustrating. They are awesome people but i just cant be supportive like i want to be. Its frustrating to say the least... | aspergers |
OCD has been added to my ongoing list of mental illness diagnoses. I've been receiving treatment for PTSD, MDD, GAD, Panic Disorder, and Schizoaffective Disorder for over 10 years now (I am almost 24). I have suspected that I have had OCD since my elementary school days, but I didn't want to discuss it with anyone until my thoughts and compulsions became incapacitating in recent years. Anyone else been diagnosed with OCD recently? | OCD |
I have pure OCD traits and have been technically diagnosed, but am curious as to if the types of obsessive ruination I have may actually be an adhd thing.
Having ADHD, obsessions can be anything, and often might be a new hobby or interest, or something I am thinking about buying, or a person. When I become passionate/obsessive towards a hobby it is fun, I love that drive even though it’s fleeting.
I’ve always had an obsessive thought process - just in the sense that, I think about EVERYTHING in detail. Sometimes it’s a good thing, and makes me very self aware, or introspective. But when it’s bad, like about a conflict or insecurity in my relationship or something, it’s very destructive.
I know that I’ve always been like this, whether it’s due to some personality “disorder” or not - but I’m curious, do other people with adhd struggle with the same thing? | ADHD |
Hello all, I'd appreciate some advice on intrusive thoughts which are ever-present in my life, despite me being able to function. To keep it short, I've read a lot of philosophical texts over the past three years, studying intensively. It's led me to question basic things about reality, obsessively. A common example is where I'll be watching a movie, or doing literally anything, and if a character gains an advantage or considers something 'good' or 'bad' I'll question the reality of those concepts. For example, asking how we know whether good and bad are real things; and if not, why should we tie our lives and our ambitions to intangible mental concepts? Then I obsess about how there is a non-material dimension of existence - our evaluation of the material world - which seems to have priority, and think about what this means. I have no way of resolving these questions but they will constantly pop into my mind, to the detriment of anything else that I'm doing. | OCD |
Whenever I cannot get ocd type thoughts out of my head, how should I deal with them? Should I try to forget them, should I think them through, or any other method? These types of thoughts clutter all the space in my brain if you know what I mean so what is the best way of dealing with them? Thanks. | OCD |
Its been 30 days of working as a pharmacy tech. I'm loving the job! My performance review threw me for a loop though.
Obviously aspergers causes some communication issues, but I'm not withdrawn or anything. (My boss told me I'm more outgoing than she was at my age). I just can't be read still. To the point where genuine concern expressed by me was taken as taunting? Like, I was concerned for the well being of someone and they took it like I was questioning their fitness for the job....
Also, I was told I'm too blunt and detailed. People don't care about where in the process something is. They just want it. To the point where I was told that even saying "There's an issue with insurance" or "It's currently at the X stage of the fill process" is not how I should be explaining things.
To sum it up, after working 160 hours with these people, I am still an enigma it seems. I'm happy with the job, but I'm not the happiest with how it seems I'm being perceived. Just wanted to share and relate. | aspergers |
Has anyone ever experienced this? Just saliva keeping accumulating in your mouth, then you spit, then again and again and again.
Or just having to spit because you constantly clean your throath.
This first appeared at my life when i was a very little kid, it appeared at school and uh, humiliating.
Now im 19 and it has gone away and came back multiple times.
Ive had multiple other somatic ocd or other kinds of ocd symptoms through my life, but this is the one annoying the hell out of me right now.
I also have tourettes, and i still have some nervous tics with my throath(gag reflexes and other shits)
Im currently looking for a physical cause. | OCD |
I had the official ADHD testing today. I have multiple doctors saying I have adhd but there’s no meds allowed to be prescribed until the “official” results come in.
I haven’t felt this stupid since I lived at home with my mother and her POS husband and I constantly heard how stupid and worthless I was.
I swear to god I’m smart, but I can’t do mental math. I wasn’t allowed to use a pen and paper and I was given word problems. I couldn’t remember numbers, I couldn’t repeat them back, I couldn’t think of certain words. I could tell her everything about said word except the freaking word itself.
My siblings have adhd. My mom has adhd. My kids have adhd. But me? I’m pretty sure I’m just an idiot who can’t remember so much as a few simple words. All I want to do is go crawl in bed and cry because I feel like a failure. This is even with Strattera. | ADHD |
TW: SEXUAL THEMES AND SEXUAL ASSAULT
I have not been officially diagnosed with OCD as I live in a country where adequate mental health is not easily available. However, I do share a lot of the symptoms with pure-o OCD. Right now I’ve spent almost 3 months ruminating over this one specific shady incident a long time ago where my brain has convinced me that I have molested my cousin. I’ve never particularly obsessed over this before except one night when I was up at night bc of something related to that person but I do not know exactly what it was, nor do I have any memories of guilt about it. This has been eating away at me, and I do not know what to do. I’ve tried subtly bringing it up a couple of times with her and each time she gave me no indication that anything happened between us. I know that confession can be a compulsion and many people say not to do it. But, is it unethical to not say anything? Or will I just be bringing doubt to her own memories? | OCD |
Good morning y'all, I have spent a better part of the year trying to find a doctor to do an evaluation. Money is a huge part of the reason I have not been able to get a diagnosis. If anyone knows someone I can see that offers a sliding scale that would be phenomenal. Another stumbling block is no one seems to do adult evaluations so a reference for that would also be awesome. Thank you | ADHD |
I get it allllllll the time, and it’s the main reason I quit Youtube because I was fed up of (mostly) male followers saying I was faking it etc. I’ve kinda stopped trying to advocate because of it.
I suppose another issue is people placing super high expectations on you because they think because you look normal your brain is normal, and being expected to be cool with people dropping stuff on you and not taking your needs seriously.. and god forbid you have a meltdown, cos that’s just a tantrum!
