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Constantly act on impulse and make very risky dangerous decisions that I am always shameful about. I take time to become a so call better person such being around my family and kid, work out and minimize spending. Then after maybe weeks or a month of doing positive things and reinforcement, I go back to a very dark state. I need to stop because I only have so many chances. I came from very a sweet loving relationship 5 years ago that I sabotaged and now I have a handsome 2 years old in my most recent relationship that sadly is another failed relationship. we are co parenting with. My life seems always in a disarray and I am never happy. I feel stuck and lost
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ADHD
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I don’t even know what meds would help at this point. Grief brain is real. Adhd is too. I’m all over the place!
Last week we saw the loser who took our loved ones life. His mugshot has inuritated me for months. I can’t shake the feelings from him being smug… laughing… trying to deny the obvious (yes, I’m rational it’s our justice system)
Any grief flat out sucks, we know this! I’ve been having a hard time mentally since my loved one was murdered. How do you find any solace? I know I need to push on. I had a lot on my plate after the murder than 5 months later I’m getting back to “me” whoever that is now. Catching up on debts & chores.
I don’t know how to get back to work. I have so much anxiety/ptsd/flashbacks it’s debilitating most days. I was going through divorce and after the murder I found out he was cheating for years. On a good day I am mentally a warrior with all I have gone and been through but, I’m tired.
I travel here and there. It helps to be away snd un plug.
What did you get into? Did you start doing anything? I find it hard to make new friends as it was before this.
I just want to not depend on meds one day or even think of them. I’m hurting. Fiercely and my brains doing what it does.
I’m angry. Sad. Disappointed. Hurt. Shaken. Scared because my routine and stability is gone. Out of my mind with grief because it was so senseless.
I miss my loved one so so much. I hate the media. Who wakes up and thinks this will be life? I’m trying here! I’m usually upbeat and no one will bring me down. I think I’ve been through enough. Sadly it’s life. It is what it is. Life goes on.
Therapy, yes, I go to it.
I just want some solace and to find me. Eventually find out what I’ll do for work since we lost our family business. I’ve been stripped of me & everything…..
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ADHD
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Hello. I was diagnosed with ASD a few years ago. I am a middle-aged woman.
I was bullied as a child and was an oddity. I was bullied as a child and was the odd one out, but in the 80's psychiatry was not as advanced as it is today, so I came of age without knowing I had the disorder.I was able to study, so I went to a high-level school in my country and got a job in an okay company in a popular position.At that time I was confident and had many friends.
When the job started, everything changed. I could not listen to verbal instructions and could not grasp the whole picture of the job. I quickly lost my salary and began to be bullied at work.I resigned and started a small job that I could do alone. My income is low.
My former friends and colleagues are happily in love, traveling, getting married, having children, and buying houses.I stay at home and work all the time. For more than a decade, I have been almost a recluse.I have cut all ties with them because it makes me miserable to feel the difference between them and me.
I also stopped using social networking sites such as Facebook to keep my old friends out of my life as much as possible. However, they are very talented and often make outstanding achievements in their work, and sometimes information about them comes from unexpected places and scares me.
It's been like this for a long time now. Many people say that time heals all wounds, but I can't stop comparing my life to theirs, and I can't stop suffering.
The first thing I think about when I wake up is the fact that I don't have children, that my income is low, and that I was young when I envisioned a bright future without knowing that I was disabled.
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Is anyone else experiencing this condition?I would appreciate it if you could tell me if there is anything I can do.
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I'm sorry for my bad English.
Thank you for reading.
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aspergers
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I can't say I have ever understood the hype and popularity around celebrities, yeah they can be cool people and you may see their face everywhere but they are just human? Maybe it's just me that cant understand the running-after-and-screaming thing or when seeing a videos where people meet someone famous and they start crying, I just can't wrap my head around why people do these things.
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There have been numerous occasions in my life I been out drinking, meet some cool people and had a nice conversation with them, then later someone told me they are famous. (This is mostly Norwegian musicians of every kind, specially from metal bands)
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It seems I get into groups of famous people just because I see them like any other human, most of the time I don't even know who they are and I think it must feel like a nice break for people who get recognized everywhere they go.
So I wanted to ask what others think about celebrities and famous people in general.
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aspergers
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“Well why didn’t you think of that earlier”
“Didn’t you say you hated that”
“Why are you going back there now”
What is driving a person to reply this way when you only simply talk like a human being with needs and hopes to feel better. Are they frustrated, do they put their own needs above yours without any regard to how you feel and are they saying don’t bother me, leave me alone.
This happens all the time around these specific types of toxic family members. My friends and acquaintances aren’t like this and don’t talk in this way and especially when I hear them I do not address them this way. Is there a name for this? Is this not abuse?
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ptsd
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I am an undiagnosed aspie woman, (really, at this point I don't know what else it could be and it all makes sense now) with a male friend who is also very likely on the spectrum (not sure if he's aware, we've never talked about it). I seem to have crossed a boundary of his and now he has asked for a break from being friends.
Backstory: I developed a crush on him at work, due to our shared interests and similar temperaments. We decided work complicates things and settled on building a friendship instead. I also told him that while I was interested romantically, I was happy to just be friends if that is all he can give. I no longer work there, but we continued to talk via messages over the course of several months. He seemed to be getting more comfortable and open with me.
I really wanted to hang out in person because it is easier for me to talk about interests and day to day things without sending him a giant block of text. I asked him a couple of times, and each time he said he would like to but he always had a reason why he couldn't and never volunteered another time.
I suppose I asked him too many times because he finally snapped at me saying I put too much pressure on him and it's best we don't meet. I felt awful for making him uncomfortable and I apologized for that, and also told him I was not being pushy on purpose. He said everything was fine, but when I followed up a week later saying I still wanted to be friends he asked for a break.
Obviously I am going to respect his request for space, and I haven't reached out except for my reply saying thank you for letting me know and to take care. I am having a difficult time figuring out if this break means "hey I am overwhelmed with life stuff and you aren't helping, so let's take a break and have a reset and resume our friendship later," or if it means "leave me alone, this is final and I don't want to talk to you again." I thought about checking in to see how he is in a couple of months, but I'm not sure if I should.
He is a very dear person to me so I want to maintain our friendship if it's possible. I feel like I have done something wrong but I don't know what that could be. But this little blowup/fallout has me feeling so dreadful. It's like I am in hyper fix it mode, when the best thing is to probably do nothing. I feel better for venting. Advice and perspectives are welcome.
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aspergers
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hey guys i just wanted to ask help on how i can convince my parents that i might have adhd?? i don't mean to self-diagnose, but ive taken multiple online exams, as well as did my own research for over a year on whether on not i really do have adhd, and the results say i might have moderate-severe adhd. i'm an 18 yo woman with really conservative parents who constantly blame everything on my phone which is just <333 /s. they don't believe i might have adhd or any mental illnesses really, because in their eyes, im a diligent student who works hard to get good grades which is just false imo. plus, they won't even listen to me when i show them actual studies and evidence about all this because they don't want to believe me. all my life ive constantly suffered with attention problems, and having the motivation to continue projects i was really passionate about. even now, i still have problems passing projects, or even simple assignments on time, whether it was virtual or in face to face. i don't think i've even passed a single thing on time for the past two years :'). i've always been labelled as lazy and dumb multiple times growing up, which i honestly believed to be true until i discovered the possibility of me having adhd.
TL;DR - how to convince my parents that their daughter might have adhd, or if not, how do i get myself diagnosed without them knowing?
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ADHD
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So four years ago I went through depersonalisation and it lasted two solid years, because I have OCD I was convinced I was going crazy , two years every single day panick attacks, shaking, vomiting and fear. I ended up overcoming the depersonalisation.
But ever since I have had a strong fear of going crazy, I was just laying in bed two weeks ago and all of a sudden i had a massive panic attack over nothing and now every 5-10 seconds I feel as if I’m disappearing into my mind then coming back into the world, I also have images flashing in front of my mind but I can’t see what the images are?? The quick 1/4 flashes come with huge bouts of fear and anxiety!! I am going through a complete mental breakdown and am bed bound for the next 4 weeks till my medication starts to work,
Also it feels as if my brain is going 1 million miles a hour, any little thing around my my brain is reacting to with fear and auditory hallucinations, even when I’m resting, and my heart won’t stop pounding :( I genuinely feel like I’m going insaine. Any advice?
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ptsd
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I'm so sick of life. I don't know what to do anymore.
I'm not getting any mental health help. Everyone argues multiple times a day. We moved like 2 months ago so don't have a psychologist/councillor or anything like that and we don't have a social worker. I told my mum i need one but the gp is always full so i cant get a referral.
Mum's at work all day and i'm stuck with only my Father who i hate for 5 days a week and my whole family on weekends so i never get a break from him.. Most days i wake up to Him shouting at my sister or my sister shouting at him. He doesn't respect privacy, keeps going into my sisters room without knocking then refuses to leave so they shout even more. To my door he sometimes knocks but never waits and refuses to close my door or let me close it. It's infuriating and i don't want to interact with him.
Its hard finding a job here so My parents are talking about moving.. again.. We finally found an ok house and unpacked nearly everything and they are talking about moving. We might not move if they manage to find a job but idk..
I hate this. I hate my life. I'm just having one mental breakdown after another, one depressive episode after another, one urge after another.
We finally at least have a nice house and now I'm going to be stressing about this again.
With every argument i just want to either kill HIM or myself.
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depression
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When i find music that i really enjoy, i end up listening to it so much that it becomes boring, so i try to avoid listening to it as much as i can.
Does this happen to anyone else and what do you do to avoid this?
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aspergers
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I know a lot of us are probably struggling today whether we’re alone or with family.
My boyfriend of 6 years and I broke up last month and I don’t really have family. It just feels kinda lonely, especially today.
Hope you’re all okay. Wishing you a peaceful day
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ptsd
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Hi everyone, hope you're having a productive and chilled day.
