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How does anyone with ocd contamination of bodily fluids, be able to do anything sexually without fear or cleaning up afterwards? Did anyone in this situation overcome it with ERP or work a way around it? | OCD |
Like your brain tells you that you don't deserve any of it and if they knew your thoughts they would hate you | OCD |
Rough start to my morning with a friend sending me something he didn’t consider whether it would fucking trigger me or not and it’s pretty damn obvious it would. It was an accident, but the carelessness of it really pisses me off. It would’ve taken less than a second to realize this would be something upsetting to me in multiple ways but they just sent it anyway without even asking themself “I wonder if this would bother her”.
I told them seriously not to send me shit like this and they apologized but the fact that it happened at all and has subsequently ruined the start of my day, and possibly will drag on throughout it, pisses me off a lot. | ptsd |
I'm currently getting 2 scripts, a 20mg adderall xr and a 20 mg generic adderall. The idea being that the generic can be used after school at 2. I do know that 40 mg might be too much for me and i'm considering dropping it down to 10mg. But, thats based off the mental notes collected from my day one experiences that gave me a sleepless night.
But, i know that the xr lasts about 8 hours and the generic lasts about 4-5 hours. And i should avoid taking these any later than mid-day. Could i take the generic IR when i get up at 6, and take the XR at lunch so that it wears down around 10? (Assuming that the half life of the IR is going to add to the XR's length)
Would i just have to try it? Or is this a bad idea? | ADHD |
Hey y’all,
I’ve had OCD, ADHD, depression, and anxiety since I can remember. I have a four year degree in psychology (which greatly helped me overcome my “issues”) but I’m still stuck on something. I cannot let go of mean shit people have done to me. It’s on my mind and it’s on there constantly. When I wake up, when I go to bed, even in my fucking dreams. I can’t just let people be shitty to me (which is a double edged sword) and move on.
For example, after getting into law school one of my supposed best friends (who lives in the city I’d be going to along with my true best friend) has shown no excitement or any love for me coming to live near them (and it’s not because I’m a shitty friend or anything we’ve been friends since 4th grade). Whatever, not a big deal. But for some reason I cannot let go of the thought, even though other people (including my actual best friend) have been super psyched for me.
That’s just an example. I have a lot of other things I can’t let go of such as the abuse I endured back in my teenage years or the bullies I encountered or the shitty actions supposed “friends” have taken. These mean memories circle around my mind constantly. Has anyone been able to let go of them in a healthy way or to diminish them? They interfere with my positive relationships. Any help would be great, thanks! | OCD |
The past few months have been quite overwhelming but I've been coping okay. Recently though, things have been getting to me quite a bit. I already have anxiety which makes everything worse. I started a baking business from home and dad has been telling everyone he can to get the word out. It's been working and I'm appreciative. However, it's requiring me to associate with so many people and them telling me what to do while simultaneously asking me questions/ giving me suggestions and corrections on what to do and how to improve. This is all while having to my samplers and orders for people. I want to be able to organize that myself but instead I feel like I'm being pulled in all directions.
The thing that overwhelms me the most is talking to all these different people/ having these new experiences/ conversations replay in my head and feed into my anxiety. A part of my just wants to put everything on a halt and just work slowly on things from my side. I can't be around people who talk far too much. I can seem interested in the moment and it's just something that eats my brain up. Obviously when im with my friends and we talk a lot, I feel happier than ever. But a lot of people I can't handle so many of their new thoughts becoming a part of my mind. First of all it's a lot of information to process and then after I've left, my head tends to replay parts of the conversation and everything feels scattered and intense.
It sort of makes me feel mentally sensitive if that makes sense..
Does anyone feel the same way? How can so many people do it without becoming so stressed out? | ADHD |
I’d like someone to talk to, I’m just feeling pretty down at the moment | depression |
Here's an excellent post on a subject that many people with Pure OCD, real event OCD and false memory OCD misunderstand.
https://drmichaeljgreenberg.com/rumination-is-a-compulsion-not-an-obsession-and-that-means-you-have-to-stop/ | OCD |
ADHD rabbit holes X1000000
I’m used to the hyper focus,absolute requirement to learn everything I can about topic du jour. But I’m currently fighting myself with 3 different hyper focus and I can’t do them all at the same time 😂 so many tabs open, I had to separate my “research” on my phone, and the others on my iPad
Just in case you’re wondering: the history of the conjuring house (it recently went in the market and I came across an article. Now I must find out everyone that has ever lived in that house), a similar “haunted” house with less fanfare and only interests me because it has a black window, and the Duggars/IBLP. | ADHD |
I was diagnosed with ADHD by my doc. I went through about 3 different medications, methylphenidate, Adderall, and Zoloft as well to treat symptoms. They did nothing and in fact Adderall made me even more sleepy. So my doc gave me one more choice and that was to try Welbutrin. He said if this didn’t work out, he’ll send me to a psychiatrist. Welbutrin isn’t actually mainly used to treat ADHD but it was an option. My doctor is the coolest fucking person ever, he listens, cares, and thinks about my feelings and concerns which is amazing. So I tried Welbutrin and holy shit. My mind was calm, relaxed, and I was able to do my fucking schoolwork and focus on the teacher without going on Reddit!! Holy shit, this is so fucking great. Is this what it’s like? Also at one point I forgot to take my meds for two days and all of a sudden, my brain started receiving info and getting overloaded and I started crying. I don’t know how I used to live without this.
TLDR:Welbutrin is the shit. God bless modern medicine.
Edit: OMG THE SUPPORT AND LOVE FROM YALLLLL. I don’t want anyone to miss out so I will be replying to everyone!! I promise. I’m at work right now but I swear to god ill reply to everyone!! Thank you all for the stories, love, and support!! | ADHD |
Humans are the worst species to have ever lived, just full of stupid uncaring fake people who don't care about others and only use you until you're not needed anymore | depression |
hello, i want someone who can give me any advice, anything that can help me, pass through what im gonna tell you right now; im a high school student (18yo) who is suffering from major depression, and anxiety, i get axiety in almost everything all day, low mood, i cant figure out what i want, feeling my self...., actually my condition is getting worst with time it just ruind my hole life, more than 8-9 years, i just did get back to school cuz i did stopet going to it for the last 2 years, but my school didnt kick me off, im way too smart, but i dont know whats wrong with me, my life is just a big question that i cant answer it, i keep woorying about what people think about me, keep getting those unnecessary thoughts, and just keep remembring all my old problemes like it just did happened to me yesterday, i cant focus on class, sometimes i feel like im dumb and i know that im not, i dont want lose my life, cuz its not later for me, my antidepressant cant help me, i feel dizzy and like shit all the day long, i dont know, consistante anger, even when i control my self, and cool it down; nothing works lately i keep having a suicide toughts or thinking of those who they hurt me about killing them, i dont know what is my destiny looks like, btw my familly is falling apart alot of fights between my parents i feel lost i have no freinds nothing in my life. | depression |
I watch a lot of youtube and tv shows online, one show I like to watch is Great British Bake Off and on the channel site they have unskippable ads which is annoying but usually fine.
However, recently the UK government or the NHS made an advert to try encourage sensible behaviour during the outbreak. The advert shows footage inside of hospitals, breathing machines etc. and as someone who had a very traumatic experience in hospital it is quite triggering.
I've had the ad on youtube as well but you can skip them on youtube.
I don't know how to end this. I've been having a really difficult time and I can't tell if being locked up at home is helpful or hindering. | ptsd |
I have issues remembering to take all of my meds, except for my ADHD ones and ones I take right before I sleep. I have timer bottles for all my meds so I know how long it’s been since my last dose, and for some of my meds it’s been so long the bottle isn’t counting anymore. All the meds I’m on improve my life/functionality and the effects aren’t too bad in my opinion, so I can’t really understand why I’m not taking them, sometimes it’s not even the memory that’s the issue, I’ll look at a medication at the time I’m supposed to take it and my brain will just go “no” so I won’t. All of my medications are out where I see them, so it’s not an “out of sight out of mind” situation.
Does anyone have any tips? | ADHD |
Personally, I almost never play video games. Instead, I play video games & listen to a podcast. I don’t watch Youtube, but I will watch Youtube & eat/try to sleep. I don’t watch Netflix, but I will watch Netflix & browse my phone. I can’t do dishes, but I can do dishes & listen to Pandora (which is slightly more engaging than just listening to music).