Kinda wish I fit the stereotypes more sometimes but then again I like not fitting in haha. | aspergers |
First time poster here! Be kind. [29M-UK]
I recently within the last few months got a diagnosis on ADHD which to be fair, I’ve always suspected it, but through a therapy pathway I’m in right now, my psychiatrist helped me get it confirmed.
Due to all this now, I’m officially on a waiting list to have it confirmed in writing and have a prescription for medications. He swears that medication has helped people with ADHD utterly change their lives for the better, especially with sleep, irritability, concentration and all this that and the other.
How have you all found medication and did it take a significant amount of time to get right? Or was it literally a night and day difference? | ADHD |
i’ve been diagnosed with severe depression and ocd when i was 14, and even though it has only been 3 years, i can’t imagine myself dealing with this for the rest of my life. 3 years have already been more than i can handle, everything just feels like delaying the one inevitable day where i can’t do it anymore. i’m not going to do it or anything, i just don’t understand why i had to be born this broken | depression |
Usually I just have a really rough patch maybe once a month where my depression is “severe” but the past few months it’s just the same thoughts & feelings every single day and they just get worse and worse. I’m trying extremely hard to hide it from my girlfriend and my family but I’m so fucking scared that I may lose this battle very soon,I’ve never been on medication for it or anything because All I’ve heard are bad stories about it and I don’t even know where to start to get that kinda help,I just feel so lost and empty & like my time here is done. The only thing keeping me here is the thought of the effect me passing would have on her and my family. Is anybody in a similar situation or got out of something similar/have any tips/suggestions at all? I could really use some help | depression |
I have a knife with me it would be funny if they found me dead after all those | depression |
My feelings are hard to decipher. I have to constantly ask myself what I would like to do, because it feels like everything I am doing has to make sense or has to push past my emotional boundaries…
My inner dialogue
"Eat this muffin, it has carbs. Carbs give you energy. You need to eat this."
My new thought process: Do you even want to eat it?
Me: No... I'm not feeling it, i rlly dont want its texture or flavour right now....
"But you like blueberry muffins, therefore if you eat it now you'll like it... \*confusion\*"
Me: Is it even okay for me to not want this muffin ? This makes no sense... | aspergers |
I'm speaking from a vatmage point of someone who's felt depressed and wished they didn't exist anymore because they felt like no one cared about them.
I see people in my high school who claim they have been depressed or suicidal, but they are also open about it. As in, they go to mental health club, and say they have it sometimes.
What irks me, or at least doubts their authenticity, is that they simply like to talk about the fact that they have it, and that they see a therapist, and that only they get to make jokes about it because they've experienced it.
One scene burned in my memory is when talking bout therapists in psych class, one of these people high five another depressed(?) friend, saying something along the lines of "yeah, therapists!" And both giggled, both explaining that they see one or have seen one.
However, the biggest red flag for me is the fact that they just seem surrounded by friends, so how can they ever be sad? They always have a place to sit down at lunch, or a friend will save them a seat in class, or walk up to them and talk with them in a hallway. (I think I'm pretty good observer)
I admit that who am I to judge, especially since I don't know anyone else's lives. Its just, I understand depression to be a lot about loneliness, and if you take that away, then a big chunk is resolved (at least for me it was). I just don't see how these guys can actually have been depressed or felt suicidal anytime in their lives.
I tried researching this online, but to no avail. Can someone please enlighten me on this? Thanks so much, and stay safe. Hopefully, you guys can point out key aspects of depression and suicide that I'm missing. Thanks. | depression |
OCD since late childhood. Bipolar since adolescence.
Been on SSRIs since 2008. I responded very well and have enjoyed being almost entirely symptom free for 12 years.
Over the years the SSRIs made my mood pregressively more unstable and reached a boiling point to where i can no longer take them. Im on a very slow taper (like snail slow) to prevent rebound and relapse, and ease me back into my OCD mind. Let my brain slowly adjust to the change.
Anyone have any advice, recommendations on managing OCD without SSRIs? | OCD |
I feel like my life is shit rn. I’m so overwhelmed with everything. I’ve struggled with depression and mood swings for a while.The people who I trusted to take care of me always ended up hurting me, so I have huge trust issues and abandonment issues too. I have chosen relationships that show me this. I’ve always thought the guys I was with were cheating or me or lying and somehow most of the times it turned out they were. It’s like a self proclaimed prophecy. I also had anxious attachment and codependency issues. I’ve been in a relationship for 8 years and it’s constant problems, I’ve lost so much weight, my spark, I feel and look like im 50, I’ve cut out left my friends and the things that once made me happy. We have two beautiful girls and it’s so tough on me. I carry the mental load while having to work to pay for my half stuff. I’ve been to therapy and it helped but then I try to actually leave and I end up seeing that he’s not so bad, he’s actually helpful and listens to me and cares for me although there have been times where he’s screamed and yelled at my face, he’s manipulative and I’ve also been gaslighted. I’m so tired of this. I’m so afraid. I have so much grief and resentment and disappointment. I feel helpless and I can’t even take a day off because my kids need me. I’m contemplating suicide because I’m so tired of feeling like this all the time. I started taking medication and it never helps, it only gets worse. I’m afraid to leave and regret it later. Is it me? Am I really so wrong? Am I really so tucked up? | depression |
Anybody have any advice for dating with aspergers? I'm in my 20's, have been told I'm good looking , stay in really good physical shape, have a career and hobbies, but dating the past year everything has been a failure. It usually happens to be that the first 1-2 times I meet somebody or hookup with stuff goes really well and I see a lot of interest, but then it all drops off, so I've come to the conclusion something about my personality is off putting. It seems like a shitty cycle now because I usually can't see the signs, and end up being led on and hurt. I'm trying to keep a positive attitude and stay confident, but being repeatedly rejected and having women flip a 180 whenever they start getting o know me a little bit is difficult | aspergers |
I've been having bad breakdowns for a couple days now, a lot of stuff has happening lately and it's been getting to me pretty bad. Another one happened today but in the middle of it I just went numb, like no depression, no anxiety, no dread, no happiness, nothing. Its weird I went from being ready to leave this world to nothing. I've never really had anything like this happen before and I don't know what to do. | depression |
For me, ADHD feels like only having a certain amount of time to think through a thought before having the chance to fully explore it. I know I only have a small window of time to think about something before I am distracted and lose my train of thought. I try to write things down but my notes are just fragmented ideas.