I'm mainly writing this to get my thoughts in order - I forgot it was my girlfriend's uncle's funeral today. I wasn't supposed to go, but she mentioned the date a while ago and of course, it's escaped my mind. I've figured this is because I'm busy / stressed, and it's not immediately relevant to me, so my brain has decided it's not worth remembering. We've barely talked all day because of it, and it's brought up old wounds. Talking of times I've promised to get better at remembering things, and how all the instances like this makes her feel like we're going in circles. I put across that despite me forgetting things, she's in my mind constantly, and I love her and care for her, it just may not always come across this way. Then, she often says that doesn't change the outcome, and she's still hurt by it.
My head literally starts spinning and I'm so overwhelmed with all the emotions when it comes down to stuff like this, especially when I see the pain that I have inflicted on her, albeit because of something that's 90% out of my control (esp given I'm tired, stressed, busy). She can be very patient with me, but I've clearly become such a problem recently that that's worn thin.
This also brings up times I've lied - admittedly out of my own completely misguided view that I'm doing it so as not to hurt her, or to not cause trouble - something that seems to be ingrained in me from being a kid. Yes, I was that child that lied, lied, and lied until I'd dug myself a hole I couldn't get out of, and then the truth came flooding out, and everything was 10x worse. I hate that conflict still, but I'm much better at dealing with it. This, however, has now meant that all my apologies seem hollow and I seem untrustworthy, and it makes me seem like I'm not trying to better the relationship because I don't care, which is so far from the truth. I am truly, genuinely trying my hardest to be a good boyfriend.
I keep thinking that no matter what I do, I'm ultimately going to live and die alone because nobody will have the patience to be around me for any extended period of time. And I get the joy of watching it all unravel whilst I'm so overwhelmed that I can't speak, and so disorganised I can't change what I want to change.
Sorry this is so long. Just trying to make sense of the vegetable soup which is my brain, and maybe get some insights or ways to help sort this out.
Cheers guys
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Hi, I just want to start out by saying that I'm not trying to belittle anyones experiences here with my own mild problems, I guess I'm just looking for support because I'm having a really bad day.
I find it embarassing that such 'small' stuff from 5+ years ago still affects me so much, and I was getting over it for a bit, but in the pandemic my mental health has worsened and I'm thinking about this stuff again, still trying to understand it all.
What happened to me is that I had a series of very humiliating and shame-inducing events, infront of my whole school, due to being overly opinionated and a bit of a loudmouth at the time. I became quite ostracised as people were looking at me differently, teachers weren't as supportive of my studies, and then as the shame built up I became quite depressed. Turns out my parents love is very conditional and as I wasn't doing well in school they became verbally abusive towards me that year too, with hour long shouting matches most days for the next few years. In this time none my best friends who I loved like family really made an effort to check up on me or even hangout during this worst time of my life, so I felt very betrayed by them too. All in all, I went from feeling on top of the world and a very popular young man to completely alone very quickly, became a shut in with broken confidence and things didn't start looking up for me for many years after this all.
I never had flashbacks, but immediately after I would feel a rush of coritsol run through my body whenever I had a reminder of my first humilating event or had to go into an assembly (where it took place). I feel like I've experienced many of the symptoms of trauma/PTSD, if but a milder version than most people who have PTSD, and I always find it really hard to talk about these things or feel like people believe me that these things have affected me so deeply, hurtfully and profoundly, partly because embarassing yourself isn't normally what people would associate with trauma. I find it hard to have my experiences validated.
I still struggle with relationships, and regret everything that happened and think about it a lot, particularly when I'm down.
I don't know where I'm going with this post, I guess I'm just wondering if my experiences are a joke? Does anyone have any similar experiences? Any advice or kind words? 😅
It's a real shame, I was making such amazing progress and finally feeling *alive* again early last year, but a pandemic has undone a lot of great progress :/ My brain factually knows my future can and will be bright, but doesn't believe it at the same time. It's so hard to get through these times... Again.
Disclaimer; as per the rules I guess I'm not asking if this sounds like PTSD consider it just a thought-provoking title, treat this as venting and looking for kind words.
edit; I can't believe I got a downvote on a support community
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ptsd
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It's been 7 years of treatment. The last year of getting an ADHD diagnosis after tons of my own research, observation, and nothing working, not therapy, antidepressants, bipolar meds etc.
Well, I was too honest with my NEW therapist about how much anxiety and depression I have, often over not functioning at a basic level. And he's decided to give me anxiety meds and sleeping meds and said I'm being stubborn, trying to tell him what the problem is when my memory issues are caused by extreme stress. I have pmdd as well so, at this appontment I was agitated. Because of a hormonal condition.
I'm about to lose my job for forgetting and losing things
And I'm about ready to yeet myself off the earth because everyone constantly judges me, puts me down, and I've been trying to hard to meditate, not drinking alcohol, being so good, and this is my reward
I hope I die. Existence is pain for me
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ADHD
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Have you ever felt that feeling of extreme loneliness, like you don't have any friends when you in reality have? The feeling you are not really close friends with anyone? It's so frustrating. I have friendships with NT people that could be closer but they aren't. I even identify with some of their things. We seem to be friends, we do some activities together, hang out and such, but I don't know, I never know what's their news or when I know it's late, for a close friend (at least I see it that way). I know everyone have the right to privacy, nor do I intend gossip or something like that. So much so that I don't ask people if that "friend" is really a friend or is some sexual partner. It's more that I need to have more contact with people that say I'm their friend. Talking regularly with them, even if only by text, I don't like talking to the phone, but both sided (I don't want a friendship where it's only me telling my issues with others. You can talk to me about your new sex partner or boyfriend or ex or wtv I give good advice and don't tell anyone about your secret). A NT friend once told me that she talks to me about some things and with another friend other subjects. I found that a little offensive, I thought she doesn't think I can understand these things. I talk to her a lot about autism and my troubles being autistic! By this logic, I would only talk about autism with other autistics. Friendships with other autistics, even online, are less frustrating, we open up to each other about everything... I'm feeling super depressed today because of that.
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aspergers
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Y’all ever put stuff in a drawer or cupboard and forget it exists? I recently learnt a new single player card game I would play every day and the other day I was cleaning and put it in my drawer. Haven’t touched it since. Same with hair ties and basically anything else that isn’t essential.
How do you guys get around this without having an insanely messy desk cause you don’t wanna put things away.
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ADHD
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It's so frustrating, all day I tried to do only one thing and that was watch the lesson I had on Sunday. No matter how much I tried every three minutes my brain started thinking of something else and I couldn’t finish even half an hour of the lecture.
It's so frustrating to me that I want to scream, I'm behind in school and it's scary me to fail a course but how the hell am I supposed to do that when my mind is not listening to me.
Sorry if this post is unnecessary I wanted to talk about it somewhere lol.
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ADHD
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I'm undiagnosed and been preparing myself to talk to someone about intrusive thoughts and compulsions and hopefully go see a doctor or something
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OCD
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Hey just wanted to share a helpful tip for those having intrusive thoughts. Try to think of a cartoon character whenever you have these thoughts. For example, my ocd tries to tell my I’m a certain thing so I started to imagine Patrick star and his voice telling me that. I usually end up laughing because it sounds so ridiculous when I imagine his voice. The battle of logic is never going to be in your favor when arguing with ocd, so hearing it come out of Patrick’s voice helps me win this battle I guess. I hope this somehow helped, hang in there (:
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OCD
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I don’t necessarily hate them or anything. Just any form of media that includes someone crying causes me extreme discomfort.
This can range from comics and fanart to even just reading about a character in a book crying.
I’m not sure if it’s because I have an urge to help them or that if it just annoys me.
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aspergers
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I strongly suspect that I might have ADHD.
I had written a long post explaining *why* I thought that I had ADHD, but it was becoming a wall of text.
To put a long story short, I've seen 2 psychiatrists. The first diagnosed me as bipolar, and the second that that it was ridiculous that I was ever diagnosed as bipolar and changed it to "depression *with mixed features.*"
I avoided saying anything about ADHD to both of them (I did get the second one to give me a QB test me for it though, but he dismissed the results as mixed.)
I didn't press the issue because I wanted to trust their conclusions. I don't really care what I have as long as long as I'm working to "fix" it (or at least manage it and not feel like garbage).
I don't trust self diagnosis, I know how damaging it can be to people who actually suffer from a condition. People with OCD come to mind and how much they've struggled to be taken seriously. I didn't want to contribute to that with ADHD.
In the end, I don't really feel like I was helped by either psychiatrist, and I dreaded seeing the second one so much that I eventually cancelled an appointment and never scheduled a new one.
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Since then I've seen so many memes, posts and YouTube videos from people with ADHD talking about their experiences, and it hurts how much I can relate to them. It hurts because I realize how much treatment might have helped me when I was a kid and knowing that I still probably need treatment.
People online have suggested seeking out a specialist, someone who specializes in ADHD treatment. I don't know how to feel about it. Going out of my way to find someone to diagnose me with ADHD just feels like another version of self diagnosis.
I had a family member who used to brag that she went to multiple therapists until she found one who agreed with her. And she'd talk about it like it was a good thing. She had some really toxic behaviors but she managed to blame everyone around her, and often said her therapist agreed with her.
I don't want to be like that. I want to trust my doctor, and I want to understand that they'll have knowledge about things that I don't.
I don't really care what I have as long as I'm working to "fix" or manage it.
I don't know what to do. I need to start seeing a psychiatrist again, and I should start therapy as well.
Should I seek out someone who specializes in ADHD treatment? That feels *wrong* to me. But I also don't look forward to another psychiatrist focused on treating my depression and ignoring what I think is *causing* my depression.
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ADHD
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If I could just wake up, and brush my teeth, and take a shower, without front loading dopamine and spending hours on YouTube, that'd be nice.
If I could make myself go to class consistently, or work, that'd be pretty cool of me. Or show up on time, that'd be good too. You don't get yelled at or humiliated as much.
If I could make myself talk to people, and stop isolating for years and years, that'd be great. I mean, COVID hasn't helped but I don't even leave the house really and I've been this way since 2018.
If I could work out, and get physically fit, I'm sure I'd feel so much better about myself and feel healthier. For that matter, it'd be so cool to be able to go to sleep without forcing myself to stay awake until I'm absolutely dead tired.
I don't know why I can't. But I know I can't. It's miserable.
