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Hi,
Anyone ever 𝕦𝕤𝕖𝕕 𝕌𝕟𝕚𝕥𝕖𝕕 ℙ𝕙𝕒𝕣𝕞𝕔𝕚𝕖𝕤/ℙ𝕙𝕒𝕣𝕞𝕒𝕔𝕪 𝔾𝕖𝕠𝕗𝕗 𝕓𝕖𝕗𝕠𝕣𝕖 𝕗𝕠𝕣 𝕊𝕊ℝ𝕀'𝕤? Was it actually 𝕝𝕖𝕘𝕚𝕥? I don't worry about actually receiving an item more just if it's going to be what it says it is.
Or is there any alternatives to the above? Ones that don't need ʀӼ.
Oh and please spare me the nonsense about shouldn't take it without doctor (quack) approval, thanks. | depression |
Can anyone give me advice on how to improve my self esteem.
I want to get better and be better. I don't want to lose to depression.
I'm 25, work a retail job, I get along with my co workers and customers. I have loving friends who seem to want me around, but I don't know why.
Lately I've began thinking alot about why anyone would like me. What do I bring to the table other then the fact that I'm the one that's there.
I spend most of my time laying in bed, staring at the ceiling. I tried looking in the mirror to force myself to say anything good about myself but I couldn't form a sentence. I just started crying.
How can I change this perspective?
Thank you for reading. | depression |
I have no one to emotionally attach to anymore. I feel nothing. My children are my only support and they are children. I'm sitting her fighting the impulse to cut while my beautiful sons lay next me. If they weren't here... | ptsd |
Ever since I graduated with a master’s degree in Rehabilitation & Addiction Counseling in 2020, I have been unable to land a single job despite using a highly qualified job coach. Any thing I create for resumes, emails, or paperworks seems to always fail. So I did an experiment.
I wrote a CV resume and did all documents including emails for my girlfriend. She suddenly got high praises and everything I sent out has been very well received. My girlfriend ended up actually winning an award for her work she has done using my English.
The kicker is that we are both Deaf. The only difference is that she’s a female and I’m a male. I have autism and she doesn’t. This kind of behaviors from people around me has been very consistent all of my life and I could never understand why.
It’s been very hard to get a job because of those kinds of mindset and/or behaviors from others and I don’t have a single idea on how to solve this or even convince them to hire me. The biggest irony is that my writing style works for others but never for myself. Mind boggling…. | aspergers |
I’ve been with my partner for about 3 months and from the beginning i’ve had an awful fear of accidentally cheating and hurting him somehow. it’s to the point where i micromanage my relationships and feel bad when i meet new people who i’m interested in (just as a person- like when you’re intrigued by people) platonically. I have no interest in cheating, i’ve never done it before and i have no clear cut intention of doing so.
i’m struggling because i don’t know if it’s an ocd obsession or something to legitimately be concerned about? I tell myself it’s an obsession and then i feel bad because my brain tells me i’m trying to masquerade a genuine relationship problem as an ocd obsession. i feel as if not including my partner in everything i do means i want to cheat on them. does anyone else have this, it’s driving me crazy. | OCD |
It's the only thing that can actually respond to my wild interest swings and essentially lets me go all out after holding it all in the rest of the day. I also find it as an emotional catalogue for all the different things I searched and saved in different archives throughout the years.
I just wanted to share this, I don't know where else to post it but I figured if anyone where to relate it might be you guys here | ADHD |
Am I a pedophile
I’m (18M) I get really bad intrusive thoughts about all types of things that I find really horrific. Recently this has centered around the fear of what if I’m a pedo and now I’m terrified to look at any kids unless I’m turned on by them. I’m currently panicking because I read a post on here saying ‘I wanked over a picture of a 13 year old girls feet not knowing it was a 13 year old’ and I feel like it’s turning me on. The more I try not to be turned on it feels like the opposite happens. I’m not getting all these horrible thoughts in my head plus the arousal feeling as well. I would never harm anyone I feel sick to my stomach what do I do??? It just won’t stop I’m going insane it’s happening all the time I just wanna be normal.
I asked this question on r/sex and a lot of the responses terrified me telling me not to have kids and that I could go to prison. I just hate myself | OCD |
I've learned so much on this forum... it has been a real help...
46yo, and in my country, 30 years ago, no one really knew well about asperger, and how to diagnose it..
I read a few days ago a post about how we struggle to finish tasks... it was NOT about procastinating, it was mentioning something like "ACDH" maybe?
I left it opened to read it later (dough!) and PC restarted...
Thanks if any one manage to understand what I tried to say! | aspergers |
I suffer from POCD, alongside other themes. It's gotten to the point where I feel guilty if I even give friendly compliments to someone younger than me. People who have experienced this as well, how did you overcome it? | OCD |
I feel so pathetic and worthless in this world. I wish I could go back to when I was a kid when I did not have any of these negative feelings/thoughts in my head. Everything was fine until I moved. I did not really get bullied, but I was lonely. I did have friends, but I eventually lost them all. I think the turning point in my life was definitely when I moved and especially when I started to go to this tutoring place after school that I started to go to during middle school. The boys there were assholes. While the boys there were being dicks to me, my dad at home would verbally abuse me. He would constantly compare me to other girls. Criticized me for the way I dressed and wondered why I could not be like other girls. I love video games and do not dress femininely. He also made lots of comments about my weight which is the reason why I will always view myself as fat or overweight no matter how much I weigh. My mom would also compare me to her friend's son who was way smarter than me and was not obsessed with video games. I was constantly being compared to someone throughout middle school and high school so now I have a voice in my head that does the same even when my parents do not compare me as much anymore. I know this is not the worst and there are tons of people who have gone through way more shitty things and that some of those people grow up to be amazing people because of the way they chose to react to it. But for me, those negative comments about me corrupted me in a sense and now I am pretty much an asshole myself. Nowadays, I can come out to be a bit cold hearted and do not care about how other feel. My head is just filled with too many negative thoughts that it is hard for me to even try to change. In fact, I do not even want to change because by being the bad person that I am, I will receive bad karma which is what I constantly believe is what I deserve. However, despite the person that I turned out to be, sometimes at night when I am lying in bed, I cry myself to sleep wondering what my past self did to deserve all of that? I have also had some suicidal thoughts and still do every once in awhile but I could never get myself to do it unfortunately. I wish I could and honestly wish I manage to end it all one day. | depression |
A recurring theme in my life is that whenever my trauma symptoms manifest, people judge me and then eventually shun me. They always frame my social issues as something related to aspergers and never because I am deeply traumatized. They do not understand the level of long term repeated trauma I have been through in my life and the types of effects it has had on me.
It's almost like I can "read their mind" with all of the microexpressions, tone of voice, and the vibe they give off that tells me "he's a person, but he's not a person like me". Like I'm one of those losers in the class where people are nice, but in a patronizing way.
It drives me insane because I have been through some serious shit and I'm extremely strong and resilient as a person. I put on this front like I'm inferior because the insights I have gained from my trauma absolutely terrify me. It makes me dangerous.
They don't understand that what I have been through has seriously separated me from most people and I have to act like I'm weak to keep myself safe. It's absolutely maddening and it is a problem in my life I have to solve.
I am a fucking badass and I know it but I have this old outdated persona construct that needs to be fixed. But I don't know how to fix it because I am not very good socially so people think I am somehow defected or lesser when in reality I am actually extremely competent and resilient.
It drives me up a wall and I don't know how to perform the integration successfully without breaking down and crying from the level of work and risk of rejection that is involved with performing it. I tried once but I ended up having a flashback episode multiple days long in a very public place and i had people play with my mind, judge me, and not realize I was actively fearing for my life. For all the talk my generation does about being accepting and social justice and all of that shit I have yet to have any of that type of thinking afforded to me and my situation. It fucking sucks. | ptsd |
I'm so scared that my friend will leave me. She's my platonic soulmate and she encourages me to fight with ocd. But I'm so scared that she will be fed up with me and all this stuff. I'm trying really hard not to seek reassurance and not ask her every day "are you tired of me?". And when I'm like this I'm so angry and I think that I'm a bad person because I don't trust her. It's a mess and I'm tired of worrying. It would be easier if I didn't finish uni and had to start "adult" life. I'm scared that our duties will tear us apart.
Im sorry, I know it's stupid, but I'm overthinking this all the time, and worry and worry and worry. | OCD |
I’m a late bloomer, diagnosed at 33 about 5 months ago. I’ve been on 20mg generic Adderall XR for 2 months now. For the most part it is helpful, but it seems to have taken my fixations to another level. In a simple sense, it has given me the ambition to take on unnecessary things that in the past would have been fleeting ideas. Big things. Like buying a project camper and associated vehicle(s) and applying for a job across the Country. Things that consume me!
Meanwhile… all the other unfinished projects, kids, current job, health etc. get neglected and the overwhelm sets in…
Anybody else experience this when starting the meds? Will it calm down after awhile? Any tips on how to dial the down the madness? | ADHD |
Needless to say, I’m using a different account than I normally do and I don’t even know why I’m posting this.
Does anyone else just absolutely feel terrible about who they are, hate their past and don’t understand why things aren’t getting better? The worst part is is that it is all my fault. Even if it is just the ADHD being a disability, at the end of the day, it’s still my fault when things don’t get done.
I got diagnosed pretty late when I was 20 in Spring of 2020 when I realized online community college classes were even more difficult for me than regular classes, which were already hard for me to focus in. Every year since I was at least in 6th grade, I was always the kid that got into gifted programs and was “smart but not using my full potential”. I’d always be on the verge of failing because I simply didn’t turn in assignments and it would always end up with the teacher emailing my parents and I’d get in trouble and get grounded until I turned in everything.