I wish I was able to think something through for once. Has anyone learned how? | ADHD |
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i was in a relationship for 5 years, moved in, i bought a ring, i was the with the person i thought was the one. i had someone come into my life who had the same interests and me, my so, and them became mutual friends until one day i started getting excluded from plans and they went out several times without me. i started to get worried but i still was extremely in love and it got to the week of proposal and she just left me, 2 days before my plans. she spent the remainder of her lease at this person’s house and it left me feeling really alone. the other day someone let me know our mutual friend had vocalized to them about how much she liked my so and that she had feelings. i confronted my ex and she said i had no right to know anything about her life post breakup and that i need to stop thinking about it. i want to fucking die. i feel just as bad as when my mom died in high school, i have gone back to self harming and being incredibly suicidal. people are worried about me and ive committed to get help but i keep spiraling. i can’t believe someone would come into my fucking life and do what they did and i can’t fucking stand my ex for not giving me any closure about the situation. im so fucking over everything and any day now i feel like i could just snap and end it all. i wish i could just ignore it and try and move on but its literally all i think about, my dreams, my thoughts, everything. i don’t know how much longer i can last. | depression |
TLDR: Want to totally declutter ALL my stuff. Will it help me actually relax?
So..... Ive recently come to the conclusion following a lot of research (mostly consisting of me yelling "Yes! I can relate to that SO hard!" every time I read another list of symptoms or another post on here lol!) that I have some form of ADHD.
I was listening to a really good (so far anyway!) audiobook written by a doctor who discovered he had ADD when he was 50. He gave a little story about someone trying to tidy. He's putting books away, notices two volumes of poetry by the same author are not positioned next to each other, so picks one up to move it. Opens the book, reads a poem, needs to check an interesting reference in another book and gets lost in a rabbit hole of greek mythology for a hour. Yep, yep and yep.....can totally relate.
Tidying for me is ridiculously hard. I get so overwhelmed just even thinking about it that I get worked up, furious with myself for not being able to do something that comes so ridiculously easy to others. And then play Diablo for way too long to 'relax' and calm down, where Im really just procrastinating YET AGAIN. I have a decent job that is full of pressure and deadlines all day (which Ive recently realised Im good at because I work on a deadline/instant reward = motivation basis).
And I keep thinking 'Hang on..... I can do THIS job of all things and keep on top of way more work than I should really have (short staffed)......but I cant manage to tidy all my clutter?! Grrrr'.
Since I was 19 and bought my first house, Ive longed to walk in from work to a house that is clean. Organised. Everything in its place. NOT 1 garage FULL of junk, clutter on every surface and hidden in every drawer.
It definitely does not help with that urgent "always feeling like I should be doing something else' thing either......because I actually really should!
Im considering minimising everything I own. Literally if I havent used it / looked at it / worn it in the last 6 month... its going. Completely and utterly decluttering to the point where Mari Kondo would quit her job and hand the batten firmly over to me lol.
Has anyone done this?
Did it actually help you feel more relaxed and organised??
Also..... Anyone have any tips on the procrastination front? I really struggle so much for motivation unless there is instant reward / gratification (or fear of missing deadlines etc). This is going to be such a long slog doing this, that Im terrified I'll just talk myself out of it every time. Which is worse than not starting at all!
If I dont start, I can believe that I CAN do it. If I start and I can't l.....that belief is shattered and a downwards spiral will ensue!
Thank you in advance! | ADHD |
Standing up for yourself doesn't make you arguementative.
Explaining how you feel doesn't make you oversensitive.
Saying "no" doesn't make you difficult, uncaring or selfish.
Pay attention when someone reacts to your boundaries with anger and hostility. You have found where their respect for you ends.
If someone won't respect your feelings, needs or boundaries, the problem isn't you; it's them. | ptsd |
I'm one of those healthcare workers who got ptsd during the peak of the pandemic. Its not much, but my new super power is being able to go out in public without a mask on. It can be inconsistent, but I'm still working on it.
Still, everyone gets to look at the bottom half of my face and not a damn thing they can do about it! | ptsd |
I'm struggling with the feeling of worthless and loneliness. Feeling almost suicidal everyday. Feeling I can't be loved by anyone since everybody in my life goes away. Wish I could find someone to teach me how tk live. | depression |
I think this kinda just goes to show how detached I am / how much I repress the traumatic event. For me though I feel like when the traumatic event was happening I knew it would end at some point. I don’t feel that way with PTSD. I have no idea when this will end. And when the trauma was happening my adrenaline was pumping, I didn’t feel scared as much as I felt ready to fight. Now I’m scared. And tired. Idk if this makes any sense I just wonder if other people feel this way. It’s so strange, in some days when I’m relapsing really badly I almost wish to just be back in the initial trauma instead of the aftershock. | ptsd |
I found tinder in my boyfriend’s work phone
I’m just so numb, man. It was his phone while he was working overseas. I had a feeling, really. But I thought things were better.
He works overseas a lot. He’ll be going there again soon and I just want to vomit knowing that he’ll probably redownload it again and fuck whoever he wants while I’m stuck sitting at home like a chump.