I get on prescriptions and forget to take them, then get yelled at by the doctors and they take my medicine away. Or they prescribe me anti depressants that do absolutely nothing (for me!! not saying all antidepressants are bad) and act like I'm the bad guy for not getting better. No, fucking treat my ADHD that I've had since I was in preschool, and have a history of successful treatment for.
Mental healthcare in the US is so god damn awful. And when you live with people who scream at you to "get better," it feels so much more impossible. Or when you don't have insurance.
I seriously don't know how much longer I can go on like this. It's not even the failure that bugs me really, I've gotten over that so many times. It's just... So lonely. It hurts.
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ADHD
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After having a health scare I am continuing to itch perfectly normal skin and stretch my neck and shoulder, to the point that it’s maybe starting to become an issue. I am worried that I am disturbing the skin by compulsively itching and making my neck and shoulders sore by continuously stretching. Is this something anyone has experienced?
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OCD
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i cant take this anymroe, i feel a lot of guilt and i need to talk to my friend about it, is there any way to stop it?
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OCD
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My friend is suffering from PTSD from an accident that happened 10 years ago, about a week ago, he had a really bad flashback and he hasn't been able to talk since.
He physically CAN talk, but everytime he does, it causes him to feel light-headed, pale, sick and when he forced himself to talk he had a really bad panic attack and another flashback
Had anyone ever gone through this? :(, it's hard for him to get professional help due to a lot of circumstances.
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ptsd
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Writing this wasn’t easy and posting it was even harder, so thanks in advance for sticking with me until the end.
Everyone that knows me knows that I keep my friends list short, both virtually and in real life. Those who are on the list are an eclectic bunch of “good people” whom I have been drawn to for varying reasons. You all have known me at different times in my life and most likely know a different “me” than I ever did.
Most of you are aware that I have lived in a world without smell since birth. Some, but definitely fewer, are aware of my better than average eyesight and my keen sense of hearing. A few of you have at least a minimal understanding of the rules and routines that I live by and my ability to break things down and put them back together – both mentally and physically. Even fewer still are aware that I have always considered myself a chameleon – observing a situation and mirroring behaviors to blend in (you may have seen this in action if you sat beside me in my call center days, when after a few words I mirrored the accent of the caller without even realizing it, or in my more social days, where my circle of friends all seemed to be from different cliques).
What next to no one knew until now was that I pretended a lot.
\- I pretended to smell (flowers good, farts bad) until my early twenties. This allowed me to avoid the disbelief, the conversation about taste, and, most importantly, the jokes about the lack of smell compared to the size of my nose.
\- I pretended that my hypersensitivity to light and sound didn’t exist. This eventually allowed me to learn how to block out one or the other so that I could limit the negative reactions, stares, and often physical consequences of my early sensory meltdowns.
\- I pretended (in public) the rules and routines that I lived by didn’t exist and put my ability to break things down to use by troubleshooting and explaining highly technical things to non-technical people.
\- I pretended that my chameleon ways were not me putting on a mask but rather a result of an ability to understand human behavior and adapt to social situations when quite literally the opposite was true. I am only truly comfortable in social situations when I am well prepared and have expertise in the subject and even then, often need to retreat to solitude to recharge.
My entire life I knew that my brain worked differently than most, but only discovered this “pretending” when I was left to raise a four-year-old on my own. I quickly started piecing together that her brain worked differently too. I decided to stop pretending at home and be the person I needed as a child. I tried my best to teach her how to use the strengths that come along with that brain to successfully navigate the neurotypical world. I attempted to teach her how to overcome her hypersensitivity to touch and sound using systems that work for me, to focus on the work so that she could speak from the comfortable place of expertise, and to know that home is a place of refuge where the real you can thrive (even though this wasn’t true for me until much later in life).
Through this she learned to be herself in ways that I never could but still lived with the constant anxiety of knowing that she was not normal and that a sensory meltdown could be triggered by the smallest input. This led us to therapy (something younger me never believed in), which led us to be sent to an OCD specialist because her rules and routines were misunderstood, which led that specialist to confirm it wasn’t OCD, which led to the suggestion that we meet with someone from Alternative Behavior Strategies. Little did I know the impact that this meeting would have on our lives. It was this recommendation that eventually led to understanding a key piece of information – why our brains worked the way they do.
It amazes me that it took only a few minutes of conversation with the right specialist to suggest a few hours of testing to finally understand the why that eluded me for 39 years of my life and 15 years of hers. Time to rip the band aid off and lay it all out there – both my best girl and I are Aspies (people with Asperger’s). Since technically only one autism diagnosis still exists, we have Autism Spectrum Disorder, but I don’t see it as a disorder, and neither should you.
Writing this wasn’t easy and posting it was even harder – I don’t want the diagnosis to be among the first adjectives associated with either of us – but I hope that by doing so I raise the level of awareness in my small circle of friends. I hope this newfound awareness leads at least some of you to seek to understand what it means to embrace and support someone with a neurological difference. I hope that one day at least one of you that do will be in a situation where you can use that understanding to provide support and acceptance to the “weird” kid, and maybe just maybe help them to understand earlier than I did that they don’t have to pretend to be normal. Feel free to use me as an example of that guy you once knew – feel free to send them my contact information if you still have it.
Sincerely,
The me you never knew
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aspergers
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its great when the Ritalin is in my system, I am actually functioning semi normally for the first time in years, but once the Ritalin runs its course, I'm exhausted and I don't want to do anything. Its annoying because its done around 4pm and there are still things that need to be done. but nooooo, my brain is just *too* tired to focus anymore. I picture my brain flopping on the floor dramatically like my cat does when he wants me to carry him because jumping over a baby gate is just *too* hard
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ADHD
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Share your experiences! How do you feel about working in mental health and being autistic? For those who were diagnosed later, how did it impact on your job?
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aspergers
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I have everything: I am in med school, I have a family that loves me, friends who care for me, I am good at skiing and ballet, I dont have to worry about money, I am (physically)healthy, I have literally no problems. Then why do I feel so lonely and sad all the time ? For others my life is perfect. Why am I just not happy ???
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depression
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I was just reflecting on my own struggles growing up and how I have such a warped self-perspective now (29yr old). I read a post on here about US work culture and how it perpetually punishes ADHD/other neuro diverse people. There were also comments about how our school system is structured to prepare us for the expectation of the real world and all of its ridiculous fuckery. When I was in school, I remember trying to express how I felt (I struggled with going to bed at night, getting up in the morning, being on time among other issues with focus and attention that left me isolated). And it was just met with being made to feel less than, like I’m ridiculous, that this is normal, or just frustration and anger which just made me even more angry and frustrated. and my brain would go racing and I became my own worst enemy and I stopped trying and shut down. But with the example of school preparing us for work, some things are pretty well in comparison, but others have a distinct contrast. Such as work shifts: like if there was an option for a later school start, like there are in the work place, we would be set. I know I would’ve been way happier and better off Instead of being ravaged by both ADHD and depression. Idk it just sucks and I feel bad for kids like me that might be going through some similar problems.
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ADHD
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Work is causing me a lot of stress. Part of it a very heavy load that would stress anyone out. There are deadlines no one can meet, including me. But I’m thinking about it a lot of it - my stress has to do with social perceptions of myself. And trying to compare myself to the average.
For example am I good at my job? I don’t know. I wouldn’t say I have accomplished anything yet but it’s not an easy job either and other people have had problems with it. Does my boss and coworkers think I am good at it? Again, I don’t know. Just because I haven’t been fired yet doesn’t mean approval. Compliments are rare are likely self serving for the coworker giving them (no one wants to help with my job so of course they aren’t going to criticize. Also if they were involved in hiring me they may be hesitant to criticize)
Part of this is am I motivated enough? What is average motivation ? Lately my motivation has been poor because it’s hard to sustain for months when you aren’t accomplishing anything How much overtime is expected to prove I am a hard worker ? - this is never explicitly stated, it is a silent expectation like so many things in the workplace.
I feel like I don’t take on enough responsibility. This is why I work extra hours even though I hate how it invades my life. But if I take off time
I feel guilty and irresponsible like I don’t take my job seriously
I can’t handle it. I feel so alien to anyone I work with and I assume they have a negative or uninformed opinion of me. It doesn’t help some are better educated and I have to interact with people much more highly educated than me. I feel responsible and yet worry people think I’m unresponsible because I can’t meet unreasonable requirements and want a work/life balance. I feel panic and unmotivated at the same time
And the worst thing is there is no one to discuss this problem with - especially at work. I have to wear a mask constantly and it’s killing me. I can’t afford to lose my job but feel on the verge of a breakdown.
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aspergers
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Im lonely, empty. It’s so hard to describe this feeling im having rn. I don’t feel like doing anything. I just have that sense of hopelessness for no reason. Staring into blank space is the mood
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depression
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I’ve just recently gotten over my driving fear, thanks to therapy and a dash cam. Now I have to worry about this. I went to school back in 2015 didn’t finish but now I am going back to school. I was just talking to my husband and we started talking about it. Now, I know I have not plagiarized in the past, I don’t think I have I mean but what if I did? I am freaking out. Now I am scared I did plagiarize. What if this ruins everything? I know I didn’t but what if I did? Ugh this is so frustrating, I literally wasn’t worried about this an hour ago.
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OCD
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I feel like I've been a procrastinator all my life but now that I'm so depressed that I'm barely functional I feel like it's become "I'll start living life again later."
Sometimes in the evening now that days are short I take a comfort in the darkness outside and sulk back into bed after being out of it for way less time than I should be and I'll just lie there and let it wash over me, I worry at the moment that this is my greatest comfort and the best I feel, darkness outside and complete wallowing in my depression.
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depression
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i hate you so much it hurts, why tf did you change? why don’t you talk to your old friends? why do i need to get the blame for your actions you stupid jerk. i can’t take this anymore i can’t take the pain. i already get blamed for moms actions now i have yours too. i hate you.
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depression
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Hi, my name is Sarah!
Since I use public transport on a daily basis I started to wonder how I should react if someone is having an anxiety/panic attack on the bus, the train or any other public transport. Making a wrong decision could make everything worse and I’m trying to avoid that. Since I‘m no expert on how these attacks feel I wanted to ask you guys: how would you want people to help or treat you should you get a panic/anxiety attack?