What are some of your pairs? What activities are enough on their own? What activities do you wish could be accompanied by another? | ADHD |
I'll go first: inability to focus and lagging social skills, especially for those of us with Childhood PTSD (ptsd that developed from ages 0-4). | ptsd |
When I moved into my house 4 years ago, I knocked the light fixture in the ceiling and it has been left hanging that way for 4 years, that was until Tuesday! I was in the middle of doing some other tasks and got distracted and fixed the light within 5 mins, I'm happy I did it but I know I only did it because I was procrastinating from another task. | ADHD |
Just as the title says, i dissapointed my friend yet again. I was swearing to her that i will go to school and not skip it anymore but i just cant. I apologized so many times but never kept my promise. I totally understand why shes angry at me, i cant keep my word which doesnt really make me trust worthy. Tbh i have only her and i dont wanna lose that friendship. What do i do? Do i just promise once again well knowing that if i dont keep my promise i will lose even more in her eyes? Im just too tired of everything i wish i could dissapear or better yet never be born in the first płace | depression |
i just want someone to genuinely love me😭 why am I here if I’m just going to be sad & alone what’s the point ?!? | depression |
Every time I am handed a task, I try to do whatever I can to get it done but somehow I always make a mess out of the task or make some error in the middle of the task and ruin it by the time it reaches completion stages or even give up in between its progress. People say having a work ethic, a schedule, a plan may help regulate your attention and make you do better work but even despite organizing myself I end up making the same mistakes and tarnishing my progress.
My wardrobe, whenever I try to make it, by the time the clothes are ironed, folded and kept in their place, I end up so drained that it's just half done. The next time I visit the wardrobe, it's a proper mess , there's clothes here and there and it's just a general mess. It's a very small thing to organize but I can't even do that or even if I do manage to put everything in place, at my next visit, in deciding what to wear, I mess it up all over again, clothes falling out, crinkled, unwashed, Idek where to begin.
Simple things like brushing my teeth everyday is a task I'll sometimes forget even though it's a task I've done ever since I was a child and now I'm even an adult. I clean up the house and somehow always lose my belongings and I am just not prepared for finishing assignments or attending meetings on time, things which bear in mind, most people in this world manage in such a better way.
If I were to count on my fingers things that truly make me feel fulfilled or empowered in terms of work , there is barely anything that would possibly add feathers to my cap. It's sheer disorganization on my part and unfortunately in the fast paced world we live in, only a few people are aware of what I face with my ADHD.
Being on time is the worst, I guess I'm so time blind for an assignment due at 7 pm, I only begin by 6'30/45 and maybe until 6'59, I'm at that point where there are these ideas in my head on how I'd like to structure my essay but never end up writing more than two paragraphs for an assignment that was approximately expecting about 1000 words in total. If someone calls me for a meeting at a given time, I somehow always arrive a minimum of 5-10 minutes later than they had asked me to because it only hits me to get ready for that meeting close to the time they had asked me to come under neath my house.
I've got a driving licence since the past year and yet I make the same errors I may have as a driver who's only learning. Note that , these aren't fatal and obviously I've legally got the right to drive however I feel that there's a very serious loss of respect I get on the road, maybe I fall in that category of drivers who can't seem to react just as fast as everyone else on the road. Its as though things always strike me late. My parkings are slightly out of line, causing havoc for other drivers on the road, let's just say, I'm clumsy and delayed at reacting and at taking corrective action in case of something.
I really just wish I could get an answer to why I was made to be this way. Most people that look at me perceive me as someone who is just lazy, even after my ADHD meds , there's very minimal initiative I can take to make things happen. Sometimes , I wish to change this about myself but I know for a fact that changing so much is really not easy.
All of this just has me asking the following questions always with no answer really. Might help to get your opinions on the same.
* What do you do to empower yourself especially when the ADHD comes in between almost every task you do?
* Am I going to be this clumsy for the entirety of my life or will I ever have some feathers to my cap despite the ADHD?
* What can I do to optimize the effect of my ADHD medication?
* How can I better do a task and bring it to completion? Is there even an existing task that I can do and achieve that level of fulfillment that I've been chasing ?
Sorry for the rant, but if even one of you could relate to this, I want to know what you think . Please leave your views in the comments. | ADHD |
Hey i'm 16 years old and i have had intrusive thoughts about harming others, even loved ones, i know i would never do such a thing but the thoughts don't go away.
The first time i had it, it lasted for a few days and then went a away for a few days, and this is how it keeps going. The thoughts came back about two weeks ago, and this is the longest i've had it every day. I had anxiety attacks since i was 10, i then was in hospital for about a month where they got me the right medication, i then went back to school and i was mostly happy for 4 years. Then the thoughts came, i don't know how to get rid of it, i went to my doctor 4 days ago, he changed my antideprissants, he said i should give it about a week or 8 days. I don't really have a great sleep schedule either. I just want these thoughts to become powerless to me but i don't know how. | OCD |
I feel like such a terrible, lazy, and socially inept person.
I don’t care if anyone sees this or this doesn’t get attention but I really need to get this off my chest. This is something I have been struggling for a long time and I have been bottling it up so I feel like typing it. I(19M) have been struggling to adjust to society for a long time. When I was younger I had terrible social skills and communication which is still relevant today. When I was in school I will always have a teacher/helper beside me to keep me on task and this had gone from elementary to high school. I graduated from high school in 2020 but my high school graduation was meaningless since afterwards I had a meltdown since my mom missed me walking up the stage.
Now imma talk about my school life my school life for most of my life was terrible but I had trouble fitting in with other kids and making friends a and I often got bullied for being quirky and socially awkward. There were times where I would have good days but for the most part it was bad when it came to school. I’m also not like people in my age group because a lot of them are in clubs, have friends, start relationships, have bank accounts, jobs, go to parties, have sex, own apartment, and drive a car. Now I will try to get myself that but I feel like it will all overwhelm me in the nearby future.
I also still have trouble with eye contact and forming genuine conversations with people so I still take speech and I have to change the tone of my voice because I have a monotone voice. This 2020-2021 year I have done nothing but stay at home with my family who I barely interact with and I haven’t even applied for college. It upsets me because I was supposed to go to a big university but I end up missing all of my freshman year of college to do nothing.
I don’t have any friends irl so I tried to gain online friends and that didn’t help me at all and it did nothing but made me more depressed than ever. Mostly due to the fact that I couldn’t understand or click with them at all. They would mostly just nitpick and not talk to me at all. I will also have random thoughts of suicide every once in a while.
This is a problem I have had with myself as a whole and idk what to do to fix myself to become a better person in the future. | aspergers |
I really thought I had lost my mind. So got a psychiatric assessment done to check. Turns out I'm OK. We'll I'm not OK, I have CPTSD, diagnosis confirmed and long term therapy approved. But yeah, I'm feeling somewhat relived that I've not actually gone mad like I thought I might have. Good. | ptsd |
Hello, I’ve had a recent uptick in flashbacks and feeling waves of dread. One of my symptoms is freezing and becoming stiff. If I feel myself move like my neck twitch, I get even more anxious. Anybody else?
I’ve been trying to wiggle it out now. | ptsd |
Strong ideas grow and hunt my brain and it’s very difficult to control them and stop them… sometimes I feel like I’m loosing my mind… am I the only one? I don’t know if it’s ocd but I can’t be calm and fine with myself…. | OCD |
I’ve been feeling bored? Idk if that’s the right word. All I do is homework, hangout with friends, and play video games. I play D&D as well and I love it but I can’t do it very often because with need people to do it with. I love computers and building/working on them but that’s a very pricy hobby and I’m only 16 and a bit strapped for cash.
I also feel like I don’t have any hobbies where I can express myself creatively
Do you guys have any suggestions? I need something where I can be making something and be creative, preferably using my hands. I’ve tried art and drawing/painting it just doesn’t do it for me. And if you do have suggestions, how can I get started? | ADHD |
I'm writing this in a fit of rage and frustration so I apologize if this doesn't make sense.
I'm angry. I'm frustrated. I'm upset. I feel defeated.
I found out I had ADHD about a year ago in my second year of university. After failing several classes and nearly getting kicked out, this felt like a godsend. Unfortunately, my GP was against a formal diagnosis and decided to just prescribe me stimulants. I'm glad she gave me the stimulants because they have helped a ton but I'm still struggling.
