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Hi, let me introduce myself. I'm u/unimprezzed, and I was formally diagnosed with Asperger's Syndrome in my early teens. I'm 33 now, and I have a stable income, a job I'm OK at, and (I feel) a fulfilling life. I saw some posts from other members, and I see a lot of my younger self in a lot of people posting here. I feel that I might have some knowledge that might help you.
Ready?
***Romantic relationships are not the end-all-be-all goal in life. If you meet the 'right' person, it doesn't mean your problems go away; in fact, the wrong person can make your problems exponentially worse! Even successful, fulfilling relationships require a lot of effort to keep running, and it has to be a two-way street. It's okay to admit that it's more effort than you think it's worth!***
***The vast majority of people that you will meet are not worth your time, and there's no benefit in trying to please the ones that cannot be pleased by anything you do. It doesn't really matter what people think of you, what matters is that you reach a point where you are happy with the person you are. Self-confidence and having a good self-esteem are rewards in themselves.***
***Seek out like-minded individuals. Friendships tend to develop from there, and some of the friendships you make can be worth more to you in the long run than this so-called "true love" that I keep hearing people yammer on about. Case in point: I've had several friendships (or at least acquaintances) that have been the deciding factor during a job interview, including the one that landed me my current position.***
I know, right? It took me years to learn this, but I eventually figured it out the hard way! Feel free to ask me more, I'm not really that good at writing motivational speeches heh heh
EDIT: Added some additional content to the first and fourth paragraph. | aspergers |
For years now, I've been pretty sure I have ADHD. Multiple teachers throughout middle and high school have told me the same thing. They've reached out to my mother and suggested that I should get diagnosed so that I could get accommodations for tests and such. Whenever I brought it up to my mother, she just told me that I should "focus more." I'm in college now, but because I am on my mother's health insurance instead of the student health plan, I can't get diagnosed without her being notified. I've been struggling more than ever from what I believe to be ADHD symptoms and I don't know what to do. Any suggestions? | ADHD |
Whenever I did anything bad as a child that warranted a parent giving out to me, it was always my dad who did it because my mum never seemed to have the heart for it.
I enjoy videogames quite a lot (Titanfall 2 and Terraria are my current favourites), but my dad was always the opposite of supportive of it. In his mind there's a dichotomy where you either play videogames or you have a social life, and there's no compromise. This is obviously not the case, the reason I had a pitiful social life was because of my undiagnosed aspergers, but he was convinced it was because I enjoyed playing lego fucking batman on the wii when I was like nine. Because of this, there was always a lot of shame associated with playing videogames and my dad knowing about it. There still is, to an extent, but I'm much better at dealing with it now, since I actually have a social life and my dad no longer has any leverage against me playing.
Hell, even when I was diagnosed with aspergers, ADHD, and anxiety my dad was somewhat reluctant to agree with me taking medication for the latter two. But he does have a homeopath sister, so I suppose we can cut him some slack for being anti-medicine. Thank goodness my mum has some sense!
I do have fond memories of getting diagnosed with aspergers and anxiety, then excitedly saying to my dad, "I knew it! I told you so! I told you something was wrong with me!"
Then all the way from 1st year to 3rd year (at the end of 3rd year in Ireland there's a state test called the junior cert based on all the work from the pervious three years, 3rd year is done at the age of 15) my dad was asking me *ridiculously often* "Did you do any study today?" and "are you going to do study today?" as well as asking to test me on whatever I'd studied. Studying was a massive source of stress for me, and things got so bad that I was having actual nightmares, where the scary part was my dad asking me about study. 3rd year was a year of intervention for me, because I was truly going down a dark path in terms of mental health. I was shutting myself in the bathroom at school just to relieve myself of the anxiety, I would play games on my phone in there just to help calm me down (and of course I can never open up about that since my dad would just use it as anti-screen fuel), and if the teacher found i was missing from class for too long, they'd alert the principal and he would call my parents, then they would call me and ask me to come out of the bathroom. My parents got me a lot of help that year, and for that I'm grateful. I still take medication for anxiety and ADHD to this day, and don't see myself stopping any time soon. Anyway, my dad stopped pressing me about study so much because *my counsellor told him to.*
This shouldn't be interpreted as me being spiteful towards my dad, he was an absolute tryhard when he did his junior cert (which he often brought up to justify pressuring me) and I'm his first child, so he still had a lot to learn at that point.
As a result of all this, the very sound of my dad's voice in the present day still always puts me on the brink of a sensory overload. I'm now 17, and even in regular day-to-day conversations his voice just stresses me the hell out. The worst is when he asks me in the morning, "do you have a plan for today?", because it triggers flashbacks to when that sentence meant only one thing (study), but in the present he actually just wants to know if I'm going to cut the grass or something. | aspergers |
Hey. New to this sub. I saw tons of tiktoks talking about ADHD recently and I know some might feel like 'not one of these kids who assume they're mentally ill again'. It's not that I can relate to all of them but most of them, perhaps?
My mom told me that when I was a child, I wasn't really an active child but I zoned out a lot. I was a curious kid, always asking a lot of stuffs but had trouble making friends. I could say that I behaved nicely, but there were times when I did impulsive amd questionable things but hey every kid did that right? Honestly, I don't remember much of my childhood so I can't say more on that.
The comment about how I always zone out sticks until today. Sometimes when people are talking to me, I could listen to them clearly but my brain gets way too distracted from actually looking and listening at them, and so my eyes wander around looking the other way. I did eventually respond to them usually but it takes some time to process. And my thoughts process are so god damn random like I could jump from thinking about history of different kind of eras eg from ancient egypt to greeks to hellenistic to hindus to the islamic age till the modern age. People of whom I told this thought I was smart or diligent, but it's more of my brain being distracted and having too many questions to be answered.
However, it doesn't mean that I am constantly reading random stuffs. Sometimes especially when I'm having a break down, things get worse because I tend to think of random traumatic experiences that are unrelated and finally blame it all onto myself. It's weird how me just thinking about my ex friend eventually led me into a crying mess who assumes that every loses and defeats including school related stuffs came down from myself. Or maybe that's just someone's normal thoughts process..?
And I can't seem to write or talk straight to the point. I get distracted while talking that I ended up telling unrelated information whenever I need to tell someone something. Like this post lol.
There are times when I can't shut my mind. Not that I'm overthinking (nowadays I'm not but before, yes. I was diagnosed with MDD but now I've recovered) but mostly it's just my brain constantly thinking about random bullshits or asking me to do spontaneous actions like making weird sounds, jumping around, wiggling my entire body, annoying my cats, and etc. I can also be a bit impulsive. Not on the online shopping department (perhaps) but it's more of other decision making related things like 'should I do that? Hell yea I'll do it because I think it's cool I wanna try that'. They're not really dangerous per se but will usually shock my friends and family. In terms of emotions, it's more of me jumping from feeling happy to sad to happy to sad to sometimes angry. I can easily change my mood after having a breakdown and be like damn did I really feel sad because of that?
I also have problem staying committed to my work and schedule. I like participating in uni or external programs but in the end I feel the intense urge to bail myself out because I don't make any progress. I keep procrastinating from completing my works. The less it requries me to work on, the more I'll leave it to be done a few hours before the deadline. And this is where my biggest problem is right now. I want to be able to commit, to be responsible and reliable but I am not consistent. I withdraw myself from others a lot. I tried joining NGOs and uni clubs but my dedication to them are goddamned limited and it changes from time to time. Another thing is I keep changing my future career goals. It seems like everything I tell my friends of my future goals will always change. Like ALWAYS change every week or month. It's tiresome because I wish I could stick with one goal, but I can't. I keep making new goals, new targets but none of them don't work out. Sometimes I want to be a historian, the other times legal advisor, but then a lawyer, and then the next day I wanna be an environmental activist, modern farmer, a normadic traveller, a journalist, a librarian yada yada yada. In the end I have no idea what I want. But deep inside I know that what I wish for the most is just a comfortable life in a small town in the mountains (again, unrelated bullshit).
And it's not just dreams. I can't commit to the friendships I've made. I have tons of friends but it drains me a lot to talk with them. I keep making new friendship that I end up with me not responding....shit, ik. I'm a terrible person. Same goes to dating life. I fall too hard and too fast for someone but I can get over them faster than lightening. Idk if it's an ADHD symptom...sorry. Might be just a problem that I have. And of course my room is a mess. Nowadays I feel like the most irresponsible person ever.
Another thing is, ever since I was a kiddo, I couldn't barely finish reading a book. Like, when everyone was talking about how much they enjoyed reading as a kid, I can't relate to them. Everytime I tried reading I got way too excited > anxiety > distracted > not being able to finish yet another book. There are books I've managed to finish but they're rare occasions. I've always questioned this. Why can't I be like someone else? Who do I get anxious when I'm too excited while I'm reading a book? I can't seem to focus because my excitement will lead me to read another books/articles instead. Like dude finish the book first. At least a chapter! I frequently get bored from reading the same book but weirdly enough I can handle reading fanfictions. But only if they're not more than 70,000 words haha or else I'll either start feeling bored or judging the entire plot.
Based on what I wrote, do you guys think that I should get myself diagnosed? Or am I just lazy and uncommitted hence needing more motivation to stay persevere ? | ADHD |
I can listen to the same song for awhile. I’ve been wondering if this Is an Aspergers thing or something everyone does? | aspergers |
I think ita a combination of a lot of things. I'm back on meds after years off and we have it dialed in, I have a new job that I LOVE (full-time building sub for 6-8 grade and the kids LOVE me), I have a great girlfriend, and I'm finishing my educators license in the next year or so to become a full-time middle school teacher.
I'm honestly fighting back tears right now because I did not know it was possible to be this happy with myself and my life after feeling bad for SUCH A LONG TIME.
I really think things are looking up for ol' Starstalk! | ADHD |
I’ve constantly had ocd which developed around 3 years ago, started off small now i tend to struggle everyday. A little bit of detail of what sort of ocd i go through and if i could get any tips would be a major help.