Thank you for all your answers in advance!
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ptsd
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I am constantly asking for reassurance about things. I feel like I can’t even control it. I don’t want to be asking the reassurance and I know that it’s not good for me but the urge is so strong. I can’t deal with any uncertainty. I want to stop but I don’t know how. It actually ends up offending people sometimes. Then I apologize for it profusely which is even worse.
I hate this. I’ve tried therapy and meds and they have helped a little but not much.
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OCD
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Hi, I’ve been struggling with depression for about 4 years now plus BPD and because of that I dropped out of high school and never got my degree. I’m almost 22 now and started senior year this September. However, stress and exams quickly made my depression worse and I barely can make myself go to school, let alone keep up with homework, exams, chores and therapy. I’ve spent this whole month in bed, I’m back on antidepressants but I’ve completely fallen out of my routines (exercising, reading and sleep schedule). I find it really difficult to wake up on time and I feel so exhausted all the time I can’t get anything done.
I dropped out because of burn out from overworking myself but now, with the help of therapy, I’m working on managing my expectations as well as mood swings/bpd related symptoms.
Could you please share any tips on how to be productive while dealing with the exhaustion that comes with depression?
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depression
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A little bit of context first: I was moved to a different office at work. I knew in advance it's going to be a very open "openspace" layout, but I figured it can't be that bad. I was very wrong.
I could deal with constant noise pretty well with quality headphones so it took me a lot of time to figure out, why I am suddenly exhausted all the time, to the point I was falling asleep at my desk.
It was vision. Extremely bright flickering lights directed to my face, southward glass wall shining sunlight to my left eye and people walking all around me all the time.
It took me a few years, but I finally came up with a solution to my debilitating exhaustion. A proper hat! I took a running style baseball cap and stitched cloth on the sides to create "flaps" that cover my face from the sides. Just like horses have. The only thing I can see now is my workstation. No bright light or movement in the corner of my eye. Being at work doesn't feel like torture anymore!
I am a target of ridicule now, but sure beats falling asleep in front of my manager!
I know I am pretty lucky that my employer allows this. But it gives me motivation that sometimes our stressors can be mitigated like this. But we need to not give up (I almost did) and keep on, until we figure out a solution that works.
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aspergers
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I’m an adult who in the near past found out I had ADHD. More H but the full spectrum . Psychiatrist & I figured this out from my son having severe ADHD for ADHD long as I can remember .
Placed on IR focalin , my son takes extended release & it really helps his symptoms so we figured let’s give it a try. 3rd titration up got real edgy, irritable ( more than normal) a land angry.
Thought this would pass then my husband forgot to do something for me & I lost it!! Screaming , angry , telling him off and throwing things.
Eventually I called the doctor ( so did my husband)
And within 30 minutes I was taken off focalin and put on adderall. Took the pharmacy 4 days to get it in the store. I start in the am. 5 mg / 2x pet day.
Sorry for running on. More than you needed I guess but has anyone had an experience where you did not respond or had adverse reactions to the methylphenidate’s and did great or much better on adderall?
Interested in hearing your stories. Thanks in advance!
(Not looking for medical advice)
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ADHD
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So I'm posting here. One of my best friends that I've been friends with for over 3 years now just said they don't wanna be friends anymore or talk to me. Completely blocked me on all socials and wants nothing to do with me and wants to be with her new bf instead. I'm addicted to drugs and my dad's throwing me out. Probation has me stuck with very limited options and I'm a state away from my mom and siblings. No car, little money and in the process of moving out. I have a full time job and like I said I'm moving out right after turning 18, but I'm depressed. I was diagnosed with MDD, generalized anxiety, PTSD, and substance use disorder and I'm just worn. I don't have people to turn too, I don't have a place to go quite yet, and I'm just stuck. I might just be over emotional rn with coming down off of meth and drinking, but I'm stuck. I hate life sober but everyone hates me high. I'm just over it. Another good friend of mine killed herself a couple years back and I don't know what to do with my life. I want to cry but I can't force a tear. I want to move away but still have time to wait. I want to improve myself but I'm caught in the claw of addiction. I have the option to kms but won't man up a second time to do it... at least not yet. Any kind of incouragment or advice would be greatly appreciated. I'm sorry if this post is kinda long.
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depression
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After a couple years of asking my parents to get me tested for ADHD, they finally cracked and helped me find a psychiatrist at 18 years old. Until then, they insisted that my behaviors were “normal” and that I just needed to try harder. Lo and behold, I was tested and diagnosed with ADHD; I’m now medicated.
Today, I’m filled with immense regret; I feel that I’ve wasted all of my youth on unfulfilling bullshit. Never have I pursued a passion, or let alone discovered I had any passions.
My traditional father and macho older brother tried raising me to be an athlete, forcing me to play numerous sports that I hated. In my eyes, pursuing anything else (theater, art, comedy, music, etc.) was frowned upon.
I didn’t like sports enough to dedicate myself to any; I felt too ashamed to follow any other path.
On top of my extracurricular short-comings, I was a mediocre student. I was constantly being told that I was “too smart” to be getting the grades I had. The only driving motivation to get work done was anxiety and impending deadlines.
Now here I am in my senior year, 18 years old, with nothing to be proud of. No defined aspirations, an average-at-best GPA, and a bare trophy shelf. I’m just hoping that I can lead a more fulfilling life from here on out.
Has anyone else felt the same after being diagnosed later in life?
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ADHD
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I have trouble with reading and comprehending words. I don’t feel like I have any obsessions that cause this but I reread everything about 5 times because I don’t fully understand what I’m reading. Anyway, I’m getting in trouble at school for not completing my mandatory reading projects but thing is, it takes me at least a year to fully read one book and I feel like my school thinks I’m lying about my troubles with reading. I’m scared.
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OCD
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I have had clinical depression for about 4 years and it is truly at its worst. It usually will hit me in waves but now I have been depressed since September. I’m a freshman in college and I have made zero friends. I don’t fit in with anyone because I don’t like to party or drink which is all anybody does here. I even joined a club and I still just feel like an outcast. My roommate doesn’t make anything better because he never wants to do anything with me so I am basically on my own. I don’t talk to anyone on social media because I have quite literally lost all my old friends from high school. I get so upset seeing everyone else make friends and do fun things because then it just seems that I am the burden to everybody. I am starting to lose all joy I get from my interests and I just want to give up. I feel like I have no purpose in this world.
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depression
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I just feel like an empty shell filled with ruminating thoughts.. that’s all that’s left. I’m nowhere near myself, I can’t remember what it really feels like to be me. I wish this pain would end, I want to feel happiness again.
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OCD
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Hi, I have been looking for the perfect ADHD medication for some time now! Ive tried multiple non stimulants but those didn't seem to do much for me and I seem to like stimulants better (even tho most of them made me feel like crap)
Ive tried Focalin (Dexmethylphenidate) but that made me feel like a zombie
Ive also tried Adderall but It doesnt give me motivation and pretty much doesn't do anything beneficial for me.
With that being said, what do you guys think I should ask my doctor about now?
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ADHD
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So I was doing an online test I am undiagnosed so yeah I just like introspection. I'm gonna post my score I don't know if it's gonna open it but I hope so! https://rdos.net/pdf/3315168642518920887030386/quiz.pdf
So if this works this is my score. If some of you wanna do the test with me I'm gonna link it now:https://rdos.net/eng/Aspie-quiz.php
If it didn't open my score is:168 of 200 points.
Hope to see yours too if you want of course!
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aspergers
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I gave my dog away. When I got him, he was just a puppy. I was in a relationship. Looking at it now it was a very toxic relationship. I was young. I was raised with a very narcissistic mother that came to me with a her problems when we I was a small child. I was the only one, without my father. My parents were never together ending up in divorce. I wanted to help my mother with her struggles. Because i was left with her. I know my father wanted to be with me but couldnt.. he had his thing.. and he couldnt deal with my mother. But i dont resent him for it. Anyways..
But my time with my mother got to be too much eventually. I left when I was 18 to forge my own life. Little did I know that my past would follow me in my relationships. In college I met and dated girls that were similar to me in interests and personality. Had a normal dating college life. Was great. After college, ended up in a very well paying profession. Ended up in a codepedent kind of relationship. During the honeymoon phase, got a toy poodle. I loved that dog. He had so much personality. I ravished him with love. I ended up marrying. My marriage was rocky. I didnt know what I was doing. I didnt know what a healthy relationship was.. Needless to say, the marriage ended. I ended it. But more than that, my dog suffered. Suffered throughout the whole thing. He even broke one of his arms, and I only thought about how much time and money it would cost me to fix it. And when the doctor did help him, it didnt even heal completely. But during the marriage, I didnt even really care. Because I was thinking more of my own life. And his leg didnt heal completely. After the divorce, I took custody of the dog. I chose to amputate my dogs leg to stop the pain from his broken leg. He was still such a loving dog. Even after that. My boy. Even after 3 legs, he would love people. Climb on their lap. My boy. It hurt very much.
After the divorce and it was just me and my little fella... i started feeling I cant move around because of him. I even starting getting angry for no reason.. not at him but just in general. I started even feeling its just a dog and why should I let it stop me from living my life. So I started looking into adoption or shelters. I thought he would do better without me. I find a shelter... brought him there. They said if the dog was in too bad of a shape and that they would choose the moral ground of putting him to sleep should they not see a future in him.. me... i said okay. I let my boy go, and as I did, and looked at him.. he looked back at me.. and said in a way, its okay.. i understand.. weve been through a lot.. im okay......
My little dude. I loved you deeply. Im sorry. Im not a good person.. im selfish. I only think of myself. I fucked around a lot. My dog. Please forgive me. Ive lived a strange life after that. Money?? Doesnt mean shit. I know i am a horrible person. I never wanted to be. Please forgive me little guy. And one day.. i hope I can make it up to you. In this life and the next.... Yes.. i am/was that guy.... just getting it off my chest.. horrible.. i know.