Looking back, that still wouldn’t be motivation enough sometimes. It sucks when you’re not hyperactive so no one suspects a thing, even though I’ve had ADHD forever. I also had major depression and anxiety and I’ve since realized a lot of it was honestly due to me not understanding what was wrong with me.
Later on, in 9th grade, I had major panic attacks and had to go to a mental hospital for a week and a half. A year later, I got accepted into a really advanced computer science program, where most of my classmates went on to places like Harvard and MIT and I was the only one going to community college because of my bad grades and major depression.
I was very depressed I was staying at home and I told myself I’d get all of my stuff done on time and attend class, that way I could transfer to a 4-year college very soon and get the “full college experience”. Well a couple years pass, I was still there and I’ve failed multiple classes. I took a semester break for work and I uprooted myself and decided to move all the way across the country for a new start.
I’m now at a local community college here, and I’m now in a downward spiral that I don’t know what to do about. I always end up missing a couple of assignments and get distracted, and then I get overwhelmed so I don’t complete them and then I get even more overwhelmed because there’s so much to do, and then I get where I am now where I’m just so apathetic because I probably won’t pass the classes.
I don’t even know why I’m sharing all of this. I just really hate myself so much, especially due to the fact that I am incredibly privileged. I consider myself very much on the left politically and advocate for wealth redistribution and stuff, but I quite literally have more than $22,000 to my name with my investments and a lot of that money coming from my grandma and parents. I’ve cried to my mom multiple times saying how bad I feel that they’re paying for my college when I don’t even try.
This is why I feel so fucking pathetic because a lot of my coworkers at my retail job are struggling financially, my parents are being super supportive financially with college, buying a car and all sorts of things, yet I just throw it all away and don’t even try in my classes. I shouldn’t even have the right to complain because of how lucky I am.
I’m pathetic because it’s not even like I’m having fun when I skip classes or anything. I literally just scroll on my stupid fucking phone all day. And it sounds super whiny and awful of me, but sometimes I wish I struggled more financially and had more trauma because then at least I have more reasons to be upset. Instead, I’m just a loser.
I don’t even know why I’m sharing all of this. All I know is I’m tired of living like this. I’m tired of having suicidal ideation, seeing multiple therapists and mental health providers, and getting thrown around on so many different medications. Not to mention the fact that I might possibly be on the Autism Spectrum and have Crohn’s disease.
I’m sorry for all of this, and I don’t know if anyone will really see it. I’ve just been incredibly depressed for so long and I’m tired. | ADHD |
I've only recently been diagnosed with ADHD as a middle aged adult. I've always been forgetful, went through check lists all my life when I did something like travel etc. I packed my bag for work the night before and had my wife remind me of everything I could possibly forget. Luckily she seems happy to be the nagging kind and does not tire of it easily. I personally am glad now that I'm diagnosed that I know it's something I should be thankful for because I was not and it sometimes made me doubt our relationship.
I started taking my meds (elvanse) when I was on holiday about a months and a bit back. Coming back the first week worked pretty well, but for the last weeks I've regularly forgotten to take my meds 2-3 times a week.
I thought I was good at it, having a pill box with 7 small compartments, but I still forget. Since last week I store this container right on top of my cereal box. So it's in a place that I have to actually move it off from to get to my breakfast. And yes my very diligent wife does make sure it's there so it's not me forgetting it in the evening.
But I've now had cereals twice where I must have just taken the pill box off in auto mode without even thinking about it. I am getting up hours before my wife every morning so I'm not sure what else to do and I do not want to rely on her for this type of thing anyway.
Given Elvanse is also meant to work over a really long period, I often think it's too late to take it by the time I'm remembering, which means I then often go without. | ADHD |
I never believed my past was traumatic enough to bring on a PTSD diagnosis. I'm no stranger to mental health services, but I'm actually shocked about this one. Even though the history and the symptoms match up and it makes complete sense, I'm still in utter disbelief. All I can think is that I didn't have nearly as severe or as many traumatic experiences as someone else with PTSD. I feel like a fraud even though a medical professional diagnosed me. | ptsd |
Have you ever lied to cover up a ADHD related thing you do, so you don't have to explain it to neurotypicals?
I was late to work today purely because I didn't realize what time I needed to leave for work. I have worked here 5 years and our schedule went from 2:25 start to 2:55 start M-Th (10 hr) and 2:25 on Fridays (8hr)
We have been doing this a few months and for some reason it didn't click that I needed to start going to work until I was at the last minute. I called and told them I would be late.
The reason I gave? My dog got out and I had to go track her down.
And I got the reaction I wanted, nods and acceptance. I told the lie because it was easier than saying, "You guys probably don't understand but sometimes I forget what time things start and I have a pretty poor concept of time management because of having ADD."
That would have got wide eyes and worry that I am incompetent.
I wonder if any of you have told lies to get out of those situations?
(BtW rarely late to work just randomly happened.) | ADHD |
it is always amazing how people can become fast friends waiting in line for something. i am thinking in that situation, i just want private time because a conversation i want is probably not happening, and no lasting friendship is coming from this, and if it did i would have to get contact info to keep it going or else feel guilty. so i feel anxiety about that the whole time. | aspergers |
I have false memory OCD but there is always the uncertainty. Since I can't remember it clearly, what if that terrible memory was actually real? That uncertainty is always there. The thought of it actually being real instead of fake makes me wish I never existed in the first place | OCD |
I'm 14M and get random boners like everyone my age. But what sucks is I'll get a random boner and overthink it.
For example, 10 minutes ago I was watching YouTube not think much of it, then a randomly got hard. My first thought was I was probably thinking about something terrible. Now I'm probably going to spend the rest of my day thinking about and analyzing this unimportant 30 second situation.
Has anyone else gone through something familiar? | OCD |
Yes i just started medicine for adhd today (I also am autistic), and other than a headache and a slight anxiety and dizziness, soo many things are better like for example I am able to control my attention and think thoughts one at a time, and suddenly I don’t have songs in my head all the time ? And if I get one, I can just stop it? Anyways another good thing is that I am able to have a conversation much more easy, like I don’t have to think before the words come out, and think about how I am going to phrase sentences, they just come out all structured without it having to be a struggle. Has anyone experienced this?
Sincerely Kirstine<3 | ADHD |
Hi all,
I am 24 about to be 25 years old and I have both some level of anxiety and some level of ADHD. I was diagnosed when I was young (roughly 1st or 2nd grade). I was on my ADHD medication for a while and if I recall I think it actually was helping me through school. The reason I demanded I was taken off of it is because I thought because I was on this medication I was part of these "special classes" which consisted of a lot of borderline special needs individuals. I was so embarrassed to be apart of this class and I just assumed it was because of my medication. This is because once I started receiving my medication I was enrolled in these types of classes (I got special easier tests and quizes and I was just so embaressed because other kids would make fun of me). It is honestly painful to even write this post.
So, to my problem. I have noticed that I have been making more mistakes in life and I just had a conversation with my boss and she said that she believes that I make mistakes because I try and go too fast in life and at work. I just want to check off the boxes to say I am done. I agreed with her and said I don't know why I have been getting worse. She said you have always been like this in some capacity but recently it seems like it is amplified. I agreed again. I just want to stop making so many mistakes. I feel like I have had plenty recently, many times where I think that I could easily avoid the mistakes.
I would like to seek help and contact my doctor about getting medication for anxiety and ADHD but I am worried about how it will effect me. I don't want to become a zombie. I don't remember how it made me feel way back when, but I don't want to be different. I don't want to hav anger issues. I don't want to become something I am currently not. I just want to stop making so many mistakes, loafing around at times when I could be working hard on the things that I need to get done, etc. Another thing I am worried about is potentially losing a lot of weight. I used to lift a lot and would like to get back into building muscle. I don't want my ADHD medication to make me lose any more weight as I would like to bulk up some muscle. Is this something that I am overly worried about? Is there an easy way to get around the weight loss issue?
Are my fears unfounded? Do you have any advice on what to do? I am scheduling an appointment with my doctor soon to talk about this but I am still just so worried of changing because of this medication. I am especially worried about an anger issue as well. | ADHD |
every once in a while, if i'm lucky, a shot of liquor or sitting in a bath helps alleviate the terrible feeling of being violated i've gotten since i was 9. it feels so real when it's happening all i can do is writhe in the discomfort until it goes away. sometimes it goes on for hours. i'm in the middle of one of the worst episodes i've experienced right now, sitting in the tub isn't helping. nothing's helping. does anyone have a way to make it stop or a little less horrific at least? | ptsd |
I slept in the same bed as my dog for years and he's gone now. I felt protected. Then I got a SO but I cannot fall asleep if I'm alone. Anyone else have this issue and how do I solve it? | ptsd |
Anyone else have this? A specific physical safety obsession?
Mine is "fear of being punched in the face".
It started in childhood and never went away. I feel like I always stand on the edge of my toes ready to run from any potential physical threat.
I don't like anyone touching my face because it provokes this fear of being punched. I remember one time my mother touched my hair and I told her to not do that again.