I tend watch or listen to something and have to keep replaying it or focusing on every detail until it feels right or i feel 100% about it. If i cant remember a certain aspect of a video or something I cant move past it i have to go back and check to make sure i saw it the way i did and i cant seem to get past getting anxious having to go back and analyze whatever im stuck on for the day (seems to always find something new) and then could last hours or checking and rechecking whenever i can’t remember it exactly or im unsure. If i try sitting in doubt or the unkown (ERP THERAPY) i find it impossible , the anxiety and need to do things is almost inevitable otherwise i cant move on.
This is very broad, it’s a lot
More specific sometimes but i just thought i could get some advice on how to push past , doubt, the unknown and the constant need to clarify or go back because it is absolutely crippling.
Any help would be greatly appreciated as im continuing to struggle. | OCD |
I'm an African male 31. After watching and reading the comments under this [video](https://youtu.be/arj7oStGLkU) about procrastination, I recently discovered that I might have ADHD. I've fallen on hard times as usual and don't have insurance. How my life ended up this way is a story for another day. I did, however, take a lot of online tests to confirm it.
My questions, however, center around reminders from superiors at work. I always find myself struggling to start a task of kind and size. I need so much motivation to do the simplest and mudane tasks. This is why I ended up pursuing a career in design. But I always felt pushed around because I wasn't getting stuff done. I genuinely believe my boss wanted the best for me and was constantly giving reminders. It helped to some level. But I concluded the likes to micromanage. I didn't know I had ADHD, so I wondered how other people felt about this and their experiences. | ADHD |
(31M) here, I joined this sub during a desperate period in my life. I felt trapped, without hope and was struggling to get through the day. Life seemed hopeless and I needed to be rescued. I have listened to all of your advice, I have absorbed what you all have projected and I have felt the love and support from this community. With therapy, meds and this community I am at a stage now of experiencing this miracle they call "peace". Thank you everyone, you all rock and have made such a huge difference. Peace out folks :) I love you all :)
PS...Recovery is possible!!!! I'm living PROOF! | OCD |
Every night I struggle to go to sleep due to the fear of closing my eye and having a flash back. I am on heavy sleeping pills, CBD and melatonin which I take every night. That’s not the problem, I could sleep if I wasn’t so scared but every time I close my eyes it is a guaranteed flash back I have to suffer through again. Does anyone else struggle with this. | ptsd |
Hey folks,
I need your advice on something.
Me (neurotypical) and my best friend are having regular study sessions. He's got ADHD and really has trouble focusing on his uni work. He's been struggling all through secondary school as well, had to repeat a year and I think he's a bit in the mindset of 'I'm gonna fail anyways'. So I want to support him and help him, but because I don't have ADHD, I'm not sure how exactly.
We're already taking frequent breaks (about every 20-30 minutes), where we do something active like rope skipping, cleaning or taking a walk. Sometimes we watch an episode of Friends. We're studying downstairs at the kitchen table, I think that helps as well. The thing is, he has to catch up on a lot of video lectures, which is obviously quite boring, so he still gets distracted easily.
Do you guys have any tips on studying? And how I can support him in general with his academic journey?
Thank you <3
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Luzie | ADHD |
After a panic attack I feel like I’m in a dream like state, everything feels so weird. Even while writing this I’m so confused. Anyways, now I’m scared that I might harm someone in this state I’m in. It feels like I have no control over myself but at the same time I do, it’s really confusing. I feel like a whole different person and have felt like this for a while now. Wondering if anyones going thru the same rn? | OCD |
Disclaimer : I’m not looking for a diagnosis or seeking medical advice.
I have been diagnosed with OCD for a while now, less than a year, by a psychiatrist who I’ve been seeing for 6 years now.
In the past I’ve been denying that I have some compulsions, which are very minimal ( locking door for example) in fear of being diagnosed with OCD since my aunt had it and it severely impacted her life to the point of total isolation.
I was « diagnosed » with social anxiety before by a therapist because I used to feel like I « could hear » people’s thoughts about me (they keep repeating in my mind like « they’re laughing at you » « you look so dumb »..) . I ruminate about my daily embarrassments especially at night, and my past embarrassing moments to the point that I make sudden loud noises (seem like a tic) to silence the thoughts.
I used to have panic attacks, being convinced that I’m dying, being convinced that I have some illnesses even when doctors said I don’t. I’ve recently had some guilt ruminations so bad they make me shake and feel nauseous . I have had some confession compulsions recently. Intrusive thoughts of sexual nature have been present since I was a child . Some contamination obsessions were triggered mostly after the start of the pandemic. I also sometimes fixate on a certain thing that bothers me (for example someone’s bare feet moving) and I might get irritated (even physically) . Oh and when I’m studying, if I do not understand something it’s so hard for me to skip it, I’ll even spend entire days on it. Getting rid of objects isn’t easy for me although it isn’t hoarding, I could still get rid of it eventually.
The doctor diagnosed me based on what I thought was social anxiety and the guilt ruminations only (i haven’t mentioned the other stuff)
The reason I’m writing this is because I’ve always been in denial of my OCD and yesterday , in mental health class (medschool) we’ve been taught about OCD and honestly I’ve never related less . I know what we’ve been taught is fairly superficial since we’re not psychiatrists…but almost like none of it applies to me.
I want to know if things I’ve mentionned above are the things you’ve been diagnosed for too.. | OCD |
i never really linked this to OCD in the past, but i’ve noticed that for years i have a tendency to keep things that no longer serves me—due to the slight chance i’ll need it again in the future. for example, if i stumble upon a shirt i currently don’t like and want to give away my mind will ask “but what if i want to wear it a few weeks or a couple months from now?” and even tho i have the urge to get rid of it, out of obligation i keep it. then, that shirt will sit in my closet for let’s say, 2 years. 2 years later i find it again and want to get rid of it, but my brain does the “but what if you have that style again later?” and i repeat the cycle and keep it. it’s so frustrating because i hate clutter and keeping things i don’t use.
anyone else struggle with this? | OCD |
Hey!
I am in the process of getting an actual diagnosis, but I am 100% sure I have add/adhd (and so is my psychologist).
I have been doing extensive research on adhd, and came to the realisation that my little brother has a lot of the same symptoms as me, that really interfere with his life. (Extreme procrastination, fidgeting and not being able to pay attention to anything that doesn't interest him for starters.) I feel like he's got a lot of problems in school that could be helped though, but he is still very young.
My parents however are extremely against the idea of getting him diagnosed or looking into it. They feel like he won't be able to do his schoolwork if he has the idea that he has adhd, as it'll give him the opportunity to use adhd as an excuse to not do his homework or fail to study on time.
He's 13, I'm 20. Should I try and get my parents to look into it and maybe prevent him struggling the way I did with no accomodations by the school? Or would it really be best to just leave it be for now since aside from attention issues at school he seems to be doing fine and the diagnosis may wrongly affect him since he's still so young and maybe can't choose for it himself? | ADHD |
I'm so tired of the obsessions. My OCD (diagnosed) revolves around feeling the need to standardize everything. If I'm not busy standardizing then I feel the whole world will fall apart.
I'm an avid DIYer. This summer has revolved around obsessions concerning caulk and electrical connectors. I know this sounds stupid, but it keeps me up at night and keeps me from doing my work during the day. Regarding caulk, I obsess about whether I should use this brand over that brand and that type over a different type, which who cares if it gets the job done and is the right caulk for the job? The real problems comes whether I use a product for an application that I know it won't work for but have to use it to keep OCD happy. Meanwhile I have water damage for knowingly using the wrong caulk for the job. It didn't use to be this way. I always used the right product for the jobn until OCD took over. Also, if I use a caulk in one place I have to rip out all other places to keep the caulk identical.
I have a similar issue with wire connectors. My degree is heavy in electrical, so it's not that I don't know what I am doing. But if I use one type of wire connector in one spot, then the whole house needs to be changed, even places that were professionally done (I have stopped myself from redoing professional work, but that compulsion is getting harder and harder to fight).
Levi's jeans and waist sizes......
Tying my shoes in a specific order......
I'm also a trained musician, and how I warmup my instrument and face is standardized. Something better comes along, sorry, can't change......
Some of these I have been obsessing over for 20 years, and they still give me sleepless nights and panic attacks.
I'm just so tired. | OCD |
I'm not asking for medical advice, I just want to hear from any folks that have been in approved medical trials, and how it has worked for you.
My wife has moderate to severe OCD (mainly around hand / body washing) and it has been getting much worse (thanks Covid). High dose prozac or zoloft made her either a zombie, or severe physical symptoms (uncontrolled shaking, etc). | OCD |
I've always had a 'foreign' accent (having never left home country), though I only noticed when other people started pointing it out to me (some in meaner ways than others lol). When I was younger it would really bother me, even tried to change the way I talked but didn't make much of a difference. I also never caught on to most slang people use in my country, especially people my age. At this point I accepted I sound weird to other people and understand they're gonna be curious about my accent.
But I realized that when I get nervous I straight up don't sound like a native speaker of my Native Language, like I know so many words but the moment I open my mouth I sound like I used a bad translation app, tried to memorize the translation, and forgot how to pronounce the words. It doesn't make me look very smart and honestly feels unnatural, like trying to speak a language through random phrases without understanding how the grammar works :( | aspergers |
I gave that example of the license plate but can be any other. The obsession is about the fear of guessing coincidences.
If you have had this, have you got over it? | OCD |
My mother was 17 when she gave birth to me. She and my father were forced to marry due to my grandparents beliefs. They were both very punk and rebellious and my mother never really thought of their relationship as monogamous according to her now anyways. She went on to cheat on my father and got pregnant with my brother. She would continue this kind of path for a long time. Meeting new men and getting pregnant. I mean who could blame someone so young for being a little reckless? By the time she had my 3rd sibling she was married to a real piece of work. I won't mention any names but he was very abusive not only to my mother but to us as well. Not his kid of course but he was to the rest of us. The worst of it was when he beat me with a jumprope leaving bloody welts on my back. Eventually one of our neighbors had called CPS and we ended up being removed from our home to live with our grandma and her new husband. They got custody of 3 of us and some how the youngest of us was taken by his father. I haven't seen him since.
I wish that, that abuse we had suffered had been all that I would suffer. I still have panic attacks when I think about my now ex stepfather.