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depression
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i don’t know exactly why i feel this way but as i’ve gotten deeper into my depression recently, i just feel like i wish someone would care for me in ways like checking in with me, including me in their day plans to like get me out of the house/exercising/eating or whatever...
like i just feel like if i had someone trying to help me get through the days then i could actually get better. but on my own i don’t have the motivation or willpower to even get out of the bed most days.
i know i can’t put that responsibility on a person, but it’s just something i’ve been thinking about. any thoughts?
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depression
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Lexapro to Wellbutrin to Zoloft?
Hello everyone, this is actually my first post ever! I am a 23F in grad school. Haha, I was wondering if anyone has had a similar experience to me and if Zoloft helped them in the end! I had been on Lexapro for about 3 years, and since January of this year I was gaining weight rapidly and was super exhausted everyday. Like needed 3 naps a day exhausted. The tiredness really bothered me and frankly so did the weight gain because I have always been a small female. I feel petty saying that because mental health should come first. I believe this was all due to raising my dosage to 30mg. So my NP had me taper off Lex in July and put me on Wellbutrin. Oh, I should add I have pretty severe anxiety and “pure o” OCD. Anyways, I slowly went from 150mg Wellbutrin to 300mg, with nothing else and it like WRECKED me. I expected some transitory symptoms, but after about a month, I have been an anxious mess, literally everything is annoying, my poor sweet boyfriend has managed to trigger me and make me cry like everyday for a week. I also have been depressed and getting some dark thoughts (I am okay I am not going to hurt myself), which I don’t normally experience. My NP thankfully took me off Wellbutrin and today I started Zoloft (25mg for a few days and then move up to 50mg) with Ativan for anxiety as needed. I just really would love to hear if Zoloft has helped anyone after a whirlwind med experience like this! I am a little scared of not feeling like myself again or having a bad reaction to Zoloft or that I am actually going “crazy”. I am also in therapy for OCD so I am gettting help on that end. Anyways, I appreciate all answers or insights! Cheers!
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OCD
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im not sure if i have depression. but im definitly suicidal. right now im fine a bit bored but okay. but it changes so quickly and so drastically with no warning at all. one moment im regular and the next im thinking how to kill myself the fastest. but im scared im just being dramatic and wasting everyones time being on here. ive never tried to actually kill myself. the closest i remember was when i was looking for my moms gun (im 12) i couldnt find it so i just quit. because i knew other ways to kill yourself were less likely to work. almost everyday i just get this blast of feeling like a useless piece of shit. am i just being dramatic?
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depression
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i struggle with anxiety, panic attacks, and depression. i have almost my entire life. in november of 2019, i was having a really hard time. the person i was deeply interested in was interested in me and also someone else and it was hurting me incredibly badly. i didn’t care about school at the time, and i was 16. i had found marijuana as a way to help me escape everything that was hurting me and going on. my now ex best friend, best friend at the time, was toxic for me. honestly, she had always been but i loved her so much that i just put up with it. everything felt like too much. the world was suffocating me and i always wanted to find a way to escape. marijuana and sometimes alcohol was my way to do that. during this week that i had my horrible experience, i had cut off that guy i was interested in who is also my guy best friend (not the same ex best friend that i previously mentioned). we’ll call him X. it was hard. i missed him dearly but at the time, i thought it was for the best. plot twist: it wasn’t.
one night, i was with a couple friends and their friends. i had smoked previously a few times. now, these people are stoners. some of them had done other drugs in their past. i used to be the kid who always followed every rule, never wanted to try drugs or alcohol. but this night was different. i needed to escape how i was feeling. i was hurting and i didn’t realize how much. i took in way too much substance, along with vaping a lot at the same time. by the way, i was underweight for my age and still am. i didn’t realize it, but i blacked out. i don’t remember all of it. i remember kicking and screaming, i was totally numb and i couldn’t control what my body did or what i said. i remember screaming “CALL 911” to my friends and them carrying me to the car. i sat up and everything felt normal and i asked if that really happened and they said “yes”. and then all of a sudden, i became dizzy and i passed out in the car and i heard one of them laughing at me.
i was terrified. i couldn’t feel my body. i felt like i was on fire and i thought i was going to Hell. i was an atheist at the time, but it was at that moment that i prayed to God and begged to be kept alive. one of my friends was in the back with me, crying and holding her finger under my nose to make sure i kept breathing. i kept begging them to take me to the hospital but they wouldn’t. i can understand why now, they didn’t want to get into trouble. i was begging one of my friends to call X. i needed him. i needed him to come hold me and protect me, but they wouldn’t. i don’t exactly know why. i think they thought it would’ve been better for me if they didn’t. i screamed to call my mom which they also didn’t do. again, i believe they didn’t want to get into trouble. i just wanted to feel safe and okay. i was absolutely terrified. i kept blacking in and out. the drive around felt incredibly fast. i just wanted to be home.
they took me back to my friends house, we’ll call her H. her now ex boyfriend was the problem of the night. he wasn’t being responsible, he was making me more terrified, saying things no one should say about someone, especially under the influence. we were in the driveway and he told me to throw up because i would feel better. i couldn’t even control my body. the next thing i knew i was shoving my fingers down my throat and throwing up in the driveway. i’ve never made myself throw up except for that night. they took me inside and i was incredibly paranoid. they carried me upstairs and i laid down on a bed, with a trash can beside me. i kept making myself throw up because i just wanted to feel better. i cried and shook all night. i was freezing and burning up, i couldn’t sleep at all without nightmares. i went to the bathroom in the middle of the night and looked in the mirror. my pupils were huge. i couldn’t even recognize who i was anymore. i wasn’t myself. i regretted turning to drugs for my problems. i just wanted to be sober already. i laid down and went to sleep.
i woke up the next day feeling okay, until i went to H’s room and i instantly felt the anxiety and effects again. i laid down and went to sleep on her bed. i asked her to call X and she did. i talked to him and he calmed me down and told me what to do and i drifted in and out of sleep.
on my way home, i felt a “drop” feeling from my chest to my stomach. kind of the feeling you get when your parter tells you they’re breaking up with you but with dizziness and feeling like you’re going to black out. i made it home and slept in my bed for 5 hours. i ended up telling my mom. i needed her help. she didn’t punish me because she could tell i had already been through enough the night before. she told me people in our family don’t do well with substances, especially marijuana. she calmed me down and i believed everything was okay until i began to have horrible panic attacks and i kept blacking out and almost passing out while driving many times. i ended up going to the doctor and explaining everything, i was prescribed medications which helped.
i’ve never been able to heal from it. for over a year, i wasn’t able to even talk about marijuana. i have many trigger words (usually when verbally hearing them, not so much text) and the smell triggers my anxiety. my friends have asked me if i would like to try it again now that i’m not in that mindset and headspace anymore but i am too afraid. i don’t want to be afraid or hurt anymore. it’s gotten easier to talk about it. i just still get so scared. i practice yoga and meditation which i think is helping.
i wanted to share my story for a few reasons. i wanted to get it out there, i wanted to talk about it so i don’t feel like i’m holding onto it. i want advice if anyone has any. i want words of support if possible.
thank you for listening.
♡
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ptsd
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Hi, not sure if this has been posted before but this has really helped me with executive dysfunction and doing tasks (otherwise I’ll just scroll on my phone endlessly)
If you have a thought like “I need to take the dog out” but you know your brain will prevent you from setting that in motion, count down from 5 and immediately get up and go do whatever it is that needed to be done.
Hope this helps anyone!
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ADHD
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I’ve developed multiple compulsions over time, and I feel like they’re starting to pile up. Newer ones involve pressing things as hard as I can and breathing ‘fully’ (making me feel like I’m always out of breath), while compulsions I already had have suddenly intensified. My family asked me if I’m ok due to how much I’ve been suddenly gasping for breath and I constantly feel like I’m on the brink of breaking my keyboard/mouse/phone/fingers. I’m doing this all while my mind is racing and torturing me due to intrusive thoughts (could be due to ocd or adhd). I feel like I’m in hell
Edit: I’m probably just having another episode
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OCD
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Hey all,
Dr. Sam Greenblatt here with another article about OCD. This is about the most evidence based treatment approach for OCD: Exposure and Response Prevention, which falls under the umbrella of CBT (Cognitive Behavioral Therapy). As always here to answer any questions and if you'd like to read more like this you can check out my list at [Articles — Dr. Sam Greenblatt (drsamgreenblatt.com)](https://www.drsamgreenblatt.com/ocdarticles)
# Exposure and Response Prevention
Exposure and Response Prevention (ERP) is often the first treatment modality for OCD that is suggested, and for good reason. It has decades of strong research behind it and is considered to be one of the most effective treatments for a disorder ever created within the field of psychology. As the name suggests, ERP has two components: exposure and response prevention.
#### Exposures
During exposures, a therapist works with a patient to practice staying with a distressing situation or thought without ritualizing or avoiding. This can sound intimidating, but it’s important to note that **the level of challenge is always chosen by the patient**. Additionally, the process quickly starts to feel empowering and relieving as the patient learns that they can survive what they thought would overwhelm them.
Exposures can be **in vivo**, wherein a patient will be tasked to sit with an observable discomfort such as touching a contaminated object or looking at an image they fear being attracted to, or **imaginal**, wherein a patient will be tasked to sit with a thought or premise such as “maybe I will harm someone” or “maybe I’ll go insane.”
With the clinician’s guidance and support, the patient learns to navigate through the distress the OCD brings up, rather than having that distress control their lives.
#### Response Prevention
Sitting with exposures helps the patient practice how to engage in response prevention. Response prevention is the practice of preventing ourselves from choosing a compulsive response to the OCD theme when it pops up. Because during exposures we practice resisting the urge to compulse, in our day to day lives it gets easier to apply that same skill.
Through a combination of exposure and response prevention, we hone our skills to **disempower our broken alarm system**, robbing its signals of any relevance to our lives. With practice, these signals become weaker and weaker and quality of life improves considerably!
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OCD
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Does anyone have any experience with a larger adderall dose on days when you haven’t slept in days?
Does anyone have any experience with a larger adderall dose on days when you haven’t slept in days? I unfortunately have gotten about 5 hours of sleep in the last 3 days. I have really important meetings today and I need to be as alert as possible. Will a large dose at least be able to temporarily diminish the effects of mg tiredness for a little while?