I'm not especially protective over my back, I think that's because it is the opposite side of my face. Girls have touched my back to flirt with me and it never bothered me. But stay away from my face! | OCD |
I need help a situation happened where I was to close to someone back my anxiety and panic kicked in . I started calling my self all types of irrational things . Then my brain started to make up a scenario based on what I was calling myself. Now I’m dwelling on it and arguing with myself even though I know nothing happened my brain even gave a specific date | OCD |
so right now i have like no schedule for anything i stopped doing those to do lists because i just end up never doing them it makes me feel bad but does anyone else just actually fuck executive dysfunction over and actually do all of their homework and assignments in one sitting and be productive with little to no distractions and the next day just do nothing because executive dysfunction just kicks u in the ass again?
this happens to me like once every 8 weeks which makes me doubt i have adhd
its so weird like one day im actually like yess i finally got my life in order and the next day the productiveness just disappears
its like im burnt out from all the work i did in a single day and now im overwhelmed for the next 5 weeks and cant bring myself to do anything work etc related and just procrastinate till the deadline
makes me kinda sad honestly haha | ADHD |
Last time I was depressed was around january, since then I’ve been pretty much healthy with my mental health, until recently…
My sleeping patterns have dramatically shifted over the course of the last 2-3 weeks, I have a history of chronic insomnia aswell but this time it’s not just that, my mood has also shifted alongside my motivation and will to do anything. I am mentally and physically drained, I can barely get out of my bed, I cancel every plan I have made last minute, I even cancelled my appt. with my therapist because I just couldn’t get up and wanted to sleep more. My self esteem is progressively dropping, I cry almost everyday for no fucking reason, right now I can’t stop crying and I don’t even know why I am in the first place. I feel like I literally lost my charm and personality, I’ve become so indifferent and monotone in my interpersonal interactions, I was never like that.
And lastly, the worst part is.. I’m starting to have those type of thoughts about myself and my ‘place’ in this society and things that I’d rather do to myself, but they’re still mild.
I’m so scared this will go downhill way too fast | depression |
I’ve been recently diagnosed, and my dr. Prescribed me adderall as my first stop on my medication journey. 10MG. It’s the adderall slow acting, Or slow release? Both? Either way I’m supposed to take it for a few weeks and report to her about my experience; specifically in regards to how it’s working. How would I know if I need to up it or not? I feel very different. Like I can finish a task, I’m more attentive etc. all the things you’d want to see. But I feel like it doesn’t last that long? Maybe like 4 to 5 hours tops. Am I doing this right?
TLDR: How do I know if I’m taking enough adderall? What has been your experience with gradual increases? | ADHD |
I really loved that girl and wanted to spend my life with her, I had depression for a long time because of a lot of things in my life but she made me happy when she was with me. and now that she’s not here anymore I can’t stop missing her and thinking about her because I still love her. I can’t just forget her or get over her or stop loving her. I tried but couldn’t. I still think about her and miss her every single day even after weeks.
I just wish she stayed or that I was better for her… all I ever wanted in this world was someone to love and have them love me back, someone to share the world with. Someone who would stay for me like I would for them through difficulties. I wish she never left… because I still love her. I wanted her. I can’t even really be mad at her after everything… I just miss her…
I don’t know what else to do other than write down my thoughts really… at least I can vent here… | depression |
I have looked up symptoms and saw that I also have them, I do online tests and get positive results and I completely relate to people actually diagnosed with ADHD. I know some of these sources aren't that secure but I have a feeling that I might have it. I just don't know how I tell them without them telling me that I'm just lazy. | ADHD |
Okay so in really just wondering if I can vent how I'm feeling as I've been wondering for years what's wrong with me and am just finding it hard to get mental help when I don't know what's wrong. Basically can I please bounce this shit off of yall and can you tell me if you relate? I've felt for a while that I most relate to ocd but it's really just hard to know bc so many people have different symptoms, I've taken countless of those stupid online tests too and they've always said I should be checked for ocd but I just don't trust them enough:')
Anyways here goes, I might add some things in edits as I think tho cause my stoned brain go brrr rn (I posted this here before but didn't get a single response so I'm just trying again cause feel like my head is melting n I'm so done)
Info for context if needed - I'm a female 19 years old in UK
-Really up my ass about cleanliness(especiallyythe thought of anything being contaminated), spend a few hours cleaning daily as well as weird things like I have to wash the tap everyone I use it bc ut was previously touched with a dirty hand, won't touch cutlery etc if there is so much as a mark on it, avoid eating at other people's houses at all costs, can be bossy about telling other people to wash their hand and clean things a 'proper' way(only to do it myself after a lot of the times bc it isn't clean unless I cleaned it)
- Really having troubles with intrusive thoughts varying on nature too. It can be as simple as I could smash this plate right now or bad sexual /violent thoughts (by bad sexual thoughts I mean like thinking of fucking some random old lady on the street, shit I'm not even into that disgusts me, but also just sexual thoughts in he background 24/7 honestly) I have been having these thoughts from I was a child too although they have only gotten worse as I've gotten older
- Also just obsessing over my own wee things like, always overstocking with shit like food and supplies feeling like I'm always preparing for something? Making sure everything is always 'ready'. Things having to be done in a certain order, specific times and if things aren't going to plan feeling completely overwhelmed and having a breakdown
- Constant overthinking of just everything honestly. Feels like I'm always just reliving everything every bad thought and event all at the same time in my head which is shit because if my boyfriend asks me what's wrong it takes so long to even get a sentence out because you can't pick out one thing to say when everything is spinning round your head at once
These are some other mental symptoms I'm experiencing but I'm not sure if it has anything to do with ocd but gonna include so you get the bigger picture in case I'm way off.
- not feeling like I know who I really am/ wondering if I really am my true self. Idk how to explain but it feels like I just have a different side of myself that I bring out when in different people's company, and I'm really just made u of quirks and personality I've gotten from my friends if that makes sense. And like anytime I do try to be 'myself' I just feel out of place and like I'm just not thinking how most others are
- have hallucinations, mostly auditory though I have had visual a few times. Most of the ones I will get are hearing people whispering and footsteps when nobody is around- I once actually thought someone had broken into my house in midday as I heard the door open and people moving things around downstairs so barricaded myself in my bedroom and called my mum in an absolute panic(she was literally 2 doors away in he neighbours having tea and I lived with my parents a the time) I heard someone coming upstairs and was proper ready to shit myself. Then I heard the front door open, again for real this time and a few seconds later a knock on my door and could hear my mum saying to open, I moved my drawers away form the door and she said nobody was there.
- Shame and self hatred. I feel a lot of guilt and shame and like I'm a horrible person for shit I have done, and it's things I know I'm truly not to blame for just bad situations I got in, but can't help but to blame myself and always feel the disgust that comes along with it. --- comes along with the odd sprout of loving myself every once in a while only for it to crash right back down again though
Anyways thankyou sm to anyone who actually takes the time to read this and hopefully it makes sense :)
If you need anymore info pls ask and if anyone has anything helpful would be good | OCD |
I often think about very serious and sad topics, and despite having it feel like everything around me was falling apart. There was a silver lining… my friends, and more specifically my friend Hayden. He is just as depressed as me and has been hiding it for a while as well, however he has got a girlfriend to talk to now. I feel useless like I was cast aside for some girl despite all that we’ve been through. He held me down and I like to think I did the same for him. Now it feels like I’m even more alone in my thoughts, and not only that but I’m worthless to the ones closest to me. I have no one to share my painful thoughts about existence to and all I can do is bottle it up. I wake up and wish I was dead each and every morning. I am in constant anguish on the inside. The turmoil of these thoughts is almost unbearable.
But what I feel worst about is that my family begins to try and change me to fit their image. I know I’m better off than most out their having lost their spouse, job, friends. But these thoughts separate me from it all. I’m in the dark and can’t get out, Hayden was a light, but now it’s slowly dimming, and I’ll be left in the dark again. | depression |
i go downstairs when i’m bored. I often open the food cupboard and get something to eat for lunch or dinner but today was different. I promised myself i wouldn’t eat at all that day, I stepped on the scales and was disgusted. I’m so fat, nobody else seems to see it but i do. I reached my hand to open the cupboard door but lowered it, instead moving to the sink to get another 2 litres of water to chug down. I have a cigarette and lay in bed, trying to get past the hunger phase. | depression |
Hey guys,
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This group is the most relatable and awesome thing I have come across for helping and relating to ADHD. I was wondering if any meetup groups have ever been planned, maybe in bigger cities like NYC. This group helps me rationalize my problems, laugh at myself, and learn about ADHD. Getting some ADHD homies together might be just as awesome. | ADHD |
I have been struggling with many mental illnesses since i was a kid until this moment but nothing, no med, no therapy helped. I heard a webinar almost by mistake from a couple of experts in the field and i cried because i related to many of the "non official" symptoms of adhd based on their years of experience.
Now i self diagnosed and started becoming frustrated because some typical symptoms of adhd are exactly the opposite with me. I was a very good attentive listener at school. I was rather inattentive outside classroom. I am also someone who is very impulsive with feelings but very very restrained with typical adhd impulsiveness like driving or money.
These things made me and the psychiatrists not sure whether i have it. My scores on all tests i did so far are borderline ADHD. It does not help that most practitioners spend like 15 minutes max to diagnose, which is kinda crazy here but I live in a small town in the north of Germany, so I cannot find anything better for now.
The last psychiatrist decided to try a low dose ling acting stimulant and see whether there is any effect. 3 weeks in now and i can definitely feel much more focused, less angry and way less depressed. But ist thst how stimulants affects everyone so that kids take them recreationally to study? I am currently writing a phd thesis, which is another thing that is very atypical for adhd as defined in medical books...etc.
I feel kinda lost. Any similar experiences? | ADHD |
self-restraint, working memory, emotion control, focus, task initiation, planning/prioritization, organization, time management, defining and achieving goals, flexibility, observation and stress tolerance | aspergers |
I’ve been searching for a PTSD group therapy session to join for several years. Literally every group I find is for Vets or women only or first responders. Every group has a qualifier.
There is a real gap in support for men with ptsd. Society just tells us to “man up.”