My new grandpa had a son of his own that lived with them. He is 5 years older than I am. He was always really mean to me I guess because he thought we were going to take his father from him. He was an only child until this point. We all lived in a 2 bedroom house and most of us slept in the living room. It wasn't so bad though because we finally lived in a clean house with lots of parental love. They eventually built a bigger house on the same property and we moved in as soon as it was complete.
I was a bit of a loner at school at this point and didn't have very many friends. So I spent a lot of time trying to get my "older brother" to be my friend. He was still very mean to me calling me a "piece of paper" because my grandparents had adopted the 3 of us.
I'm not sure when exactly it started but that abuse started off small pinching my back side and pantsing me. I thought he was just goofing around. I was about 9 so I didn't understand. It gradually grew to be much worse forcing kisses and touching me. Until I was about 17 when he finally raped me. I wasn't getting along with my grandparents anymore. My relationship with them had grown very toxic at this point as well. They were very emotionally abusive too. So i never told them because i thought they were going to call me a slut and say it was my own fault and that i wanted it to happen because i was always hanging out with him.
We get along now but rarely speak. I had a really abusive boyfriend in college too he was always putting me down and would hurt me on occasion. He almost broke my jaw because I was screaming for help. Sadly no one came. They said it was my fault for not getting away from him. Even though I had tried many times.
Thankfully now I have an amazing husband and live a very abuse free life. But I keep re-living all of this trauma and all the bullying at school I felt with. I don't know what to do. I'm too broke to afford therapy or doctors. And I just want to get help. Does anyone have any suggestions for coping with my ptsd and depression? | ptsd |
I'm so tired no matter how long I slept before. The only motivation is food, watching my tv dramas or YouTube, or playing sims.
In a way, it's just escaping reality into the next. Pretending that I'm not alone. Pretending I'm not me.
What a pathetic ending for my miserable life. | depression |
Hi everyone. I have StayFocused on my android and it is awesome. I blocked or set limits on many apps, and in the settings I made it so that I can't make any adjustments until winter break starts. I can't delete StayFocused either.
On my laptop this was too easy to bypass. I've decided to leave my laptop at a friends house once I can set something up on my mom's spare iPhone (I need 2 devices to study). However, I've looked into a few apps and you can't make them strict to the point where you're stuck with the settings you made until a certain date. They also let you delete the app. Is there something similar to StayFocused on android?
Thank you! | ADHD |
Does your OCD theme ever feel like it's normal and okay to have? Like what I mean is I have thoughts like, “Everyone should have this and that it’s normal to have this.” Like I have sexual OCD and I fear a specific sexual thing that others are into. But I've been having thoughts like "its normal" or "ok". Is that common with OCD? | OCD |
I feel so overwhelmed by my thoughts. I feel at bursting point with my emotions and just can’t seem to find a release. My relationship has been taking a major impact because I’m scared to open up to my boyfriend because I don’t want to scare him or anger him. He said I need to communicate my thoughts to him no matter how bad as we kept falling out and we both love each other and don’t want my mental health to be our demise...
Fast forward to now, I was having intrusive thoughts that were freaking me out and he came in to check on me. Now this was extremely hard for me to open up about but because he said I need to talk to him in order for us to progress, I did. I told him what I was thinking and to my dismay he did what I didn’t want him to do, he got annoyed and said that it was completely irrational and that I was doing this for a reaction.
I tried to explain that I couldn’t help these thoughts and that I don’t have the ability to really rationalise which I think he’s took as bullshit and he just left me on my own as he got mad.
I have no hope anymore, I am on the brink of self-harming to get a release because I can’t get it elsewhere because I’m judged for something I can’t control...
I don’t know who to turn to anymore :( | OCD |
So i just started taking medication again this week after a 8 month break.
The reason that i quit was because i was starting to get a lot of negative side effects and the postive effects didn't seem so present anymore now i was pretty much living inside everyday doing nothing. This was bc of the pandemic ofcourse.
The biggest problem i had with it was the fact that it dehydrated me a lot. The effects of dry mouth are very common among stimulant medication users. But in my case it felt like it was actually killing me.
It started with drinking about 3 liters of water a day, which is not all that bad. But after some time I noticed that I had to use the bathroom more and more. And i had to keep drinking more and more to keep myself hydrated.
I decided to see a doctor for it. Since it was also starting to disrupt my sleep because i was constantly having to go to the bathroom and my mouth always felt like a desert. She askes me if i could write down my water consumption for the next week. And so i did. But after the first day i allready realised how severe my water consumption had gotten allready. I was drinking about 8,5 liters of water a day on average. I know this sounds insane because this would kill any normal human. But here i am, writing this.
The doctor did some blood and urine tests after that week but nothing came out, my body seemed to function as normal even though i drank insane amounts lf water. If i didnt drink this amount i would get headaches, weak muscles and pretty much just the symptoms of dehydration. The doctor really didnt know what to do except for reccomending me to quit.
So i decided to quit.
Over the course of months my water consumption dropped down to normal again.
I have seen other posts about this but most people say It is just a reaction to the dry mouth, so a reasonable reaction is to drink more water. But drinking 8,5 liters of water a day and litterally doing nothing to my body doesnt seem like its just in my head.
Well now i am starting with my medication again, i hoped some of you guys maybe have a solution to this bizarre side effect. Adderall has really helped me alot in the past but i dont want to have the same side effects again.
Sorry for the long story but i am curious to see if anyone got an explenation or tip for me. | ADHD |
I know its a strange question to ask people that are usually unhappy lol.
Its just when my therapist asks me when i was last happy, I dont know how to answer it?
Does laughing at comedy clips count as being happy?
Do people just have different threshold for happiness and mine is when i feel indifferent instead of feeling like shit?
What does it feel like to be happy? Is it like eating chocolate?
I think what bugs me too is when I was in grade school I was usually the happiest kid but as soon as I Walk out of the doors, waves of emotions would just knock me out. I know there are a LOT of depressed people that appear fine on the outside. Are they actively faking being happy?
I have a real hard time processing my thoughts and writing them in a way thats understandable so in sorry if this doesnt make sense.
I think what im trying to get at is that my therapist noticed that im always smiling, sometimes even when im talking about horrible stuff. In university its the same thing, always smiling. Sometimes i dont even know im smiling until someone smiles back, i get confused and then realize that in smiling. I am not actively faking it, I dont know what this is. | depression |
Ever since elementary school 6th grade I remember how I used to fake myself so bad to fit it with people and it worked wonders. I had plenty of friends and my thoughts then were everyone did this until they grew up. Then came a heartbreak and I lost my ability to fake because my real emotions were far too strong. At this point I stopped faking mostly altogether and all the little social techniques I've used up until now just felt wrong, it wasn't me, it was fake. So I started cringing at practically everything because I believe that my brain had marked those as vad behavior or something and made me feel negative towards it.
I was bullied and became an outcast and even today over 10 years later I still cringe and analyze alot or social behaviors with a very negative mindset.
What is wrong with me? Am I a psycho or a sociopath or something? | aspergers |
As far as I can tell, I am suffering from Homosexual Obsessive Compulsive Disorder, and a Heteroromantic Asexual; however My HOCD sometimes slips and is able to temporarily convince me I am attracted to men, even though I am sure I am not, at all. What kind of questions should I ask myself? | OCD |
Everyday feels like a chore, i constantly feel overwhelmed and sad, like I'm on the burst of tears. Fun fact I'm crying as i write this. I am 17 years old and i feel so alone, I do not have real friends they all make plans in front of me and don't bother including me and my family hate me. I am a complete disappointment and I amount to nothing, and i go t a grammar school where everyone is excelling or doing better than me, and I am left behind, and all i can do is just stay up at night and cry myself to sleep and just praying that i die in my sleep. The fact that I am too lazy and a coward to kill myself makes me just feel worse, I can't even end my own suffering so I have to deal with it. Why am i bothering with taking the time to write this? Because i just need help, and not 'oh its worth living' thats complete bullshit, i need a way to die painlessly and quick, I had enough of living and being a complete insecure stupid ugly failure and i just want a way to end it. | depression |
I’ve been really starting to doubt my Asperger’s/ASD diagnoses. Bare with me as I suck at articulating.
I first got a diagnoses from doctors and other medically related folk when I was a boy, probably seven or eight. Now, even then there was like a cloud of shame about it. My father out right denied it, my mum made me feel like it was some sort of flaw. School, ‘special programs’, being asked if I wanted a ‘quiet work space’ drove me absolutely insane. The last thing I ever wanted was special treatment, even for some supposed disorder I didn’t really understand. I was told I was supposed to not like loud noises or that I didn’t understand social cues, except I did. Which they didn’t like.
So I denied it, told myself it was a misdiagnosis when I was young. This denial, and many more things probably caused issues down the line. So I started looking into Asperger’s more seriously hoping to help me figure out who I am. Except I cannot relate to any of you. I know I’m not NT, but I don’t think I’m autistic.
Anybody else with a similar experience, any suggestion about other types of disorders similar would be awesome. | aspergers |
I have a weird memory, I can recall formulas or questions from years ago but when I try to remember other than mathematical stuff I am completely lost.
This can be memory of an event or a persons birthday or even what their name is. I need to fix this asap because now I am diagnosed and medicated I started to my feel lack of social skills. I want to meet new people but meeting someone goes like this:
-Hi I am "name"
+Hi I am Zvotks
+(Oh shit what was their name, okay I can pretend I couldnt hear) Umm what was your name again I couldnt hear it.
-Oh its "name"
+Oh okay nice to meet you *pauses to think of name* (Fml they just said their name how can I not recall it. Meh nevermind I will catch it when someone else talks to them)
This thing here hits me so hard that I am starting to avoid meeting people. I really need help with this please give me advices other than focus on what they are saying.
TLDR: I cant remember anyones name after a split second it comes out of their name. This is making me avoid meeting people and I need help with it. | ADHD |
I just want to die and rest. I'm done with life. Mom keeps telling me problems of hers, financial, social, everything. Yet when I tell her my problems, apparently my problems are "NoT vAlId" And "NoT rEaL" Problems. I don't even talk to her about my real problems, only minisicule ones that don't really matter, like how my sisters keep messing up my room and stuff like that. I haven't even told her that I'm very suicidal and just want to end everything. Once I tried to, but it seemed like she was just gaslighting me by saying that she's going to be sad, and she needs help, and shit like that. My life is a fucking mess. I'm failing academics, I have to repeat 7th grade, now my grades are usually B-s and my parents aren't happy. All this from being a topper. I used to ace everything, score well, make achievements.It's all coronavirus's fault. Fuck COVID.