I recently looked into getting academic accommodations from my university, but they require documentation. So I asked my GP for documentation and she emails me a prescription pad with a totally unprofessional scribbled note that reads "OP has ADD and needs a quiet exam environment" ...I ask her about getting diagnosed and she declines and says that it would "just complicate things."
I am now in search for a new GP, which should be fun considering there is a shortage in my city, At the same time I'm struggling in school barely holding on. I went to go pick up my stimulant prescription today and the pharmacy lost it. Oh yeah, did I mention that most psychologists in my area are by referral only? I understand that there are is a shortage of healthcare providers but it's just frustrating when you get a 5-minute phone call appointment and the person on the other end invalidates your struggles.
I see a therapist once a week, I see a tutor once a week. I keep a healthy diet. I sleep enough. I have support. I'm trying.
It just feels like I have to jump through so many hoops to get adequate mental health care. I could give up right now. And I recognize that not everyone who needs mental health care has the persistence to advocate for themselves. I'm just so upset. It's not fair that everything is harder for me to accomplish. I just want to level the playing field for myself, but it feels like that will never happen.
I just needed to go on a rant here and if anyone else feels the same way, just know that you're not alone, even though it might feel like it sometimes. | ADHD |
hi all,
so i got diagnosed with ptsd about a year ago. i was struggling with panic attacks, flashbacks, dissociation, beliefs about people etc and it was severely getting in the way of my happiness and relationships. i tried emdr and it sent me flailing into a dissociative and depressive episode. i felt horrible and confused and like there was no where to start and too much to cover.
but i recently began trauma therapy again with my therapist, and just in the last few months i’ve gotten tremendously better. i can handle almost all the things that triggered me before. i don’t get nightmares (as much) and im learning that some of my beliefs might be incorrect. not my fault, but not helpful either. i’ve only worked on one little section of my trauma but i feel much better and less tied down. i hope that gives whoever needs it inspiration to keep trying. even if it means quitting something that’s not working and trying something else or taking a break or doing self care or anything. much love to everyone here. | ptsd |
Depression has made me extremely lazy and not care about anything and I’m so embarrassed. I don’t even want to speak with my friends anymore I’m so embarrassed with myself. I don’t want to work because I’m so scared and anxious of everything but I need money. The last time I’ve been out of my bed was before middle school. I’m in a very unhealthy state with a family of neglectful enablers. I feel completely worthless and it‘s so hard to go on. | depression |
I'm on Concerta. Sadly with my disabilities I'm always slow, not following instructions as desired, and generally underperforming at my workplace. I started taking Concerta as it helps me actually work at a pace I won't get let go at, but still underperforming.
On a unrelated note I have noticed it's causing insomnia. I legit have started to not sleep whatsoever yet I want to pass out the hours I'm at work.
Any advice? | ADHD |
I got very sick at age 14 with autoimmune disease. It started off as a periodic fever of 105 every month and doctors shoved it off as viral. By the 3rd month my parents started waking up that we needed to look more into this and can't just take the doctors word. Eventually we found out I had a kidney disease (took a biposy to find since no imaging or lab tests showed something specific), but that wasn't related to my other symptoms, and to this day they still don't know the underlying autoimmune disease.As a teenager I had doctors tell me "nothings wrong with you you're just trying to cut school", meanwhile I was suffering with abdominal pain that had me bent in half, joint pain that didn't allow me to walk, fevers that made me feel extreme fatigue, etc. There was nothing more I wanted than to do normal teenager things (school, prom, heck - even detention) and I was stripped of all of that.
The doctors put me on blood pressure medication (despite me having low blood pressure) to help my kidneys work less hard. What they didn't tell me is once you're on blood pressure medication you have to be on it the rest of your life. And how I have extremely high blood pressure that doesn't completely respond to medication and has had me hospitalized many times. They don't know what's causing it.
Recently after the COVID vaccine I got a blind spot in one eye. Went to a retina specialist they told me nothing was wrong and that its just a floater. I saw some yellow/red on the little heat map diagram and he said "oh that's normal". I knew something was wrong but I tried to brush it off. After a few weeks it gets worse, I go to another retina specialist who tells me my optic nerve is swollen. He saw the little yellow/red on the initial picture and decided to take more images of different angles and that's how they found it. All it took was a tiny bit of care/effort - just one more image that takes 5 seconds to take - and this first doctor didn't do it.
Imagine I gave up after the first retina doctor and accepted his answer that it was a floater? Imagine I accepted the doctors that told me my autoimmune disease was viral or that I was just a kid trying to get out of going to school? I mean how on earth could I ever trust a doctor again?
**So my question is: How can I possibly gauge what's a physically manifested anxiety symptom that's really nothing and what's a real symptom?**
Ever since the vaccine my periods have been messed up too. Got my period morning of the vaccine, next one came a week late, next one came 3 weeks late (almost 4 weeks from the initial date). For the 3 weeks it was late I had horrible PMS/PMDD symptoms. Once it came, I felt a little emotional clarity. I restarted birth control because I needed to regulate myself, but I'm taking expired birth control as my narcissistic mother hides my medication (but that's a whole other issue). But even after it came I still have horrible cramps and I'm having a panic attack that something is very wrong. I don't have time to go to the doctor, I work full time + take summer classes which totals 15 hours a day during the week. (No, doing less is not an option right now).) This pain could very well be my intestines as I have problems with being "backed up", but given I'm emotional and this pain is similar to what I have experienced since before my period, I feel like it is related. I'm concerned even that maybe the COVID shot did something. Even if I did go to the doctor, how do I know they're not gonna shove me off when something is actually wrong? My
This is hell. Please if anyone has advice I'd greatly appreciate it. Thank you. | OCD |
It obviously isn’t special interests. Is personality code for social status things like your job or how you spend your day. When I have strong special interests the way I “spend my day” or stuff I “do” is secondary to whatever special interest I have. I guess when I’m between special interests I have more of a personality. Unfortunately I also get more OCD and anxiety symptoms, so I can’t have a personality for too long. | aspergers |
Why do I feel ashamed that I was raped? Does anyone else have these feelings? It wasn’t my fault..it was the other person who did something to me..so why the shame...? | ptsd |
I am 24 years old and I started taking ADHD medication 3 months ago. I have always experienced depression episodes all my life. I still experience these episodes since I’ve started taking my meds, so I’m wondering if it is related to ADHD. I am depressed for 1-3 months and happy for 1-2 months. I live in a country where it’s always dark so that might be a big factor.
Has anyone experienced this? And if so what has helped you improve your depression? | ADHD |
Does anyone else feel afraid to work and get really depressed because you want to become something in life but your mind is just too afraid or anxious? I don't know if this is normal or not but I'm about to graduate and have no idea what to do next because the thought of being in the workplace terrifies me and it kills me everyday to feel so useless. | depression |
I don’t get it. The sun is always way too bright for me, so I just end up covering my eyes the whole time. I’m also particularly sensitive to heat, so I have to go back inside much sooner as well. | aspergers |
i am diagnosed with ocd and i think i’ve had this fear before in the past with other themes. i’m 17f
i’m scared to read articles or watch tv shows or movies or play games because i fear there will be kids there and with some shows i’m scared because if they have problematic content it means i condone it. and if the show has a kid in it i can’t watch anymore episodes because i fear i’m watching it so i can be aroused by the kids.
i subscribed to disney plus so i could watch Loki and now i feel like my money has gone down the drain, i’m so scared to watch anything. if my parents are watching movies and i see a kid i don’t want to sit with them anymore. what the fuck do i do?
i can’t even read posts on things that i find interesting like history or things related to my faith because i get “bad vibes” from them and if i read them it’ll turn me into a p.
EDIT: by problematic stuff i mean shows like The Vampire Diaries, i’m afraid to watch it because im scared it’ll mean i condone the weird relationship between the mc and those vampire brothers. i tried watching one episode and then i couldn’t do it, it made me panic. | OCD |
I'm a coffee drinker but coffee has always made me sleepy. I'll be nodding off within minutes of finishing a cup. But, I'm addicted to the act of drinking coffee - the taste, the warmth. Do you have an experience with an alternative (besides the obvious decaf) that can provide the routine warmth and maybe even some cognitive benefits without the sleepy side effect? | ADHD |
I’ve known her for a month now, we met online and have been talking and ended up getting really close. I’m always a very pessimistic guy but that changed when I met her.