What is wrong with me for fucks sake!!! Why do I keep letting people treat me like shit! It’s been this way my entire life and I’m so angry. I’m so angry every fucking day. I’m only 26 and I’m getting greys and I have high blood pressure. GOD DAMMIT GOD DAMMIT GOD DAMMIT.
Vent over. | depression |
Long time lurker. 27 years old
I was diagnosed with ‘aspergers’ at a young age, though, I was too young to remember. It was swept under the rug by my parents, and I only found out recently.
Being a veteran in the United States, my only health care is the VA. Ive been attempting to pursue an official assessment through their mental health department, but I get written off because ‘you’re a veteran you can’t be on the spectrum’ and that’s a generous explanation when I’m not being straight declined for help.
I’m at my boiling point. I don’t have a support net, I’m looking at months to get any type of therapy through the VA. I feel so alone in a world where I don’t belong.
Thanks Reddit, for letting me vent, and sharing your stories with me. | aspergers |
I only recently got diagnosed with OCD so I’m still figuring out exactly what it means to have OCD and what parts of ones life it can affect. I am very guilty of having stereotypical ideas of what a person with OCD was like, and that is getting broken with every inch of its life every day.
I think I got used to having a daily ear worm that was constantly going, even in the background of my thoughts, and not knowing what silence was like. But when I got diagnosed and my psychiatrist put me on medication, I only JUST realised that they had stopped.
What made me realise you ask? I forgot to fill my script at the pharmacy so I haven’t taken my meds today… 0/10 do not recommend. | OCD |
I used to fight any kid who would harm them I remember . In my mind , they were better than humans . Tbh I still feel that way but life numbed me down a great deal . If i were still that way my career path would be much simpler... | aspergers |
Hey Guys I finally got my results and I got aspergers. I don't know how to feel and think about it at the moment, but I want to have a positive Outlook. What are the things that got better for you after you recieved your diagnosis? | aspergers |
So, there are a handful of scenarios that I have from when I was a kid that happened between me and my mom. I'm having a really hard time trying to decide if this is actual CSA or not, and maybe I'm just reading to much in to it.
1.) I'm not sure how old I was but my mom used to kiss me all over my face and neck, it'd leave a tingly feeling in my stomach, essentially butterflies, she did this multiple times. I don't ever remember telling her to stop though.
2.) I remember one time I either had a UTI or something as a kid, and that area was really irritated, and she blew on it to essentially bring the irritation down. I remember feeling really uncomfortable
3.) She would constantly walk around the house naked, and come in to my room when I was changing, we had no privacy.
4.) She always demanded that I kiss her on the lips whenever we hugged each other, her reasoning was "because I'm your mother" it still is this way
5.) She slept in bed with me for years because I couldn't fall asleep, I also would go in to her bed when I had nightmares and I distinctly remember her only having a nightgown on and her bottom being exposed.
6.) When I hit preteen age and started to get my period I remember her showing me how to put in a tampon on herself, and I wouldn't put it past her that she actually put my tampon in for me.
Any advice would be great, because I have massive memory gaps in my childhood except for these memories, so i'm not exactly sure if this is what I was blocking out all those years or not because once I started focusing on the idea that I could've been SA then these memories came back. I also have all the classic signs, bed wetting, lack of intimacy with partners, uncomfortable with contact, lack of willingness to be feminine, hatred of my body, etc.
Thanks for always making this a safe place to talk | ptsd |
Please share some medication journeys with me. I'm on day 4 and I just feel like crying. I'm on Focalin XR 10mg. It worked so well for me in high school. Literally changed everything. I'm 29 now, and it's doing absolutely nothing for me. I feel like day 1 and 2 were just a placebo. I've been waiting for 6 months to see a doctor and when I finally do, I still have hurdles to climb. I'm worried I will never find something that works for me.
I am just so discouraged. I really thought these meds would be helpful. If anyone has stories where their meds weren't working at first but ultimately found the correct dose, sharing them would be much, much appreciated. | ADHD |
Since my trauma a lot had to change. I have given stuff up in order to not be triggered, or just generally depressed. Some stuff was easy, other things were things I really enjoyed.
One thing I find I can't do anymore without a serious panic attack is drink alcohol.
My husband years ago bought my a nice bottle of champagne. We have saved it, and finally wanted to open it as a celebration for moving across the country and closing on our house.
The problem is I can't.
Does anyone have advice on how I can still do the things I enjoy? | ptsd |
I only got diagnosed a couple months ago, but when I fill out a survey or job application and it asks me if I have a disability, I've either been saying "no" or that I "prefer not to say". I feel like I can't put down "yes" because I manage fine and I'm able to work successfully without needing any accommodations. It's not like I'm hard of hearing or use a wheelchair or any other assistive technology... idk, it just feels like it would be dishonest and unfair to other folks for me to put "yes." But I'm also new to this, so I'm curious what other folks do. | ADHD |
One of my special interests is entomology, I love spiders and bugs and find them extremely fascinating. Every time I see a cool bug (which is most bugs in my opinion) I HAVE to pick it up and take half a dozen pictures of it, even if I'm in public. Bugs seem to like me so they'll often just hang out on me when I pick one up, as you can imagine people don't take too kindly to someone casually walking around covered in grasshoppers and cicadas. It's a little embarrassing feeling people's weirded out stares as I nonchalantly pick up a giant spider and talk to it, but I've gotten used to it by now.
I even did this earlier today, I saw a really pretty moth on a wall outside a grocery store and I stopped dead in my tracks to check it out. Took me a moment to remember I was standing outside a grocery store.. What about you guys? | aspergers |
Between work and wanting to recuperate on my days off I feel bad when I don't want to text my friends who want to talk to me. It isn't because I don't like them, but because my brain is just absolutely exhausted. All I want to do on my days off sometimes is just "be" and if I were to catch up with my friends the way they need I would spend all day looking at my phone and I don't want to do that. It's tiring.