Everything sucks. | ptsd |
So it has been about 18 years since I've started doing this and I'm really curious if that happens to other people. This may not even be the correct forum, but I know OCD symptoms can be insidious and this is something that makes me feel uncomfortable if I am not doing it.
I remember this was first an anxiety response during my teens when I was closeted and I would plug my nose, swallow: and voila my ears were plugged. I now do this still to this day incessantly (likely a few times during this writing).
Is there a term for this? Any others that do the same thing? I'm a bit worried about my hearing in the future as a result if constant manipulation of my Eustachian tubes!
Thanks | OCD |
I think I will stop trying the usual ADs because I am suspecting they gave me tinnitus and when I increase the dosage or try another one I have a temporary spike that goes away if I stop taking the drug.
What medication, supplement or nootropics do we have that are effective for OCD? | OCD |
I've always had feelings of hopelessness since I was 10. I've been bullied quite a bit. My dad committed suicide when I was 5 and that was my first first solid memory. After he died, I started my isolating. I have been like this for so long that I have been getting delusional, people say I am weird and a few say I am crazy. I'm the quiet guy at work, but thanks to past trauma I'm afraid to talk at all. I might have a porn addiction, but I can avoid it for a bit. I have one friend who will choose me over anyone else, but I feel like she just feels bad for me. I'm in Navy so I'm in one of the most toxic places (thank God I'm on shore duty), worst than high school. Right now, I'm just getting headaches from thinking about me and my flaws and how I should just end it. | depression |
I don’t quite know how to sum it up, but does anyone have obsessions about worrying you’ll take advantage of someone’s kindness or vulnerability? For example, I have always gotten intrusive thoughts that I’ll ask my dad for a ton of money or ask him to do something that will be too much for his health, etc, and that he’ll do it for me because he is a wonderful dad, and that he’d end up struggling somehow because I needed something.
It leads me to never ask anyone who I know loves me a lot for help of any kind because I worry I’ll somehow put them out in some kind of catastrophic way.
It’s probably my most upsetting obsession, and makes me feel horrific, because it makes me feel like I’m surrounded by wonderful people but that I’m this leaching monster, even though I never ask anyone for anything. Any ways you’ve worked through something similar? | OCD |
Anyone here like recoiling and shrieking? It is like a fear thing? How do stop it. | ptsd |
how do you guys pace yourselves when you start really getting into something? i hate the intensity and full-blown obsession that comes when i find a new hyperfixation because inevitably it’ll burn out. i just got back into a long show that i first watched in 2015 and have already binged 1/3 of it, ordered new merch, and listened to the soundtrack nonstop over the weekend. i don’t want to get tired of this show again!!!! pls help me enjoy things better
edit: this was meant to be titled “how to slow a hyperfixation” but I did not notice I hadn’t typed the whole thing lol | ADHD |
This is my first post on here, I'm sorry but I just need to get this off of my chest
I had issues since I was young but I was always unable to treat them due to money problems (America) or people not taking me seriously. I always hoped that it would go away when I'm older but now it feels like it had gotten worse. Ever since the start of high school, I struggled to pay attention in class or it will take me hours to do a simple worksheet because I can't force myself to focus. I was always scolded by my parents for not being able to sit still. I started to lose track of time easily (I would take time to think for a few minutes but it ends up being an hour as an example) and I would have these mood swings where I would be energetic and happy one minute then depressed and lethargic the next. Everyone around me noticed these things and pointed them out to me so I wasn't the only one who realized something was wrong. I began doing research on my own and discovered what ADHD was. I would take all of these questionnaires and read all these articles off of medical sites that highly suggest that I should get consulted for ADHD. I came across the subreddit and it was the first time I felt like I was understood. The thing is, I can't get consulted for ADHD because my parents tell me that it would cost too much out-of-pocket money we don't have. I have other siblings that cost money also so I'm not exactly a priority right now. Yet my GPA is at an all-time low because my symptoms are getting worse. 5 minutes of daydreaming turned into 2 hours, my teachers would talk for an entire hour and I would listen and take notes yet I forget that I'm in the classroom twenty minutes in. I struggle to keep focus no matter how much I force myself to do it. That's just some of it and I'm so scared that I can't do anything about it because I can't get these issues treated. I'm so scared that my GPA will stay low because I can't pull myself together. I'm in my junior year and it's halfway through, I'm afraid that I won't get accepted into any good colleges. I don't want to be like everyone else in my family but I feel like I will. There's nothing wrong with having these issues but what can I do about these issues if I can't get them treated? | ADHD |
used 20 days of clonezapam 0.5 while upping dose on prozac (60 mg). Quit clonezapam 5 days ago. Quit risperdal 1 mg 3 days ago.
I have been feeling just terrible terrible.
chest burns 🥵
full of negative thoughts. Yesterday I was in dread and panic from wake to sleep so got 1 mg xanax.
I do not want any benzos but my anxiety is just terrible which excerbates my ocd and depression.
I have doctors appointment tomorrow but I am so tense. What can I do?
Is this clonezapam withdrawal or prozac anxiety what is this ? | OCD |
Hey all,
I'm a man in my mid twenties and have noticed over the past year or so a growing habit of mine that I believe to be a compulsion/obsession, and wanted to see if anyone else had experienced something similar.
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What's been bothering me is when I cannot find an answer to something or cannot recall a piece of information. A good example of this will be with a song I hear, or someone's name I'm sure I once knew. Once I'm aware that I once knew the answer/piece of information, I nearly cannot focus on anything else until I remember/figure out what it was that's bothering me.
What spurred this consideration was tonight while studying, I realized I found a term in a textbook but could not find the definition. I googled the term, but wanted to find it in the book specifically. This led me to scouring the book for over an hour, to no avail. It didn't matter that I completely understood the term, it was the fact that I *had* to find the book definition, almost as if to give myself a sense that I won? In this instance, like many, I feel a building sense of anger/agitation until I am able to "resolve" the issue at hand.
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I wanted to know if anyone else noticed this compulsion as to finding an answer and being unable to let it go otherwise? And how would you characterize/define it?
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Thanks | OCD |
First of all, I apologize if this post is going to be OT/not relevant. I am autistic and working on a diagnosis for ADHD, in the meanwhile with my therapist we are exploring the possibility of OCD, so I am trying to learn more about myself and my behaviours. I will definitely talk to her about this episode, but I would also like to hear what you guys have got to say. Please be patient with me.
Yesterday my GF went out with her friends and today I got a message from her saying that she kissed a couple of guys and had sex with another girl. Of course I was set aback and now, since she told me, there hasn't been literally 5 minutes without me thinking about that, and I haven't been able to do much of anything today. My thought are interrupted by this even while talking with other people, reading stuff, studying for my upcoming exam, or doing pretty much anything else.
The worst thing is, however, that we have an open relationship, so I knew she would have done that (she told me yesterday), I was 100% ok with it, and she actually did it other times in the past (and I have as well). Our relationship is very strong and this "deal" is something we both wanted.
Nevertheless, I still obsess about it, to the point where I am extremely bothered by it, not only by the intrusive thoughts themselves that do not leave me alone, but especially by the illogicity of being upset for something there is no reason to be upset about. I feel that my mind is full, and I would really like to ignore this fact, but something in my head keeps telling me: "your gf had sex with someone else. This is bad. You should feel bad" and I cannot stop it. I am not even mad with her, I don't even know what I feel bad about, I just feel bad and I cannot tell why.
From experience (as I said, this exact situation, intrusive thoughts included, have already happened in the past), I will obsess over it for a couple of days, manage to talk about it with her, and after a little while, I will accept it and it won't bother me at all. I think that my "compulsion" in this case is to ask and know every detail of the "act", which is something I haven't been able to do yet, but I always do, and at this point I'm wondering if I should resist the urge this time.
As I've said, I don't know for sure if this can be considered OCD behaviour; this is a time of great confusion for me, but I've always had these kind of thoughts stuck inside my brain and no matter what I couldn't make go away, even if I really wanted to and even if there was no reason for them to exist.
I would like to know how this relates to your experience with OCD and I apoligize once again if this kind of content does not fit here. | OCD |
Hey guys,
I know we all have our thing where we forget to text back or when we have too much on our plate we don’t do anything etc.
But lately I’ve been so overwhelmed and so much pressure is on me right now from a lot of it from health, school, and living situation.
I’ve basically ghosted from everyone and shut down. I can barely focus on the tasks I should be doing and I haven’t returned calls or texts in weeks. Even with the adderall I’m still overwhelmed and feel hopeless.
Friends are mad at me and like I really just can’t do it. I’m broken. There’s so much to do so much I haven’t done.
I feel like such a failure of a person. I can’t do simple tasks or “pay attention to the details” like other people can. I’m almost in my mid 20’s and I’m still in Uni trying to just get a degree… (to be fair I lost about 2-3 years of schooling from Covid and health reasons) but even though I remind myself that I still feel like a failure. I haven’t done anything worth while and I’m stuck with my parents.
Sorry for the rant.. I think at this point I’m really genuinely depressed. I already see a therapist so hopefully it’ll help more. | ADHD |
Hi all,
I went to therapy yesterday for my ocd but there is a problem.
before i went to my therapy session i messaged my boss telling him that i have had family issues pop up and i will be late for work. I used this as an excuse so i can go to my therapy session because i didn't want to make anyone aware of my condition. I got lots of good advice from the therapist and i was relived she gave me advice such as ERP and mindfulness. Long story short my ocd has been telling me that i did not attend the therapy session and i attended my family problems instead because of the message i sent. I have seen my therapist a couple of times over the years although i know for a fact i saw her yesterday but obviously the message i sent to my boss is ruining my mental it feels like because i sent that message that means i did not attend therapy but i know it's not true.