We were talking the other night and she was upset so I was doing my best to comfort her though a screen, she said she liked me a lot, and I have liked her for a week or two now.
We probably won’t end up dating… I live in North America and she lives in South America, and for 2 18 year olds, that’s a lot of distance. But I’m willing to put my all into seeing her.
She’s literally my dream girl. I always grew up thinking if I even ever found someone they probably wouldn’t be the prettiest… but holy damn was I wrong. She’s drop dead gorgeous and I honestly don’t know what she sees in me. She also really cares and if I ever even mention that I’m kinda down she will do everything in her power to cheer me up, and I try to do the same for her. For example today she was at work and felt sad so I assured her that she would be ok and that if she needed I’d be her shoulder go cry on. She sent me a picture of her so I complimented her on a few things. When she got off work I asked if her day got any better and she said that I made her day better which made my day.
I wish I could explain how happy I am. | aspergers |
I am so stressed right now.
There is a complicated documentation task I've been trying to figure out how to automate for years. It is something that only needs to be done intermittently, and I end up postponing it well past its deadline each time because I have not yet identified a system that makes it work so it does not feel like reinventing the wheel every time.
There's also a complicated documentation task that must be done several times daily, that I have semi-automated, but it is still clunky and takes way more time than it really should. I keep trying to make improvements to it because I end up falling behind on these as well.
When I try googling for ideas, or consulting with colleagues, I get nowhere, because they are not approaches that work with my brain.
It just makes me want to cry and give up.
Not really looking for any solutions. Just venting.
EDIT: Pro-tip -- Please do not DM somebody who is **freaked out while they are literally in the middle of trying to complete a set of tasks with a deadline** and try to offer them solutions, especially when said person stated in their post they are venting and not looking for solutions, and also flaired their post as being for empathy/support only! I don't care if you were "just trying to help." ARRGH!!
EDIT2: I see that some of those details are in my comment not my OP, so I'll copy that here:
>Also, I had some extra time today, so I put time into working on improving my system for the intermittent task. I finally got fed up and decided "eff-it."
>And then I remembered I had the entire week's worth of daily tasks that I still need to complete today. I am beyond stressed -- I am in that place where my body feels like it's buzzing and my teeth hurt. | ADHD |
I’ve been having intrusive thoughts since I was in 2nd grade, maybe before that, but I can’t remember. All I know for a fact is that I’ve definitely been having them since I was like 7-8 years old. I’m 15 now and am at the phase where a handful of my thoughts barely even bother me anymore because of how used to them I am. It’s just like “there goes another fucking thought”, the only ones that really effect me are ones that make me want to apologize to others because of how nasty the thoughts are, but other than that, even if the thoughts might gross or weird me out, I’m relatively unaffected in general, especially after studying into OCD. But I just wanna know what it’s like to be normal, I’ve always been a strange and quiet kid so I wanna know what it’s like to just feel like a normal one. | OCD |
I basically just wanted to see if anybody relates to my experience with it.
So, personally I'm totally fine with noise/visuals/feelings up until a very specific point. But as soon as the information goes beyond that point I suddenly start getting really intense sensory overload and I have to leave the situation for like at least 5-10 minutes to calm myself down.
It's kinda like the Pythagorus greedy cup. Like everything is fine and under control but as soon as it gets to be too much, its suddenly VERY not fine and not under control until I reset and get out of there. | ADHD |
I can recognize facial expressions, talk to people, DANCE, make out with girls, it’s great
But so addicting.. being normal is a drug for uz | aspergers |
I've always found flirting to be kind of childish and annoying. I don't mind it in moderation, but if it's done too much it gets annoying. Especially if they're the type of person who flirts by being mean. | aspergers |
i feel like i’ve gone from being stuck in a nightcore remix to being able to play piano. like i can breathe now.
i’ll admit i wasn’t sure this dx was right for me, but feeling myself literally slow down and just sit down and work on something feels so healing. is this how people without adhd feel?
i wouldn’t mind a little more energy but also the idea of being able to actually relax and sleep? so worth it | ADHD |
I'm not really sure what else to call them. I'll be doing fine, happy as can be for days, and then one day I'll just get up and just KNOW that today's the day I'm going to have a meltdown. Over what? Nothing! I don't know! I just feel so overwhelmed out of nowhere that I get cranky and sad and it eventually all boils over and I just cry and cry and cry and feel like I'm going to be broken forever.
And then, it'll stop. In the span of like...A day. That's it. And it happens maybe only once or twice a month but its a complete emotional breakdown. Is this an ADHD thing or something else completely? | ADHD |
The biggest surprise is that I _stim_. I know that everyone stims, apparently, I just never noticed myself doing it.
It’s pretty cold at my work at the moment, and I tend to draw my shoulders up, my hands into my sleeves and clap in front of myself. It’s almost like a greeting I do, or maybe I just happened to notice when my coworkers walked by and made eye contact.
Another big thing I noticed is that I’m not a confused or cluttered person. That’s how I tend to introduce myself.
I stood at the register today and after about 4 hours, I tracked down someone else down and asked them to _please_ take over for me. I felt overwhelmed, and it hit me like a train and stayed in my chest. We switched and the feeling _immediately_ went away! I was a bit all over the place, my mind feels cluttered and I have a hard time understanding what people are telling me. In turn, people also have a hard time understanding what I’m telling them.
It’s not _me_ who’s confused, cluttered and easily overwhelmed, it’s my _disorder_. This is the only time I’ve felt like this after I got meds, and it’s such a relieve to see how much they help me.
I’ve caught myself thinking a certain coworker hates me today. She doesn’t, she just gave me a bored expression ONCE. The rest of the day she’s smiled and giggled at me none stop. In a good way, not demeaning.
Right now I’m sitting somewhere hidden, taking an extra break. I’m not a lazy person, but it’s _exhausting_ to feel this way. All those times where I’ve desperately needed just another five minutes. It’s not poor work ethic! It’s not a bad habit. My brain has just worked double as hard today as my coworkers’.
I’m also far less social! But not because I have poor social skills.
A last thing is that, now that I have been on meds for a month, I’ve created new habits. Good habits! Today, I double checked if I had left anything behind. I took an extra second to think about what I was gonna say, rather than blurting out something weird or oversharing.
So, do I feel like shit today? Yeah. Does it feel good to know I’ll have my meds tomorrow? Fuck yeah.
I hope that this can be a reminder to some of you that it’s not you, and it’s not something you can just fix yourself. Other people tend to have that expectation for us and it’s not fair | ADHD |
Title. But does anyone get this? Or thoughts ruining something you enjoy? | OCD |
I started working at Amazon yesterday. I started out as part-time. I worked a 5 hour shift and it was intense. They first had us stacking boxes on a pallet. I really struggled with that part because all the boxes were different sizes and it was hard to find room for them all on the pallet. I also struggled with wrapping the pallet of boxes.
They kept showing me how to do it but I still couldn't do it right. Then they had me taking packages off the conveyor belt, scanning them, and then placing them on the proper pallet in the proper zone. This wasn't too bad, but there were other workers doing the same thing and we all were in each other's way. Not all of the zones were clearly marked so you had to walk around and figure out what pallet each package goes onto.
There are a lot of heavy packages and you have to carry them from the conveyor belt to the proper pallet while you have other people in your way and zones that are not clearly marked. With everybody wearing masks and the loud noise, it was hard to hear what the hiring ambassador was saying at times. By the end of my shift, my arms, legs, and back were sore and that was just my first day.
I could tell that this job was not for me. I went in with an open mind, but after I started training, I just wanted out of there. I even considered leaving during my 20 minute break, but I decided to stay and finish my shift. Amazon is not a place that you want to turn into a career or stay at for a long time. They are always advertising great pay and great benefits, yet they can't get people to stay for very long. Their turnover rate is high. Me quitting is no loss for them because they already have other workers lined up to replace me. I have a cousin who only worked there for 3 days and then he quit. It was hard on my body just working 5 hours, I don't know how anyone does it full time for 12 hours a day plus overtime. It is not worth the money to work there. | aspergers |
After 4 years of debilitating OCD and being suicidal over ever interacting with my trauma again I'm doing it today. I've never been so scared and I'm actually quite scared it will be too much for me but fuck OCD and fuck how it makes me feel.