I don't know how to explain this to them without sounding like a jerk. When I text or socialize I want to put my best face forward and be in a good, energized mood so I can give my best to the person. When I am running on empty especially after masking all week it feels like I could just throw my phone in frustration wanting people to leave me alone. I hate this about me.
Does anyone else go through this? | aspergers |
I have been having some very unsettling experiences lately where I can't distinguish the difference between reality and my dreams. It makes me feel completely untethered to reality, making it difficult to perform my job to the best of my abilities and be a present parent.
Has anyone else had this experience, and if so, do you have any suggestions on how to tell if your dream was real or not? | ptsd |
It's not that I can't cook, it's that every time I cook it's a nuisance. I hate that I'm so close to a flame, that there's so much maintenance involved, and if you mess up, that's like an hour to a day's worth of prep down the toilet. I tried making a pizza today and I made the simple mistake of not shimmying it in the oven all the way, so it started dripping in the oven and almost caused a fire. I'd rather just spend a little extra money and have my food made for me, because I only have so much time in a day. | aspergers |
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Hi, I suffer from PTSD, and I have a trigger for losing thingsz having things be stolen from me, etc. Well, it's happening again. For the 3rd time in the past 2 years. I can't deal with this and it's freaking me out, and I'm scared what little we might be able to get back is gone already because we didn't get it soon enough. I'm scared and no one is helping. I just end up sounding like I'm blaming people for it when I just want support.
To explain what happened, I lived with someone for a while and after arguing with their husband he kicked me and my mom out and his wife wanted to leave too. We all left but couldn't get everything the first time. Then she went back to him and has turned her back on me and my mom (my mom is related to her like, closely so it's a real surprise.)
Now she's calling me and my mom things and we don't even know if our remaining stuff is there because she claimed most of it was thrown away. I'm scared she threw away the rest after we didn't go on the day we said we would.
This has been really triggering for me as I've been through similar things in the past and was only recently diagnosed with PTSD, so I haven't had time to recover.
Does anyone have any tips? I figured explaining things might help with a way for me to calm down since I can't do anything about it right now. | ptsd |
I make post after post about the same damn thing but i have no other way of venting it. Im super obsessive with the condition of my body. I have unusual pains when weightlifting that dont seem to get better no matter how long i rest. I went to an orthopedic surgeon, who said it was bursitis in my shoulder. But i also have it in my other shoulder. My knees constantly crack and hurt. My neck cracks. My arms are weird now, i can audibly hear tendons shifting if i move them a certain way. I gave myself a month of not doing anything. Any improvement? No.
Today i was doing VERY light dumbbell curls and my whole left arm fell instantly asleep and i started seeing stars??
Im freaking the fuck out over this because i cant tell if its a super severe problem like cancer or something or if its something as stupid as a food allergy or improper form somehow? I used to be highly proficient in weightlifting and could do massive amounts of weight and now I’m having issues benching 65lbs and seeing stars when doing 10 pound dumbbell curls.
Its driving me nuts! I constantly can just feel my tendons even when im not weightlifting and i have the urge to make the tendons shift to see if itll ease any pain. I then start to pick and scrape at my acne out of nervousness and my face gets all bloody and my heart rate goes through the roof. Im going to an allergist next month but i dont know if that will resolve it? If this doesnt resolve it then i need a blood test and i passed out and threw up during my last one
I have this vision of myself being a strong man and i keep trying and trying to work towards it but im getting sent back by this pain constantly. And then i obsess over not being masculine or man enough for a partner. And then i flip out because i want a male partner and society frowns upon that. Then i think about how my first kiss was with another guy and how nice it was and i accept this as my definitive reality. And then i think i really should have had my first time with sex by now and idk if i want it to be with a man or woman and just ahhh it goes on and on and on!!! | OCD |
Hello depressed folks of Reddit.
So avoiding all the reasons I'm currently very depressed, just want to focus on one part of it, the title of this thread.
Both my physical and mental health have absolutely gone downhill. Physical, I'm having gum problems, all sorts of internal problems. Mentally, well that's so far down the drain I'm in the ocean. Yet I almost subconsciously stop myself getting any help for any of it. I just can't do it. Even though I know I need to, and could just about afford to. There is a part of my brain that just refuses.
I'm sure plenty of you have had the same thing.. but have any of you managed to get out of it? And if yes, how so? I'm not ready to give up yet, but it feels like some part of me has. | depression |
I'm 13 and extremely depressed, I've tried to find things that make me happy but everything is dull to me, I feel lifeless and empty, I fake my smile all day, I'm ignored by all my family and friends, I'm all alone, if you don't mind just say hi in the comments, it would help alot. | depression |
This is so frustrating and I wish I'd stop doing it cause I feel like it makes it harder to take what I say seriously. I have this tendency to overexplain because I constantly feel like people won't understand what I mean. I feel the need to make a million analogies and give a year of background in every issue because it just *has to be as clear as possible*. I of course also end up rambling on and it takes too long to circle back to the point I'm trying to make, and people tend to grow bored or impatient.
Idk how to make that stop, has anyone found a workaround to this? Of course sometimes all that extra context can be helpful but usually it's just unnecessary
**EDIT:** Guys I'm very happy this started a conversation between everyone and if it made anyone else feel a bit seen today. It's really cool to have so many people say "yes, me too!" | ADHD |
Just me over here at 3am wandering why im not sleeping and just tossing and turning
Until i realize...
I took my cymbalta/adderall before bed instead of my clonidine/lamictal
Eff
I really need to use my medicine organizer...