I hate ocd so much.. now my issues feel real again of what i have been going through | OCD |
I don’t know what I need, I feel like I have to talk to someone but at the same time I don’t want to be a burden so I’m like stuck in limbo or something. I just feel like a giant mess | depression |
someone help me; i feel like i’m the only one who feels this way:
i’m a 22F with a decent amount of friends and a fairly supportive family. i’ve been diagnosed with major depressive disorder and a bunch of other mental disorders. i’ve felt this way for as long as i can remember and it’s that i want to die. really badly. like i fucking hate breathing, but i really care about my family and friends and my dog that they’re really the only things keeping me alive. like i know it’d be easy for me to just kill myself but bc i know how i feel, i hate to force that on everyone i care about if i die. i NEVER want anyone i care about to feel how i feel, but i’m so tired of living that i just want to let go. i hate feeling the way i feel and know it’s never gonna get better or cured. i just feel stuck living a life that i don’t want to live but bc of the people in my life, i can’t just kill myself. does any one else feel like this bc i feel so alone. also, if there’s a way you cope with this feeling, i would like to hear suggestions. i’m trying really hard to push past this for the ones i care about but it gets harder and harder every time i feel better and go back into a depressive episode again. please help me.
edit: i also can’t find anything that brings me joy anymore. i used to like reading and playing my instrument and going on walks but i can’t seem to enjoy it anymore. i’ve tried different things and i’ve tried to do my other hobbies differently but nothing works. it’s all so tiring. | depression |
I've never properly understood how am I supposed to comfort someone. I always end up just somehow distracting or saying bad jokes, and hurting them more :/
It just happens with everyone, in any kond of context, I keep repeating myself that I should just be helpful but I end up talking about random things that would comfort me and not someone else | ADHD |
So today I got into a fight today at school which I am not proud of with the fact that I just got my stuff and left. I was in the bathroom, after doing my business I went to go wash my hands,after that some kid started throwing gang signs in my face. I asked him to stop twice but he got more aggressive with the gang signs. I then got annoyed then pushed his hands out of my face then I just told him to stop throwing gang signs in my face. Then he got mad I punched me like 6 times until I gained control of him and put him in a choke hold. I had him in the hold for like 60 seconds. 45 seconds in I look around,I'm a white kid choking a black kid and a bunch of black kids are looking at me like I'm a monster. I then release him from the hold not realizing that I had been choking him to the point where he was having trobule breathing. Some kids come to help him meanwhile I'm going to my Spanish class with a devolping black eye and a cut on my nose packing up my stuff to leave. I gathered my things and just walked out the nearest school exit. I then went to a park near my house to gather my emotions, sat on a bench for 10 minutes,went home to face whatever punishment I may receive for skipping. I did not receive punishment from my parents but I maybe reciving punishment from the school not for nearly choking a kid out but for skipping which i admit was really stupid on my part. Later the campus police came to my house to make sure I was okay, asked me my side of the story as well as questions which I answered honestly and took pictures of my injuries. All and all not my best day but for right now the school has asked me to stay home while they solve this case. There maybe pending punishment but to be honest I don't care I'll take it. Anyways thanks for letting me share thank you. | aspergers |
Hi folks,
I have been on the same dose of Adderall XR at 25mg since 2016. Before Adderall I flunked all my classes and had my Xbox taken away and hidden by the principal of my school...it was weird. Then I was forced to drop out of school and switch to night school. Thats when I got Adderall and the rest is history.
The issue I have is that my Zoloft that I use for anxiety makes my dopamine non-existent, thus rendering my medication useless. I have tried every stimulant, and they all have the effect of decreasing appetite, raising my heartrate, but nothing more.
I'm wondering if any of you fine volk have switched from Zoloft to Effexor and noticed a change in dopamine? My doctor said that I should have been on Effexor since the start due to it being easier on people who suffer from ADHD. Any help would be appreciated. Thanks! | ADHD |
Often, after i eat, i feel a weird sensation, as if i am sad, or anxious, i don't really know. I really enjoy food and i've experience this feeling since i remember.
Now that i am diagnosed as autistic, i wonder if it can be related to sensory processing issues.
Does anyone else experience it?
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I don't recognize the foods that cause this sensation, and it feels uncorrelated to the people i eat with. So... maybe someone else can help me, i don't know where to look for infos. | aspergers |
Hello. Im not usually one to post my feelings publicly as I always feel stupid af for doing so. Like many on here I've suffered from depression for as long as I can remember (about 16 years). I have attempted to end my life numerous times, have had way to many mental breakdowns to count, and been on so many different medications it's hard to keep up.
I had major counselling about 7 years back which without I can guarantee I wouldn't be here let along writing this sentence.
About a year ago I hit my final breaking point. I was done. I had 2 choices, seek help, or finally end it all. Truthfully, I was about 99% leaning towards being done!! My plan was set and I was ready. I kept thinking that no one would take me seriously, nobody gives a fuck. They're all laughing at me anyway. But that last 1%, was my last fight. And I thought what does it matter. If I call and they don't give a shit I'm ending in all anyway so fuck it.
I called my doctors..... and they were amazing.
They put me straight through to a doctor who asked me to come straight in. He was amazing. Listened, didn't rush me, discussed my options. That phone call much like my counselling saved my life.
As for today. I've been on the same meds for a year. My mental health as improved dramatically. I still have my bad days/moments but the positives are finally outweighing the negatives. Being able to appreciate and enjoy the simple things like the stars in the sky or the leaves on the floor feels nice. Taking walks and looking at the trees, and nature helped massively. I also joined the gym which is a huge accomplishment (for me anyway) and an even bigger mental distraction.
The reason for this post isn't for me. I know it's going to get buried in this sub somewhere but I'm fine with that. If my short boring life story helps one person decide to seek help, I'm cool with that. Being what I e been through, and I've seen a LOT, and coming out fighting means I know whoever is reading this can to.
Don't ever be ashamed of who you are, or what you are going through!!!!! People do care!!!! And you are needed in this world!!!
When I'm mentally capable I'm hoping to turn my experience into something I can use with others in need of help. As Robin Williams once said
"“I think the saddest people always try their hardest to make people happy because they know what it’s like to feel absolutely worthless and they don’t want anyone else to feel like that.”
You may be sad now. But the future doesn't have to be that way for you. Head up, be strong, always keep fighting ; | depression |
I made a comment about these and people seemed to appreciate learning about them. A while ago I got some on Amazon and they have made taking my meds so much easier. They have a timer in the top that resets when you open it so you know exactly how long it’s been since you took your meds. I never have to wonder anymore I can just look at the cap and know. It’s doubly helpful for things that need to be taken multiple times a day.
Hope this helps folks. | ADHD |
There is this one movie that my partner and my roommate are obsessed with. I’ve been forced to watch it 7-8 times now and it’s just not funny to me. They always say I can just leave and sit in my room when they want to watch it but I want to be with my partner. At this point, I get aggressive at even the suggestion of watching it again just because they want to group watch it (AGAIN) cause someone new entered our friend group.
I feel so self conscious about the fact that I get visibly/expressively angry at the suggestion of it. It’s obnoxious and not funny and all I hear every day is constant references of it too. I can’t get enough of a break to tolerate watching it again.
How do I move past this? I want my partner and friend to be able to just watch it but at the same time, the roommate doesn’t give me that luxury and mocks the things I want to watch again (comfort movies ya know?) and today he started mocking me for having “subpar” humor because I don’t enjoy that stupid musical…
I feel frustrated and upset because I feel like if I didn’t struggle with getting upset with things that are outside my interests, then I wouldn’t be mocked about it when I have to voice I don’t wanna watch it again. I want to enjoy what they do so it’s easy. | aspergers |
I don't understand myself sometimes. Every positive feeling I experience is followed by such an overwhelming low. It's ridiculous. 2 out of the 3 times I've tried to kill myself, I did it right after finishing hanging out with friends. I hate having fun because I know the better I feel, as soon as the rush of the moments is over, the more I'll crash. After every workout, I feel like shit, because the happy hormones released during the training session wear out. I usually throw up or cut afterward. How I can go from feeling like I'm on top of the world to wanting to kill myself and being actively suicidal is terrifying. I really don't know if my emotions are even real anymore. I'm tired. | depression |
i’ve been seeing a licensed counselor for about a month now, but i’m feeling like i need something more than 45 minute “vent” sessions weekly. she diagnosed me with ptsd but hasn’t been able to help me with coping skills or mindfulness yet. she suggested we do dbt, but i haven’t had any positive effects from therapy yet. i find that my mental health is the same, if not worse at times. i know that therapy takes time and there’s no instant cure, but my mental illness is really affecting my relationships, health, work, housing situation, and class work (essentially everything). as a student i’m already taking on a lot of responsibility, so the pressure of having ptsd on top of that is really weighing on me. just looking for advice about what i should do. should i see an additional therapist or psychiatrist? | ptsd |
i’ve been through this so many times but i’m reaching out this time to see what you guys do to find yourself again.
i feel as though i have lost my entire personality and i don’t even know how to act or i never know what to say. i don’t care about anything as much as i used to. i feel like the light has been stolen from me.
i feel like i can’t even be myself around my best friend of many years and even my own mom. i’m masking and mirroring 1000% of the time. i feel like i am fkn broken. i want to find my light again but i don’t have an idea on where to start. i used to enjoy hiking, roller skating, hanging out w friends all of the time and now i want to do none of that. i don’t even have hobbies i enjoy anymore. sigh. this is exhausting. thx for listening. | depression |
Context: I have Harm OCD and she has PTSD.