I'm writing this crying because I'm so proud of myself for doing this and being so brave but equally I'm crying because I'm scared. 2 years ago I would've rather literally die, I don't know how today will go or if it will cure me but I've come this far and so can you.
I will update this as the biggest day of life moves forward | OCD |
I am going to try to reduce my story into something short but understandable. For a small summary about myself, I used to be morally good, Refrained from taking drugs, kept myself clean, haven't been in a serious relationship, attending college and taking care of myself etc. It all changed since my uncle died several months ago. I have been sleeping with men that I do not know, partaking in weed daily and LSD and other harder drugs, drinking every day and trying to have the motivation to get up or do something. It feels like I am not myself anymore, that I died with him because he raised me to be the character I am. I am him but another life. He created me to be the person I was. Without him, it is unbearable to live since I feel a big piece of be is ripped away. I have this pain in my chest, this intense regret, because I refused to speak to him. My actual father never had a good relationship with my uncle and my dad physically abused me since a little girl. He forced me to never speak to my uncle when they had a big fight about 5 years ago. So as a teenager, I had to listen to my dad and that distance made me grow anger towards my uncle with no apparent reason. My dad always made me hide in the bathroom if my uncle shows up to the house and did not want me to interact with him. My uncle took care of me when I was a child, showed me the movies that I love today, the music I listen to, the humor and outgoing personality I have. He was diagnosed with this rare cancer a year ago and was battling with this sickness. He was dying each day. I was afraid of calling him because of my father. Being 21, my father still tries to take control of my life, and still yells and physically abuses me. So I couldn't call my uncle, I did not want to make my father lash out. It was too late and my uncle died days later. I wish I had the courage to call him. After 5 years of ignoring him and removing him out of my life. I knew he loved me and waited for me. He had a picture of me beside his hospital bed, according to my grandma, and that has traumatized me. I consider my uncle as my father and he will always be. This regret is lingering in my soul every day and I always think about him. I feel like complete trash and it's so difficult to wake up happy. I don't know how I can move on from this. | depression |
Are there any fellow musician aspies out there.I suck at everything,however guitar was just so intuitive to me | aspergers |
can intrusive thoughts of sexual acts being performed to you lead you to feel a sensation in your genitals?
i have ocd, and i’m also a gay woman. i know with certainty that i genuinely want to have sex with women, and it’s taken me a while to realize it wasn’t the same with men, but i’ve also still have a tendency to question it
most of the time i do feel comfortable in my sexuality, however, sometimes i get these random thoughts in my mind about a sexual act that lead to a genital sensation (even though i would NEVER do something like that irl)
right now, i’m panicking because my mind keeps imagining this really weird sexual act being performed on me by a guy, and i keep feeling something down there?? even though i would NEVER let a man do something like that irl?????
it’s scary because it really feels like a response in my genitals when i have those thoughts, but the thought of doing any other sex act with a guy instantly makes me jolt back and doesn’t create a groinal response
i don’t know what to do and i’m scared, help? | OCD |
For me it is maleficent. Growing up I was happy for the most part. Then someone “stole my wings” it made me where I couldn’t trust anyone. I was so full of anger. A lot of people assumed (and probably still do) that I’m a b*tch. I would help anyone that I can. I love animals. I try to stay positive but I feel like sometimes my ptsd,ocd,anxiety hold me back. Also since I don’t tell many people in person I am looked at as mean just because I am usually quiet and keep to myself. | ptsd |
Been on it for about a month now, the first week or so was awesome. Had lots of energy got shit done (kinda… I at least had a good push to be motivated about it) but now… it just gives me dry mouth and major brain fog.
Anyone else experience this? I’m also super spacey and tired when I take it. I have an appointment with my psych next month but I just am curious if anyone else has experienced this.
I’ve tried adderall and Vyvanse before and had somewhat bad experiences with them. Like not eating, just sweating and being shaky.
I’ve yet to find anything that quiets my brain like everyone else says they experience. | ADHD |
I am 21 and have an ADHD and an ASD diagnosis. I am currently at uni and have been decreasing my medication doses over the last few months. I’m going home for Christmas in a few weeks and I know due to my decrease in medication I am going to have a shortened fuse to my sister who also suffers from ASD as well as pretty extreme sensory disorders. My sister becomes very aggressive and volatile when she gets frustrated and has often lashed out at me over the years (she’s now 17).
Usually I am fine with it as my medication has chilled me out enough for it to wash over me. However, that ‘buffer’ has now gone.
Should I increase my medication to be able to deal with the stress she will bring and to make the family Christmas go easier?
On an ethical level it seems ludicrous that I should increase my medication to cope with her behaviour, however I know she often cannot help it. However, on a practical level I feel it’s necessary for everyone to enjoy Christmas.
What do you guys think I should do? | ADHD |
I almost basically wiped out my savings because of this. I was so happy to have a decent savings and it’s almost gone because I can’t stop buying stuff as a reward for just… getting through the day. I’m having trouble coping as it is and now I just feel so stupid. I’m so lost, so defeated at everything and I’m going to suffer for another stupid decision.
I’m tired of feeling so alone and like I don’t have anyone to talk to so I end up with bad coping habits just to keep myself going. I don’t know what to do anymore. | depression |
I live in a third world country where the legal system is not strong enough to protect us from people from whom my father took debts. After his passing we are being harassed by the people and we have lost everything including our house which we used to live in. In a span of one week we lost everything including my father, our house, our savings everything.
My mother hasn't taken this too well and keeps contemplating suicide and this doesn't augur well for me. I am constantly depressed and a sense of doom / gloom keeps prevailing on me as if nothing I do will matter since the end result will be negative.
I can't handle the situation and feel like the only way out is to just end myself.
Please help what to do ? | depression |
Lately I have really, really been struggling with what I think is called real-event/false memory ocd. Everytime someone is nice to me, invites me to hang out, etc. I feel unbelievably horrible. I feel like I don't deserve other people's kindness, and I have this overwhelming urge to tell everyone all the horrible things I did when I was a kid. And truly, they were horrible. Even though they all happened years ago, these events play on a loop in my head from the moment I wake up, and I've spent the past few days just sobbing uncontrollably over how bad they were. I don't know how I am ever going to be able to handle having a significant other; I don't think I'll be able to stomach being with someone if they don't know everything I've done, but then again, I don't think anyone would want to be with me if they knew the things I've done. I just need someone to tell me that I can still be a good person now, even if I majorly fucked up in the past. | OCD |
Vyvanse used to help a lot many years ago but switched to Ritalin because of sleep issues, I quit 4 years ago but recently decided to start my medication again due to worsen symptoms.
I first wanted to give Vyvanse a try again since you only need to remember taking it once a day. We started with 30mg but I felt nothing, so she increased it by 60mg but yet again nothing, last one was 70mg but again I felt nothing.
Currently Ritalin is working but how can I all of the sudden almost be immune to Vyvanse? I stopped taking 60mg for two weeks before trying 70mg (I know it was really dumb and risky) because I thought it caused headache, but I later found out it was something else.
I literally felt almost nothing on 70mg with no tolerance, only anxiety in the evening. Im diagnosed with Inattentive ADHD so instead of hyperactive im always tired and unmotivated, but 70mg gave me no increased energy, motivation, didnt give me a functional reward system, chores didnt become easier to do or anything.
Im so confused about this and I take no other medications either, im much more active than before, avoided vitamin C, ate a lot of protein etc. What could be the cause for suddenly reacting so differently to the medication? Have you experienced something similar? Im very curious but atleast Ritalin still works (although not as good). | ADHD |
During our last parent teacher conference my son’s teacher hinted at my son maybe having ADHD. As soon as she mentioned it, the flood gates opened and a lot of issues we are having with him now make sense. He forgets a lot, gets hyper emotional then snaps out of it, has a hard time focusing on some things, etc. (side note, we called a specialist and we had our first appointment with him already).
I now think that the way I’ve been handling disciplining and raising him are so wrong. I’d like some advice on how to… parent.
For instance. When he does something wrong, Like horses around and spills a glass of milk. Normally I’d get mad at him for being careless. Is that something I shouldn’t do now? I know I should turn it into a learning experience, but what do I do the next time? Just reinforce the learning experience? Does that not teach him accountability?