Side not: took meds at 7am yesterday. Then at 1030. Should i skip tomorrow morning?
120g cymbalta
30mg adderall xr | ADHD |
All weekend I’ve been an anxious mess to the point where I started doubting if I have ADHD at all. Maybe the meds worked like they would a normal person, making me crazy productive and awake.
I’ve spent all week reading and relaxing because I _finally_ could relax on meds.
Now I’m wondering if maybe my inactivity and holding back stims triggered the anxiety? My whole body is trembling internally but I can only see it on my hands.
I went to my room and started flapping my arms around like crazy and was finally able to take a proper breath. I continued to flex and unflex my fingers without noticing for a while after.
My doctor and I agreed I most likely have inattentive ADHD. But I finally understand the question “do you feel like you’re driven by a motor at all times?” YES. YES I DO.
I’m 21 and was diagnosed in November so I’ve been hiding any signs that could’ve been seen as “weird”. Including stims.
Thoughts? Please I’m going crazy | ADHD |
So, it’s been pretty hard finding an OCD psychologist since the information is not readily available on the insurance website and the number they provided Gabe automatic suggestions of providers which I called and none of them specialize in OC D or are even excepting new patients.
So I’ve developed a certain OCD p.m. during the course of the pandemic and social unrest where I am scared that everyone is trying to kill me. I’m afraid that if I simp stare or glance at someone, they might kill me.
So I went to the gym yesterday which I just signed up for Amber employee gave me a tour and she said to look around at the men’s locker room but she waited outside so I walked around and briefly glanced at someone who was changing half clothed, maybe with his back turned, or maybe saw him turn his head toward me, I don’t remember since I only glanced like less than second, but now I’m obsessing that what if he got mad that I glanced at him and killed me and I’m not I. The afterlife or in a coma. Lol, I know it sounds ridiculous. So I’ve been worrying since last night that I’m dead lol. | OCD |
Recently medicated and currently take 20 mg of Adderall XR, but was recently swapped over to that from 20 mg of IR. I notice like many that though 20 IR was the sweet spot for me, the same dose of XR really didn’t do a whole lot for me, it was as if I were back to taking 10 mg of IR. Still see symptom help, but also still struggling with executive dysfunction and impulse control.
20 mg Adderall XR is the maximum dose my prescribers office is allowed to give per day, so not only do I feel a little broken that the MAXIMUM DOSE doesn’t work for me, I also feel a little confused and dissuaded.
I want to mention to my psychiatrist that I‘ve looked into other treatments and that vyvanse seems like it would be a good fit to try next as I struggle hugely with BED (related to my ADHD diagnosis) which I’m still struggling to get under control while medicated with XR, but I’m not sure how to ask that without raising alarm bells. Isn’t it kinda a red flag to request stimulant treatment by name? I don’t want her to think I’m looking to abuse it, but I don’t know if Adderall XR is working for me. I would consider going back to 20 mg of IR, but I’m so afraid of tolerance and having to go up in my prescription since I have to take it twice a day to last. That, or I just have to decide if I want to fully function the first or second half of my day. I’m new to all of this, but I just want to avoid taking medication I don’t need if say the other prescription I could function on a lower dose of, and it helps with what adderall XR doesn’t. | ADHD |
I got diagnosed by my GP in September and have been working to find the right dose of Adderall XR; currently I'm at 20mg just in the mornings. He's probably not much older than me (early 30s) and has been really great and straight forward, so I know I'm lucky in a lot of ways. He's experienced with ADHD but is not a specialist so I trust his assessment and was fairly sure about my diagnosis, but it's weird, after some time on the medication, I'm starting to doubt my diagnosis.
I have seen my life improve, certainly. My mind is a bit calmer and I've improved my focus, though it's not a stark difference. But the biggest change is not getting easily emotionally overwhelmed. The effects of the meds have been the best when I move to the next dosage, but have faded after 2-5 days every time (10, 15, and now 20mg).
I believe I have had most of the symptoms my whole life and I scored high on the questionnaire, but I still can't shake the feeling that maybe it's just a coincidence and I'm somehow deceiving myself. I think it happens more often when I'm trying to explain it to a friend. I'll get into the specifics and, like many of you, I have done buckets of research and learned as much about the intricacies of the brain as I can, so when I try to elaborate I'm speaking out of knowledge and not stumbling over myself. It's not that anyone challenges it, I just start feeling like I'm clearly not struggling as hard as others so then maybe I don't have it at all? I don't know how to describe this, sorry.
I'll be seeing a psychologist about treatment options and maybe that'll give me more confidence in the diagnosis.
Again, like many others, understanding that I have ADHD has changed a lot about how I understand my successes and failures and has given me a new perspective on things, so the idea of it being untrue would be a hard pill to swallow, indeed.
I will finish by saying, I don't feel "high" and the way I've described the medication is that it's not that I feel "good," it's that I don't feel as "bad" anymore. I have only had one "bad" day since going on meds.
Anyways, thanks for your thoughts, in advance. | ADHD |
I've posted like 5 times about how I develop "crushes" at the drop of a hat, and after being diagnosed with Pure-O, I think that this is some twisted form of relationship OCD.
There's two "tiers" of guys (and girls, on one ocassion) my OCD makes me obsess over. The upper "tier" are the guys that I probably had genuine crushes on that my OCD blew out of proportion, which usually happen when a decently attractive guy between about 2 years younger and 10 years older is paying me positive attention. E.g. there was this one guy who lived in my dorm hall my freshman year of college, and we hung out in a group once and I started to become interested in him, but then found out he had a girlfriend. My brain then proceeded to obsess over him basically all fucking year. Whenever I was walking through campus, I would be literally afraid that I was going to run into him, to the point that I thought every guy with dark hair approaching was him. I changed the route I took to get to my room to avoid passing by his room. Obviously, this nuked any chance of a friendship developing, let alone anything deeper, because I *couldn't stand to be around him anymore*.