Thanks in advance
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ADHD
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Hello everyone,
I unconsciously think all the time about traumatic events that happened to me when I was a teenager. I want to know how do you handle the situation effectively.
Positive answers only, please.
Love you all!
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aspergers
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i know this isn’t good, but i’m still thinking about it. what do i do now?
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depression
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I miss having friends who are as depressive and fucked up as I am. I decided a few years ago that part of my problem was making friends with people who have issues and then being surprised when my friendships with them were unstable.
Now I have friends who are positive, who don't let things get in their way, and who like to have fun. But I miss feeling understood.
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depression
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If you're like me and your meds' side effects hit you the worst in the mouth do yourself a favor and get your hands on some "Act dry mouth moisturizing gum." It's the best thing I've found to combat cotton mouth throughout the day while working. Also helps with my clenching/suctionioning my tongue to the roof of my mouth AND it's sugar free so you don't have as much of a problem with cavity stuff as normal gum and candy.
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ADHD
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It feels like this specific type of OCD is among the hardest to deal with effectively. It's that hyper-awareness and that dizzy feeling of panic. Life after death and the thought of nothingness is a huge trigger for me, it scares me so much I can't sleep or move.
I want to know if there's anyone out there like me who's struggling like this. It's so isolating and exhausting, I just want to have these thoughts out of my head.
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OCD
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Today at work I had another panic attack. I was afraid of another false accusation. I have gone through years of girls and women lying to get me in trouble. I am often afraid of it happening at both of my jobs.
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ptsd
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As above, has anyone else experienced this? I'm not sure if it's the OCD or CPTSD but I used to have severe OCD at all times, i was either ruminating or having magical thinking or just on the slippery-slide of having rushing random thoughts i couldn't understand.
Over the years it's progressed to the point where I have very little idea what i'm thinking, ever, except when something triggers my OCD and then I just have an acute anxiety response and fear. Like people talking about sex, or drugs, setting me off and my mind panicking about the experience and what ifs and intrusive imagery and thoughts.
Aside from those moments I feel like I don't actually \*have\* thoughts any more. It's just a big empty void until some OCD comes along or something triggers me.
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OCD
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Its like their cognitive ability to understand the English language comes to a complete stop outside those 3 things…..mainly.
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aspergers
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I met someone with tourettes yesterday. after talking with them i was researching about tics then i noticed that ive been raising my eyebrow a lot and squinting and opening my jaw very wide (idk if theyre involuntary because i can tell when they will happen). im not sure if my brain is telling me to do them because i met this person and im feeling guilty of maybe faking these actions.
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OCD
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i am so!!! tired of this!!! everyday i have real event ocd and feel sick and GUILTY and want to die!! and i have so many intrusive thoughts about not only my suffering but all the suffering the world. like animal abuse. i can’t even look at cute animals pics or barely even use beauty products anymore because i think of animal cruelty. i am obviously vegan as well but when i go to the store i feel like bawling seeing the animal products. i think about humans who are working in sweatshops and girls who get married off as children and people with severe disabilities and old people and EVERYTHING i’m so tired i think of this stuff all the time. it’s a loop in my head over and over and over. then i have a fear of being poisoned. and a fear of wondering if anything is even real. and then the real event ocd is truly killing me i feel like if i die i’ll go to hell. oh, and that’s another one of my obsessions, being freaked out that a god in the sky could be 24/7 watching me. FUCKKKK:(!!!
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OCD
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I've noticed that when I try to describe why I want to start therapy, my brain goes silent. It's almost like I start reformulating the sentences from scratch, in a way. I can't seem to simplify things enough to actually ask for the help that I need.
Yet I will find myself sometimes being able to perfectly articulate my needs and deficits when I'm just talking to my windshield.
In other aspects of my life too I've realized, I don't always know what I need help doing so I end up figuratively just "dumping" all the info that I know of onto whomever is helping me. And they usually will cut me off at some point after they start analyzing what I'm telling them.
I don't like this part of me though, I feel bad now looking back. Almost like I have this tendency to really ask too much of whoever it is that offered help, and they don't want to make it awkward by telling me so.
I suppose I'm just hoping that I'm not the only one that has experienced this.
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ADHD
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Like, I used to have a really bad problem where I’d just get sucked into dumb YouTube videos and I knew I had shit to do and didn’t even really want to watch them, but I got glued and just rotted my brain. It’s been gone for a year or two, but just yesterday it came back, what the hell. Not much I can do about this beyond hoping I can survive till psychiatrist visit, but I was wondering if anyone else had this problem as well?
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aspergers
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just when you think youve gotten over it, something new pops up. and sure, last time it was all bullshit but this time? oh this time its the real deal for sure. and if you cant come up with anything new just recycle some old stuff! maybe it wasnt bullshit actually. its so exhausting :(
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OCD
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So I have a simple interest in fighting or any form of hand to hand combat but it’s gotten to the point where I’m always on edge because of seeing so many videos of people going over board on a simple fight. I was wonder does anyone else here have that fear or interest in self defense for the fact that it could save your life or is it something most people with aspergers don’t really like to see or be around. And when I mean fighting I mean respectful sparing and matches with friends not like school fights where half the time you get jumped it’s all to learn and to better ones physical appearance from the work outs, any opinions are greatly welcomed
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aspergers
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Hey everyone. I'm looking to get out of the part-time restaurant work as a busser and am looking to see what types of jobs that may interest me. I'm having a difficult time finding motivation to search but decided to take action to the internet to see what others could suggest.
I'm a 20 year old male and looking for a full time position doing simple tasks that are not too overwhelming or stressful. I have no experience and never went to college. I just want something stable where I will feel comfortable with the work. In person or working from home. I'd prefer to get away from the restaurant business and want something that may interest me for the long-term. I have difficulty finding what exactly I want to do and my family keeps suggesting random ideas. Working with many people isn't impossible for me but minimal interactions with simple tasks might be best.
If you have any suggestions or stories, please feel free to share.
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aspergers
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I read this recently and found myself relating more than ever:
“Many who have OCD and obsessive-compulsive personality disorder (OCPD) choose not to date and avoid intimate relationships. There are many reasons people resort to this choice; chief among them is the desire to prevent or lessen their anxiety through avoidance of stressful situations.
OCD sufferers have a heightened sense of fear and lack of security, which can manifest itself in the need for constant reassurance from their partner or spouse. On the other side of OCD, you might find yourself incessantly saying things such as, “Yes, I love you.” OR “Yes, you look beautiful”. The need to constantly validate feelings or intentions have the potential to be exhausting and feel futile."
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OCD
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I’m at a hotel that doesn’t have any hand soap, so I used a bar of soap that said “bath soap” on its box after I urinated. I believe that it’s meant to be used for scrubbing your body while showering. I’ve heard that body wash can get rid of germs but what about this? I still feel dirty after washing my hands with it.
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OCD
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I am currently in a mental health program for homeless youth where if I see a outside therapist I lose my social worker, medication management, and peer support. My thearpist has little experience with ERP but alot of experience with DBT and gender counseling so I am reluctant to give up on him for a thearpist with no experience outside of OCD. It should also be noted I am a complicated case as I also have several other diagnoses unrelated to the OCD so there's that. Should I teach myself ERP or am I kinda screwed with the postion I am in?
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OCD
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So I recently got assaulted again this summer (I'm male) by someone really close to me and like I'm not coping well AT ALL. I'm unable to shower so I smell very badly, I can't focus on stuff and even doing Ancient Greek (my autistic special interest) makes me feel guilty. I'm starting a new study next week and I don't know if I'll be ready for it at all even tho it's something I've wanted to do for YEARS since I'm so heavily in flashbacks and PTSD mode lately. Damn them to Hell.
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ptsd
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I feel like I am watching myself from the outside in when I am in the early stages of a relationship. Like I am pressing the self-destruct button while being fully aware that I should absolutely not press that big red button. I may be able to contain it for an hour, a day. Think I am doing ok. But suddenly, boom, I've pressed it. Again and again.
I mean, I am able to function if everything is going great. But the instant they pull away slightly or become cold, I instantly try to compensate. Or feel like I have to get to the bottom of whatever problem I perceive. My brain literally cant let it go until I raise the issue. Making me seem clingy or insecure.
And I know rationally that the best course of action is to let it go, or wait until we meet up, or just focus on myself. I cant control the situation, after all. But in the moments of rumination, it all feels so important, my feelings hold so much weight. Until I suddenly have sent a wall of text and the fixation ends. Then I realize that I overreacted and that I should have played it cool instead. Maybe she was tired, stressed, or just didn't feel as strongly as I did, yet.
And it just takes over everything. I can't think of anything else, just her. Which is really unhealthy and not conducive to a good relationship. So I start pushing her away.
I don't know, maybe I should just stay single. The sensitivity to rejection, the constant fixation, the overdramatization, losing myself while drowning in her, the impulsive overreactions.
Or maybe the relationship just wasn't meant to be and I tried to overcompensate as a result. I don't know. Sorry, just had to vent. The first relationship in years and I have never felt this way about anyone before. It ended two weeks ago and I just found out she is hooking up with dudes already. Feeling a bit raw.
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ADHD
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Any other first responders on here who had to deal with resigning because the symptoms were unmanageable on days off? We're a busy urban department, where I work we'll do anywhere from 10 to 30 runs in a tour depending on how rowdy it is.
For years I've struggled with exhaustion and mood instability, lots of numbness and frustration. I sought treatment a year ago and with that break I was able to feel what my rested brain felt like, I fucking loved it. I ended up going back to work and began to quickly burnout and struggle with motivation and exhaustion again.
TLDR; I'm wondering if anyone else here has dealt with coming to terms with ending a career because of CPTSD.
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ptsd
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Is checking Reddit constantly a compulsion? I find myself on here almost all day reading post that I relate to that help ease my fears and help me recognize I’m not alone. I feel like I have the answer but I’m still new to learning about my OCD
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OCD
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I was depressed but I came out of it but now I am strong still I don't know why situation becomes very critical for me that it literally breaks and torns me...
I help stray dogs not because I love them or I get very emotional but because of very fact that they literally have no body in this world to help them in their tough times and even food is not available for them
Hence I help them because I help every poor in their pain.
I know that I do very little work.