When we eat dinner, he’ll often times get up and do something before he’s done eating. Then we correct him and he sits down and starts eating again. Do we just accept this as the new reality because that’s just what he does? Rinse and repeat, m Or is there a way to shape that behavior in a supportive way.
I’m 10% relieved that I think we have this diagnoses but I’m 90% terrified of scarring my son. He is such a great kid, I just want to help him the best I can. | ADHD |
When I experience something new in the normal life, I often tend to go back in time and reevaluate it with people I have seen years ago in my head.
Sometimes I relieve past experiences.
The problem is that I am not experiencing the presence and therefore living in the past.
At the end it is only a imagination and not true life.
It helped me as a coping mechanisms. But now it is an opstical and I can't turn it off.
I am also acting paranoid sometimes.
Any advice? | depression |
I don't have this particular OCD theme and I feel like I have to be educated. Is it rooted in homophobia a lot, fear of oppression or is it linked to worrying that you don't love your partner? | OCD |
Hello yall,
So I’m fighting with ocd for third year, I’m taking 20 mg of escitalopram, the CBT was kinda successful but I am still struggling with tones of intrusive thoughts.
Around a half year ago my psychiatrist recommended me risperidone but I wasn’t up for adding that medicine. Right now my ocd is hitting me hard, so maybe it is a good idea and I think that I’ll talk about that during my next appointment.
I wanna ask you: did you try antipsychotic drugs? Did they help you with intrusive thoughts? | OCD |
Recently my friend told me they have OCD and they have been more open about their problems and their intrusive thoughts about morality to me. But I'm worried about not knowing what to say or that I might say something insensitive to them. I can tell that they're worried that they're bothering me, but I want to be there for them and support them. And if they wants to talk to someone about their problems, I don't want to push them away.so what would be the best thing to say to them? | OCD |
I'm 13yo and felt like I've struggled with empathy in the past but people don't point it out as sympathy seems to be a pretty good substitute.
Whenever something is happening to one of my friends and they rant to me I feel like I can understand what they're going through more than other people and can be much more compassionate. | aspergers |
i cant focus on anything i cant focus my eyes i purposely triggered myself relapse is inevitable | depression |
I can't keep going on like this. I'll try and keep it short.
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I don't know where to go with my life. I can't focus in school. I recently moved, and I couldn't refill my meds for nearly the entirety of this past semester. I struggled tremendously. Forced to drop out of an important class, the rest of my grades not great either. Even in past semesters with meds, however, my performance is always well under what I know it could be, and I often have had to retake courses that should've been easy to pass in the first place.
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I'm just feeling particularly upset. I'm at something like a C average. It wasn't supposed to be like this. I got a 33 on my ACT. I've always tested well. I just can't for the life of me remember assignments or due dates or keep focused. I was always just 'lazy' and an 'underachiever'. I've tried sticking to a planner, and that doesn't work long term. The right meds sort of help, but not enough. I feel cheated. I have an intellect, but it doesn't work at all. I'm a ferrari with no clutch, broken gears, and bald tires. There's power, but none of it is getting to the road. And with none of it getting to the road, what's the point? If things don't improve, I'm not sure if I'll ever get advanced education past my bachelors due to my grades (assuming that isn't already a completely sailed ship), and I'm not sure how long it will take me to graduate. Even a mild deterioration would probably be enough to force me to drop out, leaving me with massive debt and no real opportunities.
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I've talked a bit with the university, and there are some nice people there, but they really don't seem to have the answers, and they're stuck in a bureaucratic system that minimizes the aid they can actually give. I've been to a therapist in the past, and it helped my anxiety tremendously, and my depression somewhat, but the add wasn't meaningfully affected.
As my username suggests, I've been listening to "on gp" by death grips a good bit recently. It's about where I'm at. I'd like to just die, but I can't bear to hurt those around me. I need a reason to keep living, but I need that reason to be stronger than just doing it to not hurt those who love me. I need to be able to perform highly. If I can't, I don't know what I'll do.
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Essentially, and TLDR, I'm at a breaking point. I need to improve my academic performance. If you've been through similar and have improved, what helped? | ADHD |
Pretty much what the title says. I’ll be graduating with my masters soon and looking for jobs and I’m wondering if anyone has any tips for managing ADHD when you work in a lab. Or if you work in a lab and just want to vent/ commiserate we can do that too. I really struggle with keeping consistent labels/ creating entirely different labeling systems for different sample sets that make it insanely confusing when I have to return to a sample set after a period of time. | ADHD |
I used to be a person with many hobbies. I used to read books , watch anime, read manga, write poetry and many more.
But now I don't find myself enjoying anything in fact I am scared now to even touch the books I once used to love like percy Jackson. Still I am on my phone all day watching reels or any yt video related to these things nad sometimes when I do watch anime or read manga I feel guilty. This has happened in my studies too the only subject I loved in my medical course was English and I used to study it a lot and now I don't even look at the book | depression |
I’ve loved music my whole life. I write full compositions in my head and play them and a few favorites from artists (especially a lot of Tom Waits) basically on repeat in my head nonstop through the day. I also went to a lot of noise and hardcore shows growing up - love me a good mosh.
But I rarely play recorded music out loud, and normally get quite agitated when I or others play it. I think it’s because I can’t focus on anything else when it’s on - can’t get work done, and can’t focus during social interaction.
Even alone, I rarely play it out loud - I’d rather just play it in my head so that it can blend naturally with my other thoughts, rather than drown them out.
Does anyone else have a similar relationship to music? | aspergers |
My main part of ocd is to intrusive thoughts. It will cling to unwanted memories in my past that hurt me really bad. So I have to re analyze everything deal or thing to get a conclusion or be at peace. Then it will start back up again and repeat every detail again. | OCD |
It all started a couple months in may of 2021 back when I had a gay dream and when I woke up I was constantly questioning my sexuality and that lasted for about three months until august when I confronted myself and imagined the worst thing ever which was at the time having sec with a man. After constantly running this thought in my head I realized there was nothing to be afraid of and soon got over those thoughts. Then in The beginning of august 2021 I contracted covid and I heard somewhere that people with high fevers may see some sort of hallucinations so thought I saw a hallucination so I hoped into a shower and tried to cool down and then the intrusive thoughts of gay sex came into mind and I felt like my mind was going to explode with how much I was thinking. I soon calmed down but then I started thinking what if I had schizophrenia instead of just a high fever. Then I searched up symptoms of having schizophrenia and soon started to wonder what if I had it so I was constantly checking whether I actually heard something or not or saw something. This was all in the span of a few days. I was constantly worried with the fact that what if I did have schizophrenia and what if I am going insane. Then today, august 10th, I had the intrusive thought of killing my mom but I would never want to kill my mom. I don’t know if this is ocd or what but this is the only subreddit I can think of that will maybe help me find some answers. Can someone please help me I have never been to a therapist although I plan too soon I just want to hear if anyone has gone through the same. | OCD |
Hey guys, I’m 15 years old who’s turning 16 this year, I was diagnosed with mild autism when I was 8 and I just feel like I’m some really weird kid because I have trouble maintaining close and superficial friendships, I have weird ass interests which stop me from relating with my schoolmates and I just feel like it’s all a waste of my time.
I believe that part of it is from my severe PMO addiction that I used to have since i was like 10 or 11. Sometimes I would just stare at porn for like 30-50 mins a day, I was super addicted because I had fetishes that originated from way back when I was super young. I also had severe depression back in seventh grade, because the pornography I used to watch was like hardcore bdsm, and I just felt extremely paranoid that my friends would eventually find out about my kink and then they’d just see me as weird and completely drop me.
To this day, I still reminisce about all the time I wasted watching porn and jacking off when I should’ve just let go, enjoy life and make memories with friends. But nooo, i fking let it mentally screw me up, and it delayed my mental and social development even further.
I also remember as a kid, I hated watching TV and movies because I believe i had a severe variant of ADHD which stopped me from knowing what happens in the plot, so I never really got into that either. I mainly watched internet horror mystery videos and fun facts about science on youtube.
The video games I grew up with were most multiplayer games like COD and niche/unknown ones, so I was sorta weird in that aspect because story-based games were never really my thing.
And finally, I literally suck at making friends. Part of it is because my interests are so strange that it would be shameful for me to open up to others about them, and I’m just somebody who’s not even witty.