She has a bad relationship with her father, who abused her and was a dick. In a moment where she was overwhelmed, she said she wanted to kick his ass or even k*ll him if she was a guy. This triggered my OCD and I had a really bad panic attack, and it just has been a rough few days. And recommendations or suggestions on where to go from here? | OCD |
I feel like im the only one who became super impulsive due to my OCD like I don’t think before making a risky compulsion or any act and then i spend days regretting what i did.
No one talks about the link of OCD and impulsivity. | OCD |
My partner and I both have mental health issues, mine is depression, my partner's anxiety and PTSD. We've both been through a lot of stress in the past two years and sometimes I feel like I'm reaching the end of the line with how much I can take.
One way or another, I am partially responsible for what happened in the recent past, and my reactions to some of the events have certainly not helped. I constantly wish I could have done better or that I at had more of a handle on my own depression and how it's affecting myself and us as a couple, but I know I can't change the past. However, the more recent events have also brought out something deeper and older in my partner.
I found out a lot about their past and upbringing that I didn't know before and am trying to be as understanding and supportive as possible. Which in some situations takes a toll on me and my health and it feels like it's progressively more difficult for me to try and be there. There are these moments when everything just comes bursting out of them and I can tell the amount of stress and anxiety they are going through. But it also seems to be accompanied with anger, talking of violence and is being verbally redirected at something or someone else (although this is just my subjective opinion).
They are projecting a lot towards the future and even though it may not be intentional, every time something happens I'm being made aware that they do not feel safe with me, or that I'm doing the wrong thing (sometimes explicitly, sometimes just by shutting me out - and I am aware I do the latter myself too). At the same time there is almost nothing I can say to make any of this better and I feel like we're going very strongly on a course of avoidance with some of these issues. I'm trying not to make any judgments on this and just accept it as something that may be necessary at this point of time, a stage perhaps, but I am getting hurt worn out, emotionally and physically. And lately I've began realizing that I don't feel safe around my partner either.
We still live in a rather stressful situation. We have learned to work on some of our issues to an extent, but also talked about individual and couples therapy and both agreed it would be a good idea. It is just not an option at the moment and I'm scared that at some point it is going to be too late. I do not want to lose the only relationship that I ever entered and put effort into and care about because I wanted to, and not just because I stumbled into it. That might not seem like much, but for someone beaten down by depression almost all my life, this is a huge deal for me. Sometimes all I have is a reminder that just because I find myself unable to feel something, it doesn't mean that it's gone for good. I just have moments that are more bleak than others. But what if one of these days this is not going to be enough and I'll just get up and leave or sabotage myself or something?
Does anyone have any experience or advice on making relationships with PTSD and mental health issues work? I'm scared, I feel stuck and I don't want to give up just because I don't see a way forward right now. But I also don't know what to do anymore. | ptsd |
I’ve been so stressed lately and I’ve noticed that I haven’t been wanting sex with my bf I’ve been dating for a year. I feel so bad for saying no every time he asks if we can have sex (he doesn’t get mad or anything). I just feel so bad and guilty but I genuinely just haven’t been in the mood for it lately and I’m afraid I’m gonna like ruin our relationship just because I’m going through a phase of not wanting sex | depression |
Hey all. I’m having bad OCD at work currently and I think its because I took Benadryl the night before. It always ups my brain fog the following day as well as makes my OCD and anxiety super disoriented. I was wondering if anyone else felt the same way on Benadryl? I have a lot of food allergies and I accidentally ate one of them yesterday which is why I was required to take it. I was also wondering if anyone has any tips to get out of the compulsive head state while at work. I’m in a very high paced profession where I’m usually too distracted to think about my mental health issues but today is just different. I’m currently hiding in the bathroom while everyone is on lunch. | OCD |
Hello guys,
Sorry for my english.
Lately I'm struggling to do anything without music, even for study o read a romance book i need at least some music in one ear.
The problem is that I lose literally 2 hours probably only listening music and nothing else, as entering in a loop.
I'm also having some problem studying, like i know, i really know that i have to study but instead i procrastinate all the day.
I'm not here to fund a solution but some kind words can assure me a little bit depression and adhd is not a great combo unfortunately.
Thanks guys, hope a great life for y'all! | ADHD |
When I take a knife or a pair of scissors to my hand a sudden thought would come out of no where and tell me to hurt myself or hurt someone around me. When I'm at a school meeting and the whole crowd is quite and a sudden thought would come and tell me to scream or do something stupid like that. When I go near a cliff or if I'm on the top floor my mind would tell me "jump off the building, it won't hurt you " and stuff like that. I've never actually done any of those. Sometimes I would get this sudden urge to hurt my siblings and once I pushed my brother in to a swimming pool knowing it was wrong (nothing happened to him). Is this normal ? I don't know if this is related to ocd but I didn't know where else to ask this from. | OCD |
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Cynthia did not like that I’d decided to not inform on anyone in the unit anymore. She was extremely angry.
I hadn’t broken any rules but she had to punish me. Soon every phone call I had was listened in on by a staff member. You’d think I was in prison.
Everything I said was twisted. ( which I’ll get back to) It was also at this time that she’d bring me into her office for an impromptu therapy session that could last for hours.
Something else was happening that I forgot to mention. Everyday at lunch Cynthia would eat with us. Everyone was always anxious and afraid of her being there.
It wasn’t something that started until I’d been there for a few months. Every lunch she’d say, “Hello my lovelies”. We’d be asked how we each felt. A lot of us said we were excited about family visits ( overnight).
This is when she’d say to a bunch of girls anxious to go home, ( same thing every time) that we all had visits but it was up to us if we kept them. I can’t explain how manipulative these lunches were. A person would be anxious before, and panicking after.
It was because we knew she chose who would get visits based on her fucked up view that we shouldn’t get overnight visits even if we’re perfectly behaved etc.
I was also dealing with the rules that “I” and I had to follow, and how “L” was still angry. A lot of girls were. The only person I had who knew I’d been played was “P”.
The phone call situation was horrible. I couldn’t talk without my words or my mom and dad’s words being weirdly twisted.
Months went by, and I could feel myself becoming more and more afraid Cynthia’s power. She could obviously make almost everyone hate me. She could take my visits. My parents would each go through my phases where they liked her then hated her.
I got my wisdom teeth removed ( all 4) and was given Vicodin. I got enough to take 4 daily with 2 refills because my surgery didn’t go well and the pain was excruciating.
After I came back to St. Rose my pills were kept in the office. I was given a choice. Eat soup w crackers or take the pills that helped. While I was at school I could ask for one, but on the unit it was different.
I called my parents after 3 days of this so they called Cynthia. This next part is illegal although Cynthia did a lot of illegal things.
She told my parents she’d disposed of my pills even though legally she was required to give them back to parents, and I was in so much pain for weeks. I think she kept them.
“I” and me were great and she was discharged soon after into foster care. She also got to stay with her parents ( maybe the foster mother didn’t care I never found out). I was so depressed because she had been there 2 months shorter than me.
We exchanged information and when I went home for a long weekend ( it was summer so visits could be longer). With our parents permission I took a train to her house. | ptsd |
I want to fucing die. Im not going to kill myself but i want to. I just cussed out my girlfriend, i havent had a good day for i dont even know how long. I am made fun of at school by most kids. My "friends" are very limited and they dont even want to listen to me. I told my mom once and she didnt even BELIEVE me. This is the first time ive cried in a few months, and i hope its not the last. I want to cry, and i want to die. I dont live on my own, HECK I DONT EVEN HAVE A CAR. I WANT TO FUCKING DIE, IM JUST SCARED. Please, anyone. | depression |
Hey! So I started Clomipramine/Anafranil 2 weeks ago. Just 10mg. Each day I’m on it I get more and more sore tight muscles. Arms, neck, shoulders, back, etc. Is this normal? It’s not the beginning stages of seratonin syndrome is it? Thank you! | OCD |
A friend of mine can't touch her mail or anything that has been at her previous place of work until it is decontaminated. She asked me to help pick things up for her. I'm happy to do it because I know the condition she's in right now. Her health is currently so bad that her spouse is cleaning the house while she stays in a hotel. Her condition has been deteriorating and even at the request of her doctor she was not going on medical leave. She has finally done so which is great, so I can only hope she will improve with time. In the mean time should I be helping her out with contaminated items? I want to do what's best for her. | OCD |
Hey everyone! I was diagnosed with adhd at the age of 11 (I’m 23 now), and stopped taking my vyvanse when I was 16. Lately I’ve been having a hard time managing my adhd symptoms, including impulsive activity. I often get into these mindsets where I need to go do something. (I don’t even know what I want to do, and there’s no purpose in going anywhere!!) For example, I want to go shopping, I want to order new jewelry, a new couch, plan a vacation that I have no business planning, go to a thrift store, order new shoes for my entire family, take the day off work and go to a museum, take some paid time at the end of the day and walk around the mall, etc. I KNOW that I need to save money, however if I don’t go out and do something at some point during my day I feel angry and as if I was not productive at all. At this point I’m frustrated because this is effecting my mood, finances, and my work load. Does anyone else get like this and if so how do you manage it?! I’m going crazy here. Thanks so much! | ADHD |
I'm a woman in my late 20's and I was just diagnosed a few days ago. I didn't even consider autism until my therapist told me I might have it a couple years ago. I just thought I was this quirky, odd person that never managed to fit in, that it was my fault that I struggled to understand social rules and how to keep a conversation going. Amongst an ocean of other things.
I struggle with a bunch of mental illnesses, some of which probably could have been avoided if I had been diagnosed earlier. It's such a huge relief to finally understand why I am the way I am.