The lower "tier" are the guys I have intrusive thoughts of out of fucking nowhere, which can happen with literally anyone. E.g. there was an old man at the senior center I was volunteering at in high school that I could not stop thinking was into me even though he had never said or done anything to indicate that he was. Like with my freshman year hallmate, I became extremely distressed in his presence and started dreading seeing him.
I'm currently doing canvassing for a local election and having these lower-tier intrusive thoughts about the candidate, who's good-looking and 5 years older than me. My brain will be like, "Imagine what he looks like naked!" "Imagine moaning his name during sex!" "Y'all are talking about weddings? That'll be ironic when you get married one day!" For NO REASON. Since I know I have OCD now, I'm better at telling these thoughts to fuck off, and it hasn't made it so that being around him is unbearably awkward. Still, I wish there was a way to make these thoughts... go away? | OCD |
So I'm dealing with real event ocd and possible false memory with guilt and shame
To put it in short i was at a family gathering and we were at a lake and i was sitting down on a chair and i was having major intrusive thoughts/anxiety
My niece had gone to play in the water and i don't know if my sister decided to take my nieces undergarments or not to dry them, but somehow i was like "okay I'm going to test myself" in my head i was like okay if I'm a possible p e d o I'm going to get serious help and i looked under the table for like a second and i don't remember if i actually saw anything or if imagined this but i remember feeling nothing.....all i felt after was guilt and shame
I only fed into the ocd and i still regret it...i feel like crying, i just looked and i didn't do it with ill intent or anything but i still feel bad.....and now I'm ruminating constantly.
I've lost my appetite too | OCD |
I have been facing a huge mental block that is affecting my assignments in university. No matter how interested I am with the content, there is a mental block that is literally physically preventing me from starting my task, even with looming deadlines. I have failed a year of university ever since I started online classes and I have no idea how to get myself out of this fog. People were asking me to reach out but my anxiety peaks whenever I open my emails. I'm still browsing reddit while a deadline is closing in. I hate this. | ADHD |
I don’t really want to date anyone because i have so many problems that would make anyone run fast, but i miss being in love, and i wish someone would show me the love i crave. I can’t do this anymore. | depression |
My other friend with adhd was helping me figure stuff out over text but still! I’ve never been taught how to cook before so this is awesome!
The only things I knew how to cook before were microwave eggs and pizza so I’m really proud.
One might be a little soft in the middle but it ain’t bad for a girl with no attention span.
I wish I could share my cookies with all of you but I only mad 12!
Woohoo! I’m pumped!
Maybe one day I’ll be able to make a cake all by myself, if I can stop running around enough to not make it fall. | ADHD |
I’ve had Pocd for a while now and it sucks so much. I keep doing compulsions for reassurance that I’m attracted to women not children. I was never really into fapping and would do it every week or two to soft core porn like pictures or instagram. Recently I’ve been on the hub a lot as I needed reassurance so I would masturbate to clearly older looking women (like stepmom and teacher themes). The hub has also been a cause for a lot of anxiety for me aswell as when I’m looking through videos I would see very petite child looking girls. I’m not sure if they might actually be kids and I feel arousal towards it. And then I start to second guess myself and I jerk ff to an older looking women. This cycle has been going on every day for like two weeks now and I feel like shit. I just start wondering if you are attracted to petite girls that have a very child like appearance does this make you a pedo? | OCD |
What’s one thing that makes you want to keep going? What makes me want to fight on is my dreams. Its hard right now because mostly everyone says I’m foolish for wanting this to happen. But I believe in myself a lot more than ever. So while I feel okay at the moment I’m going to try. | depression |
Hey y'all,
first things first, so my question may not be taken for as dumb as it looks. **I have a severe case of OCD, which forces me to restart my iPhone and iPad whenever I encounter a "technical problem"** \- yes, Apple Music crashing (which it does pretty often after its last update) is such a problem for me ...
I'm gonna post this question in r/ios and r/mentalhealth as well. If you have any technical knowledge to calm my mind from its obsession to endlessly restart my phone, it'd be very helpful.
Here's the never-ending circle I'm currently encountering. Please don't hold back with your tech-wise arguments. Maybe I can convince myself that restarting my phone hundreds of times is a waste of time:
1. I encounter a problem, such as a crashing app. Or whenever I visit a site that probably might have viruses/malware on it, I feel the urge to delete all my histories (Apple Music, Insta, YouTube, Safari, Siri Dictation History, even Mobile Data Statistics).
2. I then feeld the urge to shut down my phone, turn it on again and repeat that deletion process, if possible.
3. Afterwards, I shut it down and start it up again.
4. On bad days, I optionally do it a third time, *just to be safe*.
**Now the more tricky part, that makes me restart my devices hundreds of times in a row:**
When shutting down my iPhone/iPad, it sometimes directly fades to black. Sometimes, though, it shows a loading circle. And sometimes even, for a fraction of a second, the Homescreen blinks and then it fades to black. When starting up, the logo sometimes blinks. When swiping up to enter the passcode screen, the screen sometimes goes up fluently (the animation). Sometimes it rests for a second and sometimes it doesn't move at all and directly shows me the passcode screen.
Whenever anything of that above happens, I recognize it as a failed shutdown/start and need to restart it once (without deleting anything) and then repeat the steps 2 and 3 at least twice. While doing so, I occassionally encounter one of the latter problems and need to repeat it again and again.
First of, thanks for reading all of this. Some probably won't get it why it's so painful for me. To put it in a nutshell, though: I use trading and banking apps, so my iPhone feels like an *essential part of my life*. Encountering such "problems", which I don't consider very apple-like and therefor see them as a system failure, it feels like an existential threat to me. Maybe by getting some advice regarding the technology and the reasons for blinking Homescreens etc. can put this urge into another perspective.