My girlfriend whom I have liked since 2 years, she broke up with me after a month. Because she liked someone else. She could have rejected me at first... But no. She didn't. She fucking pretended for a month. I was happier then. I can't talk to my friends and I'm tired of acting nice and goofy around them. I'm depressed as fuck and I just want to die. I have a weekend to commit suicide and I will use this weekend to do so.
I'm an ex Muslim atheist. And in my country, atheists are burnt alive.
There are so many other problems I have that I have to deal with. They're a huge weight on my shoulders and day by day they're squishing me.
I don't have anything to live for. My family? Pfft. Even if they care, will my dead corpse care what they think? I don't have future goals. Life's just going. In my language, there's a phrase, 'Jo hoga dekha jayega' which roughly means 'Whatever will happen as a consequence will be dealt with'. That's my life motto. I'm just going on. Life is just going on and I'm just sitting monotonously. Every day is a different torture. I like the night. You can skip through time. It's like dying. That's why I like it.
I'm not trying to be edgy or anything. If it comes off like that I'm sorry. I'm just ranting. | depression |
Hello as the title suggests myRoomate has ADHD.
we both share a room together and are friends.
he has Mannerisms and Behaviors that are antisocial/Lacking Etiquette
he is often Restless and Very chatty, when he speaks his words they often have no meaning, and he is very forgetful.
his conversations are often very self centered and revolve around himself and he is very sensitive to Criticism.
whenever i give him criticism he gets very distraught and defensive often playing a victim.
i have been Very Patient and understanding towards him. i interact just like he is my brother.
he has Terrible Financial Habbits and Risk taking Behaviors i.e. Smoking,alcohol,Going to Clubs&Bars, bad sleeping habbits.
(i say smoking and bars&alcohol because he often goes there without having money😐 and buying smokes when he really should be saving money)
he doesn't know how to handle money so i usually Scold him to not spend. he sometimes listens to me.
He talks to his Friends including me too often and it ends up with him just rambling.
is Patience and Understanding really all that is Required towards Those with ADHD? | ADHD |
TL;DR - I was in a group workshop, and I felt comfortable asking 'too many' questions and being the most verbally engaging.
I'm in a disciplined service, and I attended a workshop for Rank 1 looking to move to Rank 2. I have been acting as Rank 2 for quite some time, as had most of the others in the room. The presentation was led by two Rank 4 people.
The objective of the session was to share insight in how to pass to promotion (there's an exam, a paper exercise, management situations, and an interview), by explaining the structure and building good habits. It's mostly a listening exercise but there are some practical and group working elements.
Firstly, I was a minute late but decided to take the front seat. There weren't many options, but I wanted to make sure I was paying attention, and *I like to be involved, but generally hold back due to social issues you're all familiar with*. I was re-assured along with the others that there were no stupid questions. To an ADHD person, that's simultaneously "game on" but also a hyper-awareness that **my** question is likely to be stupid.
I know I talk too much, and I know I verbalise everything, and I always want to give a "what if" to every point that's made. I think this is the first time I thought...
"Y'know what? I'm here for me."
I reframed the situation in my mind, and thought to myself,
"I want to pass this. I'm asking the question, even if it's stupid."
The two Rank 4 holding the meeting seemed quite receptive, and there were no issues. I scribed for the group and I helped others by scribing for group situations and offering my diverse thought processes. I distinctly remember feeling like I was OK with just letting myself be me. The Rank 4 are assessors and I was sure they would recognise my unapologetic fact finding and self-interest. *I also kept an eye out for disruptive behaviour and measured my level of questions to a point that was reasonable.* If I could ask the question later, I would.
A little background: I had trouble in college and was often chastised for derailing lessons by probing too much into the syllabus and overreaching the scope of the class by being curious. I am recently (June) diagnosed and have found (I think) my dose of lisdexamfetamine as recently as a week ago. I think *knowing* I have ADHD is helping me sort of 'embrace' it and recognise in which areas I need to spend a lot of effort, and where I should relax a little and let things happen. | ADHD |
Hi guys,
I stopped going to ERP a few weeks ago since I'm largely feeling much better regarding OCD. Yes, i still feel weird and sometimes i feel like panic underneath my mind if that makes sense. I constantly feel like I'm on a trapeze but, I'm okay.
I just wanted to share something. This one song was always nice listening to while my OCD was at it's worst. It's called "Good Days" by SZA. Give it a listen. | OCD |
i am panicking so much. i am 17 and female.
reading a tweet and i didn’t see their profile photo and then as always i worried if it was a kid and even before i could properly process it i got a feeling of false attraction, then i became panicked and tested myself, these feelings aren’t comforting they come with worry.
then i just felt this compulsive urge to keep checking and checking, i kept worrying that it meant i’m a p*do, and i didn’t feel anything most of the time but it still kept bothering me. i can’t stop looking and replaying events and trying to replicate the thing to see if it’s really false attraction or not.
HOWEVER i went to check again one last time and the results are ruining me currently.
NSFW
i decided to try those strategies some people recommend where they tell themselves they want to have sex with kids as a way to respond to intrusive thoughts. at first it made me laugh and feel uncomfortable because it was ridiculous but then i imagined myself doing a sexual thing to the kid to test again and i felt a twinge in my private area, and then i freaked the hell out. i’m disgusted because it feels like i wanted it and it was an excuse when actually i did it to prove to myself nothing would happen however this made it WORSE.
i am so scared, does that make me a pedo????? can groinals even happen to cis women? i feel disgusting for even testing myself like that i thought i would not feel anything but i did feel apathetic / anxious but then i got a groinal /:
I WOULD NEVER DO THIS IN REAL LIFE TO A KID BTW i played this scenario in my head because i thought that i would instantly be disgusted and while it was uncomfortable the groinal response made me panic | OCD |
The past six months I was off and on struggling with depression symptoms, but they never were really severe and I was self-blaming a lot for not wanting to do anything, even though I could.
Now my symptoms been lifting and I gained motivation for a week to "hustle" which means striving for self-improvement.
But I dont feel connected to my goals anymore, I feel disconnected to friends and dont want to talk to them about my feelings even though some of my friends are very understanding. Others dont seem to care and I decided to put up a wall.
I feel somewhat isolated but very resistent to open up.
On the other hand, I have been having good days lately but start feeling guilty/weird about it. When choosing between reading "Ikigai" (book on life purpose) and reading about depression, I choose depression, even if I felt better that day.
Im ok, but not happy.
The problem is that I am switching between self-improvement and self-destruction, and I am more torn to the latter.
My positive intents dont last and Im wondering what the block is and how to teach myself to WANT to be happy.
Does anyone have an idea? Thanks in advance!!! | depression |
So, to start, I’ve been to my physician and had my blood pressure taken and he listened to my heart and took my heart rate. BP was good, HR was like 78, and he said it sounded fine. But, I have chest pains every day. Plus sometimes my heart rate is 95-105 laying down. Not often, but it does happen sometimes. I’m doing my best not to let the ocd take hold of it, but I have this nagging feeling that something is seriously wrong. Because when I do light exercise my heart rate is in the 160-185 range. Speed walking puts me in the 150s. Lifting weights about the same. But it’s mostly the chest pains that scare me. I haven’t had a stress test done, I guess my question is, should I get a stress test done just to be sure? | OCD |
I have been diagnosed with ADHD for over a year now, but because I am a woman and have the inattentive type, I feel like there is so much I do not know or understand. I feel so constantly overwhelmed by the thought of even planning something. Like the executive functioning part of my brain cannot break something down into smaller pieces. I get anxiety about the idea of planning something, so I don't plan, then the next day rolls around and I have no plan and I spend the day ruminating about how I have so much to do, so much so that I don't get anything done. I feel like such a failure sometimes because I know I am a smart and capable person, but the littlest tasks, like setting up a doctors appointment, paying my rent on time, or submitting an assignment feel like monstrous hurdles to climb over. To describe how I feel visually, I feel like I am a tiny person and all of the things I have to do are this giant, overbearing mountain that towers over me. It's so hard to explain to neurotypical people why a simple task like doing the dishes feels like so overwhelming that its suffocating. | ADHD |
So my favorite thing is Nintendo systems. I just started collecting about 2 years ago I got my hands on an N64 and I have a switch lite and ACNH edition switch and I have multiple DS systems. Anyway, is it harmful to collect things if you don’t play them all the time? I feel guilty about it because I know it’s an expensive thing to collect but I find myself feeling super guilty about not playing every game I have or not using some systems more than others. I use my own money to buy everything and I was never a collector before so I don’t know how people usually react. I feel like people judge me for it though(possibly because of my ADHD and impulsive interests that never went far). Does anyone else feel that way? | ADHD |
Ive been depressed for years now and nothing seems to work.
I’ve probably got a few mental illnesses if im honest, never had a good relationship with my parents, fathers and alcoholic n my mother isn’t exactly a sane individual.
I’m 19 goin on 20 n i feel like the world and my brain is against me.
I have people that support me but it feels like its in vain.
Whenever i manage to distract myself or feel happy i get more depressed n lonely afterwards.
Idk what to do and i feel like im a burden on the people i care about the most | depression |
At this point my depression is so bad that now its harder to control my thoughts and physical actions. Im actually almost certain if i dont seek help in the next month i will kill myself. Ive already wanted to kill myself for 5 months straight and now i get urges to hurt myself. On my walk home from school when i have to wait for traffic until i can cross I literally feel urges in my body to jump into traffic and kill myself. Ive told myself so many times to get help but I literally get more exhausted every day i have to live here. Should i get therapy? A doctor? Both? | depression |
Can't believe there are people out there who get diagnosed with cancer and put themselves through horrific treatments trying to beat it. For me, a likely lethal diagnosis means the reaper is calling my number at the deli counter. It's my time. Besides, that's society's way of giving you golden ticket permission to conclude that you want to die, and be seen as stoic and brave, not emotional and weak. Imagine choosing extra suffering in order to extend your time spent suffering normally. Can't imagine fighting cancer. | depression |
I don't know if it did much to my depression, but I'd like to share my experience, so if u are considering hospitalization just ask me anything | depression |
I'm not sure if I have been officially diagnosed with OCD yet, but I have started treatment.