So, hello to all my fellow aspies, autistic people or whatever you prefer to go by. You are all awesome. | aspergers |
I remember my sexual assault traumas in terms of a very distant memory of what had happened, with a bit of horror over what happened. But most of them, I was rather dissociated and another “part” (i would call it an exile part, a very young part that has had to endure all of the sexual abuse from big scary strangers, to the point that she has given up and expects the worst and makes it her job to give in and do what they want) took over. I remember feeling, while aware of what was happening, very distant and feeling it play out in third person.
Now in EMDR sessions / during brainspotting, when I have to think of the memory, it’s very distant (even the most recent one back in June this year) and i feel emotionally numb. I don’t feel much body sensations. It feels like a block I can’t move past. I just teeter on the edge of zoning out.
How does EMDR work when I’m like this? Am I wasting my therapist’s time? Has anyone felt stuck in this same position of finding it hard to feel? Thank you in advance. | ptsd |
Two weeks ago I started my first year of teaching. I was worried how ADHD might affect how I handle the job that would be my career but things are going pretty good so far. This might be because I’m working in a place where everyone seems to always need to be catching up on everything so o guess I fit right in? What matters most though is that I have my meds as more of a backup than a necessity! This is what I see as a huge milestone for myself. Do y’all have similar goals or stories? | ADHD |
Hello everybody!
At around the age of 12, I started getting really bad anxiety. It started with fearing I had cancer. I'd constantly be checking for lumps on my body and I'd even go so far as to ask my parents if they felt any lumps on me. It took several check ups at the hospital for me to finally realize I did not have it. Once this fear went away, I did the stupidest thing possible and researched mental illnesses. When I read about schizophrenia, I realized that was probably the worst of all of them and began to fear it.
I am now a 27 year old male, and the fear has not gone away. It definitely comes in waves..I'll be okay for a few months, and then something will happen to trigger the fear again. I think stress is what brings the anxiety on. I just started law school this year and in the summer prior to starting I was completely fine. As soon as school work started piling up, I spiraled.
I constantly worry if I am going to hear or see things that are not real. If I hear a sound, I will sit there in silence to make sure I was not hallucinating. It has gotten so bad that I will mistake environmental stimuli and think I am hearing things. About a year ago, I started hearing a high-pitched frequency whenever I got anxiety and I've worried this could be me developing schizophrenia. I've gone to 2 doctors and 2 psychologists, all of whom have told me I just have serious anxiety. For some reason, no amount of clarification is enough. I started taking Prozac (25mg) and for about 3 months it worked but seems to be fading off as I am feeling like my old anxious self again.
When I woke up anxious this morning, I thought I heard a whisper of my name, and this made me absolutely freak out. I'm just so tired of this. I know that nobody can diagnose on here and I know seeking reassurance is a horrible idea, I just need some support.
Thank you for reading and I hope to receive some comments on this post! | OCD |
Sorry if this counts under rules 1 and 2. If it does, please remove it. Also throwaway because I don't want anyone I know IRL to find this and make fun of me for this.
Anyways, I was wondering about a few specific symptoms of OCD. I've struggled with symmetry and making sure everything is orderly (to the point where I will spend hours adjusting the minor spacing of things). Does anyone else do this? And if so, why? | OCD |
[https://youtu.be/vDBYHk7zXIk](https://youtu.be/vDBYHk7zXIk) | aspergers |
I LOVE planners. LOVE them. Have regular planners, budget planners, planners set up weekly/monthly, planners with stickers etc. My problem is I NEVER USE THEM. So one day out of frustration I threw a small notebook and pen in my purse. It is now the place I write down important dates, grocery lists, chores I have to remember etc. and I don’t sit down and do it, I ONLY do it when the thought pops into my head. It has been tremendously helpful. It somehow takes the pressure off of having to use an “official” planner. It’s where I just throw all of the random things I need to know or remember. | ADHD |
Parking in our house’s garage is quite tricky. The ramp is steep and small.
Anyway, I (F 24) was having a terrible morning which left me rattled. On my way home, my mind was admittedly clouded. When I got home before lunch, my mom guided me while parking. When I finally got up the ramp and was supposed to break, I accelerated instead and I hit the wall hard. Thank God my mom was 3 meters away from that wall. otherwise, I would have crushed her knees, or maybe even something worse.
I only accidentally stepped on gas instead of break 2 times before this incident: first, when I was in 5th grade and my dad was teaching me how to drive (this left me traumatized til I was 23); second, while my dad was yelling at me while he was teaching me how to drive (at 23 y/o).
I have been haunted by flashbacks of that accident. I only remember being in a state of panic for no particular reason when I was supposed to step on the break. I don’t remember my thought-process that much. But this left me scared of driving again.
Any help or advise? | ptsd |
This might sound bad or me just being an asshole, but this is a genuine reality for me.
I realized recently that I just can’t pay attention or really care in what others have to say if the topic doesn’t at all interest me. This leads to me having very dry responses to people I converse in because the fact of the matter is that when they are speaking I’m not really paying attention. I’m usually lost in my head thinking about something else. A lot of the times I just have nothing to say because the topic just doesn’t interest me.
It’s not just with certain people either. I could be talking with my friends, but if the topic is something I’m not interested in, I would just be lost in my head. However as soon as we start to talk about something I am interested in I can talk for hours about the topic instead of giving one word responses like “I don’t know” or “I wouldn’t know”.
I don’t particularly do this on purpose obviously, and I don’t really like that I do this. I would like to be able to talk to people about anything. I would like to be interested in more things or at least be able to have an input. But, I guess I just get bored very quickly or something. | ADHD |
today my ocd thoughts arent about me being a pedophile its about me thinking pedophilia is okay,
"do i think pedophilia is okay"
"do i think its good"
"are you a pedophile sympathizer"
and i just want these thoughts to go away, i just want my brain to be quiet so i can enjoy my day....any advice?? | OCD |
I'm not sure if this is the right place to ask this but I tried googling stuff but there weren't any reasonable explanation.
So, we live in an apartment with my gf and couple nights ago we heard some quite violent women screaming coming from our nextdoor neighbor which started "out-of-the-blue". There weren't any signs of assault or things flying before or after. It lasted probably for about 5minutes and then just ended. But can assure it was horrifying.
We don't want to go to her door and ask about it because we have seen her after that and physically she's totally fine. Especially since it has only happened once. Also we are not 100% if it's even coming from there or from the next apartment of the building (which we share a wall to). And of top of these I see it also being a matter of ones privacy.
So my question here, could violent screaming be a "symptom" of PTSD?
There wasn't any doubt that it could've been a child or something. | ptsd |
So I just wanted to see if anyone relates to this, or thinks I'm overreacting, you know the drill.
So as a kid, I'd have meltdowns twice a day at school and at home. At home my mom wouldn't handle the situation well at all. Whenever I would start to get mad, she'd say stuff like "here we go again" which of course didn't help, then she would get into a shouting match with me, while I was just repeating the same phrase over and over, which I don't even know how she managed to do. She'd also threaten me by saying something like "you better stop before your dad gets home, or else you've got another thing coming" and on occasion when my dad would come home during a meltdown, he would hit me and put me down verbally. There was a lot of other little things that my parents did, but you get the idea.
Anyway, I was diagnosed with Asperger's at 11, but my parents didn't really do anything to change their relationship with me. By then, I had stopped having meltdowns, and slowly I learned more to control my actions to not escalate situations. There were a lot of other things my parents did that sucked when I was in my teens, so I always felt like I had to teach myself everything about how to handle my emotions and how to act more NT. I also never felt closure for my experiences as a child, because I just stopped having meltdowns and my parents didn't fight me anymore. They never acknowledged the pain they caused me and they never actually changed themselves, I just "became more NT" like they always wanted. They are fine now, they're nice, they do nice things for me, they seem to care, but I always remember how they used to act, and how they never took responsibility for their actions. It's like they just want to forget about it.
I've brought it up my childhood a couple of times throughout the years, and they would always have excuses like "they didn't know I was autistic" or "they were mistreated as kids so when I would yell at them (as a child) they felt the need to protect themselves" and so on. They never just blanketly said that it's wrong to hit a child and the way they acted was unacceptable for a NT child, let alone a child on the spectrum. There was also an occasion where I got mad at their response and cussed my mom out, making her be pouty and quiet for a couple days until I apologized, which I feel mixed about. It was wrong for me to be mean to her but I feel my anger is justified, which she never acknowledged.
I'm now 19 and I've got a job, and I'm ready to move out. As I'm getting closer to leaving my family, I'm starting to get really angry at my parents. It's harder to hold back my emotions. I really want to completely cut ties with them, but I'd like to keep them around for their money. Like I said, they are mostly nice now, I just know that they haven't changed from when they were horrible to me as a kid.
Tl;DR My parents abused me as a child and never apologized, and now that I'm older and they are more nice, I hate them.
Is that justified? Am I just being emotional? Do you have a similar situation?
Thanks for taking the time to look at my post, I appreciate it. | aspergers |
First I want to say I never have been officially diagnosed with PTSD. I did have some traumatic incidences in my life but none of them have prevented me from living a happy 'normal-ish' life.
I was at work and as I was waiting for something my mind shot back to a moment in time and for some reason I remembered every detail. I felt like I was back at the scene but only for 3 seconds or so. Nothing at work triggered it, I was just lost in my mind I guess. But after I snapped out of it, I was overcome with emotion to the point where I had to find a quiet place to sit and quietly cry to myself. I cried pretty hard and just felt so sad. I'd like to consider myself pretty educated in the mental health field considering I have suffered with depression, anxiety, self-harm and have been to intense outpatient programs and have sat and talked with people with true PTSD and this just doesn't seem like it. But anyways, I'm looking for your honest opinion. Was this just a bad memory? Or was this some type of flashback? | ptsd |
I can't find any information online so I'm wondering if anyone here knows about this.