Anyways, do I still have a shot at having a memorable life? Despite of all the pop culture I’ve missed out on and the memories with friends I failed to make? | aspergers |
I am a ghost, a hollow shell
Between two worlds
No heaven, no hell
I won't lie to ease your mind
I tell myself whatever helps me sleep at night
Nothing is as it seems
Monsters and demons are real
I've seen some terrible things
I have incredible nightmares when I sleep
I feel a little crazy
Just like I'm gonna drown
It's rising all around me
I'm anchored to the ground
Until I feel the thunder
Rage racing through my veins
Some kind of primal hunger
I'm fighting to contain | ptsd |
I am sitting here, trying to have a calm evening, but I can’t stop getting stuck at an NYE party from like 25 years ago. I don’t remember anything bad happening, but I am sitting here, heart pounding and nauseous, and I can hear music that was playing (Achy Breaky Heart. It was the 90s in Kentucky. What ya gonna do?)
I fee trapped and like I am going to be sick, but I don’t know why. Anyone have any experience with that? | ptsd |
Just got diagnosed a few months ago and getting on Adderall has been a game changer for me. One of the most valuable effects has been impulse control. It's like I have a bigger "rudder" to steer my thoughts through my emotions, rather than just being swept away by them throughout the day. I'm better at filtering my emotions and choose my words wisely throughout the day.
I read that you shouldn't take Adderall and alcohol together, and I haven't done that, but gone for a drink in the evening maybe once or twice a week long after the meds should have worn off. (I take my second dose at 1:30pm and try not to drink until after 7:30.) However, my wife and I have noticed that, since starting on meds, I'll have an occasional outburst in the evening where my emotional self regulation goes out the window briefly. This often leads to a fight that would have been pretty uncharacteristic for us in the past. Just last night, we pieced together that this happens more often when I've had a drink, and after doing some more research it sounds like that's a very real possibility. Basically when the meds wear off, my impulse control weakens and I have less control of my emotions than I would have had if I hadn't taken the meds at all due to normal withdrawal effects. Adding alcohol just further inhibits my judgement making abilities and I guess tips the scale enough that I can become an arsehole.
I'm bummed about this because I love whiskey. Not in a dependency way--I'll have one or two drinks, twice a week at most, and often go a week or two without. But nice whiskey has become a minor hobby for me, and a nice way to wind down and celebrate the end of a day, and I'm sad to possibly lose that. I'm going to go dry for a few weeks and see if we fight less often. Obviously I'd rather get along with my wife than have a drink, but it just sucks to potentially lose out on something in life that I enjoy. | ADHD |
I have been working at my company for 5 years now as a welder and I am reaching my breaking point.
I have been mulling over the idea of quitting for over a year now and am finally fed up enough to do it. I have done well and have managed to get two raises while here but am fed up with the workload and tired of the physical toll it is taking on my body.
I have been working 6 days a week, 10 hours a day now for months and was told to start doing 7 days a week recently. My body hurts everyday from this job and my knees and back are starting to have problems. Im only 30 but I feel like im 50. I need to quit this job for my physical and mental wellbeing.
Im calling in today because my knees hurt. I don't like doing this, it makes me feel guilty even though I've already worked 60 hours this week...
Im going to put my 2 weeks notice in tomorrow. My question is how do I tell my boss? Do I mention my frustration with the hours? Do I downplay/exaggerate/ignore the health issues? Do I complain at all or do I make something up for the sake of harmony and a good reference? | aspergers |
I think this is to avoid intrusive thoughts, but I'm not sure. The song changes, though, but some stay longer. Is so annoying when I'm studying trying to sleep, reading... Is there a way to stop this?!
^(not exactly 24/7, because we sleep, but you got the point) | OCD |
I gotta go do stuff today and my OCD has to do with riding in vehicles and i gotta ride in a vehicle today and it just makes me nervous. I feel the whole time im in the car that im gonna wreck or jerk the wheel or any number of bad things could happen. The whole thing just makes me a wreck. I guess i just wanted to vent. | OCD |
Im scared my depression is going to be as bad as last year. I have intrusive thoughts of ending it if it does. I just want to be happy again | depression |
Is anyone else here really proficient at charades? Whenever I play charades, it seems simple to guess what is being acted out, and I was wondering whether anyone else on the spectrum has experienced the same thing. I haven’t got a clue, but perhaps it has to do with our lives being similar to playing charades all day, trying to guess what another is feeling or doing? | aspergers |
These exist because when writing them or expressing themselves in words, one would enter the situation of "the letter of the law against the spirit of the law"
And this because neurotypicals understand this at an instinctive level, and follow these rules at a subconscious level in most cases, putting them in writing in most cases (NTs), would be an unnecessary and even dangerous complication, due to to what would be a situation in which it would be almost impossible to realize what is evident, it would be a case of "analyzing the obvious", which will make problems worse and allow people to self-justify in most cases
Or at least this is what I arrived at and what my father confirmed to me | aspergers |
Is it normal that I literally have no ability to read long books due to SEVERE lack of concentration? It's almost perfectly correlated, the more I read, the less I can keep reading.
It gets so bad that I start to get mentally distant and just kinda stop functioning (I think the word is catatonia?), and when I try to verbally recall what I read from memory, my speech comes out slured and broken, and my frontal lobe aches.
Is this normal for ADHD? It's really frustrating because when people ask me to read a book they found, I just have to straight up say "I can't read books, sorry" and it's really frustrating.
In my entire life I have finished 1 book on my own, but I've attempted probably around 40 or so. | ADHD |
So I was in an situation where I was younger where I saw my sister get hit in the head my my dad which brought her to the ground and then he proceeded to hit me really hard on the leg. I was maybe 10. I think it is so embedded in my mind because I was in the most shock I’ve ever been in in my life. I never thought it was possible for a parent to hit a child like that. It caused me to panic because I thought I was next and didn’t know what he was going to do to me. I think about this a lot. Not every day but every other day. I’m terrified of my father and distance myself from him and would lick the floor if he told me to because I’m that afraid of him. I cry a lot when I think about it and it’s a puzzle piece to the many reasons of my depression. I don’t have any nightmares about it or any panic attacks from it. Which makes me think it’s just a normal emotional scar and not PTSD. I just want to know because I don’t want to look like an idiot or dramatic to a therapist. | ptsd |
Hello, and thank you in advance for answering my question.
I found out yesterday I have a lot of symptoms of ADHD, and I told my family about it but they think that I am absolutely fine and I am just saying crap. So I wasn't able to get diagnosed. So is there is a way I could get confirmation if I have ADHD or not? Thank you | ADHD |
I blocked my ex today, it hurts to even call her my ex. We had our problems, it's probably for the better, anyway it doesn't make it any easier. Since the breakup, I have had the worst obsessions to check her Instagram a lot, checking to see if she's dating anyone and if she's okay. I unfollowed her but I only checked more. My therapist advised that I block her. The finality of it was too much for me, I kept checking but I did it today. I blocked her. Instead of obsessively googling whether I was doing something wrong or if I'm a horrible person for doing it, I sat with the feeling. It hurt, a lot, but it's the better thing for my mental health.
The relationship is over, It has been for a month now, It was time I tied all the knots and cut loose. I start medication tomorrow, I'm ready to start getting better. | OCD |
My obsessions tend to focus on God or romantic relationships. I’m married now, so the latter doesn’t happen as often any more. However, the former still likes to rear its ugly head from time to time. I was watching some videos by God is Grey and side tracked into one by Mr. Atheist. My symptoms haven’t been triggered in a long time, but I kicked over the anthill tonight. I should’ve known better, but here I am.
I’m scrambling to remember my coping skills and not let my symptoms get the better of me. My compulsion is usually repetitive prayer in response to doubt focused obsessions. It’s so frustrating! Every time I feel like it’s under control, it pops up again. Just please send prayers, good vibes, etc. my way. | OCD |
My mom described it like this: "for the first time the whole world is experiencing the uncertainty you've felt your whole life, so while they're panicing, you feel right at home in it all" and she couldnt have explained it better. While everyone was panicing I felt so calm cus while it was terrible, it also felt validating in an offhand way, like hey im not alone, and I have some certainty rn that im not just being ridiculous all the time, so i felt calm. | OCD |
My mind keeps racing and screaming, but I don't hear anything. It's like white noise filling up my head that ebbs and flows throughout the day
I can't focus on assignments because as soon as I feel like the static is going away it rushes back when I attempt to start working; something starts screaming.