I have a lot of intrusive thoughts, not that many compulsive actions.
But my sister (who has a tendency to mimic different disorders and illnesses) says she has it too, she hasn't gotten treatment for anything, so I have a hard time believing her.
She says she gets physically stuck in different places, and can't move if people don't walk the way she needs them to.
I have never heard of this type of compulsion, and I am sceptical that it exists.
When I went through the questionnaire (which I have done with different people, around 5 times now) no one has ever mentioned getting physically stuck.
I have searched a lot, but I still haven't found anything.
Could someone let me know if this is actually a thing, that would be great. | OCD |
To start off I'm undiagnosed. I never even considered that I could have ADHD because all I knew about it was the stereotypical kid who couldn't sit still or shut up. A little while back I started looking into it more and everything fit like a glove. I can look at my anxiety and depression and trace them directly back to adhd symptoms. At first I was excited because I finally figured out what was wrong with me, why it was so hard to do simple things that other people could just do. I read about how people used to think they were just failures until they realized they also had it and were happy that it was something real and tangible instead. I had almost the opposite thought. Before I thought I was a lazy failure sure. But I also thought that if I tried hard enough I could overcome it, that I was still ultimately in control of myself. After I learned more about it I lost that sense of control. Now I feel like I'm just a slave to my unconscious mind and barely have personal autonomy.
I know this feeling will probably pass in time, and if I ever get medicated, but it sure does fucking suck right now. | ADHD |
I mainly seek my dads reassurance when I’m struggling. He’s only been gone for an hour, this is stupid. My mums still home with me, but for some reason my brain prefers reassurance from my dad. It’s so dumb - I know that reassurance from him isn’t any better than the reassurance my mum gives me, but nonetheless being away from him for 30 hours fills me with dread. I’m anxious about all the things that could go wrong - my IBS has been behaving for a few months but what if the nerves bring it back? What if I eat something bad and end up unwell? It’s really freaking me out and I don’t know what to do. I don’t want to tell my mum how anxious I am because she’ll tell me what I already know: that I’m being stupid, that she’s still there to help, and that I’ve nothing to be anxious about. Which sucks because I know that already but the OCD part of my brain won’t let me accept it. Combined that with PMS and i don’t look forward to the rest of the weekend.
Please - any advice on how to cope? | OCD |
It seems like every single thing I have said lately has been misunderstood. For example, I'll ask "Why?" something happened and they repeat "what" happened. To myself, I sound clearly spoken and the things I type are easily read. Am I delirious? Do I think I sound clearer than what I actually do? My lack of clarity, per se, has caused SO MANY arguments lately. I feel like I'm going insane. | aspergers |
And they mean well... But last night they came to me and told me things like "We're here for you" and "We love you, man." I'm not gonna lie, it made me angry. I've been feeling this undirected kind of rage for nearly three years, and there has been only one person I'm specifically raging at.... but these two guys who are so good... They came to me and did nothing more than try to comfort me... And it made me mad. It's not like I took anything out on them, as far as they know, everything is cool. I just.... I feel guilty, I guess. Is this kind of insane response to support common to PTSD?
Edit: I've been going at this alone for a few years now, so i'm still learning how to share. It's hard for me. | ptsd |
hey, i feel stupid for a lot of the compulsions that i have been doing at the moment and was wondering what anyone else does to know if i’m not alone ig :)
for me i have this really stupid compulsion which i feel so dumb for saying but basically my stupid brain tells me that the last facial expression i make in a mirror will determine if i will have bad luck or good luck/ if something bad/ good will happen to me or family. so i always have to smile twice (with teeth and without) and then i can finally walk on. however a lot of the time i don’t feel as if the smile is convincing enough or just right so i have to do it over and over and a lot of the time i just want to sleep and get on with my day. i have also found i now have to do this smiling thing when i walk through doorways or switch lights on and off. i’ve never heard anyone who has this and it’s so annoying.
on that note i have to always switch any type of switch on and off twice, yk the strip of wood between a doorway, i have to stand on that so it feels right on my feet or if there’s a change in surface. i have to shut doors nicely, touch door handles on the same part of both of my wrists, re read things until they sound right. also when i’m putting down an object i have to make sure it hits the surface all at once so i often have to slam things down, i also have to jump sometimes so my feet hit the ground at exactly the same time. and i have all of the usual number shite, often doing things eight times or ofc even numbers :( thats not even everything, sorry for the massive rant but i need to get this out of me :)
i’m eager to know what yall do if that’s okay :) | OCD |
Because I was diagnosed as an adult, I’ve realized that my entire identity was centered around desperately giving my brain the stimulation it needed to… survive
If you asked me two months ago what my “personality” was like I’d have to be honest and say that I was an extremely vain and shallow person. My entire life centered around what I looked like and what others thought of me. I thought I was just confident. I was actually desperate for any human attention that would hit my brain with that sweet sweet dopamine it needed so badly.
If I didn’t get attention (particularly from men), I would fall so deeply depressed because I viewed other people’s opinion of me as directly linked to my worth as a human. For example (and I am NOT saying this is the same for anyone else, it was just this way for me personally); I spent hours everyday doing my makeup and hair just to take selfies to post on Reddit, Instagram, Facebook, anything. I started an Onlyfans and rose to the top 7% in a week because the external validation from men boosted my self worth so much that I threw myself into making content and changing myself for every individual fan so I was their favorite creator. I spent hundreds and hundreds of dollars on fake nails, makeup, hair extensions, fake-tanning, expensive name brand clothes, etc, because having those things made me so “happy” and made me feel like I could accomplish anything. It got to the point where I was spending 3 hours a day just upkeeping my fake tan (god it looked awful) because I was ashamed of my pale skin because I didn’t get as many compliments when I was pale.
And then there was the extreme Bulimia. I would eat and eat and eat to feel the stimulation in my brain that I needed to survive and then throw it all up because eventually… throwing up released the same feelings. I was “cheating”. I was eating everything I wanted (and even what I didn’t want because I could just not stop) and not gaining any weight. I was binging/purging 12 times a day, at least. I have recently learned that bulimia is comorbid with ADHD. No matter how many times I’d attempt recovery, it was just impossible.
On the outside, I had my shit together. Other women would tell me how much they admired me and my “dedication” to fitness and nutrition. I even got myself certified as a personal trainer and sports nutritionist so I could “help” other women be just like me. I was so deluded in my own fantasy of perfection that I really thought I was happy.
Eventually, the things that brought me all of that dopamine previously, got harder and harder to produce so I tried harder and harder to be “the perfect woman”. Well. I crashed. Hard. I had kept this charade up since I was 13 (26 now) and I really thought it was just who I was. When I went to the doctor and got diagnosed and medicated… I had NO IDEA how much my actual personality, my life, my identity, would change.
I’ve been medicated for about 2 months and I haven’t purged since the day I took my first pill. I find myself wondering what to do with myself with all of this extra time that I now have because my makeup routine went down to a 20 minute ordeal instead of 2 hours. I haven’t had even the desire to binge/purge, spend obscene amounts of money that I didn’t have, seek attention or validation from anyone except my loved ones, or seek sexual gratification from anyone except my husband… in *weeks*. The change wasn’t instant but yesterday I looked in the mirror and I unexpectedly burst into tears. I didn’t even recognize myself. Who is this girl smiling back at me? Am I… worthy? Am I… me?
I have interests now: I paint, I write, I make tiktoks that DONT display my body, I read. Do you know how long it’s been since I was able to sit down and read a book? I can’t even remember… I realize now how much I want to help others who are struggling in the same way and I’m putting my effort into doing just that. ***And it’s working***. I’m not perfect or cured or any of that, by any means. But yesterday, the second I looked deep into my own eyes, I felt…*seen* by *myself*. I finally saw myself and how beautiful I am, on the inside.
I even deleted my Only Fans yesterday, not because I was ashamed of my work (and NO ONE should be. Sex work is work, regardless of the reason you’re doing it), but because I didn’t need it anymore to feel worthy to exist and it no longer brought positivity to my life. I just… finally feel like someone I have wanted to be since I was a child. And I really think if I could got back in time and meet my 5 year old self, she would be really proud of me.
Thank you for reading | ADHD |
Practice 20 minutes of yoga daily, stay consistent and thank me later. | OCD |
I jokeling opened up in the department about the new diagnosis of ptsd and they assumed it was my PhD. My PhD subject (the toughness in it) to be more precise.
I don’t want to tell them “no, actually it is my upbringing and now that I got a safe place I just keep slowly decompressing and realising.” ahaha ha ha super funny.
Also, can a person without ptsd get that affected to the point of trauma that gets you nonfunctional just from tough study/work subject, especially given how understanding the PI is and all other things one has to do? I don’t think so, unpleasant yes, frustrating, depressive, stressful and exhausting, not the kind of things I had growing up. Do they really think me that fragile that I would be burnt out depressive bed ridden for that? | ptsd |
I don’t eat with my hands due to my ocd. My worry is not about germs, it’s about DNA and other things. Is it possible to clean everything from your hands? Even if there are traces that is a major fear to me. Hope I don’t seem too weird but this is something I want to get over and it’s fucking with my well being real bad. | OCD |
im struggling so much with pocd at the moment im 16 years old and have a six year old sister im always so scared when im near her because i dont wanna touch her wrong i get so terrified by the thoughts it causes me to cry myself to sleep. Today i was sitting down at the dining room table talking to my mom and im scared i accidently touched her wrong she was near my leg and im scared that my leg touched her private part i got so upset and i thought to myself its ok you didnt touch her private part im sure it was just her legs you didnt mean to so then i looked at her up and down and my leg to make sure i didnt touch her wrong and because of that my brain is telling me that i am a you know what when i know im not a pedophile im really not im so annoyed by my brain i dont have a therapist for my ocd and dont have anyone to talk to about this i feel so alone. :( | OCD |
Please take a look at this 5 minute YouTube animation which explains why we have nightmares after trauma, and how to stop them. Please share and comment on what you think - this is the culmination of 6 years PhD work with military veterans https://youtu.be/lv38dzpcxfA | ptsd |
I’m really just looking for advice or the point of view of people who struggle with ocd, specifically intrusive thoughts.