I've been dissociating a lot lately, and since I live alone in a foreign country, it's been very easy to surrender to it, and even find ways to get triggered to make myself shut down. It's so much more comfortable to get out of the driver's seat and let life pass you by without any anguish. A month ago something bad happened, and a few days ago was the anniversary of another event. Great timing, huh?
For the past month, I have had this incredible fatigue that no amount of sleep can combat. I've been getting headaches and mood swings, which I am not prone to, even from past events. I've spent hours standing or sitting in random spots in my apartment for hours unable to figure out what I was about to do or why. And not caring, either.
Despite all this, I keep myself well (probably because I have nothing else). I eat healthy. I go to the gym every single day (if you're going to dissociate for an hour, you might as well do it on a treadmill, right?), except for yesterday and today because I am literally bedbound with shivering, sweating, vomiting and many hours curled up on the floor staring out the window. I'm not listening to music or watching movies, I just watch the sky get light and then dark and then light again. All the dissociating has left me out of touch of my body and my emotions. After so long of trying to push past the dark cloud hanging over me, is it possible that I've made myself physically ill?
TLDR; I was wondering if anyone else found that they were getting sick after dissociating for too long? | ptsd |
Over a decade ago, as a teenager, I realised that I was flunking out on most of the commitments I was taking on. Everything from schoolwork, to new jobs, to hobbies, to my social life; I half-assed all of it.
After enough of these failures had piled up, I started feeling like I'd had enough. As the years went on, I stopped applying for jobs, stopped taking on new hobbies and stopped meeting new people. After ruining muliple potential relationships because I couldn't bring myself to organise a second date, I closed myself off from intimacy. This might all seem lazy, but I was just existentially tired from years of letting people down.
Flash forward to today. I'm 28, and I have no commitments. I'm long-term unemployed; I have no dependents or partners (or ex-partners); my hobbies are unproductive and repetitive. I no longer feel the panic involved in repeated failure; instead, I just feel overwhelmingly worthless, numb and detached. My ADHD diagnosis this year answered a lot of questions, but with a long waiting list for treatment, I'm yet to find any solutions.
I see so many vibrant, colourful people with ADHD on this sub and beyond. I read your stories, and the number of people on here who are pushing ahead with great hobbies and passions, interesting jobs, families, relationships—it gives me hope for all of us.
So I'm looking to shamelessly mine y'all for ideas about how to stay connected to the world when you have ADHD. How do you keep on committing to people, jobs, life in general—and how do you cope with the higher risk of failure our condition inevitably causes? | ADHD |
Does anyone ever gets like so annoyed by people or just plain angry ? Like sometimes I get to work and my coworkers annoyed me so much, I don’t feel like talking to anyone, but I do feel bad because they have not done anything to me, but I am just annoyed and can’t control it. I don’t know if it’s the Adderall or is just me. I do feel like I do have like a personality disorder and my emotions are always “over exaggerated” it’s exhausting to feel like this, but not sure how to handle it. | ADHD |
For context, im at an internship, been there 1 week now (first week was pretty good, it went well). But sunday, prior to my first day, i was so anxious, my stomach was hurting, because i didnt know what was gonna happen and what i was gonna get to do. It turned out okey, but now, im in the same boat since with this internship (im at an electrical company who gets hired by major production industries), you can get sent to different places to do different things whenever its needed.
Im trying to improve myself, stepping out of my comfort zone, and trying to just, get a better job and see if i can do it. But not knowing again where ill be and what ill be doing, i hate it so much. I've always wanted to know way before hand about stuff im about to do/need to do, so i can mentally prepare. This situation is once again giving me so much anxiety, and i dont know how long i can take this situation. I just wanna be at one place, where i can learn and get good at different things, and know what is expected of me.
Im just tired..I practice mindfulness meditation, i have learned to notice when im lost in thought, and it helps.. But im just sick of this stomach pain and anxiousness always arising whenever im about to do something that im not 100 % in control over. Im just so sick of it all.. I dont know how im gonna be able to sleep tonight, but yeah, if you got any words of advice or otherwise for me, i appreciate it. <3.. | aspergers |
I know that would actually be great but now that I have goals, am on my medication and take them the right way etc I am not obsessing anymore (except from today but I am not sure if it's Just ol regular anxiety for something New). My anxiety is low because of the meds and because I Just got out of a stressful situation that was messing with me but I now have an ERP session in 1,5 months and I have run out of ocd... I don't want to be turned down because it takes a shit ton of effort to get a free session like that and I don't want to wait for the day I don't sleep 2 days in a row again. My ocd episodes feel stretched out and shorter too. Today I literally started cleaning little things in the fridge Just to feel like I am ocd enough to get that erp and I Just stopped halfway because I wasn't even panicking. One of my old obsessions is that I am actually faking it and right now the risk of being told I am is worrying. I am already thinking about this since yesterday. However I manage to be so functional, yet burned out, that I think they will deny me service. They are a public service and there are a lot of people waiting and I am already so much better in days. Jesus. | OCD |
I'll think "this is really nice! I like this"
And my brain will respond with something like
"You just like it because you think you should like it"
Or
"Do you really like it, are you just imagining it?" | OCD |
Last November, my 8 yr old lost her puppy. He died suddenly one morning as she was getting ready to open his crate to walk him. She has been devastated ever since. She took absolutely excellent care of him. He was her baby. This pup sat with her while she did her school work, watched tv, playing video games, reading books, etc. He went wherever she went. She potty trained him, fed him, trained him how to sit, play fetch, etc. They were inseparable. I honestly have never seen a dog bond with a young child like that in my life. He was very special. My heart breaks for her. I can always feel the sadness coming from her and I comfort her as much as I can. We talk about him and it’s always about the fun things they did together. When she starts to get sad, I just hold her and tell her we will never forget him, that we’ll always love him and it’s ok to miss him and feel the things that come with it. That missing someone is just a part of loving them. I told her that sometimes we feel like we can’t stop the sadness, so we try to go over it, or under it, but the only way out of it is to get through it and we can do that together. My heart is heavy, so I thought writing this here may help me and maybe someone else in the process. Thank you to anyone who reads this <3 | ptsd |
I’ve been freaking out, I wash my hands probably at least 50 times a day because I have very bad health anxiety and OCD and am super paranoid of infections and getting sick and all of that. It may not sound like a lot, and I thought maybe the warmer weather would help my skin but it’s back to the point where I have pretty deep cuts in my fingers and my hands are so dry to the point where they feel like sandpaper and half of the day my hands are bleeding. I woke up this morning and my fingers were swollen and literally could not bend without me running them under warm water. They feel a little better now but I hate this so much and It’s gotten worse than this before but I’m so paranoid that these cuts in my hands are now going to get infected or something and that I’m going to die, I’m freaking out and have been putting aquafor on and a band aid over them so hopefully it helps to get rid of the cracks in my skin but has this ever happened to any one else? I just feel so alone and don’t know what to do because I cannot stop washing my hands, it’s literally after almost anything I touch whether it’s at work, somewhere in my house or even just going to the fridge for a glass of water. I’ll even be in bed trying to sleep and I’ll touch something or think something is on me and have to get up at like 2 am to wash my hands, I can’t get away from it. I feel like everything I touch is somehow contaminated and I’m going to die if I don’t clean my hands. I’ve been living with this for most of my life and I’m so sick of it it just keeps getting worse and worse. | OCD |
Hi, for years now I’ve had trouble focusing and end up being fixated on one thing (phone, video games, reading) for hours and then end up doing the things I need to last minute since the only way I work is under pressure.
Everyone I try to implement focusing strategies like putting away my phone, or taking breaks it never last long and my organising strategies end up being useless.
Any tips on how to maintain a certain level of focus since none of the strategies I’ve found so far have helped, Thanks! | ADHD |
I was looking to read a book where one if not the main character is on the ASD, I onky have read The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Night-Time. | aspergers |
[kind of an extra TW here because I'm describing waking up in certain positions and I don't know if that implies anything, I find it triggering but that could just be me. But I don't know so here's your long winded TW just in case]
If I wake up in any kind of distress, I always, without fail, wake up laying flat on my back, completely straight with my hands either by my sides or above my head, and my elbows and wrists hurt SO bad, and I just wanna say, what the fuck lol
This did not happen until after my most recent SA trauma, which is mostly blacked out so I have no idea what happened but I obviously find it super scary waking up like this because I'm scared I'm re-enacting. Maybe it's just my body deciding to be as tense as possible, it's just very weird because I always sleep on my side and wake up on my side if I haven't had a bad dream.
Does anyone relate??? I am tired of waking up like a poorly oiled robot | ptsd |
I just need some support from other people who have the same issues? How do you cope as an aspie with adhd? I can't stay focused on anything for more than a few seconds at a time. It's hurt my ability to even think because it's everywhere at the very center of where I look. And it's constantly in motion as it with delay follows the movements of my eye, making me dizzy and seasick.
Does anyone else have this? | aspergers |
Lately, I’ve kinda overcome my false memory OCD but I get this lingering anxiety from what I’d like to call residual anxiety from all of that. I don’t exactly know what’s triggering my anxiety, I currently don’t have any type of theme that’s making me ruminate for hours on end. Like every time in the morning I wake up I’m fine but then a couple of hours later I get a sense of uneasiness. I really don’t know where it’s from. And then I’ll think about possible things that could be triggering my anxiety but I just don’t know lol. Curious to know if any of you kind of have that. | OCD |
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