It was like this yesterday as well with a lot of intrusive thoughts about stabbing myself, dying, etc. Waves of self-loathing come and go. I think it could be why I've been tired since it's so mentally taxing. I don't feel like this often, and usually it doesn't last so long. Does anyone else ever feel like this? I asked about it in r/anxiety but im not sure where it would belong more | depression |
I can't read a single book without it triggering my ocd/scrupulosity in some way, my depression is also causing me to not have motivation to read. however I like writing stories, it doesn't trigger me most of the time and im trying to write a novel. some friends ive had read my stories say my writing is nice so I feel pretty comfortable doing it. but it just feels like because I don't read books, I could never be an actual author. I don't think ive met a single author who avoids reading as much as I do, but I can't help it. apparently its frowned upon to do this by some writers as well, and is comparable to being the person who never listens but always runs their mouth. should I still be an author? what should I do about this? | OCD |
Hello there! I have nervous tics and ADHD, so I am about to start taking clonidine. Really curious if someone has taken those two at the same time. Due to the fact that clonidine acts as a sedative and mainly this is the most pronounced adverse effect, I was wondering if combining it with a stimulant such as methylphenidate will eliminate it. Does this tandem work in a positive synergetic way, or there is something more to it, which will not make them a good combo for tics and ADHD. Share your experience, please! | ADHD |
I’ve spent as long as I can remember trying to make my compulsions as undetectable as possible so other people wouldn’t notice them. I told a therapist I was seeing for a short amount of time this year that I was 100% certain I have this, she just breezed over it, and I told my boyfriend but I feel like a lot of people claim to have ocd and he doesn’t take me seriously. The compulsions and the thoughts that come with them are exhausting and emotionally draining and it makes me sad that I make myself feel this way but it really feels like if I don’t do something as simple as pressing the lock button on my key fob 3x and making it honk every time I get out of my car my boyfriend will cheat on me. Any coping strategies or can you just give me some knowledge? I don’t know if depression makes ocd worse but I feel like once I’m in a depressive episode the ocd gets worse or if I’m having too many thoughts and compulsions I start to feel horrible, it’s like the two go hand in hand | OCD |
Hello everyone, M 27yo here.
So, I visited a psychiatrist last saturday and told me he doesn't think I have ADHD because he knows ADHDers and I didn't get distracted by the bowl of candies on his centre table. Also because this time I took a notebook with me and a bunch of papers from the diagnosis I got last year, like, just to show it to him.
The problem is while I was there it's like my brain just "turned off" as I was listening to this guy, like, most of the things I had realised through this time (despite diagnosis I never understood the ADHD thing, went through an acceptance process since last month, right now I don't even know what to think anymore) were not there when I nedeed them; I mean that's why I took the notebook with me, basically because I had realised before that whenever I start talking about something I really don't know where to start and just spit things out, and I certainly didn't want this to happen with something "so important"; but this guy said my notebook was because I wanted to have everything under control and not to forget anything as I fear this.
He told me he suspects I may have OCD and anxiety so he prescribed Bupropion and Alprazolam. While he was "confirming" symptoms during the session I felt just OK with that, as I replied little to what he was saying, that's why I said my brain "turned off". The problem is during these days I have felt something strange, which is I feel like in a better mood generally speaking, sometimes I feel like I can "focus" more on what I'm doing, for example writing this right now would have taken hours, but still get distracted by others somehow and this is OK because I feel "normal", compared to how I had been feeling before attending an specialist again; BUT also, I feel like I couldn't really express things the way I had thought during the session, I mean, it has taken these days for me to settle down what was said there and to actually make a deep analysis about myself, even though I was sure I had already done that before... I really don't know what to think about all this and despite it's not something that doesn't allow me to sleep nor eat, I feel like it is something important and would like to read some comments.
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TL;DR. Struggling with the fact I feel like I was really not there during my visit to the psychiatrist, as I missed telling several things and "partially" spoke about others, got a pre diagnosis and I don't think I feel comfortable with it, also looking forward to reading some suggests/advices regarding similar experiences. | ADHD |
Do some people with ADHD (maybe some of you?) take their meds just when they need it on important days like exams or e.g. when they really have to get done many tasks? Or the other way around just not take it when a day seems to work out better? (Because I have better days and worse days, can't say why they're like that.) | ADHD |
I'm needing social support and am having to self advocate at this time in my recovery but feel like everything's too overwhelming and backwards. This time in my life is the hardest and most stressful it's ever been. I dont really have much support from family and given the situation im constantly lost between worlds. I accidentally overdosed on some stuff from people I didnt know and never told anyone. They switched my drink and I was incarcerated that same weekend. This was years ago and the last time I tried to get completley sober. Had been almost 2 weeks. Things changed after that and I've rarely told anyone I didnt trust deeply. This is the most prominent right now and the most influential trauma to my behavior and perspective on other people and the real world. Over the last few years ive slowly lost all my energy and made an embarrassment of myself trying to cope on my own. I'm terrified if I cant get clean and find someone or somewhere my mental health could deteriorate from the stress alone. Usually I'm alright and just rest and exercise but I have flashbacks that no one understands and no clear direction in life. I'm been working so hard at this all and need help for my mental health. I'm not breaking the law and I'm not bad. I have a closed head injury that's changed how I perceive and process emotion and information and some other mental issues but dont understand what everyone else is doing... is the only option groups? I often just need someone to talk to to help me calm down. Know theres programs out there but feel like they're too serious or I'm not welcome because I don't socialize very well. I feel like I'm swimming upstream all the time and this time around I'm not sure of I can keep doing this this way. Any suggestions? What helped you get back on track and learn to live life again? | ptsd |
What's your experiences ? Are the counselor you get matched to actually good ? | ptsd |
For a years I have issues of "obsessions" coming a going. At one point I was terrified I had a lower than average IQ, I would spend a few days researching IQ and trying to determine if I did. Then I would forget about it and something else would crop up. Like being afraid I would never stop being turned on a relationship and develop constant arousal problems. To the point it would become unpleasant and I'd be forever alone. This may be TMI but it would cause me to become overly conscious of my clit. Some of these stresses would be so intense I would throw up for weeks from the anxiety. Sometimes they would only last a day. I haven't been diagnosed with ocd and have only gone to therapy very briefly when I was 13. I am considering going now but I am scared to go because I am intense introvert and talking to someone one on one scares the shit out of me. Also my previous therapist experience wasn't good since they gave me religious advice. And I live in an extremely religious area. | OCD |
For the past 4 years, I've worked in a retail environment and I hate it. I train dogs and give advice for pet owners on food and care for other animals. Both of those things I really like, but the corporate "sell more things to people" pressure is getting to me. The pay is minimal for what I am expected to do and I am starting to feel the burnout creeping in. The disrespect of customers, the endless stream of humans I have to deal with, and the condescending attitude of my managers is all getting to me. ( As an added bonus, my store manager's spouse tried to trick and pressure me into sleeping with them. Since then, I've lost all respect and just try to stay to myself more and not even speak to them) but I'm tired all the time, irritated, even dealing with the dogs feels like a huge burden...
So I'd like to leave. As weird as it may seem, I'm thinking about getting a manual labor job. Like in a warehouse or something. I have some experience with machining and I liked it. I get a much greater satisfaction completing a task that has a tangible result. Like, yes, I did stack all the boxes. Mission accomplished. I'd just like to deal with humans less, also.
Does anyone have experience moving from retail to a labor job? Or how to deal with the guilt or fear of changing things? I'm terrified of my routine changing and it's holding me back. | aspergers |
I am not sure that I can go on any more. I have spent the past few days not leaving my bed or talking to anyone. I think about how I want to die, how I will do it, and what I need to do it as I go to sleep. I have what I need to finish myself. Not sure what is stopping me. I don't care if it hurts. Just want it over. I don't think about my family anymore. Just about how much of a disappointment I am. I really believe that everyone will be better off without the burden of me upon them. SO I guess I don't have any more excuses. I hate to make them sad. I just can't anymore, can't go on with what I have become..... I ruined what was good. I guess this is how I apologize. Maybe say goodbye. Just feel like I am falling down the pit of despair. Want the end of the fall | depression |
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