My kid has been dealing with anxiety since she was 9 and we saw a therapist during that time.
Then 2020 happened. During lockdown we went through a major life change. My husband retired after 20 years in the military. We left Washington state, moved with California and lived with my in-laws for a while, then bought a home and moved again. All through that she remained in virtual learning.
During that time her intrusive thoughts got worse and we started seeing a therapist again. The therapist recommended after a few months that we see a psychiatrist. We just had the appointment and she’s been prescribed 10 mg of Prozac and continued therapy.
I’ve never dealt with something like this before and I’m so nervous about if I’m doing the right thing. I just know she’s struggling all the time.
Any advice or opinions are welcome. | OCD |
I don't use reddit regularly, so please forgive me for any mistakes. I (21F) was diagnosed with ADHD combined presentation today and prescribed with Ritalin (Adderall isn't legal where I'm from). The psychiatrist told me I have a severe case of ADHD, and it's not like I found it celebratory or anything but it just felt so relieving to finally know that there's a reason why I'm the way that I am.
But almost nobody I've told seems to believe my diagnosis. I guess I've learned to mask my symptoms so well my entire life that now no one is buying it, and it feels very frustrating and invalidating to be told things like "there's no way you have adhd" when all I want is some support.
For my entire life I've struggled with inattentiveness, impulsivity, and incessant fidgeting, but I was told by the doctor that my hyperactivity manifests in small, motor movements that easily go undetected by anyone else. And I think the same sort of pattern exists for all my other symptoms - they manifest in ways that virtually no one else has picked up on, even if they feel so debilitating to me.
I've managed to do well academically my entire life, so people look at me and think there's no way I'm struggling. "You can spend hours just doing class readings, I could never do that!" they tell me, but I only spend so many hours reading the assigned readings because I can never focus enough the first time around. Or the second. Or third, fourth.
I'm "successful" but I work ten times as hard as my peers and it's exhausting to live like this. I'm "successful" but I've always felt I could be doing even more, that I could have gone even further in life than where I'm currently at.
And I've long suspected I might have ADHD, as early as the first time I learned about ADHD in AFAB individuals, but even so I was never sure. I always felt like a fraud, or like I was making excuses for myself, so I never self-diagnosed. I waited until I could get a proper diagnosis, but even now after being told by a professional that I really do suffer from ADHD, it still makes me feel like I'm living a lie because nobody else in my life believes so.
And I guess at the end of the day it's not like I need anyone else to believe me as long as I know that it is indeed true, but I just really wanted some understanding from the people in my life, and I now feel crushed knowing that I don't.
tldr; diagnosed with ADHD as an adult, but nobody believes me because I'm academically driven and "successful" | ADHD |
I've realized, over the past few months. When one thing goes wrong my mind spirals out of control and effects everything (my work, my social life, my productivity). I can give a recent example:
Recently, I went on a date. It seems to be a common occurence that when I go on a date (usually from a dating app) it usually ends up as them ghosting me. Then I get into my head with thoughts like (am I weird?", "Where did I go wrong?", "Am I boring?", "Am I too dumb?" Then those thoughts about the situation turn into the whole outlook on life of how I'm doomed because I feel like my brain is broken and I cant function in society. So then I get depressed and frustrated with myself for a whole month. It turns into me feel unmotivated and not wanting to do much. Are there any good coping skills you guys have? | ADHD |
I've read that its a big deal among aspies but I feel I've been studying people's reactions for my entire life, and considering im analysing when talking to someone like every microsecond of his/her face, I'm not usually that threatened by reading faces, sometimes yes, I find out a certain expression which activates all the alarms in my head, but not as frecuent as with what I talk, my voice, other people answers.. its not at all the biggest deal of my aspie life.
someone relating to this? | aspergers |
Hey everyone. Tough subject but I went through some rough patches because of my ptsd. I blacked out and started fights with one of the people I live with. I’ve already dealt with the court and everything that has to do with that.. so now I’m back living at home and things are fine between us.
However being here is extremely triggering. I find myself staring at walls for hours, crying unexpectedly, feeling flighty, getting angry and defensive when nothing is going on. I just don’t feel like myself. Not to mention I wasn’t happy here to begin with.
I’m thinking maybe some sage could help me process the trauma mentally and give the area a new feeling. But I’m really looking for any advice as how to deal with these feelings and to help process the trauma in these walls. 🖤
Diagnosed at 13
(I am in therapy but not on medication 23f) | ptsd |
That place in between nightmares and dreams... That place where tomorrows never come, and yesterdays don't hurt anymore... That place where time doesn't exist, and it's easy to breathe... That place where I am not ripped awake yet again by the helpless anguish of my battered body trembling while my shredded heart pours my soul out into the dirt...
That place is where I want to be.
Not here. Not now. Not these demons from my past taking over my reality. How am I supposed to do this? I can control my conscious days, but nothing once I sleep. I am not strong enough to continue to simply slog through surviving this hell... Every. Damn. Night.
I am afraid of being taken back to this place, mentally, where I have no (acceptable) means of dealing with the hell that has been turned loose in my head and shudders through my body.
I understand that the hell of my past does not exist in the present, in my conscious logic controlled now. However, when waking from a nightmare ravaging my reality, every single frozen in time moment of then is transported into my gut wrenching heart hammering can't breathe snapped awake shaking in terror unable to scream shuddering reality now... without even the reference to differentiate one from the other. In the nightmares, then *becomes* now in every bit of my emotional reality... and with every piece of the manifestation of the sheer terror that paralyzed me then. | ptsd |
So let me to start by saying that my childhood was AMAZING; minus the cancer that I had at the age of 8. But when I was 13 things took a turn for the worst; I was raped by my neighbor on the steps to my brothers bedroom in my attic. That started my downhill spiral.
I have been diagnosised with PTSD from the rape and the cancer, depression, anxiety, PPD, etc.
I started DBT a few weeks ago; my therapist told me she wasn't comfortable with putting me with the woman she was training; which the way I took it was I was pretty much too fucked up in the head for a newer therapist to take my case.
I was dating a guy for six weeks; he found out that I still love my ex I will call him B just for the sake of this (not the father to my children), I'm not sure why I love this man; he is addict, and alcoholic, so I am not sure why I love him; besides the fact of I thought that I could be a save a ho and get him clean and sober. He told me for a year and a half that he didn't believe in marriage; it was just a piece of paper and he was never going to propose to me or get married to me. Well on Monday evening is when I found out my ex was engaged to this girl he has been seeing for the last year; which by the way I was still seeing my ex.
Well the new guy which I'll call J, found out on Tuesday evening while he was at my house how I felt about B; I wasn't going to lie to J about B. As I don't want to be with B, yes I love him; but I don't want to be with him; why would I want to be with someone who can't keep his shit together! Well long story short J blew up on me all day yesterday; and told me that I was so unfixable, he also threw in my face about my parenting and that I suck as a parent due to an indicent that occured a year ago.
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But seriously; am I that unfixable because my therapist doesn't feel comfortable giving me to a newer therapist? | ptsd |
So, I'm on Adderall IR 20mg twice a day. For several reasons I asked to be put on Vyvanse, it's going to definitely be the best thing for me. However, my doctor wants to make sure there aren't any side effects, so they've written a 2-week script for 20mg Vyvanse once a day. She said we're going to slowly titrate up if I don't have any side effects. I know that the equivalent dose of Vyvanse to Adderall IR is something like 70mg Vyvanse equals 40mg Adderall IR. I was really worried about something like this, because a lot of people seem to have gone through this and it ended up in them going back to Adderall when it wasn't the right med for them.
So, I'm basically gonna be taking a quarter of my Adderall dose for the next 2 weeks. Should I be concerned about withdrawals? I'm already struggling with my ADHD on the Adderall IR (big ups and big downs with attention, which is one reason I switched to long acting.) | ADHD |
I am currently studying for my Network+ and Security+ right now and I have been screwing around in Windows Server 2019 with AD as a lab. How many of you are in IT? I keep hearing that its filled with us and aside from my addiction to technology and wanting to constantly and the overall need to fulfill. I am curious to what its actually like in the field. My only real concerns are the stress and pressure to keep systems running 24/7 but I feel that thats probably something i'd get used to?
Does anyone have any advice of what to do? Am I just overthinking everything? | aspergers |
Can you start planning on hurting someone without wanting it or do so without even wanting it please answer me im going insane rn | OCD |
I'm on adderall extended release 20mg and it only helps a bit with my focus, but it also is affecting my sleep so my doctor does not want to increase my dose.
will my body adjust and my sleep go back to normal after I am on it for a while, and when that happens will the focus affects still stay or will I be too tolerant once I reach that point?
is it worth asking about different medications instead, and if so, which ones might be better with sleep?
if anyone else has experience with these issues id love to hear from you. thank you! | ADHD |
in my chesst. deep. it hurts. jut by typing. by doing anything, really. i breath to calm down, and then again i get another one. its nono-stop. i tried going to a therapist but that desnt work. AE? | aspergers |
I'v been single all 27 years of my life (Mostly because of my shut-in nature not my OCD although i'm sure that will affect any relationship i eventually have). I'v kind of passively tried a couple of dating apps/sites here and there with no luck and while i'v been thinking of starting to try it again i kind of just randomly wondered if there were dating sites for people with OCD and a quick search turned up that there is a site specifically for people with OCD. Now i haven't looked too much into it to see how legit or popular it is but just the fact that it exists got me thinking about whether or not it would be a good idea to try and date someone who also has OCD or to even try and specifically look for people with OCD to date. On one hand i feel like if your OCD's are compatible it could be something to really bond on and work on together. On the other hand i feel like it could be a setup for disaster in a number of ways. What do you guys think? | OCD |
My current rumination has lasted for 7 months and I can't wait for it to go away. Please let me know how long ur longest rumination has lasted, how often you thought about it, and give me advice if you can :-) | OCD |
So I, like a lot of you, have a compulsion to check whether or not I’ve turned off my stove/oven several times a day. For years and years I never found the oven or the stove on. Not too long ago, I actually did find that I had left my oven on for several hours after I had taken something out. Probably around 4 hours or so. My immediate reaction was “see that’s why you check”. Since then, I’ve kind of realized that like, my compulsion made it seem like the world would end if I hadn’t turned the oven off. All that happened was that I turned my oven off. I lived. I still check, but it’s not more frequently than before. I didn’t freak out the way I always imagined. Not sure where I’m going with this, not quite a victory but it was a mental shift I had. | OCD |
Hello all!