2 stray dogs in our colony were treated as wild and every one try to scares them.
But since last year I saw they were not getting food so I started to gave them food and they started to trust me but since they suffered a lot because of humans when they were small they are now become adult and don't trust humans but they do trust me but little.
And because I help everyone despite my own bad conditions I started to feed and help dogs in my area
Do their treatments and I got some experience of treating dogs ailments and wounds
3 months ago one of that poor dogs got a huge wound on back
And I started to pour antiseptic and turmeric in it but as I feared It got maggots in it in very monsoons
So
I started to run behind that dog to remove maggots and apply cream
I spent one month outside alone with dogs with one hand filled with food and other with medicines
I fought all society, stayed with her at evening, mornings and even all nights till dawn whether it was raining or not
I ram behind her, did everything like I used to give her food so that I can remove maggots and apply cream
Even people in society didn't let me in society monsoons so I stayed outside society
Even the injured dog didn't fully trusted me but I kept doing treatment
I spent 12 hours outside home with them for 15 days
And
I used to go in night at 2 am so that everyone would be slept and I would treat her inside building secretly and then release her before dawn
Wound was very big
But I didn't gave up and only people helped me were my mom who gave me money , my brother who handled all house alone and also helped me every time and Universe who made all this possible and my vet who gave me cream and the man in dog food Shop
Because of all Universe helped me
Her wound healed completely and an infinite impossible thing became possible
And because she is an experienced dog who runs from humans neither I was able to take her to vet and my home nor Any NGO was able to help
This journey seems deep but
I know that how it truly feels when you have to do everything to do an infinite impossible thing
I came across so many many many heart wrenching experiences in this journey
That I will try to emphasize in some lines
It was like,
"I have to treat and heal a serious COVID patient in ICU and make him normal again ALONE"." I have to do everything for him EVERYTHING, ALONE"
I am still shaking due to this experience
And again 5 days ago I again saw a little wound with maggots started so I again started same
This time wound was very small but her co operation was even reduced
But fortunately due to god universe
What I did to treat it came good and maggots were gone and it started to heal but now she doesn't even come close to me because she knows I would apply cream
But since
Wound is small and healing
I don't apply cream anymore just give some tablet in food
But again a very heart wrenching moment has come
I live in this colony on rent and this entire colony is going for redevelopment and I have to leave this building in 2 months
But I am very very very very deeply scared about future of these 2 poor strays because they avoid humans and don't trust them like a street dog does because they were treated very badly
I am now very sad that how they will live in future
Because they were not treated good they don't mix up with other dogs and live alone
I am very stressed that will they get proper food?
I don't want them to be again in pain (╥﹏╥)
Already they have suffered a lot
I am deeply scared
Because if I move out of town I won't be able to come for them every day
I deeply understand that
Being alone in cruel world, without food and water wandering every where for help is so deeply painful
All alone
I have tried to write my experience short as possible sorry if it's big but the true experience I know will get days to convey (╯︵╰,)
Thank you very very very very very much if read all of this
And all I want you to do is pray for them and me
Only Universe has solution on this
Please pray for us 🙏
The photos of dogs are given in below link
https://www.reddit.com/r/DOG/comments/quc1z8/my_poor_street_dogs_the_dog_is_healed_completely/?utm_medium=android_app&utm_source=share
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depression
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I recently made this character who is albino and i keep feeling like it's not ok to make an albino character because i myself am not albino. I'm also afraid of making characters that are mythical creatures like werewolves for example because im afraid a character being a werewolf will automatically make them evil and God won't like that. I also have an issue with naming characters too where it will take me hours to find a name for a character because im afraid a name i like may have a bad meaning somewhere
edit: I love making characters but this has been making ocs kind of stressful to make
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OCD
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I’m in an accelerated LPN program. We have to get 82%+ to be passing or we get kicked out of the program. My grades were 82-86%.
In all 5 of my classes, I have above a 95% thanks to Vyvanse! I’m no longer falling asleep during lectures and I can actually focus on getting assignments and studying done! I even have the energy to stay late to work.
Its kind of an ego boost too because we all share our grades with each other and when we talk about tests and I tell my peers about my 95%+ they say “you’re so smart!” I never thought I was smart because I always got 80-90% in classes.
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ADHD
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i have pocd and harm ocd and over time my intrusive and compulsive thoughts have changed from
"am i going to" "what if i"
to
"im going to" "i would like to" "i want to"
PLEASE HELP AND TELL ME IF SOMETHINGS WRONG WITH ME
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OCD
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I was going to study more than i needed to tonight—prepare ahead for my class that’s in 2 days, further my knowledge by reading more of the textbook chapter that we’re going over tmw for a different class—but only did sort of a sixth of what i wanted to do. In my passions, I know what I am capable of and have the potential in. Yet, with each period of success and feeling like I am the fullest of myself, not sticking to that routine religiously (“oh I’ll do this tmw. I’ll allowed myself lazy to day.”) for a few days begins the backslide.
I was once watching a character analysis of Darth Vader/Anakin Skywalker a while back, and the video essayist made the point that, although Anakin/Vader “had the _potential_ of becoming the most powerful force user ever”, He stressed that potential ≠ will happen.
This has had an effect on me.
I’m not completely fatalistic, btw, despite what the tone of this post might convey to the contrary.
I’m told I’m “smart” and complemented by my family and others around me, and know i am capable of quite a lot, but I keep failing… I haven’t treid to achieve as much for a while now and feel less stressed, but it’s dissatisfying. I hate that, whenever I reach my heights of self-fulfillment and excel in my self-care, this Sisyphean boulder drags me back down to shitty sleep schedules and shattered personal structure.
And I hate that it’s so fragile! 3-4 days of slacking off and it all starts to go like the northern face of Mt. St. Helens.
One of my biggest fears is that the rest of my life will be this Sisyphean cycle, and that I won’t be able to overcome it. I hate this mental disorder so fucking much. It has so much power over me that I feel almost helpless, as if a force of gravity is dragging me away despite a mental war I put up fight it.
P.S. Clarification: I don’t think I have capital-d Depression or BPD. I can’t relate to those experiences as to their characteristics. I have also done some therapy, too, but it’s mostly just me talking, since it’s pretty much just a matter of my willpower.
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ADHD
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I like to binge read subreddits like /r/relationship_advice and their instagram or twitter equivalents. The content on these pages are overwhelmingly negative and most often feature cheating. In all my relationships (before I even had assumed I had ADHD), my significant other would be able to notice when I would binge. I would be much more negative, clingy, and overall a wreck. Fortunately, this affect only lasts for a day or two until I am back to normal - like I never even read it.
This is also the same for positive content. I project positivity but its tough to live in candyland all the time.
I don’t really know anyone else with ADHD and am curious if others can relate to this. I have read that this is something that can be seen in people with ADHD.
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ADHD
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It's about job seeking. I plan to seek jobs outside of my region, but my mother is trying to make me stay in my village.
That means I have to stay with toxic family condition and with a job that I really hate.
I just want my freedom, but my parents don't understand.
How can I get my freedom?
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aspergers
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So I (34 F) was diagnosed with ADHD pretty late when I was 25. I don't know if it was my ADHD or what but I never really looked more into or researched ADHD because, at the time, I felt it only affected me school wise. Last year my ADHD seemed to get worse to the point where I felt like it was taking complete control of me and I couldn't breathe, so I went and saw a doctor and started taking Adderall for the first time. My life changed completely and after getting used to it I realized that my ADHD had been affecting me in negative ways in every aspect of my life, not just with school as I had previously thought. It took about a month with my therapist to work through the immense guilt I felt at not getting medicated sooner.
Anyway, I'm here a little more than a year later and am a few weeks away from completing my bachelor's degree which I never thought was possible. I've taken a few tests and read a little more about ADHD since last year and can identify some of my past behaviors and the part ADHD played in them, but the more I read the more I feel like I understand my mind less. It's been a little frustrating for me lately to try to identify these feelings and how exactly my mind works, especially compared to normal people. I think one of the biggest things is looking at past behavior and wondering if it was ADHD related, as well as looking at certain behaviors I have now and wondering if it's just me. Anyone been through something similar and have any advice on how to work through this?
TLDR: having trouble understand ADHD and how it affects me and the differences between me and others.
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ADHD
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I really wish I could make my abuser know exactly what he has done to me, but I know that he wouldn't care.
I wish that he would think of me every day like I think of him. I want the guilt to hound him the way trauma hounds me.
I wish he would hear my voice in his head the way I hear his.
I want him to have to remember me with every thought he has until he repents for what he did.
(sorry for vent)
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ptsd
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How did you courage to start recovery? Was there something someone told you? Or was it something else? How do you get over your brain telling you that you don't care or bad things will happen or the fear or just basically everything that happens to stop you from recovering because I don't want my obsessions to happen & I don't want to want that forever
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OCD
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I am very interested in films and filmmaking and will even study film at university in October. Today was a screening of my absolute favorite director and writer followed by an audience discussion. I was lucky enough to get tickets and was thrilled with the film and the directo, but I was to shy to ask anything after it.. At the exit I stopped briefly to check that I had not forgotten anything in the cinema. The director passed me and I had sworn to tell her how much I love her films and work (her films are perfect for us autistic people, in my opinion, because they are very reduced to different sounds and image settings), but out of my mouth just came single words without grammatical contexts, I stuttered and stammered and could not even tell her what she or her work means to me, I suddenly had a blackout and even forgot the film titles. I would have loved to ask her if I could do an internship on one of her film sets, even just for a day, then a dream would come true. But I was not able to ask that. She was very nice, but thought for sure what this mentally confused or weird person wanted. I then said goodbye to her and went home, on the subway I then had a meltdown, kept hitting my hand in my face and crying and then considered throwing myself in front of the next train. I hate my autism. It makes communication so hard for me. And even the few things I find joy in, my autism ruined it for me.