Thank you so much for you advice! | OCD |
As above, if a book is either not grabbing you at all, or it is ok, but you're not exactly thrilled to pick it up each time. Do you finish reading it or cut your losses? | aspergers |
Just wanna talk. Someone please help me.😓 please pm me | depression |
Wow. two posts in one day? I guess I really AM losing it.
I might have POCD or maybe not, I might actually be a fucking sicko piece of shit and I don't deserve to be happy. (Don't bother saying otherwise, it won't change how I feel.)
Anyways, does anyone else try to think of something gross just to prove you're NOT fucked in the head or that's not what you're into, only to make shit worse by freaking yourself out even further BECAUSE you thought of something disgusting?
So then it just ends up making you hate things like P*dophilia for existing and it makes you wish it didn't? Does ANYONE else relate to this?
You what else I wish didn't exist...........? | OCD |
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So I have been dealing with OCD for about 12 years now mostly focus on health related things where I constantly check myself for any symptoms I’m constantly feeling my neck and everywhere if my lymph nodes are swollen. I have this situation now where I thought I felt a bump between my ear and my jaw when I ask my fiancé or my mom to feel both sides of my jaw yheu tell me that they don’t feel a lump they say that they don’t feel anything I feel like I’m losing my mind over here with the constant checking and feeling of my face. Anyone else deal with this and what they did to stop ? I’m dealing with another compulsion now is when I went to the dermatologist he found a suspicious an atypical mole he would like to biopsy and just get rid of it now I am constantly checking my skin every few hours to make sure there isn’t anything else or if the doctor missed something this is awful to live life like this every day thinking that I got cancer 24/7 | OCD |
Hey guys!
I recently got diagnosed with OCD and anxiety a couple months ago. I had pretty good suspicions I had it before but only recently actually went to the doctor to get it checked out. Recently, I've been constantly stressed out with school as the work has been piling up. Around once a day, I have a few minutes where I just feel this great cloud of dread from out of nowhere come over me, and then it leaves. Does anyone else experience this? | OCD |
hi everyone. I’m a 22f and the past few years have been really really hard. I honestly thought I was going crazy, but I’ve done a bit of research and I feel like this is possibly a case of OCD but I would love to hear some opinions of what to do from here. It all started when I became quite depressed and had to be left with someone all day everyday because I didn’t feel safe alone. One day I was left with my grandma and she’s one of my favorite people in the world. I suddenly had this horrible thought that I could kill her with a knife and I started sobbing my eyes out and called my mom in the bathroom out of total fear of myself. From then on it just got even more complicated. I became convinced that I was crazy or developing schizophrenia or a psychopath. I’ve always been a very emotional and empathetic person but I kept asking myself if I really felt guilty or would feel bad if I did something terrible. Random horrible thoughts were popping up all the time for no reason - and I knew I’d never act on them but I was afraid that somehow I would lose my mind and do something bad without meaning to. I also became convinced that I was paranoid (even though I later found out people who are paranoid don’t think this way). I would search up symptoms of so many different things multiple times a day, trying to reassure myself that I wouldn’t go crazy, and it was more rooted in a fear than in reality. I just wonder if this could be OCD or if I’m somehow losing touch with reality. I’ve never heard voices or seen hallucinations, it’s just like a thought of “what if I did this” or “would I feel bad if I did this” even though I have NEVER been mean or violent to anyone. Please help me to understand :( | OCD |
I am hoping someone can help me, I am a counselling student who is trying to learn of possible resources available for autistic individuals with PTSD. It is more personal than my usual work as my partner has been struggling with his PTSD for 15+ years and only discovered he was on the spectrum 3 years ago.
We have tried CBT, and Solution-focused therapy so far. However, my partner has expressed to me that he feels disconnected and is having a harder time functioning. Going out of the house is extremely distressing to him but staying home has left him lonely and depressed.
As I am a student, I am only beginning to learn the skills of the trade and I know I am out of my depths to help him. That being said, I still want to do my best to find him a helpful resource that works with both autism and PTSD. Any help would be greatly appreciated! | ptsd |
I was disowned by my parents about eight years ago for being queer and my relationship with my family has been ... fraught ever since.
As far as I know only one of my cousins knows I’m a survivor and he has both been nothing but supportive and nothing but discrete. When I have been through hell, he has surprised the rest of the family by supporting me unconditionally and has been amazing.
I recently rejoined social media re: pandemic and that means seeing a lot of extended family.
I told one of my baby cousins that I am a survivor. It’s the first time in more than ten years I told a family member. She was upset over a family members Joe Biden posts and we started chatting. (When I say baby, she is an adult in grad school.)
She hasn’t responded but I am... anxious. | ptsd |
I've been rebuilding a relationship with my parents for a number of years now and it all just kinda blew up in my face. I'm sure I'm not the only one who's made an attempt like this so I'm curious to hear about the ups and downs of others, whether having a relationship was ultimately successful or abandoned. | ptsd |
This is a mix of a question and success. My sleep previously sucked. I would wake up every few hours to roll over, a noise would get me, or id just wake up thinking hours before i needed to be up. I started generic ritalin just over 2 weeks ago, and it cant be a coincidence that my sleep feels genuinely restful, less hours feels like MORE, i dont remember waking up through the night and even through the day I feel awake. Before id constantly want a nap! So, is my new sleep success related to the ADHD medicine? | ADHD |
I have adhd and anxiety. My psychiatrist said that for some people strattera helps with anxiety too. I’ve been on it for a few months now and I’ve found that it doesn’t help and can sometimes make me more anxious. Just wondering if anyone else has experienced this or if anyone takes strattera and something for anxiety too? | ADHD |
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