I’ve been on ADHD meds for around 6 months now. Started on Vyvanse, then moved to methylphenidate IR, to methylphenidate ER, then to generic Adderall XR (up to 30 mg now, started at 10).
As background, I’ve had underlying chronic pain for a very long time. But over the last few months it’s gotten to the point where I’ve ended up in the hospital twice and Urgent Care around 5 times because of pain and difficulty breathing. It’s not necessarily out of the ordinary in general, but the severity has certainly gotten a lot worse.
I’ve talked to around 5 different doctors (one at the hospital, a cardiologist, a PA, a nurse, and an MD) to ask if the stimulants could be causing it and they said no. But after seeing a lot of posts on here of people saying they had joint/muscle pain on stimulants I’m still not entirely sure. Entirely possible that I’m paranoid after being in so much pain for a while though.
Even in having switched to the different meds, none of it has made a big difference. It’s just progressed to where it is now. I’ve even taken some med breaks and there wasn’t a difference.
My current doctor thinks it’s lupus or fibro. I just feel a bit stupid doing all this testing if it just ends up being a weird reaction to stimulants.
I’m in talks with my current doctor, so I’m not looking for a diagnosis, but I wanted to see if anyone had any similar experiences? And if so did it end up being the meds or a different condition? The meds really are helping a ton, so I don’t want to stop them if I can help it. But I’m in pretty horrible widespread pain at the same time. Honestly I just feel kindof insane lol.
TL;DR - Having horrible joints/muscle pain and difficulty breathing. I’ve tried Vyvanse, generic Ritalin/Concerta, and generic Adderall and same experience. Anyone have a similar experience? If so, was it a separate underlying condition or meds related? | ADHD |
I’m realizing now that I have older friends in my 30s, I haven’t really confided in any of them that I have OCD. So when I get in a bad thought spiral and lose days/time because of rumination I really struggle trying to explain it’s because of my OCD. I feel like it’s been such a misused term that’s it’s not taken as seriously anymore so I just say “mental health” or “anxiety”. Like why is anxiety becoming normalized but OCD can still be the joke to some people? It really makes me shy to be more vocal about it, but that also just makes me feel more alone. When I first got diagnosed in my teens, I was very open about it with close friends but not so much now as I’ve grown up and attempted to manage it. My mom or childhood best friend are usually the first ones I call when my intrusive thoughts feel unmanageable, but I don’t really confide in my husband sometimes. | OCD |
The only planner I've ever found to work for me is a **weekly, tear-off pad planner.**
They are undated meaning it doesn't have an expiration date, as many planners do, so *it can be used off and on!*
I write my daily tasks down in my little notebook to help remember everything I need to get done each day **BUT** for *bigger/less urgent things* I make a list and assign one or two to each day of the week on **the pad**.
It helps make everything more manageable and by the end of the week I get a lot done! Anything that doesn't get done rolls over to the next week :)
I also made a *spreadsheet of my Monday-Friday commitments* (work and school) but going **hour by hour** and **color coding** each block of time so I could actually SEE my free time for planning things! | ADHD |
I'm tired of feeling like I don't deserve to exist.
I hate myself, so I have codependency issues. I need outside validation, but even if I get it, I don't trust it. I worry they will change their minds.
Because of my depression, I don't really enjoy anything anymore. I don't hate stuff. It's just hollow. The experiences are empty.
I try to force myself to do stuff, and I can sometimes, but my depression is severe and clinical, so there are times I can't accomplish anything. Then I feel more depressed.
I'm struggling, and I don't know what to do. I have tried different medications, years of therapy, changing jobs, moving across the country, addressing physical health issues, meditation, yoga, running, changing my diet. People give me suggestions, and I try them, but I still feel broken and hopeless. I don't know. Maybe it's just who I am. | depression |
Lately I’ve been feeling like I’m just wandering through life trying to get by each day. Most days I feel as if I’m about to have a mental break and lose my mind. Been trying to figure out ways to not feel as lost but nothing seems to help. Feeling so defeated. | depression |
Hello. I am scheduled to get tested for ADHD next week. I have to do a Neuro feedback or something along those lines(can’t remember exactly what he called it) was hoping someone could give me some insight on what this may entail? I have very bad depression and insane anxiety and my brain won’t rest if I don’t get some insight. I’ll try to google it later when I get home as well. Ty! | ADHD |
I just feel like I belong in a world like that. The thought of living in a world that’s ended is, I dunno, comforting somehow. I don’t think I’d miss the modern amenities too much, already too jaded to enjoy anything anyway. Too depressed to care about entertainment or hot water or any of that shit. Already eat canned food most nights. I dunno, I guess it’s easy to say while you’ve got them, but I really think I could live just fine without all the shit.
And I dunno what it is about an apocalypse that really appeals, maybe it’s the constant threat of death. Which is weird, cause I’m always suicidal (I guess that’s another benefit for me too, it’s liable to just kill me), but something about the stakes almost always being life or death, I feel like that would actually motivate me to actually *want* to live. Or maybe it’s just the adrenaline or the constant distraction of potential danger. But I feel like it kickstart my survival instinct. At least for a while.
Or maybe it’s more that everything about life almost becomes a problem to solve and the side of my brain that likes focusing on external problems rather than my own internal ones likes the idea of that. There’d be a never-ending stream of problems to solve, lighting fires, building shelters, figuring out how to jury rig infrastructure like power, plumbing, water heating systems, animal traps, farming solutions, all these things, every day something new. Get bored or frustrated with solving one problem? Well, provided it’s not critical to your survival, you can just drop it and move onto something more appealing at the time. Just move from practical task to practical task forever. But not just random bullshit you’re only doing to distract yourself, actual important things, thing with genuine applications to you daily life, things that are actually useful and they you personally will use and see continuous benefits from solving.
Or maybe it’s just the thought of finally being free. Money won’t matter. “Success” won’t matter. Your ability to work a meaningless 9-5 without wanting to fucking kill yourself won’t matter. Only wits and resourcefulness and only traits with actual value will matter. If someone fucks with you, you can just shoot them. If someone deserves to die, you’re free to make it so. And people are free to do the same to you. Feels real, in a way. Like the field is levelled. Less reason to hold up all these facades and mask who you really are from people. Not in every case obviously. But I feel like “social games” would become a lot simpler. And honestly, I’d actually finally be free to be totally separate from people. Don’t need to go to a job, don’t need to deal with banks, or governments or any of those other inescapable reactions you’re forced into, even if you live as secluded as possible in today’s word.
I just feel like I’d prefer an apocalypse in a lot of ways. I feel like I don’t fit anywhere in the world as it exists today, but my brain, the issues that it has, the specific ways it’s broken, I just feel like it would finally be able to thrive in a brutal, dead world. I feel like that’s the world I’m already adapted to, yet I’m stuck in this one. I think about this a lot. | ptsd |
everyone leaves and everything changes. my life is good but I don’t deserve it and want to die. I know i’m selfish but I can’t deal with it anymore. on and off suicidal thoughts for years really fucks someone up. either I can’t cry at all or i’m an emotional wreck. I can’t remember what life was like without this. and I just feel like i’m exaggerating and don’t have depression and that i’m only suicidal for attention, but nobody knows. I hate myself and wish i’d never had existed. I don’t deserve the good people in my life or the opportunities that i have. I hate myself | depression |
I'm generally an introverted person. Add to that Rejection Sensitivity and I often don't speak my mind or say anything in situations that require so. But then, sometimes, I feel like I finally have to speak up for myself and say something. And I do. And I say it in the worst way possible. Seriously, it's like I don't speak up so much and I'm so bad at socializing that I have no idea what the right way to do things are and I always come off as rude when I do. It's like my mouth has no filters. How do you manage to say what's right to get what you want while being a decent human being? | ADHD |
I love music, it's a very big part of my life. But i've come to the realization that I just can't really casually listen to any music.
Cause when I listen to my music I can do my tasks and such, but I won't really be able to engage in any subject that somebody would like to discuss with me at that time. Unless I detach myself from the music.
Also if somebody wants to show me some music or just puts some music on i'll be 1. Really into it! Or I'll be 2. really not into it, there's not really an inbetween. Even if I know they're playing some good tunes that I'll maybe appreciate more some other time I still just won't be able to get into it.
I'm also mostly not able to fall asleep with any music on cause i'll automatically start focussing on it doesn't matter how soft it'll be playing. Anybody else know what i'm talking about? | ADHD |
typically how long does it take to get over ptsd. you I was robbed at knife point and now 2 years later I amstill jumpy at timewhen I am agree. I am partly agree because I see the people I suspect of robbing almost every other day,it piss me of bad, what do I do and do therapist really help. | ptsd |
Hi everyone! I am a researcher in the School of Psychology, University College Dublin, Ireland, working in a team that are recruiting participants to hear their lived experiences of changes in their psychiatric diagnosis.
**Have you engaged with mental health services?**
**Have you ever had a psychiatric diagnosis removed, replaced, or supplemented with a different diagnosis?**
**Consider participating in our research project!**
We are a team of researchers from University College Dublin conducting a project called Lived Experience of Diagnostic Shifts in Adult Mental Health. This study has received ethical approval from the UCD Research Ethics Committee.
For people experiencing mental health difficulties, it is fairly common that their diagnosis will change over the course of their engagement with mental health services. Diagnoses can be changed for many different reasons. Despite the frequency with which this happens, no research has explored how people experience these ‘diagnostic shifts’. Our study aims to identify how diagnostic shifts affect people’s lives and any challenges they may present. We want to use this information to improve support to mental health service-users during this time of transition.