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aspergers
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So I’m a 30yr old male I’m 6’ and 187lbs if that matters. I recently was diagnosed with adhd and put on 10mg of adderall xr a day. I’ve been trying to pay attention to when it kicks in and starts to work but I haven’t really noticed much of anything. I know this is a really low dose and will be asking to go up on Monday when I meet with my psych again, but I’m just confused. I take my meds around 6:30am every morning as prescribed and the only effect I’m able to realize is around 12p.m for about an hour I can feel my heart rate increase the slightest amount and then dips off around 12:45p.m. I know the XR releases 5mg right away and then over the next 4-6hrs the time release mechanism dissolves and the other 5mg is released. I’m assuming that’s because for a tiny fraction of time ~10mg is truly in my system. Can anyone relate to this?
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ADHD
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i cannot do proceed in my life.
i don't want to be a pedophile.
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when i tried to study, suddenly i am getting thoughts like what if I become a famous person one day and what if i am somehow become influential with law and what if i used the reason to molest a child losing my control. i am getting thoughts and images of me doing that.
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i stopped to go to my soccer practice. i feel what if i one day become a famous footballer and use that reason to molest a child?
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it may sound funny but i am living in hell everyday.
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the childhood sexual acts i did on my little sister when i was 12 or 13, says me that is the proof that i am someone who is capable of sexualizing children. i don't know what to do. i tried to not to react to these thoughts. i cannot .i feel like i am a monster. every time i am seeing a little girl, i am start to imagine them in the nude way and asking myself whether i am attracted to them.
i still have how i fondeled and groped the butt of my little sister to arouse myself when i was 12. i don't even remember the age tgh. thinking of this makes me puke
she was 6. yes godamn 6. i don't know why i did that. i cannot accept that is because of my sex drive. even it was my sex drive, how was i able to think of a kid sexually?
i love my sister to death and i cannot belive what kind of a manipulative monster i have been
i cannot look at her eyes. when i see a little girl in the road, i getting the feeling i had when i done that to my sister. i seriously don't want to molest any little girl. these new urges feel strange. i cannot accept it. i cannot accept my age as a explaination for my behaviour. i want to turn myself to police. but i cannot. that would bring the status of my parents down. honestly i would say my parents are one of the best parents one can get . i cannot see their look on their face when i they see thieir only son going to jail. i don't want them to feel they failed me. my sister don't know what i did to her. and when ever she come close to me, i am getting a feeling. i am getting images of what i did to her. god !
i don't want her to know any of this. i don't want her to know her lovely brother was a monster
the only thing that kept me going was the thought that i will have a daughter and i will protect her with all my heart. until i started to think like what if i did the same thing i did to my little sister? I cannot do that to another beautiful child of god. i don't want to cause them impurity. after all i am piece of shit and if i did that at my 13, it won't take me much time to do it again right? after all no deserves to marry a monster like me.
i cannot afford a therapy after all i am just a 18yo college student. after all it seems like you need to be rich to get back to normal and according to my current family situation, i cannot do it for now and i don't have strength hold myself like this any longer
maybe for what i am going through , death may not be the only answer but probably it is the easiest answer.
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i don't want to live like this anymore, accepting the fact that i have such a horrible monster sleeping in me.
all this day i was praying to god to either give me some deadly disease or to give me somekind of acciedent.
i was scared to die because of my religious belief. i thought i would go to hell. only now i realized, i am already living in one for past months . so going there again won't be something new to me. in fact i would go there for killing myself and not for molesting a child.
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i know what you are thinking . for what i have done to that to that little girl, i should have killed myself when i did that. i promise i was ignroant and i didn't know what i did is having this big consequences in my life. i have never fantasized children in sexual way but i feel i am someone who is capable of sexualizing children. i am not saying this for creating any sympathy. i know a monster like me don't deserve any of the stuff like that.
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is this my suicide note? i don't know . i don't want to give life the feeling of satisfaction
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after all i am just a monster right? so who cares.
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OCD
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I was messing around with my raw data and I saw several mutations for Retts Syndrome via the MECP2 gene. I only stumbled upon this by mistake because I wanted to see if I had any of the mutations for genes that are suspected to cause autism. I've honestly never heard of this disorder before, so my research pretty much told me that Retts Syndrome is a severe form of autism often seen in females. My mutation was coming back as "pathogenic", but I obviously do not have Retts Syndrome or severe autism. I decided to do some more research and found that mutations in the MECP2 gene has been recorded for some autistic individuals. Another pathogenic disorder with this mutation was coming back as autism as well. Which I honestly found quite fascinating!
I also found another mutation for the IQSEC2 gene which has also been linked to autism. The mutation that I had was linked to "x-linked mental retardation" (that is what it's labeled as, so I'm not trying to offend)--this same mutation was also seen in the MECP2 variant mentioned above.
This kind of made me wonder about the autism spectrum. I have always wondered what makes someone a level-3 versus a level-1. Is it simply a matter of how many variants or mutations you have for a specific gene? We obviously do not truly know what causes autism and I am certain that there are numerous things at work here. We've all probably ended up here via different roads. These genes are not the cause of autism, because every autistic person would have these mutations and they do not.
But it's definitely made me wonder about the probability of my children being autistic and the probably of it being severe. I obviously have the genes for some serious neurodevelopmental/intellectual disabilities, so if I was to have children with someone else that may be a "carrier", what is the statistical probability that they'll actually have these disorders or only simply carry them like myself?
I'm definitely interested to see if anyone has seen something similar!
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aspergers
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I mindlessly scroll through tiktok for hours a day, and the second a video about being neat and clean or just a satisfying video comes up i just. completely skip the comments. because i WANT to seek out those “ocd” comments, because i want to just shout to the world how much i hate this nightmare being reduced to being neat. it puts me into so much panic to read and respond to those types of comments but i still want to. so im trying my best to just stop.
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OCD
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Hey everyone I’m posting on here today to see if you guys know what could be causing a sore if it seems like something I should go seek more help on. I’ve been diagnosed with ADHD and been told by a medical professional that I possibly have OCD but those aren’t the reasons I’m commenting today the reason I’m commenting today is because I will randomly get thoughts when looking at people who aren’t doing anything wrong and will be thoughts that are aggressive towards them or like my thoughts will be insulting them like I’ll look at a lady standing in line and My thoughts will say “look at that fat b word”. Is this a symptom of ocd or is it something Else and if it is what could it be.
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OCD
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It's caffeine free, and I know soda isn't best for you but for my particular eating problem being calm enough to have one is an achievement for me.
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OCD
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I’ve worked in K-5 childcare for the past three years, and am super confident in my role as a teacher. I have my own classroom, make funny jokes with them, give them advice on how to handle their emotions/social interactions (which is hilarious to me).
But with adults? Super shy. Super quiet. Can’t even make eye contact. Stumble on my words.
It just feels like kids are on the same ‘level’ as me. Not developmentally, but my ASD and their view on life somehow align. We both appreciate the beauty in things. We both have special interests. We both are still trying to understand sarcasm and social cues.
I don’t know. I just feel totally accepted around kids. Anyone feel the same?
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aspergers
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Personally as a Minnesotan I probably would say in my home state considering I do feel content and comfortable living in it. Although another state I wouldn’t mind at all is Vermont or Delaware considering they have huge historical significance and are home to some of the politicians I really like such as Bernie Sanders. Plus the scenic views are quite nice and peaceful.
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aspergers
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I’m bisexual and I met a woman 3 months ago at the hospital I have to have renal dialysis 3 times a week.
When we were on the ward together we had a laugh and she seemed really nice.
We swap numbers and a bout a week or so ago she admitted to me that she isn’t straight and that she was into me. I felt over the moon as it made a lovely change someone being up to me rather than me wanting someone who doesn’t feel the same.
So we agreed to give it a go, even though I’ve not seen her in person for over a month as she is on a different dialysis session to me. She would often be sweet, but quite often she would start accusing me of not talking to her, like if I was on the phone to someone else she would accuse me of thinking my friends more important.
Other day she started saying, the doctors at renal told me I should leave you. Then later she wrote a message from her Number saying, we r the staff we told Tina to leave you we hear you at dialysis and we know ur a woman chaser.
But when I actually asked the staff about it, they told me that they don’t message on other peoples phones and they wouldn’t say that. Then when I blocked her the other day I got a message from a different number claiming it was the district nurse Sue and that Tina really adores me. So I unblocked her then on Friday evening Tina said she had received some bad news that she only has a month to live. I was in bits she told me that as well as having dialysis, she was on oxygen and has black around her heart.
Then I was getting messages from this number saying it was the nurse saying that they were probably going to put Tina in the hospice soon and I will sort out when I can see her.
But then yesterday while I was on dialysis, I didn’t reply to Tina for an hour because my auntie had come to see me. Then Tina started saying I don’t care about her and that The nurse was beside her and was reading our whole conversation and that I can’t admit when I was wrong, but I did nothing wrong. And she was telling me that this nurse was saying that she shouldn’t bother with me. Then I keep getting texts saying it’s from this nurse Sue, that Tina tried to kill herself because I upset her.
I don’t know what’s true and what isn’t true, but plenty of people have told me that the nurse wouldn’t be messaging me and saying stuff like this. I was in bits yesterday, the stuff on my ward were really good at comforting me and they can’t really say too much but they advised me to block her and said the messages were horrible and that it was all Tina.
What should I do? Should I unblock not? I don’t know if it’s true about having a month month or not, or if she even did adore me like I thought. I was in love with her, I tried so hard to support her but I’m in bits I don’t know if I’ve done the right thing, my heart loves her but my head knows that it’s toxic she said that Covid caused the problems in her lungs, which is true that she had Covid last March. But mum says it what have killed her at the time if it was going to
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aspergers
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Hi! I am going to have an appointment with an OCD specialist within the next couple of weeks and I’m really nervous about it. I was diagnosed at 13 (I’m 21 now) but I don’t have a way to prove it and I’m scared that my therapist won’t believe me or will think I’m being dramatic/trying to make her think I have OCD. I know that’s silly to think but I’m really worried to go. Have any of you seen a therapist for the OCD? How did it go? Did you have these concerns as well? Thank you in advance :)
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OCD
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Lately im just feeling so alone im in my teenage years and ive never had a girlfriend, one of my best friends seems like he never wants anything to do with me no one in my school fully likes or knows who i am even tho i hang out with the popular bunch, ive never wanted to commit suicide tho bc i know some ppl love me and i want a good life but im just feeling so alone and im to afraid to tell anyone but idk why
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depression
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