For our study, we would like to interview people who have experienced a diagnostic shift. We would like people to tell us, in their own words, how they understood the reasons for the change in their diagnosis, and any positive or negative implications it had for their lives. Interviews will take place over videochat software (eg. Zoom) and all participation will be completely confidential.
By contributing to this study, you will help improve our understanding of people’s experience of diagnostic shifts and raise awareness of the challenges diagnostic changes can present. We hope to use the research to improve clinical communication of diagnostic changes and make it easier for people to adjust to these changes.
If you are aged over 18 and have previously experienced a change in their psychiatric diagnosis (i.e. had a diagnosis removed, replaced, or supplemented with a different diagnosis), we would like to invite you to take part in this study. To find out more about participating in the study, please email the researcher, Dr Cliodhna O’Connor at the details below. She will explain the study to you and answer any questions you might have.
Contact Details: Dr Cliodhna O’Connor, Assistant Professor in the School of Psychology
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Thank you very much and stay safe! | OCD |
When I was a kid (about 8), I remember once being shown a video of the Twin Towers being flown into and I laughed, and to this day, even in the darkest of videos or reading about the darkest of things I can find a way to somehow laugh. | aspergers |
I've noticed that I make a lot of connections to things that fuel my thoughts. For example, I struggled with an intrusive fear that I had something called klinefelters syndrome.
I read that people with it are often really tall, and may have wider hips. Well I'm pretty tall, and I'm also a bit overweight, and some of that weight has gone to my hips. I made this connection and it made the fear even worse.
This is just one example. Can anyone else relate? | OCD |
Maybe I just need to rant and pull myself together afterwards but advise is always welcome. I’m currently in the process of writing my graduation thesis and somehow the majority of my time has disappeared. I had 4,5 months for my thesis and now with 5 weeks left and only 10% done I start feeling more and more stressed and more and more discouraged to continue. I feel so ashamed that I let this happen again. Especially because I just got diagnosed 6 months ago and I feel like I should know to track my progress better. I’m just really scared that im not gonna make it. My country does not allow extensions on my uni level unless for very serious causes, so I can’t apply for it.
The first few weeks I honestly didn’t realize that so much time had past and then I really struggled with the structure of my research. Now I feel like I have a good structure but I have so much to do! I honestly feel like I’m not going to make it and still I’m not producing anything most days. And it’s not that I don’t like my topic, I’m actually really excited about it. I told my uni supervisor about my adhd and he has been super supportive but with so little time left I think he’s gonna be a little impatient soon.
Not sure if I’m looking for advise or if I just needed to get this of my chest. | ADHD |
Hey!
So I made a new friend (23f) a few months back and she quickly told me she was an Aspie. It obviously didn't change anything for me beside get more conscious of what it implies and I try very hard to understand and learn everyday about it.
So we got actually pretty close to the point of spending our whole time together, gaming online, we would see each other at her parents house for 2-3days in a row, at school we have a similar schedule so I meet her and help her out in this environment. We used to say good morning and good night every day.
In the past 3 days tho, I feel like I am literally getting ghosted, and I'm probably overthinking but I can't see clearly in all of this. She is not answering any messages at all that I send. I know for a fact that the end of the week is hard on her and she did told me she was sick after 24h of no answer and that she would disappear again for the weekend.
On Wednesday, we played a bit with voice chat and she left at the end of the afternoon. Since then, I got one line of answer saying the above, that she was sick and disappearing for a while after I asked her if I said something wrong.
In the meantime, I see her online on our similar game, and I saw her interact with her friend stream that I'm mod of.
At some point, one can only think that it's a bit personnal even if she says it's not.
I don't want to think things that are not true and I trust her, but my brain cannot understand how this sudden change of behavior makes sense and I need advices if possible.
Thanks in advance. | aspergers |
I’ve been masking so much, that I don’t really know who I am anymore. Is that seen as normal, when you’re autistic? | aspergers |
Originally posted in r/sleep, but I thought you guys might also know what's up.
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Today's Nightmare:
I was in a highschool setting, being bullied by this girl or something stupid like that. Got in a blind rage and sawed of her arm in a public space. She was alive and she was screaming the whole time - "Why".
I woke up with my alarm, and my pets surrounding me. I was in cold sweat, and I needed to bury my head in my hands for about 10 minutes before I could recover and get up. I'm preparing breakfast as I write this.
Fuck man, I've been dealing with PTSD from childhood abuse and neglect my whole life, but I was sure I'd gotten that under control in my recent days.
This nightmare is just one in a series of many from recent memory - most of them happening within these 2 weeks. I got raped, I died, I murdered, and I was tortured. Basically almost every night.
Anyone know a fix to this? I really don't want to resort to sleeping meds again. | ptsd |
When I’m in public I get very overwhelmed sometimes and I start to get sensory overload how can I deal with this when I’m in public and I have to be there ? | aspergers |
It's all my autistic dad can think about. He's always planning his next hunting trip, or working his property so that it's attractive to game. When he's excited he shows us pictures of animals he wants to kill and our house has huge mounts of kills he's made. He took me hunting as a kid and I killed deer, but I wasn't as into it as he is. It's his special interest | aspergers |
I want to read but I do not have the focus to do so. So I am going to try listening to audio books instead and see how that works. The last book I fully read was To Kill A Mockingbird and it's a very good book but that was my sophomore year. I read about 20 pages of A hangmans Diary the other day and realized I dont have the attention for that. I mean I'll still finish the book but I feel audiobooks will be good for when I'm working out, playing games, hell maybe I'll even get stoned and listen to it. I mean I just started a trial to audibale so I'll see if I like it or not. Technically you wouldn't call it reading what would you call it then? | aspergers |
Recently my friend ended his own life in front of me and I’ve been suffering from PTSD. My therapist recommended EMDR to help but after the first session I have my doubts. I’m down to try anything and don’t want to count it out just yet, but I struggle with the whole “picturing a safe space” portion of it.
Has anyone that has done EMDR felt the same way? Will it get better or is it better to try a different method for dealing with the trauma? | ptsd |
At the age of 24 I got diagnosed earlier this year.
When I had to break off my long term relationship last year I felt like a fucking failure. All our arguments surrounded me not being enough. Not being helpful enough around the apartment, not being emotionally available or empathetic enough and not being thoughtful enough to remember small gestures. In retrospect we had an unhealthy dynamic and in many ways I contributed heavily to that dynamic.
I started therapy a bit before diagnosis and the first thing my therapist said post diagnosis was ‘everything makes so much sense, I should’ve known’ and it that moment, for the first time in my life, I felt so deeply seen and understood. My therapist have helped me realize that I am highly emphatic and caring and helped me understand how I function and how to be more compassionate towards myself. I’m still on the journey of internal compassion, but I’m so proud of myself!
I’m so proud that I recognized that I needed help and took active steps to get it. I’m so proud that I’m sticking by my therapy sessions and started that deep inner work. I’m so proud that I’m learning to take my emotions seriously instead of dismissing them. I’m so damn proud that I’m in a loving relationship and manage to express my needs and boundaries even when feeling uncomfortable. Mostly I’m so proud that I recognize and work with my symptoms instead of against them and take accountability when they hurt the people I love.
I’m so proud that I have discovered that I can be emotionally available and at ease while at the same time having room to understand others emotions and their needs instead going in defense mode. I’m so fucking proud that I’m writing my bachelors when last semester I was the brink of dropping out because of my symptoms. I’m so proud that I have the courage to say ‘I didn’t say that’ or ‘That’s not what my experience was’ when previously I just took everything on my shoulders even though I didn’t recognize the narrative.
A while ago I had a huge win that most of you can relate to. My partner triggered an emotional reaction to the point where I couldn’t sleep because it was so intense! As per usual I got an emotional tantrum and expressed my hurt, but in the middle of the night I had an epiphany. I was being unfair! I realized how I was being unfair and managed to express accountability for my unfairness and thankfulness for my partners patience and compassion and I also manage to give my partner concrete examples of how they could meet my needs in the future.
That right there I believe have saved my relationship in the long run and I’m so damn proud!! Instead of distancing myself or being hurt by my partner I realized how I was being unfair and corrected it so we could be emotionally connected again - something that I’ve NEVER been able to beforehand.
This post is really just an encouragement and a sign to y’all that you should take a step back and acknowledge the ways in which you are proud of yourself and your development, because lord knows we only to easily get down on ourselves. And if your loved one has ADHD take this post as a sign to reflect on how they’ve positively developed and grown and in which ways you are proud of them AND TELL THEM.
Therapy and stimulants have been a game changer for me and I hope you have the courage to find what’s right for you, and get that inner work going! | ADHD |
I want to vent to someone 1 on 1 it helps me with built up stress and I'm currently suicidal.
Please dm me, please only if you have 10-20 yrs with this condition | OCD |
Pretty sure I’ve been diagnosed with adhd and will be prescribed adderall very soon today. I’m worried about building a tolerance to it and losing some of the benefits it could otherwise provide over the long term. So I just want some unprofessional opinions about this.
I’m not sure what my I’ll be advised to take, but I plan on taking it only 3 days/week with an occasional week off every other month. Get exercise and eat well. I work seasonal busy months that might average 60hrs, but 35 hrs during slow times. Not sure how I’ll make that work yet. | ADHD |
Can depression make you slow at work? I always struggle with that | depression |
I really like talking to people but over the last few years I've developed some anxiety about doing so, it's really subconscious and I'm not sure how to get over it. In the past I've taken Ritalin and Vyvanse which made me feel like a robot so my psychiatrist suggested Adderall instead. I was wondering if it made anyone feel more social (Ive read that it does) and if you were able to develop those social skills to the point that you don't need the medication to access them anymore? | ADHD |
It’s been like 5 years now, but I can’t fall asleep unless my bladder is 100% empty! It’s super annoying because I keep going toilet 100+ times a night until I ended up falling asleep 😂 it doesn’t give me anxiety it’s just super annoying. F u OCD | OCD |
I had an experience recently where I made a raunchy joke, and it upset someone very much. I remember that before I said it I got the idea in my head, and for few seconds it felt almost like I had an itch that would only be scratched if I said it.
I've been diagnosed with ADHD, and I was wondering if this is an example of the impulsivness I have typically heard is associated with ADHD, or if it's just an example of me saying something raunchy in an inappropriate senario. | ADHD |
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